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               <titlePart>LOVE in Excess;</titlePart>
               <titlePart>OR THE<lb/>
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               <titlePart>FATAL ENQUIRY,<lb/>
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               <titlePart>A<lb/>
                            </titlePart>
               <titlePart>NOVEL.<lb/>
                            </titlePart>
               <titlePart>In THREE PARTS.<lb/>
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            <docAuthor>By <ref target="author_" corresp="author">Mrs. HAYWOOD.</ref>
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                  <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/haywood-love-excess/Eliza-Haywood.jpg" alt="Frontispiece portrait engraving of Haywood" source="National Portrait Gallery, London" desc="Engraved portrait of Haywood"/> Eliza Haywood (c.1693-1756) was a
                  prolific author, actor, and publisher of the early- to mid-eighteenth century. She
                  is most famous, today, for her novels and novellas, among which <hi rend="italic">
                     Fantomina</hi>is numbered. The image included here,  is an engraved frontispiece portrait by George Vertue.
                  Haywood wrote in a number of different genres, including amatory fiction, domestic
                  fiction, and essay.</note>
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               <quote>
                  <lg>
                     <l>
                                        <hi rend="italic">----In vain from Fate we fly, </hi>.</l>
                     <l>
                                        <hi rend="italic">For first or last, as all must die, </hi>
                                    </l>
                     <l>
                                        <hi rend="italic">So ’tis as much decreed above, </hi>
                                    </l>
                     <l>
                                        <hi rend="italic">That first or last, we all must Love. </hi>
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                                <persName>LANSDOWN.</persName>
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            <titlePart>The Fourth EDITION Corrected.</titlePart>
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               <head type="sub">TO<lb/> Mrs. Eliz. Haywood,<lb/> ON HER<lb/> NOVEL<lb/> CALL’D<lb/>
                  <hi rend="italic">Love</hi> in <hi rend="italic">Excess</hi>, &amp;c.</head>
               <lg>
                  <l>Fain wou’d I here my vast Ideas raise,</l>
                  <l> To paint the Wonders of Eliza’s praise; </l>
                  <l>But like young Artists where their Stroaks decay,</l>
                  <l> I shade those Glories which I can’t display. </l>
                  <l>Thy Prose in sweeter Harmony refines,</l>
                  <l> Than Numbers flowing thro’ the Muse’s Lines; </l>
                  <l>What Beauty ne’er cou’d melt, thy Touches fire,</l>
                  <l>And raise a Musick that can Love inspire;</l>
                  <l>Soul-thrilling Accents all our Senses wound,</l>
                  <l>And Strike with softness, whilst they Charm with sound!</l>
                  <l>When thy Count pleads, what Fair his Suit can flye?</l>
                  <l>Or when thy Nymph laments, what Eyes are dry?</l>
                  <pb/>
                  <l>Ev’n Nature’s self in Sympathy appears,</l>
                  <l>Yeilds Sigh for Sigh, and melts in equal Tears;</l>
                  <l>For such Descriptions thus at once can prove</l>
                  <l>The Force of Language, and the Sweets of Love.</l>
                  <l>The Myrtle’s Leaves with those of Fame entwine,</l>
                  <l>And all the Glories of that Wreath are thine?</l>
                  <l>As Eagles can undazzl’d view the Force</l>
                  <l>Of scorching Phœbus in his Noon-day Course;</l>
                  <l>Thy Genius to the God its Luster plays,</l>
                  <l>Meets his fierce Beams, and darts him Rays for Rays!</l>
                  <l>Oh Glorious Strength! Let each succeeding Page</l>
                  <l>Still boast those Charms and luminate the Age;</l>
                  <l>So shall thy beamful Fires with Light divine</l>
                  <l>Rise to the Sphere, and there triumphant Shine.</l>
               </lg>
               <byline>Richard Savage.</byline>
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            <pb/>
            <div>
               <head type="sub">By an unknown Hand.<lb/> To the most Ingenious Mrs Haywood,<lb/> on
                  her NOVEL Entitled,<lb/>
                  <hi rend="italic">Love in Excess:</hi>
                            </head>
               <lg>
                  <l>A Stranger Muse, an Unbeliever too,</l>
                  <l>That Womens Souls such Strength of Vigour knew!</l>
                  <l>Nor less an Atheist to Love’s Power declar’d,</l>
                  <l>Till You a Champion for the Sex appear’d!</l>
                  <l>A Convert now, to both, I feel that Fire</l>
                  <l>Your Words alone can paint! Your Looks inspire!</l>
                  <l>Resistless now, Love’s shafts new pointed fly,</l>
                  <l>Wing’d with Your Flame, and blazing in Your Eye.</l>
                  <l>With sweet, but pow’rful Force, the Charm-shot Heart</l>
                  <l>Receives th’ Impression of the Conqu’ring Dart,</l>
                  <l>And ev’ry Art’ry huggs the Joy-tipt Smart!</l>
                  <l>No more of Phœbus, rising vainly boast,</l>
                  <l>Ye tawny Sons of a luxuriant Coast!</l>
                  <l>While our blest Isle is with such Rays replete,</l>
                  <l>Britain shall glow with more than Eastern Heat!</l>
               </lg>
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            <div>
               <head>VERSES<lb/> Wrote in the Blank Leaf of<lb/> Mrs. <hi rend="italic">Haywood</hi>’s Novel.</head>
               <lg>
                  <l>Of all the Passions given us from above,</l>
                  <l>The Noblest, Truest, and the Best, is Love;</l>
                  <l>’Tis Love awakes the Soul, informs the Mind,</l>
                  <l>And bends the stubborn Temper to be kind,</l>
                  <l>Abates the Edge of ev’ry poi’nant Care</l>
                  <l>Succeeds the Wishes of the trembling Fair,</l>
                  <l>And ravishes the Lover from Despair.</l>
                  <l> ’Tis Love Eliza’s soft Affections fires,</l>
                  <l>Eliza writes, but Love alone inspires;</l>
                  <l>’Tis Love, that gives D’Elmont his manly Charms,</l>
                  <l>And tears Amena from her Father’s Arms;</l>
                  <l>Relieves the Fair one from her Maiden Fear,</l>
                  <l>And gives Melliora all her Soul holds dear,</l>
                  <l>A generous Lover, and a Bliss sincere.</l>
                  <l>Receive, my Fair, the Story, and approve,</l>
                  <l>The Cause of Honour, and the Cause of Love;</l>
                  <l>With kind Concern, the tender Page peruse,</l>
                  <l>And aid the Infant Labours of the Muse.</l>
                  <l>So never may those Eyes forget to shine,</l>
                  <l>And bright Melliora’s Fortune be as Thine;</l>
                  <l>On thy best Looks, an happy D’Elmont feed,</l>
                  <l>And all the Wishes of thy Soul succeed.</l>
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            <head type="main">LOVE in EXCESS:<lb/> OR, THE<lb/> FATAL ENQUIRY.<lb/>
            </head>
            <head type="sub">PART the FIRST.</head>
            <p>In the late War between the <hi rend="italic">French</hi> and the <hi rend="italic">Confederate</hi> Armies, there were two Brothers, who had acquir’d a more than
               ordinary Reputation, under the Command of the great and intrepid Luxembourgh. But the
               Conclusion of the Peace taking away any further Occasions of shewing their Valour,
               the Eldest of ’em, whose Name was Count D’elmont, return’d to Paris, from whence he
               had been absent two Years, leaving his Brother at St. Omer’s, ’till the Cure of some
               slight Wounds were perfected.</p>
            <p>The Fame of the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s brave Actions arriv’d before him, and
               he had the Satisfaction of being receiv’d
               <pb n="2"/> by the King and Court, after a Manner
               that might gratify the Ambition of the proudest. The Beauty of his Person, the Gayity
               of his Air, and the unequal’d Charms of his Conversation, made him the Admiration of
               both Sexes; and whilst those of his <hi rend="italic">own</hi> strove which should
               gain the largest share in his Friendship; the <hi rend="italic">other</hi> vented
               fruitless Wishes, and in secret, curs’d that Custom which forbids Women to make a
               Declaration of their Thoughts. Amongst the Number of these, was Alovisa, a Lady
               descended (by the Father’s Side) from the Noble Family of the D’ La Tours formerly
               Lord of Beujey, and (by her Mothers) from the equally Illustrious House of
               Montmorency. The late Death of her Parents had left her Coheiress (with her Sister,)
               of a vast Estate.</p>
            <p>Alovisa, if her Passion was not greater than the rest, her Pride, and the good
               Opinion she had of her self, made her the less able to support it; she sigh’d, she
               burn’d, she rag’d, when she perceiv’d the Charming D’Elmont behav’d himself toward
               her with no Mark of a distinguishing Affection. What (said she) have I beheld without
               Concern a Thousand Lovers at my Feet, and shall the only Man I ever endeavour’d, or
               wish’d to Charm, regard me with Indifference? Wherefore has the agreeing World join’d
               with my deceitful Glass to flatter me into a vain Belief I had invincible
               Attractions? D’elmont sees ’em not! D’elmont is insensible. Then would she fall into
               Ravings, sometimes cursing her own want of Power, sometimes the Coldness of D’elmont.
               Many Days she pass’d in these Inquietudes, and every time she saw him (which was very
               frequently) either at Court, at Church, or publick Meetings, she found fresh Matter
               for her troubled Thoughts to work upon: When on any Occasion he happen’d to speak to
               her, it was with that Softness in his Eyes, and that engaging tenderness in his
               Voice, as would half persuade her, that, that God had touch’d his Heart,<pb n="3"/> which
               so powerfully had Influenc’d hers; but if a glimmering of such a Hope gave her a
               Pleasure inconceivable, how great were the ensuing Torments, when she observ’d those
               Looks and Accents were but the Effects of his natural Complaisance, and that to
               whomsoever he Address’d, he carried an equality in his Behaviour, which sufficiently
               evinc’d, his Hour was not yet come to feel those Pains he gave; and if the afflicted
               fair Ones found any Consolation, it was in the Reflection, that no Triumphant Rival
               could boast a Conquest, each now despair’d of gaining. But the impatient Alovisa
               disdaining to be rank’d with those, whom her Vanity made her consider as infinitely
               her Inferiors, suffer’d her self to be agitated almost to Madness, between the two
               Extreams of Love and Indignation; a thousand <hi rend="italic">Chimeras</hi> came
               into her Head, and sometimes prompted her to discover the Sentiments she had in his
               Favour: But these Resolutions were rejected, almost as soon as form’d, and she could
               not fix on any for a long time; ’till at last, Love (ingenious in Invention,)
               inspir’d her with one, which probably might let her into the Secrets of his Heart,
               without the Shame of revealing her own.</p>
            <p>The Celebration of Madam the Dutchess of Burgundy’s Birth-day being Solemniz’d with
               great Magnificence; she writ this <hi rend="italic">Billet</hi> to him on the Night
               before.</p>
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                     <opener>To Count D’elmont.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">Resistless as you are in War, you are much more so in
                           Love; Here you conquer without making an Attack, and we Surrender before
                           you Summons; the Law of Arms obliges you to show Mercy</hi>
                                        <pb n="4"/> <hi rend="italic">to an
                           yielding Enemy, and sure the Court cannot inspire less generous
                           Sentiments than the Field. The little God lays down his Arrows at your
                           Feet, confesses your superior Power, and begs a Friendly Treatment; he
                           will appear to you to morrow Night at the Ball, in the Eyes of the most
                           passionate of all his Votresses; search therefore for him in Her, in whom
                           (amongst that bright Assembly) you would most desire to find Him; I am
                           confident you have too much Penetration to miss of him, if not bypass’d
                           by a former Inclination, and in that Hope, I shall (as patiently as my
                           Expectations will let me) support, ’till then, the tedious
                        Hours.</hi>
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                     <closer>Farewell.</closer>
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            <p>This she sent by a trusty Servant, and so disguis’d, that it was impossible for him
               to be known, with a strict Charge to deliver it to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s
               own Hands, and come away before he had read it; the Fellow perform’d her Orders
               exactly, and when the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, who was not a little surpriz’d at
               the first opening it, ask’d for the Messenger, and commanded he should be stay’d; his
               Gentleman (who then was waiting in his Chamber,) told him he ran down Stairs with all
               the speed imaginable, immediately on his Lordship’s receiving it. D’elmont having
               never experienc’d the Force of Love, could not presently comprehend the Truth of this
               Adventure; at first he imagin’d some of his Companions had caus’d this Letter to be
               wrote, either to sound his Inclinations, or upbraid his little Disposition to
               Gallantry; but these Cogitations soon gave Place to others; and tho’ he was not very
               vain, yet he found it no difficulty to perswade himself to an Opinion, that it was
               possible for a Lady to distinguish him from other Men. Nor did he find any thing so
               unpleasing in that Thought as might make him endeavour to repell it; the more he
               consider’d his own Perfections, the more he was confirm’d in his Belief, but who to
               fix it on, he was at a Loss as much as<pb n="5"/> ever; then he began to reflect on all the
               Discourse, and little Railleries that had pass’d between him and the Ladies whom he
               had convers’d with since his Arrival, but cou’d find nothing in any of ’em of
               Consequence enough to make him guess at the Person: He spent great part of the Night
               in Thoughts very different from those he was accustom’d to, the Joy which naturally
               rises from the Knowledge ’tis in one’s Power to give it, gave him Notions which till
               then he was a Stranger to; he began to consider a Mistress as an agreeable, as well
               as fashionable Amusement, and resolv’d not to be Cruel.</p>
            <p>In the mean time poor Alovisa was in all the Anxiety imaginable, she counted every
               Hour, and thought ’em Ages, and at the first dawn of Day she rose, and calling up her
               Women, who were amaz’d to find her so uneasy, she employ’d ’em in placing her Jewels
               on her Cloaths to the best Advantage, while she consulted her Glass after what Manner
               she should Dress, her Eyes, the gay; the languishing, the sedate, the commanding, the
               beseeching Air, were put on a thousand times, and as often rejected; and she had
               scarce determin’d which to make use of, when her Page brought her Word, some Ladies
               who were going to Court desir’d her to accompany them; she was too impatient not to
               be willing to be one of the first, so went with them immediately, arm’d with all her
               Lightnings, but full of unsettled Reflections. She had not been long in the Drawing
               Room, before it grew very full of Company, but D’elmont not being amongst ’em, she
               had her Eyes fix’d towards the Door, expecting every Moment to see him enter; but how
               impossible is it to represent her Confusion, when he appear’d, leading the young
               Amena, Daughter to Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Sanseverin</hi>, a Gentleman, who tho’
               he had a very small Estate, and many Children, had by a partial Indulgence, too
               common among Parents, neglecting the rest, maintain’d this Darling of his Heart in
               all the Pomp of Quality. The Beauty and Sweetness of this Lady was present-Death<pb n="6"/>
               to Alovisa’s Hope’s; she saw, or fancy’d she saw an usual Joy in her Eyes, and dying
               Love in his; Disdain, Despair, and Jealousie at once crowded into her Heart, and
               swell’d her almost to bursting; and ’twas no wonder that the violence of such
               terrible Emotions kept her from regarding the Discourses of those who stood by her,
               or the Devoirs that D’elmont made as he pass’d by, and at length threw her into a
               Swoon; the Ladies ran to her assistance, and her charming Rival, being one of her
               particular Acquaintance, shew’d an extraordinary assiduity in applying Means for her
               Relief, they made what hast they cou’d to get her into another Room, and unfasten her
               Robe, but were a great while before they could bring her to herself; and when they
               did, the Shame of having been so disorder’d in such an Assembly, and the Fears of
               their suspecting the Occasion, added to her former Agonies, had rack’d her with most
               terrible Revulsions, every one now despairing of her being able to assist at that
               Night’s Entertainment, she was put into her Chair, in order to be carry’d Home; Amena
               who little thought how unwelcome she was grown, would needs have one call’d, and
               accompany’d her thither, in spight of the Intreaties of D’elmont, who had before
               engag’d her for his Partner in Dancing; not that he was in Love with her, or at that
               time believ’d he cou’d be touch’d with a Passion which he esteem’d a Trifle in it
               self, and below the Dignity of a Man of Sense; but Fortune (to whom this Lady no less
               enamour’d than Alovisa) had made a thousand Invocations, seem’d to have allotted her
               the glory of his first Addresses; she was getting out of her Chariot just as he
               alighted from his, and offering her his Hand, he perceiv’d hers trembled, which
               engaging him to look upon her more earnestly than he was wont, he immediately fancy’d
               he saw something of that languishment in her Eyes, which the obliging Mandate had
               describ’d: Amena was too lovely to make that Belief disagreeable, and he resolv’d on
               the Beginnings of an Amour, without giving himself the trouble of considering the
               Consequences;<pb n="7"/> the Evening being extreamly pleasant, he ask’d if she wou’d not
               favour him so far as to take a turn or two within the Palace-Garden; She who desir’d
               nothing more than such a particular Conversation, was not at all backward of
               complying; he talk’d to her there for some time, in a manner as could leave her no
               room to doubt he was entirely Charm’d, and ’twas the Air such an Entertainment had
               left on both their Faces, as produc’d those sad Effects in the jealous Alovisa. She
               was no sooner led to her Apartment, but she desir’d to be put to Bed, and the good
               natur’d Amena, who really had a very great kindness for her, offer’d to quit the
               Diversions of the Ball, and stay with her all Night; but the unfortunate Alovisa was
               not in a Condition to endure the Presence of any, especially her, so put her off as
               civilly as her Anxiety would give her leave, chusing rather to suffer her to return
               to the Ball, than retain so hateful an Object (as she was now become) in her sight;
               and ’tis likely the other was not much troubled at her Refusal. But how, (when left
               alone, and abandon’d to the whirlwinds of her Passion,) the desperate Alovisa
               behav’d, none but those, who like her, have burn’d in hopeless Fires can guess, the
               most lively Description wou’d come far short of what she felt; she rav’d, she tore
               her Hair and Face, and in the extremity of her Anguish was ready to lay violent Hands
               on her own Life. In this Tempest of Mind, she continu’d for some time, till at length
               rage beginning to dissipate it self in Tears, made way for cooler Considerations; and
               her natural Vanity resuming its Empire in her Soul, was of no little Service to her
               on this Occasion. Why am I thus disturb’d? Mean Spirited as I am! Said she, D’elmont
               is ignorant of the Sentiments I am possess’d with in his favour; and perhaps ’tis
               only want of Incouragement that has so long depriv’d me of my Lover; my Letter bore
               no certain Mark by which he might distinguish me, and who knows what Arts that
               Creature might make use of to allure him. I will therefore (persu’d she, with a more
               cheerful Countenance) direct his erring Search.<pb n="8"/> As she was in this Thought
               (happily for her, who else might have relaps’d) her Women who were waiting in the
               next Room, came in to know if she wanted any thing; yes, answer’d she, with a Voice
               and Eyes wholly chang’d, I’ll rise, one of you help me on with my Cloaths, and let
               the other send Charlo to me, I have instant Business with him. ’Twas in vain for ’em
               to represent to her the Prejudice it might be to her Health to get out of her Bed at
               so unseasonable an Hour, it being then just Midnight: They knew her too absolute a
               Mistress not to be obey’d, and executed her Commands, without disputing the Reason.
               She was no sooner ready, than Charlo was introduc’d who being the same Person that
               carry’d the Letter to D’elmont, guess’d what Affair he was to be concern’d in, and
               shut the Door after him. I commend your Caution, said his Lady, for what I am now
               going to trust you with, is of more concernment than my Life. The Fellow bow’d, and
               made a thousand Protestations of an eternal Fidelity. I doubt it not, resum’d she, go
               then immediately to the <hi rend="italic">Court</hi>, ’tis not impossible but in this
               hurry you may get into the Drawing Room; but if not, make some pretence to stay as
               near as you can ’till the Ball be over; listen carefully to all Discourses where you
               hear Count D’elmont mention’d, enquire who he Dances with, and above all, watch what
               Company he comes out with, and bring me an exact Account. Go, continu’d she hastily,
               these are all the Orders I have for you to Night, but to Morrow I shall employ you
               farther. Then turning to her <hi rend="italic">Escritore</hi>, she sat down, and
               began to prepare a second Letter, which she hop’d wou’d be more lucky than the
               former. She was not long writing, Love and Wit, suggested a World of passionate and
               agreeable Expressions to her in a Moment: But when she had finish’d this so full a
               Discovery of her Heart, and was about to sign her Name to it; not all that Passion
               which had inspir’d her with a Resolution to scruple nothing that might advance the
               compassing her Wishes, nor the vanity which assur’d her of Success, were
               forcible<pb n="9"/> enough to withstand the shock it gave her Pride; No, let me rather die!
               Said she, (starting up and frighted at her own Designs) than be guilty of a Meanness
               which wou’d render me unworthy of Life, Oh Heavens! To offer Love, and poorly sue for
               Pity! ’tis insupportable! What bewitch’d me to harbour such a Thought as even the
               vilest of my Sex wou’d blush at? To pieces then (added she, tearing the Paper) with
               this shameful Witness of my Folly, my furious Desires may be the destruction of my
               Peace, but never of my Honour, that shall still attend my Name when Love and Life are
               fled. She continu’d in this Temper (without being able to compose herself to rest)
               till Day began to appear, and Charlo returned with News which confirmed her most
               dreaded Suspicions. He told her that he had gain’d admittance to the Drawing Room
               several Times, under pretence of delivering Messages to some of the Ladies; that the
               whole Talk among ’em was, that D’elmont, was no longer insensible of Beauty; that he
               observ’d that Gentleman in very particular Conference with Amena, and that he waited
               on her Home in his Chariot, her own not being in the way, I know it, said Alovisa
               (walking about in a disorder’d Motion) I did not doubt but that I was undone, and to
               my other Miseries, have that of being aiding to my Rival’s Happiness: Whatever his
               Desires were, he carefully conceal’d ’em, till my cursed Letter prompted a Discovery;
               tenacious as I was, and too, too confident of this little Beauty! Here she stop’d,
               and wiping away some Tears which in spight of her ran down her Cheeks, gave Charlo
               leave to ask if she had any more Commands for him. Yes (answer’d she) I will write
               once more to this undiscerning Man, and let him know, ’tis not Amena that is worthy
               of him; that I may do without prejudicing my Fame, and ’twill be at least some
               Easement to my Mind, to undeceive the Opinion he may have conceiv’d of her Wit, for I
               am almost confident she passes for the Authoress of those Lines which have been so
               fatal to me; in speaking this, without any further<pb n="10"/> Thought, she once more took
               her Pen, and wrote these Words.</p>
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                                    <hi rend="italic">To Count</hi> D’elmont.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">If Ambition be a Fault, ’tis only in those who have not a
                        sufficient stock of Merit to support it; too much Humility is a greater in
                        you, whose Person and Qualities are too admirable, not to render any Attempt
                        you shall make justifiable, as well as successful. Heaven when it
                        distinguish’d you in so particular a Manner from the rest of Mankind,
                        design’d you not for vulgar Conquests, and you cannot without a manifest
                        Contradiction to its Will, and an irreparable Injury to your self, make a
                        present of that Heart to Amena, when one, of at least an equal Beauty, and
                        far superior in every other Consideration, would Sacrifice all to purchase
                        the glorious Trophy; continue then no longer in a wilful Ignorance, aim at a
                        more exalted flight, and you will find it no difficulty to discover who she
                        is that languishes, and almost dies for an Opportunity of confessing
                        (without too great a breach of Modesty) that her Soul, and all the Faculties
                        of it, are, and must be</hi>,</p>
                  <closer>Eternally Yours.</closer>
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            <p>This she gave to Charlo, to deliver with the same Caution as the former; but he was
               scarce got out of the House before a new Fear assaulted her, and she repented her
               uncircumspection. What have I done, cry’d she! Who knows but D’elmont may shew these
               Letters to Amena, she is perfectly acquainted with my Hand, and I shall be the most
               expos’d and wretched Woman in the World. Thus Industrious was she in forming Notions
               to Torment<pb n="11"/> herself; nor indeed was there any thing of Improbability in this
               Conjecture. There are too many ungenerous enough to boast such an Adventure; but
               D’elmont tho’ he would have given good Part of his Estate to satisfy his Curiosity,
               yet chose rather to remain in a perpetual Ignorance, than make use of any Means that
               might be disadvantagious to the Lady’s Reputation. He now perceiv’d his Mistake, and
               that it was not Amena who had taken that Method to engage him, and possibly was not
               disgusted to find she had a Rival of such Merit, as the Letter intimated. However, he
               had said too many fine Things to her to be lost, and thought it as inconsistent with
               his Honour as his Inclination to desist a Pursuit in which he had all the Reason in
               the World to assure himself of Victory; for the young Amena (little vers’d in the Art
               of Dissimulation, so necessary to her Sex) cou’d not conceal the Pleasure she took in
               his Addresses, and without even a seeming reluctancy, had given him a Promise of
               meeting him the next Day in the <hi rend="italic">Tuilleries</hi>; nor could all his
               unknown Mistress had writ, perswade him to miss this Assignation, nor let that be
               succeeded with another, and that by a third, and so on, ’till by making a shew of
               Tenderness; he began to fancy himself really touch’d with a Passion he only design’d
               to represent. ’Tis certain this way of Fooling rais’d Desires in him little different
               from what is commonly call’d Love; and made him redouble his Attacks in such a
               Manner, as Amena stood in need of all her Vertue to resist; but as much as she
               thought her self oblig’d to resent such Attempts, yet he knew so well how to excuse
               himself, and lay the Blame on the Violence of his Passion, that he was still too
               Charming, and too Dear to her not to be forgiven. Thus was Amena (by her too generous
               and open Temper) brought to the very brink of Ruin, and D’elmont was possibly
               contriving Means to compleat it, when her Page brought him this Letter.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="12"/>
                        </p>
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               <body>
                  <opener>To Count D’elmont.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Some Malicious Persons have endeavour’d to make the little
                        Conversation I have had with you, appear as Criminal; therefore to put a
                        stop to all such Aspersions, I must for the future deny my self the Honour
                        of your Visits, unless Commanded to receive ’em by my Father, who only has
                        the Power of disposing of</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>Amena.</closer>
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            <p>The Consternation he was in at the reading these Lines, so very different from her
               former Behaviour, is more easily imagin’d than express’d, ’till casting his Eyes on
               the Ground, he saw a small Note, which in the opening of this, had fallen out of it,
               which he hastily took up, and found it contain’d these Words.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div>
                     <lg>
                        <l>
                                            <hi rend="italic">I guess the Surprize my lovely Friend is in, but
                              have</hi>
                                        </l>
                        <l>
                                            <hi rend="italic">not time now to unriddle the Mystery: I beg you
                              will</hi>
                        </l>
                        <l rend="italic">be at your Lodgings towards the Evening, and I will</l>
                        <l>
                                            <hi rend="italic">invent a Way to send to you.</hi>
                                        </l>
                     </lg>
                  </div>
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            <p>’Twas now that D’elmont began to find there were <hi rend="italic">Embarrassments</hi> in an Intrigue of this Nature, which he had not foreseen, and
               stay’d at Home all Day, impatiently expecting the clearing of an Affair, which at
               present seem’d so ambiguous. When it grew a little Duskish, his Gentleman brought in
               a Young Woman, whom he immediately knew to be: Anaret, an Attendant on Amena; and
               when he had made her sit down, told her he hop’d she was come to make an <hi rend="italic">Eclaircissment</hi>, which would be very obliging to him, and
               therefore desir’d she wou’d not defer it.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="13"/>
                        </p>
            <p>My Lord, said she, ’tis with an unspeakable Trouble I discharge that Trust my Lady
               has repos’d in me, in giving you a Relation of her Misfortunes; but not to keep you
               longer in suspence, which I perceive is uneasy to you; I shall acquaint you, that
               soon after you were gone, my Lady came up into her Chamber, where, as I was preparing
               to undress her, we heard Monsieur Sanseverin in an angry Tone ask where his Daughter
               was, and being told she was above, we immediately saw him enter, with a Countenance
               so inflam’d, as put us both in a mortal Apprehension. An ill use (said he to her)
               have you made of my Indulgence, and the Liberty I have allow’d you! Could neither the
               Considerations of the Honour of your Family, your own Reputation, nor my eternal
               Repose, deter you from such imprudent Actions, as you cannot be ignorant must be the
               inevitable Ruin of ’em all. My poor Lady was too much surpriz’d at these cruel Words,
               to be able to make any Answer to ’em, and stood trembling, and almost fainting, while
               he went on with his Discourse. Was it consistent with the Niceties of your Sex, said
               he, or with the Duty you owe me, to receive the Addresses of a Person whose
               Pretensions I was a Stranger to? If the Count D’elmont has any that are Honourable,
               wherefore are they conceal’d? The Count D’elmont! (cry’d my Lady more frighted than
               before) never made any Declarations to me worthy of your Knowledge, nor did I ever
               entertain him otherwise, than might become your Daughter. ’Tis false (interrupted he
               furiously) I am but too well inform’d of the contrary; nor has the most private of
               your shameful Meetings escap’d my Ears! Judge, Sir, in what a Confusion my Lady was
               in at this Discourse; ’twas in vain, she muster’d all her Courage to perswade him
               from giving Credit to an Intelligence so injurious to her; he grew the more enrag’d,
               and after a thousand Reproaches, flung out of the Room with all the Marks of a most
               violent Indignation, But tho’ your Lordship is too well acquainted<pb n="14"/> with the
               mildness of Amena’s Disposition, not to believe she could bear the Displeasure of a
               Father (who had always most tenderly lov’d her) with indifference; yet ’tis
               impossible for you to imagine in what an excess of Sorrow she was plung’d, she found
               every Passage of her ill Conduct (as she was pleas’d to call it) was betray’d, and
               did not doubt but whoever had done her that ill Office to her Father, wou’d take care
               the Discovery should not be confin’d to him alone. Grief, Fear, Remorse, and Shame by
               turns assaulted her, and made her incapable of Consolation; even the soft Pleas of
               Love were silenc’d by their Tumultuous Clamours, and for a Time she consider’d your
               Lordship in no other view than that of her Undoer. How! cry’d D’elmont (interrupting
               her) cou’d my Amena, who I thought all sweetness, judge so harshly of me. Oh! my
               Lord, resum’d Anaret, you must forgive those first Emotions, which as violent as they
               were, wanted but your Presence to dissipate in a Moment; and if your Idea had not
               presently that Power, it lost no Honour by having Foes to struggle with, since at
               last it put ’em all to flight, and gain’d so entire a Victory, that before Morning,
               of all her Troubles, scarce any but the Fears of losing you remain’d. And I must take
               the Liberty to assure your Lordship, my Endeavours were not wanting to establish a
               Resolution in her to despise every thing for Love and you. But to be as brief as I
               can in my Relation; the Night was no sooner gone, than Monsieur her Father came into
               the Chamber, with a Countenance, tho’ more compos’d, than that with which he left us,
               yet with such an Air of Austerity, as made my timerous Lady lose most of the Spirit
               she had assum’d for this Encounter. I come not now Amena, said he, to upbraid or
               punish your Disobedience, if you are not wholly abandon’d by your Reason, your own
               Reflections will be sufficiently your Tormentors. But to put you in a way, (if not to
               clear your Fame, yet to take away all Occasion of future Calumny,) you must write to
               Count D’elmont.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="15"/>
                        </p>
            <p>I will have no denials continu’d he, (seeing her about to speak) and leading her to
               her Escritore, constrain’d her to write what he dictated, and you receiv’d; just as
               she was going to Seal it, a Servant brought word that a Gentleman desir’d to speak
               with Monsieur Sanseverin, he was oblig’d to step into another Room, and that absence
               gave her an Opportunity of writing a Note, which she dextrously slip’d into the
               Letter, unperceiv’d by her Father at his return, who little suspecting what she had
               done, sent it away immediately. Now, said he, we shall be able to judge of the
               sincerity of the Count’s Affections, but till then I shall take care to prove my self
               a Person not disinterested in the Honour of my Family. As he spoke these Words, he
               took her by the Hand, and conducting her, thro’ his own, into a little Chamber (which
               he had order’d to be made ready for that purpose) shut her into it; I follow’d to the
               Door, and seconded my Lady in her Desires, that I might be permitted to attend her
               there; but all in vain, he told me, he doubted not but that I had been her Confident
               in this Affair, and ordered me to quit his House in a few Days. As soon as he was
               gone out, I went into the Garden, and saunter’d up and down a good while, hoping to
               get an Opportunity of speaking to my Lady through the Window, for I knew there was
               one that look’d into it; but not seeing her, I bethought me of getting a little
               Stick, with which I knock’d gently against the Glass, and engag’d her to open it. As
               soon as she perceiv’d me, a Beam of Joy brighten’d in her Eyes, and glisten’d tho’
               her Tears. Dear Anaret, said she, how kindly do I take this proof of thy Affection,
               ’tis only in thy Power to alleviate my Misfortunes, and thou I know art come to offer
               thy Assistance. Then after I had assur’d her of my willingness to serve her in any
               command, she desir’d me to wait on you with an Account of all that had happen’d, and
               to give you her Vows of an eternal Love. My Eyes, said she weeping, perhaps may ne’er
               behold him more, but<pb n="16"/> Imagination shall supply that want, and from my Heart he
               never shall be Absent. Oh! do not talk thus, cry’d the Count, extreamly touch’d at
               this Discourse. I must, I will see her, nothing shall hold her from me. You may,
               answer’d Anaret, but then it must be with the Approbation of Monsieur Sanseverin, he
               will be proud to receive you in Quality of a Suitor to his Daughter, and ’tis only to
               oblige you to a publick Declaration that he takes these Measures. D’elmont was not
               perfectly pleas’d with these Words: he was too quick sighted not to perceive
               immediately what Monsieur Sanseverin drove at, but as well as he lik’d Amena, found
               no inclination in himself to Marry her; and therefore was not desirous of an
               Explanation of what he resolv’d not to seem to understand. He walk’d two or three
               turns about the Room, endeavouring to conceal his Disgust, and when he had so well
               overcome the shock, as to banish all visible Tokens of it, I would willingly said he
               coldly, come in to any proper Method for the obtaining the Person of Amena, as well
               as her Heart; but there are certain Reasons for which I cannot make a Discovery of my
               Designs to her Father, ’till I have first spoken with her. My Lord, reply’d the
               subtle Anaret (easily guessing at his Meaning) I wish to Heaven there were a
               possibility of your Meeting; there is nothing I would not risque to forward it, and
               if your Lordship can think of any way in which I may be serviceable to you, in this
               short Time I am allow’d to stay in the Family, I beg you would command me. She spoke
               this with an Air which made the Count believe she really had it in her Power to serve
               him in this Occasion, and presently hit on the surest Means to bind her to his
               Interest. You are very obliging, said he, and I doubt not but your Ingenuity is equal
               to your good Nature, therefore will leave the Contrivance of my happiness entirely to
               you, and that you may not think your Care bestow’d on an ungrateful Person, be
               pleas’d (continu’d he, giving her a Purse of <hi rend="italic">Lewis-Dor</hi>’s) to
               accept this small Earnest<pb n="17"/> of my future Friendship. Anaret, like most of her
               Function, was too mercinary to resist such a Temptation, tho’ it had been given her
               to betray the Honour of her whole Sex; and after a little pause, reply’d, Your
               Lordship is too generous to be refus’d, tho’ in a Matter of the greatest Difficulty,
               as indeed this is; for in the strict Confinement my Lady is, I know no way but one,
               and that extreamly hazardous to her; however, I do not fear but my Perswasions,
               joyn’d with her own Desires, will influence her to attempt it. Your Lordship knows we
               have a little Door at the farther End of the Garden, that opens into the <hi rend="italic">Tuillerys</hi>. I do, cry’d D’elmont interrupting her. I have
               several times parted from my Charmer there, when my Entreaties have prevail’d with
               her to stay longer with me than she wou’d have the Family to take notice of. I hope
               to order the Matter so, resum’d Anaret, that it shall be the Scene this Night of a
               most happy Meeting. My Lady unknown to her Father, has the Key of it, she can throw
               it to me from her Window, and I can open it to you, who must be walking near it,
               about Twelve or One a Clock, for by that time every body will be in Bed. But what
               will that avail, cry’d D’elmont hastily; since she lies in her Father’s Chamber,
               where ’tis impossible to pass Without alarming him. You Lovers are so impatient
               rejoyn’d Anaret smiling, I never design’d you should have Entrance there, tho’ the
               Window is so low, that a Person of your Lordship’s Stature and Agility might mount it
               with a Galliard step, but I suppose it will turn to as good an Account, if your
               Mistress by my Assistance stets out of it. But can she, interrupted he; will she,
               dost thou think? Fear not, my Lord, reply’d she, be but punctual to the Hour, Amena,
               shall be yours, if Love, Wit and Opportunity have power to make her so. D’elmont was
               transported with this Promise, and the Thoughts of what he expected to possess by her
               Means, rais’d his Imagination to so high a pitch, as he cou’d not forbear kissing and
               embracing<pb n="18"/> her with such Raptures, as might not have been very pleasing to Amena,
               had she been witness of ’em. But Anaret who had other things in her Head than
               Gallantry, disengag’d her self from him as soon she cou’d, taking more Satisfaction
               in forwarding an Affair in which she propos’d so much Advantage, than in the Caresses
               of the most accomplish’d Gentleman in the World.</p>
            <p>When she came Home, she found every thing as she cou’d wish, Monsieur Abroad, and his
               Daughter at the Window, impatiently watching her return, she told her as much of the
               Discourse she had with the Count as she thought proper, extolling his Love and
               Constancy, and carefully concealing all she thought might give an umbrage to her
               Vertue. But in spight of all the Artifice she made use of, she found it no easie
               Matter to perswade her to get out of the Window; the fears she had of being
               discover’d, and more expos’d to her Father’s Indignation, and the Censure of the
               World, damp’d her Inclinations, and made her deaf to the eager Solicitations of this
               unfaithful Woman. As they were Disputing, some of the Servants happ’ning to come into
               the Garden, oblig’d ’em to break off; and Anaret retir’d, not totally dispairing of
               compassing her Designs, when the appointed Hour should arrive, and Amena should know
               the darling Object of her Wishes was so near. Nor did her Hopes deceive her, the
               Resolutions of a Lover, when made against the Interest of the Person belov’d, are but
               of a short duration; and this unhappy Fair was no sooner left alone, and had leisure
               to Contemplate on the Graces of the Charming D’elmont, but Love plaid his part with
               such Success, as made her repent she had chid Anaret for her Proposal, and wish’d for
               nothing more than an Opportunity to tell her so. She pass’d several Hours in
               Disquietudes she had never known before, till at last she heard her Father come into
               the next Room to go to Bed, and soon after some Body knock’d<pb n="19"/> softly at the
               Window, she immediately open’d it, and perceiv’d by the Light of the Moon which then
               shone very bright, that it was Anaret, she had not Patience to listen to the long
               Speech the other had prepar’d to perswade her, but putting her Head as far as she
               could, to prevent being heard by her Father. Well Anaret, said she, where is this
               Adventrous Lover, what is it he requires of me? Oh! Madam, reply’d she, overjoy’d at
               the compliable Humour she found her in, he is now at the Garden Door, there’s nothing
               wanting but your Key to give him Entrance; what farther he requests, himself shall
               tell you. Oh Heavens! cry’d Amena, searching her Pockets, and finding she had it not;
               I am undone, I have left it in my Cabinet in the Chamber where I us’d to lie. These
               Words made Anaret at her Wits end, she knew there was no possibility of fetching it,
               there being so many Rooms to go thro’, she ran to the Door, and endeavour’d to push
               back the Lock, but had not Strength; she then knew not what to do, she was sure
               D’elmont was on the other side, and fear’d he would resent this usage to the
               disappointment of all her mercenary Hopes, and durst not call to acquaint him with
               his Misfortune for fear of being heard. As for Amena, she was now more sensible than
               ever of the violence of her Inclinations, by the extream vexation this Disappointment
               gave her: Never did People pass a Night in greater uneasiness, than these three; the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> who was naturally impatient, could not bear a balk of
               this nature without the utmost chagrin. Amena languish’d, and Anaret fretted to
               Death, tho’ she resolv’d to leave no Stone unturn’d to set all right again. Early in
               the Morning she went to his Lodgings, and found him in a very ill Humour, but she
               easily pacify’d him, by representing with a great deal of real Grief, the Accident
               that retarded his Happiness, and assuring him there was nothing cou’d hinder the
               fulfilling it the next Night. When she had gain’d this Point, she came Home and got
               the Key into her possession, but could not find an opportunity all Day of speaking to
               her Lady,<pb n="20"/> Monsieur Sanseverin did not stir out of Doors, and spent most of it
               with his Daughter; in his Discourse to her, he set the Passion the Count had for her
               in so true a light, that it made a very great alteration in her Sentiments; and she
               began to reflect on the Condescensions she had given a Man, who had never so much as
               mention’d Marriage to her, with so much shame, as almost overwhelm’d her Love, and
               she was now determin’d never to see him, till he should declare himself to her Father
               in such a manner as would be for her Honour.</p>
            <p>In the mean time Anaret waited with a great deal of Impatience for the Family going
               to Bed; and as soon as all was hush, ran to give the Count Admittance; and leaving
               him in an Alley on the farther side of the Garden, made the accustom’d Sign at the
               Window. Amena presently open’d it, but instead of staying to hear what she would say,
               threw a Letter out, Carry that, said she, to Count D’elmont, let him know the
               Contents of it are wholly the result of my own Reason. And as for your part, I charge
               you trouble me no farther on this Subject; then shutting the Casement hastily, left
               Anaret in a strange Consternation at this suddain Change of her Humour; however she
               made no delay, but running to the Place where the Count waited her return, deliver’d
               him the Letter, but advis’d him (who was ready enough of himself) not to obey any
               Commands might be given him to the hindrance of his Designs. The Moon was then at the
               full, and gave so clear a Light, that he easily found it contain’d these Words.</p>
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                                    <hi rend="italic">To Count</hi> D’elmont.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Too many Proofs have I given you of my weakness not to make
                        you think me incapable of forming or keeping any Resolution to the Prejudice
                        of that Passion you have inspir’d me with: But know, thou undoer of my
                        Quiet, tho’ I have Lov’d and still do Love you with a Tenderness, which I
                        fear will be Unvanquishable; yet I will rather suffer my Life, than my
                        Virtue to become its Prey. Press me then no more I conjure you, to such
                        dangerous Interviews, in which I dare neither Trust my Self, nor You, if you
                        believe me worthy your real Regard, the way thro’ Honour is open to receive
                        You; Religion, Reason, Modesty, and Obedience forbid the rest.</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>Farewel.</closer>
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            <p>D’elmont knew the Power he had over her too well, to be much discourag’d at what he
               read, and after a little consultation with Anaret, they concluded he should go to
               speak to her, as being the best Sollicitor in his own Cause. As he came down the
               Walk, Amena saw him thro’ the Glass, and the sight of that beloved Object, bringing a
               thousand past Endearments to her Memory, made her incapable of retiring from the
               Window, and she remain’d in a languishing and immoveable Posture, leaning her Head
               against the Shutter, ’till he drew near enough to discern she saw him. He took this
               for no ill Omen, and instead of falling on his Knees at an humble Distance, as some
               Romantick Lovers would have done, redoubled his Pace, and Love and Fortune which on
               this Occasion were resolv’d to befriend him, presented to his View a large
               Rolling-Stone which the Gardiner had accidentally<pb n="22"/> left there; the Iron-work that
               held it was very high, and strong enough to bear a much greater weight than his, so
               he made no more to do, but getting on the top of it, was almost to the Waste above
               the bottom of the Casement. This was a strange Trial, for had she been less in Love,
               good Manners would have oblig’d her to open it; however she retain’d so much of her
               former Resolution, as to conjure him to be gone, and not expose her to such Hazards;
               that if her Father should come to know she held any clandestine Correspondence with
               him, after the Commands he had given her, she were utterly undone, and that he never
               must expect any Condescensions from her, without being first allow’d by him.
               D’elmont, tho’ he was a little startled to find her so much more Mistress of her
               Temper than he believ’d she could be, yet resolv’d to make all possible use of this
               Opportunity, which probably might be the last he shou’d ever have, look’d on her as
               she spoke, with Eyes so piercing, so sparkling with Desire, accompany’d with so
               bewitching softness, as might have thaw’d the most frozen reservedness, and on the
               melting Soul stamp’d Love’s Impression. ’Tis certain they were too irresistable to be
               long withstood, and putting an end to Amena’s grave Remonstrances, gave him leave to
               reply to ’em in this manner. Why my Life, my Angel, said he, my everlasting Treasure
               of my Soul, shou’d these Objections now be rais’d? How can you say you have given me
               your Heart? Nay, own you think me worthy that inestimable Jewel, yet dare not trust
               your Person with me a few Hours: What have you to fear from your adoring Slave? I
               want but to convince you how much I am so, by a thousand yet uninvented Vows. They
               may be spar’d, cry’d Amena, hastily interrupting him, one Declaration to my Father,
               is all the Proof that he or I demands of your Sincerity. Oh! Thou Inhuman and
               Tyrannick Charmer, answer’d he, (seizing her Hand, and eagerly kissing it) I doubt
               not but your faithful Anaret has told you, that I could not without the highest
               Imprudence, presently discover the Passion I have for you to the World.<pb n="23"/> I have,
               my Lord, said that cunning Wench who stood near him, and that ’twas only to acquaint
               her with the Reasons why, for some Time, you would have it a Secret, that you much
               desir’d to speak with her. Besides (rejoyn’d the Count) consider my Angel how much
               more hazardous it is for you to hold Discourse with me here, than at a farther
               distance from your Father; your denying to go with me is the only way to make your
               Fears prove true; his jealousie of you may possibly make him more watchful than
               ordinary, and we are not sure but that this Minute he may tear you from my Arms;
               whereas if you suffer me to bear you hence, if he should happen to come even to your
               Door, and hear no noise, he will believe you sleeping, and return to his Bed well
               satisfy’d. With these and the like Arguments she was at last overcome, and with the
               assistance of Anaret, he easily lifted her down. But this rash Action, so contrary to
               the Resolution she thought herself a few moments before so fix’d in, made such a
               confusion in her Mind, as render’d her insensible for some Time of all he said to
               her. They made what haste they could into the <hi rend="italic">Tuilleries</hi>, and
               D’elmont having plac’d her on one of the most pleasant Seats, was resolv’d to loose
               no time; and having given her some Reasons for his not addressing to her Father,
               which tho’ weak in themselves, were easily believ’d by a Heart so willing to be
               deceiv’d as hers, he began to press for a greater confirmation of her Affection than
               Words; and ’twas now this inconsiderate Lady found herself in the greatest Strait she
               had ever yet been in; all Nature seem’d to favour his Design, the pleasantness of the
               Place, the silence of the Night, the sweetness of the Air, perfum’d with a thousand
               various Odours, wafted by gentle Breezes from adjacent Gardens, compleated the most
               delightful Scene that ever was, to offer up a Sacrifice to Love; not a breath but
               flew wing’d with desire, and sent soft thrilling Wishes to the Soul; Cynthia herself,
               cold as she is reported, assisted in the Inspiration, and sometimes shone with all
               her brightness, as it were to feast<pb n="24"/> their ravish’d Eyes with gazing on each
               others Beauty; then veil’d her Beams in Clouds, to give the Lover boldness, and hide
               the Virgins blushes. What now could poor Amena do, surrounded with so many Powers,
               attack’d by such a charming Force without, betray’d by tenderness within: Virtue and
               Pride, the Guardians of her Honour, fled from her Breast, and left her to her Foe,
               only a modest Bashfulness remain’d, which for a time made some Defence, but with such
               weakness as a Lover less impatient than D’elmont, would have little regarded. The
               heat of the Weather, and her Confinement having hindred her from dressing that Day;
               she had only a thin silk Night Gown on, which flying open as he caught her in his
               Arms, he found her panting-Heart beat measures of Consent, her heaving Breast swell
               to be press’d by his, and every Pulse confess a wish to yeild; her Spirits all
               dissolv’d, sunk in a Lethargy of Love; her snowy Arms, unknowing, grasp’d his Neck,
               her Lips met his half way, and trembled at the touch; in fine, there was but a Moment
               betwixt her and Ruin; when the tread of some Body coming hastily down the Walk,
               oblig’d the half-bless’d Pair to put a stop to farther Endearments. It was Anaret,
               who having been left Centinel in the Garden, in order to open the Door when her Lady
               should return, had seen Lights in every Room in the House, and heard great Confusion,
               so ran immediately to give ’em notice of this Misfortune. These dreadful Tidings soon
               rous’d Amena from her Dream of Happiness, she accus’d the influence of her Amorous
               Stars, upbraided Anaret, and blam’d the Count in Terms little differing from
               distraction, and ’twas as much as both of ’em could do to perswade her to be calm.
               However, ’twas concluded that Anaret should go back to the House, and return to ’em
               again, as soon as she had learn’d what accident had occasion’d this Disturbance. The
               Lovers had now a second Opportunity, if either of ’em had been inclin’d to make use
               of it, but their Sentiments were entirely chang’d with this Alarm;<pb n="25"/> Amena’s
               Thoughts were wholly taken up with her approaching Shame, and vow’d she wou’d rather
               die than ever come in to her Father’s Presence, if it were true that she was miss’d;
               the Count, who wanted not good Nature, seriously reflecting on the Misfortunes he was
               likely to bring on a young Lady, who tenderly lov’d him, gave him a great deal of
               real Remorse, and the Consideration that he should be necessitated, either to own an
               injurious Design, or come into Measures for the clearing of it, which would in no way
               agree with his Ambition, made him extreamly pensive, and wish Amena again in her
               Chamber, more earnestly than ever he had done, to get her out of it; they both
               remain’d in a profound Silence, impatiently waiting the approach of Anaret; but she
               not coming as they expected, and the Night wearing away apace, very much encreas’d
               the Trouble they were in; at length the Count, after revolving a thousand Inventions
               in his Mind, advis’d to walk toward the Garden, and see whether the Door was yet
               open. ’Tis better for you, Madam, said he, whatsoever has happen’d, to be found in
               your own Garden, than in any Place with me. Amena comply’d, and suffer’d herself to
               be led thither, trembling, and ready to sink with Fear and Grief at every Step; but
               when they found all fast, and that there was no hopes of getting Entrance, she fell
               quite senseless, and without any signs of Life, at her Lover’s Feet; he was strangely
               at a loss what to do with her, and made a thousand Vows if he got clear of this
               Adventure, never to embark in another of this Nature; he was little skill’d in proper
               Means to recover her, and ’twas more to her Youth and the goodness of her
               Constitution that she ow’d the Return of her Senses, than his awkard Endeavours; when
               she reviv’d, the piteous Lamentations she made, and the perplexity he was in how to
               dispose of her, was very near reducing him to as bad a Condition as she had been in;
               he never till now having had occasion for a Confident, render’d him so unhappy as not
               to know any one Person<pb n="26"/> at whose House he cou’d, with any Convenience, trust her,
               and to carry her to that where he had Lodgings, was the way to be made the talk of
               all <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>. He ask’d her several times if she would not command
               him to wait on her to some Place where she might remain free from Censure, till she
               heard from her Father, but cou’d get no Answer but upbraidings from her. So making a
               Virtue of Necessity, he was oblig’d to take her in his Arms, with a design to bring
               her (tho’ much against his Inclinations) to his own Apartment: As he was going thro’
               a very fair Street which led to that in which he liv’d, Amena cry’d out with a sort
               of Joy, loose me, my Lord, I see a Light in yonder House, the Lady of it is my
               dearest Friend, she has power with my Father, and if I beg her Protection, I doubt
               not but she will afford it me, and perhaps find some way to mitigate my Misfortunes;
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was overjoy’d to be eas’d of his fair Burthen, and
               setting her down at the Gate, was preparing to take his leave with an indifference,
               which was but too visible to the afflicted Lady. I see, my Lord, said she, the
               pleasure you take in getting rid of me, exceeds the trouble for the Ruin you have
               brought upon me; but go, I hope I shall resent this Usage as I ought, and that I may
               be the better enabled to do so, I desire you to return the Letter I writ this fatal
               Night, the Resolution it contain’d will serve to remind me of my shameful Breach of
               it.</p>
            <p>Madam (answer’d he coldly, but with great Complaisance) you have said enough to make
               a Lover less obedient, refuse; but because I am sensible of the Accidents that happen
               to Letters, and to shew that I can never be repugnant even to the most rigorous of
               your Commands, I shall make no scruple in fulfilling this, and trust to your Goodness
               for the re-settling me in your Esteem, when next you make me so happy as to see you.
               The formality of this Compliment touch’d her to the Quick, and the thought of what
               she was<pb n="27"/> like to suffer on his account, fill’d her with so just an Anger, that as
               soon as she got the Letter, she knock’d hastily at the Gate, which being immediately
               open’d, broke off any further Discourse, she went in, and he departed to his Lodging,
               ruminating on every Circumstance of this Affair, and consulting with himself how he
               shou’d proceed. Alovisa (for it was her House which Amena by a whimsical effect of
               Chance had made choice of for her Sanctuary) was no sooner told her Rival was come to
               speak with her, but she fell into all the Raptures that successful Malice could
               inspire, she was already inform’d of part of this Night’s Adventure; for the cunning
               Charlo who by her Orders had been a diligent Spy on Count D’elmont’s Actions, and as
               constant an Attendant on him as his shadow, had watch’d him to Monsieur Sanseverin’s
               Garden, seen him enter, and afterwards come with Amena into the <hi rend="italic">Tuilleries</hi>; where perceiving ’em Seated, ran Home, and brought his Lady an
               Account; Rage, Jealousie and Envy working their usual Effects in her; at this News,
               made her promise the Fellow infinite Rewards if he would invent some Stratagem to
               separate ’em, which he undertaking to do, occasion’d her being up so late,
               impatiently waiting his return; she went down to receive her with great Civility,
               mix’d with a feign’d surprize to see her at such an Hour, and in such a Dishabilee;
               which the other answering ingeniously, and freely letting her into the whole Secret,
               not only of her Amour, but the coldness she observ’d in D’elmont’s Behaviour at
               parting, fill’d this cruel Woman with so exquisite a Joy, as she was hardly capable
               of dissembling; therefore to get liberty to indulge it, and to learn the rest of the
               particulars of Charlo, who she heard was come in, she told Amena she would have her
               go to Bed, and endeavour to compose her self, and that she would send for Monsieur
               Sanseverin in the Morning, and endeavour to reconcile him to her. I will also added
               she, with a deceitful smile, see the Count D’elmont, and talk to him in a manner as
               shall make him<pb n="28"/> truly sensible of his Happiness; nay, so far my Friendship shall
               extend, that if there be any real Cause for making your Amour a Secret, he shall see
               you at my House, and pass for a Visitor of mine; I have no body to whom I need be
               accountable for my Actions and am above the Censures of the World. Amena, thank’d her
               in Terms full of gratitude, and went with the Maid, whom Alovisa had order’d to
               conduct her to a Chamber prepar’d for her; as soon as she had got rid of her, she
               call’d for Charlo, impatient to hear by what contrivance this lucky Chance had
               befallen her. Madam, said, he, tho’ I form’d a thousand Inventions, I found not any
               so plausible, as to alarm Monsieur Sanseverin’s Family, with an out-cry of Fire.
               Therefore I rang the Bell at the fore-gate of the House, and bellow’d in the most
               terrible accent I could possible turn my Voice to, Fire, Fire, rise, or you will all
               be burnt in your Beds. I had not repeated this many times, before I found the Effect
               I wish’d; the Noises I heard, and the Lights I saw in the Rooms, assur’d me there
               were no Sleepers left; then I ran to the <hi rend="italic">Tuilleries</hi>, designing
               to observe the Lover’s proceedings, but I found they were appriz’d of the Danger they
               were in, of being discover’d, and were coming to endeavour an entrance into the
               Garden. I know the rest, interrupted Alovisa, the Event has answer’d even beyond my
               Wishes, and thy Reward for this good Service shall be greater than thy Expectations.
               As she said these Words she retir’d to her Chamber, more satisfy’d than she had been
               for many Months. Quite different did poor Amena pass the Night, for besides the grief
               of having disoblig’d her Father, banish’d her self his House, and expos’d her
               Reputation to the unavoidable Censures of the unpitying World; for an ungrateful, or
               at best an indifferent Lover. She receiv’d a vast addition of Afflictions, when
               taking out the Letter which D’elmont had given her at parting, possible to weep over
               it; and accuse her self for so inconsiderately breaking the noble Resolution she had
               form’d, when it was writ. She found it was Alovisa’s<pb n="29"/> Hand, for the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> by mistake had given her the second he receiv’d from that
               Lady, instead of that she desir’d him to return. Never was Surprize, Confusion, and
               Dispair at such a height, as in Amena’s Soul at this Discovery; she was now assur’d
               by what she read, that she had fled for Protection to the very Person she ought most
               to have avoided; that she had made a Confident of her greatest Enemy, a Rival
               dangerous to her Hopes in every Circumstance. She consider’d the High Birth and vast
               Possessions that Alovisa was Mistress of in opposition to her Father’s scanted Power
               of making her a Fortune. Her Wit and Subtilty against her Innocence and Simplicity:
               her Pride, and the respect her grandeur commanded from the World, against her own
               deplor’d and wretch’d State, and look’d upon her self as wholly lost. The violence of
               her Sorrow is more easily imagin’d than express’d; but of all her melancholy
               Reflections, none rack’d her equal to the belief she had that D’elmont was not
               unsensible by this time whom the Letter came from, and had only made a Court to her
               to amuse himself a while, and then suffer her to fall a Sacrifice to his Ambition,
               and feed the Vanity of her Rival; a just Indignation now open’d the Eyes of her
               Understanding, and considering all the Passages of the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s
               Behaviour, she saw a thousand Things which told her, his Designs on her were far
               unworthy of the Name of Love. None that were ever touch’d with the least of those
               Passions which agitated the Soul of Amena, can believe they would permit Sleep to
               enter her Eyes: But if Grief and Distraction kept her from repose; Alovisa had too
               much Business on her Hands to enjoy much more; She had promis’d Amena to send for her
               Father, and the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and found there were not too many
               Moments before Morning, to contrive so many different forms of Behaviour, as should
               deceive ’em all three, compleat the Ruin of her Rival, and engage the Addresses of
               her Lover; as soon as she thought it a proper Hour, she dispatch’d a Messenger to
               Count D’elmont, and another to Monsieur Sanseverin,<pb n="30"/> who full of Sorrow as he
               was, immediately obey’d her Summons. She receiv’d him in her Dressing-room, and with
               a great deal of feign’d Trouble in her Countenance, accosted him in this manner. How
               hard is it, said she, to dissemble Grief, and in spite of all the Care, which I doubt
               not you have taken to conceal it, in consideration of your own, and Daughter’s
               Honour, I too plainly perceive it in your Face to imagine that my own is hid: How,
               Madam, cry’d the impatient Father, (then giving a loose to his Tears) are you
               acquainted then with my Misfortune? Alas, answer’d she, I fear by the Consequences
               you have been the last to whom it has been reveal’d. I hop’d that my Advice, and the
               daily Proofs the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> gave your Daughter of the little regard
               he had for her, might have fir’d her to a generous Disdain, and have a thousand
               Pardons to ask of you for Breach of Friendship, in concealing an Affair so requisite
               you should have known: Oh! Madam resum’d he, interrupting her, I conjure you make no
               Apologies for what is past, I know too well the greatness of your goodness, and the
               favour you have always been pleas’d to Honour her with; not to be assur’d she was
               happy in your Esteem, and only beg I may no longer be kept in Ignorance of the fatal
               Secret. You shall be inform’d of all, said she, but then you must promise me to Act
               by my Advice; which he having promis’d, she told him after what manner Amena came to
               her House, the coldness the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> express’d to her, and the
               violence of her Passion for him. Now, said she, if you should suffer your rage to
               break out in any publick Manner against the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, it will
               only serve to make your Daughter’s Dishonour the Table-Talk of all <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>. He is too great at Court, and has too many Friends to be compell’d to
               any Terms for your Satisfaction; besides, the least noise might make him discover by
               what means he first became acquainted with her, and her excessive, I will not say
               troublesome fondness of him, since; which should he do, the shame wou’d be wholly
               her’s, for few wou’d condemn him for accepting the offer’d Caresses of a<pb n="31"/> Lady so
               young and beautiful as Amena. But is it possible, cry’d he (quite confounded at these
               Words) that she should stoop so low to offer Love. Oh Heavens! Is this the Effect of
               all my Prayers, my Care, and my Indulgence. Doubt not, resum’d Alovisa, of the Truth
               of what I say, I have it from herself, and to convince you it is so, I shall inform
               you of something I had forgot before. Then she told him of the Note she had slip’d
               into the Letter he had forc’d her to write, and of sending Anaret to his Lodgings,
               which she heighten’d with all the aggravating Circumstances her Wit and Malice cou’d
               suggest; till the old Man believing all she said as an Oracle, was almost senseless
               between Grief and Anger; but the latter growing rather the most predominant, he vow’d
               to punish her in such a manner as should deter all Children from Disobedience. Now,
               said Alovisa, it is, that I expect the performance of your Promise; these threats
               avail but little to the retrieving your Daughter’s Reputation, or your quiet; be
               therefore perswaded to make no Words of it, compose your Countenance as much as
               possible to serenity, and think if you have no Friend in any Monastry where you could
               send her till this Discourse, and her own foolish Folly be blown over. If you have
               not, I can recommend you to one at <hi rend="italic">St.</hi> Dennis where the Abbess
               is my near Relation, and on my Letter will use her with all imaginable Tenderness.
               Monsieur was extreamly pleas’d at this Proposal, and gave her those thanks the
               seeming kindness of her offer deserv’d. I would not, resum’d she, have you take her
               Home, or see her before she goes; or if you do, not till all things are ready for her
               Departure, for I know she will be prodigal of her <hi rend="italic">Promises</hi> of
               Amendment, ’till she has prevail’d with your Fatherly Indulgence to permit her stay
               at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, and know as well she will not have the Power to <hi rend="italic">keep</hi> ’em in the same Town with the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>. She shall, if you please, remain conceal’d in my House, ’till you have
               provided for her Journey, and it will be a great Means to put a stop to any farther
               Reflections the malicious<pb n="32"/> may make on her; if you give out she is already gone
               to some Relations in the Country. As she was speaking, Charlo came to acquaint her,
               one was come to visit her. She made no doubt but ’twas D’elmont, therefore hasten’d
               away Monsieur Sanseverin, after having fix’d him in a Resolution to do every thing as
               she advis’d. It was indeed Count D’elmont that was come, which as soon as she was
               assur’d of, she threw off her dejected and mournful Air, and assum’d one all Gaiety
               and good Humour, dimpl’d her Mouth with Smiles, and call’d the laughing Cupids to her
               Eyes.</p>
            <p>My Lord, said she, you do well by this early visit to retrieve your Sexes drooping
               fame of Constancy, and prove the nicety of Amena’s discernment, in conferring favours
               on a Person, who to his excellent Qualifications, has that of assiduity to deserve
               them; as he was about to reply, the rush of somebody coming hastily down the Stairs
               which faced the Room they were in, oblig’d ’em to turn that way. It was the
               unfortunate Amena, who not being able to endure the Thoughts of staying in her Rivals
               House, distracted with her Griefs, and not regarding what should become of her, as
               soon as she heard the Doors were open, was preparing to fly from that detested Place.
               Alovisa was vex’d to the Heart at the sight of her, hoping to have had some Discourse
               with the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> before they met; but she dissembled it, and
               catching hold of her as she was endeavouring to pass, ask’d where she was going, and
               what occasion’d the Disorder she observ’d in her. I go, (answer’d Amena) from a false
               Lover, and a falser Friend, but why shou’d I upbraid you (continu’d she looking
               wildly sometimes on the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and sometimes on Alovisa)
               Treacherous Pair, you know too well each others Baseness, and my Wrongs; no longer
               then, detain a Wretch whose Presence, had you the least Sense of Honour, Gratitude,
               or even common Humanity, wou’d fill your Consciences with Remorse<pb n="33"/> and Shame; and
               who has now no other wish, than that of shunning you for ever. As she spoke this, she
               struggled to get loose from Alovisa’s Arms, who, in spite of the Amazement she was
               in, still held her. D’elmont was no less confounded, and intirely ignorant of the
               Meaning of what he heard, was at a loss how to reply, ’till she resum’d her
               reproaches in this manner: Why, ye Monsters of barbarity, said she, do you delight in
               beholding the Ruins you have made? Is not the knowledge of my Miseries, my
               everlasting Miseries, sufficient to content you? And must I be debarr’d that only
               Remedy for Woes like mine? Death! Oh cruel Return for all my Love, my Friendship! and
               the confidence I repos’d in you. Oh! to what am I reduc’d by my too soft and easie
               Nature, hard fate of tenderness, which healing others, only wounds it’s
               self.-----Just Heavens!------here she stopp’d, the violence of her Resentment,
               endeavouring to vent it self in sighs, rose in her Breast with such an impetuosity as
               choak’d the Passage of her Words, and she fell in a Swoon. Tho’ the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and Alovisa were both in the greatest Consternation imaginable, yet
               neither of ’em were negligent in trying to Recover her; as they were busi’d about
               her, that fatal Letter which had been the Cause of this Disturbance, fell out of her
               Bosom, and both being eager to take it up (believing it might make some discovery)
               had their Hands on it at the same time; it was but slightly folded, and immediately
               shew’d ’em from what source Amena’s despair proceeded: Her upbraidings of Alovisa,
               and the Blushes and Confusion which he observed in that Ladies Face, as soon as ever
               she saw it open’d, put an end to the Mistery, and one less quick of Apprehension than
               D’elmont, wou’d have made no difficulty in finding his unknown Admirer in the Person
               of Alovisa: She, to conceal the Disorder she was in at this Adventure as much as
               possible, call’d her Women, and order’d ’em to Convey Amena into another Chamber
               where there was more Air; as she was preparing to follow, turning a<pb n="34"/> little
               towards the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>. but still extreamly confus’d, you’ll
               Pardon, me, my Lord, said she, if my concern for my Friend obliges me to leave you.
               Ah Madam, reply’d he, forbear to make any Apologies to me, rather Summon all your
               goodness to forgive a Wretch so blind to happiness as I have been: She either cou’d
               not, or wou’d not make any answer to these Words, but seeming as tho’ she heard ’em
               not, went hastily into the Room where Amena was, leaving the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> full of various and confus’d Reflections; the sweetness of his
               Disposition made him regret his being the Author of Amena’s Misfortunes, but how
               miserable is that Woman’s Condition, who by her Mismanagement is reduc’d to so poor a
               Comfort as the pity of her Lover; that Sex is generally too Gay to continue long
               uneasy, and there was little likelihood he cou’d be capable of lamenting Ills, which
               his small Acquaintance with the Passion from which they sprung, made him not
               comprehend. The pleasure the Discovery gave him of a Secret he had so long desir’d to
               find out, kept him from being too much concern’d at the Adventure that occasion’d it;
               but he could not forbear accusing himself of intollerable Stupidity, when he
               consider’d the Passages of Alovisa’s Behaviour, her swooning at the Ball, her
               constant Glances, her frequent Blushes when he talk’d to her, and all his Cogitations
               whether on Alovisa, or Amena, were mingled with a wonder that Love should have such
               Power. The diversity of his Thoughts wou’d have entertain’d him much longer, if they
               had not been interrupted by his Page, who came in a great hurry, to acquaint him,
               that his Brother, the young Chevalier Brillian was just come to Town, and waited with
               Impatience for his coming Home: As much a Stranger as D’elmont was to the Affairs of
               Love, he was none to those of Friendship, and making no doubt but that the former
               ought to yield to the latter in every respect; contented himself with telling one of
               Alovisa’s Servants, as he went out, that he wou’d wait on<pb n="35"/> her in the Evening,
               and made what hast he cou’d to give his beloved Brother the welcome he expected after
               so long an absence; and indeed the manner of their Meeting, express’d a most intire
               and sincere Affection on both sides. The <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> was but a
               Year younger than the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, they had been bred together from
               their Infancy, and there was such a sympathy in their Souls, and so great a
               Resemblance in their Persons, as very much contributed to endear ’em to each other
               with a Tenderness far beyond that which is ordinarily found among Relations. After
               the first Testimonies of it were over, D’elmont began to Question him how he had
               pass’d his Time since their Separation, and to give him some little Reproaches for
               not writing so often as he might have Expected. Alas! my dearest Brother, reply’d the
                  <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>, such various Adventures have hap’ned to me since
               we parted, as when I relate ’em, will I hope excuse my seeming Negligence; these
               Words were accompany’d with Sighs, and a Melancholly Air immediately overspreading
               his Face, and taking away great part of the Vivacity, which lately sparkled in his
               Eyes, rais’d an impatient Desire in the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> to know the
               Reason of it, which when he had express’d, the other (after having engag’d him, that
               whatever Causes he might find to ridicule his Folly, he wou’d suspend all appearance
               of it till the end of his Narration) began to satisfy in this Manner.</p>
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                  <p>At St. <hi rend="italic">Omers</hi>, where you left me, I happen’d to make an
                     Acquaintance with one Monsieur Belpine, a Gentleman who was there on some
                     Business; we being both pretty much Strangers in the Place, occasion’d an
                     Intimacy between us, which the disparity of our Tempers, wou’d have prevented
                     our Commencing at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>; but you know I was never a
                     lover of Solitude, and for want of Company more agreeable, was willing to
                     encourage his. He was indeed so obliging as to stay longer at St. <hi rend="italic">Omers</hi> then his Affairs required, purposely to engage me
                     to make <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi> in my way to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>. He was very Vain, and fancying himself happy in the esteem of the
                     fair Sex, was desirous I should be witness of the Favours they bestow’d on him.
                     Among the Number of those he used to talk of, was Madamoiselle Ansellina de la
                     Tour, a <hi rend="italic">Parisian</hi> Lady, and Heiress of a great Estate,
                     but had been<pb n="37"/> some time at <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi> with Madam the
                     Baroness <hi rend="italic">de</hi> Beronville her God-Mother. The Wonders he
                     told me of this young Lady’s Wit, and Beauty, inclin’d me to a desire of seeing
                     her; and as soon as I was in a Condition to Travel, we took our Way towards <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi>, he us’d me with all the Friendship he was capable
                     of expressing; and soon after we arriv’d, carry’d me to the <hi rend="italic">Baronesses</hi>: But oh Heavens! How great was my Astonishment when I found
                     Ansellina as far beyond his faint Description, as the Sun Beams the Imitation
                     of Art; besides the regularity of her Features, the delicacy of her Complexion,
                     and the just Simmetry of her whole Composition, she has an undescribable
                     Sweetness that plays about her Eyes and Mouth, and softens all her Air: But all
                     her Charms, dazling as they are, would have lost their captivating Force on me,
                     if I had believ’d her capable of that weakness for Belpine, that his Vanity
                     would have me think. She is very Young and Gay, and I easily perceiv’d she
                     suffer’d his Addresses more out of Diversion then any real Regard she had for
                     him; he held a constant Correspondence at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, and was
                     continually furnish’d with every thing that was <hi rend="italic">Novel</hi>,
                     and by that means introduc’d himself into many Companies, who else wou’d not
                     have endured him; but when at any time I was so happy as to entertain the
                     lovely Ansellina alone, and we had Opportunity for serious Discourse, (which
                     was impossible in his Company) I found that she was Mistress of a Wit, Poynant
                     enough to be Satyrical, yet it was accompanied with a Discretion as very much
                     heighten’d her Charms, and compleated the Conquest that her Eyes begun. I will
                     confess to you, Brother, that I became so devoted to my Passion, that I had no
                     leisure for any other Sentiments. Fears, Hopes, Anxities, jealous Pains,
                     uneasie Pleasures, all the Artillery of Love, were garrison’d in my Heart, and
                     a thousand various half form’d Resolutions fill’d my Head. Ansellina’s
                     insensibility among a Crow’d of Admirers, and the disparity of our
                     Fortunes,<pb n="38"/> wou’d have given me just Causes of Despair, if the Generosity of
                     her Temper had not dissipated the one, and her Youth, and the hope her Hour was
                     not yet come, the other. I was often about letting her know the Power she had
                     over me, but something of an awe which none but those who truly Love can guess
                     at, still prevented my being able to utter it, and I believ’d should have
                     languish’d ’till this Moment in an unavailing silence, if an accident had not
                     hapen’d to embolden me: I went one Day to visit my Adorable, and being told she
                     was in the Garden, went thither in hopes to see her, but being deceiv’d in my
                     Expectation, believ’d the Servant who gave me that Information was mistaken,
                     and fancying she might be retir’d to her Closet, as she very often did in an
                     Afternoon, and the pleasantness of the Place inducing me to stay there till she
                     was willing to admit me. I sat down at the Foot of a DIANA, curiously carv’d in
                     Marble, and full of melancholy Reflections without knowing what I did, took a
                     black lead Pen out of my Pocket, and writ on the Pedestal these two Lines.</p>
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                                                        <hi rend="italic">Hopeless, and Silent, I must still
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                                                        <hi rend="italic">Her Heart’s more hard than Stone whom I’d
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                  <p>I had scarce finish’d ’em, when I perceiv’d Ansellina at a good distance from
                     me, coming out of a little Arbour; the respect I had for her, made me fear she
                     should know I was the Author of ’em, and guess, what I found, I had not gain’d
                     Courage enough to tell her. I went out of the Alley, as I imagin’d, unseen, and
                     design’d to come up another, and meet her, before she cou’d get into the House.
                     But tho’ I walk’d pretty fast, she had left the Place before I cou’d attain it;
                     and in her stead (casting my Eyes toward the Statue with an Intention to rub
                     out what I had writ) I found this Addition to it.</p>
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                                                        <hi rend="italic">You wrong your Love, while you conceal your
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                                                        <hi rend="italic">Flints will dissolve with constant drops of
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                  <p>But, my dear Brother, if you are yet insensible of the wonderful Effects of
                     Love, you will not be able to imagine what I felt at this View; I was satisfy’d
                     it could be writ by no Body but Ansellina, there being no other Person in the
                     Garden, and knew as well she could not design that Encouragement for any other
                     Man, because on many Occasions she had seen my Hand; and the Day before had
                     written a Song for her, which she desir’d to learn, with that very Pen I now
                     had made use of; and going hastily away at the sight of her, had forgot to take
                     with me. I gaz’d upon the dear obliging Characters, and kiss’d the Marble which
                     contain’d ’em, a thousand times before I cou’d find in my Heart to efface ’em;
                     as I was in this agreeable Amazement, I heard Belpine’s Voice calling to me as
                     he came up the walk, which oblig’d me to put an end to it, and the Object which
                     occasion’d it. He had been told as well as I, that Ansellina was in the Garden,
                     and expressing some wonder to see me alone, ask’d where she was, I answer’d him
                     with a great deal of real Truth, that I knew not, and that I had been there
                     some Time, but had not been so happy as to Entertain her. He seem’d not to give
                     Credit to what I said, and began to use me after a Fashion as would have much
                     more astonish’d me from any other Person. I would not have you, said he, be
                     concern’d at what I am about to say, because you are one of those for whom I am
                     willing to preserve a Friendship; and to convince you of my Sincerity, give you
                     leave to address after what manner you please to any of the Ladies with whom I
                     have brought you acquainted, excepting Ansellina. But I take this Opportunity
                     to let you know, I have already made choice of her, with a design of Marriage,
                     and from this time forward, shall look on any Visits you shall make to her, as
                     injurious to my Pretensions. Tho’ I was no Stranger to the Vanity and Insolence
                     of Belpine’s Humour, yet not being accustomed to such arbitrary Kind of
                     Treatment, had<pb n="40"/> certainly resented it (if we had been in any other Place)
                     in a very different Manner than I did, but the consideration that to make a
                     Noise there, would be a Reflection, rather than a Vindication on Ansellina’s
                     Fame; I contented myself with telling him he might be perfectly easie, that
                     whatever Qualifications the Lady might have that should encourage his
                     Addresses, I should never give her any Reason to boast a Conquest over me.
                     These Words might have born two Interpretations, if the disdainful Air with
                     which I spoke ’em, and which I could not dissemble, and going immediately away
                     had not made him take ’em, as they were really design’d, to affront him; He was
                     full of Indignation and Jealousy (if it is possible for a Person to be touch’d
                     with that Passion, who is not capable of the other, which generally occasions
                     it) but however, having taken it into his Head to imagine I was better receiv’d
                     by Ansellina than he desired; Envy, and a sort of a Womanish Spleen transported
                     him so far as to go to Ansellina’s Apartment, and rail at me most profusely (as
                     I have since been told) and threaten how much he’d be reveng’d, if he heard I
                     ever should have the assurance to Visit there again. Ansellina at first laugh’d
                     at his Folly, but finding he persisted, and began to assume more Liberty than
                     she ever meant to afford him; instead of list’ning to his Entreaties, to forbid
                     me the Privilege I had enjoy’d of her Conversation; she pass’d that very
                     Sentence on him, and when next I waited of her, receiv’d me with more Respect
                     than ever; and when at last I took the boldness to acquaint her with my
                     Passion; I had the Satisfaction to observe from the frankness of her
                     Disposition, that I was not indifferent to her; nor indeed did she, even in
                     Publick, affect any reservedness more than the decencies of her Sex and Quality
                     requir’d; for after my Pretensions to her were commonly talk’d of, and those
                     who were intimate with her, wou’d rally her about me; she pass’d it off with a
                     Spirit of Gaity and good Humour peculiar to her self, and bated nothing of her
                     usual freedom to me; she permitted me to Read to<pb n="41"/> her, to Walk and Dance
                     with her, and I had all the Opportunities of endeavouring an encrease of her
                     Esteem that I cou’d wish, which so incens’d Belpine, that he made no scruple of
                     reviling both her and me in all Companies wherever he came; saying, I was a
                     little worthless Fellow, who had nothing but my Sword to depend upon; and that
                     Ansellina having no hopes of Marrying him, was glad to take up with the first
                     that ask’d her. These scandalous Reports on my first hearing of ’em had
                     assuredly been fatal to one of us, if Ansellina had not commanded me by all the
                     Passion I profess’d, and by the Friendship she freely acknowledged to have for
                     me, not to take any Notice of ’em. I set too high a Value on the favours she
                     allow’d me, to be capable of Disobedience; and she was too nice a Judge of the
                     Punctillio’s of our Sexes Honour, not to take this Sacrifice of so just a
                     Resentment, as a very great proof how much I submitted to her will, and
                     suffer’d not a Day to pass without giving me some new mark how nearly she was
                     touch’d with it. I was the most contented and happy Person in the World, still
                     hoping that in a little time, (she having no Relations that had Power to
                     contradict her Inclinations) I should be able to obtain every thing from her
                     that an honourable Passion could require; ’till one Evening coming Home pretty
                     late from her, my Servant gave me a Letter, which he told me was left for me,
                     by one of Belpine’s Servants; I presently suspected the Contents, and found I
                     was not mistaken; it was really a Challenge to meet him the next Morning, and
                     must confess, tho’ I long’d for an Opportunity to Chastise his Insolence, was a
                     little troubled how to excuse my self to Ansellina but there was no possibility
                     of evading it, without rendering my self unworthy of her, and hop’d that
                     Circumstance wou’d be sufficient to clear me to her. I will not trouble you,
                     Brother, with the particulars of our Duel, since there was nothing material,
                     but that at the third pass (I know not whether I may call it the effect of my
                     good or evil Fortune) he receiv’d my Sword a good depth<pb n="42"/> in his Body, and
                     fell with all the Symptoms of a Dying-Man. I made all possible hast to send a
                     Surgeon to him. In my way I met two Gentlemen, who it seems he had made
                     acquainted with his Design (probably with an intention to be prevented). They
                     ask’d me what Success, and when I had inform’d ’em, advis’d me to be gone from
                        <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi> before the News should reach the Ears of
                     Belpine’s Relations, who were not inconsiderable in that Place. I made ’em
                     those Retributions their Civilities deserv’d; but how eminent soever the Danger
                     appear’d that threatned me, cou’d not think of leaving <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi>, without having first seen Ansellina. I went to the <hi rend="italic">Baronesses</hi>, and found my Charmer at her Toylet, and
                     either it was my Fancy, or else she really did look more amiable in that
                     Undress, than ever I had seen her, tho’ adorn’d with the utmost Illustrations.
                     She seem’d surpriz’d at seeing me so early, and with her wonted good Humour,
                     asking me the reason of it, put me into a mortal Agony how to answer her, for I
                     must assure you, Brother, that the fears of her Displeasure were a thousand
                     times more dreadful to me, than any other apprehensions; she repeated the
                     Question three or four times before I had Courage to Reply, and I believe she
                     was pretty near guessing the Truth by my Silence, and the disorder in my
                     Countenance before I spoke; and when I did, she receiv’d the account of the
                     whole Adventure with a vast deal of trouble, but no anger; she knew too well,
                     what I ow’d to my Reputation, and the Post his Majesty had honour’d me with, to
                     believe, I cou’d, or ought to dispence with submitting to the Reflections which
                     must have fallen on me, had I acted otherwise than I did. Her Concern and
                     Tears, which she had not Power to contain at the thoughts of my Departure,
                     joyn’d with her earnest Conjurations to me to be gone, let me more than ever
                     into the Secrets of her Heart, and gave me a Pleasure as inconceivable as the
                     necessity of parting did the contrary. Nothing cou’d be more moving than our
                     taking leave, and when she tore her self half willing, and half unwilling,
                     from<pb n="43"/> my Arms, had sent me away inconsolable, if her Promises of coming to
                        <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, as soon as she could, without being taken
                     notice of, and frequently writing to me in the mean time, had not given me a
                     Hope, tho’ a distant one, of Happiness. Thus Brother, have I given you, in as
                     few Words as I cou’d, a Recital of every thing that has happen’d to me of
                     Consequence since our Separation, in which I dare believe you will find more to
                     Pity than Condemn. The afflicted Chevalier cou’d not conclude without letting
                     fall some Tears; which the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> perceiving, ran to him,
                     and tenderly embracing him, said all that cou’d be expected from a most
                     affectionate Friend to mitigate his Sorrows, nor suffered him to remove from
                     his Arms ’till he had accomplish’d his Design; and then believing the hearing
                     of the Adventures of another, (especially one he was so deeply interested in)
                     would be the surest Means to give a Truce to the more melancholy Reflections on
                     his own; related every thing that had befallen him since his coming to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>. The Letters he receiv’d from a Lady <hi rend="italic">Incognito</hi>, his little Gallantries with Amena, and the
                     accident that presented to his View, the unknown Lady in the Person of one of
                     the greatest Fortunes in all <hi rend="italic">France</hi>. Nothing cou’d be a
                     greater Cordial to the Chevalier, than to find his Brother was belov’d by the
                     Sister of Ansellina; he did not doubt but that by this there might be a
                     possibility of seeing her sooner than else he cou’d have hop’d, and the two
                     Brothers began to enter into a serious consultation of this Affair, which ended
                     with a Resolution to fix their Fortunes there. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>
                     had never yet seen a Beauty formidable enough to give him an Hours uneasiness
                     (purely for the sake of Love) and would often say, <hi rend="italic">Cupid</hi>’s Quiver never held an Arrow of force to reach his Heart; those
                     little Delicacies, those trembling aking Transports, which every sight of the
                     belov’d Object occasions, and so visibly distinguishes a real Passion from a
                     Counterfeit, he look’d on as the Chimera’s of an idle Brain, form’d to inspire
                     Notions of an imaginary Bliss, and make Fools<pb n="44"/> lose themselves in seeking;
                     or if they had a Being; it was only in weak Souls, a kind of a Disease with
                     which he assur’d himself he should never be infected. Ambition was certainly
                     the reigning Passion in his Soul, and Alovisa’s Quality and vast Possessions,
                     promising a full Gratification of that, he ne’er so much as wish’d to know a
                     farther Happiness in Marriage.</p>
                  <p>But while the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>
                     were thus Employ’d, the Rival Ladies past their Hours in a very different
                     Entertainment, the despair and bitter Lamentations that the unfortunate Amena
                     made, when she came out of her swooning, were such as mov’d even Alovisa to
                     Compassion, and if any thing but resigning D’elmont cou’d have given her
                     Consolation, she wou’d willing have apply’d it. There was now no need of
                     further Dissimulation, and she confessed to Amena, that she had Lov’d the
                     Charming <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> with a kind of Madness from the first
                     Moment she beheld him: That to favour her Designs on him, she had made use of
                     every Stratagem she cou’d invent, that by her means, the Amour was first
                     discover’d to <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi> Sanseverin, and his Family
                     Alarm’d the Night before; and Lastly, that by her Persuasions, he had resolv’d
                     to send her to a Monastry, to which she must prepare her self to go in a few
                     Days without taking any leave even of her Father; have you (cry’d Amena hastily
                     interrupting her) have you prevail’d with my Father to send me from this hated
                     Place without the Punishment of hearing his upbraidings? Which the other
                     answering in the Affirmative, I thank you, resum’d Amena, that Favour has
                     cancell’d all your Score of Cruelty, for after the Follies I have been guilty
                     of, nothing is so dreadful as the Sight of him. And, who wou’d, oh Heavens!
                     (continued she bursting into a Flood of Tears) wish to stay in a World so full
                     of Falshood. She was able to utter no more for some Moments, but at last,
                     raising herself on the Bed where she was laid, and endeavouring to seem a
                     little more compos’d: I have two Favours, Madam, yet to ask of you (rejoin’d
                     she) neither of<pb n="45"/> ’em will, I believe, seem difficult to you to grant, that
                     you will make use of the Power you have with my Father, to let my Departure be
                     as sudden as possible, and that while I am here, I may never see Count
                     D’elmont. It was not likely that Alovisa shou’d deny Requests so suitable to
                     her own Inclinations, and believing, with a great deal of Reason, that her
                     Presence was not very grateful, left her to the Care of her Women, whom she
                     order’d to attend her with the same Diligence as herself. It was Evening before
                     the Count came, and Alovisa spent the remainder of the Day in very uneasie
                     Reflections; she knew not, as yet, whether she had Cause to rejoyce in, or
                     blame her Fortune in so unexpectedly discovering her Passion, and an incessant
                     vicissitude of Hope and Fears, rack’d her with most intollerable Inquietude,
                     till the darling Object of her Wishes appear’d; and tho’ the first sight of
                     him, added to her other Passions, that of Shame, yet he manag’d his Address so
                     well, and so modestly and artfully hinted the Knowledge of his Happiness, that
                     every Sentiment gave place to a new Admiration of the Wonders of his Wit; and
                     if before she lov’d, she now ador’d, and began to think it a kind of Merit in
                     herself, to be sensible of his. He soon put it in her Power to oblige him, by
                     giving her the History of his Brother’s Passion for her Sister, and she was not
                     at all backward in assuring him how much she approv’d of it, and that she wou’d
                     write to Ansellina by the first Post, to engage her coming to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> with all imaginable Speed. In fine, there was nothing He cou’d
                     ask, refus’d, and indeed it would have been ridiculous for her to have affected
                     Coyness, after the Testimonies she had long since given him of one of the most
                     violent Passions that ever was; this fore-Knowledge sav’d abundance of
                     Dissimulation on both Sides, and she took care that if he should be wanting in
                     his kind Expressions after Marriage, he should not have it in his Power to
                     pretend (as some Husbands have done) that his Stock was exhausted in a tedious
                     Courtship. Everything was presently<pb n="46"/> agreed upon, and the Wedding Day
                     appointed, which was to be as soon as every thing cou’d be got ready to make it
                     Magnificent; tho’ the <hi rend="italic">Count’s</hi> good Nature made him
                     desirous to learn something of Amena, yet he durst not enquire, for fear of
                     giving an Umbrage to his intended Bride; but she, imagining the Reason of his
                     Silence, very frankly told him, how she was to be dispos’d of, this Knowledge
                     made no small Addition to his Contentment, for had she stay’d in <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, he could expect nothing but continual Jealousies
                     from Alovisa; besides, as he really wish’d her happy, tho’ he could not make
                     her so, he thought Absence might banish a hopeless Passion from her Heart, and
                     Time and other Objects efface an Idea, which could not but be destructive to
                     her Peace. He stay’d at Alovisa’s House ’till it was pretty late, and perhaps
                     they had not parted in some Hours longer, if his impatience to inform his
                     Brother his Success, had not carried him away. The young <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> was infinitely more transported at the bare Hopes of being
                     something nearer the Aim of all his Hopes, than D’elmont was at the Assurance
                     of losing his in Possession, and could not forbear rallying him for placing the
                     ultimate of his Wishes on such a Toy, as he argu’d Woman was, which the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> endeavouring to confute, there began a very
                     warm Dispute, in which, neither of ’em being able to convince the other, Sleep
                     at last interpos’d as Moderator. The next Day they went together to visit
                     Alovisa, and from that time were seldom asunder: But in Compassion to Amena,
                     they took what Care they could to conceal the Design they had in Hand, and that
                     unhappy Lady was in a few Days, according to her Rival’s Contrivance, hurried
                     away, without seeing any of her Friends. When she was gone, and there was no
                     farther need of keeping it a Secret, the News of this great Wedding was
                     immediately spread over the whole Town, and every one talk’d of it as their
                     particular Interests or Affections dictated. All D’elmont’s Friends were<pb n="47"/>
                     full of Joy, and he met no inconsiderable Augmentation of it himself, when his
                     Brother receiv’d a Letter from Ansellina, with an Account, that Belpine’s Wound
                     was found not Dangerous, and that he was in a very fair way of Recovery. And it
                     was concluded, that as soon as the Wedding was over, the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> should go in Person to Amiens, and fetch his belov’d
                     Ansellina, in order for a Second, and as much desir’d Nuptial. There was no
                     Gloom now left to Cloud the Gaiety of the happy Day, nothing could be more
                     Grand than the Celebration of it, and Alovisa now thought her self at the end
                     of all her Cares; but the Sequel of this glorious Beginning, and what Effect
                     the Despair and Imprecations of Amena (when she heard of it) produc’d, shall,
                     with the continuance of the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> Brillian’s
                     Adventures, be faithfully related in the next Part.</p>
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            <head type="main">LOVE in <hi rend="italic">Excess</hi>:<lb/> OR, THE<lb/> Fatal
               Inquiry<lb/> A<lb/> NOVEL.<lb/>
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            <head type="sub">Part the Second.</head>
            <head type="sub">By <hi rend="italic">Mrs.</hi> HAYWOOD.</head>
            <lg>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Each Day we break the bond of Humane Laws</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">For Love, and vindicate the common Cause.</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Laws for Defence of civil Rights are plac’d;</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Love throws the Fences down, and makes a gen’ral waste</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Maids, Widows, Wives, without distinction fall,</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">The sweeping deluge Love, comes on and covers all.</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Each Day we break the bond of Humane Laws</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">For Love, and vindicate the common Cause.</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Laws for Defence of civil Rights are plac’d;</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Love throws the Fences down, and makes a gen’ral waste</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">Maids, Widows, Wives, without distinction fall,</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">The sweeping deluge Love, comes on and covers all.</hi>
                            </l>
            </lg>
            <!--    <byline>DRYDEN.</byline> -->
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            <pb n="51"/>
            <p>The Contentment that appear’d in the Faces of the new Married Pair, added so much to
               the Impatience of the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> &gt;Brillian to see his belov’d
               Ansellina, that in a few Days after the Wedding, he took leave of them, and departed
               for <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi>: But as human Happiness is seldom of long
               continuance, and Alovisa placing the Ultimate of <hi rend="italic">her’s</hi> in the
               Possession of her Charming Husband, secure of that, despis’d all future Events, ’twas
               time for <hi rend="italic">Fortune</hi>, who long enough had smil’d, now to turn her
               Wheel, and punish the presumption that defy’d her Power.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="52"/>
                        </p>
            <p>As they were one Day at Dinner, a Messenger came to Acquaint <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>D’elmont that <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>Frankville was taken,
               suddenly, so violently Ill, that his Physicians despair’d of his Life; and that he
               beg’d to speak with him immediately: This Gentleman had been Guardian to theCount
               during his Minority, and the Care and Faithfulness with which that Trust had been
               Discharg’d, made him, with Reason, to regret the danger of losing so good a Friend:
               He delay’d the Visit not a Moment, and found him as the Servant had told him, in a
               Condition which cou’d cherish no hopes of Recovery, as soon as he perceiv’d theCount
               come into the Chamber, he desir’d to be left alone with him, which Order being
               presently obey’d, My dear Charge, (said he taking him by the Hand, and pressing to
               his trembling Bosom) you see me at the point of Death, but the knowledge of your many
               Virtues, and the Confidence I have that you will not deny me the request I am about
               to ask, makes me support the Thoughts of it with Moderation. The other assuring him
               of his readiness to serve him in any Command, encourag’d the old Gentleman to
               prosecute his Discourse in this manner: You are not Ignorant, my Lord (Rejoin’d He)
               that my Son (the only one have) is on his Travels, gone by my Approbation, and his
               own Desires to make the Tour of <hi rend="italic">Europe</hi>; but I have a Daughter,
               whose Protection I wou’d entreat you to undertake; her Education in a Monastery has
               hitherto kept her intirely unacquainted with the Gayeties of a Court, or the
               Conversation of the <hi rend="italic">Beau Monde</hi>, and I have sent for her to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> purposely to Introduce her into Company, proper for a
               young Lady, who I never design’d for a Recluse; I know not whether she will be here
               time enough to close my Eyes, but if you will promise to receive her into your House,
               and not suffer her artless and unexperienc’d Youth to fall into those Snares which
               are daily laid for Innocence, and take so far a Care, that neither she, nor the
               Fortune I leave her, be thrown away upon a Man unworthy of her, I shall dye well
               satisfy’d.D’elmont answer’d this<pb n="53"/> Request, with repeated assurances of fulfilling
               it, and frankly offer’d, if he had no other Person in whom he rather wou’d confide,
               to take the management of the whole Estate he left behind him, till youngFrankville
               should return----The anxious Father was transported at this Favour, and thank’d him
               in Terms full of Gratitude and Affection; they spent some Hours in settling this
               Affair, and perhaps had not ended it so soon, if Word had not been brought that the
               young Lady his Daughter was alighted at the Gate; ’tis impossible to express the Joy
               which fill’d the old Gentleman’s Heart at this News, and he began afresh to put
               theCount in mind of what he had promis’d concerning her: As they were in this
               endearing, tho’ mournful Entertainment, the matchless Melliora enter’d, the Surprize
               and Grief for her Father’s Indisposition (having heard of it but since she came into
               the House) hindered her from regarding any thing but him, and throwing herself on her
               Knees by the Bed-side, wash’d the Hand which he stretch’d out to raise her with, in a
               flood of Tears, accompany’d with Expressions, which, unstudy’d and incoherent as they
               were, had a delicacy in ’em, that show’d her Wit not inferiour to her Tenderness; and
               that no Circumstance cou’d render her otherwise than the most lovely Person in the
               World; when the first transports of her Sorrow were over, and that with much ado she
               was persuaded to rise from the Posture she was in: The Affliction I see thee in my
               Dear Child, (said her Father) wou’d be a vast addition to the Agonies I feel, were I
               not so happy as to be provided with Means for a mitigation of it, think not in losing
               me thou wilt be left wholly an Orphan, this worthy Lord will dry thy Tears.
               Therefore, my last Commands to thee shall be, to oblige thee to endeavour to deserve
               the Favours he is pleas’d to do us in accepting thee for---He wou’d have proceeded,
               but his Physicians (who had been in Consultation in the next Room) coming in
               prevented him, and <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> D’elmont taking the charming Melliora
               by the Hand, led her to the Window,<pb n="54"/> and beginning to speak some Words of
               Consolation to her, the softness of his Voice, and graceful Manner with which he
               deliver’d himself (always the inseparable Companions of his Discourse, but now more
               particularly so) made her cast her Eyes upon him; but alas, he was not an Object to
               be safely gaz’d at, and in spight of the Grief she was in, she found something in his
               Form which dissipated it; a kind of painful Pleasure, a mixture of Surprize, and Joy,
               and doubt, ran thro’ her in an instant; her Fathers Words suggested to her
               Imagination, that she was in a possibility of calling the charming Person that stood
               before her, by a Name more tender than that of Guardian, and all the Actions, Looks,
               and Address of D’elmont serv’d but to confirm her in that Belief. For now it was, that
               this insensible began to feel the Power of Beauty, and that Heart which had so long
               been Impregnable, surrender’d in a Moment; the first sight of Melliora gave him a
               Discomposure he had never felt before, he Sympathiz’d in all her Sorrows, and was
               ready to joyn his Tears with hers, but when her Eyes met his, the God of Love seem’d
               there to have united all his Lightnings for one effectual Blaze, their Admiration of
               each others Perfections was mutual, and tho’ he had got the start in Love, as being
               touch’d with that Almighty Dart, before her Affliction had given her leave to regard
               him, yet the softness of her Soul made up for that little loss of time, and it was
               hard to say whose Passion was the Strongest; she listned to his Condolements, and
               assurances of everlasting Friendship, with a pleasure which was but too visible in
               her Countenance, and more enflam’d theCount. As they were exchanging Glances, as if
               each vyed with the other who should dart the fiercest Rays, they heard a sort of
               ominous Whispering about the Bed, and presently one of those who stood near it,
               beckon’d them to come thither; the Physicians had found <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>Frankville in a much worse Condition than they left him in, and soon
               after perceiv’d evident Symptoms in him of approaching Death, and indeed there were
               but a very few Moments<pb n="55"/> between him and that other unfathomable World; the use of
               Speech had left him, and he cou’d take no other leave of his dear Daughter than with
               his Eyes; which sometimes were cast tenderly on her, sometimes on theCount, with a
               beseeching Look, as it were, to Conjure him to be careful of his Charge; then up to
               Heaven, as witness of the Trust he reposed in him. There cou’d not be a Scene more
               Melancholly than this dumb Farewell, and Melliora, whose soft Disposition had never
               before been shock’d, had not Courage to support so dreadful a one as this, but fell
               upon the Bed just as her Father Breath’d his last, as motionless as he. It is
               impossible to represent the Agony’s which fill’d the Heart of D’elmont at this View,
               he took her in his Arms, and assisted those who were endeavouring to recover her,
               with a wildness in his Countenance, a trembling Horror shaking all his Fabrick in
               such a manner, as might have easily discover’d to the Spectators (if they had not
               been too busily employ’d to take notice of it) that he was Actuated by a Motive far
               more powerful than that of Compassion. As soon as she came to herself, they forc’d
               her from the Dead Body of her Father (to which she Clung) and carried her into
               another Room, and it being judg’d convenient that she should be remov’d from that
               House, where every thing wou’d serve but to remind her of her Loss, theCount desir’d
               the Servants of <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>Frankville shou’d be call’d, and then
               in the presence of ’em all, declar’d their Master’s last Request, and order’d an
               Account of all Affairs shou’d be brought to his House, where he wou’d immediately
               Conduct their young Lady, as he had promis’d to her Father. If Melliora had been
               without any other cause of Grief, this Eclaircissment had been sufficient to have
               made her Miserable: She had already entertained a most tender Affection for theCount,
               and had not so little discernment as not to be sensible she had made the like
               Impression on him; but now she wak’d as from a Dream of promis’d Joys, to certain
               Woes, and the same Hour<pb n="56"/> which gave Birth to her Passion, commenc’d an adequate
               Despair, and kill’d her Hopes just budding.</p>
            <p>Indeed there never was any Condition so truly deplorable as that of this unfortunate
               Lady; she had just lost a dear and tender Father, whose Care was ever watchful for
               her, her Brother was far off, and she had no other Relation in the World to apply her
               self to for Comfort, or Advice; not even an Acquaintance at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, or Friend, but him who but newly was become so, and whom she found it
               dangerous to make use of, whom she knew it was a Crime to Love, yet cou’d not help
               Loving; the more she thought, the more she grew Distracted, and the less able to
               resolve on any Thing; a thousand Times she call’d on Death to give her ease, but that
               pale Tyrant flies from the Pursuer, she had not been yet long enough acquainted with
               the ills of Life, and must endure (how unwilling soever) her part of Sufferings in
               common with the rest of human kind.</p>
            <p>As soon as D’elmont had given some necessary Directions to the Servants, he came to
               the Couch, where she was sitting in a fix’d and silent Sorrow (tho’ inwardly toss’d
               with various and violent Agitations) and offering her his Hand, entreated her to
               permit him to wait on her from that House of Woe. Alas! Said she, to what purpose
               shou’d I remove, who bear my Miseries about me? Wretch that I am!---a flood of Tears,
               here interpos’d, and hindred her from proceeding, which falling from such lovely
               Eyes, had a Magnetick Influence to draw the same from every beholder; but D’elmont who
               knew that was not the way to Comfort her, dry’d his as soon as possible, and once
               more beg’d she wou’d depart; suffer my return then (answer’d she) to the Monastery,
               for what have I to do in <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> since I have lost my Father? By
               no means, Madam (resum’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> hastily) that were to
               disappoint your Fathers Designs, and contradict his last Desires; believe most
               lovely Melliora (continu’d he taking her by the Hand and letting fall some Tears which
               he cou’d<pb n="57"/> not restrain, upon it) that I bear at least an equal Share in your
               Affliction, and lament for you, and for my self: Such a regard my grateful Soul paid
                  <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi> &gt;Frankville for all his wondrous Care and Goodness
               to me, that in his Death methinks I am twice an Orphan. But Tears are fruitless to
               reinspire his now cold Clay, therefore must transmit the Love and Duty I owed him
               living, to his Memory Dead, and an exact performance of his Will; and since he
               thought me worthy of so vast a Trust as Melliora, I hope she will be guided by her
               Fathers Sentiments, and believe that D’elmont (tho’ a Stranger to her) has a Soul not
               uncapable of Friendship. Friendship! Did I say? (rejoyn’d he softning his Voice) that
               term is too mean to express a Zeal like mine, the Care, the Tenderness, the Faith,
               the fond Affection of Parents,---Brothers, ---Husbands,---Lovers, all Compriz’d in
               one! One great Unutterable! Comprehensive Meaning, is mine! for Melliora! She return’d
               no Answer but Sighs, to all he said to her; but he renewing his Entreaties, and
               urging her Father’s Commands, she was at last prevail’d upon to go into his Chariot,
               which had waited at the Door all the Time of his being there.</p>
            <p>As they went, he left nothing unsaid that he believ’d might tend to her Consolation,
               but she had Griefs which at present he was a Stranger to; and his Conversation, in
               which she found a thousand Charms, rather Encreas’d, than Diminish’d the trouble she
               was in: Every Word, every Look of his, was a fresh Dagger to her Heart, and in spight
               of the Love she bore her Father, and the unfeign’d Concern his sudden Death had given
               her, she was now convinc’d that Count D’elmont’s Perfections were her severest
               Wounds.</p>
            <p>When they came to his House, He presented her to Alovisa, and giving her a brief
               Account of what had happened, engag’d that Lady to receive her<pb n="58"/> with all
               imaginable Demonstrations of Civility and Kindness.</p>
            <p>He soon left the two Ladies together, pretending Business, but indeed to satisfie his
               Impatience, which long’d for an opportunity to meditate on this Adventure. But his
               Reflections were now grown far less pleasing than they used to be; real Sighs flew
               from his Breast uncall’d: And Melliora’s Image in dazling Brightness! In terrible
               Array of killing Charms; Fir’d Him with (impossible to be attain’d) Desires: he found
               by sad Experience what it was to Love, and to Despair. He Admir’d! Ador’d! And
               wish’d, even to Madness! Yet had too much Honour, too much Gratitude for the Memory
               of Monsieur Frankville; and too sincere an Awe for the lovely Cause of his
               Uneasiness, to form a Thought that cou’d encourage his new Passion. What wou’d he not
               have given to have been Unmarried? How often did he Curse the Hour in which Alovisa’s
               fondness was discover’d? And how much more his own Ambition, which prompted him to
               take Advantage of it, and hurry’d him Precipitately to a Hymen, where Love, (the
               noblest Guest) was wanting? It was in these racks of Thought, that the
               unfortunateAmena was remembr’d, and he cou’d not forbear acknowledging the Justice of
               that Doom, which inflicted on him, these very Torments he had given her. A severe
               Repentance seiz’d on his Soul, and Alovysa for whom he never had any thing more than
               an Indifferency; now began to seem Distasteful to his Fancy, he look’d on her, as
               indeed she was, the chief Author ofAmena’s Misfortunes, and abhorr’d her for that
               Infidelity. But when he consider’d her, as the Bar ’twixt Him and Melliora she
               appear’d like his ill Genius to him, and he cou’d not support the Thoughts of being
               oblig’d to love her (or at least to seem as if he did) with Moderation. In the midst
               of these Reflections his Servant came in and deliver’d a Letter to him which had been
               just left by the Post. TheCount immediately knew the Hand to beAmena’s, and<pb n="59"/> was
               cover’d with the utmost Confusion and Remorse when he read these Lines.</p>
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               <body>
                  <opener>To the too Charming and Perfidious D’elmont.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Now Hopes, and Fears, and Jealousies are over! Doubt is no
                        more! You are for ever lost! And my unfaithful, happy Rival! Triumphs in
                        your Arms, and my Undoing!----I need not wish you Joy, the haste you made to
                        enter into Hymen’s Bonds, and the more than ordinary Pomp with which that
                        Ceremony was Celebrated, assures me you are highly satisfied with your
                        Condition; and that any future Testimonies of the Friendship of so wretched
                        a Creature asAmena, wou’d be receiv’d by you, with the same Disregard, as
                        those she has given you of a more tender Passion.----Shameful Remembrance!
                        Oh that I cou’d Blot it out!----Erace from the Book of Time those fond
                        deluded Hours! Forget I ever saw the Lovely false D’elmont! Ever listned to
                        his soft persuasive Accents! And thought his love a mighty Price for
                        Ruin------My Father writes that you are Married, Commands my Return to
                        Paris, and assume an Air as Gay, and Chearful as that with which I used to
                        appear.----Alas! How little does he know his Daughters Heart? And how
                        impossible is it, for me to Obey him, can I look on you as the Husband
                        of Alovysa, without remembring you were once the Lover of Amena? Can Love like
                        mine, so fierce, so passionately, tender, e’re sink to a calm, cold
                        Indifference? Can I behold the fond Endearments of your bridal Joys (which
                        you’d not be able to Restrain, even before me) and not burst with Envy? No,
                        the Sight wou’d turn me quite Distracted, and I shou’d commit some Desperate
                        Violence that wou’d Undoe us all.---Therefore, I hide my self for ever from
                        it, bid an everlasting<pb n="60"/> Adieu to all the gay Delights and Pleasures of
                        my Youth.-----To all the Pomp and Splendor of the Court.-----To all that the
                        mistaken World calls Happiness.---To Father, Friends, Relations, all that’s
                        Dear----But your Idea, and that, not even these consecrated Walls, nor Iron
                        Gates keep out; Sleeping or Waking you are ever with me, you mingle with my
                        most solemn Devotions; and while I Pray to Heaven that I may think on you no
                        more, a guilty Pleasure rises in my Soul, and contradicts my Vows! All my
                        Confessions are so many Sins, and the same Breath which tells my Ghostly
                        Father I abjure your Memory, speaks your dear Name with Transport.
                        Yes----Cruel! Ungrateful!---Faithless as you are, I still do Love
                        you----Love you to that infinite degree, that now, methinks fir’d with thy
                        Charms (repenting all I’ve said) I cou’d wish even to renew those Moments of
                        my Ruin!----Pity me D’elmont, if thou hast Humanity.-----Judge what the
                        rackings of my Soul must be, when I resolve, with all this Love, this
                        Languishment about me; never to see you more.</hi>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Every thing is preparing for my Reception into holy Orders,
                        (how unfit I am Heaven knows) and in a few Days I shall put on the Vail
                        which excludes me from the World for ever; therefore, if these distracted
                        Lines are worth an Answer, it must be Speedy, or it will not come to my
                        Hands. Perhaps not find me Living.-----I can no more-----Farewel (thou dear
                        Destroyer of my Soul)</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Eternally Farewel</hi>, <signed>Amena</signed>.</closer>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">P.S.</hi>
                        <hi rend="italic">I</hi> do not urge you to write, <hi rend="italic">Alovisa</hi> (I wish I cou’d not say your Wife) will perhaps think it
                        too great a Condescention, and not suffer you so long from her
                        Embraces.----Yet if you can get loose.----But you know best what’s proper to
                        be done----Forgive the restlesness of a dispairing Wretch, who cannot cease
                        to Love, tho’ from this Moment she must cease to tell you so---Once more,
                        and for Ever,<lb/>
                                        <lb/>Adieu.</p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>
                            <pb n="61"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Had this Letter came a Day sooner, ’tis probable it wou’d have had but little Effect
               on the Soul of D’elmont, but his Sentiments of Love were now so wholly chang’d, that
               what before he wou’d but have laugh’d at, and perhaps despis’d, now fill’d him with
               Remorse and serious Anguish. He read it over several Times, and found so many Proofs
               in it of a sincere and constant Affection, that he began to pity Her, with a
               Tenderness like that of a Relation, but no more: The charming Melliora had Engross’d
               all his fonder Wishes; else it is not impossible but that &gt;Alovisa might have had
               more Reason to fear her Rivalship after Marriage, than before. That Lady having been
               without the presence of her dear Husband some Hours, had not patience to remain any
               longer without seeing Him, and making an excuse to Melliora for leaving her alone,
               came running to the Closet where he was; how unwelcome she was grown, the Reader may
               imagine, he receiv’d her, not as he was wont; the Gaity which used to sparkle in his
               Eyes, (at once declaring, and creating Amorous desires) now gave Place to a sullen
               Gloominess, he look’d not on her, or if by chance he did; ’twas more with Anger than
               with Love, in spite of his endeavours to conceal it, she was too quick sighted (as
               all are that truly Love) not to be sensible of this Alteration. However she took no
               notice of it, but Kissing and Embracing him (according to her Custom whenever they
               were alone) beg’d him to leave his solitary Amusement, and help her to Comfort the
               afflicted Lady he brought there. Her Endearments serv’d but to encrease his
               Peevishness, and heighten her Surprize at his Behaviour; and indeed, the Moment that
               she enter’d the Closet was the last of her Tranquility.</p>
            <p>When with much perswasions she had prevail’d with him to go with her into the Room
               where Melliora was, he appeared so disorder’d at the second Sight of that Charmer, as
               wou’d certainly have let<pb n="62"/> Alovysa into the secret of his Passion, had she not
               been retir’d to a Window to recover herself from the Confusion her Husbands coldness
               had thrown her in, and by that fortunate disregard of his Looks at that critical
               Instant, given him (who never wanted presence of Mind) leave to form both his
               Countenance and manner of Address, so as to give no suspicion of the Truth.</p>
            <p>This little Company was very far from being Entertaining to one another; every one
               had their particular Cogitations, and were not displeas’d not to be Interrupted in
               them. It growing late, Alovysa conducted Melliora to a Chamber which she had order’d to
               be prepar’d for her, and then retir’d to her own, hoping that when theCount shou’d
               come to Bed, she might be able to make some Discovery of the Cause of his Uneasiness.
               But she was deceiv’d, he spoke not to her, and when by a thousand little Inventions
               she urg’d him to reply to what she said, it was in such a fashion as only let her
               see, that he was extreamly troubled at something, but cou’d not guess at what. As
               soon as Day broke, he rose, and shutting himself into his Closet, left her in the
               greatest Consternation imaginable; she cou’d not think it possible that the Death of
                  <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>Frankville shou’d work this Transformation, and
               knew of no other Misfortune that had happened. At last she remembred she had heard
               one of the Servants say, a Letter was brought to their Master by the Post, and began
               to reflect on every Thing (in the power of <hi rend="italic">Fortune</hi> to
               determine) that cou’d threaten a Disturbance, yet was still as ignorant as ever. She
               lay not long in Bed, but putting on her Cloaths with more Expedition than usual went
               to the Closet, resolving to speak to him in a manner as shou’d oblige him to put an
               end to the uncertainty she was in, but finding the Door lock’d, her Curiosity made
               her look thro’ the Keyhole, and she saw him sometimes very intirely reading a Letter,
               and sometimes writing, as tho’ it were an Answer to it. A sudden Thought came into
               her Head, and<pb n="63"/> she immediately went softly from the place where she was, without
               knocking at the Door, and stay’d in a little Chamber adjacent to it, where none could
               pass to, or from the Closet without being perceiv’d by her; she had not waited long,
               before she heard the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> Ring, and presently saw a Servant
               enter, and soon after return with a Letter in his Hand; she wou’d not speak to him
               then, for fear of being over heard by her Husband, but followed him down Stairs, and
               when he came towards the bottom, call’d to him in a low Voice to tarry ’till she came
               to him; the Fellow durst not but Obey, and there being no body near ’em, commanded
               him to deliver her the Letter: But he either afraid or unwilling to betray his Trust,
               excus’d himself from it as well as he cou’d, but she was resolv’d to have it; and
               when Threats wou’d not avail, condescended to Entreaties, to which she added Bribes,
               which last Article join’d to the promise she made of never revealing it, won him to
               her Purpose. She had scarce patience to forbear opening it before she got to her
               Chamber: The Superscription (which she saw was forAmena) fir’d her with Disdain and
               Jealousie, and it is hardly possible to imagine, much less to describe the Torrent of
               her Indignation, when she found that it contain’d these Words.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>To the Lovely Amena.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">You accuse me of Cruelty, when at the same Time you kill me
                        with yours: How Vile! How despicable, must I be grown in your Opinion, when
                        you believe I can be Happy, when you are Miserable?---Can I enjoy the
                        Pleasures of a Court, while you are shut within a Cloyster?----Shall I
                        suffer the World to be depriv’d of such a Treasure asAmena? For the Crime of
                        worthless D’elmont-----No, no Fair, injur’d Softness, Return, and bless the
                        Eyes of every Beholder! Shine out<pb n="64"/> again in your native Lustre,
                        uneclips’d by Grief, the Star of Beauty and the guide of Love.---And, if my
                        unlucky Presence will be a Damp to the Brightness of your Fires, I will for
                        ever quit the Place.----Tho’ I cou’d wish, you’d give me leave sometimes to
                        gaze upon you, and draw some hop’d Presages of future Fortune from the
                        Benignity of your Influence,---Yes,Amena, I wou’d sigh out my Repentance at
                        your Feet, and try at least to obtain a Pardon for my Infidelity.----For,
                        ’tis true, what you have heard,----I am Marry’d---But ohAmena! Happiness is
                        not always an Attendant on Hymen.--However, I yet may call you Friend--I yet
                        may Love you, tho’ in a different way from what I once pretended to; and
                        believe me, that the Love of Souls, as it is the most uncommon, especially
                        in our Sex, so ’tis the most refin’d and noble of all Passions, and such a
                        Love shall be for ever yours. Even Alovisa (who has robb’d you of the rest)
                        cannot justly resent my giving you that part,----You’ll wonder at this
                        Alteration in my Temper, but ’tis sincere, I am no more the Gay, the
                        Roving D’elmont, and when you come to Paris, perhaps you will find me in a
                        Condition more liable to your Pity than Indignation. What shall I sayAmena?
                        My Crime is my Punishment, I have offended against Love, and against you,
                        and am, if possible, as Miserable, as Guilty: Torn with Remorse, and
                        Tortur’d with----I cannot----must not Name it----but ’tis something which
                        can be term’d no other than the utmost severity of my Fate.---Haste then to
                        Pity me, to comfort, to advise me, if (as you say) you yet retain any
                        remains of your former Tenderness for this Ungrateful Man</hi>,</p>
                  <closer>D’elmont.</closer>
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            <p>Ungrateful indeed! Cry’d Alovisa (Transported with Excess of Rage and Jealousie) Oh
               the Villain!---What Miseries! What Misfortunes are these thou talk’st of? What
               Unhappiness has waited on thy <hi rend="italic">Himen</hi>? ’Tis I alone am wretched!
               base Deceiver!</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="65"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Then, as if she wanted to discover something farther to heighten the Indignation she
               was in, she began to read it over again, and indeed the more she consider’d the
               meaning of what she read, the more her Passions swell’d, ’till they got at last the
               entire Dominion of her Reason: She tore the Letter in a thousand pieces, and was not
               much less unmerciful to her Hair and Garments. ’Tis possible, that in the Violence of
               her Fury, she might have forgot her promise to the Servant, to vent some part of it
               on her Husband, if her Woman coming into the Room to know if she was ready to dress,
               had not prevented her, by telling her the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was gone
               abroad, and had left Word, that he shou’d not return ’till the Evening. Alovisa had
               thrown herself on the Bed, and the Curtains being drawn discover’d not the disorder
               she was in, and which her Pride made her willing shou’d be still a Secret, therefore
               dismist her with saying, she wou’d call her when she wanted any thing. Tho’ Alovisa
               was too apt to give a loose to her Passions on every occasion, to the Destruction of
               her own Peace, yet she knew well enough how to disguise ’em, when ever she found the
               Concealing of them wou’d be an Advantage to her Designs: And when the Transports of
               her Rage was so far over, as to give her Liberty of Reflection, and she began to
               Examine the State of her Affection to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, she soon
               perceiv’d it had so much the better of all other Considerations, that in spite of the
               injustice she thought him guilty of to her, she cou’d not perswade her self to do any
               thing that might give him a pretence to Quarrel with her. She thought she had done
               enough in Intercepting this Letter, and did not doubt but thatAmena wou’d take his
               not writing to her so much to Heart, as to prevent her ever returning to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, and resolv’d to omit nothing of her former Endearments,
               or make a shew of being in the least disoblig’d; this sort of Carriage she imagin’d
               wou’d not only lay him more open and unguarded to the diligent watch she design’d to
               make on all<pb n="66"/> his Words and Actions, but likewise awaken him to a just Sense of
               her Goodness, and his own Ingratitude.-----She rightly judg’d that when People are
               Marry’d, Jealousie was not the proper Method to revive a decay’d Passion, and that
               after Possession it must be only Tenderness, and constant Assiduity to please, that
               can keep up desire, fresh and gay: Man is too Arbitrary a Creature to bear the least
               Contradiction, where he pretends an absolute Authority, and that Wife who thinks by
               ill humour and perpetual Taunts, to make him weary of what she wou’d reclaim him
               from, only renders her self more hateful, and makes that justifiable which before was
               blameable in him. These, and the like Considerations made Alovysa put on a Countenance
               of Serenity, and she so well acted the part of an Unsuspecting Wife, that D’elmont was
               far from imagining what she had done: However he still behav’d with the same Caution
               as before, to Melliora; and certainly never did People disguise the Sentiments of
               their Souls more artfully than did these three---Melliora vail’d her secret
               Languishments, under the Covert of her grief for her Father, theCount his Burning
               anguish, in a gloomy Melancholy for the Loss of his Friend; but Alovysa’s Task was
               much the hardest, who had no pretence for grief (raging, and bleeding with neglected
               Love, and stifled Pride) to frame her Temper to a seeming Tranquility----All made it
               their whole study to deceive each other, yet none but Alovysa was intirely in the
               dark; for the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> and Melliora had but too true a guess at
               one another’s meaning, every look of his, for he had Eyes that needed no Interpreter,
               gave her Intelligence of his Heart, and the Confusion which the understanding those
               looks gave her, sufficiently told him how sensible she was of ’em.----Several Days
               they liv’d in this Manner, in which time <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi> &gt;Frankville
               was Interr’d. Which Solemnity, the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> took care shou’d be
               perform’d with a Magnificence suitable to the Friendship he publickly profest<pb n="67"/> to
               have born him, and the secret Adoration his Soul paid to his Remains.</p>
            <p>Nothing happned of Moment,’till a Day or two after the Funeral, a Gentleman newly
               arriv’d at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, came to visit the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and gave him an Account of &gt;Amena’s having taken the Habit; how,
               (said D’elmont Interrupting him) is it possible?----Has she then profest? Yes,
               answer’d the Gentleman, having a Sister whom I always tenderly lov’d at the Monastery
               at St. <hi rend="italic">Dennis</hi>, my affection oblig’d me to make it in my way to
               visit her.Amena was with her at the Grate, when she receiv’d me; I know not how,
               among other Discourses, we hapned to talk of the fine Gentlemen of <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, which it was Impossible to do, without mentioning Count D’elmont,
               theCount answer’d not this Complement as he wou’d have done at another time, but only
               bowing with an humble Air, gave him Liberty to prosecute his Discourse; the moment
               (resum’d he) thatAmena heard your Name, the Tears run from her fair Eyes; in such
               abundance, and she seem’d opprest with so violent a Grief, that she was not able to
               stay any longer with us. When she was gone, my Sister whom she had made her
               Confidant, gave me the History of her Misfortunes, and withal, told me, that the next
               Day she was to be Initiated into Holy Orders: My Curiosity engag’d me to stay at St.
                  <hi rend="italic">Dennis</hi>, to see the Ceremony perform’d, which was Solemn;
               but not with that Magnificence which I expected; it seems it wasAmena’s desire that
               it should be as private as possible, and for that Reason, none of her Relations were
               there, and several of the Formalities of Entrance omitted: After it was over, my
               Sister beckon’d me to come to the Grate, where I saw her before, and Conjur’d me in
               the Name of her new Sister, to give this to your Hands; in speaking these Words, he
               took a Letter out of his Pocket, which theCount immediately opening, to his great
               surprise, found it contain’d, as follows.</p>
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                            <pb n="68"/>
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                  <opener>To the Inhuman D’elmont.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">To be pity’d by you, and that you shou’d tell me so, was all
                        the recompence I ask’d for Loss of Father, Friends, Reputation, and Eternal
                        Peace; but now, too late, I find that the fond Maid who scorns the World for
                        Love, is sure to meet for her reward the scorn of him she
                        Loves----Ungrateful Man! Cou’d you not spare one Moment from that long Date
                        of Happiness, to give a last farewel to her you have undone? What wou’d not
                        this Barbarous Contempt have drawn upon you, were I of Alovisa’s Temper? Sure
                        I am, all that disdain and rage, cou’d Inspire Malice with, had been
                        Inflicted on you, but you well know my Soul is of a another Stamp.----Fool
                        that I was, and little vers’d in the base Arts of Man, believ’d I might by
                        tenderness, and faithful Friendship, gain esteem; tho’ Wit and Beauty the
                        two great Provocatives to create Love were wanting. But do not think that I
                        am yet so mean as to desire to hear from you; no, I have put all future
                        Correspondence with you out of my Power, and hope to drive it even from my
                        wish: Whether your disdain, or the Holy Banner I am listed under, has
                        wrought this Effect, I know not, but methinks I breath another Air, think on
                        you with more Tranquility, and bid you without dying,</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>Eternally Adieu, Amena.</closer>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">P.S.</hi>Let Alovisa know I am no more her Rival, Heaven
                        has my Soul, and I forgive you both.</p>
                  </postscript>
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            <p>D’elmont was strangely fir’d at the reading these Lines, which left him no Room to
               doubt that his Letter had miscarried, he could not presently imagine by what means,
               but was resolv’d if possible, to find it out. However, he dissembled his Thoughts
               ’till the Gentleman had taken his leave; then calling for the<pb n="69"/> Servant, whom he
               had entrusted with the carrying it, he took him by the Throat, and holding his drawn
               Sword directly to his Breast, swore that Moment should be his last, if he did not
               immediately confess the Truth; the poor Fellow, frighted almost to Death, trembling,
               and falling on his Knees, implor’d Forgiveness, and discover’d all. Alovisa who was in
               the next Chamber, hearing her Husband call for that Servant, with a Tone somewhat
               more imperious than what he was accustom’d to, and a great Noise soon after, imagin’d
               some Accident had happen’d to betray her, and ran in to know the Certainty, just as
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> had discharg’d the Servant, at once from his Service
               and his Presence. You have done well Madam (said D’elmont, looking on her with Eyes
               sparkling with Indignation) you have done well, by your impertinent Curiosity and
               Imprudence, to rouze me from my Dream of Happiness, and remind me, that I am that
               wretched Thing a Husband! ’Tis well indeed (answer’d Alovisa, who saw now that there
               was no need of farther Dissimulation) that any thing can make you remember, both what
               you are, and what I am. You, (resum’d he, hastily interrupting her) have taken an
               effectual Method to prove your self a Wife!----a very
               Wife!----Insolent---Jealous---and Censorious!---But Madam (continued he frowning)
               since you are pleas’d to assert your Priveledge, be assur’d, I too shall take my
               turn, and will exert the---Husband! In saying this, he flung out of the Room in spite
               of her Endeavours to hinder him, and going hastily through a Gallery which had a
               large Window that looked into the Garden, he perceived Melliora lying on a green
               Bank, in a melancholy, but a charming Posture, directly opposite to the Place where
               he was; her Beauties appear’d, if possible, more to Advantage than ever he had seen
               them, or at least, he had more Opportunity thus unseen by her, to gaze upon ’em; he
               in a Moment lost all the Rage of Temper he had been in, and his whole Soul was taken
               up with softness; he stood for some Moments fix’d in<pb n="70"/> silent Admiration, but Love
               has small Dominion in a Heart, that can content it self with a distant Prospect, and
               there being a Pair of back-Stairs at the farther end of the Gallery, which led to the
               Garden. He either forgot, or not regarded what Construction &gt; Alovisa might make on
               this private Interview, if by Chance, from any of the Windows she should be Witness
               of it.</p>
            <p>Melliora was so intent on a Book she had in her Hand, that she saw not the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> ’till he was close enough to her to discern what was the
               Subject of her Entertainment, and finding it the Works of <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi> &gt;L’fontenelle; Philosophy, Madam, at your Age (said he to her with
               an Air, which exprest surprize) is as wond’rous as your other Excellencies; but I am
               confident, had this Author ever seen Melliora, his Sentiments had been otherwise than
               now they seem to be, and he would have been able to write of nothing else but Love
               and her. Melliora blush’d Extremely at his unexpected Presence, and the Complement he
               made Her; but recollecting her self as soon as she cou’d; I have a better Opinion of
                  <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>L’fontenelle, (answer’d she) but if I were really
               Mistress of as many Charms as you wou’d make me believe, I should think my self
               little beholding to Nature, for bestowing them on me, if by their means I were
               depriv’d of so choice an Improvement as this Book has given me. Thank Heaven, then
               Madam, (resum’d he) that you were born in an Age successive to that which has
               produc’d so many fine Treatises of this kind for your Entertainment; since (I am very
               Confident) this, and a long space of future Time will have no other Theme, but that
               which at present you seem so much averse to. Melliora found so much difficulty in
               endeavouring to Conceal the disorder she was in at this Discourse, that it rendered
               her unable to reply; and He, (who possibly guest the occasion of her silence) taking
               one of her Hands and tenderly pressing it between his, look’d so full in<pb n="71"/> her
               Eyes, as heighten’d her Confusion, and discover’d to his ravish’d View, what most he
               wish’d to find: Ambition, Envy, Hate, Fear, or Anger, every other Passion that finds
               Entrance in the Soul; Art, and Discretion, may Disguise, but Love, tho’ it may be
               feign’d, can never be Conceal’d, not only the Eyes (those true and most Perfect
               Intelligencers of the Heart) but every Feature, every Faculty betrays it! It fills
               the whole Air of the Person possest with it; it wanders round the Mouth! Plays in the
               Voice! trembles in the Accent! And shows it self a thousand different, nameless ways!
               Even Melliora’s Care to hide it, made it more apparent, and the Transported D’elmont
               not considering where he was, or who might be a witness of his Rapture, cou’d not
               forbear catching her in his Arms, and grasping her with an Extasie, which plainly
               told her what his thoughts were, tho’ at that time he had not Power to put ’em into
               Words; and indeed there is no greater proof of a vast and elegant Passion, than the
               being uncapable of Expressing it:-----He had perhaps held her in this strict embrace,
               ’till some Accident had discover’d and separated him from her; if the Alarm this
               manner of Proceeding gave her Modesty, had not made her force her self from
               him.---They both stood in a silent Consternation, nor was he much less disorder’d at
               the Temerity, the violence of his ungovernable Passion had made him guilty of, than
               she was at the Liberty he had taken; he knew not how to Excuse, nor she, to Reproach;
               Respect (the constant Attendant on a sincere Affection) had tyed his Tongue, and
               shame mixed with the uncertainty after what manner she shou’d resent it, Hers. At
               last, the Natural Confidence of his Sex Encourag’d him to break this mute
               Entertainment,--There are Times Madam (said he) in which the wisest have not Power
               over their own Actions---If therefore I have offended, impute not the Crime to me,
               but that unavoidable impulse which for a Moment hurry’d me from my self; for be
               assured while D’elmont can Command his Thoughts, they shall be<pb n="72"/> most obedient to
               your Wishes----As Melliora was about to reply, she saw a Servant coming hastily to
               speak to theCount, and was not a little glad of so favourable an opportunity to
               retire without being oblig’d to continue a Discourse in which she must either lay a
               severe Punishment on her Inclinations by making a quarrel with him, or by forgiving
               him too easily, Trespass against the strict Precepts of Virtue she had always
               profess’d: She made what haste she cou’d into her chamber, and carry’d with her a
               World of troubled Meditations, she now no longer doubted of theCount’s Passion, and
               trembled with the Apprehension of what he might in time be prompted to; but when she
               Reflected how dear that Person she had so much cause to fear, was to her, she thought
               her self, at once the most unfortunate and most Guilty of her Sex.</p>
            <p>The Servant who gave ’em this seasonable Interruption delivered a Letter to his
               Master, which he opening hastily, knowing that it came from his Brother by the Seal,
               found the Contents as follows.</p>
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                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">I hop’d (my Dearest Friend, and Brother) by this day to have
                        Embrac’d you, but Fortune takes delight to disappoint our wishes, when
                        highest rais’d, and nearest to their Aim.----The Letter I carry’d from her,
                        whom I think it my Happiness to call Sister, joyn’d with my own Faith, Love,
                        and Assiduity; at length Triumph’d over all the little niceties and
                        objections my Charmer made against our Journey, and she Condescended to
                        order every thing requisite for our departure from Amiens shou’d be got
                        ready.----But how shall I Express the Grief, the Horrour, the Distraction of
                        my Soul, when the very Evening before the Day we shou’d have set out, as I
                        was sitting with her, a sudden, but terrible Illness, like the Hand of Death
                        seiz’d on her, she fell (oh! my Brother) Cold, and Speechless in my
                        Arms------Guess, what I endur’d at that Afflicting Moment, all that I had of
                        Man, or Reason left me; and sure had<pb n="73"/> not the Care of the Baroness and
                        some other Ladies (whom my Cries drew in to her Assistance) in a little time
                        recover’d her, I had not now surviv’d to give you this Account: Again, I saw
                        the Beauties of her Eyes! again, I heard her Voice, but her Disorder was yet
                        so great, that it was thought convenient she should be put to Bed; the
                        Baroness seeing my Despair, desired me not to quit her House, and by that
                        Means I had News every Hour, how her Fevor encreas’d, or abated, for the
                        Physicians being desir’d to deal freely, assur’d us, that was her Distemper:
                        For several Days she continued in a Condition that could give us no Hopes of
                        her Recovery; in which Time, as you may imagine, I was little capable of
                        Writing.-----The wildness of my unruly Grief, made me not be permitted to
                        come into her Chamber; but they cou’d not, without they had made use of
                        Force, hinder me from lying at her Door: I counted all her Groans, heard
                        every Sigh the Violence of her Pain drew from her, and watch’d the
                        Countenance of every Person who came out of her Chamber, as Men who wou’d
                        form a Judgment of future Consequences, do the Signs in Heaven.----But I
                        trouble you with this tedious recital, she is now, if there is any
                        Dependance on the Doctors Skill, past Danger, tho’ not fit to Travel, at
                        least this Month, which gives no small Aleviation to the greatness of my
                        Joys (which otherwise wou’d be unbounded) for her Recovery, since it
                        occasions so long a Separation from the best of Brothers, and of Friends:
                        Farewell, may all your Wishes meet Success, and an Eternal round of
                        Happiness attend you; to add to mine, I beg you’ll write by the first Post,
                        which, next to seeing you, is the greatest I can Taste. I am, my Lord, with
                        all imaginable Tenderness and Respect, your most Affectionate Brother and
                        Humble Servant,</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>Brillian.</closer>
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            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> judg’d it proper that Alovisa shou’d see this Letter,
               because it so much concern’d her<pb n="74"/> Sister, and was ordering the Servant to carry
               it to her, (not being himself willing to speak to her) just as she was coming towards
               him: She had receiv’d a Letter from the <hi rend="italic">Baroness</hi>De Beronvill,
               at the same time that the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>Brillian’s was brought, and
               was glad to take the Opportunity of Communicating the Contents of it, in hopes by
               this Conversation, to be reconcil’d to her Husband: But the gloomy Sullenness of the
               Humour he had left her with, return’d at Sight of her, and after some little
               Discourse of Family Affairs, which he could not avoid answering, walk’d carelesly
               away: She follow’d him at a distance, ’till he was got up to the Gallery, and
               perceiving he went toward his Closet, mended her Pace, and was close to him when he
               was going in. My Lord, (said she) with a Voice but half assured, and which would not
               have given her leave to utter more, if he had not interrupted her, by telling her he
               would be alone, and shutting the Door hastily upon her, but she prevented his Locking
               of it, by pushing against it with all her Force, and he, not exerting his, for fear
               of hurting her, suffer’d her Entrance: But look’d on her with a Countenance so
               forbidding, as in spite of the natural Haughtiness of her Temper, and the Resolution
               she had made to speak to him, render’d her unable for some Moments to bring forth a
               Word; but the silent Grief, which appear’d in her Face, pleaded more with the good
               Nature of the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, than any thing she could have said: He
               began to pity the unhappiness of her too violent Affection, and to wish himself in a
               Capacity of returning it, however, he (like other Husbands) thought it best to keep
               up his Resentments, and take this Opportunity of Quelling all the <hi rend="italic">Woman</hi> in her Soul, and humbling all the little Remains of Pride that Love
               had left her. Madam, (resum’d he) with an Accent, which tho’ something more softned,
               was still imperious enough, if you have any Thing of Consequence to impart to me, I
               desire you will be as brief as you can, for I would be left to the Freedom<pb n="75"/> of my
               Thoughts---Alovisa cou’d not yet answer, but letting fall a Shower of Tears, and
               throwing her self on the Ground, Embrac’d his Knees with so Passionate a Tenderness,
               as sufficiently exprest her Repentance for having been guilty of any thing to
               disoblige him: D’elmont was most sensibly touch’d at this Behaviour, so vastly
               different from what he cou’d have expected from the greatness of her Spirit, and
               raising her with an obliging Air. I am sorry (said he) that any thing should happen
               to occasion this Submission, but since what’s past, is out of either of our Powers to
               recall: I shall endeavour to think of it no more, provided you’ll promise me, never
               for the future to be guilty of any thing which may give me an uneasiness by the sight
               of yours----’Tis impossible to represent the Transport of Alovisa at this kind
               Expression, she hung upon his Neck, kissed the dear Mouth which had pronounc’d her
               Pardon, with Raptures of unspeakable Delight, she sigh’d with Pleasure, as before she
               had done with Pain, she wept, she even dy’d with Joy!----No, no, my Lord, my Life, my
               Angel, (cry’d she, as soon as she had Power to speak) I never will Offend you more,
               no more be Jealous, no more be doubtful of my Happiness! You are!--you will be only
               mine, I know you will----Your kind Forgiveness of my Folly, assures me that you are
               mine, not more by Duty than by Love! A Tye far more valuable than that of Marriage.
               The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> conscious of her Mistake, had much ado to conceal
               his Disorder at these Words, and being unwilling she should proceed; as soon as he
               could (without seeming unkind or rude) disingag’d himself from her Arms, and took a
               Pen in his Hand, which he told her he was about to employ in answering the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> &gt;Brillian’s Letter; Alovisa who now resolv’d an entire
               Obedience to his Will, and remembring he had desired to be alone, withdrew, full of
               the Idea of an imagin’d Felicity----Her Heart was now at ease, she believ’d, that if
               her Husband had any Remains of Passion forAmena, the impossibility of<pb n="76"/> ever
               seeing her again, would soon extinguish them, and since she was so happily
               reconcil’d, was far from repenting her intercepting of his Letter: But poor Lady, she
               did not long enjoy this Peace of Mind, and this Interval of Tranquility serv’d but to
               heighten her ensuing Miseries.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count’s</hi> secret Passion for Melliora grew stronger by his
               endeavouring to suppress it, and perceiving that she carefully avoided all
               Opportunities of being alone with him one Moment, since his Behaviour to her in the
               Garden, he grew almost Distracted with the continual Restraint he was forc’d to put
               on all his Words and Actions: He durst not Sigh nor send an amorous Glance, for fear
               of offending her, and alarming his Wive’s Jealousy, so lately lull’d to Sleep: He had
               no Person in whom he had Confidence enough to trust with his Misfortune, and had
               certainly sunk under the Pressure of it, if Alovisa, who observing an Alteration in
               his Countenance and Humour, fearing he was really indispos’d (which was the excuse he
               made for his Melancholly) had not perswaded him to go into the Country, hoping that
               change of Air might do him good: He had a very fine Seat near <hi rend="italic">Anjerville</hi> in the Province of <hi rend="italic">Le Beausse</hi>, which he
               had not been at for some Years, and he was very willing to comply with Alovisa’s
               Desires of passing the remainder of the Summer in a Solitude, which was now become
               agreeable to him; the greatest Difficulty was, in perswading Melliora to accompany
               them thither; he guess’d by her reserv’d Behaviour, that she only waited an
               Opportunity to leave the Place where he was, and was not mistaken in his Conjecture:
               One Day as they were talking of it, she told them she was resolv’d to return to the
               Monastery where she had been Educated, that the World was too noisy a Place for one
               of her Taste, who had no relish for any of the Diversions of it: Every Word she
               spoke, was like a Dagger to D’elmont’s Heart; yet, he so artfully manag’d his
               Endeavours, between the Authority<pb n="77"/> of a Guardian, and the Entreaties of a Friend,
               that she was at last overcome. ’Tis hard for the severest Virtue to deny themselves
               the Sight of the Person belov’d, and whatever Resolutions we make, there are but few,
               who like Melliora might not by such a Lover be prevail’d upon to break them.</p>
            <p>As soon as their coming into the Country was spread abroad, they were visited by all
               the Neighbouring People of Quality, but there was none so welcome to D’elmont as the
                  <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>D’espernay; they had before theCount’s going into the
               Army been very intimate Acquaintance, and were equally glad of this opportunity to
               renew a Friendship, which Time and Absence had not entirely erac’d. The <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> had a Sister young, and very agreeable, but gay even to
               Coquetry; they liv’d together, being both single, and he brought her with him,
               hearing the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was Married, to visit his Lady: There were
               several other young Noble Men and Ladies there, at the same time, and the
               Conversation grew so delightfully Entertaining, that it was impossible for Persons
               less prepossest than the Count and Melliora, to retain their <hi rend="italic">Chagrin</hi>; but, tho’ there were scarce any in the Company that might not have
               list’ned with a pleas’d Attention, to what those two admirable Persons were capable
               of saying, yet their secret Sorrows kept them both in silence, ’tillMelantha, for
               that was the Name of the <hi rend="italic">Barons</hi> Sister, took upon her to
               divert the Company with some Verses on Love; which she took out of her Pocket-Book
               and read to ’em: Every Body extoll’d the softness of the Stile, and the Subject they
               were upon. But Melliora who was willing to take all opportunities of Condemning that
               Passion, as well to conceal it in her self as to check what ever hopes the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> might have, now discovered the force of her Reason, the
               Delicacy of her Wit, and the Penetration of her Judgment, in a manner so sweetly
               surprizing to all that were Strangers to her, that they presently found, that it was
               not want of Noble, and truly agreeable Thoughts or Words<pb n="78"/> to express ’em, that
               had so long depriv’d them of the Pleasure of hearing her; she urg’d the Arguments she
               brought against the giving way to Love, and the Danger of all softning Amusements,
               with such a becoming fierceness, as made every Body of the Opinion that she was born
               only to create Desire, not be susceptible of it her self. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> as he was most Concern’d, took the most particular Notice of all she
               said, and was not a little alarm’d to see her appear so much in earnest, but durst
               not answer, or Endeavour to confute her, because of Alovysa’s presence: But it was not
               long before he had an opportunity, a few Days after he met with one, as full as he
               cou’d wish. Returning one Evening from the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>D’espernay’s,
               whom he had now made the Confident of his Passion, and who had Encourag’d him in it,
               he was told that Alovysa was gone out to take the Air, and hearing no mention
               of Melliora’s being with her, he stay’d not to enquire, but running directly to her
               Chamber, made his Eyes his best Informers: He found her lying on a Couch in a most
               charming Dissabillee, she had but newly come from Bathing, and her Hair unbraided,
               hung down upon her Shoulders with a negligence more Beautiful than all the Aids of
               Art cou’d form in the most exact <hi rend="italic">Decorum</hi> of Dress; part of it
               fell upon her Neck and Breast, and with it’s Lovely Shadiness, being of a Delicate
               dark Brown, set off to vast Advantage, the matchless whiteness of her Skin: Her Gown
               and the rest of her Garments were white, and all ungirt, and loosely flowing,
               discover’d a Thousand Beauties, which Modish Formalities conceal. A Book lay open by
               her, on which she had reclin’d her Head, as if been tir’d with Reading, she Blush’d
               at sight of the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and rose from off the Couch with a
               Confusion which gave new Lustre to her Charms, but he not permitting her to stir from
               the place she was in, sat down by Her, and casting his Eyes on the Book which lay
               there, found it to be <hi rend="italic">Ovid’s-Epistles</hi>, How Madam (cry’d he,
               not a little pleas’d with the Discovery) dare you, who the other Day so warmly<pb n="79"/>
               inveigh’d against Writings of this Nature, trust your self with so Dangerous an
               Amusement? How happens it, that you are so suddenly come over to our Party? Indeed my
               Lord (answer’d she, growing more disorder’d) it was Chance rather than Choice, that
               directed this Book to my Hands, I am yet far from approving Subjects of this Kind,
               and believe I shall be ever so: Not that I can perceive any Danger in it, as to my
               self, the Retirement I have always liv’d in, and the little Propensity I find to
               entertain a Thought of that uneasie Passion, has hitherto secur’d me from any
               Prepossession, without which, <hi rend="italic">Ovid</hi>’s Art is Vain. Nay, Madam,
               reply’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, now you Contradict your former Argument,
               which was, that these sort of Books were, as it were, Preparatives to Love, and by
               their softning Influence, melted the Soul, and made it fit for amorous Impressions,
               and so far, you certainly were in the right, for when once the Fancy is fixed on a
               real Object, there will be no need of Auxillary Forces, the Dear Idea will spread it
               self thro’ every Faculty of the Soul, and in a Moment inform us better, than all the
               Writings of the most Experienc’d Poets, cou’d do in an Age. Well, my Lord, (said she
               endeavouring to Compose her self) I am utterly unambitious of any Learning this way,
               and shall endeavour to retain in Memory, more of the Misfortunes that attended the
               Passion of <hi rend="italic">Sappho</hi>, than the Tender, tho’ never so Elegant
               Expressions it produc’d: And if all Readers of Romances took this Method, the
               Votaries of <hi rend="italic">Cupid</hi> wou’d be fewer, and the Dominion of Reason
               more Extensive. You speak (Answer’d D’elmont) as tho’ Love and Reason were
               Incompatible, there is no Rule (said she) my Lord, without Exception, they are indeed
               sometimes united, but how often they are at Variance, where may we not find Proofs,
               History is full of them, and daily Examples of the many Hair-brain’d Matches, and
               slips, much less excusable, sufficiently evince how little Reason has to do in the
               Affairs of Love, I mean (continu’d she, with a very serious Air) that sort of Love,
               for<pb n="80"/> there are two, which hurries People on to an immediate Gratification of
               their Desires, tho’ never so prejudicial to themselves, or the Person they pretend to
               Love. Pray Madam (said the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> a little nettled at this
               Discourse) what Love is that which seems at least to Merit the Approbation of a Lady
               so extreamly nice? It has many Branches (reply’d she) in the first Place that which
               we owe to Heaven, in the next to our King, our Country, Parents, Kindred, Friends,
               and Lastly, that which Fancy inclines, and Reason guides us to, in a Partner for
               Life, but here every Circumstance must agree, Parity of Age, of Quality, of Fortune,
               and of Humour, Consent of Friends, and Equal Affection in each other, for if any one
               of these particulars fail, it renders all the rest of no Effect. Ah, Madam (cry’d the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> not able to suffer her to proceed). What share of
               Pity then can you afford to a Man who, loves where almost all these Circumstances are
               wanting, and what Advice wou’d you give a wretch so Curst? I wou’d have him <hi rend="italic">think</hi>, (said she more Gravely than before) How Madam, (resum’d
               he) think did you say? Alas! ’Tis Thought that has undone him, that’s very possible
               (answer’d she) but yet ’tis want of thinking justly, for in a Lovers Mind Illusions
               seem Realities, and what at an other time wou’d be look’d on as Impossible, appears
               easie then: They indulge, and feed their new-born Folly with a prospect of a Hope,
               tho’ ne’re so distant a one, and in the vain pursuit of it, fly Consideration, ’till
               dispair starts up in the midway, and bar’s their promis’d View; whereas if they gave
               way to due Reflection, the Vanity of the Attempt wou’d presently be shown, and the
               same cause that bid ’em cease to hope, wou’d bid ’em cease to wish: Ah Madam (said
               he) how little do you know of that Passion, and how easily cou’d I disprove you by
               the Example of my Friend; despair and Love are of an equal Age in him, and from the
               first Moment he beheld his Adorable Charmer, he has Languished without the least
               mixture of a flattering Hope. I Grant the Flames with which our Modern Gallants are
               ordinarily animated, cannot long<pb n="81"/> subsist without Fewel, but where Love is
               kindled in a Generous Heart by a just Admiration of the real Merits of the Object
               belov’d, Reason goes Hand in Hand with it, and makes it lasting as our Life. In my
               Mind (answer’d Melliora Coldly) an Esteem so Grounded may more properly be ascribed to
               Friendship, then be it so Madam, (rejoyn’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> briskly)
               Friendship and Love, where either are sincere, vary but little in their meaning,
               there may indeed be some Distinctions in their Ceremonies, but their Essentials are
               still the same: And if the Gentleman I speak of were so happy as to hope his
               Friendship wou’d be acceptable, I dare promise that he never wou’d complain his Love
               were not so. You have a strange way (said she) to Confound Idea’s, which in my
               Opinion are so vastly different, that I shou’d make no Difficulty in granting my
               Friendship to as many of my Acquaintance, as had Merit to deserve it; but if I were
               to Love in that general Manner, ’twould be a Crime wou’d justly render me
               Contemptible to Mankind: Madam (replyed the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>) when I
               spoke of the Congruity of Love and Friendship, I did not mean that sort, which to me,
               seems unworthy of the Name of either, but that Exalted one, which made <hi rend="italic">Orestes</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Pilades</hi>, <hi rend="italic">Theseus</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Perithous</hi> so Famous. That, which has no
               Reserve, no separate Interest, or divided Thoughts, That which fills all,----gives
               all the Soul, and esteems even Life a Trifle, to prove it self sincere----What can
               Love do more than yield every thing to the object Belov’d? And Friendship must do so
               too, or it is not Friendship! Therefore take heed fair Angel (continu’d he, taking
               her Hand, and kissing it) how you Promise Friendship, where you ne’re mean to Love:
               And observing she was Silent, your Hand, (said he) your Lip, your Neck, your Breast,
               your All.----All this whole Heaven of Beauty must be no longer in your own
               Disposal----All is the Prize of Friendship! As much Confus’d as Melliora was, at these
               Words, which gave her sufficient Reason to fear he wou’d now declare himself more
               fully than she desir’d;<pb n="82"/> she had Spirit and Resolution enough to withdraw her
               Hand from his, and with a look, that spoke her Meaning but too plainly for the repose
               of the Enamour’d D’elmont: I shall take care my Lord (said she) how I Commence a
               Friendship with any Person who shall make use of it to my Prejudice.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was now sensible of his Error in going so far, and
               fearing he had undone himself in her Esteem by his rash Proceeding, thought it was
               best at once to throw off a Disguise which, in spight of his Endeavours wou’d fall
               off, of itself, and by making a bold and free Confession of his real Sentiments,
               oblige her to a Discovery of hers.----I do not doubt your Caution, Madam, (answer’d
               he) in this point: Your Reserved Behaviour, even to me, convinces me, but too fully,
               how little you are disposed to give, or receive any Proofs of Friendship: But perhaps
               (continu’d he, with a deep sigh) my too presuming Eyes have rendred me a suspected
               Person, and while you find in me the Wretch I have discrib’d, you find nothing in me
               worthy of a happier Fortune; you are worthy every thing my Lord, (said Melliora quite
               beside her self at these Words) nor are you less happy than you deserve to be, and I
               wou’d rather that these Eyes shou’d loose their sight than view you otherwise than
               now I see you, blest in every Circumstance, the Darling of the World, the Idol of the
               Court, and Favourite of Heaven! Oh stop! (Cry’d D’elmont hastily Interrupting her)
               forbear to Curse me farther, rather Command my Death, than wish the Continuance of my
               present Miseries. Cruel Melliora too well, alas, you know what I have endur’d from the
               first fatal Moment I beheld you, and only feign an Ignorance to distract me more: A
               Thousand times you have read my Rising wishes, sparkling in my Eyes, and glowing on
               my Cheeks, as often seen my Virtue struggling in silent Tremblings, and Life-wasting
               Anguish to suppress desire. Nay, Madam (said he Catching fast hold of both her Hands,
               seeing her about to rise) by all my sleepless Nights, and restless<pb n="83"/> Days, by all
               my countless burning Agonies; by all the Torments of my gall’d, bleeding Heart, I
               swear, that you shall hear me: I have heard too much (cry’d Melliora not able to
               contain her self) and tho’ I am unwilling to believe you have any farther aim in this
               Discourse than your Diversion, yet I must tell your Lordship, that there are Themes
               more proper for it, than the Daughter of your Friend, who was entrusted to your Care
               with a far different Opinion of your Behaviour to her. What have I done (resum’d the
               almost the Distracted <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, falling at her Feet, and grasping
               her Knees) what have I done, Inhuman Melliora! To deserve this Rigour? My Honour has
               hitherto prevail’d above desire, fierce, and raging as it is, nor had I any other
               hopes by making this Declaration, than to meet that pity my Misfortunes merit; and
               you cannot without Ingratitude deny: Pity, even to Criminals is allow’d, and sure,
               where the offence is unvoluntary, like mine, ’tis due: ’Tis impossible to guess the
               Conflict in Melliora’s Breast at this Instant, she had heard a most Passionate
               Declaration of Love from a married Man, and by Consequence, whatever his Pretences
               were, cou’d look on his Designs no otherwise than aim’d at the Destruction of her
               Honour, and was fir’d with a virtuous Indignation. But then she saw in this married
               Man, the only Person in the World, who was capable of Inspiring her with a tender
               Thought, she saw him reduc’d to the last Extremity of Despair for her sake: She heard
               his sighs, she felt his Tremblings as he held her, and cou’d not refrain shedding
               some Tears, both for him, and for her self, who indeed suffer’d little less; but the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was not so happy as to be Witness of this Testimony
               of her Compassion: He had reclin’d his Head on her Lap, possibly to hide those that
               forc’d their way thro’ his Eyes, at the same time; and Alovisa’s Voice which they
               heard below, giving them both an Alarm; they had no further opportunity for Speech,
               and the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was but just gone out of the Room,
               and Melliora<pb n="84"/> laid on the Couch in the same careless Possture which he had found
               her in; when Alovisa enter’d the Chamber, and after having a little pleasantly
               Reproach’d her, for being so lazy as not to accompany her in the Walk she had been
               taking, ask’d her if she had not seen the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, who she had
               been told was come home: Poor Melliora had much ado to conceal the Disorder she was in
               at this Question, but recovering her self as well as she could, answer’d in the
               Affirmative; but that he had not staid there longer than to enquire where she was
               gone, and that she knew not but he might be gone in search of her: This was enough to
               make Alovisa take her leave, impatient for the Sight of her dear Lord, a Happiness she
               had not enjoy’d since Morning, but she was disappointed of her Hope. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, as late as it was in the Evening, went into his Chaise,
               which had not been set up since he came from the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>D’espernay’s and drove thither again with all the Speed he could.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> was extreamly surpriz’d at his sudden Return, and
               with so much Confusion and Melancholy in his Countenance. But much more so, when he
               had given him an Account of what had pass’d between him and Melliora and cou’d not
               forbear rallying him excessively on the Occasion. What, said he, a Man of Wit, and
               Pleasure like <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>D’elmont a Man, who knows the Sex so well,
               could he let slip so favourable an Opportunity with the finest Woman in the World;
               One, for whose Enjoyment he wou’d Die.----Cou’d a Frown, or a little angry Coyness,
               (which ten to one was but affected) have Power to freeze such fierce Desires. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was not at present in a Humour to relish this Merriment,
               he was too seriously in Love to bear that any thing relating to it, should be turn’d
               into Ridicule, and was far from repenting he had done no more, since what he had
               done, had occasion’d her Displeasure: But the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>, who had
               Designs in his Head, which he knew cou’d<pb n="85"/> not by any means be brought to succeed,
               but by keeping the <hi rend="italic">Count’s</hi> Passion warm, made Use of all the
               Artifice he was Master of, to embolden this respective Lover, to the Gratification of
               his Wishes: And growing more grave than he had been, My Lord, said he, you do not
               only injure the Dignity of our Sex in general, but your own Merits in particular, and
               perhaps even Melliora’s secret Inclinations, by this unavailing distant Carriage: and
               causeless Despair.----Have you not confess’d that she has look’d on you with a
               Tenderness, like that of Love, that she has blush’d at your Sight, and trembled at
               your Touch?----What would you more that she should do, or what indeed, can she do
               more, in Modesty, to prove her Heart is yours? A little Resolution on your side would
               make her all yours----Women are taught by Custom to deny what most they covet, and to
               seem Angry, when they are best Pleas’d; believe me, D’elmont, that the most rigid
               Virtue of ’em all, never yet hated a Man for those Faults, which Love occasions: All
               this answer’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, is what I readily agree to:---But O
               her Father’s Memory! My Obligation to him! Her Youth and Innocence are Daggers to my
               cool Reflections---Wou’d it not be Pity (<hi rend="italic">D’espernay!</hi> continued
               he with a deep Sigh) even if she shou’d consent, to ruin so much Sweetness? The <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> could not forbear laughing at these Words, and the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> who had started these Objections, only with the Hope of
               having them remov’d, easily suffer’d himself to be perswaded to follow his
               Inclinations; and it was soon concluded betwixt them, that on the first Opportunity,
               Melliora should fall a Sacrifice to Love.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> came not Home ’till the next Morning, and brought
               the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> with him, for they were now become inseparable
               Friends: At his return, he found Alovisa in a very ill Humour for his being abroad
               all Night, and in spite of the Resolution she had made of shewing a perfect
               Resignation to her Husband’s<pb n="86"/> Will, could not forbear giving him some Hints, how
               unkindly she took it, which he but little regarded, all his Thoughts were now bent on
               the gaining Melliora. But that Lady alarm’d at his late Behaviour, and with Reason,
               doubting her own Power of resenting it as she ought, or indeed resisting any future
               Attempts he might make, feign’d the necessity of performing some private Rules of
               Devotion, enjoyn’d her as a Pennance, and kept her Chamber that she might not see
               him.</p>
            <p>The Disquietudes of D’elmont for being forc’d to live, but for three or four Days
               without the happiness of beholding her, convinc’d him how impossible it was for him
               to overcome his Passion, tho’ he should never so vigorously endeavour it, and that
               whatever Method he shou’d make use of to satisfy it, might be excus’d by the
               Necessity.</p>
            <p>What is it that a Lover cannot accomplish when Resolution is on his Side? D’elmont
               after having formed a Thousand fruitless Inventions, at last pitch’d on One, which
               promis’d him an assurance of Success: In Melliora’s Chamber there was a little Door
               that open’d to a Pair of Back Stairs, for the Convenience of the Servants coming to
               clean the Room, and at the Bottom of that Descent, a Gate into the Garden. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> set his Wits to work, to get the Keys of those two Doors;
               that of the Garden stood always in it, nor cou’d he keep it without its being miss’d
               at Night, when they shou’d come to fasten the Gate, therefore he carefully took the
               Impression in Wax, and had one made exactly like it: The other he cou’d by no means
               compass without making some excuse to go to Melliora’s Chamber, and she had desired
               that none might visit her: But he overcome this Bar to his Design at last; there was
               a Cabinet in it, where he told Alovisa he had put some Papers of great Concern, which
               now he wanted to look over, and desired she would make an Apology for his coming<pb n="87"/>
               in, to fetch them. Melliora imagin’d this was only a Pretence to see her, but his Wife
               being with him, and he saying nothing to her, or taking any further notice than what
               common Civility required, was not much troubled at it. While Alovisa was paying a
               Complement to the Recluse, he was dext’rous enough to slip the Key out of the Door,
               unperceiv’d by either of them.</p>
            <p>As soon as he had got the Passport to his expected Joys in his Possession, he order’d
               a couple of Saddle Horses to be made ready, and only attended by one Servant, rid
               out, as if to take the Air; but when they were got about two or three Miles from his
               House, Commanded him to return and tell his Lady, that he should lye that Night at
               the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>D’espernay’s, the Fellow obey’d, and clapping Spurs
               to his Horse, was immediately lost in a Cloud of Dust.</p>
            <p>D’elmont had sent this Message to prevent any of the Family sitting up expecting him,
               and instead of going to the <hi rend="italic">Barons</hi>, turn’d short, and went to
                  <hi rend="italic">Angerville</hi>, where meeting with some Gentlemen of his
               Acquaintance, he pass’d the Hours ’till between Twelve and One, as pleasantly as his
               Impatience to be with Melliora would give him leave: He had not much above a Furlong
               to ride, and his Desires made him not spare his Horse, which he ty’d by the Bridle,
               hot and foaming as he was, to a huge Oak, which grew pretty near his Garden; it was
               incompass’d only with a Hedge, and that so low, that he got over it without any
               Difficulty; he look’d carefully about him, and found no Tell-tale Lights in any of
               the Rooms, and concluding all was as hush’d as he cou’d wish, open’d the first Door,
               but the encreasing Transports of his Soul, as he came up Stairs, to be so near the
               end of all his Wishes, are more easily imagin’d than express’d; but as violent as
               they were, they presently receiv’d a vast Addition, when he came into the happy
               Chamber, and by a most delightfull<pb n="88"/> Gloom, a Friend to Lovers, (for it was
               neither Dark nor Light), he beheld the lovely Melliora in her Bed, and fast asleep,
               her Head was reclin’d on one of her Arms; a Pillow softer and whiter far than that it
               lean’d on, the other was stretch’d out, and with its extension had thrust down the
               Bed-cloths so far, that all the Beauties of her Neck and Breast appear’d to View. He
               took an inexpressible Pleasure in gazing on her as she lay, and in this silent
               Contemplation of her thousand Charms, his Mind was agitated with various Emotions,
               and the resistless Posture he beheld her in, rouz’d all that was honourable in him,
               he thought it Pity even to wake her, but more to wrong such Innocence; and he was
               sometimes prompted to return and leave her as he found her.</p>
            <p>But whatever Dominion, Honour and Virtue may have over our waking Thoughts, ’tis
               certain that they fly from the clos’d Eyes, our Passions then exert their forceful
               Power, and that which is most Predominant in the Soul, agitates the Fancy, and brings
               even Things impossible to pass: Desire, with watchful Diligence repell’d, returns
               with greater Violence in unguarded Sleep, and overthrows the vain Efforts of
               Day. Melliora in spite of her self, was often happy in Idea, and possess’d a Blessing
               which Shame and Guilt deter’d her from in reality. Imagination at this Time was
               active, and brought the charming Count much nearer than indeed he was, and he,
               stooping to the Bed, and gently laying his Face close to hers, (possibly designing no
               more than to steal a Kiss from her, unperceiv’d) that Action concurring at that
               Instant with her Dream, made her throw her Arm (still slumbering) about his Neck, and
               in a soft and languishing Voice, cry out, O! D’elmont, cease, cease to Charm, to such
               a height----Life cannot bear these Raptures!---And then again Embracing him yet
               closer,---O! too, too lovely <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>---Extatick Ruiner!</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="89"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Where was now the Resolution he was forming some Moments before? If he had now left
               her, some might have applauded an Honour so uncommon, but more wou’d have condemn’d
               his Stupidity, for I believe there are very few Men, how Stoical soever they pretend
               to be, that in such a tempting Circumstance would not have lost all Thoughts, but
               those, which the present Opportunity inspir’d. That he did, is most certain, for he
               tore open his Wastecoat, and joyn’d his panting Breast to hers, with such a
               tumultuous Eagerness! Seiz’d her with such a rapidity of transported Hope-crown’d
               Passion, as immediately wak’d her from an imaginary Felicity, to the Approaches of a
               solid one. Where have I been (said she, just opening her Eyes) where am I?---(And
               then coming more perfectly to her self) Heaven! What’s this?--I am D’elmont (cry’d the
               o’erjoy’d <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>) the happy D’elmont! Melliora’s, the
               charming Melliora’s D’elmont! Oh, all ye Saints, (resum’d the surpriz’d, trembling
               Fair) ye ministring Angels! Whose Business it is to guard the Innocent! Protect and
               shield my Virtue! O! say, how came you here, my Lord? Love, said he, Love that does
               all, that Wonder-working Power has sent me here, to charm thee, sweet Resister, into
               yielding. O! hold, (cry’d she, finding he was proceeding to Liberties, which her
               Modesty could not allow of) forbear, I do conjure you, even by that Love you plead,
               before my Honour I’ll resign my Life! Therefore, unless you wish to see me dead, a
               Victim to your cruel, fatal Passion, I beg you to desist, and leave me:---I
               cannot---must not (answer’d he, growing still more bold) what, when I have thee thus!
               Thus naked in my Arms, trembling, defenceless, yielding, panting with equal Wishes,
               thy Love confess’d, and every Thought, Desire! What could’st thou think if I should
               leave thee? How justly would’st thou scorn my easy Tameness; my Dulness, unworthy the
               Name of Lover, or even of Man!--Come, come, no more<pb n="90"/> Reluctance (continued he,
               gathering Kisses from her soft Snowy Breast at every Word) Damp not the Fires thou
               hast rais’d with seeming Coyness! I know thou art mine! All mine! And thus I--yet
               think (said she, interrupting him, and struggling in his Arms) think what ’tis that
               you wou’d do; nor, for a Moment’s Joy, hazard your Peace for ever. By Heaven, cry’d
               he, I will this Night be Master of my Wishes, no matter what to Morrow may bring
               forth: As soon as he had spoke these Words, he put it out of her Power either to deny
               or reproach him, by stopping her Mouth with Kisses, and was just on the Point of
               making good what he had vow’d, when a loud knocking at the Chamber Door, put a stop
               to his beginning Extacy, and chang’d the sweet Confusion Melliora had been in, to
               all the Horrors, of a Shame and Guilt-distracted Apprehension: They made no Doubt but
               that it was Alovisa, and that they were betray’d; the <hi rend="italic">Count’s</hi>
               greatest Concern was for Melliora, and the Knocking still continuing louder, all he
               cou’d do in this Exigence, was to make his Escape the Way he came: There was no time
               for taking leave, and he could only say, perceiving she was ready to faint with her
               Fears-----Be comforted my Angel, and resolute in your Denials, to whatever Questions
               the natural Insolence of a Jealous Wife may provoke mine to ask you; and we shall
               meet again (if D’elmont survives this Disappointment) without Danger, of so quick, so
               curst a Separation. Melliora was in too much Distraction to make any Answer to what he
               said, and he had left the Room some Moments, before she cou’d get Spirit enough to
               ask who was at the Door? But when she did, was as much surpriz’d to find it was
               &gt;Melantha, who desir’d to be let in, as before she was frighted at the Belief it
               was Alovisa, however, she immediately slipt on her Night-Gown and Slippers, and open’d
               the Door.</p>
            <p>You are a sound Sleeper indeed (Cry’dMelantha laughing) that all the Noise I have
               made cou’d not<pb n="91"/> wake you. I have not been all this time asleep (answer’d
               Melliora) but not knowing you were in the House, cou’d not imagine who it was that
               gave me this Disturbance. I heartily ask your Pardon (said &gt;Melantha) and I know, my
               Dear, you are too good Natur’d to refuse it me, especially when you know the
               Occasion, which is so very Whimsical, that as grave as you are, you cannot help being
               diverted with it----But come (continu’d she) get on your Cloaths, for you must go
               along with me. Where, said Melliora, Nay, nay, ask no Questions (resum’d &gt;Melantha)
               but make haste, every Minute that we Idle away here, loses us the Diversion of an
               Age. As she spoke these Words, she fell into such an excessive Laughter, that Melliora
               thought her Mad, but being far from Sympathizing in her Gaiety; it has always (said
               she) been hitherto my Custom to have some Reason for what I do, tho’ in never so
               trifling an Affair, and you must excuse me, if I do not break it now. Pish
               (cry’dMelantha) you are of the oddest Temper,----but I will give you your Way for
               once,-----provided you’ll get your self ready in the mean time. I shall certainly put
               on my Cloaths (said Melliora) lest I should take cold, for I expect you’ll not permit
               me to sleep any more this Night. You may be sure of it (rejoyn’dMelantha.) But to the
               Purpose,-----You must know, having an Hour or two on my hands, I came this Evening to
               visit Alovysa, and found her in the strangest Humour!----Good God! What unaccountable
               Creatures these married Women are?----her Husband it seems had sent her Word that he
               wou’d lye at my Brothers, and the poor loving Soul cou’d not bear to live a Night
               without him. I stay’d to condole with her, (tho’ on my Life, I cou’d scarce forbear
               Laughing in her Face) ’till it was too late to go Home.----About twelve a Clock she
               yawn’d, stretch’d, and grew most horridly out of Temper; rail’d at Mankind
               prodigiously, and curs’d Matrimony as heartily as one of Fourscore cou’d do, that had
               been twice a Widow, and was left a Maid!----With much<pb n="92"/> ado, I made her Women
               thrust her into Bed, and retired to a Chamber which they shew’d me, but I had no
               Inclination to sleep, I remember’d my self of five or six <hi rend="italic">Billet-Doux</hi> I had to answer,----a Lover, that growing foolishly troublesome,
               I have some thoughts of discharging to Morrow----Another that I design to
               Countenance, to pique a third----a new Suit of Cloaths, and Trimmings for the next
               Ball----Half a hundred new Songs---and---a thousand other Affairs of the utmost
               Consequence to a young Lady, came into my Head in a Moment; and the Night being
               extreamly pleasant, I set the Candle in the Chimney, open’d the Window, and fell to
               considering---But I had not been able to come to a conclusion what I should do in any
               one thing I was thinking of, before I was interrupted in my Cogitations, with a noise
               of something rushing hastily thro’ the Myrtles under my Window, and presently after,
               saw it was a Man going hastily along toward the great Alley of the Garden.----At
               first I was going to cry out and Alarm the Family, taking it for a Thief; But,
               Dear Melliora, how glad am I that I did not?----For who do you think, when I look’d
               more heedfully, I perceiv’d it was? Nay, how should I know? (cry’d Melliora peevishly,
               fearing the <hi rend="italic">Count’s</hi> Inadvertency had expos’d himself and her
               to this foolish Woman’s Curiosity) It was <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>D’elmont
               (resum’dMelantha) I’ll lay my Life, that he has been on some Intreague to Night: And
               met with a Disappointment in it, by his quick Return.---But prithee make hast, for I
               long to rally him about it. What wou’d you do Madam? (said Melliora) you wou’d not
               sure go to him? Yes, (answer’dMelantha): I will go down into the Garden, and so shall
               you.---I know you have a back Way from your Chamber---Therefore lay aside this
               unbecoming Demureness, and let us go, and talk him to Death. You may do as you
               please, (said Melliora) but for my part, I am for no such Frolicks. Was ever any thing
               so young, so Formal as you are! (Rejoyn’dMelantha) but I am resolv’d to Teaze<pb n="93"/>
               you out of a humour so directly opposite to the <hi rend="italic">Beau-Monde</hi>,
               and, if you will not Consent to go down with me: I will fetch him up to your
               Chamber----Hold! Hold, (cry’d Melliora perceiving she was going) what do you mean, for
               Heavens sake stay, what will Alovysa think?---I care not, reply’d the other; I have
               set my Heart on an hours Diversion with him and will not be baulk’d, if the repose of
               the World, much less, that of a Jealous, silly Wife, depended on it.</p>
            <p>Melliora saw into the Temper of this Capricious young Lady too well not to believe
               she wou’d do, as she had said, and perhaps, was not over willing to venture her with
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> alone, at that Time of Night, and in the Humour she
               knew he was, therefore putting on an Air more chearful than that she was Accustom’d
               to wear, well (said she) I will Accompany you into the Garden, since it will so much
               oblige you; but if the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> be wise, he will, by quitting the
               Place, as soon as he sees us, disappoint you worse than I shou’d have done, if I had
               kept you here. With these Words she took her by the Hand, and they went down the
               Stairs, where the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was but just past before them.</p>
            <p>He had not Power to go away, without knowing who it was, that had given him that
               Interruption, and had stood all this Time, on the upper Step behind the inner Door.
               His Vexation, and Disdain when he heard it wasMelantha gave him as much Pain, as his
               Concern while he believ’d it Alovysa, and he cou’d not forbear muttering a thousand
               Curses on her Impertinence. He always despis’d, but now abhor’d her: She had behav’d
               her self to him in a Fashion, as made him sufficiently Sensible she was desirous of
               engaging him, and he resolv’d to Mortifie by the bitterest Slights, both her Pride,
               and Love, if ’tis proper, to call that sort of liking which Agitates the Soul of <hi rend="italic">Coquet</hi>, by that Name.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="94"/>
                        </p>
            <p>The Ladies walk’d in the Garden for some time, andMelantha search’d every Bush,
               before she found the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> who stood Conceal’d in the Porch,
               which being cover’d with <hi rend="italic">Jessamin</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">Fillaree</hi>, was Dark enough to hide him from their View, tho’ they had pass’d
               close to him as they came out. He had certainly remain’d there ’till Morning, and
               disappointed &gt;Melantha’s search in part of the Revenge he ow’d her, if his Desires to
               be with Melliora, on any Terms, had not prevail’d, even above his Anger to the other.
               But he cou’d not see that Charmer of his Soul, and imagine there might be yet an
               opportunity that Night of stealing a Kiss from her (now he believ’d resistless Lips)
               of Touching her Hand! Her Breast! And repeating some farther Freedoms which his late
               Advantage over her had given him, without being fill’d with Wishes too Fiery and too
               Impatient to be restrain’d. He watch’d their turning, and when he saw that they were
               near an Ally which had another that led to it, he went round and met them.</p>
            <p>Melantha was overjoy’d at sight of him, and Melliora, tho’ equally pleas’d, was
               Cover’d with such a Confusion, at the Remembrance of what had pass’d, that it was
               happy for her that her Companion’s Volubility gave her no room for Speech. There is
               nothing more certain, than that Love, tho’ it fills the mind with a thousand charming
               Ideas, which those untouch’d by that Passion, are not capable of conceiving, yet it
               entirely takes away the Power of Utterance, and the deeper Impression it had made on
               the Soul, the less we are able to express it, when willing to indulge and give a
               loose to Thought; what Language can furnish us with Words sufficient, all are too
               poor, all wanting both in Sublimity, and Softness, and only Fancy! A lovers Fancy!
               can reach the Exalted soaring of a Lovers Meaning! But, if so impossible to be
               Describ’d, if of so Vast, so Wonderful a Nature as nothing but it’s self can
               Comprehend,<pb n="95"/> how much more impossible must it be, entirely to conceal it! What
               Strength of boasted Reasons? What Force of Resolution? What modest Fears, or cunning
               Artifice can correct the Fierceness of its fiery Flashes in the Eyes, keep down the
               struggling Sighs, command the Pulse, and bid trembling cease? Honour and Virtue may
               distance Bodies, but there is no Power in either of those Names, to stop the Spring,
               that with a rapid Whirl transports us from our selves, and darts our Souls into the
               Bosom of the darling Object. This may seem strange to many, even of those who call,
               and perhaps believe that they are Lovers, but the few who have Delicacy enough to
               feel what I but imperfectly attempt to speak, will acknowledge it for Truth, and pity
               the Distress of Melliora.</p>
            <p>As they were passing thro’ a Walk of Trees on each Side, whose intermingling Boughs
               made a friendly Darkness, and every thing Undistinguishable, the Amorous D’elmont
               throwing his eager Arms round the Waist of his (no less transported) Melliora, and
               Printing burning Kisses on her Neck, reap’d painful Pleasure, and created in her a
               racking kind of Extasie, which might perhaps, had they been now alone, prov’d her
               Desires were little different from his.</p>
            <p>After Melantha had vented part of the Raillery, she was so big with, on the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, which he but little regarded, being wholly taken up with
               other Thoughts, she propos’d, going into the Wilderness, which was at the farther end
               of the Garden, and they readily agreeing to it. Come, my Lord, (said she) to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, you are Melancholly, I have thought of a way which will
               either indulge the Humour you are in, or divert it, as you shall chuse: There are
               several little Paths in this Wilderness, let us take each a separate one, and when we
               meet, which shall be here, where we part, agree to tell an entertaining Story, which,
               whoever fails in, shall be<pb n="96"/> doom’d to the Punishment of being left here all
               Night: The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> at these Words, forgot all his Animosity, and
               was ready to hug her for this Proposal. Melliora did a little oppose it; but the
               others were too Powerful, and she was forc’d to submit: Thou art the dullest
               Creature, I’ll lay my Life, (my Lord, cry’dMelantha, taking hold of the Count in a
               gay manner) that it falls to her Lot to stay in the Wilderness. Oh Madam, (reply’d
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>) you are too severe, we ought always to suspend our
               Judgment ’till after the Tryal, which I confess my self so pleas’d with, that I am
               Impatient for its coming on: Well then, (said she, laughing) farewel for half an
               Hour. Agreed (cry’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>) and walk’d away:Melantha saw
               which way he went, and took another Path, leaving Melliora to go forward in that, in
               which they were, but I believe the Reader will easily imagine that she was not long
               to enjoy the Priviledge of her Meditations.</p>
            <p>After the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> had gone some few Paces, he planted himself
               behind a Thicket, which, while it hid him, gave the Opportunity of observing them,
               and when he found the Coast clear, rush’d out, and with unhurting Gripe, seiz’d once
               more on the unguarded Prey. Blest turn of Fortune, (said he in a Rapture,) Happy,
               happy Moment!---Lost, lost Melliora, (said she) most unhappy Maid!---Oh why, my Lord,
               this quick Return? This is no Place to answer thee, (resum’d he, taking her in his
               Arms, and bearing her behind that Thicket, where he himself had stood) ’twas in vain
               for her to resist, if she had had the Power over her Inclinations, ’till he, sitting
               her softly down, and beginning to Caress her in the manner he had done when she was
               in Bed, she assum’d Strength enough to raise her self a little, and catching hold of
               his Transgressing Hands, laid her Face on them, and Bath’d them in a shower of Tears:
               O! D’elmont (said she) Cruel D’elmont! Will you then take Advantage of my Weakness? I
               confess I<pb n="97"/> feel for you, a Passion, far beyond all, that yet, ever bore the Name
               of Love, and that I can no longer withstand the too powerful Magick of your Eyes, nor
               deny any Thing that charming Tongue can ask; but now’s the Time to prove your self
               the Heroe! subdue your self, as you have Conquer’d me! be satisfied with Vanquishing
               my Soul, fix there your Throne, but leave my Honour free! Life of my Life (cry’d he)
               wound me no more by such untimely Sorrows: I cannot bear thy Tears, by Heaven they
               sink into my Soul, and quite unman me, but tell me (continu’d he tenderly Kissing
               her) coud’st thou, with all this Love, this charming----something more than
               softness-----cou’dst thou I say, consent to see me Pale and Dead, stretch’d at thy
               Feet, consum’d with inward Burnings, rather than blest, than rais’d by Love, and
               thee, to all a Deity in thy Embraces? For O! Believe me when I swear, that ’tis
               impossible to live without thee. No more, no more (said she letting her Head fall
               gently on his Breast) too easily I guess thy sufferings by my own. But yet, D’elmont
               ’tis better to die in Innocence, than to live in Guilt. O! Why (Resum’d he, sighing
               as if his Heart wou’d burst) shou’d what we can’t avoid, be call’d a Crime? Be
               Witness for me Heaven! How much I have struggl’d with this rising Passion, even to
               Madness struggl’d!---but in vain, the mounting Flame blazes the more, the more I
               wou’d suppress it---my very Soul’s on Fire---I cannot bear it---Oh Melliora! Didst
               thou but know the thousandth Part, of what this Moment I endure, the strong
               Convulsions of my warring Thoughts, thy Heart steel’d as it is, and Frosted round
               with Virtue, wou’d burst it’s icy Shield, and melt in Tears of Blood, to pity me.
               Unkind and Cruel! (answer’d she) do I not partake them then?----Do I not bear, at
               least, an equal share in all your Agonies? Have---you no Charms---or have not I a
               Heart?---A most susceptible and tender Heart?----Yes, you may feel it Throb, it beats
               against my Breast, like an Imprison’d Bird, and fain wou’d burst it’s Cage! to fly to
               you, the aim of all it’s Wishes!--Oh D’elmont!--With<pb n="98"/> these Words she sunk wholly
               into his Arms unable to speak more: Nor was he less dissolv’d in Rapture, both their
               Souls seem’d to take Wing together, and left their Bodies Motionless, as unworthy to
               bear a part in their more elevated Bliss.</p>
            <p>But D’elmont at his returning Sense, repenting the Effects of the violent Transport,
               he had been in was now, preparing to take from the resistless Melliora, the last, and
               only remaining Proof that she was all his own, whenMelantha (who had contriv’d this
               separation only with a Design to be alone with the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and
               had carefully observ’d which way he took) was coming towards them. The rustling of
               her Cloaths among the Bushes, gave the disappointed Couple leave to rise from the
               Posture they were in, and Melliora to abscond behind a Tree, before she could come
               near enough to discern who was there.</p>
            <p>Melantha, as soon as she saw the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, put on an Air, of
               Surprize, as if it were but by Chance, that she was come into his walk, and Laughing
               with a visible Affectation, bless me! You here, my Lord! (said she) I vow this has
               the look of Assignation, but I hope you will not be so vain as to believe I came on
               purpose to seek you. No Madam (answer’d he coldly) I have not the least Thought of
               being so happy. Lord! You are strangely grave (Rejoyn’d she) but suppose I really had
               come with a Design to meet you, what kind of Reception might I have expected? I know
               no Reason Madam (said he) that can oblige me to entertain a Supposition so unlikely.
               Well then (resum’d she) I’ll put it past a Supposition, and tell you plainly, that I
               did walk this way on purpose to divert your Spleen. I am sorry (reply’d he, tir’d to
               Death with her Impertinence) that you are disappointed; for I am not in a Humour at
               present, of receiving any Diversion. Fie (said she) is this an answer for the gay,
               Gallant, engaging <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> D’elmont, to give a Lady who makes a
               Declaration of admiring him----who thinks it not<pb n="99"/> too much to make the first
               Advances, and who wou’d believe her self fully recompenc’d for breaking thro’ the
               nice Decorums of her Sex, if he receiv’d it kindly---Madam (said he, not a little
               amaz’d at her Imprudence) I know of no such Person, or if I did, I must confess,
               shou’d be very much puzled how to behave in an Adventure so uncommon: Pish (answer’d
               she, growing vext at his coldness) I know that such Adventures are not uncommon with
               you: I’m not to learn the Story of Alovysa, and if you had not been first Address’d,
               perhaps might have been ’till now unmarried. Well Madam (said he, more out of humour)
               put the Case that what you say were true, I am married; and therefore, (interrupted
               she) you ought to be better acquainted with the Temper of our Sex, and know, that a
               Woman, where she says she Loves, expects a thousand fine things in Return. But there
               is more than a possibility (answer’d he) of her being disappointed, and methinks
               Madam, a Lady of your Gaity shou’d be conversant enough with Poetry, to remember
               those too Lines of a famous English Poet.</p>
            <lg>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">All naturally fly, what does Pursue</hi>
                            </l>
               <l>
                                <hi rend="italic">’Tis fit Men shou’d be Coy, when Women Woe.</hi>
                            </l>
            </lg>
            <p>Melantha was fretted to the Heart to find him so insensible, but not being one of
               those who are apt to repent any thing they have done, she only pretended to fall into
               a violent fit of Laughter, and when she came out of it, I confess (said she) that I
               have lost my Aim, which was, to make you believe I was dying for Love of you, raise
               you to the highest Degree of Expectation, and then have the pleasure of baulking you
               at once, by letting you know the jest.----But your Lordship is too hard for me, even
               at my own Weapon, ridicule! I am mightly obliged to you Madam (answer’d he, more
               briskly than before) for your Intention, however; but ’tis probable, if I cou’d have
               been drawn into a Belief that you were in earnest, I might, at such a Time, and such
               a Place as this, have<pb n="100"/> taken some Measures which wou’d have sufficiently reveng’d
               me on you----but come Madam, (continu’d he) the Morning begins to break, if you
               please we will find out Melliora, and go into the House: As he spoke these Words, they
               perceiv’d her coming towards them, who had only taken a little round to meet ’em, and
               they all three made what hast they cou’d in: <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> D’elmont
               asked a formal leave of Melliora to go thro’ her Chamber, none of the Servants being
               yet stirring, to let him into the House any other way, which being granted, he cou’d
               not help sighing as he passed by the Bed, where he had been lately so cruelly
               disappointed, but had no opportunity to speak his Thoughts at that time
               to Melliora.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> rung for his Gentleman to rise to undress him, and
               order’d him to send somebody to take care of his Horse, and went to Bed, Alovysa was
               very much surpriz’d at his return from the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>’s at so
               unseasonable an Hour, but much more so, when in the Morning,Melantha came laughing
               into the Chamber, and told her, all that she knew of the Adventure of the Night
               before; her old fit of Jealousie now resum’d it’s Dominion in her Soul, she cou’d not
               forbear thinking, that there was something more in it, thanMelantha had discover’d:
               And presently imagin’d that her Husband stay’d not at the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>’s, because she was abroad; but she was more confirm’d in this Opinion,
               whenMelantha calling for her Coach to go home; the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> told
               her that he wou’d accompany her thither, having urgent Business with her Brother.
               ’Tis almost impossible to guess the rage Alovysa was in, but she dissembled it ’till
               they were gone, then going to Melliora’s Chamber, she vented part of it there, and
               began to question her about their Behaviour in the Wilderness. Tho’ Melliora was glad
               to find, since she was jealous, that she was jealous of any Body rather than her
               self, yet she said all that she cou’d, to perswade her, that she had no Reason to be
               uneasie.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="101"/>
                        </p>
            <p>But Alovysa was always of too fiery a Nature to listen patiently to any thing that
               cou’d be offer’d, to alter the Opinion she had taken up, tho’ it were with never so
               little an appearance of Reason, but much more now, when she thought her self, in a
               manner Confirm’d: Forbear (said she) Dear Melliora to take the part of perfidy: I know
               he hates me, I read it in his Eyes, and feel it on his Lips, all Day he shuns my
               Converse, and at night, colder than Ice, receives my warm Embraces, and when, (oh
               that I cou’d tear the tender folly from me Heart) with Words as soft as Love can
               Form, I urge him to disclose the Cause of his Disquiet, he answers but in sighs, and
               turns away: Perhaps (reply’d Melliora) his Temper naturally is gloomy, and love it
               self, has scarce the Power to alter Nature. Oh no, (Interrupted Alovysa) far from it:
               Had I ne’er known him otherwise, I cou’d forgive what now I know, but he was once as
               kind as tender Mothers to their new born Babes, and fond as the first Wishes of
               desiring Youth: Oh! With what eagerness has he approach’d me, when absent but an
               Hour!---Hadst thou ’ere seen him in those Days of Joy, even, thou, cold Cloyster’d
               Maid, must have ador’d him What Majesty, then sat upon his Brow?-----What Matchless
               Glories shone around him!----Miriads of <hi rend="italic">Cupids</hi>, shot
               resistless Darts in every Glance,---his Voice when softned in amorous Accents,
               boasted more Musick, than the Poet <hi rend="italic">Orpheus!</hi> When e’re he
               spoke, methought the Air seem’d Charm’d, the Winds forgot to blow, all Nature
               listn’d, and like Alovisa melted into Transport----but he is chang’d in all----the
               Heroe, and the Lover are Extinct, and all that’s left, of the once gay D’elmont, is a
               dull senceless Picture: Melliora was too sensibly Touch’d with this Discourse, to be
               able presently to make any Answer to it, and she cou’d not forbear accompanying her
               in Tears, while Alovysa renew’d her Complaints in this manner; his Heart (said she)
               his Heart is lost, for ever Ravish’d from me, that Bosom where I had Treasur’d all my
               Joys, my Hopes, my<pb n="102"/> Wishes, now burns and pants, with longings for a rival Curst!
               Curst,Melantha, by Heaven they are even impudent in Guilt, they Toy, they Kiss, and
               make Assignations before my Face, and this Tyrant Husband braves me with his
               falsehood, and thinks to awe me into Calmness, but, if I endure it---No (continu’d
               she stamping, and walking about the Room in a disorder’d Motion) I’ll be no longer
               the tame easie wretch I have been---all <hi rend="italic">France</hi> shall Eccho
               with my Wrongs---The ungrateful Monster!---Villain, whose well nigh wasted Stream of
               Wealth had dry’d, but for my kind of supply, shall he enslave me!--Oh Melliora shun
               the Marriage Bed, as thou woud’st a Serpents Den, more Ruinous, more Poysonous far,
               is Man.</p>
            <p>’Twas in vain that Melliora endeavour’d to pacifie her, she continu’d in this Humour
               all Day, and in the Evening receiv’d a considerable Addition to her former Disquiet:
               The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> sent a Servant of the <hi rend="italic">Barons</hi>
               (having not taken any of his own with him) to acquaint her, that he shou’d not be at
               home that Night. ’Tis well (said she ready to burst with Rage) let the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> know that I can change as well as he, and shall excuse
               his Absence tho’ it lasts to all Eternity, (go continu’d she, seeing him surpriz’d)
               deliver this Message, and withal, assure him, that what I say, I mean. She had scarce
               made an end of these Words, when she flung out of the Room, unable to utter more, and
               lock’d her self into her Chamber, leaving Melliora no less distracted, tho’ for
               different Reasons, to retire to her’s.</p>
            <p>She had not ’till now, had a moments Time for reflection since her Adventure in the
               Wilderness, and the Remembrance of it, joyn’d with the Despair, and Grief of Alovisa,
               which she knew her self the sole occasion of, threw her into most terrible Agonies.
               She was ready to die with shame, when she consider’d how much the secret of her Soul
               was laid open to him, who of all the World she ought most to have conceal’d it from,
               and with remorse, for<pb n="103"/> the Miseries her fatal Beauty was like to bring on a
               Family for whom she had the greatest Friendship.</p>
            <p>But these Thoughts soon gave way to another, equally as shocking, she was present
               when the Servant brought Word the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> wou’d lie abroad, and
               had all the Reason imaginable to believe that Message was only a feint, that he might
               have an opportunity to come unobserv’d to her Chamber, as he had done the Night
               before. She cou’d not presently guess by what means he had got in, and therefore was
               at a loss how to prevent him, ’till recollecting all the Circumstances of that tender
               interview, she remembred that whenMelantha had surpriz’d them, he made his escape by
               the back Stairs into the Garden, and that when they went down, the Door was lock’d:
               Therefore concluded it must be by a Key, that he had gain’d admittance: And began to
               set her Invention to Work, how to keep this dangerous Enemy to her Honour, from
               coming in a second Time. She had no Keys that were large enough to fill the Wards,
               and if she had put one in, on the inside, it wou’d have fallen out immediately on the
               least touch, but at last, after trying several ways, she tore her Handkerchief into
               small pieces, and thrust it into the hole with her Busk, so hard, that it was
               impossible for any Key to enter.</p>
            <p>Melliora thought she had done a very Heroick Action, and sate her self down on the
               Bed-side in a pleas’d Contemplation of the Conquest, she believ’d her Virtue had
               gain’d over her Passion: But alas, How little did she know the true State of her own
               Heart? She no sooner heard a little noise at the Door, as presently after she did,
               but she thought it was the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and began to tremble not
               with fear, but desire.</p>
            <p>It was indeed <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> D’elmont, who had borrow’d Horses and a
               Servant of the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>, and got into the Garden as before, but
               with a much greater Assurance now of making himself entirely happy in<pb n="104"/> the
               Gratification of his utmost Wishes. But ’tis impossible to represent the greatness of
               his vexation and surprize, when all his Efforts to open the Door, were in vain: He
               found something had been done to the Lock, but cou’d not discover what, nor by any
               means remove the obstacle which Melliora had put there. She, on the other hand, was in
               all the confusion imaginable: Sometimes prompted by the violence of her Passion, she
               wou’d run to the Door, resolving to open it; and then, frighted with the apprehension
               of what wou’d be the Consequence, as hastily fly from it: If he had stay’d much
               longer, ’tis possible love wou’d have got the better of all other Considerations, but
               a light appearing on the other side of the Garden, oblig’d the thrice disappointed
               Lover, to quit his Post. He had sent away the Horses by the Servant who came with
               him, and had no opportunity of going to the <hi rend="italic">Barons</hi> that Night,
               so came to his own Fore-gate, and thunder’d with a force, suitable to the fury he was
               possest with; it was presently open’d, most of the Family being up. Alovisa had rav’d
               her self into Fits, and her disorder created full Employment for the Servants, who
               busily running about the House with Candles fetching things for her, occasion’d that
               reflection which he had seen.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was told of his Lady’s Indisposition, but he thought
               he had sufficient pretence not to come where she was, after the Message she had sent
               him by the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>’s Servant, and order’d a Bed to be made ready
               for him in another Chamber.</p>
            <p>Alovisa soon heard he was come in, and it was with much ado, that her Women prevail’d
               on her not to rise and go to him that moment, so little did she remember what she had
               said. She pass’d the Night in most terrible Inquietudes, and early in the Morning
               went to his Chamber, but finding it shut, she was oblig’d to wait, tho’ with a World
               of impatience, ’till she heard he was stirring, which not being till towards<pb n="105"/>
               Noon, she spent all that Time in considering how she shou’d accost him.</p>
            <p>As soon as the Servant whom she had order’d to watch, brought her Word that his Lord
               was dressing, she went into the Room, there was no body with him but his Gentleman,
               and he withdrawing out of respect, imagining by both their Countenances, there might
               something be said, not proper for him to hear. I see (said she) my Presence is
               unwish’d, but I have learn’d from you to scorn Constraint, and as you openly avow
               your falshood, I shall my Indignation, and my just Disdain! Madam (answer’d he
               suddenly) if you have any thing to reproach me with, you cou’d not have chose a more
               unlucky Time for it, than this, nor was I ever less dispos’d to give you
               Satisfaction. No, barbarous cold Insulter! (resum’d she) I had not the least hope you
               wou’d, I find that I am grown so low in your Esteem, I am not worth pains of an
               Invention.----By Heaven, this damn’d indifference is worse than the most vile
               Abuse!---’Tis plain Contempt!----O that I cou’d resent it as I ought----then Sword,
               or Poison shou’d revenge me---why am I so Curst to Love you still?---O that those
               Fiends (continu’d she, bursting into Tears) that have deform’d thy Soul, wou’d change
               thy Person too, turn every Charm to horrid Blackness, grim as thy Cruelty, and foul
               as thy Ingratitude, to free that Heart, thy Perjury has ruin’d. I thought Madam (said
               he, with an Accent maliciously Ironical) that you had thrown off, even the
               appearances of Love for me, by the Message you sent me Yesterday---O thou Tormenter
               (interrupted she) hast thou not wrong’d me in the tenderest Point, driven me to the
               last Degree of Misery! To Madness!---To Despair? And dost thou----can’st thou
               Reproach me for complaining?---Your coldness; your unkindness stung me to the Soul,
               and then I said, I know not what---but I remember well, that I wou’d have seem’d
               careless, and indifferent like you. You need not (reply’d he) give your self the
               trouble of an Apology,<pb n="106"/> I have no design to make a quarrel of it: And wish, for
               both our Peace, you cou’d as easily moderate your Passions, as I can mine, and that
               you may the better do so, I leave you to reflect on what I have said, and the little
               Reason I have ever given you for such intemperance. He left the Chamber with these
               Words, which instead of quelling, more enflam’d Alovysa’s Rage. She threw her self
               down into an Elbow Chair that stood there, and gave a loose to the Tempest of her
               Soul, Sometimes she curst, and vow’d the bitterest Revenge: Sometimes she wept, and
               at others, was resolv’d to fly to Death, the only Remedy for neglected Love: In the
               midst of these confus’d Meditations, casting her Eye on a Table by her, she saw
               Paper, and something written on it, which hastily taking up, found it the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Character, and read (to her inexpressible Torment)
               these Lines.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>The Dispairing D’elmont to his Repenting Charmer.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">What Cruel Star last Night, had Influence over my Inhumane
                        Dear? Say, to what Cause must I ascribe my Fatal Disappointment? For I wou’d
                        fain believe I owe it not to Thee!----Such an Action, after what thou hast
                        confest, I cou’d expect from nothing but a Creature of</hi>Melantha’s <hi rend="italic">Temper---no, ’tis too much of the vain Coquet, and indeed too
                        much of the Jilt, for my Adorable to be guilty of--and yet---Oh how shall I
                        excuse thee? when every thing was hush’d, Darkness my Friend, and all my
                        Wishes rais’d, when every Nerve trembled with fierce Desires, and my Pulse
                        beat a call to Love, or Death,----(For if I not enjoy thee, that will soon
                        arrive) then, then what, but thy self, forgetting all thy Vows,<pb n="107"/> thy
                        tender Vows of the most Ardent Passion, cou’d have destroyed my Hopes?---Oh
                        where was then that Love which lately flatter’d my fond doating Soul, when
                        sinking, dying in my Arms, my Charmer lay! And suffer’d me to reap each
                        Prologue favour to the greatest Bliss----But they are past, and rigid Honour
                        stands to Guard those joys, which----</hi>
                                </p>
               </body>
            </floatingText>

            <p>There was no more written, but there needed no more to make Alovysa, before half
               distracted, now quite so. She was now convinc’d that she had a much more dangerous
               Rival thanMelantha, and her Curiosity who it might be, was not much less troublesome
               to her than other Passions.</p>
            <p>She was going to seek her Husband with this Testimony of his Infidelity in her Hand,
               when he, remembring he had left it there, was coming hastily back to fetch it. The
               Excess of Fury which she met him with, is hardly to be imagin’d, she upbraided him in
               such a Fashion as might be called reviling, and had so little regard to good Manners,
               or even decency in what she said, that it dissipated all the confusion he was in at
               first, to see so plain a Proof against him in her Hands, and rouz’d him to a rage not
               much Inferior to her’s. She endeavour’d (tho’ she took a wrong Method) to bring him
               to a Confession, he had done amiss; and he, to lay the Tempest of her Tongue, by
               storming louder, but neither succeeded in their wish: And he, stung with the
               bitterness of her Reproaches, and tired with Clamour, at last flung from her with a
               solemn Vow never to eat, or Sleep with her more.</p>
            <p>A Wife if equally haughty and jealous, if less fond than Alovysa will scarce be able
               to comprehend the greatness of her Sufferings: And it is not to be wonder’d at, that
               she, so violent in all her Passions, and agitated by so many, at once, committed a
               thousand Extravagancies, which those who know the force but of one, by the Aid of
               Reason, may avoid. She tore<pb n="108"/> down the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Picture
               which hung in the Room, and stamp’d on it, then the Letter, her own Cloaths, and
               Hair, and whoever had seen her in that Posture, wou’d have thought she appear’d more
               like what the Furies are represented to be, than a Woman.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> when he took leave the Night before of the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>D’espernay, had promis’d to return to him in the Morning,
               and give him an Account of his Adventure with Melliora, but the vexation of his
               disappointment, and quarrel with his Wife, having hindred him all this time, the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> came to his House, impatient to know the Success of an
               Affair on which his own hopes depended. He was told by the Servants that their Lord
               was above, and running hastily without Ceremony, the first Person he saw was
               Alovisa, in the condition I have describ’d.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> had passionately lov’d this Lady from the first
               Moment he had seen her, but it was with that sort of Love, which considers more it’s
               own gratification, than the Interest, or quiet, of the object beloved. He imagin’d by
               the Wildness of Alovysa’s Countenance and Behaviour, that the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> had given her some extraordinary occasion of distaste, and was so far
               from being troubled at the Sorrow he beheld her in, that he rejoyc’d in it, as the
               advancement of his Designs. But he wanted not cunning to disguise his Sentiments, and
               approaching her with a tender, and submissive Air, entreated her to tell him the
               Cause of her disorder. Alovysa had always consider’d him as a Person of worth, and
               one who was entitled to her Esteem by the vast respect he always paid her, and the
               Admiration, which in every opportunity, he exprest for her Wit and Beauty. She was
               not perhaps far from guessing the Extent of his Desires, by some Looks, and private
               Glances he had given her, and, notwithstanding her Passion, for the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, was too vain to be offended at it. On the contrary, it pleas’d her
               Pride, and confirm’d her in the good Opinion she<pb n="109"/> had of her self, to think a Man
               of his Sense shou’d be compell’d by the force of her irresistible Attractions to
               adore and to despair, and therefore made no Difficulty of disburthening all the
               anguish of her Soul, in the Bosom of this, as she believ’d, so faithful Friend.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> seem’d to receive this Declaration of her Wrongs,
               with all imaginable concern: And accus’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> of
               Stupidity in so little knowing the value of a Jewel he was Master of, and gave her
               some hints, that he was not unsensible who the Lady was, that had been the Cause of
               it, which Alovisa presently taking hold on, O speak her Name (said she) quick, let me
               know her, or own thy Friendship was but feign’d to undo me, and that thou hatest the
               wretched Alovisa. O far (resum’d he) far be such thoughts, first let me Die, to prove
               my Zeal---my Faith, sincere to you, who only next to Heaven, are worthy
               Adoration---but forgive me, if I say, in this, you must not be obey’d. O why, said
               she? Perhaps, (answer’d he) I am a trusted Person---A confident, and if I should
               reveal the secret of my Friend, I know, tho’ you approv’d the Treachery, you wou’d
               detest the Traytor. O! Never (rejoyn’d she impatiently) ’twou’d be a Service, more
               than the whole Study of my Life can pay----am I not Rack’d,----Stab’d---and Mangled
               in Idea, by some dark Hand shaded with Night and Ignorance? And shou’d I not be
               grateful for a friendly Clue to guide me from this Labyrinth of Doubt, to a full Day
               of Certainty, where all the fiend may stand expos’d before me, and I have Scope to
               Execute my Vengeance? Besides, (continu’d she, finding he was silent and seemingly
               extreamly mov’d at what she said) ’tis joyning in the Cause of Guilt to hide her from
               me----come, you must tell me---your Honour suffers else---both that, and pity, plead
               the Injur’d’s Cause. Alas (said he) Honour can ne’er consent to a Discovery of what,
               with solemn Vows I have promis’d to Conceal; but Oh!---There is something in my Soul,
               more Powerful, which<pb n="110"/> says, that Alovysa must not be deny’d. Why then (cry’d she)
               do you delay? Why keep me on the Rack, when one short Word wou’d ease me of my
               Torment? I have consider’d (answer’d he after a pause) Madam, you shall be satisfied,
               depend on it you shall, tho’ not this Moment, you shall have greater Proofs than
               Words can give you----Occular Demonstration shall strike denial Dumb. What mean you?
               Interrupted she; you shall behold (said he) the guilty pair, link’d in each others
               Arms. OhEspernay (rejoyn’d she) coud’st thou do that?---’Tis easie (answer’d he) as I
               can order Matters---but longer Conferrence may render me suspected---I’ll go seek the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, for he must be my Engine to betray himself---In a
               Day or two, at farthest you shall enjoy all the Revenge Detection can bestow.</p>
            <p>Alovysa wou’d fain have perswaded him to have told her the Name of her Rival, in part
               of that full Conviction he had promis’d her, but in vain, and she was oblig’d to
               leave the Issue of this Affair entirely to his Management.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> was extreamly pleas’d with the Progress he had made,
               and did not doubt, but for the purchase of this secret he shou’d obtain every thing
               he desired of Alovysa. He found <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> D’elmont full of troubled
               and perplexed Thoughts, and when he had heard the History of his disappointment: I am
               sorry to hear (said he) that the foolish Girl does not know her own mind---but come
               (my Lord continued he, after a little pause) do not suffer your self to sink beneath
               a Caprice, which all those who converse much with that Sex must frequently meet
               with---I have a Contrivance in my Head, that cannot fail to render all her peevish
               Virtue frustrate: And make her happy in her own despite. OhEspernay! (reply’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>) thou talkest as Friendship prompts thee, I know thou
               wishest my Success, but alas! So many, and such unforeseen Accidents<pb n="111"/> have
               happen’d hitherto to prevent me, that I begin to think the Hand of Fate has set me
               down for lost. For shame my Lord (Interrupted the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>) be
               not so poor in Spirit----Once more I tell you that she shall be yours---a Day or two
               shall make her so---and because I know you Lovers are unbelieving, and impatient----I
               will Communicate the Means. A Ball, and Entertainment shall be provided at my House,
               to which, all the Neighbouring People of Condition shall be invited, amongst the
               number, your self, your Lady, and Melliora; it will be late before ’tis done, and I
               must perswade your Family, and some others who live farthest off, to Countenance the
               Design to stay all Night; all that you have to do, is to keep up your Resentment
               to Alovysa, that you may have a pretence to sleep from her: I shall take care to have
               Melliora plac’d where no Impediment may bar your Entrance. Impossible Suggestion!
               (cry’d D’elmont shaking his Head) Alovysa is in too much Rage of Temper to listen to
               such an Invitation, and without her, we must not hope for Melliora. How Industrious
               are you (resum’d the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>) to create difficulties where there
               is none: Tho’ I confess this may have, to you, a reasonable Appearance of one. But
               know, my Friendship builds it’s hopes to serve you on a sure Foundation---this
               jealous furious Wife, makes me the Confident of her imagin’d Injuries, Conjures me to
               use all my Interest with you for a reconcilement, and believes I am now pleading for
               her----I must for a while rail at your Ingratitude, and Condemn your want of Taste,
               to keep my Credit with her, and now and then sweeten her with a doubtful Hope that it
               may be possible at last to bring you to acknowledge, that you have been in an Error;
               this at once confirms her, that I am wholly on her side, and engages her to follow my
               Advice.</p>
            <p>Tho’ nothing Palls desire so much as too easie an Assurance of Means to gratifie it,
               yet a little hope is<pb n="112"/> absolutely necessary to preserve it. The fiery Wishes
               of D’elmont’s Soul, before chill’d by despair, and half supprest with clouding Griefs,
               blaz’d now, as fierce, and vigorous as ever, and he found so much probability in what
               the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> said, that he was ready to adore him for the
               Contrivance.</p>
            <p>Thus all Parties, but Melliora, remain’d in a sort of a pleas’d Expectation. TheCount
               doubted not of being happy, nor Alovisa of having her curiosity satisfy’d by the <hi rend="italic">Baron’s</hi> Assistance, nor himself of the reward he design’d to
               demand of her for that good Service, and each long’d impatiently for the Day, or
               rather Night, which was to bring this great Affair to a Period. Poor Melliora was the
               only Person, who had no interval of Comfort. Restrain’d by Honour, and enflam’d by
               Love, her very Soul was torn: And when she found that Count D’elmont made no attempt
               to get into her Chamber again, as she imagin’d he wou’d, she fell into a Despair more
               terrible than all her former Inquietudes; she presently fancy’d that the
               disappointment he had met with the Night before, had driven the hopeless Passion from
               his Heart, and the Thoughts of being no longer beloved by him, were unsupportable.
               She saw him not all that Day, nor the next, the quarrel between him and Alovisa having
               caus’d separate Tables, she was oblig’d in Decency, to eat at that where she was, and
               had the Mortification of hearing her self Curs’d every Hour, by the enrag’d Wife, in
               the Name of her unknown Rival, without daring to speak a Word in her own
               Vindication.</p>
            <p>In the mean time the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> diligent to make good the Promises
               he had given the Count and Alovisa, for his own Ends, got every thing ready, and came
               himself to D’elmont’s House, to entreat their Company at his. Now Madam (said he)
               to Alovisa the time is come to prove your Servants Faith: This Night shall put an end
               to your uncertainty: They had no opportunity for further Speech; <pb n="113"/> Melliora came
               that Moment into the Room, who being ask’d to go to the Ball, and seeming a little
               unwilling to appear at any publick Diversion, by Reason of the late Death of her
               Father, put the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> in a Mortal Apprehension for the Success
               of his Undertaking: But Alovysa joyning in his Entreaties, she was at last prevail’d
               upon: TheCount went along with the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> in his Chariot: And
               the Ladies soon follow’d in an other.</p>
            <p>There was a vast deal of Company there, and the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> danc’d
               with several of the Ladies, and was extreamly gay amongst them: Alovysa watch’d his
               Behaviour, and regarded every one of them, in their Turn, with Jealousie, but was far
               from having the least Suspicion of her whom only she had Cause.</p>
            <p>Tho’ Melliora’s greatest Motive to go, was, because she might have the happiness of
               seeing her admir’d <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>; a Blessing, she had not enjoy’d
               these two Days, yet she took but little Satisfaction in that View, without an
               opportunity of being spoke to by him. But that uneasiness was remov’d, when the
               serious Dances being over, and they all joyning in a grand Ballet: He every now and
               then, got means to say a Thousand tender Things to her, press’d her Hand whenever he
               turn’d her, and wou’d sometimes, when at a distance from Alovisa, pretend to be out,
               on purpose to stand still, and talk to her. This kind of Behaviour banish’d part of
               her Sufferings, for tho’ she cou’d consider both his, and her own Passion in no other
               View, than that of a very great Misfortune to them both, yet there are so many
               Pleasures, even in the Pains of Love. Such tender thrillings, such Soul-ravishing
               Amusements, attend some happy Moments of Contemplation, that those who most
               Endeavour, can wish but faintly to be freed from.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="114"/>
                        </p>
            <p>When it grew pretty late, the Baron made a sign to the Count to follow him into a
               little Room joyning to that where they were, and when he had, now my Lord, (said he)
               I doubt not but this Night will make you entirely Possessor of your Wishes: I have
               prolonged the Entertainment, on purpose to detain those, who ’tis necessary for our
               Design, and have ordered a Chamber for Melliora, which has no Impediment to Bar your
               Entrance: O! Thou best of Friends, (answer’d D’elmont) how shall I requite thy
               Goodness? In making (resum’d the Baron) a right Use of the Opportunity I give you,
               for if you do not, you render fruitless all the Labours of my Brain, and make me
               wretched, while my Friend is so. Oh! fear me not (cry’d D’elmont in a Rapture) I will
               not be deny’d, each Faculty of my Soul is bent upon Enjoyment, tho’ Death in all its
               various Horrors glar’d upon me, I’d scorn ’em all in Melliora’s Arms---O! the very
               Name transports me---New fires my Blood, and tingles in my Veins---Imagination points
               out all her Charms--Methinks I see her lie in sweet
               Confusion--Fearing--Wishing--Melting---Her glowing Cheeks--Her closing dying
               Eyes--her every kindling--Oh ’tis too vast for Thought! Even Fancy flags, and cannot
               reach her Wonders! As he was speaking,Melantha, who had taken notice of his going out
               of the Room, and had follow’d him with a Design of talking to him, came time enough
               to hear the latter part of what he said, but seeing her Brother with him, withdrew
               with as much haste as she came, and infinitely more uneasiness of Mind; she was now
               but too well assur’d that she had a greater difficulty than the Count’s Matrimonial
               Engagement to get over, before she could reach his Heart, and was ready to burst with
               Vexation to think she was supplanted: Full of a Thousand tormenting Reflections she
               return’d to the Ball Room, and was so out of Humour all the Night, that she<pb n="115"/>
               could hardly be commonly Civil to any Body that spoke to her.</p>
            <p>At last, the Hour so much desired by the Count, the Baron, and Alovisa (tho’ for
               various Reasons) was arriv’d: The Company broke up; those who liv’d near, which were
               the greatest part, went home, the others being entreated by the Baron, stay’d. When
               they were to be conducted to their Chambers, he call’d &gt;Melantha, and desired she
               would take care of the Ladies as he should direct, but above all, charg’d to
               place Alovisa and Melliora in two Chambers which he shewed her.</p>
            <p>Melantha was now let into the Secret she so much desired to know, the Name of her
               Rival, which she had not come time enough to hear, when she did the Count’s Rapturous
               Description of her. She had before found out, that her Brother was in Love with
               Alovysa, and did not doubt, but that there was a double Intrigue to be carry’d on
               that Night, and was the more confirm’d in that Opinion, when she remembred, that the
                  <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> had order’d the Lock that Day to be taken off the
               Door of that Chamber where Melliora was to be lodg’d. It presently came into her Head,
               to betray all she knew to Alovisa, but she soon rejected that Resolution for another,
               which she thought would give her a more pleasing Revenge: She conducted all the
               Ladies to such Chambers as she thought fit, and Alovisa to that her Brother had
               desired, having no design of disappointing him, but Melliora she led to one where she
               always lay her self, resolving to supply her Place in the other, where the Count was
               to come: Yes, (said she to her self) I will receive his Vows in Melliora’s Room, and
               when I find him rais’d to the highest pitch of Expectation, declare who I am, and awe
               him into Tameness; ’twill be a charming Piece of Vengeance, besides, if he be not the
               most ungrateful Man on Earth, he must<pb n="116"/> Adore my Generosity in not exposing him to
               his Wife, when I have him in my Power, after the Coldness he has us’d me with. She
               found something so pleasing in this Contrivance, that no Considerations whatever,
               could have Power to deter her from pursuing it.</p>
            <p>When the Baron found every thing was silent and ready for his Purpose, he went softly
               to Count D’elmont’s Chamber, where he was impatiently expected; and taking him by
               the Hand, led him to that, where he had ordered Melliora to be Lodg’d. When they were
               at the Door, you see my Lord, (said he) I have kept my Promise; there lies the Idol
               of your Soul, go in, be bold, and all the Happiness, you wish attend you. The Count
               was in too great a hurry of disorder’d Thoughts to make him any other Answer than a
               passionate Embrace, and gently pushing open the Door which had no fastning to it,
               left the Baron to prosecute the remaining part of his treacherous Design.</p>
            <p>Alovisa had all the time of her being at the Baron’s, endur’d most grievous Racks of
               Mind, her Husband appear’d to her that Night, more gay and lovely, if possible than
               ever, but that Contentment which sat upon his Face, and added to his Graces, stung
               her to the Soul, when she reflected how little Sympathy there was between them:
               Scarce a Month (said she to her self) was I bless’d with those looks of Joy, a
               pensive sullenness has dwelt upon his Brow e’er since, ’till now; ’tis from my Ruin
               that his Pleasure flows, he hates me, and rejoyces in a Pretence, tho’ never so poor
               a one, to be absent from me. She was inwardly toss’d with a Multitude of these and
               the like perturbations, tho’ the Assurance the Baron had given her of Revenge, made
               her conceal them tolerably well, while she was in Company, but when she was left
               alone in the Chamber, and perceiv’d the Baron did not come so soon as she expected.
               Her Rage<pb n="117"/> broke out in all the Violence imaginable: She gave a loose to every
               furious Passion, and when she saw him enter, Cruel <hi rend="italic">D’Espernay</hi>
               (said she) where have you been!---Is this the Friendship which you vow’d? To leave me
               here distracted with my Griefs, while my perfidious Husband, and the cursed she, that
               robs me of him, are perhaps, as happy, as their guilty Love can make them? Madam
               (answer’d he) ’tis but a Moment since they are met: A Moment! (interrupted she) a
               Moment is too much, the smallest Particle of undivided Time, may make my Rival blest,
               and vastly recompence for all that my Revenge can do. Ah Madam (resum’d the Baron)
               how dearly do you still Love that most ungrateful Man: I had hopes that the full
               Knowledge of his Falshood might have made you scorn the scorner, I shall be able by
               to Morrow (reply’d the Cunning Alovisa who knew his drift well enough) to give you a
               better account of my Sentiments than now I can:---But why do we delay (continued she
               impatiently) are they not together?---The Baron saw this was no time to press her
               farther, and therefore taking a Wax Candle which stood on the Table, in one Hand, and
               offering the other to lead her, I am ready Madam (said he) to make good my Promise,
               and shall esteem no other Hours of my Life happy, but those which may be serviceable
               to you: They had only a small part of a Gallery to go thro’, and Alovisa had no time
               to answer to these last Words, if she had been compos’d enough to have done it,
               before they were at the Door, which as soon as the Baron had brought her to, he
               withdrew with all possible Speed.</p>
            <p>Tho’ the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> had been but a very little time in the Arms of
               his suppos’d Melliora, yet he had made so good use of it, and had taken so much
               Advantage of her complying Humour, that all his Fears were at an End, he now thought
               himself the most Fortunate of all Mankind; and <hi rend="italic">Melantha</hi> was
               far from repenting the Breach of the Resolution she<pb n="118"/> had made of discovering her
               self to him. His Behaviour to her was all Rapture, all killing extacy, and she
               flatter’d her self with a Belief, that when he shou’d come to know to whom he ow’d
               that bliss he had possess’d, he would not be ungrateful for it.</p>
            <p>What a confus’d Consternation must this Pair be in, when Alovysa rush’d into the
               Room;---’tis hard to say, which was the greatest, the <hi rend="italic">Count’s</hi>
               concern for his imagin’d Melliora’s Honour, or &gt;Melantha’s for her own; but if one may
               form a Judgment from the Levity of the one’s Temper, and generosity of the other’s,
               one may believe that his had the Preheminence: But neither of them were so lost in
               Thought, as not to take what measures the Place and Time wou’d permit, to baffle the
               Fury of this Incens’d Wife:Melantha slunk under the Cloaths and theCount started up
               in the Bed at the first Appearance of the Light, which Alovysa had in her Hand, and in
               the most angry Accent he cou’d turn his Voice to, ask’d her the Reason of her coming
               there: Rage, at this sight (prepar’d and arm’d for it as she was) took away all Power
               of utterance from her; but she flew to the Bed, and began to tear the Cloaths
               (whichMelantha held fast over her Head) in so violent a manner, that the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> found the only way to Tame her, was to meet Force with
               Force; so jumping out, he seiz’d on her, and throwing her into a Chair, and holding
               her down in it, Madam, Madam (said he) you are Mad, and I as such shall use you,
               unless you promise to return quietly, and leave me. She cou’d yet bring forth no
               other Words, than Villain,----Monster! And such like Names, which her Passion and
               Injury suggested, which he but little regarding but for the noise she made; for shame
               (resum’d he) expose not thus your self and me, if you cannot command your Temper, at
               least confine your Clamours---I will not stir (said she, raving and struggling to get
               loose) ’till I have seen the Face that has undone me, I’ll tear out her bewitching
               Eyes---the<pb n="119"/> curst Adultress! And leave her Mistress of fewer Charms than thou
               canst find in me: She spoke this with so elevated a Voice, that the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> endeavour’d to stop her Mouth, that she might not alarm the Company
               that were in the House, but he cou’d not do it time enough to prevent her from
               shrieking out Murder.---Help! Or the barbarous Man will kill me! At these Words the
                  <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> came running in immediately, full of Surprize and
               Rage at something he had met with in the mean time: How came this Woman here, cry’d
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> to him: Ask me not my Lord (said he) for I can
               answer nothing, but every thing this cursed Night, I think, has happened by
               Enchantment; he was going to say something more, but several of his Guests hearing a
               noise, and cry of Murder, and directed by the Lights they saw in that Room, came in,
               and presently after a great many of the Servants, that the Chamber was as full as it
               cou’d hold: The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> let go his Wife on the sight of the
               first stranger that enter’d; and indeed, there was no need of his confining her in
               that Place (tho’ he knew not so much) for the violence of so many contrary Passions
               warring in her Breast at once, had thrown her into a Swoon, and she fell back when he
               let go his hold of her, Motionless, and in all appearance Dead. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> said little, but began to put on his Cloaths, asham’d of the Posture
               he had been seen in; but the &gt;Baron endeavour’d to perswade the Company, that it was
               only a Family Quarrel of no Consequence, told them he was sorry for the disturbance
               it had given them, and desir’d them to return to their Rest, and when the Room was
               pretty clear, order’d two or three of the Maids to carry Alovysa to her Chamber, and
               apply Things proper for her Recovery; as they were bearing her out, Melliora who had
               been frighted as well as the rest, with the noise she heard, was running along the
               Gallery to see what had happen’d, and met them; her Trouble to find Alovysa in that
               Condition, was unfeign’d, and she assisted those<pb n="120"/> that were employ’d about her,
               and accompany’d them where they carry’d her.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was going to the Bed-side to comfort the conceal’d
               Fair, that lay still under the Cloaths, when he saw Melliora at the Door: What
               Surprize was ever equal to his, at this View?-----He stood like one transfix’d with
               Thunder, he knew not what to think, or rather cou’d not think at all, confounded with
               a seeming Impossibility. He beheld the Person, whom he thought had lain in his Arms,
               whom he had enjoy’d, whose Bulk and Proportion he still saw in the Bed, whom he was
               just going to Address to, and for whom he had been in all the Agonies of Soul
               imaginable, come from a distant Chamber, and unconcern’d, ask’d cooly, how Alovisa
               came to be taken ill! He look’d confusedly about, sometimes on Melliora, sometimes
               towards the Bed, and sometimes on the Baron; am I awake, (said he) or is every thing
               I see and hear, Illusion? The Baron could not presently resolve after what manner he
               should answer, tho’ he perfectly knew the Truth of this Adventure, and who was in the
               Bed; for, when he had conducted Alovisa to that Room, in order to make the Discovery
               he had promised, he went to his Sister’s Chamber, designing to abscond there, in case
               the Count should fly out on his Wife’s Entrance, and seeing him there, imagine who it
               was that betray’d him; and finding the Door shut, knock’d and call’d to have it
               opened; Melliora, who began to think she should lye in quiet no where, ask’d who was
               there, and what he would have? I would speak with my Sister, (reply’d he, as much
               astonish’d then, to hear who it was that answer’d him, as the Count was now to see
               her) and Melliora having assur’d him that she was not with her, left him no Room to
               doubt, by what means the Exchange had been made: Few Men, how amorous soever
               themselves, care that the Female part of their Family should be so, and he was most
               sensibly<pb n="121"/> mortify’d with it, but reflecting that it could not be kept a Secret,
               at least from the Count, my Lord, (said he, pointing to the Bed) there lies the Cause
               of your Amazement, that wicked Woman has betray’d the Trust I repos’d in her, and
               deceiv’d both you and me; rise, continued he, throwing open the Curtains, thou shame
               of thy Sex, and everlasting Blot and Scandal of the Noble House thou art descended
               from; rise, I say, or I will stab thee here in this Scene of Guilt; in speaking these
               Words, he drew out his Sword, and appear’d in such a real Fury, that the Count, tho’
               more and more amaz’d with every thing he saw and heard, made no doubt but he wou’d do
               as he said, and ran to hold his Arm.</p>
            <p>As no Woman that is Mistress of a great share of Wit, <hi rend="italic">will</hi> be
               a Coquet, so no Woman that has not a little, <hi rend="italic">can</hi> be
               one:Melantha, tho’ frighted to Death with these unexpected Occurrences, feign’d a
               Courage, which she had not in reality, and thrusting her Head a little above the
               Cloaths, Bless me Brother (said she) I vow I do not know what you mean by all this
               Bustle, neither am I guilty of any Crime: I was vex’d indeed to be made a Property
               of, and chang’d Beds with Melliora for a little innocent Revenge; for I always
               design’d to discover my self to the Count, time enough to prevent Mischief. The Baron
               was not so silly as to believe what she said, tho’ the Count, as much as he hated
               her, had too much Generosity to contradict her, and keeping still hold of the Baron,
               come <hi rend="italic">D’Espernay</hi>, (said he) I believe your Sisters Stars and
               mine, have from our Birth been at Variance, for this is the third Disappointment she
               has given me; once in Melliora’s Chamber, then in the Wilderness, and now here; but I
               forgive her, therefore let us retire and leave her to her Repose. The Baron was
               sensible that all the Rage in the World could not recall what had been done, and only
               giving her a furious Look, went with the Count out of the Room, without saying any
               thing more to her at that Time.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="122"/>
                        </p>
            <p>The Baron with much Entreating, at last prevail’d on Count D’elmont to go into his
               Bed, where he accompany’d him; but they were both of them too full of troubled
               Meditations, to Sleep: His Sister’s Indiscretion vex’d the Baron to the Heart, and
               took away great part of the Joy, for the fresh Occasion the Count had given Alovisa to
               withdraw her Affection from him. But with what Words can the various Passions that
               agitated the Soul of D’elmont be described? The Transports he had enjoy’d in an
               imaginary Felicity, were now turn’d to so many real Horrors; he saw himself expos’d
               to all the World, for it would have been Vanity to the last Degree, to believe this
               Adventure would be kept a Secret, but what gave him the most bitter Reflection, was,
               that Melliora when she should know it, as he could not doubt but she immediately
               wou’d be told it by Alovisa, wou’d judge of it by the Appearance, and believe him,
               at once, the most vicious, and most false of Men. As for his Wife, he thought not of
               her, with any Compassion for his Sufferings, but with Rage and Hate, for that jealous
               Curiosity, which he suppos’d had led her to watch his Actions that Night; (for he had
               not the least Suspicion of the Baron.)Melantha he always despised, but now detested,
               for the Trick she had put upon him; yet thought it would be not only unmanly, but
               barbarous to let her know he did so: It was in vain for him to endeavour to come to a
               Determination after what manner he should behave himself to any of them, and when the
               Night was past, in forming a thousand several Resolutions, the Morning found him as
               much to seek as before: He took his Leave early of the Baron, not being willing to
               see any of the Company after what had happened, ’till he was more Compos’d.</p>
            <p>He was not deceiv’d in his Conjectures concerning Melliora, for Alovisa was no sooner
               recover’d<pb n="123"/> from her Swoon, than, she, with bitter Exclamations, told her what had
               been the Occasion, and put that astonish’d Fair one into such a visible Disorder, as
               had she not been too full of Misery, to take Notice of it, had made her easily
               perceive that she was deeply interested in the Story: But whatever she said against
               the Count, as she could not forbear something, calling him Ungrateful, Perjur’d,
               Deceitful, and Inconstant, Alovisa took only, as a Proof of Friendship to her self,
               and the Effects of that just Indignation all Women ought to feel for him, that takes
               a Pride in Injuring any one of them.</p>
            <p>When the Count was gone, the Baron sent to Alovisa to enquire of her Health, and if
               he might have leave to visit her in her Chamber, and being told she desired he
               shou’d, resolv’d now to make his Demand. Melliora had but just parted from her, in
               order to get herself ready to go Home, and she was alone when he came in. As soon as
               the first Civilities were over, she began afresh to conjure him to let her know the
               Name of her Rival, which he artfully evading, tho’ not absolutely denying, made her
               almost distracted; the Baron carefully observ’d her every Look and Motion, and when
               he found her Impatience was rais’d to the highest degree; Madam (said he, taking her
               by the Hand, and looking tenderly on her) you cannot blame a Wretch who has lavish’d
               all he had away to one poor Jewel, to make the most he can of that, to supply his
               future Wants: I have already forfeited all pretence to Honour, and even common
               Hospitality, by betraying the Trust that was repos’d in me, and exposing under my own
               Roof, the Man who takes me for his dearest Friend, and what else I have suffer’d from
               that unavoidable Impulse which compell’d me to do all this, your self may judge, who
               too well know, the Pangs and Tortures of neglected Love---Therefore, (continued he
               with a deep Sigh) since this last reserve is all my Hopes dependance, do not, Oh
               Charming<pb n="124"/> Alovisa, think me Mercinary, if I presume to set a Price upon it,
               which I confess too high, yet nothing less can Purchase: No Price (reply’d Alovisa,
               who thought a little Condescension was necessary to win him to her purpose) can be
               too dear to buy my Peace, nor Recompence too great for such a Service: What, not your
               Love, said the Baron, eagerly kissing her Hand? No (resum’d she, forcing herself to
               look kindly on him) not even that, when such a Proof of yours engages it; but do not
               keep me longer on the Rack, give me the Name and then.---She spoke these last Words
               with such an Air of Languishment, that the Baron thought his Work was done, and
               growing bolder, from her Hand he proceeded to her Lips, and answer’d her only in
               Kisses, which distastful as they were to her, she suffer’d him to take, without
               Resistance, but that was not all he wanted, and believing this the Critical Minute,
               he threw his Arms about her Waist, and began to draw her by little and little toward
               the Bed; which she affected to permit with a kind of an unwilling Willingness;
               saying, Well, if you wou’d have me able to deny you nothing you can ask, tell me the
               Name I so much wish to know: But the Baron was as cunning as she, and seeing thro’
               her Artifice, was resolv’d to make sure of his Reward first: Yes, yes, my
               adorable Alovisa (answer’d he, having brought her now very near the Bed) you shall
               immediately know all, thy Charms will force the Secret from my Breast, close as it is
               lodg’d within my inmost Soul.---Dying with Rapture I will tell thee all.---If that a
               Thought of this injurious Husband, can interpose amidst Extatick Joys. What will not
               some Women venture, to satisfy a jealous Curiosity? Alovisa had feign’d to consent to
               his Desires, (in hopes to engage him to a Discovery) so far, and had given him so
               many Liberties, that now, it was as much as she cou’d do to save herself, from the
               utmost Violence, and perceiving she had been outwitted, and that nothing but the
               really yielding up her Honour, cou’d oblige him to<pb n="125"/> reveal what she desired.
               Villain, said she, (struggling to get loose from his Embrace) dare thy base Soul
               believe so vilely of me? Release me from thy detested Hold, or my Cries shall force
               thee to it, and proclaim thee what thou art, a Monster! The Baron was not enough
               deluded by her pretence of Kindness, to be much surpriz’d at this sudden turn of her
               Behaviour, and only cooly answer’d, Madam, I have no design of using Violence, but
               perceive, if I had depended on your Gratitude, I had been miserably deceiv’d. Yes
               (said she, looking contemptibly on him) I own thou would’st; for whatsoever I might
               say, or thou could’st hope, I love my Husband still, with an unbated Fondness, doat
               upon him! Faithless and Cruel as he is, he still is lovely! His Eyes lose nothing of
               their brightness, nor his Tongue its softness! His very Frowns have more Attraction
               in them than any others Smiles! and canst thou think! Thou, so different in all from
               him, that thou seemest not the same Species of Humanity, nor ought’st to stile thy
               self a Man since he is no more: Canst thou, I say, believe a Woman, bless’d as Alovisa
               has been, can e’er blot out the dear Remembrance, and quit her Hopes of re-gain’d
               Paradise in his Embrace, for certain Hell in Thine? She spoke these Words with so
               much Scorn, that the Baron skill’d as he was in every Art to tempt, cou’d not conceal
               the Spite he conceiv’d at them, and letting go her Hand, (which perforce he had held)
               I leave you Madam (said he) to the Pleasure of enjoying your own Humour; neither
               that, nor your Circumstances are to be envy’d, but I’d have you to remember, that you
               are your own Tormentor, while you refuse the only means can bring you Ease. I will
               have Ease another way (said she, incens’d at the Indignity she imagin’d he treated
               her with) and if you still persist in refusing to discover to me the Person who has
               injur’d me, I shall make no difficulty of letting the Count know how much of his
               Secrets you have imparted, and for what Reason you conceal the other: You may do so
               (answer’d<pb n="126"/> he) and I doubt not but you will---Mischief is the darling Favourite
               of Woman! Blood is the Satisfaction perhaps, that you require, and if I fall by him,
               or he by me, your Revenge will have its aim, either on the Unloving or the Unlov’d;
               for me, I set my Life at nought, without your Love ’tis Hell; but do not think that
               even dying, to purchase Absolution, I’d reveal one Letter of that Name, you so much
               wish to hear, the Secret shall be buried with me.----Yes, Madam (continued he, with a
               malicious Air) that happy Fair unknown, whose Charms have made you wretched, shall
               undiscover’d, and unguess’d at, Triumph in those Joys you think none but your Count
               can give. Alovisa had not an Opportunity to make any Answer to what he said; Melliora
               came that Moment into the Room, and ask’d if she was ready to go, and Alovisa saying
               that she was, they both departed from the Baron’s House, without much Ceremony on
               either side.</p>
            <p>Alovisa had not been long at home before a Messenger came to acquaint her, that her
               Sister having miss’d of her at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, was now on her Journey
               to <hi rend="italic">Le Beausse</hi>, and wou’d be with her in a few Hours: She
               rejoyc’d as much at this News, as it was possible for one so full of disquiet to do,
               and order’d her Chariot and Six to be made ready again, and went to meet her.</p>
            <p>D’elmont heard of Ansellina’s coming almost as soon as Alovisa, and his Complaisance
               for Ladies, join’d with the extream desire he had of seeing his Brother, whom he
               believ’d was with her, wou’d certainly have given him Wings to have flown to them
               with all imaginable Speed, had not the late Quarrel between him and his Wife, made
               him think it was improper to join Company with her on any Account whatever: He was
               sitting in his Dressing-Room Window in a melancholly and disturb’d Meditation,
               ruminating on every Circumstance of his<pb n="127"/> last Nights Adventure, when he perceiv’d
               a couple of Horsemen come galloping over the Plain, and make directly toward his
               House. The Dust they made, kept him from distinguishing who they were, and they were
               very near the Gate before he discover’d them to be the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>Brillian, and his Servant: The Surprize he was in to see him
               without Ansellina was very great, but much more so, when running down, as soon as he
               saw he was alighted, and opening his Arms eagerly to Embrace him; the other drawing
               back, No, my Lord (said he) since you are pleas’d to forget I am your Brother, I
               pretend no other way to merit your Embraces: Nor can think it any Happiness to hold
               him in my Arms, who keeps me distant from his Heart. What mean you (cry’d D’elmont,
               extreamly astonish’d at his Behaviour) you know so little (resum’d the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>) of the power of Love, your self, that perhaps, you
               think I ought not to resent what you having done to ruin me in mine: But, however
               Sir, Ambition is a Passion which you are not a Stranger to, and have settled your own
               Fortune according to your Wish, methinks you shou’d not wonder that I take it ill,
               when you endeavour to prevent my doing so to: The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was
               perfectly Confounded at these Words, and looking earnestly on him; Brother (said he)
               you seem to lay a heavy Accusation on me, but if you still retain so much of that
               former Affection which was between us, as to desire I shou’d be clear’d in your
               Esteem, you must be more plain in your Charge, for tho’ I easily perceive that I am
               wrong’d, I cannot see by what means I am so. My Lord, you are not wrong’d (cry’d the
                  <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> hastily) you know you are not: If my Tongue were
               silent, the despair that sits upon my Brow, my alter’d Looks, and grief-sunk Eyes,
               wou’d proclaim your Barbarous---most unnatural Usage of me. Ungrateful &gt;Brillian
               (said theCount, at once inflam’d with Tenderness and Anger) is this the Consolation I
               expected from your Presence? I know not for what Cause I am upbraided, being Innocent
               of any,<pb n="128"/> nor what your Troubles are, but I am sure my own are such, as needed not
               this Weight to overwhelm me. He spoke this so feelingly, and concluded with so deep a
               sigh as most sensibly touch’d the Heart of &gt;Brillian. If I cou’d believe that you had
               any (reply’d he) it were enough to sink me quite, and rid me of a Life
               which Ansellina’s loss has made me hate. What said you, (interrupted the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>)Ansellina’s loss? If that be true, I pardon all the
               wildness of your unjust Reproaches, for well I know, despair has small regard to
               Reason, but quickly speak the Cause of your Misfortune:---I was about to enquire the
               Reason that I saw you not together, when your unkind Behaviour drove it from my
               Thoughts. That Question (answer’d the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>) ask’d by you
               some Days since, wou’d have put me past all the Remains of Patience, but I begin to
               hope I am not so unhappy as I thought, but still am blest in Friendship, tho’ undone
               in Love----but I’ll not keep you longer in suspence, my Tale of Grief is short in the
               Repeating, tho’ everlasting in its Consequence. In saying this, he sat down, and the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> doing the like, and assuring him of Attention, he
               began his Relation in this manner.</p>
            <p>Your Lordship may remember that I gave you an Account by Letter, of Ansellina’s
               Indisposition, and the Fears I was in for her; but by the time I receiv’d your
               Answer, I thought my self the happiest of Mankind: She was perfectly recover’d, and
               every Day I receiv’d new Proofs of her Affection: We began to talk now of coming to
                  <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, and she seem’d no less Impatient for that Journey
               than my self, and one Evening, the last I ever had the Honour of her Conversation;
               she told me, that in spite of the Physicians Caution, she wou’d leave <hi rend="italic">Amiens</hi> in three or four Days; You may be sure I did not
               disswade her from that Resolution; but, how great was my Astonishment, when going the
               next Morning to the <hi rend="italic">Baronesses</hi>, to give the Ladies the <hi rend="italic">Bonjour</hi>, as I constantly<pb n="129"/> did every Morning, I perceiv’d an
               unusual coldness in the Face of every one in the Family; the <hi rend="italic">Baroness</hi> herself spoke not to me, but to tell me that Ansellina wou’d see no
               Company: How, Madam, said I, am I not excepted from those general Orders, what can
               this sudden alteration in my Fortune mean? I suppose (reply’d she) that Ansellina has
               her Reasons for what she does: I said all that despair cou’d suggest, to oblige her
               to give me some light into this Mistery, but all was in vain, she either made me no
               Answers, or such as were not Satisfactory, and growing weary with being Importun’d,
               she abruptly went out of the Room, and left me in a confusion not to be Express’d: I
               renew’d my visit the next Day, and was then deny’d admittance by the Porter: The
               same, the following one, and as Servants commonly form their Behaviour, according to
               that of those they serve, it was easy for me to observe I was far from being a
               welcome Guest: I writ to Ansellina, but had my Letter return’d unopen’d: And that
               Scorn so unjustly thrown upon me, tho’ it did not absolutely cure my Passion, yet it
               stirr’d up so much just Resentment in me, that it abated very much of its Tenderness:
               About a Fortnight I remain’d in this perplexity, and at the end of it was plung’d
               into a greater, when I receiv’d a little <hi rend="italic">Billet</hi> from Ansellina,
               which as I remember, contain’d these Words.</p>
            <floatingText>
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                  <opener> Ansellina to the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> &gt;Brillian.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">I sent your Letter back without Perusing, believing it might
                        contain something of a Subject which I am resolv’d to encourage no farther:
                        I do not think it proper at present to acquaint you with my Reasons for it;
                        but<pb n="130"/> if I see you at Paris, you shall know them: I set out for thence to
                        Morrow, but desire you not to pretend to Accompany me thither, if you wou’d
                        preserve the Esteem of</hi>,</p>
                  <closer>Ansellina.</closer>
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            <p>I cannot but say, I thought this manner of proceeding very odd, and vastly different
               from that openness of Nature, I always admir’d in her, but as I had been always a
               most obsequious Lover; I resolv’d not to forfeit that Character, and give a Proof of
               an implicite Obedience to her Will, tho’ with what Anxiety of Mind you may imagine. I
               stood at a distance, and saw her take Coach, and as soon as her Attendants were out
               of sight, I got on Horseback, and follow’d; I several Times lay at the same Inn where
               she did, but took care not to appear before her: Never was any sight more pleasing to
               me, than that of <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, because I there hop’d to have my
               Destiny unravell’d; but your being out of Town, preventing her making any stay, I was
               reduc’d to another tryal of Patience; about Seven Furlongs from hence, hap’ning to
               Bait at the same <hi rend="italic">Cabaret</hi> with her, I saw her Woman, who had
               been always perfectly obliging to me, walking alone in the Garden; I took the liberty
               to show my self to her, and ask her some Questions concerning my future Fate, to
               which she answer’d with all the Freedom I cou’d desire, and observing the
               Melancholly, which was but too apparent in my Countenance: Sir, said she, tho’ I
               think nothing can be more blame-worthy than to betray the Secrets of our Superiors,
               yet I hope I shall stand excus’d for declaring so much of my Lady’s as the Condition
               you are in, seems to require; I wou’d not therefore have you believe that in this
               Separation, you are the only Sufferer, I can assure you, my Lady bears her part of
               Sorrow too.----How can that be possible (cry’d I) when my Misfortune is brought upon
               me, only by the change of her Inclination? Far from it (answer’d she) you have a
               Brother--he only is to blame, she has receiv’d Letters from<pb n="131"/>
               <hi rend="italic">Madam</hi> D’elmont which have---as she was speaking, she was call’d
               hastily away, without being able to finish what she was about to say, and I was so
               Impatient to hear: Her naming you in such a manner, planted ten thousand Daggers in
               my Soul!----What cou’d I imagine by those Words, <hi rend="italic">You have a
                  Brother, he only is to Blame</hi>, and her mentioning Letters from that Brother’s
               Wife; but that it was thro’ you I was made wretched? I repeated several times over to
               my self, what she had said, but cou’d wrest no other Meaning from it, than that you
               being already possess’d of the Elder Sister’s Fortune, were willing to Engross the
               other’s too, by preventing her from Marrying: Pardon me, my Lord, if I have Injur’d
               you, since I protest, the Thoughts of your designing my undoing, was, if possible,
               more dreadful to me than the Ill it self.</p>
            <p>You will, reply’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, be soon convinc’d how little Hand
               I had in those Letters, whatever they contain’d, when you have been here a few Days.
               He then told him of the disagreement between himself and Alovisa, her perpetual
               Jealousy, her Pride, her Rage, and the little probability there was of their being
               ever reconcil’d, so as to live together as they ought, omitting nothing of the Story,
               but his Love for Melliora, and the Cause he had given to create this uneasiness.
               They both concluded, that Ansellina’s alteration of Behaviour was entirely owing to
               something her Sister had written, and that she wou’d use her utmost endeavour to
               break off the Match wholly in Revenge to her Husband: As they were discoursing on
               means to prevent it, the Ladies came to the Gate; they saw them thro’ the Window, and
               ran to receive them immediately: The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> handed Ansellina out
               of the Coach, with great Complaisance, while the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>
               wou’d have done the same by Alovisa, but she wou’d not permit him, which the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> observing, when he had paid those Complements to her
               Sister, which he thought civility requir’d,<pb n="132"/> Madam (said he, turning to her and
               frowning) is it not enough, you make me wretched by your continual Clamours, and
               Upbraidings, but that your ill Nature must extend to all, whom you believe I love?
               She answer’d him only with a disdainful Look, and haughty Toss, which spoke the
               Pleasure she took in having it in her Power to give him Pain, and went out of the
               Room with Ansellina.</p>
            <p>D’elmont’s Family was now become a most distracted one, every Body was in confusion,
               and it was hard for a disinterested Person, to know how to behave among them: The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was ready to die with Vexation, when he reflected on the
               Adventure at theBaron’s withMelantha, and how hard it wou’d be to clear his Conduct
               in that point with Melliora: She, on the other Hand, was as much tormented at his
               not attempting it. The <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>, was in the height of
               despair, when he found that Ansellina continued her Humour, and still avoided letting
               him know the occasion of it: And Alovisa, tho’ she contented herself for some Hours
               with relating to her Sister, all the Passages of her Husband’s unkind usage of her,
               yet when that was over, her Curiosity return’d, and she grew so madly Zealous to find
               out, who her rival was, that she repented her Behaviour to the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>, and sent him the next Day privately, a <hi rend="italic">Billet</hi>,
               wherein she assur’d him, that she had acquainted the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>
               with nothing that had pass’d between them, and that she desir’d to speak with him.
               ’Tis easy to believe he needed not a second Invitation; he came immediately,
               and Alovisa renew’d her Entreaties in the most pressing manner she was capable of, but
               in vain, he told her plainly, that if he cou’d not have her Heart, nothing but the
               full Possession of her Person shou’d Extort the Secret from him. ’Twould swell this
               Discourse beyond what I design, to recount her various Starts of Passions, and
               different Turns of Behaviour, sometimes louder than the Winds she rav’d! Commanded!
               Threatned! Then, still as <hi rend="italic">April</hi> Showers,<pb n="133"/> or Summer Dews
               she wept, and only whisper’d her Complaints, now dissembling Kindness, then declaring
               unfeign’d Hate; ’till at last, finding it impossible to prevail by any other means,
               she promis’d to admit him at Midnight into her Chamber: But as it was only the force
               of her too passionate Affection for her Husband, which had work’d her to this pitch
               of raging Jealousie, so she had no sooner made the Assignation, and the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> had left her (to seek the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> to
               prevent any suspicion of their long Conversation) but all D’elmont’s Charms came fresh
               into her Mind, and made the Thoughts of what she had promis’d, Odious and
               Insupportable; she open’d her Mouth more than once to call back the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>, and Recant all that she had said; but her ill Genius, or that Devil,
               Curiosity, which too much haunts the Minds of Women, still prevented Her: What will
               become of me, (said she to her self) what is it I am about to do? Shall I foregoe my
               Honour---quit my Virtue,---sully my yet unspotted Name with endless Infamy---and
               yield my Soul to Sin, to Shame, and Horror, only to know what I can ne’er Redress?
               If D’elmont hates me now, will he not do so still?---What will this curs’d Discovery
               bring me but added Tortures, and fresh weight of Woe: Happy had it been for her if
               these Considerations cou’d have lasted, but when she had been a Minute or two in this
               Temper, she wou’d relapse and cry, what! must I tamely bear it then?---Endure the
               Flouts of the malicious World, and the contempt of every saucy Girl, who while she
               pities, scorns my want of Charms--Shall I neglected tell my Tale of Wrongs, (O, Hell
               is in that Thought) ’till my despair shall reach my Rival’s Ears, and Crown her
               Adulterous Joys with double Pleasure.---Wretch that I am!--Fool that I am, to
               hesitate, my Misery is already past Addition, my everlasting Peace is broke! Lost
               even to hope, what can I more endure?---No, since I must be ruin’d, I’ll have the
               Satisfaction of dragging with me to Perdition, the Vile, the Cursed she that has
               undone me: I’ll be reveng’d on her, then<pb n="134"/> die my self, and free me from
               Pollution. As she was in this last Thought, she perceiv’d at a good distance from
               her, the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>Brillian and Ansellina in Discourse; the
               sight of him immediately put a new contrivance into her Head, and she compos’d her
               self as she cou’d, and went to meet them.</p>
            <p>Ansellina having been left alone, while her Sister was Entertaining the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>, had walk’d down into the Garden to divert her self,
               where the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>, who was on the watch for such an
               opportunity, had follow’d her; he cou’d not forbear, tho’ in Terms full of Respect,
               taxing her with some little Injustice for her late Usage of him, and Breach of
               Promise, in not letting him know her Reasons for it: She, who by Nature was extreamly
               averse to the disguising her Sentiments, suffer’d him not long to press her for an
                  <hi rend="italic">Eclaircissment</hi>, and with her usual Freedom, told him what
               she had done, was purely in compliance with her Sister’s Request; that she cou’d not
               help having the same Opinion of him as ever, but that she had promis’d Alovisa to
               defer any Thoughts of marrying him, till his Brother shou’d confess his Error: The
               obliging things she said to him, tho’ she persisted in her Resolution, dissipated
               great part of his Chagreen, and he was beginning to excuse D’elmont, and persuade her
               that her Sister’s Temper was the first occasion of their quarrel, when Alovisa
               interrupted them. Ansellina was a little out of Countenance at her Sister’s Presence,
               imagining she wou’d be Incens’d at finding her with the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>; but that distressed Lady was full of other Thoughts, and desiring
               him to follow her to her Chamber, as soon as they were set down, confess’d to him,
               how, fir’d with his Brother’s Falshood, she endeavour’d to revenge it upon him, that
               she had been his Enemy, but was willing to enter into any Measures for his
               Satisfaction, provided he wou’d comply with one, which she should propose, which he
               faithfully promising, after she had sworn him to Secrecy, discover’d to him
               every<pb n="135"/> Circumstance, from her first Cause of Jealousy, to the Assignation she had
               made with the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>; now, said she, it is in your Power to
               preserve both your Brother’s Honour, and my Life (which I sooner will resign than my
               Vertue) if you stand conceal’d in a little Closet, which I shall convey you to, and
               the Moment he has satisfy’d my Curiosity, by telling me her Name that has undone me,
               rush out, and be my Protector. The <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> was infinitely
               Surpriz’d at what he heard, for his Brother had not given him the least hint of his
               Passion, but thought the request she made, too reasonable to be deny’d.</p>
            <p>While they were in this Discourse, Melliora, who had been sitting indulging her
               Melancholly in that Closet which Alovisa spoke of, and which did not immediately
               belong to that Chamber, but was a sort of an Entry, or Passage, into another, and
               tir’d with Reflection, was fallen asleep, but on the noise which Alovysa and the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> made in coming in, wak’d, and heard to her
               inexpressible trouble, the Discourse that pass’d between them: She knew that unknown
               Rival was herself, and condemn’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> of the highest
               Imprudence, in making a confidant, as she found he had, of the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>; she saw her Fate, at least that of her Reputation was now upon the
               Crisis, that, that very Night she was to be expos’d to all the Fury of an enrag’d
               Wife, and was so shook with apprehension, that she was scarce able to go out of the
               Closet time enough to prevent their discovering she was there; what cou’d she do in
               this Exigence, the Thoughts of being betray’d, was worse to her than a thousand
               Deaths, and it was to be wondred at, as she has since confest, that in that height of
               Desparation, she had not put an end to the Tortures of Reflection, by laying violent
               Hands on her own Life: As she was going from the Closet hastily to her own
               Appartment, the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> pass’d
               her, and that sight heightening the distraction she was in, she stept<pb n="136"/> to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and in a faultring, scarce intelligible Accent,
               whisper’d, for Heaven’s Sake let me speak with you before Night, make some pretence
               to come to my Chamber, where I’ll wait for you. And as soon as she had spoke these
               Words, darted from him so swift, that he had no opportunity of replying, if he had
               not been too much overwhelm’d with Joy at this seeming Change of his Fortune to have
               done it; he misunderstood part of what she said, and instead of her desiring to speak
               with him <hi rend="italic">before Night</hi>, he imagin’d, she said <hi rend="italic">at Night</hi>. He presently communicated it to the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>,
               who congratulated him upon it; and never was any Night more impatiently long’d for,
               than this was by them both. They had indeed not many Hours of Expectation, but
               Melliora thought them Ages; all her hopes were, that if she cou’d have an
               opportunity of discovering to <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> D’elmont what she had heard
               between his Wife and Brother, he might find some means to prevent the <hi rend="italic">Baron’s</hi> Treachery from taking Effect. But when Night grew on,
               and she perceiv’d he came not, and she consider’d how near she was to inevitable
               Ruin, what Words can sufficiently express her Agonies? So I shall only say, they were
               too violent to have long kept Company with Life; Guilt, Horrour, Fear, Remorse, and
               Shame at once oppress’d her, and she was very near sinking beneath their Weight, when
               somebody knock’d softly at the Door; she made no doubt but it was the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, and open’d it immediately, and he catching her in his
               Arms with all the eagerness of transported Love, she was about to clear his Mistake,
               and let him know it was not an amourous Entertainment she expected from him; when a
               sudden cry of Murder, and the noise of clashing Swords, made him let go his hold, and
               draw his own, and run along the Gallery to find out the occasion, where being in the
               dark, and only directed by the noise he heard in his Wife’s Chamber, something met
               the point, and a great shriek following it, he cry’d for Lights but none coming
               immediately; he stepping farther stumbled at the Body which had fallen, he then
               redoubled his outcrys,<pb n="137"/> and Melliora, frighted as she was, brought one from her
               Chamber, and at the same Instant that they discover’d it was Alovisa, who coming to
               alarm the Family, had by Accident run on her Husband’s Sword, they saw the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> pursuing the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi>, who
               mortally wounded, dropt down by Alovisa’s side; what a dreadful View was this? The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, Melliora, and the Servants, who by this time were most of
               them rowz’d, seem’d without Sence or Motion, only the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> had Spirit enough to speak, or think, so stupify’d was every one
               with what they saw. But he ordering the Servants to take up the Bodies, sent one of
               ’em immediately for a Surgeon, but they were both of them past his Art to
               cure; Alovisa spoke no more, and the <hi rend="italic">Baron</hi> liv’d but two Days,
               in which time the whole Account, as it was gather’d from the Mouths of those chiefly
               concern’d, was set down, and the Tragical part of it being laid before the KING,
               there appear’d so much of Justice in the <hi rend="italic">Baron’s</hi> Death, and
               Accident in Alovisa’s, that the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> found it no difficult matter to obtain their Pardon. The <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi> was soon after Married to his beloved Ansellina;
               but Melliora look’d on herself as the most guilty Person upon Earth, as being the
               primary Cause of all the Misfortunes that had happen’d, and retir’d immediately to a
               Monastery, from whence, not all the entreaties of her Friends, nor the implorations
               of the Amorous D’elmont cou’d bring her, she was now resolv’d to punish, by a
               voluntary Banishment from all she ever did, or cou’d love; the Guilt of Indulging
               that Passion, while it was a Crime. He, not able to live without her, at least in the
               same Climate, committed the Care of his Estate to his Brother, and went to Travel,
               without an Inclination ever to return:Melantha who was not of a Humour to take any
               thing to Heart, was Married in a short Time, and had the good Fortune not to be
               suspected by her Husband, though she brought him a Child in Seven Months after her
               Wedding.</p>
         </div>

         <div type="part" n="3">
            <head type="main">
                            <hi rend="italic">LOVE in Excess:</hi>
                            <lb/> OR, THE<lb/> Fatal
               Inquiry,<lb/> A<lb/> NOVEL.</head>
            <head type="sub">The Third and Last Part.</head>
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               <body>
                  <div>
                     <lg>
                        <l>
                                            <hi rend="italic">Success can then alone your Vows attend,</hi>
                                        </l>
                        <l>
                                            <hi rend="italic">When Worth’s the Motive, Constancy the End.</hi>
                                        </l>
                     </lg>
                     <closer>Epilogue to the <hi rend="italic">Spartan</hi> Dame.</closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <head type="sub">By <hi rend="italic">Mrs.</hi> Haywood.</head>
            <p>[deleted publication information] </p>
            <pb n="141"/>
            <p>Tho’ Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> never had any tenderness for <hi rend="italic">Alovisa</hi>, and her Extravagance of Rage and Jealousie, join’d to
               his Passion for <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, had every Day abated it, yet the
               manner of her Death was too great a shock to the sweetness of his Disposition, to be
               easily worn off; he cou’d not remember her Uneasiness, without reflecting that it
               sprung only from her too violent Affection for him; and tho’ there was no possibility
               of living happily with her, when he consider’d that she died, not only for him, but
               by his Hand, his Compassion for the Cause, and Horror for the unwish’d, as well as
               undesign’d Event, drew Lamentations from him, more sincere, perhaps, than one of
               those Husbands,<pb n="142"/> who call themselves very loving ones, wou’d make.</p>
            <p>To alleviate the troubles of his Mind, he had endeavour’d all he cou’d, to persuade
                  <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> to continue in his House; but that afflicted Lady
               was not to be prevail’d upon, she look’d on her self, as in a manner, accessary to
                  <hi rend="italic">Alovisa</hi>’s Death, and thought the least she ow’d to her
               Reputation was to see the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> no more, and tho’ in the
               forming this Resolution, she felt Torments unconceivable, yet the strength of her
               Virtue enabled her to keep it, and she return’d to the Monastery, where she had been
               Educated, carrying with her nothing of that Peace of Mind with which she left it.</p>
            <p>Not many Days pass’d between her Departure, and the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s;
               he took his way towards <hi rend="italic">Italy</hi>, by the Persuasions of his
               Brother, who, since he found him bent to Travel, hop’d that Garden of the World might
               produce something to divert his Sorrows; he took but two Servants with him, and those
               rather for conveniency than State: <hi rend="italic">Ambition</hi>, once his darling
               Passion, was now wholly extinguish’d in him by these Misfortunes, and he no longer
               thought of making a Figure in the World; but his <hi rend="italic">Love</hi> nothing
               cou’d abate, and ’tis to be believ’d that the violence of that wou’d have driven him
               to the use of some fatal Remedy, if the <hi rend="italic">Chevalier Brillian</hi>, to
               whom he left the Care of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s and her Brother’s Fortune
               as well as his own, had not, tho’ with much difficulty, obtain’d a Promise from her,
               of conversing with him by Letters.</p>
            <p>This was all he had to keep hope alive, and indeed it was no inconsiderable
               Consolation, for she that allows a Correspondence of that Kind with a Man that has
               any Interest in her Heart, can never persuade herself, while she does so, to make him
               become indifferent to her. When we give our selves the liberty<pb n="143"/> of even talking
               of the Person we have once lov’d, and find the least pleasure in that Discourse, ’tis
               ridiculous to imagine we are free from that Passion, without which, the mention of it
               would be but insipid to our Ears, and the remembrance to our Minds, tho’ our Words
               are never so Cold, they are the Effects of a secret Fire, which burns not with less
               Strength for not being Dilated. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> had too much
               Experience of all the Walks and Turns of Passion to be ignorant of this, if <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> had endeavour’d to disguise her Sentiments, but she
               went not so far, she thought it a sufficient vindication of her Virtue, to withold
               the rewarding of his Love, without feigning a coldness to which she was a stranger,
               and he had the satisfaction to observe a tenderness in her Stile, which assur’d him,
               that her <hi rend="italic">Heart</hi> was unalterably his, and very much strengthen’d
               his Hopes, that one Day her Person might be so too, when time had a little effac’d
               the Memory of those Circumstances, which had obliged her to put this constraint on
               her Inclinations.</p>
            <p>He wrote to her from every Post-Town, and waited till he receiv’d her Answer, by this
               means his Journey was extreamly tedious, but no Adventures of any moment, falling in
               his way ’till he came to <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, I shall not trouble my Readers
               with a recital of particulars which cou’d be no way Entertaining.</p>
            <p>But, how strangely do they deceive themselves, who fancy that they are Lovers, yet on
               every little turn of Fortune, or Change of Circumstance, are agitated, with any
               Vehemence, by Cares of a far different Nature? <hi rend="italic">Love</hi> is too
               jealous, too arbitrary a Monarch to suffer any other Passion to equalize himself in
               that Heart where he has fix’d his Throne. When once enter’d, he becomes the whole
               Business of our Lives, we think----we Dream of nothing else, nor have a Wish not
               inspir’d by him: Those who have the Power to apply themselves so seriously to any
               other Consideration as to forget him, tho’ but for a Moment,<pb n="144"/> are but Lovers in
               Conceit, and have entertain’d Desire but as an agreeable Amusement, which when
               attended with any Inconvenience, they may without much difficulty shake off. Such a
               sort of Passion may be properly enough call’d <hi rend="italic">Liking</hi>, but
               falls widely short of <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>. <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>, is
               what we can neither resist, expel, nor even alleviate, if we should never so
               vigorously attempt it; and tho’ some have boasted, <hi rend="italic">Thus far will I
                  yield and no farther</hi>, they have been convinc’d of the Vanity of forming such
               Resolutions by the impossibility of keeping them. <hi rend="italic">Liking</hi> is a
               flashy Flame, which is to be kept alive only by ease and delight. <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>, needs not this fewel to maintain its Fire, it survives in Absence, and
               disappointments, it endures, unchill’d, the wintry Blasts of cold Indifference and
               Neglect, and continues its Blaze, even in a storm of Hatred and Ingratitude, and
               Reason, Pride, or a just sensibility of conscious Worth, in vain oppose it. <hi rend="italic">Liking</hi>, plays gaily round, feeds on the Sweets in gross, but is
               wholly insensible of the Thorns which guard the nicer, and more refin’d Delicacies of
               Desire, and can consequently give neither Pain, nor Pleasure in any superlative
               degree. <hi rend="italic">Love</hi> creates intollerable Torments! Unspeakable Joys!
               Raises us to the highest Heaven of Happiness, or sinks us to the lowest Hell of
               Misery.</p>
            <p>Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> experienc’d the Truth of this Assertion; for
               neither his just concern for the manner of <hi rend="italic">Alovisa</hi>’s Death
               cou’d curb the Exuberance of his Joy, when he consider’d himself belov’d by <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, nor any Diversion of which <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi> afforded great Variety, be able to make him support being absent from
               her with Moderation. There are I believe, but few modern Lovers, how Passionate and
               constant soever they pretend to be, who wou’d not in the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Circumstances have found some matter of Consolation; but he seem’d
               wholly dead to Gaiety. In vain, all the <hi rend="italic">Roman</hi> Nobility courted
               his acquaintance; in vain the Ladies made use of their utmost Artifice to engage him:
               He prefer’d a solitary Walk, a lonely Shade, or the<pb n="145"/> Bank of some purling Stream,
               where he undisturb’d might contemplate on his belov’d <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, to all the noisy Pleasures of the Court, or the endearments of the
               inviting Fair. In fine, he shun’d as much as possible all Conversation with the Men,
               or Correspondence with the Women; returning all their <hi rend="italic">Billet-Doux</hi>, of which scarce a Day past, without his receiving some,
               unanswer’d.</p>
            <p>This manner of Behaviour in a little time deliver’d him from the Persecutions of the
               Discreet; but having receiv’d one Letter which he had us’d as he had done the rest,
               it was immediately seconded by another; both which contain’d as follows:</p>
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               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <head type="sub">Letter I.</head>
                     <opener>To the never Enough Admir’d Count D’elmont.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">In your Country, where Women are allow’d the priveledge of
                           being seen and Address’d to, it wou’d be a Crime unpardonable to Modesty,
                           to make the first Advances. But here, where rigid Rules are Bar’s, as
                           well to Reason, as to Nature: It wou’d be as great one, to feign an
                           Infidelity of your Merit. I say, feign, for I look on it, as an
                           impossibility really to behold you with Indifferency: But, if I cou’d
                           believe that any of my Sex were in good earnest so dull, I must confess,
                           I shou’d Envy that happy Stupidity, which wou’d secure me from the Pains
                           such a Passion, as you create, must Inflict; unless, from the Millions
                           whom your Charms have preach’d; you have yet a corner of your Heart
                           Unpreposess’d;<pb n="146"/> and an Inclination willing to receive the Impression
                           of</hi>,</p>
                     <closer>Your most Passionate and Tender, (but ’till she receives a favourable
                        Answer) <signed>Your unknown Adorer.</signed>
                                    </closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
<pb n="147"/>
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               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <head type="sub">Letter II.</head>
                     <opener>To the Ungrateful D’elmont.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">Unworthy of the Happiness design’d you! Is it thus, That
                           you return the Condescention of a Lady? How fabulous is Report, which
                           speaks those of your Country, warm and full of amorous Desires?--Thou,
                           sure, art colder than the bleak northern Islanders--dull, stupid Wretch!
                           Insensible of every Passion which give Lustre to the Soul, and differ Man
                           from Brute!--Without Gratitude--Without Love--Without Desire--Dead, even
                           to Curiosity!--How I cou’d despise Thee for this narrowness of Mind, were
                           there not something in thy Eyes and Mein which assure me, that this
                           negligent Behaviour is but affected; and that there are within thy
                           Breast, some Seeds of hidden Fire, which want but the Influence of
                           Charms, more potent perhaps, than you have yet beheld, to kindle into
                           Blaze. Make hast then to be Enliven’d, for I flatter my self ’tis in my
                           Power to work this wonder, and long to inspire so Lovely a Form with
                           Sentiments only worthy of it.--The Bearer of this, is a Person who I dare
                           Confide in--Delay not to come with him, for when once you are Taught what
                           ’tis to Love; you’ll not be Ignorant that doubtful Expectation is the
                           worst of Racks, and from your own Experience. Pity what I feel, thus
                           chill’d with Doubt, yet burning with Desire.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>Yours, Impatiently.</closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was pretty much surpriz’d at the odd Turn of this
                  <hi rend="italic">Billet</hi>; but being willing to put an End to the Ladies
               Trouble, as well as his own; sat down, and without giving himself much Time to think,
               writ these Lines in Answer to Hers.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>To the FairIncognita. <salute>Madam,</salute>
                                    </opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">If you have no other design in Writing to me, than your
                           Diversion, methinks my Mourning Habit, to which my Countenance and
                           Behaviour are no way Unconformable, might inform you, I am little
                           dispos’d for Raillery. If in Earnest you can find any thing in me which
                           pleases you, I must confess my self entirely unworthy of the Honour, not
                           only by my personal Demerits, but by the Resolution I have made, of
                           Conversing with none of your Sex while I continue in Italy. I shou’d be
                           sorry however to incurr the Aspersion of an unmannerly Contemner of
                           Favours, which tho’ I do not desire, I pretend not to deserve. I
                           therefore beg you will believe that I return this, as I did your Former,
                           only to let you see, that since I decline making any use of your
                           Condescentions to my Advantage; I am not ungenerous enough to do so to
                           your Prejudice, and to all Ladies deserving the regard of a Disinterested
                           Well-wisher; shall be an</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>Humble Servant, <signed>
                                            <hi rend="italic">D’Elmont</hi>.</signed>
                                    </closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> order’d one of his Servants to deliver this Letter
               to the Person who brought the other; but he return’d immediately with it in his Hand,
               and told his Lordship that he cou’d not prevail on the Fellow to take it; that he
               said he had business with the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>,<pb n="148"/> and must needs see
               him, and was so Importunate, that he seem’d rather to <hi rend="italic">Demand</hi>,
               than <hi rend="italic">Entreat</hi> a Grant of his Request. D’elmont was astonish’d,
               as well he might, but commanded he should be admitted.</p>
            <p>Nothing cou’d be more comical than the appearance of this Fellow, he seem’d to be
               about three-score Years of Age, but Time had not been the greatest Enemy to his Face,
               for the Number of Scars, was far exceeding that of Wrincles, he was tall above the
               common Stature, but so lean, that, till he spoke, he might have been taken for one of
               those Wretches who have pass’d the Hands of the Anatomists, nor wou’d his Walk have
               dissipated that Opinion, for all his Motions, as he enter’d the Chamber, had more of
               the Air of Clock-work, than of Nature; his Dress was not less particular; he had on a
               Suit of Cloaths, which might perhaps have been good in the Days of his Great
               Grand-father, but the Person who they fitted must have been five times larger about
               the Body than him who wore them; a large broad buff Belt however remedy’d that
               Inconvenience, and girt them close about his Waste, in which hung a Faulchion, two
               Daggers, and a Sword of a more than ordinary Extent; the rest of his Equipage was a
               Cloak, which buttoning round his Neck fell not so low as his Hips, a Hat, which in
               rainy weather kept his Shoulders dry much better than an <hi rend="italic">Indian</hi> Umbrella, one Glove, and a formidable pair of Whiskers. As soon as he
               saw the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, my Lord, said he, with a very impudent Air, my
               Orders were to bring your self, not a Letter from you, nor do I use to be employ’d in
               Affairs of this Nature, but to serve one of the richest and most beautiful Ladies in
                  <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, who I assure you, it will be dangerous to disoblige.
                  <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> ey’d him intentively all the time he spoke, and
               cou’d scarce, notwithstanding his Chagreen, forbear Laughing at the Figure he made,
               and the manner of his Salutation. I know not, answer’d he, Ironically, what
               Employments you have been us’d to, but certainly you appear to me, one<pb n="149"/> of the
               most unfit Persons in the World for what you now undertake, and if the Contents of
               the Paper you brought me, had not inform’d me of your Abilities this Way, I should
               never have suspected you for one of <hi rend="italic">Cupid</hi>’s Agents: You are
               merry, my Lord, reply’d the other, but I must tell you, I am a Man of Family and
               Honour, and shall not put up an Affront; but, continued he, shaking the few Hairs
               which frequent Skirmishes had left upon his Head, I shall defer my own satisfaction
               ’till I have procur’d the Ladies; therefore, if your Lordship will prepare to follow,
               I shall walk before, at a perceivable Distance, and without St. <hi rend="italic">Peter</hi>’s Key, open the Gate of Heaven. I should be apt (said the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, not able to keep his Countenance at these Words) rather
               to take it for the other Place; but be it as it will; I have not the least
               Inclination to make the Experiment, therefore, you may walk as soon as you please
               without expecting me to accompany you. Then you absolutely refuse to go (cry’d the
               Fellow, clapping his Hand on his Forhead, and staring at him, as if he meant to scare
               him into Compliance!) Yes (answer’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, laughing more
               and more) I shall neither go, nor waste any farther time or Words with you, so wou’d
               advise you not to be saucy, or tarry till my Anger gets the better of my Mirth, but
               take the Letter and be gone, and trouble me no more. The other, at these Words laid
               his Hand on his Sword, and was about to make some very impudent Reply, when <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, growing weary of his Impertinence, made a Sign to his
               Servants, that they should turn him out, which he perceiving, took up the Letter
               without being bid a second time, and muttering some unintelligible Curses between his
               Teeth, march’d out, in the same affected Strut, with which he enter’d.</p>
            <p>This Adventure, tho’ surprizing enough to a Person so entirely unacquainted with the
               Character and Behaviour of these <hi rend="italic">Bravo</hi>’s, as <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> was, gave him but very little matter of Reflection, and it
               being<pb n="150"/> the time for Evening Service at St. <hi rend="italic">Peter</hi>’s, he
               went, according to his Custom, to hear <hi rend="italic">Vesper</hi>’s there.</p>
            <p>Nothing is more Common, than for the Nobility and Gentry of <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, to divert themselves with Walking, and talking to one another in the
                  <hi rend="italic">Collonade</hi> after Mass, and the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>,
               tho’ averse to all other publick Assemblies, wou’d sometimes spend an Hour or two
               there.</p>
            <p>As he was walking there this Evening, a Lady of a very gallant Mein pass’d swiftly by
               him, and flurting out her Handkerchief with a careless Air, as it were by Chance,
               drop’d an <hi rend="italic">Agnus Dei</hi> set round with Diamonds at his Feet, he
               had too much Complaisance to neglect endeavouring to overtake the Lady, and prevent
               the Pain he imagin’d she wou’d be in, when she shou’d miss so rich a Jewel: But she,
               who knew well enough what she had done, left the Walk where the Company were, and
               cross’d over to the Fountain, which being more retir’d was the most proper for her
               Design: She stood looking on the Water, in a thoughtful Posture, when the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> came up to her, and bowing, with an Air peculiar to
               himself, and which all his Chagreen could not deprive of an irresistable Power of
               attraction, Presented the <hi rend="italic">Agnus Dei</hi> to her. I think my self,
               Madam, said he, highly indebted to Fortune, for making me the means of your
               recovering a Jewel, the Loss of which wou’d certainly have given you some disquiet:
               Oh Heavens! cry’d she, receiving it with an affected Air of Surprize, could a Trifle
               like this, which I knew not that I had let fall, nor perhaps shou’d have thought on
               more, cou’d this, and belonging to a Woman too, meet the Regard of him, who prides in
               his Insensibility? Him! Who has no Eyes for Beauty, nor no Heart for Love! As she
               spoke these Words she contriv’d to let her Vail fall back as if by Accident, and
               discover’d a Face, Beautiful even to Perfection! Eyes black and sparkling, a Mouth
               form’d to Invite, a Skin dazlingly white, thro’ which<pb n="151"/> a most delightful Bloom
               diffus’d a chearful Warmth, and glow’d in amorous Blushes on her Cheeks. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> could not forbear gazing on her with Admiration, and
               perhaps, was, for a Moment, pretty near receeding from that Insensibility she had
               reproach’d him with; but the Image of Melliora, yet unenjoy’d, all ravishingly Kind
               and Tender, rose presently in his Soul, fill’d all his Faculties, and left no Passage
               free for rival Charms. Madam, said he after a little Pause, the <hi rend="italic">Italian</hi> Ladies take care to skreen their too dazling Lustre behind a Cloud,
               and, if I durst take that Liberty, have certainly reason to Tax your Accusation of
               Injustice; he, on whom the Sun has never vouchsafed to shine, ought not to be
               condemn’d for not acknowledging its brightness; yours is the first Female Face I have
               beheld, since my Arrival here, and it wou’d have been as ridiculous to have feign’d
               my self susceptible of Charms which I had never seen, as it wou’d be Stupidity, not
               to confess those I now do, worthy Adoration. Well, resum’d she smiling, if not the
                  <hi rend="italic">Lover</hi>’s, I find, you know how to Act the <hi rend="italic">Courtier</hi>’s Part, but continued she, looking languishingly on him, all you
               can say, will scarce make me believe, that there requires not a much brighter Sun
               than mine, to Thaw a certain Frozen <hi rend="italic">Resolution</hi>, you pretend to
               have made. There need no more to confirm the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> in the
               Opinion he had before conceiv’d, that this was the Lady from whom he had receiv’d the
               two Letters that Day, and thought he had now the fairest Opportunity in the World to
               put an End to her Passion, by assuring her how impossible it was for him ever to
               return it, and was forming an Answer to that purpose; when a pretty deal of Company
               coming toward them, she drew her Vail over her Face, and turning hastily from him,
               mingled with some Ladies, who seem’d to be of her Acquaintance.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> knew by experience, the unutterable Perturbations of
               Suspence, and what agonizing Tortures rend an amorous Soul, divided betwixt Hope<pb n="152"/>
               and Fear: Despair itself is not so Cruel as Uncertainty, and in all Ills, especially
               in those of Love, it is less Misery to <hi rend="italic">Know</hi>, than <hi rend="italic">Dread</hi> the worst. The Remembrance of what he had suffer’d thus
               agitated, in the Beginning of his Passion for <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, made
               him extreamly pity the unknown Lady, and regret her sudden Departure; because it had
               prevented him from setting her into so much of his Circumstances, as he believ’d were
               necessary to induce her to recall her Heart. But when he consider’d how much he had
               struggled, and how far he had been from being able to repel Desire, he began to
               wonder that it cou’d ever enter into his Thoughts that there was even a possibility
               for <hi rend="italic">Woman</hi>, so much stronger in her Fancy, and weaker in her
               Judgment, to suppress the Influence of that powerful Passion; against which, no Laws,
               no Rules, no Force of Reason, or Philosophy, are sufficient Guard.</p>
            <p>These Reflections gave no small Addition to his Melancholy; <hi rend="italic">Amena</hi>’s Retirement from the World; <hi rend="italic">Alovisa</hi>’s Jealousy
               and Death; <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s Peace of Mind and Reputation, and the
               Despair of several, whom he was sensible, the Love of him, had rendred miserable,
               came fresh into his Memory, and he look’d on himself as most unhappy, in being the
               occasion of making others so.</p>
            <p>The Night which succeeded this Day of Adventures, chancing to be abroad pretty late;
               as he was passing thro’ a Street, he heard a Clashing of Swords, and going nearer to
               the place where the Noise was, he perceiv’d by some Lights which glimmer’d from a
               distant Door, a Gentleman defending himself with much Bravery against Three, who
               seem’d eager for his Death. <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> was mov’d to the highest
               Indignation at the sight of such Baseness; and drawing his Sword, flew furiously on
               the Assassins, just as one of them was about to run his Sword into the Breast of the
               Gentleman; who, by the breaking of his own Blade, was left unarm’d. <hi rend="italic">Turn Villain</hi>, cry’d D’elmont, <hi rend="italic">or while you are acting that
                     Inhumanly, receive<pb n="153"/> the just Reward of it from me</hi>. The Ruffian fac’d
               about immediately, and made a Pass at him, while one of his Comrades did the same on
               the other side; and the third was going to execute on the Gentleman, what his fellows
               Surprize had made him leave undone: But he now gain’d Time to pull a Pistol out of
               his Pocket, with which he shot him in a Moment dead, and snatching his Sword from him
               as he fell, ran to assist the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, who ’tis likely wou’d
               have stood in need of it, being engag’d with two, and those the most desparate sort
               of <hi rend="italic">Bravo’s</hi>, Villains that make a Trade of Death. But the Noise
               of the Pistol made them apprehensive there was a farther Rescue, and put ’em to
               flight. The Gentleman seem’d agitated with a more than ordinary Fury; and instead of
               staying to Thank the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, or enquire how he had escap’d, ran
               in pursuit of those who had assaulted him, so swiftly, that it was in vain for the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, not being well acquainted with the Turnings of the
               Streets, to attempt to follow him, if he had a Mind to it: But seeing there was a Man
               kill’d, and not knowing either the Persons who fought, or the occasion of their
               Quarrel, he rightly judg’d, that being a Stranger in the place, his Word wou’d not be
               very readily taken in his own Vindication; therefore thought his wisest Course wou’d
               be to make off, with what Speed he cou’d, to his Lodging. While he was considering,
               he saw something on the Ground which glitter’d extreamly; and taking it up, found
               that it was part of the Sword which the assaulted Gentleman had the Misfortune to
               have broke: The Hilt was of a fine Piece of Agate, set round on the Top with
               Diamonds, which made him believe the Person whom he had preserv’d, was of
               considerable Quality, as well as Bravery.</p>
            <p>He had not gone many Paces from the place where the Skirmish happened, before a Cry
               of Murder met his Ears, and a great Concourse of People his Eyes: He had receiv’d two
               or three slight Wounds, which,<pb n="154"/> tho’ not much more than Skin-deep, had made his
               Linnen bloody, and he knew wou’d be sufficient to make him be apprehended, if he were
               seen, which it was very difficult to avoid: He was in a narrow Street, which had no
               Turning, and the Crowd was very near him, when looking round him with a good deal of
               Vexation in his Thoughts, he discern’d a Wall, which in one part of it seem’d pretty
               low: He presently resolv’d to climb it, and trust to Fortune for what might befall
               him on the other side, rather than stay to be expos’d to the Insults of the
               Outrageous Mob; who, ignorant of his Quality, and looking no farther than the outside
               of Things, wou’d doubtless have consider’d him no otherwise, than a Midnight <hi rend="italic">Rioter</hi>.</p>
            <p>When he was got over the Wall, he found himself in a very fine Garden, adorn’d with
               Fountains, Statues, Groves, and every Ornament, that Art, or Nature, cou’d produce,
               for the Delight of the Owner: At the upper End there was a Summer-house, into which
               he went, designing to stay ’till the Search was over.</p>
            <p>But He had not been many Moments in his Concealment before he saw a Door open from
               the House, and two Women come out; they walk’d directly up to the place where he was;
               he made no doubt but that they design’d to enter, and retir’d into the farthest
               Corner of it: As they came pretty near, he found they were earnest in Discourse, but
               cou’d understand nothing of what they said, ’till she, who seem’d to be the Chief,
               raising her Voice a little higher than she had done: Talk no more, <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi> said she, if e’re thy Eyes are Blest to see this Charmer of my Soul,
               thou wil’t cease to wonder at my Passion; great as it is, ’tis wanting of his
               Merit.----Oh! He is more than Raptur’d Poets feign, or Fancy can invent! Suppose Him
               so, (<hi rend="italic">cry’d the other</hi>,) yet still he wants that Charm which
               shou’d Endear the others to you---Softness,---Heavens! To Return your Letters! To
               Insult your Messenger! To slight such Favours as any Man of Soul wou’d die to<pb n="155"/>
               obtain! Methinks such Usage shou’d make him odious to you,---even I shou’d scorn so
               spiritless a Wretch. Peace, thou Prophaner, <hi rend="italic">said the Lady in an
                  angry Tone</hi>, such Blasphemy deserves a Stab----But thou hast never heard his
               Voice, nor seen his Eyes, and I forgive Thee. Have you then spoke to him, <hi rend="italic">interrupted the Confidant</hi>, Yes, <hi rend="italic">answer’d the
                  Lady</hi>, and by that Conversation, am more undone than ever; it was to tell thee
               this Adventure, I came to Night into this agreeable Solitude. With these Words they
               came into the Summer-house, and the Lady seating her self on a Bench; Thou know’st,
                  <hi rend="italic">resum’d she</hi>, I went this Evening to Saint <hi rend="italic">Peter</hi>’s, there I saw the glorious Man; saw him in all his Charms; and while
               I bow’d my Knee, in show to Heaven, my Soul was prostrate only to him. When the
               Ceremony was over, perceiving he stay’d in the <hi rend="italic">Collonade</hi>, I
               had no power to leave it, but stood, regardless who observ’d me, gazing on him with
               Transports, which only those who Love like me, can guess!---God! With what an Air he
               walk’d! What new Attractions dwelt in every Motion---And when he return’d the Salutes
               of any that pass’d by him, how graceful was his Bow! How lofty his Mein, and yet, how
               affable!----A sort of an inexpressible awful Grandeur, blended with tender
               Languishments, strikes the amaz’d Beholder at once with Fear and Joy!---Something
               beyond Humanity shines round him! Such looks descending Angels wear, when sent on
               Heavenly Embassies to some Favourite Mortal! Such is their Form! Such Radient Beams
               they dart; and with such Smiles they temper their Divinity with Softness!---Oh! With
               what Pain did I restrain my self from flying to him! from rushing into his Arms! From
               hanging on his Neck, and wildly uttering all the furious Wishes of my burning
               Soul!-----I trembled-----panted----rag’d with inward Agonies. Nor was all the Reason
               I cou’d muster up, sufficient to bear me from his Sight, without having first spoke
               to him. To that end I ventur’d to pass by him, and drop’d an <hi rend="italic">Agnus<pb n="156"/> Dei</hi> at his Feet, believing that wou’d give him an Occasion of
               following me, which he did immediately, and returning it to me, discover’d a new
               Hoard of unimagin’d Charms----All my fond Soul confess’d before of his Perfections,
               were mean to what I now beheld! Had’st thou but seen how he approach’d me--with what
               an awful Reverence---with what a soft beseeching, yet commanding Air, he kiss’d the
               happy Trifle, as he gave it me, thou would’st have envy’d it as well as I! At last he
               spoke, and with an Accent so Divine, that if the sweetest Musick were compar’d to the
               more Celestial Harmony of his Voice, it wou’d only serve to prove how vastly <hi rend="italic">Nature</hi> do’s excell all <hi rend="italic">Art</hi>. But, Madam,
                  <hi rend="italic">cry’d the other</hi>, I am impatient to know the End of this
               Affair; for I presume you discover’d to him both what, and who you were? My Face
               only, reply’d the Lady, for e’re I had opportunity to do more, that malicious
               Trifler, <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, perhaps envious of my Happiness, came
               toward us with a Crowd of Impertinents at her Heels. Curse on the Interruption, and
               broke off our Conversation, just at that Blest, but Irrecoverable Moment, when I
               perceiv’d in my Charming Conqueror’s Eyes, a growing Tenderness, sufficient to
               encourage me to reveal my own. Yes, <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, those lovely Eyes,
               while fix’d on mine, shone, with a Lustre, uncommon, even to themselves---A livelier
               Warmth o’erspread his Cheeks----Pleasure sat smiling on his Lips----those Lips, my
               Girl, which even when they are silent, speak; but when unclos’d, and the sweet Gales
               of balmy Breath blow on you, he kills you in a Sigh; each hurry’d Sense is ravish’d
               and your Soul glows with Wonder and Delight. Oh! To be forc’d to leave him in this
               Crisis, when new desire began to dawn; when Love its most lively Symptoms was
               apparent, and seem’d to promise all my Wishes covet, what Separation ever was so
               cruel? Compose your self, dear Madam, said <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, if he be
               really in Love; as who so Insensible as not to be so, that once has seen your<pb n="157"/>
               Charms? That <hi rend="italic">Love</hi> will teach him speedily to find out an
               opportunity as favourable as that which you have lately miss’d; or if he shou’d want
               Contrivance to procure his own Happiness, ’tis but your writing to appoint a Meeting.
               He must---He shall be mine! Cry’d the Lady in a Rapture, My Love, fierce as it was
               before, from Hope receives Addition to its Fury; I rave---I burn---I am mad with wild
               Desires---I die, <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, if I not possess him. In speaking
               these Words, she threw her self down on a Carpet which was spread upon the Floor; and
               after sighing two or three times, continued to discover the Violence of her impatient
               Passion in this manner: Oh that this Night, said she, were past,---the Blisful
               Expectation of to morrows Joys, and the distracting Doubts of Disappointment, swell
               my unequal beating Heart by turns, and rack me with Vicissitudes of Pain-----I cannot
               live and bear it----soon as the Morning breaks, I’ll know my Doom----I’ll send to
               him----but ’tis an Age till then----Oh that I cou’d sleep---Sleep might perhaps
               anticipate the Blessing, and bring him in Idea to my Arms----but ’tis in vain to hope
               one Moment’s cool Serenity in Love like mine--my anxious Thoughts hurry my Senses in
               Eternal Watchings!---Oh <hi rend="italic">D’elmont! D’elmont!</hi> Tranquill, Cold,
               and Calm <hi rend="italic">D’elmont!</hi> Little doest thou guess the Tempest thou
               hast rais’d within my Soul, nor know’st to pity these consuming Fires!</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> list’ned to all this Discourse with a World of
               Uneasiness and Impatience; and tho’ at the first he fancy’d he remember’d the Voice,
               and had Reason enough from the beginning, especially when the <hi rend="italic">Agnus
                  Dei</hi> was mention’d, to believe it cou’d be no other than himself, whom the
               Lady had so passionately describ’d; yet he had not Confidence to appear till she had
               nam’d him; but then, no consideration was of force to make him neglect this
               opportunity of undeceiving her; his good Sense, as well as good Nature, kept him from
               that Vanity, too many of his Sex imitate<pb n="158"/> the weaker in, of being pleas’d that it
               was in his Power to create Pains, which it was not in his Power, so devoted as he
               was, to Ease.</p>
            <p>He stept from his Retirement as softly as he cou’d, because he was loath to alarm
               them with any Noise, ’till they shou’d discover who it was that made it, which they
               might easily do, in his advancing toward them never so little, that part of the Bower
               being much lighter than that where he had stood; but with his over-caution in sliding
               his Feet along, to prevent being heard, one of them tangled in the Corner of the
               Carpet, which happened not to lie very smooth, and not being sensible presently what
               it was that Embarrass’d him: He fell with part of his Body cross the Lady, and his
               Head in <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>’s Lap, who was sitting on the Ground by her.
               The Manner of his Fall was lucky enough, for it hinder’d either of them from rising,
               and running to alarm the Family, as certainly in such a fright they wou’d have done,
               if his Weight had not detain’d them; they both gave a great Shriek, but the House
               being at a good distance, they cou’d not easily be heard; and he immediately
               recovering himself, beg’d Pardon for the Terror he had occasion’d them; and
               addressing to the Lady, who at first was dying with her Fears, and now with
               Consternation: <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, Madam, said he, cou’d not have had
               the Assurance to appear before you, after hearing those undeserv’d Praises your
               Excess of Goodness has been pleas’d to bestow upon him, but that his Soul wou’d have
               reproach’d him of the highest Ingratitude, in permitting you to continue longer in an
               Error, which may involve you in the greatest of Misfortunes, at least I am----As he
               was speaking, three or four Servants with Lights came running from the House; and the
               Lady, tho’ in more Confusion than can be well exprest, had yet Presence of Mind
               enough to bid the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> retire to the place where he had stood
               before, while she and <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi> went out of the Summer-house to
               learn the Cause of this<pb n="159"/> Interruption: Madam, cry’d one of the Servants, as soon
               as he saw her, the Officers of Justice are within; who being rais’d by an Alarm of
               Murther, come to beg your Ladyships Permission to search your Garden, being, as they
               say, inform’d that the Offender made his Escape over this Wall. ’Tis very improbable,
               reply’d the Lady, for I have been here a considerable Time, and have neither heard
               the least Noise, nor seen any Body: However they may search, and satisfy
               themselves----go you, and tell them so. Then turning to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, when she had dismiss’d her Servants; My Lord, said she Trembling, I
               know not what strange Adventure brought you here to Night, or whether you are the
               Person for whom the Search is made; but am sensible, if you are found here, it will
               be equally injurious to your Safety, and my Reputation; I have a Back-door, thro’
               which you may pass in Security: But, if you have Honour, (continu’d she) Sighing,
               Gratitude, or good Nature, you will let me see you to morrow Night. Madam, (reply’d
               he,) assure your self that there are not many things I more earnestly desire than an
               opportunity to convince you, how sensibly I am touch’d with your Favours, and how
               much I regret my want of Power to---you, (interrupted she,) can want nothing but the
                  <hi rend="italic">Will</hi> to make me the happiest of my Sex---but this is no
               Time for you to <hi rend="italic">Give</hi>, or me to <hi rend="italic">Receive</hi>
               any Proofs of that Return which I expect----Once more I conjure you to be here to
               morrow Night at Twelve, where the Faithful <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi> shall attend
               to admit you. Farewell---be punctual and sincere--’Tis all I ask---when I am not,
               (answer’d he,) may all my Hopes forsake me. By this time they were come to the Door,
               which <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, opening softly, let him out, and shut it again
               immediately.</p>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> took care to Remark the place that he might know it
               again, resolving nothing more than to make good his Promise at the appointed Hour,
               but<pb n="160"/> cou’d not help being extreamly troubled, when he consider’d how unwelcome
               his Sincerity wou’d be, and the Confusion he must give the Lady, when instead of
               those Raptures the Violence of her mistaken Passion made her hope, she shou’d meet
               with only cold Civility, and the killing History of the Pre-engagement of his Heart.
               In these and the like melancholly Reflections he spent the Night; and when Morning
               came, receiv’d the severest Augmentation of them, which Fate cou’d load him with.</p>
            <p>It was scarce full Day when a Servant came into his Chamber to acquaint him, that a
               young Gentleman, a Stranger, desir’d to be admitted, and seem’d so impatient till he
               was, That, said the Fellow, not knowing of what Consequence his Business may be, I
               thought it better to Risque your Lordship’s Displeasure for this early Disturbance,
               than by dismissing him, fill you with an unsatisfy’d Curiosity. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was far from being Angry, and commanded that the Gentleman should be
               brought up, which Order being immediately obey’d, and the Servant withdrawn out of
               Respect: Putting his Head out of the Bed, he was surpriz’d with the Appearance of one
               of the most beautiful <hi rend="italic">Chevaliers</hi> he had ever beheld, and in
               whose Face, he imagin’d he trac’d some Features not Unknown to him. Pardon, me Sir,
               said he, throwing the Curtains more back than they were before, that I receive the
               Honour you do me, in this manner---but being ignorant of your Name, Quality, the
               Reason of your desire to see me, or any thing but your Impatience to do so, in
               gratifying that, I fear, I have injur’d the Respect, which I believe, is due, and
               which, I am sure, my Heart is inclinable to pay to you. Visits, like mine, reply’d
               the Stranger, require but little Ceremony, and I shall easily remit that Respect you
               talk of, while I am unknown to you, provided you will give me one Mark of it, that I
               shall ask of you, when you do. There are very few, reply’d<pb n="161"/>
               <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, that I cou’d refuse to one, whose Aspect Promises to
               deserve so many. First then, cry’d the other pretty warmly, I demand a Sister of you,
               and not only her, but a Reparation of her Honour, which can be done no otherwise than
               by your Blood. It is impossible to represent the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s
               astonishment at these Words, but conscious of his Innocence in any such Affair: I
               shou’d be sorry <hi rend="italic">Seignior</hi>, said he cooly, that Precipitation
               should hurry you to do any Action you wou’d afterwards Repent; you must certainly be
               mistaken in the Person to whom you are talking--Yet, if I were rash like you, what
               fatal Consequences might ensue; but there is something in your Countenance which
               engages me to wish a more friendly Interview than what you speak of: Therefore wou’d
               persuade you to consider calmly, and you will soon find, and acknowledge your
               Mistake; and, to further that Reflection, I assure you, that I am so far from
               Conversing with any Lady, in the Manner you seem to hint, that I scarcely know the
               Name, or Face of any one.---Nay, more, I give you my Word, to which I joyn my Honour,
               that, as I never <hi rend="italic">have</hi>, I never <hi rend="italic">will</hi>
               make the least Pretensions of that kind to any Woman during the Time of my Residence
               here. This poor Evasion, reply’d the Stranger with a Countenance all inflam’d, ill
               suits a Man of Honour.---This is no <hi rend="italic">Roman</hi>, no, <hi rend="italic">Italian Bono-Roba</hi>, who I mean----but <hi rend="italic">French</hi> like you----like both of us.----And if your Ingratitude had not made
               it necessary for your Peace, to erace all Memory of <hi rend="italic">Monsieur
                  Frankville</hi>, you wou’d before now, by the near resemblance I bear to him, have
               known me for his Son, and that ’tis <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s---the
               fond---the lost---the ruin’d <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s Cause which calls for
               Vengeance from her Brother’s Arm! Never was any Soul agitated with more violent
               Emotions, than that of Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> at these Words. Doubt,
               Grief, Resentment, and Amazement, made such a Confusion in his Thoughts, that he was
               unable for some Moments to answer this cruel Accusation; and when he did, the Brother of<pb n="162"/>
               <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> said he with a deep Sigh, wou’d certainly have been,
               next to her self, the most welcome Person upon Earth to me; and my Joy to have
               Embrac’d him as the dearest of my Friends, at least have equall’d the Surprize I am
               in, to find him without Cause, my Enemy.---But, Sir, if such a Favour may be granted
               to an unwilling Foe, I wou’d desire to know, Why you joyn <hi rend="italic">Ruin</hi>
               to your Sisters Name? Oh! Give me Patience Heaven, cry’d young <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> more enrag’d; is this a Question fit for you to ask, or me to
               Answer? Is not her Honour Tainted---Fame betray’d.---Her self a Vagabond, and her
               House abus’d, and all by you; the unfaithful Guardian of her injur’d Innocence?---And
               can you ask the Cause?----No, rather rise this Moment, and if you are a Man, who dare
               maintain the ill you have done, defend it with your Sword; not with vain Words and
               Womanish Excuses: All the other Passions which had warr’d within <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>’s Breast, now gave way to Indignation: Rash young Man, said he,
               jumping hastily out of the Bed, and beginning to put his Cloaths on: Your Father
               wou’d not thus have us’d me; nor, did he Live, cou’d blame me, for vindicating as I
               ought my wounded Honour----That I do Love your Sister, is as True, as that you have
               wrong’d me---Basely wrong’d me. But that her Virtue suffers by that Love, is false!
               And I must write the Man that speaks it, <hi rend="italic">Lyar</hi>, tho’ in her
               Brother’s Heart. Many other violent Expressions to the same Effect, pass’d between
               them, while the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was dressing himself, for he wou’d
               suffer no Servant to come in, to be Witness of his Disorder. But the steady
               Resolution with which he had attested his Innocence, and that inexpressible sweetness
               of Deportment, equally Charming to both Sexes, and which, not even <hi rend="italic">Anger</hi> cou’d render less graceful, extreamly cool’d the Heat <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> had been in a little before, and he in secret, began
               to recede very much from the ill Opinion he had conceiv’d, tho’ the greatness of his
               Spirit kept him from acknowledging he had been<pb n="163"/> in an Error; ’till chancing to
               cast his Eyes on a Table which stood in the Chamber, he saw the hilt of the broken
               Sword which <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> had brought home the Night before, lying
               on it; he took it up, and having first look’d on it with some Confusion in his
               Countenance. My Lord, said he, turning to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, I conjure
               you, before we proceed further, to acquaint me truely, how this came into your
               Possession, Tho’ <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> had as great a Courage, when any
               laudable Occasion appear’d to call it forth, as any Man that ever liv’d, yet his
               natural Disposition had such an uncommon Sweetness in it, as no Provocation cou’d
               sowre; it was always a much greater Pleasure to him to <hi rend="italic">Forgive</hi>
               than <hi rend="italic">Punish</hi> Injuries; and if at any time he was <hi rend="italic">Angry</hi>, he was never <hi rend="italic">Rude</hi>, or <hi rend="italic">Unjust</hi>. The little starts of Passion, <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>’s rash Behaviour had occasion’d, all dissolv’d in his more
               accustomary Softness, when he perceiv’d the other growing Calm. And answering to his
               Question, with the most obliging Accent in the World: It was my good Fortune, (said
               he) to be instrumental last Night, in the Rescue of a Gentleman who appear’d to have
               much Bravery, and being Attack’d by odds, behav’d himself in such a Manner, as wou’d
               have made him stand but little in need of my Assistance, if his Sword had been equal
               to the Arm which held it; but the breaking of that, gave me the Glory of not being
               unserviceable to him. After the Skirmish was over, I took it up, hoping it might be
               the means sometime or other of my discovering who the Person was, who wore it; not
               out of Vanity of receiving Thanks for the little I have done, but that I shou’d be
               glad of the Friendship of a Person, who seems so worthy my Esteem. Oh far! (cry’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, with a Tone and Gesture quite alter’d,) infinitely
               far from it--It was my self whom you preserv’d; that very Man whose Life you but last
               Night so generously redeem’d, with the hazard of your own, comes now prepar’d to make
               the first use of it against you---Is it possible that you can be so heavenly good to
               Pardon my wild Passions Heat? Let<pb n="164"/> this be witness, with what Joy I do, answer’d
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, tenderly Embracing him, which the other eagerly
               returning; they continu’d lock’d in each others Arms for a considerable Time, neither
               of them being able to say more, than---And was it <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> I
               Preserv’d!----And was it to <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> I owe my Life!</p>
            <p>After this mutual Demonstration of a perfect Reconcilement was over: See here, my
               Lord, said <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, giving a Paper to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, the occasion of my Rashness, and let my just concern for a Sisters
               Honour, be at least some little Mittigation of my Temerity, in accosting your
               Lordship in so rude a Manner. <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> made no Answer, but
               looking hastily over the Paper found it contain’d these Words.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener> To Monsieur Frankville.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">While your Sisters Dishonour was known but to few, and the
                           injurious Destroyer of it, out of the reach of your Revenge; I thought it
                           would ill become the Friendship I have always profess’d to your Family,
                           to disquiet you with the Knowledge of a Misfortune, which it was no way
                           in your Power to Redress.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">But Count D’elmont, having by the Solicitation of his
                           Friends, and the remembrance of some slight Services, obtain’d a Pardon
                           from the KING, for the Murder of his Wife; has since taken but little
                           care to conceal the Reasons which induc’d him to that barbarous Action;
                           and all Paris is now sensible that he made that unhappy Lady’s Life a
                           Sacrifice to the more attractive<pb n="165"/> Beauties of Melliora, in bloody
                           Recompence for the Sacrifice she had before made him of her
                        Virtue.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">In short, the Noble Family of the Frankvilles is for ever
                           dishonour’d by this Unfaithful Guardian; and all who wish you well,
                           rejoice to hear that his ill Genius has led him to a place which, if he
                           knew you were at, certainly Prudence wou’d make him of all others most
                           avoid; for none believes you will so far degenerate from the Spirit of
                           your Ancestors, as to permit him to go unpunish’d.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">In finding the Count, you may probably find your Sister
                           too; for tho’, after the Death of Alovisa, shame made her retire to a
                           Monastry, she has since privately left it without acquainting the Abbess,
                           or any of the Sisterhood, with her Departure; nor is it known to any one,
                           where, or for what Cause she absconds; but most People imagine, as indeed
                           it is highly reasonable, that the Violence of her guilty Passion for
                           D’elmont has engag’d her to follow him.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">I am not unsensible how much I shock your Temper by this
                           Relation, but have too much real concern for your Honour, to endure you
                           shou’d, thro’ Ignorance of your Wrongs, remain Passive in such a Cause,
                           and perhaps hug the Treacherous Friend in your most strict Embrace? Nor
                           can I forbear, tho’ I love not Blood, urging you to take that just
                           Revenge, which next to Heaven you have the greatest Claim to.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>I am, Sir, with all due Respect,<lb/> Yours, <signed>
                                            <hi rend="italic">Sanseverin</hi>.</signed>
                                    </closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> swell’d with Indignation at every Paragraph of this
               malicious Letter; but when he came to that, which mention’d <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s having withdrawn her self from the Monastry, he seem’d to be
               wholly abandon’d by his Reason; all Endeavours to represent his<pb n="166"/> Agonies wou’d be
               vain, and none but those who have felt the same, can have any Notion of what he
               suffer’d. He read the fatal Scroll again and again, and every time grew wilder than
               before; he stamp’d, bit his Lips, look’d furiously about him, then, starting from the
               place where he had stood, measur’d the Room in strange, disorder’d, and unequal
               Paces; all his Motions, all his Looks, all his Air were nothing but Distraction: He
               spoke not for some time, one Word, either prevented by the rising Passions in his
               Soul, or because it was not in the Power of Language to express the greatness of his
               Meaning; and when, at last, he open’d his Mouth, it was but to utter half Sentences,
               and broken Complainings: Is it possible, he cry’d,----gone,---left the Monastry
               unknown---and then again----false----false Woman?----Wretched----wretched Man!
               There’s no such Thing on Earth as Faith---is this the Effect of all her tender
               Passion?--So soon forgot---what can be her Reason?---This Action suits not with her
               Words, or Letters. In this manner he rav’d with a Thousand such like Breathings of a
               tormented Spirit, toss’d and confounded between various Sentiments.</p>
            <p>Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> stood for a good while silently observing
               him; and if before, he were not perfectly assur’d of his Innocence, the Agonies he
               now saw him in, which were too natural to be suspected for Counterfeit, entirely
               convinc’d him he was so. When the first gust of Passion was blown over, and he
               perceiv’d any likelyhood of being heard, he said a Thousand tender and obliging
               Things to perswade him to Moderation, but to very little Effect, till finding, that
               that which gave him the most stinging Reflection was, the Belief that <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> had forsook the Monastry, either because she thought
               of him no more, and was willing to divert her enfranchis’d Inclination with the
               Gaieties of the Town, or that some happier Man had supplanted him in her Esteem.
               Judge not, my Lord,<pb n="167"/> (said he) so rashly of my Sister’s Fidelity, nor know so
               little of your own unmatch’d Perfections, as to suspect that she, who is Blest with
               your Affection, can consider any other Object as worthy her Regard; For my part,
               since your Lordship <hi rend="italic">knows</hi>, and I firmly <hi rend="italic">believe</hi>, that this Letter contains a great many Untruths, I see no Reason
               why we should not imagine it all of a piece: I declare I think it much more
               improbable that she should leave the Monastry, unless sollicited thereto by you, than
               that she had the Power to deny you any thing your Passion might request. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Disorder visibly abated at this Remonstrance; and
               stepping hastily to his Cabinet, he took out the last Letter he receiv’d from <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, and found it was dated but two Days before that from
               Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Sanseverin</hi>; he knew she had not Art, nor was
               accustom’d to endeavour to disguise her Sentiments; and she had written so many
               tender things in that, as when he gave himself leave to consider, he could not,
               without believing her to be either the most Dissembling, or most fickle of her Sex,
               continue in the Opinion which had made him, a few Moments before, so uneasy, that she
               was no longer, what she always subscrib’d her self, <hi rend="italic">Entirely
                  His</hi>.</p>
            <p>The Tempest of Rage and Grief being hush’d to a little more Tranquillity, Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, to remove all Scruples which might be <hi rend="italic">yet</hi> remaining in the Breast of Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, entertain’d him with the whole History of his Adventures, from
               the Time of his Gallantry with <hi rend="italic">Amena</hi>, to the Misfortunes which
               had induc’d him to Travel, disguising nothing of the Truth, but some part of the
               Discourses which had pass’d between him and <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> that
               Night when he surpriz’d her in her Bed, and in the Wilderness: For tho’ he freely
               confess’d the Violence of his own unbounded Passion, had hurry’d him beyond all
               Considerations but those of gratifying it; yet he was too tender of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s Honour, to relate anything of her,<pb n="168"/> which her Modesty might
               not acknowledge, without the Expence of a Blush.</p>
            <p>
                            <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> list’ned with abundance of Attention to the
               Relation he made him, and could find very little in his Conduct to accuse: He was
               himself too much susceptible of the Power of Love, not to have Compassion for those
               that suffer’d by it, and had too great a share of good Sense not to know that, that
               Passion is not to be Circumscrib’d; and being not only, not <hi rend="italic">Subservient</hi>, but absolutely <hi rend="italic">Controller</hi> of the <hi rend="italic">Will</hi>, it would be meer Madness, as well as ill Nature, to say a
               Person was Blame-worthy for what was unavoidable.</p>
            <p>When Love once becomes in our Power, it ceases to be worthy of that Name; no Man
               really possest with it, <hi rend="italic">can</hi> be Master of his Actions; and
               whatever Effects it may Enforce, are no more to be Condemn’d, than Poverty, Sickness,
               Deformity, or any other Misfortune incident to Humane Nature. Methinks there is
               nothing more absur’d than the Notions of some People, who in other Things are wise
               enough too; but wanting Elegance of Thought, Delicacy, or Tenderness of Soul, to
               receive the Impression of that harmonious Passion, look on those to be mad, who have
               any Sentiments elevated above their own, and either Censure, or Laugh, at what they
               are not refin’d enough to comprehend. These <hi rend="italic">Insipids</hi>, who know
               nothing of the Matter, tell us very gravely, that we <hi rend="italic">ought</hi> to
               Love with Moderation and Discretion,---and take Care that it is for our
               Interest,--that we should never place our Affections, but where Duty leads, or at
               least, where neither Religion, Reputation, or Law, may be a Hindrance to our
               Wishes.---Wretches! We know all this, as well as they; we know too, that we both do,
               and leave undone many other Things, which we ought not; but Perfection is not to be
               expected on this side the Grave: And since ’tis impossible for Humanity to avoid
               Frailties<pb n="169"/> of some kind or other, those are certainly least blamable, which
               spring only from a too great Affluence of the nobler Spirits. <hi rend="italic">Covetousness</hi>, <hi rend="italic">Envy</hi>, <hi rend="italic">Pride</hi>, <hi rend="italic">Revenge</hi>, are the Effects of an Earthly, Base, and Sordid
               Nature, <hi rend="italic">Ambition</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>, of an
               Exalted one; and if they are Failings, they are such as plead their own Excuse, and
               can never want Forgiveness from a generous Heart, provided no indirect Courses are
               taken to procure the Ends of the <hi rend="italic">former</hi>, nor Inconstancy, or
               Ingratitude, stain the Beauty of the <hi rend="italic">latter</hi>.</p>
            <p>Notwithstanding all that Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> could say, the
                  <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, tho’ not in the Rage of Temper he had been in, was
               yet very melancholly; which the other perceiving, Alas, my Lord, said he Sighing, if
               you were sensible of the Misfortunes of others, you would think your own more easy to
               be born: You Love, and are Belov’d; no Obstacle remains between you and your Desires;
               but the Formality of Custom, which a little time will Remove, and at your return to
                  <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> you will doubtless be happy, if ’tis in my Sister’s
               Power to make you so: You have a sure Prospect of Felicity to <hi rend="italic">come</hi>, but mine is <hi rend="italic">past</hi>, never, I fear, to be
               retriev’d. What mean you? Cry’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> pretty much
               surpriz’d at his Words, and the Change which he observ’d in his Countenance; I am in
               Love! Reply’d He, Belov’d! Nay, have Enjoy’d----Ay, there’s the Source of my
               Despair----I know the Heaven I have lost, and that’s my Hell.----The Interest <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> had in his Concerns, as being Son to the Man whom he
               had loved with a kind of filial Affection, and Brother to the Woman whom he ador’d
               above the World, made him extreamly desirous to know what the Occasion of his
               Disquiet was, and having exprest himself to that purpose; I shall make no Difficulty,
               reply’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, to reveal the Secret of my Love, to him
               who is a Lover, and knows so well, how to pity, and forgive, the Errors which that
               Passion will sometimes lead us into. The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was too
               impatient to hear the Relation he was about to give him,<pb n="170"/> to make any other
               Answer to these Words than with a half Smile; which the other perceiving, without any
               farther Prelude, began to satisfy his Curiosity in this manner.</p>
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                                        <hi rend="italic">The History of
                        Monsieur</hi>Frankville.</head>
                     <p>You know, my Lord, said he, that I was bred at <hi rend="italic">Rheims</hi>
                        with my Uncle, the Bishop of that Place, and continu’d with him, till after,
                        prompted by Glory, and hope of that Renown you have since so gallantly
                        acquir’d; you left the Pleasures of the <hi rend="italic">Court</hi> for the
                        Fatigues and Dangers of the Field: When I came home, I never ceas’d
                        solliciting my Father to permit me to Travel, ’till weary’d with my
                        continual Importunies, and perhaps, not much displeas’d with my Thirst of
                        Improvement, he at last gave leave. I left <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> a
                        little before the Conclusion of the Peace, and by that means remain’d wholly
                        a Stranger to your Lordship’s Person, tho’ perfectly acquainted with those
                        admirable Accomplishments which Fame is every where so full of.</p>
                     <p>I have been in the Courts of <hi rend="italic">England</hi>, <hi rend="italic">Spain</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">Portugal</hi>, but
                        nothing very material hapning to me in any of those Places, it would be
                        rather Impertinent, than Diverting, to defer, for Trifles, the main Business
                        of my Life, that of my Love, which had not a Being ’till I came into this
                        City.</p>
                     <p>I had been here but a little Time before I had a great many Acquaintance,
                        among the Number of them, was Seignior <hi rend="italic">Jaques Honorius
                           Cittolini</hi>: He, of all the rest, I was most intimate with; and tho’
                        to the Generality of People he behav’d himself with an Air of Imperiousness,
                        he was to me, all free, and easy; he seem’d as if he took a Pleasure in
                        Obliging me; carry’d me every where with him; introduc’d me to the best
                        Company: When I was absent he spoke of me, as of<pb n="171"/> a Person who he had
                        the highest Esteem for; and when I was present, if there were any in Company
                        whose rank oblig’d him to place them above me in the <hi rend="italic">Room</hi>; he took care to testify that I was not below them in his <hi rend="italic">Respect</hi>; in fine, he was never more happy than when he
                        was giving me some Proof how much he was my Friend; and I was not a little
                        satisfy’d that a Man of almost twice my Years should believe me qualify’d
                        for his Companion in such a manner as he made me.</p>
                     <p>When the melancholly Account of my Fathers Death came to my Ears, he omitted
                        nothing to persuade me to sell my Estate in <hi rend="italic">France</hi>,
                        and settle in <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>; he told me he had a Daughter,
                        whose Heart had been the aim of the chiefest Nobility; but that he wou’d buy
                        my Company at that Price and to keep me here, wou’d give me her. This
                        Proposition was not altogether so pleasing to me, as perhaps, he imagin’d it
                        wou’d be: I had heard much Talk or this Lady’s Beauty, but I had never seen
                        her; and at that Time, Love was little in my Thoughts, especially that sort
                        which was to end in Marriage. However, I wou’d not absolutely refuse his
                        Offer, but evaded it, which I had the better pretence for, because <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, (so was his Daughter call’d) was gone to <hi rend="italic">Vitterbo</hi> to Visit a sick Relation, and I cou’d not
                        have the opportunity of seeing her. In the mean time, he made me acquainted
                        with his deepest Secrets; among many other Things he told me, that tho’
                        their Family was one of the greatest in <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, yet by
                        the too great Liberality of his Father, himself and one Sister was left with
                        very little to Support the Grandeur of their Birth; but that his Sister who
                        was acknowledg’d a Woman of an uncommon Beauty, had the good Fortune to
                        appear so, to Seignior <hi rend="italic">Marcarius Fialasco</hi>: he was the
                        possessor of immense Riches, but very Old; but the young Lady found Charms
                        enough in his Wealth to ballance all other Deficiencies; She Married, and
                        Buried him in a Month’s Time, and he dy’d so full of fondness to his lovely
                        Bride; that he left her Mistress of all he had in the<pb n="172"/> World; giving
                        only to a Daughter he had by a former Wife, the Fortune which her Mother had
                        brought him, and that too, and herself to be dispos’d of, in Marriage, as
                        this Triumphant Widow should think fit; and she, like a kind Sister, thought
                        none worthy of that Alliance, but her Brother; and in a few Days he said, he
                        did not doubt but that I shou’d see him a Bridegroom. I ask’d him if he was
                        happy enough to have made an Interest in the young Lady’s Heart; and he very
                        frankly answer’d, That he was not of a Humour to give himself much
                        uneasiness about it, since it was wholly in his Sister’s Power to make him
                        Master of her Person, and she resolv’d to do that, or Confine her in a
                        Monastry for ever. I cou’d not help feeling a Compassionate concern for this
                        Lady, tho’ she was a Stranger to me, for I cou’d not believe, so Beautiful
                        and accomplish’d a Woman, as he had often describ’d her to be, cou’d find
                        any thing in her design’d Husband which cou’d make this Match agreeable.
                        Nothing can be more different from Graceful, than the Person of <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>; he is of a black swarthy Complexion,
                        hook’d-Nos’d, wall Ey’d, short of Stature; and tho’ he is very Lean, the
                        worst shap’d Man I ever saw; then for his Temper, as friendly as he behav’d
                        to me, I discern’d a great deal of Treachery, and Baseness in it to others;
                        a perpetual peevishness and Pride appear’d in his Deportment to all those
                        who had any dependance on him: And I had been told by some who knew him
                        perfectly well, that his cruel Usage of his first Lady had been the means of
                        her Death; but this was none of my Business, and tho’ I pity’d the Lady, yet
                        my gratitude to him engag’d me to wish him Success in all his Undertakings.
                        ’Till one Day, unluckily both for him and me, as it has since prov’d; he
                        desir’d me to Accompany him to the House of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>,
                        for so is his Sister call’d, being, willing I suppose, that I shou’d be a
                        Witness of the extraordinary State she liv’d in; and indeed, in all the
                        Courts I had been at, I never saw any thing more Magnificent than her
                        Apartments; the vast quantity of Plate; the Richness<pb n="173"/> of the Furniture;
                        and the number of Servants attending on Her, might have made her be taken
                        rather for a Princess, than a private Woman. There was a very noble
                        Collation, and she sat at Table with us her self, a particular Favour from
                        an <hi rend="italic">Italian</hi> Lady: She is by many Years younger than
                        her Brother, and extreamly Handsome; but has, I know not what, of fierceness
                        in her Eyes, which renders her, at least to me, a Beauty, without a Charm.
                        After the Entertainment, <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> took me into the
                        Gardens, which were answerable to what I had seen within, full of
                        Curiosities; at one end there was a little Building of Marble, to which he
                        led me, and entering into it, see here, <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>,
                        said he, the Place where my Sister spends the greatest part of her Hours,
                        and tell me if ’tis in this kind of Diversion that the <hi rend="italic">French</hi> Ladies take Delight. I presently saw it was full of Books,
                        and guess’d those Words were design’d as a Satyr on our Ladies, whose
                        disposition to Gallantry seldom affords much time for Reading; but to make
                        as good a Defence for their Honour as I was able. <hi rend="italic">Seignior</hi>, reply’d I, it must be confest, that there are very few
                        Ladies of any Nation, who think the <hi rend="italic">Acquisition</hi> of
                        Knowledge, worth the Pains it must cost them in the <hi rend="italic">Search</hi>, but that ours is not without some Examples, that all are
                        not of that Mind; our famous <hi rend="italic">D’anois</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">D’acier</hi> may evince. Well, Well, interrupted he
                        laughing; the propensity which that Sex bears to Learning is so trifling,
                        that I shall not pretend to hold any Argument on its Praise; nor did I bring
                        you here so much to engage you to Admire my Sisters manner of Amusement, as
                        to give you an Opportunity of diverting your self, while I go to pay a
                        Compliment to my Mistress; who, tho’ I have a very great Confidence in you,
                        I dare not trust with the sight of so accomplish’d a <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>. With these Words he left me, and I, designing to do as
                        he had desir’d; turn’d to the Shelves to take down what Book I cou’d find
                        most suitable to my Humour; but good God! As I was tumbling them over, I saw
                        thro’ a Window which look’d into<pb n="174"/> a Garden behind the Study; tho’ both
                        belonging to one Person: A Woman, or rather Angel, coming down a Walk
                        directly opposite to where I was, never did I see in one Person such various
                        Perfections blended, never did any Woman wear so much of her Soul in her
                        Eyes, as did this Charmer: I saw that moment in her Looks, all I have since
                        experienc’d of her Genius, and her Humour; Wit, Judgment, good Nature and
                        Generosity are in her Countenance, conspicuous as in her Actions; but to go
                        about to make a Description, were to wrong her; She has Graces so peculiar,
                        that none without knowing her, can be able to conceive; and tho’ nothing can
                        be finer than her Shape, or more regular than her Features; yet those, our
                        Fancy or a <hi rend="italic">Painters</hi> Art may Copy: There is something
                        so inexpressibly striking in her Air; such a delightful Mixture of awful and
                        attractive in every little Motion, that no Imagination can come up to. But
                        if Language is too poor to paint her Charms, how shall I make you sensible
                        of the Effects of them on me! The Surprize---the Love---the Adoration which
                        this fatal View involv’d me in, but by that which, you say, your self felt
                        at the first Sight of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>. I was, methought all
                        Spirit,---I beheld her with Raptures, such as we imagine Souls enjoy when
                        freed from Earth, they meet each other in the Realms of Glory; ’twas Heaven
                        to gaze upon her: But Oh! The Bliss was short, the Envious Trees obscur’d
                        her Lustre from me.---The Moment I lost Sight of her, I found my <hi rend="italic">Passion</hi> by my <hi rend="italic">Pain</hi>, the <hi rend="italic">Joy</hi> was vanish’d, but the <hi rend="italic">Sting</hi>
                        remain’d---I was so bury’d in Thought, that I never so much as stirr’d a
                        Step to endeavour to discover which way she went; tho’ if I had consider’d
                        the Situation of the Place, it would have been easy for me to have known,
                        there was a Communication between the two Gardens, and if I had gone but a
                        few Paces out of the Study, must have met her; but Love had for the present
                        depriv’d me of my Sences; and it but just enter’d into my Head that there
                        was a Possibility of renewing my Happiness, when I perceiv’d <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>
                                        <pb n="175"/> returning. When he came pretty near;
                        Dear <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, said he, pardon my Neglect of you;
                        but I have been at <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s Apartment, and am told
                        she is in the lower Garden; I will but speak to her, snatch a Kiss and be
                        with you again: He went hastily by me without staying for any Answer, and it
                        was well he did so, for the Confusion I was in, had made me little able to
                        reply. His Words left me no room to hope it was any other than <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> I had seen, and the Treachery I was guilty of
                        to my Friend, in but wishing to invade his Right, gave me a Remorse which I
                        had never known before: But these Reflections lasted not long; Love
                        generally exerts himself on these Occasions, and is never at a loss for
                        means to remove all the Scruples that may be rais’d to oppose him. Why, said
                        I to my self, should I be thus Tormented? She is not yet married, and ’tis
                        almost impossible she can with Satisfaction, ever yield to be so, to him.
                        Could I but have opportunity to Talk to her, to let her know my
                        Passion,---to endeavour to deliver her from the Captivity she is in, perhaps
                        she would not condemn my Temerity: I found a great deal of Pleasure in this
                        Thought, but I was not suffer’d to enjoy it long; <hi rend="italic">Honour</hi> suggested to me, that <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> lov’d
                        me, had Oblig’d me, and that to supplant him would be Base and Treacherous:
                        But would it not be more so, cry’d the Dictates of my <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>, to permit the Divine <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> to fall a
                        Sacrifice to one so every way undeserving of her; one who ’tis likely she
                        abhors; one who despises her Heart, so he may but possess her Fortune to
                        support his Pride, and her Person to gratify a Passion far unworthy of the
                        Name of <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>; One! who ’tis probable, when Master of
                        the one, and satiated with the other, may treat her with the utmost
                        Inhumanity. Thus, for a time, were my Thoughts at Strife; but Love at length
                        got the Victory, and I had so well compos’d my self before <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>’s Return that he saw nothing of the Disorder I had been
                        in; but it was not so with him, his Countenance, at the best displeasing
                        enough, was now the perfect<pb n="176"/> Representative of Ill Nature, Malice, and
                        Discontent. <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> had assur’d him, that nothing
                        could be more her Aversion, and that she was resolv’d, tho’ a Monastick Life
                        was what she had no Inclination to, yet she would fly to that Shelter, to
                        avoid his Bed. You may imagine, my Lord, I was Transported with an Excess of
                        Joy, when he told me this; but Love taught me to dissemble it, ’till I had
                        taken leave of him, which I made an Excuse to do, as soon as possible.</p>
                     <p>Now all that troubled me was to find an Opportunity to declare my Passion;
                        and, I confess, I was so dull in Contrivance, that tho’ it took up all my
                        Thoughts, none of them were to any purpose: Three or four Days I spent in
                        fruitless Projections, the last of which I met with a new Embarrassment; <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>’s Daughter was return’d, he renew’d his
                        Desires of making me his Son, and invited me the next Evening to his House,
                        where I was to be entertain’d with the sight of her; I could not well avoid
                        giving him my Promise to be there, but resolv’d in my Mind to behave my self
                        in such a manner as should make her disapprove of me. While I was thus
                        busied in Contriving how to avoid <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, and
                        engage <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, a Woman wrapt up very closely in her
                        Vail came to my Lodgings, and brought me a Note, in which I found these
                        Words.</p>
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                                                    <hi rend="italic">To Monsieur</hi>Frankville.</opener>
                              <p>
                                                    <hi rend="italic">My Father is resolv’d to make me Yours; and if he
                                    has your Consent, mine will not be demanded; he has Commanded me
                                    to receive you to morrow, but I have a particular Reason to
                                    desire to see you sooner; I am to pass this Night with Camilla
                                    at my Aunt Ciamara’s;<pb n="177"/> there is a little Wicket that opens
                                    from the Garden, directly opposite to the Convent of St.
                                    Francis, if you will favour me so far as to come there at Ten a
                                    Clock to Night, and give Seven gentle Knocks at the Gate: You
                                    shall know the Cause of my Entreating this private Interview,
                                    which is of more Moment than the Life of</hi>
                                                </p>
                              <closer>
                                                    <signed>Violetta</signed>.</closer>
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                     <p>Never had I been more pleasingly surpriz’d, than at the Reading these Lines;
                        I could not imagine the Lady could have any other Reason for seeing me in
                        private, than to confess that her Heart was pre-engag’d, and disswade me
                        from taking the Advantage of her Father’s Authority, a secret Hope too,
                        sprung within my Soul, that my Adorable <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> might
                        be with her; and after I had dismiss’d the Woman, with an Assurance that I
                        would attend her Lady, I spent my Time in vast Idea’s of approaching
                        Happiness ’till the appointed Hour arriv’d.</p>
                     <p>But how great was my Disappointment, when being admitted, I cou’d
                        distinguish, tho’ the Place was very dark, that I was receiv’d but by one,
                        and accosted by her, in a manner very different from what I expected: I know
                        not, <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>, said she, how you interpret this
                        Freedom I have taken; but whatever we pretend, our Sex, of all Indignities,
                        can the least support those done to our Beauty; I am not vain enough of mine
                        to assure my self of making a Conquest of your Heart; and if the World
                        should know you have <hi rend="italic">seen</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">refus’d</hi> me, my slighted Charms would be the Theme of <hi rend="italic">Mirth</hi> to those whose <hi rend="italic">Envy</hi> now
                        they are: I therefore beg, that if I am dislik’d, none but my self may know
                        it; when you have seen my Face, which you shall do immediately, give me your
                        Opinion freely; and if it is not to my Advantage, make some pretence to my
                        Father to avoid coming to our House. I protest to you, my Lord that I was so
                        much surpriz’d<pb n="178"/> at this odd kind of proceeding, that I knew not
                        presently how to Reply, which she imagining by my Silence: Come, come, <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>, said she, I am not yet on even Terms with
                        you, having often seen <hi rend="italic">your</hi> Face, and you wholly a
                        Stranger to <hi rend="italic">mine</hi>: But when our Knowledge of each
                        other is Mutual, I hope you will be as free in your Declaration as I have
                        been in my Request. These Words I thought were as proper for my purpose as I
                        cou’d wish, and drawing back a little, as she was about to lead me: Madam,
                        said I, since you have that Advantage, methinks it were but just, you shou’d
                        reveal what sort of Sentiments the sight of me has inspir’d, for I have too
                        much Reason from the Knowledge of my Demerit, to fear, you have no other
                        design in exposing your Charms, than to Triumph in the Captivating a Heart
                        you have already doom’d to Misery; I will tell you nothing, answer’d she, of
                           <hi rend="italic">my</hi> Sentiments ’till I have a perfect knowledge of
                           <hi rend="italic">yours</hi>. As she spoke this, she gave me her Hand to
                        conduct me out of that Place of Darkness; as we went, I had all the Concern
                        at the apprehension of being too much approv’d of by this young Lady, as I
                        shou’d have had for the contrary, if I had imagin’d who it was I had been
                        talking with, for as soon as we came out of the Grotto, I saw by the light
                        of the Moon, which shone that Night, with an uncommon Lustre, the Face which
                        in those Gardens had before so Charm’d me, and which had never since been
                        absent from my Thoughts. What Joy, what a mixture of Extacy and Wonder, then
                        fill’d my raptur’d Soul at this second view, I cou’d not presently trust my
                        Eyes, or think my Happiness was real: I gaz’d, and gaz’d again, in silent
                        Transport, for the big Bliss, surpass’d the reach of Words. What <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>, said she, observing my Confusion, are you
                        yet Dumb, is there any thing so dreadful in the form of <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, to deprive you of your Speech? No Madam, reply’d I, ’tis
                        not <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> has that Power, but she, who unknowing
                        that she did so, caught at first sight the Victory o’re my Soul; she! for
                        whom I have vented so<pb n="179"/> Sighs! she for whom I languish’d and almost dy’d
                        for; while <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> was at <hi rend="italic">Vitterbo</hi>: She! The Divine <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> only cou’d
                        inspire a Passion such as mine!--Oh Heavens! cry’d she, and that instant I
                        perceiv’d her lovely Face all crimson’d o’re with Blushes; is it then
                        possible that you know me, have seen me before, and that I have been able to
                        make any Impression on you? I then told her of the Visit I had made to <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> with <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, and how
                        by his leaving me in the Marble-Study, I had been blest with the sight of
                        her; and from his Friend became his Rival: I let her know the Conflicts my
                        Honour and my Obligations to <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> had engag’d me
                        in; the thousand various Inventions Love had suggested to me, to obtain that
                        Happiness I now enjoy’d, the opportunity of declaring my self her Slave; and
                        in short, conceal’d not the least Thought, tending to my Passion, from Her.
                        She, in requital, acquainted me, that she had often seen me from her Window,
                        go into the Convent of St. <hi rend="italic">Francis</hi>, walking in the
                           <hi rend="italic">Collonade</hi> at St. <hi rend="italic">Peter</hi>’s,
                        and in several other Places, and, prompted by an extravagance of good
                        Nature, and Generosity, confess’d, that her Heart felt something at those
                        Views, very prejudicial to her Repose: That <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, always disagreeable, was now grown Odious; that the
                        Discourse she had heard of my intended Marriage with his Daughter, had given
                        her an alarm impossible to be express’d, and that, unable longer to support
                        the Pangs of undiscover’d Passion, she had writ to me in that Ladies Name,
                        who she knew I had never seen, resolving, if I lik’d her as <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, to own her self <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, if not, to go the next Day to a Monastry, and devote to
                        Heaven those Charms which wanted force to make a Conquest where alone she
                        wish’d they shou’d.</p>
                     <p>I must leave it to your Lordship’s imagination to conceive the wild
                        tumultuous hurry of disorder’d Joy which fill’d my ravish’d Soul at this
                        Condescention; for I am now as unable to describe it, as I was then to thank
                        the Dear, the tender Author of it; but what<pb n="180"/>
                        <hi rend="italic">Words</hi> had not Power to do, <hi rend="italic">Looks</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Actions</hi> testified: I threw myself
                        at her Feet, Embrac’d her Knees, and kiss’d the Hand she rais’d me with,
                        with such a Fervor, as no false Love cou’d feign; while she, all softness,
                        all divinely Kind, yielded to the pressure of my glowing Lips, and suffer’d
                        me to take all the freedom which Honour and Modesty wou’d permit. This
                        interview was too felicitous to be easily broken off, it was almost broad
                        Day when we parted, and nothing but her Promise, that I shou’d be admitted
                        the next Night, cou’d have enabled me to take leave of her.</p>
                     <p>I went away highly satisfy’d, as I had good Reason, with my Condition, and
                        after recollecting all the tender Passages of our Conversation; I began to
                        consider after what manner I shou’d proceed with <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>: To Visit and Address his Daughter, I thought, wou’d be
                        Treacherous and Deceitful to the last degree; and how to come off, after the
                        Promise I made of seeing her that Evening. I cou’d not tell; at last, since
                        Necessity oblig’d me to one I resolv’d of, the two Evils to chuse the least,
                        and rather to seem <hi rend="italic">Rude</hi>, then <hi rend="italic">Base</hi>, which I must have been, had I by counterfeiting a Desire to
                        engage <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, left room for a possibility of
                        creating one in her. I therefore, writ, to <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>
                        an Excuse for not waiting on Him and his Daughter, as I had promis’d,
                        telling him that I, on more serious Reflection found it wholly inconsistent,
                        either with my Circumstances, or Inclinations, to think of passing all my
                        Life in <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>; that I thank’d him for the Honour he
                        intended me, but that it was my Misfortune, not to be capable of accepting
                        it. Thus, with all the Artifice I was Master of, I endeavour’d to sweeten
                        the bitter Pill of Refusal, but in vain; for he was so much Disgusted at it,
                        that he visited me no more: I cannot say, I had Gratitude enough to be much
                        concern’d at being compell’d to use him in this Fashion; for, since I had
                        beheld, and Ador’d <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, I cou’d consider him no
                        longer as a Friend, but as the most dangerous Enemy to my Hopes and<pb n="181"/> me.
                        All this time I spent the best part of the Nights with <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>; and in one of them, after giving, and receiving a thousand
                        Vows of everlasting Faith, I snatch’d a lucking Moment, and obtain’d from
                        the Dear, melting Charmer, all that my Fondest, and most eager Wishes cou’d
                        aspire to. Yes, my Lord, the soft, the trembling Fair, dissolv’d in Love;
                        yielded without Reserve, and met my Transports with an equal Ardor; and I
                        truly protest to your Lordship, that what in others, <hi rend="italic">palls</hi> Desire, added fresh <hi rend="italic">Force</hi> to mine; the
                        more I knew, the more I was Inflam’d, and in the highest Raptures of
                        Enjoyment, the Bliss was dash’d with Fears, which prov’d alas, but too
                        Prophetick, that some curst Chance might drive me from my Heaven: Therefore,
                        to secure it mine for ever, I press’d the lovely Partner of my Joys, to give
                        me leave to bring a Priest with me the next Night; who by giving a Sanction
                        to our Love, might put it past the Power of Malice to Disunite us: Here, I
                        experienc’d the greatness of her Soul, and her almost unexampled Generosity;
                        for in spite of all her Love, her Tenderness, and the unbounded
                        Condescentions she had made me, it was with all the difficulty in the World,
                        that I persuaded her to think of Marrying me without a Fortune; which by her
                        Father’s <hi rend="italic">Will</hi>, was wholly in the Disposal of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, who it wou’d have been Madness to Hope, wou’d
                        ever bestow it upon me. However, my Arguments at last prevail’d; I was to
                        bring a Fryar of the Order of St. <hi rend="italic">Francis</hi>, who was my
                        intimate Friend, the next Night to join our Hands; which done, she told me,
                        she wou’d advise to leave <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi> with what speed we
                        cou’d, for she doubted not but <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> wou’d make
                        use of any means, tho’ never so base or Bloody, to Revenge his
                        Disappointment. This Proposal infinitely pleas’d me, and after I had taken
                        leave of her, I spent the remainder of the Night, in contriving the means of
                        our Escape: Early in the Morning I secur’d Post-Horses, and then went to the
                        Convent of St. <hi rend="italic">Francis</hi>; a Purse of<pb n="182"/>
                        <hi rend="italic">Lewis D’ors</hi> soon engag’d the Fryar to my Interest,
                        and I had every thing ready in wonderful Order, considering the shortness of
                        the Time, for our Design: When returning Home towards Evening, as well to
                        take a little rest after the Fatigue I had had, as to give some other
                        necessary Directions, concerning the Affair to my Servants, when one of them
                        gave me a Letter, which had been just left for me.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">Monsieur Frankville</hi> cou’d not come to this Part of
                        his Story, without some Sighs, but suppressing them as well as he was able,
                        he took some Papers out of his Pocket, and singling out one, read to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> as follows.</p>
                     <floatingText>
                        <body>
                           <div type="letter">
                              <opener>To Monsieur Frankville.</opener>
                              <p>
                                                    <hi rend="italic">With what Words can I represent the greatness of
                                    my Misfortune, or Exclaim against the Perfidy of my Woman? I was
                                    oblig’d to make her the Confidant of my Passion, because without
                                    her Assistance, I cou’d not have enjoy’d the Happiness of your
                                    Conversation, and ’tis by her that I am now
                                    Betray’d----undone,---lost to all hopes of ever seeing you
                                    more---What have I not endur’d this Day, from the upbraidings of
                                    Ciamara and Cittolini, but that I shou’d despise, nay, my own
                                    Ruin too, if you were safe----But Oh! their Malice aims to wound
                                    me most, through you----Bravo’s are hir’d, the Price of your
                                    Blood is paid, and they have sworn to take your Life---Guard it
                                    I conjure you, if you wou’d preserve that of Camilla’s. Attempt
                                    not to come near this House, nor walk alone, when Night may be
                                    an Umbrage to their Designs.---I hear my cruel Enemies returning
                                    to renew their Persecutions, and I have Time to inform you no
                                    more, than that ’tis<pb n="183"/> to the Generous Violetta you are
                                    indebted for this Caution: She, in pity of my Agonies, and to
                                    prevent her Father from executing the Crime he intends; conveys
                                    this to you, slight it not, if you wou’d have me believe you
                                    Love,</hi>
                                                </p>
                              <closer>
                                                    <signed>Camilla</signed>.</closer>
                           </div>
                        </body>
                     </floatingText>
                     <p>What a turn was here (continu’d he, sadly) in my Fortune? How on a sudden
                        was my Scene of Happiness chang’d to the blackest Despair?---But not to tire
                        your Lordship, and spin out my Narration, which is already too long with
                        unavailing Complainings. I every Day expected a Challenge from <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, believing he wou’d, at least, take that
                        Method at first, but it seems he was for chusing the <hi rend="italic">surest</hi>, not the <hi rend="italic">fairest</hi> way: And I have
                        since prov’d, that my Dear <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> had too much
                        Reason for the Caution she gave me. Ten Days I lingred out without being
                        able to invent any means, either to see her, or write to Her; at the end of
                        which, I receiv’d another Letter from Her, which, if I were to tell you the
                        Substance of, wou’d be to wrong her; since no Words but her own are fit to
                        Express her Meaning, and ’tis for that Reason only, I shall Read it.</p>
                     <floatingText>
                        <body>
                           <div type="letter">
                              <opener>
                                                    <hi rend="italic">To Monsieur</hi>Frankville.</opener>
                              <p>
                                                    <hi rend="italic">Of all the Woes which wait on humane Life, sure
                                    there is none Equal to that a Lover feels in Absence; ’tis a
                                    kind of Hell, an earnest of those Pains, we are told, shall be
                                    the Portion of the Damn’d----Ten whole Nights, and Days,
                                    according to the vulgar Reckoning, but in mine, as many Ages,
                                    have roll’d their tedious Hours away since last I saw you, in
                                    all which time, my Eyes have never known one Moments
                                    cessation<pb n="184"/> from my Tears, nor my sad Heart from Anguish;
                                    restless I wander thro’ this hated House---Kiss the clos’d
                                    Wicket---stop, and look at every Place which I remember your
                                    dear steps have blest, then, with wild Ravings, think of past
                                    Joys, and curse my present Woes---yet you perhaps are Calm, no
                                    sympathizing Pang invades your Soul, and tells you what mine
                                    suffers, else, you wou’d, you must have found some Means to ease
                                    your self and me--’tis true, I bid you not attempt it--but Oh!
                                    If you had lov’d like me, you cou’d not have obey’d----Desire
                                    has no regard to Prudence, it despises Danger, and over-looks
                                    even Impossibilities---but whither am I going?---I say, I know
                                    not what---Oh, mark not what Distraction utters! Shun these
                                    detested Walls!---’tis Reason now commands! fly from this House,
                                    where injur’d Love’s enslav’d, and Death and Treachery reign---I
                                    charge thee come not near, nor prove thy Faith so hazardous a
                                    way---forgive the little Fears, which ever dwell with Love---I
                                    know thou art all sincerity!---all God-like Truth, and can’st
                                    not change---yet, if thou shouldst,---tormenting Thought!----Why
                                    then, there’s not a Heaven-abandon’d Wretch, so lost---so Curst
                                    as I---What shall I do to shake off Apprehension? in spite of
                                    all thy Vows---thy ardent Vows, when I but think of any Maid, by
                                    Love, and fond Belief undone, a deadly cold runs thro’ my Veins,
                                    congeals my Blood, and chills my very Soul!---Gazing on the Moon
                                    last Night, her Lustre brought fresh to my Memory those
                                    transporting Moments, when by that Light I saw you first a
                                    Lover, and, I think Inspired me, who am not usually fond of
                                    Versifying, to make her this Complaint.</hi>
                                                </p>
                              <pb n="185"/>
                              <div>
                                 <floatingText>
                                    <body>
                                       <head type="sub">The Unfortunate Camilla’s Complaint to the
                                             <hi rend="italic">Moon</hi>, for the Absence of her
                                          Dear Henricus Frankville.</head>
                                       <div>
                                          <lg>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Mild Queen of Shades! Thou sweetly
                                                  shining Light!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Once, more than Phœbus, welcome to
                                                  my Sight:</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">’Twas by thy Beams I firstHenricus
                                                  saw</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Adorn’d with softness, and
                                                  disarm’d of awe!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Never did’st thou appear more
                                                  fair! more bright!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Than on that Dear, that
                                                  Cause-remembred Night!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">When the dull Tyes of Friendship
                                                  he disclaim’d,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">And to Inspire a tend’rer Passion
                                                  aim’d:</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Alas! he cou’d not long, in vain,
                                                  implore</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">For that, which tho’ unknown, was
                                                  his before;</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Nor had I Art the Secret to
                                                  Disguise,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">My Soul spoke all her Meaning
                                                  thro’ my Eyes,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">And every Glance bright’ned with
                                                  glad Surprize!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Lost to all Thought, but His
                                                  Transporting Charms,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">I sunk, unguarded! Melting in his
                                                  Arms!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Blest at that lavish rate, my
                                                  State, that Hour</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">I’d not have Chang’d for all in
                                                  fortune’s Pow’r,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Nay, had descending Angel’s from
                                                  on High</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Spread their bright Wings to waft
                                                  me to the Sky,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Thus clasp’d! Cœlestial Charms had
                                                  fail’d to move</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">And Heav’n been slighted,
                                                  forHenricus Love.</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">How did I then thy happy Influence
                                                  Bless?</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">How watch each joyful Night, thy
                                                  Lights encrease?</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">But Oh! How alter’d
                                                  since---Despairing now,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">I View thy Lustre with contracted
                                                  Brow:</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">Pensive, and sullen from the Rays
                                                  wou’d hide,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">And scarce the glimmering Star’s
                                                  my Griefs abide,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">In Death-like darkness wou’d my
                                                  Fate deplore,</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                             <l>
                                                                        <hi rend="italic">And wish Thee to go down, to Rise
                                                  no more!</hi>
                                                                    </l>
                                          </lg>
                                       </div>
                                    </body>
                                 </floatingText>
                              </div>

                              <p>
                                                    <pb n="186"/>
                                                </p>
                              <p>
                                                    <hi rend="italic">Pity the Extravagance of a Passion which only
                                    Charms like thine cou’d Create, nor too severely chide this soft
                                    Impertinence, which I cou’d not refrain sending you, when I can
                                    neither see you, nor hear from you: to write, gives some little
                                    respite to my Pains, because I am sure of being in your
                                    Thoughts, while you are Reading my Letters. The Tender Hearted
                                    Violetta, preferring the Tyes of Friendship to those of Duty,
                                    gives me this happy opportunity, but my Ill-fortune deprives me
                                    too of her, she goes to Morrow to her Fathers Villa, and Heaven
                                    knows when I shall find means to send to you again.</hi>
                                                </p>
                              <p>
                                                    <hi rend="italic">Farewel, Thou Loveliest, Dearest, and Divine
                                    Charmer---Think of me with a Concern full of Tenderness, but
                                    that is not enough; and you must pardon me, when I confess, that
                                    I cannot forbear wishing you might feel some of those Pains,
                                    impatient longing brings.---All others be far away, as far, as
                                    Joy is, when you are Absent from</hi>
                                                </p>
                              <closer>Your Unfortunate<lb/>
                                 <signed>Camilla.</signed>
                                                </closer>
                           </div>
                           <postscript>
                              <p>P.S. <hi rend="italic">Since I writ this, a Fancy came into my
                                    Head, that if you cou’d find a Friend Trusty enough to confide
                                    in, and one unknown to our Family, he might gain admittance to
                                    me in Cittolini’s Name, as sent by him, while he is at the
                                    Villa. I flatter my self you will take as much pleasure in
                                    endeavouring to let me hear from you, as I do in the hope of it.
                                    Once more Adieu.</hi>
                                                </p>
                           </postscript>
                        </body>
                     </floatingText>
                     <p>Your Lordship may judge, by what I have told you of the Sincerity of my
                        Passion, how glad I should have been to have comply’d with her Request, but
                        it was utterly impossible to find any body fit for such a Business: I pass’d
                        three or four Days more, in Disquietudes too great to be exprest; I
                        saunter’d up and<pb n="187"/> down the Street where she liv’d, in hopes to see her
                        at some of the Windows, but Fortune never was so favourable to me, thus I
                        spent my Days, and left the sight of those dear Walls at Nights, but in
                        obedience to the Charge she had given me of preserving my Life.</p>
                     <p>Thus, my Lord, has the business of my Love engrossed my Hours, ever since
                        your Lordships arrival, and tho’ I heard that you were here, and extreamly
                        wish’d to kiss your Hands, yet I cou’d never get one Moment compos’d enough
                        to wait on you in, ’till what my Desires cou’d not do, the rashness of my
                        Indignation effected: Last Night, being at my Bankers where all my Bills and
                        Letters are directed, I found this, from Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Sanseverin</hi>, the Rage which the Contents of it put me in, kept me
                        from remembring that Circumspection, which <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>
                        had enjoyn’d, and I thought of nothing but revenging the injury I imagin’d
                        you had done me: As I was coming Home, I was attack’d as you saw, when you
                        so generously preserv’d me, the just Indignation I conceiv’d at this base
                        procedure of <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>’s transported me so far, as to
                        make me forget what I owed to my Deliverer, to run in pursuit of those who
                        assaulted me, but soon lost sight of them, and returning, as Gratitude and
                        Honour call’d me, to seek, and thank you for your timely Assistance, I found
                        a Throng of People about the Body of the Villain I had killed, some of them
                        were for Examining me, but finding no Wounds about me, nor any marks of the
                        Engagement I had been in, I was left at my Liberty.</p>
                     <p>Thus, my Lord, have I given you, in as brief a manner as the Changes of my
                        Fortune wou’d permit, the Account of my present melancholly Circumstances,
                        in which, if you find many things blameable, you must acknowledge there are
                        more which require Compassion.</p>
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               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>
                            <pb n="188"/>
                        </p>
            <p>I see no Reason, answer’d the Count, either for the one or the other, you have done
               nothing but what any Man who is a Lover, wou’d gladly have it in his Power to do, and
               as for your Condition, it certainly is more to be envy’d than pity’d: The Lady loves,
               is Constant, and doubtless will some way or other, find means for her
               Escape,----Impossible! Cry’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, interrupting him, she
               is too strictly watch’d to suffer such a Hope. If you will prepare a Letter, resum’d
                  <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, my self will undertake to be the Bearer of it; I
               am entirely a Stranger to the People you have been speaking of, or if I should chance
               to be known to them, cannot be suspected to come from you, since our Intimacy, so
               lately born, cannot yet be talk’d of, to the prejudice of our Design; and how do you
               know, continu’d he smiling, but, if I have the good Fortune to be introduc’d to this
               Lady, that I shall not be able to assist her Invention to form some Scheme, for both
               your future Happiness. This offer was too agreeable to be refus’d, <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> accepted it with all the Demonstrations of Gratitude and Joy
               imaginable, and setting himself down to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Scrutore,
               was not long Writing the following <hi rend="italic">Billet</hi> which he gave him to
               read before he seal’d it.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>To the most Lovely and Adorable Camilla.</opener>
                     <p>“If to consume with inward Burnings, to have no Breath but Sighs, to wish
                        for Death, or Madness to relieve me from the racks of Thought, be Misery
                        consummate, such is mine! And yet my too unjustCamilla thinks I feel no
                        Pain, and chides my cold Tranquility; cou’d I be so, I were<pb n="189"/> indeed a
                        Wretch deserving of my nate, but far unworthy of your Pity or Regard. No,
                        no, thou Loveliest, Softest, most angelic Creature, that Heaven, in lavish
                        Bounty, ever sent to charm the adoring World; he that cou’d know one Moments
                        stupid Calm in such an <hi rend="italic">Absence</hi>, ought never to be
                        blest with those unbounded Joys thy <hi rend="italic">Presence</hi> brings:
                        What wou’d I not give, what wou’d I not hazard but once more to behold thee,
                        to gaze upon thy Eyes, those Suns of kindling Transports! to touch thy
                        enlivening Hand! to feed upon the ravishing sweetness of thy Lips! Oh the
                        Imagination’s Extacy! Life were too poor to set on such a Cast, and you
                        shou’d long e’re this, have prov’d the little Value I have for it, in
                        competition with my Love if your Commands had not restrain’d me. <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>’s Malice, however, had last Night been
                        gratify’d, if the Noble Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> had not been
                        inspir’d for my Preservation, it is to him I am indebted, not only for my
                        Life, but a much greater Favour, that of conveying to you the Assurance, how
                        much my Life, my Soul, and all the Faculties of it are eternally Yours.
                        Thank him, my <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, for your <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, for Words like thine are only fit to Praise, as it
                        deserves, such an exalted Generosity; ’tis with an infinite deal of
                        Satisfaction I reflect how much thy Charms will justify my Conduct when he
                        sees thee, all that excess of Passion, which my fond Soul’s too full of to
                        conceal, that height of Adoration, which offer’d to any other Woman wou’d be
                        Sacriledge, the wonders of thy Beauty and thy Wit, claim as their due, and
                        prove <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, like <hi rend="italic">Heaven</hi>,
                        can never be too much Reverenc’d! Be too much Lov’d!----But, Oh! How poor is
                        Language to express what ’tis I think, thus Raptur’d with thy Idea, thou
                        best, thou Brightest----thou most Perfect----thou something more than
                        Excellence it self--thou far surpassing all that Words can speak, or Heart,
                        unknowing thee, conceive:<pb n="190"/> yet I cou’d dwell for ever on the Theme, and
                        swell whole Volumes with enervate, tho’ well-meaning Praises, if my
                        Impatience, to have what I have already writ, be with you, did not prevent
                        my saying any more than, that but in you I live, nor cou’d support this
                        Death-like absence, but for some little intervals of Hope, which sometimes
                        flatter me, that Fortune will grow weary of persecuting me, and one Day
                        re-unite my Body to my Soul and make both inseparably Yours,</p>
                     <closer>
                                        <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>.”</closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>These new made Friends having a fellow-feeling of each others Sufferings, as
               proceeding from one Source, pass’d the time in little else but amorous Discourses,
               till it was a proper Hour for the Count to perform his Promise, and taking a full
               Direction from <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> how to find the House, he left him
               at his Lodgings to wait his return from <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>’s, forming,
               all the way he went, a thousand Projects to communicate to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> for her Escape, he was still extreamly uneasy in his Mind concerning
                  <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, and long’d to be in <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>
               to know the Truth of that Affair, but thought he cou’d not in Honour leave her
               Brother in this Embarrassment, and resolv’d to make use of all his Wit and Address to
               perswade <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> to hazard every thing for Love, and was not a
               little pleas’d with the Imagination, that he should lay so considerable an obligation
               on <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, as this Service to her Brother wou’d be. Full of
               these Reflections he found himself in the <hi rend="italic">Portico</hi> of that
               magnificent House he was to enter, and seeing a Crowd of Servants about the Door,
               desir’d to be brought to the presence of <hi rend="italic">Donna Camilla
               Fialaso</hi>, one of them, immediately conducted him into a stately Room, and leaving
               him there, told him, the Lady shou’d be made acquainted with his Request; presently
               after came in a Woman, who, tho’ very Young, seem’d to be in the nature of a <hi rend="italic">Duenna</hi>, the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> stood with his Back
               toward her as<pb n="191"/> she enter’d, but hearing somebody behind him, and turning hastily
               about, he observ’d she startled at sight of him, and appear’d so confus’d that he
               knew not what to make of her Behaviour, and when he ask’d if he might speak with <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, and said he had a Message to deliver from <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, she made no other Answer than several times, with an
               amaz’d Accent, Ecchoing the names of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, as if not able to comprehend his Meaning; he was
               oblig’d to repeat his Words over and over before she cou’d recollect herself enough
               to tell him, that she wou’d let him know her Lady’s pleasure instantly. She left him
               in a good deal of Consternation, at the Surprize he perceiv’d the Sight of him had
               put her into, he form’d a thousand uncertain Guesses what the occasion shou’d be, but
               the Mistery was too deep for all his Penetration to fathom, and he waited with
               abundance of Impatience for her return, or the appearance of her Lady, either, of
               which, he hop’d, might give a Solution to this seeming Riddle.</p>
            <p>He attended a considerable time, and was beginning to grow excessive uneasy, at this
               Delay, when a magnificent <hi rend="italic">Anti-porta</hi> being drawn up, he saw
               thro’ a Glass Door, which open’d into a Gallery, the <hi rend="italic">Duenna</hi>
               approaching: She had now entirely compos’d her Countenance, and with an obliging
               Smile told him, she wou’d conduct him to her Lady. She led him thro’ several Rooms,
               all richly furnish’d and adorn’d, but far inferior to the last he came into, and in
               which he was again left alone, after being assur’d that he should not long be so.</p>
            <p>
                            <hi rend="italic">Count D’elmont</hi> cou’d not forbear giving Truce to his more
               serious Reflections, to admire the Beauties of the Place he was in; where e’er he
               turn’d his Eyes, he saw nothing but was splendidly Luxurious, and all the Ornaments
               contriv’d in such a manner, as might fitly be a Pattern, to Paint the Palace of
               the<pb n="192"/> Queen of Love by: The Ceiling was vastly high and beautify’d with most
               curious Paintings, the Walls were cover’d with Tapestry, in which, most artificially
               were woven, in various colour’d Silk, intermix’d with Gold and Silver, a great number
               of Amorous Stories; in one Place he beheld a Naked <hi rend="italic">Venus</hi>
               sporting with <hi rend="italic">Adonis</hi>, in another, the Love transform’d <hi rend="italic">Jupiter</hi>, just resuming his Shape, and rushing to the Arms of
                  <hi rend="italic">Leda</hi>; there, the seeming Chast <hi rend="italic">Diana</hi>
               Embracing her entranc’d <hi rend="italic">Endimion</hi>; here, the God of soft
               Desires himself, wounded with an Arrow of his own, and snatching Kisses from the no
               less enamour’d <hi rend="italic">Psiche</hi>: betwixt every one of these Pieces hung
               a large Looking-Glass, which reach’d to the top of the Room, and out of each sprung
               several crystal Branches, containing great Wax-Tapers, so that the number of Lights
               vy’d with the Sun, and made another, and more glorious Day, than that which lately
               was withdrawn. At the upper End of this magnificent Chamber, there was a Canopy of
               Crimson Velvet, richly emboss’d, and trim’d with Silver, the Corners of which were
               supported by two golden <hi rend="italic">Cupids</hi>, with stretch’d out Wings, as
               if prepar’d to fly; two of their Hands grasp’d the extremity of the <hi rend="italic">Valen</hi>, and the other, those nearest to each other, joyn’d to hold a wreath
               of Flowers, over a Couch, which stood under the Canopy. But tho’ the Count was very
               much taken at first with what he saw, yet he was too sincere a Lover to be long
               delighted with any thing in the absence of his Mistress: How Heavenly (said he to
               himself Sighing) wou’d be this Place, if I expected <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>
               here! But Oh! how preferable were a Cottage blest with her, to all this Pomp and
               Grandeur with any other; this Consideration threw him into a deep Musing, which made
               him forget either where he was, or the Business which brought him there, till rous’d
               from it by the dazling Owner of this sumptuous Apartment. Nothing could be more
               glorious than her Appearance; she was by Nature, a Woman of a most excellent Shape,
               to which, her desire of Pleasing, had made her add all<pb n="193"/> the aids of Art; she was
               drest in a Gold and Silver stuff Petticoat, and a Wastcoat of plain blew Sattin, set
               round the Neck and Sleeves, and down the Seams with Diamonds, and fastned on the
               Breast, with Jewels of a prodigeous largeness and lustre; a Girdle of the same
               encompass’d her Waste; her Hair, of which she had great quantity, was black as Jet,
               and with a studied Negligence, fell part of it on her Neck in careless Ringlets, and
               the other was turn’d up, and fasten’d here and there with Bodkins, which had pendant
               Diamonds hanging to ’em, and as she mov’d, glittered with a quivering Blaze, like
               Stars darting their fires from out a sable Sky; she had a Vail on, but so thin, that
               it did not, in the least, obscure the shine of her Garments, or her Jewels, only she
               had contriv’d to double that part of it which hung over her Face, in so many folds,
               that it serv’d to conceal her as well as a <hi rend="italic">Vizard</hi> Mask.</p>
            <p>The Count made no doubt but this was the Lady for whom he waited, and throwing off
               that melancholly Air he had been in, assum’d one, all gay and easy, and bowing low,
               as he advanc’d to meet her; Madam, said he, if you are that incomparable <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, whose Goodness nothing but her Beauty can equalize,
               you will forgive the intrusion of a Stranger, who confesses himself no other way
               worthy of the Honour of your Conversation, but by his Desires to serve him who is
               much more so: A Friend of <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>’s, answer’d she, can never
               want admittance here, and if you had no other Plea, the Name you come in, is a
               sufficient Warrant for your kind Reception: I hope, resum’d he in a low Voice, and
               looking round to see if there were no Attendants in hearing, I bring a Better, from
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, Madam, the adoring <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, I have these Credentials to Justify my Visit; in speaking this,
               he deliver’d the Letter to her, which she retiring a few Paces from him to read, gave
               him an opportunity of admiring the Majesty of her Walk,<pb n="194"/> and the agreeable
               loftiness of her Mein, much more than he had time to do before.</p>
            <p>She dwelt not long on the Contents of the Letter, but throwing it carelesly down on a
               Table which stood near her, turn’d to the Count, and with an Accent which express’d
               not much Satisfaction; and was it to you, my Lord! said she, that Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> ow’d his Preservation? I was so happy, reply’d he,
               to have some little hand in it, but since I have known how dear he is to you, think
               my self doubly blest by Fortune for the means of acting any thing conducive to your
               Peace: If you imagine that this is so, resum’d she hastily, you are extreamly
               mistaken, as you will always be, when you believe, where Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> appears, any other Man seems worthy the regard of a discerning
               Woman; but, continu’d she, perceiving he look’d surpriz’d, to spare your suspence,
               and my self the trouble of repeating what you know already, behold who she is, you
               have been talking to, and tell me now, if <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> has any
               Interest in a Heart to which this Face belongs? With these Words she threw off her
               Vail, and instead of lessening his Amazement, very much encreas’d it, in discovering
               the Features of the Lady, with whom he had discoursed the Night before in the Garden,
               He knew not what to think, or how to reconcile to Reason, that <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, who so lately lov’d, and had granted the highest Favours to <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, shou’d on a sudden be willing, uncourted, to bestow
               them on another, nor cou’d he comprehend how the same Person shou’d at once live in
               two several Places, for he conceiv’d the House he was in, was far distant from the
               Garden which he had been in the Night before.</p>
            <p>They both remain’d for some Moments in a profound Silence, the Lady expecting when
               the Count shou’d speak, and he endeavouring to recollect himself enough to do so,
               ’till she, at last, possibly guessing at his Thoughts, resum’d her Discourse in this
               manner:<pb n="195"/> My Lord, said she, wonder not at the Power of Love, a Form like yours
               might soften the most rugged Heart, much more one, by Nature so tender as is
               mine.----Think but what you are, continu’d she sighing, and making him sit down by
               her on the Couch, and you will easily excuse whatever my Passion may enforce me to
               commit. I must confess Madam, answer’d he very gravely, I never in my Life wanted
               presence of mind so much as at this juncture, to see before me here, the Person, who,
               I believ’d, liv’d far from hence, who, by Appointment, I was to wait on this Night at
               a different Place.----To find in the Mistress of my Friend, the very Lady, who seems
               unworthily to have bestow’d her Heart on me, are Circumstances so Incoherent, as I
               can neither account for, or make evident to <hi rend="italic">Reason</hi>, tho’ they
               are too truly so to <hi rend="italic">Sense</hi>: It will be easy, reply’d she, to
               reconcile both these seeming Contradictions, when you shall know that the Gardens
               belonging to this House, are of a very large Extent, and not only that, but the
               turning of the Streets are so order’d, as make the Distance between the fore, and
               back Door appear much greater than really it is: And for the other, as I have already
               told you, you ought to be better acquainted with your self, than to be surpriz’d at
               Consequences which must infallibly attend such Charms: In saying this, she turn’d her
               Head a little on one side, and put her Handkerchief before her Face, affecting to
               seem confus’d at what she spoke; but the Count redned in good Earnest, and with a
               Countenance which express’d Sentiments, far different from those she endeavour’d to
               Inspire: Madam, said he, tho’ the good Opinion you have of me is owing entirely to
               the <hi rend="italic">Error</hi> of your <hi rend="italic">Fancy</hi>, which too
               often, especially in your Sex, blinds the <hi rend="italic">Judgment</hi>, yet, ’tis
               certain, that there are not many Men, whom such Praises, coming from a Mouth like
               yours, wou’d not make Happy and Vain; but if I was ever of a Humour to be so, it is
               now wholly mortify’d in me, and ’tis but with the utmost regret, that I must receive
               the Favours you confer on me to the prejudice of my<pb n="196"/> Friend: And is that,
               interrupted she hastily, is that the <hi rend="italic">only</hi> Cause? Does nothing
               but your Friendship to <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> prevent my Wishes? That, of
               itself, answer’d he, were a sufficient Bar to sunder us for ever, but there’s
               another, if not a greater, a more tender one, which, to restore you to the Path,
               which Honour, Gratitude, and Reason call you to, I must inform you of, yes, I must
               tell you, Madam, all lovely as you are, that were there no such Man as <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, in the World,----were you as free as Air, I have a
               defence within, which all your Charms can never pierce, nor softness melt---I am
               already bound, not with the weak Ties of Vows or formal Obligations, which confine no
               farther than the Body, but Inclination!----the fondest Inclination! That ever swell’d
               a <hi rend="italic">Heart</hi> with Rapturous Hopes: The Lady had much ado to contain
               herself till he had done speaking; she was by Nature extreamly Haughty, Insolent of
               her Beauty, and impatient of any thing she thought look’d like a flight of it, and
               this open Defyance of <hi rend="italic">her</hi> Power, and acknowledging <hi rend="italic">anothers</hi>, had she been less in Love wou’d have been
               insupportable to her: Ungrateful and uncourtly Man, said she, looking on him with
               Eyes that sparkled at once with Indignation and Desire, you might have spar’d
               yourself the trouble of Repeating, and me the Confusion of hearing, in what manner
               you stand Engag’d, it had been enough to have told me you never cou’d be mine,
               without appearing transported at the Ruin which you make; if my too happy Rival
               possesses Charms, I cannot boast, methinks your <hi rend="italic">good Manners</hi>
               might have taught you, not to insult my Wants, and your <hi rend="italic">good
                  Nature</hi>, to have mingled <hi rend="italic">Pity</hi> with your <hi rend="italic">Justice</hi>; with these Words she fell a Weeping, but whether they
               were Tears of Love or Anger, is hard to determine, ’tis certain that both those
               Passions rag’d this Moment in her Soul with equal Violence, and if she had had it in
               her Power, wou’d doubtless have been glad to have hated him, but he was, at all
               times, too lovely to suffer a possibility of that, and much more so at this, for
               in<pb n="197"/> spite of the Shock, that Infidelity he believ’d her guilty of to <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, gave him; he was by Nature so Compassionate, he <hi rend="italic">felt</hi> the Woes he <hi rend="italic">saw</hi>, or <hi rend="italic">heard</hi> of, even of those who were most indifferent to him, and
               cou’d not now behold a Face, in which all the Horrors of Despair were in the most
               lively manner represented, without displaying a Tenderness in his, which in any other
               Man, might have been taken for Love; the dazling Radience of his Eyes, gave place to
               a more dangerous, more bewitching softness, and when he sigh’d, in Pity of her
               Anguish, a Soul Inchanting Languishment diffus’d itself thro’ all his Air, and added
               to his Graces; she presently perceiv’d it, and forming new Hopes, as well from that,
               as from his Silence, took hold of his Hand, and pressing it eagerly to her Bosom, Oh
               my Lord! resum’d she, you cannot be ungrateful if you wou’d,----I feel you
               cannot----Madam, interrupted he, shaking off as much possible that show of
               Tenderness, which he found had given her Incouragement; I wish not to convince you
               how nearly I am touch’d, with what you suffer, lest it shou’d <hi rend="italic">encrease</hi> an Esteem, which, since prejudicial to your Repose, and the
               Interest of my Friend; I rather ought to endeavour to <hi rend="italic">lessen</hi>.----But, as this is not the Entertainment I expected from <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, I beg to know an Answer of the Business I came upon,
               and what you decree for the unfortunate <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>: If the
               Lady was agitated with an extremity of Vexation at the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s
               Declaration of his Passion for another, what was she now, at this Disappointment of
               the Hopes she was so lately flatter’d with! instead of making any direct reply to
               what he said, she rag’d, stamp’d, tore her Hair, curs’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, all Mankind, the World, and in that height of Fury, scarce
               spar’d Heaven itself; but the violence of her Pride and Resentment being a little
               vented, Love took his turn, again she wept, again she prest his Hand, nay she even
               knelt and hung upon his Feet, as he wou’d have broke from her, and beg’d him with
               Words as eloquent as Wit cou’d Form, and desperate dying Love Suggest, to<pb n="198"/> pity
               and relieve her Misery: But he had now learn’d to dissemble his Concern, lest it
               shou’d a second time beguile her, and after raising her, with as careless and unmov’d
               an Air, as he was capable of putting on: My Presence, Madam, said he, but augments
               your Disorder, and ’tis only by seeing you no more, that I am qualify’d to conduce to
               the recovery of your Peace: With these Words he turn’d hastily from her, and was
               going out of the Room, when she, quick as Thought, sprung from the Place where she
               had stood, and being got between him and the Door, and throwing her self into his
               Arms, before he had time to prevent her; you must not, shall not go, she cry’d, till
               you have left me dead: Pardon me, Madam, answer’d he fretfully, and struggling to get
               loose from her Embrace, to stay after the Discovery you have made of your Sentiments,
               were to be guilty of an Injustice almost equal to your’s, therefore I beg you’d give
               me liberty to pass.----Hear me but speak, resum’d she, grasping him yet harder;
               return but for a Moment,----lovely Barbarian,----Hell has no torments like your
               Cruelty. Here, the different Passions working in her Soul, with such uncommon
               Vehemence, hurry’d her Spirits beyond what Nature cou’d Support; her Voice faulter’d
               in the Accent, her trembling Hands by slow degrees relinquish’d what so eagerly they
               had held, every Sense forgot its Use, and she sunk, in all appearance, lifeless on
               the Floor. The Count was, if possible, more glad to be releas’d, than griev’d at the
               occasion, and contented himself with calling her Women to her Assistance, without
               staying to see when she wou’d recover.</p>
            <p>He went out of that House with Thoughts much more discompos’d than those with which
               he had entered it, and when he came Home, where <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>
               impatiently waited his Return, he was at the greatest loss in the World, how to
               discover his Misfortune to him; the other observing the trouble of his Mind, which
               was very visible in his Countenance;<pb n="199"/> my Lord, said he, in a melancholly Tone, I
               need not ask you what Success, the gloom which appears on your Brow, tells me, my ill
               Fortune has deny’d you the means of speaking to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>?
               Accuse not Fortune, answer’d <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, but the influence of
               malicious Stars which seldom, if ever, suits our Dispositions to our Circumstances; I
               have seen <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, have talk’d to her, and ’tis from that
               Discourse that I cannot forbear reflection on the Miseries of Humanity, which, while
               it mocks us with a show of <hi rend="italic">Reason</hi>, gives us no Power to curb
               our <hi rend="italic">Will</hi>, and guide the erring Appetites to Peace. Monsieur
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> at these Words first felt a jealous Pang, and as
               ’tis natural to believe every Body admires what we do, he presently imagin’d Count
                  <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> had forgot <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> in the
               presence of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, and that it was from the Consciousness of
               his own Weakness and Inconstancy, that he spoke so feelingly: I wonder not my Lord,
               said he coldly, that the Beauties of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> shou’d inspire
               you with Sentiments, which, perhaps, for many Reasons, you wou’d desire to be free
               from, and I ought, in Prudence, to have consider’d, that tho’ you are the most
               excellent of your Kind, you are still a <hi rend="italic">Man</hi>, and not have the
               Passions incident to <hi rend="italic">Man</hi>, and not have expos’d you to those
               Dangers the sight of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> must necessarily involve you in:
               I wish to Heaven answer’d the Count, easily guessing what his Thoughts were, no
               greater threatned you, and that you cou’d think on <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>
               with the same indifference as I can, or she of me with more; then, in as brief a
               manner as he cou’d, he gave him the Substance of what had happen’d. <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, whose only Fault was rashness, grew almost wild at the Recital
               of so unexpected a Misfortune, he knew not for a good while what to believe, loath he
               was to suspect the Count, but loather to suspect <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, yet
               flew into extremities of Rage against both, by turns: The Count pitied, and forgave
               all that the violence of his Passion made him utter, but offer’d not to argue with
               him, ’till he found him<pb n="200"/> capable of admitting his Reasons, and then, that open
               Sincerity, that honest noble Assurance which always accompany’d his Sweetness, and
               made it difficult to doubt the Truth of any thing he said, won the disorder’d Lover
               to an entire Conviction; he now concludes his Mistress false, repents the tenderness
               he has had for her, and tho’ she still appears as lovely to his <hi rend="italic">Fancy</hi> as ever, she grows odious to his <hi rend="italic">Judgment</hi>, and
               resolves to use his utmost Efforts to banish her Idea from his Heart.</p>
            <p>In this Humour he took leave of the Count, it growing late, and his last Nights
               Adventure taught him the danger of Nocturnal Walks, but how he spent his time till
               Morning, those can only guess, who have loved like him, and like him, met so cruel a
               Disappointment.</p>
            <p>The Count pass’d not the Night in much less Inquietude than <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, he griev’d the powerful Influence of his own Attractions, and
               had there not been a <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> in the World, he wou’d have
               wish’d himself Deform’d, rather than have been the Cause of so much Misery, as his
               Loveliness produc’d.</p>
            <p>The next Morning the Count design’d to visit <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, to
               strengthen him in his Resolution of abandoning all Thoughts of the unconstant <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, but before he cou’d get drest, the other came into his
               Chamber: My Lord, said he, assoon as they were alone, my perfidious Mistress, failing
               to make a Conquest of your Heart, is still willing to preserve that she had attain’d
               over mine, but all her Charms and her Delusions are but vain, and to prove to your
               Lordship that they are so, I have brought the Letter I receiv’d from her, scarce an
               Hour past, and the true Copy of my Answer to it.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="201"/>
                        </p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>To Monsieur Frankville.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">Tho’ nothing proves the value of our Presence, so much as
                           the Pangs our absence occasions, and in my last I rashly wish’d you might
                           be sensible of mine, yet on examining my Heart, I presently recall’d the
                           hasty Prayer, and found I lov’d with that extravagance of Tenderness,
                           that I had rather you return’d it too little than too much, and methinks
                           cou’d better bear to represent you to my Fancy, careless and calm as
                           common Lovers are, than think, I saw you, Burning,--Bleeding,---Dying,
                           like me, with hopeless Wishes, and unavailing Expectations; but Ah! I
                           fear such Apprehensions are but too un-necessary----You think not of me,
                           and, if in those happy days, when no cross Accident interven’d to part me
                           from your Sight, my Fondness pleas’d, you now find nothing in Camilla
                           worth a troubled Thought, nor breath one tender sigh in memory of our
                           Transports past.----If I wrong your Love, impute it to Distraction, for
                           Oh! ’tis sure, I am not in my Senses, nor know to form one regular
                           Desire: I act, and speak, and think, a thousand Incoherent things, and
                           tho’ I cannot forbear Writing to you, I write in such a manner, so wild,
                           so different from what I wou’d, that I repent me of the Folly I am guilty
                           of, even while I am committing it; but to make as good a Defence as I am
                           able for these, perhaps, unwelcome Lines, I must inform you that they
                           come not so much to let you know my Sentiments, as to engage a Discovery
                           of yours: Ciamara has discharg’d one of her Servants from her Attendance,
                           who no longer courting her Favour or regarding her Frowns, I have
                           prevail’d upon, not only to bring this to you, but to convey an Answer
                           back to me, by the help of a String which I am to let down to him from my
                           Window, therefore, if you are but as Kind, as he has promis’d to be<pb n="202"/>
                           Faithful, we may often enjoy the Blessing of this distant Conversation;
                           Heaven only knows when we shall be permitted to enjoy a nearer. Cittolini
                           is this Evening return’d from his Villa, and nothing but a Miracle can
                           save me from the necessity of making my Choice of him, or a Monastery,
                           either of which is worse than Death, since it must leave me the Power to
                           wish, but take away the means, of being what I so oft have swore to
                           be</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>Eternally Yours, and,<lb/> Yours alone, <signed>
                                            <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>.</signed>
                                    </closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>The Count could not forbear lifting up his Eyes and Hands in token of Amazement, at
               the unexampled Falshood this Woman appeared guilty of, but perceiving Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> was about to read the following Answer, wou’d not
               Interrupt him, by asking any Questions ’till he had done.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>To <hi rend="italic">Donna</hi>Camilla.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">If Vows are any constraint to an Inclination so addicted
                           to Liberty as Yours, I shall make no difficulty to release you of all you
                           ever made to me! Yes Madam, you are free to dispose both of your Heart
                           and Person wheresoever you think fit, nor do I desire you shou’d give
                           your self the pains of farther Dissimulation. I pay too entire an
                           Obedience to your Will, to continue in a Passion which is no longer
                           pleasing: Nor will, by an ill tim’d and unmannerly Constancy, disturb the
                           serenity of your future Enjoyments with any happier Man than</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>Frankville.</closer>
                  </div>
               </body>
            </floatingText>

            <p>
                            <pb n="203"/>
                        </p>
            <p>You see, my Lord, said he with a sigh, that I have put it out of her Power to Triumph
               over my Weakness, for I confess my Heart still wears her Chains, but e’er my Eyes or
               Tongue betray to her the shameful Bondage, these Hands shou’d tear them out;
               therefore I made no mention of her Behaviour to you, nor of my sending any Letter by
               you, not only because I knew not if your Lordship wou’d think it proper, but lest she
               shou’d imagine my Resentment proceeded from Jealousy, and that I lov’d her
               still.----No, she shall ne’er have Cause to guess the truth of what I suffer.----Her
                  <hi rend="italic">real perfidy</hi> shall be repaid with <hi rend="italic">seeming
                  Inconstancy</hi> and Scorn---Oh! How ’twill sting her Pride,----By Heaven, I feel
               a gloomy kind of Pleasure in the Thought, and will indulge it, even to the highest
               insults of Revenge.</p>
            <p>I rather wish, reply’d the Count, you cou’d in <hi rend="italic">earnest</hi> be
               indifferent, than only <hi rend="italic">feign</hi> to be so, her unexampled Levity
               Deceit, renders her as unworthy of your Anger as your Love, and there is too much
               Danger while you preserve the <hi rend="italic">one</hi>, that you will not be able
               to throw off the <hi rend="italic">other</hi>.----Oh! I pretend not to it, cry’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, interrupting him, she has too deep a root within my
               Soul ever to be remov’d---I boast no more than a concealment of my Passion, and when
               I dress the horrors of a bleeding, breaking Heart, in all the calm of cold
               Tranquility; methinks, you shou’d applaud the <hi rend="italic">Noble</hi> Conquest:
               Time, said the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>, after a little Pause, and a just
               Reflection how little she deserves your Thoughts, will teach you to obtain a <hi rend="italic">Nobler</hi>; that of numbering your Love, among things that <hi rend="italic">were</hi>, but <hi rend="italic">are</hi> no more, and make you,
               with me, acknowledge that ’tis as great an argument of <hi rend="italic">Folly</hi>
               and <hi rend="italic">meanness of Spirit</hi> to continue the same Esteem when the
               Object ceases to deserve, which we profess’d before the discovery of that
               unworthiness, as it wou’d be of <hi rend="italic">Villany</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Inconstancy of Mind</hi>, to change,<pb n="204"/> without an Efficient Cause: A great
               deal of Discourse pass’d between them to the same Effect, and it was but in vain that
               Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> endeavour’d to perswade him to a real
               forgetfulness of the Charmer, tho’ he resolv’d to seem as if he did so.</p>
            <p>While they were disputing, one of <hi rend="italic">D’elmont’s</hi> Servants gave him
               a Letter, which, he told him, the Person who brought it, desir’d he wou’d answer
               immediately; he no sooner broke it open, and cast his Eye over it, than he cry’d out
               in a kind of Transport, Oh, <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, what has Fate been
               doing! You are Happy.----<hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> is Innocent, and perhaps the
               most deserving of her Sex; I only am Guilty, who, by a fatal Mistake have wrong’d her
               Virtue, and Tormented you; but Read, continu’d he, giving him the Letter, Read, and
               Satisfy your self.</p>
            <p>Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> was too much astonish’d at these Words to
               be able to make any reply, but immediately found the Interpretation of them in these
               Lines.</p>
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               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>To the dear cruel Destroyer of my Quiet, the never too much Admir’d
                              <salute>
                                            <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>D’elmont</salute>.</opener>
                     <p>“’Tis no longer the Mistress of your Friend, a perjur’d and unjust <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, who languishes and dies by your Contempt, but
                        one, whom all the Darts of Love had strove in vain to reach, ’till from your
                        Charms they gain’d a God-like Influence, and un-erring Force! One, who tho’
                        a Widow, brings you the Offering of a Virgin Heart.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <pb n="205"/>
                                    </p>
                     <p>“As I was sitting in my Closet, watching the progress of the lazy Hours,
                        which flew not half so swift as my Desires to bring on the appointed time in
                        which you promis’d to be with me in the Garden; my Woman came running in, to
                        acquaint me, that you were in the House, and waited to speak with <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>: Surprize, and Jealousy at once Assaulted me,
                        and I sunk beneath the Apprehension that you might, by some Accident, have
                        seen her, and also loved her, to ease my self of those tormenting Doubts I
                        resolv’d to appear before you, in her stead, and kept my Vail over my Face,
                        ’till I found that hers was unknown to you:-----You are not Ignorant what
                        follow’d, the Deceit pass’d upon you for Truth, but I was sufficiently
                        punish’d for it, by the severity of your Usage: I was just going to discover
                        who I was, when the violence of my Love, my Grief, and my Despair threw me
                        into that Swoon, in which, to compleat your Cruelty, you left me; ’twou’d be
                        endless to endeavour to represent the Agonies of my Soul, when I recovered,
                        and heard you were gone, but all who truly Love, as they <hi rend="italic">fear much</hi>, so they <hi rend="italic">hope much</hi>, my Tortures at
                        length abated, at least, permitted me to take some intervals of Comfort, and
                        I began to flatter my self that the Passion you seem’d transported with, for
                        a nameless Mistress, was but a <hi rend="italic">feint</hi> to bring me back
                        to him you thought I was oblig’d to Love, and that there was a possibility,
                        that my Person and Fortune might not appear despicable to you, when, you
                        shou’d know, I have no Ties but those of Inclination, which can be only
                        yours while I am</p>
                     <closer>
                                        <signed>
                                            <hi rend="italic">Ciamara.</hi>
                                        </signed>
                                    </closer>
                  </div>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>“<hi rend="italic">P.S.</hi>If you find nothing in me worthy of your Love,
                        my Sufferings are such, as justly may deserve your Pity; either relieve or
                        put an end to them I conjure you---Free me from the ling’ring Death<pb n="206"/> of
                        Doubt, at once decree my Fate, for, like a God, you rule my very Will, nor
                        dare I, without your Leave, throw off this wretched Being; Oh then, permit
                        me once more to behold you, to try at least, to warm you into Kindness with
                        my Sighs, to melt you with my Tears,---to sooth you into softness by a
                        thousand yet undiscover’d Fondnesses---and, if all fail to die before your
                        Eyes.”</p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
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            <p>Those who have experienc’d the force of Love, need not to be inform’d what Joy, what
               Transport swell’d the Heart of Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, at this
               unexpected <hi rend="italic">Eclaircissment</hi> of his dear <hi rend="italic">Camilla’s</hi> Innocence; when every thing concurs to make our Woes seem real,
               when Hopes are dead, and even Desire is hush’d by the loud Clamours of Despair and
               Rage, then,---then, to be recall’d to Life, to Light, to Heaven and Love again, is
               such a torrent of o’re powering Happiness,--such a surcharge of Extacy, as Sense can
               hardly bear.</p>
            <p>What now wou’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> not have given that it had been in
               his Power to have recall’d the last Letter he sent to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>?
               his Soul severely reproach’d him for so easily believing she cou’d be False; tho’ his
               Experience of the sweetness of her Disposition, made him not doubt of a Pardon from
               her, when she shou’d come to know what had been the Reason of his Jealousy; his
               impatience to see her, immediately put it into his Head, that as <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> had been the occasion of the mis-understanding between them, <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> might likewise be made the property to set all right
               again; to this end, he entreated the Count to write her an answer of Compliance, and
               a promise to come to her the next Day, in which Visit, he wou’d, in a Disguise attend
               him, and being once got into the House, he thought it wou’d be no difficulty to steal
               to <hi rend="italic">Camilla’s</hi> Apartment.</p>
            <p>But he found it not so easy a Task as he imagin’d, to persuade Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> to come into this Design,<pb n="207"/> his generous Heart,
               averse to all Deceit, thought it base and unmanly to abuse with Dissimulation the
               real tenderness this Lady had for him, and tho’ press’d by the Brother of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, and conjur’d to it, even by the Love he profess’d for
               her, it was with all the reluctance in the World, that he, at last, consented, and
               his Servant came several times into the Room to remind him that the Person who
               brought the Letter, waited impatiently for an Answer, before he cou’d bring himself
               into a Humour to write in the manner Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>
               desir’d; and tho’, scarce any Man ever had so sparkling a Fancy, such a readiness of
               Thought, or aptitude of Expression, when the dictates of his Soul, were the
               Employment of his Tongue or Pen, yet he now found himself at a loss for Words, and he
               wasted more time in these few Lines, than a Thousand times as many on any other
               Subject wou’d have cost him.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>To the Beautiful and Obliging &gt;Ciamara. <salute>
                                        <hi rend="italic">Madam</hi>,</salute>
                                </opener>
                  <p>“If I did not Sin against Truth when I assur’d you that I had a Mistress to
                     whom I was engag’d by Inclination, I certainly did, when I appear’d guilty of a
                     harshness which was never in my Nature; the Justice you do me in believing the
                     Interest of my Friend was the greatest Motive for my seeming Unkindness I have
                     not the Power sufficiently to acknowledge, but, cou’d you look into my Soul,
                     you wou’d there find the Effects of your Inspiration, something so tender, and
                     so grateful, as only favours, such as you confer, cou’d merit or create.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <pb n="208"/>
                                </p>
                  <p>“I design to make my self happy in waiting on you to Morrow Night about Eleven,
                     if you will order me admittance at that Back-gate, which was the Place of our
                     first Appointment, ’till then, I am the lovely <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>’s</p>
                  <closer>Most Devoted Servant<lb/>
                     <signed>
                                        <hi rend="italic">D’elmont.</hi>
                                    </signed>
                                </closer>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>“<hi rend="italic">P.S.</hi> There are some Reasons why I think it not safe
                        to come alone, therefore beg you’ll permit me to bring a Servant with me, on
                        whose secrecy I dare rely.”</p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
            </floatingText>

            <p>When the Count had sent away this little Billet, Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> grew very gay on the hopes of his Design succeeding; and
               laughing, my Lord said he, I question whether <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> wou’d
               forgive me, for engaging you in this Affair; <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> is
               extreamly handsome, has Wit, and where she attempts to Charm, has doubtless, a
               thousand Artifices to obtain her wish; the Count was not in a temper to relish his
               Raillery, he had a great deal of Compassion for <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, and
               thought himself inexcusable for deceiving her, and all that <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> cou’d do to dissipate the Gloom that reflection spread about him,
               was but vain.</p>
            <p>They spent the greatest part of this Day together, as they had done the former; and
               when the time came that <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> thought it proper to take
               Leave, it was with a much more chearful Heart, than he had the Night before; but his
               Happiness was not yet secure, and in a few Hours he found a considerable alteration
               in his Condition.</p>
            <p>As soon as it was dark enough forCamilla to let down her String to the Fellow whom
               she had order’d to wait for it, he receiv’d another Letter fasten’d to it, and
               finding it was Directed as the other, for Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>,
               he immediately brought it to him.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="209"/>
                        </p>
            <p>It was with a mixture of Fear and Joy, that the impatient Lover broke it open, but
               both these Passions gave Place to an adequate Despair, when having un-seal’d it, he
               read these Lines.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>
                                    <hi rend="italic">To Monsieur</hi>Frankville.</opener>
                  <p>“&gt;I have been already so much deceiv’d, that I ought not to boast of any skill
                     in the Art of Divination, yet, I fancy, ’tis in my Power to form a juster Guess
                     than I have done, what the Sentiments of your Heart will be when you first open
                     this----Methinks, I see you put on a scornful Smile, resolving to be still
                     unmov’d, either at Upbraidings or Complaints; for to do one of these, I am
                     satisfied, you imagine is the reason of my troubling you with a Letter: But
                     Sir, I am not altogether silly enough to believe the tenderest Supplications
                     the most humble of my Sex cou’d make, has efficacy to restore Desire, once
                     Dead, to Life; or if it cou’d, I am not so mean Spirited as to accept a return
                     thus caus’d; nor wou’d it be less impertinent to Reproach; to tell you that you
                     are Perjur’d---Base---Ungrateful, is what you know already, unless your Memory
                     is so Complaisant as not to remind you of either Vows or Obligations: But, to
                     assure you, that I reflect on this sudden Change of your Humour without being
                     fir’d with Rage, or stupify’d with Grief, is perhaps, what you least
                     expect.----Yet, strange as it may seem, it is most certain, that she, whom you
                     have found the Softest, Fondest, Tenderest of her Kind, is in a moment grown
                     the most Indifferent, for in spight of your Inconstancy, I never shall deny
                     that I have Lov’d you,---Lov’d you, even to Dotage, my Passion took birth long
                     before I knew you had a thought of feigning one for<pb n="210"/> me, which frees me
                     from that Imputation Women too frequently deserve, of <hi rend="italic">loving</hi> for no other Reason than because they are <hi rend="italic">beloved</hi>, for if you ne’er had <hi rend="italic">seem’d</hi> to love, I
                     shou’d have continu’d to do so in <hi rend="italic">Reality</hi>. I found a
                     thousand Charms in your Person and Conversation, and believ’d your Soul no less
                     transcending all others in excellent Qualities, than I still confess your Form
                     to be in Beauty; I drest you up in vain Imagination, adorn’d with all the
                     Ornaments of Truth, Honour, good Nature, Generosity, and every Grace that raise
                     mortal Perfection to the highest pitch, and almost reach Divinity,---but you
                     have taken care to prove your self, meer <hi rend="italic">Man</hi>, to like,
                     dislike, and wish you know not what, nor why! If I never had any Merits, how
                     came you to think me worthy the pains you have taken to engage me? And if I
                     had, how am I so suddenly depriv’d of them?---No, I am still the same, and the
                     only reason I appear not so to you, is, that you behold me now, no more, with
                     Lover’s Eyes; the few Charms, I am Mistress of, look’d lovely at a distance,
                     but lose their Lustre, when approach’d too near; your Fancy threw a glittering
                     Burnish o’re me, which free Possession has worn off, and now, the <hi rend="italic">Woman</hi> only stands expos’d to View, and I confess I justly
                     suffer for the guilty Folly of believing that in your Sex Ardors cou’d survive
                     Enjoyment, or if they cou’d, that such a Miracle was reserv’d for me; but thank
                     Heaven my Punishment is past, the Pangs, the Tortures of my bleeding Heart, in
                     tearing your Idea thence, already are no more! The fiery Tryal is over, and I
                     am now arriv’d at the Elizium of perfect Peace, entirely unmolested by any
                     warring Passion; the Fears, the Hopes, the Jealousies, and all the endless
                     Train of Cares which waited on my hours of Love and fond Delusion, serve but to
                     endear re-gain’d Tranquility; and I can cooly <hi rend="italic">Scorn</hi>, not
                        <hi rend="italic">hate</hi> your Falshood; and tho’ it is a Maxim very much
                     in use among the Women of my Country,<pb n="211"/> that, <hi rend="italic">not to
                        Revenge, were to deserve Ill-usage</hi>, yet I am so far from having a wish
                     that way, that I shall always esteem your <hi rend="italic">Virtues</hi>, and
                     while I pardon, pity your <hi rend="italic">Infirmities</hi>; shall praise your
                     flowing Wit, without an Indignant remembrance how oft it has been employ’d for
                     my undoing; shall acknowledge the brightness of your Eyes, and not in secret
                     Curse the borrow’d softness of their Glances, shall think on all your past
                     Endearments, your Sighs, your Vows, your melting Kisses, and the warm Fury of
                     your fierce Embraces, but as a pleasing Dream, while Reason slept, and with not
                     to renew at such a Price.</p>
                  <p>“I desire no Answer to this, nor to be thought of more, go on in the same
                     Course you have begun, Change ’till you are tir’d with roving, still let your
                     Eyes Inchant, your Tongue Delude, and Oaths Betray, and all who look, who
                     listen, and believe, be ruin’d and forsaken like</p>
                  <closer>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Camilla.</hi>”</closer>
               </body>
            </floatingText>

            <p>The calm and resolute Resentment which appear’d in the Stile of this Letter, gave <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> very just Grounds to fear, it would be no small
               Difficulty to obtain a Pardon for what he had so rashly Written; but when he
               reflected on the seeming Reasons, which mov’d him to it, and that he should have an
               Opportunity to let her know them, he was not altogether Inconsolable, he pass’d the
               Night however in a World of Anxiety, and as soon as Morning came, hurried away, to
               communicate to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> this fresh Occasion of his
               Trouble.</p>
            <p>It was now <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>’s turn to Rally, and he laugh’d as much at
               those Fears, which he imagin’d Causeless, as the other had done, at the Assignation
               he had perswaded him to make with <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, but tho’ as most of
               his Sex are, he was pretty much of<pb n="212"/> the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Opinion,
               yet, the Re-instating himself in <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s Esteem, was a
               Matter of too great Importance to him, to suffer him to take one Moment’s ease ’till
               he was perfectly Assur’d of it.</p>
            <p>At last, the wish’d for Hour arriv’d, and he, disguis’d so, as it was impossible for
               him to be known, attended the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> to that dear Wicket, which
               had so often given him Entrance to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>; they waited not
               long for Admittance, <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi> was ready there to Receive them;
               the Sight of her, inflam’d the Heart of Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>
               with all the Indignation imaginable, for he knew her to be the Woman, who, by her
               Treachery to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, had gain’d the Confidence of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, and involv’d him in all the Miseries he had endur’d!
               but he contain’d himself, ’till she taking the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> by the
               Hand, in order to lead him to her Lady, bad him wait her Return, which she told him
               should be immediately, in an outer Room which she pointed him to.</p>
            <p>In the mean Time she conducted the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> to the Door of that
               magnificent Chamber, where he had been receiv’d by the suppos’d <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, and where he now beheld the real <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>,
               drest, if possible, richer than she was the Night before, but loose as wanton Fancy
               cou’d invent; she was lying on the Couch when he enter’d, and affecting to seem as if
               she was not presently Sensible of his being there, rose not to receive him ’till he
               was very near her; they both kept silence for some Moments, she, waiting till he
               should speak, and he, possibly, prevented by the uncertainty after what manner he
               should Form his Address, so as to keep an equal Medium between the two Extreams, of
               being Cruel, or too Kind, till at last the Violence of her impatient Expectation
               burst out in these Words,----Oh that this Silence were the Effect of Love!----and
               then perceiving he made no Answer; tell me, continu’d she, am I forgiven for thus
               intruding on your <hi rend="italic">Pity</hi> for a Grant,<pb n="213"/> which <hi rend="italic">Inclination</hi> would not have allow’d me? Cease Madam, reply’d he,
               to encrease the Confusion which a just Sense of your Favours, and my own Ingratitude
               has cast me in: How can you look with Eyes so tender and so kind, on him who brings
               you nothing in Return? Rather despise me, hate me, drive me from your Sight, believe
               me as I am, unworthy of your Love, nor squander on a Bankrupt Wretch the noble
               Treasure: Oh Inhuman! interrupted she, has then that Mistress of whose Charms you
               boasted, engross’d all your stock of Tenderness? and have you nothing, nothing to
               repay me for all this waste of Fondness,----this lavish Prodigality of Passion, which
               forces me beyond my Sexes Pride, or my own natural Modesty, to sue, to Court, to
               kneel and weep for Pity: Pity, resum’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> wou’d be a
               poor Reward for Love like yours, and yet alas! continu’d he Sighing, ’tis all I have
               to give; I have already told you, I am ty’d by Vows, by Honour, Inclination, to
               another, who tho’ far absent hence, I still preserve the dear Remembrance of! My Fate
               will soon recall me back to her, and <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>; yours fixes you at
                  <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, and since we are doom’d to be for ever separated, it
               wou’d be base to Cheat you with a vain Pretence, and lull you with Hopes pleasing
               Dreams a while, when you must quickly wake to added Tortures, and redoubled Woe:
               Heavens, cry’d she, with an Air full of Resentment, are then my Charms so mean, my
               Darts so weak, that near, they cannot intercept those, shot at such a Distance? And
               are you that dull, cold Platonist, which can prefer the visionary Pleasures of an <hi rend="italic">absent</hi> Mistress, to the warm Transports of the Substantial <hi rend="italic">present</hi>: The <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> was pretty much
               surpriz’d at these Words, coming from the Mouth of a Woman of Honour, and began now
               to perceive what her Aim was, but willing to be more confirm’d, Madam, said he, I
               dare not hope your Virtue wou’d permit.----Is this a Time (Interrupted she, looking
               on him with Eyes which sparkled with wild Desires, and left no want of further<pb n="214"/>
               Explanation of her meaning) Is this an Hour to preach of
               Virtue?----Married,----betroth’d, engag’d by Love or Law, what hinders but this
               Moment you may be mine, this Moment, well improv’d, might give us Joys to baffle a
               whole Age of Woe; make us, at once, forget our Troubles past, and by its sweet
               remembrance, scorn those to come; in speaking these Words, she sunk supinely on <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>’s Breast; but tho’ he was not so ill-natur’d, and
               unmannerly as to repel her, this sort of Treatment made him lose all the Esteem, and
               great part of the Pity he had conceiv’d for her.</p>
            <p>The Woes of Love are only worthy Commiseration, according to their Causes; and tho’
               all those kinds of Desire, which the difference of Sex creates, bear in general, the
               name of Love, yet they are as vastly wide, as Heaven and Hell; that Passion which
               aims chiefly at Enjoyment, in Enjoyment ends, the fleeting Pleasure is no more
               remembred, but all the stings of Guilt and Shame remain; but that, where the
               interiour Beauties are consulted, and <hi rend="italic">Souls</hi> are Devotees, is
               truly Noble, Love, <hi rend="italic">there</hi> is a Divinity indeed, because he is
               immortal and unchangeable, and if our earthy part partake the Bliss, and craving
               Nature is in all obey’d; Possession thus desired, and thus obtain’d, is far from
               satiating, <hi rend="italic">Reason</hi> is not here debas’d to <hi rend="italic">Sense</hi>, but <hi rend="italic">Sense</hi> elevates itself to <hi rend="italic">Reason</hi>, the different Powers unite, and become pure alike.</p>
            <p>It was plain that the Passion with which <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> was animated,
               sprung not from this last Source; she had seen the Charming Count, was taken with his
               Beauty, and wish’d no farther than to possess his lovely <hi rend="italic">Person</hi>, his <hi rend="italic">Mind</hi> was the least of her Thoughts, for
               had she the least Ambition to reign there, she wou’d not have so meanly sought to
               obtain the one, after he had assured her, the other, far more noble part of him was
               dispos’d of. The Grief he had been in, that it was not in his Power to return her
               Passion, while<pb n="215"/> he believ’d it meritorious, was now chang’d to the utmost
               Contempt, and her Quality, and the State she liv’d in, did not hinder him from
               regarding of her, in as indifferent a manner, as he wou’d have done a common <hi rend="italic">Courtezan</hi>.</p>
            <p>Lost to all Sense of Honour, Pride or Shame, and wild to gratify her furious Wishes,
               she spoke, without reserve, all they suggested to her, and lying on his Breast,
               beheld, without concern, her Robes fly open, and all the Beauties of her own expos’d,
               and naked to his View: Mad at his Insensibility, at last she grew more bold, she
               kiss’d his Eyes,---his Lips, a thousand times, then press’d him in her Arms with
               strenuous Embraces,----and snatching his Hand and putting it to her Heart, which
               fiercely bounded at his Touch, bid him be witness of his mighty Influence there.</p>
            <p>Tho’ it was impossible for any Soul to be capable of a greater, or more constant
               Passion than his felt for <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, tho’ no Man that ever
               liv’d, was less addicted to loose Desires,----in fine, tho’ he really was, as <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> had told him, the most excellent of his Kind, yet,
               he was still a <hi rend="italic">Man!</hi> And, ’tis not to be thought strange, if to
               the force of such united Temptations, Nature and Modesty a little yielded; warm’d
               with her fires, and perhaps, more mov’d by Curiosity, her Behaviour having
               extinguish’d all his respect, he gave his Hands and Eyes a full Enjoyment of all
               those Charms, which had they been answer’d by a Mind worthy of them, might justly
               have inspir’d the highest Raptures, while she, unshock’d, and unresisting, suffer’d
               all he did, and urg’d him with all the Arts she was Mistress of, to more, and it is
               not altogether improbable, that he might not entirely have forgot himself, if a
               sudden Interruption had not restor’d his Reason to the consideration of the Business
               which had brought him here.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="216"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> had all this time been employ’d in a far
               different manner of Entertainment; <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi> came to him,
               according to her promise, assoon as she had introduc’d the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi> to <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, and having been commanded by that
               Lady to Discourse with the supposed Servant, and get what she cou’d out of him, of
               the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Affairs, she sat down and began to talk to him
               with a great deal of Freedom; but he who was too impatient to lose much time, told
               her he had a Secret to discover, if the place they were in was private enough to
               prevent his being over-heard, and she assuring him that it was, he immediately
               discover’d who he was, and clap’d a Pistol to her Breast, swearing that Moment shou’d
               be the last of her Life, if she made the least Noise, or attempted to intercept his
               passage to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>: The terror she was in, made her fall on
               her Knees, and conjuring him to spare her Life, beg’d a thousand Pardons for her
               Infidelity, which she told him was not occasion’d by any particular Malice to him;
               but not being willing to leave <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi> herself, the fear of being
               expos’d to the revenge of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, when they shou’d find out that she had been the Instrument of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s Escape, prevail’d upon her timerous Soul to that
               Discovery, which was the only means to prevent what she so much dreaded: <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> contented himself with venting his Resentment in two
               or three hearty Curses, and taking her roughly by the Arm, bid her go with him to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s Apartment, and discover before her what she knew of
                  <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>’s Entertaining Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> in her Name, which she trembling promis’d to obey, and they both
               went up a pair of back Stairs which led a private way to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s Chamber; when they enter’d, she was sitting in her night Dress on
               the Bed-side, and the unexpected sight of <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, who, till
               now, had never ventured to appear before her, since her Infidelity, and a Man with
               her whom she thought a Stranger, fill’d her with such a surprize, that it depriv’d
               her of her<pb n="217"/> Speech, and gave <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> time to throw off
               his Disguise, and catch her in his Arms, with all the Transports of unfeign’d
               Affection, before she cou’d enough recover her self to make any resistance, but when
               she did, it was with all the Violence imaginable, and indeavouring to tear herself
               away; Villain, said she, comest thou again to triumph o’re my Weakness,----again to
               Cheat me into fond Belief? There needed no more to make this obsequious Lover
               relinquish his Hold, and falling at her Feet, was beginning to speak something in his
               Vindication; when she, quite lost in Rage, prevented him, by renewing her Reproaches
               in this manner; have you not given me up my Vows? Resum’d she, have you not abandon’d
               me to ruin,---to Death--to Infamy,----to all the stings of self-accusing Conscience
               and Remorse? And come you now, by your detested Presence, to alarm Remembrance, and
               new point my Tortures?-----That Woman’s Treachery, continu’d she, looking on <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, I freely Pardon, since by that little Absence it
               occasion’d, I have discovered the wavering disposition of your Soul, and learn’d to
               scorn what is below my Anger. Hear me but speak, cry’d <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, or if you doubt my Truth, as I confess you have almighty Cause,
               let her inform you, what seeming Reasons, what Provocations urg’d my hasty Rage to
               write that fatal,----that accursed Letter. I will hear nothing, reply’d <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, neither from you nor her,----I see the base Design,
               and scorn to joyn in the Deceit,--You had no Cause,----not even the least Pretence
               for your Inconstancy but one, which, tho’ you all are guilty of, you all Disown, and
               that is, being lov’d too well.----I Lavish’d all the fondness of my Soul, and you,
               unable to reward, despiz’d it:--But think not that the rage, you now behold me in,
               proceeds from my Despair--No, your Inconstancy is the Fault of Nature, a Vice which
               all your Sex are prone to, and ’tis we, the fond Believers only, are to blame, <hi rend="italic">that</hi> I forgave, my Letter told you that I did----but thus to
               come----thus Insolent in Imagination, to dare to hope I were that mean Soul’d<pb n="218"/>
               Wretch, whose easy Tameness, and whose doating Love, with Joy would welcome your
               return, clasp you again in my deluded Arms, and swear you were as dear as ever, is
               such an affront to my Understanding, as merits the whole Fury of Revenge! as she
               spoke these Words, she turn’d disdainfully from him with a Resolution to leave the
               Room, but she could not make such hast to go away, as the despairing, the distracted
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> did to prevent her, and catching hold of her
               Garments, stay Madam, said he, wildly, either permit me to clear my self of this
               barbarous Accusation, or, if you are resolv’d, Unhearing, to Condemn me, behold me,
               satiate all your Rage can wish, for by Heaven, continued he, holding the Pistol to
               his own Breast, as he had done a little before to <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>’s, by
               all the Joys I have Possest, by all the Hell I now endure, this Moment I’ll be
               receiv’d your <hi rend="italic">Lover</hi>, or expire your <hi rend="italic">Martyr</hi>. These Words pronounc’d so passionately, and the Action that
               accompany’d them, made a visible alteration in <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s
               Countenance, but it lasted not long, and Resuming her fierceness; your Death, cry’d
               she, this way would give me little Satisfaction, the World would judge more Noble of
               my Resentment, if by my Hand you fell----Yet, continu’d she, snatching the Pistol
               from him, and throwing it out of the Window, which happen’d to be open, I will
               not---cannot be the Executioner.--No, Live! And let thy Punishment be, in <hi rend="italic">Reality</hi>, to endure what thou well <hi rend="italic">Dissemblest</hi>, the Pangs, the racking Pangs, of hopeless, endless
               Love!--May’st thou <hi rend="italic">indeed</hi>, Love <hi rend="italic">Me</hi>, as
               thou a thousand Times hast falsely sworn,---for ever <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>, and
               I, for ever <hi rend="italic">Hate!</hi> In this last Sentence, she flew like
               Lightning to her Closet, and shut her self in, leaving the amaz’d Lover still on his
               Knees, stupify’d with Grief and Wonder, all this while <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>
               had been casting about in her Mind, how to make the best use of this Adventure with
                  <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, and encourag’d by <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s
               Behaviour and taking advantage of <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>’s Confusion, made
               but one Step to the Chamber Door, and running out into the Gallery, and down<pb n="219"/>
               Stairs, cry’d Murder,----Help, a Rape----Help, or <hi rend="italic">Donna
                  Camilla</hi> will be carry’d away.---She had no occasion to call often, for the
               Pistol which <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> threw out of the Window chanc’d to go off
               in the fall, and the report it made, had alarm’d some of the Servants who were in an
               out-House adjoyning to the Garden, and imagining there were Thieves, were gathering
               to search: some arm’d with Staves, some with Iron Bars, or any thing they could get
               in the Hurry they were in, as they were running confusedly about, they met Monsieur
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> pursuing <hi rend="italic">Brione</hi>, with a
               design to stop her Mouth, either by Threatnings or Bribes, but she was too nimble for
               him, and knowing the ways of the House much better than he did, went directly to the
               Room where <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> was Caressing the Count in the manner
               already mention’d: Oh Madam, said she, you are impos’d on, the Count has deceiv’d
               your Expectations, and brought Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> in Disguise
               to rob you of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>. These Words made them both, tho’ with
               very different Sentiments, start from the posture they were in, and <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> changing her Air of Tenderness for one all Fury, Monster! Cry’d she
               to <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, have you then betray’d me? This is no time,
               reply’d he, hearing a great Bustle, and <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>’s Voice
               pretty loud without, for me to answer you, my Honour calls me to my Friend’s
               assistance; and drawing his Sword, run as the Noise directed him to the Place where
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> was defending himself against a little Army of
                  <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>’s Servants, she was not much behind him, and
               enrag’d to the highest degree, cry’d out, kill, kill them both! But that was not a
               Task for a much greater Number of such as them to Accomplish, and tho’ their Weapons
               might easily have beat down, or broke the Gentlemens Sword; yet their Fears kept them
               from coming too near, and <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> had the Vexation to see them
               both Retreat with Safety, and her self disappointed, as well in her Revenge, as in
               her Love.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="220"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Nothing cou’d be more surpriz’d, than Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> was, when
               he got Home, and heard from <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> all that had pass’d
               between him and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, nor was his Trouble less, that he had
               it not in his Power to give him any Advice in any Exigence so uncommon: He did all he
               cou’d to comfort and divert his Sorrows, but in vain, the Wounds of bleeding Love
               admit no Ease, but from the Hand which gave them; and he, who was naturally rash and
               fiery, now grew to that height of Desparation and violence of Temper, that the Count
               fear’d some fatal Catastrophe, and wou’d not suffer him to stir from him that Night,
               nor the next Day, till he had oblig’d him to make a Vow, and bind it with the most
               solemn Imprecations, not to offer any thing against his Life.</p>
            <p>But, tho’ plung’d into the lowest depth of Misery, and lost, to all Humane
               probability, in an inextricable Labyrinth of Woe, <hi rend="italic">Fortune</hi> will
               find, at last some way, to raise, and disentangle those, whom she is pleas’d to make
               her Favourites, and that Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> was one, an
               unexpected Adventure made him know.</p>
            <p>The third Day from that, in which he had seen <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, as he
               was sitting in his Chamber, in a melancholly Conversation with the Count, who was
               then come to Visit him, his Servant brought him a Letter, which he said had been just
               left, by a Woman of an extraordinary Appearance, and who the Moment she had given it
               into his Hand, got from the Door with so much speed, that she seem’d rather to vanish
               than to walk.</p>
            <p>While the Servant was speaking, <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> look’d on the Count
               with a kind of a pleas’d Expectation in his Eye, but then casting them on the
               Direction of the Letter, Alas! Said he, how vain was my Imagination, this is not <hi rend="italic">Camilla’s</hi>, but a Hand, to which I am utterly a Stranger; these
               Words were clos’d with a sigh, and he open’d it with Negligence which wou’d have been
               unpardonable, cou’d he have guess’d at<pb n="221"/> the Contents, but assoon as he saw the
               Name of Violetta at the bottom, a flash of Hope re-kindled in his Soul, and trembling
               with Impatience he Read.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>To Monsieur Frankville.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">I think it cannot be call’d Treachery, if we betray the
                        Secrets of a Friend, only when Concealment were an Injury, but however I may
                        be able to answer this breach of Trust, I am about to make to my self, ’tis
                        your Behaviour alone, which can absolve me to Camilla, and by your Fidelity
                        she must judge of mine.</hi>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Tho’ Daughter to the Man she hates, she finds nothing in me
                        Unworthy of her Love and Confidence, and as I have been privy, ever since
                        your mutual Misfortunes, to the whole History of your Amour, so I am now no
                        Stranger to the Sentiments, your last Conversation has inspir’d her
                        with--She loves you still, Monsieur--with an extremity of Passion loves
                        you,----But, tho’ she ceases to believe you unworthy of it, her Indignation
                        for your unjust Suspicion of her will not be easily remov’d--She is resolv’d
                        to act the Heroine, tho’ to purchase that Character it shou’d cost her Life:
                        She is determin’d for a Cloyster, and has declared her Intention, and a few
                        Days will take away all Possibility of ever being yours; but I, who know the
                        conflicts she endures, wish it may be in your Power to prevent the Execution
                        of a Design, which cannot, but be fatal to her: My Father and Ciamara, I
                        wish I cou’d not call her Aunt, were last Night in private Conference, but I
                        over heard enough of their Discourse, to know there has been some ungenerous
                        Contrivance carry’d on to make you, and Camilla appear guilty to each other,
                        and ’tis from that Knowledge I derive my Hopes, that you have Honour enough
                        to make a right Use of this<pb n="222"/> Discovery, if you have anything to say, to
                        further the Intercessions I am imploy’d in, to serve you; Prepare a Letter,
                        which I will either prevail on her to read, or oblige her, in spite of the
                        Resolution she has made, to Hear: But take care, that in the least, you hint
                        not that you have receiv’d one from me, for I shall perswade her that the
                        Industry of your Love has found means of conveying it to me, without my
                        Knowledge: Bring it with you this Evening to St. Peter’s, and assoon as
                        Divine Service is over, follow her who shall drop her Handkerchief as she
                        passes you, for by that Mark you shall distinguish her whom you yet know,
                        but by the Name of</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>Violetta.</closer>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>P.S. <hi rend="italic">One thing, and indeed not the least, which induc’d me
                           to write, I had almost forgot, which is, that your Friend the
                           Accomplish’d Count D’elmont, is as much endangered by the Resentment of
                           Ciamara, as your self by that of my Father, bid him beware how he
                           receives any Letter, or Present from a Hand unknown, lest he should
                           Experience, what he has doubtless heard of, our Italian Art of Poysoning
                           by the smell.</hi>
                                    </p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
            </floatingText>

            <p>When Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> had given this Letter to the Count to
               read, which he immediately did, they both of them broke into the highest Encomiums on
               this young Lady’s Generosity, who contrary to the custom of her Sex, which seldom
               forgives an affront of that kind, made it her study to serve the Man who had refus’d
               her, and make her Rival blest.</p>
            <p>These Testimonies of a grateful Acknowledgement being over, <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> told the Count, he believ’d the most, and indeed the only
               effectual Means to extinguish <hi rend="italic">Camilla’s</hi> Resentment wou’d be
               entirely to remove the Cause, which cou’d be done no other way, than by giving her a
               full Account of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara’s</hi> behaviour, while she pass’d for her:
               <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> readily<pb n="223"/> consented, and thought it not at all
               inconsistent with his Honour to Expose that of a Woman who had shewn so little Value
               for it herself: And when he saw that <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> had finish’d
               his Letter, which was very long, for Lovers cannot easily come to a Conclusion, he
               offer’d to write a Note to her, enclos’d in the other, which shou’d serve as an
               Evidence of the Truth of what he had alledged in his Vindication: <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> gladly embrac’d the kind Proposal, and the other immediately made
               it good in these Words.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>To <hi rend="italic">Donna</hi>Camilla. <salute>Madam,</salute>
                                </opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">If the Severity of your Justice requires a Victim, I only am
                        Guilty, who being Impos’d upon my self, endeavour’d, for I cannot say I
                        cou’d Accomplish it, to involve the Unfortunate Frankville in the same fatal
                        Error, and at last, prevail’d on him to Write, what he cou’d not be brought,
                        by all my Arguments to Think.</hi>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Let the Cause which led me to take this Freedom, excuse the
                        Presumption of it, which, from one so much a Stranger, wou’d be else
                        unpardonable: But when we are conscious of a Crime, the first reparation we
                        can make to Innocence, is, to acknowledge we have offended; and, if the
                        Confession of my Faults, may purchase an Absolution for my Friend, I shall
                        account it the noblest Work of Supererogation.</hi>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <pb n="224"/>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">Be assur’d, that as inexorable as you are, your utmost Rigour
                        wou’d find its Satisfaction, if you cou’d be sensible of what I suffer in a
                        sad Repentance for my Sin of injuring so Heavenly a Virtue, and perhaps, in
                        time be mov’d by it, to Pity and Forgive</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>The Unhappily deceiv’d <signed>D’elmont.</signed>
                                </closer>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>The time in which they had done Writing, immediately brought on that of <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>’s Appointment, and the Count wou’d needs accompany
               Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> in this Assignation, saying, he had an
               acknowledgment to pay to that Lady, which he thought himself oblig’d, in good Manners
               and Gratitude, to take this Opportunity to do; and the other being of the same
               Opinion, they went together to St. <hi rend="italic">Peter</hi>’s.</p>
            <p>When Prayers were done, which, ’tis probable, <hi rend="italic">One</hi> of these
               Gentlemen, if not <hi rend="italic">Both</hi>, might think too tedious, they stood
               up, and looking round, impatiently expected when the promis’d Signal shou’d be given;
               but among the great Number of Ladies, which pass’d by them, there were very few, who
               did not stop a little to gaze on these two Accomplish’d <hi rend="italic">Chevaliers</hi>, and they were several times Tantaliz’d with an <hi rend="italic">imaginary</hi> Violetta, before the <hi rend="italic">real</hi> one appear’d. But
               when the Crowd were almost dispers’d, and they began to fear some Accident had
               prevented her coming, the long expected Token was let fall, and she who threw it,
               trip’d hastily away to the farther end of the <hi rend="italic">Collonade</hi>, which
               hapned to be entirely void of Company: The Count and his Companion, were not long
               behind her, and Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> being the Person chiefly
               concern’d, address’d himself to her in this manner; With what Words, Madam, said he,
               can a Man so infinitely Oblig’d, and so desirous to be Grateful, as <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, sufficiently make<pb n="225"/> known his admiration of a Generosity like
               yours? Such an unbounded Goodness, shames all Discription! Makes Language vile, since
               it affords no Phrase to suit your Worth, or speak the mighty Sense my Soul has of it.
               I have no other Aim, reply’d she, in what I have done, than Justice; and ’tis only in
               the proof of your sincerity to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, that I am to be
               thank’d. <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> was about to answer with some assurances
               of his Faith, when the Count stepping forward, prevented him: My Friend, Madam, said
               he bowing, is most happy in having it in his Power to obey a Command, which is the
               utmost of his Wishes; but how must I acquit my self of any part of that Return which
               is due to you, for that generous Care you have been pleas’d to express for the
               preservation of my Life? There needs no more, interrupted she, with a perceivable
               alteration in her Voice, than to have <hi rend="italic">seen</hi> Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, to be interested in his Concerns--she paus’d a little
               after speaking these Words, and then, as if she thought she had said too much, turn’d
               hastily to <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, the Letter, <hi rend="italic">Monsieur</hi>, continu’d she, the Letter,---’tis not impossible but we may be
               observ’d,---I tremble with the apprehension of a Discovery: <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> immediately deliver’d it to her, but saw so much Disorder in her
               Gesture, that it very much surpriz’d him: She trembled indeed, but whether occasioned
               by any danger she perceiv’d of being taken notice of, or some other secret Agitation
               she felt within, was then unknown to any but herself, but whatever it was, it
               transported her so far, as to make her quit the Place, without being able to take any
               other Leave than a hasty <hi rend="italic">Curtisie</hi>, and bidding <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> meet her the next Morning at <hi rend="italic">Mattins</hi>.</p>
            <p>Here was a new Cause of Disquiet to <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>; the Experience
               he had of the too fatal influence of his dangerous Attractions, gave him sufficient
               Reason to fear this young Lady was not insensible of them, and that his Presence was
               the sole Cause of her Disorder; however, he said nothing of it to <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> ’till the<pb n="226"/> other mentioning it to him, and repeating her
               Words, they both joyn’d in the Opinion, that Love had been too busy in her Heart, and
               that it was the feeling the Effects of it in herself, had inclined her to so much
               Compassion for the Miseries she saw it inflicted upon others. The Count very well
               knew that when Desires of this Kind are springing in the Soul, every Sight of the
               beloved Object, encreases their growth, and therefore, tho’ her generous manner of
               Proceeding had created in him a very great Esteem, and he wou’d have been pleas’d
               with her Conversation, yet he ceas’d to wish a farther Acquaintance with her, lest it
               should render her more Unhappy, and forbore going the next Day to Church with <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, as else he wou’d have done.</p>
            <p>Violetta fail’d not to come as she had promis’d, but instead of dropping her
               Handkerchief, as she had done the Evening before, she knelt as close to him as she
               cou’d, and pulling him gently by the Sleeve, oblig’d him to regard her, who else, not
               knowing her, wou’d not have suspected she was so near, and slip’d a Note into his
               Hand, bidding him softly, not take any farther notice of her: He obey’d, but ’tis
               reasonable to believe, was too impatient to know what the Contents were, to listen
               with much Attention and Devotion to the remainder of the Ceremony; as soon he was
               releas’d, he got into a Corner of the <hi rend="italic">Cathedral</hi>, where,
               unobserv’d he might satisfy a Curiosity, which none who Love, will condemn him for,
               any more than they will for the thrilling Extacy which fill’d his Soul at the Reading
               these Lines.</p>
            <pb n="227"/>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>To Monsieur Frankville.</opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">For fear I should not have an Opportunity of speaking to
                           you, in safety, I take this Method to inform you, that I have been so
                           Successful in my Negotiation, as to make Camilla repent the Severity of
                           her Sentence, and wish for nothing more than to recall it: you are now
                           entirely justified in her Opinion, by the Artifice which was made use of
                           to Deceive you, and she is, I believe, no less enrag’d at Ciamara, for
                           depriving her of that Letter you sent by the Count, than she was at you
                           for that unkind one, which came to her Hands. She is now under less
                           restraint, since Brione’s Report of her Behaviour to you, and the
                           everlasting Resentment she vow’d, and I have prevail’d on her to
                           accompany me in a Visit I am to make, to morrow in the Evening, to Donna
                           Clara Metteline, a Nun, in the Monastery of St. Augustine, and if you
                           will meet us there, I believe it not impossible but she may be brought to
                           a Confession of all I have discover’d to you of her Thoughts.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">The Count’s Letter was of no small Service to you, for
                           tho’ without that Evidence she wou’d have been convinc’d of your
                           Constancy, yet she wou’d hardly have acknowledged she was so! and if he
                           will take the Pains to come with you to morrow I believe his Company will
                           be acceptable, if you think it proper; you may let him know as much
                           from</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>
                                        <signed>Violetta</signed>.</closer>
                  </div>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>P.S. <hi rend="italic">I beg a thousand Pardons both of you and the Count,
                           for the abruptness of my Departure last Night; something happen’d to give
                           me a Confusion from which I cou’d not at that time recover, but hope for
                           the future to be more Mistress of my self.</hi>
                                    </p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
            </floatingText>

            <p>
                            <pb n="228"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> hasted to the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Lodgings, to communicate his good Fortune, but found him in a Humour
               very unfit for Congratulations; the Post had just brought him a Letter from his
               Brother, the Chevalier <hi rend="italic">Brillian</hi>, the Contents whereof were
               these.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <div type="letter">
                     <opener>
                                        <hi rend="italic">To Count</hi>D’elmont. <salute>My
                        Lord,</salute>
                                    </opener>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">’Tis with an inexpressible Grief that I obey the Command
                           you left me, for giving you from Time to time an exact Account of
                           Melliora’s Affairs, since what I have now to acquaint you with, will make
                           you stand in Need of all your Moderation to support it. But, not to keep
                           your Expectation on the Rack, loth as I am, I must inform you, that
                           Melliora is, by some unknown Ravisher stolen from the Monastery----The
                           manner of it, (as I have since learn’d from those who were with her) was
                           thus: As she was walking in the Fields, behind the Cloyster Gardens,
                           accompanied by some young Lady’s, Pensioners there as well as her self,
                           four Men well mounted, but Disguis’d and Muffled, rode up to them, three
                           of them jump’d off their Horses, and while one seiz’d on the defenceless
                           Prey; and bore her to his Arms, who was not alighted, the other two
                           caught hold of her Companions, and prevented the Out-cries they would
                           have made, ’till she was carry’d out of sight, then Mounting again their
                           Horses, immediately lost the amaz’d Virgins all Hopes of recovering
                           her.</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">I conjure my dearest Brother to believe there has been
                        nothing omitted for the Discovery of this Villany,<pb n="229"/> but in spite of
                           all the Pains and Care we have taken in the search; None of us have yet
                           been happy enough to hear the least Account of her: That my next may
                           bring you more welcome News, is the first wish of</hi>
                                    </p>
                     <closer>&gt;My Lord, <lb/>Your Lordship’s most Zealously Affectionate Brother, and
                        Humble Servant <signed>
                                            <hi rend="italic">Brillian</hi>.</signed>
                                    </closer>
                  </div>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>P.S. <hi rend="italic">There are some People here, Malicious enough to
                           Report, that the Design of carrying away Melliora, was contriv’d by you,
                           and that it is in Rome she only can be found. It wou’d be of great
                           Advantage to my Peace, if I cou’d be of the Number of those who believe
                           it, but I am too well acquainted with your Principles to harbour such a
                           Thought. Once more, my dear Lord, for this Time, Adieu.</hi>
                                    </p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
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            <p>After the Count had given this Letter to <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> to read,
               he told him, he was resolv’d to leave <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi> the next Day, that
               nobody had so great an Interest in her Recovery as himself, that he would Trust the
               Search of her to no other, and swore with the most dreadful Imprecations he could
               make, never to rest, but wander, <hi rend="italic">Knight-Errand</hi> like, over the
               whole World ’till he had found her.</p>
            <p>Tho’ Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> was extreamly concern’d at what had
               happen’d to his Sister, yet he endeavour’d to disswade the Count from leaving <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, ’till he knew the result of his own Affair with <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>; but all his Arguments were for a long time
               ineffectual, ’till, at last, showing him <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>’s Letter, he
               prevail’d on him to defer his Journey ’till they had first seen <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, on Condition, that if she persisted in her Rigour, he shou’d give
               over any further fruitless Solicitations, and accompany him to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>: This <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> promis’d to perform, and they
               pass’d the time in very uneasy and impatient Cogitations, ’till the next Day about
               Five in the Evening they prepar’d for the Appointment.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="230"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> and his longing Companion, were the first at
               the Rendezvous, but in a very little while they perceiv’d two Women coming towards
               them: The Idea of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> was always too much in <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>’s Thoughts, not to make him know her, by that
               charming Air (which he so much ador’d her for) tho’ she was Veil’d never so closely,
               and the Moment he had sight of them, Oh Heaven (cry’d he to <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>) yonder she comes, that,----that my Lord, is the divine <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, as they came pretty near, she that indeed prov’d to be
                  <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, was turning on one Side, in order to go to the
               Grate where she expected the <hi rend="italic">Nun</hi>. Hold! Hold <hi rend="italic">Donna Camilla</hi>, cry’d <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, I cannot suffer you
               shou’d pass by your Friends with an Air so unconcern’d, if Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> has done any thing to merit your Displeasure, my Lord the Count
               certainly deserves your Notice, in the Pains he has taken to undeceive you. One so
               much a Stranger as Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> is, answer’d she, may very
               well excuse my Thanks for an explanation, which had he been acquainted with me he
               would have spar’d. Cruel <hi rend="italic">Camilla!</hi> Said <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, is then the knowledge of my Innocence unwelcome?---Am I become
               so hateful, or are you so chang’d, that you wish me guilty, for a justification of
               your Rigour? If it be so, I have no Remedy but Death, which tho’ you depriv’d me of,
               the last time I saw you, I now can find a Thousand means to compass; he pronounc’d
               these Words in so Tender, yet so resolv’d an Accent; that <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> cou’d not conceal part of the Impression they made on her, and
               putting her Handkerchief to her Eyes, which in spite of all she had done to prevent
               it, overflow’d with Tears; talk not of Death, said she, I am not Cruel to that
               degree, Live <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, Live!----but Live without <hi rend="italic">Camilla!</hi> Oh, ’tis impossible! Resum’d he, the latter part of
               your Command entirely destroys the first.---Life without your Love, would be a Hell,
               which I confess my Soul’s a Coward, but to think of.</p>
            <p>The Count and <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> were Silent all this Time, and
               perceiving they were in a fair way of Reconciliation,<pb n="231"/> thought the best they
               cou’d do to forward it, was to leave ’em to themselves, and walking a few Paces from
               them; You suffer my Lord, said the, for your Generosity in accompanying your Friend,
               since it condemns you to the Conversation of a Person, who has neither <hi rend="italic">Wit</hi>, nor <hi rend="italic">Gaiety</hi> sufficient to make her
               self Diverting. Those, reply’d he, who wou’d make the Excellent <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> a Subject of Diversion, ought never to be blest with the Company of
               any, but such Women who merit not a serious Regard: But you indeed, were your Soul
               capable of descending to the Follies of your Sex, wou’d be extreamly at a Loss in
               Conversation so little Qualify’d as mine, to please the Vanities of the Fair; and you
               stand in need of all those more than <hi rend="italic">Manly</hi> Virtues you
               possess, to pardon a <hi rend="italic">Chagreen</hi>, which even your Presence cannot
               Dissipate: If it cou’d, interrupted she, I assure your Lordship, I shou’d much more
                  <hi rend="italic">rejoice</hi> in the happy Effects of it on you, than <hi rend="italic">Pride</hi> my self in the Power of such an Influence--And yet
               continu’d she with a Sigh, I am a very Woman, and if free from the usual Affectations
               and Vanities of my Sex, I am not so from Faults, perhaps, less worthy of forgiveness:
               The Count cou’d not presently resolve what reply to make to these Words; he was
               unwilling she should believe he wanted Complaisance, and afraid of saying any thing
               that might give room for a Declaration of what he had no Power of answering to her
               wish; but after the consideration of a Moment or two, Madam, said he, tho’ I dare not
               Question your Sincerity in any other Point, yet you must give me leave to disbelieve
               you in this, not only, because, in my Opinion, there is nothing so contemptibly
               ridiculous as that self sufficiency, and vain desire of pleasing, commonly known by
               the Name of <hi rend="italic">Coquetry</hi>, but also, because she who escapes the
               Contagion of this Error, will not without much difficulty be led into any other: Alas
               my Lord, cry’d <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, how vastly wide of Truth is this
               Affection? That very foible, which is most pernicious to our Sex, is chiefly by <hi rend="italic">Coquetry</hi> prevented: I need not tell you that ’tis Love I
               mean,<pb n="232"/> and as blamable as you think the <hi rend="italic">one</hi>, I believe the
                  <hi rend="italic">other</hi> wou’d find less favour from a Person of your
               Lordship’s Judgment: How Madam, interrupted the Count, pretty warmly, have I the
               Character of a Stoick?---Or do you, imagine that my Soul, is compos’d that course
               Stuff, not to be capable of receiving, or approving a Passion, which, all the Brave,
               and generous think it their glory to Profess, and which can only give refin’d
               delight, to Minds enobled.----But I perceive, continu’d he growing more cool, I am
               not happy enough in your Esteem, to be thought worthy the Influence of that God.
               Still you mistake my Meaning, said <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, I doubt not of
               your Sensibility, were there a possibility of finding a Woman worthy of Inspiring you
               with soft Desires; and if that shou’d ever happen, Love wou’d be so far from being a
               weakness, that it wou’d serve rather as an Embelishment to your other Graces; it’s
               only when we stoop to Objects below our Consideration, or vainly wing our wishes to
               those above our Hopes, that makes us appear ridiculous or contemptible; but either of
               these is a Folly which,----which the incomparable <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>,
               interrupted <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, never can be guilty of: You have a very
               good Opinion of my Wit resum’d she, in a melancholly Tone, but I shou’d be much
               happier than I am, if I were sure I cou’d secure my self from doing any thing to
               forfeit it: I believe, reply’d the Count there are not many things you have less
               Reason to apprehend than such a Change; and I am confident were I to stay in <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi> as many <hi rend="italic">Ages</hi>, as I am determin’d to
               do but <hi rend="italic">Hours</hi>, I shou’d, at last, leave it, with the same
               Esteem and Admiration of your singular Vertues, as I now shall do. <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> cou’d not prevent the Disorder these Words put her into, from
               discovering it self in the Accent of her Voice, when, How! My Lord, said she, are we
               then to lose you?---Lose you in so short a Time? As the Count was about to answer,
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> joyn’d them,
               and looking on <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, if any Credit, said he, may be
               given to the Language of the Eyes, I am certain<pb n="233"/> yours speak Success, and I may
               congratulate a Happiness you lately cou’d not be persuaded to hope; had I a thousand
               Eyes, cry’d the transported Lover, a thousand Tongues, they all wou’d be but
               insignificant to express the Joy!----the unbounded Extacy, my Soul is full of,----but
               take the mighty Meaning in one Word,----<hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s mine---for
               ever mine!---the Storm is past, and all the sunny Heaven of Love returns to bless my
               future Days with ceaseless Raptures: Now, my Lord, I am ready to attend you in your
               Journey, this Bright! This beauteous Guardian Angel, will partake our Flight! And we
               have nothing now to do, but to prepare with secrecy and speed fit means for our
               Escape. As soon as <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> had left off speaking, Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> addressing himself to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>,
               made her abundance of Retributions, for the happiness she gave his Friend, which she
               receiving with a becoming Chearfulness, and unaffected Gaiety, I am afraid said she,
               your Lordship will think a Woman’s Resolution is, henceforth, little worth regarding;
               but, continu’d she, taking <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> by the Hand, I see well,
               that this unfaithful Creature, has betray’d me, and to punish her Infidelity, will,
               by leaving her, put it out of her Power to deceive my Confidence again: <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> either did not hear, or was not in a condition to
               return her <hi rend="italic">Raillery</hi>, nor the Praises which the Count and
               Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> concurr’d in of her Generosity, but stood
               motionless and lost in Thought, till <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> seeing it grow
               towards Night, told the Gentlemen, she thought it best to part, not only to avoid any
               Suspicion at Home of their being out so long, but also that the others might order
               every thing proper for their Departure, which it was agreed on between <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> and her, should be the next Night, to prevent the
               Success of those mischievous Designs she knew <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> were forming, against both the Count and Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>.</p>
            <p>Matters being thus adjusted to the entire Satisfaction of the Lovers, and not in a
               much less proportion<pb n="234"/> to the Count, they all thought it best to avoid making any
               more Appointments till they met to part no more; which was to be at the Wicket at
               dead of Night. When the Count took leave of <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, this
               being the last time he cou’d expect to see her; she was hardly able to return his
               Civilities, and much less to answer those which <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>
               made her, after the Count had turn’d from her to give him way; both of them guess’d
               the Cause of her Confusion, and <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> felt a concern in
               observing it, which nothing but that for <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> cou’d
               surpass.</p>
            <p>The next Day found full Employment for them all; but the Count, as well as <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, was too impatient to be gone, to neglect any thing
               requisite for their Departure, there was not the least particular wanting, long
               before the time they were to wait at the Wicket for <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s
               coming forth: The Count’s Lodging being the nearest, they stay’d there, watching for
               the long’d for Hour; but a little before it arriv’d, a Youth, who seem’d to be about
               13 or 14 Years of Age, desir’d to be admitted to the Count’s presence, which being
               granted, pulling a Letter out of his Pocket, and blushing as he approach’d him: I
               come my Lord, said he, from <hi rend="italic">Donna Violetta</hi>, the Contents of
               this will inform you on what Business; but lest the Treachery of others, shou’d
               render me suspected, permit me to break it open, and prove it carries no Infection:
               The Count look’d earnestly on him while he spoke, and was strangely taken with the
               uncommon Beauty and Modesty which he observ’d in him: You need not give your self the
               trouble of that Experiment, answer’d he, <hi rend="italic">Donna Violetta</hi>’s
               Name, and your own engaging Aspect, are sufficient Credentials, if I were liable to
               doubt; in saying this, he took the Letter, and full of Fears that some Accident had
               happen’d to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, which might retard their Journey, hastily
               read over these Lines.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="235"/>
                        </p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>
                                    <hi rend="italic">To the Worthy</hi> Count D’elmont.
                        <salute>MyLord,</salute>
                                </opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">If any Part of that Esteem you Profess’d to have for me, be
                        real, you will not deny the Request I make you to accept this Youth, who is
                        my Relation, in Quality of a Page: He is inclin’d to Travel, and of all
                        Places, France is that which he is most desirous of going to: If a diligent
                        Care, a faithful Secresy, and an Unceasing watchfulness to please, can
                        render him acceptable to your Service, I doubt not but he will, by those,
                        Recomend himself, hereafter: In the mean Time beg you will receive him on my
                        Word: And if that will be any Inducement to prejudice you in his Favour, I
                        assure you, that tho’ he is one degree nearer in Blood to my Father, he is
                        by many in Humour and Principles to</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>
                                    <signed>Violetta</signed>.</closer>
                  <postscript>
                     <p>P.S. <hi rend="italic">May Health Safety and Prosperity attend you in your
                           Journey, and all the Happiness you wish for, crown the End.</hi>
                                    </p>
                  </postscript>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>The Young <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi>, for so he was call’d, cou’d not wish to be
               receiv’d with greater Demonstrations of Kindness than those the Count gave him: And
               perceiving that <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> had trusted him with the whole Affair
               of their leaving <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi> in private, doubted not of his Conduct,
               and consulted with him, who they found knew the Place perfectly well, after what
               manner they should Watch, with the least danger of being discover’d, for <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>’s opening the Wicket: <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>
               was for going alone, lest if any of the Servants shou’d happen to be about, one
               Person would be<pb n="236"/> less liable to suspicion, than it a Company were seen; the Count
               thought it most proper to go all together, remembring <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> of the danger he had lately scap’d, and might again be brought
               into; but <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi> told them, he wou’d advise that they two
               should remain conceal’d in the <hi rend="italic">Portico</hi>, of the Convent of St.
                  <hi rend="italic">Francis</hi>, while himself wou’d watch alone at the Wicket for
                  <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, and lead her to them, and then afterwards they
               might go altogether to that Place where the Horses and Servants shou’d attend them;
               the Page’s Counsel was approv’d by both of them, and the time being arriv’d, what
               they had contriv’d was immediately put in Execution.</p>
            <p>Every thing happen’d according to their Desire, <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> got
               safely to the Arms of her impatient Lover, and they all taking Horse, rode with such
               Speed, as some of them wou’d have been little able to bear, if any thing less than
               Life and Love had been at Stake.</p>
            <p>Their eager wishes, and the goodness of their Horses brought them, before Day-break
               many Miles from <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>; but tho’ they avoided all high Roads,
               and travell’d cross the Country to prevent being met, or overtook by any that might
               know them, yet their desire of seeing themselves in a Place of Security was so great
               that they refus’d to stop to take any Refreshment ’till the next Day was almost
               spent; but when they were come into the House where they were to lye that Night, not
               all the fatigue they had endur’d, kept the Lovers from giving and receiving all the
               Testimonies imaginable of mutual Affection.</p>
            <p>The sight of their Felicity added new Wings to Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>’s impatience to recover <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, but when he
               consider’d the little probability of that hope, he grew inconsolable, and his new
               Page <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi>, who lay on a <hi rend="italic">Pallet</hi> in
               the same Room with him, put all his Wit, of which he had no small Stock, upon
               the<pb n="237"/> stretch to divert his Sorrows, he talk’d to him, sung to him, told him a
               hundred pretty Stories, and, in fine, made good the Character <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> had given him so well, that the Count look’d on him as a Blessing
               sent from Heaven to lessen his Misfortunes, and make his Woes sit easy.</p>
            <p>They continu’d Travelling with the same Expedition as when they first set out, for
               three or four Days, but then, believing themselves secure from any Pursuit, began to
               slacken their Pace, and make the Journey more delightful to <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi>, who not being accustomed to ride
               in that manner, wou’d never have been able to support it, if the strength of their
                  <hi rend="italic">Minds</hi>, had not by far, exceeded that of their <hi rend="italic">Bodies</hi>.</p>
            <p>They had gone so much about, in seeking the By-roads, that they made it three times
               as long before they arriv’d at <hi rend="italic">Avigno</hi>, a small Village on the
               Borders of <hi rend="italic">Italy</hi>, as any, that had come the direct way wou’d
               have done; but the Caution they had observ’d, was not altogether needless, as they
               presently found.</p>
            <p>A Gentleman who had been a particular Acquaintance of Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>’s, overtook them at this Place, and after expressing some
               Amazement to find ’em no farther on their Journey, told Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> he believ’d he cou’d inform him of some things which had happen’d
               since his Departure, and cou’d not yet have reach’d his Knowledge, which the other
               desiring him to do, the Gentleman began in this manner.</p>
            <p>It was no sooner Day, said he, than it was nois’d over all the City, that Donna <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, and your self,
               had privately left <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>; every Body spoke of it, according to
               their Humour; but the Friends of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> were outragious, a Complaint was immediately made to the <hi rend="italic">Consistory</hi>, and all imaginable Deligence us’d, to overtake, or
               stop<pb n="238"/> you, but you were so happy as to Escape, and the Pursuers return’d without
               doing any thing of what they went about: Tho’ <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>’s
               disappointment to all appearance, was the greatest, yet <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi> bore it with the least Patience, and having vainly rag’d, offer’d
               all the Treasure she was Mistress of, and perhaps spent the best part of it in
               fruitless means to bring you back, at last she swallow’d Poison, and in the raving
               agonies of Death, confess’d, that it was not the loss of <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, but Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> which was the Cause of
               her Despair: Her Death gave a fresh occasion of Grief to <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi>, but the Day in which she was interr’d, brought him yet a nearer;
               he had sent to his <hi rend="italic">Villa</hi> for his Daughter <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> to assist at the Funeral, and the Messenger return’d with the
               surprizing Account of her not having been there as she pretended she was, nothing was
               ever equal to the Rage, the Grief, and the Amazement of this distracted Father, when
               after the strictest Enquiry, and Search that cou’d be made, she was no where to be
               found or heard of, it threw him into a Fever, of which he linger’d but a small Time,
               and dy’d the same Day on which I left <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>.</p>
            <p>The Gentleman who made this recital, was entirely a Stranger to any of the Company
               but Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, and they were retired into a private
               Room during the time of their Conversation, which lasted not long; <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, was impatient to communicate to Camilla and <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> what he had heard, and as soon as Civility wou’d permit, took leave
               of the Gentleman.</p>
            <p>The Count had too much Compassion in his Nature not to be extreamly troubled when he
               was told this melancholly Catastrophe; but <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> said
               little; the ill usage of <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, and the impudent, and
               interested Pretensions of <hi rend="italic">Cittolini</hi> to her, kept her from
               being so much <hi rend="italic">concern’d</hi> at their Misfortunes, as she wou’d
               have been at any other Persons, and the generosity of her Temper, or some other
               Reason which<pb n="239"/> the Reader will not be ignorant of, hereafter, from expressing any
                  <hi rend="italic">Satisfaction</hi> in the Punishment they had met: But when the
               Count, who most of all lamented <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, express’d his
               Astonishment and Affliction, at her Elopement, she joyn’d with him in the Praises of
               that young Lady, with an eagerness which testify’d, she had no part in the Hatred she
               bore her Father.</p>
            <p>While they were discoursing, <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> observ’d, that <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi> who was all this while in the Room, grew very pale, and
               at last saw him drop on the Ground, quite Senseless, she run to him, as did his Lord,
               and Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, and after, by throwing Water in his
               Face, they brought him to himself again, he appear’d in such an Agony that they
               fear’d his Fit wou’d return, and order’d him to be laid on a Bed, and carefully
               attended.</p>
            <p>After they had taken a short Repast, they began to think of setting forward on their
               Journey, designing to reach <hi rend="italic">Piedmont</hi> that Night: The Count
               went himself to the Chamber where his Page was laid, and finding he was very ill,
               told him he thought it best for him to remain in that Place, that he wou’d order
               Physicians to attend him, and that when he was fully recover’d, he might follow them
               to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> with Safety. <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi> was ready
               to faint a second time at the hearing these Words, and with the most earnest
               Conjurations, accompany’d with Tears, begg’d that he might not be left behind: I can
               but die, said he, if I go with you, but I am sure, that nothing if I stay can <hi rend="italic">save</hi> me: The Count seeing him so pressing, sent for a <hi rend="italic">Litter</hi>, but there was none to be got, and in spite of what <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> or <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> cou’d say to
               diswade him, having his Lord’s Leave, he ventured to attend him as he had done the
               former part of the Journey.</p>
            <p>They Travell’d at an easy rate, because of <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi>’s
               Indisposition, and it being later than they imagin’d, Night came upon ’em before they
               were aware of it,<pb n="240"/> Usher’d in, by one of the most dreadful Storms that ever was;
               the Rain, the Hail; the Thunder, and the Lightning, was so Violent that it oblig’d
               ’em to mend their Pace to get into some Place of shelter, for there was no House
               near: But to make their Misfortune the greater, they miss’d the Road, and rode
               considerably out of their way, before they perceiv’d that they were wrong; the
               darkness of the Night, which had no Illumination than, now and then, a horrid flash
               of Lightning, the wildness of the Desart, which they had stray’d into, and the little
               Hopes they had of being able to get out of it, at least till Day, were sufficient to
               have struck Terror in the boldest Heart: <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> stood in need
               of all her Love, to Protect her from the Fears which were beginning to Assault her;
               but poor <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi> felt an inward Horror, which, by this
               dreadful Scene encreas’d, made him appear wholly desparate: Wretch that I am, cry’d
               he, ’tis for me the Tempest rises! I justly have incurr’d the wrath of Heaven,---and
               you who are Innocent, by my accurs’d Presence are drawn to share a Punishment only
               due to Crimes like Mine! In this manner he exclaim’d wringing his Hands in bitter
               Anguish, and rather <hi rend="italic">Exposing</hi> his lovely Face to all the Fury
               of the Storm, than any way endeavouring to <hi rend="italic">Defend</hi> it: His
               Lord, and the two generous Lovers, tho’ Harass’d almost to Death themselves, said all
               they cou’d to comfort him; the Count and Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>
               consider’d his Words, rather as the Effects of his Indisposition, and the fatigue he
               endur’d, than remorse for any Crime he cou’d have been guilty of, and the pity they
               had for one so young and innocent, made the cruelty of the Weather more insupportable
               to them.</p>
            <p>At last, after long wandring, and the Tempest still encreasing, one of the Servants,
               who was before, was happy enough to explore a Path, and cry’d out to his Lord with a
               great deal of Joy, of the Discovery he had made; they were all of Opinion that it
               must lead to some House, because the<pb n="241"/> Ground was beat down, as if with the Feet
               of Passengers, and entirely free from Stubble, Stones and stumps of Trees, as the
               other part of the Desart they come thro’ was Encumber’d with.</p>
            <p>They had not rode very far before they discern’d Lights, the Reader may imagine the
               Joy this Sight produc’d, and that they were not slow in making their approach,
               Encourag’d by such a wish’d for Signal of Success: When they came pretty near, they
               saw by the Number of Lights, which were dispers’d in several Rooms distant from each
               other, that it was a very large and magnificent House, and made no doubt, but that it
               was the Country-Seat of some Person of great Quality: The wet Condition they were in,
               made them almost asham’d of appearing, and they agreed not to Discover who they were,
               if they found they were unknown.</p>
            <p>They had no sooner knock’d, than the Gate was immediately open’d by a Porter, who
               asking their Business, the Count told him they were Gentlemen, who had been so
               Unfortunate to mistake the Road to <hi rend="italic">Piedmont</hi>, and desir’d the
               Owners leave for Refuge in his House, for that Night; that is a Curtesy, said the
               Porter, which my Lord never refuses; and in Confidence of his Assent, I may venture
               to desire you to alight, and bid you welcome: They all accepted the Invitation, and
               were conducted into a stately Hall, where they waited not long before the Marquess
                  <hi rend="italic">De Saguillier</hi>, having been inform’d they appear’d like
               People of Condition, came himself to confirm the Character his Servant had given of
               his Hospitality. He was a Man perfectly well Bred, and in spite of the Disadvantages
               their Fatigue had subjected them to, he saw something in the Countenance of these
               Travellers, which commanded his Respect, and engag’d him to receive them with a more
               than ordinary Civility.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="242"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Almost the first thing the Count desir’d, was, that his Page might be taken care of;
               he was presently carry’d to Bed, and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> (to whom the
               Marquess made a thousand Apologies, that being a Batchellor, he cou’d not Accommodate
               her, as he cou’d the Gentlemen) was show’d to a Chamber, where some of the Maid
               Servants attended to put her on dry Cloaths.</p>
            <p>They were splendidly Entertain’d that Night, and when Morning came, and they were
               preparing to take Leave, the Marquess, who was strangely Charm’d with their
               Conversation, Entreated them to stay two or three Days with him, to recover
               themselves of the Fatigue they had suffer’d: The Count’s impatience to be at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, to enquire after his Dear <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, wou’d never have permitted him to consent, if he had not been
               oblig’d to it, by being told, that <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi> was grown much
               worse, and not in a Condition to Travel; <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> had said nothing, because they wou’d not Oppose the <hi rend="italic">Count</hi>’s Inclination, but were extreamly glad of an Opportunity
               to rest a little longer, tho sorry for the Occasion.</p>
            <p>The Marquess omitted nothing that might make their Stay agreeable; but tho’ he had a
               longing Inclination to know the Names, and Quality of his Guests, he forbore to ask,
               since he found they were not free to discover themselves: The Conversation between
               these accomplish’d Persons was extreamly Entertaining, and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, tho’ an <hi rend="italic">Italian</hi>, spoke <hi rend="italic">French</hi> well enough to make no inconsiderable part of it; the Themes of their
               Discourse were various, but at last happning to mention Love, the Marquess spoke of
               that Passion so feelingly, and express’d himself so vigorously when he attempted to
               excuse any of those Errors, it leads its Votaries into, that it was easy to Discover,
               he felt the Influence he endeavour’d to represent.</p>
            <p>
                            <pb n="243"/>
                        </p>
            <p>Night came on again, <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi>’s Distemper encreas’d to that
               degree, that they all began to despair of his Recovery, at least they cou’d not hope
               it for a long Time, if at all, and Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> fretted
               beyond measure at this unavoidable delay of the progress of his Journey to that
               Place, where he thought there was only a possibility of hearing of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>: As he was in Bed, forming a thousand various Idea’s, tho’ all
               tending to one Object, he heard the Chamber Door unlock, and opening his Curtains
               perceiv’d somebody come in; a Candle was burning in the next Room, and gave Light
               enough at the opening the Door, to show it was a Woman, but what Sort of one he cou’d
               not Discern, nor did he give himself the trouble of asking who was there, believing
               it might be one of the Servants come in to fetch something she wanted, ’till coming
               pretty near the Bed, she cry’d twice in a low Voice, are you a Sleep, no, answer’d
               he, a little surpriz’d at this Disturbance; what wou’d you have? I come said she, to
               talk to you, and I hope you are more a <hi rend="italic">Chevalier</hi>, than to
               prefer a little Sleep, to the Conversation of a Lady, tho’ she Visits you at
               Midnight: These words made <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> believe he had met with a
               second <hi rend="italic">Ciamara</hi>, and lest he shou’d find the same Trouble with
               this as he had done with the former, he resolv’d to put a stop to it at once, and
               with an Accent as peevish as he cou’d turn his Voice to, the Conversation of Ladies
               reply’d he, is a Happiness I neither Deserve, nor much Desire at any Time, especially
               at this; therefore whoever you are, to oblige me, you must leave me to the freedom of
               my Thoughts, which at present afford me matter of Entertainment more suitable to my
               Humour than any thing I can find here! Oh Heavens! Said the Lady, is this the
               Courtly, the Accomplish’d Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>? So fam’d for
               Complaisance and Sweetness? Can it be he, who thus rudely Repels a Lady, when she
               comes to make him a Present of her Heart? The Count was very much amaz’d to find he
               was known in a Place<pb n="244"/> where he thought himself wholly a Stranger, I perceive,
               answer’d he, with more Ill-humour if possible, than before, you are very well
               acquainted with my Name, which I shall never deny (tho’ for some Reasons I conceal’d
               it) but not at all with my Character, or you wou’d know, I can esteem the Love of a
               Woman, only when ’tis <hi rend="italic">Granted</hi>, and think it little worth
               acceptance, <hi rend="italic">Proffer’d</hi>. Oh unkind! Said she, but perhaps the
               sight of me, may inspire you with Sentiments less Cruel: With these Words she went
               hastily out of the Room to fetch the Candle she had left within; and the Count was so
               much surpriz’d and vex’d at the Immodesty and Imprudence he believ’d her Guilty of,
               that he thought he cou’d not put a greater affront upon her, than her Behaviour
               deserv’d, and turn’d himself with his Face the other way, designing to deny her the
               satisfaction even of a look; she return’d immediately, and having set down the Candle
               pretty near the Bed, came close to it her self, and seeing how he was laid; this is
               unkind indeed, said she, ’tis but one look I ask, and if you think me unworthy of
               another, I will for ever shun your Eyes: The Voice in which these Words were
               deliver’d, for those she spoke before were in a feign’d Accent, made the
               Heart-ravish’d <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> turn to her indeed, with much more
               hast, than he had done to avoid her; those Dear, those well-remember’d sounds infus’d
               an Extacy, which none but <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s cou’d create; he
               hear’d---he saw,---’twas she, that very she, whose Loss he had so much deplor’d, and
               began almost to despair of ever being able to Retrieve! Forgetting all Decorum, he
               flew out of the Bed, catch’d her in his Arms, and almost stifl’d her with Kisses;
               which she returning with pretty near an equal eagerness, you will not chide me from
               you now she cry’d? Those who have Experienc’d any part of that Transport, <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> now was in, will know it was impossible for him to
               give her any other Answer, than repeating his Caresses; Words were too poor to
               Express what ’twas he felt, nor had he time to spare for Speech, employ’d in a far
               dearer,<pb n="245"/> softer Oratory, than all the force of Language cou’d come up to!</p>
            <p>But, when at last, to gaze upon her with more freedom, he releas’d her from that
               strict Embrace he had held her in, and she blushing, with down cast Eyes, began to
               reflect on the Effects of her unbounded passion, a sudden pang seiz’d on his Soul,
               and trembling, and convuls’d between extremity of <hi rend="italic">Joy</hi>, and
               extremity of <hi rend="italic">Anguish</hi>, I find thee <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, cry’d he; but Oh, my Angel! Where is it thou art found?---in the
               House of the young Amorous <hi rend="italic">Marquess D’Sanguillier!</hi> Cease,
               cease, interrupted she, your causeless Fears,----where ever I am found, I am,----I
               can be only yours.----And if you will return to Bed, I will Inform you, not only what
               Accident brought me hither, but also every particular of my Behaviour since I
               came.</p>
            <p>These Words first put the Count in mind of the Indecency his Transport had made him
               Guilty of, in being seen in that manner, and was going hastily to throw on his Night
               Gown, when <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> perceiving his Intent, and fearing he
               wou’d take cold, told him she wou’d not stay a Moment, unless he granted her Request
               of returning to his Bed, which he, after having made her sit down on the Side of it,
               at last consented to: And contenting himself with taking one of her Hands, and
               pressing it between his, close Prisoner in his Bosom, gave her Liberty to begin in
               this Manner, the Discovery she had Promis’d.</p>
            <p>After the sad Accident of <hi rend="italic">Alovysa</hi>’s Death, said she, at my
               return to the Monastry I found a new <hi rend="italic">Pensioner</hi> there; it was
               the young <hi rend="italic">Madamoselle Charlotta D’Mezray</hi>, who being lately
               left an Orphan, was entrusted to the Care of our <hi rend="italic">Abbess</hi>, being
               her near Relation ’till her time of Mourning was expir’d, and she shou’d be married
               to this Marquess <hi rend="italic">D’Sanguillier</hi>, at whose House we are; they
               were Contracted by their Parents in their Infancy, and nothing but the sudden Death
               of<pb n="246"/> her Mother, had put a stop to the Consummation of what, <hi rend="italic">then</hi>, they both wish’d with equal Ardour: But alas! Heaven which decreed the
               little Beauty I am Mistress of, shou’d be pernicious to my own repose, ordain’d it
               so, that this unfaithful Lover, seeing me one Day at the <hi rend="italic">Grate</hi>
               with <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, shou’d fancy he found something in <hi rend="italic">Me</hi> more worthy of creating a Passion, than he had in her, and
               began to wish himself releas’d from his Engagement with her, that he might have
               Liberty to enter into another, which he imagin’d wou’d be more pleasing: Neither she,
               nor I had the least suspicion of his Sentiments, and we having commenc’d a very great
               Friendship, she wou’d for the most part, desire me to partake in the Visits he made
               her: He still continu’d to make the same protestations of Affection to her as ever;
               but if on any occasion, she but turn’d her Head, or cast her Eyes another way, he
               wou’d give me such looks, as, tho’ I then but little regarded, I have since
               understood the meaning of, but too well; in this manner he proceeded for some Weeks,
               ’till at last he came one Day extreamly out of Humour, and told <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> the occasion of it was, that he had heard she gave Encouragement
               to some other Lover; she, amaz’d, as well she might, Avow’d her Innocence, and
               endeavour’d to Undeceive him, but he, who resolv’d not to be convinc’d, at least not
               to seem as if he was, pretended to be more enrag’d at what he call’d weak Excuses;
               said, he was satisfy’d she was more Guilty, even than he wou’d speak,----that he knew
               not if it were consistent with his Honour, ever to see her more.---And in short,
               behav’d himself in so unaccountable a manner, that there was no room to Doubt that he
               was either the most <hi rend="italic">Impos’d</hi> on, or most <hi rend="italic">Base</hi> of Men: It wou’d be endless for me to endeavour to represent poor <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>’s affliction. So I shall only say, it was answerable
               to the Tenderness she had for him, which, cou’d by nothing be exceeded, but by that,
               continu’d she Sighing, and looking Languishingly on him, which contrary to all the
               Resolutions I had made, brings <hi rend="italic">me</hi>
                            <pb n="247"/> to seek the Arms of my
               Enchanting <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, to rouze Remembrance of his former
               Passion! To strengthen my Idea in his Heart! And Influence him a new with Love and
               Softness! This kind Digression made the Count give Truce to his <hi rend="italic">Curiosity</hi>, that he might Indulge the Raptures of his <hi rend="italic">Love</hi>, and raising himself in Bed, and pressing her slender fine proportioned
               Body close to his, wou’d permit her no otherwise, than in this Posture to continue
               her Discourse.</p>
            <p>Several Days resum’d <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, were past, and we heard nothing
               of the Marquess, all which, as he has since told me, were spent in fruitless
               Projections to steal me from the Monastry; but at last, by the means of a <hi rend="italic">Lay Sister</hi>, he found means to convey a Letter to me; the
               Contents of it, as near as I can remember, were these.</p>
            <floatingText>
               <body>
                  <opener>
                                    <hi rend="italic">To the Divine</hi>Melliora.</opener>
                  <p>
                                    <hi rend="italic">’Tis not the falshood of Charlotta, but the Charms of
                        Melliora have produc’d this Change in my Behaviour, do not therefore, at the
                        reading this, affect a surprize at Effects, which I am sure cannot be
                        uncommon to such Excellence! Nor accuse an Inconstancy, which I rather
                        esteem a Virtue than a Vice: To Change from you indeed wou’d be the highest
                        Sin, as well as Stupidity: but to Change for you, is what all must, and
                        ought to do, who boast a Capacity of distinguishing. I love you, Oh Divinest
                        Melliora, I burn, I languish for you in unceasing Torments, and you wou’d
                        find it impossible for you to condemn the boldness<pb n="248"/> of this Declaration,
                        if you cou’d be sensible of the Racks which force me to it, and which must
                        shortly End me, if not happy enough to be receiv’d</hi>
                                </p>
                  <closer>Your Lover,<lb/>
                     <signed>D’Sanguillier.</signed>
                                </closer>
               </body>
            </floatingText>
            <p>’Tis impossible for me to express the Grief, and Vexation this Letter gave me, but I
               forbore showing it to <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, knowing how much it would
               encrease her Anguish, and resolv’d when next I saw him, as I made no doubt but I
               should quickly do, to use him in such a fashion, as in spite of his Vanity, shou’d
               make him know I was not to be won in such a manner; for I confess, my dear <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, that his Timerity gave no less a shock to my <hi rend="italic">Pride</hi>, than his Infidelity to her I really lov’d, did to my <hi rend="italic">Friendship</hi>. The next Day I was told, a Gentleman enquir’d for
               me, I presently imagin’d it was he, and went to the Grate, with a Heart full of
               Indignation; I was not deceiv’d in my Conjecture, it was indeed the Marquess, who
               appear’d on the other side, but with so much Humility in his Eyes, and awful fear,
               for what he saw in Mine, as half disarm’d my Anger for what concern’d my self, and
               had his Passion not proceeded from his Inconstancy, I might have been drawn to <hi rend="italic">pity</hi> what was not in my Power to Reward; but his base Usage of
               a Woman so deserving as <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, made me Express my self in
               Terms full of Disdain and Detestation, and without allowing him to Reply, or make any
               Excuses, pluck’d the Letter he had sent me out of my Pocket, with a design to return
               it him, just at that Moment when a <hi rend="italic">Nun</hi> came hastily to call me
               from the Grate: Some body had over-heard the beginning of what I said, and had told
               the <hi rend="italic">Abbess</hi>, who, tho’ she was not displeas’d at what she heard
               of my Behaviour to him, yet she thought it improper for me to hold any Discourse with
               a Man, who declar’d<pb n="249"/> himself my Lover: I did not, however, let her know who the
               Person was, fearing it might come to <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>’s Ears, and
               encrease an Affliction, which was already too violent: I was vext to miss the
               Opportunity of giving back his Letter, but kept it still about me, not in the least
               Questioning, but that boldness which had encourag’d him to make a discovery of his
               Desires, wou’d again lead him to the Prosecution of them in the same manner, but I
               was deceiv’d, his Passion prompted him to take other, as he believ’d, more effectual
               Measures: One Day, at least a Fortnight after I had seen the <hi rend="italic">Marquess</hi>, as I was walking in the Garden with <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, and another young <hi rend="italic">Pensioner</hi>, a Fellow who
               was imploy’d in taking away Rubbish, told us there were some Statues carry’d by the
               Gate, which open’d into the Fields, which were the greatest Master-pieces of Art that
               had ever been seen: They are going, said he, to be plac’d in the <hi rend="italic">Seiur Valiers</hi> Garden, if you step but out, you may get a Sight of them: We,
               who little suspected any Deceit, run without Consideration, to satisfie our
               Curiosity, but instead of the Statues we expected to see, four Living Men disguis’d,
               muffl’d, and well Mounted, came Galloping up to us, and, as it were surrounded us,
               before we had Time to get back to the Gate we came out at: Three of them alighting,
               seiz’d me and my Companions, and I, who was the destin’d Prey, was in a Moment thrown
               into the Arms of him who was on Horseback, and who no sooner receiv’d me, than as if
               we had been mounted on a <hi rend="italic">Pegasus</hi>, we seem’d rather to <hi rend="italic">fly</hi> than <hi rend="italic">Ride</hi>; in vain I struggl’d,
               shriek’d, and cry’d to Heaven for help, my Prayers were lost in Air, as quickly was
               my Speech, surprize, and rage, and dread, o’rewhelm’d my sinking Spirits, and unable
               to sustain the Rapidity of such violent Emotions, I fell into a Swoon, from which I
               recover’d not, till was at the Door of some House, but where I yet am ignorant; the
               first thing I saw, when I open’d my Eyes, was one of those Men who had been Assistant
               in my carrying away, and was now about to lift<pb n="250"/> me from the Horse: I had not yet
               the power to Speak, but when I had, I vented all the Passions of my Soul in terms
               full of Distraction and Despair: By what means the People of the House were gain’d to
               my Ravishers Interest, I know not, but they took little Notice of the Complaints I
               made, or my Implorations for Succour: I had now, not the least shadow of a Hope, that
               any thing but Death cou’d save me from Dishonour, and having vainly Rag’d, I at last
               sate down meditating by what means I shou’d Compass that only Relief from the worse
               Ruin which seem’d to threaten me: While my Thoughts were thus employ’d, he who
               appear’d the chief of that insolent Company, making a Sign that the rest shou’d
               withdraw, fell on his Knees before me, and plucking off his Vizard, discover’d to me
               the Face of the Marquess <hi rend="italic">D’Sanguillier</hi>. Heavens! How did this
               Sight inflame me? Mild as I am, by Nature, I that Moment was all Fury!----Till now I
               had not the least Apprehension who he was, and believ’d ’twas rather my <hi rend="italic">Fortune</hi> than my <hi rend="italic">Person</hi>, which had
               prompted some daring Wretch to take this Method to obtain it; but now, my Woes
               appear’d, if possible, with greater Horror, and his Quality and Engagement with <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> made the Act seem yet more Base. I blame you not,
               said he, Oh Divinest <hi rend="italic">Melliora!</hi> The Presumption I am guilty of,
               is of so high a Nature, as justly may deserve your utmost Rigour!-----I know, and
               confess my Crime; Nay, hate my self for thus offending you.--But Oh? ’Tis
               unavoidable.---be then, like Heaven, who when Injured most, takes most delight to
               pardon: Crimes unrepented, answer’d I, can have no plea for Mercy, still to persist,
               and still to ask forgiveness, is <hi rend="italic">Mocking</hi> of the Power we seem
               to <hi rend="italic">Implore</hi>, and but encreases Sin.----Release me from this
               Captivity, which you have betray’d me into, Restore me to the Monastry----And for the
                  <hi rend="italic">future</hi>, cease to shock my Ears with Tales of violated
               Faith, detested Passion! Then, I perhaps, <hi rend="italic">may</hi> pardon what is
                  <hi rend="italic">past</hi>. His reply to all this was very little to the Purpose,
               only I perceiv’d he was so far from<pb n="251"/> complying with my Request, or repenting what
               he had done, that he resolv’d to proceed yet further, and one of his Associates
               coming in, to tell him that his Chariot, which it seems he had order’d to meet him
               there, was ready, he offer’d to take me by the Hand to lead me to it, which I
               refusing, with an Air which testify’d the Indignation of my Soul, Madam, said he, you
               are not here less in my Power, than you will be in a Place, where I can Accommodate
               you in a manner more suitable to your Quality, and the Adoration I have for you: If I
               were capable of a base Design on you, what hinders but I now might perpetrate it? But
               be assur’d, your Beauties are not of that kind, which inspire Sentiments
               dishonourable; nor shall you ever find any other Treatment from me, than what might
               become the humblest of your Slaves; my Love, fierce as it is, shall know it’s Limits,
               and never dare to Breath an Accent less Chast than your own Virgin Dreams, and
               Innocent as your Desires.</p>
            <p>Tho’ the boldness he had been guilty of, and still persisted in, made me give but
               little Credit to the latter part of his Speech, yet the Beginning of it awak’d my
               Consideration to a reflection, that I cou’d not indeed be any where in a greater
               danger of the Violence I fear’d, than where I was; but on the contrary, it might so
               happen, that in leaving that Place, I might possibly meet some Persons who might know
               me, or at least be carry’d somewhere, whence I might with more likelihood, make my
               Escape: In this last Hope, I went into the Chariot, and indeed, to do him justice,
               neither in our Journey, nor since I came into his House, has he ever violated the
               Promise he made me; nothing can be with more Humility than his Addresses to me, never
               Visiting me without first having obtain’d my leave! But to return to the particulars
               of my Story, I had not been here many Days, before a Servant-Maid of the House, being
               in my Chamber doing something about me, ask’d me if it were possible I cou’d forget
               her; the Question<pb n="252"/> surpriz’d me, but I was much more so, when looking earnestly
               in her Face, which I had never done before, I perfectly distinguish’d the Features of
                  <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>: Oh Heavens! cry’d I, <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>! The very same, said she, but I dare not stay now to unfold the
               Mistery, lest any of the Family take Notice; at Night when I undress you, you shall
               know the History of my Transformation.</p>
            <p>Never any Day seem’d so long to me as that, and I feign’d my self indispos’d, and
               rung my Bell for some body to come up, several Hours before the time I us’d to go to
               Bed, <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> guessing my impatience, took care to be in the
               way, and as soon as she was with me, not staying for my Requesting it of her, begun
               the Information she had promis’d, in this manner.</p>
            <p>You see, said she, forcing her self to put on a half smile, your unhappy Rival
               follows to interrupt the Triumph of your Conquest; but I protest to you, that if I
               thought you esteem’d my perjur’d Lover’s Heart an offering worthy your Acceptance, I
               never wou’d have disturb’d your happiness, and ’tis as much the Hopes of being able
               to be Instrumental in serving you in your Releasment, as the prevention of that
               Blessing the injurious <hi rend="italic">D’Sanguillier</hi> aims at, which has
               brought me here: Of all the Persons that bewail’d your being carry’d away, I was the
               only one who had any Guess at the Ravisher, nor had I been so wise, but that the very
               Day on which it happen’d, you drop’d a Letter, which I took up, and knowing it the
                  <hi rend="italic">Marquess</hi>’s Hand, made no scruple of Reading it. I had no
               opportunity to upbraid you for the concealment of his falshood, but the manner of
               your being seiz’d, convinc’d me you were Innocent of favouring his Passion, and his
               Vizard flipping a little on one Side, as he took you in his Arms, discover’d enough
               of that Face, I have so much ador’d, for me to know who it was, that had took this
               Method to gain you: I will<pb n="253"/> not continu’d she, weeping, trouble you with any
               Recital of what I endur’d from the Knowledge of my Misfortune, but you may judge it
               by my Love, however, I bore up against the Oppressive weight, and resolv’d to
               struggle with my Fate, even to the Last; I made an Excuse for leaving the Monastry
               the next Day, without giving any suspicion of the Cause, or letting any body into the
               Secret of the Marquess, and Disguis’d as you see, found means to be receiv’d by the
               House-keeper, as a Servant, I came here in three Days after you, and have had the
               opportunity of being confirm’d by your Behaviour, of what I before believ’d, that you
               were far from being an Assistant in his Design.</p>
            <p>Here the sorrowful <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> finish’d her little Account, and
               I testify’d the Joy I felt in seeing her, by a thousand Embraces, and all the
               Protestations of Eternal Friendship to her, that I could make: All the times we had
               any opportunity of Talking to each other, were spent in forming Schemes for my
               Escape, but none of them appear’d feasible; however the very Contrivance was a kind
               of Pleasure to me, for tho’ I began to banish all my Fears of the Marquess’s offering
               any violence to my Virtue, yet I found his Passion wou’d not permit him to suffer my
               Departure, and I was almost Distracted when I had no Hopes of being in a Capacity of
               hearing from you, or writing to you: In this fashion, my dearest <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> have I liv’d, sometimes flattering my self with vain Projects,
               sometimes desponding of being ever free: But last Night, <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> coming up, according to her Custom, told me in a kind of Rapture,
               that you, and my Brother were in the House, she, it seems knew you at <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi> while her Mother was yet Living, and to make her entirely
               easy as to the Marquess, I had now made her the Confidant of my Sentiments concerning
               you: I need not tell you the Extacy this News gave me, you are too well acquainted
               with my Heart, not to be able to conceive it more justly than<pb n="254"/> Language can
               Express; but I cannot forbear Informing you of one thing, of which you are ignorant,
               tho’ had Prudence any share in this Love-directed Soul, I shou’d conceal it: My
               impatience to behold you, was almost equal to my Joy to think you were so near, and
               transported with my eager wishes, by <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>’s Assistance, I
               last Night found the way into your Chamber: I saw you, Oh <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>! My longing Eyes enjoy’d the satisfaction they so much desir’d, but
               yours were clos’d, the Fatigue of your Journey had laid you fast a Sleep, so fast,
               that even Fancy was unactive, and no kind Dream, alarm’d you with one Thought of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>!</p>
            <p>She cou’d not pronounce these last Words very Intelligibly, the greedy Count devour’d
               ’em as she spoke, and tho’ Kisses had made many a Parenthesis in her Discourse, yet
               he restrain’d himself as much as possible, for the Pleasure of hearing her; but
               perceiving she was come to a Period, he gave a loose to all the furious Transports of
               his ungovern’d Passion: A while their Lips were Cemented! Rivetted together with
               Kisses, such Kisses! As Collecting every Sence in one, exhale the very Soul, and
               mingle Spirits! Breathless with bliss, then wou’d they pause and gaze, then joyn
               again, with Ardour still encreasing, and Looks, and Sighs, and straining Grasps were
               all the Eloquence that either cou’d make use of: Fain wou’d he now have obtain’d the
               aim of all his Wishes, strongly he press’d, and faintly she repuls’d: Dissolv’d in
               Love, and melting in his Arms, at last she found no Words to form Denials, while he,
               all fire, improv’d the lucky Moment, a thousand Liberties he took.----A thousand Joys
               he reap’d, and had infallibly been possest of all, if <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, who seeing it broad Day, had not wonder’d at <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>’s stay, and come and knock’d at the Chamber Door, which not being
               fasten’d, gave way to her Entrance, but she made not such hast, but that they had
               time enough to Disengage themselves from that close Embrace they had held each<pb n="255"/>
               other in: Heavens! <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, cry’d the careful Interrupter,
               what mean you by this stay, which may be so prejudicial to our Designs; the Marquess
               is already stirring, and if he shou’d come into this Room, or send to yours, what
               might be the Consequence: I come, I come, said <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>,
               alarm’d at what she heard, and rising from the Bed-side: Oh, you will not, said the
               Count in a Whisper, and tenderly pressing her Hand, you must not leave me thus! A few
               Hours hence, answer’d she aloud, I hope to have the Power to own my self all yours,
               nor can the Scheme we have laid fail of the Effects we wish, if no Discovery happens
               to Postpone it: She was going with <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> out of the
               Chamber, with these Words, but remembring her self, she turn’d hastily back, let not
               my Brother, Resum’d she, know my Weakness, and when you see me next, feign a surprize
               equal to his own.</p>
            <p>It is not to be suppos’d that after she was gone, <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>,
               tho’ kept awake all Night, cou’d suffer any Sleep to enter his Eyes; excess of Joy of
               all the Passions, hurries the Spirits most, and keeps ’em longest busied: <hi rend="italic">Anger</hi> or <hi rend="italic">Grief</hi>, rage violently at first,
               but quickly flag, and sink at last into a Lethargy, but <hi rend="italic">Pleasure</hi> warms, exhillerates the Soul, and every rapturous Thought infuses
               new Desires, new Life, and added Vigour.</p>
            <p>The Marquess <hi rend="italic">D’Sanguillier</hi> was no less happy in imagination
               than the Count, and it was the force of that Passion which had rouz’d him so early
               that Morning, and made him wait impatiently for his Guests coming out of their
               Chambers, for he wou’d not disturb them: As soon as they were all come into the
               Drawing-Room, I know not Messiures, said he, with a Voice and Eyes wholly chang’d
               from those he wore the Day before, whether you have ever Experienc’d the force of
               Love to that Degree that I have, but I dare believe you have Generosity enough to
               rejoyce in the good Fortune I am going to be<pb n="256"/> possess’d of; and when I shall
               inform you how I have long languish’d in a Passion, perhaps, the most extravagant
               that ever was, you will confess the Justice of that God, who soon or late, seldom
               suffers his faithful Votaries to miss their Reward: The Count cou’d not force himself
               to a Reply to these Words, but <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, who were entirely Ignorant of the Cause of them,
               heartily Congratulated him. I am Confident, resum’d the Marquess, that Despair has no
               Existance but in weak and timerous Minds, all Women may be won by Force or Stratagem,
               and tho’ I had, almost, invincible Difficulties to struggle with, Patience,
               Constancy, and a bold and artful Management has at length surmounted them: Hopeless
               by Distant Courtship to obtain the <hi rend="italic">Heart</hi> of my Adorable, I
               found means to make my self Master of her <hi rend="italic">Person</hi>, and by
               making no other use of the Power I had over her, than humbly Sighing at her Feet,
               convinc’d her my Designs were far from being Dishonourable; and last Night, looking
               on me, with more kindness than she had ever done before: My Lord, said she, your
               Usage of me has been too Noble, not to vanquish what ever Sentiments I may have been
               possest with to your Prejudice, therefore since you have Company in the House, who
               may be Witness of what I do, I think I cannot chuse a fitter time, than this, to
               bestow my self, before them, on him who most Deserves me: I will not now, continu’d
               he, delay the Confirmation of my Happiness so long, as to go about to describe the
               Extacy I felt, for this so wish’d, and so unhop’d a Condescension, but when,
               hereafter, you shall be told the whole History of my Passion, you will be better able
               to conceive it; the Marquess had scarce done speaking, when his Chaplain came into
               the Room, saying, he believ’d it was the Hour his Lordship order’d him to attend; it
               is! it is, cry’d the transported Marquess. Now my worthy Guests you shall behold the
               lovely Author of my Joys; with these Words he left them, but immediately return’d,
               leading the intended Bride: Monsieur<pb n="257"/>
               <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, tho’ he had not seen his Sister in some Years,
               knew her at the first Glimpse, and the Surprize of meeting her----Meeting her in so
               unexpected a manner was so great, that his Thoughts were quite confounded with it,
               and he cou’d no otherwise Express it, than by throwing his Eyes wildly, sometimes on
               her, sometimes on the Count, and sometimes on the Marquess; the Count tho’ appris’d
               of this, felt a Consternation for the Consequence little inferior to his, and both
               being kept silent by their different Agitations, and the Marquess, by the sudden
               Change, which he perceiv’d in their Countenances, <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> had
               liberty to explain her self in this manner. I have kept my Word, my Lord, said she to
               the Marquess, this Day shall give me to him who best deserves me; but who that is, my
               Brother and Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> must determine, since Heaven has
               restor’d them to me, all Power of disposing of my self must cease; ’tis they must,
               henceforth, rule the will of <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, and only their consent
               can make me yours; all Endeavours wou’d be vain to represent the Marquess’s confusion
               at this sudden Turn, and ’tis hard to say whether his Astonishment, or Vexation was
               greatest; her Brother he wou’d little have regarded, not doubting but his Quality,
               and the Riches he was possest of, wou’d easily have gain’d his Compliance; but Count
                  <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, tho’ he knew him not (having, for some disgust he
               receiv’d at Court, been many Years absent from <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>,) yet he
               had heard much talk of him; and the Passion he had for <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, by the Adventure of <hi rend="italic">Alovysa</hi>’s Death, had
               made too great a Noise in the World not to have reach’d his Ears; he stood Speechless
               for some time, but when he had a little recover’d himself, have you then Deceiv’d me,
               Madam, Said he? No, answer’d she, I am still ready to perform my promise, whenever
               these Gentlemen shall command me.----The one my Brother, the other my Guardian,
               obtain but their Consent, and----Mine, he can never have, Interrupted <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> hastily, and laying his Hand on his Sword. Nor<pb n="258"/>
               mine, cry’d the Count, while I have Breath to form Denials, or my Arm strength to
               Guard my Beauteous Charge; hold Brother,----Hold, my Lord, said <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, fearing their Fury wou’d produce some fatal Effects, the <hi rend="italic">Marquess</hi> has been so truly Noble, that you rather ought to
               Thank, than resent his Treatment of me, and tho’ I see Rage in <hi rend="italic">your</hi> Eyes, and all the Stings of disappointment glowing fierce in <hi rend="italic">his</hi>, yet I have Hopes, a general Content may Crown the
               End.----Appear! Continu’d she, raising her Voice, appear! Thou lovely faithful Maid!
               Come forth and Charm thy roving Lovers Heart again to Constancy, to Peace, and thee!
               She had no sooner spoke, then <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> entred, drest like a
               Bride indeed, in a Suit of Cloaths, which she had brought with her, in case any happy
               Opportunity shou’d arise for her to discover herself: If the <hi rend="italic">Marquess</hi> was before confounded, how much more so was he now? That injur’d
               Ladies Presence, just at this juncture, and the Surprize by what means she came
               there, made him utterly unable to resolve on any thing, which she observing, and
               taking advantage of his Confusion, run to him, and catching hold of his Hand; wonder
               not my Lord, said she, to see <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> here, nothing is
               impossible to Love like mine, tho’ slighted and abandon’d by you, still I pursue your
               Steps with Truth, with Tenderness, and Constancy untir’d!---Then, perceiving he still
               was silent, come, my Lord, continu’d she, you must at last take Pity on my
               Sufferings, my Rival, Charming as she is, wants a just sensibility of your Deserts,
               and is by that, less worthy even than I; Oh, then remember, if not to me, what ’tis
               you owe your self your own exhalted Merits, and you will soon determine in my Favour,
               and confess that she, who knows you best, ought most to have you; she spoke these
               Words in so moving an Accent, and they were accompany’d with so many Tears, that the
               most rocky Heart must have relented, and that the Marquess was sensibly touch’d with
               ’em, his Countenance Testify’d, when sighing, and turning his Head a little away, not
               with disdain, but Remorse,<pb n="259"/> for the Infidelity he had been guilty of: Oh, cease,
               said he, this Flood of Softness, it gives me Pains I never felt before, for ’tis
               impossible you can forgive---Oh Heaven! cry’d the transported <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, all you have done, or ever can do of Unkindness, is by one tender
               Word made full amends for; see at your Feet, (continued she, falling on her Knees)
               thus in this humble Posture, which best becomes my prostrate Soul, I beg you to
               accept the Pardon which I bring, to banish from your Mind all Thoughts that you have
               injured me, and leave it free from all the generous Joys, the making others happy,
               must create: This Action of <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>’s, join’d to the
               Reflection, how strangely every Thing happen’d to prevent his Designs on the other,
               won him entirely, and raising her with a tender Embrace, put it out of her Power to
               regret his ever being False, since his Return gave her a Taste of Joys, which are
               not, but in Reconciliation to be found.</p>
            <p>The Count, Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, and the two Ladies who had
               waited all this while in an impatient Expectation for the end of this Affair, now
               paid their several Congratulations, all highly applauding the Constancy of <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>, and the timely Repentance of the Marquess: These
               Ceremonies being over, the Marquess desir’d <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> to
               acquaint him by what means she had gain’d Admittance to his House unknown to him;
               which Curiosity she immediately satisfying, engag’d a new, the Praises of the whole
               Company, and more endear’d herself to her belov’d Marquess’s Affections.</p>
            <p>Tranquility now reign’d in those Hearts, which lately heav’d with various and
               disturb’d Emotions, and Joy sate smiling upon every Cheek, entirely happy in their
               several Wishes: They could now talk of past Woes with Pleasure, and began to enter
               into a very delightful Conversation, when <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> on a
               sudden missing <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, and asking for her, one<pb n="260"/> of the
               Servants told him she was gone to the Sick Page’s Chamber, this News gave him some
               little alarm, and the rather, because he had observ’d she expressed a more than
               ordinary Tenderness and Care for this Page, all the Time of their Journey; he ran
               immediately to the Room where he heard she was, and found her lying on the Bed, with
               her Arms round <hi rend="italic">Fidelio</hi>’s Neck, and her Face close to his; this
               shocking Sight had certainly driven the Rashness of his Temper to commit some Deed of
               Horror, if the Amazement he was in had not prevented it; he drew his Sword half out,
               but then, as if some Spell had charm’d his Arm, remain’d in that Posture, fix’d and
               motionless as Marble: <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> half blinded with the Tears
               which fell from her Eyes, saw not the Confusion he was in, nor considered the seeming
               Reason he had to be so, but raising her Head a little to see who it was that came
               into the Chamber, Oh <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>! said she, see here the Ruins
               of Love, behold the Tyranny of that fatal Passion in this expiring Fair! But haste,
               contin’d she, finding him ready to faint, let Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>
               know, the faithful, generous <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>! Dies---she dies for
               him, and asks no other Recompence, than a last Farewell--<hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>! interrupted <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, what means <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>? This, this is <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>, resum’d
               she, who like a Page disguis’d, has followed the too lovely Count, and lost herself:
               The Rage which at his first Entrance had possest the Heart of <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, now gave Way to Grief, and coming near the Bed, he began to
               testify it, by all the Marks which an unfeign’d Concern cou’d give; but this
               unfortunate Languisher, finding her Strength decay, prevented him from making any
               long Speeches, by renewing that Request which <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> had
               already made known, of seeing her dear Lord before she dy’d, which <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> making haste to fulfil, she call’d to him as loud as her Weakness
               would permit to come back, and as soon as he was, <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>,
               said she, has inform’d me of my Lord’s good Fortune in meeting with the Charmer of
               his Soul, I would not deprive him of a<pb n="261"/> Moments Happiness. I therefore beg she’d
               give a dying Rival, leave to wish her Joy, and as neither my Death, nor the Cause of
               it can be a Secret to any of the Company here, I desire they all may be Witnesses,
               with what Pleasure I welcome it; <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>, Fiery as he was,
               had a vast deal of Compassion in his Nature, and could not see so beautiful a young
               Lady, and one whom he had so many Obligations to, on the Account of his Affair with
                  <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi>, in this despairing and dying Condition, without
               being seiz’d with an Anguish inexpressible; but all the Pangs he felt were nothing
               when compar’d to those he gave <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> in the Delivery of her
               Message; he ran into the Room like a Man distracted, and in the Hurry of his Grief
               forgot even the Complaisance he ow’d to <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>, but she was
               too generous to disapprove his Concern, immediately followed with her Brother, the
               Marquess and <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi>: What is it that I hear Madam, cry’d
               the Count, throwing himself on the Bed by her? Can it be possible that the admir’d
                  <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> cou’d forsake her
               Father,---Country,---Friends,---forego her Sexes Pride,---the Pomp of Beauty,---gay
               Dresses, and all the Equipage of State and Grandeur; to follow in a mean Disguise, a
               Man unworthy her Thoughts? Oh! no more, said she, weeping, you are but too, too
               worthy Adoration; nor do I yet believe my Love a Crime, tho’ the Consequence is so: I
               might in <hi rend="italic">Rome</hi>, with Honour and Innocence have died, but by my
               shameful Flight, I was the Murderer of my Father---that---that’s a Guilt, which all
               these Floods of Penitence can never wash away---Yet, bear me Witness Heaven, how
               little I suspected the sad Event, when first, unable to support your Absence, I
               contriv’d this Way, unknown, to keep for ever in your Sight; I lov’d, ’tis true, but
               if one unchaste Wish, or an impure Desire e’er stain’d my Soul, then may the purging
               Fire to which I am going, miss its Effect, my Spots remain, and not one Saint
               vouchsafe to own me: Here the Force of her Passion, agitating her Spirits with too
               much<pb n="262"/> Violence for the Weakness of her Body, she sunk fainting in the Bed: And
               tho’ the Count and <hi rend="italic">Camilla</hi> felt the most deeply her
               Afflictions, the one because they proceeded from her Love to him, and the other as
               having long been her Friend, and Partner of her Secrets, yet those in the Company who
               were most Strangers to her, participated in her Sufferings, and commiserated the Woes
               they could not heal; and as soon as she recovered from her Swoon, the generous <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi> (not in the least possest with any of those little
               Jealousies, which Women of narrow Souls harbour on such Occasions) came nearer to the
               Bed, and taking her kindly by the Hand, Live and be comforted, said she, a Love so
               innocent shall never give me any Disquiet.---Live and Enjoy the Friendship of my
               Lord, and if you please to favour me with yours, I shall esteem it as it deserves, a
               Blessing. No Madam, answered the now almost Expiring <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi>,
               Life, after this shameful Declaration, wou’d be the worst of Punishments, but, not to
               be Ungrateful to so generous an Offer, for a few Moments I accept it, and like
               Children, placing their darling Play things on their Pillow, and then contented to go
               to Sleep, so I would keep your Lord, would view him still while I awake to Life, then
               drop insensibly into a Slumber of eternal Peace. This mournful Tenderness pierc’d <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>, to the very Soul, and putting his Arm gently under
               her Head, which, he perceiv’d she was too weak to raise when she endeavoured it, and
               laying his Face on one of her Hands, cou’d not forbear washing it in Tears, she felt
               the cordial Drops, and, as if they gave her a new Vigour, exerting her Voice to the
               utmost of her Strength; this is too kind, said she, I now can feel none of those
               Agonies which render Death the King of Terrors, and thus, thus happy in your
               Sight,------your Touch------your tender Pity, I can but be Translated from one Heaven
               to another, and yet, forgive me Heaven, if it be a Sin, I cou’d wish, methinks, to
               know no other Paradise than you, to<pb n="263"/> be permitted to hover round you, to Form
               your Dreams, to sit upon your Lips all Day, to mingle with your Breath, and glide in
               unfelt Air into your Bosom: She wou’d have proceeded, but her Voice faultered in the
               Accent, and all she spoke distinguishable was, Oh <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi>!
               receive in this one Sigh, my latest Breath-----it was indeed her last, she died that
               Moment, died in his Arms, whom more than Life she priz’d, and sure there are none who
               have liv’d in the Anxieties of Love, who wou’d not envy such a Death!</p>
            <p>There was not in this noble Company, one whose Eyes were dry, but Count <hi rend="italic">D’elmont</hi> was for some Time inconsolable, even by <hi rend="italic">Melliora</hi>; he forbore the celebrating of his so eagerly desired
               Nuptials, as did the Marquess and Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> theirs,
               in Complaisance to him, ’till after <hi rend="italic">Violetta</hi> was interr’d,
               which the Count took Care should be in a Manner becoming her Quality, her Merit, and
               the Esteem he profess’d to have born her: But when this melancholly Scene was past, a
               Day of Joy succeeded, and one happy Hour confirm’d the Wishes of the three longing
               Bridegrooms; the Weddings were all kept in a splendid Manner at the Marquess’s, and
               it was not with out a great deal of Reluctance, that he and <hi rend="italic">Charlotta</hi> suffered the Count, Monsieur <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi>,
               and their Ladies to take leave of them. When they came to <hi rend="italic">Paris</hi>, they were joyfully received by the Chevalier <hi rend="italic">Brillian</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Ansellina</hi>, and those, who in the Count’s
               Absence had taken a Liberty of censuring and condemning his Actions, aw’d by his
               Presence, and in Time, won by his Virtues, now swell his Praises with an equal
               Vehemence: Both he and <hi rend="italic">Frankville</hi> are still living, blest with
               a numerous and hopeful Issue, and continue with their fair Wives, great and lovely
               Examples of conjugal Affection.</p>

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            <titlePart>WUTHERING HEIGHTS<lb/>
               <lb/> A NOVEL,<lb/>
               <lb/> BY<lb/>
               <lb/> <ref target="Ellis_" corresp="Ellis">ELLIS BELL</ref>
                            <note xml:id="Ellis" target="Ellis_">"Ellis Bell" is the pseudonym of Emily Bronte. Like her sisters Charlotte and Anne, Emily was aware that publishing under a woman's name might be viewed negatively by some contemporary readers, so she came up with an ambiguously-gendered pen name. Charlotte published as "Currer Bell" and Anne published as "Acton Bell."</note>,<lb/>
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               <publisher>THOMAS CAUTLEY NEWBRY, PUBLISHER</publisher>
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            <head>WUTHERING HEIGHTS</head>
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               <head>Chapter I</head>
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               <p>1801. ---I have just returned from a visit to my landlord--- the solitary
                  neighbour that I shall be troubled with. This is certainly a beautiful country! In
                  all England, I do not believe that I could have fixed on a situation so completely
                  removed from the stir of society. A perfect misanthropist's heaven; and Mr.
                  Heathcliff and I are such a suitable pair to divide the desolation between us. A
                  capital fellow! He little imagined how my heart warmed towards him when I beheld
                  his black <pb n="I.2" facs="pageImages/I.10.jpg"/>eyes withdraw so suspiciously under their brows, as I rode up, and when
                  his fingers sheltered themselves, with a jealous resolution, still further in his
                  waistcoat, as I announced my name. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Heathcliff?" I said. </p>
               <p>A nod was the answer. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Lockwood, your new tenant, sir. I do myself the honour of calling as soon as
                  possible after my arrival, to express the hope that I have not inconvenienced you
                  by my perseverance in soliciting the occupation of Thrushcross Grange. I heard
                  yesterday you had had some thoughts -- " </p>
               <p>"Thrushcross Grange is my own, sir," he interrupted, wincing. "I should not allow
                  any one to inconvenience me, if I could hinder it. Walk in!" </p>
               <p>The "walk in" was uttered with closed teeth, and expressed the sentiment, "Go to
                  the deuce." Even the gate over which he leant manifested no
                  sympathizing movement to the <pb n="I.3" facs="pageImages/I.11.jpg"/>words; and I think that circumstance determined me to
                  accept the invitation. I felt interested in a man who seemed more exaggeratedly
                  reserved than myself. </p>
               <p>When he saw my horse's breast fairly pushing the barrier, he did put out his hand
                  to unchain it, and then sullenly preceded me up the causeway, calling, as we
                  entered the court, "Joseph, take Mr. Lockwood's horse, and bring up some wine." </p>
               <p>"Here we have the whole establishment of domestics, I suppose," was the reflection
                  suggested by this compound order. "No wonder the grass grows up between the flags,
                  and cattle are the only hedge-cutters." </p>
               <p>Joseph was an elderly, nay, an old man -- very old, perhaps, though hale and
                  sinewy. "The Lord help us!" he soliloquized in an undertone of peevish
                  displeasure, while relieving me of my horse, looking, meantime, in my face so
                  sourly that I charitably conjectured he must have need of divine aid to digest his
                  din- <pb n="I.4" facs="pageImages/I.12.jpg"/>ner, and his pious ejaculation had no reference to my unexpected advent. </p>
               <p>Wuthering Heights is the name of Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling, "wuthering" being a
                  significant provincial adjective, descriptive of the atmospheric tumult to which
                  its station is exposed in stormy weather. Pure, bracing ventilation they must have
                  up there at all times, indeed. One may guess the power of the north wind blowing
                  over the edge by the excessive slant of a few stunted firs at the end of the
                  house, and by a range of gaunt thorns all stretching their limbs one way, as if
                  craving alms of the sun. Happily the architect had foresight to build it strong.
                  The narrow windows are deeply set in the wall, and the corners defended with large
                  jutting stones. </p>
               <p>Before passing the threshold, I paused to admire a quantity of grotesque carving
                  lavished over the front, and especially about the principal door; above which,
                  among a wilderness of <pb n="I.5" facs="pageImages/I.13.jpg"/>crumbling griffins and shameless little boys, I detected the
                  date "1500," and the name "Hareton Earnshaw." I would have made a few comments,
                  and requested a short history of the place from the surly owner; but
                  his attitude at the door appeared to demand my speedy entrance or complete
                  departure, and I had no desire to aggravate his impatience previous to inspecting
                  the penetralium. </p>
               <p>One step brought us into the family sitting-room, without any introductory lobby
                  or passage. They call it here "the house" pre-eminently. It includes kitchen and
                  parlour generally. But, I believe, at Wuthering Heights the kitchen is forced to
                  retreat altogether into another quarter -- at least I distinguished a chatter of
                  tongues and a clatter of culinary utensils deep within; and I observed no signs of
                  roasting, boiling, or baking about the huge fireplace, nor any glitter of copper
                  saucepans and tin cullenders on the walls. One end, indeed, reflected splendidly
                  both light and heat <pb n="I.6" facs="pageImages/I.14.jpg"/>from ranks of immense pewter dishes, interspersed with silver
                  jugs and tankards, towering row after row, on a vast oak dresser, to the very
                  roof. The latter had never been underdrawn; its entire anatomy lay bare to an
                  inquiring eye, except where a frame of wood laden with oatcakes and clusters of
                  legs of beef, mutton, and ham concealed it. Above the chimney were sundry
                  villainous old guns and a couple of horse-pistols, and, by way of ornament, three
                  gaudily painted canisters disposed along its ledge. The floor was of smooth, white
                  stone; the chairs, high-backed, primitive structures painted green, one or two
                  heavy black ones lurking in the shade. In an arch under the dresser reposed a huge
                  liver-coloured bitch pointer surrounded by a swarm of squealing puppies, and other
                  dogs haunted other recesses. </p>
               <p>The apartment and furniture would have been nothing extraordinary as belonging to
                  a homely, northern farmer with a stubborn coun- <pb n="I.7" facs="pageImages/I.15.jpg"/>tenance, and stalwart limbs, set out
                  to advantage in knee-breeches and gaiters. Such an individual seated in his
                  armchair, his mug of ale frothing on the round table before him, is to be seen in
                  any circuit of five or six miles among these hills, if you go at the right time
                  after dinner. But Mr. Heathcliff forms a singular contrast to his abode and style
                  of living. He is a dark-skinned gipsy in aspect. in dress and manners a gentleman
                  -- that is, as much a gentleman as many a country squire; rather slovenly, perhaps, yet not looking amiss with his negligence, because he has an
                  erect and handsome figure, and rather morose. Possibly, some people might suspect
                  him of a degree of underbred pride; I have a sympathetic chord within that tells
                  me it is nothing of the sort. I know, by instinct, his reserve springs from an
                  aversion to showy displays of feeling, to manifestations of mutual kindliness.
                  He'll love and hate equally under cover, and esteem it a species of impertinence
                  to be loved <pb n="I.8" facs="pageImages/I.16.jpg"/>or hated again. No, I'm running on too fast. I bestow my own
                  attributes over liberally on him. Mr. Heathcliff may have entirely dissimilar
                  reasons for keeping his hand out of the way when he meets a would-be acquaintance
                  to those which actuate me. Let me hope my constitution is almost peculiar. My dear
                  mother used to say I should never have a comfortable home, and only last summer I
                  proved myself perfectly unworthy of one. </p>
               <p>While enjoying a month of fine weather at the sea coast, I was thrown into the
                  company of a most fascinating creature -- a real goddess in my eyes, as long as
                  she took no notice of me. I "never told my love" vocally; still, if looks have
                  language, the merest idiot might have guessed I was over head and ears. She
                  understood me at last, and looked a return -- the sweetest of all imaginable
                  looks. And what did I do? I confess it with shame -- shrank icily into myself,
                  like a snail; at every glance retired colder and farther, till, finally the <pb n="I.9" facs="pageImages/I.17.jpg"/>poor
                  innocent was led to doubt her own senses, and, overwhelmed with confusion at her
                  supposed mistake, persuaded her mamma to decamp. By this curious turn of
                  disposition I have gained the reputation of deliberate heartlessness; how
                  undeserved I alone can appreciate. </p>
               <p>I took a seat at the end of the hearthstone opposite that towards which my
                  landlord advanced, and filled up an interval of silence by attempting to caress
                  the canine mother, who had left her nursery, and was sneaking wolfishly to the
                  back of my legs, her lip curled up, and her white teeth watering for a snatch. My
                  caress provoked a long, guttural gnarl. </p>
               <p>"You'd better let the dog alone," growled Mr. Heathcliff, in unison, checking
                  fiercer demonstrations with a punch of his foot. "She's not accustomed
                  to be spoiled -- not kept for a pet." Then, striding to a side door, he shouted
                  again. <pb n="I.10" facs="pageImages/I.18.jpg"/>"Joseph!" </p>
               <p>Joseph mumbled indistinctly in the depths of the cellar, but gave no intimation of
                  ascending; so his master dived down to him, leaving me vis-a-vis the ruffianly
                  bitch and a pair of grim shaggy sheep-dogs, who shared with her a jealous
                  guardianship over all my movements. Not anxious to come in contact with their
                  fangs, I sat still; but, imagining they would scarcely understand tacit insults, I
                  unfortunately indulged in winking and making faces at the trio, and some turn of
                  my physiognomy so irritated madam that she suddenly broke into a fury and leapt on
                  my knees. I flung her back, and hastened to interpose the table between us. This
                  proceeding roused the whole hive. Half a dozen four-footed fiends, of various
                  sizes and ages, issued from hidden dens to the common centre. I felt my heels and
                  coat-laps peculiar subjects of assault; and parrying off the larger combatants as
                  effec- <pb n="I.11" facs="pageImages/I.19.jpg"/>tually as I could, with the poker, I was constrained to demand, aloud,
                  assistance from some of the household in re-establishing peace. </p>
               <p>Mr. Heathcliff and his man climbed the cellar steps with vexatious phlegm. I don't
                  think they moved one second faster than usual, though the hearth was an absolute
                  tempest of worrying and yelping. Happily, an inhabitant of the kitchen made more
                  dispatch. A lusty dame, with tucked-up gown, bare arms, and fire-flushed cheeks,
                  rushed into the midst of us flourishing a frying-pan, and used that weapon and her
                  tongue to such purpose that the storm subsided magically, and she only remained,
                  heaving like a sea after a high wind, when her master entered on the scene. </p>
               <p>"What the devil is the matter?" he asked, eyeing me in a manner that I could ill
                  endure after this inhospitable treatment. </p>
               <p>"What the devil, indeed!" I muttered. "The herd of possessed swine could have had
                  <pb n="I.12" facs="pageImages/I.20.jpg"/>no worse spirits in them than those animals of yours, sir. You might as well leave
                  a stranger with a brood of tigers!" </p>
               <p>"They won't meddle with persons who touch nothing," he remarked,
                  putting the bottle before me, and restoring the displaced table. "The dogs do
                  right to be vigilant. Take a glass of wine." </p>
               <p>"No, thank you." </p>
               <p>"Not bitten, are you?" </p>
               <p>"If I had been, I would have set my signet on the biter." </p>
               <p>Heathcliff's countenance relaxed into a grin. </p>
               <p>"Come, come," he said; "you are flurried, Mr. Lockwood. Here, take a little wine.
                  Guests are so exceedingly rare in this house that I and my dogs, I am willing to
                  own, hardly know how to receive them. Your health, sir!" </p>
               <p>I bowed and returned the pledge, beginning to perceive that it would be foolish to
                  sit sulking for the misbehaviour of a pack of curs; <pb n="I.13" facs="pageImages/I.21.jpg"/>besides, I felt loath to yield
                  the fellow further amusement at my expense, since his humour took that turn. </p>
               <p>He -- probably swayed by prudential consideration of the folly of offending a good
                  tenant -- relaxed a little in the laconic style of chipping off his pronouns and
                  auxiliary verbs, and introduced what he supposed would be a subject of interest to
                  me -- a discourse on the advantages and disadvantages of my present place of
                  retirement. </p>
               <p>I found him very intelligent on the topics we touched; and before I went home I
                  was encouraged so far as to volunteer another visit to-morrow. </p>
               <p>He evidently wished no repetition of my intrusion. I shall go, notwithstanding. It
                  is astonishing how sociable I feel myself, compared with him.</p>
            
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               <p>Yesterday afternoon set in misty and cold. I had half a mind to spend it by my
                  study fire, instead of wading through heath and mud to Wuthering Heights. </p>
               <p>On coming up from dinner, however, (N.B. I dine between twelve and one o'clock;
                  the housekeeper, a matronly lady taken as a fixture along with the house, could
                  not, or would not comprehend my request that I might be served at five), -- on
                  mounting the stairs with this lazy intention, and stepping into the room, I <pb n="I.15" facs="pageImages/I.23.jpg"/>saw a
                  servant-girl on her knees, surrounded by brushes and coal-scuttles, and raising an
                  infernal dust as she extinguished the flames with heaps of cinders. This spectacle
                  drove me back immediately; I took my hat, and, after a four miles walk, arrived at
                  Heathcliff's garden gate just in time to escape the first feathery flakes of a
                  snow shower.</p>
               <p>On that bleak hill top the earth was hard with a black frost, and the air made me
                  shiver through every limb. Being unable to remove the chain, I jumped over, and,
                  running up the flagged causeway bordered with straggling gooseberry bushes,
                  knocked vainly for admittance, till my knuckles tingled and the dogs howled.</p>
               <p> "Wretched inmates!" I ejaculated, mentally, "you deserve perpetual isolation from
                  your species for your churlish inhospitality. At least, I would not keep my doors
                  barred in the day time -- I don't care -- I will get in !"</p>
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               <p>So resolved, I grasped the latch, and shook it vehemently. Vinegar-faced Joseph
                  projected his head from a round window of the barn.</p>
               <p>"What are ye for?" he shouted. "T' maister's down i' t' fowld. Go round by th' end
                  ut' laith, if ye went to spake to him." </p>
               <p>"Is there nobody inside to open the door?" I hallooed responsively. </p>
               <p>"There's nobbut t' missis, and shoo'll not oppen't an ye mak yer flaysome dins
                  till neeght." </p>
               <p>"Why? Cannot you tell her who I am, eh, Joseph?" </p>
               <p>"Nor-ne me! I'll hae noa hend wi't," muttered the head, vanishing. </p>
               <p>The snow began to drive thickly. I seized the handle to essay another trial, when
                  a young man without coat, and shouldering a pitchfork, appeared in the yard
                  behind. He hailed me to follow him; and, after marching <pb n="I.17" facs="pageImages/I.25.jpg"/>through a wash-house, and
                  a paved area containing a coal-shed, pump, and pigeon-cot, we at length arrived in
                  the huge, warm, cheerful apartment where I was formerly received. It glowed
                  delightfully in the radiance of an immense fire, compounded of coal, peat, and
                  wood; and near the table, laid for a plentiful evening meal, I was pleased to
                  observe the "missis," an individual whose existence I had never previously
                  suspected. I bowed and waited, thinking she would bid me take a seat. She looked
                  at me, leaning back in her chair, and remained motionless and mute. </p>
               <p>"Rough weather!" I remarked. "I'm afraid, Mrs. Heathcliff, the door must bear the
                  consequence of your servants' leisure attendance. I had hard work to make them
                  hear me." </p>
               <p>She never opened her mouth. I stared -- she stared also. At any rate, she kept her
                  eyes <pb n="I.18" facs="pageImages/I.26.jpg"/>on me in a cool, regardless manner, exceedingly embarrassing and
                  disagreeable. </p>
               <p>"Sit down," said the young man gruffly. "He'll be in soon." </p>
               <p>I obeyed, and hemmed, and called the villain Juno, who deigned, at this second
                  interview, to move the extreme tip of her tail, in token of owning my
                  acquaintance. </p>
               <p>"A beautiful animal!" I commenced again. "Do you intend parting with the little
                  ones, madam?"</p>
               <p/>
               <p>"They are not mine," said the amiable hostess, more repellingly than Heathcliff
                  himself could have replied. </p>
               <p>"Ah, your favourites are among these?" I continued, turning to an obscure cushion
                  full of something like cats. </p>
               <p>"A strange choice of favourites!" she observed scornfully. </p>
               <p>Unluckily it was a heap of dead rabbits. I hemmed once more, and drew closer to
                  the <pb n="I.19" facs="pageImages/I.27.jpg"/>hearth, repeating my comment on the wildness of the evening. </p>
               <p>"You should not have come out," she said, rising and reaching from the
                  chimney-piece two of the painted canisters. </p>
               <p>Her position before was sheltered from the light; now, I had a distinct view of
                  her whole figure and countenance. She was slender, and apparently scarcely past
                  girlhood; an admirable form, and the most exquisite little face that I have ever
                  had the pleasure of beholding; small features, very fair; flaxen ringlets, or
                  rather golden, hanging loose on her delicate neck; and eyes, had they been
                  agreeable in expression, that would have been irresistible. Fortunately for my
                  susceptible heart, the only sentiment they evinced hovered between scorn and a
                  kind of desperation, singularly unnatural to be detected there. The canisters were
                  almost out of her reach. I made a motion to aid her. She turned upon me as a miser
                  might turn if any one attempted to assist him in counting his gold. </p>
               <pb n="I.20" facs="pageImages/I.28.jpg"/>
               <p>"I don't want your help," she snapped. "I can get them for myself." </p>
               <p>"I beg your pardon," I hastened to reply. </p>
               <p>"Were you asked to tea?" she demanded, tying an apron over her neat black frock,
                  and standing with a spoonful of the leaf poised over the pot. </p>
               <p>"I shall be glad to have a cup," I answered. </p>
               <p>"Were you asked?" she repeated. </p>
               <p> "No," I said, half smiling. "You are the proper person to ask me." </p>
               <p>She flung the tea back, spoon and all, and resumed her chair in a pet. Her
                  forehead corrugated, and her red under-lip pushed out, like a child's ready to
                  cry. </p>
               <p>Meanwhile, the young man had slung on to his person a decidedly shabby upper
                  garment, and, erecting himself before the blaze, looked down on me from the corner
                  of his eyes, for all the world as if there were some mortal feud unavenged between
                  us. I began to doubt <pb n="I.21" facs="pageImages/I.29.jpg"/>whether he were a servant or not. His dress and
                  speech were both rude, entirely devoid of the superiority observable in Mr. and
                  Mrs. Heathcliff. His thick brown curls were rough and uncultivated, his whiskers
                  encroached bearishly over his cheeks, and his hands were embrowned like those of a
                  common labourer. Still his bearing was free, almost haughty, and he showed none of
                  a domestic's assiduity in attending on the lady of the house. In the absence of
                  clear proofs of his condition, I deemed it best to abstain from noticing his
                  curious conduct; and, five minutes afterwards, the entrance of Heathcliff relieved
                  me, in some measure, from my uncomfortable state. </p>
               <p>"You see, sir, I am come, according to promise," I exclaimed, assuming the
                  cheerful; "and I fear I shall be weather-bound for half an hour, if you can afford
                  me shelter during that space." </p>
               <p>"Half an hour?" he said, shaking the <pb n="I.22" facs="pageImages/I.30.jpg"/>white flakes from his clothes. "I wonder you
                  should select the thick of a snowstorm to ramble about in. Do you know that you
                  run a risk of being lost in the marshes? People familiar with these moors often
                  miss their road on such evenings; and I can tell you there is no chance of a
                  change at present." </p>
               <p>"Perhaps I can get a guide among your lads, and he might stay at the Grange till
                  morning. Could you spare me one?" </p>
               <p>"No, I could not." </p>
               <p>"Oh, indeed! Well, then, I must trust to my own sagacity." </p>
               <p>"Umph!" </p>
               <p>"Are you going to mak th' tea?" demanded he of the shabby coat, shifting his
                  ferocious gaze from me to the young lady. </p>
               <p>"Is he to have any?" she asked, appealing to Heathcliff. </p>
               <p>"Get it ready, will you?" was the answer, uttered so savagely that I started. The
                  tone in which the words were said revealed a ge- <pb n="I.23" facs="pageImages/I.31.jpg"/>nuine bad nature. I no longer felt
                  inclined to call Heathcliff a capital fellow. When the preparations were finished,
                  he invited me with -- "Now, sir, bring forward your chair." And we all, including
                  the rustic youth, drew round the table, an austere silence prevailing while we
                  discussed our meal. </p>
               <p>I thought, if I had caused the cloud, it was my duty to make an effort to dispel
                  it. They could not every day sit so grim and taciturn; and it was impossible,
                  however ill-tempered they might be, that the universal scowl they wore was their
                  everyday countenance. </p>
               <p>"It is strange," I began, in the interval of swallowing one cup of tea and
                  receiving another -- "it is strange how custom can mould our tastes and ideas.
                  Many could not imagine the existence of happiness in a life of such complete exile
                  from the world as you spend, Mr. Heathcliff; yet, I'll venture to say, that
                  surrounded by your family, and with <pb n="I.24" facs="pageImages/I.32.jpg"/>your amiable lady as the presiding genius over
                  your home and heart -- " </p>
               <p>"My amiable lady!" he interrupted, with an almost diabolical sneer on his face.
                  "Where is she -- my amiable lady?" </p>
               <p>"Mrs. Heathcliff, your wife, I mean." </p>
               <p>"Well, yes -- Oh! you would intimate that her spirit has taken the post of
                  ministering angel, and guards the fortunes of Wuthering Heights, even when her
                  body is gone. Is that it?" </p>
               <p>Perceiving myself in a blunder, I attempted to correct it. I might have seen there
                  was too great a disparity between the ages of the parties to make it likely that
                  they were man and wife. One was about forty, a period of mental vigour at which
                  men seldom cherish the delusion of being married for love, by girls: that dream is
                  reserved for the solace of our declining years. The other did not look seventeen. </p>
               <p>Then it flashed upon me -- "The clown at <pb n="I.25" facs="pageImages/I.33.jpg"/>my elbow, who is drinking his tea out of
                  a basin and eating his bread with unwashed hands, may be her husband. Heathcliff,
                  junior, of course. Here is the consequence of being buried alive: she has thrown
                  herself away upon that boor, from sheer ignorance that better individuals existed!
                  A sad pity -- I must beware how I cause her to regret her choice." </p>
               <p>The last reflection may seem conceited; it was not. My neighbour struck me as
                  bordering on repulsive. I knew, through experience, that I was tolerably
                  attractive. </p>
               <p>"Mrs. Heathcliff is my daughter-in-law," said Heathcliff, corroborating my
                  surmise. He turned, as he spoke, a peculiar look in her direction, a
                  look of hatred, unless he has a most perverse set of facial muscles that will not,
                  like those of other people, interpret the language of his soul. </p>
               <p>"Ah, certainly -- I see now; you are the <pb n="I.26" facs="pageImages/I.34.jpg"/>favoured possessor of the beneficent
                  fairy," I remarked, turning to my neighbour. </p>
               <p>This was worse than before: the youth grew crimson, and clenched his fist with
                  every appearance of a meditated assault. But he seemed to recollect himself,
                  presently, and smothered the storm in a brutal curse, muttered on my behalf, which
                  however, I took care not to notice. </p>
               <p>"Unhappy in your conjectures, sir!" observed my host; "we neither of us have the
                  privilege of owning your good fairy; her mate is dead. I said she was my
                  daughter-in-law, therefore, she must have married my son." </p>
               <p>"And this young man is -- " </p>
               <p>"Not my son, assuredly." </p>
               <p>Heathcliff smiled again, as if it were rather too bold a jest to attribute the
                  paternity of that bear to him.</p>
               <p>"My name is Hareton Earnshaw," growled the other; "and I'd counsel you to respect
                  it!" </p>
               <pb n="I.27" facs="pageImages/I.35.jpg"/>
               <p>"I've shown no disrespect," was my reply, laughing internally at the dignity with
                  which he announced himself. </p>
               <p>He fixed his eye on me longer than I cared to return the stare, for fear I might
                  be tempted either to box his ears or render my hilarity audible. I began to feel
                  unmistakably out of place in that pleasant family circle. The dismal spiritual
                  atmosphere overcame, and more than neutralized, the glowing physical comforts
                  round me; and I resolved to be cautious how I ventured under those rafters a third
                  time. </p>
               <p>The business of eating being concluded, and no one uttering a word of sociable
                  conversation, I approached a window to examine the weather. A sorrowful sight I
                  saw -- dark night coming down prematurely, and sky and hills mingled in one bitter
                  whirl of wind and suffocating snow. </p>
               <p>"I don't think it possible for me to get home now without a guide," I could not
                  help ex- <pb n="I.28" facs="pageImages/I.36.jpg"/>claiming. "The roads will be buried already; and, if they were bare, I
                  could scarcely distinguish a foot in advance." </p>
               <p>"Hareton, drive those dozen sheep into the barn porch. They'll be covered if left
                  in the fold all night. And put a plank before them," said Heathcliff. </p>
               <p>"How must I do?" I continued, with rising irritation. </p>
               <p>There was no reply to my question; and on looking round I saw only Joseph bringing
                  in a pail of porridge for the dogs, and Mrs. Heathcliff leaning over the fire,
                  diverting herself with burning a bundle of matches which had fallen from the
                  chimney-piece as she restored the tea-canister to its place. The former, when he
                  had deposited his burden, took a critical survey of the room, and in cracked tones
                  grated out, -- </p>
               <p>"Aw woonder how yah can faishion to stand thear i' idleness un war, when all on
                  'em's goan out! Bud yah're a nowt, and it's noa <pb n="I.29" facs="pageImages/I.37.jpg"/>use talking; yah'll niver mend o'
                  yer ill ways, but goa raight to t' divil, like yer mother afore ye!" </p>
               <p>I imagined for a moment that this piece of eloquence was addressed to me; and,
                  sufficiently enraged, stepped towards the aged rascal with an intention of kicking
                  him out of the door. Mrs. Heathcliff, however, checked me by her answer. </p>
               <p>"You scandalous old hypocrite!" she replied. "Are you not afraid of being carried
                  away bodily, whenever you mention the devil's name? I warn you to refrain from
                  provoking me, or I'll ask your abduction as a special favour. Stop! Look here,
                  Joseph," she continued, taking a long, dark book from a shelf; "I'll show you how
                  far I've progressed in the black art. I shall soon be competent to make a clear
                  house of it. The red cow didn't die by chance, and your rheumatism can hardly be
                  reckoned among providential visitations!" </p>
               <pb n="I.30" facs="pageImages/I.38.jpg"/>
               <p>"Oh, wicked, wicked!" gasped the elder; "may the Lord deliver us from evil!" </p>
               <p>"No, reprobate; you are a castaway. Be off, or I'll hurt you 
                  seriously. I'll have you all modelled in wax and clay; and the first who passes
                  the limits I fix shall -- I'll not say what he shall be done to, but you'll see!
                  Go! I'm looking at you." </p>
               <p>The little witch put a mock malignity into her beautiful eyes, and Joseph,
                  trembling with sincere horror, hurried out, praying and ejaculating "wicked" as he
                  went. I thought her conduct must be prompted by a species of dreary fun; and, now
                  that we were alone, I endeavoured to interest her in my distress. </p>
               <p>"Mrs. Heathcliff," I said earnestly, "you must excuse me for troubling you. I
                  presume, because, with that face, I'm sure you cannot help being good-hearted. Do
                  point out some landmarks by which I may know my way home. I have no more idea how
                  to get there than you would have how to get to London." </p>
               <pb n="I.31" facs="pageImages/I.39.jpg"/>
               <p>"Take the road you came," she answered, ensconcing herself in a chair, with a
                  candle, and the long book open before her. "It is brief advice, but as sound as I
                  can give." </p>
               <p>"Then, if you hear of me being discovered dead in a bog or a pit full of snow,
                  your conscience won't whisper that it is partly your fault?" </p>
               <p>"How so? I cannot escort you. They wouldn't let me go to the end of the garden
                  wall." </p>
               <p>"You! I should be sorry to ask you to cross the threshold for my convenience on
                  such a night," I cried. "I want you to tell me my way, not to show it, or else to
                  persuade Mr. Heathcliff to give me a guide." </p>
               <p>"Who? There is himself, Earnshaw, Zillah, Joseph, and I. Which would you have?" </p>
               <p>"Are there no boys at the farm?" </p>
               <p>"No; those are all." </p>
               <p>"Then, it follows that I am compelled to stay." </p>
               <pb n="I.32" facs="pageImages/I.40.jpg"/>
               <p>"That you may settle with your host. I have nothing to do with it." </p>
               <p>"I hope it will be a lesson to you to make no more rash journeys on these hills,"
                  cried Heathcliff's stern voice from the kitchen entrance. "As to staying here, I
                  don't keep accommodations for visitors. You must share a bed with
                  Hareton or Joseph, if you do." </p>
               <p>"I can sleep on a chair in this room," I replied. </p>
               <p>"No, no! A stranger is a stranger, be he rich or poor. It will not suit me to
                  permit any one the range of the place while I am off guard!" said the unmannerly
                  wretch. </p>
               <p>With this insult, my patience was at an end. I uttered an expression of disgust,
                  and pushed past him into the yard, running against Earnshaw in my haste. It was so
                  dark that I could not see the means of exit; and, as I wandered round, I heard
                  another specimen of their civil behaviour amongst each other. <pb n="I.33" facs="pageImages/I.41.jpg"/>At first the young
                  man appeared about to befriend me. </p>
               <p>"I'll go with him as far as the park," he said. </p>
               <p>"You'll go with him to hell!" exclaimed his master, or whatever relation he bore.
                  "And who is to look after the horses, eh?" </p>
               <p>"A man's life is of more consequence than one evening's neglect of the horses.
                  Somebody must go," murmured Mrs. Heathcliff, more kindly than I expected. </p>
               <p>"Not at your command!" retorted Hareton. "If you set store on him, you'd better be
                  quiet." </p>
               <p>"Then I hope his ghost will haunt you; and I hope Mr. Heathcliff will never get
                  another tenant till the Grange is a ruin!" she answered sharply. </p>
               <p>"Hearken, hearken; shoo's cursing on 'em!" muttered Joseph, towards whom I had
                  been steering. </p>
               <pb n="I.34" facs="pageImages/I.42.jpg"/>
               <p>He sat within earshot, milking the cows by the light of a lantern, which I seized
                  unceremoniously, and calling out that I would send it back on the morrow, rushed
                  to the nearest postern. </p>
               <p>"Maister, maister, he's staling t' lanthern!" shouted the ancient, pursuing my
                  retreat. "Hey, Gnasher! Hey, dog! Hey, Wolf, holld him, holld him!" </p>
               <p>On opening the little door, two hairy monsters flew at my throat, bearing me down
                  and extinguishing the light; while a mingled guffaw from Heathcliff and Hareton
                  put the copestone on my rage and humiliation. Fortunately, the beasts
                  seemed more bent on stretching their paws and yawning, and flourishing their
                  tails, than devouring me alive; but they would suffer no resurrection, and I was
                  forced to lie till their malignant masters pleased to deliver me. Then, hatless
                  and trembling with wrath, I ordered the miscreants to <pb n="I.35" facs="pageImages/I.43.jpg"/>let me out -- on their peril
                  to keep me one minute longer -- with several incoherent threats of retaliation
                  that, in their indefinite depth of virulency, smacked of King Lear. </p>
               <p>The vehemence of my agitation brought on a copious bleeding at the nose; and still
                  Heathcliff laughed, and still I scolded. I don't know what would have concluded
                  the scene had there not been one person at hand rather more rational than myself
                  and more benevolent than my entertainer. This was Zillah, the stout housewife, who
                  at length issued forth to inquire into the nature of the uproar. She thought that
                  some of them had been laying violent hands on me; and, not daring to attack her
                  master, she turned her vocal artillery against the younger scoundrel. </p>
               <p>"Well, Mr. Earnshaw," she cried, "I wonder what you'll have agait next! Are we
                  going to murder folk on our very door-stones? I see this house will never do for
                  me. Look at t' poor lad; he's fair choking! -- Wisht, wisht! <pb n="I.36" facs="pageImages/I.44.jpg"/>you munn't go on so.
                  Come in, and I'll cure that. There now, hold ye still." </p>
               <p>With these words she suddenly splashed a pint of icy water down my neck, and
                  pulled me into the kitchen. Mr. Heathcliff followed, his accidental merriment
                  expiring quickly in his habitual moroseness. </p>
               <p>I was sick exceedingly, and dizzy and faint, and thus compelled perforce to accept
                  lodgings under his roof. He told Zillah to give me a glass of brandy, and then
                  passed on to the inner room; while she condoled with me on my sorry predicament,
                  and having obeyed his orders, whereby I was somewhat revived, ushered me to
                  bed.</p>
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               <p>While leading the way upstairs, she recommended that I should hide the candle, and
                  not make a noise; for her master had an odd notion about the chamber she would put
                  me in, and never let anybody lodge there willingly.</p>
               <p>I asked the reason.</p>
               <p>She did not know, she answered; she had only lived there a year or two; and they
                  had so many queer goings on, she could not begin to be curious.</p>
               <p>Too stupified to be curious myself, I fas- <pb n="I.38" facs="pageImages/I.46.jpg"/>tened my door and glanced round for the
                  bed. The whole furniture consisted of a chair, a clothes-press, and a large oak
                  case, with squares cut out near the top resembling coach windows.</p>
               <p>Having approached this structure, I looked inside, and perceived it to be a
                  singular sort of old-fashioned couch, very conveniently designed to obviate the
                  necessity for every member of the family having a room to himself. In fact, it
                  formed a little closet, and the ledge of a window, which it enclosed, served as a
                  table.</p>
               <p>I slid back the panelled sides, got in with my light, pulled them together again,
                  and felt secure against the vigilance of Heathcliff, and every one else.</p>
               <p>The ledge, where I placed my candle, had a few mildewed books piled up in one
                  corner; and it was covered with writing scratched on the paint. This writing,
                  however, was nothing but a name repeated in all kinds of characters, <pb n="I.39" facs="pageImages/I.47.jpg"/>large and
                  small -- Catherine Earnshaw, here and there varied to Catherine Heathcliff and
                  then again to Catherine Linton. </p>
               <p>In vapid listlessness I leant my head against the window, and continued spelling
                  over Catherine Earnshaw -- Heathcliff -- Linton, till my eyes closed. But they had
                  not rested five minutes when a glare of white letters started from the dark as
                  vivid as spectres -- the air swarmed with Catherines; and rousing myself to dispel
                  the obtrusive name, I discovered my candle-wick reclining on one of
                  the antique volumes, and perfuming the place with an odour of roasted calf-skin. I
                  snuffed it off, and, very ill at ease under the influence of cold and lingering
                  nausea, sat up and spread open the injured tome on my knee. It was a Testament, in
                  lean type, and smelling dreadfully musty. A fly-leaf bore the inscription,
                  "Catherine Earnshaw, her book," and a date some quarter of a century back. <pb n="I.40" facs="pageImages/I.48.jpg"/>I shut
                  it, and took up another, and another, till I had examined all. Catherine's library
                  was select, and its state of dilapidation proved it to have been well used, though
                  not altogether for a legitimate purpose. Scarcely one chapter had escaped a
                  pen-and-ink commentary -- at least, the appearance of one -- covering every morsel
                  of blank that the printer had left. Some were detached sentences; other parts took
                  the form of a regular diary, scrawled in an unformed, childish hand. At the top of
                  an extra page (quite a treasure, probably, when first lighted on) I was greatly
                  amused to behold an excellent caricature of my friend Joseph, rudely yet
                  powerfully sketched. An immediate interest kindled within me for the unknown
                  Catherine, and I began forthwith to decipher her faded hieroglyphics. </p>
               <p>"An awful Sunday!" commenced the paragraph beneath. "I wish my father were back
                  again. Hindley is a detestable substitute -- <pb n="I.41" facs="pageImages/I.49.jpg"/>his conduct to Heathcliff is
                  atrocious -- H. and I are going to rebel -- we took our initiatory step this
                  evening. </p>
               <p>"All day had been flooding with rain. We could not go to church, so Joseph must
                  needs get up a congregation in the garret; and while Hindley and his wife basked
                  downstairs before a comfortable fire -- doing anything but reading their Bibles,
                  I'll answer for it -- Heathcliff, myself, and the unhappy plough-boy were
                  commanded to take our prayer-books and mount. We were ranged in a row on a sack of
                  corn, groaning and shivering, and hoping that Joseph would shiver too, so that he
                  might give us a short homily for his own sake. A vain idea! The service lasted
                  precisely three hours; and yet my brother had the face to exclaim, when he saw us
                  descending, "'What! done already?' </p>
               <p>On Sunday evenings we used to be permitted to play, if we did not make much noise;
                  now <pb n="I.42" facs="pageImages/I.50.jpg"/>a mere titter is sufficient to send us into corners! </p>
               <p>" 'You forget you have a master here,' says the tyrant. 'I'll demolish the first
                  who puts me out of temper! I insist on perfect sobriety and silence. O boy! was
                  that you? -- Frances darling, pull his hair as you go by. I heard him snap his
                  fingers.' Frances pulled his hair heartily, and then went and seated herself on
                  her husband's knee; and there they were, like two babies, kissing and talking
                  nonsense by the hour -- foolish palaver that we should be ashamed of. We made
                  ourselves as snug as our means allowed in the arch of the dresser. I had just
                  fastened our pinafores together, and hung them up for a curtain, when in comes
                  Joseph on an errand from the stables. He tears down my handiwork, boxes my ears,
                  and croaks, -- </p>
               <p>" 'T' maister nobbut just buried, and Sabbath no o'ered, und t' sound o' t' gospel
                  still i' <pb n="I.43" facs="pageImages/I.51.jpg"/>yer lugs, and ye darr be laiking! Shame on ye! Sit ye down, ill childer;
                  there's good books eneugh if ye'll read 'em. Sit ye down, and think o' yer sowls!' </p>
               <p>"Saying this, he compelled us so to square our positions that we might receive
                  from the far-off fire a dull ray to show us the text of the lumber he thrust upon
                  us. I could not bear the employment. I took my dingy volume by the scroop, and
                  hurled it into the dog-kennel, vowing I hated a good book. Heathcliff kicked his
                  to the same place. Then there was a hubbub! </p>
               <p>" 'Maister Hindley!' shouted our chaplain. 'Maister, coom hither! Miss Cathy's
                  riven th' back off "Th' Helmet o' Salvation," un Heathcliff's pawsed his fit into
                  t' first part o' "T' Brooad Way to Destruction!" It's fair flaysome that ye let
                  'em go on this gait. Ech! th' owd man wad ha' laced 'em properly; but he's goan!' </p>
               <pb n="I.44" facs="pageImages/I.52.jpg"/>
               <p>"Hindley hurried up from his paradise on the hearth, and seizing one
                  of us by the collar, and the other by the arm, hurled both into the back kitchen,
                  where, Joseph asseverated, `owd Nick' would fetch us as sure as we were living;
                  and, so comforted, we each sought a separate nook to await his advent. </p>
               <p>"I reached this book, and a pot of ink from a shelf, and pushed the house-door
                  ajar to give me light, and I have got the time on with writing for twenty minutes;
                  but my companion is impatient and proposes that we should appropriate the dairy
                  woman's cloak, and have a scamper on the moors, under its shelter. A pleasant
                  suggestion -- and then, if the surly old man come in, he may believe his prophesy
                  verified -- we cannot be damper, or colder, in the rain than we are here." </p>
               <p>I suppose Catherine fulfilled her project, <pb n="I.45" facs="pageImages/I.53.jpg"/>for the next sentence took up another
                  subject; she waxed lachrymose. </p>
               <p>"How little did I dream that Hindley would ever make me cry so!" she wrote. "My
                  head aches, till I cannot keep it on the pillow; and still I can't give over. Poor
                  Heathcliff! Hindley calls him a vagabond, and won't let him sit with us, nor eat
                  with us any more; and he says, he and I must not play together, and threatens to
                  turn him out of the house if we break his orders. </p>
               <p>"He has been blaming our father (how dared he?) for treating H. too liberally; and
                  swears he will reduce him to his right place -- " </p>
               <p>I began to nod drowsily over the dim page; my eye wandered from manuscript to
                  print. I saw a red ornamented title -- "Seventy Times Seven, and the First of the
                  Seventy-First. <pb n="I.46" facs="pageImages/I.54.jpg"/>A Pious Discourse delivered by the Reverend Jabes Branderham, in
                  the Chapel of Gimmerden Sough." And while I was, half consciously, worrying my
                  brain to guess what Jabes Branderham would make of his subject, I sank back in
                  bed, and fell asleep. </p>
               <p>Alas, for the effects of bad tea and bad temper! what else could it be that made
                  me pass such a terrible night? I don't remember another that I can at all compare
                  with it since I was capable of suffering. </p>
               <p>I began to dream, almost before I ceased to be sensible of my locality. I thought
                  it was morning, and I had set out on my way home, with Joseph for a guide. The
                  snow lay yards deep in our road; and, as we floundered on, my companion wearied me
                  with constant reproaches that I had not brought a pilgrim's staff, telling me I
                  could never get into the house without one, and boastfully flourishing a
                  heavy-headed cudgel, which I understood to be so denominated. </p>
               <pb n="I.47" facs="pageImages/I.55.jpg"/>
               <p>For a moment I considered it absurd that I should need such a weapon to gain
                  admittance into my own residence. Then a new idea flashed across me. I was not
                  going there. We were journeying to hear the famous Jabes Branderham preach from
                  the text, "Seventy Times Seven," and either Joseph the preacher or I had committed
                  the "First of the Seventy-First," and were to be publicly exposed and
                  excommunicated. </p>
               <p>We came to the chapel. I have passed it really in my walks twice or thrice. It
                  lies in a hollow between two hills -- an elevated hollow, near a swamp, whose
                  peaty moisture is said to answer all the purposes of embalming on the few corpses
                  deposited there. The roof has been kept whole hitherto; but as the clergyman's
                  stipend is only twenty pounds per annum, and a house with two rooms, threatening
                  speedily to determine into one, no clergyman will undertake the duties of pastor,
                  especially as it is currently reported that his flock would rather <pb n="I.48" facs="pageImages/I.56.jpg"/>let him starve
                  than increase the living by one penny from their own pockets. However, in my
                  dream, Jabes had a full and attentive congregation, and he preached -- good God!
                  what a sermon, divided into four hundred and ninety parts, each fully equal to an
                  ordinary address from the pulpit, and each discussing a separate sin! Where he
                  searched for them, I cannot tell. He had his private manner of interpreting the
                  phrase, and it seemed necessary the brother should sin different sins on every
                  occasion. They were of the most curious character -- odd transgressions that I
                  never imagined previously. </p>
               <p>Oh, how weary I grew! How I writhed, and yawned, and nodded, and revived! How I
                  pinched, and pricked myself, and rubbed my eyes, and stood up, and sat down again,
                  and nudged Joseph to inform me if he would ever have done! I was
                  condemned to hear all out. Finally, he <pb n="I.49" facs="pageImages/I.57.jpg"/>reached the "First of the Seventy-First."
                  At that crisis, a sudden inspiration descended on me. I was moved to rise and
                  denounce Jabes Branderham as the sinner of the sin that no Christian need pardon. </p>
               <p>"Sir," I exclaimed, "sitting here within these four walls, at one stretch, I have
                  endured and forgiven the four hundred and ninety heads of your discourse. Seventy
                  times seven times have I plucked up my hat and been about to depart; seventy times
                  seven times have you preposterously forced me to resume my seat. The four hundred
                  and ninety-first is too much. -- Fellow-martyrs, have at him! Drag him down, and
                  crush him to atoms, that the place which knows him may know him no more!" </p>
               <p>"Thou art the man!" cried Jabes, after a solemn pause, leaning over his cushion.
                  "Seventy times seven times didst thou gapingly contort thy visage; seventy times
                  seven did I <pb n="I.50" facs="pageImages/I.58.jpg"/>take counsel with my soul. Lo, this is human weakness; this also may
                  be absolved! The 'First of the Seventy-First' is come. Brethren, execute upon him
                  the judgment written. Such honour have all His saints!" </p>
               <p>With that concluding word, the whole assembly, exalting their pilgrim's staves,
                  rushed round me in a body; and I, having no weapon to raise in self-defence,
                  commenced grappling with Joseph, my nearest and most ferocious assailant, for his.
                  In the confluence of the multitude several clubs crossed; blows aimed at me fell
                  on other sconces. Presently the whole chapel resounded with rappings and
                  counter-rappings. Every man's hand was against his neighbour; and Branderham,
                  unwilling to remain idle, poured forth his zeal in a shower of loud taps on the
                  boards of the pulpit, which responded so smartly that at last, to my unspeakable
                  relief, they woke me. And what was it that had suggested the tre- <pb n="I.51" facs="pageImages/I.59.jpg"/>mendous tumult?
                  What had played Jabes's part in the row? Merely the branch of a fir-tree that
                  touched my lattice, as the blast wailed by, and rattled its dry cones against the
                  panes! I listened doubtingly an instant, detected the disturber, then
                  turned and dozed, and dreamt again -- if possible, still more disagreeably than
                  before. </p>
               <p>This time I remembered I was lying in the oak closet, and I heard distinctly the
                  gusty wind and the driving of the snow. I heard also the fir-bough repeat its
                  teasing sound, and ascribed it to the right cause. But it annoyed me so much that
                  I resolved to silence it, if possible; and I thought I rose and endeavoured to
                  unhasp the casement. The hook was soldered into the staple -- a circumstance
                  observed by me when awake, but forgotten. "I must stop it, nevertheless!" I
                  muttered, knocking my knuckles through the glass, and stretching an arm out to
                  seize the importunate <pb n="I.52" facs="pageImages/I.60.jpg"/>branch; instead of which, my fingers closed on the fingers
                  of a little, ice-cold hand! The intense horror of nightmare came over me. I tried
                  to draw back my arm, but the hand clung to it, and a most melancholy voice sobbed,
                  "Let me in -- let me in!" "Who are you?" I asked, struggling, meanwhile, to
                  disengage myself. "Catherine Linton," it replied shiveringly. (Why did I think of
                  Linton? I had read Earnshaw twenty times for Linton.) "I'm come home. I'd lost my
                  way on the moor." As it spoke, I discerned, obscurely, a child's face looking
                  through the window. Terror made me cruel; and finding it useless to attempt
                  shaking the creature off, I pulled its wrist on to the broken pane, and rubbed it
                  to and fro till the blood ran down and soaked the bedclothes. Still it wailed,
                  "Let me in!" and maintained its tenacious gripe, almost maddening me with fear.
                  <pb n="I.53" facs="pageImages/I.61.jpg"/>"How can I?" I said at length. "Let me go, if you want me to let you in!" The
                  fingers relaxed; I snatched mine through the hole, hurriedly piled the books up in
                  a pyramid against it, and stopped my ears to exclude the lamentable prayer. I
                  seemed to keep them closed above a quarter of an hour; yet the instant
                  I listened again, there was the doleful cry moaning on! "Begone!" I shouted; "I'll
                  never let you in -- not if you beg for twenty years." "It is twenty years,"
                  mourned the voice -- "twenty years. I've been a waif for twenty years!" Thereat
                  began a feeble scratching outside, and the pile of books moved as if thrust
                  forward. I tried to jump up, but could not stir a limb, and so yelled aloud in a
                  frenzy of fright. To my confusion, I discovered the yell was not ideal. Hasty
                  footsteps approached my <pb n="I.54" facs="pageImages/I.62.jpg"/>chamber door; somebody pushed it open with a vigorous
                  hand, and a light glimmered through the squares at the top of the bed. I sat
                  shuddering yet, and wiping the perspiration from my forehead. The intruder
                  appeared to hesitate, and muttered to himself. At last he said in a half-whisper,
                  plainly not expecting an answer, "Is any one here?" I considered it best to
                  confess my presence, for I knew Heathcliff's accents, and feared he might search
                  further if I kept quiet. With this intention I turned and opened the panels. I
                  shall not soon forget the effect my action produced. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff stood near the entrance, in his shirt and trousers, with a candle
                  dripping over his fingers, and his face as white as the wall behind him. The first
                  creak of the oak startled him like an electric shock. The light leaped from his
                  hold to a distance of some <pb n="I.55" facs="pageImages/I.63.jpg"/>feet, and his agitation was so extreme that he could
                  hardly pick it up. </p>
               <p>"It is only your guest, sir," I called out, desirous to spare him the humiliation
                  of exposing his cowardice further. "I had the misfortune to scream in my sleep,
                  owing to a frightful nightmare. I'm sorry I disturbed you." </p>
               <p>"Oh, God confound you, Mr. Lockwood! I wish you were at the -- " commenced my
                  host, setting the candle on a chair, because he found it impossible to hold it
                  steady. "And who showed you up into this room?" he continued, crushing
                  his nails into his palms and grinding his teeth to subdue the maxillary
                  convulsions. "Who was it? I've a good mind to turn them out of the house this
                  moment." </p>
               <p>"It was your servant Zillah," I replied, flinging myself on to the floor, and
                  rapidly resuming my garments. "I should not care if you did, Mr. Heathcliff; she
                  richly deserves <pb n="I.56" facs="pageImages/I.64.jpg"/>it. I suppose that she wanted to get another proof that the place
                  was haunted, at my expense. Well, it is -- swarming with ghosts and goblins! You
                  have reason in shutting it up, I assure you. No one will thank you for a doze in
                  such a den!" </p>
               <p>"What do you mean?" asked Heathcliff, "and what are you doing? Lie down and finish
                  out the night, since you are here; but, for Heaven's sake, don't repeat that
                  horrid noise. Nothing could excuse it, unless you were having your throat cut!" </p>
               <p>"If the little fiend had got in at the window, she probably would have strangled
                  me!" I returned. "I'm not going to endure the persecutions of your hospitable
                  ancestors again. Was not the Reverend Jabes Branderham akin to you on the mother's
                  side? And that minx, Catherine Linton, or Earnshaw, or however she was called, she
                  must have been a changeling -- wicked little soul! She told me she had been
                  walking the earth those twenty <pb n="I.57" facs="pageImages/I.65.jpg"/>years -- a just punishment for her mortal
                  transgressions, I've no doubt." </p>
               <p>Scarcely were these words uttered, when I recollected the association of
                  Heathcliff's with Catherine's name in the book, which had completely slipped from
                  my memory, till thus awakened. I blushed at my inconsideration; but without
                  showing further consciousness of the offence, I hastened to add, "The truth is,
                  sir, I passed the first part of the night in -- " Here I stopped afresh. I was
                  about to say "perusing those old volumes" -- then it would have revealed my
                  knowledge of their written as well as their printed contents; so, correcting
                  myself, I went on, "In spelling over the name scratched on that window-ledge -- a
                  monotonous occupation, calculated to set me asleep, like counting, or -- " </p>
               <p>"What can you mean by talking in this way to me?" thundered Heathcliff, with
                  savage vehemence. "How -- how dare you, under my <pb n="I.58" facs="pageImages/I.66.jpg"/>roof? -- God, he's mad to speak
                  so!" And he struck his forehead with rage. </p>
               <p>I did not know whether to resent this language or pursue my explanation; but he
                  seemed so powerfully affected that I took pity and proceeded with my dreams,
                  affirming I had never heard the appellation of "Catherine Linton" before, but
                  reading it often over produced an impression which personified itself when I had
                  no longer my imagination under control. Heathcliff gradually fell back into the
                  shelter of the bed as I spoke, finally sitting down almost concealed behind it. I
                  guessed, however, by his irregular and intercepted breathing, that he struggled to
                  vanquish an excess of violent emotion. Not liking to show him that I had heard the
                  conflict, I continued my toilet rather noisily, looked at my watch, and
                  soliloquized on the length of the night. <pb n="59" facs="pageImages/I.67.jpg"/>Not three o'clock yet! I could have taken
                  oath it had been six. Time stagnates here. We must surely have retired to rest at
                  eight! </p>
               <p>"Always at nine in winter, and rise at four," said my host, suppressing a groan,
                  and, as I fancied, by the motion of his arm's shadow, dashing a tear from his
                  eyes. "Mr. Lockwood," he added, "you may go into my room. You'll only be in the
                  way, coming downstairs so early; and your childish outcry has sent sleep to the
                  devil for me." </p>
               <p>"And for me too," I replied. "I'll walk in the yard till daylight, and then I'll
                  be off; and you need not dread a repetition of my intrusion. I'm now quite cured
                  of seeking pleasure in society, be it country or town. A sensible man ought to
                  find sufficient company in himself." </p>
               <p>"Delightful company!" muttered Heathcliff. "Take the candle, and go where you
                  please. I shall join you directly. Keep out of the yard, though -- the dogs are
                  unchained; <pb n="I.60" facs="pageImages/I.68.jpg"/>and the house -- Juno mounts sentinel there, and -- nay, you can only
                  ramble about the steps and passages. But away with you! I'll come in two minutes!" </p>
               <p>I obeyed, so far as to quit the chamber; when, ignorant where the narrow lobbies
                  led, I stood still, and was witness, involuntarily, to a piece of superstition on
                  the part of my landlord which belied oddly his apparent sense. He got on to the
                  bed and wrenched open the lattice, bursting, as he pulled at it, into an
                  uncontrollable passion of tears. "Come in! come in!" he sobbed. "Cathy, do come!
                  Oh, do -- once more! Oh, my heart's darling! hear me this time, Catherine, at
                  last!" The spectre showed a spectre's ordinary caprice. It gave no sign of being;
                  but the snow and wind whirled wildly through, even reaching my station, and
                  blowing out the light. </p>
               <p>There was such anguish in the gush of grief that accompanied this raving that my
                  compassion made me overlook its folly, and I drew <pb n="I.61" facs="pageImages/I.69.jpg"/>off, half angry to have listened
                  at all, and vexed at having related my ridiculous nightmare, since it produced
                  that agony; though why was beyond my comprehension. I descended cautiously to the
                  lower regions, and landed in the back kitchen, where a gleam of fire, raked
                  compactly together, enabled me to rekindle my candle. Nothing was stirring except
                  a brindled, gray cat, which crept from the ashes, and saluted me with a querulous
                  mew. </p>
               <p>Two benches, shaped in sections of a circle, nearly enclosed the hearth. On one of
                  these I stretched myself, and Grimalkin mounted the other. We were both of us
                  nodding ere any one invaded our retreat, and then it was Joseph, shuffling down a
                  wooden ladder that vanished in the roof, through a trap -- the ascent to his
                  garret, I suppose. He cast a sinister look at the little flame which I had enticed
                  to play between the ribs, swept the cat from its elevation, and bestowing <pb n="I.62" facs="pageImages/I.70.jpg"/>himself
                  in the vacancy, commenced the operation of stuffing a three-inch pipe with
                  tobacco. My presence in his sanctum was evidently esteemed a piece of impudence
                  too shameful for remark. He silently applied the tube to his lips, folded his
                  arms, and puffed away. I let him enjoy the luxury unannoyed; and after sucking out
                  his last wreath, and heaving a profound sigh, he got up, and
                  departed as solemnly as he came. </p>
               <p>A more elastic footstep entered next; and now I opened my mouth for a
                  "good-morning," but closed it again, the salutation unachieved, for Hareton
                  Earnshaw was performing his orisons, sotto voce, in a series of curses directed
                  against every object he touched, while he rummaged a corner for a spade or shovel
                  to dig through the drifts. He glanced over the back of the bench, dilating his
                  nostrils, and thought as little of exchanging civilities with me as with my
                  companion the cat. I guessed by his preparations that egress <pb n="I.63" facs="pageImages/I.71.jpg"/>was allowed, and
                  leaving my hard couch, made a movement to follow him. He noticed this, and thrust
                  at an inner door with the end of his spade, intimating by an inarticulate sound
                  that there was the place where I must go if I changed my locality. </p>
               <p>It opened into the house, where the females were already astir -- Zillah urging
                  flakes of flame up the chimney with a colossal bellows; and Mrs. Heathcliff,
                  kneeling on the hearth, reading a book by the aid of the blaze. She held her hand
                  interposed between the furnace-heat and her eyes, and seemed absorbed in her
                  occupation, desisting from it only to chide the servant for covering her with
                  sparks, or to push away a dog, now and then, that snoozled its nose over-forwardly
                  into her face. I was surprised to see Heathcliff there also. He stood by the fire,
                  his back towards me, just finishing a stormy scene to poor Zillah, who ever and
                  anon interrupted her labour to <pb n="I.64" facs="pageImages/I.72.jpg"/>pluck up the corner of her apron and heave an
                  indignant groan. </p>
               <p>"And you, you worthless -- " he broke out as I entered, turning to his
                  daughter-in-law, and employing an epithet as harmless as duck or sheep, but
                  generally represented by a dash -- . "There you are at your idle tricks again! The
                  rest of them do earn their bread; you live on my charity! Put your trash away, and
                  find something to do. You shall pay me for the plague of having you eternally in
                  my sight. Do you hear, damnable jade?" </p>
               <p>"I'll put my trash away, because you can make me if I refuse," 
                  answered the young lady, closing her book and throwing it on a chair. "But I'll
                  not do anything, though you should swear your tongue out, except what I please!" </p>
               <p>Heathcliff lifted his hand, and the speaker sprang to a safer distance, obviously
                  acquainted with its weight. Having no desire to be entertained by a cat- <pb n="I.65" facs="pageImages/I.73.jpg"/>and-dog
                  combat, I stepped forward briskly, as if eager to partake the warmth of the
                  hearth, and innocent of any knowledge of the interrupted dispute. Each had enough
                  decorum to suspend further hostilities. Heathcliff placed his fists, out of
                  temptation, in his pockets; Mrs. Heathcliff curled her lip, and walked to a seat
                  far off, where she kept her word by playing the part of a statue during the
                  remainder of my stay. That was not long. I declined joining their breakfast, and
                  at the first gleam of dawn took an opportunity of escaping into the free air, now
                  clear, and still, and cold as impalpable ice. </p>
               <p>My landlord hallooed for me to stop ere I reached the bottom of the garden, and
                  offered to accompany me across the moor. It was well he did, for the whole
                  hill-back was one billowy, white ocean, the swells and falls not indicating
                  corresponding rises and depressions in the ground. Many pits, at least, were
                  filled <pb n="I.66" facs="pageImages/I.74.jpg"/>to a level, and entire ranges of mounds, the refuse of the quarries,
                  blotted from the chart which my yesterday's walk left pictured in my mind. I had
                  remarked on one side of the road, at intervals of six or seven yards, a line of
                  upright stones, continued through the whole length of the barren. These were
                  erected and daubed with lime on purpose to serve as guides in the dark, and also
                  when a fall, like the present, confounded the deep swamps on either hand with the
                  firmer path; but, excepting a dirty dot pointing up here and there, all traces of
                  their existence had vanished, and my companion found it necessary to warn me
                  frequently to steer to the right or left, when I imagined I was following
                  correctly the windings of the road. </p>
               <p>We exchanged little conversation, and he halted at the entrance of Thrushcross
                  Park, saying I could make no error there. Our adieus were limited to a hasty bow,
                  and then <pb n="I.67" facs="pageImages/I.75.jpg"/>I pushed forward, trusting to my own resources, for the
                  porter's lodge is untenanted as yet. </p>
               <p>The distance from the gate to the Grange is two miles; I believe I managed to make
                  it four, what with losing myself among the trees, and sinking up to the neck in
                  snow -- a predicament which only those who have experienced it can appreciate. At
                  any rate, whatever were my wanderings, the clock chimed twelve as I entered the
                  house, and that gave exactly an hour for every mile of the usual way from
                  Wuthering Heights. </p>
               <p>My human fixture and her satellites rushed to welcome me, exclaiming tumultuously
                  they had completely given me up. Everybody conjectured that I perished last night,
                  and they were wondering how they must set about the search for my remains. </p>
               <p>I bid them be quiet, now that they saw me returned, and, benumbed to my very
                  heart, I dragged upstairs; whence, after putting on dry clothes, and pacing to and
                  fro thirty or <pb n="I.68" facs="pageImages/I.76.jpg"/>forty minutes, to restore the animal heat, I am adjourned to my
                  study, feeble as a kitten -- almost too much so to enjoy the cheerful fire and
                  smoking coffee which the servant has prepared for my refreshment. </p>
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               <p>What vain weather-cocks we are ! I, who had determined to hold myself independent
                  of all social intercourse, and thanked my stars that, at length, I had lighted on
                  a spot where it was next to impracticable -- I, weak wretch, after maintaining
                  till dusk a struggle with low spirits and solitude, was finally compelled to
                  strike my colours; and, under pretence of gaining information concerning the
                  necessities of my establishment, I desired Mrs. Dean, when she brought in supper,
                  to sit down while <pb n="I.70" facs="pageImages/I.78.jpg"/>I ate it, hoping sincerely she would prove a regular gossip, and
                  either rouse me to animation or lull me to sleep by her talk.</p>
               <p>"You have lived here a considerable time," I commenced; "did you not say sixteen
                  years ?"</p>
               <p>"Eighteen, sir; I came, when the mistress was married, to wait on her; after she
                  died, the master retained me for his house-keeper."</p>
               <p>"Indeed."</p>
               <p>l here ensued a pause. She was not a gossip, I feared, unless about her own
                  affairs, and those could hardly interest me. However, having studied for an
                  interval, with a fist on either knee, and a cloud of meditation over her ruddy
                  countenance, she ejaculated -- </p>
               <p>"Ah, times are greatly changed since then!"</p>
               <p>"Yes," I remarked; "you've seen a good many alterations, I suppose?" </p>
               <p>"I have; and troubles too," she said. </p>
               <pb n="I.71" facs="pageImages/I.79.jpg"/>
               <p>"Oh, I'll turn the talk on my landlord's family!" I thought to myself. "A good
                  subject to start! And that pretty girl-widow, I should like to know her history --
                  whether she be a native of the country, or, as is more probable, an exotic that
                  the surly indigenae will not recognize for kin." With this intention I asked Mrs.
                  Dean why Heathcliff let Thrushcross Grange, and preferred living in a
                  situation and residence so much inferior. "Is he not rich enough to keep the
                  estate in good order?" I inquired. </p>
               <p>"Rich, sir!" she returned. "He has nobody knows what money, and every year it
                  increases. Yes, yes; he's rich enough to live in a finer house than this. But he's
                  very near -- close-handed; and if he had meant to flit to Thrushcross Grange, as
                  soon as he heard of a good tenant he could not have borne to miss the chance of
                  getting a few hundreds more. It <pb n="I.72" facs="pageImages/I.80.jpg"/>is strange people should be so greedy when they
                  are alone in the world!" </p>
               <p>"He had a son, it seems?" </p>
               <p>"Yes, he had one. He is dead." </p>
               <p>"And that young lady, Mrs. Heathcliff, is his widow?" </p>
               <p>"Yes." </p>
               <p>"Where did she come from originally?" </p>
               <p>"Why, sir, she is my late master's daughter. Catherine Linton was her maiden name.
                  I nursed her, poor thing! I did wish Mr. Heathcliff would remove here, and then we
                  might have been together again." </p>
               <p>"What! Catherine Linton?" I exclaimed, astonished. But a minute's reflection
                  convinced me it was not my ghostly Catherine. "Then," I continued, "my
                  predecessor's name was Linton?" </p>
               <p>"It was." </p>
               <p>"And who is that Earnshaw -- Hareton Earnshaw -- who lives with Mr. Heathcliff?
                  Are they relations?" </p>
               <pb n="I.73" facs="pageImages/I.81.jpg"/>
               <p>"No; he is the late Mrs. Linton's nephew." </p>
               <p>"The young lady's cousin, then?" </p>
               <p>"Yes; and her husband was her cousin also -- one on the mother's side, the other
                  on the father's side. Heathcliff married Mr. Linton's sister." </p>
               <p>"I see the house at Wuthering Heights has 'Earnshaw' carved over the front door.
                  Are they an old family?" </p>
               <p>"Very old, sir; and Hareton is the last of them, as our Miss Cathy is of us -- I
                  mean of the Lintons. Have you been to Wuthering Heights? I beg pardon
                  for asking; but I should like to hear how she is." </p>
               <p>"Mrs. Heathcliff? She looked very well, and very handsome; yet, I think, not very
                  happy." </p>
               <p>"Oh dear, I don't wonder! And how did you like the master?" </p>
               <p>"A rough fellow, rather, Mrs. Dean. Is not that his character?" </p>
               <p>"Rough as a saw-edge, and hard as whin- <pb n="I.74" facs="pageImages/I.82.jpg"/>stone. The less you meddle with him the
                  better." </p>
               <p>"He must have had some ups and downs in life to make him such a churl. Do you know
                  anything of his history?" </p>
               <p>"It's a cuckoo's, sir. I know all about it -- except where he was born, and who
                  were his parents, and how he got his money at first. And Hareton has been cast out
                  like an unfledged dunnock! The unfortunate lad is the only one in all this parish
                  that does not guess how he has been cheated." </p>
               <p>"Well, Mrs. Dean, it will be a charitable deed to tell me something of my
                  neighbours. I feel I shall not rest if I go to bed, so be good enough to sit and
                  chat an hour." </p>
               <p>"Oh, certainly, sir! I'll just fetch a little sewing, and then I'll sit as long as
                  you please. But you've caught cold -- I saw you shivering; and you must have some
                  gruel to drive it out." </p>
               <p>The worthy woman bustled off, and I <pb n="I.75" facs="pageImages/I.83.jpg"/>crouched nearer the fire. My head felt hot,
                  and the rest of me chill; moreover, I was excited, almost to a pitch of
                  foolishness, through my nerves and brain. This caused me to feel, not
                  uncomfortable, but rather fearful (as I am still) of serious effects from the
                  incidents of to-day and yesterday. She returned presently, bringing a smoking
                  basin and a basket of work; and having placed the former on the hob, drew in her
                  seat, evidently pleased to find me so companionable. </p>

               <p>Before I came to live here, she commenced -- waiting no further invitation to her
                  story -- I was almost always at Wuthering Heights, because my mother had nursed
                  Mr. Hindley Earnshaw (that was Hareton's father), and I got used to
                  playing with the children. I ran errands, too, and helped to make hay, and hung
                  about the farm, ready for anything that anybody would set me to. One fine summer
                  morning -- it was the be- <pb n="I.76" facs="pageImages/I.84.jpg"/>ginning of harvest, I remember -- Mr. Earnshaw, the old
                  master, came downstairs, dressed for a journey; and after he had told Joseph what
                  was to be done during the day, he turned to Hindley, and Cathy, and me -- for I
                  sat eating my porridge with them -- and he said, speaking to his son, "Now, my
                  bonny man, I'm going to Liverpool to-day; what shall I bring you? You may choose
                  what you like. Only let it be little, for I shall walk there and back. Sixty miles
                  each way -- that is a long spell!" Hindley named a fiddle, and then he asked Miss
                  Cathy. She was hardly six years old, but she could ride any horse in the stable,
                  and she chose a whip. He did not forget me, for he had a kind heart, though he was
                  rather severe sometimes. He promised to bring me a pocketful of apples and pears;
                  and then he kissed his children, said good-bye, and set off. </p>
               <p>It seemed a long while to us all -- the three <pb n="I.77" facs="pageImages/I.85.jpg"/>days of his absence -- and often did
                  little Cathy ask when he would be home. Mrs. Earnshaw expected him by supper-time
                  on the third evening, and she put the meal off hour after hour. There were no
                  signs of his coming, however, and at last the children got tired of running down
                  to the gate to look. Then it grew dark. She would have had them to bed, but they
                  begged sadly to be allowed to stay up; and just about eleven o'clock the
                  door-latch was raised quietly, and in stepped the master. He threw himself into a
                  chair, laughing and groaning, and bid them all stand off, for he was nearly
                  killed. He would not have such another walk for the three kingdoms. </p>
               <p>"And at the end of it, to be flighted to death!" he said, opening his greatcoat,
                  which he held bundled up in his arms. "See here, wife! I was never so beaten with
                  anything in my life; but you must e'en take it as a gift of God, though it's as
                  dark almost as if it came from the devil." </p>
               <pb n="I.78" facs="pageImages/I.86.jpg"/>
               <p>We crowded round, and over Miss Cathy's head I had a peep at a dirty, ragged,
                  black-haired child, big enough both to walk and talk. Indeed, its face looked
                  older than Catherine's; yet when it was set on its feet it only stared round, and
                  repeated over and over again some gibberish that nobody could understand. I was
                  frightened, and Mrs. Earnshaw was ready to fling it out of doors. She did fly up,
                  asking how he could fashion to bring that gipsy brat into the house, when they had
                  their own bairns to feed and fend for; what he meant to do with it, and whether he
                  were mad. The master tried to explain the matter; but he was really half dead with
                  fatigue, and all that I could make out, amongst her scolding, was a tale of his
                  seeing it starving, and houseless, and as good as dumb, in the streets of
                  Liverpool, where he picked it up and inquired for its owner. Not a soul knew to
                  whom it belonged, he said; and his money and <pb n="I.79" facs="pageImages/I.87.jpg"/>time being both limited, he thought
                  it better to take it home with him at once, than run into vain expenses there,
                  because he was determined be would not leave it as he found it. Well, the
                  conclusion was that my mistress grumbled herself calm; and Mr. Earnshaw told me to
                  wash it, and give it clean things, and let it sleep with the children. </p>
               <p>Hindley and Cathy contented themselves with looking and listening till peace was
                  restored; then both began searching their father's pockets for the presents he had
                  promised them. The former was a boy of fourteen, but when he drew out what had
                  been a fiddle, crushed to morsels in the greatcoat, he blubbered aloud; and Cathy,
                  when she learned the master had lost her whip in attending on the stranger, showed
                  her humour by grinning and spitting at the stupid little thing, earning for her
                  pains a sound blow from her father to teach her cleaner manners. They entirely
                  refused to have it in bed with <pb n="I.80" facs="pageImages/I.88.jpg"/>them, or even in their room; and I had no more
                  sense, so I put it on the landing of the stairs, hoping it might be gone on the
                  morrow. By chance, or else attracted by hearing his voice, it crept to Mr.
                  Earnshaw's door, and there he found it on quitting his chamber. Inquiries were
                  made as to how it got there. I was obliged to confess, and in recompense 
                  for my cowardice and inhumanity was sent out of the house. </p>
               <p>This was Heathcliff's first introduction to the family. On coming back a few days
                  afterwards (for I did not consider my banishment perpetual) I found they had
                  christened him "Heathcliff." It was the name of a son who died in childhood, and
                  it has served him ever since, both for Christian and surname. Miss Cathy and he
                  were now very thick; but Hindley hated him, and, to say the truth, I did the same;
                  and we plagued and went on with him shamefully, for I wasn't reasonable enough to
                  feel my injustice, and the mistress <pb n="I.81" facs="pageImages/I.89.jpg"/>never put in a word on his behalf when she saw
                  him wronged. </p>
               <p>He seemed a sullen, patient child, hardened, perhaps, to ill-treatment. He would
                  stand Hindley's blows without winking or shedding a tear, and my pinches moved him
                  only to draw in a breath and open his eyes, as if he had hurt himself by accident
                  and nobody was to blame. This endurance made old Earnshaw furious when he
                  discovered his son persecuting the poor, fatherless child, as he called him. He
                  took to Heathcliff strangely, believing all he said (for that matter, he said
                  precious little, and generally the truth), and petting him up far above Cathy, who
                  was too mischievous and wayward for a favourite. </p>
               <p>So from the very beginning he bred bad feeling in the house; and at Mrs.
                  Earnshaw's death, which happened in less than two years after, the young master
                  had learned to regard <pb n="I.82" facs="pageImages/I.90.jpg"/>his father as an oppressor rather than a friend, and
                  Heathcliff as a usurper of his parent's affections and his privileges, and he grew
                  bitter with brooding over these injuries. I sympathized a while; but when the
                  children fell ill of the measles, and I had to tend them, and take on me the cares
                  of a woman at once, I changed my ideas. Heathcliff was dangerously sick; and while
                  he lay at the worst he would have me constantly by his pillow. I suppose he felt I
                  did a good deal for him, and he hadn't wit to guess that I was compelled to do it.
                  However, I will say this -- he was the quietest child that ever nurse watched
                  over. The difference between him and the others forced me to be less 
                  partial. Cathy and her brother harassed me terribly; he was as uncomplaining as
                  a lamb, though hardness, not gentleness, made him give little trouble. </p>
               <p>He got through, and the doctor affirmed it was in a great measure owing to me, and
                  <pb n="I.83" facs="pageImages/I.91.jpg"/>praised me for my care. I was vain of his commendations, and softened towards the
                  being by whose means I earned them; and thus Hindley lost his last ally. Still I
                  couldn't dote on Heathcliff, and I wondered often what my master saw to admire so
                  much in the sullen boy, who never, to my recollection, repaid his indulgence by
                  any sign of gratitude. He was not insolent to his benefactor, he was simply
                  insensible, though knowing perfectly the hold he had on his heart, and conscious
                  he had only to speak and all the house would be obliged to bend to his wishes. As
                  an instance, I remember Mr. Earnshaw once bought a couple of colts at the parish
                  fair, and gave the lads each one. Heathcliff took the handsomest, but it soon fell
                  lame, and when he discovered it, he said to Hindley, -- </p>
               <p>"You must exchange horses with me -- I don't like mine; and if you won't, I shall
                  tell your father of the three thrashings you've <pb n="I.84" facs="pageImages/I.92.jpg"/>given me this week, and show him
                  my arm, which is black to the shoulder." Hindley put out his tongue and cuffed him
                  over the ears. "You'd better do it at once," he persisted, escaping to the porch
                  (they were in the stable). "You will have to; and if I speak of these blows,
                  you'll get them again with interest." "Off, dog!" cried Hindley, threatening him
                  with an iron weight used for weighing potatoes and hay. "Throw it," he replied,
                  standing still, "and then I'll tell how you boasted that you would turn me out of
                  doors as soon as he died, and see whether he will not turn you out directly."
                  Hindley threw it, hitting him on the breast, and down he fell, but staggered up
                  immediately, breathless and white; and had I not prevented it, he would have gone
                  just so to the master, and got full revenge by letting <pb n="I.85" facs="pageImages/I.93.jpg"/>his condition plead for
                  him, intimating who had caused it.</p>
               <p>"Take my colt, gipsy, then!" said young Earnshaw. "And I pray that he may break
                  your neck. Take him, and be damned, you beggarly interloper; and wheedle my father
                  out of all he has. Only afterwards show him what you are, imp of Satan. And take
                  that! I hope he'll kick out your brains!" </p>
               <p>Heathcliff had gone to loose the beast and shift it to his own stall. He was
                  passing behind it, when Hindley finished his speech by knocking him under its
                  feet, and without stopping to examine whether his hopes were fulfilled, ran away
                  as fast as he could.</p>
               <p>I was surprised to witness how coolly the child gathered himself up, and went on
                  with his intention -- exchanging saddles and all, and then sitting down on a
                  bundle of hay to overcome the qualm which the violent blow occasioned, before he
                  entered the house.</p>
               <p>I persuaded him easily to let me lay the <pb n="I.86" facs="pageImages/I.94.jpg"/>blame of his bruises on the horse. He
                  minded little what tale was told, since he had what he wanted. He complained so
                  seldom, indeed, of such stirs as these, that I really thought him not vindictive.
                  I was deceived completely, as you will hear. </p>
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               <p>In the course of time, Mr. Earnshaw began to fail. He had been active and healthy,
                  yet his strength left him suddenly; and when he was confined to the chimney-corner
                  he grew grievously irritable. A nothing vexed him, and suspected slights of his
                  authority nearly threw him into fits.</p>
               <p>This was especially to be remarked if any one attempted to impose upon, or
                  domineer over, his favourite: he was painfully jealous lest a word should be
                  spoken amiss to him, <pb n="I.88" facs="pageImages/I.96.jpg"/>seeming to have got into his head the notion that, because he
                  liked Heathcliff, all hated, and longed to do him an ill-turn.</p>
               <p>It was a disadvantage to the lad, for the kinder among us did not wish to fret the
                  master, so we humoured his partiality; and that humouring was rich nourishment to
                  the child's pride and black tempers. Still it became in a manner necessary; twice,
                  or thrice, Hindley's manifestations of scorn, while his father was near, roused
                  the old man to a fury. He seized his stick to strike him, and shook with rage that
                  he could not do it.</p>
               <p>At last, our curate (we had a curate then who made the living answer by teaching
                  the little Lintons and Earnshaws, and farming his bit of land himself) -- he
                  advised that the young man should be sent to college, and Mr. Earnshaw agreed,
                  though with a heavy spirit, for he said -- </p>
               <p>"Hindley was naught, and would never thrive as where he wandered.</p>
               <pb n="I.89" facs="pageImages/I.97.jpg"/>
               <p>I hoped heartily we should have peace now. It hurt me to think the master should
                  be made uncomfortable by his own good deed. I fancied the discontent of age and
                  disease arose from his family disagreements, as he would have it that it did.
                  Really, you know, sir, it was in his sinking frame.</p>
               <p>We might have got on tolerably, notwithstanding, but for two people --
                  Miss Cathy and Joseph the servant. You saw him, I dare say, up yonder. He was, and
                  is yet most likely, the wearisomest self-righteous Pharisee that ever ransacked a
                  Bible to rake the promises to himself and fling the curses to his neighbours. By
                  his knack of sermonizing and pious discoursing he contrived to make a great
                  impression on Mr. Earnshaw; and the more feeble the master became, the more
                  influence he gained.</p>
               <p>He was relentless in worrying him about his soul's concerns, and about ruling his
                  children rigidly. He encouraged him to regard Hind- <pb n="I.90" facs="pageImages/I.98.jpg"/>ley as a reprobate; and night
                  after night he regularly grumbled out a long string of tales against Heathcliff
                  and Catherine, always minding to flatter Earnshaw's weakness by heaping the
                  heaviest blame on the latter. </p>
               <p>Certainly she had ways with her such as I never saw a child take up before; and
                  she put all of us past our patience fifty times and oftener in a day. From the
                  hour she came downstairs till the hour she went to bed we had not a minute's
                  security that she wouldn't be in mischief. Her spirits were always at high-water
                  mark, her tongue always going -- singing, laughing, and plaguing everybody who
                  would not do the same. A wild, wicked slip she was; but she had the bonniest eye,
                  the sweetest smile, and lightest foot in the parish. And, after all, I believe she
                  meant no harm; for when once she made you cry in good earnest, it seldom happened
                  that she would not keep you company, and oblige you to be quiet, that you might
                  comfort her. She was much too fond of Heathcliff. The <pb n="I.91" facs="pageImages/I.99.jpg"/>greatest punishment we could
                  invent for her was to keep her separate from him; yet she got chided more than any
                  of us on his account. In play she liked exceedingly to act the little mistress,
                  using her hands freely, and commanding her companions. She did so to me, but I
                  would not bear shopping and ordering, and so I let her know. </p>
               <p>Now, Mr. Earnshaw did not understand jokes from his children. He had always been
                  strict and grave with them; and Catherine, on her part, had no idea why her father
                  should be crosser and less patient in his ailing condition than he was in his
                  prime. His peevish reproofs wakened in her a naughty delight to
                  provoke him. She was never so happy as when we were all scolding her at once, and
                  she defying us with her bold, saucy look and her ready words, turning Joseph's
                  religious curses into ridicule, baiting me, and doing just what her father hated
                  most -- showing how her pretended insolence, which he thought <pb n="I.92" facs="pageImages/I.100.jpg"/>real, had more power
                  over Heathcliff than his kindness; how the boy would do her bidding in anything,
                  and his only when it suited his own inclination. After behaving as badly as
                  possible all day, she sometimes came fondling to make it up at night. "Nay,
                  Cathy," the old man would say, "I cannot love thee; thou'rt worse than thy
                  brother. Go say thy prayers, child, and ask God's pardon. I doubt thy mother and I
                  must rue that we ever reared thee!" That made her cry at first; and then being
                  repulsed continually hardened her, and she laughed if I told her to say she was
                  sorry for her faults, and beg to be forgiven. </p>
               <p>But the hour came at last that ended Mr. Earnshaw's troubles on earth. He died
                  quietly in his chair one October evening, seated by the fireside. A high wind
                  blustered round the house and roared in the chimney. It sounded wild and <pb n="I.93" facs="pageImages/I.101.jpg"/>stormy,
                  yet it was not cold, and we were all together -- I, a little removed from the
                  hearth, busy at my knitting, and Joseph reading his Bible near the table (for the
                  servants generally sat in the house then, after their work was done). Miss Cathy
                  had been sick, and that made her still. She leant against her father's knee, and
                  Heathcliff was lying on the floor with his head in her lap. </p>
               <p>I remember the master, before he fell into a doze, stroking her bonny hair -- it
                  pleased him rarely to see her gentle -- and saying -- </p>
               <p>"Why canst thou not always be a good lass, Cathy?" </p>
               <p>And she turned her face up to his, and laughed, and answered -- </p>
               <p>"Why cannot you always be a good man, father?" </p>
               <p>But as soon as she saw him vexed again, she kissed his hand, and said
                  she would sing him to sleep. She began singing very low, till his fingers dropped
                  from hers, and his head <pb n="I.94" facs="pageImages/I.102.jpg"/>sank on his breast. Then I told her to hush, and not stir,
                  for fear she should wake him. We all kept as mute as mice a full half-hour, and
                  should have done so longer, only Joseph, having finished his chapter, got up and
                  said that he must rouse the master for prayers and bed. He stepped forward, and
                  called him by name, and touched his shoulder, but he would not move -- so he took
                  the candle and looked at him. </p>
               <p>I thought there was something wrong as he set down the light; and seizing the
                  children each by an arm, whispered them to "frame upstairs, and make little din --
                  they might pray alone that evening -- he had summut to do." </p>
               <p>"I shall bid father good-night first," said Catherine, putting her arms round his
                  neck, before we could hinder her. </p>
               <p>The poor thing discovered her loss directly -- she screamed out -- </p>
               <p>"Oh, he's dead, Heathcliff! he's dead!" </p>
               <p>And they both set up a heart-breaking cry. </p>
               <pb n="I.95" facs="pageImages/I.103.jpg"/>
               <p>I joined my wail to theirs, loud and bitter; but Joseph asked what we could be
                  thinking of to roar in that way over a saint in heaven. </p>
               <p>He told me to put on my cloak and run to Gimmerton for the doctor and the parson.
                  I could not guess the use that either would be of, then. However, I went, through
                  wind and rain, and brought one, the doctor, back with me; the other said he would
                  come in the morning. </p>
               <p>Leaving Joseph to explain matters, I ran to the children's room; their door was
                  ajar, I saw they had never laid down, though it was past midnight; but they were
                  calmer, and did not need me to console them. The little souls were comforting each
                  other with better thoughts than I could have hit on; no parson in the world ever
                  pictured heaven so beautifully as they did, in their innocent talk; and, while I
                  sobbed and listened, I could not help wishing we were all there safe together.
               </p>
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               <p>Mr. Hindley came home to the funeral; and -- a thing that amazed us, and set the
                  neighbours gossiping right and left -- he brought a wife with him.</p>
               <p>What she was, and where she was born, he never informed us; probably, she had
                  neither money nor name to recommend her, or he would scarcely have kept the union
                  from his father.</p>
               <p>She was not one that would have disturbed the house much on her own account. Every
                  ob- <pb n="I.97" facs="pageImages/I.105.jpg"/>ject she saw, the moment she crossed the threshold, appeared to delight her; and
                  every circumstance that took place about her, except the preparing for the burial,
                  and the presence of the mourners.</p>
               <p>I thought she was half silly, from her behaviour while that went on; she ran into
                  her chamber, and made me come with her, though I should have been dressing the
                  children; and there she sat shivering and clasping her hands, and asking
                  repeatedly -- </p>
               <p>"Are they gone yet ?"</p>
               <p>Then she began describing with hysterical emotion the effect it produced on her to
                  see black; and started, and trembled, and, at last, fell a weeping -- and when I
                  asked what was the matter ? answered, she didn't know; but she felt so afraid of
                  dying!</p>
               <p>I imagined her as little likely to die as myself. She was rather thin, but young,
                  and fresh complexioned, and her eyes sparkled as <pb n="I.98" facs="pageImages/I.106.jpg"/>bright as diamonds. I did remark,
                  to be sure, that mounting the stairs made her breathe very quick, that the least
                  sudden noise set her all in a quiver, and that she coughed troublesomely
                  sometimes: but I knew nothing of what these symptoms portended, and had no impulse
                  to sympathize with her. We don't in general take to foreigners here, Mr. Lockwood,
                  unless they take to us first. </p>
               <p>Young Earnshaw was altered considerably in the three years of his absence. He had
                  grown sparer, and lost his colour, and spoke and dressed quite
                  differently; and, on the very day of his return, he told Joseph and me we must
                  thenceforth quarter ourselves in the back-kitchen, and leave the house for him.
                  Indeed, he would have carpeted and papered a small spare room for a parlour; but
                  his wife expressed such pleasure at the white floor, and huge glowing fire-place,
                  at the pewter dishes, and delf-case, and dog-kennel, and the wide <pb n="I.99" facs="pageImages/I.107.jpg"/>space there was
                  to move about in, where they usually sat, that he thought it unnecessary to her
                  comfort, and so dropped the intention. </p>
               <p>She expressed pleasure, too, at finding a sister among her new acquaintance, and
                  she prattled to Catherine and kissed her and ran about with her, and gave her
                  quantities of presents, at the beginning. Her affection tired very soon, however,
                  and when she grew peevish, Hindley became tyrannical. A few words from her,
                  evincing a dislike to Heathcliff, were enough to rouse in him all his old hatred
                  of the boy. He drove him from their company to the servants, deprived him of the
                  instructions of the curate and insisted that he should labour out of doors
                  instead, compelling him to do so, as hard as any other lad on the farm. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff bore his degradation pretty well at first, because Cathy taught him
                  what she learnt, and worked or played with him in the fields. They both promised
                  fair to grow up as rude as sa- <pb n="I.100" facs="pageImages/I.108.jpg"/>vages, the young master being entirely negligent how
                  they behaved, and what they did, so they kept clear of him. He would not even have
                  seen after their going to church on Sundays, only Joseph and the curate
                  reprimanded his carelessness when they absented themselves, and that reminded him
                  to order Heathcliff a flogging, and Catherine a fast from dinner or supper. </p>
               <p>But it was one of their chief amusements to run away to the moors in the morning
                  and remain there all day, and the after-punishment grew a mere thing to laugh at.
                  The curate might set as many chapters as he pleased for Catherine to get by heart,
                  and Joseph might thrash Heathcliff till his arm ached; they forgot everything the
                  minute they were together again, at least the minute they contrived some naughty
                  plan of revenge; and many a time I've cried to myself to watch them growing more
                  reckless daily, and I not daring to speak a syllable for fear of
                  losing <pb n="I.101" facs="pageImages/I.109.jpg"/>the small power I still retained over the unfriended creatures. </p>
               <p>One Sunday evening, it chanced that they were banished from the sitting-room, for
                  making a noise, or a light offence of the kind, and when I went to call them to
                  supper, I could discover them nowhere. </p>
               <p>We searched the house, above and below, and the yard and stables; they were
                  invisible; and, at last, Hindley in a passion told us to bolt the doors, and swore
                  nobody should let them in that night. </p>
               <p>The household went to bed; and I, too anxious to lie down, opened my lattice and
                  put my head out to hearken, though it rained, determined to admit them in spite of
                  the prohibition, should they return. </p>
               <p>In a while, I distinguished steps coming up the road, and the light of a lantern
                  glimmered through the gate. </p>
               <p>I threw a shawl over my head and ran to prevent them from waking Mr. Earnshaw by
                  <pb n="I.102" facs="pageImages/I.110.jpg"/>knocking. There was Heathcliff, by himself; it gave me a start to see him alone. </p>
               <p>"Where is Miss Catherine?" I cried hurriedly. "No accident, I hope?" </p>
               <p>"At Thrushcross Grange," he answered, "and I would have been there too, but they
                  had not the manners to ask me to stay." </p>
               <p>"Well, you will catch it!" I said, "you'll never be content will you're sent about
                  your business. What in the world led you wandering to Thrushcross Grange?" </p>
               <p>"Let me get off my wet clothes, and I'll tell you all about it, Nelly," he
                  replied. </p>
               <p>I bid him beware of rousing the master, and while he undressed, and I waited to
                  put out the candle, he continued -- </p>
               <p>"Cathy and I escaped from the wash-house to have a ramble at liberty, and getting
                  a glimpse of the Grange lights, we thought we would just go and see whether the
                  Lintons passed their Sunday evenings standing shivering in corners, while their
                  father and mother <pb n="I.103" facs="pageImages/I.111.jpg"/>sat eating and drinking, and singing and laughing,
                  and burning their eyes out before the fire. Do you think they do? Or reading
                  sermons, and being catechised by their man-servant, and set to learn a column of
                  Scripture names, if they don't answer properly?" </p>
               <p>"Probably not," I responded. "They are good children, no doubt, and don't deserve
                  the treatment you receive, for your bad conduct." </p>
               <p>"Don't you cant, Nelly" he said. "Nonsense! We ran from the top of the Heights to
                  the park, without stopping -- Catherine completely beaten in the race, because she
                  was barefoot. You'll have to seek for her shoes in the bog to-morrow. We crept
                  through a broken hedge, groped our way up the path, and planted ourselves on a
                  flower-plot under the drawing-room window. The light came from thence; they had
                  not put up the shutters, and the curtains were only half closed. Both of us were
                  able to look in by <pb n="I.104" facs="pageImages/I.112.jpg"/>standing on the basement, and clinging to the ledge, and we saw
                  -- ah! it was beautiful -- a splendid place carpeted with crimson, and
                  crimson-covered chairs and tables, and a pure white ceiling bordered by gold, a
                  shower of glass-drops hanging in silver chains from the centre, and shimmering
                  with little soft tapers. Old Mr. and Mrs. Linton were not there. Edgar and his
                  sister had it entirely to themselves; shouldn't they have been happy? We should
                  have thought ourselves in heaven! And new, guess what your good children were
                  doing? Isabella -- I believe she is eleven, a year younger than Cathy -- lay
                  screaming at the farther end of the room, shrieking as if witches were running red
                  hot needles into her. Edgar stood on the hearth weeping silently, and in the
                  middle of the table sat a little dog shaking its paw and yelping, which from their
                  mutual accusations, we understood they had nearly pulled in two between them. The
                  idiots! That was their pleasure -- to <pb n="I.105" facs="pageImages/I.113.jpg"/>quarrel who should hold a heap of warm hair,
                  and each begin to cry because both, after struggling to get it, refused to take
                  it. We laughed outright at the petted things. We did despise them. When would you
                  catch me wishing to have what Catherine wanted, or find us by ourselves seeking
                  entertainment in yelling, and sobbing, and rolling on the ground,
                  divided by the whole room? I'd not exchange for a thousand lives my condition here
                  for Edgar Linton's at Thrushcross Grange -- not if I might have the privilege of
                  flinging Joseph off the highest gable, and painting the house-front with Hindley's
                  blood!" </p>
               <p>"Hush, hush!" I interrupted. "Still you have not told me, Heathcliff, how
                  Catherine is left behind." </p>
               <p>"I told you we laughed," he answered. "The Lintons heard us, and with one accord
                  they shot like arrows to the door. There was silence, and then a cry, 'O mamma,
                  mamma! <pb n="I.106" facs="pageImages/I.114.jpg"/>O papa! O mamma, come here. O papa, oh!' They really did howl out something
                  in that way. We made frightful noises to terrify them still more, and then we
                  dropped off the ledge because somebody was drawing the bars, and we felt we had
                  better flee. I had Cathy by the hand, and was urging her on, when all at once she
                  fell down. 'Run, Heathcliff, run!' she whispered. 'They have let the bull-dog
                  loose, and he holds me!' The devil had seized her ankle, Nelly; I heard his
                  abominable snorting. She did not yell out -- no! she would have scorned to do it
                  if she had been spitted on the horns of a mad cow. I did, though. I vociferated
                  curses enough to annihilate any fiend in Christendom; and I got a stone and thrust
                  it between his jaws, and tried with all my might to cram it down his throat. A
                  beast of a servant came up with a lantern at last, shouting, 'Keep fast, Skulker,
                  keep fast!' <pb n="I.107" facs="pageImages/I.115.jpg"/>He changed his note, however, when he saw Skulker's game. The dog was
                  throttled off, his huge purple tongue hanging half a foot out of his mouth, and
                  his pendent lips streaming with bloody slaver. The man took Cathy up. She was sick
                  -- not from fear, I'm certain, but from pain. He carried her in. I followed,
                  grumbling execrations and vengeance. 'What prey, Robert?' hallooed Linton from the
                  entrance. 'Skulker has caught a little girl, sir,' he replied; 'and there's a lad
                  here,' he added, making a clutch at me, 'who looks an out-and-outer. Very like,
                  the robbers were for putting them through the window to open the doors
                  to the gang after all were asleep, that they might murder us at their ease -- Hold
                  your tongue, you foul-mouthed thief, you! You shall go to the gallows for this --
                  Mr. Linton, sir, don't lay by your gun.' 'No, no, Robert,' said the old fool. <pb n="I.108" facs="pageImages/I.116.jpg"/>'The
                  rascals knew that yesterday was my rent-day. They thought to have me cleverly.
                  Come in; I'll furnish them a reception. -- There, John, fasten the chain -- Give
                  Skulker some water, Jenny. To beard a magistrate in his stronghold, and on the
                  Sabbath, too! Where will their insolence stop? -- Oh, my dear Mary, look here!
                  Don't be afraid; it is but a boy, yet the villain scowls so plainly in his face;
                  would it not be a kindness to the country to hang him at once, before he shows his
                  nature in acts as well as features?' He pulled me under the chandelier, and Mrs.
                  Linton placed her spectacles on her nose and raised her hands in horror. The
                  cowardly children crept nearer also, Isabella lisping, 'Frightful thing! Put him
                  in the cellar, papa. He's exactly like the son of the fortune-teller that stole my
                  tame pheasant. -- Isn't he, Edgar?'</p>
               <p>"While they examined me Cathy came round. She heard the last speech, and laughed.
                  <pb n="I.109" facs="pageImages/I.117.jpg"/>Edgar Linton, after an inquisitive stare, collected sufficient wit to recognize
                  her. They see us at church, you know, though we seldom meet them elsewhere.
                  'That's Miss Earnshaw!' he whispered to his mother; 'and look how Skulker has
                  bitten her -- how her foot bleeds!' </p>
               <p>" 'Miss Earnshaw! Nonsense!' cried the dame; 'Miss Earnshaw scouring the country
                  with a gipsy! And yet, my dear, the child is in mourning. Surely it is. And she
                  may be lamed for life.' </p>
               <p>" 'What culpable carelessness in her brother!' exclaimed Mr. Linton, turning from
                  me to Catherine. 'I've understood from Shielders' " (that was the curate, sir) "
                  'that he lets her grow up in absolute heathenism. But who is this? Where did she
                  pick up this companion? Oho! I declare he is that strange acquisition my late
                  neighbour made in his journey to Liverpool -- a little Lascar, or an American or
                  Spanish castaway.' </p>
               <pb n="I.110" facs="pageImages/I.118.jpg"/>
               <p>" 'A wicked boy, at all events,' remarked the old lady, 'and quite unfit for a
                  decent house! Did you notice his language, Linton? I'm shocked that my children
                  should have heard it.' </p>
               <p>"I recommenced cursing -- don't be angry, Nelly -- and so Robert was ordered to
                  take me off. I refused to go without Cathy. He dragged me into the garden, pushed
                  the lantern into my hand, assured me that Mr. Earnshaw should be informed of my
                  behaviour, and bidding me march directly, secured the door again. The curtains
                  were still looped up at one corner, and I resumed my station as spy; because, if
                  Catherine had wished to return, I intended shattering their great glass panes to a
                  million of fragments, unless they let her out. She sat on the sofa quietly. Mrs.
                  Linton took off the gray cloak of the dairymaid which we had borrowed for our
                  excursion, shaking her head and expostulating with her, <pb n="I.111" facs="pageImages/I.119.jpg"/>I suppose. She was a young
                  lady, and they made a distinction between her treatment and mine. Then the
                  woman-servant brought a basin of warm water, and washed her feet; and Mr. Linton
                  mixed a tumbler of negus, and Isabella emptied a plateful of cakes into her lap,
                  and Edgar stood gaping at a distance. Afterwards they dried and combed her
                  beautiful hair, and gave her a pair of enormous slippers, and wheeled her to the
                  fire; and I left her, as merry as she could be, dividing her food between the
                  little dog and Skulker, whose nose she pinched as he ate, and kindling a spark of
                  spirit in the vacant blue eyes of the Lintons -- a dim reflection from her own
                  enchanting face. I saw they were full of stupid admiration; she is so immeasurably
                  superior to them -- to everybody on earth, is she not, Nelly?" </p>
               <p>"There will more come of this business than you reckon on," I answered, covering
                  him up and extinguishing the light. "You are incura- <pb n="I.112" facs="pageImages/I.120.jpg"/>ble, Heathcliff; and Mr.
                  Hindley will have to proceed to extremities -- see if he won't." </p>
               <p>My words came truer than I desired. The luckless adventure made Earnshaw furious.
                  And then Mr. Linton, to mend matters, paid us a visit himself on the
                  morrow, and read the young master such a lecture on the road he guided his family
                  that he was stirred to look about him in earnest.</p>
               <p>Heathcliff received no flogging, but he was told that the first word he spoke to
                  Miss Catherine should ensure a dismissal; and Mrs. Earnshaw undertook to keep her
                  sister-in-law in due restraint when she returned home, employing art, not force.
                  With force she would have found it impossible. </p>
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               <p>Cathy stayed at Thrushcross Grange five weeks, till Christmas. By that time her
                  ankle was thoroughly cured, and her manners much improved. The mistress visited
                  her often, in the interval, and commenced her plan of reform by trying to raise
                  her self-respect with fine clothes and flattery, which she took readily: so that,
                  instead of a wild, hatless little savage jumping into the house, and rushing to
                  squeeze us all breathless, there lighted <pb n="I.114" facs="pageImages/I.122.jpg"/>from a handsome black pony a very
                  dignified person, with brown ringlets falling from the cover of a feathered
                  beaver, and a long cloth habit which she was obliged to hold up with both hands
                  that she might sail in.</p>
               <p>Hindley lifted her from her horse, exclaiming delightedly,</p>
               <p>"Why, Cathy, you are quite a beauty! I should scarcely have known you -- you look
                  like a lady now -- Isabella Linton is not to be compared with her, is she, Frances
                  ?"</p>
               <p>"Isabella has not her natural advantages," replied his wife, "but she must mind
                  and not grow wild again here. Ellen, help Miss Catherine off with her things --
                  Stay, dear, you will disarrange your curls -- let me untie your hat."</p>
               <p>I removed the habit, and there shone forth beneath, a grand plaid silk frock,
                  white trousers, and burnished shoes; and, while her eyes sparkled joyfully when
                  the dogs came bounding up to welcome her, she dare hardly <pb n="I.115" facs="pageImages/I.123.jpg"/>touch them lest they
                  should fawn upon her splendid garments.</p>
               <p>She kissed me gently -- I was all flour making the Christmas cake, and it would
                  not have done to give me a hug; and then she looked round for Heathcliff. Mr. and
                  Mrs. Earnshaw watched anxiously their meeting, thinking it would enable them to
                  judge, in some measure, what grounds they had for hoping to succeed in separating
                  the two friends. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff was hard to discover at first. If he were careless and
                  uncared for before Catherine's absence, he had been ten times more so since.
                  Nobody but I even did him the kindness to call him a dirty boy, and bid him wash
                  himself, once a week; and children of his age seldom have a natural pleasure in
                  soap and water. Therefore, not to mention his clothes, which had seen three
                  months' service in mire and dust, and his thick uncombed hair, the surface of his
                  face and hands was dismally beclouded. <pb n="I.116" facs="pageImages/I.124.jpg"/>He might well skulk behind the settle, on
                  beholding such a bright, graceful damsel enter the house, instead of a
                  rough-headed counterpart of himself, as he expected. "Is Heathcliff not here?" she
                  demanded, pulling off her gloves, and displaying fingers wonderfully whitened with
                  doing nothing and staying indoors. </p>
               <p>"Heathcliff, you may come forward," cried Mr. Hindley, enjoying his discomfiture,
                  and gratified to see what a forbidding young blackguard he would be compelled to
                  present himself. "You may come and wish Miss Catherine welcome, like the other
                  servants." </p>
               <p>Cathy, catching a glimpse of her friend in his concealment, flew to embrace him.
                  She bestowed seven or eight kisses on his cheek within the second, and then
                  stopped, and drawing back, burst into a laugh, exclaiming, "Why, how very black
                  and cross you look! and how -- how funny and grim! But that's because I'm used to
                  Edgar and Isabella Lin- <pb n="I.117" facs="pageImages/I.125.jpg"/>ton. Well, Heathcliff, have you forgotten me?" </p>
               <p>She had some reason to put the question, for shame and pride threw double gloom
                  over his countenance, and kept him immovable. </p>
               <p>"Shake hands, Heathcliff," said Mr. Earnshaw, condescendingly; "once in away that
                  is permitted." </p>
               <p>"I shall not," replied the boy, finding his tongue at last; "I shall not stand to
                  be laughed at. I shall not bear it." </p>
               <p>And he would have broken from the circle, but Miss Cathy seized him again. </p>
               <p>"I did not mean to laugh at you," she said; "I could not hinder 
                  myself. Heathcliff, shake hands at least. What are you sulky for? It was only
                  that you looked odd. If you wash your face and brush your hair it will be all
                  right; but you are so dirty!" </p>
               <p>She gazed concernedly at the dusky fingers she held in her own, and also at her
                  dress, <pb n="I.118" facs="pageImages/I.126.jpg"/>which she feared had gained no embellishment from its contact with his. </p>
               <p>"You needn't have touched me," he answered, following her eye and snatching away
                  his hand. "I shall be as dirty as I please; and I like to be dirty, and I will be
                  dirty." </p>
               <p>With that he dashed head foremost out of the room, amid the merriment of the
                  master and mistress, and to the serious disturbance of Catherine, who could not
                  comprehend how her remarks should have produced such an exhibition of bad temper. </p>
               <p>After playing lady's-maid to the newcomer, and putting my cakes in the oven, and
                  making the house and kitchen cheerful with great fires, befitting Christmas Eve, I
                  prepared to sit down and amuse myself by singing carols all alone, regardless of
                  Joseph's affirmations that he considered the merry tunes I chose as next door to
                  songs. He had retired to private prayer in his <pb n="I.119" facs="pageImages/I.127.jpg"/>chamber, and Mr. and Mrs. Earnshaw
                  were engaging Missy's attention by sundry gay trifles bought for her to present to
                  the little Lintons, as an acknowledgment of their kindness. They had invited them
                  to spend the morrow at Wuthering Heights, and the invitation had been accepted, on
                  one condition. Mrs. Linton begged that her darlings might be kept carefully apart
                  from that "naughty, swearing boy." </p>
               <p>Under these circumstances I remained solitary. I smelt the rich scent of the
                  heating spices, and admired the shining kitchen utensils, the polished clock,
                  decked in holly, the silver mugs ranged on a tray ready to be filled with mulled
                  ale for supper, and, above all, the speckless purity of my particular care -- the
                  scoured and well-swept floor. I gave due inward applause to every object, and then
                  I remembered how old Earnshaw used to come in when all was tidied, and
                  call me a cant lass, and slip a shilling into my <pb n="I.120" facs="pageImages/I.128.jpg"/>hand as a Christmas-box; and from
                  that I went on to think of his fondness for Heathcliff, and his dread lest he
                  should suffer neglect after death had removed him; and that naturally led me to
                  consider the poor lad's situation now, and from singing I changed my mind to
                  crying. It struck me soon, however, there would be more sense in endeavouring to
                  repair some of his wrongs than shedding tears over them. I got up and walked into
                  the court to seek him. He was not far. I found him smoothing the glossy coat of
                  the new pony in the stable, and feeding the other beasts, according to custom. </p>
               <p>"Make haste, Heathcliff!" I said; "the kitchen is so comfortable, and Joseph is
                  upstairs. Make haste, and let me dress you smart before Miss Cathy comes out, and
                  then you can sit together, with the whole hearth to yourselves, and have a long
                  chatter till bedtime." </p>
               <pb n="I.121" facs="pageImages/I.129.jpg"/>
               <p>He proceeded with his task, and never turned his head towards me. </p>
               <p>"Come; are you coming?" I continued. "There's a little cake for each of you,
                  nearly enough; and you'll need half an hour's donning."' </p>
               <p>I waited five minutes, but getting no answer left him. Catherine supped with her
                  brother and sister-in-law. Joseph and I joined at an unsociable meal, seasoned
                  with reproofs on one side and sauciness on the other. His cake and cheese remained
                  on the table all night for the fairies. He managed to continue work till nine
                  o'clock, and then marched dumb and dour to his chamber. Cathy sat up late, having
                  a world of things to order for the reception of her new friends. She came into the
                  kitchen once to speak to her old one; but he was gone, and she only stayed to ask
                  what was the matter with him, and then went back. In the morning he rose early;
                  and as it <pb n="I.122" facs="pageImages/I.130.jpg"/>was a holiday carried his ill-humour on to the moors, not reappearing
                  till the family were departed for church. Fasting and reflection
                  seemed to have brought him to a better spirit. He hung about me for a while, and
                  having screwed up his courage, exclaimed abruptly, -- </p>
               <p>"Nelly, make me decent; I'm going to be good." </p>
               <p>"High time, Heathcliff," I said; "you have grieved Catherine. She's sorry she ever
                  came home, I dare say. It looks as if you envied her because she is more thought
                  of than you." </p>
               <p>The notion of envying Catherine was incomprehensible to him, but the notion of
                  grieving her he understood clearly enough. </p>
               <p>"Did she say she was grieved?" he inquired, looking very serious. </p>
               <p>"She cried when I told her you were off again this morning." </p>
               <p>"Well, I cried last night," he returned, "and I had more reason to cry than she." </p>
               <pb n="I.123" facs="pageImages/I.131.jpg"/>
               <p>"Yes. You had the reason of going to bed with a proud heart and an empty stomach,"
                  said I. "Proud people breed sad sorrows for themselves. But, if you be ashamed of
                  your touchiness, you must ask pardon, mind, when she comes in. You must go up and
                  offer to kiss her, and say -- you know best what to say; only do it heartily, and
                  not as if you thought her converted into a stranger by her grand dress. And now,
                  though I have dinner to get ready, I'll steal time to arrange you so that Edgar
                  Linton shall look quite a doll beside you; and that he does. You are younger, and
                  yet, I'll be bound, you are taller and twice as broad across the shoulders. You
                  could knock him down in a twinkling. Don't you feel that you could?" </p>
               <p>Heathcliff's face brightened a moment; then it was overcast afresh, and he sighed. </p>
               <p>"But, Nelly, if I knocked him down twenty times, that wouldn't make him less
                  handsome <pb n="I.124" facs="pageImages/I.132.jpg"/>or me more so. I wish I had light hair and a fair skin, and was dressed
                  and behaved as well, and had a chance of being as rich as he will be." </p>
               <p>"And cried for mamma at every turn," I added, "and trembled if a country lad
                  heaved his fist against you, and sat at home all day for a shower of rain. Oh,
                  Heathcliff, you are showing a poor spirit! Come to the glass, and I'll
                  let you see what you should wish. Do you mark those two lines between your eyes;
                  and those thick brows that, instead of rising arched, sink in the middle; and that
                  couple of black fiends, so deeply buried, who never open their windows boldly, but
                  lurk glinting under them, like devil's spies? Wish and learn to smooth away the
                  surly wrinkles, to raise your lids frankly, and change the fiends to confident,
                  innocent angels, suspecting and doubting nothing, and always seeing friends where
                  they are not sure of foes. Don't get the expression of a vicious <pb n="I.125" facs="pageImages/I.133.jpg"/>cur that appears
                  to know the kicks it gets are its desert, and yet hates all the world as well as
                  the kicker for what it suffers." </p>
               <p>"In other words, I must wish for Edgar Linton's great blue eyes and even
                  forehead," he replied. "I do, and that won't help me to them." </p>
               <p>"A good heart will help you to a bonny face, my lad," I continued, "if you were a
                  regular black; and a bad one will turn the bonniest into something worse than
                  ugly. And now that we've done washing, and combing, and sulking, tell me whether
                  you don't think yourself rather handsome? I'll tell you I do. You're fit for a
                  prince in disguise. Who knows but your father was Emperor of China, and your
                  mother an Indian queen, each of them able to buy up, with one week's income,
                  Wuthering Heights and Thrushcross Grange together? And you were kidnapped by
                  wicked sailors and brought to England. Were I in your place, I would frame high
                  notions of <pb n="I.126" facs="pageImages/I.134.jpg"/>my birth; and the thoughts of what I was should give me courage and
                  dignity to support the oppressions of a little farmer." </p>
               <p>So I chattered on; and Heathcliff gradually lost his frown and began to look quite
                  pleasant, when all at once our conversation was interrupted by a rumbling sound
                  moving up the road and entering the court. He ran to the window and I to the door,
                  just in time to behold the two Lintons descend from the family carriage, smothered
                  in cloaks and furs, and the Earnshaws dismount from their horses. They often rode
                  to church in winter. Catherine took a hand of each of the children, and brought
                  them into the house and set them before the fire, which quickly put colour into
                  their white faces. </p>
               <p>I urged my companion to hasten now and show his amiable humour, and he willingly
                  obeyed; but ill luck would have it that, as he opened the door leading from the
                  kitchen on one side, Hindley opened it on the other. They <pb n="I.127" facs="pageImages/I.135.jpg"/>met, and the master,
                  irritated at seeing him clean and cheerful, or, perhaps, eager to keep his promise
                  to Mrs. Linton, shoved him back with a sudden thrust, and angrily bade Joseph
                  "keep the fellow out of the room; send him into the garret till dinner is over.
                  He'll be cramming his fingers in the tarts and stealing the fruit, if left alone
                  with them a minute." </p>
               <p>"Nay, sir," I could not avoid answering; "he'll touch nothing -- not he; and I
                  suppose he must have his share of the dainties as well as we." </p>
               <p>"He shall have his share of my hand if I catch him downstairs till dark," cried
                  Hindley -- "Begone, you vagabond! What! you are attempting the coxcomb, are you?
                  Wait till I get hold of those elegant locks; see if I won't pull them a bit
                  longer." </p>
               <p>"They are long enough already," observed Master Linton, peeping from the doorway;
                  "I wonder they don't make his head ache. It's like a colt's mane over his eyes." </p>
               <pb n="I.128" facs="pageImages/I.136.jpg"/>
               <p>He ventured this remark without any intention to insult; but Heathcliff's violent
                  nature was not prepared to endure the appearance of impertinence from one whom he
                  seemed to hate, even then, as a rival. He seized a tureen of hot apple sauce --
                  the first thing that came under his gripe -- and dashed it full against the
                  speaker's face and neck, who instantly commenced a lament that brought Isabella
                  and Catherine hurrying to the place. Mr. Earnshaw snatched up the culprit
                  directly, and conveyed him to his chamber, where, doubtless, he administered a
                  rough remedy to cool the fit of passion, for he appeared red and breathless. I got
                  the dish-cloth, and rather spitefully scrubbed Edgar's nose and mouth, affirming
                  it served him right for meddling. His sister began weeping to go home, and Cathy
                  stood by confounded, blushing for all. </p>
               <p>"You should not have spoken to him!" she expostulated with Master
                  Linton. "He was <pb n="I.129" facs="pageImages/I.137.jpg"/>in a bad temper; and now you've spoilt your visit, and he'll be
                  flogged. I hate him to be flogged. I can't eat my dinner. Why did you speak to
                  him, Edgar?" </p>
               <p>"I didn't," sobbed the youth, escaping from my hands and finishing the remainder
                  of the purification with his cambric pocket-handkerchief. "I promised mamma that I
                  wouldn't say one word to him, and I didn't." </p>
               <p>"Well, don't cry," replied Catherine contemptuously; "you're not killed. Don't
                  make more mischief. My brother is coming; be quiet! -- Hush, Isabella! Has anybody
                  hurt you?" </p>
               <p>"There, there, children; to your seats," cried Hindley, bustling in. "That brute
                  of a lad has warmed me nicely. Next time, Master Edgar, take the law into your own
                  fists; it will give you an appetite." </p>
               <p>The little party recovered its equanimity at sight of the fragrant feast. They
                  were hun- <pb n="I.130" facs="pageImages/I.138.jpg"/>gry after their ride, and easily consoled, since no real harm had befallen
                  them. Mr. Earnshaw carved bountiful platefuls, and the mistress made them merry
                  with lively talk. I waited behind her chair, and was pained to behold Catherine,
                  with dry eyes and an indifferent air, commence cutting up the wing of a goose
                  before her. "An unfeeling child," I thought to myself; "how lightly she dismisses
                  her old playmate's troubles! I could not have imagined her to be so selfish." She
                  lifted a mouthful to her lips, then she set it down again; her cheeks flushed, and
                  the tears gushed over them. She slipped her fork to the floor, and hastily dived
                  under the cloth to conceal her emotion. I did not call her unfeeling long, for I
                  perceived she was in purgatory throughout the day, and wearying to find an
                  opportunity of getting by herself, or paying a visit to Heathcliff, who had been
                  locked up by the master, as I discovered, on <pb n="I.131" facs="pageImages/I.139.jpg"/>endeavouring to introduce to him a
                  private mess of victuals. </p>
               <p>In the evening we had a dance. Cathy begged that he might be liberated then, as
                  Isabella Linton had no partner. Her entreaties were vain, and I was appointed to
                  supply the deficiency. We got rid of all gloom in the excitement of the exercise,
                  and our pleasure was increased by the arrival of the Gimmerton band,
                  mustering fifteen strong -- a trumpet, a trombone, clarionets, bassoons, French
                  horns, and a bass viol, besides singers. They go the rounds of all the respectable
                  houses, and receive contributions every Christmas, and we esteemed it a first-rate
                  treat to hear them. After the usual carols had been sung, we set them to songs and
                  glees. Mrs. Earnshaw loved the music, and so they gave us plenty. </p>
               <p>Catherine loved it too, but she said it sounded sweetest at the top of the steps,
                  and she went up in the dark; I followed. They <pb n="I.132" facs="pageImages/I.140.jpg"/>shut the house door below, never
                  noting our absence, it was so full of people. She made no stay at the stairs'
                  head, but mounted farther to the garret where Heathcliff was confined, and called
                  him. He stubbornly declined answering for a while; she persevered, and finally
                  persuaded him to hold communion with her through the boards. I let the poor things
                  converse unmolested, till I supposed the songs were going to cease, and the
                  singers to get some refreshment; then I clambered up the ladder to warn her.
                  Instead of finding her outside, I heard her voice within. The little monkey had
                  crept by the skylight of one garret, along the roof, into the skylight of the
                  other, and it was with the utmost difficulty I could coax her out again. When she
                  did come, Heathcliff came with her, and she insisted that I should take him into
                  the kitchen, as my fellow-servant had gone to a neighbour's to be removed from the
                  sound <pb n="I.133" facs="pageImages/I.141.jpg"/>of our "devil's psalmody," as it pleased him to call it. I told them I
                  intended by no means to encourage their tricks, but as the prisoner had never
                  broken his fast since yesterday's dinner, I would wink at his cheating Mr. Hindley
                  that once. He went down. I set him a stool by the fire, and offered him a quantity
                  of good things; but he was sick, and could eat little, and my attempts to
                  entertain him were thrown away. He leant his two elbows on his knees, and his chin
                  on his hands, and remained wrapt in dumb meditation. On my inquiring the subject
                  of his thoughts he answered gravely, -- </p>
               <p>"I'm trying to settle how I shall pay Hindley back. I don't care how long I wait,
                  if I can only do it at last. I hope he will not die before I do!" </p>
               <p>"For shame, Heathcliff!" said I "It is for God to punish wicked people; we should
                  learn to forgive." </p>
               <pb n="I.134" facs="pageImages/I.142.jpg"/>
               <p>"No; God won't have the satisfaction that I shall," he returned. "I only wish I
                  knew the best way. Let me alone, and I'll plan it out; while I'm thinking of that
                  I don't feel pain." </p>
               <p>But, Mr. Lockwood, I forget these tales cannot divert you. I'm annoyed how I
                  should dream of chattering on at such a rate, and your gruel cold, and you nodding
                  for bed! I could have told Heathcliff's history -- all that you need hear -- in
                  half a dozen words. </p>
               <p>Thus interrupting herself, the housekeeper rose and proceeded to lay aside her
                  sewing; but I felt incapable of moving from the hearth, and I was very far from
                  nodding. "Sit still, Mrs. Dean," I cried, "do sit still another half-hour! You've
                  done just right to tell the story leisurely -- that is the method I like; and you
                  must finish it in the same style. I am interested in every character you have
                  mentioned, more or less." </p>
               <p>"The clock is on the stroke of eleven, sir." </p>
               <p>"No matter. I'm not accustomed to go to <pb n="I.135" facs="pageImages/I.143.jpg"/>bed in the long hours. One or two is early
                  enough for a person who lies till ten." </p>
               <p>"You shouldn't lie till ten. There's the very prime of the morning gone long
                  before that time. A person who has not done one half his day's work by ten o'clock
                  runs a chance of leaving the other half undone." </p>
               <p>"Nevertheless, Mrs. Dean, resume your chair, because to-morrow I intend
                  lengthening the night till afternoon. I prognosticate for myself an obstinate
                  cold, at least." </p>
               <p>"I hope not, sir. Well, you must allow me to leap over some three years. During
                  that space Mrs. Earnshaw -- " </p>
               <p>"No, no; I'll allow nothing of the sort. Are you acquainted with the mood of mind
                  in which, if you were seated alone, and the cat licking its kitten on the rug
                  before you, you would watch the operation so intently that puss's neglect of one
                  ear would put you seriously out of temper?" </p>
               <p>"A terribly lazy mood, I should say." </p>
               <pb n="I.136" facs="pageImages/I.144.jpg"/>
               <p>"On the contrary, a tiresomely active one. It is mine at present; and, therefore,
                  continue minutely. I perceive that people in these regions acquire over people in
                  towns the value that a spider in a dungeon does over a spider in a cottage, to
                  their various occupants; and yet the deepened attraction is not entirely owing to
                  the situation of the looker-on. They do live more in earnest, more in themselves,
                  and less in surface, change, and frivolous external things. I could fancy a love
                  for life here almost possible; and I was a fixed unbeliever in any love of a
                  year's standing. One state resembles setting a hungry man down to a single dish,
                  on which he may concentrate his entire appetite and do it justice; the other,
                  introducing him to a table laid out by French cooks. He can perhaps extract as
                  much enjoyment from the whole, but each part is a mere atom in his regard and
                  remembrance." </p>
               <p>"Oh, here we are the same as anywhere <pb n="I.137" facs="pageImages/I.145.jpg"/>else, when you get to know us," observed
                  Mrs. Dean, somewhat puzzled at my speech. </p>
               <p>"Excuse me," I responded. "You, my good friend, are a striking evidence against
                  that assertion. Excepting a few provincialisms of slight consequence, you have no
                  marks of the manners which I am habituated to consider as peculiar to your class.
                  I am sure you have thought a great deal more than the generality of servants
                  think. You have been compelled to cultivate your reflective faculties, for want of
                  occasions for frittering your life away in silly trifles." </p>
               <p>Mrs. Dean laughed.</p>
               <p/>
               <p>"I certainly esteem myself a steady, reasonable kind of body," she said -- "not
                  exactly from living among the hills and seeing one set of faces and one series of
                  actions from year's end to year's end, but I have undergone sharp discipline,
                  which has taught me wisdom; and then, I have read more than you would fancy, Mr.
                  Lockwood. You could not open a book <pb n="I.138" facs="pageImages/I.146.jpg"/>in this library that I have not looked into,
                  and got something out of also -- unless it be that range of Greek and Latin, and
                  that of French; and those I know one from another. It is as much as you can expect
                  of a poor man's daughter. However, if I am to follow my story in true gossip's
                  fashion, I had better go on; and instead of leaping three years, I
                  will be content to pass to the next summer -- the summer of 1778; that is nearly
                  twenty-three years ago." </p>
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               <head>Chapter VIII</head>
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               <p>On the morning of a fine June day, my first bonny little nursling, and the last of
                  the ancient Earnshaw stock, was born.</p>
               <p>We were busy with the hay in a far away field, when the girl that usually brought
                  our breakfasts came running, an hour too soon, across the meadow and up the lane,
                  calling me as she ran.</p>
               <p>"Oh, such a grand bairn!" she panted out. "The finest lad that ever breathed! But
                  the doctor says missis must go; he says she's been <pb n="I.140" facs="pageImages/I.148.jpg"/>in a consumption these many
                  months. I heard him tell Mr. Hindley -- and now she has nothing to keep her, and
                  she'll be dead before winter. You must come home directly. You're to nurse it,
                  Nelly -- to feed it with sugar and milk, and take care of it, day and night -- I
                  wish I were you, because it will be all yours when there is no missis!"</p>
               <p>"But is she very ill?" I asked, flinging down my rake, and tying my bonnet.</p>
               <p>"I guess she is; yet she looks bravely," replied the girl, "and she talks as if
                  she thought of living to see it grow a man. She's out of her head for joy, it's
                  such a beauty ! If I were her I'm certain I should not die. I should get better at
                  the bare-sight of it, in spite of Kenneth. I was fairly mad at him. Dame Archer
                  brought the cherub down to master, in the house, and his face just began to light
                  up, then the old croaker steps forward, and, says he: -- 'Earnshaw, it's a
                  blessing your wife has been spared to leave you this son. When she <pb n="I.141" facs="pageImages/I.149.jpg"/>came, I felt
                  convinced we shouldn't keep her long; and now, I must tell you, the winter will
                  probably finish her. Don't take on and fret about it too much. It can't be helped.
                  And besides, you should have known better than to choose such a rush of a lass!'" </p>
               <p>"And what did the master answer?" I inquired. </p>
               <p>"I think he swore; but I didn't mind him -- I was straining to see the bairn." And
                  she began again to describe it rapturously. I, as zealous as herself,
                  hurried eagerly home to admire, on my part, though I was very sad for Hindley's
                  sake. He had room in his heart only for two idols -- his wife and himself. He
                  doted on both, and adored one, and I couldn't conceive how he would bear the loss. </p>
               <p>When we got to Wuthering Heights, there he stood at the front door; and, as I
                  passed in, I asked, "How was the baby?" </p>
               <p>"Nearly ready to run about, Nell!" he replied, putting on a cheerful smile. </p>
               <pb n="I.142" facs="pageImages/I.150.jpg"/>
               <p>"And the mistress?" I ventured to inquire; "the doctor says she's -- " </p>
               <p>"Damn the doctor!" he interrupted, reddening. "Frances is quite right; she'll be
                  perfectly well by this time next week. Are you going upstairs? Will you tell her
                  that I'll come, if she'll promise not to talk. I left her because she would not
                  hold her tongue; and she must. Tell her Mr. Kenneth says she must be quiet." </p>
               <p>I delivered this message to Mrs. Earnshaw. She seemed in flighty spirits, and
                  replied merrily, -- </p>
               <p>"I hardly spoke a word, Ellen, and there he has gone out twice, crying. Well, say
                  I promise I won't speak; but that does not bind me not to laugh at him." </p>
               <p>Poor soul! Till within a week of her death that gay heart never failed her, and
                  her husband persisted doggedly -- nay, furiously -- in affirming her health
                  improved every day. When Kenneth warned him that his medicines <pb n="I.143" facs="pageImages/I.151.jpg"/>were useless at
                  that stage of the malady, and he needn't put him to further expense by attending
                  her, he retorted, -- </p>
               <p>"I know you need not; she's well -- she does not want any more attendance from
                  you! She never was in a consumption. It was a fever, and it is gone; her pulse is
                  as slow as mine now, and her cheek as cool." </p>
               <p>He told his wife the same story, and she seemed to believe him; but one night,
                  while leaning on his shoulder in the act of saying she thought she should be able
                  to get up to-morrow, a fit of coughing took her -- a very slight one. He raised
                  her in his arms; she put her two hands about his neck, her face
                  changed, and she was dead. </p>
               <p>As the girl had anticipated, the child Hareton fell wholly into my hands. Mr.
                  Earnshaw, provided he saw him healthy, and never heard him cry, was contented, as
                  far as regarded him. For himself, he grew desperate; his sorrow was of that kind
                  that will not <pb n="I.144" facs="pageImages/I.152.jpg"/>lament. He neither wept nor prayed; he cursed and defied --
                  execrated God and man, and gave himself up to reckless dissipation. The servants
                  could not bear his tyrannical and evil conduct long. Joseph and I were the only
                  two that would stay. I had not the heart to leave my charge; and besides, you know
                  I had been his foster-sister, and excused his behaviour more readily than a
                  stranger would. Joseph remained to hector over tenants and labourers, and because
                  it was his vocation to be where he had plenty of wickedness to reprove. </p>
               <p>The master's bad ways and bad companions formed a pretty example for Catherine and
                  Heathcliff. His treatment of the latter was enough to make a fiend of a saint.
                  And, truly, it appeared as if the lad were possessed of something diabolical at
                  that period. He delighted to witness Hindley degrading himself past redemption,
                  and became daily more notable for savage sullenness and ferocity. <pb n="I.145" facs="pageImages/I.153.jpg"/>I could not half
                  tell what an infernal house we had. The curate dropped calling, and nobody decent
                  came near us at last, unless Edgar Linton's visits to Miss Cathy might be an
                  exception. At fifteen she was the queen of the countryside; she had no peer, and
                  she did turn out a haughty, headstrong creature! I own I did not like her after
                  her infancy was past, and I vexed her frequently by trying to bring down her
                  arrogance; she never took an aversion to me, though. She had a wondrous constancy
                  to old attachments -- even Heathcliff kept his hold on her affections unalterably;
                  and young Linton, with all his superiority, found it difficult to make an equally
                  deep impression. He was my late master; that is his portrait over the fireplace.
                  It used to hang on one side, and his wife's on the other; but hers has
                  been removed, or else you might see something of what she was. Can you make that
                  out? </p>
               <p>Mrs. Dean raised the candle, and I discerned <pb n="I.146" facs="pageImages/I.154.jpg"/>a soft-featured face, exceedingly
                  resembling the young lady at the Heights, but more pensive and amiable in
                  expression. It formed a sweet picture. The long light hair curled slightly on the
                  temples; the eyes were large and serious, the figure almost too graceful. I did
                  not marvel how Catherine Earnshaw could forget her first friend for such an
                  individual. I marvelled much how he, with a mind to correspond with his person,
                  could fancy my idea of Catherine Earnshaw. </p>
               <p>"A very agreeable portrait," I observed to the house-keeper. "Is it like?" </p>
               <p>"Yes," she answered; "but he looked better when he was animated. That is his
                  everyday countenance. He wanted spirit in general." </p>
               <p>Catherine had kept up her acquaintance with the Lintons since her five weeks'
                  residence among them; and as she had no temptation to show her rough side in their
                  company, and had the sense to be ashamed of being rude where she experienced such
                  invariable cour- <pb n="I.147" facs="pageImages/I.155.jpg"/>tesy, she imposed unwittingly on the old lady and gentleman by her
                  ingenious cordiality, gained the admiration of Isabella, and the heart and soul of
                  her brother -- acquisitions that flattered her from the first, for she was full of
                  ambition, and led her to adopt a double character without exactly intending to
                  deceive any one. In the place where she heard Heathcliff termed a "vulgar young
                  ruffian," and "worse than a brute," she took care not to act like him; but at home
                  she had small inclination to practise politeness that would only be laughed at,
                  and restrain an unruly nature when it would bring her neither credit nor praise. </p>
               <p>Mr. Edgar seldom mustered courage to visit Wuthering Heights openly. He had a
                  terror of Earnshaw's reputation, and shrank from encountering him; and yet he was
                  always received with our best attempts at civility. The master himself avoided
                  offending him, knowing why he came; and if he could not be gra- <pb n="I.148" facs="pageImages/I.156.jpg"/>cious,
                  kept out of the way. I rather think his appearance there was distasteful to
                  Catherine. She was not artful, never played the coquette, and had evidently an
                  objection to her two friends meeting at all; for when Heathcliff expressed
                  contempt of Linton in his presence, she could not half coincide as she did in his
                  absence; and when Linton evinced disgust and antipathy to Heathcliff, she dared
                  not treat his sentiments with indifference, as if depreciation of her playmate
                  were of scarcely any consequence to her. I've had many a laugh at her perplexities
                  and untold troubles, which she vainly strove to hide from my mockery. That sounds
                  ill-natured, but she was so proud it became really impossible to pity her
                  distresses, till she should be chastened into more humility. She did bring
                  herself, finally, to confess, and to confide in me. There was not a soul else that
                  she might fashion into an adviser. </p>
               <p>Mr. Hindley had gone from home one after- <pb n="I.149" facs="pageImages/I.157.jpg"/>noon, and Heathcliff presumed to give
                  himself a holiday on the strength of it. He had reached the age of sixteen then, I
                  think, and without having bad features or being deficient in intellect, he
                  contrived to convey an impression of inward and outward repulsiveness that his
                  present aspect retains no traces of. In the first place, he had by that time lost
                  the benefit of his early education. Continual hard work, begun soon and concluded
                  late, had extinguished any curiosity he once possessed in pursuit of knowledge,
                  and any love for books or learning. His childhood's sense of superiority instilled
                  into him by the favours of old Mr. Earnshaw was faded away. He struggled long to
                  keep up an equality with Catherine in her studies, and yielded with poignant
                  though silent regret; but he yielded completely, and there was no prevailing on
                  him to take a step in the way of moving upward, when he found he must necessarily
                  sink beneath his former level. Then personal <pb n="I.150" facs="pageImages/I.158.jpg"/>appearance sympathized with mental
                  deterioration. He acquired a slouching gait and ignoble look; his naturally 
                  reserved disposition was exaggerated into an almost idiotic excess of
                  unsociable moroseness, and he took a grim pleasure, apparently, in exciting the
                  aversion rather than the esteem of his few acquaintance. </p>
               <p>Catherine and he were constant companions still at his seasons of respite from
                  labour, but he had ceased to express his fondness for her in words, and recoiled
                  with angry suspicion from her girlish caresses, as if conscious there could be no
                  gratification in lavishing such marks of affection on him. On the before-named
                  occasion he came into the house to announce his intention of doing nothing, while
                  I was assisting Miss Cathy to arrange her dress. She had not reckoned on his
                  taking it into his head to be idle, and imagining she would have the whole place
                  to herself, she managed, by some means, to inform Mr. <pb n="I.151" facs="pageImages/I.159.jpg"/>Edgar of her brother's
                  absence, and was then preparing to receive him. </p>
               <p>"Cathy, are you busy this afternoon?" asked Heathcliff. "Are you going anywhere?" </p>
               <p>"No; it is raining," she answered. </p>
               <p>"Why have you that silk frock on, then?" he said. "Nobody coming here, I hope?" </p>
               <p>"Not that I know of," stammered miss; "but you should be in the field now,
                  Heathcliff. It is an hour past dinner-time. I thought you were gone." </p>
               <p>"Hindley does not often free us from his accursed presence," observed the boy.
                  "I'll not work any more to-day; I'll stay with you." </p>
               <p>"Oh, but Joseph will tell," she suggested. "You'd better go." </p>
               <p>"Joseph is loading lime on the further side of Pennistow Crag; it will take him
                  till dark, and he'll never know." </p>
               <p>So saying, he lounged to the fire and sat <pb n="I.152" facs="pageImages/I.160.jpg"/>down. Catherine reflected an instant
                  with knitted brows; she found it needful to smooth the way for an intrusion.
                  "Isabella and Edgar Linton talked of calling this afternoon," she said, at the
                  conclusion of a minute's silence. "As it rains, I hardly expect them; but they may
                  come, and if they do you run the risk of being scolded for no good." </p>
               <p>"Order Ellen to say you are engaged, Cathy," he persisted. "Don't
                  turn me out for those pitiful, silly friends of yours! I'm on the point,
                  sometimes, of complaining that they -- but I'll not." </p>
               <p>"That they what?" cried Catherine, gazing at him with a troubled countenance. --
                  "Oh, Nelly!" she added petulantly, jerking her head away from my hands, "you've
                  combed my hair quite out of curl. That's enough; let me alone. -- What are you on
                  the point of complaining about, Heathcliff?" </p>
               <p>"Nothing -- only look at the almanac on <pb n="I.153" facs="pageImages/I.161.jpg"/>that wall." He pointed to a framed sheet
                  hanging near the window, and continued, "The crosses are for the evenings you have
                  spent with the Lintons, the dots for those spent with me. Do you see? I've marked
                  every day." </p>
               <p>"Yes; very foolish -- as if I took notice!" replied Catherine, in a peevish tone.
                  "And where is the sense of that?" </p>
               <p>"To show that I do take notice," said Heathcliff. </p>
               <p>"And should I always be sitting with you?" she demanded, growing more irritated.
                  "What good do I get? What do you talk about? You might be dumb, or a baby, for
                  anything you say to amuse me, or for anything you do either." </p>
               <p>"You never told me before that I talked too little, or that you disliked my
                  company, Cathy," exclaimed Heathcliff in much agitation. </p>
               <pb n="I.154" facs="pageImages/I.162.jpg"/>
               <p>"It's no company at all, when people know nothing, and say nothing," she muttered. </p>
               <p>Her companion rose up; but he hadn't time to express his feelings further, for a
                  horse's feet were heard on the flags; and, having knocked gently, young Linton
                  entered, his face brilliant with delight at the unexpected summons he had
                  received. Doubtless Catherine marked the difference between her friends, as one
                  came in and the other went out. The contrast resembled what you see in exchanging
                  a bleak, hilly, coal country for a beautiful fertile valley; and his voice and
                  greeting were as opposite as his aspect. He had a sweet, low manner of speaking,
                  and pronounced his words as you do -- that's less gruff than we talk here, and
                  softer. </p>
               <p>"I'm not come too soon, am I?" he said, casting a look at me. I had
                  begun to wipe the plate and tidy some drawers at the far end in the dresser. </p>
               <pb n="I.155" facs="pageImages/I.163.jpg"/>
               <p>"No," answered Catherine -- "What are you doing there, Nelly?" </p>
               <p>"My work, miss," I replied. (Mr. Hindley had given me directions to make a third
                  party in any private visits Linton chose to pay.) She stepped behind me and
                  whispered crossly, "Take yourself and your dusters off. When company are in the
                  house, servants don't commence scouring and cleaning in the room where they are." </p>
               <p>"It's a good opportunity, now that master is away," I answered aloud. "He hates me
                  to be fidgeting over these things in his presence. I'm sure Mr. Edgar will excuse
                  me." </p>
               <p>"I hate you to be fidgeting in my presence," exclaimed the young lady imperiously,
                  not allowing her guest time to speak. She had failed to recover her equanimity
                  since the little dispute with Heathcliff. </p>
               <p>"I'm sorry for it, Miss Catherine," was my response; and I proceeded assiduously
                  with my occupation. </p>
               <pb n="I.156" facs="pageImages/I.164.jpg"/>
               <p>She, supposing Edgar could not see her, snatched the cloth from my hand, and
                  pinched me, with a prolonged wrench, very spitefully on the arm. I've said I did
                  not love her, and rather relished mortifying her vanity now and then -- besides,
                  she hurt me extremely; so I started up from my knees, and screamed out, "O miss,
                  that's a nasty trick! You have no right to nip me, and I'm not going to bear it." </p>
               <p>"I didn't touch you, you lying creature!" cried she, her fingers tingling to
                  repeat the act, and her ears red with rage. She never had power to conceal her
                  passion; it always set her whole complexion in a blaze. </p>
               <p>"What's that, then?" I retorted, showing a decided purple witness to refute her. </p>
               <p>She stamped her foot, wavered a moment, and then, irresistibly impelled by the
                  naughty spirit within her, slapped me on the cheek -- a stinging blow that filled
                  both eyes with water. </p>
               <pb n="I.157" facs="pageImages/I.165.jpg"/>
               <p>"Catherine, love! Catherine!" interposed Linton, greatly shocked at the double
                  fault of falsehood and violence which his idol had committed. </p>
               <p>"Leave the room, Ellen!" she repeated, trembling all over. </p>
               <p>Little Hareton, who followed me everywhere, and was sitting near me on the floor,
                  at seeing my tears commenced crying himself, and sobbed out complaints against
                  "wicked Aunt Cathy," which drew her fury on to his unlucky head. She seized his
                  shoulders, and shook him till the poor child waxed livid, and Edgar thoughtlessly
                  laid hold of her hands to deliver him. In an instant one was wrung free, and the
                  astonished young man felt it applied over his own ear in a way that could not be
                  mistaken for jest. He drew back in consternation. I lifted Hareton in my arms, and
                  walked off to the kitchen with him, leaving the door of communication open, for I
                  was curious to <pb n="I.158" facs="pageImages/I.166.jpg"/>watch how they would settle their disagreement. The insulted
                  visitor moved to the spot where he had laid his hat, pale and with a quivering
                  lip. </p>
               <p>"That's right!" I said to myself. "Take warning and begone! It's a kindness to let
                  you have a glimpse of her genuine disposition." </p>
               <p>"Where are you going?" demanded Catherine, advancing to the door. </p>
               <p>He swerved aside, and attempted to pass. </p>
               <p>"You must not go!" she exclaimed energetically. </p>
               <p>"I must and shall!" he replied in a subdued voice. </p>
               <p>"No," she persisted, grasping the handle; "not yet, Edgar Linton. Sit down. You
                  shall not leave me in that temper. I should be miserable all night, and I won't be
                  miserable for you!" </p>
               <p>"Can I stay, after you have struck me?" asked Linton. </p>
               <pb n="I.159" facs="pageImages/I.167.jpg"/>
               <p>Catherine was mute. </p>
               <p>"You've made me afraid and ashamed of you," he continued. "I'll not come here
                  again." </p>
               <p>Her eyes began to glisten, and her lids to twinkle. </p>
               <p>"And you told a deliberate untruth," he said. </p>
               <p>"I didn't," she cried, recovering her speech. "I did nothing 
                  deliberately. Well, go, if you please -- get away. And now I'll cry -- I'll cry
                  myself sick." </p>
               <p>She dropped down on her knees by a chair, and set to weeping in serious earnest.
                  Edgar persevered in his resolution as far as the court; there he lingered. I
                  resolved to encourage him. </p>
               <p>"Miss is dreadfully wayward, sir," I called out. "As bad as any marred child.
                  You'd better be riding home, or else she will be sick only to grieve us." </p>
               <p>The soft thing looked askance through the <pb n="I.160" facs="pageImages/I.168.jpg"/>window. He possessed the power to depart
                  as much as a cat possesses the power to leave a mouse half killed or a bird half
                  eaten. Ah, I thought, there will be no saving him; he's doomed, and flies to his
                  fate! And so it was. He turned abruptly, hastened into the house again, shut the
                  door behind him; and when I went in a while after to inform them that Earnshaw had
                  come home rabid drunk, ready to pull the whole place about our ears (his ordinary
                  frame of mind in that condition), I saw the quarrel had merely effected a closer
                  intimacy -- had broken the outworks of youthful timidity, and enabled them to
                  forsake the disguise of friendship, and confess themselves lovers. </p>
               <p>Intelligence of Mr. Hindley's arrival drove Linton speedily to his horse, and
                  Catherine to her chamber. I went to hide little Hareton, and to take the shot out
                  of the master's fowling-piece, which he was fond of playing with in his insane
                  excitement, to the hazard of the <pb n="I.161" facs="pageImages/I.169.jpg"/>lives of any who provoked or even attracted his
                  notice too much; and I had hit upon the plan of removing it, that he might do less
                  mischief if he did go the length of firing the gun. </p>
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               <p>He entered, vociferating oaths dreadful to hear; and caught me in the act of
                  stowing his son away in the kitchen cupboard. Hareton was impressed with a
                  wholesome terror of encountering either his wild-beast's fondness or his madman's
                  rage -- for in one he ran a chance of being squeezed and kissed to death, and in
                  the other of being flung into the fire, or dashed against the wall -- and the poor
                  thing remained perfectly quiet wherever I chose to put him.</p>
               <pb n="I.163" facs="pageImages/I.171.jpg"/>
               <p>"There, I've found it out at last!" cried Hindley, pulling me back by the skin of
                  the neck, like a dog. "By Heaven and Hell, you've sworn between you to murder that
                  child ! I know how it is, now, that he is always out of my way. But, with the help
                  of Satan, I shall make you swallow the carving knife, Nelly! You needn't laugh;
                  for I've just crammed Kenneth, head-downmost, in the Blackhorse marsh; and two is
                  the same as one -- and I want to kill some of you, I shall have no rest till I
                  do!"</p>
               <p>"But I don't like the carving knife, Mr. Hindley," I answered; "it has been
                  cutting red herrings -- I'd rather be shot, if you please."</p>
               <p>"You'd rather be damned!" he said, "and so you shall -- No law in England can
                  hinder a man from keeping his house decent, and mine's abominable ! open your
                  mouth."</p>
               <p>He held the knife in his hand, and pushed its point between my teeth; but, for my
                  part, I was never much afraid of his vagaries. I <pb n="I.164" facs="pageImages/I.172.jpg"/>spat out, and affirmed it tasted
                  detestably; I would not take it on any account. </p>
               <p>"Oh!" said he, releasing me, "I see that hideous little villain is not Hareton. I
                  beg your pardon, Nell. If it be, he deserves flaying alive for not running to
                  welcome me, and for screaming as if I were a goblin. Unnatural cub, come hither.
                  I'll teach thee to impose on a good-hearted, deluded father. Now, don't you think
                  the lad would be handsomer cropped? It makes a dog fiercer, and I
                  love something fierce -- get me a scissors -- something fierce and trim! Besides,
                  it's infernal affectation -- devilish conceit it is to cherish our ears -- we're
                  asses enough without them. Hush, child, hush! Well, then, it is my darling! Wisht,
                  dry thy eyes -- there's a joy; kiss me. What! it won't? Kiss me, Hareton! Damn
                  thee, kiss me! By God, as if I would rear such a monster! As sure as I'm living,
                  I'll break the brat's neck." </p>
               <p>Poor Hareton was squalling and kicking in <pb n="I.165" facs="pageImages/I.173.jpg"/>his father's arms with all his might,
                  and redoubled his yells when he carried him upstairs and lifted him over the
                  banister. I cried out that he would frighten the child into fits, and ran to
                  rescue him. As I reached them, Hindley leant forward on the rails to listen to a
                  noise below, almost forgetting what he had in his hands. "Who is that?" he asked,
                  hearing some one approaching the stair's foot. I leant forward also, for the
                  purpose of signing to Heathcliff, whose step I recognized, not to come farther;
                  and at the instant when my eye quitted Hareton, he gave a sudden spring, delivered
                  himself from the careless grasp that held him, and fell. </p>
               <p>There was scarcely time to experience a thrill of horror before we saw that the
                  little wretch was safe. Heathcliff arrived underneath just at the critical moment;
                  by a natural impulse he arrested his descent, and setting <pb n="I.166" facs="pageImages/I.174.jpg"/>him on his feet, looked
                  up to discover the author of the accident. A miser who has parted with a lucky
                  lottery ticket for five shillings, and finds next day he has lost in the bargain
                  five thousand pounds, could not show a blanker countenance than he did on
                  beholding the figure of Mr. Earnshaw above. It expressed, plainer than words could
                  do, the intensest anguish at having made himself the instrument of thwarting his
                  own revenge. Had it been dark, I dare say he would have tried to remedy the
                  mistake by smashing Hareton's skull on the steps; but we witnessed his salvation,
                  and I was presently below with my precious charge pressed to my heart. Hindley
                  descended more leisurely, sobered and abashed. </p>
               <p>"It is your fault, Ellen," he said; "you should have kept him out of sight. You
                  should have taken him from me. Is he injured anywhere?" </p>
               <pb n="I.167" facs="pageImages/I.175.jpg"/>
               <p>"Injured!" I cried angrily; "if he's not killed, he'll be an idiot! Oh, I wonder
                  his mother does not rise from her grave to see how you use him! You're worse than
                  a heathen -- treating your own flesh and blood in that manner!" </p>
               <p>He attempted to touch the child, who, on finding himself with me, sobbed off his
                  terror directly. At the first finger his father laid on him, however, he shrieked
                  again louder than before, and struggled as if he would go into convulsions. </p>
               <p>"You shall not meddle with him," I continued. "He hates you; they all hate you --
                  that's the truth! A happy family you have, and a pretty state you're come to!" </p>
               <p>"I shall come to a prettier yet, Nelly," laughed the misguided man, recovering his
                  hardness. "At present, convey yourself and him away. -- And hark you, Heathcliff;
                  clear you too quite from my reach and hearing. I wouldn't murder you to-night,
                  unless, perhaps, <pb n="I.168" facs="pageImages/I.176.jpg"/>I set the house on fire; but that's as my fancy goes." </p>
               <p>While saying this he took a pint bottle of brandy from the dresser and poured some
                  into a tumbler. </p>
               <p>"Nay, don't!" I entreated. "Mr. Hindley, do take warning. Have mercy on this
                  unfortunate boy, if you care nothing for yourself!" </p>
               <p>"Any one will do better for him than I shall," he answered. </p>
               <p>"Have mercy on your own soul!" I said, endeavouring to snatch the glass from his
                  hand. </p>
               <p>"Not I! On the contrary I shall have great pleasure in sending it to perdition to
                  punish its Maker," exclaimed the blasphemer. "Here's to its hearty damnation!" </p>
               <p>He drank the spirits and impatiently bade us go, terminating his command with a
                  sequel of horrid imprecations too bad to repeat or remember. </p>
               <p>"It's a pity he cannot kill himself with drink," observed Heathcliff, muttering an
                  <pb n="I.169" facs="pageImages/I.177.jpg"/>echo of curses back when the door was shut. "He's doing his very
                  utmost, but his constitution defies him. Mr. Kenneth says he would wager his mare
                  that he'll outlive any man on this side Gimmerton, and go to the grave a hoary
                  sinner, unless some happy chance out of the common course befall him." </p>
               <p>I went into the kitchen and sat down to lull my little lamb to sleep. Heathcliff,
                  as I thought, walked through to the barn. It turned out afterwards that he only
                  got as far as the other side the settle, when he flung himself on a bench by the
                  wall, removed from the fire, and remained silent. </p>
               <p>I was rocking Hareton on my knee, and humming a song that began -- </p>
               <l>"It was far in the night, and the bairnies grat,</l>
               <l>The mither beneath the mools heard that" -- </l>

               <p>when Miss Cathy, who had listened to the hubbub from her room, put her head in and
                  whispered, -- </p>

               <p>"Are you alone, Nelly?"</p>

               <pb n="I.170" facs="pageImages/I.178.jpg"/>
               <p>"Yes, miss," I replied.</p>

               <p>She entered and approached the hearth. I, supposing she was going to say
                  something, looked up. The expression of her face seemed disturbed and anxious. Her
                  lips were half asunder, as if she meant to speak, and she drew a breath; but it
                  escaped in a sigh instead of a sentence. I resumed my song, not having forgotten
                  her recent behaviour. </p>
               <p>"Where's Heathcliff?" she said, interrupting me. </p>
               <p>"About his work in the stable," was my answer. </p>
               <p>He did not contradict me; perhaps he had fallen into a doze. There followed
                  another long pause, during which I perceived a drop or two trickle from
                  Catherine's cheek to the flags. Is she sorry for her shameful conduct? I asked
                  myself. That will be a novelty. But she may come to the point as she will; I
                  shan't help her. <pb n="I.171" facs="pageImages/I.179.jpg"/>No; she felt small trouble regarding any subject save her own
                  concerns. </p>
               <p>"Oh dear!" she cried at last, "I'm very unhappy!" </p>
               <p>"A pity," observed I. "You're hard to please. So many friends, and so few cares,
                  and can't make yourself content!" </p>
               <p>"Nelly, will you keep a secret for me?" she pursued, kneeling down by me and
                  lifting her winsome eyes to my face with that sort of look which turns off bad
                  temper even when one has all the right in the world to indulge it. </p>
               <p>"Is it worth keeping?" I inquired less sulkily. </p>
               <p>"Yes, and it worries me, and I must let it out. I want to know what I should do.
                  To-day Edgar Linton has asked me to marry him, and I've given him an answer. Now,
                  before I tell you whether it was a consent or denial, you tell me which it ought
                  to have been." </p>
               <pb n="I.172" facs="pageImages/I.180.jpg"/>
               <p>"Really, Miss Catherine, how can I know?" I replied. "To be sure, considering the
                  exhibition you performed in his presence this afternoon, I might say it would be
                  wise to refuse him; since he asked you after that, he must either be hopelessly
                  stupid or a venturesome fool." </p>
               <p>"If you talk so, I won't tell you any more," she returned peevishly, rising to her
                  feet. "I accepted him, Nelly. Be quick, and say whether I was wrong." </p>
               <p>"You accepted him! Then what good is it discussing the matter? You have pledged
                  your word, and cannot retract." </p>
               <p>"But say whether I should have done so -- do!" she exclaimed in an irritated tone,
                  chafing her hands together and frowning. </p>
               <p>"There are many things to be considered before that question can be answered
                  properly," I said sententiously. "First and foremost, do you love Mr. Edgar?" </p>
               <pb n="I.173" facs="pageImages/I.181.jpg"/>
               <p>"Who can help it? Of course I do," she answered. </p>
               <p>Then I put her through the following catechism; for a girl of twenty-two it was
                  not injudicious. </p>
               <p>"Why do you love him, Miss Cathy?" </p>
               <p>"Nonsense; I do -- that's sufficient." </p>
               <p>"By no means; you must say why." </p>
               <p>"Well, because he is handsome and pleasant to be with."</p>
               <p>"Bad!" was my commentary. </p>
               <p>"And because he is young and cheerful." </p>
               <p>"Bad still." </p>
               <p>"And because he loves me." </p>
               <p>"Indifferent, coming there." </p>
               <p>"And he will be rich, and I shall like to be the greatest woman of the
                  neighbourhood, and I shall be proud of having such a husband." </p>
               <p>"Worst of all. And now, say how you love him." </p>
               <p>"As everybody loves. You're silly, Nelly." </p>
               <p>"Not at all -- answer." </p>
               <pb n="I.174" facs="pageImages/I.182.jpg"/>
               <p>"I love the ground under his feet, and the air over his head, and everything he
                  touches, and every word he says. I love all his looks, and all his actions, and
                  him entirely and altogether. There now!" </p>
               <p>"And why?" </p>
               <p>"Nay, you are making a jest of it. It is exceedingly ill-natured. It's no jest to
                  me!" said the young lady, scowling and turning her face to the fire. </p>
               <p>"I'm very far from jesting, Miss Catherine," I replied. </p>
               <p>"You love Mr. Edgar because he is handsome, and young, and cheerful, and rich, and
                  loves you. The last, however, goes for nothing -- you would love him without that
                  probably; and with it you wouldn't, unless he possessed the four former
                  attractions." </p>
               <p>"No; to be sure not. I should only pity him -- hate him, perhaps, if he were ugly
                  and a clown." </p>
               <p>"But there are several other handsome, rich young men in the world -- handsomer,
                  possibly, <pb n="I.175" facs="pageImages/I.183.jpg"/>and richer than he is. What should hinder you from loving them?" </p>
               <p>"If there be any, they are out of my way. I've seen none like Edgar."</p>
               <p>"You may see some. And he won't always be handsome and young, and may not always
                  be rich." </p>
               <p>"He is now; and I have only to do with the present. I wish you would speak
                  rationally." </p>
               <p>"Well, that settles it. If you have only to do with the present, marry Mr.
                  Linton." </p>
               <p>"I don't want your permission for that -- I shall marry him; and yet you have not
                  told me whether I'm right." </p>
               <p>"Perfectly right, if people be right to marry only for the present. And now, let
                  us hear what you are unhappy about. Your brother will be pleased; the old lady and
                  gentleman will not object, I think; you will escape from a disorderly, comfortless
                  home into a wealthy, respectable one; and you love Edgar, <pb n="I.176" facs="pageImages/I.184.jpg"/>and Edgar loves you. All
                  seems smooth and easy. Where is the obstacle?" </p>
               <p>"Here, and here!" replied Catherine, striking one hand on her forehead and the
                  other on her breast; "in whichever place the soul lives. In my soul and in my
                  heart I'm convinced I'm wrong." </p>
               <p>"That's very strange. I cannot make it out." </p>
               <p>"It's my secret. But if you will not mock at me, I'll explain it. I can't do it
                  distinctly, but I'll give you a feeling of how I feel." </p>
               <p>She seated herself by me again; her countenance grew sadder and graver, and her
                  clasped hands trembled. </p>
               <p>"Nelly, do you never dream queer dreams?" she said suddenly, after some minutes'
                  reflection. </p>
               <p>"Yes; now and then," I answered. </p>
               <p>"And so do I. I've dreamt in my life dreams that have stayed with me ever after,
                  and changed my ideas; they've gone through <pb n="I.177" facs="pageImages/I.185.jpg"/>and through me, like wine through
                  water, and altered the colour of my mind. And this is one. I'm going to tell it;
                  but take care not to smile at any part of it." </p>
               <p>"Oh! don't, Miss Catherine!" I cried. "We're dismal enough without conjuring up
                  ghosts and visions to perplex us. Come, come, be merry and like yourself! Look at
                  little Hareton! He's dreaming nothing dreary. How sweetly he smiles in his sleep!" </p>
               <p>"Yes; and how sweetly his father curses in his solitude! You remember him, I dare
                  say, when he was just such another as that chubby thing -- nearly as young and
                  innocent. However, Nelly, I shall oblige you to listen; it's not long, and I've no
                  power to be merry tonight." </p>
               <p>"I won't hear it, I won't hear it!" I repeated hastily. </p>
               <p>I was superstitious about dreams then, and am still; and Catherine had an unusual 
                  gloom in her aspect that made me dread something <pb n="I.178" facs="pageImages/I.186.jpg"/>from which I might
                  shape a prophecy and foresee a fearful catastrophe. She was vexed, but she did not
                  proceed. Apparently taking up another subject, she recommenced in a short time. </p>
               <p>"If I were in heaven, Nelly, I should be extremely miserable." </p>
               <p>"Because you are not fit to go there," I answered. </p>
               <p>"All sinners would be miserable in heaven." </p>
               <p>"But it is not for that. I dreamt once that I was there." </p>
               <p>"I tell you I won't hearken to your dreams, Miss Catherine! I'll go to bed," I
                  interrupted again. </p>
               <p>She laughed and held me down, for I made a motion to leave my chair. </p>
               <p>"This is nothing," cried she. "I was only going to say that heaven did not seem to
                  be my home, and I broke my heart with weeping to come back to earth; and the
                  angels were so angry that they flung me out into the middle <pb n="I.179" facs="pageImages/I.187.jpg"/>of the heath on the
                  top of Wuthering Heights, where I woke sobbing for joy. That will do to explain my
                  secret as well as the other. I've no more business to marry Edgar Linton than I
                  have to be in heaven; and if the wicked man in there had not brought Heathcliff so
                  low, I shouldn't have thought of it. It would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now,
                  so he shall never know how I love him; and that not because he's handsome, Nelly,
                  but because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and
                  mine are the same; and Linton's is as different as a moonbeam from lightning, or
                  frost from fire." </p>
               <p>Ere this speech ended I became sensible of Heathcliff's presence. Having noticed a
                  slight movement, I turned my head and saw him rise from the bench and steal out
                  noiselessly. He had listened till he heard Catherine say it would degrade her to
                  marry him, and then he stayed to hear no further. My companion, sitting on the
                  ground, was <pb n="I.180" facs="pageImages/I.188.jpg"/>prevented by the back of the settle from remarking his presence or
                  departure; but I started and bade her hush. </p>
               <p>"Why?" she asked, gazing nervously round. </p>
               <p>"Joseph is here," I answered, catching opportunely the roll of his cart-wheels up
                  the road, "and Heathcliff will come in with him. I'm not sure whether he were not
                  at the door this moment." </p>
               <p>"Oh, he couldn't overhear me at the door," said she. "Give me Hareton while you
                  get the supper, and when it is ready ask me to sup with you. I want to cheat my
                  uncomfortable conscience, and be convinced that Heathcliff has no notion of these
                  things. He has not, has he? He does not know what being in love is?" </p>
               <p>"I see no reason that he should not know, as well as you," I returned; "and if you
                  are his choice, he'll be the most unfortunate creature that ever was born. As soon
                  as you become Mrs. Linton, he loses friend, and love, and all. Have you considered
                  how you'll bear <pb n="I.181" facs="pageImages/I.189.jpg"/>the separation, and how he'll bear to be quite deserted in the
                  world? Because, Miss Catherine -- " </p>
               <p>"He quite deserted! we separated!" she exclaimed with an accent of indignation.
                  "Who is to separate us, pray? They'll meet the fate of Milo. Not as long as I
                  live, Ellen -- for no mortal creature. Every Linton on the face of the earth might
                  melt into nothing before I could consent to forsake Heathcliff. Oh, that's not
                  what I intend -- that's not what I mean! I shouldn't be Mrs. Linton were such a
                  price demanded! He'll be as much to me as he has been all his lifetime. Edgar must
                  shake off his antipathy, and tolerate him, at least. He will, when he learns my
                  true feelings towards him. Nelly, I see now -- you think me a selfish wretch; but
                  did it never strike you that if Heathcliff and I married, we should be beggars?
                  Whereas, if I marry Linton, I can aid Heathcliff to rise, and place him out of my
                  brother's power." </p>
               <pb n="I.182" facs="pageImages/I.190.jpg"/>
               <p>"With your husband's money, Miss Catherine?" I asked. "You'll find him not so
                  pliable as you calculate upon; and, though I'm hardly a judge, I think that's the
                  worst motive you've given yet for being the wife of young Linton." </p>
               <p>"It is not!" retorted she; "it is the best! The others were the satisfaction of my
                  whims; and for Edgar's sake, too -- to satisfy him. This is for the sake of one
                  who comprehends in his person my feelings to Edgar and myself. I cannot express
                  it, but surely you and everybody have a notion that there is or should
                  be an existence of yours beyond you. What were the use of my creation if I were
                  entirely contained here? My great miseries in this world have been Heathcliff's
                  miseries, and I watched and felt each from the beginning. My great thought in
                  living is himself. If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue
                  to be. And if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn
                  to <pb n="I.183" facs="pageImages/I.191.jpg"/>a mighty stranger -- I should not seem a part of it. My love for Linton is like
                  the foliage in the woods; time will change it, I'm well aware, as winter changes
                  the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath -- a source
                  of little visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I am Heathcliff! He's always,
                  always in my mind -- not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to
                  myself, but as my own being. So don't talk of our separation again. It is
                  impracticable, and -- " </p>
               <p>She paused, and hid her face in the folds of my gown, but I jerked it forcibly
                  away. I was out of patience with her folly. </p>
               <p>"If I can make any sense of your nonsense, miss," I said, "it only goes to
                  convince me that you are ignorant of the duties you undertake in marrying, or else
                  that you are a wicked, unprincipled girl. But trouble me with no more secrets;
                  I'll not promise to keep them." </p>
               <pb n="I.184" facs="pageImages/I.192.jpg"/>
               <p>"You'll keep that?" she asked eagerly. </p>
               <p>"No, I'll not promise," I repeated. </p>
               <p>She was about to insist, when the entrance of Joseph finished our conversation;
                  and Catherine removed her seat to a corner and nursed Hareton, while I made the
                  supper. After it was cooked, my fellow-servant and I began to quarrel who should
                  carry some to Mr. Hindley; and we didn't settle it till all was nearly cold. Then
                  we came to the agreement that we would let him ask if he wanted any, for we feared
                  particularly to go into his presence when he had been some time alone. </p>
               <p>"And how isn't that nowt comed in fro' th' field be this time? What is he about?
                  girt idle seeght!" demanded the old man, looking round for Heathcliff. </p>
               <p>"I'll call him," I replied. "He's in the barn, I've no doubt." </p>
               <p>I went and called, but got no answer. On returning, I whispered to Catherine that
                  he had heard a good part of what she said, I was <pb n="I.185" facs="pageImages/I.193.jpg"/>sure, and told how I saw him quit
                  the kitchen just as she complained of her brother's conduct regarding him. She
                  jumped up in a fine fright, flung Hareton on to the settle, and ran to seek for
                  her friend herself, not taking leisure to consider why she was so flurried, or how
                  her talk would have affected him. She was absent such a while that Joseph proposed
                  we should wait no longer. He cunningly conjectured they were staying away in order
                  to avoid hearing his protracted blessing. They were "ill eneugh for ony fahl
                  manners," he affirmed. And on their behalf he added that night a special prayer to
                  the usual quarter of an hour's supplication before meat, and would have tacked
                  another to the end of the grace, had not his young mistress broken in upon him
                  with a hurried command that he must run down the road, and wherever Heathcliff had
                  rambled, find and make him re-enter directly. </p>
               <pb n="I.186" facs="pageImages/I.194.jpg"/>
               <p>"I want to speak to him, and I must before I go upstairs," she said. "And the gate
                  is open. He is somewhere out of hearing, for he would not reply, though I shouted
                  at the top of the fold as loud as I could." </p>
               <p>Joseph objected at first. She was too much in earnest, however, to suffer
                  contradiction; and at last he placed his hat on his head and walked grumbling
                  forth. Meantime, Catherine paced up and down the floor, exclaiming, -- </p>
               <p>"I wonder where he is -- I wonder where he can be. What did I say, Nelly? I've
                  forgotten. Was he vexed at my bad humour this afternoon? Dear! tell me what I've
                  said to grieve him. I do wish he'd come. I do wish he would." </p>
               <p>"What a noise for nothing!" I cried, though rather uneasy myself. "What a trifle
                  scares you! It's surely no great cause of alarm that Heathcliff should take a
                  moonlight saunter on the moors, or even lie too sulky to <pb n="I.187" facs="pageImages/I.195.jpg"/>speak to us in the
                  hay-loft. I'll engage he's lurking there. See if I don't ferret him out!" </p>
               <p>I departed to renew my search. Its result was disappointment, and Joseph's quest
                  ended in the same. </p>
               <p>"Yon lad gets war un war!" observed he on re-entering. "He's left th' yate at t'
                  full swing, and miss's pony has trodden dahn two rigs o' corn, and plottered
                  through, raight o'er into t' meadow! Hahsomdiver, t' maister 'ull play t' devil
                  to-morn, and he'll do weel. He's patience itsseln wi' sich careless, offald
                  craters -- patience itsseln he is! Bud he'll not be soa allus -- yah's see, all on
                  ye! Yah munn't drive him out of his heead for nowt!" </p>
               <p>"Have you found Heathcliff, you ass?" interrupted Catherine. "Have you been
                  looking for him, as I ordered?" </p>
               <p>"Aw sud more likker look for th' horse," he replied. "It 'ud be to more sense. Bud
                  I can look for norther horse nur man of a neeght loike this -- as black as t'
                  chimbley; und <pb n="I.188" facs="pageImages/I.196.jpg"/>Heathcliff's noan t' chap to coom at my whistle. Happen he'll be
                  less hard o' hearing wi' ye!" </p>
               <p>It was a very dark evening for summer. The clouds appeared inclined to thunder,
                  and I said we had better all sit down; the approaching rain would be certain to
                  bring him home without further trouble. However, Catherine would not be persuaded
                  into tranquillity. She kept wandering to and fro, from the gate to the door, in a
                  state of agitation which permitted no repose, and at length took up a permanent
                  situation on one side of the wall, near the road, where, heedless of my
                  expostulations and the growling thunder, and the great drops that began to plash
                  around her, she remained, calling at intervals, and then listening, and then
                  crying outright. She beat Hareton, or any child, at a good passionate fit of
                  crying. </p>
               <p>About midnight, while we still sat up, the storm came rattling over the Heights in
                  full <pb n="I.189" facs="pageImages/I.197.jpg"/>fury. There was a violent wind, as well as thunder, and either one or the
                  other split a tree off at the corner of the building; a huge bough fell across the
                  roof, and knocked down a portion of the east chimney stack, sending a clatter of
                  stones and soot into the kitchen fire. We thought a bolt had fallen in the middle
                  of us, and Joseph swung on to his knees, beseeching the Lord to remember the 
                  patriarchs Noah and Lot, and, as in former times, spare the righteous,
                  though He smote the ungodly. I felt some sentiment that it must be a judgment on
                  us also. The Jonah, in my mind, was Mr. Earnshaw; and I shook the handle of his
                  den, that I might ascertain if he were yet living. He replied audibly enough in a
                  fashion which made my companion vociferate, more clamorously than before, that a
                  wide distinction might be drawn between saints like himself and sinners like his
                  master. But the uproar passed away in twenty minutes, leaving <pb n="I.190" facs="pageImages/I.198.jpg"/>us all unharmed,
                  excepting Cathy, who got thoroughly drenched for her obstinacy in refusing to take
                  shelter, and standing bonnetless and shawl-less to catch as much water as she
                  could with her hair and clothes. She came in and lay down on the settle, all
                  soaked as she was, turning her face to the back and putting her hands before it. </p>
               <p>"Well, miss!" I exclaimed, touching her shoulder; "you are not bent on getting
                  your death, are you? Do you know what o'clock it is? Half-past twelve. Come, come
                  to bed! There's no use waiting longer on that foolish boy. He'll be gone to
                  Gimmerton, and he'll stay there now. He guesses we shouldn't wake for him till
                  this late hour -- at least he guesses that only Mr. Hindley would be up; and he'd
                  rather avoid having the door opened by the master." </p>
               <p>"Nay, nay; he's noan at Gimmerton," said Joseph. "I's niver wonder but he's at t'
                  bothom of a bog-hoile. This visitation worn't <pb n="I.191" facs="pageImages/I.199.jpg"/>for nowt, and I wod hev ye to look
                  out, miss; yah muh be t' next. Thank Hivin for all! All warks togither for gooid
                  to them as is chozzen, and piked out fro' th' rubbidge. Yah knaw whet t' Scripture
                  ses." And he began quoting several texts, referring us to chapters and verses
                  where we might find them. </p>
               <p>I, having vainly begged the wilful girl to rise and remove her wet things, left
                  him preaching and her shivering, and betook myself to bed with little Hareton, who
                  slept as fast as if every one had been sleeping round him. I heard Joseph read on
                  a while afterwards; then I distinguished his slow step on the ladder, and then I
                  dropped asleep. </p>
               <p>Coming down somewhat later than usual, I saw, by the sunbeams piercing
                  the chinks of the shutters, Miss Catherine still seated near the fireplace. The
                  house door was ajar too; light entered from its unclosed windows. <pb n="I.192" facs="pageImages/I.200.jpg"/>Hindley had come
                  out, and stood on the kitchen hearth, haggard and drowsy. </p>
               <p>"What ails you, Cathy?" he was saying when I entered; "you look as dismal as a
                  drowned whelp. Why are you so damp and pale, child?" </p>
               <p>"I've been wet!" she answered reluctantly, "and I'm cold; that's all." </p>
               <p>"Oh, she is naughty!" I cried, perceiving the master to be tolerably sober. "She
                  got steeped in the shower of yesterday evening, and there she has sat the night
                  through, and I couldn't prevail on her to stir." </p>
               <p>Mr. Earnshaw stared at us in surprise. "The night through!" he repeated. "What
                  kept her up? Not fear of the thunder, surely? That was over hours since." </p>
               <p>Neither of us wished to mention Heathcliff's absence as long as we could conceal
                  it, so I replied I didn't know how she took it into her head to sit up, and she
                  said nothing. The morning was fresh and cool. I threw <pb n="I.193" facs="pageImages/I.201.jpg"/>back the lattice, and
                  presently the room filled with sweet scents from the garden; but Catherine called
                  peevishly to me, "Ellen, shut the window. I'm starving!" And her teeth chattered
                  as she shrank closer to the almost extinguished embers. </p>
               <p>"She's ill," said Hindley, taking her wrist; "I suppose that's the reason she
                  would not go to bed. Damn it! I don't want to be troubled with more sickness here.
                  What took you into the rain?" </p>
               <p>"Running after t' lads as usuald!" croaked Joseph, catching an opportunity, from
                  our hesitation, to thrust in his evil tongue. "If I war yah, maister, I'd just
                  slam t' boards i' their faces all on 'em, gentle and simple. Never a day ut yah're
                  off, but yon cat o' Linton comes sneaking hither; and Miss Nelly -- shoo's a fine
                  lass -- shoo sits watching for ye i' t' kitchen; and as yah're in at one door,
                  he's out at t'other, and then wer grand lady goes a-coorting of her side! It's
                  bonny <pb n="I.194" facs="pageImages/I.202.jpg"/>behaviour, lurking amang t' fields after twelve o' t' night wi' that fahl,
                  flaysome divil of a gipsy, Heathcliff! They think I'm blind, but I'm
                  noan -- nowt ut t' soart! I seed young Linton boath coming and going, and I seed
                  yah" (directing his discourse to me), "yah gooid fur nowt, slattenly witch, nip up
                  and bolt into th' house, t' minute yah heard t' maister's horse fit clatter up t'
                  road." </p>
               <p>"Silence, eavesdropper!" cried Catherine; "none of your insolence before me! --
                  Edgar Linton came yesterday by chance, Hindley, and it was I who told him to be
                  off, because I knew you would not like to have met him as you were." </p>
               <p>"You lie, Cathy, no doubt," answered her brother, "and you are a confounded
                  simpleton! But never mind Linton at present; tell me -- were you not with
                  Heathcliff last night? Speak the truth, now. You need not be afraid of harming
                  him. Though I hate him as much as ever, he did me a good turn a short <pb n="I.195" facs="pageImages/I.203.jpg"/>time since
                  that will make my conscience tender of breaking his neck. To prevent it, I shall
                  send him about his business this very morning; and after he's gone, I'd advise you
                  all to look sharp. I shall only have the more humour for you." </p>
               <p>"I never saw Heathcliff last night," answered Catherine, beginning to sob
                  bitterly, "and if you do turn him out of doors, I'll go with him. But perhaps
                  you'll never have an opportunity; perhaps he's gone." Here she burst into
                  uncontrollable grief, and the remainder of her words were inarticulate. </p>
               <p>Hindley lavished on her a torrent of scornful abuse, and bade her get to her room
                  immediately, or she shouldn't cry for nothing. I obliged her to obey; and I shall
                  never forget what a scene she acted when we reached her chamber -- it terrified
                  me. I thought she was going mad, and I begged Joseph to run for the doctor. <pb n="I.196" facs="pageImages/I.204.jpg"/>It
                  proved the commencement of delirium. Mr. Kenneth, as soon as he saw her,
                  pronounced her dangerously ill. She had a fever. He bled her, and he told me to
                  let her live on whey and water-gruel, and take care she did not throw herself
                  downstairs or out of the window; and then he left, for he had enough to do in the
                  parish, where two or three miles was the ordinary distance between cottage and
                  cottage. </p>
               <p>Though I cannot say I made a gentle nurse, and Joseph and the master were no
                  better, and though our patient was as wearisome and headstrong as a patient could
                  be, she weathered it through. Old Mrs. Linton paid us several visits, to be sure,
                  and set things to rights, and scolded and ordered us all; and when Catherine was
                  convalescent she insisted on conveying her to Thrushcross Grange, for which
                  deliverance we were very grateful; but the poor dame had reason to repent of her
                  kindness. She and <pb n="I.197" facs="pageImages/I.205.jpg"/>her husband both took the fever, and died within a few days of
                  each other. </p>
               <p>Our young lady returned to us, saucier and more passionate and haughtier than
                  ever. Heathcliff had never been heard of since the evening of the thunderstorm;
                  and one day I had the misfortune, when she had provoked me exceedingly, to lay the
                  blame of his disappearance on her -- where indeed it belonged, as she well knew.
                  From that period, for several months, she ceased to hold any communication with
                  me, save in the relation of a mere servant. Joseph fell under a ban also. He would
                  speak his mind, and lecture her all the same as if she were a little girl; and she
                  esteemed herself a woman, and our mistress, and thought that her recent illness
                  gave her a claim to be treated with consideration. Then the doctor had said that
                  she would not bear crossing much -- she ought to have her own way; and it was
                  nothing less than murder in <pb n="I.198" facs="pageImages/I.206.jpg"/>her eyes for any one to presume to stand up and
                  contradict her. From Mr. Earnshaw and his companions she kept aloof; and tutored
                  by Kenneth, and serious threats of a fit that often attended her rages, her
                  brother allowed her whatever she pleased to demand, and generally avoided
                  aggravating her fiery temper. He was rather too indulgent in humouring her
                  caprices -- not from affection, but from pride. He wished earnestly to see her
                  bring honour to the family by an alliance with the Lintons; and as long as she let
                  him alone she might trample on us like slaves, for aught he cared. Edgar Linton,
                  as multitudes have been before, and will be after him, was infatuated, and
                  believed himself the happiest man alive on the day he led her to
                  Gimmerton Chapel, three years subsequent to his father's death. </p>
               <p>Much against my inclination, I was persuaded to leave Wuthering Heights and
                  ac- <pb n="I.199" facs="pageImages/I.207.jpg"/>company her here. Little Hareton was nearly five years old, and I had just begun
                  to teach him his letters. We made a sad parting, but Catherine's tears were more
                  powerful than ours. When I refused to go, and when she found her entreaties did
                  not move me, she went lamenting to her husband and brother. The former offered me
                  munificent wages; the latter ordered me to pack up. He wanted no women in the
                  house, he said, now that there was no mistress; and as to Hareton, the curate
                  should take him in hand by-and-by. And so I had but one choice left -- to do as I
                  was ordered. I told the master he got rid of all decent people only to ride to
                  ruin a little faster. I kissed Hareton, said good-bye, and since then he has been
                  a stranger; and it's very queer to think it, but I've no doubt he has completely
                  forgotten all about Ellen Dean, and that he was ever more than all the world to
                  her, and she to him. </p>

               <p>At this point of the housekeeper's story she <pb n="I.200" facs="pageImages/I.208.jpg"/>chanced to glance towards the
                  timepiece over the chimney, and was in amazement on seeing the minute-hand measure
                  half-past one. She would not hear of staying a second longer -- in truth, I felt
                  rather disposed to defer the sequel of her narrative myself. And now that she is
                  vanished to her rest, and I have meditated for another hour or two, I shall summon
                  courage to go also, in spite of aching laziness of head and limbs. </p>
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               <p>A charming introduction to a hermit's life! Four weeks' torture, tossing and
                  sickness ! Oh, these bleak winds and bitter, northern skies, and impassable roads,
                  and dilatory country surgeons! And, oh, this dearth of the human physiognomy, and,
                  worse than all, the terrible intimation of Kenneth that I need not expect to be
                  out of doors till spring!</p>
               <p>Mr. Heathcliff has just honoured me with a call. About seven days ago he sent me a
                  brace of grouse -- the last of the season. <pb n="I.202" facs="pageImages/I.210.jpg"/>Scoundrel! He is not altogether
                  guiltless in this illness of mine; and that I had a great mind to tell him. But,
                  alas! how could I offend a man who was charitable enough to sit at my bedside a
                  good hour, and talk on some other subject than pills and draughts, blisters and
                  leeches ?</p>
               <p>This is quite an easy interval. I am too weak to read, yet I feel as if I could
                  enjoy something interesting. Why not have up Mrs. Dean to finish her tale ? I can
                  recollect its chief incidents, as far as she had gone. Yes, I remember her hero
                  had run off, and never been heard of for three years: and the heroine was married.
                  I'll ring; she'll be delighted to find me capable of talking cheerfully.</p>
               <p>Mrs. Dean came.</p>
               <p>"It wants twenty minutes, sir, to taking the medicine," she commenced. </p>
               <p>Away, away with it!" I replied; "I desire to have -- </p>
               <pb n="I.203" facs="pageImages/I.211.jpg"/>
               <p>"The doctor says you must drop the powders." </p>
               <p>"With all my heart! Don't interrupt me. Come and take your seat here. Keep your
                  fingers from that bitter phalanx of vials. Draw your knitting out of your pocket
                  -- that will do; now continue the history of Mr. Heathcliff, from where you left
                  off to the present day. Did he finish his education on the Continent, and come
                  back a gentleman? or did he get a sizer's place at college, or escape to America,
                  and earn honours by drawing blood from his foster-country, or make a
                  fortune more promptly on the English highways?" </p>
               <p>"He may have done a little in all these vocations, Mr. Lockwood, but I couldn't
                  give my word for any. I stated before that I didn't know how he gained his money,
                  neither am I aware of the means he took to raise his mind from the savage
                  ignorance into which it was sunk; but, with your leave, I'll proceed in my own
                  fashion, if you think it will amuse <pb n="I.204" facs="pageImages/I.212.jpg"/>and not weary you. Are you feeling better this
                  morning?" </p>
               <p>"Much." </p>
               <p>"That's good news. -- I got Miss Catherine and myself to Thrushcross Grange, and,
                  to my agreeable disappointment, she behaved infinitely better than I dared to
                  expect. She seemed almost over-fond of Mr. Linton, and even to his sister she
                  showed plenty of affection. They were both very attentive to her comfort,
                  certainly. It was not the thorn bending to the honeysuckles, but the honeysuckles
                  embracing the thorn. There were no mutual concessions -- one stood erect and the
                  others yielded; and who can be ill-natured and bad-tempered when they encounter
                  neither opposition nor indifference? I observed that Mr. Edgar had a deep-rooted
                  fear of ruffling her humour. He concealed it from her; but if ever he heard me
                  answer sharply, or saw any other servant grow cloudy at some imperious order of
                  hers, he <pb n="I.205" facs="pageImages/I.213.jpg"/>would show his trouble by a frown of displeasure that never darkened on
                  his own account. He many a time spoke sternly to me about my pertness, and averred
                  that the stab of a knife could not inflict a worse pang than he suffered at seeing
                  his lady vexed. Not to grieve a kind master, I learned to be less touchy; and for
                  the space of half a year the gunpowder lay as harmless as sand, because no fire
                  came near to explode it. Catherine had seasons of gloom and silence now and then;
                  they were respected with sympathizing silence by her husband, who ascribed them to
                  an alteration in her constitution, produced by her perilous illness, 
                  as she was never subject to depression of spirits before. The return of sunshine
                  was welcomed by answering sunshine from him. I believe I may assert that they were
                  really in possession of deep and growing happiness. </p>
               <p>It ended. Well, we must be for ourselves in the long run; the mild and generous
                  <pb n="I.206" facs="pageImages/I.214.jpg"/>are only more justly selfish than the domineering, and it ended when circumstances
                  caused each to feel that the one's interest was not the chief consideration in the
                  other's thoughts. On a mellow evening in September I was coming from the garden
                  with a heavy basket of apples which I had been gathering. It had got dusk, and the
                  moon looked over the high wall of the court, causing undefined shadows to lurk in
                  the corners of the numerous projecting portions of the building. I set my burden
                  on the house steps by the kitchen door, and lingered to rest, and drew in a few
                  more breaths of the soft, sweet air. My eyes were on the moon, and my back to the
                  entrance, when I heard a voice behind me say, -- </p>
               <p>"Nelly, is that you?" </p>
               <p>It was a deep voice, and foreign in tone, yet there was something in the manner of
                  pronouncing my name which made it sound familiar. I turned about to discover who 
                  <pb n="I.207" facs="pageImages/I.215.jpg"/>spoke, fearfully; for the doors were shut, and I had seen nobody on approaching
                  the steps. Something stirred in the porch; and moving nearer, I distinguished a
                  tall man dressed in dark clothes, with dark face and hair. He leant against the
                  side, and held his fingers on the latch, as if intending to open for himself. "Who
                  can it be?" I thought. "Mr. Earnshaw? Oh no! The voice has no resemblance to his." </p>
               <p>"I have waited here an hour," he resumed, while I continued staring; "and the
                  whole of that time all round has been as still as death. I dared not enter. You do
                  not know me? Look, I'm not a stranger!" </p>
               <p>A ray fell on his features; the cheeks were sallow and half covered with black
                  whiskers, the brows lowering, the eyes deep-set and singular. I remembered the
                  eyes. </p>
               <p>"What!" I cried, uncertain whether to regard him as a worldly visitor, and I
                  raised my <pb n="I.208" facs="pageImages/I.216.jpg"/>hands in amazement. "What! you come back? Is it really you? Is it?" </p>
               <p>"Yes, Heathcliff," he replied, glancing from me up to the windows, which reflected
                  a score of glittering moons, but showed no lights from within. "Are they at home?
                  Where is she? Nelly, you are not glad. You needn't be so disturbed. Is she here?
                  Speak! I want to have one word with her -- your mistress. Go, and say some person
                  from Gimmerton desires to see her." </p>
               <p>"How will she take it?" I exclaimed. "What will she do? The surprise bewilders me.
                  It will put her out of her head. And you are Heathcliff, but altered! Nay, there's
                  no comprehending it. Have you been for a soldier?" </p>
               <p>"Go and carry my message," he interrupted impatiently. "I'm in hell till you do!" </p>
               <p>He lifted the latch, and I entered; but when I got to the parlour where Mr. and
                  Mrs. <pb n="I.209" facs="pageImages/I.217.jpg"/>Linton were, I could not persuade myself to proceed. At length I resolved on
                  making an excuse to ask if they would have the candles lighted, and I opened the
                  door. </p>
               <p>They sat together in a window whose lattice lay back against the wall, and
                  displayed, beyond the garden trees and the wild green park, the valley of
                  Gimmerton, with a long line of mist winding nearly to its top (for very soon after
                  you pass the chapel, as you may have noticed, the sough that runs from the marshes
                  joins a beck which follows the bend of the glen). Wuthering Heights rose above
                  this silvery vapour, but our old house was invisible; it rather dips down on the
                  other side. Both the room and its occupants, and the scene they gazed on, looked
                  wondrously peaceful. I shrank reluctantly from performing my errand, and was
                  actually going away leaving it unsaid, after having put my ques- <pb n="I.210" facs="pageImages/I.218.jpg"/>tion about the
                  candles, when a sense of my folly compelled me to return and mutter. "A person
                  from Gimmerton wishes to see you, ma'am." </p>
               <p>"What does he want?" asked Mrs. Linton. </p>
               <p>"I did not question him," I answered. </p>
               <p>"Well, close the curtains, Nelly," she said, "and bring up tea. I'll be back again
                  directly." </p>
               <p>She quitted the apartment. Mr. Edgar inquired carelessly who it was. </p>
               <p>"Some one mistress does not expect," I replied. "That Heathcliff -- you recollect
                  him, sir -- who used to live at Mr. Earnshaw's." </p>
               <p>"What! The gipsy -- the ploughboy?" he cried. "Why did you not say so to
                  Catherine?" </p>
               <p>"Hush! you must not call him by those names, master," I said. "She'd be sadly
                  grieved to hear you. She was nearly heartbroken when he ran off. I guess his
                  return will make a jubilee to her." </p>
               <pb n="I.211" facs="pageImages/I.219.jpg"/>
               <p>Mr. Linton walked to a window on the other side of the room that overlooked the
                  court. He unfastened it and leant out. I suppose they were below, for he exclaimed
                  quickly, "Don't stand there, love! Bring the person in, if it be any one
                  particular." Ere long I heard the click of the latch, and Catherine flew upstairs,
                  breathless and wild, too excited to show gladness; indeed, by her face, you would
                  rather have surmised an awful calamity. </p>
               <p>"O Edgar, Edgar!" she panted, flinging her arms round his neck. "O Edgar darling!
                  Heathcliff's come back -- he is!" And she tightened her embrace to a squeeze. </p>
               <p>"Well, well," cried her husband crossly, "don't strangle me for that. He never
                  struck me as such a marvellous treasure. There is no need to be frantic." </p>
               <p>"I know you didn't like him," she answered, repressing a little the intensity of
                  her <pb n="I.212" facs="pageImages/I.220.jpg"/>delight. "Yet, for my sake, you must be friends now. 
                  Shall I tell him to come up?" </p>
               <p>"Here?" he said -- "into the parlour?" </p>
               <p>"Where else?" she asked. </p>
               <p>He looked vexed, and suggested the kitchen as a more suitable place for him. Mrs.
                  Linton eyed him with a droll expression -- half angry, half laughing, at his
                  fastidiousness. </p>
               <p>"No," she added, after a while; "I cannot sit in the kitchen. -- Set two tables
                  here, Ellen -- one for your master and Miss Isabella, being gentry; the other for
                  Heathcliff and myself, being of the lower orders. -- Will that please you, dear?
                  Or must I have a fire lighted elsewhere? If so, give directions. I'll run down and
                  secure my guest. I'm afraid the joy is too great to be real!" </p>
               <p>She was about to dart off again, but Edgar arrested her. </p>
               <p>"You bid him step up," he said, addressing me, "and, Catherine, try to be glad
                  without <pb n="I.213" facs="pageImages/I.221.jpg"/>being absurd. The whole household need not witness the sight of your
                  welcoming a runaway servant as a brother." </p>
               <p>I descended and found Heathcliff waiting under the porch, evidently anticipating
                  an invitation to enter. He followed my guidance without waste of words, and I
                  ushered him into the presence of the master and mistress, whose flushed cheeks
                  betrayed signs of warm talking. But the lady's glowed with another feeling when
                  her friend appeared at the door. She sprang forward, took both his hands, and led
                  him to Linton; and then she seized Linton's reluctant fingers and crushed them
                  into his. Now fully revealed by the fire and candlelight, I was amazed more than
                  ever to behold the transformation of Heathcliff. He had grown a tall, athletic,
                  well-formed man, beside whom my master seemed quite slender and youth-like. His
                  upright carriage suggested the idea of his having been in the army. <pb n="I.214" facs="pageImages/I.222.jpg"/>His
                  countenance was much older in expression and decision of feature than Mr.
                  Linton's; it looked intelligent, and retained no marks of former degradation. A
                  half-civilized ferocity lurked yet in the depressed brows and eyes full of black
                  fire, but it was subdued, and his manner was even dignified -- quite divested of
                  roughness, though too stern for grace. My master's surprise equalled or exceeded
                  mine. He remained for a minute at a loss how to address the ploughboy, as he had
                  called him. Heathcliff dropped his slight hand, and stood looking at him coolly
                  till he chose to speak. </p>
               <p>"Sit down, sir," he said at length. "Mrs. Linton, recalling old times, would have
                  me give you a cordial reception; and, of course, I am gratified when anything
                  occurs to please her." </p>
               <p>"And I also," answered Heathcliff, "especially if it be anything in which I have a
                  part. I shall stay an hour or two willingly." </p>
               <pb n="I.215" facs="pageImages/I.223.jpg"/>
               <p>He took a seat opposite Catherine, who kept her gaze fixed on him as if she feared
                  he would vanish were she to remove it. He did not raise his to her often -- a
                  quick glance now and then sufficed; but it flashed back, each time more
                  confidently, the undisguised delight he drank from hers. They were too much
                  absorbed in their mutual joy to suffer embarrassment. Not so Mr. Edgar. He grew
                  pale with pure annoyance -- a feeling that reached its climax when his lady rose,
                  and stepping across the rug, seized Heathcliff's hands again, and laughed like one
                  beside herself. </p>
               <p>"I shall think it a dream to-morrow!" she cried. "I shall not be able to believe
                  that I have seen, and touched, and spoken to you once more. And yet, cruel
                  Heathcliff! you don't deserve this welcome. To be absent and silent for three
                  years, and never to think of me!" </p>
               <p>"A little more than you have thought of <pb n="I.216" facs="pageImages/I.224.jpg"/>me!" he murmured. "I heard of your
                  marriage, Cathy, not long since; and while waiting in the yard below I meditated
                  this plan -- just to have one glimpse of your face, a stare of surprise, perhaps,
                  and pretended pleasure; afterwards settle my score with Hindley; and then prevent
                  the law by doing execution on myself. Your welcome has put these ideas out of my
                  mind; but beware of meeting me with another aspect next time! Nay, you'll not
                  drive me off again. You were really sorry for me, were you? Well, there was cause.
                  I've fought through a bitter life since I last heard your voice; and you must
                  forgive me, for I struggled only for you!" </p>
               <p>"Catherine, unless we are to have cold tea, please to come to the table,"
                  interrupted Linton, striving to preserve his ordinary tone, and a due measure of
                  politeness. "Mr. Heathcliff will have a long walk, wherever he may lodge to-night,
                  and I'm thirsty." </p>
               <pb n="I.217" facs="pageImages/I.225.jpg"/>
               <p>She took her post before the urn; and Miss Isabella came, summoned by the bell;
                  then having handed their chairs forward, I left the room. The meal
                  hardly endured ten minutes. Catherine's cup was never filled. She could neither
                  eat nor drink. Edgar had made a slop in his saucer, and scarcely swallowed a
                  mouthful. Their guest did not protract his stay that evening above an hour longer.
                  I asked, as he departed, if he went to Gimmerton? </p>
               <p>"No; to Wuthering Heights," he answered. "Mr. Earnshaw invited me when I called
                  this morning." </p>
               <p>Mr. Earnshaw invited him! and he called on Mr. Earnshaw! I pondered this sentence
                  painfully after he was gone. Is he turning out a bit of a hypocrite, and coming
                  into the country to work mischief under a cloak? I mused. I had a presentiment in
                  the bottom of my heart that he had better have remained away. </p>
               <pb n="I.218" facs="pageImages/I.226.jpg"/>
               <p>About the middle of the night I was wakened from my first nap by Mrs. Linton
                  gliding into my chamber, taking a seat on my bedside, and pulling me by the hair
                  to rouse me. </p>
               <p>"I cannot rest, Ellen," she said, by way of apology. "And I want some living
                  creature to keep me company in my happiness. Edgar is sulky because I'm glad of a
                  thing that does not interest him. He refuses to open his mouth, except to utter
                  pettish, silly speeches; and he affirmed I was cruel and selfish for wishing to
                  talk when he was so sick and sleepy. He always contrives to be sick at the least
                  cross! I gave a few sentences of commendation to Heathcliff, and he, either for a
                  headache or a pang of envy, began to cry; so I got up and left him." </p>
               <p>"What use is it praising Heathcliff to him?" I answered. "As lads they had an
                  aversion to each other, and Heathcliff would hate just as much to hear him
                  praised; it's human <pb n="I.219" facs="pageImages/I.227.jpg"/>nature. Let Mr. Linton alone about him, unless you would like
                  an open quarrel between them." </p>
               <p>"But does it not show great weakness?" pursued she. "I'm not envious. I never feel
                  hurt at the brightness of Isabella's yellow hair and the whiteness of her skin, at
                  her dainty elegance and the fondness all the family exhibit for her. Even you,
                  Nelly, if we have a dispute sometimes, you back Isabella at once; and I yield like
                  a foolish mother. I call her a darling, and flatter her into a good temper. It
                  pleases her brother to see us cordial, and that pleases me. But they are very much
                  alike. They are spoiled children, and fancy the world was made for
                  their accommodation; and though I humour both, I think a smart chastisement might
                  improve them, all the same." </p>
               <p>"You're mistaken, Mrs. Linton," said I. "They humour you. I know what there would
                  be to do if they did not. You can well <pb n="I.220" facs="pageImages/I.228.jpg"/>afford to indulge their passing whims as
                  long as their business is to anticipate all your desires. You may, however, fall
                  out at last over something of equal consequence to both sides; and then those you
                  term weak are very capable of being as obstinate as you." </p>
               <p>"And then we shall fight to the death, shan't we, Nelly?" she returned, laughing.
                  "No; I tell you I have such faith in Linton's love that I believe I might kill
                  him, and he wouldn't wish to retaliate." </p>
               <p>I advised her to value him the more for his affection. </p>
               <p>"I do," she answered; "but he needn't resort to whining for trifles. It is
                  childish; and instead of melting into tears because I said that Heathcliff was now
                  worthy of any one's regard, and it would honour the first gentleman in the country
                  to be his friend, he ought to have said it for me, and been delighted from
                  sympathy. He must get accustomed to him, and he may as well like him. <pb n="I.221" facs="pageImages/I.229.jpg"/>Considering
                  how Heathcliff has reason to object to him, I'm sure he behaved excellently." </p>
               <p>"What do you think of his going to Wuthering Heights?" I inquired. "He is reformed
                  in every respect, apparently -- quite a Christian -- offering the right hand of
                  fellowship to his enemies all around!" </p>
               <p>"He explained it," she replied. "I wonder as much as you. He said he called to
                  gather information concerning me from you, supposing you resided there still; and
                  Joseph told Hindley, who came out and fell to questioning him of what he had been
                  doing, and how he had been living, and finally desired him to walk in. There were
                  some persons sitting at cards. Heathcliff joined them. My brother lost some money
                  to him; and finding him plentifully supplied, he requested that he would come
                  again in the evening, to which he consented. Hindley is too reckless to 
                  select his acquaintance prudently. He doesn't trouble himself to reflect on the
                  causes he might have <pb n="I.222" facs="pageImages/I.230.jpg"/>for mistrusting one whom he has basely injured. But
                  Heathcliff affirms his principal reason for resuming a connection with his ancient
                  persecutor is a wish to install himself in quarters at walking distance from the
                  Grange, and an attachment to the house where we lived together, and likewise a
                  hope that I shall have more opportunities of seeing him there than I could have if
                  he settled in Gimmerton. He means to offer liberal payment for permission to lodge
                  at the Heights; and doubtless my brother's covetousness will prompt him to accept
                  the terms. He was always greedy, though what he grasps with one hand he flings
                  away with the other." </p>
               <p>"It's a nice place for a young man to fix his dwelling in!" said I. Have you no
                  fear of the consequences, Mrs. Linton?" </p>
               <p>"None for my friend," she replied. "His strong head will keep him from danger; a
                  little for Hindley, but he can't be made morally worse than he is; and I stand
                  between <pb n="I.223" facs="pageImages/I.231.jpg"/>him and bodily harm. The event of this evening reconciled me to God and
                  humanity! I had risen in angry rebellion against providence. Oh, I've endured
                  very, very bitter misery, Nelly! If that creature knew how bitter, he'd be ashamed
                  to cloud its removal with idle petulance. It was kindness for him which induced me
                  to bear it alone. Had I expressed the agony I frequently felt, he would have been
                  taught to long for its alleviation as ardently as I. However, it's over, and I'll
                  take no revenge on his folly. I can afford to suffer anything hereafter. Should
                  the meanest thing alive slap me on the cheek, I'd not only turn the other, but I'd
                  ask pardon for provoking it; and as a proof I'll go make my peace with Edgar
                  instantly. Good-night! I'm an angel!" </p>
               <p>In this self-complacent conviction she departed; and the success of her fulfilled
                  resolution was obvious on the morrow. Mr. Lin- <pb n="I.224" facs="pageImages/I.232.jpg"/>ton had not only abjured his
                  peevishness (though his spirits seemed still subdued by Catherine's exuberance of
                  vivacity), but he ventured no objection to her taking Isabella with her to
                  Wuthering Heights in the afternoon; and she rewarded him with such a
                  summer of sweetness and affection in return as made the house a paradise for
                  several days, both master and servants profiting from the perpetual sunshine. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff -- Mr. Heathcliff, I should say in future -- used the liberty of
                  visiting at Thrushcross Grange cautiously, at first. He seemed estimating how far
                  its owner would bear his intrusion. Catherine, also, deemed it judicious to
                  moderate her expressions of pleasure in receiving him; and he gradually
                  established his right to be expected. He retained a great deal of the reserve for
                  which his boyhood was remarkable; and that served to repress all startling
                  demonstrations <pb n="I.225" facs="pageImages/I.233.jpg"/>of feeling. My master's uneasiness experienced a lull, and further
                  circumstances diverted it into another channel for a space. </p>
               <p>His new source of trouble sprang from the not-anticipated misfortune of Isabella
                  Linton evincing a sudden and irresistible attraction towards the tolerated guest.
                  She was at that time a charming young lady of eighteen, infantile in manners,
                  though possessed of keen wit, keen feelings, and a keen temper, too, if irritated.
                  Her brother, who loved her tenderly, was appalled at this fantastic preference.
                  Leaving aside the degradation of an alliance with a nameless man, and the possible
                  fact that his property, in default of heirs, male, might pass into such a one's
                  power, he had sense to comprehend Heathcliff's disposition -- to know that, though
                  his exterior was altered, his mind was unchangeable and unchanged. And he dreaded
                  that mind. It revolted him. He shrank forebodingly from the idea of committing
                  Isabella to its keeping. <pb n="I.226" facs="pageImages/I.234.jpg"/>He would have recoiled still more had he been aware that
                  her attachment rose unsolicited, and was bestowed where it awakened no
                  reciprocation of sentiment, for the minute he discovered its existence he laid the
                  blame on Heathcliff's deliberate designing. </p>
               <p>We had all remarked, during some time, that Miss Linton fretted, and pined over
                  something. She grew cross and wearisome, snapping at and teasing Catherine
                  continually, at the imminent risk of exhausting her limited patience. We excused
                  her, to a certain extent, on the plea of ill-health. She was
                  dwindling and fading before our eyes. But one day, when she had been peculiarly
                  wayward, rejecting her breakfast, complaining that the servants did not do what
                  she told them; that the mistress would allow her to be nothing in the house, and
                  Edgar neglected her; that she had caught a cold with the doors being left open,
                  and we let the parlour fire go out on purpose to vex her, with a hundred yet more
                  <pb n="I.227" facs="pageImages/I.235.jpg"/>frivolous accusations, Mrs. Linton peremptorily insisted that she should get to
                  bed, and having scolded her heartily, threatened to send for the doctor. Mention
                  of Kenneth caused her to exclaim instantly that her health was perfect, and it was
                  only Catherine's harshness which made her unhappy. </p>
               <p>"How can you say I am harsh, you naughty fondling?" cried the mistress, amazed at
                  the unreasonable assertion. "You are surely losing your reason. When have I been
                  harsh, tell me?" </p>
               <p>"Yesterday," sobbed Isabella, "and now!" </p>
               <p>"Yesterday!" said her sister-in-law. "On what occasion?" </p>
               <p>"In our walk along the moor. You told me to ramble where I pleased, while you
                  sauntered on with Mr. Heathcliff!" </p>
               <p>"And that's your notion of harshness?" said Catherine, laughing. "It was no hint
                  that your company was superfluous. We didn't care <pb n="I.228" facs="pageImages/I.236.jpg"/>whether you kept with us or not.
                  I merely thought Heathcliff's talk would have nothing entertaining for your ears." </p>
               <p>"Oh no," wept the young lady; "you wished me away because you knew I liked to be
                  there!" </p>
               <p>"Is she sane?" asked Mrs. Linton, appealing to me. "I'll repeat our conversation,
                  word for word, Isabella; and you point out any charm it could have had for you." </p>
               <p>"I don't mind the conversation," she answered. "I wanted to be with -- " </p>
               <p>"Well?" said Catherine, perceiving her hesitate to complete the sentence. </p>
               <p>"With him; and I won't be always sent off!" she continued, kindling
                  up. "You are a dog in the manger, Cathy, and desire no one to be loved but
                  yourself!" </p>
               <p>"You are an impertinent little monkey!" exclaimed Mrs. Linton, in surprise. "But
                  I'll not believe this idiocy. It is impossible that you can covet the admiration
                  of Heathcliff <pb n="I.229" facs="pageImages/I.237.jpg"/>-- that you consider him an agreeable person! I hope I have
                  misunderstood you, Isabella?" </p>
               <p>"No, you have not," said the infatuated girl. "I love him more than ever you loved
                  Edgar; and he might love me, if you would let him!" </p>
               <p>"I wouldn't be you for a kingdom, then!" Catherine declared emphatically; and she
                  seemed to speak sincerely. -- "Nelly, help me to convince her of her madness. Tell
                  her what Heathcliff is -- an unreclaimed creature, without refinement, without
                  cultivation, an arid wilderness of furze and whinstone. I'd as soon put that
                  little canary into the park on a winter's day, as recommend you to bestow your
                  heart on him. It is deplorable ignorance of his character, child, and nothing
                  else, which makes that dream enter your head. Pray don't imagine that he conceals
                  depths of benevolence and affection beneath a stern exterior. He's not a rough
                  diamond, a pearl- <pb n="I.230" facs="pageImages/I.238.jpg"/>containing oyster of a rustic. He's a fierce, pitiless, wolfish
                  man. I never say to him, 'Let this or that enemy alone, because it would be
                  ungenerous or cruel to harm them.' I say, 'Let them alone, because I should hate
                  them to be wronged.' And he'd crush you like a sparrow's egg, Isabella, if he
                  found you a troublesome charge. I know he couldn't love a Linton; and yet he'd be
                  quite capable of marrying your fortune and expectations. Avarice is growing with
                  him a besetting sin. There's my picture; and I'm his friend -- so much so, that
                  had he thought seriously to catch you, I should perhaps have held my tongue, and
                  let you fall into his trap." </p>
               <p>Miss Linton regarded her sister-in-law with indignation. </p>
               <p>"For shame! for shame!" she repeated angrily; "you are worse than twenty foes, you
                  poisonous friend!" </p>
               <p>"Ah! you won't believe me, then?" said <pb n="I.231" facs="pageImages/I.239.jpg"/>Catherine. "You think I speak from wicked
                  selfishness?" </p>
               <p>"I'm certain you do," retorted Isabella; "and I shudder at you!" </p>
               <p>"Good!" cried the other. "Try for yourself, if that be your spirit. I have done,
                  and yield the argument to your saucy insolence." </p>
               <p>"And I must suffer for her egotism!" she sobbed, as Mrs. Linton left the room.
                  "All, all is against me. She has blighted my single consolation. But she uttered
                  falsehoods, didn't she? Mr. Heathcliff is not a fiend. He has an honourable soul,
                  and a true one, or how could he remember her?" </p>
               <p>"Banish him from your thoughts, miss," I said. "He's a bird of bad omen -- no mate
                  for you. Mrs. Linton spoke strongly, and yet I can't contradict her. She is better
                  acquainted with his heart than I, or any one besides; and she never would
                  represent him as worse than he is. Honest people don't hide their deeds. How has
                  he been living? How has he got rich? <pb n="I.232" facs="pageImages/I.240.jpg"/>Why is he staying at Wuthering Heights, the
                  house of a man whom he abhors? They say Mr. Earnshaw is worse and worse since he
                  came. They sit up all night together continually, and Hindley has been borrowing
                  money on his land, and does nothing but play and drink. I heard only a week ago --
                  it was Joseph who told me -- I met him at Gimmerton. 'Nelly,' he said, 'we's hae a
                  crowner's 'quest enow, at ahr folks. One on 'em's a'most getten his finger cut off
                  wi' hauding t'other fro' stickin hisseln loike a cawlf. That's maister, yah knaw,
                  'at's soa up o' going tuh t' grand 'sizes. He's noan feared o' t' bench o' judges,
                  norther Paul, nur Peter, nur John, nur Matthew, nor noan on 'em, not he. He fair
                  likes -- he langs to set his brazened face agean 'em. And yon bonny lad
                  Heathcliff, yah mind, he's a rare un! He can girn a laugh as well's onybody at a
                  raight divil's jest. Does he niver say nowt of his fine living amang us, when he
                  goes to t' <pb n="I.233" facs="pageImages/I.241.jpg"/>Grange? This is t' way on't. Up at sundown; dice, brandy, cloised
                  shutters, un can'le-light till next day at noon; then, t' fooil gangs banning un
                  raving to his cham'er, makking dacent fowks dig thur fingers i' thur lugs fur
                  varry shame; un the knave, why he can caint his brass, un ate, un
                  sleep, un off to his neighbour's to gossip wi' t' wife. I' course, he tells Dame
                  Catherine how her fathur's goold runs into his pocket, and her fathur's son
                  gallops down t' broad road, while he flees afore to oppen t' pikes!' Now, Miss
                  Linton, Joseph is an old rascal, but no liar; and if his account of Heathcliff's
                  conduct be true, you would never think of desiring such a husband, would you?" </p>
               <p>"You are leagued with the rest, Ellen!" she replied. "I'll not listen to your
                  slanders. What malevolence you must have to wish to convince me that there is no
                  happiness in the world!" </p>
               <p>Whether she would have got over this fancy <pb n="I.234" facs="pageImages/I.242.jpg"/>if left to herself, or persevered in
                  nursing it perpetually, I cannot say. She had little time to reflect. The day
                  after, there was a justice meeting at the next town. My master was obliged to
                  attend; and Mr. Heathcliff, aware of his absence, called rather earlier than
                  usual. Catherine and Isabella were sitting in the library, on hostile terms, but
                  silent -- the latter alarmed at her recent indiscretion, and the disclosure she
                  had made of her secret feelings in a transient fit of passion; the former, on
                  mature consideration, really offended with her companion, and if she laughed again
                  at her pertness, inclined to make it no laughing matter to her. She did laugh as
                  she saw Heathcliff pass the window. I was sweeping the hearth, and I noticed a
                  mischievous smile on her lips. Isabella, absorbed in her meditations, or a book,
                  remained till the door opened; and it was too late to attempt an escape, which she
                  would gladly have done had it been practicable. </p>
               <pb n="I.235" facs="pageImages/I.243.jpg"/>
               <p>"Come in; that's right!" exclaimed the mistress gaily, pulling a chair to the
                  fire. "Here are two people sadly in need of a third to thaw the ice between them;
                  and you are the very one we should both of us choose. Heathcliff, I'm proud to
                  show you, at last, somebody that dotes on you more than myself. I expect you to
                  feel flattered. Nay, it's not Nelly; don't look at her! My poor little
                  sister-in-law is breaking her heart by mere contemplation of your physical and
                  moral beauty. It lies in your own power to be Edgar's brother. -- No, no,
                  Isabella; you shan't run off," she continued, arresting, with feigned playfulness,
                  the confounded girl, who had risen indignantly. -- "We were quarrelling like cats 
                  about you, Heathcliff, and I was fairly beaten in protestations
                  of devotion and admiration; and, moreover, I was informed that if I would but have
                  the manners to stand aside, my rival, as she will have herself to be, would shoot
                  a shaft into your soul that would <pb n="I.236" facs="pageImages/I.244.jpg"/>fix you for ever, and send my image into eternal
                  oblivion!" </p>
               <p>"Catherine!" said Isabella, calling up her dignity, and disdaining to struggle
                  from the tight grasp that held her, "I'd thank you to adhere to the truth, and not
                  slander me, even in joke. -- Mr. Heathcliff, be kind enough to bid this friend of
                  yours release me. She forgets that you and I are not intimate acquaintances; and
                  what amuses her is painful to me beyond expression." </p>
               <p>"As the guest answered nothing, but took his seat, and looked thoroughly
                  indifferent what sentiments she cherished concerning him, she turned and whispered
                  an earnest appeal for liberty to her tormentor. </p>
               <p>"By no means!" cried Mrs. Linton in answer. "I won't be named a dog in the manger
                  again. You shall stay. -- Now, then, Heathcliff, why don't you evince satisfaction
                  at my pleasant news? Isabella swears that the love Edgar has for me is nothing to
                  that <pb n="I.237" facs="pageImages/I.245.jpg"/>she entertains for you. I'm sure she made some speech of the kind -- did she
                  not, Ellen? And she has fasted ever since the day before yesterday's walk, from
                  sorrow and rage that I dispatched her out of your society under the idea of its
                  being unacceptable." </p>
               <p>"I think you belie her," said Heathcliff, twisting his chair to face them. "She
                  wishes to be out of my society now, at any rate." </p>
               <p>And he stared hard at the object of discourse, as one might do at a strange,
                  repulsive animal -- a centipede from the Indies, for instance, which curiosity
                  leads one to examine in spite of the aversion it raises. The poor thing couldn't
                  bear that. She grew white and red in rapid succession, and, while tears beaded her
                  lashes, bent the strength of her small fingers to loosen the firm clutch of
                  Catherine; and perceiving that as fast as she raised one finger off her arm
                  another closed down, and she could not remove the whole together, she began to
                  <pb n="I.238" facs="pageImages/I.246.jpg"/>make use of her nails; and their sharpness presently ornamented the detainer's
                  with crescents of red. </p>
               <p>"There's a tigress!" exclaimed Mrs. Linton, setting her free, and
                  shaking her hand with pain. "Begone, for God's sake, and hide your vixen face! How
                  foolish to reveal those talons to him! Can't you fancy the conclusions he'll draw?
                  -- Look, Heathcliff! they are instruments that will do execution; you must beware
                  of your eyes." </p>
               <p>"I'd wrench them off her fingers if they ever menaced me," he answered brutally,
                  when the door had closed after her. "But what did you mean by teasing the creature
                  in that manner, Cathy? You were not speaking the truth, were you?" </p>
               <p>"I assure you I was," she returned. "She has been dying for your sake several
                  weeks, and raving about you this morning, and pouring forth a deluge of abuse,
                  because I represented your failings in a plain light, for the <pb n="I.239" facs="pageImages/I.247.jpg"/>purpose of
                  mitigating her adoration. But don't notice it further. I wished to punish her
                  sauciness -- that's all. I like her too well, my dear Heathcliff, to let you
                  absolutely seize and devour her up." </p>
               <p>"And I like her too ill to attempt it," said he, "except in a very ghoulish
                  fashion. You'd hear of odd things if I lived alone with that mawkish, waxen face.
                  The most ordinary would be painting on its white the colours of the rainbow, and
                  turning the blue eyes black, every day or two. They detestably resemble Linton's." </p>
               <p>"Delectably!" observed Catherine. "They are dove's eyes -- angel's!" </p>
               <p>"She's her brother's heir, is she not?" he asked, after a brief silence. </p>
               <p>"I should be sorry to think so," returned his companion. "Half a dozen nephews
                  shall erase her title please Heaven! Abstract your mind from the subject at
                  present. You are too prone to covet your neighbour's goods. Remember this
                  neighbour's goods are mine." </p>
               <pb n="I.240" facs="pageImages/I.248.jpg"/>
               <p>"If they were mine, they would be none the less that," said Heathcliff; "but
                  though Isabella Linton may be silly, she is scarcely mad; and, in short, we'll
                  dismiss the matter, as you advise." </p>
               <p>From their tongues they did dismiss it; and Catherine, probably, from
                  her thoughts. The other, I felt certain, recalled it often in the course of the
                  evening. I saw him smile to himself -- grin rather -- and lapse into ominous
                  musing whenever Mrs. Linton had occasion to be absent from the apartment. </p>
               <p>I determined to watch his movements. My heart invariably cleaved to the master's,
                  in preference to Catherine's side -- with reason, I imagined, for he was kind, and
                  trustful, and honourable; and she -- she could not be called the opposite, yet she
                  seemed to allow herself such wide latitude that I had little faith in her
                  principles, and still less sympathy for her feelings. I wanted something to happen
                  which might have the effect of freeing both Wuther- <pb n="I.241" facs="pageImages/I.249.jpg"/>ing Heights and the Grange of
                  Mr. Heathcliff quietly, leaving us as we had been prior to his advent. His visits
                  were a continual nightmare to me, and, I suspected, to my master also. His abode
                  at the Heights was an oppression past explaining. I felt that God had forsaken the
                  stray sheep there to its own wicked wanderings, and an evil beast prowled between
                  it and the fold, waiting his time to spring and destroy. </p>
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               <p>Sometimes, while meditating on these things in solitude, I've got up in a sudden
                  terror, and put on my bonnet to go see how all was at the farm; I've persuaded my
                  conscience that it was a duty to warn him how people talked regarding his ways;
                  and then I've recollected his confirmed bad habits, and, hopeless of benefiting
                  him, have flinched from re-entering the dismal house, doubting if I could bear to
                  be taken at my word.</p>
               <p>One time, I passed the old gate, going out of <pb n="I.243" facs="pageImages/I.251.jpg"/>my way, on a journey to Gimmerton.
                  It was about the period that my narrative has reached -- a bright, frosty
                  afternoon; the ground bare, and the road hard and dry.</p>
               <p>I came to a stone where the highway branches off on to the moor at your left hand;
                  a rough sand-pillar, with the letters W. H. cut on its north side, on the east,
                  G., and on the south-west, T. G. It serves as guide-post to the Grange, and
                  Heights, and village.</p>
               <p>The sun shone yellow on its grey head, reminding me of summer; and I cannot say
                  why, but all at once, a gush of child's sensations flowed into my heart. Hindley
                  and I held it a favourite spot twenty years before.</p>
               <p>I gazed long at the weather-worn block; and, stooping down, perceived a hole near
                  the bottom still full of snail-shells and pebbles which we were fond of storing
                  there with more perish-able things -- and, as fresh as reality, it appeared that I
                  beheld my early playmate seated on the withered turf, his dark, <pb n="I.244" facs="pageImages/I.252.jpg"/>square head bent
                  forward, and his little hand scooping out the earth with a piece of slate.</p>
               <p>"Poor Hindley!" I exclaimed involuntarily. </p>
               <p> I started. My bodily eye was cheated into a momentary belief that the child
                  lifted its face and stared straight into mine! It vanished in a twinkling; but
                  immediately I felt an irresistible yearning to be at the Heights. Superstition
                  urged me to comply with this impulse. Supposing he should be dead, I
                  thought, or should die soon! -- supposing it were a sign of death! </p>
               <p>The nearer I got to the house the more agitated I grew; and on catching sight of
                  it I trembled every limb. The apparition had outstripped me. It stood looking
                  through the gate. That was my first idea on observing an elf-locked, brown-eyed
                  boy setting his ruddy countenance against the bars. Further reflection suggested
                  this must be Hareton, my Hareton, not altered greatly since I left him, ten months
                  since. </p>
               <pb n="I.245" facs="pageImages/I.253.jpg"/>
               <p>"God bless thee, darling!" I cried, forgetting instantaneously my foolish fears.
                  "Hareton, it's Nelly -- Nelly, thy nurse." </p>
               <p>He retreated out of arm's length, and picked up a large flint. </p>
               <p>"I am come to see thy father, Hareton," I added, guessing from the action that
                  Nelly, if she lived in his memory at all, was not recognized as one with me. </p>
               <p>He raised his missile to hurl it. I commenced a soothing speech, but could not
                  stay his hand. The stone struck my bonnet; and then ensued, from the stammering
                  lips of the little fellow, a string of curses, which, whether he comprehended them
                  or not, were delivered with practised emphasis, and distorted his baby features
                  into a shocking expression of malignity. You may be certain this grieved more than
                  angered me. Fit to cry, I took an orange from my pocket, and offered it to
                  propitiate him. <pb n="I.246" facs="pageImages/I.254.jpg"/>He hesitated, and then snatched it from my hold, as if he fancied
                  I only intended to tempt and disappoint him. I showed another, keeping it out of
                  his reach. </p>
               <p>"Who has taught you those fine words, my bairn?" I inquired -- "the curate?" </p>
               <p>"Damn the curate, and thee! Gie me that," he replied. </p>
               <p>"Tell us where you got your lessons, and you shall have it," said I. "Who's your
                  master?" </p>
               <p>"Devil daddy," was his answer. </p>
               <p>"And what do you learn from daddy?" I continued. </p>
               <p>He jumped at the fruit. I raised it higher. "What does he teach you?" I asked. </p>
               <p>"Naught," said he, "but to keep out of his gait. Daddy cannot bide me, because I
                  swear at him." </p>
               <p>"Ah! and the devil teaches you to swear at daddy?" I observed. </p>
               <p>"Ay -- nay," he drawled. </p>
               <pb n="I.247" facs="pageImages/I.255.jpg"/>
               <p>"Who, then?" </p>
               <p>"Heathcliff." </p>
               <p>I asked if he liked Mr. Heathcliff. </p>
               <p>"Ay!" he answered again. </p>
               <p>Desiring to have his reasons for liking him, I could only gather the sentences, "I
                  known't. He pays dad back what he gies to me; he curses daddy for cursing me. He
                  says I mun do as I will." </p>
               <p>"And the curate does not teach you to read and write then?" I pursued. </p>
               <p>"No, I was told the curate should have his -- teeth dashed down his -- throat if
                  he stepped over the threshold. Heathcliff had promised that!" </p>
               <p>I put the orange in his hand, and bade him tell his father that a woman called
                  Nelly Dean was waiting to speak with him by the garden gate. He went up the walk,
                  and entered the house; but instead of Hindley, Heathcliff appeared on the door
                  stones; and I turned directly <pb n="I.248" facs="pageImages/I.256.jpg"/>and ran down the road as hard as ever I could race,
                  making no halt till I gained the guide-post, and feeling as scared as if I had
                  raised a goblin. This is not much connected with Miss Isabella's affair, except
                  that it urged me to resolve further on mounting vigilant guard, and doing my
                  utmost to check the spread of such bad influence at the Grange, even though I
                  should wake a domestic storm by thwarting Mrs. Linton's pleasure. </p>
               <p>The next time Heathcliff came, my young lady chanced to be feeding some pigeons in
                  the court. She had never spoken a word to her sister-in-law for three days; but
                  she had likewise dropped her fretful complaining, and we found it a great comfort.
                  Heathcliff had not the habit of bestowing a single unnecessary civility on Miss 
                  Linton, I knew. Now, as soon as he beheld her, his first precaution was to take a 
                  sweeping survey of the house-front. I was standing by the <pb n="I.249" facs="pageImages/I.257.jpg"/>kitchen window, 
                  but I drew out of sight. He then stepped across the pavement to
                  her, and said something. She seemed embarrassed and desirous of getting away; to
                  prevent it, he laid his hand on her arm. She averted her face. He apparently put
                  some question which she had no mind to answer. There was another rapid glance at
                  the house; and supposing himself unseen, the scoundrel had the impudence to
                  embrace her. </p>
               <p>"Judas! traitor!" I ejaculated. "You are a hypocrite, too, are you -- a deliberate
                  deceiver?" </p>
               <p>"Who is, Nelly?" said Catherine's voice at my elbow. I had been over-intent on
                  watching the pair outside to mark her entrance. </p>
               <p>"Your worthless friend!" I answered warmly -- "the sneaking rascal yonder. Ah, he
                  has caught a glimpse of us; he is coming in! I wonder will he have the heart to
                  find a plausible excuse for making love to miss, when he told you he hated her?" </p>
               <p>Mrs. Linton saw Isabella tear herself free, <pb n="I.250" facs="pageImages/I.258.jpg"/>and run into the garden; and a minute
                  after Heathcliff opened the door. I couldn't withhold giving some loose to my
                  indignation; but Catherine angrily insisted on silence, and threatened to order me
                  out of the kitchen, if I dared to be so presumptuous as to put in my insolent
                  tongue. </p>
               <p>"To hear you, people might think you were the mistress!" she cried. "You want
                  setting down in your right place! -- Heathcliff, what are you about, raising this
                  stir? I said you must let Isabella alone! I beg you will, unless you are tired of
                  being received here, and wish Linton to draw the bolts against you!" </p>
               <p>"God forbid that he should try!" answered the black villain. I detested him just
                  then. "God keep him meek and patient! Every day I grow madder after sending him to
                  heaven!" </p>
               <p>"Hush!" said Catherine, shutting the inner door. "Don't vex me. Why have you
                  dis- <pb n="I.251" facs="pageImages/I.259.jpg"/>regarded my request? Did she come across you on purpose?" </p>
               <p>"What is it to you?" he growled. "I have a right to kiss her, if she chooses; and
                  you have no right to object. I am not your husband; you needn't be jealous of me." </p>
               <p>"I'm not jealous of you," replied the mistress -- "I'm jealous for you. Clear your
                  face; you shan't scowl at me! If you like Isabella, you shall marry her. But do
                  you like her? Tell the truth, Heathcliff. There, you won't answer. I'm certain you
                  don't." </p>
               <p>"And would Mr. Linton approve of his sister marrying that man?" I inquired. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Linton should approve," returned my lady decisively. </p>
               <p>"He might spare himself the trouble," said Heathcliff; "I could do as well without
                  his approbation. And as to you, Catherine, I have a mind to speak a few words now,
                  while we are at it. I want you to be aware that I know you have treated me
                  infernally -- infer- <pb n="I.252" facs="pageImages/I.260.jpg"/>nally! Do you hear? And if you flatter yourself that I don't
                  perceive it, you are a fool; and if you think I can be consoled by sweet words,
                  you are an idiot; and if you fancy I'll suffer unrevenged, I'll convince you of
                  the contrary in a very little while. Meantime, thank you for telling me your
                  sister-in-law's secret. I swear I'll make the most of it. And stand you aside." </p>
               <p>"What new phase of his character is this?" exclaimed Mrs. Linton, in amazement.
                  "I've treated you infernally, and you'll take your revenge! How will you take it,
                  ungrateful brute? How have I treated you infernally?" </p>
               <p>"I seek no revenge on you," replied Heathcliff, less vehemently. "That's not the
                  plan. The tyrant grinds down his slaves, and they don't turn against him; they
                  crush those beneath them. You are welcome to torture me to death for your
                  amusement, only allow me to amuse myself a little in the same style, and refrain
                  from insult as much as you are <pb n="I.253" facs="pageImages/I.261.jpg"/>able. Having levelled my palace, don't erect a
                  hovel and complacently admire your own charity in giving me that for a home. lf I
                  imagined you really wished me to marry Isabel, I'd cut my throat!" </p>
               <p>"Oh, the evil is that I am not jealous, is it?" cried Catherine. "Well, I won't
                  repeat my offer of a wife. It is as bad as offering Satan a lost soul. Your bliss
                  lies, like his, in inflicting misery. You prove it. Edgar is restored from the
                  ill-temper he gave way to at your coming. I begin to be secure and
                  tranquil; and you, restless to know us at peace, appear resolved on exciting a
                  quarrel. Quarrel with Edgar, if you please, Heathcliff, and deceive his sister.
                  You'll hit on exactly the most efficient method of revenging yourself on me." </p>
               <p>The conversation ceased. Mrs. Linton sat down by the fire, flushed and gloomy. The
                  spirit which served her was growing intractable; she could neither lay nor control
                  it. He <pb n="I.254" facs="pageImages/I.262.jpg"/>stood on the hearth with folded arms, brooding on his evil thoughts; and in
                  this position I left them to seek the master, who was wondering what kept
                  Catherine below so long. </p>
               <p>"Ellen," said he, when I entered, "have you seen your mistress?" </p>
               <p>"Yes; she's in the kitchen, sir," I answered. "She's sadly put out by Mr.
                  Heathcliff's behaviour; and, indeed, I do think it's time to arrange his visits on
                  another footing. There's harm in being too soft, and now it's come to this -- "
                  And I related the scene in the court, and, as near as I dared, the whole
                  subsequent dispute. I fancied it could not be very prejudicial to Mrs. Linton,
                  unless she made it so afterwards by assuming the defensive for her guest. Edgar
                  Linton had difficulty in hearing me to the close. His first words revealed that he
                  did not clear his wife of blame. </p>
               <p>"This is insufferable!" he exclaimed. "It is disgraceful that she should own him
                  for a <pb n="I.255" facs="pageImages/I.263.jpg"/>friend, and force his company on me! Call me two men out of the hall, Ellen.
                  Catherine shall linger no longer to argue with the low ruffian. I have humoured
                  her enough." </p>
               <p>He descended, and bidding the servants wait in the passage, went, followed by me,
                  to the kitchen. Its occupants had recommenced their angry discussion. Mrs. Linton,
                  at least, was scolding with renewed vigour. Heathcliff had moved to the window,
                  and hung his head, somewhat cowed by her violent rating apparently. He saw the
                  master first, and made a hasty motion that she should be silent; which she obeyed
                  abruptly, on discovering the reason of his intimation. </p>
               <p>"How is this?" said Linton, addressing her. "What notion of propriety
                  must you have to remain here, after the language which has been held to you by
                  that blackguard? I suppose, because it is his ordinary talk, you think nothing of
                  it. You are habituated to his baseness, <pb n="I.256" facs="pageImages/I.264.jpg"/>and, perhaps, imagine I can 
                  get used to it too." </p>
               <p>"Have you been listening at the door, Edgar?" asked the mistress, in a tone
                  particularly calculated to provoke her husband, implying both carelessness and
                  contempt of his irritation. Heathcliff, who had raised his eyes at the former
                  speech, gave a sneering laugh at the latter -- on purpose, it seemed, to draw Mr.
                  Linton's attention to him. He succeeded; but Edgar did not mean to entertain him
                  with any high flights of passion. </p>
               <p>"I have been so far forbearing with you, sir," he said quietly -- "not that I was
                  ignorant of your miserable, degraded character, but I felt you were only partly
                  responsible for that; and Catherine wishing to keep up your acquaintance, I
                  acquiesced -- foolishly. Your presence is a moral poison that would contaminate
                  the most virtuous. For that cause, and to prevent worse consequences, I shall deny
                  <pb n="I.257" facs="pageImages/I.265.jpg"/>you hereafter admission into this house, and give notice now that I require your
                  instant departure. Three minutes' delay will render it involuntary and
                  ignominious." </p>
               <p>Heathcliff measured the height and breadth of the speaker with an eye full of
                  derision. </p>
               <p>"Cathy, this lamb of yours threatens like a bull!" he said. "It is in danger of
                  splitting its skull against my knuckles. -- By God, Mr. Linton, I'm mortally sorry
                  that you are not worth knocking down!" </p>
               <p>My master glanced towards the passage, and signed me to fetch the men. He had no
                  intention of hazarding a personal encounter. I obeyed the hint; but Mrs. Linton,
                  suspecting something, followed; and when I attempted to call them, she pulled me
                  back, slammed the door to, and locked it. </p>
               <p>"Fair means!" she said, in answer to her husband's look of angry surprise. "If you
                  have not courage to attack him, make an apology, or allow yourself to be beaten.
                  It <pb n="I.258" facs="pageImages/I.266.jpg"/>will correct you of feigning more valour than you possess. No,
                  I'll swallow the key before you shall get it! I'm delightfully rewarded for my
                  kindness to each! After constant indulgence of one's weak nature, and the other's
                  bad one, I earn for thanks two samples of blind ingratitude, stupid to absurdity!
                  Edgar, I was defending you and yours; and I wish Heathcliff may flog you sick for
                  daring to think an evil thought of me!" </p>
               <p>It did not need the medium of a flogging to produce that effect on the master. He
                  tried to wrest the key from Catherine's grasp, and for safety she flung it into
                  the hottest part of the fire; whereupon Mr. Edgar was taken with a nervous
                  trembling, and his countenance grew deadly pale. For his life he could not avert
                  that excess of emotion; mingled anguish and humiliation overcame him completely.
                  He leant on the back of a chair, and covered his face. </p>
               <p>"O heavens! In old days this would <pb n="I.259" facs="pageImages/I.267.jpg"/>win you knighthood!" exclaimed Mrs. Linton. "We
                  are vanquished! we are vanquished! Heathcliff would as soon lift a finger at you
                  as a king would march his army against a colony of mice. Cheer up; you shan't be
                  hurt! Your type is not a lamb; it's a sucking leveret." </p>
               <p>"I wish you joy of the milk-blooded coward, Cathy!" said her friend. "I compliment
                  you on your taste. And that is the slavering, shivering thing you preferred to me!
                  I would not strike him with my fist, but I'd kick him with my foot, and experience
                  considerable satisfaction. Is he weeping, or is he going to faint for fear?" </p>
               <p>The fellow approached and gave the chair on which Linton rested a push. He'd
                  better have kept his distance. My master quickly sprang erect, and struck him full
                  on the throat a blow that would have levelled a slighter man. It took his breath
                  for a minute; and while he choked, Mr. Linton walked out by the back <pb n="I.260" facs="pageImages/I.268.jpg"/>
                  door into the yard, and from thence to the front entrance. </p>
               <p>"There! you've done with coming here," cried Catherine. "Get away, now. He'll
                  return with a brace of pistols and half a dozen assistants. If he did overhear us,
                  of course he'd never forgive you. You've played me an ill turn,
                  Heathcliff. But go -- make haste! I'd rather see Edgar at bay than you." </p>
               <p>"Do you suppose I'm going with that blow burning in my gullet?" he thundered. "By
                  hell, no! I'll crush his ribs in like a rotten hazel-nut before I cross the
                  threshold! If I don't floor him now, I shall murder him some time; so, as you
                  value his existence, let me get at him!" </p>
               <p>"He is not coming," I interposed, framing a bit of a lie. "There's the coachman
                  and the two gardeners. You'll surely not wait to be thrust into the road by them!
                  Each has a bludgeon; and master will very likely be <pb n="I.261" facs="pageImages/I.269.jpg"/>watching from the parlour
                  windows, to see that they fulfil his orders." </p>
               <p>The gardeners and coachman were there, but Linton was with them. They had already
                  entered the court. Heathcliff, on second thoughts, resolved to avoid a struggle
                  against the three underlings. He seized the poker, smashed the lock from the inner
                  door, and made his escape as they tramped in. </p>
               <p>Mrs. Linton, who was very much excited, bade me accompany her upstairs. She did
                  not know my share in contributing to the disturbance, and I was anxious to keep
                  her in ignorance. </p>
               <p>"I'm nearly distracted, Nelly!" she exclaimed, throwing herself on the sofa. "A
                  thousand smiths' hammers are beating in my head! Tell Isabella to shun me; this
                  uproar is owing to her; and should she or any one else aggravate my anger at
                  present, I shall get wild. And, Nelly, say to Edgar, if you see him again
                  to-night, that I'm in danger of being seriously ill. I wish it may prove true. He
                  <pb n="I.262" facs="pageImages/I.270.jpg"/>has startled and distressed me shockingly. I want to frighten him. Besides, he
                  might come and begin a string of abuse or complainings. I'm certain I should
                  recriminate, and God knows where we should end! Will you do so, my good Nelly? You
                  are aware that I am no way blamable in this matter. What possessed him to turn
                  listener? Heathcliff's talk was outrageous after you left us; but I could soon
                  have diverted him from Isabella, and the rest meant nothing. Now all is dashed
                  wrong, by the fool's craving to hear evil of self that haunts some people like a
                  demon. Had Edgar never gathered our conversation, he would never have
                  been the worse for it. Really, when he opened on me in that unreasonable tone of
                  displeasure after I had scolded Heathcliff till I was hoarse for him, I did not
                  care hardly what they did to each other -- especially as I felt that, however the
                  scene closed, we should all be driven asunder for nobody knows how long! Well, if
                  I cannot keep Heathcliff for <pb n="I.263" facs="pageImages/I.271.jpg"/>my friend -- if Edgar will be mean and jealous --
                  I'll try to break their hearts by breaking my own. That will be a prompt way of
                  finishing all, when I am pushed to extremity. But it's a deed to be reserved for a
                  forlorn hope; I'd not take Linton by surprise with it. To this point he has been
                  discreet in dreading to provoke me. You must represent the peril of quitting that
                  policy, and remind him of my passionate temper, verging, when kindled, on frenzy.
                  I wish you could dismiss that apathy out of that countenance, and look rather more
                  anxious about me." </p>
               <p>The stolidity with which I received these instructions was, no doubt, rather
                  exasperating, for they were delivered in perfect sincerity; but I believed a
                  person who could plan the turning of her fits of passion to account beforehand
                  might, by exerting her will, manage to control herself tolerably, even while under
                  their influence; and I did not wish to <pb n="I.264" facs="pageImages/I.272.jpg"/>"frighten" her husband, as she said, and
                  multiply his annoyances for the purpose of serving her selfishness. Therefore I
                  said nothing when I met the master coming towards the parlour; but I took the
                  liberty of turning back to listen whether they would resume their quarrel
                  together. He began to speak first. </p>
               <p>"Remain where you are, Catherine," he said, without any anger in his voice, but
                  with much sorrowful despondency. "I shall not stay. I am neither come to wrangle
                  nor be reconciled; but I wish just to learn whether, after this evening's events,
                  you intend to continue your intimacy with -- " </p>
               <p>"Oh, for mercy's sake," interrupted the mistress, stamping her foot -- "for
                  mercy's sake, let us hear no more of it now! Your cold blood cannot be worked into
                  a fever. Your veins are full of ice-water; but mine are boiling, and the sight of
                  such chillness makes them dance." </p>
               <pb n="I.265" facs="pageImages/I.273.jpg"/>
               <p>"To get rid of me, answer my question," persevered Mr. Linton. "You must answer
                  it, and that violence does not alarm me. I have found that you can be as stoical
                  as any one, when you please. Will you give up Heathcliff hereafter, or will you
                  give up me? It is impossible for you to be my friend and his at the same time; and
                  I absolutely require to know which you choose." </p>
               <p>"I require to be let alone!" exclaimed Catherine furiously. "I demand it! Don't
                  you see I can scarcely stand? Edgar, you -- you leave me!" </p>
               <p>She rang the bell till it broke with a twang. I entered leisurely. It was enough
                  to try the temper of a saint, such senseless, wicked rages! There she lay dashing
                  her head against the arm of the sofa, and grinding her teeth, so that you might
                  fancy she would crash them to splinters! Mr. Linton stood looking at her in sudden
                  <pb n="I.266" facs="pageImages/I.274.jpg"/>compunction and fear. He told me to fetch some water. She had no breath for
                  speaking. I brought a glass full; and as she would not drink, I sprinkled it on
                  her face. In a few seconds she stretched herself out stiff, and turned up her
                  eyes, while her cheeks, at once blanched and livid, assumed the aspect of death.
                  Linton looked terrified. </p>
               <p>"There is nothing in the world the matter," I whispered. I did not want him to
                  yield, though I could not help being afraid in my heart. </p>
               <p>"She has blood on her lips!" he said, shuddering. </p>
               <p>"Never mind!" I answered tartly. And I told him how she had resolved, previous to
                  his coming, on exhibiting a fit of frenzy. I incautiously gave the account aloud,
                  and she heard me, for she started up, her hair flying over her shoulders, her eyes
                  flashing, the <pb n="I.267" facs="pageImages/I.275.jpg"/>muscles of her neck and arms standing out preternaturally. I made up
                  my mind for broken bones at least; but she only glared about her for an instant,
                  and then rushed from the room. The master directed me to follow. I did, to her
                  chamber door. She hindered me from going farther by securing it against me. </p>
               <p>As she never offered to descend to breakfast next morning, I went to ask whether
                  she would have some carried up. "No!" she replied peremptorily. The same question
                  was repeated at dinner and tea, and again on the morrow after, and received the
                  same answer. Mr. Linton, on his part, spent his time in the library, and did not
                  inquire concerning his wife's occupations. Isabella and he had had an hour's
                  interview, during which he tried to elicit from her some sentiment of proper
                  horror for Heathcliff's advances; but he could make nothing of her evasive
                  replies, and was obliged <pb n="I.268" facs="pageImages/I.276.jpg"/>to close the examination unsatisfactorily, adding,
                  however, a solemn warning that if she were so insane as to encourage that
                  worthless suitor, it would dissolve all bonds of relationship between herself and
                  him. </p>
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               <p>While Miss Linton moped about the park and garden, always silent, and almost
                  always in tears; and her brother shut himself up among books that he never opened
                  -- wearying, I guessed, with a continual vague expectation that Catherine,
                  repenting her conduct, would come of her own accord to ask pardon, and seek a
                  reconciliation; and she fasted pertinaciously under the idea, probably, that at
                  every meal, Edgar was ready to choke for her absence, and pride alone held him
                  from running <pb n="I.270" facs="pageImages/I.278.jpg"/>to cast himself at her feet; I went about my household duties,
                  convinced that the Grange had but one sensible soul in its walls, and that lodged
                  in my body.</p>
               <p>I wasted no condolences on miss, nor any expostulations on my mistress, nor did I
                  pay attention to the sighs of my master, who yearned to hear his lady's name,
                  since he might not hear her voice.</p>
               <p>I determined they should come about as they pleased for me; and though it was a
                  tiresomely slow process, I began to rejoice at length in a faint dawn of its
                  progress, as I thought at first.</p>
               <p>Mrs. Linton, on the third day, unbarred her door; and having finished the water in
                  her pitcher and decanter, desired a renewed supply, and a basin of gruel, for she
                  believed she was dying. That I set down as a speech meant for Edgar's ears; I
                  believed no such thing, so I kept it to myself, and brought her some tea and dry
                  toast.</p>
               <pb n="I.271" facs="pageImages/I.279.jpg"/>
               <p>She ate and drank eagerly; and sank back on her pillow again, clenching her hands
                  and groaning.</p>
               <p>"Oh, I will die," she exclaimed, "since no one cares anything about me. I wish I
                  had not taken that."</p>
               <p>Then a good while after I heard her murmur,</p>
               <p>"No, I'll not die -- he'd be glad -- he does not love me at all -- he would never
                  miss me!" </p>
               <p>"Did you want anything, ma'am?" I inquired, still preserving my external
                  composure, in spite of her ghastly countenance and strange, exaggerated manner. </p>
               <p>"What is that apathetic being doing?" she demanded, pushing the thick entangled
                  locks from her wasted face. "Has he fallen into a lethargy, or is he dead?"</p>
               <p>"Neither," replied I, "if you mean Mr. Linton. He's tolerably well, I think,
                  though his studies occupy him rather more than they ought. He is continually among
                  his books, since he has no other society." </p>
               <pb n="I.272" facs="pageImages/I.280.jpg"/>
               <p>I should not have spoken so if I had known her true condition, but I could not get
                  rid of the notion that she acted a part of her disorder. </p>
               <p>"Among his books!" she cried, confounded. "And I dying -- I on the brink of the
                  grave! My God! does he know how I'm altered?" continued she, staring at her
                  reflection in a mirror hanging against the opposite wall. "Is that Catherine
                  Linton? He imagines me in a pet -- in play, perhaps. Cannot you inform him that it
                  is frightful earnest? Nelly, if it be not too late, as soon as I learn how he
                  feels I'll choose between these two -- either to starve at once (that would be no
                  punishment unless he had a heart), or to recover, and leave the country. Are you
                  speaking the truth about him now? Take care. Is he actually so utterly indifferent
                  for my life?" </p>
               <p>"Why, ma'am," I answered, "the master has no idea of your being deranged; and, of
                  <pb n="I.273" facs="pageImages/I.281.jpg"/>course, he does not fear that you will let yourself die of hunger." </p>
               <p>"You think not? Cannot you tell him I will?" she returned. "Persuade him; speak of
                  your own mind; say you are certain I will!" </p>
               <p>"No, you forget, Mrs. Linton," I suggested, "that you have eaten some food with a
                  relish this evening, and tomorrow you will perceive its good effects." </p>
               <p>"If I were only sure it would kill him," she interrupted, "I'd kill myself
                  directly! These three awful nights I've never closed my lids; and oh, I've been
                  tormented! I've been haunted, Nelly! But I begin to fancy you don't
                  like me. How strange! I thought, though everybody hated and despised each other,
                  they could not avoid loving me. And they have all turned to enemies in a few
                  hours. They have, I'm positive -- the people here. How dreary to meet death,
                  surrounded by their cold faces! Isabella, terrified and repelled, <pb n="I.274" facs="pageImages/I.282.jpg"/>afraid to enter
                  the room; it would be so dreadful to watch Catherine go! And Edgar standing
                  solemnly by to see it over; then offering prayers of thanks to God for restoring
                  peace to his house, and going back to his books! What in the name of all that
                  feels has he to do with books when I am dying?" </p>
               <p>She could not bear the notion which I had put into her head of Mr. Linton's
                  philosophical resignation. Tossing about, she increased her feverish bewilderment
                  to madness, and tore the pillow with her teeth; then raising herself up, all
                  burning, desired that I would open the window. We were in the middle of winter,
                  the wind blew strong from the north-east, and I objected. Both the expressions
                  flitting over her face and the changes of her moods began to alarm me terribly,
                  and brought to my recollection her former illness, and the doctor's injunction
                  that she should not be crossed. A minute previously she was violent; now,
                  <pb n="I.275" facs="pageImages/I.283.jpg"/>supported on one arm, and not noticing my refusal to obey her, she seemed to find
                  childish diversion in pulling the feathers from the rents she had just made, and
                  ranging them on the sheet according to their different species. Her mind had
                  strayed to other associations. </p>
               <p>"That's a turkey's," she murmured to herself, "and this is a wild duck's, and this
                  is a pigeon's. Ah, they put pigeons' feathers in the pillows; no wonder I couldn't
                  die! Let me take care to throw it on the floor when I lie down. And here is a
                  moor-cock's; and this -- I should know it among a thousand -- it's a lapwing's.
                  Bonny bird, wheeling over our heads in the middle of the moor. It wanted to get to
                  its nest, for the clouds had touched the swells, and it felt rain coming. This
                  feather was picked up from the heath; the bird was not shot. We saw its nest in
                  the winter, full of little skeletons. Heathcliff set a trap over it, and the old
                  ones dare not come. I made him promise he'd never shoot a lap-wing
                  after that, <pb n="I.276" facs="pageImages/I.284.jpg"/>and he didn't. Yes, here are more! Did he shoot my lapwings, Nelly?
                  Are they red, any of them? Let me look." </p>
               <p>"Give over with that baby-work!" I interrupted, dragging the pillow away, and
                  turning the holes towards the mattress, for she was removing its contents by
                  handfuls. "Lie down and shut your eyes; you're wandering. There's a mess! The down
                  is flying about like snow." </p>
               <p>I went here and there collecting it. </p>
               <p>"I see in you, Nelly," she continued dreamily, "an aged woman. You have gray hair
                  and bent shoulders. This bed is the fairy cave under Peniston Crag, and you are
                  gathering elf-bolts to hurt our heifers, pretending, while I am near, that they
                  are only locks of wool. That's what you'll come to fifty years hence. I know you
                  are not so now. I'm not wandering; you're mistaken, or else I should believe you
                  really were that withered hag, and I should think I was under Peniston Crag; and
                  I'm conscious it's night, and there <pb n="I.277" facs="pageImages/I.285.jpg"/>are two candles on the table making the black
                  press shine like jet." </p>
               <p>"The black press? Where is that?" I asked. "You are talking in your sleep!" </p>
               <p>"It's against the wall, as it always is," she replied. "It does appear odd. I see
                  a face in it!" </p>
               <p>"There's no press in the room, and never was," said I, resuming my seat, and
                  looping up the curtain, that I might watch her. </p>
               <p>"Don't you see that face?" she inquired, gazing earnestly at the mirror. </p>
               <p>And say what I could, I was incapable of making her comprehend it to be her own;
                  so I rose and covered it with a shawl. </p>
               <p>"It's behind there still!" she pursued anxiously. "And it stirred. Who is it? I
                  hope it will not come out when you are gone! O Nelly, the room is haunted! I'm
                  afraid of being alone!" </p>
               <p>I took her hand in mine, and bade her be composed, for a succession of shudders
                  convulsed <pb n="I.278" facs="pageImages/I.286.jpg"/>her frame, and she would keep straining her gaze towards the glass. </p>
               <p>"There's nobody here!" I insisted. "It was yourself Mrs. Linton. You knew it a
                  while since." </p>
               <p>"Myself!" she gasped; "and the clock is striking twelve! It's true, then; that's
                  dreadful!" </p>
               <p>Her fingers clutched the clothes, and gathered them over her eyes. I attempted to
                  steal to the door, with an intention of calling her husband; but I was summoned
                  back by a piercing shriek. The shawl had dropped from the frame. </p>
               <p>"Why, what is the matter?" cried I. "Who is coward now? Wake up! That is the glass
                  -- the mirror, Mrs. Linton; and you see yourself in it; and there am I too, by
                  your side." </p>
               <p>Trembling and bewildered, she held me fast, but the horror gradually passed from
                  her countenance. Its paleness gave place to a glow of shame. </p>
               <pb n="I.279" facs="pageImages/I.287.jpg"/>
               <p>"Oh dear! I thought I was at home," she sighed -- "I thought I was lying in my
                  chamber at Wuthering Heights. Because I'm weak, my brain got confused, and I
                  screamed unconsciously. Don't say anything, but stay with me. I dread sleeping. My
                  dreams appall me." </p>
               <p>"A sound sleep would do you good, ma'am," I answered; "and I hope this suffering
                  will prevent your trying starving again." </p>
               <p>"Oh, if I were but in my own bed in the old house!" she went on bitterly, wringing
                  her hands. "And that wind sounding in the firs by the lattice. Do let me feel it
                  -- it comes straight down the moor -- do let me have one breath!" </p>
               <p>To pacify her, I held the casement ajar a few seconds. A cold blast rushed
                  through. I closed it, and returned to my post. She lay still now, her face bathed
                  in tears. Exhaustion of body had entirely subdued <pb n="I.280" facs="pageImages/I.288.jpg"/>her spirit. Our fiery Catherine
                  was no better than a wailing child. </p>
               <p>"How long is it since I shut myself in here?" she asked, suddenly reviving. </p>
               <p>"It was Monday evening," I replied; "and this is Thursday night, or rather Friday
                  morning, at present." </p>
               <p>"What! of the same week?" she exclaimed. "Only that brief time?" </p>
               <p>"Long enough to live on nothing but cold water and ill-temper," observed I. </p>
               <p>"Well, it seems a weary number of hours," she muttered doubtfully. "It must be
                  more. I remember being in the parlour after they had quarrelled, and Edgar being
                  cruelly provoking, and me running into this room desperate. As soon as ever I had
                  barred the door, utter blackness overwhelmed me, and I fell on the floor. I
                  couldn't explain to Edgar how certain I felt of having a fit, or going raging mad,
                  if he persisted in teasing me. I had no command of tongue or brain, and he did not
                  <pb n="I.281" facs="pageImages/I.289.jpg"/>guess my agony perhaps; it barely left me sense to try to escape from him and his
                  voice. Before I recovered sufficiently to see and hear, it began to be dawn; and,
                  Nelly, I'll tell you what I thought, and what has kept recurring and recurring
                  till I feared for my reason. I thought as I lay there, with my head against that
                  table leg, and my eyes dimly discerning the gray square of the window, that I was
                  enclosed in the oak-panelled bed at home; and my heart ached with some great grief
                  which, just waking, I could not recollect. I pondered, and worried myself to
                  discover what it could be; and, most strangely, the whole last seven years of my
                  life grew a blank! I did not recall that they had been at all. I was a child; my
                  father was just buried, and my misery arose from the separation that Hindley had
                  ordered between me and Heathcliff. I was laid alone, for the first time; and
                  rousing from a dismal doze, after a night of weeping, I lifted my hand to push the
                  panels aside. It <pb n="I.282" facs="pageImages/I.290.jpg"/>struck the table-top! I swept it along the carpet; and then
                  memory burst in. My late anguish was swallowed in a paroxysm of despair. I cannot
                  say why I felt so wildly wretched. It must have been temporary derangement, for
                  there is scarcely cause. But, supposing at twelve years old I had been wrenched
                  from the Heights, and every early association, and my all in all, as Heathcliff
                  was at that time, and been converted at a stroke into Mrs. Linton, the lady of
                  Thrushcross Grange, and the wife of a stranger, an exile and outcast thenceforth
                  from what had been my world -- you may fancy a glimpse of the abyss where I
                  grovelled! Shake your head as you will, Nelly, you have helped to unsettle me! You
                  should have spoken to Edgar -- indeed you should -- and compelled him
                  to leave me quiet! Oh, I'm burning! I wish I were out of doors! I wish I were a
                  girl again, half savage and hardy and free, and laughing at injuries, not
                  maddening under them! Why am I so <pb n="I.283" facs="pageImages/I.291.jpg"/>changed? Why does my blood rush into a hell of
                  tumult at a few words? I'm sure I should be myself were I once among the heather
                  on those hills. Open the window again wide -- fasten it open! Quick! Why don't you
                  move?" </p>
               <p>"Because I won't give you your death of cold," I answered. </p>
               <p>"You won't give me a chance of life, you mean," she said sullenly. "However, I'm
                  not helpless yet. I'll open it myself." </p>
               <p>And sliding from the bed before I could hinder her, she crossed the room, walking
                  very uncertainly, threw it back, and bent out, careless of the frosty air that cut
                  about her shoulders as keen as a knife. I entreated, and finally attempted to
                  force her to retire. But I soon found her delirious strength much surpassed mine
                  (she was delirious, I became convinced by her subsequent actions and ravings).
                  There was no moon, and everything beneath lay in misty darkness. Not a light
                  <pb n="I.284" facs="pageImages/I.292.jpg"/>gleamed from any house, far or near -- all had been extinguished long ago; and
                  those at Wuthering Heights were never visible -- still she asserted she caught
                  their shining. </p>
               <p>"Look!" she cried eagerly; "that's my room with the candle in it, and the tree
                  swaying before it; and the other candle is in Joseph's garret. Joseph sits up
                  late, doesn't he? He's waiting till I come home, that he may lock the gate. Well,
                  he'll wait a while yet. It's a rough journey, and a sad heart to travel it; and we
                  must pass by Gimmerton Kirk to go that journey! We've braved its ghosts often
                  together, and dared each other to stand among the graves and ask them to come.
                  But, Heathcliff, if I dare you now, will you venture? If you do, I'll keep you.
                  I'll not lie there by myself. They may bury me twelve feet deep, and throw the
                  church down over me, but I won't rest till you are with me. I never will!" </p>
               <p>She paused, and resumed with a strange <pb n="I.285" facs="pageImages/I.293.jpg"/>smile. "He's considering; he'd rather I'd
                  come to him! Find a way, then -- not through that kirkyard. You are
                  slow! Be content; you always followed me!" </p>
               <p>Perceiving it vain to argue against her insanity, I was planning how I could reach
                  something to wrap about her, without quitting my hold of herself (for I could not
                  trust her alone by the gaping lattice), when, to my consternation, I heard the
                  rattle of the door-handle, and Mr. Linton entered. He had only then come from the
                  library, and in passing through the lobby had noticed our talking, and been
                  attracted by curiosity, or fear, to examine what it signified, at that late hour. </p>
               <p>"O sir!" I cried, checking the exclamation risen to his lips at the sight which
                  met him, and the bleak atmosphere of the chamber, "my poor mistress is ill, and
                  she quite masters me. I cannot manage her at all. Pray, come and persuade her to
                  go to bed. Forget <pb n="I.286" facs="pageImages/I.294.jpg"/>your anger, for she's hard to guide any way but her own." </p>
               <p>"Catherine ill?" he said, hastening to us. "Shut the window, Ellen! -- Catherine!
                  why -- " </p>
               <p>He was silent. The haggardness of Mrs. Linton's appearance smote him speechless,
                  and he could only glance from her to me in horrified astonishment. </p>
               <p>"She's been fretting here," I continued, "and eating scarcely anything, and never
                  complaining. She would admit none of us till this evening, and so we couldn't
                  inform you of her state, as we were not aware of it ourselves; but it is nothing." </p>
               <p>I felt I uttered my explanations awkwardly. The master frowned. "It is nothing, is
                  it, Ellen Dean?" he said sternly. "You shall account more clearly for keeping me
                  ignorant of this!" And he took his wife in his arms, and looked at her with
                  anguish. </p>
               <p>At first she gave him no glance of recogni- <pb n="I.287" facs="pageImages/I.295.jpg"/>tion; he was invisible to her abstracted
                  gaze. The delirium was not fixed, however; having weaned her eyes from
                  contemplating the outer darkness, by degrees she centred her attention on him, and
                  discovered who it was that held her. </p>
               <p>"Ah! you are come, are you, Edgar Linton?" she said, with angry
                  animation. "You are one of those things that are ever found when least wanted, and
                  when you are wanted, never! I suppose we shall have plenty of lamentations now --
                  I see we shall; but they can't keep me from my narrow home out yonder -- my
                  resting-place, where I'm bound before spring is over! There it is -- not among the
                  Lintons, mind, under the chapel-roof, but in the open air, with a head-stone; and
                  you may please yourself whether you go to them or come to me!" </p>
               <p>"Catherine, what have you done?" commenced the master. "Am I nothing to you <pb n="I.288" facs="pageImages/I.296.jpg"/>any
                  more? Do you love that wretch Heath -- " </p>
               <p>"Hush!" cried Mrs. Linton -- "hush, this moment! You mention that name, and I end
                  the matter instantly by a spring from the window! What you touch at present you
                  may have; but my soul will be on that hill-top before you lay hands on me again. I
                  don't want you, Edgar. I'm past wanting you. Return to your books. I'm glad you
                  possess a consolation, for all you had in me is gone." </p>
               <p>"Her mind wanders, sir," I interposed -- "she has been talking nonsense the whole
                  evening; but let her have quiet and proper attendance, and she'll rally. Hereafter
                  we must be cautious how we vex her." </p>
               <p>"I desire no further advice from you," answered Mr. Linton. "You knew your
                  mistress's nature, and you encouraged me to harass her. And not to give me one
                  hint of how she has been these three days! It was heart- <pb n="I.289" facs="pageImages/I.297.jpg"/>less! Months of sickness
                  could not cause such a change!" </p>
               <p>I began to defend myself, thinking it too bad to be blamed for another's wicked
                  waywardness. "I knew Mrs. Linton's nature to be headstrong and domineering," cried
                  I, "but I didn't know that you wished to foster her fierce temper. I didn't know
                  that, to humour her, I should wink at Mr. Heathcliff. I performed the duty of a
                  faithful servant in telling you, and I have got a faithful servant's wages! Well,
                  it will teach me to be careful next time. Next time you may gather intelligence
                  for yourself." </p>
               <p>"The next time you bring a tale to me you shall quit my service, Ellen Dean," he
                  replied. </p>
               <p>"You'd rather hear nothing about it, I suppose, then, Mr. Linton?" said I.
                  "Heathcliff has your permission to come a-courting to miss, and to drop in at
                  every opportunity your ab- <pb n="I.290" facs="pageImages/I.298.jpg"/>sence offers, on purpose to poison the mistress against
                  you?" </p>
               <p>Confused as Catherine was, her wits were alert at applying our conversation. </p>
               <p>"Ah! Nelly has played traitor!" she exclaimed passionately -- "Nelly is my hidden
                  enemy! You witch! So you do seek elf-bolts to hurt us! Let me go, and I'll make
                  her rue! I'll make her howl a recantation!" </p>
               <p>A maniac's fury kindled under her brows. She struggled desperately to disengage
                  herself from Linton's arms. I felt no inclination to tarry the event; and
                  resolving to seek medical aid on my own responsibility, I quitted the chamber. </p>
               <p>In passing the garden to reach the road, at a place where a bridle hook is driven
                  into the wall, I saw something white moved irregularly, evidently by another agent
                  than the wind. Notwithstanding my hurry, I stayed to examine it, lest ever after I
                  should have the conviction <pb n="I.291" facs="pageImages/I.299.jpg"/>impressed on my imagination that it was a creature of
                  the other world. My surprise and perplexity were great on discovering, by touch
                  more than vision, Miss Isabella's springer, Fanny, suspended by a handkerchief,and
                  nearly at its last gasp. I quickly released the animal, and lifted it into the
                  garden. I had seen it follow its mistress upstairs when she went to bed, and
                  wondered much how it could have got out there, and what mischievous person had
                  treated it so. While untying the knot round the hook, it seemed to me that I
                  repeatedly caught the beat of horses' feet galloping at some distance; but there
                  were such a number of things to occupy my reflections that I hardly gave the
                  circumstance a thought, though it was a strange sound in that place at two o'clock
                  in the morning. </p>
               <p>Mr. Kenneth was fortunately just issuing from his house to see a patient in the
                  village as I came up the street, and my account of <pb n="I.292" facs="pageImages/I.300.jpg"/>Catherine Linton's malady
                  induced him to accompany me back immediately. He was a plain, rough man; and he
                  made no scruple to speak his doubts of her surviving this second attack, unless
                  she were more submissive to his directions than she had shown herself before. </p>
               <p>"Nelly Dean," said he, "I can't help fancying there's an extra cause for this.
                  What has there been to do at the Grange? We've odd reports up here. A stout,
                  hearty lass like Catherine does not fall ill for a trifle; and that sort of people
                  should not, either. It's hard work bringing them through fevers and such things.
                  How did it begin?" </p>
               <p>"The master will inform you," I answered; "but you are acquainted with the
                  Earnshaws' violent dispositions, and Mrs. Linton caps them all. I may say this; it
                  commenced in a quarrel. She was struck during a tempest of passion with a kind of
                  fit. That's her account, at least, for she flew off in the height of it, and
                  locked <pb n="I.293" facs="pageImages/I.301.jpg"/>herself up. Afterwards she refused to eat, and now she alternately raves
                  and remains in a half dream, knowing those about her, but having her mind filled
                  with all sorts of strange ideas and illusions." </p>
               <p>"Mr. Linton will be sorry?" observed Kenneth interrogatively. </p>
               <p>"Sorry? He'll break his heart should anything happen!" I replied. "Don't alarm him
                  more than necessary." </p>
               <p>"Well, I told him to beware," said my companion; "and he must bide the
                  consequences of neglecting my warning. Hasn't he been intimate with Mr. Heathcliff
                  lately?" </p>
               <p>"Heathcliff frequently visits at the Grange," answered I, "though more on the
                  strength of the mistress having known him when a boy than because the master likes
                  his company. At present he's discharged from the trouble of calling, owing to some
                  presumptuous aspirations after Miss Linton which he manifested. I hardly think
                  he'll be taken in again." </p>
               <pb n="I.294" facs="pageImages/I.302.jpg"/>
               <p>"And does Miss Linton turn a cold shoulder on him?" was the doctor's next
                  question. </p>
               <p>"I'm not in her confidence," returned I, reluctant to continue the subject. </p>
               <p>"No; she's a sly one," he remarked, shaking his head. "She keeps her own counsel.
                  But she's a real little fool. I have it from good authority that last night (and a
                  pretty night it was) she and Heathcliff were walking in the plantation at the back
                  of your house above two hours; and he pressed her not to go in again, but just
                  mount his horse and away with him. My informant said she could only put him off by
                  pledging her word of honour to be prepared on their first meeting after that. When
                  it was to be, he didn't hear; but you urge Mr. Linton to look sharp." </p>
               <p>This news filled me with fresh fears. I outstripped Kenneth, and ran most of the
                  way back. The little dog was yelping in the garden yet. I spared a minute to open
                  the gate <pb n="I.295" facs="pageImages/I.303.jpg"/>for it, but instead of going to the house door, it coursed up and down
                  snuffing the grass, and would have escaped to the road had I not seized and
                  conveyed it in with me. On ascending to Isabella's room my suspicions were
                  confirmed. It was empty. Had I been a few hours sooner, Mrs. Linton's illness
                  might have arrested her rash step. But what could be done now? There was a bare
                  possibility of overtaking them if pursued instantly. I could not pursue them,
                  however; and I dare not rouse the family, and fill the place with confusion --
                  still less unfold the business to my master, absorbed as he was in his present
                  calamity, and having no heart to spare for a second grief. I saw nothing for it
                  but to hold my tongue, and suffer matters to take their course; and Kenneth being
                  arrived, I went with a badly composed countenance to announce him. Catherine lay
                  in a troubled sleep. Her husband had succeeded in soothing the excess of <pb n="I.296" facs="pageImages/I.304.jpg"/>frenzy.
                  He now hung over her pillow, watching every shade and every change of her
                  painfully expressive features. </p>
               <p>The doctor, on examining the case for himself, spoke hopefully to him of its
                  having a favourable termination, if we could only preserve around her perfect and
                  constant tranquillity. To me he signified the threatening danger was not so much
                  death, as permanent alienation of intellect. </p>
               <p>I did not close my eyes that night, nor did Mr. Linton -- indeed, we never went to
                  bed; and the servants were all up long before the usual hour, moving through the
                  house with stealthy tread, and exchanging whispers as they encountered each other
                  in their vocations. Every one was active but Miss Isabella; and they began to
                  remark how sound she slept. Her brother, too, asked if she had risen, and seemed
                  impatient for her presence, and hurt that she showed so little anxiety for her
                  sister-in-law. <pb n="I.297" facs="pageImages/I.305.jpg"/>I trembled lest he should send me to call her; but I was spared the
                  pain of being the first proclaimant of her flight. One of the maids, a thoughtless
                  girl, who had been on an early errand to Gimmerton, came panting upstairs, open
                  mouthed, and dashed into the chamber, crying, -- </p>
               <p>"Oh dear, dear! What mun we have next? Master, master, our young lady -- "</p>
               <p>"Hold your noise!" cried I hastily, enraged at her clamorous manner. </p>
               <p>"Speak lower, Mary. What is the matter?" said Mr. Linton. "What ails your young
                  lady?" </p>
               <p>"She's gone, she's gone! Yon Heathcliff's run off wi' her!" gasped the girl. </p>
               <p>"That is not true!" exclaimed Linton, rising in agitation. "It cannot be. How has
                  the idea entered your head? -- Ellen Dean, go and seek her. It is incredible. It
                  cannot be." </p>
               <p>As he spoke he took the servant to the door, <pb n="I.298" facs="pageImages/I.306.jpg"/>and then repeated his demand to know
                  her reasons for such an assertion. </p>
               <p>"Why, I met on the road a lad that fetches milk here," she stammered, "and he
                  asked whether we weren't in trouble at the Grange. I thought he meant for missis's
                  sickness, so I answered yes. Then says he, 'There's somebody gone after 'em, I
                  guess?' I stared. He saw I knew nought about it, and he told how a gentleman and
                  lady had stopped to have a horse's shoe fastened at a blacksmith's shop, two miles
                  out of Gimmerton, not very long after midnight; and how the blacksmith's lass had
                  got up to spy who they were. She knew them both directly. And she noticed the man
                  -- Heathcliff it was, she felt certain; nob'dy could mistake him,
                  besides -- put a sovereign in her father's hand for payment. The lady had a cloak
                  about her face; but having desired a sup of water, while she drank it fell back,
                  and she saw her very plain. Heathcliff held <pb n="I.299" facs="pageImages/I.307.jpg"/>both bridles as they rode on, and they
                  set their faces from the village, and went as fast as the rough roads would let
                  them. The lass said nothing to her father, but she told it all over Gimmerton this
                  morning." </p>
               <p>I ran and peeped, for form's sake, into Isabella's room, confirming, when I
                  returned, the servant's statement. Mr. Linton had resumed his seat by the bed. On
                  my re-entrance he raised his eyes, read the meaning of my blank aspect, and
                  dropped them without giving an order or uttering a word. </p>
               <p>"Are we to try any measures for overtaking and bringing her back?" I inquired.
                  "How should we do?" </p>
               <p>"She went of her own accord," answered the master; "she had a right to go if she
                  pleased. Trouble me no more about her. Hereafter she is only my sister in name
                  ...not because I disown her, but because she has disowned me." </p>
               <p>And that was all he said on the subject. He <pb n="I.300" facs="pageImages/I.308.jpg"/>did not make a single inquiry further,
                  or mention her in any way, except directing me to send what property she had in
                  the house to her fresh home, wherever it was, when I knew it. </p>
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               <p>For two months the fugitives remained absent; in those two months, Mrs. Linton
                  encountered and conquered the worst shock of what was denominated a brain fever.
                  No mother could have nursed an only child more devotedly than Edgar tended her.
                  Day and night he was watching, and patiently enduring all the annoyances that
                  irritable nerves and a shaken reason could inflict: and, though Kenneth remarked
                  that what he saved from the grave <pb n="I.302" facs="pageImages/I.310.jpg"/>would only recompense his care by forming the
                  source of constant future anxiety -- in fact, that his health and strength were
                  being sacrificed to preserve a mere ruin of humanity -- he knew no limits in
                  gratitude and joy, when Catherine's life was declared out of danger; and hour
                  after hour he would sit beside her, tracing the gradual return to bodily health,
                  and flattering his too sanguine hopes with the illusion that her mind would settle
                  back to its right balance also, and she would soon be entirely her former
                  self.</p>
               <p>The first time she left her chamber, was at the commencement of the following
                  March. Mr. Linton had put on her pillow, in the morning, a handful of golden
                  crocuses; her eye, long stranger to any gleam of pleasure, caught them in waking,
                  and shone delighted as she gathered them eagerly together.</p>
               <p>"These are the earliest flowers at the Heights!" she exclaimed. "They remind me of
                  soft thaw winds, and warm sunshine, and <pb n="I.303" facs="pageImages/I.311.jpg"/>nearly melted snow -- Edgar, is there not
                  a south wind, and is not the snow almost gone ?"</p>
               <p>"The snow is quite gone down here, darling," replied her husband, "and I only see
                  two white spots on the whole range of moors. The sky is blue, and the larks are
                  singing, and the becks and brooks are all brim full. Catherine, last spring at
                  this time I was longing to have you under this roof; now I wish you were a mile or
                  two up those hills; the air blows so sweetly, I feel that it would cure you." </p>
               <p>"I shall never be there but once more," said the invalid; "and then you'll leave
                  me, and I shall remain for ever. Next spring you'll long again to have me under
                  this roof, and you'll look back and think you were happy to-day." </p>
               <p>Linton lavished on her the kindest caresses, and tried to cheer her by the fondest
                  words; but, vaguely regarding the flowers, she let the tears collect on her lashes
                  and stream down her cheeks unheeding. <pb n="I.304" facs="pageImages/I.312.jpg"/>We knew she was really better, and therefore
                  decided that long confinement to a single place produced much of this despondency,
                  and it might be partially removed by a change of scene. The master told me to
                  light a fire in the many-weeks-deserted parlour, and to set an easy-chair in the
                  sunshine by the window; and then he brought her down, and she sat a long while
                  enjoying the genial heat, and, as we expected, revived by the objects round her,
                  which, though familiar, were free from the dreary associations investing her hated
                  sick chamber. By evening she seemed greatly exhausted, yet no arguments could
                  persuade her to return to that apartment; and I had to arrange the parlour sofa
                  for her bed, till another room could be prepared. To obviate the fatigue of
                  mounting and descending the stairs, we fitted up this, where you lie at present,
                  on the same floor with the parlour; and she was soon strong enough to <pb n="I.305" facs="pageImages/I.313.jpg"/>move from
                  one to the other, leaning on Edgar's arm. Ah, I thought myself she might recover,
                  so waited on as she was. And there was double cause to desire it, for on her
                  existence depended that of another; we cherished the hope that in a little while
                  Mr. Linton's heart would be gladdened, and his lands secured from a stranger's
                  gripe, by the birth of an heir. </p>
               <p>I should mention that Isabella sent to her brother, some six weeks from her
                  departure, a short note announcing her marriage with Heathcliff. It appeared dry
                  and cold, but at the bottom was dotted in with pencil an obscure apology, and an
                  entreaty for kind remembrance and reconciliation, if her proceeding had offended
                  him, asserting that she could not help it then, and, being done, she had now no
                  power to repeal it. Linton did not reply to this, I believe; and in a
                  fortnight more I got a long letter which I considered odd, coming from the pen of
                  a <pb n="I.306" facs="pageImages/I.314.jpg"/>bride just out of the honeymoon. I'll read it, for I keep it yet. Any relic of
                  the dead is precious if they were valued living. </p>
               <div type="epistle">

                  <p>DEAR ELLEN, it begins, I came last night to Wuthering Heights, and heard for
                     the first time that Catherine has been, and is yet, very ill. I must not write
                     to her, I suppose, and my brother is either too angry or too distressed to
                     answer what I sent him. Still, I must write to somebody, and the only choice
                     left me is you. </p>
                  <p>Inform Edgar that I'd give the world to see his face again -- that my heart
                     returned to Thrushcross Grange in twenty-four hours after I left it, and is
                     there at this moment, full of warm feelings for him and Catherine. I can't
                     follow it, though (those words are underlined); they need not expect me; and
                     they may draw what conclusions they please, taking care, however, to lay
                     nothing at the door of my weak will or deficient affection. </p>
                  <pb n="I.307" facs="pageImages/I.315.jpg"/>
                  <p>The remainder of the letter is for yourself alone. I want to ask you two
                     questions; the first is -- How did you contrive to preserve the common
                     sympathies of human nature when you resided here? I cannot recognize any
                     sentiment which those around share with me. </p>
                  <p>The second question I have great interest in; it is this -- Is Mr. Heathcliff a
                     man? If so, is he mad? And if not, is he a devil? I shan't tell my reasons for
                     making this inquiry, but I beseech you to explain, if you can, what I have
                     married -- that is, when you call to see me; and you must call, Ellen, very
                     soon. Don't write, but come, and bring me something from Edgar. </p>
                  <p>Now you shall hear how I have been received in my new home, as I am led to
                     imagine the Heights will be. It is to amuse myself that I dwell on such
                     subjects as the lack of external comforts; they never occupy my <pb n="I.308" facs="pageImages/I.316.jpg"/>thoughts,
                     except at the moment when I miss them. I should laugh and dance for joy if I
                     found their absence was the total of my miseries, and the rest
                     was an unnatural dream. </p>
                  <p>The sun set behind the Grange as we turned on to the moors: by that I judged it
                     to be six o'clock; and my companion halted half an hour to inspect the park and
                     the gardens, and probably the place itself, as well as he could; so it was dark
                     when we dismounted in the paved yard of the farmhouse, and your old
                     fellow-servant Joseph issued out to receive us by the light of a dip candle. He
                     did it with a courtesy that redounded to his credit. His first act was to
                     elevate his torch to a level with my face, squint malignantly, project his
                     under lip, and turn away. Then he took the two horses and led them into the
                     stables, reappearing for the purpose of locking the outer gate, as if we lived
                     in an ancient castle. </p>
                  <pb n="I.309" facs="pageImages/I.317.jpg"/>
                  <p>Heathcliff stayed to speak to him, and I entered the kitchen -- a dingy, untidy
                     hole. I dare say you would not know it, it is so changed since it was in your
                     charge. By the fire stood a ruffianly child, strong in limb and dirty in garb,
                     with a look of Catherine in his eyes and about his mouth. </p>
                  <p>"This is Edgar's legal nephew," I reflected -- "mine in a manner. I must shake
                     hands, and -- yes -- I must kiss him. It is right to establish a good
                     understanding at the beginning." </p>
                  <p>I approached, and attempting to take his chubby fist, said, -- </p>
                  <p>"How do you do, my dear?" </p>
                  <p>He replied in a jargon I did not comprehend. </p>
                  <p>"Shall you and I be friends, Hareton?" was my next essay at conversation. </p>
                  <p>An oath, and a threat to set Throttler on me if I did not "frame off," rewarded
                     my perseverance. </p>
                  <p>"Hey, Throttler, lad!" whispered the little <pb n="I.310" facs="pageImages/I.318.jpg"/>wretch, rousing a half-bred
                     bull-dog from its lair in a corner. "Now, wilt thou be ganging?" he asked
                     authoritatively.</p>
                  <p>Love for my life urged a compliance. I stepped over the threshold to wait till
                     the others should enter. Mr. Heathcliff was nowhere visible, and Joseph, whom I
                     followed to the stables and requested to accompany me in, after
                     staring and muttering to himself, screwed up his nose and replied, -- </p>
                  <p>"Mim! mim! mim! Did iver Christian body hear aught like it? Minching un
                     munching! How can I tell whet ye say?" </p>
                  <p>"I say I wish you to come with me into the house!" I cried, thinking him deaf,
                     yet highly disgusted at his rudeness. </p>
                  <p>"Nor nuh me. I getten summut else to do," he answered, and continued his work,
                     moving his lantern jaws meanwhile, and surveying my dress and countenance (the
                     former a great deal too fine, but the latter, I'm sure, as sad as he could
                     desire) with sovereign contempt. </p>
                  <pb n="I.311" facs="pageImages/I.319.jpg"/>
                  <p>I walked round the yard and through a wicket to another door, at which I took
                     the liberty of knocking, in hopes some more civil servant might show himself.
                     After a short suspense it was opened by a tall, gaunt man, without neckerchief,
                     and otherwise extremely slovenly; his features were lost in masses of shaggy
                     hair that hung on his shoulders, and his eyes, too, were like a ghostly
                     Catherine's with all their beauty annihilated. </p>
                  <p>"What's your business here?" he demanded grimly. "Who are you?" </p>
                  <p>"My name was Isabella Linton," I replied. "You've seen me before, sir. I'm
                     lately married to Mr. Heathcliff, and he has brought me here -- I suppose by
                     your permission." </p>
                  <p>"Is he come back, then?" asked the hermit, glaring like a hungry wolf, </p>
                  <p>"Yes, we came just now," I said; "but he left me by the kitchen door, and when
                     I would have gone in your little boy played <pb n="I.312" facs="pageImages/I.320.jpg"/>sentinel over the place, and
                     frightened me off by the help of a bull-dog." </p>
                  <p>"It's well the hellish villain has kept his word!" growled my future host,
                     searching the darkness beyond me in expectation of discovering Heathcliff; and
                     then he indulged in a soliloquy of execrations, and threats of what he would
                     have done had the "fiend" deceived him. </p>
                  <p>I repented having tried this second entrance, and was almost 
                     inclined to slip away before he finished cursing; but ere I could execute
                     that intention he ordered me in, and shut and refastened the door. There was a
                     great fire, and that was all the light in the huge apartment, whose floor had
                     grown a uniform gray, and the once brilliant pewter dishes, which used to
                     attract my gaze when I was a girl, partook of a similar obscurity, created by
                     tarnish and dust. I inquired whether I might call the maid, and be conducted to
                     a bedroom. Mr. Earn- <pb n="I.313" facs="pageImages/I.321.jpg"/>shaw vouchsafed no answer. He walked up and down, with his
                     hands in his pockets, apparently quite forgetting my presence; and his
                     abstraction was evidently so deep, and his whole aspect so misanthropical, that
                     I shrank from disturbing him again. </p>
                  <p>You'll not be surprised, Ellen, at my feeling particularly cheerless, seated in
                     worse than solitude on that inhospitable hearth, and remembering that four
                     miles distant lay my delightful home, containing the only people I loved on
                     earth; and there might as well be the Atlantic to part us, instead of those
                     four miles. I could not overpass them. I questioned with myself -- Where must I
                     turn for comfort? and (mind you don't tell Edgar or Catherine) above every
                     sorrow beside, this rose pre-eminent -- despair at finding nobody who could or
                     would be my ally against Heathcliff. I had sought shelter at Wuthering Heights
                     almost gladly, because I was secured by that <pb n="I.314" facs="pageImages/I.322.jpg"/>arrangement from living alone with
                     him; but he knew the people we were coming amongst, and he did not fear their
                     intermeddling. </p>
                  <p>I sat and thought a doleful time. The clock struck eight, and nine, and still
                     my companion paced to and fro, his head bent on his breast, and perfectly
                     silent, unless a groan or a bitter ejaculation forced itself out at intervals.
                     I listened to detect a woman's voice in the house, and filled the interim with
                     wild regrets and dismal anticipations, which at last spoke audibly in
                     irrepressible sighing and weeping. I was not aware how openly I grieved, till
                     Earnshaw halted opposite, in his measured walk, and gave me a stare of
                     newly-awakened surprise. Taking advantage of his recovered
                     attention, I exclaimed, -- </p>
                  <p>"I'm tired with my journey, and I want to go to bed! Where is the maidservant?
                     Direct me to her, as she won't come to me." </p>
                  <p>"We have none," he answered. "You must wait on yourself." </p>
                  <pb n="I.315" facs="pageImages/I.323.jpg"/>
                  <p>"Where must I sleep, then?" I sobbed. I was beyond regarding self-respect,
                     weighed down by fatigue and wretchedness. </p>
                  <p>"Joseph will show you Heathcliff's chamber," said he. "Open that door; he's in
                     there." </p>
                  <p>I was going to obey, but he suddenly arrested me, and added in the strangest
                     tone, -- </p>
                  <p>"Be so good as to turn your lock and draw your bolt; don't omit it!" </p>
                  <p>"Well!" I said; "but why, Mr. Earnshaw?" I did not relish the notion of
                     deliberately fastening myself in with Heathcliff. </p>
                  <p>"Look here!" he replied, pulling from his waistcoat a curiously constructed
                     pistol, having a double-edged spring knife attached to the barrel. "That's a
                     great tempter to a desperate man, is it not? I cannot resist going up with this
                     every night and trying his door. If once I find it open, he's done for! I do it
                     invariably, even though the minute before I have been recalling a hundred
                     reasons that should make me refrain. It is some devil that <pb n="I.316" facs="pageImages/I.324.jpg"/>urges me to thwart
                     my own schemes by killing him. You fight against that devil for love as long as
                     you may; when the time comes, not all the angels in heaven shall save him!" </p>
                  <p>I surveyed the weapon inquisitively. A hideous notion struck me. How powerful I
                     should be, possessing such an instrument! I took it from his hand and touched
                     the blade. He looked astonished at the expression my face assumed during a
                     brief second; it was not horror -- it was covetousness. He snatched the pistol
                     back jealously, shut the knife, and returned it to its concealment. </p>
                  <p>"I don't care if you tell him," said he. "Put him on his guard, and watch for
                     him. You know the terms we are on, I see. His danger does not shock you." </p>
                  <p>"What has Heathcliff done to you?" I asked. "In what has he 
                     wronged you, to warrant this appalling hatred? Wouldn't it be wiser to bid
                     him quit the house?" </p>
                  <p>"No!" thundered Earnshaw. "Should he <pb n="I.317" facs="pageImages/I.325.jpg"/>offer to leave me, he's a dead man.
                     Persuade him to attempt it, and you are a murderess. Am I to lose all without a
                     chance of retrieval? Is Hareton to be a beggar? Oh, damnation! I will have it
                     back, and I'll have his gold too, and then his blood, and hell shall have his
                     soul! It will be ten times blacker with that guest than ever it was before!" </p>
                  <p>You've acquainted me, Ellen, with your old master's habits. He is clearly on
                     the verge of madness. He was so last night at least. I shuddered to be near
                     him, and thought on the servant's ill-bred moroseness as comparatively
                     agreeable. He now recommenced his moody walk, and I raised the latch and
                     escaped into the kitchen. Joseph was bending over the fire, peering into a
                     large pan that swung above it, and a wooden bowl of oatmeal stood on the settle
                     close by. The contents of the pan began to boil, and he turned to plunge his
                     hand into the bowl. I conjectured that this preparation was <pb n="I.318" facs="pageImages/I.326.jpg"/>probably for our
                     supper, and being hungry, I resolved it should be eatable; so, crying out
                     sharply, "I'll make the porridge!" I removed the vessel out of his reach, and
                     proceeded to take off my hat and riding-habit. </p>
                  <p>"Mr. Earnshaw," I continued, "directs me to wait on myself. I will. I'm not
                     going to act the lady among you, for fear I should starve." </p>
                  <p>"Gooid Lord!" he muttered, sitting down and stroking his ribbed stockings from
                     the knee to the ankle. "If there's to be fresh ortherings, just when I getten
                     used to two maisters, if I mun hev a mistress set o'er my heead, it's like time
                     to be flitting. I niver did think to see t' day that I mud lave th' owld place,
                     but I doubt it's nigh at hand!"</p>
                  <p>This lamentation drew no notice from me. I went briskly to work, sighing to
                     remember a period when it would have been all merry fun, but compelled speedily
                     to drive off the remembrance. It racked me to recall past hap- <pb n="I.319" facs="pageImages/I.327.jpg"/>piness and the
                     greater peril there was of conjuring up its apparition, the quicker the thible
                     ran round, and the faster the handfuls of meal fell into the
                     water. Joseph beheld my style of cookery with growing indignation. </p>
                  <p>"Thear!" he ejaculated. "Hareton, thou willn't sup thy porridge to-neeght;
                     they'll be naught but lumps as big as my neive. Thear, agean! I'd fling in bowl
                     un all, if I wer ye! There, pale t' guilp off, un then ye'll hae done wi't.
                     Bang, bang. It's a mercy t' bothom isn't deaved out!" </p>
                  <p>It was rather a rough mess, I own, when poured into the basins. Four had been
                     provided, and a gallon pitcher of new milk was brought from the dairy, which
                     Hareton seized and commenced drinking and spilling from the expansive lip. I
                     expostulated, and desired that he should have his in a mug, affirming that I
                     could not taste the liquid treated so dirtily. The old <pb n="I.320" facs="pageImages/I.328.jpg"/>cynic chose to be vastly
                     offended at this nicety, assuring me repeatedly that "the barn was every bit as
                     good" as I, "and every bit as wollsome," and wondering how I could fashion to
                     be so conceited. Meanwhile the infant ruffian continued sucking, and glowered
                     up at me defyingly as he slavered into the jug. </p>
                  <p>"I shall have my supper in another room," I said. "Have you no place you call a
                     parlour?" </p>
                  <p>"Parlour!" he echoed sneeringly -- "parlour! Nay, we've noa parlours. If yah
                     dunnut loike wer company, there's maister's; un if yah dunnut loike maister,
                     there's us." </p>
                  <p>"Then I shall go upstairs," I answered. "Show me a chamber." </p>
                  <p>I put my basin on a tray, and went myself to fetch some more milk. With great
                     grumblings the fellow rose and preceded me in my ascent. We mounted to the
                     garrets. He opened a door now and then to look into the apartments we passed. </p>
                  <pb n="I.321" facs="pageImages/I.329.jpg"/>
                  <p>"Here's a rahm," he said at last, flinging back a cranky board on hinges. "It's
                     weel eneugh to ate a few porridge in. There's a pack o' corn i' t' corner,
                     thear, meeterly clane. If ye're feared o' muckying yer grand silk cloes, spread
                     yer hankerchir o' to' top on't." </p>
                  <p>The "rahm" was a kind of lumber-hole smelling strong of malt and
                     grain, various sacks of which articles were piled around, leaving a wide, bare
                     space in the middle. </p>
                  <p>"Why, man!" I exclaimed, facing him angrily, "this is not a place to sleep in.
                     I wish to see my bedroom." </p>
                  <p>"Bedrume!" he repeated, in a tone of mockery. "Yah's see all t'bedrumes thear
                     is. Yon's mine." </p>
                  <p>He pointed into the second garret, only differing from the first in being more
                     naked about the walls, and having a large, low, curtainless bed with an
                     indigo-coloured quilt at one end. </p>
                  <p>"What do I want with yours?" I retorted. <pb n="I.322" facs="pageImages/I.330.jpg"/>"I suppose Mr. Heathcliff does not
                     lodge at the top of the house, does he?" </p>
                  <p>"Oh, it's Maister Hathecliff's ye're wanting?" cried he, as if making a new
                     discovery. "Couldn't ye ha' said soa, at onst? Un then I mud ha' telled ye,
                     baht all this wark, that that's just one ye cannut see. He allas keeps it
                     locked, un nob'dy iver mells on't but hisseln." </p>
                  <p>"You've a nice house, Joseph," I could not refrain from observing, "and
                     pleasant inmates; and I think the concentrated essence of all the madness in
                     the world took up its abode in my brain the day I linked my fate with theirs!
                     However, that is not to the present purpose. There are other rooms. For
                     Heaven's sake be quick, and let me settle somewhere!" </p>
                  <p>He made no reply to this adjuration, only plodding doggedly down the wooden
                     steps, and halting before an apartment which, from that halt and the superior
                     quality of its furniture, I conjectured to be the best one. <pb n="I.323" facs="pageImages/I.331.jpg"/>There was a carpet
                     -- a good one -- but the pattern was obliterated by dust; a fireplace hung with
                     cut paper, dropping to pieces; a handsome oak bedstead with ample crimson
                     curtains of rather expensive material and modern make, but they had evidently
                     experienced rough usage -- the valances hung in festoons, wrenched from their
                     rings, and the iron rod supporting them was bent in an arc on one side, causing
                     the drapery to trail upon the floor. The chairs were also damaged, many of them
                     severely, and deep indentations deformed the panels of the walls. I was endeavouring to gather resolution for entering and taking possession,
                     when my fool of a guide announced, "This here is t' maister's." My supper by
                     this time was cold, my appetite gone, and my patience exhausted. I insisted on
                     being provided instantly with a place of refuge and means of repose. </p>
                  <p>"Whear the divil?" began the religious <pb n="I.324" facs="pageImages/I.332.jpg"/>elder. "The Lord bless us! The Lord
                     forgie us! Whear the hell wold ye gang, ye marred, wearisome nowt? Ye've seen
                     all but Hareton's bit of a cham'er. There's not another hoile to lig down in i'
                     th' hahse!" </p>
                  <p>I was so vexed, I flung my tray and its contents on the ground, and then seated
                     myself at the stairs-head, hid my face in my hands, and cried. </p>
                  <p>"Ech! ech!" exclaimed Joseph. "Weel done, Miss Cathy! weel done, Miss Cathy!
                     Hahsiver, t' maister sall just tum'le o'er them brocken pots, un then we's hear
                     summut -- we's hear how it's to be. Gooid-for-naught madling! ye desarve pining
                     fro' this to Churstmas, flinging t' precious gifts o' God under fooit i' yer
                     flaysome rages! But I'm mista'eif ye show yer sperrit lang. Will Hathecliff
                     bide sich bonny ways, think ye? I nobbut wish he may catch ye i' that plisky. I
                     nobbut wish he may." </p>
                  <p>And so he went on scolding to his den beneath, <pb n="I.325" facs="pageImages/I.333.jpg"/>taking the candle with him, and
                     I remained in the dark. The period of reflection succeeding this silly action
                     compelled me to admit the necessity of smothering my pride and choking my
                     wrath, and bestirring myself to remove its effects. An unexpected aid presently
                     appeared in the shape of Throttler, whom I now recognized as a son of our old
                     Skulker. It had spent its whelphood at the Grange, and was given by my father
                     to Mr. Hindley. I fancy it knew me. It pushed its nose against mine by way of
                     salute, and then hastened to devour the porridge, while I groped from step to
                     step, collecting the shattered earthenware, and drying the spatters of milk
                     from the banister with my pocket-handkerchief. Our labours were scarcely over
                     when I heard Earnshaw's tread in the passage. My assistant tucked in his tail
                     and pressed to the wall. I stole into the nearest doorway. The
                     dog's endeavour to avoid him was unsuccessful, as I <pb n="I.326" facs="pageImages/I.344.jpg"/>guessed by a scutter
                     downstairs, and a prolonged, piteous yelping. I had better luck. He passed on,
                     entered his chamber, and shut the door. Directly after, Joseph came up with
                     Hareton, to put him to bed. I had found shelter in Hareton's room, and the old
                     man, on seeing me, said, -- </p>
                  <p>"They's rahm for boath ye un yer pride now, I sud think, i' the hahse. It's
                     empty; ye may hev it all to yer-seln, un Him as allas maks a third i' sich ill
                     company!" </p>
                  <p>Gladly did I take advantage of this intimation, and the minute I flung myself
                     into a chair by the fire I nodded and slept. My slumber was deep and sweet,
                     though over far too soon. Mr. Heathcliff awoke me. He had just come in, and
                     demanded, in his loving manner, what I was doing there. I told him the cause of
                     my staying up so late -- that he had the key of our room in his pocket. <pb n="I.327" facs="pageImages/I.335.jpg"/>The
                     adjective our gave mortal offence. He swore it was not, nor ever should be
                     mine, and he'd -- But I'll not repeat his language, nor describe his habitual
                     conduct. He is ingenious and unresting in seeking to gain my abhorrence. I
                     sometimes wonder at him with an intensity that deadens my fear; yet I assure
                     you a tiger or a venomous serpent could not rouse terror in me equal to that
                     which he wakens. He told me of Catherine's illness, and accused my brother of
                     causing it, promising that I should be Edgar's proxy in suffering till he could
                     get hold of him. </p>
                  <p>I do hate him -- I am wretched -- I have been a fool Beware of uttering one
                     breath of this to any one at the Grange. I shall expect you every day. Don't
                     disappoint me. </p>
                  <p> ISABELLA.</p>
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               <p>As soon as I had perused this epistle, I went to the master, and informed him that
                  his sister had arrived at the Heights, and sent me a letter expressing her sorrow
                  for Mrs. Linton's situation, and her ardent desire to see him; with a wish that he
                  would transmit to her, as early as possible, some token of forgiveness by me.</p>
               <p>"Forgiveness?" said Linton. "I have nothing to forgive her, Ellen -- you may call
                  at Wuthering Heights this afternoon, if you like, <pb n="I.329" facs="pageImages/I.337.jpg"/>and say that I am not angry, but
                  I'm sorry to have lost her: especially as I can never think she'll be happy. It is
                  out of the question my going to see her, however; we are eternally divided; and
                  should she really wish to oblige me, let her persuade the villain she has married
                  to leave the country."</p>
               <p>"And you won't write her a little note, sir ?" I asked, imploringly.</p>
               <p>"No," he answered. "It is needless. My communication with Heathcliff's family
                  shall be as sparing as his with mine. It shall not exist!"</p>
               <p>Mr. Edgar's coldness depressed me exceedingly; and all the way from the Grange I
                  puzzled my brains how to put more heart into what he said, when I repeated it; and
                  how to soften his refusal of even a few lines to console Isabella.</p>
               <p>I dare say she had been on the watch for me since morning: I saw her looking
                  through the lattice, as I came up the garden causeway, <pb n="I.330" facs="pageImages/I.338.jpg"/>and I nodded to her; but
                  she drew back as if afraid of being observed.</p>
               <p>I entered without knocking. There never was such a dreary, dismal scene as the
                  formerly cheerful house presented. I must confess that if I had been in the young
                  lady's place I would, at least, have swept the hearth and wiped the tables with a
                  duster. But she already partook of the pervading spirit of neglect which
                  encompassed her. Her pretty face was wan and listless, her hair 
                  uncurled -- some locks hanging lankly down, and some carelessly twisted round
                  her head. Probably she had not touched her dress since yester evening. Hindley was
                  not there. Mr. Heathcliff sat at a table, turning over some papers in his
                  pocket-book; but he rose when I appeared, asked me how I did, quite friendly, and
                  offered me a chair. He was the only thing there that seemed decent, and I thought
                  he never looked better. So much had circumstances altered their posi- <pb n="I.331" facs="pageImages/I.339.jpg"/>tions that he
                  would certainly have struck a stranger as a born and bred gentleman, and his wife
                  as a thorough little slattern! She came forward eagerly to greet me, and held out
                  one hand to take the expected letter. I shook my head. She wouldn't understand the
                  hint, but followed me to a sideboard where I went to lay my bonnet, and importuned
                  me in a whisper to give her directly what I had brought. Heathcliff guessed the
                  meaning of her manoeuvres, and said, -- </p>
               <p>"If you have got anything for Isabella -- as no doubt you have, Nelly -- give it
                  to her. You needn't make a secret of it. We have no secrets between us." </p>
               <p>"Oh, I have nothing," I replied, thinking it best to speak the truth at once. "My
                  master bade me tell his sister that she must not expect either a letter or a visit
                  from him at present. He sends his love, ma'am, and his wishes for your happiness,
                  and his pardon for <pb n="I.332" facs="pageImages/I.340.jpg"/>the grief you have occasioned; but he thinks that after this
                  time his household and the household here should drop intercommunication, as
                  nothing could come of keeping it up." </p>
               <p>Mrs. Heathcliff's lip quivered slightly, and she returned to her seat in the
                  window. Her husband took his stand on the hearthstone near me, and began to put
                  questions concerning Catherine. I told him as much as I thought proper of her
                  illness, and he extorted from me, by cross-examination, most of the facts
                  connected with its origin. I blamed her, as she deserved, for bringing it all on
                  herself, and ended by hoping that he would follow Mr. Linton's example, 
                  and avoid future interference with his family, for good or evil. </p>
               <p>"Mrs. Linton is now just recovering," I said. "She'll never be like she was, but
                  her life is spared; and if you really have a regard for her, you'll shun crossing
                  her way again -- <pb n="I.333" facs="pageImages/I.341.jpg"/>nay, you'll move out of this country entirely; and that you may
                  not regret it, I'll inform you Catherine Linton is as different now from your old
                  friend Catherine Earnshaw as that young lady is different from me. Her appearance
                  is changed greatly, her character much more so; and the person who is compelled,
                  of necessity, to be her companion will only sustain his affection hereafter by the
                  remembrance of what she once was, by common humanity, and a sense of duty." </p>
               <p>"That is quite possible," remarked Heathcliff, forcing himself to seem calm --
                  "quite possible that your master should have nothing but common humanity and a
                  sense of duty to fall back upon. But do you imagine that I shall leave Catherine
                  to his duty and humanity? and can you compare my feelings respecting Catherine to
                  his? Before you leave this house, I must exact a promise from you that you'll get
                  me an interview with her. Consent or refuse, I will see her! What do you say?" </p>
               <p>"I say, Mr. Heathcliff," I replied, "you <pb n="I.334" facs="pageImages/I.342.jpg"/>must not. You never shall, through my
                  means. Another encounter between you and the master would kill her altogether." </p>
               <p>"With your aid that may be avoided," he continued; "and should there be danger of
                  such an event -- should he be the cause of adding a single trouble more to her
                  existence -- why, I think I shall be justified in going to extremes. I wish you
                  had sincerity enough to tell me whether Catherine would suffer greatly from his
                  loss; the fear that she would restrains me. And there you see the distinction
                  between our feelings: had he been in my place, and I in his, though I hated him
                  with a hatred that turned my life to gall, I never would have raised a hand
                  against him. You may look incredulous if you please. I never would have banished
                  him from her society as long as she desired his. The moment her regard ceased, I
                  would have torn his heart out and drunk his blood! But till then -- if you don't believe me you don't know me -- till then, 
                  <pb n="I.335" facs="pageImages/I.343.jpg"/>I would have died by inches before I touched a single hair of his head!" </p>
               <p>"And yet," I interrupted, "you have no scruples in completely ruining all hopes of
                  her perfect restoration by thrusting yourself into her remembrance now, when she
                  has nearly forgotten you, and involving her in a new tumult of discord and
                  distress." </p>
               <p>"You suppose she has nearly forgotten me?" he said. "O Nelly, you know she has
                  not! You know as well as I do that for every thought she spends on Linton, she
                  spends a thousand on me! At a most miserable period of my life I had a notion of
                  the kind. It haunted me on my return to the neighbourhood last summer; but only
                  her own assurance could make me admit the horrible idea again. And then Linton
                  would be nothing, nor Hindley, nor all the dreams that ever I dreamt. Two words
                  would comprehend my future -- death and hell; existence, after losing her, would
                  be hell. <pb n="I.336" facs="pageImages/I.344.jpg"/>Yet I was a fool to fancy for a moment that she valued Edgar Linton's
                  attachment more than mine. If he loved with all the powers of his puny being, he
                  couldn't love as much in eighty years as I could in a day. And Catherine has a
                  heart as deep as I have; the sea could be as readily contained in that
                  horse-trough as her whole affection be monopolized by him! Tush! He is scarcely a
                  degree dearer to her than her dog or her horse. It is not in him to be loved like
                  me. How can she love in him what he has not?" </p>
               <p>"Catherine and Edgar are as fond of each other as any two people can be," cried
                  Isabella with sudden vivacity. "No one has a right to talk in that manner, and I
                  won't hear my brother depreciated in silence!" </p>
               <p>"Your brother is wondrous fond of you too, isn't he?" observed Heathcliff
                  scornfully. "He turns you adrift on the world with surprising alacrity." </p>
               <p>"He is not aware of what I suffer," she replied. "I didn't tell him that." </p>
               <pb n="I.337" facs="pageImages/I.345.jpg"/>
               <p>"You have been telling him something, then. You have written, have you?" </p>
               <p>"To say that I was married, I did write; you saw the note." </p>
               <p>"And nothing since?" </p>
               <p>"No." </p>
               <p>"My young lady is looking sadly the worse for her change of condition," I
                  remarked. "Somebody's love comes short in her case obviously. Whose, I may guess,
                  but perhaps I shouldn't say." </p>
               <p>"I should guess it was her own," said Heathcliff. She degenerates into a mere
                  slut. She is tired of trying to please me uncommonly early. You'd hardly credit
                  it, but the very morrow of our wedding she was weeping to go home. However, she'll
                  suit this house so much the better for not being overnice, and I'll take care she
                  does not disgrace me by rambling abroad." </p>
               <p>"Well, sir," returned I, "I hope you'll consider that Mrs. Heathcliff is
                  accustomed to <pb n="I.338" facs="pageImages/I.346.jpg"/>be looked after and waited on, and that she has been brought up like
                  an only daughter, whom every one was ready to serve. You must let her have a maid
                  to keep things tidy about her, and you must treat her kindly. Whatever be your
                  notion of Mr. Edgar, you cannot doubt that she has a capacity for strong
                  attachments, or she wouldn't have abandoned the elegances, and comforts, and
                  friends of her former home to fix contentedly in such a wilderness as this with
                  you." </p>
               <p>"She abandoned them under a delusion," he answered, "picturing in me a hero of
                  romance, and expecting unlimited indulgences from my chivalrous devotion. I can
                  hardly regard her in the light of a rational creature, so obstinately has she
                  persisted in forming a fabulous notion of my character, and acting on the false
                  impressions she cherished. But at last I think she begins to know me. I don't
                  perceive the silly smiles and grimaces that provoked me at first, and the
                  senseless incapa- <pb n="I.339" facs="pageImages/I.347.jpg"/>bility of discerning that I was in earnest when I gave her my
                  opinion of her infatuation and herself. It was a marvellous effort of perspicacity
                  to discover that I did not love her. I believed, at one time, no lessons could
                  teach her that. And yet it is poorly learned, for this morning she announced, as a
                  piece of appalling intelligence, that I had actually succeeded in
                  making her hate me -- a positive labour of Hercules, I assure you! If it be
                  achieved, I have cause to return thanks. -- Can I trust your assertion, Isabella?
                  Are you sure you hate me? If I let you alone for half a day, won't you come
                  sighing and wheedling to me again? -- I dare say she would rather I had seemed all
                  tenderness before you; it wounds her vanity to have the truth exposed. But I don't
                  care who knows that the passion was wholly on one side; and I never told her a lie
                  about it. She cannot accuse me of showing one bit of deceitful softness. The first
                  thing she saw me do on coming out of the Grange was to hang <pb n="I.340" facs="pageImages/I.348.jpg"/>up her little dog, and
                  when she pleaded for it, the first words I uttered were a wish that I had the
                  hanging of every being belonging to her, except one. Possibly she took that
                  exception for herself. But no brutality disgusted her. I suppose she has an innate
                  admiration of it, if only her precious person were secure from injury. Now, was it
                  not the depth of absurdity, of genuine idiocy, for that pitiful, slavish,
                  mean-minded brach to dream that I could love her? Tell your master, Nelly, that I
                  never, in all my life, met with such an abject thing as she is. She even disgraces
                  the name of Linton; and I've sometimes relented, from pure lack of invention, in
                  my experiments on what she could endure and still creep shamefully cringing back.
                  But tell him also to set his fraternal and magisterial heart at ease; that I keep
                  strictly within the limits of the law. I have avoided, up to this period, giving
                  her the slightest right to claim a separation; and, what's more, she'd thank
                  nobody for dividing <pb n="I.341" facs="pageImages/I.349.jpg"/>us. If she desired to go, she might; the nuisance of her
                  presence outweighs the gratification to be derived from tormenting her." </p>
               <p>"Mr. Heathcliff," said I, "this is the talk of a madman. Your wife, most likely,
                  is convinced you are mad, and for that reason she has borne with you hitherto; but
                  now that you say she may go, she'll doubtless avail herself of the permission. --
                  You are not so bewitched, ma'am, are you, as to remain with him of your own
                  accord?" </p>
               <p>"Take care, Ellen!" answered Isabella, her eyes sparkling irefully. There was no
                  misdoubting, by their expression, the full success of her partner's
                  endeavours to make himself detested. "Don't put faith in a single word he speaks.
                  He's a lying fiend -- a monster, and not a human being! I've been told I might
                  leave him before, and I've made the attempt, but I dare not repeat it. Only,
                  Ellen, promise you'll not mention a syllable of <pb n="I.342" facs="pageImages/I.350.jpg"/>his infamous conversation to my
                  brother or Catherine. Whatever he may pretend, he wishes to provoke Edgar to
                  desperation. He says he has married me on purpose to obtain power over him; and he
                  shan't obtain it. I'll die first! I just hope -- I pray -- that he may forget his
                  diabolical prudence and kill me! The single pleasure I can imagine is to die or to
                  see him dead!" </p>
               <p>"There -- that will do for the present!" said Heathcliff. -- "If you are called
                  upon in a court of law you'll remember her language, Nelly. And take a good look
                  at that countenance; she's near the point which would suit me -- No; you're not
                  fit to be your own guardian, Isabella, now; and I, being your legal protector,
                  must retain you in my custody, however distasteful the obligation may be. Go
                  upstairs; I have something to say to Ellen Dean in private. That's not the way.
                  Upstairs, I tell you! Why, this is the road upstairs, child." </p>
               <pb n="I.343" facs="pageImages/I.351.jpg"/>
               <p>He seized and thrust her from the room, and returned muttering, -- </p>
               <p>"I have no pity! I have no pity! The more the worms writhe, the more I yearn to
                  crush out their entrails! It is a moral teething; and I grind with greater energy
                  in proportion to the increase of pain." </p>
               <p>"Do you understand what the word pity means?" I said, hastening to resume my
                  bonnet. "Did you ever feel a touch of it in your life?" </p>
               <p>"Put that down!" he interrupted, perceiving my intention to depart. "You are not
                  going yet. Come here now, Nelly. I must either persuade or compel you to aid me in
                  fulfilling my determination to see Catherine, and that without delay. I swear that
                  I meditate no harm. I don't desire to cause any disturbance, or to exasperate or
                  insult Mr. Linton. I only wish to hear from herself how she is, and why she has
                  been ill, and to ask if anything that I could do would be of use to her. Last
                  <pb n="I.344" facs="pageImages/I.352.jpg"/>night, I was in the Grange garden six hours, and I'll return there
                  to-night; and every night I'll haunt the place, and every day, till I find an
                  opportunity of entering. If Edgar Linton meets me I shall not hesitate to knock
                  him down, and give him enough to assure his quiescence while I stay. If his
                  servants oppose me I shall threaten them off with these pistols. But wouldn't it
                  be better to prevent my coming in contact with them or their master? And you could
                  do it so easily. I'd warn you when I came, and then you might let me in
                  unobserved, as soon as she was alone, and watch till I departed, your conscience
                  quite calm. You would be hindering mischief." </p>
               <p>I protested against playing that treacherous part in my employer's house, and,
                  besides, I urged the cruelty and selfishness of his destroying Mrs. Linton's
                  tranquillity for his satisfaction. "The commonest occurrence startles her
                  painfully," I said. "She's all nerves, and she <pb n="I.345" facs="pageImages/I.353.jpg"/>couldn't bear the surprise, I'm
                  positive. Don't persist, sir, or else I shall be obliged to inform my master of
                  your designs, and he'll take measures to secure his house and its inmates from any
                  such unwarrantable intrusions!" </p>
               <p>"In that case, I'll take measures to secure you, woman," exclaimed Heathcliff.
                  "You shall not leave Wuthering Heights till to-morrow morning. It is a foolish
                  story to assert that Catherine could not bear to see me; and as to surprising her,
                  I don't desire it. You must prepare her; ask her if I may come. You say she never
                  mentions my name, and that I am never mentioned to her. To whom should she mention
                  me if I am a forbidden topic in the house? She thinks you are all spies for her
                  husband. Oh, I've no doubt she's in hell among you! I guess by her silence, as
                  much as anything, what she feels. You say she is often restless and
                  anxious-looking. Is that a proof of tranquillity? You talk of her mind being
                  unsettled. How the devil could it be <pb n="I.346" facs="pageImages/I.354.jpg"/>otherwise, in her frightful isolation? And
                  that insipid, paltry creature attending her former duty and humanity, from pity
                  and charity! He might as well plant an oak in a flower-pot, and expect it to
                  thrive, as imagine he can restore her to vigour in the soil of his shallow cares!
                  Let us settle it at once. Will you stay here, and am I to fight my way to
                  Catherine over Linton and his footman? or will you be my friend, as
                  you have been hitherto, and do what I request? Decide, because there is no reason
                  for my lingering another minute if you persist in your stubborn ill-nature." </p>
               <p>Well, Mr. Lockwood, I argued and complained, and flatly refused him fifty times;
                  but in the long run he forced me to an agreement. I engaged to carry a letter from
                  him to my mistress; and should she consent, I promised to let him have
                  intelligence of Linton's next absence from home, when he might come, and get in as
                  he was able. I wouldn't be there, <pb n="I.347" facs="pageImages/I.355.jpg"/>and my fellow servants should be equally out of
                  the way. Was it right or wrong? I fear it was wrong, though expedient. I thought I
                  prevented another explosion by my compliance, and I thought, too, it might create
                  a favourable crisis in Catherine's mental illness. And then I remembered Mr.
                  Edgar's stern rebuke of my carrying tales, and I tried to smooth away all
                  disquietude on the subject by affirming, with frequent iteration, that that
                  betrayal of trust, if it merited so harsh an appellation, should be the last.
                  Notwithstanding, my journey homeward was sadder than my journey thither, and many
                  misgivings I had ere I could prevail on myself to put the missive into Mrs.
                  Linton's hand. </p>
               <p>But here is Kenneth. I'll go down and tell him how much better you are. My history
                  is dree, as we say, and will serve to while away another morning. </p>
               
               <pb n="I.348" facs="pageImages/I.356.jpg"/>
               <p>Dree and dreary! I reflected, as the good woman descended to receive the doctor,
                  and not exactly of the kind which I should have chosen to amuse me. But never
                  mind. I'll extract wholesome medicines from Mrs. Dean's bitter herbs; and firstly,
                  let me beware the fascination that lurks in Catherine Heathcliff's brilliant eyes.
                  I should be in a curious taking if I surrendered my heart to that young person,
                  and the daughter turned out a second edition of the mother! </p>
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               <p>Another week over -- and I am so many days nearer health, and spring ! I have now
                  heard all my neighbour's history, at different sittings, as the housekeeper could
                  spare time from more important occupations. I'll continue it in her own words,
                  only a little condensed. She is, on the whole, a very fair narrator and I don't
                  think I could improve her style.</p>
               <pb n="II.2" facs="pageImages/pageImages/II.10.png"/>
               <p>In the evening, she said, the evening of my visit to the Heights, I knew, as well
                  as if I saw him, that Mr. Heathcliff was about the place; and I shunned going out,
                  because I still carried his letter in my pocket, and didn't want to be threatened,
                  or teased any more.</p>
               <p>I had made up my mind not to give it till my master went somewhere, as I could not
                  guess how its receipt would affect Catherine. The consequence was, that it did not
                  reach her before the lapse of three days. The fourth was Sunday, and I brought it
                  into her room, after the family were gone to church.</p>
               <p>There was a man servant left to keep the house with me, and we generally made a
                  practice of locking the doors during the hours of service; but on that occasion
                  the weather was so warm and pleasant that I set them wide open, and, to fulfil my
                  engagement, as I knew who would be coming, I told my companion that the mistress
                  wished very much for some oranges, and he must run over to the village<pb n="II.3" facs="pageImages/pageImages/II.11.png"/> and get a few, to be paid for on the morrow. He departed,
                  and I went upstairs.</p>
               <p>Mrs. Linton sat in a loose, white dress, with a light shawl over her shoulders, in
                  the recess of the open window as usual. Her thick, long hair had been partly
                  removed at the beginning of her illness, and now she wore it simply combed in its
                  natural tresses over her temples and neck. Her appearance was altered, as I had
                  told Heathcliff; but when she was calm there seemed unearthly beauty in the
                  change.</p>
               <p>The flash of her eyes had been succeeded by a dreamy and melancholy softness; they
                  no longer gave the impression of looking at the objects around her; they appeared
                  always to gaze beyond, and far beyond -- you would have said out of this world.
                  Then the paleness of her face -- its haggard aspect having vanished as she
                  recovered flesh -- and the peculiar expression arising from her mental state,
                  though painfully suggestive of their causes, added to <pb n="II.4" facs="pageImages/pageImages/II.12.png"/>the touching interest which she awakened, and -- invariably
                  to me, I know, and to any person who saw her, I should think -- refuted more
                  tangible proofs of convalescence, and stamped her as one doomed to decay. </p>
               <p>A book lay spread on the sill before her, and the scarcely perceptible wind
                  fluttered its leaves at intervals. I believe Linton had laid it there, for she
                  never endeavoured to divert herself with reading or occupation of any kind, and he
                  would spend many an hour in trying to entice her attention to some subject which
                  had formerly been her amusement. She was conscious of his aim, and in her better
                  moods endured his efforts placidly, only showing their uselessness by now and then
                  suppressing a wearied sigh, and checking him at last with the saddest of smiles
                  and kisses. At other times she would turn petulantly away, and hide her face in
                  her hands, or even push him off angrily; and then he took care to let her alone,
                  for he was certain of doing no good. </p>
               <pb n="II.5" facs="pageImages/II.13.png"/>
               <p>Gimmerton chapel bells were still ringing, and the full, mellow flow of the beck
                  in the valley came soothingly on the ear. It was a sweet substitute for the yet
                  absent murmur of the summer foliage which drowned that music about the Grange when
                  the trees were in leaf. At Wuthering Heights it always sounded on quiet days
                  following a great thaw or a season of steady rain. And of Wuthering Heights
                  Catherine was thinking as she listened -- that is, if she thought or listened at
                  all; but she had the vague, distant look I mentioned before, which expressed no
                  recognition of material things either by ear or eye. </p>
               <p>"There's a letter for you, Mrs. Linton," I said, gently inserting it in one hand
                  that rested on her knee. "You must read it immediately, because it wants an
                  answer. Shall I break the seal?" "Yes," she answered, without altering the
                  direction of her eyes. I opened it; it was very short. <pb n="II.6" facs="pageImages/II.14.png"/>"Now," I continued, "read it." She drew away her hand, and
                  let it fall. I replaced it in her lap, and stood waiting till it should please her
                  to glance down; but that movement was so long delayed that at last I resumed -- </p>
               <p>"Must I read it, ma'am? It is from Mr. Heathcliff." </p>
               <p>There was a start and a troubled gleam of recollection, and a struggle to arrange
                  her ideas. She lifted the letter, and seemed to peruse it, and when she came to
                  the signature she sighed; yet still I found she had not gathered its import, for,
                  upon my desiring to hear her reply, she merely pointed to the name and gazed at me
                  with mournful and questioning eagerness. </p>
               <p>"Well, he wishes to see you," said I, guessing her need of an interpreter. "He's
                  in the garden by this time, and impatient to know what answer I shall bring." </p>
               <p>As I spoke I observed a large dog lying on <pb n="II.7" facs="pageImages/II.15.png"/>the
                  sunny grass beneath raise its ears as if about to bark, and then, smoothing them
                  back, announce, by a wag of the tail, that some one approached whom it did not
                  consider a stranger. Mrs. Linton bent forward and listened breathlessly. The
                  minute after a step traversed the hall. The open house was too tempting for
                  Heathcliff to resist walking in. Most likely he supposed that I was inclined to
                  shirk my promise, and so resolved to trust to his own audacity.</p>
               <p>With straining eagerness Catherine gazed towards the entrance of her chamber. He
                  did not hit the right room directly. She motioned me to admit him, but he found it
                  out ere I could reach the door, and in a stride or two was at her side, and had
                  her grasped in his arms. </p>
               <p>He neither spoke nor loosed his hold for some five minutes, during which period he
                  bestowed more kisses than ever he gave in his <pb n="II.8" facs="pageImages/II.16.png"/>life
                  before, I dare say; but then my mistress had kissed him first, and I plainly saw
                  that he could hardly bear, for downright agony, to look into her face. The same
                  conviction had stricken him as me, from the instant he beheld her, that there was
                  no prospect of ultimate recovery there; she was fated, sure to die. </p>
               <p>"O Cathy! O my life! how can I bear it?" was the first sentence he uttered, in a
                  tone that did not seek to disguise his despair. And now he stared at her so
                  earnestly that I thought the very intensity of his gaze would bring tears into his
                  eyes; but they burned with anguish -- they did not melt. </p>
               <p>"What now?" said Catherine, leaning back and returning his look with a suddenly
                  clouded brow. Her humour was a mere vane for constantly varying caprices. "You and
                  Edgar have broken my heart, Heathcliff! And you both come to bewail the deed to
                  me, as if you were the people to be pitied! I shall not pity you, not I. You have
                  killed me -- and <pb n="II.9" facs="pageImages/II.17.png"/>thriven on it, I think. How strong
                  you are! How many years do you mean to live after I am gone?" </p>
               <p>Heathcliff had knelt on one knee to embrace her. He attempted to rise, but she
                  seized his hair and kept him down. </p>
               <p>"I wish I could hold you," she continued bitterly, "till we were both dead! I
                  shouldn't care what you suffered. I care nothing for your sufferings. Why
                  shouldn't you suffer? I do! Will you forget me? Will you be happy when I am in the
                  earth? Will you say twenty years hence, 'That's the grave of Catherine Earnshaw. I
                  loved her long ago, and was wretched to lose her; but it is past. I've loved many
                  others since. My children are dearer to me than she was, and at death I shall not
                  rejoice that I am going to her; I shall be sorry that I must leave them.' Will you
                  say so, Heathcliff?" </p>
               <p>"Don't torture me till I'm as mad as your-<pb n="II.10" facs="pageImages/II.18.png"/>self,"
                  cried he, wrenching his head free and grinding his teeth. </p>
               <p>The two, to a cool spectator, made a strange and fearful picture. Well might
                  Catherine deem that heaven would be a land of exile to her, unless with her mortal
                  body she cast away her moral character also. Her present countenance had a wild
                  vindictiveness in its white cheek, and a bloodless lip and a scintillating eye;
                  and she retained in her closed fingers a portion of the locks she had been
                  grasping. As to her companion, while raising himself with one hand, he had taken
                  her arm with the other, and so inadequate was his stock of gentleness to the
                  requirements of her condition that on his letting go I saw four distinct
                  impressions left blue in the colourless skin. </p>
               <p>"Are you possessed with a devil," he pursued savagely, "to talk in that manner to
                  me when you are dying? Do you reflect that all those words will be branded in my
                  memory, <pb n="II.11" facs="pageImages/II.19.png"/>and eating deeper eternally after you have
                  left me? You know you lie to say I have killed you; and, Catherine, you know that
                  I could as soon forget you as my existence! Is it not sufficient for your infernal
                  selfishness that, while you are at peace, I shall writhe in the torments of hell?" </p>
               <p>"I shall not be at peace," moaned Catherine, recalled to a sense of physical
                  weakness by the violent, unequal throbbing of her heart, which beat visibly and
                  audibly under this excess of agitation. She said nothing further till the paroxysm
                  was over, then she continued more kindly, -- </p>
               <p>"I'm not wishing you greater torment than I have, Heathcliff. I only wish us never
                  to be parted; and should a word of mine distress you hereafter, think I feel the
                  same distress underground, and for my own sake forgive me! Come here and kneel
                  down again. You never harmed me in your life. Nay, if you nurse anger, that will
                  be worse to remember <pb n="II.12" facs="pageImages/II.20.png"/>than my harsh words. Won't
                  you come here again? Do!" </p>
               <p>Heathcliff went to the back of her chair and leant over, but not so far as to let
                  her see his face, which was livid with emotion. She bent round to look at him. He
                  would not permit it. Turning abruptly, he walked to the fireplace, where he stood,
                  silent, with his back towards us. Mrs. Linton's glance followed him suspiciously.
                  Every movement woke a new sentiment in her. After a pause and a prolonged gaze she
                  resumed, addressing me in accents of indignant disappointment, -- </p>
               <p>"Oh, you see, Nelly, he would not relent a moment to keep me out of the grave!
                  That is how I'm loved! Well, never mind. That is not my Heathcliff. I shall love
                  mine yet, and take him with me; he's in my soul. And," added she musingly, "the
                  thing that irks me most is this shattered prison, after all. I'm tired of being
                  enclosed here. I'm <pb n="II.13" facs="pageImages/II.21.png"/>wearying to escape into that
                  glorious world, and to be always there -- not seeing it dimly through tears, and
                  yearning for it through the walls of an aching heart, but really with it and in
                  it. Nelly, you think you are better and more fortunate than I, in full health and
                  strength. You are sorry for me. Very soon that will be altered. I shall be sorry
                  for you. I shall be incomparably beyond and above you all. I wonder he won't be
                  near me!" she went on to herself. "I thought he wished it -- Heathcliff dear, you
                  should not be sullen now. Do come to me, Heathcliff." </p>
               <p>In her eagerness she rose and supported herself on the arm of the chair. At that
                  earnest appeal he turned to her, looking absolutely desperate. His eyes, wide and
                  wet, at last flashed fiercely on her; his breast heaved convulsively. An instant
                  they held asunder, and then how they met I hardly saw, but Catherine made a
                  spring, and he caught her, and they were locked in an embrace from <pb n="II.14" facs="pageImages/II.22.png"/>which I thought my mistress would never be released alive --
                  in fact, to my eyes, she seemed directly insensible. He flung himself into the
                  nearest seat, and on my approaching hurriedly to ascertain if she had fainted, he
                  gnashed at me and foamed like a mad dog, and gathered her to him with greedy
                  jealousy. I did not feel as if I were in the company of a creature of my own
                  species. It appeared that he would not understand, though I spoke to him, so I
                  stood off and held my tongue in great perplexity. </p>
               <p>A movement of Catherine's relieved me a little presently. She put up her hand to
                  clasp his neck, and bring her cheek to his as he held her; while he, in return,
                  covering her with frantic caresses, said wildly, -- </p>
               <p>"You teach me now how cruel you've been -- cruel and false. Why did you despise
                  me? Why did you betray your own heart, Cathy? I have not one word of comfort. You
                  deserve this. You have killed yourself. Yes, you <pb n="II.15" facs="pageImages/II.23.png"/>may kiss me, and cry, and wring out my kisses and tears; they'll blight you --
                  they'll damn you. You loved me; then what right had you to leave me? What right --
                  answer me -- for the poor fancy you felt for Linton? Because misery, and
                  degradation, and death, and nothing that God or Satan could inflict would have
                  parted us, you, of your own will, did it. I have not broken your heart -- you have
                  broken it; and in breaking it you have broken mine. So much the worse for me that
                  I am strong. Do I want to live? What kind of living will it be when you -- O God!
                  would you like to live with your soul in the grave?" </p>
               <p>"Let me alone! let me alone!" sobbed Catherine. "If I've done wrong, I'm dying for
                  it. It is enough! You left me too; but I won't upbraid you. I forgive you. Forgive
                  me." </p>
               <p>"It is hard to forgive, and to look at those eyes, and feel those wasted hands,"
                  he an<pb n="II.16" facs="pageImages/II.24.png"/>swered. "Kiss me again, and don't let me see
                  your eyes. I forgive what you have done to me. I love my murderer -- but yours!
                  How can I?" </p>
               <p>They were silent -- their faces hid against each other, and washed by each other's
                  tears. At least, I suppose the weeping was on both sides, as it seemed Heathcliff
                  could weep on a great occasion like this. </p>
               <p>I grew very uncomfortable, meanwhile, for the afternoon wore fast away, the man
                  whom I had sent off returned from his errand, and I could distinguish by the shine
                  of the western sun up the valley a concourse thickening outside Gimmerton chapel
                  porch. </p>
               <p>"Service is over," I announced. "My master will be here in half an hour." </p>
               <p>Heathcliff groaned a curse, and strained Catherine closer. She never moved. </p>
               <p>Ere long I perceived a group of the servants passing up the road towards the
                  kitchen wing. Mr. Linton was not far behind. He opened the <pb n="II.17" facs="pageImages/II.25.png"/>gate himself, and sauntered slowly up, probably e njoying the
                  lovely afternoon, that breathed as soft as summer. </p>
               <p>"Now he is here!" I exclaimed. "For Heaven's sake hurry down! You'll not meet any
                  one on the front stairs. Do be quick, and stay among the trees till he is fairly
                  in." </p>
               <p>"I must go, Cathy," said Heathcliff, seeking to extricate himself from his
                  companion's arms. "But if I live I'll see you again before you are asleep. I won't
                  stray five yards from your window." </p>
               <p>"You must not go!" she answered, holding him as firmly as her strength allowed.
                  "You shall not, I tell you." </p>
               <p>"For one hour," he pleaded earnestly. </p>
               <p>"Not for one minute," she replied. </p>
               <p>"I must; Linton will be up immediately," persisted the alarmed intruder. </p>
               <p>He would have risen and unfixed her fingers by the act; she clung fast, gasping.
                  There was mad resolution in her face. </p>
               <pb n="II.18" facs="pageImages/II.26.png"/>
               <p>"No!" she shrieked. "Oh, don't, don't go! It is the last time! Edgar will not hurt
                  us. Heathcliff, I shall die! I shall die!" </p>
               <p>"Damn the fool! There he is!" cried Heathcliff, sinking back into his seat. "Hush,
                  my darling! Hush, hush, Catherine! I'll stay. If he shot me so, I'd expire with a
                  blessing on my lips." </p>
               <p>And there they were fast again. I heard my master mounting the stairs. The cold
                  sweat ran from my forehead; I was horrified. </p>
               <p>"Are you going to listen to her ravings?" I said passionately. "She does not know
                  what she says. Will you ruin her because she has not wit to help herself? Get up!
                  You could be free instantly. That is the most diabolical deed that ever you did.
                  We are all done for -- master, mistress, and servant." </p>
               <p>I wrung my hands and cried out, and Mr. Linton hastened his step at the noise. In
                  the midst of my agitation I was sincerely glad to <pb n="II.19" facs="pageImages/II.27.png"/>observe that Catherine's arms had fallen relaxed, and her head hung down. </p>
               <p>"She's fainted or dead," I thought; "so much the better. Far better that she
                  should be dead than lingering a burden and a misery-maker to all about her."</p>
               <p>Edgar sprang to his unbidden guest, blanched with astonishment and rage. What he
                  meant to do I cannot tell. However, the other stopped all demonstrations at once
                  by placing the lifeless-looking form in his arms. </p>
               <p>"Look there!" he said. "Unless you be a fiend, help her first; then you shall
                  speak to me!" </p>
               <p>He walked into the parlour and sat down. Mr. Linton summoned me, and with great
                  difficulty, and after resorting to many means, we managed to restore her to
                  sensation; but she was all bewildered. She sighed and moaned, and knew nobody.
                  Edgar, in his anxiety for her, forgot her hated friend. I did not. I went at the
                  earliest opportunity and <pb n="II.20" facs="pageImages/II.28.png"/>besought him to depart,
                  affirming that Catherine was better, and he should hear from me in the morning how
                  she passed the night. </p>
               <p>"I shall not refuse to go out of doors," he answered, "but I shall stay in the
                  garden; and, Nelly, mind you keep your word to-morrow. I shall be under those
                  larch trees. Mind! or I pay another visit, whether Linton be in or not." </p>
               <p>He sent a rapid glance through the half-open door of the chamber, and,
                  ascertaining that what I stated was apparently true, delivered the house of his
                  luckless presence. </p>
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               <p>About twelve o'clock, that night, was born the Catherine you saw at Wuthering
                  Heights, a puny, seven months' child; and two hours after the mother died, having
                  never recovered sufficient consciousness to miss Heathcliff, or know Edgar.</p>
               <p>The latter's distraction at his bereavement is a subject too painful to be dwelt
                  on; its after effects showed how deep the sorrow sunk.</p>
               <p>A great addition, in my eyes, was his-being left without an heir. I bemoaned that,
                  as I <pb n="II.22" facs="pageImages/II.30.png"/>gazed on the feeble orphan; and I mentally
                  abused old Linton for, what was only natural partiality, the securing his estate
                  to his own daughter, instead of his son's.</p>
               <p>An unwelcomed infant it was, poor thing ! It might have wailed out of life, and
                  nobody cared a morsel, during those first hours of existence. We redeemed the
                  neglect afterwards; but its beginning was as friendless as its end is likely to
                  be.</p>
               <p>Next morning -- bright and cheerful out of doors -- stole softened in through the
                  blinds of the silent room, and suffused the couch and its occupant with a mellow,
                  tender glow.</p>
               <p>Edgar Linton had his head laid on the pillow, and his eyes shut. His young and
                  fair features were almost as death-like as those of the form beside him, and
                  almost as fixed; but his was the hush of exhausted anguish, and hers of perfect
                  peace. Her brow smooth, her lids closed, her lips wearing the expression of a
                  smile, no angel in heaven could be more <pb n="II.23" facs="pageImages/II.31.png"/>beautiful
                  than she appeared; and I partook of the infinite calm in which she lay. My mind
                  was never in a holier frame than while I gazed on that untroubled image of Divine
                  rest. I instinctively echoed the words she had uttered, a few hours before.
                  "Incomparably beyond and above us all ! Whether still on earth or now in Heaven,
                  her spirit is at home with God!"</p>
               <p>I don't know if it be a peculiarity in me, but I am seldom otherwise than happy
                  while watching in the chamber of death, should no frenzied or despairing mourner
                  share the duty with me. I see a repose that neither earth nor hell can break, and
                  I feel an assurance of the endless and shadowless hereafter -- the eternity they
                  have entered -- where life is boundless in its duration, and love in its sympathy,
                  and joy in its fullness. I noticed on that occasion how much selfishness there is
                  even in a love like Mr. Linton's, when he so regretted Catherine's blessed
                  release!</p>
               <pb n="II.24" facs="pageImages/II.32.png"/>
               <p>To be sure, one might have doubted, after the wayward and impatient existence she
                  had led, whether she merited a haven of peace at last. One might doubt in seasons
                  of cold reflection, but not then, in the presence of her corpse. It asserted its
                  own tranquillity, which seemed a pledge of equal quiet to its former inhabitants. </p>
               <p>Do you believe such people are happy in the other world, sir? I'd give a great
                  deal to know. </p>
               <p>I declined answering Mrs. Dean's question, which struck me as something heterodox.
                  She proceeded, -- </p>
               <p>Retracing the course of Catherine Linton, I fear we have no right to think she is;
                  but we'll leave her with her Maker. </p>
               <p>The master looked asleep, and I ventured soon after sunrise to quit the room and
                  steal out to the pure refreshing air. The servants thought me gone to shake off
                  the drowsiness of my protracted watch; in reality, my chief <pb n="II.25" facs="pageImages/II.33.png"/> motive was seeing Mr.Heathcliff. If he had remained among
                  the larches all night he would have heard nothing of the stir at the Grange --
                  unless, perhaps, he might catch the gallop of the messenger going to Gimmerton. If
                  he had come nearer he would probably be aware, from the lights flitting to and
                  fro, and the opening and shutting of the outer doors, that all was not right
                  within. I wished yet feared to find him. I felt the terrible news must be told,
                  and I longed to get it over; but how to do it I did not know. He was there -- at
                  least a few yards farther in the park -- leant against an old ash tree, his hat
                  off, and his hair soaked with the dew that had gathered on the budded branches,
                  and fell pattering round him. He had been standing a long time in that position,
                  for I saw a pair of ousels passing and repassing scarcely three feet from him,
                  busy in building their nest, and regarding his proximity no more than that <pb n="II.26" facs="pageImages/II.34.png"/>of a piece of timber. They flew off at my approach,
                  and he raised his eyes and spoke. </p>
               <p>"She's dead!" he said. "I've not waited for you to learn that. Put your
                  handkerchief away; don't snivel before me. Damn you all! she wants none of your
                  tears!" </p>
               <p>I was weeping as much for him as her; we do sometimes pity creatures that have
                  none of the feeling either for themselves or others. When I first looked into his
                  face, I perceived that he had got intelligence of the catastrophe; and a foolish
                  notion struck me that his heart was quelled, and he prayed, because his lips
                  moved, and his gaze was bent on the ground. </p>
               <p>"Yes, she's dead!" I answered, checking my sobs and drying my cheeks -- "gone to
                  heaven, I hope, where we may, every one, join her, if we take due warning and
                  leave our evil ways to follow good!" </p>
               <p>"Did she take due warning, then?" asked Heathcliff, attempting a sneer. "Did she
                  die <pb n="II.27" facs="pageImages/II.35.png"/>like a saint? Come, give me a true history of
                  the event. How did -- " </p>
               <p>He endeavoured to pronounce the name, but could not manage it; and compressing his
                  mouth he held a silent combat with his inward agony, defying, meanwhile, my
                  sympathy with an unflinching ferocious stare. "How did she die?" he resumed at
                  last, fain, notwithstanding his hardihood, to have a support behind him; for,
                  after the struggle, he trembled, in spite of himself, to his very finger-ends. </p>
               <p>"Poor wretch!" I thought, "you have a heart and nerves the same as your brother
                  men! Why should you be anxious to conceal them? Your pride cannot blind God. You
                  tempt Him to wring them till He forces a cry of humiliation." </p>
               <p>"Quietly as a lamb!" I answered aloud. "She drew a sigh, and stretched herself,
                  like a child reviving, and sinking again to sleep; <pb n="II.28" facs="pageImages/II.36.png"/> and five minutes after I felt one little pulse at her heart, and nothing more!" </p>
               <p>"And -- did she ever mention me?" he asked, hesitating, as if he dreaded the
                  answer to his question would introduce details that he could not bear to hear. </p>
               <p>"Her senses never returned. She recognized nobody from the time you left her," I
                  said. "She lies with a sweet smile on her face, and her latest ideas wandered back
                  to pleasant early days. Her life closed in a gentle dream. May she wake as kindly
                  in the other world!" </p>
               <p>"May she wake in torment!" he cried with frightful vehemence, stamping his foot
                  and groaning in a sudden paroxysm of ungovernable passion. "Why, she's a liar to
                  the end. Where is she? Not there -- not in heaven -- not perished -- where? -- Oh!
                  you said you cared nothing for my sufferings! And I pray one prayer -- I repeat it
                  till my tongue stiffens -- Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I am
                  living! You said I killed you -- <pb n="II.29" facs="pageImages/II.37.png"/>haunt me, then!
                  The murdered do haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts have wandered
                  on earth. Be with me always -- take any form -- drive me mad -- only do not leave
                  me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! O God! it is unutterable! I cannot live
                  without my life! I cannot live without my soul!" </p>
               <p>He dashed his head against the knotted trunk, and, lifting up his eyes, howled --
                  not like a man, but like a savage beast being goaded to death with knives and
                  spears. I observed several splashes of blood about the bark of the tree, and his
                  hand and forehead were both stained; probably the scene I witnessed was a
                  repetition of others acted during the night. It hardly moved my compassion -- it
                  appalled me; still I felt reluctant to quit him so. But the moment he recollected
                  himself enough to notice me watching, he thundered a command for me to go, and I
                  obeyed. He was beyond my skill to quiet or console. </p>
               <pb n="II.30" facs="pageImages/II.38.png"/>
               <p>Mrs. Linton's funeral was appointed to take place on the Friday following her
                  decease, and till then her coffin remained uncovered and strewn with flowers and
                  scented leaves in the great drawing-room. Linton spent his days and nights there,
                  a sleepless guardian; and -- a circumstance concealed from all but me --
                  Heathcliff spent his nights, at least, outside, equally a stranger to repose. I
                  held no communication with him. Still, I was conscious of his design to enter, if
                  he could; and on the Tuesday, a little after dark, when my master, from sheer
                  fatigue, had been compelled to retire a couple of hours, I went and opened one of
                  the windows, moved by his perseverance to give him a chance of bestowing on the
                  faded image of his idol one final adieu. He did not omit to avail himself of the
                  opportunity, cautiously and briefly -- too cautiously to betray his presence by
                  the slightest noise. Indeed, I shouldn't have discovered that <pb n="II.31" facs="pageImages/II.39.png"/>he had been there, except for the disarrangement of the
                  drapery about the corpse's face, and for observing on the floor a curl of light
                  hair fastened with a silver thread, which, on examination, I ascertained to have
                  been taken from a locket hung round Catherine's neck. Heathcliff had opened the
                  trinket and cast out its contents, replacing them by a black lock of his own. I
                  twisted the two, and enclosed them together. </p>
               <p>Mr. Earnshaw was, of course, invited to attend the remains of his sister to the
                  grave. He sent no excuse, but he never came; so that, besides her husband, the
                  mourners were wholly composed of tenants and servants. Isabella was not asked. </p>
               <p>The place of Catherine's interment, to the surprise of the villagers, was neither
                  in the chapel under the carved monument of the Lintons, nor yet by the tombs of
                  her own relations outside. It was dug on a green slope in a corner of the
                  kirkyard, where the <pb n="II.32" facs="pageImages/II.40.png"/>wall is so low that heath and
                  bilberry plants have climbed over it from the moor, and peat mould almost buries
                  it. Her husband lies in the same spot now, and they have each a simple headstone
                  above, and a plain gray block at their feet, to mark the graves. </p>
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               <p>That Friday made the last of our fine days, for a month. In the evening, the
                  weather broke; the wind shifted from south to north-east, and brought rain first,
                  and then sleet and snow.</p>
               <p>On the morrow one could hardly imagine that there had been three weeks of summer:
                  the primroses and crocuses were hidden under wintry drifts: the larks were silent,
                  the young leaves of the early trees smitten and blackened -- And dreary, and
                  chill, and dismal that mor<pb n="II.34" facs="pageImages/II.42.png"/>row did creep over ! My
                  master kept his room -- I took possession of the lonely parlour, converting it
                  into a nursery; and there I was sitting, with the moaning doll of a child laid on
                  my knee, rocking it to and fro, and watching, meanwhile, the still driving flakes
                  build up the uncurtained window, when the door opened, and some person entered,
                  out of breath and laughing !</p>
               <p>My anger was greater than my astonishment for a minute; I supposed it one of the
                  maids, and I cried,</p>
               <p>"Have done ! How dare you show your giddiness here ? What would Mr. Linton say if
                  he heard you ?"</p>
               <p>"Excuse me!" answered a familiar voice, "but I know Edgar is in bed, and I cannot
                  stop myself."</p>
               <p>With that, the speaker came forward to the fire, panting and holding her hand to
                  her side.</p>
               <p>"I have run the whole way from Wuthering Heights!" she continued, after a pause.
                     'Ex<pb n="II.35" facs="pageImages/II.43.png"/>cept where I've flown -- I couldn't count
                  the number of falls I've had -- Oh, I'm aching all over! Don't be alarmed -- There
                  shall be an explanation as soon as I can give it -- only just have the goodness to
                  step out and order the carriage to take me on to Gimmerton, and tell a servant to
                  seek up a few clothes in my wardrobe."</p>
               <p>The intruder was Mrs. Heathcliff -- she certainly seemed in no laughing
                  predicament: her hair streamed on her shoulders, dripping with snow and water; she
                  was dressed in the girlish dress she commonly wore, befitting her age more than
                  her position -- a low frock with short sleeves, and nothing on either head or
                  neck. The frock was of light silk, and clung to her with wet, and her feet were
                  protected merely by thin slippers; add to this a deep cut under one ear, which
                  only the cold prevented from bleeding profusely, a white face scratched and
                  bruised, and a frame hardly able to support itself, through fatigue, and you <pb n="II.36" facs="pageImages/II.44.png"/>may fancy my first fright was not much allayed when
                  I had had leisure to examine her. </p>
               <p>"My dear young lady," I exclaimed, "I'll stir nowhere, and hear nothing, till you
                  have removed every article of your clothes, and put on dry things; and certainly
                  you shall not go to Gimmerton to-night, so it is needless to order the carriage." </p>
               <p>"Certainly I shall," she said -- "walking or riding. Yet I've no objection to
                  dress myself decently. And -- Ah, see how it flows down my neck now! The fire does
                  make it smart." </p>
               <p>She insisted on my fulfilling her directions before she would let me touch her;
                  and not till after the coachman had been instructed to get ready, and a maid set
                  to pack up some necessary attire, did I obtain her consent for binding the wound,
                  and helping to change her garments. </p>
               <p>"Now, Ellen," she said, when my task was finished and she was seated in an
                  easy-chair on the hearth, with a cup of tea before her,<pb n="II.37" facs="pageImages/II.45.png"/> "you sit down opposite me, and put poor Catherine's baby
                  away. I don't like to see it. You mustn't think I care little for Catherine
                  because I behaved so foolishly on entering. I've cried, too, bitterly -- yes, more
                  than any one else has reason to cry. We parted unreconciled, you remember, and I
                  shan't forgive myself. But, for all that, I was not going to sympathize with him
                  -- the brute beast! Oh, give me the poker! This is the last thing of his I have
                  about me." She slipped the gold ring from her third finger, and threw it on the
                  floor. "I'll smash it!" she continued, striking it with childish spite, "and then
                  I'll burn it!" And she took and dropped the misused article among the coals.
                  "There! he shall buy another if he gets me back again. He'd be capable of coming
                  to seek me, to tease Edgar. I dare not stay, lest that notion should possess his
                  wicked head! And besides, Edgar has not been kind, has he? And I won't come suing
                  for his assistance, nor will I bring him into <pb n="II.37" facs="pageImages/II.46.png"/>more
                  trouble. Necessity compelled me to seek shelter here, though, if I had not learned
                  he was out of the way, I'd have halted at the kitchen, washed my face, warmed
                  myself, got you to bring what I wanted, and departed again to anywhere out of the
                  reach of my accursed -- off that incarnate goblin! Ah, he was in such a fury! If
                  he had caught me! It's a pity Earnshaw is not his match in strength. I wouldn't
                  have run till I'd seen him all but demolished, had Hindley been able to do it." </p>
               <p>"Well, don't talk so fast, miss," I interrupted; "you'll disorder the handkerchief
                  I have tied round your face, and make the cut bleed again. Drink your tea, and
                  take breath, and give over laughing; laughter is sadly out of place under this
                  roof, and in your condition!" </p>
               <p>"An undeniable truth," she replied. "Listen to that child! It maintains a constant
                  wail. Send it out of my hearing for an hour; I shan't stay any longer." </p>
               <pb n="II.39" facs="pageImages/II.47.png"/>
               <p>I rang the bell and committed it to a servant's care, and then I inquired what had
                  urged her to escape from Wuthering Heights in such an unlikely plight, and where
                  she meant to go, as she refused remaining with us. </p>
               <p>"I ought and I wish to remain," answered she -- "to cheer Edgar and take care of
                  the baby, for two things, and because the Grange is my right home. But I tell you
                  he wouldn't let me. Do you think he could bear to see me grow fat and merry, could
                  bear to think that we were tranquil, and not resolve on poisoning our comfort?
                  Now, I have the satisfaction of being sure that he detests me to the point of its
                  annoying him seriously to have me within earshot or eyesight. I notice, when I
                  enter his presence, the muscles of his countenance are involuntarily distorted
                  into an expression of hatred, partly arising from his knowledge of the good causes
                  I have <pb n="II.40" facs="pageImages/II.48.png"/>to feel that sentiment for him, and partly
                  from original aversion. It is strong enough to make me feel pretty certain that he
                  would not chase me over England supposing I contrived a clear escape, and
                  therefore I must get quite away. I've recovered from my first desire to be killed
                  by him; I'd rather he'd kill himself! He has extinguished my love effectually, and
                  so I'm at my ease. I can recollect yet how I loved him, and can dimly imagine that
                  I could still be loving him, if -- no, no! Even if he had doted on me, the
                  devilish nature would have revealed its existence somehow. Catherine had an
                  awfully perverted taste to esteem him so dearly, knowing him so well. Monster!
                  Would that he could be blotted out of creation and out of my memory!" </p>
               <p>"Hush, hush! He's a human being," I said. "Be more charitable. There are worse men
                  than he is yet." </p>
               <p>"He's not a human being," she retorted, <pb n="II.41" facs="pageImages/II.49.png"/>"and he
                  has no claim on my charity. I gave him my heart, and he took and pinched it to
                  death, and flung it back to me. People feel with their hearts, Ellen; and since he
                  has destroyed mine, I have not power to feel for him, and I would not, though he
                  groaned from this to his dying day, and wept tears of blood for Catherine! No,
                  indeed, indeed, I wouldn't!" And here Isabella began to cry; but, immediately
                  dashing the water from her lashes, she recommenced. "You asked, what has driven me
                  to flight at last? I was compelled to attempt it, because I had succeeded in
                  rousing his rage a pitch above his malignity. Pulling out the nerves with red-hot
                  pincers requires more coolness than knocking on the head. He was worked up to
                  forget the fiendish prudence he boasted of, and proceeded to murderous violence. I
                  experienced pleasure in being able to exasperate him; the sense of pleasure woke
                  my instinct of self-preservation, so I fairly broke <pb n="II.42" facs="pageImages/II.50.png"/>free; and if ever I come into his hands again, he is welcome to a signal
                  revenge. </p>
               <p>"Yesterday, you know, Mr. Earnshaw should have been at the funeral. He kept
                  himself sober for the purpose, tolerably sober -- not going to bed mad at six
                  o'clock and getting up drunk at twelve. Consequently he rose, in suicidal low
                  spirits, as fit for the church as for a dance; and instead, he sat down by the
                  fire and swallowed gin or brandy by tumblerfuls. </p>

               <p>"Heathcliff -- I shudder to name him! -- has been a stranger in the house from
                  last Sunday till to-day. Whether the angels have fed him, or his kin beneath, I
                  cannot tell; but he has not eaten a meal with us for nearly a week. He has just
                  come home at dawn, and gone upstairs to his chamber, locking himself in -- as if
                  anybody dreamt of coveting his company! There he has continued, praying like a
                  Methodist -- only the deity he implored is senseless dust and ashes; and God, when
                  addressed, was <pb n="II.43" facs="pageImages/II.51.png"/>curiously confounded with his own
                  black father! After concluding these precious orisons -- and they lasted generally
                  till he grew hoarse and his voice was strangled in his throat -- he would be off
                  again, always straight down to the Grange! I wonder Edgar did not send for a
                  constable, and give him into custody. For me, grieved as I was about Catherine, it
                  was impossible to avoid regarding this season of deliverance from degrading
                  oppression as a holiday. </p>
               <p>"I recovered spirits sufficient to hear Joseph's eternal lectures without weeping,
                  and to move up and down the house less with the foot of a frightened thief than
                  formerly. You wouldn't think that I should cry at anything Joseph could say; but
                  he and Hareton are detestable companions. I'd rather sit with Hindley, and hear
                  his awful talk, than with 't' little maister' and his stanch supporter, that
                  odious old man! When Heathcliff is in, I'm often obliged to <pb n="II.44" facs="pageImages/II.52.png"/>seek the kitchen and their society, or starve among the damp
                  uninhabited chambers. When he is not, as was the case this week, I establish a
                  table and chair at one corner of the house fire, and never mind how Mr. Earnshaw
                  may occupy himself; and he does not interfere with my arrangements. He is quieter
                  now than he used to be, if no one provokes him -- more sullen and depressed and
                  less furious. Joseph affirms he's sure he's an altered man, that the Lord has
                  touched his heart, and he is saved 'so as by fire.' I'm puzzled to detect signs of
                  the favourable change; but it is not my business. </p>
               <p>"Yester-evening I sat in my nook reading some old books till late on towards
                  twelve. It seemed so dismal to go upstairs, with the wild snow blowing outside,
                  and my thoughts continually reverting to the kirkyard and the new-made grave. I
                  dared hardly lift my eyes from the page before me, that melancholy scene so
                  instantly usurped its place. <pb n="II.45" facs="pageImages/II.53.png"/>Hindley sat opposite,
                  his head leant on his hand, perhaps meditating on the same subject. He had ceased
                  drinking at a point below irrationality, and had neither stirred nor spoken during
                  two or three hours. There was no sound through the house but the moaning wind,
                  which shook the windows every now and then, the faint crackling of the coals, and
                  the click of my snuffers as I removed at intervals the long wick of the candle.
                  Hareton and Joseph were probably fast asleep in bed. It was very, very sad; and
                  while I read I sighed, for it seemed as if all joy had vanished from the world,
                  never to be restored. </p>
               <p>"The doleful silence was broken at length by the sound of the kitchen latch.
                  Heathcliff had returned from his watch earlier than usual, owing, I suppose, to
                  the sudden storm. That entrance was fastened, and we heard him coming round to get
                  in by the other. I rose with an irrepressible expression of what I felt on my
                  lips, which induced my companion, <pb n="II.46" facs="pageImages/II.54.png"/>who had been
                  staring towards the door, to turn and look at me. </p>
               <p>" 'I'll keep him out five minutes,' he exclaimed. 'You won't object?' </p>
               <p>" 'No; you may keep him out the whole night for me,' I answered. 'Do; put the key
                  in the lock, and draw the bolts.' </p>
               <p>"Earnshaw accomplished this ere his guest reached the front. He then came and
                  brought his chair to the other side of my table, leaning over it, and searching in
                  my eyes for a sympathy with the burning hate that gleamed from his. As he both
                  looked and felt like an assassin, he couldn't exactly find that; but he discovered
                  enough to encourage him to speak. </p>
               <p>" 'You and I,' he said, 'have each a great debt to settle with the man out yonder.
                  If we were neither of us cowards, we might combine to discharge it. Are you as
                  soft as your brother? Are you willing to endure to the last, and not once attempt
                  a repayment?' </p>
               <p>" 'I'm weary of enduring now,' I replied, <pb n="II.47" facs="pageImages/II.55.png"/>'and I'd
                  be glad of a retaliation that wouldn't recoil on myself; but treachery and
                  violence are spears pointed at both ends. They wound those who resort to them
                  worse than their enemies.' </p>
               <p>" 'Treachery and violence are a just return for treachery and violence!' cried
                  Hindley. 'Mrs. Heathcliff, I'll ask you to do nothing but sit still and be dumb.
                  Tell me now, can you? I'm sure you would have as much pleasure as I in witnessing
                  the conclusion of the fiend's existence. He'll be your death unless you overreach
                  him; and he'll be my ruin. Damn the hellish villain! He knocks at the door as if
                  he were master here already! Promise to hold your tongue, and before that clock
                  strikes -- it wants three minutes of one -- you're a free woman!' </p>
               <p>"He took the implements which I described to you in my letter from his breast, and
                  would have turned down the candle. I snatched it away, however, and seized his
                  arm. </p>
               <pb n="II.48" facs="pageImages/II.56.png"/>
               <p>" 'I'll not hold my tongue,' I said; 'you mustn't touch him. Let the door remain
                  shut, and be quiet.' </p>
               <p>" 'No! I've formed my resolution, and by God I'll execute it!' cried the desperate
                  being. 'I'll do you a kindness in spite of yourself, and Hareton justice! And you
                  needn't trouble your head to screen me; Catherine is gone. Nobody alive would
                  regret me, or be ashamed, though I cut my throat this minute; and it's time to
                  make an end!' </p>
               <p>"I might as well have struggled with a bear or reasoned with a lunatic. The only
                  resource left me was to run to a lattice and warn his intended victim of the fate
                  which awaited him. </p>
               <p>" 'You'd better seek shelter somewhere else to-night,' I exclaimed, in rather a
                  triumphant tone. 'Mr. Earnshaw has a mind to shoot you, if you resist in
                  endeavouring to enter.' </p>
               <p>" 'You'd better open the door, you -- ,' be answered, addressing me by some
                  elegant term that I don't care to repeat. </p>
               <pb n="II.49" facs="pageImages/II.57.png"/>
               <p>" 'I shall not meddle in the matter,' I retorted again. 'Come in and get shot, if
                  you please. I've done my duty.' </p>
               <p>"With that I shut the window and returned to my place by the fire, having too
                  small a stock of hypocrisy at my command to pretend any anxiety for the danger
                  that menaced him. Earnshaw swore passionately at me, affirming that I loved the
                  villain yet, and calling me all sorts of names for the base spirit I evinced. And
                  I, in my secret heart (and conscience never reproached me), thought what a
                  blessing it would be for him should Heathcliff put him out of misery; and what a
                  blessing for me should he send Heathcliff to his right abode! As I sat nursing
                  these reflections, the casement behind me was banged on to the floor by a blow
                  from the latter individual, and his black countenance looked blightingly through.
                  The stanchions stood too close to suffer his shoulders to follow, and I smiled,
                  exulting in my fancied security. His hair and <pb n="II.50" facs="pageImages/II.58.png"/>clothes were whitened with snow, and his sharp cannibal teeth, revealed by cold
                  and wrath, gleamed through the dark. </p>
               <p>" 'Isabella, let me in, or I'll make you repent!' he 'girned,' as Joseph calls it. </p>
               <p>" 'I cannot commit murder,' I replied. 'Mr. Hindley stands sentinel with a knife
                  and loaded pistol.' </p>
               <p>" 'Let me in by the kitchen door,' he said. </p>
               <p>" 'Hindley will be there before me,' I answered; 'and that's a poor love of yours
                  that cannot bear a shower of snow! We were left at peace in our beds as long as
                  the summer moon shone, but the moment a blast of winter returns, you must run for
                  shelter! Heathcliff, if I were you, I'd go stretch myself over her grave and die
                  like a faithful dog. The world is surely not worth living in now, is it? You had
                  distinctly impressed on me the idea that Catherine was the whole joy of your life.
                  I can't imagine how you think of surviving her loss.' </p>
               <pb n="II.51" facs="pageImages/II.59.png"/>
               <p>" 'He's there, is he?' exclaimed my companion, rushing to the gap. 'If I can get
                  my arm out I can hit him!' </p>
               <p>"I'm afraid, Ellen, you'll set me down as really wicked; but you don't know all,
                  so don't judge. I wouldn't have aided or abetted an attempt on even his life for
                  anything. Wish that he were dead, I must; and therefore I was fearfully
                  disappointed, and unnerved by terror for the consequences of my taunting speech,
                  when he flung himself on Earnshaw's weapon and wrenched it from his grasp. </p>
               <p>"The charge exploded, and the knife, in springing back, closed into its owner's
                  wrist. Heathcliff pulled it away by main force, slitting up the flesh as it passed
                  on, and thrust it dripping into his pocket. He then took a stone, struck down the
                  division between two windows, and sprang in. His adversary had fallen senseless
                  with excessive pain and the flow of blood that gushed from an artery or a large
                  vein. <pb n="II.52" facs="pageImages/II.60.png"/>The ruffian kicked and trampled on him, and
                  dashed his head repeatedly against the flags, holding me with one hand meantime to
                  prevent me summoning Joseph. He exerted preter-human self-denial in abstaining
                  from finishing him completely; but getting out of breath he finally desisted, and
                  dragged the apparently inanimate body on to the settle. There he tore off the
                  sleeve of Earnshaw's coat, and bound up the wound with brutal roughness, spitting
                  and cursing during the operation as energetically as he had kicked before. Being
                  at liberty, I lost no time in seeking the old servant, who, having gathered by
                  degrees the purport of my hasty tale, hurried below, gasping as he descended the
                  steps two at once. </p>
               <p>" 'What is ther to do now -- what is ther to do now?' </p>
               <p>" 'There's this to do,' thundered Heathcliff, <pb n="II.53" facs="pageImages/II.61.png"/>'that your master's mad; and should he last another month, I'll have him to an
                  asylum. And how the devil did you come to fasten me out, you toothless hound?
                  Don't stand muttering and mumbling there. Come, I'm not going to nurse him. Wash
                  that stuff away; and mind the sparks of your candle -- it is more than half
                  brandy.' </p>
               <p>" 'And so ye've been murthering on him!' exclaimed Joseph, lifting his hands and
                  eyes in horror. 'If iver I seed a seeght loike this! May the Lord -- ' </p>
               <p>"Heathcliff gave him a push on to his knees in the middle of the blood, and flung
                  a towel to him; but instead of proceeding to dry it up, he joined his hands and
                  began a prayer, which excited my laughter from its odd phraseology. I was in the
                  condition of mind to be shocked at nothing; in fact, I was as reckless as some
                  malefactors show themselves at the foot of the gallows. </p>
               <p>" 'Oh, I forgot you,' said the tyrant. 'You <pb n="II.54" facs="pageImages/II.62.png"/>shall
                  do that. Down with you! And you conspire with him against me, do you, viper?
                  There, that is work fit for you!" </p>
               <p>"He shook me till my teeth rattled, and pitched me beside Joseph, who steadily
                  concluded his supplications, and then rose, vowing he would set off for the Grange
                  directly. Mr. Linton was a magistrate, and though he had fifty wives dead, he
                  should inquire into this. He was so obstinate in his resolution that Heathcliff
                  deemed it expedient to compel from my lips a recapitulation of what had taken
                  place, standing over me, heaving with malevolence, as I reluctantly delivered the
                  account in answer to his questions. It required a great deal of labour to satisfy
                  the old man that Heathcliff was not the aggressor, especially with my hardly-wrung
                  replies. However, Mr. Earnshaw soon convinced him that he was alive still. Joseph
                  hastened to administer a dose of spirits, and by their succour his <pb n="II.55" facs="pageImages/II.63.png"/>master presently regained motion and consciousness.
                  Heathcliff, aware that his opponent was ignorant of the treatment received while
                  insensible, called him deliriously intoxicated, and said he should not notice his
                  atrocious conduct further, but advised him to get to bed. To my joy, he left us,
                  after giving this judicious counsel, and Hindley stretched himself on the
                  hearth-stone. I departed to my own room, marvelling that I had escaped so easily. </p>
               <p>"This morning when I came down, about half an hour before noon, Mr. Earnshaw was
                  sitting by the fire deadly sick. His evil genius, almost as gaunt and ghastly,
                  leant against the chimney. Neither appeared inclined to dine; and, having waited
                  till all was cold on the table, I commenced alone. Nothing hindered me from eating
                  heartily, and I experienced a certain sense of satisfaction and superiority as, at
                  intervals, I cast a <pb n="II.56" facs="pageImages/II.64.png"/>look towards my silent
                  companions, and felt the comfort of a quiet conscience within me. After I had
                  done, I ventured on the unusual liberty of drawing near the fire, going round
                  Earnshaw's seat, and kneeling in the corner beside him. </p>
               <p>"Heathcliff did not glance my way, and I gazed up, and contemplated his features
                  almost as confidently as if they had been turned to stone. His forehead, that I
                  once thought so manly, and that I now think so diabolical, was shaded with a heavy
                  cloud; his basilisk eyes were nearly quenched by sleeplessness, and weeping,
                  perhaps, for the lashes were wet then; his lips devoid of their ferocious sneer,
                  and sealed in an expression of unspeakable sadness. Had it been another, I would
                  have covered my face in the presence of such grief. In his case, I was gratified;
                  and, ignoble as it seems to insult a fallen enemy, I couldn't miss this chance of
                  sticking in a dart. His weakness <pb n="II.57" facs="pageImages/II.65.png"/>was the only time
                  when I could taste the delight of paying wrong for wrong." </p>
               <p>"Fie, fie, miss!" I interrupted. "One might suppose you had never opened a Bible
                  in your life. If God afflict your enemies, surely that ought to suffice you. It is
                  both mean and presumptuous to add your torture to His." </p>
               <p>"In general I'll allow that it would be, Ellen," she continued; "but what misery
                  laid on Heathcliff could content me, unless I have a hand in it? I'd rather he
                  suffered less, if I might cause his sufferings, and he might know that I was the
                  cause. Oh, I owe him so much! On only one condition can I hope to forgive him. It
                  is, if I may take an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, for every wrench of
                  agony return a wrench, reduce him to my level; as he was the first to injure, make
                  him the first to implore pardon; and then -- why, then, Ellen, I might show you
                  some generosity. But it is utterly impossible I can <pb n="II.58" facs="pageImages/II.66.png"/>ever be revenged, and therefore I cannot forgive him. Hindley wanted some water,
                  and I handed him a glass, and asked him how he was. </p>
               <p>" 'Not as ill as I wish,' he replied. 'But leaving out my arm, every inch of me is
                  as sore as if I had been fighting with a legion of imps.' </p>
               <p>" 'Yes, no wonder,' was my next remark. 'Catherine used to boast that she stood
                  between you and bodily harm. She meant that certain persons would not hurt you for
                  fear of offending her. It's well people don't really rise from their grave, or
                  last night she might have witnessed a repulsive scene! Are not you bruised and cut
                  over your chest and shoulders?' </p>

               <p>" 'I can't say,' he answered; 'but what do you mean? Did he dare to strike me when
                  I was down?' </p>
               <p>" 'He trampled on and kicked you, and dashed you on the ground,' I whispered. 'And
                  his mouth watered to tear you with his <pb n="II.59" facs="pageImages/II.67.png"/>teeth,
                  because he's only half man -- not so much -- and the rest fiend.' </p>
               <p>"Mr. Earnshaw looked up, like me, to the countenance of our mutual foe, who,
                  absorbed in his anguish, seemed insensible to anything around him. The longer he
                  stood, the plainer his reflections revealed their blackness through his features. </p>
               <p>" 'Oh, if God would but give me strength to strangle him in my last agony, I'd go
                  to hell with joy,' groaned the impatient man, writhing to rise, and sinking back
                  in despair, convinced of his inadequacy for the struggle. </p>
               <p>" 'Nay, it's enough that he has murdered one of you,' I observed aloud. 'At the
                  Grange, every one knows your sister would have been living now had it not been for
                  Mr. Heathcliff. After all, it is preferable to be hated than loved by him. When I
                  recollect how happy we were, how happy Catherine was before he came, I'm fit to
                  curse the day.' </p>
               <p>"Most likely Heathcliff noticed more the <pb n="II.60" facs="pageImages/II.68.png"/>truth of
                  what was said than the spirit of the person who said it. His attention was roused,
                  I saw, for his eyes rained down tears among the ashes, and he drew his breath in
                  suffocating sighs. I stared full at him, and laughed scornfully. The clouded
                  windows of hell flashed a moment towards me; the fiend which usually looked out,
                  however, was so dimmed and drowned that I did not fear to hazard another sound of
                  derision. </p>
               <pb n="II.61" facs="pageImages/II.69.png"/>
               <p>" 'Get up, and begone out of my sight,' said the mourner. </p>
               <p>"I guessed he uttered those words, at least, though his voice was hardly
                  intelligible. </p>
               <p>" 'I beg your pardon,' I replied. 'But I loved Catherine too; and her brother
                  requires attendance, which, for her sake, I shall supply. Now that she's dead, I
                  see her in Hindley. Hindley has exactly her eyes, if you had not tried to gouge
                  them out, and made them black and red; and her -- ' </p>
               <p>" 'Get up, wretched idiot, before I stamp you to death!' he cried, making a
                  movement that caused me to make one also. </p>
               <p>" 'But, then,' I continued, holding myself ready to flee, 'if poor Catherine had
                  trusted you, and assumed the ridiculous, contemptible, degrading title of Mrs.
                  Heathcliff, she would soon have presented a similar picture. She wouldn't have
                  borne your abominable behaviour quietly. Her detestation and disgust must have
                  found voice.' </p>
               <p>"The back of the settle and Earnshaw's person interposed between me and him; so
                  instead of endeavouring to reach me, he snatched a dinner knife from the table and
                  flung it at my head. It struck beneath my ear, and stopped the sentence I was
                  uttering; but, pulling it out, I sprang to the door and delivered another, which I
                  hope went a little deeper than his missile. The last glimpse I caught of him was a
                  furious rush on his part, checked by the embrace <pb n="II.62" facs="pageImages/II.70.png"/>of his host; and both fell locked together on the hearth. In my flight through
                  the kitchen I bade Joseph speed to his master. I knocked over Hareton, who was
                  hanging a litter of puppies from a chair-back in the doorway; and, blest as a soul
                  escaped from purgatory, I bounded, leaped, and flew down the steep road; then,
                  quitting its windings, shot direct across the moor, rolling over banks, and wading
                  through marshes, precipitating myself, in fact, towards the beacon light of the
                  Grange. And far rather would I be condemned to a perpetual dwelling in the
                  infernal regions than, even for one night, abide beneath the roof of Wuthering
                  Heights again." </p>
               <p>Isabella ceased speaking, and took a drink of tea; then she rose, and bidding me
                  put on her bonnet and a great shawl I had brought, and turning a deaf ear to my
                  entreaties for her to remain another hour, she stepped on to a chair, kissed
                  Edgar's and Catherine's por<pb n="II.63" facs="pageImages/II.71.png"/>traits, bestowed a
                  similar salute on me, and descended to the carriage, accompanied by Fanny, who
                  yelped wild with joy at recovering her mistress. She was driven away, never to
                  revisit this neighbourhood; but a regular correspondence was established between
                  her and my master when things were more settled. I believe her new abode was in
                  the south, near London; there she had a son born, a few months subsequent to her
                  escape. He was christened Linton, and, from the first, she reported him to be an
                  ailing, peevish creature. </p>
               <p>Mr. Heathcliff, meeting me one day in the village, inquired where she lived. I
                  refused to tell. He remarked that it was not of any moment, only she must beware
                  of coming to her brother. She should not be with him, if he had to keep her
                  himself. Though I would give no information, he discovered, through some of the
                  other servants, both her place of residence and the existence of the child. Still
                  he didn't molest her, for <pb n="II.64" facs="pageImages/II.72.png"/>which forbearance she
                  might thank his aversion, I suppose. He often asked about the infant, when he saw
                  me; and on hearing its name, smiled grimly, and observed -- </p>
               <p>"They wish me to hate it too, do they?" </p>
               <p>"I don't think they wish you to know anything about it," I answered. </p>
               <p>"But I'll have it," he said, "when I want it. They may reckon on that." </p>
               <p>Fortunately its mother died before the time arrived, some thirteen years after the
                  decease of Catherine, when Linton was twelve or a little more. </p>
               <p>On the day succeeding Isabella's unexpected visit, I had no opportunity of
                  speaking to my master. He shunned conversation, and was fit for discussing
                  nothing. When I could get him to listen, I saw it pleased him that his sister had
                  left her husband, whom he abhorred with an intensity which the mildness of his
                  nature would scarcely seem to allow. So deep and <pb n="II.65" facs="pageImages/II.73.png"/>sensitive was his aversion that he refrained from going anywhere where he was
                  likely to see or hear of Heathcliff. Grief and that together transformed him into
                  a complete hermit. He threw up his office of magistrate, ceased even to attend
                  church, avoided the village on all occasions, and spent a life of entire seclusion
                  within the limits of his park and grounds, only varied by solitary rambles on the
                  moors and visits to the grave of his wife, mostly at evening, or early morning
                  before other wanderers were abroad. But he was too good to be thoroughly unhappy
                  long. He didn't pray for Catherine's soul to haunt him. Time brought resignation
                  and a melancholy sweeter than common joy. He recalled her memory with ardent,
                  tender love, and hopeful aspiring to the better world, where he doubted not she
                  was gone. </p>
               <p>And he had earthly consolation and affections also. For a few days, I said, he
                  seemed <pb n="II.66" facs="pageImages/II.74.png"/>regardless of the puny successor to the
                  departed; that coldness melted as fast as snow in April, and ere the tiny thing
                  could stammer a word or totter a step, it wielded a despot's sceptre in his heart.
                  It was named Catherine; but he never called it the name in full, as he had never
                  called the first Catherine short, probably because Heathcliff had a habit of doing
                  so. The little one was always Cathy; it formed to him a distinction from the
                  mother, and yet a connection with her; and his attachment sprang from its relation
                  to her far more than from its being his own. </p>
               <p>I used to draw a comparison between him and Hindley Earnshaw, and perplex myself
                  to explain satisfactorily why their conduct was so opposite in similar
                  circumstances. They had both been fond husbands, and were both attached to their
                  children; and I could not see how they shouldn't both have taken the same road,
                  for good or evil. But, I thought in my <pb n="II.67" facs="pageImages/II.75.png"/>mind,
                  Hindley, with apparently the stronger head, has shown himself sadly the worse and
                  the weaker man. When his ship struck, the captain abandoned his post; and the
                  crew, instead of trying to save her, rushed into riot and confusion, leaving no
                  hope for their luckless vessel. Linton, on the contrary, displayed the true
                  courage of a loyal and faithful soul. He trusted God, and God comforted him. One
                  hoped, and the other despaired. They chose their own lots, and were righteously
                  doomed to endure them. But you'll not want to hear my moralizing, Mr. Lockwood;
                  you'll judge as well as I can all these things. At least, you'll think you will,
                  and that's the same. The end of Earnshaw was what might have been expected; it
                  followed fast on his sister's; there were scarcely six months between them. We at
                  the Grange never got a very succinct account of his state preceding it; all that I
                  did learn was on occasion of going to aid in <pb n="II.68" facs="pageImages/II.76.png"/>the
                  preparations for the funeral. Mr. Kenneth came to announce the event to my master. </p>
               <p>"Well, Nelly," said he, riding into the yard one morning, too early not to alarm
                  me with an instant presentiment of bad news, "it's yours and my turn to go into
                  mourning at present. Who's given us the slip now, do you think?" </p>
               <p>"Who?" I asked in a flurry. </p>
               <p>"Why, guess," he returned, dismounting, and slinging his bridle on a hook by the
                  door. "And nip up the corner of your apron. I'm certain you'll need it."</p>
               <p>"Not Mr. Heathcliff, surely?" I exclaimed. </p>
               <p>"What! would you have tears for him?" said the doctor. "No, Heathcliff's a tough
                  young fellow; he looks blooming to-day. I've just seen him. He's rapidly regaining
                  flesh since he lost his better half." </p>
               <p>"Who is it, then, Mr. Kenneth?" I repeated impatiently. </p>
               <p>"Hindley Earnshaw -- your old friend Hind<pb n="II.69" facs="pageImages/II.77.png"/>ley," he
                  replied, "and my wicked gossip, though he's been too wild for me this long while.
                  There! I said we should draw water. But cheer up. He died true to his character --
                  drunk as a lord. Poor lad! I'm sorry, too. One can't help missing an old
                  companion, though he had the worst tricks with him that ever man imagined, and has
                  done me many a rascally turn. He's barely twenty-seven, it seems; that's your own
                  age. Who would have thought you were born in one year?" </p>
               <p>I confess this blow was greater to me than the shock of Mrs. Linton's death.
                  Ancient associations lingered round my heart. I sat down in the porch and wept as
                  for a blood relation, desiring Mr. Kenneth to get another servant to introduce him
                  to the master. I could not hinder myself from pondering on the question, "Had he
                  had fair play?" Whatever I did, that idea would bother me. It was so tiresomely
                  pertinacious that I resolved on requesting leave to go to Wuthering Heights <pb n="II.70" facs="pageImages/II.78.png"/>and assist in the last duties to the dead. Mr.
                  Linton was extremely reluctant to consent, but I pleaded eloquently for the
                  friendless condition in which he lay, and I said my old master and foster-brother
                  had a claim on my services as strong as his own. Besides, I reminded him that the
                  child Hareton was his wife's nephew, and, in the absence of nearer kin, he ought
                  to act as its guardian; and he ought to and must inquire how the property was
                  left, and look over the concerns of his brother-in-law. He was unfit for attending
                  to such matters then, but he bade me speak to his lawyer, and at length permitted
                  me to go. His lawyer had been Earnshaw's also. I called at the village, and asked
                  him to accompany me. He shook his head, and advised that Heathcliff should be let
                  alone, affirming, if the truth were known, Hareton would be found little else than
                  a beggar. </p>
               <p>"His father died in debt," he said; "the <pb n="II.71" facs="pageImages/II.79.png"/>whole
                  property is mortgaged, and the sole chance for the natural heir is to allow him an
                  opportunity of creating some interest in the creditor's heart, that he may be
                  inclined to deal leniently towards him." </p>
               <p>When I reached the Heights, I explained that I had come to see everything carried
                  on decently; and Joseph, who appeared in sufficient distress, expressed
                  satisfaction at my presence. Mr. Heathcliff said he did not perceive that I was
                  wanted; but I might stay and order the arrangements for the funeral, if I chose. </p>
               <p>"Correctly," he remarked, "that fool's body should be buried at the cross-roads,
                  without ceremony of any kind. I happened to leave him ten minutes yesterday
                  afternoon, and in that interval he fastened the two doors of the house against me,
                  and he has spent the night in drinking himself to death deliberately! We broke in
                  this morning, for we heard him snorting like a horse; and there he was, laid over
                  the settle; flaying and scalping would not <pb n="II.72" facs="pageImages/II.80.png"/>have
                  wakened him. I sent for Kenneth, and he came, but not till the beast had changed
                  into carrion. He was both dead and cold and stark; and so you'll allow it was
                  useless making more stir about him." </p>
               <p>The old servant confirmed this statement, but muttered, -- </p>
               <p>"I'd rayther he'd goan hisseln for t' doctor! I sud ha' taentent o' t' maister
                  better nor him; and he warn't deead when I left, naught o' t' soart!" </p>
               <p>I insisted on the funeral being respectable. Mr. Heathcliff said I might have my
                  own way there too; only, he desired me to remember that the money for the whole
                  affair came out of his pocket. He maintained a hard, careless deportment,
                  indicative of neither joy nor sorrow; if anything, it expressed a flinty
                  gratification at a piece of difficult work successfully executed. I observed once,
                  indeed, something like exultation in his aspect; it was just when the <pb n="II.73" facs="pageImages/II.81.png"/>people were bearing the coffin from the house. He
                  had the hypocrisy to represent a mourner; and previous to following with Hareton,
                  he lifted the unfortunate child on to the table, and muttered, with peculiar
                  gusto, "Now, my bonny lad, you are mine! And we'll see if one tree won't grow as
                  crooked as another, with the same wind to twist it!" The unsuspecting thing was
                  pleased at this speech. He played with Heathcliff's whiskers, and stroked his
                  cheek; but I divined its meaning, and observed tartly, "That boy must go back with
                  me to Thrushcross Grange, sir. There is nothing in the world less yours than he
                  is." </p>
               <p>"Does Linton say so?" he demanded. </p>
               <p>"Of course; he has ordered me to take him," I replied. </p>
               <p>"Well," said the scoundrel, "we'll not argue the subject now; but I have a fancy
                  to try my hand at rearing a young one, so inti<pb n="II.74" facs="pageImages/II.82.png"/>mate
                  to your master that I must supply the place of this with my own, if he attempt to
                  remove it. I don't engage to let Hareton go undisputed, but I'll be pretty sure to
                  make the other come! Remember to tell him." </p>
               <p>This hint was enough to bind our hands. I repeated its substance on my return; and
                  Edgar Linton, little interested at the commencement, spoke no more of interfering.
                  I'm not aware that he could have done it to any purpose, had he been ever so
                  willing. </p>
               <p>The guest was now the master of Wuthering Heights. He held firm possession, and
                  proved to the attorney -- who, in his turn, proved it to Mr. Linton -- that
                  Earnshaw had mortgaged every yard of land he owned for cash to supply his mania
                  for gaming; and he, Heathcliff, was the mortgagee. In that manner Hareton, who
                  should now be the first gentleman in the neighbourhood, was reduced to a state of
                  complete dependence <pb n="II.75" facs="pageImages/II.83.png"/>on his father's inveterate
                  enemy, and lives in his own house as a servant, deprived of the advantage of
                  wages, quite unable to right himself, because of his friendlessness and his
                  ignorance that he has been wronged. </p>
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               <p>The twelve years, continued Mrs. Dean, following that dismal period, were the
                  happiest of my life: my greatest troubles, in their passage, rose from our little
                  lady's trifling illnesses, which she had to experience in common with all
                  children, rich and poor. </p>
               <p>For the rest, after the first six months, she grew like a larch; and could walk
                  and talk too, in her own way, before the heath blossomed a second time over Mrs.
                  Linton's dust. </p>
               <p>She was the most winning thing that ever <pb n="II.77" facs="pageImages/II.85.png"/>brought
                  sunshine into a desolate house -- a real beauty in face -- with the Earnshaws'
                  handsome dark eyes, but the Lintons' fair skin, and small features, and yellow
                  curling hair. Her spirit was high, though not rough, and qualified by a heart
                  sensitive and lively to excess in its affections. That capacity for intense
                  attachments reminded me of her mother; still she did not resemble her; for she
                  could be soft and mild as a dove, and she had a gentle voice, and pensive
                  expression: her anger was never furious; her love never fierce; it was deep and
                  tender. </p>
               <p>However, it must be acknowledged, she had faults to foil her gifts. A propensity
                  to be saucy was one; and a perverse will that indulged children invariably
                  acquire, whether they be good tempered or cross. If a servant chanced to vex her,
                  it was always: "I shall tell papa!" And if he reproved her, even by a look, you
                  would have thought it a heart-<pb n="II.78" facs="pageImages/II.86.png"/>breaking business: I
                  don't believe he ever did speak a harsh word to her. </p>
               <p>He took her education entirely on himself, and made it an amusement: fortunately,
                  curiosity and a quick intellect urged her into an apt scholar; she learnt rapidly
                  and eagerly, and did honour to his teaching. </p>
               <p>Till she reached the age of thirteen, she had not once been beyond the range of
                  the park by herself. Mr. Linton would take her with him a mile or so outside, on
                  rare occasions; but he trusted her to no one else. Gimmerton was an unsubstantial
                  name in her ears; the chapel the only building she had approached or entered,
                  except her own home. Wuthering Heights and Mr. Heathcliff did not exist for her.
                  She was a perfect recluse, and, apparently, perfectly contented. Sometimes,
                  indeed, while surveying the country from her nursery window, she would observe, -- </p>
               <p>"Ellen, how long will it be before I can <pb n="II.79" facs="pageImages/II.87.png"/>walk to
                  the top of those hills? I wonder what lies on the other side. Is it the sea?" </p>
               <p>"No, Miss Cathy," I would answer; "it is hills again, just like these." </p>
               <p>"And what are those golden rocks like when you stand under them?" she once
                  asked.</p>
               <p>The abrupt descent of Peniston Crags particularly attracted her notice, especially
                  when the setting sun shone on it and the topmost heights, and the whole extent of
                  landscape besides lay in shadow. I explained that they were bare masses of stone,
                  with hardly enough earth in their clefts to nourish a stunted tree. </p>
               <p>"And why are they bright so long after it is evening here?" she pursued. </p>
               <p>"Because they are a great deal higher up than we are," replied I; "you could not
                  climb them -- they are too high and steep. In winter the frost is always there
                  before it comes to us; and deep into summer I have found snow under that black
                  hollow on the north-east side." </p>
               <pb n="II.80" facs="pageImages/II.88.png"/>
               <p>"Oh, you have been on them!" she cried gleefully. "Then I can go, too, when I am a
                  woman. Has papa been, Ellen?" </p>
               <p>"Papa would tell you, miss," I answered hastily, "that they are not worth the
                  trouble of visiting. The moors, where you ramble with him, are much nicer; and
                  Thrushcross Park is the finest place in the world." </p>
               <p>"But I know the park, and I don't know those," she murmured to herself. "And I
                  should delight to look round me from the brow of that tallest point. My little
                  pony Minny shall take me some time." </p>
               <p>One of the maids mentioning the Fairy Cave quite turned her head with a desire to
                  fulfil this project. She teased Mr. Linton about it, and he promised she should
                  have the journey when she got older. But Miss Catherine measured her age by
                  months, and, "Now, am I old enough to go to Peniston Crags?" was the constant
                  question in her mouth. <pb n="II.81" facs="pageImages/II.89.png"/>The road thither wound
                  close by Wuthering Heights. Edgar had not the heart to pass it, so she received as
                  constantly the answer, "Not yet, love; not yet." </p>
               <p>I said Mrs. Heathcliff lived above a dozen years after quitting her husband. Her
                  family were of a delicate constitution. She and Edgar both lacked the ruddy health
                  that you will generally meet in these parts. What her last illness was I am not
                  certain. I conjecture they died of the same thing -- a kind of fever, slow at its
                  commencement, but incurable, and rapidly consuming life towards the close. She
                  wrote to inform her brother of the probable conclusion of a four months'
                  indisposition under which she had suffered, and entreated him to come to her, if
                  possible, for she had much to settle, and she wished to bid him adieu, and deliver
                  Linton safely into his hands. Her hope was, that Linton might be left with him, as
                  he had been with her. His father, she would fain convince herself, had no desire
                  to <pb n="II.82" facs="pageImages/II.90.png"/>assume the burden of his maintenance or
                  education. My master hesitated not a moment in complying with her request.
                  Reluctant as he was to leave home at ordinary calls, he flew to answer this,
                  commending Catherine to my peculiar vigilance, in his absence, with reiterated
                  orders that she must not wander out of the park, even under my escort. He did not
                  calculate on her going unaccompanied. </p>
               <p>He was away three weeks. The first day or two my charge sat in a corner of the
                  library, too sad for either reading or playing. In that quiet state she caused me
                  little trouble; but it was succeeded by an interval of impatient fretful
                  weariness; and being too busy and too old then to run up and down amusing her, I
                  hit on a method by which she might entertain herself. I used to send her on her
                  travels round the grounds, now onfoot and now on a pony, indulging her with a
                  patient audience of all <pb n="II.83" facs="pageImages/II.91.png"/>her real and imaginary
                  adventures, when she returned. </p>
               <p>The summer shone in full prime, and she took such a taste for this solitary
                  rambling that she often contrived to remain out from breakfast till tea; and then
                  the evenings were spent in recounting her fanciful tales. I did not fear her
                  breaking bounds, because the gates were generally locked, and I thought she would
                  scarcely venture forth alone, if they had stood wide open. Unluckily, my
                  confidence proved misplaced. Catherine came to me one morning at eight o'clock,
                  and said she was that day an Arabian merchant, going to cross the desert with his
                  caravan, and I must give her plenty of provision for herself and beasts -- a horse
                  and three camels, personated by a large hound and a couple of pointers. I got
                  together good store of dainties, and slung them in a basket on one side of the
                  saddle; and she sprang up as gay as a fairy, shel<pb n="II.84" facs="pageImages/II.92.png"/>tered by her wide-brimmed hat and gauze veil from the July sun, and trotted off
                  with a merry laugh, mocking my cautious counsel to avoid galloping and come back
                  early. The naughty thing never made her appearance at tea. One traveller, the
                  hound, being an old dog and fond of its ease, returned; but neither Cathy, nor the
                  pony, nor the two pointers were visible in any direction. I dispatched emissaries
                  down this path and that path, and at last went wandering in search of her myself.
                  There was a labourer working at a fence round a plantation, on the borders of the
                  grounds. I inquired of him if he had seen our young lady. </p>
               <p>"I saw her at morn," he replied. "She would have me to cut her a hazel switch, and
                  then she leapt her Galloway over the hedge yonder, where it is lowest, and
                  galloped out of sight." </p>
               <p>You may guess how I felt at hearing this <pb n="II.85" facs="pageImages/II.93.png"/>news. It
                  struck me directly she must have started for Peniston Crags. "What will become of
                  her?" I ejaculated, pushing through a gap which the man was repairing, and making
                  straight to the highroad. I walked as if for a wager, mile after mile, till a turn
                  brought &gt;me in view of the Heights; but no Catherine could I detect far or near.
                  The Crags lie about a mile and a half beyond Mr. Heathcliff's place, and that is
                  four from the Grange, so I began to fear night would fall ere I could reach them.
                  "And what if she should have slipped in clambering among them," I reflected, "and
                  been killed or broken some of her bones?" My suspense was truly painful; and at
                  first it gave me delightful relief to observe, in hurrying by the farmhouse,
                  Charlie, the fiercest of the pointers, lying under a window, with swelled head and
                  bleeding ear. I opened the wicket and ran to the door, knocking vehemently for
                  admittance. A <pb n="II.86" facs="pageImages/II.94.png"/>woman whom I knew, and who formerly
                  lived at Gimmerton, answered. She had been servant there since the death of Mr.
                  Earnshaw. </p>
               <p>"Ah," said she, "you are come a-seeking your little mistress! Don't be frightened.
                  She's here safe; but I'm glad it isn't the master." </p>
               <p>"He is not at home, then, is he?" I panted, quite breathless with quick walking
                  and alarm. </p>
               <p>"No, no," she replied; "both he and Joseph are off, and I think they won't return
                  this hour or more. Step in and rest you a bit." </p>
               <p>I entered, and beheld my stray lamb seated on the hearth, rocking herself in a
                  little chair that had been her mother's when a child. Her hat was hung against the
                  wall, and she seemed perfectly at home, laughing and chattering, in the best
                  spirits imaginable, to Hareton -- now a great, strong lad of eighteen -- who
                  stared at her with considerable curiosity and astonishment, comprehending precious
                  little of the fluent succession of remarks and questions which her tongue never
                  ceased pouring forth. </p>
               <pb n="II.87" facs="pageImages/II.95.png"/>
               <p>"Very well, miss!" I exclaimed, concealing my joy under an angry countenance.
                  "This is your last ride till papa comes back. I'll not trust you over the
                  threshold again, you naughty, naughty girl!" </p>
               <p>"Aha, Ellen!" she cried gaily, jumping up and running to my <pb n="193"/>side. "I
                  shall have a pretty story to tell tonight. And so you've found me out. Have you
                  ever been here in your life before?" </p>
               <p>"Put that hat on, and home at once," said I. "I'm dreadfully grieved at you, Miss
                  Cathy; you've done extremely wrong. It's no use pouting and crying; that won't
                  repay the trouble I've had, scouring the country after you. To think how Mr.
                  Linton charged me to keep you in; and you stealing off so! It shows you are a
                  cunning little fox, and nobody will put faith in you any more." </p>
               <p>"What have I done?" sobbed she, instantly checked. "Papa charged me nothing. He'll
                     <pb n="II.88" facs="pageImages/II.96.png"/>not scold me, Ellen; he's never cross like
                  you." </p>
               <p>"Come, come!" I repeated. "I'll tie the ribbon. Now, let us have no petulance. Oh,
                  for shame! You thirteen years old, and such a baby!" </p>
               <p>This exclamation was caused by her pushing the hat from her head, and retreating
                  to the chimney out of my reach. </p>
               <p>"Nay," said the servant; "don't be hard on the bonny lass, Mrs. Dean. We made her
                  stop. She'd fain have ridden forwards, afeard you should be uneasy. Hareton
                  offered to go with her, and I thought he should. It's a wild road over the hills." </p>
               <p>Hareton, during the discussion, stood with his hands in his pockets, too awkward
                  to speak, though he looked as if he did not relish my intrusion. </p>
               <p>"How long am I to wait?" I continued, disregarding the woman's interference. "It
                     <pb n="II.89" facs="pageImages/II.97.png"/>will be dark in ten minutes. -- Where is the
                  pony, Miss Cathy? And where is Phoenix? I shall leave you, unless you be quick; so
                  please yourself." </p>
               <p>"The pony is in the yard," she replied, "and Phoenix is shut in there. He's
                  bitten, and so is Charlie. I was going to tell you all about it; but you are in a
                  bad temper, and don't deserve to hear." </p>
               <p>I picked up her hat, and approached to reinstate it; but perceiving that the
                  people of the house took her part, she commenced capering round the room; and on
                  my giving chase, ran like a mouse over and under and behind the furniture,
                  rendering it ridiculous for me to pursue. <pb n="194"/>Hareton and the woman
                  laughed, and she joined them, and waxed more impertinent still, till I cried, in
                  great irritation, -- </p>
               <p>"Well, Miss Cathy, if you were aware whose house this is, you'd be glad enough to
                  get out." </p>
               <pb n="II.90" facs="pageImages/II.98.png"/>
               <p>"It's your father's, isn't it?" said she, turning to Hareton. </p>
               <p>"Nay," he replied, looking down, and blushing bashfully. </p>
               <p>He could not stand a steady gaze from her eyes, though they were just his own. </p>
               <p>"Whose, then -- your master's?" she asked. </p>
               <p>He coloured deeper, with a different feeling, muttered an oath, and turned away. </p>
               <p>"Who is his master?" continued the tiresome girl, appealing to me. "He talked
                  about 'our house,' and 'our folk.' I thought he had been the owner's son. And he
                  never said miss. He should have done, shouldn't he, if he's a servant?"</p>
               <p>Hareton grew black as a thunder-cloud at this childish speech. I silently shook my
                  questioner, and at last succeeded in equipping her for departure. </p>
               <p>"Now, get my horse," she said, addressing her unknown kinsman as she would one of
                  the stable-boys at the Grange. "And you may <pb n="II.91" facs="pageImages/II.99.png"/>come
                  with me. I want to see where the goblin-hunter rises in the marsh, and to hear
                  about the fairishes, as you call them. But make haste! What's the matter? Get my
                  horse, I say." </p>
               <p>"I'll see thee damned before I be thy servant!" growled the lad. </p>
               <p>"You'll see me what?" asked Catherine in surprise. </p>
               <p>"Damned, thou saucy witch!" he replied. </p>
               <p>"There, Miss Cathy, you see you have got into pretty company," I interposed. "Nice
                  words to be used to a young lady! Pray don't begin to dispute with him. Come, let
                  us seek for Minny ourselves, and begone." </p>
               <p>"But, Ellen," cried she, staring, fixed in astonishment, "how dare he speak so to
                  me? Mustn't he be made to do as I ask him? -- You wicked creature, I shall tell
                  papa what you said. Now, then!" </p>
               <p>Hareton did not appear to feel this threat, so the tears sprang into her eyes with
                     indig<pb n="II.92" facs="pageImages/II.100.png"/>nation. "You bring the pony," she
                  exclaimed, turning to the woman, "and let my dog free this moment!" </p>

               <p>"Softly, miss," answered she addressed; "you'll lose nothing by being civil.
                  Though Mr. Hareton there be not the master's son, he's your cousin; and I was
                  never hired to serve you." </p>
               <p>"He my cousin!" cried Cathy, with a scornful laugh. </p>
               <p>"Yes, indeed," responded her reprover. </p>
               <p>"O Ellen! don't let them say such things," she pursued, in great trouble. "Papa is
                  gone to fetch my cousin from London. My cousin is a gentleman's son. That my -- "
                  She stopped, and wept outright, upset at the bare notion of relationship with such
                  a clown. </p>
               <p>"Hush, hush!" I whispered; "people can have many cousins, and of all sorts, Miss
                  Cathy, without being any the worse for it; only they needn't keep their company,
                  if they be disagreeable and bad." </p>
               <pb n="II.93" facs="pageImages/II.101.png"/>
               <p>"He's not -- he's not my cousin, Ellen!" she went on, gathering fresh grief from
                  reflection, and flinging herself into my arms for refuge from the idea. </p>
               <p>I was much vexed at her and the servant for their mutual revelations, having no
                  doubt of Linton's approaching arrival, communicated by the former, being reported
                  to Mr. Heathcliff, and feeling as confident that Catherine's first thought on her
                  father's return would be to seek an explanation of the latter's assertion
                  concerning her rude-bred kindred. Hareton, recovering from his disgust at being
                  taken for a servant, seemed moved by her distress; and having fetched the pony
                  round to the door, he took, to propitiate her, a fine crooked-legged terrier-whelp
                  from the kennel, and putting it into her hand bade her whist, for he meant nought.
                  Pausing in her lamentations, she surveyed him a glance of awe and horror, then
                  burst forth anew. </p>
               <pb n="II.94" facs="pageImages/II.102.png"/>
               <p>I could scarcely refrain from smiling at this antipathy to the poor fellow, who
                  was a well-made, athletic youth, good-looking in features, and stout and healthy,
                  but attired in garments befitting his daily occupations of working on the farm and
                  lounging among the moors after rabbits and game. Still, I thought I could detect
                  in his physiognomy a mind owning better qualities than his father ever possessed
                  -- good things lost amid a wilderness of weeds, to be sure, whose rankness far
                  over-topped their neglected growth; yet, notwithstanding, evidence of a wealthy
                  soil, that might yield luxuriant crops under other and favourable circumstances.
                  Mr. Heathcliff, I believe, had not treated him physically ill -- thanks to his
                  fearless nature, which offered no temptation to that course of oppression. He had
                  none of the timid susceptibility that would have given zest to ill-treatment, in
                  Heathcliff's judgment. He appeared to have bent his malevolence on making him a
                  brute. He was never taught to <pb n="II.95" facs="pageImages/II.103.png"/>read or write,
                  never rebuked for any bad habit which did not annoy his keeper, never led a single
                  step towards virtue or guarded by a single precept against vice. And from what I
                  heard, Joseph contributed much to his deterioration by a narrow-minded partiality
                  which prompted him to flatter and pet him, as a boy, because he was the head of
                  the old family. And as he had been in the habit of accusing Catherine Earnshaw and
                  Heathcliff, when children, of putting the master past his patience, and compelling
                  him to seek solace in drink by what he termed their "offalld ways," so at present
                  he laid the whole burden of Hareton's faults on the shoulders of the usurper of
                  his property. If the lad swore, he wouldn't correct him, nor however culpably he
                  behaved. It gave Joseph satisfaction, apparently, to watch him go the worst
                  lengths. He allowed that the lad was ruined, that his soul was abandoned to
                     perdi<pb n="II.96" facs="pageImages/II.104.png"/>tion; but then he reflected that
                  Heathcliff must answer for it. Hareton's blood would be required at his hands; and
                  there lay immense consolation in that thought. Joseph had instilled into him a
                  pride of name and of his lineage. He would, had he dared, have fostered hate
                  between him and the present owner of the Heights; but his dread of that owner
                  amounted to superstition, and he confined his feelings regarding him to muttered
                  innuendoes and private comminations. I don't pretend to be intimately acquainted
                  with the mode of living customary in those days at Wuthering Heights. I only speak
                  from hearsay, for I saw little. The villagers affirmed Mr. Heathcliff was near,
                  and a cruel hard landlord to his tenants; but the house inside had regained its
                  ancient aspect of comfort under female management, and the scenes of riot common
                  in Hindley's time were not <pb n="II.97" facs="pageImages/II.105.png"/>now enacted within its
                  walls. The master was too gloomy to seek companionship with any people, good or
                  bad; and he is yet. </p>
               <p>This, however, is not making progress with my story. Miss Cathy rejected the
                  peace-offering of the terrier, and demanded her own dogs, Charlie and Phoenix.
                  They came limping, and hanging their heads; and we set out for home, sadly out of
                  sorts, every one of us. I could not wring from my little lady how she had spent
                  the day, except that, as I supposed, the goal of her pilgrimage was Peniston
                  Crags; and she arrived without adventure to the gate of the farmhouse, when
                  Hareton happened to issue forth, attended by some canine followers, who attacked
                  her train. They had a smart battle before their owners could separate them; that
                  formed an introduction. Catherine told Hareton who she was, and where she was
                  going, and asked him to show her the way, finally beguiling him to accompany her.
                     <pb n="II.98" facs="pageImages/II.106.png"/>He opened the mysteries of the Fairy Cave and
                  twenty other queer places. But, being in disgrace, I was not favoured with a
                  description of the interesting objects she saw. I could gather, however, that her
                  guide had been a favourite till she hurt his feelings by addressing him as a
                  servant, and Heathcliff's housekeeper hurt hers by calling him her cousin. Then
                  the language he had held to her rankled in her heart; she who was always "love,"
                  and "darling," and "queen," and "angel," with everybody at the Grange, to be
                  insulted so shockingly by a stranger! She did not comprehend it; and hard work I
                  had to obtain a promise that she would not lay the grievance before her father. I
                  explained how he objected to the whole household at the Heights, and how sorry he
                  would be to find she had been there; but I insisted most on the fact that if she
                  revealed my negligence of his orders, he would per<pb n="II.99" facs="pageImages/II.107.png"/>haps be so angry that I should have to leave; and Cathy couldn't bear that
                  prospect. She pledged her word, and kept it, for my sake. After all, she was a
                  sweet little girl. </p>
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               <p>A letter, edged with black, announced the day of my master's return. Isabella was
                  dead; and he wrote to bid me get mourning for his daughter, and arrange a room,
                  and other accommodations, for his youthful nephew. </p>
               <p>Catherine ran wild with joy at the idea of welcoming her father back: and indulged
                  most sanguine anticipations of the innumerable excellencies of her "real" cousin. </p>
               <p>The evening of their expected arrival came. Since early morning, she had been
                  busy, or<pb n="II.101" facs="pageImages/II.109.png"/>dering her own small affairs; and now,
                  attired in her new black frock -- poor thing! her aunt's death impressed her with
                  no definite sorrow -- she obliged me, by constant worrying, to walk with her down
                  through the grounds to meet them. </p>
               <p>"Linton is just six months younger than I am," she chattered, as we strolled
                  leisurely over the swells and hollows of mossy turf, under shadow of the trees.
                  "How delightful it will be to have him for a playfellow ! Aunt Isabella sent papa
                  a beautiful lock of his hair; it was lighter than mine -- more flaxen, and quite
                  as fine. I have it carefully preserved in a little glass box; and I've often
                  thought what pleasure it would be to see its owner -- Oh! I am happy -- and papa,
                  dear, dear papa! Come, Ellen, let us run! come run !" </p>
               <p>She ran, and returned and ran again, many times before my sober footsteps reached
                  the gate, and then she seated herself on the grassy bank beside the path, and
                  tried to wait pa<pb n="II.102" facs="pageImages/II.110.png"/>tiently; but that was
                  impossible; she couldn't be still a minute. "How long they are!" she exclaimed.
                  "Ah, I see some dust on the road -- they are coming! No! When will they be here?
                  May we not go a little way -- half a mile, Ellen, only just half a mile ? Do say
                  yes, to that clump of birches at the turn !" </p>
               <p>I refused staunchly: and, at length, her suspense was ended: the travelling
                  carriage rolled in sight. </p>

               <p>Miss Cathy shrieked and stretched out her arms, as soon as she caught her father's
                  face looking from the window. He descended, nearly as eager as herself; and a
                  considerable interval elapsed ere they had a thought to spare for any but
                  themselves. While they exchanged caresses, I took a peep in to see after Linton.
                  He was asleep in a corner, wrapped in a warm, fur-lined cloak, as if it had been
                  winter -- a pale, delicate, effeminate boy, who might have been <pb n="II.103" facs="pageImages/II.111.png"/>taken for my master's younger brother, so strong was the
                  resemblance; but there was a sickly peevishness in his aspect that Edgar Linton
                  never had. The latter saw me looking; and having shaken hands, advised me to close
                  the door and leave him undisturbed, for the journey had fatigued him. Cathy would
                  fain have taken one glance, but her father told her to come, and they walked
                  together up the park, while I hastened before to prepare the servants. </p>
               <p>"Now, darling," said Mr. Linton, addressing his daughter, as they halted at the
                  bottom of the front steps, "your cousin is not so strong or so merry as you are,
                  and he has lost his mother, remember, a very short time since; therefore, don't
                  expect him to play and run about with you directly. And don't harass him much by
                  talking. Let him be quiet this evening, at least, will you?" </p>
               <p>"Yes, yes, papa," answered Catherine; <pb n="II.104" facs="pageImages/II.112.png"/>"but I do
                  want to see him, and he hasn't once looked out." </p>
               <p>The carriage stopped, and the sleeper being roused was lifted to the ground by his
                  uncle.</p>
               <p>"This is your cousin Cathy, Linton," he said, putting their little hands together.
                  "She's fond of you already; and mind you don't grieve her by crying to-night. Try
                  to be cheerful now; the travelling is at an end, and you have nothing to do but
                  rest and amuse yourself as you please." </p>
               <p>"Let me go to bed, then," answered the boy, shrinking from Catherine's salute; and
                  he put up his fingers to remove incipient tears. </p>
               <p>"Come, come, there's a good child," I whispered, leading him in. "You'll make her
                  weep too. See how sorry she is for you!" </p>
               <p>I do not know whether it was sorrow for him, but his cousin put on as sad a
                  countenance as himself, and returned to her father. <pb n="II.105" facs="pageImages/II.113.png"/>All three entered, and mounted to the library, where tea was
                  laid ready. I proceeded to remove Linton's cap and mantle, and placed him on a
                  chair by the table; but he was no sooner seated than he began to cry afresh. My
                  master inquired what was the matter. </p>
               <p>"I can't sit on a chair," sobbed the boy. </p>
               <p>"Go to the sofa, then, and Ellen shall bring you some tea," answered his uncle
                  patiently. </p>
               <p>He had been greatly tried during the journey, I felt convinced, by his fretful
                  ailing charge. Linton slowly trailed himself off, and lay down. Cathy carried a
                  foot-stool and her cup to his side. At first she sat silent; but that could not
                  last. She had resolved to make a pet of her little cousin, as she would have him
                  to be; and she commenced stroking his curls, and kissing his cheek, and offering
                  him tea in her saucer, like a baby. This pleased him, for he <pb n="II.106" facs="pageImages/II.114.png"/>was not much better. He dried his eyes, and lightened into a
                  faint smile. </p>
               <p>"Oh, he'll do very well," said the master to me, after watching them a minute --
                  "very well, if we can keep him, Ellen. The company of a child of his own age will
                  instil new spirit into him soon, and by wishing for strength he'll gain it." </p>
               <p>"Ay, if we can keep him!" I mused to myself, and sore misgivings came over me that
                  there was slight hope of that. And then, I thought, however will that weakling
                  live at Wuthering Heights? Between his father and Hareton, what playmates and
                  instructors they'll be! Our doubts were presently decided -- even earlier than I
                  expected. I had just taken the children upstairs, after tea was finished, and seen
                  Linton asleep -- he would not suffer me to leave him till that was the case; I had
                  come down, and was standing by the table in the hall, lighting a bedroom candle
                  for Mr. Edgar, <pb n="II.107" facs="pageImages/II.115.png"/>when a maid stepped out of the
                  kitchen and informed me that Mr. Heathcliff's servant Joseph was at the door, and
                  wished to speak with the master. </p>
               <p>"I shall ask him what he wants first," I said, in considerable trepidation. "A
                  very unlikely hour to be troubling people, and the instant they have returned from
                  a long journey. I don't think the master can see him." </p>
               <p>Joseph had advanced through the kitchen as I uttered these words, and now
                  presented himself in the hall. He was donned in his Sunday garments, with his most
                  sanctimonious and sourest face; and, holding his hat in one hand and his stick in
                  the other, he proceeded to clean his shoes on the mat. </p>
               <p>"Good-evening, Joseph," I said coldly. "What business brings you here to-night?" </p>
               <p>"It's Maister Linton I mun spake to," he answered, waving me disdainfully aside. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Linton is going to bed; unless you have something particular to say, I'm sure
                  he <pb n="II.108" facs="pageImages/II.116.png"/>won't hear it now," I continued. "You had
                  better sit down in there, and entrust your message to me." </p>
               <p>"Which is his rahm?" pursued the fellow, surveying the range of closed doors. </p>
               <p>I perceived he was bent on refusing my mediation, so very reluctantly I went up to
                  the library, and announced the unseasonable visitor, advising that he should be
                  dismissed till next day. Mr. Linton had no time to empower me to do so, for Joseph
                  mounted close at my heels, and pushing into the apartment, planted himself at the
                  far side of the table, with his two fists clapped on the head of his stick, and
                  began in an elevated tone, as if anticipating opposition, -- </p>
               <p>"Hathecliff has sent me for his lad, and I munn't goa back 'bout him." </p>
               <p>Edgar Linton was silent a minute; an expression of exceeding sorrow overcast his
                  features. He would have pitied the child on his own account; but recalling
                  Isabella's hopes <pb n="II.109" facs="pageImages/II.117.png"/>and fears, and anxious wishes
                  for her son, and her commendations of him to his care, he grieved bitterly at the
                  prospect of yielding him up, and searched in his heart how it might be avoided. No
                  plan offered itself. The very exhibition of any desire to keep him would have
                  rendered the claimant more peremptory. There was nothing left but to resign him.
                  However, he was not going to rouse him from his sleep. </p>
               <p>"Tell Mr. Heathcliff," he answered calmly, "that his son shall come to Wuthering
                  Heights to-morrow. He is in bed, and too tired to go the distance now. You may
                  also tell him that the mother of Linton desired him to remain under my
                  guardianship; and at present his health is very precarious." </p>
               <p>"Noa!" said Joseph, giving a thud with his prop on the floor, and assuming an
                  authoritative air; "noa! that means naught. Hathecliff maks noa 'count o' t'
                  mother, nor ye norther, but he'll hev his lad, und I mun tak him; soa now ye
                  knaw!" </p>
               <pb n="II.110" facs="pageImages/II.118.png"/>
               <p>"You shall not to-night!" answered Linton decisively. </p>
               <p>"Walk downstairs at once, and repeat to your master what I have said. -- Ellen,
                  show him down. -- Go!" </p>
               <p>And aiding the indignant elder with a lift by the arm, he rid the room of him, and
                  closed the door. </p>
               <p>"Varrah weell!" shouted Joseph, as he slowly drew off. "To-morn, he's come
                  hisseln; and thrust him out, if ye darr!" </p>
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               <p>To obviate the danger of this threat being fulfilled, Mr. Linton commissioned me
                  to take the boy home early, on Catherine's pony, and, said he -- </p>
               <p>"As we shall now have no influence over his destiny, good or bad, you must say
                  nothing of where he is gone to my daughter; she cannot associate with him
                  hereafter; and it is better for her to remain in ignorance of his proximity, lest
                  she should be restless, and anxious to visit the Heights -- merely tell her, <pb n="II.112" facs="pageImages/II.120.png"/>his father sent for him suddenly, and he has been
                  obliged to leave us."</p>
               <p>Linton was very reluctant to be roused from his bed at five o'clock, and
                  astonished to be informed that he must prepare for further travelling: but I
                  softened off the matter by stating that he was going to spend some time with his
                  father, Mr. Heathcliff, who wished to see him so much, he did not like to defer
                  the pleasure till he should recover from his late journey.</p>
               <p>"My father?" he cried, in strange perplexity. "Mamma never told me I had a father.
                  Where does he live ? I'd rather stay with uncle."</p>
               <p>"He lives a little distance from the Grange," I replied, "just beyond those hills
                  -- not so far but you may walk over here, when you get hearty. And you should be
                  glad to go home, and to see him. You must try to love him, as you did your mother,
                  and then he will love you."</p>
               <pb n="II.113" facs="pageImages/II.121.png"/>
               <p>"But why have I not heard of him before?" asked Linton; "why didn't mamma and he
                  live together, as other people do ?"</p>
               <p>"He had business to keep him in the north," I answered; "and your mother's health
                  required her to reside in the south."</p>
               <p>"And why didn't mamma speak to me about him ?" persevered the child. "She often
                  talked of uncle, and I learnt to love him long ago. How am I to love papa? I don't
                  know him."</p>
               <p>"Oh, all children love their parents," I said. "Your mother, <pb n="205"/>perhaps,
                  thought you would want to be with him if she mentioned him often to you. Let us
                  make haste. An early ride on such a beautiful morning is much preferable to an
                  hour's more sleep." </p>
               <p>"Is she to go with us," he demanded -- "the little girl I saw yesterday?" </p>
               <p>"Not now," replied I. </p>
               <p>"Is uncle?" he continued. </p>
               <pb n="II.114" facs="pageImages/II.122.png"/>
               <p>"No; I shall be your companion there," I said. </p>
               <p>Linton sank back on his pillow and fell into a brown study. </p>
               <p>"I won't go without uncle," he cried at length. "I can't tell where you mean to
                  take me." </p>
               <p>I attempted to persuade him of the naughtiness of showing reluctance to meet his
                  father. Still he obstinately resisted any progress towards dressing, and I had to
                  call for my master's assistance in coaxing him out of bed. The poor thing was
                  finally got off, with several delusive assurances that his absence should be
                  short, that Mr. Edgar and Cathy would visit him, and other promises, equally
                  ill-founded, which I invented and reiterated at intervals throughout the way. The
                  pure heather-scented air, the bright sunshine, and the gentle canter of Minny
                  relieved his despondency after a while. He began to put questions concerning his
                  new home <pb n="II.115" facs="pageImages/II.123.png"/>and its inhabitants with greater
                  interest and liveliness. </p>
               <p>"Is Wuthering Heights as pleasant a place as Thrushcross Grange?" he inquired,
                  turning to take a last glance into the valley, whence a light mist mounted and
                  formed a fleecy cloud on the skirts of the blue. </p>
               <p>"It is not so buried in trees," I replied, "and it is not quite so large, but you
                  can see the country beautifully all round, and the air is healthier for you --
                  fresher and dryer. You will perhaps think the building old and dark at first,
                  though it is a respectable house -- the next best in the neighbourhood. And you
                  will have such nice rambles on the moors. Hareton Earnshaw -- that is Miss Cathy's
                  other cousin, and so yours in a manner -- will show you all the sweetest spots;
                  and you can bring a book in fine weather, and make a green hollow your study; and
                  now and then your uncle may join you in a walk. He does frequently walk out on the
                  hills." </p>
               <pb n="II.116" facs="pageImages/II.124.png"/>
               <p>"And what is my father like?" he asked. "Is he as young and handsome as uncle?" </p>
               <p>"He's as young," said I; "but he has black hair and eyes, and looks sterner, and
                  he is taller and bigger altogether. He'll not seem to you so gentle and kind at
                  first, perhaps, because it is not his way; still, mind you be frank and cordial
                  with him; and naturally he'll be fonder of you than any uncle, for you are his
                  own." </p>
               <p>"Black hair and eyes!" mused Linton. "I can't fancy him. Then I am not like him,
                  am I?" </p>
               <p>"Not much," I answered; not a morsel, I thought, surveying with regret the white
                  complexion and slim frame of my companion, and his large languid eyes -- his
                  mother's eyes, save that, unless a morbid touchiness kindled them a moment, they
                  had not a vestige of her sparkling spirit. </p>
               <p>"How strange that he should never come to see mamma and me" he murmured. "Has he
                     <pb n="II.117" facs="pageImages/II.125.png"/>ever seen me? If he has, I must have been a
                  baby. I remember not a single thing about him." </p>
               <p>"Why, Master Linton," said I, "three hundred miles is a great distance; and ten
                  years seem very different in length to a grown-up person compared with what they
                  do to you. It is probable Mr. Heathcliff proposed going from summer to summer, but
                  never found a convenient opportunity; and now it is too late. Don't trouble him
                  with questions on the subject; it will disturb him for no good." </p>
               <p>The boy was fully occupied with his own cogitations for the remainder of the ride,
                  till we halted before the farmhouse garden gate. I watched to catch his
                  impressions in his countenance. He surveyed the carved front and low-browed
                  lattices, the straggling gooseberry bushes and crooked firs, with solemn
                  intentness, and then shook his head. His private feelings entirely disapproved of
                  the exterior of <pb n="II.118" facs="pageImages/II.126.png"/>his new abode. But he had sense
                  to postpone complaining. There might be compensation within. Before he dismounted
                  I went and opened the door. It was half-past six; the family had just finished
                  breakfast; the servant was clearing and wiping down the table. Joseph stood by his
                  master's chair, telling some tale concerning a lame horse, and Hareton was
                  preparing for the hay-field.</p>
               <p>"Hullo, Nelly!" said Mr. Heathcliff when he saw me. "I feared I should have to
                  come down and fetch my property myself. You've brought it, have you? Let us see
                  what we can make of it. </p>
               <p>He got up and strode to the door. Hareton and Joseph followed in gaping curiosity.
                  Poor Linton ran a frightened eye over the faces of the three. </p>
               <p>"Sure-ly," said Joseph, after a grave inspection, "he's swopped wi' ye, maister,
                  an' yon's his lass!" <pb n="II.119" facs="pageImages/II.127.png"/>Heathcliff, having stared
                  his son into an ague of confusion, uttered a scornful laugh. </p>
               <p>"God! what a beauty! what a lovely, charming thing" he exclaimed. "Haven't they
                  reared it on snails and sour milk, Nelly? Oh, damn my soul! but that's worse than
                  I expected, and the devil knows I was not sanguine!" </p>
               <p>I bade the trembling and bewildered child get down and enter. He did not
                  thoroughly comprehend the meaning of his father's speech, or whether it were
                  intended for him; indeed, he was not yet certain that the grim, sneering stranger
                  was his father. But he clung to me with growing trepidation; and on Mr.
                  Heathcliff's taking a seat and bidding him "come hither," he hid his face on my
                  shoulder and wept. </p>
               <p>"Tut, tut!" said Heathcliff, stretching out a hand and dragging him roughly
                  between his knees, and then holding up his head by the chin. "None of that
                  nonsense! We're not <pb n="II.120" facs="pageImages/II.128.png"/>going to hurt thee, Linton.
                  Isn't that thy name? Thou art thy mother's child entirely! Where is my share in
                  thee, puling chicken?" </p>
               <p>He took off the boy's cap and pushed back his thick flaxen curls, felt his slender
                  arms and his small fingers, during which examination Linton ceased crying, and
                  lifted his great blue eyes to inspect the inspector. </p>
               <p>"Do you know me?" asked Heathcliff, having satisfied himself that the limbs were
                  all equally frail and feeble. </p>

               <p>"No," said Linton, with a gaze of vacant fear. </p>
               <p>"You've heard of me, I dare say?" </p>
               <p>"No," he replied again. </p>
               <p>"No! What a shame of your mother, never to waken your filial regard for me! You
                  are my son, then, I'll tell you; and your mother was a wicked slut to leave you in
                  ignorance of the sort of father you possessed. Now, don't wince and colour up.
                  Though it is something to see you have not white blood. Be a <pb n="II.121" facs="pageImages/II.129.png"/>good lad, and I'll do for you. -- Nelly, if you be tired,
                  you may sit down; if not, get home again. I guess you'll report what you hear and
                  see to the cipher at the Grange; and this thing won't be settled while you linger
                  about it." </p>
               <p>"Well," replied I, "I hope you'll be kind to the boy, Mr. Heathcliff, or you'll
                  not keep him long; and he's all you have akin in the wide world that you will ever
                  know, remember." </p>
               <p>"I'll be very kind to him, you needn't fear," he said, laughing. "Only nobody else
                  must be kind to him. I'm jealous of monopolizing his affection. And to begin my
                  kindness, Joseph, bring the lad some breakfast. -- Hareton, you infernal calf,
                  begone to your work -- Yes, Nell," he added, when they had departed, "my son is
                  prospective owner of your place, and I should not wish him to die till I was
                  certain of being his successor. Besides, he's mine, and I want the triumph of
                  seeing <pb n="II.122" facs="pageImages/II.130.png"/>my descendant fairly lord of their
                  estates -- my child hiring their children to till their father's lands for wages.
                  That is the sole consideration which can make me endure the whelp. I despise him
                  for himself, and hate him for the memories he revives. But that consideration is
                  sufficient. He's safe with me, and shall be tended as carefully as your master
                  tends his own. I have a room up-stairs furnished for him in handsome style. I've
                  engaged a tutor also to come three times a week, from twenty miles distance, to
                  teach him what he pleases to learn. I've ordered Hareton to obey him; and, in
                  fact, I've arranged everything with a view to preserve the superior and the
                  gentleman in him, above his associates. I do regret, however, that he so little
                  deserves the trouble. If I wished any blessing in the world, it was to find him a
                  worthy object of pride; and I'm bitterly disappointed with the whey-faced whining
                  wretch!" </p>
               <pb n="II.123" facs="pageImages/II.131.png"/>
               <p>While he was speaking, Joseph returned bearing a basin of milk-porridge, and
                  placed it before Linton, who stirred round the homely mess with a look of
                  aversion, and affirmed he could not eat it. I saw the old man-servant shared
                  largely in his master's scorn of the child, though he was compelled to retain the
                  sentiment in his heart, because Heathcliff plainly meant his underlings to hold
                  him in honour. </p>
               <p>"Cannot ate it?" repeated he, peering in Linton's face, and subduing his voice to
                  a whisper, for fear of being overheard. "But Maister Hareton nivir ate naught
                  else, when he wer a little un; and what wer gooid eneugh for him's gooid eneugh
                  for ye, I's rayther think." </p>
               <p>"I shan't eat it!" answered Linton snappishly. "Take it away." Joseph snatched up
                  the food indignantly, and brought it to us. </p>
               <pb n="II.124" facs="pageImages/II.132.png"/>
               <p>"Is there aught ails th' victuals?" he asked, thrusting the tray under
                  Heathcliff's nose. </p>
               <p>"What should ail them?" he said. </p>
               <p>"Wah!" answered Joseph, "yon dainty chap says he cannut ate 'em. But I guess it's
                  raight. His mother wer just soa; we wer a'most too mucky to sow t' corn for
                  makking her breead." </p>
               <p>"Don't mention his mother to me," said the master angrily. "Get him something that
                  he can eat, that's all. -- What is his usual food, Nelly?" </p>
               <p>I suggested boiled milk or tea; and the housekeeper received instructions to
                  prepare some. Come, I reflected, his father's selfishness may contribute to his
                  comfort. He perceives his delicate constitution, and the necessity of treating him
                  tolerably. I'll console Mr. Edgar by acquainting him with the turn Heathcliff's
                  humour has taken. Having no excuse for lingering longer, I <pb n="II.125" facs="pageImages/II.133.png"/>slipped out, while Linton was engaged in timidly rebuffing
                  the advances of a friendly sheep-dog. But he was too much on the alert to be
                  cheated. As I closed the door, I heard a cry, and a frantic repetition of the
                  words, -- </p>

               <p>"Don't leave me! I'll not stay here! I'll not stay here" </p>
               <p>Then the latch was raised and fell. They did not suffer him to come forth. I
                  mounted Minny, and urged her to a trot; and so my brief guardianship ended. </p>
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            <pb n="II.126" facs="pageImages/II.134.png"/>
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               <p>We had sad work with little Cathy that day: she rose in high glee, eager to join
                  her cousin; and such passionate tears and lamentations followed the news of his
                  departure, that Edgar himself was obliged to sooth her, by affirming he should
                  come back soon; he added, however, "if I can get him;" and there were no hopes of
                  that.</p>
               <p>This promise poorly pacified her; but time was more potent; and though still, at
                  intervals, she inquired of her father when Linton <pb n="II.127" facs="pageImages/II.135.png"/>would return, before she did see him again, his features had waxed so dim in her
                  memory that she did not recognise him.</p>
               <p>When I chanced to encounter the housekeeper of Wuthering Heights, in paying
                  business-visits to Gimmerton, I used to ask how the young master got on; for he
                  lived almost as secluded as Catherine herself, and was never to be seen. I could
                  gather from her that he continued in weak health, and was a tiresome inmate. She
                  said Mr. Heathcliff seemed to dislike him ever longer and worse, though he took
                  some trouble to conceal it. He had an antipathy to the sound of his voice, and
                  could not do at all with his sitting in the same room with him many minutes
                  together.</p>
               <p>There seldom passed much talk between them; Linton learnt his lessons and spent
                  his evenings in a small apartment they called the parlour; or else lay in bed all
                  day; for he was constantly getting coughs, and colds, and aches, and pains of some
                  sort.</p>
               <pb n="II.128" facs="pageImages/II.136.png"/>
               <p>"And I never knew such a faint-hearted creature," added the woman; "nor one so
                  careful of hisseln. He <hi rend="italic">will</hi> go on, if I leave the window
                  open, a bit late in the evening. Oh ! it's killing, a breath of night air! And he
                  must have a fire in the middle of summer; and Joseph's 'bacca pipe is poison; and
                  he must always have sweets and dainties, and always milk, milk for ever -- heeding
                  naught how the rest of us are pinched in winter -- and there he'll sit, wrapped in
                  his furred cloak in his chair by the fire, and some toast and water or other slop
                  on the hob to sip at; and if Hareton, for pity, comes to amuse him -- Hareton is
                  not bad-natured, though he's rough -- they're sure to part, one swearing and the
                  other crying. I believe the master would relish Earnshaw's thrashing him to a
                  mummy, if he were not his son; and I'm certain he would be fit to turn him out of
                  doors if he knew half the nursing he gives hisseln. But then he won't go into
                  danger of temptation.<pb n="II.129" facs="pageImages/II.137.png"/> He never enters the
                  parlour, and should Linton show those ways in the house where he is, he sends him
                  upstairs directly." </p>
               <p>I divined from this account that utter lack of sympathy had rendered young
                  Heathcliff selfish and disagreeable, if he were not so originally; and my interest
                  in him consequently decayed, though still I was moved with a sense of grief at his
                  lot, and a wish that he had been left with us. Mr. Edgar encouraged me to gain
                  information. He thought a great deal about him, I fancy, and would have run some
                  risk to see him; and he told me once to ask the housekeeper whether he ever came
                  into the village. She said he had only been twice, on horseback, accompanying his
                  father, and both times he pretended to be quite knocked up for three or four days
                  afterwards. That housekeeper left, if I recollect rightly, two years after he
                  came, and another, whom I <pb n="II.130" facs="pageImages/II.138.png"/>did not know, was her
                  successor. She lives there still. </p>
               <p>Time wore on at the Grange in its former pleasant way till Miss Cathy reached
                  sixteen. On the anniversary of her birth we never manifested any signs of
                  rejoicing, because it was also the anniversary of my late mistress's death. Her
                  father invariably spent that day alone in the library, and walked at dusk as far
                  as Gimmerton kirkyard, where he would frequently prolong his stay beyond midnight.
                  Therefore Catherine was thrown on her own resources for amusement. This 20th of
                  March was a beautiful spring day, and when her father had retired, my young lady
                  came down dressed for going out, and said she asked to have a ramble on the edge
                  of the moor with me. Mr. Linton had given her leave, if we went only a short
                  distance and were back within the hour. </p>
               <p>"So make haste, Ellen!" she cried. "I <pb n="II.131" facs="pageImages/II.139.png"/>know where
                  I wish to go -- where a colony of moor game are settled. I want to see whether
                  they have made their nests yet." </p>
               <p>"That must be a good distance up," I answered. </p>
               <p>"They don't breed on the edge of the moor." </p>
               <p>"No, it's not," she said. "I've gone very near with papa." </p>
               <p>I put on my bonnet and sallied out, thinking nothing more of the matter. She
                  bounded before me, and returned to my side, and was off again like a young
                  grey-hound; and at first I found plenty of entertainment in listening to the larks
                  singing far and near, and enjoying the sweet, warm sunshine, and watching her, my
                  pet and my delight, with her golden ringlets flying loose behind, and her bright
                  cheek, as soft and pure in its bloom as a wild rose, and her eyes radiant with
                  cloudless pleasure. She was a happy creature, and an angel, in those days. It's a
                  pity she could not be content. </p>
               <pb n="II.132" facs="pageImages/II.140.png"/>
               <p>"Well," said I, "where are your moor-game, Miss Cathy? We should be at them. The
                  Grange park fence is a great way off now." </p>
               <p>"Oh, a little farther -- only a little farther, Ellen," was her answer
                  continually. "Climb to that hillock, pass that bank, and by the time you reach the
                  other side I shall have raised the birds." </p>
               <p>But there were so many hillocks and banks to climb and pass that at length I began
                  to be weary, and told her we must halt and retrace our steps. I shouted to her, as
                  she had outstripped me a long way. She either did not hear or did not regard, for
                  she still sprang on, and I was compelled to follow. Finally she dived into a
                  hollow, and before I came in sight of her again she was two miles nearer Wuthering
                  Heights than her own home; and I beheld a couple of persons arrest her, one of
                  whom I felt convinced was Mr. Heathcliff himself. </p>
               <pb n="II.133" facs="pageImages/II.141.png"/>
               <p>Cathy had been caught in the fact of plundering, or at least hunting out the nests
                  of the grouse. The Heights were Heathcliff's land, and he was reproving the
                  poacher. </p>
               <p>"I've neither taken any nor found any," she said, as I toiled to them, expanding
                  her hands in corroboration of the statement. "I didn't mean to take them; but papa
                  told me there were quantities up here, and I wished to see the eggs." </p>
               <p>Heathcliff glanced at me with an all-meaning smile, expressing his acquaintance
                  with the party, and, consequently, his malevolence towards it, and demanded who
                  "papa" was. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Linton of Thrushcross Grange," she replied. </p>
               <p>"I thought you did not know me, or you wouldn't have spoken in that way." </p>
               <p>"You suppose papa is highly esteemed and respected, then?" he said sarcastically. </p>
               <p>"And what are you?" inquired Catherine, <pb n="II.134" facs="pageImages/II.142.png"/>gazing
                  curiously on the speaker. "That man I've seen before. Is he your son?" </p>
               <p>She pointed to Hareton, the other individual, who had gained nothing but increased
                  bulk and strength by the addition of two years to his age; he seemed as awkward
                  and rough as ever. </p>
               <p>"Miss Cathy," I interrupted, "it will be three hours instead of one that we are
                  out presently. We really must go back." </p>
               <p>"No, that man is not my son," answered Heathcliff, pushing me aside. "But I have
                  one, and you have seen him before too; and though your nurse is in a hurry, I
                  think both you and she would be the better for a little rest. Will you just turn
                  this nab of heath and walk into my house? You'll get home earlier for the ease,
                  and you shall receive a kind welcome." </p>
               <p>I whispered Catherine that she mustn't on any account accede to the proposal. It
                  was entirely out of the question. </p>
               <pb n="II.135" facs="pageImages/II.143.png"/>
               <p>"Why?" she asked aloud. "I'm tired of running, and the ground is dewy. I can't sit
                  here. Let us go, Ellen. Besides, he says I have seen his son. He's mistaken, I
                  think; but I guess where he lives -- at the farmhouse I visited in coming from
                  Peniston Crags. Don't you?" </p>
               <p>"I do -- Come, Nelly, hold your tongue; it will be a treat for her to look in on
                  us. -- Hareton, get forwards with the lass. -- You shall walk with me, Nelly."</p>
               <p>"No, she's not going to any such place," I cried, struggling to release my arm,
                  which he had seized; but she was almost at the door-stones already, scampering
                  round the brow at full speed. Her appointed companion did not pretend to escort
                  her; he shied off by the roadside and vanished. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Heathcliff, it's very wrong," I continued. "You know you mean no good. And
                  there she'll see Linton, and all will be told as <pb n="II.136" facs="pageImages/II.144.png"/>soon as ever we return; and I shall have the blame." </p>
               <p>"I want her to see Linton," he answered. "He's looking better these few days. It's
                  not often he's fit to be seen. And we'll soon persuade her to keep the visit
                  secret. Where is the harm of it?" </p>
               <p>"The harm of it is that her father would hate me if he found I suffered her to
                  enter your house; and I am convinced you have a bad design in encouraging her to
                  do so," I replied. </p>
               <p>"My design is as honest as possible. I'll inform you of its whole scope," he said
                  -- "that the two cousins may fall in love, and get married. I'm acting generously
                  to your master. His young chit has no expectations, and should she second my
                  wishes, she'll be provided for at once as joint successor with Linton." </p>
               <p>"If Linton died," I answered, "and his <pb n="II.137" facs="pageImages/II.145.png"/>life is
                  quite uncertain, Catherine would be the heir." </p>
               <p>"No, she would not," he said. "There is no clause in the will to secure it so. His
                  property would go to me. But to prevent disputes I desire their union, and am
                  resolved to bring it about." </p>
               <p>"And I am resolved she shall never approach your house with me again," I returned,
                  as we reached the gate, where Miss Cathy waited our coming. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff bade me be quiet, and preceding us up the path, hastened to open the
                  door. My young lady gave him several looks, as if she could not exactly make up
                  her mind what to think of him; but now he smiled when he met her eye, and softened
                  his voice in addressing her; and I was foolish enough to imagine the memory of her
                  mother might disarm him from desiring her injury. Linton stood on the hearth. He
                  had been out walking in the fields, for his cap was on, <pb n="II.138" facs="pageImages/II.146.png"/>and he was calling to Joseph to bring him dry shoes. He had
                  grown tall of his age, still wanting some months of sixteen. His features were
                  pretty yet, and his eye and complexion brighter than I remembered them, though
                  with merely temporary lustre borrowed from the salubrious air and genial sun. </p>
               <p>"Now, who is that?" asked Mr. Heathcliff, turning to Cathy. "Can you tell?" </p>
               <p>"Your son?" she said, having doubtfully surveyed first one and then the other. </p>
               <p>"Yes, yes," answered he. "But is this the only time you have beheld him? Think!
                  Ah! you have a short memory. -- Linton, don't you recall your cousin that you used
                  to tease us so with wishing to see?" </p>
               <p>"What, Linton!" cried Cathy, kindling into joyful surprise at the name. "Is that
                  little Linton? He's taller than I am! -- Are you Linton?" </p>
               <p>The youth stepped forward and acknow<pb n="II.139" facs="pageImages/II.147.png"/>ledged
                  himself. She kissed him fervently, and they gazed with wonder at the change time
                  had wrought in the appearance of each. Catherine had reached her full height; her
                  figure was both plump and slender, elastic as steel, and her whole aspect
                  sparkling with health and spirits. Linton's looks and movements were very languid,
                  and his form extremely slight; but there was a grace in his manner that mitigated
                  these defects, and rendered him not unpleasing. After exchanging numerous marks of
                  fondness with him, his cousin went to Mr. Heathcliff, who lingered by the door,
                  dividing his attention between the objects inside and those that lay without --
                  pretending, that is, to observe the latter, and really noting the former alone. </p>
               <p>"And you are my uncle, then!" she cried, reaching up to salute him. "I thought I
                  liked you, though you were cross at first. Why don't you visit at the Grange with
                  Linton? <pb n="II.140" facs="pageImages/II.148.png"/>To live all these years such close
                  neighbours, and never see us, is odd. What have you done so for?" </p>
               <p>"I visited it once or twice too often before you were born," he answered. "There
                  -- damn it! If you have any kisses to spare, give them to Linton -- they are
                  thrown away on me." </p>
               <p>"Naughty Ellen!" exclaimed Catherine, flying to attack me next with her lavish
                  caresses. "Wicked Ellen, to try to hinder me <pb n="217"/>from entering! But I'll
                  take this walk every morning in future -- may I, uncle? -- and sometimes bring
                  papa. Won't you be glad to see us?" </p>
               <p>"Of course!" replied the uncle, with a hardly suppressed grimace, resulting from
                  his deep aversion to both the proposed visitors. "But stay," he continued, turning
                  towards the young lady. "Now I think of it, I'd better tell you. Mr. Linton has a
                  prejudice against me. We quarrelled at one time of our lives <pb n="II.141" facs="pageImages/II.149.png"/>with unchristian ferocity, and if you mention coming here to
                  him he'll put a veto on your visits altogether. Therefore you must not mention it,
                  unless you be careless of seeing your cousin hereafter. You may come if you will,
                  but you must not mention it," </p>
               <p>"Why did you quarrel?" asked Catherine, considerably crestfallen. </p>
               <p>"He thought me too poor to wed his sister," answered Heathcliff, "and was grieved
                  that I got her. His pride was hurt, and he'll never forgive it." </p>
               <p>"That's wrong!" said the young lady. "Some time I'll tell him so. But Linton and I
                  have no share in your quarrel. I'll not come here then; he shall come to the
                  Grange." </p>
               <p>"It will be too far for me," murmured her cousin; "to walk four miles would kill
                  me. No, come here, Miss Catherine, now and then -- not every morning, but once or
                  twice a week." </p>
               <p>The father launched towards his son a glance of bitter contempt. </p>
               <pb n="II.142" facs="pageImages/II.150.png"/>
               <p>"I am afraid, Nelly, I shall lose my labour," he muttered to me. "Miss Catherine,
                  as the ninny calls her, will discover his value, and send him to the devil. Now,
                  if it had been Hareton! Do you know that, twenty times a day, I covet Hareton,
                  with all his degradation? I'd have loved the lad had he been some one else. But I
                  think he's safe from her love. I'll pit him against that paltry creature, unless
                  it bestir itself briskly. We calculate it will scarcely last till it is eighteen.
                  Oh, confound the vapid thing! He's absorbed in drying his feet, and never looks at
                  her. -- Linton!" </p>
               <p>"Yes, father," answered the boy. </p>
               <p>"Have you nothing to show your cousin anywhere about -- not <pb n="218"/> a
                  weasel's nest? Take her into the garden before you change your shoes, and into the
                  stable to see your horse." </p>
               <p>"Wouldn't you rather sit here?" asked Linton, addressing Cathy in a tone which
                  expressed reluctance to move again. </p>
               <pb n="II.143" facs="pageImages/II.151.png"/>
               <p>"I don't know," she replied, casting a longing look to the door, and evidently
                  eager to be active. He kept his seat, and shrank closer to the fire. Heathcliff
                  rose and went into the kitchen, and from thence to the yard, calling out for
                  Hareton. Hareton responded, and presently the two re-entered. The young man had
                  been washing himself, as was visible by the glow on his cheeks and his wetted
                  hair. </p>
               <p>"Oh, I'll ask you, uncle," cried Miss Cathy, recollecting the housekeeper's
                  assertion. "That is not my cousin, is he?" </p>
               <p>"'Yes," he replied -- "your mother's nephew. Don't you like him?" Catherine looked
                  queer. </p>
               <p>"Is he not a handsome lad?" he continued. The uncivil little thing stood on
                  tiptoe, and whispered a sentence in Heathcliff's ear. He laughed. Hareton
                  darkened. I perceived <pb n="II.144" facs="pageImages/II.152.png"/>he was very sensitive to
                  suspected slights, and had obviously a dim notion of his inferiority. But his
                  master or guardian chased the frown by exclaiming, -- </p>
               <p/>
               <p>"You'll be the favourite among us, Hareton! She says you are a -- What was it?
                  Well, something very flattering. Here! you go with her round the farm. And behave
                  like a gentleman, mind! Don't use any bad words; and don't stare when the young
                  lady is not looking at you, and be ready to hide your face when she is; and when
                  you speak, say your words slowly, and keep your hands out of your pockets. Be off,
                  and entertain her as nicely as you can." </p>
               <p>He watched the couple walking past the window. Earnshaw had his countenance
                  completely averted from his companion. He seemed studying the familiar landscape
                  with a stranger's and an artist's interest. </p>

               <p>Catherine took a sly look at him, expressing small admiration. She then turned her
                     atten<pb n="II.145" facs="pageImages/II.153.png"/>tion to seeking out objects of amusement
                  for herself, and tripped merrily on, lilting a tune to supply the lack of
                  conversation. </p>
               <p>"I've tied his tongue," observed Heathcliff. "He'll not venture a single syllable
                  all the time! Nelly, you recollect me at his age -- nay, some years younger. Did I
                  ever look so stupid -- so 'gaumless,' as Joseph calls it?" </p>
               <p>"Worse," I replied, "because more sullen with it." </p>
               <p>"I've a pleasure in him," he continued, reflecting aloud. "He has satisfied my
                  expectations. If he were a born fool I should not enjoy it half so much. But he's
                  no fool; and I can sympathize with all his feelings, having felt them myself. I
                  know what he suffers now, for instance, exactly. It is merely a beginning of what
                  he shall suffer, though. And he'll never be able to emerge from his bathos of
                  coarseness and ignorance. I've got him faster than his scoundrel of a father
                  secured me, and <pb n="II.146" facs="pageImages/II.154.png"/>lower, for he takes a pride in
                  his brutishness. I've taught him to scorn everything extra-animal as silly and
                  weak. Don't you think Hindley would be proud of his son if he could see him --
                  almost as proud as I am of mine? But there's this difference; one is gold put to
                  the use of paving-stones, and the other is tin polished to ape a service of
                  silver. Mine has nothing valuable about it, yet I shall have the merit of making
                  it go as far as such poor stuff can go. His had first-rate qualities, and they are
                  lost, rendered worse than unavailing. I have nothing to regret; he would have more
                  than any but me are aware of. And the best of it is, Hareton is damnably fond of
                  me! You'll own that I've outmatched Hindley there. If the dead villain could rise
                  from his grave to abuse me for his offspring's wrongs, I should have the fun of
                  seeing the said offspring fight him back again, indignant that he should dare to
                  rail at the one friend he has in the world." </p>
               <pb n="II.147" facs="pageImages/II.155.png"/>
               <p>Heathcliff chuckled a fiendish laugh at the idea. I made no reply, because I saw
                  that he expected none. Meantime our young companion, who sat too removed from us
                  to hear what was said, began to evince symptoms of uneasiness, <pb n="220"/>probably repenting that he had denied himself the treat of Catherine's society
                  for fear of a little fatigue. His father remarked the restless glances wandering
                  to the window, and the hand irresolutely extended towards his cap. </p>
               <p>"Get up, you idle boy!" he exclaimed, with assumed heartiness. "Away after them!
                  They are just at the corner, by the stand of hives." </p>
               <p>Linton gathered his energies, and left the hearth. The lattice was open, and as he
                  stepped out I heard Cathy inquiring of her unsociable attendant what was that
                  inscription over the door? Hareton stared up, and scratched his head like a true
                  clown. </p>
               <pb n="II.148" facs="pageImages/II.156.png"/>
               <p>"It's some damnable writing," he answered. "I cannot read it." </p>
               <p>"Can't read it?" cried Catherine. "I can read it; it's English. But I want to know
                  why it is there." </p>
               <p>Linton giggled -- the first appearance of mirth he had exhibited. </p>
               <p>"He does not know his letters," he said to his cousin. </p>
               <p>"Could you believe in the existence of such a colossal dunce?" </p>
               <p>"Is he all as he should be?" asked Miss Cathy seriously, "or is he simple -- not
                  right? I've questioned him twice now, and each time he looked so stupid I think he
                  does not understand me. I can hardly understand him, I'm sure." </p>
               <p>Linton repeated his laugh, and glanced at Hareton tauntingly, who certainly did
                  not seem quite clear of comprehension at that moment. </p>
               <p>"There's nothing the matter but laziness -- is there, Earnshaw?" he said. "My
                  cousin <pb n="II.149" facs="pageImages/II.157.png"/>fancies you are an idiot. There you
                  experience the consequence of scorning 'book-larning,' as you would say. -- Have
                  you noticed, Catherine, his frightful Yorkshire pronunciation?" </p>
               <p>"Why, where the devil is the use on't?" growled Hareton, more ready in answering
                  his daily companion. He was about to enlarge further, but the two youngsters broke
                  into a noisy fit of merriment, my giddy miss being delighted to discover that she
                  might turn his strange talk to matter of amusement. </p>
               <p>"Where is the use of the devil in that sentence?" tittered Linton. "Papa told you
                  not to say any bad words, and you can't open your mouth without one. Do try to
                  behave like a gentleman -- now do!" </p>
               <p>"If thou weren't more a lass than a lad, I'd fell thee this minute, I would,
                  pitiful lath of a crater!" retorted the angry boor, retreating, while his face
                  burned with mingled rage and <pb n="II.150" facs="pageImages/II.158.png"/>mortification, for
                  he was conscious of being insulted, and embarrassed how to resent it. </p>
               <p>Mr. Heathcliff having overheard the conversation as well as I, smiled when he saw
                  him go, but immediately afterwards cast a look of singular aversion on the
                  flippant pair, who remained chattering in the doorway, the boy finding animation
                  enough while discussing Hareton's faults and deficiencies and relating anecdotes
                  of his goings-on, and the girl relishing his pert and spiteful sayings, without
                  considering the ill-nature they evinced. I began to dislike more than to
                  compassionate Linton, and to excuse his father, in some measure, for holding him
                  cheap. </p>
               <p>We stayed till afternoon -- I could not tear Miss Cathy away sooner; but happily
                  my master had not quitted his apartment, and remained ignorant of our prolonged
                  absence. As we walked home I would fain have enlightened my charge on the
                  characters of the <pb n="II.151" facs="pageImages/II.159.png"/>people we had quitted, but she
                  got it into her head that I was prejudiced against them. </p>
               <p>"Aha!" she cried, "you take papa's side, Ellen. You are partial, I know, or else
                  you wouldn't have cheated me so many years into the notion that Linton lived a
                  long way from here. I'm really extremely angry, only I'm so pleased I can't show
                  it. But you must hold your tongue about my uncle. He's my uncle, remember, and
                  I'll scold papa for quarrelling with him." </p>
               <p>And so she ran on, till I relinquished the endeavour to convince her of her
                  mistake. She did not mention the visit that night, because she did not see Mr.
                  Linton. Next day it all came out, sadly to my chagrin. And still I was not
                  altogether sorry. I thought the burden of directing and warning would be more
                  efficiently borne by him than me. But he was too timid in giving satisfactory
                  reasons for his wish that she should shun connection with the household of the
                  Heights, and Catherine liked <pb n="II.152" facs="pageImages/II.160.png"/>good reasons for
                  every restraint that harassed her petted will. </p>
               <p>"Papa!" she exclaimed, after the morning's salutations, "guess whom I saw
                  yesterday in my walk on the moors. Ah, papa, you started! You've not done right,
                  have you, now? I saw -- But listen, and you shall hear how I found you out, and
                  Ellen, who is in league with you, and yet pretended to pity me so when I kept
                  hoping, and was always disappointed about Linton's coming back." </p>
               <p>She gave a faithful account of her excursion and its consequences; and my master,
                  though he cast more than one reproachful look at me, said nothing till she had
                  concluded. Then he drew her to him, and asked if she knew why he had concealed
                  Linton's near neighbourhood from her. Could she think it was to deny her a
                  pleasure that she might harmlessly enjoy? </p>
               <p>"It was because you disliked Mr. Heathcliff," she answered. </p>
               <pb n="II.153" facs="pageImages/II.161.png"/>
               <p>"Then you believe I care more for my own feelings than yours, Cathy?" he said.
                  "No, it was not because I disliked Mr. Heathcliff, but because Mr. Heathcliff
                  dislikes me, and is a most diabolical man, delighting to wrong and ruin those he
                  hates, if they give him the slightest opportunity. I knew that you could not keep
                  up an acquaintance with your cousin without being brought into contact with him,
                  and I knew he would detest you on my account; so for your own good, and nothing
                  else, I took precautions that you should not see Linton again. I meant to explain
                  this some time as you grew older, and I'm sorry I delayed it." </p>
               <p>"But Mr. Heathcliff was quite cordial, papa," observed Catherine, not at all
                  convinced; "and he didn't object to our seeing each other. He said I might come to
                  his house when I pleased, only I must not tell you, because you had quarrelled
                  with him, and would not forgive him for marrying Aunt Isabella. And <pb n="II.154" facs="pageImages/II.162.png"/>you won't. you are the one to be blamed. He is willing to
                  let us be friends -- at least, Linton and I -- and you are not." </p>
               <p>My master, perceiving that she would not take his word for her uncle-in-law's evil
                  disposition, gave a hasty sketch of his conduct to Isabella, and the manner in
                  which Wuthering Heights became his property. He could not bear to discourse long
                  upon the topic, for though he spoke little of it, he still felt the same horror
                  and detestation of his ancient enemy that had occupied his heart ever since Mrs.
                  Linton's death. "She might have been living yet if it had not been for him!" was
                  his constant bitter reflection; and in his eyes Heathcliff seemed a murderer. Miss
                  Cathy -- conversant with no bad deeds except her own slight acts of disobedience,
                  injustice, and passion, arising from hot temper and thoughtlessness, and repented
                  of on the day they were committed -- was amazed at the blackness of spirit that
                  could brood on and co<pb n="II.155" facs="pageImages/II.163.png"/>ver revenge for years, and
                  deliberately prosecute its plans without a visitation of remorse. She appeared so
                  deeply impressed and shocked at this new view of human nature, excluded from all
                  her studies and all her ideas till now, that Mr. Edgar deemed it unnecessary to
                  pursue the subject. He merely added, -- </p>
               <p>"You will know hereafter, darling, why I wish you to avoid his house and family.
                  Now return to your old employments and amusements, and think no more about them." </p>
               <p>Catherine kissed her father and sat down quietly to her lessons for a couple of
                  hours, according to custom; then she accompanied him into the grounds, and the
                  whole day passed as usual. But in the evening, when she had retired to her room,
                  and I went to help her to undress, I found her crying on her knees by the bedside. </p>
               <p>"Oh, fie, silly child!" I exclaimed. "If you had any real griefs you'd be ashamed
                  to waste a tear on this little contrariety. You never <pb n="II.156" facs="pageImages/II.164.png"/>had one shadow of substantial sorrow, Miss Catherine.
                  Suppose, for a minute, that master and I were dead, and you were by yourself in
                  the world; how would you feel then? Compare the present occasion with such an
                  affliction as that, and be thankful for the friends you have, instead of coveting
                  more." </p>
               <p>"I'm not crying for myself, Ellen," she answered -- "it's for him. He expected to
                  see me again to-morrow, and there he'll be so disappointed; and he'll wait for me,
                  and I shan't come." </p>
               <p>"Nonsense!" said I. "Do you imagine he has thought as much of you as you have of
                  him? Hasn't he Hareton for a companion? Not one in a hundred would weep at losing
                  a relation they had just seen twice, for two afternoons. Linton will conjecture
                  how it is, and trouble himself no further about you." </p>
               <p>"But may I not write a note to tell him why I cannot come," she asked, rising to
                  her feet, "and just send those books I promised <pb n="II.157" facs="pageImages/II.165.png"/>to lend him? His books are not as nice as mine, and he wanted to have them
                  extremely when I told him how interesting they were. May I not, Ellen?" </p>
               <p>"No, indeed! no, indeed!" replied I, with decision. </p>
               <p>"Then he would write to you, and there'd never be an end of it. No, Miss
                  Catherine, the acquaintance must be dropped entirely; so papa expects, and I shall
                  see that it is done." </p>
               <p>"But how can one little note -- " she recommenced, putting on an imploring
                  countenance. </p>
               <p>"Silence!" I interrupted. "We'll not begin with your little notes. Get into bed." </p>
               <p>She threw at me a very naughty look -- so naughty that I would not kiss her
                  good-night at first. I covered her up and shut her door in great displeasure, but
                  repenting half-way, I returned softly, and lo! there was miss standing at the
                  table with a bit of blank paper before her and a pencil in her hand, which <pb n="II.158" facs="pageImages/II.166.png"/>she guiltily slipped out of sight on my entrance. </p>
               <p>"You'll get nobody to take that, Catherine," I said, "if you write it; and at
                  present I shall put out your candle." </p>
               <p>I set the extinguisher on the flame, receiving as I did so a slap on my hand, and
                  a petulant "Cross thing!" I then quitted her again, and she drew the bolt in one
                  of her worst, most peevish humours. The letter was finished and forwarded to its
                  destination by a milk-fetcher who came from the village; but that I did not learn
                  till some time afterwards. Weeks passed on, and Cathy recovered her temper, though
                  she grew wondrous fond of stealing off to corners by herself; and often, if I came
                  near her suddenly while reading, she would start and bend over the book, evidently
                  desirous to hide it, and I detected edges of loose paper sticking out beyond the
                     leaves.<pb n="II.159" facs="pageImages/II.167.png"/> She also got a trick of coming down
                  early in the morning and lingering about the kitchen, as if she were expecting the
                  arrival of something; and she had a small drawer in a cabinet in the library which
                  she would trifle over for hours, and whose key she took special care to remove
                  when she left it. </p>
               <p>One day, as she inspected this drawer, I observed that the playthings and trinkets
                  which recently formed its contents were transmuted into bits of folded paper. My
                  curiosity and suspicions were aroused. I determined to take a peep at her
                  mysterious treasures; so at night, as soon as she and my master were safe
                  upstairs, I searched and readily found among my house-keys one that would fit the
                  lock. Having opened, I emptied the whole contents into my apron, and took them
                  with me to examine at leisure in my own chamber. Though I could not but suspect, I
                  was still surprised to discover that they were a mass of <pb n="II.160" facs="pageImages/II.168.png"/>correspondence -- daily, almost, it must have been -- from
                  Linton Heathcliff, answers to documents forwarded by her. The earlier dated were
                  embarrassed and short; gradually, however, they expanded into copious
                  love-letters, foolish, as the age of the writer rendered natural, yet with touches
                  here and there which I thought were borrowed from a more experienced source. Some
                  of them struck me as singularly odd compounds of ardour and flatness, commencing
                  in strong feeling, and concluding in the affected, wordy style that a schoolboy
                  might use to a fancied, incorporeal sweetheart. Whether they satisfied Cathy I
                  don't know, but they appeared very worthless trash to me. After turning over as
                  many as I thought proper, I tied them in a handkerchief and set them aside,
                  relocking the vacant drawer. </p>
               <p>Following her habit, my young lady descended early, and visited the kitchen. I
                  watched her go to the door on the arrival <pb n="II.161" facs="pageImages/II.169.png"/>of a
                  certain little boy, and while the dairy-maid filled his can, she tucked something
                  into his jacket pocket, and plucked something out. I went round by the garden and
                  laid wait for the messenger, who fought valorously to defend his trust, and we
                  spilt the milk between us; but I succeeded in abstracting the epistle, and
                  threatening serious consequences if he did not look sharp home, I remained under
                  the wall and perused Miss Cathy's affectionate composition. It was more simple and
                  more eloquent than her cousin's -- very pretty and very silly. I shook my head,
                  and went meditating into the house. The day being wet, she could not divert
                  herself with rambling about the park, so, at the conclusion of her morning
                  studies, she resorted to the solace of the drawer. Her father sat reading at the
                  table, and I, on purpose, had sought a bit of work in some unripped fringes of the
                  window curtain, keeping my eye steadily fixed on her proceedings. <pb n="II.162" facs="pageImages/II.170.png"/>Never did any bird flying back to a plundered nest which it
                  had left brimful of chirping young ones express more complete despair in its
                  anguished cries and flutterings than she by her single "Oh!" and the change that
                  transfigured her late happy countenance. Mr. Linton looked up. </p>
               <p>"What is the matter, love? Have you hurt yourself?" he said. </p>
               <p>His tone and look assured her he had not been the discoverer of the hoard. </p>
               <p>"No, papa," she gasped -- "Ellen! Ellen! come upstairs! I'm sick!" </p>
               <p>I obeyed her summons, and accompanied her out. </p>
               <p>"O Ellen, you have got them!" she commenced immediately, dropping on her knees,
                  when we were enclosed alone. "Oh, give them to me, and I'll never, never do so
                  again! Don't tell papa. You have not told papa, Ellen? Say you have not. I've been
                  exceedingly naughty, but I won't do it any more!" </p>
               <pb n="II.163" facs="pageImages/II.171.png"/>
               <p>With a grave severity in my manner I bade her stand up. </p>
               <p>"So," I exclaimed, "Miss Catherine, you are tolerably far on, it seems; you may
                  well be ashamed of them. A fine bundle of trash you study in your leisure hours,
                  to be sure. Why, it's good enough to be printed. And what do you suppose the
                  master will think when I display it before him? I haven't shown it yet, but you
                  needn't imagine I shall keep your ridiculous secrets. For shame! And you must have
                  led the way in writing such absurdities. He would not have thought of beginning,
                  I'm certain." </p>
               <p>"I didn't! I didn't!" sobbed Cathy, fit to break her heart. "I didn't once think
                  of loving him till -- " </p>
               <p>"Loving!" cried I, as scornfully as I could utter the word. "Loving! Did anybody
                  ever hear the like? I might just as well talk of loving the miller who comes once
                  a year to buy our corn. Pretty loving, indeed! And both <pb n="II.164" facs="pageImages/II.172.png"/>times together you have seen Linton hardly four hours in
                  your life! Now here is the babyish trash. I'm going with it to the library, and
                  we'll see what your father says to such loving." </p>
               <p>She sprang at her precious epistles, but I held them above my head; and then she
                  poured out further frantic entreaties that I would burn them -- do anything rather
                  than show them. And being really fully as much inclined to laugh as scold -- for I
                  esteemed it all girlish vanity -- I at length relented in a measure, and asked, -- </p>
               <p>"If I consent to burn them, will you promise faithfully neither to send nor
                  receive a letter again, nor a book (for I perceive you have sent him books), nor
                  locks of hair, nor rings, nor playthings?" </p>
               <p>"We don't send playthings!" cried Catherine, her pride overcoming her shame. </p>
               <p>"Nor anything at all then, my lady," I said. "Unless you will, here I go." </p>
               <pb n="II.165" facs="pageImages/II.173.png"/>
               <p>"I promise, Ellen!" she cried, catching my dress.</p>
               <p>"Oh, put them in the fire! -- do, do!" But when I proceeded to open a place with
                  the poker the sacrifice was too painful to be borne. She earnestly supplicated
                  that I would spare her one or two. </p>
               <p>"One or two, Ellen, to keep for Linton's sake!" I unknotted the handkerchief, and
                  commenced dropping them in from an angle, and the flame curled up the chimney. </p>
               <p>"I will have one, you cruel wretch," she screamed, darting her <pb n="228"/>hand
                  into the fire and drawing forth some half-consumed fragments, at the expense of
                  her fingers. </p>
               <p>"Very well; and I will have some to exhibit to papa!" I answered, shaking back the
                  rest into the bundle, and turning anew to the door. </p>
               <p>She emptied her blackened pieces into the flames, and motioned me to finish the
                  immolation. It was done. I stirred up the ashes, and <pb n="II.166" facs="pageImages/II.174.png"/>interred them under a shovelful of coals; and she mutely,
                  and with a sense of intense injury, retired to her private apartment. I descended
                  to tell my master that the young lady's qualm of sickness was almost gone, but I
                  judged it best for her to lie down a while. She wouldn't dine; but she reappeared
                  at tea, pale and red about the eyes, and marvellously subdued in outward aspect.
                  Next morning I answered the letter by a slip of paper inscribed, "Master
                  Heathcliff is requested to send no more notes to Miss Linton, as she will not
                  receive them." And thenceforth the little boy came with vacant pockets. </p>
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               <head>Chapter VIII</head>
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               <p>Summer drew to an end, and early Autumn -- it was past Michaelmas, but the harvest
                  was late that year, and a few of our fields were still uncleared.</p>
               <p>Mr. Linton and his daughter would frequently walk out among the reapers: at the
                  carrying of the last sheaves, they stayed till dusk, and the evening happening to
                  be chill and damp, my master caught a bad cold that, settling obstinately on his
                  lungs, confined him <pb n="II.168" facs="pageImages/II.176.png"/>indoors throughout the whole
                  of the winter, nearly without intermission.</p>
               <p>Poor Cathy, frightened from her little romance, had been considerably sadder and
                  duller since its abandonment: and her father insisted on her reading less, and
                  taking more exercise. She had his companionship no longer; I esteemed it a duty to
                  supply its lack, as much as possible, with mine; an inefficient substitute, for I
                  could only spare two or three hours, from my numerous diurnal occupations, to
                  follow her footsteps, and then, my society was obviously less desirable than
                  his.</p>
               <p>On an afternoon in October, or the beginning of November, a fresh watery
                  afternoon, when the turf and paths were rustling with moist, withered leaves, and
                  the cold, blue sky was half hidden by clouds -- dark grey streamers, rapidly
                  mounting from the west, and boding abundant rain -- I requested my young lady to
                  forego her ramble because I was certain of showers. She refused; and I unwill<pb n="II.169" facs="pageImages/II.177.png"/>ingly donned a cloak, and took my umbrella to
                  accompany her on a stroll to the bottom of the park; a formal walk which she
                  generally affected if low-spirited -- and that she invariably was when Mr. Edgar
                  had been worse than ordinary; a thing never known from his confession, but guessed
                  both by her and me from his increased silence, and the melancholy of his
                  countenance.</p>
               <p>She went sadly on; there was no running or bounding now, though the chill wind
                  might well have tempted her to race. And often, from the side of my eye, I could
                  detect her raising a hand and brushing something off her cheeks. I gazed round for
                  a means of diverting her thoughts. On one side of the road rose a high, rough
                  bank, where hazels and stunted oaks, with their roots half exposed, held uncertain
                  tenure. The soil was too loose for the latter, and strong winds had blown some
                  nearly horizontal. In summer Miss Catherine <pb n="II.170" facs="pageImages/II.178.png"/>delighted to climb along these trunks, and sit in the branches, swinging twenty
                  feet above the ground; and I, pleased with her agility and her light, childish
                  heart, still considered it proper to scold every time I caught her at such an
                  elevation, but so that she knew there was no necessity for descending. From dinner
                  to tea she would lie in her breeze-rocked cradle, doing nothing except singing old
                  songs -- my nursery lore -- to herself, or watching the birds, joint tenants, feed
                  and entice their young ones to fly; or nestling with closed lids, half thinking,
                  half dreaming, happier than words can express. </p>
               <p>"Look, miss!" I exclaimed, pointing to a nook under the roots of one twisted tree;
                  "winter is not here yet. There's a little flower up yonder -- the last bud from
                  the multitude of bluebells that clouded those turf steps in July with a lilac
                  mist. Will you clamber up and pluck it to show to papa?" </p>
               <p>Cathy stared a long time at the lonely blos<pb n="II.171" facs="pageImages/II.179.png"/>som
                  trembling in its earthy shelter, and replied at length, -- </p>
               <p>"No, I'll not touch it. But it looks melancholy, does it not, Ellen?" </p>
               <p>"Yes," I observed -- "about as starved and sackless as you. Your cheeks are
                  bloodless. Let us take hold of hands and run. You're so low I dare say I shall
                  keep up with you." </p>
               <p>"No," she repeated, and continued sauntering on, pausing at intervals to muse over
                  a bit of moss, or a tuft of blanched grass, or a fungus spreading its bright
                  orange among the heaps of brown foliage; and ever and anon her hand was lifted to
                  her averted face. </p>
               <p>"Catherine, why are you crying, love?" I asked, approaching and putting my arm
                  over her shoulder. "You mustn't cry because papa has a cold. Be thankful it is
                  nothing worse." </p>
               <p>She now put no further restraint on her tears; her breath was stifled by sobs. </p>
               <p>"Oh, it will be something worse!" she said. <pb n="II.172" facs="pageImages/II.180.png"/>"And
                  what shall I do when papa and you leave me, and I am by myself? I can't forget
                  your words, Ellen; they are always in my ear. How life will be changed, how dreary
                  the world will be, when papa and you are dead!" </p>
               <p>"None can tell whether you won't die before us," I replied. "It's wrong to
                  anticipate evil. We'll hope there are years and years to come before any of us go.
                  Master is young, and I am strong and hardly forty-five. My mother lived till
                  eighty, a canty dame to the last. And suppose Mr. Linton were spared till he saw
                  sixty, that would be more years than you have counted, miss. And would it not be
                  foolish to mourn a calamity above twenty years beforehand?" </p>
               <p>"But Aunt Isabella was younger than papa," she remarked, gazing up with timid hope
                  to seek further consolation. </p>
               <p>"Aunt Isabella had not you and me to nurse her," I replied. "She wasn't as happy
                  as master; she hadn't as much to live <pb n="II.173" facs="pageImages/II.181.png"/>for. All
                  you need do is to wait well on your father, and cheer him by letting him see you
                  cheerful, and avoid giving him anxiety on any subject. Mind that, Cathy. I'll not
                  disguise but you might kill him if you were wild and reckless, and cherished a
                  foolish, fanciful affection for the son of a person who would be glad to have him
                  in his grave, and allowed him to discover that you fretted over the separation he
                  has judged it expedient to make." </p>
               <p>"I fret about nothing on earth except papa's illness," answered my companion. "I
                  care for nothing in comparison with papa. And I'll never -- never -- oh, never,
                  while I have my senses, do an act or say a word to vex him. I love him better than
                  myself, Ellen, and I know it by this: I pray every night that I may live after
                  him, because I would rather be miserable than that he should be. That proves I
                  love him better than myself." </p>
               <p>"Good words," I replied. "But deeds must prove it also. And after he is well,
                     remem<pb n="II.174" facs="pageImages/II.182.png"/>ber you don't forget resolutions formed
                  in the hour of fear." </p>

               <p>As we talked, we neared a door that opened on the road; and my young lady,
                  lightening into sunshine again, climbed up and seated herself on the top of the
                  wall, reaching over to gather some hips that bloomed scarlet on the summit
                  branches of the wild rose trees shadowing the highway side. The lower fruit had
                  disappeared, but only birds could touch the upper, except from Cathy's present
                  station. In stretching to pull them, her hat fell off, and as the door was locked
                  she proposed scrambling down to recover it. I bade her be cautious lest she got a
                  fall, and she nimbly disappeared. But the return was no such easy matter. The
                  stones were smooth and neatly cemented, and the rose bushes and blackberry
                  stragglers could yield no assistance in reascending. I, like a fool, didn't
                  recollect that till I heard her laughing and exclaiming, -- </p>
               <pb n="II.175" facs="pageImages/II.183.png"/>
               <p>"Ellen, you'll have to fetch the key, or else I must run round to the porter's
                  lodge. I can't scale the ramparts on this side."</p>
               <p>"Stay where you are," I answered. "I have my bundle of keys in my pocket. Perhaps
                  I may manage to open it; if not, I'll go." Catherine amused herself with dancing
                  to and fro before the door, while I tried all the large keys in succession. I had
                  applied the last, and found that none would do. So, repeating my desire that she
                  would remain there, I was about to hurry home as fast as I could, when an
                  approaching sound arrested me. It was the trot of a horse. Cathy's dance stopped
                  also. </p>
               <p>"Who is that?" I whispered. </p>
               <p>"Ellen, I wish you could open the door," whispered back my companion anxiously. </p>
               <p>"Ho, Miss Linton!" cried a deep voice (the rider's); </p>
               <p>"I'm glad to meet you. Don't be in haste to enter, for I have an explanation to
                  ask and obtain." </p>
               <pb n="II.176" facs="pageImages/II.184.png"/>
               <p>"I shan't speak to you, Mr. Heathcliff," answered Catherine. "Papa says you are a
                  wicked man, and you hate both him and me; and Ellen says the same." </p>
               <p>"That is nothing to the purpose," said Heathcliff. (He it was.) "I don't hate my
                  son, I suppose, and it is concerning him that I demand your attention. Yes, you
                  have cause to blush. Two or three months since were you not in the habit of
                  writing to Linton -- making love in play, eh? You deserved, both of you, flogging
                  for that -- you especially, the elder, and less sensitive, as it turns out. I've
                  got your letters, and if you give me any pertness I'll send them to your father. I
                  presume you grew weary of the amusement and dropped it, didn't you? Well, you
                  dropped Linton with it into a Slough of Despond. He was in earnest -- in love,
                  really. As true as I live, he's dying for you, breaking his heart at your
                  fickleness -- not figuratively, but actually. Though Hareton has made him a
                  standing jest <pb n="II.177" facs="pageImages/II.185.png"/>for six weeks, and I have used
                  more serious measures, and attempted to frighten him out of his idiocy, he gets
                  worse daily; and he'll be under the sod before summer unless you restore him!" </p>
               <p>"How can you lie so glaringly to the poor child?" I called from the inside. "Pray
                  ride on! How can you deliberately get up such paltry falsehoods? -- Miss Cathy,
                  I'll knock the lock off with a stone. You won't believe that vile nonsense. You
                  can feel in yourself it is impossible that a person should die for love of a
                  stranger." </p>
               <p>"I was not aware there were eavesdroppers," mut-tered the detected villain.
                  "Worthy Mrs. Dean, I like you, but I don't like your double-dealing," he added
                  aloud. "How could you lie so glaringly as to affirm I hated the 'poor child,' and
                  invent bugbear stories to terrify her from my door-stones? Catherine Linton (the
                  very name warms me), my bonny lass, I shall be from home all this week; go and <pb n="II.178" facs="pageImages/II.186.png"/>see if I have not spoken truth; do -- there's a
                  darling! Just imagine your father in my place, and Linton in yours; then think how
                  you would value your careless lover if he refused to stir a step to comfort you
                  when your father himself entreated him; and don't, from pure stupidity, fall into
                  the same error. I swear, on my salvation, he's going to his grave, and none but
                  you can save him!" </p>
               <p>The lock gave way, and I issued out. </p>
               <p>"I swear Linton is dying," repeated Heathcliff, looking hard at me. "And grief and
                  disappointment are hastening his death. Nelly, if you won't let her go, you can
                  walk over yourself. But I shall not return till this time next week; and I think
                  your master himself would scarcely object to her visiting her cousin." </p>
               <p>"Come in," said I, taking Cathy by the arm and half forcing her to re-enter; for
                  she lingered, viewing with troubled eyes the features of the speaker, too stern to
                  express his inward deceit. </p>
               <pb n="II.179" facs="pageImages/II.187.png"/>
               <p>He pushed his horse close, and bending down, observed, -- </p>
               <p>"Miss Catherine, I'll own to you that I have little patience with Linton; and
                  Hareton and Joseph have less. I'll own that he's with a harsh set. He pines for
                  kindness as well as love, and a kind word from you would be his best medicine.
                  Don't mind Mrs. Dean's cruel cautions, but be generous, and contrive to see him.
                  He dreams of you day and night, and cannot be persuaded that you don't hate him,
                  since you neither write nor call." </p>
               <p>I closed the door and rolled a stone to assist the loosened lock in holding it,
                  and spreading my umbrella, I drew my charge underneath, for the rain began to
                  drive through the moaning branches of the trees, and warned us to avoid delay. Our
                  hurry prevented any comment on the encounter with Heathcliff as we stretched
                  towards home, but I divined instinctively that Catherine's heart was clouded now
                  in double <pb n="II.180" facs="pageImages/II.188.png"/>darkness. Her features were so sad
                  they did not seem hers. She evidently regarded what she had heard as every
                  syllable true. </p>
               <p>The master had retired to rest before we came in. Cathy stole to his room to
                  inquire how he was; he had fallen asleep. She returned, and asked me to sit with
                  her in the library. We took our tea together, and afterwards she lay down on the
                  rug, and told me not to talk, for she was weary. I got a book, and pretended to
                  read. As soon as she supposed me absorbed in my occupation she recommenced her
                  silent weeping; it appeared, at present, her favourite diversion. I suffered her
                  to enjoy it a while, then I expostulated, deriding and ridiculing all Mr.
                  Heathcliff's assertions about his son, as if I were certain she would coincide.
                  Alas! I hadn't skill to counteract the effect his account had produced; it was
                  just what he intended. </p>
               <p>"You may be right, Ellen," she answered, "but I shall never feel at ease till I
                  know. <pb n="II.181" facs="pageImages/II.189.png"/>And I must tell Linton it is not my fault
                  that I don't write, and convince him that I shall not change." </p>
               <p>What use were anger and protestations against her silly credulity? We parted that
                  night hostile, but next day beheld me on the road to Wuthering Heights by the side
                  of my wilful young mistress's pony. I couldn't bear to witness her sorrow, to see
                  her pale dejected countenance and heavy eyes; and I yielded, in the faint hope
                  that Linton himself might prove, by his reception of us, how little of the tale
                  was founded on fact. </p>
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            <pb n="II.182" facs="pageImages/II.190.png"/>
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               <head>Chapter IX</head>
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               <p>The rainy night had ushered in a misty morning -- half frost, half drizzle -- and
                  temporary brooks crossed our path, gurgling from the uplands. My feet were
                  thoroughly wetted; I was cross and low, exactly the humour suited for making the
                  most of these disagreeable things. </p>
               <p>We entered the farm-house by the kitchen way to ascertain whether Mr. Heathcliff
                  were really absent; because I put slight faith in his own affirmation. </p>
               <pb n="II.183" facs="pageImages/II.191.png"/>
               <p>Joseph seemed sitting in a sort of elysium alone, beside a roaring fire; a quart
                  of ale on the table near him, bristling with large pieces of toasted oat cake; and
                  his black, short pipe in his mouth. </p>
               <p>Catherine ran to the hearth to warm herself. I asked if the master were in? </p>
               <p>My question remained so long unanswered, that I thought the old man had grown
                  deaf, and repeated it louder. </p>
               <p>"Na -- ay!" he snarled, or rather screamed through his nose. "Na -- ay! yah muh
                  goa back whear yah coom frough." </p>
               <p>"Joseph," cried a peevish voice, simultaneously with me, from the inner room. "How
                  often am I to call you ? There are only a few red ashes now. Joseph! come this
                  moment." </p>
               <p>Vigorous puffs, and a resolute stare into the grate, declared he had no ear for
                  this appeal. The housekeeper and Hareton were invisible; one gone on an errand,
                  and the other at his <pb n="II.184" facs="pageImages/II.192.png"/>work, probably. We knew
                  Linton's tones and entered. </p>
               <p>"Oh, I hope you'll die in a garret ! starved to death," said the boy, mistaking
                  our approach for that of his negligent attendant. </p>
               <p>He stopped, on observing his error; his cousin flew to him. </p>
               <p>"Is that you, Miss Linton ?" he said, raising his head from the arm of the great
                  chair in which he reclined. </p>
               <p>"No, don't kiss me; it takes my breath. Dear me! Papa said you would call,"
                  continued he, after recovering a little from Catherine's embrace, while she stood
                  by looking very contrite. "Will you shut the door, if you please? You left it
                  open; and those -- those detestable creatures won't bring coals to the fire. It's
                  so cold!" </p>
               <p>I stirred up the cinders, and fetched a scuttleful myself. The invalid complained
                  of being covered with ashes; but he had a tiresome cough, and looked feverish and
                  ill, so I did not rebuke his temper. </p>
               <pb n="II.185" facs="pageImages/II.193.png"/>
               <p>"Well, Linton," murmured Catherine, when his corrugated brow relaxed, "are you
                  glad to see me? Can I do you any good?" </p>
               <p>"Why didn't you come before?" he asked. "You should have come, instead of writing.
                  It tired me dreadfully writing those long letters. I'd far rather have talked to
                  you. Now, I can neither bear to talk nor anything else. I wonder where Zillah is!
                  Will you" -- looking at me -- "step into the kitchen and see?" </p>
               <p>I had received no thanks for my other service, and being unwilling to run to and
                  fro at his behest, I replied, -- </p>
               <p>"Nobody is out there but Joseph." </p>
               <p>"I want to drink," he exclaimed fretfully, turning away. "Zillah is constantly
                  gadding off to Gimmerton since papa went; it's miserable! And I'm obliged to come
                  down here; they resolved never to hear me up-stairs." </p>
               <p>"Is your father attentive to you, Master <pb n="II.186" facs="pageImages/II.194.png"/>Heathcliff?" I asked, perceiving Catherine to be checked in her friendly
                  advances. </p>
               <p>"Attentive? He makes them a little more attentive at least," he cried. "The
                  wretches! Do you know, Miss Linton, that brute Hareton laughs at me! I hate him!
                  Indeed, I hate them all! They are odious beings." </p>
               <p>Cathy began searching for some water; she lighted on a pitcher in the dresser,
                  filled a tumbler, and brought it. He bade her add a spoonful of wine from a bottle
                  on the table; and having swallowed a small portion, appeared more tranquil, and
                  said she was very kind. </p>
               <p>"And are you glad to see me?" asked she, reiterating her former question, and
                  pleased to detect the faint dawn of a smile. </p>
               <p>"Yes, I am. It's something new to hear a voice like yours!" he replied. "But I
                  have been vexed because you wouldn't come. And papa swore it was owing to me. He
                  called me a pitiful, shuffling, worthless thing, and said you <pb n="II.187" facs="pageImages/II.195.png"/>despised me, and if he had been in my place he would be more
                  the master of the Grange than your father by this time. But you don't despise me,
                  do you, Miss --" </p>
               <p>"I wish you would say Catherine, or Cathy," interrupted my young lady. "Despise
                  you? No! Next to papa and Ellen, I love you better than anybody living. I don't
                  love Mr. Heathcliff, though, and I dare not come when he returns. Will he stay
                  away many days?" </p>
               <p>"Not many," answered Linton; "but he goes on to the moors frequently since the
                  shooting season commenced, and you might spend an hour or two with me in his
                  absence. Do say you will. I think I should not be peevish with you. You'd not
                  provoke me, and you'd always be ready to help me, wouldn't you?" </p>
               <p>"Yes," said Catherine, stroking his long soft hair. "If I could only get papa's
                  consent I'd <pb n="II.188" facs="pageImages/II.196.png"/>spend half my time with you. Pretty
                  Linton! I wish you were my brother." </p>
               <p>"And then you would like me as well as your father?" observed he more cheerfully.
                  "But papa says you would love me better than him and all the world if you were my
                  wife; so I'd rather you were that." </p>
               <p>"No, I should never love anybody better than papa," she returned gravely. "And
                  people hate their wives sometimes, but not their sisters and brothers; and if you
                  were the latter you would live with us, and papa would be as fond of you as he is
                  of me." </p>
               <p>Linton denied that people ever hated their wives, but Cathy affirmed they did, and
                  in her wisdom instanced his own father's aversion to her aunt. I endeavoured to
                  stop her thoughtless tongue. I couldn't succeed till everything she knew was out.
                  Master Heathcliff, much irritated, asserted her relation was false. </p>
               <pb n="II.189" facs="pageImages/II.197.png"/>
               <p>"Papa told me, and papa does not tell falsehoods," she answered pertly. </p>
               <p>"My papa scorns yours!" cried Linton. "He calls him a sneaking fool." </p>
               <p>"Yours is a wicked man," retorted Catherine, "and you are very naughty to dare to
                  repeat what he says. He must be wicked to have made Aunt Isabella leave him as she
                  did." </p>
               <p>"She didn't leave him," said the boy. "You shan't contradict me." </p>
               <p>"She did," cried my young lady. </p>
               <p>"Well, I'll tell you something," said Linton. "Your mother hated your father. Now
                  then." </p>
               <p>"Oh!" exclaimed Catherine, too enraged to continue. </p>
               <p>"And she loved mine," added he. </p>
               <p>"You little liar! I hate you now!" she panted, and her face grew red with passion. </p>
               <p>"She did! she did!" sang Linton, sinking into the recess of his chair, and leaning
                  back <pb n="II.190" facs="pageImages/II.198.png"/>his head to enjoy the agitation of the
                  other disputant, who stood behind. </p>
               <p>"Hush, Master Heathcliff!" I said. "That's your father's tale too, I suppose." </p>
               <p>"It isn't. You hold your tongue!" he answered. -- </p>
               <p>"She did! she did, Catherine! She did! she did!" Cathy, beside herself, gave the
                  chair a violent push, and caused him to fall against one arm. He was immediately
                  seized by a suffocating cough that soon ended his triumph. It lasted so long that
                  it frightened even me. As to his cousin, she wept with all her might, aghast at
                  the mischief she had done, though she said nothing. I held him till the fit
                  exhausted itself. Then he thrust me away, and leant his head down silently.
                  Catherine quelled her lamentations also, took a seat opposite, and looked solemnly
                  into the fire. </p>
               <p>"How do you feel now, Master Heathcliff?" I inquired, after waiting ten
                  minutes.</p>
               <pb n="II.191" facs="pageImages/II.199.png"/>
               <p>"I wish she felt as I do," he replied -- "spiteful, cruel thing! Hareton never
                  touches me; he never struck me in his life. And <pb n="240"/>I was better to-day;
                  and there -- " His voice died in a whimper. </p>
               <p>"I didn't strike you!" muttered Cathy, chewing her lip to prevent another burst of
                  emotion. </p>
               <p>He sighed and moaned like one under great suffering, and kept it up for a quarter
                  of an hour, on purpose to distress his cousin, apparently, for whenever he caught
                  a stifled sob from her he put renewed pain and pathos into the inflections of his
                  voice. </p>
               <p>"I'm sorry I hurt you, Linton," she said at length, racked beyond endurance. "But
                  I couldn't have been hurt by that little push, and I had no idea that you could
                  either. You're not much, are you, Linton? Don't let me go home thinking I've done
                  you harm. Answer! Speak to me!" </p>
               <pb n="II.192" facs="pageImages/II.200.png"/>
               <p>"I can't speak to you," he murmured. "You've hurt me so that I shall lie awake all
                  night choking with this cough. If you had it you'd know what it was; but you'll be
                  comfortably asleep while I'm in agony, and nobody near me. I wonder how you would
                  like to pass those fearful nights." And he began to wail aloud, for very pity of
                  himself. </p>
               <p>"Since you are in the habit of passing dreadful nights," I said, "it won't be miss
                  who spoils your ease; you'd be the same had she never come. However, she shall not
                  disturb you again; and perhaps you'll get quieter when we leave you." </p>
               <p>"Must I go?" asked Catherine dolefully, bending over him. "Do you want me to go,
                  Linton?" </p>
               <p>"You can't alter what you've done," he replied pettishly, shrinking from her,
                  "unless you alter it for the worse by teasing me into a fever." </p>
               <pb n="II.193" facs="pageImages/II.201.png"/>
               <p>"Well, then, I must go?" she repeated. </p>
               <p>"Let me alone, at least," said he. "I can't bear your talking." </p>
               <p>She lingered, and resisted my persuasions to departure a tiresome while; but as he
                  neither looked up nor spoke, she finally made a movement to the door, and I
                  followed. We were recalled by a scream. Linton had slid from his seat on to the
                  hearth-stone, and lay writhing in the mere perverseness of an indulged plague of a
                  child, determined to be as grievous and harassing as it can. </p>
               <p>I thoroughly gauged his disposition from his behaviour, and saw at once it would
                  be folly to attempt humouring him. Not so my companion. She ran back in terror,
                  knelt down, and cried, and soothed, and entreated, till he grew quiet from lack of
                  breath, by no means from compunction at distressing her. </p>
               <p>"I shall lift him on to the settle," I said, "and he may roll about as he pleases.
                  We can't stop to watch him. I hope you are satis<pb n="II.194" facs="pageImages/II.202.png"/>fied, Miss Cathy, that you are not the person to benefit him, and that his
                  condition of health is not occasioned by attachment to you. Now, then, there he
                  is! Come away. As soon as he knows there is nobody by to care for his nonsense,
                  he'll be glad to lie still." </p>
               <p>She placed a cushion under his head, and offered him some water. He rejected the
                  latter, and tossed uneasily on the former, as if it were a stone or a block of
                  wood. She tried to put it more comfortably. </p>
               <p>"I can't do with that," he said; "it's not high enough." </p>
               <p>Catherine brought another to lay above it. </p>
               <p>"That's too high," murmured the provoking thing. </p>
               <p>"How must I arrange it, then?" she asked despairingly. </p>
               <p>He twined himself up to her, as she half knelt by the settle, and converted her
                  shoulder into a support. </p>
               <p>"No, that won't do," I said. "You'll be <pb n="II.195" facs="pageImages/II.203.png"/>content
                  with the cushion, Master Heathcliff. Miss has wasted too much time on you already;
                  we cannot remain five minutes longer." </p>
               <p>"Yes, yes; we can!" replied Cathy. "He's good and patient now. He's beginning to
                  think I shall have far greater misery than he will to-night if I believe he is the
                  worse for my visit, and then I dare not come again. -- Tell the truth about it,
                  Linton; for I mustn't come if I have hurt you." </p>
               <p>"You must come, to cure me," he answered. "You ought to come, because you have
                  hurt me; you know you have extremely. I was not as ill when you entered as I am at
                  present -- was I?" </p>
               <p>"But you've made yourself ill by crying and being in a passion." </p>
               <p>"I didn't do it all," said his cousin. "However, we'll be friends now. And you
                  want me -- you would wish to see me sometimes, really?" </p>
               <p>"I told you I did," he replied impatiently. <pb n="II.196" facs="pageImages/II.204.png"/>"Sit
                  on the settle and let me lean on your knee. That's as mamma used to do, whole
                  afternoons together. Sit quite still and don't talk; but you may sing a song, if
                  you can sing, or you may say a nice long interesting ballad -- one of those you
                  promised to teach me -- or a story. I'd rather have a ballad, though. Begin." </p>
               <p>Catherine repeated the longest she could remember. The employment pleased both
                  mightily. Linton would have another, and after that another, notwithstanding my
                  strenuous objections; and so they went on until the clock struck twelve, and we
                  heard Hareton in the court, returning for his dinner. </p>
               <p>"And to-morrow, Catherine -- will you be here tomorrow?" asked young Heathcliff,
                  holding her frock as she rose reluctantly. </p>
               <p>"No," I answered, "nor next day neither." She, however, gave a different response
                  evidently, for his forehead cleared as she stooped and whispered in his ear. </p>
               <pb n="II.197" facs="pageImages/II.205.png"/>
               <p>"You won't go to-morrow, recollect, miss," I commenced, when we were out of the
                  house. "You are not dreaming of it, are you?" </p>
               <p>She smiled. </p>
               <p>"Oh, I'll take good care," I continued. "I'll have that lock mended, and you can
                  escape by no way else." </p>
               <p>"I can get over the wall," she said, laughing. "The Grange is not a prison, Ellen,
                  and you are not my gaoler. And besides, I'm almost seventeen; I'm a woman. And I'm
                  certain Linton would recover quickly if he had me to look after him. I'm older
                  than he is, you know, and wiser -- less childish, am I not? And he'll soon do as I
                  direct him, with some slight coaxing. He's a pretty little darling when he's good.
                  I'd make such a pet of him if he were mine. We should never quarrel, should we,
                  after we were used to each other? Don't you like him, Ellen?" </p>
               <p>"Like him!" I exclaimed. "The worst<pb n="II.198" facs="pageImages/II.206.png"/>-tempered bit
                  of a sickly slip that ever struggled into its teens. Happily, as Mr. Heathcliff
                  conjectured, he'll not win twenty. I doubt whether he'll see spring, indeed. And
                  small loss to his family whenever he drops off. And lucky it is for us that his
                  father took him: the kinder he was treated, the more tedious and selfish he'd be.
                  I'm glad you have no chance of having him for a husband, Miss Catherine." </p>
               <p>My companion waxed serious at hearing this speech. To speak of his death so
                  regardlessly wounded her feelings. </p>
               <p>"He's younger than I," she answered, after a protracted pause of meditation, "and
                  he ought to live the longest. He will -- he must live as long as I do. He's as
                  strong now as when he first came into the north; I'm positive of that. It's only a
                  cold that ails him -- the same as papa has. You say papa will get better, and why
                  shouldn't he?" </p>
               <pb n="II.199" facs="pageImages/II.207.png"/>
               <p>"Well, well," I cried, "after all we needn't trouble ourselves; for listen, miss
                  -- and mind I'll keep my word; if you attempt going to Wuthering Heights again,
                  with or without me, I shall inform Mr. Linton; and unless he allow it, the
                  intimacy with your cousin must not be revived." </p>
               <p>"It has been revived," muttered Cathy sulkily. </p>
               <p>"Must not be continued, then," I said. </p>
               <p>"We'll see," was her reply; and she set off at a gallop, leaving me to toil in the
                  rear. </p>
               <p>We both reached home before our dinner-time; my master supposed we had been
                  wandering through the park, and therefore he demanded no explanation of our
                  absence. As soon as I entered I hastened to change my soaked shoes and stockings,
                  but sitting such a while at the Heights had done the mischief. On the succeeding
                  morning I was laid up, and during three weeks I remained incapacitated for
                  attending to my duties -- a calamity <pb n="II.200" facs="pageImages/II.208.png"/>never
                  experienced prior to that period, and never, I am thankful to say, since. </p>
               <p>My little mistress behaved like an angel in coming to wait on me and cheer my
                  solitude. The confinement brought me exceedingly low -- it is wearisome to a
                  stirring, active body; but few have slighter reasons for complaint than I had. The
                  moment Catherine left Mr. Linton's room she appeared at my bedside. Her day was
                  divided between us; no amusement usurped a minute. She <pb n="244"/>neglected her
                  meals, her studies, and her play, and she was the fondest nurse that ever watched.
                  She must have had a warm heart, when she loved her father so, to give so much to
                  me. </p>
               <p>I said her days were divided between us; but the master retired early, and I
                  generally needed nothing after six o'clock; thus the evening was her own. </p>
               <p>Poor thing! I never considered what she did with herself after tea. And though
                  frequently, when she looked in to bid me good-<pb n="II.201" facs="pageImages/II.209.png"/>night, I remarked a fresh colour in her cheeks and a pinkness over her slender
                  fingers, instead of fancying the hue borrowed from a cold ride across the moors, I
                  laid it to the charge of a hot fire in the library. </p>
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               <head>Chapter X</head>
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               <p>At the close of three weeks, I was able to quit my chamber, and move about the
                  house. And on the first occasion of my sitting up in the evening, I asked
                  Catherine to read to me, because my eyes were weak. We were in the library, the
                  master having gone to bed: she consented, rather unwillingly, I fancied; and
                  imagining my sort of books did not suit her, I bid her please herself in the
                  choice of what she perused.</p>
               <p>She selected one of her own favourites, and <pb n="II.203" facs="pageImages/II.211.png"/>got
                  forward steadily about an hour; then came frequent questions.</p>
               <p>"Ellen, are not you tired ? Hadn't you better lie down now ? You'll be sick,
                  keeping up so long, Ellen."</p>
               <p>"No, no, dear, I'm not tired," I returned, continually. Perceiving me immovable,
                  she essayed another method of showing her dis-relish for her occupation. It
                  changed to yawning, and stretching, and -- </p>
               <p>"Ellen, I'm tired."</p>
               <p>"Give over then and talk," I answered.</p>
               <p>That was worse; she fretted and sighed, and looked at her watch till eight; and
                  finally went to her room, completely over-done with sleep, judging by her peevish,
                  heavy look, and the constant rubbing she inflicted on her eyes.</p>
               <p>The following night she seemed more impatient still; and on the third from
                  recovering my company, she complained of a head-ache, and left me.</p>
               <pb n="II.204" facs="pageImages/II.212.png"/>
               <p>I thought her conduct odd; and having remained alone a long while, I resolved on
                  going and inquiring whether she were better, and asking her to come and lie on the
                  sofa, instead of upstairs, in the dark.</p>
               <p>No Catherine could I discover upstairs, and none below. The servants affirmed they
                  had not seen her. I listened at Mr. Edgar's <pb n="246"/> door; all was silence. I
                  returned to her apartment, extinguished my candle, and seated myself in the
                  window. </p>
               <p>The moon shone bright; a sprinkling of snow covered the ground, and I reflected
                  that she might possibly have taken it into her head to walk about the garden for
                  refreshment. I did detect a figure creeping along the inner fence of the park, but
                  it was not my young mistress. On its merging into the light I recognized one of
                  the grooms. He stood a considerable period, viewing the carriage-road through the
                  grounds, then started off at a brisk pace, as if he had detected some<pb n="II.205" facs="pageImages/II.213.png"/>thing, and reappeared presently leading miss's
                  pony; and there she was, just dismounted, and walking by its side. The man took
                  his charge stealthily across the grass towards the stable. Cathy entered by the
                  casement window of the drawing-room, and glided noiselessly up to where I awaited
                  her. She put the door gently to, slipped off her snowy shoes, untied her hat, and
                  was proceeding, unconscious of my espionage, to lay aside her mantle, when I
                  suddenly rose and revealed myself. The surprise petrified her an instant; she
                  uttered an inarticulate exclamation, and stood fixed. </p>
               <p>"My dear Miss Catherine," I began, too vividly impressed by her recent kindness to
                  break into a scold, "where have you been riding out at this hour? And why should
                  you try to deceive me by telling a tale? Where have you been? Speak!" </p>
               <pb n="II.206" facs="pageImages/II.214.png"/>
               <p>"To the bottom of the park," she stammered. "I didn't tell a tale." </p>
               <p>"And nowhere else?" I demanded. </p>
               <p>"No," was the muttered reply. </p>
               <p>"O Catherine!" I cried sorrowfully. "You know you have been doing wrong, or you
                  wouldn't be driven to uttering an untruth to me. That does grieve me. I'd rather
                  be three months ill than hear you frame a deliberate lie." </p>
               <p>She sprang forward, and bursting into tears, threw her arms round my neck. </p>
               <p>"Well, Ellen, I'm so afraid of you being angry," she said. "Promise not to be
                  angry, and you shall know the very truth. I hate to hide it." </p>
               <p>We sat down in the window-seat. I assured her I would not scold, whatever her
                  secret might be, and I guessed it, of course; so she commenced, -- </p>
               <p>"I've been to Wuthering Heights, Ellen, <pb n="II.207" facs="pageImages/II.215.png"/>and I've
                  never missed going a day since you fell ill, except thrice before and twice after
                  you left your room. I gave Michael books and pictures to prepare Minny every
                  evening, and to put her back in the stable. You mustn't scold him either, mind. I
                  was at the Heights by half-past six, and generally stayed till half-past eight,
                  and then galloped home. It was not to amuse myself that I went; I was often
                  wretched all the time. Now and then I was happy -- once in a week perhaps. At
                  first I expected there would be sad work persuading you to let me keep my word to
                  Linton, for I had engaged to call again next day when we quitted him; but as you
                  stayed upstairs on the morrow, I escaped that trouble. While Michael was
                  refastening the lock of the park door in the afternoon, I got possession of the
                  key, and told him how my cousin wished me to visit him, because he was sick and
                  couldn't come to the Grange, and how papa would ob<pb n="II.208" facs="pageImages/II.216.png"/>ject to my going; and then I negotiated with him about the pony. He is fond of
                  reading, and he thinks of leaving soon to get married; so he offered, if I would
                  lend him books out of the library, to do what I wished; but I preferred giving him
                  my own, and that satisfied him better. </p>
               <p>"On my second visit Linton seemed in lively spirits, and Zillah (that is their
                  housekeeper) made us a clean room and a good fire, and told us that, as Joseph was
                  out at a prayer-meeting, and Hareton Earnshaw was off with his dogs -- robbing our
                  woods of pheasants, as I heard afterwards -- we might do what we liked. She
                  brought me some warm wine and gingerbread, and appeared exceedingly good-natured;
                  and Linton sat in the arm-chair, and I in the little rocking-chair on the
                  hearth-stone, and we laughed and talked so merrily, and found so much to say. We
                  planned where <pb n="II.209" facs="pageImages/II.217.png"/>we would go, and what we would do
                  in summer. I needn't repeat that, because you would call it silly. </p>
               <p>"One time, however, we were near quarrelling. He said the pleasantest manner of
                  spending a hot July day was lying from morning till evening on a bank of heath in
                  the middle of the moors, with the bees humming dreamily about among the bloom, and
                  the larks singing high up overhead, and the blue sky and bright sun shining
                  steadily and cloudlessly. That was his most perfect idea of heaven's happiness.
                  Mine was rocking in a rustling green tree, with a west wind blowing, and bright
                  white clouds flitting rapidly above, and not only larks, but throstles, and
                  blackbirds, and linnets, and cuckoos pouring out music on every side, and the
                  moors seen at a distance, broken into cool, dusky dells, but close by great swells
                  of long grass undulating in waves to the breeze, and woods and sounding water, and
                  the whole world awake and <pb n="II.210" facs="pageImages/II.218.png"/>wild with joy. He
                  wanted all to lie in an ecstasy of peace; I wanted all to sparkle and dance in a
                  glorious jubilee. I said his heaven would be only half alive, and he said mine
                  would be drunk; I said I should fall asleep in his, and he said he could not
                  breathe in mine, and began to grow very snappish. At last we agreed to try both,
                  as soon as the right weather came; and then we kissed each other and were friends. </p>
               <p>"After sitting still an hour, I looked at the great room with its smooth
                  uncarpeted floor, and thought how nice it would be to play in if we removed the
                  table; and I asked Linton to call Zillah in to help us, and we'd have a game at
                  blind-man's buff. She should try to catch us; you used to, you know, Ellen. He
                  wouldn't. There was no pleasure in it, he said. But he consented to play at ball
                  with me. We found two in a cupboard, among a heap of old toys, tops, and hoops,
                  and battledores, and shuttlecocks. One was marked C. and the other <pb n="II.211" facs="pageImages/II.219.png"/>H. I wished to have the C., because that stood for
                  Catherine, and the H. might be for Heathcliff, his name; but the bran came out of
                  H., and Linton didn't like it. I beat him constantly, and he got cross again, and
                  coughed, and returned to his chair. That night, though, he easily recovered his
                  good-humour. He was charmed with two or three pretty songs -- your songs, Ellen;
                  and when I was obliged to go he begged and entreated me to come the following
                  evening, and I promised. Minny and I went flying home as light as air, and I
                  dreamt of Wuthering Heights and my sweet darling cousin till morning. </p>
               <p>"On the morrow I was sad, partly because you were poorly, and partly that I wished
                  my father knew and approved of my excursions; but it was beautiful moon-light
                  after tea, and as I rode on the gloom cleared. I shall have another happy evening,
                  I <pb n="II.212" facs="pageImages/II.220.png"/>thought to myself; and, what delights me more,
                  my pretty Linton will. I trotted up their garden, and was turning round to the
                  back, when that fellow Earnshaw met me, took my bridle, and bade me go in by the
                  front entrance. He patted Minny's neck, and said she was a bonny beast, and
                  appeared as if he wanted me to speak to him. I only told him to leave my horse
                  alone, or else it would kick him. He answered in his vulgar accent, 'It wouldn't
                  do mitch hurt if it did,' and surveyed its legs with a smile. I was half inclined
                  to make it try; however, he moved off to open the door, and as he raised the latch
                  he looked up to the inscription above, and said, with a stupid mixture of
                  awkwardness and elation, -- </p>
               <p>" 'Miss Catherine, I can read yon now.' </p>
               <p>" 'Wonderful!' I exclaimed. 'Pray let us hear you; you are grown clever.' </p>
               <pb n="II.213" facs="pageImages/II.221.png"/>
               <p>"He spelt, and drawled over by syllables, the name, 'Hareton Earnshaw.'</p>
               <p>" 'And the figures?' I cried encouragingly, perceiving that he came to a dead
                  halt. </p>
               <p>" 'I cannot tell them yet,' he answered. </p>
               <p>" 'Oh, you dunce!' I said, laughing heartily at his failure. </p>
               <p>"The fool stared, with a grin hovering about his lips, and a scowl gathering over
                  his eyes, as if uncertain whether he might not join in my mirth -- whether it were
                  not pleasant familiarity, or what it really was, contempt. <pb n="250"/>I settled
                  his doubts by suddenly retrieving my gravity and desiring him to walk away, for I
                  came to see Linton, not him. He reddened -- I saw that by the moonlight -- dropped
                  his hand from the latch, and skulked off, a picture of mortified vanity. He
                  imagined himself to be as accomplished as Linton, I suppose, because he could
                  spell his own name, <pb n="II.214" facs="pageImages/II.222.png"/>and was marvellously
                  discomfited that I didn't think the same." </p>
               <p>"Stop, Miss Catherine dear!" I interrupted. "I shall not scold, but I don't like
                  your conduct there. If you had remembered that Hareton was your cousin as much as
                  Master Heathcliff, you would have felt how improper it was to behave in that way.
                  At least, it was praiseworthy ambition for him to desire to be as accomplished as
                  Linton, and probably he did not learn merely to show off. You had made him ashamed
                  of his ignorance before, I have no doubt, and he wished to remedy it and please
                  you. To sneer at his imperfect attempt was very bad breeding. Had you been brought
                  up in his circumstances, would you be less rude? He was as quick and as
                  intelligent a child as ever you were, and I'm hurt that he should be despised now,
                  because that base Heathcliff has treated him so unjustly." </p>
               <p>"Well, Ellen, you won't cry about it, will <pb n="II.215" facs="pageImages/II.223.png"/>you?"
                  she exclaimed, surprised at my earnestness. "But wait, and you shall hear if he
                  conned his A B C to please me, and if it were worth while being civil to the
                  brute. I entered. Linton was lying on the settle, and half got up to welcome me. </p>
               <p>" 'I'm ill to-night, Catherine, love,' he said; 'and you must have all the talk,
                  and let me listen. Come and sit by me. I was sure you wouldn't break your word,
                  and I'll make you promise again before you go.' </p>
               <p>"I knew now that I mustn't tease him, as he was ill; and I spoke softly, and put
                  no questions, and avoided irritating him in any way. I had brought some of my
                  nicest books for him. He asked me to read a little of one, and I was about to
                  comply, when Earnshaw burst the door open, having gathered venom with reflection.
                  He advanced direct to us, seized Linton by the arm, and swung him off the seat. </p>
               <p>" 'Get to thy own room!' he said, in a voice <pb n="II.216" facs="pageImages/II.224.png"/>almost inarticulate with passion; and his face looked swelled and furious. 'Take
                  her there if she comes to see thee; thou shalln't keep me out of this. Begone wi'
                  ye both!' </p>
               <p>"He swore at us, and left Linton no time to answer, nearly throwing him into the
                  kitchen; and he clenched his fist as I followed, seemingly longing to knock me
                  down. I was afraid for a moment, and I let one volume fall; he kicked it after me,
                  and shut us out. I heard a malignant, crackly laugh by the fire, and turning,
                  beheld that odious Joseph standing rubbing his bony hands, and quivering. </p>
               <p>" 'I wer sure he'd sarve ye out! He's a grand lad! He's getten t' raight sperrit
                  in him! He knaws -- ay, he knaws as weel as I do -- who sud be t' maister yonder!
                  Ech, ech, ech! He made ye skift properly! Ech, ech, ech!' </p>
               <p>" 'Where must we go?' I asked of my cousin, disregarding the old wretch's mockery. </p>
               <pb n="II.217" facs="pageImages/II.225.png"/>
               <p>"Linton was white and trembling. He was not pretty then, Ellen -- oh no! He looked
                  frightful, for his thin face and large eyes were wrought into an expression of
                  frantic, powerless fury. He grasped the handle of the door, and shook it; it was
                  fastened inside. </p>
               <p>" 'If you don't let me in I'll kill you! if you don't let me in I'll kill you!' he
                  rather shrieked than said. 'Devil! devil! I'll kill you! I'll kill you!' </p>
               <p>"Joseph uttered his croaking laugh again. </p>
               <p>" 'Thear, that's t' father!' he cried. 'That's father! We've allas summut o'
                  either side in us. Niver heed, Hareton, lad -- dunnut be 'feared -- he cannot get
                  at thee!' </p>
               <p>"I took hold of Linton's hands and tried to pull him away, but he shrieked so
                  shockingly that I dared not proceed. At last his cries were choked by a dreadful
                  fit of coughing. Blood gushed from his mouth, and he fell on the ground. </p>
               <pb n="II.218" facs="pageImages/II.226.png"/>
               <p>I ran into the yard, sick with terror, and called for Zillah as loud as I could.
                  She soon heard me. She was milking the cows in a shed behind the barn, and
                  hurrying from her work she inquired what there was to do. I hadn't breath to
                  explain. Dragging her in, I looked about for Linton. Earnshaw had come out to
                  examine the mischief he had caused, and he was then conveying the poor thing
                  upstairs. Zillah and I ascended after him; but he stopped me at the top of the
                  steps, and said I shouldn't go in -- I must go home. I exclaimed that he had
                  killed Linton, and I would enter. Joseph locked the door, and declared I should do
                  'no sich stuff,' and asked me whether I were 'bahn to be as mad as him.' I stood
                  crying till the housekeeper reappeared. She affirmed he would be better in a bit,
                  but he couldn't do with that shrieking and din; and she took me and nearly carried
                  me into the house. </p>
               <pb n="II.219" facs="pageImages/II.227.png"/>
               <p>"Ellen, I was ready to tear my hair off my head. I sobbed and wept so that my eyes
                  were almost blind; and the ruffian you have such sympathy with stood opposite,
                  presuming every now and then to bid me 'wisht,' and denying that it was his fault;
                  and finally, frightened by my assertions that I would tell papa, and that he
                  should be put in prison and hanged, he commenced blubbering himself, and hurried
                  out to hide his cowardly agitation. Still I was not rid of him. When at length
                  they compelled me to depart, and I had got some hundred yards off the premises, he
                  suddenly issued from the shadow of the roadside, and checked Minny and took hold
                  of me. </p>
               <p>" 'Miss Catherine, I'm ill grieved,' he began, 'but it's rayther too bad -- ' </p>
               <p>"I gave him a cut with my whip, thinking perhaps he would murder me. He let go,
                  thundering one of his horrid curses, and I galloped home more than half out of my
                  senses. </p>
               <pb n="II.220" facs="pageImages/II.228.png"/>
               <p>"I didn't bid you good-night that evening, and I didn't go to Wuthering Heights
                  the next. I wished to go exceedingly, but I was strangely excited, and dreaded to
                  hear that Linton was dead, sometimes, and sometimes shuddered at the thought of
                  encountering Hareton. </p>
               <p>On the third day I took courage -- at least I couldn't bear longer suspense, and
                  stole off once more. I went at five o'clock, and walked, fancying I might manage
                  to creep into the house and up to Linton's room unobserved. However, the dogs gave
                  notice of my approach. Zillah received me, and saying 'the lad was mending
                  nicely,' showed me into a small, tidy, carpeted apartment, where, to my
                  inexpressible joy, I beheld Linton laid on a little sofa, reading one of my books.
                  But he would neither speak to me nor look at me through a whole hour, Ellen; he
                  has such an unhappy temper. And what quite confounded <pb n="II.221" facs="pageImages/II.229.png"/>me, when he did open his mouth it was to utter the falsehood
                  that I had occasioned the uproar, and Hareton was not to blame! Unable to reply,
                  except passionately, I got up and walked from the room. He sent after me a faint
                  'Catherine!' He did not reckon on being answered so. But I wouldn't turn back; and
                  the morrow was the second day on which I stayed at home, nearly determined to
                  visit him no more. But it was so miserable going to bed and getting up, and never
                  hearing anything about him, that my resolution melted into air before it was
                  properly formed. It had appeared wrong to take the journey once, now it seemed
                  wrong to refrain. Michael came to ask if he must saddle Minny; I said 'Yes,' and
                  considered myself doing a duty as she bore me over the hills. I was forced to pass
                  the front windows to get to the court; it was no use trying to conceal my
                  presence. </p>
               <pb n="II.222" facs="pageImages/II.230.png"/>
               <p>" 'Young master is in the house,' said Zillah, as she saw me making for the
                  parlour. I went in. Earnshaw was there also, but he quitted the room directly.
                  Linton sat in the great armchair half asleep. Walking up to the fire, I began in a
                  serious tone, partly meaning it to be true, -- </p>
               <p>" 'As you don't like me, Linton, and as you think I come on purpose to hurt you,
                  and pretend that I do so every time, this is our last meeting. Let us say
                  good-bye; and tell Mr. Heathcliff that you have no wish to see me, and that he
                  mustn't invent any more falsehoods on the subject.' </p>
               <p>" 'Sit down and take your hat off, Catherine,' he answered. 'You are so much
                  happier than I am, you ought to be better. Papa talks enough of my defects and
                  shows enough scorn of me to make it natural I should doubt myself. I doubt whether
                  I am not altogether as worthless as he calls me frequently; and then I feel so
                  cross and bitter, I hate every<pb n="II.223" facs="pageImages/II.231.png"/>body! I am
                  worthless, and bad in temper, and bad in spirit, almost always, and if you choose
                  you may say good-bye; you'll get rid of an annoyance. Only, Catherine, do me this
                  justice: believe that if I might be as sweet, and as kind, and as good as you are,
                  I would be -- as willingly, and more so, than as happy and as healthy. And believe
                  that your kindness has made me love you deeper than if I deserved your love; and
                  though I couldn't and cannot help showing my nature to you, I regret it and repent
                  it, and shall regret and repent it till I die!' </p>
               <p>"I felt he spoke the truth, and I felt I must forgive him; and though he should
                  quarrel the next moment, I must forgive him again. We were reconciled; but we
                  cried, both of us, the whole time I stayed -- not entirely for sorrow, yet I was
                  sorry Linton had that distorted nature. He'll never let his friends be at ease,
                  and he'll never be at ease himself. I have always gone to his little parlour <pb n="II.224" facs="pageImages/II.232.png"/>since that night, because his father returned the
                  day after. </p>
               <p>"About three times, I think, we have been merry and hopeful, as we were the first
                  evening; the rest of my visits were dreary and troubled -- now with his
                  selfishness and spite, and now with his sufferings; but I've learned to endure the
                  former with nearly as little resentment as the latter. Mr. Heathcliff purposely
                  avoids me; I have hardly seen him at all. Last Sunday, indeed, coming earlier than
                  usual, I heard him abusing poor Linton cruelly for his conduct of the night
                  before. I can't tell how he knew of it, unless he listened. Linton had certainly
                  behaved provokingly. However, it was the business of nobody but me, and I
                  interrupted Mr. Heathcliff's lecture by entering and telling him so. He burst into
                  a laugh, and went away, saying he was glad I took that view of the matter. Since
                  then I've told Linton he must whisper his bitter things. Now, Ellen, you have
                  heard all. I <pb n="II.225" facs="pageImages/II.233.png"/>can't be prevented from going to
                  Wuthering Heights except by inflicting misery on two people; whereas, if you'll
                  only not tell papa, my going need disturb the tranquillity of none. You'll not
                  tell, will you? It will be very heartless if you do." </p>
               <p>"I'll make up my mind on that point by to-morrow, Miss Catherine," I replied. "It
                  requires some study; and so I'll leave you to your rest, and go think it over." </p>
               <p>I thought it over aloud, in my master's presence, walking straight from her room
                  to his, and relating the whole story, with the exception of her conversations with
                  her cousin, and any mention of Hareton. Mr. Linton was alarmed and distressed,
                  more than he would acknowledge to me. In the morning Catherine learned my betrayal
                  of her confidence, and she learned also that her secret visits were to end. In
                  vain she wept and writhed against the interdict, and implored her father to have
                     <pb n="II.226" facs="pageImages/II.234.png"/>pity on Linton. All she got to comfort her
                  was a promise that he would write and give him leave to come to the Grange when he
                  pleased, but explaining that he must no longer expect to see Catherine at
                  Wuthering Heights. Perhaps, had he been aware of his nephew's disposition and
                  state of health, he would have seen fit to withhold even that slight consolation.
               </p>
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            <pb n="II.227" facs="pageImages/II.235.png"/>
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               <head>Chapter XI</head>
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               <p>"These things happened last winter, sir," said Mrs. Dean; "hardly more than a year
                  ago. Last winter, I did not think, at another twelve months' end, I should be
                  amusing a stranger to the family with relating them! Yet, who knows how long
                  you'll be a stranger ? You're too young to rest always contented, living by
                  yourself; and I some way fancy, no one could see Catherine Linton, and not love
                  her. You smile; but why do you look so <pb n="II.228" facs="pageImages/II.236.png"/>lively
                  and interested, when I talk about her -- and why have you asked me to hang her
                  picture over your fireplace? and why -- " </p>
               <p>"Stop, my good friend !" I cried. "It may be very possible that I should love her;
                  but would she love me ? I doubt it too much to venture my tranquillity by running
                  into temptation; and then my home is not here. I'm of the busy world, and to its
                  arms I must return. Go on. Was Catherine obedient to her father's commands ?" </p>
               <p>"She was," continued the housekeeper. "Her affection for him was still the chief
                  sentiment in her heart; and he spoke without anger; he spoke in the deep
                  tenderness of one about to leave his treasure amid perils and foes, where his
                  remembered words would be the only aid that he could bequeath to guide her. </p>
               <p>He said to me, a few days afterwards, </p>
               <p>"I wish my nephew would write, Ellen, or call. Tell me, sincerely, what you think
                  of <pb n="II.229" facs="pageImages/II.237.png"/>him -- is he changed for the better, or is
                  there a prospect of improvement, as he grows a man ?" </p>
               <p>"He's very delicate, sir," I replied; "and scarcely likely to reach manhood; but
                  this I can say, he does not resemble his father; and if Miss Catherine had the
                  misfortune to marry him, he would not be beyond her control, unless she were
                  extremely and foolishly indulgent. However, master, you'll have plenty of time to
                  get acquainted with him, and see whether he would suit her -- it wants four years
                  and more to his being of age."</p>
               <p>Edgar sighed, and walking to the window, looked out towards Gimmerton Kirk. It was
                  a misty afternoon, but the February sun shone dimly, and we could just distinguish
                  the two fir-trees in the yard, and the sparely scattered gravestones. </p>
               <p>"I've prayed often," he half soliloquized, "for the approach of what is coming,
                  and now I begin to shrink and fear it. I thought <pb n="II.230" facs="pageImages/II.238.png"/>the memory of the hour I came down that glen a bridegroom would be less sweet
                  than the anticipation that I was soon, in a few months, or possibly weeks, to be
                  carried up and laid in its lonely hollow. Ellen, I've been very happy with my
                  little Cathy; through winter nights and summer days she was a living hope at my
                  side. But I've been as happy musing by myself among those stones, under that old
                  church, lying through the long June evenings on the green mound of her mother's
                  grave, and wishing, yearning for the time when I might lie beneath it. What can I
                  do for Cathy? How must I quit her? I'd not care one moment for Linton being
                  Heathcliff's son, nor for his taking her from me, if he could console her for my
                  loss. I'd not care that Heathcliff gained his ends, and triumphed in robbing me of
                  my last blessing. But should Linton be unworthy -- only a feeble tool to his
                  father -- I cannot abandon her to him. And, hard though it be to crush her buoyant
                  spirit, <pb n="II.231" facs="pageImages/II.239.png"/>I must persevere in making her sad while
                  I live, and leaving her solitary when I die. Darling! I'd rather resign her to
                  God, and lay her in the earth before me." </p>
               <p>"Resign her to God as it is, sir," I answered; "and if we should lose you -- which
                  may He forbid -- under His providence I'll stand her friend and counsellor to the
                  last. Miss Catherine is a good girl; I don't fear that she will go wilfully wrong;
                  and people who do their duty are always finally rewarded." </p>
               <p>Spring advanced, yet my master gathered no real strength, though he resumed his
                  walks in the grounds with his daughter. To her inexperienced notions this itself
                  was a sign of convalescence. And then his cheek was often flushed, and his eyes
                  were bright; she felt sure of his recovery. On her seventeenth birthday he did not
                  visit the churchyard. It was raining, and I observed, -- </p>
               <p>"You'll surely not go out to-night, sir?" <pb n="II.232" facs="pageImages/II.240.png"/>He
                  answered, -- </p>
               <p>"No, I'll defer it this year a little longer." </p>
               <p>He wrote again to Linton, expressing his great desire to see him; and had the
                  invalid been presentable, I've no doubt his father would have permitted him to
                  come. As it was, being instructed, he returned an answer, intimating that Mr.
                  Heathcliff objected to his calling at the Grange; but his uncle's kind remembrance
                  delighted him, and he hoped to meet him sometimes in his rambles, and personally
                  to petition that his cousin and he might not remain long so utterly divided. </p>
               <p>That part of his letter was simple and probably his own. Heathcliff knew he could
                  plead eloquently for Catherine's company, then. </p>
               <p>"I do not ask," he said, "that she may visit here, but am I never to see her
                  because my father forbids me to go to her home, and you forbid her to come to
                  mine? Do, now and then, ride with her towards the Heights, and <pb n="II.233" facs="pageImages/II.241.png"/>let us exchange a few words in your presence. We have done
                  nothing to deserve this separation; and you are not angry with me -- you have no
                  reason to dislike me, you allow, yourself. Dear uncle, send me a kind note
                  to-morrow, and leave to join you anywhere you please, except at Thrushcross
                  Grange. I believe an interview would convince you that my father's character is
                  not mine. He affirms I am more your nephew than his son; and though I have faults
                  which render me unworthy of Catherine, she has excused them, and for her sake you
                  should also. You inquire after my health. It is better; but while I remain cut off
                  from all hope, and doomed to solitude or the society of those who never did and
                  never will like me, how can I be cheerful and well?" </p>
               <p>Edgar, though he felt for the boy, could not consent to grant his request, because
                  he could not accompany Catherine. <pb n="II.234" facs="pageImages/II.242.png"/>He said in
                  summer perhaps they might meet. Meantime he wished him to continue writing at
                  intervals, and engaged to give him what advice and comfort he was able by letter,
                  being well aware of his hard position in his family. </p>
               <p>Linton complied, and had he been unrestrained, would probably have spoiled all by
                  filling his epistles with complaints and lamentations; but his father kept a sharp
                  watch over him, and of course insisted on every line that my master sent being
                  shown. So, instead of penning his peculiar personal sufferings and distresses, the
                  themes constantly uppermost in his thoughts, he harped on the cruel obligation of
                  being held asunder from his friend and love, and gently intimated that Mr. Linton
                  must allow an interview soon, or he should fear he was purposely deceiving him
                  with empty promises. </p>
               <p>Cathy was a powerful ally at home, and <pb n="II.235" facs="pageImages/II.243.png"/>between
                  them they at length persuaded my master to acquiesce in their having a ride or a
                  walk together about once a week, under my guardianship, and on the moors nearest
                  the Grange -- for June found him still declining. Though he had set aside yearly a
                  portion of his income for my young lady's fortune, he had a natural desire that
                  she might retain -- or at least return in a short time to -- the house of her
                  ancestors; and he considered her only prospect of doing that was by a union with
                  his heir. He had no idea that the latter was failing almost as fast as himself,
                  nor had any one, I believe. No doctor visited the Heights, and no one saw Master
                  Heathcliff to make report of his condition among us. I, for my part, began to
                  fancy my forebodings were false, and that he must be actually rallying, when he
                  mentioned riding and walking on the moors, and seemed so earnest in pursuing his
                  object. I could not picture a father treating a <pb n="II.236" facs="pageImages/II.244.png"/>dying child as tyrannically and wickedly as I afterwards learned Heathcliff had
                  treated him, to compel this apparent eagerness, his efforts redoubling the more
                  imminently his avaricious and unfeeling plans were threatened with defeat by
                  death. </p>
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               <pb n="II.237" facs="pageImages/II.245.png"/>
               <head>Chapter XII</head>
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               <p>Summer was already past its prime, when Edgar reluctantly yielded his assent to
                  their entreaties, and Catherine and I set out on our first ride to join her
                  cousin. </p>
               <p>It was a close, sultry day; devoid of sunshine, hut with a sky too dappled and
                  hazy to threaten rain; and our place of meeting had been fixed at the guide-stone,
                  by the crossroads. On arriving there, however, a little herd-boy, despatched as a
                  messenger, told us that -- </p>
               <pb n="II.238" facs="pageImages/II.246.png"/>
               <p>"Maister Linton wer just ut this side th' Heights: and he'd be mitch obleeged to
                  us to gang on a bit further." </p>
               <p>"Then Master Linton has forgot the first injunction of his uncle," I observed: "he
                  bid us keep on the Grange land, and here we are, off at once." </p>
               <p>"Well, we'll turn our horses' heads round, when we reach him," answered my
                  companion, "our excursion shall lie towards home." </p>
               <p>But when we reached him, and that was scarcely a quarter of a mile from his own
                  door, we found he had no horse, and we were forced to dismount, and leave ours to
                  graze. </p>
               <p>He lay on the heath, awaiting our approach, and did not rise till we came within a
                  few yards. Then, he walked so feebly, and looked so pale, that I immediately
                  exclaimed -- </p>
               <p>"Why, Master Heathcliff, you are not fit for enjoying a ramble, this morning. How
                  ill you do look!" </p>
               <p>Catherine surveyed him with grief and as<pb n="II.239" facs="pageImages/II.247.png"/>tonishment; and changed the ejaculation of joy on her lips, to one of alarm; and
                  the congratulation on their long postponed meeting to an anxious inquiry, whether
                  he were worse than usual ? </p>
               <p>"No -- better -- better!" he panted, trembling, and retaining her hand as if he
                  needed its support, while his large blue eyes wandered timidly over her; the
                  hollowness round them transforming to haggard wildness the languid expression they
                  once possessed. </p>
               <p>"But you have been worse," persisted his cousin -- </p>
               <p>"worse than when I saw you last. You are thinner, and -- " </p>
               <p>"I'm tired," he interrupted hurriedly. "It is too hot for walking; let us rest
                  here. And in the morning I often feel sick. Papa says I grow so fast." </p>
               <p>Badly satisfied, Cathy sat down, and he reclined beside her. </p>
               <p>"This is something like your paradise," <pb n="II.240" facs="pageImages/II.248.png"/>said
                  she, making an effort at cheerfulness. "You recollect the two days we agreed to
                  spend in the place and way each thought pleasantest? This is nearly yours, only
                  there are clouds; but then they are so soft and mellow, it is nicer than sunshine.
                  Next week, if you can, we'll ride down to the Grange Park and try mine." </p>
               <p>Linton did not appear to remember what she talked of, and he had evidently great
                  difficulty in sustaining any kind of conversation. His lack of interest in the
                  subjects she started, and his equal incapacity to contribute to her entertainment,
                  were so obvious that she could not conceal her disappointment. An indefinite
                  alteration had come over his whole person and manner. The pettishness that might
                  be caressed into fondness had yielded to a listless apathy; there was less of the
                  peevish temper of a child which frets and teases on purpose to be soothed, and
                  more of the self-absorbed mo<pb n="II.241" facs="pageImages/II.249.png"/>roseness of a
                  confirmed invalid, repelling consolation, and ready to regard the good-humoured
                  mirth of others as an insult. Catherine perceived, as well as I did, that he held
                  it rather a punishment than a gratification to endure our company, and she made no
                  scruple of proposing, presently, to depart. That proposal unexpectedly roused
                  Linton from his lethargy, and threw him into a strange state of agitation. He
                  glanced fearfully towards the Heights, begging she would remain another half-hour
                  at least. </p>
               <p>"But I think," said Cathy, "you'd be more comfortable at home than sitting here;
                  and I cannot amuse you to-day, I see, by my tales, and songs, and chatter. You
                  have grown wiser than I in these six months; you have little taste for my
                  diversions now -- or else, if I could amuse you, I'd willingly stay." </p>
               <p>"Stay to rest yourself," he replied. "And, Catherine, don't think or say that I'm
                  very unwell. It is the heavy weather and heat that <pb n="II.242" facs="pageImages/II.250.png"/>make me dull; and I walked about, before you came, a great
                  deal for me. Tell uncle I'm in tolerable health, will you?" </p>
               <p>"I'll tell him that you say so, Linton. I couldn't affirm that you are," observed
                  my young lady, wondering at his pertinacious assertion of what was evidently an
                  untruth. </p>
               <p>"And be here again next Thursday," continued he, shunning her puzzled gaze. "And
                  give him my thanks for permitting you to come -- my best thanks, Catherine. And --
                  and if you did meet my father, and he asked you about me, don't lead him to
                  suppose that I've been extremely silent and stupid. Don't look sad and downcast,
                  as you are doing; he'll be angry." </p>
               <p>"I care nothing for his anger," exclaimed Cathy, imagining she would be its
                  object. </p>
               <p>"But I do," said her cousin, shuddering. "Don't provoke him against me, Catherine,
                  for he is very hard." </p>
               <p>"Is he severe to you, Master Heathcliff?" <pb n="II.243" facs="pageImages/II.251.png"/>I
                  inquired. </p>
               <p>"Has he grown weary of indulgence, and passed from passive to active hatred?" </p>
               <p>Linton looked at me, but did not answer; and after keeping her seat by his side
                  another ten minutes, during which his head fell drowsily on his breast, and he
                  uttered nothing except suppressed moans of exhaustion or pain, Cathy began to seek
                  solace in looking for bilberries, and sharing the produce of her researches with
                  me. She did not offer them to him, for she saw further notice would only weary and
                  annoy. </p>
               <p>"Is it half an hour now, Ellen?" she whispered in my ear at last. "I can't tell
                  why we should stay. He's asleep, and papa will be wanting us back." </p>
               <p>"Well, we must not leave him asleep," I answered. </p>
               <p>"Wait till he wakes, and be patient. You were mighty eager to set off, but your
                  longing to see poor Linton has soon evaporated." </p>
               <pb n="II.244" facs="pageImages/II.252.png"/>
               <p>"Why did he wish to see me?" returned Catherine. </p>
               <p>"In his crossest humours, formerly, I liked him better than I do in his present
                  curious mood. It's just as if it were a task he was compelled to perform -- this
                  interview -- for fear his father should scold him. But I'm hardly going to come to
                  give Mr. Heathcliff pleasure, whatever reason he may have for ordering Linton to
                  undergo this penance. And though I'm glad he's better in health, I'm sorry he's so
                  much less pleasant, and so much less affectionate to me." </p>
               <p>"You think he is better in health, then?" I said. </p>
               <p>"Yes," she answered, "because he always made such a great deal of his sufferings,
                  you know. He is not tolerably well, as he told me to tell papa; but he's better,
                  very likely." </p>
               <p>"There you differ with me, Miss Cathy," I remarked. </p>
               <p>"I should conjecture him to be far worse." </p>
               <p>Linton here started from his slumber in be<pb n="II.245" facs="pageImages/II.253.png"/>wildered terror, and asked if any one had called his name. </p>
               <p>"No," said Catherine, "unless in dreams. I cannot conceive how you manage to doze
                  out of doors, in the morning." </p>
               <p>"I thought I heard my father," he gasped, glancing up to the frowning nab above
                  us. "You are sure nobody spoke?" </p>
               <p>"Quite sure," replied his cousin. "Only Ellen and I were disputing concerning your
                  health. Are you truly stronger, Linton, than when we separated in winter? If you
                  be, I'm certain one thing is not stronger -- your regard for me. Speak! Are you?" </p>
               <p>The tears gushed from Linton's eyes as he answered, </p>
               <p>"Yes, yes, I am!" And still under the spell of the imaginary voice, his gaze
                  wandered up and down to detect its owner. </p>
               <p>Cathy rose. "For to-day we must part," she said. </p>
               <pb n="II.246" facs="pageImages/II.254.png"/>
               <p>"And I won't conceal that I have been sadly disappointed with our meeting, though
                  I'll mention it to nobody but you -- not that I stand in awe of Mr. Heathcliff." </p>
               <p>"Hush!" murmured Linton; "for God's sake, hush! He's coming." And he clung to
                  Catherine's arm, striving to detain her; but at that announcement she hastily
                  disengaged herself and whistled to Minny, who obeyed her like a dog. </p>
               <p>"I'll be here next Thursday," she cried, springing to the saddle. "Good-bye. --
                  Quick, Ellen!" And so we left him, scarcely conscious of our departure, so
                  absorbed was he in anticipating his father's approach. </p>
               <p>Before we reached home, Catherine's displeasure softened into a perplexed
                  sensation of pity and regret, largely blended with vague, uneasy doubts about
                  Linton's actual circumstances, physical and social, in which I partook, though I
                  counselled her not to say much, <pb n="II.247" facs="pageImages/II.255.png"/>for a second
                  journey would make us better judges. My master requested an account of our
                  ongoings. His nephew's offering of thanks was duly delivered, Miss Cathy gently
                  touching on the rest. I also threw little light on his inquiries, for I hardly
                  knew what to hide and what to reveal. </p>
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               <p>Seven days glided away, every one marking its course by the henceforth rapid
                  alteration of Edgar Linton's state. The havoc that months had previously wrought
                  was now emulated by the inroads of hours.</p>
               <p>Catherine, we would fain have deluded yet, but her own quick spirit refused to
                  delude her. It divined, in secret, and brooded on the dreadful probability,
                  gradually ripening into certainty.</p>
               <p>She had not the heart to mention her ride, <pb n="II.249" facs="pageImages/II.257.png"/>when
                  Thursday came round; I mentioned it for her, and obtained permission to order her
                  out of doors; for the library, where her father stopped a short time daily -- the
                  brief period he could bear to sit up -- and his chamber, had become her whole
                  world. She grudged each moment that did not find her bending over his pillow, or
                  seated by his side. Her countenance grew wan with watching and sorrow, and my
                  master gladly dismissed her to what he flattered himself would be a happy change
                  of scene and society, drawing comfort from the hope that she would not now be left
                  entirely alone after his death.</p>
               <p>He had a fixed idea, I guessed by several observations he let fall, that as his
                  nephew resembled him in person, he would resemble him in mind; for Linton's
                  letters bore few or no indications of his defective character. And I through
                  pardonable weakness refrained from correcting the error; asking myself what good
                  there would be in disturbing his last mo<pb n="II.250" facs="pageImages/II.258.png"/>ments
                  with information that he had neither power nor opportunity to turn to account.</p>
               <p>We deferred our excursion till the afternoon; a golden afternoon of August --
                  every breath from the hills so full of life, that it seemed whoever respired it,
                  though dying, might revive. Catherine's face was just like the landscape --
                  shadows and sunshine flitting over it in rapid succession; but the shadows rested
                  longer, and the sunshine was more transient; and her poor little heart reproached
                  itself for even that passing forgetfulness of its cares. </p>
               <p>We discerned Linton watching at the same spot he had selected before. My young
                  mistress alighted, and told me that, as she was resolved to stay a very little
                  while, I had better hold the pony and remain on horse-back; but I dissented. I
                  wouldn't risk losing sight of the charge committed to me a minute, so we climbed
                  the slope of heath together. Master Heathcliff received us with greater <pb n="II.251" facs="pageImages/II.259.png"/>animation on this occasion -- not the animation
                  of high spirits though, nor yet of joy; it looked more like fear. </p>
               <p>"It is late," he said, speaking short and with difficulty. "Is not your father
                  very ill? I thought you wouldn't come." </p>
               <p>"Why won't you be candid?" cried Catherine, swallowing her greeting. "Why cannot
                  you say at once you don't want me? It is strange, Linton, that for the second time
                  you have brought me here on purpose, apparently, to distress us both, and for no
                  reason besides." </p>
               <p>Linton shivered, and glanced at her, half supplicating, half ashamed; but his
                  cousin's patience was not sufficient to endure this enigmatical behaviour. </p>
               <p>"My father is very ill," she said; "and why am I called from his bedside? Why
                  didn't you send to absolve me from my promise when you wished I wouldn't keep it?
                  Come! I desire an explanation; playing and trifling are completely banished out of
                  my mind, and I <pb n="II.252" facs="pageImages/II.260.png"/>can't dance attendance on your
                  affectations now!" </p>
               <p>"My affectations!" he murmured; "what are they? For Heaven's sake, Catherine,
                  don't look so angry! Despise me as much as you please. I am a worthless, cowardly
                  wretch -- I can't be scorned enough; but I'm too mean for your anger. Hate my
                  father, and spare me for contempt." </p>
               <p>"Nonsense!" cried Catherine in a passion. "Foolish, silly boy! And there! he
                  trembles, as if I were really going to touch him! You needn't bespeak contempt,
                  Linton; anybody will have it spontaneously at your service. Get off! I shall
                  return home. It is folly dragging you from the hearthstone, and pretending -- what
                  do we pretend? Let go my frock! If I pitied you for crying and looking so very
                  frightened, you should spurn such pity. -- Ellen, tell him how disgraceful this
                  conduct is. -- Rise, and don't degrade yourself into an abject reptile -- don't!" </p>
               <pb n="II.253" facs="pageImages/II.261.png"/>
               <p>With streaming face and an expression of agony Linton had thrown his nerveless
                  frame along the ground. He seemed convulsed with exquisite terror. </p>
               <p>"Oh!" he sobbed, "I cannot bear it! Catherine, Catherine, I'm a traitor too, and I
                  dare not tell you! But leave me, and I shall be killed! Dear Catherine, my life is
                  in your hands; and you have said you loved me, and if you did, it wouldn't harm
                  you. You'll not go then, kind, sweet, good Catherine? And perhaps you will consent
                  -- and he'll let me die with you!" </p>
               <p>My young lady, on witnessing his intense anguish, stooped to raise him. The old
                  feeling of indulgent tenderness overcame her vexation, and she grew thoroughly
                  moved and alarmed. </p>
               <p>"Consent to what?" she asked. "To stay? Tell me the meaning of this strange talk,
                  and I will. You contradict your own words and distract me. Be calm and frank, and
                  confess <pb n="II.254" facs="pageImages/II.262.png"/>at once all that weighs on your heart.
                  You wouldn't injure me, Linton, would you? You wouldn't let any enemy hurt me, if
                  you could prevent it? I'll believe you are a coward for yourself, but not a
                  cowardly betrayer of your best friend." </p>
               <p>"But my father threatened me," gasped the boy, clasping his attenuated fingers,
                  "and I dread him -- I dread him! I dare not tell!" </p>
               <p>"Oh, well," said Catherine, with scornful compassion, "keep your secret. I'm no
                  coward. Save yourself. I'm not afraid." </p>
               <p>Her magnanimity provoked his tears. He wept wildly, kissing her supporting hands,
                  and yet could not summon courage to speak out. I was cogitating what the mystery
                  might be, and determined Catherine should never suffer to benefit him or any one
                  else, by my goodwill, when, hearing a rustle among the ling, I looked up and saw
                  Mr. Heathcliff almost close upon us, descending the Heights. He <pb n="II.255" facs="pageImages/II.263.png"/>didn't cast a glance towards my companions, though they were
                  sufficiently near for Linton's sobs to be audible, but hailing me in the almost
                  hearty tone he assumed to none besides, and the sincerity of which I couldn't
                  avoid doubting, he said, -- </p>
               <p>"It is something to see you so near to my house, Nelly. How are you at the Grange?
                  Let us hear. The rumour goes," he added in a lower tone, "that Edgar Linton is on
                  his deathbed; perhaps they exaggerate his illness?" </p>
               <p>"No. My master is dying," I replied; "it is true enough. A sad thing it will be
                  for us all, but a blessing for him." </p>
               <p>"How long will he last, do you think?" he asked. </p>
               <p>"I don't know," I said. </p>
               <p>"Because," he continued, looking at the two young people, who were fixed under his
                  eye -- Linton appeared as if he could not ven<pb n="II.256" facs="pageImages/II.264.png"/>ture to stir or raise his head, and Catherine could not move on his account --
                  "because that lad yonder seems determined to beat me, and I'd thank his uncle to
                  be quick and go before him. Hullo! has the whelp been playing that game long? I
                  did give him some lessons about snivelling. Is he pretty lively with Miss Linton
                  generally?" </p>
               <p>"Lively? No; he has shown the greatest distress," I answered. "To see him, I
                  should say that, instead of rambling with his sweetheart on the hills, he ought to
                  be in bed, under the hands of a doctor." </p>
               <p>"He shall be in a day or two," muttered Heathcliff. "But first -- Get up, Linton!
                  get up!" he shouted.</p>
               <p>"Don't grovel on the ground there. Up, this moment!" </p>
               <p>Linton had sunk prostrate again in another paroxysm of helpless fear, caused by
                  his father's glance towards him, I suppose; there was nothing else to produce such
                  humiliation. <pb n="II.257" facs="pageImages/II.265.png"/>He made several efforts to obey,
                  but his little strength was annihilated for the time, and he fell back again with
                  a moan. </p>

               <p>Mr. Heathcliff advanced, and lifted him to lean against a ridge of turf. </p>
               <p>"Now," said he, with curbed ferocity, "I'm getting angry, and if you don't command
                  that paltry spirit of yours -- Damn you! get up directly!" </p>
               <p>"I will, father," he panted. "Only let me alone, or I shall faint. I've done as
                  you wished, I'm sure. Catherine will tell you that I -- that I -- have been
                  cheerful -- Ah! keep by me, Catherine. Give me your hand." </p>
               <p>"Take mine," said his father. "Stand on your feet. There now; she'll lend you her
                  arm. That's right; look at her. -- You would imagine I was the devil himself, Miss
                  Linton, to excite such horror. Be so kind as to walk home with him, will you? He
                  shudders if I touch him." </p>
               <pb n="II.258" facs="pageImages/II.266.png"/>
               <p>"Linton dear!" whispered Catherine, "I can't go to Wuthering Heights; papa has
                  forbidden me. He'll not harm you. Why are you so afraid?" </p>
               <p>"I can never re-enter that house," he answered. "I'm not to re-enter it without
                  you." </p>
               <p>"Stop!" cried his father. "We'll respect Catherine's filial scruples -- Nelly,
                  take him in, and I'll follow your advice concerning the doctor without delay." </p>
               <p>"You'll do well," replied I. "But I must remain with my mistress; to mind your son
                  is not my business." </p>
               <p>"You are very stiff," said Heathcliff -- "I know that; but you'll force me to
                  pinch the baby and make it scream before it moves your charity. -- Come, then, my
                  hero. Are you willing to return, escorted by me?" </p>
               <p>He approached once more, and made as if he would seize the fragile being; but,
                     shrink<pb n="II.259" facs="pageImages/II.267.png"/>ing back, Linton clung to his cousin,
                  and implored her to accompany him, with a frantic importunity that admitted no
                  denial. However I disapproved, I couldn't hinder her. Indeed, how could she have
                  refused him herself? What was filling him with dread we had no means of
                  discerning; but there he was, powerless under its gripe, and any addition seemed
                  capable of shocking him into idiocy. We reached the threshold. Catherine walked
                  in, and I stood waiting till she had conducted the invalid to a chair, expecting
                  her out immediately, when Mr. Heathcliff, pushing me forward, exclaimed, -- </p>
               <p>"My house is not stricken with the plague, Nelly, and I have a mind to be
                  hospitable to-day. Sit down, and allow me to shut the door." </p>
               <p>He shut and locked it also. I started. </p>
               <p>"You shall have tea before you go home," he added. "I am by myself. Hareton is
                  gone with some cattle to the Lees, and Zillah <pb n="II.260" facs="pageImages/II.268.png"/>and Joseph are off on a journey of pleasure; and though I'm used to being alone,
                  I'd rather have some interesting company, if I can get it. -- Miss Linton, take
                  your seat by him. I give you what I have; the present is hardly worth accepting,
                  but I have nothing else to offer. It is Linton I mean. How she does stare! It's
                  odd what a savage feeling I have to anything that seems afraid of me. Had I been
                  born where laws are less strict and tastes less dainty, I should treat myself to a
                  slow vivisection of those two as an evening's amusement." </p>
               <p>He drew in his breath, struck the table, and swore to himself, "By hell, I hate
                  them!" </p>
               <p>"I'm not afraid of you!" exclaimed Catherine, who could not hear the latter part
                  of his speech. She stepped close up, her black eyes flashing with passion and
                  resolution. "Give me that key. I will have it!" she <pb n="II.261" facs="pageImages/II.269.png"/>said. "I wouldn't eat or drink here if I were starving." </p>
               <p>Heathcliff had the key in his hand that remained on the table. He looked up,
                  seized with a sort of surprise at her boldness, or possibly reminded by her voice
                  and glance of the person from whom she had inherited it. She snatched at the
                  instrument, and half succeeded in getting it out of his loosened fingers; but her
                  action recalled him to the present -- he recovered it speedily. </p>
               <p>"Now, Catherine Linton," he said, "stand off, or I shall knock you down, and that
                  will make Mrs. Dean mad." </p>
               <p>Regardless of this warning, she captured his closed hand and its contents again.
                  "We will go!" she repeated, exerting her utmost efforts to cause the iron muscles
                  to relax; and finding that her nails made no impression, she applied her teeth
                  pretty sharply. Heathcliff glanced at me a glance that kept <pb n="II.262" facs="pageImages/II.270.png"/>me from interfering a moment. Catherine was too intent on
                  his fingers to notice his face. He opened them suddenly, and resigned the object
                  of dispute; but ere she had well secured it, he seized her with the liberated
                  hand, and pulling her on his knee, administered with the other a shower of
                  terrific slaps on both sides of the head, each sufficient to have fulfilled his
                  threat, had she been able to fall. </p>
               <p>At this diabolical violence I rushed on him furiously. "You villain!" I began to
                  cry, "you villain!" A touch on the chest silenced me. I am stout, and soon put out
                  of breath; and what with that and the rage, I staggered dizzily back, and felt
                  ready to suffocate or to burst a blood-vessel. The scene was over in two minutes.
                  Catherine, released, put her two hands to her temples, and looked just as if she
                  were not sure <pb n="II.263" facs="pageImages/II.271.png"/>whether her ears were off or on.
                  She trembled like a reed, poor thing, and leant against the table perfectly
                  bewildered. </p>
               <p>"I know how to chastise children, you see," said the scoundrel grimly, as he
                  stooped to repossess himself of the key, which had dropped to the floor. "Go to
                  Linton now, as I told you, and cry at your ease. I shall be your father to-morrow
                  -- all the father you'll have in a few days -- and you shall have plenty of that.
                  You can bear plenty; you're no weakling. You shall have a daily taste, if I catch
                  such a devil of a temper in your eyes again!" </p>
               <p>Cathy ran to me instead of Linton, and knelt down and put her burning cheek on my
                  lap, weeping aloud. Her cousin had shrunk into a corner of the settle, as quiet as
                  a mouse, congratulating himself, I dare say, that the correction had lighted on
                  another than him. Mr. Heathcliff, perceiving us all confounded, rose, and
                  expeditiously made the tea himself. <pb n="II.264" facs="pageImages/II.272.png"/>The cups and
                  saucers were laid ready. He poured it out, and handed me a cup. </p>
               <p>"Wash away your spleen," he said. "And help your own naughty pet and mine. It is
                  not poisoned, though I prepared it. I'm going out to seek your horses." </p>
               <p>Our first thought, on his departure, was to force an exit somewhere. We tried the
                  kitchen door, but that was fastened outside. We looked at the windows; they were
                  too narrow for even Cathy's little figure. </p>
               <p>"Master Linton," I cried, seeing we were regularly imprisoned, "you know what your
                  diabolical father is after, and you shall tell us, or I'll box your ears, as he
                  has done your cousin's." </p>
               <p>"Yes, Linton, you must tell," said Catherine. "It was for your sake I came, and it
                  will be wickedly ungrateful if you refuse." </p>
               <p>"Give me some tea -- I'm thirsty -- and then I'll tell you," he answered. -- "Mrs.
                  Dean, go <pb n="II.265" facs="pageImages/II.273.png"/>away. I don't like you standing over me
                  -- Now, Catherine, you are letting your tears fall into my cup. I won't drink
                  that. Give me another." </p>
               <p>Catherine pushed another to him, and wiped her face. I felt disgusted at the
                  little wretch's composure, since he was no longer in terror for himself. The
                  anguish he had exhibited on the moor subsided as soon as ever he entered Wuthering
                  Heights, so I guessed he had been menaced with an awful visitation of wrath if he
                  failed in decoying us there; and that accomplished, he had no further immediate
                  fears. </p>
               <p>"Papa wants us to be married," he continued, after sipping some of the liquid.
                  "And he knows your papa wouldn't let us marry now, and he's afraid of my dying if
                  we wait; so we are to be married in the morning, and you are to stay here all
                  night; and if you do as he wishes, you shall return home next day, and take me
                  with you." </p>
               <pb n="II.266" facs="pageImages/II.274.png"/>
               <p>"Take you with her, pitiful changeling!" I exclaimed. "You marry! Why, the man is
                  mad, or he thinks us fools every one. And do you imagine that beautiful young
                  lady, that healthy, hearty girl, will tie herself to a little perishing monkey
                  like you? Are you cherishing the notion that anybody, let alone Miss <pb n="273"/>Catherine Linton, would have you for a husband? You want whipping for bringing
                  us in here at all, with your dastardly puling tricks; and -- don't look so silly
                  now! I've a very good mind to shake you severely for your contemptible treachery
                  and your imbecile conceit." </p>
               <p>I did give him a slight shaking, but it brought on the cough, and he took to his
                  ordinary resource of moaning and weeping, and Catherine rebuked me. </p>
               <p>"Stay all night? No," she said, looking slowly round. "Ellen, I'll burn that door
                  down, but I'll get out." </p>
               <p>And she would have commenced the execu<pb n="II.267" facs="pageImages/II.275.png"/>tion of
                  her threat directly, but Linton was up in alarm for his dear self again. He
                  clasped her in his two feeble arms, sobbing, -- </p>
               <p>"Won't you have me, and save me? -- not let me come to the Grange? O darling
                  Catherine, you mustn't go and leave, after all! You must obey my father -- you
                  must!" </p>
               <p>"I must obey my own," she replied, "and relieve him from this cruel suspense. The
                  whole night! What would he think? He'll be distressed already. I'll either break
                  or burn a way out of the house. Be quiet! You're in no danger. But if you hinder
                  me -- Linton, I love papa better than you!" </p>
               <p>The mortal terror he felt of Mr. Heathcliff's anger restored to the boy his
                  coward's eloquence. Catherine was near distraught; still she persisted that she
                  must go home, and tried entreaty in her turn, persuading him to subdue his selfish
                  agony. While they were thus occupied, our gaoler re-entered. </p>
               <pb n="II.268" facs="pageImages/II.276.png"/>
               <p>"Your beasts have trotted off," he said, "and -- Now, Linton! snivelling again?
                  What has she been doing to you? Come, come; have done, and get to bed. In a month
                  or two, my lad, you'll be able to pay her back her present tyrannies with a
                  vigorous hand. You're pining for pure love, are you not? -- nothing else in the
                  world; and she shall have you! There, to bed! Zillah won't be here to-night. You
                  must undress yourself. Hush! hold your noise! Once in your own room, I'll not come
                  near you. You needn't fear. By chance you've managed tolerably. I'll look to the
                  rest." </p>

               <p>He spoke these words, holding the door open for his son to pass; and the latter
                  achieved his exit exactly as a spaniel might which suspected the person who
                  attended on it of designing a spiteful squeeze. The lock was re-secured.
                  Heathcliff approached the fire, where my mistress and I stood silent. Catherine
                  looked up, and instinc<pb n="II.269" facs="pageImages/II.277.png"/>tively raised her hand to
                  her cheek. His neighbourhood revived a painful sensation. Anybody else would have
                  been incapable of regarding the childish act with sternness, but he scowled on her
                  and muttered, -- </p>
               <p>"Oh! you are not afraid of me? Your courage is well disguised; you seem damnably
                  afraid!" </p>
               <p>"I am afraid now," she replied, "because, if I stay, papa will be miserable; and
                  how can I endure making him miserable when he -- when he -- Mr. Heathcliff, let me
                  go home! I promise to marry Linton; papa would like me to, and I love him. Why
                  should you wish to force me to do what I'll willingly do of myself?" </p>
               <p>"Let him dare to force you!" I cried. "There's law in the land -- thank God there
                  is! -- though we be in an out-of-the-way place. I'd inform if he were my own son.
                  And it's felony, without benefit of clergy." </p>
               <p>"Silence!" said the ruffian. "To the <pb n="II.270" facs="pageImages/II.278.png"/>devil with
                  your clamour! I don't want you to speak. -- Miss Linton, I shall enjoy myself
                  remarkably in thinking your father will be miserable; I shall not sleep for
                  satisfaction. You could have hit on no surer way of fixing your residence under my
                  roof for the next twenty-four hours than informing me that such an event would
                  follow. As to your promise to marry Linton, I'll take care you shall keep it, for
                  you shall not quit this place till it is fulfilled."</p>
               <p>"Send Ellen, then, to let papa know I'm safe!" exclaimed Catherine, weeping
                  bitterly; "or marry me now. Poor papa! -- Ellen, he'll think we're lost. What
                  shall we do?" </p>
               <p>"Not he! He'll think you are tired of waiting on him, and run off for a little
                  amusement," answered Heathcliff. "You cannot deny that you entered my house of
                  your own accord, in contempt of his injunctions to the contrary. And it is quite
                  natural that you should desire amusement at your age, and that you would weary of
                  nursing a sick man, and <pb n="II.271" facs="pageImages/II.279.png"/>that man only your
                  father. Catherine, his happiest days were over when your days began. He cursed
                  you, I dare say, for coming into the world (I did, at least), and it would just do
                  if he cursed you as he went out of it. I'd join him. I don't love you. How should
                  I? Weep away. As far as I can see, it will be your chief diversion hereafter,
                  unless Linton make amends for other losses; and your provident parent appears to
                  fancy he may. His letters of advice and consolation entertained me vastly. In his
                  last he recommended my jewel to be careful of his, and kind to her when he got
                  her. Careful and kind -- that's paternal. But Linton requires his whole stock of
                  care and kindness for himself. Linton can play the little tyrant well. He'll
                  undertake to torture any number of cats, if their teeth be drawn and their claws
                  pared. You'll be able to tell his uncle fine tales of his kindness when you get
                  home again, I assure you." </p>
               <p>"You're right there!" I said: "explain <pb n="II.272" facs="pageImages/II.280.png"/>your
                  son's character; show his resemblance to yourself; and then, I hope, Miss Cathy
                  will think twice before she takes the cockatrice!" </p>
               <p>"I don't much mind speaking of his amiable qualities now," he answered, "because
                  she must either accept him or remain a prisoner, and you along with her, till your
                  master dies. I can detain you both, quite concealed, here. If you doubt, encourage
                  her to retract her word, and you'll have an opportunity of judging." </p>
               <p>"I'll not retract my word," said Catherine. "I'll marry him within this hour, if I
                  may go to Thrushcross Grange afterwards. Mr. Heathcliff, you're a cruel man, but
                  you're not a fiend; and you won't, from mere malice, destroy irrevocably all my
                  happiness. If papa thought I had left him on purpose, and if he died before I
                  returned, could I bear to live? I've given over crying, but I'm going to kneel
                  here at your knee; and I'll not get up, and I'll not take my eyes from your face
                  till you <pb n="II.273" facs="pageImages/II.281.png"/>look back at me! No, don't turn away --
                  do look! You'll see nothing to provoke you. I don't hate you. I'm not angry that
                  you struck me. Have you never loved anybody in all your life, uncle? never? Ah!
                  you must look once. I'm so wretched, you can't help being sorry and pitying me." </p>
               <p>"Keep your eft's fingers off, and move, or I'll kick you!" cried Heathcliff,
                  brutally repulsing her. "I'd rather be hugged by a snake. How the devil can you
                  dream of fawning on me? I detest you!" </p>
               <p>He shrugged his shoulders, shook himself, indeed, as if his flesh crept with
                  aversion, and thrust back his chair, while I got up and opened my mouth to
                  commence a downright torrent of abuse. But I was rendered dumb in the middle of
                  the first sentence by a threat that I should be shown into a room by myself the
                  very next syllable I uttered. It was growing dark. We heard a sound of voices at
                  the garden gate. Our host hurried <pb n="II.274" facs="pageImages/II.282.png"/>out instantly.
                  He had his wits about him; we had not. There was a talk of two or three minutes,
                  and he returned alone. </p>
               <p>"I thought it had been your cousin Hareton," I observed to Catherine. "I wish he
                  would arrive. Who knows but he might take our part?" </p>
               <p>"It was three servants sent to seek you from the Grange," said Heathcliff,
                  overhearing me. "You should have opened a lattice and called out; but I could
                  swear that chit is glad you didn't. She's glad to be obliged to stay, I'm
                  certain." </p>
               <p>At learning the chance we had missed we both gave vent to our grief without
                  control, and he allowed us to wail on till nine o'clock. Then he bade us go
                  upstairs, through the kitchen, to Zillah's chamber; and I whispered my companion
                  to obey. Perhaps we might contrive to get through the window there, or into a
                  garret, and out by its skylight. The window, however, was narrow, like those <pb n="II.275" facs="pageImages/II.283.png"/>below, and the garret trap was safe from our
                  attempts, for we were fastened in as before. We neither of us lay down. Catherine
                  took her station by the lattice, and watched anxiously for morning, a deep sigh
                  being the only answer I could obtain to my frequent entreaties that she would try
                  to rest. I seated myself in a chair, and rocked to and fro, passing harsh judgment
                  on my many derelictions of duty, from which, it struck me then, all the
                  misfortunes of my employers sprang. It was not the case in reality, I am aware,
                  but it was in my imagination that dismal night; and I thought Heathcliff himself
                  less guilty than I. </p>
               <p>At seven o'clock he came and inquired if Miss Linton had risen. She ran to the
                  door immediately, and answered, "Yes." "Here, then," he said, opening it, and
                  pulling her out. <pb n="II.276" facs="pageImages/II.284.png"/>I rose to follow, but he turned
                  the lock again. I demanded my release. </p>
               <p>"Be patient," he replied. "I'll send up your breakfast in a while." </p>
               <p>I thumped on the panels and rattled the latch angrily, and Catherine asked why I
                  was still shut up? He answered, I must try to endure it another hour; and they
                  went away. I endured it two or three hours. At length I heard a footstep -- not
                  Heathcliff's. </p>
               <p>"I've brought you something to eat," said a voice. "Oppen t' door!" </p>
               <p>Complying eagerly, I beheld Hareton, laden with food enough to last me all day. </p>
               <p>"Tak it," he added, thursting the tray into my hand. </p>
               <p>"Stay one minute," I began. </p>
               <p>"Nay," cried he, and retired, regardless of any prayers I could pour forth to
                  detain him. </p>
               <p>And there I remained enclosed the whole day, and the whole of the next night, and
                     an<pb n="II.277" facs="pageImages/II.285.png"/>other, and another. Five nights and four
                  days I remained altogether, seeing nobody but Hareton, once every morning; and he
                  was a model of a gaoler -- surly and dumb, and deaf to every attempt at moving his
                  sense of justice or compassion. </p>
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               <head>Chapter XIV</head>
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               <p>In the fifth morning, or rather afternoon, a different step approached -- lighter
                  and shorter -- and, this time, the person entered the room. It was Zillah; donned
                  in her scarlet shawl, with a black silk bonnet on her head, and a willow basket
                  swung to her arm. </p>
               <p>"Eh, dear! Mrs. Dean," she exclaimed. "Well! there is a talk about you at
                  Gimmerton. I never thought, but you were sunk in the Blackhorse marsh, and Missy
                  with you, till master told me you'd been found, and he'd <pb n="II.279" facs="pageImages/II.287.png"/>lodged you here! What, and you must have got on an island,
                  sure ? And how long were you in the hole ? Did master save you, Mrs. Dean ? But
                  you're not so thin -- you've not been so poorly, have you ?" </p>
               <p>"Your master is a true scoundrel!" I replied. "But he shall answer for it. He
                  needn't have raised that tale -- it shall all be laid bare!" </p>
               <p>"What do you mean?" asked Zillah. "It's not his tale -- they tell that in the
                  village -- about your being lost in the marsh; and I calls to Earnshaw, when I
                  come in -- " </p>
               <p>" 'Eh, they's queer things, Mr. Hareton, happened since I went off. It's a sad
                  pity of that likely young lass, and cant Nelly Dean.' </p>
               <p>"He stared. I thought he had not heard aught, so I told him the rumour. </p>
               <p>"The master listened, and he just smiled to himself, and said -- </p>
               <p>"'If they have been in the marsh, they are out now, Zillah. Nelly Dean is lodged,
                  at this <pb n="II.280" facs="pageImages/II.288.png"/>minute, in your room. You can tell her
                  to flit, when you go up; here is the key. The bog-water got into her head, and she
                  would have run home, quite flighty, but I fixed her, till she came round to her
                  senses. You can bid her go to the Grange, at once, if she be able, and carry a
                  message from me, that her young lady will follow in time to attend the Squire's
                  funeral."' </p>
               <p>"Mr. Edgar is not dead?" I gasped. "O Zillah, Zillah!" </p>
               <p>"No, no. Sit you down, my good mistress," she replied; "you're right sickly yet.
                  He's not dead. Dr. Kenneth thinks he may last another day. I met him on the road
                  and asked." </p>
               <p>Instead of sitting down, I snatched my outdoor things and hastened below, for the
                  way was free. On entering the house I looked about for some one to give
                  information of Catherine. The place was filled with sunshine, and the <pb n="II.281" facs="pageImages/II.289.png"/>door stood wide open, but nobody seemed at hand.
                  As I hesitated whether to go off at once or return and seek my mistress, a slight
                  cough drew my attention to the hearth. Linton lay on the settle, sole tenant,
                  sucking a stick of sugar-candy, and pursuing my movements with apathetic eyes.
                  "Where is Miss Catherine?" I demanded sternly, supposing I could frighten him into
                  giving intelligence by catching him thus alone. He sucked on like an innocent, </p>
               <p>"Is she gone?" I said. </p>
               <p>"No," he replied; "she's upstairs. She's not to go; we won't let her." </p>
               <p>"You won't let her, little idiot!" I exclaimed. "Direct me to her room
                  immediately, or I'll make you sing out sharply." </p>
               <p>"Papa would make you sing out if you attempted to get there," he answered. "He <pb n="II.282" facs="pageImages/II.290.png"/>says I'm not to be soft with Catherine. She's my
                  wife, and it's shameful that she should wish to leave me. He says she hates me and
                  wants me to die, that she may have my money. But she shan't have it, and she
                  shan't go home -- she never shall! She may cry and be sick as much as she
                  pleases!" </p>
               <p>He resumed his former occupation, closing his lids as if he meant to drop asleep. </p>
               <p>"Master Heathcliff," I resumed, "have you forgotten all Catherine's kindness to
                  you last winter, when you affirmed you loved her, and when she brought you books
                  and sang you songs, and came many a time through wind and snow to see you? She
                  wept to miss one evening, because you would be disappointed; <pb n="280"/>and you
                  felt then that she was a hundred times too good to you, and now you believe the
                  lies your father tells, though you know he detests you both. And you join him
                  against her. That's fine gratitude, is it not?" </p>
               <pb n="II.283" facs="pageImages/II.291.png"/>
               <p>The corner of Linton's mouth fell, and he took the sugar-candy from his lips. </p>
               <p>"Did she come to Wuthering Heights because she hated you?" I continued. "Think for
                  yourself! As to your money, she does not even know that you will have any. And you
                  say she's sick, and yet you leave her alone up there in a strange house -- you who
                  have felt what it is to be so neglected! You could pity your own sufferings, and
                  she pitied them too, but you won't pity hers! I shed tears, Master Heathcliff, you
                  see -- an elderly woman, and a servant merely; and you, after pretending such
                  affection and having reason to worship her almost, store every tear you have for
                  yourself, and lie there quite at ease. Ah! you're a heartless, selfish boy!" </p>
               <p>"I can't stay with her," he answered crossly. "I'll not stay by myself. She cries
                  so I can't bear it. And she won't give over, though I say I'll call my father. I
                  did call him once, and he threatened to strangle her if she was <pb n="II.284" facs="pageImages/II.292.png"/>not quiet; but she began again the instant he left the room,
                  moaning and grieving all night long, though I screamed for vexation that I
                  couldn't sleep." </p>
               <p>"Is Mr. Heathcliff out?" I inquired, perceiving that the wretched creature had no
                  power to sympathize with his cousin's mental tortures. </p>
               <p>"He's in the court," he replied, "talking to Dr. Kenneth, who says uncle is dying,
                  truly, at last. I'm glad, for I shall be master of the Grange after him. Catherine
                  always spoke of it as her house. It isn't hers. It's mine. Papa says everything
                  she has is mine. All her nice books are mine. She offered to give me them, and her
                  pretty birds, and her pony Minny, if I would get the key of our room and let her
                  out; but I told her she had nothing to give -- they were all, all mine. And then
                  she cried, and took a little picture from her neck, and said I should have that --
                  two pictures in a gold case, on one side her mother, <pb n="II.285" facs="pageImages/II.293.png"/>and on the other, uncle, when they were young. That was
                  yesterday. I said they were mine too, and tried to get them from her. The spiteful
                  thing wouldn't let me; she pushed me off, and hurt me. I shrieked out; that
                  frightens her. She heard papa coming, and she broke the hinges and divided the
                  case, and gave me her mother's portrait. The other she attempted to hide; but papa
                  asked what was the matter, and I explained it. He took the one I had away, and
                  ordered her to resign hers to me. She refused, and he -- he struck her down, and
                  wrenched it off the chain, and crushed it with his foot." </p>
               <p>"And were you pleased to see her struck?" I asked, having my designs in
                  encouraging his talk. </p>
               <p>"I winked," he answered. "I wink to see my father strike a dog or a horse; he does
                  it so hard. Yet I was glad at first. She deserved punishing for pushing me. But
                  when papa was gone she made me come to the window, and <pb n="II.286" facs="pageImages/II.294.png"/>showed me her cheek cut on the inside, against her teeth,
                  and her mouth filling with blood; and then she gathered up the bits of the
                  picture, and went and sat down with her face to the wall, and she has never spoken
                  to me since, and I sometimes think she can't speak for pain. I don't like to think
                  so; but she's a naughty thing for crying continually, and she looks so pale and
                  wild, I'm afraid of her." </p>
               <p>"And you can get the key if you choose?" I said. </p>
               <p>"Yes, when I am upstairs," he answered. "But I can't walk upstairs now." </p>
               <p>"In what apartment is it?" I asked. </p>
               <p>"Oh," he cried, "I shan't tell you where it is! It is our secret. Nobody, neither
                  Hareton nor Zillah, is to know. There! you've tired me; go away, go away!" And he
                  turned his face on to his arm, and shut his eyes again. </p>
               <p>I considered it best to depart without seeing Mr. Heathcliff, and bring a rescue
                  for my young lady from the Grange. <pb n="II.287" facs="pageImages/II.295.png"/>On reaching
                  it, the astonishment of my fellow-servants to see me, and their joy also, was
                  intense; and when they heard that their little mistress was safe, two or three
                  were about to hurry up, and shout the news at Mr. Edgar's door; but I bespoke the
                  announcement of it myself. How changed I found him even in those few days! He lay
                  an image of sadness and resignation waiting his death. Very young he looked;
                  though his actual age was thirty-nine, one would have called him ten years
                  younger, at least. He thought of Catherine, for he murmured her name. I touched
                  his hand and spoke. </p>
               <p>"Catherine is coming, dear master," I whispered. </p>
               <p>"She is alive and well, and will be here, I hope, tonight." </p>
               <p>I trembled at the first effects of this intelligence. He half rose up, looked
                  eagerly round the apartment, and then sank back in a swoon. As soon as he
                  recovered I related our com<pb n="II.288" facs="pageImages/II.296.png"/>pulsory visit and
                  detention at the Heights. I said Heathcliff forced me to go in, which was not
                  quite true. I uttered as little as possible against Linton, nor did I describe all
                  his father's brutal conduct, my intentions being to add no bitterness, if I could
                  help it, to his already overflowing cup. </p>
               <p>He divined that one of his enemy's purposes was to secure the personal property,
                  as well as the estate, to his son, or rather himself; yet why he did not wait till
                  his decease was a puzzle to my master, because ignorant how nearly he and his
                  nephew would quit the world together. However, he felt that his will had better be
                  altered. Instead of leaving Catherine's fortune at her own disposal, he determined
                  to put it in the hands of trustees for her use during life, and for her children,
                  if she had any, after her. By that means it could not fall to Mr. Heathcliff,
                  should Linton die. </p>
               <p>Having received his orders, I dispatched a <pb n="II.289" facs="pageImages/II.297.png"/>man
                  to fetch the attorney, and four more, provided with serviceable weapons, to demand
                  my young lady of her gaoler. Both parties were delayed very late. The single
                  servant returned first. He said Mr. Green, the lawyer, was out when he arrived at
                  his house, and he had to wait two hours for his re-entrance; and then Mr. Green
                  told him he had a little business in the village, that must be done, but he would
                  be at Thrushcross Grange before morning. The four men came back unaccompanied
                  also. They brought word that Catherine was ill -- too ill to quit her room -- and
                  Heathcliff would not suffer them to see her. I scolded the stupid fellows well for
                  listening to that tale, which I would not carry to my master, resolving to take a
                  whole bevy up to the Heights at daylight, and storm it literally, unless the
                  prisoner were quietly surrendered to us. Her father shall see her, I vowed, and
                  vowed <pb n="II.290" facs="pageImages/II.298.png"/>again, if that devil be killed on his own
                  door-stones in trying to prevent it! </p>
               <p>Happily I was spared the journey and the trouble. I had gone downstairs at three
                  o'clock to fetch a jug of water, and was passing through the hall with it in my
                  hand, when a sharp knock at the front door made me jump. "Oh! it is Green," I
                  said, recollecting myself -- "only Green"; and I went on, intending to send
                  somebody else to open it; but the knock was repeated, not loud, and still
                  importunately. I put the jug on the banister and hastened to admit him myself. The
                  harvest moon shone clear outside. It was not the attorney. My own sweet little
                  mistress sprang on my neck, sobbing, -- </p>
               <p>"Ellen! Ellen! is papa alive?" </p>
               <p>"Yes!" I cried -- "yes, my angel, he is! God be thanked, you are safe with us
                  again!" </p>
               <p>She wanted to run, breathless as she was, upstairs to Mr. Linton's room, but I
                     com<pb n="II.291" facs="pageImages/II.299.png"/>pelled her to sit down on a chair, and
                  made her drink, and washed her pale face, chafing it into a faint colour with my
                  apron. Then I said I must go first and tell of her arrival, imploring her to say
                  she should be happy with young Heathcliff. She stared, but soon comprehending why
                  I counselled her to utter the falsehood, she assured me she would not complain. </p>
               <p>I couldn't abide to be present at their meeting. I stood outside the chamber door
                  a quarter of an hour, and hardly ventured near the bed, then. </p>
               <p>All was composed, however. Catherine's despair was as silent as her father's joy.
                  She supported him calmly, in appearance, and he fixed on her features his raised
                  eyes, that seemed dilating with ecstasy. </p>
               <p>He died blissfully, Mr. Lockwood; he died so. Kissing her cheek, he murmured, -- </p>
               <p>"I am going to her; and you, darling child, shall come to us," and never stirred
                  or spoke <pb n="II.292" facs="pageImages/II.300.png"/>again, but continued that rapt, radiant
                  gaze till his pulse imperceptibly stopped and his soul departed. None could have
                  noticed the exact minute of his death, it was so entirely without a struggle. </p>
               <p>Whether Catherine had spent her tears, or whether the grief were too weighty to
                  let them flow, she sat there dry-eyed till the sun rose; she sat till noon, and
                  would still have remained brooding over that deathbed, but I insisted on her
                  coming away and taking some repose. It was well I succeeded in removing her, for
                  at dinner-time appeared the lawyer, having called at Wuthering Heights to get his
                  instructions how to behave. He had sold himself to Mr. Heathcliff; that was the
                  cause of his delay in obeying my master's summons. Fortunately, no thought of
                  worldly affairs crossed the latter's mind, to disturb him, after his daughter's
                  arrival. </p>
               <p>Mr. Green took upon himself to order <pb n="II.293" facs="pageImages/II.301.png"/>everything
                  and everybody about the place. He gave all the servants but me notice to quit. He
                  would have carried his delegated authority to the point of insisting that Edgar
                  Linton should not be buried beside his wife, but in the chapel with his family.
                  There was the will, however, to hinder that, and my loud protestations against any
                  infringement of its directions. The funeral was hurried over. Catherine, Mrs.
                  Linton Heathcliff now, was suffered to stay at the Grange till her father's corpse
                  had quitted it. </p>
               <p>She told me that her anguish had at last spurred Linton to incur the risk of
                  liberating her. She heard the men I sent disputing at the door, and she gathered
                  the sense of Heathcliff's answer. It drove her desperate. Linton, who had been
                  conveyed up to the little parlour soon after I left, was terrified into fetching
                  the key before his father reascended. He had the cunning to unlock and relock <pb n="II.294" facs="pageImages/II.302.png"/>the door, without shutting it; and when he should
                  have gone to bed, he begged to sleep with Hareton, and his petition was granted
                  for once. Catherine stole out before break of day. She dare not try the doors,
                  lest the dogs should raise an alarm. She visited the empty chambers and examined
                  their windows, and luckily lighting on her mother's, she got easily out of its
                  lattice, and on to the ground by means of the fir-tree close by. Her accomplice
                  suffered for his share in the escape, notwithstanding his timid contrivances. </p>
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               <head>Chapter XV</head>
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               <p>The evening after the funeral, my young lady and I were seated in the library; now
                  musing mournfully, one of us despairingly, on our loss, now venturing conjectures
                  as to the gloomy future. </p>
               <p>We had just agreed the best destiny which could await Catherine, would be a
                  permission to continue resident at the Grange, at least during Linton's life: he
                  being allowed to join her there, and I to remain as housekeeper. That seemed
                  rather too favourable an arrange<pb n="II.296" facs="pageImages/II.304.png"/>ment to be hoped
                  for, and yet I did hope, and began to cheer up under the prospect of retaining my
                  home, and my employment, and, above all, my beloved young mistress, when a servant
                  -- one of the discarded ones, not yet departed -- rushed hastily in, and said,
                  "that devil Heathcliff" was coming through the court: should he fasten the door in
                  his face ? </p>
               <p>If we had been mad enough to order that proceeding, we had not time. He made no
                  ceremony of knocking, or announcing his name; he was master, and availed himself
                  of the master's privilege to walk straight in, without saying a word. </p>
               <p>The sound of our informant's voice directed him to the library: he entered, and
                  motioning him out, shut the door. </p>
               <p>It was the same room into which he had been ushered, as a guest, eighteen years
                  before: the same moon shone through the window; and the same autumn landscape lay
                  outside. We had not yet lighted a candle, <pb n="II.297" facs="pageImages/II.305.png"/>but
                  all the apartment was visible, even to the portraits on the wall -- the splendid
                  head of Mrs. Linton, and the graceful one of her husband. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff advanced to the hearth. Time had little altered his person either.
                  There was the same man; his dark face rather sallower, and more composed, his
                  frame a stone or two heavier, perhaps, and no other difference. </p>
               <p>Catherine had risen with an impulse to dash out, when she saw him. </p>

               <p>"Stop!" he said, arresting her by the arm. "No more runnings away! Where would you
                  go? I'm come to fetch you home, and I hope you will be a dutiful daughter, and not
                  encourage my son to further disobedience. I was embarrassed how to punish him when
                  I discovered his part in the business -- be's such a cobweb, a pinch would
                  annihilate him -- but you'll see by his look that he has received his due. I
                  brought him down one evening, the day before yesterday, and just set him in <pb n="II.298" facs="pageImages/II.306.png"/>a chair, and never touched him afterwards. I sent
                  Hareton out, and we had the room to ourselves. In two hours I called Joseph to
                  carry him up again; and since then my presence is as potent on his nerves as a
                  ghost, and I fancy he sees me often, though I am not near. Hareton says he wakes
                  and shrieks in the night by the hour together, and calls you to protect him from
                  me; and whether you like your precious mate or not, you must come. He's your
                  concern now; I yield all my interest in him to you." </p>
               <p>"Why not let Catherine continue here," I pleaded, "and send Master Linton to her?
                  As you hate them both, you'd not miss them. They can only be a daily plague to
                  your unnatural heart." </p>
               <p>"I'm seeking a tenant for the Grange," he answered, </p>
               <p>"and I want my children about me, to be sure. Besides, that lass owes me her
                  services for her bread. I'm not going to nurture her in luxury and idleness after
                  Linton has <pb n="II.299" facs="pageImages/II.307.png"/>gone. Make haste and get ready now,
                  and don't oblige me to compel you." </p>
               <p>"I shall," said Catherine. "Linton is all I have to love in the world, and though
                  you have done what you could to make him hateful to me, and me to him, you cannot
                  make us hate each other. And I defy you to hurt him when I am by, and I defy you
                  to frighten me." </p>
               <p>"You are a boastful champion," replied Heathcliff, </p>
               <p>"but I don't like you well enough to hurt him; you shall get the full benefit of
                  the torment as long as it lasts. It is not I who will make him hateful to you; it
                  is his own sweet spirit. He's as bitter as gall at your desertion and its
                  consequences. Don't expect thanks for this noble devotion. I heard him draw a
                  pleasant picture to <pb n="288"/>Zillah of what he would do if he were as strong
                  as I. The inclination is there, and his very weakness will sharpen his wits to
                  find a substitute for strength." </p>
               <p>"I know he has a bad nature," said Cathe<pb n="II.300" facs="pageImages/II.308.png"/>rine;
                  "he's your son. But I'm glad I've a better, to forgive it; and I know he loves me,
                  and for that reason I love him. Mr. Heathcliff, you have nobody to love you; and
                  however miserable you make us, we shall still have the revenge of thinking that
                  your cruelty arises from your greater misery. You are miserable, are you not? --
                  lonely, like the devil, and envious like him? Nobody loves you -- nobody will cry
                  for you when you die. I wouldn't be you." </p>
               <p>Catherine spoke with a kind of dreary triumph. She seemed to have made up her mind
                  to enter into the spirit of her future family, and draw pleasure from the griefs
                  of her enemies. </p>
               <p>"You shall be sorry to be yourself presently," said her father-in-law, "if you
                  stand there another minute. Begone, witch, and get your things!" </p>
               <p>She scornfully withdrew. In her absence I began to beg for Zillah's <pb n="II.301" facs="pageImages/II.309.png"/>place at the Heights, offering to resign mine to her; but he
                  would suffer it on no account. He bade me be silent; and then, for the first time,
                  allowed himself a glance round the room and a look at the pictures. Having studied
                  Mrs. Linton's, he said, -- </p>
               <p>"I shall have that home -- not because I need it, but -- " He turned abruptly to
                  the fire, and continued, with what, for lack of a better word, I must call a smile
                  -- "I'll tell you what I did yesterday. I got the sexton, who was digging Linton's
                  grave, to remove the earth off her coffin-lid, and I opened it. I thought, once, I
                  would have stayed there. When I saw her face again -- it is hers yet -- he had
                  hard work to stir me; but he said it would change if the air blew on it, and so I
                  struck one side of the coffin loose, and covered it up -- not Linton's side, damn
                  him! I wish he'd been soldered in lead. And I bribed the sexton to pull it away
                  when I'm <pb n="II.302" facs="pageImages/II.310.png"/>laid there, and slide mine out too.
                  I'll have it made so. And then, by the time Linton gets to us he'll not know which
                  is which." </p>
               <p>"You are very wicked Mr. Heathcliff!" I exclaimed. "Were you not ashamed to
                  disturb the dead?" </p>
               <p>"I disturbed nobody, Nelly," he replied, "and I gave some ease to myself. I shall
                  be a great deal more comfortable now, and you'll have a better chance of keeping
                  me underground when I get there. Disturbed her! No! She has disturbed me, night
                  and day, through eighteen years, incessantly, remorselessly, till yesternight; and
                  yesternight I was tranquil. I dreamt I was sleeping the last sleep by that
                  sleeper, with my heart stopped and my cheek frozen against hers." </p>
               <p>"And if she had been dissolved into earth, or worse, what would you have dreamt of
                  then?" I said. </p>
               <p>"Of dissolving with her, and being more <pb n="II.303" facs="pageImages/II.311.png"/>happy
                  still," he answered. "Do you suppose I dread any change of that sort? I expected
                  such a transformation on raising the lid, but I'm better pleased that it should
                  not commence till I share it. Besides, unless I had received a distinct impression
                  of her passionless features, that strange feeling would hardly have been removed.
                  It began oddly. You know I was wild after she died, and eternally, from dawn to
                  dawn, praying her to return to me her spirit. I have a strong faith in ghosts; I
                  have a conviction that they can and do exist among us. The day she was buried
                  there came a fall of snow. In the evening I went to the churchyard. It blew bleak
                  as winter; all round was solitary. I didn't fear that her fool of a husband would
                  wander up the den so late, and no one else had business to bring them there. Being
                  alone, and conscious two yards of loose earth was the sole barrier between us, I
                  said to myself, <pb n="II.304" facs="pageImages/II.312.png"/>'I'll have her in my arms again!
                  If she be cold, I'll think it is this north wind that chills me, and if she be
                  motionless, it is sleep.' I got a spade from the toolhouse, and began to delve
                  with all my might. It scraped the coffin. I fell to work with my hands. The wood
                  commenced cracking about the screws. I was on the point of attaining my object,
                  when it seemed that I heard a sigh from some one above, close at the edge of the
                  grave, and bending down. 'If I can only get this off,' I muttered, 'I wish they
                  may shovel in the earth over us both!' and I wrenched at it more desperately
                  still. There was another sigh close at my ear. I appeared to feel the warm breath
                  of it displacing the sleet-laden wind. I knew no living thing in flesh and blood
                  was by; but as certainly as you perceive the approach to some substantial body in
                  the dark, though it cannot be discerned, so certainly I felt that Cathy was there
                  -- not under me, but on the earth. <pb n="II.305" facs="pageImages/II.313.png"/>A sudden
                  sense of relief flowed from my heart through every limb. I relinquished my labour
                  of agony, and turned consoled at once, unspeakably consoled. Her presence was with
                  me; it remained while I refilled the grave, and led me home. You may laugh if you
                  will, but I was sure I should see her there. I was sure she was with me, and I
                  could not help talking to her. Having reached the Heights, I rushed eagerly to the
                  door. It was fastened, and, I remember, that accursed Earnshaw and my wife opposed
                  my entrance. I remember stopping to kick the breath out of him, and then hurrying
                  upstairs to my room and hers. I looked round impatiently; I felt her by me; I
                  could almost see her, and yet I could not! I ought to have sweat blood then, from
                  the anguish of my yearning, from the fervour of my supplications to have but one
                  glimpse. I had not one. She showed herself, as she often was in life, a devil to
                  me! And since then, some<pb n="II.306" facs="pageImages/II.314.png"/>times more and sometimes
                  less, I've been the sport of that intolerable torture -- infernal! keeping my
                  nerves at such a stretch that, if they had not resembled catgut, they would long
                  ago have relaxed to the feebleness of Linton's. When I sat in the house with
                  Hareton it seemed that on going out I should meet her; when I walked on the moors
                  I should meet her coming in; when I went from home I hastened to return. She must
                  be somewhere at the Heights, I was certain. And when I slept in her chamber, I was
                  beaten out of that. I couldn't lie there, for the moment I closed my eyes she was
                  either outside the window, or sliding back the panels, or entering the room, or
                  even resting her darling head on the same pillow as she did when a child, and I
                  must open my lids to see. And so I opened and closed them a hundred times a night,
                  to be always disappointed. It racked me. I've often groaned aloud, till that old
                  rascal Joseph <pb n="II.307" facs="pageImages/II.315.png"/>no doubt believed that my
                  conscience was playing the fiend inside of me. Now, since I've seen her, I'm
                  pacified -- a little. It was a strange way of killing -- not by inches, but by
                  fractions of hairbreadths -- to beguile me with the spectre of a hope through
                  eighteen years!" </p>
               <p>Mr. Heathcliff paused and wiped his forehead. His hair clung to it, wet with
                  perspiration; his eyes were fixed on the red embers of the fire, the brows not
                  contracted, but raised next the temples, diminishing the grim aspect of his
                  countenance, but imparting a peculiar look of trouble and a painful appearance of
                  mental tension towards one absorbing subject. He only half addressed me, and I
                  maintained silence. I didn't like to hear him talk. After a short period he
                  resumed his meditation on the picture, took it down and leant it against the sofa
                  to contemplate it at better advantage; and while so occupied Catherine <pb n="II.308" facs="pageImages/II.316.png"/>entered, announcing that she was ready, when her
                  pony should be saddled. </p>
               <p>"Send that over to-morrow," said Heathcliff to me; then turning to her, he added,
                  "You may do without your pony. It is a fine evening, and you'll need no ponies at
                  Wuthering Heights, for what journeys you take your own feet will serve you. Come
                  along." </p>
               <p>"Good-bye, Ellen!" whispered my dear little mistress. As she kissed me, her lips
                  felt like ice. "Come and see me, Ellen; don't forget." </p>
               <p>"Take care you do no such thing, Mrs. Dean!" said her new father. "When I wish to
                  speak to you I'll come here. I want none of your prying at my house." </p>
               <p>He signed her to precede him, and casting back a look that cut my heart, she
                  obeyed. I watched them from the window walk down the garden. Heathcliff fixed
                  Catherine's <pb n="II.309" facs="pageImages/II.317.png"/>arm under his, though she disputed
                  the act at first evidently, and with rapid strides he hurried her into the alley,
                  whose trees concealed them. </p>
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               <head>Chapter XVI</head>
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               <p>I have paid a visit to the Heights, but I have not seen her since she left; Joseph
                  held the door in his hand, when I called to ask after her, and wouldn't let me
                  pass. He said Mrs. Linton was "thrang," and the master was not in. Zillah has told
                  me something of the way they go on, otherwise I should hardly know who was dead,
                  and who living. </p>
               <p>She thinks Catherine haughty, and does not like her, I can guess by her talk. My
                  young lady asked some aid of her, when she first <pb n="II.311" facs="pageImages/II.319.png"/>came, but Mr. Heathcliff told her to follow her own business, and let his
                  daughter-in-law look after herself, and Zillah willingly acquiesced, being a
                  narrow-minded selfish woman. Catherine evinced a child's annoyance at this
                  neglect; repaid it with contempt, and thus enlisted my informant among her
                  enemies, as securely as if she had done her some great wrong. </p>
               <p>I had a long talk with Zillah, about six weeks ago, a little before you came, one
                  day, when we foregathered on the moor; and this is what she told me. </p>
               <p>"The first thing Mrs. Linton did," she said, "on her arrival at the Heights, was
                  to run upstairs without even wishing good-evening to me and Joseph; she shut
                  herself into Linton's room, and remained till morning -- then, while the master
                  and Earnshaw were at breakfast, she entered the house and asked all in a quiver if
                  the doctor might be sent for ? her cousin was very ill." </p>
               <pb n="II.312" facs="pageImages/II.320.png"/>
               <p>"'We know that!' answered Heathcliff, 'but his life is not worth a farthing, and I
                  won't spend a farthing on him.' </p>
               <p>"'But I cannot tell how to do,' she said, 'and if nobody will help me, he'll die!' </p>
               <p>" 'Walk out of the room !' cried the master, 'and let me never hear a word more
                  about him ! None here care what becomes of him. If you do, act the nurse; if you
                  do not, lock him up and leave him.' </p>
               <p>"Then she began to bother me, and I said I'd had enough plague with the tiresome
                  thing. We each had our tasks, and hers was to wait on Linton; Mr. Heathcliff bade
                  me leave that labour to her. </p>
               <p>"How they managed together I can't tell. I fancy he fretted a great deal, and
                  moaned hisseln night and day; and she had precious little rest, one could guess by
                  her white face and heavy eyes. She sometimes came into the kitchen all wildered
                  like, and looked as if she would fain beg assistance. But I was not going <pb n="II.313" facs="pageImages/II.321.png"/>to disobey the master -- I never dare disobey
                  him, Mrs. Dean; and though I thought it wrong that Kenneth should not be sent for,
                  it was no concern of mine either to advise or complain, and I always refused to
                  meddle. Once or twice, after we had gone to bed, I've happened to open my door
                  again and seen her sitting crying on the stairs' top; and then I've shut myself in
                  quick, for fear of being moved to interfere. I did pity her then, I'm sure; still
                  I didn't wish to lose my place, you know. </p>
               <p>"At last, one night she came boldly into my chamber, and frightened me out of my
                  wits by saying, -- </p>
               <p>" 'Tell Mr. Heathcliff that his son is dying. I'm sure he is, this time. Get up
                  instantly, and tell him.' </p>
               <p>"Having uttered this speech, she vanished again. I lay a quarter of an hour
                  listening and trembling. Nothing stirred -- the house was quiet. </p>
               <pb n="II.314" facs="pageImages/II.322.png"/>
               <p>"She's mistaken, I said to myself. He's got over it. I needn't disturb them. And I
                  began to doze. But my sleep was marred a second time by a sharp ringing of the
                  bell -- the only bell we have, put up on purpose for Linton; and the master called
                  to me to see what was the matter, and inform them that he wouldn't have that noise
                  repeated. </p>
               <p>"I delivered Catherine's message. He cursed to himself, and in a few minutes came
                  out with a lighted candle, and proceeded to their room. I followed. Mrs.
                  Heathcliff was seated by the bedside with her hands folded on her knees. Her
                  father-in-law went up, held the light to Linton's face, looked at him, and touched
                  him. Afterwards he turned to her. </p>
               <p>" 'Now, Catherine,' he said, 'how do you feel?' </p>
               <p>"She was dumb. </p>
               <p>" 'How do you feel, Catherine?' he repeated. </p>
               <p>" 'He's safe, and I'm free,' she answered. 'I should feel well, but,' she
                  continued, with <pb n="II.315" facs="pageImages/II.323.png"/>a bitterness she couldn't
                  conceal, 'you have left me so long to struggle against death alone that I feel and
                  see only death. I feel like death.' </p>
               <p>"And she looked like it too. I gave her a little wine. Hareton and Joseph, who had
                  been wakened by the ringing and the sound of feet, and heard our talk from
                  outside, now entered. Joseph was fain, I believe, of the lad's removal; Hareton
                  seemed a thought bothered, though he was more taken up with staring at Catherine
                  than thinking of Linton. But the master bade him get off to bed again; we didn't
                  want his help. He afterwards made Joseph remove the body to his chamber, and told
                  me to return to mine, and Mrs. Heathcliff remained by herself. </p>
               <p>"In the morning he sent me to tell her she must come down to breakfast. She had
                  undressed, and appeared going to sleep, and said she was ill, at which I hardly
                  wondered. I informed Mr. Heathcliff, and he replied, -- </p>
               <pb n="II.316" facs="pageImages/II.324.png"/>
               <p>" 'Well, let her be till after the funeral, and go up now and then to get her what
                  is needful; and as soon as she seems better, tell me.' " </p>
               <p>Cathy stayed upstairs a fortnight, according to Zillah, who visited her twice a
                  day, and would have been rather more friendly, but her attempts at increasing
                  kindness were proudly and promptly repelled. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff went up once to show her Linton's will. He had bequeathed the whole of
                  his and what had been her movable property to his father. The poor creature was
                  threatened or coaxed into that act during her week's absence when his uncle died.
                  The lands, being a minor, he could not meddle with. However, Mr. Heathcliff has
                  claimed and kept them in his wife's right and his also -- I suppose legally. At
                  any rate, Catherine, destitute of cash and friends, cannot disturb his possession. </p>

               <p>"Nobody," said Zillah, "ever approached <pb n="II.317" facs="pageImages/II.325.png"/>her
                  door, except that once, but I; and nobody asked anything about her. The first
                  occasion of her coming down into the house was on a Sunday afternoon. She had
                  cried out, when I carried up her dinner, that she couldn't bear any longer being
                  in the cold; and I told her the master was going to Thrushcross Grange, and
                  Earnshaw and I needn't hinder her from descending; so, as soon as she heard
                  Heathcliff's horse trot off, she made her appearance, donned in black, and her
                  yellow curls combed back behind her ears as plain as a Quaker. She couldn't comb
                  them out. </p>
               <p>"Joseph and I generally go to chapel on Sundays." The kirk, you know, has no
                  minister now, explained Mrs. Dean, and they call the Methodists' or Baptists'
                  place (I can't say which it is) at Gimmerton a chapel. </p>
               <p>"Joseph has gone," she continued, "but I thought proper to bide at home. Young
                  folks are always the better for an elder's overlooking; and <pb n="II.318" facs="pageImages/II.326.png"/>Hareton, with all his bashfulness, isn't a model of nice
                  behaviour. I let him know that his cousin would very likely sit with us, and she
                  had been always used to see the Sabbath respected, so he had as good leave his
                  guns and bits of indoor work alone while she stayed. He coloured up at the news,
                  and cast his eyes over his hands and clothes. The train-oil and gunpowder were
                  shoved out of sight in a minute. I saw he meant to give her his company, and I
                  guessed by his way he wanted to be presentable; so, laughing as I durst not laugh
                  when the master is by, I offered to help him, if he would, and joked at his
                  confusion. He grew sullen, and began to swear. </p>
               <p>"Now, Mrs. Dean," Zillah went on, seeing me not pleased by her manner, "you happen
                  think your young lady too fine for Mr. Hareton, and happen you're right, but I own
                  I should love well to bring her pride a <pb n="II.319" facs="pageImages/II.327.png"/>peg
                  lower. And what will all her learning and her daintiness do for her now? She's as
                  poor as you or I -- poorer, I'll be bound. You're saving, and I'm doing my little
                  all that road." </p>
               <p>Hareton allowed Zillah to give him her aid, and she flattered him into a good
                  humour. So, when Catherine came, half forgetting her former insults, he tried to
                  make himself agreeable, by the housekeeper's account. </p>
               <p>"Missis walked in," she said, "as chill as an icicle, and as high as a princess. I
                  got up and offered her my seat in the armchair. No, she turned up her nose at my
                  civility. Earnshaw rose too and bade her come to the settle, and sit close by the
                  fire; he was sure she was starved. </p>
               <p>" 'I've been starved a month and more,' she answered, resting on the word as
                  scornful as she could. </p>
               <p>"And she got a chair for herself, and placed it at a distance from both of us.
                  Having sat till she was warm, she began <pb n="II.320" facs="pageImages/II.328.png"/>to look
                  round, and discovered a number of books in the dresser. She was instantly upon her
                  feet again, stretching to reach them; but they were too high up. Her cousin, after
                  watching her endeavours a while, at last summoned courage to help her. She held
                  her frock, and he filled it with the first that came to hand. </p>
               <p>"That was a great advance for the lad. She didn't thank him, still he felt
                  gratified that she had accepted his assistance, and ventured to stand behind as
                  she examined them, and even to stoop and point out what struck his fancy in
                  certain old pictures which they contained. Nor was he daunted by the saucy style
                  in which she jerked the page from his finger. He contented himself with going a
                  bit farther back, and looking at her instead of the book. She continued reading,
                  or seeking for something to read. His attention became, by degrees, quite centred
                  in the study of her <pb n="II.321" facs="pageImages/II.329.png"/>thick, silky curls. Her face
                  he couldn't see, and she couldn't see him. And, perhaps not quite awake to what he
                  did, but attracted like a child to a candle, at last he proceeded from staring to
                  touching. He put out his hand and stroked one curl, as gently as if it were a
                  bird. He might have stuck a knife into her neck, she started round in such a
                  taking.</p>
               <p>" 'Get away this moment! How dare you touch me! Why are you stopping there?' she
                  cried in a tone of disgust. 'I can't endure you! I'll go upstairs again if you
                  come near me.' </p>
               <p>"Mr. Hareton recoiled, looking as foolish as he could do. He sat down in the
                  settle very quiet, and she continued turning over her volumes another half-hour.
                  Finally Earnshaw crossed over and whispered to me, -- </p>
               <p>" 'Will you ask her to read to us, Zillah? I'm stalled of doing naught; and I do
                  like -- I could like to hear her. Dunnot say I wanted it, but ask of yourseln.' </p>
               <pb n="II.322" facs="pageImages/II.330.png"/>
               <p>" 'Mr. Hareton wishes you would read to us, ma'am,' I said immediately. 'He'd take
                  it very kind -- he'd be much obliged.' </p>
               <p>"She frowned, and looking up, answered, -- </p>
               <p>" 'Mr. Hareton and the whole set of you will be good enough to understand that I
                  reject any pretence at kindness you have the hypocrisy to offer! I despise you,
                  and will have nothing to say to any of you! When I would have given my life for
                  one kind word, even to see one of your faces, you all kept off. But I won't
                  complain to you. I'm driven down here by the cold, not either to amuse you or
                  enjoy your society.' </p>
               <p>" 'What could I ha' done?' began Earnshaw. 'How was I to blame?' </p>
               <p>" 'Oh, you are an exception,' answered Mrs. Heathcliff. 'I never missed such a
                  concern as you.' </p>
               <p>" 'But I offered more than once, and asked,' he said, kindling up at her pertness
                  -- 'I asked Mr. Heathcliff to let me wake for you -- ' </p>
               <pb n="II.323" facs="pageImages/II.331.png"/>
               <p>" 'Be silent! I'll go out of doors, or anywhere, rather than have your
                  disagreeable voice in my ear,' said my lady. </p>
               <p>"Hareton muttered she might go to hell, for him, and unslinging his gun,
                  restrained himself from his Sunday occupations no longer. He talked now freely
                  enough, and she presently saw fit to retreat to her solitude; but the frost had
                  set in, and, in spite of her pride, she was forced to condescend to our company
                  more and more. However, I took care there should be no further scorning at my good
                  nature. Ever since I've been as stiff as herself, and she has no lover or liker
                  among us; and she does not deserve one, for, let them say the least <pb n="298"/>word to her, and she'll curl back without respect of any one. She'll snap at the
                  master himself, and as good as dares him to thrash her; and the more hurt she
                  gets, the more venomous she grows." </p>
               <p>At first, on hearing this account from Zillah, I determined to leave my situation,
                  take a cot<pb n="II.324" facs="pageImages/II.332.png"/>tage, and get Catherine to come and
                  live with me; but Mr. Heathcliff would as soon permit that as he would set up
                  Hareton in an independent house, and I can see no remedy at present, unless she
                  could marry again, and that scheme it does not come within my province to arrange. </p>

               <p>Thus ended Mrs. Dean's story. Notwithstanding the doctor's prophecy, I am rapidly
                  recovering strength; and though it be only the second week in January, I propose
                  getting out on horseback in a day or two, and riding over to Wuthering Heights to
                  inform my landlord that I shall spend the next six months in London; and, if he
                  likes, he may look out for another tenant to take the place after October. I would
                  not pass another winter here for much. </p>
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               <head>Chapter XVII</head>
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               <p>Yesterday was bright, calm, and frosty. I went to the Heights as I proposed; my
                  housekeeper entreated me to bear a little note from her to her young lady, and I
                  did not refuse, for the worthy woman was not conscious of anything odd in her
                  request. </p>
               <p>The front door stood open, but the jealous gate was fastened, as at my last visit;
                  I knocked and invoked Earnshaw from among the garden beds; he unchained it, and I
                  entered. The fellow is as handsome a rustic as need be seen. <pb n="II.326" facs="pageImages/II.334.png"/>I took particular notice of him this time; but then, he does
                  his best, apparently, to make the least of his advantages. </p>
               <p>I asked if Mr. Heathcliff were at home ? He answered, no; but he would be in at
                  dinner-time. It was eleven o'clock, and I announced my intention of going in, and
                  waiting for him, at which he immediately flung down his tools and accompanied me,
                  in the office of watchdog, not as a substitute for the host. </p>
               <p>We entered together; Catherine was there, making herself useful in preparing some
                  vegetables for the approaching meal; she looked more sulky and less spirited than
                  when I had seen her first. She hardly raised her eyes to notice me, and continued
                  her employment with the same disregard to common forms of politeness, as before;
                  never returning my bow and good morning by the slightest acknowledgment. </p>
               <p>"She does not seem so amiable," I thought, <pb n="II.327" facs="pageImages/II.335.png"/>"as
                  Mrs. Dean would persuade me to believe. She's a beauty, it is true; but not an
                  angel." </p>
               <p>Earnshaw surlily bid her remove her things to the kitchen. "Remove them yourself,"
                  she said, pushing them from her, as soon as she had done, and retiring to a stool
                  by the window, where she began to carve figures of birds and beasts, out of the
                  turnip parings in her lap. </p>
               <p>I approached her, pretending to desire a view of the garden; <pb n="300"/>and, as
                  I fancied, adroitly dropped Mrs. Dean's note on to her knee, unnoticed by Hareton;
                  but she asked aloud, "What is that?" and chucked it off. </p>
               <p>"A letter from your old acquaintance, the housekeeper at the Grange," I answered,
                  annoyed at her exposing my kind deed, and fearful lest it should be imagined a
                  missive of my own. She would gladly have gathered it up at this information, but
                  Hareton beat her. He <pb n="II.328" facs="pageImages/II.336.png"/>seized and put it in his
                  waistcoat, saying Mr. Heathcliff should look at it first. Thereat Catherine
                  silently turned her face from us, and very stealthily drew out her
                  pocket-handkerchief and applied it to her eyes; and her cousin, after struggling a
                  while to keep down his softer feelings, pulled out the letter and flung it on the
                  floor beside her, as ungraciously as he could. Catherine caught and perused it
                  eagerly; then she put a few questions to me concerning the inmates, rational and
                  irrational, of her former home, and gazing towards the hills, murmured in
                  soliloquy, -- </p>
               <p>"I should like to be riding Minny down there! I should like to be climbing up
                  there! Oh! I'm tired -- I'm stalled,Hareton!" And she leant her pretty head back
                  against the sill, with half a yawn and half a sigh, and lapsed into an aspect of
                  abstracted sadness, neither caring nor knowing whether we remarked her. </p>
               <pb n="II.329" facs="pageImages/II.337.png"/>
               <p>"Mrs. Heathcliff," I said, after sitting some time mute, "you are not aware that I
                  am an acquaintance of yours -- so intimate that I think it strange you won't come
                  and speak to me. My housekeeper never wearies of talking about and praising you,
                  and she'll be greatly disappointed if I return with no news of or from you, except
                  that you received her letter and said nothing." </p>
               <p>She appeared to wonder at this speech, and asked, -- </p>
               <p>"Does Ellen like you?" </p>
               <p>"Yes, very well," I replied hesitatingly. </p>
               <p>"You must tell her," she continued, "that I would answer her letter, but I have no
                  materials for writing -- not even a book from which I might tear a leaf." </p>
               <p>"No books!" I exclaimed. "How do you contrive to live here without them? if I may
                  take the liberty to inquire. Though provided with a large library, I'm frequently
                  very dull <pb n="II.330" facs="pageImages/II.338.png"/>at the Grange. Take my books away, and
                  I should be desperate." </p>
               <p>"I was always reading when I had them," said Catherine; "and Mr. Heathcliff never
                  reads, so he took it into his head to destroy my books. I have not had a glimpse
                  of one for weeks. Only once I searched through Joseph's store of theology, to his
                  great irritation. -- And once, Hareton, I came upon a secret stock in your room --
                  some Latin and Greek, and some tales and poetry, all old friends. I brought the
                  last here, and you gathered them, as a magpie gathers silver spoons, for the mere
                  love of stealing -- they are of no use to you; or else you concealed them in the
                  bad spirit that as you cannot enjoy them nobody else shall. Perhaps your envy
                  counselled Mr. Heathcliff to rob me of my treasures? But I've most of them written
                  on my brain and printed in my heart, and you cannot deprive me of those." </p>
               <pb n="II.331" facs="pageImages/II.339.png"/>
               <p>Earnshaw blushed crimson when his cousin made this revelation of his private
                  literary accumulations, and stammered an indignant denial of her accusations. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Hareton is desirous of increasing his amount of knowledge," I said, coming to
                  his rescue. "He is not envious but emulous of your attainments. He'll be a clever
                  scholar in a few years." </p>
               <p>"And he wants me to sink into a dunce meantime," answered Catherine. "Yes, I hear
                  him trying to spell and read to himself, and pretty blunders he makes! -- I wish
                  you would repeat 'Chevy Chase' as you did yesterday; it was extremely funny. I
                  heard you, and I heard you turning over the dictionary to seek out the hard words,
                  and then cursing because you couldn't read their explanations." </p>
               <p>The young man evidently thought it too bad that he should be laughed at for his
                  ignorance, and then laughed at for trying to remove it. I had a similar notion;
                  and re<pb n="II.332" facs="pageImages/II.340.png"/>membering Mrs. Dean's anecdote of his
                  first attempt at enlightening the darkness in which he had been reared, I
                  observed, -- </p>
               <p>"But, Mrs. Heathcliff, we have each had a commencement, and each stumbled and
                  tottered on the threshold. Had our teachers scorned instead of aiding us, we
                  should stumble and totter yet." </p>
               <p>"Oh!" she replied, "I don't wish to limit his acquirements. Still, he has no right
                  to appropriate what is mine, and make it ridiculous to me with his vile mistakes
                  and mispronunciations. Those books, both prose and verse, are consecrated to me by
                  other associations, and I hate to have them debased and profaned in his mouth.
                  Besides, of all, he has selected my favourite pieces that I love the most to
                  repeat, as if out of deliberate malice." Hareton's chest heaved in silence a
                  minute. He laboured under a severe sense of mortification and wrath, which it was
                  no easy task to suppress. <pb n="II.333" facs="pageImages/II.341.png"/>I rose, and, from a
                  gentlemanly idea of relieving his embarrassment, took up my station in the
                  doorway, surveying the external prospect as I stood. He followed my example, and
                  left the room, but presently reappeared, bearing half a dozen volumes in his
                  hands, which he threw into Catherine's lap, exclaiming, -- </p>
               <p>"Take them! I never want to hear, or read, or think of them again!" </p>
               <p>"I won't have them now," she answered. "I shall connect them with you, and hate
                  them." </p>
               <p>She opened one that had obviously been often turned over, and read a portion in
                  the drawling tone of a beginner, then laughed and threw it from her. "And listen,"
                  she continued provokingly, commencing a verse of an old ballad in the same
                  fashion. </p>
               <p>But his self-love would endure no further <pb n="II.334" facs="pageImages/II.342.png"/>torment. I heard, and not altogether disapprovingly, a manual check given to her
                  saucy tongue. The little wretch had done her utmost to hurt her cousin's sensitive
                  though uncultivated feelings, and a physical argument was the only mode he had of
                  balancing the account and repaying its effects on the inflictor. He afterwards
                  gathered the books and hurled them on the fire. I read in his countenance what
                  anguish it was to offer that sacrifice to spleen. I fancied that as they consumed
                  he recalled the pleasure they had already imparted and the triumph and
                  ever-increasing pleasure he had anticipated from them, and I fancied I guessed the
                  incitement to his secret studies also. He had been content with daily labour and
                  rough animal enjoyments till Catherine crossed his path. Shame at her scorn, and
                  hope of her approval, were his first prompters to higher pursuits; <pb n="II.335" facs="pageImages/II.343.png"/>and, instead of guarding him from one and winning him to the
                  other, his endeavours to raise himself had produced just the contrary result. </p>
               <p>"Yes, that's all the good that such a brute as you can get from them!" cried
                  Catherine, sucking her damaged lip, and watching the conflagration with indignant
                  eyes. </p>
               <p>"You'd better hold your tongue now," he answered fiercely. </p>
               <p>And his agitation precluded further speech. He advanced hastily to the entrance,
                  where I made way for him to pass. But ere he had crossed the door-stones, Mr.
                  Heathcliff, coming up the causeway, encountered him, and laying hold of his
                  shoulder, asked, -- </p>
               <p>"What's to do now, my lad?" </p>
               <p>"Naught, naught," he said, and broke away to enjoy his grief and anger in
                  solitude. </p>
               <p>Heathcliff gazed after him and sighed.</p>
               <p>"It will be odd if I thwart myself," he muttered, unconscious that I was behind
                  him. "But when I look for his father in his face, <pb n="II.336" facs="pageImages/II.344.png"/>I find her every day more. How the devil is he so like? I can hardly bear to see
                  him." </p>
               <p>He bent his eyes to the ground, and walked moodily in. There was a restless,
                  anxious expression in his countenance I had never remarked there before, and he
                  looked sparer in person. His daughter-in-law, on perceiving him through the
                  window, immediately escaped to the kitchen, so that I remained alone. </p>
               <p>"I'm glad to see you out of doors again, Mr. Lockwood," he said, in reply to my
                  greeting, "from selfish motives partly. I don't think I could readily supply your
                  loss in this desolation. I've wondered more than once what brought you here." </p>
               <p>"An idle whim, I fear, sir," was my answer, "or else an idle whim is going to
                  spirit me away. I shall set out for London next week, and I must give you warning
                  that I feel no disposition to retain Thrushcross Grange be<pb n="II.337" facs="pageImages/II.345.png"/>yond the twelve months I agreed to rent it. I believe I
                  shall not live there any more." </p>
               <p>"Oh, indeed; you're tired of being banished from the world, are you?" he said.
                  "But if you be coming to plead off paying for a place you won't occupy, your
                  journey is useless. I never relent in exacting my due from any one." </p>
               <p>"I'm coming to plead off nothing about it," I exclaimed, considerably irritated.
                  "Should you wish it, I'll settle with you now." And I drew my notebook from my
                  pocket. </p>
               <p>"No, no," he replied coolly; "you'll leave sufficient behind to cover your debts
                  if you fail to return. I'm not in such a hurry. Sit down and take your dinner with
                  us. A guest that is safe from repeating his visit can generally be made welcome.
                  -- Catherine, bring the things in. Where are you?" </p>
               <p>Catherine reappeared, bearing a tray of knives and forks. </p>
               <pb n="II.338" facs="pageImages/II.346.png"/>
               <p>"You may get your dinner with Joseph," muttered Heathcliff aside, "and remain in
                  the kitchen till he is gone." </p>
               <p>She obeyed his directions very punctually; perhaps she had no temptation to
                  transgress. Living among clowns and misanthropists, she probably cannot appreciate
                  a better class of people when she meets them. </p>
               <p>With Mr. Heathcliff, grim and saturnine, on the one hand, and Hareton, absolutely
                  dumb, on the other, I made a somewhat cheerless meal, and bade adieu early. I
                  would have departed by the back way, to get a last glimpse of Catherine and annoy
                  old Joseph; but Hareton received orders to lead up my horse, and my host himself
                  escorted me to the door, so I could not fulfil my wish. </p>
               <p>"How dreary life gets over in that house!" I reflected, while riding down the
                  road. "What a realization of something more romantic than a fairy tale it would
                  have been <pb n="II.339" facs="pageImages/II.347.png"/>for Mrs. Linton Heathcliff had she and
                  I struck up an attachment, as her good nurse desired, and migrated together into
                  the stirring atmosphere of the town!" </p>
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               <p>1802. -- This September, I was invited to devastate the moors of a friend, in the
                  North; and, on my journey to his abode, I unexpectedly came within fifteen miles
                  of Gimmerton. The hostler, at a roadside public-house, was holding a pail of water
                  to refresh my horses, when a cart of ven, green oats, newly reaped, passed by, and
                  he remarked -- </p>
               <p>"Yon's frough Gimmerton, nah! They're allas three wick after other folk wi' ther
                  harvest." </p>
               <pb n="II.341" facs="pageImages/II.349.png"/>
               <p>"Gimmerton ?" I repeated -- my residence in that locality had already grown dim
                  and dreamy. "Ah! I know! How far is it from this?" </p>
               <p>"Happen fourteen mile o'er th' hills, and a rough road," he answered. </p>
               <p>A sudden impulse seized me to visit Thrushcross Grange. It was scarcely noon, and
                  I conceived that I might as well pass the night under my own roof, as in an inn.
                  Besides, I could spare a day easily, to arrange matters with my landlord, and thus
                  save myself the trouble of invading the neighbourhood again. </p>
               <p>Having rested a while, I directed my senant to inquire the way to the village;
                  and, with great fatigue to our beasts, we managed the distance in some three
                  hours. </p>
               <p>I left him there, and proceeded down the valley alone. The grey church looked
                  greyer, and the lonely churchyard lonelier. I distinguished a moor sheep cropping
                  the short turf on the graves. It was sweet, warm weather <pb n="II.342" facs="pageImages/II.350.png"/>-- too warm for travelling; but the heat did not hinder me
                  from enjoying the delightful scenery above and below; had I seen it nearer August,
                  I'm sure it would have tempted me to waste a month among its solitudes. In winter,
                  nothing more dreary, in summer, nothing more divine, than those glens shut in by
                  hills, and those bluff, bold swells of heath. </p>
               <p>I reached the Grange before sunset, and knocked for admittance; <pb n="306"/>but
                  the family had retreated into the back premises, I judged, by one thin, blue
                  wreath curling from the kitchen chimney, and they did not hear. I rode into the
                  court. Under the porch a girl of nine or ten sat knitting, and an old woman
                  reclined on the house-steps, smoking a meditative pipe. </p>
               <p>"Is Mrs. Dean within?" I demanded of the dame. </p>
               <p>"Mistress Dean? Nay!" she answered, "shoo doesn't bide here; shoo's up at th'
                  Heights." </p>
               <pb n="II.343" facs="pageImages/II.351.png"/>
               <p>"Are you the housekeeper, then?" I continued. </p>
               <p>"Eea, aw keep th' hause," she replied. </p>
               <p>"Well, I'm Mr. Lockwood, the master. Are there any rooms to lodge me in, I wonder?
                  I wish to stay all night." </p>
               <p>"T'maister!" she cried in astonishment. "Whet! whoiver knew yah wur coming? Yah
                  sud ha' send word. They's nowt norther dry nor mensful abaht t' place, nowt there
                  isn't." </p>
               <p>She threw down her pipe and bustled in; the girl followed, and I entered too. Soon
                  perceiving that her report was true, and, moreover, that I had almost upset her
                  wits by my unwelcome apparition, I bade her be composed. I would go out for a
                  walk, and meantime she must try to prepare a corner of a sitting-room for me to
                  sup in, and a bedroom to sleep in. No sweeping and dusting -- only good fire and
                  dry sheets were necessary. She seemed willing to do her best, though <pb n="II.344" facs="pageImages/II.352.png"/>she thrust the hearth-brush into the grates in
                  mistake for the poker; and malappropriated several other articles of her craft;
                  but I retired, confiding in her energy for a resting-place against my return.
                  Wuthering Heights was the goal of my proposed excursion. An afterthought brought
                  me back when I had quitted the court. </p>
               <p>"All well at the Heights?" I inquired of the woman. </p>
               <p>"Eea, f'r owt ee knaw," she answered, skurrying away with a pan of hot cinders. </p>
               <p>I would have asked why Mrs. Dean had deserted the Grange, but it was impossible to
                  delay her at such a crisis, so I turned away and made my exit, rambling leisurely
                  along with the glow of a sinking sun behind, and the mild glory of a rising moon
                  in front -- one fading and the other brightening -- as I quitted the park and
                  climbed the stony by-road branching off to Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling. Before I
                  arrived in sight of it, all that re<pb n="II.345" facs="pageImages/II.353.png"/>mained of day
                  was a beamless amber light along the west; but I could see every pebble on the
                  path, and every blade of grass, by that splendid moon. I had neither to climb the
                  gate nor to knock; it yielded to my hand. That is an improvement, I thought. And I
                  noticed another by the aid of my nostrils -- a fragrance of stocks and wallflowers
                  wafted on the air from amongst the homely fruit-trees. </p>
               <p>Both doors and lattices were open; and yet, as is usually the case in a coal
                  district, a fine, red fire illuminated the chimney. The comfort which the eye
                  derives from it renders the extra heat endurable. But the house of Wuthering
                  Heights is so large that the inmates have plenty of space for withdrawing out of
                  its influence, and accordingly what inmates there were had stationed themselves
                  not far from one of the windows. I could both see them and hear them talk before I
                  entered, and looked and listened in conse<pb n="II.346" facs="pageImages/II.354.png"/>quence,
                  being moved thereto by a mingled sense of curiosity and envy that grew as I
                  lingered. </p>
               <p>"Con-trary!" said a voice as sweet as a silver bell. </p>
               <p>"That for the third time, you dunce! I'm not going to tell you again. Recollect,
                  or I'll pull your hair." </p>
               <p>"Contrary, then," answered another, in deep but softened tones. "And now, kiss me
                  for minding so well." </p>
               <p>"No; read it over first correctly, without a single mistake." </p>
               <p>The male speaker began to read. He was a young man respectably dressed and seated
                  at a table, having a book before him. His handsome features glowed with pleasure,
                  and his eyes kept impatiently wandering from the page to a small white hand over
                  his shoulder, which recalled him by a smart slap on the cheek whenever its owner
                  detected such signs of inattention. Its owner stood behind, her light, shining <pb n="II.347" facs="pageImages/II.355.png"/>ringlets blending at intervals with his brown
                  locks, as she bent to superintend his studies; and her face -- it was lucky he
                  could not see her face, or he would never have been so steady. I could, and I bit
                  my lip in spite at having thrown away the chance I might have had of doing
                  something besides staring at its smiting beauty. </p>
               <p>The task was done -- not free from further blunders; but the pupil claimed a
                  reward, and received at least five kisses, which, however, he generously returned.
                  Then they came to the door, and from their conversation I judged they were about
                  to issue out and have a walk on the moors. I supposed I should be condemned in
                  Hareton Earnshaw's heart, if not by his mouth, to the lowest pit in the infernal
                  regions if I showed my unfortunate person in his neighbourhood then; and feeling
                  very mean and malignant, I skulked round to seek refuge in the kitchen. There was
                  unobstructed admittance on that <pb n="II.348" facs="pageImages/II.356.png"/>side also, and
                  at the door sat my old friend Nelly Dean, sewing and singing a song, which was
                  often interrupted from within by harsh words of scorn and intolerance, uttered in
                  far from musical accents. </p>
               <p>"I'd rayther, by th' haulf, hev 'em swearing i' my lugs froh morn to neeght nor
                  hearken ye hahsiver!" said the tenant of the kitchen, in answer to an unheard
                  speech of Nelly's. "It's a blazing shame that I cannot oppen t' blessed Book but
                  yah set up them glories to Sattan, and all t' flaysome wickednesses that iver were
                  born into th' warld! Oh! ye're a raight nowt, and shoo's another, and that poor
                  lad'll be lost atween ye. Poor lad!" he added, with a groan; "he's witched, I'm
                  sartin on't! O Lord, judge 'em, for there's norther law nor justice among wer
                  rullers!" </p>
               <p>"No, or we should be sitting in flaming fagots, I suppose," retorted the singer.
                  "But wisht, old man, and read your Bible like a <pb n="II.349" facs="pageImages/II.357.png"/>Christian, and never mind me. This is 'Fairy Annie's Wedding' -- a bonny tune;
                  it goes to a dance." </p>
               <p>Mrs. Dean was about to recommence when I advanced; and recognizing me directly,
                  she jumped to her feet, crying, -- </p>
               <p>"Why, bless you, Mr. Lockwood! How could you think of returning in this way? All's
                  shut up at Thrushcross Grange. You should have given us notice." </p>
               <p>"I've arranged to be accommodated there for as long as I shall stay," I answered.
                  "I depart again tomorrow. And how are you transplanted here, Mrs. Dean? Tell me
                  that." </p>
               <p>"Zillah left, and Mr. Heathcliff wished me to come, soon after you went to London,
                  and stay till you returned. But step in, pray. Have you walked from Gimmerton this
                  evening?" </p>
               <p>"From the Grange," I replied. "And while they make me lodging room there, I want
                  to finish my business with your master, because <pb n="II.350" facs="pageImages/II.358.png"/>I don't think of having another opportunity in a hurry." </p>
               <p>"What business, sir?" said Nelly, conducting me into the house. "He's gone out at
                  present, and won't return soon." </p>
               <p>"About the rent," I answered. </p>
               <p>"Oh! then it is with Mrs. Heathcliff you must settle," she observed, "or rather
                  with me. She has not learned to manage her affairs yet, and I act for her; there's
                  nobody else." </p>
               <p>I looked surprised. </p>
               <p>"Ah! you have not heard of Heathcliff's death, I see," she continued. </p>
               <p>"Heathcliff dead!" I exclaimed, astonished. "How long ago?" </p>
               <p>"Three months since. But sit down, and let me take your hat, and I'll tell you all
                  about it. Stop; you have had nothing to eat, have you?" </p>
               <p>"I want nothing; I have ordered supper at home. You sit down too. I never dreamt
                  of his dying. Let me hear how it came to pass. <pb n="II.351" facs="pageImages/II.359.png"/>You say you don't expect them back for some time -- the young people?" </p>
               <p>"No. I have to scold them every evening for their late rambles, but they don't
                  care for me. At least have a drink of our old ale; it will do you good; you seem
                  weary." </p>
               <p>She hastened to fetch it before I could refuse, and I heard Joseph asking whether
                  "it warn't a crying scandal that she should have followers at her time of life.
                  And then, to get them jocks out o' t' maister's cellar! He fair shaamed to 'bide
                  still and see it." </p>
               <p>She did not stay to retaliate, but re-entered in a minute, bearing a reaming
                  silver pint, whose contents I lauded with becoming earnestness. And afterwards she
                  furnished me with the sequel of Heathcliff's history. He had a "queer" end, as she
                  expressed it. </p>

               <p>I was summoned to Wuthering Heights within a fortnight of your leaving us, she
                  said, and I obeyed joyfully, for Catherine's sake. <pb n="II.352" facs="pageImages/II.360.png"/>My first interview with her grieved and shocked me -- she
                  had altered so much since our separation. Mr. Heathcliff did not explain his
                  reasons for taking a new mind about my coming here; he only told me he wanted me,
                  and he was tired of seeing Catherine. I must make the little parlour my
                  sitting-room, and keep her with me. It was enough if he were obliged to see her
                  once or twice a day. She seemed pleased at this arrangement; and by degrees I
                  smuggled over a great number of books and other articles that had formed her
                  amusement at the Grange, and flattered myself we should get on in tolerable
                  comfort. The delusion did not last long. Catherine, contented at first, in a brief
                  space grew irritable and restless. For one thing, she was forbidden to move out of
                  the garden, and it fretted her sadly to be confined to its narrow bounds as spring
                  drew on; for another, in following the house I was forced to quit her <pb n="II.353" facs="pageImages/II.361.png"/>frequently, and she complained of loneliness. She
                  preferred quarrelling with Joseph in the kitchen to sitting at peace in her
                  solitude. I did not mind their skirmishes; but Hareton was often obliged to seek
                  the kitchen also .when the master wanted to have the house to himself; and though
                  in the beginning she either left it at his approach, or quietly joined in my
                  occupations, and shunned remarking or addressing him, and though he was always as
                  sullen and silent as possible, after a while she changed her behaviour and became
                  incapable of letting him alone, talking at him, commenting on his stupidity and
                  idleness, expressing her wonder how he could endure the life he lived, how he
                  could sit a whole evening staring into the fire and dozing. </p>
               <p>"He's just like a dog, is he not, Ellen?" she once observed, "or a cart-horse? He
                  does his work, eats his food, and sleeps eternally. What a blank, dreary mind he
                  must have! -- Do <pb n="II.354" facs="pageImages/II.362.png"/>you ever dream, Hareton? And if
                  you do, what is it about? But you can't speak to me!" </p>
               <p>Then she looked at him, but he would neither open his mouth nor look again. </p>
               <p>"He's perhaps dreaming now," she continued. "He twitched his shoulder as Juno
                  twitches hers. Ask him, Ellen." </p>
               <p>"Mr. Hareton will ask the master to send you upstairs, if you don't behave," I
                  said. He had not only twitched his shoulder but clenched his fist, as if tempted
                  to use it. </p>
               <p>"I know why Hareton never speaks when I am in the kitchen," she exclaimed on
                  another occasion. "He is afraid I shall laugh at him. Ellen, what do you think? He
                  began to teach himself to read once, and because I laughed he burned his books and
                  dropped it. Was he not a fool?" </p>
               <p>"Were not you naughty?" I said. "Answer me that." </p>
               <p>"Perhaps I was," she went on, "but I did <pb n="II.355" facs="pageImages/II.363.png"/>not
                  expect him to be so silly -- Hareton, if I gave you a book, would you take it now?
                  I'll try." </p>
               <p>She placed one she had been perusing on his hand. He flung it off, and muttered,
                  if she did not give over he would break her neck. </p>
               <p>"Well, I shall put it here," she said -- "in the table drawer; and I'm going to
                  bed." </p>
               <p>Then she whispered me to watch whether he touched it, and departed. But he would
                  not come near it; and so I informed her in the morning, to her great
                  disappointment. I saw she was sorry for his persevering sulkiness and indolence.
                  Her conscience reproved her for frightening him off improving himself. She had
                  done it effectually. But her ingenuity was at work to remedy the injury. While I
                  ironed or pursued other such stationary employments as I could not well do in the
                  parlour, she would bring some pleasant volume and read it aloud to me. When
                  Hareton was there she generally paused in an in<pb n="II.356" facs="pageImages/II.364.png"/>teresting part and left the book lying about -- that she did repeatedly; but he
                  was as obstinate as a mule, and, instead of snatching at her bait, in wet weather
                  he took to smoking with Joseph; and they sat like automatons, one on each side of
                  the fire, the elder happily too deaf to understand her wicked nonsense, as he
                  would have called it, the younger doing his best to seem to disregard it. On fine
                  evenings the latter followed his shooting expeditions, and Catherine yawned and
                  sighed, and teased me to talk to her, and ran off into the court or garden the
                  moment I began, and as a last resource cried and said she was tired of living --
                  her life was useless. </p>
               <p>Mr. Heathcliff, who grew more and more disinclined to society, had almost banished
                  Earnshaw from his apartment. Owing to an accident at the commencement of March, he
                  became for some days a fixture in the kitchen. His gun burst while out on the
                  hills by himself; a splinter cut his arm, and he lost a good <pb n="II.357" facs="pageImages/II.365.png"/>deal of blood before he could reach home. The consequence
                  was that, perforce, he was condemned to the fireside and tranquillity till he made
                  it up again. It suited Catherine to have him there. At any rate, it made her hate
                  her room upstairs more than ever; and she would compel me to find out business
                  below, that she might accompany me. </p>
               <p>On Easter Monday Joseph went to Gimmerton fair with some cattle, and in the
                  afternoon I was busy getting up linen in the kitchen. Earnshaw sat, morose as
                  usual, at the chimney-corner, and my little mistress was beguiling an idle hour
                  with drawing pictures on the window panes, varying her amusement by smothered
                  bursts of songs, and whispered ejaculations, and quick glances of annoyance and
                  impatience in the direction of her cousin, who steadfastly smoked, and looked into
                  the grate. At a notice that I could do with her no longer intercepting my light,
                  she removed to <pb n="II.358" facs="pageImages/II.366.png"/>the hearthstone. I bestowed
                  little attention on her proceedings, but presently I heard her begin, -- </p>
               <p>"I've found out, Hareton, that I want -- that I'm glad -- that I should like you
                  to be my cousin now, if you had not grown so cross to me and so rough." </p>
               <p>Hareton returned no answer. </p>
               <p>"Hareton, Hareton, Hareton! do you hear?" she continued. </p>
               <p>"Get off wi' ye!" he growled, with uncompromising gruffness. </p>
               <p>"Let me take that pipe," she said, cautiously advancing her hand and abstracting
                  it from his mouth. Before he could attempt to recover it, it was broken and behind
                  the fire. He swore at her and seized another. </p>
               <p>"Stop," she cried; "you must listen to me first; and I can't speak while those
                  clouds are floating in my face." </p>
               <pb n="II.359" facs="pageImages/II.367.png"/>
               <p>"Will you go to the devil" he exclaimed ferociously, </p>
               <p>"and let me be!" </p>
               <p>"No," she persisted, "I won't. I can't tell what to do to make you talk to me, and
                  you are determined not to understand. When I call you stupid, I don't mean
                  anything. I don't mean that I despise you. Come, you shall take notice of me,
                  Hareton. You are my cousin, and you shall own me." </p>
               <p>"I shall have naught to do wi' you and your mucky pride, and your damned mocking
                  tricks!" he answered.</p>
               <p>"I'll go to hell, body and soul, before I look sideways after you again. Side out
                  o' t' gate now, this minute!" </p>
               <p>Catherine frowned and retreated to the window-seat chewing her lip, and
                  endeavouring, by humming an eccentric tune, to conceal a growing tendency to sob. </p>
               <p>"You should be friends with your cousin, Mr. Hareton," I interrupted, "since she
                  repents of her sauciness. It would do you a great deal <pb n="II.360" facs="pageImages/II.368.png"/>of good; it would make you another man to have her for a
                  companion." </p>
               <p>"A companion!" he cried, "when she hates me, and does not think me fit to wipe her
                  shoon! Nay! if it made me a king, I'd not be scorned for seeking her good-will any
                  more." </p>
               <p>"It is not I who hate you; it is you who hate me!" wept Cathy, no longer
                  disguising her trouble. "You hate me as much as Mr. Heathcliff does, and more." </p>
               <p>"You're a damned liar," began Earnshaw. "Why have I made him angry by taking your
                  part, then, a hundred times, and that when you sneered at and despised me, and --
                  Go on plaguing me, and I'll step in yonder and say you worried me out of the
                  kitchen." </p>
               <p>"I didn't know you took my part," she answered, drying her eyes, "and I was
                  miserable and bitter at everybody; but now I thank you, and beg you to forgive me.
                  What can I do besides?" </p>
               <p>She returned to the hearth, and frankly extended her hand. <pb n="II.361" facs="pageImages/II.369.png"/>He blackened and scowled like a thundercloud, and kept his
                  fists resolutely clenched, and his gaze fixed on the ground. Catherine, by
                  instinct, must have divined it was obdurate perversity, and not dislike, that
                  prompted this dogged conduct, for, after remaining an instant undecided, she
                  stooped and impressed on his cheek a gentle kiss. The little rogue thought I had
                  not seen her, and drawing back, she took her former station by the window, quite
                  demurely. I shook my head reprovingly, and then she blushed and whispered, -- </p>
               <p>"Well, what should I have done, Ellen? He wouldn't shake hands, and he wouldn't
                  look; I must show him some way that I like him -- that I want to be friends." </p>
               <p>Whether the kiss convinced Hareton I cannot tell. He was very careful, for some
                  minutes, that his face should not be seen; and when he did raise it, he was sadly
                  puzzled where to turn his eyes. </p>
               <pb n="II.362" facs="pageImages/II.370.png"/>
               <p>Catherine employed herself in wrapping a handsome book neatly in white paper, and
                  having tied it with a bit of ribbon, and addressed it to "Mr. Hareton Earnshaw,"
                  she desired me to be her ambassadress, and convey the present to its destined
                  recipient. </p>
               <p>"And tell him if he'll take it I'll come and teach him to read it right," she
                  said; "and if he refuse it I'll go upstairs and never tease him again." </p>
               <p>I carried it, and repeated the message, anxiously watched by my employer. Hareton
                  would not open his fingers, so I laid it on his knee. He did not strike it off
                  either. I returned to my work. Catherine leaned her head and arms on the table,
                  till she heard the slight rustle of the covering being removed; then she stole
                  away and quietly seated herself beside her cousin. He trembled, and his face
                  glowed; all his rudeness and all his surly harshness had deserted him. He could
                  not summon cour<pb n="II.363" facs="pageImages/II.371.png"/>age at first to utter a syllable
                  in reply to her questioning look and her murmured petition, -- </p>
               <p>"Say you forgive me, Hareton, do. You can make me so happy by speaking that little
                  word." </p>
               <p>He muttered something inaudible. </p>
               <p>"And you'll be my friend?" added Catherine interrogatively. </p>
               <p>"Nay, you'll be ashamed of me every day of your life," he answered, "and the more
                  ashamed the more you know me; and I cannot bide it." </p>
               <p>"So you won't be my friend?" she said, smiling as sweet as honey, and creeping
                  close up. </p>
               <p>I overheard no further distinguishable talk, but, on looking round again, I
                  perceived two such radiant countenances bent over the page of the accepted book
                  that I did not doubt the treaty had been ratified on both sides, and the enemies
                  were thenceforth sworn allies. </p>
               <p>The work they studied was full of costly <pb n="II.364" facs="pageImages/II.372.png"/>pictures, and those and their position had charm enough to keep them unmoved
                  till Joseph came home. He, poor man, was perfectly aghast at the spectacle of
                  Catherine seated on the same bench with Hareton Earnshaw, leaning her hand on his
                  shoulder, and confounded at his favourite's endurance of her proximity; it
                  affected him too deeply to allow an observation on the subject that night. His
                  emotion was only revealed by the immense sighs he drew as he solemnly spread his
                  large Bible on the table, and overlaid it with dirty bank-notes from his
                  pocket-book, the produce of the day's transactions. At length he summoned Hareton
                  from his seat. </p>
               <p>"Tak' these in to t' maister, lad," he said, "and bide there. I's gang up to my
                  own rahm. This hoile's neither mensful nor seemly for us; we mun side out and
                  seearch another." </p>
               <p>"Come, Catherine," I said, "we must 'side out' too. I've done my ironing. Are you
                  ready to go?" </p>
               <pb n="II.365" facs="pageImages/II.373.png"/>
               <p>"It is not eight o'clock," she answered, rising unwillingly -- "Hareton, I'll
                  leave this book upon the chimney-piece, and I'll bring some more to-morrow." </p>
               <p>"Ony books that yah leave I shall tak' into th' hahse," said Joseph, "and it'll be
                  mitch if yah find 'em agean. Soa yah may plase yerseln." </p>
               <p>Cathy threatened that his library should pay for hers, and smiling as she passed
                  Hareton, went singing upstairs, lighter of heart, I venture to say, than ever she
                  had been under that roof before, except, perhaps, during her earliest visits to
                  Linton. </p>
               <p>The intimacy thus commenced grew rapidly, though it encountered temporary
                  interruptions. Earnshaw was not to be civilized with a wish, and my young lady was
                  no philosopher and no paragon of patience; but both their minds tending to the
                  same point -- one loving and desiring to esteem, and the other loving and desiring
                  to be esteemed -- they contrived in the end to reach it.</p>
               <pb n="II.366" facs="pageImages/II.374.png"/>
               <p>You see, Mr. Lockwood, it was easy enough to win Mrs. Heathcliff's heart. -- But
                  now I'm glad you did not try. The crown of all my wishes will be the union of
                  those two. I shall envy no one on their wedding-day. There won't be a happier
                  woman than myself in England. </p>
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               <p>On the morrow of that Monday, Earnshaw being still unable to follow his ordinary
                  employments, and, therefore, remaining about the house, I speedily found it would
                  be impracticable to retain my charge beside me, as heretofore. </p>
               <p>She got down stairs before me, and out into the garden, where she had seen her
                  cousin performing some easy work; and when I went to bid them come to breakfast, I
                  saw she had persuaded him to clear a large space of ground <pb n="II.368" facs="pageImages/II.376.png"/>from currant and gooseberry bushes, and they were busy
                  planning together an importation of plants from the Grange. </p>
               <p>I was terrified at the devastation which had been accomplished in a brief half
                  hour; the black currant trees were the apple of Joseph's eye, and she had just
                  fixed her choice of a flower bed in the midst of them ! </p>
               <p>"There ! That will be all shewn to the master," I exclaimed, "the minute it is
                  discovered. And what excuse have you to offer for taking such liberties with the
                  garden? We shall have a fine explosion on the head of it: see if we don't ! Mr.
                  Hareton, I wonder you should have no more wit, than to go and make that mess at
                  her bidding !" </p>
               <p>"I'd forgotten they were Joseph's," answered Earnshaw, rather puzzled, "but I'll
                  tell him I did it." </p>
               <p>We always ate our meals with Mr. Heathcliff. I held the mistress's post in making
                  tea and carving; so I was indispensable at table. <pb n="II.369" facs="pageImages/II.377.png"/>Catherine usually sat by me; but to-day' she stole nearer to Hareton, and I
                  presently saw she would have no more discretion in her friendship, than she had in
                  her hostility. </p>
               <p>"Now, mind you don't talk with and notice your cousin too much," were my whispered
                  instructions as we entered the room. "It will certainly annoy Mr. Heathcliff, and
                  he'll be mad at you both." </p>
               <p>"I'm not going to," she answered. </p>
               <p>The minute after, she had sidled to him, and was sticking primroses in his plate
                  of porridge. </p>
               <p>He dared not speak to her there -- he dared hardly look; and yet she went on
                  teasing till he was twice on the point of being provoked to laugh. I frowned, and
                  then she glanced toward the master, whose mind was occupied on other subjects than
                  his company, as his countenance evinced; and she grew serious for an instant,
                  scrutinizing him with deep gravity. Afterwards she turned and recommenced her <pb n="II.370" facs="pageImages/II.378.png"/>nonsense. At last Hareton uttered a smothered
                  laugh. Mr. Heathcliff started; his eye rapidly surveyed our faces. Catherine met
                  it with her accustomed look of nervousness and yet defiance, which he abhorred. </p>
               <p>"It is well you are out of my reach," he exclaimed. </p>
               <p>"What fiend possesses you to stare back at me continually with those infernal
                  eyes? Down with them! and don't remind me of your existence again. I thought I had
                  cured you of laughing." </p>
               <p>"It was me," muttered Hareton. </p>
               <p>"What do you say?" demanded the master. </p>
               <p>Hareton looked at his plate, and did not repeat the confession. Mr. Heathcliff
                  looked at him a bit, and then silently resumed his breakfast and his interrupted
                  musing. We had nearly finished, and the two young people prudently shifted wider
                  asunder, so I anticipated no further disturbance during that <pb n="II.371" facs="pageImages/II.379.png"/>sitting, when Joseph appeared at the door, revealing by his
                  quivering lip and furious eyes that the outrage committed on his precious shrubs
                  was detected. He must have seen Cathy and her cousin about the spot before he
                  examined it, for while his jaws worked like those of a cow chewing its cud, and
                  rendered his speech difficult to understand, he began, -- </p>
               <p>"I mun hev my wage, and I mun goa. I hed aimed to dee wheare I'd sarved fur sixty
                  year, and I thowt I'd lug my books up into t' garret, and all my bits o' stuff,
                  and they sud hev t' kitchen to theirseln, for t' sake o' quietness. It wur hard to
                  gie up my awn hearthstun, but I thowt I could do that. But nah; shoo's taan my
                  garden fro' me, and by th' heart, maister, I cannot stand it. Yah may bend to th'
                  yoak, and ye will; I noan used to't, and an old man doesn't sooin get used to <pb n="II.372" facs="pageImages/II.380.png"/>new barthens. I'd rayther arn my bite an' my sup
                  wi' a hammer in th' road." </p>
               <p>"Now, now, idiot," interrupted Heathcliff, "cut it short! What's your grievance?
                  I'll interfere in no quarrels between you and Nelly. She may thrust you into the
                  coal-hole for anything I care." </p>
               <p>"It's noan Nelly," answered Joseph. "I sudn't shift for Nelly, nasty ill nowt as
                  shoo is. Thank God! shoo cannot stale t' sowl o' nob'dy! Shoo wer niver soa
                  handsome but what a body mud look at her 'bout winking. It's yon flaysome,
                  graceless quean that's witched our lad wi' her bold een and her forrard ways, till
                  -- Nay, it fair brusts my heart! He's forgotten all I've done for him, and made on
                  him, and goan and riven up a whole row o' t' grandest currant trees i' t' garden!"
                  And here he lamented outright, unmanned by a sense of his bitter injuries and
                  Earnshaw's ingratitude and dangerous condition. </p>
               <pb n="II.373" facs="pageImages/II.381.png"/>
               <p>"Is the fool drunk?" asked Mr. Heathcliff. -- "Hareton, is it you he's finding
                  fault with?" </p>
               <p>"I've pulled up two or three bushes," replied the young man, "but I'm going to set
                  'em again." </p>
               <p>"And why have you pulled them up?" said the master. </p>
               <p>Catherine wisely put in her tongue. </p>
               <p>"We wanted to plant some flowers there," she cried. </p>
               <p>"I'm the only person to blame, for I wished him to do it." </p>
               <p>"And who the devil gave you leave to touch a stick about the place?" demanded her
                  father-in-law, much surprised -- "And who ordered you to obey her?" he added,
                  turning to Hareton. </p>
               <p>The latter was speechless. His cousin replied, -- </p>
               <p>"You shouldn't grudge a few yards of earth for me to ornament, when you have taken
                  all my land!" </p>
               <p>"Your land, insolent slut! You never had any," said Heathcliff. </p>
               <pb n="II.374" facs="pageImages/II.382.png"/>
               <p>"And my money," she continued, returning his angry glare, and meantime biting a
                  piece of crust, the remnant of her breakfast. </p>
               <p>"Silence!" he exclaimed. "Get done, and begone!" </p>
               <p>"And Hareton's land, and his money," pursued the reckless thing. "Hareton and I
                  are friends now, and I shall tell him all about you." </p>
               <p>The master seemed confounded a moment. He grew pale and rose up, eyeing her all
                  the while with an expression of mortal hate. </p>
               <p>"If you strike me, Hareton will strike you," she said, "so you may as well sit
                  down." </p>
               <p>"If Hareton does not turn you out of the room I'll strike him to hell," thundered
                  Heathcliff. "Damnable witch! dare you pretend to rouse him against me? -- Off with
                  her! Do you hear? Fling her into the kitchen! -- I'll kill her, Ellen Dean, if you
                  let her come into my sight again!" </p>
               <p>Hareton tried, under his breath, to persuade her to go. </p>
               <pb n="II.375" facs="pageImages/II.383.png"/>
               <p>"Drag her away!" he cried savagely. "Are you staying to talk?" And he approached
                  to execute his own command. </p>
               <p>"He'll not obey you, wicked man, any more," said Catherine, "and he'll soon detest
                  you as much as I do." </p>
               <p>"Wisht! wisht!" muttered the young man reproachfully. "I will not hear you speak
                  so to him. Have done." </p>
               <p>"But you won't let him strike me?" she cried. "Come, then," he whispered
                  earnestly. </p>
               <p>It was too late. Heathcliff had caught hold of her. </p>
               <p>"Now, you go!" he said to Earnshaw. "Accursed witch! this time she has provoked me
                  when I could not bear it, and I'll make her repent it for ever!" </p>
               <p>He had his hand in her hair. Hareton attempted to release her locks, entreating
                  him not to hurt her that once. Heathcliff's black eyes flashed -- he seemed ready
                  to tear Catherine in <pb n="II.376" facs="pageImages/II.384.png"/>pieces; and I was just
                  worked up to risk coming to the rescue, when of a sudden his fingers relaxed; he
                  shifted his grasp from her head to her arm, and gazed intently in her face. Then
                  he drew his hand over her eyes, stood a moment to collect himself apparently, and
                  turning anew to Catherine, said with assumed calmness, "You must learn to avoid
                  putting me in a passion, or I shall really murder you some time! Go with Mrs.
                  Dean, and keep with her, and confine your insolence to her ears. As to Hareton
                  Earnshaw, if I see him listen to you I'll send him seeking his bread where he can
                  get it. Your love will make him an outcast and a beggar. -- Nelly, take her; and
                  leave me, all of you! -- leave me!" </p>
               <p>I led my young lady out. She was too glad of her escape to resist. The other
                  followed, and Mr. Heathcliff had the room to himself till dinner. I had counselled
                  Catherine to dine up<pb n="II.377" facs="pageImages/II.385.png"/>stairs, but as soon as he
                  perceived her vacant seat he sent me to call her. He spoke to none of us, ate very
                  little, and went out directly afterwards, intimating that he should not return
                  before evening. </p>
               <p>The two new friends established themselves in the house during his absence, when I
                  heard Hareton sternly check his cousin on her offering a revelation of her
                  father-in-law's conduct to his father. He said he wouldn't suffer a word to be
                  uttered in his disparagement. lf he were the devil, it didn't signify -- he would
                  stand by him; and he'd rather she would abuse himself, as she used to, than begin
                  on Mr. Heathcliff. Catherine was waxing cross at this, but he found means to make
                  her hold her tongue by asking how she would like him to speak ill of her father.
                  Then she comprehended that Earnshaw took the master's reputation home to himself,
                  and was attached by ties stronger <pb n="II.378" facs="pageImages/II.386.png"/>than reason
                  could break -- chains forged by habit, which it would be cruel to attempt to
                  loosen. She showed a good heart, thenceforth, in avoiding both complaints and
                  expressions of antipathy concerning Heathcliff, and confessed to me her sorrow
                  that she had endeavoured to raise a bad spirit between him and Hareton. Indeed, I
                  don't believe she has ever breathed a syllable, in the latter's hearing, against
                  her oppressor since. </p>
               <p>When this slight disagreement was over, they were friends again, &gt;and as busy as
                  possible in their several occupations of pupil and teacher. I came in to sit with
                  them after I had done my work, and I felt so soothed and comforted to watch them
                  that I did not notice how time got on. You know they both appeared in a measure my
                  children. I had long been proud of one, and now I was sure the other would be a
                  source of equal satisfaction. His honest, warm, and intelligent nature <pb n="II.379" facs="pageImages/II.387.png"/>shook off rapidly the clouds of ignorance and
                  degradation in which it had been bred, and Catherine's sincere commendations acted
                  as a spur to his industry. His brightening mind brightened his features, and added
                  spirit and nobility to their aspect. I could hardly fancy it the same individual I
                  had beheld on the day I discovered my little lady at Wuthering Heights, after her
                  expedition to the Crags. While I admired and they laboured, dusk drew on, and with
                  it returned the master. He came upon us quite unexpectedly, entering by the front
                  way, and had a full view of the whole three ere we could raise our heads to glance
                  at him. Well, I reflected, there was never a pleasanter or more harmless sight,
                  and it will be a burning shame to scold them. The red firelight glowed on their
                  two bonny heads, and revealed their faces animated with the eager interest of
                  children; for though he was twenty-three and she eighteen, each had so <pb n="II.380" facs="pageImages/II.388.png"/>much of novelty to feel and learn that neither
                  experienced nor evinced the sentiments of sober, disenchanted maturity. </p>
               <p>They lifted their eyes together, to encounter Mr. Heathcliff. Perhaps you have
                  never remarked that their eyes are precisely similar, and they are those of
                  Catherine Earnshaw. The present Catherine has no other likeness to her, except a
                  breadth of forehead and a certain arch of the nostril that makes her appear rather
                  haughty, whether she will or not. With Hareton the resemblance is carried further.
                  It is singular at all times; then it was particularly striking, because his senses
                  were alert, and his mental faculties wakened to unwonted activity. I suppose this
                  resemblance disarmed Mr. Heathcliff. He walked to the hearth in evident agitation,
                  but it quickly subsided as he looked at the young man -- or, I should say, altered
                  its character, for it was there yet. He took the book from his hand and <pb n="II.381" facs="pageImages/II.389.png"/>glanced at the open page, then returned it
                  without any observation, merely signing Catherine away. Her companion lingered
                  very little behind her; and I was about to depart also, but he bade me sit still. </p>
               <p>"It is a poor conclusion, is it not?" he observed, having brooded a while on the
                  scene he had just witnessed -- "an absurd termination to my violent exertions? I
                  get levers and mattocks to demolish the two houses, and train myself to be capable
                  of working like Hercules, and when everything is ready and in my power I find the
                  will to lift a slate of either roof has vanished! My old enemies have not beaten
                  me. Now would be the precise time to revenge myself on their representatives. I
                  could do it, and none could hinder me. But where is the use? I don't care for
                  striking; I can't take the trouble to raise my hand. That sounds as if I had been
                  labouring the whole time only to exhibit a fine trait of magnani<pb n="II.382" facs="pageImages/II.390.png"/>mity. It is far from being the case. I have lost the faculty
                  of enjoying their destruction, and I am too idle to destroy for nothing. </p>
               <p>"Nelly, there is a strange change approaching; I'm in its shadow at present. I
                  take so little interest in my daily life that I hardly remember to eat and drink.
                  Those two who have left the room are the only objects which retain a distinct
                  material appearance to me, and that appearance causes me pain, amounting to agony.
                  About her I won't speak, and I don't desire to think, but I earnestly wish she
                  were invisible. Her presence invokes only maddening sensations. He moves me
                  differently; and yet if I could do it without seeming insane, I'd never see him
                  again. You'll perhaps think me rather inclined to become so," he added, making an
                  effort to smile, "if I try to describe the thousand forms of past associations and
                  ideas he awakens or embodies. But you'll not talk of what I tell you; and <pb n="II.383" facs="pageImages/II.391.png"/>my mind is so eternally secluded in itself, it is
                  tempting at last to turn it out to another. </p>
               <p>"Five minutes ago Hareton seemed a personification of my youth, not a human being.
                  I felt to him in such a variety of ways that it would have been impossible to have
                  accosted him rationally." </p>
               <p>"In the first place, his startling likeness to Catherine connected him fearfully
                  with her. That, however, which you may suppose the most potent to arrest my
                  imagination, is actually the least; for what is not connected with her to me? and
                  what does not recall her? I cannot look down to this floor but her features are
                  shaped in the flags. In every cloud, in every tree -- filling the air at night,
                  and caught by glimpses in every object by day -- I am surrounded with her image.
                  The most ordinary faces of men and women -- my own features -- mock me with a
                  resemblance. The entire world is a dreadful collection of memo<pb n="II.384" facs="pageImages/II.392.png"/>randa that she did exist, and that I have lost her. Well,
                  Hareton's aspect was the ghost of my immortal love, of my wild endeavours to hold
                  my right, my degradation, my pride, my happiness, and my anguish -- </p>
               <p>"But it is frenzy to repeat these thoughts to you; only it will let you know why,
                  with a reluctance to be always alone, his society is no benefit, rather an
                  aggravation of the constant torment I suffer; and it partly contributes to render
                  me regardless how he and his cousin go on together. I can give them no attention
                  any more." </p>
               <p>"But what do you mean by a change, Mr. Heathcliff?" I said, alarmed at his manner,
                  though he was neither in danger of losing his senses nor dying, according to my
                  judgment. He was quite strong and healthy; and as to his reason, from childhood he
                  had a delight in dwelling on dark things and entertaining <pb n="II.385" facs="pageImages/II.393.png"/>odd fancies. He might have had a monomania on the subject of
                  his departed idol, but on every other point his wits were as sound as mine. </p>
               <p>"I shall not know that till it comes," he said, "I'm only half conscious of it
                  now." </p>
               <p>"You have no feeling of illness, have you?" I asked. </p>
               <p>"No, Nelly, I have not," he answered. </p>
               <p>"Then you are not afraid of death?" I pursued. </p>
               <p>"Afraid? No!" he replied. "I have neither a fear, nor a presentiment, nor a hope
                  of death. Why should I? With my hard constitution, and temperate mode of living,
                  and unperilous occupations, I ought to, and probably shall, remain above ground
                  till there is scarcely a black hair on my head. And yet I cannot continue in this
                  condition. I have to remind myself to breathe, almost to remind my heart to beat.
                  And it is like bending back a stiff spring; it is by compulsion that I <pb n="II.386" facs="pageImages/II.394.png"/>do the slightest act not prompted by one thought,
                  and by compulsion that I notice anything alive or dead which is not associated
                  with one universal idea. I have a single wish, and my whole being and faculties
                  are yearning to attain it. They have yearned towards it so long and so
                  unwaveringly that I'm convinced it will be reached -- and soon -- because it has
                  devoured my existence. I am swallowed up in the anticipation of its fulfilment. My
                  confessions have not relieved me, but they may account for some otherwise
                  unaccountable phases of humour which I show. -- O God! it is a long fight, I wish
                  it were over!" </p>
               <p>He began to pace the room, muttering terrible things to himself, till I was
                  inclined to believe, as he said Joseph did, that conscience had turned his heart
                  to an earthly hell. I wondered greatly how it would end. Though he seldom before
                  had revealed his <pb n="II.387" facs="pageImages/II.395.png"/>state of mind, even by looks,
                  it was his habitual mood, I had no doubt. He asserted it himself; but not a soul,
                  from his general bearing, would have conjectured the fact. You did not when you
                  saw him, Mr. Lockwood; and at the period of which I speak he was just the same as
                  then, only fonder of continued solitude, and perhaps still more laconic in
                  company. </p>
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               <head>Chapter XX</head>
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               <p>For some days after that evening, Mr. Heathcliff shunned meeting us at meals; yet
                  he would not consent, formally, to exclude Hareton and Cathy. He had an aversion
                  to yielding so completely to his feelings, choosing rather to absent himself --
                  And eating once in twenty-four hours seemed sufficient sustenance for him. </p>
               <p>One night, after the family were in bed, I heard him go down stairs, and out at
                  the front door: I did not hear him re-enter <pb n="II.389" facs="pageImages/II.397.png"/>and,
                  in the morning, I found he was still away. </p>
               <p>We were in April then: the weather was sweet and warm, the grass as green as
                  showers and sun could make it, and the two dwarf apple trees, near the southern
                  wall, in full bloom. </p>
               <p>After breakfast, Catherine insisted on my bringing a chair, and sitting, with my
                  work, under the fir trees at the end of the house; and she beguiled Hareton, who
                  had perfectly recovered from his accident, to dig and arrange her little garden,
                  which was shifted to that corner by the influence of Joseph's complaints. </p>
               <p>I was comfortably revelling in the spring fragrance around, and the beautiful soft
                  blue overhead, when my young lady, who had run down near the gate to procure some
                  primrose roots for a border, returned only half laden, and informed us that Mr.
                  Heathcliff was coming in. </p>
               <pb n="II.390" facs="pageImages/II.398.png"/>
               <p>"And he spoke to me," she added, with a perplexed countenance. </p>
               <p>"What did he say ?" asked Hareton. </p>
               <p>"He told me to begone as fast as I could," she answered. "But he looked so
                  different from his usual look that I stopped a moment to stare at him." </p>
               <p>"How ?" he enquired. </p>
               <p>"Why, almost bright and cheerful -- No, almost nothing -- very much excited, and
                  wild and glad !" she replied. </p>
               <p>"Night-walking amuses him, then," I remarked, affecting a careless manner -- in
                  reality as surprised as she was, and anxious to ascertain the truth of her
                  statement, for to see the master looking glad would not be an every-day spectacle.
                  I framed an excuse to go in. Heathcliff stood at the open door. He was pale, and
                  he trembled, yet certainly he had a strange, joyful glitter in his eyes that
                  altered the aspect of his whole face. </p>
               <pb n="II.391" facs="pageImages/II.399.png"/>
               <p>"Will you have some breakfast?" I said. "You must be hungry rambling about all
                  night." I wanted to discover where he had been, but I did not like to ask
                  directly. </p>
               <p>"No, I'm not hungry," he answered, averting his head and speaking rather
                  contemptuously, as if he guessed I was trying to divine the occasion of his
                  good-humour. </p>
               <p>I felt perplexed. I didn't know whether it were not a proper opportunity to offer
                  a bit of admonition. </p>
               <p>"I don't think it right to wander out of doors," I observed, "instead of being in
                  bed. It is not wise, at any rate, this moist season. I dare say you'll catch a bad
                  cold or a fever. You have something the matter with you now." </p>
               <p>"Nothing but what I can bear," he replied, "and with the greatest pleasure,
                  provided you'll leave me alone. Get in, and don't annoy me." </p>
               <p>I obeyed, and in passing I noticed he breathed as fast as a cat. </p>
               <pb n="II.392" facs="pageImages/II.400.png"/>
               <p>"Yes," I reflected to myself, "we shall have a fit of illness. I cannot conceive
                  what he has been doing." </p>
               <p>That noon he sat down to dinner with us, and received a heaped-up plate from my
                  hands, as if he intended to make amends for previous fasting. </p>
               <p>"I've neither cold nor fever, Nelly," he remarked, in allusion to my morning's
                  speech, "and I'm ready to do justice to the food you give me." </p>
               <p>He took his knife and fork, and was going to commence eating, when the inclination
                  appeared to become suddenly extinct. He laid them on the table, looked eagerly
                  towards the window, then rose and went out. </p>

               <p>We saw him walking to and fro in the garden while we concluded our meal, and
                  Earnshaw said he'd go and ask why he would not dine; he thought we had grieved him
                  some way. </p>
               <pb n="II.393" facs="pageImages/II.401.png"/>
               <p>"Well, is he coming?" cried Catherine, when her cousin returned. </p>
               <p>"Nay," he answered; "but he's not angry. He seemed rarely pleased indeed; only I
                  made him impatient by speaking to him twice, and then he bade me be off to you. He
                  wondered how I could want the company of anybody else." </p>
               <p>I set his plate to keep warm on the fender, and after an hour or two he
                  re-entered, when the room was clear, in no degree calmer -- the same unnatural (it
                  was unnatural) appearance of joy under his black brows; the same bloodless hue,
                  and his teeth visible, now and then, in a kind of smile; his frame shivering --
                  not as one shivers with chill or weakness, but as a tight-stretched cord vibrates
                  -- a strong thrilling rather than trembling.</p>
               <p>I will ask what is the matter, I thought; or who should? And I exclaimed, -- </p>
               <p>"Have you heard any good news, Mr. Heathcliff? You look uncommonly animated." </p>
               <pb n="II.394" facs="pageImages/II.402.png"/>
               <p>"Where should good news come from to me?" he said. "I'm animated with hunger, and
                  seemingly I must not eat." </p>
               <p>"Your dinner is here," I returned; "why won't you get it?" </p>
               <p>"I don't want it now," he muttered hastily. "I'll wait till supper. And, Nelly,
                  once for all, let me beg you to warn Hareton and the other away from me. I wish to
                  be troubled by nobody. I wish to have this place to myself." </p>
               <p>"Is there some new reason for this banishment?" I inquired. "Tell me why you are
                  so queer, Mr. Heathcliff. Where were you last night? I'm not putting the question
                  through idle curiosity, but -- " </p>
               <p>"You are putting the question through very idle curiosity," he interrupted, with a
                  laugh. "Yes, I'll answer it. Last night I was on the threshold of hell. Today I am
                  within sight of my heaven. I have my eyes on it -- hardly three feet to sever me.
                  And <pb n="II.395" facs="pageImages/II.403.png"/>now you'd better go. You'll neither see nor
                  hear anything to frighten you if you refrain from prying." </p>
               <p>Having swept the hearth and wiped the table, I departed, more perplexed than ever. </p>
               <p>He did not quit the house again that afternoon, and no one intruded on his
                  solitude, till, at eight o'clock, I deemed it proper, though unsummoned, to carry
                  a candle and his supper to him. He was leaning against the ledge of an open
                  lattice, but not looking out; his face was turned to the interior gloom. The fire
                  had smouldered to ashes; the room was filled with the damp, mild air of the cloudy
                  evening, and so still that not only the murmur of the beck down Gimmerton was
                  distinguishable, but its ripples and its gurgling over the pebbles, or through the
                  large stones which it could not cover. I uttered an ejaculation of discontent at
                  seeing the dismal grate, and commenced shut<pb n="II.396" facs="pageImages/II.404.png"/>ting
                  the casements, one after another, till I came to his. </p>
               <p>"Must I close this?" I asked, in order to rouse him, for he would not stir. </p>
               <p>The light flashed on his features as I spoke. O Mr. Lockwood, I cannot express
                  what a terrible start I got by the momentary view -- those deep black eyes, that
                  smile and ghastly paleness! It appeared to me not Mr. Heathcliff, but a goblin;
                  and in my terror I let the candle bend towards the wall, and it left me in
                  darkness. </p>
               <p>"Yes, close it," he replied, in his familiar voice. </p>
               <p>"There, that is pure awkwardness! Why did you hold the candle horizontally? Be
                  quick, and bring another." </p>
               <p>I hurried out in a foolish state of dread, and said to Joseph, -- </p>
               <p>"The master wishes you to take him a light and rekindle the fire." For I dare not
                  go in myself again just then. </p>
               <p>Joseph rattled some fire into the shovel, and <pb n="II.397" facs="pageImages/II.405.png"/>went; but he brought it back immediately with the supper-tray in his other hand,
                  explaining that Mr. Heathcliff was going to bed, and he wanted nothing to eat till
                  morning. We heard him mount the stairs directly. He did not proceed to his
                  ordinary chamber, but turned into that with the panelled bed. Its window, as I
                  mentioned before, is wide enough for anybody to get through; and it struck me that
                  he plotted another midnight excursion, of which he had rather we had no suspicion. </p>
               <p>"Is he a ghoul or a vampire?" I mused. I had read of such hideous incarnate
                  demons. And then I set myself to reflect how I had tended him in infancy, and
                  watched him grow to youth, and followed him almost through his whole course, and
                  what absurd nonsense it was to yield to that sense of horror. "But where did he
                  come from, the little dark thing, harboured by a good man to his bane?" muttered
                  Superstition, as I dozed into <pb n="II.398" facs="pageImages/II.406.png"/>unconsciousness.
                  And I began, half dreaming, to weary myself with imagining some fit parentage for
                  him; and repeating my waking meditations, I tracked his existence over again, with
                  grim variations, at last picturing his death and funeral, of which all I can
                  remember is being exceedingly vexed at having the task of dictating an inscription
                  for his monument, and consulting the sexton about it; and as he had no surname,
                  and we could not tell his age, we were obliged to content ourselves with the
                  single word, "Heathcliff." That came true; we were. If you enter the kirkyard
                  you'll read on his headstone only that, and the date of his death. </p>
               <p>Dawn restored me to common-sense. I rose and went into the garden as soon as I
                  could see, to ascertain if there were any footmarks under his window. There were
                  none. "He has stayed at home," I thought, "and he'll be all right to-day." I
                  prepared breakfast for the household, as <pb n="II.399" facs="pageImages/II.407.png"/>was my
                  usual custom, but told Hareton and Catherine to get theirs ere the master came
                  down, for he lay late. They preferred taking it out of doors, under the trees, and
                  I set a little table to accommodate them. </p>
               <p>On my re-entrance I found Mr. Heathcliff below. He and Joseph were conversing
                  about some farming business. He gave clear, minute directions concerning the
                  matter discussed, but he spoke rapidly, and turned his head continually aside, and
                  had the same excited expression, even more exaggerated. When Joseph quitted the
                  room he took his seat in the place he generally chose, and I put a basin of coffee
                  before him. He drew it nearer, and then rested his arms on the table and looked at
                  the opposite wall, as I supposed, surveying one particular portion, up and down,
                  with glittering, restless eyes, and with such eager interest that he stopped
                  breathing during half a minute together. </p>
               <p>"Come now," I exclaimed, pushing some <pb n="II.400" facs="pageImages/II.408.png"/>bread
                  against his hand, "eat and drink that while it is hot; it has been waiting near an
                  hour." </p>
               <p>He didn't notice me, and yet he smiled. I'd rather have seen him gnash his teeth
                  than smile so. </p>
               <p>"Mr. Heathcliff! master!" I cried, "don't, for God's sake, stare as if you saw an
                  unearthly vision." </p>
               <p>"Don't, for God's sake, shout so loud," he replied.</p>
               <p>"Turn round and tell me -- are we by ourselves?" </p>
               <p>"Of course," was my answer -- "of course we are." </p>
               <p>Still I involuntarily obeyed him, as if I was not quite sure. With a sweep of his
                  hand he cleared a vacant space in front among the breakfast things, and leant
                  forward to gaze more at his ease. </p>
               <p>Now I perceived he was not looking at the wall, for when I regarded him alone it
                     <pb n="II.401" facs="pageImages/II.409.png"/>seemed exactly that he gazed at something
                  within two yards' distance. And whatever it was, it communicated apparently both
                  pleasure and pain in exquisite extremes -- at least the anguished yet raptured
                  expression of his countenance suggested that idea. The fancied object was not
                  fixed either; his eyes pursued it with unwearied diligence, and, even in speaking
                  to me, were never weaned away. I vainly reminded him of his protracted abstinence
                  from food. If he stirred to touch anything in compliance with my entreaties, if he
                  stretched his hand out to get a piece of bread, his fingers clenched before they
                  reached it, and remained on the table, forgetful of their aim. I sat, a model of
                  patience, trying to attract his absorbed attention from its engrossing
                  speculation, till he grew irritable, and got up, asking why I would not allow him
                  to have his own time in taking his meals, and saying <pb n="II.402" facs="pageImages/II.410.png"/>that on the next occasion I needn't wait -- L might set the
                  things down and go. Having uttered these words he left the house, slowly sauntered
                  down the garden path, and disappeared through the gate. The hours crept anxiously
                  by; another evening came. I did not retire to rest till late, and when I did I
                  could not sleep. He returned after midnight, and instead of going to bed, shut
                  himself into the room beneath. I listened and tossed about, and finally dressed
                  and descended. It was too irksome to lie there harassing my brain with a hundred
                  idle misgivings. </p>
               <p>I distinguished Mr. Heathcliff's step restlessly measuring the floor, and he
                  frequently broke the silence by a deep inspiration resembling a groan. He muttered
                  detached words also. The only one I could catch was the name of Catherine, coupled
                  with some wild term of endearment or suffering, and spoken as one would speak to a
                  person present <pb n="II.403" facs="pageImages/II.411.png"/>-- low and earnest, and wrung
                  from the depth of his soul. I had not courage to walk straight into the apartment,
                  but I desired to divert him from his reverie, and therefore fell foul of the
                  kitchen fire, stirred it, and began to scrape the cinders. It drew him forth
                  sooner than I expected. He opened the door immediately, and said, -- </p>
               <p>"Nelly, come here. Is it morning? Come in with your light." </p>
               <p>"It is striking four," I answered. "You want a candle to take upstairs. You might
                  have lit one at this fire." </p>
               <p>"No, I don't wish to go upstairs," he said. "Come in and kindle me a fire, and do
                  anything there is to do about the room." </p>
               <p>"I must blow the coals red first before I can carry any," I replied, getting a
                  chair and the bellows. </p>
               <p>He roamed to and fro, meantime, in a <pb n="II.404" facs="pageImages/II.412.png"/>state
                  approaching distraction, his heavy sighs succeeding each other so thick as to
                  leave no space for common breathing between. </p>
               <p>"When day breaks I'll send for Green," he said. "I wish to make some legal
                  inquiries of him while I can bestow a thought on those matters, and while I can
                  act calmly. I have not written my will yet, and how to leave my property I cannot
                  determine. I wish I could annihilate it from the face of the earth." </p>
               <p>"I would not talk so, Mr. Heathcliff," I interposed. "Let your will be a while;
                  you'll be spared to repent of your many injustices yet. I never expected that your
                  nerves would be disordered. They are at present marvellously so, however, and
                  almost entirely through your own fault. The way you've passed these three last
                  days might knock up a Titan. Do take some food and some repose. You need only look
                  at yourself in a glass to see how you require both. Your cheeks are <pb n="II.405" facs="pageImages/II.413.png"/>hollow, and your eyes bloodshot, like a person starving with
                  hunger and going blind with loss of sleep." </p>
               <p>"It is not my fault that I cannot eat or rest," he replied. "I assure you it is
                  through no settled designs. I'll do both as soon as I possibly can. But you might
                  as well bid a man struggling in the water rest within arm's length of the shore! I
                  must reach it first, and then I'll rest. Well, never mind Mr. Green. As to
                  repenting of my injustices, I've done no injustice, and I repent of nothing. I'm
                  too happy; and yet I'm not happy enough. My soul's bliss kills my body, but does
                  not satisfy itself." </p>
               <p>"Happy, master?" I cried. "Strange happiness! If you would hear me without being
                  angry, I might offer some advice that would make you happier." </p>
               <p>"What is that?" he asked. "Give it." </p>
               <p>"You are aware, Mr. Heathcliff," I said, "that from the time you were thirteen
                  years <pb n="II.406" facs="pageImages/II.414.png"/>old you have lived a selfish, unchristian
                  life, and probably hardly had a Bible in your hands during all that period. You
                  must have forgotten the contents of the book, and you may not have space to search
                  it now. Could it be hurtful to send for some one (some minister of any
                  denomination -- it does not matter which) to explain it, and show you how very far
                  you have erred from its precepts, and how unfit you will be for its heaven, unless
                  a change takes place before you die?" </p>
               <p>"I'm rather obliged than angry, Nelly," he said, "for you remind me of the manner
                  in which I desire to be buried. It is to be carried to the churchyard in the
                  evening. "You and Hareton may, if you please, accompany me; and mind particularly
                  to notice that the sexton obeys my directions concerning the two coffins. No
                  minister need come, nor need anything be said over me. I tell you I have nearly
                  attained my heaven, and that of others is altogether unvalued and uncoveted by
                  me." </p>
               <pb n="II.407" facs="pageImages/II.415.png"/>
               <p>"And supposing you persevered in your obstinate fast, and died by that means, and
                  they refused to bury you in the precincts of the kirk?" I said, shocked at his
                  godless indifference. "How would you like it?" </p>
               <p>"They won't do that," he replied. "If they did, you must have me removed secretly;
                  and if you neglect it you shall prove, practically, that the dead are not
                  annihilated." </p>
               <p>As soon as he heard the other members of the family stirring he retired to his
                  den, and I breathed freer. But in the afternoon, while Joseph and Hareton were at
                  their work, he came into the kitchen again, and with a wild look bade me come and
                  sit in the house; he wanted somebody with him. I declined, telling him plainly
                  that his strange talk and manner frightened me, and I had neither the nerve nor
                  the will to be his companion alone. </p>
               <p>"I believe you think me a fiend," he said, <pb n="II.408" facs="pageImages/II.416.png"/>with
                  his dismal laugh -- "something too horrible to live under a decent roof." Then
                  turning to Catherine, who was there, and who drew behind me at his approach, he
                  added, half sneeringly, "Will you come, chuck? I'll not hurt you. No! To you I've
                  made myself worse than the devil. Well, there is one who won't shrink from my
                  company. By God, she's relentless! Oh, damn it! It's unutterably too much for
                  flesh and blood to bear -- even mine." </p>
               <p>He solicited the society of no one more. At dusk he went into his chamber. Through
                  the whole night, and far into the morning, we heard him groaning and murmuring to
                  himself. Hareton was anxious to enter, but I bade him fetch Mr. Kenneth, and he
                  should go in and see him. When he came, and I requested admittance and tried to
                  open the door, I found it locked, and Heathcliff bade us be damned. He was <pb n="II.409" facs="pageImages/II.417.png"/>better, and would be left alone; so the doctor
                  went away. </p>
               <p>The following evening was very wet -- indeed it poured down till day-dawn; and as
                  I took my morning walk round the house I observed the master's window swinging
                  open, and the rain driving straight in. He cannot be in bed, I thought; those
                  showers would drench him through. He must either be up or out. But I'll make no
                  more ado; I'll go boldly and look." </p>
               <p>Having succeeded in obtaining entrance with another key, I ran to unclose the
                  panels, for the chamber was vacant. Quickly pushing them aside, I peeped in. Mr.
                  Heathcliff was there, laid on his back. His eyes met mine so keen and fierce, I
                  started; and then he seemed to smile. I could not think him dead; but his face and
                  throat were washed with rain, the bedclothes dripped, and he was perfectly still.
                  The lattice, flapping to and fro, had grazed <pb n="II.410" facs="pageImages/II.418.png"/>one
                  hand that rested on the sill. No blood trickled from the broken skin, and when I
                  put my fingers to it I could doubt no more -- he was dead and stark! </p>
               <p>I hasped the window; I combed his black long hair from his forehead; I tried to
                  close his eyes -- to extinguish, if possible, that frightful, life-like gaze of
                  exultation before any one else beheld it. They would not shut -- they seemed to
                  sneer at my attempts; and his parted lips and sharp white teeth sneered too. Taken
                  with another fit of cowardice, I cried out for Joseph. Joseph shuffled up and made
                  a noise, but resolutely refused to meddle with him. </p>
               <p>"Th' divil's harried off his soul," he cried, "and he may hev his carcass into t'
                  bargain for aught I care! Ech! what a wicked un he looks girning at death!" and
                  the old sinner grinned in mockery. I thought he intended to cut a caper round the
                  bed; but suddenly composing himself, he <pb n="II.411" facs="pageImages/II.419.png"/>fell on
                  his knees, and raised his hands, and returned thanks that the lawful master and
                  the ancient stock were restored to their rights. </p>
               <p>I felt stunned by the awful event, and my memory unavoidably recurred to former
                  times with a sort of oppressive sadness. But poor Hareton, the most wronged, was
                  the only one who really suffered much. He sat by the corpse all night, weeping in
                  bitter earnest. He pressed its hand, and kissed the sarcastic, savage face that
                  every one else shrank from contemplating, and bemoaned him with that strong grief
                  which springs naturally from a generous heart, though it be tough as tempered
                  steel. </p>
               <p>Mr. Kenneth was perplexed to pronounce of what disorder the master died. I
                  concealed the fact of his having swallowed nothing for four days, fearing it might
                  lead to trouble; and then I am persuaded he did not abstain on purpose -- it was
                  the consequence of his strange illness, not the cause. </p>
               <pb n="II.412" facs="pageImages/II.420.png"/>
               <p>We buried him, to the scandal of the whole neighbourhood, as he wished. Earnshaw
                  and I, the sexton, and six men to carry the coffin, comprehended the whole
                  attendance. The six men departed when they had let it down into the grave. We
                  stayed to see it covered. Hareton, with a streaming face, dug green sods and laid
                  them over the brown mould himself. At present it is as smooth and verdant as its
                  companion mounds, and I hope its tenant sleeps as soundly. But the country folks,
                  if you ask them, would swear on the Bible that he walks. There are those who speak
                  to having met him near the church, and on the moor, and even within this house.
                  Idle tales, you'll say, and so say I. Yet that old man by the kitchen fire affirms
                  he has seen two on 'em, looking out of his chamber window, on every rainy night
                  since his death. And an odd thing happened to me about a month ago. I was going to
                  the Grange one evening -- a dark evening, threatening thunder; and just <pb n="II.413" facs="pageImages/II.421.png"/>at the turn of the Heights I encountered a little
                  boy with a sheep and two lambs before him. He was crying terribly, and I supposed
                  the lambs were skittish and would not be guided. </p>
               <p>"What is the matter, my little man?" I asked. </p>
               <p>"There's Heathcliff and a woman yonder, under t' nab," he blubbered, "un I darnut
                  pass 'em." </p>
               <p>I saw nothing; but neither the sheep nor he would go on, so I bade him take the
                  road lower down. </p>
               <p>He probably raised the phantoms from thinking, as he traversed the moors alone, on
                  the nonsense he had heard his parents and companions repeat. Yet, still I don't
                  like being out in the dark now, and I don't like being left by myself in this grim
                  house. I cannot help it. I shall be glad when they leave it and shift to the
                  Grange. </p>
               <pb n="II.414" facs="pageImages/II.422.png"/>
               <p>"They are going to the Grange, then?" I said. </p>
               <p>"Yes," answered Mrs. Dean, "as soon as they are married, and that will be on New
                  Year's day." </p>
               <p>"And who will live here then?" </p>
               <p>"Why, Joseph will take care of the house, and perhaps a lad to keep him company.
                  They will live in the kitchen, and the rest will be shut up." </p>
               <p>"For the use of such ghosts as choose to inhabit it," I observed. </p>
               <p>"No, Mr. Lockwood," said Nelly, shaking her head. </p>
               <p>"I believe the dead are at peace, but it is not right to speak of them with
                  levity." </p>
               <p>At that moment the garden gate swung to; the ramblers were returning. </p>
               <p>"They are afraid of nothing," I grumbled, watching their approach through the
                  window. "Together they would brave Satan and all his legions." </p>
               <pb n="II.415" facs="pageImages/II.423.png"/>
               <p>As they stepped on to the door-stones, and halted to take a last look at the moon
                  -- or, more correctly, at each other by her light -- I felt irresistibly impelled
                  to escape them again; and pressing a remembrance into the hand of Mrs. Dean, and
                  disregarding her expostulations at my rudeness, I vanished through the kitchen as
                  they opened the house-door, and so should have confirmed Joseph in his opinion of
                  his fellow-servant's gay indiscretions, had he not fortunately recognized me for a
                  respectable character by the sweet ring of a sovereign at his feet. </p>
               <p>My walk home was lengthened by a diversion in the direction of the kirk. When
                  beneath its walls I perceived decay had made progress, even in seven months. Many
                  a window showed black gaps deprived of glass, and slates jutted off here and there
                  beyond the right line of the roof, to be gradually worked off in coming autumn
                  storms. </p>
               <p>I sought and soon discovered the three <pb n="II.416" facs="pageImages/II.424.png"/>headstones on the slope next the moor -- the middle one gray, and
                  half buried in heath; Edgar Linton's only harmonized by the turf and moss creeping
                  up its foot; Heathcliff's still bare. </p>
               <p>I lingered round them under that benign sky, watched the moths fluttering among
                  the heath and harebells, listened to the soft wind breathing through the grass,
                  and wondered how any one could ever imagine unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in
                  that quiet earth. </p>
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                  <p>Mrs. Dalloway said she would buy the flowers herself.</p>

                  <p>For Lucy had her work cut out for her. The doors would be taken off their hinges; Rumpelmayer’s men were coming. And then, thought Clarissa Dalloway, what a morning—fresh as if issued to children on a beach.</p>

                     <p>What a lark! What a plunge! For so it had always seemed to her, when, with a little squeak of the hinges, which she could hear now, she had burst open the French windows and plunged at Bourton into the open air. How fresh, how calm, stiller than this of course, the air was in the early morning; like the flap of a wave; the kiss of a wave; chill and sharp and yet (for a girl of eighteen as she then was) solemn, feeling as she did, standing there at the open window, that something awful was about to happen; looking at the flowers, at the trees with the smoke winding off them and the rooks rising, falling; standing and looking until Peter
                        <pb n="4" facs="pageImages/4.jpg"/> Walsh said, “Musing among the vegetables?”—was that it?—“I prefer men to cauliflowers”—was that it? He must have said it at breakfast one morning when she had gone out on to the terrace—Peter Walsh. He would be back from India one of these days, June or July, she forgot which, for his letters were awfully dull; it was his sayings one remembered; his eyes, his pocket-knife, his smile, his grumpiness and, when millions of things had utterly vanished—how strange it was!—a few sayings like this about cabbages.</p>

                  <p>She stiffened a little on the kerb, waiting for Durtnall’s van to pass. A charming woman, Scrope Purvis thought her (knowing her as one does know people who live next door to one in Westminster); a touch of the bird about her, of the jay, blue-green, light, vivacious, though she was over fifty, and grown very white since her illness. There she perched, never seeing him, waiting to cross, very upright.</p>

                           <p>For having lived in Westminster—how many years now? over twenty,—one feels even in the midst of the traffic, or waking at night, Clarissa was positive, a particular hush, or solemnity; an indescribable pause; a suspense (but that might be her heart, affected, they said, by influenza) before
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                              Big Ben strikes. There! Out it boomed. First a warning, musical; then the hour, irrevocable. The leaden circles dissolved in the air. Such fools we are, she thought, crossing Victoria Street. For Heaven only knows why one loves it so, how one sees it so, making it up, building it round one, tumbling it, creating it every moment afresh; but the veriest frumps, the most dejected of miseries sitting on doorsteps (drink their downfall) do the same; can’t be dealt with, she felt positive, by Acts of Parliament for that very reason: they love life. In people’s eyes, in the swing, tramp, and trudge; in the bellow and the uproar; the carriages, motor cars, omnibuses, vans, sandwich men shuffling and swinging; brass bands; barrel organs; in the triumph and the jingle and the strange high singing of some aeroplane overhead was what she loved; life; London; this moment of June.</p>

                  <p>For it was the middle of June. The War was over, except for some one like Mrs. Foxcroft at the Embassy last night eating her heart out because that nice boy was killed and now the old Manor House must go to a cousin; or Lady Bexborough who opened a bazaar, they said, with the telegram in her hand, John, her favourite, killed; but it was over; thank Heaven—over. It was June. The <pb n="6" facs="pageImages/6.jpg"/> King and Queen were at the Palace. And everywhere, though it was still so early, there was a beating, a stirring of galloping ponies, tapping of cricket bats; Lords, Ascot, Ranelagh and all the rest of it; wrapped in the soft mesh of the grey-blue morning air, which, as the day wore on, would unwind them, and set down on their lawns and pitches the bouncing ponies, whose forefeet just struck the ground and up they sprung, the whirling young men, and laughing girls in their transparent muslins who, even now, after dancing all night, were taking their absurd woolly dogs for a run; and even now, at this hour, discreet old dowagers were shooting out in their motor cars on errands of mystery; and the shopkeepers were fidgeting in their windows with their paste and diamonds, their lovely old sea-green brooches in eighteenth-century settings to tempt Americans (but one must economise, not buy things rashly for Elizabeth), and she, too, loving it as she did with an absurd and faithful passion, being part of it, since her people were courtiers once in the time of the Georges, she, too, was going that very night to kindle and illuminate; to give her party. But how strange, on entering the Park, the silence; the mist; the hum; the slow-swimming happy ducks; the pouched birds waddling; and who should be <pb n="7" facs="pageImages/7.jpg"/> coming along with his back against the Government buildings, most appropriately, carrying a despatch box stamped with the Royal Arms, who but Hugh Whitbread; her old friend Hugh—the admirable Hugh!</p>

                  <p>“Good-morning to you, Clarissa!” said Hugh, rather extravagantly, for they had known each other as children. “Where are you off to?”</p>

                  <p>“I love walking in London,” said Mrs. Dalloway. “Really it’s better than walking in the country.”</p>

                  <p>They had just come up—unfortunately—to see doctors. Other people came to see pictures; go to the opera; take their daughters out; the Whitbreads came “to see doctors.” Times without number Clarissa had visited Evelyn Whitbread in a nursing home. Was Evelyn ill again? Evelyn was a good deal out of sorts, said Hugh, intimating by a kind of pout or swell of his very well-covered, manly, extremely handsome, perfectly upholstered body (he was almost too well dressed always, but presumably had to be, with his little job at Court) that his wife had some internal ailment, nothing serious, which, as an old friend, Clarissa Dalloway would quite understand without requiring him to specify. Ah yes, she did of course; what a nuisance; and felt very sisterly and oddly conscious at the same time <pb n="8" facs="pageImages/8.jpg"/> of her hat. Not the right hat for the early morning, was that it? For Hugh always made her feel, as he bustled on, raising his hat rather extravagantly and assuring her that she might be a girl of eighteen, and of course he was coming to her party to-night, Evelyn absolutely insisted, only a little late he might be after the party at the Palace to which he had to take one of Jim’s boys,—she always felt a little skimpy beside Hugh; schoolgirlish; but attached to him, partly from having known him always, but she did think him a good sort in his own way, though Richard was nearly driven mad by him, and as for Peter Walsh, he had never to this day forgiven her for liking him.</p>

                  <p>She could remember scene after scene at Bourton—Peter furious; Hugh not, of course, his match in any way, but still not a positive imbecile as Peter made out; not a mere barber’s block. When his old mother wanted him to give up shooting or to take her to Bath he did it, without a word; he was really unselfish, and as for saying, as Peter did, that he had no heart, no brain, nothing but the manners and breeding of an English gentleman, that was only her dear Peter at his worst; and he could be intolerable; he could be impossible; but adorable to walk with on a morning like this.

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(June had drawn out every leaf on the trees. The mothers of Pimlico gave suck to their young. Messages were passing from the Fleet to the Admiralty. Arlington Street and Piccadilly seemed to chafe the very air in the Park and lift its leaves hotly, brilliantly, on waves of that divine vitality which Clarissa loved. To dance, to ride, she had adored all that.)</p>

                  <p>For they might be parted for hundreds of years, she and Peter; she never wrote a letter and his were dry sticks; but suddenly it would come over her, If he were with me now what would he say?—some days, some sights bringing him back to her calmly, without the old bitterness; which perhaps was the reward of having cared for people; they came back in the middle of St. James’s Park on a fine morning—indeed they did. But Peter—however beautiful the day might be, and the trees and the grass, and the little girl in pink—Peter never saw a thing of all that. He would put on his spectacles, if she told him to; he would look. It was the state of the world that interested him; Wagner, Pope’s poetry, people’s characters eternally, and the defects of her own soul. How he scolded her! How they argued! She would marry a Prime Minister and stand at the top of a staircase; the perfect hostess he called her <pb n="10" facs="pageImages/10.jpg"/> (she had cried over it in her bedroom), she had the makings of the perfect hostess, he said.</p>

                  <p>So she would still find herself arguing in St. James’s Park, still making out that she had been right—and she had too—not to marry him. For in marriage a little licence, a little independence there must be between people living together day in day out in the same house; which Richard gave her, and she him. (Where was he this morning for instance? Some committee, she never asked what.) But with Peter everything had to be shared; everything gone into. And it was intolerable, and when it came to that scene in the little garden by the fountain, she had to break with him or they would have been destroyed, both of them ruined, she was convinced; though she had borne about with her for years like an arrow sticking in her heart the grief, the anguish; and then the horror of the moment when some one told her at a concert that he had married a woman met on the boat going to India! Never should she forget all that! Cold, heartless, a prude, he called her. Never could she understand how he cared. But those Indian women did presumably—silly, pretty, flimsy nincompoops. And she wasted her pity. For he was quite happy, he assured her—perfectly happy, though he had <pb n="11" facs="pageImages/11.jpg"/> never done a thing that they talked of; his whole life had been a failure. It made her angry still.</p>

                  <p>She had reached the Park gates. She stood for a moment, looking at the omnibuses in Piccadilly.</p>

                  <p>She would not say of any one in the world now that they were this or were that. She felt very young; at the same time unspeakably aged. She sliced like a knife through everything; at the same time was outside, looking on. She had a perpetual sense, as she watched the taxi cabs, of being out, out, far out to sea and alone; she always had the feeling that it was very, very dangerous to live even one day. Not that she thought herself clever, or much out of the ordinary. How she had got through life on the few twigs of knowledge Fräulein Daniels gave them she could not think. She knew nothing; no language, no history; she scarcely read a book now, except memoirs in bed; and yet to her it was absolutely absorbing; all this; the cabs passing; and she would not say of Peter, she would not say of herself, I am this, I am that.</p>

                  <p>Her only gift was knowing people almost by instinct, she thought, walking on. If you put her in a room with some one, up went her back like a cat’s; or she purred. Devonshire House, Bath House, the <pb n="12" facs="pageImages/12.jpg"/> house with the china cockatoo, she had seen them all lit up once; and remembered Sylvia, Fred, Sally Seton—such hosts of people; and dancing all night; and the waggons plodding past to market; and driving home across the Park. She remembered once throwing a shilling into the Serpentine. But every one remembered; what she loved was this, here, now, in front of her; the fat lady in the cab. Did it matter then, she asked herself, walking towards Bond Street, did it matter that she must inevitably cease completely; all this must go on without her; did she resent it; or did it not become consoling to believe that death ended absolutely? but that somehow in the streets of London, on the ebb and flow of things, here, there, she survived, Peter survived, lived in each other, she being part, she was positive, of the trees at home; of the house there, ugly, rambling all to bits and pieces as it was; part of people she had never met; being laid out like a mist between the people she knew best, who lifted her on their branches as she had seen the trees lift the mist, but it spread ever so far, her life, herself. But what was she dreaming as she looked into Hatchards’ shop window? What was she trying to recover? What image of white dawn in the country, as she read in the book spread open:</p>

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                  <p>This late age of the world’s experience had bred in them all, all men and women, a well of tears. Tears and sorrows; courage and endurance; a perfectly upright and stoical bearing. Think, for example, of the woman she admired most, Lady Bexborough, opening the bazaar.</p>

                  <p>There were Jorrocks’ Jaunts and Jollities; there were Soapy Sponge and Mrs. Asquith’s Memoirs and Big Game Shooting in Nigeria, all spread open. Ever so many books there were; but none that seemed exactly right to take to Evelyn Whitbread in her nursing home. Nothing that would serve to amuse her and make that indescribably dried-up little woman look, as Clarissa came in, just for a moment cordial; before they settled down for the usual interminable talk of women’s ailments. How much she wanted it—that people should look pleased as she came in, Clarissa thought and turned and walked back towards Bond Street, annoyed, because it was silly to have other reasons for doing things. Much rather would she have been one of those people like Richard who did things for themselves, whereas, she thought, waiting to cross, half the time she did things not simply, not for themselves; but <pb n="14" facs="pageImages/14.jpg"/> to make people think this or that; perfect idiocy she knew (and now the policeman held up his hand) for no one was ever for a second taken in. Oh if she could have had her life over again! she thought, stepping on to the pavement, could have looked even differently!</p>

                  <p>She would have been, in the first place, dark like Lady Bexborough, with a skin of crumpled leather and beautiful eyes. She would have been, like Lady Bexborough, slow and stately; rather large; interested in politics like a man; with a country house; very dignified, very sincere. Instead of which she had a narrow pea-stick figure; a ridiculous little face, beaked like a bird’s. That she held herself well was true; and had nice hands and feet; and dressed well, considering that she spent little. But often now this body she wore (she stopped to look at a Dutch picture), this body, with all its capacities, seemed nothing—nothing at all. She had the oddest sense of being herself invisible; unseen; unknown; there being no more marrying, no more having of children now, but only this astonishing and rather solemn progress with the rest of them, up Bond Street, this being Mrs. Dalloway; not even Clarissa any more; this being Mrs. Richard Dalloway.</p>

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                  <p>Bond Street fascinated her; Bond Street early in the morning in the season; its flags flying; its shops; no splash; no glitter; one roll of tweed in the shop where her father had bought his suits for fifty years; a few pearls; salmon on an iceblock.</p>

                  <p>“That is all,” she said, looking at the fishmonger’s. “That is all,” she repeated, pausing for a moment at the window of a glove shop where, before the War, you could buy almost perfect gloves. And her old Uncle William used to say a lady is known by her shoes and her gloves. He had turned on his bed one morning in the middle of the War. He had said, “I have had enough.” Gloves and shoes; she had a passion for gloves; but her own daughter, her Elizabeth, cared not a straw for either of them.</p>

                  <p>Not a straw, she thought, going on up Bond Street to a shop where they kept flowers for her when she gave a party. Elizabeth really cared for her dog most of all. The whole house this morning smelt of tar. Still, better poor Grizzle than Miss Kilman; better distemper and tar and all the rest of it than sitting mewed in a stuffy bedroom with a prayer book! Better anything, she was inclined to say. But it might be only a phase, as Richard said, such as all girls go through. It might <pb n="16" facs="pageImages/16.jpg"/> be falling in love. But why with Miss Kilman? who had been badly treated of course; one must make allowances for that, and Richard said she was very able, had a really historical mind. Anyhow they were inseparable, and Elizabeth, her own daughter, went to Communion; and how she dressed, how she treated people who came to lunch she did not care a bit, it being her experience that the religious ecstasy made people callous (so did causes); dulled their feelings, for Miss Kilman would do anything for the Russians, starved herself for the Austrians, but in private inflicted positive torture, so insensitive was she, dressed in a green mackintosh coat. Year in year out she wore that coat; she perspired; she was never in the room five minutes without making you feel her superiority, your inferiority; how poor she was; how rich you were; how she lived in a slum without a cushion or a bed or a rug or whatever it might be, all her soul rusted with that grievance sticking in it, her dismissal from school during the War—poor embittered unfortunate creature! For it was not her one hated but the idea of her, which undoubtedly had gathered in to itself a great deal that was not Miss Kilman; had become one of those spectres with which one battles in the night; one of those spectres who stand astride us <pb n="17" facs="pageImages/17.jpg"/> and suck up half our life-blood, dominators and tyrants; for no doubt with another throw of the dice, had the black been uppermost and not the white, she would have loved Miss Kilman! But not in this world. No.</p>

                  <p>It rasped her, though, to have stirring about in her this brutal monster! to hear twigs cracking and feel hooves planted down in the depths of that leaf-encumbered forest, the soul; never to be content quite, or quite secure, for at any moment the brute would be stirring, this hatred, which, especially since her illness, had power to make her feel scraped, hurt in her spine; gave her physical pain, and made all pleasure in beauty, in friendship, in being well, in being loved and making her home delightful rock, quiver, and bend as if indeed there were a monster grubbing at the roots, as if the whole panoply of content were nothing but self love! this hatred!</p>

                  <p>Nonsense, nonsense! she cried to herself, pushing through the swing doors of Mulberry’s the florists.</p>

                  <p>She advanced, light, tall, very upright, to be greeted at once by button-faced Miss Pym, whose hands were always bright red, as if they had been stood in cold water with the flowers.</p>

                  <p>There were flowers: delphiniums, sweet peas, bunches of lilac; and carnations, masses of carnations.<pb n="18" facs="pageImages/18.jpg"/> There were roses; there were irises. Ah yes—so she breathed in the earthy garden sweet smell as she stood talking to Miss Pym who owed her help, and thought her kind, for kind she had been years ago; very kind, but she looked older, this year, turning her head from side to side among the irises and roses and nodding tufts of lilac with her eyes half closed, snuffing in, after the street uproar, the delicious scent, the exquisite coolness. And then, opening her eyes, how fresh like frilled linen clean from a laundry laid in wicker trays the roses looked; and dark and prim the red carnations, holding their heads up; and all the sweet peas spreading in their bowls, tinged violet, snow white, pale—as if it were the evening and girls in muslin frocks came out to pick sweet peas and roses after the superb summer’s day, with its almost blue-black sky, its delphiniums, its carnations, its arum lilies was over; and it was the moment between six and seven when every flower—roses, carnations, irises, lilac—glows; white, violet, red, deep orange; every flower seems to burn by itself, softly, purely in the misty beds; and how she loved the grey-white moths spinning in and out, over the cherry pie, over the evening primroses!</p>

                  <p>And as she began to go with Miss Pym from jar <pb n="19" facs="pageImages/19.jpg"/> to jar, choosing, nonsense, nonsense, she said to herself, more and more gently, as if this beauty, this scent, this colour, and Miss Pym liking her, trusting her, were a wave which she let flow over her and surmount that hatred, that monster, surmount it all; and it lifted her up and up when—oh! a pistol shot in the street outside!</p>

<p>"Dear, those motor cars,” said Miss Pym, going to the window to look, and coming back and smiling apologetically with her hands full of sweet peas, as if those motor cars, those tyres of motor cars, were all her fault.</p>

                  <p>The violent explosion which made Mrs. Dalloway jump and Miss Pym go to the window and apologise came from a motor car which had drawn to the side of the pavement precisely opposite Mulberry’s shop window. Passers-by who, of course, stopped and stared, had just time to see a face of the very greatest importance against the dove-grey upholstery, before a male hand drew the blind and there was nothing to be seen except a square of dove grey.</p>

                  <p>Yet rumours were at once in circulation from the middle of Bond Street to Oxford Street on one side, to Atkinson’s scent shop on the other, passing invisibly,<pb n="20" facs="pageImages/20.jpg"/> inaudibly, like a cloud, swift, veil-like upon hills, falling indeed with something of a cloud’s sudden sobriety and stillness upon faces which a second before had been utterly disorderly. But now mystery had brushed them with her wing; they had heard the voice of authority; the spirit of religion was abroad with her eyes bandaged tight and her lips gaping wide. But nobody knew whose face had been seen. Was it the Prince of Wales’s, the Queen’s, the Prime Minister’s? Whose face was it? Nobody knew.</p>

                  <p>Edgar J. Watkiss, with his roll of lead piping round his arm, said audibly, humorously of course: “The Proime Minister’s kyar.”</p>

                  <p>Septimus Warren Smith, who found himself unable to pass, heard him.</p>

                  <p>Septimus Warren Smith, aged about thirty, pale-faced, beak-nosed, wearing brown shoes and a shabby overcoat, with hazel eyes which had that look of apprehension in them which makes complete strangers apprehensive too. The world has raised its whip; where will it descend?</p>

                  <p>Everything had come to a standstill. The throb of the motor engines sounded like a pulse irregularly drumming through an entire body. The sun became extraordinarily hot because the motor car had <pb n="21" facs="pageImages/21.jpg"/> stopped outside Mulberry’s shop window; old ladies on the tops of omnibuses spread their black parasols; here a green, here a red parasol opened with a little pop. Mrs. Dalloway, coming to the window with her arms full of sweet peas, looked out with her little pink face pursed in enquiry. Every one looked at the motor car. Septimus looked. Boys on bicycles sprang off. Traffic accumulated. And there the motor car stood, with drawn blinds, and upon them a curious pattern like a tree, Septimus thought, and this gradual drawing together of everything to one centre before his eyes, as if some horror had come almost to the surface and was about to burst into flames, terrified him. The world wavered and quivered and threatened to burst into flames. It is I who am blocking the way, he thought. Was he not being looked at and pointed at; was he not weighted there, rooted to the pavement, for a purpose? But for what purpose?</p>

                  <p>“Let us go on, Septimus,” said his wife, a little woman, with large eyes in a sallow pointed face; an Italian girl.</p>

                  <p>But Lucrezia herself could not help looking at the motor car and the tree pattern on the blinds. Was it the Queen in there—the Queen going shopping?</p>

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                  <p>The chauffeur, who had been opening something, turning something, shutting something, got on to the box.</p>

                  <p>“Come on,” said Lucrezia.</p>

                  <p>But her husband, for they had been married four, five years now, jumped, started, and said, “All right!” angrily, as if she had interrupted him.</p>

                  <p>People must notice; people must see. People, she thought, looking at the crowd staring at the motor car; the English people, with their children and their horses and their clothes, which she admired in a way; but they were “people” now, because Septimus had said, “I will kill myself”; an awful thing to say. Suppose they had heard him? She looked at the crowd. Help, help! she wanted to cry out to butchers’ boys and women. Help! Only last autumn she and Septimus had stood on the Embankment wrapped in the same cloak and, Septimus reading a paper instead of talking, she had snatched it from him and laughed in the old man’s face who saw them! But failure one conceals. She must take him away into some park.</p>

                  <p>“Now we will cross,” she said.</p>

                  <p>She had a right to his arm, though it was without feeling. He would give her, who was so simple, so impulsive, only twenty-four, without friends in <pb n="23" facs="pageImages/23.jpg"/> England, who had left Italy for his sake, a piece of bone.</p>

                  <p>The motor car with its blinds drawn and an air of inscrutable reserve proceeded towards Piccadilly, still gazed at, still ruffling the faces on both sides of the street with the same dark breath of veneration whether for Queen, Prince, or Prime Minister nobody knew. The face itself had been seen only once by three people for a few seconds. Even the sex was now in dispute. But there could be no doubt that greatness was seated within; greatness was passing, hidden, down Bond Street, removed only by a hand’s-breadth from ordinary people who might now, for the first and last time, be within speaking distance of the majesty of England, of the enduring symbol of the state which will be known to curious antiquaries, sifting the ruins of time, when London is a grass-grown path and all those hurrying along the pavement this Wednesday morning are but bones with a few wedding rings mixed up in their dust and the gold stoppings of innumerable decayed teeth. The face in the motor car will then be known.</p>

                  <p>It is probably the Queen, thought Mrs. Dalloway, coming out of Mulberry’s with her flowers; the Queen. And for a second she wore a look of <pb n="24" facs="pageImages/24.jpg"/> extreme dignity standing by the flower shop in the sunlight while the car passed at a foot’s pace, with its blinds drawn. The Queen going to some hospital; the Queen opening some bazaar, thought Clarissa.</p>

                  <p>The crush was terrific for the time of day. Lords, Ascot, Hurlingham, what was it? she wondered, for the street was blocked. The British middle classes sitting sideways on the tops of omnibuses with parcels and umbrellas, yes, even furs on a day like this, were, she thought, more ridiculous, more unlike anything there has ever been than one could conceive; and the Queen herself held up; the Queen herself unable to pass. Clarissa was suspended on one side of Brook Street; Sir John Buckhurst, the old Judge on the other, with the car between them (Sir John had laid down the law for years and liked a well-dressed woman) when the chauffeur, leaning ever so slightly, said or showed something to the policeman, who saluted and raised his arm and jerked his head and moved the omnibus to the side and the car passed through. Slowly and very silently it took its way.</p>

                  <p>Clarissa guessed; Clarissa knew of course; she had seen something white, magical, circular, in the footman’s hand, a disc inscribed with a name,—the <pb n="25" facs="pageImages/25.jpg"/> Queen’s, the Prince of Wales’s, the Prime Minister’s?—which, by force of its own lustre, burnt its way through (Clarissa saw the car diminishing, disappearing), to blaze among candelabras, glittering stars, breasts stiff with oak leaves, Hugh Whitbread and all his colleagues, the gentlemen of England, that night in Buckingham Palace. And Clarissa, too, gave a party. She stiffened a little; so she would stand at the top of her stairs.</p>

                  <p>The car had gone, but it had left a slight ripple which flowed through glove shops and hat shops and tailors’ shops on both sides of Bond Street. For thirty seconds all heads were inclined the same way—to the window. Choosing a pair of gloves—should they be to the elbow or above it, lemon or pale grey?—ladies stopped; when the sentence was finished something had happened. Something so trifling in single instances that no mathematical instrument, though capable of transmitting shocks in China, could register the vibration; yet in its fulness rather formidable and in its common appeal emotional; for in all the hat shops and tailors’ shops strangers looked at each other and thought of the dead; of the flag; of Empire. In a public house in a back street a Colonial insulted the House of Windsor which led to words, broken beer glasses, and a <pb n="26" facs="pageImages/26.jpg"/> general shindy, which echoed strangely across the way in the ears of girls buying white underlinen threaded with pure white ribbon for their weddings. For the surface agitation of the passing car as it sunk grazed something very profound.</p>

                  <p>Gliding across Piccadilly, the car turned down St. James’s Street. Tall men, men of robust physique, well-dressed men with their tail-coats and their white slips and their hair raked back who, for reasons difficult to discriminate, were standing in the bow window of Brooks’s with their hands behind the tails of their coats, looking out, perceived instinctively that greatness was passing, and the pale light of the immortal presence fell upon them as it had fallen upon Clarissa Dalloway. At once they stood even straighter, and removed their hands, and seemed ready to attend their Sovereign, if need be, to the cannon’s mouth, as their ancestors had done before them. The white busts and the little tables in the background covered with copies of the Tatler and syphons of soda water seemed to approve; seemed to indicate the flowing corn and the manor houses of England; and to return the frail hum of the motor wheels as the walls of a whispering gallery return a single voice expanded and made sonorous by the might of a whole cathedral. Shawled <pb n="27" facs="pageImages/27.jpg"/> Moll Pratt with her flowers on the pavement wished the dear boy well (it was the Prince of Wales for certain) and would have tossed the price of a pot of beer—a bunch of roses—into St. James’s Street out of sheer light-heartedness and contempt of poverty had she not seen the constable’s eye upon her, discouraging an old Irishwoman’s loyalty. The sentries at St. James’s saluted; Queen Alexandra’s policeman approved.</p>

                  <p>A small crowd meanwhile had gathered at the gates of Buckingham Palace. Listlessly, yet confidently, poor people all of them, they waited; looked at the Palace itself with the flag flying; at Victoria, billowing on her mound, admired her shelves of running water, her geraniums; singled out from the motor cars in the Mall first this one, then that; bestowed emotion, vainly, upon commoners out for a drive; recalled their tribute to keep it unspent while this car passed and that; and all the time let rumour accumulate in their veins and thrill the nerves in their thighs at the thought of Royalty looking at them; the Queen bowing; the Prince saluting; at the thought of the heavenly life divinely bestowed upon Kings; of the equerries and deep curtsies; of the Queen’s old doll’s house; of Princess Mary married to an Englishman, and the <pb n="28" facs="pageImages/28.jpg"/> Prince—ah! the Prince! who took wonderfully, they said, after old King Edward, but was ever so much slimmer. The Prince lived at St. James’s; but he might come along in the morning to visit his mother.</p>

                  <p>So Sarah Bletchley said with her baby in her arms, tipping her foot up and down as though she were by her own fender in Pimlico, but keeping her eyes on the Mall, while Emily Coates ranged over the Palace windows and thought of the housemaids, the innumerable housemaids, the bedrooms, the innumerable bedrooms. Joined by an elderly gentleman with an Aberdeen terrier, by men without occupation, the crowd increased. Little Mr. Bowley, who had rooms in the Albany and was sealed with wax over the deeper sources of life but could be unsealed suddenly, inappropriately, sentimentally, by this sort of thing—poor women waiting to see the Queen go past—poor women, nice little children, orphans, widows, the War—tut-tut—actually had tears in his eyes. A breeze flaunting ever so warmly down the Mall through the thin trees, past the bronze heroes, lifted some flag flying in the British breast of Mr. Bowley and he raised his hat as the car turned into the Mall and held it high as the car approached; and let the poor mothers of Pimlico <pb n="29" facs="pageImages/29.jpg"/> press close to him, and stood very upright. The car came on.</p>

                  <p>Suddenly Mrs. Coates looked up into the sky. The sound of an aeroplane bored ominously into the ears of the crowd. There it was coming over the trees, letting out white smoke from behind, which curled and twisted, actually writing something! making letters in the sky! Every one looked up.</p>

                  <p>Dropping dead down the aeroplane soared straight up, curved in a loop, raced, sank, rose, and whatever it did, wherever it went, out fluttered behind it a thick ruffled bar of white smoke which curled and wreathed upon the sky in letters. But what letters? A C was it? an E, then an L? Only for a moment did they lie still; then they moved and melted and were rubbed out up in the sky, and the aeroplane shot further away and again, in a fresh space of sky, began writing a K, an E, a Y perhaps?</p>

                  <p>“Glaxo,” said Mrs. Coates in a strained, awestricken voice, gazing straight up, and her baby, lying stiff and white in her arms, gazed straight up.</p>

                  <p>“Kreemo,” murmured Mrs. Bletchley, like a sleep-walker. With his hat held out perfectly still in his hand, Mr. Bowley gazed straight up. All down the Mall people were standing and looking up <pb n="30" facs="pageImages/30.jpg"/> into the sky. As they looked the whole world became perfectly silent, and a flight of gulls crossed the sky, first one gull leading, then another, and in this extraordinary silence and peace, in this pallor, in this purity, bells struck eleven times, the sound fading up there among the gulls.</p>

                  <p>The aeroplane turned and raced and swooped exactly where it liked, swiftly, freely, like a skater—</p>

                  <p>“That’s an E,” said Mrs. Bletchley— or a dancer—</p>

                  <p>“It’s toffee,” murmured Mr. Bowley— (and the car went in at the gates and nobody looked at it), and shutting off the smoke, away and away it rushed, and the smoke faded and assembled itself round the broad white shapes of the clouds.</p>

                     <p>It had gone; it was behind the clouds. There was no sound. The clouds to which the letters E, G, or L had attached themselves moved freely, as if destined to cross from West to East on a mission of the greatest importance which would never be revealed, and yet certainly so it was—a mission of the greatest importance. Then suddenly, as a train comes out of a tunnel, the aeroplane rushed out of the clouds again, the sound boring into the ears of all people in the Mall, in the Green Park, in Piccadilly, in Regent Street, in Regent’s Park, and the <pb n="31" facs="pageImages/31.jpg"/> bar of smoke curved behind and it dropped down, and it soared up and wrote one letter after another—but what word was it writing?</p>

                        <p>Lucrezia Warren Smith, sitting by her husband’s side on a seat in Regent’s Park in the Broad Walk, looked up.</p>

                           <p>“Look, look, Septimus!” she cried. For Dr. Holmes had told her to make her husband (who had nothing whatever seriously the matter with him but was a little out of sorts) take an interest in things outside himself.</p>

                              <p>So, thought Septimus, looking up, they are signalling to me. Not indeed in actual words; that is, he could not read the language yet; but it was plain enough, this beauty, this exquisite beauty, and tears filled his eyes as he looked at the smoke words languishing and melting in the sky and bestowing upon him in their inexhaustible charity and laughing goodness one shape after another of unimaginable beauty and signalling their intention to provide him, for nothing, for ever, for looking merely, with beauty, more beauty! Tears ran down his cheeks.</p>

                                 <p>It was toffee; they were advertising toffee, a nursemaid told Rezia. Together they began to spell t ... o ... f....</p>

                  <pb n="32" facs="pageImages/32.jpg"/>

                                    <p>“K ... R ...” said the nursemaid, and Septimus heard her say “Kay Arr” close to his ear, deeply, softly, like a mellow organ, but with a roughness in her voice like a grasshopper’s, which rasped his spine deliciously and sent running up into his brain waves of sound which, concussing, broke. A marvellous discovery indeed—that the human voice in certain atmospheric conditions (for one must be scientific, above all scientific) can quicken trees into life! Happily Rezia put her hand with a tremendous weight on his knee so that he was weighted down, transfixed, or the excitement of the elm trees rising and falling, rising and falling with all their leaves alight and the colour thinning and thickening from blue to the green of a hollow wave, like plumes on horses’ heads, feathers on ladies’, so proudly they rose and fell, so superbly, would have sent him mad. But he would not go mad. He would shut his eyes; he would see no more.</p>

                                       <p>But they beckoned; leaves were alive; trees were alive. And the leaves being connected by millions of fibres with his own body, there on the seat, fanned it up and down; when the branch stretched he, too, made that statement. The sparrows fluttering, rising, and falling in jagged fountains were <pb n="33" facs="pageImages/33.jpg"/> part of the pattern; the white and blue, barred with black branches. Sounds made harmonies with premeditation; the spaces between them were as significant as the sounds. A child cried. Rightly far away a horn sounded. All taken together meant the birth of a new religion—</p>

                                          <p>“Septimus!” said Rezia. He started violently. People must notice.</p>

                                             <p>“I am going to walk to the fountain and back,” she said.</p>

                                                <p>For she could stand it no longer. Dr. Holmes might say there was nothing the matter. Far rather would she that he were dead! She could not sit beside him when he stared so and did not see her and made everything terrible; sky and tree, children playing, dragging carts, blowing whistles, falling down; all were terrible. And he would not kill himself; and she could tell no one. “Septimus has been working too hard”—that was all she could say to her own mother. To love makes one solitary, she thought. She could tell nobody, not even Septimus now, and looking back, she saw him sitting in his shabby overcoat alone, on the seat, hunched up, staring. And it was cowardly for a man to say he would kill himself, but Septimus had fought; he was brave; he was not Septimus now. She put on her <pb n="34" facs="pageImages/34.jpg"/> lace collar. She put on her new hat and he never noticed; and he was happy without her. Nothing could make her happy without him! Nothing! He was selfish. So men are. For he was not ill. Dr. Holmes said there was nothing the matter with him. She spread her hand before her. Look! Her wedding ring slipped—she had grown so thin. It was she who suffered—but she had nobody to tell.</p>
                                                
                                                   <p>Far was Italy and the white houses and the room where her sisters sat making hats, and the streets crowded every evening with people walking, laughing out loud, not half alive like people here, huddled up in Bath chairs, looking at a few ugly flowers stuck in pots!</p>

                                                      <p>“For you should see the Milan gardens,” she said aloud. But to whom?</p>

                                                         <p>There was nobody. Her words faded. So a rocket fades. Its sparks, having grazed their way into the night, surrender to it, dark descends, pours over the outlines of houses and towers; bleak hillsides soften and fall in. But though they are gone, the night is full of them; robbed of colour, blank of windows, they exist more ponderously, give out what the frank daylight fails to transmit—the trouble and suspense of things conglomerated there in the darkness; huddled together in the darkness;<pb n="35" facs="pageImages/35.jpg"/> reft of the relief which dawn brings when, washing the walls white and grey, spotting each window-pane, lifting the mist from the fields, showing the red-brown cows peacefully grazing, all is once more decked out to the eye; exists again. I am alone; I am alone! she cried, by the fountain in Regent’s Park (staring at the Indian and his cross), as perhaps at midnight, when all boundaries are lost, the country reverts to its ancient shape, as the Romans saw it, lying cloudy, when they landed, and the hills had no names and rivers wound they knew not where—such was her darkness; when suddenly, as if a shelf were shot forth and she stood on it, she said how she was his wife, married years ago in Milan, his wife, and would never, never tell that he was mad! Turning, the shelf fell; down, down she dropped. For he was gone, she thought—gone, as he threatened, to kill himself—to throw himself under a cart! But no; there he was; still sitting alone on the seat, in his shabby overcoat, his legs crossed, staring, talking aloud.</p>

                                                            <p>Men must not cut down trees. There is a God. (He noted such revelations on the backs of envelopes.) Change the world. No one kills from hatred. Make it known (he wrote it down). He waited. He listened. A sparrow perched on the <pb n="36" facs="pageImages/36.jpg"/> railing opposite chirped Septimus, Septimus, four or five times over and went on, drawing its notes out, to sing freshly and piercingly in Greek words how there is no crime and, joined by another sparrow, they sang in voices prolonged and piercing in Greek words, from trees in the meadow of life beyond a river where the dead walk, how there is no death.</p>

                                                               <p>There was his hand; there the dead. White things were assembling behind the railings opposite. But he dared not look. Evans was behind the railings!</p>

<p>"What are you saying?” said Rezia suddenly, sitting down by him.</p>

   <p>Interrupted again! She was always interrupting.</p>

      <p>Away from people—they must get away from people, he said (jumping up), right away over there, where there were chairs beneath a tree and the long slope of the park dipped like a length of green stuff with a ceiling cloth of blue and pink smoke high above, and there was a rampart of far irregular houses hazed in smoke, the traffic hummed in a circle, and on the right, dun-coloured animals stretched long necks over the Zoo palings, barking, howling. There they sat down under a tree.</p>

         <p>“Look,” she implored him, pointing at a little <pb n="37" facs="pageImages/37.jpg"/> troop of boys carrying cricket stumps, and one shuffled, spun round on his heel and shuffled, as if he were acting a clown at the music hall.</p>

            <p>“Look,” she implored him, for Dr. Holmes had told her to make him notice real things, go to a music hall, play cricket—that was the very game, Dr. Holmes said, a nice out-of-door game, the very game for her husband.</p>

               <p>“Look,” she repeated.</p>

                  <p>Look the unseen bade him, the voice which now communicated with him who was the greatest of mankind, Septimus, lately taken from life to death, the Lord who had come to renew society, who lay like a coverlet, a snow blanket smitten only by the sun, for ever unwasted, suffering for ever, the scapegoat, the eternal sufferer, but he did not want it, he moaned, putting from him with a wave of his hand that eternal suffering, that eternal loneliness.</p>

                     <p>“Look,” she repeated, for he must not talk aloud to himself out of doors.</p>

                        <p>“Oh look,” she implored him. But what was there to look at? A few sheep. That was all.</p>

                           <p>The way to Regent’s Park Tube station—could they tell her the way to Regent’s Park Tube station—Maisie Johnson wanted to know. She was only up from Edinburgh two days ago.</p>

                  <pb n="38" facs="pageImages/38.jpg"/>

                              <p>“Not this way—over there!” Rezia exclaimed, waving her aside, lest she should see Septimus.</p>

                                 <p>Both seemed queer, Maisie Johnson thought. Everything seemed very queer. In London for the first time, come to take up a post at her uncle’s in Leadenhall Street, and now walking through Regent’s Park in the morning, this couple on the chairs gave her quite a turn; the young woman seeming foreign, the man looking queer; so that should she be very old she would still remember and make it jangle again among her memories how she had walked through Regent’s Park on a fine summer’s morning fifty years ago. For she was only nineteen and had got her way at last, to come to London; and now how queer it was, this couple she had asked the way of, and the girl started and jerked her hand, and the man—he seemed awfully odd; quarrelling, perhaps; parting for ever, perhaps; something was up, she knew; and now all these people (for she returned to the Broad Walk), the stone basins, the prim flowers, the old men and women, invalids most of them in Bath chairs—all seemed, after Edinburgh, so queer. And Maisie Johnson, as she joined that gently trudging, vaguely gazing, breeze-kissed company—squirrels perching and preening, sparrow fountains fluttering for <pb n="39" facs="pageImages/39.jpg"/> crumbs, dogs busy with the railings, busy with each other, while the soft warm air washed over them and lent to the fixed unsurprised gaze with which they received life something whimsical and mollified—Maisie Johnson positively felt she must cry Oh! (for that young man on the seat had given her quite a turn. Something was up, she knew.)</p>

                                    <p>Horror! horror! she wanted to cry. (She had left her people; they had warned her what would happen.)</p>

                                       <p>Why hadn’t she stayed at home? she cried, twisting the knob of the iron railing.</p>

                                          <p>That girl, thought Mrs. Dempster (who saved crusts for the squirrels and often ate her lunch in Regent’s Park), don’t know a thing yet; and really it seemed to her better to be a little stout, a little slack, a little moderate in one’s expectations. Percy drank. Well, better to have a son, thought Mrs. Dempster. She had had a hard time of it, and couldn’t help smiling at a girl like that. You’ll get married, for you’re pretty enough, thought Mrs. Dempster. Get married, she thought, and then you’ll know. Oh, the cooks, and so on. Every man has his ways. But whether I’d have chosen quite like that if I could have known, thought Mrs. Dempster, and could not help wishing to whisper a <pb n="40" facs="pageImages/40.jpg"/> word to Maisie Johnson; to feel on the creased pouch of her worn old face the kiss of pity. For it’s been a hard life, thought Mrs. Dempster. What hadn’t she given to it? Roses; figure; her feet too. (She drew the knobbed lumps beneath her skirt.)</p>

                                             <p>Roses, she thought sardonically. All trash, m’dear. For really, what with eating, drinking, and mating, the bad days and good, life had been no mere matter of roses, and what was more, let me tell you, Carrie Dempster had no wish to change her lot with any woman’s in Kentish Town! But, she implored, pity. Pity, for the loss of roses. Pity she asked of Maisie Johnson, standing by the hyacinth beds.</p>

                                                <p>Ah, but that aeroplane! Hadn’t Mrs. Dempster always longed to see foreign parts? She had a nephew, a missionary. It soared and shot. She always went on the sea at Margate, not out o’ sight of land, but she had no patience with women who were afraid of water. It swept and fell. Her stomach was in her mouth. Up again. There’s a fine young feller aboard of it, Mrs. Dempster wagered, and away and away it went, fast and fading, away and away the aeroplane shot; soaring over Greenwich and all the masts; over the little island of <pb n="41" facs="pageImages/41.jpg"/> grey churches, St. Paul’s and the rest till, on either side of London, fields spread out and dark brown woods where adventurous thrushes hopping boldly, glancing quickly, snatched the snail and tapped him on a stone, once, twice, thrice.</p>

                                                   <p>Away and away the aeroplane shot, till it was nothing but a bright spark; an aspiration; a concentration; a symbol (so it seemed to Mr. Bentley, vigorously rolling his strip of turf at Greenwich) of man’s soul; of his determination, thought Mr. Bentley, sweeping round the cedar tree, to get outside his body, beyond his house, by means of thought, Einstein, speculation, mathematics, the Mendelian theory—away the aeroplane shot.</p>

                                                      <p>Then, while a seedy-looking nondescript man carrying a leather bag stood on the steps of St. Paul’s Cathedral, and hesitated, for within was what balm, how great a welcome, how many tombs with banners waving over them, tokens of victories not over armies, but over, he thought, that plaguy spirit of truth seeking which leaves me at present without a situation, and more than that, the cathedral offers company, he thought, invites you to membership of a society; great men belong to it; martyrs have died for it; why not enter in, he thought, put this leather bag stuffed with pamphlets <pb n="42" facs="pageImages/42.jpg"/> before an altar, a cross, the symbol of something which has soared beyond seeking and questing and knocking of words together and has become all spirit, disembodied, ghostly—why not enter in? he thought and while he hesitated out flew the aeroplane over Ludgate Circus.</p>

                                                         <p>It was strange; it was still. Not a sound was to be heard above the traffic. Unguided it seemed; sped of its own free will. And now, curving up and up, straight up, like something mounting in ecstasy, in pure delight, out from behind poured white smoke looping, writing a T, an O, an F.</p>

                                                            <p>“What are they looking at?” said Clarissa Dalloway to the maid who opened her door.</p>

                                                               <p>The hall of the house was cool as a vault. Mrs. Dalloway raised her hand to her eyes, and, as the maid shut the door to, and she heard the swish of Lucy’s skirts, she felt like a nun who has left the world and feels fold round her the familiar veils and the response to old devotions. The cook whistled in the kitchen. She heard the click of the typewriter. It was her life, and, bending her head over the hall table, she bowed beneath the influence, felt blessed and purified, saying to herself, as she took the pad with the telephone message on it, how <pb n="43" facs="pageImages/43.jpg"/> moments like this are buds on the tree of life, flowers of darkness they are, she thought (as if some lovely rose had blossomed for her eyes only); not for a moment did she believe in God; but all the more, she thought, taking up the pad, must one repay in daily life to servants, yes, to dogs and canaries, above all to Richard her husband, who was the foundation of it—of the gay sounds, of the green lights, of the cook even whistling, for Mrs. Walker was Irish and whistled all day long—one must pay back from this secret deposit of exquisite moments, she thought, lifting the pad, while Lucy stood by her, trying to explain how.</p>

                                                                  <p>“Mr. Dalloway, ma’am”—</p>

                                                                     <p>Clarissa read on the telephone pad, “Lady Bruton wishes to know if Mr. Dalloway will lunch with her to-day.”</p>

                                                                        <p>“Mr. Dalloway, ma’am, told me to tell you he would be lunching out.”</p>

                                                                           <p>“Dear!” said Clarissa, and Lucy shared as she meant her to her disappointment (but not the pang); felt the concord between them; took the hint; thought how the gentry love; gilded her own future with calm; and, taking Mrs. Dalloway’s parasol, handled it like a sacred weapon which a Goddess, having acquitted herself honourably in the <pb n="44" facs="pageImages/44.jpg"/> field of battle, sheds, and placed it in the umbrella stand.</p>

                                                                              <p>“Fear no more,” said Clarissa. Fear no more the heat o’ the sun; for the shock of Lady Bruton asking Richard to lunch without her made the moment in which she had stood shiver, as a plant on the river-bed feels the shock of a passing oar and shivers: so she rocked: so she shivered.</p>

                                                                                 <p>Millicent Bruton, whose lunch parties were said to be extraordinarily amusing, had not asked her. No vulgar jealousy could separate her from Richard. But she feared time itself, and read on Lady Bruton’s face, as if it had been a dial cut in impassive stone, the dwindling of life; how year by year her share was sliced; how little the margin that remained was capable any longer of stretching, of absorbing, as in the youthful years, the colours, salts, tones of existence, so that she filled the room she entered, and felt often as she stood hesitating one moment on the threshold of her drawing-room, an exquisite suspense, such as might stay a diver before plunging while the sea darkens and brightens beneath him, and the waves which threaten to break, but only gently split their surface, roll and conceal and encrust as they just turn over the weeds with pearl.</p>

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   <p>She put the pad on the hall table. She began to go slowly upstairs, with her hand on the bannisters, as if she had left a party, where now this friend now that had flashed back her face, her voice; had shut the door and gone out and stood alone, a single figure against the appalling night, or rather, to be accurate, against the stare of this matter-of-fact June morning; soft with the glow of rose petals for some, she knew, and felt it, as she paused by the open staircase window which let in blinds flapping, dogs barking, let in, she thought, feeling herself suddenly shrivelled, aged, breastless, the grinding, blowing, flowering of the day, out of doors, out of the window, out of her body and brain which now failed, since Lady Bruton, whose lunch parties were said to be extraordinarily amusing, had not asked her.</p>

   <p>Like a nun withdrawing, or a child exploring a tower, she went upstairs, paused at the window, came to the bathroom. There was the green linoleum and a tap dripping. There was an emptiness about the heart of life; an attic room. Women must put off their rich apparel. At midday they must disrobe. She pierced the pincushion and laid her feathered yellow hat on the bed. The sheets were clean, tight stretched in a broad white band from side to side. Narrower and narrower would <pb n="46" facs="pageImages/46.jpg"/> her bed be. The candle was half burnt down and she had read deep in Baron Marbot’s Memoirs. She had read late at night of the retreat from Moscow. For the House sat so long that Richard insisted, after her illness, that she must sleep undisturbed. And really she preferred to read of the retreat from Moscow. He knew it. So the room was an attic; the bed narrow; and lying there reading, for she slept badly, she could not dispel a virginity preserved through childbirth which clung to her like a sheet. Lovely in girlhood, suddenly there came a moment—for example on the river beneath the woods at Clieveden—when, through some contraction of this cold spirit, she had failed him. And then at Constantinople, and again and again. She could see what she lacked. It was not beauty; it was not mind. It was something central which permeated; something warm which broke up surfaces and rippled the cold contact of man and woman, or of women together. For that she could dimly perceive. She resented it, had a scruple picked up Heaven knows where, or, as she felt, sent by Nature (who is invariably wise); yet she could not resist sometimes yielding to the charm of a woman, not a girl, of a woman confessing, as to her they often did, some scrape, some folly. And whether <pb n="47" facs="pageImages/47.jpg"/> it was pity, or their beauty, or that she was older, or some accident—like a faint scent, or a violin next door (so strange is the power of sounds at certain moments), she did undoubtedly then feel what men felt. Only for a moment; but it was enough. It was a sudden revelation, a tinge like a blush which one tried to check and then, as it spread, one yielded to its expansion, and rushed to the farthest verge and there quivered and felt the world come closer, swollen with some astonishing significance, some pressure of rapture, which split its thin skin and gushed and poured with an extraordinary alleviation over the cracks and sores! Then, for that moment, she had seen an illumination; a match burning in a crocus; an inner meaning almost expressed. But the close withdrew; the hard softened. It was over—the moment. Against such moments (with women too) there contrasted (as she laid her hat down) the bed and Baron Marbot and the candle half-burnt. Lying awake, the floor creaked; the lit house was suddenly darkened, and if she raised her head she could just hear the click of the handle released as gently as possible by Richard, who slipped upstairs in his socks and then, as often as not, dropped his hot-water bottle and swore! How she laughed!</p>

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      <p>But this question of love (she thought, putting her coat away), this falling in love with women. Take Sally Seton; her relation in the old days with Sally Seton. Had not that, after all, been love?</p>

         <p>She sat on the floor—that was her first impression of Sally—she sat on the floor with her arms round her knees, smoking a cigarette. Where could it have been? The Mannings? The Kinloch-Jones’s? At some party (where, she could not be certain), for she had a distinct recollection of saying to the man she was with, “Who is that?” And he had told her, and said that Sally’s parents did not get on (how that shocked her—that one’s parents should quarrel!). But all that evening she could not take her eyes off Sally. It was an extraordinary beauty of the kind she most admired, dark, large-eyed, with that quality which, since she hadn’t got it herself, she always envied—a sort of abandonment, as if she could say anything, do anything; a quality much commoner in foreigners than in Englishwomen. Sally always said she had French blood in her veins, an ancestor had been with Marie Antoinette, had his head cut off, left a ruby ring. Perhaps that summer she came to stay at Bourton, walking in quite unexpectedly without a penny in her pocket, one night after dinner, and <pb n="49" facs="pageImages/49.jpg"/> upsetting poor Aunt Helena to such an extent that she never forgave her. There had been some quarrel at home. She literally hadn’t a penny that night when she came to them—had pawned a brooch to come down. She had rushed off in a passion. They sat up till all hours of the night talking. Sally it was who made her feel, for the first time, how sheltered the life at Bourton was. She knew nothing about sex—nothing about social problems. She had once seen an old man who had dropped dead in a field—she had seen cows just after their calves were born. But Aunt Helena never liked discussion of anything (when Sally gave her William Morris, it had to be wrapped in brown paper). There they sat, hour after hour, talking in her bedroom at the top of the house, talking about life, how they were to reform the world. They meant to found a society to abolish private property, and actually had a letter written, though not sent out. The ideas were Sally’s, of course—but very soon she was just as excited—read Plato in bed before breakfast; read Morris; read Shelley by the hour.</p>

            <p>Sally’s power was amazing, her gift, her personality. There was her way with flowers, for instance. At Bourton they always had stiff little vases all the way down the table. Sally went out, picked <pb n="50" facs="pageImages/50.jpg"/> hollyhocks, dahlias—all sorts of flowers that had never been seen together—cut their heads off, and made them swim on the top of water in bowls. The effect was extraordinary—coming in to dinner in the sunset. (Of course Aunt Helena thought it wicked to treat flowers like that.) Then she forgot her sponge, and ran along the passage naked. That grim old housemaid, Ellen Atkins, went about grumbling—“Suppose any of the gentlemen had seen?” Indeed she did shock people. She was untidy, Papa said.</p>

               <p>The strange thing, on looking back, was the purity, the integrity, of her feeling for Sally. It was not like one’s feeling for a man. It was completely disinterested, and besides, it had a quality which could only exist between women, between women just grown up. It was protective, on her side; sprang from a sense of being in league together, a presentiment of something that was bound to part them (they spoke of marriage always as a catastrophe), which led to this chivalry, this protective feeling which was much more on her side than Sally’s. For in those days she was completely reckless; did the most idiotic things out of bravado; bicycled round the parapet on the terrace; smoked cigars. Absurd, she was—very absurd. <pb n="51" facs="pageImages/51.jpg"/> But the charm was overpowering, to her at least, so that she could remember standing in her bedroom at the top of the house holding the hot-water can in her hands and saying aloud, “She is beneath this roof.... She is beneath this roof!”</p>

                  <p>No, the words meant absolutely nothing to her now. She could not even get an echo of her old emotion. But she could remember going cold with excitement, and doing her hair in a kind of ecstasy (now the old feeling began to come back to her, as she took out her hairpins, laid them on the dressing-table, began to do her hair), with the rooks flaunting up and down in the pink evening light, and dressing, and going downstairs, and feeling as she crossed the hall “if it were now to die ’twere now to be most happy.” That was her feeling—Othello’s feeling, and she felt it, she was convinced, as strongly as Shakespeare meant Othello to feel it, all because she was coming down to dinner in a white frock to meet Sally Seton!</p>

                     <p>She was wearing pink gauze—was that possible? She seemed, anyhow, all light, glowing, like some bird or air ball that has flown in, attached itself for a moment to a bramble. But nothing is so strange when one is in love (and what was this except being in love?) as the complete indifference <pb n="52" facs="pageImages/52.jpg"/> of other people. Aunt Helena just wandered off after dinner; Papa read the paper. Peter Walsh might have been there, and old Miss Cummings; Joseph Breitkopf certainly was, for he came every summer, poor old man, for weeks and weeks, and pretended to read German with her, but really played the piano and sang Brahms without any voice.</p>

                        <p>All this was only a background for Sally. She stood by the fireplace talking, in that beautiful voice which made everything she said sound like a caress, to Papa, who had begun to be attracted rather against his will (he never got over lending her one of his books and finding it soaked on the terrace), when suddenly she said, “What a shame to sit indoors!” and they all went out on to the terrace and walked up and down. Peter Walsh and Joseph Breitkopf went on about Wagner. She and Sally fell a little behind. Then came the most exquisite moment of her whole life passing a stone urn with flowers in it. Sally stopped; picked a flower; kissed her on the lips. The whole world might have turned upside down! The others disappeared; there she was alone with Sally. And she felt that she had been given a present, wrapped up, and told just to keep it, not to look at it—a diamond, something <pb n="53" facs="pageImages/53.jpg"/> infinitely precious, wrapped up, which, as they walked (up and down, up and down), she uncovered, or the radiance burnt through, the revelation, the religious feeling!—when old Joseph and Peter faced them:</p>

                           <p>“Star-gazing?” said Peter.</p>

                              <p>It was like running one’s face against a granite wall in the darkness! It was shocking; it was horrible!</p>

                                 <p>Not for herself. She felt only how Sally was being mauled already, maltreated; she felt his hostility; his jealousy; his determination to break into their companionship. All this she saw as one sees a landscape in a flash of lightning—and Sally (never had she admired her so much!) gallantly taking her way unvanquished. She laughed. She made old Joseph tell her the names of the stars, which he liked doing very seriously. She stood there: she listened. She heard the names of the stars.</p>
                                
                                    <p>“Oh this horror!” she said to herself, as if she had known all along that something would interrupt, would embitter her moment of happiness.</p>

                                       <p>Yet, after all, how much she owed to him later. Always when she thought of him she thought of their quarrels for some reason—because she wanted his good opinion so much, perhaps. She owed him <pb n="54" facs="pageImages/54.jpg"/> words: “sentimental,” “civilised”; they started up every day of her life as if he guarded her. A book was sentimental; an attitude to life sentimental. “Sentimental,” perhaps she was to be thinking of the past. What would he think, she wondered, when he came back?</p>

                                          <p>That she had grown older? Would he say that, or would she see him thinking when he came back, that she had grown older? It was true. Since her illness she had turned almost white.</p>

                                             <p>Laying her brooch on the table, she had a sudden spasm, as if, while she mused, the icy claws had had the chance to fix in her. She was not old yet. She had just broken into her fifty-second year. Months and months of it were still untouched. June, July, August! Each still remained almost whole, and, as if to catch the falling drop, Clarissa (crossing to the dressing-table) plunged into the very heart of the moment, transfixed it, there—the moment of this June morning on which was the pressure of all the other mornings, seeing the glass, the dressing-table, and all the bottles afresh, collecting the whole of her at one point (as she looked into the glass), seeing the delicate pink face of the woman who was that very night to give a party; of Clarissa Dalloway; of herself.</p>

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                                                <p>How many million times she had seen her face, and always with the same imperceptible contraction! She pursed her lips when she looked in the glass. It was to give her face point. That was her self—pointed; dartlike; definite. That was her self when some effort, some call on her to be her self, drew the parts together, she alone knew how different, how incompatible and composed so for the world only into one centre, one diamond, one woman who sat in her drawing-room and made a meeting-point, a radiancy no doubt in some dull lives, a refuge for the lonely to come to, perhaps; she had helped young people, who were grateful to her; had tried to be the same always, never showing a sign of all the other sides of her—faults, jealousies, vanities, suspicions, like this of Lady Bruton not asking her to lunch; which, she thought (combing her hair finally), is utterly base! Now, where was her dress?</p>

                                                   <p>Her evening dresses hung in the cupboard. Clarissa, plunging her hand into the softness, gently detached the green dress and carried it to the window. She had torn it. Some one had trod on the skirt. She had felt it give at the Embassy party at the top among the folds. By artificial light the green shone, but lost its colour now in the sun. She <pb n="56" facs="pageImages/56.jpg"/> would mend it. Her maids had too much to do. She would wear it to-night. She would take her silks, her scissors, her—what was it?—her thimble, of course, down into the drawing-room, for she must also write, and see that things generally were more or less in order.</p>

                                                      <p>Strange, she thought, pausing on the landing, and assembling that diamond shape, that single person, strange how a mistress knows the very moment, the very temper of her house! Faint sounds rose in spirals up the well of the stairs; the swish of a mop; tapping; knocking; a loudness when the front door opened; a voice repeating a message in the basement; the chink of silver on a tray; clean silver for the party. All was for the party.</p>

                                                         <p>(And Lucy, coming into the drawing-room with her tray held out, put the giant candlesticks on the mantelpiece, the silver casket in the middle, turned the crystal dolphin towards the clock. They would come; they would stand; they would talk in the mincing tones which she could imitate, ladies and gentlemen. Of all, her mistress was loveliest—mistress of silver, of linen, of china, for the sun, the silver, doors off their hinges, Rumpelmayer’s men, gave her a sense, as she laid the paper-knife on the inlaid table, of something achieved. Behold! Behold! <pb n="57" facs="pageImages/57.jpg"/> she said, speaking to her old friends in the baker’s shop, where she had first seen service at Caterham, prying into the glass. She was Lady Angela, attending Princess Mary, when in came Mrs. Dalloway.)</p>

                                                            <p>“Oh Lucy,” she said, “the silver does look nice!”</p>

                                                               <p>“And how,” she said, turning the crystal dolphin to stand straight, “how did you enjoy the play last night?” “Oh, they had to go before the end!” she said. “They had to be back at ten!” she said. “So they don’t know what happened,” she said. “That does seem hard luck,” she said (for her servants stayed later, if they asked her). “That does seem rather a shame,” she said, taking the old bald-looking cushion in the middle of the sofa and putting it in Lucy’s arms, and giving her a little push, and crying:</p>

                                                                  <p>“Take it away! Give it to Mrs. Walker with my compliments! Take it away!” she cried.</p>

                                                                     <p>And Lucy stopped at the drawing-room door, holding the cushion, and said, very shyly, turning a little pink, Couldn’t she help to mend that dress?</p>

                                                                        <p>But, said Mrs. Dalloway, she had enough on her hands already, quite enough of her own to do without that.</p>

                                                                           <p>“But, thank you, Lucy, oh, thank you,” said Mrs.<pb n="58" facs="pageImages/58.jpg"/> Dalloway, and thank you, thank you, she went on saying (sitting down on the sofa with her dress over her knees, her scissors, her silks), thank you, thank you, she went on saying in gratitude to her servants generally for helping her to be like this, to be what she wanted, gentle, generous-hearted. Her servants liked her. And then this dress of hers—where was the tear? and now her needle to be threaded. This was a favourite dress, one of Sally Parker’s, the last almost she ever made, alas, for Sally had now retired, living at Ealing, and if ever I have a moment, thought Clarissa (but never would she have a moment any more), I shall go and see her at Ealing. For she was a character, thought Clarissa, a real artist. She thought of little out-of-the-way things; yet her dresses were never queer. You could wear them at Hatfield; at Buckingham Palace. She had worn them at Hatfield; at Buckingham Palace.</p>

                                                                              <p>Quiet descended on her, calm, content, as her needle, drawing the silk smoothly to its gentle pause, collected the green folds together and attached them, very lightly, to the belt. So on a summer’s day waves collect, overbalance, and fall; collect and fall; and the whole world seems to be saying “that is all” more and more ponderously, until even the heart in the body which lies in the sun on the beach <pb n="59" facs="pageImages/59.jpg"/> says too, That is all. Fear no more, says the heart. Fear no more, says the heart, committing its burden to some sea, which sighs collectively for all sorrows, and renews, begins, collects, lets fall. And the body alone listens to the passing bee; the wave breaking; the dog barking, far away barking and barking.</p>

                                                                                 <p>“Heavens, the front-door bell!” exclaimed Clarissa, staying her needle. Roused, she listened.</p>

                                                                                    <p>“Mrs. Dalloway will see me,” said the elderly man in the hall. “Oh yes, she will see me,” he repeated, putting Lucy aside very benevolently, and running upstairs ever so quickly. “Yes, yes, yes,” he muttered as he ran upstairs. “She will see me. After five years in India, Clarissa will see me.”</p>

                                                                                       <p>“Who can—what can,” asked Mrs. Dalloway (thinking it was outrageous to be interrupted at eleven o’clock on the morning of the day she was giving a party), hearing a step on the stairs. She heard a hand upon the door. She made to hide her dress, like a virgin protecting chastity, respecting privacy. Now the brass knob slipped. Now the door opened, and in came—for a single second she could not remember what he was called! so surprised she was to see him, so glad, so shy, so utterly taken aback to have Peter Walsh come to her unexpectedly <pb n="60" facs="pageImages/60.jpg"/> in the morning! (She had not read his letter.)</p>

                                                                                          <p>“And how are you?” said Peter Walsh, positively trembling; taking both her hands; kissing both her hands. She’s grown older, he thought, sitting down. I shan’t tell her anything about it, he thought, for she’s grown older. She’s looking at me, he thought, a sudden embarrassment coming over him, though he had kissed her hands. Putting his hand into his pocket, he took out a large pocket-knife and half opened the blade.</p>

                                                                                             <p>Exactly the same, thought Clarissa; the same queer look; the same check suit; a little out of the straight his face is, a little thinner, dryer, perhaps, but he looks awfully well, and just the same.</p>

                                                                                                <p>“How heavenly it is to see you again!” she exclaimed. He had his knife out. That’s so like him, she thought.</p>

                                                                                                   <p>He had only reached town last night, he said; would have to go down into the country at once; and how was everything, how was everybody—Richard? Elizabeth?</p>

                                                                                                      <p>“And what’s all this?” he said, tilting his penknife towards her green dress.</p>

                                                                                                         <p>He’s very well dressed, thought Clarissa; yet he always criticises me.</p>

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   <p>Here she is mending her dress; mending her dress as usual, he thought; here she’s been sitting all the time I’ve been in India; mending her dress; playing about; going to parties; running to the House and back and all that, he thought, growing more and more irritated, more and more agitated, for there’s nothing in the world so bad for some women as marriage, he thought; and politics; and having a Conservative husband, like the admirable Richard. So it is, so it is, he thought, shutting his knife with a snap.</p>

      <p>“Richard’s very well. Richard’s at a Committee,” said Clarissa.</p>

         <p>And she opened her scissors, and said, did he mind her just finishing what she was doing to her dress, for they had a party that night?</p>

            <p>“Which I shan’t ask you to,” she said. “My dear Peter!” she said.</p>

               <p>But it was delicious to hear her say that—my dear Peter! Indeed, it was all so delicious—the silver, the chairs; all so delicious!</p>

                  <p>Why wouldn’t she ask him to her party? he asked.</p>

                     <p>Now of course, thought Clarissa, he’s enchanting! perfectly enchanting! Now I remember how impossible it was ever to make up my mind—and why <pb n="62" facs="pageImages/62.jpg"/> did I make up my mind—not to marry him? she wondered, that awful summer?</p>

                        <p>“But it’s so extraordinary that you should have come this morning!” she cried, putting her hands, one on top of another, down on her dress.</p>

                           <p>“Do you remember,” she said, “how the blinds used to flap at Bourton?”</p>

                              <p>“They did,” he said; and he remembered breakfasting alone, very awkwardly, with her father; who had died; and he had not written to Clarissa. But he had never got on well with old Parry, that querulous, weak-kneed old man, Clarissa’s father, Justin Parry.</p>

                                 <p>“I often wish I’d got on better with your father,” he said.</p>

                                    <p>“But he never liked any one who—our friends,” said Clarissa; and could have bitten her tongue for thus reminding Peter that he had wanted to marry her.</p>

                                       <p>Of course I did, thought Peter; it almost broke my heart too, he thought; and was overcome with his own grief, which rose like a moon looked at from a terrace, ghastly beautiful with light from the sunken day. I was more unhappy than I’ve ever been since, he thought. And as if in truth he were sitting there on the terrace he edged a little towards <pb n="63" facs="pageImages/63.jpg"/> Clarissa; put his hand out; raised it; let it fall. There above them it hung, that moon. She too seemed to be sitting with him on the terrace, in the moonlight.</p>

                                       <p>“Herbert has it now,” she said. “I never go there now,” she said.</p>

                                             <p>Then, just as happens on a terrace in the moonlight, when one person begins to feel ashamed that he is already bored, and yet as the other sits silent, very quiet, sadly looking at the moon, does not like to speak, moves his foot, clears his throat, notices some iron scroll on a table leg, stirs a leaf, but says nothing—so Peter Walsh did now. For why go back like this to the past? he thought. Why make him think of it again? Why make him suffer, when she had tortured him so infernally? Why?</p>

                                                <p>“Do you remember the lake?” she said, in an abrupt voice, under the pressure of an emotion which caught her heart, made the muscles of her throat stiff, and contracted her lips in a spasm as she said “lake.” For she was a child, throwing bread to the ducks, between her parents, and at the same time a grown woman coming to her parents who stood by the lake, holding her life in her arms which, as she neared them, grew larger and larger in her arms, until it became a whole life, a complete <pb n="64" facs="pageImages/64.jpg"/> life, which she put down by them and said, “This is what I have made of it! This!” And what had she made of it? What, indeed? sitting there sewing this morning with Peter.</p>

                                                   <p>She looked at Peter Walsh; her look, passing through all that time and that emotion, reached him doubtfully; settled on him tearfully; and rose and fluttered away, as a bird touches a branch and rises and flutters away. Quite simply she wiped her eyes.</p>

                                                      <p>“Yes,” said Peter. “Yes, yes, yes,” he said, as if she drew up to the surface something which positively hurt him as it rose. Stop! Stop! he wanted to cry. For he was not old; his life was not over; not by any means. He was only just past fifty. Shall I tell her, he thought, or not? He would like to make a clean breast of it all. But she is too cold, he thought; sewing, with her scissors; Daisy would look ordinary beside Clarissa. And she would think me a failure, which I am in their sense, he thought; in the Dalloways’ sense. Oh yes, he had no doubt about that; he was a failure, compared with all this—the inlaid table, the mounted paper-knife, the dolphin and the candlesticks, the chair-covers and the old valuable English tinted prints—he was a <pb n="65" facs="pageImages/65.jpg"/> failure! I detest the smugness of the whole affair he thought; Richard’s doing, not Clarissa’s; save that she married him. (Here Lucy came into the room, carrying silver, more silver, but charming, slender, graceful she looked, he thought, as she stooped to put it down.) And this has been going on all the time! he thought; week after week; Clarissa’s life; while I—he thought; and at once everything seemed to radiate from him; journeys; rides; quarrels; adventures; bridge parties; love affairs; work; work, work! and he took out his knife quite openly—his old horn-handled knife which Clarissa could swear he had had these thirty years—and clenched his fist upon it.</p>

                                                         <p>What an extraordinary habit that was, Clarissa thought; always playing with a knife. Always making one feel, too, frivolous; empty-minded; a mere silly chatterbox, as he used. But I too, she thought, and, taking up her needle, summoned, like a Queen whose guards have fallen asleep and left her unprotected (she had been quite taken aback by this visit—it had upset her) so that any one can stroll in and have a look at her where she lies with the brambles curving over her, summoned to her help the things she did; the things she liked; her husband; <pb n="66" facs="pageImages/66.jpg"/> Elizabeth; her self, in short, which Peter hardly knew now, all to come about her and beat off the enemy.</p>

                                                            <p>“Well, and what’s happened to you?” she said. So before a battle begins, the horses paw the ground; toss their heads; the light shines on their flanks; their necks curve. So Peter Walsh and Clarissa, sitting side by side on the blue sofa, challenged each other. His powers chafed and tossed in him. He assembled from different quarters all sorts of things; praise; his career at Oxford; his marriage, which she knew nothing whatever about; how he had loved; and altogether done his job.</p>

                                                               <p>“Millions of things!” he exclaimed, and, urged by the assembly of powers which were now charging this way and that and giving him the feeling at once frightening and extremely exhilarating of being rushed through the air on the shoulders of people he could no longer see, he raised his hands to his forehead.</p>
                                                            
                                                                  <p>Clarissa sat very upright; drew in her breath.</p>

                                                                     <p>“I am in love,” he said, not to her however, but to some one raised up in the dark so that you could not touch her but must lay your garland down on the grass in the dark.</p>

                                                                        <p>“In love,” he repeated, now speaking rather dryly <pb n="67" facs="pageImages/67.jpg"/> to Clarissa Dalloway; “in love with a girl in India.” He had deposited his garland. Clarissa could make what she would of it.</p>

                                                                           <p>“In love!” she said. That he at his age should be sucked under in his little bow-tie by that monster! And there’s no flesh on his neck; his hands are red; and he’s six months older than I am! her eye flashed back to her; but in her heart she felt, all the same, he is in love. He has that, she felt; he is in love.</p>

                                                                              <p>But the indomitable egotism which for ever rides down the hosts opposed to it, the river which says on, on, on; even though, it admits, there may be no goal for us whatever, still on, on; this indomitable egotism charged her cheeks with colour; made her look very young; very pink; very bright-eyed as she sat with her dress upon her knee, and her needle held to the end of green silk, trembling a little. He was in love! Not with her. With some younger woman, of course.</p>

                                                                                 <p>“And who is she?” she asked.</p>

                                                                                    <p>Now this statue must be brought from its height and set down between them.</p>

                                                                                       <p>“A married woman, unfortunately,” he said; “the wife of a Major in the Indian Army.”</p>

                                                                                          <p>And with a curious ironical sweetness he smiled <pb n="68" facs="pageImages/68.jpg"/> as he placed her in this ridiculous way before Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                             <p>(All the same, he is in love, thought Clarissa.)</p>
                                                                                            
                                                                                                <p>“She has,” he continued, very reasonably, “two small children; a boy and a girl; and I have come over to see my lawyers about the divorce.”</p>

                                                                                                   <p>There they are! he thought. Do what you like with them, Clarissa! There they are! And second by second it seemed to him that the wife of the Major in the Indian Army (his Daisy) and her two small children became more and more lovely as Clarissa looked at them; as if he had set light to a grey pellet on a plate and there had risen up a lovely tree in the brisk sea-salted air of their intimacy (for in some ways no one understood him, felt with him, as Clarissa did)—their exquisite intimacy.</p>

                                                                                                      <p>She flattered him; she fooled him, thought Clarissa; shaping the woman, the wife of the Major in the Indian Army, with three strokes of a knife. What a waste! What a folly! All his life long Peter had been fooled like that; first getting sent down from Oxford; next marrying the girl on the boat going out to India; now the wife of a Major in the Indian Army—thank Heaven she had refused to marry him! Still, he was in love; her old friend, her dear Peter, he was in love.</p>

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                                                                                                         <p>“But what are you going to do?” she asked him. Oh the lawyers and solicitors, Messrs. Hooper and Grateley of Lincoln’s Inn, they were going to do it, he said. And he actually pared his nails with his pocket-knife.</p>

                                                                                                            <p>For Heaven’s sake, leave your knife alone! she cried to herself in irrepressible irritation; it was his silly unconventionality, his weakness; his lack of the ghost of a notion what any one else was feeling that annoyed her, had always annoyed her; and now at his age, how silly!</p>

                                                                                                               <p>I know all that, Peter thought; I know what I’m up against, he thought, running his finger along the blade of his knife, Clarissa and Dalloway and all the rest of them; but I’ll show Clarissa—and then to his utter surprise, suddenly thrown by those uncontrollable forces thrown through the air, he burst into tears; wept; wept without the least shame, sitting on the sofa, the tears running down his cheeks.</p>

                                                                                                                  <p>And Clarissa had leant forward, taken his hand, drawn him to her, kissed him,—actually had felt his face on hers before she could down the brandishing of silver flashing—plumes like pampas grass in a tropic gale in her breast, which, subsiding, left her holding his hand, patting his knee and, feeling as <pb n="70" facs="pageImages/70.jpg"/> she sat back extraordinarily at her ease with him and light-hearted, all in a clap it came over her, If I had married him, this gaiety would have been mine all day!</p>

                                                                                                                     <p>It was all over for her. The sheet was stretched and the bed narrow. She had gone up into the tower alone and left them blackberrying in the sun. The door had shut, and there among the dust of fallen plaster and the litter of birds’ nests how distant the view had looked, and the sounds came thin and chill (once on Leith Hill, she remembered), and Richard, Richard! she cried, as a sleeper in the night starts and stretches a hand in the dark for help. Lunching with Lady Bruton, it came back to her. He has left me; I am alone for ever, she thought, folding her hands upon her knee.</p>

                                                                                                                        <p>Peter Walsh had got up and crossed to the window and stood with his back to her, flicking a bandanna handkerchief from side to side. Masterly and dry and desolate he looked, his thin shoulder-blades lifting his coat slightly; blowing his nose violently. Take me with you, Clarissa thought impulsively, as if he were starting directly upon some great voyage; and then, next moment, it was as if the five acts of a play that had been very exciting and moving were now over and she had lived a lifetime in them <pb n="71" facs="pageImages/71.jpg"/> and had run away, had lived with Peter, and it was now over.</p>

                                                                                                                           <p>Now it was time to move, and, as a woman gathers her things together, her cloak, her gloves, her opera-glasses, and gets up to go out of the theatre into the street, she rose from the sofa and went to Peter.</p>

                                                                                                                              <p>And it was awfully strange, he thought, how she still had the power, as she came tinkling, rustling, still had the power as she came across the room, to make the moon, which he detested, rise at Bourton on the terrace in the summer sky.</p>

                                                                                                                                 <p>“Tell me,” he said, seizing her by the shoulders. “Are you happy, Clarissa? Does Richard—”</p>

                                                                                                                                    <p>The door opened.</p>

                                                                                                                                       <p>“Here is my Elizabeth,” said Clarissa, emotionally, histrionically, perhaps.</p>

                                                                                                                                          <p>“How d’y do?” said Elizabeth coming forward.</p>

                                                                                                                                             <p>The sound of Big Ben striking the half-hour struck out between them with extraordinary vigour, as if a young man, strong, indifferent, inconsiderate, were swinging dumb-bells this way and that.</p>

                                                                                                                                                <p>“Hullo, Elizabeth!” cried Peter, stuffing his handkerchief into his pocket, going quickly to her, saying “Good-bye, Clarissa” without looking at her, leaving the room quickly, and running downstairs and opening the hall door.</p>

                  <pb n="72" facs="pageImages/72.jpg"/>

                                                                                                                                                   <p>“Peter! Peter!” cried Clarissa, following him out on to the landing. “My party to-night! Remember my party to-night!” she cried, having to raise her voice against the roar of the open air, and, overwhelmed by the traffic and the sound of all the clocks striking, her voice crying “Remember my party to-night!” sounded frail and thin and very far away as Peter Walsh shut the door.</p>

                                                                                                                                                      <p>Remember my party, remember my party, said Peter Walsh as he stepped down the street, speaking to himself rhythmically, in time with the flow of the sound, the direct downright sound of Big Ben striking the half-hour. (The leaden circles dissolved in the air.) Oh these parties, he thought; Clarissa’s parties. Why does she give these parties, he thought. Not that he blamed her or this effigy of a man in a tail-coat with a carnation in his buttonhole coming towards him. Only one person in the world could be as he was, in love. And there he was, this fortunate man, himself, reflected in the plate-glass window of a motor-car manufacturer in Victoria Street. All India lay behind him; plains, mountains; epidemics of cholera; a district twice as big as Ireland; decisions he had come to alone—he, Peter Walsh; who was now really for the first <pb n="73" facs="pageImages/73.jpg"/> time in his life, in love. Clarissa had grown hard, he thought; and a trifle sentimental into the bargain, he suspected, looking at the great motor-cars capable of doing—how many miles on how many gallons? For he had a turn for mechanics; had invented a plough in his district, had ordered wheel-barrows from England, but the coolies wouldn’t use them, all of which Clarissa knew nothing whatever about.</p>

                                                                                                                                                         <p>The way she said “Here is my Elizabeth!”—that annoyed him. Why not “Here’s Elizabeth” simply? It was insincere. And Elizabeth didn’t like it either. (Still the last tremors of the great booming voice shook the air round him; the half-hour; still early; only half-past eleven still.) For he understood young people; he liked them. There was always something cold in Clarissa, he thought. She had always, even as a girl, a sort of timidity, which in middle age becomes conventionality, and then it’s all up, it’s all up, he thought, looking rather drearily into the glassy depths, and wondering whether by calling at that hour he had annoyed her; overcome with shame suddenly at having been a fool; wept; been emotional; told her everything, as usual, as usual.</p>

                                                                                                                                                            <p>As a cloud crosses the sun, silence falls on London; and falls on the mind. Effort ceases. Time <pb n="74" facs="pageImages/74.jpg"/> flaps on the mast. There we stop; there we stand. Rigid, the skeleton of habit alone upholds the human frame. Where there is nothing, Peter Walsh said to himself; feeling hollowed out, utterly empty within. Clarissa refused me, he thought. He stood there thinking, Clarissa refused me.</p>

                                                                                                                                                               <p>Ah, said St. Margaret’s, like a hostess who comes into her drawing-room on the very stroke of the hour and finds her guests there already. I am not late. No, it is precisely half-past eleven, she says. Yet, though she is perfectly right, her voice, being the voice of the hostess, is reluctant to inflict its individuality. Some grief for the past holds it back; some concern for the present. It is half-past eleven, she says, and the sound of St. Margaret’s glides into the recesses of the heart and buries itself in ring after ring of sound, like something alive which wants to confide itself, to disperse itself, to be, with a tremor of delight, at rest—like Clarissa herself, thought Peter Walsh, coming down the stairs on the stroke of the hour in white. It is Clarissa herself, he thought, with a deep emotion, and an extraordinarily clear, yet puzzling, recollection of her, as if this bell had come into the room years ago, where they sat at some moment of great intimacy, and had gone from one to the other and had left, like a bee <pb n="75" facs="pageImages/75.jpg"/> with honey, laden with the moment. But what room? What moment? And why had he been so profoundly happy when the clock was striking? Then, as the sound of St. Margaret’s languished, he thought, She has been ill, and the sound expressed languor and suffering. It was her heart, he remembered; and the sudden loudness of the final stroke tolled for death that surprised in the midst of life, Clarissa falling where she stood, in her drawing-room. No! No! he cried. She is not dead! I am not old, he cried, and marched up Whitehall, as if there rolled down to him, vigorous, unending, his future.</p>

   <p>He was not old, or set, or dried in the least. As for caring what they said of him—the Dalloways, the Whitbreads, and their set, he cared not a straw—not a straw (though it was true he would have, some time or other, to see whether Richard couldn’t help him to some job). Striding, staring, he glared at the statue of the Duke of Cambridge. He had been sent down from Oxford—true. He had been a Socialist, in some sense a failure—true. Still the future of civilisation lies, he thought, in the hands of young men like that; of young men such as he was, thirty years ago; with their love of abstract principles; getting books sent out to them all the <pb n="76" facs="pageImages/76.jpg"/> way from London to a peak in the Himalayas; reading science; reading philosophy. The future lies in the hands of young men like that, he thought.</p>

   <p>A patter like the patter of leaves in a wood came from behind, and with it a rustling, regular thudding sound, which as it overtook him drummed his thoughts, strict in step, up Whitehall, without his doing. Boys in uniform, carrying guns, marched with their eyes ahead of them, marched, their arms stiff, and on their faces an expression like the letters of a legend written round the base of a statue praising duty, gratitude, fidelity, love of England.</p>

      <p>It is, thought Peter Walsh, beginning to keep step with them, a very fine training. But they did not look robust. They were weedy for the most part, boys of sixteen, who might, to-morrow, stand behind bowls of rice, cakes of soap on counters. Now they wore on them unmixed with sensual pleasure or daily preoccupations the solemnity of the wreath which they had fetched from Finsbury Pavement to the empty tomb. They had taken their vow. The traffic respected it; vans were stopped.</p>

         <p>I can’t keep up with them, Peter Walsh thought, as they marched up Whitehall, and sure enough, on they marched, past him, past every one, in their steady way, as if one will worked legs and arms uniformly,<pb n="77" facs="pageImages/77.jpg"/> and life, with its varieties, its irreticences, had been laid under a pavement of monuments and wreaths and drugged into a stiff yet staring corpse by discipline. One had to respect it; one might laugh; but one had to respect it, he thought. There they go, thought Peter Walsh, pausing at the edge of the pavement; and all the exalted statues, Nelson, Gordon, Havelock, the black, the spectacular images of great soldiers stood looking ahead of them, as if they too had made the same renunciation (Peter Walsh felt he too had made it, the great renunciation), trampled under the same temptations, and achieved at length a marble stare. But the stare Peter Walsh did not want for himself in the least; though he could respect it in others. He could respect it in boys. They don’t know the troubles of the flesh yet, he thought, as the marching boys disappeared in the direction of the Strand—all that I’ve been through, he thought, crossing the road, and standing under Gordon’s statue, Gordon whom as a boy he had worshipped; Gordon standing lonely with one leg raised and his arms crossed,—poor Gordon, he thought.</p>

            <p>And just because nobody yet knew he was in London, except Clarissa, and the earth, after the voyage, still seemed an island to him, the strangeness <pb n="78" facs="pageImages/78.jpg"/> of standing alone, alive, unknown, at half-past eleven in Trafalgar Square overcame him. What is it? Where am I? And why, after all, does one do it? he thought, the divorce seeming all moonshine. And down his mind went flat as a marsh, and three great emotions bowled over him; understanding; a vast philanthropy; and finally, as if the result of the others, an irrepressible, exquisite delight; as if inside his brain by another hand strings were pulled, shutters moved, and he, having nothing to do with it, yet stood at the opening of endless avenues, down which if he chose he might wander. He had not felt so young for years.</p>

               <p>He had escaped! was utterly free—as happens in the downfall of habit when the mind, like an unguarded flame, bows and bends and seems about to blow from its holding. I haven’t felt so young for years! thought Peter, escaping (only of course for an hour or so) from being precisely what he was, and feeling like a child who runs out of doors, and sees, as he runs, his old nurse waving at the wrong window. But she’s extraordinarily attractive, he thought, as, walking across Trafalgar Square in the direction of the Haymarket, came a young woman who, as she passed Gordon’s statue, seemed, Peter Walsh thought (susceptible as he was), to shed veil <pb n="79" facs="pageImages/79.jpg"/> after veil, until she became the very woman he had always had in mind; young, but stately; merry, but discreet; black, but enchanting.</p>

                  <p>Straightening himself and stealthily fingering his pocket-knife he started after her to follow this woman, this excitement, which seemed even with its back turned to shed on him a light which connected them, which singled him out, as if the random uproar of the traffic had whispered through hollowed hands his name, not Peter, but his private name which he called himself in his own thoughts. “You,” she said, only “you,” saying it with her white gloves and her shoulders. Then the thin long cloak which the wind stirred as she walked past Dent’s shop in Cockspur Street blew out with an enveloping kindness, a mournful tenderness, as of arms that would open and take the tired—</p>

                     <p>But she’s not married; she’s young; quite young, thought Peter, the red carnation he had seen her wear as she came across Trafalgar Square burning again in his eyes and making her lips red. But she waited at the kerbstone. There was a dignity about her. She was not worldly, like Clarissa; not rich, like Clarissa. Was she, he wondered as she moved, respectable? Witty, with a lizard’s flickering tongue, he thought (for one must invent, must <pb n="80" facs="pageImages/80.jpg"/> allow oneself a little diversion), a cool waiting wit, a darting wit; not noisy.</p>

                        <p>She moved; she crossed; he followed her. To embarrass her was the last thing he wished. Still if she stopped he would say “Come and have an ice,” he would say, and she would answer, perfectly simply, “Oh yes.”</p>

                           <p>But other people got between them in the street, obstructing him, blotting her out. He pursued; she changed. There was colour in her cheeks; mockery in her eyes; he was an adventurer, reckless, he thought, swift, daring, indeed (landed as he was last night from India) a romantic buccaneer, careless of all these damned proprieties, yellow dressing-gowns, pipes, fishing-rods, in the shop windows; and respectability and evening parties and spruce old men wearing white slips beneath their waistcoats. He was a buccaneer. On and on she went, across Piccadilly, and up Regent Street, ahead of him, her cloak, her gloves, her shoulders combining with the fringes and the laces and the feather boas in the windows to make the spirit of finery and whimsy which dwindled out of the shops on to the pavement, as the light of a lamp goes wavering at night over hedges in the darkness.</p>

                              <p>Laughing and delightful, she had crossed Oxford <pb n="81" facs="pageImages/81.jpg"/> Street and Great Portland Street and turned down one of the little streets, and now, and now, the great moment was approaching, for now she slackened, opened her bag, and with one look in his direction, but not at him, one look that bade farewell, summed up the whole situation and dismissed it triumphantly, for ever, had fitted her key, opened the door, and gone! Clarissa’s voice saying, Remember my party, Remember my party, sang in his ears. The house was one of those flat red houses with hanging flower-baskets of vague impropriety. It was over.</p>

                                 <p>Well, I’ve had my fun; I’ve had it, he thought, looking up at the swinging baskets of pale geraniums. And it was smashed to atoms—his fun, for it was half made up, as he knew very well; invented, this escapade with the girl; made up, as one makes up the better part of life, he thought—making oneself up; making her up; creating an exquisite amusement, and something more. But odd it was, and quite true; all this one could never share—it smashed to atoms.</p>

                                    <p>He turned; went up the street, thinking to find somewhere to sit, till it was time for Lincoln’s Inn—for Messrs. Hooper and Grateley. Where should he go? No matter. Up the street, then, towards <pb n="82" facs="pageImages/82.jpg"/> Regent’s Park. His boots on the pavement struck out “no matter”; for it was early, still very early.</p>

                                       <p>It was a splendid morning too. Like the pulse of a perfect heart, life struck straight through the streets. There was no fumbling—no hesitation. Sweeping and swerving, accurately, punctually, noiselessly, there, precisely at the right instant, the motor-car stopped at the door. The girl, silk-stockinged, feathered, evanescent, but not to him particularly attractive (for he had had his fling), alighted. Admirable butlers, tawny chow dogs, halls laid in black and white lozenges with white blinds blowing, Peter saw through the opened door and approved of. A splendid achievement in its own way, after all, London; the season; civilisation. Coming as he did from a respectable Anglo-Indian family which for at least three generations had administered the affairs of a continent (it’s strange, he thought, what a sentiment I have about that, disliking India, and empire, and army as he did), there were moments when civilisation, even of this sort, seemed dear to him as a personal possession; moments of pride in England; in butlers; chow dogs; girls in their security. Ridiculous enough, still there it is, he thought. And the doctors and men of business <pb n="83" facs="pageImages/83.jpg"/> and capable women all going about their business, punctual, alert, robust, seemed to him wholly admirable, good fellows, to whom one would entrust one’s life, companions in the art of living, who would see one through. What with one thing and another, the show was really very tolerable; and he would sit down in the shade and smoke.</p>

                                          <p>There was Regent’s Park. Yes. As a child he had walked in Regent’s Park—odd, he thought, how the thought of childhood keeps coming back to me—the result of seeing Clarissa, perhaps; for women live much more in the past than we do, he thought. They attach themselves to places; and their fathers—a woman’s always proud of her father. Bourton was a nice place, a very nice place, but I could never get on with the old man, he thought. There was quite a scene one night—an argument about something or other, what, he could not remember. Politics presumably.</p>

                                             <p>Yes, he remembered Regent’s Park; the long straight walk; the little house where one bought air-balls to the left; an absurd statue with an inscription somewhere or other. He looked for an empty seat. He did not want to be bothered (feeling a little drowsy as he did) by people asking him the time. An elderly grey nurse, with a baby asleep <pb n="84" facs="pageImages/84.jpg"/> in its perambulator—that was the best he could do for himself; sit down at the far end of the seat by that nurse.</p>

                                                <p>She’s a queer-looking girl, he thought, suddenly remembering Elizabeth as she came into the room and stood by her mother. Grown big; quite grown-up, not exactly pretty; handsome rather; and she can’t be more than eighteen. Probably she doesn’t get on with Clarissa. “There’s my Elizabeth”—that sort of thing—why not “Here’s Elizabeth” simply?—trying to make out, like most mothers, that things are what they’re not. She trusts to her charm too much, he thought. She overdoes it.</p>

                                                   <p>The rich benignant cigar smoke eddied coolly down his throat; he puffed it out again in rings which breasted the air bravely for a moment; blue, circular—I shall try and get a word alone with Elizabeth to-night, he thought—then began to wobble into hour-glass shapes and taper away; odd shapes they take, he thought. Suddenly he closed his eyes, raised his hand with an effort, and threw away the heavy end of his cigar. A great brush swept smooth across his mind, sweeping across it moving branches, children’s voices, the shuffle of feet, and people passing, and humming traffic, rising <pb n="85" facs="pageImages/85.jpg"/> and falling traffic. Down, down he sank into the plumes and feathers of sleep, sank, and was muffled over.</p>

                                                      <p>The grey nurse resumed her knitting as Peter Walsh, on the hot seat beside her, began snoring. In her grey dress, moving her hands indefatigably yet quietly, she seemed like the champion of the rights of sleepers, like one of those spectral presences which rise in twilight in woods made of sky and branches. The solitary traveller, haunter of lanes, disturber of ferns, and devastator of great hemlock plants, looking up, suddenly sees the giant figure at the end of the ride.</p>
                                                  
                                                         <p>By conviction an atheist perhaps, he is taken by surprise with moments of extraordinary exaltation. Nothing exists outside us except a state of mind, he thinks; a desire for solace, for relief, for something outside these miserable pigmies, these feeble, these ugly, these craven men and women. But if he can conceive of her, then in some sort she exists, he thinks, and advancing down the path with his eyes upon sky and branches he rapidly endows them with womanhood; sees with amazement how grave they become; how majestically, as the breeze stirs them, they dispense with a dark flutter of the leaves <pb n="86" facs="pageImages/86.jpg"/> charity, comprehension, absolution, and then, flinging themselves suddenly aloft, confound the piety of their aspect with a wild carouse.</p>

                                                            <p>Such are the visions which proffer great cornucopias full of fruit to the solitary traveller, or murmur in his ear like sirens lolloping away on the green sea waves, or are dashed in his face like bunches of roses, or rise to the surface like pale faces which fishermen flounder through floods to embrace.</p>

                                                               <p>Such are the visions which ceaselessly float up, pace beside, put their faces in front of, the actual thing; often overpowering the solitary traveller and taking away from him the sense of the earth, the wish to return, and giving him for substitute a general peace, as if (so he thinks as he advances down the forest ride) all this fever of living were simplicity itself; and myriads of things merged in one thing; and this figure, made of sky and branches as it is, had risen from the troubled sea (he is elderly, past fifty now) as a shape might be sucked up out of the waves to shower down from her magnificent hands compassion, comprehension, absolution. So, he thinks, may I never go back to the lamplight; to the sitting-room; never finish my book; never knock out my pipe; never ring for Mrs. <pb n="87" facs="pageImages/87.jpg"/> Turner to clear away; rather let me walk straight on to this great figure, who will, with a toss of her head, mount me on her streamers and let me blow to nothingness with the rest.</p>

                                                                  <p>Such are the visions. The solitary traveller is soon beyond the wood; and there, coming to the door with shaded eyes, possibly to look for his return, with hands raised, with white apron blowing, is an elderly woman who seems (so powerful is this infirmity) to seek, over a desert, a lost son; to search for a rider destroyed; to be the figure of the mother whose sons have been killed in the battles of the world. So, as the solitary traveller advances down the village street where the women stand knitting and the men dig in the garden, the evening seems ominous; the figures still; as if some august fate, known to them, awaited without fear, were about to sweep them into complete annihilation.</p>

                                                                     <p>Indoors among ordinary things, the cupboard, the table, the window-sill with its geraniums, suddenly the outline of the landlady, bending to remove the cloth, becomes soft with light, an adorable emblem which only the recollection of cold human contacts forbids us to embrace. She takes the marmalade; she shuts it in the cupboard.</p>

                                                                        <p>“There is nothing more to-night, sir?”</p>

                  <pb n="88" facs="pageImages/88.jpg"/>

                                                                           <p>But to whom does the solitary traveller make reply?</p>

                                                                              <p>So the elderly nurse knitted over the sleeping baby in Regent’s Park. So Peter Walsh snored.</p>

                                                                                 <p>He woke with extreme suddenness, saying to himself, “The death of the soul.”</p>

                                                                                    <p>“Lord, Lord!” he said to himself out loud, stretching and opening his eyes. “The death of the soul.” The words attached themselves to some scene, to some room, to some past he had been dreaming of. It became clearer; the scene, the room, the past he had been dreaming of.</p>

                                                                                       <p>It was at Bourton that summer, early in the ’nineties, when he was so passionately in love with Clarissa. There were a great many people there, laughing and talking, sitting round a table after tea and the room was bathed in yellow light and full of cigarette smoke. They were talking about a man who had married his housemaid, one of the neighbouring squires, he had forgotten his name. He had married his housemaid, and she had been brought to Bourton to call—an awful visit it had been. She was absurdly over-dressed, “like a cockatoo,” Clarissa had said, imitating her, and she never stopped talking. On and on she went, on and on. <pb n="89" facs="pageImages/89.jpg"/> Clarissa imitated her. Then somebody said—Sally Seton it was—did it make any real difference to one’s feelings to know that before they’d married she had had a baby? (In those days, in mixed company, it was a bold thing to say.) He could see Clarissa now, turning bright pink; somehow contracting; and saying, “Oh, I shall never be able to speak to her again!” Whereupon the whole party sitting round the tea-table seemed to wobble. It was very uncomfortable.</p>

                                                                                          <p>He hadn’t blamed her for minding the fact, since in those days a girl brought up as she was, knew nothing, but it was her manner that annoyed him; timid; hard; something arrogant; unimaginative; prudish. “The death of the soul.” He had said that instinctively, ticketing the moment as he used to do—the death of her soul.</p>

                                                                                             <p>Every one wobbled; every one seemed to bow, as she spoke, and then to stand up different. He could see Sally Seton, like a child who has been in mischief, leaning forward, rather flushed, wanting to talk, but afraid, and Clarissa did frighten people. (She was Clarissa’s greatest friend, always about the place, totally unlike her, an attractive creature, handsome, dark, with the reputation in those days of great daring and he used to give her cigars, which <pb n="90" facs="pageImages/90.jpg"/> she smoked in her bedroom. She had either been engaged to somebody or quarrelled with her family and old Parry disliked them both equally, which was a great bond.) Then Clarissa, still with an air of being offended with them all, got up, made some excuse, and went off, alone. As she opened the door, in came that great shaggy dog which ran after sheep. She flung herself upon him, went into raptures. It was as if she said to Peter—it was all aimed at him, he knew—“I know you thought me absurd about that woman just now; but see how extraordinarily sympathetic I am; see how I love my Rob!”</p>

                                                                                                <p>They had always this queer power of communicating without words. She knew directly he criticised her. Then she would do something quite obvious to defend herself, like this fuss with the dog—but it never took him in, he always saw through Clarissa. Not that he said anything, of course; just sat looking glum. It was the way their quarrels often began.</p>
                                                                                                
                                                                                                   <p>She shut the door. At once he became extremely depressed. It all seemed useless—going on being in love; going on quarrelling; going on making it up, and he wandered off alone, among outhouses, stables, looking at the horses. (The place was quite a humble one; the Parrys were never very well off; <pb n="91" facs="pageImages/91.jpg"/> but there were always grooms and stable-boys about—Clarissa loved riding—and an old coachman—what was his name?—an old nurse, old Moody, old Goody, some such name they called her, whom one was taken to visit in a little room with lots of photographs, lots of bird-cages.)</p>

                                                                                                      <p>It was an awful evening! He grew more and more gloomy, not about that only; about everything. And he couldn’t see her; couldn’t explain to her; couldn’t have it out. There were always people about—she’d go on as if nothing had happened. That was the devilish part of her—this coldness, this woodenness, something very profound in her, which he had felt again this morning talking to her; an impenetrability. Yet Heaven knows he loved her. She had some queer power of fiddling on one’s nerves, turning one’s nerves to fiddle-strings, yes.</p>

                                                                                                         <p>He had gone in to dinner rather late, from some idiotic idea of making himself felt, and had sat down by old Miss Parry—Aunt Helena—Mr. Parry’s sister, who was supposed to preside. There she sat in her white Cashmere shawl, with her head against the window—a formidable old lady, but kind to him, for he had found her some rare flower, and she was a great botanist, marching off in thick boots with a black collecting-box slung between her shoulders. <pb n="92" facs="pageImages/92.jpg"/> He sat down beside her, and couldn’t speak. Everything seemed to race past him; he just sat there, eating. And then half-way through dinner he made himself look across at Clarissa for the first time. She was talking to a young man on her right. He had a sudden revelation. “She will marry that man,” he said to himself. He didn’t even know his name.</p>

                                                                                                            <p>For of course it was that afternoon, that very afternoon, that Dalloway had come over; and Clarissa called him “Wickham”; that was the beginning of it all. Somebody had brought him over; and Clarissa got his name wrong. She introduced him to everybody as Wickham. At last he said “My name is Dalloway!”—that was his first view of Richard—a fair young man, rather awkward, sitting on a deck-chair, and blurting out “My name is Dalloway!” Sally got hold of it; always after that she called him “My name is Dalloway!”</p>

                                                                                                               <p>He was a prey to revelations at that time. This one—that she would marry Dalloway—was blinding—overwhelming at the moment. There was a sort of—how could he put it?—a sort of ease in her manner to him; something maternal; something gentle. They were talking about politics. All <pb n="93" facs="pageImages/93.jpg"/> through dinner he tried to hear what they were saying.</p>

                                                                                                                  <p>Afterwards he could remember standing by old Miss Parry’s chair in the drawing-room. Clarissa came up, with her perfect manners, like a real hostess, and wanted to introduce him to some one—spoke as if they had never met before, which enraged him. Yet even then he admired her for it. He admired her courage; her social instinct; he admired her power of carrying things through. “The perfect hostess,” he said to her, whereupon she winced all over. But he meant her to feel it. He would have done anything to hurt her after seeing her with Dalloway. So she left him. And he had a feeling that they were all gathered together in a conspiracy against him—laughing and talking—behind his back. There he stood by Miss Parry’s chair as though he had been cut out of wood, he talking about wild flowers. Never, never had he suffered so infernally! He must have forgotten even to pretend to listen; at last he woke up; he saw Miss Parry looking rather disturbed, rather indignant, with her prominent eyes fixed. He almost cried out that he couldn’t attend because he was in Hell! People began going out of the room. He <pb n="94" facs="pageImages/94.jpg"/> heard them talking about fetching cloaks; about its being cold on the water, and so on. They were going boating on the lake by moonlight—one of Sally’s mad ideas. He could hear her describing the moon. And they all went out. He was left quite alone.</p>

                                                                                                                     <p>“Don’t you want to go with them?” said Aunt Helena—old Miss Parry!—she had guessed. And he turned round and there was Clarissa again. She had come back to fetch him. He was overcome by her generosity—her goodness.</p>

                                                                                                                        <p>“Come along,” she said. “They’re waiting.”</p>

                                                                                                                           <p>He had never felt so happy in the whole of his life! Without a word they made it up. They walked down to the lake. He had twenty minutes of perfect happiness. Her voice, her laugh, her dress (something floating, white, crimson), her spirit, her adventurousness; she made them all disembark and explore the island; she startled a hen; she laughed; she sang. And all the time, he knew perfectly well, Dalloway was falling in love with her; she was falling in love with Dalloway; but it didn’t seem to matter. Nothing mattered. They sat on the ground and talked—he and Clarissa. They went in and out of each other’s minds without any effort. And then in a second it was over. <pb n="95" facs="pageImages/95.jpg"/> He said to himself as they were getting into the boat, “She will marry that man,” dully, without any resentment; but it was an obvious thing. Dalloway would marry Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                              <p>Dalloway rowed them in. He said nothing. But somehow as they watched him start, jumping on to his bicycle to ride twenty miles through the woods, wobbling off down the drive, waving his hand and disappearing, he obviously did feel, instinctively, tremendously, strongly, all that; the night; the romance; Clarissa. He deserved to have her.</p>

                                                                                                                                 <p>For himself, he was absurd. His demands upon Clarissa (he could see it now) were absurd. He asked impossible things. He made terrible scenes. She would have accepted him still, perhaps, if he had been less absurd. Sally thought so. She wrote him all that summer long letters; how they had talked of him; how she had praised him, how Clarissa burst into tears! It was an extraordinary summer—all letters, scenes, telegrams—arriving at Bourton early in the morning, hanging about till the servants were up; appalling tête-à-têtes with old Mr. Parry at breakfast; Aunt Helena formidable but kind; Sally sweeping him off for talks in the vegetable garden; Clarissa in bed with headaches.</p>

                                                                                                                                    <p>The final scene, the terrible scene which he believed <pb n="96" facs="pageImages/96.jpg"/> had mattered more than anything in the whole of his life (it might be an exaggeration—but still so it did seem now) happened at three o’clock in the afternoon of a very hot day. It was a trifle that led up to it—Sally at lunch saying something about Dalloway, and calling him “My name is Dalloway”; whereupon Clarissa suddenly stiffened, coloured, in a way she had, and rapped out sharply, “We’ve had enough of that feeble joke.” That was all; but for him it was precisely as if she had said, “I’m only amusing myself with you; I’ve an understanding with Richard Dalloway.” So he took it. He had not slept for nights. “It’s got to be finished one way or the other,” he said to himself. He sent a note to her by Sally asking her to meet him by the fountain at three. “Something very important has happened,” he scribbled at the end of it.</p>

                                                                                                                                       <p>The fountain was in the middle of a little shrubbery, far from the house, with shrubs and trees all round it. There she came, even before the time, and they stood with the fountain between them, the spout (it was broken) dribbling water incessantly. How sights fix themselves upon the mind! For example, the vivid green moss.</p>

                                                                                                                                          <p>She did not move. “Tell me the truth, tell me the truth,” he kept on saying. He felt as if his <pb n="97" facs="pageImages/97.jpg"/> forehead would burst. She seemed contracted, petrified. She did not move. “Tell me the truth,” he repeated, when suddenly that old man Breitkopf popped his head in carrying the Times; stared at them; gaped; and went away. They neither of them moved. “Tell me the truth,” he repeated. He felt that he was grinding against something physically hard; she was unyielding. She was like iron, like flint, rigid up the backbone. And when she said, “It’s no use. It’s no use. This is the end”—after he had spoken for hours, it seemed, with the tears running down his cheeks—it was as if she had hit him in the face. She turned, she left him, went away.</p>

                                                                                                                                             <p>“Clarissa!” he cried. “Clarissa!” But she never came back. It was over. He went away that night. He never saw her again.</p>

                                                                                                                                                <p>It was awful, he cried, awful, awful!</p>

                                                                                                                                                   <p>Still, the sun was hot. Still, one got over things. Still, life had a way of adding day to day. Still, he thought, yawning and beginning to take notice—Regent’s Park had changed very little since he was a boy, except for the squirrels—still, presumably there were compensations—when little Elise Mitchell, who had been picking up pebbles to add <pb n="98" facs="pageImages/98.jpg"/> to the pebble collection which she and her brother were making on the nursery mantelpiece, plumped her handful down on the nurse’s knee and scudded off again full tilt into a lady’s legs. Peter Walsh laughed out.</p>

                                                                                                                                                      <p>But Lucrezia Warren Smith was saying to herself, It’s wicked; why should I suffer? she was asking, as she walked down the broad path. No; I can’t stand it any longer, she was saying, having left Septimus, who wasn’t Septimus any longer, to say hard, cruel, wicked things, to talk to himself, to talk to a dead man, on the seat over there; when the child ran full tilt into her, fell flat, and burst out crying.</p>

                                                                                                                                                         <p>That was comforting rather. She stood her upright, dusted her frock, kissed her.</p>

                                                                                                                                                            <p>But for herself she had done nothing wrong; she had loved Septimus; she had been happy; she had had a beautiful home, and there her sisters lived still, making hats. Why should she suffer?</p>

                                                                                                                                                               <p>The child ran straight back to its nurse, and Rezia saw her scolded, comforted, taken up by the nurse who put down her knitting, and the kind-looking man gave her his watch to blow open to comfort her—but why should she be exposed? Why not left in Milan? Why tortured? Why?</p>

                  <pb n="99" facs="pageImages/99.jpg"/>

                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Slightly waved by tears the broad path, the nurse, the man in grey, the perambulator, rose and fell before her eyes. To be rocked by this malignant torturer was her lot. But why? She was like a bird sheltering under the thin hollow of a leaf, who blinks at the sun when the leaf moves; starts at the crack of a dry twig. She was exposed; she was surrounded by the enormous trees, vast clouds of an indifferent world, exposed; tortured; and why should she suffer? Why?</p>
                                                                                                                                                                 
                                                                                                                                                                     <p>She frowned; she stamped her foot. She must go back again to Septimus since it was almost time for them to be going to Sir William Bradshaw. She must go back and tell him, go back to him sitting there on the green chair under the tree, talking to himself, or to that dead man Evans, whom she had only seen once for a moment in the shop. He had seemed a nice quiet man; a great friend of Septimus’s, and he had been killed in the War. But such things happen to every one. Every one has friends who were killed in the War. Every one gives up something when they marry. She had given up her home. She had come to live here, in this awful city. But Septimus let himself think about horrible things, as she could too, if she tried. He had grown stranger and stranger. He said people were talking <pb n="100" facs="pageImages/100.jpg"/> behind the bedroom walls. Mrs. Filmer thought it odd. He saw things too—he had seen an old woman’s head in the middle of a fern. Yet he could be happy when he chose. They went to Hampton Court on top of a bus, and they were perfectly happy. All the little red and yellow flowers were out on the grass, like floating lamps he said, and talked and chattered and laughed, making up stories. Suddenly he said, “Now we will kill ourselves,” when they were standing by the river, and he looked at it with a look which she had seen in his eyes when a train went by, or an omnibus—a look as if something fascinated him; and she felt he was going from her and she caught him by the arm. But going home he was perfectly quiet—perfectly reasonable. He would argue with her about killing themselves; and explain how wicked people were; how he could see them making up lies as they passed in the street. He knew all their thoughts, he said; he knew everything. He knew the meaning of the world, he said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                        <p>Then when they got back he could hardly walk. He lay on the sofa and made her hold his hand to prevent him from falling down, down, he cried, into the flames! and saw faces laughing at him, calling him horrible disgusting names, from the walls, <pb n="101" facs="pageImages/101.jpg"/> and hands pointing round the screen. Yet they were quite alone. But he began to talk aloud, answering people, arguing, laughing, crying, getting very excited and making her write things down. Perfect nonsense it was; about death; about Miss Isabel Pole. She could stand it no longer. She would go back.</p>

   <p>She was close to him now, could see him staring at the sky, muttering, clasping his hands. Yet Dr. Holmes said there was nothing the matter with him. What then had happened—why had he gone, then, why, when she sat by him, did he start, frown at her, move away, and point at her hand, take her hand, look at it terrified?</p>

      <p>Was it that she had taken off her wedding ring? “My hand has grown so thin,” she said. “I have put it in my purse,” she told him.</p>

         <p>He dropped her hand. Their marriage was over, he thought, with agony, with relief. The rope was cut; he mounted; he was free, as it was decreed that he, Septimus, the lord of men, should be free; alone (since his wife had thrown away her wedding ring; since she had left him), he, Septimus, was alone, called forth in advance of the mass of men to hear the truth, to learn the meaning, which now at last, after all the toils of civilisation—Greeks, <pb n="102" facs="pageImages/102.jpg"/> Romans, Shakespeare, Darwin, and now himself—was to be given whole to.... “To whom?” he asked aloud. “To the Prime Minister,” the voices which rustled above his head replied. The supreme secret must be told to the Cabinet; first that trees are alive; next there is no crime; next love, universal love, he muttered, gasping, trembling, painfully drawing out these profound truths which needed, so deep were they, so difficult, an immense effort to speak out, but the world was entirely changed by them for ever.</p>

            <p>No crime; love; he repeated, fumbling for his card and pencil, when a Skye terrier snuffed his trousers and he started in an agony of fear. It was turning into a man! He could not watch it happen! It was horrible, terrible to see a dog become a man! At once the dog trotted away.</p>

               <p>Heaven was divinely merciful, infinitely benignant. It spared him, pardoned his weakness. But what was the scientific explanation (for one must be scientific above all things)? Why could he see through bodies, see into the future, when dogs will become men? It was the heat wave presumably, operating upon a brain made sensitive by eons of evolution. Scientifically speaking, the flesh was melted off the world. His body was macerated until <pb n="103" facs="pageImages/103.jpg"/> only the nerve fibres were left. It was spread like a veil upon a rock.</p>

                  <p>He lay back in his chair, exhausted but upheld. He lay resting, waiting, before he again interpreted, with effort, with agony, to mankind. He lay very high, on the back of the world. The earth thrilled beneath him. Red flowers grew through his flesh; their stiff leaves rustled by his head. Music began clanging against the rocks up here. It is a motor horn down in the street, he muttered; but up here it cannoned from rock to rock, divided, met in shocks of sound which rose in smooth columns (that music should be visible was a discovery) and became an anthem, an anthem twined round now by a shepherd boy’s piping (That’s an old man playing a penny whistle by the public-house, he muttered) which, as the boy stood still came bubbling from his pipe, and then, as he climbed higher, made its exquisite plaint while the traffic passed beneath. This boy’s elegy is played among the traffic, thought Septimus. Now he withdraws up into the snows, and roses hang about him—the thick red roses which grow on my bedroom wall, he reminded himself. The music stopped. He has his penny, he reasoned it out, and has gone on to the next public-house.</p>

                     <p>But he himself remained high on his rock, like a <pb n="104" facs="pageImages/104.jpg"/> drowned sailor on a rock. I leant over the edge of the boat and fell down, he thought. I went under the sea. I have been dead, and yet am now alive, but let me rest still; he begged (he was talking to himself again—it was awful, awful!); and as, before waking, the voices of birds and the sound of wheels chime and chatter in a queer harmony, grow louder and louder and the sleeper feels himself drawing to the shores of life, so he felt himself drawing towards life, the sun growing hotter, cries sounding louder, something tremendous about to happen.</p>

                        <p>He had only to open his eyes; but a weight was on them; a fear. He strained; he pushed; he looked; he saw Regent’s Park before him. Long streamers of sunlight fawned at his feet. The trees waved, brandished. We welcome, the world seemed to say; we accept; we create. Beauty, the world seemed to say. And as if to prove it (scientifically) wherever he looked at the houses, at the railings, at the antelopes stretching over the palings, beauty sprang instantly. To watch a leaf quivering in the rush of air was an exquisite joy. Up in the sky swallows swooping, swerving, flinging themselves in and out, round and round, yet always with perfect control as if elastics held them; and the flies rising and falling; and the sun spotting now this leaf, <pb n="105" facs="pageImages/105.jpg"/> now that, in mockery, dazzling it with soft gold in pure good temper; and now and again some chime (it might be a motor horn) tinkling divinely on the grass stalks—all of this, calm and reasonable as it was, made out of ordinary things as it was, was the truth now; beauty, that was the truth now. Beauty was everywhere.</p>
                        
                           <p>“It is time,” said Rezia.</p>

                              <p>The word “time” split its husk; poured its riches over him; and from his lips fell like shells, like shavings from a plane, without his making them, hard, white, imperishable words, and flew to attach themselves to their places in an ode to Time; an immortal ode to Time. He sang. Evans answered from behind the tree. The dead were in Thessaly, Evans sang, among the orchids. There they waited till the War was over, and now the dead, now Evans himself—</p>

                                 <p>“For God’s sake don’t come!” Septimus cried out. For he could not look upon the dead.</p>

                                    <p>But the branches parted. A man in grey was actually walking towards them. It was Evans! But no mud was on him; no wounds; he was not changed. I must tell the whole world, Septimus cried, raising his hand (as the dead man in the grey suit came nearer), raising his hand like some <pb n="106" facs="pageImages/106.jpg"/> colossal figure who has lamented the fate of man for ages in the desert alone with his hands pressed to his forehead, furrows of despair on his cheeks, and now sees light on the desert’s edge which broadens and strikes the iron-black figure (and Septimus half rose from his chair), and with legions of men prostrate behind him he, the giant mourner, receives for one moment on his face the whole—</p>

                                       <p>“But I am so unhappy, Septimus,” said Rezia trying to make him sit down.</p>

                                          <p>The millions lamented; for ages they had sorrowed. He would turn round, he would tell them in a few moments, only a few moments more, of this relief, of this joy, of this astonishing revelation—</p>

                                             <p>“The time, Septimus,” Rezia repeated. “What is the time?”</p>

                                                <p>He was talking, he was starting, this man must notice him. He was looking at them.</p>

                                                   <p>“I will tell you the time,” said Septimus, very slowly, very drowsily, smiling mysteriously. As he sat smiling at the dead man in the grey suit the quarter struck—the quarter to twelve.</p>

                                                      <p>And that is being young, Peter Walsh thought as he passed them. To be having an awful scene—the poor girl looked absolutely desperate—in the middle of the morning. But what was it about, he wondered, <pb n="107" facs="pageImages/107.jpg"/> what had the young man in the overcoat been saying to her to make her look like that; what awful fix had they got themselves into, both to look so desperate as that on a fine summer morning? The amusing thing about coming back to England, after five years, was the way it made, anyhow the first days, things stand out as if one had never seen them before; lovers squabbling under a tree; the domestic family life of the parks. Never had he seen London look so enchanting—the softness of the distances; the richness; the greenness; the civilisation, after India, he thought, strolling across the grass.</p>

                                                         <p>This susceptibility to impressions had been his undoing no doubt. Still at his age he had, like a boy or a girl even, these alternations of mood; good days, bad days, for no reason whatever, happiness from a pretty face, downright misery at the sight of a frump. After India of course one fell in love with every woman one met. There was a freshness about them; even the poorest dressed better than five years ago surely; and to his eye the fashions had never been so becoming; the long black cloaks; the slimness; the elegance; and then the delicious and apparently universal habit of paint. Every woman, even the most respectable, had roses blooming under glass; lips cut with a knife; curls of Indian <pb n="108" facs="pageImages/108.jpg"/> ink; there was design, art, everywhere; a change of some sort had undoubtedly taken place. What did the young people think about? Peter Walsh asked himself.</p>

                                                            <p>Those five years—1918 to 1923—had been, he suspected, somehow very important. People looked different. Newspapers seemed different. Now for instance there was a man writing quite openly in one of the respectable weeklies about water-closets. That you couldn’t have done ten years ago—written quite openly about water-closets in a respectable weekly. And then this taking out a stick of rouge, or a powder-puff and making up in public. On board ship coming home there were lots of young men and girls—Betty and Bertie he remembered in particular—carrying on quite openly; the old mother sitting and watching them with her knitting, cool as a cucumber. The girl would stand still and powder her nose in front of every one. And they weren’t engaged; just having a good time; no feelings hurt on either side. As hard as nails she was—Betty What’shername—; but a thorough good sort. She would make a very good wife at thirty—she would marry when it suited her to marry; marry some rich man and live in a large house near Manchester.</p>

                                                               <p>Who was it now who had done that? Peter Walsh <pb n="109" facs="pageImages/109.jpg"/> asked himself, turning into the Broad Walk,—married a rich man and lived in a large house near Manchester? Somebody who had written him a long, gushing letter quite lately about “blue hydrangeas.” It was seeing blue hydrangeas that made her think of him and the old days—Sally Seton, of course! It was Sally Seton—the last person in the world one would have expected to marry a rich man and live in a large house near Manchester, the wild, the daring, the romantic Sally!</p>

                                                                  <p>But of all that ancient lot, Clarissa’s friends—Whitbreads, Kinderleys, Cunninghams, Kinloch-Jones’s—Sally was probably the best. She tried to get hold of things by the right end anyhow. She saw through Hugh Whitbread anyhow—the admirable Hugh—when Clarissa and the rest were at his feet.</p>

                                                                     <p>“The Whitbreads?” he could hear her saying. “Who are the Whitbreads? Coal merchants. Respectable tradespeople.”</p>

                                                                        <p>Hugh she detested for some reason. He thought of nothing but his own appearance, she said. He ought to have been a Duke. He would be certain to marry one of the Royal Princesses. And of course Hugh had the most extraordinary, the most natural, the most sublime respect for the British <pb n="110" facs="pageImages/110.jpg"/> aristocracy of any human being he had ever come across. Even Clarissa had to own that. Oh, but he was such a dear, so unselfish, gave up shooting to please his old mother—remembered his aunts’ birthdays, and so on.</p>

                                                                           <p>Sally, to do her justice, saw through all that. One of the things he remembered best was an argument one Sunday morning at Bourton about women’s rights (that antediluvian topic), when Sally suddenly lost her temper, flared up, and told Hugh that he represented all that was most detestable in British middle-class life. She told him that she considered him responsible for the state of “those poor girls in Piccadilly”—Hugh, the perfect gentleman, poor Hugh!—never did a man look more horrified! She did it on purpose she said afterwards (for they used to get together in the vegetable garden and compare notes). “He’s read nothing, thought nothing, felt nothing,” he could hear her saying in that very emphatic voice which carried so much farther than she knew. The stable boys had more life in them than Hugh, she said. He was a perfect specimen of the public school type, she said. No country but England could have produced him. She was really spiteful, for some reason; had some grudge against him. Something had happened—he forgot <pb n="111" facs="pageImages/111.jpg"/> what—in the smoking-room. He had insulted her—kissed her? Incredible! Nobody believed a word against Hugh of course. Who could? Kissing Sally in the smoking-room! If it had been some Honourable Edith or Lady Violet, perhaps; but not that ragamuffin Sally without a penny to her name, and a father or a mother gambling at Monte Carlo. For of all the people he had ever met Hugh was the greatest snob—the most obsequious—no, he didn’t cringe exactly. He was too much of a prig for that. A first-rate valet was the obvious comparison—somebody who walked behind carrying suit cases; could be trusted to send telegrams—indispensable to hostesses. And he’d found his job—married his Honourable Evelyn; got some little post at Court, looked after the King’s cellars, polished the Imperial shoe-buckles, went about in knee-breeches and lace ruffles. How remorseless life is! A little job at Court!</p>

                                                                              <p>He had married this lady, the Honourable Evelyn, and they lived hereabouts, so he thought (looking at the pompous houses overlooking the Park), for he had lunched there once in a house which had, like all Hugh’s possessions, something that no other house could possibly have—linen cupboards it might have been. You had to go and look <pb n="112" facs="pageImages/112.jpg"/> at them—you had to spend a great deal of time always admiring whatever it was—linen cupboards, pillow-cases, old oak furniture, pictures, which Hugh had picked up for an old song. But Mrs. Hugh sometimes gave the show away. She was one of those obscure mouse-like little women who admire big men. She was almost negligible. Then suddenly she would say something quite unexpected—something sharp. She had the relics of the grand manner perhaps. The steam coal was a little too strong for her—it made the atmosphere thick. And so there they lived, with their linen cupboards and their old masters and their pillow-cases fringed with real lace at the rate of five or ten thousand a year presumably, while he, who was two years older than Hugh, cadged for a job.</p>

<p>At fifty-three he had to come and ask them to put him into some secretary’s office, to find him some usher’s job teaching little boys Latin, at the beck and call of some mandarin in an office, something that brought in five hundred a year; for if he married Daisy, even with his pension, they could never do on less. Whitbread could do it presumably; or Dalloway. He didn’t mind what he asked Dalloway. He was a thorough good sort; a bit limited; a bit thick in the head; yes; but a thorough good <pb n="113" facs="pageImages/113.jpg"/> sort. Whatever he took up he did in the same matter-of-fact sensible way; without a touch of imagination, without a spark of brilliancy, but with the inexplicable niceness of his type. He ought to have been a country gentleman—he was wasted on politics. He was at his best out of doors, with horses and dogs—how good he was, for instance, when that great shaggy dog of Clarissa’s got caught in a trap and had its paw half torn off, and Clarissa turned faint and Dalloway did the whole thing; bandaged, made splints; told Clarissa not to be a fool. That was what she liked him for perhaps—that was what she needed. “Now, my dear, don’t be a fool. Hold this—fetch that,” all the time talking to the dog as if it were a human being.</p>

   <p>But how could she swallow all that stuff about poetry? How could she let him hold forth about Shakespeare? Seriously and solemnly Richard Dalloway got on his hind legs and said that no decent man ought to read Shakespeare’s sonnets because it was like listening at keyholes (besides the relationship was not one that he approved). No decent man ought to let his wife visit a deceased wife’s sister. Incredible! The only thing to do was to pelt him with sugared almonds—it was at dinner. But Clarissa sucked it all in; thought it so honest <pb n="114" facs="pageImages/114.jpg"/> of him; so independent of him; Heaven knows if she didn’t think him the most original mind she’d ever met!</p>

      <p>That was one of the bonds between Sally and himself. There was a garden where they used to walk, a walled-in place, with rose-bushes and giant cauliflowers—he could remember Sally tearing off a rose, stopping to exclaim at the beauty of the cabbage leaves in the moonlight (it was extraordinary how vividly it all came back to him, things he hadn’t thought of for years,) while she implored him, half laughing of course, to carry off Clarissa, to save her from the Hughs and the Dalloways and all the other “perfect gentlemen” who would “stifle her soul” (she wrote reams of poetry in those days), make a mere hostess of her, encourage her worldliness. But one must do Clarissa justice. She wasn’t going to marry Hugh anyhow. She had a perfectly clear notion of what she wanted. Her emotions were all on the surface. Beneath, she was very shrewd—a far better judge of character than Sally, for instance, and with it all, purely feminine; with that extraordinary gift, that woman’s gift, of making a world of her own wherever she happened to be. She came into a room; she stood, as he had often seen her, in a doorway with lots of people <pb n="115" facs="pageImages/115.jpg"/> round her. But it was Clarissa one remembered. Not that she was striking; not beautiful at all; there was nothing picturesque about her; she never said anything specially clever; there she was, however; there she was.</p>

         <p>No, no, no! He was not in love with her any more! He only felt, after seeing her that morning, among her scissors and silks, making ready for the party, unable to get away from the thought of her; she kept coming back and back like a sleeper jolting against him in a railway carriage; which was not being in love, of course; it was thinking of her, criticising her, starting again, after thirty years, trying to explain her. The obvious thing to say of her was that she was worldly; cared too much for rank and society and getting on in the world—which was true in a sense; she had admitted it to him. (You could always get her to own up if you took the trouble; she was honest.) What she would say was that she hated frumps, fogies, failures, like himself presumably; thought people had no right to slouch about with their hands in their pockets; must do something, be something; and these great swells, these Duchesses, these hoary old Countesses one met in her drawing-room, unspeakably remote as he felt them to be from anything <pb n="116" facs="pageImages/116.jpg"/> that mattered a straw, stood for something real to her. Lady Bexborough, she said once, held herself upright (so did Clarissa herself; she never lounged in any sense of the word; she was straight as a dart, a little rigid in fact). She said they had a kind of courage which the older she grew the more she respected. In all this there was a great deal of Dalloway, of course; a great deal of the public-spirited, British Empire, tariff-reform, governing-class spirit, which had grown on her, as it tends to do. With twice his wits, she had to see things through his eyes—one of the tragedies of married life. With a mind of her own, she must always be quoting Richard—as if one couldn’t know to a tittle what Richard thought by reading the Morning Post of a morning! These parties for example were all for him, or for her idea of him (to do Richard justice he would have been happier farming in Norfolk). She made her drawing-room a sort of meeting-place; she had a genius for it. Over and over again he had seen her take some raw youth, twist him, turn him, wake him up; set him going. Infinite numbers of dull people conglomerated round her of course. But odd unexpected people turned up; an artist sometimes; sometimes a writer; queer fish in that atmosphere. And <pb n="117" facs="pageImages/117.jpg"/> behind it all was that network of visiting, leaving cards, being kind to people; running about with bunches of flowers, little presents; So-and-so was going to France—must have an air-cushion; a real drain on her strength; all that interminable traffic that women of her sort keep up; but she did it genuinely, from a natural instinct.</p>

            <p>Oddly enough, she was one of the most thoroughgoing sceptics he had ever met, and possibly (this was a theory he used to make up to account for her, so transparent in some ways, so inscrutable in others), possibly she said to herself, As we are a doomed race, chained to a sinking ship (her favourite reading as a girl was Huxley and Tyndall, and they were fond of these nautical metaphors), as the whole thing is a bad joke, let us, at any rate, do our part; mitigate the sufferings of our fellow-prisoners (Huxley again); decorate the dungeon with flowers and air-cushions; be as decent as we possibly can. Those ruffians, the Gods, shan’t have it all their own way,—her notion being that the Gods, who never lost a chance of hurting, thwarting and spoiling human lives were seriously put out if, all the same, you behaved like a lady. That phase came directly after Sylvia’s death—that horrible affair. To see your own sister killed by a falling tree (all Justin <pb n="118" facs="pageImages/118.jpg"/> Parry’s fault—all his carelessness) before your very eyes, a girl too on the verge of life, the most gifted of them, Clarissa always said, was enough to turn one bitter. Later she wasn’t so positive perhaps; she thought there were no Gods; no one was to blame; and so she evolved this atheist’s religion of doing good for the sake of goodness.</p>

               <p>And of course she enjoyed life immensely. It was her nature to enjoy (though goodness only knows, she had her reserves; it was a mere sketch, he often felt, that even he, after all these years, could make of Clarissa). Anyhow there was no bitterness in her; none of that sense of moral virtue which is so repulsive in good women. She enjoyed practically everything. If you walked with her in Hyde Park now it was a bed of tulips, now a child in a perambulator, now some absurd little drama she made up on the spur of the moment. (Very likely, she would have talked to those lovers, if she had thought them unhappy.) She had a sense of comedy that was really exquisite, but she needed people, always people, to bring it out, with the inevitable result that she frittered her time away, lunching, dining, giving these incessant parties of hers, talking nonsense, sayings things she didn’t mean, blunting the edge of her mind, losing her discrimination. <pb n="119" facs="pageImages/119.jpg"/> There she would sit at the head of the table taking infinite pains with some old buffer who might be useful to Dalloway—they knew the most appalling bores in Europe—or in came Elizabeth and everything must give way to her. She was at a High School, at the inarticulate stage last time he was over, a round-eyed, pale-faced girl, with nothing of her mother in her, a silent stolid creature, who took it all as a matter of course, let her mother make a fuss of her, and then said “May I go now?” like a child of four; going off, Clarissa explained, with that mixture of amusement and pride which Dalloway himself seemed to rouse in her, to play hockey. And now Elizabeth was “out,” presumably; thought him an old fogy, laughed at her mother’s friends. Ah well, so be it. The compensation of growing old, Peter Walsh thought, coming out of Regent’s Park, and holding his hat in hand, was simply this; that the passions remain as strong as ever, but one has gained—at last!—the power which adds the supreme flavour to existence,—the power of taking hold of experience, of turning it round, slowly, in the light.</p>

                  <p>A terrible confession it was (he put his hat on again), but now, at the age of fifty-three one scarcely needed people any more. Life itself, every moment <pb n="120" facs="pageImages/120.jpg"/> of it, every drop of it, here, this instant, now, in the sun, in Regent’s Park, was enough. Too much indeed. A whole lifetime was too short to bring out, now that one had acquired the power, the full flavour; to extract every ounce of pleasure, every shade of meaning; which both were so much more solid than they used to be, so much less personal. It was impossible that he should ever suffer again as Clarissa had made him suffer. For hours at a time (pray God that one might say these things without being overheard!), for hours and days he never thought of Daisy.</p>

                     <p>Could it be that he was in love with her then, remembering the misery, the torture, the extraordinary passion of those days? It was a different thing altogether—a much pleasanter thing—the truth being, of course, that now she was in love with him. And that perhaps was the reason why, when the ship actually sailed, he felt an extraordinary relief, wanted nothing so much as to be alone; was annoyed to find all her little attentions—cigars, notes, a rug for the voyage—in his cabin. Every one if they were honest would say the same; one doesn’t want people after fifty; one doesn’t want to go on telling women they are pretty; that’s what most men <pb n="121" facs="pageImages/121.jpg"/> of fifty would say, Peter Walsh thought, if they were honest.</p>

                        <p>But then these astonishing accesses of emotion—bursting into tears this morning, what was all that about? What could Clarissa have thought of him? thought him a fool presumably, not for the first time. It was jealousy that was at the bottom of it—jealousy which survives every other passion of mankind, Peter Walsh thought, holding his pocket-knife at arm’s length. She had been meeting Major Orde, Daisy said in her last letter; said it on purpose he knew; said it to make him jealous; he could see her wrinkling her forehead as she wrote, wondering what she could say to hurt him; and yet it made no difference; he was furious! All this pother of coming to England and seeing lawyers wasn’t to marry her, but to prevent her from marrying anybody else. That was what tortured him, that was what came over him when he saw Clarissa so calm, so cold, so intent on her dress or whatever it was; realising what she might have spared him, what she had reduced him to—a whimpering, snivelling old ass. But women, he thought, shutting his pocket-knife, don’t know what passion is. They don’t know the meaning of it to men. Clarissa was as cold as an <pb n="122" facs="pageImages/122.jpg"/> icicle. There she would sit on the sofa by his side, let him take her hand, give him one kiss—Here he was at the crossing.</p>

                           <p>A sound interrupted him; a frail quivering sound, a voice bubbling up without direction, vigour, beginning or end, running weakly and shrilly and with an absence of all human meaning into</p>

         <p>
                        <lg>
                            <l>e um fah um so</l>
            <l>foo swee too eem oo—</l>
                        </lg>
                    </p>
                              <p>the voice of no age or sex, the voice of an ancient spring spouting from the earth; which issued, just opposite Regent’s Park Tube station from a tall quivering shape, like a funnel, like a rusty pump, like a wind-beaten tree for ever barren of leaves which lets the wind run up and down its branches singing</p>

         <p>
                        <lg>
                            <l>ee um fah um so</l>
            <l>foo swee too eem oo</l>
            <l>and rocks and creaks and moans in the eternal breeze.</l>
                        </lg>
                    </p>

                                 <p>Through all ages—when the pavement was grass, when it was swamp, through the age of tusk and mammoth, through the age of silent sunrise, the battered woman—for she wore a skirt—with her right hand exposed, her left clutching at her side, stood singing of love—love which has lasted a million <pb n="123" facs="pageImages/123.jpg"/> years, she sang, love which prevails, and millions of years ago, her lover, who had been dead these centuries, had walked, she crooned, with her in May; but in the course of ages, long as summer days, and flaming, she remembered, with nothing but red asters, he had gone; death’s enormous sickle had swept those tremendous hills, and when at last she laid her hoary and immensely aged head on the earth, now become a mere cinder of ice, she implored the Gods to lay by her side a bunch of purple heather, there on her high burial place which the last rays of the last sun caressed; for then the pageant of the universe would be over.</p>

                                    <p>As the ancient song bubbled up opposite Regent’s Park Tube station still the earth seemed green and flowery; still, though it issued from so rude a mouth, a mere hole in the earth, muddy too, matted with root fibres and tangled grasses, still the old bubbling burbling song, soaking through the knotted roots of infinite ages, and skeletons and treasure, streamed away in rivulets over the pavement and all along the Marylebone Road, and down towards Euston, fertilising, leaving a damp stain.</p>

                                       <p>Still remembering how once in some primeval May she had walked with her lover, this rusty pump, this battered old woman with one hand exposed for <pb n="124" facs="pageImages/124.jpg"/> coppers the other clutching her side, would still be there in ten million years, remembering how once she had walked in May, where the sea flows now, with whom it did not matter—he was a man, oh yes, a man who had loved her. But the passage of ages had blurred the clarity of that ancient May day; the bright petalled flowers were hoar and silver frosted; and she no longer saw, when she implored him (as she did now quite clearly) “look in my eyes with thy sweet eyes intently,” she no longer saw brown eyes, black whiskers or sunburnt face but only a looming shape, a shadow shape, to which, with the bird-like freshness of the very aged she still twittered “give me your hand and let me press it gently” (Peter Walsh couldn’t help giving the poor creature a coin as he stepped into his taxi), “and if some one should see, what matter they?” she demanded; and her fist clutched at her side, and she smiled, pocketing her shilling, and all peering inquisitive eyes seemed blotted out, and the passing generations—the pavement was crowded with bustling middle-class people—vanished, like leaves, to be trodden under, to be soaked and steeped and made mould of by that eternal spring—</p>

         <p>
                        <lg>
                            <l>ee um fah um so</l>
           <l>foo swee too eem oo</l>
                        </lg>
                    </p>
                  <pb n="125" facs="pageImages/125.jpg"/>

                                          <p>“Poor old woman,” said Rezia Warren Smith, waiting to cross.</p>

                                             <p>Oh poor old wretch!</p>

<p>Suppose it was a wet night? Suppose one’s father, or somebody who had known one in better days had happened to pass, and saw one standing there in the gutter? And where did she sleep at night?</p>

   <p>Cheerfully, almost gaily, the invincible thread of sound wound up into the air like the smoke from a cottage chimney, winding up clean beech trees and issuing in a tuft of blue smoke among the topmost leaves. “And if some one should see, what matter they?”</p>

   <p>Since she was so unhappy, for weeks and weeks now, Rezia had given meanings to things that happened, almost felt sometimes that she must stop people in the street, if they looked good, kind people, just to say to them “I am unhappy”; and this old woman singing in the street “if some one should see, what matter they?” made her suddenly quite sure that everything was going to be right. They were going to Sir William Bradshaw; she thought his name sounded nice; he would cure Septimus at once. And then there was a brewer’s cart, and the grey horses had upright bristles of straw in their tails; <pb n="126" facs="pageImages/126.jpg"/> there were newspaper placards. It was a silly, silly dream, being unhappy.</p>

         <p>So they crossed, Mr. and Mrs. Septimus Warren Smith, and was there, after all, anything to draw attention to them, anything to make a passer-by suspect here is a young man who carries in him the greatest message in the world, and is, moreover, the happiest man in the world, and the most miserable? Perhaps they walked more slowly than other people, and there was something hesitating, trailing, in the man’s walk, but what more natural for a clerk, who has not been in the West End on a weekday at this hour for years, than to keep looking at the sky, looking at this, that and the other, as if Portland Place were a room he had come into when the family are away, the chandeliers being hung in holland bags, and the caretaker, as she lets in long shafts of dusty light upon deserted, queer-looking arm-chairs, lifting one corner of the long blinds, explains to the visitors what a wonderful place it is; how wonderful, but at the same time, he thinks, as he looks at chairs and tables, how strange.</p>

            <p>To look at, he might have been a clerk, but of the better sort; for he wore brown boots; his hands were educated; so, too, his profile—his angular, big-nosed, intelligent, sensitive profile; but not his lips <pb n="127" facs="pageImages/127.jpg"/> altogether, for they were loose; and his eyes (as eyes tend to be), eyes merely; hazel, large; so that he was, on the whole, a border case, neither one thing nor the other, might end with a house at Purley and a motor car, or continue renting apartments in back streets all his life; one of those half-educated, self-educated men whose education is all learnt from books borrowed from public libraries, read in the evening after the day’s work, on the advice of well-known authors consulted by letter.</p>

               <p>As for the other experiences, the solitary ones, which people go through alone, in their bedrooms, in their offices, walking the fields and the streets of London, he had them; had left home, a mere boy, because of his mother; she lied; because he came down to tea for the fiftieth time with his hands unwashed; because he could see no future for a poet in Stroud; and so, making a confidant of his little sister, had gone to London leaving an absurd note behind him, such as great men have written, and the world has read later when the story of their struggles has become famous.</p>

                  <p>London has swallowed up many millions of young men called Smith; thought nothing of fantastic Christian names like Septimus with which their parents have thought to distinguish them. Lodging <pb n="128" facs="pageImages/128.jpg"/> off the Euston Road, there were experiences, again experiences, such as change a face in two years from a pink innocent oval to a face lean, contracted, hostile. But of all this what could the most observant of friends have said except what a gardener says when he opens the conservatory door in the morning and finds a new blossom on his plant:—It has flowered; flowered from vanity, ambition, idealism, passion, loneliness, courage, laziness, the usual seeds, which all muddled up (in a room off the Euston Road), made him shy, and stammering, made him anxious to improve himself, made him fall in love with Miss Isabel Pole, lecturing in the Waterloo Road upon Shakespeare.</p>

                     <p>Was he not like Keats? she asked; and reflected how she might give him a taste of Antony and Cleopatra and the rest; lent him books; wrote him scraps of letters; and lit in him such a fire as burns only once in a lifetime, without heat, flickering a red gold flame infinitely ethereal and insubstantial over Miss Pole; Antony and Cleopatra; and the Waterloo Road. He thought her beautiful, believed her impeccably wise; dreamed of her, wrote poems to her, which, ignoring the subject, she corrected in red ink; he saw her, one summer evening, walking in a green dress in a square. “It has flowered,” the <pb n="129" facs="pageImages/129.jpg"/> gardener might have said, had he opened the door; had he come in, that is to say, any night about this time, and found him writing; found him tearing up his writing; found him finishing a masterpiece at three o’clock in the morning and running out to pace the streets, and visiting churches, and fasting one day, drinking another, devouring Shakespeare, Darwin, The History of Civilisation, and Bernard Shaw.</p>

                        <p>Something was up, Mr. Brewer knew; Mr. Brewer, managing clerk at Sibleys and Arrowsmiths, auctioneers, valuers, land and estate agents; something was up, he thought, and, being paternal with his young men, and thinking very highly of Smith’s abilities, and prophesying that he would, in ten or fifteen years, succeed to the leather arm-chair in the inner room under the skylight with the deed-boxes round him, “if he keeps his health,” said Mr. Brewer, and that was the danger—he looked weakly; advised football, invited him to supper and was seeing his way to consider recommending a rise of salary, when something happened which threw out many of Mr. Brewer’s calculations, took away his ablest young fellows, and eventually, so prying and insidious were the fingers of the European War, smashed a plaster cast of Ceres, ploughed a hole in the geranium beds, and utterly ruined the cook’s <pb n="130" facs="pageImages/130.jpg"/> nerves at Mr. Brewer’s establishment at Muswell Hill.</p>

                           <p>Septimus was one of the first to volunteer. He went to France to save an England which consisted almost entirely of Shakespeare’s plays and Miss Isabel Pole in a green dress walking in a square. There in the trenches the change which Mr. Brewer desired when he advised football was produced instantly; he developed manliness; he was promoted; he drew the attention, indeed the affection of his officer, Evans by name. It was a case of two dogs playing on a hearth-rug; one worrying a paper screw, snarling, snapping, giving a pinch, now and then, at the old dog’s ear; the other lying somnolent, blinking at the fire, raising a paw, turning and growling good-temperedly. They had to be together, share with each other, fight with each other, quarrel with each other. But when Evans (Rezia who had only seen him once called him “a quiet man,” a sturdy red-haired man, undemonstrative in the company of women), when Evans was killed, just before the Armistice, in Italy, Septimus, far from showing any emotion or recognising that here was the end of a friendship, congratulated himself upon feeling very little and very reasonably. The War had taught him. It was sublime. He had gone through the whole show, friendship, European War,[Pg 131] death, had won promotion, was still under thirty and was bound to survive. He was right there. The last shells missed him. He watched them explode with indifference. When peace came he was in Milan, billeted in the house of an innkeeper with a courtyard, flowers in tubs, little tables in the open, daughters making hats, and to Lucrezia, the younger daughter, he became engaged one evening when the panic was on him—that he could not feel.</p>

                              <p>For now that it was all over, truce signed, and the dead buried, he had, especially in the evening, these sudden thunder-claps of fear. He could not feel. As he opened the door of the room where the Italian girls sat making hats, he could see them; could hear them; they were rubbing wires among coloured beads in saucers; they were turning buckram shapes this way and that; the table was all strewn with feathers, spangles, silks, ribbons; scissors were rapping on the table; but something failed him; he could not feel. Still, scissors rapping, girls laughing, hats being made protected him; he was assured of safety; he had a refuge. But he could not sit there all night. There were moments of waking in the early morning. The bed was falling; he was falling. Oh for the scissors and the lamplight and the buckram shapes! He asked Lucrezia to marry him, the younger of the two, the gay, the <pb n="132" facs="pageImages/132.jpg"/> frivolous, with those little artist’s fingers that she would hold up and say “It is all in them.” Silk, feathers, what not were alive to them.</p>

                                 <p>“It is the hat that matters most,” she would say, when they walked out together. Every hat that passed, she would examine; and the cloak and the dress and the way the woman held herself. Ill-dressing, over-dressing she stigmatised, not savagely, rather with impatient movements of the hands, like those of a painter who puts from him some obvious well-meant glaring imposture; and then, generously, but always critically, she would welcome a shop-girl who had turned her little bit of stuff gallantly, or praise, wholly, with enthusiastic and professional understanding, a French lady descending from her carriage, in chinchilla, robes, pearls.</p>

                                    <p>“Beautiful!” she would murmur, nudging Septimus, that he might see. But beauty was behind a pane of glass. Even taste (Rezia liked ices, chocolates, sweet things) had no relish to him. He put down his cup on the little marble table. He looked at people outside; happy they seemed, collecting in the middle of the street, shouting, laughing, squabbling over nothing. But he could not taste, he could not feel. In the tea-shop among the tables and the chattering waiters the appalling fear came over him—he <pb n="133" facs="pageImages/133.jpg"/> could not feel. He could reason; he could read, Dante for example, quite easily (“Septimus, do put down your book,” said Rezia, gently shutting the Inferno), he could add up his bill; his brain was perfect; it must be the fault of the world then—that he could not feel.</p>

                                       <p>“The English are so silent,” Rezia said. She liked it, she said. She respected these Englishmen, and wanted to see London, and the English horses, and the tailor-made suits, and could remember hearing how wonderful the shops were, from an Aunt who had married and lived in Soho.</p>

                                          <p>It might be possible, Septimus thought, looking at England from the train window, as they left Newhaven; it might be possible that the world itself is without meaning.</p>

                                             <p>At the office they advanced him to a post of considerable responsibility. They were proud of him; he had won crosses. “You have done your duty; it is up to us—” began Mr. Brewer; and could not finish, so pleasurable was his emotion. They took admirable lodgings off the Tottenham Court Road.</p>

                                                <p>Here he opened Shakespeare once more. That boy’s business of the intoxication of language—Antony and Cleopatra—had shrivelled utterly. How Shakespeare loathed humanity—the putting on of <pb n="134" facs="pageImages/134.jpg"/> clothes, the getting of children, the sordidity of the mouth and the belly! This was now revealed to Septimus; the message hidden in the beauty of words. The secret signal which one generation passes, under disguise, to the next is loathing, hatred, despair. Dante the same. Aeschylus (translated) the same. There Rezia sat at the table trimming hats. She trimmed hats for Mrs. Filmer’s friends; she trimmed hats by the hour. She looked pale, mysterious, like a lily, drowned, under water, he thought.</p>

                                                   <p>“The English are so serious,” she would say, putting her arms round Septimus, her cheek against his.</p>

                                                      <p>Love between man and woman was repulsive to Shakespeare. The business of copulation was filth to him before the end. But, Rezia said, she must have children. They had been married five years.</p>

                                                         <p>They went to the Tower together; to the Victoria and Albert Museum; stood in the crowd to see the King open Parliament. And there were the shops—hat shops, dress shops, shops with leather bags in the window, where she would stand staring. But she must have a boy.</p>

                                                            <p>She must have a son like Septimus, she said. But nobody could be like Septimus; so gentle; so serious;<pb n="135" facs="pageImages/135.jpg"/> so clever. Could she not read Shakespeare too? Was Shakespeare a difficult author? she asked.</p>

                                                               <p>One cannot bring children into a world like this. One cannot perpetuate suffering, or increase the breed of these lustful animals, who have no lasting emotions, but only whims and vanities, eddying them now this way, now that.</p>

                                                                  <p>He watched her snip, shape, as one watches a bird hop, flit in the grass, without daring to move a finger. For the truth is (let her ignore it) that human beings have neither kindness, nor faith, nor charity beyond what serves to increase the pleasure of the moment. They hunt in packs. Their packs scour the desert and vanish screaming into the wilderness. They desert the fallen. They are plastered over with grimaces. There was Brewer at the office, with his waxed moustache, coral tie-pin, white slip, and pleasurable emotions—all coldness and clamminess within,—his geraniums ruined in the War—his cook’s nerves destroyed; or Amelia What’shername, handing round cups of tea punctually at five—a leering, sneering obscene little harpy; and the Toms and Berties in their starched shirt fronts oozing thick drops of vice. They never saw him drawing pictures of them naked at their antics in his notebook. In the street, vans roared <pb n="136" facs="pageImages/136.jpg"/> past him; brutality blared out on placards; men were trapped in mines; women burnt alive; and once a maimed file of lunatics being exercised or displayed for the diversion of the populace (who laughed aloud), ambled and nodded and grinned past him, in the Tottenham Court Road, each half apologetically, yet triumphantly, inflicting his hopeless woe. And would he go mad?</p>

                                                                     <p>At tea Rezia told him that Mrs. Filmer’s daughter was expecting a baby. She could not grow old and have no children! She was very lonely, she was very unhappy! She cried for the first time since they were married. Far away he heard her sobbing; he heard it accurately, he noticed it distinctly; he compared it to a piston thumping. But he felt nothing.</p>

                                                                        <p>His wife was crying, and he felt nothing; only each time she sobbed in this profound, this silent, this hopeless way, he descended another step into the pit.</p>

                                                                           <p>At last, with a melodramatic gesture which he assumed mechanically and with complete consciousness of its insincerity, he dropped his head on his hands. Now he had surrendered; now other people must help him. People must be sent for. He gave in.</p>

                  <pb n="137" facs="pageImages/137.jpg"/>

                                                                              <p>Nothing could rouse him. Rezia put him to bed. She sent for a doctor—Mrs. Filmer’s Dr. Holmes. Dr. Holmes examined him. There was nothing whatever the matter, said Dr. Holmes. Oh, what a relief! What a kind man, what a good man! thought Rezia. When he felt like that he went to the Music Hall, said Dr. Holmes. He took a day off with his wife and played golf. Why not try two tabloids of bromide dissolved in a glass of water at bedtime? These old Bloomsbury houses, said Dr. Holmes, tapping the wall, are often full of very fine panelling, which the landlords have the folly to paper over. Only the other day, visiting a patient, Sir Somebody Something in Bedford Square—</p>

                                                                                 <p>So there was no excuse; nothing whatever the matter, except the sin for which human nature had condemned him to death; that he did not feel. He had not cared when Evans was killed; that was worst; but all the other crimes raised their heads and shook their fingers and jeered and sneered over the rail of the bed in the early hours of the morning at the prostrate body which lay realising its degradation; how he had married his wife without loving her; had lied to her; seduced her; outraged Miss Isabel Pole, and was so pocked and marked with vice that women shuddered when they <pb n="138" facs="pageImages/138.jpg"/> saw him in the street. The verdict of human nature on such a wretch was death.</p>

                                                                                    <p>Dr. Holmes came again. Large, fresh coloured, handsome, flicking his boots, looking in the glass, he brushed it all aside—headaches, sleeplessness, fears, dreams—nerve symptoms and nothing more, he said. If Dr. Holmes found himself even half a pound below eleven stone six, he asked his wife for another plate of porridge at breakfast. (Rezia would learn to cook porridge.) But, he continued, health is largely a matter in our own control. Throw yourself into outside interests; take up some hobby. He opened Shakespeare—Antony and Cleopatra; pushed Shakespeare aside. Some hobby, said Dr. Holmes, for did he not owe his own excellent health (and he worked as hard as any man in London) to the fact that he could always switch off from his patients on to old furniture? And what a very pretty comb, if he might say so, Mrs. Warren Smith was wearing!</p>

                                                                                       <p>When the damned fool came again, Septimus refused to see him. Did he indeed? said Dr. Holmes, smiling agreeably. Really he had to give that charming little lady, Mrs. Smith, a friendly push before he could get past her into her husband’s bedroom.</p>

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                                                                                          <p>“So you’re in a funk,” he said agreeably, sitting down by his patient’s side. He had actually talked of killing himself to his wife, quite a girl, a foreigner, wasn’t she? Didn’t that give her a very odd idea of English husbands? Didn’t one owe perhaps a duty to one’s wife? Wouldn’t it be better to do something instead of lying in bed? For he had had forty years’ experience behind him; and Septimus could take Dr. Holmes’s word for it—there was nothing whatever the matter with him. And next time Dr. Holmes came he hoped to find Smith out of bed and not making that charming little lady his wife anxious about him.</p>

                                                                                             <p>Human nature, in short, was on him—the repulsive brute, with the blood-red nostrils. Holmes was on him. Dr. Holmes came quite regularly every day. Once you stumble, Septimus wrote on the back of a postcard, human nature is on you. Holmes is on you. Their only chance was to escape, without letting Holmes know; to Italy—anywhere, anywhere, away from Dr. Holmes.</p>

                                                                                                <p>But Rezia could not understand him. Dr. Holmes was such a kind man. He was so interested in Septimus. He only wanted to help them, he said. He had four little children and he had asked her to tea, she told Septimus.</p>

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                                                                                                   <p>So he was deserted. The whole world was clamouring: Kill yourself, kill yourself, for our sakes. But why should he kill himself for their sakes? Food was pleasant; the sun hot; and this killing oneself, how does one set about it, with a table knife, uglily, with floods of blood,—by sucking a gaspipe? He was too weak; he could scarcely raise his hand. Besides, now that he was quite alone, condemned, deserted, as those who are about to die are alone, there was a luxury in it, an isolation full of sublimity; a freedom which the attached can never know. Holmes had won of course; the brute with the red nostrils had won. But even Holmes himself could not touch this last relic straying on the edge of the world, this outcast, who gazed back at the inhabited regions, who lay, like a drowned sailor, on the shore of the world.</p>

                                                                                                      <p>It was at that moment (Rezia gone shopping) that the great revelation took place. A voice spoke from behind the screen. Evans was speaking. The dead were with him.</p>

                                                                                                         <p>“Evans, Evans!” he cried.</p>

                                                                                                            <p>Mr. Smith was talking aloud to himself, Agnes the servant girl cried to Mrs. Filmer in the kitchen. “Evans, Evans,” he had said as she brought in the <pb n="141" facs="pageImages/141.jpg"/> tray. She jumped, she did. She scuttled downstairs.</p>

                                                                                                               <p>And Rezia came in, with her flowers, and walked across the room, and put the roses in a vase, upon which the sun struck directly, and it went laughing, leaping round the room.</p>

                                                                                                                  <p>She had had to buy the roses, Rezia said, from a poor man in the street. But they were almost dead already, she said, arranging the roses.</p>

                                                                                                                     <p>So there was a man outside; Evans presumably; and the roses, which Rezia said were half dead, had been picked by him in the fields of Greece. “Communication is health; communication is happiness, communication—” he muttered.</p>

                                                                                                                        <p>"What are you saying, Septimus?” Rezia asked, wild with terror, for he was talking to himself.</p>

                                                                                                                           <p>She sent Agnes running for Dr. Holmes. Her husband, she said, was mad. He scarcely knew her.</p>

                                                                                                                              <p>“You brute! You brute!” cried Septimus, seeing human nature, that is Dr. Holmes, enter the room.</p>

                                                                                                                                 <p>“Now what’s all this about?” said Dr. Holmes in the most amiable way in the world. “Talking nonsense to frighten your wife?” But he would give <pb n="142" facs="pageImages/142.jpg"/> him something to make him sleep. And if they were rich people, said Dr. Holmes, looking ironically round the room, by all means let them go to Harley Street; if they had no confidence in him, said Dr. Holmes, looking not quite so kind.</p>

                                                                                                                                    <p>It was precisely twelve o’clock; twelve by Big Ben; whose stroke was wafted over the northern part of London; blent with that of other clocks, mixed in a thin ethereal way with the clouds and wisps of smoke, and died up there among the seagulls—twelve o’clock struck as Clarissa Dalloway laid her green dress on her bed, and the Warren Smiths walked down Harley Street. Twelve was the hour of their appointment. Probably, Rezia thought, that was Sir William Bradshaw’s house with the grey motor car in front of it. The leaden circles dissolved in the air.</p>

                                                                                                                                       <p>Indeed it was—Sir William Bradshaw’s motor car; low, powerful, grey with plain initials interlocked on the panel, as if the pomps of heraldry were incongruous, this man being the ghostly helper, the priest of science; and, as the motor car was grey, so to match its sober suavity, grey furs, silver grey rugs were heaped in it, to keep her ladyship warm while she waited. For often Sir William would travel sixty miles or more down into the <pb n="143" facs="pageImages/143.jpg"/> country to visit the rich, the afflicted, who could afford the very large fee which Sir William very properly charged for his advice. Her ladyship waited with the rugs about her knees an hour or more, leaning back, thinking sometimes of the patient, sometimes, excusably, of the wall of gold, mounting minute by minute while she waited; the wall of gold that was mounting between them and all shifts and anxieties (she had borne them bravely; they had had their struggles) until she felt wedged on a calm ocean, where only spice winds blow; respected, admired, envied, with scarcely anything left to wish for, though she regretted her stoutness; large dinner-parties every Thursday night to the profession; an occasional bazaar to be opened; Royalty greeted; too little time, alas, with her husband, whose work grew and grew; a boy doing well at Eton; she would have liked a daughter too; interests she had, however, in plenty; child welfare; the after-care of the epileptic, and photography, so that if there was a church building, or a church decaying, she bribed the sexton, got the key and took photographs, which were scarcely to be distinguished from the work of professionals, while she waited.</p>

                                                                                                                                          <p>Sir William himself was no longer young. He <pb n="144" facs="pageImages/144.jpg"/> had worked very hard; he had won his position by sheer ability (being the son of a shopkeeper); loved his profession; made a fine figurehead at ceremonies and spoke well—all of which had by the time he was knighted given him a heavy look, a weary look (the stream of patients being so incessant, the responsibilities and privileges of his profession so onerous), which weariness, together with his grey hairs, increased the extraordinary distinction of his presence and gave him the reputation (of the utmost importance in dealing with nerve cases) not merely of lightning skill, and almost infallible accuracy in diagnosis but of sympathy; tact; understanding of the human soul. He could see the first moment they came into the room (the Warren Smiths they were called); he was certain directly he saw the man; it was a case of extreme gravity. It was a case of complete breakdown—complete physical and nervous breakdown, with every symptom in an advanced stage, he ascertained in two or three minutes (writing answers to questions, murmured discreetly, on a pink card).</p>

                                                                                                                                             <p>How long had Dr. Holmes been attending him?</p>

                                                                                                                                                <p>Six weeks.</p>

                                                                                                                                                   <p>Prescribed a little bromide? Said there was nothing the matter? Ah yes (those general practitioners! <pb n="145" facs="pageImages/145.jpg"/> thought Sir William. It took half his time to undo their blunders. Some were irreparable).</p>

                                                                                                                                                      <p>“You served with great distinction in the War?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                         <p>The patient repeated the word “war” interrogatively.</p>

                                                                                                                                                            <p>He was attaching meanings to words of a symbolical kind. A serious symptom, to be noted on the card.</p>

                                                                                                                                                               <p>“The War?” the patient asked. The European War—that little shindy of schoolboys with gunpowder? Had he served with distinction? He really forgot. In the War itself he had failed.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                  <p>“Yes, he served with the greatest distinction,” Rezia assured the doctor; “he was promoted.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“And they have the very highest opinion of you at your office?” Sir William murmured, glancing at Mr. Brewer’s very generously worded letter. “So that you have nothing to worry you, no financial anxiety, nothing?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                        <p>He had committed an appalling crime and been condemned to death by human nature.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“I have—I have,” he began, “committed a crime—”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                              <p>“He has done nothing wrong whatever,” Rezia assured the doctor. If Mr. Smith would wait, said Sir William, he would speak to Mrs. Smith in the <pb n="146" facs="pageImages/146.jpg"/> next room. Her husband was very seriously ill, Sir William said. Did he threaten to kill himself?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>Oh, he did, she cried. But he did not mean it, she said. Of course not. It was merely a question of rest, said Sir William; of rest, rest, rest; a long rest in bed. There was a delightful home down in the country where her husband would be perfectly looked after. Away from her? she asked. Unfortunately, yes; the people we care for most are not good for us when we are ill. But he was not mad, was he? Sir William said he never spoke of “madness”; he called it not having a sense of proportion. But her husband did not like doctors. He would refuse to go there. Shortly and kindly Sir William explained to her the state of the case. He had threatened to kill himself. There was no alternative. It was a question of law. He would lie in bed in a beautiful house in the country. The nurses were admirable. Sir William would visit him once a week. If Mrs. Warren Smith was quite sure she had no more questions to ask—he never hurried his patients—they would return to her husband. She had nothing more to ask—not of Sir William.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>So they returned to the most exalted of mankind; the criminal who faced his judges; the victim exposed on the heights; the fugitive; the drowned <pb n="147" facs="pageImages/147.jpg"/> sailor; the poet of the immortal ode; the Lord who had gone from life to death; to Septimus Warren Smith, who sat in the arm-chair under the skylight staring at a photograph of Lady Bradshaw in Court dress, muttering messages about beauty.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>“We have had our little talk,” said Sir William.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>“He says you are very, very ill,” Rezia cried.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>“We have been arranging that you should go into a home,” said Sir William.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>“One of Holmes’s homes?” sneered Septimus.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>The fellow made a distasteful impression. For there was in Sir William, whose father had been a tradesman, a natural respect for breeding and clothing, which shabbiness nettled; again, more profoundly, there was in Sir William, who had never had time for reading, a grudge, deeply buried, against cultivated people who came into his room and intimated that doctors, whose profession is a constant strain upon all the highest faculties, are not educated men.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>“One of my homes, Mr. Warren Smith,” he said, “where we will teach you to rest.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>And there was just one thing more.

He was quite certain that when Mr. Warren Smith was well he was the last man in the world to frighten his wife. But he had talked of killing himself.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>“We all have our moments of depression,” said Sir William.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>Once you fall, Septimus repeated to himself, human nature is on you. Holmes and Bradshaw are on you. They scour the desert. They fly screaming into the wilderness. The rack and the thumbscrew are applied. Human nature is remorseless.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>“Impulses came upon him sometimes?” Sir William asked, with his pencil on a pink card.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>That was his own affair, said Septimus.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“Nobody lives for himself alone,” said Sir William, glancing at the photograph of his wife in Court dress.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                        </p>
                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“And you have a brilliant career before you,” said Sir William. There was Mr. Brewer’s letter on the table. “An exceptionally brilliant career.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>But if he confessed? If he communicated? Would they let him off then, his torturers?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“I—I—” he stammered.

But what was his crime? He could not remember it.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“Yes?” Sir William encouraged him. (But it was growing late.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Love, trees, there is no crime—what was his message?</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>He could not remember it.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>“I—I—” Septimus stammered.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>“Try to think as little about yourself as possible,” said Sir William kindly. Really, he was not fit to be about.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Was there anything else they wished to ask him? Sir William would make all arrangements (he murmured to Rezia) and he would let her know between five and six that evening he murmured.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>“Trust everything to me,” he said, and dismissed them.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>Never, never had Rezia felt such agony in her life! She had asked for help and been deserted! He had failed them! Sir William Bradshaw was not a nice man.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>The upkeep of that motor car alone must cost him quite a lot, said Septimus, when they got out into the street.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>She clung to his arm. They had been deserted.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>But what more did she want?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>To his patients he gave three-quarters of an hour; and if in this exacting science which has to do with what, after all, we know nothing about—the nervous system, the human brain—a doctor loses his sense of proportion, as a doctor he fails. Health we must have; and health is proportion; so that when a man <pb n="150" facs="pageImages/150.jpg"/> comes into your room and says he is Christ (a common delusion), and has a message, as they mostly have, and threatens, as they often do, to kill himself, you invoke proportion; order rest in bed; rest in solitude; silence and rest; rest without friends, without books, without messages; six months’ rest; until a man who went in weighing seven stone six comes out weighing twelve.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>Proportion, divine proportion, Sir William’s goddess, was acquired by Sir William walking hospitals, catching salmon, begetting one son in Harley Street by Lady Bradshaw, who caught salmon herself and took photographs scarcely to be distinguished from the work of professionals. Worshipping proportion, Sir William not only prospered himself but made England prosper, secluded her lunatics, forbade childbirth, penalised despair, made it impossible for the unfit to propagate their views until they, too, shared his sense of proportion—his, if they were men, Lady Bradshaw’s if they were women (she embroidered, knitted, spent four nights out of seven at home with her son), so that not only did his colleagues respect him, his subordinates fear him, but the friends and relations of his patients felt for him the keenest gratitude for insisting that these prophetic Christs and Christesses, who prophesied <pb n="151" facs="pageImages/151.jpg"/> the end of the world, or the advent of God, should drink milk in bed, as Sir William ordered; Sir William with his thirty years’ experience of these kinds of cases, and his infallible instinct, this is madness, this sense; in fact, his sense of proportion.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>But Proportion has a sister, less smiling, more formidable, a Goddess even now engaged—in the heat and sands of India, the mud and swamp of Africa, the purlieus of London, wherever in short the climate or the devil tempts men to fall from the true belief which is her own—is even now engaged in dashing down shrines, smashing idols, and setting up in their place her own stern countenance. Conversion is her name and she feasts on the wills of the weakly, loving to impress, to impose, adoring her own features stamped on the face of the populace. At Hyde Park Corner on a tub she stands preaching; shrouds herself in white and walks penitentially disguised as brotherly love through factories and parliaments; offers help, but desires power; smites out of her way roughly the dissentient, or dissatisfied; bestows her blessing on those who, looking upward, catch submissively from her eyes the light of their own. This lady too (Rezia Warren Smith divined it) had her dwelling in Sir William’s heart, though concealed, as she mostly is, <pb n="152" facs="pageImages/152.jpg"/> under some plausible disguise; some venerable name; love, duty, self sacrifice. How he would work—how toil to raise funds, propagate reforms, initiate institutions! But conversion, fastidious Goddess, loves blood better than brick, and feasts most subtly on the human will. For example, Lady Bradshaw. Fifteen years ago she had gone under. It was nothing you could put your finger on; there had been no scene, no snap; only the slow sinking, water-logged, of her will into his. Sweet was her smile, swift her submission; dinner in Harley Street, numbering eight or nine courses, feeding ten or fifteen guests of the professional classes, was smooth and urbane. Only as the evening wore on a very slight dulness, or uneasiness perhaps, a nervous twitch, fumble, stumble and confusion indicated, what it was really painful to believe—that the poor lady lied. Once, long ago, she had caught salmon freely: now, quick to minister to the craving which lit her husband’s eye so oilily for dominion, for power, she cramped, squeezed, pared, pruned, drew back, peeped through; so that without knowing precisely what made the evening disagreeable, and caused this pressure on the top of the head (which might well be imputed to the professional conversation, or the fatigue of a great doctor whose life, <pb n="153" facs="pageImages/153.jpg"/> Lady Bradshaw said, “is not his own but his patients’”) disagreeable it was: so that guests, when the clock struck ten, breathed in the air of Harley Street even with rapture; which relief, however, was denied to his patients.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>There in the grey room, with the pictures on the wall, and the valuable furniture, under the ground glass skylight, they learnt the extent of their transgressions; huddled up in arm-chairs, they watched him go through, for their benefit, a curious exercise with the arms, which he shot out, brought sharply back to his hip, to prove (if the patient was obstinate) that Sir William was master of his own actions, which the patient was not. There some weakly broke down; sobbed, submitted; others, inspired by Heaven knows what intemperate madness, called Sir William to his face a damnable humbug; questioned, even more impiously, life itself. Why live? they demanded. Sir William replied that life was good. Certainly Lady Bradshaw in ostrich feathers hung over the mantelpiece, and as for his income it was quite twelve thousand a year. But to us, they protested, life has given no such bounty. He acquiesced. They lacked a sense of proportion. And perhaps, after all, there is no God? He shrugged his shoulders. In short, this living or not <pb n="154" facs="pageImages/154.jpg"/> living is an affair of our own? But there they were mistaken. Sir William had a friend in Surrey where they taught, what Sir William frankly admitted was a difficult art—a sense of proportion. There were, moreover, family affection; honour; courage; and a brilliant career. All of these had in Sir William a resolute champion. If they failed him, he had to support police and the good of society, which, he remarked very quietly, would take care, down in Surrey, that these unsocial impulses, bred more than anything by the lack of good blood, were held in control. And then stole out from her hiding-place and mounted her throne that Goddess whose lust is to override opposition, to stamp indelibly in the sanctuaries of others the image of herself. Naked, defenceless, the exhausted, the friendless received the impress of Sir William’s will. He swooped; he devoured. He shut people up. It was this combination of decision and humanity that endeared Sir William so greatly to the relations of his victims.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>But Rezia Warren Smith cried, walking down Harley Street, that she did not like that man.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>Shredding and slicing, dividing and subdividing, the clocks of Harley Street nibbled at the June day, counselled submission, upheld authority, and pointed out in chorus the supreme advantages of a sense of <pb n="155" facs="pageImages/155.jpg"/> proportion, until the mound of time was so far diminished that a commercial clock, suspended above a shop in Oxford Street, announced, genially and fraternally, as if it were a pleasure to Messrs. Rigby and Lowndes to give the information gratis, that it was half-past one.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>Looking up, it appeared that each letter of their names stood for one of the hours; subconsciously one was grateful to Rigby and Lowndes for giving one time ratified by Greenwich; and this gratitude (so Hugh Whitbread ruminated, dallying there in front of the shop window), naturally took the form later of buying off Rigby and Lowndes socks or shoes. So he ruminated. It was his habit. He did not go deeply. He brushed surfaces; the dead languages, the living, life in Constantinople, Paris, Rome; riding, shooting, tennis, it had been once. The malicious asserted that he now kept guard at Buckingham Palace, dressed in silk stockings and knee-breeches, over what nobody knew. But he did it extremely efficiently. He had been afloat on the cream of English society for fifty-five years. He had known Prime Ministers. His affections were understood to be deep. And if it were true that he had not taken part in any of the great movements of the time or held important office, one or two <pb n="156" facs="pageImages/156.jpg"/> humble reforms stood to his credit; an improvement in public shelters was one; the protection of owls in Norfolk another; servant girls had reason to be grateful to him; and his name at the end of letters to the Times, asking for funds, appealing to the public to protect, to preserve, to clear up litter, to abate smoke, and stamp out immorality in parks, commanded respect.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>A magnificent figure he cut too, pausing for a moment (as the sound of the half hour died away) to look critically, magisterially, at socks and shoes; impeccable, substantial, as if he beheld the world from a certain eminence, and dressed to match; but realised the obligations which size, wealth, health, entail, and observed punctiliously even when not absolutely necessary, little courtesies, old-fashioned ceremonies which gave a quality to his manner, something to imitate, something to remember him by, for he would never lunch, for example, with Lady Bruton, whom he had known these twenty years, without bringing her in his outstretched hand a bunch of carnations and asking Miss Brush, Lady Bruton’s secretary, after her brother in South Africa, which, for some reason, Miss Brush, deficient though she was in every attribute of female charm, so much resented that she said “Thank you, <pb n="157" facs="pageImages/157.jpg"/> he’s doing very well in South Africa,” when, for half a dozen years, he had been doing badly in Portsmouth.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Lady Bruton herself preferred Richard Dalloway, who arrived at the next moment. Indeed they met on the doorstep.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>Lady Bruton preferred Richard Dalloway of course. He was made of much finer material. But she wouldn’t let them run down her poor dear Hugh. She could never forget his kindness—he had been really remarkably kind—she forgot precisely upon what occasion. But he had been—remarkably kind. Anyhow, the difference between one man and another does not amount to much. She had never seen the sense of cutting people up, as Clarissa Dalloway did—cutting them up and sticking them together again; not at any rate when one was sixty-two. She took Hugh’s carnations with her angular grim smile. There was nobody else coming, she said. She had got them there on false pretences, to help her out of a difficulty—</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>“But let us eat first,” she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>And so there began a soundless and exquisite passing to and fro through swing doors of aproned white-capped maids, handmaidens not of necessity, but adepts in a mystery or grand deception practised by <pb n="158" facs="pageImages/158.jpg"/> hostesses in Mayfair from one-thirty to two, when, with a wave of the hand, the traffic ceases, and there rises instead this profound illusion in the first place about the food—how it is not paid for; and then that the table spreads itself voluntarily with glass and silver, little mats, saucers of red fruit; films of brown cream mask turbot; in casseroles severed chickens swim; coloured, undomestic, the fire burns; and with the wine and the coffee (not paid for) rise jocund visions before musing eyes; gently speculative eyes; eyes to whom life appears musical, mysterious; eyes now kindled to observe genially the beauty of the red carnations which Lady Bruton (whose movements were always angular) had laid beside her plate, so that Hugh Whitbread, feeling at peace with the entire universe and at the same time completely sure of his standing, said, resting his fork,</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“Wouldn’t they look charming against your lace?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Miss Brush resented this familiarity intensely. She thought him an underbred fellow. She made Lady Bruton laugh.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>Lady Bruton raised the carnations, holding them rather stiffly with much the same attitude with which the General held the scroll in the picture behind her; <pb n="159" facs="pageImages/159.jpg"/> she remained fixed, tranced. Which was she now, the General’s great-grand-daughter? great-great-grand-daughter? Richard Dalloway asked himself. Sir Roderick, Sir Miles, Sir Talbot—that was it. It was remarkable how in that family the likeness persisted in the women. She should have been a general of dragoons herself. And Richard would have served under her, cheerfully; he had the greatest respect for her; he cherished these romantic views about well-set-up old women of pedigree, and would have liked, in his good-humoured way, to bring some young hot-heads of his acquaintance to lunch with her; as if a type like hers could be bred of amiable tea-drinking enthusiasts! He knew her country. He knew her people. There was a vine, still bearing, which either Lovelace or Herrick—she never read a word of poetry herself, but so the story ran—had sat under. Better wait to put before them the question that bothered her (about making an appeal to the public; if so, in what terms and so on), better wait until they have had their coffee, Lady Bruton thought; and so laid the carnations down beside her plate.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“How’s Clarissa?” she asked abruptly.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>Clarissa always said that Lady Bruton did not like her. Indeed, Lady Bruton had the reputation <pb n="160" facs="pageImages/160.jpg"/> of being more interested in politics than people; of talking like a man; of having had a finger in some notorious intrigue of the eighties, which was now beginning to be mentioned in memoirs. Certainly there was an alcove in her drawing-room, and a table in that alcove, and a photograph upon that table of General Sir Talbot Moore, now deceased, who had written there (one evening in the eighties) in Lady Bruton’s presence, with her cognisance, perhaps advice, a telegram ordering the British troops to advance upon an historical occasion. (She kept the pen and told the story.) Thus, when she said in her offhand way “How’s Clarissa?” husbands had difficulty in persuading their wives and indeed, however devoted, were secretly doubtful themselves, of her interest in women who often got in their husbands’ way, prevented them from accepting posts abroad, and had to be taken to the seaside in the middle of the session to recover from influenza. Nevertheless her inquiry, “How’s Clarissa?” was known by women infallibly, to be a signal from a well-wisher, from an almost silent companion, whose utterances (half a dozen perhaps in the course of a lifetime) signified recognition of some feminine comradeship which went beneath masculine lunch parties and united Lady Bruton and Mrs. Dalloway, <pb n="161" facs="pageImages/161.jpg"/> who seldom met, and appeared when they did meet indifferent and even hostile, in a singular bond.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>“I met Clarissa in the Park this morning,” said Hugh Whitbread, diving into the casserole, anxious to pay himself this little tribute, for he had only to come to London and he met everybody at once; but greedy, one of the greediest men she had ever known, Milly Brush thought, who observed men with unflinching rectitude, and was capable of everlasting devotion, to her own sex in particular, being knobbed, scraped, angular, and entirely without feminine charm.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“D’you know who’s in town?” said Lady Bruton suddenly bethinking her. “Our old friend, Peter Walsh.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>They all smiled. Peter Walsh! And Mr. Dalloway was genuinely glad, Milly Brush thought; and Mr. Whitbread thought only of his chicken.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Peter Walsh! All three, Lady Bruton, Hugh Whitbread, and Richard Dalloway, remembered the same thing—how passionately Peter had been in love; been rejected; gone to India; come a cropper; made a mess of things; and Richard Dalloway had a very great liking for the dear old fellow too. Milly Brush saw that; saw a depth in the brown of his eyes; saw him hesitate; consider; which interested <pb n="162" facs="pageImages/162.jpg"/> her, as Mr. Dalloway always interested her, for what was he thinking, she wondered, about Peter Walsh?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>That Peter Walsh had been in love with Clarissa; that he would go back directly after lunch and find Clarissa; that he would tell her, in so many words, that he loved her. Yes, he would say that.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>Milly Brush once might almost have fallen in love with these silences; and Mr. Dalloway was always so dependable; such a gentleman too. Now, being forty, Lady Bruton had only to nod, or turn her head a little abruptly, and Milly Brush took the signal, however deeply she might be sunk in these reflections of a detached spirit, of an uncorrupted soul whom life could not bamboozle, because life had not offered her a trinket of the slightest value; not a curl, smile, lip, cheek, nose; nothing whatever; Lady Bruton had only to nod, and Perkins was instructed to quicken the coffee.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>“Yes; Peter Walsh has come back,” said Lady Bruton. It was vaguely flattering to them all. He had come back, battered, unsuccessful, to their secure shores. But to help him, they reflected, was impossible; there was some flaw in his character. Hugh Whitbread said one might of course mention his name to So-and-so. He wrinkled lugubriously, <pb n="163" facs="pageImages/163.jpg"/> consequentially, at the thought of the letters he would write to the heads of Government offices about “my old friend, Peter Walsh,” and so on. But it wouldn’t lead to anything—not to anything permanent, because of his character.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“In trouble with some woman,” said Lady Bruton. They had all guessed that that was at the bottom of it.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>“However,” said Lady Bruton, anxious to leave the subject, “we shall hear the whole story from Peter himself.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>(The coffee was very slow in coming.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>“The address?” murmured Hugh Whitbread; and there was at once a ripple in the grey tide of service which washed round Lady Bruton day in, day out, collecting, intercepting, enveloping her in a fine tissue which broke concussions, mitigated interruptions, and spread round the house in Brook Street a fine net where things lodged and were picked out accurately, instantly, by grey-haired Perkins, who had been with Lady Bruton these thirty years and now wrote down the address; handed it to Mr. Whitbread, who took out his pocket-book, raised his eyebrows, and slipping it in among documents of the highest importance, said that he would get Evelyn to ask him to lunch.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>(They were waiting to bring the coffee until Mr. Whitbread had finished.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Hugh was very slow, Lady Bruton thought. He was getting fat, she noticed. Richard always kept himself in the pink of condition. She was getting impatient; the whole of her being was setting positively, undeniably, domineeringly brushing aside all this unnecessary trifling (Peter Walsh and his affairs) upon that subject which engaged her attention, and not merely her attention, but that fibre which was the ramrod of her soul, that essential part of her without which Millicent Bruton would not have been Millicent Bruton; that project for emigrating young people of both sexes born of respectable parents and setting them up with a fair prospect of doing well in Canada. She exaggerated. She had perhaps lost her sense of proportion. Emigration was not to others the obvious remedy, the sublime conception. It was not to them (not to Hugh, or Richard, or even to devoted Miss Brush) the liberator of the pent egotism, which a strong martial woman, well nourished, well descended, of direct impulses, downright feelings, and little introspective power (broad and simple—why could not every one be broad and simple? she asked) feels rise within her, once youth is past, and must eject <pb n="165" facs="pageImages/165.jpg"/> upon some object—it may be Emigration, it may be Emancipation; but whatever it be, this object round which the essence of her soul is daily secreted, becomes inevitably prismatic, lustrous, half looking-glass, half precious stone; now carefully hidden in case people should sneer at it; now proudly displayed. Emigration had become, in short, largely Lady Bruton.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>But she had to write. And one letter to the Times, she used to say to Miss Brush, cost her more than to organise an expedition to South Africa (which she had done in the war). After a morning’s battle beginning, tearing up, beginning again, she used to feel the futility of her own womanhood as she felt it on no other occasion, and would turn gratefully to the thought of Hugh Whitbread who possessed—no one could doubt it—the art of writing letters to the Times.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>A being so differently constituted from herself, with such a command of language; able to put things as editors like them put; had passions which one could not call simply greed. Lady Bruton often suspended judgement upon men in deference to the mysterious accord in which they, but no woman, stood to the laws of the universe; knew how to put things; knew what was said; so that if Richard <pb n="166" facs="pageImages/166.jpg"/> advised her, and Hugh wrote for her, she was sure of being somehow right. So she let Hugh eat his soufflé; asked after poor Evelyn; waited until they were smoking, and then said,</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“Milly, would you fetch the papers?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>And Miss Brush went out, came back; laid papers on the table; and Hugh produced his fountain pen; his silver fountain pen, which had done twenty years’ service, he said, unscrewing the cap. It was still in perfect order; he had shown it to the makers; there was no reason, they said, why it should ever wear out; which was somehow to Hugh’s credit, and to the credit of the sentiments which his pen expressed (so Richard Dalloway felt) as Hugh began carefully writing capital letters with rings round them in the margin, and thus marvellously reduced Lady Bruton’s tangles to sense, to grammar such as the editor of the Times, Lady Bruton felt, watching the marvellous transformation, must respect. Hugh was slow. Hugh was pertinacious. Richard said one must take risks. Hugh proposed modifications in deference to people’s feelings, which, he said rather tartly when Richard laughed, “had to be considered,” and read out “how, therefore, we are of opinion that the times are ripe ... the superfluous youth of our ever-increasing population <pb n="167" facs="pageImages/167.jpg"/> ... what we owe to the dead ...” which Richard thought all stuffing and bunkum, but no harm in it, of course, and Hugh went on drafting sentiments in alphabetical order of the highest nobility, brushing the cigar ash from his waistcoat, and summing up now and then the progress they had made until, finally, he read out the draft of a letter which Lady Bruton felt certain was a masterpiece. Could her own meaning sound like that?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>Hugh could not guarantee that the editor would put it in; but he would be meeting somebody at luncheon.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>Whereupon Lady Bruton, who seldom did a graceful thing, stuffed all Hugh’s carnations into the front of her dress, and flinging her hands out called him “My Prime Minister!” What she would have done without them both she did not know. They rose. And Richard Dalloway strolled off as usual to have a look at the General’s portrait, because he meant, whenever he had a moment of leisure, to write a history of Lady Bruton’s family.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>And Millicent Bruton was very proud of her family. But they could wait, they could wait, she said, looking at the picture; meaning that her family, of military men, administrators, admirals, had been men of action, who had done their duty; and <pb n="168" facs="pageImages/168.jpg"/> Richard’s first duty was to his country, but it was a fine face, she said; and all the papers were ready for Richard down at Aldmixton whenever the time came; the Labour Government she meant. “Ah, the news from India!” she cried.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>And then, as they stood in the hall taking yellow gloves from the bowl on the malachite table and Hugh was offering Miss Brush with quite unnecessary courtesy some discarded ticket or other compliment, which she loathed from the depths of her heart and blushed brick red, Richard turned to Lady Bruton, with his hat in his hand, and said,</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>“We shall see you at our party to-night?” whereupon Lady Bruton resumed the magnificence which letter-writing had shattered. She might come; or she might not come. Clarissa had wonderful energy. Parties terrified Lady Bruton. But then, she was getting old. So she intimated, standing at her doorway; handsome; very erect; while her chow stretched behind her, and Miss Brush disappeared into the background with her hands full of papers.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>And Lady Bruton went ponderously, majestically, up to her room, lay, one arm extended, on the sofa. She sighed, she snored, not that she was asleep, only drowsy and heavy, drowsy and heavy, like a field of <pb n="169" facs="pageImages/169.jpg"/> clover in the sunshine this hot June day, with the bees going round and about and the yellow butterflies. Always she went back to those fields down in Devonshire, where she had jumped the brooks on Patty, her pony, with Mortimer and Tom, her brothers. And there were the dogs; there were the rats; there were her father and mother on the lawn under the trees, with the tea-things out, and the beds of dahlias, the hollyhocks, the pampas grass; and they, little wretches, always up to some mischief! stealing back through the shrubbery, so as not to be seen, all bedraggled from some roguery. What old nurse used to say about her frocks!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Ah dear, she remembered—it was Wednesday in Brook Street. Those kind good fellows, Richard Dalloway, Hugh Whitbread, had gone this hot day through the streets whose growl came up to her lying on the sofa. Power was hers, position, income. She had lived in the forefront of her time. She had had good friends; known the ablest men of her day. Murmuring London flowed up to her, and her hand, lying on the sofa back, curled upon some imaginary baton such as her grandfathers might have held, holding which she seemed, drowsy and heavy, to be commanding battalions marching <pb n="170" facs="pageImages/170.jpg"/> to Canada, and those good fellows walking across London, that territory of theirs, that little bit of carpet, Mayfair.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>And they went further and further from her, being attached to her by a thin thread (since they had lunched with her) which would stretch and stretch, get thinner and thinner as they walked across London; as if one’s friends were attached to one’s body, after lunching with them, by a thin thread, which (as she dozed there) became hazy with the sound of bells, striking the hour or ringing to service, as a single spider’s thread is blotted with rain-drops, and, burdened, sags down. So she slept.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>And Richard Dalloway and Hugh Whitbread hesitated at the corner of Conduit Street at the very moment that Millicent Bruton, lying on the sofa, let the thread snap; snored. Contrary winds buffeted at the street corner. They looked in at a shop window; they did not wish to buy or to talk but to part, only with contrary winds buffeting the street corner, with some sort of lapse in the tides of the body, two forces meeting in a swirl, morning and afternoon, they paused. Some newspaper placard went up in the air, gallantly, like a kite at first, then paused, swooped, fluttered; and a lady’s veil <pb n="171" facs="pageImages/171.jpg"/> hung. Yellow awnings trembled. The speed of the morning traffic slackened, and single carts rattled carelessly down half-empty streets. In Norfolk, of which Richard Dalloway was half thinking, a soft warm wind blew back the petals; confused the waters; ruffled the flowering grasses. Haymakers, who had pitched beneath hedges to sleep away the morning toil, parted curtains of green blades; moved trembling globes of cow parsley to see the sky; the blue, the steadfast, the blazing summer sky.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>Aware that he was looking at a silver two-handled Jacobean mug, and that Hugh Whitbread admired condescendingly with airs of connoisseurship a Spanish necklace which he thought of asking the price of in case Evelyn might like it—still Richard was torpid; could not think or move. Life had thrown up this wreckage; shop windows full of coloured paste, and one stood stark with the lethargy of the old, stiff with the rigidity of the old, looking in. Evelyn Whitbread might like to buy this Spanish necklace—so she might. Yawn he must. Hugh was going into the shop.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“Right you are!” said Richard, following.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Goodness knows he didn’t want to go buying necklaces with Hugh. But there are tides in the body. Morning meets afternoon. Borne like a frail <pb n="172" facs="pageImages/172.jpg"/> shallop on deep, deep floods, Lady Bruton’s great-grandfather and his memoir and his campaigns in North America were whelmed and sunk. And Millicent Bruton too. She went under. Richard didn’t care a straw what became of Emigration; about that letter, whether the editor put it in or not. The necklace hung stretched between Hugh’s admirable fingers. Let him give it to a girl, if he must buy jewels—any girl, any girl in the street. For the worthlessness of this life did strike Richard pretty forcibly—buying necklaces for Evelyn. If he’d had a boy he’d have said, Work, work. But he had his Elizabeth; he adored his Elizabeth.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“I should like to see Mr. Dubonnet,” said Hugh in his curt worldly way. It appeared that this Dubonnet had the measurements of Mrs. Whitbread’s neck, or, more strangely still, knew her views upon Spanish jewellery and the extent of her possessions in that line (which Hugh could not remember). All of which seemed to Richard Dalloway awfully odd. For he never gave Clarissa presents, except a bracelet two or three years ago, which had not been a success. She never wore it. It pained him to remember that she never wore it. And as a single spider’s thread after wavering here and there attaches itself to the point of a leaf, so <pb n="173" facs="pageImages/173.jpg"/> Richard’s mind, recovering from its lethargy, set now on his wife, Clarissa, whom Peter Walsh had loved so passionately; and Richard had had a sudden vision of her there at luncheon; of himself and Clarissa; of their life together; and he drew the tray of old jewels towards him, and taking up first this brooch then that ring, “How much is that?” he asked, but doubted his own taste. He wanted to open the drawing-room door and come in holding out something; a present for Clarissa. Only what? But Hugh was on his legs again. He was unspeakably pompous. Really, after dealing here for thirty-five years he was not going to be put off by a mere boy who did not know his business. For Dubonnet, it seemed, was out, and Hugh would not buy anything until Mr. Dubonnet chose to be in; at which the youth flushed and bowed his correct little bow. It was all perfectly correct. And yet Richard couldn’t have said that to save his life! Why these people stood that damned insolence he could not conceive. Hugh was becoming an intolerable ass. Richard Dalloway could not stand more than an hour of his society. And, flicking his bowler hat by way of farewell, Richard turned at the corner of Conduit Street eager, yes, very eager, to travel that spider’s thread of attachment between <pb n="174" facs="pageImages/174.jpg"/> himself and Clarissa; he would go straight to her, in Westminster.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>But he wanted to come in holding something. Flowers? Yes, flowers, since he did not trust his taste in gold; any number of flowers, roses, orchids, to celebrate what was, reckoning things as you will, an event; this feeling about her when they spoke of Peter Walsh at luncheon; and they never spoke of it; not for years had they spoken of it; which, he thought, grasping his red and white roses together (a vast bunch in tissue paper), is the greatest mistake in the world. The time comes when it can’t be said; one’s too shy to say it, he thought, pocketing his sixpence or two of change, setting off with his great bunch held against his body to Westminster to say straight out in so many words (whatever she might think of him), holding out his flowers, “I love you.” Why not? Really it was a miracle thinking of the war, and thousands of poor chaps, with all their lives before them, shovelled together, already half forgotten; it was a miracle. Here he was walking across London to say to Clarissa in so many words that he loved her. Which one never does say, he thought. Partly one’s lazy; partly one’s shy. And Clarissa—it was difficult to think of her; except in starts, as at luncheon, when he <pb n="175" facs="pageImages/175.jpg"/> saw her quite distinctly; their whole life. He stopped at the crossing; and repeated—being simple by nature, and undebauched, because he had tramped, and shot; being pertinacious and dogged, having championed the down-trodden and followed his instincts in the House of Commons; being preserved in his simplicity yet at the same time grown rather speechless, rather stiff—he repeated that it was a miracle that he should have married Clarissa; a miracle—his life had been a miracle, he thought; hesitating to cross. But it did make his blood boil to see little creatures of five or six crossing Piccadilly alone. The police ought to have stopped the traffic at once. He had no illusions about the London police. Indeed, he was collecting evidence of their malpractices; and those costermongers, not allowed to stand their barrows in the streets; and prostitutes, good Lord, the fault wasn’t in them, nor in young men either, but in our detestable social system and so forth; all of which he considered, could be seen considering, grey, dogged, dapper, clean, as he walked across the Park to tell his wife that he loved her.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>For he would say it in so many words, when he came into the room. Because it is a thousand pities never to say what one feels, he thought, crossing the <pb n="176" facs="pageImages/176.jpg"/> Green Park and observing with pleasure how in the shade of the trees whole families, poor families, were sprawling; children kicking up their legs; sucking milk; paper bags thrown about, which could easily be picked up (if people objected) by one of those fat gentlemen in livery; for he was of opinion that every park, and every square, during the summer months should be open to children (the grass of the park flushed and faded, lighting up the poor mothers of Westminster and their crawling babies, as if a yellow lamp were moved beneath). But what could be done for female vagrants like that poor creature, stretched on her elbow (as if she had flung herself on the earth, rid of all ties, to observe curiously, to speculate boldly, to consider the whys and the wherefores, impudent, loose-lipped, humorous), he did not know. Bearing his flowers like a weapon, Richard Dalloway approached her; intent he passed her; still there was time for a spark between them—she laughed at the sight of him, he smiled good-humouredly, considering the problem of the female vagrant; not that they would ever speak. But he would tell Clarissa that he loved her, in so many words. He had, once upon a time, been jealous of Peter Walsh; jealous of him and Clarissa. But she had often said to him that she had been right not <pb n="177" facs="pageImages/177.jpg"/> to marry Peter Walsh; which, knowing Clarissa, was obviously true; she wanted support. Not that she was weak; but she wanted support.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>As for Buckingham Palace (like an old prima donna facing the audience all in white) you can’t deny it a certain dignity, he considered, nor despise what does, after all, stand to millions of people (a little crowd was waiting at the gate to see the King drive out) for a symbol, absurd though it is; a child with a box of bricks could have done better, he thought; looking at the memorial to Queen Victoria (whom he could remember in her horn spectacles driving through Kensington), its white mound, its billowing motherliness; but he liked being ruled by the descendant of Horsa; he liked continuity; and the sense of handing on the traditions of the past. It was a great age in which to have lived. Indeed, his own life was a miracle; let him make no mistake about it; here he was, in the prime of life, walking to his house in Westminster to tell Clarissa that he loved her. Happiness is this he thought.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>It is this, he said, as he entered Dean’s Yard. Big Ben was beginning to strike, first the warning, musical; then the hour, irrevocable. Lunch parties waste the entire afternoon, he thought, approaching his door.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>The sound of Big Ben flooded Clarissa’s drawing-room, where she sat, ever so annoyed, at her writing-table; worried; annoyed. It was perfectly true that she had not asked Ellie Henderson to her party; but she had done it on purpose. Now Mrs. Marsham wrote “she had told Ellie Henderson she would ask Clarissa—Ellie so much wanted to come.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>But why should she invite all the dull women in London to her parties? Why should Mrs. Marsham interfere? And there was Elizabeth closeted all this time with Doris Kilman. Anything more nauseating she could not conceive. Prayer at this hour with that woman. And the sound of the bell flooded the room with its melancholy wave; which receded, and gathered itself together to fall once more, when she heard, distractingly, something fumbling, something scratching at the door. Who at this hour? Three, good Heavens! Three already! For with overpowering directness and dignity the clock struck three; and she heard nothing else; but the door handle slipped round and in came Richard! What a surprise! In came Richard, holding out flowers. She had failed him, once at Constantinople; and Lady Bruton, whose lunch parties were said to be extraordinarily amusing, had not asked her. He was holding out flowers—roses, red and white roses. <pb n="179" facs="pageImages/179.jpg"/> (But he could not bring himself to say he loved her; not in so many words.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>But how lovely, she said, taking his flowers. She understood; she understood without his speaking; his Clarissa. She put them in vases on the mantelpiece. How lovely they looked! she said. And was it amusing, she asked? Had Lady Bruton asked after her? Peter Walsh was back. Mrs. Marsham had written. Must she ask Ellie Henderson? That woman Kilman was upstairs.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“But let us sit down for five minutes,” said Richard.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>It all looked so empty. All the chairs were against the wall. What had they been doing? Oh, it was for the party; no, he had not forgotten, the party. Peter Walsh was back. Oh yes; she had had him. And he was going to get a divorce; and he was in love with some woman out there. And he hadn’t changed in the slightest. There she was, mending her dress....</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“Thinking of Bourton,” she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“Hugh was at lunch,” said Richard. She had met him too! Well, he was getting absolutely intolerable. Buying Evelyn necklaces; fatter than ever; an intolerable ass.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“And it came over me ‘I might have married <pb n="180" facs="pageImages/180.jpg"/> you,’” she said, thinking of Peter sitting there in his little bow-tie; with that knife, opening it, shutting it. “Just as he always was, you know.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>They were talking about him at lunch, said Richard. (But he could not tell her he loved her. He held her hand. Happiness is this, he thought.) They had been writing a letter to the Times for Millicent Bruton. That was about all Hugh was fit for.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“And our dear Miss Kilman?” he asked. Clarissa thought the roses absolutely lovely; first bunched together; now of their own accord starting apart.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“Kilman arrives just as we’ve done lunch,” she said. “Elizabeth turns pink. They shut themselves up. I suppose they’re praying.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Lord! He didn’t like it; but these things pass over if you let them.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>“In a mackintosh with an umbrella,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>He had not said “I love you”; but he held her hand. Happiness is this, is this, he thought.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>“But why should I ask all the dull women in London to my parties?” said Clarissa. And if Mrs. Marsham gave a party, did she invite her guests?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“Poor Ellie Henderson,” said Richard—it was a very odd thing how much Clarissa minded about her parties, he thought.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>But Richard had no notion of the look of a room. However—what was he going to say?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>If she worried about these parties he would not let her give them. Did she wish she had married Peter? But he must go.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>He must be off, he said, getting up. But he stood for a moment as if he were about to say something; and she wondered what? Why? There were the roses.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“Some Committee?” she asked, as he opened the door.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>“Armenians,” he said; or perhaps it was “Albanians.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>And there is a dignity in people; a solitude; even between husband and wife a gulf; and that one must respect, thought Clarissa, watching him open the door; for one would not part with it oneself, or take it, against his will, from one’s husband, without losing one’s independence, one’s self-respect—something, after all, priceless.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>He returned with a pillow and a quilt.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“An hour’s complete rest after luncheon,” he said. And he went.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>How like him! He would go on saying “An hour’s complete rest after luncheon” to the end of time, because a doctor had ordered it once. It <pb n="182" facs="pageImages/182.jpg"/> was like him to take what doctors said literally; part of his adorable, divine simplicity, which no one had to the same extent; which made him go and do the thing while she and Peter frittered their time away bickering. He was already half-way to the House of Commons, to his Armenians, his Albanians, having settled her on the sofa, looking at his roses. And people would say, “Clarissa Dalloway is spoilt.” She cared much more for her roses than for the Armenians. Hunted out of existence, maimed, frozen, the victims of cruelty and injustice (she had heard Richard say so over and over again)—no, she could feel nothing for the Albanians, or was it the Armenians? but she loved her roses (didn’t that help the Armenians?)—the only flowers she could bear to see cut. But Richard was already at the House of Commons; at his Committee, having settled all her difficulties. But no; alas, that was not true. He did not see the reasons against asking Ellie Henderson. She would do it, of course, as he wished it. Since he had brought the pillows, she would lie down.... But—but—why did she suddenly feel, for no reason that she could discover, desperately unhappy? As a person who has dropped some grain of pearl or diamond into the grass and parts the tall blades very carefully, this way and that, and <pb n="183" facs="pageImages/183.jpg"/> searches here and there vainly, and at last spies it there at the roots, so she went through one thing and another; no, it was not Sally Seton saying that Richard would never be in the Cabinet because he had a second-class brain (it came back to her); no, she did not mind that; nor was it to do with Elizabeth either and Doris Kilman; those were facts. It was a feeling, some unpleasant feeling, earlier in the day perhaps; something that Peter had said, combined with some depression of her own, in her bedroom, taking off her hat; and what Richard had said had added to it, but what had he said? There were his roses. Her parties! That was it! Her parties! Both of them criticised her very unfairly, laughed at her very unjustly, for her parties. That was it! That was it!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>Well, how was she going to defend herself? Now that she knew what it was, she felt perfectly happy. They thought, or Peter at any rate thought, that she enjoyed imposing herself; liked to have famous people about her; great names; was simply a snob in short. Well, Peter might think so. Richard merely thought it foolish of her to like excitement when she knew it was bad for her heart. It was childish, he thought. And both were quite wrong. What she liked was simply life.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“That’s what I do it for,” she said, speaking aloud, to life.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Since she was lying on the sofa, cloistered, exempt, the presence of this thing which she felt to be so obvious became physically existent; with robes of sound from the street, sunny, with hot breath, whispering, blowing out the blinds. But suppose Peter said to her, “Yes, yes, but your parties—what’s the sense of your parties?” all she could say was (and nobody could be expected to understand): They’re an offering; which sounded horribly vague. But who was Peter to make out that life was all plain sailing?—Peter always in love, always in love with the wrong woman? What’s your love? she might say to him. And she knew his answer; how it is the most important thing in the world and no woman possibly understood it. Very well. But could any man understand what she meant either? about life? She could not imagine Peter or Richard taking the trouble to give a party for no reason whatever.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>But to go deeper, beneath what people said (and these judgements, how superficial, how fragmentary they are!) in her own mind now, what did it mean to her, this thing she called life? Oh, it was very queer. Here was So-and-so in South Kensington; <pb n="185" facs="pageImages/185.jpg"/> some one up in Bayswater; and somebody else, say, in Mayfair. And she felt quite continuously a sense of their existence; and she felt what a waste; and she felt what a pity; and she felt if only they could be brought together; so she did it. And it was an offering; to combine, to create; but to whom?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>An offering for the sake of offering, perhaps. Anyhow, it was her gift. Nothing else had she of the slightest importance; could not think, write, even play the piano. She muddled Armenians and Turks; loved success; hated discomfort; must be liked; talked oceans of nonsense: and to this day, ask her what the Equator was, and she did not know.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>All the same, that one day should follow another; Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday; that one should wake up in the morning; see the sky; walk in the park; meet Hugh Whitbread; then suddenly in came Peter; then these roses; it was enough. After that, how unbelievable death was!—that it must end; and no one in the whole world would know how she had loved it all; how, every instant....</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>The door opened. Elizabeth knew that her mother was resting. She came in very quietly. She stood perfectly still. Was it that some Mongol had been wrecked on the coast of Norfolk (as Mrs. Hilbery <pb n="186" facs="pageImages/186.jpg"/> said), had mixed with the Dalloway ladies, perhaps, a hundred years ago? For the Dalloways, in general, were fair-haired; blue-eyed; Elizabeth, on the contrary, was dark; had Chinese eyes in a pale face; an Oriental mystery; was gentle, considerate, still. As a child, she had had a perfect sense of humour; but now at seventeen, why, Clarissa could not in the least understand, she had become very serious; like a hyacinth, sheathed in glossy green, with buds just tinted, a hyacinth which has had no sun.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>She stood quite still and looked at her mother; but the door was ajar, and outside the door was Miss Kilman, as Clarissa knew; Miss Kilman in her mackintosh, listening to whatever they said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>Yes, Miss Kilman stood on the landing, and wore a mackintosh; but had her reasons. First, it was cheap; second, she was over forty; and did not, after all, dress to please. She was poor, moreover; degradingly poor. Otherwise she would not be taking jobs from people like the Dalloways; from rich people, who liked to be kind. Mr. Dalloway, to do him justice, had been kind. But Mrs. Dalloway had not. She had been merely condescending. She came from the most worthless of all classes—the rich, with a smattering of culture. They had expensive <pb n="187" facs="pageImages/187.jpg"/> things everywhere; pictures, carpets, lots of servants. She considered that she had a perfect right to anything that the Dalloways did for her.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>She had been cheated. Yes, the word was no exaggeration, for surely a girl has a right to some kind of happiness? And she had never been happy, what with being so clumsy and so poor. And then, just as she might have had a chance at Miss Dolby’s school, the war came; and she had never been able to tell lies. Miss Dolby thought she would be happier with people who shared her views about the Germans. She had had to go. It was true that the family was of German origin; spelt the name Kiehlman in the eighteenth century; but her brother had been killed. They turned her out because she would not pretend that the Germans were all villains—when she had German friends, when the only happy days of her life had been spent in Germany! And after all, she could read history. She had had to take whatever she could get. Mr. Dalloway had come across her working for the Friends. He had allowed her (and that was really generous of him) to teach his daughter history. Also she did a little Extension lecturing and so on. Then Our Lord had come to her (and here she always bowed her head). She had seen the light two years and three months <pb n="188" facs="pageImages/188.jpg"/> ago. Now she did not envy women like Clarissa Dalloway; she pitied them.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>She pitied and despised them from the bottom of her heart, as she stood on the soft carpet, looking at the old engraving of a little girl with a muff. With all this luxury going on, what hope was there for a better state of things? Instead of lying on a sofa—“My mother is resting,” Elizabeth had said—she should have been in a factory; behind a counter; Mrs. Dalloway and all the other fine ladies!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Bitter and burning, Miss Kilman had turned into a church two years three months ago. She had heard the Rev. Edward Whittaker preach; the boys sing; had seen the solemn lights descend, and whether it was the music, or the voices (she herself when alone in the evening found comfort in a violin; but the sound was excruciating; she had no ear), the hot and turbulent feelings which boiled and surged in her had been assuaged as she sat there, and she had wept copiously, and gone to call on Mr. Whittaker at his private house in Kensington. It was the hand of God, he said. The Lord had shown her the way. So now, whenever the hot and painful feelings boiled within her, this hatred of Mrs. Dalloway, this grudge against the world, she thought of God. She thought of Mr. Whittaker. <pb n="189" facs="pageImages/189.jpg"/> Rage was succeeded by calm. A sweet savour filled her veins, her lips parted, and, standing formidable upon the landing in her mackintosh, she looked with steady and sinister serenity at Mrs. Dalloway, who came out with her daughter.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>Elizabeth said she had forgotten her gloves. That was because Miss Kilman and her mother hated each other. She could not bear to see them together. She ran upstairs to find her gloves.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>But Miss Kilman did not hate Mrs. Dalloway. Turning her large gooseberry-coloured eyes upon Clarissa, observing her small pink face, her delicate body, her air of freshness and fashion, Miss Kilman felt, Fool! Simpleton! You who have known neither sorrow nor pleasure; who have trifled your life away! And there rose in her an overmastering desire to overcome her; to unmask her. If she could have felled her it would have eased her. But it was not the body; it was the soul and its mockery that she wished to subdue; make feel her mastery. If only she could make her weep; could ruin her; humiliate her; bring her to her knees crying, You are right! But this was God’s will, not Miss Kilman’s. It was to be a religious victory. So she glared; so she glowered.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>Clarissa was really shocked. This a Christian—this <pb n="190" facs="pageImages/190.jpg"/> woman! This woman had taken her daughter from her! She in touch with invisible presences! Heavy, ugly, commonplace, without kindness or grace, she know the meaning of life!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>“You are taking Elizabeth to the Stores?” Mrs. Dalloway said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>Miss Kilman said she was. They stood there. Miss Kilman was not going to make herself agreeable. She had always earned her living. Her knowledge of modern history was thorough in the extreme. She did out of her meagre income set aside so much for causes she believed in; whereas this woman did nothing, believed nothing; brought up her daughter—but here was Elizabeth, rather out of breath, the beautiful girl.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>So they were going to the Stores. Odd it was, as Miss Kilman stood there (and stand she did, with the power and taciturnity of some prehistoric monster armoured for primeval warfare), how, second by second, the idea of her diminished, how hatred (which was for ideas, not people) crumbled, how she lost her malignity, her size, became second by second merely Miss Kilman, in a mackintosh, whom Heaven knows Clarissa would have liked to help.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>Off they went together, Miss Kilman and Elizabeth, downstairs.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>With a sudden impulse, with a violent anguish, for this woman was taking her daughter from her, Clarissa leant over the bannisters and cried out, “Remember the party! Remember our party to-night!”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>But Elizabeth had already opened the front door; there was a van passing; she did not answer.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Love and religion! thought Clarissa, going back into the drawing-room, tingling all over. How detestable, how detestable they are! For now that the body of Miss Kilman was not before her, it overwhelmed her—the idea. The cruelest things in the world, she thought, seeing them clumsy, hot, domineering, hypocritical, eavesdropping, jealous, infinitely cruel and unscrupulous, dressed in a mackintosh coat, on the landing; love and religion. Had she ever tried to convert any one herself? Did she not wish everybody merely to be themselves? And she watched out of the window the old lady opposite climbing upstairs. Let her climb upstairs if she wanted to; let her stop; then let her, as Clarissa had often seen her, gain her bedroom, part her curtains, and disappear again into the background. Somehow one respected that—that old <pb n="192" facs="pageImages/192.jpg"/> woman looking out of the window, quite unconscious that she was being watched. There was something solemn in it—but love and religion would destroy that, whatever it was, the privacy of the soul. The odious Kilman would destroy it. Yet it was a sight that made her want to cry.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>Love destroyed too. Everything that was fine, everything that was true went. Take Peter Walsh now. There was a man, charming, clever, with ideas about everything. If you wanted to know about Pope, say, or Addison, or just to talk nonsense, what people were like, what things meant, Peter knew better than any one. It was Peter who had helped her; Peter who had lent her books. But look at the women he loved—vulgar, trivial, commonplace. Think of Peter in love—he came to see her after all these years, and what did he talk about? Himself. Horrible passion! she thought. Degrading passion! she thought, thinking of Kilman and her Elizabeth walking to the Army and Navy Stores.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>Big Ben struck the half-hour.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>How extraordinary it was, strange, yes, touching, to see the old lady (they had been neighbours ever so many years) move away from the window, as if she were attached to that sound, that string. Gigantic as it was, it had something to do with her. <pb n="193" facs="pageImages/193.jpg"/> Down, down, into the midst of ordinary things the finger fell making the moment solemn. She was forced, so Clarissa imagined, by that sound, to move, to go—but where? Clarissa tried to follow her as she turned and disappeared, and could still just see her white cap moving at the back of the bedroom. She was still there moving about at the other end of the room. Why creeds and prayers and mackintoshes? when, thought Clarissa, that’s the miracle, that’s the mystery; that old lady, she meant, whom she could see going from chest of drawers to dressing-table. She could still see her. And the supreme mystery which Kilman might say she had solved, or Peter might say he had solved, but Clarissa didn’t believe either of them had the ghost of an idea of solving, was simply this: here was one room; there another. Did religion solve that, or love?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>Love—but here the other clock, the clock which always struck two minutes after Big Ben, came shuffling in with its lap full of odds and ends, which it dumped down as if Big Ben were all very well with his majesty laying down the law, so solemn, so just, but she must remember all sorts of little things besides—Mrs. Marsham, Ellie Henderson, glasses for ices—all sorts of little things came flooding and lapping and dancing in on the wake of that solemn <pb n="194" facs="pageImages/194.jpg"/> stroke which lay flat like a bar of gold on the sea. Mrs. Marsham, Ellie Henderson, glasses for ices. She must telephone now at once.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Volubly, troublously, the late clock sounded, coming in on the wake of Big Ben, with its lap full of trifles. Beaten up, broken up by the assault of carriages, the brutality of vans, the eager advance of myriads of angular men, of flaunting women, the domes and spires of offices and hospitals, the last relics of this lap full of odds and ends seemed to break, like the spray of an exhausted wave, upon the body of Miss Kilman standing still in the street for a moment to mutter “It is the flesh.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>It was the flesh that she must control. Clarissa Dalloway had insulted her. That she expected. But she had not triumphed; she had not mastered the flesh. Ugly, clumsy, Clarissa Dalloway had laughed at her for being that; and had revived the fleshly desires, for she minded looking as she did beside Clarissa. Nor could she talk as she did. But why wish to resemble her? Why? She despised Mrs. Dalloway from the bottom of her heart. She was not serious. She was not good. Her life was a tissue of vanity and deceit. Yet Doris Kilman had been overcome. She had, as a matter of fact, very nearly burst into tears when Clarissa Dalloway <pb n="195" facs="pageImages/195.jpg"/> laughed at her. “It is the flesh, it is the flesh,” she muttered (it being her habit to talk aloud) trying to subdue this turbulent and painful feeling as she walked down Victoria Street. She prayed to God. She could not help being ugly; she could not afford to buy pretty clothes. Clarissa Dalloway had laughed—but she would concentrate her mind upon something else until she had reached the pillar-box. At any rate she had got Elizabeth. But she would think of something else; she would think of Russia; until she reached the pillar-box.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>How nice it must be, she said, in the country, struggling, as Mr. Whittaker had told her, with that violent grudge against the world which had scorned her, sneered at her, cast her off, beginning with this indignity—the infliction of her unlovable body which people could not bear to see. Do her hair as she might, her forehead remained like an egg, bald, white. No clothes suited her. She might buy anything. And for a woman, of course, that meant never meeting the opposite sex. Never would she come first with any one. Sometimes lately it had seemed to her that, except for Elizabeth, her food was all that she lived for; her comforts; her dinner, her tea; her hot-water bottle at night. But one must fight; vanquish; have faith in God. Mr. Whittaker <pb n="196" facs="pageImages/196.jpg"/> had said she was there for a purpose. But no one knew the agony! He said, pointing to the crucifix, that God knew. But why should she have to suffer when other women, like Clarissa Dalloway, escaped? Knowledge comes through suffering, said Mr. Whittaker.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>She had passed the pillar-box, and Elizabeth had turned into the cool brown tobacco department of the Army and Navy Stores while she was still muttering to herself what Mr. Whittaker had said about knowledge coming through suffering and the flesh. “The flesh,” she muttered.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>What department did she want? Elizabeth interrupted her.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“Petticoats,” she said abruptly, and stalked straight on to the lift.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>Up they went. Elizabeth guided her this way and that; guided her in her abstraction as if she had been a great child, an unwieldy battleship. There were the petticoats, brown, decorous, striped, frivolous, solid, flimsy; and she chose, in her abstraction, portentously, and the girl serving thought her mad.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Elizabeth rather wondered, as they did up the parcel, what Miss Kilman was thinking. They must <pb n="197" facs="pageImages/197.jpg"/> have their tea, said Miss Kilman, rousing, collecting herself. They had their tea.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>Elizabeth rather wondered whether Miss Kilman could be hungry. It was her way of eating, eating with intensity, then looking, again and again, at a plate of sugared cakes on the table next them; then, when a lady and a child sat down and the child took the cake, could Miss Kilman really mind it? Yes, Miss Kilman did mind it. She had wanted that cake—the pink one. The pleasure of eating was almost the only pure pleasure left her, and then to be baffled even in that!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>When people are happy, they have a reserve, she had told Elizabeth, upon which to draw, whereas she was like a wheel without a tyre (she was fond of such metaphors), jolted by every pebble, so she would say staying on after the lesson standing by the fireplace with her bag of books, her “satchel,” she called it, on a Tuesday morning, after the lesson was over. And she talked too about the war. After all, there were people who did not think the English invariably right. There were books. There were meetings. There were other points of view. Would Elizabeth like to come with her to listen to So-and-so (a most extraordinary looking old man)? <pb n="198" facs="pageImages/198.jpg"/> Then Miss Kilman took her to some church in Kensington and they had tea with a clergyman. She had lent her books. Law, medicine, politics, all professions are open to women of your generation, said Miss Kilman. But for herself, her career was absolutely ruined and was it her fault? Good gracious, said Elizabeth, no.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>And her mother would come calling to say that a hamper had come from Bourton and would Miss Kilman like some flowers? To Miss Kilman she was always very, very nice, but Miss Kilman squashed the flowers all in a bunch, and hadn’t any small talk, and what interested Miss Kilman bored her mother, and Miss Kilman and she were terrible together; and Miss Kilman swelled and looked very plain. But then Miss Kilman was frightfully clever. Elizabeth had never thought about the poor. They lived with everything they wanted,—her mother had breakfast in bed every day; Lucy carried it up; and she liked old women because they were Duchesses, and being descended from some Lord. But Miss Kilman said (one of those Tuesday mornings when the lesson was over), “My grandfather kept an oil and colour shop in Kensington.” Miss Kilman made one feel so small.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Miss Kilman took another cup of tea. Elizabeth, <pb n="199" facs="pageImages/199.jpg"/> with her oriental bearing, her inscrutable mystery, sat perfectly upright; no, she did not want anything more. She looked for her gloves—her white gloves. They were under the table. Ah, but she must not go! Miss Kilman could not let her go! this youth, that was so beautiful, this girl, whom she genuinely loved! Her large hand opened and shut on the table.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>But perhaps it was a little flat somehow, Elizabeth felt. And really she would like to go.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>But said Miss Kilman, “I’ve not quite finished yet.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>Of course, then, Elizabeth would wait. But it was rather stuffy in here.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“Are you going to the party to-night?” Miss Kilman said. Elizabeth supposed she was going; her mother wanted her to go. She must not let parties absorb her, Miss Kilman said, fingering the last two inches of a chocolate éclair.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>She did not much like parties, Elizabeth said. Miss Kilman opened her mouth, slightly projected her chin, and swallowed down the last inches of the chocolate éclair, then wiped her fingers, and washed the tea round in her cup.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>She was about to split asunder, she felt. The agony was so terrific. If she could grasp her, if she <pb n="200" facs="pageImages/200.jpg"/> could clasp her, if she could make her hers absolutely and forever and then die; that was all she wanted. But to sit here, unable to think of anything to say; to see Elizabeth turning against her; to be felt repulsive even by her—it was too much; she could not stand it. The thick fingers curled inwards.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“I never go to parties,” said Miss Kilman, just to keep Elizabeth from going. “People don’t ask me to parties”—and she knew as she said it that it was this egotism that was her undoing; Mr. Whittaker had warned her; but she could not help it. She had suffered so horribly. “Why should they ask me?” she said. “I’m plain, I’m unhappy.” She knew it was idiotic. But it was all those people passing—people with parcels who despised her, who made her say it. However, she was Doris Kilman. She had her degree. She was a woman who had made her way in the world. Her knowledge of modern history was more than respectable.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“I don’t pity myself,” she said. “I pity”—she meant to say “your mother” but no, she could not, not to Elizabeth. “I pity other people,” she said, “more.”</p>

         <p>Like some dumb creature who has been brought up to a gate for an unknown purpose, and stands <pb n="201" facs="pageImages/201.jpg"/> there longing to gallop away, Elizabeth Dalloway sat silent. Was Miss Kilman going to say anything more?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“Don’t quite forget me,” said Doris Kilman; her voice quivered. Right away to the end of the field the dumb creature galloped in terror.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>The great hand opened and shut.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Elizabeth turned her head. The waitress came. One had to pay at the desk, Elizabeth said, and went off, drawing out, so Miss Kilman felt, the very entrails in her body, stretching them as she crossed the room, and then, with a final twist, bowing her head very politely, she went.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>She had gone. Miss Kilman sat at the marble table among the éclairs, stricken once, twice, thrice by shocks of suffering. She had gone. Mrs. Dalloway had triumphed. Elizabeth had gone. Beauty had gone, youth had gone.</p>
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>So she sat. She got up, blundered off among the little tables, rocking slightly from side to side, and somebody came after her with her petticoat, and she lost her way, and was hemmed in by trunks specially prepared for taking to India; next got among the accouchement sets, and baby linen; through all the commodities of the world, perishable and permanent, hams, drugs, flowers, stationery, variously smelling, <pb n="202" facs="pageImages/202.jpg"/> now sweet, now sour she lurched; saw herself thus lurching with her hat askew, very red in the face, full length in a looking-glass; and at last came out into the street.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>The tower of Westminster Cathedral rose in front of her, the habitation of God. In the midst of the traffic, there was the habitation of God. Doggedly she set off with her parcel to that other sanctuary, the Abbey, where, raising her hands in a tent before her face, she sat beside those driven into shelter too; the variously assorted worshippers, now divested of social rank, almost of sex, as they raised their hands before their faces; but once they removed them, instantly reverent, middle class, English men and women, some of them desirous of seeing the wax works.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>But Miss Kilman held her tent before her face. Now she was deserted; now rejoined. New worshippers came in from the street to replace the strollers, and still, as people gazed round and shuffled past the tomb of the Unknown Warrior, still she barred her eyes with her fingers and tried in this double darkness, for the light in the Abbey was bodiless, to aspire above the vanities, the desires, the commodities, to rid herself both of hatred and of love. Her hands twitched. She seemed to <pb n="203" facs="pageImages/203.jpg"/> struggle. Yet to others God was accessible and the path to Him smooth. Mr. Fletcher, retired, of the Treasury, Mrs. Gorham, widow of the famous K.C., approached Him simply, and having done their praying, leant back, enjoyed the music (the organ pealed sweetly), and saw Miss Kilman at the end of the row, praying, praying, and, being still on the threshold of their underworld, thought of her sympathetically as a soul haunting the same territory; a soul cut out of immaterial substance; not a woman, a soul.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>But Mr. Fletcher had to go. He had to pass her, and being himself neat as a new pin, could not help being a little distressed by the poor lady’s disorder; her hair down; her parcel on the floor. She did not at once let him pass. But, as he stood gazing about him, at the white marbles, grey window panes, and accumulated treasures (for he was extremely proud of the Abbey), her largeness, robustness, and power as she sat there shifting her knees from time to time (it was so rough the approach to her God—so tough her desires) impressed him, as they had impressed Mrs. Dalloway (she could not get the thought of her out of her mind that afternoon), the Rev. Edward Whittaker, and Elizabeth too.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>And Elizabeth waited in Victoria Street for an <pb n="204" facs="pageImages/204.jpg"/> omnibus. It was so nice to be out of doors. She thought perhaps she need not go home just yet. It was so nice to be out in the air. So she would get on to an omnibus. And already, even as she stood there, in her very well cut clothes, it was beginning.... People were beginning to compare her to poplar trees, early dawn, hyacinths, fawns, running water, and garden lilies; and it made her life a burden to her, for she so much preferred being left alone to do what she liked in the country, but they would compare her to lilies, and she had to go to parties, and London was so dreary compared with being alone in the country with her father and the dogs.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>Buses swooped, settled, were off—garish caravans, glistening with red and yellow varnish. But which should she get on to? She had no preferences. Of course, she would not push her way. She inclined to be passive. It was expression she needed, but her eyes were fine, Chinese, oriental, and, as her mother said, with such nice shoulders and holding herself so straight, she was always charming to look at; and lately, in the evening especially, when she was interested, for she never seemed excited, she looked almost beautiful, very stately, very serene. What could she be thinking? Every man fell in <pb n="205" facs="pageImages/205.jpg"/> love with her, and she was really awfully bored. For it was beginning. Her mother could see that—the compliments were beginning. That she did not care more about it—for instance for her clothes—sometimes worried Clarissa, but perhaps it was as well with all those puppies and guinea pigs about having distemper, and it gave her a charm. And now there was this odd friendship with Miss Kilman. Well, thought Clarissa about three o’clock in the morning, reading Baron Marbot for she could not sleep, it proves she has a heart.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>Suddenly Elizabeth stepped forward and most competently boarded the omnibus, in front of everybody. She took a seat on top. The impetuous creature—a pirate—started forward, sprang away; she had to hold the rail to steady herself, for a pirate it was, reckless, unscrupulous, bearing down ruthlessly, circumventing dangerously, boldly snatching a passenger, or ignoring a passenger, squeezing eel-like and arrogant in between, and then rushing insolently all sails spread up Whitehall. And did Elizabeth give one thought to poor Miss Kilman who loved her without jealousy, to whom she had been a fawn in the open, a moon in a glade? She was delighted to be free. The fresh air was so delicious. It had been so stuffy in the Army and Navy Stores. <pb n="206" facs="pageImages/206.jpg"/> And now it was like riding, to be rushing up Whitehall; and to each movement of the omnibus the beautiful body in the fawn-coloured coat responded freely like a rider, like the figurehead of a ship, for the breeze slightly disarrayed her; the heat gave her cheeks the pallor of white painted wood; and her fine eyes, having no eyes to meet, gazed ahead, blank, bright, with the staring incredible innocence of sculpture.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>It was always talking about her own sufferings that made Miss Kilman so difficult. And was she right? If it was being on committees and giving up hours and hours every day (she hardly ever saw him in London) that helped the poor, her father did that, goodness knows,—if that was what Miss Kilman meant about being a Christian; but it was so difficult to say. Oh, she would like to go a little further. Another penny was it to the Strand? Here was another penny then. She would go up the Strand.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>She liked people who were ill. And every profession is open to the women of your generation, said Miss Kilman. So she might be a doctor. She might be a farmer. Animals are often ill. She might own a thousand acres and have people under her. She would go and see them in their cottages. This <pb n="207" facs="pageImages/207.jpg"/> was Somerset House. One might be a very good farmer—and that, strangely enough though Miss Kilman had her share in it, was almost entirely due to Somerset House. It looked so splendid, so serious, that great grey building. And she liked the feeling of people working. She liked those churches, like shapes of grey paper, breasting the stream of the Strand. It was quite different here from Westminster, she thought, getting off at Chancery Lane. It was so serious; it was so busy. In short, she would like to have a profession. She would become a doctor, a farmer, possibly go into Parliament, if she found it necessary, all because of the Strand.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>The feet of those people busy about their activities, hands putting stone to stone, minds eternally occupied not with trivial chatterings (comparing women to poplars—which was rather exciting, of course, but very silly), but with thoughts of ships, of business, of law, of administration, and with it all so stately (she was in the Temple), gay (there was the river), pious (there was the Church), made her quite determined, whatever her mother might say, to become either a farmer or a doctor. But she was, of course, rather lazy.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        </p>
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>And it was much better to say nothing about it. It seemed so silly. It was the sort of thing that did <pb n="208" facs="pageImages/208.jpg"/> sometimes happen, when one was alone—buildings without architects’ names, crowds of people coming back from the city having more power than single clergymen in Kensington, than any of the books Miss Kilman had lent her, to stimulate what lay slumbrous, clumsy, and shy on the mind’s sandy floor to break surface, as a child suddenly stretches its arms; it was just that, perhaps, a sigh, a stretch of the arms, an impulse, a revelation, which has its effects for ever, and then down again it went to the sandy floor. She must go home. She must dress for dinner. But what was the time?—where was a clock?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>She looked up Fleet Street. She walked just a little way towards St. Paul’s, shyly, like some one penetrating on tiptoe, exploring a strange house by night with a candle, on edge lest the owner should suddenly fling wide his bedroom door and ask her business, nor did she dare wander off into queer alleys, tempting bye-streets, any more than in a strange house open doors which might be bedroom doors, or sitting-room doors, or lead straight to the larder. For no Dalloways came down the Strand daily; she was a pioneer, a stray, venturing, trusting.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>In many ways, her mother felt, she was extremely <pb n="209" facs="pageImages/209.jpg"/> immature, like a child still, attached to dolls, to old slippers; a perfect baby; and that was charming. But then, of course, there was in the Dalloway family the tradition of public service. Abbesses, principals, head mistresses, dignitaries, in the republic of women—without being brilliant, any of them, they were that. She penetrated a little further in the direction of St. Paul’s. She liked the geniality, sisterhood, motherhood, brotherhood of this uproar. It seemed to her good. The noise was tremendous; and suddenly there were trumpets (the unemployed) blaring, rattling about in the uproar; military music; as if people were marching; yet had they been dying—had some woman breathed her last and whoever was watching, opening the window of the room where she had just brought off that act of supreme dignity, looked down on Fleet Street, that uproar, that military music would have come triumphing up to him, consolatory, indifferent.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>It was not conscious. There was no recognition in it of one fortune, or fate, and for that very reason even to those dazed with watching for the last shivers of consciousness on the faces of the dying, consoling. Forgetfulness in people might wound, their ingratitude corrode, but this voice, pouring endlessly, year in year out, would take whatever it <pb n="210" facs="pageImages/210.jpg"/> might be; this vow; this van; this life; this procession, would wrap them all about and carry them on, as in the rough stream of a glacier the ice holds a splinter of bone, a blue petal, some oak trees, and rolls them on.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>But it was later than she thought. Her mother would not like her to be wandering off alone like this. She turned back down the Strand.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>A puff of wind (in spite of the heat, there was quite a wind) blew a thin black veil over the sun and over the Strand. The faces faded; the omnibuses suddenly lost their glow. For although the clouds were of mountainous white so that one could fancy hacking hard chips off with a hatchet, with broad golden slopes, lawns of celestial pleasure gardens, on their flanks, and had all the appearance of settled habitations assembled for the conference of gods above the world, there was a perpetual movement among them. Signs were interchanged, when, as if to fulfil some scheme arranged already, now a summit dwindled, now a whole block of pyramidal size which had kept its station inalterably advanced into the midst or gravely led the procession to fresh anchorage. Fixed though they seemed at their posts, at rest in perfect unanimity, nothing could be fresher, freer, more sensitive superficially <pb n="211" facs="pageImages/211.jpg"/> than the snow-white or gold-kindled surface; to change, to go, to dismantle the solemn assemblage was immediately possible; and in spite of the grave fixity, the accumulated robustness and solidity, now they struck light to the earth, now darkness.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>Calmly and competently, Elizabeth Dalloway mounted the Westminster omnibus.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>Going and coming, beckoning, signalling, so the light and shadow which now made the wall grey, now the bananas bright yellow, now made the Strand grey, now made the omnibuses bright yellow, seemed to Septimus Warren Smith lying on the sofa in the sitting-room; watching the watery gold glow and fade with the astonishing sensibility of some live creature on the roses, on the wall-paper. Outside the trees dragged their leaves like nets through the depths of the air; the sound of water was in the room and through the waves came the voices of birds singing. Every power poured its treasures on his head, and his hand lay there on the back of the sofa, as he had seen his hand lie when he was bathing, floating, on the top of the waves, while far away on shore he heard dogs barking and barking far away. Fear no more, says the heart in the body; fear no more.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>He was not afraid. At every moment Nature signified <pb n="212" facs="pageImages/212.jpg"/> by some laughing hint like that gold spot which went round the wall—there, there, there—her determination to show, by brandishing her plumes, shaking her tresses, flinging her mantle this way and that, beautifully, always beautifully, and standing close up to breathe through her hollowed hands Shakespeare’s words, her meaning.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>Rezia, sitting at the table twisting a hat in her hands, watched him; saw him smiling. He was happy then. But she could not bear to see him smiling. It was not marriage; it was not being one’s husband to look strange like that, always to be starting, laughing, sitting hour after hour silent, or clutching her and telling her to write. The table drawer was full of those writings; about war; about Shakespeare; about great discoveries; how there is no death. Lately he had become excited suddenly for no reason (and both Dr. Holmes and Sir William Bradshaw said excitement was the worst thing for him), and waved his hands and cried out that he knew the truth! He knew everything! That man, his friend who was killed, Evans, had come, he said. He was singing behind the screen. She wrote it down just as he spoke it. Some things were very beautiful; others sheer nonsense. And he was always stopping in the middle, changing his mind; <pb n="213" facs="pageImages/213.jpg"/> wanting to add something; hearing something new; listening with his hand up.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>But she heard nothing.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>And once they found the girl who did the room reading one of these papers in fits of laughter. It was a dreadful pity. For that made Septimus cry out about human cruelty—how they tear each other to pieces. The fallen, he said, they tear to pieces. “Holmes is on us,” he would say, and he would invent stories about Holmes; Holmes eating porridge; Holmes reading Shakespeare—making himself roar with laughter or rage, for Dr. Holmes seemed to stand for something horrible to him. “Human nature,” he called him. Then there were the visions. He was drowned, he used to say, and lying on a cliff with the gulls screaming over him. He would look over the edge of the sofa down into the sea. Or he was hearing music. Really it was only a barrel organ or some man crying in the street. But “Lovely!” he used to cry, and the tears would run down his cheeks, which was to her the most dreadful thing of all, to see a man like Septimus, who had fought, who was brave, crying. And he would lie listening until suddenly he would cry that he was falling down, down into the flames! Actually she would look for flames, it was so vivid. <pb n="214" facs="pageImages/214.jpg"/> But there was nothing. They were alone in the room. It was a dream, she would tell him and so quiet him at last, but sometimes she was frightened too. She sighed as she sat sewing.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>Her sigh was tender and enchanting, like the wind outside a wood in the evening. Now she put down her scissors; now she turned to take something from the table. A little stir, a little crinkling, a little tapping built up something on the table there, where she sat sewing. Through his eyelashes he could see her blurred outline; her little black body; her face and hands; her turning movements at the table, as she took up a reel, or looked (she was apt to lose things) for her silk. She was making a hat for Mrs. Filmer’s married daughter, whose name was—he had forgotten her name.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>“What is the name of Mrs. Filmer’s married daughter?” he asked.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“Mrs. Peters,” said Rezia. She was afraid it was too small, she said, holding it before her. Mrs. Peters was a big woman; but she did not like her. It was only because Mrs. Filmer had been so good to them. “She gave me grapes this morning,” she said—that Rezia wanted to do something to show that they were grateful. She had come into the <pb n="215" facs="pageImages/215.jpg"/> room the other evening and found Mrs. Peters, who thought they were out, playing the gramophone.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“Was it true?” he asked. She was playing the gramophone? Yes; she had told him about it at the time; she had found Mrs. Peters playing the gramophone.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>He began, very cautiously, to open his eyes, to see whether a gramophone was really there. But real things—real things were too exciting. He must be cautious. He would not go mad. First he looked at the fashion papers on the lower shelf, then, gradually at the gramophone with the green trumpet. Nothing could be more exact. And so, gathering courage, he looked at the sideboard; the plate of bananas; the engraving of Queen Victoria and the Prince Consort; at the mantelpiece, with the jar of roses. None of these things moved. All were still; all were real.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>“She is a woman with a spiteful tongue,” said Rezia.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“What does Mr. Peters do?” Septimus asked.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“Ah,” said Rezia, trying to remember. She thought Mrs. Filmer had said that he travelled for some company. “Just now he is in Hull,” she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>“Just now!” She said that with her Italian accent. <pb n="216" facs="pageImages/216.jpg"/> She said that herself. He shaded his eyes so that he might see only a little of her face at a time, first the chin, then the nose, then the forehead, in case it were deformed, or had some terrible mark on it. But no, there she was, perfectly natural, sewing, with the pursed lips that women have, the set, the melancholy expression, when sewing. But there was nothing terrible about it, he assured himself, looking a second time, a third time at her face, her hands, for what was frightening or disgusting in her as she sat there in broad daylight, sewing? Mrs. Peters had a spiteful tongue. Mr. Peters was in Hull. Why then rage and prophesy? Why fly scourged and outcast? Why be made to tremble and sob by the clouds? Why seek truths and deliver messages when Rezia sat sticking pins into the front of her dress, and Mr. Peters was in Hull? Miracles, revelations, agonies, loneliness, falling through the sea, down, down into the flames, all were burnt out, for he had a sense, as he watched Rezia trimming the straw hat for Mrs. Peters, of a coverlet of flowers.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>“It’s too small for Mrs. Peters,” said Septimus.</p>

         <p>For the first time for days he was speaking as he used to do! Of course it was—absurdly small, she said. But Mrs. Peters had chosen it.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>He took it out of her hands. He said it was an organ grinder’s monkey’s hat.

How it rejoiced her that! Not for weeks had they laughed like this together, poking fun privately like married people. What she meant was that if Mrs. Filmer had come in, or Mrs. Peters or anybody they would not have understood what she and Septimus were laughing at.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“There,” she said, pinning a rose to one side of the hat. Never had she felt so happy! Never in her life!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>But that was still more ridiculous, Septimus said. Now the poor woman looked like a pig at a fair. (Nobody ever made her laugh as Septimus did.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>What had she got in her work-box? She had ribbons and beads, tassels, artificial flowers. She tumbled them out on the table. He began putting odd colours together—for though he had no fingers, could not even do up a parcel, he had a wonderful eye, and often he was right, sometimes absurd, of course, but sometimes wonderfully right.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>“She shall have a beautiful hat!” he murmured, taking up this and that, Rezia kneeling by his side, looking over his shoulder. Now it was finished—that is to say the design; she must stitch it together. <pb n="218" facs="pageImages/218.jpg"/> But she must be very, very careful, he said, to keep it just as he had made it.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>So she sewed. When she sewed, he thought, she made a sound like a kettle on the hob; bubbling, murmuring, always busy, her strong little pointed fingers pinching and poking; her needle flashing straight. The sun might go in and out, on the tassels, on the wall-paper, but he would wait, he thought, stretching out his feet, looking at his ringed sock at the end of the sofa; he would wait in this warm place, this pocket of still air, which one comes on at the edge of a wood sometimes in the evening, when, because of a fall in the ground, or some arrangement of the trees (one must be scientific above all, scientific), warmth lingers, and the air buffets the cheek like the wing of a bird.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>“There it is,” said Rezia, twirling Mrs. Peters’ hat on the tips of her fingers. “That’ll do for the moment. Later ...” her sentence bubbled away drip, drip, drip, like a contented tap left running.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>It was wonderful. Never had he done anything which made him feel so proud. It was so real, it was so substantial, Mrs. Peters’ hat.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“Just look at it,” he said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>Yes, it would always make her happy to see that hat. He had become himself then, he had laughed <pb n="219" facs="pageImages/219.jpg"/> then. They had been alone together. Always she would like that hat.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>He told her to try it on.

“But I must look so queer!” she cried, running over to the glass and looking first this side then that. Then she snatched it off again, for there was a tap at the door. Could it be Sir William Bradshaw? Had he sent already?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>No! it was only the small girl with the evening paper.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>What always happened, then happened—what happened every night of their lives. The small girl sucked her thumb at the door; Rezia went down on her knees; Rezia cooed and kissed; Rezia got a bag of sweets out of the table drawer. For so it always happened. First one thing, then another. So she built it up, first one thing and then another. Dancing, skipping, round and round the room they went. He took the paper. Surrey was all out, he read. There was a heat wave. Rezia repeated: Surrey was all out. There was a heat wave, making it part of the game she was playing with Mrs. Filmer’s grandchild, both of them laughing, chattering at the same time, at their game. He was very tired. He was very happy. He would sleep. He shut his eyes. But directly he saw nothing the <pb n="220" facs="pageImages/220.jpg"/> sounds of the game became fainter and stranger and sounded like the cries of people seeking and not finding, and passing further and further away. They had lost him!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>He started up in terror. What did he see? The plate of bananas on the sideboard. Nobody was there (Rezia had taken the child to its mother. It was bedtime). That was it: to be alone forever. That was the doom pronounced in Milan when he came into the room and saw them cutting out buckram shapes with their scissors; to be alone forever.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>He was alone with the sideboard and the bananas. He was alone, exposed on this bleak eminence, stretched out—but not on a hill-top; not on a crag; on Mrs. Filmer’s sitting-room sofa. As for the visions, the faces, the voices of the dead, where were they? There was a screen in front of him, with black bulrushes and blue swallows. Where he had once seen mountains, where he had seen faces, where he had seen beauty, there was a screen.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>“Evans!” he cried. There was no answer. A mouse had squeaked, or a curtain rustled. Those were the voices of the dead. The screen, the coal-scuttle, the sideboard remained to him. Let him then face the screen, the coal-scuttle and the sideboard ... but Rezia burst into the room chattering.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>Some letter had come. Everybody’s plans were changed. Mrs. Filmer would not be able to go to Brighton after all. There was no time to let Mrs. Williams know, and really Rezia thought it very, very annoying, when she caught sight of the hat and thought ... perhaps ... she ... might just make a little.... Her voice died out in contented melody.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“Ah, damn!” she cried (it was a joke of theirs, her swearing), the needle had broken. Hat, child, Brighton, needle. She built it up; first one thing, then another, she built it up, sewing.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>She wanted him to say whether by moving the rose she had improved the hat. She sat on the end of the sofa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>They were perfectly happy now, she said, suddenly, putting the hat down. For she could say anything to him now. She could say whatever came into her head. That was almost the first thing she had felt about him, that night in the café when he had come in with his English friends. He had come in, rather shyly, looking round him, and his hat had fallen when he hung it up. That she could remember. She knew he was English, though not one of the large Englishmen her sister admired, for he was always thin; but he had a beautiful fresh colour;[Pg 222] and with his big nose, his bright eyes, his way of sitting a little hunched made her think, she had often told him, of a young hawk, that first evening she saw him, when they were playing dominoes, and he had come in—of a young hawk; but with her he was always very gentle. She had never seen him wild or drunk, only suffering sometimes through this terrible war, but even so, when she came in, he would put it all away. Anything, anything in the whole world, any little bother with her work, anything that struck her to say she would tell him, and he understood at once. Her own family even were not the same. Being older than she was and being so clever—how serious he was, wanting her to read Shakespeare before she could even read a child’s story in English!—being so much more experienced, he could help her. And she too could help him.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>But this hat now. And then (it was getting late) Sir William Bradshaw.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>She held her hands to her head, waiting for him to say did he like the hat or not, and as she sat there, waiting, looking down, he could feel her mind, like a bird, falling from branch to branch, and always alighting, quite rightly; he could follow her mind, as she sat there in one of those loose lax poses that came to her naturally and, if he should say <pb n="223" facs="pageImages/223.jpg"/> anything, at once she smiled, like a bird alighting with all its claws firm upon the bough.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>But he remembered Bradshaw said, “The people we are most fond of are not good for us when we are ill.” Bradshaw said, he must be taught to rest. Bradshaw said they must be separated.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“Must,” “must,” why “must”? What power had Bradshaw over him? “What right has Bradshaw to say ‘must’ to me?” he demanded.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“It is because you talked of killing yourself,” said Rezia. (Mercifully, she could now say anything to Septimus.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>So he was in their power! Holmes and Bradshaw were on him! The brute with the red nostrils was snuffing into every secret place! “Must” it could say! Where were his papers? the things he had written?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>She brought him his papers, the things he had written, things she had written for him. She tumbled them out on to the sofa. They looked at them together. Diagrams, designs, little men and women brandishing sticks for arms, with wings—were they?—on their backs; circles traced round shillings and sixpences—the suns and stars; zigzagging precipices with mountaineers ascending roped together, exactly like knives and forks; sea pieces <pb n="224" facs="pageImages/224.jpg"/> with little faces laughing out of what might perhaps be waves: the map of the world. Burn them! he cried. Now for his writings; how the dead sing behind rhododendron bushes; odes to Time; conversations with Shakespeare; Evans, Evans, Evans—his messages from the dead; do not cut down trees; tell the Prime Minister. Universal love: the meaning of the world. Burn them! he cried.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>But Rezia laid her hands on them. Some were very beautiful, she thought. She would tie them up (for she had no envelope) with a piece of silk.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>Even if they took him, she said, she would go with him. They could not separate them against their wills, she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Shuffling the edges straight, she did up the papers, and tied the parcel almost without looking, sitting beside him, he thought, as if all her petals were about her. She was a flowering tree; and through her branches looked out the face of a lawgiver, who had reached a sanctuary where she feared no one; not Holmes; not Bradshaw; a miracle, a triumph, the last and greatest. Staggering he saw her mount the appalling staircase, laden with Holmes and Bradshaw, men who never weighed less than eleven stone six, who sent their wives to Court, men who made ten thousand a year and talked of proportion; <pb n="225" facs="pageImages/225.jpg"/> who different in their verdicts (for Holmes said one thing, Bradshaw another), yet judges they were; who mixed the vision and the sideboard; saw nothing clear, yet ruled, yet inflicted. “Must” they said. Over them she triumphed.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>“There!” she said. The papers were tied up. No one should get at them. She would put them away.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>And, she said, nothing should separate them. She sat down beside him and called him by the name of that hawk or crow which being malicious and a great destroyer of crops was precisely like him. No one could separate them, she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>Then she got up to go into the bedroom to pack their things, but hearing voices downstairs and thinking that Dr. Holmes had perhaps called, ran down to prevent him coming up.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Septimus could hear her talking to Holmes on the staircase.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>“My dear lady, I have come as a friend,” Holmes was saying.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>“No. I will not allow you to see my husband,” she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>He could see her, like a little hen, with her wings spread barring his passage. But Holmes persevered.</p>

         <p>“My dear lady, allow me....” Holmes said, putting her aside (Holmes was a powerfully built man).</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Holmes was coming upstairs. Holmes would burst open the door. Holmes would say “In a funk, eh?” Holmes would get him. But no; not Holmes; not Bradshaw. Getting up rather unsteadily, hopping indeed from foot to foot, he considered Mrs. Filmer’s nice clean bread knife with “Bread” carved on the handle. Ah, but one mustn’t spoil that. The gas fire? But it was too late now. Holmes was coming. Razors he might have got, but Rezia, who always did that sort of thing, had packed them. There remained only the window, the large Bloomsbury-lodging house window, the tiresome, the troublesome, and rather melodramatic business of opening the window and throwing himself out. It was their idea of tragedy, not his or Rezia’s (for she was with him). Holmes and Bradshaw like that sort of thing. (He sat on the sill.) But he would wait till the very last moment. He did not want to die. Life was good. The sun hot. Only human beings—what did they want? Coming down the staircase opposite an old man stopped and stared at him. Holmes was at the door. “I’ll give it you!” he cried, and flung himself vigorously, violently down on to Mrs. Filmer’s area railings.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“The coward!” cried Dr. Holmes, bursting the door open. Rezia ran to the window, she saw; she <pb n="227" facs="pageImages/227.jpg"/> understood. Dr. Holmes and Mrs. Filmer collided with each other. Mrs. Filmer flapped her apron and made her hide her eyes in the bedroom. There was a great deal of running up and down stairs. Dr. Holmes came in—white as a sheet, shaking all over, with a glass in his hand. She must be brave and drink something, he said (What was it? Something sweet), for her husband was horribly mangled, would not recover consciousness, she must not see him, must be spared as much as possible, would have the inquest to go through, poor young woman. Who could have foretold it? A sudden impulse, no one was in the least to blame (he told Mrs. Filmer). And why the devil he did it, Dr. Holmes could not conceive.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>It seemed to her as she drank the sweet stuff that she was opening long windows, stepping out into some garden. But where? The clock was striking—one, two, three: how sensible the sound was; compared with all this thumping and whispering; like Septimus himself. She was falling asleep. But the clock went on striking, four, five, six and Mrs. Filmer waving her apron (they wouldn’t bring the body in here, would they?) seemed part of that garden; or a flag. She had once seen a flag slowly rippling out from a mast when she stayed with her <pb n="228" facs="pageImages/228.jpg"/> aunt at Venice. Men killed in battle were thus saluted, and Septimus had been through the War. Of her memories, most were happy.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>She put on her hat, and ran through cornfields—where could it have been?—on to some hill, somewhere near the sea, for there were ships, gulls, butterflies; they sat on a cliff. In London too, there they sat, and, half dreaming, came to her through the bedroom door, rain falling, whisperings, stirrings among dry corn, the caress of the sea, as it seemed to her, hollowing them in its arched shell and murmuring to her laid on shore, strewn she felt, like flying flowers over some tomb.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“He is dead,” she said, smiling at the poor old woman who guarded her with her honest light-blue eyes fixed on the door. (They wouldn’t bring him in here, would they?) But Mrs. Filmer pooh-poohed. Oh no, oh no! They were carrying him away now. Ought she not to be told? Married people ought to be together, Mrs. Filmer thought. But they must do as the doctor said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>“Let her sleep,” said Dr. Holmes, feeling her pulse. She saw the large outline of his body standing dark against the window. So that was Dr. Holmes.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>One of the triumphs of civilisation, Peter Walsh thought. It is one of the triumphs of civilisation, as the light high bell of the ambulance sounded. Swiftly, cleanly the ambulance sped to the hospital, having picked up instantly, humanely, some poor devil; some one hit on the head, struck down by disease, knocked over perhaps a minute or so ago at one of these crossings, as might happen to oneself. That was civilisation. It struck him coming back from the East—the efficiency, the organisation, the communal spirit of London. Every cart or carriage of its own accord drew aside to let the ambulance pass. Perhaps it was morbid; or was it not touching rather, the respect which they showed this ambulance with its victim inside—busy men hurrying home yet instantly bethinking them as it passed of some wife; or presumably how easily it might have been them there, stretched on a shelf with a doctor and a nurse.... Ah, but thinking became morbid, sentimental, directly one began conjuring up doctors, dead bodies; a little glow of pleasure, a sort of lust too over the visual impression warned one not to go on with that sort of thing any more—fatal to art, fatal to friendship. True. And yet, thought Peter Walsh, as the ambulance turned the corner though the light high bell could be heard <pb n="230" facs="pageImages/230.jpg"/> down the next street and still farther as it crossed the Tottenham Court Road, chiming constantly, it is the privilege of loneliness; in privacy one may do as one chooses. One might weep if no one saw. It had been his undoing—this susceptibility—in Anglo-Indian society; not weeping at the right time, or laughing either. I have that in me, he thought standing by the pillar-box, which could now dissolve in tears. Why, Heaven knows. Beauty of some sort probably, and the weight of the day, which beginning with that visit to Clarissa had exhausted him with its heat, its intensity, and the drip, drip, of one impression after another down into that cellar where they stood, deep, dark, and no one would ever know. Partly for that reason, its secrecy, complete and inviolable, he had found life like an unknown garden, full of turns and corners, surprising, yes; really it took one’s breath away, these moments; there coming to him by the pillar-box opposite the British Museum one of them, a moment, in which things came together; this ambulance; and life and death. It was as if he were sucked up to some very high roof by that rush of emotion and the rest of him, like a white shell-sprinkled beach, left bare. It had been his undoing in Anglo-Indian society—this susceptibility.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Clarissa once, going on top of an omnibus with him somewhere, Clarissa superficially at least, so easily moved, now in despair, now in the best of spirits, all aquiver in those days and such good company, spotting queer little scenes, names, people from the top of a bus, for they used to explore London and bring back bags full of treasures from the Caledonian market—Clarissa had a theory in those days—they had heaps of theories, always theories, as young people have. It was to explain the feeling they had of dissatisfaction; not knowing people; not being known. For how could they know each other? You met every day; then not for six months, or years. It was unsatisfactory, they agreed, how little one knew people. But she said, sitting on the bus going up Shaftesbury Avenue, she felt herself everywhere; not “here, here, here”; and she tapped the back of the seat; but everywhere. She waved her hand, going up Shaftesbury Avenue. She was all that. So that to know her, or any one, one must seek out the people who completed them; even the places. Odd affinities she had with people she had never spoken to, some woman in the street, some man behind a counter—even trees, or barns. It ended in a transcendental theory which, with her horror of death, allowed her to believe, or say that <pb n="232" facs="pageImages/232.jpg"/> she believed (for all her scepticism), that since our apparitions, the part of us which appears, are so momentary compared with the other, the unseen part of us, which spreads wide, the unseen might survive, be recovered somehow attached to this person or that, or even haunting certain places after death ... perhaps—perhaps.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>Looking back over that long friendship of almost thirty years her theory worked to this extent. Brief, broken, often painful as their actual meetings had been what with his absences and interruptions (this morning, for instance, in came Elizabeth, like a long-legged colt, handsome, dumb, just as he was beginning to talk to Clarissa) the effect of them on his life was immeasurable. There was a mystery about it. You were given a sharp, acute, uncomfortable grain—the actual meeting; horribly painful as often as not; yet in absence, in the most unlikely places, it would flower out, open, shed its scent, let you touch, taste, look about you, get the whole feel of it and understanding, after years of lying lost. Thus she had come to him; on board ship; in the Himalayas; suggested by the oddest things (so Sally Seton, generous, enthusiastic goose! thought of him when she saw blue hydrangeas). She had influenced him more than any person he <pb n="233" facs="pageImages/233.jpg"/> had ever known. And always in this way coming before him without his wishing it, cool, lady-like, critical; or ravishing, romantic, recalling some field or English harvest. He saw her most often in the country, not in London. One scene after another at Bourton....</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>He had reached his hotel. He crossed the hall, with its mounds of reddish chairs and sofas, its spike-leaved, withered-looking plants. He got his key off the hook. The young lady handed him some letters. He went upstairs—he saw her most often at Bourton, in the late summer, when he stayed there for a week, or fortnight even, as people did in those days. First on top of some hill there she would stand, hands clapped to her hair, her cloak blowing out, pointing, crying to them—she saw the Severn beneath. Or in a wood, making the kettle boil—very ineffective with her fingers; the smoke curtseying, blowing in their faces; her little pink face showing through; begging water from an old woman in a cottage, who came to the door to watch them go. They walked always; the others drove. She was bored driving, disliked all animals, except that dog. They tramped miles along roads. She would break off to get her bearings, pilot him back across country; and all the time they <pb n="234" facs="pageImages/234.jpg"/> argued, discussed poetry, discussed people, discussed politics (she was a Radical then); never noticing a thing except when she stopped, cried out at a view or a tree, and made him look with her; and so on again, through stubble fields, she walking ahead, with a flower for her aunt, never tired of walking for all her delicacy; to drop down on Bourton in the dusk. Then, after dinner, old Breitkopf would open the piano and sing without any voice, and they would lie sunk in arm-chairs, trying not to laugh, but always breaking down and laughing, laughing—laughing at nothing. Breitkopf was supposed not to see. And then in the morning, flirting up and down like a wagtail in front of the house....</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>Oh it was a letter from her! This blue envelope; that was her hand. And he would have to read it. Here was another of those meetings, bound to be painful! To read her letter needed the devil of an effort. “How heavenly it was to see him. She must tell him that.” That was all.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>But it upset him. It annoyed him. He wished she hadn’t written it. Coming on top of his thoughts, it was like a nudge in the ribs. Why couldn’t she let him be? After all, she had married <pb n="235" facs="pageImages/235.jpg"/> Dalloway, and lived with him in perfect happiness all these years.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>These hotels are not consoling places. Far from it. Any number of people had hung up their hats on those pegs. Even the flies, if you thought of it, had settled on other people’s noses. As for the cleanliness which hit him in the face, it wasn’t cleanliness, so much as bareness, frigidity; a thing that had to be. Some arid matron made her rounds at dawn sniffing, peering, causing blue-nosed maids to scour, for all the world as if the next visitor were a joint of meat to be served on a perfectly clean platter. For sleep, one bed; for sitting in, one arm-chair; for cleaning one’s teeth and shaving one’s chin, one tumbler, one looking-glass. Books, letters, dressing-gown, slipped about on the impersonality of the horsehair like incongruous impertinences. And it was Clarissa’s letter that made him see all this. “Heavenly to see you. She must say so!” He folded the paper; pushed it away; nothing would induce him to read it again!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>To get that letter to him by six o’clock she must have sat down and written it directly he left her; stamped it; sent somebody to the post. It was, as people say, very like her. She was upset by his <pb n="236" facs="pageImages/236.jpg"/> visit. She had felt a great deal; had for a moment, when she kissed his hand, regretted, envied him even, remembered possibly (for he saw her look it) something he had said—how they would change the world if she married him perhaps; whereas, it was this; it was middle age; it was mediocrity; then forced herself with her indomitable vitality to put all that aside, there being in her a thread of life which for toughness, endurance, power to overcome obstacles, and carry her triumphantly through he had never known the like of. Yes; but there would come a reaction directly he left the room. She would be frightfully sorry for him; she would think what in the world she could do to give him pleasure (short always of the one thing) and he could see her with the tears running down her cheeks going to her writing-table and dashing off that one line which he was to find greeting him.... “Heavenly to see you!” And she meant it.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>Peter Walsh had now unlaced his boots.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>But it would not have been a success, their marriage. The other thing, after all, came so much more naturally.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>It was odd; it was true; lots of people felt it. Peter Walsh, who had done just respectably, filled the usual posts adequately, was liked, but thought <pb n="237" facs="pageImages/237.jpg"/> a little cranky, gave himself airs—it was odd that he should have had, especially now that his hair was grey, a contented look; a look of having reserves. It was this that made him attractive to women who liked the sense that he was not altogether manly. There was something unusual about him, or something behind him. It might be that he was bookish—never came to see you without taking up the book on the table (he was now reading, with his bootlaces trailing on the floor); or that he was a gentleman, which showed itself in the way he knocked the ashes out of his pipe, and in his manners of course to women. For it was very charming and quite ridiculous how easily some girl without a grain of sense could twist him round her finger. But at her own risk. That is to say, though he might be ever so easy, and indeed with his gaiety and good-breeding fascinating to be with, it was only up to a point. She said something—no, no; he saw through that. He wouldn’t stand that—no, no. Then he could shout and rock and hold his sides together over some joke with men. He was the best judge of cooking in India. He was a man. But not the sort of man one had to respect—which was a mercy; not like Major Simmons, for instance; not in the least like that, Daisy thought, when, in <pb n="238" facs="pageImages/238.jpg"/> spite of her two small children, she used to compare them.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>He pulled off his boots. He emptied his pockets. Out came with his pocket-knife a snapshot of Daisy on the verandah; Daisy all in white, with a fox-terrier on her knee; very charming, very dark; the best he had ever seen of her. It did come, after all so naturally; so much more naturally than Clarissa. No fuss. No bother. No finicking and fidgeting. All plain sailing. And the dark, adorably pretty girl on the verandah exclaimed (he could hear her). Of course, of course she would give him everything! she cried (she had no sense of discretion) everything he wanted! she cried, running to meet him, whoever might be looking. And she was only twenty-four. And she had two children. Well, well!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>Well indeed he had got himself into a mess at his age. And it came over him when he woke in the night pretty forcibly. Suppose they did marry? For him it would be all very well, but what about her? Mrs. Burgess, a good sort and no chatterbox, in whom he had confided, thought this absence of his in England, ostensibly to see lawyers might serve to make Daisy reconsider, think what it meant. It was a question of her position, Mrs. Burgess said; <pb n="239" facs="pageImages/239.jpg"/> the social barrier; giving up her children. She’d be a widow with a past one of these days, draggling about in the suburbs, or more likely, indiscriminate (you know, she said, what such women get like, with too much paint). But Peter Walsh pooh-poohed all that. He didn’t mean to die yet. Anyhow she must settle for herself; judge for herself, he thought, padding about the room in his socks smoothing out his dress-shirt, for he might go to Clarissa’s party, or he might go to one of the Halls, or he might settle in and read an absorbing book written by a man he used to know at Oxford. And if he did retire, that’s what he’d do—write books. He would go to Oxford and poke about in the Bodleian. Vainly the dark, adorably pretty girl ran to the end of the terrace; vainly waved her hand; vainly cried she didn’t care a straw what people said. There he was, the man she thought the world of, the perfect gentleman, the fascinating, the distinguished (and his age made not the least difference to her), padding about a room in an hotel in Bloomsbury, shaving, washing, continuing, as he took up cans, put down razors, to poke about in the Bodleian, and get at the truth about one or two little matters that interested him. And he would have a chat with whoever it might be, and so come <pb n="240" facs="pageImages/240.jpg"/> to disregard more and more precise hours for lunch, and miss engagements, and when Daisy asked him, as she would, for a kiss, a scene, fail to come up to the scratch (though he was genuinely devoted to her)—in short it might be happier, as Mrs. Burgess said, that she should forget him, or merely remember him as he was in August 1922, like a figure standing at the cross roads at dusk, which grows more and more remote as the dog-cart spins away, carrying her securely fastened to the back seat, though her arms are outstretched, and as she sees the figure dwindle and disappear still she cries out how she would do anything in the world, anything, anything, anything....</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>He never knew what people thought. It became more and more difficult for him to concentrate. He became absorbed; he became busied with his own concerns; now surly, now gay; dependent on women, absent-minded, moody, less and less able (so he thought as he shaved) to understand why Clarissa couldn’t simply find them a lodging and be nice to Daisy; introduce her. And then he could just—just do what? just haunt and hover (he was at the moment actually engaged in sorting out various keys, papers), swoop and taste, be alone, in short, sufficient to himself; and yet nobody of course <pb n="241" facs="pageImages/241.jpg"/> was more dependent upon others (he buttoned his waistcoat); it had been his undoing. He could not keep out of smoking-rooms, liked colonels, liked golf, liked bridge, and above all women’s society, and the fineness of their companionship, and their faithfulness and audacity and greatness in loving which though it had its drawbacks seemed to him (and the dark, adorably pretty face was on top of the envelopes) so wholly admirable, so splendid a flower to grow on the crest of human life, and yet he could not come up to the scratch, being always apt to see round things (Clarissa had sapped something in him permanently), and to tire very easily of mute devotion and to want variety in love, though it would make him furious if Daisy loved anybody else, furious! for he was jealous, uncontrollably jealous by temperament. He suffered tortures! But where was his knife; his watch; his seals, his note-case, and Clarissa’s letter which he would not read again but liked to think of, and Daisy’s photograph? And now for dinner.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>They were eating.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>Sitting at little tables round vases, dressed or not dressed, with their shawls and bags laid beside them, with their air of false composure, for they were not used to so many courses at dinner, and confidence, <pb n="242" facs="pageImages/242.jpg"/> for they were able to pay for it, and strain, for they had been running about London all day shopping, sightseeing; and their natural curiosity, for they looked round and up as the nice-looking gentleman in horn-rimmed spectacles came in, and their good nature, for they would have been glad to do any little service, such as lend a time-table or impart useful information, and their desire, pulsing in them, tugging at them subterraneously, somehow to establish connections if it were only a birthplace (Liverpool, for example) in common or friends of the same name; with their furtive glances, odd silences, and sudden withdrawals into family jocularity and isolation; there they sat eating dinner when Mr. Walsh came in and took his seat at a little table by the curtain.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>It was not that he said anything, for being solitary he could only address himself to the waiter; it was his way of looking at the menu, of pointing his forefinger to a particular wine, of hitching himself up to the table, of addressing himself seriously, not gluttonously to dinner, that won him their respect; which, having to remain unexpressed for the greater part of the meal, flared up at the table where the Morrises sat when Mr. Walsh was heard to say at the end of the meal, “Bartlett pears.” <pb n="243" facs="pageImages/243.jpg"/> Why he should have spoken so moderately yet firmly, with the air of a disciplinarian well within his rights which are founded upon justice, neither young Charles Morris, nor old Charles, neither Miss Elaine nor Mrs. Morris knew. But when he said, “Bartlett pears,” sitting alone at his table, they felt that he counted on their support in some lawful demand; was champion of a cause which immediately became their own, so that their eyes met his eyes sympathetically, and when they all reached the smoking-room simultaneously, a little talk between them became inevitable.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>It was not very profound—only to the effect that London was crowded; had changed in thirty years; that Mr. Morris preferred Liverpool; that Mrs. Morris had been to the Westminster flower-show, and that they had all seen the Prince of Wales. Yet, thought Peter Walsh, no family in the world can compare with the Morrises; none whatever; and their relations to each other are perfect, and they don’t care a hang for the upper classes, and they like what they like, and Elaine is training for the family business, and the boy has won a scholarship at Leeds, and the old lady (who is about his own age) has three more children at home; and they have two motor cars, but Mr. Morris still <pb n="244" facs="pageImages/244.jpg"/> mends the boots on Sunday: it is superb, it is absolutely superb, thought Peter Walsh, swaying a little backwards and forwards with his liqueur glass in his hand among the hairy red chairs and ash-trays, feeling very well pleased with himself, for the Morrises liked him. Yes, they liked a man who said, “Bartlett pears.” They liked him, he felt.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>He would go to Clarissa’s party. (The Morrises moved off; but they would meet again.) He would go to Clarissa’s party, because he wanted to ask Richard what they were doing in India—the conservative duffers. And what’s being acted? And music.... Oh yes, and mere gossip.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>For this is the truth about our soul, he thought, our self, who fish-like inhabits deep seas and plies among obscurities threading her way between the boles of giant weeds, over sun-flickered spaces and on and on into gloom, cold, deep, inscrutable; suddenly she shoots to the surface and sports on the wind-wrinkled waves; that is, has a positive need to brush, scrape, kindle herself, gossiping. What did the Government mean—Richard Dalloway would know—to do about India?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>Since it was a very hot night and the paper boys went by with placards proclaiming in huge red letters that there was a heat-wave, wicker chairs <pb n="245" facs="pageImages/245.jpg"/> were placed on the hotel steps and there, sipping, smoking, detached gentlemen sat. Peter Walsh sat there. One might fancy that day, the London day, was just beginning. Like a woman who had slipped off her print dress and white apron to array herself in blue and pearls, the day changed, put off stuff, took gauze, changed to evening, and with the same sigh of exhilaration that a woman breathes, tumbling petticoats on the floor, it too shed dust, heat, colour; the traffic thinned; motor cars, tinkling, darting, succeeded the lumber of vans; and here and there among the thick foliage of the squares an intense light hung. I resign, the evening seemed to say, as it paled and faded above the battlements and prominences, moulded, pointed, of hotel, flat, and block of shops, I fade, she was beginning, I disappear, but London would have none of it, and rushed her bayonets into the sky, pinioned her, constrained her to partnership in her revelry.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>For the great revolution of Mr. Willett’s summer time had taken place since Peter Walsh’s last visit to England. The prolonged evening was new to him. It was inspiriting, rather. For as the young people went by with their despatch-boxes, awfully glad to be free, proud too, dumbly, of stepping this famous pavement, joy of a kind, cheap, tinselly, if <pb n="246" facs="pageImages/246.jpg"/> you like, but all the same rapture, flushed their faces. They dressed well too; pink stockings; pretty shoes. They would now have two hours at the pictures. It sharpened, it refined them, the yellow-blue evening light; and on the leaves in the square shone lurid, livid—they looked as if dipped in sea water—the foliage of a submerged city. He was astonished by the beauty; it was encouraging too, for where the returned Anglo-Indian sat by rights (he knew crowds of them) in the Oriental Club biliously summing up the ruin of the world, here was he, as young as ever; envying young people their summer time and the rest of it, and more than suspecting from the words of a girl, from a housemaid’s laughter—intangible things you couldn’t lay your hands on—that shift in the whole pyramidal accumulation which in his youth had seemed immovable. On top of them it had pressed; weighed them down, the women especially, like those flowers Clarissa’s Aunt Helena used to press between sheets of grey blotting-paper with Littré’s dictionary on top, sitting under the lamp after dinner. She was dead now. He had heard of her, from Clarissa, losing the sight of one eye. It seemed so fitting—one of nature’s masterpieces—that old Miss Parry should turn to glass. She would die like <pb n="247" facs="pageImages/247.jpg"/> some bird in a frost gripping her perch. She belonged to a different age, but being so entire, so complete, would always stand up on the horizon, stone-white, eminent, like a lighthouse marking some past stage on this adventurous, long, long voyage, this interminable (he felt for a copper to buy a paper and read about Surrey and Yorkshire—he had held out that copper millions of times. Surrey was all out once more)—this interminable life. But cricket was no mere game. Cricket was important. He could never help reading about cricket. He read the scores in the stop press first, then how it was a hot day; then about a murder case. Having done things millions of times enriched them, though it might be said to take the surface off. The past enriched, and experience, and having cared for one or two people, and so having acquired the power which the young lack, of cutting short, doing what one likes, not caring a rap what people say and coming and going without any very great expectations (he left his paper on the table and moved off), which however (and he looked for his hat and coat) was not altogether true of him, not to-night, for here he was starting to go to a party, at his age, with the belief upon him that he was about to have an experience. But what?</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>Beauty anyhow. Not the crude beauty of the eye. It was not beauty pure and simple—Bedford Place leading into Russell Square. It was straightness and emptiness of course; the symmetry of a corridor; but it was also windows lit up, a piano, a gramophone sounding; a sense of pleasure-making hidden, but now and again emerging when, through the uncurtained window, the window left open, one saw parties sitting over tables, young people slowly circling, conversations between men and women, maids idly looking out (a strange comment theirs, when work was done), stockings drying on top ledges, a parrot, a few plants. Absorbing, mysterious, of infinite richness, this life. And in the large square where the cabs shot and swerved so quick, there were loitering couples, dallying, embracing, shrunk up under the shower of a tree; that was moving; so silent, so absorbed, that one passed, discreetly, timidly, as if in the presence of some sacred ceremony to interrupt which would have been impious. That was interesting. And so on into the flare and glare.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>His light overcoat blew open, he stepped with indescribable idiosyncrasy, leant a little forward, tripped, with his hands behind his back and his <pb n="249" facs="pageImages/249.jpg"/> eyes still a little hawklike; he tripped through London, towards Westminster, observing.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>Was everybody dining out, then? Doors were being opened here by a footman to let issue a high-stepping old dame, in buckled shoes, with three purple ostrich feathers in her hair. Doors were being opened for ladies wrapped like mummies in shawls with bright flowers on them, ladies with bare heads. And in respectable quarters with stucco pillars through small front gardens lightly swathed with combs in their hair (having run up to see the children), women came; men waited for them, with their coats blowing open, and the motor started. Everybody was going out. What with these doors being opened, and the descent and the start, it seemed as if the whole of London were embarking in little boats moored to the bank, tossing on the waters, as if the whole place were floating off in carnival. And Whitehall was skated over, silver beaten as it was, skated over by spiders, and there was a sense of midges round the arc lamps; it was so hot that people stood about talking. And here in Westminster was a retired Judge, presumably, sitting four square at his house door dressed all in white. An Anglo-Indian presumably.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>And here a shindy of brawling women, drunken women; here only a policeman and looming houses, high houses, domed houses, churches, parliaments, and the hoot of a steamer on the river, a hollow misty cry. But it was her street, this, Clarissa’s; cabs were rushing round the corner, like water round the piers of a bridge, drawn together, it seemed to him because they bore people going to her party, Clarissa’s party.</p>

         <p>The cold stream of visual impressions failed him now as if the eye were a cup that overflowed and let the rest run down its china walls unrecorded. The brain must wake now. The body must contract now, entering the house, the lighted house, where the door stood open, where the motor cars were standing, and bright women descending: the soul must brave itself to endure. He opened the big blade of his pocket-knife.</p>

         <p>Lucy came running full tilt downstairs, having just nipped in to the drawing-room to smooth a cover, to straighten a chair, to pause a moment and feel whoever came in must think how clean, how bright, how beautifully cared for, when they saw the beautiful silver, the brass fire-irons, the new chair-covers, and the curtains of yellow chintz: she <pb n="251" facs="pageImages/251.jpg"/> appraised each; heard a roar of voices; people already coming up from dinner; she must fly!</p>

            <p>The Prime Minister was coming, Agnes said: so she had heard them say in the dining-room, she said, coming in with a tray of glasses. Did it matter, did it matter in the least, one Prime Minister more or less? It made no difference at this hour of the night to Mrs. Walker among the plates, saucepans, cullenders, frying-pans, chicken in aspic, ice-cream freezers, pared crusts of bread, lemons, soup tureens, and pudding basins which, however hard they washed up in the scullery seemed to be all on top of her, on the kitchen table, on chairs, while the fire blared and roared, the electric lights glared, and still supper had to be laid. All she felt was, one Prime Minister more or less made not a scrap of difference to Mrs. Walker.</p>

               <p>The ladies were going upstairs already, said Lucy; the ladies were going up, one by one, Mrs. Dalloway walking last and almost always sending back some message to the kitchen, “My love to Mrs. Walker,” that was it one night. Next morning they would go over the dishes—the soup, the salmon; the salmon, Mrs. Walker knew, as usual underdone, for she always got nervous about the pudding and left it to Jenny; so it happened, the salmon was <pb n="252" facs="pageImages/252.jpg"/> always underdone. But some lady with fair hair and silver ornaments had said, Lucy said, about the entrée, was it really made at home? But it was the salmon that bothered Mrs. Walker, as she spun the plates round and round, and pulled in dampers and pulled out dampers; and there came a burst of laughter from the dining-room; a voice speaking; then another burst of laughter—the gentlemen enjoying themselves when the ladies had gone. The tokay, said Lucy running in. Mr. Dalloway had sent for the tokay, from the Emperor’s cellars, the Imperial Tokay.</p>

                  <p>It was borne through the kitchen. Over her shoulder Lucy reported how Miss Elizabeth looked quite lovely; she couldn’t take her eyes off her; in her pink dress, wearing the necklace Mr. Dalloway had given her. Jenny must remember the dog, Miss Elizabeth’s fox-terrier, which, since it bit, had to be shut up and might, Elizabeth thought, want something. Jenny must remember the dog. But Jenny was not going upstairs with all those people about. There was a motor at the door already! There was a ring at the bell—and the gentlemen still in the dining-room, drinking tokay!</p>

                     <p>There, they were going upstairs; that was the first to come, and now they would come faster and <pb n="253" facs="pageImages/253.jpg"/> faster, so that Mrs. Parkinson (hired for parties) would leave the hall door ajar, and the hall would be full of gentlemen waiting (they stood waiting, sleeking down their hair) while the ladies took their cloaks off in the room along the passage; where Mrs. Barnet helped them, old Ellen Barnet, who had been with the family for forty years, and came every summer to help the ladies, and remembered mothers when they were girls, and though very unassuming did shake hands; said “milady” very respectfully, yet had a humorous way with her, looking at the young ladies, and ever so tactfully helping Lady Lovejoy, who had some trouble with her underbodice. And they could not help feeling, Lady Lovejoy and Miss Alice, that some little privilege in the matter of brush and comb, was awarded them having known Mrs. Barnet—“thirty years, milady,” Mrs. Barnet supplied her. Young ladies did not use to rouge, said Lady Lovejoy, when they stayed at Bourton in the old days. And Miss Alice didn’t need rouge, said Mrs. Barnet, looking at her fondly. There Mrs. Barnet would sit, in the cloakroom, patting down the furs, smoothing out the Spanish shawls, tidying the dressing-table, and knowing perfectly well, in spite of the furs and the embroideries, which were nice ladies, which were not. The dear <pb n="254" facs="pageImages/254.jpg"/> old body, said Lady Lovejoy, mounting the stairs, Clarissa’s old nurse.</p>

                        <p>And then Lady Lovejoy stiffened. “Lady and Miss Lovejoy,” she said to Mr. Wilkins (hired for parties). He had an admirable manner, as he bent and straightened himself, bent and straightened himself and announced with perfect impartiality “Lady and Miss Lovejoy ... Sir John and Lady Needham ... Miss Weld ... Mr. Walsh.” His manner was admirable; his family life must be irreproachable, except that it seemed impossible that a being with greenish lips and shaven cheeks could ever have blundered into the nuisance of children.</p>

                           <p>“How delightful to see you!” said Clarissa. She said it to every one. How delightful to see you! She was at her worst—effusive, insincere. It was a great mistake to have come. He should have stayed at home and read his book, thought Peter Walsh; should have gone to a music hall; he should have stayed at home, for he knew no one.</p>

                              <p>Oh dear, it was going to be a failure; a complete failure, Clarissa felt it in her bones as dear old Lord Lexham stood there apologising for his wife who had caught cold at the Buckingham Palace garden party. She could see Peter out of the tail of her eye, criticising her, there, in that corner. Why, <pb n="255" facs="pageImages/255.jpg"/> after all, did she do these things? Why seek pinnacles and stand drenched in fire? Might it consume her anyhow! Burn her to cinders! Better anything, better brandish one’s torch and hurl it to earth than taper and dwindle away like some Ellie Henderson! It was extraordinary how Peter put her into these states just by coming and standing in a corner. He made her see herself; exaggerate. It was idiotic. But why did he come, then, merely to criticise? Why always take, never give? Why not risk one’s one little point of view? There he was wandering off, and she must speak to him. But she would not get the chance. Life was that—humiliation, renunciation. What Lord Lexham was saying was that his wife would not wear her furs at the garden party because “my dear, you ladies are all alike”—Lady Lexham being seventy-five at least! It was delicious, how they petted each other, that old couple. She did like old Lord Lexham. She did think it mattered, her party, and it made her feel quite sick to know that it was all going wrong, all falling flat. Anything, any explosion, any horror was better than people wandering aimlessly, standing in a bunch at a corner like Ellie Henderson, not even caring to hold themselves upright.</p>

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                                 <p>Gently the yellow curtain with all the birds of Paradise blew out and it seemed as if there were a flight of wings into the room, right out, then sucked back. (For the windows were open.) Was it draughty, Ellie Henderson wondered? She was subject to chills. But it did not matter that she should come down sneezing to-morrow; it was the girls with their naked shoulders she thought of, being trained to think of others by an old father, an invalid, late vicar of Bourton, but he was dead now; and her chills never went to her chest, never. It was the girls she thought of, the young girls with their bare shoulders, she herself having always been a wisp of a creature, with her thin hair and meagre profile; though now, past fifty, there was beginning to shine through some mild beam, something purified into distinction by years of self-abnegation but obscured again, perpetually, by her distressing gentility, her panic fear, which arose from three hundred pounds’ income, and her weaponless state (she could not earn a penny) and it made her timid, and more and more disqualified year by year to meet well-dressed people who did this sort of thing every night of the season, merely telling their maids “I’ll wear so and so,” whereas Ellie Henderson ran out nervously and bought cheap pink <pb n="257" facs="pageImages/257.jpg"/> flowers, half a dozen, and then threw a shawl over her old black dress. For her invitation to Clarissa’s party had come at the last moment. She was not quite happy about it. She had a sort of feeling that Clarissa had not meant to ask her this year.</p>

                                    <p>Why should she? There was no reason really, except that they had always known each other. Indeed, they were cousins. But naturally they had rather drifted apart, Clarissa being so sought after. It was an event to her, going to a party. It was quite a treat just to see the lovely clothes. Wasn’t that Elizabeth, grown up, with her hair done in the fashionable way, in the pink dress? Yet she could not be more than seventeen. She was very, very handsome. But girls when they first came out didn’t seem to wear white as they used. (She must remember everything to tell Edith.) Girls wore straight frocks, perfectly tight, with skirts well above the ankles. It was not becoming, she thought.</p>

                                       <p>So, with her weak eyesight, Ellie Henderson craned rather forward, and it wasn’t so much she who minded not having any one to talk to (she hardly knew anybody there), for she felt that they were all such interesting people to watch; politicians presumably; Richard Dalloway’s friends; but it was <pb n="258" facs="pageImages/258.jpg"/> Richard himself who felt that he could not let the poor creature go on standing there all the evening by herself.</p>

                                          <p>“Well, Ellie, and how’s the world treating you?” he said in his genial way, and Ellie Henderson, getting nervous and flushing and feeling that it was extraordinarily nice of him to come and talk to her, said that many people really felt the heat more than the cold.</p>

                                             <p>“Yes, they do,” said Richard Dalloway. “Yes.”</p>

                                                <p>But what more did one say?</p>

                                                   <p>“Hullo, Richard,” said somebody, taking him by the elbow, and, good Lord, there was old Peter, old Peter Walsh. He was delighted to see him—ever so pleased to see him! He hadn’t changed a bit. And off they went together walking right across the room, giving each other little pats, as if they hadn’t met for a long time, Ellie Henderson thought, watching them go, certain she knew that man’s face. A tall man, middle aged, rather fine eyes, dark, wearing spectacles, with a look of John Burrows. Edith would be sure to know.
                                                   </p>
                                                      <p>The curtain with its flight of birds of Paradise blew out again. And Clarissa saw—she saw Ralph Lyon beat it back, and go on talking. So it wasn’t a failure after all! it was going to be all right now—her <pb n="259" facs="pageImages/259.jpg"/> party. It had begun. It had started. But it was still touch and go. She must stand there for the present. People seemed to come in a rush.</p>

                                                         <p>Colonel and Mrs. Garrod ... Mr. Hugh Whitbread ... Mr. Bowley ... Mrs. Hilbery ... Lady Mary Maddox ... Mr. Quin ... intoned Wilkin. She had six or seven words with each, and they went on, they went into the rooms; into something now, not nothing, since Ralph Lyon had beat back the curtain.</p>

                                                            <p>And yet for her own part, it was too much of an effort. She was not enjoying it. It was too much like being—just anybody, standing there; anybody could do it; yet this anybody she did a little admire, couldn’t help feeling that she had, anyhow, made this happen, that it marked a stage, this post that she felt herself to have become, for oddly enough she had quite forgotten what she looked like, but felt herself a stake driven in at the top of her stairs. Every time she gave a party she had this feeling of being something not herself, and that every one was unreal in one way; much more real in another. It was, she thought, partly their clothes, partly being taken out of their ordinary ways, partly the background, it was possible to say things you couldn’t say anyhow else, things that needed an effort; <pb n="260" facs="pageImages/260.jpg"/> possible to go much deeper. But not for her; not yet anyhow.</p>

                                                               <p>“How delightful to see you!” she said. Dear old Sir Harry! He would know every one.</p>

                                                                  <p>And what was so odd about it was the sense one had as they came up the stairs one after another, Mrs. Mount and Celia, Herbert Ainsty, Mrs. Dakers—oh and Lady Bruton!</p>

                                                                     <p>“How awfully good of you to come!” she said, and she meant it—it was odd how standing there one felt them going on, going on, some quite old, some....</p>

                                                                        <p>What name? Lady Rosseter? But who on earth was Lady Rosseter?</p>

                                                                           <p>“Clarissa!” That voice! It was Sally Seton! Sally Seton! after all these years! She loomed through a mist. For she hadn’t looked like that, Sally Seton, when Clarissa grasped the hot water can, to think of her under this roof, under this roof! Not like that!</p>

                                                                              <p>All on top of each other, embarrassed, laughing, words tumbled out—passing through London; heard from Clara Haydon; what a chance of seeing you! So I thrust myself in—without an invitation....</p>

                                                                                 <p>One might put down the hot water can quite composedly. The lustre had gone out of her. Yet <pb n="261" facs="pageImages/261.jpg"/> it was extraordinary to see her again, older, happier, less lovely. They kissed each other, first this cheek then that, by the drawing-room door, and Clarissa turned, with Sally’s hand in hers, and saw her rooms full, heard the roar of voices, saw the candlesticks, the blowing curtains, and the roses which Richard had given her.</p>

                                                                                    <p>“I have five enormous boys,” said Sally.</p>

         <p>She had the simplest egotism, the most open desire to be thought first always, and Clarissa loved her for being still like that. “I can’t believe it!” she cried, kindling all over with pleasure at the thought of the past.</p>

                                                                                          <p>But alas, Wilkins; Wilkins wanted her; Wilkins was emitting in a voice of commanding authority as if the whole company must be admonished and the hostess reclaimed from frivolity, one name:</p>

                                                                                             <p>“The Prime Minister,” said Peter Walsh.</p>

                                                                                                <p>The Prime Minister? Was it really? Ellie Henderson marvelled. What a thing to tell Edith!</p>

                                                                                                   <p>One couldn’t laugh at him. He looked so ordinary. You might have stood him behind a counter and bought biscuits—poor chap, all rigged up in gold lace. And to be fair, as he went his rounds, first with Clarissa then with Richard escorting him, he did it very well. He tried to look somebody. It <pb n="262" facs="pageImages/262.jpg"/> was amusing to watch. Nobody looked at him. They just went on talking, yet it was perfectly plain that they all knew, felt to the marrow of their bones, this majesty passing; this symbol of what they all stood for, English society. Old Lady Bruton, and she looked very fine too, very stalwart in her lace, swam up, and they withdrew into a little room which at once became spied upon, guarded, and a sort of stir and rustle rippled through every one, openly: the Prime Minister!</p>

                                                                                                      <p>Lord, lord, the snobbery of the English! thought Peter Walsh, standing in the corner. How they loved dressing up in gold lace and doing homage! There! That must be, by Jove it was, Hugh Whitbread, snuffing round the precincts of the great, grown rather fatter, rather whiter, the admirable Hugh!</p>

                                                                                                         <p>He looked always as if he were on duty, thought Peter, a privileged, but secretive being, hoarding secrets which he would die to defend, though it was only some little piece of tittle-tattle dropped by a court footman, which would be in all the papers to-morrow. Such were his rattles, his baubles, in playing with which he had grown white, come to the verge of old age, enjoying the respect and affection of all who had the privilege of knowing this type of <pb n="263" facs="pageImages/263.jpg"/> the English public school man. Inevitably one made up things like that about Hugh; that was his style; the style of those admirable letters which Peter had read thousands of miles across the sea in the Times, and had thanked God he was out of that pernicious hubble-bubble if it were only to hear baboons chatter and coolies beat their wives. An olive-skinned youth from one of the Universities stood obsequiously by. Him he would patronise, initiate, teach how to get on. For he liked nothing better than doing kindnesses, making the hearts of old ladies palpitate with the joy of being thought of in their age, their affliction, thinking themselves quite forgotten, yet here was dear Hugh driving up and spending an hour talking of the past, remembering trifles, praising the home-made cake, though Hugh might eat cake with a Duchess any day of his life, and, to look at him, probably did spend a good deal of time in that agreeable occupation. The All-judging, the All-merciful, might excuse. Peter Walsh had no mercy. Villains there must be, and God knows the rascals who get hanged for battering the brains of a girl out in a train do less harm on the whole than Hugh Whitbread and his kindness. Look at him now, on tiptoe, dancing forward, bowing and scraping, as the Prime Minister and Lady Bruton <pb n="264" facs="pageImages/264.jpg"/> emerged, intimating for all the world to see that he was privileged to say something, something private, to Lady Bruton as she passed. She stopped. She wagged her fine old head. She was thanking him presumably for some piece of servility. She had her toadies, minor officials in Government offices who ran about putting through little jobs on her behalf, in return for which she gave them luncheon. But she derived from the eighteenth century. She was all right.</p>

                                                                                                            <p>And now Clarissa escorted her Prime Minister down the room, prancing, sparkling, with the stateliness of her grey hair. She wore ear-rings, and a silver-green mermaid’s dress. Lolloping on the waves and braiding her tresses she seemed, having that gift still; to be; to exist; to sum it all up in the moment as she passed; turned, caught her scarf in some other woman’s dress, unhitched it, laughed, all with the most perfect ease and air of a creature floating in its element. But age had brushed her; even as a mermaid might behold in her glass the setting sun on some very clear evening over the waves. There was a breath of tenderness; her severity, her prudery, her woodenness were all warmed through now, and she had about her as she said good-bye to the thick gold-laced man who <pb n="265" facs="pageImages/265.jpg"/> was doing his best, and good luck to him, to look important, an inexpressible dignity; an exquisite cordiality; as if she wished the whole world well, and must now, being on the very verge and rim of things, take her leave. So she made him think. (But he was not in love.)</p>

                                                                                                               <p>Indeed, Clarissa felt, the Prime Minister had been good to come. And, walking down the room with him, with Sally there and Peter there and Richard very pleased, with all those people rather inclined, perhaps, to envy, she had felt that intoxication of the moment, that dilatation of the nerves of the heart itself till it seemed to quiver, steeped, upright;—yes, but after all it was what other people felt, that; for, though she loved it and felt it tingle and sting, still these semblances, these triumphs (dear old Peter, for example, thinking her so brilliant), had a hollowness; at arm’s length they were, not in the heart; and it might be that she was growing old but they satisfied her no longer as they used; and suddenly, as she saw the Prime Minister go down the stairs, the gilt rim of the Sir Joshua picture of the little girl with a muff brought back Kilman with a rush; Kilman her enemy. That was satisfying; that was real. Ah, how she hated her—hot, hypocritical, corrupt; with all that power; <pb n="266" facs="pageImages/266.jpg"/> Elizabeth’s seducer; the woman who had crept in to steal and defile (Richard would say, What nonsense!). She hated her: she loved her. It was enemies one wanted, not friends—not Mrs. Durrant and Clara, Sir William and Lady Bradshaw, Miss Truelock and Eleanor Gibson (whom she saw coming upstairs). They must find her if they wanted her. She was for the party!</p>

                                                                                                                  <p>There was her old friend Sir Harry.</p>

                                                                                                                     <p>“Dear Sir Harry!” she said, going up to the fine old fellow who had produced more bad pictures than any other two Academicians in the whole of St. John’s Wood (they were always of cattle, standing in sunset pools absorbing moisture, or signifying, for he had a certain range of gesture, by the raising of one foreleg and the toss of the antlers, “the Approach of the Stranger”—all his activities, dining out, racing, were founded on cattle standing absorbing moisture in sunset pools).</p>

                                                                                                                        <p>“What are you laughing at?” she asked him. For Willie Titcomb and Sir Harry and Herbert Ainsty were all laughing. But no. Sir Harry could not tell Clarissa Dalloway (much though he liked her; of her type he thought her perfect, and threatened to paint her) his stories of the music hall stage. He chaffed her about her party. He missed his brandy. <pb n="267" facs="pageImages/267.jpg"/> These circles, he said, were above him. But he liked her; respected her, in spite of her damnable, difficult upper-class refinement, which made it impossible to ask Clarissa Dalloway to sit on his knee. And up came that wandering will-o’-the-wisp, that vagulous phosphorescence, old Mrs. Hilbery, stretching her hands to the blaze of his laughter (about the Duke and the Lady), which, as she heard it across the room, seemed to reassure her on a point which sometimes bothered her if she woke early in the morning and did not like to call her maid for a cup of tea; how it is certain we must die.</p>

                                                                                                                           <p>“They won’t tell us their stories,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                              <p>“Dear Clarissa!” exclaimed Mrs. Hilbery. She looked to-night, she said, so like her mother as she first saw her walking in a garden in a grey hat.</p>

                                                                                                                                 <p>And really Clarissa’s eyes filled with tears. Her mother, walking in a garden! But alas, she must go.</p>

                                                                                                                                    <p>For there was Professor Brierly, who lectured on Milton, talking to little Jim Hutton (who was unable even for a party like this to compass both tie and waistcoat or make his hair lie flat), and even at this distance they were quarrelling, she could see. For Professor Brierly was a very queer fish. With all those degrees, honours, lectureships between him <pb n="268" facs="pageImages/268.jpg"/> and the scribblers he suspected instantly an atmosphere not favourable to his queer compound; his prodigious learning and timidity; his wintry charm without cordiality; his innocence blent with snobbery; he quivered if made conscious by a lady’s unkempt hair, a youth’s boots, of an underworld, very creditable doubtless, of rebels, of ardent young people; of would-be geniuses, and intimated with a little toss of the head, with a sniff—Humph!—the value of moderation; of some slight training in the classics in order to appreciate Milton. Professor Brierly (Clarissa could see) wasn’t hitting it off with little Jim Hutton (who wore red socks, his black being at the laundry) about Milton. She interrupted.</p>

                                                                                                                                       <p>She said she loved Bach. So did Hutton. That was the bond between them, and Hutton (a very bad poet) always felt that Mrs. Dalloway was far the best of the great ladies who took an interest in art. It was odd how strict she was. About music she was purely impersonal. She was rather a prig. But how charming to look at! She made her house so nice if it weren’t for her Professors. Clarissa had half a mind to snatch him off and set him down at the piano in the back room. For he played divinely.</p>

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                                                                                                                                          <p>“But the noise!” she said. “The noise!”</p>

                                                                                                                                             <p>“The sign of a successful party.” Nodding urbanely, the Professor stepped delicately off.</p>

                                                                                                                                                <p>“He knows everything in the whole world about Milton,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                   <p>“Does he indeed?” said Hutton, who would imitate the Professor throughout Hampstead; the Professor on Milton; the Professor on moderation; the Professor stepping delicately off.</p>

                                                                                                                                                      <p>But she must speak to that couple, said Clarissa, Lord Gayton and Nancy Blow.</p>

                                                                                                                                                         <p>Not that they added perceptibly to the noise of the party. They were not talking (perceptibly) as they stood side by side by the yellow curtains. They would soon be off elsewhere, together; and never had very much to say in any circumstances. They looked; that was all. That was enough. They looked so clean, so sound, she with an apricot bloom of powder and paint, but he scrubbed, rinsed, with the eyes of a bird, so that no ball could pass him or stroke surprise him. He struck, he leapt, accurately, on the spot. Ponies’ mouths quivered at the end of his reins. He had his honours, ancestral monuments, banners hanging in the church at home. He had his duties; his tenants; a mother and sisters; had been all day at Lords, and that was what they <pb n="270" facs="pageImages/270.jpg"/> were talking about—cricket, cousins, the movies—when Mrs. Dalloway came up. Lord Gayton liked her most awfully. So did Miss Blow. She had such charming manners.</p>

                                                                                                                                                            <p>“It is angelic—it is delicious of you to have come!” she said. She loved Lords; she loved youth, and Nancy, dressed at enormous expense by the greatest artists in Paris, stood there looking as if her body had merely put forth, of its own accord, a green frill.</p>

                                                                                                                                                               <p>“I had meant to have dancing,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                  <p>For the young people could not talk. And why should they? Shout, embrace, swing, be up at dawn; carry sugar to ponies; kiss and caress the snouts of adorable chows; and then all tingling and streaming, plunge and swim. But the enormous resources of the English language, the power it bestows, after all, of communicating feelings (at their age, she and Peter would have been arguing all the evening), was not for them. They would solidify young. They would be good beyond measure to the people on the estate, but alone, perhaps, rather dull.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“What a pity!” she said. “I had hoped to have dancing.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                        <p>It was so extraordinarily nice of them to have <pb n="271" facs="pageImages/271.jpg"/> come! But talk of dancing! The rooms were packed.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                           <p>There was old Aunt Helena in her shawl. Alas, she must leave them—Lord Gayton and Nancy Blow. There was old Miss Parry, her aunt.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                              <p>For Miss Helena Parry was not dead: Miss Parry was alive. She was past eighty. She ascended staircases slowly with a stick. She was placed in a chair (Richard had seen to it). People who had known Burma in the ’seventies were always led up to her. Where had Peter got to? They used to be such friends. For at the mention of India, or even Ceylon, her eyes (only one was glass) slowly deepened, became blue, beheld, not human beings—she had no tender memories, no proud illusions about Viceroys, Generals, Mutinies—it was orchids she saw, and mountain passes and herself carried on the backs of coolies in the ’sixties over solitary peaks; or descending to uproot orchids (startling blossoms, never beheld before) which she painted in water-colour; an indomitable Englishwoman, fretful if disturbed by the War, say, which dropped a bomb at her very door, from her deep meditation over orchids and her own figure journeying in the ’sixties in India—but here was Peter.</p>

                  <pb n="272" facs="pageImages/272.jpg"/>

         <p>“Come and talk to Aunt Helena about Burma,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>And yet he had not had a word with her all the evening!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>“We will talk later,” said Clarissa, leading him up to Aunt Helena, in her white shawl, with her stick.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>“Peter Walsh,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>That meant nothing.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>Clarissa had asked her. It was tiring; it was noisy; but Clarissa had asked her. So she had come. It was a pity that they lived in London—Richard and Clarissa. If only for Clarissa’s health it would have been better to live in the country. But Clarissa had always been fond of society.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“He has been in Burma,” said Clarissa.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>Ah. She could not resist recalling what Charles Darwin had said about her little book on the orchids of Burma.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>(Clarissa must speak to Lady Bruton.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>No doubt it was forgotten now, her book on the orchids of Burma, but it went into three editions before 1870, she told Peter. She remembered him now. He had been at Bourton (and he had left her, Peter Walsh remembered, without a word in <pb n="273" facs="pageImages/273.jpg"/> the drawing-room that night when Clarissa had asked him to come boating).</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“Richard so much enjoyed his lunch party,” said Clarissa to Lady Bruton.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>“Richard was the greatest possible help,” Lady Bruton replied. “He helped me to write a letter. And how are you?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“Oh, perfectly well!” said Clarissa. (Lady Bruton detested illness in the wives of politicians.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“And there’s Peter Walsh!” said Lady Bruton (for she could never think of anything to say to Clarissa; though she liked her. She had lots of fine qualities; but they had nothing in common—she and Clarissa. It might have been better if Richard had married a woman with less charm, who would have helped him more in his work. He had lost his chance of the Cabinet). “There’s Peter Walsh!” she said, shaking hands with that agreeable sinner, that very able fellow who should have made a name for himself but hadn’t (always in difficulties with women), and, of course, old Miss Parry. Wonderful old lady!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>Lady Bruton stood by Miss Parry’s chair, a spectral grenadier, draped in black, inviting Peter Walsh to lunch; cordial; but without small talk, <pb n="274" facs="pageImages/274.jpg"/> remembering nothing whatever about the flora or fauna of India. She had been there, of course; had stayed with three Viceroys; thought some of the Indian civilians uncommonly fine fellows; but what a tragedy it was—the state of India! The Prime Minister had just been telling her (old Miss Parry huddled up in her shawl, did not care what the Prime Minister had just been telling her), and Lady Bruton would like to have Peter Walsh’s opinion, he being fresh from the centre, and she would get Sir Sampson to meet him, for really it prevented her from sleeping at night, the folly of it, the wickedness she might say, being a soldier’s daughter. She was an old woman now, not good for much. But her house, her servants, her good friend Milly Brush—did he remember her?—were all there only asking to be used if—if they could be of help, in short. For she never spoke of England, but this isle of men, this dear, dear land, was in her blood (without reading Shakespeare), and if ever a woman could have worn the helmet and shot the arrow, could have led troops to attack, ruled with indomitable justice barbarian hordes and lain under a shield noseless in a church, or made a green grass mound on some primeval hillside, that woman <pb n="275" facs="pageImages/275.jpg"/> was Millicent Bruton. Debarred by her sex and some truancy, too, of the logical faculty (she found it impossible to write a letter to the Times), she had the thought of Empire always at hand, and had acquired from her association with that armoured goddess her ramrod bearing, her robustness of demeanour, so that one could not figure her even in death parted from the earth or roaming territories over which, in some spiritual shape, the Union Jack had ceased to fly. To be not English even among the dead—no, no! Impossible!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>But was it Lady Bruton (whom she used to know)? Was it Peter Walsh grown grey? Lady Rosseter asked herself (who had been Sally Seton). It was old Miss Parry certainly—the old aunt who used to be so cross when she stayed at Bourton. Never should she forget running along the passage naked, and being sent for by Miss Parry! And Clarissa! oh Clarissa! Sally caught her by the arm.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>Clarissa stopped beside them.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“But I can’t stay,” she said. “I shall come later. Wait,” she said, looking at Peter and Sally. They must wait, she meant, until all these people had gone.</p>

         <p>“I shall come back,” she said, looking at her old <pb n="276" facs="pageImages/276.jpg"/> friends, Sally and Peter, who were shaking hands, and Sally, remembering the past no doubt, was laughing.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>But her voice was wrung of its old ravishing richness; her eyes not aglow as they used to be, when she smoked cigars, when she ran down the passage to fetch her sponge bag, without a stitch of clothing on her, and Ellen Atkins asked, What if the gentlemen had met her? But everybody forgave her. She stole a chicken from the larder because she was hungry in the night; she smoked cigars in her bedroom; she left a priceless book in the punt. But everybody adored her (except perhaps Papa). It was her warmth; her vitality—she would paint, she would write. Old women in the village never to this day forgot to ask after “your friend in the red cloak who seemed so bright.” She accused Hugh Whitbread, of all people (and there he was, her old friend Hugh, talking to the Portuguese Ambassador), of kissing her in the smoking-room to punish her for saying that women should have votes. Vulgar men did, she said. And Clarissa remembered having to persuade her not to denounce him at family prayers—which she was capable of doing with her daring, her recklessness, her melodramatic love of being the centre of everything and creating <pb n="277" facs="pageImages/277.jpg"/> scenes, and it was bound, Clarissa used to think, to end in some awful tragedy; her death; her martyrdom; instead of which she had married, quite unexpectedly, a bald man with a large buttonhole who owned, it was said, cotton mills at Manchester. And she had five boys!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>She and Peter had settled down together. They were talking: it seemed so familiar—that they should be talking. They would discuss the past. With the two of them (more even than with Richard) she shared her past; the garden; the trees; old Joseph Breitkopf singing Brahms without any voice; the drawing-room wall-paper; the smell of the mats. A part of this Sally must always be; Peter must always be. But she must leave them. There were the Bradshaws, whom she disliked. She must go up to Lady Bradshaw (in grey and silver, balancing like a sea-lion at the edge of its tank, barking for invitations, Duchesses, the typical successful man’s wife), she must go up to Lady Bradshaw and say....</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>But Lady Bradshaw anticipated her.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“We are shockingly late, dear Mrs. Dalloway, we hardly dared to come in,” she said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>And Sir William, who looked very distinguished, with his grey hair and blue eyes, said yes; they had <pb n="278" facs="pageImages/278.jpg"/> not been able to resist the temptation. He was talking to Richard about that Bill probably, which they wanted to get through the Commons. Why did the sight of him, talking to Richard, curl her up? He looked what he was, a great doctor. A man absolutely at the head of his profession, very powerful, rather worn. For think what cases came before him—people in the uttermost depths of misery; people on the verge of insanity; husbands and wives. He had to decide questions of appalling difficulty. Yet—what she felt was, one wouldn’t like Sir William to see one unhappy. No; not that man.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>“How is your son at Eton?” she asked Lady Bradshaw.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>He had just missed his eleven, said Lady Bradshaw, because of the mumps. His father minded even more than he did, she thought “being,” she said, “nothing but a great boy himself.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>Clarissa looked at Sir William, talking to Richard. He did not look like a boy—not in the least like a boy. She had once gone with some one to ask his advice. He had been perfectly right; extremely sensible. But Heavens—what a relief to get out to the street again! There was some poor wretch sobbing, she remembered, in the waiting-room. But she did not know what it was—about Sir William; what <pb n="279" facs="pageImages/279.jpg"/> exactly she disliked. Only Richard agreed with her, “didn’t like his taste, didn’t like his smell.” But he was extraordinarily able. They were talking about this Bill. Some case, Sir William was mentioning, lowering his voice. It had its bearing upon what he was saying about the deferred effects of shell shock. There must be some provision in the Bill.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>Sinking her voice, drawing Mrs. Dalloway into the shelter of a common femininity, a common pride in the illustrious qualities of husbands and their sad tendency to overwork, Lady Bradshaw (poor goose—one didn’t dislike her) murmured how, “just as we were starting, my husband was called up on the telephone, a very sad case. A young man (that is what Sir William is telling Mr. Dalloway) had killed himself. He had been in the army.” Oh! thought Clarissa, in the middle of my party, here’s death, she thought.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>She went on, into the little room where the Prime Minister had gone with Lady Bruton. Perhaps there was somebody there. But there was nobody. The chairs still kept the impress of the Prime Minister and Lady Bruton, she turned deferentially, he sitting four-square, authoritatively. They had been talking about India. There was nobody. The <pb n="280" facs="pageImages/280.jpg"/> party’s splendour fell to the floor, so strange it was to come in alone in her finery.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>What business had the Bradshaws to talk of death at her party? A young man had killed himself. And they talked of it at her party—the Bradshaws talked of death. He had killed himself—but how? Always her body went through it first, when she was told, suddenly, of an accident; her dress flamed, her body burnt. He had thrown himself from a window. Up had flashed the ground; through him, blundering, bruising, went the rusty spikes. There he lay with a thud, thud, thud in his brain, and then a suffocation of blackness. So she saw it. But why had he done it? And the Bradshaws talked of it at her party!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>She had once thrown a shilling into the Serpentine, never anything more. But he had flung it away. They went on living (she would have to go back; the rooms were still crowded; people kept on coming). They (all day she had been thinking of Bourton, of Peter, of Sally), they would grow old. A thing there was that mattered; a thing, wreathed about with chatter, defaced, obscured in her own life, let drop every day in corruption, lies, chatter. This he had preserved. Death was defiance. Death was an attempt to communicate; people feeling the
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <pb n="281" facs="pageImages/282.jpg"/>impossibility of reaching the centre which, mystically, evaded them; closeness drew apart; rapture faded, one was alone. There was an embrace in death. </p>
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>But this young man who had killed himself—had he plunged holding his treasure? “If it were now to die, ’twere now to be most happy,” she had said to herself once, coming down in white.</p>

         <p>Or there were the poets and thinkers. Suppose he had had that passion, and had gone to Sir William Bradshaw, a great doctor yet to her obscurely evil, without sex or lust, extremely polite to women, but capable of some indescribable outrage—forcing your soul, that was it—if this young man had gone to him, and Sir William had impressed him, like that, with his power, might he not then have said (indeed she felt it now), Life is made intolerable; they make life intolerable, men like that?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>Then (she had felt it only this morning) there was the terror; the overwhelming incapacity, one’s parents giving it into one’s hands, this life, to be lived to the end, to be walked with serenely; there was in the depths of her heart an awful fear. Even now, quite often if Richard had not been there reading the Times, so that she could crouch like a bird <pb n="282" facs="pageImages/282.jpg"/> and gradually revive, send roaring up that immeasurable delight, rubbing stick to stick, one thing with another, she must have perished. But that young man had killed himself.</p>

         <p>Somehow it was her disaster—her disgrace. It was her punishment to see sink and disappear here a man, there a woman, in this profound darkness, and she forced to stand here in her evening dress. She had schemed; she had pilfered. She was never wholly admirable. She had wanted success. Lady Bexborough and the rest of it. And once she had walked on the terrace at Bourton.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>It was due to Richard; she had never been so happy. Nothing could be slow enough; nothing last too long. No pleasure could equal, she thought, straightening the chairs, pushing in one book on the shelf, this having done with the triumphs of youth, lost herself in the process of living, to find it, with a shock of delight, as the sun rose, as the day sank. Many a time had she gone, at Bourton when they were all talking, to look at the sky; or seen it between people’s shoulders at dinner; seen it in London when she could not sleep. She walked to the window.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>It held, foolish as the idea was, something of her own in it, this country sky, this sky above Westminster. <pb n="283" facs="pageImages/283.jpg"/> She parted the curtains; she looked. Oh, but how surprising!—in the room opposite the old lady stared straight at her! She was going to bed. And the sky. It will be a solemn sky, she had thought, it will be a dusky sky, turning away its cheek in beauty. But there it was—ashen pale, raced over quickly by tapering vast clouds. It was new to her. The wind must have risen. She was going to bed, in the room opposite. It was fascinating to watch her, moving about, that old lady, crossing the room, coming to the window. Could she see her? It was fascinating, with people still laughing and shouting in the drawing-room, to watch that old woman, quite quietly, going to bed. She pulled the blind now. The clock began striking. The young man had killed himself; but she did not pity him; with the clock striking the hour, one, two, three, she did not pity him, with all this going on. There! the old lady had put out her light! the whole house was dark now with this going on, she repeated, and the words came to her, Fear no more the heat of the sun. She must go back to them. But what an extraordinary night! She felt somehow very like him—the young man who had killed himself. She felt glad that he had done it; thrown it away. The clock was striking. The leaden circles <pb n="284" facs="pageImages/284.jpg"/> dissolved in the air. He made her feel the beauty; made her feel the fun. But she must go back. She must assemble. She must find Sally and Peter. And she came in from the little room.</p>

         <p>“But where is Clarissa?” said Peter. He was sitting on the sofa with Sally. (After all these years he really could not call her “Lady Rosseter.”) “Where’s the woman gone to?” he asked. “Where’s Clarissa?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>Sally supposed, and so did Peter for the matter of that, that there were people of importance, politicians, whom neither of them knew unless by sight in the picture papers, whom Clarissa had to be nice to, had to talk to. She was with them. Yet there was Richard Dalloway not in the Cabinet. He hadn’t been a success, Sally supposed? For herself, she scarcely ever read the papers. She sometimes saw his name mentioned. But then—well, she lived a very solitary life, in the wilds, Clarissa would say, among great merchants, great manufacturers, men, after all, who did things. She had done things too!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>“I have five sons!” she told him.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>Lord, Lord, what a change had come over her! the softness of motherhood; its egotism too. Last time they met, Peter remembered, had been among the <pb n="285" facs="pageImages/285.jpg"/> cauliflowers in the moonlight, the leaves “like rough bronze” she had said, with her literary turn; and she had picked a rose. She had marched him up and down that awful night, after the scene by the fountain; he was to catch the midnight train. Heavens, he had wept!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>That was his old trick, opening a pocket-knife, thought Sally, always opening and shutting a knife when he got excited. They had been very, very intimate, she and Peter Walsh, when he was in love with Clarissa, and there was that dreadful, ridiculous scene over Richard Dalloway at lunch. She had called Richard “Wickham.” Why not call Richard “Wickham”? Clarissa had flared up! and indeed they had never seen each other since, she and Clarissa, not more than half a dozen times perhaps in the last ten years. And Peter Walsh had gone off to India, and she had heard vaguely that he had made an unhappy marriage, and she didn’t know whether he had any children, and she couldn’t ask him, for he had changed. He was rather shrivelled-looking, but kinder, she felt, and she had a real affection for him, for he was connected with her youth, and she still had a little Emily Brontë he had given her, and he was to write, surely? In those days he was to write.</p>

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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>“Have you written?” she asked him, spreading her hand, her firm and shapely hand, on her knee in a way he recalled.</p>

         <p>“Not a word!” said Peter Walsh, and she laughed.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>She was still attractive, still a personage, Sally Seton. But who was this Rosseter? He wore two camellias on his wedding day—that was all Peter knew of him. “They have myriads of servants, miles of conservatories,” Clarissa wrote; something like that. Sally owned it with a shout of laughter.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“Yes, I have ten thousand a year”—whether before the tax was paid or after, she couldn’t remember, for her husband, “whom you must meet,” she said, “whom you would like,” she said, did all that for her.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>And Sally used to be in rags and tatters. She had pawned her grandmother’s ring which Marie Antoinette had given her great-grandfather to come to Bourton.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>Oh yes, Sally remembered; she had it still, a ruby ring which Marie Antoinette had given her great-grandfather. She never had a penny to her name in those days, and going to Bourton always meant some frightful pinch. But going to Bourton had meant so much to her—had kept her sane, she believed, <pb n="287" facs="pageImages/287.jpg"/> so unhappy had she been at home. But that was all a thing of the past—all over now, she said. And Mr. Parry was dead; and Miss Parry was still alive. Never had he had such a shock in his life! said Peter. He had been quite certain she was dead. And the marriage had been, Sally supposed, a success? And that very handsome, very self-possessed young woman was Elizabeth, over there, by the curtains, in red.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>(She was like a poplar, she was like a river, she was like a hyacinth, Willie Titcomb was thinking. Oh how much nicer to be in the country and do what she liked! She could hear her poor dog howling, Elizabeth was certain.) She was not a bit like Clarissa, Peter Walsh said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“Oh, Clarissa!” said Sally.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>What Sally felt was simply this. She had owed Clarissa an enormous amount. They had been friends, not acquaintances, friends, and she still saw Clarissa all in white going about the house with her hands full of flowers—to this day tobacco plants made her think of Bourton. But—did Peter understand?—she lacked something. Lacked what was it? She had charm; she had extraordinary charm. But to be frank (and she felt that Peter was an old friend, a real friend—did absence matter? <pb n="288" facs="pageImages/288.jpg"/> did distance matter? She had often wanted to write to him, but torn it up, yet felt he understood, for people understand without things being said, as one realises growing old, and old she was, had been that afternoon to see her sons at Eton, where they had the mumps), to be quite frank then, how could Clarissa have done it?—married Richard Dalloway? a sportsman, a man who cared only for dogs. Literally, when he came into the room he smelt of the stables. And then all this? She waved her hand.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>Hugh Whitbread it was, strolling past in his white waistcoat, dim, fat, blind, past everything he looked, except self-esteem and comfort.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>“He’s not going to recognise us,” said Sally, and really she hadn’t the courage—so that was Hugh! the admirable Hugh!</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                <p>“And what does he do?” she asked Peter.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>He blacked the King’s boots or counted bottles at Windsor, Peter told her. Peter kept his sharp tongue still! But Sally must be frank, Peter said. That kiss now, Hugh’s.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>On the lips, she assured him, in the smoking-room one evening. She went straight to Clarissa in a rage. Hugh didn’t do such things! Clarissa said, the admirable Hugh! Hugh’s socks were without <pb n="289" facs="pageImages/289.jpg"/> exception the most beautiful she had ever seen—and now his evening dress. Perfect! And had he children?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>“Everybody in the room has six sons at Eton,” Peter told her, except himself. He, thank God, had none. No sons, no daughters, no wife. Well, he didn’t seem to mind, said Sally. He looked younger, she thought, than any of them.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>But it had been a silly thing to do, in many ways, Peter said, to marry like that; “a perfect goose she was,” he said, but, he said, “we had a splendid time of it,” but how could that be? Sally wondered; what did he mean? and how odd it was to know him and yet not know a single thing that had happened to him. And did he say it out of pride? Very likely, for after all it must be galling for him (though he was an oddity, a sort of sprite, not at all an ordinary man), it must be lonely at his age to have no home, nowhere to go to. But he must stay with them for weeks and weeks. Of course he would; he would love to stay with them, and that was how it came out. All these years the Dalloways had never been once. Time after time they had asked them. Clarissa (for it was Clarissa of course) would not come. For, said Sally, Clarissa was at heart a snob—one had to admit it, a snob. And it was that that <pb n="290" facs="pageImages/290.jpg"/> was between them, she was convinced. Clarissa thought she had married beneath her, her husband being—she was proud of it—a miner’s son. Every penny they had he had earned. As a little boy (her voice trembled) he had carried great sacks.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>(And so she would go on, Peter felt, hour after hour; the miner’s son; people thought she had married beneath her; her five sons; and what was the other thing—plants, hydrangeas, syringas, very, very rare hibiscus lilies that never grow north of the Suez Canal, but she, with one gardener in a suburb near Manchester, had beds of them, positively beds! Now all that Clarissa had escaped, unmaternal as she was.)</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  <p>A snob was she? Yes, in many ways. Where was she, all this time? It was getting late.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>“Yet,” said Sally, “when I heard Clarissa was giving a party, I felt I couldn’t not come—must see her again (and I’m staying in Victoria Street, practically next door). So I just came without an invitation. But,” she whispered, “tell me, do. Who is this?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>It was Mrs. Hilbery, looking for the door. For how late it was getting! And, she murmured, as the night grew later, as people went, one found old friends; quiet nooks and corners; and the loveliest <pb n="291" facs="pageImages/291.jpg"/> views. Did they know, she asked, that they were surrounded by an enchanted garden? Lights and trees and wonderful gleaming lakes and the sky. Just a few fairy lamps, Clarissa Dalloway had said, in the back garden! But she was a magician! It was a park.... And she didn’t know their names, but friends she knew they were, friends without names, songs without words, always the best. But there were so many doors, such unexpected places, she could not find her way.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“Old Mrs. Hilbery,” said Peter; but who was that? that lady standing by the curtain all the evening, without speaking? He knew her face; connected her with Bourton. Surely she used to cut up underclothes at the large table in the window? Davidson, was that her name?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>“Oh, that is Ellie Henderson,” said Sally. Clarissa was really very hard on her. She was a cousin, very poor. Clarissa was hard on people.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>She was rather, said Peter. Yet, said Sally, in her emotional way, with a rush of that enthusiasm which Peter used to love her for, yet dreaded a little now, so effusive she might become—how generous to her friends Clarissa was! and what a rare quality one found it, and how sometimes at night or on Christmas Day, when she counted up her <pb n="292" facs="pageImages/292.jpg"/> blessings, she put that friendship first. They were young; that was it. Clarissa was pure-hearted; that was it. Peter would think her sentimental. So she was. For she had come to feel that it was the only thing worth saying—what one felt. Cleverness was silly. One must say simply what one felt.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    <p>“But I do not know,” said Peter Walsh, “what I feel.”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       <p>Poor Peter, thought Sally. Why did not Clarissa come and talk to them? That was what he was longing for. She knew it. All the time he was thinking only of Clarissa, and was fidgeting with his knife.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          <p>He had not found life simple, Peter said. His relations with Clarissa had not been simple. It had spoilt his life, he said. (They had been so intimate—he and Sally Seton, it was absurd not to say it.) One could not be in love twice, he said. And what could she say? Still, it is better to have loved (but he would think her sentimental—he used to be so sharp). He must come and stay with them in Manchester. That is all very true, he said. All very true. He would love to come and stay with them, directly he had done what he had to do in London.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             <p>And Clarissa had cared for him more than she <pb n="293" facs="pageImages/293.jpg"/> had ever cared for Richard. Sally was positive of that.</p>

         <p>“No, no, no!” said Peter (Sally should not have said that—she went too far). That good fellow—there he was at the end of the room, holding forth, the same as ever, dear old Richard. Who was he talking to? Sally asked, that very distinguished-looking man? Living in the wilds as she did, she had an insatiable curiosity to know who people were. But Peter did not know. He did not like his looks, he said, probably a Cabinet Minister. Of them all, Richard seemed to him the best, he said—the most disinterested.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   <p>“But what has he done?” Sally asked. Public work, she supposed. And were they happy together? Sally asked (she herself was extremely happy); for, she admitted, she knew nothing about them, only jumped to conclusions, as one does, for what can one know even of the people one lives with every day? she asked. Are we not all prisoners? She had read a wonderful play about a man who scratched on the wall of his cell, and she had felt that was true of life—one scratched on the wall. Despairing of human relationships (people were so difficult), she often went into her garden and got from her flowers a peace which men and women <pb n="294" facs="pageImages/294.jpg"/> never gave her. But no; he did not like cabbages; he preferred human beings, Peter said. Indeed, the young are beautiful, Sally said, watching Elizabeth cross the room. How unlike Clarissa at her age! Could he make anything of her? She would not open her lips. Not much, not yet, Peter admitted. She was like a lily, Sally said, a lily by the side of a pool. But Peter did not agree that we know nothing. We know everything, he said; at least he did.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      <p>But these two, Sally whispered, these two coming now (and really she must go, if Clarissa did not come soon), this distinguished-looking man and his rather common-looking wife who had been talking to Richard—what could one know about people like that?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         <p>“That they’re damnable humbugs,” said Peter, looking at them casually. He made Sally laugh.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            <p>But Sir William Bradshaw stopped at the door to look at a picture. He looked in the corner for the engraver’s name. His wife looked too. Sir William Bradshaw was so interested in art.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               <p>When one was young, said Peter, one was too much excited to know people. Now that one was old, fifty-two to be precise (Sally was fifty-five, in body, she said, but her heart was like a girl’s of twenty); now that one was mature then, said Peter, <pb n="295" facs="pageImages/295.jpg"/> one could watch, one could understand, and one did not lose the power of feeling, he said. No, that is true, said Sally. She felt more deeply, more passionately, every year. It increased, he said, alas, perhaps, but one should be glad of it—it went on increasing in his experience. There was some one in India. He would like to tell Sally about her. He would like Sally to know her. She was married, he said. She had two small children. They must all come to Manchester, said Sally—he must promise before they left.</p>

         <p>There’s Elizabeth, he said, she feels not half what we feel, not yet. But, said Sally, watching Elizabeth go to her father, one can see they are devoted to each other. She could feel it by the way Elizabeth went to her father.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     <p>For her father had been looking at her, as he stood talking to the Bradshaws, and he had thought to himself, Who is that lovely girl? And suddenly he realised that it was his Elizabeth, and he had not recognised her, she looked so lovely in her pink frock! Elizabeth had felt him looking at her as she talked to Willie Titcomb. So she went to him and they stood together, now that the party was almost over, looking at the people going, and the rooms getting emptier and emptier, with things scattered on <pb n="296" facs="pageImages/296.jpg"/> the floor. Even Ellie Henderson was going, nearly last of all, though no one had spoken to her, but she had wanted to see everything, to tell Edith. And Richard and Elizabeth were rather glad it was over, but Richard was proud of his daughter. And he had not meant to tell her, but he could not help telling her. He had looked at her, he said, and he had wondered, Who is that lovely girl? and it was his daughter! That did make her happy. But her poor dog was howling.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        <p>“Richard has improved. You are right,” said Sally. “I shall go and talk to him. I shall say good-night. What does the brain matter,” said Lady Rosseter, getting up, “compared with the heart?”</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           <p>“I will come,” said Peter, but he sat on for a moment. What is this terror? what is this ecstasy? he thought to himself. What is it that fills me with extraordinary excitement?</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              <p>It is Clarissa, he said.</p>

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 <p>For there she was.</p>

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                    <titlePart type="main">CHARLOTTE A TALE OF TRUTH.<lb/>
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                    <titlePart type="sub"> By Mrs. ROWSON,<lb/>
                            </titlePart>
                    <titlePart type="sub"> OF THE NEW THEATRE PHILADELPHIA; AUTHOR of VICTORIA, THE
                        INQUISITOR, FILLE DE CHAMBRE.<lb/>
                            </titlePart>
                    <titlePart type="sub">IN TWO VOLUMES.<lb/>
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                <epigraph xml:lang="eng">
                    <quote>
                        <lb/>
                        <l/>She was her parents only joy: <l/>They had but one — one darling child.
                            <lb/>
                                <bibl>ROMEO AND JULIET</bibl>
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                    <quote>
                        <lb/>
                        <l>Her form was faultless, and her mind,</l>
                        <l>Untainted yet by art,</l>
                        <l>Was nobly, just, humane, and kind,</l>
                        <l>And virtue warm'd her heart.</l>
                        <l>But ah! the cruel spoiler came — </l>
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                    <lb/>VOL. I. <pubPlace>SECOND PHILADELPHIA EDITION<lb/>
                            </pubPlace>
                    <pubPlace>PRINTED FOR MATHEW CAREY, NO. 118, MARKET-STREET.<lb/>
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                    <date>OCT. 9 — 1794.<lb/>
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                <p> "IT may be a Tale of Truth, for it is not unnatural, and it is a tale of real
                    distress — Charlotte, by the artifice of a teacher, recommended to a school,
                    from humanity rather than a conviction of her integrity, or the regularity of
                    her former conduct, is enticed from her governess, and accompanies a young
                    officer to America. — The marriage ceremony, if not forgotten, is postponed, and
                    Charlotte dies a martyr to the inconstancy of her lover and treachery of his
                    friend. — The situations are artless and affecting — the descriptions natural
                    and pathetic; we should feel for Charlotte, if such a person ever existed, who,
                    for one error, scarcely, perhaps, deserved so severe a punishment. If it is a
                    fiction, poetic justice is not, we think, properly distributed." — Crit. Review,
                    April 1791, page 468. </p>
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                <head>PREFACE.</head>
                <p> FOR the perusal of the young and thoughtless of the fair sex, this Tale of Truth
                    is designed; and I could wish my fair readers to consider it as not merely the
                    effusion of Fancy, but as a reality. The circumstances on which I have founded
                    this novel were related to me some little time since by an old lady who had
                    personally known Charlotte, though she concealed the real names of the
                    characters, and likewise the place where the unfortunate scenes were acted: yet
                    as it was impossible to offer a relation to the public in such an imperfect
                    state, I have thrown over the whole a slight veil of fiction, and substituted
                    names and places according to my own fancy. The principal characters in this
                    little tale are now consigned to the silent tomb: it can therefore hurt the
                    feelings of no one; and may, I flatter myself, be of service to some who are so
                    un fortunate as to have neither friends to advise, or understanding to direct
                    them, through the various and unexpected evils that attend a young and
                    unprotected woman in her first entrance into life. </p>
                <p> While the tear of compassion still trembled in my eye for the fate of the
                    unhappy Charlotte, I may have children of my own, said I, to whom this recital
                        <pb n="vi"/> may be of use, and if to your own children, said Benevolence,
                    why not to the many daughters of Misfortune who, deprived of natural friends, or
                    spoilt by a mistaken education, are thrown on an unfeeling world without the
                    least power to defend themselves from the snares not only of the other sex, but
                    from the more dangerous arts of the profligate of their own. </p>
                <p> Sensible as I am that a novel writer, at a time when such a variety of works are
                    ushered into the world under that name, stands but a poor chance for fame in the
                    annals of literature, but conscious that I wrote with a mind anxious for the
                    happiness of that sex whose morals and conduct have so powerful an influence on
                    mankind in general; and convinced that I have not wrote a line that conveys a
                    wrong idea to the head or a corrupt wish to the heart, I shall rest satisfied in
                    the purity of my own intentions, and if I merit not applause, I feel that I
                    dread not censure. </p>
                <p> If the following tale should save one hapless fair one from the errors which
                    ruined poor Charlotte, or rescue from impending misery the heart of one anxious
                    parent, I shall feel a much higher gratification in reflecting on this trifling
                    performance, than could possibly result from the applause which might attend the
                    most elegant finished piece of literature whose tendency might deprave the heart
                    or mislead the understanding. </p>
            </div>
        </front>
        <body>
            <div n="1" type="volume">
                <pb n="7"/>
                <head>CHARLOTTE.</head>
                <div n="1" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER I.</head>
                    <head>A BOARDING SCHOOL.</head>
                    <p> "ARE you for a walk," said Montraville to his companion, as they arose from
                        table, "are you for a walk? or shall we order the chaise and proceed to
                        Portsmouth?" Belcour preferred the former and they sauntered out to view the
                        town, and to make remarks on the inhabitants, as they returned from church. </p>
                    <p> Montraville was a Lieutenant in the army: Belcour was his brother officer:
                        they had been to take leave of their friends previous to their departure for
                        America, and were now returning to Portsmouth, where the troops waited
                        orders for embarkation. They had stopped at Chichester to dine; and knowing
                        they had sufficient time to reach the place of destination before dark, and
                        yet allow them a walk, had resolved, it being Sunday afternoon, to take a
                        survey of the Chichester ladies as they returned from their devotions. </p>
                    <p> They had gratified their curiosity, and were preparing to return to the inn
                        without honouring any of the belles with particular notice, when <pb n="8"/>
                        Madame Du Pont, at the head of her school, descended from the church. Such
                        an assemblage of youth and innocence naturally attracted the young soldiers:
                        they stopped; and, as the little cavalcade passed, almost involuntarily
                        pulled off their hats. A tall, elegant girl looked at Montraville and
                        blushed: he instantly recollected the features of Charlotte Temple, whom he
                        had once seen and danced with at a ball at Portsmouth. At that time he
                        thought on her only as a very lovely child, she being then only thirteen;
                        but the improvement two years had made in her person, and the blush of
                        recollection which suffused her cheeks as she passed, awakened in his bosom
                        new and pleasing ideas. Vanity led him to think that pleasure at again
                        beholding him might have occasioned the emotion he had witnessed, and the
                        same vanity led him to wish to see her again. </p>
                    <p>"She is the sweetest girl in the world," said he, as he entered the inn.
                        Belcour stared. "Did you not notice her?" continued Montraville: she had on
                        a blue bonnet, and with a pair of lovely eyes of the same colour, has
                        contrived to make me feel devilish odd about the heart."</p>
                    <p>"Pho," said Belcour, "a musket ball from our friends, the Americans, may in
                        less than two months make you feel worse."</p>
                    <p> "I never think of the future," replied Montra ville; but am determined to
                        make the most of <pb n="9"/> the present, and would willingly compound with
                        any kind Familiar who would inform me who the girl is, and how I might be
                        likely to obtain an interview." </p>
                    <p>But no kind Familiar at that time appearing, and the chaise which they had
                        ordered driving up to the door, Montraville and his companion were obliged
                        to take leave of Chichester and its fair inhabitant, and proceed on their
                        journey.</p>
                    <p> But Charlotte had made too great an impression on his mind to be easily
                        eradicated: having therefore spent three whole days in thinking on her and
                        in endeavouring to form some plan for seeing her, he determined to set off
                        for Chichester, and trust to chance either to favour or frustrate his
                        designs. Arriving at the verge of the town, he dismounted, and sending the
                        servant forward with the horses, proceeded toward the place, where, in the
                        midst of an extensive pleasure ground, stood the mansion which contained the
                        lovely Charlotte Temple. Montraville leaned on a broken gate, and looked
                        earnestly at the house. The wall which surrounded it was high, and perhaps
                        the Argus's who guarded the Hesperian fruit within, were more watchful than
                        those famed of old. </p>
                    <p> "'Tis a romantic attempt," said he; "and should I even succeed in seeing and
                        conversing with her, it can be productive of no good: I must of necessity
                        leave England in a few days, and <pb n="10"/> probably may never return; why
                        then should I endeavour to engage the affections of this lovely girl, only
                        to leave her a prey to a thousand inquietudes, of which at present she has
                        no idea? I will return to Portsmouth and think no more about her." </p>
                    <p> The evening now was closed; a serene stilness reigned; and the chaste Queen
                        of Night with her silver crescent faintly illuminated the hemisphere. The
                        mind of Montraville was hushed into composure by the serenity of the
                        surrounding objects. "I will think on her no more," said he, and turned with
                        an intention to leave the place; but as he turned, he saw the gate which led
                        to the pleasure grounds open and two women come out, who walked arm-in-arm
                        across the field. </p>
                    <p> "I will at least see who these are," said he. He overtook them, and giving
                        them the compliments of the evening, begged leave to see them into the more
                        frequented parts of the town: but how was he delighted, when, waiting for an
                        answer, he discovered, under the concealment of a large bonnet, the face of
                        Charlotte Temple. </p>
                    <p>He soon found means to ingratiate himself with her companion, who was a
                        French teacher at the school, and, at parting, slipped a letter he had
                        purposely written, into Charlotte's hand, and five guineas into that of
                        Mademoiselle, who promised she would endeavour to bring her young charge
                        into the field again the next evening.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="2" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="11"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER II.</head>
                    <head>DOMESTIC CONCERNS.</head>
                    <p> MR. Temple was the youngest son of a noble man whose fortune was by no means
                        adequate to the antiquity, grandeur, and I may add, pride of the family. He
                        saw his elder brother made completely wretched by marrying a disagreeable
                        woman, whose fortune helped to prop the sinking dignity of the house; and he
                        beheld his sisters legally prostituted to old, decrepit men, whose titles
                        gave them consequence in the eyes of the world, and whose affluence rendered
                        them splendidly miserable. "I will not sacrifice internal happiness for
                        outward show," said he: "I will seek Content; and, if I find her in a
                        cottage, will embrace her with as much cordiality as I should if seated on a
                        throne." </p>
                    <p>Mr. Temple possessed a small estate of about five hundred pounds a year; and
                        with that he resolved to preserve independence, to marry where the feelings
                        of his heart should direct him, and to confine his expenses within the
                        limits of his income. He had a heart open to every generous feeling of
                        humanity, and a hand ready to dispense to those who wanted part of the
                        blessings he enjoyed himself.</p>
                    <p> As he was universally known to be the friend <pb n="12"/> of the
                        unfortunate, his advice and bounty was frequently solicited; nor was it
                        seldom that he sought out indigent merit, and raised it from obscurity,
                        confining his own expenses within a very narrow compass. </p>
                    <p>"You are a benevolent fellow," said a young officer to him one day; "and I
                        have a great mind to give you a fine subject to exercise the goodness of
                        your heart upon."</p>
                    <p>"You cannot oblige me more," said Temple, "than to point out any way by which
                        I can be serviceable to my fellow creatures."</p>
                    <p>"Come along then," said the young man, "we will go and visit a man who is not
                        in so good a lodging as he deserves; and, were it not that he has an angel
                        with him, who comforts and supports him, he must long since have sunk under
                        his misfortunes." The young man's heart was too full to proceed; and Temple,
                        unwilling to irritate his feeling by making further enquiries, followed him
                        in silence, till they arrived at the fleet prison.</p>
                    <p>The officer enquired for Captain Eldridge: a person led them up several pair
                        of dirty stairs, and pointing to a door which led to a miserable, small
                        apartment, said that was the Captain's room, and retired.</p>
                    <p> The officer, whose name was Blakeney, tapped at the door, and was bid to
                        enter by a voice <pb n="13"/> melodiously soft. He opened the door and
                        discovered to Temple a scene which rivetted him to the spot with
                        astonishment. </p>
                    <p>The apartment, though small, and bearing strong marks of poverty, was neat in
                        the extreme. In an arm-chair, his head reclined upon his hand, his eyes
                        fixed on a book which lay open before him, sat an aged man in a Lieutenant's
                        uniform, which, though threadbare, would sooner call a blush of shame into
                        the face of those who could neglect real merit, than cause the hectic of
                        confusion to glow on the cheeks of him who wore it.</p>
                    <p>Beside him sat a lovely creature busied in painting a fan mount. She was fair
                        as the lily, but sorrow had nipped the rose in her cheek before it was half
                        blown. Her eyes were blue; and her hair, which was light brown, was slightly
                        confined under a plain muslin cap, tied round with a black ribbon; a white
                        linnen gown and plain lawn handkerchief composed the remainder of her dress;
                        and in this simple attire, she was more irresistibly charming to such a
                        heart as Temple's, than she would have been, if adorned with all the
                        splendor of a courtly belle.</p>
                    <p>When they entered, the old man arose from his seat, and shaking Blakeney by
                        the hand with great cordiality, offered Temple his chair; and there being
                        but three in the room, seated himself on the side of his little bed, with
                        evident composure.</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="14"/> "This is a strange place," said he to Temple, "to receive
                        visitors of distinction in; but we must fit our feelings to our station.
                        While I am not ashamed to own the cause which brought me here, why should I
                        blush at my situation? Our misfortunes are not our faults; and where it not
                        for that poor girl — " </p>
                    <p>Here the philosopher was lost in the father. He rose hastily from his seat,
                        and walking toward the window, wiped of a tear which he was afraid would
                        tarnish the cheek of a sailor.</p>
                    <p> Temple cast his eye on Miss Eldridge; a pellucid drop had stolen from her
                        eyes, and fallen upon a rose she was painting. It blotted and discoloured
                        the flower. "'Tis emblematic," said he mentally: "the rose of youth and
                        health soon fades when watered by the tear of affliction." </p>
                    <p>"My friend Blakeney," said he, addressing the old man, "told me I could be of
                        service to you: be so kind then, dear Sir, as to point out some way in which
                        I can relieve the anxiety of your heart and increase the pleasures of my
                        own."</p>
                    <p> "My good young man," said Eldridge, "you know not what you offer. While
                        deprived of my liberty I cannot be free from anxiety on my own account; but
                        that is a trifling concern; my anxious thoughts extend to one more dear a
                        thousand times than life: I am a poor weak old man, and must expect in a few
                        years to sink into silence and oblivion; <pb n="15"/> but when I am gone,
                        who will protect that fair bud of innocence from the blasts of adversity, or
                        from the cruel hand of insult and dishonour." </p>
                    <p> "Oh, my father!" cried Miss Eldridge, tenderly taking his hand, "be not
                        anxious on that account; for daily are my prayers offered to heaven that our
                        lives may terminate at the same instant, and one grave receive us both; for
                        why should I live when deprived of my only friend." </p>
                    <p> Temple was moved even to tears. "You will both live many years," said he,
                        and I hope see much happiness. Cheerly, my friend, cheerly; these passing
                        clouds of adversity will serve only to make the sunshine of prosperity more
                        pleasing. But we are losing time: you might ere this have told me who were
                        your creditors, what were their demands, and other particulars necessary to
                        your liberation." </p>
                    <p> "My story is short," said Mr. Eldridge, "but there are some particulars
                        which will wring my heart barely to remember; yet to one whose offers of
                        friendship appear so open and disinterested, I will relate every
                        circumstance that led to my present, painful situation. But my child,
                        continued he, addressing his daughter, "let me prevail on you to take this
                        opportunity, while my friends are with me, to enjoy the benefit of air and
                        exercise. Go, my love; leave me now; to-morrow at your usual hour I will
                        expect you." </p>
                    <p>Miss Eldridge impressed on his cheek the kiss of filial affection, and
                        obeyed.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="3" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="16"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER III.</head>
                    <head>UNEXPECTED MISFORTUNES.</head>
                    <p> "MY life," said Mr. Eldridge, "till within these few years was marked by no
                        particular circumstance deserving notice. I early embraced the life of a
                        sailor, and have served my King with unremitted ardour for many years. At
                        the age of twenty-five I married an amiable woman; one son and the girl who
                        just now left us, were the fruits of our union. My boy had genious and
                        spirit. I straitened my little income to give him a liberal education, but
                        the rapid progress he made in his studies amply compensated for the
                        inconvenience. At the academy where he received his education he commenced
                        an acquaintance with a Mr. Lewis, a young man of affluent fortune: as they
                        grew up their intimacy ripened into friendship, and they became almost
                        inseparable companions. </p>
                    <p> "George chose the profession of a soldier. I had neither friends or money to
                        procure him a commission, and had wished him to embrace a nautical life: but
                        this was repugnant to his wishes, and I ceased to urge him on the subject. </p>
                    <p> "The friendship subsisting between Lewis and my son was of such a nature as
                        gave him free access to our family; and so specious was his manner that <pb n="17"/> we hesitated not to state to him all our little difficul ties
                        in regard to George's future views. He listened to us with attention, and
                        offered to advance any sum necessary for his first setting out. </p>
                    <p> "I embraced the offer, and gave him my note for the payment of it, but he
                        would not suffer me to mention any stipulated time, as he said I might do it
                        whenever most convenient to myself. About this time my dear Lucy returned
                        from school, and I soon began to imagine Lewis looked at her with eyes of
                        affection. I gave my child a caution to be ware of him, and to look on her
                        mother as her friend. She was unaffectedly artless; and when, as I
                        suspected, Lewis made professions of love, she confided in her parents, and
                        assured us her heart was perfectly unbiassed in his favour, and she would
                        chearfully submit to our direction. </p>
                    <p>"I took an early opportunity of questioning him concerning his intentions
                        towards my child: he gave an equivocal answer, and I forbade him the
                        house.</p>
                    <p> "The next day he sent and demanded payment of his money. It was not in my
                        power to comply with the demand. I requested three days to endeavour to
                        raise it, determining in that time to mortgage my half pay, and live on a
                        small annuity which my wife possessed, rather than be under an obligation to
                        so worthless a man: but this short time was not allowed me; for that
                        evening, as I <pb n="18"/> was sitting down to supper, unsuspicious of
                        danger, an officer entered, and tore me from the embraces of my family. </p>
                    <p> "My wife had been for some time in a declining state of health: ruin at once
                        so unexpected and inevitable was a stroke she was not prepared to bear, and
                        I saw her faint into the arms of our servant, as I left my own habitation
                        for the comfortless walls of a prison. My poor Lucy, distracted with her
                        fears for us both, sunk on the floor and endeavoured to detain me by her
                        feeble efforts; but in vain; they forced open her arms; she shrieked, and
                        fell prostrate. But pardon me. The horrors of that night unman me. I cannot
                        proceed." </p>
                    <p> He rose from his seat, and walked several times across the room: at length,
                        attaining more composure, he cried — "What a mere infant I am! Why, Sir, I
                        never felt thus in the day of battle." </p>
                    <p> "No," said Temple; "but the truly brave soul is tremblingly alive to the
                        feelings of humanity." </p>
                    <p> "True," replied the old man, (something like satisfaction darting across his
                        features) "and painful as these feelings are, I would not exchange them for
                        that torpor which the stoic mistakes for philosophy. How many exquisite
                        delights should I have passed by unnoticed, but for these keen sensations,
                        this quick sense of happiness or misery? <pb n="19"/> Then let us, my
                        friend, take the cup of life as it is presented to us, tempered by the hand
                        of a wise Providence; be thankful for the good, be patient under the evil
                        and presume not to enquire why the latter predominates."</p>
                    <p>"This is true philosophy," said Temple.</p>
                    <p>"'Tis the only way to reconcile ourselves to the cross events of life,"
                        replied he. "But I forgot myself. I will not longer intrude on your
                        patience, but proceed in my melancholy tale.</p>
                    <p> "The very evening that I was taken to prison, my son arrived from Ireland,
                        where he had been some time with his regiment. From the distracted
                        expressions of his mother and sister, he learnt by whom I had been arrested;
                        and, late as it was, flew on the wings of wounded affection, to the house of
                        his false friend, and earnestly enquired the cause of this cruel conduct.
                        With all the calmness of a cool deliberate villain, he avowed his passion
                        for Lucy; declared her situation in life would not permit him to marry her;
                        but offered to release me immediately, and make any settlement on her, if
                        George would persuade her to live, as he impiously termed it, a life of
                        honour. </p>
                    <p> "Fired at the insult offered to a man and a soldier, my boy struck the
                        villain, and a challenge ensued. He then went to a coffee-house in the neighbourhood and wrote a long affectionate letter to me, blaming himself
                        severely for having introduced <pb n="20"/> Lewis into the family, or
                        permitted him to confer an obligation, which had brought inevitable ruin on
                        us all. He begged me, whatever might be the event of the ensuing morning not
                        to suffer regret or unavailing sorrow for his fate, to encrease the anguish
                        of my heart, which he greatly feared was already insupportable. </p>
                    <p>"This letter was delivered to me early in the morning. It would be in vain to
                        attempt describing my feelings on the perusal of it; suffice it to say, that
                        a merciful Providence interposed, and I was for three weeks insensible to
                        miseries almost beyond the strength of human nature to support.</p>
                    <p> "A fever and strong delirium seized me, and my life was despaired of. At
                        length nature, overpowered with fatigue, gave way to the salutary power of
                        rest, and a quiet slumber of some hours restored me to reason, though the
                        extreme weakness of my frame prevented my feeling my distress so acutely as
                        I otherways should. </p>
                    <p> "The first object that struck me on awaking, was Lucy sitting by my bedside;
                        her pale countenance and sable dress prevented my enquiries for poor George:
                        for the letter I had received from him, was the first thing that occurred to
                        my memory. By degrees the rest returned: I recollected being arrested, but
                        could no ways account for being in this apartment, whither they had conveyed
                        me during my illness. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="21"/> "I was so weak as to be almost unable to speak pressed Lucy's
                        hand, and looked earnestly round the apartment in search of another dear
                        object. </p>
                    <p>"Where is your mother?" said I, faintly.</p>
                    <p>"The poor girl could not answer: she shook her head in expressive silence;
                        and throwing herself on the bed, folded her arms about me, and burst into
                        tears.</p>
                    <p>"What! both gone said I.</p>
                    <p>"Both, she replied, endeavouring to restrain her emotions: "but they are
                        happy, no doubt."</p>
                    <p>Here Mr. Eldridge paused: the recollection of the scene was too painful to
                        permit him to proceed.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="4" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER IV.</head>
                    <head>CHANGE OF FORTUNE.</head>
                    <p> "IT was some days," continued Mr. Eldridge, recovering himself, "before I
                        could venture to enquire the particulars of what had happened during my
                        illness at length I assumed courage to ask my dear girl how long her mother
                        and brother had been dead: she told me, that the morning after my arrest,
                        George came home early to enquire after his mother's health, staid with them
                        but a few minutes, seemed greatly agitated at parting, but gave them strict
                        charge to keep up their spirits, and hope every thing would turn out for the
                        best. <pb n="22"/> In about two hours after, as they were sitting at
                        breakfast, and endeavouring to strike out some plan to attain my liberty,
                        they heard a loud rap at the door, which Lucy running to open, she met the
                        bleeding body of her brother, borne in by two men who had lifted him from a
                        litter, on which they had brought him from the place where he fought. Her
                        poor mother, weakened by illness and the struggles of the preceding night,
                        was not able to support this shock: gasping for her breath, her looks wild
                        and haggard, she reached the apartment where they had carried her dying son.
                        She knelt by the bed side; and taking his cold hand, 'my poor boy,' said
                        she, 'I will not be parted from thee: husband! son! both at once lost.
                        Father of mercies, spare me!' She fell into a strong convulsion, and expired
                        in about two hours. In the mean time, a surgeon had dressed George's wounds;
                        but they were in such a situation as to bar the smallest hopes of recovery.
                        He never was sensible from the time he was brought home, and died that
                        evening in the arms of his sister. </p>
                    <p>"Late as it was when this event took place, my affectionate Lucy insisted on
                        coming to me. 'What must he feel,' said she, 'at our apparent neglect, and
                        how shall I inform him of the afflictions with which it has pleased heaven
                        to visit us?"</p>
                    <p> "She left the care of the dear departed ones to some neighbours who had
                        kindly come in to comfort <pb n="23"/> and assist her; and on
                        entering the house where I was confined, found me in the situation I have
                        mentioned. </p>
                    <p> "How she supported herself in these trying moments, I know not: heaven, no
                        doubt, was with her; and her anxiety to preserve the life of one parent in
                        some measure abated her affliction for the loss of the other. </p>
                    <p> "My circumstances were greatly embarrassed, my acquaintance few, and those
                        few utterly unable to assist me. When my wife and son were committed to the
                        kindred earth, my creditors seized my house and furniture, which not being
                        sufficient to discharge all their demands, detainers were lodged against me.
                        No friend stepped forward to my relief; from the grave of her mother, my beloved Lucy followed an almost dying father to this melancholy place." </p>
                    <p> "Here we have been nearly a year and a half. My half-pay I have given up to
                        satisfy my creditors, and my child supports me by her industry: sometimes
                        by fine needlework, sometimes by painting. She leaves me every night, and
                        goes to a lodging near the bridge: but returns in the morning, to chear me
                        with her smiles, and bless me by her duteous affection. A lady once offered
                        her an asylum in her family; but she would not leave me. 'We are all the
                        world to each other,' said she. 'I thank God, I have health and spirits to
                        improve <pb n="24"/> the talents with which nature has endowed me; and I
                        trust if I employ them in the support of a beloved parent, I shall not be
                        thought an unprofitable servant. While he lives, I pray for strength to
                        pursue my employment; and when it pleases heaven to take one of us, may it
                        give the survivor resignation to bear the separation as we ought: till then
                        I will never leave him.' </p>
                    <p>"But where is this inhuman persecutor?" said Temple.</p>
                    <p>"He has been abroad ever since," replied the old man; "but he has left orders
                        with his lawyer never to give up the note till the utmost farthing is
                        paid."</p>
                    <p>"And how much is the amount of your debts in all?" said Temple.</p>
                    <p>"Five hundred pounds," he replied.</p>
                    <p>Temple started: it was more than he expected.</p>
                    <p> "But something must be done," said he: "that sweet maid must not wear out
                        her life in a prison. I will see you again to-morrow, my friend," said he,
                        shaking Eldridge's hand: "keep up your spirits: light and shade are not more
                        happily blended than are the pleasures and pains of life; and the horrors
                        of the one serve only to increase the splendor of the other." </p>
                    <p> "You never lost a wife and son," said Eldridge. </p>
                    <p> "No." replied he, "but I can feel for those <pb n="25"/> that have."
                        Eldridge pressed his hand as they went toward the door, and they parted in
                        silence. </p>
                    <p>When they got without the walls of the prison, Temple thanked his friend
                        Blakeney for introducing him to so worthy a character; and telling him he
                        had a particular engagement in the city, wished him a good evening.</p>
                    <p> "And what is to be done for this distressed man," said Temple, as he walked
                        up Ludgate Hill. "Would to heaven I had a fortune that would enable me
                        instantly to discharge his debt; what exquisite transport, to see the
                        expressive eyes of Lucy beaming at once with pleasure for her father's deliverance, and gratitude for her deliverer: but is not my fortune
                        affluence," continued he, "nay superfluous wealth, when compared to the
                        extreme indigence of Eldridge; and what have I done to deserve ease and
                        plenty, while a brave worthy officer starves in a prison? Three hundred a
                        year is surely sufficient for all my wants and wishes: at any rate Eldridge
                        must be relieved." </p>
                    <p>When the heart has will, the hands can soon find means to execute a good
                        action.</p>
                    <p> Temple was a young man, his feelings warm and impetuous; unacquainted with
                        the world, his heart had not been rendered callous by being convinced of its
                        fraud and hypocrisy. He pitied their sufferings, overlooked their faults,
                        thought every bo som as generous as his own, and would chearfully <pb n="26"/> have divided his last guinea with an unfortunate fellow creature. </p>
                    <p> No wonder then that such a man (without waiting a moment for the
                        interference of Madam Prudence) should resolve to raise money sufficient for
                        the relief of Eldridge, by mortgaging part of his fortune. </p>
                    <p> We will not enquire too minutely into the cause which might actuate him in
                        this instance: suffice it to say, he immediately put the plan in execution;
                        and in three days from the time he first saw the unfortunate Lieutenant he
                        had the superlative felicity of seeing him at liberty, and receiving an
                        ample reward in the tearful eye and half articulated thanks of the grateful
                        Lucy. </p>
                    <p>"And pray, young man," said his father to him one morning, "what are your
                        designs in visiting thus constantly that old man and his daughter?"</p>
                    <p> Temple was at a loss for a reply: he had never asked himself the question:
                        he hesitated and his father continued — </p>
                    <p>"It was not till within these few days that I heard in what manner your
                        acquaintance first commenced, and cannot suppose any thing but attachment to
                        the daughter could carry you such imprudent lengths for the father: it
                        certainly must be her art that drew you in to mortgage part of your
                        fortune."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="27"/> "Art, Sir!" cried Temple eagerly. "Lucy Eldridge is as free
                        from art as she is from every other error: she is — " </p>
                    <p>"Every thing that is amiable and lovely," said his father, interrupting him
                        ironically: "no doubt in your opinion she is a pattern of excellence for all
                        her sex to follow; but come, Sir, pray tell me what are your designs toward
                        this paragon. I hope you do not intend to complete your folly by marrying
                        her."</p>
                    <p>"Were my fortune such as would support her according to her merit, I don't
                        know a woman more formed to ensure happiness in the married state."</p>
                    <p> "Then prithee, my dear lad," said his father, since your rank and fortune
                        are so much beneath what your <hi rend="italic">Princess</hi> might expect,
                        be so kind as to turn your eyes to Miss Weatherby; who having only an estate
                        of three thousand a year is more upon a level with you, and whose father
                        yesterday solicited the mighty honour of your alliance. I shall leave you to
                        consider on this offer; and pray remember, that your union with Miss
                        Weatherby will put it in your power to be more liberally the friend of Lucy
                        Eldridge." </p>
                    <p>The old gentleman walked in a stately manner out of the room; and Temple
                        stood almost petrified with astonishment, contempt, and rage.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="5" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="28"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER V.</head>
                    <head>SUCH THINGS ARE.</head>
                    <p> MISS Weatherby was the only child of a wealthy man, almost idolized by her
                        parents, flattered by her dependants, and never contradicted even by those
                        who called themselves her friends: I cannot give a better description than
                        by the following lines. </p>
                    <lg>
                        <l>The lovely maid whose form and face</l>
                        <l>Nature has deck'd with ev'ry grace,</l>
                        <l>But in whose breast no virtues glow,</l>
                        <l>Whose heart ne'er felt another's woe,</l>
                        <l>Whose hand ne'er smooth'd the bed of pain,</l>
                        <l>Or eas'd the captive's galling chain:</l>
                        <l>But like the tulip caught the eye,</l>
                        <l>Born just to be admir'd and die;</l>
                        <l>When gone, no one regrets it's loss,</l>
                        <l>Or scarce remembers that it was.</l>
                    </lg>
                    <p>Such was Miss Weatherby: her form lovely as nature could make it, but her
                        mind uncultivated, her heart unfeeling, her passions impetuous, and her
                        brain almost turned with flattery, dissipation, and pleasure; and such was
                        the girl, whom a partial grandfather left independent mistress of the
                        fortune before mentioned.</p>
                    <p> She had seen Temple frequently; and fancying she could never be happy
                        without him, nor once <pb n="29"/> imagining he could refuse a girl of her
                        beauty and fortune, she prevailed on her fond father to offer the alliance
                        to the old Earl of D — , Mr. Temple's father. </p>
                    <p> The Earl had received the offer courteously: he thought it a great match for
                        Henry: and was too fashionable a man to suppose a wife could be any
                        impediment to the friendship he professed for Eldridge and his daughter. </p>
                    <p> Unfortunately for Temple, he thought quite otherwise: the conversation he
                        had just had with his father, discovered to him the situation of his heart;
                        and he found that the most affluent fortune would bring no increase of
                        happiness unless Lucy Eldridge shared it with him; and the knowledge of the
                        purity of her sentiments, and the integrity of his own heart, made him
                        shudder at the idea his father had started, of marrying a woman for no other
                        reason than because the affluence of her fortune would enable him to injure
                        her by maintaining in splendour the woman to whom his heart was devoted: he
                        therefore resolved to refuse Miss Weatherby, and be the event what it might,
                        offer his heart and hand to Lucy Eldridge. </p>
                    <p> Full of this determination, he sought his father, declared his resolution,
                        and was commanded never more to appear in his presence. Temple bowed: his
                        heart was too full to permit him to speak; he left the house precipitately,
                        and hastened to relate the <pb n="30"/> cause of his sorrows to his good old
                        friend and his amiable daughter. </p>
                    <p> In the meantime, the Earl, vexed to the soul that such a fortune should be
                        lost, determined to offer himself a candidate for Miss Weatherby's favour. </p>
                    <p> What wonderful changes are wrought by that reigning power, ambition the
                        love-sick girl, when first she heard of Temple's refusal, wept, raved, tore
                        her hair, and vowed to found a protestant nunnery with her fortune; and by
                        commencing abbess, shut herself up from the sight of cruel ungrateful man
                        forever. </p>
                    <p> Her father was a man of the world: he suffered this first transport to
                        subside, and then very deliberately unfolded to her the offers of the old
                        Earl, expatiated on the many benefits arising from an elevated title,
                        painted in glowing colours the surprise and vexation of Temple when he
                        should see her figuring as a Countess and his mother-in-law, and begged her
                        to consider well before she made any rash vows. </p>
                    <p> The <hi>distressed</hi> fair one dried her tears, listened patiently, and at
                        length declared she believed the surest method to revenge the slight put on
                        her by the son would be to accept the father: so said so done, and in a few
                        days she became the Countess D — . </p>
                    <p> Temple heard the news with emotion: he had <pb n="31"/> lost his father's
                        favour by avowing his passion for Lucy, and he saw now there was no hope of
                        regaining it: "but he shall not make me miserable," said he, "Lucy and I
                        have no ambitious notions: we can live on three hundred a year for some
                        little time, till the mortgage is paid off, and then we shall have
                        sufficient not only for the comforts but many of the little elegancies of
                        life. We will purchase a little cottage, my Lucy," said he, "and thither
                        with your reverend father we will retire; we will forget there are such
                        things as splendor profusion, and dissipation: we will have some cows, and
                        you shall be queen of the dairy; in a morning, while I look after my garden,
                        you shall take a basket on your arm, and sally forth to feed your poultry;
                        and as they flutter round you in token of humble gratitude, your father
                        shall smoke his pipe in a woodbine alcove, and viewing the serenity of your
                        countenance, feel such real pleasure dilate his own heart, as shall make him
                        forget he had ever been unhappy." </p>
                    <p> Lucy smiled; and Temple saw it was a smile of approbation. He sought and
                        found a cottage suited to his taste; thither, attended my Love and Hymen,
                        the happy trio retired; where, during many years of uninterrupted felicity,
                        they cast not a wish beyond the little boundaries of their own tenement.
                        Plenty, and her handmaid, Prudence, presided at their board, Hospitality
                        stood at their <pb n="32"/>gate, Peace smiled on each face, Content reigned
                        in each heart, and Love and Health strewed roses on their pillows. </p>
                    <p>Such were the parents of Charlotte Temple, who was the only pledge of their
                        mutual love, and who, at the earnest entreaty of a particular friend, was
                        permitted to finish the education her mother had begun, at Madame Du Pont's
                        school, where we first introduced her to the acquaintance of the reader.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="6" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER VI.</head>
                    <head>AN INTRIGUING TEACHER.</head>
                    <p> MADAME Du Pont was a woman every way calculated to take the care of young
                        ladies, had that care entirely devolved on herself: but it was impossible to
                        attend the education of a numerous school without proper assistants: and
                        those assistants were not always the kind of people whose conversation and
                        morals were exactly such as parents of delicacy and refinement would wish a
                        daughter to copy. Among the teachers at Madame Du Pont's school, was
                        Mademoiselle La Rue, who added to a pleasing person and insinuating address,
                        a liberal education and the manners of a gentlewoman. She was recommended to
                        the school by a lady whose humanity overstepped the bounds <pb n="35"/> of
                        discretion: for though she knew Miss La Rue had eloped from a convent with a
                        young officer, and on coming to England had lived with several different men
                        in open defiance of all moral and religious duties; yet, finding her reduced
                        to the most abject want, and believing the penitence which she professed to
                        be sincere, she took her into her own family, and from thence recommended
                        her to Madame Du Pont, as thinking the situation more suitable for a woman
                        of her abilities. But Mademoiselle possessed too much of the spirit of
                        intrigue to remain long without adventures. At church, where she constantly
                        appeared, her person attracted the attention of a young man who was upon a
                        visit at a gentleman's seat in the neighbourhood: she had met him several
                        times clandestinely; and being invited to come out that evening, and eat
                        some fruit and pastry in a summer-house belonging to the gentleman he was
                        visiting, and requested to bring some of the ladies with her, Charlotte
                        being her favourite, was fixed on to accompany her. </p>
                    <p> The mind of youth eagerly catches at promised pleasure: pure and innocent by
                        nature, it thinks not of the dangers lurking beneath those pleasures, till
                        too late to avoid them: when Mademoiselle asked Charlotte to go with her,
                        she mentioned the gentleman as a relation, and spoke in such high terms of
                        the elegance of his gardens, the sprightliness <pb n="34"/> of his
                        conversation, and the liberality with which he ever entertained his guests,
                        that Charlotte thought only of the pleasure she should enjoy in the visit, —
                        not on the imprudence of going without her governess's knowledge, or of the
                        danger to which she exposed herself in visiting the house of a gay young man
                        of fashion. </p>
                    <p> Madame Du Pont was gone out for the evening, and the rest of the ladies
                        retired to rest, when Charlotte and the teacher stole out at the back gate,
                        and in crossing the field, were accosted by Montraville, as mentioned in the
                        first chapter. </p>
                    <p> Charlotte was disappointed in the pleasure she had promised herself from
                        this visit. The levity of the gentlemen and the freedom of their
                        conversation disgusted her. She was astonished at the liberties Mademoiselle
                        permitted them to take; grew thoughtful and uneasy, and heartily wished
                        herself at home again in her own chamber. </p>
                    <p> Perhaps one cause of that wish might be, an earnest desire to see the
                        contents of the letter which had been put into her hand by Montraville. </p>
                    <p> Any reader who has the least knowledge of the world, will easily imagine the
                        letter was made up of encomiums on her beauty, and vows of everlasting love
                        and constancy; nor will he be surprised that a heart open to every gentle,
                        generous sentiment, should feel itself warmed by gratitude for a man who
                        professed to feel so much for her; nor is <pb n="35"/> it improbable but her mind
                        might revert to the agreeable person and martial appearance of Montraville. </p>
                    <p> In affairs of love, a young heart is never in more danger than when
                        attempted by a handsome young soldier. A man of an indifferent appearance,
                        will, when arrayed in a military habit, show to advantage; but when beauty
                        of person, elegance of manner, and an easy method of paying compliments, are
                        united to the scarlet coat, smart cockade, and military sash, ah! well-a-day
                        for the poor girl who gazes on him: she is in imminent danger; but if she
                        listens to him with pleasure, 'tis all over with her, and from that moment
                        she has neither eyes nor ears for any other object. </p>
                    <p> Now, my dear sober matron, (if a sober matron should design to turn over
                        these pages, before she trusts them to the eye of a darling daughter,) let
                        me intreat you not to put on a grave face, and throw down the book in a
                        passion and declare 'tis enough to turn the heads of half the girls in Eng
                        land; I do solemnly protest, my dear madam, I mean no more by what I have
                        here advanced, than to ridicule those romantic girls who foolishly imagine a
                        red coat and silver epaulet constitute the fine gentleman; and should that
                        fine gentleman make half a dozen fine speeches to them, they will imagine
                        themselves so much in love as to fancy it a meritorious action to jump out
                        of a two pair of stairs <pb n="36"/> window, abandon their friends, and
                        trust entirely to the honour of a man, who perhaps hardly knows the meaning
                        of the word, and if he does, will be too much the modern man of refinement,
                        to practise it in their favour. </p>
                    <p>Gracious heaven! when I think on the miseries that must rend the heart of a
                        doting parent, when he sees the darling of his age at first seduced from his
                        protection, and afterwards abandoned, by the very wretch whose promises of
                        love decoyed her from the paternal roof — when he sees her poor and
                        wretched, her bosom torn between remorse for her crime and love for her vile
                        betrayer — when fancy paints to me the good old man stooping to raise the
                        weeping penitent, while every tear from her eye is numbered by drops from
                        his bleeding heart, my bosom glows with honest indignation, and I wish for
                        power to extirpate those monsters of seduction from the earth.</p>
                    <p>Oh my dear girls — for to such only am I writing — listen not to the voice of
                        love, unless sanctioned by paternal approbation: be assured, it is now past
                        the days of romance: no woman can be run away with contrary to her own
                        inclination: then kneel down each morning, and request kind heaven to keep
                        you free from temptation, or, should it please to suffer you to be tried,
                        pray for fortitude to resist the impulse of inclination when it runs counter
                        to the precepts of religion and virtue.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="7" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="37"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER VII.</head>
                    <head> NATURAL SENSE OF PROPRIETY INHERENT IN THE FEMALE BOSOM. </head>
                    <p> "I Cannot think we have done exactly right in going out this evening,
                        Mademoiselle," said Charlotte, seating herself when she entered her
                        apartment: "nay, I am sure it was not right; for I expected to be very
                        happy, but was sadly disappointed." </p>
                    <p> "It was your own fault, then," replied Mademoiselle: "for I am sure my
                        cousin omitted nothing that could serve to render the evening agreeable." </p>
                    <p> "True," said Charlotte: "but I thought the gentlemen were very free in their
                        manner: I won \der you would suffer them to behave as they did." </p>
                    <p> "Prithee, don't be such a foolish little prude," said the artful woman,
                        affecting anger: "I invited you to go in hopes it would divert you, and be
                        an agreeable change of scene; however, if your delicacy was hurt by the
                        behaviour of the gentlemen, you need not go again; so there let it rest." </p>
                    <p> "I do not intend to go again," said Charlotte, gravely taking off her
                        bonnet, and beginning to prepare for bed: "I am sure, if Madame Du Pont knew
                        we had been out to-night, she would be very angry; and it is ten to one but
                        she hears of it by some means or other." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="38"/> "Nay, Miss," said La Rue, "perhaps your mighty sense of
                        propriety may lead you to tell her yourself: and in order to avoid the
                        censure you would incur, should she hear of it by accident, throw the blame
                        on me: but I confess I deserve it: it will be a very kind return for that
                        partiality which led me to prefer you before any of the rest of the ladies;
                        but perhaps it will give you pleasure," continued she, letting fall some
                        hypocritical tears, "to see me deprived of bread, and for an action which by
                        the most rigid could only be esteemed an inadvertency, lose my place and
                        character, and be driven again into the world, where I have already suffered
                        all the evils attendant on poverty." </p>
                    <p> This was touching Charlotte in the most vulnerable part: she rose from her
                        seat, and taking Mademoiselle's hand — "You know, my dear La Rue," said she,
                        "I love you too well, to do anything that would injure you in my
                        governess's opinion: I am only sorry we went out this evening." </p>
                    <p> "I don't believe it, Charlotte," said she, assuming a little vivacity; "for
                        if you had not gone out, you would not have seen the gentleman who met us
                        crossing the field; and I rather think you were pleased with his
                        conversation." </p>
                    <p> "I had seen him once before," replied Charlotte, "and thought him an
                        agreeable man; and you know one is always pleased to see a person <pb n="39"/> with whom one has passed several cheerful hours. But," said she pausing,
                        and drawing the letter from her pocket, while a gentle suffusion of
                        vermillion tinged her neck and face, "he gave me this letter; what shall I
                        do with it? </p>
                    <p>"Read it, to be sure," returned Mademoiselle.</p>
                    <p>"I am afraid I ought not," said Charlotte: "my mother has often told me, I
                        should never read a letter given me by a young man, without first giving it
                        to her."</p>
                    <p> "Lord bless you, my dear girl," cried the teacher smiling; "have you a mind
                        to be in leading strings all your lifetime. Prithee open the letter, read it
                        and judge for yourself; if you show it your mother, the consequence will be,
                        you will be taken from school, and a strict guard kept over you: so you will
                        stand no chance of ever seeing the smart young officer again." </p>
                    <p> "I should not like to leave school yet," replied Charlotte, "till I have
                        attained a greater proficiency in my Italian and music. But you can, if you
                        please, Mademoiselle, take the letter back to Montraville, and tell him I
                        wish him well, but cannot, with any propriety, enter into a clandestine
                        correspondence with him." She laid the letter on the table, and began to
                        undress herself. </p>
                    <p> "Well," said La Rue, "I vow you are an unaccountable girl: have you no
                        curiosity to see the inside now? for my part I could no more let a letter
                            <pb n="40"/> addressed to me lie unopened so long, than I could work
                        miracles: he writes a good hand," continued she, turning the letter, to look
                        at the superscription. </p>
                    <p>"'Tis well enough," said Charlotte, drawing it towards her.</p>
                    <p>"He is a genteel young fellow," said La Rue carelessly, folding up her apron
                        at the same time: "but I think he is marked with the small pox."</p>
                    <p>"Oh you are greatly mistaken," said Charlotte eagerly; "he has a remarkable
                        clear skin and fine complexion."</p>
                    <p>"His eyes, if I could judge by what I saw," said La Rue, "are gray and want
                        expression."</p>
                    <p>"By no means," replied Charlotte; "they are the most expressive eyes I ever
                        saw."</p>
                    <p>"Well, child, whether they are gray or black is of no consequence: you have
                        determined not to read his letter; so it is likely you will never either see
                        or hear from him again."</p>
                    <p>Charlotte took up the letter, and Mademoiselle continued — </p>
                    <p> "He is most probably going to America: and if ever you should hear any
                        account of him, it may possibly be that he is killed; and though he loved
                        you ever so fervently, though his last breath should be spent in a prayer
                        for your happiness, it can be nothing to you: you can feel nothing for the
                        fate of the man, whose letters you will not open, and <pb n="41"/> whose
                        sufferings you will not alleviate, by permitting him to think you would
                        remember him when absent, and pray for his safety." </p>
                    <p>Charlotte still held the letter in her hand: her heart swelled at the
                        conclusion of Mademoiselle's speech, and a tear dropped upon the wafer that
                        closed it.</p>
                    <p> "The wafer is not dry yet," said she, "and sure there can be no great harm —
                        " She hesitated. La Rue was silent. "I may read it, Mademoiselle, and return
                        it afterwards." </p>
                    <p>"Certainly," replied Mademoiselle.</p>
                    <p>"At any rate I am determined not to answer it," continued Charlotte, as she
                        opened the letter.</p>
                    <p> Here let me stop to make one remark, and trust me my very heart aches while
                        I write it; but certain I am, that when once a woman has stifled the sense
                        of shame in her own bosom, when once she has lost sight of the basis on
                        which reputation, honour, every thing that should be dear to the female
                        heart, rests, she grows hardened in guilt, and will spare no pains to bring
                        down innocence and beauty to the shocking level with herself: and this
                        proceeds from that diabolical spirit of envy, which repines at seeing
                        another in the full possession of that respect and esteem which she can no
                        longer hope to enjoy. </p>
                    <p> Mademoiselle eyed the unsuspecting Charlotte, as she perused the letter,
                        with a malignant pleasure. <pb n="42"/> She saw, that the contents had
                        awakened new emotions in her youthful bosom: she encouraged her hopes,
                        calmed her fears, and before they parted for the night, it was determined
                        that she should meet Montraville the ensuing evening. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="8" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER VIII.</head>
                    <head>DOMESTIC PLEASURE PLANNED.</head>
                    <p> "I Think, my dear," said Mrs. Temple, laying her hand on her husband's arm
                        as they were walking together in the garden, "I think next Wednesday is
                        Charlotte's birth day: now I have formed a little scheme in my own mind, to
                        give her an agreeable surprise; and if you have no objection, we will send
                        for her home on that day." Temple pressed his wife's hand in token of
                        approbation, and she proceeded. — "You know the little alcove at the bottom
                        of the garden, of which Charlotte is so fond? I have an inclination to deck
                        this out in a fanciful manner, and invite all her little friends to partake
                        of a collation of fruit, sweet meats, and other things suitable to the
                        general taste of young guests; and to make it more pleasing to Charlotte,
                        she shall be mistress of the feast, and entertain her visitors in this
                        alcove. I know she will be delighted; and to complete all, they shall have
                        some music, and finish with a dance." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="43"/> "A very fine plan indeed," said Temple, smiling; "and you
                        really suppose I will wink at your indulging the girl in this manner? You
                        will quite spoil her, Lucy; indeed you will." </p>
                    <p> "She is the only child we have," said Mrs. Temple, the whole tenderness of a
                        mother adding animation to her fine countenance; but it was withal tempered
                        so sweetly with the meek affection and submissive duty of the wife, that as
                        she paused expecting her husband's answer, he gazed at her tenderly, and
                        found he was unable to refuse her request. </p>
                    <p>"She is a good girl," said Temple.</p>
                    <p> "She is, indeed," replied the fond mother exultingly, "a grateful,
                        affectionate girl; and I am sure will never lese fight of the duty she owes
                        her parents." </p>
                    <p> "If she does," said he, "she must forget the example set her by the best of
                        mothers." </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Temple could not reply; but the delightful sensation that dilated her
                        heart sparkled in her intelligent eyes, and heightened the vermillion on her
                        cheeks. </p>
                    <p> Of all the pleasures of which the human mind is sensible, there is none
                        equal to that which warms and expands the bosom, when listening to commendations bestowed on us by a beloved object, and are conscious of having
                        deserved them. </p>
                    <p> Ye giddy flutterers in the fantastic round of dissipation, <pb n="44"/> who
                        eagerly seek pleasure in the lofty dome, rich treat, and midnight revel —
                        tell me, ye thoughtless daughters of folly, have ye ever found the phantom
                        you have so long sought with such unremitted assiduity? Has she not always
                        eluded your grasp, and when you have reached your hand to take the cup she
                        extends to her deluded votaries, have you not found the long expected
                        draught strongly tinctured with the bitter dregs of disappointment? I know
                        you have: I see it in the wan cheek, sunk eye, and air of chagrin, which
                        ever mark the children of dissipation. Pleasure is a vain illusion; she
                        draws you on to a thousand follies, errors, and I may say vices, and then
                        leaves you to deplore your thoughtless credulity. </p>
                    <p> Look, my dear friends, at yonder lovely Virgin arrayed in a white robe
                        devoid of ornament; behold the meekness of her countenance, the modesty of
                        her gait; her handmaids are <hi rend="italic">Humility, Filial Piety,
                            Conjugal Affection, Industry</hi> and <hi rend="italic">Benevolence;</hi> her name is <hi rend="italic">Content;</hi> she holds
                        in her hand the cup of true felicity, and when once you have formed an
                        intimate acquaintance with these her attendants, nay, you must admit them as
                        your bosom friends and chief counsellors, then, whatever may be your
                        situation in life, the meek eyed Virgin will immediately take up her abode
                        with you. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="45"/> Is poverty your portion? — she will lighten your labours,
                        preside at your frugal board, and watch your quiet slumbers. </p>
                    <p> Is your state mediocrity? — she will heighten every blessing you enjoy, by
                        informing you how grateful you should be to that bountiful Providence who
                        might have placed you in the most abject situation; and, by teaching you to
                        weigh your blessings against your deserts, show you how much more you
                        receive than you have a right to expect. </p>
                    <p> Are you possessed of affluence? — what an inexhaustible fund of happiness
                        will she lay before you! To relieve the distressed, redress the injured, in
                        short, to perform all the good works of peace and mercy. </p>
                    <p> Content, my dear friends, will blunt even the arrows of adversity, so that
                        they cannot materially harm you. She will dwell in the humblest cottage: she
                        will attend you even to a prison. Her parent is religion; her sisters,
                        Patience and Hope. She will pass with you through life, smoothing the rough
                        paths and tread to earth those thorns which everyone must meet with as they
                        journey onward to the appointed goal. She will soften the pains of sickness,
                        continue with you even in the cold gloomy hour of death, and, cheering you
                        with the smiles of her heaven-born sister, Hope, lead you triumphant to a
                        blissful eternity. </p>
                    <p> I confess I have rambled strangely from my <pb n="46"/> story: but what of
                        that? if I have been so lucky as to find the road to happiness, why should I
                        be such a niggard as to omit so good an opportunity of pointing out the way
                        to others. The very basis of true peace of mind is a benevolent wish to see
                        all the world as happy as one's self; and from my soul do I pity the selfish
                        churl, who, remembering the little bickerings of anger, envy, and fifty
                        other disagreeables to which frail mortality is subject, would wish to
                        revenge the affront which pride whispers him he has received. For my own
                        part, I can safely declare, there is not a human being in the universe,
                        whose prosperity I should not rejoice in, and to whose happiness I would not
                        contribute to the utmost limit of my power: and may my offences be no more
                        remembered in the day of general retribution, than as from my soul I forgive
                        every offence or injury received from a fellow creature. </p>
                    <p> Merciful heaven! who would exchange the rapture of such a reflexion for all
                        the gaudy tinsel which the world calls pleasure! </p>
                    <p> But to return. — Content dwelt in Mrs. Temple's bosom, and spread a charming
                        animation over her countenance, as her husband led her in, to lay the plan
                        she had formed (for the celebration of Charlotte's birthday,) before Mr.
                        Eldridge. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="9" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="47"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER IX.</head>
                    <head>WE KNOW NOT WHAT A DAY MAY BRING FORTH.</head>
                    <p> VARIOUS were the sensations which agitated the mind of Charlotte, during the
                        day preceding the evening in which she was to meet Montraville. Several
                        times did she almost resolve to go to her governess, show her letter, and be
                        guided by her advice: but Charlotte had taken one step in the ways of
                        imprudence; and when that is once done, there are always innumerable
                        obstacles to prevent the erring person returning to the path of rectitude:
                        yet these obstacles, however forcible they may appear in general, exist
                        chiefly in imagination. </p>
                    <p>Charlotte feared the anger of her governess: she loved her mother, and the
                        very idea of incurring her displeasure, gave her the greatest uneasiness;
                        but there was a more forcible reason still remaining: should she show the
                        letter to Madame Du Pont, she must confess the means by which it came into
                        her possession; and what would be the consequence? Mademoiselle would be
                        turned out of doors.</p>
                    <p> "I must not be ungrateful," said she, "La Rue is very kind to me besides I
                        can when I see Montraville inform him of the impropriety of our continuing
                        to see or correspond with each other, <pb n="48"/> and request him to come
                        no more to Chichester." </p>
                    <p> However prudent Charlotte might be in these resolutions, she certainly did
                        not take a proper method to confirm herself in them. Several times in the
                        course of the day she indulged herself in reading over the letter, and each
                        time she read it, the contents sunk deeper in her heart. As evening drew
                        near, she caught herself frequently consulting her watch. "I wish this
                        foolish meeting was over," said she, by way of apology to her own heart, "I
                        wish it was over; for when I have seen him, and convinced him my resolution
                        is not to be shaken, I shall feel my mind much easier. </p>
                    <p> The appointed hour arrived. Charlotte and Mademoiselle eluded the eye of
                        vigilance; and Montraville who had waited their coming with impatience,
                        received them with rapturous and unbounded acknowledgments for their
                        condescension: he had wisely brought Belcour with him to entertain
                        Mademoiselle while he enjoyed an uninterrupted conversation with Charlotte. </p>
                    <p> Belcour was a man whose character might be comprised in a few words; and as
                        he will make some figure in the ensuing pages, I shall here describe him. He
                        possessed a genteel fortune, and had a liberal education; dissipated,
                        thoughtless; and capricious, he paid little regard to the moral duties, and
                        less to religious ones: eager in the pursuit of pleasure, he minded not the
                        miseries she inflicted on <pb n="49"/> others, provided his own wishes,
                        however extravagant, were gratified. Self, darling self, was the idol he
                        worshipped, and to that he would have sacrificed the interest and happiness
                        of all mankind. Such was the friend of Montraville: will not the reader be
                        ready to imagine, that the man who could regard such a character, must be
                        actuated by the same feelings, follow the same pursuits, and be equally
                        unworthy with the person to whom he thus gave his confidence? </p>
                    <p> But Montraville was a different character: generous in his disposition,
                        liberal in his opinions, and good-natured almost to a fault; yet eager and
                        impetuous in the pursuit of a favourite object, he staid not to reflect on
                        the consequence which might follow the attainment of his wishes; with a mind
                        ever open to conviction, had he been so fortunate as to possess a friend who
                        would have pointed out the cruelty of endeavouring to gain the heart of an
                        innocent artless girl, when he knew it was utterly impossible for him to
                        marry her, and when the gratification of his passion would be unavoidable
                        infamy and misery to her, and a cause of never ceasing remorse to himself:
                        had these dreadful consequences been placed before him in a proper light,
                        the humanity of his nature would have urged him to give up the pursuit; but
                        Belcour was not this friend; he rather encouraged the growing passion of
                        Montraville; and being pleased with the vivacity <pb n="50"/> of
                        Mademoiselle, resolved to leave no argument untried, which he thought might
                        prevail on her to be the companion of their intended voyage: and he made no
                        doubt but her example, added to the rhetoric of Montraville, would persuade
                        Charlotte to go with them. </p>
                    <p> Charlotte had, when she went out to meet Montraville, flattered herself that
                        her resolution was not to be shaken, and that, conscious of the impropriety
                        of her conduct in having a clandestine intercourse with a stranger, she
                        would never repeat the indiscretion. </p>
                    <p> But alas! poor Charlotte, she knew not the deceitfulness of her own heart,
                        or she would have avoided the trial of her stability. </p>
                    <p> Montraville was tender, eloquent, ardent, and yet respectful. "Shall I not
                        see you once more," said he, "before I leave England? will you not bless me
                        by an assurance, that when we are divided by a vast expanse of sea I shall
                        not be forgotten?" </p>
                    <p>Charlotte sighed.</p>
                    <p>"Why that sigh, my dear Charlotte? could I flatter myself that a fear for my
                        safety, or a wish for my welfare occasioned it, how happy would it make
                        me."</p>
                    <p>"I shall ever wish you well, Montraville," said she; "but we must meet no
                        more."</p>
                    <p> "Oh say not so, my lovely girl: reflect, that <pb n="51"/> when I leave my
                        native land, perhaps a few short weeks may terminate my existence; the
                        perils of the ocean — the dangers of war — " </p>
                    <p> "I can hear no more," said Charlotte in a tremulous voice, "I must leave
                        you." </p>
                    <p>"Say you will see me once again."</p>
                    <p>"I dare not," said she.</p>
                    <p>"Only for one half hour to-morrow evening: 'tis my last request. I shall
                        never trouble you again, Charlotte."</p>
                    <p>"I know not what to say," cried Charlotte, struggling to draw her hands from
                        him: "let me leave you now."</p>
                    <p> "And you will come to-morrow," said Montraville. </p>
                    <p>"Perhaps I may," said she.</p>
                    <p>"Adieu then. I will live upon that hope till we meet again."</p>
                    <p> He kissed her hand. She sighed an adieu, and catching hold of Mademoiselle's
                        arm, hastily entered the garden gate. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="10" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER X.</head>
                    <head>WHEN WE HAVE EXCITED CURIOSITY, IT IS BUT AN ACT OF GOOD NATURE TO GRATIFY
                        IT.</head>
                    <p> MONTRAVILLE was the youngest son of a gentleman of fortune, whose family
                        being <pb n="52"/> numerous, he was obliged to bring up his sons to genteel
                        professions, by the exercise of which they might hope to raise themselves
                        into notice. </p>
                    <p>"My daughters," said he, "have been educated like gentlewomen; and should I
                        die before they are settled, they must have some provision made, to place
                        them above the snares and temptations which vice ever holds out to the
                        elegant, accomplished female, when oppressed by the frowns of poverty and
                        the sting of dependence: my boys, with only moderate incomes, when placed in
                        the church, at the bar, or in the field, may exert their talents, make
                        themselves friends, and raise their fortunes on the basis of merit."</p>
                    <p> When Montraville chose the profession of arms, his father presented him with
                        a commission, and made him a handsome provision for his private purse. "Now,
                        my boy," said he, "go! seek glory in the field of battle. You have received
                        from me all I shall ever have it in my power to bestow: it is certain I have
                        interest to gain you promotion; but be assured that interest shall never be
                        exerted, unless by your future conduct you deserve it. Remember, therefore,
                        your success in life depends entirely on yourself. There is one thing I
                        think it my duty to caution you against; the precipitancy with which young
                        men frequently rush into matrimonial engagements, and by their
                        thoughtlessness draw many a deserving woman <pb n="53"/> into scenes of
                        poverty and distress. A soldier has no business to think of a wife till his
                        rank is such as to place him above the fear of bringing into the world a
                        train of helpless innocents, heirs only to penury and affliction. If,
                        indeed, a woman, whose fortune is sufficient to preserve you in that state
                        of independence I would teach you to prize, should generously bestow herself
                        on a young soldier, whose chief hope of future prosperity depended on his
                        success in the field — if such a woman should offer — every barrier is
                        removed, and I should rejoice in an union which would promise so much
                        felicity. But mark me, boy, if, on the contrary, you rush into a precipitate
                        union with a girl of little or no fortune, take the poor creature from a
                        comfortable home and kind friends, and plunge her into all the evils a
                        narrow income and increasing family can inflict, I will leave you to enjoy
                        the blessed fruits of your rashness; for by all that is sacred, neither my
                        interest of fortune shall ever be exerted in your favour. I am serious,"
                        continued he, "therefore imprint this conversation on your memory, and let
                        it influence your future conduct. Your happiness will always be dear to me;
                        and I wish to warn you of a rock on which the peace of many an honest fellow
                        has been wrecked; for believe me, the difficulties and dangers of the
                        longest winter campaign are much easier to be borne, than the pangs that
                        would seize your heart, <pb n="54"/> when you beheld the woman of your
                        choice, the children of your affection, involved in penury and distress, and
                        reflected that it was your own folly and precipitancy had been the prime
                        cause of their sufferings." </p>
                    <p> As this conversation passed but a few hours before Montraville took leave
                        of his father, it was deeply impressed on his mind: when, therefore, Belcour
                        came with him to the place of assignation with Charlotte, he directed him to
                        enquire of the French woman what were Miss Temple's expectations in regard
                        to fortune. </p>
                    <p> Mademoiselle informed him, that though Charlotte's father possessed a
                        genteel independence, it was by means probable that he could give his
                        daughter more than a thousand pounds; and in case she did not marry to his
                        liking, it was possible he might not give her a single <hi rend="italic">sous;</hi> nor did it appear the least likely, that Mr. Temple would
                        agree to her union with a young man on the point of embarking for the seat
                        of war. </p>
                    <p> Montraville therefore concluded it was impossible he should ever marry
                        Charlotte Temple; and what end he proposed to himself by continuing the
                        acquaintance he had commenced with her, he did not at that moment give
                        himself time to enquire. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="11" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="55"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XI.</head>
                    <head>CONFLICT OF LOVE AND DUTY.</head>
                    <p> ALMOST a week was now gone, and Charlotte continued every evening to meet
                        Montraville, and in her heart every meeting was resolved to be the last; but
                        alas! when Montraville at parting would earnestly intreat one more
                        interview, that treacherous heart betrayed her; and, forgetful of its
                        resolution, pleaded the cause of the enemy so powerfully, that Charlotte was
                        unable to resist. Another and another meeting succeeded; and so well did
                        Montraville improve each opportunity, that the heedless girl at length
                        confessed no idea could be so painful to her as that of never seeing him
                        again. </p>
                    <p>"Then we will never be parted," said he.</p>
                    <p>"Ah, Montraville," replied Charlotte, forcing a smile, "how can it be
                        avoided? My parents would never consent to our union; and even could they be
                        brought to approve of it, how should I bear to be separated from my kind, my
                        beloved mother?"</p>
                    <p>"Then you love your parents more than you do me, Charlotte?"</p>
                    <p>"I hope I do," said she, blushing and looking down, "I hope my affection for
                        them will ever keep me from infringing the laws of filial duty."</p>
                    <p> "Well, Charlotte," said Montraville gravely, <pb n="56"/> and letting go her
                        hand, "since that is the case, I find I have deceived myself with fallacious
                        hopes. I had flattered my fond heart, that I was dearer to Charlotte than
                        anything in the world beside. I thought that you would for my sake have
                        braved the dangers of the ocean, that you would, by your affection and
                        smiles, have softened the hardships of war, and, had it been my fate to
                        fall, that your tenderness would cheer the hour of death and smooth my
                        passage to another world. But farewel, Charlotte! I see you never loved me.
                        I shall now welcome the friendly ball that deprives me of the sense of my
                        misery." </p>
                    <p> "Oh stay, unkind Montraville," cried she catching hold of his arm, as he
                        pretended to leave her, "stay, and to calm your fears, I will here protest
                        that was it not for the fear of giving pain to the best of parents, and
                        returning their kindness with ingratitude, I would follow you through every
                        danger, and, in studying to promote your happiness, insure my own. But I
                        cannot break my mother's heart. Montraville; I must not bring the grey hairs
                        of my doting grand-father with sorrow to the grave, or make my beloved
                        father perhaps curse the hour that gave me birth." She covered her face with
                        her hands, and burst into tears. </p>
                    <p> "All these distressing scenes, my dear Charlotte." cried Montraville, "are
                        merely the chimeras <pb n="57"/> of a disturbed fancy. Your parents might
                        perhaps grieve at first; but when they heard from your own hand that you was
                        with a man of honour, and that it was to insure your felicity by an union
                        with him, to which you feared they would never have given their assent, that
                        you left their protection, they will, be assured, forgive an error which
                        love alone occasioned, and when we return from America, receive you with
                        open arms and tears of joy." </p>
                    <p> Belcour and Mademoiselle heard this last speech, and conceiving it a proper
                        time to throw in their advice and persuasions, approached Charlotte, and
                        so well seconded the intreaties of Mon traville, that finding Mademoiselle
                        intended going with Belcour, and feeling her own treacherous heart too much
                        inclined to accompany them, the hapless Charlotte, in an evil hour consented
                        that the next evening they should bring a chaise to the end of the town, and
                        that she would leave her friends, and throw herself entirely on the
                        protection of Montraville. "But should you," said she, looking earnestly at
                        him, her eyes full of tears "should you, forgetful of your promises, and
                        repenting the engagements you here voluntarily enter into, forsake and leave
                        me on a foreign shore — " </p>
                    <p> "Judge not so meanly of me," said he. "The moment we reach our place of
                        destination, Hymen <pb n="58"/>shall sanctify our love: and when I shall
                        forget your goodness, may heaven forget me." </p>
                    <p>"Ah," said Charlotte, leaning on Mademoiselle's arm as they walked up the
                        garden together, "I have forgot all that I ought to have remembered, in
                        consenting to this intended elopement."</p>
                    <p>"You are a strange girl," said Mademoiselle: "you never know your own mind
                        two minutes at a time. Just now you declared Montraville's happiness was
                        what you prized most in the world; and now I suppose you repent having
                        insured that happiness by agreeing to accompany him abroad."</p>
                    <p> "Indeed I do repent," replied Charlotte, "from my soul: but while discretion
                        points out the impropriety of my conduct, inclination urges me on to ruin." </p>
                    <p>"Ruin! fiddlestick!" said Mademoiselle; "am not I going with you? and do I
                        feel any of these qualms?"</p>
                    <p> "You do not renounce a tender father and mother," said Charlotte. </p>
                    <p>"But I hazard my dear reputation," replied Mademoiselle, bridling.</p>
                    <p> "True," replied Charlotte, "but you do not feel what I do." She then bade
                        her good night: but sleep was a stranger to her eyes, and the tear of
                        anguish watered her pillow. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="12" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="59"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XII.</head>
                    <floatingText>
                        <body>
                            <p>
                                <lb/>Nature's last, best gift: <lb/>Creature in whom excell'd,
                                whatever could <lb/>To sight or thought be nam'd! <lb/>Holy, divine!
                                good, amiable, and sweet! <lb/>How thou art fall'n! — </p>
                        </body>
                    </floatingText>
                    <p> WHEN Charlotte left her restless bed, her languid eye and pale cheek
                        discovered to Madame Du Pont the little repose she had tasted. </p>
                    <p> "My dear child," said the affectionate governess, "what is the cause of the
                        langour so apparent in your frame? Are you not well?" </p>
                    <p> "Yes, my dear Madam, very well," replied Charlotte, attempting to smile,
                        "but I know not how it was; I could not sleep last night, and my spirits are
                        depressed this morning." </p>
                    <p> "Come cheer up, my love," said the governess; "I believe I have brought a
                        cordial to revive them I have just received a letter from your good moma,
                        and here is one for yourself." </p>
                    <p>Charlotte hastily took the letter: it contained these words — </p>
                    <div type="letter">
                        <p> "As to-morrow is the anniversary of the happy day that gave my beloved
                            girl to the anxious wishes of a maternal heart, I have requested your
                            governess to let you come home and spend it with us; and as I know you
                            to be a good affectionate child, and <pb n="60"/> make it your study to
                            improve in those branches of education which you know will give most
                            pleasure to your delighted parents, as a reward for your diligence and
                            attention I have prepared an agreeable surprise for your reception. Your
                            grand-father, eager to embrace the darling of his aged heart, will come
                            in the chaise for you: so hold yourself in readiness to attend him by
                            nine o'clock. Your dear father joins in every tender wish for your
                            health and future felicity, which warms the heart of my dear Charlotte's
                            affectionate mother, L. TEMPLE. </p>
                    </div>
                    <p>"Gracious heaven!" cried Charlotte, forgetting where she was, and raising her
                        streaming eyes as in earnest supplication.</p>
                    <p> Madame Du Pont was surprised. "Why these tears, my love?" said she. "Why
                        this seeming agitation? I thought the letter would have rejoiced, instead of
                        distressing you. </p>
                    <p> "It does rejoice me," replied Charlotte, endeavouring at composure, "but I
                        was praying for merit to deserve the unremitted attentions of the best of
                        parents." </p>
                    <p> "You do right," said Madame Du Pont, "to ask the assistance of heaven that
                        you may continue to deserve their love. Continue, my dear Charlotte, in the
                        course you have ever pursued, and you will insure at once their happiness
                        and your own." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="61"/> "Oh!" cried Charlotte, as her governess left her, "I have
                        forfeited both for ever! Yet let me reflect: — the irrevocable step is not
                        you taken: it is not too late to recede from the brink of a precipice, from
                        which I can only behold the dark abyss of ruin, shame, and remorse!" </p>
                    <p> She arose from her seat, and flew to the apartment of La Rue. "Oh
                        Mademoiselle!" said she, "I am snatched by a miracle from destruction! This
                        letter has saved me: it has opened my eyes to the folly I was so near
                        committing. I will not go, Mademoiselle: I will not wound the hearts of
                        those dear parents who make my happiness the whole study of their lives." </p>
                    <p> "Well," said Mademoiselle, "do as you please, Miss; but pray understand that
                        my resolution is taken, and it is not in your power to alter it. I shall
                        meet the gentlemen at the appointed hour, and shall not be surprized at any
                        outrage which Montraville may commit, when he finds himself disappointed.
                        Indeed I should not be astonished, was he to come immediately here, and
                        reproach you for your instability in the hearing of the whole school: and
                        what will be the consequence? you will bear the odium of having formed the
                        resolution of eloping, and every girl of spirit will laugh at your want of
                        fortitude to put it in execution, while prudes and fools will load you with
                        reproach and contempt. You will have lost <pb n="62"/> the confidence of
                        your parents, incurred their anger, and the scoffs of the world; and what
                        fruit do you expect to reap from this piece of heroism, (for such no doubt
                        you think it is?) you will have the pleasure to reflect, that you have
                        deceived the man who adores you, and whom in your heart you prefer to all
                        other men, and that you are separated from him forever." </p>
                    <p> This eloquent harangue was given with such volubility, that Charlotte could
                        not find an opportunity to interrupt her, or to offer a single word till the
                        whole was finished, and then found her ideas so confused, that she knew not
                        what to say. </p>
                    <p> At length she determined that she would go with Mademoiselle to the place of
                        assignation, convince Montraville of the necessity of adhering to the resolution of remaining behind; assure him of her affection, and bid him
                        adieu. </p>
                    <p> Charlotte formed this plan in her mind, and exalted in the certainty of its
                        success. "How shall I rejoice," said she, "in this triumph of reason over
                        inclination, and when in the arms of my affectionate parents, lift up my
                        soul in gratitude to heaven as I look back on the dangers I have escaped! </p>
                    <p>The hour of assignation arrived: Mademoiselle put what money and valuables
                        she possessed in her pocket, and advised Charlotte to do the same; but she
                        refused: "my resolution is fixed," said the; I will sacrifice love to
                        duty."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="63"/> Mademoiselle smiled internally; and they proceeded softly down
                        the back stairs and out of the garden gate. Montraville and Belcour was
                        ready to receive them. </p>
                    <p>"Now," said Montraville, taking Charlotte in his arms, "you are mine
                        forever."</p>
                    <p>"No," said she, withdrawing from his embrace "I am come to take an
                        everlasting farewel."</p>
                    <p>It would be useless to repeat the conversation that here ensued; suffice it
                        to say, that Montraville used every argument that had formerly been
                        successful, Charlotte's resolution began to waver, and he drew her almost
                        imperceptibly towards the chaise.</p>
                    <p> "I cannot go," said she: "cease, dear Montraville, to persuade. I must not:
                        religion, duty, forbid." </p>
                    <p>"Cruel Charlotte," said he, "if you disappoint my ardent hopes, by all that
                        is sacred, this hand shall put a period to my existence. I cannot — will not
                        live without you."</p>
                    <p>"Alas! my torn heart!" said Charlotte, "how shall I act?"</p>
                    <p>"Let me direct you," said Montraville, listing her into the chaise.</p>
                    <p>"Oh! my dear forsaken parents!" cried Charlotte.</p>
                    <p>The chaise drove off. She shrieked, and fainted into the arms of her
                        betrayer.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="13" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="64"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XIII.</head>
                    <head>CRUEL DISAPPOINTMENT.</head>
                    <p> "WHAT pleasure," cried Mr. Eldridge, as he stepped into the chaise to go for
                        his grand-daughter, "what pleasure expands the heart of an old man when he
                        beholds the progeny of a beloved child growing up in every virtue that
                        adorned the minds of her parents. I foolishly thought, some few years since,
                        that every sense, of joy was buried in the graves of my dear partner and my
                        son; but my Lucy, by her filial affection, soothed any soul to peace, and
                        this dear Charlotte has twined herself round my heart, and opened such new
                        scenes of delight to my view, that I almost forget I have ever been
                        unhappy." </p>
                    <p>When the chaise stopped, he alighted with the alacrity of youth; so much do
                        the emotions of the soul influence the body.</p>
                    <p> It was half past eight o'clock: the ladies were assembled in the schoolroom,
                        and Madame Du Pont was preparing to offer the morning sacrifice of prayer
                        and praise, when it was discovered, that Mademoiselle and Charlotte were
                        missing. </p>
                    <p>"She is busy, no doubt," said the governess, "in preparing Charlotte for her
                        little excursion; but pleasure shall never make us forget our duty to our
                        Creator. Go, one of you, and bid them both attend prayers."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="65"/> The lady who went to summon them, soon returned, and informed
                        the governess, that the room was locked, and that she had knocked
                        repeatedly, but obtained no answer. </p>
                    <p> "Good heaven!" cried Madame Du Pont, "this is very strange:" and turning
                        pale with terror, she went hastily to the door and ordered it to be forced
                        open. The apartment instantly discovered, that no person had been in it the
                        preceding night, the beds appearing as though just made. The house was
                        instantly a scene of confusion: the garden, the pleasure grounds were
                        searched to no purpose, every apartment rung with the names of Miss Temple
                        and Mademoiselle; but they were too distant to hear; and every face wore the
                        marks of disappointment. </p>
                    <p>Mr. Eldridge was sitting in the parlour, eagerly expecting his grand-daughter
                        to descend, ready equipped for her journey: he heard the confusion that
                        reigned in the house; he heard the name of Charlotte frequently repeated.
                        "What can be the matter?" said he, rising and opening the door: "I fear some
                        accident has befallen my dear girl."</p>
                    <p> The governess entered. The visible agitation of her countenance discovered
                        that something extraordinary had happened. </p>
                    <p>"Where is Charlotte?" said he, "Why does not my child come to welcome her
                        doting parent?"</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="66"/> "Be composed, my dear Sir," said Madame Du Pont, "do not
                        frighten yourself unnecessarily. She is not in the house at present; but as
                        Mademoiselle is undoubtedly with her, she will speedily return in safety;
                        and I hope they will both be able to account for this unseasonable absence
                        in such a manner as shall remove our present uneasiness. </p>
                    <p> "Madam," cried the old man, with an angry look, "has my child been
                        accustomed to go out without leave, with no other company or protector than
                        that French woman. Pardon me, Madam, I mean no reflections on your country,
                        but I never did like Mademoiselle La Rue; I think she was a very improper
                        person to be entrusted with the care of such a girl as Charlotte Temple, or
                        to be suffered to take her from under your immediate protection." </p>
                    <p> "You wrong me, Mr. Eldridge," said she, "If you suppose I have ever
                        permitted your granddaughter to go out unless with the other ladies. I would
                        to heaven I could form any probable conjecture concerning her absence this
                        morning, but it is a mystery which her return can alone unravel." </p>
                    <p> Servants were now dispatched to every place where there was the least hope
                        of hearing any tidings of the fugitives, but in vain. Dreadful were the
                        hours of horrid suspense which Mr. Eldridge passed till twelve o'clock, when
                        that suspense was <pb n="67"/>reduced to a shocking certainty, and every
                        spark of hope which till then they had indulged, was in a moment
                        extinguished. </p>
                    <p> Mr. Eldridge was preparing, with a heavy heart, to return to his
                        anxiously-expecting children, when Madame Du Pont received the following
                        note without either name or date. </p>
                    <p> "Miss Temple is well and wishes to relieve the anxiety of her parents, by
                        letting them know she has voluntarily put herself under the protection of a
                        man whose future study shall be to make her happy. Pursuit is needless; the
                        measures taken to avoid discovery are too effectual to be eluded. When she
                        thinks her friends are reconciled to this precipitate step, they may perhaps
                        be informed of her place of residence. Mademoiselle is with her." </p>
                    <p> As Madame Du Pont read these cruel lines, she turned pale as ashes, her
                        limbs trembled, and she was forced to call for a glass of water. She loved
                        Charlotte truly: and when she reflected on the innocence and gentleness of
                        her disposition, she concluded that it must have been the advice and
                        machinations of La Rue, which led her to this imprudent action; she
                        recollected her agitation at the receipt of her mother's letter, and saw in
                        it the conflict of her mind. </p>
                    <p>"Does that letter relate to Charlotte?" said Mr. Eldridge, having waited some
                        time in expectation of Madame Du Pont's speaking.</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="68"/> "It does," said she. "Charlotte is well, but cannot return
                        to-day." </p>
                    <p>"Not return, Madam? where is she? who will detain her from her fond expecting
                        parents?"</p>
                    <p> "You distract me with these questions, Mr. Eldridge. Indeed I know not where
                        she is, or who has seduced her from her duty." </p>
                    <p>The whole truth now rushed at once upon Mr. Eldridge's mind. "She has eloped
                        then," said he "My child is betrayed; the darling, the comfort of my aged
                        heart, is lost. Oh would to heaven I had died but yesterday."</p>
                    <p>A violent gush of grief in some measure relieved him, and, after several vain
                        attempts, he at length assumed sufficient composure to read the note.</p>
                    <p> "And how shall I return to my children?" said he: "how approach that
                        mansion, so late the habitation of peace? Alas! my dear Lucy, how will you
                        support these heart-rending tidings? or how shall I be enabled to console
                        you, who need so much consolation myself?" </p>
                    <p> The old man returned to the chaise, but the light step and cheerful
                        countenance were no more; sorrow filled his heart, and guided his motions;
                        he seated himself in the chaise, his venerable head reclined upon his bosom,
                        his hands were folded, his eye fixed on vacancy, and the large drops of
                        sorrow rolled silently down his cheeks. There was a mixture of anguish and
                        resignation depicted in <pb n="69"/> his countenance, as if he would say,
                        henceforth who shall dare to boast his happiness, or even in idea
                        contemplate his treasure, lest, in the very moment his heart is exulting in
                        its own felicity, the object which constitutes that felicity should be torn
                        from him. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="14" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XIV.</head>
                    <head>MATERNAL SORROW.</head>
                    <p> SLOW and heavy passed the time while the carriage was conveying Mr. Eldridge
                        home; and yet when he came in sight of the house, he wished a longer
                        reprieve from the dreadful task of informing Mr. and Mrs. Temple of their
                        daughter's elopement. </p>
                    <p> It is easy to judge the anxiety of these affectionate parents, when they
                        found the return of their father delayed so much beyond the expected time.
                        They were now met in the dining parlour, and several of the young people who
                        had been invited were already arrived. Each different part of the company
                        was employed in the same manner, looking out at the windows which faced the
                        road. At length the long expected chaise appeared. Mrs. Temple ran out to
                        receive and welcome her darling: her young companions flocked round the
                        door, each one eager to give her joy on the return of her <pb n="70"/>
                        birth-day. The door of the chaise was opened: Charlotte was not there.
                        "Where is my child?" cried Mrs. Temple, in breathless agitation. </p>
                    <p>Mr. Eldridge could not answer: he took hold of his daughter's hand and led
                        her into the house; and sinking on the first chair he came to, burst into
                        tears, and sobbed aloud.</p>
                    <p> "She is dead," cried Mrs. Temple. "Oh my dear Charlotte!" and clasping her
                        hands in an agony of distress, fell into strong hysterics. </p>
                    <p> Mr. Temple who had stood speechless with surprize and fear, now ventured to
                        enquire if indeed his Charlotte was no more. Mr. Eldridge led him into
                        another apartment; and putting the fatal note into his hand, cried — "Bear
                        it like a Christian, and turned from him, endeavouring to suppress his own
                        too visible emotions. </p>
                    <p> It would be vain to attempt describing what Mr. Temple felt whilst he
                        hastily ran over the dreadful lines: when he had finished, the paper dropt
                        from his unnerved hand. "Gracious heaven!" said he, "could Charlotte act
                        thus?" Neither tear nor sigh escaped him; and he sat the image of mute
                        sorrow, till roused from his stupor by the repeated shrieks of Mrs. Temple.
                        He rose hastily, and rushing into the apartment where she was, folded his
                        arms about her and saying — "Let us be patient, my dear Lucy," nature
                        relieved his almost bursting heart by a friendly gush of tears. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="71"/> Should any one,presuming on his own philosophic temper, look
                        with an eye of contempt on the man who could indulge a woman's weakness, let
                        him remember that man was a father, and he will then pity the misery which
                        wrung those drops from a noble, generous heart. </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Temple beginning to be a little more com posed, but still imagining her
                        child was dead, her husband, gently taking her hand, cried — "You are
                        mistaken, my love. Charlotte is not dead." </p>
                    <p>"Then she is very ill, else why did she not come? But I will go to her: the
                        chaise is still at the door: let me go instantly to the dear girl. If I was
                        ill, she would fly to attend me, to alleviate my sufferings, and cheer me
                        with her love."</p>
                    <p>"Be calm, my dearest Lucy, and I will tell you all," said Mr. Temple. "You
                        must not go, indeed you must not: it will be of no use."</p>
                    <p> "Temple," said she, assuming a look of firmness and composure, "tell me the
                        truth I beseech you. I cannot bear this dreadful suspense. What misfortune
                        has befallen my child? Let me know the worst, and I will endeavour to bear
                        it as I ought." </p>
                    <p>"Lucy," replied Mr. Temple, "imagine your daughter alive, and in no danger of
                        death: what misfortune would you then dread?"</p>
                    <p>"There is one misfortune which is worse than death. But I know my child too
                        well to suspect — "</p>
                    <p>"Be not too confident, Lucy."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="72"/> "Oh heavens!" said she, "what horrid images do you start: is it
                        possible she should forget — " </p>
                    <p> "She has forgot us all, my love; she has preferred the love of a stranger to
                        the affectionate protection of her friends." </p>
                    <p>"Not eloped?" cried she eagerly.</p>
                    <p>Mr. Temple was silent.</p>
                    <p> "You cannot contradict it," said she. "I see my fate in those tearful eyes.
                        Oh Charlotte! Charlotte! how ill have you requited our tenderness! But,
                        Father of Mercies," continued she, sinking on her knees, and raising her
                        streaming eyes and clasped hands to heaven, "this once vouchsafe to hear a
                        fond, a distracted mother's prayer. Oh let thy bounteous Providence watch
                        over and protect the dear thoughtless girl, save her from the miseries which
                        I fear will be her portion, and oh! of thine infinite mercy, make her not a
                        mother, lest she should one day feel what I now suffer." </p>
                    <p> The last words faltered on her tongue, and she fell fainting into the arms
                        of her husband, who had involuntarily dropped on his knees beside her. </p>
                    <p> A mother's anguish, when disappointed in her tenderest hopes none but a
                        mother can conceive. Yet, my dear young readers, I would have you read this
                        scene with attention, and reflect that you may yourselves one day be
                        mothers. Oh my <pb n="73"/>friends, as you value your eternal happiness,
                        wound not, by thoughtless ingratitude, the peace of the mother who bore you:
                        remember the tenderness, the care, the unremitting anxiety with which she
                        has attended to all your wants and wishes from earliest infancy to the
                        present day; behold the mild ray of affectionate applause that beams from
                        her eye on the performance of your duty: listen to her reproofs with silent
                        attention; they proceed from a heart anxious for your future felicity: you
                        must love her; nature, all-powerful nature, has planted the seeds of filial
                        affection in your bosoms. </p>
                    <p>Then once more read over the sorrows of poor Mrs. Temple, and remember, the
                        mother whom you so dearly love and venerate will feel the same, when you,
                        forgetful of the respect due to your maker and yourself, forsake the paths
                        of virtue for those of vice and folly.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="15" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XV.</head>
                    <head>EMBARKATION.</head>
                    <p> IT was with the utmost difficulty that the united efforts of Mademoiselle
                        and Montraville could support Charlotte's spirits during their short ride
                        from Chichester to Portsmouth, where a boat waited to take them immediately
                        on board the ship in which they were to embark for America. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="74"/> As soon as she became tolerably composed, she entreated pen and
                        ink to write to her parents. This she did in the most affecting, artless
                        manner, entreating their pardon and blessing, and describing the dreadful
                        situation of her mind, the conflict she suffered in endeavouring to conquer
                        this unfortunate attachment, and concluded with saying, her only hope of
                        future comfort consisted in the (perhaps delusive) idea she indulged, of
                        being once more folded in their protecting arms, and hearing the words of
                        peace and pardon from their lips. </p>
                    <p>The tears streamed incessantly while she was writing, and she was frequently
                        obliged to lay down her pen: but when the task was completed, and she had
                        committed the letter to the care of Montraville to be sent to the post
                        office, she became more calm, and indulging the delightful hope of soon
                        receiving an answer that would seal her pardon, she in some measure assumed
                        her usual chearfulness.</p>
                    <p>But Montraville knew too well the consequences that must unavoidably ensue,
                        should this letter reach Mr. Temple: he therefore wisely resolved to walk on
                        the deck, tear it in pieces, and commit the fragments to the care of
                        Neptune, who might or might not, as it suited his convenience, convey them
                        on shore.</p>
                    <p> All Charlotte's hopes and wishes were now centered in one, namely that the
                        fleet might be detained at Spithead till she could receive a letter <pb n="75"/> from her friends: but in this she was disappointed, for the
                        second morning after she went on board, the signal was made, the fleet
                        weighed anchor, and in a few hours (the wind being favourable) they bid
                        adieu to the white cliffs of Albion. </p>
                    <p>In the mean time every enquiry that could be thought of was made by Mr. and
                        Mrs. Temple: for many days did they indulge the fond hope that she was
                        merely gone off to be married, and that when the indissoluble knot was once
                        tied, she would return with the partner she had chosen, and entreat their
                        blessing and forgiveness.</p>
                    <p>"And shall we not forgive her?" said Mr. Temple.</p>
                    <p> "Forgive her!" exclaimed the mother. "Oh yes, whatever be our errors, is she
                        not our child? and though bowed to the earth even with shame and remorse, is
                        it not our duty to raise the poor penitent, and whisper peace and comfort to
                        her desponding soul? would she but return, with rapture would I fold her to
                        my heart, and bury every remembrance of her faults in the dear embrace." </p>
                    <p> But still day after day passed on, and Charlotte did not appear, nor were
                        any tidings to be heard of her: yet each rising morning was welcomed by some
                        new hope — the evening brought with it disappointment. At length hope was no
                        more; despair usurped her place; and the mansion which was once the mansion
                        of peace, became the habitation of pale, dejected melancholy. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="76"/> The cheerful smile that was wont to adorn the face of Mrs.
                        Temple was fled, and had it not been for the support of unaffected piety,
                        and a consciousness of having ever set before her child the fairest example,
                        she must have sunk under this heavy affliction. </p>
                    <p> "Since," said she, "the severest scrutiny can not charge me with any breach
                        of duty to have deserved this severe chastizement, I will bow before the
                        power who inflicts it with humble resignation to his will; nor shall the
                        duty of a wife be totally absorbed in the feelings of the mother; I will
                        endeavour to appear more cheerful, and by appearing in some measure to have
                        conquered my own sorrow, alleviate the sufferings of my husband, and rouse
                        him from that torpor into which this misfortune has plunged him. My father
                        too demands my care and attention: I must not, by a selfish indulgence of my
                        own grief, forget the interest those two dear objects take in my happiness
                        or misery: I will wear a smile on my face, though the thorn rankles in my
                        heart: and if by so doing, I in the smallest degree contribute to restore
                        their peace of mind, I shall be amply rewarded for the pain the concealment
                        of my own feelings may occasion. </p>
                    <p>Thus argued this excellent woman: and in the execution of so laudable a
                        resolution we shall leave her, to follow the fortunes of the hapless victim
                        of imprudence and evil counsellors.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="16" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="77"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XVI.</head>
                    <head>NECESSARY DIGRESSION.</head>
                    <p>ON board of the ship in which Charlotte and Mademoiselle were embarked, was
                        an officer of large unincumbered fortune and elevated rank, and whom I shall
                        call Crayton.</p>
                    <p> He was one of those men, who having travel led in their youth, pretend to
                        have contracted a peculiar fondness for every thing foreign, and to hold in
                        contempt the productions of their own country; and this affected partiality
                        extended even to the women. </p>
                    <p> With him therefore the blushing modesty and unaffected simplicity of
                        Charlotte passed unnoticed; but the forward pertness of La Rue, the freedom
                        of her conversation, the elegance of her person, mixed with a certain
                        engaging <hi rend="italic">je ne sais quoi,</hi> perfectly enchanted him. </p>
                    <p> The reader no doubt has already developed the character of La Rue; designing
                        artful, and selfish, she had accepted the devoirs of Belcour because she was
                        heartily weary of the retired life she led at the school, wished to be
                        released from what she deemed a slavery, and to return to that vortex of
                        folly and dissipation which had once plunged her into the deepest misery;
                        but her plan she flattered herself was now better formed: she resolved to
                        put herself under the protection of no man till she <pb n="78"/> had first
                        secured a settlement; but the clandestine manner in which she left Madame Du
                        Pont's prevented her putting this plan in execution, though Belcour solemnly
                        protested he would make her a handsome settlement the moment they arrived at
                        Portsmouth. This he afterwards contrived to evade by a pretended hurry of
                        business; La Rue readily conceiving he never meant to fulfil his promise,
                        determined to change her battery, and attack the heart of Colonel Crayton.
                        She soon discovered the partiality he entertained for her nation; and having
                        imposed on him a feigned tale of distress, representing Belcour as a villain
                        who had seduced her from her friends under promise of marriage, and
                        afterwards betrayed her, pretending great remorse for the errors she had
                        committed, and declaring whatever her affection for Belcour might have been,
                        it was now entirely extinguished, and she wished for nothing more than an
                        opportunity to leave a course of life which her soul abhorred; but she had
                        no friends to apply to, they had all renounced her, and guilt and misery
                        would undoubtedly be her future portion through life. </p>
                    <p> Crayton was possessed of many amiable qualities, though the peculiar trait
                        in his character, which we have already mentioned, in a great measure threw
                        a shade over them. He was beloved for his humanity and benevolence by all
                        who knew him, but he was easy and unsuspicious himself, and be came a dupe
                        to the artifice of others. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="79"/> He was, when very young, united to an ami able Parisian lady,
                        and perhaps it was his affection for her that laid the foundation for the
                        partiality he ever retained for the whole nation. He had by her one
                        daughter, who entered into the world but a few hours before her mother left
                        it. This lady was universally beloved and admired, being endowed with all
                        the virtues of her mother, without the weakness of the father: she was
                        married to Major Beauchamp, and was at this time in the same fleet with her
                        father, attending her husband to New-York. </p>
                    <p> Crayton was melted by the affected contrition and distress of La Rue: he
                        would converse with her for hours, read to her, play cards with her, listen
                        to all her complaints, and promise to protect her to the utmost of his
                        power. La Rue easily saw his character; her sole aim was to awaken a passion
                        in his bosom that might turn out to her advantage, and in this aim she was
                        but too successful, for before the voyage was finished the infatuated
                        Colonel gave her from under his hand a promise of marriage on their arrival
                        at New-York, under forfeiture of five thousand pounds. </p>
                    <p> And how did our poor Charlotte pass her time during a tedious and
                        tempestuous passage? naturally delicate, the fatigue and sickness which she
                        endured rendered her so weak as to be almost entirely confined to her bed:
                        yet the kindness and attention of Montraville in some measure contributed
                            <pb n="80"/> to alleviate her sufferings, and the hope of hearing from
                        her friends soon after her arrival, kept up her spirits, and cheered many a
                        gloomy hour. </p>
                    <p> But during the voyage a great revolution took place not only in the fortune
                        of La Rue but in the bosom of Belcour: whilst in pursuit of his amour with
                        Mademoiselle, he had attended little to the interesting, inobtrusive charms
                        of Charlotte, but when, cloyed by possession, and disgusted with the art and
                        dissimulation of one, he beheld the simplicity and gentleness of the other,
                        the contrast became too striking not to fill him at once with surprise and
                        admiration. He frequently conversed with Charlotte; he found her sensible,
                        well informed, but diffident and unassuming. The languor which the fatigue
                        of her body and perturbation of her mind spread over her delicate features,
                        served only in his opinion to render her more lovely: he knew that
                        Montraville did not design to marry her, and he formed a resolution to
                        endeavour to gain her himself whenever Montraville should leave her. </p>
                    <p> Let not the reader imagine Belcour's designs were honourable. Alas! when
                        once a woman has forgot the respect due to herself, by yielding to the
                        solicitations of illicit love, they lose all their consequence even in the
                        eyes of the man whose art has betrayed them, and for whose sake they have
                        sacrificed every valuable consideration. </p>

                    <pb n="81"/>
                    <p> The heedless Fair,who stoops to guilty joys,A man may pity — but he must
                        despise. Nay, every libertine will think he has a right to insult her with
                        his licentious passion; and should the un happy creature shrink from the
                        insolent overture, he will sneeringly taunt her with pretence of modesty.
                    </p>
                </div>
                <div n="17" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XVII.</head>
                    <head>A WEDDING.</head>
                    <p>ON the day before their arrival at New-York, after dinner, Crayton arose from
                        his seat, and placing himself by Mademoiselle, thus addressed the company — </p>
                    <p> "As we are now nearly arrived at our destined port, I think it but my duty
                        to inform you, my friends, that this lady," (taking her hand,) "has placed
                        herself under my protection. I have seen and severely felt the anguish of
                        her heart, and through every shade which cruelty or malice may throw over
                        her, can discover the most amiable qualities. I thought it but necessary to
                        mention my esteem for her before our disembarkation, as it is my fixed
                        resolution, the morning after we land, to give her an undoubted title to my
                        favour and protection by honourably uniting my fate to hers. I would wish
                        every gentleman here there fore to remember that her honour henceforth is
                            <pb n="82"/> mine," and,continued he, looking at Belcour, "should any
                        man presume to speak in the least, disrespectful of her, I shall not
                        hesitate to pronounce him a scoundrel." </p>
                    <p> Belcour cast at him a smile of contempt, and bowing profoundly low, wished
                        Mademoiselle much joy in the proposed union; and assuring the Colonel that
                        he need not be in the least apprehensive of any one throwing the least odium
                        on the character of his lady, shook him by the hand with ridiculous gravity,
                        and left the cabin. </p>
                    <p>The truth was he was glad to be rid of La Rue, and so he was but freed from
                        her, he cared not who fell a victim to her infamous arts.</p>
                    <p> The inexperienced Charlotte was astonished at what she heard. She thought La
                        Rue had, like herself, only been urged by the force of her attach ment to
                        Belcour, to quit her friends, and follow him to the seat of war: how
                        wonderful then, that she should resolve to marry another man. It was
                        certainly extremely wrong. It was indelicate. She mentioned her thoughts to
                        Montraville. He laughed at her simplicity, called her a little idiot, and
                        patting her on the cheek, said she knew nothing of the world. "If the world
                        sanctifies such things, 'tis a very bad world I think," said Charlotte. "Why
                        I always understood that they were to have been married when they arrived at
                        New-York. I am sure Mademoiselle told me Belcour promised to marry her." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="83"/> "Well, and suppose he did?" </p>
                    <p>"Why, he should be obliged to keep his word I think."</p>
                    <p>"Well, but I suppose he has changed his mind," said Montraville, "and then
                        you know the case is altered."</p>
                    <p>Charlotte looked at him attentively for a moment. A full sense of her own
                        situation rushed upon her mind. She burst into tears, and remained silent.
                        Montraville too well understood the cause of her tears. He kissed her cheek,
                        and bidding her not make herself uneasy, unable to bear the silent but keen
                        remonstrance, hastily left her.</p>
                    <p> The next morning by sun-rise they found themselves at anchor before the city
                        of New-York. A boat was ordered to convey the ladies on shore. Crayton
                        accompanied them; and they were shewn to a house of public entertainment.
                        Scarcely were they seated when the door opened, and the Colonel found
                        himself in the arms of his daughter, who had landed a few minutes before
                        him. The first transport of meeting subsided, Crayton introduced his
                        daughter to Mademoiselle La Rue, as an old friend of her mother's, (for the
                        artful French woman had really made it appear to the credulous Colonel that
                        she was in the same convent with his first wife, and, though much younger,
                        had received many tokens of her esteem and regard.) </p>
                    <p> "If, Mademoiselle," said Mrs. Beauchamp, <pb n="84"/> "you were the friend
                        of my mother, you must be worthy the esteem of all good hearts." </p>
                    <p> "Mademoiselle will soon honour our family," said Crayton, "by supplying the
                        place that valua ble woman filled: and as you are married, my dear, I think
                        you will not blame — " </p>
                    <p> "Hush, my dear Sir," replied Mrs. Beauchamp: "I know my duty too well to
                        scrutinize your conduct. Be assured, my dear father, your happiness is mine.
                        I shall rejoice in it, and sincerely love the person who contributes to it.
                        "But tell me," continued she, turning to Charlotte, "who is this lovely
                        girl? Is she your sister, Mademoiselle?" </p>
                    <p> A blush, deep as the glow of the carnation, suffused the cheeks of
                        Charlotte. </p>
                    <p> "It is a young lady," replied the Colonel, "who came in the same vessel with
                        us from England." He then drew his daughter aside, and told her in a
                        whisper, Charlotte was the mistress of Montraville. </p>
                    <p> "What a pity!" said Mrs. Beauchamp softly, (casting a most compassionate
                        glance at her.) "But surely her mind is not depraved. The goodness of her
                        heart is depicted in her ingenuous countenance." </p>
                    <p> Charlotte caught the word pity. "And am I already fallen so low?" said she.
                        A sigh escaped her, and a tear was ready to start, but Montra ville <pb n="85"/> appeared, and she checked the rising emotion. Mademoiselle went
                        with the Colonel and his daughter to another apartment. Charlotte remained
                        with Montraville and Belcour. The next morning the Colonel performed his
                        promise, and La Rue became in due form Mrs. Crayton, exulted in her own good
                        fortune, and dared to look with an eye of contempt on the unfortunate but
                        far less guilty Charlotte. </p>
                    <trailer>END OF THE FIRST VOLUME.</trailer>
                </div>
            </div>


            <div n="2" type="volume">
                <div n="18" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="89"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XVIII.</head>
                    <head>REFLECTIONS.</head>
                    <p> "AND am I indeed fallen so low," said Charlotte, "as to be only pitied? Will
                        the voice of approbation no more meet my ear? and shall I never again
                        possess a friend, whose face will wear a smile of joy whenever I approach?
                        Alas! how thoughtless, how dreadfully imprudent have I been! I know not
                        which is most painful to endure, the sneer of contempt, or the glance of
                        compassion, which is depicted in the various countenances of my own sex:
                        they are both equally humiliating. Ah! my dear parents, could you now see
                        the child of your affections, the daughter whom you so dearly loved, a poor
                        solitary being, without society, here wearing out her heavy hours in deep
                        regret and anguish of heart, no kind friend of her own sex to whom she can
                        unbosom her griefs, no beloved mother, no woman of character will appear in
                        my company, and low as your Charlotte is fallen, she cannot associate with
                        infamy." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="90"/> These were the painful reflections which occupied the mind of
                        Charlotte. Montraville had placed her in a small house a few miles from
                        New-York: he gave her one female attendant, and supplied her with what money
                        she wanted; but business and pleasure so entirely occupied his time, that he
                        had little to devote to the woman whom he had brought from all her
                        connections, and robbed of innocence. Sometimes, indeed, he would steal out
                        at the close of evening, and pass a few hours with her; and then so much was
                        she attached to him, that all her sorrows were forgotten while blest with
                        his society: she would enjoy a walk by moonlight, or sit by him in a little
                        arbour at the bottom of the garden, and play on the harp, ac companying it
                        with her plaintive, harmonious voice. But often, very often, did he promise
                        to renew his visits, and, forgetful of his promise, leave her to mourn her
                        disappointment. What painful hours of expectation would she pass! she would
                        sit at a window which looked toward a field he used to cross, counting the
                        minutes, and straining her eyes to catch the first glimpse of his person,
                        till blinded with tears of disappointment, she would lean her head on her
                        hands, and give free vent to her sorrows: then catching at some new hope,
                        she would again renew her watchful position, till the shades of evening
                        enveloped every object in a dusky cloud: she would then renew her
                        complaints, and, <pb n="91"/> with a heart bursting with disappointed love
                        and wounded sensibility, retire to a bed which remorse had strewed with
                        thorns, and court in vain that comforter of weary nature (who seldom visits
                        the unhappy) to come and steep her senses in oblivion. </p>
                    <p> Who can form an adequate idea of the sorrow that preyed upon the mind of
                        Charlotte? The wife, whose breast glows with affection to her husband, and
                        who in return meets only indifference, can but faintly conceive her anguish.
                        Dreadfully painful is the situation of such a woman, but she has many
                        comforts of which our poor Charlotte was deprived. The duteous, faithful
                        wife though treated with indifference, has one solid pleasure within her own
                        bosom, she can reflect that she has not deserved neglect — that she has ever
                        fulfilled the duties of her station with the strictest exactness; she may
                        hope, by constant assiduity and unremitted attention, to recall her
                        wanderer, and be doubly happy in his returning affection; she knows he
                        cannot leave her to unite himself to another: he cannot cast her out to
                        poverty and contempt; she looks around her, and sees the smile of friendly
                        welcome, or the tear of affectionate consolation, on the face of every
                        person whom she favours with her esteem; and from all these circumstances
                        she gathers comfort: but the poor girl by thoughtless passion led astray,
                        who, in parting with her honour, has forfeited the <pb n="92"/> esteem of
                        the very man to whom she has sacrificed every thing dear and valuable in
                        life, feels his indifference in the fruit of her own folly, and laments her
                        want of power to recall his lost affection: she knows there is no tie but
                        honour, and that, in a man who has been guilty of seduction, is but very
                        feeble: he may leave her in a moment to shame and want; he may marry and
                        forsake her for ever; and should he, she has no redress, no friendly
                        soothing companion to pour into her wounded mind the balm of consolation, no
                        benevolent hand to lead her back to the path of rectitude; she has disgraced
                        her friends, forfeited the good opinion of the world, and undone herself;
                        she feels herself a poor solitary being in the midst of surrounding
                        multitudes; shame bows her to the earth, remorse tears her distracted mind,
                        and guilt, poverty, and disease close the dreadful scene: she sinks
                        unnoticed to oblivion. The finger of contempt may point out to some passing
                        daughter of youthful mirth, the humble bed where lies this frail sister of
                        mortality; and will she, in the unbounded gaity of her heart, exult in her
                        own unblemished fame, and triumph over the silent ashes of the dead? Oh no!
                        has she a heart of sensibility, she will stop, and thus address the unhappy
                        victim of folly — </p>
                    <p> "Thou had'st thy faults, but sure thy suf ferings have expiated them: thy
                        errors brought thee to an early grave; but thou wert a fellow-creature <pb n="93"/> — thou hast been unhappy — then be those errors for gotten." </p>
                    <p>Then, as she stoops to pluck the noxious weed from off the sod, a tear will
                        fall and consecrate the spot to Charity.</p>
                    <p> For ever honoured be the sacred drop of humanity: the angel of mercy shall
                        record its source, and the soul from whence it sprang shall be immortal. </p>
                    <p>My dear Madam contract not your brow into a frown of disapprobation. I mean
                        not to extenuate the faults of those unhappy women who fall victims to guilt
                        and folly; but surely, when we reflect how many errors we are ourselves
                        subject to, how many secret faults lie hid in the recesses of our hearts,
                        which we should blush to have brought into open day (and yet those faults
                        require the lenity and pity of a benevolent judge, or awful would be our
                        prospect of futurity) I say my dear Madam, when we consider this, we surely
                        may pity the faults of others.</p>
                    <p> Believe me, many an unfortunate female, who has once strayed into the thorny
                        paths of vice, would gladly return to virtue, was any generous friend to
                        endeavour to raise and re-assure her; but alas! it cannot be, you say; the
                        world would de ride and scoff. Then let me tell you, Madam, 'tis a very
                        unfeeling world, and does not deserve half the blessings which a bountiful
                        Providence show ers upon it. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="94"/> Oh, thou benevolent giver of all good! how shall we erring
                        mortals dare to look up to thy mercy in the great day of retribution, if we
                        now uncharitably refuse to overlook the errors, or alleviate the mise ries,
                        of our fellow-creatures. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="19" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XIX.</head>
                    <head>A MISTAKE DISCOVERED.</head>
                    <p> JULIA Franklin was the only child of a man of large property, who, at the
                        age of eighteen, left her independent mistress of an unincumbered income of
                        seven hundred a year; she was a girl of a lively disposition, and humane,
                        susceptible heart: she resided in New-York with an uncle, who loved her too
                        well, and had too high an opinion of her prudence, to scrutinize her actions
                        of much as would have been necessary with many young ladies, who were not
                        blest with her discretion: she was, at the time Montraville arrived at
                        New-York, the life of society, and the universal toast. Montra ville was
                        introduced to her by the following accident. </p>
                    <p> One night when he was upon guard, a dreadful fire broke our near Mr.
                        Franklin's house, which, in a few hours, reduced that and several others to
                        ashes; fortunately no lives were lost, and, by the assiduity of the
                        soldiers, much valuable property <pb n="95"/> was saved from the flames. In
                        the midst of the confusion an old gentleman came up to Montraville, and,
                        putting a small box into his hands, cried — "Keep it, my good Sir, till I
                        come to you again;" and then rushing again into the thickest of the croud,
                        Montraville saw him no more. He waited till the fire was quite extinguished
                        and the mob dispersed; but in vain: the old gentleman did not appear to
                        claim his property; and Montraville, fearing to make an enquiry, lest he
                        should meet with impostors who might lay claim, without any legal right, to
                        the box, carried it to his lodgings, and locked it up: he naturally imagined
                        that the person who committed it to his care knew him, and would, in a day
                        or two, reclaim it; but several weeks passed on, and no enquiry being made,
                        he began to be uneasy, and resolved to examine the contents of the box, and
                        if they were, as he supposed, valuable, to spare no pains to discover, and
                        restore them to the owner. Upon opening it, he found it contained jewels to
                        a large amount, about two hundred pounds in money, and a miniature picture
                        set for a bracelet. On examining the picture, he thought he had somewhere
                        seen features very like it, but could not recollect where. A few days after,
                        being at a public assembly, he saw Miss Franklin, and the likeness was too
                        evident to be mistaken: he enquired among his brother officers if any of
                        them knew her, and found one who was <pb n="96"/> upon terms of intimacy in
                        the family: "then introduce me to her immediately," said he, "for I am
                        certain I can inform her of something which will give her peculiar
                        pleasure." </p>
                    <p> He was immediately introduced, found she was the owner of the jewels, and
                        was invited to breakfast the next morning in order to their restoration.
                        This whole evening Montraville was honoured with Julia's hand; the lively
                        sallies of her wit, the elegance of her manner, powerfully charmed him: he
                        forgot Charlotte, and indulged himself in saying everything that was polite
                        and tender to Julia. But on retiring, recollection returned "What am I
                        about?" said he: "though I cannot marry Charlotte, I cannot be villain
                        enough to forsake her, nor must I dare to trifle with the heart of Julia
                        Franklin. I will return this box," said he, "which has been the source of so
                        much uneasiness already, and in the evening pay a visit to my poor
                        melancholy Charlotte, and endeavour to forget this fascinating Julia." </p>
                    <p> He arose, dressed himself, and taking the picture out, "I will reserve this
                        from the rest," said he, "and by presenting it to her when she thinks it is
                        lost, enhance the value of the obligation." He repaired to Mr. Franklin's,
                        and found Julia in the breakfast parlor alone. </p>
                    <p> "How happy am I, Madam," said he, that being the fortunate instrument of
                        saving these jewels <pb n="97"/> has been the means of procuring me the
                        acquaintance of so amiable a lady. There are the jewels and money all safe." </p>
                    <p>"But where is the picture, Sir?" said Julia.</p>
                    <p>"Here, Madam. I would not willingly part with it."</p>
                    <p>"It is the portrait of my mother," said she, taking it from him: "'tis all
                        that remains." She pressed it to her lips, and a tear trembled in her eyes.
                        Montraville glanced his eye on her grey night gown and black ribbon, and his
                        own feelings prevented a reply.</p>
                    <p> Julia Franklin was the very reverse of Charlotte Temple: she was tall,
                        elegantly shaped, and possessed much of the air and manner of a woman of
                        fashion; her complexion was a clear brown, enlivened with the glow of
                        health, her eyes, full, black, and sparkling, darted their intelligent
                        glances through long silken lashes; her hair was shining brown, and her
                        features regular and striking; there was an air of innocent gaiety that
                        played about her countenance, where good humour fat triumphant. </p>
                    <p> "I have been mistaken," said Montraville. "I imagined I loved Charlotte: but
                        alas! I am now too late convinced my attachment to her was merely the
                        impulse of the moment. I fear I have not only entailed lasting misery on
                        that poor girl, but also thrown a barrier in the way of my own happiness,
                            <pb n="98"/> which it will be impossible to surmount. I feel I love
                        Julia Franklin with ardour and sincerity; yet, when in her presence, I am
                        sensible of my own inabi lity to offer a heart worthy her acceptance, and
                        remain silent." </p>
                    <p> Full of these painful thoughts, Montraville walk out to see Charlotte: she
                        saw him approach, and ran out to meet him: she banished from her countenance
                        the air of discontent which ever appeared when he was absent, and met him
                        with a smile of joy. </p>
                    <p>"I thought you had forgot me, Montraville," said she, "and was very
                        unhappy."</p>
                    <p> "I shall never forget you, Charlotte," he replied, pressing her hand. </p>
                    <p>The uncommon gravity of his countenance, and the brevity of his reply,
                        alarmed her.</p>
                    <p>"You are not well," said she; "your hand is hot; your eyes are heavy; you are
                        very ill."</p>
                    <p>"I am a villain," said he mentally, as he turned from her to hide his
                        emotions.</p>
                    <p>"But come," continued she tenderly, "you shall go to bed, and I will sit by,
                        and watch yon; you will be better when you have slept."</p>
                    <p> Montraville was glad to retire, and by pretending sleep, hid the agitation
                        of his mind from her penetrating eye. Charlotte watched by him till a late
                        hour, and then, lying softly down, by his side, sunk into a profound sleep,
                        from whence she awoke not till late the next morning. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="20" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="99"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XX.</head>
                    <floatingText>
                        <body>
                            <p>Virtue never appears so amiable as when reaching forth her hand to
                                raise a fallen sister.</p>
                            <p>
                                        <hi rend="italic">-Chapter of Accidents.</hi>
                                    </p>
                        </body>
                    </floatingText>

                    <p> WHEN Charlotte awoke, she missed Montraville; but thinking he might have
                        arisen early to enjoy the beauties of the morning, she was preparing to
                        follow him, when casting her eye on the table, she saw a note, and opening
                        it hastily, found these words — </p>
                    <p> "My dear Charlotte must not be surprised, if she does not see me again for
                        some time: unavoidable business will prevent me that pleasure: be assured I
                        am quite well this morning; and what your fond imagination magnified into
                        illness, was nothing more than fatigue, which a few hours rest has entirely
                        removed. Make yourself happy and be certain of the unalterable friendship of
                        <lb/>MONTRAVILLE." </p>
                    <p> "<hi rend="italic">Friendship!</hi>" said Charlotte emphatically, as she
                        finished the note, "is it come to this at last? Alas! poor forsaken
                        Charlotte, thy doom is now but too apparent. Montraville is no longer
                        interested in thy happiness; and shame, remorse, and disappointed love will
                        henceforth be thy only attendents." </p>
                    <p> Though these were the ideas that involuntarily <pb n="100"/> rushed upon the
                        mind of Charlotte as she perused the fatal note, yet after a few hours had
                        elapsed, the syren hope again took possession of her bosom, and she
                        flattered herself she could, on a second perusal, discover an air of
                        tenderness in the few lines he had left, which at first had escaped her
                        notice. "He certainly cannot be so base as to leave me," said she, "and in
                        stiling himself my friend does he not promise to protect me. I will not
                        torment myself with these causeless fears; I will place a confidence in his
                        honour; and sure he will not be so unjust as to abuse it." </p>
                    <p> Just as she had by this manner of reasoning brought her mind to some
                        tolerable degree of composure, she was surprised by a visit from Belcour.
                        The dejection visible in Charlotte's countenance, her swoln eyes and
                        neglected attire, at once told him she was unhappy: he made no doubt but
                        Montraville had, by his coldness, alarmed her suspicions, and was resolved,
                        if possible, to rouse her to jealousy, urge her to reproach him, and by that
                        means occasion a breach between them. "If I can once convince her that she
                        has a rival," said he, "she will listen to my passion if it is only to
                        revenge his slights." Belcour knew but little of the female heart; and what
                        he did know was only of those of loose and dissolute lives. He had no idea
                        that a woman might fall a victim to imprudence, and yet retain so strong a
                        sense of honour, <pb n="101"/> as to reject with horror and contempt every
                        solicitation to a second fault. He never imagined that a gentle, generous
                        female heart, once tenderly attached, when treated with unkindness might
                        break, but would never harbour a thought of revenge. </p>
                    <p>His visit was not long, but before he went he fixed a scorpion in the heart
                        of Charlotte, whose venom embittered every future hour of her life.</p>
                    <p> We will now return for a moment to Colonel Crayton. He had been three months
                        married, and in that little time had discovered that the conduct of his lady
                        was not so prudent as it ought to have been: but remonstrance was vain; her
                        temper was violent; and to the Colonel's great misfortune he had conceived a
                        sincere affection for her: she saw her own power and, with the art of a
                        Circe, made every action appear to him in what light she pleased: his
                        acquaintance laughed at his blindness his friends pitied his infatuation,
                        his amiable daughter, Mrs. Beauchamp, in secret deplored the loss of her
                        father's affection, and grieved that he should be so entirely swayed by an
                        artful, and, she much feared, infamous woman. </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Beauchamp was mild and engaging; she loved not the hurry and bustle of
                        a city, and had prevailed on her husband to take a house a few miles from
                        New-York. Chance led her into the same neighbourhood with Charlotte; their
                        houses stood <pb n="102"/> within a short space of each other, and their
                        gardens joined: she had not been long in her new habitation before the
                        figure of Charlotte struck her; she recollected her interesting features;
                        she saw the melancholy so conspicuous in her countenance, and her heart bled
                        at the reflection, that perhaps deprived of honour, friends, all that was
                        valuable in life, she was doomed to linger out a wretched existence in a
                        strange land, and sink broken-hearted into an untimely grave. "Would to
                        heaven I could snatch her from so hard a fate," said she; "but the merciless
                        world has barred the doors of compassion against a poor weak girl, who
                        perhaps, had she one kind friend to raise and reassure her, would gladly
                        return to peace and virtue; nay even the woman who dares to pity, and
                        endeavour to recall a wandering sister incurs the sneer of contempt and
                        ridicule, for an action in which even angels are said to rejoice." </p>
                    <p>The longer Mrs. Beauchamp was a witness to the solitary life Charlotte led,
                        the more she wished to speak to her, and often as she saw her cheeks wet
                        with the tears of anguish, she would say — "Dear sufferer, how gladly would
                        I pour into your heart the balm of consolation, where it not for the fear of
                        derision."</p>
                    <p> But an accident soon happened which made her resolve to brave even the
                        scoffs of the world rather than not enjoy the heavenly satisfaction of
                        comforting a desponding fellow-creature. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="103"/> Mrs. Beauchamp was an early riser. She was one morning walking
                        in the garden, leaning on her husband's arm, when the sound of a harp
                        attracted their notice: they listened attentively, and heard a soft
                        melodious voice distinctly sing the following stanzas: </p>
                    <lg>
                        <l>Thou glorious orb, supremely bright,</l>
                        <l>Just rising from the sea,</l>
                        <l>To cheer all nature with thy light,</l>
                        <l>What are thy beams to me?</l>
                        <l>In vain thy glories bid me rise,</l>
                        <l>To hail the new-born day,</l>
                        <l>Alas! my morning sacrifice</l>
                        <l>Is still to weep and pray.</l>
                        <l>For what are nature's charms combin'd,</l>
                        <l>To one, whose weary breast</l>
                        <l>Can neither peace nor comfort find,</l>
                        <l>Nor friend whereon to rest?</l>
                        <l>Oh! never! never! whilst I live</l>
                        <l>Can my heart's anguish cease:</l>
                        <l>Come, friendly death, thy mandate give,</l>
                        <l>And let me be at peace.</l>
                    </lg>
                    <p>"'Tis poor Charlotte!" said Mrs. Beauchamp, the pellucid drop of humanity
                        stealing down her cheek.</p>
                    <p> Captain Beauchamp was alarmed at her emotion. "What Charlotte?" said he; "do
                        you know her?" </p>
                    <p> In the accent of a pitying angel did she disclose <pb n="104"/> to her
                        husband Charlotte's unhappy situation, and the frequent wish she had formed
                        of being serviceable to her. "I fear," continued she, "the poor girl has
                        been basely betrayed; and if I thought you would not blame me, I would pay
                        her a visit, offer her my friendship, and endeavour to restore to her heart
                        that peace she seems to have lost, and so pathetically laments. Who knows,
                        my dear," laying her hand affectionately on his arm, "who knows but she has
                        left some kind, affectionate parents to lament her errors, and would she
                        return, they might with rapture receive the poor penitent, and wash away her
                        faults in tears of joy. Oh! what a glorious reflection would it be for me
                        could I be the happy instrument of restoring her. Her heart may not be
                        depraved, Beauchamp." </p>
                    <p> "Exalted woman!" cried Beauchamp, embracing her, "how dost thou rise every
                        moment in my esteem. Follow the impulse of thy generous heart, my Emily. Let
                        prudes and fools censure if they dare, and blame a sensibility they never
                        felt: I will exultingly tell them that the heart that is truly virtuous is
                        ever inclined to pity and forgive the errors of its fellow creatures." </p>
                    <p> A beam of exulting joy played round the animated countenance of Mrs.
                        Beauchamp at these encomiums bestowed on her by a beloved husband, the most
                        delightful sensations pervaded her heart, and, having breakfasted, she
                        prepared to visit Charlotte. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="21" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="105"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XXI.</head>
                    <floatingText>
                        <body>
                            <p>
                                <lb/>Teach me to feel another's woe, <lb/>To hide the fault I see,
                                <lb/>That mercy I to other show, <lb/>That mercy show to me.
                                <lb/>-Pope. </p>
                        </body>
                    </floatingText>

                    <p> WHEN Mrs. Beauchamp was dressed, she began to feel embarrassed at the
                        thought of beginning an acquaintance with Charlotte, and was distressed how
                        to make the first visit. "I cannot go without some introduction," said she,
                        "it will look so like impertinent-curiosity." At length recollecting
                        herself, she stepped into the garden, and gathering a few fine cucumbers,
                        took them in her hand by way of apology for her visit. </p>
                    <p> A glow of conscious shame vermillioned Charlotte's face as Mrs. Beauchamp
                        entered. </p>
                    <p>"You will pardon me, Madam," said she, "for not having before paid my
                        respects to so amiable a neighbour; but we English people always keep up
                        that reserve which is the characteristic of our nation wherever we go. I
                        have taken the liberty to bring you a few cucumbers, for I observed you had
                        none in your garden."</p>
                    <p> Charlotte, though naturally polite and well bred, was so confused she could
                        hardly speak. Her kind visitor endeavoured to relieve her by not noticing
                        her embarrassment. "I am come, Madam," <pb n="106"/> continued she, "to
                        request you will spend the day with me. I shall be alone; and, as we are
                        both strangers in this country, we may hereafter be extremely happy in each
                        other's friendship." </p>
                    <p> "Your friendship, Madam," said Charlotte blushing, "is an honour to all who
                        are favoured with it. Little as I have seen of this part of the world, I am
                        no stranger to Mrs. Beauchamp's goodness of heart and known humanity: but my
                        friendship — " She paused, glanced her eyes upon her own visible situation,
                        and, spite of her endeavours to suppress them, burst into tears. </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Beauchamp guessed the source from whence those tears flowed. "You seem
                        unhappy, Madam," said she: shall I be thought worthy your confidence! will
                        you entrust me with the cause of your sorrow, and rest on my assurances to
                        exert my utmost power to serve you." Charlotte returned a look of gratitude,
                        but could not speak, and Mrs. Beauchamp con tinued — "My heart was
                        interested in your behalf the first moment I saw you, and I only lament I
                        had not made earlier overtures towards an acquaintance; but I flatter myself
                        you will henceforth consider me as your friend." </p>
                    <p> "Oh Madam!" cried Charlotte, "I have forfeited the good opinion of all my
                        friends; I have forsaken them, and undone myself." </p>
                    <p> "Come, come, my dear," said Mrs. Beauchamp, "you must not indulge these
                        gloomy <pb n="107"/> thoughts: you are not I hope so miserable as you
                        imagine yourself: endeavour to be composed, and let me be favoured with your
                        company at dinner, when, if you can bring yourself to think me your friend,
                        and repose a confidence in me, I am ready to convince you it shall not be
                        abused." She then arose and bade her good morning. </p>
                    <p> At the dining hour Charlotte repaired to Mrs. Beauchamp's, and during dinner
                        assumed as composed an aspect as possible; but when the cloth was removed,
                        she summoned all her resolution and determined to make Mrs. Beauchamp
                        acquainted with every circumstance preceding her unfortunate elopement, and
                        the earnest desire she had to quit a way of life so repugnant to her
                        feelings. </p>
                    <p>With the benignant aspect of an angel of mercy did Mrs. Beauchamp listen to
                        the artless tale: she was shocked to the soul to find how large a share La
                        Rue had in the seduction of this amiable girl, and a tear fell, when she
                        reflected so vile a woman was now the wife of her father. When Charlotte had
                        finished, she gave her a little time to collect her scattered spirits, and
                        then asked her if she had never written to her friends.</p>
                    <p>"Oh yes, Madam," said she, "frequently: but I have broke their hearts; they
                        are either dead or have cast me of for ever, for I have never received a
                        single line from them."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="108"/> "I rather suspect,"said Mrs. Beauchamp, "they have never had
                        your letters: but suppose you were to hear from them, and they were willing
                        to receive you, would you then leave this cruel Montraville, and return to
                        them?" </p>
                    <p> "Would I!" said Charlotte, clasping her hands; "would not the poor sailor,
                        tost on a tempestuous ocean, threatened every moment with death, gladly
                        return to the shore he had left to trust to its deceitful calmness; Oh, my
                        dear Madam, I would return, though to do it I were obliged to walk
                        barefooted over a burning desert, and beg a scanty pittance of each
                        traveller to support my existence. I would endure it all cheerfully, could I
                        but once more see my dear blessed mother, hear her pronounce my pardon, and
                        bless me before I died; but alas! I shall never see her more; she has
                        blotted the ungrateful Charlotte from her remembrance, and I shall sink to
                        the grave loaded with her's and my father's curse." </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Beauchamp endeavoured to sooth her "You shall write to them again,"
                        said she, "and I will see that the letter is sent by the first packet that
                        sails for England; in the meantime keep up your spirits, and hope
                        everything, by daring to deserve it. </p>
                    <p>She then turned the conversation, and Charlotte having taken a cup of tea,
                        wished her benevolent friend a good evening.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="22" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="109"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XXII.</head>
                    <head>SORROWS OF THE HEART.</head>
                    <p> WHEN Charlotte got home she endeavoured to collect her thoughts, and took up
                        a pen in order to address those dear parents, whom, spite of her errors, she
                        still loved with the utmost tenderness, but vain was every effort to write
                        with the least coherence; her tears fell so fast they almost blinded her:
                        and as she proceeded to describe her unhappy situation, she became so
                        agitated that she was obliged to give over the attempt and retire to bed,
                        where, overcome with the fatigue her mind had undergone, she fell into a
                        slumber which greatly refreshed her, and she arose in the morning with
                        spirits more adequate to the painful talk she had to perform, and, after
                        several attempts, at length concluded the following letter to her mother —
                    </p>
                </div>
                <div type="letter">

                    <opener>
                        <salute>To MRS. TEMPLE.</salute>
                        <dateline>
                            <date>New-York.</date>
                        </dateline>
                    </opener>
                    <p> "Will my once kind, my ever beloved mo ther, deign to receive a letter from
                        her guilty, but repentant child? or has she, justly incensed at my
                        ingratitude, driven the unhappy Charlotte from her remembrance? Alas! thou
                        much injured mother? Shouldst thou even disown me, I dare not complain,
                        because I know I have deserved it: but yet, believe me, guilty as I am, and
                        cruelly as I have disap pointed <pb n="110"/> the hopes of the fondest
                        parents, that ever girl had, even in the moment when, forgetful of my duty,
                        I fled from you and happiness, even then I loved you most, and my heart bled
                        at the thought of what you would suffer. Oh! never, never! whilst I have
                        existence, will the agony of that moment be erased from my memory. It seemed
                        like the separation of soul and body. What can I plead in excuse for my
                        conduct? alas! no thing! That I loved my seducer is but too true! yet
                        powerful as that passion is when operating in a young heart glowing with
                        sensibility, it never would have conquered my affection to you, my beloved
                        parents, had I not been encouraged, nay, urged to take the fatally imprudent
                        step, by one of my own sex, who, under the mask of friendship, drew me on to
                        ruin. Yet think not your Charlotte was so lost as to voluntarily rush into a
                        life of infamy; no, my dear mother, deceived by the specious appearance of
                        my betrayer, and every suspicion lulled asleep by the most solemn promises
                        of marriage, I thought not those promises would so easily be forgotten. I
                        never once reflected that the man who could stoop to seduction, would not
                        hesitate to forsake the wretched object of his passion, whenever his
                        capricious heart grew weary of her tenderness. When we arrived at this
                        place, I vainly expected him to fulfil his engagements, but was at last
                        fatally convinced he had never in tended <pb n="111"/> to make me his wife,
                        or if he had once thought of it, his mind was now altered. I scorned to
                        claim from his humanity what I could not obtain from his love: I was
                        conscious of having forfeited the only gem that could render me respect able
                        in the eye of the world. I locked my sorrows in my own bosom, and bore my
                        injuries in silence. But how shall I proceed? This man, this cruel
                        Montraville, for whom I sacrificed honour, happiness, and the love of my
                        friends, no longer looks on me with affection, but scorns the credulous girl
                        whom his art has made miserable. Could you see me, my dear parents, without
                        society, without friends, stung with remorse, and (I feel the burning blush
                        of shame die my cheeks while I write it) tortured with the pangs of
                        disappointed love; cut to the soul by the indifference of him, who, having
                        deprived me of every other comfort, no longer thinks it worth his while to
                        sooth the heart where he has planted the thorn of never-ceasing regret. My
                        daily employment is to think of you and weep, to pray for your happiness and
                        deplore my own folly: my nights are scarce more happy, for if by chance I
                        close my weary eyes, and hope some small forgetfulness of sorrow, some
                        little time to pass in sweet oblivion, fancy, still waking, wafts me home to
                        you: I see your beloved forms, I kneel and hear the blessed words of peace
                        and pardon. Extatic joy pervades my <pb n="112"/> soul; I reach my arms to
                        catch your dear embraces; the motion chases the illusive dream; I wake to
                        real misery. At other times I see my father angry and frowning point to
                        horrid caves, where, on the cold damp ground, in the agonies of death. I see
                        my dear mother and my revered grand-father. I strive to raise you; you push
                        me from you and shrieking cry — "Charlotte, thou hast murdered me!" Horror
                        and despair tear exery tortured nerve; I start, and leave my restless bed,
                        weary and unrefreshed. "Shocking as these reflexions are, I have yet one
                        more dreadful than the rest. Mother, my dear mother! do not let me quite
                        break your heart when I tell you, in a few months I shall bring into the
                        world an innocent witness of my guilt. Oh my bleeding heart, I shall bring a
                        poor little help less creature, heir to infamy and shame. This alone has
                        urged me once more to address you, to interest you in behalf of this poor
                        unborn, and beg you to extend your protection to the child of your lost
                        Charlotte: for my own part I have wrote so often, so frequently have pleaded
                        for for giveness, and entreated to be received once more be neath the
                        paternal roof, that having received no answer, not even one line, I much
                        fear you have cast me from you for ever. But sure you cannot refuse to
                        protect my innocent infant; it partakes not of its mother's guilt. <pb n="113"/> Oh my father, oh beloved mother, now do I feel the anguish I
                        inflicted on your hearts recoiling with double force upon my own. "If my
                        child should be a girl (which heaven forbid) tell her the unhappy fate of
                        her mother, and teach her to avoid my errors; if a boy, teach him to lament
                        my miseries, but tell him not who inflicted them, left in wishing to revenge
                        his mo ther's injuries, he should wound the peace of his father. "And now,
                        dear friends of my soul, kind guardians of my infancy, farewell. I feel I
                        never more must hope to see you; the anguish of my heart strikes at the
                        strings of life, and in a short time I shall be at rest. Oh could I but
                        receive your blessing and forgiveness before I died, it would smooth my
                        passage to the peaceful grave, and be a blessed foretaste of a happy
                        eternity. I beseech you, curse me not, my adored parents, but let a tear of
                        pity and pardon fall to the memory of your lost <lb/>CHARLOTTE." </p>
                </div>

                <div n="23" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXIII.</head>
                    <head>A MAN MAY SMILE, AND SMILE, AND BE A VILLAIN.</head>
                    <p> WHILE Charlotte was enjoying some small degree of comfort in the consoling
                        friend ship <pb n="114"/> of Mrs.Beauchamp, Montraville was advancing
                        rapidly in his affection towards Miss Franklin. Julia was an amiable girl;
                        she saw only the fair side of his character; she possessed an independent
                        fortune, and resolved to be happy with the man of her heart, though his rank
                        and fortune were by no means so exalted as she had a right to expect; she
                        saw the passion which Montraville struggled to conceal; she wondered at his
                        timidity, but imagined the distance fortune had placed between them
                        occasioned his backwardness, and made every advance which strict prudence
                        and a becoming modesty would permit. Montraville saw with pleasure he was
                        not indifferent to her, but a spark of honour which animated his bosom would
                        not suffer him to take advantage of her partiality. He was well acquainted
                        with Charlotte's situation, and he thought there would be a double cruelty
                        in forsaking her at such a time: and to marry Miss Franklin, while honour,
                        humanity, every sacred law, obliged him still to protect and support
                        Charlotte, was a baseness which his soul shuddered at. </p>
                    <p> He communicated his uneasiness to Belcour: it was the very thing this
                        pretended friend had wished. "And do you really." said he, laughing,
                        "hesitate at marrying the lovely Julia, and becoming master of her fortune,
                        because a little foolish, fond girl chose to leave her friends, and run away
                        with you to America? Dear Montraville, <pb n="115"/> act more like a man of
                        sense; this whining, pining Charlotte, who occasions you so much uneasiness,
                        would have eloped with somebody else if she had not with you." </p>
                    <p> "Would to heaven," said Montraville, "I had never seen her; my regard for
                        her was but the momentary passion of desire, but I feel I shall love and
                        revere Julia Franklin as long as I live; yet to leave poor Charlotte in her
                        present situation would be cruel beyond description." </p>
                    <p>"Oh my good sentimental friend," said Belcour, "do you imagine no body has a
                        right to provide for the brat but yourself."</p>
                    <p>Montraville started. "Sure," said he, "you cannot mean to insinuate that
                        Charlotte is false."</p>
                    <p>"I don't insinuate it," said Belcour, "I know it."</p>
                    <p>Montraville turned pale as ashes. "Then there is no faith in woman," said
                        he.</p>
                    <p> "While I thought you attached to her," said Belcour with an air of
                        indifference, "I never wished to make you uneasy by mentioning her perfidy,
                        but as I know you love and are beloved by Miss Franklin, I was determined
                        not to let these foolish scruples of honour step between you and happiness,
                        or your tenderness for the peace of a perfidious girl prevent your uniting
                        yourself to a woman of honour." </p>
                    <p> "Good heavens!" said Montraville, "what <pb n="116"/> poignant reflections
                        does a man endure who sees a lovely woman plunged in infamy, and is
                        conscious he was her first seducer; but are you certain of what you say,
                        Belcour?" </p>
                    <p> "So far," replied he, "that I myself have received advances from her which I
                        would not take advantage of out of regard to you: but hang it, think no more
                        about her. I dined at Franklin's to day, and Julia bid me seek and bring you
                        to tea: so come along my lad, make good use of opportunity, and seize the
                        gifts of fortune while they are within your reach." </p>
                    <p>Montraville was too much agitated to pass a happy evening even in the company
                        of Julia Franklin: he determined to visit Charlotte early the next morning,
                        tax her with her falsehood, and take an everlasting leave of her; but when
                        the morning came, he was commanded on duty, and for six weeks was prevented
                        from putting his design in execution. At length he found an hour to spare,
                        and walked out to spend it with Charlotte: it was near four o'clock in the
                        afternoon when he arrived at her cottage: she was not in the parlour, and
                        without calling the servant he walked up stairs, thinking to find her in her
                        bed room. He opened the door, and the first object that met his eyes was
                        Charlotte asleep on the bed, and Belcour by her side.</p>
                    <p> "Death and distraction," said he, stamping, "this is too much. Rise,
                        villain, and defend your self." <pb n="117"/>Belcour sprang from the bed.
                        The noise awoke Charlotte: terrified at the furious appearance of
                        Montraville, and seeing Belcour with him in the chamber, she caught hold of
                        his arm as he stood by the bed side, and eagerly asked what was the matter. </p>
                    <p>"Treacherous infamous girl," said he, "can you ask? How came he here?"
                        pointing to Belcour.</p>
                    <p>"As heaven is my witness," replied she weeping. "I do not know. I have not
                        seen him for these three weeks."</p>
                    <p>"Then you confess he sometimes visits you?"</p>
                    <p>"He came sometimes by your desire."</p>
                    <p> "'Tis false; I never desired him to come, and you know I did not: but mark
                        me, Charlotte, from this instant our connexion is at an end. Let Belcour, or
                        any other of your favoured lovers, take you and provide for you: I have done
                        with you forever." </p>
                    <p> He was then going to leave her: but starting wildly from the bed, she threw
                        herself on her knees before him, protesting her innocence and entreating him
                        not to leave her. "Oh Montraville," said she, "kill me, for pity's sake kill
                        me, but do not doubt my fidelity. Do not leave me in this horrid situation;
                        for the sake of your unborn child, oh! spurn not the wretched mother from
                        you." </p>
                    <p> "Charlotte," said he, with a firm voice, "I <pb n="118"/> shall take care
                        that neither you nor your child want anything in the approaching painful
                        hour; but we meet no more." He then endeavoured to raise her from the
                        ground: but in vain: she clung about his knees, entreating him to believe
                        her innocent, and conjuring Belcour to clear up the dreadful mystery. </p>
                    <p>Belcour cast on Montraville a smile of contempt: it irritated him almost to
                        madness; he broke from the feeble arms of the distressed girl; she shrieked
                        and fell prostrate on the floor.</p>
                    <p>Montraville instantly left the house and returned hastily to the city.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="24" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXIV.</head>
                    <head>MYSTERY DEVELOPED.</head>
                    <p> UNFORTUNATELY for Charlotte, about three weeks before this unhappy
                        rencontre, Captain Beauchamp, being ordered to Rhode-Island, his lady had
                        accompanied him, so that Charlotte was deprived of her friendly advice and
                        consoling society. The afternoon on which Montraville had visited her she
                        had found herself languid and fatigued, and after making a very slight
                        dinner had lain down to endeavour to recruit her exhausted spirits, and,
                        contrary to her expectations, had fallen asleep. She had not long been <pb n="119"/> lain down, when Belcour arrived, for he took evry opportunity
                        of visiting her, and striving to awaken her resentment against Montraville.
                        He enquired of the servant where her mistress was, and being told she was
                        asleep, took up a book to amuse himself: having sat a few minutes, he by
                        chance cast his eyes towards the road, and saw Montraville approaching; he
                        instantly conceived the diabolical scheme of ruining the unhappy Charlotte
                        in his opinion for ever; he therefore stole softly up stairs, and laying
                        himself by her side with the greatest precaution, for fear she should awake,
                        was in that situation discovered by his credulous friend. </p>
                    <p> When Montraville spurned the weeping Char lotte from him, and left her
                        almost distracted with terror and despair, Belcour raised her from the
                        floor, and leading her down stairs, assumed the part of a tender, consoling
                        friend; she listened to the arguments he advanced with apparent composure;
                        but this was only the calm of a moment: the remembrance of Montraville's
                        recent cruelty again rushed upon her mind: she pushed him from her with some
                        violence, and crying — "Leave me, Sir, I beseech you leave me, for much I
                        fear you have been the cause of my fidelity being suspected; go, leave me to
                        the accumulated miseries my own imprudence has brought upon me." </p>
                    <p> She then left him with precipitation, and retiring to her own apartment,
                        threw herself on the <pb n="120"/> bed, and gave vent to an agony of grief,
                        which it is impossible to describe. </p>
                    <p> It now occurred to Belcour that she might possibly write to Montraville, and
                        endeavour to convince him of her innocence: he was well aware of her
                        pathetic remonstrances, and, sensible of the tenderness of Montraville's
                        heart, resolved to prevent any letters ever reaching him: he therefore
                        called the servant, and, by the powerful persuasion of a bribe, prevailed
                        with her to promise whatever letters her mistress might write should be sent
                        to him. He then left a polite, tender note for Charlotte, and returned to
                        New-York. His first business was to seek Montraville, and endeavour to
                        convince him that what had happened would ultimately tend to his happiness:
                        he found him in his apartment, solitary, pensive, and wrapped in dis
                        agreeable reflexions. </p>
                    <p> "Why how now, whining, pining lover?" said he, clapping him on the shoulder.
                        Montra ville started; a momentary flush of resentment crossed his cheek, but
                        instantly gave place to a death like paleness, occasioned by painful
                        remembrance — remembrance awakened by that monitor, whom, though we may in
                        vain endeavour, we can never entirely silence. </p>
                    <p>"Belcour," said he, "you have injured me in a tender point."</p>
                    <p> "Prithee, Jack," replied Belcour, "do not <pb n="121"/> make a serious
                        matter of it: how could I refuse the girl's advances? and thank heaven she
                        is not your wife." </p>
                    <p>"True," said Montraville; "but she was innocent when I first knew her. It was
                        I seduced her, Belcour. Had it not been for me, she had still been virtuous
                        and happy in the affection and protection of her family."</p>
                    <p>"Pshaw," replied Belcour, laughing, "if you had not taken advantage of her
                        easy nature, some other would, and where is the difference, pray?"</p>
                    <p> "I wish I had never seen her," cried he passionately, and starting from his
                        seat. "Oh that cursed French woman," added he with vehemence, "had it not
                        been for her, I might have been happy — " He paused. </p>
                    <p> "With Julia Franklin," said Belcour. The name, like a sudden spark of
                        electric fire, seemed for a moment to suspend his faculties — for a moment
                        he was transfixed; but recovering, he caught Belcour's hand, and cried —
                        "Stop! stop! I beseech you, name not the lovely Julia and the wretched
                        Montraville in the same breath. I am a seducer, a mean, ungenerous seducer
                        of unsuspecting innocence. I dare not hope that purity like her's would
                        stoop to unite itself with black, premeditated guilt: yet by heavens I
                        swear, Belcour, I thought I loved the lost, abandoned Charlotte till I saw
                        Julia — I thought I never could for sake <pb n="122"/> her; but the heart is
                        deceitful, and I now can plainly discriminate between the impulse of a
                        youthful passion, and the pure flame of disinterested affection." </p>
                    <p> At that instant Julia Franklin passed the win dow, leaning on her uncle's
                        arm. She curtsied as she passed, and, with the bewitching smile of modest
                        cheerfulness, cried — "Do you bury your selves in the house this fine
                        evening, gents?" There was something in the voice the manner! the look! that
                        was altogether irresistible. "Perhaps she wishes my company," said
                        Montraville mentally, as he snatched up his hat: "if I thought she loved me,
                        I would confess my errors, and trust to her generosity to pity and pardon
                        me." He soon overtook her, and offering her his arm, they sauntered to
                        pleasant but unfrequented walks. Belcour drew Mr. Franklin on one side and
                        entered into a political discourse: they walked faster than the young
                        people, and Belcour by some means contrived entirely to lose sight of them.
                        It was a fine evening in the beginning of autumn; the last remains of
                        day-light faintly streaked the western sky, while the moon, with pale and
                        virgin lustre, in the room of gorgeous gold and purple, ornamented the
                        canopy of heaven with silver, fleecy clouds, which now and then half hid her
                        lovely face, and, by partly concealing, heightened every beauty; the zephyrs
                            <pb n="123"/>whispered softly through the trees, which now began to shed
                        their leafy honours; a solemn silence reigned: and to a happy mind an
                        evening such as this would give serenity, and calm, unruffled pleasure; but
                        to Montraville, while it soothed the turbulence of his passions, it brought
                        increase of melancholy reflections. Julia was leaning on his arm: he took
                        her hand in his, and pressing it tenderly, sighed deeply, but continued
                        silent. Julia was embarrassed; she wished to break a silence so
                        unaccountable, but was unable; she loved Montraville, she saw he was
                        unhappy, and wished to know the cause of his uneasiness, but that innate
                        modesty which nature has implanted in the female breast, prevented her
                        enquiring. "I am bad company, Miss Franklin," said he, at last recollecting
                        himself; but I have met with something to-day that has greatly distressed
                        me, and I cannot shake off the disagreeable impression it has made on my
                        mind." </p>
                    <p>"I am sorry," she replied, "that you have any cause of inquietude. I am sure
                        if you were as happy as you deserve, and as all your friends wish you — "
                        She hesitated. "And might I," replied he with some animation, "presume to
                        rank the amiable Julia in that number?"</p>
                    <p> "Certainly," said she, "the service you have rendered me, the knowledge of
                        your worth, all com bine to make me esteem you." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="124"/> "Esteem, my lovely Julia," said he passionately, "is but a
                        poor cold word. I would if I dared, if I thought I merited your attention —
                        but no, I must not — honour forbids. I am beneath your notice, Julia, I am
                        miserable and cannot hope to be otherwise." </p>
                    <p>"Alas!" said Julia, "I pity you."</p>
                    <p> "Oh thou condescending charmer," said he, "how that sweet word cheers my sad
                        heart. Indeed if you knew all, you would pity; but at the same time I fear
                        you would despise me." </p>
                    <p> Just then they were again joined by Mr. Franklin and Belcour. It had
                        interrupted an interesting discourse. They found it impossible to converse
                        on indifferent subjects, and proceeded home in silence. At Mr. Franklin's
                        door Montraville again pressed Julia's hand, and faintly articulating "good
                        night," retired to his lodgings dispirited and wretched from a consciousness
                        that he deserved not the affection, with which he plainly saw he was
                        honoured. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="25" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXV.</head>
                    <head>RECEPTION OF A LETTER.</head>
                    <p> "AND where now is our poor Charlotte?" said Mr. Temple one evening, as the
                        cold blasts of autumn whistled rudely over the heath, and the yellow
                        appearance of the distant wood, <pb n="125"/>spoke the near approach of
                        winter. In vain the cheerful fire blazled on the hearth, in vain was he
                        surrounded by all the comforts of life; the parent was still alive in his
                        heart, and when he thought that perhaps his once darling child was ere this
                        exposed to all the miseries of want in a distant land, without a friend to
                        sooth and comfort her, without the benignant look of compassion to chear, or
                        the angelic voice of pity to pour the balm of consolation on her wounded
                        heart; when he thought of this, his whole soul dissolved in tenderness; and
                        while he wiped the tear of anguish from the eye of his patient,
                        uncomplaining Lucy, he struggled to suppress the sympathizing drop that
                        started in his own. "Oh, my poor girl," said Mrs. Temple, "how must she be
                        altered, else surely she would have relieved our agonizing minds by one line
                        to say she lived — to say she had not quite forgot the parents who almost
                        idolized her." </p>
                    <p> "Gracious heaven," said Mr. Temple, start ing from his seat, "who would wish
                        to be a father, to experience the agonizing pangs inflicted on a parent's
                        heart by the ingratitude of a child?" Mrs. Temple wept; her father took her
                        hand; he would have said, "be comforted my child," but the words died on his
                        tongue. The sad silence that ensued was interrupted by a loud rap at the
                        door. In a moment a servant entered with a letter in his hand. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="126"/> Mrs. Temple took it from him: she cast her eyes upon the
                        superscription; she knew the writing. "'Tis Charlotte," said she, eagerly
                        breaking the seal, "she has not quite forgot us." But before she had half
                        gone through the contents, a sudden sickness seized her; she grew cold and
                        giddy, and putting it into her husband's hand, she cried — "Read it: I
                        cannot." Mr. Temple attempted to read it aloud, but frequently paused to
                        give vent to his tears. "My poor deluded child," said he, when he had
                        finished. </p>
                    <p>"Oh, shall we not forgive the dear penitent?" said Mrs. Temple. "We must, we
                        will my love; she is willing to return, and 'tis our duty to receive
                        her."</p>
                    <p> "Father of mercy," said Mr. Eldridge, raising his clasped hands, "let me but
                        live once more to see the dear wanderer restored to her afflicted parents,
                        and take me from this world of sorrow when ever it seemeth best to thy
                        wisdom." </p>
                    <p>"Yes, we will receive her," said Mr. Temple; "we will endeavour to heal her
                        wounded spirit, and speak peace and comfort to her agitated soul. I will
                        write to her to return immediately."</p>
                    <p> "Oh!" said Mrs. Temple, "I would if possible fly to her support and cheer
                        the dear sufferer in the approaching hour of distress, and tell her how
                        nearly penitence is allied to virtue. Cannot we go and conduct her home, my
                        love?" continued <pb n="127" facs="unknown:027650_0123_0FD563A649D4D880"/>
                        she, laying her hand on his arm. "My father will surely forgive our absence
                        if we go to bring home his darling." </p>
                    <p> "You cannot go, my Lucy," said Mr. Temple: "the delicacy of your frame would
                        but poorly sustain the fatigue of a long voyage; but I will go and bring the
                        gentle penitent to your arms; we may still see many years of happiness." </p>
                    <p> The struggle in the bosom of Mrs. Temple between maternal and conjugal
                        tenderness was long and painful. At length the former triumphed, and she
                        consented that her husband should set forwad to New-York by the first
                        opportunity: she wrote to her Charlotte in the tenderest, most consoling
                        manner, and looked forward to the happy hour, when she should again embrace
                        her, with the most animated hope. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="26" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXVI.</head>
                    <head>WHAT MIGHT BE EXPECTED.</head>
                    <p> IN the meantime the passion Montraville had conceived for Julia Franklin
                        daily increased, and he saw evidently how much he was beloved by that
                        amiable girl: he was likewise strongly prepossessed with an idea of
                        Charlotte's perfidy. What wonder then if he gave himself up to the
                        delightful sensation which pervaded his bosom; and finding no obstacle <pb n="128"/> arise to oppose his happiness, he solicited and obtained the
                        hand of Julia. A few days before his marriage he thus addressed Belcour: </p>
                    <p> "Though Charlotte, by her abandoned con duct, has thrown herself from my
                        protection, I still hold myself bound to support her till relieved from her
                        present condition, and also to provide for the child. I do not intend to see
                        her again, but I will place a sum of money in your hands, which will amply
                        supply her with every convenience; but should she require more, let her have
                        it, and I will see it repaid. I wish I could prevail on the poor deluded
                        girl to return to her friends: she was an only child, and I make no doubt
                        but that they would joyfully receive her; it would shock me greatly to see
                        her henceforth leading a life of infamy, as I should always accuse myself of
                        being the primary cause of all her errors. If she should chuse to remain
                        under your protection, be kind to her, Belcour, I conjure you. Let not
                        satiety prompt you to treat her in such a manner, as may drive her to
                        actions which necessity might urge her to, while her better reason
                        disapproved them: she shall never want a friend while I live, but I never
                        more desire to behold her; her presence would be always painful to me, and a
                        glance from her eye would call the blush of conscious guilt into my cheek. </p>
                    <p> "I will write a letter to her, which you may <pb n="129"/> deliver when I am
                        gone, as I shall go to St. Eustatia the day after my union with Julia, who
                        will accompany me." </p>
                    <p> Belcour promised to fulfil the request of his friend, though nothing was
                        farther from his intentions, than the least design of delivering the letter,
                        or making Charlotte acquainted with the provision Montraville had made for
                        her; he was bent on the complete ruin of the unhappy girl, and supposed, by
                        reducing her to an entire dependence on him, to bring her by degrees to
                        consent to gratify his ungenerous passion. </p>
                    <p> The evening before the day appointed for the nuptials of Montraville and
                        Julia, the former retired early to his apartment; and ruminating on the past
                        scenes of his life, suffered the keenest remorse in the remembrance of
                        Charlotte's seduction. "Poor girl," said he, "I will at least write and bid
                        her adieu; I will too endeavour to awaken that love of virtue in her bosom
                        which her unfortunate attachment to me has extinguished." He took up the pen
                        and began to write, but words were denied him. How could he address the
                        woman whom he had seduced, and whom, though he thought unworthy his
                        tenderness, he was about to bid adieu for ever? How should he tell her that
                        he was going to abjure her, to enter into the most indissoluble ties with
                        another, and that he could not even own the infant which she bore as his
                        child? Several letters <pb n="130"/> were begun and destroyed: at length he
                        completed the following: </p>
                    <div type="letter">
                        <opener>
                            <salute>TO CHARLOTTE.</salute>
                        </opener>
                        <p> "Though I have taken up my pen to address you, my poor injured girl, I
                            feel I am inadequate to the task yet, however painful the endeavour, I
                            could not resolve upon leaving you for ever without one kind line to bid
                            you adieu, to tell you how my heart bleeds at the remembrance of what
                            you was, before you saw the hated Montraville. Even now imagination
                            paints the scene, when, torn by contending passions, when, struggling
                            between love and duty, you fainted in my arms, and I lifted you into the
                            chaise: I see the agony of your mind, when, recovering, you found
                            yourself on the road to Portsmouth: but how, my gentle girl, how could
                            you, when so justly impressed with the value of virtue, how could you,
                            when loving as I thought you loved me, yield to the solicitations of
                            Belcour? </p>
                        <p> "Oh Charlotte, conscience tells me it was I, villain that I am, who
                            first taught you the allurements of guilty pleasure; it was I who
                            dragged you from the calm repose which innocence and virtue ever enjoy;
                            and can I, dare I tell you, it was not love prompted to the horrid deed?
                            No, thou dear, fallen angel, believe your repentant Montraville, when he
                            tells you the man who truly loves will never betray the object of his
                            affection. Adieu, Charlotte: could you still find charms in a life of
                                <pb n="131"/> unoffending innocence, return to your parents; you
                            shall never want the means of support both for yourself and child. Oh!
                            gracious heaven! may that child be entirely free from the vices of its
                            father and the weakness of its mother. </p>
                        <p> "To-morrow — but no, I cannot tell you what to-morrow will produce;
                            Belcour will inform you: he also has cash for you, which I beg you will
                            ask for whenever you may want it. Once more adieu: believe me, could I
                            hear you was returned to your friends, and enjoying that tranquillity of
                            which I have robbed you, I should be as completely happy as even you, in
                            your fondest hours, could wish me, but till then a gloom will obscure
                            the brightest prospects of </p>
                        <closer>
                            <signed>MONTRAVILLE."</signed>
                        </closer>
                    </div>

                    <p>After he had sealed this letter he threw himself on the bed, and enjoyed a
                        few hours repose. Early in the morning Belcour tapped at his door: he arose
                        hastily, and prepared to meet his Julia at the altar.</p>
                    <p> "This is the letter to Charlotte," said he, giving it to Belcour: "take it
                        to her when we are gone to Eustatia; and I conjure you, my dear friend, not
                        to use any sophistical arguments to prevent her return to virtue; but should
                        she incline that way, encourage her in the thought, and assist her to put
                        her design in execution. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="27" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="132"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XXVII.</head>
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                        <body>
                            <p>
                                <lb/>Pensive she mourn'd, and hung her languid head, <lb/>Like a
                                fair lily overcharg'd with dew. </p>
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                    <p> CHARLOTTE had now been left almost three months a prey to her own melancholy
                        reflexions — sad companions indeed; nor did anyone break in upon her
                        solitude but Belcour, who once or twice called to enquire after her health,
                        and tell her he had in vain endeavoured to bring Montraville to hear reason;
                        and once, but only once, was her mind cheered by the receipt of an
                        affectionate letter from Mrs. Beauchamp. Often had she wrote to her
                        perfidious seducer, and with the most persuasive eloquence endeavoured to
                        convince him of her innocence; but these letters were never suffered to
                        reach the hands of Montraville, or they must, though on the very eve of
                        marriage, have prevented his deserting the wretched girl. Real anguish of
                        heart had in a great measure faded her charms, her cheeks were pale from
                        want of rest, and her eyes, by frequent, indeed almost continued weeping,
                        were sunk and heavy. Sometimes a gleam of hope would play about her heart
                        when she thought of her parents — "They cannot surely," she would say,
                        "refuse to forgive me; or should they deny their pardon to me, they will not
                        hate my innocent infant on account of its mother's errors." <pb n="133"/>
                        How often did the poor mourner wish for the consoling presence of the
                        benevolent Mrs. Beauchamp. "If she were here," she would cry, "she would
                        certainly comfort me, and sooth the distraction of my soul." </p>
                    <p> She was sitting one afternoon, wrapped in these melancholy reflexions, when
                        she was interrupted by the entrance of Belcour. Great as the alteration was
                        which incessant sorrow had made on her person she was still interesting
                        still charming; and the unhallowed flame, which had urged Belcour to plant
                        dissension between her and Montraville, still raged in his bosom: he was
                        determined if possible, to make her his mistress; nay, he had even conceived
                        the diabolical scheme of taking her to New-York, and making her appear in
                        every public place where it was likely she should meet Montraville, that he
                        might be a witness to his unmanly triumph. </p>
                    <p>When he entered the room where Charlotte was sitting, he assumed the look of
                        tender, consolatory friendship. "And how does my lovely Charlotte?" said he,
                        taking her hand: "I fear you are not so well as I could wish."</p>
                    <p> "I am not well, Mr. Belcour," said she, "very far from it; but the pains and
                        infirmities of the body I could easily bear, nay, submit to them with
                        patience, were they not aggravated by the most insupportable anguish of my
                        mind." </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="134"/> "You are not happy, Charlotte," said he, with a look of
                        well-dissembled sorrow. </p>
                    <p> "Alas!" replied she mournfully, shaking her head, "how can I be happy,
                        deserted and forsaken as I am, without a friend of my own sex to whom I can
                        unburthen my full heart, nay, my fidelity suspected by the very man for whom
                        I have sacrificed every thing valuable in life, for whom I have made myself
                        a poor despised creature, an outcast from society, an object only of
                        contempt and pity." </p>
                    <p> "You think too meanly of yourself, Miss Temple: there is no one who would
                        dare to treat you with contempt: all who have the pleasure of knowing you
                        must admire and esteem. You are lonely here, my dear girl; give me leave to
                        conduct you to New-York, where the agreeable society of some ladies, to whom
                        I will introduce you, will dispel these sad thoughts, and I shall again see
                        returning chearfulness animate those lovely features." </p>
                    <p> "Oh never! never!" cried Charlotte emphatically; "the virtuous part of my
                        sex will scorn me, and I will never associate with infamy. No, Belcour, here
                        let me hide my shame and sorrow, here let me spend my few remaining days in
                        obscurity, unknown and unpitied, here let me die unlamented, and my name
                        sink to oblivion." Here her tears stopped her utterance. <pb n="135"/>
                        Belcour was awed to silence: he dared not interrupt her; and after a
                        moment's pause she proceeded — "I once had conceived the thought of going to
                        New-York to seek out the still dear, though cruel, ungenerous Montraville,
                        to throw myself at his feet, and entreat his compassion; heaven knows, not
                        for myself; if I am no longer beloved, I will not be indebted to his pity to
                        redress my injuries, but I would have knelt and entreated him not to forsake
                        my poor unborn — " She could say no more; a crimson glow rushed over her
                        cheeks and covering her face with her hands, she sobbed aloud. </p>
                    <p> Something like humanity was awakened in Belcour's breast by this pathetic
                        speech: he arose and walked towards the window; but the selfish passion
                        which had taken possession of his heart soon stifled these finer emotions;
                        and he thought if Charlotte was once convinced she had no longer any
                        dependance on Montraville, she would more readily throw herself on his
                        protection. Determined, therefore, to inform her of all that had happened,
                        he again resumed his seat; and finding she began to be more composed,
                        enquired if she had ever heard from Montraville since the unfortunate
                        rencontre in her bed chamber. </p>
                    <p>"Ah no," said she. "I fear I shall never hear from him again."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="136"/> "I am greatly of your opinion," said Belcour, "for he has been
                        for some time past greatly attached — " </p>
                    <p>At the word "attached" a death-like paleness overspread the countenance of
                        Charlotte, but she applied to some hartshorn which stood beside her, and
                        Belcour proceeded.</p>
                    <p> "He has been for some time past greatly attached to one Miss Franklin, a
                        pleasing lively girl, with a large fortune." </p>
                    <p>"She may be richer, may be handsomer," cried Charlotte, "but cannot love him
                        so well. Oh may she beware of his art, and not trust him too far as I have
                        done."</p>
                    <p> "He addresses her publicly," said he, "and it was rumoured they were to be
                        married before he sailed for Eustatia, whither his company is ordered." </p>
                    <p> "Belcour," said Charlotte, seizing his hand, and gazing at him earnestly,
                        while her pale lips trembled with convulsive agony, "tell me, and tell me
                        truly I beseech you, do you think he can be such a villain as to marry
                        another woman, and leave me to die with want and misery in a strange land:
                        tell me what you think; I can bear it very well; I will not shrink from this
                        heaviest stroke of fate; I have deserved my afflictions, and I will
                        endeavour to bear them as I ought." </p>
                    <p>"I fear," said Belcour, "he can be that villain."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="137"/> "Perhaps," cried she, eagerly interrupting him, "perhaps he is
                        married already: come, let me know the worst," continued she with an
                        affected look of composure: "you need not be afraid, I shall not send the
                        unfortunate lady a bowl of poison." </p>
                    <p>"Well then my dear girl," said he, deceived by her appearance, "they were
                        married on Thursday, and yesterday morning they sailed for Eustatia."</p>
                    <p> "Married — gone — say you?" cried she in a distracted accent, "what without
                        a last farewell, without one thought on my unhappy situation! Oh
                        Montraville, may God forgive your perfidy." She shrieked, and Belcour sprang
                        forward just in time to prevent her falling to the floor. </p>
                    <p> Alarming faintings now succeeded each other, and she was conveyed to her
                        bed, from whence she earnestly prayed she might never more arise. Belcour
                        staid with her that night, and in the morning found her in a high fever. The
                        fits she had been seized with had greatly terrified him; and confined as she
                        now was to a bed of sickness, she was no longer an object of desire: it is
                        true for several days he went constantly to see her, but her pale, emaciated
                        appearance disgusted him: his visits became less frequent; he forgot the
                        solemn charge given him by Montraville; he even forgot the money entrusted
                        to his care; and, the burning blush of indignation <pb n="138"/> and shame
                        tinges my cheek while I write it, this disgrace to humanity and manhood at
                        length forgot even the injured Charlotte; and, attracted by the blooming
                        health of a farmer's daughter, whom he had seen in his frequent excursions
                        to the country, he left the unhappy girl to sink unnoticed to the grave, a
                        prey to sickness, grief and penury; while he, having triumphed over the
                        virtue of the artless cottager, rioted in all the intemperance of luxury and
                        lawless pleasure. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="28" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXVIII.</head>
                    <head>A TRIFLING RETROSPECT.</head>
                    <p> "BLESS my heart," cries my young volatile reader, "I shall never have
                        patience to get through these volumes, there are so many ahs! and ohs! so
                        much fainting, tears, and distress, I am sick to death of the subject." My
                        dear, cheerful, innocent girl, for innocent I will suppose you to be, or you
                        would acutely feel the woes of Char lotte, did conscience say, thus might it
                        have been with me, had not Providence interposed to snatch me from
                        destruction: therefore, my lively, innocent girl, I must request your
                        patience; I am writing a tale of truth: I mean to write it to the heart: but
                        if perchance the heart is rendered impenetrable by unbounded prosperity, or
                        a continuance in vice, <pb n="139"/> I expect not my tale to please, nay, I
                        even expect it will be thrown by with disgust. But softly, gentle fair one;
                        I pray you throw it not aside till you have perused the whole; mayhap you
                        may find something therein to repay you for the trouble. Methinks I see a
                        sarcastic smile sit on your countenance. — "And what," cry you, "does the
                        conceited author suppose we can glean from these pages, if Charlotte is held
                        up as an object of terror, to prevent us from falling into guilty errors?
                        does not La Rue triumph in her shame, and by adding art to guilt, obtain the
                        affection of a worthy man, and rise to a station where she is beheld with
                        respect, and chearfully received into all companies. What then is the moral
                        you would inculcate? Would you wish us to think that a deviation from
                        virtue, if covered by art and hypocrisy, is not an object of detestation,
                        but on the contrary shall raise us to fame and honour? while the hapless
                        girl who falls a victim to her too great sensibility, shall be loaded with
                        ignominy and shame?" No, my fair querist, I mean no such thing. Remember the
                        endeavours of the wicked are often suffered to prosper, that in the end
                        their fall may be attended with more bitterness of heart; while the cup of
                        affliction is poured out for wise and salutary ends, and they who are
                        compelled to drain it even to the bitter dregs, often find comfort at the
                        bottom; the tear of penitence blots their offences from the book of fate,
                        and they <pb n="140"/> rise from the heavy, painful trial, purified and fit
                        for a mansion in the kingdom of eternity. </p>
                    <p> Yes, my young friends, the tear of compassion shall fall for the fate of
                        Charlotte, while the name of La Rue shall be detested and despised. For
                        Charlotte, the soul melts with sympathy; for La Rue, it feels nothing but
                        horror and contempt. But perhaps your gay hearts would rather follow the
                        fortunate Mrs. Crayton through the scenes of pleasure and dissipation in
                        which she was engaged, than listen to the complaints and miseries of
                        Charlotte. I will for once oblige you: I will for once follow her to
                        midnight revels, balls, and scenes of gaiety, for in such was she constantly
                        engaged. </p>
                    <p> I have said her person was lovely; let us add that she was surrounded by
                        splendor and affluence, and he must know but little of the world who can
                        wonder, (however faulty such a woman's conduct,) at her being followed by
                        the men, and her company courted by the women: in short, Mrs. Crayton was
                        the universal favourite: she set the fashions, she was toasted by all the
                        gentlemen, and copied by all the ladies. </p>
                    <p> Colonel Crayton was a domestic man. Could he be happy with such a woman?
                        impossible! Remonstrance was vain: he might as well have preached to the
                        winds, as endeavour to persuade her from any action, however ridiculous, on
                        which she had set her mind: in short, after a little <pb n="141"/>
                        ineffectual struggle, he gave up the attempt, and left her to follow the
                        bent of her own inclinations: what those were, I think the reader must have
                        seen enough of her character to form a just idea. Among the number who paid
                        their devotions at her shrine, she singled one, a young Ensign of mean
                        birth, indifferent education, and weak intellects. How such a man came into
                        the army, we hardly know to account for, and how he afterwards rose to posts
                        of honour is likewise strange and wonderful. But fortune is blind, and so
                        are those too frequently who have the power of dispensing her favours: else
                        why do we see fools and knaves at the very top of the wheel, while patient
                        merit sinks to the extreme of the opposite abyss. But we may form a thousand
                        conjectures on this subject, and yet never hit on the right. Let us
                        therefore endeavour to deserve her smiles, and whether we succeed or not, we
                        shall feel more innate satisfaction, than thousands of those who bask in the
                        sunshine of her favour unworthily. But to return to Mrs. Crayton: this young
                        man, whom I shall distinguish by the name of Corydon, was the reigning
                        favourite of her heart. He escorted her to the play, danced with her at
                        every ball, and when indisposition prevented her going out, it was he alone
                        who was permitted to cheer the gloomy solitude to which she was obliged to
                        confine herself. Did she ever think of poor Charlotte? — if she did, my dear
                        Miss, it <pb n="142"/> was only to laugh at the poor girl's want of spirit
                        in consenting to be moped up in the country, while Montraville was enjoying
                        all the pleasures of a gay, dissipated city. When she heard of his marriage,
                        she smiling said, so there's an end of Madam Charlotte's hopes. I wonder who
                        will take her now, or what will become of the little affected prude? </p>
                    <p>But as you have led to the subject, I think we may as well return to the
                        distressed Charlotte, and not, like the unfeeling Mrs. Crayton, shut our
                        hearts to the call of humanity.</p>
                </div>
                <div n="29" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXIX.</head>
                    <head>WE GO FORWARD AGAIN.</head>
                    <p> THE strength of Charlotte's constitution combated against her disorder, and
                        she began slowly to recover, though she still laboured under a violent
                        depression of spirits: how must that depression be encreased, when, upon
                        examining her little store, she found herself reduced to one solitary
                        guinea, and that during her illness the attendance of an apothecary and
                        nurse, together with many other unavoidable expences, had involved her in
                        debt, from which she saw no method of extricating herself. As to the faint
                        hope which she had entertained of hearing from and being relieved by her
                        parents; it now entirely forsook her, for it was above <pb n="143"/> four
                        months since her letter was dispatched, and she had received no answer: she
                        therefore imagined that her conduct had either entirely alienated their
                        affection from her, or broken their hearts, and she must never more hope to
                        receive their blessing. </p>
                    <p> Never did any human being wish for death with greater fervency or with
                        juster cause; yet she had too just a sense of the duties of the Christian
                        religion to attempt to put a period to her own existence. "I have but to be
                        patient a little longer," she would cry, "and nature, fatigued and fainting,
                        will throw off this heavy load of mortality, and I shall be released from
                        all my sufferings." </p>
                    <p> It was one cold stormy day in the latter end of December, as Charlotte sat
                        by a handful of fire, the low state of her finances not allowing her to
                        replenish her stock of fuel, and prudence teaching her to be careful of what
                        she had, when she was surprised by the entrance of a farmer's wife, who,
                        without much ceremony, seated herself, and began this curious harangue. </p>
                    <p>"I'm come to see if as how you can pay your rent, because as how we hear
                        Captain Montable is gone away, and it's fifty to one if he b'ant killed
                        afore he comes back again; and then, Miss, or Ma'am, or whatever you may be,
                        as I was saying to my husband, where are we to look for our money."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="144"/> This was a stroke altogether unexpected by Charlotte: she knew
                        so little of the ways of the world that she had never bestowed a thought on
                        the payment for the rent of the house; she knew indeed that she owed a good
                        deal, but this was never reckoned among the others: she was thunder struck;
                        she hardly knew what answer to make, yet it was absolutely necessary that
                        she should say some thing: and judging of the gentleness of every female
                        disposition by her own, she thought the best way to interest the woman in
                        her favour would be to tell her candidly to what a situation she was
                        reduced, and how little probability there was of her ever paying any body. </p>
                    <p> Alas poor Charlotte, how confined was her knowledge of human nature, or she
                        would have been convinced that the only way to ensure the friendship and
                        assistance of your surrounding ac quaintance is to convince them you do not
                        require it, for when once the petrifying aspect of distress and penury
                        appears, whose qualities, like Medusa's head, can change to stone all that
                        look up on it; when once this Gorgon claims acquaintance with us, the
                        phantom of friendship, that before courted our notice, will vanish into
                        unsubstantial air, and the whole world before us appear a barren waste.
                        Pardon me, ye dear spirits of benevolence, whose benign smiles and cheerful
                        giving hand have strewed sweet flowers on many a <pb n="145"/> thorny path
                        through which my wayward fate forced me to pass; think not, that, in
                        condemning the unfeeling texture of the human heart, I forget the spring
                        from whence flow all the comforts I enjoy: oh no! I look up to you as to
                        bright constellations, gathering new splendours from the surrounding
                        darkness: but ah! whilst I adore the benignant rays that cheered and
                        illumined my heart, I mourn that their influence cannot extend to all the
                        sons and daughters of affliction. </p>
                    <p> "Indeed, Madam," said poor Charlotte in a tremulous accent, "I am at a loss
                        what to do. Montraville placed me here, and promised to defray all my
                        expenses: but he has forgot his promise, he has forsaken me, and I have no
                        friend who has either power or will to relieve me. Let me hope, as you see
                        my unhappy situation, your charity — " </p>
                    <p> "Charity," cried the woman impatiently interrupting her, "charity indeed:
                        why, Mistress, charity begins at home, and I have seven children at home,
                            <hi rend="italic">honest, lawful</hi> children, and it is my duty to
                        keep them; and do you think I will give away my property to a nasty,
                        impudent hussey, to maintain her and her bastard: an I was saying to my
                        husband the other day what will this world come to; honest women are nothing
                        now-a-days, while the harlotings are set up for fine ladies, and <pb n="146"/> look upon us no more nor the dirt they walk upon: but let me tell you, my
                        fine spoken Ma'am, I must have my money; so seeing as how you can't pay it,
                        why you must troop, and leave all your fine gimcracks and fal-der-ralls
                        behind you. I don't ask for no more nor my right, and nobody shall dare for
                        to go for to hinder me of it." </p>
                    <p>"Oh heavens," cried Charlotte, clasping her hands, "what will become of
                        me?"</p>
                    <p>"Come on ye!" retorted the unfeeling wretch: "why go to the barracks and work
                        for a morsel of bread; wash and mend the soldiers cloaths, an cook their
                        victuals, and not expect to live in idleness on honest people's means. Oh I
                        wish I could see the day when all such cattle were obliged to work hard and
                        eat little: it's only what they deserve."</p>
                    <p> "Father of mercy," cried Charlotte, "I acknowledge thy correction just: but
                        prepare me, I beseech thee, for the portion of misery thou may'st please to
                        lay upon me." </p>
                    <p>"Well," said the woman, "I shall go an tell my husband as how you can't pay;
                        and so d'ye see, Ma'am, get ready to be packing away this very night, for
                        you should not stay another night in this house, though I was sure you would
                        lay in the street."</p>
                    <p> Charlotte bowed her head in silence; but the anguish of her heart was too
                        great to permit her to articulate a single word. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="30" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="147"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XXX.</head>
                    <floatingText>
                        <body>
                            <p>
                                <lb/>And what is friendship but a name; <lb/>A charm that lulls to
                                sleep, <lb/>A shade that follows wealth and fame, <lb/>But leaves
                                the wretch to weep. </p>
                        </body>
                    </floatingText>

                    <p> WHEN Charlotte was left to herself, she began to think what course she must
                        take, or to whom she could apply, to prevent her perishing for want, or
                        perhaps that very night falling a victim to the inclemency of the season.
                        After many perplexed thoughts, she at last determined to set out for
                        New-York, and enquire out Mrs. Crayton, from whom she had no doubt but she
                        should obtain immediate relief as soon as her distress was made known; she
                        had no sooner formed this resolution than she resolved immediately to put it
                        in execution: she therefore wrote the following little billet to Mrs.
                        Crayton, thinking if she should have company with her it would be better to
                        send it in than to re quest to see her. </p>

                    <div type="letter">
                        <head>To MRS. CRAYTON.</head>
                        <opener>
                            <salute>"MADAM,</salute>
                        </opener>
                        <p> "When we left our native land, that dear happy land which now contains
                            all that is dear to the wretched Charlotte, our prospects were the same;
                            we both, pardon me, Madam, if I say, we both too easily followed the
                            impulse of our treacherous <pb n="148"/> hearts, and trusted our
                            happiness on a tempestuous ocean, where mine has been wrecked and lost
                            for ever; you have been more fortunate — you are united to a man of
                            honour and humanity, united by the most sacred ties, respected,
                            esteemed, and admired, and surrounded by innumerable blessings of which
                            I am bereaved, enjoying those pleasures which have fled my bosom never
                            to return; alas! sorrow and deep regret have taken their place. Be hold
                            me, Madam, a poor forsaken wanderer, who has not where to lay her weary
                            head, wherewith to supply the wants of nature, or to shield her from the
                            inclemency of the weather. To you I sue, to you I look for pity and
                            relief. I ask not to be received as an intimate or an equal; only for
                            charity's sweet sake receive me into your hospitable mansion, allot me
                            the meanest apartment in it, and let me breath out my soul in prayers
                            for your happiness; I cannot, I feel I cannot long bear up under the
                            accumulated woes that pour in upon me; but oh! my dear Madam, for the
                            love of heaven suffer me not to expire in the street; and when I am at
                            peace, as soon I shall be, extend your compassion to my helpless
                            offspring, should it please heaven that it should survive its unhappy
                            mother. A gleam of joy breaks in on my benighted soul while I reflect
                            that you cannot, will not refuse your protection to the heart-broken </p>
                        <closer>
                            <signed>"CHARLOTTE."</signed>
                        </closer>
                    </div>

                    <p>
                        <pb n="149"/> When Charlotte had finished this letter, late as it was in the
                        afternoon, and though the snow began to fall very fast, she tied up a few
                        necessaries which she had prepared against her expected confinement, and
                        terrified lest she should be again exposed to the insults of her barbarous
                        landlady, more dreadful to her wounded spirit than either storm or darkness,
                        she set forward for New-York. </p>
                    <p> It may be asked by those, who, in a work of this kind, love to cavil at
                        every trifling omission, whether Charlotte did not possess any valuable of
                        which she could have disposed, and by that means have supported herself till
                        Mrs. Beauchamp's return, when she would have been certain of receiving every
                        tender attention which compassion and friend ship could dictate: but let me
                        entreat these wise, penetrating gentlemen to reflect, that when Charlotte
                        left England, it was in such haste that there was no time to purchase any
                        thing more than what was wanted for immediate use on the voyage, and after
                        her arrival at New-York, Montraville's affection soon began to decline, so
                        that her whole wardrobe consisted of only necessaries, and as to baubles,
                        with which fond lovers often load their mistresses, she possessed not one,
                        except a plain gold locket of small value, which contained a lock of her
                        mother's hair, and which the greatest extremity of want could not have
                        forced her to part with. </p>
                    <p> I hope, Sir, your prejudices are now removed <pb n="150"/> in regard to the
                        probability of my story? Oh, they are. Well then, with your leave, I will
                        proceed. </p>
                    <p> The distance from the house which our suffering heroine occupied, to
                        New-York, was not very great, yet the snow fell so fast, and the cold so in
                        tense, that, being unable from her situation to walk quick, she found
                        herself almost sinking with cold and fatigue before she reached the town,
                        her garments, which were merely suitable to the summer season, being an
                        undress robe of plain white muslin, were wet through, and a thin black cloak
                        and bonnet, very improper habiliments for such a climate, but poorly
                        defended her from the cold. In this situation she reached the city, and
                        enquired of a foot soldier whom she met, the way to Colonel Crayton's. </p>
                    <p> "Bless you, my sweet lady," said the soldier with a voice and look of
                        compassion, "I will shew you the way with all my heart; but if you are going
                        to make a petition to Madam Crayton it is all to no purpose I assure you: if
                        you please I will conduct you to Mr. Franklin's; though Miss Julia is
                        married and gone now, yet the old gentleman is very good." </p>
                    <p>"Julia Franklin," said Charlotte; "is she not married to Montraville?"</p>
                    <p>"Yes," replied the soldier, "and may God bless them, for a better officer
                        never lived, he is so good to us all; and as to Miss Julia, all the poor
                        folk almost worshipped her."</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="151"/> "Gracious heaven," cried Charlotte, "is Montraville then
                        unjust to none but me." </p>
                    <p> The soldier now shewed her Colonel Crayton's door, and with a beating heart,
                        she knocked for ad mission. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="31" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXXI.</head>
                    <head>SUBJECT CONTINUED.</head>
                    <p> WHEN the door was opened, Charlotte, in a voice rendered scarcely
                        articulate, through cold and the extreme agitation of her mind, demanded
                        whether Mrs. Crayton was at home. The servant hesitated: he knew that his
                        lady was engaged at a game of picquet with her dear Corydon, nor could he
                        think she would like to be disturbed by a person whose appearance spoke her
                        of so little consequence as Charlotte; yet there was something in her
                        countenance that rather interested him in her favour, and he said his lady
                        was engaged, but if she had any particular message he would deliver it. </p>
                    <p>"Take up this letter," said Charlotte: "tell her the unhappy writer of it
                        waits in her hall for an answer."</p>
                    <p>The tremulous accent, the tearful eye, must have moved any heart not composed
                        of adamant. The man took the letter from the poor suppliant, and hastily
                        ascended the stair case.</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="152"/> "A letter, Madam," said he, presenting it to his lady: "an
                        immediate answer is required." </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Crayton glanced her eye carelessly over the contents. "What stuff is
                        this;" cried she haughtily; "have not I told you a thousand times that I
                        will not be plagued with beggars, and petitions from people one knows
                        nothing about? Go tell the woman I can't do any thing in it. I'm sorry, but
                        one can't relieve every body." </p>
                    <p>The servant bowed, and heavily returned with this chilling message to
                        Charlotte.</p>
                    <p>"Surely," said she, "Mrs. Crayton has not read my letter. Go, my good friend,
                        pray go back to her; tell her it is Charlotte Temple who request beneath her
                        hospitable roof to find shelter from the inclemency of the season."</p>
                    <p> "Prithee, don't plague me, man," cried Mrs. Crayton impatiently, as the
                        servant advanced some thing in behalf of the unhappy girl. I tell you I
                        don't know her." </p>
                    <p> "Not know me," cried Charlotte, rushing into the room, (for she had followed
                        the man up stairs) "not know me, not remember the ruined Charlotte Temple,
                        who, but for you, perhaps might still have been innocent, still have been
                        happy. Oh! La Rue, this is beyond every thing I could have believed
                        possible." </p>
                    <p> "Upon my honour, Miss," replied the unfeeling woman with the utmost
                        effrontery, "this is a <pb n="153"/> most unaccountable address; it is
                        beyond my comprehension. John," continued she, turning to the servant, "the
                        young woman is certainly out of her senses: do pray take her away, she
                        terrifies me to death." </p>
                    <p>"Oh God," cried Charlotte, clasping her hands in an agony, "this is too much;
                        what will become of me? but I will not leave you; they shall not tear me
                        from you; here on my knees I conjure you to save me from perishing in the
                        streets: if you really have forgot me, oh for charity's sweet sake this
                        night let me be sheltered from the winter's piercing cold."</p>
                    <p> The kneeling figure of Charlotte in her affecting situation might have moved
                        the heart of a stoic to compassion: but Mrs, Crayton remained in flexible.
                        In vain did Charlotte recount the time they had known each other at
                        Chichester, in vain mention their being in the same ship, in vain were the
                        names of Montraville and Belcour mentioned. Mrs. Crayton could only say she
                        was sorry for her imprudence, but could not think of having her own
                        reputation endangered by encouraging a woman of that kind in her own house,
                        besides she did not know what trouble and expense she might bring upon her
                        husband by giving shelter to a woman in her situation. </p>
                    <p> "I can at least die here," said Charlotte, "I feel I cannot long survive
                        this dreadful conflict. <pb n="154"/> Father of mercy, here let me finish my
                        existence." Her agonizing sensations overpowered her, and she fell senseless
                        on the floor. </p>
                    <p>"Take her away," said Mrs. Crayton, "she will really frighten me into
                        hysterics; take her away I say this instant."</p>
                    <p>"And where must I take the poor creature?" said the servant with a voice and
                        look of compassion.</p>
                    <p>"Any where," cried she hastily, only don't let me ever see her again. I
                        declare she has flurried me so, I shan't be myself again this fortnight.</p>
                    <p> John, assisted by his fellow-servant, raised and carried her down stairs.
                        "Poor soul," said he, "you shall not lay in the street this night. I have a
                        bed and a poor little hovel, where my wife and her little ones rest them,
                        but they shall watch to night, and you shall be sheltered from danger." They
                        placed her in a chair; and the benevolent man, assisted by one of his
                        comrades, carried her to the place where his wife and children lived. A
                        surgeon was sent for: he bled her, she gave signs of returning life, and
                        before the dawn, gave birth to a female infant. After this event she lay for
                        some hours in a kind of stupor; and if at any time she spoke, it was with a
                        quickness and incoherence that plainly evinced the total deprivation of her
                        reason. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="32" type="chapter">
                    <pb n="155"/>
                    <head>CHAPTER XXXII.</head>
                    <head>REASONS WHY AND WHEREFORE.</head>
                    <p> THE reader of sensibility may perhaps be astonished to find Mrs. Crayton
                        could so positively deny any knowledge of Charlotte; it is wherefore but
                        just that her conduct should in some measure be accounted for. She had ever
                        been fully sensible of the superiority of Charlotte's sense and virtue; she
                        was conscious that she had never swerved from rectitude, had it not been for
                        her bad precepts and worse example. These were things as yet unknown to her
                        husband, and she wished not to have that part of her conduct exposed to him,
                        as she had great reason to fear she had already lost considerable part of
                        that power she once maintained over him. She trembled whilst Charlotte was
                        in the house, lest the Colonel should return; she perfectly well remembered
                        how much he seemed interested in her favour whilst on their passage from
                        England, and made no doubt, but, should he see her in her present distress,
                        he would offer her an asylum, and protect her to the utmost of his power. In
                        that case she feared the unguarded nature of Charlotte might discover to the
                        Colonel the part she had taken in the unhappy girl's elopement, and she well
                        knew the contrast between her own and Charlotte's conduct would make the <pb n="156"/> former appear in no very respectable light. Had she reflected
                        properly, she would have afforded the poor girl protection; and by enjoining
                        her silence, ensured it by acts of repeated kindness; but vice in general
                        blinds its votaries, and they discover their real characters to the world
                        when they are most studious to preserve appearances. </p>
                    <p> Just so it happened with Mrs. Crayton: her servants made no scruple of
                        mentioning the cruel conduct of their lady to a poor distressed lunatic who
                        claimed her protection; every one joined in reprobating her inhumanity; nay,
                        even Corydon thought she might at least have ordered her to be taken care
                        of, but he dare not even hint it to her, for he lived but in her smiles, and
                        drew from her lavish fondness large sums to support an extravagance to which
                        the state of his own finances was very inadequate; it cannot therefore be
                        supposed that he wished Mrs. Crayton to be very liberal in her bounty to the
                        afflicted suppliant; yet vice had not so entirely seared over his heart, but
                        the sorrows of Charlotte could find a vulnerable part. </p>
                    <p> Charlotte had now been three days with her humane preservers, but she was
                        totally insensible of every thing: she raved incessantly for Montraville and
                        her father: she was not conscious of being a mother, nor took the least
                        notice of her child, except to ask whose it was, and why it was not carried
                        to its parents. </p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="157"/> "Oh," said she one day, starting up on hear ing the infant
                        cry, "why, why will you keep that child here; I am sure you would not if you
                        knew how hard it was for a mother to be parted from her infant: it is like
                        tearing the cords of life asunder. Oh could you see the horrid sight which I
                        now behold — there — there stands my dear mother, her poor bosom bleeding at
                        every vein, her gentle, affectionate heart torn in a thousand pieces, and
                        all for the loss of a ruined, ungrateful child. Save me — save me — from her
                        frown. I dare not — indeed I dare not speak to her." </p>
                    <p> Such were the dreadful images that haunted her distracted mind, and nature
                        was sinking fast under the dreadful malady which medicine had no power to
                        remove. The surgeon who attended her was a humane man; he exerted his utmost
                        abilities to save her, but he saw she was in want of many necessaries and
                        comforts, which the poverty of her hospitable host rendered him unable to
                        provide: he therefore determined to make her situation known to some of the
                        officers' ladies, and endeavour to make a collection for her relief. </p>
                    <p> When he returned home, after making this resolution, he found a message from
                        Mrs. Beauchamp, who had just arrived from Rhode-Island, requesting he would
                        call and see one of her chil dren, who was very unwell. "I do not know,"
                        said he, as he was hastening to obey the summons, <pb n="158"/> "I do not
                        know a woman to whom I could apply with more hope of success than Mrs.
                        Beauchamp, I will endeavour to interest her in this poor girl's behalf she
                        wants the soothing balm of friendly consolation: we may perhaps save her; we
                        will try at least." </p>
                    <p>"And where is she," cried Mrs. Beauchamp, when he had prescribed something
                        for the child, and told his little pathetic tale, "where is she, Sir? we
                        will go to her immediately. Heaven forbid that I should be deaf to the calls
                        of humanity. Come, we will go this instant." Then seizing the doctor's arm,
                        they sought the habitation that contained the dying Charlotte.</p>
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                    <head>CHAPTER XXXIII.</head>
                    <head>WHICH PEOPLE VOID OF FEELING NEED NOT BEAD.</head>
                    <p> WHEN Mrs. Beauchamp entered the apart ment of the poor sufferer, she started
                        back with horror. On a wretched bed, without hangings, and but poorly
                        supplied with covering, lay the emaciated figure of what still retained the
                        semblance of a lovely woman, though sickness had so altered her features
                        that Mrs. Beauchamp had not the least recollection of her person. In one
                        corner of the room stood a woman washing, and, shiver ing <pb n="159"/> over
                        a small fire, two healthy but half naked children; the infant was asleep
                        beside its mother, and, on a chair by the bed side, stood a porrenger and
                        wooden spoon, containing a little gruel, and a tea-cup with about two
                        spoonfulls of wine in it. Mrs. Beauchamp had never before beheld such a
                        scene of poverty; she shuddered involuntarily, and exclaiming — "heaven
                        preserve us!" leaned on the back of a chair ready to sink to the earth. The
                        doctor repented having so precipitately brought her into this affecting
                        scene; but there was no time for apologies: Charlotte caught the sound of
                        her voice, and starting almost out of bed, exclaimed — "Angel of peace and
                        mercy, art thou come to deliver me? Oh, I know you are, for whenever you was
                        near me I felt eased of half my sorrows; but you don't know me, nor can I,
                        with all the recollection I am mistress of, remember your name just now, but
                        I know that benevolent countenance, and the softness of that voice which has
                        so often comforted the wretched Charlotte." </p>
                    <p> Mrs. Beauchamp had, during the time Charlotte was speaking, seated herself
                        on the bed and taken one of her hands; she looked at her attentively, and at
                        the name of Charlotte she perfectly conceived the whole shocking affair. A
                        faint sickness came over her. "Gracious heaven," said she, "is this
                        possible?" and bursting into tears, she reclined the burning head of
                        Charlotte on her own <pb n="160"/> bosom; and folding her arms about her,
                        wept over her in silence. "Oh," said Charlotte "you are very good to weep
                        thus for me: it is a long time since I shed a tear for myself: my head and
                        heart are both on fire, but these tears of your's seem to cool and refresh
                        it. Oh now I remember you said you would send a letter to my poor father: do
                        you think he ever received it? or perhaps you have brought me an answer: why
                        don't you speak, Madam? Does he say I may go home? Well he is very good? I
                        shall soon be ready." </p>
                    <p> She then made an effort to get out of bed; but being prevented, her frenzy
                        again returned, and she raved with the greatest wildness and incoherence.
                        Mrs. Beauchamp, finding it was impossible for her to be removed, contented
                        herself with ordering the apartment to be made more comfortable, and
                        procuring a proper nurse for both mother and child? and having learnt the
                        particulars of Charlotte's fruitless application to Mrs. Crayton from honest
                        John, she amply rewarded him for his benevolence, and returned home with a
                        heart oppressed with many painful sensations, but yet rendered easy by the
                        reflexion that she had performed her duty towards a distressed
                        fellow-creature. </p>
                    <p> Early the next morning she again visited Char lotte, and found her tolerably
                        composed; she called her by name, thanked her for her goodness, and when her
                        child was brought to her, pressed it <pb n="161"/> in her arms, wept over
                        it, and called it the offspring of disobedience. Mrs. Beauchamp was
                        delighted to see her so much amended, and began to hope she might recover,
                        and, spite of her former errors, become and useful and respectable member of
                        society; but the arrival of the doctor put an end to these delusive hopes:
                        he said nature was making her last effort, and a few hours would most
                        probably consign the unhappy girl to her kindred dust. </p>
                    <p> Being asked how she found herself, she replied — "Why better, much better,
                        doctor. I hope now I have but little more to suffer. I had last night a few
                        hours sleep, and when I awoke recovered the full power of recollection. I am
                        quite sensible of my weakness I feel I have but little longer to combat with
                        the shafts of affliction. I have an humble confidence in the mercy of him
                        who died to save the world, and trust that my sufferings in this state of
                        mortality, joined to my unfeigned repentance, through his mercy, have
                        blotted my offences from the sight of my offended maker. I have but one care
                        — my poor infant! Father of mercy," continued she, raising her eyes, "of thy
                        infinite goodness, grant that the sins of the parent be not visited on the
                        unoffending child. May those who taught me to despise thy laws be forgiven;
                        lay not my offences to their charge, I beseech thee; and oh! shower the
                        choicest of thy <pb n="162"/>blessings on those whose pity has soothed the
                        afflicted heart, and made easy even the bed of pain and sickness." </p>
                    <p> She was exhausted by this fervent address to the throne of mercy, and though
                        her lips still moved her voice became inarticulate: she lay for some time as
                        it were in a doze, and then recovering, faintly pressed Mrs. Beauchamp's
                        hand, and requested that a clergyman might be sent for. </p>
                    <p> On his arrival she joined fervently in the pious office, frequently
                        mentioning her ingratitude to her parents as what lay most heavy at her
                        heart. When she had performed the last solemn duty, and was preparing to lie
                        down, a little bustle on the outside door occasioned Mrs. Beauchamp to open
                        it, and enquire the cause. A man in appearance about forty, presented
                        himself, and asked for Mrs. Beauchamp. </p>
                    <p>"That is my name, Sir," said she.</p>
                    <p> "Oh then, my dear Madam," cried he, tell "me where I may find my poor,
                        ruined, but repentant child." </p>
                    <p>Mrs. Beauchamp was surprised and affected; she knew not what to say; she
                        foresaw the agony this interview would occasion Mr. Temple, who had just
                        arrived in search of his Charlotte, and yet was sensible that the pardon and
                        blessing of her father would soften even the agonies of death to the
                        daughter.</p>
                    <p>
                        <pb n="163"/> She hesitated. "Tell me, Madam," cried he wildly, "tell me, I
                        beseech thee, does she live? shall I see my darling once again? Perhaps she
                        is in this house. Lead, lead me to her, that I may bless her, and then lie
                        down and die." </p>
                    <p> The ardent manner in which he uttered these words occasioned him to raise
                        his voice. It caught the ear of Charlotte: the knew the beloved sound: and
                        uttering a loud shriek, she sprang forward as Mr. Temple entered the room.
                        "My adored father." "My long lost child." Nature could support no more, and
                        they both sunk lifeless into the arms of the attendants. </p>
                    <p>Charlotte was again put into bed, and a few moments restored Mr. Temple: but
                        to describe the agony of his sufferings is past the power of any one, who,
                        though they may readily conceive, cannot delineate the dreadful scene. Every
                        eye gave testimony of what each heart felt — but all were silent.</p>
                    <p>When Charlotte recovered, she found herself supported in her father's arms.
                        She cast on him a most expressive look, but was unable to speak. A reviving
                        cordial was administered. She then asked, in a low voice, for her child: it
                        was brought to her: she put it in her father's arms. "Protect her," said
                        she, "and bless your dying — "</p>
                    <p> Unable to finish the sentence, she sunk back on her pillow: her countenance
                        was serenely composed; <pb n="164"/> she regarded her father as he pressed
                        the infant to his breast with a steadfast look; a sudden beam of joy passed
                        across her languid features, she raised her eyes to heaven — and then closed
                        them for ever. </p>
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                <div n="34" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXXIV.</head>
                    <head>RETRIBUTION.</head>
                    <p> IN the meantime Montraville having received orders to return to New-York,
                        arrived, and having still some remains of compassionate tenderness for the
                        woman whom he regarded as brought to shame by himself, he went out in search
                        of Belcour, to enquire whether she was safe, and whether the child lived. He
                        found him immersed in dissipation, and could gain no other intelligence than
                        that Charlotte had left him, and that he knew not what was become of her. </p>
                    <p> "I cannot believe it possible" said Montra ville, "that a mind once so pure
                        as Charlotte Temple's, should so suddenly become the mansion of vice.
                        Beware, Belcour," continued he, "beware if you have dared to behave either
                        unjust or dishonourably to that poor girl, your life shall pay the forfeit:
                        — I will revenge her cause." </p>
                    <p> He immediately went into the country, to the house where he had left
                        Charlotte. It was desolate. After much enquiry he at length found the
                        servant girl who had lived with her. From her he <pb n="165"/> learnt the
                        misery Charlotte had endured from the complicated evils of illness, poverty
                        and a broken heart, and that she had set out on foot for New-York, on a cold
                        winter's evening; but she could inform him no further. </p>
                    <p> Tortured almost to madness by this shocking account, he returned to the city
                        but, before he reached it, the evening was drawing to a close. In entering
                        the town he was obliged to pass several little huts, the residence of poor
                        women who supported themselves by washing the cloaths of the officers and
                        soldiers. It was nearly dark: he heard from a neighbouring steeple a solemn
                        toll that seemed to say some poor mortal was going to their last mansion;
                        the sound struck on the heart of Montraville, and he involuntarily stopped,
                        when, from one of the houses he saw the appearance of a funeral. Almost
                        unknowing what he did, he followed at a small distance; and as they let the
                        coffin into the grave, he enquired of a soldier who stood by, and had just
                        brushed off a tear that did honour to his heart, who it was that was just
                        buried. "An please your honour," said the man, "'tis a poor girl that was
                        brought from her friends by a cruel man, who left her when she was big with
                        child and married another." Montraville stood motionless, and the man
                        proceeded — "I met her myself not a fortnight since one night all wet and
                        cold in the street; she went to Madam <pb n="166"/> Crayton's, but she would
                        not take her in, and so the poor thing went raving mad." Montraville could
                        bear no more; he struck his hands against his forehead with violence; and
                        exclaiming "poor murdered Charlotte!" ran with precipitation towards the
                        place where they were heaping the earth on her remains. "Hold, hold, one
                        moment," said he. "Close not the grave of the injured Charlotte Temple till
                        I have taken vengeance on her murderer." </p>
                    <p>"Rash young man," said Mr. Temple," who "art thou that thus disturbest the
                        last mournful rites of the dead, and rudely breakest in upon the grief of an
                        afflicted father."</p>
                    <p> "If thou art the father of Charlotte Temple," said he, gazing at him with
                        mingled horror and amazement — "if thou art her father — I am Montraville."
                        Then falling on his knees, he con tinued — "Here is my bosom. I bare it to
                        receive the stroke I merit. Strike — strike now, and save me from the misery
                        of reflection." </p>
                    <p> "Alas!" said Mr. Temple, "if thou wert the seducer of my child, thy own
                        reflections be thy pu nishment. I wrest not the power from the hand of
                        omnipotence. Look on that little heap of earth, there hast thou buried the
                        only joy of a fond father. Look at it often; and may thy heart feel such
                        true sorrow as shall merit the mercy of heaven." He turned from him; and
                        Montraville starting up from <pb n="167"/> the ground, where he had thrown
                        himself, and at that instant remembering the perfidy of Belcour, flew like
                        lightning to his lodgings. Belcour was intoxicated; Montraville impetuous:
                        they fought, and the sword of the latter entered the heart of his adversary.
                        He fell, and expired almost instantly. Montraville had received a slight
                        wound; and over come with the agitation of his mind and loss of blood, was
                        carried in a state of insensibility to his distracted wife. A dangerous
                        illness and obstinate delirium ensued, during which he raved incessantly for
                        Charlotte: but a strong constitution, and the tender assiduities of Julia,
                        in time overcome the disorder. He recovered but to the end of his life was
                        subject to severe fits of melancholy, and while he remained at New-York
                        frequently retired to the church-yard, where he would weep over the grave,
                        and regret the untimely fate of the lovely Char lotte Temple. </p>
                </div>
                <div n="35" type="chapter">
                    <head>CHAPTER XXXV.</head>
                    <head>CONCLUSION.</head>
                    <p> SHORTLY after the interment of his daughter, Mr. Temple, with his dear
                        little charge and her nurse, set forward for England. It would be impossible
                        to do justice to the meeting scene between him, his Lucy, and her aged
                        father. Every heart <pb n="168"/> of sensibility can easily conceive their
                        feelings. After the first tumult of grief was subsided, Mrs. Temple gave up
                        the chief of her time to her grandchild, and as she grew up and improved,
                        began to almost fancy she again possessed her Charlotte. </p>
                    <p> It was about ten years after these painful events, that Mr. and Mrs. Temple,
                        having buried their father, were obliged to come to London on particular
                        business, and brought the little Lucy with them. They had been walking one
                        evening, when on their return they found a poor wretch sitting on the steps
                        of the door. She attempted to rise as they approached, but from extreme
                        weakness was unable, and after several fruitless efforts fell back in a fit.
                        Mr. Temple was not one of those men who stand to consider whether by
                        assisting an object in distress they shall not inconvenience themselves, but
                        instigated by the impulse of a noble feeling heart, immediately ordered her
                        to be carried into the house, and proper restoratives applied. </p>
                    <p> She soon recovered; and fixing her eyes on Mrs. Temple, cried — "You know
                        not, Madam, what you do; you know not whom you are relieving, or you would
                        curse me in the bitterness of your heart. Come not near me, Madam, I shall
                        contaminate you. I am the viper that stung your peace. I am the woman who
                        turned the poor Charlotte out to perish in the street. Heaven have mercy! I
                        see her now," continued she <pb n="169"/> looking at Lucy; "such, such was
                        the fair bud of innocence that my vile arts blasted ere it was half blown." </p>
                    <p> It was in vain that Mr. and Mrs. Temple in treated her to be composed and to
                        take some refreshment. She only drank half a glass of wine; and then told
                        them that she had been separated from her husband seven years, the chief of
                        which she had passed in riot, dissipation, and vice, till, overtaken by
                        poverty and sickness, she had been reduced to part with every valuable, and
                        thought only of ending her life in a prison; when a benevolent friend paid
                        her debts and released her; but that her illness encreasing, she had no
                        possible means of supporting herself, and her friends were weary of
                        relieving her. "I have fasted," said she, "two days, and last night lay my
                        acting head on the cold pavement: indeed it was but just that I should
                        experience those miseries myself which I had unfeelingly inflicted on
                        others." </p>
                    <p> Greatly as Mr. Temple had reason to detest Mrs. Crayton, he could not behold
                        her in this distress without some emotions of pity. He gave her shelter that
                        night beneath his hospitable roof, and the next day got her admission into
                        an hospital; where having lingered a few weeks, she died, a striking example
                        that vice, however prosperous in the beginning, in the end leads only to
                        misery and shame. </p>
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               <titlePart type="main">FRANKENSTEIN;<lb/> OR,<lb/> THE MODERN <ref target="prometheus_" corresp="prometheus">PROMETHEUS.</ref>
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               <note xml:id="prometheus" target="prometheus_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                  <graphic url="notes/1959-5621-mf1-prometheus.jpg" alt="A drawing in red chalk on paper showing Prometheus, chained to a rock, attacked by an eagle, circa 1750." source="https://visualpursuits.org/2014/06/25/an-18th-century-french-drawing-in-the-baillieu-library/" desc="Prometheus Attacked by an Eagle (c.1750), attributed to René-Michel Slodtz, from the Baillieu Library Print Collection, University of Melbourne."/>
                  <p>
                                    <ref target="http://classics.oxfordre.com/abstract/10.1093/acrefore/9780199381135.001.0001/acrefore-9780199381135-e-5363?rskey=6Zn6ju">Prometheus</ref> is a Greek trickster Titan known as "Forethought". In one
                     myth, Prometheus created man, but in the more common myth, Prometheus protected
                     man by tricking Zeus out of a prize sacrifice of meat and giving it to humans.
                     Zeus then prevented humans from accessing fire, which Prometheus gave to humans
                     by hiding it inside a fennel-stalk. This slight against Zeus caused Zeus the
                     Olympian to punish Prometheus dearly; in one instance he is tied to a rock and
                     his liver is continually eaten and replenished every day. </p>
                  <p> While <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> was being published, Percy Shelley,
                     Mary Shelley’s husband, wrote a closet drama about the myth entitled <hi rend="italic">Prometheus Unbound</hi> which can be read <ref target="https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/45136/prometheus-unbound">at
                        Poetry Foundation</ref>. In Shelley’s poem Zeus falls from power, allowing
                     Prometheus to escape his fetters. This poem is a response to <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/topic/Prometheus-Bound-play-by-Aeschylus">Aeschylus’ drama <hi rend="italic">Prometheus Bound</hi>
                                    </ref>, one of the
                     first classical tragedies that pits Zeus’ power against Prometheus’ ego. <ref target="http://classics.mit.edu/Aeschylus/prometheus.html">A full-text
                        version of the Aeschelus play is available at the Internet Classics
                        Archive</ref>. Victor Frankenstein--the "modern Prometheus"--is more akin to
                     the Prometheus of Aeschylus’ drama, a creator who finds his creation
                     "wretched." Frankenstein is very different from the Hesiodic understanding of
                     Prometheus, which,<ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=pmJGK5yTLr8C">
                        as Norman Austin notes in <hi rend="italic">Meaning and Being in
                        Myth</hi>
                                    </ref>, saw him as a benefactor and caretaker, not a creator who
                     abandoned his creation (77).</p>
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            <titlePart type="desc">IN THREE VOLUMES<lb/>
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            <epigraph>
               <quote>
                  <ref target="epigraph_" corresp="epigraph">
                                    <lg>


                        <l>Did I request thee, Maker, from my clay</l>


                        <l>To mould me man? Did I solicit thee</l>


                        <l>From darkness to promote me?</l>


                     </lg>
                 </ref>
                  <note xml:id="epigraph" target="epigraph_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                     <p>This epigraph quotes <ref target="http://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/26?msg=welcome_stranger">
                           <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>
                                        </ref> (X.743-745), where Adam
                        laments his expulsion from Eden. Milton’s epic poem is one of many texts
                        that had a profound effect on Mary Shelley. Its influence can be seen
                        throughout the novel, particularly in relation to the creature’s
                        self-education, and it is one of the books that he finds and reads while he
                        is living near the De Lacey’s cottage (Volume II, Chapter 7). When the
                        creature confronts Victor Frankenstein, his "Maker," he compares himself to
                        Adam (Volume II, Chapter 2). For more information about the influence of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi> in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>,
                        see <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/2933709">John Lamb’s "Mary
                           Shelley's Frankenstein and Milton's Monstrous Myth"</ref> and <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/collection-items/john-milton-paradise-lost">the
                           overview of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>in the "Romantics and
                           Victorians" exhibit at the British Library</ref>. </p>
                     <lb/>
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                  <bibl>
                     <ref target="paradise_lost_" corresp="paradise_lost">PARADISE LOST.</ref>
                     <note xml:id="paradise_lost" target="paradise_lost_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                        <p>
                           <ref target="https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poet/john-milton">John
                              Milton</ref> (1608-1674) was an English poet most notably known for
                              <ref target="https://www.dartmouth.edu/~milton/reading_room/pl/intro/text.shtml">
                              <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>
                                            </ref>, a twelve-volume epic poem
                           in blank verse about the fall of man. Milton’s poem is an important
                           intertext--even, as <ref target="http://www.bbc.com/culture/story/20170419-why-paradise-lost-is-one-of-the-worlds-most-important-poems"> BBC Britain’s Benjamin Ramm notes</ref>, the inspiration, for
                           Shelley. The Romantics placed importance in feeling and nature, and
                           Milton epitomized that throughout his poem, showing the the evolution of
                           human consciousness and the building up of the human spirit. The
                           independence and individuality he gives to Satan creates sympathy for a
                           hated stock character, redeeming him in the reader’s eyes. This in turn
                           projects the idea of redemption of the spirit through internal means,
                           removing the need for deliverance through an omnipotent being. See more
                           in <hi rend="italic">
                                                <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?vid=9780199697885">The
                                 Oxford Handbook of Milton</ref>
                                            </hi> by Nicholas McDowell. </p>
                        <p> At the beginning of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>, Milton states
                           that the purpose of the poem is to "justifie the wayes of God to men"
                           (I.26). This idea speaks to Shelley’s themes of free will and theodicy.
                           The story of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi> is felt acutely by
                           Victor Frankenstein and his Creature, and many allusions to it appear
                           throughout the text. An interesting juxtaposition of religious thought to
                           her scientific filled novel, Mary Shelley combines the contemporary
                           understanding of science with an obvious allusion to the religious folly
                           and fall of man. For more information about the influence of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi> in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, see Burton Pollin’s <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/17699">Philosophical and Literary
                              Sources of Frankenstein</ref>, <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/2933709">John Lamb’s "Mary
                              Shelley's Frankenstein and Milton's Monstrous Myth"</ref>, and <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/collection-items/john-milton-paradise-lost">the overview of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>in the "Romantics
                              and Victorians" exhibit at the British Library</ref>. </p>
                     </note>
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                  <ref target="publisher_" corresp="publisher">LACKINGTON, HUGHES, HARDING, MAVOR,
                     &amp; JONES</ref>
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                  <p>
                     <graphic url="notes/32364673.jpg" alt="An early 19th century hand-colored etching showing the interior of a bookstore, with customers browsing books." source="https://collections.library.yale.edu/catalog/10964575" desc="Messrs. Lackington Allen &amp; Co. Temple of the Muses, Finsbury Square (1809), etching by Rudolph Ackerman, via the Lewis Walpole Library of Yale University."/>
                     <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein; or, the Modern Prometheus</hi>, was published
                     by the Lackington firm, founded by James Lackington in 1774. Advertised as "The
                     Cheapest Bookseller in the World," Lackington's business--which both sold and
                     lent books as well as published them--capitalized on a new, middle-class
                     reading public. In 1791, the bookseller moved from Chiswell Street to a large
                     purpose-built store in Finsbury Square, dubbed "The Temple of the Muses"--above
                     the entrance, an inscription advertised "The Cheapest Books in the World."
                     Lackington's 1799-1800 catalog, according to the <ref target="https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Lackington,_George_(DNB00)">Dictionary of National Biography</ref>, boasted nearly 300,000 volumes
                     available for sale. In 1789, the founder's cousin, George Lackington, took over
                     operations, and it was here that Shelley's book was sold. <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=1y3bS3Z0uY0C">William St. Clair,
                        in <hi rend="italic">The Reading Nation in the Romantic Period</hi>,
                        describes the publication of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>
                                    </ref>.
                     Percy Bysshe Shelley, Shelley's husband and noted Romantic poet, arranged the
                     initial printing with Lackington &amp; Co., which was known to specialize in
                     books about magic and the supernatural. Turned down by other publishers, likely
                     for reasons of self-censorship, <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> found a
                     home at Lackington's. The first run--at 500 copies--was relatively small for
                     such a well-known shop, but the book was popular and sold well; St. Clair notes
                     that the first edition of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> "made more money
                     than all [Percy] Shelley's works were to fetch in his lifetime" (360). The book
                     was published anonymously, though because the publishing contract was
                     negotiated by Percy Shelley, <ref target="https://www.theguardian.com/world/2007/apr/09/gender.books">early
                        reviewers assumed he had authored it, as Germaine Greer suggests</ref>.</p>
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               <pubPlace>
                  <placeName type="tgn" key="7449907">FINSBURY SQUARE</placeName>
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                  <ref target="date_" corresp="date">1818.</ref>
               </docDate>
               <note xml:id="date" target="date_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                  <p> The first edition of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> was written while
                     Mary Shelley was in the prime of her life, but it was published in January of
                     1818, shortly after she buried her first child. The second edition, published
                     in 1831, came after the loss of her husband, most of her children, and her
                     family. There are many differences between the two texts, which <ref target="http://juxtacommons.org/shares/Nme50n">can be viewed</ref> in Dana
                     Wheeles’ public Juxta collation. One of the main structural differences between
                     the texts is the loss of the three volumes found in the 1818 edition. In the
                     1831 edition, after the first four letters, the chapters are numbered 1-24,
                     which not only removes the multiple volumes but also obscures the separated
                     narratives of Victor, the Creature, and Walton. Another noticeable difference
                     comes from the removal of the epigraph from Milton’s <hi rend="italic">Paradise
                        Lost</hi>, which, in the beginning of the 1818 edition, announces the key
                     theme of the novel. Its removal from the 1831 edition obscures the importance
                     of the allusions to Milton’s work throughout the novel. In the <ref target="https://www.rc.umd.edu/editions/frankenstein/1831v1/intro">newly-added forward to the 1831 edition</ref>, Mary Shelley wrote, somewhat
                     disingenuously, "I have changed no portion of the story, nor introduced any new
                     ideas or circumstances." Shelley in fact makes many changes that drastically
                     change the interpretation and meaning of the text. </p>
                  <p>First, many of the scientific ideas written about in the 1818 edition are
                     removed, detaching the novel from an intellectual context and further pressing
                     it into the fantastical. Shelley also removes many of Elizabeth’s more
                     independent thoughts about women’s rights as well as her indictment of the
                     justice system in regards to Justine. Finally, one of the largest differences
                     between the editions is Victor Frankenstein’s character. Whereas in the 1818
                     edition, Victor’s own hubris is to blame for the outcome of the Creature, in
                     the 1831 edition, Victor is at the mercy of fate or chance.</p>
                  <p>To explore more about the differences between the editions, see Jill Lepore’s
                     article in <hi rend="italic">The New Yorker</hi>, <ref target="https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2018/02/12/the-strange-and-twisted-life-of-frankenstein">"The Strange and Twisted Life of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>"</ref>, Jacqueline Foertsch’s <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/1350098">The Right, the Wrong, and the
                        Ugly: Teaching Shelley's Several "Frankensteins"</ref>, or James O’Rourke’s
                        <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/25601400">"The 1831 Introduction
                        and Revisions to <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>: Mary Shelley Dictates
                        Her Legacy</ref>. To explore visual differences between the texts, see the
                        <ref target="http://shelleygodwinarchive.org/contents/frankenstein/">Shelley-Godwin Archive</ref>, which compares facsimiles of the original
                     manuscripts, and Brigit Katz’ article for <hi rend="italic">The Smithsonian
                        Magazine</hi>, <ref target="https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/frankenstein-manuscript-shows-evolution-mary-shelleys-monster-180968240/">"‘Frankenstein’ Manuscript Shows the Evolution of Mary Shelley’s
                        Monster."</ref>
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            <p>TO </p>


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               <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80024468">
                  <!-- ref target="william_godwin_" corresp="william_godwin">WILLIAM GODWIN</ref -->
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               <ref target="william_godwin_" corresp="william_godwin">WILLIAM GODWIN</ref>
               <note xml:id="william_godwin" target="william_godwin_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AR">
                  <graphic url="notes/William_Godwin_by_Henry_William_Pickersgill.jpg" alt="A portrait of a middle-aged white man against a dark, almost black background, only the collar and a slight indication of other clothing visible." source="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/William_Godwin#/media/File:William_Godwin_by_Henry_William_Pickersgill.jpg" desc="                       Portrait of William Godwin, by Henry William Pickersgill (died 1875), from the National Portrait Gallery (UK), via Wikimedia Commons."/> Mary Shelley dedicated Frankenstein to her father, <ref target="http://shelleysghost.bodleian.ox.ac.uk/william-godwin-index">William
                     Godwin</ref>, the well known author of <ref target="http://oll.libertyfund.org/titles/godwin-an-enquiry-concerning-political-justice-vol-i">An Enquiry Concerning Political Justice</ref> and <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=0bEVAAAAYAAJ">Caleb Williams</ref>.
                  William Godwin was an anarchist and supporter of the French Revolution, and many
                  of his theories of absolute sovereignty are alluded to within the text of
                  Frankenstein. Shelley learned much from her father’s library growing up, and thus
                  was highly influenced by her father’s beliefs. To learn more about Godwin, read
                  Chapter 4 of Rebecca Baumann’s <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein 200: The Birth,
                     Life, and Resurrection of Mary Shelley's Monster</hi>, <ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt22p7j32.9">"Mary’s Father, William
                     Godwin"</ref>. To learn more about Godwin’s influence on <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, listen to the University of Oxford’s <ref target="https://podcasts.ox.ac.uk/godwin-and-frankenstein">podcast</ref> on the
                  matter. </note>,</p>


            <p>
                            <hi rend="italic"> AUTHOR OF <bibl>
                     <ref target="political_justice_" corresp="political_justice">POLITICAL
                        JUSTICE</ref>
                  </bibl>
                  <note xml:id="political_justice" target="political_justice_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF"> Published in 1793, William Godwin’s <ref target="http://oll.libertyfund.org/titles/godwin-an-enquiry-concerning-political-justice-vol-i">
                        <hi rend="italic">Enquiry Concerning Political Justice and its Influence on
                           Morals and Happiness</hi>
                                    </ref> is a philosophical text concerning
                     politics. Written after the French Revolution, a ten-year period of political
                     upheaval in France culminating in the overthrow of the monarchy and the
                     creation of a republic, Godwin’s <hi rend="italic">Enquiry</hi> also responds
                     to Edmund Burke’s <hi rend="italic">Reflections on the Revolution in
                        France</hi> and Thomas Paine’s <hi rend="italic">Rights of
                     Man</hi>--specifically, on questions of authority. Godwin wrote the <hi rend="italic">Enquiry</hi> to advocate for the Enlightenment project of
                     social improvement. His radical writing resonated deeply with Romantic authors,
                     especially Samuel Taylor Coleridge and Percy Bysshe Shelley. For a more
                     in-depth look at how this work affected the authors of the Romantic Period see
                        <ref target="https://www.litencyc.com/">Andrew McCann’s "William Godwin:
                        Enquiry Concerning Political Justice and its Influence on Modern Morals and
                        Manners"</ref>, and for more information about Godwin’s influence on Mary
                     Shelley, see <ref target="http://shelleysghost.bodleian.ox.ac.uk/william-godwin-and-mary-shelley">an online exhibit <hi rend="italic">Shelley’s Ghost</hi>, developed by the
                        Bodleian Libraries.</ref>
                                </note>, <bibl>
                     <ref target="caleb_williams_" corresp="caleb_williams">CALEB WILLIAMS</ref>
                  </bibl>
                  <note xml:id="caleb_williams" target="caleb_williams_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AR">Published in May 1794, <ref target="http://shelleygodwinarchive.org/contents/msl_1876_forster_223/">
                                        <hi rend="italic">Things As They Are; or, The Adventures of Caleb
                           Williams</hi>
                                    </ref> tells the story of an impoverished young man named
                     Caleb Williams, who learns that his wealthy employer, Ferdinando Falkland, is
                     guilty of murder. When Falkland realizes that Caleb suspects him, he falsely
                     accuses Caleb of attempted robbery, forcing him to flee the estate. Throughout
                     the novel, Caleb is accused of various crimes, pursued, robbed, beaten,
                     arrested, and convicted, but manages ultimately to escape captivity. The novel
                     is a pointed critique of the English judicial system, particularly its abuse of
                     power, and continues to develop themes that Godwin presented in his 1793
                     philosophical treatise, <hi rend="italic">An Enquiry concerning Political
                        Justice</hi>. For a detailed examination of Godwin’s writings and an
                     overview of Godwinian scholarship, see Pamela Clemit’s <ref target="http://www.oxfordhandbooks.com/view/10.1093/oxfordhb/9780199935338.001.0001/oxfordhb-9780199935338-e-47">"Revisiting William Godwin"</ref> from Oxford Handbooks Online. </note>,
                  &amp;C.</hi>
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            <p>THESE VOLUMES</p>


            <p>
                            <hi rend="italic">Are respectfully inscribed</hi>
                        </p>


            <p>BY</p>


            <p>
                            <ref target="mary_shelley_" corresp="mary_shelley">THE AUTHOR</ref>
               <note xml:id="mary_shelley" target="mary_shelley_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">
                  <graphic type="timeline" url="notes/Mary-Shelley.jpg" source="https://collectionimages.npg.org.uk/large/mw05761/Mary-Wollstonecraft-Shelley.jpg" alt="A portrait of Mary Shelley, painted by Richard Rothwell (1840), shwowing a white woman in a black early Victorian gown and typical hairstyle, against an abstracted domestic interior." desc="Portrait of Mary Shelley (1840), by Richard Rothwell, via the National Portrait Gallery (UK)."/> Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley was born on August 30, 1797, in <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>, England, to William Godwin and
                  famed feminist writer Mary Wollstonecraft—the author of <hi rend="italic">The
                     Vindication of the Rights of Woman</hi> (1792). Mary had a difficult
                  upbringing, as her mother died shortly after her birth and her father remarried to
                  Mary Jane Clairmont, who had a tenuous relationship with Mary. Mary was never
                  formally educated but read many of her father’s books and was introduced to many
                  influential writers like William Wordsworth and Samuel Taylor Coleridge. Mary,
                  while on a trip to Scotland visiting family friends, met and fell in love with
                  Percy Bysshe Shelley, who was already married and also a student of her father.
                  The two eloped in 1814 and travelled around Europe. It was in Switzerland, with a
                  cohort made up of the Shelleys, Jane Clairmont, Lord Byron, and John Polidori,
                  where Mary first began Frankenstein one rainy afternoon during a ghost story
                  writing exercise. <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> was published in 1818
                  anonymously with a foreword by Percy Shelley, whom many people assumed wrote the
                  novel. The novel was a huge success, and is now often considered the first science
                  fiction novel. After the success of her first novel, Shelley continued to write
                  but her personal life declined rapidly. She lost three children in her lifetime,
                  her half-sister committed suicide, and her marriage, riddled with affairs, ended
                  in 1822 when Percy Shelley drowned in the Gulf of Spezia. Mary died at 53 of brain
                  cancer on February 1, 1851 in <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>, England. She was buried at St. Peter's Church in
                  Bournemouth, laid to rest with the cremated remains of her late husband's heart.
                  </note>
                        </p>







         </div>


         <div type="preface">


            <pb n="[1.vii]" facs="pageImages/vol1/vii.jpg"/>


            <head>Preface.</head>


            <p>
               <ref target="event_" corresp="event">THE event on which this fiction is founded</ref>
               <note xml:id="event" target="event_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                  <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> was created on a rainy afternoon in 1816 when
                  Mary Godwin (soon to be Mary Shelley), <ref target="https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poet/percy-bysshe-shelley">Percy Bysshe
                     Shelley</ref>, <ref target="https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/lord-byron">Lord Byron</ref>, and others were vacationing in Geneva. Lord Byron suggested
                  a gothic ghost story contest to alleviate their cabin fever--as 1816 was known as
                  the <ref target="https://www.biography.com/news/mary-shelley-frankenstein-i-frankenstein-movie">"year without a summer"</ref> due to a <ref target="https://www.npr.org/2007/08/13/12688403/did-climate-inspire-the-birth-of-a-monster">volcanic explosion</ref> in the Dutch East Indies, causing a long winter in
                  most of the world. After working their way through established German ghost
                  stories, the group decided to try their hand at writing their own. For more
                  information on the circumstances of the creation of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> and how it affected the development of the text, see
                  Marshall Brown’s <ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/1346124">"Frankenstein":
                     A Child’s Tale"</ref>, and for <ref target="http://shelleygodwinarchive.org/contents/frankenstein/">images</ref> of
                  Shelley’s manuscript for <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> see the <hi rend="italic">Shelley-Godwin Archive</hi>.</note> has been supposed, by <ref target="erasmus_darwin_" corresp="erasmus_darwin"> Dr. <persName type="lcnaf" key="n50037924"> Darwin </persName>
              </ref>
               <note xml:id="erasmus_darwin" target="erasmus_darwin_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                <graphic url="notes/Erasmus-Darwin.jpg" source="https://collectionimages.npg.org.uk/large/mw01731/Erasmus-Darwin.jpg" alt="A portrait of Erasmus Darwin, oil on canvas, showing a middle-aged white man, slightly hunched, in a white wig, cravat, and cuffs, wearing a gray coat in an 18th century style. He leans on a shiny wooden surface, hands folded." desc="Erasmus Darwin, after Joseph Wright (c.1770s), from the National Portrait Gallery (UK)."/>
                  <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Erasmus-Darwin">Erasmus
                     Darwin</ref> (1731-1802), grandfather of Charles Darwin, was a physician and
                  poet (pictured above is a reprint in the National Portrait Gallery, London by
                  Joseph Wright based on a work from the 1770’s). An industrialist, free thinker,
                  and inventor, he is well known for his for his classification novel, <ref target="http://www.gutenberg.org/files/15707/15707-h/15707-h.htm">
                                    <hi rend="italic">Zoonomia, Or, The Laws Of Organic Life</hi>
                                </ref> which
                  created classes and categories for animals, and discussed pathology, anatomy, and
                  psychology. His works influenced many Romantic authors, such as William
                  Wordsworth, who referenced Darwin in <ref target="https://books.google.com/books/about/Lyrical_Ballads_1798.html?id=n_kLiR3LSxQC">"The Tale of Goody Blake and Harry Gill."</ref> For more information, see
                  Gavin Budge’s article <ref target="https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/pdf/10.1111/j.1754-0208.2007.tb00337.x">"Erasmus Darwin and the Poetics of William Wordsworth: ‘Excitement without the
                     Application of Gross and Violent Stimulants’"</ref>. A radical thinker for the
                  time, Erasmus Darwin posited the development of life from "one living filament"
                  (Section XXXIX, Line 8); Darwin’s arguments would later be seen precursors to the
                  theory of evolution. Darwin also wrote poetry about nature and science, most
                  notably, <hi rend="italic">
                                    <ref target="https://quod.lib.umich.edu/e/ecco/004850944.0001.000?view=toc">The
                        Loves of the Plants</ref>
                                </hi>, <hi rend="italic">Economy of
                  Vegetation</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">
                                    <ref target="http://www.rc.umd.edu/editions/darwin_temple/index.html">The Temple
                        of Nature</ref>
                                </hi>. His views on living organisms and the creation of life
                  gives authority to] Victor’s ability to create life and offers a litmus for the
                  Romantic era skepticism about "playing God." For more information on Erasmus
                  Darwin in general see Michon Scott’s website <ref target="https://www.strangescience.net/erasmus.htm">Strange Science</ref>; to
                  see Darwin’s influence on both Romantic and Victorian writers, see Thomas Hart’s
                  article on <ref target="http://www.victorianweb.org/science/edarwin.html">The
                     Victorian Web</ref>. </note> , and some of the physiological writers of
                  <placeName type="tgn" key="7000084">Germany</placeName>, as not of impossible
               occurrence. I shall not be supposed as according the remotest degree of serious faith
               to such an imagination; yet, in assuming it as the basis of a work of fancy, I have
               not considered myself as merely weaving a series of supernatural terrors. The event
               on <pb n="[1.viii]" facs="pageImages/vol1/viii.jpg"/> which the interest of the story
               depends is exempt from the disadvantages of a mere tale of spectres or enchantment.
               It was recommended by the novelty of the situations which it developes; and, however
               impossible as a physical fact, affords a point of view to the imagination for the
               delineating of human passions more comprehensive and commanding than any which the
               ordinary relations of existing events can yield.</p>


            <p>I have thus endeavoured to preserve the truth of the elementary principles of human
               nature, while I have not scrupled to innovate upon their combinations. <hi rend="italic">
                                <bibl>
                                    <ref target="iliad_" corresp="iliad">The
                  Iliad</ref>
                                </bibl>
                            </hi>
                            <note xml:id="iliad" target="iliad_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                <hi rend="italic">The Iliad</hi>, composed in approximately
                  the 9th century BCE, is an epic poem in elevated and formal verse, narrating the
                  events that occurred in the ninth year of the attack on Troy. The story begins
                  with Agamemnon, the <hi rend="italic"> wanax</hi> of Mycenae and commander of the
                  various independent Achaean kingdoms, insulting Achilles. Turmoil ensues among the
                  Achaeans, who have been laying siege to the City of Troy for nearly ten years. The
                  story includes the death of Achilles’ closest friend Patroclus, which causes
                  Achilles to defeat and defile his murderer, Hector, Prince of Troy. The story
                  concludes with Achilles surrendering Hector’s body to King Priam, father of
                  Hector, and his recognition of a kinship between them through grief. See MIT’s
                     <ref target="http://classics.mit.edu/Homer/iliad.html">full text</ref> version
                  of <hi rend="italic">The Iliad</hi> translated by Samuel Butler.</note>, <ref target="tragedy_" corresp="tragedy">the tragic poetry of <placeName type="tgn" key="1000074">Greece</placeName>
                            </ref>
               <note xml:id="tragedy" target="tragedy_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">Tragedy is an elevated literary form that originated in ancient Greece. According
                  to Aristotle’s <hi rend="italic">
                                    <ref target="http://www.perseus.tufts.edu/hopper/text?doc=urn:cts:greekLit:tlg0086.tlg034.perseus-eng1https://www.stmarys-ca.edu/sites/default/files/attachments/files/Poetics.pdf">Poetics</ref>
                                </hi>, <quote>"Tragedy is, then, a representation of an action
                     that is heroic and complete and of a certain magnitude—by means of language
                     enriched with all kinds of ornament, each used separately in the different
                     parts of the play: it represents men in action and does not use narrative, and
                     through pity and fear it effects relief to these and similar emotions."</quote>
                  (1449b), Romantic authors were <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/art/tragedy-literature/Romantic-theories">greatly influenced</ref> by the ancient tragedies of <ref target="http://www.ancient-literature.com/greece_aeschylus.html">Aeschylus</ref>, <ref target="https://www.ancient.eu/sophocles/">Sophocles</ref>, and <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Euripides">Euripides</ref>,
                  however they often turned the genre on its head. While tragedy in the original
                  sense featured a hero of noble birth, the Romantics, like <ref target="https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poet/samuel-taylor-coleridge">Samuel
                     Taylor Coleridge</ref>, preferred to consider the common man. Often, Romantics
                  turned the argument inward, invoking Shakespeare’s tragedies in lieu of Ancient
                  ones (<hi rend="italic">Macbeth</hi>,<hi rend="italic">Hamlet</hi>, <hi rend="italic">Othello</hi>).</note>, <ref target="william_shakespeare_" corresp="william_shakespeare">
                  <persName type="lcnaf" key="n78095332">Shakespeare</persName>
              </ref>
               <note xml:id="william_shakespeare" target="william_shakespeare_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                <graphic url="notes/003281.jpg" source="https://www.folger.edu/explore/collection-highlights/folger-first-folio-1/" alt="An engraved title page of the First Folio of Shakespeare's works, containing a portrait of the playwright in typical Renaissance garb, attributed to Martin Droeshout." desc="Engraved title page with portrait from Folger First Folio 1 (1623), via the Folger Shakespeare Library."/> William Shakespeare (1564-1616) is one of the greatest writers in the English
                  language, known for composing 37 plays, 154 sonnets, and two long narrative poems.
                  Shakespeare’s works, known for his innovative, vivid use of language and his
                  exploration of individual subjectivity, were of special interest to the Romantics.
                     <ref target="http://www.oxfordscholarship.com/view/10.1093/acprof:oso/9780198129943.001.0001/acprof-9780198129943">As Jonathan Bate argues in <hi rend="italic">Shakespeare and the English
                        Romantic Imagination</hi> (1989)</ref>, the idea of natural genius and the
                  veneration of the creative imagination was essential to the Romantic ideology, and
                  Shakespeare became a key sign of natural creative genius. The "bardolatry" that
                  began in the mid-eighteenth century, <ref target="https://www.britishcouncil.org/voices-magazine/how-one-actor-forever-changed-way-we-see-shakespeare">particularly through the actor David Garrick’s (1717-1779) energies</ref>,
                  came to a head in the Romantic era, and has in many ways persisted to this day.
                  For more information on the role of Shakespeare in the Romantic era, see Bate’s
                  important monograph as well as <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=Zz5B2BP0lvAC">Joseph M. Ortiz’s
                     edited collection, <hi rend="italic">Shakespeare and the Culture of Romanticism
                     </hi>
                                </ref>. Mary Shelley would have been familiar with his works both through
                  her education at the hands of her father, William Godwin, and through her close
                  relationship with Byron, Shelley, Polidori, and other Romantics. <ref target="http://exhibitions.nypl.org/biblion/outsiders/outsiders/story/storygodwinjuvenile">Godwin, with his second wife Mary Jane Clairmont, created and published works
                     in a juvenlie library series for the improvement of young readers’ imaginations
                     that included, among histories of Greece and bible stories, <hi rend="italic">Tales From Shakespeare</hi>
                                </ref>.. All of these authors influenced her
                  writing, and Shakespeare colored her entire life; Shelley had lines from <hi rend="italic">The Tempest</hi> carved into her husband’s tombstone. To read
                  more about Shakespeare’s influence on Mary Shelley’s life and writing see Robert
                  Sawyer’s article <ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/27784706                                               ">"Mary Shelley and Shakespeare:
                     Monstrous Creations"</ref> or David Lee Clark’s article, <ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/458637">"Shelley and Shakespeare"</ref>.
                  For a full list of Shakespeare’s works, as well as summaries and criticisms, see
                  the <ref target="https://www.folger.edu/shakespeares-works">Folger Shakespeare
                     Library</ref>.</note>, in the <hi rend="italic">
                                <bibl>
                                    <ref target="tempest_" corresp="tempest">Tempest</ref>
                                </bibl>
                            </hi>
                            <note xml:id="tempest" target="tempest_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                <hi rend="italic">
                                    <ref target="shakespeare-tempest">The Tempest</ref>
                                </hi>
                  is a comedy written in 1610 by <ref target="https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poet/william-shakespeare">William
                     Shakespeare</ref> tellning the story of the banished Duke of Milan, Prospero,
                  who has recreated his home on an island using magic--and usurped the native
                  inhabitants of the island to do so, imprisoning Sycorax and enslaving her son,
                  Caliban. Prospero causes the shipwreck of the King of Naples, Alonso, and his
                  brother, Antonio, who, twelve years earlier had conspired for Prospero’s position
                  thus banishing him from the kingdom. During the tale, Miranda, Prospero’s
                  daughter, and Ferdinand, Alonso’s son, fall in love, but must survive the tests
                  placed upon them by Prospero. Other castaways from the shipwreck land on the
                  island and conspire to destroy Prospero but in the end common ground and love
                  triumph. Explore more of the text on the <ref target="https://www.folger.edu/tempest">Folger Shakespeare
                  Library</ref>.</note> and <hi rend="italic">
                  <bibl>
                     <pb n="[1.ix - page breaks after 'Mid-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/ix.jpg"/>
                     <ref target="midsummer_" corresp="midsummer">Midsummer Night's Dream</ref>
                  </bibl>
               </hi>
               <note xml:id="midsummer" target="midsummer_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                  <graphic url="notes/Oberon,_Titania_and_Puck_with_Fairies_Dancing._William_Blake._c.1786.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Oberon,_Titania_and_Puck_with_Fairies_Dancing._William_Blake._c.1786.jpg" alt="A watercolor by William Blake illustrating Oberon, Titania, and Puck dancing with fairies. The image has a watery blue cast, and the figures are pale and lithe." desc="Oberon, Titania and Puck with Fairies Dancing (1786), watercolor and graphite on paper by William Blake, from the Tate Britain via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                  <hi rend="italic">
                     <ref target="http://shakespeare.mit.edu/midsummer/full.html">Midsummer Night’s
                        Dream</ref>
                  </hi> (1595) is a comedy by William Shakespeare. A play within a play, the story
                  is set in a fairyland Athenian forest during the marriage of Theseus, the Duke of
                  Athens, to Hippolyta, the Queen of the Amazons. The play’s complex subplots
                  involve a variety of complementary stories. The play opens with a love triangle
                  between Hermia, who is in love with Lysander but is being forced to marry
                  Demetrius by her father Egeus. Helena, Hermia’s best friend is in love with
                  Demetrius. On another side of the story are the "Rude Mechanicals," a group of six
                  skilled laborers who are planning a performance of <hi rend="italic">Pyramus and
                     Thisbe</hi>. The last subplot involves the king and queen of the fairies,
                  Oberon and Titania, who are in an argument over a small child Titania is
                  protecting from Oberon. Oberon, in his frustration over Titania’s disobedience,
                  sends his sprite, Robin "Puck" Goodfellow, to create a love potion to shame
                  Titania into obedience. Puck wreaks havoc on all the characters, causing the men
                  to fall in love with Helena and rebuff Hermia, turning Bottom part donkey, and
                  prompting Titania to fall in love with Bottom. During this confusion, Oberon
                  steals the child from Titania, upon which success he orders Puck to set everything
                  straight. The play concludes with the Mechanicals’ inexpert play-within-a-play,
                  staged for the marriage festivities of Theseus and Hippolyta. Explore more about
                  the text at the <ref target="https://www.folger.edu/midsummer-nights-dream">Folger
                     Shakespeare Library</ref> or see David Wiles <ref target="https://books.google.com/books/about/Shakespeare_and_Carnival.html?id=Ft-SQgAACAAJ">
                                    <hi rend="italic">Shakespeare and Carnival: After Bakhtin</hi>
                                </ref>,
                  especially chapter 4, "The Carnivalesque in A Midsummer Night's Dream."</note> and
               most especially <ref target="john_milton_" corresp="john_milton">
                  <persName type="lcnaf" key="n78095532">Milton</persName>
              </ref>
               <note xml:id="john_milton" target="john_milton_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">
                                <graphic url="notes/John_Milton_portrait_painting.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:John_Milton_portrait_painting.jpg" desc="Portrait in profile of John Milton (1690), attributed to Godfrey Kneller, via Wikimedia Commons." alt="A portrait of Milton in profile against a green background, surrounded by an oval border illustrated with female figures (possibly representing muses, though the figure in the lower right shows a woman with two children) and a in sepia tones. Milton wears a ring of laurel leaves and holds a slim book in his hand."/>John Milton (1608-1674) was an English poet most notably known for <ref target="https://www.dartmouth.edu/~milton/reading_room/pl/intro/text.shtml">
                                    <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>
                                </ref>, a twelve-volume epic poem in blank
                  verse, dramatizing the Fall of mankind (<ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/John-Milton">Encyclopedia
                     Britannica</ref>).</note> , in <hi rend="italic">
                                <bibl>Paradise
                  Lost</bibl>
                            </hi>, conform to this rule; and <ref target="novel_" corresp="novel">the most humble novelist</ref>
                            <note xml:id="novel" target="novel_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">Throughout the eighteenth century, the
                  novel as a modern form of entertainment accessible to a wide, middling-class, and
                  generally-educated audience grew. For more information on the "humble" novel, <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/restoration-18th-century-literature/articles/the-rise-of-the-novel">see John Mullan's "The Rise of the Novel" at the British Library</ref>.</note>
               , who seeks to confer or receive amusement from his labours, may, without
               presumption, apply to prose fiction a licence, or rather a rule, from the adoption of
               which so many exquisite combinations of human feeling have resulted in the highest
               specimens of poetry.</p>


            <p>
                            <ref target="origin_" corresp="origin">The circumstance on which my story
                  rests was suggested in casual conversation.</ref>
               <note xml:id="origin" target="origin_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">Mary Shelley, then Godwin, began writing the story that
                  would become <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> during a vacation in Geneva with
                  Claire Clairmont, Percy Bysshe Shelley, Lord Byron, and John Polidori, during
                  which Byron challenged the group to each write a ghost story. It was inspired in
                  part by a dream, which she describes in the introduction to the 1831 edition; in
                  part by her mother's, Mary Wollstonecraft's, death just after giving birth to her;
                  and in part by <ref target="https://blog.sciencemuseum.org.uk/the-science-behind-mary-shelleys-frankenstein">contemporary scientific discoveries around resucsitation and galvanism</ref>.
                  To read the Shelley's introduction to the 1831 edition, where Shelley describes
                  the origin of "[her] hideous progeny," see <ref target="https://www.gutenberg.org/files/42324/42324-h/42324-h.htm">Project
                     Gutenberg</ref>. For an interesting, accessible essay about the novel's
                  authorship and reception, see <ref target="https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2018/02/12/the-strange-and-twisted-life-of-frankenstein">"The Strange and Twisted Life of 'Frankenstein'", by Jill Lepore, in <hi rend="italic">The New Yorker</hi>
                                </ref>.</note>It was commenced partly as a
               source of amusement, and partly as an expedient for exercising any untried resources
               of mind. Other motives were mingled with these as the work <pb n="[1.x - page breaks after 'pro-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/x.jpg"/> proceeded. I
               am by no means indifferent to the manner in which whatever moral tendencies exist in
               the sentiments or characters it contains shall affect the reader; yet my chief
               concern in this respect has been limited to the avoiding the enervating effects of
               the novels of the present day, and to the exhibition of the amiableness of domestic
               affection, and the excellence of universal virtue. The opinions which naturally
               spring from the character and situation of the hero are by no means to be conceived
               as existing always in my own conviction; nor is any inference justly to be drawn from
               the following pages as prejudicing any philosophical doctrine of whatever kind.</p>


            <pb n="[1.xi]" facs="pageImages/vol1/xi.jpg"/>


            <p>It is a subject also of additional interest to the author that this story was begun
               in the majestic region where the scene is principally laid, and in society which
               cannot cease to be regretted. I passed the summer of <date>1816</date> in the
               environs of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. The season was
               cold and rainy, and in the evenings we crowded around a blazing wood fire, and
               occasionally amused ourselves with some German stories of ghosts, which happened to
               fall into our hands. These tales excited in us a playful desire of imitation. Two
               other friends (a tale from the pen of one of whom would be far more acceptable to the
               public than any thing I can ever hope to produce) and <pb n="[1.xii]" facs="pageImages/vol1/xii.jpg"/> myself agreed to write each a story founded on
               some supernatural occurrence.</p>


            <p>The weather, however, suddenly became serene; and my two friends left me on a journey
               among the <placeName type="tgn" key="7007746">Alps</placeName>, and lost, in the
               magnificent scenes which they present, all memory of their ghostly visions. The
               following tale is the only one which has been completed.</p>
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            <head type="title">FRANKENSTEIN<lb/>OR, THE<lb/>
                            <hi rend="italic">MODERN
                  PROMETHEUS.</hi>
                            <lb/> [VOL. I.]</head>







            <div n="1.1" type="letter">


               <head>LETTER I</head>

               <opener>
                  <hi rend="italic">To Mrs.</hi> SAVILLE, <hi rend="italic">
                                    <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">ENGLAND</placeName>
                                </hi>
                  <placeName type="tgn" key="7010273">St. Petersburg</placeName>. <dateline>
                                    <ref target="time_" corresp="time">Dec. 11, 17--</ref>
                                </dateline>
                                <note xml:id="time" target="time_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                     <p>According to a footnote in the <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=UQc52fOn3hUC">3rd Broadview
                           edition of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein, or; The Modern
                           Prometheus</hi>
                                        </ref>, the novel takes place in 1796. If this is true,
                        the entire tale takes place around the date of the author's birth and her
                        mother Mary Wollstonecraft's death. </p>
                  </note>
               </opener>







               <p>YOU will rejoice to hear that no disaster has accompanied the commencement of an
                  enterprise which you have regarded with such evil forebodings. I arrived here
                  yesterday; and my first task is to assure my dear sister of my welfare, and
                  increasing confidence in the success of my undertaking.</p>


               <p>I am already far north of <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>;
                  and as I walk in the streets of <pb n="[1.2 - page breaks after 'Peters-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/2.jpg"/>
                  <placeName type="tgn" key="7010273">Petersburgh</placeName>, I feel a cold
                  northern breeze play upon my cheeks, which braces my nerves, and fills me with
                  delight. Do you understand this feeling? This breeze, which has travelled from the
                  regions towards which I am advancing, <ref target="arctic_" corresp="arctic">
                     gives me a foretaste of those icy climes.</ref> Inspirited by this wind of
                  promise, my day dreams become more fervent and vivid. I try in vain to be
                  persuaded that the pole is the seat of frost and desolation; it ever presents
                  itself to my imagination as the region of beauty and delight <note xml:id="arctic" target="arctic_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">
                     <graphic url="notes/ross.jpg" alt="A three-quarter-length portrait of Sir John Ross, in an Arctic camp. Ross looks to the right and wears a sealskin coat. He holds a chart in his left hand." source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:John_Ross_(1777-1856),_by_British_school_of_the_19th_century.jpg" desc="Portrait of John Ross (c.1833), by an unknown painter of the British school of the 19th century, from in the Royal Museums Greenwich via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                     <ref target="https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/04/24/literatures-arctic-obsession"> According to Kathryn Shultz in "Literature's Arctic
                        Obsession,"</ref> Shelley--like many during the early nineteenth
                     century--was intrigued by the prospect of arctic exploration, as her frequent
                     allusions to Coleridge's "Rime of the Ancient Mariner" and her letters make
                     clear. While Shelley may have added the arctic setting as "an afterthought"
                     after reading about attempts to discover the long-elusive Northwest passage, by
                     the time <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> was published, two major
                     expeditions were underway; the Passage would be discovered in 1850 after many
                     deaths on the ice. As Shultz notes, "the book reminded readers that their world
                     was already full of Dr. Frankensteins." For further reading, see <ref target="https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1080/0890549032000167826">
                        "'A Paradise of My Own Creation': Frankenstein and the Improbable Romance of
                        Polar Expedition," by Jessica Richard.</ref> The image here shows a portrait
                     the Arctic explorer John Ross (1777-1856). </note>. There,
                     <persName>Margaret</persName>, the sun is for ever visible; its broad disk just
                  skirting the horizon, and diffusing a perpetual splendour. There—for with your
                  leave, my sister, I will put some trust in preceding navigators—there snow and
                  frost are banished; and, sailing over a calm sea, we may be wafted to a land
                  surpassing in wonders <pb n="[1.3]" facs="pageImages/vol1/3.jpg"/> and in beauty
                  every region hitherto discovered on the habitable globe. Its productions and
                  features may be without example, as the phænomena of the heavenly bodies
                  undoubtedly are in those undiscovered solitudes. What may not be expected in a
                  country of eternal light? I may there discover <ref target="electromagnetism_" corresp="electromagnetism"> the wondrous power which attracts the needle</ref>
                  <note xml:id="electromagnetism" target="electromagnetism_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">
                                    <graphic url="notes/compass.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Br%C3%BAjula_azimutal_espa%C3%B1ola_s.XVIII_(M.A.N._Madrid)_01.jpg" alt="A photograph showing an open Spanish azimuthal compass of the 18th century." desc="A photograph of an azimuthal compass (18th century), taken by Luis Garcia, via Wikimedia Commons. The compas is housed in the National Archaeological Museum of Spain."/> From the <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/science/electromagnetism/Historical-survey"> 13th through the 19th centuries, scholars and scientists were
                        investigating the nature of electromagnetism</ref>, though, as noted in the
                        <ref target="https://www.aps.org/publications/apsnews/200807/physicshistory.cfm">
                        American Physical Society newsletter of July 2008</ref>, most people thought
                     they were separate forces. <ref target="https://quod.lib.umich.edu/e/ecco/004850944.0001.000/1:8.2">
                                        <hi rend="italic">The Economy of Vegetation</hi>, a 1791 poem by Erasmus
                        Darwin</ref>, Charles Darwin’s grandfather, speculates on the nature of
                     electromagnetism (see canto 2 lines 193ff). In 1820, two years after the
                     publication of Frankenstein, Danish scientist Hans Christian Oersted discovered
                     that electric current could produce a magnetic effect on a compass, which
                     normally points due north--toward the Earth’s magnetic core. For more
                     information on Darwin’s influence in the late eighteenth century, see <ref target="https://www.theguardian.com/books/2002/sep/21/featuresreviews.guardianreview30"> Jenny Uglow’s review of his work in <hi rend="italic">The
                        Guardian</hi>
                                    </ref>.</note>; and may regulate a
                  thousand celestial observations, that require only this voyage to render their
                  seeming eccentricities consistent for ever. I shall satiate my ardent curiosity
                  with the sight of a part of the world never before visited, and may tread a land
                  never before imprinted by the foot of man. These are my enticements, and they are
                  sufficient to conquer all fear of danger or death, and to induce me to commence
                  this laborious voyage with the joy a child feels when he embarks <pb n="[1.4]" facs="pageImages/vol1/4.jpg"/> in a little boat, with his holiday mates, on an
                  expedition of discovery up his native river. But, supposing all these conjectures
                  to be false, you cannot contest the inestimable benefit which I shall confer on
                  all mankind to the last generation, by discovering a passage near the pole to
                  those countries, to reach which at present so many months are requisite; or by
                  ascertaining the secret of the magnet, which, if at all possible, can only be
                  effected by an undertaking such as mine.</p>


               <p>These reflections have dispelled the agitation with which I began my letter, and I
                  feel my heart glow with an <ref target="enthusiasm_" corresp="enthusiasm">
                     enthusiasm</ref>
                  <note xml:id="enthusiasm" target="enthusiasm_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">Enthusiasm is an important concept in the development of
                     Romanticism. Deriving from the Greek word "enthous," meannig possessed or
                     inspired by a god, the concept of enthusiasm was linked to <ref target="https://books.google.com/books/about/Enlightening_Enthusiasm.html">religious fanaticism (particularly Methodism)</ref> during the early
                     eighteenth century and described by philosophers like Locke and Hume as an
                     error in thinking that reason and reflection could correct. Enthusiasm was
                     also, however, understood as the ability to "see the truth transparently and
                     spontaneously without mediation" (Mee 8). <ref target="https://books.google.com/books/about/Romanticism_Enthusiasm_and_Regulation.html">Jon Mee, in <hi rend="italic">Romanticism, Enthusiasm, and
                        Regulation</hi>
                                    </ref>, goes on to note: "Although it was often associated
                     with the sort of implosion of the self that came from the prophet retiring into
                     the wilderness, a species of melancholia and gloomy introspection, it was also
                     routinely construed in terms of the delirium of the senses that manifested
                     itself in the mania of the crowd" (10-11). Closely related to concepts of
                     imagination and fancy, enthusiasm is a complex term that suggests many of the
                     negative aspects of the Romantic sensibility. For Wordsworth and Coleridge,
                     enthusiasm is a kind of corruption of or detour in the imagination (Mee 12).
                  </note> which elevates me to heaven; for nothing contributes so much to
                  tranquillize the mind as a steady purpose,—a point on which the soul may fix its
                  intellectual eye. This expedition has been the favourite dream of my <pb n="[1.5]" facs="pageImages/vol1/5.jpg"/> early years. I have read with ardour the
                  accounts of the various voyages which have been made in the prospect of arriving
                  at the <placeName type="tgn" key="7029367">North Pacific Ocean</placeName> through
                  the seas which surround the pole. You may remember that a history of all the
                  voyages made for purposes of discovery composed the whole of our good uncle
                     <persName>Thomas</persName>'s library. My education was neglected, yet I was
                  passionately fond of reading. These volumes were my study day and night, and my
                  familiarity with them increased that regret which I had felt, as a child, on
                  learning that my father's dying injunction had forbidden my uncle to allow me to
                  embark in a sea-faring life.</p>


               <p>These visions faded when I perused, for the first time, those poets whose
                  effusions entranced my soul, and lifted it to heaven. I also became a poet, <pb n="[1.6]" facs="pageImages/vol1/6.jpg"/> and for one year lived in a Paradise
                  of my own creation; I imagined that I also might obtain a niche in the temple
                  where the names of <ref target="Homer_" corresp="Homer">
                     <persName type="lcnaf" key="n78095639"> Homer</persName>
                 </ref>
                  <note xml:id="Homer" target="Homer_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                    <ref target="https://www.ancient.eu/homer/">Homer</ref> is the figure credited
                     with the composition of two epic poems, <hi rend="italic">The Iliad</hi> and
                        <hi rend="italic">The Odyssey</hi>, considered to be the first extant works
                     of Greek literature. Though modern scholarship questions the existence of a
                     single person called "Homer," the idea of such authorship has had an enduring
                     interpretive effect from ancient times to the present. Known as the "Father of
                     Western Literature," Homer is credited with a number of hymns and lesser works
                     in addition to <hi rend="italic">The Iliad</hi> and <hi rend="italic">The
                        Odyssey</hi>. If such an individual existed, scholars have suggested his
                     floruit as anywhere between the 9th to 7th centuries BCE. To learn more about
                     Homer, see Suzanne Saïd’s entry in the <ref target="http://classics.oxfordre.com">Oxford Classical
                     Dictionary</ref>.</note> and <persName type="lcnaf" key="n78095332">Shakespeare</persName> are consecrated. You are well acquainted with my
                  failure, and how heavily I bore the disappointment. But just at that time I
                  inherited the fortune of my cousin, and my thoughts were turned into the channel
                  of their earlier bent.</p>


               <p>Six years have passed since I resolved on my present undertaking. I can, even now,
                  remember the hour from which I dedicated myself to this great enterprise. I
                  commenced by inuring my body to hardship. I accompanied the whale-fishers on
                  several expeditions to the <placeName type="tgn" key="7015931">North
                     Sea</placeName>; I voluntarily endured cold, famine, thirst, and want of sleep;
                  I often worked harder than the common sailors during the day, and devoted my <pb n="[1.7]" facs="pageImages/vol1/7.jpg"/> nights to the study of mathematics,
                  the theory of medicine, and those branches of physical science from which a naval
                  adventurer might derive the greatest practical advantage. Twice I actually hired
                  myself as an under-mate in a <placeName type="tgn" key="7024573">Greenland</placeName> whaler, and acquitted myself to admiration. I must own I
                  felt a little proud, when my captain offered me the second dignity in the vessel,
                  and entreated me to remain with the greatest earnestness; so valuable did he
                  consider my services.</p>


               <p>And now, dear <persName>Margaret</persName>, do I not deserve to accomplish some
                  great purpose? My life might have been passed in ease and luxury; but I preferred
                  glory to every enticement that wealth placed in my path. Oh, that some encouraging
                  voice would answer in the affirmative! My courage and my resolution is firm; but
                  my hopes fluctuate, <pb n="[1.8]" facs="pageImages/vol1/8.jpg"/> and my spirits
                  are often depressed. I am about to proceed on a long and difficult voyage, the
                  emergencies of which will demand all my fortitude: I am required not only to raise
                  the spirits of others, but sometimes to sustain my own, when their's are
                  failing.</p>


               <p>This is the most favourable period for travelling in <placeName type="tgn" key="7002435">Russia</placeName>. They fly quickly over the snow in their
                  sledges; the motion is pleasant, and, in my opinion, far more agreeable than that
                  of an English stage-coach. The cold is not excessive, if you are wrapped in furs,
                  a dress which I have already adopted; for there is a great difference between
                  walking the deck and remaining seated motionless for hours, when no exercise
                  prevents the blood from actually freezing in your veins. I have no ambition to
                  lose my life on the post-road between <placeName type="tgn" key="7010273">St.
                     Petersburgh</placeName> and <placeName type="tgn" key="7011546">Archangel</placeName>.</p>


               <pb n="[1.9]" facs="pageImages/vol1/9.jpg"/>


               <p>I shall depart for the latter town in a fortnight or three weeks; and my intention
                  is to hire a ship there, which can easily be done by paying the insurance for the
                  owner, and to engage as many sailors as I think necessary among those who are
                  accustomed to the whale-fishing. I do not intend to sail until the month of
                     <date>June</date>: and when shall I return? Ah, dear sister, how can I answer
                  this question? If I succeed, many, many months, perhaps years, will pass before
                  you and I may meet. If I fail, you will see me again soon, or never.</p>


               <p>Farewell, my dear, excellent <persName>Margaret</persName>. Heaven shower down
                  blessings on you, and save me, that I may again and again testify my gratitude for
                  all your love and kindness.</p>


               <closer>
                  <salute>Your affectionate brother,</salute>
                  <signed>
                                    <persName>R. WALTON.</persName>
                                </signed>
               </closer>


            </div>






            <div n="1.2" type="letter">




               <pb n="[1.10]" facs="pageImages/vol1/10.jpg"/>


               <head>LETTER II </head>


               <opener>
                  <hi rend="italic">To Mrs.</hi> SAVILLE, <hi rend="italic">
                                    <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">ENGLAND</placeName>
                                </hi>
                  <placeName type="tgn" key="7011546">Archangel</placeName>, <dateline>28th March,
                     17--.</dateline>
               </opener>












               <p>HOW slowly the time passes here, encompassed as I am by frost and snow! yet a
                  second step is taken towards my enterprise. I have hired a vessel, and am occupied
                  in collecting my sailors; those whom I have already engaged appear to be men on
                  whom I can depend, and are certainly possessed of dauntless courage.</p>


               <p>But I have one want which I have never yet been able to satisfy; and the absence
                  of the object of which I <pb n="[1.11]" facs="pageImages/vol1/11.jpg"/> now feel
                  as a most severe evil. I have no friend, <persName>Margaret</persName>: when I am
                  glowing with the enthusiasm of success, there will be none to participate my joy;
                  if I am assailed by disappointment, no one will endeavour to sustain me in
                  dejection. I shall commit my thoughts to paper, it is true; but that is a poor
                  medium for the communication of feeling. I desire the company of a man who could
                  sympathize with me; whose eyes would reply to mine. You may deem me romantic, my
                  dear sister, but I bitterly feel the want of a friend. I have no one near me,
                  gentle yet courageous, possessed of a cultivated as well as of a capacious mind,
                  whose tastes are like my own, to approve or amend my plans. How would such a
                  friend repair the faults of your poor brother! I am too ardent in execution, and
                  too impatient of <pb n="[1.12 - page breaks after 'difficul-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/12.jpg"/> difficulties. But it is a still greater evil to
                  me that I am self-educated: for the first fourteen years of my life I ran wild on
                  a common, and read nothing but our uncle <persName>Thomas</persName>'s books of
                  voyages. At that age I became acquainted with the celebrated poets of our own
                  country; but it was only when it had ceased to be in my power to derive its most
                  important benefits from such a conviction, that I perceived the necessity of
                  becoming acquainted with more languages than that of my native country. Now I am
                  twenty-eight, and am in reality more illiterate than many school-boys of fifteen.
                  It is true that I have thought more, and that my day dreams are more extended and
                  magnificent; but they want (as the painters call it) keeping; and I greatly need a
                  friend who would have sense enough not to despise me as romantic, and affection
                     <pb n="[1.13]" facs="pageImages/vol1/13.jpg"/> enough for me to endeavour to
                  regulate my mind.</p>


               <p>Well, these are useless complaints; I shall certainly find no friend on the wide
                  ocean, nor even here in <placeName type="tgn" key="7011546">Archangel</placeName>,
                  among merchants and seamen. Yet some feelings, unallied to the dross of human
                  nature, beat even in these rugged bosoms. My lieutenant, for instance, is a man of
                  wonderful courage and enterprise; he is madly desirous of glory. He is an
                  Englishman, and in the midst of national and professional prejudices, unsoftened
                  by cultivation, retains some of the noblest endowments of humanity. I first became
                  acquainted with him on board a whale vessel: finding that he was unemployed in
                  this city, I easily engaged him to assist in my enterprise.</p>


               <p>The master is a person of an excellent disposition, and is remarkable in <pb n="[1.14]" facs="pageImages/vol1/14.jpg"/> the ship for his gentleness, and the
                  mildness of his discipline. He is, indeed, of so amiable a nature, that he will
                  not hunt (a favourite, and almost the only amusement here), because he cannot
                  endure to spill blood. He is, moreover, heroically generous. Some years ago he
                  loved a young Russian lady, of moderate fortune; and having amassed a considerable
                  sum in prize-money, the father of the girl consented to the match. He saw his
                  mistress once before the destined ceremony; but she was bathed in tears, and,
                  throwing herself at his feet, entreated him to spare her, confessing at the same
                  time that she loved another, but that he was poor, and that her father would never
                  consent to the union. My generous friend reassured the suppliant, and on being
                  informed of the name of her lover instantly abandoned his pursuit. He had <pb n="[1.15]" facs="pageImages/vol1/15.jpg"/> already bought a farm with his
                  money, on which he had designed to pass the remainder of his life; but he bestowed
                  the whole on his rival, together with the remains of his prize-money to purchase
                  stock, and then himself solicited the young woman's father to consent to her
                  marriage with her lover. But the old man decidedly refused, thinking himself bound
                  in honour to my friend; who, when he found the father inexorable, quitted his
                  country, nor returned until he heard that his former mistress was married
                  according to her inclinations. <said who="#margaretWalton">"What a noble
                     fellow!"</said> you will exclaim. He is so; but then he has passed all his life
                  on board a vessel, and has scarcely an idea beyond the rope and the shroud.</p>


               <p>But do not suppose that, because I complain a little, or because I can conceive a
                  consolation for my toils which I <pb n="[1.16]" facs="pageImages/vol1/16.jpg"/>
                  may never know, that I am wavering in my resolutions. Those are as fixed as fate;
                  and my voyage is only now delayed until the weather shall permit my embarkation.
                  The winter has been dreadfully severe; but the spring promises well, and it is
                  considered as a remarkably early season; so that, perhaps, I may sail sooner than
                  I expected. I shall do nothing rashly; you know me sufficiently to confide in my
                  prudence and considerateness whenever the safety of others is committed to my
                  care.</p>


               <p>I cannot describe to you my sensations on the near prospect of my undertaking. It
                  is impossible to communicate to you a conception of the trembling sensation, half
                  pleasurable and half fearful, with which I am preparing to depart. I am going to
                  unexplored regions, to <quote>"the land of mist and <pb n="[1.17]" facs="pageImages/vol1/17.jpg"/> snow;"</quote>
                  <ref target="the_Mariner_" corresp="the_Mariner"> but I shall kill no albatross</ref>
                  <note xml:id="the_Mariner" target="the_Mariner_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                     <graphic url="notes/dore_mariner.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Rime_of_the_Ancient_Mariner-Albatross-Dore.jpg"/>In this excerpt from <ref target="https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/samuel-taylor-coleridge">Samuel Taylor Coleridge’s</ref>
                     <ref target="https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/43997/the-rime-of-the-ancient-mariner-text-of-1834">
                                        <hi rend="italic">The Rime of the Ancient Mariner</hi>
                                    </ref> (451- 456),
                     the Mariner has killed the albatross and the other sailors turn on him, viewing
                     his act of violence as a sin against God and nature. The luck of the ship
                     dissipates, and they are becalmed on the ocean. The Mariner watches as each of
                     the sailors die of thirst, while he alone is saved. This direct allusion
                     highlights the similarities between the Mariner and Frankenstein, who are both
                     reeling after accomplishing their respective goals--killing the albatross and
                     creating a sentient being--and both in the process of telling their stories.
                     The use of the quote is two-fold; it highlights Frankenstein’s isolation and
                     his decision to abandon his creature, but it also juxtaposes the Mariner’s
                     violence with Frankenstein’s act of creation. Explore more about Coleridge’s
                     poem in William Christie’s <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt1d10h2h.10">“The Search for
                        Meaning in The Rime of the Ancient Mariner,"</ref>. See Michelle Levy’s
                     article, <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/3844532">“Discovery and the
                        Domestic Affections in Coleridge and Shelley,"</ref> for a discussion of
                     Samuel Taylor Coleridge’s influence on Mary Shelley. </note>, therefore do not
                  be alarmed for my safety.</p>


               <p>Shall I meet you again, after having traversed immense seas, and returned by
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">the most southern cape of
                     Africa</placeName> or <placeName type="tgn" key="8698314">America</placeName>?
                  I dare not expect such success, yet I cannot bear to look on the reverse of the
                  picture. Continue to write to me by every opportunity; I may receive your letters
                  (though the chance is very doubtful) on some occasions when I need them most to
                  support my spirits. I love you very tenderly. Remember me with affection, should
                  you never hear from me again.</p>


               <closer>
                  <salute>Your affectionate brother,</salute>
                  <signed>
                                    <persName>ROBERT WALTON.</persName>
                                </signed>
               </closer>


            </div>







            <div n="1.3" type="letter">


               <pb n="[1.18]" facs="pageImages/vol1/18.jpg"/>


               <head>LETTER III</head>


               <opener>To <persName> Mrs. SAVILLE, </persName>
                                <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">ENGLAND</placeName>. <dateline>July 7th, 17--. </dateline>
                  <salute>MY DEAR SISTER,</salute>
               </opener>







               <p>I WRITE a few lines in haste, to say that I am safe, and well advanced on my
                  voyage. This letter will reach <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName> by a merchant-man now on its homeward voyage from
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7011546">Archangel</placeName>; more fortunate than
                  I, who may not see my native land, perhaps, for many years. I am, however, in good
                  spirits: my men are bold, and apparently firm of purpose; nor do the floating
                  sheets of ice that continually pass us, <pb n="[1.19 - page breaks after 'indi-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/19.jpg"/> indicating the dangers of the region towards
                  which we are advancing, appear to dismay them. We have already reached a very high
                  latitude; but it is the height of summer, and although not so warm as in
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, the southern gales,
                  which blow us speedily towards those shores which I so ardently desire to attain,
                  breathe a degree of renovating warmth which I had not expected.</p>


               <p>No incidents have hitherto befallen us that would make a figure in a letter. One
                  or two stiff gales, and the breaking of a mast, are accidents which experienced
                  navigators scarcely remember to record; and I shall be well content, if nothing
                  worse happen to us during our voyage.</p>


               <p>Adieu, my dear <persName>Margaret</persName>. Be assured, that for my own sake, as
                  well as your's, I will not rashly encounter <pb n="[1.20 - page breaks after 'dan-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/20.jpg"/> danger. I
                  will be cool, persevering, and prudent.</p>


               <p>Remember me to all my English friends.</p>







               <closer>
                  <salute>Most affectionately yours,</salute>
                  <signed>
                                    <persName>R.W.</persName>
                                </signed>
               </closer>


            </div>







            <div n="1.4" type="letter">







               <pb n="[1.21]" facs="pageImages/vol1/21.jpg"/>


               <head>LETTER IV</head>







               <div>


                  <opener>To <persName> Mrs. SAVILLE, </persName>
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">ENGLAND</placeName>. <dateline>August 5th,
                        17--.</dateline>
                  </opener>







                  <p>So strange an accident has happened to us, that I cannot forbear recording it,
                     although it is very probable that you will see me before these papers can come
                     into your possession.</p>


                  <p>Last <date>Monday (July 31st)</date>, we were nearly surrounded by ice, which
                     closed in the ship on all sides, scarcely leaving her the searoom in which she
                     floated. Our situation was somewhat dangerous, especially as we were compassed
                     round by a very thick fog. We accordingly lay to, hoping that some <pb n="[1.22]" facs="pageImages/vol1/22.jpg"/> change would take place in the
                     atmosphere and weather.</p>


                  <p>About two o'clock the mist cleared away, and we beheld, stretched out in every
                     direction, vast and irregular plains of ice, which seemed to have no end. Some
                     of my comrades groaned, and my own mind began to grow watchful with anxious
                     thoughts, when a strange sight suddenly attracted our attention, and diverted
                     our solicitude from our own situation. We perceived a low carriage, fixed on a
                     sledge and drawn by dogs, pass on towards the north, at the distance of half a
                     mile: a being which had the shape of a man, but apparently of gigantic stature,
                     sat in the sledge, and guided the dogs. We watched the rapid progress of the
                     traveller with our telescopes, until he was lost among the distant inequalities
                     of the ice.</p>


                  <pb n="[1.23]" facs="pageImages/vol1/23.jpg"/>


                  <p>This appearance excited our unqualified wonder. We were, as we believed, many
                     hundred miles from any land; but this apparition seemed to denote that it was
                     not, in reality, so distant as we had supposed. Shut in, however, by ice, it
                     was impossible to follow his track, which we had observed with the greatest
                     attention.</p>


                  <p>About two hours after this occurrence, we heard the ground sea; and before
                     night the ice broke, and freed our ship. We, however, lay to until the morning,
                     fearing to encounter in the dark those large loose masses which float about
                     after the breaking up of the ice. I profited of this time to rest for a few
                     hours.</p>


                  <p>In the morning, however, as soon as it was light, I went upon the deck, and
                     found all the sailors busy on one side <pb n="[1.24]" facs="pageImages/vol1/24.jpg"/> of the vessel, apparently talking to some
                     one in the sea. It was, in fact, a sledge, like that we had seen before, which
                     had drifted towards us in the night, on a large fragment of ice. Only one dog
                     remained alive; but there was a human being within it, whom the sailors were
                     persuading to enter the vessel. He was not, as the other traveller seemed to
                     be, a savage inhabitant of some undiscovered island, but an European. When I
                     appeared on deck, the master said, <said who="#master">"Here is our captain,
                        and he will not allow you to perish on the open sea."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>On perceiving me, the stranger addressed me in English, although with a foreign
                     accent. <said who="#victor">"Before I come on board your vessel,"</said> said
                     he, <said who="#victor">"will you have the kindness to inform me whither you
                        are bound?"</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>You may conceive my astonishment <pb n="[1.25]" facs="pageImages/vol1/25.jpg"/>
                     on hearing such a question addressed to me from a man on the brink of
                     destruction, and to whom I should have supposed that my vessel would have been
                     a resource which he would not have exchanged for the most precious wealth the
                     earth can afford. I replied, however, that we were on a voyage of discovery
                     towards the <placeName type="tgn" key="1112230">northern pole</placeName>.</p>


                  <p>Upon hearing this he appeared satisfied, and consented to come on board. Good
                     God! <persName>Margaret</persName>, if you had seen the man who thus
                     capitulated for his safety, your surprise would have been boundless. His limbs
                     were nearly frozen, and his body dreadfully emaciated by fatigue and suffering.
                     I never saw a man in so wretched a condition. We attempted to carry him into
                     the cabin; but as soon as he had quitted the fresh air, he fainted. We
                     accordingly <pb n="[1.26]" facs="pageImages/vol1/26.jpg"/> brought him back to
                     the deck, and restored him to animation by rubbing him with brandy, and forcing
                     him to swallow a small quantity. As soon as he shewed signs of life, we wrapped
                     him up in blankets, and placed him near the chimney of the kitchen-stove. By
                     slow degrees he recovered, and ate a little soup, which restored him
                     wonderfully.</p>


                  <p>Two days passed in this manner before he was able to speak; and I often feared
                     that his sufferings had deprived him of understanding. When he had in some
                     measure recovered, I removed him to my own cabin, and attended on him as much
                     as my duty would permit. I never saw a more interesting creature: his eyes have
                     generally an expression of wildness, and even madness; but there are moments
                     when, if any-one performs an act of kindness <pb n="[1.27]" facs="pageImages/vol1/27.jpg"/> towards him, or does him any the most
                     trifling service, his whole countenance is lighted up, as it were, with a beam
                     of benevolence and sweetness that I never saw equalled. But he is generally
                     melancholy and despairing; and sometimes he gnashes his teeth, as if impatient
                     of the weight of woes that oppresses him.</p>


                  <p>When my guest was a little recovered, I had great trouble to keep off the men,
                     who wished to ask him a thousand questions; but I would not allow him to be
                     tormented by their idle curiosity, in a state of body and mind whose
                     restoration evidently depended upon entire repose. Once, however, the
                     lieutenant asked, <said who="#lieutenant">"Why he had come so far upon the ice
                        in so strange a vehicle?"</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>His countenance instantly assumed an aspect of the deepest gloom; and he <pb n="[1.28]" facs="pageImages/vol1/28.jpg"/> replied, <said who="#victor">"To
                        seek one who fled from me."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#walton">"And did the man whom you pursued travel in the same
                        fashion?"</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Yes."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#walton">"Then I fancy we have seen him; for, the day before we
                        picked you up, we saw some dogs drawing a sledge, with a man in it, across
                        the ice."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>This aroused the stranger's attention; and he asked a multitude of questions
                     concerning the route which the dæmon, as he called him, had pursued. Soon
                     after, when he was alone with me, he said, <said who="#victor">"I have,
                        doubtless, excited your curiosity, as well as that of these good people; but
                        you are too considerate to make inquiries."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#walton">"Certainly; it would indeed be very impertinent and inhuman
                        in me to trouble you with any inquisitiveness of mine."</said>
                                </p>


                  <pb n="[1.29]" facs="pageImages/vol1/29.jpg"/>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"And yet you rescued me from a strange and perilous
                        situation; you have benevolently restored me to life."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>Soon after this <said who="#victor" aloud="false">he inquired, if I thought
                        that the breaking up of the ice had destroyed the other sledge?</said>
                     <said who="#walton" aloud="false">I replied, that I could not answer with any
                        degree of certainty; for the ice had not broken until near midnight, and the
                        traveller might have arrived at a place of safety before that time; but of
                        this I could not judge.</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>From this time the stranger seemed very eager to be upon deck, to watch for the
                     sledge which had before appeared; but I have persuaded him to remain in the
                     cabin, for he is far too weak to sustain the rawness of the atmosphere. But I
                     have promised that some one should watch for him, and give him instant notice
                     if any new object should appear in sight.</p>


                  <pb n="[1.30]" facs="pageImages/vol1/30.jpg"/>


                  <p>Such is my journal of what relates to this strange occurrence up to the present
                     day. The stranger has gradually improved in health, but is very silent, and
                     appears uneasy when any one except myself enters his cabin. Yet his manners are
                     so conciliating and gentle, that the sailors are all interested in him,
                     although they have had very little communication with him. For my own part, I
                     begin to love him as a brother; and his constant and deep grief fills me with
                     sympathy and compassion. He must have been a noble creature in his better days,
                     being even now in wreck so attractive and amiable.</p>


                  <p>I said in one of my letters, my dear <persName>Margaret</persName>, that I
                     should find no friend on the wide ocean; yet I have found a man who, before his
                     spirit had been broken by misery, I should have been <pb n="[1.31]" facs="pageImages/vol1/31.jpg"/> happy to have possessed as the brother of my
                     heart.</p>


                  <p>I shall continue my journal concerning the stranger at intervals, should I have
                     any fresh incidents to record.</p>


               </div>



               <div>




                  <opener>
                                    <dateline>August 13th, 17--.</dateline>
                                </opener>


                  <!-- question -->


                  <p>My affection for my guest increases every day. He excites at once my admiration
                     and my pity to an astonishing degree. How can I see so noble a creature
                     destroyed by misery without feeling the most poignant grief? He is so gentle,
                     yet so wise; his mind is so cultivated; and when he speaks, although his words
                     are culled with the choicest art, yet they flow with rapidity and unparalleled
                     eloquence.</p>


                  <p>He is now much recovered from his illness, and is continually on the deck,
                     apparently watching for the sledge that preceded his own. Yet, although <pb n="[1.32 - page breaks after 'un-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/32.jpg"/>
                     unhappy, he is not so utterly occupied by his own misery, but that he interests
                     himself deeply in the employments of others. He has asked me many questions
                     concerning my design; and I have related my little history frankly to him. He
                     appeared pleased with the confidence, and suggested several alterations in my
                     plan, which I shall find exceedingly useful. There is no pedantry in his
                     manner; but all he does appears to spring solely from the interest he
                     instinctively takes in the welfare of those who surround him. He is often
                     overcome by gloom, and then he sits by himself, and tries to overcome all that
                     is sullen or unsocial in his humour. These paroxysms pass from him like a cloud
                     from before the sun, though his dejection never leaves him. I have endeavoured
                     to win his confidence; and I trust that I have <pb n="[1.33 - page breaks after 'suc-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/33.jpg"/>
                     succeeded. One day I mentioned to him the desire I had always felt of finding a
                     friend who might sympathize with me, and direct me by his counsel. I said, I
                     did not belong to that class of men who are offended by advice. <said who="#walton">"I am self-educated, and perhaps I hardly rely sufficiently
                        upon my own powers. I wish therefore that my companion should be wiser and
                        more experienced than myself, to confirm and support me; nor have I believed
                        it impossible to find a true friend."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I agree with you,"</said> replied the stranger, <said who="#victor">"in believing that friendship is not only a desirable, but a
                        possible acquisition. I once had a friend, the most noble of human
                        creatures, and am entitled, therefore, to judge respecting friendship. You
                        have hope, and the world before you, and have no cause for despair. But I—I
                        have lost <pb n="[1.34]" facs="pageImages/vol1/34.jpg"/> every thing, and
                        cannot begin life anew."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>As he said this, his countenance became expressive of a calm settled grief,
                     that touched me to the heart. But he was silent, and presently retired to his
                     cabin.</p>


                  <p>Even broken in spirit as he is, no one can feel more deeply than he does the
                     beauties of nature. The starry sky, the sea, and every sight afforded by these
                     wonderful regions, seems still to have the power of elevating his soul from
                     earth. Such a man has a double existence: he may suffer misery, and be
                     overwhelmed by disappointments; yet when he has retired into himself, he will
                     be like a celestial spirit, that has a halo around him, within whose circle no
                     grief or folly ventures.</p>


                  <p>Will you laugh at the enthusiasm I express concerning this divine <pb n="[1.35 - page breaks after 'wan-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/35.jpg"/>
                     wanderer? If you do, you must have certainly lost that simplicity which was
                     once your characteristic charm. Yet, if you will, smile at the warmth of my
                     expressions, while I find every day new causes for repeating them.</p>







               </div>

















               <div>


                  <opener>
                     <dateline>August 19th, 17--</dateline>. </opener>


                  <p> Yesterday the stranger said to me, <said who="#victor">"You may easily
                        perceive, Captain <persName>Walton</persName>, that I have suffered great
                        and unparalleled misfortunes. I had determined, once, that the memory of
                        these evils should die with me; but you have won me to alter my
                        determination. You seek for knowledge and wisdom, as I once did; and I
                        ardently hope that the gratification of your wishes may not be a serpent to
                        sting you, as mine has been. I do not know that the relation of my
                        misfortunes will be useful to you, yet, if you are inclined, <pb n="[1.36]" facs="pageImages/vol1/36.jpg"/>
                        <ref target="Rime_" corresp="Rime">listen to my tale</ref>
                        <note xml:id="Rime" target="Rime_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                           <graphic url="notes/mariner_2.jpg" source="https://www.nationalgalleries.org/art-and-artists/29563/ancient-mariner-stops-wedding-guest-letters-rime-ancient-mariner-plate-ii" alt="An uncolored etching on paper illustrating the Ancient Mariner stopping the Wedding Guest and forcing him to listen to his tale, plate II from an 1837 illustrated edition." desc="The Ancient Mariner Stops the Wedding Guest (before letters) from 'The Rime of the Ancient Mariner' (Plate II), by David Scott (1806-1849), National Galleries of Scotland."/> This is a reference to Samuel Taylor Coleridge’s 1798 poem, <ref target="https://rpo.library.utoronto.ca/poems/rime-ancient-mariner-text-1834">
                              <hi rend="italic">Rime of the Ancient Mariner</hi>
                                            </ref>. Coleridge’s
                           most famous poem is a tale narrated by an ancient sailor returned from a
                           long, ambitious journey during which, having shot and killed an
                           albatross, all other members of the crew die and the mariner is cursed.
                           The poem foregrounds the act of storytelling; the mariner with his <ref target="https://rpo.library.utoronto.ca/poems/rime-ancient-mariner-text-1834">"strange power of speech" (587)</ref> is compelled to tell his story,
                           and others, due to its fantastical nature, are compelled to pay
                           attention. The illustration here depicts the Ancient Mariner telling
                           his tale to the Wedding Guest, who "cannot chuse but to hear" (18). To
                           learn more about Coleridge’s poem, <ref target="http://ec2-52-90-79-236.compute-1.amazonaws.com/editions/LB/html/Lb98-b.html">published as the opening poem in <hi rend="italic">Lyrical Ballads
                              </hi>
                                            </ref>, read <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/romantics-and-victorians/articles/an-introduction-to-the-rime-of-the-ancient-mariner">Seamus Perry’s introduction at the British Library</ref>. </note>. I
                        believe that the strange incidents connected with it will afford a view of
                        nature, which may enlarge your faculties and understanding. You will hear of
                        powers and occurrences, such as you have been accustomed to believe
                        impossible: but I do not doubt that my tale conveys in its series internal
                        evidence of the truth of the events of which it is composed."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>You may easily conceive that I was much gratified by the offered communication;
                     yet I could not endure that he should renew his grief by a recital of his
                     misfortunes. I felt the greatest eagerness to hear the promised narrative,
                     partly from curiosity, and partly from a strong desire to ameliorate his fate,
                     if it were in my power. I expressed these feelings in my answer.</p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I thank you,"</said> he replied, <said who="#victor">"for
                           <pb n="[1.37]" facs="pageImages/vol1/37.jpg"/> your sympathy, but it is
                        useless; my fate is nearly fulfilled. I wait but for one event, and then I
                        shall repose in peace. I understand your feeling,"</said> continued he,
                     perceiving that I wished to interrupt him; <said who="#victor">"but you are
                        mistaken, my friend, if thus you will allow me to name you; nothing can
                        alter my destiny: listen to my history, and you will perceive how
                        irrevocably it is determined."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>He then told me, that he would commence his narrative the next day when I
                     should be at leisure. This promise drew from me the warmest thanks. I have
                     resolved every night, when I am not engaged, to record, as nearly as possible
                     in his own words, what he has related during the day. If I should be engaged, I
                     will at least make notes. This manuscript will doubtless afford you the
                     greatest pleasure: but to me, <pb n="[1.38]" facs="pageImages/vol1/38.jpg"/>
                     who know him, and who hear it from his own lips, with what interest and
                     sympathy shall I read it in some future day!</p>


               </div>


            </div>







            <div n="1.1" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[1.39]" facs="pageImages/vol1/39.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter I</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>I AM by birth a Genevese; and my family is one of the most
                     distinguished of that republic. My ancestors had been for many years
                     counsellors and syndics; and my father had filled several public situations
                     with honour and reputation. He was respected by all who knew him for his
                     integrity and indefatigable attention to public business. He passed his younger
                     days perpetually occupied by the affairs of <pb n="[1.40]" facs="pageImages/vol1/40.jpg"/> his country; and it was not until the
                     decline of life that he thought of marrying, and bestowing on the state sons
                     who might carry his virtues and his name down to posterity.</p>
                  <p>As the circumstances of his marriage illustrate his character, I cannot refrain
                     from relating them. One of his most intimate friends was a merchant, who, from
                     a flourishing state, fell, through numerous mischances, into poverty. This man,
                     whose name was <pb n="[1.41 - page breaks after 'Beau-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/41.jpg"/>
                     <persName>Beaufort</persName>, was of a proud and unbending disposition, and
                     could not bear to live in poverty and oblivion in the same country where he had
                     formerly been distinguished for his rank and magnificence. Having paid his
                     debts, therefore, in the most honourable manner, he retreated with his daughter
                     to the town of <placeName type="tgn" key="7007280">Lucerne</placeName>, where
                     he lived unknown and in wretchedness. My father loved
                        <persName>Beaufort</persName> with the truest friendship, and was deeply
                     grieved by his retreat in these unfortunate circumstances. He grieved also for
                     the loss of his society, and resolved to seek him out and endeavour to persuade
                     him to begin the world again through his credit and assistance.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Beaufort</persName> had taken effectual measures to conceal himself;
                     and it was ten months before my father discovered his abode. Overjoyed at this
                     discovery, he hastened to the house, which was situated in a mean street, near
                     the <placeName type="tgn" key="1129085">Reuss</placeName>. But when he entered,
                     misery and despair alone welcomed him. <persName>Beaufort</persName> had saved
                     but a very small sum of money from the wreck of his fortunes; but it was
                     sufficient to provide him with sustenance for some months, and in the meantime
                     he hoped to procure some respectable employment in a <pb n="[1.42 - page breaks after 'mer-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/42.jpg"/>
                     merchant's house. The interval was consequently spent in inaction; his grief
                     only became more deep and rankling, when he had leisure for reflection; and at
                     length it took so fast hold of his mind, that at the end of three months he lay
                     on a bed of sickness, incapable of any exertion.</p>
                  <p>His daughter attended him with the greatest tenderness; but she saw with
                     despair that their little fund was rapidly decreasing, and that there was no
                     other prospect of support. But <persName>Caroline Beaufort</persName> possessed
                     a mind of an uncommon mould; and her courage rose to support her in her
                     adversity. She procured <ref target="Plain_work_" corresp="Plain_work">plain
                        work</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Plain_work" target="Plain_work_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">"Plain work" here refers to sewing and needlework that
                        is "plain," as opposed to "fancy." Caroline Beaufort, however, is also
                        making money by taking orders for piece work, which refers to any work paid
                        for "by the piece" or according to what is produced, like modern factory
                        work. </note>; she plaited straw; and by various means contrived to earn a
                     pittance scarcely sufficient to support life.</p>
                  <p>Several months passed in this manner. Her father grew worse; her time <pb n="[1.43]" facs="pageImages/vol1/43.jpg"/> was more entirely occupied in
                     attending him; her means of subsistence decreased; and in the tenth month her
                     father died in her arms, leaving her an orphan and a beggar. This last blow
                     overcame her; and she knelt by <persName>Beaufort</persName>'s coffin, weeping
                     bitterly, when my father entered the chamber. He came like a protecting spirit
                     to the poor girl, who committed herself to his care, and after the interment of
                     his friend he conducted her to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, and placed her under the protection of a relation. Two
                     years after this event <persName>Caroline</persName> became his wife.</p>
                  <p>When my father became a husband and a parent, he found his time so occupied by
                     the duties of his new situation, that he relinquished many of his public
                     employments, and devoted himself to the education of his children. Of these I
                     was the eldest, and the destined <pb n="[1.44 - page breaks after 'suc-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/44.jpg"/> successor to all his labours and utility. No
                     creature could have more tender parents than mine. My improvement and health
                     were their constant care, especially as I remained for several years their only
                     child. But before I continue my narrative, I must record an incident which took
                     place when I was four years of age.</p>
                  <p>My father had a sister, whom he tenderly loved, and who had married early in
                     life an Italian gentleman. Soon after her marriage, she had accompanied her
                     husband into his native country, and for some years my father had very little
                     communication with her. About the time I mentioned she died; and a few months
                     afterwards he received a letter from her husband, acquainting him with his
                     intention of marrying an Italian lady, and requesting my father to take charge
                     of the <pb n="[1.45 - page breaks after 'in-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/45.jpg"/>
                     infant <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, the only child of his deceased sister.
                        <said who="#brotherinlaw">"It is my wish,"</said> he said, <said who="#brotherinlaw">"that you should consider her as your own daughter, and
                        educate her thus. Her mother's fortune is secured to her, the documents of
                        which I will commit to your keeping. Reflect upon this proposition; and
                        decide whether you would prefer educating your niece yourself to her being
                        brought up by a stepmother."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>My father did not hesitate, and immediately went to <placeName type="tgn" key="1000080">Italy</placeName>, that he might accompany the little
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> to her future home. I have often heard my
                     mother say, that she was at that time the most beautiful child she had ever
                     seen, and shewed signs even then of a gentle and affectionate disposition.
                     These indications, and a desire to bind as closely as possible the ties of
                     domestic love, determined my mother to consider <pb n="[1.46]" facs="pageImages/vol1/46.jpg"/>
                     <persName>Elizabeth</persName>
                                    <ref target="cousin_marriage_" corresp="cousin_marriage"> as my future wife</ref>
                     <note xml:id="cousin_marriage" target="cousin_marriage_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">Marriage between cousins was a common practice in
                        history, often deployed to maintain family property and wealth. Read more
                        about marriage between cousins in Adam Kuper’s <hi rend="italic">Incest and
                           Influence</hi> especially the <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt13x0dq7.13">Coda</ref>, or his
                        article in <hi rend="italic">Past and Present</hi> "<ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/3600719">Incest, Cousin Marriage, and
                           the Origin of the Human Sciences in Nineteenth-Century England</ref>." In
                        the 1818 edition of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, Elizabeth Lavenza,
                        is Victor’s first cousin on his father’s side; however, in the 2nd edition
                        of 1831, Mary Shelley revises this plot point to make Elizabeth an unknown
                        orphan and no longer related to the Frankensteins. She is instead rescued by
                        Victor Frankenstein’s mother. To learn more of Mary Shelley’s revisions
                        between the first and second editions see the annotation linked to the
                        publication date in the Preface of the novel, or head to Dana Wheeles’ Juxta
                        Commons <ref target="http://juxtacommons.org/shares/Nme50n">comparison</ref>
                        of the 1818 and 1831 editions of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>.
                     </note>; a design which she never found reason to repent.</p>
                  <p>From this time <persName>Elizabeth Lavenza</persName> became my playfellow,
                     and, as we grew older, my friend. She was docile and good tempered, yet gay and
                     playful as a summer insect. Although she was lively and animated, her feelings
                     were strong and deep, and her disposition uncommonly affectionate. No one could
                     better enjoy liberty, yet no one could submit with more grace than she did to
                     constraint and caprice. Her imagination was luxuriant, yet her capability of
                     application was great. Her person was the image of her mind; her hazel eyes,
                     although as lively as a bird's, possessed an attractive softness. Her figure
                     was light and airy; and, though capable of enduring great fatigue, she appeared
                     the most fragile creature in the world. While I <pb n="[1.47 - page breaks after 'ad-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/47.jpg"/> admired
                     her understanding and fancy, I loved to tend on her, as I should on a favourite
                     animal; and I never saw so much grace both of person and mind united to so
                     little pretension.</p>
                  <p>Every one adored <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. If the servants had any
                     request to make, it was always through her intercession. We were strangers to
                     any species of disunion and dispute; for although there was a great
                     dissimilitude in our characters, there was an harmony in that very
                     dissimilitude. I was more calm and philosophical than my companion; yet my
                     temper was not so yielding. My application was of longer endurance; but it was
                     not so severe whilst it endured. I delighted in investigating the facts
                     relative to the actual world; she busied herself in following the aërial
                     creations of the poets. The world was to me a secret, which I desired to <pb n="[1.48]" facs="pageImages/vol1/48.jpg"/> discover; to her it was a
                     vacancy, which she sought to people with imaginations of her own.</p>
                  <p>My brothers were considerably younger than myself; but I had a friend in one of
                     my schoolfellows, who compensated for this deficiency. <persName>Henry
                        Clerval</persName> was the son of a merchant of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, an intimate friend of my father. He was a
                     boy of singular talent and <ref target="fancy_" corresp="fancy"> fancy</ref>
                     <note xml:id="fancy" target="fancy_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">Fancy and imaginagion are important concepts in that shifted in meaning
                        througout the eighteenth century, being associated with mental creativity
                        and wit. For William Wordsworth, fancy is, like the imagination, a force for
                        association and creation; in his Preface of 1815, he writes that fancy is
                        "capricious as the accidents of things... Fancy depends upon the rapidity
                        and profusion with which she scatters her thoughts and images" (<ref target="https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Page%3APoems_by_William_Wordsworth_(1815)_Volume_1.djvu/42">xxxiv</ref>-<ref target="https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Page:Poems_by_William_Wordsworth_(1815)_Volume_1.djvu/43">xxxv</ref>). Fancy is more "given to quicken and to beguile the temporal
                        part of our nature," while "Imagination [works] to incite and to support the
                        eternal" (<ref target="https://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Page%3APoems_by_William_Wordsworth_(1815)_Volume_1.djvu/43">xxxv</ref>). For Coleridge, fancy is inferior to imagination, lighter,
                        and is more like wit in terms of its power to make connections between
                        ideas; Coleridge explores the distinctions between primary imagination,
                        secondary imagination, and fancy in Book 13 of <hi rend="italic">Biographia
                           Literaria</hi> (1817). For a good general historical overview, <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=mkcrDwAAQBAJ">see <hi rend="italic">Fancy and Imagination</hi> (1969) by R. L. Brett</ref>.
                     </note>. I remember, when he was nine years old, he wrote a fairy tale, which
                     was the delight and amazement of all his companions. His favourite study
                     consisted in books of<ref target="chivalric_romance_" corresp="chivalric_romance"> chivalry and romance</ref>
                     <note xml:id="chivalric_romance" target="chivalric_romance_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">Chivalric romance, <ref target="http://www.oxfordreference.com/view/10.1093/oi/authority.20110803095608946">according Oxford Reference</ref>, is a genre of literature that began in
                        Medieval Europe and flourished into the 17th century. Chivalric romances,
                        usually written in poetic verse, tell stories of the great deeds of
                        knight-errantry. Chivalry, in particular, refers to "an idealized code of
                        civilized behaviour that combines loyalty, honour, and courtly love." These
                        sorts of stories were often called "romans," from which the word "romance"
                        derives. Formally loose or episodic in structure, heroic romances written in
                        later periods "deliberately eschew[ed] contemporaneity"; their plots
                        featured courtly lovers engaged in "heroic stories of love and war in a
                        remote and idealized past" (1046), as Shellinger states in the <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=FPdRAwAAQBAJ">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Encyclopedia of the Novel</hi>
                                        </ref>. Some representative heroic
                        romances include <hi rend="italic">Euphues</hi> by John Lyly, <hi rend="italic">L'Astrée</hi> by Honore d'Urfé, <hi rend="italic">Artamène</hi> by Madame de Scudéry, <hi rend="italic">Orlando
                           Furioso</hi> by Ludovico Ariosto, and <hi rend="italic">Amadís de
                           Gaula</hi> by Garci Rodríguez de Montalvo. Romance of this sort declined
                        in popularity during the 18th century, but during the Romantic period--so
                        named by later scholars for its turn toward these very romantic ideals of
                        individualism, heroism, and the imagination--such stories were revived. For
                        a fuller discussion of the origins and meaning of the word "romantic" see
                           <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=zpY4nX4fUvIC">Michael
                           Ferber’s <hi rend="italic">Romanticism: A Very Short Introduction</hi>
                           (3-7)</ref>, and for a broader overview of the medieval genre, see <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/art/romance-literature-and-performance">the Encyclopedia Britannica’s entry on Romance</ref>. </note>; and when
                     very young, I can remember, that we used to act plays composed by him out of
                     these favourite books, the principal characters of which were<ref target="Orlando_Furioso_" corresp="Orlando_Furioso">
                        <persName>Orlando</persName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Orlando_Furioso" target="Orlando_Furioso_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                        <graphic url="notes/Jean_Auguste_Dominique_Ingres_-_Roger_Delivering_Angelica.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Jean_Auguste_Dominique_Ingres_-_Roger_Delivering_Angelica.jpg" alt="A painting by Jean Auguste Dominique Ingres of a scene from Orlando Furioso during which Ruggeiero, a knight riding a griffon and weilding a lance, rescues a naked and chained Angelica, from a sea monster." desc="Ruggiero Rescuing Angelica (1819), oil painting by Jean Auguste Dominique Ingres, from the Louvre Museum via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                        <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="http://www.sacred-texts.com/neu/orl/index.htm">Orlando
                              Furioso</ref>
                                        </hi> is an epic poem published in 1532 by the Italian
                        poet Ludovico Arisoto, and an example of the "books of chivalry and romance"
                        that Clerval enjoys. Set in the 8th century, <hi rend="italic">Orlando
                           Furioso</hi> tells the story of the protagonist Orlando, leader of the
                        Christian knights, fighting the so-called <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/topic/Saracen">Saracens</ref> for
                        control of Europe during the reign of Charlemagne (Charles I). As the first
                        lines of the poem point out, its subject is "Dames, knights, and arms, and
                        love! The deeds that spring / From courteous minds, and venturous feats"
                        (1.1-2). The chivalric romance combines realism and fantasy throughout its
                        46 cantos. <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/collection-items/ariostos-orlando-furioso-in-english-1591">First published in English translation in 1591, <hi rend="italic">Orlando Furioso</hi> is a source for Shakespeare’s <hi rend="italic">Much Ado about Nothing</hi>.</ref> While the story is episodic, one
                        of the most important plots focuses on Orlando’s dangerous passion for the
                        pagan princess Angelica, which is the cause of his titular madness. Ariosto’s tale was also <ref target="https://ebooks.adelaide.edu.au/d/dore/gustave/orlando/">famously
                           illustrated by the late nineteenth-century artist Gustave Doré</ref>.
                        </note>,<ref target="Robin_Hood_" corresp="Robin_Hood">
                        <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79069719"> Robin Hood </persName>
                                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Robin_Hood" target="Robin_Hood_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/Richard_The_Lionheart_-_Robinhood.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Richard_The_Lionheart_-_Robinhood.jpg" alt="A photograph of a relief plaque outside of Nottingham Castle shwoing Richard the Lionheart clasping the hands of Robin Hood and Marian kneeling before him in marriage." desc="Photograph of the Robin Hood plaque at Nottingham Castle, taken by RichardUK2014, via Wikimedia Commons."/> Robin Hood is a legendary outlaw who stole from the rich to give to the
                        poor. Numerous ballads have been written about the character, who may have
                        been based on a <ref target="https://www.history.com/topics/british-history/robin-hood">real
                           person</ref>. Robin Hood lived the true heroic code, protecting women,
                        supporting the lowly, and remained faithful to the monarch. Read more about
                        Robin Hood in Howard Pyle’s <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="http://www.literaturepage.com/read/robinhood.html">The Merry
                              Adventures of Robin Hood</ref>
                                        </hi>, one of the more popular
                        adaptations of the legend written in 1883.</note>,<ref target="Amadis_de_Gaula_" corresp="Amadis_de_Gaula">
                        <persName>Amadis</persName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Amadis_de_Gaula" target="Amadis_de_Gaula_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/Amadis_de_Gaula_1533.jpg" source="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Amadis_de_Gaula_1533.jpg" alt="Title page of the 1533 Amadís de Gaula, with black and gothic lettering and and an illustrative woodcut." desc="Title Page of Amadís de Gaula (1533), by Garci Rodríguez de Montalvo, via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                        <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/topic/Amadis-of-Gaul">Amadís de
                           Gaula</ref> is a prose romance composed in Spain or Portugal in the 13th
                        or 14th century. The story’s protagonist is Amadís, the bravest and most
                        just of knights, who falls in love with Oriana, the daughter of Lisuarte,
                        the king of England. Amadís is an orphan who was separated from his English
                        parents at birth, but through this hardship becomes a better man. Arthurian
                        in nature, the story is one of chivalry, though more chaste and romanticized
                        than the Celtic tales of knights it was most likely based on. According to
                           <ref target="https://www.rc.umd.edu/editions/frankenstein/V1notes/amadis">Romantic Circles</ref>, Mary Shelley was reading Robert Southey’s
                        translation of the poem while writing <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>.
                        The full text of the <ref target="https://www.wdl.org/en/item/7330/">1520
                           edition</ref> printed by Juan Cromberger can be found online at the
                        National Library of Spain. </note>, and <ref target="St_George_" corresp="St_George">
                        St. George
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="St_George" target="St_George_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/st_george.jpg" alt="A painting on wood panel showing a man wearing armor and riding a rearing gray horse pinning a winged, reptile-like dragon to the ground using a long lance. A woman kneels beyond the man and dragon to our left, and mountains and a city lining a body of water stretch into the deep distance [description drawn from source]." source="https://www.nga.gov/collection/art-object-page.50662.html" desc="Saint George and the Dragon (c. 1432) by Rogier                            van Der Weyden, from the National Gallery of Art, Washington, D.C."/> St. George, a converted Roman soldier martyred for his newfound Christian
                        faith, is often depicted slaying a dragon, a symbolic rendering of the
                        triumph of Christianity over evil. Not only is St. George the patron saint
                        of England, but by the 14th century, he had been declared both the patron
                        saint and protector of the <ref target="https://trove.nla.gov.au/work/6849528">royal family</ref>. For
                        more information on St. George, see <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="https://www.pitt.edu/~dash/stgeorge2.html">Reliques of Ancient
                              English Poetry</ref>
                                        </hi> collected by Thomas Percy and edited by D.L.
                        Ashliman.
                     </note>.</p>
                  <p>No youth could have passed more <pb n="[1.49]" facs="pageImages/vol1/49.jpg"/>
                     happily than mine. My parents were indulgent, and my companions amiable. Our
                     studies were never forced; and by some means we always had an end placed in
                     view, which excited us to ardour in the prosecution of them. It was by this
                     method, and not by emulation, that we were urged to application.
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> was not incited to apply herself to drawing,
                     that her companions might not outstrip her; but through the desire of pleasing
                     her aunt, by the representation of some favourite scene done by her own hand.
                     We learned Latin and English, that we might read the writings in those
                     languages; and so far from study being made odious to us through punishment, we
                     loved application, and our amusements would have been the labours of other
                     children. Perhaps we did not read so many books, or learn languages so <pb n="[1.50]" facs="pageImages/vol1/50.jpg"/> quickly, as those who are
                     disciplined according to the ordinary methods; but what we learned was
                     impressed the more deeply on our memories.</p>
                  <p>In this description of our domestic circle I include <persName>Henry
                        Clerval</persName>; for he was constantly with us. He went to school with
                     me, and generally passed the afternoon at our house: for being an only child,
                     and destitute of companions at home, his father was well pleased that he should
                     find associates at our house; and we were never completely happy when
                        <persName>Clerval</persName> was absent.</p>
                  <p>I feel pleasure in dwelling on the recollections of childhood, before
                     misfortune had tainted my mind, and changed its bright visions of extensive
                     usefulness into gloomy and narrow reflections upon self. But, in drawing the
                     picture of my early days, I must not omit to record those events which led, by
                        <pb n="[1.51 - page breaks after 'in-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/51.jpg"/>
                     insensible steps to my after tale of misery: for when I would account to myself
                     for the birth of that passion, which afterwards ruled my destiny, I find it
                     arise, like a mountain river, from ignoble and almost forgotten sources; but,
                     swelling as it proceeded, it became the torrent which, in its course, has swept
                     away all my hopes and joys.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <ref target="Natural_Philosophy_" corresp="Natural_Philosophy">Natural
                        philosophy</ref>
                                    <note xml:id="Natural_Philosophy" target="Natural_Philosophy_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <ref target="https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/natphil-ren/">Natural
                           Philosophy</ref> is the study of nature through a philosophical lens. The
                        two canonical discussions of natural philosophy occur in Aristotle’s <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="http://classics.mit.edu/Aristotle/heavens.html">On the
                              Heavens, Meteorology</ref>
                                        </hi>, and <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="http://classics.mit.edu/Aristotle/gener_corr.html">On
                              Generation and Corruption</ref>
                                        </hi>. In the eighteenth century,
                        natural philosophy was a form of science with an emphasis on scientific
                        inquiry, but in the Romantic period, it was seen as a method of unifying
                        physical nature with the spiritual. As Michael Manson and Robert Scott
                        Stewart point out in <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/3685283">Heroes and Hideousness: "Frankenstein" and Failed Unity</ref>, natural
                        philosophy fueled the Romantic idea of the natural world as a giant
                        organism, in stark contrast to the Enlightenment, which saw the natural
                        world as more like a mechanical machine. For more information about natural
                        philosophy and its influence on <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, see
                        Patricia Fara’s "<ref target="https://doi.org/10.1016/j.shpsa.2007.06.004">Hidden depths: Halley, Hell and Other People</ref>" or Rebecca Baumann’s
                           "<ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt22p7j32.11">Mad
                           Science</ref>." </note> is the genius that has regulated my fate; I
                     desire therefore, in this narration, to state those facts which led to my
                     predilection for that science. When I was thirteen years of age, we all went on
                     a party of pleasure to the baths near <placeName type="tgn" key="1035867">Thonon</placeName>: the inclemency of the weather obliged us to remain a
                     day confined to the inn. In this house I chanced to find a volume of the works
                     of <ref target="Cornelius_Agrippa_" corresp="Cornelius_Agrippa">
                        <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375"> Cornelius Agrippa</persName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Cornelius_Agrippa" target="Cornelius_Agrippa_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#NPD">
                        <graphic url="notes/Portrait_of_Agrippa_Wellcome_L0000100.jpg" alt="An engraved portrait of Agrippa, in profile, surrounded by iconic representations of his scientific pursuits: butterflies, flowers, books." source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Portrait_of_Agrippa_Wellcome_L0000100.jpg" desc="Engraved portrait of Henricus Cornelius Agrippa (1645) after Theodor de Bry, from the Wellcome Collection via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                        <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Heinrich-Cornelius-Agrippa-von-Nettesheim">Cornelius Agrippa (1486-1535)</ref> was a German alchemist and scholar.
                        He studied both medicine and law but did not receive a degree in either. His
                        most well-known work is the three-volume De Occulta Philosophiae, a defense
                        of "hidden philosophy" or magic, drawing from alchemy, astrology, and
                        Kabbalah. A later work, De Incertitudine et Vanitate Scientiarum (<ref target="https://quod.lib.umich.edu/e/eebo/A26566.0001.001?view=toc">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Of the Uncertainty and Vanity of the
                        Sciences</hi>
                                        </ref>), attacks contemporary renaissance scientific theory and
                        practice. To read more about his philosophy see his intellectual biography
                        in the <ref target="https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/agrippa-nettesheim/">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy</hi>
                                        </ref>. The
                        engraved portrait of Agrippa above, via Wikimedia Commons, is housed at the
                        U.S. National Library of Medicine. </note>. I opened it with apathy; the
                     theory which he attempts to demonstrate, and the <pb n="[1.52]" facs="pageImages/vol1/52.jpg"/> wonderful facts which he relates, soon
                     changed this feeling into enthusiasm. A new light seemed to dawn upon my mind;
                     and, bounding with joy, I communicated my discovery to my father. I cannot help
                     remarking here the many opportunities instructors possess of directing the
                     attention of their pupils to useful knowledge, which they utterly neglect. My
                     father looked carelessly at the title-page of my book, and said, <said who="#father">"Ah! <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Cornelius
                           Agrippa</persName>! My dear <persName>Victor</persName>, do not waste
                        your time upon this; it is sad trash."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>If, instead of this remark, my father had taken the pains to explain to me,
                     that the principles of <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Agrippa</persName> had been entirely exploded, and that a modern system of
                     science had been introduced, which possessed much greater powers than the
                     ancient, because the powers of the latter were <ref target="Chimerical_" corresp="Chimerical">chimerical</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Chimerical" target="Chimerical_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/A chimera.jpg" source="https://www.museodelprado.es/en/the-collection/art-work/a-chimera/67a1c861-3132-459f-bf4c-c5f2dfef0efb" alt="A drawing in gray-brown wash, white lead, pencil, and chalk on yellow paper, by Jacopo Ligozzi, showing a monster with three heads--one of a lion, one of a goat, and one of a dragon--and corresponding pairs of legs." desc="A Chimera (1590-1610), drawing by Jacopo Ligozzi (1547-1627), from the Museo del Prado."/> Chimeric or chimerical was defined by <ref target="https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/books/news/samuel-johnson-google-doodle-who-was-he-dictionary-james-boswell-writer-publisher-wit-a7952616.html">Samuel Johnson</ref> in his <ref target="http://www.bl.uk/learning/langlit/dic/johnson/1755johnsonsdictionary.html">1755 <hi rend="italic">Dictionary of the English Language</hi>
                                        </ref> as
                           "<ref target="https://archive.org/stream/dictionaryofengl01johnuoft#page/n373/mode/2up">A vain and wild fancy, as remote from reality as the existence of the
                           poetical <hi rend="italic">Chimera</hi>, a monster feigned to have the
                           head of a lion, the belly of a goat, and the tail of a dragon.</ref>"</note> , while <pb n="[1.53]" facs="pageImages/vol1/53.jpg"/> those of the former were real and practical;
                     under such circumstances, I should certainly have thrown <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Agrippa</persName> aside, and, with my imagination warmed as
                     it was, should probably have applied myself to the more rational theory of
                     chemistry which has resulted from modern discoveries. It is even possible, that
                     the train of my ideas would never have received the fatal impulse that led to
                     my ruin. But the cursory glance my father had taken of my volume by no means
                     assured me that he was acquainted with its contents; and I continued to read
                     with the greatest avidity.</p>
                  <p>When I returned home, my first care was to procure the whole works of this
                     author, and afterwards of <ref target="Paracelsus_" corresp="Paracelsus">
                                        <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80120959">Paracelsus</persName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Paracelsus" target="Paracelsus_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/Paracelsus.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Paracelsus.jpg" alt="A painted portrait of the doctor Paracelsus (in the 'fat Paracelsus' tradition), wearing a half-red, half-fur hat, holding a small book between his fingers, with hands extending past the image border, against a fantastical Renaissance style background." desc="Copy of a lost portrait of Paracelsus (17th century) by Quentin Matsys, from the Louvre Museum via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                        <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Paracelsus">Paracelsus</ref>, the adopted name of Philippus Aureolus Theophrastus
                        Bombastus von Hohenheim (1490-1541), was Swiss physician, alchemist, and
                        astrologer of the German Renaissance. He studied medicine and homeopathic
                        cures for disease, as well as alchemy and metals. A free thinker, he
                        believed in learning from more than just academics, and stressed experience
                        as a model for learning. To learn more about Paracelsus’ scientific and
                        medical advancements in the medieval ages see Joseph Borzelleca’s "<ref target="https://academic.oup.com/toxsci/article/53/1/2/1673334">Paracelsus: Herald of Modern Toxicology</ref>".</note> and <ref target="Albertus_Magnus_" corresp="Albertus_Magnus">
                        <persName type="lcnaf" key="n81007973">Albertus Magnus</persName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Albertus_Magnus" target="Albertus_Magnus_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/magnus.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Vincenzo_onofri,_sant%27alberto_magno,_1493.JPG" alt="A photograph of the bust of Sant' Alberto Magno (1493) by Vincenzo Onofri, housed in the Museo Civico Medievale a Bologna. The bust shows a friar with a typical tonsure and a cloak over the shoulders." desc="A photograph of Vincenzo Onofri’s bust of Sant’ Alberto Magno (c. 1493) taken by user sailko, via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                        <ref target="https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/albert-great/">Albertus
                           Magnus</ref> (c. 1200-1280), teacher of St. Thomas Aquinas, was a German
                        Catholic Dominican Friar. He was canonized a saint in 1931 (despite
                        contemporaries considering him neglectful of theology for sorcery), has been
                        referred to as the one of the greatest German philosophers and theologians
                        of the Middle Ages, and is distinguished as one of the 36 Doctors for the
                        Catholic Church. A student of many disciplines, influenced by Aristotle, and
                        a prolific writer, he composed <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Saint-Albertus-Magnus">38
                           volumes</ref> encompassing many topics such as logic, theology, botany,
                        geography, astronomy, astrology, mineralogy, alchemy, zoology, physiology,
                        phrenology, justice, and law. Albertus’ work represents the entire body of
                        theological and philosophical knowledge during his time. His influence on
                        natural science is most important as he brought Aristotelian knowledge of
                        nature to the forefront as well as increasing knowledge through his
                        experiments promoting the idea that Christian faith and experimental science
                        were not hostile to one another. For more information on the alchemical
                        sciences, see <ref target="https://library.brown.edu/exhibit/exhibits/show/evolution-of-chemistry/the-processes-of-alchemy/alchemy-as-theory--the-search-">the Hay Library exhibit on the evolution of modern chemistry</ref> and
                        the archived Getty Library colloquium on the <ref target="http://www.getty.edu/research/exhibitions_events/events/alchemy/index.html">"Art of Alchemy."</ref> To explore more of Albertus Magnus’ works see
                        the Beinecke Library’s digital edition of his <ref target="https://brbl-dl.library.yale.edu/vufind/Record/3441262">"Alchemical Miscellany."</ref> For more information on the role of
                        alchemy and science in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, see <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=nkDbgXV9YnwC">Alan Rauch’s <hi rend="italic">Useful Knowledge: The Victorians, Morality, and the
                              March of Intellect</hi> (2001)</ref>, especially chapter 3, "The
                        Monstrous Body of Knowledge in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>"</note>. I read and studied the wild fancies of these
                     writers with delight; they appeared to me <pb n="[1.54 - page breaks after 'trea-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/54.jpg"/>
                     treasures known to few beside myself; and although I have often wished to
                     communicate these secret stores of knowledge to my father, yet his indefinite
                     censure of my favourite <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Agrippa</persName> always withheld me. I disclosed my discoveries to
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, therefore, under a promise of strict
                     secrecy; but she did not interest herself in the subject, and I was left by her
                     to pursue my studies alone.</p>
                  <p>It may appear very strange, that a disciple of <persName type="lcnaf" key="n81007973">Albertus Magnus</persName> should arise in the eighteenth
                     century; but our family was not scientifical, and I had not attended any of the
                     lectures given at the schools of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. My dreams were therefore undisturbed by reality; and I
                     entered with the greatest diligence into the search of the <ref target="Philosophers_Stone_" corresp="Philosophers_Stone"> philosopher's
                        stone</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Philosophers_Stone" target="Philosophers_Stone_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">In the study of alchemy, "<ref target="https://www.britannica.com/topic/philosophers-stone">"the
                           Philosopher’s Stone</ref>" is sometimes referred to as the 5th element
                        (the other four being earth, water, fire, and air). The Stone was understood
                        to turn base metals into gold, and it was thought to be able to create an
                        elixir of life. The Stone has been referenced throughout literature from the
                        Middle Ages to modern popular culture, from Geoffrey Chaucer’s "Yeoman’s
                        Tale" to J.K. Rowling’s <hi rend="italic">Harry Potter</hi>. Prior to the
                        conception of the Creature, Victor's fascination with this stone and its
                        apparent abilities highlights his willingness to step out of the human realm
                        and into the realm of the divine by "penetrating the secrets of nature"
                        (Shelley 38). Outside of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, much has been
                        written about alchemy and the Philosopher’s Stone, but Stanton Linden’s <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt130hpvq.13">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Darke Hierogliphicks: Alchemy in English Literature from Chaucer to
                              the Restoration</hi>
                                        </ref> gives an overview of the history of alchemy
                        in literature. To read a book of alchemy from 1754, see <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=5eQvAAAAYAAJ">
                                            <hi rend="italic">The Life of the Truly Eminent and Learned Hugo Grotius</hi>
                                        </ref>, by
                        M. de Burigny. </note> and the elixir of life. But the latter obtained my
                        <pb n="[1.55 - page breaks after 'undi-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/55.jpg"/>
                     undivided attention: wealth was an inferior object; but what glory would attend
                     the discovery, if I could banish disease from the human frame, and render man
                     invulnerable to any but a violent death!</p>
                  <p>Nor were these my only visions. The raising of ghosts or devils was a promise
                     liberally accorded by my favourite authors, the fulfillment of which I most
                     eagerly sought; and if my incantations were always unsuccessful, I attributed
                     the failure rather to my own inexperience and mistake than to a want of skill
                     or fidelity in my instructors.</p>
                  <p>The natural phænomena that take place every day before our eyes did not escape
                     my examinations. Distillation, and <ref target="Economy_of_Vegetation_" corresp="Economy_of_Vegetation"> the wonderful effects of steam</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Economy_of_Vegetation" target="Economy_of_Vegetation_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">This is a direct reference to Erasmus
                        Darwin’s poem, the <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=j7hEAAAAYAAJ">Economy of
                              Vegetation</ref>
                                        </hi>, which explores the new technological
                        innovations and scientific discoveries of the early nineteenth century. In
                        Darwin’s paean to "unconquer’d steam!" (289), he imagines it "[dragging] the
                        slow barge, or [driving] the rapid car;/ Or on wide-waving wings…[bearing]/
                        The flying-chariot through the fields of air" (290-292). His poems were
                        helpful to the Romantics’ exploration of science as he combined poetry, the
                        epitome of feeling, with scientific ideas. To see more of Darwin’s influence
                        on the Romantics, see D. King-Hele’s book, <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=ZkGvCwAAQBAJ">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Erasmus Darwin and the Romantic Poets</hi>
                                        </ref>.</note>, processes
                     of which my favourite authors were utterly ignorant, excited my astonishment;
                     but my utmost wonder was <pb n="[1.56]" facs="pageImages/vol1/56.jpg"/>
                     <ref target="Boyles_Law_" corresp="Boyles_Law"> engaged by some experiments on
                        an air-pump</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Boyles_Law" target="Boyles_Law_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/An_Experiment_on_a_Bird_in_an_Air_Pump_by_Joseph_Wright_of_Derby,_1768.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:An_Experiment_on_a_Bird_in_an_Air_Pump_by_Joseph_Wright_of_Derby,_1768.jpg" alt="A painting showing a group of white people of varying ages and sexes gathered around an illuminated central subject--an experiment with a bird in an air pump--on a table. The light from the table is the sole source of illumination in the painting, capturing the variety of responses to it." desc="An Experiment on a Bird in an Air Pump (1768) by Joseph Wright of Derby, from the National Gallery (London) via Wikimedia Commons."/>
                        <ref target="https://www.sciencehistory.org/historical-profile/robert-boyle">Robert Boyle (1627-1691)</ref>, the first modern chemist and originator
                        of <ref target="https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/Boyle's%20law">Boyle’s Law</ref>--which describes the inversely proportional
                        relationship between the absolute pressure and volume of a gas--performed
                        experiments in the seventeenth century involving air-pumps, better known
                        today as vacuum pumps. Boyle’s pumps were created to his specific dimensions
                        by Robert Hooke (1635-1703) (also known for the bringing the use of
                        microscopes into the community of scientists). In his (1662) book, <ref target="http://exhibits.library.yale.edu/document/8981">
                                            <hi rend="italic">New Experiments Physico-Mechanicall, Touching the Spring of the Air,
                              and its Effects, (Made, for the Most Part, in a New Pneumatical
                              Engine)</hi>
                                        </ref>, Boyle detailed all of his air-pump experiments,
                        most notably Experiment 41, in which he studied the reactions of animals to
                        a vacuum. In Experiment 41, Boyle placed birds, mice, and other small
                        creatures into the air pump and slowly removed the air to prove the
                        necessity of respiration. While watching a lark in one reiteration of the
                        experiment, he observed: "…the Bird for a while appear'd lively enough; but
                        upon a greater Exsuction of the Air, she began manifestly to droop and
                        appear sick, and very soon after was taken with as violent and irregular
                        Convulsions, as are wont to be observ'd in Poultry, when their heads are
                        wrung off: For the Bird threw her self over and over two or three times, and
                        dyed with her Breast upward, her Head downwards, and her Neck awry" (pg 98). These experiments intrigued the public. Joseph Wright’s
                        (1734-1797) oil paintings imagined these experiments as subjects of
                        middle-class, domestic education. To read more about Robert Boyle, see
                        Thomas Birch’s biography from 1772, <ref target="https://archive.org/details/bub_gb_LqYrAQAAMAAJ">
                                            <hi rend="italic">The works of the Honourable Robert Boyle</hi>
                                        </ref>.
                        Shelagh Stephenson’s (1955-) play <ref target="https://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/theatre-an-experiment-with-an-airpump-the-royal-exchange-manchester-whats-the-big-idea-1145615.html">
                                            <hi rend="italic">An Experiment With an Air Pump</hi>
                                        </ref>", a play
                        revolving around two overlapping plots 100 years apart which highlight the
                        lack of empathy scientific thought has over human emotions and affections.
                     </note>, which I saw employed by a gentleman whom we were in the habit of
                     visiting.</p>
                  <p>The ignorance of the early philbosophers on these and several other points
                     served to decrease their credit with me: but I could not entirely throw them
                     aside, before some other system should occupy their place in my mind.</p>
                  <p>When I was about fifteen years old, we had retired to our house near <placeName type="tgn" key="8703247">Belrive</placeName>, when we witnessed a most
                     violent and terrible thunder-storm. It advanced from behind <ref target="The_Swiss_Alps_" corresp="The_Swiss_Alps">
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="1109172"> the mountains of Jura</placeName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="The_Swiss_Alps" target="The_Swiss_Alps_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                        <graphic url="notes/Francis_Towne_001.jpg" source="https://fr.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fichier:Francis_Towne_001.jpg" alt="A watercolor painting showing the Mer de Glace and the source of the Arveyron river. The painting is somewhat abstract, in translucent browns and purples and blues." desc="Source of the Arveyron River on the Mer de Glace (1781), watercolor by Francis Towne, from the Victoria and Albert Museum via Wikimedia Commons."/>The Swiss Alps (including the Central and the Bernese Alps) are a region
                        in central Europe with expansive mountains, considered both beautiful and
                        dangerous, that span most the southern and eastern area of Switzerland. The
                        Jura are a range of mountains in the northwest following the
                        France-Switzerland border forming the watersheds for both the Rhone and
                        Rhine basins. These two ranges make up the majority of the natural setting
                        within the novel. Among the peaks named in the novel are Mont Blanc (the
                        highest), Mole, and Mont Saleve. Montanvert is also part of the Alps, but is
                        the eighteenth-century name for Mer de Glace, a glacier on the Mont Blanc
                        massif. <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/romantics-and-victorians/articles/landscape-and-the-sublime">Romantic artists--including Percy Shelley, Coleridge, J.M.W. Turner, and
                           others--frequently visited, wrote about, and painted this sublime
                           landscape.</ref> <ref target="http://francistowne.ac.uk/collection/list-of-works/glacier-from-montanvert/page/16">See more paintings by Towne depicting the area described in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> in Richard Stephens’ Catalogue Raisonné of Francis
                           Towne.</ref>
                                    </note>; and the thunder burst at once with frightful
                     loudness from various quarters of the heavens. I remained, while the storm
                     lasted, watching its progress with curiosity and delight. As I stood at the
                     door, on a sudden I beheld a stream of fire issue from an old and beautiful
                     oak, <pb n="[1.57]" facs="pageImages/vol1/57.jpg"/> which stood about twenty
                     yards from our house; and so soon as the dazzling light vanished, the oak had
                     disappeared, and nothing remained but a blasted stump. When we visited it the
                     next morning, we found the tree shattered in a singular manner. It was not
                     splintered by the shock, but entirely reduced to thin ribbands of wood. I never
                     beheld anything so utterly destroyed.</p>
                  <p>The catastrophe of this tree excited my extreme astonishment; and I eagerly
                     inquired of my father the nature and origin of thunder and lightning. He
                     replied, <said who="#father">"Electricity;"</said> describing at the same time
                     the various effects of that power. <ref target="Ben_Franklin_experiments_" corresp="Ben_Franklin_experiments"> He constructed a small electrical
                        machine, and exhibited a few experiments; he made also a kite, with a wire
                        and string, which drew down that fluid from the clouds</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Ben_Franklin_experiments" target="Ben_Franklin_experiments_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">This is a direct allusion to experiments performed by Benjamin Franklin
                        and other scientists during the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries. Ben
                        Franklin was a contemporary of Mary Shelley’s parents, and he influenced the
                        world of politics, culture, and science. Well-known inventing bifocals,
                        Franklin is also associated in the popular imagination with his electrical
                        experiments involving keys, storms, and kites. Contrary to popular belief,
                        Franklin did not discover electricity, but he connected electrical conduits
                        through substances like water and metal, and he understood that electricity
                        can be held and discharged. Read more about his electrical experiment at
                        <ref target="https://fi.edu/en/science-and-education/benjamin-franklin/kite-key-experiment">The Franklin Institute</ref>. Franklin’s experiments with electricity
                        were the precursor to Galvani’s and Volta’s experiments with electricity and
                        galvanism. These two scientists sought to prove that electricity could
                        animate deceased matter, namely frogs, but went so far as to momentarily
                        animate the bodies of beheaded criminals. To learn more about these
                        experiments, read Iwan Morus's "<ref target="https://theconversation.com/frankenstein-the-real-experiments-that-inspired-the-fictional-science-105076">Frankenstein: The Real Experiments that Inspired the Fictional Science</ref>." This is not the first time
                        electrical experiments had been referenced in literature; Erasmus Darwin,
                        whose works are alluded to in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> often
                        referenced Franklin, in his <hi rend="italic">Economy of Vegetation</hi>.
                        Darwin describes Franklin as taming lightning through his invention of the
                        lightning rod, for instance: <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=j7hEAAAAYAAJ">"-Led by the
                           phosphor-light, with daring tread/ Immortal Franklin sought the fiery
                           bed;/ Where, nursed in night, incumbent Tempest shrouds/ His embryon
                           Thunders in circumfluent clouds" (Canto 2.2 355-358).</ref> To explore
                        more about Darwin, see Stephen Foster’s addition to <ref target="http://www.victorianweb.org/science/edarwin/poetry.html">the
                           Victorian Web</ref>; to learn more about the science of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, see Sharon Ruskin’s <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/romantics-and-victorians/articles/the-science-of-life-and-death-in-mary-shelleys-frankenstein">article from the British Library</ref>.</note>.</p>
                  <p>This last stroke completed the <pb n="[1.58 - page breaks after 'over-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/58.jpg"/> overthrow of <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Cornelius Agrippa</persName>, <persName type="lcnaf" key="n81007973">Albertus Magnus</persName>, and <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80120959">Paracelsus</persName>, who had so long reigned the lords of
                     my imagination. But by some fatality I did not feel inclined to commence the
                     study of any modern system; and this disinclination was influenced by the
                     following circumstance.</p>
                  <p>My father expressed a wish that I should attend a course of lectures upon
                     natural philosophy, to which I cheerfully consented. Some accident prevented my
                     attending these lectures until the course was nearly finished. The lecture,
                     being therefore one of the last, was entirely incomprehensible to me. The
                     professor discoursed with the greatest fluency of potassium and boron, of
                     sulphates and oxyds, terms to which I could affix no idea; and I became
                     disgusted with the science of natural philosophy, although I still read <pb n="[1.59]" facs="pageImages/vol1/59.jpg"/>
                     <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79042075">Pliny</persName> and <persName type="lcnaf" key="n50041361">Buffon</persName> with delight, authors, in my
                     estimation, of nearly equal interest and utility.</p>
                  <p>My occupations at this age were principally the mathematics, and most of the
                     branches of study appertaining to that science. I was busily employed in
                     learning languages; Latin was already familiar to me, and I began to read some
                     of the easiest Greek authors without the help of a lexicon. I also perfectly
                     understood English and German. This is the list of my accomplishments at the
                     age of seventeen; and you may conceive that my hours were fully employed in
                     acquiring and maintaining a knowledge of this various literature.</p>
                  <p>Another task also devolved upon me, when I became the instructor of my
                     brothers. <persName>Ernest</persName> was six years younger than myself, and
                     was my principal <pb n="[1.60 - page breaks after 'pu']" facs="pageImages/vol1/60.jpg"/> pupil. He had been afflicted with ill health
                     from his infancy, through which <persName>Elizabeth</persName> and I had been
                     his constant nurses: his disposition was gentle, but he was incapable of any
                     severe application. <persName>William</persName>, the youngest of our family,
                     was yet an infant, and the most beautiful little fellow in the world; his
                     lively blue eyes, dimpled cheeks, and endearing manners, inspired the tenderest
                     affection.</p>
                  <p>Such was our domestic circle, from which care and pain seemed for ever
                     banished. My father directed our studies, and my mother partook of our
                     enjoyments. Neither of us possessed the slightest pre-eminence over the other;
                     the voice of command was never heard amongst us; but mutual affection engaged
                     us all to comply with and obey the slightest desire of each other.</p>
                            </said>


            </div>




            <div n="1.2" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[1.61]" facs="pageImages/vol1/61.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter II</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>WHEN I had attained the age of seventeen, <ref target="University_of_Ingolstadt_" corresp="University_of_Ingolstadt"> my
                        parents resolved that I should become a student at the university of
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>
                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="University_of_Ingolstadt" target="University_of_Ingolstadt_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                        <graphic url="notes/Old-op-the-lond.jpg" source="https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Old-op-the-lond.jpg" alt="A photograph of a 198th century operating theatre." desc="Photograph of the interior of the Old Operating Theatre, London, by Michael Reeve (2004), via Wikimedia Commons."/> Victor Frankenstein attends the <ref target="http://knarf.english.upenn.edu/V1notes/univers.html">University
                           of Ingolstadt</ref>, a university founded in 1472, known for its focus on
                        the natural sciences. The university had a massive chemistry laboratory and
                        one of the finest operating theatres at the time Frankenstein was written,
                        making it a perfect setting for his experiments. <ref target="https://www.google.com/maps/place/Ingolstadt,+Germany/@48.7535159,11.2395665,11z/data=!3m1!4b1!4m5!3m4!1s0x479efe5188360abb:0xec5d7e2213748aea!8m2!3d48.7665351!4d11.4257541?shorturl=1">Ingolstadt</ref> is located in Germany, within the Free State of
                        Bavaria. In the eighteenth century, an <ref target="http://knarf.english.upenn.edu/Places/ingolst.html">intellectual
                           movement</ref> for the reconstruction of European society was centered in
                        the city. Mary Shelley would have been aware of this, and the significance
                        of the change of European society may have been the perfect historical
                        setting for a tale calling into question freedom, status, and autonomy. The
                        image here shows an English operating theatre built in the 19th century
                        to give an example of what the operating theatre may have looked like to
                        Victor Frankenstein. <ref target="https://oldoperatingtheatre.com/">This historical operating theater can be visited today.</ref>
                                    </note>. I had hitherto attended the schools of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>; but my father
                     thought it necessary, for the completion of my education, that I should be made
                     acquainted with other customs than those of my native country. My departure was
                     therefore fixed at an early date; but, before the day resolved upon could
                     arrive, the first misfortune of my life occurred— an omen, as it were, of my
                     future misery.</p>
                  <pb n="[1.62]" facs="pageImages/vol1/62.jpg"/>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Elizabeth</persName> had caught the scarlet fever; but her illness
                     was not severe, and she quickly recovered. During her confinement, many
                     arguments had been urged to persuade my mother to refrain from attending upon
                     her. She had, at first, yielded to our entreaties; but when she heard that her
                     favourite was recovering, she could no longer debar herself from her society,
                     and entered her chamber long before the danger of infection was past. The
                     consequences of this imprudence were fatal. On the third day my mother
                     sickened; her fever was very malignant, and the looks of her attendants
                     prognosticated the worst event. On her death-bed the fortitude and benignity of
                     this admirable woman did not desert her. She joined the hands of
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> and myself: <said who="#mother">"My
                        children,"</said> she said, <said who="#mother">"my firmest hopes of future
                           <pb n="[1.63]" facs="pageImages/vol1/63.jpg"/> happiness were placed on
                        the prospect of your union. This expectation will now be the consolation of
                        your father. <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, my love, you must supply my
                        place to your younger cousins. Alas! I regret that I am taken from you; and,
                        happy and beloved as I have been, is it not hard to quit you all? But these
                        are not thoughts befitting me; I will endeavour to resign myself cheerfully
                        to death, and will indulge a hope of meeting you in another
                     world."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>She died calmly; and her countenance expressed affection even in death. I need
                     not describe the feelings of those whose dearest ties are rent by that most
                     irreparable evil, the void that presents itself to the soul, and the despair
                     that is exhibited on the countenance. It is so long before the mind can
                     persuade itself that she, whom we saw every day, and whose very existence <pb n="[1.64]" facs="pageImages/vol1/64.jpg"/> appeared a part of our own, can
                     have departed for ever—that the brightness of a beloved eye can have been
                     extinguished, and the sound of a voice so familiar, and dear to the ear, can be
                     hushed, never more to be heard. These are the reflections of the first days;
                     but when the lapse of time proves the reality of the evil, then the actual
                     bitterness of grief commences. Yet from whom has not that rude hand rent away
                     some dear connexion; and why should I describe a sorrow which all have felt,
                     and must feel? The time at length arrives, when grief is rather an indulgence
                     than a necessity; and the smile that plays upon the lips, although it may be
                     deemed a sacrilege, is not banished. My mother was dead, but we had still
                     duties which we ought to perform; we must continue our course with the rest,
                     and learn to think <pb n="[1.65]" facs="pageImages/vol1/65.jpg"/> ourselves
                     fortunate, whilst one remains whom the spoiler has not seized.</p>
                  <p>My journey to <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>, which
                     had been deferred by these events, was now again determined upon. I obtained
                     from my father a respite of some weeks. This period was spent sadly; my
                     mother's death, and my speedy departure, depressed our spirits; but
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> endeavoured to renew the spirit of
                     cheerfulness in our little society. Since the death of her aunt, her mind had
                     acquired new firmness and vigour. She determined to fulfil her duties with the
                     greatest exactness; and she felt that that most imperious duty, of rendering
                     her uncle and cousins happy, had devolved upon her. She consoled me, amused her
                     uncle, instructed my brothers; and I never beheld her so enchanting as at this
                     time, when she was continually endeavouring to <pb n="[1.66 - page breaks after 'con-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/66.jpg"/>
                     contribute to the happiness of others, entirely forgetful of herself.</p>
                  <p>The day of my departure at length arrived. I had taken leave of all my friends,
                     excepting <persName>Clerval</persName>, who spent the last evening with us. He
                     bitterly lamented that he was unable to accompany me: but his father could not
                     be persuaded to part with him, intending that he should become a partner with
                     him in business, in compliance with his favourite theory, that learning was
                     superfluous in the commerce of ordinary life. <persName>Henry</persName> had a
                     refined mind; he had no desire to be idle, and was well pleased to become his
                     father's partner, but he believed that a man might become a very good trader,
                     and yet possess a cultivated understanding.</p>
                  <p>We sat late, listening to his complaints, and making many little arrangements
                     for the future. The next <pb n="[1.67]" facs="pageImages/vol1/67.jpg"/> morning
                     early I departed. Tears gushed from the eyes of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>;
                     they proceeded partly from sorrow at my departure, and partly because she
                     reflected that the same journey was to have taken place three months before,
                     when a mother's blessing would have accompanied me.</p>
                  <p>I threw myself into the chaise that was to convey me away, and indulged in the
                     most melancholy reflections. I, who had ever been surrounded by amiable
                     companions, continually engaged in endeavouring to bestow mutual pleasure, I
                     was now alone. In the university, whither I was going, I must form my own
                     friends, and be my own protector. My life had hitherto been remarkably secluded
                     and domestic; and this had given me invincible repugnance to new countenances.
                     I loved my brothers, <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>; <pb n="[1.68]" facs="pageImages/vol1/68.jpg"/>
                     these were <ref target="Old_Familiar_Faces_" corresp="Old_Familiar_Faces">
                        <quote>"old familiar faces;"</quote>
                                    </ref>
                     <note xml:id="Old_Familiar_Faces" target="Old_Familiar_Faces_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">This is a direct allusion to Charles Lamb’s
                        (1775-1834) poem, <ref target="https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44519/the-old-familiar-faces">"Old Familiar Faces"</ref>, a poem about Lamb looking back on his life
                        through the lens of nostalgia. Victor uses the allusion at this point in the
                        text because he is retelling his story from a similar place once he leaves
                        his family and friends, will never find them or return to them the same way
                        again. </note> but I believed myself totally unfitted for the company of
                     strangers. Such were my reflections as I commenced my journey; but as I
                     proceeded, my spirits and hopes rose. I ardently desired the acquisition of
                     knowledge. I had often, when at home, thought it hard to remain during my youth
                     cooped up in one place, and had longed to enter the world, and take my station
                     among other human beings. Now my desires were complied with, and it would,
                     indeed, have been folly to repent.</p>
                  <p>I had sufficient leisure for these and many other reflections during my journey
                     to <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>, which was long
                     and fatiguing. At length the high white steeple of the town met my eyes. I
                     alighted, and was conducted to my solitary apartment, to spend the evening as I
                     pleased.</p>
                  <pb n="[1.69]" facs="pageImages/vol1/69.jpg"/>
                  <p>The next morning I delivered my letters of introduction, and paid a visit to
                     some of the principal professors, and among others to <persName>M.
                        Krempe</persName>, professor of natural philosophy. He received me with
                     politeness, and asked me several questions concerning my progress in the
                     different branches of science appertaining to natural philosophy. I mentioned,
                     it is true, with fear and trembling, the only authors I had ever read upon
                     those subjects. The professor stared: <said who="#krempe">"Have you,"</said> he
                     said, <said who="#krempe">"really spent your time in studying such
                        nonsense?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I replied in the affirmative. <said who="#krempe">"Every minute,"</said>
                     continued <persName>M. Krempe</persName> with warmth, <said who="#krempe">"every instant that you have wasted on those books is utterly and entirely
                        lost. You have burdened your memory with exploded systems, and useless
                        names. Good God! in what <pb n="[1.70]" facs="pageImages/vol1/70.jpg"/>
                        desert land have you lived, where no one was kind enough to inform you that
                        these fancies, which you have so greedily imbibed, are a thousand years old,
                        and as musty as they are ancient? I little expected in this enlightened and
                        scientific age to find a disciple of <persName type="lcnaf" key="n81007973">Albertus Magnus</persName> and <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80120959">Paracelsus</persName>. My dear Sir, you must begin your studies entirely
                        anew."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>So saying, he stepped aside, and wrote down a list of several books treating of
                     natural philosophy, which he desired me to procure, and dismissed me, after
                     mentioning that in the beginning of the following week he intended to commence
                     a course of lectures upon natural philosophy in its general relations, and that
                        <persName>M. Waldman</persName>, a fellow-professor, would lecture upon
                     chemistry the alternate days that he missed.</p>
                  <p>I returned home, not disappointed, <pb n="[1.71]" facs="pageImages/vol1/71.jpg"/> for I had long considered those authors useless whom the professor had so
                     strongly reprobated; but I did not feel much inclined to study the books which
                     I had procured at his recommendation. <persName>M. Krempe</persName> was a
                     little squat man, with a gruff voice and repulsive countenance; the teacher,
                     therefore, did not prepossess me in favour of his doctrine. Besides, I had a
                     contempt for the uses of modern natural philosophy. It was very different, when
                     the masters of the science sought immortality and power; such views, although
                     futile, were grand: but now the scene was changed. The ambition of the inquirer
                     seemed to limit itself to the annihilation of those visions on which my
                     interest in science was chiefly founded. I was required to exchange chimeras of
                     boundless grandeur for realities of little worth.</p>
                  <p>Such were my reflections during the <pb n="[1.72]" facs="pageImages/vol1/72.jpg"/> first two or three days spent almost in
                     solitude. But as the ensuing week commenced, I thought of the information which
                        <persName>M. Krempe</persName> had given me concerning the lectures. And
                     although I could not consent to go and hear that little conceited fellow
                     deliver sentences out of a pulpit, I recollected what he had said of
                        <persName>M. Waldman</persName>, whom I had never seen, as he had hitherto
                     been out of town.</p>
                  <p>Partly from curiosity, and partly from idleness, I went into the lecturing
                     room, which <persName>M. Waldman</persName> entered shortly after. <ref target="Sir_Humphrey_Davy_" corresp="Sir_Humphrey_Davy"> This professor</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Sir_Humphrey_Davy" target="Sir_Humphrey_Davy_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                        <graphic url="notes/mid_00048580_001.jpg" source="http://www.britishmuseum.org/collectionimages/AN00048/AN00048580_001_l.jpg" alt="An early 19th century colored satirical engraving by James Gillray depicting Davys and contemporaries experimenting with nitrous oxide." desc="Scientific Researches!                            New Discoveries in Pneumaticks! An Experimental Lecture on the Powers of                            Air (1802), by James Gillray, via the British Museum"/> Sir Humphrey Davy (1778-1829) was a Cornish scientist as well as poet,
                        and according to Richard Holmes’ <ref target="http://clinchem.aaccjnls.org/content/57/11/1625">"Humphrey Davy
                           and the Chemical Moment,"</ref> is best known today for his work on
                        nitrous oxide (which he coined "<ref target="https://publicdomainreview.org/collections/the-nitrous-oxide-experiments-of-humphry-davy/">laughing gas</ref>"), his use of the Voltaic battery to resolve new
                        elements, sodium and potassium; his innovations in agricultural chemistry
                        and animal tanning; his invention of the arc light; and above all for his
                        design of the miner's safety lamp. He was the <ref target="http://www.bbc.co.uk/history/historic_figures/davy_humphrey.shtml">first Englishman</ref> knighted for service to science since Sir Issac
                        Newton and the first professional chemist to be elected President of the
                        Royal Society of London. Mary Shelley was intimately aware of Sir Humphrey
                        Davy, as he knew Coleridge, Wordsworth, and her father William Godwin.
                        Explore more of her background with these iconic figures in the NIH’s
                        History of Medicine Exhibit, <ref target="https://www.nlm.nih.gov/frankenstein/exhibition2.html">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein: Penetrating the Secrets of
                           Nature</hi>
                                        </ref>. Percy Shelley, Mary’s husband, was also interested in
                        the work of Sir Humphrey Davy. In school he was a <ref target="http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/ockhamsrazor/mary-shelleys-frankenstein-and-the-birth-of-modern-science/6014790">political and religious radical</ref>, having been expelled from Oxford
                        for supposedly writing a pamphlet <ref target="http://www.oxfordtoday.ox.ac.uk/news/2015-11-11-long-lost-shelley-poem-written-while-he-was-oxford-revealed-bodleian">denouncing the existence of God</ref>, he turned himself to Davy’s work.
                        The Shelleys were seduced by the study of galvanism, a branch of natural
                        philosophy discovered by <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Luigi-Galvani">Luigi
                           Galvani</ref> (1737-1798) who investigated the effect of electricity on
                        animal limbs. Sir Humphrey Davy corroborated the discovery and supported the
                        theory in a speech given to the Royal Society of London. Davy’s influence
                        can be found in all of the science of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>;
                        however, he is most obviously the inspiration for M. Waldman, Victor’s
                        mentor. Many of M. Waldman’s scientific ideas are very similar to Davy’s,
                        and Shelley frequently alludes to his 1802 <hi rend="italic">Discourse
                           Introductory to a Course of Lectures on Chemistry (1802; <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=xAtQAAAAcAAJ">collected in
                              this accessible 1839 edition</ref>)</hi>. <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> is filled with allusions to Davy’s works. To read more
                        about Davy and his influence on the Shelleys, see Sharon Ruston’s literary
                        critique, <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=J1J9DAAAQBAJ">Shelley and
                              Vitality</ref>
                                        </hi>, the Smithsonian Institute’s exhibition <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="https://library.si.edu/exhibition/fantastic-worlds/body-electric">The Body Electric: Inspiring Frankenstein</ref>
                                        </hi>, and Theodore
                        Ziolkowski’s article "<ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/27543797">Science, Frankenstein, and Myth</ref>." To explore more of Davy’s work,
                        see his 1812 <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="https://archive.org/details/ElementschemicaVol1Davy">Elements
                              of Chemical Philosophy</ref>
                                        </hi>, via the Internet Archive. The image
                        above, from <ref target="http://www.britishmuseum.org/research/collection_online/search.aspx">the British Museum</ref>, shows <hi rend="italic">Scientific Researches!
                           New Discoveries in Pneumaticks! An Experimental Lecture on the Powers of
                           Air</hi> (1802) a satirical etching by James Gillray depicting Davy and
                        colleagues experimenting with nitrous oxide. </note> was very unlike his
                     colleague. He appeared about fifty years of age, but with an aspect expressive
                     of the greatest benevolence; a few grey hairs covered his temples, but those at
                     the back of his head were nearly black. His person was short, but remarkably
                     erect; and his <pb n="[1.73]" facs="pageImages/vol1/73.jpg"/> voice the
                     sweetest I had ever heard. He began his lecture by a recapitulation of the
                     history of chemistry, and the various improvements made by different men of
                     learning, pronouncing with fervour the names of the most distinguished
                     discoverers. He then took a cursory view of the present state of the science,
                     and explained many of its elementary terms. After having made a few preparatory
                     experiments, he concluded with a panegyric upon modern chemistry, the terms of
                     which I shall never forget:—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#waldman">
                        <ref target="Lectures_in_Chemistry_" corresp="Lectures_in_Chemistry"> "The
                           ancient teachers of this science,"</ref>
                     </said>
                     <note xml:id="Lectures_in_Chemistry" target="Lectures_in_Chemistry_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">Shelley references Humphry Davy and
                        his <hi rend="italic"> Discourse Introductory to a Course of Lectures in
                           Chemistry</hi> (1802). Here, both Victor and Davy are gesturing toward
                        the history of the development of the sciences by way of alchemy and
                        discussing the height to which science and discovery have come in the early
                        nineteenth century. Both suggest that while the views of the "ancient
                        teachers" of alchemy are now seen as unscientific, modern study began there:
                        "[The alchemists’] views of things have passed away, and a new science has
                        gradually arisen. The dim and uncertain twilight of discovery, which gave to
                        objects false or indefinite appearances, has been succeeded by the steady
                        light of truth, which has shown the external world in its distinct forms,
                        and in its true relations to human powers. The composition of the
                        atmosphere, and the properties of the gases, have been ascertained; the
                        phenomena of electricity have been developed; the lightnings have been taken
                        from the clouds; and, lastly, a new influence has been discovered, which has
                        enabled man to produce from combinations of dead matter effects which were
                        formerly occasioned only by animal organs" (<ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=xAtQAAAAcAAJ">Davy, "Discourse"
                           321</ref>). Note the reference at the end of this passage to
                        galvanism.</note> said he, <said who="#waldman">"promised impossibilities,
                        and performed nothing. The modern masters promise very little; they know
                        that metals cannot be transmuted, and that the elixir of life is a chimera.
                        But these philosophers, whose hands seem only made to dabble <pb n="[1.74]" facs="pageImages/vol1/74.jpg"/> in dirt,<ref target="the_Microscope_" corresp="the_Microscope"> and their eyes to pore over the microscope or
                           crucible, have indeed performed miracles.</ref>
                        <note xml:id="the_Microscope" target="the_Microscope_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                                            <graphic url="notes/6a00d8341c464853ef01a511e97e44970c.jpg" source="https://blogs.bl.uk/collectioncare/2014/07/roberthooke.html" alt="An engraving of a highly magnified flea from Robert Hooke's Micrographia." desc="Engraved illustration of a highly magnified flea, from Robert Hooke's Micrographia (1665)."/> While the idea of lenses and magnification dates far back in time, the
                           earliest known examples of compound microscopes appeared in Europe around
                           1620, as explained in David Bardell’s article “<ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/4608700">The Invention of the
                              Microscope</ref>." The inventor of the microscope is unknown, yet many
                           have claimed it--including Galileo. However, it wasn’t until <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Robert-Hooke">Robert
                              Hooke</ref> (1635-1703) published <ref target="https://archive.org/details/mobot31753000817897">
                                                <hi rend="italic">Micrographia</hi>
                                            </ref> (1665) that the use of the
                           microscope became accepted and adopted by the scientific community. Hooke
                           held titles such as scientist, astronomer, philosopher, architect and
                           inventor, and was a polymath. In his book, Hooke describes in minute
                           detail the visions of insects, leaves, and other objects, accompanying
                           many of his descriptions with richly detailed illustrations. is work has
                           contributed to cell theories and even helped create the discipline of
                           paleontology.</note>
                        <ref target="Penetrative_" corresp="Penetrative"> They penetrate into the
                           recesses of nature</ref>
                        <note xml:id="Penetrative" target="Penetrative_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">In his <hi rend="italic">Discourse Introductory to
                              a Course of Lectures on Chemistry</hi> (1802), Humphry Davy describes
                           the "penetrative" agency of the masculine scientist-explorer in virtually
                           identical terms. Davy’s writes, "Not contented with what is found upon
                           the surface of the earth, he has penetrated into her bosom, and has even
                           searched the bottom of the ocean for the purpose of allaying the
                           restlessness of his desires, or of extending and increasing his power."
                           Davy, going on to state that "[h]e [the modern chemist] is to a certain
                           extent the ruler of all the elements around him," emphasizes the almost
                           unlimited power and omnipotent will of the scientist: "he is capable of
                           using not only common matter according to his will and inclinations, but
                           likewise of subjecting to his purposes the ethereal principles of heat
                           and light. By his inventions they are elicited from the atmosphere; and
                           under his control they become, according to circumstances, instruments of
                           comfort and enjoyment, or of terror and destruction" (<ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=xAtQAAAAcAAJ">Davy,
                              "Discourses" 318</ref>).</note>, and shew how she works in her hiding
                        places. They ascend into the heavens; <ref target="Circulation_of_the_Blood_" corresp="Circulation_of_the_Blood">they have discovered how the blood circulates</ref>
                        <note xml:id="Circulation_of_the_Blood" target="Circulation_of_the_Blood_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">
                                            <graphic url="notes/harvey.jpg" source="https://libraries.indiana.edu/lilly-library/anatomia-animata" alt="A page from William Harvey's Motu Cordis et Sanguinis illustrating the circulation of blood." desc="An engraved illustration from William Harvey's Motu Cordis et Sanguinis illustrating the circulation of the blood, via the Lilly Library."/> The circulation of the blood in the body was first demonstrated by
                           William Harvey (1578-1657) in the early 17th century, though his seminal
                           work on the subject, <hi rend="italic">Exercitatio Anatomica de Motu
                              Cordis et Sanguinis in Animalibus</hi>, was not published (in Latin)
                           until 1628; the first English translation appeared later. Harvey's theory
                           derived from the science of the Ancient Greek physician Galen, but he
                           used direct observation and experimentation--like vivisection--to
                           illustrate and explore his ideas. For more information, see <ref target="https://archive.org/details/WilliamHarveycirculationoftheblood4-wellcome">
                                                <hi rend="italic">William Harvey and the Circulation of the
                                 Blood</hi>
                                            </ref>, an informational video produced by the Royal
                           College of Physicians (1971-72). For more information about anatomy
                           during the 16th and 17th centuries, see <ref target="http://www.indiana.edu/%7Eliblilly/anatomia/index.html">
                                                <hi rend="italic">Anatomia Animata</hi>, a digital exhibit of works in
                              the Lilly Library of Indiana University</ref>. The image to the right,
                           via the Lilly Library exhibit, shows a page from Harvey's <hi rend="italic">De Motu Cordis</hi>. </note>, and the nature of the air
                        we breathe. <ref target="unlimited_powers_" corresp="unlimited_powers"> They
                           have acquired new and almost unlimited powers</ref>
                        <note xml:id="unlimited_powers" target="unlimited_powers_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">This language of “unlimited powers" refers an idea
                           perhaps best expressed in a <ref target="https://founders.archives.gov/documents/Franklin/01-31-02-0325">letter</ref> from <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Benjamin-Franklin">Benjamin Franklin</ref> to Joseph Priestley in 1780. Franklin writes,
                           “It is impossible to imagine the height to which may be carried in a
                           thousand years, the power of man over matter. We may perhaps learn to
                           deprive large masses of their gravity, and give them absolute levity, for
                           the sake of easy transport." This sentiment is reiterated in both
                           Godwin’s <hi rend="italic">Political Justice</hi> and Humphry Davy’s
                              “<ref target="https://play.google.com/books/reader?id=xAtQAAAAcAAJ">Lectures on Chemistry</ref>." During this time science was thought to
                           be a source of unlimited powers. The idea that science was all powerful
                           forms an important context for Shelley’s <hi rend="Italic">Frankenstein</hi>. Mary Shelley would have been very aware of
                           Franklin’s experiments with electricity. Her mother, Mary Wollstonecraft
                           was tutored Dr. Richard Price (a supporter of the American Revolution)
                           and uses the same publisher as Franklin, Joseph Johnson. Her father,
                           William Godwin, was a member of the Royal Society of London, of which
                           Franklin was also a member. For more information on the reach of Ben
                           Franklin’s experiments and his views of science, see <hi rend="italic">
                                                <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=xS9jvWe26OoC">Draw
                                 the Lightning Down: Benjamin Franklin and Electrical Technology in
                                 the Age of Enlightenment</ref>
                                            </hi> by Michael Schiffer.</note> ;
                        they can command the thunders of heaven, mimic the earthquake, and even mock
                        the invisible world with its own shadows."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I departed highly pleased with the professor and his lecture, and paid him a
                     visit the same evening. His manners in private were even more mild and
                     attractive than in public; for there was a certain dignity in his mien during
                     his lecture, which in his own house was replaced by the greatest <pb n="[1.75]" facs="pageImages/vol1/75.jpg"/> affability and kindness. He heard with
                     attention my little narration concerning my studies, and smiled at the names of
                        <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Cornelius Agrippa</persName> and
                        <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80120959">Paracelsus</persName>, but without
                     the contempt that <persName>M. Krempe</persName> had exhibited. He said, that
                        <said who="#waldman">"these were men to whose indefatigable zeal modern
                        philosophers were indebted for most of the foundations of their knowledge.
                        They had left to us, as an easier task, to give new names, arrange in
                        connected classifications, the facts which they in a great degree had been
                        the instruments of bringing to light. The labours of men of genius, however
                        erroneously directed, scarcely ever fail in ultimately turning to the solid
                        advantage of mankind."</said> I listened to his statement, which was
                     delivered without any presumption or affectation; and then added, that his
                     lecture had removed my prejudices against modern <pb n="[1.76]" facs="pageImages/vol1/76.jpg"/> chemists; and I, at the same time, requested
                     his advice concerning the books I ought to procure.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#waldman">"I am happy,"</said> said <persName>M. Waldman</persName>,
                        <said who="#waldman">"to have gained a disciple; and if your application
                        equals your ability, I have no doubt of your success. Chemistry is that
                        branch of natural philosophy in which the greatest improvements have been
                        and may be made; it is on that account that I have made it my peculiar
                        study; but at the same time I have not neglected the other branches of
                        science. A man would make but a very sorry chemist, if he attended to that
                        department of human knowledge alone. If your wish is to become really a man
                        of science, and not merely a petty experimentalist, I should advise you to
                        apply to every branch of natural philosophy, including
                     mathematics."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[1.77]" facs="pageImages/vol1/77.jpg"/>
                  <p>He then took me into his laboratory, and explained to me the uses of his
                     various machines; instructing me as to what I ought to procure, and promising
                     me the use of his own, when I should have advanced far enough in the science
                     not to derange their mechanism. He also gave me the list of books which I had
                     requested; and I took my leave.</p>
                  <p>Thus ended a day memorable to me; it decided my future destiny.</p>
                            </said>







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            <div n="1.3" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[1.78]" facs="pageImages/vol1/78.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter III</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>FROM this day natural philosophy, and particularly chemistry,
                     in the most comprehensive sense of the term, became nearly my sole occupation.
                     I read with ardour those works, so full of genius and discrimination, which
                     modern inquirers have written on these subjects. I attended the lectures, and
                     cultivated the acquaintance, of the men of science of the university; and I
                     found even in <persName>M. Krempe</persName> a great deal of sound sense and
                     real information, combined, it is true, with a repulsive physiognomy and
                     manners, but not on that account the less valuable. In <persName>M.
                        Waldman</persName> I found <pb n="[1.79]" facs="pageImages/vol1/79.jpg"/> a
                     true friend. His gentleness was never tinged by dogmatism; and his instructions
                     were given with an air of frankness and good nature that banished every idea of
                     pedantry. It was, perhaps, the amiable character of this man that inclined me
                     more to that branch of natural philosophy which he professed, than an intrinsic
                     love for the science itself. But this state of mind had place only in the first
                     steps towards knowledge: the more fully I entered into the science, the more
                     exclusively I pursued it for its own sake. That application, which at first had
                     been a matter of duty and resolution, now became so ardent and eager, that the
                     stars often disappeared in the light of morning whilst I was yet engaged in my
                     laboratory.</p>
                  <p>As I applied so closely, it may be easily conceived that I improved <pb n="[1.80 - page breaks after 'ra-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/80.jpg"/>
                     rapidly. My ardour was indeed the astonishment of the students; and my
                     proficiency, that of the masters. Professor <persName>Krempe</persName> often
                     asked me, with a sly smile, how <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Cornelius Agrippa</persName> went on? whilst <persName>M.
                        Waldman</persName> expressed the most heartfelt exultation in my progress.
                     Two years passed in this manner, during which I paid no visit to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, but was engaged, heart and
                     soul, in the pursuit of some discoveries, which I hoped to make. None but those
                     who have experienced them can conceive of the enticements of science. In other
                     studies you go as far as others have gone before you, and there is nothing more
                     to know; but in a scientific pursuit there is continual food for discovery and
                     wonder. A mind of moderate capacity, which closely pursues one study, must
                     infallibly arrive at great proficiency in that study; and I, who <pb n="[1.81 - page breaks after 'con-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/81.jpg"/>
                     continually sought the attainment of one object of pursuit, and was solely
                     wrapped up in this, improved so rapidly, that, at the end of two years, I made
                     some discoveries in the improvement of some chemical instruments, which
                     procured me great esteem and admiration at the university. When I had arrived
                     at this point, and had become as well acquainted with the theory and practice
                     of natural philosophy as depended on the lessons of any of the professors at
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>, my residence
                     there being no longer conducive to my improvements, I thought of returning to
                     my friends and my native town, when an incident happened that protracted my
                     stay.</p>
                  <p>One of the phænomena which had peculiarly attracted my attention was the
                     structure of the human frame, and, indeed, any animal endued with life. Whence,
                     I often asked myself, did the <pb n="[1.82]" facs="pageImages/vol1/82.jpg"/>
                     principle of life proceed? It was a bold question, and one which has ever been
                     considered as a mystery; yet with how many things are we upon the brink of
                     becoming acquainted, if cowardice or carelessness did not restrain our
                     inquiries. I revolved these circumstances in my mind, and determined
                     thenceforth to apply myself more particularly to those branches of natural
                     philosophy which relate to physiology. Unless I had been animated by an almost
                     supernatural enthusiasm, my application to this study would have been irksome,
                     and almost intolerable. To examine the causes of life, we must first have
                     recourse to death. I became acquainted with the science of anatomy: but this
                     was not sufficient; I must also observe the natural decay and corruption of the
                     human body. In my education my father had taken the <pb n="[1.83]" facs="pageImages/vol1/83.jpg"/> greatest precautions that my mind should be
                     impressed with no supernatural horrors. I do not ever remember to have trembled
                     at a tale of superstition, or to have feared the apparition of a spirit.
                     Darkness had no effect upon my fancy; and a churchyard was to me merely the
                     receptacle of bodies deprived of life, which, from being the seat of beauty and
                     strength, had become food for the worm. Now I was led to examine the cause and
                     progress of this decay, and forced to spend days and nights in vaults and
                     charnel houses. My attention was fixed upon every object the most insupportable
                     to the delicacy of the human feelings. I saw how the fine form of man was
                     degraded and wasted; I beheld the corruption of death succeed to the blooming
                     cheek of life; I saw how the worm inherited the wonders of the eye and brain. I
                        <pb n="[1.84]" facs="pageImages/vol1/84.jpg"/> paused, examining and
                     analysing all the minutiae of causation, as exemplified in the change from life
                     to death, and death to life, until from the midst of this darkness a sudden
                     light broke in upon me—a light so brilliant and wondrous, yet so simple, that
                     while I became dizzy with the immensity of the prospect which it illustrated, I
                     was surprised that among so many men of genius, who had directed their
                     inquiries towards the same science, that I alone should be reserved to discover
                     so astonishing a secret.</p>
                  <p>Remember, I am not recording the vision of a madman. The sun does not more
                     certainly shine in the heavens, than that which I now affirm is true. Some
                     miracle might have produced it, yet the stages of the discovery were distinct
                     and probable. After days and nights of incredible labour and fatigue, <pb n="[1.85]" facs="pageImages/vol1/85.jpg"/> I succeeded in discovering the
                     cause of generation and life; nay, more, I became myself capable of bestowing
                     animation upon lifeless matter.</p>
                  <p>The astonishment which I had at first experienced on this discovery soon gave
                     place to delight and rapture. After so much time spent in painful labour, to
                     arrive at once at the summit of my desires, was the most gratifying
                     consummation of my toils. But this discovery was so great and overwhelming,
                     that all the steps by which I had been progressively led to it were
                     obliterated, and I beheld only the result. What had been the study and desire
                     of the wisest men since the creation of the world, was now within my grasp. Not
                     that, like a magic scene, it all opened upon me at once: the information I had
                     obtained was of a nature rather to direct my endeavours so soon as I should
                     point them towards <pb n="[1.86]" facs="pageImages/vol1/86.jpg"/> the object of
                     my search, than to exhibit that object already accomplished. I was like the
                     Arabian who had been buried with the dead, and found a passage to life aided
                     only by one glimmering, and seemingly ineffectual, light.</p>
                  <p>I see by your eagerness, and the wonder and hope which your eyes express, my
                     friend, that you expect to be informed of the secret with which I am
                     acquainted; that cannot be: listen patiently until the end of my story, and you
                     will easily perceive why I am reserved upon that subject. I will not lead you
                     on, unguarded and ardent as I then was, to your destruction and infallible
                     misery. Learn from me, if not by my precepts, at least by my example, how
                     dangerous is the acquirement of knowledge, and how much happier that man is who
                     believes his <pb n="[1.87]" facs="pageImages/vol1/87.jpg"/> native town to be
                     the world, than he who aspires to become greater than his nature will
                     allow.</p>
                  <p>When I found so astonishing a power placed within my hands, I hesitated a long
                     time concerning the manner in which I should employ it. Although I possessed
                     the capacity of bestowing animation, yet to prepare a frame for the reception
                     of it, with all its intricacies of fibres, muscles, and veins, still remained a
                     work of inconceivable difficulty and labour. I doubted at first whether I
                     should attempt the creation of a being like myself or one of simpler
                     organization; but my imagination was too much exalted by my first success to
                     permit me to doubt of my ability to give life to an animal as complex and
                     wonderful as man. The materials at present within my command hardly appeared
                     adequate to so arduous an <pb n="[1.88]" facs="pageImages/vol1/88.jpg"/>
                     undertaking; but I doubted not that I should ultimately succeed. I prepared
                     myself for a multitude of reverses; my operations might be incessantly baffled,
                     and at last my work be imperfect: yet, when I considered the improvement which
                     every day takes place in science and mechanics, I was encouraged to hope my
                     present attempts would at least lay the foundations of future success. Nor
                     could I consider the magnitude and complexity of my plan as any argument of its
                     impracticability. It was with these feelings that I began the creation of a
                     human being. As the minuteness of the parts formed a great hindrance to my
                     speed, I resolved, contrary to my first intention, to make the being of a
                     gigantic stature; that is to say, about eight feet in height, and
                     proportionably large. After having formed this <pb n="[1.89 - page breaks after 'de-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/89.jpg"/>
                     determination, and having spent some months in successfully collecting and
                     arranging my materials, I began.</p>
                  <p>No one can conceive the variety of feelings which bore me onwards, like a
                     hurricane, in the first enthusiasm of success. Life and death appeared to me
                     ideal bounds, which I should first break through, and pour a torrent of light
                     into our dark world. A new species would bless me as its creator and source;
                     many happy and excellent natures would owe their being to me. No father could
                     claim the gratitude of his child so completely as I should deserve their's.
                     Pursuing these reflections, I thought, that if I could bestow animation upon
                     lifeless matter, I might in process of time (although I now found it
                     impossible) renew life where death had apparently devoted the body to
                     corruption.</p>
                  <pb n="[1.90]" facs="pageImages/vol1/90.jpg"/>
                  <p>These thoughts supported my spirits, while I pursued my undertaking with
                     unremitting ardour. My cheek had grown pale with study, and my person had
                     become emaciated with confinement. Sometimes, on the very brink of certainty, I
                     failed; yet still I clung to the hope which the next day or the next hour might
                     realise. One secret which I alone possessed was the hope to which I had
                     dedicated myself; and the moon gazed on my midnight labours, while, with
                     unrelaxed and breathless eagerness, I pursued nature to her hiding-places. Who
                     shall conceive the horrors of my secret toil, as I dabbled among the unhallowed
                     damps of the grave, or tortured the living animal to animate the lifeless clay?
                     My limbs now tremble, and my eyes swim with the remembrance; but then a
                     resistless, and almost frantic impulse, urged me forward; I seemed to <pb n="[1.91]" facs="pageImages/vol1/91.jpg"/> have lost all soul or sensation
                     but for this one pursuit. It was indeed but a passing trance, that only made me
                     feel with renewed acuteness so soon as, the unnatural stimulus ceasing to
                     operate, I had returned to my old habits. I collected bones from charnel
                     houses; and disturbed, with profane fingers, the tremendous secrets of the
                     human frame. In a solitary chamber, or rather cell, at the top of the house,
                     and separated from all the other apartments by a gallery and staircase, I kept
                     my workshop of filthy creation; my eyeballs were starting from their sockets in
                     attending to the details of my employment. The dissecting room and the
                     slaughter-house furnished many of my materials; and often did my human nature
                     turn with loathing from my occupation, whilst, still urged on by an eagerness
                     which perpetually increased, <pb n="[1.92]" facs="pageImages/vol1/92.jpg"/> I
                     brought my work near to a conclusion.</p>
                  <p>The summer months passed while I was thus engaged, heart and soul, in one
                     pursuit. It was a most beautiful season; never did the fields bestow a more
                     plentiful harvest, or the vines yield a more luxuriant vintage: but my eyes
                     were insensible to the charms of nature. And the same feelings which made me
                     neglect the scenes around me caused me also to forget those friends who were so
                     many miles absent, and whom I had not seen for so long a time. I knew my
                     silence disquieted them; and I well remembered the words of my father: <said who="#father">"I know that while you are pleased with yourself, you will
                        think of us with affection, and we shall hear regularly from you. You must
                        pardon me, if I regard any interruption in your correspondence as a proof
                           <pb n="[1.93]" facs="pageImages/vol1/93.jpg"/> that your other duties are
                        equally neglected."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I knew well therefore what would be my father's feelings; but I could not tear
                     my thoughts from my employment, loathsome in itself, but which had taken an
                     irresistible hold of my imagination. I wished, as it were, to procrastinate all
                     that related to my feelings of affection until the great object, which
                     swallowed up every habit of my nature, should be completed.</p>
                  <p>I then thought that my father would be unjust if he ascribed my neglect to
                     vice, or faultiness on my part; but I am now convinced that he was justified in
                     conceiving that I should not be altogether free from blame. A human being in
                     perfection ought always to preserve a calm and peaceful mind, and never to
                     allow passion or a transitory desire to disturb his tranquillity. <pb n="[1.94]" facs="pageImages/vol1/94.jpg"/> I do not think that the pursuit
                     of knowledge is an exception to this rule. If the study to which you apply
                     yourself has a tendency to weaken your affections, and to destroy your taste
                     for those simple pleasures in which no alloy can possibly mix, then that study
                     is certainly unlawful, that is to say, not befitting the human mind. If this
                     rule were always observed; if no man allowed any pursuit whatsoever to
                     interfere with the tranquillity of his domestic affections, <placeName type="tgn" key="1000074">Greece</placeName> had not been enslaved; <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79021400">Caesar</persName> would have spared his
                     country; <placeName type="tgn" key="8698314">America</placeName> would have
                     been discovered more gradually; and the empires of <placeName type="tgn" key="7005560">Mexico</placeName> and <placeName type="tgn" key="1000056">Peru</placeName> had not been destroyed.</p>
                  <p>But I forget that I am moralizing in the most interesting part of my tale; and
                     your looks remind me to proceed.</p>
                  <p>My father made no reproach in his <pb n="[1.95]" facs="pageImages/vol1/95.jpg"/> letters; and only took notice of my silence by inquiring into my occupations
                     more particularly than before. Winter, spring, and summer passed away during my
                     labours; but I did not watch the blossom or the expanding leaves—sights which
                     before always yielded me supreme delight, so deeply was I engrossed in my
                     occupation. The leaves of that year had withered before my work drew near to a
                     close; and now every day shewed me more plainly how well I had succeeded. But
                     my enthusiasm was checked by my anxiety, and I appeared rather like one doomed
                     by slavery to toil in the mines, or any other unwholesome trade, than an artist
                     occupied by his favourite employment. Every night I was oppressed by a slow
                     fever, and I became nervous to a most painful degree; a disease that I
                     regretted the more because I had hitherto <pb n="[1.96 - page breaks after 'en-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/96.jpg"/> enjoyed
                     most excellent health, and had always boasted of the firmness of my nerves. But
                     I believed that exercise and amusement would soon drive away such symptoms; and
                     I promised myself both of these, when my creation should be
                  complete.</p>
                            </said>


            </div>






            <div n="1.4" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[1.97]" facs="pageImages/vol1/97.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter IV</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>IT was on a dreary night of <date>November</date>, that I
                     beheld the accomplishment of my toils. With an anxiety that almost amounted to
                     agony, I collected the instruments of life around me, that I might infuse a
                     spark of being into the lifeless thing that lay at my feet. It was already one
                     in the morning; the rain pattered dismally against the panes, and my candle was
                     nearly burnt out, when, by the glimmer of the half-extinguished light, I saw
                     the dull yellow eye of the creature open; it breathed <pb n="[1.98]" facs="pageImages/vol1/98.jpg"/> hard, and a convulsive motion agitated its
                     limbs.</p>
                  <p>How can I describe my emotions at this catastrophe, or how delineate the wretch
                     whom with such infinite pains and care I had endeavoured to form? His limbs
                     were in proportion, and I had selected his features as beautiful.
                     Beautiful!—Great God! His yellow skin scarcely covered the work of muscles and
                     arteries beneath; his hair was of a lustrous black, and flowing; his teeth of a
                     pearly whiteness; but these luxuriances only formed a more horrid contrast with
                     his watery eyes, that seemed almost of the same colour as the dun white sockets
                     in which they were set, his shrivelled complexion, and straight black lips.</p>
                  <p>The different accidents of life are not so changeable as the feelings of human
                     nature. I had worked hard for <pb n="[1.99]" facs="pageImages/vol1/99.jpg"/>
                     nearly two years, for the sole purpose of infusing life into an inanimate body.
                     For this I had deprived myself of rest and health. I had desired it with an
                     ardour that far exceeded moderation; but now that I had finished, the beauty of
                     the dream vanished, and breathless horror and disgust filled my heart. Unable
                     to endure the aspect of the being I had created, I rushed out of the room, and
                     continued a long time traversing my bed-chamber, unable to compose my mind to
                     sleep. At length lassitude succeeded to the tumult I had before endured; and I
                     threw myself on the bed in my clothes, endeavouring to seek a few moments of
                     forgetfulness. But it was in vain: I slept indeed, but I was disturbed by the
                     wildest dreams. I thought I saw <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, in the bloom of
                     health, walking in the streets of <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>. Delighted and surprised, I <pb n="[1.100 - page breaks after 'em-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/100.jpg"/>
                     embraced her; but as I imprinted the first kiss on her lips, they became livid
                     with the hue of death; her features appeared to change, and I thought that I
                     held the corpse of my dead mother in my arms; a shroud enveloped her form, and
                     I saw the grave-worms crawling in the folds of the flannel. I started from my
                     sleep with horror; a cold dew covered my forehead, my teeth chattered, and
                     every limb became convulsed; when, by the dim and yellow light of the moon, as
                     it forced its way through the window-shutters, I beheld the wretch—the
                     miserable monster whom I had created. He held up the curtain of the bed; and
                     his eyes, if eyes they may be called, were fixed on me. His jaws opened, and he
                     muttered some inarticulate sounds, while a grin wrinkled his cheeks. He might
                     have spoken, but I did not hear; one hand was <pb n="[1.101]" facs="pageImages/vol1/101.jpg"/> stretched out, seemingly to detain me, but
                     I escaped, and rushed down stairs. I took refuge in the court-yard belonging to
                     the house which I inhabited; where I remained during the rest of the night,
                     walking up and down in the greatest agitation, listening attentively, catching
                     and fearing each sound as if it were to announce the approach of the demoniacal
                     corpse to which I had so miserably given life.</p>
                  <p>Oh! no mortal could support the horror of that countenance. A mummy again
                     endued with animation could not be so hideous as that wretch. I had gazed on
                     him while unfinished; he was ugly then; but when those muscles and joints were
                     rendered capable of motion, it became a thing such as even <persName type="lcnaf" key="n78095495">Dante</persName> could not have conceived.</p>
                  <p>I passed the night wretchedly. Sometimes my pulse beat so quickly and <pb n="[1.102]" facs="pageImages/vol1/102.jpg"/> hardly, that I felt the
                     palpitation of every artery; at others, I nearly sank to the ground through
                     languor and extreme weakness. Mingled with this horror, I felt the bitterness
                     of disappointment: dreams that had been my food and pleasant rest for so long a
                     space, were now become a hell to me; and the change was so rapid, the overthrow
                     so complete!</p>
                  <p>Morning, dismal and wet, at length dawned, and discovered to my sleepless and
                     aching eyes the church of <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>, its white steeple and clock, which indicated the
                     sixth hour. The porter opened the gates of the court, which had that night been
                     my asylum, and I issued into the streets, pacing them with quick steps, as if I
                     sought to avoid the wretch whom I feared every turning of the street would
                     present to my view. I did not dare return to the apartment which I inhabited,
                     but felt <pb n="[1.103]" facs="pageImages/vol1/103.jpg"/> impelled to hurry on,
                     although wetted by the rain, which poured from a black and comfortless sky.</p>
                  <p>I continued walking in this manner for some time, endeavouring, by bodily
                     exercise, to ease the load that weighed upon my mind. I traversed the streets,
                     without any clear conception of where I was, or what I was doing. My heart
                     palpitated in the sickness of fear; and I hurried on with irregular steps, not
                     daring to look about me:</p>
                  <quote>
                     <lg>







                        <l>Like one who, on a lonely road,</l>


                        <l>Doth walk in fear and dread,</l>


                        <l>And, having once turn'd round, walks on,</l>


                        <l>And turns no more his head;</l>


                        <l>Because he knows a frightful fiend</l>


                        <l>Doth close behind him tread.*</l>


                     </lg>
                  </quote>
                  <p>Continuing thus, I came at length opposite to the inn at which the various
                     diligences and carriages usually stopped. <pb n="[1.104]" facs="pageImages/vol1/104.jpg"/> Here I paused, I knew not why; but I
                     remained some minutes with my eyes fixed on a coach that was coming towards me
                     from the other end of the street. As it drew nearer, I observed that it was the
                     Swiss diligence: it stopped just where I was standing; and, on the door being
                     opened, I perceived <persName>Henry Clerval</persName>, who, on seeing me,
                     instantly sprung out. <said who="#clerval">"My dear
                           <persName>Frankenstein</persName>,"</said> exclaimed he, <said who="#clerval">"how glad I am to see you! how fortunate that you should be
                        here at the very moment of my alighting!"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Nothing could equal my delight on seeing <persName>Clerval</persName>; his
                     presence brought back to my thoughts my father, <persName>Elizabeth</persName>,
                     and all those scenes of home so dear to my recollection. I grasped his hand,
                     and in a moment forgot my horror and misfortune; I felt suddenly, and for the
                     first time during many months, <pb n="[1.105]" facs="pageImages/vol1/105.jpg"/>
                     calm and serene joy. I welcomed my friend therefore, in the most cordial
                     manner, and we walked towards my college. <persName>Clerval</persName>
                     continued talking for some time about our mutual friends, and his own good
                     fortune in being permitted to come to <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>. <said who="#clerval">"You may easily
                        believe,"</said> said he, <said>"how great was the difficulty to persuade my
                        father that it was not absolutely necessary for a merchant not to understand
                        any thing except book-keeping; and, indeed, I believe I left him incredulous
                        to the last, for his constant answer to my unwearied entreaties was the same
                        as that of the Dutch school-master in the <title>Vicar of Wakefield</title>:
                           <said who="#clerval">"I have ten thousand florins a year without Greek, I
                           eat heartily without Greek."</said> But his affection for me at length
                        overcame his dislike of learning, and he has permitted me to undertake <pb n="[1.106]" facs="pageImages/vol1/106.jpg"/> a voyage of discovery to the
                        land of knowledge."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"It gives me the greatest delight to see you; but tell me
                        how you left my father, brothers, and
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"Very well, and very happy, only a little uneasy that they
                        hear from you so seldom. By the bye, I mean to lecture you a little upon
                        their account myself.—But, my dear
                        <persName>Frankenstein</persName>,"</said> continued he, stopping short, and
                     gazing full in my face, <said>"I did not before remark how very ill you appear;
                        so thin and pale; you look as if you had been watching for several
                        nights."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"You have guessed right; I have lately been so deeply
                        engaged in one occupation, that I have not allowed myself sufficient rest,
                        as you see: but I hope, I sincerely hope, that all these employments are now
                        at an end, and that I am at length free."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[1.107]" facs="pageImages/vol1/107.jpg"/>
                  <p>I trembled excessively; I could not endure to think of, and far less to allude
                     to the occurrences of the preceding night. I walked with a quick pace, and we
                     soon arrived at my college. I then reflected, and the thought made me shiver,
                     that the creature whom I had left in my apartment might still be there, alive,
                     and walking about. I dreaded to behold this monster; but I feared still more
                     that <persName>Henry</persName> should see him. Entreating him therefore to
                     remain a few minutes at the bottom of the stairs, I darted up towards my own
                     room. My hand was already on the lock of the door before I recollected myself.
                     I then paused; and a cold shivering came over me. I threw the door forcibly
                     open, as children are accustomed to do when they expect a spectre to stand in
                     waiting for them on the other side; but nothing <pb n="[1.108]" facs="pageImages/vol1/108.jpg"/> appeared. I stepped fearfully in: the
                     apartment was empty; and my bed-room was also freed from its hideous guest. I
                     could hardly believe that so great a good-fortune could have befallen me; but
                     when I became assured that my enemy had indeed fled, I clapped my hands for
                     joy, and ran down to <persName>Clerval</persName>.</p>
                  <p>We ascended into my room, and the servant presently brought breakfast; but I
                     was unable to contain myself. It was not joy only that possessed me; I felt my
                     flesh tingle with excess of sensitiveness, and my pulse beat rapidly. I was
                     unable to remain for a single instant in the same place; I jumped over the
                     chairs, clapped my hands, and laughed aloud. <persName>Clerval</persName> at
                     first attributed my unusual spirits to joy on his arrival; but when he observed
                     me more attentively, he saw a wildness in <pb n="[1.109]" facs="pageImages/vol1/109.jpg"/> my eyes for which he could not account; and
                     my loud, unrestrained, heartless laughter, frightened and astonished him.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"My dear <persName>Victor</persName>,"</said> cried he,
                        <said who="#clerval">"what, for God's sake, is the matter? Do not laugh in
                        that manner. How ill you are! What is the cause of all this?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Do not ask me,"</said> cried I, putting my hands before my
                     eyes, for I thought I saw the dreaded spectre glide into the room; <said who="#victor">"he can tell. —Oh, save me! save me!"</said> I imagined that
                     the monster seized me; I struggled furiously, and fell down in a fit.</p>
                  <p>Poor <persName>Clerval</persName>! what must have been his feelings? A meeting,
                     which he anticipated with such joy, so strangely turned to bitterness. But I
                     was not the witness of his grief; for I was lifeless, and did not recover my
                     senses for a long, long time.</p>
                  <pb n="[1.110]" facs="pageImages/vol1/110.jpg"/>
                  <p>This was the commencement of a nervous fever, which confined me for several
                     months. During all that time <persName>Henry</persName> was my only nurse. I
                     afterwards learned that, knowing my father's advanced age, and unfitness for so
                     long a journey, and how wretched my sickness would make
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, he spared them this grief by concealing the
                     extent of my disorder. He knew that I could not have a more kind and attentive
                     nurse than himself; and, firm in the hope he felt of my recovery, he did not
                     doubt that, instead of doing harm, he performed the kindest action that he
                     could towards them.</p>
                  <p>But I was in reality very ill; and surely nothing but the unbounded and
                     unremitting attentions of my friend could have restored me to life. The form of
                     the monster on whom I had bestowed existence was for ever before <pb n="[1.111]" facs="pageImages/vol1/111.jpg"/> my eyes, and I raved
                     incessantly concerning him. Doubtless my words surprised
                        <persName>Henry</persName>: he at first believed them to be the wanderings
                     of my disturbed imagination; but the pertinacity with which I continually
                     recurred to the same subject persuaded him that my disorder indeed owed its
                     origin to some uncommon and terrible event.</p>
                  <p>By very slow degrees, and with frequent relapses that alarmed and grieved my
                     friend, I recovered. I remember the first time I became capable of observing
                     outward objects with any kind of pleasure, I perceived that the fallen leaves
                     had disappeared, and that the young buds were shooting forth from the trees
                     that shaded my window. It was a divine spring; and the season contributed
                     greatly to my convalescence. I felt also sentiments of joy and affection revive
                     in my bosom; my <pb n="[1.112]" facs="pageImages/vol1/112.jpg"/> gloom
                     disappeared, and in a short time I became as cheerful as before I was attacked
                     by the fatal passion.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Dearest <persName>Clerval</persName>,"</said> exclaimed I,
                        <said who="#victor">"how kind, how very good you are to me. This whole
                        winter, instead of being spent in study, as you promised yourself, has been
                        consumed in my sick room. How shall I ever repay you? I feel the greatest
                        remorse for the disappointment of which I have been the occasion; but you
                        will forgive me."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"You will repay me entirely, if you do not discompose
                        yourself, but get well as fast as you can; and since you appear in such good
                        spirits, I may speak to you on one subject, may I not?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I trembled. One subject! what could it be? Could he allude to an object on whom
                     I dared not even think?</p>
                  <pb n="[1.113]" facs="pageImages/vol1/113.jpg"/>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"Compose yourself,"</said> said
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>, who observed my change of colour, <said who="#clerval">"I will not mention it, if it agitates you; but your father
                        and cousin would be very happy if they received a letter from you in your
                        own handwriting. They hardly know how ill you have been, and are uneasy at
                        your long silence."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Is that all? my dear <persName>Henry</persName>. How could
                        you suppose that my first thought would not fly towards those dear, dear
                        friends whom I love, and who are so deserving of my love."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"If this is your present temper, my friend, you will
                        perhaps be glad to see a letter that has been lying here some days for you:
                        it is from your cousin, I believe."</said>
                                </p>
                            </said>


            </div>







            <div n="1.5" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[1.114]" facs="pageImages/vol1/114.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter V</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>
                                    <persName>CLERVAL</persName> then put the following letter
                     into my hands.</p>
                  <floatingText>


                     <body>


                        <!-- question -->


                        <opener>To <persName>V. FRANKENSTEIN </persName>
                           <salute>MY DEAR COUSIN</salute>
                                        </opener>


                        <p>I cannot describe to you the uneasiness we have all felt concerning your
                           health. We cannot help imagining that your friend
                              <persName>Clerval</persName> conceals the extent of your disorder: for
                           it is now several months since we have seen your hand-writing; and all
                           this time you have been obliged to dictate your letters to
                              <persName>Henry</persName>. Surely, <persName>Victor</persName>, you
                           must have <pb n="[1.115]" facs="pageImages/vol1/115.jpg"/> been
                           exceedingly ill; and this makes us all very wretched, as much so nearly
                           as after the death of your dear mother. My uncle was almost persuaded
                           that you were indeed dangerously ill, and could hardly be restrained from
                           undertaking a journey to <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>. <persName>Clerval</persName> always writes
                           that you are getting better; I eagerly hope that you will confirm this
                           intelligence soon in your own hand-writing; for indeed, indeed,
                              <persName>Victor</persName>, we are all very miserable on this
                           account. Relieve us from this fear, and we shall be the happiest
                           creatures in the world. Your father's health is now so vigorous, that he
                           appears ten years younger since last winter. <persName>Ernest</persName>
                           also is so much improved, that you would hardly know him: he is now
                           nearly sixteen, and has lost that sickly appearance which he had some
                           years ago; he is grown quite robust and active.</p>


                        <pb n="[1.116]" facs="pageImages/vol1/116.jpg"/>


                        <p>My uncle and I conversed a long time last night about what profession
                              <persName>Ernest</persName> should follow. His constant illness when
                           young has deprived him of the habits of application; and now that he
                           enjoys good health, he is continually in the open air, climbing the
                           hills, or rowing on the lake. I therefore proposed that he should be a
                           farmer; which you know, Cousin, is a favourite scheme of mine. A farmer's
                           is a very healthy happy life; and the least hurtful, or rather the most
                           beneficial profession of any. My uncle had an idea of his being educated
                           as an advocate, that through his interest he might become a judge. But,
                           besides that he is not at all fitted for such an occupation, it is
                           certainly more creditable to cultivate the earth for the sustenance of
                           man, than to be the confidant, and sometimes the accomplice, of his
                           vices; which is <pb n="[1.117]" facs="pageImages/vol1/117.jpg"/> the
                           profession of a lawyer. I said, that the employments of a prosperous
                           farmer, if they were not a more honourable, they were at least a happier
                           species of occupation than that of a judge, whose misfortune it was
                           always to meddle with the dark side of human nature. My uncle smiled, and
                           said, that I ought to be an advocate myself, which put an end to the
                           conversation on that subject.</p>


                        <p>And now I must tell you a story that will please, and perhaps amuse you.
                           Do you not remember <persName>Justine Moritz</persName>? Probably you do
                           not; I will relate her history, therefore, in a few words. Madame
                              <persName>Moritz</persName>, her mother, was a widow with four
                           children, of whom <persName>Justine</persName> was the third. This girl
                           had always been the favourite of her father; but, through a strange
                           perversity, her mother could not endure <pb n="[1.118]" facs="pageImages/vol1/118.jpg"/> her, and, after the death of M.
                              <persName>Moritz</persName>, treated her very ill. My aunt observed
                           this; and, when <persName>Justine</persName> was twelve years of age,
                           prevailed on her mother to allow her to live at her house. The republican
                           institutions of our country have produced simpler and happier manners
                           than those which prevail in the great monarchies that surround it. Hence
                           there is less distinction between the several classes of its inhabitants;
                           and the lower orders being neither so poor nor so despised, their manners
                           are more refined and moral. A servant in <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> does not mean the same thing as a
                           servant in <placeName type="tgn" key="1000070">France</placeName> and
                              <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>.
                              <persName>Justine</persName>, thus received in our family, learned the
                           duties of a servant; a condition which, in our fortunate country, does
                           not include the idea of ignorance, and a sacrifice of the dignity of a
                           human being.</p>


                        <pb n="[1.119]" facs="pageImages/vol1/119.jpg"/>


                        <p>After what I have said, I dare say you well remember the heroine of my
                           little tale: for <persName>Justine</persName> was a great favourite of
                           your's; and I recollect you once remarked, that if you were in an ill
                           humour, one glance from <persName>Justine</persName> could dissipate it,
                           for the same reason that <ref target="Ariosto_" corresp="Ariosto">
                              <persName type="n79041715" key="n79041715"> Ariosto </persName>
                          </ref> gives concerning the beauty of <persName>Angelica</persName>
                           <note xml:id="Ariosto" target="Ariosto_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                              <graphic url="http://www.britishmuseum.org/collectionimages/AN01270/AN01270858_001_l.jpg"/> Victor references <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Ludovico-Ariosto">Ludovico Ariosto (1474-1533)</ref>, an Italian poet from the 16th
                              century, when talking about Justine’s "frank-hearted and happy"
                              expression. In <hi rend="italic">
                                                    <ref target="https://archive.org/stream/orlandofuriosoin01arioiala?ref=ol#page/n5">Orlando Furioso</ref>
                                                </hi>, the first 10 stanzas of Canto 10
                              describe the cause of female desirability as resistance and flight,
                              using in stanza 7 a classical hunting metaphor to do so: "So the keen
                              hunter follows up the hare / In heat and cold, on shore, or
                              mountain-height; / Nor, when 'tis taken, more esteems the prize; / And
                              only hurries after that which flies" (10.7.5-8). While it is not clear
                              that this is "the reason…[for] the beauty of Angelica," Ita Mac Carthy
                              points out in <ref target="https://books.google.com/books?id=HNKB32q1dJoC">
                                                    <hi rend="italic">Women and the Making of Poetry in Ariosto's
                                    Orlando Furioso</hi>
                                                </ref> (Chapter 3) that Angelica is the
                              "supreme object of [unattainable] desire" who repeatedly flees sexual
                              pursuit and generates the narrative of the poem. Her beauty is
                              described as angelic, and capable of making her suitors--like the
                              titular Orlando--lose their wits. In Ariosto’s epic romance, Angelica
                              is a pagan princess besought by many knights. The image here shows a
                              scene from <hi rend="italic">Orlando Furioso</hi> of a man bending
                              over and holding the hand of a woman, presumably Angelica, who sits on
                              the ground beneath a tree, the trunk inscribed "ANCE MEDO," created by
                              Angelica Kauffman (1740-1807) and hosted by the British museum.
                           </note>—she looked so frank-hearted and happy. My aunt conceived a great
                           attachment for her, by which she was induced to give her an education
                           superior to that which she had at first intended. This benefit was fully
                           repaid; <persName>Justine</persName> was the most grateful little
                           creature in the world: I do not mean that she made any professions, I
                           never heard one pass her lips; but you could see by her eyes that she
                           almost adored her protectress. Although her disposition was gay, and in
                           many respects inconsiderate, yet she paid the <pb n="[1.120]" facs="pageImages/vol1/120.jpg"/> greatest attention to every gesture
                           of my aunt. She thought her the model of all excellence, and endeavoured
                           to imitate her phraseology and manners, so that even now she often
                           reminds me of her.</p>


                        <p>When my dearest aunt died, everyone was too much occupied in their own
                           grief to notice poor <persName>Justine</persName>, who had attended her
                           during her illness with the most anxious affection. Poor
                              <persName>Justine</persName> was very ill; but other trials were
                           reserved for her.</p>


                        <p>One by one, her brothers and sister died; and her mother, with the
                           exception of her neglected daughter, was left childless. The conscience
                           of the woman was troubled; she began to think that the deaths of her
                           favourites was a judgment from heaven to chastise her partiality. She was
                           a Roman Catholic; and I believe her confessor confirmed <pb n="[1.121]" facs="pageImages/vol1/121.jpg"/> the idea which she had conceived.
                           Accordingly, a few months after your departure for <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>, <persName>Justine</persName> was
                           called home by her repentant mother. Poor girl! she wept when she quitted
                           our house: she was much altered since the death of my aunt; grief had
                           given softness and a winning mildness to her manners, which had before
                           been remarkable for vivacity. Nor was her residence at her mother's house
                           of a nature to restore her gaiety. The poor woman was very vacillating in
                           her repentance. She sometimes begged <persName>Justine</persName> to
                           forgive her unkindness, but much oftener accused her of having caused the
                           deaths of her brothers and sister. Perpetual fretting at length threw
                           Madame <persName>Moritz</persName> into a decline, which at first
                           increased her irritability, but she is now at peace forever. She died on
                           the first approach of cold <pb n="[1.122 - page breaks after 'wea']" facs="pageImages/vol1/122.jpg"/> weather, at the beginning of this
                           last winter. <persName>Justine</persName> has returned to us; and I
                           assure you I love her tenderly. She is very clever and gentle, and
                           extremely pretty; as I mentioned before, her mien and her expressions
                           continually remind me of my dear aunt.</p>


                        <p>I must say also a few words to you, my dear cousin, of little darling
                              <persName>William</persName>. I wish you could see him; he is very
                           tall of his age, with sweet laughing blue eyes, dark eye-lashes, and
                           curling hair. When he smiles, two little dimples appear on each cheek,
                           which are rosy with health. He has already had one or two little wives,
                           but <persName>Louisa Biron</persName> is his favourite, a pretty little
                           girl of five years of age.</p>


                        <p>Now, dear <persName>Victor</persName>, I dare say you wish to be indulged
                           in a little gossip concerning the good people of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. The pretty Miss
                              <persName>Mansfield</persName> has already <pb n="[1.123]" facs="pageImages/vol1/123.jpg"/> received the congratulatory visits on
                           her approaching marriage with a young Englishman, <persName>John
                              Melbourne</persName>, Esq. Her ugly sister,
                           <persName>Manon</persName>, married M. <persName>Duvillard</persName>,
                           the rich banker, last autumn. Your favourite schoolfellow,
                              <persName>Louis Manoir</persName>, has suffered several misfortunes
                           since the departure of <persName>Clerval</persName> from Geneva. But he
                           has already recovered his spirits, and is reported to be on the point of
                           marrying a very lively pretty Frenchwoman, Madame
                              <persName>Tavernier</persName>. She is a widow, and much older than
                              <persName>Manoir</persName>; but she is very much admired, and a
                           favourite with every body.</p>


                        <p>I have written myself into good spirits, dear cousin; yet I cannot
                           conclude without again anxiously inquiring concerning your health. Dear
                              <persName>Victor</persName>, if you are not very ill, write yourself,
                           and make your father and all <pb n="[1.124]" facs="pageImages/vol1/124.jpg"/> of us happy; or -- I cannot bear to
                           think of the other side of the question; my tears already flow. Adieu, my
                           dearest cousin.</p>


                        <closer>
                                            <signed>
                                                <persName>ELIZABETH LAVENZA</persName>
                                            </signed>. <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, <date>March 18th,
                              17--</date>.</closer>


                     </body>


                  </floatingText>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Dear, dear <persName>Elizabeth</persName>!"</said> I
                     exclaimed when I had read her letter, <said who="#victor">"I will write
                        instantly, and relieve them from the anxiety they must feel."</said> I
                     wrote, and this exertion greatly fatigued me; but my convalescence had
                     commenced, and proceeded regularly. In another fortnight I was able to leave my
                     chamber.</p>
                  <p>One of my first duties on my recovery was to introduce
                        <persName>Clerval</persName> to the several professors of the university. In
                     doing this, I underwent a kind of rough usage, ill befitting the wounds that my
                     mind had sustained. Ever since the <pb n="[1.125]" facs="pageImages/vol1/125.jpg"/> fatal night, the end of my labours, and the
                     beginning of my misfortunes, I had conceived a violent antipathy even to the
                     name of natural philosophy. When I was otherwise quite restored to health, the
                     sight of a chemical instrument would renew all the agony of my nervous
                     symptoms. <persName>Henry</persName> saw this, and had removed all my apparatus
                     from my view. He had also changed my apartment; for he perceived that I had
                     acquired a dislike for the room which had previously been my laboratory. But
                     these cares of <persName>Clerval</persName> were made of no avail when I
                     visited the professors. M. <persName>Waldman</persName> inflicted torture when
                     he praised, with kindness and warmth, the astonishing progress I had made in
                     the sciences. He soon perceived that I disliked the subject; but, not guessing
                     the real cause, he attributed my feelings to modesty, and <pb n="[1.126]" facs="pageImages/vol1/126.jpg"/> changed the subject from my improvement to
                     the science itself, with a desire, as I evidently saw, of drawing me out. What
                     could I do? He meant to please, and he tormented me. I felt as if he had placed
                     carefully, one by one, in my view those instruments which were to be afterwards
                     used in putting me to a slow and cruel death. I writhed under his words, yet
                     dared not exhibit the pain I felt. <persName>Clerval</persName>, whose eyes and
                     feelings were always quick in discerning the sensations of others, declined the
                     subject, alleging, in excuse, his total ignorance; and the conversation took a
                     more general turn. I thanked my friend from my heart, but I did not speak. I
                     saw plainly that he was surprised, but he never attempted to draw my secret
                     from me; and although I loved him with a mixture of affection and reverence
                     that knew no <pb n="[1.127]" facs="pageImages/vol1/127.jpg"/> bounds, yet I
                     could never persuade myself to confide to him that event which was so often
                     present to my recollection, but which I feared the detail to another would only
                     impress more deeply.</p>
                  <p>M. <persName>Krempe</persName> was not equally docile; and in my condition at
                     that time, of almost insupportable sensitiveness, his harsh blunt encomiums
                     gave me even more pain than the benevolent approbation of M.
                        <persName>Waldman</persName>. <said who="#krempe">"D--n the fellow!"</said>
                     cried he; <said who="#krempe">"why, M. <persName>Clerval</persName>, I assure
                        you he has outstript us all. Aye, stare if you please; but it is
                        nevertheless true. A youngster who, but a few years ago, believed <persName type="lcnaf" key="n80043375">Cornelius Agrippa</persName> as firmly as
                        the gospel, has now set himself at the head of the university; and if he is
                        not soon pulled down, we shall all be out of countenance.—Aye, aye,"</said>
                     continued he, <pb n="[1.128 - page breaks after 'ob-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/128.jpg"/> observing my face expressive of suffering,
                        <said who="#krempe">"M. <persName>Frankenstein</persName> is modest; an
                        excellent quality in a young man. Young men should be diffident of
                        themselves, you know, M. <persName>Clerval</persName>; I was myself when
                        young; but that wears out in a very short time."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>M. <persName>Krempe</persName> had now commenced an eulogy on himself, which
                     happily turned the conversation from a subject that was so annoying to me.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Clerval</persName> was no natural philosopher. His imagination was
                     too vivid for the minutiae of science. Languages were his principal study; and
                     he sought, but acquiring their elements, to open a field for self-instruction
                     on his return to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>.
                     Persian, Arabic, and Hebrew, gained his attention, after he had made himself
                     perfectly master of Greek and Latin. For my own part, idleness had ever been
                     irksome to me, and now that I wished <pb n="[1.129]" facs="pageImages/vol1/129.jpg"/> to fly from reflection, and hated my former
                     studies, I felt great relief in being the fellow-pupil with my friend, and
                     found not only instruction but consolation in the works of the orientalists.
                     Their melancholy is soothing, and their joy elevating to a degree I never
                     experienced in studying the authors of any other country. When you read their
                     writings, life appears to consist in a warm sun and garden of roses, in the
                     smiles and frowns of a fair enemy, and the fire that consumes your own heart.
                     How different from the manly and heroical poetry of <placeName type="tgn" key="1000074">Greece</placeName> and <placeName type="tgn" key="7000874">Rome</placeName>.</p>
                  <p>Summer passed away in these occupations, and my return to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> was fixed for the latter end of autumn; but
                     being delayed by several accidents, winter and snow arrived, the roads were
                     deemed impassable, and my journey was retarded until the ensuing spring. <pb n="[1.130]" facs="pageImages/vol1/130.jpg"/> I felt this delay very
                     bitterly; for I longed to see my native town, and my beloved friends. My return
                     had only been delayed so long from an unwillingness to leave
                        <persName>Clerval</persName> in a strange place, before he had become
                     acquainted with any of its inhabitants. The winter, however, was spent
                     cheerfully; and although the spring was uncommonly late, when it came, its
                     beauty compensated for its dilatoriness.</p>
                  <p>The month of <date>May</date> had already commenced, and I expected the letter
                     daily which was to fix the date of my departure, when
                        <persName>Henry</persName> proposed a pedestrian tour in the environs of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName> that I might bid
                     a personal farewell to the country I had so long inhabited. I acceded with
                     pleasure to this proposition: I was fond of exercise, and
                        <persName>Clerval</persName> had always been my favourite companion in the
                     rambles of this nature that I had <pb n="[1.131]" facs="pageImages/vol1/131.jpg"/> taken among the scenes of my native
                     country.</p>
                  <p>We passed a fortnight in these perambulations; my health and spirits had long
                     been restored, and they gained additional strength from the salubrious air I
                     breathed, the natural incidents of our progress, and the conversation of my
                     friend. Study had before secluded me from the intercourse of my
                     fellow-creatures, and rendered me unsocial; but <persName>Clerval</persName>
                     called forth the better feelings of my heart; he again taught me to love the
                     aspect of nature, and the cheerful faces of children. Excellent friend! how
                     sincerely did you love me, and endeavour to elevate my mind, until it was on a
                     level with your own. A selfish pursuit had cramped and narrowed me, until your
                     gentleness and affection warmed and opened my senses; I became the same happy
                     creature who, <pb n="[1.132]" facs="pageImages/vol1/132.jpg"/> a few years ago,
                     loving and beloved by all, had no sorrow or care. When happy, inanimate nature
                     had the power of bestowing on me the most delightful sensations. A serene sky
                     and verdant fields filled me with ecstasy. The present season was indeed
                     divine; the flowers of spring bloomed in the hedges, while those of summer were
                     already in bud: I was undisturbed by thoughts which during the preceding year
                     had pressed upon me, notwithstanding my endeavours to throw them off, with an
                     invincible burden.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Henry</persName> rejoiced in my gaiety, and sincerely sympathized in
                     my feelings: he exerted himself to amuse me, while he expressed the sensations
                     that filled his soul. The resources of his mind on this occasion were truly
                     astonishing: his conversation was full of imagination; and very often, in
                     imitation <pb n="[1.133]" facs="pageImages/vol1/133.jpg"/> of the Persian and
                     Arabic writers, he invented tales of wonderful fancy and passion. At other
                     times he repeated my favourite poems, or drew me out into arguments, which he
                     supported with great ingenuity.</p>
                  <p>We returned to our college on a Sunday afternoon: the peasants were dancing,
                     and every one we met appeared gay and happy. My own spirits were high, and I
                     bounded along with feelings of unbridled joy and hilarity.</p>
                            </said>


            </div>







            <div n="1.6" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[1.134]" facs="pageImages/vol1/134.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VI</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>ON my return, I found the following letter from my
                     father:—</p>
                  <floatingText>


                     <body>


                        <opener>To <persName>V. FRANKENSTEIN.</persName>
                           <salute>MY DEAR VICTOR,</salute>
                                        </opener>







                        <p>You have probably waited impatiently for a letter to fix the date of your
                           return to us; and I was at first tempted to write only a few lines,
                           merely mentioning the day on which I should expect you. But that would be
                           a cruel kindness, and I dare not do it. What would be your surprise, my
                           son, when <pb n="[1.135]" facs="pageImages/vol1/135.jpg"/> you expected a
                           happy and gay welcome, to behold, on the contrary, tears and
                           wretchedness? And how, <persName>Victor</persName>, can I relate our
                           misfortune? Absence cannot have rendered you callous to our joys and
                           griefs; and how shall I inflict pain on an absent child? I wish to
                           prepare you for the woeful news, but I know it is impossible; even now
                           your eye skims over the page, to seek the words which are to convey to
                           you the horrible tidings.</p>


                        <p>
                                            <persName>William</persName> is dead!—that sweet child, whose smiles
                           delighted and warmed my heart, who was so gentle, yet so gay!
                              <persName>Victor</persName>, he is murdered!</p>


                        <p>I will not attempt to console you; but will simply relate the
                           circumstances of the transaction.</p>


                        <p>Last Thursday (<date>May 7th</date>) I, my niece, and your two brothers,
                           went to walk in <placeName type="tgn" key="4012616">Plainpalais</placeName>. The evening was <pb n="[1.136]" facs="pageImages/vol1/136.jpg"/> warm and serene, and we prolonged our
                           walk farther than usual. It was already dusk before we thought of
                           returning; and then we discovered that <persName>William</persName> and
                              <persName>Ernest</persName>, who had gone on before, were not to be
                           found. We accordingly rested on a seat until they should return.
                           Presently <persName>Ernest</persName> came, and inquired if we had seen
                           his brother: he said, that they had been playing together, that
                              <persName>William</persName> had run away to hide himself, and that he
                           vainly sought for him, and afterwards waited for him a long time, but
                           that he did not return.</p>


                        <p>This account rather alarmed us, and we continued to search for him until
                           night fell, when <persName>Elizabeth</persName> conjectured that he might
                           have returned to the house. He was not there. We returned again, with
                           torches; for I could not rest, when I thought that my sweet <pb n="[1.137]" facs="pageImages/vol1/137.jpg"/> boy had lost himself, and
                           was exposed to all the damps and dews of night;
                              <persName>Elizabeth</persName> also suffered extreme anguish. About
                           five in the morning I discovered my lovely boy, whom the night before I
                           had seen blooming and active in health, stretched on the grass livid and
                           motionless: the print of the murderer's finger was on his neck.</p>


                        <p>He was conveyed home, and the anguish that was visible in my countenance
                           betrayed the secret to <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. She was very
                           earnest to see the corpse. At first I attempted to prevent her; but she
                           persisted, and entering the room where it lay, hastily examined the neck
                           of the victim, and clasping her hands, exclaimed, O God! I have murdered
                           my darling infant!</p>


                        <p>She fainted, and was restored with extreme difficulty. When she again
                           lived, it was only to weep and sigh. <pb n="[1.138]" facs="pageImages/vol1/138.jpg"/> She told me that that same evening
                              <persName>William</persName> had teazed her to let him wear a very
                           valuable miniature that she possessed of your mother. This picture is
                           gone, and was doubtless the temptation which urged the murderer to the
                           deed. We have no trace of him at present, although our exertions to
                           discover him are unremitted; but they will not restore my beloved
                              <persName>William</persName>.</p>


                        <p>Come, dearest <persName>Victor</persName>; you alone can console
                              <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. She weeps continually, and accuses
                           herself unjustly as the cause of his death; her words pierce my heart. We
                           are all unhappy; but will not that be an additional motive for you, my
                           son, to return and be our comforter? Your dear mother! Alas,
                              <persName>Victor</persName>! I now say, Thank God she did not live to
                           witness the cruel, miserable death of her youngest darling!</p>


                        <p>Come, <persName>Victor</persName>; not brooding thoughts <pb n="[1.139]" facs="pageImages/vol1/139.jpg"/> of vengeance against the assassin,
                           but with feelings of peace and gentleness, that will heal, instead of
                           festering the wounds of our minds. Enter the house of mourning, my
                           friend, but with kindness and affection for those who love you, and not
                           with hatred for your enemies.</p>







                        <closer>
                                            <salute>Your affectionate and afflicted father,</salute>
                           <signed>
                                                <persName>ALPHONSE FRANKENSTEIN</persName>.</signed>
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, <date>May 12th,
                              17--</date>.</closer>


                     </body>


                  </floatingText>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Clerval</persName>, who had watched my countenance as I read this
                     letter, was surprised to observe the despair that succeeded to the joy I at
                     first expressed on receiving news from my friends. I threw the letter on the
                     table, and covered my face with my hands.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"My dear <persName>Frankenstein</persName>,"</said>
                     exclaimed <persName>Henry</persName>, when he perceived me weep with
                     bitterness, <said who="#clerval">"are you always to be <pb n="[1.140]" facs="pageImages/vol1/140.jpg"/> unhappy? My dear friend, what has
                        happened?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I motioned to him to take up the letter, while I walked up and down the room in
                     the extremest agitation. Tears also gushed from the eyes of
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>, as he read the account of my misfortune.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#clerval">"I can offer you no consolation, my friend,"</said> said
                     he; <said who="#clerval">"your disaster is irreparable. What do you intend to
                        do?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"To go instantly to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>: come with me, <persName>Henry</persName>, to order
                        the horses."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>During our walk, <persName>Clerval</persName> endeavoured to raise my spirits.
                     He did not do this by common topics of consolation, but by exhibiting the
                     truest sympathy. <said who="#clerval">"Poor
                        <persName>William</persName>!"</said> said he, <said who="#clerval">"that
                        dear child; he now sleeps with his angel mother. His friends mourn and weep,
                        but he is at rest: he does not <pb n="[1.141]" facs="pageImages/vol1/141.jpg"/> now feel the murderer's grasp; a sod
                        covers his gentle form, and he knows no pain. He can no longer be a fit
                        subject for pity; the survivors are the greatest sufferers, and for them
                        time is the only consolation. Those maxims of the Stoics, that death was no
                        evil, and that the mind of man ought to be superior to despair on the
                        eternal absence of a beloved object, ought not to be urged. Even <ref target="_cato" corresp="cato"> Cato</ref>
                        <note xml:id="cato" target="_cato" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                           <graphic url="notes/mid_00530505_001.jpg" source="http://www.britishmuseum.org/collectionimages/AN00530/AN00530505_001_l.jpg" alt="An engraving showing Roman warriors, from Lucan's Pharsalia, Book IX (1718)." desc="An engraving from an 18th century edition of Lucan's Pharsalia, Book IX (1718), showing Cato."/>
                           <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Marcus-Porcius-Cato-Roman-senator-95-46-BC">Marcus Porcius Cato Uticensis</ref> (95 BC-46 BC), also known as Cato
                           the Younger, was a Roman statesman known for his sense of justice and
                           fairness. Cato was immensely close to his brother, Caepio, and when his
                           brother passed, Cato spared no expense for his funeral. Clerval invokes
                           this sentiment when he tells Victor, "even Cato wept over the dead body
                           of his brother." Read more about Cato in Plutarch’s <ref target="http://penelope.uchicago.edu/Thayer/E/Roman/Texts/Plutarch/Lives/Cato_Minor*.html">
                                                <hi rend="italic">The Parallel Lives</hi>
                                            </ref>.</note> wept over the dead body of his brother."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Clerval</persName> spoke thus as we hurried through the streets; the
                     words impressed themselves on my mind, and I remembered them afterwards in
                     solitude. But now, as soon as the horses arrived, I hurried into a cabriole,
                     and bade farewell to my friend.</p>
                  <p>My journey was very melancholy. At first I wished to hurry on, for I longed to
                     console and sympathize with <pb n="[1.142]" facs="pageImages/vol1/142.jpg"/> my
                     loved and sorrowing friends; but when I drew near my native town, I slackened
                     my progress. I could hardly sustain the multitude of feelings that crowded into
                     my mind. I passed through scenes familiar to my youth, but which I had not seen
                     for nearly six years. How altered every thing might be during that time? One
                     sudden and desolating change had taken place; but a thousand little
                     circumstances might have by degrees worked other alterations, which, although
                     they were done more tranquilly, might not be the less decisive. Fear overcame
                     me; I dared not advance, dreading a thousand nameless evils that made me
                     tremble, although I was unable to define them.</p>
                  <p>I remained two days at <placeName type="tgn" key="7007299">Lausanne</placeName>, in this painful state of mind. I contemplated the lake:
                     the waters were placid; all around was calm, and the snowy <pb n="[1.143]" facs="pageImages/vol1/143.jpg"/> mountains, <quote>"<ref target="_Byron" corresp="Byron">the palaces of nature</ref>,"</quote> were not changed.
                     By degrees the calm and heavenly scene restored me, and I continued my journey
                     towards <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>.</p>
                                <note xml:id="Byron" target="_Byron" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#TH">An
                        allusion to <hi rend="italic">
                                        <ref target="https://www.gutenberg.org/files/5131/5131-h/5131-h.htm">Childe Harold's Pilgrimage</ref>
                                    </hi> (1812-1818), a
                     somewhat autobiographical narrative poem in four cantos by Romantic poet <ref target="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lord_Byron">George Gordon Lord Byron
                        (1788-1824)</ref>, which "The poem tells of a disillusioned young man, a
                     melancholy, solitary, cynical ‘Byronic hero’, who tires of his sinful,
                     pleasure-seeking lifestyle and decides to travel" (<ref target="https://www.bl.uk/works/childe-harolds-pilgrimage">British
                        Library</ref>). This line is from Canto III, Stanza LXII: <p>
                                        <quote>
                           <lg>
                              <l rend="indent">But these recede. Above me are the Alps,</l>
                              <l rend="indent">⁠The Palaces of Nature, whose vast walls</l>
                                                <l rend="indent">Have pinnacled in clouds their snowy scalps,</l>
                                                <l rend="indent">And throned Eternity in icy halls</l>
                                                <l rend="indent">⁠Of cold Sublimity, where forms and falls</l>
                                                <l rend="indent">The Avalanche—the thunderbolt of snow!</l>
                                                <l rend="indent">⁠All that
                        expands the spirit, yet appals,</l>
                                                <l rend="indent">⁠Gather around
                        these summits, as to show</l>
                                                <l>How Earth may pierce to Heaven, yet leave
                        vain man below.</l>
                                            </lg>
                                        </quote>
                     <ref target="https://www.theguardian.com/books/2011/aug/12/byron-childe-harold-benjamin-markovits">Read more about Byron's poem at <hi rend="italic">The Guardian</hi>
                                        </ref>.</p>
                                </note>
                  <p>The road ran by the side of the lake, which became narrower as I approached my
                     native town. I discovered more distinctly the black sides of <placeName type="tgn" key="1109172">Jura</placeName>, and the bright summit of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont Blanc</placeName>; I wept like a
                     child: <said who="#victor">"Dear mountains! my own beautiful lake! how do you
                        welcome your wanderer? Your summits are clear; the sky and lake are blue and
                        placid. Is this to prognosticate peace, or to mock at my
                        unhappiness?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I fear, my friend, that I shall render myself tedious by dwelling on these
                     preliminary circumstances; but they were days of comparative happiness, and I
                     think of them with pleasure. My <pb n="[1.144]" facs="pageImages/vol1/144.jpg"/> country, my beloved country! who but a native can tell the delight I took in
                     again beholding thy streams, thy mountains, and, more than all, thy lovely
                     lake!</p>
                  <p>Yet, as I drew nearer home, grief and fear again overcame me. Night also closed
                     around; and when I could hardly see the dark mountains, I felt still more
                     gloomily. The picture appeared a vast and dim scene of evil, and I foresaw
                     obscurely that I was destined to become the most wretched of human beings.
                     Alas! I prophesied truly, and failed only in one single circumstance, that in
                     all the misery I imagined and dreaded, I did not conceive the hundredth part of
                     the anguish I was destined to endure.</p>
                  <p>It was completely dark when I arrived in the environs of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>; the gates of the town were already shut;
                     and I was obliged to pass the night at <pb n="[1.145]" facs="pageImages/vol1/145.jpg"/>
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="8703954">Secheron</placeName>, a village half a
                     league to the east of the city. The sky was serene; and, as I was unable to
                     rest, I resolved to visit the spot where my poor <persName>William</persName>
                     had been murdered. As I could not pass through the town, I was obliged to cross
                     the lake in a boat to arrive at <placeName type="tgn" key="4012616">Plainpalais</placeName>. During this short voyage I saw the lightnings
                     playing on the summit of <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont
                        Blanc</placeName> in the most beautiful figures. The storm appeared to
                     approach rapidly; and, on landing, I ascended a low hill, that I might observe
                     its progress. It advanced; the heavens were clouded, and I soon felt the rain
                     coming slowly in large drops, but its violence quickly increased.</p>
                  <p>I quitted my seat, and walked on, although the darkness and storm increased
                     every minute, and the thunder burst with a terrific crash over my head. It was
                     echoed from <placeName type="tgn" key="1106285">Salêve</placeName>, the <pb n="[1.146]" facs="pageImages/vol1/146.jpg"/>
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="1109172">Juras</placeName>, and the <placeName type="tgn" key="7007768">Alps of Savoy</placeName>; vivid flashes of
                     lightning dazzled my eyes, illuminating the lake, making it appear like a vast
                     sheet of fire; then for an instant everything seemed of a pitchy darkness,
                     until the eye recovered itself from the preceding flash. The storm, as is often
                     the case in <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">
                        <ref target="Switzerland_Frankenstein_Trail_" corresp="Switzerland_Frankenstein_Trail"> Switzerland</ref>
                     </placeName>
                     <note xml:id="Switzerland_Frankenstein_Trail" target="Switzerland_Frankenstein_Trail_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                        <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/place/Switzerland">Switzerland</ref>
                        is not only the setting of most of the novel but also the place that
                        inspired Mary Shelley to write <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>. As
                        Switzerland was the birthplace of the novel, many people follow the
                        "Frankenstein Trail" and have written about the experience. See Tony
                        Perrottet’s article in <ref target="https://www.nytimes.com/2011/05/29/travel/lake-geneva-as-byron-and-shelley-knew-it.html">
                           <hi rend="italic">The New York Times</hi>
                                        </ref> and Nigel Richardson’s in
                           <ref target="https://www.telegraph.co.uk/travel/destinations/europe/switzerland/articles/on-the-frankenstein-trail-in-switzerland/">
                           <hi rend="italic">The Telegraph</hi>
                                        </ref> for wonderful descriptions of
                        the landscape and countryside. In honor of the 200th anniversary of the
                        novel, an art collective KLAT created and erected a bronze cast statue of
                        the <ref target="https://youtu.be/oKa2-d_9IBU">Creature</ref> in the city of
                        Plainpolis. In the summer of 1814, Mary Shelley and her then-lover,
                        Percy Shelley, travelled in secret to the continent, visiting France,
                        Switzerland, Germany, and the Netherlands. The couple published a collection
                        of letters about their travels, titled <hi rend="italic">
                                            <ref target="https://archive.org/details/sixweekhistoryof00shelrich">History of a Six-Week Tour</ref>
                                        </hi>. In Letter II, Switzerland is
                        depicted as a place "with more equality of classes...than in England" (103);
                        this interest in the freer and more natural lives of the "lower orders"
                        (103) was also central to the Romantic ideology. <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/collection-items/mary-shelleys-history-of-a-six-weeks-tour">As the discussion of the <hi rend="italic">Six Week History</hi> on the
                           British Library website makes clear</ref>, this idea is "echoed in
                        chapter 6 of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, where Elizabeth writes
                        ‘the lower orders, being neither so poor nor so despised, their manners are
                        more refined and moral’."</note> , appeared at once in various parts of the
                     heavens. The most violent storm hung exactly north of the town, over that part
                     of the lake which lies between the promontory of <placeName type="tgn" key="8703247">Belrive</placeName> and the village of <placeName type="tgn" key="1064001" cert="medium">Copêt</placeName>. Another storm enlightened
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="1109172">Jura</placeName> with faint flashes; and
                     another darkened and sometimes disclosed the <placeName type="tgn" key="7631625">Môle</placeName>, a peaked mountain to the east of the
                     lake.</p>
                  <p>
                     <ref target="Romanticism_" corresp="Romanticism"> While I watched the storm, so
                        beautiful yet terrific , I wandered on with a hasty step. This noble war in
                        the sky elevated my spirits; I clasped my hands,</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Romanticism" target="Romanticism_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">In order to truly explain the Romantic imagery
                        throughout the text, one must have a full understanding of what constitutes
                        Romanticism. Romanticism has little to do with feelings of romance and more
                        to do with a philosophical way of thinking that prioritizes imagination,
                        nature, and the self. Romanticism began in England and Germany (two
                        countries not home to the romance languages begotten from Vulgar Latin),
                        most notably with the poets <ref target="https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poet/william-wordsworth">William
                           Wordsworth</ref>, <ref target="https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/john-keats">John
                           Keats</ref>, <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Samuel-Taylor-Coleridge">Samuel Taylor Coleridge</ref>, and <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Johann-Wolfgang-von-Goethe">Johann Wolfgang von Goethe</ref>. The early Romantic period is one of
                        revolutionary thought heavily influenced with the American and French
                        revolutions. These revolutions are important to note as they changed the
                        political and individual structure and thought of their countries,
                        overthrowing monarchies and creating democracies. The Romantics valued
                        imagination over reason as the imagination was the primary method of
                        creation. Nature, to the Romantics, was a work of art created by the divine
                        imagination, full of symbolism and meaning. Nature plays a central symbolic
                        role in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>. Victor’s mood is often
                        reflected in the nature he observes around him, and once he creates the
                        Creature, he describes storms and ominous natural elements meant to instill
                        foreboding in the reader. However, nature is also beautiful and could only
                        be created by a higher power, so while it mimics Victor’s interior state of
                        duress, it is also a reminder that something is a more powerful and a better
                        creator than Victor, whose creation is “grotesque" and “malformed." To learn
                        more about Romanticism, read Glen Levin Swiggett’s article <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/27530553">"What is
                           Romanticism?"</ref> or explore the <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/romantics-and-victorians/themes/romanticism">British Library’s resources on Romanticism</ref>.</note>
                                    <pb n="[1.147]" facs="pageImages/vol1/147.jpg"/> and exclaimed aloud, <said who="#victor">"<persName>William</persName>, dear angel! this is thy funeral, this thy
                        dirge!"</said> As I said these words, I perceived in the gloom a figure
                     which stole from behind a clump of trees near me; I stood fixed, gazing
                     intently: I could not be mistaken. A flash of lightning illuminated the object,
                     and discovered its shape plainly to me; its gigantic stature, and the deformity
                     of its aspect, more hideous than belongs to humanity, instantly informed me
                     that it was the wretch, the filthy dæmon, to whom I had given life. What did he
                     there? Could he be (I shuddered at the conception) the murderer of my brother?
                     No sooner did that idea cross my imagination, than I became convinced of its
                     truth; my teeth chattered, and I was forced to lean against a tree for support.
                     The figure passed me quickly, and I lost <pb n="[1.148]" facs="pageImages/vol1/148.jpg"/> it in the gloom. Nothing in human shape
                     could have destroyed that fair child. He was the murderer! I could not doubt
                     it. The mere presence of the idea was an irresistible proof of the fact. I
                     thought of pursuing the devil; but it would have been in vain, for another
                     flash discovered him to me hanging among the rocks of the nearly perpendicular
                     ascent of <placeName type="tgn" key="1106285">Mont Salêve</placeName>, a hill
                     that bounds <placeName type="tgn" key="4012616">Plainpalais</placeName> on the
                     south. He soon reached the summit, and disappeared.</p>
                  <p>I remained motionless. The thunder ceased; but the rain still continued, and
                     the scene was enveloped in an impenetrable darkness. I revolved in my mind the
                     events which I had until now sought to forget: the whole train of my progress
                     towards the creation; the appearance of the work of my own hands alive at my
                     bed-side; its <pb n="[1.149 - page breaks after 'depar-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/149.jpg"/> departure. Two years had now nearly elapsed
                     since the night on which he first received life; and was this his first crime?
                     Alas! I had turned loose into the world a depraved wretch, whose delight was in
                     carnage and misery; had he not murdered my brother?</p>
                  <p>No one can conceive the anguish I suffered during the remainder of the night,
                     which I spent, cold and wet, in the open air. But I did not feel the
                     inconvenience of the weather; my imagination was busy in scenes of evil and
                     despair. I considered the being whom I had cast among mankind, and endowed with
                     the will and power to effect purposes of horror, such as the deed which he had
                     now done, nearly in the light of my own vampire, my own spirit let loose from
                     the grave, and forced to destroy all that was dear to me.</p>
                  <p>Day dawned; and I directed my steps <pb n="[1.150]" facs="pageImages/vol1/150.jpg"/> towards the town. The gates were open; and
                     I hastened to my father's house. My first thought was to discover what I knew
                     of the murderer, and cause instant pursuit to be made. But I paused when I
                     reflected on the story that I had to tell. A being whom I myself had formed,
                     and endued with life, had met me at midnight among the precipices of an
                     inaccessible mountain. I remembered also the nervous fever with which I had
                     been seized just at the time that I dated my creation, and which would give an
                     air of delirium to a tale otherwise so utterly improbable. I well knew that if
                     any other had communicated such a relation to me, I should have looked upon it
                     as the ravings of insanity. Besides, the strange nature of the animal would
                     elude all pursuit, even if I were so far credited as to persuade my relatives
                     to commence it. <pb n="[1.151]" facs="pageImages/vol1/151.jpg"/> Besides, of
                     what use would be pursuit? Who could arrest a creature capable of scaling the
                     overhanging sides of <placeName type="tgn" key="1106285">Mont
                        Salêve</placeName>? These reflections determined me, and I resolved to
                     remain silent.</p>
                  <p>It was about five in the morning when I entered my father's house. I told the
                     servants not to disturb the family, and went into the library to attend their
                     usual hour of rising.</p>
                  <p>Six years had elapsed, passed as a dream but for one indelible trace, and I
                     stood in the same place where I had last embraced my father before my departure
                     for <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>. Beloved and
                     respectable parent! He still remained to me. I gazed on the picture of my
                     mother, which stood over the mantlepiece. It was an historical subject, painted
                     at my father's desire, and represented <persName>Caroline Beaufort</persName>
                     in an <pb n="[1.152 - page breaks after 'ago-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/152.jpg"/> agony of despair, kneeling by the coffin of her dead father. Her garb was
                     rustic, and her cheek pale; but there was an air of dignity and beauty, that
                     hardly permitted the sentiment of pity. Below this picture was a miniature of
                        <persName>William</persName>; and my tears flowed when I looked upon it.
                     While I was thus engaged, <persName>Ernest</persName> entered: he had heard me
                     arrive, and hastened to welcome me. He expressed a sorrowful delight to see me:
                        <said who="#ernest">"Welcome, my dearest
                        <persName>Victor</persName>,"</said> said he. <said who="#ernest">"Ah! I
                        wish you had come three months ago, and then you would have found us all
                        joyous and delighted. But we are now unhappy; and, I am afraid, tears
                        instead of smiles will be your welcome. Our father looks so sorrowful: this
                        dreadful event seems to have revived in his mind his grief on the death of
                        Mamma. Poor <persName>Elizabeth</persName> also is quite
                        inconsolable."</said>
                     <pb n="[1.153 - page breaks after 'Er-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/153.jpg"/>
                     <persName>Ernest</persName> began to weep as he said these words.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Do not,"</said> said I, <said who="#victor">"welcome me
                        thus; try to be more calm, that I may not be absolutely miserable the moment
                        I enter my father's house after so long an absence. But, tell me, how does
                        my father support his misfortunes? and how is my poor
                           <persName>Elizabeth</persName>?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#ernest">"She indeed requires consolation; she accused herself of
                        having caused the death of my brother, and that made her very wretched. But
                        since the murderer has been discovered—"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"The murderer discovered! Good God! how can that be? who
                        could attempt to pursue him? it is impossible; one might as well try to
                        overtake the winds, or confine a mountain-stream with a straw."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#ernest">"I do not know what you mean; but we were all very unhappy
                        when <pb n="[1.154]" facs="pageImages/vol1/154.jpg"/> she was discovered. No
                        one would believe it at first; and even now <persName>Elizabeth</persName>
                        will not be convinced, notwithstanding all the evidence. Indeed, who would
                        credit that <persName>Justine Moritz</persName>, who was so amiable, and
                        fond of all the family, could all at once become so extremely
                        wicked?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"<persName>Justine Moritz</persName>! Poor, poor girl, is
                        she the accused? But it is wrongfully; every one knows that; no one believes
                        it, surely, <persName>Ernest</persName>?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#ernest">"No one did at first; but several circumstances came out,
                        that have almost forced conviction upon us: and her own behaviour has been
                        so confused, as to add to the evidence of facts a weight that, I fear,
                        leaves no hope for doubt. But she will be tried to-day, and you will then
                        hear all."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>He related that, the morning on which the murder of poor
                        <persName>William</persName> had <pb n="[1.155]" facs="pageImages/vol1/155.jpg"/> been discovered,
                        <persName>Justine</persName> had been taken ill, and confined to her bed;
                     and, after several days, one of the servants, happening to examine the apparel
                     she had worn on the night of the murder, had discovered in her pocket the
                     picture of my mother, which had been judged to be the temptation of the
                     murderer. The servant instantly shewed it to one of the others, who, without
                     saying a word to any of the family, went to a magistrate; and, upon their
                     deposition, <persName>Justine</persName> was apprehended. On being charged with
                     the fact, the poor girl confirmed the suspicion in a great measure by her
                     extreme confusion of manner.</p>
                  <p>This was a strange tale, but it did not shake my faith; and I replied
                     earnestly, <said who="#victor">"You are all mistaken; I know the murderer.
                           <persName>Justine</persName>, poor, good <persName>Justine</persName>, is
                        innocent."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[1.156]" facs="pageImages/vol1/156.jpg"/>
                  <p>At that instant my father entered. I saw unhappiness deeply impressed on his
                     countenance, but he endeavoured to welcome me cheerfully; and, after we had
                     exchanged our mournful greeting, would have introduced some other topic than
                     that of our disaster, had not <persName>Ernest</persName> exclaimed, <said who="#ernest">"Good God, Papa! <persName>Victor</persName> says that he
                        knows who was the murderer of poor William."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#father">"We do also, unfortunately,"</said> replied my father;
                        <said who="#father">"for indeed I had rather have been for ever ignorant
                        than have discovered so much depravity and ingratitude in one I valued so
                        highly."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"My dear father, you are mistaken;
                           <persName>Justine</persName> is innocent."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#father">"If she is, God forbid that she should suffer as guilty.
                        She is to be tried to-day, and I hope, I sincerely hope, that she will be
                        acquitted."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[1.157]" facs="pageImages/vol1/157.jpg"/>
                  <p>This speech calmed me. I was firmly convinced in my own mind that
                        <persName>Justine</persName>, and indeed every human being, was guiltless of
                     this murder. I had no fear, therefore, that any circumstantial evidence could
                     be brought forward strong enough to convict her; and, in this assurance, I
                     calmed myself, expecting the trial with eagerness, but without prognosticating
                     an evil result.</p>
                  <p>We were soon joined by <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. Time had made great
                     alterations in her form since I had last beheld her. Six years before she had
                     been a pretty, good-humoured girl, whom every one loved and caressed. She was
                     now a woman in stature and expression of countenance, which was uncommonly
                     lovely. An open and capacious forehead gave indications of a good
                     understanding, joined to great frankness of disposition. Her eyes were hazel,
                     and <pb n="[1.158]" facs="pageImages/vol1/158.jpg"/> expressive of mildness,
                     now through recent affliction allied to sadness. Her hair was of a rich dark
                     auburn, her complexion fair, and her figure slight and graceful. She welcomed
                     me with the greatest affection. <said who="#elizabeth">"Your arrival, my dear
                        cousin,"</said> said she, <said who="#elizabeth">"fills me with hope. You
                        perhaps will find some means to justify my poor guiltless
                           <persName>Justine</persName>. Alas! who is safe, if she be convicted of
                        crime? I rely on her innocence as certainly as I do upon my own. Our
                        misfortune is doubly hard to us; we have not only lost that lovely darling
                        boy, but this poor girl, whom I sincerely love, is to be torn away by even a
                        worse fate. If she is condemned, I never shall know joy more. But she will
                        not, I am sure she will not; and then I shall be happy again, even after the
                        sad death of my little <persName>William</persName>."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"She is innocent, my
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>,"</said>
                     <pb n="[1.159]" facs="pageImages/vol1/159.jpg"/> said I, <said who="#victor">"and that shall be proved; fear nothing, but let your spirits be cheered by
                        the assurance of her acquittal."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"How kind you are! every one else believes in her guilt,
                        and that made me wretched; for I knew that it was impossible: and to see
                        every one else prejudiced in so deadly a manner, rendered me hopeless and
                        despairing."</said> She wept.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#father">"Sweet niece,"</said> said my father, <said who="#father">"dry your tears. If she is, as you believe, innocent, rely on the justice
                        of our judges, and the activity with which I shall prevent the slightest
                        shadow of partiality."</said>
                                </p>
                            </said>


            </div>


            <div n="1.7" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[1.160]" facs="pageImages/vol1/160.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VII</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>WE passed a few sad hours, until eleven o'clock, when the
                     trial was to commence. My father and the rest of the family being obliged to
                     attend as witnesses, I accompanied them to the court. During the whole of this
                     wretched mockery of justice, I suffered living torture. It was to be decided,
                     whether the result of my curiosity and lawless devices would cause the death of
                     two of my fellow-beings: one a smiling babe, full of innocence and joy; the
                     other far more dreadfully murdered, with every aggravation of <pb n="[1.161 - page breaks after 'in-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/161.jpg"/>
                     infamy that could make the murder memorable in horror.
                        <persName>Justine</persName> also was a girl of merit, and possessed
                     qualities which promised to render her life happy: now all was to be
                     obliterated in an ignominious grave; and I the cause! A thousand times rather
                     would I have confessed myself guilty of the crime ascribed to
                        <persName>Justine</persName>; but I was absent when it was committed, and
                     such a declaration would have been considered as the ravings of a madman, and
                     would not have exculpated her who suffered through me.</p>
                  <p>The appearance of <persName>Justine</persName> was calm. She was dressed in
                     mourning; and her countenance, always engaging, was rendered, by the solemnity
                     of her feelings, exquisitely beautiful. Yet she appeared confident in
                     innocence, and did not tremble, although gazed on and execrated by thousands;
                     for all the <pb n="[1.162]" facs="pageImages/vol1/162.jpg"/> kindness which her
                     beauty might otherwise have excited, was obliterated in the minds of the
                     spectators by the imagination of the enormity she was supposed to have
                     committed. She was tranquil, yet her tranquillity was evidently constrained;
                     and as her confusion had before been adduced as a proof of her guilt, she
                     worked up her mind to an appearance of courage. When she entered the court, she
                     threw her eyes round it, and quickly discovered where we were seated. A tear
                     seemed to dim her eye when she saw us; but she quickly recovered herself, and a
                     look of sorrowful affection seemed to attest her utter guiltlessness.</p>
                  <p>The trial began; and after the advocate against her had stated the charge,
                     several witnesses were called. Several strange facts combined against her,
                     which might have staggered any one <pb n="[1.163]" facs="pageImages/vol1/163.jpg"/> who had not such proof of her innocence as
                     I had. She had been out the whole of the night on which the murder had been
                     committed, and towards morning had been perceived by a market-woman not far
                     from the spot where the body of the murdered child had been afterwards found.
                     The woman asked her what she did there; but she looked very strangely, and only
                     returned a confused and unintelligible answer. She returned to the house about
                     eight o'clock; and when one inquired where she had passed the night, she
                     replied, that she had been looking for the child, and demanded earnestly, if
                     any thing had been heard concerning him. When shewn the body, she fell into
                     violent hysterics, and kept her bed for several days. The picture was then
                     produced, which the servant had found in her pocket; and when
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, in <pb n="[1.164]" facs="pageImages/vol1/164.jpg"/> a faltering voice, proved that it was the
                     same which, an hour before the child had been missed, she had placed round his
                     neck, a murmur of horror and indignation filled the court.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Justine</persName> was called on for her defence. As the trial had
                     proceeded, her countenance had altered. Surprise, horror, and misery, were
                     strongly expressed. Sometimes she struggled with her tears; but when she was
                     desired to plead, she collected her powers, and spoke in an audible although
                     variable voice:—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"God knows,"</said> she said, <said who="#moritz">"how
                        entirely I am innocent. But I do not pretend that my protestations should
                        acquit me: I rest my innocence on a plain and simple explanation of the
                        facts which have been adduced against me; and I hope the character I have
                        always borne will incline my judges to a favourable interpretation, where
                           <pb n="[1.165]" facs="pageImages/vol1/165.jpg"/> any circumstance appears
                        doubtful or suspicious."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>She then related that, by the permission of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, she
                     had passed the evening of the night on which the murder had been committed, at
                     the house of an aunt at <placeName type="tgn" key="8700245">Chêne</placeName>,
                     a village situated at about a league from <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. On her return, at about nine o'clock, she met a man,
                     who asked her if she had seen any thing of the child who was lost. She was
                     alarmed by this account, and passed several hours in looking for him, when the
                     gates of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> were shut, and
                     she was forced to remain several hours of the night in a barn belonging to a
                     cottage, being unwilling to call up the inhabitants, to whom she was well
                     known. Unable to rest or sleep, she quitted her asylum early, that she might
                     again endeavour to find my brother. If she had gone near the spot <pb n="[1.166]" facs="pageImages/vol1/166.jpg"/> where his body lay, it was
                     without her knowledge. That she had been bewildered when questioned by the
                     market-woman, was not surprising, since she had passed a sleepless night, and
                     the fate of poor <persName>William</persName> was yet uncertain. Concerning the
                     picture she could give no account.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"I know,"</said> continued the unhappy victim, <said who="#moritz">"how heavily and fatally this one circumstance weighs against
                        me, but I have no power of explaining it; and when I have expressed my utter
                        ignorance, I am only left to conjecture concerning the probabilities by
                        which it might have been placed in my pocket. But here also I am checked. I
                        believe that I have no enemy on earth, and none surely would have been so
                        wicked as to destroy me wantonly. Did the murderer place it there? I know of
                        no opportunity afforded him <pb n="[1.167]" facs="pageImages/vol1/167.jpg"/>
                        for so doing; or if I had, why should he have stolen the jewel, to part with
                        it again so soon?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"I commit my cause to the justice of my judges, yet I see
                        no room for hope. I beg permission to have a few witnesses examined
                        concerning my character; and if their testimony shall not overweigh my
                        supposed guilt, I must be condemned, although I would pledge my salvation on
                        my innocence."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Several witnesses were called, who had known her for many years, and they spoke
                     well of her; but fear, and hatred of the crime of which they supposed her
                     guilty, rendered them timorous, and unwilling to come forward.
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> saw even this last resource, her excellent
                     dispositions and irreproachable conduct, about to fail the accused, when,
                     although violently <pb n="[1.168 - page breaks after 'agi']" facs="pageImages/vol1/168.jpg"/> agitated, she desired permission to address
                     the court.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"I am,"</said> said she, <said who="#elizabeth">"the
                        cousin of the unhappy child who was murdered, or rather his sister, for I
                        was educated by and have lived with his parents ever since and even long
                        before his birth. It may therefore be judged indecent in me to come forward
                        on this occasion; but when I see a fellow-creature about to perish through
                        the cowardice of her pretended friends, I wish to be allowed to speak, that
                        I may say what I know of her character. I am well acquainted with the
                        accused. I have lived in the same house with her, at one time for five, and
                        at another for nearly two years. During all that period she appeared to me
                        the most amiable and benevolent of human creatures. She nursed Madame
                           <persName>Frankenstein</persName>, my aunt, in her last illness with the
                        greatest affection and care; and <pb n="[1.169]" facs="pageImages/vol1/169.jpg"/> afterwards attended her own mother
                        during a tedious illness, in a manner that excited the admiration of all who
                        knew her. After which she again lived in my uncle's house, where she was
                        beloved by all the family. She was warmly attached to the child who is now
                        dead, and acted towards him like a most affectionate mother. For my own
                        part, I do not hesitate to say, that, notwithstanding all the evidence
                        produced against her, I believe and rely on her perfect innocence. She had
                        no temptation for such an action: as to the bauble on which the chief proof
                        rests, if she had earnestly desired it, I should have willingly given it to
                        her; so much do I esteem and value her."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Excellent <persName>Elizabeth</persName>! A murmur of approbation was heard;
                     but it was excited by her generous interference, and not in favor of poor
                        <persName>Justine</persName>, on whom <pb n="[1.170]" facs="pageImages/vol1/170.jpg"/> the public indignation was turned with
                     renewed violence, charging her with the blackest ingratitude. She herself wept
                     as <persName>Elizabeth</persName> spoke, but she did not answer. My own
                     agitation and anguish was extreme during the whole trial. I believed in her
                     innocence; I knew it. Could the dæmon, who had (I did not for a minute doubt)
                     murdered my brother, also in his hellish sport have betrayed the innocent to
                     death and ignominy? I could not sustain the horror of my situation; and when I
                     perceived that the popular voice, and the countenances of the judges, had
                     already condemned my unhappy victim, I rushed out of the court in agony. The
                     tortures of the accused did not equal mine; she was sustained by innocence, but
                     the fangs of remorse tore my bosom, and would not forego their hold.</p>
                  <p>I passed a night of unmingled <pb n="[1.171 - page breaks after 'wretch-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/171.jpg"/> wretchedness. In the morning I went to the
                     court; my lips and throat were parched. I dared not ask the fatal question; but
                     I was known, and the officer guessed the cause of my visit. The ballots had
                     been thrown; they were all black, and <persName>Justine</persName> was
                     condemned.</p>
                  <p>I cannot pretend to describe what I then felt. I had before experienced
                     sensations of horror; and I have endeavoured to bestow upon them adequate
                     expressions, but words cannot convey an idea of the heart-sickening despair
                     that I then endured. The person to whom I addressed myself added, that
                        <persName>Justine</persName> had already confessed her guilt. <said who="#unknown">"That evidence,"</said> he observed, <said who="#unknown">"was hardly required in so glaring a case, but I am glad of it; and,
                        indeed, none of our judges like to condemn a criminal upon circumstantial
                        evidence, be it ever so decisive."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[1.172]" facs="pageImages/vol1/172.jpg"/>
                  <p>When I returned home, <persName>Elizabeth</persName> eagerly demanded the
                     result.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"My cousin,"</said> replied I, <said who="#victor">"it is
                        decided as you may have expected; all judges had rather that ten innocent
                        should suffer, than that one guilty should escape. But she has
                        confessed."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>This was a dire blow to poor <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, who had relied
                     with firmness upon <persName>Justine</persName>'s innocence. <said who="#elizabeth">"Alas!"</said> said she, <said who="#elizabeth">"how shall
                        I ever again believe in human benevolence? <persName>Justine</persName>,
                        whom I loved and esteemed as my sister, how could she put on those smiles of
                        innocence only to betray; her mild eyes seemed incapable of any severity or
                        ill-humour, and yet she has committed a murder."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Soon after we heard that the poor victim had expressed a wish to see my cousin.
                     My father wished her not to go; but said, that he left it to her own <pb n="[1.173]" facs="pageImages/vol1/173.jpg"/> judgment and feelings to
                     decide. <said who="#elizabeth">"Yes,"</said> said
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, <said who="#elizabeth">"I will go, although
                        she is guilty; and you, <persName>Victor</persName>, shall accompany me: I
                        cannot go alone."</said> The idea of this visit was torture to me, yet I
                     could not refuse.</p>
                  <p>We entered the gloomy prison-chamber, and beheld <persName>Justine</persName>
                     sitting on some straw at the further end; her hands were manacled, and her head
                     rested on her knees. She rose on seeing us enter; and when we were left alone
                     with her, she threw herself at the feet of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>,
                     weeping bitterly. My cousin wept also.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"Oh, <persName>Justine</persName>!"</said> said she,
                        <said who="#elizabeth">"why did you rob me of my last consolation? I relied
                        on your innocence; and although I was then very wretched, I was not so
                        miserable as I am now."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"And do you also believe that I am so very, very wicked? Do
                        you also <pb n="[1.174]" facs="pageImages/vol1/174.jpg"/> join with my
                        enemies to crush me?"</said> Her voice was suffocated with sobs.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"Rise, my poor girl,"</said> said
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, <said who="#elizabeth">"why do you kneel, if
                        you are innocent? I am not one of your enemies; I believed you guiltless,
                        notwithstanding every evidence, until I heard that you had yourself declared
                        your guilt. That report, you say, is false; and be assured, dear
                           <persName>Justine</persName>, that nothing can shake my confidence in you
                        for a moment, but your own confession."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"I did confess; but I confessed a lie. I confessed, that I
                        might obtain absolution; but now that falsehood lies heavier at my heart
                        than all my other sins. The God of heaven forgive me! Ever since I was
                        condemned, my confessor has besieged me; he threatened and menaced, until I
                        almost began to think that I was the monster that he <pb n="[1.175]" facs="pageImages/vol1/175.jpg"/> said I was. He threatened
                        excommunication and hell fire in my last moments, if I continued obdurate.
                        Dear lady, I had none to support me; all looked on me as a wretch doomed to
                        ignominy and perdition. What could I do? In an evil hour I subscribed to a
                        lie; and now only am I truly miserable."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>She paused, weeping, and then continued—<said who="#moritz">"I thought with
                        horror, my sweet lady, that you should believe your
                           <persName>Justine</persName>, whom your blessed aunt had so highly
                        honoured, and whom you loved, was a creature capable of a crime which none
                        but the devil himself could have perpetrated. Dear
                           <persName>William</persName>! dearest blessed child! I soon shall see you
                        again in heaven, where we shall all be happy; and that consoles me, going as
                        I am to suffer ignominy and death."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[1.176]" facs="pageImages/vol1/176.jpg"/>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"Oh, <persName>Justine</persName>! forgive me for having
                        for one moment distrusted you. Why did you confess? But do not mourn, my
                        dear girl; I will every where proclaim your innocence, and force belief. Yet
                        you must die; you, my playfellow, my companion, my more than sister. I never
                        can survive so horrible a misfortune."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"Dear, sweet <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, do not weep.
                        You ought to raise me with thoughts of a better life, and elevate me from
                        the petty cares of this world of injustice and strife. Do not you, excellent
                        friend, drive me to despair."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"I will try to comfort you; but this, I fear, is an evil
                        too deep and poignant to admit of consolation, for there is no hope. Yet
                        heaven bless thee, my dearest <persName>Justine</persName>, with
                        resignation, and a confidence elevated beyond this world. Oh! how I hate its
                        shews and <pb n="[1.177 - page breaks after 'mock-']" facs="pageImages/vol1/177.jpg"/> mockeries! when one creature is
                        murdered, another is immediately deprived of life in a slow torturing
                        manner; then the executioners, their hands yet reeking with the blood of
                        innocence, believe that they have done a great deed. They call this
                        retribution . Hateful name! When that word is pronounced, I know greater and
                        more horrid punishments are going to be inflicted than the gloomiest tyrant
                        has ever invented to satiate his utmost revenge. Yet this is not consolation
                        for you, my <persName>Justine</persName>, unless indeed that you may glory
                        in escaping from so miserable a den. Alas! I would I were in peace with my
                        aunt and my lovely <persName>William</persName>, escaped from a world which
                        is hateful to me, and the visages of men which I abhor."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Justine</persName> smiled languidly. <said who="#moritz">"This, dear
                        lady, is despair, and not resignation. I must not learn the lesson that <pb n="[1.178]" facs="pageImages/vol1/178.jpg"/> you would teach me. Talk of
                        something else, something that will bring peace, and not increase of
                        misery."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>During this conversation I had retired to a corner of the prison-room, where I
                     could conceal the horrid anguish that possessed me. Despair! Who dared talked
                     of that? The poor victim, who on the morrow was to pass the dreary boundary
                     between life and death, felt not as I did, such deep and bitter agony. I
                     gnashed my teeth, and ground them together, uttering a groan that came from my
                     inmost soul. <persName>Justine</persName> started. When she saw who it was, she
                     approached me, and said, <said who="#moritz">"Dear Sir, you are very kind to
                        visit me; you, I hope, do not believe that I am guilty."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I could not answer. <said who="#elizabeth">"No,
                        <persName>Justine</persName>,"</said> said <persName>Elizabeth</persName>;
                        <said who="#elizabeth">"he is more convinced of your innocence than I was;
                        for <pb n="[1.179]" facs="pageImages/vol1/179.jpg"/> even when he heard that
                        you had confessed, he did not credit it."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#moritz">"I truly thank him. In these last moments I feel the
                        sincerest gratitude towards those who think of me with kindness. How sweet
                        is the affection of others to such a wretch as I am! It removes more than
                        half my misfortune; and I feel as if I could die in peace, now that my
                        innocence is acknowledged by you, dear lady, and your cousin."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Thus the poor sufferer tried to comfort others and herself. She indeed gained
                     the resignation she desired. <ref target="Gospel_of_Mark_" corresp="Gospel_of_Mark"> But I, the true murderer, felt the never-dying
                        worm</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Gospel_of_Mark" target="Gospel_of_Mark_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF"> Frankenstein references a passage from Chapter 9 of
                        the <ref target="http://biblehub.com/kjv/mark/9.htm">Gospel of Mark</ref>,
                        in which Christ describes the wicked undergoing eternal torment in Hell:
                        "Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched." This sentiment
                        is also reflected in Lord Byron’s <ref target="https://archive.org/details/brideofabydostur02byro">
                                            <hi rend="italic">The Bride of Abydos</hi>
                                        </ref> ("The worm that will not
                        sleep-- and never dies… That winds around and tears the quivering heart!"
                        [2.644-649]) and John Milton’s <ref target="http://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/26?msg=welcome_stranger">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>
                                        </ref> (Satan’s torment is "th’undying
                        Worm" VI.739). </note> alive in my bosom, which allowed of no hope or
                     consolation. <persName>Elizabeth</persName> also wept, and was unhappy; but
                     her's also was the misery of innocence, which, like a cloud that passes over
                     the fair moon, for a while hides, <pb n="[1.180]" facs="pageImages/vol1/180.jpg"/> but cannot tarnish its brightness. Anguish
                     and despair had penetrated into the core of my heart; <ref target="Satans_Soliloquy_" corresp="Satans_Soliloquy"> I bore a hell within
                        me</ref>
                     <note xml:id="Satans_Soliloquy" target="Satans_Soliloquy_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">Shelley alludes to Satan's soliloquy upon Mount
                        Niphates in Book IV of John Milton’s <ref target="https://www.dartmouth.edu/~milton/reading_room/pl/book_4/text.shtml">
                                            <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>
                                        </ref>. Milton’s narrator
                        reflects upon Satan’s "dire Attempt" to cause the fall of humankind,
                        characterizing his wrath as "a devillish Engine [that] back recoiles / Upon
                        himself" (IV.17-18). Satan’s "Hell" is an internal, self-perpetuating engine
                        of doubt, pride, and torment recoiling upon itself; " within him Hell / He
                        brings, and round about him, nor from Hell / One step no more then from
                        himself can fly / By change of place" (IV.20-23). For more information about
                        the influence of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi> in <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, see <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/2933709">John Lamb’s "Mary Shelley's
                           Frankenstein and Milton's Monstrous Myth"</ref> and <ref target="https://www.bl.uk/collection-items/john-milton-paradise-lost">the
                           overview of <hi rend="italic">Paradise Lost</hi>in the "Romantics and
                           Victorians" exhibit at the British Library</ref>. </note>, which nothing
                     could extinguish. We staid several hours with <persName>Justine</persName>; and
                     it was with great difficulty that <persName>Elizabeth</persName> could tear
                     herself away. <said who="#elizabeth">"I wish,"</said> cried she, <said who="#elizabeth">"that I were to die with you; I cannot live in this world
                        of misery."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Justine</persName> assumed an air of cheerfulness, while she with
                     difficulty repressed her bitter tears. She embraced
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and said, in a voice of half-suppressed
                     emotion, <said who="#moritz">"Farewell, sweet lady, dearest
                           <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, my beloved and only friend; may heaven in
                        its bounty bless and preserve you; may this be the last misfortune that you
                        will ever suffer. Live, and be happy, and make others so."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>As we returned, <persName>Elizabeth</persName> said, <said who="#elizabeth">"You <pb n="[1.181]" facs="pageImages/vol1/181.jpg"/> know not, my dear
                           <persName>Victor</persName>, how much I am relieved, now that I trust in
                        the innocence of this unfortunate girl. I never could again have known
                        peace, if I had been deceived in my reliance on her. For the moment that I
                        did believe her guilty, I felt an anguish that I could not have long
                        sustained. Now my heart is lightened. The innocent suffers; but she whom I
                        thought amiable and good has not betrayed the trust I reposed in her, and I
                        am consoled."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Amiable cousin! such were your thoughts, mild and gentle as your own dear eyes
                     and voice. But I—I was a wretch, and none ever conceived of the misery that I
                     then endured.</p>
                            </said>


            </div>


            <trailer>END OF VOL. I.</trailer>


         </div>







         <div n="2" type="volume">


            <head type="title">FRANKENSTEIN;<lb/> OR, THE<lb/>
               <hi rend="italic">MODERN PROMETHEUS.</hi>
                            <lb/> [VOL. II.]</head>


            <div n="2.1" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[2.1]" facs="pageImages/vol2/1.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter I</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>NOTHING is more painful to the human mind, than, after the
                     feelings have been worked up by a quick succession of events, the dead calmness
                     of inaction and certainty which follows, and deprives the soul both of hope and
                     fear. <persName>Justine</persName> died; she rested; and I was alive. The blood
                     flowed freely in my veins, but a weight of despair and remorse pressed on my
                     heart, which <pb n="[2.2]" facs="pageImages/vol2/2.jpg"/> nothing could remove.
                     Sleep fled from my eyes; I wandered like an evil spirit, for I had committed
                     deeds of mischief beyond description horrible, and more, much more, (I
                     persuaded myself) was yet behind. Yet my heart overflowed with kindness, and
                     the love of virtue. I had begun life with benevolent intentions, and thirsted
                     for the moment when I should put them in practice, and make myself useful to my
                     fellow-beings. Now all was blasted: instead of that serenity of conscience,
                     which allowed me to look back upon the past with self-satisfaction, and from
                     thence to gather promise of new hopes, I was seized by remorse and the sense of
                     guilt, which hurried me away to a hell of intense tortures, such as no language
                     can describe.</p>
                  <p>This state of mind preyed upon my health, which had entirely recovered <pb n="[2.3]" facs="pageImages/vol2/3.jpg"/> from the first shock it had
                     sustained. I shunned the face of man; all sound of joy or complacency was
                     torture to me; solitude was my only consolation—deep, dark, death-like
                     solitude.</p>
                  <p>My father observed with pain the alteration perceptible in my disposition and
                     habits, and endeavoured to reason with me on the folly of giving way to
                     immoderate grief. <said who="#father">"Do you think,
                           <persName>Victor</persName>,"</said> said he, <said who="#father">"that I
                        do not suffer also? No one could love a child more than I loved your
                        brother"</said>; (tears came into his eyes as he spoke); <said who="#father">"but is it not a duty to the survivors, that we should refrain from
                        augmenting their unhappiness by an appearance of immoderate grief? It is
                        also a duty owed to yourself; for excessive sorrow prevents improvement or
                        enjoyment, or even the discharge of daily usefulness, without which no man
                        is fit for society."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[2.4]" facs="pageImages/vol2/4.jpg"/>
                  <p>This advice, although good, was totally inapplicable to my case; I should have
                     been the first to hide my grief, and console my friends, if remorse had not
                     mingled its bitterness with my other sensations. Now I could only answer my
                     father with a look of despair, and endeavour to hide myself from his view.</p>
                  <p>About this time we retired to our house at <placeName type="tgn" key="8703247">Belrive</placeName>. This change was particularly agreeable to me. The
                     shutting of the gates regularly at ten o'clock, and the impossibility of
                     remaining on the lake after that hour, had rendered our residence within the
                     walls of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> very irksome to
                     me. I was now free. Often, after the rest of the family had retired for the
                     night, I took the boat, and passed many hours upon the water. Sometimes, with
                     my sails set, I was carried by the wind; and sometimes, after rowing into the
                     middle of the lake, I <pb n="[2.5]" facs="pageImages/vol2/5.jpg"/> left the
                     boat to pursue its own course, and gave way to my own miserable reflections. I
                     was often tempted, when all was at peace around me, and I the only unquiet
                     thing that wandered restless in a scene so beautiful and heavenly, if I except
                     some bat, or the frogs, whose harsh and interrupted croaking was heard only
                     when I approached the shore—often, I say, I was tempted to plunge into the
                     silent lake, that the waters might close over me and my calamities for ever.
                     But I was restrained, when I thought of the heroic and suffering
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, whom I tenderly loved, and whose existence
                     was bound up in mine. I thought also of my father, and surviving brother:
                     should I by my base desertion leave them exposed and unprotected to the malice
                     of the fiend whom I had let loose among them?</p>
                  <p>At these moments I wept bitterly, <pb n="[2.6]" facs="pageImages/vol2/6.jpg"/>
                     and wished that peace would revisit my mind only that I might afford them
                     consolation and happiness. But that could not be. Remorse extinguished every
                     hope. I had been the author of unalterable evils; and I lived in daily fear,
                     lest the monster whom I had created should perpetrate some new wickedness. I
                     had an obscure feeling that all was not over, and that he would still commit
                     some signal crime, which by its enormity should almost efface the recollection
                     of the past. There was always scope for fear, so long as anything I loved
                     remained behind. My abhorrence of this fiend cannot be conceived. When I
                     thought of him, I gnashed my teeth, my eyes became inflamed, and I ardently
                     wished to extinguish that life which I had so thoughtlessly bestowed. When I
                     reflected on his crimes and malice, my hatred and <pb n="[2.7]" facs="pageImages/vol2/7.jpg"/> revenge burst all bounds of moderation. I
                     would have made a pilgrimage to the highest peak of the <placeName type="tgn" key="1108861">Andes</placeName>, could I, when there, have precipitated him
                     to their base. I wished to see him again, that I might wreak the utmost extent
                     of anger on his head, and avenge the deaths of <persName>William</persName> and
                        <persName>Justine</persName>.</p>
                  <p>Our house was the house of mourning. My father's health was deeply shaken by
                     the horror of the recent events. <persName>Elizabeth</persName> was sad and
                     desponding; she no longer took delight in her ordinary occupations; all
                     pleasure seemed to her sacrilege toward the dead; eternal woe and tears she
                     then thought was the just tribute she should pay to innocence so blasted and
                     destroyed. She was no longer that happy creature, who in earlier youth wandered
                     with me on the banks of the lake, and talked with ecstasy of our future
                     prospects. She <pb n="[2.8]" facs="pageImages/vol2/8.jpg"/> had become grave,
                     and often conversed of the inconstancy of fortune, and the instability of human
                     life.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#elizabeth">"When I reflect, my dear cousin,"</said> said she, <said who="#elizabeth">"on the miserable death of <persName>Justine
                           Moritz</persName>, I no longer see the world and its works as they before
                        appeared to me. Before, I looked upon the accounts of vice and injustice,
                        that I read in books or heard from others, as tales of ancient days, or
                        imaginary evils; at least they were remote, and more familiar to reason than
                        to the imagination; but now misery has come home, and men appear to me as
                        monsters thirsting for each other's blood. Yet I am certainly unjust. Every
                        body believed that poor girl to be guilty; and if she could have committed
                        the crime for which she suffered, assuredly she would have been the most
                        depraved of human creatures. For the sake of a few jewels, <pb n="[2.9]" facs="pageImages/vol2/9.jpg"/> to have murdered the son of her benefactor
                        and friend, a child whom she had nursed from its birth, and appeared to love
                        as if it had been her own! I could not consent to the death of any human
                        being; but certainly I should have thought such a creature unfit to remain
                        in the society of men. Yet she was innocent. I know, I feel she was
                        innocent; you are of the same opinion, and that confirms me. Alas!
                           <persName>Victor</persName>, when falsehood can look so like the truth,
                        who can assure themselves of certain happiness? I feel if I were walking on
                        the edge of a precipice, towards which thousands are crowding, and
                        endeavouring to plunge me into the abyss. <persName>William</persName> and
                           <persName>Justine</persName> were assassinated, and the murderer escapes;
                        he walks about the world free, and perhaps respected. But even if I were
                        condemned to suffer on the scaffold <pb n="[2.10]" facs="pageImages/vol2/10.jpg"/> for the same crimes, I would not change
                        places with such a wretch."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I listened to this discourse with the extremest agony. I, not in deed, but in
                     effect, was the true murderer. <persName>Elizabeth</persName> read my anguish
                     in my countenance, and kindly taking my hand said, <said who="#elizabeth">"My
                        dearest cousin, you must calm yourself. These events have affected me, God
                        knows how deeply; but I am not so wretched as you are. There is an
                        expression of despair, and sometimes of revenge, in your countenance, that
                        makes me tremble. Be calm, my dear <persName>Victor</persName>; I would
                        sacrifice my life to your peace. We surely shall be happy: quiet in our
                        native country, and not mingling in the world, what can disturb our
                        tranquillity?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>She shed tears as she said this, distrusting the very solace that she gave; but
                     at the same time she smiled, that <pb n="[2.11]" facs="pageImages/vol2/11.jpg"/> she might chase away the fiend that lurked in my heart. My father, who saw
                     in the unhappiness that was painted in my face only an exaggeration of that
                     sorrow which I might naturally feel, thought that an amusement suited to my
                     taste would be the best means of restoring to me my wonted serenity. It was
                     from this cause that he had removed to the country; and, induced by the same
                     motive, he now proposed that we should all make an excursion to the valley of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="1032562">Chamounix</placeName>. I had been there
                     before, but <persName>Elizabeth</persName> and <persName>Ernest</persName>
                     never had; and both had often expressed an earnest desire to see the scenery of
                     this place, which had been described to them as so wonderful and sublime.
                     Accordingly we departed from <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> on this tour about the middle of the month of August,
                     nearly two months after the death of <persName>Justine</persName>.</p>
                  <pb n="[2.12]" facs="pageImages/vol2/12.jpg"/>
                  <p>The weather was uncommonly fine; and if mine had been a sorrow to be chased
                     away by any fleeting circumstance, this excursion would certainly have had the
                     effect intended by my father. As it was, I was somewhat interested in the
                     scene; it sometimes lulled, although it could not extinguish my grief. During
                     the first day we travelled in a carriage. In the morning we had seen the
                     mountains at a distance, towards which we gradually advanced. We perceived that
                     the valley through which we wound, and which was formed by the river <placeName type="tgn" key="1121418">Arve</placeName>, whose course we followed, closed
                     in upon us by degrees; and when the sun had set, we beheld immense mountains
                     and precipices overhanging us on every side, and heard the sound of the river
                     raging among rocks, and the dashing of waterfalls around.</p>
                  <pb n="[2.13]" facs="pageImages/vol2/13.jpg"/>
                  <p>The next day we pursued our journey upon mules; and as we ascended still
                     higher, the valley assumed a more magnificent and astonishing character. Ruined
                     castles hanging on the precipices of piny mountains; the impetuous <placeName type="tgn" key="1121418">Arve</placeName>, and cottages every here and there
                     peeping forth from among the trees, formed a scene of singular beauty. But it
                     was augmented and rendered sublime by the mighty <placeName type="tgn" key="7007746">Alps</placeName>, whose white and shining pyramids and domes
                     towered above all, as belonging to another earth, the habitations of another
                     race of beings.</p>
                  <p>We passed the bridge of <placeName>Pelissier</placeName>, where the ravine,
                     which the river forms, opened before us, and we began to ascend the mountain
                     that overhangs it. Soon after we entered the valley of <placeName type="tgn" key="1032562">Chamounix</placeName>. This valley is more wonderful and
                     sublime, but not so beautiful <pb n="[2.13]" facs="pageImages/vol2/13.jpg"/>
                     and picturesque as that of <placeName type="tgn" key="1035711">Servox</placeName>, through which we had just passed. The high and snowy
                     mountains were its immediate boundaries; but we saw no more ruined castles and
                     fertile fields. Immense glaciers approached the road; we heard the rumbling
                     thunder of the falling avelânche, and marked the smoke of its passage.
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont Blanc</placeName>, the supreme and
                     magnificent <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont Blanc</placeName>, raised
                     itself from the surrounding aiguilles, and its tremendous <hi rend="italic">(dome)</hi> overlooked the valley.</p>
                  <p>During this journey, I sometimes joined <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and
                     exerted myself to point out to her the various beauties of the scene. I often
                     suffered my mule to lag behind, and indulged in the misery of reflection. At
                     other times I spurred on the animal before my companions, that I might forget
                     them, the world, and, more than all, myself. When at <pb n="[2.15]" facs="pageImages/vol2/15.jpg"/> a distance, I alighted, and threw myself on
                     the grass, weighed down by horror and despair. At eight in the evening I
                     arrived at <placeName type="tgn" key="1032562">Chamounix</placeName>. My father
                     and <persName>Elizabeth</persName> were very much fatigued;
                        <persName>Ernest</persName>, who accompanied us, was delighted, and in high
                     spirits: the only circumstance that detracted from his pleasure was the south
                     wind, and the rain it seemed to promise for the next day.</p>
                  <p>We retired early to our apartments, but not to sleep; at least I did not. I
                     remained many hours at the window, watching the pallid lightning that played
                     above <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont Blanc</placeName>, and listening
                     to the rushing of the <placeName type="tgn" key="1121418">Arve</placeName>,
                     which ran below my window.</p>
                            </said>


            </div>


            <div n="2.2" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[2.16]" facs="pageImages/vol2/16.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter II</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <p>THE next day, contrary to the prognostications of our guides,
                     was fine, although clouded. We visited the source of the <placeName type="tgn" key="7622466" cert="medium">Arveiron</placeName><!-- see 1781 watercolor by Francis Towne http://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/towne-the-source-of-the-arveyron-t08147 -->,
                     and rode about the valley until evening. These sublime and magnificent scenes
                     afforded me the greatest consolation that I was capable of receiving. They
                     elevated me from all littleness of feeling; and although they did not remove my
                     grief, they subdued and tranquillized it. In some degree, also, they diverted
                     my mind from the thoughts over which it had <pb n="[2.17]" facs="pageImages/vol2/17.jpg"/> brooded for the last month. I returned in
                     the evening, fatigued, but less unhappy, and conversed with my family with more
                     cheerfulness than had been my custom for some time. My father was pleased, and
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> overjoyed. <said who="#elizabeth">"My dear
                        cousin,"</said> said she, <said who="#elizabeth">"you see what happiness you
                        diffuse when you are happy; do not relapse again!"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>The following morning the rain poured down in torrents, and thick mists hid the
                     summits of the mountains. I rose early, but felt unusually melancholy. The rain
                     depressed me; my old feelings recurred, and I was miserable. I knew how
                     disappointed my father would be at this sudden change, and I wished to avoid
                     him until I had recovered myself so far as to be enabled to conceal those
                     feelings that overpowered me. I knew that they would remain that day at the
                     inn; <pb n="[2.18]" facs="pageImages/vol2/18.jpg"/> and as I had ever inured
                     myself to rain, moisture, and cold, I resolved to go alone to the summit of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7622466">Montanvert</placeName>. I remembered the
                     effect that the view of the tremendous and ever-moving glacier had produced
                     upon my mind when I first saw it. It had then filled me with a sublime ecstasy
                     that gave wings to the soul, and allowed it to soar from the obscure world to
                     light and joy. The sight of the awful and majestic in nature had indeed always
                     the effect of solemnizing my mind, and causing me to forget the passing cares
                     of life. I determined to go alone, for I was well acquainted with the path, and
                     the presence of another would destroy the solitary grandeur of the scene.</p>
                  <p>The ascent is precipitous, but the path is cut into continual and short
                     windings, which enable you to surmount the perpendicularity of the <pb n="[2.19]" facs="pageImages/vol2/19.jpg"/> mountain. It is a scene
                     terrifically desolate. In a thousand spots the traces of the winter avelânche
                     may be perceived, where trees lie broken and strewed on the ground; some
                     entirely destroyed, others bent, leaning upon the jutting rocks of the
                     mountain, or transversely upon other trees. The path, as you ascend higher, is
                     intersected by ravines of snow, down which stones continually roll from above;
                     one of them is particularly dangerous, as the slightest sound, such as even
                     speaking in a loud voice, produces a concussion of air sufficient to draw
                     destruction upon the head of the speaker. The pines are not tall or luxuriant,
                     but they are sombre, and add an air of severity to the scene. I looked on the
                     valley beneath; vast mists were rising from the rivers which ran through it,
                     and curling in thick wreaths around the <pb n="[2.20 - page breaks after 'oppo-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/20.jpg"/>
                     opposite mountains, whose summits were hid in the uniform clouds, while rain
                     poured from the dark sky, and added to the melancholy impression I received
                     from the objects around me. Alas! why does man boast of sensibilities superior
                     to those apparent in the brute; it only renders them more necessary beings. If
                     our impulses were confined to hunger, thirst, and desire, we might be nearly
                     free; but now we are moved by every wind that blows, and a chance word or scene
                     that that word may convey to us.</p>
                  <quote>
                                    <lb/>We rest; a dream has power to poison sleep. <lb/>We rise; one
                     wand'ring thought pollutes the day. <lb/>We feel, conceive, or reason; laugh,
                     or weep, <lb/>Embrace fond woe, or cast our cares away; <lb/>It is the same:
                     for, be it joy or sorrow, <lb/>The path of its departure still is free.
                     <lb/>Man's yesterday may ne'er be like his morrow; <lb/>Nought may endure but
                     mutability!</quote>
                  <pb n="[2.21]" facs="pageImages/vol2/21.jpg"/>
                  <p>It was nearly noon when I arrived at the top of the ascent. For some time I sat
                     upon the rock that overlooks the sea of ice. A mist covered both that and the
                     surrounding mountains. Presently a breeze dissipated the cloud, and I descended
                     upon the glacier. The surface is very uneven, rising like the waves of a
                     troubled sea, descending low, and interspersed by rifts that sink deep. The
                     field of ice is almost a league in width, but I spent nearly two hours in
                     crossing it. The opposite mountain is a bare perpendicular rock. From the side
                     where I now stood <placeName type="tgn" key="7622466">Montanvert</placeName>
                     was exactly opposite, at the distance of a league; and above it rose <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont Blanc</placeName>, in awful majesty. I
                     remained in a recess of the rock, gazing on this wonderful and stupendous
                     scene. The sea, or rather the vast river of ice, wound among its dependent
                     mountains, <pb n="[2.22]" facs="pageImages/vol2/22.jpg"/> whose aërial summits
                     hung over its recesses. Their icy and glittering peaks shone in the sunlight
                     over the clouds. My heart, which was before sorrowful, now swelled with
                     something like joy; I exclaimed—<said who="#victor">"Wandering spirits, if
                        indeed ye wander, and do not rest in your narrow beds, allow me this faint
                        happiness, or take me, as your companion, away from the joys of
                        life."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>As I said this, I suddenly beheld the figure of a man, at some distance,
                     advancing towards me with superhuman speed. He bounded over the crevices in the
                     ice, among which I had walked with caution; his stature also, as he approached,
                     seemed to exceed that of man. I was troubled: a mist came over my eyes, and I
                     felt a faintness seize me; but I was quickly restored by the cold gale of the
                     mountains. I perceived, as the shape came nearer, (sight <pb n="[2.23]" facs="pageImages/vol2/23.jpg"/> tremendous and abhorred!) that it was the
                     wretch whom I had created. I trembled with rage and horror, resolving to wait
                     his approach, and then close with him in mortal combat. He approached; his
                     countenance bespoke bitter anguish, combined with disdain and malignity, while
                     its unearthly ugliness rendered it almost too horrible for human eyes. But I
                     scarcely observed this; anger and hatred had at first deprived me of utterance,
                     and I recovered only to overwhelm him with words expressive of furious
                     detestation and contempt.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Devil!"</said> I exclaimed, <said who="#victor">"do you
                        dare approach me? and do not you fear the fierce vengeance of my arm wreaked
                        on your miserable head? Begone, vile insect! or rather stay, that I may
                        trample you to dust! and, oh, that I could, with the extinction of your
                        miserable <pb n="[2.24]" facs="pageImages/vol2/24.jpg"/> existence, restore
                        those victims whom you have so diabolically murdered!"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"I expected this reception,"</said> said the dæmon. <said who="#creature">"All men hate the wretched; how then must I be hated, who am
                        miserable beyond all living things! Yet you, my creator, detest and spurn
                        me, thy creature, to whom thou art bound by ties only dissoluble by the
                        annihilation of one of us. You purpose to kill me. How dare you sport thus
                        with life? Do your duty towards me, and I will do mine towards you and the
                        rest of mankind. If you will comply with my conditions, I will leave them
                        and you at peace; but if you refuse, I will glut the maw of death, until it
                        be satiated with the blood of your remaining friends."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Abhorred monster! fiend that thou art! the tortures of
                        hell are too mild a vengeance for thy crimes. <pb n="[2.25]" facs="pageImages/vol2/25.jpg"/> Wretched devil! you reproach me with your
                        creation; come on then, that I may extinguish the spark which I so
                        negligently bestowed."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>My rage was without bounds; I sprang on him, impelled by all the feelings which
                     can arm one being against the existence of another.</p>
                  <p>He easily eluded me, and said,</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"Be calm! I entreat you to hear me, before you give vent
                        to your hatred on my devoted head. Have I not suffered enough, that you seek
                        to increase my misery? Life, although it may only be an accumulation of
                        anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it. Remember, thou hast made me
                        more powerful than thyself; my height is superior to thine; my joints more
                        supple. But I will not be tempted to set myself in opposition to thee. I am
                        thy creature, and I will be even mild and docile to my natural <pb n="[2.26]" facs="pageImages/vol2/26.jpg"/> lord and king, if thou wilt
                        also perform thy part, the which thou owest me. Oh,
                           <persName>Frankenstein</persName>, be not equitable to every other, and
                        trample upon me alone, to whom thy justice, and even thy clemency and
                        affection, is most due. Remember that I am thy creature: I ought to be thy
                           <persName>Adam</persName>; but I am rather the fallen angel, whom thou
                        drivest from joy for no misdeed. Every where I see bliss, from which I alone
                        am irrevocably excluded. I was benevolent and good; misery made me a fiend.
                        Make me happy, and I shall again be virtuous."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Begone! I will not hear you. There can be no community
                        between you and me; we are enemies. Begone, or let us try our strength in a
                        fight, in which one must fall."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"How can I move thee? Will no entreaties cause thee to
                        turn a <pb n="[2.27 - page breaks after 'favour-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/27.jpg"/> favourable eye upon thy creature, who
                        implores thy goodness and compassion. Believe me,
                           <persName>Frankenstein</persName>: I was benevolent; my soul glowed with
                        love and humanity: but am I not alone, miserably alone? You, my creator,
                        abhor me; what hope can I gather from your fellow-creatures, who owe me
                        nothing? they spurn and hate me. The desert mountains and dreary glaciers
                        are my refuge. I have wandered here many days; the caves of ice, which I
                        only do not fear, are a dwelling to me, and the only one which man does not
                        grudge. These bleak skies I hail, for they are kinder to me than your
                        fellow-beings. If the multitude of mankind knew of my existence, they would
                        do as you do, and arm themselves for my destruction. Shall I not then hate
                        them who abhor me? I will keep no terms with my <pb n="[2.28]" facs="pageImages/vol2/28.jpg"/> enemies. I am miserable, and they shall
                        share my wretchedness. Yet it is in your power to recompense me, and deliver
                        them from an evil which it only remains for you to make so great, that not
                        only you and your family, but thousands of others, shall be swallowed up in
                        the whirlwinds of its rage. Let your compassion be moved, and do not disdain
                        me. Listen to my tale: when you have heard that, abandon or commiserate me,
                        as you shall judge that I deserve. But hear me. The guilty are allowed, by
                        human laws, bloody as they may be, to speak in their own defence before they
                        are condemned. Listen to me, <persName>Frankenstein</persName> . You accuse
                        me of murder; and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience, destroy your
                        own creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man! Yet I ask you not to
                        spare me: listen to me; and <pb n="[2.29]" facs="pageImages/vol2/29.jpg"/>
                        then, if you can, and if you will, destroy the work of your
                     hands."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Why do you call to my remembrance circumstances of which I
                        shudder to reflect, that I have been the miserable origin and author? Cursed
                        be the day, abhorred devil, in which you first saw light! Cursed (although I
                        curse myself) be the hands that formed you! You have made me wretched beyond
                        expression. You have left me no power to consider whether I am just to you,
                        or not. Begone! relieve me from the sight of your detested form."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"Thus I relieve thee, my creator,"</said> he said, and
                     placed his hated hands before my eyes, which I flung from me with violence;
                        <said who="#creature">"thus I take from thee a sight which you abhor. Still
                        thou canst listen to me, and grant me thy compassion. By the virtues that I
                           <pb n="[2.30]" facs="pageImages/vol2/30.jpg"/> once possessed, I demand
                        this from you. Hear my tale; it is long and strange, and the temperature of
                        this place is not fitting to your fine sensations; come to the hut upon the
                        mountain. The sun is yet high in the heavens; before it descends to hide
                        itself behind yon snowy precipices, and illuminate another world, you will
                        have heard my story, and can decide. On you it rests, whether I quit forever
                        the neighbourhood of man, and lead a harmless life, or become the scourge of
                        your fellow-creatures, and the author of your own speedy ruin."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>As he said this, he led the way across the ice: I followed. My heart was full,
                     and I did not answer him; but, as I proceeded, I weighed the various arguments
                     that he had used, and determined at least to listen to his tale. I was partly
                     urged by curiosity, and <pb n="[2.31]" facs="pageImages/vol2/31.jpg"/>
                     compassion confirmed my resolution. I had hitherto supposed him to be the
                     murderer of my brother, and I eagerly sought a confirmation or denial of this
                     opinion. For the first time, also, I felt what the duties of a creator towards
                     his creature were, and that I ought to render him happy before I complained of
                     his wickedness. These motives urged me to comply with his demand. We crossed
                     the ice, therefore, and ascended the opposite rock. The air was cold, and the
                     rain again began to descend: we entered the hut, the fiend with an air of
                     exultation, I with a heavy heart, and depressed spirits. But I consented to
                     listen; and, seating myself by the fire which my odious companion had lighted,
                     he thus began his tale."</p>
                            </said>


            </div>


            <div n="2.3" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[2.32]" facs="pageImages/vol2/32.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter III</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <said who="#creature">
                     <p>IT is with considerable difficulty that I remember the original æra of my
                        being: all the events of that period appear confused and indistinct. A
                        strange multiplicity of sensations seized me, and I saw, felt, heard, and
                        smelt, at the same time; and it was, indeed, a long time before I learned to
                        distinguish between the operations of my various senses. By degrees, I
                        remember, a stronger light pressed upon my nerves, so that I was obliged to
                        shut my eyes. Darkness then came over me, and troubled me; but <pb n="[2.33]" facs="pageImages/vol2/33.jpg"/> hardly had I felt this, when,
                        by opening my eyes, as I now suppose, the light poured in upon me again. I
                        walked, and, I believe, descended; but I presently found a great alteration
                        in my sensations. Before, dark and opaque bodies had surrounded me,
                        impervious to my touch or sight; but I now found that I could wander on at
                        liberty, with no obstacles which I could not either surmount or avoid. The
                        light became more and more oppressive to me; and, the heat wearying me as I
                        walked, I sought a place where I could receive shade. This was the forest
                        near <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>; and here I
                        lay by the side of a brook resting from my fatigue, until I felt tormented
                        by hunger and thirst. This roused me from my nearly dormant state, and I ate
                        some berries which I found hanging on the trees, or lying on the ground. I
                        slaked my <pb n="[2.34]" facs="pageImages/vol2/34.jpg"/> thirst at the
                        brook; and then lying down, was overcome by sleep.</p>
                     <p>It was dark when I awoke; I felt cold also, and half-frightened as it were
                        instinctively, finding myself so desolate. Before I had quitted your
                        apartment, on a sensation of cold, I had covered myself with some clothes;
                        but these were insufficient to secure me from the dews of night. I was a
                        poor, helpless, miserable wretch; I knew, and could distinguish, nothing;
                        but, feeling pain invade me on all sides, I sat down and wept.</p>
                     <p>Soon a gentle light stole over the heavens, and gave me a sensation of
                        pleasure. I started up, and beheld a radiant form rise from among the trees.
                        I gazed with a kind of wonder. It moved slowly, but it enlightened my path;
                        and I again went out in search of berries. I was still cold, when under <pb n="[2.35]" facs="pageImages/vol2/35.jpg"/> one of the trees I found a
                        huge cloak, with which I covered myself, and sat down upon the ground. No
                        distinct ideas occupied my mind; all was confused. I felt light, and hunger,
                        and thirst, and darkness; innumerable sounds rung in my ears, and on all
                        sides various scents saluted me: the only object that I could distinguish
                        was the bright moon, and I fixed my eyes on that with pleasure.</p>
                     <p>Several changes of day and night passed, and the orb of night had greatly
                        lessened when I began to distinguish my sensations from each other. I
                        gradually saw plainly the clear stream that supplied me with drink, and the
                        trees that shaded me with their foliage. I was delighted when I first
                        discovered that a pleasant sound, which often saluted my ears, proceeded
                        from the throats of the little winged animals who <pb n="[2.36]" facs="pageImages/vol2/36.jpg"/> had often intercepted the light from my
                        eyes. I began also to observe, with greater accuracy, the forms that
                        surrounded me, and to perceive the boundaries of the radiant roof of light
                        which canopied me. Sometimes I tried to imitate the pleasant songs of the
                        birds, but was unable. Sometimes I wished to express my sensations in my own
                        mode, but the uncouth and inarticulate sounds which broke from me frightened
                        me into silence again.</p>
                     <p>The moon had disappeared from the night, and again, with a lessened form,
                        shewed itself, while I still remained in the forest. My sensations had, by
                        this time, become distinct, and my mind received every day additional ideas.
                        My eyes became accustomed to the light, and to perceive objects in their
                        right forms; I distinguished the insect from the herb, and, by <pb n="[2.37 - page breaks after 'de-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/37.jpg"/>
                        degrees, one herb from another. I found that the sparrow uttered none but
                        harsh notes, whilst those of the blackbird and thrush were sweet and
                        enticing.</p>
                     <p>One day, when I was oppressed by cold, I found a fire which had been left by
                        some wandering beggars, and was overcome with delight at the warmth I
                        experienced from it. In my joy I thrust my hand into the live embers, but
                        quickly drew it out again with a cry of pain. How strange, I thought, that
                        the same cause should produce such opposite effects! I examined the
                        materials of the fire, and to my joy found it to be composed of wood. I
                        quickly collected some branches; but they were wet, and would not burn. I
                        was pained at this, and sat still watching the operation of the fire. The
                        wet wood which I had placed near the heat dried, and itself <pb n="[2.38]" facs="pageImages/vol2/38.jpg"/> became inflamed. I reflected on this;
                        and, by touching the various branches, I discovered the cause, and busied
                        myself in collecting a great quantity of wood, that I might dry it, and have
                        a plentiful supply of fire. When night came on, and brought sleep with it, I
                        was in the greatest fear lest my fire should be extinguished. I covered it
                        carefully with dry wood and leaves, and placed wet branches upon it; and
                        then, spreading my cloak, I lay on the ground, and sunk into sleep.</p>
                     <p>It was morning when I awoke, and my first care was to visit the fire. I
                        uncovered it, and a gentle breeze quickly fanned it into a flame. I observed
                        this also, and contrived a fan of branches, which roused the embers when
                        they were nearly extinguished. When night came again, I found, with
                        pleasure, that the fire gave light as <pb n="[2.39]" facs="pageImages/vol2/39.jpg"/> well as heat; and that the discovery of
                        this element was useful to me in my food; for I found some of the offals
                        that the travellers had left had been roasted, and tasted much more savoury
                        than the berries I gathered from the trees. I tried, therefore, to dress my
                        food in the same manner, placing it on the live embers. I found that the
                        berries were spoiled by this operation, and the nuts and roots much
                        improved.</p>
                     <p>Food, however, became scarce; and I often spent the whole day searching in
                        vain for a few acorns to assuage the pangs of hunger. When I found this, I
                        resolved to quit the place that I had hitherto inhabited, to seek for one
                        where the few wants I experienced would be more easily satisfied. In this
                        emigration, I exceedingly lamented the loss of the fire which I had obtained
                        through accident, and knew not how to <pb n="[2.40]" facs="pageImages/vol2/40.jpg"/> re-produce it. I gave several hours to
                        the serious consideration of this difficulty; but I was obliged to
                        relinquish all attempt to supply it; and, wrapping myself up in my cloak, I
                        struck across the wood towards the setting sun. I passed three days in these
                        rambles, and at length discovered the open country. A great fall of snow had
                        taken place the night before, and the fields were of one uniform white; the
                        appearance was disconsolate, and I found my feet chilled by the cold damp
                        substance that covered the ground.</p>
                     <p>It was about seven in the morning, and I longed to obtain food and shelter;
                        at length I perceived a small hut, on a rising ground, which had doubtless
                        been built for the convenience of some shepherd. This was a new sight to me;
                        and I examined the structure with great <pb n="[2.41 - page breaks after 'cu-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/41.jpg"/>
                        curiosity. Finding the door open, I entered. An old man sat in it, near a
                        fire, over which he was preparing his breakfast. He turned on hearing a
                        noise; and, perceiving me, shrieked loudly, and, quitting the hut, ran
                        across the fields with a speed of which his debilitated form hardly appeared
                        capable. His appearance, different from any I had ever before seen, and his
                        flight, somewhat surprised me. But I was enchanted by the appearance of the
                        hut: here the snow and rain could not penetrate; the ground was dry; and it
                        presented to me then as exquisite and divine a retreat as Pandæmonium
                        appeared to the dæmons of hell after their sufferings in the lake of fire. I
                        greedily devoured the remnants of the shepherd's breakfast, which consisted
                        of bread, cheese, milk, and wine; the latter, however, I did not like. <pb n="[2.42]" facs="pageImages/vol2/42.jpg"/> Then overcome by fatigue, I
                        lay down among some straw, and fell asleep.</p>
                     <p>It was noon when I awoke; and, allured by the warmth of the sun, which shone
                        brightly on the white ground, I determined to recommence my travels; and,
                        depositing the remains of the peasant's breakfast in a wallet I found, I
                        proceeded across the fields for several hours, until at sunset I arrived at
                        a village. How miraculous did this appear! the huts, the neater cottages,
                        and stately houses, engaged my admiration by turns. The vegetables in the
                        gardens, the milk and cheese that I saw placed at the windows of some of the
                        cottages, allured my appetite. One of the best of these I entered; but I had
                        hardly placed my foot within the door, before the children shrieked, and one
                        of the women fainted. The whole village was roused; some fled, some <pb n="[2.43 - page breaks after 'at-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/43.jpg"/>
                        attacked me, until, grievously bruised by stones and many other kinds of
                        missile weapons, I escaped to the open country, and fearfully took refuge in
                        a low hovel, quite bare, and making a wretched appearance after the palaces
                        I had beheld in the village. This hovel, however, joined a cottage of a neat
                        and pleasant appearance; but, after my late dearly-bought experience, I
                        dared not enter it. My place of refuge was constructed of wood, but so low,
                        that I could with difficulty sit upright in it. No wood, however, was placed
                        on the earth, which formed the floor, but it was dry; and although the wind
                        entered it by innumerable chinks, I found it an agreeable asylum from the
                        snow and rain.</p>
                     <p>Here then I retreated, and lay down, happy to have found a shelter, however
                        miserable, from the inclemency <pb n="[2.44]" facs="pageImages/vol2/44.jpg"/> of the season, and still more from the barbarity of man.</p>
                     <p>As soon as morning dawned, I crept from my kennel, that I might view the
                        adjacent cottage, and discover if I could remain in the habitation I had
                        found. It was situated against the back of the cottage, and surrounded on
                        the sides which were exposed by a pig-stye and a clear pool of water. One
                        part was open, and by that I had crept in; but now I covered every crevice
                        by which I might be perceived with stones and wood, yet in such a manner
                        that I might move them on occasion to pass out: all the light I enjoyed came
                        through the stye, and that was sufficient for me.</p>
                     <p>Having thus arranged my dwelling, and carpeted it with clean straw, I
                        retired; for I saw the figure of a man at a distance, and I remembered too
                           <pb n="[2.45]" facs="pageImages/vol2/45.jpg"/> well my treatment the
                        night before, to trust myself in his power. I had first, however, provided
                        for my sustenance for that day, by a loaf of coarse bread, which I
                        purloined, and a cup with which I could drink, more conveniently than from
                        my hand, of the pure water which flowed by my retreat. The floor was a
                        little raised, so that it was kept perfectly dry, and by its vicinity to the
                        chimney of the cottage it was tolerably warm.</p>
                     <p>Being thus provided, I resolved to reside in this hovel, until something
                        should occur which might alter my determination. It was indeed a paradise,
                        compared to the bleak forest, my former residence, the rain-dropping
                        branches, and dank earth. I ate my breakfast with pleasure, and was about to
                        remove a plank to procure myself a little water, when I heard a step, and,
                        looking <pb n="[2.46]" facs="pageImages/vol2/46.jpg"/> through a small
                        chink, I beheld a young creature, with a pail on her head, passing before my
                        hovel. The girl was young and of gentle demeanour, unlike what I have since
                        found cottagers and farm-house servants to be. Yet she was meanly dressed, a
                        coarse blue petticoat and a linen jacket being her only garb; her fair hair
                        was plaited, but not adorned; she looked patient, yet sad. I lost sight of
                        her; and in about a quarter of an hour she returned, bearing the pail, which
                        was now partly filled with milk. As she walked along, seemingly incommoded
                        by the burden, a young man met her, whose countenance expressed a deeper
                        despondence. Uttering a few sounds with an air of melancholy, he took the
                        pail from her head, and bore it to the cottage himself. She followed, and
                        they disappeared. Presently I saw the young <pb n="[2.47]" facs="pageImages/vol2/47.jpg"/> man again, with some tools in his hand,
                        cross the field behind the cottage; and the girl was also busied, sometimes
                        in the house, and sometimes in the yard.</p>
                     <p>On examining my dwelling, I found that one of the windows of the cottage had
                        formerly occupied a part of it, but the panes had been filled up with wood.
                        In one of these was a small and almost imperceptible chink, through which
                        the eye could just penetrate. Through this crevice, a small room was
                        visible, white-washed and clean, but very bare of furniture. In one corner,
                        near a small fire, sat an old man, leaning his head on his hands in a
                        disconsolate attitude. The young girl was occupied in arranging the cottage;
                        but presently she took something out of a drawer, which employed her hands,
                        and she sat down beside the old man, who, taking up an instrument, began <pb n="[2.48]" facs="pageImages/vol2/48.jpg"/> to play, and to produce
                        sounds, sweeter than the voice of the thrush or the nightingale. It was a
                        lovely sight, even to me, poor wretch! who had never beheld aught beautiful
                        before. The silver hair and benevolent countenance of the aged cottager, won
                        my reverence; while the gentle manners of the girl enticed my love. He
                        played a sweet mournful air, which I perceived drew tears from the eyes of
                        his amiable companion, of which the old man took no notice, until she sobbed
                        audibly; he then pronounced a few sounds, and the fair creature, leaving her
                        work, knelt at his feet. He raised her, and smiled with such kindness and
                        affection, that I felt sensations of a peculiar and over-powering nature:
                        they were a mixture of pain and pleasure, such as I had never before
                        experienced, either from hunger or cold, warmth or food; and I <pb n="[2.49]" facs="pageImages/vol2/49.jpg"/> withdrew from the window,
                        unable to bear these emotions.</p>
                     <p>Soon after this the young man returned, bearing on his shoulders a load of
                        wood. The girl met him at the door, helped to relieve him of his burden,
                        and, taking some of the fuel into the cottage, placed it on the fire; then
                        she and the youth went apart into a nook of the cottage, and he shewed her a
                        large loaf and a piece of cheese. She seemed pleased, and went into the
                        garden for some roots and plants, which she placed in water, and then upon
                        the fire. She afterwards continued her work, whilst the young man went into
                        the garden, and appeared busily employed in digging and pulling up roots.
                        After he had been employed thus about an hour, the young woman joined him,
                        and they entered the cottage together.</p>
                     <p>The old man had, in the mean time, <pb n="[2.50]" facs="pageImages/vol2/50.jpg"/> been pensive; but, on the appearance of
                        his companions, he assumed a more cheerful air, and they sat down to eat.
                        The meal was quickly dispatched. The young woman was again occupied in
                        arranging the cottage; the old man walked before the cottage in the sun for
                        a few minutes, leaning on the arm of the youth. Nothing could exceed in
                        beauty the contrast between these two excellent creatures. One was old, with
                        silver hairs and a countenance beaming with benevolence and love: the
                        younger was slight and graceful in his figure, and his features were moulded
                        with the finest symmetry; yet his eyes and attitude expressed the utmost
                        sadness and despondency. The old man returned to the cottage; and the youth,
                        with tools different from those he had used in the morning, directed his
                        steps across the fields.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.51]" facs="pageImages/vol2/51.jpg"/>
                     <p>Night quickly shut in; but, to my extreme wonder, I found that the cottagers
                        had a means of prolonging light, by the use of tapers, and was delighted to
                        find, that the setting of the sun did not put an end to the pleasure I
                        experienced in watching my human neighbours. In the evening, the young girl
                        and her companion were employed in various occupations which I did not
                        understand; and the old man again took up the instrument, which produced the
                        divine sounds that had enchanted me in the morning. So soon as he had
                        finished, the youth began, not to play, but to utter sounds that were
                        monotonous, and neither resembling the harmony of the old man's instrument
                        or the songs of the birds; I since found that he read aloud, but at that
                        time I knew nothing of the science of words or letters.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.52]" facs="pageImages/vol2/52.jpg"/>
                     <p>The family, after having been thus occupied for a short time, extinguished
                        their lights, and retired, as I conjectured, to rest.</p>
                  </said>
                            </said>


            </div>






            <div n="2.4" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[2.53]" facs="pageImages/vol2/53.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter IV</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                                <said who="#creature">
                                    <p>I LAY on my straw, but I could not
                        sleep. I thought of the occurrences of the day. What chiefly struck me was
                        the gentle manners of these people; and I longed to join them, but dared
                        not. I remembered too well the treatment I had suffered the night before
                        from the barbarous villagers, and resolved, whatever course of conduct I
                        might hereafter think it right to pursue, that for the present I would
                        remain quietly in my hovel, watching, and endeavouring to discover the
                        motives which influenced their actions.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.54]" facs="pageImages/vol2/54.jpg"/>
                     <p>The cottagers arose the next morning before the sun. The young woman
                        arranged the cottage, and prepared the food; and the youth departed after
                        the first meal.</p>
                     <p>This day was passed in the same routine as that which preceded it. The young
                        man was constantly employed out of doors, and the girl in various laborious
                        occupations within. The old man, whom I soon perceived to be blind, employed
                        his leisure hours on his instrument, or in contemplation. Nothing could
                        exceed the love and respect which the younger cottagers exhibited towards
                        their venerable companion. They performed towards him every little office of
                        affection and duty with gentleness; and he rewarded them by his benevolent
                        smiles.</p>
                     <p>They were not entirely happy. The young man and his companion often <pb n="[2.55]" facs="pageImages/vol2/55.jpg"/> went apart, and appeared to
                        weep. I saw no cause for their unhappiness; but I was deeply affected by it.
                        If such lovely creatures were miserable, it was less strange that I, an
                        imperfect and solitary being, should be wretched. Yet why were these gentle
                        beings unhappy? They possessed a delightful house (for such it was in my
                        eyes), and every luxury; they had a fire to warm them when chill, and
                        delicious viands when hungry; they were dressed in excellent clothes; and,
                        still more, they enjoyed one another's company and speech, interchanging
                        each day looks of affection and kindness. What did their tears imply? Did
                        they really express pain? I was at first unable to solve these questions;
                        but perpetual attention, and time, explained to me many appearances which
                        were at first enigmatic.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.56]" facs="pageImages/vol2/56.jpg"/>
                     <p>A considerable period elapsed before I discovered one of the causes of the
                        uneasiness of this amiable family; it was poverty; and they suffered that
                        evil in a very distressing degree. Their nourishment consisted entirely of
                        the vegetables of their garden, and the milk of one cow, who gave very
                        little during the winter, when its masters could scarcely procure food to
                        support it. They often, I believe, suffered the pangs of hunger very
                        poignantly, especially the two younger cottagers; for several times they
                        placed food before the old man, when they reserved none for themselves.</p>
                     <p>This trait of kindness moved me sensibly. I had been accustomed, during the
                        night, to steal a part of their store for my own consumption; but when I
                        found that in doing this I inflicted pain on the cottagers, I abstained, <pb n="[2.57]" facs="pageImages/vol2/57.jpg"/> and satisfied myself with
                        berries, nuts, and roots, which I gathered from a neighbouring wood.</p>
                     <p>I discovered also another means through which I was enabled to assist their
                        labours. I found that the youth spent a great part of each day in collecting
                        wood for the family fire; and, during the night, I often took his tools, the
                        use of which I quickly discovered, and brought home firing sufficient for
                        the consumption of several days.</p>
                     <p>I remember, the first time that I did this, the young woman, when she opened
                        the door in the morning, appeared greatly astonished on seeing a great pile
                        of wood on the outside. She uttered some words in a loud voice, and the
                        youth joined her, who also expressed surprise. I observed, with pleasure,
                        that he did not go to the forest that day, but spent it in <pb n="[2.58 - page breaks after 'repair-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/58.jpg"/>
                        repairing the cottage, and cultivating the garden.</p>
                     <p>By degrees I made a discovery of still greater moment. I found that these
                        people possessed a method of communicating their experience and feelings to
                        one another by articulate sounds. I perceived that the words they spoke
                        sometimes produced pleasure or pain, smiles or sadness, in the minds and
                        countenances of the hearers. This was indeed a godlike science, and I
                        ardently desired to become acquainted with it. But I was baffled in every
                        attempt I made for this purpose. Their pronunciation was quick; and the
                        words they uttered, not having any apparent connexion with visible objects,
                        I was unable to discover any clue by which I could unravel the mystery of
                        their reference. By great application, however, and after having <pb n="[2.59 - page breaks after 're-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/59.jpg"/>
                        remained during the space of several revolutions of the moon in my hovel, I
                        discovered the names that were given to some of the most familiar objects of
                        discourse; I learned and applied the words <hi rend="italic">(fire)</hi>,
                           <hi rend="italic">(milk)</hi>, <hi rend="italic">(bread)</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">(wood)</hi>. I learned also the names of the cottagers
                        themselves. The youth and his companion had each of them several names, but
                        the old man had only one, which was <hi rend="italic">(father)</hi>. The
                        girl was called <hi rend="italic">(sister)</hi>, or <persName>
                                            <hi rend="italic">(Agatha)</hi>
                                        </persName>; and the youth <persName>
                                            <hi rend="italic">(Felix)</hi>
                        </persName>, <hi rend="italic">(brother)</hi>, or <hi rend="italic">(son)</hi>. I cannot describe the delight I felt when I learned the
                        ideas appropriated to each of these sounds, and was able to pronounce them.
                        I distinguished several other words, without being able as yet to understand
                        or apply them; such as <hi rend="italic">(good)</hi>, <hi rend="italic">(dearest)</hi>, <hi rend="italic">(unhappy)</hi>.</p>
                     <p>I spent the winter in this manner. The gentle manners and beauty of the <pb n="[2.60]" facs="pageImages/vol2/60.jpg"/> cottagers greatly endeared
                        them to me; when they were unhappy, I felt depressed; when they rejoiced, I
                        sympathized in their joys. I saw few human beings beside them; and if any
                        other happened to enter the cottage, their harsh manners and rude gait only
                        enhanced to me the superior accomplishments of my friends. The old man, I
                        could perceive, often endeavoured to encourage his children, as sometimes I
                        found that he called them, to cast off their melancholy. He would talk in a
                        cheerful accent, with an expression of goodness that bestowed pleasure even
                        upon me. <persName>Agatha</persName> listened with respect, her eyes
                        sometimes filled with tears, which she endeavoured to wipe away unperceived;
                        but I generally found that her countenance and tone were more cheerful after
                        having listened to the exhortations of her father. It was not thus with
                           <persName>Felix</persName>. He <pb n="[2.61]" facs="pageImages/vol2/61.jpg"/> was always the saddest of the groupe;
                        and, even to my unpractised senses, he appeared to have suffered more deeply
                        than his friends. But if his countenance was more sorrowful, his voice was
                        more cheerful than that of his sister, especially when he addressed the old
                        man.</p>
                     <p>I could mention innumerable instances, which, although slight, marked the
                        dispositions of these amiable cottagers. In the midst of poverty and want,
                           <persName>Felix</persName> carried with pleasure to his sister the first
                        little white flower that peeped out from beneath the snowy ground. Early in
                        the morning before she had risen, he cleared away the snow that obstructed
                        her path to the milk-house, drew water from the well, and brought the wood
                        from the out-house, where, to his perpetual astonishment, he found his store
                        always <pb n="[2.62 - page breaks after 'reple-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/62.jpg"/> replenished by an invisible hand. In the
                        day, I believe, he worked sometimes for a neighbouring farmer, because he
                        often went forth, and did not return until dinner, yet brought no wood with
                        him. At other times he worked in the garden; but, as there was little to do
                        in the frosty season, he read to the old man and
                        <persName>Agatha</persName>.</p>
                     <p>This reading had puzzled me extremely at first; but, by degrees, I
                        discovered that he uttered many of the same sounds when he read as when he
                        talked. I conjectured, therefore, that he found on the paper signs for
                        speech which he understood, and I ardently longed to comprehend these also;
                        but how was that possible, when I did not even understand the sounds for
                        which they stood as signs? I improved, however, sensibly in this science,
                        but not sufficiently to follow up any kind of <pb n="[2.63]" facs="pageImages/vol2/63.jpg"/> conversation, although I applied my whole
                        mind to the endeavour: for I easily perceived that, although I eagerly
                        longed to discover myself to the cottagers, I ought not to make the attempt
                        until I had first become master of their language; which knowledge might
                        enable me to make them overlook the deformity of my figure; for with this
                        also the contrast perpetually presented to my eyes had made me
                        acquainted.</p>
                     <p>I had admired the perfect forms of my cottagers—their grace, beauty, and
                        delicate complexions: but how was I terrified, when I viewed myself in a
                        transparent pool! At first I started back, unable to believe that it was
                        indeed I who was reflected in the mirror; and when I became fully convinced
                        that I was in reality the monster that I am, I was filled with the bitterest
                           <pb n="[2.64 - page breaks after 'sen-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/64.jpg"/>
                        sensations of despondence and mortification. Alas! I did not yet entirely
                        know the fatal effects of this miserable deformity.</p>
                     <p>As the sun became warmer, and the light of day longer, the snow vanished,
                        and I beheld the bare trees and the black earth. From this time
                           <persName>Felix</persName> was more employed; and the heart-moving
                        indications of impending famine disappeared. Their food, as I afterwards
                        found, was coarse, but it was wholesome; and they procured a sufficiency of
                        it. Several new kinds of plants sprung up in the garden, which they dressed;
                        and these signs of comfort increased daily as the season advanced.</p>
                     <p>The old man, leaning on his son, walked each day at noon, when it did not
                        rain, as I found it was called when the heavens poured forth its waters. <pb n="[2.65]" facs="pageImages/vol2/65.jpg"/> This frequently took place;
                        but a high wind quickly dried the earth, and the season became far more
                        pleasant than it had been.</p>
                     <p>My mode of life in my hovel was uniform. During the morning I attended the
                        motions of the cottagers; and when they were dispersed in various
                        occupations, I slept: the remainder of the day was spent in observing my
                        friends. When they had retired to rest, if there was any moon, or the night
                        was star-light, I went into the woods, and collected my own food and fuel
                        for the cottage. When I returned, as often as it was necessary, I cleared
                        their path of the snow, and performed those offices that I had seen done by
                           <persName>Felix</persName>. I afterwards found that these labours,
                        performed by an invisible hand, greatly astonished them; and once or twice I
                        heard them, on these <pb n="[2.66]" facs="pageImages/vol2/66.jpg"/>
                        occasions, utter the words <hi rend="italic">(good spirit)</hi>, <hi rend="italic">(wonderful)</hi>; but I did not then understand the
                        signification of these terms.</p>
                     <p>My thoughts now became more active, and I longed to discover the motives and
                        feelings of these lovely creatures; I was inquisitive to know why
                           <persName>Felix</persName> appeared so miserable, and
                           <persName>Agatha</persName> so sad. I thought (foolish wretch!) that it
                        might be in my power to restore happiness to these deserving people. When I
                        slept, or was absent, the forms of the venerable blind father, the gentle
                           <persName>Agatha</persName>, and the excellent
                        <persName>Felix</persName>, flitted before me. I looked upon them as
                        superior beings, who would be the arbiters of my future destiny. I formed in
                        my imagination a thousand pictures of presenting myself to them, and their
                        reception of me. I imagined that they would be disgusted, until, by my
                        gentle demeanour and conciliating <pb n="[2.67]" facs="pageImages/vol2/67.jpg"/> words, I should first win their favour,
                        and afterwards their love.</p>
                     <p>These thoughts exhilarated me, and led me to apply with fresh ardour to the
                        acquiring the art of language. My organs were indeed harsh, but supple: and
                        although my voice was very unlike the soft music of their tones, yet I
                        pronounced such words as I understood with tolerable ease. It was as the ass
                        and the lap-dog; yet surely the gentle ass whose intentions were
                        affectionate, although his manners were rude, deserved better treatment than
                        blows and execration.</p>
                     <p>The pleasant showers and genial warmth of spring greatly altered the aspect
                        of the earth. Men, who before this change seemed to have been hid in caves,
                        dispersed themselves, and were employed in various arts of cultivation. The
                        birds sang in more <pb n="[2.68 - page breaks after 'cheer-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/68.jpg"/> cheerful notes, and the leaves began to
                        bud forth on the trees. Happy, happy earth! fit habitation for gods, which,
                        so short a time before, was bleak, damp, and unwholesome. My spirits were
                        elevated by the enchanting appearance of nature; the past was blotted from
                        my memory, the present was tranquil, and the future gilded by bright rays of
                        hope, and anticipations of joy.</p>
                                </said>
                            </said>


            </div>







            <div n="2.5" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[2.69]" facs="pageImages/vol2/69.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter V</head>







               <said who="#victor">
                  <said who="#creature">
                     <p>I NOW hasten to the more moving part of my story. I shall relate events that
                        impressed me with feelings which, from what I was, have made me what I
                        am.</p>
                     <p>Spring advanced rapidly; the weather became fine, and the skies cloudless.
                        It surprised me, that what before was desert and gloomy should now bloom
                        with the most beautiful flowers and verdure. My senses were gratified and
                        refreshed by a thousand scents of delight, and a thousand sights of
                        beauty.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.70]" facs="pageImages/vol2/70.jpg"/>
                     <p>It was on one of these days, when my cottagers periodically rested from
                        labour—the old man played on his guitar, and the children listened to him—I
                        observed that the countenance of <persName>Felix</persName> was melancholy
                        beyond expression; he sighed frequently; and once his father paused in his
                        music, and I conjectured by his manner that he inquired the cause of his
                        son's sorrow. <persName>Felix</persName> replied in a cheerful accent, and
                        the old man was recommencing his music when some one tapped at the door.</p>
                     <p>It was a lady on horseback, accompanied by a countryman as a guide. The lady
                        was dressed in a dark suit, and covered with a thick black veil.
                           <persName>Agatha</persName> asked a question; to which the stranger only
                        replied by pronouncing, in a sweet accent, the name of
                           <persName>Felix</persName>. Her voice was musical, but unlike that of <pb n="[2.71]" facs="pageImages/vol2/71.jpg"/> either of my friends. On
                        hearing this word, <persName>Felix</persName> came up hastily to the lady;
                        who, when she saw him, threw up her veil, and I beheld a countenance of
                        angelic beauty and expression. Her hair of a shining raven black, and
                        curiously braided; her eyes were dark, but gentle, although animated; her
                        features of a regular proportion, and her complexion wondrously fair, each
                        cheek tinged with a lovely pink.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <persName>Felix</persName> seemed ravished with delight when he saw her,
                        every trait of sorrow vanished from his face, and it instantly expressed a
                        degree of ecstatic joy, of which I could hardly have believed it capable;
                        his eyes sparkled, as his cheek flushed with pleasure; and at that moment I
                        thought him as beautiful as the stranger. She appeared affected by different
                        feelings; wiping a few tears from her lovely eyes, <pb n="[2.72]" facs="pageImages/vol2/72.jpg"/> she held out her hand to
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, who kissed it rapturously, and called her, as
                        well as I could distinguish, his sweet <persName>Arabian</persName>. She did
                        not appear to understand him, but smiled. He assisted her to dismount, and,
                        dismissing her guide, conducted her into the cottage. Some conversation took
                        place between him and his father; and the young stranger knelt at the old
                        man's feet, and would have kissed his hand, but he raised her, and embraced
                        her affectionately.</p>
                     <p>I soon perceived, that although the stranger uttered articulate sounds, and
                        appeared to have a language of her own, she was neither understood by, or
                        herself understood, the cottagers. They made many signs which I did not
                        comprehend; but I saw that her presence diffused gladness through the
                        cottage, dispelling their sorrow as the sun dissipates the morning mists.
                           <persName>Felix</persName> seemed <pb n="[2.73]" facs="pageImages/vol2/73.jpg"/> peculiarly happy, and with smiles of
                        delight welcomed his <persName>Arabian</persName>.
                           <persName>Agatha</persName>, the ever-gentle <persName>Agatha</persName>,
                        kissed the hands of the lovely stranger; and, pointing to her brother, made
                        signs which appeared to me to mean that he had been sorrowful until she
                        came. Some hours passed thus, while they, by their countenances, expressed
                        joy, the cause of which I did not comprehend. Presently I found, by the
                        frequent recurrence of one sound which the stranger repeated after them,
                        that she was endeavouring to learn their language; and the idea instantly
                        occurred to me, that I should make use of the same instructions to the same
                        end. The stranger learned about twenty words at the first lesson, most of
                        them indeed were those which I had before understood, but I profited by the
                        others.</p>
                     <p>As night came on, <persName>Agatha</persName> and the <pb n="[2.74]" facs="pageImages/vol2/74.jpg"/>
                        <persName>Arabian</persName> retired early. When they separated,
                           <persName>Felix</persName> kissed the hand of the stranger, and said,
                        Good night, sweet <persName>Safie</persName>. He sat up much longer,
                        conversing with his father; and, by the frequent repetition of her name, I
                        conjectured that their lovely guest was the subject of their conversation. I
                        ardently desired to understand them, and bent every faculty towards that
                        purpose, but found it utterly impossible.</p>
                     <p>The next morning <persName>Felix</persName> went out to his work; and, after
                        the usual occupations of <persName>Agatha</persName> were finished, the
                           <persName>Arabian</persName> sat at the feet of the old man, and, taking
                        his guitar, played some airs so entrancingly beautiful, that they at once
                        drew tears of sorrow and delight from my eyes. She sang, and her voice
                        flowed in a rich cadence, swelling or dying away, like a nightingale of the
                        woods.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.75]" facs="pageImages/vol2/75.jpg"/>
                     <p>When she had finished, she gave the guitar to <persName>Agatha</persName>,
                        who at first declined it. She played a simple air, and her voice accompanied
                        it in sweet accents, but unlike the wondrous strain of the stranger. The old
                        man appeared enraptured, and said some words, which
                           <persName>Agatha</persName> endeavoured to explain to
                           <persName>Safie</persName>, and by which he appeared to wish to express
                        that she bestowed on him the greatest delight by her music.</p>
                     <p>The days now passed as peacefully as before, with the sole alteration that
                        joy had taken the place of sadness in the countenances of my friends.
                           <persName>Safie</persName> was always gay and happy; she and I improved
                        rapidly in the knowledge of language, so that in two months I began to
                        comprehend most of the words uttered by my protectors.</p>
                     <p>In the meanwhile also the black ground was covered with herbage, and <pb n="[2.76]" facs="pageImages/vol2/76.jpg"/> the green banks interspersed
                        with innumerable flowers, sweet to the scent and the eyes, stars of pale
                        radiance among the moonlight woods; the sun became warmer, the nights clear
                        and balmy; and my nocturnal rambles were an extreme pleasure to me, although
                        they were considerably shortened by the late setting and early rising of the
                        sun; for I never ventured abroad during day-light, fearful of meeting with
                        the same treatment as I had formerly endured in the first village which I
                        entered.</p>
                     <p>My days were spent in close attention, that I might more speedily master the
                        language; and I may boast that I improved more rapidly than the
                           <persName>Arabian</persName>, who understood very little, and conversed
                        in broken accents, whilst I comprehended and could imitate almost every word
                        that was spoken.</p>
                     <p>While I improved in speech, I also <pb n="[2.77]" facs="pageImages/vol2/77.jpg"/> learned the science of letters, as it was
                        taught to the stranger; and this opened before me a wide field for wonder
                        and delight.</p>
                     <p>The book from which <persName>Felix</persName> instructed
                           <persName>Safie</persName> was <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Volney's Ruins of
                              Empires</title>
                                        </hi> . I should not have understood the purport of
                        this book, had not <persName>Felix</persName>, in reading it, given very
                        minute explanations. He had chosen this work, he said, because the
                        declamatory style was framed in imitation of the eastern authors. Through
                        this work I obtained a cursory knowledge of history, and a view of the
                        several empires at present existing in the world; it gave me an insight into
                        the manners, governments, and religions of the different nations of the
                        earth. I heard of the slothful Asiatics; of the stupendous genius and mental
                        activity of the Grecians; of the wars and wonderful virtue of the early
                        Romans— <pb n="[2.78]" facs="pageImages/vol2/78.jpg"/> of their subsequent
                        degeneration—of the decline of that mighty empire; of chivalry,
                        Christianity, and kings. I heard of the discovery of the <placeName type="tgn" key="8698314">American hemisphere</placeName>, and wept with
                           <persName>Safie</persName> over the hapless fate of its original
                        inhabitants.</p>
                     <p>These wonderful narrations inspired me with strange feelings. Was man,
                        indeed, at once so powerful, so virtuous, and magnificent, yet so vicious
                        and base? He appeared at one time a mere scion of the evil principle, and at
                        another as all that can be conceived of noble and godlike. To be a great and
                        virtuous man appeared the highest honour that can befall a sensitive being;
                        to be base and vicious, as many on record have been, appeared the lowest
                        degradation, a condition more abject than that of the blind mole or harmless
                        worm. For a long time I could not conceive how one man could go <pb n="[2.79]" facs="pageImages/vol2/79.jpg"/> forth to murder his fellow, or
                        even why there were laws and governments; but when I heard details of vice
                        and bloodshed, my wonder ceased, and I turned away with disgust and
                        loathing.</p>
                     <p>Every conversation of the cottagers now opened new wonders to me. While I
                        listened to the instructions which <persName>Felix</persName> bestowed upon
                        the <persName>Arabian</persName>, the strange system of human society was
                        explained to me. I heard of the division of property, of immense wealth and
                        squalid poverty; of rank, descent, and noble blood.</p>
                     <p>The words induced me to turn towards myself. I learned that the possessions
                        most esteemed by your fellow-creatures were, high and unsullied descent
                        united with riches. A man might be respected with only one of these
                        acquisitions; but without either he was considered, except in very rare
                        instances, <pb n="[2.80]" facs="pageImages/vol2/80.jpg"/> as a vagabond and
                        a slave, doomed to waste his powers for the profit of the chosen few. And
                        what was I? Of my creation and creator I was absolutely ignorant; but I knew
                        that I possessed no money, no friends, no kind of property. I was, besides,
                        endowed with a figure hideously deformed and loathsome; I was not even of
                        the same nature as man. I was more agile than they, and could subsist upon
                        coarser diet; I bore the extremes of heat and cold with less injury to my
                        frame; my stature far exceeded their's. When I looked around, I saw and
                        heard of none like me. Was I then a monster, a blot upon the earth, from
                        which all men fled, and whom all men disowned?</p>
                     <p>I cannot describe to you the agony that these reflections inflicted upon me;
                        I tried to dispel them, but sorrow only increased with knowledge. Oh, that
                           <pb n="[2.81]" facs="pageImages/vol2/81.jpg"/> I had forever remained in
                        my native wood, nor known or felt beyond the sensations of hunger, thirst,
                        and heat!</p>
                     <p>Of what a strange nature is knowledge! It clings to the mind, when it has
                        once seized on it, like a lichen on the rock. I wished sometimes to shake
                        off all thought and feeling; but I learned that there was but one means to
                        overcome the sensation of pain, and that was death—a state which I feared
                        yet did not understand. I admired virtue and good feelings, and loved the
                        gentle manners and amiable qualities of my cottagers; but I was shut out
                        from intercourse with them, except through means which I obtained by
                        stealth, when I was unseen and unknown, and which rather increased than
                        satisfied the desire I had of becoming one among my fellows. The gentle
                        words of <persName>Agatha</persName>, <pb n="[2.82]" facs="pageImages/vol2/82.jpg"/> and the animated smiles of the charming
                           <persName>Arabian</persName>, were not for me. The mild exhortations of
                        the old man, and the lively conversation of the loved
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, were not for me. Miserable, unhappy
                        wretch!</p>
                     <p>Other lessons were impressed upon me even more deeply. I heard of the
                        difference of sexes; of the birth and growth of children; how the father
                        doated on the smiles of the infant, and the lively sallies of the older
                        child; how all the life and cares of the mother were wrapped up in the
                        precious charge; how the mind of youth expanded and gained knowledge; of
                        brother, sister, and all the various relationships which bind one human
                        being to another in mutual bonds.</p>
                     <p>But where were my friends and relations? No father had watched my infant
                        days, no mother had blessed me <pb n="[2.83]" facs="pageImages/vol2/83.jpg"/> with smiles and caresses; or if they had, all my past life was now a
                        blot, a blind vacancy in which I distinguished nothing. From my earliest
                        remembrance I had been as I then was in height and proportion. I had never
                        yet seen a being resembling me, or who claimed any intercourse with me. What
                        was I? The question again recurred, to be answered only with groans.</p>
                     <p>I will soon explain to what these feelings tended; but allow me now to
                        return to the cottagers, whose story excited in me such various feelings of
                        indignation, delight, and wonder, but which all terminated in additional
                        love and reverence for my protectors (for so I loved, in an innocent, half
                        painful self-deceit, to call them).</p>
                  </said>
                            </said>


            </div>










            <div n="2.6" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[2.84]" facs="pageImages/vol2/84.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VI</head>







               <said who="#victor">
                  <said who="#creature">
                     <p>SOME time elapsed before I learned the history of my friends. It was one
                        which could not fail to impress itself deeply on my mind, unfolding as it
                        did a number of circumstances each interesting and wonderful to one so
                        utterly inexperienced as I was.</p>
                     <p>The name of the old man was <persName>De Lacey</persName>. He was descended
                        from a good family in <placeName type="tgn" key="1000070">France</placeName>, where he had lived for many years in affluence,
                        respected by his superiors, and beloved by his equals. His son was bred in
                        the <pb n="[2.85 - page breaks after 'ser-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/85.jpg"/> service of his country; and <persName>Agatha</persName> had ranked with
                        ladies of the highest distinction. A few months before my arrival, they had
                        lived in a large and luxurious city, called <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>, surrounded by friends, and possessed of
                        every enjoyment which virtue, refinement of intellect, or taste, accompanied
                        by a moderate fortune, could afford.</p>
                     <p>The father of <persName>Safie</persName> had been the cause of their ruin.
                        He was a <foreign>Turkish</foreign> merchant, and had inhabited <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName> for many years, when, for some
                        reason which I could not learn, he became obnoxious to the government. He
                        was seized and cast into prison the very day that <persName>Safie</persName>
                        arrived from <placeName type="tgn" key="7002473">Constantinople</placeName>
                        to join him. He was tried, and condemned to death. The injustice of his
                        sentence was very flagrant; all <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName> was indignant; and it was judged that his religion and
                        wealth, rather than the <pb n="[2.86]" facs="pageImages/vol2/86.jpg"/> crime
                        alleged against him, had been the cause of his condemnation.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <persName>Felix</persName> had been present at the trial; his horror and
                        indignation were uncontrollable, when he heard the decision of the court. He
                        made, at that moment, a solemn vow to deliver him, and then looked around
                        for the means. After many fruitless attempts to gain admittance to the
                        prison, he found a strongly grated window in an unguarded part of the
                        building, which lighted the dungeon of the unfortunate Mahometan; who,
                        loaded with chains, waited in despair the execution of the barbarous
                        sentence. <persName>Felix</persName> visited the grate at night, and made
                        known to the prisoner his intentions in his favour. The
                           <persName>Turk</persName>, amazed and delighted, endeavoured to kindle
                        the zeal of his deliverer by promises of reward and wealth.
                           <persName>Felix</persName> rejected his offers with contempt; yet <pb n="[2.87]" facs="pageImages/vol2/87.jpg"/> when he saw the lovely
                           <persName>Safie</persName>, who was allowed to visit her father, and who,
                        by her gestures, expressed her lively gratitude, the youth could not help
                        owning to his own mind, that the captive possessed a treasure which would
                        fully reward his toil and hazard.</p>
                     <p>The <persName>Turk</persName> quickly perceived the impression that his
                        daughter had made on the heart of <persName>Felix</persName>, and
                        endeavoured to secure him more entirely in his interests by the promise of
                        her hand in marriage, so soon as he should be conveyed to a place of safety.
                           <persName>Felix</persName> was too delicate to accept this offer; yet he
                        looked forward to the probability of the event as to that consummation of
                        his happiness.</p>
                     <p>During the ensuing days, while the preparations were going forward for the
                        escape of the merchant, the zeal of <persName>Felix</persName> was warmed by
                        several letters <pb n="[2.88]" facs="pageImages/vol2/88.jpg"/> that he
                        received from this lovely girl, who found means to express her thoughts in
                        the language of her lover by the aid of an old man, a servant of her
                        father's, who understood <foreign>French</foreign>. She thanked him in the
                        most ardent terms for his intended services towards her father; and at the
                        same time deeply deplored her own fate.</p>
                     <p>I have copies of these letters; for I found means, during my residence in
                        the hovel, to procure the implements of writing; and the letters were often
                        in the hands of <persName>Felix</persName> or <persName>Agatha</persName>.
                        Before I depart, I will give them to you, they will prove the truth of my
                        tale; but at present, as the sun is already far declined, I shall only have
                        time to repeat the substance of them to you.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <persName>Safie</persName> related, that her mother was a Christian Arab,
                        seized and made a slave by the Turks; recommended by <pb n="[2.89]" facs="pageImages/vol2/89.jpg"/> her beauty, she had won the heart of the
                        father of <persName>Safie</persName>, who married her. The young girl spoke
                        in high and enthusiastic terms of her mother, who, born in freedom spurned
                        the bondage to which she was now reduced. She instructed her daughter in the
                        tenets of her religion, and taught her to aspire to higher powers of
                        intellect, and an independence of spirit, forbidden to the female followers
                        of <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79130881">Mahomet</persName>. This lady
                        died; but her lessons were indelibly impressed on the mind of
                           <persName>Safie</persName>, who sickened at the prospect of again
                        returning to <placeName type="tgn" key="1000004">Asia</placeName>, and the
                        being immured within the walls of a haram, allowed only to occupy herself
                        with puerile amusements, ill suited to the temper of her soul, now
                        accustomed to grand ideas and a noble emulation for virtue. The prospect of
                        marrying a Christian, and remaining in a country <pb n="[2.90]" facs="pageImages/vol2/90.jpg"/> where women were allowed to take a rank
                        in society, was enchanting to her.</p>
                     <p>The day for the execution of the <persName>Turk</persName> was fixed; but,
                        on the night previous to it, he had quitted prison, and before morning was
                        distant many leagues from <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>. <persName>Felix</persName> had procured passports in
                        the name of his father, sister, and himself. He had previously communicated
                        his plan to the former, who aided the deceit by quitting his house, under
                        the pretence of a journey, and concealed himself, with his daughter, in an
                        obscure part of <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <persName>Felix</persName> conducted the fugitives through <placeName type="tgn" key="1000070">France</placeName> to <placeName type="tgn" key="7008772">Lyons</placeName>, and across <placeName type="tgn" key="1117354">Mont Cenis</placeName> to <placeName type="tgn" key="7006074">Leghorn</placeName>, where the merchant had decided to wait
                        a favourable opportunity of passing into some part of the
                           <foreign>Turkish</foreign> dominions.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <persName>Safie</persName> resolved to remain with her father until the
                        moment of his <pb n="[2.91 - page breaks after 'depar-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/91.jpg"/> departure, before which time the
                           <persName>Turk</persName> renewed his promise that she should be united
                        to his deliverer; and <persName>Felix</persName> remained with them in
                        expectation of that event; and in the mean time he enjoyed the society of
                        the <persName>Arabian</persName>, who exhibited towards him the simplest and
                        tenderest affection. They conversed with one another through the means of an
                        interpreter, and sometimes with the interpretation of looks; and
                           <persName>Safie</persName> sang to him the divine airs of her native
                        country.</p>
                     <p>The <persName>Turk</persName> allowed this intimacy to take place, and
                        encouraged the hopes of the youthful lovers, while in his heart he had
                        formed far other plans. He loathed the idea that his daughter should be
                        united to a Christian; but he feared the resentment of
                           <persName>Felix</persName> if he should appear lukewarm; for he knew that
                        he was still in the power of his deliverer, if he should choose to betray
                           <pb n="[2.92]" facs="pageImages/vol2/92.jpg"/> him to the Italian state
                        which they inhabited. He revolved a thousand plans by which he should be
                        enabled to prolong the deceit until it might be no longer necessary, and
                        secretly to take his daughter with him when he departed. His plans were
                        greatly facilitated by the news which arrived from <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>.</p>
                     <p>The government of <placeName type="tgn" key="1000070">France</placeName>
                        were greatly enraged at the escape of their victim, and spared no pains to
                        detect and punish his deliverer. The plot of <persName>Felix</persName> was
                        quickly discovered, and <persName>De Lacey</persName> and
                           <persName>Agatha</persName> were thrown into prison. The news reached
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, and roused him from his dream of pleasure.
                        His blind and aged father, and his gentle sister, lay in a noisome dungeon,
                        while he enjoyed the free air, and the society of her whom he loved. This
                        idea was torture to him. He quickly arranged with the
                           <persName>Turk</persName>, that if the <pb n="[2.93 - page breaks after 'lat-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/93.jpg"/>
                        latter should find a favourable opportunity for escape before
                           <persName>Felix</persName> could return to Italy,
                           <persName>Safie</persName> should remain as a boarder at a convent at
                        Leghorn; and then, quitting the lovely <persName>Arabian</persName>, he
                        hastened to <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>, and
                        delivered himself up to the vengeance of the law, hoping to free
                           <persName>De Lacey</persName> and <persName>Agatha</persName> by this
                        proceeding.</p>
                     <p>He did not succeed. They remained confined for five months before the trial
                        took place; the result of which deprived them of their fortune, and
                        condemned them to a perpetual exile from their native country.</p>
                     <p>They found a miserable asylum in the cottage in <placeName type="tgn" key="7000084">Germany</placeName>, where I discovered them.
                           <persName>Felix</persName> soon learned that the treacherous
                           <persName>Turk</persName>, for whom he and his family endured such
                        unheard-of oppression, on discovering that his deliverer was thus reduced to
                        poverty and <pb n="[2.94]" facs="pageImages/vol2/94.jpg"/> impotence, became
                        a traitor to good feeling and honour, and had quitted <placeName type="tgn" key="1000080">Italy</placeName> with his daughter, insultingly sending
                           <persName>Felix</persName> a pittance of money to aid him, as he said, in
                        some plan of future maintenance.</p>
                     <p>Such were the events that preyed on the heart of <persName>Felix</persName>,
                        and rendered him, when I first saw him, the most miserable of his family. He
                        could have endured poverty, and when this distress had been the meed of his
                        virtue, he would have gloried in it: but the ingratitude of the
                           <persName>Turk</persName>, and the loss of his beloved
                           <persName>Safie</persName>, were misfortunes more bitter and irreparable.
                        The arrival of the <persName>Arabian</persName> now infused new life into
                        his soul.</p>
                     <p>When the news reached <placeName type="tgn" key="7006074">Leghorn</placeName>, that <persName>Felix</persName> was deprived of his
                        wealth and rank, the merchant commanded his daughter to think no more of her
                           <pb n="[2.95]" facs="pageImages/vol2/95.jpg"/> lover, but to prepare to
                        return with him to her native country. The generous nature of
                           <persName>Safie</persName> was outraged by this command; she attempted to
                        expostulate with her father, but he left her angrily, reiterating his
                        tyrannical mandate.</p>
                     <p>A few days after, the <persName>Turk</persName> entered his daughter's
                        apartment, and told her hastily, that he had reason to believe that his
                        residence at <placeName type="tgn" key="7006074">Leghorn</placeName> had
                        been divulged, and that he should speedily be delivered up to the
                           <foreign>French</foreign> government; he had, consequently, hired a
                        vessel to convey him to <placeName type="tgn" key="7002473">Constantinople</placeName>, for which city he should sail in a few
                        hours. He intended to leave his daughter under the care of a confidential
                        servant, to follow at her leisure with the greater part of his property,
                        which had not yet arrived at Leghorn.</p>
                     <p>When alone, <persName>Safie</persName> resolved in her <pb n="[2.96]" facs="pageImages/vol2/96.jpg"/> own mind the plan of conduct that it
                        would become her to pursue in this emergency. A residence in <placeName type="tgn" key="1000144">Turkey</placeName> was abhorrent to her; her
                        religion and her feelings were alike adverse to it. By some papers of her
                        father's, which fell into her hands, she heard of the exile of her lover,
                        and learnt the name of the spot where he then resided. She hesitated some
                        time, but at length she formed her determination. Taking with her some
                        jewels that belonged to her, and a small sum of money, she quitted Italy,
                        with an attendant, a native of <placeName type="tgn" key="7006074">Leghorn</placeName>, but who understood the common language of
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="1000144">Turkey</placeName>, and departed for
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="7000084">Germany</placeName>.</p>
                     <p>She arrived in safety at a town about twenty leagues from the cottage of
                           <persName>De Lacey</persName>, when her attendant fell dangerously ill.
                           <persName>Safie</persName> nursed her with the most devoted affection;
                        but the <pb n="[2.97]" facs="pageImages/vol2/97.jpg"/> poor girl died, and
                        the <persName>Arabian</persName> was left alone, unacquainted with the
                        language of the country, and utterly ignorant of the customs of the world.
                        She fell, however, into good hands. The Italian had mentioned the name of
                        the spot for which they were bound; and, after her death, the woman of the
                        house in which they had lived took care that <persName>Safie</persName>
                        should arrive in safety at the cottage of her lover.</p>
                                </said>
                            </said>







            </div>


            <div n="2.7" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[2.98]" facs="pageImages/vol2/98.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VII</head>


               <said who="#victor">
                  <said who="#creature">
                     <p>SUCH was the history of my beloved cottagers. It impressed me deeply. I
                        learned, from the views of social life which it developed, to admire their
                        virtues, and to deprecate the vices of mankind.</p>
                     <p>As yet I looked upon crime as a distant evil; benevolence and generosity
                        were ever present before me, inciting within me a desire to become an actor
                        in the busy scene where so many admirable qualities were called forth and
                        displayed. But, in giving an account of the progress of my intellect, I must
                           <pb n="[2.99]" facs="pageImages/vol2/99.jpg"/> not omit a circumstance
                        which occurred in the beginning of the month of <date>August</date> of the
                        same year.</p>
                     <p>One night, during my accustomed visit to the neighbouring wood, where I
                        collected my own food, and brought home firing for my protectors, I found on
                        the ground a leathern portmanteau, containing several articles of dress and
                        some books. I eagerly seized the prize, and returned with it to my hovel.
                        Fortunately the books were written in the language the elements of which I
                        had acquired at the cottage; they consisted of <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Paradise Lost</title>
                                        </hi>, a volume of <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Plutarch's Lives</title>
                                        </hi>, and the <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>
                              <ref target="Sorrows_of_Young_Werther_" corresp="Sorrows_of_Young_Werther"> Sorrows of Werter</ref>
                           </title>
                                        </hi>
                        <note xml:id="Sorrows_of_Young_Werther" target="Sorrows_of_Young_Werther_" type="editorial" resp="editors.xml#AF">
                           <graphic url="https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/0f/Goethe_1774.JPG"/>
                           <hi rend="italic">
                                                <ref target="https://ebooks.adelaide.edu.au/g/goethe/sorrows-of-young-werther/">The Sorrows of Young Werther</ref>
                                            </hi> is an epistolary novel by
                           Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, first published in 1774. The story follows
                           the life of <ref target="https://www.britannica.com/topic/The-Sorrows-of-Young-Werther">Werther</ref>, a young artist, who is writing to his friend Wilhelm.
                           Werther falls in love with Charlotte, a woman already promised to his
                           friend, Albert. Despite the agony caused by this love triangle, Werther
                           cultivates a friendship with the couple, until the pain and sorrow of his
                           love overpowers him and he leaves. When Werther returns, he finds the
                           couple now married. He lessens his visits to Charlotte, out of respect
                           for her husband, but ultimately realizes that in order to resolve the
                           love triangle, he must die. He commits suicide, and the novel ends with
                           Charlotte potentially dying of a broken heart. The novel was an amazing
                           hit, creating a wave not only in literary circles but also across fashion
                           and society. As <ref target="https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/13-reasons-why-and-suicide-contagion1/">Patrick Devitt</ref> summarizes, "It was widely believed that von
                           Goethe’s work led to a wave of young men deciding to end their lives all
                           over Europe, many of whom were dressed in the same clothing as von
                           Goethe’s description of Werther and using similar pistols. Some even had
                           the copies of the novel beside their bodies with the page opened to the
                           page of the suicide scene." This became known as the <ref target="https://www.openaccessgovernment.org/the-werther-effect/42915/">"Werther Effect."</ref>The novel was banned in several countries,
                           only escalating its popularity. To learn more about the Werther Effect,
                           see <ref target="http://www.jstor.org/stable/2094294">David Phillips’
                              article in <hi rend="italic">The American Sociological
                              Review</hi>
                                            </ref>. The image to the right shows the title page of the
                           first edition of <hi rend="italic">Sorrows</hi>, via Wikimedia Commons.
                           Due to its unbridled passion, valuing human emotion over human life and
                           rational thought <hi rend="italic">Sorrows</hi> was popular among the
                           Romantics. obvious influence over Mary Shelley’s novel, from the
                           epistolary format of <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> to the
                           reflections on the value of life, not only in creating life but ending
                           life (Victor contemplates suicide and the Creature praises suicide).
                           Finally, Shelley’s novel <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi> is a book of
                           unrequited love: Frankenstein’s bride is killed on their wedding night,
                           the Creature’s love is ripped apart by Frankenstein, and the Creature
                           never receives or love from another. Ultimately, the Creature most
                           identifies with <hi rend="italic">Sorrows</hi> as he is desperate to feel
                           complete through love. By invoking <hi rend="italic">Sorrows</hi> in
                           conjunction with her Creature, Shelley is both highlighting and
                           criticizing Goethe’s novel for the theme of love triumphing over all.
                           First, Shelley is critiquing <ref target="https://www.history.com/topics/enlightenment">Enlightenment
                              thinking</ref> by pointing out that problems cannot always be solved
                           using logic, especially in regards to building a human being as humans
                           are more than a series of automations or mechanical processes—humans are
                           emotional and unpredictable. In the same vein, Shelley is critiquing the
                           idea that love can be engineered to solve problems. Instead, she argues
                           the romantic idea of organically developing love, like that between Safi
                           and Felix, is desirable, unlike the engineered or arranged romances of
                           Frankenstein and Elizabeth (or the Creature’s partner to-be). To read
                           more on the reception and meanings within <hi rend="italic">Sorrows</hi>
                           see Bruce Duncan’s <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/10.7722/j.ctt81q50">
                                                <hi rend="italic">Goethe’s ‘Werther’ and the Critics</hi>
                                            </ref>. For
                           the influence <hi rend="italic">Sorrows</hi> on <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>, see Joyce Carol Oates’’<ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/1343306">Frankenstein’s Fallen
                              Angel</ref>, Rebecca Baumann’s <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein 200: The
                              Birth, Life, and Resurrection of Mary Shelley's Monster</hi>
                           <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt22p7j32.13"> (especially
                              "Case 8: The Monster’s Books")</ref>, and Clayton Koelb’s <hi rend="italic">The Revivifying Word: Literature, Philosophy, and the
                              Theory of Life in Europe's Romantic Age</hi> (especially <ref target="https://www.jstor.org/stable/10.7722/j.ctt81twn.13">"Chapter
                              8: "I sickened as I read": Mary Shelley’s <hi rend="italic">Frankenstein</hi>"</ref>). </note>. The possession of these
                        treasures gave me extreme delight; I now continually studied and exercised
                        my mind upon these histories, whilst my friends were employed in their
                        ordinary occupations.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.100]" facs="pageImages/vol2/100.jpg"/>
                     <p>I can hardly describe to you the effect of these books. They produced in me
                        an infinity of new images and feelings, that sometimes raised me to ecstasy,
                        but more frequently sunk me into the lowest dejection. In the <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Sorrows of Werter</title>
                                        </hi>, besides the interest
                        of its simple and affecting story, so many opinions are canvassed, and so
                        many lights thrown upon what had hitherto been to me obscure subjects, that
                        I found in it a never-ending source of speculation and astonishment. The
                        gentle and domestic manners it described, combined with lofty sentiments and
                        feelings, which had for their object something out of self, accorded well
                        with my experience among my protectors, and with the wants which were for
                        ever alive in my own bosom. But I thought <persName>Werter</persName>
                        himself a more divine being than I had ever beheld or <pb n="[2.101]" facs="pageImages/vol2/101.jpg"/> imagined; his character contained no
                        pretension, but it sunk deep. The disquisitions upon death and suicide were
                        calculated to fill me with wonder. I did not pretend to enter into the
                        merits of the case, yet I inclined towards the opinions of the hero, whose
                        extinction I wept, without precisely understanding it.</p>
                     <p>As I read, however, I applied much personally to my own feelings and
                        condition. I found myself similar, yet at the same time strangely unlike the
                        beings concerning whom I read, and to whose conversation I was a listener. I
                        sympathized with, and partly understood them, but I was unformed in mind; I
                        was dependent on none and related to none. The path of my departure was
                        free; and there was none to lament my annihilation. My person was hideous
                        and <pb n="[2.102]" facs="pageImages/vol2/102.jpg"/> my stature gigantic:
                        what did this mean? Who was I? What was I? Whence did I come? What was my
                        destination? These questions continually recurred, but I was unable to solve
                        them.</p>
                     <p>The volume of <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Plutarch's Lives</title>
                                        </hi>, which
                        I possessed, contained the histories of the first founders of the ancient
                        republics. This book had a far different effect upon me from the <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Sorrows of Werter</title>
                                        </hi>. I learned from <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Werter's</title>
                                        </hi> imaginations despondency and
                        gloom: but <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79026763" cert="medium">Plutarch</persName> taught me high thoughts; he elevated me above the
                        wretched sphere of my own reflections, to admire and love the heroes of past
                        ages. Many things I read surpassed my understanding and experience. I had a
                        very confused knowledge of kingdoms, wide extents of country, mighty rivers,
                        and boundless seas. But I was <pb n="[2.103]" facs="pageImages/vol2/103.jpg"/> perfectly unacquainted with towns, and large assemblages of men. The
                        cottage of my protectors had been the only school in which I had studied
                        human nature; but this book developed new and mightier scenes of action. I
                        read of men concerned in public affairs governing or massacring their
                        species. I felt the greatest ardour for virtue rise within me, and
                        abhorrence for vice, as far as I understood the signification of those
                        terms, relative as they were, as I applied them, to pleasure and pain alone.
                        Induced by these feelings, I was of course led to admire peaceable law
                        givers, <persName type="lcnaf" key="n85202845">Numa</persName>, <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79110932">Solon</persName>, and <persName type="lcnaf" key="nr96035470" cert="medium">Lycurgus</persName>, in preference to
                           <persName type="lcnaf" key="n83206699">Romulus</persName> and <persName type="lcnaf" key="no2014083772">Theseus</persName>. The patriarchal lives
                        of my protectors caused these impressions to take a firm hold on my mind;
                        perhaps, if my first introduction to humanity had been made by a young
                        soldier, burning for glory and <pb n="[2.104]" facs="pageImages/vol2/104.jpg"/> slaughter, I should have been imbued
                        with different sensations.</p>
                     <p>But <hi rend="italic">
                                            <title>Paradise Lost</title>
                                        </hi> excited different
                        and far deeper emotions. I read it, as I had read the other volumes which
                        had fallen into my hands, as a true history. It moved every feeling of
                        wonder and awe, that the picture of an omnipotent <persName>God</persName>
                        warring with his creatures was capable of exciting. I often referred the
                        several situations, as their similarity struck me, to my own. Like
                           <persName>Adam</persName>, I was created apparently united by no link to
                        any other being in existence; but his state was far different from mine in
                        every other respect. He had come forth from the hands of
                           <persName>God</persName> a perfect creature, happy and prosperous,
                        guarded by the especial care of his Creator; he was allowed to converse
                        with, and acquire knowledge from beings of a superior nature: but I was
                        wretched, <pb n="[2.105]" facs="pageImages/vol2/105.jpg"/> helpless, and
                        alone. Many times I considered <persName>Satan</persName> as the fitter
                        emblem of my condition; for often, like him, when I viewed the bliss of my
                        protectors, the bitter gall of envy rose within me.</p>
                     <p>Another circumstance strengthened and confirmed these feelings. Soon after
                        my arrival in the hovel, I discovered some papers in the pocket of the dress
                        which I had taken from your laboratory. At first I had neglected them; but
                        now that I was able to decipher the characters in which they were written, I
                        began to study them with diligence. It was your journal of the four months
                        that preceded my creation. You minutely described in these papers every step
                        you took in the progress of your work; this history was mingled with
                        accounts of domestic occurrences. You, doubtless, recollect these papers.
                        Here they are. Every <pb n="[2.106]" facs="pageImages/vol2/106.jpg"/> thing
                        is related in them which bears reference to my accursed origin; the whole
                        detail of that series of disgusting circumstances which produced it is set
                        in view; the minutest description of my odious and loathsome person is
                        given, in language which painted your own horrors, and rendered mine
                        ineffaceable. I sickened as I read.</p>
                     <p>Hateful day when I received life! I exclaimed in agony. Cursed creator! Why
                        did you form a monster so hideous that even you turned from me in disgust?
                           <persName>God</persName> in pity made man beautiful and alluring, after
                        his own image; but my form is a filthy type of your’s, more horrid from its
                        very resemblance. <persName>Satan</persName> had his companions,
                        fellow-devils, to admire and encourage him; but I am solitary and
                        detested.</p>
                     <p>These were the reflections of my hours of despondency and solitude; <pb n="[2.107]" facs="pageImages/vol2/107.jpg"/> but when I contemplated the
                        virtues of the cottagers, their amiable and benevolent dispositions, I
                        persuaded myself that when they should become acquainted with my admiration
                        of their virtues, they would compassionate me, and overlook my personal
                        deformity. Could they turn from their door one, however monstrous, who
                        solicited their compassion and friendship? I resolved, at least, not to
                        despair, but in every way to fit myself for an interview with them which
                        would decide my fate. I postponed this attempt for some months longer; for
                        the importance attached to its success inspired me with a dread lest I
                        should fail. Besides, I found that my understanding improved so much with
                        every day's experience, that I was unwilling to commence this undertaking
                        until a few more months should have added to my wisdom.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.108]" facs="pageImages/vol2/108.jpg"/>
                     <p>Several changes, in the meantime, took place in the cottage. The presence of
                           <persName>Safie</persName> diffused happiness among its inhabitants; and
                        I also found that a greater degree of plenty reigned there.
                           <persName>Felix</persName> and <persName>Agatha</persName> spent more
                        time in amusement and conversation, and were assisted in their labours by
                        servants. They did not appear rich, but they were contented and happy; their
                        feelings were serene and peaceful, while mine became every day more
                        tumultuous. Increase of knowledge only discovered to me more clearly what a
                        wretched outcast I was. I cherished hope, it is true; but it vanished, when
                        I beheld my person reflected in water, or my shadow in the moon-shine, even
                        as that frail image and that inconstant shade.</p>
                     <p>I endeavoured to crush these fears, and to fortify myself for the trial
                        which <pb n="[2.109]" facs="pageImages/vol2/109.jpg"/> in a few months I
                        resolved to undergo; and sometimes I allowed my thoughts, unchecked by
                        reason, to ramble in the fields of Paradise, and dared to fancy amiable and
                        lovely creatures sympathizing with my feelings and cheering my gloom; their
                        angelic countenances breathed smiles of consolation. But it was all a dream:
                        no <persName>Eve</persName> soothed my sorrows, or shared my thoughts; I was
                        alone. I remembered <persName>Adam's</persName> supplication to his Creator;
                        but where was mine? He had abandoned me; and, in the bitterness of my heart,
                        I cursed him.</p>
                     <p>Autumn passed thus. I saw, with surprise and grief, the leaves decay and
                        fall, and nature again assume the barren and bleak appearance it had worn
                        when I first beheld the woods and the lovely moon. Yet I did not heed the
                        bleakness of the weather; I was better fitted by my conformation for the
                        endurance of cold than heat. But my chief <pb n="[2.110]" facs="pageImages/vol2/110.jpg"/> delights were the sight of the flowers,
                        the birds, and all the gay apparel of summer; when those deserted me, I
                        turned with more attention towards the cottagers. Their happiness was not
                        decreased by the absence of summer. They loved, and sympathized with one
                        another; and their joys, depending on each other, were not interrupted by
                        the casualties that took place around them. The more I saw of them, the
                        greater became my desire to claim their protection and kindness; my heart
                        yearned to be known and loved by these amiable creatures: to see their sweet
                        looks turned towards me with affection, was the utmost limit of my ambition.
                        I dared not think that they would turn them from me with disdain and horror.
                        The poor that stopped at their door were never driven away. I asked, it is
                        true, for greater treasures than a little food or rest; I required <pb n="[2.111]" facs="pageImages/vol2/111.jpg"/> kindness and sympathy; but I
                        did not believe myself utterly unworthy of it.</p>
                     <p>The winter advanced, and an entire revolution of the seasons had taken place
                        since I awoke into life. My attention, at this time, was solely directed
                        towards my plan of introducing myself into the cottage of my protectors. I
                        revolved many projects; but that on which I finally fixed was, to enter the
                        dwelling when the blind old man should be alone. I had sagacity enough to
                        discover, that the unnatural hideousness of my person was the chief object
                        of horror with those who had formerly beheld me. My voice, although harsh,
                        had nothing terrible in it; I thought, therefore, that if, in the absence of
                        his children, I could gain the good-will and mediation of the old
                           <persName>De Lacey</persName>, I might, by his means, be tolerated by my
                        younger protectors.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.112]" facs="pageImages/vol2/112.jpg"/>
                     <p>One day, when the sun shone on the red leaves that strewed the ground, and
                        diffused cheerfulness, although it denied warmth,
                        <persName>Safie</persName>, <persName>Agatha</persName>, and
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, departed on a long country walk, and the old
                        man, at his own desire, was left alone in the cottage. When his children had
                        departed, he took up his guitar, and played several mournful, but sweet
                        airs, more sweet and mournful than I had ever heard him play before. At
                        first his countenance was illuminated with pleasure, but, as he continued,
                        thoughtfulness and sadness succeeded; at length, laying aside the
                        instrument, he sat absorbed in reflection.</p>
                     <p>My heart beat quick; this was the hour and moment of trial, which would
                        decide my hopes, or realize my fears. The servants were gone to a
                        neighbouring fair. All was silent in and around the cottage: it was an
                        excellent <pb n="[2.113 - page breaks after 'oppor-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/113.jpg"/> opportunity; yet, when I proceeded to
                        execute my plan, my limbs failed me, and I sunk to the ground. Again I rose;
                        and, exerting all the firmness of which I was master, removed the planks
                        which I had placed before my hovel to conceal my retreat. The fresh air
                        revived me, and, with renewed determination, I approached the door of their
                        cottage.</p>
                     <p>I knocked. <said who="#delacey">"Who is there?"</said> said the old
                           man—<said who="#delacey">"Come in."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>I entered; <said who="#creature">Pardon this intrusion,</said> said I, <said who="#creature">I am a traveller in want of a little rest; you would
                           greatly oblige me, if you would allow me to remain a few minutes before
                           the fire.</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"Enter,"</said> said <persName>De Lacey</persName>;
                           <said who="#delacey">"and I will try in what manner I can relieve your
                           wants; but, unfortunately, my children are from home, and, as I am blind,
                           I am afraid I shall find it difficult to procure food for
                        you."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <pb n="[2.114]" facs="pageImages/vol2/114.jpg"/>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"Do not trouble yourself, my kind host, I have food;
                           it is warmth and rest only that I need."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>I sat down, and a silence ensued. I knew that every minute was precious to
                        me, yet I remained irresolute in what manner to commence the interview; when
                        the old man addressed me—</p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"By your language, stranger, I suppose you are my
                           countryman;—are you <foreign>French</foreign>?"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"No; but I was educated by a <foreign>French</foreign>
                           family, and understand that language only. I am now going to claim the
                           protection of some friends, whom I sincerely love, and of whose favour I
                           have some hopes."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"Are these <foreign>Germans</foreign>?"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"No, they are <foreign>French</foreign>. But let us
                           change the subject. I am an unfortunate and deserted creature; I look
                           around, and I have no relation or friend <pb n="[2.115]" facs="pageImages/vol2/115.jpg"/> upon earth. These amiable people to
                           whom I go have never seen me, and know little of me. I am full of fears;
                           for if I fail there, I am an outcast in the world for ever."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"Do not despair. To be friendless is indeed to be
                           unfortunate; but the hearts of men, when unprejudiced by any obvious
                           self-interest, are full of brotherly love and charity. Rely, therefore,
                           on your hopes; and if these friends are good and amiable, do not
                           despair."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"They are kind—they are the most excellent creatures
                           in the world; but, unfortunately, they are prejudiced against me. I have
                           good dispositions; my life has been hitherto harmless, and in some degree
                           beneficial; but a fatal prejudice clouds their eyes, and where they ought
                           to see a feeling and kind friend, they behold only a detestable
                           monster."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <pb n="[2.116]" facs="pageImages/vol2/116.jpg"/>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"That is indeed unfortunate; but if you are really
                           blameless, cannot you undeceive them?"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"I am about to undertake that task; and it is on that
                           account that I feel so many overwhelming terrors. I tenderly love these
                           friends; I have, unknown to them, been for many months in the habits of
                           daily kindness towards them; but they believe that I wish to injure them,
                           and it is that prejudice which I wish to overcome."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"Where do these friends reside?"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"Near this spot."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>The old man paused, and then continued, <said who="#delacey">"If you will
                           unreservedly confide to me the particulars of your tale, I perhaps may be
                           of use in undeceiving them. I am blind, and cannot judge of your
                           countenance, but there is something in your words which persuades me that
                           you are sincere. I <pb n="[2.117]" facs="pageImages/vol2/117.jpg"/> am
                           poor, and an exile; but it will afford me true pleasure to be in any way
                           serviceable to a human creature."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"Excellent man! I thank you, and accept your generous
                           offer. You raise me from the dust by this kindness; and I trust that, by
                           your aid, I shall not be driven from the society and sympathy of your
                           fellow-creatures."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"Heaven forbid! even if you were really criminal; for
                           that can only drive you to desperation, and not instigate you to virtue.
                           I also am unfortunate; I and my family have been condemned, although
                           innocent: judge, therefore, if I do not feel for your
                           misfortunes."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"How can I thank you, my best and only benefactor?
                           From your lips first have I heard the voice of kindness directed towards
                           me; I shall be for ever grateful; and your present humanity assures me of
                           success <pb n="[2.118]" facs="pageImages/vol2/118.jpg"/> with those
                           friends whom I am on the point of meeting."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"May I know the names and residence of those
                           friends?"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>I paused. This, I thought, was the moment of decision, which was to rob me
                        of, or bestow happiness on me forever. I struggled vainly for firmness
                        sufficient to answer him, but the effort destroyed all my remaining
                        strength; I sank on the chair, and sobbed aloud. At that moment I heard the
                        steps of my younger protectors. I had not a moment to lose; but, seizing the
                        hand of the old man, I cried, <said who="#creature">"Now is the time!—save
                           and protect me! You and your family are the friends whom I seek. Do not
                           you desert me in the hour of trial!"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#delacey">"Great <persName>God</persName>!"</said> exclaimed the
                        old man, <said who="#delacey">"who are you?"</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>At that instant the cottage door <pb n="[2.119]" facs="pageImages/vol2/119.jpg"/> was opened, and
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, <persName>Safie</persName>, and
                           <persName>Agatha</persName> entered. Who can describe their horror and
                        consternation on beholding me? <persName>Agatha</persName> fainted; and
                           <persName>Safie</persName>, unable to attend to her friend, rushed out of
                        the cottage. <persName>Felix</persName> darted forward, and with
                        supernatural force tore me from his father, to whose knees I clung: in a
                        transport of fury, he dashed me to the ground and struck me violently with a
                        stick. I could have torn him limb from limb, as a lion rends the antelope.
                        But my heart sunk within me as with bitter sickness, and I refrained. I saw
                        him on the point of repeating his blow, when, overcome by pain and anguish,
                        I quitted the cottage, and in the general tumult escaped unperceived to my
                        hovel.</p>
                  </said>
               </said>


            </div>







            <div n="2.8" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[2.120]" facs="pageImages/vol2/120.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VIII</head>






               <said who="#victor">
                  <said who="#creature">
                     <p>CURSED, cursed creator! Why did I live? Why, in that instant, did I not
                        extinguish the spark of existence which you had so wantonly bestowed? I know
                        not; despair had not yet taken possession of me; my feelings were those of
                        rage and revenge. I could with pleasure have destroyed the cottage and its
                        inhabitants, and have glutted myself with their shrieks and misery.</p>
                     <p>When night came, I quitted my retreat, and wandered in the wood; and now, no
                        longer restrained by the <pb n="[2.121]" facs="pageImages/vol2/121.jpg"/>
                        fear of discovery, I gave vent to my anguish in fearful howlings. I was like
                        a wild beast that had broken the toils; destroying the objects that
                        obstructed me, and ranging through the wood with a stag-like swiftness. Oh!
                        what a miserable night I passed! the cold stars shone in mockery, and the
                        bare trees waved their branches above me: now and then the sweet voice of a
                        bird burst forth amidst the universal stillness. All, save I, were at rest
                        or in enjoyment: I, like the arch fiend, bore a hell within me; and, finding
                        myself unsympathized with, wished to tear up the trees, spread havoc and
                        destruction around me, and then to have sat down and enjoyed the ruin.</p>
                     <p>But this was a luxury of sensation that could not endure; I became fatigued
                        with excess of bodily exertion, and sank on the damp grass in the <pb n="[2.122]" facs="pageImages/vol2/122.jpg"/> sick impotence of despair.
                        There was none among the myriads of men that existed who would pity or
                        assist me; and should I feel kindness towards my enemies? No: from that
                        moment I declared everlasting war against the species, and, more than all,
                        against him who had formed me, and sent me forth to this insupportable
                        misery.</p>
                     <p>The sun rose; I heard the voices of men, and knew that it was impossible to
                        return to my retreat during that day. Accordingly I hid myself in some thick
                        underwood, determining to devote the ensuing hours to reflection on my
                        situation.</p>
                     <p>The pleasant sunshine, and the pure air of day, restored me to some degree
                        of tranquillity; and when I considered what had passed at the cottage, I
                        could not help believing that I had been too hasty in my conclusions. <pb n="[2.123]" facs="pageImages/vol2/123.jpg"/> I had certainly acted
                        imprudently. It was apparent that my conversation had interested the father
                        in my behalf, and I was a fool in having exposed my person to the horror of
                        his children. I ought to have familiarized the old <persName>De
                           Lacey</persName> to me, and by degrees to have discovered myself to the
                        rest of his family, when they should have been prepared for my approach. But
                        I did not believe my errors to be irretrievable; and, after much
                        consideration, I resolved to return to the cottage, seek the old man, and by
                        my representations win him to my party.</p>
                     <p>These thoughts calmed me, and in the afternoon I sank into a profound sleep;
                        but the fever of my blood did not allow me to be visited by peaceful dreams.
                        The horrible scene of the preceding day was for ever acting before my eyes;
                        the females were flying, <pb n="[2.124]" facs="pageImages/vol2/124.jpg"/>
                        and the enraged <persName>Felix</persName> tearing me from his father's
                        feet. I awoke exhausted; and, finding that it was already night, I crept
                        forth from my hiding place, and went in search of food.</p>
                     <p>When my hunger was appeased, I directed my steps towards the well-known path
                        that conducted to the cottage. All there was at peace. I crept into my
                        hovel, and remained in silent expectation of the accustomed hour when the
                        family arose. That hour past, the sun mounted high in the heavens, but the
                        cottagers did not appear. I trembled violently, apprehending some dreadful
                        misfortune. The inside of the cottage was dark, and I heard no motion; I
                        cannot describe the agony of this suspence.</p>
                     <p>Presently two countrymen passed by; but, pausing near the cottage, they
                        entered into conversation, using violent <pb n="[2.125]" facs="pageImages/vol2/125.jpg"/> gesticulations; but I did not understand
                        what they said, as they spoke the language of the country, which differed
                        from that of my protectors. Soon after, however, <persName>Felix</persName>
                        approached with another man: I was surprised, as I knew that he had not
                        quitted the cottage that morning, and waited anxiously to discover, from his
                        discourse, the meaning of these unusual appearances.</p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#unknown">"Do you consider,"</said> said his companion to him,
                           <said who="#unknown">"that you will be obliged to pay three months' rent,
                           and to lose the produce of your garden? I do not wish to take any unfair
                           advantage, and I beg therefore that you will take some days to consider
                           of your determination."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#felix">"It is utterly useless,"</said> replied
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, <said who="#felix">"we can never again
                           inhabit your cottage. The life of my father is in the greatest danger,
                           owing to the <pb n="[2.126]" facs="pageImages/vol2/126.jpg"/> dreadful
                           circumstance that I have related. My wife and my sister will never
                           recover their horror. I entreat you not to reason with me any more. Take
                           possession of your tenement, and let me fly from this place."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <persName>Felix</persName> trembled violently as he said this. He and his
                        companion entered the cottage, in which they remained for a few minutes, and
                        then departed. I never saw any of the family of <persName>De
                           Lacey</persName> more.</p>
                     <p>I continued for the remainder of the day in my hovel in a state of utter and
                        stupid despair. My protectors had departed, and had broken the only link
                        that held me to the world. For the first time the feelings of revenge and
                        hatred filled my bosom, and I did not strive to controul them; but, allowing
                        myself to be borne away by the stream, I bent my mind towards injury and <pb n="[2.127]" facs="pageImages/vol2/127.jpg"/> death. When I thought of my
                        friends, of the mild voice of <persName>De Lacey</persName>, the gentle eyes
                        of <persName>Agatha</persName>, and the exquisite beauty of the
                           <persName>Arabian</persName>, these thoughts vanished, and a gush of
                        tears somewhat soothed me. But again, when I reflected that they had spurned
                        and deserted me, anger returned, a rage of anger; and, unable to injure any
                        thing human, I turned my fury towards inanimate objects. As night advanced,
                        I placed a variety of combustibles around the cottage; and, after having
                        destroyed every vestige of cultivation in the garden, I waited with forced
                        impatience until the moon had sunk to commence my operations.</p>
                     <p>As the night advanced, a fierce wind arose from the woods, and quickly
                        dispersed the clouds that had loitered in the heavens: the blast tore along
                        like a mighty avelanche, and produced <pb n="[2.128]" facs="pageImages/vol2/128.jpg"/> a kind of insanity in my spirits, that
                        burst all bounds of reason and reflection. I lighted the dry branch of a
                        tree, and danced with fury around the devoted cottage, my eyes still fixed
                        on the western horizon, the edge of which the moon nearly touched. A part of
                        its orb was at length hid, and I waved my brand; it sunk, and, with a loud
                        scream, I fired the straw, and heath, and bushes, which I had collected. The
                        wind fanned the fire, and the cottage was quickly enveloped by the flames,
                        which clung to it, and licked it with their forked and destroying
                        tongues.</p>
                     <p>As soon as I was convinced that no assistance could save any part of the
                        habitation, I quitted the scene, and sought for refuge in the woods.</p>
                     <p>And now, with the world before me, whither should I bend my steps? I
                        resolved to fly far from the scene of my <pb n="[2.129]" facs="pageImages/vol2/129.jpg"/> misfortunes; but to me, hated and
                        despised, every country must be equally horrible. At length the thought of
                        you crossed my mind. I learned from your papers that you were my father, my
                        creator; and to whom could I apply with more fitness than to him who had
                        given me life? Among the lessons that <persName>Felix</persName> had
                        bestowed upon <persName>Safie</persName> geography had not been omitted: I
                        had learned from these the relative situations of the different countries of
                        the earth. You had mentioned <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> as the name of your native town; and towards this
                        place I resolved to proceed.</p>
                     <p>But how was I to direct myself? I knew that I must travel in a
                        south-westerly direction to reach my destination; but the sun was my only
                        guide. I did not know the names of the towns that I was to pass through, nor
                        could I ask information from a single human <pb n="[2.130]" facs="pageImages/vol2/130.jpg"/> being; but I did not despair. From you
                        only could I hope for succour, although towards you I felt no sentiment but
                        that of hatred. Unfeeling, heartless creator! you had endowed me with
                        perceptions and passions, and then cast me abroad an object for the scorn
                        and horror of mankind. But on you only had I any claim for pity and redress,
                        and from you I determined to seek that justice which I vainly attempted to
                        gain from any other being that wore the human form.</p>
                     <p>My travels were long, and the sufferings I endured intense. It was late in
                        autumn when I quitted the district where I had so long resided. I travelled
                        only at night, fearful of encountering the visage of a human being. Nature
                        decayed around me, and the sun became heatless; rain and snow poured around
                        me; mighty rivers were <pb n="[2.131]" facs="pageImages/vol2/131.jpg"/>
                        frozen; the surface of the earth was hard, and chill, and bare, and I found
                        no shelter. Oh, earth! how often did I imprecate curses on the cause of my
                        being! The mildness of my nature had fled, and all within me was turned to
                        gall and bitterness. The nearer I approached to your habitation, the more
                        deeply did I feel the spirit of revenge enkindled in my heart. Snow fell,
                        and the waters were hardened, but I rested not. A few incidents now and then
                        directed me, and I possessed a map of the country; but I often wandered wide
                        from my path. The agony of my feelings allowed me no respite: no incident
                        occurred from which my rage and misery could not extract its food; but a
                        circumstance that happened when I arrived on the confines of <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName>, when the sun had
                        recovered its warmth, and the earth again began to look <pb n="[2.132]" facs="pageImages/vol2/132.jpg"/> green, confirmed in an especial manner
                        the bitterness and horror of my feelings.</p>
                     <p>I generally rested during the day, and travelled only when I was secured by
                        night from the view of man. One morning, however, finding that my path lay
                        through a deep wood, I ventured to continue my journey after the sun had
                        risen; the day, which was one of the first of spring, cheered even me by the
                        loveliness of its sunshine and the balminess of the air. I felt emotions of
                        gentleness and pleasure, that had long appeared dead, revive within me. Half
                        surprised by the novelty of these sensations, I allowed myself to be borne
                        away by them; and, forgetting my solitude and deformity, dared to be happy.
                        Soft tears again bedewed my cheeks, and I even raised my humid eyes with
                        thankfulness towards the <pb n="[2.133]" facs="pageImages/vol2/133.jpg"/>
                        blessed sun which bestowed such joy upon me.</p>
                     <p>I continued to wind among the paths of the wood, until I came to its
                        boundary, which was skirted by a deep and rapid river, into which many of
                        the trees bent their branches, now budding with the fresh spring. Here I
                        paused, not exactly knowing what path to pursue, when I heard the sound of
                        voices, that induced me to conceal myself under the shade of a cypress. I
                        was scarcely hid, when a young girl came running towards the spot where I
                        was concealed, laughing as if she ran from some one in sport. She continued
                        her course along the precipitous sides of the river, when suddenly her foot
                        slipt, and she fell into the rapid stream. I rushed from my hiding place,
                        and, with extreme labour from the force of the current, saved her, and
                        dragged her <pb n="[2.134]" facs="pageImages/vol2/134.jpg"/> to shore. She
                        was senseless; and I endeavoured, by every means in my power, to restore
                        animation, when I was suddenly interrupted by the approach of a rustic, who
                        was probably the person from whom she had playfully fled. On seeing me, he
                        darted towards me, and, tearing the girl from my arms, hastened towards the
                        deeper parts of the wood. I followed speedily, I hardly knew why; but when
                        the man saw me draw near, he aimed a gun, which he carried, at my body, and
                        fired. I sunk to the ground, and my injurer, with increased swiftness,
                        escaped into the wood.</p>
                     <p>This was then the reward of my benevolence! I had saved a human being from
                        destruction, and, as a recompense, I now writhed under the miserable pain of
                        a wound, which shattered the flesh and bone. The <pb n="[2.135]" facs="pageImages/vol2/135.jpg"/> feelings of kindness and gentleness,
                        which I had entertained but a few moments before, gave place to hellish rage
                        and gnashing of teeth. Inflamed by pain, I vowed eternal hatred and
                        vengeance to all mankind. But the agony of my wound overcame me; my pulses
                        paused, and I fainted.</p>
                     <p>For some weeks I led a miserable life in the woods, endeavouring to cure the
                        wound which I had received. The ball had entered my shoulder, and I knew not
                        whether it had remained there or passed through; at any rate I had no means
                        of extracting it. My sufferings were augmented also by the oppressive sense
                        of the injustice and ingratitude of their infliction. My daily vows rose for
                        revenge—a deep and deadly revenge, such as would alone compensate for the
                        outrages and anguish I had endured.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.136]" facs="pageImages/vol2/136.jpg"/>
                     <p>After some weeks my wound healed, and I continued my journey. The labours I
                        endured were no longer to be alleviated by the bright sun or gentle breezes
                        of spring; all joy was but a mockery, which insulted my desolate state, and
                        made me feel more painfully that I was not made for the enjoyment of
                        pleasure.</p>
                     <p>But my toils now drew near a close; and, two months from this time, I
                        reached the environs of <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>.</p>
                     <p>It was evening when I arrived, and I retired to a hiding-place among the
                        fields that surround it, to meditate in what manner I should apply to you. I
                        was oppressed by fatigue and hunger, and far too unhappy to enjoy the gentle
                        breezes of evening, or the prospect of the sun setting behind the stupendous
                        mountains of <placeName type="tgn" key="1109172">Jura</placeName>.</p>
                     <p>At this time a slight sleep relieved <pb n="[2.137]" facs="pageImages/vol2/137.jpg"/> me from the pain of reflection, which
                        was disturbed by the approach of a beautiful child, who came running into
                        the recess I had chosen with all the sportiveness of infancy. Suddenly, as I
                        gazed on him, an idea seized me, that this little creature was unprejudiced,
                        and had lived too short a time to have imbibed a horror of deformity. If,
                        therefore, I could seize him, and educate him as my companion and friend, I
                        should not be so desolate in this peopled earth.</p>
                     <p>Urged by this impulse, I seized on the boy as he passed, and drew him
                        towards me. As soon as he beheld my form, he placed his hands before his
                        eyes, and uttered a shrill scream: I drew his hand forcibly from his face,
                        and said, <said who="#creature">"Child, what is the meaning of this? I do
                           not intend to hurt you; listen to me."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <pb n="[2.138]" facs="pageImages/vol2/138.jpg"/>
                     <p>He struggled violently; <said who="#william">"Let me go,"</said> he cried;
                           <said who="#william">"monster! ugly wretch! you wish to eat me, and tear
                           me to pieces—You are an ogre—Let me go, or I will tell my
                        papa."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"Boy, you will never see your father again; you must
                           come with me."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#william">"Hideous monster! let me go; My papa is a Syndic—he is
                              <persName>M. Frankenstein</persName>—he would punish you. You dare not
                           keep me."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>
                                        <said who="#creature">"<persName>Frankenstein</persName>! you belong then to
                           my enemy—to him towards whom I have sworn eternal revenge; you shall be
                           my first victim."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>The child still struggled, and loaded me with epithets which carried despair
                        to my heart: I grasped his throat to silence him, and in a moment he lay
                        dead at my feet.</p>
                     <p>I gazed on my victim, and my heart swelled with exultation and <pb n="[2.139 - page breaks after 'hell-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/139.jpg"/>
                        hellish triumph: clapping my hands, I exclaimed, <said who="#creature">"I,
                           too, can create desolation; my enemy is not impregnable; this death will
                           carry despair to him, and a thousand other miseries shall torment and
                           destroy him."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>As I fixed my eyes on the child, I saw something glittering on his breast. I
                        took it; it was a portrait of a most lovely woman. In spite of my malignity,
                        it softened and attracted me. For a few moments I gazed with delight on her
                        dark eyes, fringed by deep lashes, and her lovely lips; but presently my
                        rage returned: I remembered that I was for ever deprived of the delights
                        that such beautiful creatures could bestow; and that she whose resemblance I
                        contemplated would, in regarding me, have changed that air of divine
                        benignity to one expressive of disgust and affright.</p>
                     <pb n="[2.140]" facs="pageImages/vol2/140.jpg"/>
                     <p>Can you wonder that such thoughts transported me with rage? I only wonder
                        that at that moment, instead of venting my sensations in exclamations and
                        agony, I did not rush among mankind, and perish in the attempt to destroy
                        them.</p>
                     <p>While I was overcome by these feelings, I left the spot where I had
                        committed the murder, and was seeking a more secluded hiding-place, when I
                        perceived a woman passing near me. She was young, not indeed so beautiful as
                        her whose portrait I held, but of an agreeable aspect, and blooming in the
                        loveliness of youth and health. Here, I thought, is one of those whose
                        smiles are bestowed on all but me; she shall not escape: thanks to the
                        lessons of <persName>Felix</persName>, and the sanguinary laws of man, I
                        have learned how to work mischief. I approached her unperceived, and placed
                           <pb n="[2.141]" facs="pageImages/vol2/141.jpg"/> the portrait securely in
                        one of the folds of her dress.</p>
                     <p>For some days I haunted the spot where these scenes had taken place;
                        sometimes wishing to see you, sometimes resolved to quit the world and its
                        miseries for ever. At length I wandered towards these mountains, and have
                        ranged through their immense recesses, consumed by a burning passion which
                        you alone can gratify. We may not part until you have promised to comply
                        with my requisition. I am alone, and miserable; man will not associate with
                        me; but one as deformed and horrible as myself would not deny herself to me.
                        My companion must be of the same species, and have the same defects. This
                        being you must create.</p>
                                </said>
                            </said>


            </div>







            <div n="2.9" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[2.142]" facs="pageImages/vol2/142.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter IX</head>







               <said who="#victor">
                  <p>THE being finished speaking, and fixed his looks upon me in expectation of a
                     reply. But I was bewildered, perplexed, and unable to arrange my ideas
                     sufficiently to understand the full extent of his proposition. He
                     continued—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"You must create a female for me, with whom I can live in
                        the interchange of those sympathies necessary for my being. This you alone
                        can do; and I demand it of you as a right which you must not
                     refuse."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>The latter part of his tale had kindled anew in me the anger that had <pb n="[2.143]" facs="pageImages/vol2/143.jpg"/> died away while he narrated his
                     peaceful life among the cottagers, and, as he said this, I could no longer
                     suppress the rage that burned within me.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I do refuse it,"</said> I replied; <said who="#victor">"and no torture shall ever extort a consent from me. You may render me the
                        most miserable of men, but you shall never make me base in my own eyes.
                        Shall I create another like yourself, whose joint wickedness might desolate
                        the world. Begone! I have answered you; you may torture me, but I will never
                        consent."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"You are in the wrong,"</said> replied the fiend; <said who="#creature">"and, instead of threatening, I am content to reason with
                        you. I am malicious because I am miserable; am I not shunned and hated by
                        all mankind? You, my creator, would tear me to pieces, and triumph; remember
                        that, and tell me why I should pity man <pb n="[2.144]" facs="pageImages/vol2/144.jpg"/> more than he pities me? You would not
                        call it murder, if you could precipitate me into one of those ice-rifts, and
                        destroy my frame, the work of your own hands. Shall I respect man, when he
                        contemns me? Let him live with me in the interchange of kindness, and,
                        instead of injury, I would bestow every benefit upon him with tears of
                        gratitude at his acceptance. But that cannot be; the human senses are
                        insurmountable barriers to our union. Yet mine shall not be the submission
                        of abject slavery. I will revenge my injuries: if I cannot inspire love, I
                        will cause fear; and chiefly towards you my arch-enemy, because my creator,
                        do I swear inextinguishable hatred. Have a care: I will work at your
                        destruction, nor finish until I desolate your heart, so that you curse the
                        hour of your birth."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[2.145]" facs="pageImages/vol2/145.jpg"/>
                  <p>A fiendish rage animated him as he said this; his face was wrinkled into
                     contortions too horrible for human eyes to behold; but presently he calmed
                     himself, and proceeded—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"I intended to reason. This passion is detrimental to me;
                        for you do not reflect that you are the cause of its excess. If any being
                        felt emotions of benevolence towards me, I should return them an hundred and
                        an hundred fold; for that one creature's sake, I would make peace with the
                        whole kind! But I now indulge in dreams of bliss that cannot be realized.
                        What I ask of you is reasonable and moderate; I demand a creature of another
                        sex, but as hideous as myself: the gratification is small, but it is all
                        that I can receive, and it shall content me. It is true, we shall be
                        monsters, cut off from all the world; but on that account we shall be <pb n="[2.146]" facs="pageImages/vol2/146.jpg"/> more attached to one
                        another. Our lives will not be happy, but they will be harmless, and free
                        from the misery I now feel. Oh! my creator, make me happy; let me feel
                        gratitude towards you for one benefit! Let me see that I excite the sympathy
                        of some existing thing; do not deny me my request!"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I was moved. I shuddered when I thought of the possible consequences of my
                     consent; but I felt that there was some justice in his argument. His tale, and
                     the feelings he now expressed, proved him to be a creature of fine sensations;
                     and did I not, as his maker, owe him all the portion of happiness that it was
                     in my power to bestow? He saw my change of feeling, and continued—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"If you consent, neither you nor any other human being
                        shall ever see us <pb n="[2.147]" facs="pageImages/vol2/147.jpg"/> again: I
                        will go to the vast wilds of <placeName type="tgn" key="1000002">South
                           America</placeName>. My food is not that of man; I do not destroy the
                        lamb and the kid, to glut my appetite; acorns and berries afford me
                        sufficient nourishment. My companion will be of the same nature as myself,
                        and will be content with the same fare. We shall make our bed of dried
                        leaves; the sun will shine on us as on man, and will ripen our food. The
                        picture I present to you is peaceful and human, and you must feel that you
                        could deny it only in the wantonness of power and cruelty. Pitiless as you
                        have been towards me, I now see compassion in your eyes; let me seize the
                        favourable moment, and persuade you to promise what I so ardently
                        desire."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"You propose,"</said> replied I, <said who="#victor">"to
                        fly from the habitations of man, to dwell in those wilds where the beasts of
                        the <pb n="[2.148]" facs="pageImages/vol2/148.jpg"/> field will be your only
                        companions. How can you, who long for the love and sympathy of man,
                        persevere in this exile? You will return, and again seek their kindness, and
                        you will meet with their detestation; your evil passions will be renewed,
                        and you will then have a companion to aid you in the task of destruction.
                        This may not be; cease to argue the point, for I cannot consent."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"How inconstant are your feelings! but a moment ago you
                        were moved by my representations, and why do you again harden yourself to my
                        complaints? I swear to you, by the earth which I inhabit, and by you that
                        made me, that, with the companion you bestow, I will quit the neighbourhood
                        of man, and dwell, as it may chance, in the most savage of places. My evil
                        passions will have fled, for <pb n="[2.149]" facs="pageImages/vol2/149.jpg"/> I shall meet with sympathy; my life will flow quietly away, and, in my
                        dying moments, I shall not curse my maker."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>His words had a strange effect upon me. I compassionated him, and sometimes
                     felt a wish to console him; but when I looked upon him, when I saw the filthy
                     mass that moved and talked, my heart sickened, and my feelings were altered to
                     those of horror and hatred. I tried to stifle these sensations; I thought,
                     that, as I could not sympathize with him, I had no right to withhold from him
                     the small portion of happiness which was yet in my power to bestow.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"You swear,"</said> I said, <said who="#victor">"to be
                        harmless; but have you not already shewn a degree of malice that should
                        reasonably make me distrust you? May not even this be a feint that will
                        increase <pb n="[2.150]" facs="pageImages/vol2/150.jpg"/> your triumph by
                        affording a wider scope for your revenge?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"How is this? I thought I had moved your compassion, and
                        yet you still refuse to bestow on me the only benefit that can soften my
                        heart, and render me harmless. If I have no ties and no affections, hatred
                        and vice must be my portion; the love of another will destroy the cause of
                        my crimes, and I shall become a thing, of whose existence every one will be
                        ignorant. My vices are the children of a forced solitude that I abhor; and
                        my virtues will necessarily arise when I live in communion with an equal. I
                        shall feel the affections of a sensitive being, and become linked to the
                        chain of existence and events, from which I am now excluded."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I paused some time to reflect on all he had related, and the various <pb n="[2.151 - page breaks after 'argu-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/151.jpg"/>
                     arguments which he had employed. I thought of the promise of virtues which he
                     had displayed on the opening of his existence, and the subsequent blight of all
                     kindly feeling by the loathing and scorn which his protectors had manifested
                     towards him. His power and threats were not omitted in my calculations: a
                     creature who could exist in the ice caves of the glaciers, and hide himself
                     from pursuit among the ridges of inaccessible precipices, was a being
                     possessing faculties it would be vain to cope with. After a long pause of
                     reflection, I concluded, that the justice due both to him and my
                     fellow-creatures demanded of me that I should comply with his request. Turning
                     to him, therefore, I said—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I consent to your demand, on your solemn oath to quit
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="1000003">Europe</placeName> for ever, and
                        every other place in the <pb n="[2.152 - page breaks after 'neighbour-']" facs="pageImages/vol2/152.jpg"/> neighbourhood of man, as soon as I shall
                        deliver into your hands a female who will accompany you in your
                        exile."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"I swear,"</said> he cried, <said who="#creature">"by the
                        sun, and by the blue sky of heaven, that if you grant my prayer, while they
                        exist you shall never behold me again. Depart to your home, and commence
                        your labours: I shall watch their progress with unutterable anxiety; and
                        fear not but that when you are ready I shall appear."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Saying this, he suddenly quitted me, fearful, perhaps, of any change in my
                     sentiments. I saw him descend the mountain with greater speed than the flight
                     of an eagle, and quickly lost him among the undulations of the sea of ice.</p>
                  <p>His tale had occupied the whole day; and the sun was upon the verge of the
                     horizon when he departed. I knew <pb n="[2.153]" facs="pageImages/vol2/153.jpg"/> that I ought to hasten my descent towards the valley, as I should soon be
                     encompassed in darkness; but my heart was heavy, and my steps slow. The labour
                     of winding among the little paths of the mountains, and fixing my feet firmly
                     as I advanced, perplexed me, occupied as I was by the emotions which the
                     occurrences of the day had produced. Night was far advanced, when I came to the
                     half-way resting-place, and seated myself beside the fountain. The stars shone
                     at intervals, as the clouds passed from over them; the dark pines rose before
                     me, and every here and there a broken tree lay on the ground: it was a scene of
                     wonderful solemnity, and stirred strange thoughts within me. I wept bitterly;
                     and, clasping my hands in agony, I exclaimed, <said who="#victor">"Oh! stars,
                        and clouds, and winds, ye are all about to mock <pb n="[2.154]" facs="pageImages/vol2/154.jpg"/> me: if ye really pity me, crush
                        sensation and memory; let me become as nought; but if not, depart, depart
                        and leave me in darkness."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>These were wild and miserable thoughts; but I cannot describe to you how the
                     eternal twinkling of the stars weighed upon me, and how I listened to every
                     blast of wind, as if it were a dull ugly siroc on its way to consume me.</p>
                  <p>Morning dawned before I arrived at the village of <placeName type="tgn" key="1032562">Chamounix</placeName>; but my presence, so haggard and
                     strange, hardly calmed the fears of my family, who had waited the whole night
                     in anxious expectation of my return.</p>
                  <p>The following day we returned to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. The intention of my father in coming had been to divert
                     my mind, and to restore me to my lost tranquillity; but the medicine had been
                     fatal. And, unable to account for the excess of <pb n="[2.155]" facs="pageImages/vol2/155.jpg"/> misery I appeared to suffer, he hastened to
                     return home, hoping the quiet and monotony of a domestic life would by degrees
                     alleviate my sufferings from whatsoever cause they might spring.</p>
                  <p>For myself, I was passive in all their arrangements; and the gentle affection
                     of my beloved <persName>Elizabeth</persName> was inadequate to draw me from the
                     depth of my despair. The promise I had made to the dæmon weighed upon my mind,
                     like <persName type="lcnaf" key="n78095495">Dante</persName>'s iron cowl on the
                     heads of the hellish hypocrites. All pleasures of earth and sky passed before
                     me like a dream, and that thought only had to me the reality of life. Can you
                     wonder, that sometimes a kind of insanity possessed me, or that I saw
                     continually about me a multitude of filthy animals inflicting on me incessant
                     torture, that often extorted screams and bitter groans?</p>
                  <pb n="[2.156]" facs="pageImages/vol2/156.jpg"/>
                  <p>By degrees, however, these feelings became calmed. I entered again into the
                     every-day scene of life, if not with interest, at least with some degree of
                     tranquillity."</p>
               </said>


            </div>




            <trailer>END OF VOL. II</trailer>







         </div>







         <div n="3" type="volume">


            <head type="title">Volume III</head>







            <div n="3.1" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[3.1]" facs="pageImages/vol3/1.jpg"/>







               <head>Chapter I</head>







               <said who="#victor">
                  <p>DAY after day, week after week, passed away on my return to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>; and I could not collect the
                     courage to recommence my work. I feared the vengeance of the disappointed
                     fiend, yet I was unable to overcome my repugnance to the task which was
                     enjoined me. I found that I could not compose a female without again devoting
                     several months to profound study and <pb n="[3.2 - page breaks after 'labo-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/2.jpg"/> laborious disquisition. I had heard of some
                     discoveries having been made by an English philosopher, the knowledge of which
                     was material to my success, and I sometimes thought of obtaining my father's
                     consent to visit <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName> for
                     this purpose; but I clung to every pretence of delay, and could not resolve to
                     interrupt my returning tranquillity. My health, which had hitherto declined,
                     was now much restored; and my spirits, when unchecked by the memory of my
                     unhappy promise, rose proportionably. My father saw this change with pleasure,
                     and he turned his thoughts towards the best method of eradicating the remains
                     of my melancholy, which every now and then would return by fits, and with a
                     devouring blackness overcast the approaching sunshine. At these moments I took
                     refuge in the most perfect solitude. I passed whole <pb n="[3.3]" facs="pageImages/vol3/jpg"/> days on the lake alone in a little boat,
                     watching the clouds, and listening to the rippling of the waves, silent and
                     listless. But the fresh air and bright sun seldom failed to restore me to some
                     degree of composure; and, on my return, I met the salutations of my friends
                     with a readier smile and a more cheerful heart.</p>
                  <p>It was after my return from one of these rambles that my father, calling me
                     aside, thus addressed me:—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#father">"I am happy to remark, my dear son, that you have resumed
                        your former pleasures, and seem to be returning to yourself. And yet you are
                        still unhappy, and still avoid our society. For some time I was lost in
                        conjecture as to the cause of this; but yesterday an idea struck me, and if
                        it is well founded, I conjure you to avow it. Reserve on such a point would
                        be not only <pb n="[3.4]" facs="pageImages/vol3/4.jpg"/> useless, but draw
                        down treble misery on us all."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I trembled violently at this exordium, and my father continued—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#father">"I confess, my son, that I have always looked forward to
                        your marriage with your cousin as the tie of our domestic comfort, and the
                        stay of my declining years. You were attached to each other from your
                        earliest infancy; you studied together, and appeared, in dispositions and
                        tastes, entirely suited to one another. But so blind is the experience of
                        man, that what I conceived to be the best assistants to my plan may have
                        entirely destroyed it. You, perhaps, regard her as your sister, without any
                        wish that she might become your wife. Nay, you may have met with another
                        whom you may love; and, considering yourself as bound in honour to your
                        cousin, this struggle <pb n="[3.5]" facs="pageImages/vol3/5.jpg"/> may
                        occasion the poignant misery which you appear to feel."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"My dear father, re-assure yourself. I love my cousin
                        tenderly and sincerely. I never saw any woman who excited, as
                           <persName>Elizabeth</persName> does, my warmest admiration and affection.
                        My future hopes and prospects are entirely bound up in the expectation of
                        our union."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#father">"The expression of your sentiments on this subject, my dear
                           <persName>Victor</persName>, gives me more pleasure than I have for some
                        time experienced. If you feel thus, we shall assuredly be happy, however
                        present events may cast a gloom over us. But it is this gloom, which appears
                        to have taken so strong a hold of your mind, that I wish to dissipate. Tell
                        me, therefore, whether you object to an immediate solemnisation of the
                        marriage. We have been unfortunate, and recent events have drawn us from <pb n="[3.6]" facs="pageImages/vol3/6.jpg"/> that every-day tranquillity
                        befitting my years and infirmities. You are younger; yet I do not suppose,
                        possessed as you are of a competent fortune, that an early marriage would at
                        all interfere with any future plans of honour and utility that you may have
                        formed. Do not suppose, however, that I wish to dictate happiness to you, or
                        that a delay on your part would cause me any serious uneasiness. Interpret
                        my words with candour, and answer me, I conjure you, with confidence and
                        sincerity."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I listened to my father in silence, and remained for some time incapable of
                     offering any reply. I revolved rapidly in my mind a multitude of thoughts, and
                     endeavoured to arrive at some conclusion. Alas! to me the idea of an immediate
                     union with my cousin was one of horror and dismay. I was bound <pb n="[3.7]" facs="pageImages/vol3/7.jpg"/> by a solemn promise, which I had not yet
                     fulfilled, and dared not break; or, if I did, what manifold miseries might not
                     impend over me and my devoted family! Could I enter into a festival with this
                     deadly weight yet hanging round my neck, and bowing me to the ground. I must
                     perform my engagement, and let the monster depart with his mate, before I
                     allowed myself to enjoy the delight of an union from which I expected
                     peace.</p>
                  <p>I remembered also the necessity imposed upon me of either journeying to
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, or entering into a
                     long correspondence with those philosophers of that country, whose knowledge
                     and discoveries were of indispensable use to me in my present undertaking. The
                     latter method of obtaining the desired intelligence was dilatory and
                     unsatisfactory: besides, any variation was <pb n="[3.8]" facs="pageImages/vol3/8.jpg"/> agreeable to me, and I was delighted with the
                     idea of spending a year or two in change of scene and variety of occupation, in
                     absence from my family; during which period some event might happen which would
                     restore me to them in peace and happiness: my promise might be fulfilled, and
                     the monster have departed; or some accident might occur to destroy him, and put
                     an end to my slavery for ever.</p>
                  <p>These feelings dictated my answer to my father. I expressed a wish to visit
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>; but, concealing the
                     true reasons of this request, I clothed my desires under the guise of wishing
                     to travel and see the world before I sat down for life within the walls of my
                     native town.</p>
                  <p>I urged my entreaty with earnestness, and my father was easily induced to
                     comply; for a more indulgent and <pb n="[3.9]" facs="pageImages/vol3/9.jpg"/>
                     less dictatorial parent did not exist upon earth. Our plan was soon arranged. I
                     should travel to <placeName type="tgn" key="7012346">Strasburgh</placeName>,
                     where <persName>Clerval</persName> would join me. Some short time would be
                     spent in the towns of Holland, and our principal stay would be in <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>. We should return by <placeName type="tgn" key="1000070">France</placeName>; and it was agreed that the tour
                     should occupy the space of two years.</p>
                  <p>My father pleased himself with the reflection, that my union with
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> should take place immediately on my return to
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. <said who="#father">"These two years,"</said> said he, <said who="#father">"will pass swiftly,
                        and it will be the last delay that will oppose itself to your happiness.
                        And, indeed, I earnestly desire that period to arrive, when we shall all be
                        united, and neither hopes or fears arise to disturb our domestic
                        calm."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I am content,"</said> I replied, <said who="#victor">"with
                           <pb n="[3.10]" facs="pageImages/vol3/10.jpg"/> your arrangement. By that
                        time we shall both have become wiser, and I hope happier, than we at present
                        are."</said> I sighed; but my father kindly forbore to question me further
                     concerning the cause of my dejection. He hoped that new scenes, and the
                     amusement of travelling, would restore my tranquillity.</p>
                  <p>I now made arrangements for my journey; but one feeling haunted me, which
                     filled me with fear and agitation. During my absence I should leave my friends
                     unconscious of the existence of their enemy, and unprotected from his attacks,
                     exasperated as he might be by my departure. But he had promised to follow me
                     wherever I might go; and would he not accompany me to <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>? This imagination was dreadful in itself,
                     but soothing, inasmuch as it supposed the safety of my friends. I was agonized
                     with the idea of the <pb n="[3.11 - page breaks after 'pos-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/11.jpg"/> possibility that the reverse of this might
                     happen. But through the whole period during which I was the slave of my
                     creature, I allowed myself to be governed by the impulses of the moment; and my
                     present sensations strongly intimated that the fiend would follow me, and
                     exempt my family from the danger of his machinations.</p>
                  <p>It was in the latter end of August that I departed, to pass two years of exile.
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> approved of the reasons of my departure, and
                     only regretted that she had not the same opportunities of enlarging her
                     experience, and cultivating her understanding. She wept, however, as she bade
                     me farewell, and entreated me to return happy and tranquil. <said who="#elizabeth">"We all,"</said> said she, <said who="#elizabeth">"depend
                        upon you; and if you are miserable, what must be our feelings?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[3.12]" facs="pageImages/vol3/12.jpg"/>
                  <p>I threw myself into the carriage that was to convey me away, hardly knowing
                     whither I was going, and careless of what was passing around. I remembered
                     only, and it was with a bitter anguish that I reflected on it, to order that my
                     chemical instruments should be packed to go with me: for I resolved to fulfil
                     my promise while abroad, and return, if possible, a free man. Filled with
                     dreary imaginations, I passed through many beautiful and majestic scenes; but
                     my eyes were fixed and unobserving. I could only think of the bourne of my
                     travels, and the work which was to occupy me whilst they endured.</p>
                  <p>After some days spent in listless indolence, during which I traversed many
                     leagues, I arrived at <placeName type="tgn" key="7012346">Strasburgh</placeName>, where I waited two days for
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>. He came. Alas, how great was the contrast
                     between <pb n="[3.13]" facs="pageImages/vol3/13.jpg"/> us! He was alive to
                     every new scene; joyful when he saw the beauties of the setting sun, and more
                     happy when he beheld it rise, and recommence a new day. He pointed out to me
                     the shifting colours of the landscape, and the appearances of the sky. <said who="#clerval">"This is what it is to live,"</said> he cried, <said who="#clerval">"now I enjoy existence! But you, my dear Frankenstein,
                        wherefore are you desponding and sorrowful?"</said> In truth, I was occupied
                     by gloomy thoughts, and neither saw the descent of the evening star, nor the
                     golden sun-rise reflected in the <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName>.—And you, my friend, would be far more amused with the
                     journal of <persName>Clerval</persName>, who observed the scenery with an eye
                     of feeling and delight, than to listen to my reflections. I, a miserable
                     wretch, haunted by a curse that shut up every avenue to enjoyment.</p>
                  <p>We had agreed to descend the <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName>
                                    <pb n="[3.14]" facs="pageImages/vol3/14.jpg"/> in a boat
                     from <placeName type="tgn" key="7012346">Strasburgh</placeName> to Rotterdam,
                     whence we might take shipping for <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>. During this voyage, we passed many willowy islands, and
                     saw several beautiful towns. We staid a day at <placeName type="tgn" key="7129524">Manheim</placeName>, and, on the fifth from our departure from
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7012346">Strasburgh</placeName>, arrived at
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7004449">Mayence</placeName>. The course of the
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName> below <placeName type="tgn" key="7004449">Mayence</placeName> becomes much more picturesque.
                     The river descends rapidly, and winds between hills, not high, but steep, and
                     of beautiful forms. We saw many ruined castles standing on the edges of
                     precipices, surrounded by black woods, high and inaccessible. This part of the
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName>, indeed, presents a
                     singularly variegated landscape. In one spot you view rugged hills, ruined
                     castles overlooking tremendous precipices, with the dark <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName> rushing beneath; and, on the sudden turn of
                     a promontory, flourishing vineyards, with <pb n="[3.15]" facs="pageImages/vol3/15.jpg"/> green sloping banks, and a meandering river,
                     and populous towns, occupy the scene.</p>
                  <p>We travelled at the time of the vintage, and heard the song of the labourers,
                     as we glided down the stream. Even I, depressed in mind, and my spirits
                     continually agitated by gloomy feelings, even I was pleased. I lay at the
                     bottom of the boat, and, as I gazed on the cloudless blue sky, I seemed to
                     drink in a tranquillity to which I had long been a stranger. And if these were
                     my sensations, who can describe those of Henry? He felt as if he had been
                     transported to Fairy-land, and enjoyed a happiness seldom tasted by man. <said who="#clerval">"I have seen,"</said> he said, <said who="#clerval">"the most
                        beautiful scenes of my own country; I have visited the <placeName type="tgn" key="7007492">lakes of Lucerne and Uri</placeName>, where the snowy
                        mountains descend almost <pb n="[3.16 - page breaks after 'perpendicu-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/16.jpg"/> perpendicularly to the water, casting
                        black and impenetrable shades, which would cause a gloomy and mournful
                        appearance, were it not for the most verdant islands that relieve the eye by
                        their gay appearance; I have seen this lake agitated by a tempest, when the
                        wind tore up whirlwinds of water, and gave you an idea of what the
                        water-spout must be on the great ocean, and the waves dash with fury the
                        base of the mountain, where the priest and his mistress were overwhelmed by
                        an avalanche, and where their dying voices are still said to be heard amid
                        the pauses of the nightly wind; I have seen the <placeName type="tgn" key="7007843">mountains of La Valais</placeName>, and the <placeName type="tgn" key="7003763">Pays de Vaud</placeName>: but this country,
                           <persName>Victor</persName>, pleases me more than all those wonders. The
                        mountains of <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName> are
                        more majestic and strange; but there is a charm in the banks of this divine
                        river, <pb n="[3.17]" facs="pageImages/vol3/17.jpg"/> that I never before
                        saw equalled. Look at that castle which overhangs yon precipice; and that
                        also on the island, almost concealed amongst the foliage of those lovely
                        trees; and now that group of labourers coming from among their vines; and
                        that village half-hid in the recess of the mountain. Oh, surely, the spirit
                        that inhabits and guards this place has a soul more in harmony with man,
                        than those who pile the glacier, or retire to the inaccessible peaks of the
                        mountains of our own country."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                     <persName>Clerval</persName>! beloved friend! even now it delights me to record
                     your words, and to dwell on the praise of which you are so eminently deserving.
                     He was a being formed in the <said who="#clerval">"very poetry of
                        nature."</said> His wild and enthusiastic imagination was chastened by the
                        <pb n="[3.18 - page breaks after 'sen-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/18.jpg"/>
                     sensibility of his heart. His soul overflowed with ardent affections, and his
                     friendship was of that devoted and wondrous nature that the worldy-minded teach
                     us to look for only in the imagination. But even human sympathies were not
                     sufficient to satisfy his eager mind. The scenery of external nature, which
                     others regard only with admiration, he loved with ardour:</p>
                  <!-- question -->
                  <p>------ <quote>
                                        <lb/>The sounding cataract <lb/>Haunted him like a passion: the
                        tall rock, <lb/>The mountain, and the deep and gloomy wood, <lb/>Their
                        colours and their forms, were then to him <lb/>An appetite; a feeling, and a
                        love, <lb/>That had no need of a remoter charm, <lb/>By thought supplied, or
                        any interest <lb/>Unborrowed from the eye.</quote>
                                </p>
                  <p>And where does he now exist? Is this gentle and lovely being lost forever? Has
                     this mind so replete with <pb n="[3.19]" facs="pageImages/vol3/19.jpg"/> ideas,
                     imaginations fanciful and magnificent, which formed a world, whose existence
                     depended on the life of its creator; has this mind perished? Does it now only
                     exist in my memory? No, it is not thus; your form so divinely wrought, and
                     beaming with beauty, has decayed, but your spirit still visits and consoles
                     your unhappy friend.</p>
                  <p>Pardon this gush of sorrow; these ineffectual words are but a slight tribute to
                     the unexampled worth of <persName>Henry</persName>, but they soothe my heart,
                     overflowing with the anguish which his remembrance creates. I will proceed with
                     my tale.</p>
                  <p>Beyond <placeName type="tgn" key="7004446">Cologne</placeName> we descended to
                     the plains of <placeName type="tgn" key="1003759">Holland</placeName>; and we
                     resolved to post the remainder of our way; for the wind was contrary, and the
                     stream of the river was too gentle to aid us.</p>
                  <p>Our journey here lost the interest <pb n="[3.20]" facs="pageImages/vol3/20.jpg"/> arising from beautiful scenery; but we arrived in a few days at Rotterdam,
                     whence we proceeded by sea to <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>. It was on a clear morning, in the latter days of
                     September, that I first saw the white cliffs of <placeName type="tgn" key="7008653">Britain</placeName>. The banks of the <placeName type="tgn" key="7011913">Thames</placeName> presented a new scene; they were flat, but
                     fertile, and almost every town was marked by the remembrance of some story. We
                     saw <placeName type="tgn" key="7011913">Tilbury Fort</placeName>, and
                     remembered the Spanish armada; <placeName type="tgn" key="7011614">Gravesend</placeName>, <placeName type="tgn" key="7011805">Woolwich</placeName>, and <placeName type="tgn" key="7018915">Greenwich</placeName>, places which I had heard of even in my country.</p>
                  <p>At length, we saw the numerous steeples of <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>, <placeName type="tgn" key="1100093">St.
                        Paul's</placeName> towering above all, and the <placeName type="tgn" key="1100671">Tower</placeName> famed in English history."</p>
                            </said>


            </div>







            <div n="3.2" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[3.21]" facs="pageImages/vol3/21.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter II</head>







               <said who="#victor">"<p>
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName> was our present point of
                     rest; we determined to remain several months in this wonderful and celebrated
                     city. <persName>Clerval</persName> desired the intercourse of the men of genius
                     and talent who flourished at this time; but this was with me a secondary
                     object; I was principally occupied with the means of obtaining the information
                     necessary for the completion of my promise, and quickly availed myself of the
                     letters of introduction that I had brought with me, addressed to the most
                     distinguished natural philosophers.</p>
                  <p>If this journey had taken place during <pb n="[3.22]" facs="pageImages/vol3/22.jpg"/> my days of study and happiness, it would
                     have afforded me inexpressible pleasure. But a blight had come over my
                     existence, and I only visited these people for the sake of the information they
                     might give me on the subject in which my interest was so terribly profound.
                     Company was irksome to me; when alone, I could fill my mind with the sights of
                     heaven and earth; the voice of <persName>Henry</persName> soothed me, and I
                     could thus cheat myself into a transitory peace. But busy uninteresting joyous
                     faces brought back despair to my heart. I saw an insurmountable barrier placed
                     between me and my fellow-men; this barrier was sealed with the blood of
                        <persName>William</persName> and <persName>Justine</persName>; and to
                     reflect on the events connected with those names filled my soul with
                     anguish.</p>
                  <p>But in <persName>Clerval</persName> I saw the image of my former self; he was
                     inquisitive, and <pb n="[3.23 - page breaks after 'an-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/23.jpg"/> anxious to gain experience and instruction.
                     The difference of manners which he observed was to him an inexhaustible source
                     of instruction and amusement. He was for ever busy; and the only check to his
                     enjoyments was my sorrowful and dejected mien. I tried to conceal this as much
                     as possible, that I might not debar him from the pleasures natural to one who
                     was entering on a new scene of life, undisturbed by any care or bitter
                     recollection. I often refused to accompany him, alleging another engagement,
                     that I might remain alone. I now also began to collect the materials necessary
                     for my new creation, and this was to me like the torture of single drops of
                     water continually falling on the head. Every thought that was devoted to it was
                     an extreme anguish, and every word that I spoke in allusion to it <pb n="[3.24]" facs="pageImages/vol3/24.jpg"/> caused my lips to quiver, and my
                     heart to palpitate.</p>
                  <p>After passing some months in <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>, we received a letter from a person in <placeName type="tgn" key="7002444">Scotland</placeName>, who had formerly been our
                     visitor at <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. He mentioned
                     the beauties of his native country, and asked us if those were not sufficient
                     allurements to induce us to prolong our journey as far north as Perth, where he
                     resided. <persName>Clerval</persName> eagerly desired to accept this
                     invitation; and I, although I abhorred society, wished to view again mountains
                     and streams, and all the wondrous works with which Nature adorns her chosen
                     dwelling-places.</p>
                  <p>We had arrived in <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName> at
                     the beginning of October, and it was now February. We accordingly determined to
                     commence our journey towards the north at the expiration of another month. In
                     this expedition we did not <pb n="[3.25]" facs="pageImages/vol3/25.jpg"/>
                     intend to follow the great road to <placeName type="tgn" key="7009546">Edinburgh</placeName>, but to visit <placeName type="tgn" key="7011919">Windsor</placeName>, <placeName type="tgn" key="7011931">Oxford</placeName>, <placeName type="tgn" key="1030005">Matlock</placeName>,
                     and the <placeName type="tgn" key="7010206">Cumberland lakes</placeName>,
                     resolving to arrive at the completion of this tour about the end of July. I
                     packed up my chemical instruments, and the materials I had collected, resolving
                     to finish my labours in some obscure nook in the northern highlands of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7002444">Scotland</placeName>.</p>
                  <p>We quitted <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName> on the
                        <date>27th of March</date>, and remained a few days at <placeName type="tgn" key="7011919">Windsor</placeName>, rambling in its beautiful forest. This
                     was a new scene to us mountaineers; the majestic oaks, the quantity of game,
                     and the herds of stately deer, were all novelties to us.</p>
                  <p>From thence we proceeded to <placeName type="tgn" key="7011931">Oxford</placeName>. As we entered this city, our minds were filled with the
                     remembrance of the events that had been transacted there more than a century
                     and a half <pb n="[3.26]" facs="pageImages/vol3/26.jpg"/> before. It was here
                     that <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79132433">Charles I</persName>. had collected
                     his forces. This city had remained faithful to him, after the whole nation had
                     forsaken his cause to join the standard of parliament and liberty. The memory
                     of that unfortunate king, and his companions, the amiable <persName type="lcnaf" key="n83180215">Falkland</persName>, the insolent <persName type="lcnaf" key="n85115759" cert="low">Gower</persName>, his queen, and
                     son, gave a peculiar interest to every part of the city, which they might be
                     supposed to have inhabited. The spirit of elder days found a dwelling here, and
                     we delighted to trace its footsteps. If these feelings had not found an
                     imaginary gratification, the appearance of the city had yet in itself
                     sufficient beauty to obtain our admiration. The colleges are ancient and
                     picturesque; the streets are almost magnificent; and the lovely Isis, which
                     flows beside it through meadows of exquisite verdure, is spread forth into a
                        <pb n="[3.27]" facs="pageImages/vol3/27.jpg"/> placid expanse of waters,
                     which reflects its majestic assemblage of towers, and spires, and domes,
                     embosomed among aged trees.</p>
                  <p>I enjoyed this scene; and yet my enjoyment was embittered both by the memory of
                     the past, and the anticipation of the future. I was formed for peaceful
                     happiness. During my youthful days discontent never visited my mind; and if I
                     was ever overcome by ennui, the sight of what is beautiful in nature, or the
                     study of what is excellent and sublime in the productions of man, could always
                     interest my heart, and communicate elasticity to my spirits. But I am a blasted
                     tree; the bolt has entered my soul; and I felt then that I should survive to
                     exhibit, what I shall soon cease to be—a miserable spectacle of wrecked
                     humanity, pitiable to others, and abhorrent to myself.</p>
                  <pb n="[3.28]" facs="pageImages/vol3/28.jpg"/>
                  <p>We passed a considerable period at <placeName type="tgn" key="7011931">Oxford</placeName>, rambling among its environs, and endeavouring to
                     identify every spot which might relate to the most animating epoch of
                        <foreign>English</foreign> history. Our little voyages of discovery were
                     often prolonged by the successive objects that presented themselves. We visited
                     the tomb of the illustrious Hampden, and the field on which that patriot fell.
                     For a moment my soul was elevated from its debasing and miserable fears, to
                     contemplate the divine ideas of liberty and self-sacrifice, of which these
                     sights were the monuments and the remembrancers. For an instant I dared to
                     shake off my chains, and look around me with a free and lofty spirit; but the
                     iron had eaten into my flesh, and I sank again, trembling and hopeless, into my
                     miserable self.</p>
                  <p>We left <placeName type="tgn" key="7011931">Oxford</placeName> with regret, and
                        <pb n="[3.29 - page breaks after 'pro-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/29.jpg"/>
                     proceeded to <placeName type="tgn" key="1030005">Matlock</placeName>, which was
                     our next place of rest. The country in the neighbourhood of this village
                     resembled, to a greater degree, the scenery of <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName>; but everything is on a lower scale,
                     and the green hills want the crown of distant white <placeName type="tgn" key="7007746">Alps</placeName>, which always attend on the piny mountains of
                     my native country. We visited the wondrous cave, and the little cabinets of
                     natural history, where the curiosities are disposed in the same manner as in
                     the collections at <placeName type="tgn" key="1035711">Servox</placeName> and
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="1032562">Chamounix</placeName>. The latter name
                     made me tremble, when pronounced by <persName>Henry</persName>; and I hastened
                     to quit <placeName type="tgn" key="1030005">Matlock</placeName>, with which
                     that terrible scene was thus associated.</p>
                  <p>From <placeName type="tgn" key="7010684">Derby</placeName> still journeying
                     northward, we passed two months in <placeName type="tgn" key="7011987">Cumberland</placeName> and <placeName type="tgn" key="5000223">Westmoreland</placeName>. I could now almost fancy myself among the <pb n="[3.30]" facs="pageImages/vol3/30.jpg"/>
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7007746">Swiss mountains</placeName>. The little
                     patches of snow which yet lingered on the northern sides of the mountains, the
                     lakes, and the dashing of the rocky streams, were all familiar and dear sights
                     to me. Here also we made some acquaintances, who almost contrived to cheat me
                     into happiness. The delight of <persName>Clerval</persName> was proportionably
                     greater than mine; his mind expanded in the company of men of talent, and he
                     found in his own nature greater capacities and resources than he could have
                     imagined himself to have possessed while he associated with his inferiors.
                        <said who="#clerval">"I could pass my life here,"</said> said he to me;
                        <said who="#clerval">"and among these mountains I should scarcely regret
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName> and the
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName>."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>But he found that a traveller's life is one that includes much pain amidst its
                     enjoyments. His feelings are for ever on the stretch; and when he <pb n="[3.31 - page breaks after 'be-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/31.jpg"/> begins
                     to sink into repose, he finds himself obliged to quit that on which he rests in
                     pleasure for something new, which again engages his attention, and which also
                     he forsakes for other novelties.</p>
                  <p>We had scarcely visited the various lakes of <placeName type="tgn" key="7011987">Cumberland</placeName> and <placeName type="tgn" key="5000223">Westmoreland</placeName>., and conceived an affection for some of the
                     inhabitants, when the period of our appointment with our
                        <foreign>Scotch</foreign> friend approached, and we left them to travel on.
                     For my own part I was not sorry. I had now neglected my promise for some time,
                     and I feared the effects of the dæmon's disappointment. He might remain in
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName>, and wreak his
                     vengeance on my relatives. This idea pursued me, and tormented me at every
                     moment from which I might otherwise have snatched repose and peace. I waited
                     for my letters with feverish <pb n="[3.32 - page begins after 'im-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/32.jpg"/> impatience: if they were delayed, I was
                     miserable, and overcome by a thousand fears; and when they arrived, and I saw
                     the superscription of <persName>Elizabeth</persName> or my father, I hardly
                     dared to read and ascertain my fate. Sometimes I thought that the fiend
                     followed me, and might expedite my remissness by murdering my companion. When
                     these thoughts possessed me, I would not quit <persName>Henry</persName> for a
                     moment, but followed him as his shadow, to protect him from the fancied rage of
                     his destroyer. I felt as if I had committed some great crime, the consciousness
                     of which haunted me. I was guiltless, but I had indeed drawn down a horrible
                     curse upon my head, as mortal as that of crime.</p>
                  <p>I visited <placeName type="tgn" key="7009546">Edinburgh</placeName> with
                     languid eyes and mind; and yet that city might have interested the most
                     unfortunate being. <persName>Clerval</persName> did not like it so well <pb n="[3.33]" facs="pageImages/vol3/33.jpg"/> as <placeName type="tgn" key="7011931">Oxford</placeName>; for the antiquity of the latter city was
                     more pleasing to him. But the beauty and regularity of the new town of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7009546">Edinburgh</placeName>, its romantic
                     castle, and its environs, the most delightful in the world, <placeName type="tgn" key="7465617">Arthur's Seat</placeName>, St. Bernard's Well, and
                     the <placeName type="tgn" key="1110561">Pentland Hills</placeName>, compensated
                     him for the change, and filled him with cheerfulness and admiration. But I was
                     impatient to arrive at the termination of my journey.</p>
                  <p>We left <placeName type="tgn" key="7009546">Edinburgh</placeName> in a week,
                     passing through <placeName type="tgn" key="1050546">Coupar</placeName>,
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7009562">St. Andrew's</placeName>, and along the
                     banks of the <placeName type="tgn" key="1130681">Tay</placeName>, to <placeName type="tgn" key="7009702">Perth</placeName>, where our friend expected us.
                     But I was in no mood to laugh and talk with strangers, or enter into their
                     feelings or plans with the good humour expected from a guest; and accordingly I
                     told <persName>Clerval</persName> that I wished to make the tour of <placeName type="tgn" key="7002444">Scotland</placeName> alone. <said who="#victor">"Do
                           <pb n="[3.34]" facs="pageImages/vol3/34.jpg"/> you,"</said> said I, <said who="#victor">"enjoy yourself, and let this be our rendezvous. I may be
                        absent a month or two; but do not interfere with my motions, I entreat you:
                        leave me to peace and solitude for a short time; and when I return, I hope
                        it will be with a lighter heart, more congenial to your own
                     temper."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Henry</persName> wished to dissuade me; but, seeing me bent on this
                     plan, ceased to remonstrate. He entreated me to write often. <said who="#clerval">"I had rather be with you,"</said> he said, <said who="#clerval">"in your solitary rambles, than with these
                           <foreign>Scotch</foreign> people, whom I do not know: hasten then, my
                        dear friend, to return, that I may again feel myself somewhat at home, which
                        I cannot do in your absence."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>Having parted from my friend, I determined to visit some remote spot of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7002444">Scotland</placeName>, and finish my work
                     in solitude. I did not doubt but that the <pb n="[3.35]" facs="pageImages/vol3/35.jpg"/> monster followed me, and would discover
                     himself to me when I should have finished, that he might receive his
                     companion.</p>
                  <p>With this resolution I traversed the northern highlands, and fixed on one of
                     the remotest of the <placeName type="tgn" key="7459637">Orkneys</placeName> as
                     the scene of my labours. It was a place fitted for such a work, being hardly
                     more than a rock, whose high sides were continually beaten upon by the waves.
                     The soil was barren, scarcely affording pasture for a few miserable cows, and
                     oatmeal for its inhabitants, which consisted of five persons, whose gaunt and
                     scraggy limbs gave tokens of their miserable fare. Vegetables and bread, when
                     they indulged in such luxuries, and even fresh water, was to be procured from
                     the main land, which was about five miles distant.</p>
                  <p>On the whole island there were but <pb n="[3.36]" facs="pageImages/vol3/36.jpg"/> three miserable huts, and one of these was vacant when I arrived. This I
                     hired. It contained but two rooms, and these exhibited all the squalidness of
                     the most miserable penury. The thatch had fallen in, the walls were
                     unplastered, and the door was off its hinges. I ordered it to be repaired,
                     bought some furniture, and took possession; an incident which would, doubtless,
                     have occasioned some surprise, had not all the senses of the cottagers been
                     benumbed by want and squalid poverty. As it was, I lived ungazed at and
                     unmolested, hardly thanked for the pittance of food and clothes which I gave;
                     so much does suffering blunt even the coarsest sensations of men.</p>
                  <p>In this retreat I devoted the morning to labour; but in the evening, when the
                     weather permitted, I walked on the stony beach of the sea, to listen to the <pb n="[3.37]" facs="pageImages/vol3/37.jpg"/> waves as they roared, and dashed
                     at my feet. It was a monotonous, yet ever-changing scene. I thought of
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName>; it was far
                     different from this desolate and appalling landscape. Its hills are covered
                     with vines, and its cottages are scattered thickly in the plains. Its fair
                     lakes reflect a blue and gentle sky; and, when troubled by the winds, their
                     tumult is but as the play of a lively infant, when compared to the roarings of
                     the giant ocean.</p>
                  <p>In this manner I distributed my occupations when I first arrived; but, as I
                     proceeded in my labour, it became every day more horrible and irksome to me.
                     Sometimes I could not prevail on myself to enter my laboratory for several
                     days; and at other times I toiled day and night in order to complete my work.
                     It was indeed a filthy process in which I was engaged. During <pb n="[3.38]" facs="pageImages/vol3/38.jpg"/> my first experiment, a kind of enthusiastic
                     frenzy had blinded me to the horror of my employment; my mind was intently
                     fixed on the sequel of my labour, and my eyes were shut to the horror of my
                     proceedings. But now I went to it in cold blood, and my heart often sickened at
                     the work of my hands.</p>
                  <p>Thus situated, employed in the most detestable occupation, immersed in a
                     solitude where nothing could for an instant call my attention from the actual
                     scene in which I was engaged, my spirits became unequal; I grew restless and
                     nervous. Every moment I feared to meet my persecutor. Sometimes I sat with my
                     eyes fixed on the ground, fearing to raise them lest they should encounter the
                     object which I so much dreaded to behold. I feared to wander from the sight of
                     my fellow-creatures, <pb n="[3.39]" facs="pageImages/vol3/39.jpg"/> lest when
                     alone he should come to claim his companion.</p>
                  <p>In the mean time I worked on, and my labour was already considerably advanced.
                     I looked towards its completion with a tremulous and eager hope, which I dared
                     not trust myself to question, but which was intermixed with obscure forebodings
                     of evil, that made my heart sicken in my bosom.</p>"</said>


            </div>







            <div n="3.3" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[3.40]" facs="pageImages/vol3/40.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter III</head>


               <said who="#victor">" <p>I SAT one evening in my laboratory; the sun had set, and the
                     moon was just rising from the sea; I had not sufficient light for my
                     employment, and I remained idle, in a pause of consideration of whether I
                     should leave my labour for the night, or hasten its conclusion by an
                     unremitting attention to it. As I sat, a train of reflection occurred to me,
                     which led me to consider the effects of what I was now doing. Three years
                     before I was engaged in the same manner, and had created a fiend whose
                     unparalleled barbarity had desolated my <pb n="[3.41]" facs="pageImages/vol3/41.jpg"/> heart, and filled it for ever with the
                     bitterest remorse. I was now about to form another being, of whose dispositions
                     I was alike ignorant; she might become ten thousand times more malignant than
                     her mate, and delight, for its own sake, in murder and wretchedness. He had
                     sworn to quit the neighbourhood of man, and hide himself in deserts; but she
                     had not; and she, who in all probability was to become a thinking and reasoning
                     animal, might refuse to comply with a compact made before her creation. They
                     might even hate each other; the creature who already lived loathed his own
                     deformity, and might he not conceive a greater abhorrence for it when it came
                     before his eyes in the female form? She also might turn with disgust from him
                     to the superior beauty of man; she might quit him, and he be again alone,
                     exasperated by the fresh <pb n="[3.42]" facs="pageImages/vol3/42.jpg"/>
                     provocation of being deserted by one of his own species. Even if they were to
                     leave <placeName type="tgn" key="1000003">Europe</placeName>, and inhabit the
                     deserts of the new world, yet one of the first results of those sympathies for
                     which the dæmon thirsted would be children, and a race of devils would be
                     propagated upon the earth, who might make the very existence of the species of
                     man a condition precarious and full of terror. Had I right, for my own benefit,
                     to inflict this curse upon everlasting generations? I had before been moved by
                     the sophisms of the being I had created; I had been struck senseless by his
                     fiendish threats: but now, for the first time, the wickedness of my promise
                     burst upon me; I shuddered to think that future ages might curse me as their
                     pest, whose selfishness had not hesitated to buy its own peace at <pb n="[3.43]" facs="pageImages/vol3/43.jpg"/> the price perhaps of the
                     existence of the whole human race.</p>
                  <p>I trembled, and my heart failed within me; when, on looking up, I saw, by the
                     light of the moon, the dæmon at the casement. A ghastly grin wrinkled his lips
                     as he gazed on me, where I sat fulfilling the task which he had allotted to me.
                     Yes, he had followed me in my travels; he had loitered in forests, hid himself
                     in caves, or taken refuge in wide and desert heaths; and he now came to mark my
                     progress, and claim the fulfillment of my promise.</p>
                  <p>As I looked on him, his countenance expressed the utmost extent of malice and
                     treachery. I thought with a sensation of madness on my promise of creating
                     another like him, and, trembling with passion, tore to pieces the thing on
                     which I was engaged. The wretch saw me destroy the creature on <pb n="[3.44]" facs="pageImages/vol3/44.jpg"/> whose future existence he depended for
                     happiness, and, with a howl of devilish despair and revenge, withdrew.</p>
                  <p>I left the room, and, locking the door, made a solemn vow in my own heart never
                     to resume my labours; and then, with trembling steps, I sought my own
                     apartment. I was alone; none were near me to dissipate the gloom, and relieve
                     me from the sickening oppression of the most terrible reveries.</p>
                  <p>Several hours passed, and I remained near my window gazing on the sea; it was
                     almost motionless, for the winds were hushed, and all nature reposed under the
                     eye of the quiet moon. A few fishing vessels alone specked the water, and now
                     and then the gentle breeze wafted the sound of voices, as the fishermen called
                     to one another. I felt the silence, although I was hardly conscious of its
                     extreme profundity, <pb n="[3.45]" facs="pageImages/vol3/45.jpg"/> until my ear
                     was suddenly arrested by the paddling of oars near the shore, and a person
                     landed close to my house.</p>
                  <p>In a few minutes after, I heard the creaking of my door, as if some one
                     endeavoured to open it softly. I trembled from head to foot; I felt a
                     presentiment of who it was, and wished to rouse one of the peasants who dwelt
                     in a cottage not far from mine; but I was overcome by the sensation of
                     helplessness, so often felt in frightful dreams, when you in vain endeavour to
                     fly from an impending danger, and was rooted to the spot.</p>
                  <p>Presently I heard the sound of footsteps along the passage; the door opened,
                     and the wretch whom I dreaded appeared. Shutting the door, he approached me,
                     and said, in a smothered voice—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"You have destroyed the work <pb n="[3.46]" facs="pageImages/vol3/46.jpg"/> which you began; what is it that you
                        intend? Do you dare to break your promise? I have endured toil and misery: I
                        left <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName> with you; I
                        crept along the shores of the <placeName type="tgn" key="7012611">Rhine</placeName>, among its willow islands, and over the summits of its
                        hills. I have dwelt many months in the heaths of <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, and among the deserts of <placeName type="tgn" key="7002444">Scotland</placeName>. I have endured
                        incalculable fatigue, and cold, and hunger; do you dare destroy my
                        hopes?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Begone! I do break my promise; never will I create another
                        like yourself, equal in deformity and wickedness."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"Slave, I before reasoned with you, but you have proved
                        yourself unworthy of my condescension. Remember that I have power; you
                        believe yourself miserable, but I can make you so wretched that the light of
                        day will be <pb n="[3.47]" facs="pageImages/vol3/47.jpg"/> hateful to you.
                        You are my creator, but I am your master;—obey!"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"The hour of my weakness is past, and the period of your
                        power is arrived. Your threats cannot move me to do an act of wickedness;
                        but they confirm me in a resolution of not creating you a companion in vice.
                        Shall I, in cool blood, set loose upon the earth a dæmon, whose delight is
                        in death and wretchedness. Begone! I am firm, and your words will only
                        exasperate my rage."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>The monster saw my determination in my face, and gnashed his teeth in the
                     impotence of anger. <said who="#creature">"Shall each man,"</said> cried he,
                        <said who="#creature">"find a wife for his bosom, and each beast have his
                        mate, and I be alone? I had feelings of affection, and they were requited by
                        detestation and scorn. Man, you may hate; but beware! Your hours will pass
                        in dread and <pb n="[3.48]" facs="pageImages/vol3/48.jpg"/> misery, and soon
                        the bolt will fall which must ravish from you your happiness for ever. Are
                        you to be happy, while I grovel in the intensity of my wretchedness? You can
                        blast my other passions; but revenge remains—revenge, henceforth dearer than
                        light or food! I may die; but first you, my tyrant and tormentor, shall
                        curse the sun that gazes on your misery. Beware; for I am fearless, and
                        therefore powerful. I will watch with the wiliness of a snake, that I may
                        sting with its venom. Man, you shall repent of the injuries you
                        inflict."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Devil, cease; and do not poison the air with these sounds
                        of malice. I have declared my resolution to you, and I am no coward to bend
                        beneath words. Leave me; I am inexorable."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"It is well. I go; but remember, I shall be with you on
                        your wedding-night."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[3.49]" facs="pageImages/vol3/49.jpg"/>
                  <p>I started forward, and exclaimed, <said who="#victor">"Villain! before you sign
                        my death-warrant, be sure that you are yourself safe."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I would have seized him; but he eluded me, and quitted the house with
                     precipitation: in a few moments I saw him in his boat, which shot across the
                     waters with an arrowy swiftness and was soon lost amidst the waves.</p>
                  <p>All was again silent; but his words rung in my ears. I burned with rage to
                     pursue the murderer of my peace, and precipitate him into the ocean. I walked
                     up and down my room hastily and perturbed, while my imagination conjured up a
                     thousand images to torment and sting me. Why had I not followed him, and closed
                     with him in mortal strife? But I had suffered him to depart, and he had
                     directed his course towards the main land. I <pb n="[3.50 - page breaks after 'shud-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/50.jpg"/>
                     shuddered to think who might be the next victim sacrificed to his insatiate
                     revenge. And then I thought again of his words—<said who="#creatureVictor">"I
                        will be with you on your wedding-night."</said> That then was the period
                     fixed for the fulfillment of my destiny. In that hour I should die, and at once
                     satisfy and extinguish his malice. The prospect did not move me to fear; yet
                     when I thought of my beloved <persName>Elizabeth</persName>,—of her tears and
                     endless sorrow, when she should find her lover so barbarously snatched from
                     her,—tears, the first I had shed for many months, streamed from my eyes, and I
                     resolved not to fall before my enemy without a bitter struggle.</p>
                  <p>The night passed away, and the sun rose from the ocean; my feelings became
                     calmer, if it may be called calmness, when the violence of rage sinks into the
                     depths of despair. I left the <pb n="[3.51]" facs="pageImages/vol3/51.jpg"/>
                     house, the horrid scene of the last night's contention, and walked on the beach
                     of the sea, which I almost regarded as an insuperable barrier between me and my
                     fellow-creatures; nay, a wish that such should prove the fact stole across me.
                     I desired that I might pass my life on that barren rock, wearily it is true,
                     but uninterrupted by any sudden shock of misery. If I returned, it was to be
                     sacrificed, or to see those whom I most loved die under the grasp of a dæmon
                     whom I had myself created.</p>
                  <p>I walked about the isle like a restless spectre, separated from all it loved,
                     and miserable in the separation. When it became noon, and the sun rose higher,
                     I lay down on the grass, and was overpowered by a deep sleep. I had been awake
                     the whole of the preceding night, my nerves were agitated, <pb n="[3.52]" facs="pageImages/vol3/52.jpg"/> and my eyes inflamed by watching and misery.
                     The sleep into which I now sunk refreshed me; and when I awoke, I again felt as
                     if I belonged to a race of human beings like myself, and I began to reflect
                     upon what had passed with greater composure; yet still the words of the fiend
                     rung in my ears like a death-knell, they appeared like a dream, yet distinct
                     and oppressive as a reality.</p>
                  <p>The sun had far descended, and I still sat on the shore, satisfying my
                     appetite, which had become ravenous, with an oaten cake, when I saw a
                     fishing-boat land close to me, and one of the men brought me a packet; it
                     contained letters from <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> ,
                     and one from <persName>Clerval</persName>, entreating me to join him. He said
                     that nearly a year had elapsed since we had quitted <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName>, and <placeName type="tgn" key="1000070">France</placeName> was yet unvisited. He <pb n="[3.53 - page breaks after 'en-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/53.jpg"/>
                     entreated me, therefore, to leave my solitary isle, and meet him at <placeName type="tgn" key="7009702">Perth</placeName>, in a week from that time, when
                     we might arrange the plan of our future proceedings. This letter in a degree
                     recalled me to life, and I determined to quit my island at the expiration of
                     two days.</p>
                  <p>Yet, before I departed, there was a task to perform, on which I shuddered to
                     reflect: I must pack my chemical instruments; and for that purpose I must enter
                     the room which had been the scene of my odious work, and I must handle those
                     utensils, the sight of which was sickening to me. The next morning, at
                     day-break, I summoned sufficient courage, and unlocked the door of my
                     laboratory. The remains of the half-finished creature, whom I had destroyed,
                     lay scattered on the floor, and I almost felt as if I had <pb n="[3.54 - page breaks after 'man-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/54.jpg"/>
                     mangled the living flesh of a human being. I paused to collect myself, and then
                     entered the chamber. With trembling hand I conveyed the instruments out of the
                     room; but I reflected that I ought not to leave the relics of my work to excite
                     the horror and suspicion of the peasants, and I accordingly put them into a
                     basket, with a great quantity of stones, and laying them up, determined to
                     throw them into the sea that very night; and in the mean time I sat upon the
                     beach, employed in cleaning and arranging my chemical apparatus.</p>
                  <p>Nothing could be more complete than the alteration that had taken place in my
                     feelings since the night of the appearance of the dæmon. I had before regarded
                     my promise with a gloomy despair, as a thing that, with whatever consequences,
                     must be fulfilled; but I now felt as if a film had <pb n="[3.55]" facs="pageImages/vol3/55.jpg"/> been taken from before my eyes, and that I,
                     for the first time, saw clearly. The idea of renewing my labours did not for
                     one instant occur to me; the threat I had heard weighed on my thoughts, but I
                     did not reflect that a voluntary act of mine could avert it. I had resolved in
                     my own mind, that to create another like the fiend I had first made would be an
                     act of the basest and most atrocious selfishness; and I banished from my mind
                     every thought that could lead to a different conclusion.</p>
                  <p>Between two and three in the morning the moon rose; and I then, putting my
                     basket aboard a little skiff, sailed out about four miles from the shore. The
                     scene was perfectly solitary: a few boats were returning towards land, but I
                     sailed away from them. I felt as if I was about the commission of a dreadful
                     crime, and avoided with shuddering <pb n="[3.56]" facs="pageImages/vol3/56.jpg"/> anxiety any encounter with my fellow-creatures. At one time the moon, which
                     had before been clear, was suddenly overspread by a thick cloud, and I took
                     advantage of the moment of darkness, and cast my basket into the sea; I
                     listened to the gurgling sound as it sunk, and then sailed away from the spot.
                     The sky became clouded; but the air was pure, although chilled by the
                     north-east breeze that was then rising. But it refreshed me, and filled me with
                     such agreeable sensations, that I resolved to prolong my stay on the water, and
                     fixing the rudder in a direct position, stretched myself at the bottom of the
                     boat. Clouds hid the moon, every thing was obscure, and I heard only the sound
                     of the boat, as its keel cut through the waves; the murmur lulled me, and in a
                     short time I slept soundly.</p>
                  <pb n="[3.57]" facs="pageImages/vol3/57.jpg"/>
                  <p>I do not know how long I remained in this situation, but when I awoke I found
                     that the sun had already mounted considerably. The wind was high, and the waves
                     continually threatened the safety of my little skiff. I found that the wind was
                     north-east, and must have driven me far from the coast from which I had
                     embarked. I endeavoured to change my course, but quickly found that if I again
                     made the attempt the boat would be instantly filled with water. Thus situated,
                     my only resource was to drive before the wind. I confess that I felt a few
                     sensations of terror. I had no compass with me, and was so little acquainted
                     with the geography of this part of the world that the sun was of little benefit
                     to me. I might be driven into the wide <placeName type="tgn" key="7014206">Atlantic</placeName>, and feel all the tortures of starvation, or be
                     swallowed up in the immeasurable <pb n="[3.58]" facs="pageImages/vol3/58.jpg"/>
                     waters that roared and buffeted around me. I had already been out many hours,
                     and felt the torment of a burning thirst, a prelude to my other sufferings. I
                     looked on the heavens, which were covered by clouds that flew before the wind
                     only to be replaced by others: I looked upon the sea, it was to be my grave.
                        <said who="#victor">"Fiend,"</said> I exclaimed, <said who="#victor">"your
                        task is already fulfilled!"</said> I thought of
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, of my father, and of
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>; and sunk into a reverie, so despairing and
                     frightful, that even now, when the scene is on the point of closing before me
                     for ever, I shudder to reflect on it.</p>
                  <p>Some hours passed thus; but by degrees, as the sun declined towards the
                     horizon, the wind died away into a gentle breeze, and the sea became free from
                     breakers. But these gave place to a heavy swell; I felt sick, and hardly able
                     to hold the rudder, when suddenly <pb n="[3.59]" facs="pageImages/vol3/59.jpg"/> I saw a line of high land towards the south.</p>
                  <p>Almost spent, as I was, by fatigue, and the dreadful suspense I endured for
                     several hours, this sudden certainty of life rushed like a flood of warm joy to
                     my heart, and tears gushed from my eyes.</p>
                  <p>How mutable are our feelings, and how strange is that clinging love we have of
                     life even in the excess of misery! I constructed another sail with a part of my
                     dress, and eagerly steered my course towards the land. It had a wild and rocky
                     appearance; but, as I approached nearer, I easily perceived the traces of
                     cultivation. I saw vessels near the shore, and found myself suddenly
                     transported back to the neighbourhood of civilized man. I eagerly traced the
                     windings of the land, and hailed a steeple which I at length saw <pb n="[3.60]" facs="pageImages/vol3/60.jpg"/> issuing from behind a small promontory. As I
                     was in a state of extreme debility, I resolved to sail directly towards the
                     town as a place where I could most easily procure nourishment. Fortunately I
                     had money with me. As I turned the promontory, I perceived a small neat town
                     and a good harbour, which I entered, my heart bounding with joy at my
                     unexpected escape.</p>
                  <p>As I was occupied in fixing the boat and arranging the sails, several people
                     crowded towards the spot. They seemed very much surprised at my appearance;
                     but, instead of offering me any assistance, whispered together with gestures
                     that at any other time might have produced in me a slight sensation of alarm.
                     As it was, I merely remarked that they spoke English; and I therefore addressed
                     them in that language: <said who="#victor">"My good friends,"</said> said I,
                        <said who="#victor">"will you be so <pb n="[3.61]" facs="pageImages/vol3/61.jpg"/> kind as to tell me the name of this town,
                        and inform me where I am?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#unknown">"You will know that soon enough,"</said> replied a man
                     with a gruff voice. <said who="#unknown">"May be you are come to a place that
                        will not prove much to your taste; but you will not be consulted as to your
                        quarters, I promise you."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I was exceedingly surprised on receiving so rude an answer from a stranger; and
                     I was also disconcerted on perceiving the frowning and angry countenances of
                     his companions. <said who="#victor">"Why do you answer me so roughly?"</said> I
                     replied: <said who="#victor">"surely it is not the custom of Englishmen to
                        receive strangers so inhospitably."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#unknown">"I do not know,"</said> said the man, <said who="#unknown">"what the custom of the <foreign>English</foreign> may be; but it is the
                        custom of the Irish to hate villains."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>While this strange dialogue <pb n="[3.62 - page breaks after 'conti-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/62.jpg"/> continued, I perceived the crowd rapidly
                     increase. Their faces expressed a mixture of curiosity and anger, which
                     annoyed, and in some degree alarmed me. I inquired the way to the inn; but no
                     one replied. I then moved forward, and a murmuring sound arose from the crowd
                     as they followed and surrounded me; when an ill-looking man approaching, tapped
                     me on the shoulder, and said, <said who="#unknown">"Come, Sir, you must follow
                        me to <persName>Mr.Kirwin’s</persName>."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Who is <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName>? Why am I to give
                        an account of myself? Is not this a free country?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#unknown">"Ay, Sir, free enough for honest folks. <persName>Mr.
                           Kirwin</persName> is a magistrate; and you are to give an account of the
                        death of a gentleman who was found murdered here last night."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>This answer startled me; but I <pb n="[3.63 - page breaks after 'pre-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/63.jpg"/> presently recovered myself. I was innocent;
                     that could easily be proved: accordingly I followed my conductor in silence,
                     and was led to one of the best houses in the town. I was ready to sink from
                     fatigue and hunger; but, being surrounded by a crowd, I thought it politic to
                     rouse all my strength, that no physical debility might be construed into
                     apprehension or conscious guilt. Little did I then expect the calamity that was
                     in a few moments to overwhelm me, and extinguish in horror and despair all fear
                     of ignominy or death.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I must pause here; for it requires all my fortitude to
                        recall the memory of the frightful events which I am about to relate, in
                        proper detail, to my recollection."</said>
                                </p>
                            </said>


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            <div n="3.4" type="chapter">




               <pb n="[3.64]" facs="pageImages/vol3/64.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter IV</head>







               <said who="#victor">"<p>I WAS soon introduced into the presence of the magistrate, an
                     old benevolent man, with calm and mild manners. He looked upon me, however,
                     with some degree of severity; and then, turning towards my conductors, he asked
                     who appeared as witnesses on this occasion.</p>
                  <p>About half a dozen men came forward; and one being selected by the magistrate,
                     he deposed, that he had been out fishing the night before with his son and
                     brother-in-law, <persName>Daniel Nugent </persName>, when, about ten o'clock,
                     they <pb n="[3.65 - page breaks after 'ob-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/65.jpg"/>
                     observed a strong northerly blast rising, and they accordingly put in for port.
                     It was a very dark night, as the moon had not yet risen; they did not land at
                     the harbour, but, as they had been accustomed, at a creek about two miles
                     below. He walked on first, carrying a part of the fishing tackle, and his
                     companions followed him at some distance. As he was proceeding along the sands,
                     he struck his foot against something, and fell at his length on the ground. His
                     companions came up to assist him; and, by the light of their lantern, they
                     found that he had fallen on the body of a man, who was to all appearance dead.
                     Their first supposition was, that it was the corpse of some person who had been
                     drowned, and was thrown on shore by the waves; but, upon examination, they
                     found that the clothes were not wet, and even that <pb n="[3.66]" facs="pageImages/vol3/66.jpg"/> the body was not then cold. They instantly
                     carried it to the cottage of an old woman near the spot, and endeavoured, but
                     in vain, to restore it to life. He appeared to be a handsome young man, about
                     five and twenty years of age. He had apparently been strangled; for there was
                     no sign of any violence, except the black mark of fingers on his neck.</p>
                  <p>The first part of this deposition did not in the least interest me; but when
                     the mark of the fingers was mentioned, I remembered the murder of my brother,
                     and felt myself extremely agitated; my limbs trembled, and a mist came over my
                     eyes, which obliged me to lean on a chair for support. The magistrate observed
                     me with a keen eye, and of course drew an unfavourable augury from my
                     manner.</p>
                  <p>The son confirmed his father's <pb n="[3.67 - page breaks after 'ac-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/67.jpg"/> account: but when <persName> Daniel
                        Nugent</persName> was called, he swore positively that, just before the fall
                     of his companion, he saw a boat, with a single man in it, at a short distance
                     from the shore; and, as far as he could judge by the light of a few stars, it
                     was the same boat in which I had just landed.</p>
                  <p>A woman deposed, that she lived near the beach, and was standing at the door of
                     her cottage, waiting for the return of the fishermen, about an hour before she
                     heard of the discovery of the body, when she saw a boat, with only one man in
                     it, push off from that part of the shore where the corpse was afterwards
                     found.</p>
                  <p>Another woman confirmed the account of the fishermen having brought the body
                     into her house; it was not cold. They put it into a bed, and rubbed it; and
                        <persName>Daniel</persName> went to the <pb n="[3.68]" facs="pageImages/vol3/68.jpg"/> town for an apothecary, but life was quite
                     gone.</p>
                  <p>Several other men were examined concerning my landing; and they agreed, that,
                     with the strong north wind that had arisen during the night, it was very
                     probable that I had beaten about for many hours, and had been obliged to return
                     nearly to the same spot from which I had departed. Besides, they observed that
                     it appeared that I had brought the body from another place, and it was likely,
                     that as I did not appear to know the shore, I might have put into the harbour
                     ignorant of the distance of the town of ---- from the place where I had
                     deposited the corpse.</p>
                  <p>
                     <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName>, on hearing this evidence, desired that I
                     should be taken into the room where the body lay for interment, that it might
                     be observed <pb n="[3.69]" facs="pageImages/vol3/69.jpg"/> what effect the
                     sight of it would produce upon me. This idea was probably suggested by the
                     extreme agitation I had exhibited when the mode of the murder had been
                     described. I was accordingly conducted, by the magistrate and several other
                     persons, to the inn. I could not help being struck by the strange coincidences
                     that had taken place during this eventful night; but, knowing that I had been
                     conversing with several persons in the island I had inhabited about the time
                     that the body had been found, I was perfectly tranquil as to the consequences
                     of the affair.</p>
                  <p>I entered the room where the corpse lay, and was led up to the coffin. How can
                     I describe my sensations on beholding it? I feel yet parched with horror, nor
                     can I reflect on that terrible moment without shuddering and agony, <pb n="[3.70]" facs="pageImages/vol3/70.jpg"/> that faintly reminds me of the
                     anguish of recognition. The trial, the presence of the magistrate and
                     witnesses, passed like a dream from my memory, when I saw the lifeless form of
                        <persName>Henry Clerval</persName> stretched before me. I gasped for breath;
                     and, throwing myself on the body, I exclaimed, <said who="#victor">"Have my
                        murderous machinations deprived you also, my dearest
                           <persName>Henry</persName>, of life? Two I have already destroyed; other
                        victims await their destiny: but you, <persName>Clerval</persName>, my
                        friend, my benefactor—"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>The human frame could no longer support the agonizing suffering that I endured,
                     and I was carried out of the room in strong convulsions.</p>
                  <p>A fever succeeded to this. I lay for two months on the point of death: my
                     ravings, as I afterwards heard, were frightful; I called myself the murderer
                        <pb n="[3.71]" facs="pageImages/vol3/71.jpg"/> of
                        <persName>William</persName>, of <persName>Justine</persName>, and of
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>. Sometimes I entreated my attendants to assist
                     me in the destruction of the fiend by whom I was tormented; and, at others, I
                     felt the fingers of the monster already grasping my neck, and screamed aloud
                     with agony and terror. Fortunately, as I spoke my native language,
                        <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName> alone understood me; but my gestures and
                     bitter cries were sufficient to affright the other witnesses.</p>
                  <p>Why did I not die? More miserable than man ever was before, why did I not sink
                     into forgetfulness and rest? Death snatches away many blooming children, the
                     only hopes of their doating parents: how many brides and youthful lovers have
                     been one day in the bloom of health and hope, and the next a prey for worms and
                     the decay of the tomb! Of what materials was <pb n="[3.72]" facs="pageImages/vol3/72.jpg"/> I made, that I could thus resist so many
                     shocks, which, like the turning of the wheel, continually renewed the
                     torture.</p>
                  <p>But I was doomed to live; and, in two months, found myself as awaking from a
                     dream, in a prison, stretched on a wretched bed, surrounded by gaolers,
                     turnkeys, bolts, and all the miserable apparatus of a dungeon. It was morning,
                     I remember, when I thus awoke to understanding: I had forgotten the particulars
                     of what had happened, and only felt as if some great misfortune had suddenly
                     overwhelmed me; but when I looked around, and saw the barred windows, and the
                     squalidness of the room in which I was, all flashed across my memory, and I
                     groaned bitterly.</p>
                  <p>This sound disturbed an old woman who was sleeping in a chair beside me. <pb n="[3.73]" facs="pageImages/vol3/73.jpg"/> She was a hired nurse, the wife
                     of one of the turnkeys, and her countenance expressed all those bad qualities
                     which often characterise that class. The lines of her face were hard and rude,
                     like that of persons accustomed to see without sympathizing in sights of
                     misery. Her tone expressed her entire indifference; she addressed me in
                        <foreign>English</foreign>, and the voice struck me as one that I had heard
                     during my sufferings:</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#oldwoman">"Are you better now, Sir?"</said> said she.</p>
                  <p>I replied in the same language, with a feeble voice, <said who="#victor">"I
                        believe I am; but if it be all true, if indeed I did not dream, I am sorry
                        that I am still alive to feel this misery and horror."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#oldwoman">"For that matter,"</said> replied the old woman, <said who="#oldwoman">"if you mean about the gentleman you murdered, I believe
                        that it were better for you if you were dead, <pb n="[3.74]" facs="pageImages/vol3/74.jpg"/> for I fancy it will go hard with you; but
                        you will be hung when the next sessions come on. However, that's none of my
                        business, I am sent to nurse you, and get you well; I do my duty with a safe
                        conscience, it were well if every body did the same."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I turned with loathing from the woman who could utter so unfeeling a speech to
                     a person just saved, on the very edge of death; but I felt languid, and unable
                     to reflect on all that had passed. The whole series of my life appeared to me
                     as a dream; I sometimes doubted if indeed it were all true, for it never
                     presented itself to my mind with the force of reality.</p>
                  <p>As the images that floated before me became more distinct, I grew feverish; a
                     darkness pressed around me: no one was near me who soothed me with the gentle
                     voice of love; no dear hand supported me.<pb n="[3.75]" facs="pageImages/vol3/75.jpg"/> The physician came and prescribed medicines,
                     and the old woman prepared them for me; but utter carelessness was visible in
                     the first, and the expression of brutality was strongly marked in the visage of
                     the second. Who could be interested in the fate of a murderer, but the hangman
                     who would gain his fee?</p>
                  <p>These were my first reflections; but I soon learned that <persName>Mr.
                        Kirwin</persName> had shewn me extreme kindness. He had caused the best room
                     in the prison to be prepared for me (wretched indeed was the best); and it was
                     he who had provided a physician and a nurse. It is true, he seldom came to see
                     me; for, although he ardently desired to relieve the sufferings of every human
                     creature, he did not wish to be present at the agonies and miserable ravings of
                     a murderer. He came, therefore, <pb n="[3.76 - page breaks after 'some-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/76.jpg"/> sometimes to see that I was not neglected;
                     but his visits were short, and at long intervals.</p>
                  <p>One day, when I was gradually recovering, I was seated in a chair, my eyes half
                     open, and my cheeks livid like those in death, I was overcome by gloom and
                     misery, and often reflected I had better seek death than remain miserably pent
                     up only to be let loose in a world replete with wretchedness. At one time I
                     considered whether I should not declare myself guilty, and suffer the penalty
                     of the law, less innocent than poor Justine had been. Such were my thoughts,
                     when the door of my apartment was opened, and <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName>
                     entered. His countenance expressed sympathy and compassion; he drew a chair
                     close to mine, and addressed me in <foreign>French</foreign>—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#kirwin">"I fear that this place is very <pb n="[3.77 - page breaks after 'shock-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/77.jpg"/>
                        shocking to you; can I do any thing to make you more
                     comfortable?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I thank you; but all that you mention is nothing to me: on
                        the whole earth there is no comfort which I am capable of
                     receiving."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#kirwin">"I know that the sympathy of a stranger can be but of
                        little relief to one borne down as you are by so strange a misfortune. But
                        you will, I hope, soon quit this melancholy abode; for, doubtless, evidence
                        can easily be brought to free you from the criminal charge."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"That is my least concern: I am, by a course of strange
                        events, become the most miserable of mortals. Persecuted and tortured as I
                        am and have been, can death be any evil to me?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#kirwin">"Nothing indeed could be more unfortunate and agonizing
                        than the strange chances that have lately <pb n="[3.78 - page breaks after 'occur-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/78.jpg"/>
                        occurred. You were thrown, by some surprising accident, on this shore,
                        renowned for its hospitality: seized immediately, and charged with murder.
                        The first sight that was presented to your eyes was the body of your friend,
                        murdered in so unaccountable a manner, and placed, as it were, by some fiend
                        across your path."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>As <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName> said this, notwithstanding the agitation I
                     endured on this retrospect of my sufferings, I also felt considerable surprise
                     at the knowledge he seemed to possess concerning me. I suppose some
                     astonishment was exhibited in my countenance; for <persName>Mr.
                        Kirwin</persName> hastened to say—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#kirwin">"It was not until a day or two after your illness that I
                        thought of examining your dress, that I might discover some trace by which I
                        could send to your relations an account of your misfortune <pb n="[3.79]" facs="pageImages/vol3/79.jpg"/> and illness. I found several letters,
                        and, among others, one which I discovered from its commencement to be from
                        your father. I instantly wrote to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>: nearly two months have elapsed since the departure
                        of my letter.—But you are ill; even now you tremble: you are unfit for
                        agitation of any kind."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"This suspense is a thousand times worse than the most
                        horrible event: tell me what new scene of death has been acted, and whose
                        murder I am now to lament."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#kirwin">"Your family is perfectly well,"</said> said <persName>Mr.
                        Kirwin</persName>, with gentleness; <said who="#kirwin">"and some one, a
                        friend, is come to visit you."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I know not by what chain of thought the idea presented itself, but it instantly
                     darted into my mind that the murderer had come to mock at my misery, and taunt
                     me with the death of <persName>Clerval</persName>, as <pb n="[3.80]" facs="pageImages/vol3/80.jpg"/> a new incitement for me to comply with his
                     hellish desires. I put my hand before my eyes, and cried out in agony—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Oh! take him away! I cannot see him; for God's sake, do
                        not let him enter!"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                     <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName> regarded me with a troubled countenance. He
                     could not help regarding my exclamation as a presumption of my guilt, and said,
                     in rather a severe tone—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#kirwin">"I should have thought, young man, that the presence of
                        your father would have been welcome, instead of inspiring such violent
                        repugnance."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"My father!"</said> cried I, while every feature and every
                     muscle was relaxed from anguish to pleasure. <said who="#victor">"Is my father,
                        indeed, come? How kind, how very kind. But where is he, why does he not
                        hasten to me?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>My change of manner surprised and <pb n="[3.81]" facs="pageImages/vol3/81.jpg"/> pleased the magistrate; perhaps he thought that my former exclamation was a
                     momentary return of delirium, and now he instantly resumed his former
                     benevolence. He rose, and quitted the room with my nurse, and in a moment my
                     father entered it.</p>
                  <p>Nothing, at this moment, could have given me greater pleasure than the arrival
                     of my father. I stretched out my hand to him, and cried—</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Are you then safe—and <persName>Elizabeth</persName> —and
                           <persName>Ernest</persName>?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>My father calmed me with assurances of their welfare, and endeavoured, by
                     dwelling on these subjects so interesting to my heart, to raise my desponding
                     spirits; but he soon felt that a prison cannot be the abode of cheerfulness.
                        <said who="#father">"What a place is this that you inhabit, my son!"</said>
                     said he, looking mournfully at the barred windows, and wretched <pb n="[3.82]" facs="pageImages/vol3/82.jpg"/> appearance of the room. <said who="#father">"You travelled to seek happiness, but a fatality seems to pursue you. And
                        poor <persName>Clerval</persName>—"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>The name of my unfortunate and murdered friend was an agitation too great to be
                     endured in my weak state; I shed tears.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Alas! yes, my father,"</said> replied I; <said who="#victor">"some destiny of the most horrible kind hangs over me, and I
                        must live to fulfill it, or surely I should have died on the coffin of
                        Henry."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>We were not allowed to converse for any length of time, for the precarious
                     state of my health rendered every precaution necessary that could insure
                     tranquillity. <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName> came in, and insisted that my
                     strength should not be exhausted by too much exertion. But the appearance of my
                     father was to me like that of my good angel, and I gradually recovered my
                     health.</p>
                  <pb n="[3.83]" facs="pageImages/vol3/83.jpg"/>
                  <p>As my sickness quitted me, I was absorbed by a gloomy and black melancholy,
                     that nothing could dissipate. The image of <persName>Clerval</persName> was for
                     ever before me, ghastly and murdered. More than once the agitation into which
                     these reflections threw me made my friends dread a dangerous relapse. Alas! why
                     did they preserve so miserable and detested a life? It was surely that I might
                     fulfill my destiny, which is now drawing to a close. Soon, oh, very soon, will
                     death extinguish these throbbings, and relieve me from the mighty weight of
                     anguish that bears me to the dust; and, in executing the award of justice, I
                     shall also sink to rest. Then the appearance of death was distant, although the
                     wish was ever present to my thoughts; and I often sat for hours motionless and
                     speechless, wishing for some mighty revolution that might <pb n="[3.84]" facs="pageImages/vol3/84.jpg"/> bury me and my destroyer in its ruins.</p>
                  <p>The season of the assizes approached. I had already been three months in
                     prison; and although I was still weak, and in continual danger of a relapse, I
                     was obliged to travel nearly a hundred miles to the county-town, where the
                     court was held. <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName> charged himself with every care
                     of collecting witnesses, and arranging my defence. I was spared the disgrace of
                     appearing publicly as a criminal, as the case was not brought before the court
                     that decides on life and death. The grand jury rejected the bill, on its being
                     proved that I was on the <placeName type="tgn" key="7459637">Orkney
                        Islands</placeName> at the hour the body of my friend was found, and a
                     fortnight after my removal I was liberated from prison.</p>
                  <p>My father was enraptured on finding me freed from the vexations of a <pb n="[3.85 - page breaks after 'cri-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/85.jpg"/>
                     criminal charge, that I was again allowed to breathe the fresh atmosphere, and
                     allowed to return to my native country. I did not participate in these
                     feelings; for to me the walls of a dungeon or a palace were alike hateful. The
                     cup of life was poisoned for ever; and although the sun shone upon me, as upon
                     the happy and gay of heart, I saw around me nothing but a dense and frightful
                     darkness, penetrated by no light but the glimmer of two eyes that glared upon
                     me. Sometimes they were the expressive eyes of <persName>Henry</persName>,
                     languishing in death, the dark orbs nearly covered by the lids, and the long
                     black lashes that fringed them; sometimes it was the watery clouded eyes of the
                     monster, as I first saw them in my chamber at Ingolstadt.</p>
                  <p>My father tried to awaken in me the feelings of affection. He talked of <pb n="[3.86]" facs="pageImages/vol3/86.jpg"/>
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, which I should soon
                     visit—of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and <persName>Ernest</persName>; but
                     these words only drew deep groans from me. Sometimes, indeed, I felt a wish for
                     happiness; and thought, with melancholy delight, of my beloved cousin; or
                     longed, with a devouring maladie du pays, to see once more the blue lake and
                     rapid <placeName type="tgn" key="7023890">Rhone</placeName>, that had been so
                     dear to me in early childhood: but my general state of feeling was a torpor, in
                     which a prison was as welcome a residence as the divinest scene in nature; and
                     these fits were seldom interrupted, but by paroxysms of anguish and despair. At
                     these moments I often endeavoured to put an end to the existence I loathed; and
                     it required unceasing attendance and vigilance to restrain me from committing
                     some dreadful act of violence.</p>
                  <p>I remember, as I quitted the prison, <pb n="[3.87]" facs="pageImages/vol3/87.jpg"/> I heard one of the men say, <said who="#unknown">"He may be innocent of the murder, but he has certainly a bad
                        conscience."</said> These words struck me. A bad conscience! yes, surely I
                     had one. <persName>William</persName>, <persName>Justine</persName>, and
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>, had died through my infernal machinations;
                        <said who="#victor">"And whose death,"</said> cried I, <said who="#victor">"is to finish the tragedy? Ah! my father, do not remain in this wretched
                        country; take me where I may forget myself, my existence, and all the
                        world."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>My father easily acceded to my desire; and, after having taken leave of
                        <persName>Mr. Kirwin</persName>, we hastened to <placeName type="tgn" key="7001306">Dublin</placeName>. I felt as if I was relieved from a heavy
                     weight, when the packet sailed with a fair wind from Ireland, and I had quitted
                     for ever the country which had been to me the scene of so much misery.</p>
                  <p>It was midnight. My father slept in <pb n="[3.88]" facs="pageImages/vol3/88.jpg"/> the cabin; and I lay on the deck, looking at
                     the stars, and listening to the dashing of the waves. I hailed the darkness
                     that shut Ireland from my sight, and my pulse beat with a feverish joy, when I
                     reflected that I should soon see <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. The past appeared to me in the light of a frightful
                     dream; yet the vessel in which I was, the wind that blew me from the detested
                     shore of Ireland, and the sea which surrounded me, told me too forcibly that I
                     was deceived by no vision, and that <persName>Clerval</persName>, my friend and
                     dearest companion, had fallen a victim to me and the monster of my creation. I
                     repassed, in my memory, my whole life; my quiet happiness while residing with
                     my family in <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, the death
                     of my mother, and my departure for Ingolstadt. I remembered shuddering at the
                     mad enthusiasm that hurried me on to the <pb n="[3.89 - page breaks after 'crea-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/89.jpg"/>
                     creation of my hideous enemy, and I called to mind the night during which he
                     first lived. I was unable to pursue the train of thought; a thousand feelings
                     pressed upon me, and I wept bitterly.</p>
                  <p>Ever since my recovery from the fever I had been in the custom of taking every
                     night a small quantity of laudanum; for it was by means of this drug only that
                     I was enabled to gain the rest necessary for the preservation of life.
                     Oppressed by the recollection of my various misfortunes, I now took a double
                     dose, and soon slept profoundly. But sleep did not afford me respite from
                     thought and misery; my dreams presented a thousand objects that scared me.
                     Towards morning I was possessed by a kind of night-mare; I felt the fiend's
                     grasp in my neck, and could not free myself from it; groans and cries rung in
                     my ears. My father, who was <pb n="[3.90]" facs="pageImages/vol3/90.jpg"/>
                     watching over me, perceiving my restlessness, awoke me, and pointed to the port
                     of Holyhead, which we were now entering.to give an account of
                  yourself.</p>
                            </said>

















            </div>









            <div n="3.5" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[3.91]" facs="pageImages/vol3/91.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter V</head>


               <p>
                                <said who="#victor">"WE had resolved not to go to <placeName type="tgn" key="7011781">London</placeName>, but to cross the country to <placeName type="tgn" key="7011393">Portsmouth</placeName>, and thence to embark for
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7008927" cert="medium">Havre</placeName>. I
                     preferred this plan principally because I dreaded to see again those places in
                     which I had enjoyed a few moments of tranquillity with my beloved
                        <persName>Clerval</persName>. I thought with horror of seeing again those
                     persons whom we had been accustomed to visit together, and who might make
                     inquiries concerning an event, the very remembrance of which made me again feel
                     the pang I endured <pb n="[3.92]" facs="pageImages/vol3/92.jpg"/> when I gazed
                     on his lifeless form in the inn at ----.</said>
                            </p>


               <p>As for my father, his desires and exertions were bounded to the again seeing me
                  restored to health and peace of mind. His tenderness and attentions were
                  unremitting; my grief and gloom was obstinate, but he would not despair. Sometimes
                  he thought that I felt deeply the degradation of being obliged to answer a charge
                  of murder, and he endeavoured to prove to me the futility of pride.</p>


               <p>
                                <said who="#victor">"Alas! my father,"</said> said I, <said who="#victor">"how
                     little do you know me. Human beings, their feelings and passions, would indeed
                     be degraded if such a wretch as I felt pride. <persName>Justine</persName>,
                     poor unhappy <persName>Justine</persName>, was as innocent as I, and she
                     suffered the same charge; she died for it; and I am the cause of this—I
                     murdered her. <persName>William</persName>, <persName>Justine</persName>, <pb n="[3.93]" facs="pageImages/vol3/93.jpg"/> and
                     <persName>Henry</persName>—they all died by my hands."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>My father had often, during my imprisonment, heard me make the same assertion;
                  when I thus accused myself, he sometimes seemed to desire an explanation, and at
                  others he appeared to consider it as caused by delirium, and that, during my
                  illness, some idea of this kind had presented itself to my imagination, the
                  remembrance of which I preserved in my convalescence. I avoided explanation, and
                  maintained a continual silence concerning the wretch I had created. I had a
                  feeling that I should be supposed mad, and this for ever chained my tongue, when I
                  would have given the world to have confided the fatal secret. Yet still words like
                  those I have recorded would burst uncontrollably from me. I could offer no
                  explanation of them; but their truth in part relieved the burden of my mysterious
                  woe.</p>


               <p>Upon this occasion my father said, with an expression of unbounded wonder, <said who="#father">"What do you mean, <persName>Victor</persName>? <pb n="[3.94]" facs="pageImages/vol3/94.jpg"/> are you mad? My dear son, I entreat you
                     never to make such an assertion again."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>
                                <said who="#victor">"I am not mad,"</said> I cried energetically; <said who="#victor">"the sun and the heavens, who have viewed my operations, can bear
                     witness of my truth. I am the assassin of those most innocent victims; they
                     died by my machinations. A thousand times would I have shed my own blood, drop
                     by drop, to have saved their lives; but I could not, my father, indeed I could
                     not sacrifice the whole human race."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>The conclusion of this speech convinced my father that my ideas were deranged, and
                  he instantly changed the subject of our conversation and endeavoured to alter the
                  course of my thoughts. He wished as much as possible to obliterate the memory of
                  the scenes that had taken place in <placeName type="tgn" key="1000078">Ireland</placeName>, <pb n="[3.95]" facs="pageImages/vol3/95.jpg"/> and never
                  alluded to them, or suffered me to speak of my misfortunes.</p>


               <p>As time passed away I became more calm: misery had her dwelling in my heart, but I
                  no longer talked in the same incoherent manner of my own crimes; sufficient for me
                  was the consciousness of them. By the utmost self-violence, I curbed the imperious
                  voice of wretchedness, which sometimes desired to declare itself to the whole
                  world; and my manners were calmer and more composed than they had ever been since
                  my journey to the sea of ice.</p>


               <p>We arrived at <placeName type="tgn" key="7008927" cert="medium">Havre</placeName>
                  on the <date>8th of May</date>, and instantly proceeded to <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>, where my father had some business which
                  detained us a few weeks. In this city, I received the following letter from
                     <persName>Elizabeth</persName>:—</p>


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                     <opener>To <persName>VICTOR FRANKENSTEIN.</persName>
                        <salute>"MY DEAREST FRIEND,"</salute>
                                    </opener>


                     <p>It gave me the greatest pleasure to receive a letter from my uncle dated at
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="7008038">Paris</placeName>; you are no longer
                        at a formidable distance, and I may hope to see you in less than a
                        fortnight. My poor cousin, how much you must have suffered! I expect to see
                        you looking even more ill than when you quitted <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. This winter has been passed most
                        miserably, tortured as I have been by anxious suspense; yet I hope to see
                        peace in your countenance, and to find that your heart is not totally devoid
                        of comfort and tranquillity.</p>


                     <p>Yet I fear that the same feelings now exist that made you so miserable a
                        year ago, even perhaps augmented by <pb n="[3.97]" facs="pageImages/vol3/97.jpg"/> time. I would not disturb you at this
                        period when so many misfortunes weigh upon you; but a conversation that I
                        had with my uncle previous to his departure renders some explanation
                        necessary before we meet.</p>


                     <p>Explanation! you may possibly say; what can <persName>Elizabeth</persName>
                        have to explain? If you really say this, my questions are answered, and I
                        have no more to do than to sign myself your affectionate cousin. But you are
                        distant from me, and it is possible that you may dread, and yet be pleased
                        with this explanation; and, in a probability of this being the case, I dare
                        not any longer postpone writing what, during your absence, I have often
                        wished to express to you, but have never had the courage to begin.</p>


                     <p>You well know, <persName>Victor</persName>, that our union had been the
                        favourite plan of <pb n="[3.98]" facs="pageImages/vol3/98.jpg"/> your
                        parents ever since our infancy. We were told this when young, and taught to
                        look forward to it as an event that would certainly take place. We were
                        affectionate playfellows during childhood, and, I believe, dear and valued
                        friends to one another as we grew older. But as brother and sister often
                        entertain a lively affection towards each other, without desiring a more
                        intimate union, may not such also be our case? Tell me, dearest
                           <persName>Victor</persName>. Answer me, I conjure you, by our mutual
                        happiness, with simple truth—Do you not love another?</p>


                     <p>You have travelled; you have spent several years of your life at <placeName type="tgn" key="7017035">Ingolstadt</placeName>; and I confess to you, my
                        friend, that when I saw you last autumn so unhappy, flying to solitude, from
                        the society of every creature, I could not help supposing that you <pb n="[3.99]" facs="pageImages/vol3/99.jpg"/> might regret our connection,
                        and believe yourself bound in honour to fulfill the wishes of your parents,
                        although they opposed themselves to your inclinations. But this is false
                        reasoning. I confess to you, my cousin, that I love you, and that in my airy
                        dreams of futurity you have been my constant friend and companion. But it is
                        your happiness I desire as well as my own, when I declare to you, that our
                        marriage would render me eternally miserable, unless it were the dictate of
                        your own free choice. Even now I weep to think, that, borne down as you are
                        by the cruellest misfortunes, you may stifle, by the word honour, all hope
                        of that love and happiness which would alone restore you to yourself. I, who
                        have so disinterested an affection for you, may increase your miseries
                        ten-fold by being an obstacle to your wishes. Ah, <pb n="[3.100 - page breaks after 'Vic-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/100.jpg"/>
                        <persName>Victor</persName>, be assured that your cousin and playmate has
                        too sincere a love for you not to be made miserable by this supposition. Be
                        happy, my friend; and if you obey me in this one request, remain satisfied
                        that nothing on earth will have the power to interrupt my tranquillity.</p>


                     <p>Do not let this letter disturb you; do not answer to-morrow, or the next
                        day, or even until you come, if it will give you pain. My uncle will send me
                        news of your health; and if I see but one smile on your lips when we meet,
                        occasioned by this or any other exertion of mine, I shall need no other
                        happiness.</p>


                     <closer>
                                        <signed>
                                            <persName>ELIZABETH LAVENZA</persName>
                                        </signed>. <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, <date>May 18th,
                        17--</date>.</closer>





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               </floatingText>


               <p>This letter revived in my memory what I had before forgotten, the threat <pb n="[3.101]" facs="pageImages/vol3/101.jpg"/> of the fiend—<said who="#creatureVictor">"I will be with you on your wedding-night!"</said> Such
                  was my sentence, and on that night would the dæmon employ every art to destroy me,
                  and tear me from the glimpse of happiness which promised partly to console my
                  sufferings. On that night he had determined to consummate his crimes by my death.
                  Well, be it so; a deadly struggle would then assuredly take place, in which if he
                  was victorious, I should be at peace, and his power over me be at an end. If he
                  were vanquished, I should be a free man. Alas! what freedom? such as the peasant
                  enjoys when his family have been massacred before his eyes, his cottage burnt, his
                  lands laid waste, and he is turned adrift, homeless, pennyless, and alone, but
                  free. Such would be my liberty, except that in my <persName>Elizabeth</persName> I
                  possessed a treasure; alas! balanced <pb n="[3.102]" facs="pageImages/vol3/102.jpg"/> by those horrors of remorse and guilt, which
                  would pursue me until death.</p>


               <p>Sweet and beloved <persName>Elizabeth</persName>! I read and re-read her letter,
                  and some softened feelings stole into my heart, and dared to whisper paradisaical
                  dreams of love and joy; but the apple was already eaten, and the angel's arm bared
                  to drive me from all hope. Yet I would die to make her happy. If the monster
                  executed his threat, death was inevitable; yet, again, I considered whether my
                  marriage would hasten my fate. My destruction might indeed arrive a few months
                  sooner; but if my torturer should suspect that I postponed it, influenced by his
                  menaces, he would surely find other, and perhaps more dreadful means of revenge.
                  He had vowed to be with me on my wedding-night, yet he did not consider that
                  threat as binding him to peace in <pb n="[3.103]" facs="pageImages/vol3/103.jpg"/>
                  the mean time; for, as if to shew me that he was not yet satiated with blood, he
                  had murdered <persName>Clerval</persName> immediately after the enunciation of his
                  threats. I resolved, therefore, that if my immediate union with my cousin would
                  conduce either to her's or my father's happiness, my adversary's designs against
                  my life should not retard it a single hour.</p>


               <p>In this state of mind I wrote to <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. My letter was
                  calm and affectionate. <said who="#victor">"I fear, my beloved girl,"</said> I
                  said, <said who="#victor">"little happiness remains for us on earth; yet all that
                     I may one day enjoy is concentered in you. Chase away your idle fears; to you
                     alone do I consecrate my life, and my endeavours for contentment. I have one
                     secret, <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, a dreadful one; when revealed to you,
                     it will chill your frame with horror, and then, far from being <pb n="[3.104]" facs="pageImages/vol3/104.jpg"/> surprised at my misery, you will only
                     wonder that I survive what I have endured. I will confide this tale of misery
                     and terror to you the day after our marriage shall take place; for, my sweet
                     cousin, there must be perfect confidence between us. But until then, I conjure
                     you, do not mention or allude to it. This I most earnestly entreat, and I know
                     you will comply."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>In about a week after the arrival of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>'s letter, we
                  returned to <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. My cousin
                  welcomed me with warm affection; yet tears were in her eyes, as she beheld my
                  emaciated frame and feverish cheeks. I saw a change in her also. She was thinner,
                  and had lost much of that heavenly vivacity that had before charmed me; but her
                  gentleness, and soft looks of compassion, made her a more fit companion for one
                  blasted and miserable as I was.</p>


               <pb n="[3.105]" facs="pageImages/vol3/105.jpg"/>


               <p>The tranquillity which I now enjoyed did not endure. Memory brought madness with
                  it; and when I thought of what had passed, a real insanity possessed me; sometimes
                  I was furious, and burnt with rage; sometimes low and despondent. I neither spoke
                  or looked, but sat motionless, bewildered by the multitude of miseries that
                  overcame me.</p>


               <p>
                                <persName>Elizabeth</persName> alone had the power to draw me from these fits; her
                  gentle voice would soothe me when transported by passion, and inspire me with
                  human feelings when sunk in torpor. She wept with me, and for me. When reason
                  returned, she would remonstrate, and endeavour to inspire me with resignation. Ah!
                  it is well for the unfortunate to be resigned, but for the guilty there is no
                  peace. The agonies of remorse poison the luxury there is <pb n="[3.106]" facs="pageImages/vol3/106.jpg"/> otherwise sometimes found in indulging the
                  excess of grief.</p>


               <p>Soon after my arrival my father spoke of my immediate marriage with my cousin. I
                  remained silent.</p>


               <p>
                                <said who="#elizabeth">"Have you, then, some other attachment?"</said>
                            </p>


               <p>
                                <said who="#victor">"None on earth. I love <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and
                     look forward to our union with delight. Let the day therefore be fixed; and on
                     it I will consecrate myself, in life or death, to the happiness of my
                     cousin."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>
                                <said who="#elizabeth">"My dear <persName>Victor</persName>, do not speak thus.
                     Heavy misfortunes have befallen us; but let us only cling closer to what
                     remains, and transfer our love for those whom we have lost to those who yet
                     live. Our circle will be small, but bound close by the ties of affection and
                     mutual misfortune. And when time shall have softened your despair, new <pb n="[3.107]" facs="pageImages/vol3/107.jpg"/> and dear objects of care will
                     be born to replace those of whom we have been so cruelly deprived."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>Such were the lessons of my father. But to me the remembrance of the threat
                  returned: nor can you wonder, that, omnipotent as the fiend had yet been in his
                  deeds of blood, I should almost regard him as invincible; and that when he had
                  pronounced the words, <said who="#creatureVictor">"I shall be with you on your
                     wedding-night,"</said> I should regard the threatened fate as unavoidable. But
                  death was no evil to me, if the loss of <persName>Elizabeth</persName> were
                  balanced with it; and I therefore, with a contented and even cheerful countenance,
                  agreed with my father, that if my cousin would consent, the ceremony should take
                  place in ten days, and thus put, as I imagined, the seal to my fate.</p>


               <p>Great God! if for one instant I <pb n="[3.108]" facs="pageImages/vol3/108.jpg"/>
                  had thought what might be the hellish intention of my fiendish adversary, I would
                  rather have banished myself for ever from my native country, and wandered a
                  friendless outcast over the earth, than have consented to this miserable marriage.
                  But, as if possessed of magic powers, the monster had blinded me to his real
                  intentions; and when I thought that I had prepared only my own death, I hastened
                  that of a far dearer victim.</p>


               <p>As the period fixed for our marriage drew nearer, whether from cowardice or a
                  prophetic feeling, I felt my heart sink within me. But I concealed my feelings by
                  an appearance of hilarity, that brought smiles and joy to the countenance of my
                  father, but hardly deceived the ever-watchful and nicer eye of
                     <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. She looked forward to our union with placid
                  contentment, not <pb n="[3.109]" facs="pageImages/vol3/109.jpg"/> unmingled with a
                  little fear, which past misfortunes had impressed, that what now appeared certain
                  and tangible happiness, might soon dissipate into an airy dream, and leave no
                  trace but deep and everlasting regret.</p>


               <p>Preparations were made for the event; congratulatory visits were received; and all
                  wore a smiling appearance. I shut up, as well as I could, in my own heart the
                  anxiety that preyed there, and entered with seeming earnestness into the plans of
                  my father, although they might only serve as the decorations of my tragedy. A
                  house was purchased for us near <placeName type="tgn" key="7004446">Cologne</placeName>, by which we should enjoy the pleasures of the country,
                  and yet be so near <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> as to
                  see my father every day; who would still reside within the walls, for the benefit
                  of <persName>Ernest</persName>, that he might follow his studies at the
                  schools.</p>


               <pb n="[3.110]" facs="pageImages/vol3/110.jpg"/>


               <p>In the mean time I took every precaution to defend my person, in case the fiend
                  should openly attack me. I carried pistols and a dagger constantly about me, and
                  was ever on the watch to prevent artifice; and by these means gained a greater
                  degree of tranquillity. Indeed, as the period approached, the threat appeared more
                  as a delusion, not to be regarded as worthy to disturb my peace, while the
                  happiness I hoped for in my marriage wore a greater appearance of certainty, as
                  the day fixed for its solemnization drew nearer, and I heard it continually spoken
                  of as an occurrence which no accident could possibly prevent.</p>


               <p>
                                <persName>Elizabeth</persName> seemed happy; my tranquil demeanour contributed
                  greatly to calm her mind. But on the day that was to fulfill my wishes and my
                  destiny, she was melancholy, and <pb n="[3.111]" facs="pageImages/vol3/111.jpg"/>
                  a presentiment of evil pervaded her; and perhaps also she thought of the dreadful
                  secret, which I had promised to reveal to her on the following day. My father was
                  in the mean time overjoyed, and, in the bustle of preparation, only observed in
                  the melancholy of his niece the diffidence of a bride.</p>


               <p>After the ceremony was performed, a large party assembled at my father's; but it
                  was agreed that <persName>Elizabeth</persName> and I should pass the afternoon and
                  night at <placeName type="tgn" key="7009171">Evian</placeName>, and return to
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7004446">Cologne</placeName> the next morning. As
                  the day was fair, and the wind favourable, we resolved to go by water.</p>


               <p>Those were the last moments of my life during which I enjoyed the feeling of
                  happiness. We passed rapidly along: the sun was hot, but we were sheltered from
                  its rays by a kind of canopy, while we enjoyed the beauty of the scene, <pb n="[3.112]" facs="pageImages/vol3/112.jpg"/> sometimes on one side of the lake,
                  where we saw <placeName type="tgn" key="1106285">Mont Salêve</placeName>, the
                  pleasant banks of <placeName type="tgn" key="1032711" cert="medium">Montalêgre</placeName>, and at a distance, surmounting all, the beautiful
                     <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont Blânc</placeName>, and the assemblage
                  of snowy mountains that in vain endeavour to emulate her; sometimes coasting the
                  opposite banks, we saw the mighty <placeName type="tgn" key="1109172">Jura</placeName> opposing its dark side to the ambition that would quit its
                  native country, and an almost insurmountable barrier to the invader who should
                  wish to enslave it.</p>


               <p>I took the hand of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>: <said who="#victor">"You are
                     sorrowful, my love. Ah! if you knew what I have suffered, and what I may yet
                     endure, you would endeavour to let me taste the quiet, and freedom from
                     despair, that this one day at least permits me to enjoy."</said>
                            </p>


               <p>
                                <said who="#elizabeth">"Be happy, my dear <persName>Victor</persName>,"</said>
                  replied <persName>Elizabeth</persName>; <said who="#elizabeth">"there is, I hope,
                        <pb n="[3.113]" facs="pageImages/vol3/113.jpg"/> nothing to distress you;
                     and be assured that if a lively joy is not painted in my face, my heart is
                     contented. Something whispers to me not to depend too much on the prospect that
                     is opened before us; but I will not listen to such a sinister voice. Observe
                     how fast we move along, and how the clouds which sometimes obscure, and
                     sometimes rise above the dome of <placeName type="tgn" key="7617157">Mont
                        Blânc</placeName>, render this scene of beauty still more interesting. Look
                     also at the innumerable fish that are swimming in the clear waters, where we
                     can distinguish every pebble that lies at the bottom. What a divine day! how
                     happy and serene all nature appears!"</said>
                            </p>


               <p>Thus <persName>Elizabeth</persName> endeavoured to divert her thoughts and mine
                  from all reflection upon melancholy subjects. But her temper was fluctuating; joy
                  for a few instants shone in her eyes, but it <pb n="[3.114]" facs="pageImages/vol3/114.jpg"/> continually gave place to distraction and
                  reverie.</p>


               <p>The sun sunk lower in the heavens; we passed the <placeName type="tgn" key="7647999" cert="medium">river Drance</placeName>, and observed its path
                  through the chasms of the higher, and the glens of the lower hills. The <placeName type="tgn" key="7007746">Alps</placeName> here come closer to the lake, and we
                  approached the amphitheatre of mountains which forms its eastern boundary. The
                  spire of <placeName type="tgn" key="7009171">Evian</placeName> shone under the
                  woods that surrounded it, and the range of mountain above mountain by which it was
                  overhung.</p>


               <p>The wind, which had hitherto carried us along with amazing rapidity, sunk at
                  sunset to a light breeze; the soft air just ruffled the water, and caused a
                  pleasant motion among the trees as we approached the shore, from which it wafted
                  the most delightful scent of flowers and hay. The sun sunk <pb n="[3.115 - page breaks after 'be-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/115.jpg"/> beneath
                  the horizon as we landed; and as I touched the shore, I felt those cares and fears
                  revive, which soon were to clasp me, and cling to me for ever."</p>


            </div>







            <div n="3.6" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[3.116]" facs="pageImages/vol3/116.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VI</head>







               <said who="#victor">"<p>IT was eight o'clock when we landed; we walked for a short
                     time on the shore, enjoying the transitory light, and then retired to the inn,
                     and contemplated the lovely scene of waters, woods, and mountains, obscured in
                     darkness, yet still displaying their black outlines.</p>
                  <p>The wind, which had fallen in the south, now rose with great violence in the
                     west. The moon had reached her summit in the heavens, and was beginning to
                     descend; the clouds swept across it swifter than the flight of the vulture, and
                     dimmed her rays, while <pb n="[3.117]" facs="pageImages/vol3/117.jpg"/> the
                     lake reflected the scene of the busy heavens, rendered still busier by the
                     restless waves that were beginning to rise. Suddenly a heavy storm of rain
                     descended.</p>
                  <p>I had been calm during the day; but so soon as night obscured the shapes of
                     objects, a thousand fears arose in my mind. I was anxious and watchful, while
                     my right hand grasped a pistol which was hidden in my bosom; every sound
                     terrified me; but I resolved that I would sell my life dearly, and not relax
                     the impending conflict until my own life, or that of my adversary, were
                     extinguished.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <persName>Elizabeth</persName> observed my agitation for some time in timid and
                     fearful silence; at length she said, <said who="#elizabeth">"What is it that
                        agitates you, my dear <persName>Victor</persName>? What is it you
                        fear?"</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Oh! peace, peace, my love,"</said>
                     <pb n="[3.118 - page breaks after 're-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/118.jpg"/>
                     replied I, <said who="#victor">"this night, and all will be safe: but this
                        night is dreadful, very dreadful."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I passed an hour in this state of mind, when suddenly I reflected how dreadful
                     the combat which I momentarily expected would be to my wife, and I earnestly
                     entreated her to retire, resolving not to join her until I had obtained some
                     knowledge as to the situation of my enemy.</p>
                  <p>She left me, and I continued some time walking up and down the passages of the
                     house, and inspecting every corner that might afford a retreat to my adversary.
                     But I discovered no trace of him, and was beginning to conjecture that some
                     fortunate chance had intervened to prevent the execution of his menaces; when
                     suddenly I heard a shrill and dreadful scream. It came from the room into which
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName>
                     <pb n="[3.119]" facs="pageImages/vol3/119.jpg"/> had retired. As I heard it,
                     the whole truth rushed into my mind, my arms dropped, the motion of every
                     muscle and fibre was suspended; I could feel the blood trickling in my veins,
                     and tingling in the extremities of my limbs. This state lasted but for an
                     instant; the scream was repeated, and I rushed into the room.</p>
                  <p>Great God! why did I not then expire! Why am I here to relate the destruction
                     of the best hope, and the purest creature of earth. She was there, lifeless and
                     inanimate, thrown across the bed, her head hanging down, and her pale and
                     distorted features half covered by her hair. Everywhere I turn I see the same
                     figure—her bloodless arms and relaxed form flung by the murderer on its bridal
                     bier. Could I behold this, and live? Alas! life is obstinate, and clings
                     closest where it <pb n="[3.120]" facs="pageImages/vol3/120.jpg"/> is most
                     hated. For a moment only did I lose recollection; I fainted.</p>
                  <p>When I recovered, I found myself surrounded by the people of the inn; their
                     countenances expressed a breathless terror: but the horror of others appeared
                     only as a mockery, a shadow of the feelings that oppressed me. I escaped from
                     them to the room where lay the body of <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, my love,
                     my wife, so lately living, so dear, so worthy. She had been moved from the
                     posture in which I had first beheld her; and now, as she lay, her head upon her
                     arm, and a handkerchief thrown across her face and neck, I might have supposed
                     her asleep. I rushed towards her, and embraced her with ardour; but the deathly
                     languor and coldness of the limbs told me, that what I now held in my arms had
                     ceased to be the <persName>Elizabeth</persName> whom I had loved and cherished.
                     The <pb n="[3.121]" facs="pageImages/vol3/121.jpg"/> murderous mark of the
                     fiend's grasp was on her neck, and the breath had ceased to issue from her
                     lips.</p>
                  <p>While I still hung over her in the agony of despair, I happened to look up. The
                     windows of the room had before been darkened; and I felt a kind of panic on
                     seeing the pale yellow light of the moon illuminate the chamber. The shutters
                     had been thrown back; and, with a sensation of horror not to be described, I
                     saw at the open window a figure the most hideous and abhorred. A grin was on
                     the face of the monster; he seemed to jeer, as with his fiendish finger he
                     pointed towards the corpse of my wife. I rushed towards the window, and drawing
                     a pistol from my bosom, shot; but he eluded me, leaped from his station, and,
                     running with the swiftness of lightning, plunged into the lake.</p>
                  <pb n="[3.122]" facs="pageImages/vol3/122.jpg"/>
                  <p>The report of the pistol brought a crowd into the room. I pointed to the spot
                     where he had disappeared, and we followed the track with boats; nets were cast,
                     but in vain. After passing several hours, we returned hopeless, most of my
                     companions believing it to have been a form conjured by my fancy. After having
                     landed, they proceeded to search the country, parties going in different
                     directions among the woods and vines.</p>
                  <p>I did not accompany them; I was exhausted: a film covered my eyes, and my skin
                     was parched with the heat of fever. In this state I lay on a bed, hardly
                     conscious of what had happened; my eyes wandered round the room, as if to seek
                     something that I had lost.</p>
                  <p>At length I remembered that my father would anxiously expect the return <pb n="[3.123]" facs="pageImages/vol3/123.jpg"/> of
                        <persName>Elizabeth</persName> and myself, and that I must return alone.
                     This reflection brought tears into my eyes, and I wept for a long time; but my
                     thoughts rambled to various subjects, reflecting on my misfortunes, and their
                     cause. I was bewildered in a cloud of wonder and horror. The death of
                        <persName>William</persName>, the execution of <persName>Justine</persName>,
                     the murder of <persName>Clerval</persName>, and lastly of my wife; even at that
                     moment I knew not that my only remaining friends were safe from the malignity
                     of the fiend; my father even now might be writhing under his grasp, and
                        <persName>Ernest</persName> might be dead at his feet. This idea made me
                     shudder, and recalled me to action. I started up, and resolved to return to
                        <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> with all possible
                     speed.</p>
                  <p>There were no horses to be procured, and I must return by the lake; but the
                     wind was unfavourable, and <pb n="[3.124]" facs="pageImages/vol3/124.jpg"/> the
                     rain fell in torrents. However, it was hardly morning, and I might reasonably
                     hope to arrive by night. I hired men to row, and took an oar myself, for I had
                     always experienced relief from mental torment in bodily exercise. But the
                     overflowing misery I now felt, and the excess of agitation that I endured,
                     rendered me incapable of any exertion. I threw down the oar; and, leaning my
                     head upon my hands, gave way to every gloomy idea that arose. If I looked up, I
                     saw the scenes which were familiar to me in my happier time, and which I had
                     contemplated but the day before in the company of her who was now but a shadow
                     and a recollection. Tears streamed from my eyes. The rain had ceased for a
                     moment, and I saw the fish play in the waters as they had done a few hours
                     before; they had then been observed <pb n="[3.125]" facs="pageImages/vol3/125.jpg"/> by <persName>Elizabeth</persName>. Nothing
                     is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change. The sun might
                     shine, or the clouds might lour; but nothing could appear to me as it had done
                     the day before. A fiend had snatched from me every hope of future happiness: no
                     creature had ever been so miserable as I was; so frightful an event is single
                     in the history of man.</p>
                  <p>But why should I dwell upon the incidents that followed this last overwhelming
                     event. Mine has been a tale of horrors; I have reached their acme, and what I
                     must now relate can but be tedious to you. Know that, one by one, my friends
                     were snatched away; I was left desolate. My own strength is exhausted; and I
                     must tell, in a few words, what remains of my hideous narration.</p>
                  <p>I arrived at <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>. My father
                     and <pb n="[3.126]" facs="pageImages/vol3/126.jpg"/>
                     <persName>Ernest</persName> yet lived; but the former sunk under the tidings
                     that I bore. I see him now, excellent and venerable old man! his eyes wandered
                     in vacancy, for they had lost their charm and their delight—his niece, his more
                     than daughter, whom he doated on with all that affection which a man feels,
                     who,in the decline of life, having few affections, clings more earnestly to
                     those that remain. Cursed, cursed be the fiend that brought misery on his grey
                     hairs, and doomed him to waste in wretchedness! He could not live under the
                     horrors that were accumulated around him; an apoplectic fit was brought on, and
                     in a few days he died in my arms.</p>
                  <p>What then became of me? I know not; I lost sensation, and chains and darkness
                     were the only objects that pressed upon me. Sometimes, indeed, I dreamt that I
                     wandered in flowery <pb n="[3.127]" facs="pageImages/vol3/127.jpg"/> meadows
                     and pleasant vales with the friends of my youth; but awoke, and found myself in
                     a dungeon. Melancholy followed, but by degrees I gained a clear conception of
                     my miseries and situation, and was then released from my prison. For they had
                     called me mad; and during many months, as I understood, a solitary cell had
                     been my habitation.</p>
                  <p>But liberty had been a useless gift to me had I not, as I awakened to reason,
                     at the same time awakened to revenge. As the memory of past misfortunes pressed
                     upon me, I began to reflect on their cause—the monster whom I had created, the
                     miserable daemon whom I had sent abroad into the world for my destruction. I
                     was possessed by a maddening rage when I thought of him, and desired and
                     ardently prayed that I might have him <pb n="[3.128]" facs="pageImages/vol3/128.jpg"/> within my grasp to wreak a great and signal
                     revenge on his cursed head.</p>
                  <p>Nor did my hate long confine itself to useless wishes; I began to reflect on
                     the best means of securing him; and for this purpose, about a month after my
                     release, I repaired to a criminal judge in the town, and told him that I had an
                     accusation to make; that I knew the destroyer of my family; and that I required
                     him to exert his whole authority for the apprehension of the murderer.</p>
                  <p>The magistrate listened to me with attention and kindness: <said who="#magistrate">"Be assured, sir,"</said> said he, <said who="#magistrate">"no pains or exertions on my part shall be spared to discover the
                        villain."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I thank you,"</said> replied I; <said who="#victor">"listen, therefore, to the deposition that I have to make. It is indeed a
                        tale so strange, that I should fear you would not credit <pb n="[3.129]" facs="pageImages/vol3/129.jpg"/> it, were there not something in truth
                        which, however wonderful, forces conviction. The story is too connected to
                        be mistaken for a dream, and I have no motive for falsehood."</said> My
                     manner, as I thus addressed him, was impressive, but calm; I had formed in my
                     own heart a resolution to pursue my destroyer to death; and this purpose
                     quieted my agony, and provisionally reconciled me to life. I now related my
                     history briefly, but with firmness and precision, marking the dates with
                     accuracy, and never deviating into invective or exclamation.</p>
                  <p>The magistrate appeared at first perfectly incredulous, but as I continued he
                     became more attentive and interested; I saw him sometimes shudder with horror,
                     at others a lively surprise, unmingled with disbelief, was painted on his
                     countenance.</p>
                  <pb n="[3.130]" facs="pageImages/vol3/130.jpg"/>
                  <p>When I had concluded my narration, I said, <said who="#victor">"This is the
                        being whom I accuse, and for whose detection and punishment I call upon you
                        to exert your whole power. It is your duty as a magistrate, and I believe
                        and hope that your feelings as a man will not revolt from the execution of
                        those functions on this occasion."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>This address caused a considerable change in the physiognomy of my auditor. He
                     had heard my story with that half kind of belief that is given to a tale of
                     spirits and supernatural events; but when he was called upon to act officially
                     in consequence, the whole tide of his incredulity returned. He, however,
                     answered mildly, <said who="#magistrate">"I would willingly afford you every
                        aid in your pursuit; but the creature of whom you speak appears to have
                        powers which would put all my exertions to defiance. <pb n="[3.131]" facs="pageImages/vol3/131.jpg"/> Who can follow an animal which can
                        traverse the sea of ice, and inhabit caves and dens, where no man would
                        venture to intrude? Besides, some months have elapsed since the commission
                        of his crimes, and no one can conjecture to what place he has wandered, or
                        what region he may now inhabit."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I do not doubt that he hovers near the spot which I
                        inhabit; and if he has indeed taken refuge in the <placeName type="tgn" key="7007746">Alps</placeName>, he may be hunted like the chamois, and
                        destroyed as a beast of prey. But I perceive your thoughts: you do not
                        credit my narrative, and do not intend to pursue my enemy with the
                        punishment which is his desert."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>As I spoke, rage sparkled in my eyes; the magistrate was intimidated; <said who="#magistrate">"You are mistaken,"</said> said he, <said who="#magistrate">"I will <pb n="[3.132]" facs="pageImages/vol3/132.jpg"/>
                        exert myself; if it is in my power to seize the monster, be assured that he
                        shall suffer punishment proportionate to his crimes. But I fear, from what
                        you have yourself described to be his properties, that this will prove
                        impracticable, and that, while every proper measure is pursued, you should
                        endeavour to make up your mind to disappointment."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"That cannot be; but all that I can say will be of little
                        avail. My revenge is of no moment to you; yet, while I allow it to be a
                        vice, I confess that it is the devouring and only passion of my soul. My
                        rage is unspeakable, when I reflect that the murderer, whom I have turned
                        loose upon society, still exists. You refuse my just demand: I have but one
                        resource; and I devote myself, either in my life or death, to his
                        destruction."</said>
                                </p>
                  <pb n="[3.133]" facs="pageImages/vol3/133.jpg"/>
                  <p>I trembled with excess of agitation as I said this; there was a phrenzy in my
                     manner, and something, I doubt not, of that haughty fierceness, which the
                     martyrs of old are said to have possessed. But to a Genevan magistrate, whose
                     mind was occupied by far other ideas than those of devotion and heroism, this
                     elevation of mind had much the appearance of madness. He endeavoured to soothe
                     me as a nurse does a child, and reverted to my tale as the effects of
                     delirium.</p>
                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Man,"</said> I cried, <said who="#victor">"how ignorant
                        art thou in thy pride of wisdom! Cease; you know not what it is you
                        say."</said>
                                </p>
                  <p>I broke from the house angry and disturbed, and retired to meditate on some
                     other mode of action.</p>"</said>


            </div>







            <div n="3.7" type="chapter">


               <pb n="[3.134]" facs="pageImages/vol3/134.jpg"/>


               <head>Chapter VII</head>












               <div>


                  <said who="#victor">"<p>MY present situation was one in which all voluntary
                        thought was swallowed up and lost. I was hurried away by fury; revenge alone
                        endowed me with strength and composure; it modelled my feelings, and allowed
                        me to be calculating and calm, at periods when otherwise delirium or death
                        would have been my portion.</p>
                     <p>My first resolution was to quit <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName> for ever; my country, which, when I was happy and
                        beloved, was dear to me, now, in my adversity, became hateful. I provided
                        myself with <pb n="[3.135]" facs="pageImages/vol3/135.jpg"/> a sum of money,
                        together with a few jewels which had belonged to my mother, and
                        departed.</p>
                     <p>And now my wanderings began, which are to cease but with life. I have
                        traversed a vast portion of the earth, and have endured all the hardships
                        which travellers, in deserts and barbarous countries, are wont to meet. How
                        I have lived I hardly know; many times have I stretched my failing limbs
                        upon the sandy plain, and prayed for death. But revenge kept me alive; I
                        dared not die, and leave my adversary in being.</p>
                     <p>When I quitted <placeName type="tgn" key="7003746">Geneva</placeName>, my
                        first labour was to gain some clue by which I might trace the steps of my
                        fiendish enemy. But my plan was unsettled; and I wandered many hours around
                        the confines of the town, uncertain what path I should pursue. As night <pb n="[3.136]" facs="pageImages/vol3/136.jpg"/> approached, I found myself
                        at the entrance of the cemetery where <persName>William</persName>,
                           <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and my father, reposed. I entered it, and
                        approached the tomb which marked their graves. Every thing was silent,
                        except the leaves of the trees, which were gently agitated by the wind; the
                        night was nearly dark; and the scene would have been solemn and affecting
                        even to an uninterested observer. The spirits of the departed seemed to flit
                        around, and to cast a shadow, which was felt but seen not, around the head
                        of the mourner.</p>
                     <p>The deep grief which this scene had at first excited quickly gave way to
                        rage and despair. They were dead, and I lived; their murderer also lived,
                        and to destroy him I must drag out my weary existence. I knelt on the grass,
                        and kissed the earth, and with <pb n="[3.137 - page breaks after 'quiver-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/137.jpg"/> quivering lips exclaimed, <said who="#victor">"By the sacred earth on which I kneel, by the shades that
                           wander near me, by the deep and eternal grief that I feel, I swear; and
                           by thee, O Night, and by the spirits that preside over thee, I swear to
                           pursue the daemon, who caused this misery, until he or I shall perish in
                           mortal conflict. For this purpose I will preserve my life: to execute
                           this dear revenge, will I again behold the sun, and tread the green
                           herbage of earth, which otherwise should vanish from my eyes for ever.
                           And I call on you, spirits of the dead; and on you, wandering ministers
                           of vengeance, to aid and conduct me in my work. Let the cursed and
                           hellish monster drink deep of agony; let him feel the despair that now
                           torments me."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>I had begun my abjuration with solemnity, and an awe which almost <pb n="[3.138]" facs="pageImages/vol3/138.jpg"/> assured me that the shades
                        of my murdered friends heard and approved my devotion; but the furies
                        possessed me as I concluded, and rage choaked my utterance.</p>
                     <p>I was answered through the stillness of night by a loud and fiendish laugh.
                        It rung on my ears long and heavily; the mountains re-echoed it, and I felt
                        as if all hell surrounded me with mockery and laughter. Surely in that
                        moment I should have been possessed by phrenzy, and have destroyed my
                        miserable existence, but that my vow was heard, and that I was reserved for
                        vengeance. The laughter died away: when a well-known and abhorred voice,
                        apparently close to my ear, addressed me in an audible whisper—<said who="#creature">"I am satisfied: miserable wretch! you have determined to
                           live, and I am satisfied."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <pb n="[3.139]" facs="pageImages/vol3/139.jpg"/>
                     <p>I darted towards the spot from which the sound proceeded; but the devil
                        eluded my grasp. Suddenly the broad disk of the moon arose, and shone full
                        upon his ghastly and distorted shape, as he fled with more than mortal
                        speed.</p>
                     <p>I pursued him; and for many months this has been my task. Guided by a slight
                        clue, I followed the windings of the <placeName type="tgn" key="7023890">Rhone</placeName>, but vainly. The blue <placeName type="tgn" key="7016735">Mediterranean</placeName> appeared; and, by a strange
                        chance, I saw the fiend enter by night, and hide himself in a vessel bound
                        for the <placeName type="tgn" key="7016619">Black Sea</placeName>. I took my
                        passage in the same ship; but he escaped, I know not how.</p>
                     <p>Amidst the wilds of <placeName type="tgn" key="7016836" cert="medium">Tartary</placeName> and <placeName type="tgn" key="7002435">Russia</placeName>, although he still evaded me, I have ever followed in
                        his track. Sometimes the peasants, scared by this horrid apparition,
                        informed me of his <pb n="[3.140]" facs="pageImages/vol3/140.jpg"/> path;
                        sometimes he himself, who feared that if I lost all trace I should despair
                        and die, often left some mark to guide me. The snows descended on my head,
                        and I saw the print of his huge step on the white plain. To you first
                        entering on life, to whom care is new, and agony unknown, how can you
                        understand what I have felt, and still feel? Cold, want, and fatigue, were
                        the least pains which I was destined to endure; I was cursed by some devil,
                        and carried about with me my eternal hell; yet still a spirit of good
                        followed and directed my steps, and, when I most murmured, would suddenly
                        extricate me from seemingly insurmountable difficulties. Sometimes, when
                        nature, overcome by hunger, sunk under the exhaustion, a repast was prepared
                        for me in the desert, that restored and inspirited me. The fare was indeed
                           <pb n="[3.141]" facs="pageImages/vol3/141.jpg"/> coarse, such as the
                        peasants of the country ate; but I may not doubt that it was set there by
                        the spirits that I had invoked to aid me. Often, when all was dry, the
                        heavens cloudless, and I was parched by thirst, a slight cloud would bedim
                        the sky, shed the few drops that revived me, and vanish.</p>
                     <p>I followed, when I could, the courses of the rivers; but the daemon
                        generally avoided these, as it was here that the population of the country
                        chiefly collected. In other places human beings were seldom seen; and I
                        generally subsisted on the wild animals that crossed my path. I had money
                        with me, and gained the friendship of the villagers by distributing it, or
                        bringing with me some food that I had killed, which, after taking a small
                        part, I always presented to those who had provided me with fire and utensils
                        for cooking.</p>
                     <pb n="[3.142]" facs="pageImages/vol3/142.jpg"/>
                     <p>My life, as it passed thus, was indeed hateful to me, and it was during
                        sleep alone that I could taste joy. O blessed sleep! often, when most
                        miserable, I sank to repose, and my dreams lulled me even to rapture. The
                        spirits that guarded me had provided these moments, or rather hours, of
                        happiness, that I might retain strength to fulfill my pilgrimage. Deprived
                        of this respite, I should have sunk under my hardships. During the day I was
                        sustained and inspirited by the hope of night: for in sleep I saw my
                        friends, my wife, and my beloved country; again I saw the benevolent
                        countenance of my father, heard the silver tones of my
                           <persName>Elizabeth</persName>'s voice, and beheld
                           <persName>Clerval</persName> enjoying health and youth. Often, when
                        wearied by a toilsome march, I persuaded myself that I was dreaming until
                        night should come, and <pb n="[3.143]" facs="pageImages/vol3/143.jpg"/> that
                        I should then enjoy reality in the arms of my dearest friends. What
                        agonizing fondness did I feel for them! how did I cling to their dear forms,
                        as sometimes they haunted even my waking hours, and persuade myself that
                        they still lived! At such moments vengeance, that burned within me, died in
                        my heart, and I pursued my path towards the destruction of the daemon, more
                        as a task enjoined by heaven, as the mechanical impulse of some power of
                        which I was unconscious, than as the ardent desire of my soul.</p>
                     <p>What his feelings were whom I pursued, I cannot know. Sometimes, indeed, he
                        left marks in writing on the barks of the trees, or cut in stone, that
                        guided me, and instigated my fury. <said who="#creature">"My reign is not
                           yet over,"</said> (these words were legible in one of these
                        inscriptions); <said who="#creature">"you live, and my power is <pb n="[3.144]" facs="pageImages/vol3/144.jpg"/> complete. Follow me; I
                           seek the everlasting ices of the north, where you will feel the misery of
                           cold and frost, to which I am impassive. You will find near this place,
                           if you follow not too tardily, a dead hare; eat, and be refreshed. Come
                           on, my enemy; we have yet to wrestle for our lives; but many hard and
                           miserable hours must you endure, until that period shall
                        arrive."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>Scoffing devil! Again do I vow vengeance; again do I devote thee, miserable
                        fiend, to torture and death. Never will I omit my search, until he or I
                        perish; and then with what ecstasy shall I join my
                           <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and those who even now prepare for me the
                        reward of my tedious toil and horrible pilgrimage.</p>
                     <p>As I still pursued my journey to the northward, the snows thickened, and the
                        cold increased in a degree almost too severe to support. The peasants <pb n="[3.145]" facs="pageImages/vol3/145.jpg"/> were shut up in their
                        hovels, and only a few of the most hardy ventured forth to seize the animals
                        whom starvation had forced from their hiding-places to seek for prey. The
                        rivers were covered with ice, and no fish could be procured; and thus I was
                        cut off from my chief article of maintenance.</p>
                     <p>The triumph of my enemy increased with the difficulty of my labours. One
                        inscription that he left was in these words: <said who="#creature">"Prepare!
                           your toils only begin: wrap yourself in furs, and provide food, for we
                           shall soon enter upon a journey where your sufferings will satisfy my
                           everlasting hatred."</said>
                                    </p>
                     <p>My courage and perseverance were invigorated by these scoffing words; I
                        resolved not to fail in my purpose; and, calling on heaven to support me, I
                        continued with unabated fervour to traverse immense deserts, until the <pb n="[3.146]" facs="pageImages/vol3/146.jpg"/> ocean appeared at a
                        distance, and formed the utmost boundary of the horizon. Oh! how unlike it
                        was to the blue seas of the south! Covered with ice, it was only to be
                        distinguished from land by its superior wildness and ruggedness. The
                           <foreign>Greeks</foreign> wept for joy when they beheld the <placeName type="tgn" key="7016735">Mediterranean</placeName> from the hills of
                           <placeName type="tgn" key="1000004">Asia</placeName>, and hailed with
                        rapture the boundary of their toils. I did not weep; but I knelt down, and,
                        with a full heart, thanked my guiding spirit for conducting me in safety to
                        the place where I hoped, notwithstanding my adversary's gibe, to meet and
                        grapple with him.</p>
                     <p>Some weeks before this period I had procured a sledge and dogs, and thus
                        traversed the snows with inconceivable speed. I know not whether the fiend
                        possessed the same advantages; but I found that, as before I had <pb n="[3.147]" facs="pageImages/vol3/147.jpg"/> daily lost ground in the
                        pursuit, I now gained on him, so much so, that when I first saw the ocean,
                        he was but one day's journey in advance, and I hoped to intercept him before
                        he should reach the beach. With new courage, therefore, I pressed on, and in
                        two days arrived at a wretched hamlet on the sea-shore. I inquired of the
                        inhabitants concerning the fiend, and gained accurate information. A
                        gigantic monster, they said, had arrived the night before, armed with a gun
                        and many pistols; putting to flight the inhabitants of a solitary cottage,
                        through fear of his terrific appearance. He had carried off their store of
                        winter food, and, placing it in a sledge, to draw which he had seized on a
                        numerous drove of trained dogs, he had harnessed them, and the same night,
                        to the joy of the horror-struck villagers, had pursued his journey <pb n="[3.148]" facs="pageImages/vol3/148.jpg"/> across the sea in a
                        direction that led to no land; and they conjectured that he must speedily be
                        destroyed by the breaking of the ice, or frozen by the eternal frosts.</p>
                     <p>On hearing this information, I suffered a temporary access of despair. He
                        had escaped me; and I must commence a destructive and almost endless journey
                        across the mountainous ices of the ocean,—amidst cold that few of the
                        inhabitants could long endure, and which I, the native of a genial and sunny
                        climate, could not hope to survive. Yet at the idea that the fiend should
                        live and be triumphant, my rage and vengeance returned, and, like a mighty
                        tide, overwhelmed every other feeling. After a slight repose, during which
                        the spirits of the dead hovered round, and instigated me to toil and
                        revenge, I prepared for my journey.</p>
                     <pb n="[3.149]" facs="pageImages/vol3/149.jpg"/>
                     <p>I exchanged my land sledge for one fashioned for the inequalities of the
                        frozen ocean; and, purchasing a plentiful stock of provisions, I departed
                        from land.</p>
                     <p>I cannot guess how many days have passed since then; but I have endured
                        misery, which nothing but the eternal sentiment of a just retribution
                        burning within my heart could have enabled me to support. Immense and rugged
                        mountains of ice often barred up my passage, and I often heard the thunder
                        of the ground sea, which threatened my destruction. But again the frost
                        came, and made the paths of the sea secure.</p>
                     <p>By the quantity of provision which I had consumed I should guess that I had
                        passed three weeks in this journey; and the continual protraction of hope,
                        returning back upon the heart, <pb n="[3.150]" facs="pageImages/vol3/150.jpg"/> often wrung bitter drops of despondency
                        and grief from my eyes. Despair had indeed almost secured her prey, and I
                        should soon have sunk beneath this misery; when once, after the poor animals
                        that carried me had with incredible toil gained the summit of a sloping ice
                        mountain, and one sinking under his fatigue died, I viewed the expanse
                        before me with anguish, when suddenly my eye caught a dark speck upon the
                        dusky plain. I strained my sight to discover what it could be, and uttered a
                        wild cry of ecstasy when I distinguished a sledge, and the distorted
                        proportions of a well-known form within. Oh! with what a burning gush did
                        hope revisit my heart! warm tears filled my eyes, which I hastily wiped
                        away, that they might not intercept the view I had of the daemon; but still
                        my sight was dimmed by the <pb n="[3.151 - page breaks after 'burn-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/151.jpg"/> burning drops, until, giving way to the
                        emotions that oppressed me, I wept aloud.</p>
                     <p>But this was not the time for delay; I disencumbered the dogs of their dead
                        companion, gave them a plentiful portion of food; and, after an hour's rest,
                        which was absolutely necessary, and yet which was bitterly irksome to me, I
                        continued my route. The sledge was still visible; nor did I again lose sight
                        of it, except at the moments when for a short time some ice rock concealed
                        it with its intervening crags. I indeed perceptibly gained on it; and when,
                        after nearly two days' journey, I beheld my enemy at no more than a mile
                        distant, my heart bounded within me.</p>
                     <p>But now, when I appeared almost within grasp of my enemy, my hopes were
                        suddenly extinguished, and I lost all trace of him more utterly than I had
                        ever done before. A ground sea <pb n="[3.152]" facs="pageImages/vol3/152.jpg"/> was heard; the thunder of its progress,
                        as the waters rolled and swelled beneath me, became every moment more
                        ominous and terrific. I pressed on, but in vain. The wind arose; the sea
                        roared; and, as with the mighty shock of an earthquake, it split, and
                        cracked with a tremendous and overwhelming sound. The work was soon
                        finished: in a few minutes a tumultuous sea rolled between me and my enemy,
                        and I was left drifting on a scattered piece of ice, that was continually
                        lessening, and thus preparing for me a hideous death.</p>
                     <p>In this manner many appalling hours passed; several of my dogs died; and I
                        myself was about to sink under the accumulation of distress, when I saw your
                        vessel riding at anchor, and holding forth to me hopes of succour and life.
                        I had no conception that vessels ever came so far north, and was <pb n="[3.153]" facs="pageImages/vol3/153.jpg"/> astounded at the sight. I
                        quickly destroyed part of my sledge to construct oars; and by these means
                        was enabled, with infinite fatigue, to move my ice-raft in the direction of
                        your ship. I had determined, if you were going southward, still to trust
                        myself to the mercy of the seas, rather than abandon my purpose. I hoped to
                        induce you to grant me a boat with which I could pursue my enemy. But your
                        direction was northward. You took me on board when my vigour was exhausted,
                        and I should soon have sunk under my multiplied hardships into a death,
                        which I still dread,—for my task is unfulfilled.</p>
                     <p>Oh! when will my guiding spirit, in conducting me to the daemon, allow me
                        the rest I so much desire; or must I die, and he yet live? If I do, swear to
                        me, <persName>Walton</persName>, that he shall not escape; that you will
                        seek him, and satisfy my <pb n="[3.154]" facs="pageImages/vol3/154.jpg"/>
                        vengeance in his death. Yet, do I dare ask you to undertake my pilgrimage,
                        to endure the hardships that I have undergone? No; I am not so selfish. Yet,
                        when I am dead, if he should appear; if the ministers of vengeance should
                        conduct him to you, swear that he shall not live—swear that he shall not
                        triumph over my accumulated woes, and live to make another such a wretch as
                        I am. He is eloquent and persuasive; and once his words had even power over
                        my heart: but trust him not. His soul is as hellish as his form, full of
                        treachery and fiend-like malice. Hear him not; call on the manes of
                           <persName>William</persName>, <persName>Justine</persName>,
                           <persName>Clerval</persName>, <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, my father,
                        and of the wretched <persName>Victor</persName>, and thrust your sword into
                        his heart. I will hover near, and direct the steel aright.</p>"</said>


               </div>


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               <div>


                  <opener>
                                    <persName>Walton</persName>, <hi rend="italic">in continuation</hi>
                     <dateline>August 26th, 17--.</dateline>
                  </opener>







                  <p>YOU have read this strange and terrific story, <persName>Margaret</persName>;
                     and do you not feel your blood congealed with horror, like that which even now
                     curdles mine? Sometimes, seized with sudden agony, he could not continue his
                     tale; at others, his voice broken, yet piercing, uttered with difficulty the
                     words so replete with agony. His fine and lovely eyes were now lighted up with
                     indignation, now subdued to downcast sorrow, and quenched in infinite
                     wretchedness. Sometimes he commanded his countenance and tones, and related the
                     most horrible incidents with a tranquil voice, suppressing every mark of
                     agitation; then, like a volcano bursting <pb n="[3.156]" facs="pageImages/vol3/156.jpg"/> forth, his face would suddenly change to an
                     expression of the wildest rage, as he shrieked out imprecations on his
                     persecutor.</p>


                  <p>His tale is connected, and told with an appearance of the simplest truth; yet I
                     own to you that the letters of <persName>Felix</persName> and
                        <persName>Safie</persName>, which he shewed me, and the apparition of the
                     monster, seen from our ship, brought to me a greater conviction of the truth of
                     his narrative than his asseverations, however earnest and connected. Such a
                     monster has then really existence; I cannot doubt it; yet I am lost in surprise
                     and admiration. Sometimes I endeavoured to gain from
                        <persName>Frankenstein</persName> the particulars of his creature's
                     formation; but on this point he was impenetrable.</p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Are you mad, my friend?"</said> said he, <said who="#victor">"or whither does your senseless <pb n="[3.157 - page breaks after 'curio-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/157.jpg"/>
                        curiosity lead you? Would you also create for yourself and the world a
                        demoniacal enemy? Or to what do your questions tend? Peace, peace! learn my
                        miseries, and do not seek to increase your own."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <persName>Frankenstein</persName> discovered that I made notes concerning his
                     history: he asked to see them, and then himself corrected and augmented them in
                     many places; but principally in giving the life and spirit to the conversations
                     he held with his enemy. <said who="#victor">"Since you have preserved my
                        narration,"</said> said he, <said who="#victor">"I would not that a
                        mutilated one should go down to posterity."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>Thus has a week passed away, while I have listened to the strangest tale that
                     ever imagination formed. My thoughts, and every feeling of my soul, have been
                     drunk up by the interest for my guest, which this tale, and his own <pb n="[3.158]" facs="pageImages/vol3/158.jpg"/> elevated and gentle manners
                     have created. I wish to soothe him; yet can I counsel one so infinitely
                     miserable, so destitute of every hope of consolation, to live? Oh, no! the only
                     joy that he can now know will be when he composes his shattered feelings to
                     peace and death. Yet he enjoys one comfort, the offspring of solitude and
                     delirium: he believes, that, when in dreams he holds converse with his friends,
                     and derives from that communion consolation for his miseries, or excitements to
                     his vengeance, that they are not the creations of his fancy, but the real
                     beings who visit him from the regions of a remote world. This faith gives a
                     solemnity to his reveries that render them to me almost as imposing and
                     interesting as truth.</p>


                  <p>Our conversations are not always confined to his own history and <pb n="[3.159 - page breaks after 'mis-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/159.jpg"/>
                     misfortunes. On every point of general literature he displays unbounded
                     knowledge, and a quick and piercing apprehension. His eloquence is forcible and
                     touching; nor can I hear him, when he relates a pathetic incident, or
                     endeavours to move the passions of pity or love, without tears. What a glorious
                     creature must he have been in the days of his prosperity, when he is thus noble
                     and godlike in ruin. He seems to feel his own worth, and the greatness of his
                     fall.</p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"When younger,"</said> said he, <said who="#victor">"I felt
                        as if I were destined for some great enterprise. My feelings are profound;
                        but I possessed a coolness of judgment that fitted me for illustrious
                        achievements. This sentiment of the worth of my nature supported me, when
                        others would have been oppressed; for I deemed it criminal to throw away in
                        useless <pb n="[3.160]" facs="pageImages/vol3/160.jpg"/> grief those talents
                        that might be useful to my fellow-creatures. When I reflected on the work I
                        had completed, no less a one than the creation of a sensitive and rational
                        animal, I could not rank myself with the herd of common projectors. But this
                        feeling, which supported me in the commencement of my career, now serves
                        only to plunge me lower in the dust. All my speculations and hopes are as
                        nothing; and, like the archangel who aspired to omnipotence, I am chained in
                        an eternal hell. My imagination was vivid, yet my powers of analysis and
                        application were intense; by the union of these qualities I conceived the
                        idea, and executed the creation of a man. Even now I cannot recollect,
                        without passion, my reveries while the work was incomplete. I trod heaven in
                        my thoughts, now exulting in my powers, now burning with the idea of <pb n="[3.161]" facs="pageImages/vol3/161.jpg"/> their effects. From my
                        infancy I was imbued with high hopes and a lofty ambition; but how am I
                        sunk! Oh! my friend, if you had known me as I once was, you would not
                        recognize me in this state of degradation. Despondency rarely visited my
                        heart; a high destiny seemed to bear me on, until I fell, never, never again
                        to rise."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>Must I then lose this admirable being? I have longed for a friend; I have
                     sought one who would sympathize with and love me. Behold, on these desert seas
                     I have found such a one; but, I fear, I have gained him only to know his value,
                     and lose him. I would reconcile him to life, but he repulses the idea.</p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"I thank you, <persName>Walton</persName>,"</said> he said,
                        <said who="#victor">"for your kind intentions towards so miserable a wretch;
                        but when you speak of new ties, and fresh affections, <pb n="[3.162]" facs="pageImages/vol3/162.jpg"/> think you that any can replace those who
                        are gone? Can any man be to me as <persName>Clerval</persName> was; or any
                        woman another <persName>Elizabeth</persName>? Even where the affections are
                        not strongly moved by any superior excellence, the companions of our
                        childhood always possess a certain power over our minds, which hardly any
                        later friend can obtain. They know our infantine dispositions, which,
                        however they may be afterwards modified, are never eradicated; and they can
                        judge of our actions with more certain conclusions as to the integrity of
                        our motives. A sister or a brother can never, unless indeed such symptoms
                        have been shewnearly, suspect the other of fraud or false dealing, when
                        another friend, however strongly he may be attached, may, in spite of
                        himself, be invaded with suspicion. But I enjoyed friends, dear not only <pb n="[3.163]" facs="pageImages/vol3/163.jpg"/> through habit and
                        association, but from their own merits; and, wherever I am, the soothing
                        voice of my <persName>Elizabeth</persName>, and the conversation of
                           <persName>Clerval</persName>, will be ever whispered in my ear. They are
                        dead; and but one feeling in such a solitude can persuade me to preserve my
                        life. If I were engaged in any high undertaking or design, fraught with
                        extensive utility to my fellow-creatures, then could I live to fulfill it.
                        But such is not my destiny; I must pursue and destroy the being to whom I
                        gave existence; then my lot on earth will be fulfilled, and I may
                        die."</said>
                                </p>


               </div>












               <div>


                  <opener>
                     <dateline>September 2d.</dateline>
                     <salute>MY BELOVED SISTER,</salute>
                                </opener>







                  <p>I write to you encompassed by peril and ignorant whether I am ever doomed to
                     see again dear <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, and the
                     dearer friends that inhabit it. I <pb n="[3.164]" facs="pageImages/vol3/164.jpg"/> am surrounded by mountains of ice, which
                     admit of no escape and threaten every moment to crush my vessel. The brave
                     fellows whom I have persuaded to be my companions look towards me for aid; but
                     I have none to bestow. There is something terribly appalling in our situation,
                     yet my courage and hopes do not desert me. We may survive; and if we do not, I
                     will repeat the lessons of my <persName type="lcnaf" key="n79004229" cert="medium">Seneca</persName>, and die with a good heart.</p>


                  <p>Yet what, <persName>Margaret</persName>, will be the state of your mind? You
                     will not hear of my destruction, and you will anxiously await my return. Years
                     will pass, and you will have visitings of despair, and yet be tortured by hope.
                     Oh! my beloved sister, the sickening failings of your heart-felt expectations
                     are, in prospect, more terrible to me than my own death. But you have a <pb n="[3.165]" facs="pageImages/vol3/165.jpg"/> husband, and lovely children;
                     you may be happy: Heaven bless you, and make you so!</p>


                  <p>My unfortunate guest regards me with the tenderest compassion. He endeavours to
                     fill me with hope; and talks as if life were a possession which he valued. He
                     reminds me how often the same accidents have happened to other navigators, who
                     have attempted this sea, and, in spite of myself, he fills me with cheerful
                     auguries. Even the sailors feel the power of his eloquence: when he speaks,
                     they no longer despair; he rouses their energies, and, while they hear his
                     voice, they believe these vast mountains of ice are mole-hills, which will
                     vanish before the resolutions of man. These feelings are transitory; each day's
                     expectation delayed fills them with fear, and I almost dread a mutiny caused by
                     this despair.</p>


                  <pb n="[3.166]" facs="pageImages/vol3/166.jpg"/>


               </div>







               <div>


                  <opener>
                     <dateline>September 5th</dateline>
                                </opener>


                  <!-- question -->


                  <p>A scene has just passed of such uncommon interest, that although it is highly
                     probable that these papers may never reach you, yet I cannot forbear recording
                     it.</p>


                  <p>We are still surrounded by mountains of ice, still in imminent danger of being
                     crushed in their conflict. The cold is excessive, and many of my unfortunate
                     comrades have already found a grave amidst this scene of desolation.
                        <persName>Frankenstein</persName> has daily declined in health: a feverish
                     fire still glimmers in his eyes; but he is exhausted, and, when suddenly roused
                     to any exertion, he speedily sinks again into apparent lifelessness.</p>


                  <p>I mentioned in my last letter the fears I entertained of a mutiny. This
                     morning, as I sat watching the wan countenance of my friend—his eyes <pb n="[3.167]" facs="pageImages/vol3/167.jpg"/> half closed, and his limbs
                     hanging listlessly,—I was roused by half a dozen of the sailors, who desired
                     admission into the cabin. They entered; and their leader addressed me. He told
                     me that he and his companions had been chosen by the other sailors to come in
                     deputation to me, to make me a demand, which, in justice, I could not refuse.
                     We were immured in ice, and should probably never escape; but they feared that
                     if, as was possible, the ice should dissipate, and a free passage be opened, I
                     should be rash enough to continue my voyage, and lead them into fresh dangers,
                     after they might happily have surmounted this. They desired, therefore, that I
                     should engage with a solemn promise, that if the vessel should be freed, I
                     would instantly direct my course southward.</p>


                  <p>This speech troubled me. I had <pb n="[3.168]" facs="pageImages/vol3/168.jpg"/>
                     not despaired; nor had I yet conceived the idea of returning, if set free. Yet
                     could I, in justice, or even in possibility, refuse this demand? I hesitated
                     before I answered; when <persName>Frankenstein</persName>, who had at first
                     been silent, and indeed, appeared hardly to have force enough to attend, now
                     roused himself; his eyes sparkled, and his cheeks flushed with momentary
                     vigour. Turning towards the men, he said—</p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"What do you mean? What do you demand of your captain? Are
                        you then so easily turned from your design? Did you not call this a glorious
                        expedition? And wherefore was it glorious? Not because the way was smooth
                        and placid as a southern sea, but because it was full of dangers and terror;
                        because, at every new incident, your fortitude was to be called forth, and
                        your courage exhibited; because <pb n="[3.169]" facs="pageImages/vol3/169.jpg"/> danger and death surrounded, and these
                        dangers you were to brave and overcome. For this was it a glorious, for this
                        was it an honourable undertaking. You were hereafter to be hailed as the
                        benefactors of your species; your names adored, as belonging to brave men
                        who encountered death for honour and the benefit of mankind. And now,
                        behold, with the first imagination of danger, or, if you will, the first
                        mighty and terrific trial of your courage, you shrink away, and are content
                        to be handed down as men who had not strength enough to endure cold and
                        peril; and so, poor souls, they were chilly, and returned to their warm
                        fire-sides. Why, that requires not this preparation; ye need not have come
                        thus far, and dragged your captain to the shame of a defeat, merely to prove
                        yourselves cowards. Oh! be men, or <pb n="[3.170]" facs="pageImages/vol3/170.jpg"/> be more than men. Be steady to your
                        purposes, and firm as a rock. This ice is not made of such stuff as your
                        hearts might be; it is mutable, cannot withstand you, if you say that it
                        shall not. Do not return to your families with the stigma of disgrace marked
                        on your brows. Return as heroes who have fought and conquered, and who know
                        not what it is to turn their backs on the foe."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>He spoke this with a voice so modulated to the different feelings expressed in
                     his speech, with an eye so full of lofty design and heroism, that can you
                     wonder that these men were moved. They looked at one another, and were unable
                     to reply. I spoke; I told them to retire, and consider of what had been said:
                     that I would not lead them further north, if they strenuously desired the
                     contrary; but that I hoped <pb n="[3.171]" facs="pageImages/vol3/171.jpg"/>
                     that, with reflection, their courage would return.</p>


                  <p>They retired, and I turned towards my friend; but he was sunk in languor, and
                     almost deprived of life.</p>


                  <p>How all this will terminate, I know not; but I had rather die, than return
                     shamefully,—my purpose unfulfilled. Yet I fear such will be my fate; the men,
                     unsupported by ideas of glory and honour, can never willingly continue to
                     endure their present hardships.</p>


               </div>


               <div>



                  <opener>
                     <dateline>September 7th.</dateline>
                                </opener>


                  <p>The die is cast; I have consented to return, if we are not destroyed. Thus are
                     my hopes blasted by cowardice and indecision; I come back ignorant and
                     disappointed. It requires more philosophy than I possess, to bear this
                     injustice with patience.</p>


                  <pb n="[3.172]" facs="pageImages/vol3/172.jpg"/>


               </div>


               <div>


                  <opener>
                     <dateline>September 12th.</dateline>
                                </opener>


                  <p>It is past; I am returning to <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>. I have lost my hopes of utility and glory;—I have lost
                     my friend. But I will endeavour to detail these bitter circumstances to you, my
                     dear sister; and, while I am wafted towards <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, and towards you, I will not despond.</p>


                  <p>
                                    <date>September 9th</date>, the ice began to move, and roarings like thunder
                     were heard at a distance, as the islands split and cracked in every direction.
                     We were in the most imminent peril; but, as we could only remain passive, my
                     chief attention was occupied by my unfortunate guest, whose illness increased
                     in such a degree, that he was entirely confined to his bed. The ice cracked
                     behind us, and was driven with force towards the north; a breeze sprung from
                     the west, and on the 11th <pb n="[3.173]" facs="pageImages/vol3/173.jpg"/> the
                     passage towards the south became perfectly free. When the sailors saw this, and
                     that their return to their native country was apparently assured, a shout of
                     tumultuous joy broke from them, loud and long-continued.
                        <persName>Frankenstein</persName>, who was dozing, awoke, and asked the
                     cause of the tumult. <said who="#walton">"They shout,"</said> I said, <said who="#walton">"because they will soon return to <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Do you then really return?"</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#walton">"Alas! yes; I cannot withstand their demands. I cannot lead
                        them unwillingly to danger, and I must return."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Do so, if you will; but I will not. You may give up your
                        purpose, but mine is assigned to me by heaven, and I dare not. I am weak;
                        but surely the spirits who assist my vengeance will endow me with sufficient
                        strength."</said> Saying this, he endeavoured to spring from the bed, but
                     the exertion was <pb n="[3.174]" facs="pageImages/vol3/174.jpg"/> too great for
                     him; he fell back, and fainted.</p>


                  <p>It was long before he was restored; and I often thought that life was entirely
                     extinct. At length he opened his eyes, but he breathed with difficulty, and was
                     unable to speak. The surgeon gave him a composing draught, and ordered us to
                     leave him undisturbed. In the mean time he told me, that my friend had not many
                     hours to live.</p>


                  <p>His sentence was pronounced, and I could only grieve, and be patient. I sat by
                     his bed watching him; his eyes were closed, and I thought he slept; but
                     presently he called to me in a feeble voice, and, bidding me come near,
                        said—<said who="#victor">"Alas! the strength I relied on is gone; I feel
                        that I shall soon die, and he, my enemy and persecutor, may still be in
                        being. Think <pb n="[3.175]" facs="pageImages/vol3/175.jpg"/> not,
                           <persName>Walton</persName>, that in the last moments of my existence I
                        feel that burning hatred, and ardent desire of revenge I once expressed; but
                        I feel myself justified in desiring the death of my adversary. During these
                        last days I have been occupied in examining my past conduct; nor do I find
                        it blameable. In a fit of enthusiastic madness I created a rational
                        creature, and was bound towards him, to assure, as far as was in my power,
                        his happiness and well-being. This was my duty; but there was another still
                        paramount to that. My duties towards my fellow-creatures had greater claims
                        to my attention, because they included a greater proportion of happiness or
                        misery. Urged by this view, I refused, and I did right in refusing, to
                        create a companion for the first creature. He showed unparalleled malignity
                        and selfishness, in <pb n="[3.176]" facs="pageImages/vol3/176.jpg"/> evil:
                        he destroyed my friends; he devoted to destruction beings who possessed
                        exquisite sensations, happiness, and wisdom; nor do I know where this thirst
                        for vengeance may end. Miserable himself, that he may render no other
                        wretched, he ought to die. The task of his destruction was mine, but I have
                        failed. When actuated by selfish and vicious motives, I asked you to
                        undertake my unfinished work; and I renew this request now, when I am only
                        induced by reason and virtue."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"Yet I cannot ask you to renounce your country and friends,
                        to fulfill this task; and now, that you are returning to <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, you will have little chance
                        of meeting with him. But the consideration of these points, and the well
                        balancing of what you may esteem your duties, I leave to you; my <pb n="[3.177 - page breaks after 'judg-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/177.jpg"/>
                        judgment and ideas are already disturbed by the near approach of death. I
                        dare not ask you to do what I think right, for I may still be misled by
                        passion. That he should live to be an instrument of mischief disturbs me; in
                        other respects, this hour, when I momentarily expect my release, is the only
                        happy one which I have enjoyed for several years. The forms of the beloved
                        dead flit before me, and I hasten to their arms. Farewell,
                           <persName>Walton</persName>! Seek happiness in tranquillity, and avoid
                        ambition, even if it be only the apparently innocent one of distinguishing
                        yourself in science and discoveries. Yet why do I say this? I have myself
                        been blasted in these hopes, yet another may succeed."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>His voice became fainter as he spoke; and at length, exhausted by <pb n="[3.178]" facs="pageImages/vol3/178.jpg"/> his effort, he sunk into
                     silence. About half an hour afterwards he attempted again to speak, but was
                     unable; he pressed my hand feebly, and his eyes closed for ever, while the
                     irradiation of a gentle smile passed away from his
                        lips.<persName>Margaret</persName>, what comment can I make on the untimely
                     extinction of this glorious spirit? What can I say that will enable you to
                     understand the depth of my sorrow? All that I should express would be
                     inadequate and feeble. My tears flow; my mind is overshadowed by a cloud of
                     disappointment. But I journey towards <placeName type="tgn" key="7002445">England</placeName>, and I may there find consolation.</p>


                  <p>I am interrupted. What do these sounds portend? It is midnight; the breeze
                     blows fairly, and the watch on deck scarcely stir. Again; there is a sound as
                     of a human voice, but <pb n="[3.179]" facs="pageImages/vol3/179.jpg"/> hoarser;
                     it comes from the cabin where the remains of <persName>Frankenstein</persName>
                     still lie. I must arise and examine. Good night, my sister.</p>


                  <p>Great God! what a scene has just taken place! I am yet dizzy with the
                     remembrance of it. I hardly know whether I shall have the power to detail it;
                     yet the tale which I have recorded would be incomplete without this final and
                     wonderful catastrophe.</p>


                  <p>I entered the cabin, where lay the remains of my ill-fated and admirable
                     friend. Over him hung a form which I cannot find words to describe; gigantic in
                     stature, yet uncouth and distorted in its proportions. As he hung over the
                     coffin, his face was concealed by long locks of ragged hair; but one vast hand
                     was extended, in colour and apparent texture like that of a mummy. When he
                     heard the sound of my <pb n="[3.180 - page breaks after 'ap-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/180.jpg"/> approach, he ceased to utter exclamations
                     of grief and horror, and sprung towards the window. Never did I behold a vision
                     so horrible as his face, of such loathsome, yet appalling hideousness. I shut
                     my eyes involuntarily, and endeavoured to recollect what were my duties with
                     regard to this destroyer. I called on him to stay.</p>


                  <p>He paused, looking on me with wonder; and, again turning towards the lifeless
                     form of his creator, he seemed to forget my presence, and every feature and
                     gesture seemed instigated by the wildest rage of some uncontrollable
                     passion.</p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#victor">"That is also my victim!"</said> he exclaimed; <said who="#victor">"in his murder my crimes are consummated; the miserable series
                        of my being is wound to its close! Oh, <persName>Frankenstein</persName>!
                        generous and self-devoted being! what does it avail that <pb n="[3.181]" facs="pageImages/vol3/181.jpg"/> I now ask thee to pardon me? I, who
                        irretrievably destroyed thee by destroying all thou lovest. Alas! he is
                        cold, he may not answer me."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>His voice seemed suffocated; and my first impulses, which had suggested to me
                     the duty of obeying the dying request of my friend, in destroying his enemy,
                     were now suspended by a mixture of curiosity and compassion. I approached this
                     tremendous being; I dared not again raise my looks upon his face, there was
                     something so scaring and unearthly in his ugliness. I attempted to speak, but
                     the words died away on my lips. The monster continued to utter wild and
                     incoherent self-reproaches. At length I gathered resolution to address him, in
                     a pause of the tempest of his passion: <said who="#walton">"Your
                        repentance,"</said> I said, <said who="#walton">"is now superfluous. If you
                        had listened to the voice of <pb n="[3.182 - page breaks after 'con-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/182.jpg"/> conscience, and heeded the stings of
                        remorse, before you had urged your diabolical vengeance to this extremity,
                           <persName>Frankenstein</persName> would yet have lived."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"And do you dream?"</said> said the dæmon; <said who="#creature">"do you think that I was then dead to agony and
                        remorse?—He"</said> he continued, pointing to the corpse, <said who="#creature">"he suffered not more in the consummation of the deed;—oh!
                        not the ten-thousandth portion of the anguish that was mine during the
                        lingering detail of its execution. A frightful selfishness hurried me on,
                        while my heart was poisoned with remorse. Think ye that the groans of
                           <persName>Clerval</persName> were music to my ears? My heart was
                        fashioned to be susceptible of love and sympathy; and, when wrenched by
                        misery to vice and hatred, it did not endure the violence of the change
                        without torture such as you cannot even imagine."</said>
                                </p>


                  <pb n="[3.183]" facs="pageImages/vol3/183.jpg"/>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"After the murder of <persName>Clerval</persName>, I
                        returned to <placeName type="tgn" key="7011731">Switzerland</placeName>
                        heartbroken and overcome. I pitied <persName>Frankenstein</persName>; my
                        pity amounted to horror: I abhorred myself. But when I discovered that he,
                        the author at once of my existence and of its unspeakable torments, dared to
                        hope for happiness; that while he accumulated wretchedness and despair upon
                        me he sought his own enjoyment in feelings and passions from the indulgence
                        of which I was for ever barred, then impotent envy and bitter indignation
                        filled me with an insatiable thirst for vengeance. I recollected my threat,
                        and resolved that it should be accomplished. I knew that I was preparing for
                        myself a deadly torture; but I was the slave, not the master of an impulse,
                        which I detested, yet could not disobey. Yet when she died!—nay, then I was
                        not miserable. I had cast <pb n="[3.184]" facs="pageImages/vol3/184.jpg"/>
                        off all feeling, subdued all anguish to riot in the excess of my despair.
                        Evil thenceforth became my good. Urged thus far, I had no choice but to
                        adapt my nature to an element which I had willingly chosen. The completion
                        of my demoniacal design became an insatiable passion. And now it is ended;
                        there is my last victim!"</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>I was at first touched by the expressions of his misery; yet, when I called to
                     mind what <persName>Frankenstein</persName> had said of his powers of eloquence
                     and persuasion, and when I again cast my eyes on the lifeless form of my
                     friend, indignation was re-kindled within me. <said who="#walton">"Wretch!"</said> I said, <said who="#walton">"it is well that you come here
                        to whine over the desolation that you have made. You throw a torch into a
                        pile of buildings; and when they are consumed you sit among the ruins, and
                        lament the fall. <pb n="[3.185 - page breaks after 'Hypo-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/185.jpg"/> Hypocritical fiend! if he whom you mourn
                        still lived, still would he be the object, again would he become the prey of
                        your accursed vengeance. It is not pity that you feel; you lament only
                        because the victim of your malignity is withdrawn from your
                     power."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"Oh, it is not thus—not thus,"</said> interrupted the
                     being; <said who="#creature">"yet such must be the impression conveyed to you
                        by what appears to be the purport of my actions. Yet I seek not a
                        fellow-feeling in my misery. No sympathy may I ever find. When I first
                        sought it, it was the love of virtue, the feelings of happiness and
                        affection with which my whole being overflowed, that I wished to be
                        participated. But now, that virtue has become to me a shadow, and that
                        happiness and affection are turned into bitter and loathing despair, in what
                        should I seek for <pb n="[3.186 - page breaks after 'sym-']" facs="pageImages/vol3/186.jpg"/> sympathy? I am content to suffer alone,
                        while my sufferings shall endure: when I die, I am well satisfied that
                        abhorrence and opprobrium should load my memory. Once my fancy was soothed
                        with dreams of virtue, of fame, and of enjoyment. Once I falsely hoped to
                        meet with beings, who, pardoning my outward form, would love me for the
                        excellent qualities which I was capable of bringing forth. I was nourished
                        with high thoughts of honour and devotion. But now vice has degraded me
                        beneath the meanest animal. No crime, no mischief, no malignity, no misery,
                        can be found comparable to mine. When I call over the frightful catalogue of
                        my deeds, I cannot believe that I am he whose thoughts were once filled with
                        sublime and transcendent visions of the beauty and the majesty of goodness.
                        But it is even so; <pb n="[3.187]" facs="pageImages/vol3/187.jpg"/> the
                        fallen angel becomes a malignant devil. Yet even that enemy of God and man
                        had friends and associates in his desolation; I am quite alone."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"You, who call <persName>Frankenstein</persName> your
                        friend, seem to have a knowledge of my crimes and his misfortunes. But, in
                        the detail which he gave you of them, he could not sum up the hours and
                        months of misery which I endured, wasting in impotent passions. For whilst I
                        destroyed his hopes, I did not satisfy my own desires. They were for ever
                        ardent and craving; still I desired love and fellowship, and I was still
                        spurned. Was there no injustice in this? Am I to be thought the only
                        criminal, when all human kind sinned against me? Why do you not hate
                           <persName>Felix</persName>, who drove his friend from his door with
                        contumely? Why do you not execrate the rustic who sought to <pb n="[3.188]" facs="pageImages/vol3/188.jpg"/> destroy the saviour of his child? Nay,
                        these are virtuous and immaculate beings! I, the miserable and the
                        abandoned, am an abortion, to be spurned at, and kicked, and trampled on.
                        Even now my blood boils at the recollection of this injustice."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"But it is true that I am a wretch. I have murdered the
                        lovely and the helpless; I have strangled the innocent as they slept, and
                        grasped to death his throat who never injured me or any other living thing.
                        I have devoted my creator, the select specimen of all that is worthy of love
                        and admiration among men, to misery; I have pursued him even to that
                        irremediable ruin. There he lies, white and cold in death. You hate me; but
                        your abhorrence cannot equal that with which I regard myself. I look on the
                        hands which executed the deed; I think on the <pb n="[3.189]" facs="pageImages/vol3/189.jpg"/> heart in which the imagination of it was
                        conceived, and long for the moment when they will meet my eyes, when it will
                        haunt my thoughts, no more."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"Fear not that I shall be the instrument of future
                        mischief. My work is nearly complete. Neither your's nor any man's death is
                        needed to consummate the series of my being, and accomplish that which must
                        be done; but it requires my own. Do not think that I shall be slow to
                        perform this sacrifice. I shall quit your vessel on the ice-raft which
                        brought me hither, and I shall seek the most northern extremity of the
                        globe; I shall collect my funeral pile, and consume to ashes this miserable
                        frame, that its remains may afford no light to any curious and unhallowed
                        wretch, who would create such another as I have been. I shall <pb n="[3.190]" facs="pageImages/vol3/190.jpg"/> die. I shall no longer feel
                        the agonies which now consume me, or be the prey of feelings unsatisfied,
                        yet unquenched. He is dead who called me into being; and when I shall be no
                        more, the very remembrance of us both will speedily vanish. I shall no
                        longer see the sun or stars, or feel the winds play on my cheeks. Light,
                        feeling, and sense, will pass away; and in this condition must I find my
                        happiness. Some years ago, when the first images which this world affords
                        first opened upon me, when I felt the cheering warmth of summer, and heard
                        the rustling of the leaves and the chirping of the birds, and these were all
                        to me, I should have wept to die; now it is my only consolation. Polluted by
                        crimes, and torn by the bitterest remorse, where can I find rest but in
                        death?"</said>
                                </p>


                  <pb n="[3.191]" facs="pageImages/vol3/191.jpg"/>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"Farewell! I leave you, and in you the last of human kind
                        whom these eyes will ever behold. Farewell,
                           <persName>Frankenstein</persName>! If thou wert yet alive, and yet
                        cherished a desire of revenge against me, it would be better satiated in my
                        life than in my destruction. But it was not so; thou didst seek my
                        extinction, that I might not cause greater wretchedness; and if yet, in some
                        mode unknown to me, thou hast not yet ceased to think and feel, thou
                        desirest not my life for my own misery. Blasted as thou wert, my agony was
                        still superior to thine; for the bitter sting of remorse may not cease to
                        rankle in my wounds until death shall close them for ever."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>
                                    <said who="#creature">"But soon,"</said> he cried, with sad and solemn
                     enthusiasm, <said who="#creature">"I shall die, and what I now feel be no
                        longer felt. Soon these burning miseries will be extinct. I shall ascend my
                        funeral <pb n="[3.192]" facs="pageImages/vol3/192.jpg"/> pile triumphantly,
                        and exult in the agony of the torturing flames. The light of that
                        conflagration will fade away; my ashes will be swept into the sea by the
                        winds. My spirit will sleep in peace; or if it thinks, it will not surely
                        think thus. Farewell."</said>
                                </p>


                  <p>He sprung from the cabin-window, as he said this, upon the ice-raft which lay
                     close to the vessel. He was soon borne away by the waves, and lost in darkness
                     and distance. </p>


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        <titlePart>PRIDE<lb/>
                            <lb/>AND<lb/>
                            <lb/>PREJUDICE:<lb/>
                            <lb/>A NOVEL.<lb/>
                            <lb/>
                            <hi rend="italic">IN THREE VOLUMES.</hi>
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                            <lb/>BY THE<lb/>AUTHOR OF "SENSE AND
          SENSIBILITY."<lb/>
                            <lb/>VOL. I.<lb/>
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      <div type="volume" n="1">
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 1"/>
        <div type="chapter" n="1">
                            <head type="main">PRIDE &amp; PREJUDICE.</head>
                            <lb/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER I.</head>
        <p> It is a truth universally acknowledged, that a single man in possession of a good
          fortune, must be in want of a wife.</p>
        <p>However little known the feelings or views of such a man may be on his first entering a
          neighbourhood, this truth is so well fixed in the minds of the surrounding families, that
          he is considered as the rightful property of some one or other of their daughters.</p>
          <p>"My dear Mr. Bennet," said his lady to him one day, "have you <pb n="[Vol. I] 2"/>heard that Netherfield Park
          is let at last?"</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet replied that he had not.</p>
        <p>"But it is," returned she; "for Mrs. Long has just been here, and she told me all about
          it."</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet made no answer.</p>
        <p>"Do not you want to know who has taken it?" cried his wife impatiently.</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">You</hi> want to tell me, and I have no objection to hearing it."</p>
        <p>This was invitation enough.</p>
        <p>"Why, my dear, you must know, Mrs. Long says that Netherfield is taken by a young man of
          large fortune from the north of England; that he came down on Monday in a chaise and four
          to see the place, and was so much delighted with it that he agreed with Mr. Morris
          immediately; that he is to take possession before Michaelmas,<pb n="[Vol. I] 3 [page breaks after Mi-"/> and some of his servants are
          to be in the house by the end of next week."</p>
        <p>"What is his name?"</p>
        <p>"Bingley."</p>
        <p>"Is he married or single?"</p>
        <p>"Oh! single, my dear, to be sure! A single man of large fortune; four or five thousand a
          year. What a fine thing for our girls!"</p>
        <p>"How so? how can it affect them?"</p>
        <p>"My dear Mr. Bennet," replied his wife, "how can you be so tiresome! You must know that I
          am thinking of his marrying one of them."</p>
        <p>"Is that his design in settling here?"</p>
        <p>"Design! nonsense, how can you talk so! But it is very likely that he <hi rend="italic">may</hi> fall in love with one of them, and therefore you must visit him as soon as he
          comes."</p>
          <p>"I see no occasion for that. You <pb n="[Vol. I] 4"/>and the girls may go, or you may send them by
          themselves, which perhaps will be still better, for as you are as handsome as any of them,
          Mr. Bingley might like you the best of the party."</p>
        <p>"My dear, you flatter me. I certainly <hi rend="italic">have</hi> had my share of beauty,
          but I do not pretend to be any thing extraordinary now. When a woman has five grown up
          daughters, she ought to give over thinking of her own beauty."</p>
        <p>"In such cases, a woman has not often much beauty to think of."</p>
        <p>"But, my dear, you must indeed go and see Mr. Bingley when he comes into the
          neighbourhood."</p>
        <p>"It is more than I engage for, I assure you."</p>
        <p>"But consider your daughters. Only think what an establishment it would be for one of
          them. Sir William <pb n="[Vol. I] 5 [page breaks after Wil-]"/>and Lady Lucas are determined to go, merely on that account, for in
          general you know they visit no new comers. Indeed you must go, for it will be impossible
          for <hi rend="italic">us</hi> to visit him, if you do not."</p>
        <p>"You are over scrupulous surely. I dare say Mr. Bingley will be very glad to see you; and
          I will send a few lines by you to assure him of my hearty consent to his marrying which
          ever he chuses of the girls; though I must throw in a good word for my little Lizzy."</p>
        <p>"I desire you will do no such thing. Lizzy is not a bit better than the others; and I am
          sure she is not half so handsome as Jane, nor half so good humoured as Lydia. But you are
          always giving <hi rend="italic">her</hi> the preference."</p>
          <p>"They have none of them much to recommend them," replied he; <pb n="[Vol. I] 6"/>"they are all silly and
          ignorant like other girls; but Lizzy has something more of quickness than her
          sisters."</p>
        <p>"Mr. Bennet, how can you abuse your own children in such a way? You take delight in
          vexing me. You have no compassion on my poor nerves."</p>
        <p>"You mistake me, my dear. I have a high respect for your nerves. They are my old friends.
          I have heard you mention them with consideration these twenty years at least."</p>
        <p>"Ah! you do not know what I suffer."</p>
        <p>"But I hope you will get over it, and live to see many young men of four thousand a year
          come into the neighbourhood."</p>
        <p>"It will be no use to us, if twenty such should come since you will not visit them."</p>
          <p>"Depend upon it, my dear, that <pb n="[Vol. I] 7"/>when there are twenty, I will visit them all."</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet was so odd a mixture of quick parts, sarcastic humour, reserve, and caprice,
          that the experience of three and twenty years had been insufficient to make his wife
          understand his character. <hi rend="italic">her</hi> mind was less difficult to develope.
          She was a woman of mean understanding, little information, and uncertain temper. When she
          was discontented she fancied herself nervous. The business of her life was to get her
          daughters married; its solace was visiting and news.</p>
          <p/>
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                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 8"/>
        <div type="chapter" n="2">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER II.</head>
        <p> Mr. Bennet was among the earliest of those who waited on Mr. Bingley. He had always
          intended to visit him, though to the last always assuring his wife that he should not go;
          and till the evening after the visit was paid, she had no knowledge of it. It was then
          disclosed in the following manner. Observing his second daughter employed in trimming a
          hat, he suddenly addressed her with,</p>
        <p>"I hope Mr. Bingley will like it Lizzy."</p>
        <p>"We are not in a way to know <hi rend="italic">what</hi> Mr. Bingley likes," said her
          mother resentfully, "since we are not to visit."</p>
          <p>"But you forget, mama," said Elizabeth,<pb n="[Vol. I] 9 [page breaks after Eli-]"/> "that we shall meet him at the assemblies, and
          that Mrs. Long has promised to introduce him."</p>
        <p>"I do not believe Mrs. Long will do any such thing. She has two nieces of her own. She is
          a selfish, hypocritical woman, and I have no opinion of her."</p>
        <p>"No more have I," said Mr. Bennet; "and I am glad to find that you do not depend on her
          serving you."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet deigned not to make any reply; but unable to contain herself, began scolding
          one of her daughters.</p>
        <p>"Don't keep coughing so, Kitty, for heaven's sake! Have a little compassion on my nerves.
          You tear them to pieces."</p>
        <p>"Kitty has no discretion in her coughs," said her father; "she times them ill."</p>
          <p>"I do not cough for my own <pb n="[Vol. I] 10"/>amusement," replied Kitty fretfully.</p>
        <p>"When is your next ball to be, Lizzy?"</p>
        <p>"To-morrow fortnight."</p>
        <p>"Aye, so it is," cried her mother, "and Mrs. Long does not come back till the day before;
          so, it will be impossible for her to introduce him, for she will not know him
          herself."</p>
        <p>"Then, my dear, you may have the advantage of your friend, and introduce Mr. Bingley to
            <hi rend="italic">her</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Impossible, Mr. Bennet, impossible, when I am not acquainted with him myself; how can
          you be so teazing?"</p>
        <p>"I honour your circumspection. A fortnight's acquaintance is certainly very little. One
          cannot know what a man really is by the end of a fortnight. But if <hi rend="italic">we</hi> do not venture, somebody else will; and after all, Mrs. Long and her nieces
          must stand <pb n="[Vol. I] 11"/>their chance; and therefore, as she will think it an act of kindness, if you
          decline the office, I will take it on myself."</p>
        <p>The girls stared at their father. Mrs. Bennet said only, "Nonsense, nonsense!"</p>
        <p>"What can be the meaning of that emphatic exclamation?" cried he. "Do you consider the
          forms of introduction, and the stress that is laid on them, as nonsense? I cannot quite
          agree with you <hi rend="italic">there</hi>. What say you, Mary? for you are a young lady
          of deep reflection I know, and read great books, and make extracts."</p>
        <p>Mary wished to say something very sensible, but knew not how.</p>
        <p>"While Mary is adjusting her ideas," he continued, "let us return to Mr. Bingley."</p>
          <p>"I am sick of Mr. Bingley," cried his wife.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 12"/>
        <p>"I am sorry to hear <hi rend="italic">that</hi>; but why did not you tell me so before?
          If I had known as much this morning, I certainly would not have called on him. It is very
          unlucky; but as I have actually paid the visit, we cannot escape the acquaintance
          now."</p>
        <p>The astonishment of the ladies was just what he wished; that of Mrs. Bennet perhaps
          surpassing the rest; though when the first tumult of joy was over, she began to declare
          that it was what she had expected all the while.</p>
        <p>"How good it was in you, my dear Mr. Bennet! But I knew I should persuade you at last. I
          was sure you loved your girls too well to neglect such an acquaintance. Well, how pleased
          I am! and it is such a good joke, too, that you should have gone this morning, and never
          said a word about it till now."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 13"/>
        <p>"Now, Kitty, you may cough as much as you chuse," said Mr. Bennet; and, as he spoke, he
          left the room, fatigued with the raptures of his wife.</p>
        <p>"What an excellent father you have, girls," said she, when the door was shut. "I do not
          know how you will ever make him amends for his kindness; or me either, for that matter. At
          our time of life, it is not so pleasant I can tell you, to be making new acquaintance
          every day; but for your sakes, we would do any thing. Lydia, my love, though you <hi rend="italic">are</hi> the youngest, I dare say Mr. Bingley will dance with you at the
          next ball."</p>
        <p>"Oh!" said Lydia stoutly, "I am not afraid; for though I <hi rend="italic">am</hi> the
          youngest, I'm the tallest."</p>
        <p>The rest of the evening was spent in conjecturing how soon he would return Mr. Bennet's
          visit, and determining when they should ask him to dinner.</p>
        <p/>
                        </div>
        <pb n="[Vol. I] 14"/>
        <div type="chapter" n="3">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER III.</head>
        <p> Not all that Mrs. Bennet, however, with the assistance of her five daughters, could ask
          on the subject was sufficient to draw from her husband any satisfactory description of Mr.
          Bingley. They attacked him in various ways; with barefaced questions, ingenious
          suppositions, and distant surmises; but he eluded the skill of them all; and they were at
          last obliged to accept the second-hand intelligence of their neighbour Lady Lucas. Her
          report was highly favourable. Sir William had been delighted with him. He was quite young,
          wonderfully handsome, extremely agreeable, and to crown the whole, he meant to be at the
          next assembly with a large <pb n="[Vol. I] 15"/>party. Nothing could be more delightful! To be fond of dancing
          was a certain step towards falling in love; and very lively hopes of Mr. Bingley's heart
          were entertained.</p>
        <p>"If I can but see one of my daughters happily settled at Netherfield," said Mrs. Bennet
          to her husband, "and all the others equally well married, I shall have nothing to wish
          for."</p>
        <p>In a few days Mr. Bingley returned Mr. Bennet's visit, and sat about ten minutes with him
          in his library. He had entertained hopes of being admitted to a sight of the young ladies,
          of whose beauty he had heard much; but he saw only the father. The ladies were somewhat
          more fortunate, for they had the advantage of ascertaining from an upper window, that he
          wore a blue coat and rode a black horse.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 16"/>
        <p>An invitation to dinner was soon afterwards dispatched; and already had Mrs. Bennet
          planned the courses that were to do credit to her housekeeping, when an answer arrived
          which deferred it all. Mr. Bingley was obliged to be in town the following day, and
          consequently unable to accept the honour of their invitation, &amp;c. Mrs. Bennet was
          quite disconcerted. She could not imagine what business he could have in town so soon
          after his arrival in Hertfordshire; and she began to fear that he might be always flying
          about from one place to another, and never settled at Netherfield as he ought to be. Lady
          Lucas quieted her fears a little by starting the idea of his being gone to London only to
          get a large party for the ball; and a report soon followed that Mr. Bingley was to bring
          twelve ladies and seven gentlemen with him <pb n="[Vol. I] 17"/>to the assembly. The girls grieved over such a
          number of ladies; but were comforted the day before the ball by hearing, that instead of
          twelve, he had brought only six with him from London, his five sisters and a cousin. And
          when the party entered the assembly room, it consisted of only five altogether; Mr.
          Bingley, his two sisters, the husband of the eldest, and another young man.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bingley was good looking and gentleman-like; he had a pleasant countenance, and easy,
          unaffected manners. His sisters were fine women, with an air of decided fashion. His
          brother-in-law, Mr. Hurst, merely looked the gentleman; but his friend Mr. Darcy soon drew
          the attention of the room by his fine, tall person, handsome features, noble mien; and the
          report which was in general circulation within five minutes after his entrance,<pb n="[Vol. I] 18 [page breaks at en-]"/> of his
          having ten thousand a year. The gentlemen pronounced him to be a fine figure of a man, the
          ladies declared he was much handsomer than Mr. Bingley, and he was looked at with great
          admiration for about half the evening, till his manners gave a disgust which turned the
          tide of his popularity; for he was discovered to be proud, to be above his company, and
          above being pleased; and not all his large estate in Derbyshire could then save him from
          having a most forbidding, disagreeable countenance, and being unworthy to be compared with
          his friend.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bingley had soon made himself acquainted with all the principal people in the room;
          he was lively and unreserved, danced every dance, was angry that the ball closed so early,
          and talked of giving one himself at Netherfield. Such amiable qualities<pb n="[Vol. I] 19 [page breaks at qual-]"/> must speak for
          themselves. What a contrast between him and his friend! Mr. Darcy danced only once with
          Mrs. Hurst and once with Miss Bingley, declined being introduced to any other lady, and
          spent the rest of the evening in walking about the room, speaking occasionally to one of
          his own party. His character was decided. He was the proudest, most disagreeable man in
          the world, and every body hoped that he would never come there again. Amongst the most
          violent against him was Mrs. Bennet, whose dislike of his general behaviour, was sharpened
          into particular resentment, by his having slighted one of her daughters.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth Bennet had been obliged, by the scarcity of gentlemen, to sit down for two
          dances; and during part of that time, Mr. Darcy had been standing near enough for her to<pb n="[Vol. I] 20"/>
          overhear a conversation between him and Mr. Bingley, who came from the dance for a few
          minutes, to press his friend to join it.</p>
        <p>"Come, Darcy," said he, "I must have you dance. I hate to see you standing about by
          yourself in this stupid manner. You had much better dance."</p>
        <p>"I certainly shall not. You know how I detest it, unless I am particularly acquainted
          with my partner. At such an assembly as this, it would be insupportable. Your sisters are
          engaged, and there is not another woman in the room, whom it would not be a punishment to
          me to stand up with."</p>
        <p>"I would not be so fastidious as you are," cried Bingley, "for a kingdom! Upon my honour,
          I never met with so many pleasant girls in my life, as I have this evening; and there <pb n="[Vol. I] 21"/>are
          several of them you see uncommonly pretty."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">You</hi> are dancing with the only handsome girl in the room," said
          Mr. Darcy, looking at the eldest Miss Bennet.</p>
        <p>"Oh! she is the most beautiful creature I ever beheld! But there is one of her sisters
          sitting down just behind you, who is very pretty, and I dare say, very agreeable. Do let
          me ask my partner to introduce you."</p>
        <p>"Which do you mean?" and turning round, he looked for a moment at Elizabeth, till
          catching her eye, he withdrew his own and coldly said, "She is tolerable; but not handsome
          enough to tempt <hi rend="italic">me</hi>; and I am in no humour at present to give
          consequence to young ladies who are slighted by other men. You had better return to your
          partner and enjoy her smiles, for you are wasting your time with me."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 22"/>
        <p>Mr. Bingley followed his advice. Mr. Darcy walked off; and Elizabeth remained with no
          very cordial feelings towards him. She told the story however with great spirit among her
          friends; for she had a lively, playful disposition, which delighted in any thing
          ridiculous.</p>
        <p>The evening altogether passed off pleasantly to the whole family. Mrs. Bennet had seen
          her eldest daughter much admired by the Netherfield party. Mr. Bingley had danced with her
          twice, and she had been distinguished by his sisters. Jane was as much gratified by this,
          as her mother could be, though in a quieter way. Elizabeth felt Jane's pleasure. Mary had
          heard herself mentioned to Miss Bingley as the most accomplished girl in the
          neighbourhood; and Catherine and Lydia had been fortunate enough to be never without
          partners, which was all that they had yet learnt to care for at a ball. They returned
          therefore in good spirits to Longbourn, the village where they lived, and of which they
          were the principal inhabitants. They found Mr. Bennet still up. With a book he was
          regardless of time; and on the present occasion he had a good deal of curiosity as to the
          event of an evening which had raised such splendid expectations. He had rather hoped that
          all his wife's views on the stranger would be disappointed; but he soon found that he had
          a very different story to hear.</p>
        <p>"Oh! my dear Mr. Bennet," as she entered the room, "we have had a most delightful
          evening, a most excellent ball. I wish you had been there. Jane was so admired, nothing
          could be like it. Every body said how well she looked; and Mr. Bingley thought her quite
          beautiful, and <pb n="[Vol. I] 24"/>danced with her twice. Only think of <hi rend="italic">that</hi> my dear;
          he actually danced with her twice; and she was the only creature in the room that he asked
          a second time. First of all, he asked Miss Lucas. I was so vexed to see him stand up with
          her; but, however, he did not admire her at all: indeed, nobody can, you know; and he
          seemed quite struck with Jane as she was going down the dance. So, he enquired who she
          was, and got introduced, and asked her for the two next. Then, the two third he danced
          with Miss King, and the two fourth with Maria Lucas, and the two fifth with Jane again,
          and the two sixth with Lizzy, and the Boulanger----"</p>
        <p>"If he had had any compassion for <hi rend="italic">me</hi>," cried her husband
          impatiently, "he would not have danced half so much! For God's sake, say no <pb n="[Vol. I] 25"/>more of his
          partners. Oh! that he had sprained his ancle in the first dance!"</p>
        <p>"Oh! my dear," continued Mrs. Bennet, "I am quite delighted with him. He is so
          excessively handsome! and his sisters are charming women. I never in my life saw any thing
          more elegant than their dresses. I dare say the lace upon Mrs. Hurst's gown----"</p>
        <p>Here she was interrupted again. Mr. Bennet protested against any description of finery.
          She was therefore obliged to seek another branch of the subject, and related, with much
          bitterness of spirit and some exaggeration, the shocking rudeness of Mr. Darcy.</p>
        <p>"But I can assure you," she added, "that Lizzy does not lose much by not suiting <hi rend="italic">his</hi> fancy; for he is a most disagreeable, horrid man, not at all<pb n="[Vol. I] 26"/>
          worth pleasing. So high and so conceited that there was no enduring him! He walked here,
          and he walked there, fancying himself so very great! Not handsome enough to dance with! I
          wish you had been there, my dear, to have given him one of your set downs. I quite detest
          the man."</p>
                        </div>
        <div type="chapter" n="4">
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 27"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER IV.</head>
        <p> When Jane and Elizabeth were alone, the former, who had been cautious in her praise of
          Mr. Bingley before, expressed to her sister how very much she admired him.</p>
        <p>"He is just what a young man ought to be," said she, "sensible, good humoured, lively;
          and I never saw such happy manners!--so much ease, with such perfect good breeding!"</p>
        <p>"He is also handsome," replied Elizabeth, "which a young man ought likewise to be, if he
          possibly can. His character is thereby complete."</p>
        <p>"I was very much flattered by his asking me to dance a second time. I did not expect such
          a compliment."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 28"/>
        <p>"Did not you? <hi rend="italic">I</hi> did for you. But that is one great difference
          between us. Compliments always take <hi rend="italic">you</hi> by surprise, and <hi rend="italic">me</hi> never. What could be more natural than his asking you again? He
          could not help seeing that you were about five times as pretty as every other woman in the
          room. No thanks to his gallantry for that. Well, he certainly is very agreeable, and I
          give you leave to like him. You have liked many a stupider person."</p>
        <p>"Dear Lizzy!"</p>
        <p>"Oh! you are a great deal too apt you know, to like people in general. You never see a
          fault in any body. All the world are good and agreeable in your eyes. I never heard you
          speak ill of a human being in my life."</p>
          <p>"I would wish not to be hasty in censuring any one; but I always speak what I think."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 28"/>
        <p>"I know you do; and it is <hi rend="italic">that</hi> which makes the wonder. With <hi rend="italic">your</hi> good sense, to be so honestly blind to the follies and nonsense
          of others! Affectation of candour is common enough;--one meets it every where. But to be
          candid without ostentation or design--to take the good of every body's character and make
          it still better, and say nothing of the bad--belongs to you alone. And so, you like this
          man's sisters too, do you? Their manners are not equal to his."</p>
        <p>"Certainly not; at first. But they are very pleasing women when you converse with them.
          Miss Bingley is to live with her brother and keep his house; and I am much mistaken if we
          shall not find a very charming neighbour in her."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth listened in silence, but was not convinced; their behaviour at the assembly had
          not been calculated <pb n="[Vol. I] 30 [page breaks at calcu-]"/>to please in general; and with more quickness of observation and less
          pliancy of temper than her sister, and with a judgment too unassailed by any attention to
          herself, she was very little disposed to approve them. They were in fact very fine ladies;
          not deficient in good humour when they were pleased, nor in the power of being agreeable
          where they chose it; but proud and conceited. They were rather handsome, had been educated
          in one of the first private seminaries in town, had a fortune of twenty thousand pounds,
          were in the habit of spending more than they ought, and of associating with people of
          rank; and were therefore in every respect entitled to think well of themselves, and meanly
          of others. They were of a respectable family in the north of England; a circumstance more
          deeply impressed on their memories <pb n="[Vol. I] 31 [page breaks at me-]"/>than that their brother's fortune and their own had
          been acquired by trade.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bingley inherited property to the amount of nearly an hundred thousand pounds from
          his father, who had intended to purchase an estate, but did not live to do it.--Mr.
          Bingley intended it likewise, and sometimes made choice of his county; but as he was now
          provided with a good house and the liberty of a manor, it was doubtful to many of those
          who best knew the easiness of his temper, whether he might not spend the remainder of his
          days at Netherfield, and leave the next generation to purchase.</p>
        <p>His sisters were very anxious for his having an estate of his own; but though he was now
          established only as a tenant, Miss Bingley was by no means unwilling to preside at his
          table, <pb n="[Vol. I] 32"/>nor was Mrs. Hurst, who had married a man of more fashion than fortune, less
          disposed to consider his house as her home when it suited her. Mr. Bingley had not been of
          age two years, when he was tempted by an accidental recommendation to look at Netherfield
          House. He did look at it and into it for half an hour, was pleased with the situation and
          the principal rooms, satisfied with what the owner said in its praise, and took it
          immediately.</p>
        <p>Between him and Darcy there was a very steady friendship, in spite of a great opposition
          of character.--Bingley was endeared to Darcy by the easiness, openness, ductility of his
          temper, though no disposition could offer a greater contrast to his own, and though with
          his own he never appeared dissatisfied. On the strength of Darcy's regard Bingley <pb n="[Vol. I] 33"/>had the
          firmest reliance, and of his judgment the highest opinion. In understanding Darcy was the
          superior. Bingley was by no means deficient, but Darcy was clever. He was at the same time
          haughty, reserved, and fastidious, and his manners, though well bred, were not inviting.
          In that respect his friend had greatly the advantage. Bingley was sure of being liked
          wherever he appeared, Darcy was continually giving offence.</p>
        <p>The manner in which they spoke of the Meryton assembly was sufficiently characteristic.
          Bingley had never met with pleasanter people or prettier girls in his life; every body had
          been most kind and attentive to him, there had been no formality, no stiffness, he had
          soon felt acquainted with all the room; and as to Miss Bennet, he could not conceive an<pb n="[Vol. I] 34"/>
          angel more beautiful. Darcy, on the contrary, had seen a collection of people in whom
          there was little beauty and no fashion, for none of whom he had felt the smallest
          interest, and from none received either attention or pleasure. Miss Bennet he acknowledged
          to be pretty, but she smiled too much.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Hurst and her sister allowed it to be so--but still they admired her and liked her,
          and pronounced her to be a sweet girl, and one whom they should not object to know more
          of. Miss Bennet was therefore established as a sweet girl, and their brother felt
          authorised by such commendation to think of her as he chose.</p>
        </div>
        <div type="chapter" n="5">
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 35"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER V.</head>
        <p> Within a short walk of Longbourn lived a family with whom the Bennets were particularly
          intimate. Sir William Lucas had been formerly in trade in Meryton, where he had made a
          tolerable fortune and risen to the honour of knighthood by an address to the King, during
          his mayoralty. The distinction had perhaps been felt too strongly. It had given him a
          disgust to his business and to his residence in a small market town; and quitting them
          both, he had removed with his family to a house about a mile from Meryton, denominated
          from that period Lucas Lodge, where he could think with <pb n="[Vol. I] 36"/>pleasure of his own importance,
          and unshackled by business, occupy himself solely in being civil to all the world. For
          though elated by his rank, it did not render him supercilious; on the contrary, he was all
          attention to every body. By nature inoffensive, friendly and obliging, his presentation at
          St. James's had made him courteous.</p>
        <p>Lady Lucas was a very good kind of woman, not too clever to be a valuable neighbour to
          Mrs. Bennet.--They had several children. The eldest of them, a sensible, intelligent young
          woman, about twenty-seven, was Elizabeth's intimate friend.</p>
        <p>That the Miss Lucases and the Miss Bennets should meet to talk over a ball was absolutely
          necessary; and the morning after the assembly brought the former to Longbourn to hear and
          to communicate.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 37"/>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">You</hi> began the evening well, Charlotte," said Mrs. Bennet with
          civil self-command to Miss Lucas. "<hi rend="italic">You</hi> were Mr. Bingley's first
          choice."</p>
        <p>"Yes;--but he seemed to like his second better."</p>
        <p>"Oh!--you mean Jane, I suppose--because he danced with her twice. To be sure that <hi rend="italic">did</hi> seem as if he admired her--indeed I rather believe he <hi rend="italic">did</hi>--I heard something about it--but I hardly know what--something
          about Mr. Robinson."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps you mean what I overheard between him and Mr. Robinson; did not I mention it to
          you? Mr. Robinson's asking him how he liked our Meryton assemblies, and whether he did not
          think there were a great many pretty women in the room, and <hi rend="italic">which</hi>
          he thought the prettiest? and his answering immediately to the last question--Oh! the
          eldest <pb n="[Vol. I] 38"/>Miss Bennet beyond a doubt, there cannot be two opinions on that point."</p>
        <p>"Upon my word!--Well, that was very decided indeed--that does seem as if----but however,
          it may all come to nothing you know."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">My</hi> overhearings were more to the purpose than <hi rend="italic">yours</hi>, Eliza," said Charlotte. "Mr. Darcy is not so well worth listening to as his
          friend, is he?--Poor Eliza!--to be only just <hi rend="italic">tolerable</hi>."</p>
        <p>"I beg you would not put it into Lizzy's head to be vexed by his ill-treatment; for he is
          such a disagreeable man that it would be quite a misfortune to be liked by him. Mrs. Long
          told me last night that he sat close to her for half an hour without once opening his
          lips."</p>
        <p>"Are you quite sure, Ma'am?--is not there a little mistake?" said Jane.--"I certainly saw
          Mr. Darcy speaking to her."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 38"/>
        <p>"Aye--because she asked him at last how he liked Netherfield, and he could not help
          answering her;--but she said he seemed very angry at being spoke to."</p>
        <p>"Miss Bingley told me," said Jane, "that he never speaks much unless among his intimate
          acquaintance. With <hi rend="italic">them</hi> he is remarkably agreeable."</p>
        <p>"I do not believe a word of it, my dear. If he had been so very agreeable he would have
          talked to Mrs. Long. But I can guess how it was; every body says that he is ate up with
          pride, and I dare say he had heard somehow that Mrs. Long does not keep a carriage, and
          had come to the ball in a hack chaise."</p>
        <p>"I do not mind his not talking to Mrs. Long," said Miss Lucas, "but I wish he had danced
          with Eliza."</p>
          <p>"Another time, Lizzy," said her <pb n="[Vol. I] 40"/>mother, "I would not dance with <hi rend="italic">him</hi>, if I were you."</p>
        <p>"I believe, Ma'am, I may safely promise you <hi rend="italic">never</hi> to dance with
          him."</p>
        <p>"His pride," said Miss Lucas, "does not offend <hi rend="italic">me</hi> so much as pride
          often does, because there is an excuse for it. One cannot wonder that so very fine a young
          man, with family, fortune, every thing in his favour, should think highly of himself. If I
          may so express it, he has a <hi rend="italic">right</hi> to be proud."</p>
        <p>"That is very true," replied Elizabeth, "and I could easily forgive <hi rend="italic">his</hi> pride, if he had not mortified <hi rend="italic">mine</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Pride," observed Mary, who piqued herself upon the solidity of her reflections, "is a
          very common failing I believe. By all that I have ever read, I am convinced that it is
          very common indeed, that human nature is particularly prone to it, and that there are very
          few of us who do not <pb n="[Vol. I] 41"/>cherish a feeling of self-complacency on the score of some quality or
          other, real or imaginary. Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are
          often used synonimously. A person may be proud without being vain. Pride relates more to
          our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us."</p>
        <p>"If I were as rich as Mr. Darcy," cried a young Lucas who came with his sisters, "I
          should not care how proud I was. I would keep a pack of foxhounds, and drink a bottle of
          wine every day."</p>
        <p>"Then you would drink a great deal more than you ought," said Mrs. Bennet; "and if I were
          to see you at it I should take away your bottle directly."</p>
        <p>The boy protested that she should not; she continued to declare that she would, and the
          argument ended only with the visit.</p>
                        </div>
        <div type="chapter" n="6">
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 42"/>
        
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER VI.</head>
        <p> The ladies of Longbourn soon waited on those of Netherfield. The visit was returned in
          due form. Miss Bennet's pleasing manners grew on the good will of Mrs. Hurst and Miss
          Bingley; and though the mother was found to be intolerable and the younger sisters not
          worth speaking to, a wish of being better acquainted with <hi rend="italic">them</hi>, was
          expressed towards the two eldest. By Jane this attention was received with the greatest
          pleasure; but Elizabeth still saw superciliousness in their treatment of every body,
          hardly excepting even her sister, and could not like them; though their kindness to Jane,
          such as it was, had a value as arising in <pb n="[Vol. I] 43"/>all probability from the influence of their
          brother's admiration. It was generally evident whenever they met, that he <hi rend="italic">did</hi> admire her; and to <hi rend="italic">her</hi> it was equally
          evident that Jane was yielding to the preference which she had begun to entertain for him
          from the first, and was in a way to be very much in love; but she considered with pleasure
          that it was not likely to be discovered by the world in general, since Jane united with
          great strength of feeling, a composure of temper and a uniform cheerfulness of manner,
          which would guard her from the suspicions of the impertinent. She mentioned this to her
          friend Miss Lucas.</p>
        <p>"It may perhaps be pleasant," replied Charlotte, "to be able to impose on the public in
          such a case; but it is sometimes a disadvantage to be so very guarded. If a woman <pb n="[Vol. I] 44"/>conceals
          her affection with the same skill from the object of it, she may lose the opportunity of
          fixing him; and it will then be but poor consolation to believe the world equally in the
          dark. There is so much of gratitude or vanity in almost every attachment, that it is not
          safe to leave any to itself. We can all <hi rend="italic">begin</hi> freely--a slight
          preference is natural enough; but there are very few of us who have heart enough to be
          really in love without encouragement. In nine cases out of ten, a woman had better shew
            <hi rend="italic">more</hi> affection than she feels. Bingley likes your sister
          undoubtedly; but he may never do more than like her, if she does not help him on."</p>
        <p>"But she does help him on, as much as her nature will allow. If <hi rend="italic">I</hi>
          can perceive her regard for him, he must be a simpleton indeed not to discover it
          too."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 45"/>
        <p>"Remember, Eliza, that he does not know Jane's disposition as you do."</p>
        <p>"But if a woman is partial to a man, and does not endeavour to conceal it, he must find
          it out."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps he must, if he sees enough of her. But though Bingley and Jane meet tolerably
          often, it is never for many hours together; and as they always see each other in large
          mixed parties, it is impossible that every moment should be employed in conversing
          together. Jane should therefore make the most of every half hour in which she can command
          his attention. When she is secure of him, there will be leisure for falling in love as
          much as she chuses."</p>
        <p>"Your plan is a good one," replied Elizabeth, "where nothing is in question but the
          desire of being well married; and if I were determined <pb n="[Vol. I] 46 [page breaks at deter-]"/>to get a rich husband, or any
          husband, I dare say I should adopt it. But these are not Jane's feelings; she is not
          acting by design. As yet, she cannot even be certain of the degree of her own regard, nor
          of its reasonableness. She has known him only a fortnight. She danced four dances with him
          at Meryton; she saw him one morning at his own house, and has since dined in company with
          him four times. This is not quite enough to make her understand his character."</p>
        <p>"Not as you represent it. Had she merely <hi rend="italic">dined</hi> with him, she might
          only have discovered whether he had a good appetite; but you must remember that four
          evenings have been also spent together--and four evenings may do a great deal."</p>
          <p>"Yes; these four evenings have enabled them to ascertain that they <pb n="[Vol. I] 47"/>both like Vingt-un
          better than Commerce; but with respect to any other leading characteristic, I do not
          imagine that much has been unfolded."</p>
        <p>"Well," said Charlotte, "I wish Jane success with all my heart; and if she were married
          to him to-morrow, I should think she had as good a chance of happiness, as if she were to
          be studying his character for a twelvemonth. Happiness in marriage is entirely a matter of
          chance. If the dispositions of the parties are ever so well known to each other, or ever
          so similar before-hand, it does not advance their felicity in the least. They always
          continue to grow sufficiently unlike afterwards to have their share of vexation; and it is
          better to know as little as possible of the defects of the person with whom you are to
          pass your life."</p>
          <p>"You make me laugh, Charlotte;<pb n="[Vol. I] 48"/> but it is not sound. You know it is not sound, and that
          you would never act in this way yourself."</p>
        <p>Occupied in observing Mr. Bingley's attentions to her sister, Elizabeth was far from
          suspecting that she was herself becoming an object of some interest in the eyes of his
          friend. Mr. Darcy had at first scarcely allowed her to be pretty; he had looked at her
          without admiration at the ball; and when they next met, he looked at her only to
          criticise. But no sooner had he made it clear to himself and his friends that she had
          hardly a good feature in her face, than he began to find it was rendered uncommonly
          intelligent by the beautiful expression of her dark eyes. To this discovery succeeded some
          others equally mortifying. Though he had detected with a critical eye more than one
          failure of perfect symmetry in <pb n="[Vol. I] 49"/>her form, he was forced to acknowledge her figure to be
          light and pleasing; and in spite of his asserting that her manners were not those of the
          fashionable world, he was caught by their easy playfulness. Of this she was perfectly
          unaware;--to her he was only the man who made himself agreeable no where, and who had not
          thought her handsome enough to dance with.</p>
        <p>He began to wish to know more of her, and as a step towards conversing with her himself,
          attended to her conversation with others. His doing so drew her notice. It was at Sir
          William Lucas's, where a large party were assembled.</p>
        <p>"What does Mr. Darcy mean," said she to Charlotte, "by listening to my conversation with
          Colonel Forster?"</p>
          <p>"That is a question which Mr. Darcy only can answer."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 50"/>
        <p>"But if he does it any more I shall certainly let him know that I see what he is about.
          He has a very satirical eye, and if I do not begin by being impertinent myself, I shall
          soon grow afraid of him."</p>
        <p>On his approaching them soon afterwards, though without seeming to have any intention of
          speaking, Miss Lucas defied her friend to mention such a subject to him, which immediately
          provoking Elizabeth to do it, she turned to him and said,</p>
        <p>"Did not you think, Mr. Darcy, that I expressed myself uncommonly well just now, when I
          was teazing Colonel Forster to give us a ball at Meryton?"</p>
        <p>"With great energy;--but it is a subject which always makes a lady energetic."</p>
        <p>"You are severe on us."</p>
          <p>"It will be <hi rend="italic">her</hi> turn soon to be<pb n="[Vol. I] 51"/> teazed," said Miss Lucas. "I am
          going to open the instrument, Eliza, and you know what follows."</p>
        <p>"You are a very strange creature by way of a friend!--always wanting me to play and sing
          before any body and every body!--If my vanity had taken a musical turn, you would have
          been invaluable, but as it is, I would really rather not sit down before those who must be
          in the habit of hearing the very best performers." On Miss Lucas's persevering, however,
          she added, "Very well; if it must be so, it must." And gravely glancing at Mr. Darcy,
          "There is a fine old saying, which every body here is of course familiar with--'Keep your
          breath to cool your porridge,'--and I shall keep mine to swell my song."</p>
        <p>Her performance was pleasing, though by no means capital. After a song or two, and before
          she could reply <pb n="[Vol. I] 52 [page breaks at re-]"/>to the entreaties of several that she would sing again, she was eagerly
          succeeded at the instrument by her sister Mary, who having, in consequence of being the
          only plain one in the family, worked hard for knowledge and accomplishments, was always
          impatient for display.</p>
        <p>Mary had neither genius nor taste; and though vanity had given her application, it had
          given her likewise a pedantic air and conceited manner, which would have injured a higher
          degree of excellence than she had reached. Elizabeth, easy and unaffected, had been
          listened to with much more pleasure, though not playing half so well; and Mary, at the end
          of a long concerto, was glad to purchase praise and gratitude by Scotch and Irish airs, at
          the request of her younger sisters, who with some of the Lucases and two or three <pb n="[Vol. I] 53"/>officers
          joined eagerly in dancing at one end of the room.</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy stood near them in silent indignation at such a mode of passing the evening, to
          the exclusion of all conversation, and was too much engrossed by his own thoughts to
          perceive that Sir William Lucas was his neighbour, till Sir William thus began.</p>
        <p>"What a charming amusement for young people this is, Mr. Darcy!--There is nothing like
          dancing after all.--I consider it as one of the first refinements of polished
          societies."</p>
        <p>"Certainly, Sir;--and it has the advantage also of being in vogue amongst the less
          polished societies of the world.--Every savage can dance."</p>
        <p>Sir William only smiled. "Your friend performs delightfully;" he continued after a pause,
          on seeing Bingley join the group;--"and I doubt not <pb n="[Vol. I] 54"/>that you are an adept in the science
          yourself, Mr. Darcy."</p>
        <p>"You saw me dance at Meryton, I believe, Sir."</p>
        <p>"Yes, indeed, and received no inconsiderable pleasure from the sight. Do you often dance
          at St. James's?"</p>
        <p>"Never, sir."</p>
        <p>"Do you not think it would be a proper compliment to the place?"</p>
        <p>"It is a compliment which I never pay to any place if I can avoid it."</p>
        <p>"You have a house in town, I conclude?"</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy bowed.</p>
        <p>"I had once some thoughts of fixing in town myself--for I am fond of superior society;
          but I did not feel quite certain that the air of London would agree with Lady Lucas."</p>
        <p>He paused in hopes of an answer; but his companion was not disposed to make any; and
          Elizabeth at that <pb n="[Vol. I] 55"/>instant moving towards them, he was struck with the notion of doing a
          very gallant thing, and called out to her,</p>
        <p>"My dear Miss Eliza, why are not you dancing?--Mr. Darcy, you must allow me to present
          this young lady to you as a very desirable partner.--You cannot refuse to dance, I am
          sure, when so much beauty is before you." And taking her hand, he would have given it to
          Mr. Darcy, who, though extremely surprised, was not unwilling to receive it, when she
          instantly drew back, and said with some discomposure to Sir William,</p>
        <p>"Indeed, Sir, I have not the least intention of dancing.--I entreat you not to suppose
          that I moved this way in order to beg for a partner."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy with grave propriety requested to be allowed the honour of her hand; but in
          vain. Elizabeth <pb n="[Vol. I] 56"/>was determined; nor did Sir William at all shake her purpose by his
          attempt at persuasion.</p>
        <p>"You excel so much in the dance, Miss Eliza, that it is cruel to deny me the happiness of
          seeing you; and though this gentleman dislikes the amusement in general, he can have no
          objection, I am sure, to oblige us for one half hour."</p>
        <p>"Mr. Darcy is all politeness," said Elizabeth, smiling.</p>
        <p>"He is indeed--but considering the inducement, my dear Miss Eliza, we cannot wonder at
          his complaisance; for who would object to such a partner?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth looked archly, and turned away. Her resistance had not injured her with the
          gentleman, and he was thinking of her with some complacency, when thus accosted by Miss
          Bingley,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 57"/>
        <p>"I can guess the subject of your reverie."</p>
        <p>"I should imagine not."</p>
        <p>"You are considering how insupportable it would be to pass many evenings in this
          manner--in such society; and indeed I am quite of your opinion. I was never more annoyed!
          The insipidity and yet the noise; the nothingness and yet the self-importance of all these
          people!--What would I give to hear your strictures on them!"</p>
        <p>"Your conjecture is totally wrong, I assure you. My mind was more agreeably engaged. I
          have been meditating on the very great pleasure which a pair of fine eyes in the face of a
          pretty woman can bestow."</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley immediately fixed her eyes on his face, and desired he would tell her what
          lady had the credit of inspiring such reflections. Mr. Darcy replied with great
          intrepidity,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 58"/>
        <p>"Miss Elizabeth Bennet."</p>
        <p>"Miss Elizabeth Bennet!" repeated Miss Bingley. "I am all astonishment. How long has she
          been such a favourite?--and pray when am I to wish you joy?"</p>
        <p>"That is exactly the question which I expected you to ask. A lady's imagination is very
          rapid; it jumps from admiration to love, from love to matrimony in a moment. I knew you
          would be wishing me joy."</p>
        <p>"Nay, if you are so serious about it, I shall consider the matter as absolutely settled.
          You will have a charming mother-in-law, indeed, and of course she will be always at
          Pemberley with you."</p>
        <p>He listened to her with perfect indifference, while she chose to entertain herself in
          this manner, and as his composure convinced her that all was safe, her wit flowed
          long.</p>
                        </div>
        <div type="chapter" n="7">
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 59"/>
        
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER VII.</head>
        <p> Mr. Bennet's property consisted almost entirely in an estate of two thousand a year,
          which, unfortunately for his daughters, was entailed in default of heirs male, on a
          distant relation; and their mother's fortune, though ample for her situation in life,
          could but ill supply the deficiency of his. Her father had been an attorney in Meryton,
          and had left her four thousand pounds.</p>
        <p>She had a sister married to a Mr. Philips, who had been a clerk to their father, and
          succeeded him in the business, and a brother settled in London in a respectable line of
          trade.</p>
          <p>The village of Longbourn was only <pb n="[Vol. I] 60"/>one mile from Meryton; a most convenient distance for
          the young ladies, who were usually tempted thither three or four times a week, to pay
          their duty to their aunt and to a milliner's shop just over the way. The two youngest of
          the family, Catherine and Lydia, were particularly frequent in these attentions; their
          minds were more vacant than their sisters', and when nothing better offered, a walk to
          Meryton was necessary to amuse their morning hours and furnish conversation for the
          evening; and however bare of news the country in general might be, they always contrived
          to learn some from their aunt. At present, indeed, they were well supplied both with news
          and happiness by the recent arrival of a militia regiment in the neighbourhood; it was to
          remain the whole winter, and Meryton was the head quarters.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 61"/>
        <p>Their visits to Mrs. Philips were now productive of the most interesting intelligence.
          Every day added something to their knowledge of the officers' names and connections. Their
          lodgings were not long a secret, and at length they began to know the officers themselves.
          Mr. Philips visited them all, and this opened to his nieces a source of felicity unknown
          before. They could talk of nothing but officers; and Mr. Bingley's large fortune, the
          mention of which gave animation to their mother, was worthless in their eyes when opposed
          to the regimentals of an ensign.</p>
        <p>After listening one morning to their effusions on this subject, Mr. Bennet coolly
          observed,</p>
        <p>"From all that I can collect by your manner of talking, you must be two of the silliest
          girls in the country. I have suspected it some time, but I am now convinced."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 62"/>
        <p>Catherine was disconcerted, and made no answer; but Lydia, with perfect indifference,
          continued to express her admiration of Captain Carter, and her hope of seeing him in the
          course of the day, as he was going the next morning to London.</p>
        <p>"I am astonished, my dear," said Mrs. Bennet, "that you should be so ready to think your
          own children silly. If I wished to think slightingly of any body's children, it should not
          be of my own however."</p>
        <p>"If my children are silly I must hope to be always sensible of it."</p>
        <p>"Yes--but as it happens, they are all of them very clever."</p>
        <p>"This is the only point, I flatter myself, on which we do not agree. I had hoped that our
          sentiments coincided in every particular, but I must so far differ from you as to think
          our two youngest daughters uncommonly foolish."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 63"/>
        <p>"My dear Mr. Bennet, you must not expect such girls to have the sense of their father and
          mother.--When they get to our age I dare say they will not think about officers any more
          than we do. I remember the time when I liked a red coat myself very well--and indeed so I
          do still at my heart; and if a smart young colonel, with five or six thousand a year,
          should want one of my girls, I shall not say nay to him; and I thought Colonel Forster
          looked very becoming the other night at Sir William's in his regimentals."</p>
        <p>"Mama," cried Lydia, "my aunt says that Colonel Forster and Captain Carter do not go so
          often to Miss Watson's as they did when they first came; she sees them now very often
          standing in Clarke's library."</p>
          <p>Mrs. Bennet was prevented replying by the entrance of the footman <pb n="[Vol. I] 64"/>with a note for Miss
          Bennet; it came from Netherfield, and the servant waited for an answer. Mrs. Bennet's eyes
          sparkled with pleasure, and she was eagerly calling out, while her daughter read,</p>
        <p>"Well, Jane, who is it from? what is it about? what does he say? Well, Jane, make haste
          and tell us; make haste, my love."</p>
        <p>"It is from Miss Bingley," said Jane, and then read it aloud.</p>
          <floatingText>
            <body>
                                    <opener>
                                        <salute>"My dear Friend,</salute>
                                    </opener> <p> "If you are not so compassionate as to dine to-day with Louisa and me, we shall be in
              danger of hating each other for the rest of our lives, for a whole day's tête-à-tête
              between two women can never end without a quarrel. Come as soon as you can on the receipt
              of this. My brother and the gentlemen are to dine with the officers. Yors ever,</p>
                                    <closer>"CAROLINE BINGLEY."</closer>
                                </body>
          </floatingText>
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 65"/>
        <p>"With the officers!" cried Lydia. "I wonder my aunt did not tell us of <hi rend="italic">that</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Dining out," said Mrs. Bennet, "that is very unlucky."</p>
        <p>"Can I have the carriage?" said Jane.</p>
        <p>"No, my dear, you had better go on horseback, because it seems likely to rain; and then
          you must stay all night."</p>
        <p>"That would be a good scheme," said Elizabeth, "if you were sure that they would not
          offer to send her home."</p>
        <p>"Oh! but the gentlemen will have Mr. Bingley's chaise to go to Meryton; and the Hursts
          have no horses to theirs."</p>
        <p>"I had much rather go in the coach."</p>
          <p>"But, my dear, your father cannot spare the horses, I am sure. They <pb n="[Vol. I] 66"/>are wanted in the
          farm, Mr. Bennet, are not they?"</p>
        <p>"They are wanted in the farm much oftener than I can get them."</p>
        <p>"But if you have got them to-day," said Elizabeth, "my mother's purpose will be
          answered."</p>
        <p>She did at last extort from her father an acknowledgment that the horses were engaged.
          Jane was therefore obliged to go on horseback, and her mother attended her to the door
          with many cheerful prognostics of a bad day. Her hopes were answered; Jane had not been
          gone long before it rained hard. Her sisters were uneasy for her, but her mother was
          delighted. The rain continued the whole evening without intermission; Jane certainly could
          not come back.</p>
        <p>"This was a lucky idea of mine, indeed!" said Mrs. Bennet, more than once, as if the
          credit of making it <pb n="[Vol. I] 67"/>rain were all her own. Till the next morning, however, she was not
          aware of all the felicity of her contrivance. Breakfast was scarcely over when a servant
          from Netherfield brought the following note for Elizabeth:</p>
        <floatingText>
                                <body>
                                    <opener>
                                        <salute>"My dearest Lizzy,</salute>
                                    </opener>
        <p>"I FIND myself very unwell this morning, which, I suppose, is to be imputed to my
          getting wet through yesterday. My kind friends will not hear of my returning home till I
          am better. They insist also on my seeing Mr. Jones--therefore do not be alarmed if you
          should hear of his having been to me--and excepting a sore-throat and head-ache there is
          not much the matter with me.</p>
                                    <closer>"Yours, &amp;c."</closer>
       </body>
                            </floatingText>
        <p>"Well, my dear," said Mr. Bennet, when Elizabeth had read the note aloud, "if your
          daughter should have a <pb n="[Vol. I] 68"/>dangerous fit of illness, if she should die, it would be a comfort
          to know that it was all in pursuit of Mr. Bingley, and under your orders."</p>
        <p>"Oh! I am not at all afraid of her dying. People do not die of little trifling colds. She
          will be taken good care of. As long as she stays there, it is all very well. I would go
          and see her, if I could have the carriage."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, feeling really anxious, was determined to go to her, though the carriage was
          not to be had; and as she was no horse-woman, walking was her only alternative. She
          declared her resolution.</p>
        <p>"How can you be so silly," cried her mother, "as to think of such a thing, in all this
          dirt! You will not be fit to be seen when you get there."</p>
          <p>"I shall be very fit to see Jane--which is all I want."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 69"/>
        <p>"Is this a hint to me, Lizzy," said her father, "to send for the horses?"</p>
        <p>"No, indeed. I do not wish to avoid the walk. The distance is nothing, when one has a
          motive; only three miles. I shall be back by dinner."</p>
        <p>"I admire the activity of your benevolence," observed Mary, "but every impulse of feeling
          should be guided by reason; and, in my opinion, exertion should always be in proportion to
          what is required."</p>
        <p>"We will go as far as Meryton with you," said Catherine and Lydia.--Elizabeth accepted
          their company, and the three young ladies set off together.</p>
        <p>"If we make haste," said Lydia, as they walked along, "perhaps we may see something of
          Captain Carter before he goes."</p>
          <p>In Meryton they parted; the two <pb n="[Vol. I] 70"/>youngest repaired to the lodgings of one of the officers'
          wives, and Elizabeth continued her walk alone, crossing field after field at a quick pace,
          jumping over stiles and springing over puddles with impatient activity, and finding
          herself at last within view of the house, with weary ancles, dirty stockings, and a face
          glowing with the warmth of exercise.</p>
        <p>She was shewn into the breakfast-parlour, where all but Jane were assembled, and where
          her appearance created a great deal of surprise.--That she should have walked three miles
          so early in the day, in such dirty weather, and by herself, was almost incredible to Mrs.
          Hurst and Miss Bingley; and Elizabeth was convinced that they held her in contempt for it.
          She was received, however, very politely by them; and in their brother's manners there was<pb n="[Vol. I] 71"/>
          something better than politeness; there was good humour and kindness.--Mr. Darcy said very
          little, and Mr. Hurst nothing at all. The former was divided between admiration of the
          brilliancy which exercise had given to her complexion, and doubt as to the occasion's
          justifying her coming so far alone. The latter was thinking only of his breakfast.</p>
        <p>Her enquiries after her sister were not very favourably answered. Miss Bennet had slept
          ill, and though up, was very feverish and not well enough to leave her room. Elizabeth was
          glad to be taken to her immediately; and Jane, who had only been withheld by the fear of
          giving alarm or inconvenience, from expressing in her note how much she longed for such a
          visit, was delighted at her entrance. She was not equal, however, to much conversation,
          and when Miss Bingley <pb n="[Vol. I] 72"/>left them together, could attempt little beside expressions of
          gratitude for the extraordinary kindness she was treated with. Elizabeth silently attended
          her.</p>
        <p>When breakfast was over, they were joined by the sisters; and Elizabeth began to like
          them herself, when she saw how much affection and solicitude they shewed for Jane. The
          apothecary came, and having examined his patient, said, as might be supposed, that she had
          caught a violent cold, and that they must endeavour to get the better of it; advised her
          to return to bed, and promised her some draughts. The advice was followed readily, for the
          feverish symptoms increased, and her head ached acutely. Elizabeth did not quit her room
          for a moment, nor were the other ladies often absent; the gentlemen being out, they had in
          fact nothing to do elsewhere.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 73"/>
        <p>When the clock struck three, Elizabeth felt that she must go; and very unwillingly said
          so. Miss Bingley offered her the carriage, and she only wanted a little pressing to accept
          it, when Jane testified such concern in parting with her, that Miss Bingley was obliged to
          convert the offer of the chaise into an invitation to remain at Netherfield for the
          present. Elizabeth most thankfully consented, and a servant was dispatched to Longbourn to
          acquaint the family with her stay, and bring back a supply of clothes.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
        <div type="chapter" n="8">
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 74"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER VIII.</head>
        <p> At five o'clock the two ladies retired to dress, and at half past six Elizabeth was
          summoned to dinner. To the civil enquiries which then poured in, and amongst which she had
          the pleasure of distinguishing the much superior solicitude of Mr. Bingley's, she could
          not make a very favourable answer. Jane was by no means better. The sisters, on hearing
          this, repeated three or four times how much they were grieved, how shocking it was to have
          a bad cold, and how excessively they disliked being ill themselves; and then thought no
          more of the matter: and their indifference towards Jane when not immediately before them,
          restored Elizabeth <pb n="[Vol. I] 75 [page breaks at Eli-]"/>to the enjoyment of all her original dislike.</p>
        <p>Their brother, indeed, was the only one of the party whom she could regard with any
          complacency. His anxiety for Jane was evident, and his attentions to herself most
          pleasing, and they prevented her feeling herself so much an intruder as she believed she
          was considered by the others. She had very little notice from any but him. Miss Bingley
          was engrossed by Mr. Darcy, her sister scarcely less so; and as for Mr. Hurst, by whom
          Elizabeth sat, he was an indolent man, who lived only to eat, drink, and play at cards,
          who when he found her prefer a plain dish to a ragout, had nothing to say to her.</p>
        <p>When dinner was over, she returned directly to Jane, and Miss Bingley began abusing her
          as soon as she was out of the room. Her manners <pb n="[Vol. I] 76 [page breaks at man-]"/>were pronounced to be very bad indeed, a
          mixture of pride and impertinence; she had no conversation, no style, no taste, no beauty.
          Mrs. Hurst thought the same, and added,</p>
        <p>"She has nothing, in short, to recommend her, but being an excellent walker. I shall
          never forget her appearance this morning. She really looked almost wild."</p>
        <p>"She did indeed, Louisa. I could hardly keep my countenance. Very nonsensical to come at
          all! Why must <hi rend="italic">she</hi> be scampering about the country, because her
          sister had a cold? Her hair so untidy, so blowsy!"</p>
        <p>"Yes, and her petticoat; I hope you saw her petticoat, six inches deep in mud, I am
          absolutely certain; and the gown which had been let down to hide it, not doing its
          office."</p>
          <p>"Your picture may be very exact, <pb n="[Vol. I] 77"/>Louisa," said Bingley; "but this was all lost upon me. I
          thought Miss Elizabeth Bennet looked remarkably well, when she came into the room this
          morning. Her dirty petticoat quite escaped my notice."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">You</hi> observed it, Mr. Darcy, I am sure," said Miss Bingley; "and I
          am inclined to think that you would not wish to see <hi rend="italic">your sister</hi>
          make such an exhibition."</p>
        <p>"Certainly not."</p>
        <p>"To walk three miles, or four miles, or five miles, or whatever it is, above her ancles
          in dirt, and alone, quite alone! what could she mean by it? It seems to me to shew an
          abominable sort of conceited independence, a most country town indifference to
          decorum."</p>
          <p>"It shews an affection for her sister that is very pleasing," said Bingley.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 78"/>
        <p>"I am afraid, Mr. Darcy," observed Miss Bingley, in a half whisper, "that this adventure
          has rather affected your admiration of her fine eyes."</p>
        <p>"Not at all," he replied; "they were brightened by the exercise."--A short pause followed
          this speech, and Mrs. Hurst began again.</p>
        <p>"I have an excessive regard for Jane Bennet, she is really a very sweet girl, and I wish
          with all my heart she were well settled. But with such a father and mother, and such low
          connections, I am afraid there is no chance of it."</p>
        <p>"I think I have heard you say, that their uncle is an attorney in Meryton."</p>
        <p>"Yes; and they have another, who lives somewhere near Cheapside."</p>
          <p>"That is capital," added her sister, and they both laughed heartily.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 79"/>
        <p>"If they had uncles enough to fill <hi rend="italic">all</hi> Cheapside," cried Bingley,
          "it would not make them one jot less agreeable."</p>
        <p>"But it must very materially lessen their chance of marrying men of any consideration in
          the world," replied Darcy.</p>
        <p>To this speech Bingley made no answer; but his sisters gave it their hearty assent, and
          indulged their mirth for some time at the expense of their dear friend's vulgar
          relations.</p>
        <p>With a renewal of tenderness, however, they repaired to her room on leaving the
          dining-parlour, and sat with her till summoned to coffee. She was still very poorly, and
          Elizabeth would not quit her at all, till late in the evening, when she had the comfort of
          seeing her asleep, and when it appeared to her rather right than pleasant that she should<pb n="[Vol. I] 80"/>
          go down stairs herself. On entering the drawing-room she found the whole party at loo, and
          was immediately invited to join them; but suspecting them to be playing high she declined
          it, and making her sister the excuse, said she would amuse herself for the short time she
          could stay below with a book. Mr. Hurst looked at her with astonishment.</p>
        <p>"Do you prefer reading to cards?" said he; "that is rather singular."</p>
        <p>"Miss Eliza Bennet," said Miss Bingley, "despises cards. She is a great reader and has no
          pleasure in anything else."</p>
        <p>"I deserve neither such praise nor such censure," cried Elizabeth; "I am <hi rend="italic">not</hi> a great reader, and I have pleasure in many things."</p>
        <p>"In nursing your sister I am sure you have pleasure," said Bingley; "and I hope it will
          soon be increased by seeing her quite well."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 81"/>
        <p>Elizabeth thanked him from her heart, and then walked towards a table where a few books
          were lying. He immediately offered to fetch her others; all that his library afforded.</p>
        <p>"And I wish my collection were larger for your benefit and my own credit; but I am an
          idle fellow, and though I have not many, I have more than I ever look into."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth assured him that she could suit herself perfectly with those in the room.</p>
        <p>"I am astonished," said Miss Bingley, "that my father should have left so small a
          collection of books.--What a delightful library you have at Pemberley, Mr. Darcy!"</p>
        <p>"It ought to be good," he replied, "it has been the work of many generations."</p>
          <p>"And then you have added so much to it yourself, you are always buying books."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 82"/>
        <p>"I cannot comprehend the neglect of a family library in such days as these."</p>
        <p>"Neglect! I am sure you neglect nothing that can add to the beauties of that noble place.
          Charles, when you build <hi rend="italic">your</hi> house, I wish it may be half as
          delightful as Pemberley."</p>
        <p>"I wish it may."</p>
        <p>"But I would really advise you to make your purchase in that neighbourhood, and take
          Pemberley for a kind of model. There is not a finer county in England than
          Derbyshire."</p>
        <p>"With all my heart; I will buy Pemberley itself if Darcy will sell it."</p>
        <p>"I am talking of possibilities, Charles."</p>
        <p>"Upon my word, Caroline, I should think it more possible to get Pemberley by purchase
          than by imitation."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 83"/>
        <p>Elizabeth was so much caught by what passed, as to leave her very little attention for
          her book; and soon laying it wholly aside, she drew near the card-table, and stationed
          herself between Mr. Bingley and his eldest sister, to observe the game.</p>
        <p>"Is Miss Darcy much grown since the spring?" said Miss Bingley; "will she be as tall as I
          am?"</p>
        <p>"I think she will. She is now about Miss Elizabeth Bennet's height, or rather
          taller."</p>
        <p>"How I long to see her again! I never met with anybody who delighted me so much. Such a
          countenance, such manners! and so extremely accomplished for her age! Her performance on
          the piano-forte is exquisite."</p>
        <p>"It is amazing to me," said Bingley, "how young ladies can have patience to be so very
          accomplished, as they all are."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 84"/>
        <p>"All young ladies accomplished! My dear Charles, what do you mean?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, all of them, I think. They all paint tables, cover skreens and net purses. I
          scarcely know any one who cannot do all this, and I am sure I never heard a young lady
          spoken of for the first time, without being informed that she was very accomplished."</p>
        <p>"Your list of the common extent of accomplishments," said Darcy, "has too much truth. The
          word is applied to many a woman who deserves it no otherwise than by netting a purse, or
          covering a skreen. But I am very far from agreeing with you in your estimation of ladies
          in general. I cannot boast of knowing more than half a dozen, in the whole range of my
          acquaintance, that are really accomplished."</p>
          <p>"Nor I, I am sure," said Miss Bingley.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 85"/>
        <p>"Then," observed Elizabeth, "you must comprehend a great deal in your idea of an
          accomplished woman."</p>
        <p>"Yes; I do comprehend a great deal in it."</p>
        <p>"Oh! certainly," cried his faithful assistant, "no one can be really esteemed
          accomplished, who does not greatly surpass what is usually met with. A woman must have a
          thorough knowledge of music, singing, drawing, dancing, and the modern languages, to
          deserve the word; and besides all this, she must possess a certain something in her air
          and manner of walking, the tone of her voice, her address and expressions, or the word
          will be but half deserved."</p>
        <p>"All this she must possess," added Darcy, "and to all this she must yet add something
          more substantial, in the improvement of her mind by extensive reading."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 86"/>
        <p>"I am no longer surprised at your knowing <hi rend="italic">only</hi> six accomplished
          women. I rather wonder now at your knowing <hi rend="italic">any</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Are you so severe upon your own sex, as to doubt the possibility of all this?"</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">I</hi> never saw such a woman. <hi rend="italic">I</hi> never saw such
          capacity, and taste, and application, and elegance, as you describe, united."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley both cried out against the injustice of her implied doubt,
          and were both protesting that they knew many women who answered this description, when Mr.
          Hurst called them to order, with bitter complaints of their inattention to what was going
          forward. As all conversation was thereby at an end, Elizabeth soon afterwards left the
          room.</p>
          <p>"Eliza Bennet," said Miss Bingley, <pb n="[Vol. I] 87"/>when the door was closed on her, "is one of those
          young ladies who seek to recommend themselves to the other sex, by undervaluing their own;
          and with many men, I dare say, it succeeds. But, in my opinion, it is a paltry device, a
          very mean art."</p>
        <p>"Undoubtedly," replied Darcy, to whom this remark was chiefly addressed, "there is
          meanness in <hi rend="italic">all</hi> the arts which ladies sometimes condescend to
          employ for captivation. Whatever bears affinity to cunning is despicable."</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley was not so entirely satisfied with this reply as to continue the
          subject.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth joined them again only to say that her sister was worse, and that she could not
          leave her. Bingley urged Mr. Jones's being sent for immediately; while his sisters,
          convinced that no country advice could be of <pb n="[Vol. I] 88"/>any service, recommended an express to town
          for one of the most eminent physicians. This, she would not hear of; but she was not so
          unwilling to comply with their brother's proposal; and it was settled that Mr. Jones
          should be sent for early in the morning, if Miss Bennet were not decidedly better. Bingley
          was quite uncomfortable; his sisters declared that they were miserable. They solaced their
          wretchedness, however, by duets after supper, while he could find no better relief to his
          feelings than by giving his housekeeper directions that every possible attention might be
          paid to the sick lady and her sister.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 89"/>
 <div type="chapter" n="9">
   <head type="sub">CHAPTER IX.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth passed the chief of the night in her sister's room, and in the morning had the
          pleasure of being able to send a tolerable answer to the enquiries which she very early
          received from Mr. Bingley by a housemaid, and some time afterwards from the two elegant
          ladies who waited on his sisters. In spite of this amendment, however, she requested to
          have a note sent to Longbourn, desiring her mother to visit Jane, and form her own
          judgment of her situation. The note was immediately dispatched, and its contents as
          quickly complied with. Mrs. Bennet, accompanied by her two youngest girls, reached
          Netherfield soon after the family breakfast.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 90"/>
        <p>Had she found Jane in any apparent danger, Mrs. Bennet would have been very miserable;
          but being satisfied on seeing her that her illness was not alarming, she had no wish of
          her recovering immediately, as her restoration to health would probably remove her from
          Netherfield. She would not listen therefore to her daughter's proposal of being carried
          home; neither did the apothecary, who arrived about the same time, think it at all
          advisable. After sitting a little while with Jane, on Miss Bingley's appearance and
          invitation, the mother and three daughters all attended her into the breakfast parlour.
          Bingley met them with hopes that Mrs. Bennet had not found Miss Bennet worse than she
          expected.</p>
        <p>"Indeed I have, Sir," was her answer. "She is a great deal too ill to be moved. Mr. Jones
          says we must <pb n="[Vol. I] 91"/>not think of moving her. We must trespass a little longer on your
          kindness."</p>
        <p>"Removed!" cried Bingley. "It must not be thought of. My sister, I am sure, will not hear
          of her removal."</p>
        <p>"You may depend upon it, Madam," said Miss Bingley, with cold civility, "that Miss Bennet
          shall receive every possible attention while she remains with us."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet was profuse in her acknowledgments.</p>
        <p>"I am sure," she added, "if it was not for such good friends I do not know what would
          become of her, for she is very ill indeed, and suffers a vast deal, though with the
          greatest patience in the world, which is always the way with her, for she has, without
          exception, the sweetest temper I ever met with. I often tell my <pb n="[Vol. I] 92"/>other girls they are
          nothing to <hi rend="italic">her</hi>. You have a sweet room here, Mr. Bingley, and a
          charming prospect over that gravel walk. I do not know a place in the country that is
          equal to Netherfield. You will not think of quitting it in a hurry I hope, though you have
          but a short lease."</p>
        <p>"Whatever I do is done in a hurry," replied he; "and therefore if I should resolve to
          quit Netherfield, I should probably be off in five minutes. At present, however, I
          consider myself as quite fixed here."</p>
        <p>"That is exactly what I should have supposed of you," said Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"You begin to comprehend me, do you?" cried he, turning towards her.</p>
        <p>"Oh! yes--I understand you perfectly."</p>
   <p>"I wish I might take this for a <pb n="[Vol. I] 93"/>compliment; but to be so easily seen through I am afraid
          is pitiful."</p>
        <p>"That is as it happens. It does not necessarily follow that a deep, intricate character
          is more or less estimable than such a one as yours."</p>
        <p>"Lizzy," cried her mother, "remember where you are, and do not run on in the wild manner
          that you are suffered to do at home."</p>
        <p>"I did not know before," continued Bingley immediately, "that you were a studier of
          character. It must be an amusing study."</p>
        <p>"Yes; but intricate characters are the <hi rend="italic">most</hi> amusing. They have at
          least that advantage."</p>
        <p>"The country," said Darcy, "can in general supply but few subjects for such a study. In a
          country neighbourhood you move in a very confined and unvarying society."</p>
   <p>"But people themselves alter so <pb n="[Vol. I] 94"/>much, that there is something new to be observed in them
          for ever."</p>
        <p>"Yes, indeed," cried Mrs. Bennet, offended by his manner of mentioning a country
          neighbourhood. "I assure you there is quite as much of <hi rend="italic">that</hi> going
          on in the country as in town."</p>
        <p>Every body was surprised; and Darcy, after looking at her for a moment, turned silently
          away. Mrs. Bennet, who fancied she had gained a complete victory over him, continued her
          triumph.</p>
        <p>"I cannot see that London has any great advantage over the country for my part, except
          the shops and public places. The country is a vast deal pleasanter, is not it, Mr.
          Bingley?"</p>
        <p>"When I am in the country," he replied, "I never wish to leave it; and when I am in town
          it is pretty much the same. They have each <pb n="[Vol. I] 95"/>their advantages, and I can be equally happy in
          either."</p>
        <p>"Aye--that is because you have the right disposition. But that gentleman," looking at
          Darcy, "seemed to think the country was nothing at all."</p>
        <p>"Indeed, Mama, you are mistaken," said Elizabeth, blushing for her mother. "You quite
          mistook Mr. Darcy. He only meant that there were not such a variety of people to be met
          with in the country as in town, which you must acknowledge to be true."</p>
        <p>"Certainly, my dear, nobody said there were; but as to not meeting with many people in
          this neighbourhood, I believe there are few neighbourhoods larger. I know we dine with
          four and twenty families."</p>
        <p>Nothing but concern for Elizabeth could enable Bingley to keep his countenance. His
          sister was less delicate,<pb n="[Vol. I] 96 [de-]"/> and directed her eye towards Mr. Darcy with a very expressive
          smile. Elizabeth, for the sake of saying something that might turn her mother's thoughts,
          now asked her if Charlotte Lucas had been at Longbourn since <hi rend="italic">her</hi>
          coming away.</p>
        <p>"Yes, she called yesterday with her father. What an agreeable man Sir William is, Mr.
          Bingley--is not he? so much the man of fashion! so genteel and so easy!--He has always
          something to say to every body.--<hi rend="italic">that</hi> is my idea of good breeding;
          and those persons who fancy themselves very important and never open their mouths, quite
          mistake the matter."</p>
        <p>"Did Charlotte dine with you?"</p>
        <p>"No, she would go home. I fancy she was wanted about the mince pies. For my part, Mr.
          Bingley, <hi rend="italic">I</hi> always keep servants that can do their own <pb n="[Vol. I] 97"/>work; <hi rend="italic">my</hi> daughters are brought up differently. But every body is to judge
          for themselves, and the Lucases are very good sort of girls, I assure you. It is a pity
          they are not handsome! Not that <hi rend="italic">I</hi> think Charlotte so <hi rend="italic">very</hi> plain--but then she is our particular friend."</p>
        <p>"She seems a very pleasant young woman," said Bingley.</p>
        <p>"Oh! dear, yes;--but you must own she is very plain. Lady Lucas herself has often said
          so, and envied me Jane's beauty. I do not like to boast of my own child, but to be sure,
          Jane--one does not often see any body better looking. It is what every body says. I do not
          trust my own partiality. When she was only fifteen, there was a gentleman at my brother
          Gardiner's in town, so much in love with her, that my sister-in-law was sure he would make
          her an offer before we <pb n="[Vol. I] 98"/>came away. But however he did not. Perhaps he thought her too
          young. However, he wrote some verses on her, and very pretty they were."</p>
        <p>"And so ended his affection," said Elizabeth impatiently. "There has been many a one, I
          fancy, overcome in the same way. I wonder who first discovered the efficacy of poetry in
          driving away love!"</p>
        <p>"I have been used to consider poetry as the <hi rend="italic">food</hi> of love," said
          Darcy.</p>
        <p>"Of a fine, stout, healthy love it may. Every thing nourishes what is strong already. But
          if it be only a slight, thin sort of inclination, I am convinced that one good sonnet will
          starve it entirely away."</p>
        <p>Darcy only smiled; and the general pause which ensued made Elizabeth tremble lest her
          mother should be exposing herself again. She longed to speak, but could think of nothing<pb n="[Vol. I] 99"/>
          to say; and after a short silence Mrs. Bennet began repeating her thanks to Mr. Bingley
          for his kindness to Jane, with an apology for troubling him also with Lizzy. Mr. Bingley
          was unaffectedly civil in his answer, and forced his younger sister to be civil also, and
          say what the occasion required. She performed her part indeed without much graciousness,
          but Mrs. Bennet was satisfied, and soon afterwards ordered her carriage. Upon this signal,
          the youngest of her daughters put herself forward. The two girls had been whispering to
          each other during the whole visit, and the result of it was, that the youngest should tax
          Mr. Bingley with having promised on his first coming into the country to give a ball at
          Netherfield.</p>
        <p>Lydia was a stout, well-grown girl of fifteen, with a fine complexion and good-humoured
          countenance; a favourite <pb n="[Vol. I] 100 [fa-]"/>with her mother, whose affection had brought her into public at
          an early age. She had high animal spirits, and a sort of natural self-consequence, which
          the attentions of the officers, to whom her uncle's good dinners and her own easy manners
          recommended her, had increased into assurance. She was very equal therefore to address Mr.
          Bingley on the subject of the ball, and abruptly reminded him of his promise; adding, that
          it would be the most shameful thing in the world if he did not keep it. His answer to this
          sudden attack was delightful to their mother's ear.</p>
        <p>"I am perfectly ready, I assure you, to keep my engagement; and when your sister is
          recovered, you shall if you please name the very day of the ball. But you would not wish
          to be dancing while she is ill."</p>
   <p>Lydia declared herself satisfied. <pb n="[Vol. I] 101"/>"Oh! yes--it would be much better to wait till Jane was
          well, and by that time most likely Captain Carter would be at Meryton again. And when you
          have given <hi rend="italic">your</hi> ball," she added, "I shall insist on their giving
          one also. I shall tell Colonel Forster it will be quite a shame if he does not."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet and her daughters then departed, and Elizabeth returned instantly to Jane,
          leaving her own and her relations' behaviour to the remarks of the two ladies and Mr.
          Darcy; the latter of whom, however, could not be prevailed on to join in their censure of
            <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, in spite of all Miss Bingley's witticisms on <hi rend="italic">fine eyes</hi>.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 102"/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="10">
          
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER X.</head>
        <p> The day passed much as the day before had done. Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley had spent
          some hours of the morning with the invalid, who continued, though slowly, to mend; and in
          the evening Elizabeth joined their party in the drawing-room. The loo table, however, did
          not appear. Mr. Darcy was writing, and Miss Bingley, seated near him, was watching the
          progress of his letter, and repeatedly calling off his attention by messages to his
          sister. Mr. Hurst and Mr. Bingley were at piquet, and Mrs. Hurst was observing their
          game.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth took up some needlework, and was sufficiently amused in attending to what
          passed between <pb n="[Vol. I] 103"/>Darcy and his companion. The perpetual commendations of the lady either on
          his hand-writing, or on the evenness of his lines, or on the length of his letter, with
          the perfect unconcern with which her praises were received, formed a curious dialogue, and
          was exactly in unison with her opinion of each.</p>
        <p>"How delighted Miss Darcy will be to receive such a letter!"</p>
        <p>He made no answer.</p>
        <p>"You write uncommonly fast."</p>
        <p>"You are mistaken. I write rather slowly."</p>
        <p>"How many letters you must have occasion to write in the course of the year! Letters of
          business too! How odious I should think them!"</p>
        <p>"It is fortunate, then, that they fall to my lot instead of to yours."</p>
          <p>"Pray tell your sister that I long to see her."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 104"/>
        <p>"I have already told her so once, by your desire."</p>
        <p>"I am afraid you do not like your pen. Let me mend it for you. I mend pens remarkably
          well."</p>
        <p>"Thank you--but I always mend my own."</p>
        <p>"How can you contrive to write so even?"</p>
        <p>He was silent.</p>
        <p>"Tell your sister I am delighted to hear of her improvement on the harp, and pray let her
          know that I am quite in raptures with her beautiful little design for a table, and I think
          it infinitely superior to Miss Grantley's."</p>
        <p>"Will you give me leave to defer your raptures till I write again?--At present I have not
          room to do them justice."</p>
          <p>"Oh! it is of no consequence. I shall see her in January. But do you <pb n="[Vol. I] 105"/>always write such
          charming long letters to her, Mr. Darcy?"</p>
        <p>"They are generally long; but whether always charming, it is not for me to
          determine."</p>
        <p>"It is a rule with me, that a person who can write a long letter, with ease, cannot write
          ill."</p>
        <p>"That will not do for a compliment to Darcy, Caroline," cried her brother--"because he
          does <hi rend="italic">not</hi> write with ease. He studies too much for words of four
          syllables.--Do not you, Darcy?"</p>
        <p>"My style of writing is very different from yours."</p>
        <p>"Oh!" cried Miss Bingley, "Charles writes in the most careless way imaginable. He leaves
          out half his words, and blots the rest."</p>
        <p>"My ideas flow so rapidly that I have not time to express them--by which means my letters
          sometimes <pb n="[Vol. I] 106"/>convey no ideas at all to my correspondents."</p>
        <p>"Your humility, Mr. Bingley," said Elizabeth, "must disarm reproof."</p>
        <p>"Nothing is more deceitful," said Darcy, "than the appearance of humility. It is often
          only carelessness of opinion, and sometimes an indirect boast."</p>
        <p>"And which of the two do you call <hi rend="italic">my</hi> little recent piece of
          modesty?"</p>
        <p>"The indirect boast;--for you are really proud of your defects in writing, because you
          consider them as proceeding from a rapidity of thought and carelessness of execution,
          which if not estimable, you think at least highly interesting. The power of doing any
          thing with quickness is always much prized by the possessor, and often without any
          attention to the imperfection of the performance. When <pb n="[Vol. I] 107"/>you told Mrs. Bennet this morning
          that if you ever resolved on quitting Netherfield you should be gone in five minutes, you
          meant it to be a sort of panegyric, of compliment to yourself--and yet what is there so
          very laudable in a precipitance which must leave very necessary business undone, and can
          be of no real advantage to yourself or any one else?"</p>
        <p>"Nay," cried Bingley, "this is too much, to remember at night all the foolish things that
          were said in the morning. And yet, upon my honour, I believed what I said of myself to be
          true, and I believe it at this moment. At least, therefore, I did not assume the character
          of needless precipitance merely to shew off before the ladies."</p>
        <p>"I dare say you believed it; but I am by no means convinced that you would be gone with
          such celerity. Your conduct would be quite as dependant <pb n="[Vol. I] 108 [de-]"/>on chance as that of any man I
          know; and if, as you were mounting your horse, a friend were to say, 'Bingley, you had
          better stay till next week,' you would probably do it, you would probably not go--and, at
          another word, might stay a month."</p>
        <p>"You have only proved by this," cried Elizabeth, "that Mr. Bingley did not do justice to
          his own disposition. You have shewn him off now much more than he did himself."</p>
        <p>"I am exceedingly gratified," said Bingley, "by your converting what my friend says into
          a compliment on the sweetness of my temper. But I am afraid you are giving it a turn which
          that gentleman did by no means intend; for he would certainly think the better of me, if
          under such a circumstance I were to give a flat denial, and ride off as fast as I
          could."</p>
          <p>"Would Mr. Darcy then consider <pb n="[Vol. I] 109"/>the rashness of your original intention as atoned for by
          your obstinacy in adhering to it?"</p>
        <p>"Upon my word I cannot exactly explain the matter, Darcy must speak for himself."</p>
        <p>"You expect me to account for opinions which you chuse to call mine, but which I have
          never acknowledged. Allowing the case, however, to stand according to your representation,
          you must remember, Miss Bennet, that the friend who is supposed to desire his return to
          the house, and the delay of his plan, has merely desired it, asked it without offering one
          argument in favour of its propriety."</p>
        <p>"To yield readily--easily--to the <hi rend="italic">persuasion</hi> of a friend is no
          merit with you."</p>
          <p>"To yield without conviction is no compliment to the understanding of either."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 110"/>
        <p>"You appear to me, Mr. Darcy, to allow nothing for the influence of friendship and
          affection. A regard for the requester would often make one readily yield to a request,
          without waiting for arguments to reason one into it. I am not particularly speaking of
          such a case as you have supposed about Mr. Bingley. We may as well wait, perhaps, till the
          circumstance occurs, before we discuss the discretion of his behaviour thereupon. But in
          general and ordinary cases between friend and friend, where one of them is desired by the
          other to change a resolution of no very great moment, should you think ill of that person
          for complying with the desire, without waiting to be argued into it?"</p>
        <p>"Will it not be advisable, before we proceed on this subject, to arrange with rather more
          precision the degree of importance which is to appertain <pb n="[Vol. I] 111 [ap-]"/>to this request, as well as the
          degree of intimacy subsisting between the parties?"</p>
        <p>"By all means," cried Bingley; "let us hear all the particulars, not forgetting their
          comparative height and size; for that will have more weight in the argument, Miss Bennet,
          than you may be aware of. I assure you that if Darcy were not such a great tall fellow, in
          comparison with myself, I should not pay him half so much deference. I declare I do not
          know a more aweful object than Darcy, on particular occasions, and in particular places;
          at his own house especially, and of a Sunday evening when he has nothing to do."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy smiled; but Elizabeth thought she could perceive that he was rather offended;
          and therefore checked her laugh. Miss Bingley warmly resented the indignity he had<pb n="[Vol. I] 112"/>
          received, in an expostulation with her brother for talking such nonsense.</p>
        <p>"I see your design, Bingley," said his friend.--"You dislike an argument, and want to
          silence this."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps I do. Arguments are too much like disputes. If you and Miss Bennet will defer
          yours till I am out of the room, I shall be very thankful; and then you may say whatever
          you like of me."</p>
        <p>"What you ask," said Elizabeth, "is no sacrifice on my side; and Mr. Darcy had much
          better finish his letter."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy took her advice, and did finish his letter.</p>
        <p>When that business was over, he applied to Miss Bingley and Elizabeth for the indulgence
          of some music. Miss Bingley moved with alacrity to the piano-forte, and after a polite
          request <pb n="[Vol. I] 113 [re-]"/>that Elizabeth would lead the way, which the other as politely and more earnestly
          negatived, she seated herself.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Hurst sang with her sister, and while they were thus employed Elizabeth could not
          help observing as she turned over some music books that lay on the instrument, how
          frequently Mr. Darcy's eyes were fixed on her. She hardly knew how to suppose that she
          could be an object of admiration to so great a man; and yet that he should look at her
          because he disliked her, was still more strange. She could only imagine however at last,
          that she drew his notice because there was a something about her more wrong and
          reprehensible, according to his ideas of right, than in any other person present. The
          supposition did not pain her. She liked him too little to care for his approbation.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 114"/>
        <p>After playing some Italian songs, Miss Bingley varied the charm by a lively Scotch air;
          and soon afterwards Mr. Darcy, drawing near Elizabeth, said to her--</p>
        <p>"Do not you feel a great inclination, Miss Bennet, to seize such an opportunity of
          dancing a reel?"</p>
        <p>She smiled, but made no answer. He repeated the question, with some surprise at her
          silence.</p>
        <p>"Oh!" said she, "I heard you before; but I could not immediately determine what to say in
          reply. You wanted me, I know, to say 'Yes,' that you might have the pleasure of despising
          my taste; but I always delight in overthrowing those kind of schemes, and cheating a
          person of their premeditated contempt. I have therefore made up my mind to tell you, that
          I do not want to dance a reel at all--and now despise me if you dare."</p>
          <p>"Indeed I do not dare."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 115"/>
        <p>Elizabeth, having rather expected to affront him, was amazed at his gallantry; but there
          was a mixture of sweetness and archness in her manner which made it difficult for her to
          affront anybody; and Darcy had never been so bewitched by any woman as he was by her. He
          really believed, that were it not for the inferiority of her connections, he should be in
          some danger.</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley saw, or suspected enough to be jealous; and her great anxiety for the
          recovery of her dear friend Jane, received some assistance from her desire of getting rid
          of Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>She often tried to provoke Darcy into disliking her guest, by talking of their supposed
          marriage, and planning his happiness in such an alliance.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 116"/>
        <p>"I hope," said she, as they were walking together in the shrubbery the next day, "you
          will give your mother-in-law a few hints, when this desirable event takes place, as to the
          advantage of holding her tongue; and if you can compass it, do cure the younger girls of
          running after the officers.--And, if I may mention so delicate a subject, endeavour to
          check that little something, bordering on conceit and impertinence, which your lady
          possesses."</p>
        <p>"Have you any thing else to propose for my domestic felicity?"</p>
        <p>"Oh! yes.--Do let the portraits of your uncle and aunt Philips be placed in the gallery
          at Pemberley. Put them next to your great uncle the judge. They are in the same
          profession, you know; only in different lines. As for your Elizabeth's picture, you must
          not attempt to have <pb n="[Vol. I] 117"/>it taken, for what painter could do justice to those beautiful
          eyes?"</p>
        <p>"It would not be easy, indeed, to catch their expression, but their colour and shape, and
          the eye-lashes, so remarkably fine, might be copied."</p>
        <p>At that moment they were met from another walk, by Mrs. Hurst and Elizabeth herself.</p>
        <p>"I did not know that you intended to walk," said Miss Bingley, in some confusion, lest
          they had been overheard.</p>
        <p>"You used us abominably ill," answered Mrs. Hurst, "in running away without telling us
          that you were coming out."</p>
        <p>Then taking the disengaged arm of Mr. Darcy, she left Elizabeth to walk by herself. The
          path just admitted three. Mr. Darcy felt their rudeness and immediately said,--</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 118"/>
        <p>"This walk is not wide enough for our party. We had better go into the avenue."</p>
        <p>But Elizabeth, who had not the least inclination to remain with them, laughingly
          answered,</p>
        <p>"No, no; stay where you are.--You are charmingly group'd, and appear to uncommon
          advantage. The picturesque would be spoilt by admitting a fourth. Good bye."</p>
        <p>She then ran gaily off, rejoicing as she rambled about, in the hope of being at home
          again in a day or two. Jane was already so much recovered as to intend leaving her room
          for a couple of hours that evening.</p>
                        </div>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 119"/>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="11">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XI.</head>
        <p> When the ladies removed after dinner, Elizabeth ran up to her sister, and seeing her
          well guarded from cold, attended her into the drawing-room; where she was welcomed by her
          two friends with many professions of pleasure; and Elizabeth had never seen them so
          agreeable as they were during the hour which passed before the gentlemen appeared. Their
          powers of conversation were considerable. They could describe an entertainment with
          accuracy, relate an anecdote with humour, and laugh at their acquaintance with spirit.</p>
        <p>But when the gentlemen entered, Jane was no longer the first object. Miss Bingley's eyes
          were instantly <pb n="[Vol. I] 120"/>turned towards Darcy, and she had something to say to him before he had
          advanced many steps. He addressed himself directly to Miss Bennet, with a polite
          congratulation; Mr. Hurst also made her a slight bow, and said he was "very glad;" but
          diffuseness and warmth remained for Bingley's salutation. He was full of joy and
          attention. The first half hour was spent in piling up the fire, lest she should suffer
          from the change of room; and she removed at his desire to the other side of the
          fire-place, that she might be farther from the door. He then sat down by her, and talked
          scarcely to any one else. Elizabeth, at work in the opposite corner, saw it all with great
          delight.</p>
        <p>When tea was over, Mr. Hurst reminded his sister-in-law of the card-table--but in vain.
          She had obtained private intelligence that Mr. Darcy <pb n="[Vol. I] 121"/>did not wish for cards; and Mr. Hurst
          soon found even his open petition rejected. She assured him that no one intended to play,
          and the silence of the whole party on the subject, seemed to justify her. Mr. Hurst had
          therefore nothing to do, but to stretch himself on one of the sophas and go to sleep.
          Darcy took up a book; Miss Bingley did the same; and Mrs. Hurst, principally occupied in
          playing with her bracelets and rings, joined now and then in her brother's conversation
          with Miss Bennet.</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley's attention was quite as much engaged in watching Mr. Darcy's progress
          through <hi rend="italic">his</hi> book, as in reading her own; and she was perpetually
          either making some inquiry, or looking at his page. She could not win him, however, to any
          conversation; he merely answered <pb n="[Vol. I] 122"/>her question, and read on. At length, quite exhausted by
          the attempt to be amused with her own book, which she had only chosen because it was the
          second volume of his, she gave a great yawn and said, "How pleasant it is to spend an
          evening in this way! I declare after all there is no enjoyment like reading! How much
          sooner one tires of any thing than of a book!--When I have a house of my own, I shall be
          miserable if I have not an excellent library."</p>
        <p>No one made any reply. She then yawned again, threw aside her book, and cast her eyes
          round the room in quest of some amusement; when hearing her brother mentioning a ball to
          Miss Bennet, she turned suddenly towards him and said,</p>
        <p>"By the bye, Charles, are you really serious in meditating a dance at Netherfield?--I
          would advise you, <pb n="[Vol. I] 123"/>before you determine on it, to consult the wishes of the present party;
          I am much mistaken if there are not some among us to whom a ball would be rather a
          punishment than a pleasure."</p>
        <p>"If you mean Darcy," cried her brother, "he may go to bed, if he chuses, before it
          begins--but as for the ball, it is quite a settled thing; and as soon as Nicholls has made
          white soup enough I shall send round my cards."</p>
        <p>"I should like balls infinitely better," she replied, "if they were carried on in a
          different manner; but there is something insufferably tedious in the usual process of such
          a meeting. It would surely be much more rational if conversation instead of dancing made
          the order of the day."</p>
        <p>"Much more rational, my dear Caroline, I dare say, but it would not be near so much like
          a ball."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 124"/>
        <p>Miss Bingley made no answer; and soon afterwards got up and walked about the room. Her
          figure was elegant, and she walked well;--but Darcy, at whom it was all aimed, was still
          inflexibly studious. In the desperation of her feelings she resolved on one effort more;
          and, turning to Elizabeth, said,</p>
        <p>"Miss Eliza Bennet, let me persuade you to follow my example, and take a turn about the
          room.--I assure you it is very refreshing after sitting so long in one attitude."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was surprised, but agreed to it immediately. Miss Bingley succeeded no less in
          the real object of her civility; Mr. Darcy looked up. He was as much awake to the novelty
          of attention in that quarter as Elizabeth herself could be, and unconsciously closed his
          book. He was directly invited to join their party, but <pb n="[Vol. I] 125"/>he declined it, observing, that he
          could imagine but two motives for their chusing to walk up and down the room together,
          with either of which motives his joining them would interfere. "What could he mean? she
          was dying to know what could be his meaning"--and asked Elizabeth whether she could at all
          understand him?</p>
        <p>"Not at all," was her answer; "but depend upon it, he means to be severe on us, and our
          surest way of disappointing him, will be to ask nothing about it."</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley, however, was incapable of disappointing Mr. Darcy in any thing, and
          persevered therefore in requiring an explanation of his two motives.</p>
        <p>"I have not the smallest objection to explaining them," said he, as soon as she allowed
          him to speak. "You <pb n="[Vol. I] 126"/>either chuse this method of passing the evening because you are in each
          other's confidence and have secret affairs to discuss, or because you are conscious that
          your figures appear to the greatest advantage in walking;--if the first, I should be
          completely in your way;--and if the second, I can admire you much better as I sit by the
          fire."</p>
        <p>"Oh! shocking!" cried Miss Bingley. "I never heard any thing so abominable. How shall we
          punish him for such a speech?"</p>
        <p>"Nothing so easy, if you have but the inclination," said Elizabeth. "We can all plague
          and punish one another. Teaze him--laugh at him.--Intimate as you are, you must know how
          it is to be done."</p>
        <p>"But upon my honour I do <hi rend="italic">not</hi>. I do assure you that my intimacy has
          not yet taught me <hi rend="italic">that</hi>. Teaze calmness <pb n="[Vol. I] 127 [calm-]"/>of temper and presence of
          mind! No, no--I feel he may defy us there. And as to laughter, we will not expose
          ourselves, if you please, by attempting to laugh without a subject. Mr. Darcy may hug
          himself."</p>
        <p>"Mr. Darcy is not to be laughed at!" cried Elizabeth. "That is an uncommon advantage, and
          uncommon I hope it will continue, for it would be a great loss to <hi rend="italic">me</hi> to have many such acquaintance. I dearly love a laugh."</p>
        <p>"Miss Bingley," said he, "has given me credit for more than can be. The wisest and the
          best of men, nay, the wisest and best of their actions, may be rendered ridiculous by a
          person whose first object in life is a joke."</p>
        <p>"Certainly," replied Elizabeth--"there are such people, but I hope I am not one of <hi rend="italic">them</hi>. I hope I never <pb n="[Vol. I] 128"/>ridicule what is wise or good. Follies and
          nonsense, whims and inconsistencies <hi rend="italic">do</hi> divert me, I own, and I
          laugh at them whenever I can.--But these, I suppose, are precisely what you are
          without."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps that is not possible for any one. But it has been the study of my life to avoid
          those weaknesses which often expose a strong understanding to ridicule."</p>
        <p>"Such as vanity and pride."</p>
        <p>"Yes, vanity is a weakness indeed. But pride--where there is a real superiority of mind,
          pride will be always under good regulation."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth turned away to hide a smile.</p>
        <p>"Your examination of Mr. Darcy is over, I presume," said Miss Bingley;--"and pray what is
          the result?"</p>
        <p>"I am perfectly convinced by it that Mr. Darcy has no defect. He owns it himself without
          disguise."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 129"/>
        <p>"No"--said Darcy, "I have made no such pretension. I have faults enough, but they are
          not, I hope, of understanding. My temper I dare not vouch for.--It is I believe too little
          yielding--certainly too little for the convenience of the world. I cannot forget the
          follies and vices of others so soon as I ought, nor their offences against myself. My
          feelings are not puffed about with every attempt to move them. My temper would perhaps be
          called resentful.--My good opinion once lost is lost for ever."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">that</hi> is a failing indeed!"--cried Elizabeth. "Implacable
          resentment <hi rend="italic">is</hi> a shade in a character. But you have chosen your
          fault well.--I really cannot <hi rend="italic">laugh</hi> at it. You are safe from
          me."</p>
          <p>"There is, I believe, in every disposition a tendency to some particular <pb n="[Vol. I] 131"/>evil, a natural
          defect, which not even the best education can overcome."</p>
        <p>"And <hi rend="italic">your</hi> defect is a propensity to hate every body."</p>
        <p>"And yours," he replied with a smile, "is wilfully to misunderstand them."</p>
        <p>"Do let us have a little music,"--cried Miss Bingley, tired of a conversation in which
          she had no share.--"Louisa, you will not mind my waking Mr. Hurst."</p>
        <p>Her sister made not the smallest objection, and the piano-forte was opened, and Darcy,
          after a few moments recollection, was not sorry for it. He began to feel the danger of
          paying Elizabeth too much attention.</p>
                        </div>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 132"/>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="12">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XII.</head>
        <p> In consequence of an agreement between the sisters, Elizabeth wrote the next morning to
          her mother, to beg that the carriage might be sent for them in the course of the day. But
          Mrs. Bennet, who had calculated on her daughters remaining at Netherfield till the
          following Tuesday, which would exactly finish Jane's week, could not bring herself to
          receive them with pleasure before. Her answer, therefore, was not propitious, at least not
          to Elizabeth's wishes, for she was impatient to get home. Mrs. Bennet sent them word that
          they could not possibly have the carriage before Tuesday; and in her postscript it was
          added, that if Mr. Bingley and <pb n="[Vol. I] 133"/>his sister pressed them to stay longer, she could spare
          them very well.--Against staying longer, however, Elizabeth was positively resolved--nor
          did she much expect it would be asked; and fearful, on the contrary, as being considered
          as intruding themselves needlessly long, she urged Jane to borrow Mr. Bingley's carriage
          immediately, and at length it was settled that their original design of leaving
          Netherfield that morning should be mentioned, and the request made.</p>
        <p>The communication excited many professions of concern; and enough was said of wishing
          them to stay at least till the following day to work on Jane; and till the morrow, their
          going was deferred. Miss Bingley was then sorry that she had proposed the delay, for her
          jealousy and dislike of one sister much exceeded her affection for the other.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 134"/>
        <p>The master of the house heard with real sorrow that they were to go so soon, and
          repeatedly tried to persuade Miss Bennet that it would not be safe for her--that she was
          not enough recovered; but Jane was firm where she felt herself to be right.</p>
        <p>To Mr. Darcy it was welcome intelligence--Elizabeth had been at Netherfield long enough.
          She attracted him more than he liked--and Miss Bingley was uncivil to <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, and more teazing than usual to himself. He wisely resolved to be particularly
          careful that no sign of admiration should <hi rend="italic">now</hi> escape him, nothing
          that could elevate her with the hope of influencing his felicity; sensible that if such an
          idea had been suggested, his behaviour during the last day must have material weight in
          confirming or crushing it. Steady to his purpose, he scarcely spoke ten words to her<pb n="[Vol. I] 135"/>
          through the whole of Saturday, and though they were at one time left by themselves for
          half an hour, he adhered most conscientiously to his book, and would not even look at
          her.</p>
        <p>On Sunday, after morning service, the separation, so agreeable to almost all, took place.
          Miss Bingley's civility to Elizabeth increased at last very rapidly, as well as her
          affection for Jane; and when they parted, after assuring the latter of the pleasure it
          would always give her to see her either at Longbourn or Netherfield, and embracing her
          most tenderly, she even shook hands with the former.--Elizabeth took leave of the whole
          party in the liveliest spirits.</p>
        <p>They were not welcomed home very cordially by their mother. Mrs. Bennet wondered at their
          coming, and thought them very wrong to give so much trouble, and was sure Jane <pb n="[Vol. I] 136"/>would have
          caught cold again.--But their father, though very laconic in his expressions of pleasure,
          was really glad to see them; he had felt their importance in the family circle. The
          evening conversation, when they were all assembled, had lost much of its animation, and
          almost all its sense, by the absence of Jane and Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>They found Mary, as usual, deep in the study of thorough bass and human nature; and had
          some new extracts to admire, and some new observations of thread-bare morality to listen
          to. Catherine and Lydia had information for them of a different sort. Much had been done,
          and much had been said in the regiment since the preceding Wednesday; several of the
          officers had dined lately with their uncle, a private had been flogged, and it had
          actually been hinted that Colonel Forster was going to be married.</p>
                        </div>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 137"/>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="13">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIII.</head>
        <p> "I hope, my dear," said Mr. Bennet to his wife, as they were at breakfast the next
          morning, "that you have ordered a good dinner to-day, because I have reason to expect an
          addition to our family party."</p>
        <p>"Who do you mean, my dear? I know of nobody that is coming I am sure, unless Charlotte
          Lucas should happen to call in, and I hope <hi rend="italic">my</hi> dinners are good
          enough for her. I do not believe she often sees such at home."</p>
        <p>"The person of whom I speak, is a gentleman and a stranger." Mrs. Bennet's eyes
          sparkled.--"A gentleman and a stranger! It is Mr. Bingley I am sure. Why Jane--you never<pb n="[Vol. I] 138"/>
          dropt a word of this; you sly thing! Well, I am sure I shall be extremely glad to see Mr.
          Bingley.--But--good lord! how unlucky! there is not a bit of fish to be got to-day. Lydia,
          my love, ring the bell. I must speak to Hill, this moment."</p>
        <p>"It is <hi rend="italic">not</hi> Mr. Bingley," said her husband; "it is a person whom I
          never saw in the whole course of my life."</p>
        <p>This roused a general astonishment; and he had the pleasure of being eagerly questioned
          by his wife and five daughters at once.</p>
        <p>After amusing himself some time with their curiosity, he thus explained. "About a month
          ago I received this letter, and about a fortnight ago I answered it, for I thought it a
          case of some delicacy, and requiring early attention. It is from my cousin, Mr. Collins,
          who, when I am dead, may turn you all out of this house as soon as he pleases."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 139"/>
        <p>"Oh! my dear," cried his wife, "I cannot bear to hear that mentioned. Pray do not talk of
          that odious man. I do think it is the hardest thing in the world, that your estate should
          be entailed away from your own children; and I am sure if I had been you, I should have
          tried long ago to do something or other about it."</p>
        <p>Jane and Elizabeth attempted to explain to her the nature of an entail. They had often
          attempted it before, but it was a subject on which Mrs. Bennet was beyond the reach of
          reason; and she continued to rail bitterly against the cruelty of settling an estate away
          from a family of five daughters, in favour of a man whom nobody cared anything about.</p>
        <p>"It certainly is a most iniquitous affair," said Mr. Bennet, "and nothing can clear Mr.
          Collins from the guilt of inheriting Longbourn. But if you <pb n="[Vol. I] 139"/>will listen to his letter, you
          may perhaps be a little softened by his manner of expressing himself."</p>
        <p>"No, that I am sure I shall not; and I think it was very impertinent of him to write to
          you at all, and very hypocritical. I hate such false friends. Why could not he keep on
          quarrelling with you, as his father did before him?"</p>
        <p>"Why, indeed, he does seem to have had some filial scruples on that head, as you will
          hear."</p>
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                                <body>
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                                                <hi rend="italic">Hunsford, near Westerham, Kent,</hi>
                                                <lb/>
                                            </placeName> 
          <date>15th October.<lb/>
                                            </date>
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            <salute>DEAR SIR,</salute>
                                    </opener>
        <p> The disagreement subsisting between yourself and my late honoured father, always gave me
          much uneasiness, and since I have had the misfortune to lose him, I have frequently wished
          to heal the breach; <pb n="[Vol. I] 140"/>but for some time I was kept back by my own doubts, fearing lest it
          might seem disrespectful to his memory for me to be on good terms with any one, with whom
          it had always pleased him to be at variance.--"There, Mrs. Bennet."--My mind however is
          now made up on the subject, for having received ordination at Easter, I have been so
          fortunate as to be distinguished by the patronage of the Right Honourable Lady Catherine
          de Bourgh, widow of Sir Lewis de Bourgh, whose bounty and beneficence has preferred me to
          the valuable rectory of this parish, where it shall be my earnest endeavour to demean
          myself with grateful respect towards her Ladyship, and be ever ready to perform those
          rites and ceremonies which are instituted by the Church of England. As a clergyman,
          moreover, I feel it my duty to promote and establish the <pb n="[Vol. I] 141"/>blessing of peace in all families
          within the reach of my influence; and on these grounds I flatter myself that my present
          overtures of good-will are highly commendable, and that the circumstance of my being next
          in the entail of Longbourn estate, will be kindly overlooked on your side, and not lead
          you to reject the offered olive branch. I cannot be otherwise than concerned at being the
          means of injuring your amiable daughters, and beg leave to apologise for it, as well as to
          assure you of my readiness to make them every possible amends,--but of this hereafter. If
          you should have no objection to receive me into your house, I propose myself the
          satisfaction of waiting on you and your family, Monday, November 18th, by four o'clock,
          and shall probably trespass on your hospitality till the Saturday se'night following,
          which I can do <pb n="[Vol. I] 142"/>without any inconvenience, as Lady Catherine is far from objecting to my
          occasional absence on a Sunday, provided that some other clergyman is engaged to do the
          duty of the day. I remain, dear sir, with respectful compliments to your lady and
          daughters, your well-wisher and friend,</p>
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                                        <signed>WILLIAM COLLINS."</signed>
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        <p>"At four o'clock, therefore, we may expect this peace-making gentleman," said Mr. Bennet,
          as he folded up the letter. "He seems to be a most conscientious and polite young man,
          upon my word; and I doubt not will prove a valuable acquaintance, especially if Lady
          Catherine should be so indulgent as to let him come to us again."</p>
        <p>"There is some sense in what he says about the girls however; and if he is disposed to
          make them any amends, I shall not be the person to discourage him."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 143"/>
        <p>"Though it is difficult," said Jane, "to guess in what way he can mean to make us the
          atonement he thinks our due, the wish is certainly to his credit."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was chiefly struck with his extraordinary deference for Lady Catherine, and his
          kind intention of christening, marrying, and burying his parishioners whenever it were
          required.</p>
        <p>"He must be an oddity, I think," said she. "I cannot make him out.--There is something
          very pompous in his style.--And what can he mean by apologizing for being next in the
          entail?--We cannot suppose he would help it, if he could.--Can he be a sensible man,
          sir?"</p>
        <p>"No, my dear; I think not. I have great hopes of finding him quite the reverse. There is
          a mixture of servility <pb n="[Vol. I] 144 [servi-]"/>and self-importance in his letter, which promises well. I am
          impatient to see him."</p>
        <p>"In point of composition," said Mary, "his letter does not seem defective. The idea of
          the olive branch perhaps is not wholly new, yet I think it is well expressed."</p>
        <p>To Catherine and Lydia, neither the letter nor its writer were in any degree interesting.
          It was next to impossible that their cousin should come in a scarlet coat, and it was now
          some weeks since they had received pleasure from the society of a man in any other colour.
          As for their mother, Mr. Collins's letter had done away much of her ill-will, and she was
          preparing to see him with a degree of composure, which astonished her husband and
          daughters.</p>
          <p>Mr. Collins was punctual to his time, and was received with great politeness <pb n="[Vol. I] 145 [po-]"/>by the whole
          family. Mr. Bennet indeed said little; but the ladies were ready enough to talk, and Mr.
          Collins seemed neither in need of encouragement, nor inclined to be silent himself. He was
          a tall, heavy looking young man of five and twenty. His air was grave and stately, and his
          manners were very formal. He had not been long seated before he complimented Mrs. Bennet
          on having so fine a family of daughters, said he had heard much of their beauty, but that,
          in this instance, fame had fallen short of the truth; and added, that he did not doubt her
          seeing them all in due time well disposed of in marriage. This gallantry was not much to
          the taste of some of his hearers, but Mrs. Bennet, who quarrelled with no compliments,
          answered most readily,</p>
          <p>"You are very kind, sir, I am sure; and I wish with all my heart it may <pb n="[Vol. I] 146"/>prove so; for
          else they will be destitute enough. Things are settled so oddly."</p>
        <p>"You allude perhaps to the entail of this estate."</p>
        <p>"Ah! sir, I do indeed. It is a grievous affair to my poor girls, you must confess. Not
          that I mean to find fault with <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, for such things I know are all
          chance in this world. There is no knowing how estates will go when once they come to be
          entailed."</p>
        <p>"I am very sensible, madam, of the hardship to my fair cousins,--and could say much on
          the subject, but that I am cautious of appearing forward and precipitate. But I can assure
          the young ladies that I come prepared to admire them. At present I will not say more, but
          perhaps when we are better acquainted----"</p>
          <p>He was interrupted by a summons <pb n="[Vol. I] 147"/>to dinner; and the girls smiled on each other. They were
          not the only objects of Mr. Collins's admiration. The hall, the dining-room, and all its
          furniture were examined and praised; and his commendation of every thing would have
          touched Mrs. Bennet's heart, but for the mortifying supposition of his viewing it all as
          his own future property. The dinner too in its turn was highly admired; and he begged to
          know to which of his fair cousins, the excellence of its cookery was owing. But here he
          was set right by Mrs. Bennet, who assured him with some asperity that they were very well
          able to keep a good cook, and that her daughters had nothing to do in the kitchen. He
          begged pardon for having displeased her. In a softened tone she declared herself not at
          all offended; but he continued to apologise for about a quarter of an hour.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="14">
          <pb n="[Vol. I] 148"/>
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIV.</head>
        <p> During dinner, Mr. Bennet scarcely spoke at all; but when the servants were withdrawn,
          he thought it time to have some conversation with his guest, and therefore started a
          subject in which he expected him to shine, by observing that he seemed very fortunate in
          his patroness. Lady Catherine de Bourgh's attention to his wishes, and consideration for
          his comfort, appeared very remarkable. Mr. Bennet could not have chosen better. Mr.
          Collins was eloquent in her praise. The subject elevated him to more than usual solemnity
          of manner, and with a most important aspect he protested that he had never in his life
          witnessed such behaviour in a person of rank--<pb n="[Vol. I] 149"/>such affability and condescension, as he had
          himself experienced from Lady Catherine. She had been graciously pleased to approve of
          both the discourses, which he had already had the honour of preaching before her. She had
          also asked him twice to dine at Rosings, and had sent for him only the Saturday before, to
          make up her pool of quadrille in the evening. Lady Catherine was reckoned proud by many
          people he knew, but <hi rend="italic">he</hi> had never seen any thing but affability in
          her. She had always spoken to him as she would to any other gentleman; she made not the
          smallest objection to his joining in the society of the neighbourhood, nor to his leaving
          his parish occasionally for a week or two, to visit his relations. She had even
          condescended to advise him to marry as soon as he could, provided he chose with
          discretion; and had once paid <pb n="[Vol. I] 150"/>him a visit in his humble parsonage; where she had perfectly
          approved all the alterations he had been making, and had even vouchsafed to suggest some
          herself,--some shelves in the closets up stairs.</p>
        <p>"That is all very proper and civil, I am sure," said Mrs. Bennet, "and I dare say she is
          a very agreeable woman. It is a pity that great ladies in general are not more like her.
          Does she live near you, sir?"</p>
        <p>"The garden in which stands my humble abode, is separated only by a lane from Rosings
          Park, her ladyship's residence."</p>
        <p>"I think you said she was a widow, sir? has she any family?"</p>
        <p>"She has one only daughter, the heiress of Rosings, and of very extensive property."</p>
          <p>"Ah!" cried Mrs. Bennet, shaking her head, "then she is better off than <pb n="[Vol. I] 151"/>many girls. And
          what sort of young lady is she? is she handsome?"</p>
        <p>"She is a most charming young lady indeed. Lady Catherine herself says that in point of
          true beauty, Miss De Bourgh is far superior to the handsomest of her sex; because there is
          that in her features which marks the young woman of distinguished birth. She is
          unfortunately of a sickly constitution, which has prevented her making that progress in
          many accomplishments, which she could not otherwise have failed of; as I am informed by
          the lady who superintended her education, and who still resides with them. But she is
          perfectly amiable, and often condescends to drive by my humble abode in her little phaeton
          and ponies."</p>
        <p>"Has she been presented? I do not remember her name among the ladies at court."</p>
          <p>"Her indifferent state of health unhappily <pb n="[Vol. I] 152 [un-]"/>prevents her being in town; and by that means,
          as I told Lady Catherine myself one day, has deprived the British court of its brightest
          ornament. Her ladyship seemed pleased with the idea, and you may imagine that I am happy
          on every occasion to offer those little delicate compliments which are always acceptable
          to ladies. I have more than once observed to Lady Catherine, that her charming daughter
          seemed born to be a duchess, and that the most elevated rank, instead of giving her
          consequence, would be adorned by her.--These are the kind of little things which please
          her ladyship, and it is a sort of attention which I conceive myself peculiarly bound to
          pay."</p>
        <p>"You judge very properly," said Mr. Bennet, "and it is happy for you that you possess the
          talent of flattering with delicacy. May I ask whether these pleasing attentions proceed
          from <pb n="[Vol. I] 153"/>the impulse of the moment, or are the result of previous study?"</p>
        <p>"They arise chiefly from what is passing at the time, and though I sometimes amuse myself
          with suggesting and arranging such little elegant compliments as may be adapted to
          ordinary occasions, I always wish to give them as unstudied an air as possible."</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet's expectations were fully answered. His cousin was as absurd as he had hoped,
          and he listened to him with the keenest enjoyment, maintaining at the same time the most
          resolute composure of countenance, and except in an occasional glance at Elizabeth,
          requiring no partner in his pleasure.</p>
        <p>By tea-time however the dose had been enough, and Mr. Bennet was glad to take his guest
          into the drawing-room again, and when tea was <pb n="[Vol. I] 154"/>over, glad to invite him to read aloud to
          the ladies. Mr. Collins readily assented, and a book was produced; but on beholding it,
          (for every thing announced it to be from a circulating library,) he started back, and
          begging pardon, protested that he never read novels.--Kitty stared at him, and Lydia
          exclaimed.--Other books were produced, and after some deliberation he chose Fordyce's
          Sermons. Lydia gaped as he opened the volume, and before he had, with very monotonous
          solemnity, read three pages, she interrupted him with,</p>
        <p>"Do you know, mama, that my uncle Philips talks of turning away Richard, and if he does,
          Colonel Forster will hire him. My aunt told me so herself on Saturday. I shall walk to
          Meryton to-morrow to hear more about it, and to ask when Mr. Denny comes back from
          town."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 155"/>
        <p>Lydia was bid by her two eldest sisters to hold her tongue; but Mr. Collins, much
          offended, laid aside his book, and said,</p>
        <p>"I have often observed how little young ladies are interested by books of a serious
          stamp, though written solely for their benefit. It amazes me, I confess;--for certainly,
          there can be nothing so advantageous to them as instruction. But I will no longer
          importune my young cousin."</p>
        <p>Then turning to Mr. Bennet, he offered himself as his antagonist at backgammon. Mr.
          Bennet accepted the challenge, observing that he acted very wisely in leaving the girls to
          their own trifling amusements. Mrs. Bennet and her daughters apologised most civilly for
          Lydia's interruption, and promised that it should not occur again, if he would resume his
          book; but Mr. Collins, after assuring them <pb n="[Vol. I] 156"/>that he bore his young cousin no ill will, and
          should never resent her behaviour as any affront, seated himself at another table with Mr.
          Bennet, and prepared for backgammon.</p>
                        </div>
     
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="15">
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 157"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XV.</head>
        <p> Mr. Collins was not a sensible man, and the deficiency of nature had been but little
          assisted by education or society; the greatest part of his life having been spent under
          the guidance of an illiterate and miserly father; and though he belonged to one of the
          universities, he had merely kept the necessary terms, without forming at it any useful
          acquaintance. The subjection in which his father had brought him up, had given him
          originally great humility of manner, but it was now a good deal counteracted by the
          self-conceit of a weak head, living in retirement, and the consequential feelings of early
          and unexpected prosperity. A fortunate chance <pb n="[Vol. I] 158"/>had recommended him to Lady Catherine de
          Bourgh when the living of Hunsford was vacant; and the respect which he felt for her high
          rank, and his veneration for her as his patroness, mingling with a very good opinion of
          himself, of his authority as a clergyman, and his rights as a rector, made him altogether
          a mixture of pride and obsequiousness, self-importance and humility.</p>
        <p>Having now a good house and very sufficient income, he intended to marry; and in seeking
          a reconciliation with the Longbourn family he had a wife in view, as he meant to chuse one
          of the daughters, if he found them as handsome and amiable as they were represented by
          common report. This was his plan of amends--of atonement--for inheriting their father's
          estate; and he thought it an excellent one, full of eligibility and <pb n="[Vol. I] 159"/>suitableness, and
          excessively generous and disinterested on his own part.</p>
        <p>His plan did not vary on seeing them.--Miss Bennet's lovely face confirmed his views, and
          established all his strictest notions of what was due to seniority; and for the first
          evening <hi rend="italic">she</hi> was his settled choice. The next morning, however, made
          an alteration; for in a quarter of an hour's tête-à-tête with Mrs. Bennet before
          breakfast, a conversation beginning with his parsonage-house, and leading naturally to the
          avowal of his hopes, that a mistress for it might be found at Longbourn, produced from
          her, amid very complaisant smiles and general encouragement, a caution against the very
          Jane he had fixed on.--"As to her <hi rend="italic">younger</hi> daughters she could not
          take upon her to say--she could not positively answer--but she did not <pb n="[Vol. I] 160"/>
                                <hi rend="italic">know</hi> of any prepossession;--her <hi rend="italic">eldest</hi> daughter, she must
          just mention--she felt it incumbent on her to hint, was likely to be very soon
          engaged."</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins had only to change from Jane to Elizabeth--and it was soon done--done while
          Mrs. Bennet was stirring the fire. Elizabeth, equally next to Jane in birth and beauty,
          succeeded her of course.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet treasured up the hint, and trusted that she might soon have two daughters
          married; and the man whom she could not bear to speak of the day before, was now high in
          her good graces.</p>
        <p>Lydia's intention of walking to Meryton was not forgotten; every sister except Mary
          agreed to go with her; and Mr. Collins was to attend them, at the request of Mr. Bennet,
          who was most anxious to get rid of him, and have his library to himself; for <pb n="[Vol. I] 161"/>thither Mr.
          Collins had followed him after breakfast, and there he would continue, nominally engaged
          with one of the largest folios in the collection, but really talking to Mr. Bennet, with
          little cessation, of his house and garden at Hunsford. Such doings discomposed Mr. Bennet
          exceedingly. In his library he had been always sure of leisure and tranquillity; and
          though prepared, as he told Elizabeth, to meet with folly and conceit in every other room
          in the house, he was used to be free from them there; his civility, therefore, was most
          prompt in inviting Mr. Collins to join his daughters in their walk; and Mr. Collins, being
          in fact much better fitted for a walker than a reader, was extremely well pleased to close
          his large book, and go.</p>
          <p>In pompous nothings on his side, and civil assents on that of his cousins, <pb n="[Vol. I] 162 [page breaks at cou-]"/>their time
          passed till they entered Meryton. The attention of the younger ones was then no longer to
          be gained by <hi rend="italic">him</hi>. Their eyes were immediately wandering up in the
          street in quest of the officers, and nothing less than a very smart bonnet indeed, or a
          really new muslin in a shop window, could recal them.</p>
        <p>But the attention of every lady was soon caught by a young man, whom they had never seen
          before, of most gentleman-like appearance, walking with an officer on the other side of
          the way. The officer was the very Mr. Denny, concerning whose return from London Lydia
          came to inquire, and he bowed as they passed. All were struck with the stranger's air, all
          wondered who he could be, and Kitty and Lydia, determined if possible to find out, led the
          way across the street, under pretence of wanting <pb n="[Vol. I] 163"/>something in an opposite shop, and
          fortunately had just gained the pavement when the two gentlemen turning back had reached
          the same spot. Mr. Denny addressed them directly, and entreated permission to introduce
          his friend, Mr. Wickham, who had returned with him the day before from town, and he was
          happy to say had accepted a commission in their corps. This was exactly as it should be;
          for the young man wanted only regimentals to make him completely charming. His appearance
          was greatly in his favour; he had all the best part of beauty, a fine countenance, a good
          figure, and very pleasing address. The introduction was followed up on his side by a happy
          readiness of conversation--a readiness at the same time perfectly correct and unassuming;
          and the whole party were still standing and talking together very <pb n="[Vol. I] 164"/>agreeably, when the
          sound of horses drew their notice, and Darcy and Bingley were seen riding down the street.
          On distinguishing the ladies of the group, the two gentlemen came directly towards them,
          and began the usual civilities. Bingley was the principal spokesman, and Miss Bennet the
          principal object. He was then, he said, on his way to Longbourn on purpose to inquire
          after her. Mr. Darcy corroborated it with a bow, and was beginning to determine not to fix
          his eyes on Elizabeth, when they were suddenly arrested by the sight of the stranger, and
          Elizabeth happening to see the countenance of both as they looked at each other, was all
          astonishment at the effect of the meeting. Both changed colour, one looked white, the
          other red. Mr. Wickham, after a few moments, touched his hat--a salutation <pb n="[Vol. I] 165"/>which Mr. Darcy
          just deigned to return. What could be the meaning of it?--It was impossible to imagine; it
          was impossible not to long to know.</p>
        <p>In another minute Mr. Bingley, but without seeming to have noticed what passed, took
          leave and rode on with his friend.</p>
        <p>Mr. Denny and Mr. Wickham walked with the young ladies to the door of Mr. Philips's
          house, and then made their bows, in spite of Miss Lydia's pressing entreaties that they
          would come in, and even in spite of Mrs. Philips' throwing up the parlour window, and
          loudly seconding the invitation.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Philips was always glad to see her nieces, and the two eldest, from their recent
          absence, were particularly welcome, and she was eagerly expressing her surprise at their
          sudden return home, which, as their own <pb n="[Vol. I] 166"/>carriage had not fetched them, she should have
          known nothing about, if she had not happened to see Mr. Jones's shop boy in the street,
          who had told her that they were not to send any more draughts to Netherfield because the
          Miss Bennets were come away, when her civility was claimed towards Mr. Collins by Jane's
          introduction of him. She received him with her very best politeness, which he returned
          with as much more, apologising for his intrusion, without any previous acquaintance with
          her, which he could not help flattering himself however might be justified by his
          relationship to the young ladies who introduced him to her notice. Mrs. Philips was quite
          awed by such an excess of good breeding; but her contemplation of one stranger was soon
          put an end to by exclamations and inquiries about the other, of <pb n="[Vol. I] 167"/>whom, however, she could
          only tell her nieces what they already knew, that Mr. Denny had brought him from London,
          and that he was to have a lieutenant's commission in the ----shire. She had been watching
          him the last hour, she said, as he walked up and down the street, and had Mr. Wickham
          appeared Kitty and Lydia would certainly have continued the occupation, but unluckily no
          one passed the windows now except a few of the officers, who in comparison with the
          stranger, were become "stupid, disagreeable fellows." Some of them were to dine with the
          Philipses the next day, and their aunt promised to make her husband call on Mr. Wickham,
          and give him an invitation also, if the family from Longbourn would come in the evening.
          This was agreed to, and Mrs. Philips protested that they would <pb n="[Vol. I] 168"/>have a nice comfortable
          noisy game of lottery tickets, and a little bit of hot supper afterwards. The prospect of
          such delights was very cheering, and they parted in mutual good spirits. Mr. Collins
          repeated his apologies in quitting the room, and was assured with unwearying civility that
          they were perfectly needless.</p>
        <p>As they walked home, Elizabeth related to Jane what she had seen pass between the two
          gentlemen; but though Jane would have defended either or both, had they appeared to be
          wrong, she could no more explain such behaviour than her sister.</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins on his return highly gratified Mrs. Bennet by admiring Mrs. Philips's manners
          and politeness. He protested that except Lady Catherine and her daughter, he had never
          seen a more elegant woman; for she had not only received him <pb n="[Vol. I] 169"/>with the utmost civility, but
          had even pointedly included him in her invitation for the next evening, although utterly
          unknown to her before. Something he supposed might be attributed to his connection with
          them, but yet he had never met with so much attention in the whole course of his life.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
        <div type="chapter" n="16">
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 170"/>        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVI.</head>
        <p> As no objection was made to the young people's engagement with their aunt, and all Mr.
          Collins's scruples of leaving Mr. and Mrs. Bennet for a single evening during his visit
          were most steadily resisted, the coach conveyed him and his five cousins at a suitable
          hour to Meryton; and the girls had the pleasure of hearing, as they entered the
          drawing-room, that Mr. Wickham had accepted their uncle's invitation, and was then in the
          house.</p>
        <p>When this information was given, and they had all taken their seats, Mr. Collins was at
          leisure to look around him and admire, and he was so much struck with the size and
          furniture <pb n="[Vol. I] 171 [fur-]"/>of the apartment, that he declared he might almost have supposed himself in the
          small summer breakfast parlour at Rosings; a comparison that did not at first convey much
          gratification; but when Mrs. Philips understood from him what Rosings was, and who was its
          proprietor, when she had listened to the description of only one of Lady Catherine's
          drawing-rooms, and found that the chimney-piece alone had cost eight hundred pounds, she
          felt all the force of the compliment, and would hardly have resented a comparison with the
          housekeeper's room.</p>
        <p>In describing to her all the grandeur of Lady Catherine and her mansion, with occasional
          digressions in praise of his own humble abode, and the improvements it was receiving, he
          was happily employed until the gentlemen joined them; and he found in <pb n="[Vol. I] 172"/>Mrs. Philips a very
          attentive listener, whose opinion of his consequence increased with what she heard, and
          who was resolving to retail it all among her neighbours as soon as she could. To the
          girls, who could not listen to their cousin, and who had nothing to do but to wish for an
          instrument, and examine their own indifferent imitations of china on the mantle-piece, the
          interval of waiting appeared very long. It was over at last however. The gentlemen did
          approach; and when Mr. Wickham walked into the room, Elizabeth felt that she had neither
          been seeing him before, nor thinking of him since, with the smallest degree of
          unreasonable admiration. The officers of the ----shire were in general a very creditable,
          gentleman-like set, and the best of them were of the present party; but Mr. Wickham was as
          far beyond them all in person, <pb n="[Vol. I] 173"/>countenance, air, and walk, as <hi rend="italic">they</hi>
          were superior to the broad-faced stuffy uncle Philips, breathing port wine, who followed
          them into the room.</p>
        <p>Mr. Wickham was the happy man towards whom almost every female eye was turned, and
          Elizabeth was the happy woman by whom he finally seated himself; and the agreeable manner
          in which he immediately fell into conversation, though it was only on its being a wet
          night, and on the probability of a rainy season, made her feel that the commonest,
          dullest, most thread-bare topic might be rendered interesting by the skill of the
          speaker.</p>
        <p>With such rivals for the notice of the fair, as Mr. Wickham and the officers, Mr. Collins
          seemed likely to sink into insignificance; to the young ladies he certainly was nothing;
          but he had still at intervals a kind listener <pb n="[Vol. I] 174"/>in Mrs. Philips, and was, by her
          watchfulness, most abundantly supplied with coffee and muffin.</p>
        <p>When the card tables were placed, he had an opportunity of obliging her in return, by
          sitting down to whist.</p>
        <p>"I know little of the game, at present," said he, "but I shall be glad to improve myself,
          for in my situation of life----" Mrs. Philips was very thankful for his compliance, but
          could not wait for his reason.</p>
        <p>Mr. Wickham did not play at whist, and with ready delight was he received at the other
          table between Elizabeth and Lydia. At first there seemed danger of Lydia's engrossing him
          entirely, for she was a most determined talker; but being likewise extremely fond of
          lottery tickets, she soon grew too much interested in the game, too eager in making bets
          and exclaiming after prizes, to have attention <pb n="[Vol. I] 175 [at-]"/>for any one in particular. Allowing for the
          common demands of the game, Mr. Wickham was therefore at leisure to talk to Elizabeth, and
          she was very willing to hear him, though what she chiefly wished to hear she could not
          hope to be told, the history of his acquaintance with Mr. Darcy. She dared not even
          mention that gentleman. Her curiosity however was unexpectedly relieved. Mr. Wickham began
          the subject himself. He inquired how far Netherfield was from Meryton; and, after
          receiving her answer, asked in an hesitating manner how long Mr. Darcy had been staying
          there.</p>
        <p>"About a month," said Elizabeth; and then, unwilling to let the subject drop, added, "He
          is a man of very large property in Derbyshire, I understand."</p>
          <p>"Yes," replied Wickham;--"his <pb n="[Vol. I] 176"/>estate there is a noble one. A clear ten thousand per
          annum. You could not have met with a person more capable of giving you certain information
          on that head than myself--for I have been connected with his family in a particular manner
          from my infancy."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could not but look surprised.</p>
        <p>"You may well be surprised, Miss Bennet, at such an assertion, after seeing, as you
          probably might, the very cold manner of our meeting yesterday.--Are you much acquainted
          with Mr. Darcy?"</p>
        <p>"As much as I ever wish to be," cried Elizabeth warmly,--"I have spent four days in the
          same house with him, and I think him very disagreeable."</p>
          <p>"I have no right to give <hi rend="italic">my</hi> opinion," said Wickham, "as to his<pb n="[Vol. I] 177"/>
          being agreeable or otherwise. I am not qualified to form one. I have known him too long
          and too well to be a fair judge. It is impossible for <hi rend="italic">me</hi> to be
          impartial. But I believe your opinion of him would in general astonish--and perhaps you
          would not express it quite so strongly anywhere else.--Here you are in your own
          family."</p>
        <p>"Upon my word I say no more <hi rend="italic">here</hi> than I might say in any house in
          the neighbourhood, except Netherfield. He is not at all liked in Hertfordshire. Every body
          is disgusted with his pride. You will not find him more favourably spoken of by any
          one."</p>
        <p>"I cannot pretend to be sorry," said Wickham, after a short interruption, "that he or
          that any man should not be estimated beyond their deserts; but with <hi rend="italic">him</hi> I believe it <pb n="[Vol. I] 178"/>does not often happen. The world is blinded by his fortune and
          consequence, or frightened by his high and imposing manners, and sees him only as he
          chuses to be seen."</p>
        <p>"I should take him, even on <hi rend="italic">my</hi> slight acquaintance, to be an
          ill-tempered man." Wickham only shook his head.</p>
        <p>"I wonder," said he, at the next opportunity of speaking, "whether he is likely to be in
          this country much longer."</p>
        <p>"I do not at all know; but I <hi rend="italic">heard</hi> nothing of his going away when
          I was at Netherfield. I hope your plans in favour of the ----shire will not be affected by
          his being in the neighbourhood."</p>
        <p>"Oh! no--it is not for <hi rend="italic">me</hi> to be driven away by Mr. Darcy. If <hi rend="italic">he</hi> wishes to avoid seeing <hi rend="italic">me</hi>, he must go. We
          are not on friendly terms, <pb n="[Vol. I] 179"/>and it always gives me pain to meet him, but I have no reason
          for avoiding <hi rend="italic">him</hi> but what I might proclaim to all the world; a
          sense of very great ill usage, and most painful regrets at his being what he is. His
          father, Miss Bennet, the late Mr. Darcy, was one of the best men that ever breathed, and
          the truest friend I ever had; and I can never be in company with this Mr. Darcy without
          being grieved to the soul by a thousand tender recollections. His behaviour to myself has
          been scandalous; but I verily believe I could forgive him any thing and every thing,
          rather than his disappointing the hopes and disgracing the memory of his father."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth found the interest of the subject increase, and listened with all her heart;
          but the delicacy of it prevented farther inquiry.</p>
          <p>Mr. Wickham began to speak on <pb n="[Vol. I] 180"/>more general topics, Meryton, the neighbourhood, the
          society, appearing highly pleased with all that he had yet seen, and speaking of the
          latter especially, with gentle but very intelligible gallantry.</p>
        <p>"It was the prospect of constant society, and good society," he added, "which was my
          chief inducement to enter the ----shire. I knew it to be a most respectable, agreeable
          corps, and my friend Denny tempted me farther by his account of their present quarters,
          and the very great attentions and excellent acquaintance Meryton had procured them.
          Society, I own, is necessary to me. I have been a disappointed man, and my spirits will
          not bear solitude. I <hi rend="italic">must</hi> have employment and society. A military
          life is not what I was intended for, but circumstances have now made it eligible. The
          church <hi rend="italic">ought</hi> to have been my profession--<pb n="[Vol. I] 181"/>I was brought up for the
          church, and I should at this time have been in possession of a most valuable living, had
          it pleased the gentleman we were speaking of just now."</p>
        <p>"Indeed!"</p>
        <p>"Yes--the late Mr. Darcy bequeathed me the next presentation of the best living in his
          gift. He was my godfather, and excessively attached to me. I cannot do justice to his
          kindness. He meant to provide for me amply, and thought he had done it; but when the
          living fell, it was given elsewhere."</p>
        <p>"Good heavens!" cried Elizabeth; "but how could <hi rend="italic">that</hi> be?--How
          could his will be disregarded?--Why did not you seek legal redress?"</p>
        <p>"There was just such an informality in the terms of the bequest as to give me no hope
          from law. A man of honour could not have doubted the <pb n="[Vol. I] 182"/>intention, but Mr. Darcy chose to
          doubt it--or to treat it as a merely conditional recommendation, and to assert that I had
          forfeited all claim to it by extravagance, imprudence, in short any thing or nothing.
          Certain it is, that the living became vacant two years ago, exactly as I was of an age to
          hold it, and that it was given to another man; and no less certain is it, that I cannot
          accuse myself of having really done any thing to deserve to lose it. I have a warm,
          unguarded temper, and I may perhaps have sometimes spoken my opinion <hi rend="italic">of</hi>
          <hi>him</hi>, and <hi rend="italic">to</hi> him, too freely. I can recal nothing worse.
          But the fact is, that we are very different sort of men, and that he hates me."</p>
        <p>"This is quite shocking!--He deserves to be publicly disgraced."</p>
        <p>"Some time or other he <hi rend="italic">will</hi> be--but it shall not be by <hi rend="italic">me</hi>. Till I can <pb n="[Vol. I] 183"/>forget his father, I can never defy or expose <hi rend="italic">him</hi>."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth honoured him for such feelings, and thought him handsomer than ever as he
          expressed them.</p>
        <p>"But what," said she, after a pause, "can have been his motive?--what can have induced
          him to behave so cruelly?"</p>
        <p>"A thorough, determined dislike of me--a dislike which I cannot but attribute in some
          measure to jealousy. Had the late Mr. Darcy liked me less, his son might have borne with
          me better; but his father's uncommon attachment to me, irritated him I believe very early
          in life. He had not a temper to bear the sort of competition in which we stood--the sort
          of preference which was often given me."</p>
          <p>"I had not thought Mr. Darcy so bad as this--though I have never liked <pb n="[Vol. I] 184"/>him, I had not
          thought so very ill of him--I had supposed him to be despising his fellow-creatures in
          general, but did not suspect him of descending to such malicious revenge, such injustice,
          such inhumanity as this!"</p>
        <p>After a few minutes reflection, however, she continued, "I <hi rend="italic">do</hi>
          remember his boasting one day, at Netherfield, of the implacability of his resentments, of
          his having an unforgiving temper. His disposition must be dreadful."</p>
        <p>"I will not trust myself on the subject," replied Wickham, "<hi rend="italic">I</hi> can
          hardly be just to him."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was again deep in thought, and after a time exclaimed, "To treat in such a
          manner, the god-son, the friend, the favourite of his father!"--She could have added, "A
          young man too, like <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, whose very countenance may vouch for your
          being amiable"<pb n="[Vol. I] 185 [amia-]"/>--but she contented herself with "And one, too, who had probably been his
          own companion from childhood, connected together, as I think you said, in the closest
          manner!"</p>
        <p>"We were born in the same parish, within the same park, the greatest part of our youth
          was passed together; inmates of the same house, sharing the same amusements, objects of
          the same parental care. <hi rend="italic">My</hi> father began life in the profession
          which your uncle, Mr. Philips, appears to do so much credit to--but he gave up every thing
          to be of use to the late Mr. Darcy, and devoted all his time to the care of the Pemberley
          property. He was most highly esteemed by Mr. Darcy, a most intimate, confidential friend.
          Mr. Darcy often acknowledged himself to be under the greatest obligations to my father's
          active superintendance, and when immediately <pb n="[Vol. I] 186 [immedi-]"/>before my father's death, Mr. Darcy gave him
          a voluntary promise of providing for me, I am convinced that he felt it to be as much a
          debt of gratitude to <hi rend="italic">him</hi>, as of affection to myself."</p>
        <p>"How strange!" cried Elizabeth. "How abominable!--I wonder that the very pride of this
          Mr. Darcy has not made him just to you!--If from no better motive, that he should not have
          been too proud to be dishonest,--for dishonesty I must call it."</p>
        <p>"It <hi rend="italic">is</hi> wonderful,"--replied Wickham,--"for almost all his actions
          may be traced to pride;--and pride has often been his best friend. It has connected him
          nearer with virtue than any other feeling. But we are none of us consistent; and in his
          behaviour to me, there were stronger impulses even than pride."</p>
          <p>"Can such abominable pride as his, have ever done him good?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 187"/>
        <p>"Yes. It has often led him to be liberal and generous,--to give his money freely, to
          display hospitality, to assist his tenants, and relieve the poor. Family pride, and <hi rend="italic">filial</hi> pride, for he is very proud of what his father was, have done
          this. Not to appear to disgrace his family, to degenerate from the popular qualities, or
          lose the influence of the Pemberley House, is a powerful motive. He has also <hi rend="italic">brotherly</hi> pride, which with <hi rend="italic">some</hi> brotherly
          affection, makes him a very kind and careful guardian of his sister; and you will hear him
          generally cried up as the most attentive and best of brothers."</p>
        <p>"What sort of a girl is Miss Darcy?"</p>
        <p>He shook his head.--"I wish I could call her amiable. It gives me pain to speak ill of a
          Darcy. But she is too much like her brother,--very, very proud.--As a child, she was
          affectionate <pb n="[Vol. I] 188 [af-]"/>and pleasing, and extremely fond of me; and I have devoted hours and hours to
          her amusement. But she is nothing to me now. She is a handsome girl, about fifteen or
          sixteen, and I understand highly accomplished. Since her father's death, her home has been
          London, where a lady lives with her, and superintends her education."</p>
        <p>After many pauses and many trials of other subjects, Elizabeth could not help reverting
          once more to the first, and saying,</p>
        <p>"I am astonished at his intimacy with Mr. Bingley! How can Mr. Bingley, who seems good
          humour itself, and is, I really believe, truly amiable, be in friendship with such a man?
          How can they suit each other?--Do you know Mr. Bingley?"</p>
        <p>"Not at all."</p>
          <p>"He is a sweet tempered, amiable, <pb n="[Vol. I] 189"/>charming man. He cannot know what Mr. Darcy is."</p>
        <p>"Probably not;--but Mr. Darcy can please where he chuses. He does not want abilities. He
          can be a conversible companion if he thinks it worth his while. Among those who are at all
          his equals in consequence, he is a very different man from what he is to the less
          prosperous. His pride never deserts him; but with the rich, he is liberal-minded, just,
          sincere, rational, honourable, and perhaps agreeable,--allowing something for fortune and
          figure."</p>
        <p>The whist party soon afterwards breaking up, the players gathered round the other table,
          and Mr. Collins took his station between his cousin Elizabeth and Mrs. Philips.--The usual
          inquiries as to his success were made by the latter. It had not been very great; he had
          lost every point; <pb n="[Vol. I] 190"/>but when Mrs. Philips began to express her concern thereupon, he assured
          her with much earnest gravity that it was not of the least importance, that he considered
          the money as a mere trifle, and begged she would not make herself uneasy.</p>
        <p>"I know very well, madam," said he, "that when persons sit down to a card table, they
          must take their chance of these things,--and happily I am not in such circumstances as to
          make five shillings any object. There are undoubtedly many who could not say the same, but
          thanks to Lady Catherine de Bourgh, I am removed far beyond the necessity of regarding
          little matters."</p>
        <p>Mr. Wickham's attention was caught; and after observing Mr. Collins for a few moments, he
          asked Elizabeth in a low voice whether her relation were very intimately acquainted with
          the family of de Bourgh.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 191"/>
        <p>"Lady Catherine de Bourgh," she replied, "has very lately given him a living. I hardly
          know how Mr. Collins was first introduced to her notice, but he certainly has not known
          her long."</p>
        <p>"You know of course that Lady Catherine de Bourgh and Lady Anne Darcy were sisters;
          consequently that she is aunt to the present Mr. Darcy."</p>
        <p>"No, indeed, I did not.--I knew nothing at all of Lady Catherine's connections. I never
          heard of her existence till the day before yesterday."</p>
        <p>"Her daughter, Miss de Bourgh, will have a very large fortune, and it is believed that
          she and her cousin will unite the two estates."</p>
        <p>This information made Elizabeth smile, as she thought of poor Miss Bingley. Vain indeed
          must be all her attentions, vain and useless her affection <pb n="[Vol. I] 192 [affec-]"/>for his sister and her praise
          of himself, if he were already self-destined to another.</p>
        <p>"Mr. Collins," said she, "speaks highly both of Lady Catherine and her daughter; but from
          some particulars that he has related of her ladyship, I suspect his gratitude misleads
          him, and that in spite of her being his patroness, she is an arrogant, conceited
          woman."</p>
        <p>"I believe her to be both in a great degree," replied Wickham; "I have not seen her for
          many years, but I very well remember that I never liked her, and that her manners were
          dictatorial and insolent. She has the reputation of being remarkably sensible and clever;
          but I rather believe she derives part of her abilities from her rank and fortune, part
          from her authoritative manner, and the rest from the pride of her nephew, who <pb n="[Vol. I] 193"/>chuses that
          every one connected with him should have an understanding of the first class."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth allowed that he had given a very rational account of it, and they continued
          talking together with mutual satisfaction till supper put an end to cards; and gave the
          rest of the ladies their share of Mr. Wickham's attentions. There could be no conversation
          in the noise of Mrs. Philips's supper party, but his manners recommended him to every
          body. Whatever he said, was said well; and whatever he did, done gracefully. Elizabeth
          went away with her head full of him. She could think of nothing but of Mr. Wickham, and of
          what he had told her, all the way home; but there was not time for her even to mention his
          name as they went, for neither Lydia nor Mr. Collins were once silent. Lydia talked
          incessantly of lottery <pb n="[Vol. I] 194 [lot-]"/>tickets, of the fish she had lost and the fish she had won, and Mr.
          Collins, in describing the civility of Mr. and Mrs. Philips, protesting that he did not in
          the least regard his losses at whist, enumerating all the dishes at supper, and repeatedly
          fearing that he crouded his cousins, had more to say than he could well manage before the
          carriage stopped at Longbourn House.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="17">
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 195"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVII.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth related to Jane the next day, what had passed between Mr. Wickham and herself.
          Jane listened with astonishment and concern;--she knew not how to believe that Mr. Darcy
          could be so unworthy of Mr. Bingley's regard; and yet, it was not in her nature to
          question the veracity of a young man of such amiable appearance as Wickham.--The
          possibility of his having really endured such unkindness, was enough to interest all her
          tender feelings; and nothing therefore remained to be done, but to think well of them
          both, to defend the conduct of each, and throw into the account of accident or mistake,
          whatever could not be otherwise explained.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 196"/>
        <p>"They have both," said she, "been deceived, I dare say, in some way or other, of which we
          can form no idea. Interested people have perhaps misrepresented each to the other. It is,
          in short, impossible for us to conjecture the causes or circumstances which may have
          alienated them, without actual blame on either side."</p>
        <p>"Very true, indeed;--and now, my dear Jane, what have you got to say in behalf of the
          interested people who have probably been concerned in the business?--Do clear <hi rend="italic">them</hi> too, or we shall be obliged to think ill of somebody."</p>
        <p>"Laugh as much as you chuse, but you will not laugh me out of my opinion. My dearest
          Lizzy, do but consider in what a disgraceful light it places Mr. Darcy, to be treating his
          father's favourite in such a manner,--one, whom his father had promised to <pb n="[Vol. I] 197"/>provide
          for.--It is impossible. No man of common humanity, no man who had any value for his
          character, could be capable of it. Can his most intimate friends be so excessively
          deceived in him? oh! no."</p>
        <p>"I can much more easily believe Mr. Bingley's being imposed on, than that Mr. Wickham
          should invent such a history of himself as he gave me last night; names, facts, every
          thing mentioned without ceremony.--If it be not so, let Mr. Darcy contradict it. Besides,
          there was truth in his looks."</p>
        <p>"It is difficult indeed--it is distressing.--One does not know what to think."</p>
        <p>"I beg your pardon;--one knows exactly what to think."</p>
        <p>But Jane could think with certainty on only one point,--that Mr. Bingley, if he <hi rend="italic">had been</hi> imposed on, would have much to suffer when the affair became
          public.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 198"/>
        <p>The two young ladies were summoned from the shrubbery where this conversation passed, by
          the arrival of some of the very persons of whom they had been speaking; Mr. Bingley and
          his sisters came to give their personal invitation for the long expected ball at
          Netherfield, which was fixed for the following Tuesday. The two ladies were delighted to
          see their dear friend again, called it an age since they had met, and repeatedly asked
          what she had been doing with herself since their separation. To the rest of the family
          they paid little attention; avoiding Mrs. Bennet as much as possible, saying not much to
          Elizabeth, and nothing at all to the others. They were soon gone again, rising from their
          seats with an activity which took their brother by surprise, and hurrying off as if eager
          to escape from Mrs. Bennet's civilities.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 199"/>
        <p>The prospect of the Netherfield ball was extremely agreeable to every female of the
          family. Mrs. Bennet chose to consider it as given in compliment to her eldest daughter,
          and was particularly flattered by receiving the invitation from Mr. Bingley himself,
          instead of a ceremonious card. Jane pictured to herself a happy evening in the society of
          her two friends, and the attentions of their brother; and Elizabeth thought with pleasure
          of dancing a great deal with Mr. Wickham, and of seeing a confirmation of every thing in
          Mr. Darcy's looks and behaviour. The happiness anticipated by Catherine and Lydia,
          depended less on any single event, or any particular person, for though they each, like
          Elizabeth, meant to dance half the evening with Mr. Wickham, he was by no means the only
          partner who could satisfy them, and a ball <pb n="[Vol. I] 200"/>was at any rate, a ball. And even Mary could
          assure her family that she had no disinclination for it.</p>
        <p>"While I can have my mornings to myself," said she, "it is enough.--I think it no
          sacrifice to join occasionally in evening engagements. Society has claims on us all; and I
          profess myself one of those who consider intervals of recreation and amusement as
          desirable for every body."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's spirits were so high on the occasion, that though she did not often speak
          unnecessarily to Mr. Collins, she could not help asking him whether he intended to accept
          Mr. Bingley's invitation, and if he did, whether he would think it proper to join in the
          evening's amusement; and she was rather surprised to find that he entertained no scruple
          whatever on that head, and was very far from dreading a rebuke either from the <pb n="[Vol. I] 201"/>Archbishop,
          or Lady Catherine de Bourgh, by venturing to dance.</p>
        <p>"I am by no means of opinion, I assure you," said he, "that a ball of this kind, given by
          a young man of character, to respectable people, can have any evil tendency; and I am so
          far from objecting to dancing myself that I shall hope to be honoured with the hands of
          all my fair cousins in the course of the evening, and I take this opportunity of
          soliciting yours, Miss Elizabeth, for the two first dances especially,--a preference which
          I trust my cousin Jane will attribute to the right cause, and not to any disrespect for
          her."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth felt herself completely taken in. She had fully proposed being engaged by
          Wickham for those very dances:--and to have Mr. Collins instead! her liveliness had been
          never worse timed. There was no help for it however. Mr. Wickham's <pb n="[Vol. I] 202"/>happiness and her own
          was per force delayed a little longer, and Mr. Collins's proposal accepted with as good a
          grace as she could. She was not the better pleased with his gallantry, from the idea it
          suggested of something more.--It now first struck her, that <hi rend="italic">she</hi> was
          selected from among her sisters as worthy of being the mistress of Hunsford Parsonage, and
          of assisting to form a quadrille table at Rosings, in the absence of more eligible
          visitors. The idea soon reached to conviction, as she observed his increasing civilities
          toward herself, and heard his frequent attempt at a compliment on her wit and vivacity;
          and though more astonished than gratified herself, by this effect of her charms, it was
          not long before her mother gave her to understand that the probability of their marriage
          was exceedingly agreeable to <hi rend="italic">her</hi>. Elizabeth however did not chuse
          to take the hint, <pb n="[Vol. I] 203"/>being well aware that a serious dispute must be the consequence of any
          reply. Mr. Collins might never make the offer, and till he did, it was useless to quarrel
          about him.</p>
        <p>If there had not been a Netherfield ball to prepare for and talk of, the younger Miss
          Bennets would have been in a pitiable state at this time, for from the day of the
          invitation, to the day of the ball, there was such a succession of rain as prevented their
          walking to Meryton once. No aunt, no officers, no news could be sought after;--the very
          shoe-roses for Netherfield were got by proxy. Even Elizabeth might have found some trial
          of her patience in weather, which totally suspended the improvement of her acquaintance
          with Mr. Wickham; and nothing less than a dance on Tuesday, could have made such a Friday,
          Saturday, Sunday and Monday, endurable to Kitty and Lydia.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="18">
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 204"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVIII.</head>
        <p> Till Elizabeth entered the drawing-room at Netherfield and looked in vain for Mr.
          Wickham among the cluster of red coats there assembled, a doubt of his being present had
          never occurred to her. The certainty of meeting him had not been checked by any of those
          recollections that might not unreasonably have alarmed her. She had dressed with more than
          usual care, and prepared in the highest spirits for the conquest of all that remained
          unsubdued of his heart, trusting that it was not more than might be won in the course of
          the evening. But in an instant arose the dreadful suspicion of his being purposely omitted
          for Mr. Darcy's pleasure in the <pb n="[Vol. I] 205"/>Bingleys' invitation to the officers; and though this was
          not exactly the case, the absolute fact of his absence was pronounced by his friend Mr.
          Denny, to whom Lydia eagerly applied, and who told them that Wickham had been obliged to
          go to town on business the day before, and was not yet returned; adding, with a
          significant smile,</p>
        <p>"I do not imagine his business would have called him away just now, if he had not wished
          to avoid a certain gentleman here."</p>
        <p>This part of his intelligence, though unheard by Lydia, was caught by Elizabeth, and as
          it assured her that Darcy was not less answerable for Wickham's absence than if her first
          surmise had been just, every feeling of displeasure against the former was so sharpened by
          immediate disappointment, that she could hardly reply <pb n="[Vol. I] 206 [re-]"/>with tolerable civility to the
          polite inquiries which he directly afterwards approached to make.--Attention, forbearance,
          patience with Darcy, was injury to Wickham. She was resolved against any sort of
          conversation with him, and turned away with a degree of ill humour, which she could not
          wholly surmount even in speaking to Mr. Bingley, whose blind partiality provoked her.</p>
        <p>But Elizabeth was not formed for ill-humour; and though every prospect of her own was
          destroyed for the evening, it could not dwell long on her spirits; and having told all her
          griefs to Charlotte Lucas, whom she had not seen for a week, she was soon able to make a
          voluntary transition to the oddities of her cousin, and to point him out to her particular
          notice. The two first dances, however, brought a return of distress; they <pb n="[Vol. I] 207"/>were dances of
          mortification. Mr. Collins, awkward and solemn, apologising instead of attending, and
          often moving wrong without being aware of it, gave her all the shame and misery which a
          disagreeable partner for a couple of dances can give. The moment of her release from him
          was ecstacy.</p>
        <p>She danced next with an officer, and had the refreshment of talking of Wickham, and of
          hearing that he was universally liked. When those dances were over she returned to
          Charlotte Lucas, and was in conversation with her, when she found herself suddenly
          addressed by Mr. Darcy, who took her so much by surprise in his application for her hand,
          that, without knowing what she did, she accepted him. He walked away again immediately,
          and she was left to fret over her own want of presence of mind; Charlotte tried to console
          her.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 208"/>
        <p>"I dare say you will find him very agreeable."</p>
        <p>"Heaven forbid!--<hi rend="italic">that</hi> would be the greatest misfortune of all!--To
          find a man agreeable whom one is determined to hate!--Do not wish me such an evil."</p>
        <p>When the dancing recommenced, however, and Darcy approached to claim her hand, Charlotte
          could not help cautioning her in a whisper not to be a simpleton and allow her fancy for
          Wickham to make her appear unpleasant in the eyes of a man of ten times his consequence.
          Elizabeth made no answer, and took her place in the set, amazed at the dignity to which
          she was arrived in being allowed to stand opposite to Mr. Darcy, and reading in her
          neighbours' looks their equal amazement in beholding it. They stood for some time without
          speaking a word; and <pb n="[Vol. I] 209"/>she began to imagine that their silence was to last through the two
          dances, and at first was resolved not to break it; till suddenly fancying that it would be
          the greater punishment to her partner to oblige him to talk, she made some slight
          observation on the dance. He replied, and was again silent. After a pause of some minutes
          she addressed him a second time with</p>
        <p>"It is <hi rend="italic">your</hi> turn to say something now, Mr. Darcy.--<hi rend="italic">I</hi> talked about the dance, and <hi rend="italic">you</hi> ought to
          make some kind of remark on the size of the room, or the number of couples."</p>
        <p>He smiled, and assured her that whatever she wished him to say should be said.</p>
        <p>"Very well.--That reply will do for the present.--Perhaps by and bye I may observe that
          private balls are much pleasanter than public ones.--But <hi rend="italic">now</hi> we may
          be silent."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 210"/>
        <p>"Do you talk by rule then, while you are dancing?"</p>
        <p>"Sometimes. One must speak a little, you know. It would look odd to be entirely silent
          for half an hour together, and yet for the advantage of <hi rend="italic">some</hi>,
          conversation ought to be so arranged as that they may have the trouble of saying as little
          as possible."</p>
        <p>"Are you consulting your own feelings in the present case, or do you imagine that you are
          gratifying mine?"</p>
        <p>"Both," replied Elizabeth archly; "for I have always seen a great similarity in the turn
          of our minds.--We are each of an unsocial, taciturn disposition, unwilling to speak,
          unless we expect to say something that will amaze the whole room, and be handed down to
          posterity with all the eclat of a proverb."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 211"/>
        <p>"This is no very striking resemblance of your own character, I am sure," said he. "How
          near it may be to <hi rend="italic">mine</hi>, I cannot pretend to say.--<hi rend="italic">You</hi> think it a faithful portrait undoubtedly."</p>
        <p>"I must not decide on my own performance."</p>
        <p>He made no answer, and they were again silent till they had gone down the dance, when he
          asked her if she and her sisters did not very often walk to Meryton. She answered in the
          affirmative, and, unable to resist the temptation, added, "When you met us there the other
          day, we had just been forming a new acquaintance."</p>
        <p>The effect was immediate. A deeper shade of hauteur overspread his features, but he said
          not a word, and Elizabeth, though blaming herself for her own weakness, could not go on.
          At length Darcy spoke, and in a constrained manner said,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 212"/>
        <p>"Mr. Wickham is blessed with such happy manners as may ensure his <hi rend="italic">making</hi> friends--whether he may be equally capable of <hi rend="italic">retaining</hi> them, is less certain."</p>
        <p>"He has been so unlucky as to lose <hi rend="italic">your</hi> friendship," replied
          Elizabeth with emphasis, "and in a manner which he is likely to suffer from all his
          life."</p>
        <p>Darcy made no answer, and seemed desirous of changing the subject. At that moment Sir
          William Lucas appeared close to them, meaning to pass through the set to the other side of
          the room; but on perceiving Mr. Darcy he stopt with a bow of superior courtesy to
          compliment him on his dancing and his partner.</p>
        <p>"I have been most highly gratified indeed, my dear Sir. Such very superior dancing is not
          often seen. It is evident that you belong to the first <pb n="[Vol. I] 213"/>circles. Allow me to say, however,
          that your fair partner does not disgrace you, and that I must hope to have this pleasure
          often repeated, especially when a certain desirable event, my dear Miss Eliza, (glancing
          at her sister and Bingley,) shall take place. What congratulations will then flow in! I
          appeal to Mr. Darcy:--but let me not interrupt you, Sir.--You will not thank me for
          detaining you from the bewitching converse of that young lady, whose bright eyes are also
          upbraiding me."</p>
        <p>The latter part of this address was scarcely heard by Darcy; but Sir William's allusion
          to his friend seemed to strike him forcibly, and his eyes were directed with a very
          serious expression towards Bingley and Jane, who were dancing together. Recovering
          himself, however, shortly, he turned to his partner, and said,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 214"/>
        <p>"Sir William's interruption has made me forget what we were talking of."</p>
        <p>"I do not think we were speaking at all. Sir William could not have interrupted any two
          people in the room who had less to say for themselves.--We have tried two or three
          subjects already without success, and what we are to talk of next I cannot imagine."</p>
        <p>"What think you of books?" said he, smiling.</p>
        <p>"Books--Oh! no.--I am sure we never read the same, or not with the same feelings."</p>
        <p>"I am sorry you think so; but if that be the case, there can at least be no want of
          subject.--We may compare our different opinions."</p>
        <p>"No--I cannot talk of books in a ball-room; my head is always full of something
          else."</p>
          <p>"The <hi rend="italic">present</hi> always occupies you <pb n="[Vol. I] 215"/>in such scenes--does it?" said
          he, with a look of doubt.</p>
        <p>"Yes, always," she replied, without knowing what she said, for her thoughts had wandered
          far from the subject, as soon afterwards appeared by her suddenly exclaiming, "I remember
          hearing you once say, Mr. Darcy, that you hardly ever forgave, that your resentment once
          created was unappeasable. You are very cautious, I suppose, as to its <hi rend="italic">being created</hi>."</p>
        <p>"I am," said he, with a firm voice.</p>
        <p>"And never allow yourself to be blinded by prejudice?"</p>
        <p>"I hope not."</p>
        <p>"It is particularly incumbent on those who never change their opinion, to be secure of
          judging properly at first."</p>
          <p>"May I ask to what these questions tend?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 216"/>
        <p>"Merely to the illustration of <hi rend="italic">your</hi> character," said she,
          endeavouring to shake off her gravity. "I am trying to make it out."</p>
        <p>"And what is your success?"</p>
        <p>She shook her head. "I do not get on at all. I hear such different accounts of you as
          puzzle me exceedingly."</p>
        <p>"I can readily believe," answered he gravely, "that report may vary greatly with respect
          to me; and I could wish, Miss Bennet, that you were not to sketch my character at the
          present moment, as there is reason to fear that the performance would reflect no credit on
          either."</p>
        <p>"But if I do not take your likeness now, I may never have another opportunity."</p>
        <p>"I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours," he coldly replied. She said no more,
          and they went <pb n="[Vol. I] 217"/>down the other dance and parted in silence; on each side dissatisfied,
          though not to an equal degree, for in Darcy's breast there was a tolerable powerful
          feeling towards her, which soon procured her pardon, and directed all his anger against
          another.</p>
        <p>They had not long separated when Miss Bingley came towards her, and with an expression of
          civil disdain thus accosted her,</p>
        <p>"So, Miss Eliza, I hear you are quite delighted with George Wickham!--Your sister has
          been talking to me about him, and asking me a thousand questions; and I find that the
          young man forgot to tell you, among his other communications, that he was the son of old
          Wickham, the late Mr. Darcy's steward. Let me recommend you, however, as a friend, not to
          give implicit confidence to all his assertions; for as to Mr. Darcy's <pb n="[Vol. I] 218"/>using him ill, it is
          perfectly false; for, on the contrary, he has been always remarkably kind to him, though
          George Wickham has treated Mr. Darcy in a most infamous manner. I do not know the
          particulars, but I know very well that Mr. Darcy is not in the least to blame, that he
          cannot bear to hear George Wickham mentioned, and that though my brother thought he could
          not well avoid including him in his invitation to the officers, he was excessively glad to
          find that he had taken himself out of the way. His coming into the country at all, is a
          most insolent thing indeed, and I wonder how he could presume to do it. I pity you, Miss
          Eliza, for this discovery of your favourite's guilt; but really considering his descent,
          one could not expect much better."</p>
          <p>"His guilt and his descent appear <pb n="[Vol. I] 219"/>by your account to be the same," said Elizabeth
          angrily; "for I have heard you accuse him of nothing worse than of being the son of Mr.
          Darcy's steward, and of <hi rend="italic">that</hi>, I can assure you, he informed me
          himself."</p>
        <p>"I beg your pardon," replied Miss Bingley, turning away with a sneer. "Excuse my
          interference.--It was kindly meant."</p>
        <p>"Insolent girl!" said Elizabeth to herself.--"You are much mistaken if you expect to
          influence me by such a paltry attack as this. I see nothing in it but your own wilful
          ignorance and the malice of Mr. Darcy." She then sought her eldest sister, who had
          undertaken to make inquiries on the same subject of Bingley. Jane met her with a smile of
          such sweet complacency, a glow of such happy expression, as sufficiently marked how well
          she was satisfied <pb n="[Vol. I] 220"/>with the occurrences of the evening.--Elizabeth instantly read her
          feelings, and at that moment solicitude for Wickham, resentment against his enemies, and
          every thing else gave way before the hope of Jane's being in the fairest way for
          happiness.</p>
        <p>"I want to know," said she, with a countenance no less smiling than her sister's, "what
          you have learnt about Mr. Wickham. But perhaps you have been too pleasantly engaged to
          think of any third person; in which case you may be sure of my pardon."</p>
        <p>"No," replied Jane, "I have not forgotten him; but I have nothing satisfactory to tell
          you. Mr. Bingley does not know the whole of his history, and is quite ignorant of the
          circumstances which have principally offended Mr. Darcy; but he will vouch for the good
          conduct, the probity and honour of his friend, and is <pb n="[Vol. I] 221"/>perfectly convinced that Mr. Wickham
          has deserved much less attention from Mr. Darcy than he has received; and I am sorry to
          say that by his account as well as his sister's, Mr. Wickham is by no means a respectable
          young man. I am afraid he has been very imprudent, and has deserved to lose Mr. Darcy's
          regard."</p>
        <p>"Mr. Bingley does not know Mr. Wickham himself?"</p>
        <p>"No; he never saw him till the other morning at Meryton."</p>
        <p>"This account then is what he has received from Mr. Darcy. I am perfectly satisfied. But
          what does he say of the living?"</p>
        <p>"He does not exactly recollect the circumstances, though he has heard them from Mr. Darcy
          more than once, but he believes that it was left to him <hi rend="italic">conditionally</hi> only."</p>
          <p>"I have not a doubt of Mr. Bingley's <pb n="[Vol. I] 222 [Bing-]"/>sincerity," said Elizabeth warmly; "but you must
          excuse my not being convinced by assurances only. Mr. Bingley's defence of his friend was
          a very able one I dare say, but since he is unacquainted with several parts of the story,
          and has learnt the rest from that friend himself, I shall venture still to think of both
          gentlemen as I did before."</p>
        <p>She then changed the discourse to one more gratifying to each, and on which there could
          be no difference of sentiment. Elizabeth listened with delight to the happy, though modest
          hopes which Jane entertained of Bingley's regard, and said all in her power to heighten
          her confidence in it. On their being joined by Mr. Bingley himself, Elizabeth withdrew to
          Miss Lucas; to whose inquiry after the pleasantness of her last partner she had scarcely
          replied, before Mr. <pb n="[Vol. I] 223"/>Collins came up to them and told her with great exultation that he had
          just been so fortunate as to make a most important discovery.</p>
        <p>"I have found out," said he, "by a singular accident, that there is now in the room a
          near relation of my patroness. I happened to overhear the gentleman himself mentioning to
          the young lady who does the honours of this house the names of his cousin Miss de Bourgh,
          and of her mother Lady Catherine. How wonderfully these sort of things occur! Who would
          have thought of my meeting with--perhaps--a nephew of Lady Catherine de Bourgh in this
          assembly!--I am most thankful that the discovery is made in time for me to pay my respects
          to him, which I am now going to do, and trust he will excuse my not having done it before.
          My total ignorance of the connection must plead my apology."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 224"/>
        <p>"You are not going to introduce yourself to Mr. Darcy?"</p>
        <p>"Indeed I am. I shall intreat his pardon for not having done it earlier. I believe him to
          be Lady Catherine's <hi rend="italic">nephew</hi>. It will be in my power to assure him
          that her ladyship was quite well yesterday se'night."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth tried hard to dissuade him from such a scheme; assuring him that Mr. Darcy
          would consider his addressing him without introduction as an impertinent freedom, rather
          than a compliment to his aunt; that it was not in the least necessary there should be any
          notice on either side, and that if it were, it must belong to Mr. Darcy, the superior in
          consequence, to begin the acquaintance.--Mr. Collins listened to her with the determined
          air of following his own inclination, and when she ceased speaking, replied thus,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 225"/>
        <p>"My dear Miss Elizabeth, I have the highest opinion in the world of your excellent
          judgment in all matters within the scope of your understanding, but permit me to say that
          there must be a wide difference between the established forms of ceremony amongst the
          laity, and those which regulate the clergy; for give me leave to observe that I consider
          the clerical office as equal in point of dignity with the highest rank in the
          kingdom--provided that a proper humility of behaviour is at the same time maintained. You
          must therefore allow me to follow the dictates of my conscience on this occasion, which
          leads me to perform what I look on as a point of duty. Pardon me for neglecting to profit
          by your advice, which on every other subject shall be my constant guide, though in the
          case before us I consider myself more <pb n="[Vol. I] 226"/>fitted by education and habitual study to decide on
          what is right than a young lady like yourself." And with a low bow he left her to attack
          Mr. Darcy, whose reception of his advances she eagerly watched, and whose astonishment at
          being so addressed was very evident. Her cousin prefaced his speech with a solemn bow, and
          though she could not hear a word of it, she felt as if hearing it all, and saw in the
          motion of his lips the words "apology," "Hunsford," and "Lady Catherine de Bourgh."--It
          vexed her to see him expose himself to such a man. Mr. Darcy was eyeing him with
          unrestrained wonder, and when at last Mr. Collins allowed him time to speak, replied with
          an air of distant civility. Mr. Collins, however, was not discouraged from speaking again,
          and Mr. Darcy's contempt seemed abundantly increasing with <pb n="[Vol. I] 227"/>the length of his second
          speech, and at the end of it he only made him a slight bow, and moved another way. Mr.
          Collins then returned to Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"I have no reason, I assure you," said he, "to be dissatisfied with my reception. Mr.
          Darcy seemed much pleased with the attention. He answered me with the utmost civility, and
          even paid me the compliment of saying, that he was so well convinced of Lady Catherine's
          discernment as to be certain she could never bestow a favour unworthily. It was really a
          very handsome thought. Upon the whole, I am much pleased with him."</p>
        <p>As Elizabeth had no longer any interest of her own to pursue, she turned her attention
          almost entirely on her sister and Mr. Bingley, and the train of agreeable reflections
          which her observations gave birth to, made her <pb n="[Vol. I] 228"/>perhaps almost as happy as Jane. She saw
          her in idea settled in that very house in all the felicity which a marriage of true
          affection could bestow; and she felt capable under such circumstances, of endeavouring
          even to like Bingley's two sisters. Her mother's thoughts she plainly saw were bent the
          same way, and she determined not to venture near her, lest she might hear too much. When
          they sat down to supper, therefore, she considered it a most unlucky perverseness which
          placed them within one of each other; and deeply was she vexed to find that her mother was
          talking to that one person (Lady Lucas) freely, openly, and of nothing else but of her
          expectation that Jane would be soon married to Mr. Bingley.--It was an animating subject,
          and Mrs. Bennet seemed incapable of fatigue while enumerating the advantages <pb n="[Vol. I] 229 [advan-]"/>of the match.
          His being such a charming young man, and so rich, and living but three miles from them,
          were the first points of self-gratulation; and then it was such a comfort to think how
          fond the two sisters were of Jane, and to be certain that they must desire the connection
          as much as she could do. It was, moreover, such a promising thing for her younger
          daughters, as Jane's marrying so greatly must throw them in the way of other rich men; and
          lastly, it was so pleasant at her time of life to be able to consign her single daughters
          to the care of their sister, that she might not be obliged to go into company more than
          she liked. It was necessary to make this circumstance a matter of pleasure, because on
          such occasions it is the etiquette; but no one was less likely than Mrs. Bennet to find
          comfort in staying at home at <pb n="[Vol. I] 230"/>any period of her life. She concluded with many good wishes
          that Lady Lucas might soon be equally fortunate, though evidently and triumphantly
          believing there was no chance of it.</p>
        <p>In vain did Elizabeth endeavour to check the rapidity of her mother's words, or persuade
          her to describe her felicity in a less audible whisper; for to her inexpressible vexation,
          she could perceive that the chief of it was overheard by Mr. Darcy, who sat opposite to
          them. Her mother only scolded her for being nonsensical.</p>
        <p>"What is Mr. Darcy to me, pray, that I should be afraid of him? I am sure we owe him no
          such particular civility as to be obliged to say nothing <hi rend="italic">he</hi> may not
          like to hear."</p>
        <p>"For heaven's sake, madam, speak lower.--What advantage can it be to you to offend Mr.
          Darcy?--You will <pb n="[Vol. I] 231"/>never recommend yourself to his friend by so doing."</p>
        <p>Nothing that she could say, however, had any influence. Her mother would talk of her
          views in the same intelligible tone. Elizabeth blushed and blushed again with shame and
          vexation. She could not help frequently glancing her eye at Mr. Darcy, though every glance
          convinced her of what she dreaded; for though he was not always looking at her mother, she
          was convinced that his attention was invariably fixed by her. The expression of his face
          changed gradually from indignant contempt to a composed and steady gravity.</p>
        <p>At length however Mrs. Bennet had no more to say; and Lady Lucas, who had been long
          yawning at the repetition of delights which she saw no likelihood of sharing, was left to
          the comforts of cold ham and chicken. <pb n="[Vol. I] 232"/>Elizabeth now began to revive. But not long was the
          interval of tranquillity; for when supper was over, singing was talked of, and she had the
          mortification of seeing Mary, after very little entreaty, preparing to oblige the company.
          By many significant looks and silent entreaties, did she endeavour to prevent such a proof
          of complaisance,--but in vain; Mary would not understand them; such an opportunity of
          exhibiting was delightful to her, and she began her song. Elizabeth's eyes were fixed on
          her with most painful sensations; and she watched her progress through the several stanzas
          with an impatience which was very ill rewarded at their close; for Mary, on receiving
          amongst the thanks of the table, the hint of a hope that she might be prevailed on to
          favour them again, after the pause of half a minute began another. Mary's <pb n="[Vol. I] 233"/>powers were by
          no means fitted for such a display; her voice was weak, and her manner
          affected.--Elizabeth was in agonies. She looked at Jane, to see how she bore it; but Jane
          was very composedly talking to Bingley. She looked at his two sisters, and saw them making
          signs of derision at each other, and at Darcy, who continued however impenetrably grave.
          She looked at her father to entreat his interference, lest Mary should be singing all
          night. He took the hint, and when Mary had finished her second song, said aloud,</p>
        <p>"That will do extremely well, child. You have delighted us long enough. Let the other
          young ladies have time to exhibit."</p>
        <p>Mary, though pretending not to hear, was somewhat disconcerted; and Elizabeth sorry for
          her, and sorry for her father's speech, was afraid her <pb n="[Vol. I] 234"/>anxiety had done no good.--Others
          of the party were now applied to.</p>
        <p>"If I," said Mr. Collins, "were so fortunate as to be able to sing, I should have great
          pleasure, I am sure, in obliging the company with an air; for I consider music as a very
          innocent diversion, and perfectly compatible with the profession of a clergyman.--I do not
          mean however to assert that we can be justified in devoting too much of our time to music,
          for there are certainly other things to be attended to. The rector of a parish has much to
          do.--In the first place, he must make such an agreement for tythes as may be beneficial to
          himself and not offensive to his patron. He must write his own sermons; and the time that
          remains will not be too much for his parish duties, and the care and improvement of his
          dwelling, which he cannot be excused <pb n="[Vol. I] 235"/>from making as comfortable as possible. And I do not
          think it of light importance that he should have attentive and conciliatory manners
          towards every body, especially towards those to whom he owes his preferment. I cannot
          acquit him of that duty; nor could I think well of the man who should omit an occasion of
          testifying his respect towards any body connected with the family." And with a bow to Mr.
          Darcy, he concluded his speech, which had been spoken so loud as to be heard by half the
          room.--Many stared.--Many smiled; but no one looked more amused than Mr. Bennet himself,
          while his wife seriously commended Mr. Collins for having spoken so sensibly, and observed
          in a half-whisper to Lady Lucas, that he was a remarkably clever, good kind of young
          man.</p>
          <p>To Elizabeth it appeared, that had <pb n="[Vol. I] 236"/>her family made an agreement to expose themselves as
          much as they could during the evening, it would have been impossible for them to play
          their parts with more spirit, or finer success; and happy did she think it for Bingley and
          her sister that some of the exhibition had escaped his notice, and that his feelings were
          not of a sort to be much distressed by the folly which he must have witnessed. That his
          two sisters and Mr. Darcy, however, should have such an opportunity of ridiculing her
          relations was bad enough, and she could not determine whether the silent contempt of the
          gentleman, or the insolent smiles of the ladies, were more intolerable.</p>
        <p>The rest of the evening brought her little amusement. She was teazed by Mr. Collins, who
          continued most perseveringly by her side, and though he could not prevail with her to
          dance <pb n="[Vol. I] 237"/>with him again, put it out of her power to dance with others. In vain did she
          entreat him to stand up with somebody else, and offer to introduce him to any young lady
          in the room. He assured her that as to dancing, he was perfectly indifferent to it; that
          his chief object was by delicate attentions to recommend himself to her, and that he
          should therefore make a point of remaining close to her the whole evening. There was no
          arguing upon such a project. She owed her greatest relief to her friend Miss Lucas, who
          often joined them, and good-naturedly engaged Mr. Collins's conversation to herself.</p>
        <p>She was at least free from the offence of Mr. Darcy's farther notice; though often
          standing within a very short distance of her, quite disengaged, he never came near enough
          to speak. She felt it to be the probable <pb n="[Vol. I] 238"/>consequence of her allusions to Mr. Wickham, and
          rejoiced in it.</p>
        <p>The Longbourn party were the last of all the company to depart; and by a manoeuvre of
          Mrs. Bennet had to wait for their carriages a quarter of an hour after every body else was
          gone, which gave them time to see how heartily they were wished away by some of the
          family. Mrs. Hurst and her sister scarcely opened their mouths except to complain of
          fatigue, and were evidently impatient to have the house to themselves. They repulsed every
          attempt of Mrs. Bennet at conversation, and by so doing, threw a languor over the whole
          party, which was very little relieved by the long speeches of Mr. Collins, who was
          complimenting Mr. Bingley and his sisters on the elegance of their entertainment, and the
          hospitality and politeness which had marked their <pb n="[Vol. I] 239"/>behaviour to their guests. Darcy said
          nothing at all. Mr. Bennet, in equal silence, was enjoying the scene. Mr. Bingley and Jane
          were standing together, a little detached from the rest, and talked only to each other.
          Elizabeth preserved as steady a silence as either Mrs. Hurst or Miss Bingley; and even
          Lydia was too much fatigued to utter more than the occasional exclamation of "Lord, how
          tired I am!" accompanied by a violent yawn.</p>
        <p>When at length they arose to take leave, Mrs. Bennet was most pressingly civil in her
          hope of seeing the whole family soon at Longbourn; and addressed herself particularly to
          Mr. Bingley, to assure him how happy he would make them, by eating a family dinner with
          them at any time, without the ceremony of a formal invitation. Bingley was all grateful
          pleasure, and <pb n="[Vol. I] 240"/>he readily engaged for taking the earliest opportunity of waiting on her,
          after his return from London, whither he was obliged to go the next day for a short
          time.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet was perfectly satisfied; and quitted the house under the delightful
          persuasion that, allowing for the necessary preparations of settlements, new carriages and
          wedding clothes, she should undoubtedly see her daughter settled at Netherfield, in the
          course of three or four months. Of having another daughter married to Mr. Collins, she
          thought with equal certainty, and with considerable, though not equal, pleasure. Elizabeth
          was the least dear to her of all her children; and though the man and the match were quite
          good enough for <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, the worth of each was eclipsed by Mr. Bingley
          and Netherfield.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="19">
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 241"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIX.</head>
        <p> The next day opened a new scene at Longbourn. Mr. Collins made his declaration in form.
          Having resolved to do it without loss of time, as his leave of absence extended only to
          the following Saturday, and having no feelings of diffidence to make it distressing to
          himself even at the moment, he set about it in a very orderly manner, with all the
          observances which he supposed a regular part of the business. On finding Mrs. Bennet,
          Elizabeth, and one of the younger girls together, soon after breakfast, he addressed the
          mother in these words,</p>
          <p>"May I hope, Madam, for your interest with your fair daughter Elizabeth, <pb n="[Vol. I] 242 [Eliza-]"/>when I solicit
          for the honour of a private audience with her in the course of this morning?"</p>
        <p>Before Elizabeth had time for any thing but a blush of surprise, Mrs. Bennet instantly
          answered,</p>
        <p>"Oh dear!--Yes--certainly.--I am sure Lizzy will be very happy--I am sure she can have no
          objection.--Come, Kitty, I want you up stairs." And gathering her work together, she was
          hastening away, when Elizabeth called out,</p>
        <p>"Dear Ma'am, do not go.--I beg you will not go.--Mr. Collins must excuse me.--He can have
          nothing to say to me that any body need not hear. I am going away myself."</p>
        <p>"No, no, nonsense, Lizzy.--I desire you will stay where you are."--And upon Elizabeth's
          seeming really, with vexed and embarrassed looks, about to escape, she added, "Lizzy, I<pb n="[Vol. I] 243"/>
            <hi rend="italic">insist</hi> upon your staying and hearing Mr. Collins."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth would not oppose such an injunction--and a moment's consideration making her
          also sensible that it would be wisest to get it over as soon and as quietly as possible,
          she sat down again, and tried to conceal by incessant employment the feelings which were
          divided between distress and diversion. Mrs. Bennet and Kitty walked off, and as soon as
          they were gone Mr. Collins began.</p>
        <p>"Believe me, my dear Miss Elizabeth, that your modesty, so far from doing you any
          disservice, rather adds to your other perfections. You would have been less amiable in my
          eyes had there <hi rend="italic">not</hi> been this little unwillingness; but allow me to
          assure you that I have your respected mother's permission for this address. You can hardly
          doubt the purport of my <pb n="[Vol. I] 244"/>discourse, however your natural delicacy may lead you to
          dissemble; my attentions have been too marked to be mistaken. Almost as soon as I entered
          the house I singled you out as the companion of my future life. But before I am run away
          with by my feelings on this subject, perhaps it will be advisable for me to state my
          reasons for marrying--and moreover for coming into Hertfordshire with the design of
          selecting a wife, as I certainly did."</p>
        <p>The idea of Mr. Collins, with all his solemn composure, being run away with by his
          feelings, made Elizabeth so near laughing that she could not use the short pause he
          allowed in any attempt to stop him farther, and he continued:</p>
        <p>"My reasons for marrying are, first, that I think it a right thing for every clergyman in
          easy circumstances (like <pb n="[Vol. I] 245"/>myself) to set the example of matrimony in his parish. Secondly,
          that I am convinced it will add very greatly to my happiness; and thirdly--which perhaps I
          ought to have mentioned earlier, that it is the particular advice and recommendation of
          the very noble lady whom I have the honour of calling patroness. Twice has she
          condescended to give me her opinion (unasked too!) on this subject; and it was but the
          very Saturday night before I left Hunsford--between our pools at quadrille, while Mrs.
          Jenkinson was arranging Miss de Bourgh's foot-stool, that she said, 'Mr. Collins, you must
          marry. A clergyman like you must marry.--Chuse properly, chuse a gentlewoman for <hi rend="italic">my</hi> sake; and for your <hi rend="italic">own</hi>, let her be an
          active, useful sort of person, not brought up high, but able to make a small income go a
          good <pb n="[Vol. I] 246"/>way. This is my advice. Find such a woman as soon as you can, bring her to Hunsford,
          and I will visit her.' Allow me, by the way, to observe, my fair cousin, that I do not
          reckon the notice and kindness of Lady Catherine de Bourgh as among the least of the
          advantages in my power to offer. You will find her manners beyond any thing I can
          describe; and your wit and vivacity I think must be acceptable to her, especially when
          tempered with the silence and respect which her rank will inevitably excite. Thus much for
          my general intention in favour of matrimony; it remains to be told why my views were
          directed to Longbourn instead of my own neighbourhood, where I assure you there are many
          amiable young women. But the fact is, that being, as I am, to inherit this estate after
          the death of your honoured father, (who, however, <pb n="[Vol. I] 247"/>may live many years longer,) I could not
          satisfy myself without resolving to chuse a wife from among his daughters, that the loss
          to them might be as little as possible, when the melancholy event takes place--which,
          however, as I have already said, may not be for several years. This has been my motive, my
          fair cousin, and I flatter myself it will not sink me in your esteem. And now nothing
          remains for me but to assure you in the most animated language of the violence of my
          affection. To fortune I am perfectly indifferent, and shall make no demand of that nature
          on your father, since I am well aware that it could not be complied with; and that one
          thousand pounds in the 4 per cents. which will not be yours till after your mother's
          decease, is all that you may ever be entitled to. On that head, therefore, I shall be
          uniformly silent; <pb n="[Vol. I] 248"/>and you may assure yourself that no ungenerous reproach shall ever pass
          my lips when we are married."</p>
        <p>It was absolutely necessary to interrupt him now.</p>
        <p>"You are too hasty, Sir," she cried. "You forget that I have made no answer. Let me do it
          without farther loss of time. Accept my thanks for the compliment you are paying me. I am
          very sensible of the honour of your proposals, but it is impossible for me to do otherwise
          than decline them."</p>
        <p>"I am not now to learn," replied Mr. Collins, with a formal wave of the hand, "that it is
          usual with young ladies to reject the addresses of the man whom they secretly mean to
          accept, when he first applies for their favour; and that sometimes the refusal is repeated
          a second or even a third time. I am therefore by no <pb n="[Vol. I] 249"/>means discouraged by what you have
          just said, and shall hope to lead you to the altar ere long."</p>
        <p>"Upon my word, Sir," cried Elizabeth, "your hope is rather an extraordinary one after my
          declaration. I do assure you that I am not one of those young ladies (if such young ladies
          there are) who are so daring as to risk their happiness on the chance of being asked a
          second time. I am perfectly serious in my refusal.--You could not make <hi rend="italic">me</hi> happy, and I am convinced that I am the last woman in the world who would make
            <hi rend="italic">you</hi> so.--Nay, were your friend Lady Catherine to know me, I am
          persuaded she would find me in every respect ill qualified for the situation."</p>
        <p>"Were it certain that Lady Catherine would think so," said Mr. Collins very gravely--"but
          I cannot imagine that her ladyship would at all <pb n="[Vol. I] 250"/>disapprove of you. And you may be certain
          that when I have the honour of seeing her again I shall speak in the highest terms of your
          modesty, economy, and other amiable qualifications."</p>
        <p>"Indeed, Mr. Collins, all praise of me will be unnecessary. You must give me leave to
          judge for myself, and pay me the compliment of believing what I say. I wish you very happy
          and very rich, and by refusing your hand, do all in my power to prevent your being
          otherwise. In making me the offer, you must have satisfied the delicacy of your feelings
          with regard to my family, and may take possession of Longbourn estate whenever it falls,
          without any self-reproach. This matter may be considered, therefore, as finally settled."
          And rising as she thus spoke, she would have quitted the room, had not Mr. Collins thus
          addressed her,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 251"/>
        <p>"When I do myself the honour of speaking to you next on this subject I shall hope to
          receive a more favourable answer than you have now given me; though I am far from accusing
          you of cruelty at present, because I know it to be the established custom of your sex to
          reject a man on the first application, and perhaps you have even now said as much to
          encourage my suit as would be consistent with the true delicacy of the female
          character."</p>
        <p>"Really, Mr. Collins," cried Elizabeth with some warmth, "you puzzle me exceedingly. If
          what I have hitherto said can appear to you in the form of encouragement, I know not how
          to express my refusal in such a way as may convince you of its being one."</p>
          <p>"You must give me leave to flatter myself, my dear cousin, that your refusal <pb n="[Vol. I] 252 [re-]"/>of my
          addresses is merely words of course. My reasons for believing it are briefly these:--It
          does not appear to me that my hand is unworthy your acceptance, or that the establishment
          I can offer would be any other than highly desirable. My situation in life, my connections
          with the family of De Bourgh, and my relationship to your own, are circumstances highly in
          my favour; and you should take it into farther consideration that in spite of your
          manifold attractions, it is by no means certain that another offer of marriage may ever be
          made you. Your portion is unhappily so small that it will in all likelihood undo the
          effects of your loveliness and amiable qualifications. As I must therefore conclude that
          you are not serious in your rejection of me, I shall chuse to attribute it to your wish of
          increasing my <pb n="[Vol. I] 253"/>love by suspense, according to the usual practice of elegant females."</p>
        <p>"I do assure you, Sir, that I have no pretension whatever to that kind of elegance which
          consists in tormenting a respectable man. I would rather be paid the compliment of being
          believed sincere. I thank you again and again for the honour you have done me in your
          proposals, but to accept them is absolutely impossible. My feelings in every respect
          forbid it. Can I speak plainer? Do not consider me now as an elegant female intending to
          plague you, but as a rational creature speaking the truth from her heart."</p>
        <p>"You are uniformly charming!" cried he, with an air of awkward gallantry; "and I am
          persuaded that when sanctioned by the express authority of both your excellent parents, my
          proposals will not fail of being acceptable."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 254"/>
        <p>To such perseverance in wilful self-deception Elizabeth would make no reply, and
          immediately and in silence withdrew; determined, if he persisted in considering her
          repeated refusals as flattering encouragement, to apply to her father, whose negative
          might be uttered in such a manner as must be decisive, and whose behaviour at least could
          not be mistaken for the affectation and coquetry of an elegant female.</p>
                        </div>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="20">
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 255"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XX.</head>
        <p> Mr. Collins was not left long to the silent contemplation of his successful love; for
          Mrs. Bennet, having dawdled about in the vestibule to watch for the end of the conference,
          no sooner saw Elizabeth open the door and with quick step pass her towards the staircase,
          than she entered the breakfast-room, and congratulated both him and herself in warm terms
          on the happy prospect of their nearer connection. Mr. Collins received and returned these
          felicitations with equal pleasure, and then proceeded to relate the particulars of their
          interview, with the result of which he trusted he had every reason to be satisfied, since
          the refusal which his cousin had steadfastly <pb n="[Vol. I] 256 [stead-"/>given him would naturally flow from her
          bashful modesty and the genuine delicacy of her character.</p>
        <p>This information, however, startled Mrs. Bennet;--she would have been glad to be equally
          satisfied that her daughter had meant to encourage him by protesting against his
          proposals, but she dared not to believe it, and could not help saying so.</p>
        <p>"But depend upon it, Mr. Collins," she added, "that Lizzy shall be brought to reason. I
          will speak to her about it myself directly. She is a very headstrong foolish girl, and
          does not know her own interest; but I will <hi rend="italic">make</hi> her know it."</p>
        <p>"Pardon me for interrupting you, Madam," cried Mr. Collins; "but if she is really
          headstrong and foolish, I know not whether she would altogether be a very desirable wife
          to a man in my situation, who naturally <pb n="[Vol. I] 257"/>looks for happiness in the marriage state. If
          therefore she actually persists in rejecting my suit, perhaps it were better not to force
          her into accepting me, because if liable to such defects of temper, she could not
          contribute much to my felicity."</p>
        <p>"Sir, you quite misunderstand me," said Mrs. Bennet, alarmed. "Lizzy is only headstrong
          in such matters as these. In every thing else she is as good natured a girl as ever lived.
          I will go directly to Mr. Bennet, and we shall very soon settle it with her, I am
          sure."</p>
        <p>She would not give him time to reply, but hurrying instantly to her husband, called out
          as she entered the library,</p>
        <p>"Oh! Mr. Bennet, you are wanted immediately; we are all in an uproar. You must come and
          make Lizzy marry Mr. Collins, for she <pb n="[Vol. I] 258"/>vows she will not have him, and if you do not make
          haste he will change his mind and not have <hi rend="italic">her</hi>."</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet raised his eyes from his book as she entered, and fixed them on her face with
          a calm unconcern which was not in the least altered by her communication.</p>
        <p>"I have not the pleasure of understanding you," said he, when she had finished her
          speech. "Of what are you talking?"</p>
        <p>"Of Mr. Collins and Lizzy. Lizzy declares she will not have Mr. Collins, and Mr. Collins
          begins to say that he will not have Lizzy."</p>
        <p>"And what am I to do on the occasion?--It seems an hopeless business."</p>
        <p>"Speak to Lizzy about it yourself. Tell her that you insist upon her marrying him."</p>
          <p>"Let her be called down. She shall hear my opinion."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 259"/>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet rang the bell, and Miss Elizabeth was summoned to the library.</p>
        <p>"Come here, child," cried her father as she appeared. "I have sent for you on an affair
          of importance. I understand that Mr. Collins has made you an offer of marriage. Is it
          true?" Elizabeth replied that it was. "Very well--and this offer of marriage you have
          refused?"</p>
        <p>"I have, Sir."</p>
        <p>"Very well. We now come to the point. Your mother insists upon your accepting it. Is not
          it so, Mrs. Bennet?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, or I will never see her again."</p>
        <p>"An unhappy alternative is before you, Elizabeth. From this day you must be a stranger to
          one of your parents.--Your mother will never see you again if you do <hi rend="italic">not</hi> marry Mr. <pb n="[Vol. I] 260"/>Collins, and I will never see you again if you <hi rend="italic">do</hi>."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could not but smile at such a conclusion of such a beginning; but Mrs. Bennet,
          who had persuaded herself that her husband regarded the affair as she wished, was
          excessively disappointed.</p>
        <p>"What do you mean, Mr. Bennet, by talking in this way? You promised me to <hi rend="italic">insist</hi> upon her marrying him."</p>
        <p>"My dear," replied her husband, "I have two small favours to request. First, that you
          will allow me the free use of my understanding on the present occasion; and secondly, of
          my room. I shall be glad to have the library to myself as soon as may be."</p>
        <p>Not yet, however, in spite of her disappointment in her husband, did Mrs. Bennet give up
          the point. She talked to Elizabeth again and again; <pb n="[Vol. I] 261"/>coaxed and threatened her by turns.
          She endeavoured to secure Jane in her interest, but Jane with all possible mildness
          declined interfering;--and Elizabeth sometimes with real earnestness and sometimes with
          playful gaiety replied to her attacks. Though her manner varied however, her determination
          never did.</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins, meanwhile, was meditating in solitude on what had passed. He thought too
          well of himself to comprehend on what motive his cousin could refuse him; and though his
          pride was hurt, he suffered in no other way. His regard for her was quite imaginary; and
          the possibility of her deserving her mother's reproach prevented his feeling any
          regret.</p>
        <p>While the family were in this confusion, Charlotte Lucas came to spend the day with them.
          She was <pb n="[Vol. I] 262"/>met in the vestibule by Lydia, who, flying to her, cried in a half whisper, "I am
          glad you are come, for there is such fun here!--What do you think has happened this
          morning?--Mr. Collins has made an offer to Lizzy, and she will not have him."</p>
        <p>Charlotte had hardly time to answer, before they were joined by Kitty, who came to tell
          the same news, and no sooner had they entered the breakfast-room, where Mrs. Bennet was
          alone, than she likewise began on the subject, calling on Miss Lucas for her compassion,
          and entreating her to persuade her friend Lizzy to comply with the wishes of all her
          family. "Pray do, my dear Miss Lucas," she added in a melancholy tone, "for nobody is on
          my side, nobody takes part with me, I am cruelly used, nobody feels for my poor
          nerves."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 263"/>
        <p>Charlotte's reply was spared by the entrance of Jane and Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"Aye, there she comes," continued Mrs. Bennet, "looking as unconcerned as may be, and
          caring no more for us than if we were at York, provided she can have her own way.--But I
          tell you what, Miss Lizzy, if you take it into your head to go on refusing every offer of
          marriage in this way, you will never get a husband at all--and I am sure I do not know who
          is to maintain you when your father is dead.--<hi rend="italic">I</hi> shall not be able
          to keep you--and so I warn you.--I have done with you from this very day.--I told you in
          the library, you know, that I should never speak to you again, and you will find me as
          good as my word. I have no pleasure in talking to undutiful children.--Not that I have
          much pleasure indeed in talking to any body. People who <pb n="[Vol. I] 264"/>suffer as I do from nervous
          complaints can have no great inclination for talking. Nobody can tell what I suffer!--But
          it is always so. Those who do not complain are never pitied."</p>
        <p>Her daughters listened in silence to this effusion, sensible that any attempt to reason
          with or sooth her would only increase the irritation. She talked on, therefore, without
          interruption from any of them till they were joined by Mr. Collins, who entered with an
          air more stately than usual, and on perceiving whom, she said to the girls,</p>
        <p>"Now, I do insist upon it, that you, all of you, hold your tongues, and let Mr. Collins
          and me have a little conversation together."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth passed quietly out of the room, Jane and Kitty followed, but Lydia stood her
          ground, determined <pb n="[Vol. I] 265"/>to hear all she could; and Charlotte, detained first by the civility of
          Mr. Collins, whose inquiries after herself and all her family were very minute, and then
          by a little curiosity, satisfied herself with walking to the window and pretending not to
          hear. In a doleful voice Mrs. Bennet thus began the projected conversation.--"Oh! Mr.
          Collins!"--</p>
        <p>"My dear Madam," replied he, "let us be for ever silent on this point. Far be it from
          me," he presently continued in a voice that marked his displeasure, "to resent the
          behaviour of your daughter. Resignation to inevitable evils is the duty of us all; the
          peculiar duty of a young man who has been so fortunate as I have been in early preferment;
          and I trust I am resigned. Perhaps not the less so from feeling a doubt of my positive
          happiness had my fair cousin honoured <pb n="[Vol. I] 266 [ho-]"/>me with her hand; for I have often observed that
          resignation is never so perfect as when the blessing denied begins to lose somewhat of its
          value in our estimation. You will not, I hope, consider me as shewing any disrespect to
          your family, my dear Madam, by thus withdrawing my pretensions to your daughter's favour,
          without having paid yourself and Mr. Bennet the compliment of requesting you to interpose
          your authority in my behalf. My conduct may I fear be objectionable in having accepted my
          dismission from your daughter's lips instead of your own. But we are all liable to error.
          I have certainly meant well through the whole affair. My object has been to secure an
          amiable companion for myself, with due consideration for the advantage of all your family,
          and if my <hi rend="italic">manner</hi> has been at all reprehensible, I here beg leave to
          apologise."</p>
                        </div>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 267"/>
        <p/>
                        <div type="chapter" n="21">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XXI.</head>
        <p> The discussion of Mr. Collins's offer was now nearly at an end, and Elizabeth had only
          to suffer from the uncomfortable feelings necessarily attending it, and occasionally from
          some peevish allusion of her mother. As for the gentleman himself, <hi rend="italic">his</hi> feelings were chiefly expressed, not by embarrassment or dejection, or by
          trying to avoid her, but by stiffness of manner and resentful silence. He scarcely ever
          spoke to her, and the assiduous attentions which he had been so sensible of himself, were
          transferred for the rest of the day to Miss Lucas, whose civility in listening to him, was
          a seasonable relief to them all, and especially to her friend.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 268"/>
        <p>The morrow produced no abatement of Mrs. Bennet's ill humour or ill health. Mr. Collins
          was also in the same state of angry pride. Elizabeth had hoped that his resentment might
          shorten his visit, but his plan did not appear in the least affected by it. He was always
          to have gone on Saturday, and to Saturday he still meant to stay.</p>
        <p>After breakfast, the girls walked to Meryton to inquire if Mr. Wickham were returned, and
          to lament over his absence from the Netherfield ball. He joined them on their entering the
          town and attended them to their aunt's, where his regret and vexation, and the concern of
          every body was well talked over.--To Elizabeth, however, he voluntarily acknowledged that
          the necessity of his absence <hi rend="italic">had</hi> been self imposed.</p>
          <p>"I found," said he, "as the time drew <pb n="[Vol. I] 269"/>near, that I had better not meet Mr. Darcy;--that
          to be in the same room, the same party with him for so many hours together, might be more
          than I could bear, and that scenes might arise unpleasant to more than myself."</p>
        <p>She highly approved his forbearance, and they had leisure for a full discussion of it,
          and for all the commendation which they civilly bestowed on each other, as Wickham and
          another officer walked back with them to Longbourn, and during the walk, he particularly
          attended to her. His accompanying them was a double advantage; she felt all the compliment
          it offered to herself, and it was most acceptable as an occasion of introducing him to her
          father and mother.</p>
        <p>Soon after their return, a letter was delivered to Miss Bennet; it came from Netherfield,
          and was opened immediately. <pb n="[Vol. I] 270 [im-]"/>The envelope contained a sheet of elegant, little, hot pressed
          paper, well covered with a lady's fair, flowing hand; and Elizabeth saw her sister's
          countenance change as she read it, and saw her dwelling intently on some particular
          passages. Jane recollected herself soon, and putting the letter away, tried to join with
          her usual cheerfulness in the general conversation; but Elizabeth felt an anxiety on the
          subject which drew off her attention even from Wickham; and no sooner had he and his
          companion taken leave, than a glance from Jane invited her to follow her up stairs. When
          they had gained their own room, Jane taking out the letter, said,</p>
        <p>"This is from Caroline Bingley; what it contains, has surprised me a good deal. The whole
          party have left Netherfield by this time, and are on their way to town; and without <pb n="[Vol. I] 271"/>any
          intention of coming back again. You shall hear what she says."</p>
        <p>She then read the first sentence aloud, which comprised the information of their having
          just resolved to follow their brother to town directly, and of their meaning to dine that
          day in Grosvenor street, where Mr. Hurst had a house. The next was in these words. "I do
          not pretend to regret any thing I shall leave in Hertfordshire, except your society, my
          dearest friend; but we will hope at some future period, to enjoy many returns of the
          delightful intercourse we have known, and in the mean while may lessen the pain of
          separation by a very frequent and most unreserved correspondence. I depend on you for
          that." To these high flown expressions, Elizabeth listened with all the insensibility of
          distrust; and though the suddenness of their removal surprised <pb n="[Vol. I] 272 [sur-]"/>her, she saw nothing in it
          really to lament; it was not to be supposed that their absence from Netherfield would
          prevent Mr. Bingley's being there; and as to the loss of their society, she was persuaded
          that Jane must soon cease to regard it, in the enjoyment of his.</p>
        <p>"It is unlucky," said she, after a short pause, "that you should not be able to see your
          friends before they leave the country. But may we not hope that the period of future
          happiness to which Miss Bingley looks forward, may arrive earlier than she is aware, and
          that the delightful intercourse you have known as friends, will be renewed with yet
          greater satisfaction as sisters?--Mr. Bingley will not be detained in London by them."</p>
          <p>"Caroline decidedly says that none of the party will return into Hertfordshire <pb n="[Vol. I] 273 [Hertford-]"/>this
          winter. I will read it to you--</p>
        <p>"When my brother left us yesterday, he imagined that the business which took him to
          London, might be concluded in three or four days, but as we are certain it cannot be so,
          and at the same time convinced that when Charles gets to town, he will be in no hurry to
          leave it again, we have determined on following him thither, that he may not be obliged to
          spend his vacant hours in a comfortless hotel. Many of my acquaintance are already there
          for the winter; I wish I could hear that you, my dearest friend, had any intention of
          making one in the croud, but of that I despair. I sincerely hope your Christmas in
          Hertfordshire may abound in the gaieties which that season generally brings, and that your
          beaux will be so numerous as to prevent your feeling the <pb n="[Vol. I] 274"/>loss of the three, of whom we
          shall deprive you."</p>
        <p>"It is evident by this," added Jane, "that he comes back no more this winter."</p>
        <p>"It is only evident that Miss Bingley does not mean he <hi rend="italic">should</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Why will you think so? It must be his own doing.--He is his own master. But you do not
          know <hi rend="italic">all</hi>. I <hi rend="italic">will</hi> read you the passage which
          particularly hurts me. I will have no reserves from <hi rend="italic">you</hi>." "Mr.
          Darcy is impatient to see his sister, and to confess the truth, <hi rend="italic">we</hi>
          are scarcely less eager to meet her again. I really do not think Georgiana Darcy has her
          equal for beauty, elegance, and accomplishments; and the affection she inspires in Louisa
          and myself, is heightened into something still more interesting, from the hope we dare to
          entertain of her being hereafter our sister. <pb n="[Vol. I] 275"/>I do not know whether I ever before mentioned
          to you my feelings on this subject, but I will not leave the country without confiding
          them, and I trust you will not esteem them unreasonable. My brother admires her greatly
          already, he will have frequent opportunity now of seeing her on the most intimate footing,
          her relations all wish the connection as much as his own, and a sister's partiality is not
          misleading me, I think, when I call Charles most capable of engaging any woman's heart.
          With all these circumstances to favour an attachment and nothing to prevent it, am I
          wrong, my dearest Jane, in indulging the hope of an event which will secure the happiness
          of so many?"</p>
        <p>"What think you of <hi rend="italic">this</hi> sentence, my dear Lizzy?"--said Jane as
          she finished it. "Is it not clear enough?--Does it not expressly declare that Caroline<pb n="[Vol. I] 276"/>
          neither expects nor wishes me to be her sister; that she is perfectly convinced of her
          brother's indifference, and that if she suspects the nature of my feelings for him, she
          means (most kindly!) to put me on my guard? Can there be any other opinion on the
          subject?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, there can; for mine is totally different.--Will you hear it?"</p>
        <p>"Most willingly."</p>
        <p>"You shall have it in few words. Miss Bingley sees that her brother is in love with you,
          and wants him to marry Miss Darcy. She follows him to town in the hope of keeping him
          there, and tries to persuade you that he does not care about you."</p>
        <p>Jane shook her head.</p>
        <p>"Indeed, Jane, you ought to believe me.--No one who has ever seen you together, can doubt
          his affection. Miss Bingley I am sure cannot. She <pb n="[Vol. I] 277"/>is not such a simpleton. Could she have
          seen half as much love in Mr. Darcy for herself, she would have ordered her wedding
          clothes. But the case is this. We are not rich enough, or grand enough for them; and she
          is the more anxious to get Miss Darcy for her brother, from the notion that when there has
          been <hi rend="italic">one</hi> intermarriage, she may have less trouble in achieving a
          second; in which there is certainly some ingenuity, and I dare say it would succeed, if
          Miss de Bourgh were out of the way. But, my dearest Jane, you cannot seriously imagine
          that because Miss Bingley tells you her brother greatly admires Miss Darcy, he is in the
          smallest degree less sensible of <hi rend="italic">your</hi> merit than when he took leave
          of you on Tuesday, or that it will be in her power to persuade him that instead of being
          in love with you, he is very much in love with her friend."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 278"/>
        <p>"If we thought alike of Miss Bingley," replied Jane, "your representation of all this,
          might make me quite easy. But I know the foundation is unjust. Caroline is incapable of
          wilfully deceiving any one; and all that I can hope in this case is, that she is deceived
          herself."</p>
        <p>"That is right.--You could not have started a more happy idea, since you will not take
          comfort in mine. Believe her to be deceived by all means. You have now done your duty by
          her, and must fret no longer."</p>
        <p>"But, my dear sister, can I be happy, even supposing the best, in accepting a man whose
          sisters and friends are all wishing him to marry elsewhere?"</p>
        <p>"You must decide for yourself," said Elizabeth, "and if upon mature deliberation, you
          find that the misery of disobliging his two sisters is more than equivalent to the
          happiness of <pb n="[Vol. I] 279"/>being his wife, I advise you by all means to refuse him."</p>
        <p>"How can you talk so?"--said Jane faintly smiling,--"You must know that though I should
          be exceedingly grieved at their disapprobation, I could not hesitate."</p>
        <p>"I did not think you would;--and that being the case, I cannot consider your situation
          with much compassion."</p>
        <p>"But if he returns no more this winter, my choice will never be required. A thousand
          things may arise in six months!"</p>
        <p>The idea of his returning no more Elizabeth treated with the utmost contempt. It appeared
          to her merely the suggestion of Caroline's interested wishes, and she could not for a
          moment suppose that those wishes, however openly or artfully spoken, could influence a
          young man so totally independent of every one.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 280"/>
        <p>She represented to her sister as forcibly as possible what she felt on the subject, and
          had soon the pleasure of seeing its happy effect. Jane's temper was not desponding, and
          she was gradually led to hope, though the diffidence of affection sometimes overcame the
          hope, that Bingley would return to Netherfield and answer every wish of her heart.</p>
        <p>They agreed that Mrs. Bennet should only hear of the departure of the family, without
          being alarmed on the score of the gentleman's conduct; but even this partial communication
          gave her a great deal of concern, and she bewailed it as exceedingly unlucky that the
          ladies should happen to go away, just as they were all getting so intimate together. After
          lamenting it however at some length, she had the consolation of thinking that Mr. Bingley
          would be soon down <pb n="[Vol. I] 281"/>again and soon dining at Longbourn, and the conclusion of all was the
          comfortable declaration that, though he had been invited only to a family dinner, she
          would take care to have two full courses.</p>
          <p/>
                        </div>
                        <pb n="[Vol. I] 282"/>
        <div type="chapter" n="22">
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XXII.</head>
        <p> The Bennets were engaged to dine with the Lucases, and again during the chief of the
          day, was Miss Lucas so kind as to listen to Mr. Collins. Elizabeth took an opportunity of
          thanking her. "It keeps him in good humour," said she, "and I am more obliged to you than
          I can express." Charlotte assured her friend of her satisfaction in being useful, and that
          it amply repaid her for the little sacrifice of her time. This was very amiable, but
          Charlotte's kindness extended farther than Elizabeth had any conception of;--its object
          was nothing less, than to secure her from any return of Mr. Collins's addresses, by
          engaging them towards herself. Such <pb n="[Vol. I] 283"/>was Miss Lucas's scheme; and appearances were so
          favourable that when they parted at night, she would have felt almost sure of success if
          he had not been to leave Hertfordshire so very soon. But here, she did injustice to the
          fire and independence of his character, for it led him to escape out of Longbourn House
          the next morning with admirable slyness, and hasten to Lucas Lodge to throw himself at her
          feet. He was anxious to avoid the notice of his cousins, from a conviction that if they
          saw him depart, they could not fail to conjecture his design, and he was not willing to
          have the attempt known till its success could be known likewise; for though feeling almost
          secure, and with reason, for Charlotte had been tolerably encouraging, he was
          comparatively diffident since the adventure of Wednesday. His reception however was <pb n="[Vol. I] 284"/>of the
          most flattering kind. Miss Lucas perceived him from an upper window as he walked towards
          the house, and instantly set out to meet him accidentally in the lane. But little had she
          dared to hope that so much love and eloquence awaited her there.</p>
        <p>In as short a time as Mr. Collins's long speeches would allow, every thing was settled
          between them to the satisfaction of both; and as they entered the house, he earnestly
          entreated her to name the day that was to make him the happiest of men; and though such a
          solicitation must be waved for the present, the lady felt no inclination to trifle with
          his happiness. The stupidity with which he was favoured by nature, must guard his
          courtship from any charm that could make a woman wish for its continuance; and Miss Lucas,
          who accepted him solely from the pure and <pb n="[Vol. I] 285"/>disinterested desire of an establishment, cared
          not how soon that establishment were gained.</p>
        <p>Sir William and Lady Lucas were speedily applied to for their consent; and it was
          bestowed with a most joyful alacrity. Mr. Collins's present circumstances made it a most
          eligible match for their daughter, to whom they could give little fortune; and his
          prospects of future wealth were exceedingly fair. Lady Lucas began directly to calculate
          with more interest than the matter had ever excited before, how many years longer Mr.
          Bennet was likely to live; and Sir William gave it as his decided opinion, that whenever
          Mr. Collins should be in possession of the Longbourn estate, it would be highly expedient
          that both he and his wife should make their appearance at St. James's. The whole family in
          short were properly <pb n="[Vol. I] 286"/>overjoyed on the occasion. The younger girls formed hopes of <hi rend="italic">coming out</hi> a year or two sooner than they might otherwise have done;
          and the boys were relieved from their apprehension of Charlotte's dying an old maid.
          Charlotte herself was tolerably composed. She had gained her point, and had time to
          consider of it. Her reflections were in general satisfactory. Mr. Collins to be sure was
          neither sensible nor agreeable; his society was irksome, and his attachment to her must be
          imaginary. But still he would be her husband.--Without thinking highly either of men or of
          matrimony, marriage had always been her object; it was the only honourable provision for
          well-educated young women of small fortune, and however uncertain of giving happiness,
          must be their pleasantest preservative from want. This preservative <pb n="[Vol. I] 287 [preserva-]"/>she had now obtained;
          and at the age of twenty-seven, without having ever been handsome, she felt all the good
          luck of it. The least agreeable circumstance in the business, was the surprise it must
          occasion to Elizabeth Bennet, whose friendship she valued beyond that of any other person.
          Elizabeth would wonder, and probably would blame her; and though her resolution was not to
          be shaken, her feelings must be hurt by such disapprobation. She resolved to give her the
          information herself, and therefore charged Mr. Collins when he returned to Longbourn to
          dinner, to drop no hint of what had passed before any of the family. A promise of secrecy
          was of course very dutifully given, but it could not be kept without difficulty; for the
          curiosity excited by his long absence, burst forth in such very direct questions on his
          return, as required <pb n="[Vol. I] 288 [re-]"/>some ingenuity to evade, and he was at the same time exercising great
          self-denial, for he was longing to publish his prosperous love.</p>
        <p>As he was to begin his journey too early on the morrow to see any of the family, the
          ceremony of leave-taking was performed when the ladies moved for the night; and Mrs.
          Bennet with great politeness and cordiality said how happy they should be to see him at
          Longbourn again, whenever his other engagements might allow him to visit them.</p>
        <p>"My dear Madam," he replied, "this invitation is particularly gratifying, because it is
          what I have been hoping to receive; and you may be very certain that I shall avail myself
          of it as soon as possible."</p>
        <p>They were all astonished; and Mr. Bennet, who could by no means wish for so speedy a
          return, immediately said,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 289"/>
        <p>"But is there not danger of Lady Catherine's disapprobation here, my good sir?--You had
          better neglect your relations, than run the risk of offending your patroness."</p>
        <p>"My dear sir," replied Mr. Collins, "I am particularly obliged to you for this friendly
          caution, and you may depend upon my not taking so material a step without her ladyship's
          concurrence."</p>
        <p>"You cannot be too much on your guard. Risk any thing rather than her displeasure; and if
          you find it likely to be raised by your coming to us again, which I should think
          exceedingly probable, stay quietly at home, and be satisfied that <hi rend="italic">we</hi> shall take no offence."</p>
        <p>"Believe me, my dear sir, my gratitude is warmly excited by such affectionate attention;
          and depend upon it, you will speedily receive from me a <pb n="[Vol. I] 290"/>letter of thanks for this, as well
          as for every other mark of your regard during my stay in Hertfordshire. As for my fair
          cousins, though my absence may not be long enough to render it necessary, I shall now take
          the liberty of wishing them health and happiness, not excepting my cousin Elizabeth."</p>
        <p>With proper civilities the ladies then withdrew; all of them equally surprised to find
          that he meditated a quick return. Mrs. Bennet wished to understand by it that he thought
          of paying his addresses to one of her younger girls, and Mary might have been prevailed on
          to accept him. She rated his abilities much higher than any of the others; there was a
          solidity in his reflections which often struck her, and though by no means so clever as
          herself, she thought that if encouraged to read and improve himself by <pb n="[Vol. I] 291"/>such an example as
          her's, he might become a very agreeable companion. But on the following morning, every
          hope of this kind was done away. Miss Lucas called soon after breakfast, and in a private
          conference with Elizabeth related the event of the day before.</p>
        <p>The possibility of Mr. Collins's fancying himself in love with her friend had once
          occurred to Elizabeth within the last day or two; but that Charlotte could encourage him,
          seemed almost as far from possibility as that she could encourage him herself, and her
          astonishment was consequently so great as to overcome at first the bounds of decorum, and
          she could not help crying out,</p>
        <p>"Engaged to Mr. Collins! my dear Charlotte,--impossible!"</p>
          <p>The steady countenance which Miss Lucas had commanded in telling <pb n="[Vol. I] 292"/>her story, gave way to a
          momentary confusion here on receiving so direct a reproach; though, as it was no more than
          she expected, she soon regained her composure, and calmly replied,</p>
        <p>"Why should you be surprised, my dear Eliza?--Do you think it incredible that Mr. Collins
          should be able to procure any woman's good opinion, because he was not so happy as to
          succeed with you?"</p>
        <p>But Elizabeth had now recollected herself, and making a strong effort for it, was able to
          assure her with tolerable firmness that the prospect of their relationship was highly
          grateful to her, and that she wished her all imaginable happiness.</p>
        <p>"I see what you are feeling," replied Charlotte,--"you must be surprised, very much
          surprised,--so lately as Mr. Collins was wishing to marry you. But when you have had <pb n="[Vol. I] 293"/>time
          to think it all over, I hope you will be satisfied with what I have done. I am not
          romantic you know. I never was. I ask only a comfortable home; and considering Mr.
          Collins's character, connections, and situation in life, I am convinced that my chance of
          happiness with him is as fair, as most people can boast on entering the marriage
          state."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth quietly answered "Undoubtedly;"--and after an awkward pause, they returned to
          the rest of the family. Charlotte did not stay much longer, and Elizabeth was then left to
          reflect on what she had heard. It was a long time before she became at all reconciled to
          the idea of so unsuitable a match. The strangeness of Mr. Collins's making two offers of
          marriage within three days, was nothing in comparison of his being now accepted. She had
          always felt that <pb n="[Vol. I] 294"/>Charlotte's opinion of matrimony was not exactly like her own, but she
          could not have supposed it possible that when called into action, she would have
          sacrificed every better feeling to worldly advantage. Charlotte the wife of Mr. Collins,
          was a most humiliating picture!--And to the pang of a friend disgracing herself and sunk
          in her esteem, was added the distressing conviction that it was impossible for that friend
          to be tolerably happy in the lot she had chosen.</p>
          <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. I] 295"/>
        <head type="sub">CHAPTER XXIII.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth was sitting with her mother and sisters, reflecting on what she had heard, and
          doubting whether she were authorised to mention it, when Sir William Lucas himself
          appeared, sent by his daughter to announce her engagement to the family. With many
          compliments to them, and much self-gratulation on the prospect of a connection between the
          houses, he unfolded the matter,--to an audience not merely wondering, but incredulous; for
          Mrs. Bennet, with more perseverance than politeness, protested he must be entirely
          mistaken, and Lydia, always unguarded and often uncivil, boisterously exclaimed,</p>
          <p>"Good Lord! Sir William, how <pb n="[Vol. I] 296"/>can you tell such a story?--Do not you know that Mr. Collins
          wants to marry Lizzy?"</p>
        <p>Nothing less than the complaisance of a courtier could have borne without anger such
          treatment; but Sir William's good breeding carried him through it all; and though he
          begged leave to be positive as to the truth of his information, he listened to all their
          impertinence with the most forbearing courtesy.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, feeling it incumbent on her to relieve him from so unpleasant a situation, now
          put herself forward to confirm his account, by mentioning her prior knowledge of it from
          Charlotte herself; and endeavoured to put a stop to the exclamations of her mother and
          sisters, by the earnestness of her congratulations to Sir William, in which she was
          readily joined by Jane, and by making a variety of remarks <pb n="[Vol. I] 297 [re-]"/>on the happiness that might be
          expected from the match, the excellent character of Mr. Collins, and the convenient
          distance of Hunsford from London.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet was in fact too much overpowered to say a great deal while Sir William
          remained; but no sooner had he left them than her feelings found a rapid vent. In the
          first place, she persisted in disbelieving the whole of the matter; secondly, she was very
          sure that Mr. Collins had been taken in; thirdly, she trusted that they would never be
          happy together; and fourthly, that the match might be broken off. Two inferences, however,
          were plainly deduced from the whole; one, that Elizabeth was the real cause of all the
          mischief; and the other, that she herself had been barbarously used by them all; and on
          these two points she principally dwelt during <pb n="[Vol. I] 298"/>the rest of the day. Nothing could console
          and nothing appease her.--Nor did that day wear out her resentment. A week elapsed before
          she could see Elizabeth without scolding her, a month passed away before she could speak
          to Sir William or Lady Lucas without being rude, and many months were gone before she
          could at all forgive their daughter.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet's emotions were much more tranquil on the occasion, and such as he did
          experience he pronounced to be of a most agreeable sort; for it gratified him, he said, to
          discover that Charlotte Lucas, whom he had been used to think tolerably sensible, was as
          foolish as his wife, and more foolish than his daughter!</p>
        <p>Jane confessed herself a little surprised at the match; but she said less of her
          astonishment than of her earnest desire for their happiness; <pb n="[Vol. I] 299"/>nor could Elizabeth persuade
          her to consider it as improbable. Kitty and Lydia were far from envying Miss Lucas, for
          Mr. Collins was only a clergyman; and it affected them in no other way than as a piece of
          news to spread at Meryton.</p>
        <p>Lady Lucas could not be insensible of triumph on being able to retort on Mrs. Bennet the
          comfort of having a daughter well married; and she called at Longbourn rather oftener than
          usual to say how happy she was, though Mrs. Bennet's sour looks and ill-natured remarks
          might have been enough to drive happiness away.</p>
        <p>Between Elizabeth and Charlotte there was a restraint which kept them mutually silent on
          the subject; and Elizabeth felt persuaded that no real confidence could ever subsist
          between them again. Her disappointment in Charlotte made her turn with fonder <pb n="[Vol. I] 300"/>regard to
          her sister, of whose rectitude and delicacy she was sure her opinion could never be
          shaken, and for whose happiness she grew daily more anxious, as Bingley had now been gone
          a week, and nothing was heard of his return.</p>
        <p>Jane had sent Caroline an early answer to her letter, and was counting the days till she
          might reasonably hope to hear again. The promised letter of thanks from Mr. Collins
          arrived on Tuesday, addressed to their father, and written with all the solemnity of
          gratitude which a twelvemonth's abode in the family might have prompted. After discharging
          his conscience on that head, he proceeded to inform them, with many rapturous expressions,
          of his happiness in having obtained the affection of their amiable neighbour, Miss Lucas,
          and then explained that it was merely <pb n="[Vol. I] 301"/>with the view of enjoying her society that he had
          been so ready to close with their kind wish of seeing him again at Longbourn, whither he
          hoped to be able to return on Monday fortnight; for Lady Catherine, he added, so heartily
          approved his marriage, that she wished it to take place as soon as possible, which he
          trusted would be an unanswerable argument with his amiable Charlotte to name an early day
          for making him the happiest of men.</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins's return into Hertfordshire was no longer a matter of pleasure to Mrs.
          Bennet. On the contrary she was as much disposed to complain of it as her husband.--It was
          very strange that he should come to Longbourn instead of to Lucas Lodge; it was also very
          inconvenient and exceedingly troublesome.--She hated having visitors in the house <pb n="[Vol. I] 302"/>while
          her health was so indifferent, and lovers were of all people the most disagreeable. Such
          were the gentle murmurs of Mrs. Bennet, and they gave way only to the greater distress of
          Mr. Bingley's continued absence.</p>
        <p>Neither Jane nor Elizabeth were comfortable on this subject. Day after day passed away
          without bringing any other tidings of him than the report which shortly prevailed in
          Meryton of his coming no more to Netherfield the whole winter; a report which highly
          incensed Mrs. Bennet, and which she never failed to contradict as a most scandalous
          falsehood.</p>
        <p>Even Elizabeth began to fear--not that Bingley was indifferent--but that his sisters
          would be successful in keeping him away. Unwilling as she was to admit an idea so
          destructive of Jane's happiness, and so dishonourable <pb n="[Vol. I] 303 [disho-]"/>to the stability of her lover, she
          could not prevent its frequently recurring. The united efforts of his two unfeeling
          sisters and of his overpowering friend, assisted by the attractions of Miss Darcy and the
          amusements of London, might be too much, she feared, for the strength of his
          attachment.</p>
        <p>As for Jane, <hi rend="italic">her</hi> anxiety under this suspence was, of course, more
          painful than Elizabeth's; but whatever she felt she was desirous of concealing, and
          between herself and Elizabeth, therefore, the subject was never alluded to. But as no such
          delicacy restrained her mother, an hour seldom passed in which she did not talk of
          Bingley, express her impatience for his arrival, or even require Jane to confess that if
          he did not come back, she should think herself <pb n="[Vol. I] 304"/>very ill used. It needed all Jane's steady
          mildness to bear these attacks with tolerable tranquillity.</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins returned most punctually on the Monday fortnight, but his reception at
          Longbourn was not quite so gracious as it had been on his first introduction. He was too
          happy, however, to need much attention; and luckily for the others, the business of
          love-making relieved them from a great deal of his company. The chief of every day was
          spent by him at Lucas Lodge, and he sometimes returned to Longbourn only in time to make
          an apology for his absence before the family went to bed.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet was really in a most pitiable state. The very mention of any thing concerning
          the match threw her into an agony of ill humour, and wherever she went she was sure of<pb n="[Vol. I] 305"/>
          hearing it talked of. The sight of Miss Lucas was odious to her. As her successor in that
          house, she regarded her with jealous abhorrence. Whenever Charlotte came to see them she
          concluded her to be anticipating the hour of possession; and whenever she spoke in a low
          voice to Mr. Collins, was convinced that they were talking of the Longbourn estate, and
          resolving to turn herself and her daughters out of the house, as soon as Mr. Bennet were
          dead. She complained bitterly of all this to her husband.</p>
        <p>"Indeed, Mr. Bennet," said she, "it is very hard to think that Charlotte Lucas should
          ever be mistress of this house, that I should be forced to make way for <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, and live to see her take my place in it!"</p>
          <p>"My dear, do not give way to <pb n="[Vol. I] 306"/>such gloomy thoughts. Let us hope for better things. Let us
          flatter ourselves that <hi rend="italic">I</hi> may be the survivor."</p>
        <p>This was not very consoling to Mrs. Bennet, and, therefore, instead of making any answer,
          she went on as before,</p>
        <p>"I cannot bear to think that they should have all this estate. If it was not for the
          entail I should not mind it."</p>
        <p>"What should not you mind?"</p>
        <p>"I should not mind any thing at all."</p>
        <p>"Let us be thankful that you are preserved from a state of such insensibility."</p>
        <p>"I never can be thankful, Mr. Bennet, for any thing about the entail. How any one could
          have the conscience to entail away an estate from one's own daughters I cannot understand;
          and <pb n="[Vol. I] 307"/>all for the sake of Mr. Collins too!--Why should <hi rend="italic">he</hi> have it
          more than anybody else?"</p>
        <p>"I leave it to yourself to determine," said Mr. Bennet.</p>
        <trailer>END OF VOL. I.</trailer>
      </div>
      </div>
      <div type="volume" n="2">
        <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <head type="main"> PRIDE &amp; PREJUDICE.</head>
        <p/>
        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER I.</head>
        <p> Miss Bingley's letter arrived, and put an end to doubt. The very first sentence conveyed
          the assurance of their being all settled in London for the winter, and concluded with her
          brother's regret at not having had time to pay his respects to his friends in
          Hertfordshire before he left the country.</p>
        <p>Hope was over, entirely over; and when Jane could attend to the rest of the letter, she
          found little, except the professed affection of the writer, that could give her any
          comfort. Miss Darcy's praise occupied the chief of it. Her many attractions were again
          dwelt on, and <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>Caroline boasted joyfully of their increasing intimacy, and ventured to
          predict the accomplishment of the wishes which had been unfolded in her former letter. She
          wrote also with great pleasure of her brother's being an inmate of Mr. Darcy's house, and
          mentioned with raptures, some plans of the latter with regard to new furniture.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, to whom Jane very soon communicated the chief of all this, heard it in silent
          indignation. Her heart was divided between concern for her sister, and resentment against
          all the others. To Caroline's assertion of her brother's being partial to Miss Darcy she
          paid no credit. That he was really fond of Jane, she doubted no more than she had ever
          done; and much as she had always been disposed to like him, she could not think without
          anger, hardly without contempt, on that easiness of temper, that want of proper resolution<pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
          which now made him the slave of his designing friends, and led him to sacrifice his own
          happiness to the caprice of their inclinations. Had his own happiness, however, been the
          only sacrifice, he might have been allowed to sport with it in what ever manner he thought
          best; but her sister's was involved in it, as she thought he must be sensible himself. It
          was a subject, in short, on which reflection would be long indulged, and must be
          unavailing. She could think of nothing else, and yet whether Bingley's regard had really
          died away, or were suppressed by his friends' interference; whether he had been aware of
          Jane's attachment, or whether it had escaped his observation; whichever were the case,
          though her opinion of him must be materially affected by the difference, her sister's
          situation remained the same, her peace equally wounded.</p>
        <p>A day or two passed before Jane had <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>courage to speak of her feelings to Elizabeth; but at
          last on Mrs. Bennet's leaving them together, after a longer irritation than usual about
          Netherfield and its master, she could not help saying,</p>
        <p>"Oh! that my dear mother had more command over herself; she can have no idea of the pain
          she gives me by her continual reflections on him. But I will not repine. It cannot last
          long. He will be forgot, and we shall all be as we were before."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth looked at her sister with incredulous solicitude, but said nothing.</p>
        <p>"You doubt me," cried Jane, slightly colouring; "indeed you have no reason. He may live
          in my memory as the most amiable man of my acquaintance, but that is all. I have nothing
          either to hope or fear, and nothing to reproach him with. Thank God! I have not <hi rend="italic">that</hi> pain. A little time therefore.--I shall certainly try to get the
          better."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p>With a stronger voice she soon added, "I have this comfort immediately, that it has not
          been more than an error of fancy on my side, and that it has done no harm to any one but
          myself."</p>
        <p>"My dear Jane!" exclaimed Elizabeth, "you are too good. Your sweetness and
          disinterestedness are really angelic; I do not know what to say to you. I feel as if I had
          never done you justice, or loved you as you deserve."</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet eagerly disclaimed all extraordinary merit, and threw back the praise on her
          sister's warm affection.</p>
        <p>"Nay," said Elizabeth, "this is not fair. <hi rend="italic">You</hi> wish to think all
          the world respectable, and are hurt if I speak ill of any body. <hi rend="italic">I</hi>
          only want to think <hi rend="italic">you</hi> perfect, and you set yourself against it. Do
          not be afraid of my running into any excess, of my encroaching on your privilege of
          universal good will. You need not. There are few people whom I really <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>love, and still
          fewer of whom I think well. The more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with
          it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of
          the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of either merit or sense. I
          have met with two instances lately; one I will not mention; the other is Charlotte's
          marriage. It is unaccountable! in every view it is unaccountable!"</p>
        <p>"My dear Lizzy, do not give way to such feelings as these. They will ruin your happiness.
          You do not make allowance enough for difference of situation and temper. Consider Mr.
          Collins's respectability, and Charlotte's prudent, steady character. Remember that she is
          one of a large family; that as to fortune, it is a most eligible match; and be ready to
          believe, for every body's sake, that she may feel something like regard and esteem for our
          cousin."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p>"To oblige you, I would try to believe almost any thing, but no one else could be
          benefited by such a belief as this; for were I persuaded that Charlotte had any regard for
          him, I should only think worse of her understanding, than I now do of her heart. My dear
          Jane, Mr. Collins is a conceited, pompous, narrow-minded, silly man; you know he is, as
          well as I do; and you must feel, as well as I do, that the woman who marries him, cannot
          have a proper way of thinking. You shall not defend her, though it is Charlotte Lucas. You
          shall not, for the sake of one individual, change the meaning of principle and integrity,
          nor endeavour to persuade yourself or me, that selfishness is prudence, and insensibility
          of danger, security for happiness."</p>
        <p>"I must think your language too strong in speaking of both," replied Jane, "and I hope
          you will be convinced <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>of it, by seeing them happy together. But enough of this. You
          alluded to something else. You mentioned <hi rend="italic">two</hi> instances. I cannot
          misunderstand you, but I intreat you, dear Lizzy, not to pain me by thinking <hi rend="italic">that person</hi> to blame, and saying your opinion of him is sunk. We must
          not be so ready to fancy ourselves intentionally injured. We must not expect a lively
          young man to be always so guarded and circumspect. It is very often nothing but our own
          vanity that deceives us. Women fancy admiration means more than it does."</p>
        <p>"And men take care that they should."</p>
        <p>"If it is designedly done, they cannot be justified; but I have no idea of there being so
          much design in the world as some persons imagine."</p>
        <p>"I am far from attributing any part of Mr. Bingley's conduct to design," said Elizabeth;
          "but without scheming to do wrong, or to make others unhappy, <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [page breaks at un-]"/>there may be error, and
          there may be misery. Thoughtlessness, want of attention to other people's feelings, and
          want of resolution, will do the business."</p>
        <p>"And do you impute it to either of those?"</p>
        <p>"Yes; to the last. But if I go on, I shall displease you by saying what I think of
          persons you esteem. Stop me whilst you can."</p>
        <p>"You persist, then, in supposing his sisters influence him."</p>
        <p>"Yes, in conjunction with his friend."</p>
        <p>"I cannot believe it. Why should they try to influence him? They can only wish his
          happiness, and if he is attached to me, no other woman can secure it."</p>
        <p>"Your first position is false. They may wish many things besides his happiness; they may
          wish his increase of wealth and consequence; they may wish <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>him to marry a girl who has all
          the importance of money, great connections, and pride."</p>
        <p>"Beyond a doubt, they <hi rend="italic">do</hi> wish him to chuse Miss Darcy," replied
          Jane; "but this may be from better feelings than you are supposing. They have known her
          much longer than they have known me; no wonder if they love her better. But, whatever may
          be their own wishes, it is very unlikely they should have opposed their brother's. What
          sister would think herself at liberty to do it, unless there were something very
          objectionable? If they believed him attached to me, they would not try to part us; if he
          were so, they could not succeed. By supposing such an affection, you make every body
          acting unnaturally and wrong, and me most unhappy. Do not distress me by the idea. I am
          not ashamed of having been mistaken--or, at least, it is slight, it is nothing <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [no-]"/>in
          comparison of what I should feel in thinking ill of him or his sisters. Let me take it in
          the best light, in the light in which it may be understood."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could not oppose such a wish; and from this time Mr. Bingley's name was
          scarcely ever mentioned between them.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet still continued to wonder and repine at his returning no more, and though a
          day seldom passed in which Elizabeth did not account for it clearly, there seemed little
          chance of her ever considering it with less perplexity. Her daughter endeavoured to
          convince her of what she did not believe herself, that his attentions to Jane had been
          merely the effect of a common and transient liking, which ceased when he saw her no more;
          but though the probability of the statement was admitted at the time, she had the same
          story to repeat every day. Mrs. Bennet's best comfort was, that <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>Mr. Bingley must be down
          again in the summer.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet treated the matter differently. "So, Lizzy," said he one day, "your sister is
          crossed in love I find. I congratulate her. Next to being married, a girl likes to be
          crossed in love a little now and then. It is something to think of, and gives her a sort
          of distinction among her companions. When is your turn to come? You will hardly bear to be
          long outdone by Jane. Now is your time. Here are officers enough at Meryton to disappoint
          all the young ladies in the country. Let Wickham be <hi rend="italic">your</hi> man. He is
          a pleasant fellow, and would jilt you creditably."</p>
        <p>"Thank you, Sir, but a less agreeable man would satisfy me. We must not all expect Jane's
          good fortune."</p>
        <p>"True," said Mr. Bennet, "but it is a comfort to think that, whatever of that kind may
          befal you, you have an affectionate <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [affec-]"/>mother who will always make the most of it."</p>
        <p>Mr. Wickham's society was of material service in dispelling the gloom, which the late
          perverse occurrences had thrown on many of the Longbourn family. They saw him often, and
          to his other recommendations was now added that of general unreserve. The whole of what
          Elizabeth had already heard, his claims on Mr. Darcy, and all that he had suffered from
          him, was now openly acknowledged and publicly canvassed; and every body was pleased to
          think how much they had always disliked Mr. Darcy before they had known any thing of the
          matter.</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet was the only creature who could suppose there might be any extenuating
          circumstances in the case, unknown to the society of Hertfordshire; her mild and steady
          candour always <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [al-]"/>pleaded for allowances, and urged the possibility of mistakes--but by
          everybody else Mr. Darcy was condemned as the worst of men.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER II.</head>
        <p> After a week spent in professions of love and schemes of felicity, Mr. Collins was
          called from his amiable Charlotte by the arrival of Saturday. The pain of separation,
          however, might be alleviated on his side, by preparations for the reception of his bride,
          as he had reason to hope, that shortly after his next return into Hertfordshire, the day
          would be fixed that was to make him the happiest of men. He took leave of his relations at
          Longbourn with as much solemnity as before; wished his fair cousins health and happiness
          again, and promised their father another letter of thanks.</p>
        <p>On the following Monday, Mrs. Bennet had the pleasure of receiving her brother and his
          wife, who came as usual to spend the Christmas at Longbourn. <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>Mr. Gardiner was a sensible,
          gentleman-like man, greatly superior to his sister, as well by nature as education. The
          Netherfield ladies would have had difficulty in believing that a man who lived by trade,
          and within view of his own warehouses, could have been so well bred and agreeable. Mrs.
          Gardiner, who was several years younger than Mrs. Bennet and Mrs. Philips, was an amiable,
          intelligent, elegant woman, and a great favourite with all her Longbourn nieces. Between
          the two eldest and herself especially, there subsisted a very particular regard. They had
          frequently been staying with her in town.</p>
        <p>The first part of Mrs. Gardiner's business on her arrival, was to distribute her presents
          and describe the newest fashions. When this was done, she had a less active part to play.
          It became her turn to listen. Mrs. Bennet had many grievances to relate, and much to
          complain <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [com-]"/>of. They had all been very ill-used since she last saw her sister. Two of her
          girls had been on the point of marriage, and after all there was nothing in it.</p>
        <p>"I do not blame Jane," she continued, "for Jane would have got Mr. Bingley, if she could.
          But, Lizzy! Oh, sister! it is very hard to think that she might have been Mr. Collins's
          wife by this time, had not it been for her own perverseness. He made her an offer in this
          very room, and she refused him. The consequence of it is, that Lady Lucas will have a
          daughter married before I have, and that Longbourn estate is just as much entailed as
          ever. The Lucases are very artful people indeed, sister. They are all for what they can
          get. I am sorry to say it of them, but so it is. It makes me very nervous and poorly, to
          be thwarted so in my own family, and to have neighbours who think <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>of themselves before
          anybody else. However, your coming just at this time is the greatest of comforts, and I am
          very glad to hear what you tell us, of long sleeves."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner, to whom the chief of this news had been given before, in the course of
          Jane and Elizabeth's correspondence with her, made her sister a slight answer, and in
          compassion to her nieces turned the conversation.</p>
        <p>When alone with Elizabeth afterwards, she spoke more on the subject. "It seems likely to
          have been a desirable match for Jane," said she. "I am sorry it went off. But these things
          happen so often! A young man, such as you describe Mr. Bingley, so easily falls in love
          with a pretty girl for a few weeks, and when accident separates them, so easily forgets
          her, that these sort of inconstancies are very frequent."</p>
        <p>"An excellent consolation in its way," <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>said Elizabeth, "but it will not do for <hi rend="italic">us</hi>. We do not suffer by <hi rend="italic">accident</hi>. It does not
          often happen that the interference of friends will persuade a young man of independent
          fortune to think no more of a girl, whom he was violently in love with only a few days
          before."</p>
        <p>"But that expression of 'violently in love' is so hackneyed, so doubtful, so indefinite,
          that it gives me very little idea. It is as often applied to feelings which arise from an
          half-hour's acquaintance, as to a real, strong attachment. Pray, how <hi rend="italic">violent was</hi> Mr. Bingley's love?"</p>
        <p>"I never saw a more promising inclination. He was growing quite inattentive to other
          people, and wholly engrossed by her. Every time they met, it was more decided and
          remarkable. At his own ball he offended two or three young ladies, by not asking them to
          dance, and I spoke to him twice myself, <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>without receiving an answer. Could there be finer
          symptoms? Is not general incivility the very essence of love?"</p>
        <p>"Oh, yes!--of that kind of love which I suppose him to have felt. Poor Jane! I am sorry
          for her, because, with her disposition, she may not get over it immediately. It had better
          have happened to <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, Lizzy; you would have laughed yourself out of
          it sooner. But do you think she would be prevailed on to go back with us? Change of scene
          might be of service--and perhaps a little relief from home, may be as useful as
          anything."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was exceedingly pleased with this proposal, and felt persuaded of her sister's
          ready acquiescence.</p>
        <p>"I hope," added Mrs. Gardiner, "that no consideration with regard to this young man will
          influence her. We live in so different a part of town, all our connections are so
          different, and, as you <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>well know, we go out so little, that it is very improbable they
          should meet at all, unless he really comes to see her."</p>
        <p>"And <hi rend="italic">that</hi> is quite impossible; for he is now in the custody of his
          friend, and Mr. Darcy would no more suffer him to call on Jane in such a part of London!
          My dear aunt, how could you think of it? Mr. Darcy may perhaps have <hi rend="italic">heard</hi> of such a place as Gracechurch Street, but he would hardly think a month's
          ablution enough to cleanse him from its impurities, were he once to enter it; and depend
          upon it, Mr. Bingley never stirs without him."</p>
        <p>"So much the better. I hope they will not meet at all. But does not Jane correspond with
          the sister? <hi rend="italic">She</hi> will not be able to help calling."</p>
        <p>"She will drop the acquaintance entirely."</p>
        <p>But in spite of the certainty in which Elizabeth affected to place this point, as <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>well as
          the still more interesting one of Bingley's being withheld from seeing Jane, she felt a
          solicitude on the subject which convinced her, on examination, that she did not consider
          it entirely hopeless. It was possible, and sometimes she thought it probable, that his
          affection might be re-animated, and the influence of his friends successfully combated by
          the more natural influence of Jane's attractions.</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet accepted her aunt's invitation with pleasure; and the Bingleys were no
          otherwise in her thoughts at the time, than as she hoped that, by Caroline's not living in
          the same house with her brother, she might occasionally spend a morning with her, without
          any danger of seeing him.</p>
        <p>The Gardiners staid a week at Longbourn; and what with the Philipses, the Lucases, and
          the officers, there was not a day without its engagement. Mrs. <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>Bennet had so carefully
          provided for the entertainment of her brother and sister, that they did not once sit down
          to a family dinner. When the engagement was for home, some of the officers always made
          part of it, of which officers Mr. Wickham was sure to be one; and on these occasions, Mrs.
          Gardiner, rendered suspicious by Elizabeth's warm commendation of him, narrowly observed
          them both. Without supposing them, from what she saw, to be very seriously in love, their
          preference of each other was plain enough to make her a little uneasy; and she resolved to
          speak to Elizabeth on the subject before she left Hertfordshire, and represent to her the
          imprudence of encouraging such an attachment.</p>
        <p>To Mrs. Gardiner, Wickham had one means of affording pleasure, unconnected with his
          general powers. About ten or a dozen years ago, before her marriage, <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [mar-]"/>she had spent a
          considerable time in that very part of Derbyshire, to which he belonged. They had,
          therefore, many acquaintance in common; and, though Wickham had been little there since
          the death of Darcy's father, five years before, it was yet in his power to give her
          fresher intelligence of her former friends, than she had been in the way of procuring.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner had seen Pemberley, and known the late Mr. Darcy by character perfectly
          well. Here consequently was an inexhaustible subject of discourse. In comparing her
          recollection of Pemberley, with the minute description which Wickham could give, and in
          bestowing her tribute of praise on the character of its late possessor, she was delighting
          both him and herself. On being made acquainted with the present Mr. Darcy's treatment of
          him, she tried to remember something of that gentleman's <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [gentle-]"/>reputed disposition when quite a
          lad, which might agree with it, and was confident at last, that she recollected having
          heard Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy formerly spoken of as a very proud, ill-natured boy.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 26"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER III.</head>
        <p> Mrs. Gardiner's caution to Elizabeth was punctually and kindly given on the first
          favourable opportunity of speaking to her alone; after honestly telling her what she
          thought, she thus went on:</p>
        <p>"You are too sensible a girl, Lizzy, to fall in love merely because you are warned
          against it; and, therefore, I am not afraid of speaking openly. Seriously, I would have
          you be on your guard. Do not involve yourself, or endeavour to involve him in an affection
          which the want of fortune would make so very imprudent. I have nothing to say against <hi rend="italic">him</hi>; he is a most interesting young man; and if he had the fortune he
          ought to have, I should think you could not do better. But as it is--you must not let your
          fancy run away with you. You have sense, and we all expect you to use it. <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>Your father
          would depend on <hi rend="italic">your</hi> resolution and good conduct, I am sure. You
          must not disappoint your father."</p>
        <p>"My dear aunt, this is being serious indeed."</p>
        <p>"Yes, and I hope to engage you to be serious likewise."</p>
        <p>"Well, then, you need not be under any alarm. I will take care of myself, and of Mr.
          Wickham too. He shall not be in love with me, if I can prevent it."</p>
        <p>"Elizabeth, you are not serious now."</p>
        <p>"I beg your pardon. I will try again. At present I am not in love with Mr. Wickham; no, I
          certainly am not. But he is, beyond all comparison, the most agreeable man I ever saw--and
          if he becomes really attached to me--I believe it will be better that he should not. I see
          the imprudence of it.--Oh! <hi rend="italic">that</hi> abominable Mr. Darcy!--My father's
          opinion of me does me the greatest honour; <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [ho-]"/>and I should be miserable to forfeit it. My
          father, however, is partial to Mr. Wickham. In short, my dear aunt, I should be very sorry
          to be the means of making any of you unhappy; but since we see every day that where there
          is affection, young people are seldom withheld by immediate want of fortune, from entering
          into engagements with each other, how can I promise to be wiser than so many of my fellow
          creatures if I am tempted, or how am I even to know that it would be wisdom to resist? All
          that I can promise you, therefore, is not to be in a hurry. I will not be in a hurry to
          believe myself his first object. When I am in company with him, I will not be wishing. In
          short, I will do my best."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps it will be as well, if you discourage his coming here so very often. At least,
          you should not <hi rend="italic">remind</hi> your Mother of inviting him."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p>"As I did the other day," said Elizabeth, with a conscious smile; "very true, it will be
          wise in me to refrain from <hi rend="italic">that</hi>. But do not imagine that he is
          always here so often. It is on your account that he has been so frequently invited this
          week. You know my mother's ideas as to the necessity of constant company for her friends.
          But really, and upon my honour, I will try to do what I think to be wisest; and now, I
          hope you are satisfied."</p>
        <p>Her aunt assured her that she was; and Elizabeth having thanked her for the kindness of
          her hints, they parted; a wonderful instance of advice being given on such a point,
          without being resented.</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins returned into Hertfordshire soon after it had been quitted by the Gardiners
          and Jane; but as he took up his abode with the Lucases, his arrival was no great
          inconvenience to Mrs. <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>Bennet. His marriage was now fast approaching, and she was at length
          so far resigned as to think it inevitable, and even repeatedly to say in an ill-natured
          tone that she "<hi rend="italic">wished</hi> they might be happy." Thursday was to be the
          wedding day, and on Wednesday Miss Lucas paid her farewell visit; and when she rose to
          take leave, Elizabeth, ashamed of her mother's ungracious and reluctant good wishes, and
          sincerely affected herself, accompanied her out of the room. As they went down stairs
          together, Charlotte said,</p>
        <p>"I shall depend on hearing from you very often, Eliza."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">that</hi> you certainly shall."</p>
        <p>"And I have another favour to ask. Will you come and see me?"</p>
        <p>"We shall often meet, I hope, in Hertfordshire."</p>
        <p>"I am not likely to leave Kent for some time. Promise me, therefore, to come to
          Hunsford."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p>Elizabeth could not refuse, though she foresaw little pleasure in the visit.</p>
        <p>"My father and Maria are to come to me in March," added Charlotte, "and I hope you will
          consent to be of the party. Indeed, Eliza, you will be as welcome to me as either of
          them."</p>
        <p>The wedding took place; the bride and bridegroom set off for Kent from the church door,
          and every body had as much to say or to hear on the subject as usual. Elizabeth soon heard
          from her friend; and their correspondence was as regular and frequent as it had ever been;
          that it should be equally unreserved was impossible. Elizabeth could never address her
          without feeling that all the comfort of intimacy was over, and, though determined not to
          slacken as a correspondent, it was for the sake of what had been, rather than what was.
          Charlotte's first letters were received with a good deal of eagerness; <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>there could not but
          be curiosity to know how she would speak of her new home, how she would like Lady
          Catherine, and how happy she would dare pronounce herself to be; though, when the letters
          were read, Elizabeth felt that Charlotte expressed herself on every point exactly as she
          might have foreseen. She wrote cheerfully, seemed surrounded with comforts, and mentioned
          nothing which she could not praise. The house, furniture, neighbourhood, and roads, were
          all to her taste, and Lady Catherine's behaviour was most friendly and obliging. It was
          Mr. Collins's picture of Hunsford and Rosings rationally softened; and Elizabeth perceived
          that she must wait for her own visit there, to know the rest.</p>
        <p>Jane had already written a few lines to her sister to announce their safe arrival in
          London; and when she wrote again, Elizabeth hoped it would be in her power to say
          something of the Bingleys.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p>Her impatience for this second letter was as well rewarded as impatience generally is.
          Jane had been a week in town, without either seeing or hearing from Caroline. She
          accounted for it, however, by supposing that her last letter to her friend from Longbourn,
          had by some accident been lost.</p>
        <p>"My aunt," she continued, "is going to-morrow into that part of the town, and I shall
          take the opportunity of calling in Grosvenor-street."</p>
        <p>She wrote again when the visit was paid, and she had seen Miss Bingley. "I did not think
          Caroline in spirits," were her words, "but she was very glad to see me, and reproached me
          for giving her no notice of my coming to London. I was right, therefore; my last letter
          had never reached her. I enquired after their brother, of course. He was well, but so much
          engaged with Mr. Darcy, that they scarcely ever saw him. I found <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>that Miss Darcy was
          expected to dinner. I wish I could see her. My visit was not long, as Caroline and Mrs.
          Hurst were going out. I dare say I shall soon see them here."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth shook her head over this letter. It convinced her, that accident only could
          discover to Mr. Bingley her sister's being in town.</p>
        <p>Four weeks passed away, and Jane saw nothing of him. She endeavoured to persuade herself
          that she did not regret it; but she could no longer be blind to Miss Bingley's
          inattention. After waiting at home every morning for a fortnight, and inventing every
          evening a fresh excuse for her, the visitor did at last appear; but the shortness of her
          stay, and yet more, the alteration of her manner, would allow Jane to deceive herself no
          longer. The letter which she wrote on this occasion to her sister, will prove what she
          felt.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
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                                <body>
                                    <p> "My dearest Lizzy will, I am sure, be incapable of triumphing in her better judgment, at
          my expence, when I confess myself to have been entirely deceived in Miss Bingley's regard
          for me. But, my dear sister, though the event has proved you right, do not think me
          obstinate if I still assert, that, considering what her behaviour was, my confidence was
          as natural as your suspicion. I do not at all comprehend her reason for wishing to be
          intimate with me, but if the same circumstances were to happen again, I am sure I should
          be deceived again. Caroline did not return my visit till yesterday; and not a note, not a
          line, did I receive in the mean time. When she did come, it was very evident that she had
          no pleasure in it; she made a slight, formal, apology, for not calling before, said not a
          word of wishing to see me again, and was in every respect so altered a creature, that when
          she went <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>away, I was perfectly resolved to continue the acquaintance no longer. I pity,
          though I cannot help blaming her. She was very wrong in singling me out as she did; I can
          safely say, that every advance to intimacy began on her side. But I pity her, because she
          must feel that she has been acting wrong, and because I am very sure that anxiety for her
          brother is the cause of it. I need not explain myself farther; and though <hi rend="italic">we</hi> know this anxiety to be quite needless, yet if she feels it, it
          will easily account for her behaviour to me; and so deservedly dear as he is to his
          sister, whatever anxiety she may feel on his behalf, is natural and amiable. I cannot but
          wonder, however, at her having any such fears now, because, if he had at all cared about
          me, we must have met long, long ago. He knows of my being in town, I am certain, from
          something she said herself; and yet it should seem by her manner of <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>talking, as if she
          wanted to persuade herself that he is really partial to Miss Darcy. I cannot understand
          it. If I were not afraid of judging harshly, I should be almost tempted to say, that there
          is a strong appearance of duplicity in all this. But I will endeavour to banish every
          painful thought, and think only of what will make me happy, your affection, and the
          invariable kindness of my dear uncle and aunt. Let me hear from you very soon. Miss
          Bingley said something of his never returning to Netherfield again, of giving up the
          house, but not with any certainty. We had better not mention it. I am extremely glad that
          you have such pleasant accounts from our friends at Hunsford. Pray go to see them, with
          Sir William and Maria. I am sure you will be very comfortable there.</p>
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        <p>This letter gave Elizabeth some pain; <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>but her spirits returned as she considered that
          Jane would no longer be duped, by the sister at least. All expectation from the brother
          was now absolutely over. She would not even wish for any renewal of his attentions. His
          character sunk on every review of it; and as a punishment for him, as well as a possible
          advantage to Jane, she seriously hoped he might really soon marry Mr. Darcy's sister, as,
          by Wickham's account, she would make him abundantly regret what he had thrown away.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner about this time reminded Elizabeth of her promise concerning that
          gentleman, and required information; and Elizabeth had such to send as might rather give
          contentment to her aunt than to herself. His apparent partiality had subsided, his
          attentions were over, he was the admirer of some one else. Elizabeth was watchful enough
          to see it <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>all, but she could see it and write of it without material pain. Her heart had
          been but slightly touched, and her vanity was satisfied with believing that <hi rend="italic">she</hi> would have been his only choice, had fortune permitted it. The
          sudden acquisition of ten thousand pounds was the most remarkable charm of the young lady,
          to whom he was now rendering himself agreeable; but Elizabeth, less clear-sighted perhaps
          in his case than in Charlotte's, did not quarrel with him for his wish of independence.
          Nothing, on the contrary, could be more natural; and while able to suppose that it cost
          him a few struggles to relinquish her, she was ready to allow it a wise and desirable
          measure for both, and could very sincerely wish him happy.</p>
        <p>All this was acknowledged to Mrs. Gardiner; and after relating the circumstances, she
          thus went on:--"I am now convinced, my dear aunt, that I have never been much in love; for
          had I <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>really experienced that pure and elevating passion, I should at present detest his
          very name, and wish him all manner of evil. But my feelings are not only cordial towards
            <hi rend="italic">him</hi>; they are even impartial towards Miss King. I cannot find out
          that I hate her at all, or that I am in the least unwilling to think her a very good sort
          of girl. There can be no love in all this. My watchfulness has been effectual; and though
          I should certainly be a more interesting object to all my acquaintance, were I
          distractedly in love with him, I cannot say that I regret my comparative insignificance.
          Importance may sometimes be purchased too dearly. Kitty and Lydia take his defection much
          more to heart than I do. They are young in the ways of the world, and not yet open to the
          mortifying conviction that handsome young men must have something to live on, as well as
          the plain."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER IV.</head>
        <p> With no greater events than these in the Longbourn family, and otherwise diversified by
          little beyond the walks to Meryton, sometimes dirty and sometimes cold, did January and
          February pass away. March was to take Elizabeth to Hunsford. She had not at first thought
          very seriously of going thither; but Charlotte, she soon found, was depending on the plan,
          and she gradually learned to consider it herself with greater pleasure as well as greater
          certainty. Absence had increased her desire of seeing Charlotte again, and weakened her
          disgust of Mr. Collins. There was novelty in the scheme, and as, with such a mother and
          such uncompanionable sisters, home could not be faultless, a little change was not
          unwelcome for its own sake. The journey would moreover give her a peep <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>at Jane; and, in
          short, as the time drew near, she would have been very sorry for any delay. Every thing,
          however, went on smoothly, and was finally settled according to Charlotte's first sketch.
          She was to accompany Sir William and his second daughter. The improvement of spending a
          night in London was added in time, and the plan became perfect as plan could be.</p>
        <p>The only pain was in leaving her father, who would certainly miss her, and who, when it
          came to the point, so little liked her going, that he told her to write to him, and almost
          promised to answer her letter.</p>
        <p>The farewell between herself and Mr. Wickham was perfectly friendly; on his side even
          more. His present pursuit could not make him forget that Elizabeth had been the first to
          excite and to deserve his attention, the first to listen and to pity, the first to be
          admired; and <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>in his manner of bidding her adieu, wishing her every enjoyment, reminding
          her of what she was to expect in Lady Catherine de Bourgh, and trusting their opinion of
          her--their opinion of every body--would always coincide, there was a solicitude, an
          interest which she felt must ever attach her to him with a most sincere regard; and she
          parted from him convinced, that whether married or single, he must always be her model of
          the amiable and pleasing.</p>
        <p>Her fellow-travellers the next day, were not of a kind to make her think him less
          agreeable. Sir William Lucas, and his daughter Maria, a good humoured girl, but as
          empty-headed as himself, had nothing to say that could be worth hearing, and were listened
          to with about as much delight as the rattle of the chaise. Elizabeth loved absurdities,
          but she had known Sir William's too long. He could tell her nothing <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>new of the wonders of
          his presentation and knighthood; and his civilities were worn out like his
          information.</p>
        <p>It was a journey of only twenty-four miles, and they began it so early as to be in
          Gracechurch-street by noon. As they drove to Mr. Gardiner's door, Jane was at a
          drawing-room window watching their arrival; when they entered the passage she was there to
          welcome them, and Elizabeth, looking earnestly in her face, was pleased to see it
          healthful and lovely as ever. On the stairs were a troop of little boys and girls, whose
          eagerness for their cousin's appearance would not allow them to wait in the drawing-room,
          and whose shyness, as they had not seen her for a twelvemonth, prevented their coming
          lower. All was joy and kindness. The day passed most pleasantly away; the morning in
          bustle and shopping, and the evening at one of the theatres.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 1"/>
        <p>Elizabeth then contrived to sit by her aunt. Their first subject was her sister; and she
          was more grieved than astonished to hear, in reply to her minute enquiries, that though
          Jane always struggled to support her spirits, there were periods of dejection. It was
          reasonable, however, to hope, that they would not continue long. Mrs. Gardiner gave her
          the particulars also of Miss Bingley's visit in Gracechurch-street, and repeated
          conversations occurring at different times between Jane and herself, which proved that the
          former had, from her heart, given up the acquaintance.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner then rallied her niece on Wickham's desertion, and complimented her on
          bearing it so well.</p>
        <p>"But, my dear Elizabeth," she added, "what sort of girl is Miss King? I should be sorry
          to think our friend mercenary."</p>
        <p>"Pray, my dear aunt, what is the difference <pb n="[Vol. II] 1 [dif-]"/>in matrimonial affairs, between the mercenary
          and the prudent motive? Where does discretion end, and avarice begin? Last Christmas you
          were afraid of his marrying me, because it would be imprudent; and now, because he is
          trying to get a girl with only ten thousand pounds, you want to find out that he is
          mercenary."</p>
        <p>"If you will only tell me what sort of girl Miss King is, I shall know what to
          think."</p>
        <p>"She is a very good kind of girl, I believe. I know no harm of her."</p>
        <p>"But he paid her not the smallest attention, till her grandfather's death made her
          mistress of this fortune."</p>
        <p>"No--why should he? If it was not allowable for him to gain <hi rend="italic">my</hi>
          affections, because I had no money, what occasion could there be for making love to a girl
          whom he did not care about, and who was equally poor?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>
        <p>"But there seems indelicacy in directing his attentions towards her, so soon after this
          event."</p>
        <p>"A man in distressed circumstances has not time for all those elegant decorums which
          other people may observe. If <hi rend="italic">she</hi> does not object to it, why should
            <hi rend="italic">we</hi>?"</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">her</hi> not objecting, does not justify <hi rend="italic">him</hi>.
          It only shews her being deficient in something herself--sense or feeling."</p>
        <p>"Well," cried Elizabeth, "have it as you choose. <hi rend="italic">He</hi> shall be
          mercenary, and <hi rend="italic">she</hi> shall be foolish."</p>
        <p>"No, Lizzy, that is what I do <hi rend="italic">not</hi> choose. I should be sorry, you
          know, to think ill of a young man who has lived so long in Derbyshire."</p>
        <p>"Oh! if that is all, I have a very poor opinion of young men who live in Derbyshire; and
          their intimate friends who live in Hertfordshire are not much better. I am sick of them
          all. Thank <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>Heaven! I am going to-morrow where I shall find a man who has not one agreeable
          quality, who has neither manner nor sense to recommend him. Stupid men are the only ones
          worth knowing, after all."</p>
        <p>"Take care, Lizzy; that speech savours strongly of disappointment."</p>
        <p>Before they were separated by the conclusion of the play, she had the unexpected
          happiness of an invitation to accompany her uncle and aunt in a tour of pleasure which
          they proposed taking in the summer.</p>
        <p>"We have not quite determined how far it shall carry us," said Mrs. Gardiner, "but
          perhaps to the Lakes."</p>
        <p>No scheme could have been more agreeable to Elizabeth, and her acceptance of the
          invitation was most ready and grateful. "My dear, dear aunt," she rapturously cried, "what
          delight! what felicity! You give me fresh life and <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>vigour. Adieu to disappointment and
          spleen. What are men to rocks and mountains? Oh! what hours of transport we shall spend!
          And when we <hi rend="italic">do</hi> return, it shall not be like other travellers,
          without being able to give one accurate idea of any thing. We <hi rend="italic">will</hi>
          know where we have gone--we <hi rend="italic">will</hi> recollect what we have seen.
          Lakes, mountains, and rivers, shall not be jumbled together in our imaginations; nor, when
          we attempt to describe any particular scene, will we begin quarrelling about its relative
          situation. Let <hi rend="italic">our</hi> first effusions be less insupportable than those
          of the generality of travellers."</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER V.</head>
        <p> Every object in the next day's journey was new and interesting to Elizabeth; and her
          spirits were in a state for enjoyment; for she had seen her sister looking so well as to
          banish all fear for her health, and the prospect of her northern tour was a constant
          source of delight.</p>
        <p>When they left the high road for the lane to Hunsford, every eye was in search of the
          Parsonage, and every turning expected to bring it in view. The paling of Rosings Park was
          their boundary on one side. Elizabeth smiled at the recollection of all that she had heard
          of its inhabitants.</p>
        <p>At length the Parsonage was discernible. The garden sloping to the road, the house
          standing in it, the green pales <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>and the laurel hedge, every thing declared they were
          arriving. Mr. Collins and Charlotte appeared at the door, and the carriage stopped at the
          small gate, which led by a short gravel walk to the house, amidst the nods and smiles of
          the whole party. In a moment they were all out of the chaise, rejoicing at the sight of
          each other. Mrs. Collins welcomed her friend with the liveliest pleasure, and Elizabeth
          was more and more satisfied with coming, when she found herself so affectionately
          received. She saw instantly that her cousin's manners were not altered by his marriage;
          his formal civility was just what it had been, and he detained her some minutes at the
          gate to hear and satisfy his enquiries after all her family. They were then, with no other
          delay than his pointing out the neatness of the entrance, taken into the house; and as
          soon as they were in the parlour, he welcomed them a second <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>time with ostentatious
          formality to his humble abode, and punctually repeated all his wife's offers of
          refreshment.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was prepared to see him in his glory; and she could not help fancying that in
          displaying the good proportion of the room, its aspect and its furniture, he addressed
          himself particularly to her, as if wishing to make her feel what she had lost in refusing
          him. But though every thing seemed neat and comfortable, she was not able to gratify him
          by any sigh of repentance; and rather looked with wonder at her friend that she could have
          so cheerful an air, with such a companion. When Mr. Collins said any thing of which his
          wife might reasonably be ashamed, which certainly was not unseldom, she involuntarily
          turned her eye on Charlotte. Once or twice she could discern a faint blush; but in general
          Charlotte wisely did not hear. After sitting long enough to <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>admire every article of
          furniture in the room, from the sideboard to the fender, to give an account of their
          journey and of all that had happened in London, Mr. Collins invited them to take a stroll
          in the garden, which was large and well laid out, and to the cultivation of which he
          attended himself. To work in his garden was one of his most respectable pleasures; and
          Elizabeth admired the command of countenance with which Charlotte talked of the
          healthfulness of the exercise, and owned she encouraged it as much as possible. Here,
          leading the way through every walk and cross walk, and scarcely allowing them an interval
          to utter the praises he asked for, every view was pointed out with a minuteness which left
          beauty entirely behind. He could number the fields in every direction, and could tell how
          many trees there were in the most distant clump. But of all the views which his garden, or
          which <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>the country, or the kingdom could boast, none were to be compared with the prospect
          of Rosings, afforded by an opening in the trees that bordered the park nearly opposite the
          front of his house. It was a handsome modern building, well situated on rising ground.</p>
        <p>From his garden, Mr. Collins would have led them round his two meadows, but the ladies
          not having shoes to encounter the remains of a white frost, turned back; and while Sir
          William accompanied him, Charlotte took her sister and friend over the house, extremely
          well pleased, probably, to have the opportunity of shewing it without her husband's help.
          It was rather small, but well built and convenient; and every thing was fitted up and
          arranged with a neatness and consistency of which Elizabeth gave Charlotte all the credit.
          When Mr. Collins could be forgotten, there was really a great air of comfort throughout,
          and by Charlotte's evident <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>enjoyment of it, Elizabeth supposed he must be often
          forgotten.</p>
        <p>She had already learnt that Lady Catherine was still in the country. It was spoken of
          again while they were at dinner, when Mr. Collins joining in, observed,</p>
        <p>"Yes, Miss Elizabeth, you will have the honour of seeing Lady Catherine de Bourgh on the
          ensuing Sunday at church, and I need not say you will be delighted with her. She is all
          affability and condescension, and I doubt not but you will be honoured with some portion
          of her notice when service is over. I have scarcely any hesitation in saying that she will
          include you and my sister Maria in every invitation with which she honours us during your
          stay here. Her behaviour to my dear Charlotte is charming. We dine at Rosings twice every
          week, and are never allowed to walk home. Her ladyship's carriage is regularly <pb n="[Vol. II] 47 [regu-]"/>ordered for
          us. I <hi rend="italic">should</hi> say, one of her ladyship's carriages, for she has
          several."</p>
        <p>"Lady Catherine is a very respectable, sensible woman indeed," added Charlotte, "and a
          most attentive neighbour."</p>
        <p>"Very true, my dear, that is exactly what I say. She is the sort of woman whom one cannot
          regard with too much deference."</p>
        <p>The evening was spent chiefly in talking over Hertfordshire news, and telling again what
          had been already written; and when it closed, Elizabeth in the solitude of her chamber had
          to meditate upon Charlotte's degree of contentment, to understand her address in guiding,
          and composure in bearing with her husband, and to acknowledge that it was all done very
          well. She had also to anticipate how her visit would pass, the quiet tenor of their usual
          employments, the vexatious interruptions of Mr. Collins, and the gaieties of their
          intercourse with Rosings. <pb n="[Vol. II] 47 [Ro-]"/>A lively imagination soon settled it all.</p>
        <p>About the middle of the next day, as she was in her room getting ready for a walk, a
          sudden noise below seemed to speak the whole house in confusion; and after listening a
          moment, she heard somebody running up stairs in a violent hurry, and calling loudly after
          her. She opened the door, and met Maria in the landing place, who, breathless with
          agitation, cried out,</p>
        <p>"Oh, my dear Eliza! pray make haste and come into the dining-room, for there is such a
          sight to be seen! I will not tell you what it is. Make haste, and come down this
          moment."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth asked questions in vain; Maria would tell her nothing more, and down they ran
          into the dining-room, which fronted the lane, in quest of this wonder; it was two ladies
          stopping in a low phaeton at the garden gate.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>
        <p>"And is this all?" cried Elizabeth. "I expected at least that the pigs were got into the
          garden, and here is nothing but Lady Catherine and her daughter!"</p>
        <p>"La! my dear," said Maria quite shocked at the mistake, "it is not Lady Catherine. The
          old lady is Mrs. Jenkinson, who lives with them. The other is Miss De Bourgh. Only look at
          her. She is quite a little creature. Who would have thought she could be so thin and
          small!"</p>
        <p>"She is abominably rude to keep Charlotte out of doors in all this wind. Why does she not
          come in?"</p>
        <p>"Oh! Charlotte says, she hardly ever does. It is the greatest of favours when Miss De
          Bourgh comes in."</p>
        <p>"I like her appearance," said Elizabeth, struck with other ideas. "She looks sickly and
          cross.--Yes, she will do for him very well. She will make him a very proper wife."</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins and Charlotte were both <pb n="[Vol. II] 47"/>standing at the gate in conversation with the ladies;
          and Sir William, to Elizabeth's high diversion, was stationed in the doorway, in earnest
          contemplation of the greatness before him, and constantly bowing whenever Miss De Bourgh
          looked that way.</p>
        <p>At length there was nothing more to be said; the ladies drove on, and the others returned
          into the house. Mr. Collins no sooner saw the two girls than he began to congratulate them
          on their good fortune, which Charlotte explained by letting them know that the whole party
          was asked to dine at Rosings the next day.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER VI.</head>
        <p> Mr. Collins's triumph in consequence of this invitation was complete. The power of
          displaying the grandeur of his patroness to his wondering visitors, and of letting them
          see her civility towards himself and his wife, was exactly what he had wished for; and
          that an opportunity of doing it should be given so soon, was such an instance of Lady
          Catherine's condescension as he knew not how to admire enough.</p>
        <p>"I confess," said he, "that I should not have been at all surprised by her Ladyship's
          asking us on Sunday to drink tea and spend the evening at Rosings. I rather expected, from
          my knowledge of her affability, that it would happen. But who could have foreseen such an
          attention as this? Who could have <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>imagined that we should receive an invitation to dine
          there (an invitation moreover including the whole party) so immediately after your
          arrival!"</p>
        <p>"I am the less surprised at what has happened," replied Sir William, "from that knowledge
          of what the manners of the great really are, which my situation in life has allowed me to
          acquire. About the Court, such instances of elegant breeding are not uncommon."</p>
        <p>Scarcely any thing was talked of the whole day or next morning, but their visit to
          Rosings. Mr. Collins was carefully instructing them in what they were to expect, that the
          sight of such rooms, so many servants, and so splendid a dinner might not wholly overpower
          them.</p>
        <p>When the ladies were separating for the toilette, he said to Elizabeth,</p>
        <p>"Do not make yourself uneasy, my dear cousin, about your apparel. Lady Catherine <pb n="[Vol. II] 60 [Ca-]"/>is far
          from requiring that elegance of dress in us, which becomes herself and daughter. I would
          advise you merely to put on whatever of your clothes is superior to the rest, there is no
          occasion for any thing more. Lady Catherine will not think the worse of you for being
          simply dressed. She likes to have the distinction of rank preserved."</p>
        <p>While they were dressing, he came two or three times to their different doors, to
          recommend their being quick, as Lady Catherine very much objected to be kept waiting for
          her dinner.--Such formidable accounts of her Ladyship, and her manner of living, quite
          frightened Maria Lucas, who had been little used to company, and she looked forward to her
          introduction at Rosings, with as much apprehension, as her father had done to his
          presentation at St. James's.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>As the weather was fine, they had a pleasant walk of about half a mile across the
          park.--Every park has its beauty and its prospects; and Elizabeth saw much to be pleased
          with, though she could not be in such raptures as Mr. Collins expected the scene to
          inspire, and was but slightly affected by his enumeration of the windows in front of the
          house, and his relation of what the glazing altogether had originally cost Sir Lewis De
          Bourgh.</p>
        <p>When they ascended the steps to the hall, Maria's alarm was every moment increasing, and
          even Sir William did not look perfectly calm.--Elizabeth's courage did not fail her. She
          had heard nothing of Lady Catherine that spoke her awful from any extraordinary talents or
          miraculous virtue, and the mere stateliness of money and rank, she thought she could
          witness without trepidation.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>From the entrance hall, of which Mr. Collins pointed out, with a rapturous air, the fine
          proportion and finished ornaments, they followed the servants through an anti-chamber, to
          the room where Lady Catherine, her daughter, and Mrs. Jenkinson were sitting.--Her
          Ladyship, with great condescension, arose to receive them; and as Mrs. Collins had settled
          it with her husband that the office of introduction should be her's, it was performed in a
          proper manner, without any of those apologies and thanks which he would have thought
          necessary.</p>
        <p>In spite of having been at St. James's, Sir William was so completely awed, by the
          grandeur surrounding him, that he had but just courage enough to make a very low bow, and
          take his seat without saying a word; and his daughter, frightened almost out of her
          senses, sat on the edge of her chair, not knowing which <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>way to look. Elizabeth found
          herself quite equal to the scene, and could observe the three ladies before her
          composedly.--Lady Catherine was a tall, large woman, with strongly-marked features, which
          might once have been handsome. Her air was not conciliating, nor was her manner of
          receiving them, such as to make her visitors forget their inferior rank. She was not
          rendered formidable by silence; but whatever she said, was spoken in so authoritative a
          tone, as marked her self-importance, and brought Mr. Wickham immediately to Elizabeth's
          mind; and from the observation of the day altogether, she believed Lady Catherine to be
          exactly what he had represented.</p>
        <p>When, after examining the mother, in whose countenance and deportment she soon found some
          resemblance of Mr. Darcy, she turned her eyes on the daughter, she could almost have
          joined <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>in Maria's astonishment, at her being so thin, and so small. There was neither in
          figure nor face, any likeness between the ladies. Miss De Bourgh was pale and sickly; her
          features, though not plain, were insignificant; and she spoke very little, except in a low
          voice, to Mrs. Jenkinson, in whose appearance there was nothing remarkable, and who was
          entirely engaged in listening to what she said, and placing a screen in the proper
          direction before her eyes.</p>
        <p>After sitting a few minutes, they were all sent to one of the windows, to admire the
          view, Mr. Collins attending them to point out its beauties, and Lady Catherine kindly
          informing them that it was much better worth looking at in the summer.</p>
        <p>The dinner was exceedingly handsome, and there were all the servants, and all the
          articles of plate which Mr. Collins had promised; and, as he had <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>likewise foretold, he
          took his seat at the bottom of the table, by her ladyship's desire, and looked as if he
          felt that life could furnish nothing greater.--He carved, and ate, and praised with
          delighted alacrity; and every dish was commended, first by him, and then by Sir William,
          who was now enough recovered to echo whatever his son in law said, in a manner which
          Elizabeth wondered Lady Catherine could bear. But Lady Catherine seemed gratified by their
          excessive admiration, and gave most gracious smiles, especially when any dish on the table
          proved a novelty to them. The party did not supply much conversation. Elizabeth was ready
          to speak whenever there was an opening, but she was seated between Charlotte and Miss De
          Bourgh--the former of whom was engaged in listening to Lady Catherine, and the latter said
          not a word to her all dinner time. Mrs. Jenkinson was chiefly employed <pb n="[Vol. II] 60 [em-]"/>in watching how
          little Miss De Bourgh ate, pressing her to try some other dish, and fearing she were
          indisposed. Maria thought speaking out of the question, and the gentlemen did nothing but
          eat and admire.</p>
        <p>When the ladies returned to the drawing-room, there was little to be done but to hear
          Lady Catherine talk, which she did without any intermission till coffee came in,
          delivering her opinion on every subject in so decisive a manner as proved that she was not
          used to have her judgment controverted. She enquired into Charlotte's domestic concerns
          familiarly and minutely, and gave her a great deal of advice, as to the management of them
          all; told her how every thing ought to be regulated in so small a family as her's, and
          instructed her as to the care of her cows and her poultry. Elizabeth found that nothing
          was beneath this great Lady's attention, which <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>could furnish her with an occasion of
          dictating to others. In the intervals of her discourse with Mrs. Collins, she addressed a
          variety of questions to Maria and Elizabeth, but especially to the latter, of whose
          connections she knew the least, and who she observed to Mrs. Collins, was a very genteel,
          pretty kind of girl. She asked her at different times, how many sisters she had, whether
          they were older or younger than herself, whether any of them were likely to be married,
          whether they were handsome, where they had been educated, what carriage her father kept,
          and what had been her mother's maiden name?--Elizabeth felt all the impertinence of her
          questions, but answered them very composedly.--Lady Catherine then observed,</p>
        <p>"Your father's estate is entailed on Mr. Collins, I think. For your sake," turning to
          Charlotte, "I am glad of it; but <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>otherwise I see no occasion for entailing estates from
          the female line.--It was not thought necessary in Sir Lewis de Bourgh's family.--Do you
          play and sing, Miss Bennet?"</p>
        <p>"A little."</p>
        <p>"Oh! then--some time or other we shall be happy to hear you. Our instrument is a capital
          one, probably superior to----You shall try it some day.--Do your sisters play and
          sing?"</p>
        <p>"One of them does."</p>
        <p>"Why did not you all learn?--You ought all to have learned. The Miss Webbs all play, and
          their father has not so good an income as your's.--Do you draw?"</p>
        <p>"No, not at all."</p>
        <p>"What, none of you?"</p>
        <p>"Not one."</p>
        <p>"That is very strange. But I suppose you had no opportunity. Your mother should have
          taken you to town every spring for the benefit of masters."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>"My mother would have had no objection, but my father hates London."</p>
        <p>"Has your governess left you?"</p>
        <p>"We never had any governess."</p>
        <p>"No governess! How was that possible? Five daughters brought up at home without a
          governess!--I never heard of such a thing. Your mother must have been quite a slave to
          your education."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could hardly help smiling, as she assured her that had not been the case.</p>
        <p>"Then, who taught you? who attended to you? Without a governess you must have been
          neglected."</p>
        <p>"Compared with some families, I believe we were; but such of us as wished to learn, never
          wanted the means. We were always encouraged to read, and had all the masters that were
          necessary. Those who chose to be idle, certainly might."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>"Aye, no doubt; but that is what a governess will prevent, and if I had known your
          mother, I should have advised her most strenuously to engage one. I always say that
          nothing is to be done in education without steady and regular instruction, and nobody but
          a governess can give it. It is wonderful how many families I have been the means of
          supplying in that way. I am always glad to get a young person well placed out. Four nieces
          of Mrs. Jenkinson are most delightfully situated through my means; and it was but the
          other day, that I recommended another young person, who was merely accidentally mentioned
          to me, and the family are quite delighted with her. Mrs. Collins, did I tell you of Lady
          Metcalfe's calling yesterday to thank me? She finds Miss Pope a treasure. 'Lady
          Catherine,' said she, 'you have given me a treasure.' Are any of your younger sisters out,
          Miss Bennet?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>"Yes, Ma'am, all."</p>
        <p>"All!--What, all five out at once? Very odd!--And you only the second.--The younger ones
          out before the elder are married!--Your younger sisters must be very young?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, my youngest is not sixteen. Perhaps <hi rend="italic">she</hi> is full young to be
          much in company. But really, Ma'am, I think it would be very hard upon younger sisters,
          that they should not have their share of society and amusement because the elder may not
          have the means or inclination to marry early.--The last born has as good a right to the
          pleasures of youth, as the first. And to be kept back on <hi rend="italic">such</hi> a
          motive!--I think it would not be very likely to promote sisterly affection or delicacy of
          mind."</p>
        <p>"Upon my word," said her Ladyship, "you give your opinion very decidedly for so young a
          person.--Pray, what is your age?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>"With three younger sisters grown up," replied Elizabeth smiling, "your Ladyship can
          hardly expect me to own it."</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine seemed quite astonished at not receiving a direct answer; and Elizabeth
          suspected herself to be the first creature who had ever dared to trifle with so much
          dignified impertinence.</p>
        <p>"You cannot be more than twenty, I am sure,--therefore you need not conceal your
          age."</p>
        <p>"I am not one and twenty."</p>
        <p>When the gentlemen had joined them, and tea was over, the card tables were placed. Lady
          Catherine, Sir William, and Mr. and Mrs. Collins sat down to quadrille; and as Miss De
          Bourgh chose to play at cassino, the two girls had the honour of assisting Mrs. Jenkinson
          to make up her party. Their table was superlatively stupid. Scarcely a syllable was
          uttered that did not relate to the <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>game, except when Mrs. Jenkinson expressed her fears of
          Miss De Bourgh's being too hot or too cold, or having too much or too little light. A
          great deal more passed at the other table. Lady Catherine was generally speaking--stating
          the mistakes of the three others, or relating some anecdote of herself. Mr. Collins was
          employed in agreeing to every thing her Ladyship said, thanking her for every fish he won,
          and apologising if he thought he won too many. Sir William did not say much. He was
          storing his memory with anecdotes and noble names.</p>
        <p>When Lady Catherine and her daughter had played as long as they chose, the tables were
          broke up, the carriage was offered to Mrs. Collins, gratefully accepted, and immediately
          ordered. The party then gathered round the fire to hear Lady Catherine determine what
          weather they were to have <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>on the morrow. From these instructions they were summoned by the
          arrival of the coach, and with many speeches of thankfulness on Mr. Collins's side, and as
          many bows on Sir William's, they departed. As soon as they had driven from the door,
          Elizabeth was called on by her cousin, to give her opinion of all that she had seen at
          Rosings, which, for Charlotte's sake, she made more favourable than it really was. But her
          commendation, though costing her some trouble, could by no means satisfy Mr. Collins, and
          he was very soon obliged to take her Ladyship's praise into his own hands.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER VII.</head>
        <p> Sir William staid only a week at Hunsford; but his visit was long enough to convince him
          of his daughter's being most comfortably settled, and of her possessing such a husband and
          such a neighbour as were not often met with. While Sir William was with them, Mr. Collins
          devoted his mornings to driving him out in his gig, and shewing him the country; but when
          he went away, the whole family returned to their usual employments, and Elizabeth was
          thankful to find that they did not see more of her cousin by the alteration, for the chief
          of the time between breakfast and dinner was now passed by him either at work in the
          garden, or in reading and writing, and looking out of window in his own book room, which
          fronted the road. The room in which the ladies sat was <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>backwards. Elizabeth at first had
          rather wondered that Charlotte should not prefer the dining-parlour for common use; it was
          a better sized room, and had a pleasanter aspect; but she soon saw that her friend had an
          excellent reason for what she did, for Mr. Collins would undoubtedly have been much less
          in his own apartment, had they sat in one equally lively; and she gave Charlotte credit
          for the arrangement.</p>
        <p>From the drawing-room they could distinguish nothing in the lane, and were indebted to
          Mr. Collins for the knowledge of what carriages went along, and how often especially Miss
          De Bourgh drove by in her phaeton, which he never failed coming to inform them of, though
          it happened almost every day. She not unfrequently stopped at the Parsonage, and had a few
          minutes' conversation with Charlotte, but was scarcely ever prevailed on to get out.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>Very few days passed in which Mr. Collins did not walk to Rosings, and not many in which
          his wife did not think it necessary to go likewise; and till Elizabeth recollected that
          there might be other family livings to be disposed of, she could not understand the
          sacrifice of so many hours. Now and then, they were honoured with a call from her
          Ladyship, and nothing escaped her observation that was passing in the room during these
          visits. She examined into their employments, looked at their work, and advised them to do
          it differently; found fault with the arrangement of the furniture, or detected the
          housemaid in negligence; and if she accepted any refreshment, seemed to do it only for the
          sake of finding out that Mrs. Collins's joints of meat were too large for her family.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth soon perceived that though this great lady was not in the commission <pb n="[Vol. II] 60 [commis-]"/>of the
          peace for the county, she was a most active magistrate in her own parish, the minutest
          concerns of which were carried to her by Mr. Collins; and whenever any of the cottagers
          were disposed to be quarrelsome, discontented or too poor, she sallied forth into the
          village to settle their differences, silence their complaints, and scold them into harmony
          and plenty.</p>
        <p>The entertainment of dining at Rosings was repeated about twice a week; and, allowing for
          the loss of Sir William, and there being only one card table in the evening, every such
          entertainment was the counterpart of the first. Their other engagements were few; as the
          style of living of the neighbourhood in general, was beyond the Collinses' reach. This
          however was no evil to Elizabeth, and upon the whole she spent her time comfortably
          enough; there were half hours of pleasant conversation with <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>Charlotte, and the weather was
          so fine for the time of year, that she had often great enjoyment out of doors. Her
          favourite walk, and where she frequently went while the others were calling on Lady
          Catherine, was along the open grove which edged that side of the park, where there was a
          nice sheltered path, which no one seemed to value but herself, and where she felt beyond
          the reach of Lady Catherine's curiosity.</p>
        <p>In this quiet way, the first fortnight of her visit soon passed away. Easter was
          approaching, and the week preceding it, was to bring an addition to the family at Rosings,
          which in so small a circle must be important. Elizabeth had heard soon after her arrival,
          that Mr. Darcy was expected there in the course of a few weeks, and though there were not
          many of her acquaintance whom she did not prefer, his coming would furnish one
          comparatively new to look at in <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>their Rosings parties, and she might be amused in seeing
          how hopeless Miss Bingley's designs on him were, by his behaviour to his cousin, for whom
          he was evidently destined by Lady Catherine; who talked of his coming with the greatest
          satisfaction, spoke of him in terms of the highest admiration, and seemed almost angry to
          find that he had already been frequently seen by Miss Lucas and herself.</p>
        <p>His arrival was soon known at the Parsonage, for Mr. Collins was walking the whole
          morning within view of the lodges opening into Hunsford Lane, in order to have the
          earliest assurance of it; and after making his bow as the carriage turned into the Park,
          hurried home with the great intelligence. On the following morning he hastened to Rosings
          to pay his respects. There were two nephews of Lady Catherine to require them, for Mr.
          Darcy had brought <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>with him a Colonel Fitzwilliam, the younger son of his uncle, Lord ----
          and to the great surprise of all the party, when Mr. Collins returned the gentlemen
          accompanied him. Charlotte had seen them from her husband's room, crossing the road, and
          immediately running into the other, told the girls what an honour they might expect,
          adding,</p>
        <p>"I may thank you, Eliza, for this piece of civility. Mr. Darcy would never have come so
          soon to wait upon me."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth had scarcely time to disclaim all right to the compliment, before their
          approach was announced by the door-bell, and shortly afterwards the three gentlemen
          entered the room. Colonel Fitzwilliam, who led the way, was about thirty, not handsome,
          but in person and address most truly the gentleman. Mr. Darcy looked just as he had been
          used to look in Hertfordshire, paid his compliments, with his usual <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>reserve, to Mrs.
          Collins; and whatever might be his feelings towards her friend, met her with every
          appearance of composure. Elizabeth merely curtseyed to him, without saying a word.</p>
        <p>Colonel Fitzwilliam entered into conversation directly with the readiness and ease of a
          well-bred man, and talked very pleasantly; but his cousin, after having addressed a slight
          observation on the house and garden to Mrs. Collins, sat for some time without speaking to
          any body. At length, however, his civility was so far awakened as to enquire of Elizabeth
          after the health of her family. She answered him in the usual way, and after a moment's
          pause, added,</p>
        <p>"My eldest sister has been in town these three months. Have you never happened to see her
          there?"</p>
        <p>She was perfectly sensible that he never had; but she wished to see whether <pb n="[Vol. II] 60 [whe-]"/>he would
          betray any consciousness of what had passed between the Bingleys and Jane; and she thought
          he looked a little confused as he answered that he had never been so fortunate as to meet
          Miss Bennet. The subject was pursued no farther, and the gentlemen soon afterwards went
          away.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 86"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER VIII.</head>
        <p> Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners were very much admired at the parsonage, and the ladies
          all felt that he must add considerably to the pleasure of their engagements at Rosings. It
          was some days, however, before they received any invitation thither, for while there were
          visitors in the house, they could not be necessary; and it was not till Easter-day, almost
          a week after the gentlemen's arrival, that they were honoured by such an attention, and
          then they were merely asked on leaving church to come there in the evening. For the last
          week they had seen very little of either Lady Catherine or her daughter. Colonel
          Fitzwilliam had called at the parsonage more than once during the time, but Mr. Darcy they
          had only seen at church.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>The invitation was accepted of course, and at a proper hour they joined the party in Lady
          Catherine's drawing-room. Her ladyship received them civilly, but it was plain that their
          company was by no means so acceptable as when she could get nobody else; and she was, in
          fact, almost engrossed by her nephews, speaking to them, especially to Darcy, much more
          than to any other person in the room.</p>
        <p>Colonel Fitzwilliam seemed really glad to see them; any thing was a welcome relief to him
          at Rosings; and Mrs. Collins's pretty friend had moreover caught his fancy very much. He
          now seated himself by her, and talked so agreeably of Kent and Hertfordshire, of
          travelling and staying at home, of new books and music, that Elizabeth had never been half
          so well entertained in that room before; and they conversed with so much spirit and flow,
          as <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>to draw the attention of Lady Catherine herself, as well as of Mr. Darcy. <hi rend="italic">his</hi> eyes had been soon and repeatedly turned towards them with a look
          of curiosity; and that her ladyship after a while shared the feeling, was more openly
          acknowledged, for she did not scruple to call out,</p>
        <p>"What is that you are saying, Fitzwilliam? What is it you are talking of? What are you
          telling Miss Bennet? Let me hear what it is."</p>
        <p>"We are speaking of music, Madam," said he, when no longer able to avoid a reply.</p>
        <p>"Of music! Then pray speak aloud. It is of all subjects my delight. I must have my share
          in the conversation, if you are speaking of music. There are few people in England, I
          suppose, who have more true enjoyment of music than myself, or a better natural taste. If
          I had ever learnt, I should have been a <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>great proficient. And so would Anne, if her health
          had allowed her to apply. I am confident that she would have performed delightfully. How
          does Georgiana get on, Darcy?"</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy spoke with affectionate praise of his sister's proficiency.</p>
        <p>"I am very glad to hear such a good account of her," said Lady Catherine; "and pray tell
          her from me, that she cannot expect to excel, if she does not practise a great deal."</p>
        <p>"I assure you, Madam," he replied, "that she does not need such advice. She practises
          very constantly."</p>
        <p>"So much the better. It cannot be done too much; and when I next write to her, I shall
          charge her not to neglect it on any account. I often tell young ladies, that no excellence
          in music is to be acquired, without constant practice. I have told Miss Bennet several
          times, that she will never play really well, unless <pb n="[Vol. II] 60 [un-]"/>she practises more; and though Mrs.
          Collins has no instrument, she is very welcome, as I have often told her, to come to
          Rosings every day, and play on the piano-forte in Mrs. Jenkinson's room. She would be in
          nobody's way, you know, in that part of the house."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy looked a little ashamed of his aunt's ill breeding, and made no answer.</p>
        <p>When coffee was over, Colonel Fitzwilliam reminded Elizabeth of having promised to play
          to him; and she sat down directly to the instrument. He drew a chair near her. Lady
          Catherine listened to half a song, and then talked, as before, to her other nephew; till
          the latter walked away from her, and moving with his usual deliberation towards the
          piano-forte, stationed himself so as to command a full view of the fair performer's
          countenance. Elizabeth saw what he was doing, and at the first <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>convenient pause, turned to
          him with an arch smile, and said,</p>
        <p>"You mean to frighten me, Mr. Darcy, by coming in all this state to hear me? But I will
          not be alarmed though your sister <hi rend="italic">does</hi> play so well. There is a
          stubbornness about me that never can bear to be frightened at the will of others. My
          courage always rises with every attempt to intimidate me."</p>
        <p>"I shall not say that you are mistaken," he replied, "because you could not really
          believe me to entertain any design of alarming you; and I have had the pleasure of your
          acquaintance long enough to know, that you find great enjoyment in occasionally professing
          opinions which in fact are not your own."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth laughed heartily at this picture of herself, and said to Colonel Fitzwilliam,
          "Your cousin will give you a very pretty notion of me, and teach you <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>not to believe a word
          I say. I am particularly unlucky in meeting with a person so well able to expose my real
          character, in a part of the world, where I had hoped to pass myself off with some degree
          of credit. Indeed, Mr. Darcy, it is very ungenerous in you to mention all that you knew to
          my disadvantage in Hertfordshire--and, give me leave to say, very impolitic too--for it is
          provoking me to retaliate, and such things may come out, as will shock your relations to
          hear."</p>
        <p>"I am not afraid of you," said he, smilingly.</p>
        <p>"Pray let me hear what you have to accuse him of," cried Colonel Fitzwilliam. "I should
          like to know how he behaves among strangers."</p>
        <p>"You shall hear then--but prepare yourself for something very dreadful. The first time of
          my ever seeing him in Hertfordshire, you must know, was at a ball--<pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>and at this ball, what
          do you think he did? He danced only four dances! I am sorry to pain you--but so it was. He
          danced only four dances, though gentlemen were scarce; and, to my certain knowledge, more
          than one young lady was sitting down in want of a partner. Mr. Darcy, you cannot deny the
          fact."</p>
        <p>"I had not at that time the honour of knowing any lady in the assembly beyond my own
          party."</p>
        <p>"True; and nobody can ever be introduced in a ball room. Well, Colonel Fitzwilliam, what
          do I play next? My fingers wait your orders."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps," said Darcy, "I should have judged better, had I sought an introduction, but I
          am ill qualified to recommend myself to strangers."</p>
        <p>"Shall we ask your cousin the reason of this?" said Elizabeth, still addressing Colonel
          Fitzwilliam. "Shall we ask him why a man of sense and education, <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>and who has lived in the
          world, is ill qualified to recommend himself to strangers?"</p>
        <p>"I can answer your question," said Fitzwilliam, "without applying to him. It is because
          he will not give himself the trouble."</p>
        <p>"I certainly have not the talent which some people possess," said Darcy, "of conversing
          easily with those I have never seen before. I cannot catch their tone of conversation, or
          appear interested in their concerns, as I often see done."</p>
        <p>"My fingers," said Elizabeth, "do not move over this instrument in the masterly manner
          which I see so many women's do. They have not the same force or rapidity, and do not
          produce the same expression. But then I have always supposed it to be my own
          fault--because I would not take the trouble of practising. It is not that I do not believe<pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
            <hi rend="italic">my</hi> fingers as capable as any other woman's of superior
          execution."</p>
        <p>Darcy smiled and said, "You are perfectly right. You have employed your time much better.
          No one admitted to the privilege of hearing you, can think any thing wanting. We neither
          of us perform to strangers."</p>
        <p>Here they were interrupted by Lady Catherine, who called out to know what they were
          talking of. Elizabeth immediately began playing again. Lady Catherine approached, and,
          after listening for a few minutes, said to Darcy,</p>
        <p>"Miss Bennet would not play at all amiss, if she practised more, and could have the
          advantage of a London master. She has a very good notion of fingering, though her taste is
          not equal to Anne's. Anne would have been a delightful performer, had her health allowed
          her to learn."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth looked at Darcy to see how <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>cordially he assented to his cousin's praise; but
          neither at that moment nor at any other could she discern any symptom of love; and from
          the whole of his behaviour to Miss De Bourgh she derived this comfort for Miss Bingley,
          that he might have been just as likely to marry <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, had she been
          his relation.</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine continued her remarks on Elizabeth's performance, mixing with them many
          instructions on execution and taste. Elizabeth received them with all the forbearance of
          civility; and at the request of the gentlemen remained at the instrument till her
          Ladyship's carriage was ready to take them all home.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 97"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER IX.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth was sitting by herself the next morning, and writing to Jane, while Mrs.
          Collins and Maria were gone on business into the village, when she was startled by a ring
          at the door, the certain signal of a visitor. As she had heard no carriage, she thought it
          not unlikely to be Lady Catherine, and under that apprehension was putting away her
          half-finished letter that she might escape all impertinent questions, when the door
          opened, and to her very great surprise, Mr. Darcy, and Mr. Darcy only, entered the
          room.</p>
        <p>He seemed astonished too on finding her alone, and apologised for his intrusion, by
          letting her know that he had understood all the ladies to be within.</p>
        <p>They then sat down, and when her <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>enquiries after Rosings were made, seemed in danger of
          sinking into total silence. It was absolutely necessary, therefore, to think of something,
          and in this emergence recollecting <hi rend="italic">when</hi> she had seen him last in
          Hertfordshire, and feeling curious to know what he would say on the subject of their hasty
          departure, she observed,</p>
        <p>"How very suddenly you all quitted Netherfield last November, Mr. Darcy! It must have
          been a most agreeable surprise to Mr. Bingley to see you all after him so soon; for, if I
          recollect right, he went but the day before. He and his sisters were well, I hope, when
          you left London."</p>
        <p>"Perfectly so--I thank you."</p>
        <p>She found that she was to receive no other answer--and, after a short pause, added,</p>
        <p>"I think I have understood that Mr. Bingley has not much idea of ever returning to
          Netherfield again?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>"I have never heard him say so; but it is probable that he may spend very little of his
          time there in future. He has many friends, and he is at a time of life when friends and
          engagements are continually increasing."</p>
        <p>"If he means to be but little at Netherfield, it would be better for the neighbourhood
          that he should give up the place entirely, for then we might possibly get a settled family
          there. But perhaps Mr. Bingley did not take the house so much for the convenience of the
          neighbourhood as for his own, and we must expect him to keep or quit it on the same
          principle."</p>
        <p>"I should not be surprised," said Darcy, "if he were to give it up, as soon as any
          eligible purchase offers."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth made no answer. She was afraid of talking longer of his friend; and, having
          nothing else to say, was now determined to leave the trouble of finding a subject to
          him.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>He took the hint, and soon began with, "This seems a very comfortable house. Lady
          Catherine, I believe, did a great deal to it when Mr. Collins first came to Hunsford."</p>
        <p>"I believe she did--and I am sure she could not have bestowed her kindness on a more
          grateful object."</p>
        <p>"Mr. Collins appears very fortunate in his choice of a wife."</p>
        <p>"Yes, indeed; his friends may well rejoice in his having met with one of the very few
          sensible women who would have accepted him, or have made him happy if they had. My friend
          has an excellent understanding--though I am not certain that I consider her marrying Mr.
          Collins as the wisest thing she ever did. She seems perfectly happy, however, and in a
          prudential light, it is certainly a very good match for her."</p>
        <p>"It must be very agreeable to her to be settled within so easy a distance of her own
          family and friends."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>
        <p>"An easy distance do you call it? It is nearly fifty miles."</p>
        <p>"And what is fifty miles of good road? Little more than half a day's journey. Yes, I call
          it a <hi rend="italic">very</hi> easy distance."</p>
        <p>"I should never have considered the distance as one of the <hi rend="italic">advantages</hi> of the match," cried Elizabeth. "I should never have said Mrs. Collins
          was settled <hi rend="italic">near</hi> her family."</p>
        <p>"It is a proof of your own attachment to Hertfordshire. Any thing beyond the very
          neighbourhood of Longbourn, I suppose, would appear far."</p>
        <p>As he spoke there was a sort of smile, which Elizabeth fancied she understood; he must be
          supposing her to be thinking of Jane and Netherfield, and she blushed as she answered,</p>
        <p>"I do not mean to say that a woman may not be settled too near her family. The far and
          the near must be relative, <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>and depend on many varying circumstances. Where there is
          fortune to make the expence of travelling unimportant, distance becomes no evil. But that
          is not the case <hi rend="italic">here</hi>. Mr. and Mrs. Collins have a comfortable
          income, but not such a one as will allow of frequent journeys--and I am persuaded my
          friend would not call herself <hi rend="italic">near</hi> her family under less than <hi rend="italic">half</hi> the present distance."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy drew his chair a little towards her, and said, "<hi rend="italic">You</hi>
          cannot have a right to such very strong local attachment. <hi rend="italic">You</hi>
          cannot have been always at Longbourn."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth looked surprised. The gentleman experienced some change of feeling; he drew
          back his chair, took a newspaper from the table, and, glancing over it, said, in a colder
          voice,</p>
        <p>"Are you pleased with Kent?"</p>
        <p>A short dialogue on the subject of the <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>country ensued, on either side calm and
          concise--and soon put an end to by the entrance of Charlotte and her sister, just returned
          from their walk. The tête-à-tête surprised them. Mr. Darcy related the mistake which had
          occasioned his intruding on Miss Bennet, and after sitting a few minutes longer without
          saying much to any body, went away.</p>
        <p>"What can be the meaning of this!" said Charlotte, as soon as he was gone. "My dear Eliza
          he must be in love with you, or he would never have called on us in this familiar
          way."</p>
        <p>But when Elizabeth told of his silence, it did not seem very likely, even to Charlotte's
          wishes, to be the case; and after various conjectures, they could at last only suppose his
          visit to proceed from the difficulty of finding any thing to do, which was the more
          probable from the time of year. All field sports were <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>over. Within doors there was Lady
          Catherine, books, and a billiard table, but gentlemen cannot be always within doors; and
          in the nearness of the Parsonage, or the pleasantness of the walk to it, or of the people
          who lived in it, the two cousins found a temptation from this period of walking thither
          almost every day. They called at various times of the morning, sometimes separately,
          sometimes together, and now and then accompanied by their aunt. It was plain to them all
          that Colonel Fitzwilliam came because he had pleasure in their society, a persuasion which
          of course recommended him still more; and Elizabeth was reminded by her own satisfaction
          in being with him, as well as by his evident admiration of her, of her former favourite
          George Wickham; and though, in comparing them, she saw there was less captivating softness
          in Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners, she believed <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>he might have the best informed mind.</p>
        <p>But why Mr. Darcy came so often to the Parsonage, it was more difficult to understand. It
          could not be for society, as he frequently sat there ten minutes together without opening
          his lips; and when he did speak, it seemed the effect of necessity rather than of
          choice--a sacrifice to propriety, not a pleasure to himself. He seldom appeared really
          animated. Mrs. Collins knew not what to make of him. Colonel Fitzwilliam's occasionally
          laughing at his stupidity, proved that he was generally different, which her own knowledge
          of him could not have told her; and as she would have liked to believe this change the
          effect of love, and the object of that love, her friend Eliza, she sat herself seriously
          to work to find it out.--She watched him whenever they were at Rosings, and whenever he
          came to Hunsford; but <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>without much success. He certainly looked at her friend a great
          deal, but the expression of that look was disputable. It was an earnest, steadfast gaze,
          but she often doubted whether there were much admiration in it, and sometimes it seemed
          nothing but absence of mind.</p>
        <p>She had once or twice suggested to Elizabeth the possibility of his being partial to her,
          but Elizabeth always laughed at the idea; and Mrs. Collins did not think it right to press
          the subject, from the danger of raising expectations which might only end in
          disappointment; for in her opinion it admitted not of a doubt, that all her friend's
          dislike would vanish, if she could suppose him to be in her power.</p>
        <p>In her kind schemes for Elizabeth, she sometimes planned her marrying Colonel
          Fitzwilliam. He was beyond comparison the pleasantest man; he <pb n="[Vol. II] 60"/>certainly admired her, and
          his situation in life was most eligible; but, to counterbalance these advantages, Mr.
          Darcy had considerable patronage in the church, and his cousin could have none at all.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER X.</head>
        <p> More than once did Elizabeth in her ramble within the Park, unexpectedly meet Mr.
          Darcy.--She felt all the perverseness of the mischance that should bring him where no one
          else was brought; and to prevent its ever happening again, took care to inform him at
          first, that it was a favourite haunt of hers.--How it could occur a second time therefore
          was very odd!--Yet it did, and even a third. It seemed like wilful ill-nature, or a
          voluntary penance, for on these occasions it was not merely a few formal enquiries and an
          awkward pause and then away, but he actually thought it necessary to turn back and walk
          with her. He never said a great deal, nor did she give herself the trouble of talking or
          of listening much; but it <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>struck her in the course of their third rencontre that he was
          asking some odd unconnected questions--about her pleasure in being at Hunsford, her love
          of solitary walks, and her opinion of Mr. and Mrs. Collins's happiness; and that in
          speaking of Rosings and her not perfectly understanding the house, he seemed to expect
          that whenever she came into Kent again she would be staying <hi rend="italic">there</hi>
          too. His words seemed to imply it. Could he have Colonel Fitzwilliam in his thoughts? She
          supposed, if he meant any thing, he must mean an allusion to what might arise in that
          quarter. It distressed her a little, and she was quite glad to find herself at the gate in
          the pales opposite the Parsonage.</p>
        <p>She was engaged one day as she walked, in re-perusing Jane's last letter, and dwelling on
          some passages which proved that Jane had not written in spirits, <pb n="[Vol. II] 108 [spi-]"/>when, instead of being
          again surprised by Mr. Darcy, she saw on looking up that Colonel Fitzwilliam was meeting
          her. Putting away the letter immediately and forcing a smile, she said,</p>
        <p>"I did not know before that you ever walked this way."</p>
        <p>"I have been making the tour of the Park," he replied, "as I generally do every year, and
          intend to close it with a call at the Parsonage. Are you going much farther?"</p>
        <p>"No, I should have turned in a moment."</p>
        <p>And accordingly she did turn, and they walked towards the Parsonage together.</p>
        <p>"Do you certainly leave Kent on Saturday?" said she.</p>
        <p>"Yes--if Darcy does not put it off again. But I am at his disposal. He arranges the
          business just as he pleases."</p>
        <p>"And if not able to please himself in the <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>arrangement, he has at least great pleasure in
          the power of choice. I do not know any body who seems more to enjoy the power of doing
          what he likes than Mr. Darcy."</p>
        <p>"He likes to have his own way very well," replied Colonel Fitzwilliam. "But so we all do.
          It is only that he has better means of having it than many others, because he is rich, and
          many others are poor. I speak feelingly. A younger son, you know, must be inured to
          self-denial and dependence."</p>
        <p>"In my opinion, the younger son of an Earl can know very little of either. Now,
          seriously, what have you ever known of self-denial and dependence? When have you been
          prevented by want of money from going wherever you chose, or procuring any thing you had a
          fancy for?"</p>
        <p>"These are home questions--and perhaps I cannot say that I have experienced <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>many
          hardships of that nature. But in matters of greater weight, I may suffer from the want of
          money. Younger sons cannot marry where they like."</p>
        <p>"Unless where they like women of fortune, which I think they very often do."</p>
        <p>"Our habits of expence make us too dependant, and there are not many in my rank of life
          who can afford to marry without some attention to money."</p>
        <p>"Is this," thought Elizabeth, "meant for me?" and she coloured at the idea; but,
          recovering herself, said in a lively tone, "And pray, what is the usual price of an Earl's
          younger son? Unless the elder brother is very sickly, I suppose you would not ask above
          fifty thousand pounds."</p>
        <p>He answered her in the same style, and the subject dropped. To interrupt a silence which
          might make him fancy <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>her affected with what had passed, she soon afterwards said,</p>
        <p>"I imagine your cousin brought you down with him chiefly for the sake of having somebody
          at his disposal. I wonder he does not marry, to secure a lasting convenience of that kind.
          But, perhaps his sister does as well for the present, and, as she is under his sole care,
          he may do what he likes with her."</p>
        <p>"No," said Colonel Fitzwilliam, "that is an advantage which he must divide with me. I am
          joined with him in the guardianship of Miss Darcy."</p>
        <p>"Are you, indeed? And pray what sort of guardians do you make? Does your charge give you
          much trouble? Young ladies of her age, are sometimes a little difficult to manage, and if
          she has the true Darcy spirit, she may like to have her own way."</p>
        <p>As she spoke, she observed him looking at her earnestly, and the manner in <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>which he
          immediately asked her why she supposed Miss Darcy likely to give them any uneasiness,
          convinced her that she had somehow or other got pretty near the truth. She directly
          replied,</p>
        <p>"You need not be frightened. I never heard any harm of her; and I dare say she is one of
          the most tractable creatures in the world. She is a very great favourite with some ladies
          of my acquaintance, Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley. I think I have heard you say that you
          know them."</p>
        <p>"I know them a little. Their brother is a pleasant gentleman-like man--he is a great
          friend of Darcy's."</p>
        <p>"Oh! yes," said Elizabeth drily--"Mr. Darcy is uncommonly kind to Mr. Bingley, and takes
          a prodigious deal of care of him."</p>
        <p>"Care of him!--Yes, I really believe Darcy <hi rend="italic">does</hi> take care of him
          in those points where he most wants care. From <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>something that he told me in our journey
          hither, I have reason to think Bingley very much indebted to him. But I ought to beg his
          pardon, for I have no right to suppose that Bingley was the person meant. It was all
          conjecture."</p>
        <p>"What is it you mean?"</p>
        <p>"It is a circumstance which Darcy of course would not wish to be generally known, because
          if it were to get round to the lady's family, it would be an unpleasant thing."</p>
        <p>"You may depend upon my not mentioning it."</p>
        <p>"And remember that I have not much reason for supposing it to be Bingley. What he told me
          was merely this; that he congratulated himself on having lately saved a friend from the
          inconveniences of a most imprudent marriage, but without mentioning names or any other
          particulars, and I only suspected <pb n="[Vol. II] 108 [sus-]"/>it to be Bingley from believing him the kind of young
          man to get into a scrape of that sort, and from knowing them to have been together the
          whole of last summer."</p>
        <p>"Did Mr. Darcy give you his reasons for this interference?"</p>
        <p>"I understood that there were some very strong objections against the lady."</p>
        <p>"And what arts did he use to separate them?"</p>
        <p>"He did not talk to me of his own arts," said Fitzwilliam smiling. "He only told me, what
          I have now told you."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth made no answer, and walked on, her heart swelling with indignation. After
          watching her a little, Fitzwilliam asked her why she was so thoughtful.</p>
        <p>"I am thinking of what you have been telling me," said she. "Your cousin's conduct does
          not suit my feelings. Why was he to be the judge?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        <p>"You are rather disposed to call his interference officious?"</p>
        <p>"I do not see what right Mr. Darcy had to decide on the propriety of his friend's
          inclination, or why, upon his own judgment alone, he was to determine and direct in what
          manner that friend was to be happy." "But," she continued, recollecting herself, "as we
          know none of the particulars, it is not fair to condemn him. It is not to be supposed that
          there was much affection in the case."</p>
        <p>"That is not an unnatural surmise," said Fitzwilliam, "but it is lessening the honour of
          my cousin's triumph very sadly."</p>
        <p>This was spoken jestingly, but it appeared to her so just a picture of Mr. Darcy, that
          she would not trust herself with an answer; and, therefore, abruptly changing the
          conversation, talked on indifferent matters till they reached the <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>parsonage. There, shut
          into her own room, as soon as their visitor left them, she could think without
          interruption of all that she had heard. It was not to be supposed that any other people
          could be meant than those with whom she was connected. There could not exist in the world
            <hi rend="italic">two</hi> men, over whom Mr. Darcy could have such boundless influence.
          That he had been concerned in the measures taken to separate Mr. Bingley and Jane, she had
          never doubted; but she had always attributed to Miss Bingley the principal design and
          arrangement of them. If his own vanity, however, did not mislead him, <hi rend="italic">he</hi> was the cause, his pride and caprice were the cause of all that Jane had
          suffered, and still continued to suffer. He had ruined for a while every hope of happiness
          for the most affectionate, generous heart in the world; and no one could say how lasting
          an evil he might have inflicted.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        <p>"There were some very strong objections against the lady," were Colonel Fitzwilliam's
          words, and these strong objections probably were, her having one uncle who was a country
          attorney, and another who was in business in London.</p>
        <p>"To Jane herself," she exclaimed, "there could be no possibility of objection. All
          loveliness and goodness as she is! Her understanding excellent, her mind improved, and her
          manners captivating. Neither could any thing be urged against my father, who, though with
          some peculiarities, has abilities which Mr. Darcy himself need not disdain, and
          respectability which he will probably never reach." When she thought of her mother indeed,
          her confidence gave way a little, but she would not allow that any objections <hi rend="italic">there</hi> had material weight with Mr. Darcy, whose pride, she was
          convinced, would receive a deeper wound from the want of importance in his <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>friend's
          connections, than from their want of sense; and she was quite decided at last, that he had
          been partly governed by this worst kind of pride, and partly by the wish of retaining Mr.
          Bingley for his sister.</p>
        <p>The agitation and tears which the subject occasioned, brought on a headache; and it grew
          so much worse towards the evening that, added to her unwillingness to see Mr. Darcy, it
          determined her not to attend her cousins to Rosings, where they were engaged to drink tea.
          Mrs. Collins, seeing that she was really unwell, did not press her to go, and as much as
          possible prevented her husband from pressing her, but Mr. Collins could not conceal his
          apprehension of Lady Catherine's being rather displeased by her staying at home.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 121"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XI.</head>
        <p> When they were gone, Elizabeth, as if intending to exasperate herself as much as
          possible against Mr. Darcy, chose for her employment the examination of all the letters
          which Jane had written to her since her being in Kent. They contained no actual complaint,
          nor was there any revival of past occurrences, or any communication of present suffering.
          But in all, and in almost every line of each, there was a want of that cheerfulness which
          had been used to characterize her style, and which, proceeding from the serenity of a mind
          at ease with itself, and kindly disposed towards every one, had been scarcely ever
          clouded. Elizabeth noticed every sentence conveying the idea of uneasiness, with an
          attention which it had hardly <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>received on the first perusal. Mr. Darcy's shameful boast of
          what misery he had been able to inflict, gave her a keener sense of her sister's
          sufferings. It was some consolation to think that his visit to Rosings was to end on the
          day after the next, and a still greater, that in less than a fortnight she should herself
          be with Jane again, and enabled to contribute to the recovery of her spirits, by all that
          affection could do.</p>
        <p>She could not think of Darcy's leaving Kent, without remembering that his cousin was to
          go with him; but Colonel Fitzwilliam had made it clear that he had no intentions at all,
          and agreeable as he was, she did not mean to be unhappy about him.</p>
        <p>While settling this point, she was suddenly roused by the sound of the door bell, and her
          spirits were a little fluttered by the idea of its being Colonel Fitzwilliam himself, who
          had once before <pb n="[Vol. II] 108 [be-]"/>called late in the evening, and might now come to enquire particularly
          after her. But this idea was soon banished, and her spirits were very differently
          affected, when, to her utter amazement, she saw Mr. Darcy walk into the room. In an
          hurried manner he immediately began an enquiry after her health, imputing his visit to a
          wish of hearing that she were better. She answered him with cold civility. He sat down for
          a few moments, and then getting up walked about the room. Elizabeth was surprised, but
          said not a word. After a silence of several minutes he came towards her in an agitated
          manner, and thus began,</p>
        <p>"In vain have I struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must
          allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's astonishment was beyond expression. She stared, coloured, doubted, <pb n="[Vol. II] 108 [doubt-]"/>and was
          silent. This he considered sufficient encouragement, and the avowal of all that he felt
          and had long felt for her, immediately followed. He spoke well, but there were feelings
          besides those of the heart to be detailed, and he was not more eloquent on the subject of
          tenderness than of pride. His sense of her inferiority--of its being a degradation--of the
          family obstacles which judgment had always opposed to inclination, were dwelt on with a
          warmth which seemed due to the consequence he was wounding, but was very unlikely to
          recommend his suit.</p>
        <p>In spite of her deeply-rooted dislike, she could not be insensible to the compliment of
          such a man's affection, and though her intentions did not vary for an instant, she was at
          first sorry for the pain he was to receive; till, roused to resentment by his subsequent
          language, she lost all compassion in anger. She <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>tried, however, to compose herself to
          answer him with patience, when he should have done. He concluded with representing to her
          the strength of that attachment which, in spite of all his endeavours, he had found
          impossible to conquer; and with expressing his hope that it would now be rewarded by her
          acceptance of his hand. As he said this, she could easily see that he had no doubt of a
          favourable answer. He <hi rend="italic">spoke</hi> of apprehension and anxiety, but his
          countenance expressed real security. Such a circumstance could only exasperate farther,
          and when he ceased, the colour rose into her cheeks, and she said,</p>
        <p>"In such cases as this, it is, I believe, the established mode to express a sense of
          obligation for the sentiments avowed, however unequally they may be returned. It is
          natural that obligation should be felt, and if I could <hi rend="italic">feel</hi>
          gratitude, I would now <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>thank you. But I cannot--I have never desired your good opinion,
          and you have certainly bestowed it most unwillingly. I am sorry to have occasioned pain to
          any one. It has been most unconsciously done, however, and I hope will be of short
          duration. The feelings which, you tell me, have long prevented the acknowledgment of your
          regard, can have little difficulty in overcoming it after this explanation."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy, who was leaning against the mantle-piece with his eyes fixed on her face,
          seemed to catch her words with no less resentment than surprise. His complexion became
          pale with anger, and the disturbance of his mind was visible in every feature. He was
          struggling for the appearance of composure, and would not open his lips, till he believed
          himself to have attained it. The pause was to Elizabeth's feelings dreadful. <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>At length, in
          a voice of forced calmness, he said,</p>
        <p>"And this is all the reply which I am to have the honour of expecting! I might, perhaps,
          wish to be informed why, with so little <hi rend="italic">endeavour</hi> at civility, I am
          thus rejected. But it is of small importance."</p>
        <p>"I might as well enquire," replied she, "why with so evident a design of offending and
          insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me against your will, against your
          reason, and even against your character? Was not this some excuse for incivility, if I <hi rend="italic">was</hi> uncivil? But I have other provocations. You know I have. Had not
          my own feelings decided against you, had they been indifferent, or had they even been
          favourable, do you think that any consideration would tempt me to accept the man, who has
          been the means of ruining, perhaps for ever, the happiness of a most beloved sister?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        <p>As she pronounced these words, Mr. Darcy changed colour; but the emotion was short, and
          he listened without attempting to interrupt her while she continued.</p>
        <p>"I have every reason in the world to think ill of you. No motive can excuse the unjust
          and ungenerous part you acted <hi rend="italic">there</hi>. You dare not, you cannot deny
          that you have been the principal, if not the only means of dividing them from each other,
          of exposing one to the censure of the world for caprice and instability, the other to its
          derision for disappointed hopes, and involving them both in misery of the acutest
          kind."</p>
        <p>She paused, and saw with no slight indignation that he was listening with an air which
          proved him wholly unmoved by any feeling of remorse. He even looked at her with a smile of
          affected incredulity.</p>
        <p>"Can you deny that you have done it?" she repeated.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        <p>With assumed tranquillity he then replied, "I have no wish of denying that I did every
          thing in my power to separate my friend from your sister, or that I rejoice in my success.
          Towards <hi rend="italic">him</hi> I have been kinder than towards myself."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth disdained the appearance of noticing this civil reflection, but its meaning did
          not escape, nor was it likely to conciliate her.</p>
        <p>"But it is not merely this affair," she continued, "on which my dislike is founded. Long
          before it had taken place, my opinion of you was decided. Your character was unfolded in
          the recital which I received many months ago from Mr. Wickham. On this subject, what can
          you have to say? In what imaginary act of friendship can you here defend yourself? or
          under what misrepresentation, can you here impose upon others?"</p>
        <p>"You take an eager interest in that <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>gentleman's concerns," said Darcy in a less tranquil
          tone, and with a heightened colour.</p>
        <p>"Who that knows what his misfortunes have been, can help feeling an interest in him?"</p>
        <p>"His misfortunes!" repeated Darcy contemptuously; "yes, his misfortunes have been great
          indeed."</p>
        <p>"And of your infliction," cried Elizabeth with energy. "You have reduced him to his
          present state of poverty, comparative poverty. You have withheld the advantages, which you
          must know to have been designed for him. You have deprived the best years of his life, of
          that independence which was no less his due than his desert. You have done all this! and
          yet you can treat the mention of his misfortunes with contempt and ridicule."</p>
        <p>"And this," cried Darcy, as he walked with quick steps across the room, <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>"is your opinion
          of me! This is the estimation in which you hold me! I thank you for explaining it so
          fully. My faults, according to this calculation, are heavy indeed! But perhaps," added he,
          stopping in his walk, and turning towards her, "these offences might have been overlooked,
          had not your pride been hurt by my honest confession of the scruples that had long
          prevented my forming any serious design. These bitter accusations might have been
          suppressed, had I with greater policy concealed my struggles, and flattered you into the
          belief of my being impelled by unqualified, unalloyed inclination; by reason, by
          reflection, by every thing. But disguise of every sort is my abhorrence. Nor am I ashamed
          of the feelings I related. They were natural and just. Could you expect me to rejoice in
          the inferiority of your connections? To congratulate myself on the <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>hope of relations,
          whose condition in life is so decidedly beneath my own?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every moment; yet she tried to the utmost to
          speak with composure when she said,</p>
        <p>"You are mistaken, Mr. Darcy, if you suppose that the mode of your declaration affected
          me in any other way, than as it spared me the concern which I might have felt in refusing
          you, had you behaved in a more gentleman-like manner."</p>
        <p>She saw him start at this, but he said nothing, and she continued,</p>
        <p>"You could not have made me the offer of your hand in any possible way that would have
          tempted me to accept it."</p>
        <p>Again his astonishment was obvious; and he looked at her with an expression of mingled
          incredulity and mortification. She went on.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        <p>"From the very beginning, from the first moment I may almost say, of my acquaintance with
          you, your manners impressing me with the fullest belief of your arrogance, your conceit,
          and your selfish disdain of the feelings of others, were such as to form that ground-work
          of disapprobation, on which succeeding events have built so immoveable a dislike; and I
          had not known you a month before I felt that you were the last man in the world whom I
          could ever be prevailed on to marry."</p>
        <p>"You have said quite enough, madam. I perfectly comprehend your feelings, and have now
          only to be ashamed of what my own have been. Forgive me for having taken up so much of
          your time, and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness."</p>
        <p>And with these words he hastily left the room, and Elizabeth heard him the next moment
          open the front door and quit the house.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>
        <p>The tumult of her mind was now painfully great. She knew not how to support herself, and
          from actual weakness sat down and cried for half an hour. Her astonishment, as she
          reflected on what had passed, was increased by every review of it. That she should receive
          an offer of marriage from Mr. Darcy! that he should have been in love with her for so many
          months! so much in love as to wish to marry her in spite of all the objections which had
          made him prevent his friend's marrying her sister, and which must appear at least with
          equal force in his own case, was almost incredible! it was gratifying to have inspired
          unconsciously so strong an affection. But his pride, his abominable pride, his shameless
          avowal of what he had done with respect to Jane, his unpardonable assurance in
          acknowledging, though he could not justify it, and the unfeeling manner in which he had
          mentioned Mr. <pb n="[Vol. II] 108"/>Wickham, his cruelty towards whom he had not attempted to deny, soon
          overcame the pity which the consideration of his attachment had for a moment excited.</p>
        <p>She continued in very agitating reflections till the sound of Lady Catherine's carriage
          made her feel how unequal she was to encounter Charlotte's observation, and hurried her
          away to her room.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XII.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth awoke the next morning to the same thoughts and meditations which had at
          length closed her eyes. She could not yet recover from the surprise of what had happened;
          it was impossible to think of any thing else, and totally indisposed for employment, she
          resolved soon after breakfast to indulge herself in air and exercise. She was proceeding
          directly to her favourite walk, when the recollection of Mr. Darcy's sometimes coming
          there stopped her, and instead of entering the park, she turned up the lane, which led her
          farther from the turnpike road. The park paling was still the boundary on one side, and
          she soon passed one of the gates into the ground.</p>
        <p>After walking two or three times along <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>that part of the lane, she was tempted, by the
          pleasantness of the morning, to stop at the gates and look into the park. The five weeks
          which she had now passed in Kent, had made a great difference in the country, and every
          day was adding to the verdure of the early trees. She was on the point of continuing her
          walk, when she caught a glimpse of a gentleman within the sort of grove which edged the
          park; he was moving that way; and fearful of its being Mr. Darcy, she was directly
          retreating. But the person who advanced, was now near enough to see her, and stepping
          forward with eagerness, pronounced her name. She had turned away, but on hearing herself
          called, though in a voice which proved it to be Mr. Darcy, she moved again towards the
          gate. He had by that time reached it also, and holding out a letter, which she
          instinctively took, said with a look of haughty composure, "I have been walking <pb n="[Vol. II] 136 [walk-]"/>in the
          grove some time in the hope of meeting you. Will you do me the honour of reading that
          letter?"--And then, with a slight bow, turned again into the plantation, and was soon out
          of sight.</p>
        <p>With no expectation of pleasure, but with the strongest curiosity, Elizabeth opened the
          letter, and to her still increasing wonder, perceived an envelope containing two sheets of
          letter paper, written quite through, in a very close hand.--The envelope itself was
          likewise full.--Pursuing her way along the lane, she then began it. It was dated from
          Rosings, at eight o'clock in the morning, and was as follows:--</p>
        <floatingText>
                                <body>
                                    <div>
                                        <p> "Be not alarmed, Madam, on receiving this letter, by the apprehension of its containing
          any repetition of those sentiments, or renewal of those offers, which were last night so
          disgusting to you. I write without any intention of <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>paining you, or humbling myself, by
          dwelling on wishes, which, for the happiness of both, cannot be too soon forgotten; and
          the effort which the formation, and the perusal of this letter must occasion, should have
          been spared, had not my character required it to be written and read. You must, therefore,
          pardon the freedom with which I demand your attention; your feelings, I know, will bestow
          it unwillingly, but I demand it of your justice.</p>
        <p> "Two offences of a very different nature, and by no means of equal magnitude, you last
          night laid to my charge. The first mentioned was, that, regardless of the sentiments of
          either, I had detached Mr. Bingley from your sister,--and the other, that I had, in
          defiance of various claims, in defiance of honour and humanity, ruined the immediate
          prosperity, and blasted the prospects of Mr. Wickham.--Wilfully and wantonly to <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>have
          thrown off the companion of my youth, the acknowledged favourite of my father, a young man
          who had scarcely any other dependence than on our patronage, and who had been brought up
          to expect its exertion, would be a depravity, to which the separation of two young
          persons, whose affection could be the growth of only a few weeks, could bear no
          comparison.--But from the severity of that blame which was last night so liberally
          bestowed, respecting each circumstance, I shall hope to be in future secured, when the
          following account of my actions and their motives has been read.--If, in the explanation
          of them which is due to myself, I am under the necessity of relating feelings which may be
          offensive to your's, I can only say that I am sorry.--The necessity must be obeyed--and
          farther apology would be absurd.--I had not been long in Hertfordshire, before <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>I saw, in
          common with others, that Bingley preferred your eldest sister, to any other young woman in
          the country.--But it was not till the evening of the dance at Netherfield that I had any
          apprehension of his feeling a serious attachment.--I had often seen him in love
          before.--At that ball, while I had the honour of dancing with you, I was first made
          acquainted, by Sir William Lucas's accidental information, that Bingley's attentions to
          your sister had given rise to a general expectation of their marriage. He spoke of it as a
          certain event, of which the time alone could be undecided. From that moment I observed my
          friend's behaviour attentively; and I could then perceive that his partiality for Miss
          Bennet was beyond what I had ever witnessed in him. Your sister I also watched.--Her look
          and manners were open, cheerful and engaging as ever, but without any symptom of peculiar<pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>
          regard, and I remained convinced from the evening's scrutiny, that though she received his
          attentions with pleasure, she did not invite them by any participation of sentiment.--If
            <hi rend="italic">you</hi> have not been mistaken here, <hi rend="italic">I</hi> must
          have been in an error. Your superior knowledge of your sister must make the latter
          probable.--If it be so, if I have been misled by such error, to inflict pain on her, your
          resentment has not been unreasonable. But I shall not scruple to assert, that the serenity
          of your sister's countenance and air was such, as might have given the most acute
          observer, a conviction that, however amiable her temper, her heart was not likely to be
          easily touched.--That I was desirous of believing her indifferent is certain,--but I will
          venture to say that my investigations and decisions are not usually influenced by my hopes
          or fears.--I did not believe her to be indifferent because <pb n="[Vol. II] 136 [be-]"/>I wished it;--I believed it on
          impartial conviction, as truly as I wished it in reason.--My objections to the marriage
          were not merely those, which I last night acknowledged to have required the utmost force
          of passion to put aside, in my own case; the want of connection could not be so great an
          evil to my friend as to me.--But there were other causes of repugnance;--causes which,
          though still existing, and existing to an equal degree in both instances, I had myself
          endeavoured to forget, because they were not immediately before me.--These causes must be
          stated, though briefly.--The situation of your mother's family, though objectionable, was
          nothing in comparison of that total want of propriety so frequently, so almost uniformly
          betrayed by herself, by your three younger sisters, and occasionally even by your
          father.--Pardon me.--It pains me to offend you. But amidst <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>your concern for the defects of
          your nearest relations, and your displeasure at this representation of them, let it give
          you consolation to consider that, to have conducted yourselves so as to avoid any share of
          the like censure, is praise no less generally bestowed on you and your eldest sister, than
          it is honourable to the sense and disposition of both.--I will only say farther, that from
          what passed that evening, my opinion of all parties was confirmed, and every inducement
          heightened, which could have led me before, to preserve my friend from what I esteemed a
          most unhappy connection.--He left Netherfield for London, on the day following, as you, I
          am certain, remember, with the design of soon returning.--The part which I acted, is now
          to be explained.--His sisters' uneasiness had been equally excited with my own; our
          coincidence of feeling was soon discovered; and, <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>alike sensible that no time was to be
          lost in detaching their brother, we shortly resolved on joining him directly in
          London.--We accordingly went--and there I readily engaged in the office of pointing out to
          my friend, the certain evils of such a choice.--I described, and enforced them
          earnestly.--But, however this remonstrance might have staggered or delayed his
          determination, I do not suppose that it would ultimately have prevented the marriage, had
          it not been seconded by the assurance which I hesitated not in giving, of your sister's
          indifference. He had before believed her to return his affection with sincere, if not with
          equal regard.--But Bingley has great natural modesty, with a stronger dependence on my
          judgment than on his own.--To convince him, therefore, that he had deceived himself, was
          no very difficult point. To persuade him against returning into Hertfordshire, when that<pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>
          conviction had been given, was scarcely the work of a moment.--I cannot blame myself for
          having done thus much. There is but one part of my conduct in the whole affair, on which I
          do not reflect with satisfaction; it is that I condescended to adopt the measures of art
          so far as to conceal from him your sister's being in town. I knew it myself, as it was
          known to Miss Bingley, but her brother is even yet ignorant of it.--That they might have
          met without ill consequence, is perhaps probable;--but his regard did not appear to me
          enough extinguished for him to see her without some danger.--Perhaps this concealment,
          this disguise, was beneath me.--It is done, however, and it was done for the best.--On
          this subject I have nothing more to say, no other apology to offer. If I have wounded your
          sister's feelings, it was unknowingly done; and though <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>the motives which governed me may
          to you very naturally appear insufficient, I have not yet learnt to condemn them.--With
          respect to that other, more weighty accusation, of having injured Mr. Wickham, I can only
          refute it by laying before you the whole of his connection with my family. Of what he has
            <hi rend="italic">particularly</hi> accused me I am ignorant; but of the truth of what I
          shall relate, I can summon more than one witness of undoubted veracity. Mr. Wickham is the
          son of a very respectable man, who had for many years the management of all the Pemberley
          estates; and whose good conduct in the discharge of his trust, naturally inclined my
          father to be of service to him, and on George Wickham, who was his god-son, his kindness
          was therefore liberally bestowed. My father supported him at school, and afterwards at
          Cambridge;--most important assistance, as his own father, always poor <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>from the
          extravagance of his wife, would have been unable to give him a gentleman's education. My
          father was not only fond of this young man's society, whose manners were always engaging;
          he had also the highest opinion of him, and hoping the church would be his profession,
          intended to provide for him in it. As for myself, it is many, many years since I first
          began to think of him in a very different manner. The vicious propensities--the want of
          principle which he was careful to guard from the knowledge of his best friend, could not
          escape the observation of a young man of nearly the same age with himself, and who had
          opportunities of seeing him in unguarded moments, which Mr. Darcy could not have. Here
          again I shall give you pain--to what degree you only can tell. But whatever may be the
          sentiments which Mr. Wickham has created, a suspicion of their <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>nature shall not prevent me
          from unfolding his real character. It adds even another motive. My excellent father died
          about five years ago; and his attachment to Mr. Wickham was to the last so steady, that in
          his will he particularly recommended it to me, to promote his advancement in the best
          manner that his profession might allow, and if he took orders, desired that a valuable
          family living might be his as soon as soon as it became vacant. There was also a legacy of
          one thousand pounds. His own father did not long survive mine, and within half a year from
          these events, Mr. Wickham wrote to inform me that, having finally resolved against taking
          orders, he hoped I should not think it unreasonable for him to expect some more immediate
          pecuniary advantage, in lieu of the preferment, by which he could not be benefited. He had
          some intention, he added, of studying the law, and I must be aware <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>that the interest of
          one thousand pounds would be a very insufficient support therein. I rather wished, than
          believed him to be sincere; but at any rate, was perfectly ready to accede to his
          proposal. I knew that Mr. Wickham ought not to be a clergyman. The business was therefore
          soon settled. He resigned all claim to assistance in the church, were it possible that he
          could ever be in a situation to receive it, and accepted in return three thousand pounds.
          All connection between us seemed now dissolved. I thought too ill of him, to invite him to
          Pemberley, or admit his society in town. In town I believe he chiefly lived, but his
          studying the law was a mere pretence, and being now free from all restraint, his life was
          a life of idleness and dissipation. For about three years I heard little of him; but on
          the decease of the incumbent of the living which had been designed for him, he applied to
          me <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>again by letter for the presentation. His circumstances, he assured me, and I had no
          difficulty in believing it, were exceedingly bad. He had found the law a most unprofitable
          study, and was now absolutely resolved on being ordained, if I would present him to the
          living in question--of which he trusted there could be little doubt, as he was well
          assured that I had no other person to provide for, and I could not have forgotten my
          revered father's intentions. You will hardly blame me for refusing to comply with this
          entreaty, or for resisting every repetition of it. His resentment was in proportion to the
          distress of his circumstances--and he was doubtless as violent in his abuse of me to
          others, as in his reproaches to myself. After this period, every appearance of
          acquaintance was dropt. How he lived I know not. But last summer he was again most
          painfully obtruded on my <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>notice. I must now mention a circumstance which I would wish to
          forget myself, and which no obligation less than the present should induce me to unfold to
          any human being. Having said thus much, I feel no doubt of your secrecy. My sister, who is
          more than ten years my junior, was left to the guardianship of my mother's nephew, Colonel
          Fitzwilliam, and myself. About a year ago, she was taken from school, and an establishment
          formed for her in London; and last summer she went with the lady who presided over it, to
          Ramsgate; and thither also went Mr. Wickham, undoubtedly by design; for there proved to
          have been a prior acquaintance between him and Mrs. Younge, in whose character we were
          most unhappily deceived; and by her connivance and aid, he so far recommended himself to
          Georgiana, whose affectionate heart retained a strong impression of his kindness to her as<pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>
          a child, that she was persuaded to believe herself in love, and to consent to an
          elopement. She was then but fifteen, which must be her excuse; and after stating her
          imprudence, I am happy to add, that I owed the knowledge of it to herself. I joined them
          unexpectedly a day or two before the intended elopement, and then Georgiana, unable to
          support the idea of grieving and offending a brother whom she almost looked up to as a
          father, acknowledged the whole to me. You may imagine what I felt and how I acted. Regard
          for my sister's credit and feelings prevented any public exposure, but I wrote to Mr.
          Wickham, who left the place immediately, and Mrs. Younge was of course removed from her
          charge. Mr. Wickham's chief object was unquestionably my sister's fortune, which is thirty
          thousand pounds; but I cannot help supposing that the hope of revenging himself on me, was
          a strong inducement. <pb n="[Vol. II] 136 [induce-]"/>His revenge would have been complete indeed. This, madam, is a
          faithful narrative of every event in which we have been concerned together; and if you do
          not absolutely reject it as false, you will, I hope, acquit me henceforth of cruelty
          towards Mr. Wickham. I know not in what manner, under what form of falsehood he has
          imposed on you; but his success is not perhaps to be wondered at. Ignorant as you
          previously were of every thing concerning either, detection could not be in your power,
          and suspicion certainly not in your inclination. You may possibly wonder why all this was
          not told you last night. But I was not then master enough of myself to know what could or
          ought to be revealed. For the truth of every thing here related, I can appeal more
          particularly to the testimony of Colonel Fitzwilliam, who from our near relationship and
          constant intimacy, and <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>still more as one of the executors of my father's will, has been
          unavoidably acquainted with every particular of these transactions. If your abhorrence of
            <hi rend="italic">me</hi> should make <hi rend="italic">my</hi> assertions valueless,
          you cannot be prevented by the same cause from confiding in my cousin; and that there may
          be the possibility of consulting him, I shall endeavour to find some opportunity of
          putting this letter in your hands in the course of the morning. I will only add, God bless
          you.</p>
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                                                <lb/> "FITZWILLIAM DARCY."</signed>
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                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 156"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIII.</head>
        <p> If Elizabeth, when Mr. Darcy gave her the letter, did not expect it to contain a renewal
          of his offers, she had formed no expectation at all of its contents. But such as they
          were, it may be well supposed how eagerly she went through them, and what a contrariety of
          emotion they excited. Her feelings as she read were scarcely to be defined. With amazement
          did she first understand that he believed any apology to be in his power; and steadfastly
          was she persuaded that he could have no explanation to give, which a just sense of shame
          would not conceal. With a strong prejudice against every thing he might say, she began his
          account of what had happened at Netherfield. She read, with an eagerness which hardly left
          her power of <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>comprehension, and from impatience of knowing what the next sentence might
          bring, was incapable of attending to the sense of the one before her eyes. His belief of
          her sister's insensibility, she instantly resolved to be false, and his account of the
          real, the worst objections to the match, made her too angry to have any wish of doing him
          justice. He expressed no regret for what he had done which satisfied her; his style was
          not penitent, but haughty. It was all pride and insolence.</p>
        <p>But when this subject was succeeded by his account of Mr. Wickham, when she read with
          somewhat clearer attention, a relation of events, which, if true, must overthrow every
          cherished opinion of his worth, and which bore so alarming an affinity to his own history
          of himself, her feelings were yet more acutely painful and more difficult of definition.
          Astonishment, apprehension, <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>and even horror, oppressed her. She wished to discredit it
          entirely, repeatedly exclaiming, "This must be false! This cannot be! This must be the
          grossest falsehood!"--and when she had gone through the whole letter, though scarcely
          knowing any thing of the last page or two, put it hastily away, protesting that she would
          not regard it, that she would never look in it again.</p>
        <p>In this perturbed state of mind, with thoughts that could rest on nothing, she walked on;
          but it would not do; in half a minute the letter was unfolded again, and collecting
          herself as well as she could, she again began the mortifying perusal of all that related
          to Wickham, and commanded herself so far as to examine the meaning of every sentence. The
          account of his connection with the Pemberley family, was exactly what he had related
          himself; and the kindness of the late Mr. Darcy, though <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>she had not before known its
          extent, agreed equally well with his own words. So far each recital confirmed the other:
          but when she came to the will, the difference was great. What Wickham had said of the
          living was fresh in her memory, and as she recalled his very words, it was impossible not
          to feel that there was gross duplicity on one side or the other; and, for a few moments,
          she flattered herself that her wishes did not err. But when she read, and re-read with the
          closest attention, the particulars immediately following of Wickham's resigning all
          pretensions to the living, of his receiving in lieu, so considerable a sum as three
          thousand pounds, again was she forced to hesitate. She put down the letter, weighed every
          circumstance with what she meant to be impartiality--deliberated on the probability of
          each statement--but with little success. On both sides it was only assertion. <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>Again she
          read on. But every line proved more clearly that the affair, which she had believed it
          impossible that any contrivance could so represent, as to render Mr. Darcy's conduct in it
          less than infamous, was capable of a turn which must make him entirely blameless
          throughout the whole.</p>
        <p>The extravagance and general profligacy which he scrupled not to lay to Mr. Wickham's
          charge, exceedingly shocked her; the more so, as she could bring no proof of its
          injustice. She had never heard of him before his entrance into the ----shire Militia, in
          which he had engaged at the persuasion of the young man, who, on meeting him accidentally
          in town, had there renewed a slight acquaintance. Of his former way of life, nothing had
          been known in Hertfordshire but what he told himself. As to his real character, had
          information been in her power, she had never felt a wish <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>of enquiring. His countenance,
          voice, and manner, had established him at once in the possession of every virtue. She
          tried to recollect some instance of goodness, some distinguished trait of integrity or
          benevolence, that might rescue him from the attacks of Mr. Darcy; or at least, by the
          predominance of virtue, atone for those casual errors, under which she would endeavour to
          class, what Mr. Darcy had described as the idleness and vice of many years continuance.
          But no such recollection befriended her. She could see him instantly before her, in every
          charm of air and address; but she could remember no more substantial good than the general
          approbation of the neighbourhood, and the regard which his social powers had gained him in
          the mess. After pausing on this point a considerable while, she once more continued to
          read. But, alas! the story which followed of his designs on Miss <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>Darcy, received some
          confirmation from what had passed between Colonel Fitzwilliam and herself only the morning
          before; and at last she was referred for the truth of every particular to Colonel
          Fitzwilliam himself--from whom she had previously received the information of his near
          concern in all his cousin's affairs, and whose character she had no reason to question. At
          one time she had almost resolved on applying to him, but the idea was checked by the
          awkwardness of the application, and at length wholly banished by the conviction that Mr.
          Darcy would never have hazarded such a proposal, if he had not been well assured of his
          cousin's corroboration.</p>
        <p>She perfectly remembered every thing that had passed in conversation between Wickham and
          herself, in their first evening at Mr. Philips's. Many of his expressions were still fresh
          in her memory. She was <hi rend="italic">now</hi> struck with the <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>impropriety of such
          communications to a stranger, and wondered it had escaped her before. She saw the
          indelicacy of putting himself forward as he had done, and the inconsistency of his
          professions with his conduct. She remembered that he had boasted of having no fear of
          seeing Mr. Darcy--that Mr. Darcy might leave the country, but that <hi rend="italic">he</hi> should stand his ground; yet he had avoided the Netherfield ball the very next
          week. She remembered also, that till the Netherfield family had quitted the country, he
          had told his story to no one but herself; but that after their removal, it had been every
          where discussed; that he had then no reserves, no scruples in sinking Mr. Darcy's
          character, though he had assured her that respect for the father, would always prevent his
          exposing the son.</p>
        <p>How differently did every thing now appear in which he was concerned! <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>His attentions to
          Miss King were now the consequence of views solely and hatefully mercenary; and the
          mediocrity of her fortune proved no longer the moderation of his wishes, but his eagerness
          to grasp at any thing. His behaviour to herself could now have had no tolerable motive; he
          had either been deceived with regard to her fortune, or had been gratifying his vanity by
          encouraging the preference which she believed she had most incautiously shewn. Every
          lingering struggle in his favour grew fainter and fainter; and in farther justification of
          Mr. Darcy, she could not but allow that Mr. Bingley, when questioned by Jane, had long ago
          asserted his blamelessness in the affair; that proud and repulsive as were his manners,
          she had never, in the whole course of their acquaintance, an acquaintance which had
          latterly brought them much together, and given her a sort of intimacy with <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>his ways, seen
          any thing that betrayed him to be unprincipled or unjust--any thing that spoke him of
          irreligious or immoral habits. That among his own connections he was esteemed and
          valued--that even Wickham had allowed him merit as a brother, and that she had often heard
          him speak so affectionately of his sister as to prove him capable of <hi rend="italic">some</hi> amiable feeling. That had his actions been what Wickham represented them, so
          gross a violation of every thing right could hardly have been concealed from the world;
          and that friendship between a person capable of it, and such an amiable man as Mr.
          Bingley, was incomprehensible.</p>
        <p>She grew absolutely ashamed of herself.--Of neither Darcy nor Wickham could she think,
          without feeling that she had been blind, partial, prejudiced, absurd.</p>
        <p>"How despicably have I acted!" she <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>cried.--"I, who have prided myself on my
          discernment!--I, who have valued myself on my abilities! who have often disdained the
          generous candour of my sister, and gratified my vanity, in useless or blameable
          distrust.--How humiliating is this discovery!--Yet, how just a humiliation!--Had I been in
          love, I could not have been more wretchedly blind. But vanity, not love, has been my
          folly.--Pleased with the preference of one, and offended by the neglect of the other, on
          the very beginning of our acquaintance, I have courted prepossession and ignorance, and
          driven reason away, where either were concerned. Till this moment, I never knew
          myself."</p>
        <p>From herself to Jane--from Jane to Bingley, her thoughts were in a line which soon
          brought to her recollection that Mr. Darcy's explanation <hi rend="italic">there</hi>, had
          appeared very insufficient; and she <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>read it again. Widely different was the effect of a
          second perusal.--How could she deny that credit to his assertions, in one instance, which
          she had been obliged to give in the other?--He declared himself to have been totally
          unsuspicious of her sister's attachment;--and she could not help remembering what
          Charlotte's opinion had always been.--Neither could she deny the justice of his
          description of Jane.--She felt that Jane's feelings, though fervent, were little
          displayed, and that there was a constant complacency in her air and manner, not often
          united with great sensibility.</p>
        <p>When she came to that part of the letter in which her family were mentioned, in terms of
          such mortifying, yet merited reproach, her sense of shame was severe. The justice of the
          charge struck her too forcibly for denial, and the circumstances to which he <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>particularly
          alluded, as having passed at the Netherfield ball, and as confirming all his first
          disapprobation, could not have made a stronger impression on his mind than on hers.</p>
        <p>The compliment to herself and her sister, was not unfelt. It soothed, but it could not
          console her for the contempt which had been thus self-attracted by the rest of her
          family;--and as she considered that Jane's disappointment had in fact been the work of her
          nearest relations, and reflected how materially the credit of both must be hurt by such
          impropriety of conduct, she felt depressed beyond any thing she had ever known before.</p>
        <p>After wandering along the lane for two hours, giving way to every variety of thought;
          re-considering events, determining probabilities, and reconciling herself as well as she
          could, to a change so sudden and so important, fatigue, and a <pb n="[Vol. II] 136"/>recollection of her long
          absence, made her at length return home; and she entered the house with the wish of
          appearing cheerful as usual, and the resolution of repressing such reflections as must
          make her unfit for conversation.</p>
        <p>She was immediately told, that the two gentlemen from Rosings had each called during her
          absence; Mr. Darcy, only for a few minutes to take leave, but that Colonel Fitzwilliam had
          been sitting with them at least an hour, hoping for her return, and almost resolving to
          walk after her till she could be found.--Elizabeth could but just <hi rend="italic">affect</hi> concern in missing him; she really rejoiced at it. Colonel Fitzwilliam was
          no longer an object. She could think only of her letter.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIV.</head>
        <p> The two gentlemen left Rosings the next morning; and Mr. Collins having been in waiting
          near the lodges, to make them his parting obeisance, was able to bring home the pleasing
          intelligence, of their appearing in very good health, and in as tolerable spirits as could
          be expected, after the melancholy scene so lately gone through at Rosings. To Rosings he
          then hastened to console Lady Catherine, and her daughter; and on his return, brought
          back, with great satisfaction, a message from her Ladyship, importing that she felt
          herself so dull as to make her very desirous of having them all to dine with her.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could not see Lady Catherine without recollecting, that had she chosen it, she
          might by this time have <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>been presented to her, as her future niece; nor could she think,
          without a smile, of what her ladyship's indignation would have been. "What would she have
          said?--how would she have behaved?" were questions with which she amused herself.</p>
        <p>Their first subject was the diminution of the Rosings party.--"I assure you, I feel it
          exceedingly," said Lady Catherine; "I believe nobody feels the loss of friends so much as
          I do. But I am particularly attached to these young men; and know them to be so much
          attached to me!--They were excessively sorry to go! But so they always are. The dear
          colonel rallied his spirits tolerably till just at last; but Darcy seemed to feel it most
          acutely, more I think than last year. His attachment to Rosings, certainly increases."</p>
        <p>Mr. Collins had a compliment, and <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>an allusion to throw in here, which were kindly smiled
          on by the mother and daughter.</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine observed, after dinner, that Miss Bennet seemed out of spirits, and
          immediately accounting for it herself, by supposing that she did not like to go home again
          so soon, she added,</p>
        <p>"But if that is the case, you must write to your mother to beg that you may stay a little
          longer. Mrs. Collins will be very glad of your company, I am sure."</p>
        <p>"I am much obliged to your ladyship for your kind invitation," replied Elizabeth, "but it
          is not in my power to accept it.--I must be in town next Saturday."</p>
        <p>"Why, at that rate, you will have been here only six weeks. I expected you to stay two
          months. I told Mrs. Collins so before you came. There can be no occasion for your going so
          soon. <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>Mrs. Bennet could certainly spare you for another fortnight."</p>
        <p>"But my father cannot.--He wrote last week to hurry my return."</p>
        <p>"Oh! your father of course may spare you, if your mother can.--Daughters are never of so
          much consequence to a father. And if you will stay another <hi rend="italic">month</hi>
          complete, it will be in my power to take one of you as far as London, for I am going there
          early in June, for a week; and as Dawson does not object to the Barouche box, there will
          be very good room for one of you--and indeed, if the weather should happen to be cool, I
          should not object to taking you both, as you are neither of you large."</p>
        <p>"You are all kindness, Madam; but I believe we must abide by our original plan."</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine seemed resigned.</p>
        <p>"Mrs. Collins, you must send a servant <pb n="[Vol. II] 170 [ser-]"/>with them. You know I always speak my mind, and I
          cannot bear the idea of two young women travelling post by themselves. It is highly
          improper. You must contrive to send somebody. I have the greatest dislike in the world to
          that sort of thing.--Young women should always be properly guarded and attended, according
          to their situation in life. When my niece Georgiana went to Ramsgate last summer, I made a
          point of her having two men servants go with her.--Miss Darcy, the daughter of Mr. Darcy,
          of Pemberley, and Lady Anne, could not have appeared with propriety in a different
          manner.--I am excessively attentive to all those things. You must send John with the young
          ladies, Mrs. Collins. I am glad it occurred to me to mention it; for it would really be
          discreditable to <hi rend="italic">you</hi> to let them go alone."</p>
        <p>"My uncle is to send a servant for us."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>
        <p>"Oh!--Your uncle!--He keeps a man-servant, does he?--I am very glad you have somebody who
          thinks of those things. Where shall you change horses?--Oh! Bromley, of course.--If you
          mention my name at the Bell, you will be attended to."</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine had many other questions to ask respecting their journey, and as she did
          not answer them all herself, attention was necessary, which Elizabeth believed to be lucky
          for her; or, with a mind so occupied, she might have forgotten where she was. Reflection
          must be reserved for solitary hours; whenever she was alone, she gave way to it as the
          greatest relief; and not a day went by without a solitary walk, in which she might indulge
          in all the delight of unpleasant recollections.</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy's letter, she was in a fair way of soon knowing by heart. She studied every
          sentence: and her feelings <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>towards its writer were at times widely different. When she
          remembered the style of his address, she was still full of indignation; but when she
          considered how unjustly she had condemned and upbraided him, her anger was turned against
          herself; and his disappointed feelings became the object of compassion. His attachment
          excited gratitude, his general character respect; but she could not approve him; nor could
          she for a moment repent her refusal, or feel the slightest inclination ever to see him
          again. In her own past behaviour, there was a constant source of vexation and regret; and
          in the unhappy defects of her family a subject of yet heavier chagrin. They were hopeless
          of remedy. Her father, contented with laughing at them, would never exert himself to
          restrain the wild giddiness of his youngest daughters; and her mother, with manners so far
          from right herself, was entirely insensible of <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>the evil. Elizabeth had frequently united
          with Jane in an endeavour to check the imprudence of Catherine and Lydia; but while they
          were supported by their mother's indulgence, what chance could there be of improvement?
          Catherine, weak-spirited, irritable, and completely under Lydia's guidance, had been
          always affronted by their advice; and Lydia, self-willed and careless, would scarcely give
          them a hearing. They were ignorant, idle, and vain. While there was an officer in Meryton,
          they would flirt with him; and while Meryton was within a walk of Longbourn, they would be
          going there for ever.</p>
        <p>Anxiety on Jane's behalf, was another prevailing concern, and Mr. Darcy's explanation, by
          restoring Bingley to all her former good opinion, heightened the sense of what Jane had
          lost. His affection was proved to have been sincere, and his conduct cleared of all blame,
          unless <pb n="[Vol. II] 170 [un-]"/>any could attach to the implicitness of his confidence in his friend. How grievous
          then was the thought that, of a situation so desirable in every respect, so replete with
          advantage, so promising for happiness, Jane had been deprived, by the folly and indecorum
          of her own family!</p>
        <p>When to these recollections was added the developement of Wickham's character, it may be
          easily believed that the happy spirits which had seldom been depressed before, were now so
          much affected as to make it almost impossible for her to appear tolerably cheerful.</p>
        <p>Their engagements at Rosings were as frequent during the last week of her stay, as they
          had been at first. The very last evening was spent there; and her Ladyship again enquired
          minutely into the particulars of their journey, gave them directions as to the best method
          of packing, and was so urgent on the necessity <pb n="[Vol. II] 170"/>of placing gowns in the only right way,
          that Maria thought herself obliged, on her return, to undo all the work of the morning,
          and pack her trunk afresh.</p>
        <p>When they parted, Lady Catherine, with great condescension, wished them a good journey,
          and invited them to come to Hunsford again next year; and Miss De Bourgh exerted herself
          so far as to curtsey and hold out her hand to both.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 180"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XV.</head>
        <p> On Saturday morning Elizabeth and Mr. Collins met for breakfast a few minutes before the
          others appeared; and he took the opportunity of paying the parting civilities which he
          deemed indispensably necessary.</p>
        <p>"I know not, Miss Elizabeth," said he, "whether Mrs. Collins has yet expressed her sense
          of your kindness in coming to us, but I am very certain you will not leave the house
          without receiving her thanks for it. The favour of your company has been much felt, I
          assure you. We know how little there is to tempt any one to our humble abode. Our plain
          manner of living, our small rooms, and few domestics, and the little we see of the world,
          must make Hunsford extremely dull to a young lady like <pb n="[Vol. II] 180"/>yourself; but I hope you will
          believe us grateful for the condescension, and that we have done every thing in our power
          to prevent your spending your time unpleasantly."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was eager with her thanks and assurances of happiness. She had spent six weeks
          with great enjoyment; and the pleasure of being with Charlotte, and the kind attentions
          she had received, must make <hi rend="italic">her</hi> feel the obliged. Mr. Collins was
          gratified; and with a more smiling solemnity replied,</p>
        <p>"It gives me the greatest pleasure to hear that you have passed your time not
          disagreeably. We have certainly done our best; and most fortunately having it in our power
          to introduce you to very superior society, and from our connection with Rosings, the
          frequent means of varying the humble home scene, I think we may flatter ourselves that
          your Hunsford visit cannot have been entirely <pb n="[Vol. II] 180"/>irksome. Our situation with regard to Lady
          Catherine's family is indeed the sort of extraordinary advantage and blessing which few
          can boast. You see on what a footing we are. You see how continually we are engaged there.
          In truth I must acknowledge that, with all the disadvantages of this humble parsonage, I
          should not think any one abiding in it an object of compassion, while they are sharers of
          our intimacy at Rosings."</p>
        <p>Words were insufficient for the elevation of his feelings; and he was obliged to walk
          about the room, while Elizabeth tried to unite civility and truth in a few short
          sentences.</p>
        <p>"You may, in fact, carry a very favourable report of us into Hertfordshire, my dear
          cousin. I flatter myself at least that you will be able to do so. Lady Catherine's great
          attentions to Mrs. Collins you have been a daily witness of; and altogether I trust it
          does not appear <pb n="[Vol. II] 180 [ap-]"/>that your friend has drawn an unfortunate--but on this point it will be as
          well to be silent. Only let me assure you, my dear Miss Elizabeth, that I can from my
          heart most cordially wish you equal felicity in marriage. My dear Charlotte and I have but
          one mind and one way of thinking. There is in every thing a most remarkable resemblance of
          character and ideas between us. We seem to have been designed for each other."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could safely say that it was a great happiness where that was the case, and
          with equal sincerity could add that she firmly believed and rejoiced in his domestic
          comforts. She was not sorry, however, to have the recital of them interrupted by the
          entrance of the lady from whom they sprung. Poor Charlotte!--it was melancholy to leave
          her to such society!--But she had chosen it with her eyes open; and though evidently<pb n="[Vol. II] 180 [evi-]"/>
          regretting that her visitors were to go, she did not seem to ask for compassion. Her home
          and her housekeeping, her parish and her poultry, and all their dependent concerns, had
          not yet lost their charms.</p>
        <p>At length the chaise arrived, the trunks were fastened on, the parcels placed within, and
          it was pronounced to be ready. After an affectionate parting between the friends,
          Elizabeth was attended to the carriage by Mr. Collins, and as they walked down the garden,
          he was commissioning her with his best respects to all her family, not forgetting his
          thanks for the kindness he had received at Longbourn in the winter, and his compliments to
          Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, though unknown. He then handed her in, Maria followed, and the door
          was on the point of being closed, when he suddenly reminded them, with some consternation,
          that they had hitherto <pb n="[Vol. II] 180 [hither-]"/>forgotten to leave any message for the ladies of Rosings.</p>
        <p>"But," he added, "you will of course wish to have your humble respects delivered to them,
          with your grateful thanks for their kindness to you while you have been here."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth made no objection;--the door was then allowed to be shut, and the carriage
          drove off.</p>
        <p>"Good gracious!" cried Maria, after a few minutes silence, "it seems but a day or two
          since we first came!--and yet how many things have happened!"</p>
        <p>"A great many indeed," said her companion with a sigh.</p>
        <p>"We have dined nine times at Rosings, besides drinking tea there twice!--How much I shall
          have to tell!"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth privately added, "And how much I shall have to conceal."</p>
        <p>Their journey was performed without much conversation, or any alarm; and <pb n="[Vol. II] 180"/>within four
          hours of their leaving Hunsford, they reached Mr. Gardiner's house, where they were to
          remain a few days.</p>
        <p>Jane looked well, and Elizabeth had little opportunity of studying her spirits, amidst
          the various engagements which the kindness of her aunt had reserved for them. But Jane was
          to go home with her, and at Longbourn there would be leisure enough for observation.</p>
        <p>It was not without an effort meanwhile that she could wait even for Longbourn, before she
          told her sister of Mr. Darcy's proposals. To know that she had the power of revealing what
          would so exceedingly astonish Jane, and must, at the same time, so highly gratify whatever
          of her own vanity she had not yet been able to reason away, was such a temptation to
          openness as nothing could have conquered, but the state of indecision in which she
          remained, as to the extent of what she should communicate; <pb n="[Vol. II] 180"/>and her fear, if she once
          entered on the subject, of being hurried into repeating something of Bingley, which might
          only grieve her sister farther.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVI.</head>
        <p> It was the second week in May, in which the three young ladies set out together from
          Gracechurch-street, for the town of ---- in Hertfordshire; and, as they drew near the
          appointed inn where Mr. Bennet's carriage was to meet them, they quickly perceived, in
          token of the coachman's punctuality, both Kitty and Lydia looking out of a dining-room up
          stairs. These two girls had been above an hour in the place, happily employed in visiting
          an opposite milliner, watching the sentinel on guard, and dressing a sallad and
          cucumber.</p>
        <p>After welcoming their sisters, they triumphantly displayed a table set out with such cold
          meat as an inn larder usually affords, exclaiming, "Is not this nice? is not this an
          agreeable surprise?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>
        <p>"And we mean to treat you all," added Lydia; "but you must lend us the money, for we have
          just spent ours at the shop out there." Then shewing her purchases: "Look here, I have
          bought this bonnet. I do not think it is very pretty; but I thought I might as well buy it
          as not. I shall pull it to pieces as soon as I get home, and see if I can make it up any
          better."</p>
        <p>And when her sisters abused it as ugly, she added, with perfect unconcern, "Oh! but there
          were two or three much uglier in the shop; and when I have bought some prettier-coloured
          satin to trim it with fresh, I think it will be very tolerable. Besides, it will not much
          signify what one wears this summer, after the ----shire have left Meryton, and they are
          going in a fortnight."</p>
        <p>"Are they indeed?" cried Elizabeth, with the greatest satisfaction.</p>
        <p>"They are going to be encamped near <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>Brighton; and I do so want papa to take us all there
          for the summer! It would be such a delicious scheme, and I dare say would hardly cost any
          thing at all. Mamma would like to go too of all things! Only think what a miserable summer
          else we shall have!"</p>
        <p>"Yes," thought Elizabeth, "<hi rend="italic">that</hi> would be a delightful scheme,
          indeed, and completely do for us at once. Good Heaven! Brighton, and a whole campful of
          soldiers, to us, who have been overset already by one poor regiment of militia, and the
          monthly balls of Meryton."</p>
        <p>"Now I have got some news for you," said Lydia, as they sat down to table. "What do you
          think? It is excellent news, capital news, and about a certain person that we all
          like."</p>
        <p>Jane and Elizabeth looked at each other, and the waiter was told that he need not stay.
          Lydia laughed, and said,</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>
        <p>"Aye, that is just like your formality and discretion. You thought the waiter must not
          hear, as if he cared! I dare say he often hears worse things said than I am going to say.
          But he is an ugly fellow! I am glad he is gone. I never saw such a long chin in my life.
          Well, but now for my news: it is about dear Wickham; too good for the waiter, is not it?
          There is no danger of Wickham's marrying Mary King. There's for you! She is gone down to
          her uncle at Liverpool; gone to stay. Wickham is safe."</p>
        <p>"And Mary King is safe!" added Elizabeth; "safe from a connection imprudent as to
          fortune."</p>
        <p>"She is a great fool for going away, if she liked him."</p>
        <p>"But I hope there is no strong attachment on either side," said Jane.</p>
        <p>"I am sure there is not on <hi rend="italic">his</hi>. I will answer for it he never
          cared three <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>straws about her. Who <hi rend="italic">could</hi> about such a nasty little
          freckled thing?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was shocked to think that, however incapable of such coarseness of <hi rend="italic">expression</hi> herself, the coarseness of the <hi rend="italic">sentiment</hi> was little other than her own breast had formerly harboured and fancied
          liberal!</p>
        <p>As soon as all had ate, and the elder ones paid, the carriage was ordered; and after some
          contrivance, the whole party, with all their boxes, workbags, and parcels, and the
          unwelcome addition of Kitty's and Lydia's purchases, were seated in it.</p>
        <p>"How nicely we are crammed in!" cried Lydia. "I am glad I bought my bonnet, if it is only
          for the fun of having another bandbox! Well, now let us be quite comfortable and snug, and
          talk and laugh all the way home. And in the first place, let us hear what has happened to
          you all, since you went away. Have <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>you seen any pleasant men? Have you had any flirting? I
          was in great hopes that one of you would have got a husband before you came back. Jane
          will be quite an old maid soon, I declare. She is almost three and twenty! Lord, how
          ashamed I should be of not being married before three and twenty! My aunt Philips wants
          you so to get husbands, you can't think. She says Lizzy had better have taken Mr. Collins;
          but <hi rend="italic">I</hi> do not think there would have been any fun in it. Lord! how I
          should like to be married before any of you; and then I would chaperon you about to all
          the balls. Dear me! we had such a good piece of fun the other day at Colonel Forster's.
          Kitty and me were to spend the day there, and Mrs. Forster promised to have a little dance
          in the evening; (by the bye, Mrs. Forster and me are <hi rend="italic">such</hi> friends!)
          and so she asked the two Harringtons to come, but Harriet <pb n="[Vol. II] 188 [Har-]"/>was ill, and so Pen was forced
          to come by herself; and then, what do you think we did? We dressed up Chamberlayne in
          woman's clothes, on purpose to pass for a lady,--only think what fun! Not a soul knew of
          it, but Col. and Mrs. Forster, and Kitty and me, except my aunt, for we were forced to
          borrow one of her gowns; and you cannot imagine how well he looked! When Denny, and
          Wickham, and Pratt, and two or three more of the men came in, they did not know him in the
          least. Lord! how I laughed! and so did Mrs. Forster. I thought I should have died. And <hi rend="italic">that</hi> made the men suspect something, and then they soon found out
          what was the matter."</p>
        <p>With such kind of histories of their parties and good jokes, did Lydia, assisted by
          Kitty's hints and additions, endeavour to amuse her companions all the way to Longbourn.
          Elizabeth listened as little <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>as she could, but there was no escaping the frequent mention
          of Wickham's name.</p>
        <p>Their reception at home was most kind. Mrs. Bennet rejoiced to see Jane in undiminished
          beauty; and more than once during dinner did Mr. Bennet say voluntarily to Elizabeth,</p>
        <p>"I am glad you are come back, Lizzy."</p>
        <p>Their party in the dining-room was large, for almost all the Lucases came to meet Maria
          and hear the news: and various were the subjects which occupied them; lady Lucas was
          enquiring of Maria across the table, after the welfare and poultry of her eldest daughter;
          Mrs. Bennet was doubly engaged, on one hand collecting an account of the present fashions
          from Jane, who sat some way below her, and on the other, retailing them all to the younger
          Miss Lucases; and Lydia, in a voice rather louder than any other <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>person's, was enumerating
          the various pleasures of the morning to any body who would hear her.</p>
        <p>"Oh! Mary," said she, "I wish you had gone with us, for we had such fun! as we went
          along, Kitty and me drew up all the blinds, and pretended there was nobody in the coach;
          and I should have gone so all the way, if Kitty had not been sick; and when we got to the
          George, I do think we behaved very handsomely, for we treated the other three with the
          nicest cold luncheon in the world, and if you would have gone, we would have treated you
          too. And then when we came away it was such fun! I thought we never should have got into
          the coach. I was ready to die of laughter. And then we were so merry all the way home! we
          talked and laughed so loud, that any body might have heard us ten miles off!"</p>
        <p>To this, Mary very gravely replied, <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>"Far be it from me, my dear sister, to depreciate
          such pleasures. They would doubtless be congenial with the generality of female minds. But
          I confess they would have no charms for <hi rend="italic">me</hi>. I should infinitely
          prefer a book."</p>
        <p>But of this answer Lydia heard not a word. She seldom listened to any body for more than
          half a minute, and never attended to Mary at all.</p>
        <p>In the afternoon Lydia was urgent with the rest of the girls to walk to Meryton and see
          how every body went on; but Elizabeth steadily opposed the scheme. It should not be said,
          that the Miss Bennets could not be at home half a day before they were in pursuit of the
          officers. There was another reason too for her opposition. She dreaded seeing Wickham
          again, and was resolved to avoid it as long as possible. The comfort to <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, of the regiment's approaching removal, was indeed beyond expression. <pb n="[Vol. II] 188"/>In a
          fortnight they were to go, and once gone, she hoped there could be nothing more to plague
          her on his account.</p>
        <p>She had not been many hours at home, before she found that the Brighton scheme, of which
          Lydia had given them a hint at the inn, was under frequent discussion between her parents.
          Elizabeth saw directly that her father had not the smallest intention of yielding; but his
          answers were at the same time so vague and equivocal, that her mother, though often
          disheartened, had never yet despaired of succeeding at last.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 199"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVII.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth's impatience to acquaint Jane with what had happened could no longer be
          overcome; and at length resolving to suppress every particular in which her sister was
          concerned, and preparing her to be surprised, she related to her the next morning the
          chief of the scene between Mr. Darcy and herself.</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet's astonishment was soon lessened by the strong sisterly partiality which made
          any admiration of Elizabeth appear perfectly natural; and all surprise was shortly lost in
          other feelings. She was sorry that Mr. Darcy should have delivered his sentiments in a
          manner so little suited to recommend them; but still more was she grieved for the
          unhappiness <pb n="[Vol. II] 199 [unhap-]"/>which her sister's refusal must have given him.</p>
        <p>"His being so sure of succeeding, was wrong," said she; "and certainly ought not to have
          appeared; but consider how much it must increase his disappointment."</p>
        <p>"Indeed," replied Elizabeth, "I am heartily sorry for him; but he has other feelings
          which will probably soon drive away his regard for me. You do not blame me, however, for
          refusing him?"</p>
        <p>"Blame you! Oh, no."</p>
        <p>"But you blame me for having spoken so warmly of Wickham."</p>
        <p>"No--I do not know that you were wrong in saying what you did."</p>
        <p>"But you <hi rend="italic">will</hi> know it, when I have told you what happened the very
          next day."</p>
        <p>She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole of its contents as far as they
          concerned George Wickham. <pb n="[Vol. II] 199"/>What a stroke was this for poor Jane! who would willingly have
          gone through the world without believing that so much wickedness existed in the whole race
          of mankind, as was here collected in one individual. Nor was Darcy's vindication, though
          grateful to her feelings, capable of consoling her for such discovery. Most earnestly did
          she labour to prove the probability of error, and seek to clear one, without involving the
          other.</p>
        <p>"This will not do," said Elizabeth. "You never will be able to make both of them good for
          any thing. Take your choice, but you must be satisfied with only one. There is but such a
          quantity of merit between them; just enough to make one good sort of man; and of late it
          has been shifting about pretty much. For my part, I am inclined to believe it all Mr.
          Darcy's, but you shall do as you chuse."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 199"/>
        <p>It was some time, however, before a smile could be extorted from Jane.</p>
        <p>"I do not know when I have been more shocked," said she. "Wickham so very bad! It is
          almost past belief. And poor Mr. Darcy! dear Lizzy, only consider what he must have
          suffered. Such a disappointment! and with the knowledge of your ill opinion too! and
          having to relate such a thing of his sister! It is really too distressing. I am sure you
          must feel it so."</p>
        <p>"Oh! no, my regret and compassion are all done away by seeing you so full of both. I know
          you will do him such ample justice, that I am growing every moment more unconcerned and
          indifferent. Your profusion makes me saving; and if you lament over him much longer, my
          heart will be as light as a feather."</p>
        <p>"Poor Wickham; there is such an expression of goodness in his countenance! <pb n="[Vol. II] 199 [counte-]"/>such an
          openness and gentleness in his manner."</p>
        <p>"There certainly was some great mismanagement in the education of those two young men.
          One has got all the goodness, and the other all the appearance of it."</p>
        <p>"I never thought Mr. Darcy so deficient in the <hi rend="italic">appearance</hi> of it as
          you used to do."</p>
        <p>"And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in taking so decided a dislike to him, without
          any reason. It is such a spur to one's genius, such an opening for wit to have a dislike
          of that kind. One may be continually abusive without saying any thing just; but one cannot
          be always laughing at a man without now and then stumbling on something witty."</p>
        <p>"Lizzy, when you first read that letter, I am sure you could not treat the matter as you
          do now."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 199"/>
        <p>"Indeed I could not. I was uncomfortable enough. I was very uncomfortable, I may say
          unhappy. And with no one to speak to, of what I felt, no Jane to comfort me and say that I
          had not been so very weak and vain and nonsensical as I knew I had! Oh! how I wanted
          you!"</p>
        <p>"How unfortunate that you should have used such very strong expressions in speaking of
          Wickham to Mr. Darcy, for now they <hi rend="italic">do</hi> appear wholly
          undeserved."</p>
        <p>"Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking with bitterness, is a most natural consequence
          of the prejudices I had been encouraging. There is one point, on which I want your advice.
          I want to be told whether I ought, or ought not to make our acquaintance in general
          understand Wickham's character."</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet paused a little and then replied, "Surely there can be no occasion <pb n="[Vol. II] 199 [occa-]"/>for
          exposing him so dreadfully. What is your own opinion?"</p>
        <p>"That it ought not to be attempted. Mr. Darcy has not authorised me to make his
          communication public. On the contrary every particular relative to his sister, was meant
          to be kept as much as possible to myself; and if I endeavour to undeceive people as to the
          rest of his conduct, who will believe me? The general prejudice against Mr. Darcy is so
          violent, that it would be the death of half the good people in Meryton, to attempt to
          place him in an amiable light. I am not equal to it. Wickham will soon be gone; and
          therefore it will not signify to anybody here, what he really is. Sometime hence it will
          be all found out, and then we may laugh at their stupidity in not knowing it before. At
          present I will say nothing about it."</p>
        <p>"You are quite right. To have his errors made public might ruin him for <pb n="[Vol. II] 206"/>ever. He is now
          perhaps sorry for what he has done, and anxious to re-establish a character. We must not
          make him desperate."</p>
        <p>The tumult of Elizabeth's mind was allayed by this conversation. She had got rid of two
          of the secrets which had weighed on her for a fortnight, and was certain of a willing
          listener in Jane, whenever she might wish to talk again of either. But there was still
          something lurking behind, of which prudence forbad the disclosure. She dared not relate
          the other half of Mr. Darcy's letter, nor explain to her sister how sincerely she had been
          valued by his friend. Here was knowledge in which no one could partake; and she was
          sensible that nothing less than a perfect understanding between the parties could justify
          her in throwing off this last incumbrance of mystery. "And then," said she, "if that very
          improbable event should ever <pb n="[Vol. II] 206"/>take place, I shall merely be able to tell what Bingley may
          tell in a much more agreeable manner himself. The liberty of communication cannot be mine
          till it has lost all its value!"</p>
        <p>She was now, on being settled at home, at leisure to observe the real state of her
          sister's spirits. Jane was not happy. She still cherished a very tender affection for
          Bingley. Having never even fancied herself in love before, her regard had all the warmth
          of first attachment, and from her age and disposition, greater steadiness than first
          attachments often boast; and so fervently did she value his remembrance, and prefer him to
          every other man, that all her good sense, and all her attention to the feelings of her
          friends, were requisite to check the indulgence of those regrets, which must have been
          injurious to her own health and their tranquillity.</p>
        <p>"Well, Lizzy," said Mrs. Bennet one <pb n="[Vol. II] 206"/>day, "what is your opinion <hi rend="italic">now</hi>
          of this sad business of Jane's? For my part, I am determined never to speak of it again to
          anybody. I told my sister Philips so the other day. But I cannot find out that Jane saw
          any thing of him in London. Well, he is a very undeserving young man--and I do not suppose
          there is the least chance in the world of her ever getting him now. There is no talk of
          his coming to Netherfield again in the summer; and I have enquired of every body too, who
          is likely to know."</p>
        <p>"I do not believe that he will ever live at Netherfield any more."</p>
        <p>"Oh, well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody wants him to come. Though I shall always say
          that he used my daughter extremely ill; and if I was her, I would not have put up with it.
          Well, my comfort is, I am sure Jane will die of a broken heart, and then he will be sorry
          for what he has done."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 206"/>
        <p>But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from any such expectation, she made no
          answer.</p>
        <p>"Well, Lizzy," continued her mother soon afterwards, "and so the Collinses live very
          comfortable, do they? Well, well, I only hope it will last. And what sort of table do they
          keep? Charlotte is an excellent manager, I dare say. If she is half as sharp as her
          mother, she is saving enough. There is nothing extravagant in <hi rend="italic">their</hi>
          housekeeping, I dare say."</p>
        <p>"No, nothing at all."</p>
        <p>"A great deal of good management, depend upon it. Yes, yes. <hi rend="italic">They</hi>
          will take care not to outrun their income. <hi rend="italic">They</hi> will never be
          distressed for money. Well, much good may it do them! And so, I suppose, they often talk
          of having Longbourn when your father is dead. They look upon it quite as their own, I dare
          say, whenever that happens."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 206"/>
        <p>"It was a subject which they could not mention before me."</p>
        <p>"No. It would have been strange if they had. But I make no doubt, they often talk of it
          between themselves. Well, if they can be easy with an estate that is not lawfully their
          own, so much the better. <hi rend="italic">I</hi> should be ashamed of having one that was
          only entailed on me."</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 211"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVIII.</head>
        <p> The first week of their return was soon gone. The second began. It was the last of the
          regiment's stay in Meryton, and all the young ladies in the neighbourhood were drooping
          apace. The dejection was almost universal. The elder Miss Bennets alone were still able to
          eat, drink, and sleep, and pursue the usual course of their employments. Very frequently
          were they reproached for this insensibility by Kitty and Lydia, whose own misery was
          extreme, and who could not comprehend such hard-heartedness in any of the family.</p>
        <p>"Good Heaven! What is to become of us! What are we to do!" would they often exclaim in
          the bitterness of woe. "How can you be smiling so, Lizzy?"</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 211"/>
        <p>Their affectionate mother shared all their grief; she remembered what she had herself
          endured on a similar occasion, five and twenty years ago.</p>
        <p>"I am sure," said she, "I cried for two days together when Colonel Millar's regiment went
          away. I thought I should have broke my heart."</p>
        <p>"I am sure I shall break <hi rend="italic">mine</hi>," said Lydia.</p>
        <p>"If one could but go to Brighton!" observed Mrs. Bennet.</p>
        <p>"Oh, yes!--if one could but go to Brighton! But papa is so disagreeable."</p>
        <p>"A little sea-bathing would set me up for ever."</p>
        <p>"And my aunt Philips is sure it would do <hi rend="italic">me</hi> a great deal of good,"
          added Kitty.</p>
        <p>Such were the kind of lamentations resounding perpetually through Longbourn-house.
          Elizabeth tried to be diverted by them; but all sense of pleasure was lost in shame. She
          felt anew the justice of Mr. Darcy's objections; and never had she before been so much
          disposed to pardon his interference in the views of his friend.</p>
        <p>But the gloom of Lydia's prospect was shortly cleared away; for she received an
          invitation from Mrs. Forster, the wife of the Colonel of the regiment, to accompany her to
          Brighton. This invaluable friend was a very young woman, and very lately married. A
          resemblance in good humour and good spirits had recommended her and Lydia to each other,
          and out of their <hi rend="italic">three</hi> months' acquaintance they had been intimate
            <hi rend="italic">two</hi>.</p>
        <p>The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her adoration of Mrs. Forster, the delight of Mrs.
          Bennet, and the mortification of Kitty, are scarcely to be described. Wholly inattentive
          to her sister's feelings, Lydia flew about the house in restless ecstacy, calling for
          every one's congratulations, <pb n="[Vol. II] 214 [con-]"/>and laughing and talking with more violence than ever; whilst
          the luckless Kitty continued in the parlour repining at her fate in terms as unreasonable
          as her accent was peevish.</p>
        <p>"I cannot see why Mrs. Forster should not ask <hi rend="italic">me</hi> as well as
          Lydia," said she, "though I am <hi rend="italic">not</hi> her particular friend. I have
          just as much right to be asked as she has, and more too, for I am two years older."</p>
        <p>In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her reasonable, and Jane to make her resigned. As
          for Elizabeth herself, this invitation was so far from exciting in her the same feelings
          as in her mother and Lydia, that she considered it as the death-warrant of all possibility
          of common sense for the latter; and detestable as such a step must make her were it known,
          she could not help secretly advising her father not to let her go. She represented to him
          all the improprieties <pb n="[Vol. II] 215"/>of Lydia's general behaviour, the little advantage she could derive
          from the friendship of such a woman as Mrs. Forster, and the probability of her being yet
          more imprudent with such a companion at Brighton, where the temptations must be greater
          than at home. He heard her attentively, and then said,</p>
        <p>"Lydia will never be easy till she has exposed herself in some public place or other, and
          we can never expect her to do it with so little expense or inconvenience to her family as
          under the present circumstances."</p>
        <p>"If you were aware," said Elizabeth, "of the very great disadvantage to us all, which
          must arise from the public notice of Lydia's unguarded and imprudent manner; nay, which
          has already arisen from it, I am sure you would judge differently in the affair."</p>
        <p>"Already arisen!" repeated Mr. Bennet. "What, has she frightened away <pb n="[Vol. II] 216"/>some of your
          lovers? Poor little Lizzy! But do not be cast down. Such squeamish youths as cannot bear
          to be connected with a little absurdity, are not worth a regret. Come, let me see the list
          of the pitiful fellows who have been kept aloof by Lydia's folly."</p>
        <p>"Indeed you are mistaken. I have no such injuries to resent. It is not of peculiar, but
          of general evils, which I am now complaining. Our importance, our respectability in the
          world, must be affected by the wild volatility, the assurance and disdain of all restraint
          which mark Lydia's character. Excuse me--for I must speak plainly. If you, my dear father,
          will not take the trouble of checking her exuberant spirits, and of teaching her that her
          present pursuits are not to be the business of her life, she will soon be beyond the reach
          of amendment. Her character will be fixed, and she will, at sixteen, be the most
          determined <pb n="[Vol. II] 217 [deter-]"/>flirt that ever made herself and her family ridiculous. A flirt too, in the
          worst and meanest degree of flirtation; without any attraction beyond youth and a
          tolerable person; and from the ignorance and emptiness of her mind, wholly unable to ward
          off any portion of that universal contempt which her rage for admiration will excite. In
          this danger Kitty is also comprehended. She will follow wherever Lydia leads. Vain,
          ignorant, idle, and absolutely uncontrouled! Oh! my dear father, can you suppose it
          possible that they will not be censured and despised wherever they are known, and that
          their sisters will not be often involved in the disgrace?"</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet saw that her whole heart was in the subject; and affectionately taking her
          hand, said in reply,</p>
        <p>"Do not make yourself uneasy, my love. Wherever you and Jane are known, you must be
          respected and valued; <pb n="[Vol. II] 218 [va-]"/>and you will not appear to less advantage for having a couple of--or
          I may say, three very silly sisters. We shall have no peace at Longbourn if Lydia does not
          go to Brighton. Let her go then. Colonel Forster is a sensible man, and will keep her out
          of any real mischief; and she is luckily too poor to be an object of prey to any body. At
          Brighton she will be of less importance even as a common flirt than she has been here. The
          officers will find women better worth their notice. Let us hope, therefore, that her being
          there may teach her her own insignificance. At any rate, she cannot grow many degrees
          worse, without authorizing us to lock her up for the rest of her life."</p>
        <p>With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be content; but her own opinion continued the
          same, and she left him disappointed and sorry. It was not in her nature, however, to
          increase her vexations, <pb n="[Vol. II] 219 [vex-]"/>by dwelling on them. She was confident of having performed her
          duty, and to fret over unavoidable evils, or augment them by anxiety, was no part of her
          disposition.</p>
        <p>Had Lydia and her mother known the substance of her conference with her father, their
          indignation would hardly have found expression in their united volubility. In Lydia's
          imagination, a visit to Brighton comprised every possibility of earthly happiness. She saw
          with the creative eye of fancy, the streets of that gay bathing place covered with
          officers. She saw herself the object of attention, to tens and to scores of them at
          present unknown. She saw all the glories of the camp; its tents stretched forth in
          beauteous uniformity of lines, crowded with the young and the gay, and dazzling with
          scarlet; and to complete the view, she saw herself <pb n="[Vol. II] 220"/>seated beneath a tent, tenderly
          flirting with at least six officers at once.</p>
        <p>Had she known that her sister sought to tear her from such prospects and such realities
          as these, what would have been her sensations? They could have been understood only by her
          mother, who might have felt nearly the same. Lydia's going to Brighton was all that
          consoled her for the melancholy conviction of her husband's never intending to go there
          himself.</p>
        <p>But they were entirely ignorant of what had passed; and their raptures continued with
          little intermission to the very day of Lydia's leaving home.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last time. Having been frequently in company
          with him since her return, agitation was pretty well over; the agitations of former
          partiality entirely so. She had even learnt to detect, in the very gentleness which had
          <pb n="[Vol. II] 221"/>first delighted her, an affectation and a sameness to disgust and weary. In his present
          behaviour to herself, moreover, she had a fresh source of displeasure, for the inclination
          he soon testified of renewing those attentions which had marked the early part of their
          acquaintance, could only serve, after what had since passed, to provoke her. She lost all
          concern for him in finding herself thus selected as the object of such idle and frivolous
          gallantry; and while she steadily repressed it, could not but feel the reproof contained
          in his believing, that however long, and for whatever cause, his attentions had been
          withdrawn, her vanity would be gratified and her preference secured at any time by their
          renewal.</p>
        <p>On the very last day of the regiment's remaining in Meryton, he dined with others of the
          officers at Longbourn; and <pb n="[Vol. II] 222"/>so little was Elizabeth disposed to part from him in good
          humour, that on his making some enquiry as to the manner in which her time had passed at
          Hunsford, she mentioned Colonel Fitzwilliam's and Mr. Darcy's having both spent three
          weeks at Rosings, and asked him if he were acquainted with the former.</p>
        <p>He looked surprised, displeased, alarmed; but with a moment's recollection and a
          returning smile, replied, that he had formerly seen him often; and after observing that he
          was a very gentleman-like man, asked her how she had liked him. Her answer was warmly in
          his favour. With an air of indifference he soon afterwards added, "How long did you say
          that he was at Rosings?"</p>
        <p>"Nearly three weeks."</p>
        <p>"And you saw him frequently?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, almost every day."</p>
        <p>"His manners are very different from his cousin's."</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 223"/>
        <p>"Yes, very different. But I think Mr. Darcy improves on acquaintance."</p>
        <p>"Indeed!" cried Wickham with a look which did not escape her. "And pray may I ask?" but
          checking himself, he added in a gayer tone, "Is it in address that he improves? Has he
          deigned to add ought of civility to his ordinary style? for I dare not hope," he continued
          in a lower and more serious tone, "that he is improved in essentials."</p>
        <p>"Oh, no!" said Elizabeth. "In essentials, I believe, he is very much what he ever
          was."</p>
        <p>While she spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely knowing whether to rejoice over her words,
          or to distrust their meaning. There was a something in her countenance which made him
          listen with an apprehensive and anxious attention, while she added,</p>
        <p>"When I said that he improved on acquaintance, I did not mean that either <pb n="[Vol. II] 224"/>his mind or
          manners were in a state of improvement, but that from knowing him better, his disposition
          was better understood."</p>
        <p>Wickham's alarm now appeared in a heightened complexion and agitated look; for a few
          minutes he was silent; till, shaking off his embarrassment, he turned to her again, and
          said in the gentlest of accents,</p>
        <p>"You, who so well know my feelings towards Mr. Darcy, will readily comprehend how
          sincerely I must rejoice that he is wise enough to assume even the <hi rend="italic">appearance</hi> of what is right. His pride, in that direction, may be of service, if
          not to himself, to many others, for it must deter him from such foul misconduct as I have
          suffered by. I only fear that the sort of cautiousness, to which you, I imagine, have been
          alluding, is merely adopted on his visits to his aunt, of whose good opinion and judgment
          he <pb n="[Vol. II] 225"/>stands much in awe. His fear of her, has always operated, I know, when they were
          together; and a good deal is to be imputed to his wish of forwarding the match with Miss
          De Bourgh, which I am certain he has very much at heart."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could not repress a smile at this, but she answered only by a slight
          inclination of the head. She saw that he wanted to engage her on the old subject of his
          grievances, and she was in no humour to indulge him. The rest of the evening passed with
          the <hi rend="italic">appearance</hi>, on his side, of usual cheerfulness, but with no
          farther attempt to distinguish Elizabeth; and they parted at last with mutual civility,
          and possibly a mutual desire of never meeting again.</p>
        <p>When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs. Forster to Meryton, from whence they
          were to set out early the next morning. The separation between her and her family was
          rather <pb n="[Vol. II] 226"/>noisy than pathetic. Kitty was the only one who shed tears; but she did weep from
          vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was diffuse in her good wishes for the felicity of her
          daughter, and impressive in her injunctions that she would not miss the opportunity of
          enjoying herself as much as possible; advice, which there was every reason to believe
          would be attended to; and in the clamorous happiness of Lydia herself in bidding farewell,
          the more gentle adieus of her sisters were uttered without being heard.</p>
        <p/>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 227"/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIX.</head>
        <p> Had Elizabeth's opinion been all drawn from her own family, she could not have formed a
          very pleasing picture of conjugal felicity or domestic comfort. Her father captivated by
          youth and beauty, and that appearance of good humour, which youth and beauty generally
          give, had married a woman whose weak understanding and illiberal mind, had very early in
          their marriage put an end to all real affection for her. Respect, esteem, and confidence,
          had vanished for ever; and all his views of domestic happiness were overthrown. But Mr.
          Bennet was not of a disposition to seek comfort for the disappointment which his own
          imprudence had brought on, in any of those pleasures which too often console the
          unfortunate <pb n="[Vol. II] 228 [for-]"/>for their folly or their vice. He was fond of the country and of books; and
          from these tastes had arisen his principal enjoyments. To his wife he was very little
          otherwise indebted, than as her ignorance and folly had contributed to his amusement. This
          is not the sort of happiness which a man would in general wish to owe to his wife; but
          where other powers of entertainment are wanting, the true philosopher will derive benefit
          from such as are given.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, however, had never been blind to the impropriety of her father's behaviour as
          a husband. She had always seen it with pain; but respecting his abilities, and grateful
          for his affectionate treatment of herself, she endeavoured to forget what she could not
          overlook, and to banish from her thoughts that continual breach of conjugal obligation and
          decorum which, in exposing <pb n="[Vol. II] 229"/>his wife to the contempt of her own children, was so highly
          reprehensible. But she had never felt so strongly as now, the disadvantages which must
          attend the children of so unsuitable a marriage, nor ever been so fully aware of the evils
          arising from so ill-judged a direction of talents; talents which rightly used, might at
          least have preserved the respectability of his daughters, even if incapable of enlarging
          the mind of his wife.</p>
        <p>When Elizabeth had rejoiced over Wickham's departure, she found little other cause for
          satisfaction in the loss of the regiment. Their parties abroad were less varied than
          before; and at home she had a mother and sister whose constant repinings at the dulness of
          every thing around them, threw a real gloom over their domestic circle; and, though Kitty
          might in time regain her natural degree of sense, since the disturbers <pb n="[Vol. II] 230 [dis-]"/>of her brain were
          removed, her other sister, from whose disposition greater evil might be apprehended, was
          likely to be hardened in all her folly and assurance, by a situation of such double danger
          as a watering place and a camp. Upon the whole, therefore, she found, what has been
          sometimes found before, that an event to which she had looked forward with impatient
          desire, did not in taking place, bring all the satisfaction she had promised herself. It
          was consequently necessary to name some other period for the commencement of actual
          felicity; to have some other point on which her wishes and hopes might be fixed, and by
          again enjoying the pleasure of anticipation, console herself for the present, and prepare
          for another disappointment. Her tour to the Lakes was now the object of her happiest
          thoughts; it was her best consolation for all the uncomfortable hours, <pb n="[Vol. II] 231"/>which the
          discontentedness of her mother and Kitty made inevitable; and could she have included Jane
          in the scheme, every part of it would have been perfect.</p>
        <p>"But it is fortunate," thought she, "that I have something to wish for. Were the whole
          arrangement complete, my disappointment would be certain. But here, by carrying with me
          one ceaseless source of regret in my sister's absence, I may reasonably hope to have all
          my expectations of pleasure realized. A scheme of which every part promises delight, can
          never be successful; and general disappointment is only warded off by the defence of some
          little peculiar vexation."</p>
        <p>When Lydia went away, she promised to write very often and very minutely to her mother
          and Kitty; but her letters were always long expected, and always very short. Those to her
          mother, <pb n="[Vol. II] 232"/>contained little else, than that they were just returned from the library, where
          such and such officers had attended them, and where she had seen such beautiful ornaments
          as made her quite wild; that she had a new gown, or a new parasol, which she would have
          described more fully, but was obliged to leave off in a violent hurry, as Mrs. Forster
          called her, and they were going to the camp;--and from her correspondence with her sister,
          there was still less to be learnt--for her letters to Kitty, though rather longer, were
          much too full of lines under the words to be made public.</p>
        <p>After the first fortnight or three weeks of her absence, health, good humour and
          cheerfulness began to re-appear at Longbourn. Everything wore a happier aspect. The
          families who had been in town for the winter came back again, and summer finery and summer
          engagements arose. Mrs. Bennet was restored to her usual <pb n="[Vol. II] 233"/>querulous serenity, and by the
          middle of June Kitty was so much recovered as to be able to enter Meryton without tears;
          an event of such happy promise as to make Elizabeth hope, that by the following Christmas,
          she might be so tolerably reasonable as not to mention an officer above once a day, unless
          by some cruel and malicious arrangement at the war-office, another regiment should be
          quartered in Meryton.</p>
        <p>The time fixed for the beginning of their Northern tour was now fast approaching; and a
          fortnight only was wanting of it, when a letter arrived from Mrs. Gardiner, which at once
          delayed its commencement and curtailed its extent. Mr. Gardiner would be prevented by
          business from setting out till a fortnight later in July, and must be in London again
          within a month; and as that left too short a period for them to go so far, and see so much
          as they had <pb n="[Vol. II] 234"/>proposed, or at least to see it with the leisure and comfort they had built
          on, they were obliged to give up the Lakes, and substitute a more contracted tour; and,
          according to the present plan, were to go no farther northward than Derbyshire. In that
          county, there was enough to be seen, to occupy the chief of their three weeks; and to Mrs.
          Gardiner it had a peculiarly strong attraction. The town where she had formerly passed
          some years of her life, and where they were now to spend a few days, was probably as great
          an object of her curiosity, as all the celebrated beauties of Matlock, Chatsworth,
          Dovedale, or the Peak.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was excessively disappointed; she had set her heart on seeing the Lakes; and
          still thought there might have been time enough. But it was her business to be
          satisfied--and certainly her temper to be happy; and all was soon right again.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 235"/>
        <p>With the mention of Derbyshire, there were many ideas connected. It was impossible for
          her to see the word without thinking of Pemberley and its owner. "But surely," said she,
          "I may enter his county with impunity, and rob it of a few petrified spars without his
          perceiving me."</p>
        <p>The period of expectation was now doubled. Four weeks were to pass away before her uncle
          and aunt's arrival. But they did pass away, and Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, with their four
          children, did at length appear at Longbourn. The children, two girls of six and eight
          years old, and two younger boys, were to be left under the particular care of their cousin
          Jane, who was the general favourite, and whose steady sense and sweetness of temper
          exactly adapted her for attending to them in every way--teaching them, playing with them,
          and loving them.</p>
                            <pb n="[Vol. II] 236"/>
        <p>The Gardiners staid only one night at Longbourn, and set off the next morning with
          Elizabeth in pursuit of novelty and amusement. One enjoyment was certain--that of
          suitableness as companions; a suitableness which comprehended health and temper to bear
          inconveniences--cheerfulness to enhance every pleasure--and affection and intelligence,
          which might supply it among themselves if there were disappointments abroad.</p>
        <p>It is not the object of this work to give a description of Derbyshire, nor of any of the
          remarkable places through which their route thither lay; Oxford, Blenheim, Warwick,
          Kenelworth, Birmingham, &amp;c. are sufficiently known. A small part of Derbyshire is all
          the present concern. To the little town of Lambton, the scene of Mrs. Gardiner's former
          residence, and where she had lately learned that some acquaintance <pb n="[Vol. II] 237"/>still remained, they
          bent their steps, after having seen all the principal wonders of the country; and within
          five miles of Lambton, Elizabeth found from her aunt, that Pemberley was situated. It was
          not in their direct road, nor more than a mile or two out of it. In talking over their
          route the evening before, Mrs. Gardiner expressed an inclination to see the place again.
          Mr. Gardiner declared his willingness, and Elizabeth was applied to for her
          approbation.</p>
        <p>"My love, should not you like to see a place of which you have heard so much?" said her
          aunt. "A place too, with which so many of your acquaintance are connected. Wickham passed
          all his youth there, you know."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was distressed. She felt that she had no business at Pemberley, and was obliged
          to assume a disinclination for seeing it. She must own that <pb n="[Vol. II] 238"/>she was tired of great houses;
          after going over so many, she really had no pleasure in fine carpets or satin
          curtains.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner abused her stupidity. "If it were merely a fine house richly furnished,"
          said she, "I should not care about it myself; but the grounds are delightful. They have
          some of the finest woods in the country."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth said no more--but her mind could not acquiesce. The possibility of meeting Mr.
          Darcy, while viewing the place, instantly occurred. It would be dreadful! She blushed at
          the very idea; and thought it would be better to speak openly to her aunt, than to run
          such a risk. But against this, there were objections; and she finally resolved that it
          could be the last resource, if her private enquiries as to the absence of the family, were
          unfavourably answered.</p>
        <p>Accordingly, when she retired at night, <pb n="[Vol. II] 239"/>she asked the chambermaid whether Pemberley were
          not a very fine place, what was the name of its proprietor, and with no little alarm,
          whether the family were down for the summer. A most welcome negative followed the last
          question--and her alarms being now removed, she was at leisure to feel a great deal of
          curiosity to see the house herself; and when the subject was revived the next morning, and
          she was again applied to, could readily answer, and with a proper air of indifference,
          that she had not really any dislike to the scheme.</p>
        <p>To Pemberley, therefore, they were to go.</p>
                        </div>
        <trailer>END OF THE SECOND VOLUME.</trailer>
      </div>
    
      <div type="volume" n="3">
        <head type="main"> PRIDE &amp; PREJUDICE.</head>
        <p/>
        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER I.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth, as they drove along, watched for the first appearance of Pemberley Woods with
          some perturbation; and when at length they turned in at the lodge, her spirits were in a
          high flutter.</p>
        <p>The park was very large, and contained great variety of ground. They entered it in one of
          its lowest points, and drove for some time through a beautiful wood, stretching over a
          wide extent.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's mind was too full for conversation, but she saw and admired every remarkable
          spot and point of view. They gradually ascended for half a mile, and then found themselves
          at the top of a considerable eminence, where the wood ceased, and the eye was instantly
          caught by Pemberley House, situated on the opposite side of a valley, into which the road
          with some abruptness wound. It was a large, handsome, stone building, standing well on
          rising ground, and backed by a ridge of high woody hills;--and in front, a stream of some
          natural importance was swelled into greater, but without any artificial appearance. Its
          banks were neither formal, nor falsely adorned. Elizabeth was delighted. She had never
          seen a place for which nature had done more, or where natural beauty had been so little
          counteracted by an awkward taste. They were all of them warm in their admiration; and at
          that moment she felt, that to be mistress of Pemberley might be something!</p>
        <p>They descended the hill, crossed the bridge, and drove to the door; and, while examining
          the nearer aspect of the house, all her apprehensions of meeting its owner returned. She
          dreaded lest the chambermaid had been mistaken. On applying to see the place, they were
          admitted into the hall; and Elizabeth, as they waited for the housekeeper, had leisure to
          wonder at her being where she was.</p>
        <p>The housekeeper came; a respectable-looking, elderly woman, much less fine, and more
          civil, than she had any notion of finding her. They followed her into the dining-parlour.
          It was a large, well-proportioned room, handsomely fitted up. Elizabeth, after slightly
          surveying it, went to a window to enjoy its prospect. The hill, crowned with wood, from
          which they had descended, receiving increased abruptness from the distance, was a
          beautiful object. Every disposition of the ground was good; and she looked on the whole
          scene, the river, the trees scattered on its banks, and the winding of the valley, as far
          as she could trace it, with delight. As they passed into other rooms, these objects were
          taking different positions; but from every window there were beauties to be seen. The
          rooms were lofty and handsome, and their furniture suitable to the fortune of their
          proprietor; but Elizabeth saw, with admiration of his taste, that it was neither gaudy nor
          uselessly fine; with less of splendor, and more real elegance, than the furniture of
          Rosings.</p>
        <p>"And of this place," thought she, "I might have been mistress! With these rooms I might
          now have been familiarly acquainted! Instead of viewing them as a stranger, I might have
          rejoiced in them as my own, and welcomed to them as visitors my uncle and aunt.--But
          no,"--recollecting herself,--"that could never be: my uncle and aunt would have been lost
          to me: I should not have been allowed to invite them."</p>
        <p>This was a lucky recollection--it saved her from something like regret.</p>
        <p>She longed to enquire of the housekeeper, whether her master were really absent, but had
          not courage for it. At length, however, the question was asked by her uncle; and she
          turned away with alarm, while Mrs. Reynolds replied, that he was, adding, "but we expect
          him to-morrow, with a large party of friends." How rejoiced was Elizabeth that their own
          journey had not by any circumstance been delayed a day!</p>
        <p>Her aunt now called her to look at a picture. She approached, and saw the likeness of Mr.
          Wickham suspended, amongst several other miniatures, over the mantle-piece. Her aunt asked
          her, smilingly, how she liked it. The housekeeper came forward, and told them it was the
          picture of a young gentleman, the son of her late master's steward, who had been brought
          up by him at his own expence.--"He is now gone into the army," she added, "but I am afraid
          he has turned out very wild."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece with a smile, but Elizabeth could not return it.</p>
        <p>"And that," said Mrs. Reynolds, pointing to another of the miniatures, "is my master--and
          very like him. It was drawn at the same time as the other--about eight years ago."</p>
        <p>"I have heard much of your master's fine person," said Mrs. Gardiner, looking at the
          picture; "it is a handsome face. But, Lizzy, you can tell us whether it is like or
          not."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Reynolds's respect for Elizabeth seemed to increase on this intimation of her
          knowing her master.</p>
        <p>"Does that young lady know Mr. Darcy?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth coloured, and said--"A little."</p>
        <p>"And do not you think him a very handsome gentleman, Ma'am?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, very handsome."</p>
        <p>"I am sure <hi rend="italic">I</hi> know none so handsome; but in the gallery up stairs
          you will see a finer, larger picture of him than this. This room was my late master's
          favourite room, and these miniatures are just as they used to be then. He was very fond of
          them."</p>
        <p>This accounted to Elizabeth for Mr. Wickham's being among them.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Reynolds then directed their attention to one of Miss Darcy, drawn when she was only
          eight years old.</p>
        <p>"And is Miss Darcy as handsome as her brother?" said Mr. Gardiner.</p>
        <p>"Oh! yes--the handsomest young lady that ever was seen; and so accomplished!--She plays
          and sings all day long. In the next room is a new instrument just come down for her--a
          present from my master; she comes here to-morrow with him."</p>
        <p>Mr. Gardiner, whose manners were easy and pleasant, encouraged her communicativeness by
          his questions and remarks; Mrs. Reynolds, either from pride or attachment, had evidently
          great pleasure in talking of her master and his sister.</p>
        <p>"Is your master much at Pemberley in the course of the year?"</p>
        <p>"Not so much as I could wish, Sir; but I dare say he may spend half his time here; and
          Miss Darcy is always down for the summer months."</p>
        <p>"Except," thought Elizabeth, "when she goes to Ramsgate."</p>
        <p>"If your master would marry, you might see more of him."</p>
        <p>"Yes, Sir; but I do not know when <hi rend="italic">that</hi> will be. I do not know who
          is good enough for him."</p>
        <p>Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner smiled. Elizabeth could not help saying, "It is very much to his
          credit, I am sure, that you should think so."</p>
        <p>"I say no more than the truth, and what every body will say that knows him," replied the
          other. Elizabeth thought this was going pretty far; and she listened with increasing
          astonishment as the housekeeper added, "I have never had a cross word from him in my life,
          and I have known him ever since he was four years old."</p>
        <p>This was praise, of all others most extraordinary, most opposite to her ideas. That he
          was not a good-tempered man, had been her firmest opinion. Her keenest attention was
          awakened; she longed to hear more, and was grateful to her uncle for saying,</p>
        <p>"There are very few people of whom so much can be said. You are lucky in having such a
          master."</p>
        <p>"Yes, Sir, I know I am. If I was to go through the world, I could not meet with a better.
          But I have always observed, that they who are good-natured when children, are good-natured
          when they grow up; and he was always the sweetest-tempered, most generous-hearted, boy in
          the world."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth almost stared at her.--"Can this be Mr. Darcy!" thought she.</p>
        <p>"His father was an excellent man," said Mrs. Gardiner.</p>
        <p>"Yes, Ma'am, that he was indeed; and his son will be just like him--just as affable to
          the poor."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth listened, wondered, doubted, and was impatient for more. Mrs. Reynolds could
          interest her on no other point. She related the subject of the pictures, the dimensions of
          the rooms, and the price of the furniture, in vain. Mr. Gardiner, highly amused by the
          kind of family prejudice, to which he attributed her excessive commendation of her master,
          soon led again to the subject; and she dwelt with energy on his many merits, as they
          proceeded together up the great staircase.</p>
        <p>"He is the best landlord, and the best master," said she, "that ever lived. Not like the
          wild young men now-a-days, who think of nothing but themselves. There is not one of his
          tenants or servants but what will give him a good name. Some people call him proud; but I
          am sure I never saw any thing of it. To my fancy, it is only because he does not rattle
          away like other young men."</p>
        <p>"In what an amiable light does this place him!" thought Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"This fine account of him," whispered her aunt, as they walked, "is not quite consistent
          with his behaviour to our poor friend."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps we might be deceived."</p>
        <p>"That is not very likely; our authority was too good."</p>
        <p>On reaching the spacious lobby above, they were shewn into a very pretty sitting-room,
          lately fitted up with greater elegance and lightness than the apartments below; and were
          informed that it was but just done, to give pleasure to Miss Darcy, who had taken a liking
          to the room, when last at Pemberley.</p>
        <p>"He is certainly a good brother," said Elizabeth, as she walked towards one of the
          windows.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Reynolds anticipated Miss Darcy's delight, when she should enter the room. "And this
          is always the way with him," she added.--"Whatever can give his sister any pleasure, is
          sure to be done in a moment. There is nothing he would not do for her."</p>
        <p>The picture gallery, and two or three of the principal bed-rooms, were all that remained
          to be shewn. In the former were many good paintings; but Elizabeth knew nothing of the
          art; and from such as had been already visible below, she had willingly turned to look at
          some drawings of Miss Darcy's, in crayons, whose subjects were usually more interesting,
          and also more intelligible.</p>
        <p>In the gallery there were many family portraits, but they could have little to fix the
          attention of a stranger. Elizabeth walked on in quest of the only face whose features
          would be known to her. At last it arrested her--and she beheld a striking resemblance of
          Mr. Darcy, with such a smile over the face, as she remembered to have sometimes seen, when
          he looked at her. She stood several minutes before the picture in earnest contemplation,
          and returned to it again before they quitted the gallery. Mrs. Reynolds informed them,
          that it had been taken in his father's life time.</p>
        <p>There was certainly at this moment, in Elizabeth's mind, a more gentle sensation towards
          the original, than she had ever felt in the height of their acquaintance. The commendation
          bestowed on him by Mrs. Reynolds was of no trifling nature. What praise is more valuable
          than the praise of an intelligent servant? As a brother, a landlord, a master, she
          considered how many people's happiness were in his guardianship!--How much of pleasure or
          pain it was in his power to bestow!--How much of good or evil must be done by him! Every
          idea that had been brought forward by the housekeeper was favourable to his character, and
          as she stood before the canvas, on which he was represented, and fixed his eyes upon
          herself, she thought of his regard with a deeper sentiment of gratitude than it had ever
          raised before; she remembered its warmth, and softened its impropriety of expression.</p>
        <p>When all of the house that was open to general inspection had been seen, they returned
          down stairs, and taking leave of the housekeeper, were consigned over to the gardener, who
          met them at the hall door.</p>
        <p>As they walked across the lawn towards the river, Elizabeth turned back to look again;
          her uncle and aunt stopped also, and while the former was conjecturing as to the date of
          the building, the owner of it himself suddenly came forward from the road, which led
          behind it to the stables.</p>
        <p>They were within twenty yards of each other, and so abrupt was his appearance, that it
          was impossible to avoid his sight. Their eyes instantly met, and the cheeks of each were
          overspread with the deepest blush. He absolutely started, and for a moment seemed
          immoveable from surprise; but shortly recovering himself, advanced towards the party, and
          spoke to Elizabeth, if not in terms of perfect composure, at least of perfect
          civility.</p>
        <p>She had instinctively turned away; but, stopping on his approach, received his
          compliments with an embarrassment impossible to be overcome. Had his first appearance, or
          his resemblance to the picture they had just been examining, been insufficient to assure
          the other two that they now saw Mr. Darcy, the gardener's expression of surprise, on
          beholding his master, must immediately have told it. They stood a little aloof while he
          was talking to their niece, who, astonished and confused, scarcely dared lift her eyes to
          his face, and knew not what answer she returned to his civil enquiries after her family.
          Amazed at the alteration in his manner since they last parted, every sentence that he
          uttered was increasing her embarrassment; and every idea of the impropriety of her being
          found there, recurring to her mind, the few minutes in which they continued together, were
          some of the most uncomfortable of her life. Nor did he seem much more at ease; when he
          spoke, his accent had none of its usual sedateness; and he repeated his enquiries as to
          the time of her having left Longbourn, and of her stay in Derbyshire, so often, and in so
          hurried a way, as plainly spoke the distraction of his thoughts.</p>
        <p>At length, every idea seemed to fail him; and, after standing a few moments without
          saying a word, he suddenly recollected himself, and took leave.</p>
        <p>The others then joined her, and expressed their admiration of his figure; but Elizabeth
          heard not a word, and, wholly engrossed by her own feelings, followed them in silence. She
          was overpowered by shame and vexation. Her coming there was the most unfortunate, the most
          ill-judged thing in the world! How strange must it appear to him! In what a disgraceful
          light might it not strike so vain a man! It might seem as if she had purposely thrown
          herself in his way again! Oh! why did she come? or, why did he thus come a day before he
          was expected? Had they been only ten minutes sooner, they should have been beyond the
          reach of his discrimination, for it was plain that he was that moment arrived, that moment
          alighted from his horse or his carriage. She blushed again and again over the perverseness
          of the meeting. And his behaviour, so strikingly altered,--what could it mean? That he
          should even speak to her was amazing!--but to speak with such civility, to enquire after
          her family! Never in her life had she seen his manners so little dignified, never had he
          spoken with such gentleness as on this unexpected meeting. What a contrast did it offer to
          his last address in Rosing's Park, when he put his letter into her hand! She knew not what
          to think, nor how to account for it.</p>
        <p>They had now entered a beautiful walk by the side of the water, and every step was
          bringing forward a nobler fall of ground, or a finer reach of the woods to which they were
          approaching; but it was some time before Elizabeth was sensible of any of it; and, though
          she answered mechanically to the repeated appeals of her uncle and aunt, and seemed to
          direct her eyes to such objects as they pointed out, she distinguished no part of the
          scene. Her thoughts were all fixed on that one spot of Pemberley House, whichever it might
          be, where Mr. Darcy then was. She longed to know what at that moment was passing in his
          mind; in what manner he thought of her, and whether, in defiance of every thing, she was
          still dear to him. Perhaps he had been civil, only because he felt himself at ease; yet
          there had been <hi rend="italic">that</hi> in his voice, which was not like ease. Whether
          he had felt more of pain or of pleasure in seeing her, she could not tell, but he
          certainly had not seen her with composure.</p>
        <p>At length, however, the remarks of her companions on her absence of mind roused her, and
          she felt the necessity of appearing more like herself.</p>
        <p>They entered the woods, and bidding adieu to the river for a while, ascended some of the
          higher grounds; whence, in spots where the opening of the trees gave the eye power to
          wander, were many charming views of the valley, the opposite hills, with the long range of
          woods overspreading many, and occasionally part of the stream. Mr. Gardiner expressed a
          wish of going round the whole Park, but feared it might be beyond a walk. With a
          triumphant smile, they were told, that it was ten miles round. It settled the matter; and
          they pursued the accustomed circuit; which brought them again, after some time, in a
          descent among hanging woods, to the edge of the water, in one of its narrowest parts. They
          crossed it by a simple bridge, in character with the general air of the scene; it was a
          spot less adorned than any they had yet visited; and the valley, here contracted into a
          glen, allowed room only for the stream, and a narrow walk amidst the rough coppice-wood
          which bordered it. Elizabeth longed to explore its windings; but when they had crossed the
          bridge, and perceived their distance from the house, Mrs. Gardiner, who was not a great
          walker, could go no farther, and thought only of returning to the carriage as quickly as
          possible. Her niece was, therefore, obliged to submit, and they took their way towards the
          house on the opposite side of the river, in the nearest direction; but their progress was
          slow, for Mr. Gardiner, though seldom able to indulge the taste, was very fond of fishing,
          and was so much engaged in watching the occasional appearance of some trout in the water,
          and talking to the man about them, that he advanced but little. Whilst wandering on in
          this slow manner, they were again surprised, and Elizabeth's astonishment was quite equal
          to what it had been at first, by the sight of Mr. Darcy approaching them, and at no great
          distance. The walk being here less sheltered than on the other side, allowed them to see
          him before they met. Elizabeth, however astonished, was at least more prepared for an
          interview than before, and resolved to appear and to speak with calmness, if he really
          intended to meet them. For a few moments, indeed, she felt that he would probably strike
          into some other path. This idea lasted while a turning in the walk concealed him from
          their view; the turning past, he was immediately before them. With a glance she saw, that
          he had lost none of his recent civility; and, to imitate his politeness, she began, as
          they met, to admire the beauty of the place; but she had not got beyond the words
          "delightful," and "charming," when some unlucky recollections obtruded, and she fancied
          that praise of Pemberley from her, might be mischievously construed. Her colour changed,
          and she said no more.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner was standing a little behind; and on her pausing, he asked her, if she
          would do him the honour of introducing him to her friends. This was a stroke of civility
          for which she was quite unprepared; and she could hardly suppress a smile, at his being
          now seeking the acquaintance of some of those very people, against whom his pride had
          revolted, in his offer to herself. "What will be his surprise," thought she, "when he
          knows who they are! He takes them now for people of fashion."</p>
        <p>The introduction, however, was immediately made; and as she named their relationship to
          herself, she stole a sly look at him, to see how he bore it; and was not without the
          expectation of his decamping as fast as he could from such disgraceful companions. That he
          was <hi rend="italic">surprised</hi> by the connexion was evident; he sustained it however
          with fortitude, and so far from going away, turned back with them, and entered into
          conversation with Mr. Gardiner. Elizabeth could not but be pleased, could not but triumph.
          It was consoling, that he should know she had some relations for whom there was no need to
          blush. She listened most attentively to all that passed between them, and gloried in every
          expression, every sentence of her uncle, which marked his intelligence, his taste, or his
          good manners.</p>
        <p>The conversation soon turned upon fishing, and she heard Mr. Darcy invite him, with the
          greatest civility, to fish there as often as he chose, while he continued in the
          neighbourhood, offering at the same time to supply him with fishing tackle, and pointing
          out those parts of the stream where there was usually most sport. Mrs. Gardiner, who was
          walking arm in arm with Elizabeth, gave her a look expressive of her wonder. Elizabeth
          said nothing, but it gratified her exceedingly; the compliment must be all for herself.
          Her astonishment, however, was extreme; and continually was she repeating, "Why is he so
          altered? From what can it proceed? It cannot be for <hi rend="italic">me</hi>, it cannot
          be for <hi rend="italic">my</hi> sake that his manners are thus softened. My reproofs at
          Hunsford could not work such a change as this. It is impossible that he should still love
          me."</p>
        <p>After walking some time in this way, the two ladies in front, the two gentlemen behind,
          on resuming their places, after descending to the brink of the river for the better
          inspection of some curious water-plant, there chanced to be a little alteration. It
          originated in Mrs. Gardiner, who, fatigued by the exercise of the morning, found
          Elizabeth's arm inadequate to her support, and consequently preferred her husband's. Mr.
          Darcy took her place by her niece, and they walked on together. After a short silence, the
          lady first spoke. She wished him to know that she had been assured of his absence before
          she came to the place, and accordingly began by observing, that his arrival had been very
          unexpected--"for your housekeeper," she added, "informed us that you would certainly not
          be here till to-morrow; and indeed, before we left Bakewell, we understood that you were
          not immediately expected in the country." He acknowledged the truth of it all; and said
          that business with his steward had occasioned his coming forward a few hours before the
          rest of the party with whom he had been travelling. "They will join me early to-morrow,"
          he continued, "and among them are some who will claim an acquaintance with you,--Mr.
          Bingley and his sisters."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth answered only by a slight bow. Her thoughts were instantly driven back to the
          time when Mr. Bingley's name had been last mentioned between them; and if she might judge
          from his complexion, <hi rend="italic">his</hi> mind was not very differently engaged.</p>
        <p>"There is also one other person in the party," he continued after a pause, "who more
          particularly wishes to be known to you,--Will you allow me, or do I ask too much, to
          introduce my sister to your acquaintance during your stay at Lambton?"</p>
        <p>The surprise of such an application was great indeed; it was too great for her to know in
          what manner she acceded to it. She immediately felt that whatever desire Miss Darcy might
          have of being acquainted with her, must be the work of her brother, and without looking
          farther, it was satisfactory; it was gratifying to know that his resentment had not made
          him think really ill of her.</p>
        <p>They now walked on in silence; each of them deep in thought. Elizabeth was not
          comfortable; that was impossible; but she was flattered and pleased. His wish of
          introducing his sister to her, was a compliment of the highest kind. They soon outstripped
          the others, and when they had reached the carriage, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner were half a
          quarter of a mile behind.</p>
        <p>He then asked her to walk into the house--but she declared herself not tired, and they
          stood together on the lawn. At such a time, much might have been said, and silence was
          very awkward. She wanted to talk, but there seemed an embargo on every subject. At last
          she recollected that she had been travelling, and they talked of Matlock and Dove Dale
          with great perseverance. Yet time and her aunt moved slowly--and her patience and her
          ideas were nearly worn out before the tête-à-tête was over. On Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner's
          coming up, they were all pressed to go into the house and take some refreshment; but this
          was declined, and they parted on each side with the utmost politeness. Mr. Darcy handed
          the ladies into the carriage, and when it drove off, Elizabeth saw him walking slowly
          towards the house.</p>
        <p>The observations of her uncle and aunt now began; and each of them pronounced him to be
          infinitely superior to any thing they had expected. "He is perfectly well behaved, polite,
          and unassuming," said her uncle.</p>
        <p>"There <hi rend="italic">is</hi> something a little stately in him to be sure," replied
          her aunt, "but it is confined to his air, and is not unbecoming. I can now say with the
          housekeeper, that though some people may call him proud, <hi rend="italic">I</hi> have
          seen nothing of it."</p>
        <p>"I was never more surprised than by his behaviour to us. It was more than civil; it was
          really attentive; and there was no necessity for such attention. His acquaintance with
          Elizabeth was very trifling."</p>
        <p>"To be sure, Lizzy," said her aunt, "he is not so handsome as Wickham; or rather he has
          not Wickham's countenance, for his features are perfectly good. But how came you to tell
          us that he was so disagreeable?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth excused herself as well as she could; said that she had liked him better when
          they met in Kent than before, and that she had never seen him so pleasant as this
          morning.</p>
        <p>"But perhaps he may be a little whimsical in his civilities," replied her uncle. "Your
          great men often are; and therefore I shall not take him at his word about fishing, as he
          might change his mind another day, and warn me off his grounds."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth felt that they had entirely mistaken his character, but said nothing.</p>
        <p>"From what we have seen of him," continued Mrs. Gardiner, "I really should not have
          thought that he could have behaved in so cruel a way by any body, as he has done by poor
          Wickham. He has not an ill-natured look. On the contrary, there is something pleasing
          about his mouth when he speaks. And there is something of dignity in his countenance, that
          would not give one an unfavourable idea of his heart. But to be sure, the good lady who
          shewed us the house, did give him a most flaming character! I could hardly help laughing
          aloud sometimes. But he is a liberal master, I suppose, and <hi rend="italic">that</hi> in
          the eye of a servant comprehends every virtue."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth here felt herself called on to say something in vindication of his behaviour to
          Wickham; and therefore gave them to understand, in as guarded a manner as she could, that
          by what she had heard from his relations in Kent, his actions were capable of a very
          different construction; and that his character was by no means so faulty, nor Wickham's so
          amiable, as they had been considered in Hertfordshire. In confirmation of this, she
          related the particulars of all the pecuniary transactions in which they had been
          connected, without actually naming her authority, but stating it to be such as might be
          relied on.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner was surprised and concerned; but as they were now approaching the scene of
          her former pleasures, every idea gave way to the charm of recollection; and she was too
          much engaged in pointing out to her husband all the interesting spots in its environs, to
          think of any thing else. Fatigued as she had been by the morning's walk, they had no
          sooner dined than she set off again in quest of her former acquaintance, and the evening
          was spent in the satisfactions of an intercourse renewed after many years
          discontinuance.</p>
        <p>The occurrences of the day were too full of interest to leave Elizabeth much attention
          for any of these new friends; and she could do nothing but think, and think with wonder,
          of Mr. Darcy's civility, and above all, of his wishing her to be acquainted with his
          sister.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER II.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth had settled it that Mr. Darcy would bring his sister to visit her, the very
          day after her reaching Pemberley; and was consequently resolved not to be out of sight of
          the inn the whole of that morning. But her conclusion was false; for on the very morning
          after their own arrival at Lambton, these visitors came. They had been walking about the
          place with some of their new friends, and were just returned to the inn to dress
          themselves for dining with the same family, when the sound of a carriage drew them to a
          window, and they saw a gentleman and lady in a curricle, driving up the street. Elizabeth
          immediately recognising the livery, guessed what it meant, and imparted no small degree of
          surprise to her relations, by acquainting them with the honour which she expected. Her
          uncle and aunt were all amazement; and the embarrassment of her manner as she spoke,
          joined to the circumstance itself, and many of the circumstances of the preceding day,
          opened to them a new idea on the business. Nothing had ever suggested it before, but they
          now felt that there was no other way of accounting for such attentions from such a
          quarter, than by supposing a partiality for their niece. While these newly-born notions
          were passing in their heads, the perturbation of Elizabeth's feelings was every moment
          increasing. She was quite amazed at her own discomposure; but amongst other causes of
          disquiet, she dreaded lest the partiality of the brother should have said too much in her
          favour; and more than commonly anxious to please, she naturally suspected that every power
          of pleasing would fail her.</p>
        <p>She retreated from the window, fearful of being seen; and as she walked up and down the
          room, endeavouring to compose herself, saw such looks of enquiring surprise in her uncle
          and aunt, as made every thing worse.</p>
        <p>Miss Darcy and her brother appeared, and this formidable introduction took place. With
          astonishment did Elizabeth see, that her new acquaintance was at least as much embarrassed
          as herself. Since her being at Lambton, she had heard that Miss Darcy was exceedingly
          proud; but the observation of a very few minutes convinced her, that she was only
          exceedingly shy. She found it difficult to obtain even a word from her beyond a
          monosyllable.</p>
        <p>Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger scale than Elizabeth; and, though little more than
          sixteen, her figure was formed, and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was less
          handsome than her brother, but there was sense and good humour in her face, and her
          manners were perfectly unassuming and gentle. Elizabeth, who had expected to find in her
          as acute and unembarrassed an observer as ever Mr. Darcy had been, was much relieved by
          discerning such different feelings.</p>
        <p>They had not been long together, before Darcy told her that Bingley was also coming to
          wait on her; and she had barely time to express her satisfaction, and prepare for such a
          visitor, when Bingley's quick step was heard on the stairs, and in a moment he entered the
          room. All Elizabeth's anger against him had been long done away; but, had she still felt
          any, it could hardly have stood its ground against the unaffected cordiality with which he
          expressed himself, on seeing her again. He enquired in a friendly, though general way,
          after her family, and looked and spoke with the same good-humoured ease that he had ever
          done.</p>
        <p>To Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner he was scarcely a less interesting personage than to herself.
          They had long wished to see him. The whole party before them, indeed, excited a lively
          attention. The suspicions which had just arisen of Mr. Darcy and their niece, directed
          their observation towards each with an earnest, though guarded, enquiry; and they soon
          drew from those enquiries the full conviction that one of them at least knew what it was
          to love. Of the lady's sensations they remained a little in doubt; but that the gentleman
          was overflowing with admiration was evident enough.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, on her side, had much to do. She wanted to ascertain the feelings of each of
          her visitors, she wanted to compose her own, and to make herself agreeable to all; and in
          the latter object, where she feared most to fail, she was most sure of success, for those
          to whom she endeavoured to give pleasure were prepossessed in her favour. Bingley was
          ready, Georgiana was eager, and Darcy determined, to be pleased.</p>
        <p>In seeing Bingley, her thoughts naturally flew to her sister; and oh! how ardently did
          she long to know, whether any of his were directed in a like manner. Sometimes she could
          fancy, that he talked less than on former occasions, and once or twice pleased herself
          with the notion that as he looked at her, he was trying to trace a resemblance. But,
          though this might be imaginary, she could not be deceived as to his behaviour to Miss
          Darcy, who had been set up as a rival of Jane. No look appeared on either side that spoke
          particular regard. Nothing occurred between them that could justify the hopes of his
          sister. On this point she was soon satisfied; and two or three little circumstances
          occurred ere they parted, which, in her anxious interpretation, denoted a recollection of
          Jane, not untinctured by tenderness, and a wish of saying more that might lead to the
          mention of her, had he dared. He observed to her, at a moment when the others were talking
          together, and in a tone which had something of real regret, that it "was a very long time
          since he had had the pleasure of seeing her;" and, before she could reply, he added, "It
          is above eight months. We have not met since the 26th of November, when we were all
          dancing together at Netherfield."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was pleased to find his memory so exact; and he afterwards took occasion to ask
          her, when unattended to by any of the rest, whether <hi rend="italic">all</hi> her sisters
          were at Longbourn. There was not much in the question, nor in the preceding remark, but
          there was a look and a manner which gave them meaning.</p>
        <p>It was not often that she could turn her eyes on Mr. Darcy himself; but, whenever she did
          catch a glimpse, she saw an expression of general complaisance, and in all that he said,
          she heard an accent so far removed from hauteur or disdain of his companions, as convinced
          her that the improvement of manners which she had yesterday witnessed, however temporary
          its existence might prove, had at least outlived one day. When she saw him thus seeking
          the acquaintance, and courting the good opinion of people, with whom any intercourse a few
          months ago would have been a disgrace; when she saw him thus civil, not only to herself,
          but to the very relations whom he had openly disdained, and recollected their last lively
          scene in Hunsford Parsonage, the difference, the change was so great, and struck so
          forcibly on her mind, that she could hardly restrain her astonishment from being visible.
          Never, even in the company of his dear friends at Netherfield, or his dignified relations
          at Rosings, had she seen him so desirous to please, so free from self-consequence, or
          unbending reserve as now, when no importance could result from the success of his
          endeavours, and when even the acquaintance of those to whom his attentions were addressed,
          would draw down the ridicule and censure of the ladies both of Netherfield and
          Rosings.</p>
        <p>Their visitors staid with them above half an hour, and when they arose to depart, Mr.
          Darcy called on his sister to join him in expressing their wish of seeing Mr. and Mrs.
          Gardiner, and Miss Bennet, to dinner at Pemberley, before they left the country. Miss
          Darcy, though with a diffidence which marked her little in the habit of giving
          invitations, readily obeyed. Mrs. Gardiner looked at her niece, desirous of knowing how
            <hi rend="italic">she</hi>, whom the invitation most concerned, felt disposed as to its
          acceptance, but Elizabeth had turned away her head. Presuming, however, that this studied
          avoidance spoke rather a momentary embarrassment, than any dislike of the proposal, and
          seeing in her husband, who was fond of society, a perfect willingness to accept it, she
          ventured to engage for her attendance, and the day after the next was fixed on.</p>
        <p>Bingley expressed great pleasure in the certainty of seeing Elizabeth again, having still
          a great deal to say to her, and many enquiries to make after all their Hertfordshire
          friends. Elizabeth, construing all this into a wish of hearing her speak of her sister,
          was pleased; and on this account, as well as some others, found herself, when their
          visitors left them, capable of considering the last half hour with some satisfaction,
          though while it was passing, the enjoyment of it had been little. Eager to be alone, and
          fearful of enquiries or hints from her uncle and aunt, she staid with them only long
          enough to hear their favourable opinion of Bingley, and then hurried away to dress.</p>
        <p>But she had no reason to fear Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner's curiosity; it was not their wish to
          force her communication. It was evident that she was much better acquainted with Mr. Darcy
          than they had before any idea of; it was evident that he was very much in love with her.
          They saw much to interest, but nothing to justify enquiry.</p>
        <p>Of Mr. Darcy it was now a matter of anxiety to think well; and, as far as their
          acquaintance reached, there was no fault to find. They could not be untouched by his
          politeness, and had they drawn his character from their own feelings, and his servant's
          report, without any reference to any other account, the circle in Hertfordshire to which
          he was known, would not have recognised it for Mr. Darcy. There was now an interest,
          however, in believing the housekeeper; and they soon became sensible, that the authority
          of a servant who had known him since he was four years old, and whose own manners
          indicated respectability, was not to be hastily rejected. Neither had any thing occurred
          in the intelligence of their Lambton friends, that could materially lessen its weight.
          They had nothing to accuse him of but pride; pride he probably had, and if not, it would
          certainly be imputed by the inhabitants of a small market-town, where the family did not
          visit. It was acknowledged, however, that he was a liberal man, and did much good among
          the poor.</p>
        <p>With respect to Wickham, the travellers soon found that he was not held there in much
          estimation; for though the chief of his concerns, with the son of his patron, were
          imperfectly understood, it was yet a well known fact that, on his quitting Derbyshire, he
          had left many debts behind him, which Mr. Darcy afterwards discharged.</p>
        <p>As for Elizabeth, her thoughts were at Pemberley this evening more than the last; and the
          evening, though as it passed it seemed long, was not long enough to determine her feelings
          towards <hi rend="italic">one</hi> in that mansion; and she lay awake two whole hours,
          endeavouring to make them out. She certainly did not hate him. No; hatred had vanished
          long ago, and she had almost as long been ashamed of ever feeling a dislike against him,
          that could be so called. The respect created by the conviction of his valuable qualities,
          though at first unwillingly admitted, had for some time ceased to be repugnant to her
          feelings; and it was now heightened into somewhat of a friendlier nature, by the testimony
          so highly in his favour, and bringing forward his disposition in so amiable a light, which
          yesterday had produced. But above all, above respect and esteem, there was a motive within
          her of good will which could not be overlooked. It was gratitude.--Gratitude, not merely
          for having once loved her, but for loving her still well enough, to forgive all the
          petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him, and all the unjust accusations
          accompanying her rejection. He who, she had been persuaded, would avoid her as his
          greatest enemy, seemed, on this accidental meeting, most eager to preserve the
          acquaintance, and without any indelicate display of regard, or any peculiarity of manner,
          where their two selves only were concerned, was soliciting the good opinion of her
          friends, and bent on making her known to his sister. Such a change in a man of so much
          pride, excited not only astonishment but gratitude--for to love, ardent love, it must be
          attributed; and as such its impression on her was of a sort to be encouraged, as by no
          means unpleasing, though it could not be exactly defined. She respected, she esteemed, she
          was grateful to him, she felt a real interest in his welfare; and she only wanted to know
          how far she wished that welfare to depend upon herself, and how far it would be for the
          happiness of both that she should employ the power, which her fancy told her she still
          possessed, of bringing on the renewal of his addresses.</p>
        <p>It had been settled in the evening, between the aunt and niece, that such a striking
          civility as Miss Darcy's, in coming to them on the very day of her arrival at Pemberley,
          for she had reached it only to a late breakfast, ought to be imitated, though it could not
          be equalled, by some exertion of politeness on their side; and, consequently, that it
          would be highly expedient to wait on her at Pemberley the following morning. They were,
          therefore, to go.--Elizabeth was pleased, though, when she asked herself the reason, she
          had very little to say in reply.</p>
        <p>Mr. Gardiner left them soon after breakfast. The fishing scheme had been renewed the day
          before, and a positive engagement made of his meeting some of the gentlemen at Pemberley
          by noon.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER III.</head>
        <p> Convinced as Elizabeth now was that Miss Bingley's dislike of her had originated in
          jealousy, she could not help feeling how very unwelcome her appearance at Pemberley must
          be to her, and was curious to know with how much civility on that lady's side, the
          acquaintance would now be renewed.</p>
        <p>On reaching the house, they were shewn through the hall into the saloon, whose northern
          aspect rendered it delightful for summer. Its windows opening to the ground, admitted a
          most refreshing view of the high woody hills behind the house, and of the beautiful oaks
          and Spanish chesnuts which were scattered over the intermediate lawn.</p>
        <p>In this room they were received by Miss Darcy, who was sitting there with Mrs. Hurst and
          Miss Bingley, and the lady with whom she lived in London. Georgiana's reception of them
          was very civil; but attended with all that embarrassment which, though proceeding from
          shyness and the fear of doing wrong, would easily give to those who felt themselves
          inferior, the belief of her being proud and reserved. Mrs. Gardiner and her niece,
          however, did her justice, and pitied her.</p>
        <p>By Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley, they were noticed only by a curtsey; and on their being
          seated, a pause, awkward as such pauses must always be, succeeded for a few moments. It
          was first broken by Mrs. Annesley, a genteel, agreeable-looking woman, whose endeavour to
          introduce some kind of discourse, proved her to be more truly well bred than either of the
          others; and between her and Mrs. Gardiner, with occasional help from Elizabeth, the
          conversation was carried on. Miss Darcy looked as if she wished for courage enough to join
          in it; and sometimes did venture a short sentence, when there was least danger of its
          being heard.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth soon saw that she was herself closely watched by Miss Bingley, and that she
          could not speak a word, especially to Miss Darcy, without calling her attention. This
          observation would not have prevented her from trying to talk to the latter, had they not
          been seated at an inconvenient distance; but she was not sorry to be spared the necessity
          of saying much. Her own thoughts were employing her. She expected every moment that some
          of the gentlemen would enter the room. She wished, she feared that the master of the house
          might be amongst them; and whether she wished or feared it most, she could scarcely
          determine. After sitting in this manner a quarter of an hour, without hearing Miss
          Bingley's voice, Elizabeth was roused by receiving from her a cold enquiry after the
          health of her family. She answered with equal indifference and brevity, and the other said
          no more.</p>
        <p>The next variation which their visit afforded was produced by the entrance of servants
          with cold meat, cake, and a variety of all the finest fruits in season; but this did not
          take place till after many a significant look and smile from Mrs. Annesley to Miss Darcy
          had been given, to remind her of her post. There was now employment for the whole party;
          for though they could not all talk, they could all eat; and the beautiful pyramids of
          grapes, nectarines, and peaches, soon collected them round the table.</p>
        <p>While thus engaged, Elizabeth had a fair opportunity of deciding whether she most feared
          or wished for the appearance of Mr. Darcy, by the feelings which prevailed on his entering
          the room; and then, though but a moment before she had believed her wishes to predominate,
          she began to regret that he came.</p>
        <p>He had been some time with Mr. Gardiner, who, with two or three other gentlemen from the
          house, was engaged by the river, and had left him only on learning that the ladies of the
          family intended a visit to Georgiana that morning. No sooner did he appear, than Elizabeth
          wisely resolved to be perfectly easy and unembarrassed;--a resolution the more necessary
          to be made, but perhaps not the more easily kept, because she saw that the suspicions of
          the whole party were awakened against them, and that there was scarcely an eye which did
          not watch his behaviour when he first came into the room. In no countenance was attentive
          curiosity so strongly marked as in Miss Bingley's, in spite of the smiles which overspread
          her face whenever she spoke to one of its objects; for jealousy had not yet made her
          desperate, and her attentions to Mr. Darcy were by no means over. Miss Darcy, on her
          brother's entrance, exerted herself much more to talk; and Elizabeth saw that he was
          anxious for his sister and herself to get acquainted, and forwarded, as much as possible,
          every attempt at conversation on either side. Miss Bingley saw all this likewise; and, in
          the imprudence of anger, took the first opportunity of saying, with sneering civility,</p>
        <p>"Pray, Miss Eliza, are not the ----shire militia removed from Meryton? They must be a
          great loss to <hi rend="italic">your</hi> family."</p>
        <p>In Darcy's presence she dared not mention Wickham's name; but Elizabeth instantly
          comprehended that he was uppermost in her thoughts; and the various recollections
          connected with him gave her a moment's distress; but, exerting herself vigorously to repel
          the ill-natured attack, she presently answered the question in a tolerably disengaged
          tone. While she spoke, an involuntary glance shewed her Darcy with an heightened
          complexion, earnestly looking at her, and his sister overcome with confusion, and unable
          to lift up her eyes. Had Miss Bingley known what pain she was then giving her beloved
          friend, she undoubtedly would have refrained from the hint; but she had merely intended to
          discompose Elizabeth, by bringing forward the idea of a man to whom she believed her
          partial, to make her betray a sensibility which might injure her in Darcy's opinion, and
          perhaps to remind the latter of all the follies and absurdities, by which some part of her
          family were connected with that corps. Not a syllable had ever reached her of Miss Darcy's
          meditated elopement. To no creature had it been revealed, where secresy was possible,
          except to Elizabeth; and from all Bingley's connections her brother was particularly
          anxious to conceal it, from that very wish which Elizabeth had long ago attributed to him,
          of their becoming hereafter her own. He had certainly formed such a plan, and without
          meaning that it should affect his endeavour to separate him from Miss Bennet, it is
          probable that it might add something to his lively concern for the welfare of his
          friend.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's collected behaviour, however, soon quieted his emotion; and as Miss Bingley,
          vexed and disappointed, dared not approach nearer to Wickham, Georgiana also recovered in
          time, though not enough to be able to speak any more. Her brother, whose eye she feared to
          meet, scarcely recollected her interest in the affair, and the very circumstance which had
          been designed to turn his thoughts from Elizabeth, seemed to have fixed them on her more,
          and more cheerfully.</p>
        <p>Their visit did not continue long after the question and answer above-mentioned; and
          while Mr. Darcy was attending them to their carriage, Miss Bingley was venting her
          feelings in criticisms on Elizabeth's person, behaviour, and dress. But Georgiana would
          not join her. Her brother's recommendation was enough to ensure her favour: his judgment
          could not err, and he had spoken in such terms of Elizabeth, as to leave Georgiana without
          the power of finding her otherwise than lovely and amiable. When Darcy returned to the
          saloon, Miss Bingley could not help repeating to him some part of what she had been saying
          to his sister.</p>
        <p>"How very ill Eliza Bennet looks this morning, Mr. Darcy," she cried; "I never in my life
          saw any one so much altered as she is since the winter. She is grown so brown and coarse!
          Louisa and I were agreeing that we should not have known her again."</p>
        <p>However little Mr. Darcy might have liked such an address, he contented himself with
          coolly replying, that he perceived no other alteration than her being rather tanned,--no
          miraculous consequence of travelling in the summer.</p>
        <p>"For my own part," she rejoined, "I must confess that I never could see any beauty in
          her. Her face is too thin; her complexion has no brilliancy; and her features are not at
          all handsome. Her nose wants character; there is nothing marked in its lines. Her teeth
          are tolerable, but not out of the common way; and as for her eyes, which have sometimes
          been called so fine, I never could perceive any thing extraordinary in them. They have a
          sharp, shrewish look, which I do not like at all; and in her air altogether, there is a
          self-sufficiency without fashion, which is intolerable."</p>
        <p>Persuaded as Miss Bingley was that Darcy admired Elizabeth, this was not the best method
          of recommending herself; but angry people are not always wise; and in seeing him at last
          look somewhat nettled, she had all the success she expected. He was resolutely silent
          however; and, from a determination of making him speak, she continued,</p>
        <p>"I remember, when we first knew her in Hertfordshire, how amazed we all were to find that
          she was a reputed beauty; and I particularly recollect your saying one night, after they
          had been dining at Netherfield, '<hi rend="italic">She</hi> a beauty!--I should as soon
          call her mother a wit.' But afterwards she seemed to improve on you, and I believe you
          thought her rather pretty at one time."</p>
        <p>"Yes," replied Darcy, who could contain himself no longer, "but <hi rend="italic">that</hi> was only when I first knew her, for it is many months since I have considered
          her as one of the handsomest women of my acquaintance."</p>
        <p>He then went away, and Miss Bingley was left to all the satisfaction of having forced him
          to say what gave no one any pain but herself.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner and Elizabeth talked of all that had occurred, during their visit, as they
          returned, except what had particularly interested them both. The looks and behaviour of
          every body they had seen were discussed, except of the person who had mostly engaged their
          attention. They talked of his sister, his friends, his house, his fruit, of every thing
          but himself; yet Elizabeth was longing to know what Mrs. Gardiner thought of him, and Mrs.
          Gardiner would have been highly gratified by her niece's beginning the subject.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER IV.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth had been a good deal disappointed in not finding a letter from Jane, on their
          first arrival at Lambton; and this disappointment had been renewed on each of the mornings
          that had now been spent there; but on the third, her repining was over, and her sister
          justified by the receipt of two letters from her at once, on one of which was marked that
          it had been missent elsewhere. Elizabeth was not surprised at it, as Jane had written the
          direction remarkably ill.</p>
        <p>They had just been preparing to walk as the letters came in; and her uncle and aunt,
          leaving her to enjoy them in quiet, set off by themselves. The one missent must be first
          attended to; it had been written five days ago. The beginning contained an account of all
          their little parties and engagements, with such news as the country afforded; but the
          latter half, which was dated a day later, and written in evident agitation, gave more
          important intelligence. It was to this effect:</p>
        <p> "Since writing the above, dearest Lizzy, something has occurred of a most unexpected and
          serious nature; but I am afraid of alarming you--be assured that we are all well. What I
          have to say relates to poor Lydia. An express came at twelve last night, just as we were
          all gone to bed, from Colonel Forster, to inform us that she was gone off to Scotland with
          one of his officers; to own the truth, with Wickham!--Imagine our surprise. To Kitty,
          however, it does not seem so wholly unexpected. I am very, very sorry. So imprudent a
          match on both sides!--But I am willing to hope the best, and that his character has been
          misunderstood. Thoughtless and indiscreet I can easily believe him, but this step (and let
          us rejoice over it) marks nothing bad at heart. His choice is disinterested at least, for
          he must know my father can give her nothing. Our poor mother is sadly grieved. My father
          bears it better. How thankful am I, that we never let them know what has been said against
          him; we must forget it ourselves. They were off Saturday night about twelve, as is
          conjectured, but were not missed till yesterday morning at eight. The express was sent off
          directly. My dear Lizzy, they must have passed within ten miles of us. Colonel Forster
          gives us reason to expect him here soon. Lydia left a few lines for his wife, informing
          her of their intention. I must conclude, for I cannot be long from my poor mother. I am
          afraid you will not be able to make it out, but I hardly know what I have written."</p>
        <p>Without allowing herself time for consideration, and scarcely knowing what she felt,
          Elizabeth on finishing this letter, instantly seized the other, and opening it with the
          utmost impatience, read as follows: it had been written a day later than the conclusion of
          the first.</p>
        <p> "By this time, my dearest sister, you have received my hurried letter; I wish this may
          be more intelligible, but though not confined for time, my head is so bewildered that I
          cannot answer for being coherent. Dearest Lizzy, I hardly know what I would write, but I
          have bad news for you, and it cannot be delayed. Imprudent as a marriage between Mr.
          Wickham and our poor Lydia would be, we are now anxious to be assured it has taken place,
          for there is but too much reason to fear they are not gone to Scotland. Colonel Forster
          came yesterday, having left Brighton the day before, not many hours after the express.
          Though Lydia's short letter to Mrs. F. gave them to understand that they were going to
          Gretna Green, something was dropped by Denny expressing his belief that W. never intended
          to go there, or to marry Lydia at all, which was repeated to Colonel F. who instantly
          taking the alarm, set off from B. intending to trace their route. He did trace them easily
          to Clapham, but no farther; for on entering that place they removed into a hackney-coach
          and dismissed the chaise that brought them from Epsom. All that is known after this is,
          that they were seen to continue the London road. I know not what to think. After making
          every possible enquiry on that side London, Colonel F. came on into Hertfordshire,
          anxiously renewing them at all the turnpikes, and at the inns in Barnet and Hatfield, but
          without any success, no such people had been seen to pass through. With the kindest
          concern he came on to Longbourn, and broke his apprehensions to us in a manner most
          creditable to his heart. I am sincerely grieved for him and Mrs. F. but no one can throw
          any blame on them. Our distress, my dear Lizzy, is very great. My father and mother
          believe the worst, but I cannot think so ill of him. Many circumstances might make it more
          eligible for them to be married privately in town than to pursue their first plan; and
          even if <hi rend="italic">he</hi> could form such a design against a young woman of
          Lydia's connections, which is not likely, can I suppose her so lost to every
          thing?--Impossible. I grieve to find, however, that Colonel F. is not disposed to depend
          upon their marriage; he shook his head when I expressed my hopes, and said he feared W.
          was not a man to be trusted. My poor mother is really ill and keeps her room. Could she
          exert herself it would be better, but this is not to be expected; and as to my father, I
          never in my life saw him so affected. Poor Kitty has anger for having concealed their
          attachment; but as it was a matter of confidence one cannot wonder. I am truly glad,
          dearest Lizzy, that you have been spared something of these distressing scenes; but now as
          the first shock is over, shall I own that I long for your return? I am not so selfish,
          however, as to press for it, if inconvenient. Adieu. I take up my pen again to do, what I
          have just told you I would not, but circumstances are such, that I cannot help earnestly
          begging you all to come here, as soon as possible. I know my dear uncle and aunt so well,
          that I am not afraid of requesting it, though I have still something more to ask of the
          former. My father is going to London with Colonel Forster instantly, to try to discover
          her. What he means to do, I am sure I know not; but his excessive distress will not allow
          him to pursue any measure in the best and safest way, and Colonel Forster is obliged to be
          at Brighton again to-morrow evening. In such an exigence my uncle's advice and assistance
          would be every thing in the world; he will immediately comprehend what I must feel, and I
          rely upon his goodness."</p>
        <p>"Oh! where, where is my uncle?" cried Elizabeth, darting from her seat as she finished
          the letter, in eagerness to follow him, without losing a moment of the time so precious;
          but as she reached the door, it was opened by a servant, and Mr. Darcy appeared. Her pale
          face and impetuous manner made him start, and before he could recover himself enough to
          speak, she, in whose mind every idea was superseded by Lydia's situation, hastily
          exclaimed, "I beg your pardon, but I must leave you. I must find Mr. Gardiner this moment,
          on business that cannot be delayed; I have not an instant to lose."</p>
        <p>"Good God! what is the matter?" cried he, with more feeling than politeness; then
          recollecting himself, "I will not detain you a minute, but let me, or let the servant, go
          after Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner. You are not well enough;--you cannot go yourself."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth hesitated, but her knees trembled under her, and she felt how little would be
          gained by her attempting to pursue them. Calling back the servant, therefore, she
          commissioned him, though in so breathless an accent as made her almost unintelligible, to
          fetch his master and mistress home, instantly.</p>
        <p>On his quitting the room, she sat down, unable to support herself, and looking so
          miserably ill, that it was impossible for Darcy to leave her, or to refrain from saying,
          in a tone of gentleness and commiseration, "Let me call your maid. Is there nothing you
          could take, to give you present relief?--A glass of wine;--shall I get you one?--You are
          very ill."</p>
        <p>"No, I thank you;" she replied, endeavouring to recover herself. "There is nothing the
          matter with me. I am quite well. I am only distressed by some dreadful news which I have
          just received from Longbourn."</p>
        <p>She burst into tears as she alluded to it, and for a few minutes could not speak another
          word. Darcy, in wretched suspense, could only say something indistinctly of his concern,
          and observe her in compassionate silence. At length, she spoke again. "I have just had a
          letter from Jane, with such dreadful news. It cannot be concealed from any one. My
          youngest sister has left all her friends--has eloped;--has thrown herself into the power
          of--of Mr. Wickham. They are gone off together from Brighton. <hi rend="italic">You</hi>
          know him too well to doubt the rest. She has no money, no connections, nothing that can
          tempt him to--she is lost for ever."</p>
        <p>Darcy was fixed in astonishment. "When I consider," she added, in a yet more agitated
          voice, "that <hi rend="italic">I</hi> might have prevented it!--<hi rend="italic">I</hi>
          who knew what he was. Had I but explained some part of it only--some part of what I
          learnt, to my own family! Had his character been known, this could not have happened. But
          it is all, all too late now."</p>
        <p>"I am grieved, indeed," cried Darcy; "grieved--shocked. But is it certain, absolutely
          certain?"</p>
        <p>"Oh yes!--They left Brighton together on Sunday night, and were traced almost to London,
          but not beyond; they are certainly not gone to Scotland."</p>
        <p>"And what has been done, what has been attempted, to recover her?"</p>
        <p>"My father is gone to London, and Jane has written to beg my uncle's immediate
          assistance, and we shall be off, I hope, in half an hour. But nothing can be done; I know
          very well that nothing can be done. How is such a man to be worked on? How are they even
          to be discovered? I have not the smallest hope. It is every way horrible!"</p>
        <p>Darcy shook his head in silent acquiesence.</p>
        <p>"When <hi rend="italic">my</hi> eyes were opened to his real character.--Oh! had I known
          what I ought, what I dared, to do! But I knew not--I was afraid of doing too much.
          Wretched, wretched, mistake!"</p>
        <p>Darcy made no answer. He seemed scarcely to hear her, and was walking up and down the
          room in earnest meditation; his brow contracted, his air gloomy. Elizabeth soon observed,
          and instantly understood it. Her power was sinking; every thing <hi rend="italic">must</hi> sink under such a proof of family weakness, such an assurance of the deepest
          disgrace. She could neither wonder nor condemn, but the belief of his self-conquest
          brought nothing consolatory to her bosom, afforded no palliation of her distress. It was,
          on the contrary, exactly calculated to make her understand her own wishes; and never had
          she so honestly felt that she could have loved him, as now, when all love must be
          vain.</p>
        <p>But self, though it would intrude, could not engross her. Lydia--the humiliation, the
          misery, she was bringing on them all, soon swallowed up every private care; and covering
          her face with her handkerchief, Elizabeth was soon lost to every thing else; and, after a
          pause of several minutes, was only recalled to a sense of her situation by the voice of
          her companion, who, in a manner, which though it spoke compassion, spoke likewise
          restraint, said, "I am afraid you have been long desiring my absence, nor have I any thing
          to plead in excuse of my stay, but real, though unavailing, concern. Would to heaven that
          any thing could be either said or done on my part, that might offer consolation to such
          distress.--But I will not torment you with vain wishes, which may seem purposely to ask
          for your thanks. This unfortunate affair will, I fear, prevent my sister's having the
          pleasure of seeing you at Pemberley to-day."</p>
        <p>"Oh, yes. Be so kind as to apologize for us to Miss Darcy. Say that urgent business calls
          us home immediately. Conceal the unhappy truth as long as it is possible.--I know it
          cannot be long."</p>
        <p>He readily assured her of his secrecy--again expressed his sorrow for her distress,
          wished it a happier conclusion than there was at present reason to hope, and leaving his
          compliments for her relations, with only one serious, parting, look, went away.</p>
        <p>As he quitted the room, Elizabeth felt how improbable it was that they should ever see
          each other again on such terms of cordiality as had marked their several meetings in
          Derbyshire; and as she threw a retrospective glance over the whole of their acquaintance,
          so full of contradictions and varieties, sighed at the perverseness of those feelings
          which would now have promoted its continuance, and would formerly have rejoiced in its
          termination.</p>
        <p>If gratitude and esteem are good foundations of affection, Elizabeth's change of
          sentiment will be neither improbable nor faulty. But if otherwise, if the regard springing
          from such sources is unreasonable or unnatural, in comparison of what is so often
          described as arising on a first interview with its object, and even before two words have
          been exchanged, nothing can be said in her defence, except that she had given somewhat of
          a trial to the latter method, in her partiality for Wickham, and that its ill-success
          might perhaps authorise her to seek the other less interesting mode of attachment. Be that
          as it may, she saw him go with regret; and in this early example of what Lydia's infamy
          must produce, found additional anguish as she reflected on that wretched business. Never,
          since reading Jane's second letter, had she entertained a hope of Wickham's meaning to
          marry her. No one but Jane, she thought, could flatter herself with such an expectation.
          Surprise was the least of her feelings on this developement. While the contents of the
          first letter remained on her mind, she was all surprise--all astonishment that Wickham
          should marry a girl, whom it was impossible he could marry for money; and how Lydia could
          ever have attached him, had appeared incomprehensible. But now it was all too natural. For
          such an attachment as this, she might have sufficient charms; and though she did not
          suppose Lydia to be deliberately engaging in an elopement, without the intention of
          marriage, she had no difficulty in believing that neither her virtue nor her understanding
          would preserve her from falling an easy prey.</p>
        <p>She had never perceived, while the regiment was in Hertfordshire, that Lydia had any
          partiality for him, but she was convinced that Lydia had wanted only encouragement to
          attach herself to any body. Sometimes one officer, sometimes another had been her
          favourite, as their attentions raised them in her opinion. Her affections had been
          continually fluctuating, but never without an object. The mischief of neglect and mistaken
          indulgence towards such a girl.--Oh! how acutely did she now feel it.</p>
        <p>She was wild to be at home--to hear, to see, to be upon the spot, to share with Jane in
          the cares that must now fall wholly upon her, in a family so deranged; a father absent, a
          mother incapable of exertion, and requiring constant attendance; and though almost
          persuaded that nothing could be done for Lydia, her uncle's interference seemed of the
          utmost importance, and till he entered the room, the misery of her impatience was severe.
          Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner had hurried back in alarm, supposing, by the servant's account, that
          their niece was taken suddenly ill;--but satisfying them instantly on that head, she
          eagerly communicated the cause of their summons, reading the two letters aloud, and
          dwelling on the postscript of the last, with trembling energy.--Though Lydia had never
          been a favourite with them, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner could not but be deeply affected. Not
          Lydia only, but all were concerned in it; and after the first exclamations of surprise and
          horror, Mr. Gardiner readily promised every assistance in his power.--Elizabeth, though
          expecting no less, thanked him with tears of gratitude; and all three being actuated by
          one spirit, every thing relating to their journey was speedily settled. They were to be
          off as soon as possible. "But what is to be done about Pemberley?" cried Mrs. Gardiner.
          "John told us Mr. Darcy was here when you sent for us;--was it so?"</p>
        <p>"Yes; and I told him we should not be able to keep our engagement. <hi rend="italic">That</hi> is all settled."</p>
        <p>"That is all settled;" repeated the other, as she ran into her room to prepare. "And are
          they upon such terms as for her to disclose the real truth! Oh, that I knew how it
          was!"</p>
        <p>But wishes were vain; or at best could serve only to amuse her in the hurry and confusion
          of the following hour. Had Elizabeth been at leisure to be idle, she would have remained
          certain that all employment was impossible to one so wretched as herself; but she had her
          share of business as well as her aunt, and amongst the rest there were notes to be written
          to all their friends in Lambton, with false excuses for their sudden departure. An hour,
          however, saw the whole completed; and Mr. Gardiner meanwhile having settled his account at
          the inn, nothing remained to be done but to go; and Elizabeth, after all the misery of the
          morning, found herself, in a shorter space of time than she could have supposed, seated in
          the carriage, and on the road to Longbourn.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER V.</head>
        <p> "I have been thinking it over again, Elizabeth," said her uncle, as they drove from the
          town; "and really, upon serious consideration, I am much more inclined than I was to judge
          as your eldest sister does of the matter. It appears to me so very unlikely, that any
          young man should form such a design against a girl who is by no means unprotected or
          friendless, and who was actually staying in his colonel's family, that I am strongly
          inclined to hope the best. Could he expect that her friends would not step forward? Could
          he expect to be noticed again by the regiment, after such an affront to Colonel Forster?
          His temptation is not adequate to the risk."</p>
        <p>"Do you really think so?" cried Elizabeth, brightening up for a moment.</p>
        <p>"Upon my word," said Mrs. Gardiner, "I begin to be of your uncle's opinion. It is really
          too great a violation of decency, honour, and interest, for him to be guilty of it. I
          cannot think so very ill of Wickham. Can you, yourself, Lizzy, so wholly give him up, as
          to believe him capable of it?"</p>
        <p>"Not perhaps of neglecting his own interest. But of every other neglect I can believe him
          capable. If, indeed, it should be so! But I dare not hope it. Why should they not go on to
          Scotland, if that had been the case?"</p>
        <p>"In the first place," replied Mr. Gardiner, "there is no absolute proof that they are not
          gone to Scotland."</p>
        <p>"Oh! but their removing from the chaise into an hackney coach is such a presumption! And,
          besides, no traces of them were to be found on the Barnet road."</p>
        <p>"Well, then--supposing them to be in London. They may be there, though for the purpose of
          concealment, for no more exceptionable purpose. It is not likely that money should be very
          abundant on either side; and it might strike them that they could be more economically,
          though less expeditiously, married in London, than in Scotland."</p>
        <p>"But why all this secrecy? Why any fear of detection? Why must their marriage be private?
          Oh! no, no, this is not likely. His most particular friend, you see by Jane's account, was
          persuaded of his never intending to marry her. Wickham will never marry a woman without
          some money. He cannot afford it. And what claims has Lydia, what attractions has she
          beyond youth, health, and good humour, that could make him for her sake, forego every
          chance of benefiting himself by marrying well? As to what restraint the apprehension of
          disgrace in the corps might throw on a dishonourable elopement with her, I am not able to
          judge; for I know nothing of the effects that such a step might produce. But as to your
          other objection, I am afraid it will hardly hold good. Lydia has no brothers to step
          forward; and he might imagine, from my father's behaviour, from his indolence and the
          little attention he has ever seemed to give to what was going forward in his family, that
            <hi rend="italic">he</hi> would do as little, and think as little about it, as any
          father could do, in such a matter."</p>
        <p>"But can you think that Lydia is so lost to every thing but love of him, as to consent to
          live with him on any other terms than marriage?"</p>
        <p>"It does seem, and it is most shocking indeed," replied Elizabeth, with tears in her
          eyes, "that a sister's sense of decency and virtue in such a point should admit of doubt.
          But, really, I know not what to say. Perhaps I am not doing her justice. But she is very
          young; she has never been taught to think on serious subjects; and for the last half year,
          nay, for a twelvemonth, she has been given up to nothing but amusement and vanity. She has
          been allowed to dispose of her time in the most idle and frivolous manner, and to adopt
          any opinions that came in her way. Since the ----shire were first quartered in Meryton,
          nothing but love, flirtation, and officers, have been in her head. She has been doing
          every thing in her power by thinking and talking on the subject, to give greater--what
          shall I call it? susceptibility to her feelings; which are naturally lively enough. And we
          all know that Wickham has every charm of person and address that can captivate a
          woman."</p>
        <p>"But you see that Jane," said her aunt, "does not think so ill of Wickham, as to believe
          him capable of the attempt."</p>
        <p>"Of whom does Jane ever think ill? And who is there, whatever might be their former
          conduct, that she would believe capable of such an attempt, till it were proved against
          them? But Jane knows, as well as I do, what Wickham really is. We both know that he has
          been profligate in every sense of the word. That he has neither integrity nor honour. That
          he is as false and deceitful, as he is insinuating."</p>
        <p>"And do you really know all this?" cried Mrs. Gardiner, whose curiosity as to the mode of
          her intelligence was all alive.</p>
        <p>"I do, indeed," replied Elizabeth, colouring. "I told you the other day, of his infamous
          behaviour to Mr. Darcy; and you, yourself, when last at Longbourn, heard in what manner he
          spoke of the man, who had behaved with such forbearance and liberality towards him. And
          there are other circumstances which I am not at liberty--which it is not worth while to
          relate; but his lies about the whole Pemberley family are endless. From what he said of
          Miss Darcy, I was thoroughly prepared to see a proud, reserved, disagreeable girl. Yet he
          knew to the contrary himself. He must know that she was as amiable and unpretending as we
          have found her."</p>
        <p>"But does Lydia know nothing of this? Can she be ignorant of what you and Jane seem so
          well to understand?"</p>
        <p>"Oh, yes!--that, that is the worst of all. Till I was in Kent, and saw so much both of
          Mr. Darcy and his relation, Colonel Fitzwilliam, I was ignorant of the truth myself. And
          when I returned home, the ----shire was to leave Meryton in a week or fortnight's time. As
          that was the case, neither Jane, to whom I related the whole, nor I, thought it necessary
          to make our knowledge public; for of what use could it apparently be to any one, that the
          good opinion which all the neighbourhood had of him, should then be overthrown? And even
          when it was settled that Lydia should go with Mrs. Forster, the necessity of opening her
          eyes to his character never occurred to me. That <hi rend="italic">she</hi> could be in
          any danger from the deception never entered my head. That such a consequence as <hi rend="italic">this</hi> should ensue, you may easily believe was far enough from my
          thoughts."</p>
        <p>"When they all removed to Brighton, therefore, you had no reason, I suppose, to believe
          them fond of each other."</p>
        <p>"Not the slightest. I can remember no symptom of affection on either side; and had any
          thing of the kind been perceptible, you must be aware that ours is not a family, on which
          it could be thrown away. When first he entered the corps, she was ready enough to admire
          him; but so we all were. Every girl in, or near Meryton, was out of her senses about him
          for the first two months; but he never distinguished <hi rend="italic">her</hi> by any
          particular attention, and, consequently, after a moderate period of extravagant and wild
          admiration, her fancy for him gave way, and others of the regiment, who treated her with
          more distinction, again became her favourites."</p>
        <p> * * * * *</p>
        <p>It may be easily believed, that however little of novelty could be added to their fears,
          hopes, and conjectures, on this interesting subject, by its repeated discussion, no other
          could detain them from it long, during the whole of the journey. From Elizabeth's thoughts
          it was never absent. Fixed there by the keenest of all anguish, self reproach, she could
          find no interval of ease or forgetfulness.</p>
        <p>They travelled as expeditiously as possible; and sleeping one night on the road, reached
          Longbourn by dinner-time the next day. It was a comfort to Elizabeth to consider that Jane
          could not have been wearied by long expectations.</p>
        <p>The little Gardiners, attracted by the sight of a chaise, were standing on the steps of
          the house, as they entered the paddock; and when the carriage drove up to the door, the
          joyful surprise that lighted up their faces, and displayed itself over their whole bodies,
          in a variety of capers and frisks, was the first pleasing earnest of their welcome.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth jumped out; and, after giving each of them an hasty kiss, hurried into the
          vestibule, where Jane, who came running down stairs from her mother's apartment,
          immediately met her.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, as she affectionately embraced her, whilst tears filled the eyes of both, lost
          not a moment in asking whether any thing had been heard of the fugitives.</p>
        <p>"Not yet," replied Jane. "But now that my dear uncle is come, I hope every thing will be
          well."</p>
        <p>"Is my father in town?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, he went on Tuesday as I wrote you word."</p>
        <p>"And have you heard from him often?"</p>
        <p>"We have heard only once. He wrote me a few lines on Wednesday, to say that he had
          arrived in safety, and to give me his directions, which I particularly begged him to do.
          He merely added, that he should not write again, till he had something of importance to
          mention."</p>
        <p>"And my mother--How is she? How are you all?"</p>
        <p>"My mother is tolerably well, I trust; though her spirits are greatly shaken. She is up
          stairs, and will have great satisfaction in seeing you all. She does not yet leave her
          dressing-room. Mary and Kitty, thank Heaven! are quite well."</p>
        <p>"But you--How are you?" cried Elizabeth. "You look pale. How much you must have gone
          through!"</p>
        <p>Her sister, however, assured her, of her being perfectly well; and their conversation,
          which had been passing while Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner were engaged with their children, was
          now put an end to, by the approach of the whole party. Jane ran to her uncle and aunt, and
          welcomed and thanked them both, with alternate smiles and tears.</p>
        <p>When they were all in the drawing-room, the questions which Elizabeth had already asked,
          were of course repeated by the others, and they soon found that Jane had no intelligence
          to give. The sanguine hope of good, however, which the benevolence of her heart suggested,
          had not yet deserted her; she still expected that it would all end well, and that every
          morning would bring some letter, either from Lydia or her father, to explain their
          proceedings, and perhaps announce the marriage.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet, to whose apartment they all repaired, after a few minutes conversation
          together, received them exactly as might be expected; with tears and lamentations of
          regret, invectives against the villanous conduct of Wickham, and complaints of her own
          sufferings and ill usage; blaming every body but the person to whose ill judging
          indulgence the errors of her daughter must be principally owing.</p>
        <p>"If I had been able," said she, "to carry my point of going to Brighton, with all my
          family, <hi rend="italic">this</hi> would not have happened; but poor dear Lydia had
          nobody to take care of her. Why did the Forsters ever let her go out of their sight? I am
          sure there was some great neglect or other on their side, for she is not the kind of girl
          to do such a thing, if she had been well looked after. I always thought they were very
          unfit to have the charge of her; but I was over-ruled, as I always am. Poor dear child!
          And now here's Mr. Bennet gone away, and I know he will fight Wickham, wherever he meets
          him, and then he will be killed, and what is to become of us all? The Collinses will turn
          us out, before he is cold in his grave; and if you are not kind to us, brother, I do not
          know what we shall do."</p>
        <p>They all exclaimed against such terrific ideas; and Mr. Gardiner, after general
          assurances of his affection for her and all her family, told her that he meant to be in
          London the very next day, and would assist Mr. Bennet in every endeavour for recovering
          Lydia.</p>
        <p>"Do not give way to useless alarm," added he, "though it is right to be prepared for the
          worst, there is no occasion to look on it as certain. It is not quite a week since they
          left Brighton. In a few days more, we may gain some news of them, and till we know that
          they are not married, and have no design of marrying, do not let us give the matter over
          as lost. As soon as I get to town, I shall go to my brother, and make him come home with
          me to Gracechurch Street, and then we may consult together as to what is to be done."</p>
        <p>"Oh! my dear brother," replied Mrs. Bennet, "that is exactly what I could most wish for.
          And now do, when you get to town, find them out, wherever they may be; and if they are not
          married already, <hi rend="italic">make</hi> them marry. And as for wedding clothes, do
          not let them wait for that, but tell Lydia she shall have as much money as she chuses, to
          buy them, after they are married. And, above all things, keep Mr. Bennet from fighting.
          Tell him what a dreadful state I am in,--that I am frightened out of my wits; and have
          such tremblings, such flutterings, all over me, such spasms in my side, and pains in my
          head, and such beatings at heart, that I can get no rest by night nor by day. And tell my
          dear Lydia, not to give any directions about her clothes, till she has seen me, for she
          does not know which are the best warehouses. Oh, brother, how kind you are! I know you
          will contrive it all."</p>
        <p>But Mr. Gardiner, though he assured her again of his earnest endeavours in the cause,
          could not avoid recommending moderation to her, as well in her hopes as her fears; and,
          after talking with her in this manner till dinner was on table, they left her to vent all
          her feelings on the housekeeper, who attended, in the absence of her daughters.</p>
        <p>Though her brother and sister were persuaded that there was no real occasion for such a
          seclusion from the family, they did not attempt to oppose it, for they knew that she had
          not prudence enough to hold her tongue before the servants, while they waited at table,
          and judged it better that <hi rend="italic">one</hi> only of the household, and the one
          whom they could most trust, should comprehend all her fears and solicitude on the
          subject.</p>
        <p>In the dining-room they were soon joined by Mary and Kitty, who had been too busily
          engaged in their separate apartments, to make their appearance before. One came from her
          books, and the other from her toilette. The faces of both, however, were tolerably calm;
          and no change was visible in either, except that the loss of her favourite sister, or the
          anger which she had herself incurred in the business, had given something more of
          fretfulness than usual, to the accents of Kitty. As for Mary, she was mistress enough of
          herself to whisper to Elizabeth with a countenance of grave reflection, soon after they
          were seated at table,</p>
        <p>"This is a most unfortunate affair; and will probably be much talked of. But we must stem
          the tide of malice, and pour into the wounded bosoms of each other, the balm of sisterly
          consolation."</p>
        <p>Then, perceiving in Elizabeth no inclination of replying, she added, "Unhappy as the
          event must be for Lydia, we may draw from it this useful lesson; that loss of virtue in a
          female is irretrievable--that one false step involves her in endless ruin--that her
          reputation is no less brittle than it is beautiful,--and that she cannot be too much
          guarded in her behaviour towards the undeserving of the other sex."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth lifted up her eyes in amazement, but was too much oppressed to make any reply.
          Mary, however, continued to console herself with such kind of moral extractions from the
          evil before them.</p>
        <p>In the afternoon, the two elder Miss Bennets were able to be for half an hour by
          themselves; and Elizabeth instantly availed herself of the opportunity of making many
          enquiries, which Jane was equally eager to satisfy. After joining in general lamentations
          over the dreadful sequel of this event, which Elizabeth considered as all but certain, and
          Miss Bennet could not assert to be wholly impossible; the former continued the subject, by
          saying, "But tell me all and every thing about it, which I have not already heard. Give me
          farther particulars. What did Colonel Forster say? Had they no apprehension of any thing
          before the elopement took place? They must have seen them together for ever."</p>
        <p>"Colonel Forster did own that he had often suspected some partiality, especially on
          Lydia's side, but nothing to give him any alarm. I am so grieved for him. His behaviour
          was attentive and kind to the utmost. He <hi rend="italic">was</hi> coming to us, in order
          to assure us of his concern, before he had any idea of their not being gone to Scotland:
          when that apprehension first got abroad, it hastened his journey."</p>
        <p>"And was Denny convinced that Wickham would not marry? Did he know of their intending to
          go off? Had Colonel Forster seen Denny himself?"</p>
        <p>"Yes; but when questioned by <hi rend="italic">him</hi> Denny denied knowing any thing of
          their plan, and would not give his real opinion about it. He did not repeat his persuasion
          of their not marrying--and from <hi rend="italic">that</hi>, I am inclined to hope, he
          might have been misunderstood before."</p>
        <p>"And till Colonel Forster came himself, not one of you entertained a doubt, I suppose, of
          their being really married?"</p>
        <p>"How was it possible that such an idea should enter our brains! I felt a little uneasy--a
          little fearful of my sister's happiness with him in marriage, because I knew that his
          conduct had not been always quite right. My father and mother knew nothing of that, they
          only felt how imprudent a match it must be. Kitty then owned, with a very natural triumph
          on knowing more than the rest of us, that in Lydia's last letter, she had prepared her for
          such a step. She had known, it seems, of their being in love with each other, many
          weeks."</p>
        <p>"But not before they went to Brighton?"</p>
        <p>"No, I believe not."</p>
        <p>"And did Colonel Forster appear to think ill of Wickham himself? Does he know his real
          character?"</p>
        <p>"I must confess that he did not speak so well of Wickham as he formerly did. He believed
          him to be imprudent and extravagant. And since this sad affair has taken place, it is
          said, that he left Meryton greatly in debt; but I hope this may be false."</p>
        <p>"Oh, Jane, had we been less secret, had we told what we knew of him, this could not have
          happened!"</p>
        <p>"Perhaps it would have been better;" replied her sister. "But to expose the former faults
          of any person, without knowing what their present feelings were, seemed unjustifiable. We
          acted with the best intentions."</p>
        <p>"Could Colonel Forster repeat the particulars of Lydia's note to his wife?"</p>
        <p>"He brought it with him for us to see."</p>
        <p>Jane then took it from her pocket-book, and gave it to Elizabeth. These were the
          contents:</p>
        <p> "MY DEAR HARRIET,</p>
        <p> "You will laugh when you know where I am gone, and I cannot help laughing myself at your
          surprise to-morrow morning, as soon as I am missed. I am going to Gretna Green, and if you
          cannot guess with who, I shall think you a simpleton, for there is but one man in the
          world I love, and he is an angel. I should never be happy without him, so think it no harm
          to be off. You need not send them word at Longbourn of my going, if you do not like it,
          for it will make the surprise the greater, when I write to them, and sign my name Lydia
          Wickham. What a good joke it will be! I can hardly write for laughing. Pray make my
          excuses to Pratt, for not keeping my engagement, and dancing with him to-night. Tell him I
          hope he will excuse me when he knows all, and tell him I will dance with him at the next
          ball we meet, with great pleasure. I shall send for my clothes when I get to Longbourn;
          but I wish you would tell Sally to mend a great slit in my worked muslin gown, before they
          are packed up. Good bye. Give my love to Colonel Forster, I hope you will drink to our
          good journey.</p>
        <p> "Your affectionate friend,</p>
        <p> "LYDIA BENNET."</p>
        <p>"Oh! thoughtless, thoughtless Lydia!" cried Elizabeth when she had finished it. "What a
          letter is this, to be written at such a moment. But at least it shews, that <hi rend="italic">she</hi> was serious in the object of her journey. Whatever he might
          afterwards persuade her to, it was not on her side a <hi rend="italic">scheme</hi> of
          infamy. My poor father! how he must have felt it!"</p>
        <p>"I never saw any one so shocked. He could not speak a word for full ten minutes. My
          mother was taken ill immediately, and the whole house in such confusion!"</p>
        <p>"Oh! Jane," cried Elizabeth, "was there a servant belonging to it, who did not know the
          whole story before the end of the day?"</p>
        <p>"I do not know.--I hope there was.--But to be guarded at such a time, is very difficult.
          My mother was in hysterics, and though I endeavoured to give her every assistance in my
          power, I am afraid I did not do so much as I might have done! But the horror of what might
          possibly happen, almost took from me my faculties."</p>
        <p>"Your attendance upon her, has been too much for you. You do not look well. Oh! that I
          had been with you, you have had every care and anxiety upon yourself alone."</p>
        <p>"Mary and Kitty have been very kind, and would have shared in every fatigue, I am sure,
          but I did not think it right for either of them. Kitty is slight and delicate, and Mary
          studies so much, that her hours of repose should not be broken in on. My aunt Philips came
          to Longbourn on Tuesday, after my father went away; and was so good as to stay till
          Thursday with me. She was of great use and comfort to us all, and lady Lucas has been very
          kind; she walked here on Wednesday morning to condole with us, and offered her services,
          or any of her daughters, if they could be of use to us."</p>
        <p>"She had better have stayed at home," cried Elizabeth; "perhaps she <hi rend="italic">meant</hi> well, but, under such a misfortune as this, one cannot see too little of
          one's neighbours. Assistance is impossible; condolence, insufferable. Let them triumph
          over us at a distance, and be satisfied."</p>
        <p>She then proceeded to enquire into the measures which her father had intended to pursue,
          while in town, for the recovery of his daughter.</p>
        <p>"He meant, I believe," replied Jane, "to go to Epsom, the place where they last changed
          horses, see the postilions, and try if any thing could be made out from them. His
          principal object must be, to discover the number of the hackney coach which took them from
          Clapham. It had come with a fare from London; and as he thought the circumstance of a
          gentleman and lady's removing from one carriage into another, might be remarked, he meant
          to make enquiries at Clapham. If he could any how discover at what house the coachman had
          before set down his fare, he determined to make enquiries there, and hoped it might not be
          impossible to find out the stand and number of the coach. I do not know of any other
          designs that he had formed: but he was in such a hurry to be gone, and his spirits so
          greatly discomposed, that I had difficulty in finding out even so much as this."</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER VI.</head>
        <p> The whole party were in hopes of a letter from Mr. Bennet the next morning, but the post
          came in without bringing a single line from him. His family knew him to be on all common
          occasions, a most negligent and dilatory correspondent, but at such a time, they had hoped
          for exertion. They were forced to conclude, that he had no pleasing intelligence to send,
          but even of <hi rend="italic">that</hi> they would have been glad to be certain. Mr.
          Gardiner had waited only for the letters before he set off.</p>
        <p>When he was gone, they were certain at least of receiving constant information of what
          was going on, and their uncle promised, at parting, to prevail on Mr. Bennet to return to
          Longbourn, as soon as he could, to the great consolation of his sister, who considered it
          as the only security for her husband's not being killed in a duel.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner and the children were to remain in Hertfordshire a few days longer, as the
          former thought her presence might be serviceable to her nieces. She shared in their
          attendance on Mrs. Bennet, and was a great comfort to them, in their hours of freedom.
          Their other aunt also visited them frequently, and always, as she said, with the design of
          cheering and heartening them up, though as she never came without reporting some fresh
          instance of Wickham's extravagance or irregularity, she seldom went away without leaving
          them more dispirited than she found them.</p>
        <p>All Meryton seemed striving to blacken the man, who, but three months before, had been
          almost an angel of light. He was declared to be in debt to every tradesman in the place,
          and his intrigues, all honoured with the title of seduction, had been extended into every
          tradesman's family. Every body declared that he was the wickedest young man in the world;
          and every body began to find out, that they had always distrusted the appearance of his
          goodness. Elizabeth, though she did not credit above half of what was said, believed
          enough to make her former assurance of her sister's ruin still more certain; and even
          Jane, who believed still less of it, became almost hopeless, more especially as the time
          was now come, when if they had gone to Scotland, which she had never before entirely
          despaired of, they must in all probability have gained some news of them.</p>
        <p>Mr. Gardiner left Longbourn on Sunday; on Tuesday, his wife received a letter from him;
          it told them, that on his arrival, he had immediately found out his brother, and persuaded
          him to come to Gracechurch street. That Mr. Bennet had been to Epsom and Clapham, before
          his arrival, but without gaining any satisfactory information; and that he was now
          determined to enquire at all the principal hotels in town, as Mr. Bennet thought it
          possible they might have gone to one of them, on their first coming to London, before they
          procured lodgings. Mr. Gardiner himself did not expect any success from this measure, but
          as his brother was eager in it, he meant to assist him in pursuing it. He added, that Mr.
          Bennet seemed wholly disinclined at present, to leave London, and promised to write again
          very soon. There was also a postscript to this effect.</p>
        <p>"I have written to Colonel Forster to desire him to find out, if possible, from some of
          the young man's intimates in the regiment, whether Wickham has any relations or
          connections, who would be likely to know in what part of the town he has now concealed
          himself. If there were any one, that one could apply to, with a probability of gaining
          such a clue as that, it might be of essential consequence. At present we have nothing to
          guide us. Colonel Forster will, I dare say, do every thing in his power to satisfy us on
          this head. But, on second thoughts, perhaps Lizzy could tell us, what relations he has now
          living, better than any other person."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was at no loss to understand from whence this deference for her authority
          proceeded; but it was not in her power to give any information of so satisfactory a
          nature, as the compliment deserved.</p>
        <p>She had never heard of his having had any relations, except a father and mother, both of
          whom had been dead many years. It was possible, however, that some of his companions in
          the ----shire, might be able to give more information; and, though she was not very
          sanguine in expecting it, the application was a something to look forward to.</p>
        <p>Every day at Longbourn was now a day of anxiety; but the most anxious part of each was
          when the post was expected. The arrival of letters was the first grand object of every
          morning's impatience. Through letters, whatever of good or bad was to be told, would be
          communicated, and every succeeding day was expected to bring some news of importance.</p>
        <p>But before they heard again from Mr. Gardiner, a letter arrived for their father, from a
          different quarter, from Mr. Collins; which, as Jane had received directions to open all
          that came for him in his absence, she accordingly read; and Elizabeth, who knew what
          curiosities his letters always were, looked over her, and read it likewise. It was as
          follows:</p>
        <p> "MY DEAR SIR,</p>
        <p> "I feel myself called upon, by our relationship, and my situation in life, to condole
          with you on the grievous affliction you are now suffering under, of which we were
          yesterday informed by a letter from Hertfordshire. Be assured, my dear Sir, that Mrs.
          Collins and myself sincerely sympathise with you, and all your respectable family, in your
          present distress, which must be of the bitterest kind, because proceeding from a cause
          which no time can remove. No arguments shall be wanting on my part, that can alleviate so
          severe a misfortune; or that may comfort you, under a circumstance that must be of all
          others most afflicting to a parent's mind. The death of your daughter would have been a
          blessing in comparison of this. And it is the more to be lamented, because there is reason
          to suppose, as my dear Charlotte informs me, that this licentiousness of behaviour in your
          daughter, has proceeded from a faulty degree of indulgence, though, at the same time, for
          the consolation of yourself and Mrs. Bennet, I am inclined to think that her own
          disposition must be naturally bad, or she could not be guilty of such an enormity, at so
          early an age. Howsoever that may be, you are grievously to be pitied, in which opinion I
          am not only joined by Mrs. Collins, but likewise by lady Catherine and her daughter, to
          whom I have related the affair. They agree with me in apprehending that this false step in
          one daughter, will be injurious to the fortunes of all the others, for who, as lady
          Catherine herself condescendingly says, will connect themselves with such a family. And
          this consideration leads me moreover to reflect with augmented satisfaction on a certain
          event of last November, for had it been otherwise, I must have been involved in all your
          sorrow and disgrace. Let me advise you then, my dear Sir, to console yourself as much as
          possible, to throw off your unworthy child from your affection for ever, and leave her to
          reap the fruits of her own heinous offence.</p>
        <p> "I am, dear Sir, &amp;c. &amp;c."</p>
        <p>Mr. Gardiner did not write again, till he had received an answer from Colonel Forster;
          and then he had nothing of a pleasant nature to send. It was not known that Wickham had a
          single relation, with whom he kept up any connection, and it was certain that he had no
          near one living. His former acquaintance had been numerous; but since he had been in the
          militia, it did not appear that he was on terms of particular friendship with any of them.
          There was no one therefore who could be pointed out, as likely to give any news of him.
          And in the wretched state of his own finances, there was a very powerful motive for
          secrecy, in addition to his fear of discovery by Lydia's relations, for it had just
          transpired that he had left gaming debts behind him, to a very considerable amount.
          Colonel Forster believed that more than a thousand pounds would be necessary to clear his
          expences at Brighton. He owed a good deal in the town, but his debts of honour were still
          more formidable. Mr. Gardiner did not attempt to conceal these particulars from the
          Longbourn family; Jane heard them with horror. "A gamester!" she cried. "This is wholly
          unexpected. I had not an idea of it."</p>
        <p>Mr. Gardiner added in his letter, that they might expect to see their father at home on
          the following day, which was Saturday. Rendered spiritless by the ill-success of all their
          endeavours, he had yielded to his brother-in-law's intreaty that he would return to his
          family, and leave it to him to do, whatever occasion might suggest to be advisable for
          continuing their pursuit. When Mrs. Bennet was told of this, she did not express so much
          satisfaction as her children expected, considering what her anxiety for his life had been
          before.</p>
        <p>"What, is he coming home, and without poor Lydia!" she cried. "Sure he will not leave
          London before he has found them. Who is to fight Wickham, and make him marry her, if he
          comes away?"</p>
        <p>As Mrs. Gardiner began to wish to be at home, it was settled that she and her children
          should go to London, at the same time that Mr. Bennet came from it. The coach, therefore,
          took them the first stage of their journey, and brought its master back to Longbourn.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Gardiner went away in all the perplexity about Elizabeth and her Derbyshire friend,
          that had attended her from that part of the world. His name had never been voluntarily
          mentioned before them by her niece; and the kind of half-expectation which Mrs. Gardiner
          had formed, of their being followed by a letter from him, had ended in nothing. Elizabeth
          had received none since her return, that could come from Pemberley.</p>
        <p>The present unhappy state of the family, rendered any other excuse for the lowness of her
          spirits unnecessary; nothing, therefore, could be fairly conjectured from <hi rend="italic">that</hi>, though Elizabeth, who was by this time tolerably well
          acquainted with her own feelings, was perfectly aware, that, had she known nothing of
          Darcy, she could have borne the dread of Lydia's infamy somewhat better. It would have
          spared her, she thought, one sleepless night out of two.</p>
        <p>When Mr. Bennet arrived, he had all the appearance of his usual philosophic composure. He
          said as little as he had ever been in the habit of saying; made no mention of the business
          that had taken him away, and it was some time before his daughters had courage to speak of
          it.</p>
        <p>It was not till the afternoon, when he joined them at tea, that Elizabeth ventured to
          introduce the subject; and then, on her briefly expressing her sorrow for what he must
          have endured, he replied, "Say nothing of that. Who should suffer but myself? It has been
          my own doing, and I ought to feel it."</p>
        <p>"You must not be too severe upon yourself," replied Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"You may well warn me against such an evil. Human nature is so prone to fall into it! No,
          Lizzy, let me once in my life feel how much I have been to blame. I am not afraid of being
          overpowered by the impression. It will pass away soon enough."</p>
        <p>"Do you suppose them to be in London?"</p>
        <p>"Yes; where else can they be so well concealed?"</p>
        <p>"And Lydia used to want to go to London," added Kitty.</p>
        <p>"She is happy, then," said her father, drily; "and her residence there will probably be
          of some duration."</p>
        <p>Then, after a short silence, he continued, "Lizzy, I bear you no ill-will for being
          justified in your advice to me last May, which, considering the event, shews some
          greatness of mind."</p>
        <p>They were interrupted by Miss Bennet, who came to fetch her mother's tea.</p>
        <p>"This is a parade," cried he, "which does one good; it gives such an elegance to
          misfortune! Another day I will do the same; I will sit in my library, in my night cap and
          powdering gown, and give as much trouble as I can,--or, perhaps, I may defer it, till
          Kitty runs away."</p>
        <p>"I am not going to run away, Papa," said Kitty, fretfully; "if <hi rend="italic">I</hi>
          should ever go to Brighton, I would behave better than Lydia."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">You</hi> go to Brighton!--I would not trust you so near it as East
          Bourne for fifty pounds! No, Kitty, I have at last learnt to be cautious, and you will
          feel the effects of it. No officer is ever to enter my house again, nor even to pass
          through the village. Balls will be absolutely prohibited, unless you stand up with one of
          your sisters. And you are never to stir out of doors, till you can prove, that you have
          spent ten minutes of every day in a rational manner."</p>
        <p>Kitty, who took all these threats in a serious light, began to cry.</p>
        <p>"Well, well," said he, "do not make yourself unhappy. If you are a good girl for the next
          ten years, I will take you to a review at the end of them."</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER VII.</head>
        <p> Two days after Mr. Bennet's return, as Jane and Elizabeth were walking together in the
          shrubbery behind the house, they saw the housekeeper coming towards them, and, concluding
          that she came to call them to their mother, went forward to meet her; but, instead of the
          expected summons, when they approached her, she said to Miss Bennet, "I beg your pardon,
          madam, for interrupting you, but I was in hopes you might have got some good news from
          town, so I took the liberty of coming to ask."</p>
        <p>"What do you mean, Hill? We have heard nothing from town."</p>
        <p>"Dear madam," cried Mrs. Hill, in great astonishment, "don't you know there is an express
          come for master from Mr. Gardiner? He has been here this half hour, and master has had a
          letter."</p>
        <p>Away ran the girls, too eager to get in to have time for speech. They ran through the
          vestibule into the breakfast room; from thence to the library;--their father was in
          neither; and they were on the point of seeking him up stairs with their mother, when they
          were met by the butler, who said,</p>
        <p>"If you are looking for my master, ma'am, he is walking towards the little copse."</p>
        <p>Upon this information, they instantly passed through the hall once more, and ran across
          the lawn after their father, who was deliberately pursuing his way towards a small wood on
          one side of the paddock.</p>
        <p>Jane, who was not so light, nor so much in the habit of running as Elizabeth, soon lagged
          behind, while her sister, panting for breath, came up with him, and eagerly cried out,</p>
        <p>"Oh, Papa, what news? what news? have you heard from my uncle?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, I have had a letter from him by express."</p>
        <p>"Well, and what news does it bring? good or bad?"</p>
        <p>"What is there of good to be expected?" said he, taking the letter from his pocket; "but
          perhaps you would like to read it."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth impatiently caught it from his hand. Jane now came up.</p>
        <p>"Read it aloud," said their father, "for I hardly know myself what it is about."</p>
        <p> "Gracechurch-street, Monday,</p>
        <p> August 2.</p>
        <p> "MY DEAR BROTHER,</p>
        <p> "At last I am able to send you some tidings of my niece, and such as, upon the whole, I
          hope will give you satisfaction. Soon after you left me on Saturday, I was fortunate
          enough to find out in what part of London they were. The particulars, I reserve till we
          meet. It is enough to know they are discovered, I have seen them both----"</p>
        <p>"Then it is, as I always hoped," cried Jane; "they are married!"</p>
        <p> Elizabeth read on; "I have seen them both. They are not married, nor can I find there
          was any intention of being so; but if you are willing to perform the engagements which I
          have ventured to make on your side, I hope it will not be long before they are. All that
          is required of you is, to assure to your daughter, by settlement, her equal share of the
          five thousand pounds, secured among your children after the decease of yourself and my
          sister; and, moreover, to enter into an engagement of allowing her, during your life, one
          hundred pounds per annum. These are conditions, which, considering every thing, I had no
          hesitation in complying with, as far as I thought myself privileged, for you. I shall send
          this by express, that no time may be lost in bringing me your answer. You will easily
          comprehend, from these particulars, that Mr. Wickham's circumstances are not so hopeless
          as they are generally believed to be. The world has been deceived in that respect; and I
          am happy to say, there will be some little money, even when all his debts are discharged,
          to settle on my niece, in addition to her own fortune. If, as I conclude will be the case,
          you send me full powers to act in your name, throughout the whole of this business, I will
          immediately give directions to Haggerston for preparing a proper settlement. There will
          not be the smallest occasion for your coming to town again; therefore, stay quietly at
          Longbourn, and depend on my diligence and care. Send back your answer as soon as you can,
          and be careful to write explicitly. We have judged it best, that my niece should be
          married from this house, of which I hope you will approve. She comes to us to-day. I shall
          write again as soon as any thing more is determined on. Your's, &amp;c.</p>
        <p> "EDW. GARDINER."</p>
        <p>"Is it possible!" cried Elizabeth, when she had finished. "Can it be possible that he
          will marry her?"</p>
        <p>"Wickham is not so undeserving, then, as we have thought him;" said her sister. "My dear
          father, I congratulate you."</p>
        <p>"And have you answered the letter?" said Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"No; but it must be done soon."</p>
        <p>Most earnestly did she then intreat him to lose no more time before he wrote.</p>
        <p>"Oh! my dear father," she cried, "come back, and write immediately. Consider how
          important every moment is, in such a case."</p>
        <p>"Let me write for you," said Jane, "if you dislike the trouble yourself."</p>
        <p>"I dislike it very much," he replied; "but it must be done."</p>
        <p>And so saying, he turned back with them, and walked towards the house.</p>
        <p>"And may I ask?" said Elizabeth, "but the terms, I suppose, must be complied with."</p>
        <p>"Complied with! I am only ashamed of his asking so little."</p>
        <p>"And they <hi rend="italic">must</hi> marry! Yet he is <hi rend="italic">such</hi> a
          man!"</p>
        <p>"Yes, yes, they must marry. There is nothing else to be done. But there are two things
          that I want very much to know:--one is, how much money your uncle has laid down, to bring
          it about; and the other, how I am ever to pay him."</p>
        <p>"Money! my uncle!" cried Jane, "what do you mean, Sir?"</p>
        <p>"I mean, that no man in his senses, would marry Lydia on so slight a temptation as one
          hundred a-year during my life, and fifty after I am gone."</p>
        <p>"That is very true," said Elizabeth; "though it had not occurred to me before. His debts
          to be discharged, and something still to remain! Oh! it must be my uncle's doings!
          Generous, good man, I am afraid he has distressed himself. A small sum could not do all
          this."</p>
        <p>"No," said her father, "Wickham's a fool, if he takes her with a farthing less than ten
          thousand pounds. I should be sorry to think so ill of him, in the very beginning of our
          relationship."</p>
        <p>"Ten thousand pounds! Heaven forbid! How is half such a sum to be repaid?"</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet made no answer, and each of them, deep in thought, continued silent till they
          reached the house. Their father then went to the library to write, and the girls walked
          into the breakfast-room.</p>
        <p>"And they are really to be married!" cried Elizabeth, as soon as they were by themselves.
          "How strange this is! And for <hi rend="italic">this</hi> we are to be thankful. That they
          should marry, small as is their chance of happiness, and wretched as is his character, we
          are forced to rejoice! Oh, Lydia!"</p>
        <p>"I comfort myself with thinking," replied Jane, "that he certainly would not marry Lydia,
          if he had not a real regard for her. Though our kind uncle has done something towards
          clearing him, I cannot believe that ten thousand pounds, or any thing like it, has been
          advanced. He has children of his own, and may have more. How could he spare half ten
          thousand pounds?"</p>
        <p>"If we are ever able to learn what Wickham's debts have been," said Elizabeth, "and how
          much is settled on his side on our sister, we shall exactly know what Mr. Gardiner has
          done for them, because Wickham has not sixpence of his own. The kindness of my uncle and
          aunt can never be requited. Their taking her home, and affording her their personal
          protection and countenance, is such a sacrifice to her advantage, as years of gratitude
          cannot enough acknowledge. By this time she is actually with them! If such goodness does
          not make her miserable now, she will never deserve to be happy! What a meeting for her,
          when she first sees my aunt!"</p>
        <p>"We must endeavour to forget all that has passed on either side," said Jane: "I hope and
          trust they will yet be happy. His consenting to marry her is a proof, I will believe, that
          he is come to a right way of thinking. Their mutual affection will steady them; and I
          flatter myself they will settle so quietly, and live in so rational a manner, as may in
          time make their past imprudence forgotten."</p>
        <p>"Their conduct has been such," replied Elizabeth, "as neither you, nor I, nor any body,
          can ever forget. It is useless to talk of it."</p>
        <p>It now occurred to the girls that their mother was in all likelihood perfectly ignorant
          of what had happened. They went to the library, therefore, and asked their father, whether
          he would not wish them to make it known to her. He was writing, and, without raising his
          head, coolly replied,</p>
        <p>"Just as you please."</p>
        <p>"May we take my uncle's letter to read to her?"</p>
        <p>"Take whatever you like, and get away."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth took the letter from his writing table, and they went up stairs together. Mary
          and Kitty were both with Mrs. Bennet: one communication would, therefore, do for all.
          After a slight preparation for good news, the letter was read aloud. Mrs. Bennet could
          hardly contain herself. As soon as Jane had read Mr. Gardiner's hope of Lydia's being soon
          married, her joy burst forth, and every following sentence added to its exuberance. She
          was now in an irritation as violent from delight, as she had ever been fidgetty from alarm
          and vexation. To know that her daughter would be married was enough. She was disturbed by
          no fear for her felicity, nor humbled by any remembrance of her misconduct.</p>
        <p>"My dear, dear Lydia!" she cried: "This is delightful indeed!--She will be married!--I
          shall see her again!--She will be married at sixteen!--My good, kind brother!--I knew how
          it would be--I knew he would manage every thing. How I long to see her! and to see dear
          Wickham too! But the clothes, the wedding clothes! I will write to my sister Gardiner
          about them directly. Lizzy, my dear, run down to your father, and ask him how much he will
          give her. Stay, stay, I will go myself. Ring the bell, Kitty, for Hill. I will put on my
          things in a moment. My dear, dear Lydia!--How merry we shall be together when we
          meet!"</p>
        <p>Her eldest daughter endeavoured to give some relief to the violence of these transports,
          by leading her thoughts to the obligations which Mr. Gardiner's behaviour laid them all
          under.</p>
        <p>"For we must attribute this happy conclusion," she added, "in a great measure, to his
          kindness. We are persuaded that he has pledged himself to assist Mr. Wickham with
          money."</p>
        <p>"Well," cried her mother, "it is all very right; who should do it but her own uncle? If
          he had not had a family of his own, I and my children must have had all his money you
          know, and it is the first time we have ever had any thing from him, except a few presents.
          Well! I am so happy. In a short time, I shall have a daughter married. Mrs. Wickham! How
          well it sounds. And she was only sixteen last June. My dear Jane, I am in such a flutter,
          that I am sure I can't write; so I will dictate, and you write for me. We will settle with
          your father about the money afterwards; but the things should be ordered immediately."</p>
        <p>She was then proceeding to all the particulars of calico, muslin, and cambric, and would
          shortly have dictated some very plentiful orders, had not Jane, though with some
          difficulty, persuaded her to wait, till her father was at leisure to be consulted. One
          day's delay she observed, would be of small importance; and her mother was too happy, to
          be quite so obstinate as usual. Other schemes too came into her head.</p>
        <p>"I will go to Meryton," said she, "as soon as I am dressed, and tell the good, good news
          to my sister Philips. And as I come back, I can call on Lady Lucas and Mrs. Long. Kitty,
          run down and order the carriage. An airing would do me a great deal of good, I am sure.
          Girls, can I do any thing for you in Meryton? Oh! here comes Hill. My dear Hill, have you
          heard the good news? Miss Lydia is going to be married; and you shall all have a bowl of
          punch, to make merry at her wedding."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Hill began instantly to express her joy. Elizabeth received her congratulations
          amongst the rest, and then, sick of this folly, took refuge in her own room, that she
          might think with freedom.</p>
        <p>Poor Lydia's situation must, at best, be bad enough; but that it was no worse, she had
          need to be thankful. She felt it so; and though, in looking forward, neither rational
          happiness nor worldly prosperity, could be justly expected for her sister; in looking back
          to what they had feared, only two hours ago, she felt all the advantages of what they had
          gained.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER VIII.</head>
        <p> Mr. Bennet had very often wished, before this period of his life, that, instead of
          spending his whole income, he had laid by an annual sum, for the better provision of his
          children, and of his wife, if she survived him. He now wished it more than ever. Had he
          done his duty in that respect, Lydia need not have been indebted to her uncle, for
          whatever of honour or credit could now be purchased for her. The satisfaction of
          prevailing on one of the most worthless young men in Great Britain to be her husband,
          might then have rested in its proper place.</p>
        <p>He was seriously concerned, that a cause of so little advantage to any one, should be
          forwarded at the sole expence of his brother-in-law, and he was determined, if possible,
          to find out the extent of his assistance, and to discharge the obligation as soon as he
          could.</p>
        <p>When first Mr. Bennet had married, economy was held to be perfectly useless; for, of
          course, they were to have a son. This son was to join in cutting off the entail, as soon
          as he should be of age, and the widow and younger children would by that means be provided
          for. Five daughters successively entered the world, but yet the son was to come; and Mrs.
          Bennet, for many years after Lydia's birth, had been certain that he would. This event had
          at last been despaired of, but it was then too late to be saving. Mrs. Bennet had no turn
          for economy, and her husband's love of independence had alone prevented their exceeding
          their income.</p>
        <p>Five thousand pounds was settled by marriage articles on Mrs. Bennet and the children.
          But in what proportions it should be divided amongst the latter, depended on the will of
          the parents. This was one point, with regard to Lydia at least, which was now to be
          settled, and Mr. Bennet could have no hesitation in acceding to the proposal before him.
          In terms of grateful acknowledgment for the kindness of his brother, though expressed most
          concisely, he then delivered on paper his perfect approbation of all that was done, and
          his willingness to fulfil the engagements that had been made for him. He had never before
          supposed that, could Wickham be prevailed on to marry his daughter, it would be done with
          so little inconvenience to himself, as by the present arrangement. He would scarcely be
          ten pounds a-year the loser, by the hundred that was to be paid them; for, what with her
          board and pocket allowance, and the continual presents in money, which passed to her,
          through her mother's hands, Lydia's expences had been very little within that sum.</p>
        <p>That it would be done with such trifling exertion on his side, too, was another very
          welcome surprise; for his chief wish at present, was to have as little trouble in the
          business as possible. When the first transports of rage which had produced his activity in
          seeking her were over, he naturally returned to all his former indolence. His letter was
          soon dispatched; for though dilatory in undertaking business, he was quick in its
          execution. He begged to know farther particulars of what he was indebted to his brother;
          but was too angry with Lydia, to send any message to her.</p>
        <p>The good news quickly spread through the house; and with proportionate speed through the
          neighbourhood. It was borne in the latter with decent philosophy. To be sure it would have
          been more for the advantage of conversation, had Miss Lydia Bennet come upon the town; or,
          as the happiest alternative, been secluded from the world, in some distant farm house. But
          there was much to be talked of, in marrying her; and the good-natured wishes for her
          well-doing, which had proceeded before, from all the spiteful old ladies in Meryton, lost
          but little of their spirit in this change of circumstances, because with such an husband,
          her misery was considered certain.</p>
        <p>It was a fortnight since Mrs. Bennet had been down stairs, but on this happy day, she
          again took her seat at the head of her table, and in spirits oppressively high. No
          sentiment of shame gave a damp to her triumph. The marriage of a daughter, which had been
          the first object of her wishes, since Jane was sixteen, was now on the point of
          accomplishment, and her thoughts and her words ran wholly on those attendants of elegant
          nuptials, fine muslins, new carriages, and servants. She was busily searching through the
          neighbourhood for a proper situation for her daughter, and, without knowing or considering
          what their income might be, rejected many as deficient in size and importance.</p>
        <p>"Haye-Park might do," said she, "if the Gouldings would quit it, or the great house at
          Stoke, if the drawing-room were larger; but Ashworth is too far off! I could not bear to
          have her ten miles from me; and as for Purvis Lodge, the attics are dreadful."</p>
        <p>Her husband allowed her to talk on without interruption, while the servants remained. But
          when they had withdrawn, he said to her, "Mrs. Bennet, before you take any, or all of
          these houses, for your son and daughter, let us come to a right understanding. Into <hi rend="italic">one</hi> house in this neighbourhood, they shall never have admittance. I
          will not encourage the impudence of either, by receiving them at Longbourn."</p>
        <p>A long dispute followed this declaration; but Mr. Bennet was firm: it soon led to
          another; and Mrs. Bennet found, with amazement and horror, that her husband would not
          advance a guinea to buy clothes for his daughter. He protested that she should receive
          from him no mark of affection whatever, on the occasion. Mrs. Bennet could hardly
          comprehend it. That his anger could be carried to such a point of inconceivable
          resentment, as to refuse his daughter a privilege, without which her marriage would
          scarcely seem valid, exceeded all that she could believe possible. She was more alive to
          the disgrace, which the want of new clothes must reflect on her daughter's nuptials, than
          to any sense of shame at her eloping and living with Wickham, a fortnight before they took
          place.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was now most heartily sorry that she had, from the distress of the moment, been
          led to make Mr. Darcy acquainted with their fears for her sister; for since her marriage
          would so shortly give the proper termination to the elopement, they might hope to conceal
          its unfavourable beginning, from all those who were not immediately on the spot.</p>
        <p>She had no fear of its spreading farther, through his means. There were few people on
          whose secrecy she would have more confidently depended; but at the same time, there was no
          one, whose knowledge of a sister's frailty would have mortified her so much. Not, however,
          from any fear of disadvantage from it, individually to herself; for at any rate, there
          seemed a gulf impassable between them. Had Lydia's marriage been concluded on the most
          honourable terms, it was not to be supposed that Mr. Darcy would connect himself with a
          family, where to every other objection would now be added, an alliance and relationship of
          the nearest kind with the man whom he so justly scorned.</p>
        <p>From such a connection she could not wonder that he should shrink. The wish of procuring
          her regard, which she had assured herself of his feeling in Derbyshire, could not in
          rational expectation survive such a blow as this. She was humbled, she was grieved; she
          repented, though she hardly knew of what. She became jealous of his esteem, when she could
          no longer hope to be benefited by it. She wanted to hear of him, when there seemed the
          least chance of gaining intelligence. She was convinced that she could have been happy
          with him; when it was no longer likely they should meet.</p>
        <p>What a triumph for him, as she often thought, could he know that the proposals which she
          had proudly spurned only four months ago, would now have been gladly and gratefully
          received! He was as generous, she doubted not, as the most generous of his sex. But while
          he was mortal, there must be a triumph.</p>
        <p>She began now to comprehend that he was exactly the man, who, in disposition and talents,
          would most suit her. His understanding and temper, though unlike her own, would have
          answered all her wishes. It was an union that must have been to the advantage of both; by
          her ease and liveliness, his mind might have been softened, his manners improved, and from
          his judgment, information, and knowledge of the world, she must have received benefit of
          greater importance.</p>
        <p>But no such happy marriage could now teach the admiring multitude what connubial felicity
          really was. An union of a different tendency, and precluding the possibility of the other,
          was soon to be formed in their family.</p>
        <p>How Wickham and Lydia were to be supported in tolerable independence, she could not
          imagine. But how little of permanent happiness could belong to a couple who were only
          brought together because their passions were stronger than their virtue, she could easily
          conjecture.</p>
        <p> * * * * *</p>
        <p>Mr. Gardiner soon wrote again to his brother. To Mr. Bennet's acknowledgments he briefly
          replied, with assurances of his eagerness to promote the welfare of any of his family; and
          concluded with intreaties that the subject might never be mentioned to him again. The
          principal purport of his letter was to inform them, that Mr. Wickham had resolved on
          quitting the Militia.</p>
        <p> "It was greatly my wish that he should do so," he added, "as soon as his marriage was
          fixed on. And I think you will agree with me, in considering a removal from that corps as
          highly advisable, both on his account and my niece's. It is Mr. Wickham's intention to go
          into the regulars; and, among his former friends, there are still some who are able and
          willing to assist him in the army. He has the promise of an ensigncy in General ----'s
          regiment, now quartered in the North. It is an advantage to have it so far from this part
          of the kingdom. He promises fairly, and I hope among different people, where they may each
          have a character to preserve, they will both be more prudent. I have written to Colonel
          Forster, to inform him of our present arrangements, and to request that he will satisfy
          the various creditors of Mr. Wickham in and near Brighton, with assurances of speedy
          payment, for which I have pledged myself. And will you give yourself the trouble of
          carrying similar assurances to his creditors in Meryton, of whom I shall subjoin a list,
          according to his information. He has given in all his debts; I hope at least he has not
          deceived us. Haggerston has our directions, and all will be completed in a week. They will
          then join his regiment, unless they are first invited to Longbourn; and I understand from
          Mrs. Gardiner, that my niece is very desirous of seeing you all, before she leaves the
          South. She is well, and begs to be dutifully remembered to you and her mother.--Your's,
          &amp;c.</p>
        <p> "E. GARDINER."</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet and his daughters saw all the advantages of Wickham's removal from the
          ----shire, as clearly as Mr. Gardiner could do. But Mrs. Bennet, was not so well pleased
          with it. Lydia's being settled in the North, just when she had expected most pleasure and
          pride in her company, for she had by no means given up her plan of their residing in
          Hertfordshire, was a severe disappointment; and besides, it was such a pity that Lydia
          should be taken from a regiment where she was acquainted with every body, and had so many
          favourites.</p>
        <p>"She is so fond of Mrs. Forster," said she, "it will be quite shocking to send her away!
          And there are several of the young men, too, that she likes very much. The officers may
          not be so pleasant in General ----'s regiment."</p>
        <p>His daughter's request, for such it might be considered, of being admitted into her
          family again, before she set off for the North, received at first an absolute negative.
          But Jane and Elizabeth, who agreed in wishing, for the sake of their sister's feelings and
          consequence, that she should be noticed on her marriage by her parents, urged him so
          earnestly, yet so rationally and so mildly, to receive her and her husband at Longbourn,
          as soon as they were married, that he was prevailed on to think as they thought, and act
          as they wished. And their mother had the satisfaction of knowing, that she should be able
          to shew her married daughter in the neighbourhood, before she was banished to the North.
          When Mr. Bennet wrote again to his brother, therefore, he sent his permission for them to
          come; and it was settled, that as soon as the ceremony was over, they should proceed to
          Longbourn. Elizabeth was surprised, however, that Wickham should consent to such a scheme,
          and, had she consulted only her own inclination, any meeting with him would have been the
          last object of her wishes.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER IX.</head>
        <p> Their sister's wedding day arrived; and Jane and Elizabeth felt for her probably more
          than she felt for herself. The carriage was sent to meet them at ----, and they were to
          return in it, by dinner-time. Their arrival was dreaded by the elder Miss Bennets; and
          Jane more especially, who gave Lydia the feelings which would have attended herself, had
            <hi rend="italic">she</hi> been the culprit, was wretched in the thought of what her
          sister must endure.</p>
        <p>They came. The family were assembled in the breakfast room, to receive them. Smiles
          decked the face of Mrs. Bennet, as the carriage drove up to the door; her husband looked
          impenetrably grave; her daughters, alarmed, anxious, uneasy.</p>
        <p>Lydia's voice was heard in the vestibule; the door was thrown open, and she ran into the
          room. Her mother stepped forwards, embraced her, and welcomed her with rapture; gave her
          hand with an affectionate smile to Wickham, who followed his lady, and wished them both
          joy, with an alacrity which shewed no doubt of their happiness.</p>
        <p>Their reception from Mr. Bennet, to whom they then turned, was not quite so cordial. His
          countenance rather gained in austerity; and he scarcely opened his lips. The easy
          assurance of the young couple, indeed, was enough to provoke him. Elizabeth was disgusted,
          and even Miss Bennet was shocked. Lydia was Lydia still; untamed, unabashed, wild, noisy,
          and fearless. She turned from sister to sister, demanding their congratulations, and when
          at length they all sat down, looked eagerly round the room, took notice of some little
          alteration in it, and observed, with a laugh, that it was a great while since she had been
          there.</p>
        <p>Wickham was not at all more distressed than herself, but his manners were always so
          pleasing, that had his character and his marriage been exactly what they ought, his smiles
          and his easy address, while he claimed their relationship, would have delighted them all.
          Elizabeth had not before believed him quite equal to such assurance; but she sat down,
          resolving within herself, to draw no limits in future to the impudence of an impudent man.
            <hi rend="italic">She</hi> blushed, and Jane blushed; but the cheeks of the two who
          caused their confusion, suffered no variation of colour.</p>
        <p>There was no want of discourse. The bride and her mother could neither of them talk fast
          enough; and Wickham, who happened to sit near Elizabeth, began enquiring after his
          acquaintance in that neighbourhood, with a good humoured ease, which she felt very unable
          to equal in her replies. They seemed each of them to have the happiest memories in the
          world. Nothing of the past was recollected with pain; and Lydia led voluntarily to
          subjects, which her sisters would not have alluded to for the world.</p>
        <p>"Only think of its being three months," she cried, "since I went away; it seems but a
          fortnight I declare; and yet there have been things enough happened in the time. Good
          gracious! when I went away, I am sure I had no more idea of being married till I came back
          again! though I thought it would be very good fun if I was."</p>
        <p>Her father lifted up his eyes. Jane was distressed. Elizabeth looked expressively at
          Lydia; but she, who never heard nor saw any thing of which she chose to be insensible,
          gaily continued, "Oh! mamma, do the people here abouts know I am married to-day? I was
          afraid they might not; and we overtook William Goulding in his curricle, so I was
          determined he should know it, and so I let down the side glass next to him, and took off
          my glove, and let my hand just rest upon the window frame, so that he might see the ring,
          and then I bowed and smiled like any thing."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could bear it no longer. She got up, and ran out of the room; and returned no
          more, till she heard them passing through the hall to the dining-parlour. She then joined
          them soon enough to see Lydia, with anxious parade, walk up to her mother's right hand,
          and hear her say to her eldest sister, "Ah! Jane, I take your place now, and you must go
          lower, because I am a married woman."</p>
        <p>It was not to be supposed that time would give Lydia that embarrassment, from which she
          had been so wholly free at first. Her ease and good spirits increased. She longed to see
          Mrs. Philips, the Lucases, and all their other neighbours, and to hear herself called
          "Mrs. Wickham," by each of them; and in the mean time, she went after dinner to shew her
          ring and boast of being married, to Mrs. Hill and the two housemaids.</p>
        <p>"Well, mamma," said she, when they were all returned to the breakfast room, "and what do
          you think of my husband? Is not he a charming man? I am sure my sisters must all envy me.
          I only hope they may have half my good luck. They must all go to Brighton. That is the
          place to get husbands. What a pity it is, mamma, we did not all go."</p>
        <p>"Very true; and if I had my will, we should. But my dear Lydia, I don't at all like your
          going such a way off. Must it be so?"</p>
        <p>"Oh, lord! yes;--there is nothing in that. I shall like it of all things. You and papa,
          and my sisters, must come down and see us. We shall be at Newcastle all the winter, and I
          dare say there will be some balls, and I will take care to get good partners for them
          all."</p>
        <p>"I should like it beyond any thing!" said her mother.</p>
        <p>"And then when you go away, you may leave one or two of my sisters behind you; and I dare
          say I shall get husbands for them before the winter is over."</p>
        <p>"I thank you for my share of the favour," said Elizabeth; "but I do not particularly like
          your way of getting husbands."</p>
        <p>Their visitors were not to remain above ten days with them. Mr. Wickham had received his
          commission before he left London, and he was to join his regiment at the end of a
          fortnight.</p>
        <p>No one but Mrs. Bennet, regretted that their stay would be so short; and she made the
          most of the time, by visiting about with her daughter, and having very frequent parties at
          home. These parties were acceptable to all; to avoid a family circle was even more
          desirable to such as did think, than such as did not.</p>
        <p>Wickham's affection for Lydia, was just what Elizabeth had expected to find it; not equal
          to Lydia's for him. She had scarcely needed her present observation to be satisfied, from
          the reason of things, that their elopement had been brought on by the strength of her
          love, rather than by his; and she would have wondered why, without violently caring for
          her, he chose to elope with her at all, had she not felt certain that his flight was
          rendered necessary by distress of circumstances; and if that were the case, he was not the
          young man to resist an opportunity of having a companion.</p>
        <p>Lydia was exceedingly fond of him. He was her dear Wickham on every occasion; no one was
          to be put in competition with him. He did every thing best in the world; and she was sure
          he would kill more birds on the first of September, than any body else in the country.</p>
        <p>One morning, soon after their arrival, as she was sitting with her two elder sisters, she
          said to Elizabeth,</p>
        <p>"Lizzy, I never gave <hi rend="italic">you</hi> an account of my wedding, I believe. You
          were not by, when I told mamma, and the others, all about it. Are not you curious to hear
          how it was managed?"</p>
        <p>"No really," replied Elizabeth; "I think there cannot be too little said on the
          subject."</p>
        <p>"La! You are so strange! But I must tell you how it went off. We were married, you know,
          at St. Clement's, because Wickham's lodgings were in that parish. And it was settled that
          we should all be there by eleven o'clock. My uncle and aunt and I were to go together; and
          the others were to meet us at the church. Well, Monday morning came, and I was in such a
          fuss! I was so afraid you know that something would happen to put it off, and then I
          should have gone quite distracted. And there was my aunt, all the time I was dressing,
          preaching and talking away just as if she was reading a sermon. However, I did not hear
          above one word in ten, for I was thinking, you may suppose, of my dear Wickham. I longed
          to know whether he would be married in his blue coat.</p>
        <p>"Well, and so we breakfasted at ten as usual; I thought it would never be over; for, by
          the bye, you are to understand, that my uncle and aunt were horrid unpleasant all the time
          I was with them. If you'll believe me, I did not once put my foot out of doors, though I
          was there a fortnight. Not one party, or scheme, or any thing. To be sure London was
          rather thin, but however the little Theatre was open. Well, and so just as the carriage
          came to the door, my uncle was called away upon business to that horrid man Mr. Stone. And
          then, you know, when once they get together, there is no end of it. Well, I was so
          frightened I did not know what to do, for my uncle was to give me away; and if we were
          beyond the hour, we could not be married all day. But, luckily, he came back again in ten
          minutes time, and then we all set out. However, I recollected afterwards, that if he <hi rend="italic">had</hi> been prevented going, the wedding need not be put off, for Mr.
          Darcy might have done as well."</p>
        <p>"Mr. Darcy!" repeated Elizabeth, in utter amazement.</p>
        <p>"Oh, yes!--he was to come there with Wickham, you know. But gracious me! I quite forgot!
          I ought not to have said a word about it. I promised them so faithfully! What will Wickham
          say? It was to be such a secret!"</p>
        <p>"If it was to be secret," said Jane, "say not another word on the subject. You may depend
          upon my seeking no further."</p>
        <p>"Oh! certainly," said Elizabeth, though burning with curiosity; "we will ask you no
          questions."</p>
        <p>"Thank you," said Lydia, "for if you did, I should certainly tell you all, and then
          Wickham would be angry."</p>
        <p>On such encouragement to ask, Elizabeth was forced to put it out of her power, by running
          away.</p>
        <p>But to live in ignorance on such a point was impossible; or at least it was impossible
          not to try for information. Mr. Darcy had been at her sister's wedding. It was exactly a
          scene, and exactly among people, where he had apparently least to do, and least temptation
          to go. Conjectures as to the meaning of it, rapid and wild, hurried into her brain; but
          she was satisfied with none. Those that best pleased her, as placing his conduct in the
          noblest light, seemed most improbable. She could not bear such suspense; and hastily
          seizing a sheet of paper, wrote a short letter to her aunt, to request an explanation of
          what Lydia had dropt, if it were compatible with the secrecy which had been intended.</p>
        <p>"You may readily comprehend," she added, "what my curiosity must be to know how a person
          unconnected with any of us, and (comparatively speaking) a stranger to our family, should
          have been amongst you at such a time. Pray write instantly, and let me understand
          it--unless it is, for very cogent reasons, to remain in the secrecy which Lydia seems to
          think necessary; and then I must endeavour to be satisfied with ignorance."</p>
        <p>"Not that I <hi rend="italic">shall</hi> though," she added to herself, as she finished
          the letter; "and my dear aunt, if you do not tell me in an honourable manner, I shall
          certainly be reduced to tricks and stratagems to find it out."</p>
        <p>Jane's delicate sense of honour would not allow her to speak to Elizabeth privately of
          what Lydia had let fall; Elizabeth was glad of it;--till it appeared whether her inquiries
          would receive any satisfaction, she had rather be without a confidante.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER X.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth had the satisfaction of receiving an answer to her letter, as soon as she
          possibly could. She was no sooner in possession of it, than hurrying into the little
          copse, where she was least likely to be interrupted, she sat down on one of the benches,
          and prepared to be happy; for the length of the letter convinced her that it did not
          contain a denial.</p>
        <p> "Gracechurch-street, Sept. 6.</p>
        <p> "MY DEAR NIECE,</p>
        <p> "I have just received your letter, and shall devote this whole morning to answering it,
          as I foresee that a <hi rend="italic">little</hi> writing will not comprise what I have to
          tell you. I must confess myself surprised by your application; I did not expect it from
            <hi rend="italic">you</hi>. Don't think me angry, however, for I only mean to let you
          know, that I had not imagined such enquiries to be necessary on <hi rend="italic">your</hi> side. If you do not choose to understand me, forgive my impertinence. Your
          uncle is as much surprised as I am--and nothing but the belief of your being a party
          concerned, would have allowed him to act as he has done. But if you are really innocent
          and ignorant, I must be more explicit. On the very day of my coming home from Longbourn,
          your uncle had a most unexpected visitor. Mr. Darcy called, and was shut up with him
          several hours. It was all over before I arrived; so my curiosity was not so dreadfully
          racked as <hi rend="italic">your's</hi> seems to have been. He came to tell Mr. Gardiner
          that he had found out where your sister and Mr. Wickham were, and that he had seen and
          talked with them both, Wickham repeatedly, Lydia once. From what I can collect, he left
          Derbyshire only one day after ourselves, and came to town with the resolution of hunting
          for them. The motive professed, was his conviction of its being owing to himself that
          Wickham's worthlessness had not been so well known, as to make it impossible for any young
          woman of character, to love or confide in him. He generously imputed the whole to his
          mistaken pride, and confessed that he had before thought it beneath him, to lay his
          private actions open to the world. His character was to speak for itself. He called it,
          therefore, his duty to step forward, and endeavour to remedy an evil, which had been
          brought on by himself. If he <hi rend="italic">had another</hi> motive, I am sure it would
          never disgrace him. He had been some days in town, before he was able to discover them;
          but he had something to direct his search, which was more than <hi rend="italic">we</hi>
          had; and the consciousness of this, was another reason for his resolving to follow us.
          There is a lady, it seems, a Mrs. Younge, who was some time ago governess to Miss Darcy,
          and was dismissed from her charge on some cause of disapprobation, though he did not say
          what. She then took a large house in Edward-street, and has since maintained herself by
          letting lodgings. This Mrs. Younge was, he knew, intimately acquainted with Wickham; and
          he went to her for intelligence of him, as soon as he got to town. But it was two or three
          days before he could get from her what he wanted. She would not betray her trust, I
          suppose, without bribery and corruption, for she really did know where her friend was to
          be found. Wickham indeed had gone to her, on their first arrival in London, and had she
          been able to receive them into her house, they would have taken up their abode with her.
          At length, however, our kind friend procured the wished-for direction. They were in ----
          street. He saw Wickham, and afterwards insisted on seeing Lydia. His first object with
          her, he acknowledged, had been to persuade her to quit her present disgraceful situation,
          and return to her friends as soon as they could be prevailed on to receive her, offering
          his assistance, as far as it would go. But he found Lydia absolutely resolved on remaining
          where she was. She cared for none of her friends, she wanted no help of his, she would not
          hear of leaving Wickham. She was sure they should be married some time or other, and it
          did not much signify when. Since such were her feelings, it only remained, he thought, to
          secure and expedite a marriage, which, in his very first conversation with Wickham, he
          easily learnt, had never been <hi rend="italic">his</hi> design. He confessed himself
          obliged to leave the regiment, on account of some debts of honour, which were very
          pressing; and scrupled not to lay all the ill-consequences of Lydia's flight, on her own
          folly alone. He meant to resign his commission immediately; and as to his future
          situation, he could conjecture very little about it. He must go somewhere, but he did not
          know where, and he knew he should have nothing to live on. Mr. Darcy asked him why he had
          not married your sister at once. Though Mr. Bennet was not imagined to be very rich, he
          would have been able to do something for him, and his situation must have been benefited
          by marriage. But he found, in reply to this question, that Wickham still cherished the
          hope of more effectually making his fortune by marriage, in some other country. Under such
          circumstances, however, he was not likely to be proof against the temptation of immediate
          relief. They met several times, for there was much to be discussed. Wickham of course
          wanted more than he could get; but at length was reduced to be reasonable. Every thing
          being settled between <hi rend="italic">them</hi>, Mr. Darcy's next step was to make your
          uncle acquainted with it, and he first called in Gracechurch-street the evening before I
          came home. But Mr. Gardiner could not be seen, and Mr. Darcy found, on further enquiry,
          that your father was still with him, but would quit town the next morning. He did not
          judge your father to be a person whom he could so properly consult as your uncle, and
          therefore readily postponed seeing him, till after the departure of the former. He did not
          leave his name, and till the next day, it was only known that a gentleman had called on
          business. On Saturday he came again. Your father was gone, your uncle at home, and, as I
          said before, they had a great deal of talk together. They met again on Sunday, and then
            <hi rend="italic">I</hi> saw him too. It was not all settled before Monday: as soon as
          it was, the express was sent off to Longbourn. But our visitor was very obstinate. I
          fancy, Lizzy, that obstinacy is the real defect of his character after all. He has been
          accused of many faults at different times; but <hi rend="italic">this</hi> is the true
          one. Nothing was to be done that he did not do himself; though I am sure (and I do not
          speak it to be thanked, therefore say nothing about it,) your uncle would most readily
          have settled the whole. They battled it together for a long time, which was more than
          either the gentleman or lady concerned in it deserved. But at last your uncle was forced
          to yield, and instead of being allowed to be of use to his niece, was forced to put up
          with only having the probable credit of it, which went sorely against the grain; and I
          really believe your letter this morning gave him great pleasure, because it required an
          explanation that would rob him of his borrowed feathers, and give the praise where it was
          due. But, Lizzy, this must go no farther than yourself, or Jane at most. You know pretty
          well, I suppose, what has been done for the young people. His debts are to be paid,
          amounting, I believe, to considerably more than a thousand pounds, another thousand in
          addition to her own settled upon <hi rend="italic">her</hi>, and his commission purchased.
          The reason why all this was to be done by him alone, was such as I have given above. It
          was owing to him, to his reserve, and want of proper consideration, that Wickham's
          character had been so misunderstood, and consequently that he had been received and
          noticed as he was. Perhaps there was some truth in <hi rend="italic">this</hi>; though I
          doubt whether <hi rend="italic">his</hi> reserve, or <hi rend="italic">anybody's</hi>
          reserve, can be answerable for the event. But in spite of all this fine talking, my dear
          Lizzy, you may rest perfectly assured, that your uncle would never have yielded, if we had
          not given him credit for <hi rend="italic">another interest</hi> in the affair. When all
          this was resolved on, he returned again to his friends, who were still staying at
          Pemberley; but it was agreed that he should be in London once more when the wedding took
          place, and all money matters were then to receive the last finish. I believe I have now
          told you every thing. It is a relation which you tell me is to give you great surprise; I
          hope at least it will not afford you any displeasure. Lydia came to us; and Wickham had
          constant admission to the house. <hi rend="italic">He</hi> was exactly what he had been,
          when I knew him in Hertfordshire; but I would not tell you how little I was satisfied with
            <hi rend="italic">her</hi> behaviour while she staid with us, if I had not perceived, by
          Jane's letter last Wednesday, that her conduct on coming home was exactly of a piece with
          it, and therefore what I now tell you, can give you no fresh pain. I talked to her
          repeatedly in the most serious manner, representing to her all the wickedness of what she
          had done, and all the unhappiness she had brought on her family. If she heard me, it was
          by good luck, for I am sure she did not listen. I was sometimes quite provoked, but then I
          recollected my dear Elizabeth and Jane, and for their sakes had patience with her. Mr.
          Darcy was punctual in his return, and as Lydia informed you, attended the wedding. He
          dined with us the next day, and was to leave town again on Wednesday or Thursday. Will you
          be very angry with me, my dear Lizzy, if I take this opportunity of saying (what I was
          never bold enough to say before) how much I like him. His behaviour to us has, in every
          respect, been as pleasing as when we were in Derbyshire. His understanding and opinions
          all please me; he wants nothing but a little more liveliness, and <hi rend="italic">that</hi>, if he marry <hi rend="italic">prudently</hi>, his wife may teach him. I
          thought him very sly;--he hardly ever mentioned your name. But slyness seems the fashion.
          Pray forgive me, if I have been very presuming, or at least do not punish me so far, as to
          exclude me from P. I shall never be quite happy till I have been all round the park. A low
          phaeton, with a nice little pair of ponies, would be the very thing. But I must write no
          more. The children have been wanting me this half hour. Your's, very sincerely,</p>
        <p> "M. GARDINER."</p>
        <p>The contents of this letter threw Elizabeth into a flutter of spirits, in which it was
          difficult to determine whether pleasure or pain bore the greatest share. The vague and
          unsettled suspicions which uncertainty had produced of what Mr. Darcy might have been
          doing to forward her sister's match, which she had feared to encourage, as an exertion of
          goodness too great to be probable, and at the same time dreaded to be just, from the pain
          of obligation, were proved beyond their greatest extent to be true! He had followed them
          purposely to town, he had taken on himself all the trouble and mortification attendant on
          such a research; in which supplication had been necessary to a woman whom he must
          abominate and despise, and where he was reduced to meet, frequently meet, reason with,
          persuade, and finally bribe, the man whom he always most wished to avoid, and whose very
          name it was punishment to him to pronounce. He had done all this for a girl whom he could
          neither regard nor esteem. Her heart did whisper, that he had done it for her. But it was
          a hope shortly checked by other considerations, and she soon felt that even her vanity was
          insufficient, when required to depend on his affection for her, for a woman who had
          already refused him, as able to overcome a sentiment so natural as abhorrence against
          relationship with Wickham. Brother-in-law of Wickham! Every kind of pride must revolt from
          the connection. He had to be sure done much. She was ashamed to think how much. But he had
          given a reason for his interference, which asked no extraordinary stretch of belief. It
          was reasonable that he should feel he had been wrong; he had liberality, and he had the
          means of exercising it; and though she would not place herself as his principal
          inducement, she could, perhaps, believe, that remaining partiality for her, might assist
          his endeavours in a cause where her peace of mind must be materially concerned. It was
          painful, exceedingly painful, to know that they were under obligations to a person who
          could never receive a return. They owed the restoration of Lydia, her character, every
          thing to him. Oh! how heartily did she grieve over every ungracious sensation she had ever
          encouraged, every saucy speech she had ever directed towards him. For herself she was
          humbled; but she was proud of him. Proud that in a cause of compassion and honour, he had
          been able to get the better of himself. She read over her aunt's commendation of him again
          and again. It was hardly enough; but it pleased her. She was even sensible of some
          pleasure, though mixed with regret, on finding how steadfastly both she and her uncle had
          been persuaded that affection and confidence subsisted between Mr. Darcy and herself.</p>
        <p>She was roused from her seat, and her reflections, by some one's approach; and before she
          could strike into another path, she was overtaken by Wickham.</p>
        <p>"I am afraid I interrupt your solitary ramble, my dear sister?" said he, as he joined
          her.</p>
        <p>"You certainly do," she replied with a smile; "but it does not follow that the
          interruption must be unwelcome."</p>
        <p>"I should be sorry indeed, if it were. <hi rend="italic">we</hi> were always good
          friends; and now we are better."</p>
        <p>"True. Are the others coming out?"</p>
        <p>"I do not know. Mrs. Bennet and Lydia are going in the carriage to Meryton. And so, my
          dear sister, I find from our uncle and aunt, that you have actually seen Pemberley."</p>
        <p>She replied in the affirmative.</p>
        <p>"I almost envy you the pleasure, and yet I believe it would be too much for me, or else I
          could take it in my way to Newcastle. And you saw the old housekeeper, I suppose? Poor
          Reynolds, she was always very fond of me. But of course she did not mention my name to
          you."</p>
        <p>"Yes, she did."</p>
        <p>"And what did she say?"</p>
        <p>"That you were gone into the army, and she was afraid had--not turned out well. At such a
          distance as <hi rend="italic">that</hi>, you know, things are strangely
          misrepresented."</p>
        <p>"Certainly," he replied, biting his lips. Elizabeth hoped she had silenced him; but he
          soon afterwards said,</p>
        <p>"I was surprised to see Darcy in town last month. We passed each other several times. I
          wonder what he can be doing there."</p>
        <p>"Perhaps preparing for his marriage with Miss de Bourgh," said Elizabeth. "It must be
          something particular, to take him there at this time of year."</p>
        <p>"Undoubtedly. Did you see him while you were at Lambton? I thought I understood from the
          Gardiners that you had."</p>
        <p>"Yes; he introduced us to his sister."</p>
        <p>"And do you like her?"</p>
        <p>"Very much."</p>
        <p>"I have heard, indeed, that she is uncommonly improved within this year or two. When I
          last saw her, she was not very promising. I am very glad you liked her. I hope she will
          turn out well."</p>
        <p>"I dare say she will; she has got over the most trying age."</p>
        <p>"Did you go by the village of Kympton?"</p>
        <p>"I do not recollect that we did."</p>
        <p>"I mention it, because it is the living which I ought to have had. A most delightful
          place!--Excellent Parsonage House! It would have suited me in every respect."</p>
        <p>"How should you have liked making sermons?"</p>
        <p>"Exceedingly well. I should have considered it as part of my duty, and the exertion would
          soon have been nothing. One ought not to repine;--but, to be sure, it would have been such
          a thing for me! The quiet, the retirement of such a life, would have answered all my ideas
          of happiness! But it was not to be. Did you ever hear Darcy mention the circumstance, when
          you were in Kent?"</p>
        <p>"I <hi rend="italic">have</hi> heard from authority, which I thought <hi rend="italic">as
            good</hi>, that it was left you conditionally only, and at the will of the present
          patron."</p>
        <p>"You have. Yes, there was something in <hi rend="italic">that</hi>; I told you so from
          the first, you may remember."</p>
        <p>"I <hi rend="italic">did</hi> hear, too, that there was a time, when sermon-making was
          not so palatable to you as it seems to be at present; that you actually declared your
          resolution of never taking orders, and that the business had been compromised
          accordingly."</p>
        <p>"You did! and it was not wholly without foundation. You may remember what I told you on
          that point, when first we talked of it."</p>
        <p>They were now almost at the door of the house, for she had walked fast to get rid of him;
          and unwilling for her sister's sake, to provoke him, she only said in reply, with a
          good-humoured smile,</p>
        <p>"Come, Mr. Wickham, we are brother and sister, you know. Do not let us quarrel about the
          past. In future, I hope we shall be always of one mind."</p>
        <p>She held out her hand; he kissed it with affectionate gallantry, though he hardly knew
          how to look, and they entered the house.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XI.</head>
        <p> Mr. Wickham was so perfectly satisfied with this conversation, that he never again
          distressed himself, or provoked his dear sister Elizabeth, by introducing the subject of
          it; and she was pleased to find that she had said enough to keep him quiet.</p>
        <p>The day of his and Lydia's departure soon came, and Mrs. Bennet was forced to submit to a
          separation, which, as her husband by no means entered into her scheme of their all going
          to Newcastle, was likely to continue at least a twelvemonth.</p>
        <p>"Oh! my dear Lydia," she cried, "when shall we meet again?"</p>
        <p>"Oh, lord! I don't know. Not these two or three years perhaps."</p>
        <p>"Write to me very often, my dear."</p>
        <p>"As often as I can. But you know married women have never much time for writing. My
          sisters may write to <hi rend="italic">me</hi>. They will have nothing else to do."</p>
        <p>Mr. Wickham's adieus were much more affectionate than his wife's. He smiled, looked
          handsome, and said many pretty things.</p>
        <p>"He is as fine a fellow," said Mr. Bennet, as soon as they were out of the house, "as
          ever I saw. He simpers, and smirks, and makes love to us all. I am prodigiously proud of
          him. I defy even Sir William Lucas himself, to produce a more valuable son-in-law."</p>
        <p>The loss of her daughter made Mrs. Bennet very dull for several days.</p>
        <p>"I often think," said she, "that there is nothing so bad as parting with one's friends.
          One seems so forlorn without them."</p>
        <p>"This is the consequence you see, Madam, of marrying a daughter," said Elizabeth. "It
          must make you better satisfied that your other four are single."</p>
        <p>"It is no such thing. Lydia does not leave me because she is married; but only because
          her husband's regiment happens to be so far off. If that had been nearer, she would not
          have gone so soon."</p>
        <p>But the spiritless condition which this event threw her into, was shortly relieved, and
          her mind opened again to the agitation of hope, by an article of news, which then began to
          be in circulation. The housekeeper at Netherfield had received orders to prepare for the
          arrival of her master, who was coming down in a day or two, to shoot there for several
          weeks. Mrs. Bennet was quite in the fidgets. She looked at Jane, and smiled, and shook her
          head by turns.</p>
        <p>"Well, well, and so Mr. Bingley is coming down, sister," (for Mrs. Philips first brought
          her the news.) "Well, so much the better. Not that I care about it, though. He is nothing
          to us, you know, and I am sure <hi rend="italic">I</hi> never want to see him again. But,
          however, he is very welcome to come to Netherfield, if he likes it. And who knows what <hi rend="italic">may</hi> happen? But that is nothing to us. You know, sister, we agreed
          long ago never to mention a word about it. And so, is it quite certain he is coming?"</p>
        <p>"You may depend on it," replied the other, "for Mrs. Nicholls was in Meryton last night;
          I saw her passing by, and went out myself on purpose to know the truth of it; and she told
          me that it was certain true. He comes down on Thursday at the latest, very likely on
          Wednesday. She was going to the butcher's, she told me, on purpose to order in some meat
          on Wednesday, and she has got three couple of ducks, just fit to be killed."</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet had not been able to hear of his coming, without changing colour. It was many
          months since she had mentioned his name to Elizabeth; but now, as soon as they were alone
          together, she said,</p>
        <p>"I saw you look at me to-day, Lizzy, when my aunt told us of the present report; and I
          know I appeared distressed. But don't imagine it was from any silly cause. I was only
          confused for the moment, because I felt that I <hi rend="italic">should</hi> be looked at.
          I do assure you, that the news does not affect me either with pleasure or pain. I am glad
          of one thing, that he comes alone; because we shall see the less of him. Not that I am
          afraid of <hi rend="italic">myself</hi>, but I dread other people's remarks."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth did not know what to make of it. Had she not seen him in Derbyshire, she might
          have supposed him capable of coming there, with no other view than what was acknowledged;
          but she still thought him partial to Jane, and she wavered as to the greater probability
          of his coming there <hi rend="italic">with</hi> his friend's permission, or being bold
          enough to come without it.</p>
        <p>"Yet it is hard," she sometimes thought, "that this poor man cannot come to a house,
          which he has legally hired, without raising all this speculation! I <hi rend="italic">will</hi> leave him to himself."</p>
        <p>In spite of what her sister declared, and really believed to be her feelings, in the
          expectation of his arrival, Elizabeth could easily perceive that her spirits were affected
          by it. They were more disturbed, more unequal, than she had often seen them.</p>
        <p>The subject which had been so warmly canvassed between their parents, about a twelvemonth
          ago, was now brought forward again.</p>
        <p>"As soon as ever Mr. Bingley comes, my dear," said Mrs. Bennet, "you will wait on him of
          course."</p>
        <p>"No, no. You forced me into visiting him last year, and promised if I went to see him, he
          should marry one of my daughters. But it ended in nothing, and I will not be sent on a
          fool's errand again."</p>
        <p>His wife represented to him how absolutely necessary such an attention would be from all
          the neighbouring gentlemen, on his returning to Netherfield.</p>
        <p>"'Tis an etiquette I despise," said he. "If he wants our society, let him seek it. He
          knows where we live. I will not spend <hi rend="italic">my</hi> hours in running after my
          neighbours every time they go away, and come back again."</p>
        <p>"Well, all I know is, that it will be abominably rude if you do not wait on him. But,
          however, that shan't prevent my asking him to dine here, I am determined. We must have
          Mrs. Long and the Gouldings soon. That will make thirteen with ourselves, so there will be
          just room at table for him."</p>
        <p>Consoled by this resolution, she was the better able to bear her husband's incivility;
          though it was very mortifying to know that her neighbours might all see Mr. Bingley in
          consequence of it, before <hi rend="italic">they</hi> did. As the day of his arrival drew
          near,</p>
        <p>"I begin to be sorry that he comes at all," said Jane to her sister. "It would be
          nothing; I could see him with perfect indifference, but I can hardly bear to hear it thus
          perpetually talked of. My mother means well; but she does not know, no one can know how
          much I suffer from what she says. Happy shall I be, when his stay at Netherfield is
          over!"</p>
        <p>"I wish I could say any thing to comfort you," replied Elizabeth; "but it is wholly out
          of my power. You must feel it; and the usual satisfaction of preaching patience to a
          sufferer is denied me, because you have always so much."</p>
        <p>Mr. Bingley arrived. Mrs. Bennet, through the assistance of servants, contrived to have
          the earliest tidings of it, that the period of anxiety and fretfulness on her side, might
          be as long as it could. She counted the days that must intervene before their invitation
          could be sent; hopeless of seeing him before. But on the third morning after his arrival
          in Hertfordshire, she saw him from her dressing-room window, enter the paddock, and ride
          towards the house.</p>
        <p>Her daughters were eagerly called to partake of her joy. Jane resolutely kept her place
          at the table; but Elizabeth, to satisfy her mother, went to the window--she looked,--she
          saw Mr. Darcy with him, and sat down again by her sister.</p>
        <p>"There is a gentleman with him, mamma," said Kitty; "who can it be?"</p>
        <p>"Some acquaintance or other, my dear, I suppose; I am sure I do not know."</p>
        <p>"La!" replied Kitty, "it looks just like that man that used to be with him before. Mr.
          what's his name. That tall, proud man."</p>
        <p>"Good gracious! Mr. Darcy!--and so it does I vow. Well, any friend of Mr. Bingley's will
          always be welcome here to be sure; but else I must say that I hate the very sight of
          him."</p>
        <p>Jane looked at Elizabeth with surprise and concern. She knew but little of their meeting
          in Derbyshire, and therefore felt for the awkwardness which must attend her sister, in
          seeing him almost for the first time after receiving his explanatory letter. Both sisters
          were uncomfortable enough. Each felt for the other, and of course for themselves; and
          their mother talked on, of her dislike of Mr. Darcy, and her resolution to be civil to him
          only as Mr. Bingley's friend, without being heard by either of them. But Elizabeth had
          sources of uneasiness which could not be suspected by Jane, to whom she had never yet had
          courage to shew Mrs. Gardiner's letter, or to relate her own change of sentiment towards
          him. To Jane, he could be only a man whose proposals she had refused, and whose merit she
          had undervalued; but to her own more extensive information, he was the person, to whom the
          whole family were indebted for the first of benefits, and whom she regarded herself with
          an interest, if not quite so tender, at least as reasonable and just, as what Jane felt
          for Bingley. Her astonishment at his coming--at his coming to Netherfield, to Longbourn,
          and voluntarily seeking her again, was almost equal to what she had known on first
          witnessing his altered behaviour in Derbyshire.</p>
        <p>The colour which had been driven from her face, returned for half a minute with an
          additional glow, and a smile of delight added lustre to her eyes, as she thought for that
          space of time, that his affection and wishes must still be unshaken. But she would not be
          secure.</p>
        <p>"Let me first see how he behaves," said she; "it will then be early enough for
          expectation."</p>
        <p>She sat intently at work, striving to be composed, and without daring to lift up her
          eyes, till anxious curiosity carried them to the face of her sister, as the servant was
          approaching the door. Jane looked a little paler than usual, but more sedate than
          Elizabeth had expected. On the gentlemen's appearing, her colour increased; yet she
          received them with tolerable ease, and with a propriety of behaviour equally free from any
          symptom of resentment, or any unnecessary complaisance.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth said as little to either as civility would allow, and sat down again to her
          work, with an eagerness which it did not often command. She had ventured only one glance
          at Darcy. He looked serious as usual; and she thought, more as he had been used to look in
          Hertfordshire, than as she had seen him at Pemberley. But, perhaps he could not in her
          mother's presence be what he was before her uncle and aunt. It was a painful, but not an
          improbable, conjecture.</p>
        <p>Bingley, she had likewise seen for an instant, and in that short period saw him looking
          both pleased and embarrassed. He was received by Mrs. Bennet with a degree of civility,
          which made her two daughters ashamed, especially when contrasted with the cold and
          ceremonious politeness of her curtsey and address to his friend.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth particularly, who knew that her mother owed to the latter the preservation of
          her favourite daughter from irremediable infamy, was hurt and distressed to a most painful
          degree by a distinction so ill applied.</p>
        <p>Darcy, after enquiring of her how Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner did, a question which she could
          not answer without confusion, said scarcely any thing. He was not seated by her; perhaps
          that was the reason of his silence; but it had not been so in Derbyshire. There he had
          talked to her friends, when he could not to herself. But now several minutes elapsed,
          without bringing the sound of his voice; and when occasionally, unable to resist the
          impulse of curiosity, she raised her eyes to his face, she as often found him looking at
          Jane, as at herself, and frequently on no object but the ground. More thoughtfulness, and
          less anxiety to please than when they last met, were plainly expressed. She was
          disappointed, and angry with herself for being so.</p>
        <p>"Could I expect it to be otherwise!" said she. "Yet why did he come?"</p>
        <p>She was in no humour for conversation with any one but himself; and to him she had hardly
          courage to speak.</p>
        <p>She enquired after his sister, but could do no more.</p>
        <p>"It is a long time, Mr. Bingley, since you went away," said Mrs. Bennet.</p>
        <p>He readily agreed to it.</p>
        <p>"I began to be afraid you would never come back again. People <hi rend="italic">did</hi>
          say, you meant to quit the place entirely at Michaelmas; but, however, I hope it is not
          true. A great many changes have happened in the neighbourhood, since you went away. Miss
          Lucas is married and settled. And one of my own daughters. I suppose you have heard of it;
          indeed, you must have seen it in the papers. It was in the Times and the Courier, I know;
          though it was not put in as it ought to be. It was only said, 'Lately, George Wickham,
          Esq. to Miss Lydia Bennet,' without there being a syllable said of her father, or the
          place where she lived, or any thing. It was my brother Gardiner's drawing up too, and I
          wonder how he came to make such an awkward business of it. Did you see it?"</p>
        <p>Bingley replied that he did, and made his congratulations. Elizabeth dared not lift up
          her eyes. How Mr. Darcy looked, therefore, she could not tell.</p>
        <p>"It is a delightful thing, to be sure, to have a daughter well married," continued her
          mother, "but at the same time, Mr. Bingley, it is very hard to have her taken such a way
          from me. They are gone down to Newcastle, a place quite northward, it seems, and there
          they are to stay, I do not know how long. His regiment is there; for I suppose you have
          heard of his leaving the ----shire, and of his being gone into the regulars. Thank Heaven!
          he has <hi rend="italic">some</hi> friends, though perhaps not so many as he
          deserves."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, who knew this to be levelled at Mr. Darcy, was in such misery of shame, that
          she could hardly keep her seat. It drew from her, however, the exertion of speaking, which
          nothing else had so effectually done before; and she asked Bingley, whether he meant to
          make any stay in the country at present. A few weeks, he believed.</p>
        <p>"When you have killed all your own birds, Mr. Bingley," said her mother, "I beg you will
          come here, and shoot as many as you please, on Mr. Bennet's manor. I am sure he will be
          vastly happy to oblige you, and will save all the best of the covies for you."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's misery increased, at such unnecessary, such officious attention! Were the
          same fair prospect to arise at present, as had flattered them a year ago, every thing, she
          was persuaded, would be hastening to the same vexatious conclusion. At that instant she
          felt, that years of happiness could not make Jane or herself amends, for moments of such
          painful confusion.</p>
        <p>"The first wish of my heart," said she to herself, "is never more to be in company with
          either of them. Their society can afford no pleasure, that will atone for such
          wretchedness as this! Let me never see either one or the other again!"</p>
        <p>Yet the misery, for which years of happiness were to offer no compensation, received soon
          afterwards material relief, from observing how much the beauty of her sister re-kindled
          the admiration of her former lover. When first he came in, he had spoken to her but
          little; but every five minutes seemed to be giving her more of his attention. He found her
          as handsome as she had been last year; as good natured, and as unaffected, though not
          quite so chatty. Jane was anxious that no difference should be perceived in her at all,
          and was really persuaded that she talked as much as ever. But her mind was so busily
          engaged, that she did not always know when she was silent.</p>
        <p>When the gentlemen rose to go away, Mrs. Bennet was mindful of her intended civility, and
          they were invited and engaged to dine at Longbourn in a few days time.</p>
        <p>"You are quite a visit in my debt, Mr. Bingley," she added, "for when you went to town
          last winter, you promised to take a family dinner with us, as soon as you returned. I have
          not forgot, you see; and I assure you, I was very much disappointed that you did not come
          back and keep your engagement."</p>
        <p>Bingley looked a little silly at this reflection, and said something of his concern, at
          having been prevented by business. They then went away.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet had been strongly inclined to ask them to stay and dine there, that day; but,
          though she always kept a very good table, she did not think any thing less than two
          courses, could be good enough for a man, on whom she had such anxious designs, or satisfy
          the appetite and pride of one who had ten thousand a-year.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XII.</head>
        <p> As soon as they were gone, Elizabeth walked out to recover her spirits; or in other
          words, to dwell without interruption on those subjects that must deaden them more. Mr.
          Darcy's behaviour astonished and vexed her.</p>
        <p>"Why, if he came only to be silent, grave, and indifferent," said she, "did he come at
          all?"</p>
        <p>She could settle it in no way that gave her pleasure.</p>
        <p>"He could be still amiable, still pleasing, to my uncle and aunt, when he was in town;
          and why not to me? If he fears me, why come hither? If he no longer cares for me, why
          silent? Teazing, teazing, man! I will think no more about him."</p>
        <p>Her resolution was for a short time involuntarily kept by the approach of her sister, who
          joined her with a cheerful look, which shewed her better satisfied with their visitors,
          than Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"Now," said she, "that this first meeting is over, I feel perfectly easy. I know my own
          strength, and I shall never be embarrassed again by his coming. I am glad he dines here on
          Tuesday. It will then be publicly seen, that on both sides, we meet only as common and
          indifferent acquaintance."</p>
        <p>"Yes, very indifferent indeed," said Elizabeth, laughingly. "Oh, Jane, take care."</p>
        <p>"My dear Lizzy, you cannot think me so weak, as to be in danger now."</p>
        <p>"I think you are in very great danger of making him as much in love with you as
          ever."</p>
        <p> * * * * *</p>
        <p>They did not see the gentlemen again till Tuesday; and Mrs. Bennet, in the meanwhile, was
          giving way to all the happy schemes, which the good humour, and common politeness of
          Bingley, in half an hour's visit, had revived.</p>
        <p>On Tuesday there was a large party assembled at Longbourn; and the two, who were most
          anxiously expected, to the credit of their punctuality as sportsmen, were in very good
          time. When they repaired to the dining-room, Elizabeth eagerly watched to see whether
          Bingley would take the place, which, in all their former parties, had belonged to him, by
          her sister. Her prudent mother, occupied by the same ideas, forbore to invite him to sit
          by herself. On entering the room, he seemed to hesitate; but Jane happened to look round,
          and happened to smile: it was decided. He placed himself by her.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, with a triumphant sensation, looked towards his friend. He bore it with noble
          indifference, and she would have imagined that Bingley had received his sanction to be
          happy, had she not seen his eyes likewise turned towards Mr. Darcy, with an expression of
          half-laughing alarm.</p>
        <p>His behaviour to her sister was such, during dinner time, as shewed an admiration of her,
          which, though more guarded than formerly, persuaded Elizabeth, that if left wholly to
          himself, Jane's happiness, and his own, would be speedily secured. Though she dared not
          depend upon the consequence, she yet received pleasure from observing his behaviour. It
          gave her all the animation that her spirits could boast; for she was in no cheerful
          humour. Mr. Darcy was almost as far from her, as the table could divide them. He was on
          one side of her mother. She knew how little such a situation would give pleasure to
          either, or make either appear to advantage. She was not near enough to hear any of their
          discourse, but she could see how seldom they spoke to each other, and how formal and cold
          was their manner, whenever they did. Her mother's ungraciousness, made the sense of what
          they owed him more painful to Elizabeth's mind; and she would, at times, have given any
          thing to be privileged to tell him, that his kindness was neither unknown nor unfelt by
          the whole of the family.</p>
        <p>She was in hopes that the evening would afford some opportunity of bringing them
          together; that the whole of the visit would not pass away without enabling them to enter
          into something more of conversation, than the mere ceremonious salutation attending his
          entrance. Anxious and uneasy, the period which passed in the drawing-room, before the
          gentlemen came, was wearisome and dull to a degree, that almost made her uncivil. She
          looked forward to their entrance, as the point on which all her chance of pleasure for the
          evening must depend.</p>
        <p>"If he does not come to me, <hi rend="italic">then</hi>," said she, "I shall give him up
          for ever."</p>
        <p>The gentlemen came; and she thought he looked as if he would have answered her hopes;
          but, alas! the ladies had crowded round the table, where Miss Bennet was making tea, and
          Elizabeth pouring out the coffee, in so close a confederacy, that there was not a single
          vacancy near her, which would admit of a chair. And on the gentlemen's approaching, one of
          the girls moved closer to her than ever, and said, in a whisper,</p>
        <p>"The men shan't come and part us, I am determined. We want none of them; do we?"</p>
        <p>Darcy had walked away to another part of the room. She followed him with her eyes, envied
          every one to whom he spoke, had scarcely patience enough to help anybody to coffee; and
          then was enraged against herself for being so silly!</p>
        <p>"A man who has once been refused! How could I ever be foolish enough to expect a renewal
          of his love? Is there one among the sex, who would not protest against such a weakness as
          a second proposal to the same woman? There is no indignity so abhorrent to their
          feelings!"</p>
        <p>She was a little revived, however, by his bringing back his coffee cup himself; and she
          seized the opportunity of saying,</p>
        <p>"Is your sister at Pemberley still?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, she will remain there till Christmas."</p>
        <p>"And quite alone? Have all her friends left her?"</p>
        <p>"Mrs. Annesley is with her. The others have been gone on to Scarborough, these three
          weeks."</p>
        <p>She could think of nothing more to say; but if he wished to converse with her, he might
          have better success. He stood by her, however, for some minutes, in silence; and, at last,
          on the young lady's whispering to Elizabeth again, he walked away.</p>
        <p>When the tea-things were removed, and the card tables placed, the ladies all rose, and
          Elizabeth was then hoping to be soon joined by him, when all her views were overthrown, by
          seeing him fall a victim to her mother's rapacity for whist players, and in a few moments
          after seated with the rest of the party. She now lost every expectation of pleasure. They
          were confined for the evening at different tables, and she had nothing to hope, but that
          his eyes were so often turned towards her side of the room, as to make him play as
          unsuccessfully as herself.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet had designed to keep the two Netherfield gentlemen to supper; but their
          carriage was unluckily ordered before any of the others, and she had no opportunity of
          detaining them.</p>
        <p>"Well girls," said she, as soon as they were left to themselves, "What say you to the
          day? I think every thing has passed off uncommonly well, I assure you. The dinner was as
          well dressed as any I ever saw. The venison was roasted to a turn--and everybody said,
          they never saw so fat a haunch. The soup was fifty times better than what we had at the
          Lucas's last week; and even Mr. Darcy acknowledged, that the partridges were remarkably
          well done; and I suppose he has two or three French cooks at least. And, my dear Jane, I
          never saw you look in greater beauty. Mrs. Long said so too, for I asked her whether you
          did not. And what do you think she said besides? 'Ah! Mrs. Bennet, we shall have her at
          Netherfield at last.' She did indeed. I do think Mrs. Long is as good a creature as ever
          lived--and her nieces are very pretty behaved girls, and not at all handsome: I like them
          prodigiously."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet, in short, was in very great spirits; she had seen enough of Bingley's
          behaviour to Jane, to be convinced that she would get him at last; and her expectations of
          advantage to her family, when in a happy humour, were so far beyond reason, that she was
          quite disappointed at not seeing him there again the next day, to make his proposals.</p>
        <p>"It has been a very agreeable day," said Miss Bennet to Elizabeth. "The party seemed so
          well selected, so suitable one with the other. I hope we may often meet again."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth smiled.</p>
        <p>"Lizzy, you must not do so. You must not suspect me. It mortifies me. I assure you that I
          have now learnt to enjoy his conversation as an agreeable and sensible young man, without
          having a wish beyond it. I am perfectly satisfied from what his manners now are, that he
          never had any design of engaging my affection. It is only that he is blessed with greater
          sweetness of address, and a stronger desire of generally pleasing than any other man."</p>
        <p>"You are very cruel," said her sister, "you will not let me smile, and are provoking me
          to it every moment."</p>
        <p>"How hard it is in some cases to be believed!"</p>
        <p>"And how impossible in others!"</p>
        <p>"But why should you wish to persuade me that I feel more than I acknowledge?"</p>
        <p>"That is a question which I hardly know how to answer. We all love to instruct, though we
          can teach only what is not worth knowing. Forgive me; and if you persist in indifference,
          do not make <hi rend="italic">me</hi> your confidante."</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIII.</head>
        <p> A few days after this visit, Mr. Bingley called again, and alone. His friend had left
          him that morning for London, but was to return home in ten days time. He sat with them
          above an hour, and was in remarkably good spirits. Mrs. Bennet invited him to dine with
          them; but, with many expressions of concern, he confessed himself engaged elsewhere.</p>
        <p>"Next time you call," said she, "I hope we shall be more lucky."</p>
        <p>He should be particularly happy at any time, &amp;c. &amp;c.; and if she would give him
          leave, would take an early opportunity of waiting on them.</p>
        <p>"Can you come to-morrow?"</p>
        <p>Yes, he had no engagement at all for to-morrow; and her invitation was accepted with
          alacrity.</p>
        <p>He came, and in such very good time, that the ladies were none of them dressed. In ran
          Mrs. Bennet to her daughter's room, in her dressing gown, and with her hair half finished,
          crying out,</p>
        <p>"My dear Jane, make haste and hurry down. He is come--Mr. Bingley is come.--He is,
          indeed. Make haste, make haste. Here, Sarah, come to Miss Bennet this moment, and help her
          on with her gown. Never mind Miss Lizzy's hair."</p>
        <p>"We will be down as soon as we can," said Jane; "but I dare say Kitty is forwarder than
          either of us, for she went up stairs half an hour ago."</p>
        <p>"Oh! hang Kitty! what has she to do with it? Come be quick, be quick! where is your sash
          my dear?"</p>
        <p>But when her mother was gone, Jane would not be prevailed on to go down without one of
          her sisters.</p>
        <p>The same anxiety to get them by themselves, was visible again in the evening. After tea,
          Mr. Bennet retired to the library, as was his custom, and Mary went up stairs to her
          instrument. Two obstacles of the five being thus removed, Mrs. Bennet sat looking and
          winking at Elizabeth and Catherine for a considerable time, without making any impression
          on them. Elizabeth would not observe her; and when at last Kitty did, she very innocently
          said, "What is the matter mamma? What do you keep winking at me for? What am I to do?"</p>
        <p>"Nothing child, nothing. I did not wink at you." She then sat still five minutes longer;
          but unable to waste such a precious occasion, she suddenly got up, and saying to
          Kitty,</p>
        <p>"Come here, my love, I want to speak to you," took her out of the room. Jane instantly
          gave a look at Elizabeth, which spoke her distress at such premeditation, and her intreaty
          that <hi rend="italic">she</hi> would not give into it. In a few minutes, Mrs. Bennet half
          opened the door and called out,</p>
        <p>"Lizzy, my dear, I want to speak with you."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was forced to go.</p>
        <p>"We may as well leave them by themselves you know;" said her mother as soon as she was in
          the hall. "Kitty and I are going upstairs to sit in my dressing-room."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth made no attempt to reason with her mother, but remained quietly in the hall,
          till she and Kitty were out of sight, then returned into the drawing-room.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet's schemes for this day were ineffectual. Bingley was every thing that was
          charming, except the professed lover of her daughter. His ease and cheerfulness rendered
          him a most agreeable addition to their evening party; and he bore with the ill-judged
          officiousness of the mother, and heard all her silly remarks with a forbearance and
          command of countenance, particularly grateful to the daughter.</p>
        <p>He scarcely needed an invitation to stay supper; and before he went away, an engagement
          was formed, chiefly through his own and Mrs. Bennet's means, for his coming next morning
          to shoot with her husband.</p>
        <p>After this day, Jane said no more of her indifference. Not a word passed between the
          sisters concerning Bingley; but Elizabeth went to bed in the happy belief that all must
          speedily be concluded, unless Mr. Darcy returned within the stated time. Seriously,
          however, she felt tolerably persuaded that all this must have taken place with that
          gentleman's concurrence.</p>
        <p>Bingley was punctual to his appointment; and he and Mr. Bennet spent the morning
          together, as had been agreed on. The latter was much more agreeable than his companion
          expected. There was nothing of presumption or folly in Bingley, that could provoke his
          ridicule, or disgust him into silence; and he was more communicative, and less eccentric
          than the other had ever seen him. Bingley of course returned with him to dinner; and in
          the evening Mrs. Bennet's invention was again at work to get every body away from him and
          her daughter. Elizabeth, who had a letter to write, went into the breakfast room for that
          purpose soon after tea; for as the others were all going to sit down to cards, she could
          not be wanted to counteract her mother's schemes.</p>
        <p>But on returning to the drawing-room, when her letter was finished, she saw, to her
          infinite surprise, there was reason to fear that her mother had been too ingenious for
          her. On opening the door, she perceived her sister and Bingley standing together over the
          hearth, as if engaged in earnest conversation; and had this led to no suspicion, the faces
          of both as they hastily turned round, and moved away from each other, would have told it
          all. <hi rend="italic">Their</hi> situation was awkward enough; but <hi rend="italic">her's</hi> she thought was still worse. Not a syllable was uttered by either; and
          Elizabeth was on the point of going away again, when Bingley, who as well as the other had
          sat down, suddenly rose, and whispering a few words to her sister, ran out of the
          room.</p>
        <p>Jane could have no reserves from Elizabeth, where confidence would give pleasure; and
          instantly embracing her, acknowledged, with the liveliest emotion, that she was the
          happiest creature in the world.</p>
        <p>"'Tis too much!" she added, "by far too much. I do not deserve it. Oh! why is not every
          body as happy?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's congratulations were given with a sincerity, a warmth, a delight, which words
          could but poorly express. Every sentence of kindness was a fresh source of happiness to
          Jane. But she would not allow herself to stay with her sister, or say half that remained
          to be said, for the present.</p>
        <p>"I must go instantly to my mother;" she cried. "I would not on any account trifle with
          her affectionate solicitude; or allow her to hear it from any one but myself. He is gone
          to my father already. Oh! Lizzy, to know that what I have to relate will give such
          pleasure to all my dear family! how shall I bear so much happiness!"</p>
        <p>She then hastened away to her mother, who had purposely broken up the card party, and was
          sitting up stairs with Kitty.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, who was left by herself, now smiled at the rapidity and ease with which an
          affair was finally settled, that had given them so many previous months of suspense and
          vexation.</p>
        <p>"And this," said she, "is the end of all his friend's anxious circumspection! of all his
          sister's falsehood and contrivance! the happiest, wisest, most reasonable end!"</p>
        <p>In a few minutes she was joined by Bingley, whose conference with her father had been
          short and to the purpose.</p>
        <p>"Where is your sister?" said he hastily, as he opened the door.</p>
        <p>"With my mother up stairs. She will be down in a moment I dare say."</p>
        <p>He then shut the door, and coming up to her, claimed the good wishes and affection of a
          sister. Elizabeth honestly and heartily expressed her delight in the prospect of their
          relationship. They shook hands with great cordiality; and then till her sister came down,
          she had to listen to all he had to say, of his own happiness, and of Jane's perfections;
          and in spite of his being a lover, Elizabeth really believed all his expectations of
          felicity, to be rationally founded, because they had for basis the excellent
          understanding, and super-excellent disposition of Jane, and a general similarity of
          feeling and taste between her and himself.</p>
        <p>It was an evening of no common delight to them all; the satisfaction of Miss Bennet's
          mind gave a glow of such sweet animation to her face, as made her look handsomer than
          ever. Kitty simpered and smiled, and hoped her turn was coming soon. Mrs. Bennet could not
          give her consent, or speak her approbation in terms warm enough to satisfy her feelings,
          though she talked to Bingley of nothing else, for half an hour; and when Mr. Bennet joined
          them at supper, his voice and manner plainly shewed how really happy he was.</p>
        <p>Not a word, however, passed his lips in allusion to it, till their visitor took his leave
          for the night; but as soon as he was gone, he turned to his daughter and said,</p>
        <p>"Jane, I congratulate you. You will be a very happy woman."</p>
        <p>Jane went to him instantly, kissed him, and thanked him for his goodness.</p>
        <p>"You are a good girl;" he replied, "and I have great pleasure in thinking you will be so
          happily settled. I have not a doubt of your doing very well together. Your tempers are by
          no means unlike. You are each of you so complying, that nothing will ever be resolved on;
          so easy, that every servant will cheat you; and so generous, that you will always exceed
          your income."</p>
        <p>"I hope not so. Imprudence or thoughtlessness in money matters, would be unpardonable in
            <hi rend="italic">me</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Exceed their income! My dear Mr. Bennet," cried his wife, "what are you talking of? Why,
          he has four or five thousand a-year, and very likely more." Then addressing her daughter,
          "Oh! my dear, dear Jane, I am so happy! I am sure I sha'nt get a wink of sleep all night.
          I knew how it would be. I always said it must be so, at last. I was sure you could not be
          so beautiful for nothing! I remember, as soon as ever I saw him, when he first came into
          Hertfordshire last year, I thought how likely it was that you should come together. Oh! he
          is the handsomest young man that ever was seen!"</p>
        <p>Wickham, Lydia, were all forgotten. Jane was beyond competition her favourite child. At
          that moment, she cared for no other. Her younger sisters soon began to make interest with
          her for objects of happiness which she might in future be able to dispense.</p>
        <p>Mary petitioned for the use of the library at Netherfield; and Kitty begged very hard for
          a few balls there every winter.</p>
        <p>Bingley, from this time, was of course a daily visitor at Longbourn; coming frequently
          before breakfast, and always remaining till after supper; unless when some barbarous
          neighbour, who could not be enough detested, had given him an invitation to dinner, which
          he thought himself obliged to accept.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth had now but little time for conversation with her sister; for while he was
          present, Jane had no attention to bestow on any one else; but she found herself
          considerably useful to both of them, in those hours of separation that must sometimes
          occur. In the absence of Jane, he always attached himself to Elizabeth, for the pleasure
          of talking of her; and when Bingley was gone, Jane constantly sought the same means of
          relief.</p>
        <p>"He has made me so happy," said she, one evening, "by telling me, that he was totally
          ignorant of my being in town last spring! I had not believed it possible."</p>
        <p>"I suspected as much," replied Elizabeth. "But how did he account for it?"</p>
        <p>"It must have been his sister's doing. They were certainly no friends to his acquaintance
          with me, which I cannot wonder at, since he might have chosen so much more advantageously
          in many respects. But when they see, as I trust they will, that their brother is happy
          with me, they will learn to be contented, and we shall be on good terms again; though we
          can never be what we once were to each other."</p>
        <p>"That is the most unforgiving speech," said Elizabeth, "that I ever heard you utter. Good
          girl! It would vex me, indeed, to see you again the dupe of Miss Bingley's pretended
          regard."</p>
        <p>"Would you believe it, Lizzy, that when he went to town last November, he really loved
          me, and nothing but a persuasion of <hi rend="italic">my</hi> being indifferent, would
          have prevented his coming down again!"</p>
        <p>"He made a little mistake to be sure; but it is to the credit of his modesty."</p>
        <p>This naturally introduced a panegyric from Jane on his diffidence, and the little value
          he put on his own good qualities.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was pleased to find, that he had not betrayed the interference of his friend,
          for, though Jane had the most generous and forgiving heart in the world, she knew it was a
          circumstance which must prejudice her against him.</p>
        <p>"I am certainly the most fortunate creature that ever existed!" cried Jane. "Oh! Lizzy,
          why am I thus singled from my family, and blessed above them all! If I could but see <hi rend="italic">you</hi> as happy! If there <hi rend="italic">were</hi> but such another
          man for you!"</p>
        <p>"If you were to give me forty such men, I never could be so happy as you. Till I have
          your disposition, your goodness, I never can have your happiness. No, no, let me shift for
          myself; and, perhaps, if I have very good luck, I may meet with another Mr. Collins in
          time."</p>
        <p>The situation of affairs in the Longbourn family could not be long a secret. Mrs. Bennet
          was privileged to whisper it to Mrs. Philips, and <hi rend="italic">she</hi> ventured,
          without any permission, to do the same by all her neighbours in Meryton.</p>
        <p>The Bennets were speedily pronounced to be the luckiest family in the world, though only
          a few weeks before, when Lydia had first run away, they had been generally proved to be
          marked out for misfortune.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIV.</head>
        <p> One morning, about a week after Bingley's engagement with Jane had been formed, as he
          and the females of the family were sitting together in the dining-room, their attention
          was suddenly drawn to the window, by the sound of a carriage; and they perceived a chaise
          and four driving up the lawn. It was too early in the morning for visitors, and besides,
          the equipage did not answer to that of any of their neighbours. The horses were post; and
          neither the carriage, nor the livery of the servant who preceded it, were familiar to
          them. As it was certain, however, that somebody was coming, Bingley instantly prevailed on
          Miss Bennet to avoid the confinement of such an intrusion, and walk away with him into the
          shrubbery. They both set off, and the conjectures of the remaining three continued, though
          with little satisfaction, till the door was thrown open, and their visitor entered. It was
          lady Catherine de Bourgh.</p>
        <p>They were of course all intending to be surprised; but their astonishment was beyond
          their expectation; and on the part of Mrs. Bennet and Kitty, though she was perfectly
          unknown to them, even inferior to what Elizabeth felt.</p>
        <p>She entered the room with an air more than usually ungracious, made no other reply to
          Elizabeth's salutation, than a slight inclination of the head, and sat down without saying
          a word. Elizabeth had mentioned her name to her mother, on her ladyship's entrance, though
          no request of introduction had been made.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet all amazement, though flattered by having a guest of such high importance,
          received her with the utmost politeness. After sitting for a moment in silence, she said
          very stiffly to Elizabeth,</p>
        <p>"I hope you are well, Miss Bennet. That lady I suppose is your mother."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth replied very concisely that she was.</p>
        <p>"And <hi rend="italic">that</hi> I suppose is one of your sisters."</p>
        <p>"Yes, madam," said Mrs. Bennet, delighted to speak to a lady Catherine. "She is my
          youngest girl but one. My youngest of all, is lately married, and my eldest is somewhere
          about the grounds, walking with a young man, who I believe will soon become a part of the
          family."</p>
        <p>"You have a very small park here," returned Lady Catherine after a short silence.</p>
        <p>"It is nothing in comparison of Rosings, my lady, I dare say; but I assure you it is much
          larger than Sir William Lucas's."</p>
        <p>"This must be a most inconvenient sitting room for the evening, in summer; the windows
          are full west."</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet assured her that they never sat there after dinner; and then added,</p>
        <p>"May I take the liberty of asking your ladyship whether you left Mr. and Mrs. Collins
          well."</p>
        <p>"Yes, very well. I saw them the night before last."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth now expected that she would produce a letter for her from Charlotte, as it
          seemed the only probable motive for her calling. But no letter appeared, and she was
          completely puzzled.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Bennet, with great civility, begged her ladyship to take some refreshment; but Lady
          Catherine very resolutely, and not very politely, declined eating any thing; and then
          rising up, said to Elizabeth,</p>
        <p>"Miss Bennet, there seemed to be a prettyish kind of a little wilderness on one side of
          your lawn. I should be glad to take a turn in it, if you will favour me with your
          company."</p>
        <p>"Go, my dear," cried her mother, "and shew her ladyship about the different walks. I
          think she will be pleased with the hermitage."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth obeyed, and running into her own room for her parasol, attended her noble guest
          down stairs. As they passed through the hall, Lady Catherine opened the doors into the
          dining-parlour and drawing-room, and pronouncing them, after a short survey, to be decent
          looking rooms, walked on.</p>
        <p>Her carriage remained at the door, and Elizabeth saw that her waiting-woman was in it.
          They proceeded in silence along the gravel walk that led to the copse; Elizabeth was
          determined to make no effort for conversation with a woman, who was now more than usually
          insolent and disagreeable.</p>
        <p>"How could I ever think her like her nephew?" said she, as she looked in her face.</p>
        <p>As soon as they entered the copse, Lady Catherine began in the following manner:--</p>
        <p>"You can be at no loss, Miss Bennet, to understand the reason of my journey hither. Your
          own heart, your own conscience, must tell you why I come."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth looked with unaffected astonishment.</p>
        <p>"Indeed, you are mistaken, Madam. I have not been at all able to account for the honour
          of seeing you here."</p>
        <p>"Miss Bennet," replied her ladyship, in an angry tone, "you ought to know, that I am not
          to be trifled with. But however insincere <hi rend="italic">you</hi> may choose to be, you
          shall not find <hi rend="italic">me</hi> so. My character has ever been celebrated for its
          sincerity and frankness, and in a cause of such moment as this, I shall certainly not
          depart from it. A report of a most alarming nature, reached me two days ago. I was told,
          that not only your sister was on the point of being most advantageously married, but that
            <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, that Miss Elizabeth Bennet, would, in all likelihood, be
          soon afterwards united to my nephew, my own nephew, Mr. Darcy. Though I <hi rend="italic">know</hi> it must be a scandalous falsehood; though I would not injure him so much as
          to suppose the truth of it possible, I instantly resolved on setting off for this place,
          that I might make my sentiments known to you."</p>
        <p>"If you believed it impossible to be true," said Elizabeth, colouring with astonishment
          and disdain, "I wonder you took the trouble of coming so far. What could your ladyship
          propose by it?"</p>
        <p>"At once to insist upon having such a report universally contradicted."</p>
        <p>"Your coming to Longbourn, to see me and my family," said Elizabeth, coolly, "will be
          rather a confirmation of it; if, indeed, such a report is in existence."</p>
        <p>"If! do you then pretend to be ignorant of it? Has it not been industriously circulated
          by yourselves? Do you not know that such a report is spread abroad?"</p>
        <p>"I never heard that it was."</p>
        <p>"And can you likewise declare, that there is no <hi rend="italic">foundation</hi> for
          it?"</p>
        <p>"I do not pretend to possess equal frankness with your ladyship. <hi rend="italic">You</hi> may ask questions, which <hi rend="italic">I</hi> shall not choose to
          answer."</p>
        <p>"This is not to be borne. Miss Bennet, I insist on being satisfied. Has he, has my
          nephew, made you an offer of marriage?"</p>
        <p>"Your ladyship has declared it to be impossible."</p>
        <p>"It ought to be so; it must be so, while he retains the use of his reason. But <hi rend="italic">your</hi> arts and allurements may, in a moment of infatuation, have made
          him forget what he owes to himself and to all his family. You may have drawn him in."</p>
        <p>"If I have, I shall be the last person to confess it."</p>
        <p>"Miss Bennet, do you know who I am? I have not been accustomed to such language as this.
          I am almost the nearest relation he has in the world, and am entitled to know all his
          dearest concerns."</p>
        <p>"But you are not entitled to know <hi rend="italic">mine</hi>; nor will such behaviour as
          this, ever induce me to be explicit."</p>
        <p>"Let me be rightly understood. This match, to which you have the presumption to aspire,
          can never take place. No, never. Mr. Darcy is engaged to <hi rend="italic">my
            daughter</hi>. Now what have you to say?"</p>
        <p>"Only this; that if he is so, you can have no reason to suppose he will make an offer to
          me."</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine hesitated for a moment, and then replied,</p>
        <p>"The engagement between them is of a peculiar kind. From their infancy, they have been
          intended for each other. It was the favourite wish of <hi rend="italic">his</hi> mother,
          as well as of her's. While in their cradles, we planned the union: and now, at the moment
          when the wishes of both sisters would be accomplished, in their marriage, to be prevented
          by a young woman of inferior birth, of no importance in the world, and wholly unallied to
          the family! Do you pay no regard to the wishes of his friends? To his tacit engagement
          with Miss De Bourgh? Are you lost to every feeling of propriety and delicacy? Have you not
          heard me say, that from his earliest hours he was destined for his cousin?"</p>
        <p>"Yes, and I had heard it before. But what is that to me? If there is no other objection
          to my marrying your nephew, I shall certainly not be kept from it, by knowing that his
          mother and aunt wished him to marry Miss De Bourgh. You both did as much as you could, in
          planning the marriage. Its completion depended on others. If Mr. Darcy is neither by
          honour nor inclination confined to his cousin, why is not he to make another choice? And
          if I am that choice, why may not I accept him?"</p>
        <p>"Because honour, decorum, prudence, nay, interest, forbid it. Yes, Miss Bennet, interest;
          for do not expect to be noticed by his family or friends, if you wilfully act against the
          inclinations of all. You will be censured, slighted, and despised, by every one connected
          with him. Your alliance will be a disgrace; your name will never even be mentioned by any
          of us."</p>
        <p>"These are heavy misfortunes," replied Elizabeth. "But the wife of Mr. Darcy must have
          such extraordinary sources of happiness necessarily attached to her situation, that she
          could, upon the whole, have no cause to repine."</p>
        <p>"Obstinate, headstrong girl! I am ashamed of you! Is this your gratitude for my
          attentions to you last spring? Is nothing due to me on that score?</p>
        <p>"Let us sit down. You are to understand, Miss Bennet, that I came here with the
          determined resolution of carrying my purpose; nor will I be dissuaded from it. I have not
          been used to submit to any person's whims. I have not been in the habit of brooking
          disappointment."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">that</hi> will make your ladyship's situation at present more
          pitiable; but it will have no effect on <hi rend="italic">me</hi>."</p>
        <p>"I will not be interrupted. Hear me in silence. My daughter and my nephew are formed for
          each other. They are descended on the maternal side, from the same noble line; and, on the
          father's, from respectable, honourable, and ancient, though untitled families. Their
          fortune on both sides is splendid. They are destined for each other by the voice of every
          member of their respective houses; and what is to divide them? The upstart pretensions of
          a young woman without family, connections, or fortune. Is this to be endured! But it must
          not, shall not be. If you were sensible of your own good, you would not wish to quit the
          sphere, in which you have been brought up."</p>
        <p>"In marrying your nephew, I should not consider myself as quitting that sphere. He is a
          gentleman; I am a gentleman's daughter; so far we are equal."</p>
        <p>"True. You <hi rend="italic">are</hi> a gentleman's daughter. But who was your mother?
          Who are your uncles and aunts? Do not imagine me ignorant of their condition."</p>
        <p>"Whatever my connections may be," said Elizabeth, "if your nephew does not object to
          them, they can be nothing to <hi rend="italic">you</hi>."</p>
        <p>"Tell me once for all, are you engaged to him?"</p>
        <p>Though Elizabeth would not, for the mere purpose of obliging Lady Catherine, have
          answered this question; she could not but say, after a moment's deliberation,</p>
        <p>"I am not."</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine seemed pleased.</p>
        <p>"And will you promise me, never to enter into such an engagement?"</p>
        <p>"I will make no promise of the kind."</p>
        <p>"Miss Bennet I am shocked and astonished. I expected to find a more reasonable young
          woman. But do not deceive yourself into a belief that I will ever recede. I shall not go
          away, till you have given me the assurance I require."</p>
        <p>"And I certainly <hi rend="italic">never</hi> shall give it. I am not to be intimidated
          into anything so wholly unreasonable. Your ladyship wants Mr. Darcy to marry your
          daughter; but would my giving you the wished-for promise, make <hi rend="italic">their</hi> marriage at all more probable? Supposing him to be attached to me, would <hi rend="italic">my</hi> refusing to accept his hand, make him wish to bestow it on his
          cousin? Allow me to say, Lady Catherine, that the arguments with which you have supported
          this extraordinary application, have been as frivolous as the application was ill-judged.
          You have widely mistaken my character, if you think I can be worked on by such persuasions
          as these. How far your nephew might approve of your interference in <hi rend="italic">his</hi> affairs, I cannot tell; but you have certainly no right to concern yourself in
          mine. I must beg, therefore, to be importuned no farther on the subject."</p>
        <p>"Not so hasty, if you please. I have by no means done. To all the objections I have
          already urged, I have still another to add. I am no stranger to the particulars of your
          youngest sister's infamous elopement. I know it all; that the young man's marrying her,
          was a patched-up business, at the expence of your father and uncles. And is <hi rend="italic">such</hi> a girl to be my nephew's sister? Is <hi rend="italic">her</hi>
          husband, is the son of his late father's steward, to be his brother? Heaven and earth!--of
          what are you thinking? Are the shades of Pemberley to be thus polluted?"</p>
        <p>"You can <hi rend="italic">now</hi> have nothing farther to say," she resentfully
          answered. "You have insulted me, in every possible method. I must beg to return to the
          house."</p>
        <p>And she rose as she spoke. Lady Catherine rose also, and they turned back. Her ladyship
          was highly incensed.</p>
        <p>"You have no regard, then, for the honour and credit of my nephew! Unfeeling, selfish
          girl! Do you not consider that a connection with you, must disgrace him in the eyes of
          everybody?"</p>
        <p>"Lady Catherine, I have nothing farther to say. You know my sentiments."</p>
        <p>"You are then resolved to have him?"</p>
        <p>"I have said no such thing. I am only resolved to act in that manner, which will, in my
          own opinion, constitute my happiness, without reference to <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, or
          to any person so wholly unconnected with me."</p>
        <p>"It is well. You refuse, then, to oblige me. You refuse to obey the claims of duty,
          honour, and gratitude. You are determined to ruin him in the opinion of all his friends,
          and make him the contempt of the world."</p>
        <p>"Neither duty, nor honour, nor gratitude," replied Elizabeth, "have any possible claim on
          me, in the present instance. No principle of either, would be violated by my marriage with
          Mr. Darcy. And with regard to the resentment of his family, or the indignation of the
          world, if the former <hi rend="italic">were</hi> excited by his marrying me, it would not
          give me one moment's concern--and the world in general would have too much sense to join
          in the scorn."</p>
        <p>"And this is your real opinion! This is your final resolve! Very well. I shall now know
          how to act. Do not imagine, Miss Bennet, that your ambition will ever be gratified. I came
          to try you. I hoped to find you reasonable; but depend upon it I will carry my point."</p>
        <p>In this manner Lady Catherine talked on, till they were at the door of the carriage, when
          turning hastily round, she added,</p>
        <p>"I take no leave of you, Miss Bennet. I send no compliments to your mother. You deserve
          no such attention. I am most seriously displeased."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth made no answer; and without attempting to persuade her ladyship to return into
          the house, walked quietly into it herself. She heard the carriage drive away as she
          proceeded up stairs. Her mother impatiently met her at the door of the dressing-room, to
          ask why Lady Catherine would not come in again and rest herself.</p>
        <p>"She did not choose it," said her daughter, "she would go."</p>
        <p>"She is a very fine-looking woman! and her calling here was prodigiously civil! for she
          only came, I suppose, to tell us the Collinses were well. She is on her road somewhere, I
          dare say, and so passing through Meryton, thought she might as well call on you. I suppose
          she had nothing particular to say to you, Lizzy?"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was forced to give into a little falsehood here; for to acknowledge the
          substance of their conversation was impossible.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XV.</head>
        <p> The discomposure of spirits, which this extraordinary visit threw Elizabeth into, could
          not be easily overcome; nor could she for many hours, learn to think of it less than
          incessantly. Lady Catherine it appeared, had actually taken the trouble of this journey
          from Rosings, for the sole purpose of breaking off her supposed engagement with Mr. Darcy.
          It was a rational scheme to be sure! but from what the report of their engagement could
          originate, Elizabeth was at a loss to imagine; till she recollected that <hi rend="italic">his</hi> being the intimate friend of Bingley, and <hi rend="italic">her</hi> being the
          sister of Jane, was enough, at a time when the expectation of one wedding, made every body
          eager for another, to supply the idea. She had not herself forgotten to feel that the
          marriage of her sister must bring them more frequently together. And her neighbours at
          Lucas lodge, therefore, (for through their communication with the Collinses, the report
          she concluded had reached lady Catherine) had only set <hi rend="italic">that</hi> down,
          as almost certain and immediate, which <hi rend="italic">she</hi> had looked forward to as
          possible, at some future time.</p>
        <p>In revolving lady Catherine's expressions, however, she could not help feeling some
          uneasiness as to the possible consequence of her persisting in this interference. From
          what she had said of her resolution to prevent their marriage, it occurred to Elizabeth
          that she must meditate an application to her nephew; and how <hi rend="italic">he</hi>
          might take a similar representation of the evils attached to a connection with her, she
          dared not pronounce. She knew not the exact degree of his affection for his aunt, or his
          dependence on her judgment, but it was natural to suppose that he thought much higher of
          her ladyship than <hi rend="italic">she</hi> could do; and it was certain, that in
          enumerating the miseries of a marriage with <hi rend="italic">one</hi>, whose immediate
          connections were so unequal to his own, his aunt would address him on his weakest side.
          With his notions of dignity, he would probably feel that the arguments, which to Elizabeth
          had appeared weak and ridiculous, contained much good sense and solid reasoning.</p>
        <p>If he had been wavering before, as to what he should do, which had often seemed likely,
          the advice and intreaty of so near a relation might settle every doubt, and determine him
          at once to be as happy, as dignity unblemished could make him. In that case he would
          return no more. Lady Catherine might see him in her way through town; and his engagement
          to Bingley of coming again to Netherfield must give way.</p>
        <p>"If, therefore, an excuse for not keeping his promise, should come to his friend within a
          few days," she added, "I shall know how to understand it. I shall then give over every
          expectation, every wish of his constancy. If he is satisfied with only regretting me, when
          he might have obtained my affections and hand, I shall soon cease to regret him at
          all."</p>
        <p> * * * * *</p>
        <p>The surprise of the rest of the family, on hearing who their visitor had been, was very
          great; but they obligingly satisfied it, with the same kind of supposition, which had
          appeased Mrs. Bennet's curiosity; and Elizabeth was spared from much teazing on the
          subject.</p>
        <p>The next morning, as she was going down stairs, she was met by her father, who came out
          of his library with a letter in his hand.</p>
        <p>"Lizzy," said he, "I was going to look for you; come into my room."</p>
        <p>She followed him thither; and her curiosity to know what he had to tell her, was
          heightened by the supposition of its being in some manner connected with the letter he
          held. It suddenly struck her that it might be from lady Catherine; and she anticipated
          with dismay all the consequent explanations.</p>
        <p>She followed her father to the fire place, and they both sat down. He then said,</p>
        <p>"I have received a letter this morning that has astonished me exceedingly. As it
          principally concerns yourself, you ought to know its contents. I did not know before, that
          I had <hi rend="italic">two</hi> daughters on the brink of matrimony. Let me congratulate
          you, on a very important conquest."</p>
        <p>The colour now rushed into Elizabeth's cheeks in the instantaneous conviction of its
          being a letter from the nephew, instead of the aunt; and she was undetermined whether most
          to be pleased that he explained himself at all, or offended that his letter was not rather
          addressed to herself; when her father continued,</p>
        <p>"You look conscious. Young ladies have great penetration in such matters as these; but I
          think I may defy even <hi rend="italic">your</hi> sagacity, to discover the name of your
          admirer. This letter is from Mr. Collins."</p>
        <p>"From Mr. Collins! and what can <hi rend="italic">he</hi> have to say?"</p>
        <p>"Something very much to the purpose of course. He begins with congratulations on the
          approaching nuptials of my eldest daughter, of which it seems he has been told, by some of
          the good-natured, gossiping Lucases. I shall not sport with your impatience, by reading
          what he says on that point. What relates to yourself, is as follows. "Having thus offered
          you the sincere congratulations of Mrs. Collins and myself on this happy event, let me now
          add a short hint on the subject of another: of which we have been advertised by the same
          authority. Your daughter Elizabeth, it is presumed, will not long bear the name of Bennet,
          after her elder sister has resigned it, and the chosen partner of her fate, may be
          reasonably looked up to, as one of the most illustrious personages in this land."</p>
        <p>"Can you possibly guess, Lizzy, who is meant by this?" "This young gentleman is blessed
          in a peculiar way, with every thing the heart of mortal can most desire,--splendid
          property, noble kindred, and extensive patronage. Yet in spite of all these temptations,
          let me warn my cousin Elizabeth, and yourself, of what evils you may incur, by a
          precipitate closure with this gentleman's proposals, which, of course, you will be
          inclined to take immediate advantage of."</p>
        <p>"Have you any idea, Lizzy, who this gentleman is? But now it comes out."</p>
        <p>"My motive for cautioning you, is as follows. We have reason to imagine that his aunt,
          lady Catherine de Bourgh, does not look on the match with a friendly eye."</p>
        <p>"<hi rend="italic">Mr. Darcy</hi>, you see, is the man! Now, Lizzy, I think I <hi rend="italic">have</hi> surprised you. Could he, or the Lucases, have pitched on any
          man, within the circle of our acquaintance, whose name would have given the lie more
          effectually to what they related? Mr. Darcy, who never looks at any woman but to see a
          blemish, and who probably never looked at <hi rend="italic">you</hi> in his life! It is
          admirable!"</p>
        <p>Elizabeth tried to join in her father's pleasantry, but could only force one most
          reluctant smile. Never had his wit been directed in a manner so little agreeable to
          her.</p>
        <p>"Are you not diverted?"</p>
        <p>"Oh! yes. Pray read on."</p>
        <p>"After mentioning the likelihood of this marriage to her ladyship last night, she
          immediately, with her usual condescension, expressed what she felt on the occasion; when
          it became apparent, that on the score of some family objections on the part of my cousin,
          she would never give her consent to what she termed so disgraceful a match. I thought it
          my duty to give the speediest intelligence of this to my cousin, that she and her noble
          admirer may be aware of what they are about, and not run hastily into a marriage which has
          not been properly sanctioned." "Mr. Collins moreover adds," "I am truly rejoiced that my
          cousin Lydia's sad business has been so well hushed up, and am only concerned that their
          living together before the marriage took place, should be so generally known. I must not,
          however, neglect the duties of my station, or refrain from declaring my amazement, at
          hearing that you received the young couple into your house as soon as they were married.
          It was an encouragement of vice; and had I been the rector of Longbourn, I should very
          strenuously have opposed it. You ought certainly to forgive them as a christian, but never
          to admit them in your sight, or allow their names to be mentioned in your hearing." "<hi rend="italic">that</hi> is his notion of christian forgiveness! The rest of his letter
          is only about his dear Charlotte's situation, and his expectation of a young olive-branch.
          But, Lizzy, you look as if you did not enjoy it. You are not going to be <hi rend="italic">Missish</hi>, I hope, and pretend to be affronted at an idle report. For what do we
          live, but to make sport for our neighbours, and laugh at them in our turn?"</p>
        <p>"Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I am excessively diverted. But it is so strange!"</p>
        <p>"Yes--<hi rend="italic">that</hi> is what makes it amusing. Had they fixed on any other
          man it would have been nothing; but <hi rend="italic">his</hi> perfect indifference, and
            <hi rend="italic">your</hi> pointed dislike, make it so delightfully absurd! Much as I
          abominate writing, I would not give up Mr. Collins's correspondence for any consideration.
          Nay, when I read a letter of his, I cannot help giving him the preference even over
          Wickham, much as I value the impudence and hypocrisy of my son-in-law. And pray, Lizzy,
          what said Lady Catherine about this report? Did she call to refuse her consent?"</p>
        <p>To this question his daughter replied only with a laugh; and as it had been asked without
          the least suspicion, she was not distressed by his repeating it. Elizabeth had never been
          more at a loss to make her feelings appear what they were not. It was necessary to laugh,
          when she would rather have cried. Her father had most cruelly mortified her, by what he
          said of Mr. Darcy's indifference, and she could do nothing but wonder at such a want of
          penetration, or fear that perhaps, instead of his seeing too <hi rend="italic">little</hi>, she might have fancied too <hi rend="italic">much</hi>.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVI.</head>
        <p> Instead of receiving any such letter of excuse from his friend, as Elizabeth half
          expected Mr. Bingley to do, he was able to bring Darcy with him to Longbourn before many
          days had passed after Lady Catherine's visit. The gentlemen arrived early; and, before
          Mrs. Bennet had time to tell him of their having seen his aunt, of which her daughter sat
          in momentary dread, Bingley, who wanted to be alone with Jane, proposed their all walking
          out. It was agreed to. Mrs. Bennet was not in the habit of walking, Mary could never spare
          time, but the remaining five set off together. Bingley and Jane, however, soon allowed the
          others to outstrip them. They lagged behind, while Elizabeth, Kitty, and Darcy, were to
          entertain each other. Very little was said by either; Kitty was too much afraid of him to
          talk; Elizabeth was secretly forming a desperate resolution; and perhaps he might be doing
          the same.</p>
        <p>They walked towards the Lucases, because Kitty wished to call upon Maria; and as
          Elizabeth saw no occasion for making it a general concern, when Kitty left them, she went
          boldly on with him alone. Now was the moment for her resolution to be executed, and, while
          her courage was high, she immediately said,</p>
        <p>"Mr. Darcy, I am a very selfish creature; and, for the sake of giving relief to my own
          feelings, care not how much I may be wounding your's. I can no longer help thanking you
          for your unexampled kindness to my poor sister. Ever since I have known it, I have been
          most anxious to acknowledge to you how gratefully I feel it. Were it known to the rest of
          my family, I should not have merely my own gratitude to express."</p>
        <p>"I am sorry, exceedingly sorry," replied Darcy, in a tone of surprise and emotion, "that
          you have ever been informed of what may, in a mistaken light, have given you uneasiness. I
          did not think Mrs. Gardiner was so little to be trusted."</p>
        <p>"You must not blame my aunt. Lydia's thoughtlessness first betrayed to me that you had
          been concerned in the matter; and, of course, I could not rest till I knew the
          particulars. Let me thank you again and again, in the name of all my family, for that
          generous compassion which induced you to take so much trouble, and bear so many
          mortifications, for the sake of discovering them."</p>
        <p>"If you <hi rend="italic">will</hi> thank me," he replied, "let it be for yourself alone.
          That the wish of giving happiness to you, might add force to the other inducements which
          led me on, I shall not attempt to deny. But your <hi rend="italic">family</hi> owe me
          nothing. Much as I respect them, I believe, I thought only of <hi rend="italic">you</hi>."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth was too much embarrassed to say a word. After a short pause, her companion
          added, "You are too generous to trifle with me. If your feelings are still what they were
          last April, tell me so at once. <hi rend="italic">My</hi> affections and wishes are
          unchanged, but one word from you will silence me on this subject for ever."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth feeling all the more than common awkwardness and anxiety of his situation, now
          forced herself to speak; and immediately, though not very fluently, gave him to
          understand, that her sentiments had undergone so material a change, since the period to
          which he alluded, as to make her receive with gratitude and pleasure, his present
          assurances. The happiness which this reply produced, was such as he had probably never
          felt before; and he expressed himself on the occasion as sensibly and as warmly as a man
          violently in love can be supposed to do. Had Elizabeth been able to encounter his eye, she
          might have seen how well the expression of heart-felt delight, diffused over his face,
          became him; but, though she could not look, she could listen, and he told her of feelings,
          which, in proving of what importance she was to him, made his affection every moment more
          valuable.</p>
        <p>They walked on, without knowing in what direction. There was too much to be thought; and
          felt, and said, for attention to any other objects. She soon learnt that they were
          indebted for their present good understanding to the efforts of his aunt, who <hi rend="italic">did</hi> call on him in her return through London, and there relate her
          journey to Longbourn, its motive, and the substance of her conversation with Elizabeth;
          dwelling emphatically on every expression of the latter, which, in her ladyship's
          apprehension, peculiarly denoted her perverseness and assurance, in the belief that such a
          relation must assist her endeavours to obtain that promise from her nephew, which <hi rend="italic">she</hi> had refused to give. But, unluckily for her ladyship, its effect
          had been exactly contrariwise.</p>
        <p>"It taught me to hope," said he, "as I had scarcely ever allowed myself to hope before. I
          knew enough of your disposition to be certain, that, had you been absolutely, irrevocably
          decided against me, you would have acknowledged it to Lady Catherine, frankly and
          openly."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth coloured and laughed as she replied, "Yes, you know enough of my <hi rend="italic">frankness</hi> to believe me capable of <hi rend="italic">that</hi>. After
          abusing you so abominably to your face, I could have no scruple in abusing you to all your
          relations."</p>
        <p>"What did you say of me, that I did not deserve? For, though your accusations were
          ill-founded, formed on mistaken premises, my behaviour to you at the time, had merited the
          severest reproof. It was unpardonable. I cannot think of it without abhorrence."</p>
        <p>"We will not quarrel for the greater share of blame annexed to that evening," said
          Elizabeth. "The conduct of neither, if strictly examined, will be irreproachable; but
          since then, we have both, I hope, improved in civility."</p>
        <p>"I cannot be so easily reconciled to myself. The recollection of what I then said, of my
          conduct, my manners, my expressions during the whole of it, is now, and has been many
          months, inexpressibly painful to me. Your reproof, so well applied, I shall never forget:
          'had you behaved in a more gentleman-like manner.' Those were your words. You know not,
          you can scarcely conceive, how they have tortured me;--though it was some time, I confess,
          before I was reasonable enough to allow their justice."</p>
        <p>"I was certainly very far from expecting them to make so strong an impression. I had not
          the smallest idea of their being ever felt in such a way."</p>
        <p>"I can easily believe it. You thought me then devoid of every proper feeling, I am sure
          you did. The turn of your countenance I shall never forget, as you said that I could not
          have addressed you in any possible way, that would induce you to accept me."</p>
        <p>"Oh! do not repeat what I then said. These recollections will not do at all. I assure
          you, that I have long been most heartily ashamed of it."</p>
        <p>Darcy mentioned his letter. "Did it," said he, "did it <hi rend="italic">soon</hi> make
          you think better of me? Did you, on reading it, give any credit to its contents?"</p>
        <p>She explained what its effect on her had been, and how gradually all her former
          prejudices had been removed.</p>
        <p>"I knew," said he, "that what I wrote must give you pain, but it was necessary. I hope
          you have destroyed the letter. There was one part especially, the opening of it, which I
          should dread your having the power of reading again. I can remember some expressions which
          might justly make you hate me."</p>
        <p>"The letter shall certainly be burnt, if you believe it essential to the preservation of
          my regard; but, though we have both reason to think my opinions not entirely unalterable,
          they are not, I hope, quite so easily changed as that implies."</p>
        <p>"When I wrote that letter," replied Darcy, "I believed myself perfectly calm and cool,
          but I am since convinced that it was written in a dreadful bitterness of spirit."</p>
        <p>"The letter, perhaps, began in bitterness, but it did not end so. The adieu is charity
          itself. But think no more of the letter. The feelings of the person who wrote, and the
          person who received it, are now so widely different from what they were then, that every
          unpleasant circumstance attending it, ought to be forgotten. You must learn some of my
          philosophy. Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure."</p>
        <p>"I cannot give you credit for any philosophy of the kind. <hi rend="italic">your</hi>
          retrospections must be so totally void of reproach, that the contentment arising from
          them, is not of philosophy, but what is much better, of ignorance. But with <hi rend="italic">me</hi>, it is not so. Painful recollections will intrude, which cannot,
          which ought not to be repelled. I have been a selfish being all my life, in practice,
          though not in principle. As a child I was taught what was <hi rend="italic">right</hi>,
          but I was not taught to correct my temper. I was given good principles, but left to follow
          them in pride and conceit. Unfortunately an only son, (for many years an only <hi rend="italic">child</hi>) I was spoilt by my parents, who though good themselves, (my
          father particularly, all that was benevolent and amiable,) allowed, encouraged, almost
          taught me to be selfish and overbearing, to care for none beyond my own family circle, to
          think meanly of all the rest of the world, to <hi rend="italic">wish</hi> at least to
          think meanly of their sense and worth compared with my own. Such I was, from eight to
          eight and twenty; and such I might still have been but for you, dearest, loveliest
          Elizabeth! What do I not owe you! You taught me a lesson, hard indeed at first, but most
          advantageous. By you, I was properly humbled. I came to you without a doubt of my
          reception. You shewed me how insufficient were all my pretensions to please a woman worthy
          of being pleased."</p>
        <p>"Had you then persuaded yourself that I should?"</p>
        <p>"Indeed I had. What will you think of my vanity? I believed you to be wishing, expecting
          my addresses."</p>
        <p>"My manners must have been in fault, but not intentionally I assure you. I never meant to
          deceive you, but my spirits might often lead me wrong. How you must have hated me after
            <hi rend="italic">that</hi> evening?"</p>
        <p>"Hate you! I was angry perhaps at first, but my anger soon began to take a proper
          direction."</p>
        <p>"I am almost afraid of asking what you thought of me; when we met at Pemberley. You
          blamed me for coming?"</p>
        <p>"No indeed; I felt nothing but surprise."</p>
        <p>"Your surprise could not be greater than <hi rend="italic">mine</hi> in being noticed by
          you. My conscience told me that I deserved no extraordinary politeness, and I confess that
          I did not expect to receive <hi rend="italic">more</hi> than my due."</p>
        <p>"My object <hi rend="italic">then</hi>," replied Darcy, "was to shew you, by every
          civility in my power, that I was not so mean as to resent the past; and I hoped to obtain
          your forgiveness, to lessen your ill opinion, by letting you see that your reproofs had
          been attended to. How soon any other wishes introduced themselves I can hardly tell, but I
          believe in about half an hour after I had seen you."</p>
        <p>He then told her of Georgiana's delight in her acquaintance, and of her disappointment at
          its sudden interruption; which naturally leading to the cause of that interruption, she
          soon learnt that his resolution of following her from Derbyshire in quest of her sister,
          had been formed before he quitted the inn, and that his gravity and thoughtfulness there,
          had arisen from no other struggles than what such a purpose must comprehend.</p>
        <p>She expressed her gratitude again, but it was too painful a subject to each, to be dwelt
          on farther.</p>
        <p>After walking several miles in a leisurely manner, and too busy to know any thing about
          it, they found at last, on examining their watches, that it was time to be at home.</p>
        <p>"What could become of Mr. Bingley and Jane!" was a wonder which introduced the discussion
          of <hi rend="italic">their</hi> affairs. Darcy was delighted with their engagement; his
          friend had given him the earliest information of it.</p>
        <p>"I must ask whether you were surprised?" said Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>"Not at all. When I went away, I felt that it would soon happen."</p>
        <p>"That is to say, you had given your permission. I guessed as much." And though he
          exclaimed at the term, she found that it had been pretty much the case.</p>
        <p>"On the evening before my going to London," said he "I made a confession to him, which I
          believe I ought to have made long ago. I told him of all that had occurred to make my
          former interference in his affairs, absurd and impertinent. His surprise was great. He had
          never had the slightest suspicion. I told him, moreover, that I believed myself mistaken
          in supposing, as I had done, that your sister was indifferent to him; and as I could
          easily perceive that his attachment to her was unabated, I felt no doubt of their
          happiness together."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could not help smiling at his easy manner of directing his friend.</p>
        <p>"Did you speak from your own observation," said she, "when you told him that my sister
          loved him, or merely from my information last spring?"</p>
        <p>"From the former. I had narrowly observed her during the two visits which I had lately
          made her here; and I was convinced of her affection."</p>
        <p>"And your assurance of it, I suppose, carried immediate conviction to him."</p>
        <p>"It did. Bingley is most unaffectedly modest. His diffidence had prevented his depending
          on his own judgment in so anxious a case, but his reliance on mine, made every thing easy.
          I was obliged to confess one thing, which for a time, and not unjustly, offended him. I
          could not allow myself to conceal that your sister had been in town three months last
          winter, that I had known it, and purposely kept it from him. He was angry. But his anger,
          I am persuaded, lasted no longer than he remained in any doubt of your sister's
          sentiments. He has heartily forgiven me now."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth longed to observe that Mr. Bingley had been a most delightful friend; so easily
          guided that his worth was invaluable; but she checked herself. She remembered that he had
          yet to learn to be laught at, and it was rather too early to begin. In anticipating the
          happiness of Bingley, which of course was to be inferior only to his own, he continued the
          conversation till they reached the house. In the hall they parted.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVII.</head>
        <p> "My dear Lizzy, where can you have been walking to?" was a question which Elizabeth
          received from Jane as soon as she entered the room, and from all the others when they sat
          down to table. She had only to say in reply, that they had wandered about, till she was
          beyond her own knowledge. She coloured as she spoke; but neither that, nor any thing else,
          awakened a suspicion of the truth.</p>
        <p>The evening passed quietly, unmarked by any thing extraordinary. The acknowledged lovers
          talked and laughed, the unacknowledged were silent. Darcy was not of a disposition in
          which happiness overflows in mirth; and Elizabeth, agitated and confused, rather <hi rend="italic">knew</hi> that she was happy, than <hi rend="italic">felt</hi> herself to
          be so; for, besides the immediate embarrassment, there were other evils before her. She
          anticipated what would be felt in the family when her situation became known; she was
          aware that no one liked him but Jane; and even feared that with the others it was a <hi rend="italic">dislike</hi> which not all his fortune and consequence might do away.</p>
        <p>At night she opened her heart to Jane. Though suspicion was very far from Miss Bennet's
          general habits, she was absolutely incredulous here.</p>
        <p>"You are joking, Lizzy. This cannot be!--engaged to Mr. Darcy! No, no, you shall not
          deceive me. I know it to be impossible."</p>
        <p>"This is a wretched beginning indeed! My sole dependence was on you; and I am sure nobody
          else will believe me, if you do not. Yet, indeed, I am in earnest. I speak nothing but the
          truth. He still loves me, and we are engaged."</p>
        <p>Jane looked at her doubtingly. "Oh, Lizzy! it cannot be. I know how much you dislike
          him."</p>
        <p>"You know nothing of the matter. <hi rend="italic">that</hi> is all to be forgot. Perhaps
          I did not always love him so well as I do now. But in such cases as these, a good memory
          is unpardonable. This is the last time I shall ever remember it myself."</p>
        <p>Miss Bennet still looked all amazement. Elizabeth again, and more seriously assured her
          of its truth.</p>
        <p>"Good Heaven! can it be really so! Yet now I must believe you," cried Jane. "My dear,
          dear Lizzy, I would--I do congratulate you--but are you certain? forgive the question--are
          you quite certain that you can be happy with him?"</p>
        <p>"There can be no doubt of that. It is settled between us already, that we are to be the
          happiest couple in the world. But are you pleased, Jane? Shall you like to have such a
          brother?"</p>
        <p>"Very, very much. Nothing could give either Bingley or myself more delight. But we
          considered it, we talked of it as impossible. And do you really love him quite well
          enough? Oh, Lizzy! do any thing rather than marry without affection. Are you quite sure
          that you feel what you ought to do?"</p>
        <p>"Oh, yes! You will only think I feel <hi rend="italic">more</hi> than I ought to do, when
          I tell you all."</p>
        <p>"What do you mean?"</p>
        <p>"Why, I must confess, that I love him better than I do Bingley. I am afraid you will be
          angry."</p>
        <p>"My dearest sister, now <hi rend="italic">be</hi> be serious. I want to talk very
          seriously. Let me know every thing that I am to know, without delay. Will you tell me how
          long you have loved him?"</p>
        <p>"It has been coming on so gradually, that I hardly know when it began. But I believe I
          must date it from my first seeing his beautiful grounds at Pemberley."</p>
        <p>Another intreaty that she would be serious, however, produced the desired effect; and she
          soon satisfied Jane by her solemn assurances of attachment. When convinced on that
          article, Miss Bennet had nothing farther to wish.</p>
        <p>"Now I am quite happy," said she, "for you will be as happy as myself. I always had a
          value for him. Were it for nothing but his love of you, I must always have esteemed him;
          but now, as Bingley's friend and your husband, there can be only Bingley and yourself more
          dear to me. But Lizzy, you have been very sly, very reserved with me. How little did you
          tell me of what passed at Pemberley and Lambton! I owe all that I know of it, to another,
          not to you."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth told her the motives of her secrecy. She had been unwilling to mention Bingley;
          and the unsettled state of her own feelings had made her equally avoid the name of his
          friend. But now she would no longer conceal from her, his share in Lydia's marriage. All
          was acknowledged, and half the night spent in conversation.</p>
        <p> * * * * *</p>
        <p>"Good gracious!" cried Mrs. Bennet, as she stood at a window the next morning, "if that
          disagreeable Mr. Darcy is not coming here again with our dear Bingley! What can he mean by
          being so tiresome as to be always coming here? I had no notion but he would go a shooting,
          or something or other, and not disturb us with his company. What shall we do with him?
          Lizzy, you must walk out with him again, that he may not be in Bingley's way."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth could hardly help laughing at so convenient a proposal; yet was really vexed
          that her mother should be always giving him such an epithet.</p>
        <p>As soon as they entered, Bingley looked at her so expressively, and shook hands with such
          warmth, as left no doubt of his good information; and he soon afterwards said aloud, "Mr.
          Bennet, have you no more lanes hereabouts in which Lizzy may lose her way again
          to-day?"</p>
        <p>"I advise Mr. Darcy, and Lizzy, and Kitty," said Mrs. Bennet, "to walk to Oakham Mount
          this morning. It is a nice long walk, and Mr. Darcy has never seen the view."</p>
        <p>"It may do very well for the others," replied Mr. Bingley; "but I am sure it will be too
          much for Kitty. Wont it, Kitty?"</p>
        <p>Kitty owned that she had rather stay at home. Darcy professed a great curiosity to see
          the view from the Mount, and Elizabeth silently consented. As she went up stairs to get
          ready, Mrs. Bennet followed her, saying,</p>
        <p>"I am quite sorry, Lizzy, that you should be forced to have that disagreeable man all to
          yourself. But I hope you will not mind it: it is all for Jane's sake, you know; and there
          is no occasion for talking to him, except just now and then. So, do not put yourself to
          inconvenience."</p>
        <p>During their walk, it was resolved that Mr. Bennet's consent should be asked in the
          course of the evening. Elizabeth reserved to herself the application for her mother's. She
          could not determine how her mother would take it; sometimes doubting whether all his
          wealth and grandeur would be enough to overcome her abhorrence of the man. But whether she
          were violently set against the match, or violently delighted with it, it was certain that
          her manner would be equally ill adapted to do credit to her sense; and she could no more
          bear that Mr. Darcy should hear the first raptures of her joy, than the first vehemence of
          her disapprobation.</p>
        <p> * * * * *</p>
        <p>In the evening, soon after Mr. Bennet withdrew to the library, she saw Mr. Darcy rise
          also and follow him, and her agitation on seeing it was extreme. She did not fear her
          father's opposition, but he was going to be made unhappy, and that it should be through
          her means, that <hi rend="italic">she</hi>, his favourite child, should be distressing him
          by her choice, should be filling him with fears and regrets in disposing of her, was a
          wretched reflection, and she sat in misery till Mr. Darcy appeared again, when, looking at
          him, she was a little relieved by his smile. In a few minutes he approached the table
          where she was sitting with Kitty; and, while pretending to admire her work, said in a
          whisper, "Go to your father, he wants you in the library." She was gone directly.</p>
        <p>Her father was walking about the room, looking grave and anxious. "Lizzy," said he, "what
          are you doing? Are you out of your senses, to be accepting this man? Have not you always
          hated him?"</p>
        <p>How earnestly did she then wish that her former opinions had been more reasonable, her
          expressions more moderate! It would have spared her from explanations and professions
          which it was exceedingly awkward to give; but they were now necessary, and she assured him
          with some confusion, of her attachment to Mr. Darcy.</p>
        <p>"Or in other words, you are determined to have him. He is rich, to be sure, and you may
          have more fine clothes and fine carriages than Jane. But will they make you happy?"</p>
        <p>"Have you any other objection," said Elizabeth, "than your belief of my
          indifference?"</p>
        <p>"None at all. We all know him to be a proud, unpleasant sort of man; but this would be
          nothing if you really liked him."</p>
        <p>"I do, I do like him," she replied, with tears in her eyes, "I love him. Indeed he has no
          improper pride. He is perfectly amiable. You do not know what he really is; then pray do
          not pain me by speaking of him in such terms."</p>
        <p>"Lizzy," said her father, "I have given him my consent. He is the kind of man, indeed, to
          whom I should never dare refuse any thing, which he condescended to ask. I now give it to
            <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, if you are resolved on having him. But let me advise you to
          think better of it. I know your disposition, Lizzy. I know that you could be neither happy
          nor respectable, unless you truly esteemed your husband; unless you looked up to him as a
          superior. Your lively talents would place you in the greatest danger in an unequal
          marriage. You could scarcely escape discredit and misery. My child, let me not have the
          grief of seeing <hi rend="italic">you</hi> unable to respect your partner in life. You
          know not what you are about."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth, still more affected, was earnest and solemn in her reply; and at length, by
          repeated assurances that Mr. Darcy was really the object of her choice, by explaining the
          gradual change which her estimation of him had undergone, relating her absolute certainty
          that his affection was not the work of a day, but had stood the test of many months
          suspense, and enumerating with energy all his good qualities, she did conquer her father's
          incredulity, and reconcile him to the match.</p>
        <p>"Well, my dear," said he, when she ceased speaking, "I have no more to say. If this be
          the case, he deserves you. I could not have parted with you, my Lizzy, to any one less
          worthy."</p>
        <p>To complete the favourable impression, she then told him what Mr. Darcy had voluntarily
          done for Lydia. He heard her with astonishment.</p>
        <p>"This is an evening of wonders, indeed! And so, Darcy did every thing; made up the match,
          gave the money, paid the fellow's debts, and got him his commission! So much the better.
          It will save me a world of trouble and economy. Had it been your uncle's doing, I must and
            <hi rend="italic">would</hi> have paid him; but these violent young lovers carry every
          thing their own way. I shall offer to pay him to-morrow; he will rant and storm about his
          love for you, and there will be an end of the matter."</p>
        <p>He then recollected her embarrassment a few days before, on his reading Mr. Collins's
          letter; and after laughing at her some time, allowed her at last to go--saying, as she
          quitted the room, "If any young men come for Mary or Kitty, send them in, for I am quite
          at leisure."</p>
        <p>Elizabeth's mind was now relieved from a very heavy weight; and, after half an hour's
          quiet reflection in her own room, she was able to join the others with tolerable
          composure. Every thing was too recent for gaiety, but the evening passed tranquilly away;
          there was no longer any thing material to be dreaded, and the comfort of ease and
          familiarity would come in time.</p>
        <p>When her mother went up to her dressing-room at night, she followed her, and made the
          important communication. Its effect was most extraordinary; for on first hearing it, Mrs.
          Bennet sat quite still, and unable to utter a syllable. Nor was it under many, many
          minutes, that she could comprehend what she heard; though not in general backward to
          credit what was for the advantage of her family, or that came in the shape of a lover to
          any of them. She began at length to recover, to fidget about in her chair, get up, sit
          down again, wonder, and bless herself.</p>
        <p>"Good gracious! Lord bless me! only think! dear me! Mr. Darcy! Who would have thought it!
          And is it really true? Oh! my sweetest Lizzy! how rich and how great you will be! What
          pin-money, what jewels, what carriages you will have! Jane's is nothing to it--nothing at
          all. I am so pleased--so happy. Such a charming man!--so handsome! so tall!--Oh, my dear
          Lizzy! pray apologise for my having disliked him so much before. I hope he will overlook
          it. Dear, dear Lizzy. A house in town! Every thing that is charming! Three daughters
          married! Ten thousand a year! Oh, Lord! What will become of me. I shall go
          distracted."</p>
        <p>This was enough to prove that her approbation need not be doubted: and Elizabeth,
          rejoicing that such an effusion was heard only by herself, soon went away. But before she
          had been three minutes in her own room, her mother followed her.</p>
        <p>"My dearest child," she cried, "I can think of nothing else! Ten thousand a year, and
          very likely more! 'Tis as good as a Lord! And a special licence. You must and shall be
          married by a special licence. But my dearest love, tell me what dish Mr. Darcy is
          particularly fond of, that I may have it to-morrow."</p>
        <p>This was a sad omen of what her mother's behaviour to the gentleman himself might be; and
          Elizabeth found, that though in the certain possession of his warmest affection, and
          secure of her relations' consent, there was still something to be wished for. But the
          morrow passed off much better than she expected; for Mrs. Bennet luckily stood in such awe
          of her intended son-in-law, that she ventured not to speak to him, unless it was in her
          power to offer him any attention, or mark her deference for his opinion.</p>
        <p>Elizabeth had the satisfaction of seeing her father taking pains to get acquainted with
          him; and Mr. Bennet soon assured her that he was rising every hour in his esteem.</p>
        <p>"I admire all my three sons-in-law highly," said he. "Wickham, perhaps, is my favourite;
          but I think I shall like <hi rend="italic">your</hi> husband quite as well as Jane's."</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XVIII.</head>
        <p> Elizabeth's spirits soon rising to playfulness again, she wanted Mr. Darcy to account
          for his having ever fallen in love with her. "How could you begin?" said she. "I can
          comprehend your going on charmingly, when you had once made a beginning; but what could
          set you off in the first place?"</p>
        <p>"I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look, or the words, which laid the
          foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I <hi rend="italic">had</hi> begun."</p>
        <p>"My beauty you had early withstood, and as for my manners--my behaviour to <hi rend="italic">you</hi> was at least always bordering on the uncivil, and I never spoke
          to you without rather wishing to give you pain than not. Now be sincere; did you admire me
          for my impertinence?"</p>
        <p>"For the liveliness of your mind, I did."</p>
        <p>"You may as well call it impertinence at once. It was very little less. The fact is, that
          you were sick of civility, of deference, of officious attention. You were disgusted with
          the women who were always speaking and looking, and thinking for <hi rend="italic">your</hi> approbation alone. I roused, and interested you, because I was so unlike <hi rend="italic">them</hi>. Had you not been really amiable you would have hated me for it;
          but in spite of the pains you took to disguise yourself, your feelings were always noble
          and just; and in your heart, you thoroughly despised the persons who so assiduously
          courted you. There--I have saved you the trouble of accounting for it; and really, all
          things considered, I begin to think it perfectly reasonable. To be sure, you knew no
          actual good of me--but nobody thinks of <hi rend="italic">that</hi> when they fall in
          love."</p>
        <p>"Was there no good in your affectionate behaviour to Jane, while she was ill at
          Netherfield?"</p>
        <p>"Dearest Jane! who could have done less for her? But make a virtue of it by all means. My
          good qualities are under your protection, and you are to exaggerate them as much as
          possible; and, in return, it belongs to me to find occasions for teazing and quarrelling
          with you as often as may be; and I shall begin directly by asking you what made you so
          unwilling to come to the point at last. What made you so shy of me, when you first called,
          and afterwards dined here? Why, especially, when you called, did you look as if you did
          not care about me?"</p>
        <p>"Because you were grave and silent, and gave me no encouragement."</p>
        <p>"But I was embarrassed."</p>
        <p>"And so was I."</p>
        <p>"You might have talked to me more when you came to dinner."</p>
        <p>"A man who had felt less, might."</p>
        <p>"How unlucky that you should have a reasonable answer to give, and that I should be so
          reasonable as to admit it! But I wonder how long you <hi rend="italic">would</hi> have
          gone on, if you had been left to yourself. I wonder when you <hi rend="italic">would</hi>
          have spoken, if I had not asked you! My resolution of thanking you for your kindness to
          Lydia had certainly great effect. <hi rend="italic">Too much</hi>, I am afraid; for what
          becomes of the moral, if our comfort springs from a breach of promise, for I ought not to
          have mentioned the subject? This will never do."</p>
        <p>"You need not distress yourself. The moral will be perfectly fair. Lady Catherine's
          unjustifiable endeavours to separate us, were the means of removing all my doubts. I am
          not indebted for my present happiness to your eager desire of expressing your gratitude. I
          was not in a humour to wait for any opening of your's. My aunt's intelligence had given me
          hope, and I was determined at once to know every thing."</p>
        <p>"Lady Catherine has been of infinite use, which ought to make her happy, for she loves to
          be of use. But tell me, what did you come down to Netherfield for? Was it merely to ride
          to Longbourn and be embarrassed? or had you intended any more serious consequence?"</p>
        <p>"My real purpose was to see <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, and to judge, if I could, whether
          I might ever hope to make you love me. My avowed one, or what I avowed to myself, was to
          see whether your sister were still partial to Bingley, and if she were, to make the
          confession to him which I have since made."</p>
        <p>"Shall you ever have courage to announce to Lady Catherine, what is to befall her?"</p>
        <p>"I am more likely to want time than courage, Elizabeth. But it ought to be done, and if
          you will give me a sheet of paper, it shall be done directly."</p>
        <p>"And if I had not a letter to write myself, I might sit by you, and admire the evenness
          of your writing, as another young lady once did. But I have an aunt, too, who must not be
          longer neglected."</p>
        <p>From an unwillingness to confess how much her intimacy with Mr. Darcy had been
          over-rated, Elizabeth had never yet answered Mrs. Gardiner's long letter, but now, having
            <hi rend="italic">that</hi> to communicate which she knew would be most welcome, she was
          almost ashamed to find, that her uncle and aunt had already lost three days of happiness,
          and immediately wrote as follows:</p>
        <p> "I would have thanked you before, my dear aunt, as I ought to have done, for your long,
          kind, satisfactory, detail of particulars; but to say the truth, I was too cross to write.
          You supposed more than really existed. But <hi rend="italic">now</hi> suppose as much as
          you chuse; give a loose to your fancy, indulge your imagination in every possible flight
          which the subject will afford, and unless you believe me actually married, you cannot
          greatly err. You must write again very soon, and praise him a great deal more than you did
          in your last. I thank you, again and again, for not going to the Lakes. How could I be so
          silly as to wish it! Your idea of the ponies is delightful. We will go round the Park
          every day. I am the happiest creature in the world. Perhaps other people have said so
          before, but not one with such justice. I am happier even than Jane; she only smiles, I
          laugh. Mr. Darcy sends you all the love in the world, that he can spare from me. You are
          all to come to Pemberley at Christmas.</p>
        <p> Your's, &amp;c."</p>
        <p>Mr. Darcy's letter to Lady Catherine, was in a different style; and still different from
          either, was what Mr. Bennet sent to Mr. Collins, in reply to his last.</p>
        <p> "DEAR SIR,</p>
        <p> "I must trouble you once more for congratulations. Elizabeth will soon be the wife of
          Mr. Darcy. Console Lady Catherine as well as you can. But, if I were you, I would stand by
          the nephew. He has more to give.</p>
        <p> "Your's sincerely, &amp;c."</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley's congratulations to her brother, on his approaching marriage, were all that
          was affectionate and insincere. She wrote even to Jane on the occasion, to express her
          delight, and repeat all her former professions of regard. Jane was not deceived, but she
          was affected; and though feeling no reliance on her, could not help writing her a much
          kinder answer than she knew was deserved.</p>
        <p>The joy which Miss Darcy expressed on receiving similar information, was as sincere as
          her brother's in sending it. Four sides of paper were insufficient to contain all her
          delight, and all her earnest desire of being loved by her sister.</p>
        <p>Before any answer could arrive from Mr. Collins, or any congratulations to Elizabeth,
          from his wife, the Longbourn family heard that the Collinses were come themselves to Lucas
          lodge. The reason of this sudden removal was soon evident. Lady Catherine had been
          rendered so exceedingly angry by the contents of her nephew's letter, that Charlotte,
          really rejoicing in the match, was anxious to get away till the storm was blown over. At
          such a moment, the arrival of her friend was a sincere pleasure to Elizabeth, though in
          the course of their meetings she must sometimes think the pleasure dearly bought, when she
          saw Mr. Darcy exposed to all the parading and obsequious civility of her husband. He bore
          it however with admirable calmness. He could even listen to Sir William Lucas, when he
          complimented him on carrying away the brightest jewel of the country, and expressed his
          hopes of their all meeting frequently at St. James's, with very decent composure. If he
          did shrug his shoulders, it was not till Sir William was out of sight.</p>
        <p>Mrs. Philips's vulgarity was another, and perhaps a greater tax on his forbearance; and
          though Mrs. Philips, as well as her sister, stood in too much awe of him to speak with the
          familiarity which Bingley's good humour encouraged, yet, whenever she <hi rend="italic">did</hi> speak, she must be vulgar. Nor was her respect for him, though it made her
          more quiet, at all likely to make her more elegant. Elizabeth did all she could, to shield
          him from the frequent notice of either, and was ever anxious to keep him to herself, and
          to those of her family with whom he might converse without mortification; and though the
          uncomfortable feelings arising from all this took from the season of courtship much of its
          pleasure, it added to the hope of the future; and she looked forward with delight to the
          time when they should be removed from society so little pleasing to either, to all the
          comfort and elegance of their family party at Pemberley.</p>
        <p/>
        </div>
                        <div type="chapter">
                            <head type="sub">CHAPTER XIX.</head>
        <p> Happy for all her maternal feelings was the day on which Mrs. Bennet got rid of her two
          most deserving daughters. With what delighted pride she afterwards visited Mrs. Bingley
          and talked of Mrs. Darcy may be guessed. I wish I could say, for the sake of her family,
          that the accomplishment of her earnest desire in the establishment of so many of her
          children, produced so happy an effect as to make her a sensible, amiable, well-informed
          woman for the rest of her life; though perhaps it was lucky for her husband, who might not
          have relished domestic felicity in so unusual a form, that she still was occasionally
          nervous and invariably silly.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bennet missed his second daughter exceedingly; his affection for her drew him oftener
          from home than any thing else could do. He delighted in going to Pemberley, especially
          when he was least expected.</p>
        <p>Mr. Bingley and Jane remained at Netherfield only a twelvemonth. So near a vicinity to
          her mother and Meryton relations was not desirable even to <hi rend="italic">his</hi> easy
          temper, or <hi rend="italic">her</hi> affectionate heart. The darling wish of his sisters
          was then gratified; he bought an estate in a neighbouring county to Derbyshire, and Jane
          and Elizabeth, in addition to every other source of happiness, were within thirty miles of
          each other.</p>
        <p>Kitty, to her very material advantage, spent the chief of her time with her two elder
          sisters. In society so superior to what she had generally known, her improvement was
          great. She was not of so ungovernable a temper as Lydia, and, removed from the influence
          of Lydia's example, she became, by proper attention and management, less irritable, less
          ignorant, and less insipid. From the farther disadvantage of Lydia's society she was of
          course carefully kept, and though Mrs. Wickham frequently invited her to come and stay
          with her, with the promise of balls and young men, her father would never consent to her
          going.</p>
        <p>Mary was the only daughter who remained at home; and she was necessarily drawn from the
          pursuit of accomplishments by Mrs. Bennet's being quite unable to sit alone. Mary was
          obliged to mix more with the world, but she could still moralize over every morning visit;
          and as she was no longer mortified by comparisons between her sisters' beauty and her own,
          it was suspected by her father that she submitted to the change without much
          reluctance.</p>
        <p>As for Wickham and Lydia, their characters suffered no revolution from the marriage of
          her sisters. He bore with philosophy the conviction that Elizabeth must now become
          acquainted with whatever of his ingratitude and falsehood had before been unknown to her;
          and in spite of every thing, was not wholly without hope that Darcy might yet be prevailed
          on to make his fortune. The congratulatory letter which Elizabeth received from Lydia on
          her marriage, explained to her that, by his wife at least, if not by himself, such a hope
          was cherished. The letter was to this effect:</p>
        <p> "MY DEAR LIZZY,</p>
        <p> "I wish you joy. If you love Mr. Darcy half as well as I do my dear Wickham, you must be
          very happy. It is a great comfort to have you so rich, and when you have nothing else to
          do, I hope you will think of us. I am sure Wickham would like a place at court very much,
          and I do not think we shall have quite money enough to live upon without some help. Any
          place would do, of about three or four hundred a year; but, however, do not speak to Mr.
          Darcy about it, if you had rather not.</p>
        <p> "Yours, &amp;c."</p>
        <p>As it happened that Elizabeth had <hi rend="italic">much</hi> rather not, she endeavoured
          in her answer to put an end to every intreaty and expectation of the kind. Such relief,
          however, as it was in her power to afford, by the practice of what might be called economy
          in her own private expences, she frequently sent them. It had always been evident to her
          that such an income as theirs, under the direction of two persons so extravagant in their
          wants, and heedless of the future, must be very insufficient to their support; and
          whenever they changed their quarters, either Jane or herself were sure of being applied
          to, for some little assistance towards discharging their bills. Their manner of living,
          even when the restoration of peace dismissed them to a home, was unsettled in the extreme.
          They were always moving from place to place in quest of a cheap situation, and always
          spending more than they ought. His affection for her soon sunk into indifference; her's
          lasted a little longer; and in spite of her youth and her manners, she retained all the
          claims to reputation which her marriage had given her.</p>
        <p>Though Darcy could never receive <hi rend="italic">him</hi> at Pemberley, yet, for
          Elizabeth's sake, he assisted him farther in his profession. Lydia was occasionally a
          visitor there, when her husband was gone to enjoy himself in London or Bath; and with the
          Bingleys they both of them frequently staid so long, that even Bingley's good humour was
          overcome, and he proceeded so far as to <hi rend="italic">talk</hi> of giving them a hint
          to be gone.</p>
        <p>Miss Bingley was very deeply mortified by Darcy's marriage; but as she thought it
          advisable to retain the right of visiting at Pemberley, she dropt all her resentment; was
          fonder than ever of Georgiana, almost as attentive to Darcy as heretofore, and paid off
          every arrear of civility to Elizabeth.</p>
        <p>Pemberley was now Georgiana's home; and the attachment of the sisters was exactly what
          Darcy had hoped to see. They were able to love each other, even as well as they intended.
          Georgiana had the highest opinion in the world of Elizabeth; though at first she often
          listened with an astonishment bordering on alarm, at her lively, sportive, manner of
          talking to her brother. He, who had always inspired in herself a respect which almost
          overcame her affection, she now saw the object of open pleasantry. Her mind received
          knowledge which had never before fallen in her way. By Elizabeth's instructions she began
          to comprehend that a woman may take liberties with her husband, which a brother will not
          always allow in a sister more than ten years younger than himself.</p>
        <p>Lady Catherine was extremely indignant on the marriage of her nephew; and as she gave way
          to all the genuine frankness of her character, in her reply to the letter which announced
          its arrangement, she sent him language so very abusive, especially of Elizabeth, that for
          some time all intercourse was at an end. But at length, by Elizabeth's persuasion, he was
          prevailed on to overlook the offence, and seek a reconciliation; and, after a little
          farther resistance on the part of his aunt, her resentment gave way, either to her
          affection for him, or her curiosity to see how his wife conducted herself; and she
          condescended to wait on them at Pemberley, in spite of that pollution which its woods had
          received, not merely from the presence of such a mistress, but the visits of her uncle and
          aunt from the city.</p>
        <p>With the Gardiners, they were always on the most intimate terms. Darcy, as well as
          Elizabeth, really loved them; and they were both ever sensible of the warmest gratitude
          towards the persons who, by bringing her into Derbyshire, had been the means of uniting
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            <titlePart>JANE EYRE.<lb/>
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            <titlePart>An Autobiography.<lb/>
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             <titlePart>EDITED BY</titlePart> <lb/>
               
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                            <ref target="Currer_" corresp="Currer">CURRER BELL.</ref>
                            <note xml:id="Currer" target="Currer_">
                                <p>"Currer Bell" is the pseudonym of Charlotte Bronte. Like her sisters Emily and Anne, Charlotte was aware that publishing under a woman's name might be viewed negatively by some contemporary readers, so she came up with an ambiguously-gendered pen name. Emily published as "Ellis Bell" and Anne published as "Acton Bell."</p>
                 <p>Our edition follows the first edition, published in 1847. Bronte published prefaces to the second and third editions, which we reprint here.</p>
                <p>THE AUTHOR'S PREFACE
                    TO THE SECOND EDITION</p>
                 <p>   A PREFACE to the first edition of <hi rend="italic">Jane Eyre</hi> being unnecessary, I
                     gave none: this second edition demands a few words both of
                     acknowledgment and miscellaneous remark.</p>
                 <p>   My thanks are due in three quarters.</p>
                 <p>   To the Public, for the indulgent ear it has inclined to a plain
                     tale with few pretensions.</p>
                 <p>   To the Press, for the fair field its honest suffrage has opened
                     to an obscure aspirant.</p>
                 <p>   To my Publishers, for the aid their tact, their energy, their
                     practical sense and frank liberality have afforded an unknown and
                     unrecommended Author.</p>
                 <p>   The Press and the Public are but vague personifications for me, and
                     I must thank them in vague terms; but my Publishers are definite: so
                     are certain generous critics who have encouraged me as only
                     large-hearted and high-minded men know how to encourage a struggling
                     stranger; to them, i.e., to my Publishers and the select Reviewers,
                     I say cordially, Gentlemen, I thank you from my heart.</p>
                 <p>   Having thus acknowledged what I owe those who have aided and
                     approved me, I turn to another class; a small one, so far as I know,
                     but not, therefore, to be overlooked. I mean the timorous or carping
                     few who doubt the tendency of such books as Jane Eyre: in whose eyes
                     whatever is unusual is wrong; whose ears detect in each protest
                     against bigotry- that parent of crime- an insult to piety, that regent
                     of God on earth. I would suggest to such doubters certain obvious
                     distinctions; I would remind them of certain simple truths.</p>
                 <p>   Conventionality is not morality. Self-righteousness is not
                     religion. To attack the first is not to assail the last. To pluck
                     the mask from the face of the Pharisee, is not to lift an impious hand
                     to the Crown of Thorns.</p>
                 <p>   These things and deeds are diametrically opposed: they are as
                     distinct as is vice from virtue. Men too often confound them: they
                     should not be confounded: appearance should not be mistaken for truth;
                     narrow human doctrines, that only tend to elate and magnify a few,
                     should not be substituted for the world-redeeming creed of Christ.
                     There is- I repeat it- a difference; and it is a good, and not a bad
                     action to mark broadly and clearly the line of separation between
                     them.</p>
                 <p>   The world may not like to see these ideas dissevered, for it has
                     been accustomed to blend them; finding it convenient to make
                     external show pass for sterling worth- to let white-washed walls vouch
                     for clean shrines. It may hate him who dares to scrutinise and expose-
                     to rase the gilding, and show base metal under it- to penetrate the
                     sepulchre, and reveal charnel relics: but hate as it will, it is
                     indebted to him.</p>
                 <p>   Ahab did not like Micaiah, because he never prophesied good
                     concerning him, but evil; probably he liked the sycophant son of
                     Chenaanah better; yet might Ahab have escaped a bloody death, had he
                     but stopped his ears to flattery, and opened them to faithful counsel.</p>
                 <p>   There is a man in our own days whose words are not framed to tickle
                     delicate ears: who, to my thinking, comes before the great ones of
                     society, much as the son of Imlah came before the throned Kings of
                     Judah and Israel; and who speaks truth as deep, with a power as
                     prophet-like and as vital- a mien as dauntless and as daring. Is the
                     satirist of Vanity Fair admired in high places? I cannot tell; but I
                     think if some of those amongst whom he hurls the Greek fire of his
                     sarcasm, and over whom he flashes the levin-brand of his denunciation,
                     were to take his warnings in time- they or their seed might yet escape
                     a fatal Ramoth-Gilead.</p>
                 <p>   Why have I alluded to this man? I have alluded to him, Reader,
                     because I think I see in him an intellect profounder and more unique
                     than his contemporaries have yet recognised; because I regard him as
                     the first social regenerator of the day- as the very master of that
                     working corps who would restore to rectitude the warped system of
                     things; because I think no commentator on his writings has yet found
                     the comparison that suits him, the terms which rightly characterise
                     his talent. They say he is like Fielding: they talk of his wit,
                     humour, comic powers. He resembles Fielding as an eagle does a
                     vulture: Fielding could stoop on carrion, but Thackeray never does.
                     His wit is bright, his humour attractive, but both bear the same
                     relation to his serious genius that the mere lambent sheet-lightning
                     playing under the edge of the summer-cloud does to the electric
                     death-spark hid in its womb. Finally, I have alluded to Mr. Thackeray,
                     because to him- if he will accept the tribute of a total stranger- I
                     have dedicated this second edition of Jane Eyre.</p>
                 <p>                                                         CURRER BELL.</p>
                 <p>   December 21st, 1847.</p>
                 <p>                       THE AUTHOR'S NOTE
                     TO THE THIRD EDITION</p>
                 <p>   I AVAIL myself of the opportunity which a third edition of Jane
                     Eyre affords me, of again addressing a word to the Public, to
                     explain that my claim to the title of novelist rests on this one
                     work alone. If, therefore, the authorship of other works of fiction
                     has been attributed to me, an honour is awarded where it is not
                     merited; and consequently, denied where it is justly due.</p>
                 <p>   This explanation will serve to rectify mistakes which may already
                     have been made, and to prevent future errors.</p>
                 <p>                                                         CURRER BELL.</p>
                 <p>   April 13th, 1848.</p>
             
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            <titlePart>IN THREE VOLUMES</titlePart>
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             <titlePart>VOL. I.</titlePart>
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<head>JANE EYRE.</head>
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                            <head>CHAPTER I.</head>

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                              <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/bronte-jane-eyre/janeeyre_01_bronte_64kb.mp3"/>Librivox recording of Chapter One, read by Elizabeth Klett.</note>
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<p>There was no possibility of taking a walk that day. We had been
wandering, indeed, in the leafless shrubbery an hour in the morning;
but since dinner (Mrs. Reed, when there was no company, dined early)
the cold winter wind had brought with it clouds so sombre, and a rain
so penetrating, that further outdoor exercise was now out of the
question.</p>

<p>I was glad of it: I never liked long walks, especially on chilly
afternoons: dreadful to me was the coming home in the raw twilight,
with nipped fingers and toes, and a heart saddened by the chidings of
Bessie, the nurse, and humbled by the consciousness of my physical
inferiority to Eliza, John, and Georgiana Reed.</p>

<p>The said Eliza, John, and Georgiana were now clustered round their mama
in the drawing-room: she lay reclined on a sofa by the fireside,
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and with her darlings about her (for the time neither quarrelling nor
crying) looked perfectly happy. Me, she had dispensed from joining the
group; saying, “She regretted to be under the necessity of keeping me
at a distance; but that until she heard from Bessie, and could discover
by her own observation, that I was endeavouring in good earnest to
acquire a more sociable and childlike disposition, a more attractive
and sprightly manner—something lighter, franker, more natural, as it
were—she really must exclude me from privileges intended only for
contented, happy, little children.”</p>

                     <p>“What does Bessie say I have done?” I asked.</p>

<p>“Jane, I don’t like cavillers or questioners; besides, there is
something truly forbidding in a child taking up her elders in that
manner. Be seated somewhere; and until you can speak pleasantly, remain
silent.”</p>

<p>A small breakfast-room adjoined the drawing-room: I slipped in there. It
contained a bookcase: I soon possessed myself of a volume, taking care
that it should be one stored with pictures. I mounted into the
window-seat: gathering up my feet, I sat cross-legged, like a Turk;
and, having drawn the red moreen curtain nearly close, I was shrined in
double retirement.</p>

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<p>Folds of scarlet drapery shut in my view to the right hand; to the left
were the clear panes of glass, protecting, but not separating me from
the drear November day. At intervals, while turning over the leaves of
my book, I studied the aspect of that winter afternoon. Afar, it
offered a pale blank of mist and cloud; near a scene of wet lawn and
storm-beat shrub, with ceaseless rain sweeping away wildly before a
long and lamentable blast.</p>

<p>I returned to my book—Bewick’s History of British Birds: the
letterpress thereof I cared little for, generally speaking; and yet
there were certain introductory pages that, child as I was, I could not
pass quite as a blank. They were those which treat of the haunts of
sea-fowl; of “the solitary rocks and promontories” by them only
inhabited; of the coast of Norway, studded with isles from its southern
extremity, the Lindeness, or Naze, to the North Cape—</p>

<lg type="stanza">
   <l>“Where the Northern Ocean, in vast whirls,</l>
      <l>Boils round the naked, melancholy isles</l>
         <l>Of farthest Thule; and the Atlantic surge</l>
            <l>Pours in among the stormy Hebrides.”</l>
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<p>Nor could I pass unnoticed the suggestion of the bleak shores of
Lapland, Siberia, Spitzbergen, Nova Zembla, Iceland, Greenland, with
“the vast sweep of the Arctic Zone, and those forlorn 

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regions of dreary
space,—that reservoir of frost and snow, where firm fields of ice, the
accumulation of centuries of winters, glazed in Alpine heights above
heights, surround the pole, and concentre the multiplied rigours of
extreme cold.” Of these death-white realms I formed an idea of my own:
shadowy, like all the half-comprehended notions that float dim through
children’s brains, but strangely impressive. The words in these
introductory pages connected themselves with the succeeding vignettes,
and gave significance to the rock standing up alone in a sea of billow
and spray; to the broken boat stranded on a desolate coast; to the cold
and ghastly moon glancing through bars of cloud at a wreck just
sinking.</p>

<p>I cannot tell what sentiment haunted the quite solitary churchyard,
with its inscribed headstone; its gate, its two trees, its low horizon,
girdled by a broken wall, and its newly-risen crescent, attesting the
hour of eventide.</p>

<p>The two ships becalmed on a torpid sea, I believed to be marine
phantoms.</p>

<p>The fiend pinning down the thief’s pack behind him, I passed over
quickly: it was an object of terror.</p>

<p>So was the black horned thing seated aloof on a rock, surveying a
distant crowd surrounding a gallows.</p>
<pb n="1.5" facs="pageImages/I.5.png"/>
<p>Each picture told a story; mysterious often to my undeveloped
understanding and imperfect feelings, yet ever profoundly interesting:
as interesting as the tales Bessie sometimes narrated on winter
evenings, when she chanced to be in good humour; and when, having
brought her ironing-table to the nursery hearth, she allowed us to sit
about it, and while she got up Mrs. Reed’s lace frills, and crimped her
nightcap borders, fed our eager attention with passages of love and
adventure taken from old fairy tales and other ballads; or (as at a
later period I discovered) from the pages of Pamela, and Henry, Earl of
Moreland.</p>

<p>With Bewick on my knee, I was then happy: happy at least in my way. I
feared nothing but interruption, and that came too soon. The
breakfast-room door opened.</p>

<p>“Boh! Madam Mope!” cried the voice of John Reed; then he paused: he
found the room apparently empty.</p>

<p>“Where the dickens is she!” he continued. “Lizzy! Georgy! (calling to
his sisters) Joan is not here: tell mama she is run out into the
rain—bad animal!”</p>

<p>“It is well I drew the curtain,” thought I; and I wished fervently he
might not discover my hiding-place: nor would John Reed have found 
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it out himself; he was not quick either of vision or conception; but Eliza
just put her head in at the door, and said at once—</p>

<p>“She is in the window-seat, to be sure, Jack.”</p>

<p>And I came out immediately, for I trembled at the idea of being dragged
forth by the said Jack.</p>

<p>“What do you want?” I asked, with awkward diffidence.</p>

<p>“Say, ‘What do you want, Master Reed?’” was the answer. “I want you to
come here;” and seating himself in an arm-chair, he intimated by a
gesture that I was to approach and stand before him.</p>

<p>John Reed was a schoolboy of fourteen years old; four years older than
I, for I was but ten: large and stout for his age, with a dingy and
unwholesome skin; thick lineaments in a spacious visage, heavy limbs
and large extremities. He gorged himself habitually at table, which
made him bilious, and gave him a dim and bleared eye and flabby cheeks.
He ought now to have been at school; but his mama had taken him home
for a month or two, “on account of his delicate health.” Mr. Miles, the
master, affirmed that he would do very well if he had fewer cakes and
sweetmeats sent him from home; but the mother’s heart turned from an
opinion so harsh, and inclined rather to the more re
<pb n="1.7" facs="pageImages/I.7.png"/>
fined idea that
John’s sallowness was owing to over-application and, perhaps, to pining
after home.</p>

<p>John had not much affection for his mother and sisters, and an
antipathy to me. He bullied and punished me; not two or three times in
the week, nor once or twice in the day, but continually: every nerve I
had feared him, and every morsel of flesh in my bones shrank when he
came near. There were moments when I was bewildered by the terror he
inspired, because I had no appeal whatever against either his menaces
or his inflictions; the servants did not like to offend their young
master by taking my part against him, and Mrs. Reed was blind and deaf
on the subject: she never saw him strike or heard him abuse me, though
he did both now and then in her very presence, more frequently,
however, behind her back.</p>

<p>Habitually obedient to John, I came up to his chair: he spent some
three minutes in thrusting out his tongue at me as far as he could
without damaging the roots: I knew he would soon strike, and while
dreading the blow, I mused on the disgusting and ugly appearance of him
who would presently deal it. I wonder if he read that notion in my
face; for, all at once, without speaking, he struck suddenly and
strongly. 
<pb n="1.8" facs="pageImages/I.8.png"/>
I tottered, and on regaining my equilibrium retired back a
step or two from his chair.</p>

<p>“That is for your impudence in answering mama awhile since,” said he,
“and for your sneaking way of getting behind curtains, and for the look
you had in your eyes two minutes since, you rat!”</p>

<p>Accustomed to John Reed’s abuse, I never had an idea of replying to it;
my care was how to endure the blow which would certainly follow the
insult.</p>

<p>“What were you doing behind the curtain?” he asked.</p>

<p>“I was reading.”</p>

<p>“Show the book.”</p>

<p>I returned to the window and fetched it thence.</p>

<p>“You have no business to take our books; you are a dependent, mama
says; you have no money; your father left you none; you ought to beg,
and not to live here with gentlemen’s children like us, and eat the
same meals we do, and wear clothes at our mama’s expense. Now, I’ll
teach you to rummage my bookshelves: for they <hi rend="italic">are</hi> mine; all the house
belongs to me, or will do in a few years. Go and stand by the door, out
of the way of the mirror and the windows.”</p>

<p>I did so, not at first aware what was his in <pb n="1.9" facs="pageImages/I.9.png"/>
tention; but when I saw him
lift and poise the book and stand in act to hurl it, I instinctively
started aside with a cry of alarm: not soon enough, however; the volume
was flung, it hit me, and I fell, striking my head against the door and
cutting it. The cut bled, the pain was sharp: my terror had passed its
climax; other feelings succeeded.</p>

<p>“Wicked and cruel boy!” I said. “You are like a murderer—you are like a
slave-driver—you are like the Roman emperors!”</p>

<p>I had read Goldsmith’s History of Rome, and had formed my opinion of
Nero, Caligula, &amp;c. Also I had drawn parallels in silence, which I
never thought thus to have declared aloud.</p>

<p>“What! what!” he cried. “Did she say that to me? Did you hear her,
Eliza and Georgiana? Won’t I tell mama? but first—”</p>

<p>He ran headlong at me: I felt him grasp my hair and my shoulder: he had
closed with a desperate thing. I really saw in him a tyrant, a
murderer. I felt a drop or two of blood from my head trickle down my
neck, and was sensible of somewhat pungent suffering: these sensations
for the time predominated over fear, and I received him in frantic
sort. I don’t very well know what I did with my hands, but he called me
“Rat! Rat!” and bellowed out aloud. 
<pb n="1.10" facs="pageImages/I.10.png"/> Aid was near him: Eliza and
Georgiana had run for Mrs. Reed, who was gone upstairs: she now came
upon the scene, followed by Bessie and her maid Abbot. We were parted:
I heard the words—</p>

<p>“Dear! dear! What a fury to fly at Master John!”</p>

<p>“Did ever anybody see such a picture of passion!”</p>

<p>Then Mrs. Reed subjoined—</p>

<p>“Take her away to the red-room, and lock her in there.” Four hands were
immediately laid upon me, and I was borne upstairs.</p>
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                 <div type="chapter">
                            <head>CHAPTER II</head>
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                             <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/bronte-jane-eyre/janeeyre_02_bronte_64kb.mp3"/>Librivox recording of Chapter Two, read by Elizabeth Klett.</note>
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<p>I resisted all the way: a new thing for me, and a circumstance which
greatly strengthened the bad opinion Bessie and Miss Abbot were
disposed to entertain of me. The fact is, I was a trifle beside myself;
or rather <hi rend="italic">out</hi> of myself, as the French would say: I was conscious
that a moment’s mutiny had already rendered me liable to strange
penalties, and, like any other rebel slave, I felt resolved, in my
desperation, to go all lengths.</p>

<p>“Hold her arms, Miss Abbot: she’s like a mad cat.”</p>

<p>“For shame! for shame!” cried the lady’s-maid. “What shocking conduct,
Miss Eyre, to strike a young gentleman, your benefactress’s son! Your
young master.”</p>

<p>“Master! How is he my master? Am I a servant?”</p>

<p>“No; you are less than a servant, for you do              
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nothing for your keep. There, sit down, and think over your wickedness.”</p>

<p>They had got me by this time into the apartment indicated by Mrs. Reed,
and had thrust me upon a stool: my impulse was to rise from it like a
spring; their two pair of hands arrested me instantly.</p>

<p>“If you don’t sit still, you must be tied down,” said Bessie. “Miss
Abbot, lend me your garters; she would break mine directly.”</p>

<p>Miss Abbot turned to divest a stout leg of the necessary ligature. This
preparation for bonds, and the additional ignominy it inferred, took a
little of the excitement out of me.</p>

<p>“Don’t take them off,” I cried; “I will not stir.”</p>

<p>In guarantee whereof, I attached myself to my seat by my hands.</p>

<p>“Mind you don’t,” said Bessie; and when she had ascertained that I was
really subsiding, she loosened her hold of me; then she and Miss Abbot
stood with folded arms, looking darkly and doubtfully on my face, as
incredulous of my sanity.</p>

<p>“She never did so before,” at last said Bessie, turning to the Abigail.</p>

<p>“But it was always in her,” was the reply. “I’ve told Missis often my
opinion about the
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child, and Missis agreed with me. She’s an underhand little thing: I never saw a girl of her
age with so much cover.”</p>

<p>Bessie answered not; but ere long, addressing me, she said—</p>

<p>“You ought to be aware, Miss, that you are under obligations to Mrs.
Reed: she keeps you: if she were to turn you off, you would have to go
to the poorhouse.”</p>

<p>I had nothing to say to these words: they were not new to me: my very
first recollections of existence included hints of the same kind. This
reproach of my dependence had become a vague sing-song in my ear: very
painful and crushing, but only half intelligible. Miss Abbot joined in—</p>

<p>“And you ought not to think yourself on an equality with the Misses
Reed and Master Reed, because Missis kindly allows you to be brought up
with them. They will have a great deal of money, and you will have
none: it is your place to be humble, and to try to make yourself
agreeable to them.”</p>

<p>“What we tell you is for your good,” added Bessie, in no harsh voice,
“you should try to be useful and pleasant, then, perhaps, you would
have a home here; but if you become passionate and rude, Missis will
send you away, I am sure.”</p>

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<p>“Besides,” said Miss Abbot, “God will punish her: He might strike her
dead in the midst of her tantrums, and then where would she go? Come,
Bessie, we will leave her: I wouldn’t have her heart for anything. Say
your prayers, Miss Eyre, when you are by yourself; for if you don’t
repent, something bad might be permitted to come down the chimney and
fetch you away.”</p>

<p>They went, shutting the door, and locking it behind them.</p>

<p>The red-room was a square chamber, very seldom slept in, I might say
never, indeed, unless when a chance influx of visitors at Gateshead
Hall rendered it necessary to turn to account all the accommodation it
contained: yet it was one of the largest and stateliest chambers in the
mansion. A bed supported on massive pillars of mahogany, hung with
curtains of deep red damask, stood out like a tabernacle in the centre;
the two large windows, with their blinds always drawn down, were half
shrouded in festoons and falls of similar drapery; the carpet was red;
the table at the foot of the bed was covered with a crimson cloth; the
walls were a soft fawn colour with a blush of pink in it; the wardrobe,
the toilet-table, the chairs were of darkly polished old mahogany. Out
of these deep surrounding shades rose high, and glared white, the
piled-up mattresses and
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pillows of the bed, spread with a snowy
Marseilles counterpane. Scarcely less prominent was an ample cushioned
easy-chair near the head of the bed, also white, with a footstool
before it; and looking, as I thought, like a pale throne.</p>

<p>This room was chill, because it seldom had a fire; it was silent,
because remote from the nursery and kitchen; solemn, because it was
known to be so seldom entered. The house-maid alone came here on
Saturdays, to wipe from the mirrors and the furniture a week’s quiet
dust: and Mrs. Reed herself, at far intervals, visited it to review the
contents of a certain secret drawer in the wardrobe, where were stored
divers parchments, her jewel-casket, and a miniature of her deceased
husband; and in those last words lies the secret of the red-room—the
spell which kept it so lonely in spite of its grandeur.</p>

<p>Mr. Reed had been dead nine years: it was in this chamber he breathed
his last; here he lay in state; hence his coffin was borne by the
undertaker’s men; and, since that day, a sense of dreary consecration
had guarded it from frequent intrusion.</p>

<p>My seat, to which Bessie and the bitter Miss Abbot had left me riveted,
was a low ottoman near the marble chimney-piece; the bed rose before
me; to my right hand there was the high,                
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dark wardrobe, with subdued, broken reflections varying the gloss of its panels; to my left were the
muffled windows; a great looking-glass between them repeated the vacant
majesty of the bed and room. I was not quite sure whether they had
locked the door; and when I dared move, I got up and went to see. Alas!
yes: no jail was ever more secure. Returning, I had to cross before the
looking-glass; my fascinated glance involuntarily explored the depth it
revealed. All looked colder and darker in that visionary hollow than in
reality: and the strange little figure there gazing at me, with a white
face and arms specking the gloom, and glittering eyes of fear moving
where all else was still, had the effect of a real spirit: I thought it
like one of the tiny phantoms, half fairy, half imp, Bessie’s evening
stories represented as coming out of lone, ferny dells in moors, and
appearing before the eyes of belated travellers. I returned to my
stool.</p>

<p>Superstition was with me at that moment; but it was not yet her hour
for complete victory: my blood was still warm; the mood of the revolted
slave was still bracing me with its bitter vigour; I had to stem a
rapid rush of retrospective thought before I quailed to the dismal
present.</p>

<p>All John Reed’s violent tyrannies, all his sisters’
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proud indifference, all his mother’s aversion, all the servants’ partiality, turned up in
my disturbed mind like a dark deposit in a turbid well. Why was I
always suffering, always browbeaten, always accused, for ever
condemned? Why could I never please? Why was it useless to try to win
any one’s favour? Eliza, who was headstrong and selfish, was respected.
Georgiana, who had a spoiled temper, a very acrid spite, a captious and
insolent carriage, was universally indulged. Her beauty, her pink
cheeks and golden curls, seemed to give delight to all who looked at
her, and to purchase indemnity for every fault. John no one thwarted,
much less punished; though he twisted the necks of the pigeons, killed
the little pea-chicks, set the dogs at the sheep, stripped the hothouse
vines of their fruit, and broke the buds off the choicest plants in the
conservatory: he called his mother “old girl,” too; sometimes reviled
her for her dark skin, similar to his own; bluntly disregarded her
wishes; not unfrequently tore and spoiled her silk attire; and he was
still “her own darling.” I dared commit no fault: I strove to fulfil
every duty; and I was termed naughty and tiresome, sullen and sneaking,
from morning to noon, and from noon to night.</p>

<p>My head still ached and bled with the blow 
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and fall I had received: no one had reproved John for wantonly striking me; and because I had
turned against him to avert farther irrational violence, I was loaded
with general opprobrium.</p>

<p>“Unjust!—unjust!” said my reason, forced by the agonising stimulus into
precocious though transitory power: and Resolve, equally wrought up,
instigated some strange expedient to achieve escape from insupportable
oppression—as running away, or, if that could not be effected, never
eating or drinking more, and letting myself die.</p>

<p>What a consternation of soul was mine that dreary afternoon! How all my
brain was in tumult, and all my heart in insurrection! Yet in what
darkness, what dense ignorance, was the mental battle fought! I could
not answer the ceaseless inward question—<hi rend="italic">why</hi> I thus suffered; now, at
the distance of—I will not say how many years, I see it clearly.</p>

<p>I was a discord in Gateshead Hall: I was like nobody there; I had
nothing in harmony with Mrs. Reed or her children, or her chosen
vassalage. If they did not love me, in fact, as little did I love them.
They were not bound to regard with affection a thing that could not
sympathise with one amongst them; a heterogeneous thing, opposed to
them in temperament, in capacity, in propensities; a useless thing,
incapable of serv
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ing their interest, or adding to their pleasure;
a noxious thing, cherishing the germs of indignation at their treatment,
of contempt of their judgment. I know that had I been a sanguine,
brilliant, careless, exacting, handsome, romping child—though equally
dependent and friendless—Mrs. Reed would have endured my presence more
complacently; her children would have entertained for me more of the
cordiality of fellow-feeling; the servants would have been less prone
to make me the scapegoat of the nursery.</p>

<p>Day light began to forsake the red-room; it was past four o’clock, and
the beclouded afternoon was tending to drear twilight. I heard the rain
still beating continuously on the staircase window, and the wind
howling in the grove behind the hall; I grew by degrees cold as a
stone, and then my courage sank. My habitual mood of humiliation,
self-doubt, forlorn depression, fell damp on the embers of my decaying
ire. All said I was wicked, and perhaps I might be so; what thought had
I been but just conceiving of starving myself to death? That certainly
was a crime: and was I fit to die? Or was the vault under the chancel
of Gateshead Church an inviting bourne? In such vault I had been told
did Mr. Reed lie buried; and led by this thought to recall his idea, I
dwelt on it
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with gathering dread. I could not remember him; but I knew
that he was my own uncle—my mother’s brother—that he had taken me when
a parentless infant to his house; and that in his last moments he had
required a promise of Mrs. Reed that she would rear and maintain me as
one of her own children. Mrs. Reed probably considered she had kept
this promise; and so she had, I dare say, as well as her nature would
permit her; but how could she really like an interloper not of her
race, and unconnected with her, after her husband’s death, by any tie?
It must have been most irksome to find herself bound by a hard-wrung
pledge to stand in the stead of a parent to a strange child she could
not love, and to see an uncongenial alien permanently intruded on her
own family group.</p>

<p>A singular notion dawned upon me. I doubted not—never doubted—that if
Mr. Reed had been alive he would have treated me kindly; and now, as I
sat looking at the white bed and overshadowed walls—occasionally also
turning a fascinated eye towards the dimly gleaming mirror—I began to
recall what I had heard of dead men, troubled in their graves by the
violation of their last wishes, revisiting the earth to punish the
perjured and avenge the oppressed; and I thought Mr. Reed’s spirit,
harassed by the 
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wrongs of his sister’s child, might quit its
abode—whether in the church vault or in the unknown world of the
departed—and rise before me in this chamber. I wiped my tears and
hushed my sobs, fearful lest any sign of violent grief might waken a
preternatural voice to comfort me, or elicit from the gloom some haloed
face, bending over me with strange pity. This idea, consolatory in
theory, I felt would be terrible if realised: with all my might I
endeavoured to stifle it—I endeavoured to be firm. Shaking my hair from
my eyes, I lifted my head and tried to look boldly round the dark room;
at this moment a light gleamed on the wall. Was it, I asked myself, a
ray from the moon penetrating some aperture in the blind? No; moonlight
was still, and this stirred; while I gazed, it glided up to the ceiling
and quivered over my head. I can now conjecture readily that this
streak of light was, in all likelihood, a gleam from a lantern carried
by some one across the lawn: but then, prepared as my mind was for
horror, shaken as my nerves were by agitation, I thought the swift
darting beam was a herald of some coming vision from another world. My
heart beat thick, my head grew hot; a sound filled my ears, which I
deemed the rushing of wings; something seemed near me; I was op
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pressed,
suffocated: endurance broke down; I rushed to the door and shook the
lock in desperate effort. Steps came running along the outer passage;
the key turned, Bessie and Abbot entered.</p>

<p>“Miss Eyre, are you ill?” said Bessie.</p>

<p>“What a dreadful noise! it went quite through me!” exclaimed Abbot.</p>

<p>“Take me out! Let me go into the nursery!” was my cry.</p>

<p>“What for? Are you hurt? Have you seen something?” again demanded
Bessie.</p>

<p>“Oh! I saw a light, and I thought a ghost would come.” I had now got
hold of Bessie’s hand, and she did not snatch it from me.</p>

<p>“She has screamed out on purpose,” declared Abbot, in some disgust.
“And what a scream! If she had been in great pain one would have
excused it, but she only wanted to bring us all here: I know her
naughty tricks.”</p>

<p>“What is all this?” demanded another voice peremptorily; and Mrs. Reed
came along the corridor, her cap flying wide, her gown rustling
stormily. “Abbot and Bessie, I believe I gave orders that Jane Eyre
should be left in the red-room till I came to her myself.”</p>

<p>“Miss Jane screamed so loud, ma’am,” pleaded Bessie.</p>
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<p>“Let her go,” was the only answer. “Loose Bessie’s hand, child: you
cannot succeed in getting out by these means, be assured. I abhor
artifice, particularly in children; it is my duty to show you that
tricks will not answer: you will now stay here an hour longer, and it
is only on condition of perfect submission and stillness that I shall
liberate you then.”</p>

<p>“O aunt! have pity! Forgive me! I cannot endure it—let me be punished
some other way! I shall be killed if—”</p>

<p>“Silence! This violence is all most repulsive:” and so, no doubt, she
felt it. I was a precocious actress in her eyes; she sincerely looked
on me as a compound of virulent passions, mean spirit, and dangerous
duplicity.</p>

<p>Bessie and Abbot having retreated, Mrs. Reed, impatient of my now
frantic anguish and wild sobs, abruptly thrust me back and locked me
in, without farther parley. I heard her sweeping away; and soon after
she was gone, I suppose I had a species of fit: unconsciousness closed
the scene.</p>
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<div type="chapter">
                            <head>CHAPTER III</head>
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            <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/bronte-jane-eyre/janeeyre_03_bronte_64kb.mp3"/>Librivox recording of Chapter Three, read by Elizabeth Klett.</note>
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<p>The next thing I remember is, waking up with a feeling as if I had had
a frightful nightmare, and seeing before me a terrible red glare,
crossed with thick black bars. I heard voices, too, speaking with a
hollow sound, and as if muffled by a rush of wind or water: agitation,
uncertainty, and an all-predominating sense of terror confused my
faculties. Ere long, I became aware that some one was handling me;
lifting me up and supporting me in a sitting posture, and that more
tenderly than I had ever been raised or upheld before. I rested my head
against a pillow or an arm, and felt easy.

In five minutes more the cloud of bewilderment dissolved: I knew quite
well that I was in my own bed, and that the red glare was the nursery
fire. It was night: a candle burnt on the table; Bessie stood at the
bed-foot with a basin
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in her hand, and a gentleman sat in a chair near
my pillow, leaning over me.</p>

<p>I felt an inexpressible relief, a soothing conviction of protection and
security, when I knew that there was a stranger in the room, an
individual not belonging to Gateshead, and not related to Mrs. Reed.
Turning from Bessie (though her presence was far less obnoxious to me
than that of Abbot, for instance, would have been), I scrutinised the
face of the gentleman: I knew him; it was Mr. Lloyd, an apothecary,
sometimes called in by Mrs. Reed when the servants were ailing: for
herself and the children she employed a physician.</p>

<p>“Well, who am I?” he asked.</p>

<p>I pronounced his name, offering him at the same time my hand: he took
it, smiling and saying, “We shall do very well by-and-by.” Then he laid
me down, and addressing Bessie, charged her to be very careful that I
was not disturbed during the night. Having given some further
directions, and intimated that he should call again the next day, he
departed; to my grief: I felt so sheltered and befriended while he sat
in the chair near my pillow; and as he closed the door after him, all
the room darkened and my heart again sank: inexpressible sadness
weighed it down.</p>

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<p>“Do you feel as if you should sleep, Miss?” asked Bessie, rather
softly.</p>

<p>Scarcely dared I answer her; for I feared the next sentence might be
rough. “I will try.”</p>

<p>“Would you like to drink, or could you eat anything?”</p>

<p>“No, thank you, Bessie.”</p>

<p>“Then I think I shall go to bed, for it is past twelve o’clock; but you
may call me if you want anything in the night.”</p>

<p>Wonderful civility this! It emboldened me to ask a question.</p>

<p>“Bessie, what is the matter with me? Am I ill?”</p>

<p>“You fell sick, I suppose, in the red-room with crying; you’ll be
better soon, no doubt.”</p>

<p>Bessie went into the housemaid’s apartment, which was near. I heard her
say—</p>

<p>“Sarah, come and sleep with me in the nursery; I daren’t for my life be
alone with that poor child to-night: she might die; it’s such a strange
thing she should have that fit: I wonder if she saw anything. Missis
was rather too hard.”</p>

<p>Sarah came back with her; they both went to bed; they were whispering
together for half-an-hour before they fell asleep. I caught scraps of
their conversation, from which I was able only 
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too distinctly to infer the main subject discussed.</p>

<p>“Something passed her, all dressed in white, and vanished”—“A great
black dog behind him”—“Three loud raps on the chamber door”—“A light in
the churchyard just over his grave”—&amp;c. &amp;c.</p>

<p>At last both slept: the fire and the candle went out. For me, the
watches of that long night passed in ghastly wakefulness; ear, eye, and
mind were alike strained by dread: such dread as children only can
feel.</p>

<p>No severe or prolonged bodily illness followed this incident of the
red-room; it only gave my nerves a shock of which I feel the
reverberation to this day. Yes, Mrs. Reed, to you I owe some fearful
pangs of mental suffering, but I ought to forgive you, for you knew not
what you did: while rending my heart-strings, you thought you were only
uprooting my bad propensities.</p>

<p>Next day, by noon, I was up and dressed, and sat wrapped in a shawl by
the nursery hearth. I felt physically weak and broken down: but my
worse ailment was an unutterable wretchedness of mind: a wretchedness
which kept drawing from me silent tears; no sooner had I wiped one salt
drop from my cheek than another followed. Yet, I thought, I ought to
have been
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happy, for none of the Reeds were there, they were all gone
out in the carriage with their mama. Abbot, too, was sewing in another
room, and Bessie, as she moved hither and thither, putting away toys
and arranging drawers, addressed to me every now and then a word of
unwonted kindness. This state of things should have been to me a
paradise of peace, accustomed as I was to a life of ceaseless reprimand
and thankless fagging; but, in fact, my racked nerves were now in such
a state that no calm could soothe, and no pleasure excite them
agreeably.</p>

<p>Bessie had been down into the kitchen, and she brought up with her a
tart on a certain brightly painted china plate, whose bird of paradise,
nestling in a wreath of convolvuli and rosebuds, had been wont to stir
in me a most enthusiastic sense of admiration; and which plate I had
often petitioned to be allowed to take in my hand in order to examine
it more closely, but had always hitherto been deemed unworthy of such a
privilege. This precious vessel was now placed on my knee, and I was
cordially invited to eat the circlet of delicate pastry upon it. Vain
favour! coming, like most other favours long deferred and often wished
for, too late! I could not eat the tart; and the plumage of the bird,
the
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tints of the flowers, seemed strangely faded: I put both plate and
tart away. Bessie asked if I would have a book: the word <hi rend="italic">book</hi> acted
as a transient stimulus, and I begged her to fetch Gulliver’s Travels
from the library. This book I had again and again perused with delight.
I considered it a narrative of facts, and discovered in it a vein of
interest deeper than what I found in fairy tales: for as to the elves,
having sought them in vain among foxglove leaves and bells, under
mushrooms and beneath the ground-ivy mantling old wall-nooks, I had at
length made up my mind to the sad truth, that they were all gone out of
England to some savage country where the woods were wilder and thicker,
and the population more scant; whereas, Lilliput and Brobdignag being,
in my creed, solid parts of the earth’s surface, I doubted not that I
might one day, by taking a long voyage, see with my own eyes the little
fields, houses, and trees, the diminutive people, the tiny cows, sheep,
and birds of the one realm; and the corn-fields forest-high, the mighty
mastiffs, the monster cats, the tower-like men and women, of the other.
Yet, when this cherished volume was now placed in my hand—when I turned
over its leaves, and sought in its marvellous pictures the charm I had,
till now, never failed to find—all was eerie
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and dreary; the giants were gaunt goblins, the pigmies malevolent and fearful imps, Gulliver a
most desolate wanderer in most dread and dangerous regions. I closed
the book, which I dared no longer peruse, and put it on the table,
beside the untasted tart.</p>

<p>Bessie had now finished dusting and tidying the room, and having washed
her hands, she opened a certain little drawer, full of splendid shreds
of silk and satin, and began making a new bonnet for Georgiana’s doll.
Meantime she sang: her song was—</p>

    <lg>
                                <l>“In the days when we went gipsying,</l>
        <l>A long time ago.”</l>
                            </lg>


<p>I had often heard the song before, and always with lively delight; for
Bessie had a sweet voice,—at least, I thought so. But now, though her
voice was still sweet, I found in its melody an indescribable sadness.
Sometimes, preoccupied with her work, she sang the refrain very low,
very lingeringly; “A long time ago” came out like the saddest cadence
of a funeral hymn. She passed into another ballad, this time a really
doleful one.</p>

    <lg>
                                <l>“My feet they are sore, and my limbs they are weary;</l>
        <l rend="indent">Long is the way, and the mountains are wild;</l>
        <l>Soon will the twilight close moonless and dreary</l>
        <l rend="indent">Over the path of the poor orphan child.</l>
                            </lg>
  
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    <lg>
                                <l>Why did they send me so far and so lonely,</l>
        <l rend="indent"> Up where the moors spread and grey rocks are piled?</l>
        <l>Men are hard-hearted, and kind angels only</l>
        <l rend="indent">Watch o’er the steps of a poor orphan child.</l>
                            </lg>

    <lg>
                                <l>Yet distant and soft the night breeze is blowing,</l>
        <l rend="indent">Clouds there are none, and clear stars beam mild,</l>
        <l>God, in His mercy, protection is showing,</l>
        <l rend="indent">Comfort and hope to the poor orphan child.</l>
                            </lg>

    <lg>
                                <l>Ev’n should I fall o’er the broken bridge passing,</l>
        <l rend="indent">Or stray in the marshes, by false lights beguiled,</l>
        <l>Still will my Father, with promise and blessing,</l>
        <l rend="indent">Take to His bosom the poor orphan child.</l>
                            </lg>

    <lg>
                                <l>There is a thought that for strength should avail me,</l>
        <l rend="indent"> Though both of shelter and kindred despoiled;</l>
        <l>Heaven is a home, and a rest will not fail me;</l>
        <l rend="indent">God is a friend to the poor orphan child.”</l>
                            </lg>


<p>“Come, Miss Jane, don’t cry,” said Bessie as she finished. She might as
well have said to the fire, “don’t burn!” but how could she divine the
morbid suffering to which I was a prey? In the course of the morning
Mr. Lloyd came again.</p>

<p>“What, already up!” said he, as he entered the nursery. “Well, nurse,
how is she?”</p>

<p>Bessie answered that I was doing very well.</p>

<p>“Then she ought to look more cheerful. Come here, Miss Jane: your name
is Jane, is it not?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir, Jane Eyre.”</p>

<p>“Well, you have been crying, Miss Jane Eyre,
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can you tell me what about? Have you any pain?”</p>

<p>“No, sir.”</p>

<p>“Oh! I daresay she is crying because she could not go out with Missis
in the carriage,” interposed Bessie.</p>

<p>“Surely not! why, she is too old for such pettishness.”</p>

<p>I thought so too; and my self-esteem being wounded by the false charge,
I answered promptly, “I never cried for such a thing in my life: I hate
going out in the carriage. I cry because I am miserable.”</p>

<p>“Oh fie, Miss!” said Bessie.</p>

<p>The good apothecary appeared a little puzzled. I was standing before
him; he fixed his eyes on me very steadily: his eyes were small and
grey; not very bright, but I dare say I should think them shrewd now:
he had a hard-featured yet good-natured looking face. Having considered
me at leisure, he said—</p>

<p>“What made you ill yesterday?”</p>

<p>“She had a fall,” said Bessie, again putting in her word.</p>

<p>“Fall! why, that is like a baby again! Can’t she manage to walk at her
age? She must be eight or nine years old.”</p>

<p>“I was knocked down,” was the blunt expla
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nation, jerked out of me by another pang of mortified pride; “but that did not make me ill,” I
added; while Mr. Lloyd helped himself to a pinch of snuff.</p>

<p>As he was returning the box to his waistcoat pocket, a loud bell rang
for the servants’ dinner; he knew what it was. “That’s for you, nurse,”
said he; “you can go down; I’ll give Miss Jane a lecture till you come
back.”</p>

<p>Bessie would rather have stayed, but she was obliged to go, because
punctuality at meals was rigidly enforced at Gateshead Hall.</p>

<p>“The fall did not make you ill; what did, then?” pursued Mr. Lloyd when
Bessie was gone.</p>

<p>“I was shut up in a room where there is a ghost till after dark.”</p>

<p>I saw Mr. Lloyd smile and frown at the same time.
“Ghost! What, you are a baby after all! You are afraid of ghosts?”</p>

<p>“Of Mr. Reed’s ghost I am: he died in that room, and was laid out
there. Neither Bessie nor any one else will go into it at night, if
they can help it; and it was cruel to shut me up alone without a
candle,—so cruel that I think I shall never forget it.”</p>

<p>“Nonsense! And is it that makes you so miserable? Are you afraid now in
daylight?”</p>
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<p>“No: but night will come again before long: and besides,—I am
unhappy,—very unhappy, for other things.”</p>

<p>“What other things? Can you tell me some of them?”</p>

<p>How much I wished to reply fully to this question! How difficult it was
to frame any answer! Children can feel, but they cannot analyse their
feelings; and if the analysis is partially effected in thought, they
know not how to express the result of the process in words. Fearful,
however, of losing this first and only opportunity of relieving my
grief by imparting it, I, after a disturbed pause, contrived to frame a
meagre, though, as far as it went, true response.</p>

<p>“For one thing, I have no father or mother, brothers or sisters.”</p>

<p>"You have a kind aunt and cousins.”</p>

<p>Again I paused; then bunglingly enounced—</p>

<p>“But John Reed knocked me down, and my aunt shut me up in the
red-room.”</p>

<p>Mr. Lloyd a second time produced his snuff-box.</p>

<p>“Don’t you think Gateshead Hall a very beautiful house?” asked he. “Are
you not very thankful to have such a fine place to live at?”</p>

<p>“It is not my house, sir; and Abbot says I have less right to be here
than a servant.”</p>
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<p>“Pooh! you can’t be silly enough to wish to leave such a splendid
place?”</p>

<p>“If I had anywhere else to go, I should be glad to leave it; but I can
never get away from Gateshead till I am a woman.”</p>

<p>“Perhaps you may—who knows? Have you any relations besides Mrs. Reed?”</p>

<p>“I think not, sir.”</p>

<p>“None belonging to your father?”</p>

<p>“I don’t know: I asked Aunt Reed once, and she said possibly I might
have some poor, low relations called Eyre, but she knew nothing about
them.”</p>

<p>“If you had such, would you like to go to them?”</p>

<p>I reflected.  Poverty looks grim to grown people; still more so to
children: they have not much idea of industrious, working, respectable
poverty; they think of the word only as connected with ragged clothes,
scanty food, fireless grates, rude manners, and debasing vices: poverty
for me was synonymous with degradation.</p>

<p>“No; I should not like to belong to poor people,” was my reply.</p>

<p>“Not even if they were kind to you?”</p>

<p>I shook my head: I could not see how poor people had the means of being
kind; and then to learn to speak like them, to adopt their man
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ners, to be uneducated, to grow up like one of the poor women I saw sometimes
nursing their children or washing their clothes at the cottage doors of
the village of Gateshead: no, I was not heroic enough to purchase
liberty at the price of caste.</p>

<p>“But are your relatives so very poor? Are they working people?”</p>

<p>“I cannot tell; Aunt Reed says if I have any, they must be a beggarly
set: I should not like to go a begging.”</p>

<p>“Would you like to go to school?”</p>

<p>Again I reflected: I scarcely knew what school was: Bessie sometimes
spoke of it as a place where young ladies sat in the stocks, wore
backboards, and were expected to be exceedingly genteel and precise:
John Reed hated his school, and abused his master; but John Reed’s
tastes were no rule for mine, and if Bessie’s accounts of
school-discipline (gathered from the young ladies of a family where she
had lived before coming to Gateshead) were somewhat appalling, her
details of certain accomplishments attained by these same young ladies
were, I thought, equally attractive. She boasted of beautiful paintings
of landscapes and flowers by them executed; of songs they could sing
and pieces they could play, of purses they could net, of French books
they
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could translate; till my spirit was moved to emulation as I
listened. Besides, school would be a complete change: it implied a long
journey, an entire separation from Gateshead, an entrance into a new
life.</p>

<p>“I should indeed like to go to school,” was the audible conclusion of
my musings.</p>

<p>“Well, well! who knows what may happen?” said Mr. Lloyd, as he got up.
“The child ought to have change of air and scene,” he added, speaking
to himself; “nerves not in a good state.”</p>

<p>Bessie now returned; at the same moment the carriage was heard rolling
up the gravel-walk.</p>

<p>“Is that your mistress, nurse?” asked Mr. Lloyd. “I should like to
speak to her before I go.”</p>

<p>Bessie invited him to walk into the breakfast-room, and led the way
out. In the interview which followed between him and Mrs. Reed, I
presume, from after-occurrences, that the apothecary ventured to
recommend my being sent to school; and the recommendation was no doubt
readily enough adopted; for as Abbot said, in discussing the subject
with Bessie when both sat sewing in the nursery one night, after I was
in bed, and, as they thought, asleep, “Missis was, she dared say, glad
enough to get rid of such a tiresome, ill-conditioned child, who always
looked
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as if she were watching everybody, and scheming plots
underhand.” Abbot, I think, gave me credit for being a sort of
infantine Guy Fawkes.</p>

<p>On that same occasion I learned, for the first time, from Miss Abbot’s
communications to Bessie, that my father had been a poor clergyman;
that my mother had married him against the wishes of her friends, who
considered the match beneath her; that my grandfather Reed was so
irritated at her disobedience, he cut her off without a shilling; that
after my mother and father had been married a year, the latter caught
the typhus fever while visiting among the poor of a large manufacturing
town where his curacy was situated, and where that disease was then
prevalent: that my mother took the infection from him, and both died
within a month of each other.</p>

<p>Bessie, when she heard this narrative, sighed and said, “Poor Miss Jane
is to be pitied, too, Abbot.”</p>

<p>“Yes,” responded Abbot; “if she were a nice, pretty child, one might
compassionate her forlornness; but one really cannot care for such a
little toad as that.”</p>

<p>“Not a great deal, to be sure,” agreed Bessie: “at any rate, a beauty
like Miss Georgiana would be more moving in the same condition.”</p>

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<p>“Yes, I doat on Miss Georgiana!” cried the fervent Abbot. “Little
darling!—with her long curls and her blue eyes, and such a sweet colour
as she has; just as if she were painted!—Bessie, I could fancy a Welsh
rabbit for supper.”</p>

<p>“So could I—with a roast onion. Come, we’ll go down.” They went.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER IV</head>
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            <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/bronte-jane-eyre/janeeyre_04_bronte_64kb.mp3"/>Librivox recording of Chapter Four, read by Elizabeth Klett.</note>
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<p>From my discourse with Mr. Lloyd, and from the above reported
conference between Bessie and Abbot, I gathered enough of hope to
suffice as a motive for wishing to get well: a change seemed near,—I
desired and waited it in silence. It tarried, however: days and weeks
passed: I had regained my normal state of health, but no new allusion
was made to the subject over which I brooded. Mrs. Reed surveyed me at
times with a severe eye, but seldom addressed me: since my illness, she
had drawn a more marked line of separation than ever between me and her
own children; appointing me a small closet to sleep in by myself,
condemning me to take my meals alone, and pass all my time in the
nursery, while my cousins were constantly in the drawing-room. Not a
hint, however, did she drop about sending me to school: still I felt an
instinctive certainty that she would not
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long endure me under the same roof with her; for her glance, now more than ever, when turned on me,
expressed an insuperable and rooted aversion.</p>

<p>Eliza and Georgiana, evidently acting according to orders, spoke to me
as little as possible: John thrust his tongue in his cheek whenever he
saw me, and once attempted chastisement; but as I instantly turned
against him, roused by the same sentiment of deep ire and desperate
revolt which had stirred my corruption before, he thought it better to
desist, and ran from me uttering execrations, and vowing I had burst
his nose. I had indeed levelled at that prominent feature as hard a
blow as my knuckles could inflict; and when I saw that either that or
my look daunted him, I had the greatest inclination to follow up my
advantage to purpose; but he was already with his mama. I heard him in
a blubbering tone commence the tale of how “that nasty Jane Eyre” had
flown at him like a mad cat: he was stopped rather harshly—</p>

<p>“Don’t talk to me about her, John: I told you not to go near her; she
is not worthy of notice; I do not choose that either you or your
sisters should associate with her.”</p>

<p>Here, leaning over the banister, I cried out 
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suddenly, and without at all deliberating on my words—</p>

<p>“They are not fit to associate with me.”</p>

<p>Mrs. Reed was rather a stout woman; but, on hearing this strange and
audacious declaration, she ran nimbly up the stair, swept me like a
whirlwind into the nursery, and crushing me down on the edge of my
crib, dared me in an emphatic voice to rise from that place, or utter
one syllable during the remainder of the day.</p>

<p>“What would Uncle Reed say to you, if he were alive?” was my scarcely
voluntary demand. I say scarcely voluntary, for it seemed as if my
tongue pronounced words without my will consenting to their utterance:
something spoke out of me over which I had no control.</p>

<p>“What?” said Mrs. Reed under her breath: her usually cold composed grey
eye became troubled with a look like fear; she took her hand from my
arm, and gazed at me as if she really did not know whether I were child
or fiend. I was now in for it.</p>

<p>“My Uncle Reed is in heaven, and can see all you do and think; and so
can papa and mama: they know how you shut me up all day long, and how
you wish me dead.”</p>

<p>Mrs. Reed soon rallied her spirits: she shook me most soundly, she
boxed both my ears, and 
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then left me without a word. Bessie supplied 
the hiatus by a homily of an hour’s length, in which she proved beyond
a doubt that I was the most wicked and abandoned child ever reared
under a roof. I half believed her; for I felt indeed only bad feelings
surging in my breast.</p>

<p>November, December, and half of January passed away. Christmas and the
New Year had been celebrated at Gateshead with the usual festive cheer;
presents had been interchanged, dinners and evening parties given. From
every enjoyment I was, of course, excluded: my share of the gaiety
consisted in witnessing the daily apparelling of Eliza and Georgiana,
and seeing them descend to the drawing-room, dressed out in thin muslin
frocks and scarlet sashes, with hair elaborately ringletted; and
afterwards, in listening to the sound of the piano or the harp played
below, to the passing to and fro of the butler and footman, to the
jingling of glass and china as refreshments were handed, to the broken
hum of conversation as the drawing-room door opened and closed. When
tired of this occupation, I would retire from the stairhead to the
solitary and silent nursery: there, though somewhat sad, I was not
miserable. To speak truth, I had not the least wish to go into company,
for in company I was very rarely noticed; and if Bessie
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had but been kind and companionable, I should have deemed it a treat to spend the
evenings quietly with her, instead of passing them under the formidable
eye of Mrs. Reed, in a room full of ladies and gentlemen. But Bessie,
as soon as she had dressed her young ladies, used to take herself off
to the lively regions of the kitchen and housekeeper’s room, generally
bearing the candle along with her. I then sat with my doll on my knee
till the fire got low, glancing round occasionally to make sure that
nothing worse than myself haunted the shadowy room; and when the embers
sank to a dull red, I undressed hastily, tugging at knots and strings
as I best might, and sought shelter from cold and darkness in my crib.
To this crib I always took my doll; human beings must love something,
and, in the dearth of worthier objects of affection, I contrived to
find a pleasure in loving and cherishing a faded graven image, shabby
as a miniature scarecrow. It puzzles me now to remember with what
absurd sincerity I doated on this little toy, half fancying it alive
and capable of sensation. I could not sleep unless it was folded in my
night-gown; and when it lay there safe and warm, I was comparatively
happy, believing it to be happy likewise.</p>

<p>Long did the hours seem while I waited the 
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departure of the company, and listened for the sound of Bessie’s step on the stairs: sometimes
she would come up in the interval to seek her thimble or her scissors,
or perhaps to bring me something by way of supper—a bun or a
cheese-cake—then she would sit on the bed while I ate it, and when I
had finished, she would tuck the clothes round me, and twice she kissed
me, and said, “Good night, Miss Jane.” When thus gentle, Bessie seemed
to me the best, prettiest, kindest being in the world; and I wished
most intensely that she would always be so pleasant and amiable, and
never push me about, or scold, or task me unreasonably, as she was too
often wont to do. Bessie Lee must, I think, have been a girl of good
natural capacity, for she was smart in all she did, and had a
remarkable knack of narrative; so, at least, I judge from the
impression made on me by her nursery tales. She was pretty too, if my
recollections of her face and person are correct. I remember her as a
slim young woman, with black hair, dark eyes, very nice features, and
good, clear complexion; but she had a capricious and hasty temper, and
indifferent ideas of principle or justice: still, such as she was, I
preferred her to any one else at Gateshead Hall.</p>

<p>It was the fifteenth of January, about nine 
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o’clock in the morning: Bessie was gone down to breakfast; my cousins had not yet been summoned
to their mama; Eliza was putting on her bonnet and warm garden-coat to
go and feed her poultry, an occupation of which she was fond: and not
less so of selling the eggs to the housekeeper and hoarding up the
money she thus obtained. She had a turn for traffic, and a marked
propensity for saving; shown not only in the vending of eggs and
chickens, but also in driving hard bargains with the gardener about
flower-roots, seeds, and slips of plants; that functionary having
orders from Mrs. Reed to buy of his young lady all the products of her
parterre she wished to sell: and Eliza would have sold the hair off her
head if she could have made a handsome profit thereby. As to her money,
she first secreted it in odd corners, wrapped in a rag or an old
curl-paper; but some of these hoards having been discovered by the
housemaid, Eliza, fearful of one day losing her valued treasure,
consented to intrust it to her mother, at a usurious rate of
interest—fifty or sixty per cent.; which interest she exacted every
quarter, keeping her accounts in a little book with anxious accuracy.</p>

<p>Georgiana sat on a high stool, dressing her hair at the glass, and
interweaving her curls with artificial flowers and faded feathers, of
which she 
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had found a store in a drawer in the attic. I was making my
bed, having received strict orders from Bessie to get it arranged
before she returned (for Bessie now frequently employed me as a sort of
under-nurserymaid, to tidy the room, dust the chairs, &amp;c.). Having
spread the quilt and folded my night-dress, I went to the window-seat
to put in order some picture-books and doll’s house furniture scattered
there; an abrupt command from Georgiana to let her playthings alone
(for the tiny chairs and mirrors, the fairy plates and cups, were her
property) stopped my proceedings; and then, for lack of other
occupation, I fell to breathing on the frost-flowers with which the
window was fretted, and thus clearing a space in the glass through
which I might look out on the grounds, where all was still and
petrified under the influence of a hard frost.</p>

<p>From this window were visible the porter’s lodge and the carriage-road,
and just as I had dissolved so much of the silver-white foliage veiling
the panes as left room to look out, I saw the gates thrown open and a
carriage roll through. I watched it ascending the drive with
indifference; carriages often came to Gateshead, but none ever brought
visitors in whom I was interested; it stopped in front of the house,
the door-bell rang loudly, the new comer was ad
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mitted. All this being nothing to me, my vacant attention soon found livelier attraction in
the spectacle of a little hungry robin, which came and chirruped on the
twigs of the leafless cherry-tree nailed against the wall near the
casement. The remains of my breakfast of bread and milk stood on the
table, and having crumbled a morsel of roll, I was tugging at the sash
to put out the crumbs on the window-sill, when Bessie came running
upstairs into the nursery.</p>

<p>“Miss Jane, take off your pinafore; what are you doing there? Have you
washed your hands and face this morning?” I gave another tug before I
answered, for I wanted the bird to be secure of its bread: the sash
yielded; I scattered the crumbs, some on the stone sill, some on the
cherry-tree bough, then, closing the window, I replied—</p>

<p>“No, Bessie; I have only just finished dusting.”</p>

<p>“Troublesome, careless child! and what are you doing now? You look
quite red, as if you had been about some mischief: what were you
opening the window for?”</p>

<p>I was spared the trouble of answering, for Bessie seemed in too great a
hurry to listen to explanations; she hauled me to the washstand,
inflicted a merciless, but happily brief scrub on
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my face and hands with soap, water, and a coarse towel; disciplined my head with a
bristly brush, denuded me of my pinafore, and then hurrying me to the
top of the stairs, bid me go down directly, as I was wanted in the
breakfast-room.</p>

<p>I would have asked who wanted me: I would have demanded if Mrs. Reed
was there; but Bessie was already gone, and had closed the nursery-door
upon me. I slowly descended. For nearly three months, I had never been
called to Mrs. Reed’s presence; restricted so long to the nursery, the
breakfast, dining, and drawing-rooms were become for me awful regions,
on which it dismayed me to intrude.</p>

<p>I now stood in the empty hall; before me was the breakfast-room door,
and I stopped, intimidated and trembling. What a miserable little
poltroon had fear, engendered of unjust punishment, made of me in those
days! I feared to return to the nursery, and feared to go forward to
the parlour; ten minutes I stood in agitated hesitation; the vehement
ringing of the breakfast-room bell decided me; I <hi rend="italic">must</hi> enter.</p>

<p>“Who could want me?” I asked inwardly, as with both hands I turned the
stiff door-handle, which, for a second or two, resisted my efforts.
“What should I see besides Aunt Reed in the
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apartment?—a man or a woman?” The handle turned, the door unclosed, and passing through and
curtseying low, I looked up at—a black pillar!—such, at least, appeared
to me, at first sight, the straight, narrow, sable-clad shape standing
erect on the rug: the grim face at the top was like a carved mask,
placed above the shaft by way of capital.</p>

<p>Mrs. Reed occupied her usual seat by the fireside; she made a signal to
me to approach; I did so, and she introduced me to the stony stranger
with the words: “This is the little girl respecting whom I applied to
you.”</p>

<p>
                                <hi rend="italic">He</hi>, for it was a man, turned his head slowly towards where I stood,
and having examined me with the two inquisitive-looking grey eyes which
twinkled under a pair of bushy brows, said solemnly, and in a bass
voice, “Her size is small: what is her age?”</p>

<p>“Ten years.”</p>

<p>“So much?” was the doubtful answer; and he prolonged his scrutiny for
some minutes. Presently he addressed me:</p>
  
<p>“Your name, little girl?”</p>

<p>“Jane Eyre, sir.”</p>

<p>In uttering these words I looked up: he seemed to me a tall gentleman;
but then I was very little; his features were large, and they 
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and all the lines of his frame were equally harsh and prim.</p>

<p>“Well, Jane Eyre, and are you a good child?”</p>

<p>Impossible to reply to this in the affirmative: my little world held a
contrary opinion: I was silent. Mrs. Reed answered for me by an
expressive shake of the head, adding soon, “Perhaps the less said on
that subject the better, Mr. Brocklehurst.”</p>

<p>“Sorry indeed to hear it! she and I must have some talk;” and bending
from the perpendicular, he installed his person in the arm-chair
opposite Mrs. Reed’s. “Come here,” he said.</p>

<p>I stepped across the rug; he placed me square and straight before him.
What a face he had, now that it was almost on a level with mine! what a
great nose! and what a mouth! and what large prominent teeth!</p>

<p>“No sight so sad as that of a naughty child,” he began, “especially a
naughty little girl. Do you know where the wicked go after death?”</p>

<p>“They go to hell,” was my ready and orthodox answer.</p>

<p>“And what is hell? Can you tell me that?”</p>

<p>“A pit full of fire.”</p>

<p>“And should you like to fall into that pit, and to be burning there for
ever?”</p>

<p>“No, sir.”</p>
  
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<p>“What must you do to avoid it?”</p>

<p>I deliberated a moment; my answer, when it did come, was objectionable:
“I must keep in good health, and not die.”</p>

<p>“How can you keep in good health? Children younger than you die daily.
I buried a little child of five years old only a day or two since,—a
good little child, whose soul is now in heaven. It is to be feared the
same could not be said of you were you to be called hence.”</p>

<p>Not being in a condition to remove his doubt, I only cast my eyes down
on the two large feet planted on the rug, and sighed, wishing myself
far enough away.</p>

<p>“I hope that sigh is from the heart, and that you repent of ever having
been the occasion of discomfort to your excellent benefactress.”</p>

<p>“Benefactress! benefactress!” said I inwardly: “they all call Mrs. Reed
my benefactress; if so, a benefactress is a disagreeable thing.”</p>

<p>“Do you say your prayers night and morning?” continued my interrogator.</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Do you read your Bible?”</p>

<p>“Sometimes.”</p>

<p>“With pleasure? Are you fond of it?”</p>

<p>“I like Revelations, and the book of Daniel, and Genesis and Samuel,
and a little bit of Exodus,
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and some parts of Kings and Chronicles, and Job and Jonah.”</p>

<p>“And the Psalms? I hope you like them?”</p>

<p>“No, sir.”</p>

<p>“No? oh, shocking! I have a little boy, younger than you, who knows six
Psalms by heart: and when you ask him which he would rather have, a
gingerbread-nut to eat or a verse of a Psalm to learn, he says: ‘Oh!
the verse of a Psalm! angels sing Psalms;’ says he, ‘I wish to be a
little angel here below;’ he then gets two nuts in recompense for his
infant piety.”</p>

<p>“Psalms are not interesting,” I remarked.</p>

<p>“That proves you have a wicked heart; and you must pray to God to
change it: to give you a new and clean one: to take away your heart of
stone and give you a heart of flesh.”</p>

<p>I was about to propound a question, touching the manner in which that
operation of changing my heart was to be performed, when Mrs. Reed
interposed, telling me to sit down; she then proceeded to carry on the
conversation herself.</p>

<p>“Mr. Brocklehurst, I believe I intimated in the letter which I wrote to
you three weeks ago, that this little girl has not quite the character
and disposition I could wish: should you admit her into Lowood school,
I should be glad if the superintendent and teachers were requested to
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keep a strict eye on her, and, above all, to guard against her worst
fault, a tendency to deceit. I mention this in your hearing, Jane, that
you may not attempt to impose on Mr. Brocklehurst.”</p>

<p>Well might I dread, well might I dislike Mrs. Reed; for it was her
nature to wound me cruelly; never was I happy in her presence; however
carefully I obeyed, however strenuously I strove to please her, my
efforts were still repulsed and repaid by such sentences as the above.
Now, uttered before a stranger, the accusation cut me to the heart; I
dimly perceived that she was already obliterating hope from the new
phase of existence which she destined me to enter; I felt, though I
could not have expressed the feeling, that she was sowing aversion and
unkindness along my future path; I saw myself transformed under Mr.
Brocklehurst’s eye into an artful, noxious child, and what could I do
to remedy the injury?</p>

<p>“Nothing, indeed,” thought I, as I struggled to repress a sob, and
hastily wiped away some tears, the impotent evidences of my anguish.</p>

<p>“Deceit is, indeed, a sad fault in a child,” said Mr. Brocklehurst; “it
is akin to falsehood, and all liars will have their portion in the lake
burning with fire and brimstone; she shall, how
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ever, be watched, Mrs. Reed. I will speak to Miss Temple and the teachers.”</p>

<p>“I should wish her to be brought up in a manner suiting her prospects,”
continued my benefactress; “to be made useful, to be kept humble: as
for the vacations, she will, with your permission, spend them always at
Lowood.”</p>

<p>“Your decisions are perfectly judicious, madam,” returned Mr.
Brocklehurst. “Humility is a Christian grace, and one peculiarly
appropriate to the pupils of Lowood; I, therefore, direct that especial
care shall be bestowed on its cultivation amongst them. I have studied
how best to mortify in them the worldly sentiment of pride; and, only
the other day, I had a pleasing proof of my success. My second
daughter, Augusta, went with her mama to visit the school, and on her
return she exclaimed: ‘Oh, dear papa, how quiet and plain all the girls
at Lowood look, with their hair combed behind their ears, and their
long pinafores, and those little holland pockets outside their
frocks—they are almost like poor people’s children! and,’ said she,
‘they looked at my dress and mama’s, as if they had never seen a silk
gown before.’”</p>

<p>“This is the state of things I quite approve,” returned Mrs. Reed; “had
I sought all England over, I could scarcely have found a system more
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exactly fitting a child like Jane Eyre. Consistency, my dear Mr.
Brocklehurst; I advocate consistency in all things.”</p>

<p>“Consistency, madam, is the first of Christian duties; and it has been
observed in every arrangement connected with the establishment of
Lowood: plain fare, simple attire, unsophisticated accommodations,
hardy and active habits; such is the order of the day in the house and
its inhabitants.”</p>

<p>“Quite right, sir. I may then depend upon this child being received as
a pupil at Lowood, and there being trained in conformity to her
position and prospects?”</p>

<p>“Madam, you may: she shall be placed in that nursery of chosen plants,
and I trust she will show herself grateful for the inestimable
privilege of her election.”</p>

<p>“I will send her, then, as soon as possible, Mr. Brocklehurst; for, I
assure you, I feel anxious to be relieved of a responsibility that was
becoming too irksome.”</p>

<p>“No doubt, no doubt, madam; and now I wish you good morning. I shall
return to Brocklehurst Hall in the course of a week or two: my good
friend, the Archdeacon, will not permit me to leave him sooner. I shall
send Miss Temple notice that she is to expect a new girl, so that 
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there will be no difficulty about receiving her. Good-bye.”</p>

<p>“Good-bye, Mr. Brocklehurst; remember me to Mrs. and Miss Brocklehurst,
and to Augusta and Theodore, and Master Broughton Brocklehurst.”</p>

<p>“I will, madam. Little girl, here is a book entitled the ‘Child’s
Guide’; read it with prayer, especially that part containing ‘An
account of the awfully sudden death of Martha G——, a naughty child
addicted to falsehood and deceit.’”</p>

<p>With these words Mr. Brocklehurst put into my hand a thin pamphlet sewn
in a cover, and having rung for his carriage, he departed.</p>

<p>Mrs. Reed and I were left alone: some minutes passed in silence; she
was sewing, I was watching her. Mrs. Reed might be at that time some
six or seven and thirty; she was a woman of robust frame,
square-shouldered and strong-limbed, not tall, and, though stout, not
obese: she had a somewhat large face, the under jaw being much
developed and very solid; her brow was low, her chin large and
prominent, mouth and nose sufficiently regular; under her light
eyebrows glimmered an eye devoid of ruth; her skin was dark and opaque,
her hair nearly flaxen; her constitution was sound as a bell—illness
never came near her; she was an exact, clever manager; her household
and tenantry were thoroughly
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under her control; her children only at times defied her authority and laughed it to scorn; 
she dressed well, and had a presence and port calculated to set off handsome attire.</p>

<p>Sitting on a low stool, a few yards from her arm-chair, I examined her
figure; I perused her features. In my hand I held the tract containing
the sudden death of the Liar, to which narrative my attention had been
pointed as to an appropriate warning. What had just passed; what Mrs.
Reed had said concerning me to Mr. Brocklehurst; the whole tenor of
their conversation, was recent, raw, and stinging in my mind; I had
felt every word as acutely as I had heard it plainly, and a passion of
resentment fomented now within me.</p>

<p>Mrs. Reed looked up from her work; her eye settled on mine, her fingers
at the same time suspended their nimble movements.</p>

<p>“Go out of the room; return to the nursery,” was her mandate. My look
or something else must have struck her as offensive, for she spoke with
extreme though suppressed irritation. I got up, I went to the door; I
came back again; I walked to the window, across the room, then close up
to her.</p>

<p>
                                <hi rend="italic">Speak</hi> I must: I had been trodden on severely, and <hi rend="italic">must</hi> turn: but
how? What strength had I
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to dart retaliation at my antagonist? I
gathered my energies and launched them in this blunt sentence—</p>

<p>“I am not deceitful: if I were, I should say I loved <hi rend="italic">you;</hi> but I
declare I do not love you: I dislike you the worst of anybody in the
world except John Reed; and this book about the liar, you may give to
your girl, Georgiana, for it is she who tells lies, and not I.”</p>

<p>Mrs. Reed’s hands still lay on her work inactive: her eye of ice
continued to dwell freezingly on mine.</p>

<p>“What more have you to say?” she asked, rather in the tone in which a
person might address an opponent of adult age than such as is
ordinarily used to a child.</p>

<p>That eye of hers, that voice stirred every antipathy I had. Shaking
from head to foot, thrilled with ungovernable excitement, I continued—</p>

<p>“I am glad you are no relation of mine: I will never call you aunt
again as long as I live. I will never come to see you when I am grown
up; and if any one asks me how I liked you, and how you treated me, I
will say the very thought of you makes me sick, and that you treated me
with miserable cruelty.”</p>

<p>“How dare you affirm that, Jane Eyre?”</p>

<p>“How dare I, Mrs. Reed? How dare I?</p>
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<p>Because it is the <hi rend="italic">truth</hi>. You 
think I have no feelings, and that I can do without one bit of love or
kindness; but I cannot live so: and you have no pity. I shall remember
how you thrust me back—roughly and violently thrust me back—into the
red-room, and locked me up there, to my dying day; though I was in
agony; though I cried out, while suffocating with distress, ‘Have
mercy! Have mercy, Aunt Reed!’ And that punishment you made me suffer
because your wicked boy struck me—knocked me down for nothing. I will
tell anybody who asks me questions, this exact tale. People think you a
good woman, but you are bad, hard-hearted. <hi rend="italic">You</hi> are deceitful!”</p>

<p>Ere I had finished this reply, my soul began to expand, to exult, with
the strangest sense of freedom, of triumph, I ever felt. It seemed as
if an invisible bond had burst, and that I had struggled out into
unhoped-for liberty. Not without cause was this sentiment: Mrs. Reed
looked frightened; her work had slipped from her knee; she was lifting
up her hands, rocking herself to and fro, and even twisting her face as
if she would cry.</p>

<p>“Jane, you are under a mistake: what is the matter with you? Why do you
tremble so violently? Would you like to drink some water?”</p>
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<p>“No, Mrs. Reed.”</p>

<p>“Is there anything else you wish for, Jane? I assure you, I desire to
be your friend.”</p>

<p>“Not you. You told Mr. Brocklehurst I had a bad character, a deceitful
disposition; and I’ll let everybody at Lowood know what you are, and
what you have done.”</p>

<p>“Jane, you don’t understand these things: children must be corrected
for their faults.”</p>

<p>“Deceit is not my fault!” I cried out in a savage, high voice.</p>

<p>“But you are passionate, Jane, that you must allow: and now return to
the nursery—there’s a dear—and lie down a little.”</p>

<p>“I am not your dear; I cannot lie down: send me to school soon, Mrs.
Reed, for I hate to live here.”</p>

<p>“I will indeed send her to school soon,” murmured Mrs. Reed <hi rend="italic">sotto voce</hi>; and gathering up her work, she abruptly quitted the apartment.</p>

<p>I was left there alone—winner of the field. It was the hardest battle I
had fought, and the first victory I had gained: I stood awhile on the
rug, where Mr. Brocklehurst had stood, and I enjoyed my conqueror’s
solitude. First, I smiled to myself and felt elate; but this fierce
pleasure subsided in me as fast as did the accelerated throb of my
pulses. A child cannot quarrel with its
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elders, as I had done; cannot give its furious feelings uncontrolled play, as I had given mine,
without experiencing afterwards the pang of remorse and the chill of
reaction. A ridge of lighted heath, alive, glancing, devouring, would
have been a meet emblem of my mind when I accused and menaced Mrs.
Reed: the same ridge, black and blasted after the flames are dead,
would have represented as meetly my subsequent condition, when
half-an-hour’s silence and reflection had shown me the madness of my
conduct, and the dreariness of my hated and hating position.</p>

<p>Something of vengeance I had tasted for the first time; as aromatic
wine it seemed, on swallowing, warm and racy: its after-flavour,
metallic and corroding, gave me a sensation as if I had been poisoned.
Willingly would I now have gone and asked Mrs. Reed’s pardon; but I
knew, partly from experience and partly from instinct, that was the way
to make her repulse me with double scorn, thereby re-exciting every
turbulent impulse of my nature.</p>

<p>I would fain exercise some better faculty than that of fierce speaking;
fain find nourishment for some less fiendish feeling than that of
sombre indignation. I took a book—some Arabian tales; I sat down and
endeavoured to read. I could make no sense of the subject; my own
thoughts 
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swam always between me and the page I had usually found
fascinating. I opened the glass-door in the breakfast-room: the
shrubbery was quite still: the black frost reigned, unbroken by sun or
breeze, through the grounds. I covered my head and arms with the skirt
of my frock, and went out to walk in a part of the plantation which was
quite sequestrated; but I found no pleasure in the silent trees, the
falling fir-cones, the congealed relics of autumn, russet leaves, swept
by past winds in heaps, and now stiffened together. I leaned against a
gate, and looked into an empty field where no sheep were feeding, where
the short grass was nipped and blanched. It was a very grey day; a most
opaque sky, “onding on snaw,” canopied all; thence flakes fell at
intervals, which settled on the hard path and on the hoary lea without
melting. I stood, a wretched child enough, whispering to myself over
and over again, “What shall I do?—what shall I do?”</p>

<p>All at once I heard a clear voice call, “Miss Jane! where are you? Come
to lunch!”</p>

<p>It was Bessie, I knew well enough; but I did not stir; her light step
came tripping down the path.</p>

<p>“You naughty little thing!” she said. “Why don’t you come when you are
called?”</p>
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<p>Bessie’s presence, compared with the thoughts over which I had been
brooding, seemed cheerful; even though, as usual, she was somewhat
cross. The fact is, after my conflict with and victory over Mrs. Reed,
I was not disposed to care much for the nursemaid’s transitory anger;
and I <hi rend="italic">was</hi> disposed to bask in her youthful lightness of heart. I just
put my two arms round her and said, “Come, Bessie! don’t scold.”</p>

<p>The action was more frank and fearless than any I was habituated to
indulge in: somehow it pleased her.</p>

<p>“You are a strange child, Miss Jane,” she said, as she looked down at
me; “a little roving, solitary thing: and you are going to school, I
suppose?”</p>

<p>I nodded.</p>

<p>“And won’t you be sorry to leave poor Bessie?”</p>

<p>“What does Bessie care for me? She is always scolding me.”</p>

<p>“Because you’re such a queer, frightened, shy little thing. You should
be bolder.”</p>

<p>“What! to get more knocks?”</p>

<p>“Nonsense! But you are rather put upon, that’s certain. My mother said,
when she came to see me last week, that she would not like a
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little one of her own to be in your place.—Now, come in, and I’ve some good news
for you.”</p>

<p>“I don’t think you have, Bessie.”</p>

<p>“Child! what do you mean? What sorrowful eyes you fix on me! Well, but
Missis and the young ladies and Master John are going out to tea this
afternoon, and you shall have tea with me. I’ll ask cook to bake you a
little cake, and then you shall help me to look over your drawers; for
I am soon to pack your trunk. Missis intends you to leave Gateshead in
a day or two, and you shall choose what toys you like to take with
you.”</p>

<p>“Bessie, you must promise not to scold me any more till I go.”</p>

<p>“Well, I will; but mind you are a very good girl, and don’t be afraid
of me. Don’t start when I chance to speak rather sharply; it’s so
provoking.”</p>

<p>“I don’t think I shall ever be afraid of you again, Bessie, because I
have got used to you, and I shall soon have another set of people to
dread.”</p>

<p>“If you dread them they’ll dislike you.”</p>

<p>“As you do, Bessie?”</p>

<p>“I don’t dislike you, Miss; I believe I am fonder of you than of all
the others.”</p>

<p>“You don’t show it.”</p>

<p>“You little sharp thing! you’ve got quite a
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new way of talking. What
makes you so venturesome and hardy?”</p>

<p>“Why, I shall soon be away from you, and besides”—I was going to say
something about what had passed between me and Mrs. Reed, but on second
thoughts I considered it better to remain silent on that head.</p>

<p>“And so you’re glad to leave me?”</p>

<p>“Not at all, Bessie; indeed, just now I’m rather sorry.”</p>

<p>“Just now! and rather! How coolly my little lady says it! I dare say
now if I were to ask you for a kiss you wouldn’t give it me: you’d say
you would <hi rend="italic">rather</hi> not.”</p>

<p>“I’ll kiss you and welcome: bend your head down.” Bessie stooped; we
mutually embraced, and I followed her into the house quite comforted.
That afternoon lapsed in peace and harmony; and in the evening Bessie
told me some of her most enchanting stories, and sang me some of her
sweetest songs. Even for me life had its gleams of sunshine.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER V</head>
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<p>Five o’clock had hardly struck on the morning of the 19th of January,
when Bessie brought a candle into my closet and found me already up and
nearly dressed. I had risen half-an-hour before her entrance, and had
washed my face, and put on my clothes by the light of a half-moon just
setting, whose rays streamed through the narrow window near my crib. I
was to leave Gateshead that day by a coach which passed the lodge gates
at six A.M. Bessie was the only person yet risen; she had lit a fire in
the nursery, where she now proceeded to make my breakfast. Few children
can eat when excited with the thoughts of a journey; nor could I.
Bessie, having pressed me in vain to take a few spoonfuls of the boiled
milk and bread she had prepared for me, wrapped up some biscuits in a
paper and put them into my bag; then she helped me on with my pelisse
and bonnet, and wrapping herself in a shawl, she and I left the
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nursery. As we passed Mrs. Reed’s bedroom, she said, “Will you go in
and bid Missis good-bye?”</p>

<p>“No, Bessie: she came to my crib last night when you were gone down to
supper, and said I need not disturb her in the morning, or my cousins
either; and she told me to remember that she had always been my best
friend, and to speak of her and be grateful to her accordingly.”</p>

<p>“What did you say, Miss?”</p>

<p>“Nothing: I covered my face with the bedclothes, and turned from her to
the wall.”</p>

<p>“That was wrong, Miss Jane.”</p>

<p>“It was quite right, Bessie. Your Missis has not been my friend: she
has been my foe.”</p>

<p>“O Miss Jane! don’t say so!”</p>

<p>“Good-bye to Gateshead!” cried I, as we passed through the hall and
went out at the front door.</p>

<p>The moon was set, and it was very dark; Bessie carried a lantern, whose
light glanced on wet steps and gravel road sodden by a recent thaw. Raw
and chill was the winter morning: my teeth chattered as I hastened down
the drive. There was a light in the porter’s lodge: when we reached it,
we found the porter’s wife just kindling her fire: my trunk, which had
been carried down the evening before, stood corded at
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the door. It
wanted but a few minutes of six, and shortly after that hour had
struck, the distant roll of wheels announced the coming coach; I went
to the door and watched its lamps approach rapidly through the gloom.</p>

<p>“Is she going by herself?” asked the porter’s wife.</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“And how far is it?”</p>

<p>“Fifty miles.”</p>

<p>“What a long way! I wonder Mrs. Reed is not afraid to trust her so far
alone.”</p>

<p>The coach drew up; there it was at the gates with its four horses and
its top laden with passengers: the guard and coachman loudly urged
haste; my trunk was hoisted up; I was taken from Bessie’s neck, to
which I clung with kisses.</p>

<p>“Be sure and take good care of her,” cried she to the guard, as he
lifted me into the inside.</p>

<p>“Ay, ay!” was the answer: the door was slapped to, a voice exclaimed
“All right,” and on we drove. Thus was I severed from Bessie and
Gateshead; thus whirled away to unknown, and, as I then deemed, remote
and mysterious regions.</p>

<p>I remember but little of the journey; I only know that the day seemed
to me of a preternatural length, and that we appeared to travel over
hundreds of miles of road. We passed
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through several towns, and in one,
a very large one, the coach stopped; the horses were taken out, and the
passengers alighted to dine. I was carried into an inn, where the guard
wanted me to have some dinner; but, as I had no appetite, he left me in
an immense room with a fireplace at each end, a chandelier pendent from
the ceiling, and a little red gallery high up against the wall filled
with musical instruments. Here I walked about for a long time, feeling
very strange, and mortally apprehensive of some one coming in and
kidnapping me; for I believed in kidnappers, their exploits having
frequently figured in Bessie’s fireside chronicles. At last the guard
returned; once more I was stowed away in the coach, my protector
mounted his own seat, sounded his hollow horn, and away we rattled over
the “stony street” of L——.</p>

<p>The afternoon came on wet and somewhat misty: as it waned into dusk, I
began to feel that we were getting very far indeed from Gateshead: we
ceased to pass through towns; the country changed; great grey hills
heaved up round the horizon: as twilight deepened, we descended a
valley, dark with wood, and long after night had overclouded the
prospect, I heard a wild wind rushing amongst trees.</p>

<p>Lulled by the sound, I at last dropped asleep:
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I had not long slumbered
when the sudden cessation of motion awoke me; the coach-door was open,
and a person like a servant was standing at it: I saw her face and
dress by the light of the lamps.</p>

<p>“Is there a little girl called Jane Eyre here?” she asked. I answered
“Yes,” and was then lifted out; my trunk was handed down, and the coach
instantly drove away.</p>

<p>I was stiff with long sitting, and bewildered with the noise and motion
of the coach: gathering my faculties, I looked about me. Rain, wind,
and darkness filled the air; nevertheless, I dimly discerned a wall
before me and a door open in it; through this door I passed with my new
guide: she shut and locked it behind her. There was now visible a house
or houses—for the building spread far—with many windows, and lights
burning in some; we went up a broad pebbly path, splashing wet, and
were admitted at a door; then the servant led me through a passage into
a room with a fire, where she left me alone.</p>

<p>I stood and warmed my numbed fingers over the blaze, then I looked
round; there was no candle, but the uncertain light from the hearth
showed, by intervals, papered walls, carpet, curtains, shining mahogany
furniture: it was a parlour, not so spacious or splendid as the
drawing-
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room at Gateshead, but comfortable enough. I was puzzling to
make out the subject of a picture on the wall, when the door opened,
and an individual carrying a light entered; another followed close
behind.</p>

<p>The first was a tall lady with dark hair, dark eyes, and a pale and
large forehead; her figure was partly enveloped in a shawl, her
countenance was grave, her bearing erect.</p>

<p>“The child is very young to be sent alone,” said she, putting her
candle down on the table. She considered me attentively for a minute or
two, then further added:</p>

<p>“She had better be put to bed soon; she looks tired: are you tired?”
she asked, placing her hand on my shoulder.</p>

<p>“A little, ma’am.”</p>

<p>“And hungry too, no doubt: let her have some supper before she goes to
bed, Miss Miller. Is this the first time you have left your parents to
come to school, my little girl?”</p>

<p>I explained to her that I had no parents. She inquired how long they
had been dead: then how old I was, what was my name, whether I could
read, write, and sew a little: then she touched my cheek gently with
her forefinger, and saying, “She hoped I should be a good child,”
dismissed me along with Miss Miller.</p>
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<p>The lady I had left might be about twenty-nine; the one who went with
me appeared some years younger: the first impressed me by her voice,
look, and air. Miss Miller was more ordinary; ruddy in complexion,
though of a careworn countenance; hurried in gait and action, like one
who had always a multiplicity of tasks on hand: she looked, indeed,
what I afterwards found she really was, an under-teacher. Led by her, I
passed from compartment to compartment, from passage to passage, of a
large and irregular building; till, emerging from the total and
somewhat dreary silence pervading that portion of the house we had
traversed, we came upon the hum of many voices, and presently entered a
wide, long room, with great deal tables, two at each end, on each of
which burnt a pair of candles, and seated all round on benches, a
congregation of girls of every age, from nine or ten to twenty. Seen by
the dim light of the dips, their number to me appeared countless,
though not in reality exceeding eighty; they were uniformly dressed in
brown stuff frocks of quaint fashion, and long holland pinafores. It
was the hour of study; they were engaged in conning over their
to-morrow’s task, and the hum I had heard was the combined result of
their whispered repetitions.</p>

<p>Miss Miller signed to me to sit on a bench 
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  near the door, then walking
up to the top of the long room she cried out—</p>

<p>“Monitors, collect the lesson-books and put them away!”</p>

<p>Four tall girls arose from different tables, and going round, gathered
the books and removed them. Miss Miller again gave the word of command—</p>

<p>“Monitors, fetch the supper-trays!”</p>

<p>The tall girls went out and returned presently, each bearing a tray,
with portions of something, I knew not what, arranged thereon, and a
pitcher of water and mug in the middle of each tray. The portions were
handed round; those who liked took a draught of the water, the mug
being common to all. When it came to my turn, I drank, for I was
thirsty, but did not touch the food, excitement and fatigue rendering
me incapable of eating: I now saw, however, that it was a thin oaten
cake shared into fragments.</p>

<p>The meal over, prayers were read by Miss Miller, and the classes filed
off, two and two, upstairs. Overpowered by this time with weariness, I
scarcely noticed what sort of a place the bedroom was, except that,
like the schoolroom, I saw it was very long. To-night I was to be Miss
Miller’s bed-fellow; she helped me to undress: when laid down I glanced
at the long
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  rows of beds, each of which was quickly filled with two
occupants; in ten minutes the single light was extinguished, and amidst
silence and complete darkness I fell asleep.</p>

<p>The night passed rapidly: I was too tired even to dream; I only once
awoke to hear the wind rave in furious gusts, and the rain fall in
torrents, and to be sensible that Miss Miller had taken her place by my
side. When I again unclosed my eyes, a loud bell was ringing; the girls
were up and dressing; day had not yet begun to dawn, and a rushlight or
two burned in the room. I too rose reluctantly; it was bitter cold, and
I dressed as well as I could for shivering, and washed when there was a
basin at liberty, which did not occur soon, as there was but one basin
to six girls, on the stands down the middle of the room. Again the bell
rang: all formed in file, two and two, and in that order descended the
stairs and entered the cold and dimly lit schoolroom: here prayers were
read by Miss Miller; afterwards she called out—</p>

<p>“Form classes!”</p>

<p>A great tumult succeeded for some minutes, during which Miss Miller
repeatedly exclaimed, “Silence!” and “Order!” When it subsided, I saw
them all drawn up in four semicircles, before four chairs, placed at
the four tables; all 
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  held books in their hands, and a great book, like
a Bible, lay on each table, before the vacant seat. A pause of some
seconds succeeded, filled up by the low, vague hum of numbers; Miss
Miller walked from class to class, hushing this indefinite sound.</p>

<p>A distant bell tinkled: immediately three ladies entered the room, each
walked to a table and took her seat; Miss Miller assumed the fourth
vacant chair, which was that nearest the door, and around which the
smallest of the children were assembled: to this inferior class I was
called, and placed at the bottom of it.</p>

<p>Business now began: the day’s Collect was repeated, then certain texts
of Scripture were said, and to these succeeded a protracted reading of
chapters in the Bible, which lasted an hour. By the time that exercise
was terminated, day had fully dawned. The indefatigable bell now
sounded for the fourth time: the classes were marshalled and marched
into another room to breakfast: how glad I was to behold a prospect of
getting something to eat! I was now nearly sick from inanition, having
taken so little the day before.</p>

<p>The refectory was a great, low-ceiled, gloomy room; on two long tables
smoked basins of something hot, which, however, to my dismay, sent
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forth an odour far from inviting. I saw a universal manifestation of
discontent when the fumes of the repast met the nostrils of those
destined to swallow it; from the van of the procession, the tall girls
of the first class, rose the whispered words—</p>

<p>“Disgusting! The porridge is burnt again!”</p>

<p>“Silence!” ejaculated a voice; not that of Miss Miller, but one of the
upper teachers, a little and dark personage, smartly dressed, but of
somewhat morose aspect, who installed herself at the top of one table,
while a more buxom lady presided at the other. I looked in vain for her
I had first seen the night before; she was not visible: Miss Miller
occupied the foot of the table where I sat, and a strange,
foreign-looking, elderly lady, the French teacher, as I afterwards
found, took the corresponding seat at the other board. A long grace was
said and a hymn sung; then a servant brought in some tea for the
teachers, and the meal began.</p>

<p>Ravenous, and now very faint, I devoured a spoonful or two of my
portion without thinking of its taste; but the first edge of hunger
blunted, I perceived I had got in hand a nauseous mess; burnt porridge
is almost as bad as rotten potatoes; famine itself soon sickens over
it. The spoons were moved slowly: I saw each girl taste her 
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food and try to swallow it; but in most cases the effort was soon relinquished.
Breakfast was over, and none had breakfasted. Thanks being returned for
what we had not got, and a second hymn chanted, the refectory was
evacuated for the schoolroom. I was one of the last to go out, and in
passing the tables, I saw one teacher take a basin of the porridge and
taste it; she looked at the others; all their countenances expressed
displeasure, and one of them, the stout one, whispered—</p>

<p>“Abominable stuff! How shameful!”</p>

<p>A quarter of an hour passed before lessons again began, during which
the schoolroom was in a glorious tumult; for that space of time it
seemed to be permitted to talk loud and more freely, and they used
their privilege. The whole conversation ran on the breakfast, which one
and all abused roundly. Poor things! it was the sole consolation they
had. Miss Miller was now the only teacher in the room: a group of great
girls standing about her spoke with serious and sullen gestures. I
heard the name of Mr. Brocklehurst pronounced by some lips; at which
Miss Miller shook her head disapprovingly; but she made no great effort
to check the general wrath; doubtless she shared in it.</p>

<p>A clock in the schoolroom struck nine; Miss 
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  Miller left her circle, and
standing in the middle of the room, cried—</p>

<p>“Silence! To your seats!”</p>

<p>Discipline prevailed: in five minutes the confused throng was resolved
into order, and comparative silence quelled the Babel clamour of
tongues. The upper teachers now punctually resumed their posts: but
still, all seemed to wait. Ranged on benches down the sides of the
room, the eighty girls sat motionless and erect; a quaint assemblage
they appeared, all with plain locks combed from their faces, not a curl
visible; in brown dresses, made high and surrounded by a narrow tucker
about the throat, with little pockets of holland (shaped something like
a Highlander’s purse) tied in front of their frocks, and destined to
serve the purpose of a work-bag: all, too, wearing woollen stockings
and country-made shoes, fastened with brass buckles. Above twenty of
those clad in this costume were full-grown girls, or rather young
women; it suited them ill, and gave an air of oddity even to the
prettiest.</p>

<p>I was still looking at them, and also at intervals examining the
teachers—none of whom precisely pleased me; for the stout one was a
little coarse, the dark one not a little fierce, the foreigner harsh
and grotesque, and Miss Miller,
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poor thing! looked purple, 
weather-beaten, and over-worked—when, as my eye wandered from face to
face, the whole school rose simultaneously, as if moved by a common
spring.</p>

<p>What was the matter? I had heard no order given: I was puzzled. Ere I
had gathered my wits, the classes were again seated: but as all eyes
were now turned to one point, mine followed the general direction, and
encountered the personage who had received me last night. She stood at
the bottom of the long room, on the hearth; for there was a fire at
each end; she surveyed the two rows of girls silently and gravely. Miss
Miller approaching, seemed to ask her a question, and having received
her answer, went back to her place, and said aloud—</p>

<p>“Monitor of the first class, fetch the globes!”</p>

<p>While the direction was being executed, the lady consulted moved slowly
up the room. I suppose I have a considerable organ of veneration, for I
retain yet the sense of admiring awe with which my eyes traced her
steps. Seen now, in broad daylight, she looked tall, fair, and shapely;
brown eyes with a benignant light in their irids, and a fine pencilling
of long lashes round, relieved the whiteness of her large front; on
each of her temples her hair, of a very dark brown, was clustered in
round curls, according
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to the fashion of those times, when neither 
smooth bands nor long ringlets were in vogue; her dress, also in the
mode of the day, was of purple cloth, relieved by a sort of Spanish
trimming of black velvet; a gold watch (watches were not so common then
as now) shone at her girdle. Let the reader add, to complete the
picture, refined features; a complexion, if pale, clear; and a stately
air and carriage, and he will have, at least, as clearly as words can
give it, a correct idea of the exterior of Miss Temple—Maria Temple, as
I afterwards saw the name written in a prayer-book intrusted to me to
carry to church.</p>

<p>The superintendent of Lowood (for such was this lady) having taken her
seat before a pair of globes placed on one of the tables, summoned the
first class round her, and commenced giving a lesson on geography; the
lower classes were called by the teachers: repetitions in history,
grammar, &amp;c. went on for an hour; writing and arithmetic succeeded,
and music lessons were given by Miss Temple to some of the elder girls.
The duration of each lesson was measured by the clock, which at last
struck twelve. The superintendent rose—</p>

<p>“I have a word to address to the pupils,” said she.</p>

<p>The tumult of cessation from lessons was 
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already breaking forth, but it sank at her voice. She went on—</p>

<p>“You had this morning a breakfast which you could not eat; you must be
hungry:—I have ordered that a lunch of bread and cheese shall be served
to all.”</p>

<p>The teachers looked at her with a sort of surprise.</p>

<p>“It is to be done on my responsibility,” she added, in an explanatory
tone to them, and immediately afterwards left the room.</p>

<p>The bread and cheese was presently brought in and distributed, to the
high delight and refreshment of the whole school. The order was now
given “To the garden!” Each put on a coarse straw bonnet, with strings
of coloured calico, and a cloak of grey frieze. I was similarly
equipped, and, following the stream, I made my way into the open air.</p>

<p>The garden was a wide inclosure, surrounded with walls so high as to
exclude every glimpse of prospect; a covered verandah ran down one
side, and broad walks bordered a middle space divided into scores of
little beds: these beds were assigned as gardens for the pupils to
cultivate, and each bed had an owner. When full of flowers they would
doubtless look pretty; but now, at the latter end of January, all was
wintry blight and 
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brown decay. I shuddered as I stood and looked round
me: it was an inclement day for outdoor exercise; not positively rainy,
but darkened by a drizzling yellow fog; all under foot was still
soaking wet with the floods of yesterday. The stronger among the girls
ran about and engaged in active games, but sundry pale and thin ones
herded together for shelter and warmth in the verandah; and amongst
these, as the dense mist penetrated to their shivering frames, I heard
frequently the sound of a hollow cough.</p>

<p>As yet I had spoken to no one, nor did anybody seem to take notice of
me; I stood lonely enough: but to that feeling of isolation I was
accustomed; it did not oppress me much. I leant against a pillar of the
verandah, drew my grey mantle close about me, and, trying to forget the
cold which nipped me without, and the unsatisfied hunger which gnawed
me within, delivered myself up to the employment of watching and
thinking. My reflections were too undefined and fragmentary to merit
record: I hardly yet knew where I was; Gateshead and my past life
seemed floated away to an immeasurable distance; the present was vague
and strange, and of the future I could form no conjecture. I looked
round the convent-like garden, and then
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up at the house—a large 
building, half of which seemed grey and old, the other half quite new.
The new part, containing the schoolroom and dormitory, was lit by
mullioned and latticed windows, which gave it a church-like aspect; a
stone tablet over the door bore this inscription:—</p>

<p>"Lowood Institution.—This portion was rebuilt A.D. ——, by Naomi Brocklehurst,
of Brocklehurst Hall, in this county." “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”—St. Matt. v. 16.</p>

<p>I read these words over and over again: I felt that an explanation
belonged to them, and was unable fully to penetrate their import. I was
still pondering the signification of “Institution,” and endeavouring to
make out a connection between the first words and the verse of
Scripture, when the sound of a cough close behind me made me turn my
head. I saw a girl sitting on a stone bench near; she was bent over a
book, on the perusal of which she seemed intent: from where I stood I
could see the title—it was “Rasselas;” a name that struck me as
strange, and consequently attractive. In turning a leaf she happened to
look up, and I said to her directly—</p>
  
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<p>“Is your book interesting?” I had already formed the intention of
asking her to lend it to me some day.</p>

<p>“I like it,” she answered, after a pause of a second or two, during
which she examined me.</p>

<p>“What is it about?” I continued. I hardly know where I found the
hardihood thus to open a conversation with a stranger; the step was
contrary to my nature and habits: but I think her occupation touched a
chord of sympathy somewhere; for I too liked reading, though of a
frivolous and childish kind; I could not digest or comprehend the
serious or substantial.</p>

<p>“You may look at it,” replied the girl, offering me the book.</p>

<p>I did so; a brief examination convinced me that the contents were less
taking than the title: “Rasselas” looked dull to my trifling taste; I
saw nothing about fairies, nothing about genii; no bright variety
seemed spread over the closely-printed pages. I returned it to her; she
received it quietly, and without saying anything she was about to
relapse into her former studious mood: again I ventured to disturb her—</p>

<p>“Can you tell me what the writing on that stone over the door means?
What is Lowood Institution?”</p>

<p>“This house where you are come to live.”</p>
  
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<p>“And why do they call it Institution? Is it in any way different from
other schools?”</p>

<p>“It is partly a charity-school: you and I, and all the rest of us, are
charity-children. I suppose you are an orphan: are not either your
father or your mother dead?”</p>

<p>“Both died before I can remember.”</p>

<p>“Well, all the girls here have lost either one or both parents, and
this is called an institution for educating orphans.”</p>

<p>“Do we pay no money? Do they keep us for nothing?”</p>

<p>“We pay, or our friends pay, fifteen pounds a year for each.”</p>

<p>“Then why do they call us charity-children?”</p>

<p>“Because fifteen pounds is not enough for board and teaching, and the
deficiency is supplied by subscription.”</p>

<p>“Who subscribes?”</p>

<p>“Different benevolent-minded ladies and gentlemen in this neighbourhood
and in London.”</p>

<p>“Who was Naomi Brocklehurst?”</p>

<p>“The lady who built the new part of this house as that tablet records,
and whose son overlooks and directs everything here.”</p>

<p>“Why?”</p>

<p>“Because he is treasurer and manager of the establishment.”</p>
  
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<p>“Then this house does not belong to that tall lady who wears a watch,
and who said we were to have some bread and cheese?”</p>

<p>“To Miss Temple? Oh, no! I wish it did: she has to answer to Mr.
Brocklehurst for all she does. Mr. Brocklehurst buys all our food and
all our clothes.”</p>

<p>“Does he live here?”</p>

<p>“No—two miles off, at a large hall.”</p>

<p>“Is he a good man?”</p>

<p>“He is a clergyman, and is said to do a great deal of good.”</p>

<p>“Did you say that tall lady was called Miss Temple?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“And what are the other teachers called?”</p>

<p>“The one with red cheeks is called Miss Smith; she attends to the work,
and cuts out—for we make our own clothes, our frocks, and pelisses, and
everything; the little one with black hair is Miss Scatcherd; she
teaches history and grammar, and hears the second class repetitions;
and the one who wears a shawl, and has a pocket-handkerchief tied to
her side with a yellow ribband, is Madame Pierrot: she comes from
Lisle, in France, and teaches French.”</p>

<p>“Do you like the teachers?”</p>

<p>“Well enough.”</p>

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<p>“Do you like the little black one, and the Madame ——?—I cannot
pronounce her name as you do.”</p>

<p>“Miss Scatcherd is hasty—you must take care not to offend her; Madame
Pierrot is not a bad sort of person.”</p>

<p>“But Miss Temple is the best—isn’t she?”</p>

<p>“Miss Temple is very good and very clever; she is above the rest,
because she knows far more than they do.”</p>

<p>“Have you been long here?”</p>

<p>“Two years.”</p>

<p>“Are you an orphan?”</p>

<p>“My mother is dead.”</p>

<p>“Are you happy here?”</p>

<p>“You ask rather too many questions. I have given you answers enough for
the present: now I want to read.”</p>

<p>But at that moment the summons sounded for dinner; all re-entered the
house. The odour which now filled the refectory was scarcely more
appetising than that which had regaled our nostrils at breakfast: the
dinner was served in two huge tin-plated vessels, whence rose a strong
steam redolent of rancid fat. I found the mess to consist of
indifferent potatoes and strange shreds of rusty meat, mixed and cooked
together. Of this preparation a tolerably abundant plateful was
ap
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portioned to each pupil. I ate what I could, and wondered within
myself whether every day’s fare would be like this.</p>

<p>After dinner, we immediately adjourned to the schoolroom: lessons
recommenced, and were continued till five o’clock.</p>

<p>The only marked event of the afternoon was, that I saw the girl with
whom I had conversed in the verandah dismissed in disgrace by Miss
Scatcherd from a history class, and sent to stand in the middle of the
large schoolroom. The punishment seemed to me in a high degree
ignominious, especially for so great a girl—she looked thirteen or
upwards. I expected she would show signs of great distress and shame;
but to my surprise she neither wept nor blushed: composed, though
grave, she stood, the central mark of all eyes. “How can she bear it so
quietly—so firmly?” I asked of myself. “Were I in her place, it seems
to me I should wish the earth to open and swallow me up. She looks as
if she were thinking of something beyond her punishment—beyond her
situation: of something not round her nor before her. I have heard of
day-dreams—is she in a day-dream now? Her eyes are fixed on the floor,
but I am sure they do not see it—her sight seems turned in, gone down
into her heart: she is looking at what she can remember, I believe; 
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not at what is really present. I wonder what sort of a girl she is—whether
good or naughty.”</p>

<p>Soon after five P.M. we had another meal, consisting of a small mug of
coffee, and half-a-slice of brown bread. I devoured my bread and drank
my coffee with relish; but I should have been glad of as much more—I
was still hungry. Half-an-hour’s recreation succeeded, then study; then
the glass of water and the piece of oat-cake, prayers, and bed. Such
was my first day at Lowood.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER VI</head>
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<p>The next day commenced as before, getting up and dressing by rushlight;
but this morning we were obliged to dispense with the ceremony of
washing; the water in the pitchers was frozen. A change had taken place
in the weather the preceding evening, and a keen north-east wind,
whistling through the crevices of our bedroom windows all night long,
had made us shiver in our beds, and turned the contents of the ewers to
ice.</p>

<p>Before the long hour and a half of prayers and Bible-reading was over,
I felt ready to perish with cold. Breakfast-time came at last, and this
morning the porridge was not burnt; the quality was eatable, the
quantity small. How small my portion seemed! I wished it had been
doubled.</p>

<p>In the course of the day I was enrolled a member of the fourth class,
and regular tasks and occupations were assigned me: hitherto, I had
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only been a spectator of the proceedings at Lowood; I was now to become
an actor therein. At first, being little accustomed to learn by heart,
the lessons appeared to me both long and difficult; the frequent change
from task to task, too, bewildered me; and I was glad when, about three
o’clock in the afternoon, Miss Smith put into my hands a border of
muslin two yards long, together with needle, thimble, &amp;c., and sent me
to sit in a quiet corner of the schoolroom, with directions to hem the
same. At that hour most of the others were sewing likewise; but one
class still stood round Miss Scatcherd’s chair reading, and as all was
quiet, the subject of their lessons could be heard, together with the
manner in which each girl acquitted herself, and the animadversions or
commendations of Miss Scatcherd on the performance. It was English
history: among the readers I observed my acquaintance of the verandah:
at the commencement of the lesson, her place had been at the top of the
class, but for some error of pronunciation, or some inattention to
stops, she was suddenly sent to the very bottom. Even in that obscure
position, Miss Scatcherd continued to make her an object of constant
notice: she was continually addressing to her such phrases as the
following:—</p>

<p>“Burns” (such it seems was her name: the 
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girls here were all called by
their surnames, as boys are elsewhere), “Burns, you are standing on the
side of your shoe; turn your toes out immediately.” “Burns, you poke
your chin most unpleasantly; draw it in.” “Burns, I insist on your
holding your head up; I will not have you before me in that attitude,”
&amp;c. &amp;c.</p>

<p>A chapter having been read through twice, the books were closed and the
girls examined. The lesson had comprised part of the reign of Charles
I., and there were sundry questions about tonnage and poundage and
ship-money, which most of them appeared unable to answer; still, every
little difficulty was solved instantly when it reached Burns: her
memory seemed to have retained the substance of the whole lesson, and
she was ready with answers on every point. I kept expecting that Miss
Scatcherd would praise her attention; but, instead of that, she
suddenly cried out—</p>

<p>“You dirty, disagreeable girl! you have never cleaned your nails this
morning!”</p>

<p>Burns made no answer: I wondered at her silence.</p>

<p>“Why,” thought I, “does she not explain that she could neither clean
her nails nor wash her face, as the water was frozen?”</p>

<p>My attention was now called off by Miss 
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Smith desiring me to hold a 
skein of thread: while she was winding it, she talked to me from time
to time, asking whether I had ever been at school before, whether I
could mark, stitch, knit, &amp;c.; till she dismissed me, I could not
pursue my observations on Miss Scatcherd’s movements. When I returned
to my seat, that lady was just delivering an order of which I did not
catch the import; but Burns immediately left the class, and going into
the small inner room where the books were kept, returned in half a
minute, carrying in her hand a bundle of twigs tied together at one
end. This ominous tool she presented to Miss Scatcherd with a
respectful curtesy; then she quietly, and without being told, unloosed
her pinafore, and the teacher instantly and sharply inflicted on her
neck a dozen strokes with the bunch of twigs. Not a tear rose to Burns’
eye; and, while I paused from my sewing, because my fingers quivered at
this spectacle with a sentiment of unavailing and impotent anger, not a
feature of her pensive face altered its ordinary expression.</p>

<p>“Hardened girl!” exclaimed Miss Scatcherd; “nothing can correct you of
your slatternly habits: carry the rod away.”</p>

<p>Burns obeyed: I looked at her narrowly as she emerged from the
book-closet; she was just putting back her handkerchief into her
pocket, 
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and the trace of a tear glistened on her thin cheek.</p>

<p>The play-hour in the evening I thought the pleasantest fraction of the
day at Lowood: the bit of bread, the draught of coffee swallowed at
five o’clock had revived vitality, if it had not satisfied hunger: the
long restraint of the day was slackened; the schoolroom felt warmer
than in the morning—its fires being allowed to burn a little more
brightly, to supply, in some measure, the place of candles, not yet
introduced: the ruddy gloaming, the licensed uproar, the confusion of
many voices gave one a welcome sense of liberty.</p>

<p>On the evening of the day on which I had seen Miss Scatcherd flog her
pupil, Burns, I wandered as usual among the forms and tables and
laughing groups without a companion, yet not feeling lonely: when I
passed the windows, I now and then lifted a blind, and looked out; it
snowed fast, a drift was already forming against the lower panes;
putting my ear close to the window, I could distinguish from the
gleeful tumult within, the disconsolate moan of the wind outside.</p>

<p>Probably, if I had lately left a good home and kind parents, this would
have been the hour when I should most keenly have regretted the
separation; that wind would then have saddened 
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my heart; this obscure
chaos would have disturbed my peace! as it was, I derived from both a
strange excitement, and reckless and feverish, I wished the wind to
howl more wildly, the gloom to deepen to darkness, and the confusion to
rise to clamour.</p>

<p>Jumping over forms, and creeping under tables, I made my way to one of
the fire-places; there, kneeling by the high wire fender, I found
Burns, absorbed, silent, abstracted from all round her by the
companionship of a book, which she read by the dim glare of the embers.</p>

<p>“Is it still ‘Rasselas’?” I asked, coming behind her.</p>

<p>“Yes,” she said, “and I have just finished it.”</p>

<p>And in five minutes more she shut it up. I was glad of this.</p>

<p>“Now,” thought I, “I can perhaps get her to talk.” I sat down by her on
the floor.</p>

<p>“What is your name besides Burns?”</p>

<p>“Helen.”</p>

<p>“Do you come a long way from here?”</p>

<p>“I come from a place farther north, quite on the borders of Scotland.”</p>

<p>“Will you ever go back?”</p>

<p>“I hope so; but nobody can be sure of the future.”</p>

<p>“You must wish to leave Lowood?”</p>

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<p>“No! why should I? I was sent to Lowood to get an education; and it
would be of no use going away until I have attained that object.”</p>

<p>“But that teacher, Miss Scatcherd, is so cruel to you?”</p>

<p>“Cruel? Not at all! She is severe: she dislikes my faults.”</p>

<p>“And if I were in your place I should dislike her; I should resist her.
If she struck me with that rod, I should get it from her hand; I should
break it under her nose.”</p>

<p>“Probably you would do nothing of the sort: but if you did, Mr.
Brocklehurst would expel you from the school; that would be a great
grief to your relations. It is far better to endure patiently a smart
which nobody feels but yourself, than to commit a hasty action whose
evil consequences will extend to all connected with you; and besides,
the Bible bids us return good for evil.”</p>

<p>“But then it seems disgraceful to be flogged, and to be sent to stand
in the middle of a room full of people; and you are such a great girl:
I am far younger than you, and I could not bear it.”</p>

<p>“Yet it would be your duty to bear it, if you could not avoid it: it is
weak and silly to say you <hi rend="italic">cannot bear</hi> what it is your fate to be
required to bear.”</p>
  
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<p>I heard her with wonder: I could not comprehend this doctrine of
endurance; and still less could I understand or sympathise with the
forbearance she expressed for her chastiser. Still I felt that Helen
Burns considered things by a light invisible to my eyes. I suspected
she might be right and I wrong; but I would not ponder the matter
deeply; like Felix, I put it off to a more convenient season.</p>

<p>“You say you have faults, Helen: what are they? To me you seem very
good.”</p>

<p>“Then learn from me, not to judge by appearances: I am, as Miss
Scatcherd said, slatternly; I seldom put, and never keep, things in
order; I am careless; I forget rules; I read when I should learn my
lessons; I have no method; and sometimes I say, like you, I cannot
<hi rend="italic">bear</hi> to be subjected to systematic arrangements. This is all very
provoking to Miss Scatcherd, who is naturally neat, punctual, and
particular.”</p>

<p>“And cross and cruel,” I added; but Helen Burns would not admit my
addition: she kept silence.</p>

<p>“Is Miss Temple as severe to you as Miss Scatcherd?”</p>

<p>At the utterance of Miss Temple’s name, a soft smile flitted over her
grave face.</p>

<p>“Miss Temple is full of goodness; it pains her
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to be severe to any one,
even the worst in the school: she sees my errors, and tells me of them
gently; and, if I do anything worthy of praise, she gives me my meed
liberally. One strong proof of my wretchedly defective nature is, that
even her expostulations, so mild, so rational, have not influence to
cure me of my faults; and even her praise, though I value it most
highly, cannot stimulate me to continued care and foresight.”</p>

<p>“That is curious,” said I, “it is so easy to be careful.”</p>

<p>“For <hi rend="italic">you</hi> I have no doubt it is. I observed you in your class this
morning, and saw you were closely attentive: your thoughts never seemed
to wander while Miss Miller explained the lesson and questioned you.
Now, mine continually rove away; when I should be listening to Miss
Scatcherd, and collecting all she says with assiduity, often I lose the
very sound of her voice; I fall into a sort of dream. Sometimes I think
I am in Northumberland, and that the noises I hear round me are the
bubbling of a little brook which runs through Deepden, near our
house;—then, when it comes to my turn to reply, I have to be awakened;
and having heard nothing of what was read for listening to the
visionary brook, I have no answer ready.”</p>

<p>“Yet how well you replied this afternoon.”</p>
  
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<p>“It was mere chance; the subject on which we had been reading had
interested me. This afternoon, instead of dreaming of Deepden, I was
wondering how a man who wished to do right could act so unjustly and
unwisely as Charles the First sometimes did; and I thought what a pity
it was that, with his integrity and conscientiousness, he could see no
farther than the prerogatives of the crown. If he had but been able to
look to a distance, and see how what they call the spirit of the age
was tending! Still, I like Charles—I respect him—I pity him, poor
murdered king! Yes, his enemies were the worst: they shed blood they
had no right to shed. How dared they kill him!”</p>

<p>Helen was talking to herself now: she had forgotten I could not very
well understand her—that I was ignorant, or nearly so, of the subject
she discussed. I recalled her to my level.</p>

<p>“And when Miss Temple teaches you, do your thoughts wander then?”</p>

<p>“No, certainly, not often; because Miss Temple has generally something
to say which is newer than my own reflections; her language is
singularly agreeable to me, and the information she communicates is
often just what I wished to gain.”</p>
  
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<p>“Well, then, with Miss Temple you are good?”</p>

<p>“Yes, in a passive way: I make no effort; I follow as inclination
guides me. There is no merit in such goodness.”</p>

<p>“A great deal: you are good to those who are good to you. It is all I
ever desire to be. If people were always kind and obedient to those who
are cruel and unjust, the wicked people would have it all their own
way: they would never feel afraid, and so they would never alter, but
would grow worse and worse. When we are struck at without a reason, we
should strike back again very hard; I am sure we should—so hard as to
teach the person who struck us never to do it again.”</p>

<p>“You will change your mind, I hope, when you grow older: as yet you are
but a little untaught girl.”</p>

<p>“But I feel this, Helen; I must dislike those who, whatever I do to
please them, persist in disliking me; I must resist those who punish me
unjustly. It is as natural as that I should love those who show me
affection, or submit to punishment when I feel it is deserved.”</p>

<p>“Heathens and savage tribes hold that doctrine, but Christians and
civilised nations disown it.”</p>

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<p>“How? I don’t understand.”</p>

<p>“It is not violence that best overcomes hate—nor vengeance that most
certainly heals injury.”</p>

<p>“What then?”</p>

<p>“Read the New Testament, and observe what Christ says, and how He acts;
make His word your rule, and His conduct your example.”</p>

<p>“What does He say?”</p>

<p>“Love your enemies; bless them that curse you; do good to them that
hate you and despitefully use you.”</p>

<p>“Then I should love Mrs. Reed, which I cannot do; I should bless her
son John, which is impossible.”</p>

<p>In her turn, Helen Burns asked me to explain, and I proceeded forthwith
to pour out, in my own way, the tale of my sufferings and resentments.
Bitter and truculent when excited, I spoke as I felt, without reserve
or softening.</p>

<p>Helen heard me patiently to the end: I expected she would then make a
remark, but she said nothing.</p>

<p>“Well,” I asked impatiently, “is not Mrs. Reed a hard-hearted, bad
woman?”</p>

<p>“She has been unkind to you, no doubt; because you see, she dislikes
your cast of character, as Miss Scatcherd does mine; but how minutely
you remember all she has done 
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and said to you! What a singularly deep
impression her injustice seems to have made on your heart! No ill-usage
so brands its record on my feelings. Would you not be happier if you
tried to forget her severity, together with the passionate emotions it
excited? Life appears to me too short to be spent in nursing animosity
or registering wrongs. We are, and must be, one and all, burdened with
faults in this world: but the time will soon come when, I trust, we
shall put them off in putting off our corruptible bodies; when
debasement and sin will fall from us with this cumbrous frame of flesh,
and only the spark of the spirit will remain,—the impalpable principle
of light and thought, pure as when it left the Creator to inspire the
creature: whence it came it will return; perhaps again to be
communicated to some being higher than man—perhaps to pass through
gradations of glory, from the pale human soul to brighten to the
seraph! Surely it will never, on the contrary, be suffered to
degenerate from man to fiend? No; I cannot believe that: I hold another
creed: which no one ever taught me, and which I seldom mention; but in
which I delight, and to which I cling: for it extends hope to all: it
makes Eternity a rest—a mighty home, not a terror and an abyss.
Besides, with this creed, I can so clearly distinguish between
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the criminal and his crime; I can so sincerely forgive the first while I
abhor the last: with this creed revenge never worries my heart,
degradation never too deeply disgusts me, injustice never crushes me
too low: I live in calm, looking to the end.”</p>

<p>Helen’s head, always drooping, sank a little lower as she finished this
sentence. I saw by her look she wished no longer to talk to me, but
rather to converse with her own thoughts. She was not allowed much time
for meditation: a monitor, a great rough girl, presently came up,
exclaiming in a strong Cumberland accent—</p>

<p>“Helen Burns, if you don’t go and put your drawer in order, and fold up
your work this minute, I’ll tell Miss Scatcherd to come and look at
it!”</p>

<p>Helen sighed as her reverie fled, and getting up, obeyed the monitor
without reply as without delay.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER VII</head>
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<p>My first quarter at Lowood seemed an age; and not the golden age
either; it comprised an irksome struggle with difficulties in
habituating myself to new rules and unwonted tasks. The fear of failure
in these points harassed me worse than the physical hardships of my
lot; though these were no trifles.</p>

<p>During January, February, and part of March, the deep snows, and, after
their melting, the almost impassable roads, prevented our stirring
beyond the garden walls, except to go to church; but within these
limits we had to pass an hour every day in the open air. Our clothing
was insufficient to protect us from the severe cold: we had no boots,
the snow got into our shoes and melted there: our ungloved hands became
numbed and covered with chilblains, as were our feet: I remember well
the distracting irritation I endured from this cause every evening,
when my feet 
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inflamed; and the torture of thrusting the swelled, raw,
and stiff toes into my shoes in the morning. Then the scanty supply of
food was distressing: with the keen appetites of growing children, we
had scarcely sufficient to keep alive a delicate invalid. From this
deficiency of nourishment resulted an abuse, which pressed hardly on
the younger pupils: whenever the famished great girls had an
opportunity, they would coax or menace the little ones out of their
portion. Many a time I have shared between two claimants the precious
morsel of brown bread distributed at tea-time; and after relinquishing
to a third half the contents of my mug of coffee, I have swallowed the
remainder with an accompaniment of secret tears, forced from me by the
exigency of hunger.</p>

<p>Sundays were dreary days in that wintry season. We had to walk two
miles to Brocklebridge Church, where our patron officiated. We set out
cold, we arrived at church colder: during the morning service we became
almost paralysed. It was too far to return to dinner, and an allowance
of cold meat and bread, in the same penurious proportion observed in
our ordinary meals, was served round between the services.</p>

<p>At the close of the afternoon service we returned by an exposed and
hilly road, where the bitter 
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winter wind, blowing over a range of snowy
summits to the north, almost flayed the skin from our faces.</p>

<p>I can remember Miss Temple walking lightly and rapidly along our
drooping line, her plaid cloak, which the frosty wind fluttered,
gathered close about her, and encouraging us, by precept and example,
to keep up our spirits, and march forward, as she said, “like stalwart
soldiers.” The other teachers, poor things, were generally themselves
too much dejected to attempt the task of cheering others.</p>

<p>How we longed for the light and heat of a blazing fire when we got
back! But, to the little ones at least, this was denied: each hearth in
the schoolroom was immediately surrounded by a double row of great
girls, and behind them the younger children crouched in groups,
wrapping their starved arms in their pinafores.</p>

<p>A little solace came at tea-time, in the shape of a double ration of
bread—a whole, instead of a half, slice—with the delicious addition of
a thin scrape of butter: it was the hebdomadal treat to which we all
looked forward from Sabbath to Sabbath. I generally contrived to
reserve a moiety of this bounteous repast for myself; but the remainder
I was invariably obliged to part with.</p>

<p>The Sunday evening was spent in repeating,
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by heart, the Church Catechism,
and the fifth, sixth, and seventh chapters of St. Matthew; 
and in listening to a long sermon, read by Miss Miller, whose
irrepressible yawns attested her weariness. A frequent interlude of
these performances was the enactment of the part of Eutychus by some
half-dozen of little girls, who, overpowered with sleep, would fall
down, if not out of the third loft, yet off the fourth form, and be
taken up half dead. The remedy was, to thrust them forward into the
centre of the schoolroom, and oblige them to stand there till the
sermon was finished. Sometimes their feet failed them, and they sank
together in a heap; they were then propped up with the monitors’ high
stools.</p>

<p>I have not yet alluded to the visits of Mr. Brocklehurst; and indeed
that gentleman was from home during the greater part of the first month
after my arrival; perhaps prolonging his stay with his friend the
archdeacon: his absence was a relief to me. I need not say that I had
my own reasons for dreading his coming: but come he did at last.</p>

<p>One afternoon (I had then been three weeks at Lowood), as I was sitting
with a slate in my hand, puzzling over a sum in long division, my eyes,
raised in abstraction to the window, caught sight of a figure just
passing: I recognised 
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almost instinctively that gaunt outline; and
when, two minutes after, all the school, teachers included, rose <hi rend="italic">en masse</hi>
, it was not necessary for me to look up in order to ascertain
whose entrance they thus greeted. A long stride measured the
schoolroom, and presently beside Miss Temple, who herself had risen,
stood the same black column which had frowned on me so ominously from
the hearthrug of Gateshead. I now glanced sideways at this piece of
architecture. Yes, I was right: it was Mr. Brocklehurst, buttoned up in
a surtout, and looking longer, narrower, and more rigid than ever.</p>

<p>I had my own reasons for being dismayed at this apparition; too well I
remembered the perfidious hints given by Mrs. Reed about my
disposition, &amp;c.; the promise pledged by Mr. Brocklehurst to apprise
Miss Temple and the teachers of my vicious nature. All along I had been
dreading the fulfilment of this promise,—I had been looking out daily
for the “Coming Man,” whose information respecting my past life and
conversation was to brand me as a bad child for ever: now there he was.
He stood at Miss Temple’s side; he was speaking low in her ear: I did
not doubt he was making disclosures of my villainy; and I watched her
eye with painful anxiety, expecting every moment to see its 
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dark orb turn on me a glance of repugnance and contempt. I listened too; and as
I happened to be seated quite at the top of the room, I caught most of
what he said: its import relieved me from immediate apprehension.</p>

<p>“I suppose, Miss Temple, the thread I bought at Lowton will do; it
struck me that it would be just of the quality for the calico chemises,
and I sorted the needles to match. You may tell Miss Smith that I
forgot to make a memorandum of the darning needles, but she shall have
some papers sent in next week; and she is not, on any account, to give
out more than one at a time to each pupil: if they have more, they are
apt to be careless and lose them. And, O ma’am! I wish the woollen
stockings were better looked to!—when I was here last, I went into the
kitchen-garden and examined the clothes drying on the line; there was a
quantity of black hose in a very bad state of repair: from the size of
the holes in them I was sure they had not been well mended from time to
time.”</p>

<p>He paused.</p>

<p>“Your directions shall be attended to, sir,” said Miss Temple.</p>

<p>“And, ma’am,” he continued, “the laundress tells me some of the girls
have two clean tuckers in the week: it is too much; the rules limit
them to one.”</p>
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<p>“I think I can explain that circumstance, sir. Agnes and Catherine
Johnstone were invited to take tea with some friends at Lowton last
Thursday, and I gave them leave to put on clean tuckers for the
occasion.”</p>

<p>Mr. Brocklehurst nodded.</p>

<p>“Well, for once it may pass; but please not to let the circumstance
occur too often. And there is another thing which surprised me; I find,
in settling accounts with the housekeeper, that a lunch, consisting of
bread and cheese, has twice been served out to the girls during the
past fortnight. How is this? I looked over the regulations, and I find
no such meal as lunch mentioned. Who introduced this innovation? and by
what authority?”</p>

<p>“I must be responsible for the circumstance, sir,” replied Miss Temple:
“the breakfast was so ill prepared that the pupils could not possibly
eat it; and I dared not allow them to remain fasting till dinner-time.”</p>

<p>“Madam, allow me an instant. You are aware that my plan in bringing up
these girls is, not to accustom them to habits of luxury and
indulgence, but to render them hardy, patient, self-denying. Should any
little accidental disappointment of the appetite occur, such as the
spoiling of a meal, the under or the over dressing 
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of a dish, the
incident ought not to be neutralised by replacing with something more
delicate the comfort lost, thus pampering the body and obviating the
aim of this institution; it ought to be improved to the spiritual
edification of the pupils, by encouraging them to evince fortitude
under the temporary privation. A brief address on those occasions would
not be mistimed, wherein a judicious instructor would take the
opportunity of referring to the sufferings of the primitive Christians;
to the torments of martyrs; to the exhortations of our blessed Lord
Himself, calling upon His disciples to take up their cross and follow
Him; to His warnings that man shall not live by bread alone, but by
every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God; to His divine
consolations, ‘If ye suffer hunger or thirst for My sake, happy are
ye.’ Oh, madam, when you put bread and cheese, instead of burnt
porridge, into these children’s mouths, you may indeed feed their vile
bodies, but you little think how you starve their immortal souls!”</p>

<p>Mr. Brocklehurst again paused—perhaps overcome by his feelings. Miss
Temple had looked down when he first began to speak to her; but she now
gazed straight before her, and her face, naturally pale as marble,
appeared to be assuming also the coldness and fixity of that material;
especially her mouth, closed as if it would have 
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required a sculptor’s chisel to open it, and her brow settled gradually into petrified
severity.</p>

<p>Meantime, Mr. Brocklehurst, standing on the hearth with his hands
behind his back, majestically surveyed the whole school. Suddenly his
eye gave a blink, as if it had met something that either dazzled or
shocked its pupil; turning, he said in more rapid accents than he had
hitherto used—</p>

<p>“Miss Temple, Miss Temple, what—<hi rend="italic">what</hi> is that girl with curled hair?
Red hair, ma’am, curled—curled all over?” And extending his cane he
pointed to the awful object, his hand shaking as he did so.</p>

<p>“It is Julia Severn,” replied Miss Temple, very quietly.</p>

<p>“Julia Severn, ma’am! And why has she, or any other, curled hair? Why,
in defiance of every precept and principle of this house, does she
conform to the world so openly—here in an evangelical, charitable
establishment—as to wear her hair one mass of curls?”</p>

<p>“Julia’s hair curls naturally,” returned Miss Temple, still more
quietly.</p>

<p>“Naturally! Yes, but we are not to conform to nature; I wish these
girls to be the children of Grace: and why that abundance? I have again
and again intimated that I desire the hair 
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to be arranged closely, 
modestly, plainly. Miss Temple, that girl’s hair must be cut off
entirely; I will send a barber to-morrow: and I see others who have far
too much of the excrescence—that tall girl, tell her to turn round.
Tell all the first form to rise up and direct their faces to the wall.”</p>

<p>Miss Temple passed her handkerchief over her lips, as if to smooth away
the involuntary smile that curled them; she gave the order, however,
and when the first class could take in what was required of them, they
obeyed. Leaning a little back on my bench, I could see the looks and
grimaces with which they commented on this manoeuvre: it was a pity Mr.
Brocklehurst could not see them too; he would perhaps have felt that,
whatever he might do with the outside of the cup and platter, the
inside was further beyond his interference than he imagined.</p>

<p>He scrutinised the reverse of these living medals some five minutes,
then pronounced sentence. These words fell like the knell of doom—</p>

<p>“All those top-knots must be cut off.”</p>

<p>Miss Temple seemed to remonstrate.</p>

<p>“Madam,” he pursued, “I have a Master to serve whose kingdom is not of
this world: my mission is to mortify in these girls the lusts of the
flesh; to teach them to clothe themselves with shame-facedness and
sobriety, not with 
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braided hair and costly apparel; and each of the
young persons before us has a string of hair twisted in plaits which
vanity itself might have woven; these, I repeat, must be cut off; think
of the time wasted, of—”</p>

<p>Mr. Brocklehurst was here interrupted: three other visitors, ladies,
now entered the room. They ought to have come a little sooner to have
heard his lecture on dress, for they were splendidly attired in velvet,
silk, and furs. The two younger of the trio (fine girls of sixteen and
seventeen) had grey beaver hats, then in fashion, shaded with ostrich
plumes, and from under the brim of this graceful head-dress fell a
profusion of light tresses, elaborately curled; the elder lady was
enveloped in a costly velvet shawl, trimmed with ermine, and she wore a
false front of French curls.</p>
  
<p>These ladies were deferentially received by Miss Temple, as Mrs. and
the Misses Brocklehurst, and conducted to seats of honour at the top of
the room. It seems they had come in the carriage with their reverend
relative, and had been conducting a rummaging scrutiny of the room
upstairs, while he transacted business with the housekeeper, questioned
the laundress, and lectured the superintendent. They now proceeded to
address divers remarks and reproofs to 
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Miss Smith, who was charged with
the care of the linen and the inspection of the dormitories: but I had
no time to listen to what they said; other matters called off and
enchanted my attention.</p>

<p>Hitherto, while gathering up the discourse of Mr. Brocklehurst and Miss
Temple, I had not, at the same time, neglected precautions to secure my
personal safety; which I thought would be effected, if I could only
elude observation. To this end, I had sat well back on the form, and
while seeming to be busy with my sum, had held my slate in such a
manner as to conceal my face: I might have escaped notice, had not my
treacherous slate somehow happened to slip from my hand, and falling
with an obtrusive crash, directly drawn every eye upon me; I knew it
was all over now, and, as I stooped to pick up the two fragments of
slate, I rallied my forces for the worst. It came.</p>

<p>“A careless girl!” said Mr. Brocklehurst, and immediately after—“It is
the new pupil, I perceive.” And before I could draw breath, “I must not
forget I have a word to say respecting her.” Then aloud: how loud it
seemed to me! “Let the child who broke her slate come forward!”</p>

<p>Of my own accord I could not have stirred; I was paralysed: but the two
great girls who sat on each side of me, set me on my legs and 
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pushed me towards the dread judge, and then Miss Temple gently assisted me to his
very feet, and I caught her whispered counsel—</p>

<p>“Don’t be afraid, Jane, I saw it was an accident; you shall not be
punished.”</p>

<p>The kind whisper went to my heart like a dagger.</p>

<p>“Another minute, and she will despise me for a hypocrite,” thought I;
and an impulse of fury against Reed, Brocklehurst, and Co. bounded in
my pulses at the conviction. I was no Helen Burns.</p>

<p>“Fetch that stool,” said Mr. Brocklehurst, pointing to a very high one
from which a monitor had just risen: it was brought.</p>

<p>“Place the child upon it.”</p>

<p>And I was placed there, by whom I don’t know: I was in no condition to
note particulars; I was only aware that they had hoisted me up to the
height of Mr. Brocklehurst’s nose, that he was within a yard of me, and
that a spread of shot orange and purple silk pelisses and a cloud of
silvery plumage extended and waved below me.</p>

<p>Mr. Brocklehurst hemmed.</p>

<p>“Ladies,” said he, turning to his family, “Miss Temple, teachers, and
children, you all see this girl?”</p>

<p>Of course they did; for I felt their eyes 
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directed like burning-glasses against my scorched skin.</p>

<p>“You see she is yet young; you observe she possesses the ordinary form
of childhood; God has graciously given her the shape that He has given
to all of us; no signal deformity points her out as a marked character.
Who would think that the Evil One had already found a servant and agent
in her? Yet such, I grieve to say, is the case.”</p>

<p>A pause—in which I began to steady the palsy of my nerves, and to feel
that the Rubicon was passed; and that the trial, no longer to be
shirked, must be firmly sustained.</p>

<p>“My dear children,” pursued the black marble clergyman, with pathos,
“this is a sad, a melancholy occasion; for it becomes my duty to warn
you, that this girl, who might be one of God’s own lambs, is a little
castaway: not a member of the true flock, but evidently an interloper
and an alien. You must be on your guard against her; you must shun her
example; if necessary, avoid her company, exclude her from your sports,
and shut her out from your converse. Teachers, you must watch her: keep
your eyes on her movements, weigh well her words, scrutinise her
actions, punish her body to save her soul: if, indeed, such salvation
be possible, for (my tongue falters while I tell it) this girl, this
child, 
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the native of a Christian land, worse than many a little heathen
who says its prayers to Brahma and kneels before Juggernaut—this girl
is—a liar!”</p>

<p>Now came a pause of ten minutes, during which I, by this time in
perfect possession of my wits, observed all the female Brocklehursts
produce their pocket-handkerchiefs and apply them to their optics,
while the elderly lady swayed herself to and fro, and the two younger
ones whispered, “How shocking!”</p>

<p>Mr. Brocklehurst resumed.</p>

<p>“This I learned from her benefactress; from the pious and charitable
lady who adopted her in her orphan state, reared her as her own
daughter, and whose kindness, whose generosity the unhappy girl repaid
by an ingratitude so bad, so dreadful, that at last her excellent
patroness was obliged to separate her from her own young ones, fearful
lest her vicious example should contaminate their purity: she has sent
her here to be healed, even as the Jews of old sent their diseased to
the troubled pool of Bethesda; and, teachers, superintendent, I beg of
you not to allow the waters to stagnate round her.”</p>

<p>With this sublime conclusion, Mr. Brocklehurst adjusted the top button
of his surtout, muttered something to his family, who rose, 
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bowed to Miss Temple, and then all the great people sailed in state from the
room. Turning at the door, my judge said—</p>

<p>“Let her stand half-an-hour longer on that stool, and let no one speak
to her during the remainder of the day.”</p>

<p>There was I, then, mounted aloft; I, who had said I could not bear the
shame of standing on my natural feet in the middle of the room, was now
exposed to general view on a pedestal of infamy. What my sensations
were, no language can describe; but just as they all rose, stifling my
breath and constricting my throat, a girl came up and passed me: in
passing, she lifted her eyes. What a strange light inspired them! What
an extraordinary sensation that ray sent through me! How the new
feeling bore me up! It was as if a martyr, a hero, had passed a slave
or victim, and imparted strength in the transit. I mastered the rising
hysteria, lifted up my head, and took a firm stand on the stool. Helen
Burns asked some slight question about her work of Miss Smith, was
chidden for the triviality of the inquiry, returned to her place, and
smiled at me as she again went by. What a smile! I remember it now, and
I know that it was the effluence of fine intellect, of true courage; it
lit up her marked lineaments, her thin face, her 
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sunken grey eye, 
like a reflection from the aspect of an angel. Yet at that moment Helen
Burns wore on her arm “the untidy badge;” scarcely an hour ago I had
heard her condemned by Miss Scatcherd to a dinner of bread and water on
the morrow because she had blotted an exercise in copying it out. Such
is the imperfect nature of man! such spots are there on the disc of the
clearest planet; and eyes like Miss Scatcherd’s can only see those
minute defects, and are blind to the full brightness of the orb.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER VIII</head>
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<p>Ere the half-hour ended, five o’clock struck; school was dismissed, and
all were gone into the refectory to tea. I now ventured to descend: it
was deep dusk; I retired into a corner and sat down on the floor. The
spell by which I had been so far supported began to dissolve; reaction
took place, and soon, so overwhelming was the grief that seized me, I
sank prostrate with my face to the ground. Now I wept: Helen Burns was
not here; nothing sustained me; left to myself I abandoned myself, and
my tears watered the boards. I had meant to be so good, and to do so
much at Lowood: to make so many friends, to earn respect and win
affection. Already I had made visible progress: that very morning I had
reached the head of my class; Miss Miller had praised me warmly; Miss
Temple had smiled approbation; she had promised to teach me drawing,
and to let me learn French, if I continued to make similar improvement
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two months longer: and then I was well received by my fellow-pupils;
treated as an equal by those of my own age, and not molested by any;
now, here I lay again crushed and trodden on; and could I ever rise
more?</p>

<p>“Never,” I thought; and ardently I wished to die. While sobbing out
this wish in broken accents, some one approached: I started up—again
Helen Burns was near me; the fading fires just showed her coming up the
long, vacant room; she brought my coffee and bread.</p>

<p>“Come, eat something,” she said; but I put both away from me, feeling
as if a drop or a crumb would have choked me in my present condition.
Helen regarded me, probably with surprise: I could not now abate my
agitation, though I tried hard; I continued to weep aloud. She sat down
on the ground near me, embraced her knees with her arms, and rested her
head upon them; in that attitude she remained silent as an Indian. I
was the first who spoke—</p>

<p>“Helen, why do you stay with a girl whom everybody believes to be a
liar?”</p>

<p>“Everybody, Jane? Why, there are only eighty people who have heard you
called so, and the world contains hundreds of millions.”</p>

<p>“But what have I to do with millions? The eighty I know despise me.”</p>

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<p>“Jane, you are mistaken: probably not one in the school either despises
or dislikes you: many, I am sure, pity you much.”</p>

<p>“How can they pity me after what Mr. Brocklehurst has said?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Brocklehurst is not a god: nor is he even a great and admired man:
he is little liked here; he never took steps to make himself liked. Had
he treated you as an especial favourite, you would have found enemies,
declared or covert, all around you; as it is, the greater number would
offer you sympathy if they dared. Teachers and pupils may look coldly
on you for a day or two, but friendly feelings are concealed in their
hearts; and if you persevere in doing well, these feelings will ere
long appear so much the more evidently for their temporary suppression.
Besides, Jane,”—she paused.</p>

<p>“Well, Helen?” said I, putting my hand into hers: she chafed my fingers
gently to warm them, and went on—</p>

<p>“If all the world hated you, and believed you wicked, while your own
conscience approved you, and absolved you from guilt, you would not be
without friends.”</p>

<p>“No; I know I should think well of myself; but that is not enough: if
others don’t love me I would rather die than live—I cannot bear to 
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be solitary and hated, Helen. Look here; to gain some real affection from
you, or Miss Temple, or any other whom I truly love, I would willingly
submit to have the bone of my arm broken, or to let a bull toss me, or
to stand behind a kicking horse, and let it dash its hoof at my chest—”</p>

<p>“Hush, Jane! you think too much of the love of human beings; you are
too impulsive, too vehement; the sovereign hand that created your
frame, and put life into it, has provided you with other resources than
your feeble self, or than creatures feeble as you. Besides this earth,
and besides the race of men, there is an invisible world and a kingdom
of spirits: that world is round us, for it is everywhere; and those
spirits watch us, for they are commissioned to guard us; and if we were
dying in pain and shame, if scorn smote us on all sides, and hatred
crushed us, angels see our tortures, recognise our innocence (if
innocent we be: as I know you are of this charge which Mr. Brocklehurst
has weakly and pompously repeated at second-hand from Mrs. Reed; for I
read a sincere nature in your ardent eyes and on your clear front), and
God waits only the separation of spirit from flesh to crown us with a
full reward. Why, then, should we ever sink overwhelmed with 
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distress, when life is so soon over, and death is so certain an entrance to
happiness—to glory?”</p>

<p>I was silent; Helen had calmed me; but in the tranquillity she imparted
there was an alloy of inexpressible sadness. I felt the impression of
woe as she spoke, but I could not tell whence it came; and when, having
done speaking, she breathed a little fast and coughed a short cough, I
momentarily forgot my own sorrows to yield to a vague concern for her.</p>

<p>Resting my head on Helen’s shoulder, I put my arms round her waist; she
drew me to her, and we reposed in silence. We had not sat long thus,
when another person came in. Some heavy clouds, swept from the sky by a
rising wind, had left the moon bare; and her light, streaming in
through a window near, shone full both on us and on the approaching
figure, which we at once recognised as Miss Temple.</p>

<p>“I came on purpose to find you, Jane Eyre,” said she; “I want you in my
room; and as Helen Burns is with you, she may come too.”</p>

<p>We went; following the superintendent’s guidance, we had to thread some
intricate passages, and mount a staircase before we reached her
apartment; it contained a good fire, and looked cheerful. Miss Temple
told Helen Burns to be seated in a low arm-chair on one side of the
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hearth, and herself taking another, she called me to her side.</p>

<p>“Is it all over?” she asked, looking down at my face. “Have you cried
your grief away?”</p>

<p>“I am afraid I never shall do that.”</p>

<p>“Why?”</p>

<p>“Because I have been wrongly accused; and you, ma’am, and everybody
else, will now think me wicked.”</p>

<p>“We shall think you what you prove yourself to be, my child. Continue
to act as a good girl, and you will satisfy me.”</p>

<p>“Shall I, Miss Temple?”</p>

<p>“You will,” said she, passing her arm round me. “And now tell me who is
the lady whom Mr. Brocklehurst called your benefactress?”</p>

<p>“Mrs. Reed, my uncle’s wife. My uncle is dead, and he left me to her
care.”</p>

<p>“Did she not, then, adopt you of her own accord?”</p>

<p>“No, ma’am; she was sorry to have to do it: but my uncle, as I have
often heard the servants say, got her to promise before he died that
she would always keep me.”</p>

<p>“Well now, Jane, you know, or at least I will tell you, that when a
criminal is accused, he is always allowed to speak in his own defence.
You have been charged with falsehood; defend 
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yourself to me as well as
you can. Say whatever your memory suggests is true; but add nothing and
exaggerate nothing.”</p>

<p>I resolved, in the depth of my heart, that I would be most
moderate—most correct; and, having reflected a few minutes in order to
arrange coherently what I had to say, I told her all the story of my
sad childhood. Exhausted by emotion, my language was more subdued than
it generally was when it developed that sad theme; and mindful of
Helen’s warnings against the indulgence of resentment, I infused into
the narrative far less of gall and wormwood than ordinary. Thus
restrained and simplified, it sounded more credible: I felt as I went
on that Miss Temple fully believed me.</p>

<p>In the course of the tale I had mentioned Mr. Lloyd as having come to
see me after the fit: for I never forgot the, to me, frightful episode
of the red-room: in detailing which, my excitement was sure, in some
degree, to break bounds; for nothing could soften in my recollection
the spasm of agony which clutched my heart when Mrs. Reed spurned my
wild supplication for pardon, and locked me a second time in the dark
and haunted chamber.</p>

<p>I had finished: Miss Temple regarded me a few minutes in silence; she
then said—</p>
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<p>“I know something of Mr. Lloyd; I shall write to him; if his reply
agrees with your statement, you shall be publicly cleared from every
imputation; to me, Jane, you are clear now.”</p>

<p>She kissed me, and still keeping me at her side (where I was well
contented to stand, for I derived a child’s pleasure from the
contemplation of her face, her dress, her one or two ornaments, her
white forehead, her clustered and shining curls, and beaming dark
eyes), she proceeded to address Helen Burns.</p>

<p>“How are you to-night, Helen? Have you coughed much to-day?”</p>

<p>“Not quite so much, I think, ma’am.”</p>

<p>“And the pain in your chest?”</p>

<p>“It is a little better.”</p>

<p>Miss Temple got up, took her hand and examined her pulse; then she
returned to her own seat: as she resumed it, I heard her sigh low. She
was pensive a few minutes, then rousing herself, she said cheerfully—</p>

<p>“But you two are my visitors to-night; I must treat you as such.” She
rang her bell.</p>

<p>“Barbara,” she said to the servant who answered it, “I have not yet had
tea; bring the tray and place cups for these two young ladies.”</p>

<p>And a tray was soon brought. How pretty, 
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to my eyes, did the china cups
and bright teapot look, placed on the little round table near the fire!
How fragrant was the steam of the beverage, and the scent of the toast!
of which, however, I, to my dismay (for I was beginning to be hungry)
discerned only a very small portion: Miss Temple discerned it too.</p>

<p>“Barbara,” said she, “can you not bring a little more bread and butter?
There is not enough for three.”</p>

<p>Barbara went out: she returned soon—</p>

<p>“Madam, Mrs. Harden says she has sent up the usual quantity.”</p>

<p>Mrs. Harden, be it observed, was the housekeeper: a woman after Mr.
Brocklehurst’s own heart, made up of equal parts of whalebone and iron.</p>

<p>“Oh, very well!” returned Miss Temple; “we must make it do, Barbara, I
suppose.” And as the girl withdrew she added, smiling, “Fortunately, I
have it in my power to supply deficiencies for this once.”</p>

<p>Having invited Helen and me to approach the table, and placed before
each of us a cup of tea with one delicious but thin morsel of toast,
she got up, unlocked a drawer, and taking from it a parcel wrapped in
paper, disclosed presently to our eyes a good-sized seed-cake.</p>

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<p>“I meant to give each of you some of this to take with you,” said she,
“but as there is so little toast, you must have it now,” and she
proceeded to cut slices with a generous hand.</p>

<p>We feasted that evening as on nectar and ambrosia; and not the least
delight of the entertainment was the smile of gratification with which
our hostess regarded us, as we satisfied our famished appetites on the
delicate fare she liberally supplied.</p>

<p>Tea over and the tray removed, she again summoned us to the fire; we
sat one on each side of her, and now a conversation followed between
her and Helen, which it was indeed a privilege to be admitted to hear.</p>

<p>Miss Temple had always something of serenity in her air, of state in
her mien, of refined propriety in her language, which precluded
deviation into the ardent, the excited, the eager: something which
chastened the pleasure of those who looked on her and listened to her,
by a controlling sense of awe; and such was my feeling now: but as to
Helen Burns, I was struck with wonder.</p>

<p>The refreshing meal, the brilliant fire, the presence and kindness of
her beloved instructress, or, perhaps, more than all these, something
in her own unique mind, had roused her powers within her. They woke,
they kindled: first, they 
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glowed in the bright tint of her cheek, which
till this hour I had never seen but pale and bloodless; then they shone
in the liquid lustre of her eyes, which had suddenly acquired a beauty
more singular than that of Miss Temple’s—a beauty neither of fine
colour nor long eyelash, nor pencilled brow, but of meaning, of
movement, of radiance. Then her soul sat on her lips, and language
flowed, from what source I cannot tell. Has a girl of fourteen a heart
large enough, vigorous enough, to hold the swelling spring of pure,
full, fervid eloquence? Such was the characteristic of Helen’s
discourse on that, to me, memorable evening; her spirit seemed
hastening to live within a very brief span as much as many live during
a protracted existence.</p>

<p>They conversed of things I had never heard of; of nations and times
past; of countries far away; of secrets of nature discovered or guessed
at: they spoke of books: how many they had read! What stores of
knowledge they possessed! Then they seemed so familiar with French
names and French authors: but my amazement reached its climax when Miss
Temple asked Helen if she sometimes snatched a moment to recall the
Latin her father had taught her, and taking a book from a shelf, bade
her read and construe a page of Virgil; and Helen obeyed, my organ of
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veneration expanding at every sounding line. She had scarcely finished
ere the bell announced bedtime! no delay could be admitted; Miss Temple
embraced us both, saying, as she drew us to her heart—</p>

<p>“God bless you, my children!”</p>

<p>Helen she held a little longer than me: she let her go more
reluctantly; it was Helen her eye followed to the door; it was for her
she a second time breathed a sad sigh; for her she wiped a tear from
her cheek.</p>

<p>On reaching the bedroom, we heard the voice of Miss Scatcherd: she was
examining drawers; she had just pulled out Helen Burns’s, and when we
entered Helen was greeted with a sharp reprimand, and told that
to-morrow she should have half-a-dozen of untidily folded articles
pinned to her shoulder.</p>

<p>“My things were indeed in shameful disorder,” murmured Helen to me, in
a low voice: “I intended to have arranged them, but I forgot.”</p>

<p>Next morning, Miss Scatcherd wrote in conspicuous characters on a piece
of pasteboard the word “Slattern,” and bound it like a phylactery round
Helen’s large, mild, intelligent, and benign-looking forehead. She wore
it till evening, patient, unresentful, regarding it as a deserved
punishment. The moment Miss Scatcherd withdrew 
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after afternoon school,
I ran to Helen, tore it off, and thrust it into the fire: the fury of
which she was incapable had been burning in my soul all day, and tears,
hot and large, had continually been scalding my cheek; for the
spectacle of her sad resignation gave me an intolerable pain at the
heart.</p>

<p>About a week subsequently to the incidents above narrated, Miss Temple,
who had written to Mr. Lloyd, received his answer: it appeared that
what he said went to corroborate my account. Miss Temple, having
assembled the whole school, announced that inquiry had been made into
the charges alleged against Jane Eyre, and that she was most happy to
be able to pronounce her completely cleared from every imputation. The
teachers then shook hands with me and kissed me, and a murmur of
pleasure ran through the ranks of my companions.</p>

<p>Thus relieved of a grievous load, I from that hour set to work afresh,
resolved to pioneer my way through every difficulty: I toiled hard, and
my success was proportionate to my efforts; my memory, not naturally
tenacious, improved with practice; exercise sharpened my wits; in a few
weeks I was promoted to a higher class; in less than two months I was
allowed to commence French and drawing. I learned the first 
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two tenses of the verb <hi rend="italic">Etre</hi>, and sketched my first cottage (whose walls,
by-the-bye, outrivalled in slope those of the leaning tower of Pisa),
on the same day. That night, on going to bed, I forgot to prepare in
imagination the Barmecide supper of hot roast potatoes, or white bread
and new milk, with which I was wont to amuse my inward cravings: I
feasted instead on the spectacle of ideal drawings, which I saw in the
dark; all the work of my own hands: freely pencilled houses and trees,
picturesque rocks and ruins, Cuyp-like groups of cattle, sweet
paintings of butterflies hovering over unblown roses, of birds picking
at ripe cherries, of wren’s nests enclosing pearl-like eggs, wreathed
about with young ivy sprays. I examined, too, in thought, the
possibility of my ever being able to translate currently a certain
little French story which Madame Pierrot had that day shown me; nor was
that problem solved to my satisfaction ere I fell sweetly asleep.</p>

<p>Well has Solomon said—“Better is a dinner of herbs where love is, than
a stalled ox and hatred therewith.”</p>

<p>I would not now have exchanged Lowood with all its privations for
Gateshead and its daily luxuries.</p>
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<p>But the privations, or rather the hardships, of Lowood lessened. Spring
drew on: she was indeed already come; the frosts of winter had ceased;
its snows were melted, its cutting winds ameliorated. My wretched feet,
flayed and swollen to lameness by the sharp air of January, began to
heal and subside under the gentler breathings of April; the nights and
mornings no longer by their Canadian temperature froze the very blood
in our veins; we could now endure the play-hour passed in the garden:
sometimes on a sunny day it began even to be pleasant and genial, and a
greenness grew over those brown beds, which, freshening daily,
suggested the thought that Hope traversed them at night, and left each
morning brighter traces of her steps. Flowers peeped out amongst the
leaves; snow-drops, crocuses, purple auriculas, and golden-eyed
pansies. On Thursday afternoons (half-holidays) 
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we now took walks, and 
found still sweeter flowers opening by the wayside, under the hedges.</p>

<p>I discovered, too, that a great pleasure, an enjoyment which the
horizon only bounded, lay all outside the high and spike-guarded walls
of our garden: this pleasure consisted in prospect of noble summits
girdling a great hill-hollow, rich in verdure and shadow; in a bright
beck, full of dark stones and sparkling eddies. How different had this
scene looked when I viewed it laid out beneath the iron sky of winter,
stiffened in frost, shrouded with snow!—when mists as chill as death
wandered to the impulse of east winds along those purple peaks, and
rolled down “ing” and holm till they blended with the frozen fog of the
beck! That beck itself was then a torrent, turbid and curbless: it tore
asunder the wood, and sent a raving sound through the air, often
thickened with wild rain or whirling sleet; and for the forest on its
banks, <hi rend="italic">that</hi> showed only ranks of skeletons.</p>

<p>April advanced to May: a bright serene May it was; days of blue sky,
placid sunshine, and soft western or southern gales filled up its
duration. And now vegetation matured with vigour; Lowood shook loose
its tresses; it became all green, all flowery; its great elm, ash, and
oak 
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skeletons were restored to majestic life; woodland plants sprang up
profusely in its recesses; unnumbered varieties of moss filled its
hollows, and it made a strange ground-sunshine out of the wealth of its
wild primrose plants: I have seen their pale gold gleam in overshadowed
spots like scatterings of the sweetest lustre. All this I enjoyed often
and fully, free, unwatched, and almost alone: for this unwonted liberty
and pleasure there was a cause, to which it now becomes my task to
advert.</p>

<p>Have I not described a pleasant site for a dwelling, when I speak of it
as bosomed in hill and wood, and rising from the verge of a stream?
Assuredly, pleasant enough: but whether healthy or not is another
question.</p>

<p>That forest-dell, where Lowood lay, was the cradle of fog and fog-bred
pestilence; which, quickening with the quickening spring, crept into
the Orphan Asylum, breathed typhus through its crowded schoolroom and
dormitory, and, ere May arrived, transformed the seminary into an
hospital.</p>

<p>Semi-starvation and neglected colds had predisposed most of the pupils
to receive infection: forty-five out of the eighty girls lay ill at one
time. Classes were broken up, rules relaxed. The few who continued well
were allowed almost 
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unlimited license; because the medical attendant
insisted on the necessity of frequent exercise to keep them in health:
and had it been otherwise, no one had leisure to watch or restrain
them. Miss Temple’s whole attention was absorbed by the patients: she
lived in the sick-room, never quitting it except to snatch a few hours’
rest at night. The teachers were fully occupied with packing up and
making other necessary preparations for the departure of those girls
who were fortunate enough to have friends and relations able and
willing to remove them from the seat of contagion. Many, already
smitten, went home only to die: some died at the school, and were
buried quietly and quickly, the nature of the malady forbidding delay.</p>

<p>While disease had thus become an inhabitant of Lowood, and death its
frequent visitor; while there was gloom and fear within its walls;
while its rooms and passages steamed with hospital smells, the drug and
the pastille striving vainly to overcome the effluvia of mortality,
that bright May shone unclouded over the bold hills and beautiful
woodland out of doors. Its garden, too, glowed with flowers: hollyhocks
had sprung up tall as trees, lilies had opened, tulips and roses were
in bloom; the borders of the little beds were gay with pink thrift and
crimson double daisies; the 
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sweetbriars gave out, morning and evening,
their scent of spice and apples; and these fragrant treasures were all
useless for most of the inmates of Lowood, except to furnish now and
then a handful of herbs and blossoms to put in a coffin.</p>

<p>But I, and the rest who continued well, enjoyed fully the beauties of
the scene and season; they let us ramble in the wood, like gipsies,
from morning till night; we did what we liked, went where we liked: we
lived better too. Mr. Brocklehurst and his family never came near
Lowood now: household matters were not scrutinised into; the cross
housekeeper was gone, driven away by the fear of infection; her
successor, who had been matron at the Lowton Dispensary, unused to the
ways of her new abode, provided with comparative liberality. Besides,
there were fewer to feed; the sick could eat little; our
breakfast-basins were better filled; when there was no time to prepare
a regular dinner, which often happened, she would give us a large piece
of cold pie, or a thick slice of bread and cheese, and this we carried
away with us to the wood, where we each chose the spot we liked best,
and dined sumptuously.</p>

<p>My favourite seat was a smooth and broad stone, rising white and dry
from the very middle of the beck, and only to be got at by wading
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through the water; a feat I accomplished barefoot. The stone was just
broad enough to accommodate, comfortably, another girl and me, at that
time my chosen comrade—one Mary Ann Wilson; a shrewd, observant
personage, whose society I took pleasure in, partly because she was
witty and original, and partly because she had a manner which set me at
my ease. Some years older than I, she knew more of the world, and could
tell me many things I liked to hear: with her my curiosity found
gratification: to my faults also she gave ample indulgence, never
imposing curb or rein on anything I said. She had a turn for narrative,
I for analysis; she liked to inform, I to question; so we got on
swimmingly together, deriving much entertainment, if not much
improvement, from our mutual intercourse.</p>

<p>And where, meantime, was Helen Burns? Why did I not spend these sweet
days of liberty with her? Had I forgotten her? or was I so worthless as
to have grown tired of her pure society? Surely the Mary Ann Wilson I
have mentioned was inferior to my first acquaintance: she could only
tell me amusing stories, and reciprocate any racy and pungent gossip I
chose to indulge in; while, if I have spoken truth of Helen, she was
qualified to give those who enjoyed 
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the privilege of her converse a taste of far higher things.</p>

<p>True, reader; and I knew and felt this: and though I am a defective
being, with many faults and few redeeming points, yet I never tired of
Helen Burns; nor ever ceased to cherish for her a sentiment of
attachment, as strong, tender, and respectful as any that ever animated
my heart. How could it be otherwise, when Helen, at all times and under
all circumstances, evinced for me a quiet and faithful friendship,
which ill-humour never soured, nor irritation never troubled? But Helen
was ill at present: for some weeks she had been removed from my sight
to I knew not what room upstairs. She was not, I was told, in the
hospital portion of the house with the fever patients; for her
complaint was consumption, not typhus: and by consumption I, in my
ignorance, understood something mild, which time and care would be sure
to alleviate.</p>

<p>I was confirmed in this idea by the fact of her once or twice coming
downstairs on very warm sunny afternoons, and being taken by Miss
Temple into the garden; but, on these occasions, I was not allowed to
go and speak to her; I only saw her from the schoolroom window, and
then not distinctly; for she was much wrapped up, and sat at a distance
under the verandah.</p>

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<p>One evening, in the beginning of June, I had stayed out very late with
Mary Ann in the wood; we had, as usual, separated ourselves from the
others, and had wandered far; so far that we lost our way, and had to
ask it at a lonely cottage, where a man and woman lived, who looked
after a herd of half-wild swine that fed on the mast in the wood. When
we got back, it was after moonrise: a pony, which we knew to be the
surgeon’s, was standing at the garden door. Mary Ann remarked that she
supposed some one must be very ill, as Mr. Bates had been sent for at
that time of the evening. She went into the house; I stayed behind a
few minutes to plant in my garden a handful of roots I had dug up in
the forest, and which I feared would wither if I left them till the
morning. This done, I lingered yet a little longer: the flowers smelt
so sweet as the dew fell; it was such a pleasant evening, so serene, so
warm; the still glowing west promised so fairly another fine day on the
morrow; the moon rose with such majesty in the grave east. I was noting
these things and enjoying them as a child might, when it entered my
mind as it had never done before:—</p>

<p>“How sad to be lying now on a sick bed, and to be in danger of dying!
This world is pleasant—it would be dreary to be called from it, and to
have to go who knows where?”</p>
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<p>And then my mind made its first earnest effort to comprehend what had
been infused into it concerning heaven and hell; and for the first time
it recoiled, baffled; and for the first time glancing behind, on each
side, and before it, it saw all round an unfathomed gulf: it felt the
one point where it stood—the present; all the rest was formless cloud
and vacant depth; and it shuddered at the thought of tottering, and
plunging amid that chaos. While pondering this new idea, I heard the
front door open; Mr. Bates came out, and with him was a nurse. After
she had seen him mount his horse and depart, she was about to close the
door, but I ran up to her.</p>

<p>“How is Helen Burns?”</p>

<p>“Very poorly,” was the answer.</p>

<p>“Is it her Mr. Bates has been to see?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“And what does he say about her?”</p>

<p>“He says she’ll not be here long.”</p>

<p>This phrase, uttered in my hearing yesterday, would have only conveyed
the notion that she was about to be removed to Northumberland, to her
own home. I should not have suspected that it meant she was dying; but
I knew instantly now! It opened clear on my comprehension that Helen
Burns was numbering her last days in this world, and that she was going
to be taken
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to the region of spirits, if such region there were. I
experienced a shock of horror, then a strong thrill of grief, then a
desire—a necessity to see her; and I asked in what room she lay.</p>

<p>“She is in Miss Temple’s room,” said the nurse.</p>

<p>“May I go up and speak to her?”</p>

<p>“Oh no, child! It is not likely; and now it is time for you to come in;
you’ll catch the fever if you stop out when the dew is falling.”</p>

<p>The nurse closed the front door; I went in by the side entrance which
led to the schoolroom: I was just in time; it was nine o’clock, and
Miss Miller was calling the pupils to go to bed.</p>

<p>It might be two hours later, probably near eleven, when I—not having
been able to fall asleep, and deeming, from the perfect silence of the
dormitory, that my companions were all wrapt in profound repose—rose
softly, put on my frock over my night-dress, and, without shoes, crept
from the apartment, and set off in quest of Miss Temple’s room. It was
quite at the other end of the house; but I knew my way; and the light
of the unclouded summer moon, entering here and there at passage
windows, enabled me to find it without difficulty. An odour of camphor
and burnt vinegar warned me when I came near the fever room: and I
passed its door quickly, fearful 
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lest the nurse who sat up all night 
should hear me. I dreaded being discovered and sent back; for I <hi rend="italic">must</hi>
see Helen,—I must embrace her before she died,—I must give her one last
kiss, exchange with her one last word.</p>

<p>Having descended a staircase, traversed a portion of the house below,
and succeeded in opening and shutting, without noise, two doors, I
reached another flight of steps; these I mounted, and then just
opposite to me was Miss Temple’s room. A light shone through the
keyhole and from under the door; a profound stillness pervaded the
vicinity. Coming near, I found the door slightly ajar; probably to
admit some fresh air into the close abode of sickness. Indisposed to
hesitate, and full of impatient impulses—soul and senses quivering with
keen throes—I put it back and looked in. My eye sought Helen, and
feared to find death.</p>

<p>Close by Miss Temple’s bed, and half covered with its white curtains,
there stood a little crib. I saw the outline of a form under the
clothes, but the face was hid by the hangings: the nurse I had spoken
to in the garden sat in an easy-chair asleep; an unsnuffed candle burnt
dimly on the table. Miss Temple was not to be seen: I knew afterwards
that she had been called to a delirious patient in the fever-room. I
advanced; 
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then paused by the crib side: my hand was on the curtain, but
I preferred speaking before I withdrew it. I still recoiled at the
dread of seeing a corpse.</p>

<p>“Helen!” I whispered softly, “are you awake?”</p>

<p>She stirred herself, put back the curtain, and I saw her face, pale,
wasted, but quite composed: she looked so little changed that my fear
was instantly dissipated.</p>

<p>“Can it be you, Jane?” she asked, in her own gentle voice.</p>

<p>“Oh!” I thought, “she is not going to die; they are mistaken: she could
not speak and look so calmly if she were.”</p>

<p>I got on to her crib and kissed her: her forehead was cold, and her
cheek both cold and thin, and so were her hand and wrist; but she
smiled as of old.</p>

<p>“Why are you come here, Jane? It is past eleven o’clock: I heard it
strike some minutes since.”</p>

<p>“I came to see you, Helen: I heard you were very ill, and I could not
sleep till I had spoken to you.”</p>

<p>“You came to bid me good-bye, then: you are just in time probably.”</p>

<p>“Are you going somewhere, Helen? Are you going home?”</p>

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<p>“Yes; to my long home—my last home.”</p>

<p>“No, no, Helen!” I stopped, distressed. While I tried to devour my
tears, a fit of coughing seized Helen; it did not, however, wake the
nurse; when it was over, she lay some minutes exhausted; then she
whispered—</p>

<p>“Jane, your little feet are bare; lie down and cover yourself with my
quilt.”</p>

<p>I did so: she put her arm over me, and I nestled close to her. After a
long silence, she resumed, still whispering—</p>

<p>“I am very happy, Jane; and when you hear that I am dead, you must be
sure and not grieve: there is nothing to grieve about. We all must die
one day, and the illness which is removing me is not painful; it is
gentle and gradual: my mind is at rest. I leave no one to regret me
much: I have only a father; and he is lately married, and will not miss
me. By dying young, I shall escape great sufferings. I had not
qualities or talents to make my way very well in the world: I should
have been continually at fault.”</p>

<p>“But where are you going to, Helen? Can you see? Do you know?”</p>

<p>“I believe; I have faith: I am going to God.”</p>

<p>“Where is God? What is God?”</p>

<p>“My Maker and yours, who will never destroy what He created. I rely
implicitly on His power, 
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and confide wholly in His goodness: I count
the hours till that eventful one arrives which shall restore me to Him,
reveal Him to me.”</p>

<p>“You are sure, then, Helen, that there is such a place as heaven, and
that our souls can get to it when we die?”</p>

<p>“I am sure there is a future state; I believe God is good; I can resign
my immortal part to Him without any misgiving. God is my father; God is
my friend: I love Him; I believe He loves me.”</p>

<p>“And shall I see you again, Helen, when I die?”</p>

<p>“You will come to the same region of happiness: be received by the same
mighty, universal Parent, no doubt, dear Jane.”</p>

<p>Again I questioned, but this time only in thought. “Where is that
region? Does it exist?” And I clasped my arms closer round Helen; she
seemed dearer to me than ever; I felt as if I could not let her go; I
lay with my face hidden on her neck. Presently she said, in the
sweetest tone—</p>

<p>“How comfortable I am! That last fit of coughing has tired me a little;
I feel as if I could sleep: but don’t leave me, Jane; I like to have
you near me.”</p>

<p>“I’ll stay with you, <hi rend="italic">dear</hi> Helen: no one shall take me away.”</p>
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<p>“Are you warm, darling?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Good-night, Jane.”</p>

<p>“Good-night, Helen.”</p>

<p>She kissed me, and I her, and we both soon slumbered.</p>

<p>When I awoke it was day: an unusual movement roused me; I looked up; I
was in somebody’s arms; the nurse held me; she was carrying me through
the passage back to the dormitory. I was not reprimanded for leaving my
bed; people had something else to think about; no explanation was
afforded then to my many questions; but a day or two afterwards I
learned that Miss Temple, on returning to her own room at dawn, had
found me laid in the little crib; my face against Helen Burns’s
shoulder, my arms round her neck. I was asleep, and Helen was—dead.</p>

<p>Her grave is in Brocklebridge churchyard: for fifteen years after her
death it was only covered by a grassy mound; but now a grey marble
tablet marks the spot, inscribed with her name, and the word
“Resurgam.”</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER X</head>
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<p>Hitherto I have recorded in detail the events of my insignificant
existence: to the first ten years of my life I have given almost as
many chapters. But this is not to be a regular autobiography: I am only
bound to invoke Memory where I know her responses will possess some
degree of interest; therefore I now pass a space of eight years almost
in silence: a few lines only are necessary to keep up the links of
connection.</p>

<p>When the typhus fever had fulfilled its mission of devastation at
Lowood, it gradually disappeared from thence; but not till its
virulence and the number of its victims had drawn public attention on
the school. Inquiry was made into the origin of the scourge, and by
degrees various facts came out which excited public indignation in a
high degree. The unhealthy nature of the site; the quantity and quality
of the children’s food; the brackish, fetid water used in its
preparation; 
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the pupils’ wretched clothing and accommodations—all these
things were discovered, and the discovery produced a result mortifying
to Mr. Brocklehurst, but beneficial to the institution.</p>

<p>Several wealthy and benevolent individuals in the county subscribed
largely for the erection of a more convenient building in a better
situation; new regulations were made; improvements in diet and clothing
introduced; the funds of the school were intrusted to the management of
a committee. Mr. Brocklehurst, who, from his wealth and family
connections, could not be overlooked, still retained the post of
treasurer; but he was aided in the discharge of his duties by gentlemen
of rather more enlarged and sympathising minds: his office of
inspector, too, was shared by those who knew how to combine reason with
strictness, comfort with economy, compassion with uprightness. The
school, thus improved, became in time a truly useful and noble
institution. I remained an inmate of its walls, after its regeneration,
for eight years: six as pupil, and two as teacher; and in both
capacities I bear my testimony to its value and importance.</p>

<p>During these eight years my life was uniform: but not unhappy, because
it was not inactive. I had the means of an excellent education placed
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within my reach; a fondness for some of my studies, and a desire to
excel in all, together with a great delight in pleasing my teachers,
especially such as I loved, urged me on: I availed myself fully of the
advantages offered me. In time I rose to be the first girl of the first
class; then I was invested with the office of teacher; which I
discharged with zeal for two years: but at the end of that time I
altered.</p>

<p>Miss Temple, through all changes, had thus far continued superintendent
of the seminary: to her instruction I owed the best part of my
acquirements; her friendship and society had been my continual solace;
she had stood me in the stead of mother, governess, and, latterly,
companion. At this period she married, removed with her husband (a
clergyman, an excellent man, almost worthy of such a wife) to a distant
county, and consequently was lost to me.</p>

<p>From the day she left I was no longer the same: with her was gone every
settled feeling, every association that had made Lowood in some degree
a home to me. I had imbibed from her something of her nature and much
of her habits: more harmonious thoughts: what seemed better regulated
feelings had become the inmates of my mind. I had given in allegiance
to duty and order; I was quiet; I believed I was content: to 
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the eyes of others, usually even to my own, I appeared a disciplined and subdued
character.</p>

<p>But destiny, in the shape of the Rev. Mr. Nasmyth, came between me and
Miss Temple: I saw her in her travelling dress step into a post-chaise,
shortly after the marriage ceremony; I watched the chaise mount the
hill and disappear beyond its brow; and then retired to my own room,
and there spent in solitude the greatest part of the half-holiday
granted in honour of the occasion.</p>

<p>I walked about the chamber most of the time. I imagined myself only to
be regretting my loss, and thinking how to repair it; but when my
reflections were concluded, and I looked up and found that the
afternoon was gone, and evening far advanced, another discovery dawned
on me, namely, that in the interval I had undergone a transforming
process; that my mind had put off all it had borrowed of Miss Temple—or
rather that she had taken with her the serene atmosphere I had been
breathing in her vicinity—and that now I was left in my natural
element, and beginning to feel the stirring of old emotions. It did not
seem as if a prop were withdrawn, but rather as if a motive were gone:
it was not the power to be tranquil which had failed me, but the reason
for tranquillity was no more. My 
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world had for some years been in
Lowood: my experience had been of its rules and systems; now I
remembered that the real world was wide, and that a varied field of
hopes and fears, of sensations and excitements, awaited those who had
courage to go forth into its expanse, to seek real knowledge of life
amidst its perils.</p>

<p>I went to my window, opened it, and looked out. There were the two
wings of the building; there was the garden; there were the skirts of
Lowood; there was the hilly horizon. My eye passed all other objects to
rest on those most remote, the blue peaks; it was those I longed to
surmount; all within their boundary of rock and heath seemed
prison-ground, exile limits. I traced the white road winding round the
base of one mountain, and vanishing in a gorge between two; how I
longed to follow it farther! I recalled the time when I had travelled
that very road in a coach; I remembered descending that hill at
twilight; an age seemed to have elapsed since the day which brought me
first to Lowood, and I had never quitted it since. My vacations had all
been spent at school: Mrs. Reed had never sent for me to Gateshead;
neither she nor any of her family had ever been to visit me. I had had
no communication by letter or message with the outer world:
school-rules, school-duties, 
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school-habits and notions, and voices, and
faces, and phrases, and costumes, and preferences, and antipathies—such
was what I knew of existence. And now I felt that it was not enough; I
tired of the routine of eight years in one afternoon. I desired
liberty; for liberty I gasped; for liberty I uttered a prayer; it
seemed scattered on the wind then faintly blowing. I abandoned it and
framed a humbler supplication; for change, stimulus: that petition,
too, seemed swept off into vague space: “Then,” I cried, half
desperate, “grant me at least a new servitude!”</p>

<p>Here a bell, ringing the hour of supper, called me downstairs.</p>

<p>I was not free to resume the interrupted chain of my reflections till
bedtime: even then a teacher who occupied the same room with me kept me
from the subject to which I longed to recur, by a prolonged effusion of
small talk. How I wished sleep would silence her. It seemed as if,
could I but go back to the idea which had last entered my mind as I
stood at the window, some inventive suggestion would rise for my
relief.</p>

<p>Miss Gryce snored at last; she was a heavy Welshwoman, and till now her
habitual nasal strains had never been regarded by me in any other light
than as a nuisance; to-night I hailed 
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the first deep notes with
satisfaction; I was debarrassed of interruption; my half-effaced
thought instantly revived.</p>

<p>“A new servitude! There is something in that,” I soliloquised
(mentally, be it understood; I did not talk aloud). “I know there is,
because it does not sound too sweet; it is not like such words as
Liberty, Excitement, Enjoyment: delightful sounds truly; but no more
than sounds for me; and so hollow and fleeting that it is mere waste of
time to listen to them. But Servitude! That must be matter of fact. Any
one may serve: I have served here eight years; now all I want is to
serve elsewhere. Can I not get so much of my own will? Is not the thing
feasible? Yes—yes—the end is not so difficult; if I had only a brain
active enough to ferret out the means of attaining it.”</p>

<p>I sat up in bed by way of arousing this said brain: it was a chilly
night; I covered my shoulders with a shawl, and then I proceeded <hi rend="italic">to think</hi>
 again with all my might.</p>

<p>“What do I want? A new place, in a new house, amongst new faces, under
new circumstances: I want this because it is of no use wanting anything
better. How do people do to get a new place? They apply to friends, I
suppose: I have no friends. There are many others who 
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have no friends,
who must look about for themselves and be their own helpers; and what
is their resource?”</p>

<p>I could not tell: nothing answered me; I then ordered my brain to find
a response, and quickly. It worked and worked faster: I felt the pulses
throb in my head and temples; but for nearly an hour it worked in
chaos; and no result came of its efforts. Feverish with vain labour, I
got up and took a turn in the room; undrew the curtain, noted a star or
two, shivered with cold, and again crept to bed.</p>

<p>A kind fairy, in my absence, had surely dropped the required suggestion
on my pillow; for as I lay down, it came quietly and naturally to my
mind:—“Those who want situations advertise; you must advertise in the
——shire Herald.”</p>

<p>“How? I know nothing about advertising.”</p>

<p>Replies rose smooth and prompt now:—</p>

<p>“You must enclose the advertisement and the money to pay for it under a
cover directed to the Editor of the Herald; you must put it, the
first opportunity you have, into the post at Lowton; answers must be
addressed to J.E., at the post-office there; you can go and inquire in
about a week after you send your letter, if any are come, and act
accordingly.”</p>
  
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<p>This scheme I went over twice, thrice; it was then digested in my mind;
I had it in a clear practical form: I felt satisfied, and fell asleep.</p>

<p>With earliest day, I was up: I had my advertisement written, enclosed,
and directed before the bell rang to rouse the school; it ran thus:—</p>

<p>“A young lady accustomed to tuition (had I not been a teacher two
years?) is desirous of meeting with a situation in a private family
where the children are under fourteen” (I thought that as I was barely
eighteen, it would not do to undertake the guidance of pupils nearer my
own age). She is qualified to teach the usual branches of a good
English education, together with French, Drawing, and Music (in those
days, reader, this now narrow catalogue of accomplishments, would have
been held tolerably comprehensive). Address J.E. Post-office,
Lowton, ——shire.”</p>

<p>This document remained locked in my drawer all day: after tea, I asked
leave of the new superintendent to go to Lowton, in order to perform
some small commissions for myself and one or two of my fellow-teachers;
permission was readily granted; I went. It was a walk of two miles, and
the evening was wet, but the days were still long; I visited a shop or
two, slipped the letter into the post-office, and came back 
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through heavy rain, with streaming garments, but with a relieved heart.</p>

<p>The succeeding week seemed long: it came to an end at last, however,
like all sublunary things, and once more, towards the close of a
pleasant autumn day, I found myself afoot on the road to Lowton. A
picturesque track it was, by the way; lying along the side of the beck
and through the sweetest curves of the dale: but that day I thought
more of the letters, that might or might not be awaiting me at the
little burgh whither I was bound, than of the charms of lea and water.</p>

<p>My ostensible errand on this occasion was to get measured for a pair of
shoes; so I discharged that business first, and when it was done, I
stepped across the clean and quiet little street from the shoemaker’s
to the post-office: it was kept by an old dame, who wore horn
spectacles on her nose, and black mittens on her hands.</p>

<p>“Are there any letters for J.E.?” I asked.</p>

<p>She peered at me over her spectacles, and then she opened a drawer and
fumbled among its contents for a long time, so long that my hopes began
to falter. At last, having held a document before her glasses for
nearly five minutes, she presented it across the counter, accompanying
the act by another inquisitive and mistrustful glance—it was for J.E.</p>
  
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<p>“Is there only one?” I demanded.</p>

<p>“There are no more,” said she; and I put it in my pocket and turned my
face homeward: I could not open it then; rules obliged me to be back by
eight, and it was already half-past seven.</p>

<p>Various duties awaited me on my arrival: I had to sit with the girls
during their hour of study; then it was my turn to read prayers; to see
them to bed: afterwards I supped with the other teachers. Even when we
finally retired for the night, the inevitable Miss Gryce was still my
companion: we had only a short end of candle in our candlestick, and I
dreaded lest she should talk till it was all burnt out; fortunately,
however, the heavy supper she had eaten produced a soporific effect:
she was already snoring before I had finished undressing. There still
remained an inch of candle: I now took out my letter; the seal was an
initial F.; I broke it; the contents were brief.</p>

<p>“If J.E., who advertised in the ——shire Herald of last Thursday,
possesses the acquirements mentioned, and if she is in a position to
give satisfactory references as to character and competency, a
situation can be offered her where there is but one pupil, a little
girl, under ten years of age; and where the salary is thirty pounds per
annum. J.E. is requested to send 
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references, name, address, and all particulars to the direction:—</p>

<p>“Mrs. Fairfax, Thornfield, near Millcote, ——shire.”</p>

<p>I examined the document long: the writing was old-fashioned and rather
uncertain, like that of an elderly lady. This circumstance was
satisfactory: a private fear had haunted me, that in thus acting for
myself, and by my own guidance, I ran the risk of getting into some
scrape; and, above all things, I wished the result of my endeavours to
be respectable, proper, <hi rend="italic">en règle</hi>. I now felt that an elderly lady was
no bad ingredient in the business I had on hand. Mrs. Fairfax! I saw
her in a black gown and widow’s cap; frigid, perhaps, but not uncivil:
a model of elderly English respectability. Thornfield! that, doubtless,
was the name of her house: a neat orderly spot, I was sure; though I
failed in my efforts to conceive a correct plan of the premises.
Millcote, ——shire; I brushed up my recollections of the map of England;
yes, I saw it; both the shire and the town. ——shire was seventy miles
nearer London than the remote county where I now resided: that was a
recommendation to me. I longed to go where there was life and movement:
Millcote was a large manufacturing town on the banks of the A——: a busy
place 
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enough, doubtless: so much the better; it would be a complete
change at least. Not that my fancy was much captivated by the idea of
long chimneys and clouds of smoke—“but,” I argued, “Thornfield will,
probably, be a good way from the town.”</p>

<p>Here the socket of the candle dropped, and the wick went out.</p>

<p>Next day new steps were to be taken; my plans could no longer be
confined to my own breast; I must impart them in order to achieve their
success. Having sought and obtained an audience of the superintendent
during the noontide recreation, I told her I had a prospect of getting
a new situation where the salary would be double what I now received
(for at Lowood I only got £15 per annum); and requested she would break
the matter for me to Mr. Brocklehurst, or some of the committee, and
ascertain whether they would permit me to mention them as references.
She obligingly consented to act as mediatrix in the matter. The next
day she laid the affair before Mr. Brocklehurst, who said that Mrs.
Reed must be written to, as she was my natural guardian. A note was
accordingly addressed to that lady, who returned for answer, that “I
might do as I pleased: she had long relinquished all interference in my
affairs.” This 
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note went the round of the committee, and at last, after
what appeared to me most tedious delay, formal leave was given me to
better my condition if I could; and an assurance added, that as I had
always conducted myself well, both as teacher and pupil, at Lowood, a
testimonial of character and capacity, signed by the inspectors of that
institution, should forthwith be furnished me.</p>

<p>This testimonial I accordingly received in about a month, forwarded a
copy of it to Mrs. Fairfax, and got that lady’s reply, stating that she
was satisfied, and fixing that day fortnight as the period for my
assuming the post of governess in her house.</p>

<p>I now busied myself in preparations: the fortnight passed rapidly. I
had not a very large wardrobe, though it was adequate to my wants; and
the last day sufficed to pack my trunk,—the same I had brought with me
eight years ago from Gateshead.</p>

<p>The box was corded, the card nailed on. In half-an-hour the carrier was
to call for it to take it to Lowton, whither I myself was to repair at
an early hour the next morning to meet the coach. I had brushed my
black stuff travelling-dress, prepared my bonnet, gloves, and muff;
sought in all my drawers to see that no article was left behind; and
now having nothing more to do, I sat down and tried to rest. I could
not; 
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though I had been on foot all day, I could not now repose an
instant; I was too much excited. A phase of my life was closing
to-night, a new one opening to-morrow: impossible to slumber in the
interval; I must watch feverishly while the change was being
accomplished.</p>

<p>“Miss,” said a servant who met me in the lobby, where I was wandering
like a troubled spirit, “a person below wishes to see you.”</p>

<p>“The carrier, no doubt,” I thought, and ran downstairs without inquiry.
I was passing the back-parlour or teachers’ sitting-room, the door of
which was half open, to go to the kitchen, when some one ran out—</p>

<p>“It’s her, I am sure!—I could have told her anywhere!” cried the
individual who stopped my progress and took my hand.</p>

<p>I looked: I saw a woman attired like a well-dressed servant, matronly,
yet still young; very good-looking, with black hair and eyes, and
lively complexion.</p>

<p>“Well, who is it?” she asked, in a voice and with a smile I half
recognised; “you’ve not quite forgotten me, I think, Miss Jane?”</p>

<p>In another second I was embracing and kissing her rapturously: “Bessie!
Bessie! Bessie!” that was all I said; whereat she half laughed, half
cried, and we both went into the parlour. By 
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the fire stood a little 
fellow of three years old, in plaid frock and trousers.</p>

<p>“That is my little boy,” said Bessie directly.</p>

<p>“Then you are married, Bessie?”</p>

<p>“Yes; nearly five years since to Robert Leaven, the coachman; and I’ve
a little girl besides Bobby there, that I’ve christened Jane.”</p>

<p>“And you don’t live at Gateshead?”</p>

<p>“I live at the lodge: the old porter has left.”</p>

<p>“Well, and how do they all get on? Tell me everything about them,
Bessie: but sit down first; and, Bobby, come and sit on my knee, will
you?” but Bobby preferred sidling over to his mother.</p>

<p>“You’re not grown so very tall, Miss Jane, nor so very stout,”
continued Mrs. Leaven. “I dare say they’ve not kept you too well at
school: Miss Reed is the head and shoulders taller than you are; and
Miss Georgiana would make two of you in breadth.”</p>

<p>“Georgiana is handsome, I suppose, Bessie?”</p>

<p>“Very. She went up to London last winter with her mama, and there
everybody admired her, and a young lord fell in love with her: but his
relations were against the match; and—what do you think?—he and Miss
Georgiana made it up to run away; but they were found out and stopped.
It was Miss Reed that found them out: 
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I believe she was envious; and
now she and her sister lead a cat and dog life together; they are
always quarrelling—”</p>

<p>“Well, and what of John Reed?”</p>

<p>“Oh, he is not doing so well as his mama could wish. He went to
college, and he got—plucked, I think they call it: and then his uncles
wanted him to be a barrister, and study the law: but he is such a
dissipated young man, they will never make much of him, I think.”</p>

<p>“What does he look like?”</p>

<p>“He is very tall: some people call him a fine-looking young man; but he
has such thick lips.”</p>

<p>“And Mrs. Reed?”</p>

<p>“Missis looks stout and well enough in the face, but I think she’s not
quite easy in her mind: Mr. John’s conduct does not please her—he
spends a deal of money.”</p>

<p>“Did she send you here, Bessie?”</p>

<p>“No, indeed: but I have long wanted to see you, and when I heard that
there had been a letter from you, and that you were going to another
part of the country, I thought I’d just set off, and get a look at you
before you were quite out of my reach.”</p>

<p>“I am afraid you are disappointed in me, Bessie.” I said this laughing:
I perceived that 
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Bessie’s glance, though it expressed regard, 
did in no shape denote admiration.</p>

<p>“No, Miss Jane, not exactly: you are genteel enough; you look like a
lady, and it is as much as ever I expected of you: you were no beauty
as a child.”</p>

<p>I smiled at Bessie’s frank answer: I felt that it was correct, but I
confess I was not quite indifferent to its import: at eighteen most
people wish to please, and the conviction that they have not an
exterior likely to second that desire brings anything but
gratification.</p>

<p>“I dare say you are clever, though,” continued Bessie, by way of
solace. “What can you do? Can you play on the piano?”</p>

<p>“A little.”</p>

<p>There was one in the room; Bessie went and opened it, and then asked me
to sit down and give her a tune: I played a waltz or two, and she was
charmed.</p>

<p>“The Miss Reeds could not play as well!” said she exultingly. “I always
said you would surpass them in learning: and can you draw?”</p>

<p>“That is one of my paintings over the chimney-piece.” It was a
landscape in water colours, of which I had made a present to the
superintendent, in acknowledgment of her obliging mediation with the
committee on my behalf, and which she had framed and glazed.</p>
  
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<p>“Well, that is beautiful, Miss Jane! It is as fine a picture as any
Miss Reed’s drawing-master could paint, let alone the young ladies
themselves, who could not come near it: and have you learnt French?”</p>

<p>“Yes, Bessie, I can both read it and speak it.”</p>

<p>“And you can work on muslin and canvas?”</p>

<p>“I can.”</p>

<p>“Oh, you are quite a lady, Miss Jane! I knew you would be: you will get
on whether your relations notice you or not. There was something I
wanted to ask you. Have you ever heard anything from your father’s
kinsfolk, the Eyres?”</p>

<p>“Never in my life.”</p>

<p>“Well, you know Missis always said they were poor and quite despicable:
and they may be poor; but I believe they are as much gentry as the
Reeds are; for one day, nearly seven years ago, a Mr. Eyre came to
Gateshead and wanted to see you; Missis said you were at school fifty
miles off; he seemed so much disappointed, for he could not stay: he
was going on a voyage to a foreign country, and the ship was to sail
from London in a day or two. He looked quite a gentleman, and I believe
he was your father’s brother.”</p>

<p>“What foreign country was he going to, Bessie?”</p>

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<p>“An island thousands of miles off, where they make wine—the butler did
tell me—”</p>

<p>“Madeira?” I suggested.</p>

<p>“Yes, that is it—that is the very word.”</p>

<p>“So he went?”</p>

<p>“Yes; he did not stay many minutes in the house: Missis was very high
with him; she called him afterwards a ‘sneaking tradesman.’ My Robert
believes he was a wine-merchant.”</p>

<p>“Very likely,” I returned; “or perhaps clerk or agent to a
wine-merchant.”</p>

<p>Bessie and I conversed about old times an hour longer, and then she was
obliged to leave me: I saw her again for a few minutes the next morning
at Lowton, while I was waiting for the coach. We parted finally at the
door of the Brocklehurst Arms there: each went her separate way; she
set off for the brow of Lowood Fell to meet the conveyance which was to
take her back to Gateshead, I mounted the vehicle which was to bear me
to new duties and a new life in the unknown environs of Millcote.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XI</head>
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<p>A new chapter in a novel is something like a new scene in a play; and
when I draw up the curtain this time, reader, you must fancy you see a
room in the George Inn at Millcote, with such large figured papering on
the walls as inn rooms have; such a carpet, such furniture, such
ornaments on the mantelpiece, such prints, including a portrait of
George the Third, and another of the Prince of Wales, and a
representation of the death of Wolfe. All this is visible to you by the
light of an oil lamp hanging from the ceiling, and by that of an
excellent fire, near which I sit in my cloak and bonnet; my muff and
umbrella lie on the table, and I am warming away the numbness and chill
contracted by sixteen hours’ exposure to the rawness of an October day:
I left Lowton at four o’clock A.M., and the Millcote town clock is now
just striking eight.</p>

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<p>Reader, though I look comfortably accommodated, I am not very tranquil
in my mind. I thought when the coach stopped here there would be some
one to meet me; I looked anxiously round as I descended the wooden
steps the “boots” placed for my convenience, expecting to hear my name
pronounced, and to see some description of carriage waiting to convey
me to Thornfield. Nothing of the sort was visible; and when I asked a
waiter if any one had been to inquire after a Miss Eyre, I was answered
in the negative: so I had no resource but to request to be shown into a
private room: and here I am waiting, while all sorts of doubts and
fears are troubling my thoughts.</p>

<p>It is a very strange sensation to inexperienced youth to feel itself
quite alone in the world, cut adrift from every connection, uncertain
whether the port to which it is bound can be reached, and prevented by
many impediments from returning to that it has quitted. The charm of
adventure sweetens that sensation, the glow of pride warms it; but then
the throb of fear disturbs it; and fear with me became predominant when
half-an-hour elapsed and still I was alone. I bethought myself to ring
the bell.</p>
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<p>“Is there a place in this neighbourhood called Thornfield?” I asked of
the waiter who answered the summons.</p>

<p>“Thornfield? I don’t know, ma’am; I’ll inquire at the bar.” He
vanished, but reappeared instantly—</p>

<p>“Is your name Eyre, Miss?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Person here waiting for you.”</p>

<p>I jumped up, took my muff and umbrella, and hastened into the
inn-passage: a man was standing by the open door, and in the lamp-lit
street I dimly saw a one-horse conveyance.</p>

<p>“This will be your luggage, I suppose?” said the man rather abruptly
when he saw me, pointing to my trunk in the passage.</p>

<p>“Yes.” He hoisted it on to the vehicle, which was a sort of car, and
then I got in; before he shut me up, I asked him how far it was to
Thornfield.</p>

<p>“A matter of six miles.”</p>

<p>“How long shall we be before we get there?”</p>

<p>“Happen an hour and a half.”</p>

<p>He fastened the car door, climbed to his own seat outside, and we set
off. Our progress was leisurely, and gave me ample time to reflect; I
was content to be at length so 
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near the end of my journey; and as I
leaned back in the comfortable though not elegant conveyance, I
meditated much at my ease.</p>

<p>“I suppose,” thought I, “judging from the plainness of the servant and
carriage, Mrs. Fairfax is not a very dashing person: so much the
better; I never lived amongst fine people but once, and I was very
miserable with them. I wonder if she lives alone except this little
girl; if so, and if she is in any degree amiable, I shall surely be
able to get on with her; I will do my best; it is a pity that doing
one’s best does not always answer. At Lowood, indeed, I took that
resolution, kept it, and succeeded in pleasing; but with Mrs. Reed, I
remember my best was always spurned with scorn. I pray God Mrs. Fairfax
may not turn out a second Mrs. Reed; but if she does, I am not bound to
stay with her! let the worst come to the worst, I can advertise again.
How far are we on our road now, I wonder?”</p>

<p>I let down the window and looked out; Millcote was behind us; judging
by the number of its lights, it seemed a place of considerable
magnitude, much larger than Lowton. We were now, as far as I could see,
on a sort of common; but there were houses scattered 
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all over the district; I felt we were in a different region to Lowood, more
populous, less picturesque; more stirring, less romantic.</p>

<p>The roads were heavy, the night misty; my conductor let his horse walk
all the way, and the hour and a half extended, I verily believe, to two
hours; at last he turned in his seat and said—</p>

<p>“You’re noan so far fro’ Thornfield now.”</p>

<p>Again I looked out: we were passing a church; I saw its low broad tower
against the sky, and its bell was tolling a quarter; I saw a narrow
galaxy of lights too, on a hillside, marking a village or hamlet. About
ten minutes after, the driver got down and opened a pair of gates: we
passed through, and they clashed to behind us. We now slowly ascended a
drive, and came upon the long front of a house: candlelight gleamed
from one curtained bow-window; all the rest were dark. The car stopped
at the front door; it was opened by a maid-servant; I alighted and went
in.</p>

<p>“Will you walk this way, ma’am?” said the girl; and I followed her
across a square hall with high doors all round: she ushered me into a
room whose double illumination of fire and candle at first dazzled me,
contrasting as 
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it did with the darkness to which my eyes had been for
two hours inured; when I could see, however, a cosy and agreeable
picture presented itself to my view.</p>

<p>A snug small room; a round table by a cheerful fire; an arm-chair
high-backed and old-fashioned, wherein sat the neatest imaginable
little elderly lady, in widow’s cap, black silk gown, and snowy muslin
apron; exactly like what I had fancied Mrs. Fairfax, only less stately
and milder looking. She was occupied in knitting; a large cat sat
demurely at her feet; nothing in short was wanting to complete the
beau-ideal of domestic comfort. A more reassuring introduction for a
new governess could scarcely be conceived; there was no grandeur to
overwhelm, no stateliness to embarrass; and then, as I entered, the old
lady got up and promptly and kindly came forward to meet me.</p>

<p>“How do you do, my dear? I am afraid you have had a tedious ride; John
drives so slowly; you must be cold, come to the fire.”</p>

<p>“Mrs. Fairfax, I suppose?” said I.</p>

<p>“Yes, you are right: do sit down.”</p>

<p>She conducted me to her own chair, and then began to remove my shawl
and untie my 
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bonnet-strings; I begged she would not give herself so
much trouble.</p>

<p>“Oh, it is no trouble; I dare say your own hands are almost numbed with
cold. Leah, make a little hot negus and cut a sandwich or two: here are
the keys of the storeroom.”</p>

<p>And she produced from her pocket a most housewifely bunch of keys, and
delivered them to the servant.</p>

<p>“Now, then, draw nearer to the fire,” she continued. “You’ve brought
your luggage with you, haven’t you, my dear?”</p>

<p>“Yes, ma’am.”</p>

<p>“I’ll see it carried into your room,” she said, and bustled out.</p>

<p>“She treats me like a visitor,” thought I. “I little expected such a
reception; I anticipated only coldness and stiffness: this is not like
what I have heard of the treatment of governesses; but I must not exult
too soon.”</p>

<p>She returned; with her own hands cleared her knitting apparatus and a
book or two from the table, to make room for the tray which Leah now
brought, and then herself handed me the refreshments. I felt rather
confused at being the object of more attention than I had ever before
received, and, that too, shown by my employer and superior; but as 
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she did not herself seem to consider she was doing anything out of her
place, I thought it better to take her civilities quietly.</p>

<p>“Shall I have the pleasure of seeing Miss Fairfax to-night?” I asked,
when I had partaken of what she offered me.</p>

<p>“What did you say, my dear? I am a little deaf,” returned the good
lady, approaching her ear to my mouth.</p>

<p>I repeated the question more distinctly.</p>

<p>“Miss Fairfax? Oh, you mean Miss Varens! Varens is the name of your
future pupil.”</p>

<p>“Indeed! Then she is not your daughter?”</p>

<p>“No,—I have no family.”</p>

<p>I should have followed up my first inquiry, by asking in what way Miss
Varens was connected with her; but I recollected it was not polite to
ask too many questions: besides, I was sure to hear in time.</p>

<p>“I am so glad,” she continued, as she sat down opposite to me, and took
the cat on her knee; “I am so glad you are come; it will be quite
pleasant living here now with a companion. To be sure it is pleasant at
any time; for Thornfield is a fine old hall, rather neglected of late
years perhaps, but still it is a respectable place; yet you know in
winter-time 
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one feels dreary quite alone in the best quarters. I say
alone—Leah is a nice girl to be sure, and John and his wife are very
decent people; but then you see they are only servants, and one can’t
converse with them on terms of equality: one must keep them at due
distance, for fear of losing one’s authority. I’m sure last winter (it
was a very severe one, if you recollect, and when it did not snow, it
rained and blew), not a creature but the butcher and postman came to
the house, from November till February; and I really got quite
melancholy with sitting night after night alone; I had Leah in to read
to me sometimes; but I don’t think the poor girl liked the task much:
she felt it confining. In spring and summer one got on better: sunshine
and long days make such a difference; and then, just at the
commencement of this autumn, little Adela Varens came and her nurse: a
child makes a house alive all at once; and now you are here I shall be
quite gay.”</p>

<p>My heart really warmed to the worthy lady as I heard her talk; and I
drew my chair a little nearer to her, and expressed my sincere wish
that she might find my company as agreeable as she anticipated.</p>

<p>“But I’ll not keep you sitting up late to-night,”
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said she; “it is on
the stroke of twelve now, and you have been travelling all day: you
must feel tired. If you have got your feet well warmed, I’ll show you
your bedroom. I’ve had the room next to mine prepared for you; it is
only a small apartment, but I thought you would like it better than one
of the large front chambers: to be sure they have finer furniture, but
they are so dreary and solitary, I never sleep in them myself.”</p>

<p>I thanked her for her considerate choice, and as I really felt fatigued
with my long journey, expressed my readiness to retire. She took her
candle, and I followed her from the room. First she went to see if the
hall-door was fastened; having taken the key from the lock, she led the
way upstairs. The steps and banisters were of oak; the staircase window
was high and latticed; both it and the long gallery into which the
bedroom doors opened looked as if they belonged to a church rather than
a house. A very chill and vault-like air pervaded the stairs and
gallery, suggesting cheerless ideas of space and solitude; and I was
glad, when finally ushered into my chamber, to find it of small
dimensions, and furnished in ordinary, modern style.</p>

<p>When Mrs. Fairfax had bidden me a kind 
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good-night, and I had fastened
my door, gazed leisurely round, and in some measure effaced the eerie
impression made by that wide hall, that dark and spacious staircase,
and that long, cold gallery, by the livelier aspect of my little room,
I remembered that, after a day of bodily fatigue and mental anxiety, I
was now at last in safe haven. The impulse of gratitude swelled my
heart, and I knelt down at the bedside, and offered up thanks where
thanks were due; not forgetting, ere I rose, to implore aid on my
further path, and the power of meriting the kindness which seemed so
frankly offered me before it was earned. My couch had no thorns in it
that night; my solitary room no fears. At once weary and content, I
slept soon and soundly: when I awoke it was broad day.</p>

<p>The chamber looked such a bright little place to me as the sun shone in
between the gay blue chintz window curtains, showing papered walls and
a carpeted floor, so unlike the bare planks and stained plaster of
Lowood, that my spirits rose at the view. Externals have a great effect
on the young: I thought that a fairer era of life was beginning for me,
one that was to have its flowers and pleasures, as well as its thorns
and toils. My faculties, 
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roused by the change of scene, the new field
offered to hope, seemed all astir. I cannot precisely define what they
expected, but it was something pleasant: not perhaps that day or that
month, but at an indefinite future period.</p>

<p>I rose; I dressed myself with care: obliged to be plain—for I had no
article of attire that was not made with extreme simplicity—I was still
by nature solicitous to be neat. It was not my habit to be disregardful
of appearance or careless of the impression I made: on the contrary, I
ever wished to look as well as I could, and to please as much as my
want of beauty would permit. I sometimes regretted that I was not
handsomer; I sometimes wished to have rosy cheeks, a straight nose, and
small cherry mouth; I desired to be tall, stately, and finely developed
in figure; I felt it a misfortune that I was so little, so pale, and
had features so irregular and so marked. And why had I these
aspirations and these regrets? It would be difficult to say: I could
not then distinctly say it to myself; yet I had a reason, and a
logical, natural reason too. However, when I had brushed my hair very
smooth, and put on my black frock—which, Quakerlike as it was, at least
had the merit of fitting to a 
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nicety—and adjusted my clean white
tucker, I thought I should do respectably enough to appear before Mrs.
Fairfax, and that my new pupil would not at least recoil from me with
antipathy. Having opened my chamber window, and seen that I left all
things straight and neat on the toilet table, I ventured forth.</p>

<p>Traversing the long and matted gallery, I descended the slippery steps
of oak; then I gained the hall: I halted there a minute; I looked at
some pictures on the walls (one, I remember, represented a grim man in
a cuirass, and one a lady with powdered hair and a pearl necklace), at
a bronze lamp pendent from the ceiling, at a great clock whose case was
of oak curiously carved, and ebon black with time and rubbing.
Everything appeared very stately and imposing to me; but then I was so
little accustomed to grandeur. The hall-door, which was half of glass,
stood open; I stepped over the threshold. It was a fine autumn morning;
the early sun shone serenely on embrowned groves and still green
fields; advancing on to the lawn, I looked up and surveyed the front of
the mansion. It was three storeys high, of proportions not vast, though
considerable: a gentleman’s manor-house, not a nobleman’s seat:
battlements 
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round the top gave it a picturesque look. Its grey front
stood out well from the background of a rookery, whose cawing tenants
were now on the wing: they flew over the lawn and grounds to alight in
a great meadow, from which these were separated by a sunk fence, and
where an array of mighty old thorn trees, strong, knotty, and broad as
oaks, at once explained the etymology of the mansion’s designation.
Farther off were hills: not so lofty as those round Lowood, nor so
craggy, nor so like barriers of separation from the living world; but
yet quiet and lonely hills enough, and seeming to embrace Thornfield
with a seclusion I had not expected to find existent so near the
stirring locality of Millcote. A little hamlet, whose roofs were blent
with trees, straggled up the side of one of these hills; the church of
the district stood nearer Thornfield: its old tower-top looked over a
knoll between the house and gates.</p>

<p>I was yet enjoying the calm prospect and pleasant fresh air, yet
listening with delight to the cawing of the rooks, yet surveying the
wide, hoary front of the hall, and thinking what a great place it was
for one lonely little dame like Mrs. Fairfax to inhabit, when that lady
appeared at the door.</p>

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<p>“What! out already?” said she. “I see you are an early riser.” I went
up to her, and was received with an affable kiss and shake of the hand.</p>

<p>“How do you like Thornfield?” she asked. I told her I liked it very
much.</p>

<p>“Yes,” she said, “it is a pretty place; but I fear it will be getting
out of order, unless Mr. Rochester should take it into his head to come
and reside here permanently; or, at least, visit it rather oftener:
great houses and fine grounds require the presence of the proprietor.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester!” I exclaimed. “Who is he?”</p>

<p>“The owner of Thornfield,” she responded quietly. “Did you not know he
was called Rochester?”</p>

<p>Of course I did not—I had never heard of him before; but the old lady
seemed to regard his existence as a universally understood fact, with
which everybody must be acquainted by instinct.</p>

<p>“I thought,” I continued, “Thornfield belonged to you.”</p>

<p>“To me? Bless you, child; what an idea! To me! I am only the
housekeeper—the manager. To be sure I am distantly related to 
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the Rochesters by the mother’s side, or at least my husband was; he was a
clergyman, incumbent of Hay—that little village yonder on the hill—and
that church near the gates was his. The present Mr. Rochester’s mother
was a Fairfax, and second cousin to my husband: but I never presume on
the connection—in fact, it is nothing to me; I consider myself quite in
the light of an ordinary housekeeper: my employer is always civil, and
I expect nothing more.”</p>

<p>“And the little girl—my pupil!”</p>

<p>“She is Mr. Rochester’s ward; he commissioned me to find a governess
for her. He intended to have her brought up in ——shire, I believe. Here
she comes, with her ‘bonne,’ as she calls her nurse.” The enigma then
was explained: this affable and kind little widow was no great dame;
but a dependent like myself. I did not like her the worse for that; on
the contrary, I felt better pleased than ever. The equality between her
and me was real; not the mere result of condescension on her part: so
much the better—my position was all the freer.</p>

<p>As I was meditating on this discovery, a little girl, followed by her
attendant, came running up the lawn. I looked at my pupil, 
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who did not at first appear to notice me: she was quite a child, perhaps seven or
eight years old, slightly built, with a pale, small-featured face, and
a redundancy of hair falling in curls to her waist.</p>

<p>“Good morning, Miss Adela,” said Mrs. Fairfax. “Come and speak to the
lady who is to teach you, and to make you a clever woman some day.” She
approached.</p>

<p>“C’est là ma gouvernante!” said she, pointing to me, and addressing her
nurse; who answered—</p>

<p>“Mais oui, certainement.”</p>

<p>“Are they foreigners?” I inquired, amazed at hearing the French
language.</p>

<p>“The nurse is a foreigner, and Adela was born on the Continent; and, I
believe, never left it till within six months ago. When she first came
here she could speak no English; now she can make shift to talk it a
little: I don’t understand her, she mixes it so with French; but you
will make out her meaning very well, I daresay.”</p>

<p>Fortunately I had had the advantage of being taught French by a French
lady; and as I had always made a point of conversing with Madame
Pierrot as often as I could, and had besides, during the last seven
years, learnt 
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a portion of French by heart daily—applying myself to
take pains with my accent, and imitating as closely as possible the
pronunciation of my teacher, I had acquired a certain degree of
readiness and correctness in the language, and was not likely to be
much at a loss with Mademoiselle Adela. She came and shook hands with
me when she heard that I was her governess; and as I led her in to
breakfast, I addressed some phrases to her in her own tongue: she
replied briefly at first, but after we were seated at the table, and
she had examined me some ten minutes with her large hazel eyes, she
suddenly commenced chattering fluently.</p>

<p>“Ah!” cried she, in French, “you speak my language as well as Mr.
Rochester does: I can talk to you as I can to him, and so can Sophie.
She will be glad: nobody here understands her: Madame Fairfax is all
English. Sophie is my nurse; she came with me over the sea in a great
ship with a chimney that smoked—how it did smoke!—and I was sick, and
so was Sophie, and so was Mr. Rochester. Mr. Rochester lay down on a
sofa in a pretty room called the salon, and Sophie and I had little
beds in another place. I nearly fell out 
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of mine; it was like a shelf. And Mademoiselle—what is your name?”</p>

<p>“Eyre—Jane Eyre.”</p>

<p>“Aire? Bah! I cannot say it. Well, our ship stopped in the morning,
before it was quite daylight, at a great city—a huge city, with very
dark houses and all smoky; not at all like the pretty clean town I came
from; and Mr. Rochester carried me in his arms over a plank to the
land, and Sophie came after, and we all got into a coach, which took us
to a beautiful large house, larger than this and finer, called an
hotel. We stayed there nearly a week: I and Sophie used to walk every
day in a great green place full of trees, called the Park; and there
were many children there besides me, and a pond with beautiful birds in
it, that I fed with crumbs.”</p>

<p>“Can you understand her when she runs on so fast?” asked Mrs. Fairfax.</p>

<p>I understood her very well, for I had been accustomed to the fluent
tongue of Madame Pierrot.</p>

<p>“I wish,” continued the good lady, “you would ask her a question or two
about her parents: I wonder if she remembers them?”</p>

<p>“Adèle,” I inquired, “with whom did you 
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live when you were in that pretty clean town you spoke of?”</p>

<p>“I lived long ago with mama; but she is gone to the Holy Virgin. Mama
used to teach me to dance and sing, and to say verses. A great many
gentlemen and ladies came to see mama, and I used to dance before them,
or to sit on their knees and sing to them: I liked it. Shall I let you
hear me sing now?”</p>

<p>She had finished her breakfast, so I permitted her to give a specimen
of her accomplishments. Descending from her chair, she came and placed
herself on my knee; then, folding her little hands demurely before her,
shaking back her curls and lifting her eyes to the ceiling, she
commenced singing a song from some opera. It was the strain of a
forsaken lady, who, after bewailing the perfidy of her lover, calls
pride to her aid; desires her attendant to deck her in her brightest
jewels and richest robes, and resolves to meet the false one that night
at a ball, and prove to him, by the gaiety of her demeanour, how little
his desertion has affected her.</p>

<p>The subject seemed strangely chosen for an infant singer; but I suppose
the point of the exhibition lay in hearing the notes of love and
jealousy warbled with the lisp of childhood;
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and in very bad taste that point was: at least I thought so.</p>

<p>Adèle sang the canzonette tunefully enough, and with the naïveté of
her age. This achieved, she jumped from my knee and said, “Now,
Mademoiselle, I will repeat you some poetry.”</p>

<p>Assuming an attitude, she began, “La Ligue des Rats: fable de La
Fontaine.” She then declaimed the little piece with an attention to
punctuation and emphasis, a flexibility of voice and an appropriateness
of gesture, very unusual indeed at her age, and which proved she had
been carefully trained.</p>

<p>“Was it your mama who taught you that piece?” I asked.</p>

<p>“Yes, and she just used to say it in this way: ‘Qu’avez vous donc? lui
dit un de ces rats; parlez!’ She made me lift my hand—so—to remind me
to raise my voice at the question. Now shall I dance for you?”</p>

<p>“No, that will do: but after your mama went to the Holy Virgin, as you
say, with whom did you live then?”</p>

<p>“With Madame Frédéric and her husband: she took care of me, but she is
nothing related to me. I think she is poor, for she had not so fine a
house as mama. I was not long 
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there. Mr. Rochester asked me if I would
like to go and live with him in England, and I said yes; for I knew Mr.
Rochester before I knew Madame Frédéric, and he was always kind to me
and gave me pretty dresses and toys: but you see he has not kept his
word, for he has brought me to England, and now he is gone back again
himself, and I never see him.”</p>

<p>After breakfast, Adèle and I withdrew to the library, which room, it
appears, Mr. Rochester had directed should be used as the schoolroom.
Most of the books were locked up behind glass doors; but there was one
bookcase left open containing everything that could be needed in the
way of elementary works, and several volumes of light literature,
poetry, biography, travels, a few romances, &amp;c. I suppose he had
considered that these were all the governess would require for her
private perusal; and, indeed, they contented me amply for the present;
compared with the scanty pickings I had now and then been able to glean
at Lowood, they seemed to offer an abundant harvest of entertainment
and information. In this room, too, there was a cabinet piano, quite
new and of superior tone; also an easel for painting and a pair of
globes.</p>
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<p>I found my pupil sufficiently docile, though disinclined to apply: she
had not been used to regular occupation of any kind. I felt it would be
injudicious to confine her too much at first; so, when I had talked to
her a great deal, and got her to learn a little, and when the morning
had advanced to noon, I allowed her to return to her nurse. I then
proposed to occupy myself till dinner-time in drawing some little
sketches for her use.</p>

<p>As I was going upstairs to fetch my portfolio and pencils, Mrs. Fairfax
called to me: “Your morning school-hours are over now, I suppose,” said
she. She was in a room the folding-doors of which stood open: I went in
when she addressed me. It was a large, stately apartment, with purple
chairs and curtains, a Turkey carpet, walnut-panelled walls, one vast
window rich in stained glass, and a lofty ceiling, nobly moulded. Mrs.
Fairfax was dusting some vases of fine purple spar, which stood on a
side-board.</p>

<p>“What a beautiful room!” I exclaimed, as I looked round; for I had
never before seen any half so imposing.</p>

<p>“Yes; this is the dining-room. I have just opened the window, to let in
a little air and sunshine; for everything gets so damp in 
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apartments that are seldom inhabited; the drawing-room yonder feels like a vault.”</p>

<p>She pointed to a wide arch corresponding to the window, and hung like
it with a Tyrian-dyed curtain, now looped up. Mounting to it by two
broad steps, and looking through, I thought I caught a glimpse of a
fairy place, so bright to my novice-eyes appeared the view beyond. Yet
it was merely a very pretty drawing-room, and within it a boudoir, both
spread with white carpets, on which seemed laid brilliant garlands of
flowers; both ceiled with snowy mouldings of white grapes and
vine-leaves, beneath which glowed in rich contrast crimson couches and
ottomans; while the ornaments on the pale Parian mantelpiece were of
sparkling Bohemian glass, ruby red; and between the windows large
mirrors repeated the general blending of snow and fire.</p>

<p>“In what order you keep these rooms, Mrs. Fairfax!” said I. “No dust,
no canvas coverings: except that the air feels chilly, one would think
they were inhabited daily.”</p>

<p>“Why, Miss Eyre, though Mr. Rochester’s visits here are rare, they are
always sudden and unexpected; and as I observed that it put him out to
find everything swathed up, and to have a bustle of arrangement on his
arrival,
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I thought it best to keep the rooms in readiness.”</p>

<p>“Is Mr. Rochester an exacting, fastidious sort of man?”</p>

<p>“Not particularly so; but he has a gentleman’s tastes and habits, and
he expects to have things managed in conformity to them.”</p>

<p>“Do you like him? Is he generally liked?”</p>

<p>“Oh, yes; the family have always been respected here. Almost all the
land in this neighbourhood, as far as you can see, has belonged to the
Rochesters time out of mind.”</p>

<p>“Well, but, leaving his land out of the question, do you like him? Is
he liked for himself?”</p>

<p>“<hi rend="italic">I</hi> have no cause to do otherwise than like him; and I believe he is
considered a just and liberal landlord by his tenants: but he has never
lived much amongst them.”</p>

<p>“But has he no peculiarities? What, in short, is his character?”</p>

<p>“Oh! his character is unimpeachable, I suppose. He is rather peculiar,
perhaps: he has travelled a great deal, and seen a great deal of the
world, I should think. I dare say he is clever, but I never had much
conversation with him.”</p>

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<p>“In what way is he peculiar?”</p>

<p>“I don’t know—it is not easy to describe—nothing striking, but you feel
it when he speaks to you; you cannot be always sure whether he is in
jest or earnest, whether he is pleased or the contrary; you don’t
thoroughly understand him, in short—at least, I don’t: but it is of no
consequence, he is a very good master.”</p>

<p>This was all the account I got from Mrs. Fairfax of her employer and
mine. There are people who seem to have no notion of sketching a
character, or observing and describing salient points, either in
persons or things: the good lady evidently belonged to this class; my
queries puzzled, but did not draw her out. Mr. Rochester was Mr.
Rochester in her eyes; a gentleman, a landed proprietor—nothing more:
she inquired and searched no further, and evidently wondered at my wish
to gain a more definite notion of his identity.</p>

<p>When we left the dining-room, she proposed to show me over the rest of
the house; and I followed her upstairs and downstairs, admiring as I
went; for all was well arranged and handsome. The large front chambers
I thought especially grand: and some of the 
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third-storey rooms, though
dark and low, were interesting from their air of antiquity. The
furniture once appropriated to the lower apartments had from time to
time been removed here, as fashions changed: and the imperfect light
entering by their narrow casement showed bedsteads of a hundred years
old; chests in oak or walnut, looking, with their strange carvings of
palm branches and cherubs’ heads, like types of the Hebrew ark; rows of
venerable chairs, high-backed and narrow; stools still more antiquated,
on whose cushioned tops were yet apparent traces of half-effaced
embroideries, wrought by fingers that for two generations had been
coffin-dust. All these relics gave to the third storey of Thornfield
Hall the aspect of a home of the past: a shrine of memory. I liked the
hush, the gloom, the quaintness of these retreats in the day; but I by
no means coveted a night’s repose on one of those wide and heavy beds:
shut in, some of them, with doors of oak; shaded, others, with wrought
old English hangings crusted with thick work, portraying effigies of
strange flowers, and stranger birds, and strangest human beings,—all
which would have looked strange, indeed, by the pallid gleam of
moonlight.</p>
  
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<p>“Do the servants sleep in these rooms?” I asked.</p>

<p>“No; they occupy a range of smaller apartments to the back; no one ever
sleeps here: one would almost say that, if there were a ghost at
Thornfield Hall, this would be its haunt.”</p>

<p>“So I think: you have no ghost, then?”</p>

<p>“None that I ever heard of,” returned Mrs. Fairfax, smiling.</p>

<p>“Nor any traditions of one? no legends or ghost stories?”</p>

<p>“I believe not. And yet it is said the Rochesters have been rather a
violent than a quiet race in their time: perhaps, though, that is the
reason they rest tranquilly in their graves now.”</p>

<p>“Yes—‘after life’s fitful fever they sleep well,’” I muttered. “Where
are you going now, Mrs. Fairfax?” for she was moving away.</p>

<p>“On to the leads; will you come and see the view from thence?” I
followed still, up a very narrow staircase to the attics, and thence by
a ladder and through a trap-door to the roof of the hall. I was now on
a level with the crow colony, and could see into their nests. Leaning
over the battlements and looking far 
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down, I surveyed the grounds laid
out like a map: the bright and velvet lawn closely girdling the grey
base of the mansion; the field, wide as a park, dotted with its ancient
timber; the wood, dun and sere, divided by a path visibly overgrown,
greener with moss than the trees were with foliage; the church at the
gates, the road, the tranquil hills, all reposing in the autumn day’s
sun; the horizon bounded by a propitious sky, azure, marbled with
pearly white. No feature in the scene was extraordinary, but all was
pleasing. When I turned from it and repassed the trap-door, I could
scarcely see my way down the ladder; the attic seemed black as a vault
compared with that arch of blue air to which I had been looking up, and
to that sunlit scene of grove, pasture, and green hill, of which the
hall was the centre, and over which I had been gazing with delight.</p>

<p>Mrs. Fairfax stayed behind a moment to fasten the trap-door; I, by dint
of groping, found the outlet from the attic, and proceeded to descend
the narrow garret staircase. I lingered in the long passage to which
this led, separating the front and back rooms of the third storey:
narrow, low, and dim, with only one little window at the far end, and
looking, with its two rows of small black doors all
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shut, like a corridor in some Bluebeard’s castle.</p>

<p>While I paced softly on, the last sound I expected to hear in so still
a region, a laugh, struck my ear. It was a curious laugh; distinct,
formal, mirthless. I stopped: the sound ceased, only for an instant; it
began again, louder: for at first, though distinct, it was very low. It
passed off in a clamorous peal that seemed to wake an echo in every
lonely chamber; though it originated but in one, and I could have
pointed out the door whence the accents issued.</p>

<p>“Mrs. Fairfax!” I called out: for I now heard her descending the great
stairs. “Did you hear that loud laugh? Who is it?”</p>

<p>“Some of the servants, very likely,” she answered: “perhaps Grace
Poole.”</p>

<p>“Did you hear it?” I again inquired.</p>

<p>“Yes, plainly: I often hear her: she sews in one of these rooms.
Sometimes Leah is with her; they are frequently noisy together.”</p>

<p>The laugh was repeated in its low, syllabic tone, and terminated in an
odd murmur.</p>

<p>“Grace!” exclaimed Mrs. Fairfax.</p>

<p>I really did not expect any Grace to answer; for the laugh was as
tragic, as preternatural a 
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laugh as any I ever heard; and, but that it
was high noon, and that no circumstance of ghostliness accompanied the
curious cachinnation; but that neither scene nor season favoured fear,
I should have been superstitiously afraid. However, the event showed me
I was a fool for entertaining a sense even of surprise.</p>

<p>The door nearest me opened, and a servant came out,—a woman of between
thirty and forty; a set, square-made figure, red-haired, and with a
hard, plain face: any apparition less romantic or less ghostly could
scarcely be conceived.</p>

<p>“Too much noise, Grace,” said Mrs. Fairfax. “Remember directions!”
Grace curtseyed silently and went in.</p>

<p>“She is a person we have to sew and assist Leah in her housemaid’s
work,” continued the widow; “not altogether unobjectionable in some
points, but she does well enough. By-the-bye, how have you got on with
your new pupil this morning?”</p>

<p>The conversation, thus turned on Adèle, continued till we reached the
light and cheerful region below. Adèle came running to meet us in the
hall, exclaiming—</p>
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<p>“Mesdames, vous êtes servies!” adding, “J’ai bien faim, moi!”</p>

<p>We found dinner ready, and waiting for us in Mrs. Fairfax’s room.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XII</head>
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<p>The promise of a smooth career, which my first calm introduction to
Thornfield Hall seemed to pledge, was not belied on a longer
acquaintance with the place and its inmates. Mrs. Fairfax turned out to
be what she appeared, a placid-tempered, kind-natured woman, of
competent education and average intelligence. My pupil was a lively
child, who had been spoilt and indulged, and therefore was sometimes
wayward; but as she was committed entirely to my care, and no
injudicious interference from any quarter ever thwarted my plans for
her improvement, she soon forgot her little freaks, and became obedient
and teachable. She had no great talents, no marked traits of character,
no peculiar development 
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of feeling or taste which raised her one inch
above the ordinary level of childhood; but neither had she any
deficiency or vice which sunk her below it. She made reasonable
progress, entertained for me a vivacious, though perhaps not very
profound, affection; and by her simplicity, gay prattle, and efforts to
please, inspired me, in return, with a degree of attachment sufficient
to make us both content in each other’s society.</p>

<p>This, <hi rend="italic">par parenthèse</hi>, will be thought cool language by persons who
entertain solemn doctrines about the angelic nature of children, and
the duty of those charged with their education to conceive for them an
idolatrous devotion: but I am not writing to flatter parental egotism,
to echo cant, or prop up humbug; I am merely telling the truth. I felt
a conscientious solicitude for Adèle’s welfare and progress, and a
quiet liking for her little self: just as I cherished towards Mrs.
Fairfax a thankfulness for her kindness, and a pleasure in her society
proportionate to the tranquil regard she had for me, and the moderation
of her mind and character.</p>

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<p>Anybody may blame me who likes, when I add further, that, now and then,
when I took a walk by myself in the grounds; when I went down to the
gates and looked through them along the road; or when, while Adèle
played with her nurse, and Mrs. Fairfax made jellies in the storeroom,
I climbed the three staircases, raised the trap-door of the attic, and
having reached the leads, looked out afar over sequestered field and
hill, and along dim sky-line—that then I longed for a power of vision
which might overpass that limit; which might reach the busy world,
towns, regions full of life I had heard of but never seen—that then I
desired more of practical experience than I possessed; more of
intercourse with my kind, of acquaintance with variety of character,
than was here within my reach. I valued what was good in Mrs. Fairfax,
and what was good in Adèle; but I believed in the existence of other
and more vivid kinds of goodness, and what I believed in I wished to
behold.</p>

<p>Who blames me? Many, no doubt; and I shall be called discontented. I
could not help it: the restlessness was in my nature; it agitated 
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me to pain sometimes. Then my sole relief was to walk along the corridor of
the third storey, backwards and forwards, safe in the silence and
solitude of the spot, and allow my mind’s eye to dwell on whatever
bright visions rose before it—and, certainly, they were many and
glowing; to let my heart be heaved by the exultant movement, which,
while it swelled it in trouble, expanded it with life; and, best of
all, to open my inward ear to a tale that was never ended—a tale my
imagination created, and narrated continuously; quickened with all of
incident, life, fire, feeling, that I desired and had not in my actual
existence.</p>

<p>It is in vain to say human beings ought to be satisfied with
tranquillity: they must have action; and they will make it if they
cannot find it. Millions are condemned to a stiller doom than mine, and
millions are in silent revolt against their lot. Nobody knows how many
rebellions besides political rebellions ferment in the masses of life
which people earth. Women are supposed to be very calm generally: but
women feel just as men feel; they need exercise for their faculties,
and a 
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field for their efforts, as much as their brothers do; they
suffer from too rigid a restraint, too absolute a stagnation, precisely
as men would suffer; and it is narrow-minded in their more privileged
fellow-creatures to say that they ought to confine themselves to making
puddings and knitting stockings, to playing on the piano and
embroidering bags. It is thoughtless to condemn them, or laugh at them,
if they seek to do more or learn more than custom has pronounced
necessary for their sex.</p>

<p>When thus alone, I not unfrequently heard Grace Poole’s laugh: the same
peal, the same low, slow ha! ha! which, when first heard, had thrilled
me: I heard, too, her eccentric murmurs; stranger than her laugh. There
were days when she was quite silent; but there were others when I could
not account for the sounds she made. Sometimes I saw her: she would
come out of her room with a basin, or a plate, or a tray in her hand,
go down to the kitchen and shortly return, generally (oh, romantic
reader, forgive me for telling the plain truth!) bearing a pot of
porter. Her 
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appearance always acted as a damper to the curiosity raised
by her oral oddities: hard-featured and staid, she had no point to
which interest could attach. I made some attempts to draw her into
conversation, but she seemed a person of few words: a monosyllabic
reply usually cut short every effort of that sort.</p>

<p>The other members of the household, viz. John and his wife, Leah the
housemaid, and Sophie the French nurse, were decent people; but in no
respect remarkable; with Sophie I used to talk French, and sometimes I
asked her questions about her native country; but she was not of a
descriptive or narrative turn, and generally gave such vapid and
confused answers as were calculated rather to check than encourage
inquiry.</p>

<p>October, November, December passed away. One afternoon in January, Mrs.
Fairfax had begged a holiday for Adèle, because she had a cold; and, as
Adèle seconded the request with an ardour that reminded me how precious
occasional holidays had been to me in my own childhood, I accorded it,
deeming that I did well in showing pliability on the point. 
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It was a fine, calm day, though very cold; I was tired of sitting still in the
library through a whole long morning: Mrs. Fairfax had just written a
letter which was waiting to be posted, so I put on my bonnet and cloak
and volunteered to carry it to Hay; the distance, two miles, would be a
pleasant winter afternoon walk. Having seen Adèle comfortably seated in
her little chair by Mrs. Fairfax’s parlour fireside, and given her her
best wax doll (which I usually kept enveloped in silver paper in a
drawer) to play with, and a story-book for change of amusement; and
having replied to her “Revenez bientôt, ma bonne amie, ma chère Mdlle.
Jeannette,” with a kiss, I set out.</p>

<p>The ground was hard, the air was still, my road was lonely; I walked
fast till I got warm, and then I walked slowly to enjoy and analyse the
species of pleasure brooding for me in the hour and situation. It was
three o’clock; the church bell tolled as I passed under the belfry: the
charm of the hour lay in its approaching dimness, in the low-gliding
and pale-beaming sun. I was a mile from 
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Thornfield, in a lane noted for
wild roses in summer, for nuts and blackberries in autumn, and even now
possessing a few coral treasures in hips and haws, but whose best
winter delight lay in its utter solitude and leafless repose. If a
breath of air stirred, it made no sound here; for there was not a
holly, not an evergreen to rustle, and the stripped hawthorn and hazel
bushes were as still as the white, worn stones which causewayed the
middle of the path. Far and wide, on each side, there were only fields,
where no cattle now browsed; and the little brown birds, which stirred
occasionally in the hedge, looked like single russet leaves that had
forgotten to drop.</p>

<p>This lane inclined up-hill all the way to Hay; having reached the
middle, I sat down on a stile which led thence into a field. Gathering
my mantle about me, and sheltering my hands in my muff, I did not feel
the cold, though it froze keenly; as was attested by a sheet of ice
covering the causeway, where a little brooklet, now congealed, had
overflowed after a rapid thaw some days since. From my seat I could
look down on Thornfield: the 
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grey and battlemented hall was the
principal object in the vale below me; its woods and dark rookery rose
against the west. I lingered till the sun went down amongst the trees,
and sank crimson and clear behind them. I then turned eastward.</p>

<p>On the hill-top above me sat the rising moon; pale yet as a cloud, but
brightening momentarily, she looked over Hay, which, half lost in
trees, sent up a blue smoke from its few chimneys: it was yet a mile
distant, but in the absolute hush I could hear plainly its thin murmurs
of life. My ear, too, felt the flow of currents; in what dales and
depths I could not tell: but there were many hills beyond Hay, and
doubtless many becks threading their passes. That evening calm betrayed
alike the tinkle of the nearest streams, the sough of the most remote.</p>

<p>A rude noise broke on these fine ripplings and whisperings, at once so
far away and so clear: a positive tramp, tramp, a metallic clatter,
which effaced the soft wave-wanderings; as, in a picture, the solid
mass of a crag, or the rough boles of a great oak, drawn in 
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dark and strong on the foreground, efface the aërial distance of azure hill,
sunny horizon, and blended clouds where tint melts into tint.</p>

<p>The din was on the causeway: a horse was coming; the windings of the
lane yet hid it, but it approached. I was just leaving the stile; yet,
as the path was narrow, I sat still to let it go by. In those days I
was young, and all sorts of fancies bright and dark tenanted my mind:
the memories of nursery stories were there amongst other rubbish; and
when they recurred, maturing youth added to them a vigour and vividness
beyond what childhood could give. As this horse approached, and as I
watched for it to appear through the dusk, I remembered certain of
Bessie’s tales, wherein figured a North-of-England spirit called a
“Gytrash,” which, in the form of horse, mule, or large dog, haunted
solitary ways, and sometimes came upon belated travellers, as this
horse was now coming upon me.</p>

<p>It was very near, but not yet in sight; when, in addition to the tramp,
tramp, I heard a rush under the hedge, and close down by the hazel
stems glided a great dog, whose black and 
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white colour made him a
distinct object against the trees. It was exactly one form of Bessie’s
Gytrash—a lion-like creature with long hair and a huge head: it passed
me, however, quietly enough; not staying to look up, with strange
pretercanine eyes, in my face, as I half expected it would. The horse
followed,—a tall steed, and on its back a rider. The man, the human
being, broke the spell at once. Nothing ever rode the Gytrash: it was
always alone; and goblins, to my notions, though they might tenant the
dumb carcasses of beasts, could scarce covet shelter in the commonplace
human form. No Gytrash was this,—only a traveller taking the short cut
to Millcote. He passed, and I went on; a few steps, and I turned: a
sliding sound and an exclamation of “What the deuce is to do now?” and
a clattering tumble, arrested my attention. Man and horse were down;
they had slipped on the sheet of ice which glazed the causeway. The dog
came bounding back, and seeing his master in a predicament, and hearing
the horse groan, barked till the evening hills echoed the sound, which
was 
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deep in proportion to his magnitude. He snuffed round the prostrate
group, and then he ran up to me; it was all he could do,—there was no
other help at hand to summon. I obeyed him, and walked down to the
traveller, by this time struggling himself free of his steed. His
efforts were so vigorous, I thought he could not be much hurt; but I
asked him the question—</p>

<p>“Are you injured, sir?”</p>

<p>I think he was swearing, but am not certain; however, he was
pronouncing some formula which prevented him from replying to me
directly.</p>

<p>“Can I do anything?” I asked again.</p>

<p>“You must just stand on one side,” he answered as he rose, first to his
knees, and then to his feet. I did; whereupon began a heaving,
stamping, clattering process, accompanied by a barking and baying which
removed me effectually some yards’ distance; but I would not be driven
quite away till I saw the event. This was finally fortunate; the horse
was re-established, and the dog was silenced with a “Down, Pilot!” The
traveller now, 
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stooping, felt his foot and leg, as if trying whether
they were sound; apparently something ailed them, for he halted to the
stile whence I had just risen, and sat down.</p>

<p>I was in the mood for being useful, or at least officious, I think, for
I now drew near him again.</p>

<p>“If you are hurt, and want help, sir, I can fetch some one either from
Thornfield Hall or from Hay.”</p>

<p>“Thank you: I shall do: I have no broken bones,—only a sprain;” and
again he stood up and tried his foot, but the result extorted an
involuntary “Ugh!”</p>

<p>Something of daylight still lingered, and the moon was waxing bright: I
could see him plainly. His figure was enveloped in a riding cloak, fur
collared and steel clasped; its details were not apparent, but I traced
the general points of middle height and considerable breadth of chest.
He had a dark face, with stern features and a heavy brow; his eyes and
gathered eyebrows looked ireful and thwarted just now; he was past
youth, but had not reached middle-age; perhaps he 
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might be thirty-five.
I felt no fear of him, and but little shyness. Had he been a handsome,
heroic-looking young gentleman, I should not have dared to stand thus
questioning him against his will, and offering my services unasked. I
had hardly ever seen a handsome youth; never in my life spoken to one.
I had a theoretical reverence and homage for beauty, elegance,
gallantry, fascination; but had I met those qualities incarnate in
masculine shape, I should have known instinctively that they neither
had nor could have sympathy with anything in me, and should have
shunned them as one would fire, lightning, or anything else that is
bright but antipathetic.</p>

<p>If even this stranger had smiled and been good-humoured to me when I
addressed him; if he had put off my offer of assistance gaily and with
thanks, I should have gone on my way and not felt any vocation to renew
inquiries: but the frown, the roughness of the traveller, set me at my
ease: I retained my station when he waved to me to go, and announced—</p>

<p>“I cannot think of leaving you, sir, at so 
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late an hour, in this 
solitary lane, till I see you are fit to mount your horse.”</p>

<p>He looked at me when I said this; he had hardly turned his eyes in my
direction before.</p>

<p>“I should think you ought to be at home yourself,” said he, “if you
have a home in this neighbourhood: where do you come from?”</p>

<p>“From just below; and I am not at all afraid of being out late when it
is moonlight: I will run over to Hay for you with pleasure, if you wish
it: indeed, I am going there to post a letter.”</p>

<p>“You live just below—do you mean at that house with the battlements?”
pointing to Thornfield Hall, on which the moon cast a hoary gleam,
bringing it out distinct and pale from the woods that, by contrast with
the western sky, now seemed one mass of shadow.</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Whose house is it?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester’s.”</p>

<p>“Do you know Mr. Rochester?”</p>

<p>“No, I have never seen him.”</p>

<p>“He is not resident, then?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

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<p>“Can you tell me where he is?”</p>

<p>“I cannot.”</p>

<p>“You are not a servant at the hall, of course. You are—” He stopped,
ran his eye over my dress, which, as usual, was quite simple: a black
merino cloak, a black beaver bonnet; neither of them half fine enough
for a lady’s-maid. He seemed puzzled to decide what I was; I helped
him.</p>

<p>“I am the governess.”</p>

<p>“Ah, the governess!” he repeated; “deuce take me, if I had not
forgotten! The governess!” and again my raiment underwent scrutiny. In
two minutes he rose from the stile: his face expressed pain when he
tried to move.</p>

<p>“I cannot commission you to fetch help,” he said; “but you may help me
a little yourself, if you will be so kind.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“You have not an umbrella that I can use as a stick?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“Try to get hold of my horse’s bridle and lead him to me: you are not
afraid?”</p>

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<p>I should have been afraid to touch a horse when alone, but when told to
do it, I was disposed to obey. I put down my muff on the stile, and
went up to the tall steed; I endeavoured to catch the bridle, but it
was a spirited thing, and would not let me come near its head; I made
effort on effort, though in vain: meantime, I was mortally afraid of
its trampling fore-feet. The traveller waited and watched for some
time, and at last he laughed.</p>

<p>“I see,” he said, “the mountain will never be brought to Mahomet, so
all you can do is to aid Mahomet to go to the mountain; I must beg of
you to come here.”</p>

<p>I came. “Excuse me,” he continued: “necessity compels me to make you
useful.” He laid a heavy hand on my shoulder, and leaning on me with
some stress, limped to his horse. Having once caught the bridle, he
mastered it directly and sprang to his saddle; grimacing grimly as he
made the effort, for it wrenched his sprain.</p>

<p>“Now,” said he, releasing his under lip 
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from a hard bite, “just hand me my whip; it lies there under the hedge.”</p>

<p>I sought it and found it.</p>

<p>“Thank you; now make haste with the letter to Hay, and return as fast
as you can.”</p>

<p>A touch of a spurred heel made his horse first start and rear, and then
bound away; the dog rushed in his traces; all three vanished</p>

<p>“Like heath that, in the wilderness</p>
<p>The wild wind whirls away.”</p>


<p>I took up my muff and walked on. The incident had occurred and was gone
for me: it <hi rend="italic">was</hi> an incident of no moment, no romance, no interest in a
sense; yet it marked with change one single hour of a monotonous life.
My help had been needed and claimed; I had given it: I was pleased to
have done something; trivial, transitory though the deed was, it was
yet an active thing, and I was weary of an existence all passive. The
new face, too, was like a new picture introduced to the gallery of
memory; and it was dissimilar to all the others hanging there: firstly,
because it was masculine; and, secondly, because it was dark, strong,
and stern. I had it still before 
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me when I entered Hay, and slipped the
letter into the post-office; I saw it as I walked fast down-hill all
the way home. When I came to the stile, I stopped a minute, looked
round and listened, with an idea that a horse’s hoofs might ring on the
causeway again, and that a rider in a cloak, and a Gytrash-like
Newfoundland dog, might be again apparent: I saw only the hedge and a
pollard willow before me, rising up still and straight to meet the
moonbeams; I heard only the faintest waft of wind roaming fitful among
the trees round Thornfield, a mile distant; and when I glanced down in
the direction of the murmur, my eye, traversing the hall-front, caught
a light kindling in a window: it reminded me that I was late, and I
hurried on.</p>

<p>I did not like re-entering Thornfield. To pass its threshold was to
return to stagnation; to cross the silent hall, to ascend the darksome
staircase, to seek my own lonely little room, and then to meet tranquil
Mrs. Fairfax, and spend the long winter evening with her, and her only,
was to quell wholly the faint excitement wakened by my walk,—to slip
again 
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over my faculties the viewless fetters of an uniform and too
still existence; of an existence whose very privileges of security and
ease I was becoming incapable of appreciating. What good it would have
done me at that time to have been tossed in the storms of an uncertain
struggling life, and to have been taught by rough and bitter experience
to long for the calm amidst which I now repined! Yes, just as much good
as it would do a man tired of sitting still in a “too easy chair” to
take a long walk: and just as natural was the wish to stir, under my
circumstances, as it would be under his.</p>

<p>I lingered at the gates; I lingered on the lawn; I paced backwards and
forwards on the pavement; the shutters of the glass door were closed; I
could not see into the interior; and both my eyes and spirit seemed
drawn from the gloomy house—from the grey hollow filled with rayless
cells, as it appeared to me—to that sky expanded before me,—a blue sea
absolved from taint of cloud; the moon ascending it in solemn march;
her orb seeming to look up as she left the hill-tops, from behind which
she 
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had come, far and farther below her, and aspired to the zenith,
midnight dark in its fathomless depth and measureless distance; and for
those trembling stars that followed her course; they made my heart
tremble, my veins glow when I viewed them. Little things recall us to
earth; the clock struck in the hall; that sufficed; I turned from moon
and stars, opened a side-door, and went in.</p>

<p>The hall was not dark, nor yet was it lit, only by the high-hung bronze
lamp; a warm glow suffused both it and the lower steps of the oak
staircase. This ruddy shine issued from the great dining-room, whose
two-leaved door stood open, and showed a genial fire in the grate,
glancing on marble hearth and brass fire-irons, and revealing purple
draperies and polished furniture, in the most pleasant radiance. It
revealed, too, a group near the mantelpiece: I had scarcely caught it,
and scarcely become aware of a cheerful mingling of voices, amongst
which I seemed to distinguish the tones of Adèle, when the door closed.</p>

<p>I hastened to Mrs. Fairfax’s room; there was a fire there too, but no
candle, and no 
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Mrs. Fairfax. Instead, all alone, sitting upright on the
rug, and gazing with gravity at the blaze, I beheld a great black and
white long-haired dog, just like the Gytrash of the lane. It was so
like it that I went forward and said—</p>
  
<p>“Pilot,” and the thing got up and
came to me and snuffed me. I caressed him, and he wagged his great
tail; but he looked an eerie creature to be alone with, and I could not
tell whence he had come. I rang the bell, for I wanted a candle; and I
wanted, too, to get an account of this visitant. Leah entered.</p>

<p>“What dog is this?”</p>

<p>“He came with master.”</p>

<p>“With whom?”</p>

<p>“With master—Mr. Rochester—he is just arrived.”</p>

<p>“Indeed! and is Mrs. Fairfax with him?”</p>

<p>“Yes, and Miss Adèle; they are in the dining-room, and John is gone for
a surgeon; for master has had an accident; his horse fell and his ankle
is sprained.”</p>

<p>“Did the horse fall in Hay Lane?”</p>

<p>“Yes, coming down-hill; it slipped on some ice.”</p>

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<p>“Ah! Bring me a candle will you Leah?”</p>

<p>Leah brought it; she entered, followed by Mrs. Fairfax, who repeated
the news; adding that Mr. Carter the surgeon was come, and was now with
Mr. Rochester: then she hurried out to give orders about tea, and I
went upstairs to take off my things.</p>
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<p>Mr. Rochester, it seems, by the surgeon’s orders, went to bed early
that night; nor did he rise soon next morning. When he did come down,
it was to attend to business: his agent and some of his tenants were
arrived, and waiting to speak with him.</p>

<p>Adèle and I had now to vacate the library: it would be in daily
requisition as a reception-room for callers. A fire was lit in an
apartment upstairs, and there I carried our books, and arranged it for
the future schoolroom. I discerned in the course of the morning that
Thornfield Hall was a changed place: no longer silent as a church, it
echoed every hour or two to a knock at the door, or a clang of the
bell; steps, too, often traversed the hall, and 
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new voices spoke in
different keys below; a rill from the outer world was flowing through
it; it had a master: for my part, I liked it better.</p>

<p>Adèle was not easy to teach that day; she could not apply: she kept
running to the door and looking over the banisters to see if she could
get a glimpse of Mr. Rochester; then she coined pretexts to go
downstairs, in order, as I shrewdly suspected, to visit the library,
where I knew she was not wanted; then, when I got a little angry, and
made her sit still, she continued to talk incessantly of her “ami,
Monsieur Edouard Fairfax <hi rend="italic">de</hi> Rochester,” as she dubbed him (I had not
before heard his prenomens), and to conjecture what presents he had
brought her: for it appears he had intimated the night before, that
when his luggage came from Millcote, there would be found amongst it a
little box in whose contents she had an interest.</p>

<p>“Et cela doit signifier,” said she, “qu’il y aura là dedans un cadeau
pour moi, et peut-être pour vous aussi, mademoiselle. Monsieur a parlé
de vous: il m’a demandé le nom de ma 
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gouvernante, et si elle n’était
pas une petite personne, assez mince et un peu pâle. J’ai dit qu’oui:
car c’est vrai, n’est-ce pas, mademoiselle?”</p>

<p>I and my pupil dined as usual in Mrs. Fairfax’s parlour; the afternoon
was wild and snowy, and we passed it in the schoolroom. At dark I
allowed Adèle to put away books and work, and to run downstairs; for,
from the comparative silence below, and from the cessation of appeals
to the door-bell, I conjectured that Mr. Rochester was now at liberty.
Left alone, I walked to the window; but nothing was to be seen thence:
twilight and snowflakes together thickened the air, and hid the very
shrubs on the lawn. I let down the curtain and went back to the
fireside.</p>

<p>In the clear embers I was tracing a view, not unlike a picture I
remembered to have seen of the castle of Heidelberg, on the Rhine, when
Mrs. Fairfax came in, breaking up by her entrance the fiery mosaic I
had been piercing together, and scattering too some heavy unwelcome
thoughts that were beginning to throng on my solitude.</p>

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<p>“Mr. Rochester would be glad if you and your pupil would take tea with
him in the drawing-room this evening,” said she: “he has been so much
engaged all day that he could not ask to see you before.”</p>

<p>“When is his tea-time?” I inquired.</p>

<p>“Oh, at six o’clock: he keeps early hours in the country. You had
better change your frock now; I will go with you and fasten it. Here is
a candle.”</p>

<p>“Is it necessary to change my frock?”</p>

<p>“Yes, you had better: I always dress for the evening when Mr. Rochester
is here.”</p>

<p>This additional ceremony seemed somewhat stately; however, I repaired
to my room, and, with Mrs. Fairfax’s aid, replaced my black stuff dress
by one of black silk; the best and the only additional one I had,
except one of light grey, which, in my Lowood notions of the toilette,
I thought too fine to be worn, except on first-rate occasions.</p>

<p>“You want a brooch,” said Mrs. Fairfax. I had a single little pearl
ornament which Miss Temple gave me as a parting keepsake: I put it on,
and then we went down stairs. 
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Unused as I was to strangers, it was
rather a trial to appear thus formally summoned in Mr. Rochester’s
presence. I let Mrs. Fairfax precede me into the dining-room, and kept
in her shade as we crossed that apartment; and, passing the arch, whose
curtain was now dropped, entered the elegant recess beyond.</p>

<p>Two wax candles stood lighted on the table, and two on the mantelpiece;
basking in the light and heat of a superb fire, lay Pilot—Adèle knelt
near him. Half reclined on a couch appeared Mr. Rochester, his foot
supported by the cushion; he was looking at Adèle and the dog: the fire
shone full on his face. I knew my traveller with his broad and jetty
eyebrows; his square forehead, made squarer by the horizontal sweep of
his black hair. I recognised his decisive nose, more remarkable for
character than beauty; his full nostrils, denoting, I thought, choler;
his grim mouth, chin, and jaw—yes, all three were very grim, and no
mistake. His shape, now divested of cloak, I perceived harmonised in
squareness with his physiognomy: I suppose 
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it was a good figure in the
athletic sense of the term—broad chested and thin flanked, though
neither tall nor graceful.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester must have been aware of the entrance of Mrs. Fairfax and
myself; but it appeared he was not in the mood to notice us, for he
never lifted his head as we approached.</p>

<p>“Here is Miss Eyre, sir,” said Mrs. Fairfax, in her quiet way. He
bowed, still not taking his eyes from the group of the dog and child.</p>

<p>“Let Miss Eyre be seated,” said he: and there was something in the
forced stiff bow, in the impatient yet formal tone, which seemed
further to express, “What the deuce is it to me whether Miss Eyre be
there or not? At this moment I am not disposed to accost her.”</p>

<p>I sat down quite disembarrassed. A reception of finished politeness
would probably have confused me: I could not have returned or repaid it
by answering grace and elegance on my part; but harsh caprice laid me
under no obligation; on the contrary, a decent quiescence, 
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under the freak of manner, gave me the advantage. Besides, the eccentricity of
the proceeding was piquant: I felt interested to see how he would go
on.</p>

<p>He went on as a statue would, that is, he neither spoke nor moved. Mrs.
Fairfax seemed to think it necessary that some one should be amiable,
and she began to talk. Kindly, as usual—and, as usual, rather trite—she
condoled with him on the pressure of business he had had all day; on
the annoyance it must have been to him with that painful sprain: then
she commended his patience and perseverance in going through with it.</p>

<p>“Madam, I should like some tea,” was the sole rejoinder she got. She
hastened to ring the bell; and when the tray came, she proceeded to
arrange the cups, spoons, &amp;c., with assiduous celerity. I and Adèle
went to the table; but the master did not leave his couch.</p>

<p>“Will you hand Mr. Rochester’s cup?” said Mrs. Fairfax to me; “Adèle
might perhaps spill it.”</p>

<p>I did as requested. As he took the cup from my hand, Adèle, thinking
the moment 
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propitious for making a request in my favour, cried out—</p>

<p>“N’est-ce pas, monsieur, qu’il y a un cadeau pour Mademoiselle Eyre
dans votre petit coffre?”</p>

<p>“Who talks of cadeaux?” said he gruffly. “Did you expect a present,
Miss Eyre? Are you fond of presents?” and he searched my face with eyes
that I saw were dark, irate, and piercing.</p>

<p>“I hardly know, sir; I have little experience of them: they are
generally thought pleasant things.”</p>

<p>“Generally thought? But what do <hi rend="italic">you</hi> think?”</p>

<p>“I should be obliged to take time, sir, before I could give you an
answer worthy of your acceptance: a present has many faces to it, has
it not? and one should consider all, before pronouncing an opinion as
to its nature.”</p>

<p>“Miss Eyre, you are not so unsophisticated as Adèle: she demands a
‘cadeau,’ clamorously, the moment she sees me: you beat about the
bush.”</p>

<p>“Because I have less confidence in my 
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deserts than Adèle has: she can
prefer the claim of old acquaintance, and the right too of custom; for
she says you have always been in the habit of giving her playthings;
but if I had to make out a case I should be puzzled, since I am a
stranger, and have done nothing to entitle me to an acknowledgment.”</p>

<p>“Oh, don’t fall back on over-modesty! I have examined Adèle, and find
you have taken great pains with her: she is not bright, she has no
talents; yet in a short time she has made much improvement.”</p>

<p>“Sir, you have now given me my ‘cadeau;’ I am obliged to you: it is the
meed teachers most covet—praise of their pupils’ progress.”</p>

<p>“Humph!” said Mr. Rochester, and he took his tea in silence.</p>

<p>“Come to the fire,” said the master, when the tray was taken away, and
Mrs. Fairfax had settled into a corner with her knitting; while Adèle
was leading me by the hand round the room, showing me the beautiful
books and ornaments on the consoles and chiffonnières. We obeyed, as in
duty bound; Adèle wanted to take a seat on my knee, but 
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she was ordered to amuse herself with Pilot.</p>

<p>“You have been resident in my house three months?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And you came from—?”</p>

<p>“From Lowood school, in ——shire.”</p>

<p>“Ah! a charitable concern. How long were you there?”</p>

<p>“Eight years.”</p>

<p>“Eight years! you must be tenacious of life. I thought half the time in
such a place would have done up any constitution! No wonder you have
rather the look of another world. I marvelled where you had got that
sort of face. When you came on me in Hay Lane last night, I thought
unaccountably of fairy tales, and had half a mind to demand whether you
had bewitched my horse: I am not sure yet. Who are your parents?”</p>

<p>“I have none.”</p>

<p>“Nor ever had, I suppose: do you remember them?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“I thought not. And so you were waiting 
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for your people when you sat on that stile?”</p>

<p>“For whom, sir?”</p>

<p>“For the men in green: it was a proper moonlight evening for them. Did
I break through one of your rings, that you spread that damned ice on
the causeway?”</p>

<p>I shook my head. “The men in green all forsook England a hundred years
ago,” said I, speaking as seriously as he had done. “And not even in
Hay Lane, or the fields about it, could you find a trace of them. I
don’t think either summer or harvest, or winter moon, will ever shine
on their revels more.”</p>

<p>Mrs. Fairfax had dropped her knitting, and, with raised eyebrows,
seemed wondering what sort of talk this was.</p>

<p>“Well,” resumed Mr. Rochester, “if you disown parents, you must have
some sort of kinsfolk: uncles and aunts?”</p>

<p>“No; none that I ever saw.”</p>

<p>“And your home?”</p>

<p>“I have none.”</p>

<p>“Where do your brothers and sisters live?”</p>

<p>“I have no brothers or sisters.”</p>
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<p>“Who recommended you to come here?”</p>

<p>“I advertised, and Mrs. Fairfax answered my advertisement.”</p>

<p>“Yes,” said the good lady, who now knew what ground we were upon, “and
I am daily thankful for the choice Providence led me to make. Miss Eyre
has been an invaluable companion to me, and a kind and careful teacher
to Adèle.”</p>

<p>“Don’t trouble yourself to give her a character,” returned Mr.
Rochester: “eulogiums will not bias me; I shall judge for myself. She
began by felling my horse.”</p>

<p>“Sir?” said Mrs. Fairfax.</p>

<p>“I have to thank her for this sprain.”</p>

<p>The widow looked bewildered.</p>

<p>“Miss Eyre, have you ever lived in a town?”</p>

<p>“No, sir.”</p>

<p>“Have you seen much society?”</p>

<p>“None but the pupils and teachers of Lowood, and now the inmates of
Thornfield.”</p>

<p>“Have you read much?”</p>

<p>“Only such books as came in my way; and they have not been numerous or
very learned.”</p>
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<p>“You have lived the life of a nun: no doubt you are well drilled in
religious forms;—Brocklehurst, who I understand directs Lowood, is a
parson, is he not?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And you girls probably worshipped him, as a convent full of
religieuses would worship their director.”</p>

<p>“Oh, no.”</p>

<p>“You are very cool! No! What! a novice not worship her priest! That
sounds blasphemous.”</p>

<p>“I disliked Mr. Brocklehurst; and I was not alone in the feeling. He is
a harsh man; at once pompous and meddling; he cut off our hair; and for
economy’s sake bought us bad needles and thread, with which we could
hardly sew.”</p>

<p>“That was very false economy,” remarked Mrs. Fairfax, who now again
caught the drift of the dialogue.</p>

<p>“And was that the head and front of his offending?” demanded Mr.
Rochester.</p>

<p>“He starved us when he had the sole superintendence of the provision
department, 
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before the committee was appointed; and he bored us with
long lectures once a week, and with evening readings from books of his
own inditing, about sudden deaths and judgments, which made us afraid
to go to bed.”</p>

<p>“What age were you when you went to Lowood?”</p>

<p>“About ten.”</p>

<p>“And you stayed there eight years: you are now, then, eighteen?”</p>

<p>I assented.</p>

<p>“Arithmetic, you see, is useful; without its aid, I should hardly have
been able to guess your age. It is a point difficult to fix where the
features and countenance are so much at variance as in your case. And
now what did you learn at Lowood? Can you play?”</p>

<p>“A little.”</p>

<p>“Of course: that is the established answer. Go into the library—I mean,
if you please.—(Excuse my tone of command; I am used to say, ‘Do this,’
and it is done: I cannot alter my customary habits for one new
inmate.)—Go, then, into the library; take a candle with 
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you; leave the door open; sit down to the piano, and play a tune.”</p>

<p>I departed, obeying his directions.</p>

<p>“Enough!” he called out in a few minutes. “You play <hi rend="italic">a little</hi>, I see;
like any other English school-girl; perhaps rather better than some,
but not well.”</p>

<p>I closed the piano and returned. Mr. Rochester continued—</p>

<p>“Adèle showed me some sketches this morning, which she said were yours.
I don’t know whether they were entirely of your doing; probably a
master aided you?”</p>

<p>“No, indeed!” I interjected.</p>

<p>“Ah! that pricks pride. Well, fetch me your portfolio, if you can vouch
for its contents being original; but don’t pass your word unless you
are certain: I can recognise patchwork.”</p>

<p>“Then I will say nothing, and you shall judge for yourself, sir.”</p>

<p>I brought the portfolio from the library.</p>

<p>“Approach the table,” said he; and I wheeled it to his couch. Adèle and
Mrs. Fairfax drew near to see the pictures.</p>
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<p>“No crowding,” said Mr. Rochester: “take the drawings from my hand as I
finish with them; but don’t push your faces up to mine.”</p>

<p>He deliberately scrutinised each sketch and painting. Three he laid
aside; the others, when he had examined them, he swept from him.</p>

<p>“Take them off to the other table, Mrs. Fairfax,” said he, “and look at
them with Adèle;—you” (glancing at me) “resume your seat, and answer my
questions. I perceive those pictures were done by one hand: was that
hand yours?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“And when did you find time to do them? They have taken much time, and
some thought.”</p>

<p>“I did them in the last two vacations I spent at Lowood, when I had no
other occupation.”</p>

<p>“Where did you get your copies?”</p>

<p>“Out of my head.”</p>

<p>“That head I see now on your shoulders?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>
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<p>“Has it other furniture of the same kind within?”</p>

<p>"I should think it may have: I should hope—better.”</p>

<p>He spread the pictures before him, and again surveyed them alternately.</p>

<p>While he is so occupied, I will tell you, reader, what they are: and
first, I must premise that they are nothing wonderful. The subjects
had, indeed, risen vividly on my mind. As I saw them with the spiritual
eye, before I attempted to embody them, they were striking; but my hand
would not second my fancy, and in each case it had wrought out but a
pale portrait of the thing I had conceived.</p>

<p>These pictures were in water-colours. The first represented clouds low
and livid, rolling over a swollen sea: all the distance was in eclipse;
so, too, was the foreground; or rather, the nearest billows, for there
was no land. One gleam of light lifted into relief a half-submerged
mast, on which sat a cormorant, dark and large, with wings flecked with
foam; its beak held a gold bracelet set with gems, that I had touched
with as brilliant tints as 
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my palette could yield, and as glittering
distinctness as my pencil could impart. Sinking below the bird and
mast, a drowned corpse glanced through the green water; a fair arm was
the only limb clearly visible, whence the bracelet had been washed or
torn.</p>

<p>The second picture contained for foreground only the dim peak of a
hill, with grass and some leaves slanting as if by a breeze. Beyond and
above spread an expanse of sky, dark blue as at twilight: rising into
the sky was a woman’s shape to the bust, portrayed in tints as dusk and
soft as I could combine. The dim forehead was crowned with a star; the
lineaments below were seen as through the suffusion of vapour; the eyes
shone dark and wild; the hair streamed shadowy, like a beamless cloud
torn by storm or by electric travail. On the neck lay a pale reflection
like moonlight; the same faint lustre touched the train of thin clouds
from which rose and bowed this vision of the Evening Star.</p>

<p>The third showed the pinnacle of an iceberg piercing a polar winter
sky: a muster of northern lights reared their dim lances, close
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serried, along the horizon. Throwing these into distance, rose, in the
foreground, a head,—a colossal head, inclined towards the iceberg, and
resting against it. Two thin hands, joined under the forehead, and
supporting it, drew up before the lower features a sable veil; a brow
quite bloodless, white as bone, and an eye hollow and fixed, blank of
meaning but for the glassiness of despair, alone were visible. Above
the temples, amidst wreathed turban folds of black drapery, vague in
its character and consistency as cloud, gleamed a ring of white flame,
gemmed with sparkles of a more lurid tinge. This pale crescent was “the
likeness of a kingly crown;” what it diademed was “the shape which
shape had none.”</p>

<p>“Were you happy when you painted these pictures?” asked Mr. Rochester
presently.</p>

<p>“I was absorbed, sir: yes, and I was happy. To paint them, in short,
was to enjoy one of the keenest pleasures I have ever known.”</p>

<p>“That is not saying much. Your pleasures, by your own account, have
been few; but I daresay you did exist in a kind of artist’s dreamland
while you blent and arranged these 
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strange tints. Did you sit at them long each day?”</p>

<p>“I had nothing else to do, because it was the vacation, and I sat at
them from morning till noon, and from noon till night: the length of
the midsummer days favoured my inclination to apply.”</p>

<p>“And you felt self-satisfied with the result of your ardent labours?”</p>

<p>“Far from it. I was tormented by the contrast between my idea and my
handiwork: in each case I had imagined something which I was quite
powerless to realise.”</p>

<p>“Not quite: you have secured the shadow of your thought; but no more,
probably. You had not enough of the artist’s skill and science to give
it full being: yet the drawings are, for a school-girl, peculiar. As to
the thoughts, they are elfish. These eyes in the Evening Star you must
have seen in a dream. How could you make them look so clear, and yet
not at all brilliant? for the planet above quells their rays. And what
meaning is that in their solemn depth? And who taught you to paint
wind? There is a high gale in that sky,
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and on this hill-top. Where did
you see Latmos? For that is Latmos. There! put the drawings away!”</p>

<p>I had scarce tied the strings of the portfolio, when, looking at his
watch, he said abruptly—</p>

<p>“It is nine o’clock: what are you about, Miss Eyre, to let Adèle sit up
so long? Take her to bed.”</p>

<p>Adèle went to kiss him before quitting the room: he endured the caress,
but scarcely seemed to relish it more than Pilot would have done, nor
so much.</p>

<p>“I wish you all good-night, now,” said he, making a movement of the
hand towards the door, in token that he was tired of our company, and
wished to dismiss us. Mrs. Fairfax folded up her knitting: I took my
portfolio: we curtseyed to him, received a frigid bow in return, and so
withdrew.</p>

<p>“You said Mr. Rochester was not strikingly peculiar, Mrs. Fairfax,” I
observed, when I rejoined her in her room, after putting Adèle to bed.</p>

<p>“Well, is he?”</p>
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<p>“I think so: he is very changeful and abrupt.”</p>

<p>“True: no doubt he may appear so to a stranger, but I am so accustomed
to his manner, I never think of it; and then, if he has peculiarities
of temper, allowance should be made.”</p>

<p>“Why?”</p>

<p>“Partly because it is his nature—and we can none of us help our nature;
and partly because he has painful thoughts, no doubt, to harass him,
and make his spirits unequal.”</p>

<p>“What about?”</p>

<p>"Family troubles, for one thing.”</p>

<p>“But he has no family.”</p>

<p>“Not now, but he has had—or, at least, relatives. He lost his elder
brother a few years since.”</p>

<p>“His <hi rend="italic">elder</hi> brother?”</p>

<p>“Yes. The present Mr. Rochester has not been very long in possession of
the property; only about nine years.”</p>

<p>“Nine years is a tolerable time. Was he so very fond of his brother as
to be still inconsolable for his loss?”</p>

<p>“Why, no—perhaps not. I believe there 
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were some misunderstandings
between them. Mr. Rowland Rochester was not quite just to Mr. Edward;
and perhaps he prejudiced his father against him. The old gentleman was
fond of money, and anxious to keep the family estate together. He did
not like to diminish the property by division, and yet he was anxious
that Mr. Edward should have wealth, too, to keep up the consequence of
the name; and, soon after he was of age, some steps were taken that
were not quite fair, and made a great deal of mischief. Old Mr.
Rochester and Mr. Rowland combined to bring Mr. Edward into what he
considered a painful position, for the sake of making his fortune: what
the precise nature of that position was I never clearly knew, but his
spirit could not brook what he had to suffer in it. He is not very
forgiving: he broke with his family, and now for many years he has led
an unsettled kind of life. I don’t think he has ever been resident at
Thornfield for a fortnight together, since the death of his brother
without a will left him master of the estate; and, indeed, no wonder he
shuns the old place.”</p>
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<p>“Why should he shun it?”</p>

<p>“Perhaps he thinks it gloomy.”</p>

<p>The answer was evasive. I should have liked something clearer; but Mrs.
Fairfax either could not, or would not, give me more explicit
information of the origin and nature of Mr. Rochester’s trials. She
averred they were a mystery to herself, and that what she knew was
chiefly from conjecture. It was evident, indeed, that she wished me to
drop the subject, which I did accordingly.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XIV</head>
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<p>For several subsequent days I saw little of Mr. Rochester. In the
mornings he seemed much engaged with business, and, in the afternoon,
gentlemen from Millcote or the neighbourhood called, and sometimes
stayed to dine with him. When his sprain was well enough to admit of
horse exercise, he rode out a good deal; probably to return these
visits, as he generally did not come back till late at night.</p>

<p>During this interval, even Adèle was seldom sent for to his presence,
and all my acquaintance with him was confined to an occasional
rencontre in the hall, on the stairs, or in the gallery, when he would
sometimes pass me haughtily and coldly, just acknowledging my presence
by a distant nod or a cool glance,
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and sometimes bow and smile with
gentlemanlike affability. His changes of mood did not offend me,
because I saw that I had nothing to do with their alternation; the ebb
and flow depended on causes quite disconnected with me.</p>

<p>One day he had had company to dinner, and had sent for my portfolio; in
order, doubtless, to exhibit its contents: the gentlemen went away
early, to attend a public meeting at Millcote, as Mrs. Fairfax informed
me; but the night being wet and inclement, Mr. Rochester did not
accompany them. Soon after they were gone he rang the bell: a message
came that I and Adèle were to go downstairs. I brushed Adèle’s hair and
made her neat, and having ascertained that I was myself in my usual
Quaker trim, where there was nothing to retouch—all being too close and
plain, braided locks included, to admit of disarrangement—we descended,
Adèle wondering whether the <hi rend="italic">petit coffre</hi> was at length come; for,
owing to some mistake, its arrival had hitherto been delayed. She was
gratified: there it stood, a little carton, on the table when we
entered the 
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dining-room. She appeared to know it by instinct.</p>

<p>“Ma boite! ma boite!” exclaimed she, running towards it.</p>

<p>“Yes, there is your ‘boite’ at last: take it into a corner, you genuine
daughter of Paris, and amuse yourself with disembowelling it,” said the
deep and rather sarcastic voice of Mr. Rochester, proceeding from the
depths of an immense easy-chair at the fireside. “And mind,” he
continued, “don’t bother me with any details of the anatomical process,
or any notice of the condition of the entrails: let your operation be
conducted in silence: tiens-toi tranquille, enfant; comprends-tu?”</p>

<p>Adèle seemed scarcely to need the warning; she had already retired to a
sofa with her treasure, and was busy untying the cord which secured the
lid. Having removed this impediment, and lifted certain silvery
envelopes of tissue paper, she merely exclaimed—</p>

<p>“Oh ciel! Que c’est beau!” and then remained absorbed in ecstatic
contemplation.</p>

<p>“Is Miss Eyre there?” now demanded the 
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master, half rising from his
seat to look round to the door, near which I still stood.</p>

<p>“Ah! well, come forward; be seated here.” He drew a chair near his own.
“I am not fond of the prattle of children,” he continued; “for, old
bachelor as I am, I have no pleasant associations connected with their
lisp. It would be intolerable to me to pass a whole evening
<hi rend="italic">tête-à-tête</hi> with a brat. Don’t draw that chair farther off, Miss
Eyre; sit down exactly where I placed it—if you please, that is.
Confound these civilities! I continually forget them. Nor do I
particularly affect simple-minded old ladies. By-the-bye, I must have
mine in mind; it won’t do to neglect her; she is a Fairfax, or wed to
one; and blood is said to be thicker than water.”</p>

<p>He rung, and despatched an invitation to Mrs. Fairfax, who soon
arrived, knitting-basket in hand.</p>

<p>“Good evening, madam; I sent to you for a charitable purpose. I have
forbidden Adèle to talk to me about her presents, and she is bursting
with repletion; have the goodness to serve her as auditress and
interlocutrice; 
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it will be one of the most benevolent acts you ever performed.”</p>

<p>Adèle, indeed, no sooner saw Mrs. Fairfax, than she summoned her to her
sofa, and there quickly filled her lap with the porcelain, the ivory,
the waxen contents of her “boite;” pouring out, meantime, explanations
and raptures in such broken English as she was mistress of.</p>

<p>“Now I have performed the part of a good host,” pursued Mr. Rochester,
“put my guests into the way of amusing each other, I ought to be at
liberty to attend to my own pleasure. Miss Eyre, draw your chair still
a little farther forward: you are yet too far back; I cannot see you
without disturbing my position in this comfortable chair, which I have
no mind to do.”</p>

<p>I did as I was bid, though I would much rather have remained somewhat
in the shade; but Mr. Rochester had such a direct way of giving orders,
it seemed a matter of course to obey him promptly.</p>

<p>We were, as I have said, in the dining-room: the lustre, which had been
lit for dinner, 
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filled the room with a festal breadth of light; the
large fire was all red and clear; the purple curtains hung rich and
ample before the lofty window and loftier arch; everything was still,
save the subdued chat of Adèle (she dared not speak loud), and, filling
up each pause, the beating of winter rain against the panes.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester, as he sat in his damask-covered chair, looked different
to what I had seen him look before; not quite so stern—much less
gloomy. There was a smile on his lips, and his eyes sparkled, whether
with wine or not, I am not sure; but I think it very probable. He was,
in short, in his after-dinner mood; more expanded and genial, and also
more self-indulgent than the frigid and rigid temper of the morning;
still he looked preciously grim, cushioning his massive head against
the swelling back of his chair, and receiving the light of the fire on
his granite-hewn features, and in his great, dark eyes; for he had
great, dark eyes, and very fine eyes, too—not without a certain change
in their depths sometimes, which, if it was not softness, reminded you,
at least, of that feeling.</p>
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<p>He had been looking two minutes at the fire, and I had been looking the
same length of time at him, when, turning suddenly, he caught my gaze
fastened on his physiognomy.</p>

<p>“You examine me, Miss Eyre,” said he: “do you think me handsome?”</p>

<p>I should, if I had deliberated, have replied to this question by
something conventionally vague and polite; but the answer somehow
slipped from my tongue before I was aware—“No, sir.”</p>

<p>“Ah! By my word! there is something singular about you,” said he: “you
have the air of a little <hi rend="italic">nonnette</hi>; quaint, quiet, grave, and simple,
as you sit with your hands before you, and your eyes generally bent on
the carpet (except, by-the-bye, when they are directed piercingly to my
face; as just now, for instance); and when one asks you a question, or
makes a remark to which you are obliged to reply, you rap out a round
rejoinder, which, if not blunt, is at least brusque. What do you mean
by it?”</p>

<p>“Sir, I was too plain; I beg your pardon. I ought to have replied that
it was not easy to 
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give an impromptu answer to a question about
appearances; that tastes mostly differ; and that beauty is of little
consequence, or something of that sort.”</p>

<p>“You ought to have replied no such thing. Beauty of little consequence,
indeed! And so, under pretence of softening the previous outrage, of
stroking and soothing me into placidity, you stick a sly penknife under
my ear! Go on: what fault do you find with me, pray? I suppose I have
all my limbs and all my features like any other man?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, allow me to disown my first answer: I intended no
pointed repartee: it was only a blunder.”</p>

<p>“Just so: I think so: and you shall be answerable for it. Criticise me:
does my forehead not please you?”</p>

<p>He lifted up the sable waves of hair which lay horizontally over his
brow, and showed a solid enough mass of intellectual organs, but an
abrupt deficiency where the suave sign of benevolence should have
risen.</p>

<p>“Now, ma’am, am I a fool?”</p>

<p>“Far from it, sir. You would, perhaps, 
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think me rude if I inquired in
return whether you are a philanthropist?”</p>

<p>“There again! Another stick of the penknife, when she pretended to pat
my head: and that is because I said I did not like the society of
children and old women (low be it spoken!). No, young lady, I am not a
general philanthropist; but I bear a conscience;” and he pointed to the
prominences which are said to indicate that faculty, and which,
fortunately for him, were sufficiently conspicuous; giving, indeed, a
marked breadth to the upper part of his head: “and, besides, I once had
a kind of rude tenderness of heart. When I was as old as you, I was a
feeling fellow enough; partial to the unfledged, unfostered, and
unlucky; but Fortune has knocked me about since: she has even kneaded
me with her knuckles, and now I flatter myself I am hard and tough as
an India-rubber ball; pervious, though, through a chink or two still,
and with one sentient point in the middle of the lump. Yes: does that
leave hope for me?”</p>

<p>“Hope of what, sir?”</p>
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<p>“Of my final re-transformation from India-rubber back to flesh?”</p>

<p>“Decidedly he has had too much wine,” I thought; and I did not know
what answer to make to his queer question: how could I tell whether he
was capable of being re-transformed?</p>

<p>“You looked very much puzzled, Miss Eyre; and though you are not pretty
any more than I am handsome, yet a puzzled air becomes you; besides, it
is convenient, for it keeps those searching eyes of yours away from my
physiognomy, and busies them with the worsted flowers of the rug; so
puzzle on. Young lady, I am disposed to be gregarious and communicative
to-night.”</p>

<p>With this announcement he rose from his chair, and stood, leaning his
arm on the marble mantelpiece: in that attitude his shape was seen
plainly as well as his face; his unusual breadth of chest,
disproportionate almost to his length of limb. I am sure most people
would have thought him an ugly man; yet there was so much unconscious
pride in his port; so much ease in his demeanour; such a 
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look of complete indifference to his own external appearance; so haughty a
reliance on the power of other qualities, intrinsic or adventitious, to
atone for the lack of mere personal attractiveness, that, in looking at
him, one inevitably shared the indifference, and, even in a blind,
imperfect sense, put faith in the confidence.</p>

<p>“I am disposed to be gregarious and communicative to-night,” he
repeated, “and that is why I sent for you: the fire and the chandelier
were not sufficient company for me; nor would Pilot have been, for none
of these can talk. Adèle is a degree better, but still far below the
mark; Mrs. Fairfax ditto; you, I am persuaded, can suit me if you will:
you puzzled me the first evening I invited you down here. I have almost
forgotten you since: other ideas have driven yours from my head; but
to-night I am resolved to be at ease; to dismiss what importunes, and
recall what pleases. It would please me now to draw you out—to learn
more of you—therefore speak.”</p>

<p>Instead of speaking, I smiled; and not a very complacent or submissive
smile either.</p>
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<p>“Speak,” he urged.</p>

<p>“What about, sir?”</p>

<p>“Whatever you like. I leave both the choice of subject and the manner
of treating it entirely to yourself.”</p>

<p>Accordingly I sat and said nothing: “If he expects me to talk for the
mere sake of talking and showing off, he will find he has addressed
himself to the wrong person,” I thought.</p>

<p>“You are dumb, Miss Eyre.”</p>

<p>I was dumb still. He bent his head a little towards me, and with a
single hasty glance seemed to dive into my eyes.</p>

<p>“Stubborn?” he said, “and annoyed. Ah! it is consistent. I put my
request in an absurd, almost insolent form. Miss Eyre, I beg your
pardon. The fact is, once for all, I don’t wish to treat you like an
inferior: that is” (correcting himself), “I claim only such superiority
as must result from twenty years’ difference in age and a century’s
advance in experience. This is legitimate, <hi rend="italic">et j’y tiens</hi>, as Adèle
would say; and it is by virtue of this superiority, and this alone,
that I desire you to have the goodness 
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to talk to me a little now, and
divert my thoughts, which are galled with dwelling on one
point—cankering as a rusty nail.”</p>

<p>He had deigned an explanation, almost an apology, and I did not feel
insensible to his condescension, and would not seem so.</p>

<p>“I am willing to amuse you, if I can, sir—quite willing; but I cannot
introduce a topic, because how do I know what will interest you? Ask me
questions, and I will do my best to answer them.”</p>

<p>“Then, in the first place, do you agree with me that I have a right to
be a little masterful, abrupt, perhaps exacting, sometimes, on the
grounds I stated, namely, that I am old enough to be your father, and
that I have battled through a varied experience with many men of many
nations, and roamed over half the globe, while you have lived quietly
with one set of people in one house?”</p>

<p>“Do as you please, sir.”</p>

<p>“That is no answer; or rather it is a very irritating, because a very
evasive one. Reply clearly.”</p>

<p>“I don’t think, sir, you have a right to command 
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me, merely because you
are older than I, or because you have seen more of the world than I
have; your claim to superiority depends on the use you have made of
your time and experience.”</p>

<p>“Humph! Promptly spoken. But I won’t allow that, seeing that it would
never suit my case, as I have made an indifferent, not to say a bad,
use of both advantages. Leaving superiority out of the question, then,
you must still agree to receive my orders now and then, without being
piqued or hurt by the tone of command. Will you?”</p>

<p>I smiled: I thought to myself Mr. Rochester <hi rend="italic">is</hi> peculiar—he seems to
forget that he pays me £30 per annum for receiving his orders.</p>

<p>“The smile is very well,” said he, catching instantly the passing
expression; “but speak too.”</p>

<p>“I was thinking, sir, that very few masters would trouble themselves to
inquire whether or not their paid subordinates were piqued and hurt by
their orders.”</p>

<p>“Paid subordinates! What, you are my 
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paid subordinate, are you? Oh yes,
I had forgotten the salary! Well then, on that mercenary ground, will
you agree to let me hector a little?”</p>

<p>“No, sir, not on that ground; but, on the ground that you did forget
it, and that you care whether or not a dependent is comfortable in his
dependency, I agree heartily.”</p>

<p>“And will you consent to dispense with a great many conventional forms
and phrases, without thinking that the omission arises from insolence?”</p>

<p>“I am sure, sir, I should never mistake informality for insolence: one
I rather like, the other nothing free-born would submit to, even for a
salary.”</p>

<p>“Humbug! Most things free-born will submit to anything for a salary;
therefore, keep to yourself, and don’t venture on generalities of which
you are intensely ignorant. However, I mentally shake hands with you
for your answer, despite its inaccuracy; and as much for the manner in
which it was said, as for the substance of the speech; the manner was
frank and sincere; one does not often see 
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such a manner: no, on the
contrary, affectation, or coldness, or stupid, coarse-minded
misapprehension of one’s meaning are the usual rewards of candour. Not
three in three thousand raw school-girl-governesses would have answered
me as you have just done. But I don’t mean to flatter you: if you are
cast in a different mould to the majority, it is no merit of yours:
Nature did it. And then, after all, I go too fast in my conclusions:
for what I yet know, you may be no better than the rest; you may have
intolerable defects to counterbalance your few good points.”</p>

<p>“And so may you,” I thought. My eye met his as the idea crossed my
mind: he seemed to read the glance, answering as if its import had been
spoken as well as imagined—</p>

<p>“Yes, yes, you are right,” said he; “I have plenty of faults of my own:
I know it, and I don’t wish to palliate them, I assure you. God wot I
need not be too severe about others; I have a past existence, a series
of deeds, a colour of life to contemplate within my own breast, which
might well call my sneers and censures from my neighbours to myself. I
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started, or rather (for like other defaulters, I like to lay half the
blame on ill fortune and adverse circumstances) was thrust on to a
wrong tack at the age of one-and-twenty, and have never recovered the
right course since: but I might have been very different; I might have
been as good as you—wiser—almost as stainless. I envy you your peace of
mind, your clean conscience, your unpolluted memory. Little girl, a
memory without blot or contamination must be an exquisite treasure—an
inexhaustible source of pure refreshment: is it not?”</p>

<p>“How was your memory when you were eighteen, sir?”</p>

<p>“All right then; limpid, salubrious: no gush of bilge water had turned
it to fetid puddle. I was your equal at eighteen—quite your equal.
Nature meant me to be, on the whole, a good man, Miss Eyre; one of the
better kind, and you see I am not so. You would say you don’t see it;
at least I flatter myself I read as much in your eye (beware,
by-the-bye, what you express with that organ; I am quick at
interpreting its language). 
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Then take my word for it,—I am not a
villain: you are not to suppose that—not to attribute to me any such
bad eminence; but, owing, I verily believe, rather to circumstances
than to my natural bent, I am a trite commonplace sinner, hackneyed in
all the poor petty dissipations with which the rich and worthless try
to put on life. Do you wonder that I avow this to you? Know, that in
the course of your future life you will often find yourself elected the
involuntary confidant of your acquaintances’ secrets: people will
instinctively find out, as I have done, that it is not your forte to
tell of yourself, but to listen while others talk of themselves; they
will feel, too, that you listen with no malevolent scorn of their
indiscretion, but with a kind of innate sympathy; not the less
comforting and encouraging because it is very unobtrusive in its
manifestations.”</p>

<p>“How do you know?—how can you guess all this, sir?”</p>

<p>“I know it well; therefore I proceed almost as freely as if I were
writing my thoughts in a diary. You would say, I should 
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have been superior to circumstances; so I should—so I should; but you see I was
not. When fate wronged me, I had not the wisdom to remain cool: I
turned desperate; then I degenerated. Now, when any vicious simpleton
excites my disgust by his paltry ribaldry, I cannot flatter myself that
I am better than he: I am forced to confess that he and I are on a
level. I wish I had stood firm—God knows I do! Dread remorse when you
are tempted to err, Miss Eyre; remorse is the poison of life.”</p>

<p>“Repentance is said to be its cure, sir.”</p>

<p>“It is not its cure. Reformation may be its cure; and I could reform—I
have strength yet for that—if—but where is the use of thinking of it,
hampered, burdened, cursed as I am? Besides, since happiness is
irrevocably denied me, I have a right to get pleasure out of life: and
I <hi rend="italic">will</hi> get it, cost what it may.”</p>

<p>“Then you will degenerate still more, sir.”</p>

<p>“Possibly: yet why should I, if I can get sweet, fresh pleasure? And I
may get it as sweet and fresh as the wild honey the bee gathers on the
moor.”</p>
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<p>“It will sting—it will taste bitter, sir.”</p>

<p>“How do you know?—you never tried it. How very serious—how very solemn
you look: and you are as ignorant of the matter as this cameo head”
(taking one from the mantelpiece). “You have no right to preach to me,
you neophyte, that have not passed the porch of life, and are
absolutely unacquainted with its mysteries.”</p>

<p>“I only remind you of your own words, sir: you said error brought
remorse, and you pronounced remorse the poison of existence.”</p>

<p>“And who talks of error now? I scarcely think the notion that flittered
across my brain was an error. I believe it was an inspiration rather
than a temptation: it was very genial, very soothing—I know that. Here
it comes again! It is no devil, I assure you; or if it be, it has put
on the robes of an angel of light. I think I must admit so fair a guest
when it asks entrance to my heart.”</p>

<p>“Distrust it, sir; it is not a true angel.”</p>

<p>“Once more, how do you know? By what instinct do you pretend to
distinguish between a fallen seraph of the abyss and a messenger 
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from the eternal throne—between a guide and a seducer?”</p>

<p>“I judged by your countenance, sir, which was troubled when you said
the suggestion had returned upon you. I feel sure it will work you more
misery if you listen to it.”</p>

<p>“Not at all—it bears the most gracious message in the world: for the
rest, you are not my conscience-keeper, so don’t make yourself uneasy.
Here, come in, bonny wanderer!”</p>

<p>He said this as if he spoke to a vision, viewless to any eye but his
own; then, folding his arms, which he had half extended, on his chest,
he seemed to enclose in their embrace the invisible being.</p>

<p>“Now,” he continued, again addressing me, “I have received the
pilgrim—a disguised deity, as I verily believe. Already it has done me
good: my heart was a sort of charnel; it will now be a shrine.”</p>

<p>“To speak truth, sir, I don’t understand you at all: I cannot keep up
the conversation, because it has got out of my depth. Only one thing, I
know: you said you were not as good 
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as you should like to be, and that
you regretted your own imperfection;—one thing I can comprehend: you
intimated that to have a sullied memory was a perpetual bane. It seems
to me, that if you tried hard, you would in time find it possible to
become what you yourself would approve; and that if from this day you
began with resolution to correct your thoughts and actions, you would
in a few years have laid up a new and stainless store of recollections,
to which you might revert with pleasure.”</p>

<p>“Justly thought; rightly said, Miss Eyre; and, at this moment, I am
paving hell with energy.”</p>

<p>“Sir?”</p>

<p>“I am laying down good intentions, which I believe durable as flint.
Certainly, my associates and pursuits shall be other than they have
been.”</p>

<p>“And better?”</p>

<p>“And better—so much better as pure ore is than foul dross. You seem to
doubt me; I don’t doubt myself: I know what my aim is, what my motives
are; and at this moment I pass a law, unalterable as that of the Medes
and Persians, that both are right.”</p>
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<p>“They cannot be, sir, if they require a new statute to legalise them.”</p>

<p>“They are, Miss Eyre, though they absolutely require a new statute:
unheard-of combinations of circumstances demand unheard-of rules.”</p>

<p>“That sounds a dangerous maxim, sir; because one can see at once that
it is liable to abuse.”</p>

<p>“Sententious sage! so it is: but I swear by my household gods not to
abuse it.”</p>

<p>“You are human and fallible.”</p>

<p>“I am: so are you—what then?”</p>

<p>“The human and fallible should not arrogate a power with which the
divine and perfect alone can be safely intrusted.”</p>

<p>“What power?”</p>

<p>“That of saying of any strange, unsanctioned line of action,—‘Let it be
right.’”</p>

<p>“‘Let it be right’—the very words: you have pronounced them.”</p>

<p>“<hi rend="italic">May</hi> it be right then,” I said, as I rose, deeming it useless to
continue a discourse which was all darkness to me; and, besides,
sensible that the character of my interlocutor 
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was beyond my
penetration; at least, beyond its present reach; and feeling the
uncertainty, the vague sense of insecurity, which accompanies a
conviction of ignorance.</p>

<p>“Where are you going?”</p>

<p>“To put Adèle to bed: it is past her bedtime.”</p>

<p>“You are afraid of me, because I talk like a Sphynx.”</p>

<p>“Your language is enigmatical, sir: but though I am bewildered, I am
certainly not afraid.”</p>

<p>“You <hi rend="italic">are</hi> afraid—your self-love dreads a blunder.”</p>

<p>“In that sense I do feel apprehensive—I have no wish to talk nonsense.”</p>

<p>“If you did, it would be in such a grave, quiet manner, I should
mistake it for sense. Do you never laugh, Miss Eyre? Don’t trouble
yourself to answer—I see you laugh rarely; but you can laugh very
merrily: believe me, you are not naturally austere, any more than I am
naturally vicious. The Lowood constraint still clings to you somewhat;
controlling 
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your features, muffling your voice, and restricting your
limbs; and you fear in the presence of a man and a brother—or father,
or master, or what you will—to smile too gaily, speak too freely, or
move too quickly: but, in time, I think you will learn to be natural
with me, as I find it impossible to be conventional with you; and then
your looks and movements will have more vivacity and variety than they
dare offer now. I see at intervals the glance of a curious sort of bird
through the close-set bars of a cage: a vivid, restless, resolute
captive is there; were it but free, it would soar cloud-high. You are
still bent on going?”</p>

<p>“It has struck nine, sir.”</p>

<p>“Never mind,—wait a minute: Adèle is not ready to go to bed yet. My
position, Miss Eyre, with my back to the fire, and my face to the room,
favours observation. While talking to you, I have also occasionally
watched Adèle (I have my own reasons for thinking her a curious
study,—reasons that I may, nay, that I shall, impart to you some day).
She pulled out of her box, about ten minutes ago, 
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a little pink silk
frock; rapture lit her face as she unfolded it; coquetry runs in her
blood, blends with her brains, and seasons the marrow of her bones. ‘Il
faut que je l’essaie!’ cried she, ‘et à l’instant même!’ and she rushed
out of the room. She is now with Sophie, undergoing a robing process:
in a few minutes she will re-enter; and I know what I shall see,—a
miniature of Céline Varens, as she used to appear on the boards at the
rising of—But never mind that. However, my tenderest feelings are about
to receive a shock: such is my presentiment; stay now, to see whether
it will be realised.”</p>

<p>Ere long, Adèle’s little foot was heard tripping across the hall. She
entered, transformed as her guardian had predicted. A dress of
rose-coloured satin, very short, and as full in the skirt as it could
be gathered, replaced the brown frock she had previously worn; a wreath
of rosebuds circled her forehead; her feet were dressed in silk
stockings and small white satin sandals.</p>

<p>“Est-ce que ma robe va bien?” cried she, 
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bounding forwards; “et mes 
souliers? et mes bas? Tenez, je crois que je vais danser!”</p>

<p>And spreading out her dress, she chasséed across the room till, having
reached Mr. Rochester, she wheeled lightly round before him on tip-toe,
then dropped on one knee at his feet, exclaiming—</p>

<p>“Monsieur, je vous remercie mille fois de votre bonté;” then rising,
she added, “C’est comme cela que maman faisait, n’est-ce pas,
monsieur?”</p>

<p>“Pre-cise-ly!” was the answer; “and, ‘comme cela,’ she charmed my
English gold out of my British breeches’ pocket. I have been green,
too, Miss Eyre,—ay, grass green: not a more vernal tint freshens you
now than once freshened me. My Spring is gone, however, but it has left
me that French floweret on my hands, which, in some moods, I would fain
be rid of. Not valuing now the root whence it sprang; having found that
it was of a sort which nothing but gold dust could manure, I have but
half a liking to the blossom, especially when it looks so 
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artificial as
just now. I keep it and rear it rather on the Roman Catholic principle
of expiating numerous sins, great or small, by one good work. I’ll
explain all this some day. Good-night.”</p>
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<p>Mr. Rochester did, on a future occasion, explain it. It was one
afternoon, when he chanced to meet me and Adèle in the grounds: and
while she played with Pilot and her shuttlecock, he asked me to walk up
and down a long beech avenue within sight of her.</p>

<p>He then said that she was the daughter of a French opera-dancer, Céline
Varens, towards whom he had once cherished what he called a “<hi rend="italic">grande passion</hi>." 
This passion Céline had professed to return with even
superior ardour. He thought himself her idol, ugly as he was: he
believed, as he said, that she preferred his “<hi rend="italic">taille d’athlète</hi>” to
the elegance of the Apollo Belvidere.</p>

<p>“And, Miss Eyre, so much was I flattered by this preference of the
Gallic sylph for her
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British gnome, that I installed her in an hotel;
gave her a complete establishment of servants, a carriage, cashmeres,
diamonds, dentelles, &amp;c. In short, I began the process of ruining
myself in the received style, like any other spoony. I had not, it
seems, the originality to chalk out a new road to shame and
destruction, but trode the old track with stupid exactness not to
deviate an inch from the beaten centre. I had—as I deserved to have—the
fate of all other spoonies. Happening to call one evening when Céline
did not expect me, I found her out; but it was a warm night, and I was
tired with strolling through Paris, so I sat down in her boudoir; happy
to breathe the air consecrated so lately by her presence. No,—I
exaggerate; I never thought there was any consecrating virtue about
her: it was rather a sort of pastille perfume she had left; a scent of
musk and amber, than an odour of sanctity. I was just beginning to
stifle with the fumes of conservatory flowers and sprinkled essences,
when I bethought myself to open the window and step out on to the
balcony. It was moonlight and gaslight besides, and 
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very still and
serene. The balcony was furnished with a chair or two; I sat down, and
took out a cigar,—I will take one now, if you will excuse me.”</p>

<p>Here ensued a pause, filled up by the producing and lighting of a
cigar; having placed it to his lips and breathed a trail of Havannah
incense on the freezing and sunless air, he went on—</p>

<p>“I liked bonbons too in those days, Miss Eyre, and I was
<hi rend="italic">croquant</hi>—(overlook the barbarism)—<hi rend="italic">croquant</hi> chocolate comfits, and
smoking alternately, watching meantime the equipages that rolled along
the fashionable streets towards the neighbouring opera-house, when in
an elegant close carriage drawn by a beautiful pair of English horses,
and distinctly seen in the brilliant city-night, I recognised the
‘voiture’ I had given Céline. She was returning: of course my heart
thumped with impatience against the iron rails I leant upon. The
carriage stopped, as I had expected, at the hotel door; my flame (that
is the very word for an opera inamorata) alighted: though muffed in a
cloak—an unnecessary 
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incumbrance, by-the-bye, on so warm a June
evening—I knew her instantly by her little foot, seen peeping from the
skirt of her dress, as she skipped from the carriage-step. Bending over
the balcony, I was about to murmur ‘Mon ange’—in a tone, of course,
which should be audible to the ear of love alone—when a figure jumped
from the carriage after her; cloaked also; but that was a spurred heel
which had rung on the pavement, and that was a hatted head which now
passed under the arched <hi rend="italic">porte cochère</hi> of the hotel.</p>

<p>“You never felt jealousy, did you, Miss Eyre? Of course not: I need not
ask you; because you never felt love. You have both sentiments yet to
experience: your soul sleeps; the shock is yet to be given which shall
waken it. You think all existence lapses in as quiet a flow as that in
which your youth has hitherto slid away. Floating on with closed eyes
and muffled ears, you neither see the rocks bristling not far off in
the bed of the flood, nor hear the breakers boil at their base. But I
tell you—and you may mark my words—you will come some day to a craggy
pass in 
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the channel, where the whole of life’s stream will be broken up
into whirl and tumult, foam and noise: either you will be dashed to
atoms on crag points, or lifted up and borne on by some master-wave
into a calmer current—as I am now.</p>

<p>“I like this day; I like that sky of steel; I like the sternness and
stillness of the world under this frost. I like Thornfield, its
antiquity, its retirement, its old crow-trees and thorn-trees, its grey
façade, and lines of dark windows reflecting that metal welkin: and yet
how long have I abhorred the very thought of it, shunned it like a
great plague-house? How I do still abhor—”</p>

<p>He ground his teeth and was silent: he arrested his step and struck his
boot against the hard ground. Some hated thought seemed to have him in
its grip, and to hold him so tightly that he could not advance.</p>

<p>We were ascending the avenue when he thus paused; the hall was before
us. Lifting his eye to its battlements, he cast over them a glare such
as I never saw before or since. Pain, shame, ire, impatience, disgust,
detestation, 
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seemed momentarily to hold a quivering conflict in the
large pupil dilating under his ebon eyebrow. Wild was the wrestle which
should be paramount; but another feeling rose and triumphed: something
hard and cynical: self-willed and resolute: it settled his passion and
petrified his countenance: he went on—</p>

<p>“During the moment I was silent, Miss Eyre, I was arranging a point
with my destiny. She stood there, by that beech-trunk—a hag like one of
those who appeared to Macbeth on the heath of Forres. ‘You like
Thornfield?’ she said, lifting her finger; and then she wrote in the
air a memento, which ran in lurid hieroglyphics all along the
house-front, between the upper and lower row of windows, ‘Like it if
you can! Like it if you dare!’</p>

<p>“‘I will like it,’ said I; ‘I dare like it;’ and” (he subjoined
moodily) “I will keep my word; I will break obstacles to happiness, to
goodness—yes, goodness. I wish to be a better man than I have been,
than I am; as Job’s leviathan broke the spear, the dart, and the
habergeon, hindrances which others count 
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as iron and brass, I will esteem but straw and rotten wood.”</p>

<p>Adèle here ran before him with her shuttlecock. “Away!” he cried
harshly; “keep at a distance, child; or go in to Sophie!” Continuing
then to pursue his walk in silence, I ventured to recall him to the
point whence he had abruptly diverged—</p>

<p>“Did you leave the balcony, sir,” I asked, “when Mdlle. Varens
entered?”</p>

<p>I almost expected a rebuff for this hardly well-timed question, but, on
the contrary, waking out of his scowling abstraction, he turned his
eyes towards me, and the shade seemed to clear off his brow. “Oh, I had
forgotten Céline! Well, to resume. When I saw my charmer thus come in
accompanied by a cavalier, I seemed to hear a hiss, and the green snake
of jealousy, rising on undulating coils from the moonlit balcony,
glided within my waistcoat, and ate its way in two minutes to my
heart’s core. Strange!” he exclaimed, suddenly starting again from the
point. “Strange that I should choose you for the confidant of all this,
young lady; passing 
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strange that you should listen to me quietly, as if
it were the most usual thing in the world for a man like me to tell
stories of his opera-mistresses to a quaint, inexperienced girl like
you! But the last singularity explains the first, as I intimated once
before: you, with your gravity, considerateness, and caution were made
to be the recipient of secrets. Besides, I know what sort of a mind I
have placed in communication with my own: I know it is one not liable
to take infection: it is a peculiar mind: it is a unique one. Happily I
do not mean to harm it: but, if I did, it would not take harm from me.
The more you and I converse, the better; for while I cannot blight you,
you may refresh me.” After this digression he proceeded—</p>

<p>“I remained in the balcony. ‘They will come to her boudoir, no doubt,’
thought I: ‘let me prepare an ambush.’ So putting my hand in through
the open window, I drew the curtain over it, leaving only an opening
through which I could take observations; then I closed the casement,
all but a chink just wide enough to furnish an outlet to lovers’
whispered vows: 
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then I stole back to my chair; and as I resumed it the
pair came in. My eye was quickly at the aperture. Céline’s chamber-maid
entered, lit a lamp, left it on the table, and withdrew. The couple
were thus revealed to me clearly: both removed their cloaks, and there
was ‘the Varens,’ shining in satin and jewels,—my gifts of course,—and
there was her companion in an officer’s uniform; and I knew him for a
young roué of a vicomte—a brainless and vicious youth whom I had
sometimes met in society, and had never thought of hating because I
despised him so absolutely. On recognising him, the fang of the snake
Jealousy was instantly broken; because at the same moment my love for
Céline sank under an extinguisher. A woman who could betray me for such
a rival was not worth contending for; she deserved only scorn; less,
however, than I, who had been her dupe.</p>

<p>“They began to talk; their conversation eased me completely: frivolous,
mercenary, heartless, and senseless, it was rather calculated to weary
than enrage a listener. A card of mine lay on the table; this being
perceived, brought 
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my name under discussion. Neither of them possessed
energy or wit to belabour me soundly, but they insulted me as coarsely
as they could in their little way: especially Céline, who even waxed
rather brilliant on my personal defects—deformities she termed them.
Now it had been her custom to launch out into fervent admiration of
what she called my ‘<hi rend="italic">beauté mâle</hi>:’ wherein she differed diametrically
from you, who told me point-blank, at the second interview, that you
did not think me handsome. The contrast struck me at the time and—”</p>

<p>Adèle here came running up again.</p>

<p>“Monsieur, John has just been to say that your agent has called and
wishes to see you.”</p>

<p>“Ah! in that case I must abridge. Opening the window, I walked in upon
them; liberated Céline from my protection; gave her notice to vacate
her hotel; offered her a purse for immediate exigencies; disregarded
screams, hysterics, prayers, protestations, convulsions; made an
appointment with the vicomte for a meeting at the Bois de Boulogne.
Next 
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morning I had the pleasure of encountering him; left a bullet in
one of his poor etiolated arms, feeble as the wing of a chicken in the
pip, and then thought I had done with the whole crew. But unluckily the
Varens, six months before, had given me this filette Adèle, who, she
affirmed, was my daughter; and perhaps she may be, though I see no
proofs of such grim paternity written in her countenance: Pilot is more
like me than she. Some years after I had broken with the mother, she
abandoned her child, and ran away to Italy with a musician or singer. I
acknowledged no natural claim on Adèle’s part to be supported by me,
nor do I now acknowledge any, for I am not her father; but hearing that
she was quite destitute, I e’en took the poor thing out of the slime
and mud of Paris, and transplanted it here, to grow up clean in the
wholesome soil of an English country garden. Mrs. Fairfax found you to
train it; but now you know that it is the illegitimate offspring of a
French opera-girl, you will perhaps think differently of your post and
protégée: you will be coming to me some day with notice that you have
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found another place—that you beg me to look out for a new governess,
&amp;c.—eh?”</p>

<p>“No: Adèle is not answerable for either her mother’s faults or yours: I
have a regard for her; and now that I know she is, in a sense,
parentless—forsaken by her mother and disowned by you, sir—I shall
cling closer to her than before. How could I possibly prefer the spoilt
pet of a wealthy family, who would hate her governess as a nuisance, to
a lonely little orphan, who leans towards her as a friend?”</p>

<p>“Oh, that is the light in which you view it! Well, I must go in now;
and you too: it darkens.”</p>

<p>But I stayed out a few minutes longer with Adèle and Pilot—ran a race
with her, and played a game of battledore and shuttlecock. When we went
in, and I had removed her bonnet and coat, I took her on my knee; kept
her there an hour, allowing her to prattle as she liked: not rebuking
even some little freedoms and trivialities into which she was apt to
stray when much noticed, and which betrayed in her a superficiality of
character, 
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inherited probably from her mother, hardly congenial to an
English mind. Still she had her merits; and I was disposed to
appreciate all that was good in her to the utmost. I sought in her
countenance and features a likeness to Mr. Rochester, but found none:
no trait, no turn of expression announced relationship. It was a pity:
if she could but have been proved to resemble him, he would have
thought more of her.</p>

<p>It was not till after I had withdrawn to my own chamber for the night,
that I steadily reviewed the tale Mr. Rochester had told me. As he had
said, there was probably nothing at all extraordinary in the substance
of the narrative itself: a wealthy Englishman’s passion for a French
dancer, and her treachery to him, were every-day matters enough, no
doubt, in society; but there was something decidedly strange in the
paroxysm of emotion which had suddenly seized him when he was in the
act of expressing the present contentment of his mood, and his newly
revived pleasure in the old hall and its environs. I meditated
wonderingly on this incident; but gradually quitting 
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it, as I found it
for the present inexplicable, I turned to the consideration of my
master’s manner to myself. The confidence he had thought fit to repose
in me seemed a tribute to my discretion: I regarded and accepted it as
such. His deportment had now for some weeks been more uniform towards
me than at the first. I never seemed in his way; he did not take fits
of chilling hauteur: when he met me unexpectedly, the encounter seemed
welcome; he had always a word and sometimes a smile for me: when
summoned by formal invitation to his presence, I was honoured by a
cordiality of reception that made me feel I really possessed the power
to amuse him, and that these evening conferences were sought as much
for his pleasure as for my benefit.</p>

<p>I, indeed, talked comparatively little, but I heard him talk with
relish. It was his nature to be communicative; he liked to open to a
mind unacquainted with the world glimpses of its scenes and ways (I do
not mean its corrupt scenes and wicked ways, but such as derived their
interest from the great scale on which 
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they were acted, the strange
novelty by which they were characterised); and I had a keen delight in
receiving the new ideas he offered, in imagining the new pictures he
portrayed, and following him in thought through the new regions he
disclosed, never startled or troubled by one noxious allusion.</p>

<p>The ease of his manner freed me from painful restraint: the friendly
frankness, as correct as cordial, with which he treated me, drew me to
him. I felt at times as if he were my relation rather than my master:
yet he was imperious sometimes still; but I did not mind that; I saw it
was his way. So happy, so gratified did I become with this new interest
added to life, that I ceased to pine after kindred: my thin
crescent-destiny seemed to enlarge; the blanks of existence were filled
up; my bodily health improved; I gathered flesh and strength.</p>

<p>And was Mr. Rochester now ugly in my eyes? No, reader: gratitude, and
many associations, all pleasurable and genial, made his face the object
I best liked to see; his presence 
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in a room was more cheering than the
brightest fire. Yet I had not forgotten his faults; indeed, I could
not, for he brought them frequently before me. He was proud, sardonic,
harsh to inferiority of every description: in my secret soul I knew
that his great kindness to me was balanced by unjust severity to many
others. He was moody, too; unaccountably so; I more than once, when
sent for to read to him, found him sitting in his library alone, with
his head bent on his folded arms; and, when he looked up, a morose,
almost a malignant, scowl blackened his features. But I believed that
his moodiness, his harshness, and his former faults of morality (I say
<hi rend="italic">former</hi>, for now he seemed corrected of them) had their source in some
cruel cross of fate. I believed he was naturally a man of better
tendencies, higher principles, and purer tastes than such as
circumstances had developed, education instilled, or destiny
encouraged. I thought there were excellent materials in him; though for
the present they hung together somewhat spoiled and tangled. I cannot
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deny that I grieved for his grief, whatever that was, and would have
given much to assuage it.</p>

<p>Though I had now extinguished my candle and was laid down in bed, I
could not sleep for thinking of his look when he paused in the avenue,
and told how his destiny had risen up before him, and dared him to be
happy at Thornfield.</p>

<p>“Why not?” I asked myself. “What alienates him from the house? Will he
leave it again soon? Mrs. Fairfax said he seldom stayed here longer
than a fortnight at a time; and he has now been resident eight weeks.
If he does go, the change will be doleful. Suppose he should be absent
spring, summer, and autumn: how joyless sunshine and fine days will
seem!”</p>

<p>I hardly know whether I had slept or not after this musing; at any
rate, I started wide awake on hearing a vague murmur, peculiar and
lugubrious, which sounded, I thought, just above me. I wished I had
kept my candle burning: the night was drearily dark; my spirits were
depressed. I rose and sat up in bed, listening. The sound was hushed.</p>

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<p>I tried again to sleep; but my heart beat anxiously: my inward
tranquillity was broken. The clock, far down in the hall, struck two.
Just then it seemed my chamber-door was touched; as if fingers had
swept the panels in groping a way along the dark gallery outside. I
said, “Who is there?” Nothing answered. I was chilled with fear.</p>

<p>All at once I remembered that it might be Pilot, who, when the
kitchen-door chanced to be left open, not unfrequently found his way up
to the threshold of Mr. Rochester’s chamber: I had seen him lying there
myself in the mornings. The idea calmed me somewhat: I lay down.
Silence composes the nerves; and as an unbroken hush now reigned again
through the whole house, I began to feel the return of slumber. But it
was not fated that I should sleep that night. A dream had scarcely
approached my ear, when it fled affrighted, scared by a marrow-freezing
incident enough.</p>

<p>This was a demoniac laugh—low, suppressed, and deep—uttered, as it
seemed, at the very keyhole of my chamber door. The head of 
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my bed was
near the door, and I thought at first the goblin-laugher stood at my
bedside—or rather, crouched by my pillow: but I rose, looked round, and
could see nothing; while, as I still gazed, the unnatural sound was
reiterated: and I knew it came from behind the panels. My first impulse
was to rise and fasten the bolt; my next, again to cry out, “Who is
there?”</p>

<p>Something gurgled and moaned. Ere long, steps retreated up the gallery
towards the third-storey staircase: a door had lately been made to shut
in that staircase; I heard it open and close, and all was still.</p>

<p>“Was that Grace Poole? and is she possessed with a devil?” thought I.
Impossible now to remain longer by myself: I must go to Mrs. Fairfax. I
hurried on my frock and a shawl; I withdrew the bolt and opened the
door with a trembling hand. There was a candle burning just outside,
and on the matting in the gallery. I was surprised at this
circumstance: but still more was I amazed to perceive the air quite
dim, as if filled with smoke; and, while looking to the right hand 
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and left, to find whence these blue wreaths issued, I became further aware
of a strong smell of burning.</p>

<p>Something creaked: it was a door ajar; and that door was Mr.
Rochester’s, and the smoke rushed in a cloud from thence. I thought no
more of Mrs. Fairfax; I thought no more of Grace Poole, or the laugh:
in an instant, I was within the chamber. Tongues of flame darted round
the bed: the curtains were on fire. In the midst of blaze and vapour,
Mr. Rochester lay stretched motionless, in deep sleep.</p>

<p>“Wake! wake!” I cried. I shook him, but he only murmured and turned:
the smoke had stupefied him. Not a moment could be lost: the very
sheets were kindling, I rushed to his basin and ewer; fortunately, one
was wide and the other deep, and both were filled with water. I heaved
them up, deluged the bed and its occupant, flew back to my own room,
brought my own water-jug, baptized the couch afresh, and, by God’s aid,
succeeded in extinguishing the flames which were devouring it.</p>

<p>The hiss of the quenched element, 
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the breakage of a pitcher which I
flung from my hand when I had emptied it, and, above all, the splash of
the shower-bath I had liberally bestowed, roused Mr. Rochester at last.
Though it was now dark, I knew he was awake; because I heard him
fulminating strange anathemas at finding himself lying in a pool of
water.</p>

<p>“Is there a flood?” he cried.</p>

<p>“No, sir,” I answered; “but there has been a fire: get up, do; you are
quenched now; I will fetch you a candle.”</p>

<p>“In the name of all the elves in Christendom, is that Jane Eyre?” he
demanded. “What have you done with me, witch, sorceress? Who is in the
room besides you? Have you plotted to drown me?”</p>

<p>“I will fetch you a candle, sir; and, in Heaven’s name, get up.
Somebody has plotted something: you cannot too soon find out who and
what it is.”</p>

<p>“There! I am up now; but at your peril you fetch a candle yet: wait two
minutes till I get into some dry garments, if any dry there be—yes,
here is my dressing-gown. Now run!”</p>
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<p>I did run; I brought the candle which still remained in the gallery. He
took it from my hand, held it up, and surveyed the bed, all blackened
and scorched, the sheets drenched, the carpet round swimming in water.</p>

<p>“What is it? and who did it?” he asked.</p>

<p>I briefly related to him what had transpired: the strange laugh I had
heard in the gallery: the step ascending to the third storey; the
smoke,—the smell of fire which had conducted me to his room; in what
state I had found matters there, and how I had deluged him with all the
water I could lay hands on.</p>

<p>He listened very gravely; his face, as I went on, expressed more
concern than astonishment; he did not immediately speak when I had
concluded.</p>

<p>“Shall I call Mrs. Fairfax?” I asked.</p>

<p>“Mrs. Fairfax? No; what the deuce would you call her for? What can she
do? Let her sleep unmolested.”</p>

<p>“Then I will fetch Leah, and wake John and his wife.”</p>

<p>“Not at all: just be still. You have a shawl on. If you are not warm
enough, you
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may take my cloak yonder; wrap it about you, and sit down
in the arm-chair: there,—I will put it on. Now place your feet on the
stool, to keep them out of the wet. I am going to leave you a few
minutes. I shall take the candle. Remain where you are till I return;
be as still as a mouse. I must pay a visit to the second storey. Don’t
move, remember, or call any one.”</p>

<p>He went: I watched the light withdraw. He passed up the gallery very
softly, unclosed the staircase door with as little noise as possible,
shut it after him, and the last ray vanished. I was left in total
darkness. I listened for some noise, but heard nothing. A very long
time elapsed. I grew weary: it was cold, in spite of the cloak; and
then I did not see the use of staying, as I was not to rouse the house.
I was on the point of risking Mr. Rochester’s displeasure by disobeying
his orders, when the light once more gleamed dimly on the gallery wall,
and I heard his unshod feet tread the matting. “I hope it is he,”
thought I, “and not something worse.”</p>

<p>He re-entered, pale and very gloomy. “I 
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have found it all out,” said
he, setting his candle down on the washstand; “it is as I thought.”</p>

<p>“How, sir?”</p>

<p>He made no reply, but stood with his arms folded, looking on the
ground. At the end of a few minutes he inquired in rather a peculiar
tone—</p>

<p>“I forget whether you said you saw anything when you opened your
chamber door.”</p>

<p>“No, sir, only the candlestick on the ground.”</p>

<p>“But you heard an odd laugh? You have heard that laugh before, I should
think, or something like it?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir: there is a woman who sews here, called Grace Poole,—she
laughs in that way. She is a singular person.”</p>

<p>“Just so. Grace Poole—you have guessed it. She is, as you say,
singular—very. Well, I shall reflect on the subject. Meantime, I am
glad that you are the only person, besides myself, acquainted with the
precise details of to-night’s incident. You are no talking fool: say
nothing about it. I will account for this 
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state of affairs” (pointing
to the bed): “and now return to your own room. I shall do very well on
the sofa in the library for the rest of the night. It is near four:—in
two hours the servants will be up.”</p>

<p>“Good-night, then, sir,” said I, departing.</p>

<p>He seemed surprised—very inconsistently so, as he had just told me to
go.</p>

<p>“What!” he exclaimed, “are you quitting me already, and in that way?”</p>

<p>“You said I might go, sir.”</p>

<p>“But not without taking leave; not without a word or two of
acknowledgment and good-will: not, in short, in that brief, dry
fashion. Why, you have saved my life!—snatched me from a horrible and
excruciating death! and you walk past me as if we were mutual
strangers! At least shake hands.”</p>

<p>He held out his hand; I gave him mine: he took it first in one, then in
both his own.</p>

<p>“You have saved my life: I have a pleasure in owing you so immense a
debt. I cannot say more. Nothing else that has being would have been
tolerable to me in the character of creditor for such an obligation:
but you: it is 
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different;—I feel your benefits no burden, Jane.”</p>

<p>He paused; gazed at me: words almost visible trembled on his lips,—but
his voice was checked.</p>

<p>“Good-night again, sir. There is no debt, benefit, burden, obligation,
in the case.”</p>

<p>“I knew,” he continued, “you would do me good in some way, at some
time;—I saw it in your eyes when I first beheld you: their expression
and smile did not”—(again he stopped)—“did not” (he proceeded hastily)
“strike delight to my very inmost heart so for nothing. People talk of
natural sympathies; I have heard of good genii: there are grains of
truth in the wildest fable. My cherished preserver, good-night!”</p>

<p>Strange energy was in his voice, strange fire in his look.</p>

<p>“I am glad I happened to be awake,” I said: and then I was going.</p>

<p>“What! you <hi rend="italic">will</hi> go?”</p>

<p>“I am cold, sir.”</p>

<p>“Cold? Yes,—and standing in a pool! Go, then, Jane; go!” But he still
retained 
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my hand, and I could not free it. I bethought myself of an
expedient.</p>

<p>“I think I hear Mrs. Fairfax move, sir,” said I.</p>

<p>“Well, leave me:” he relaxed his fingers, and I was gone.</p>

<p>I regained my couch, but never thought of sleep. Till morning dawned I
was tossed on a buoyant but unquiet sea, where billows of trouble
rolled under surges of joy. I thought sometimes I saw beyond its wild
waters a shore, sweet as the hills of Beulah; and now and then a
freshening gale, wakened by hope, bore my spirit triumphantly towards
the bourne: but I could not reach it, even in fancy—a counteracting
breeze blew off land, and continually drove me back. Sense would resist
delirium: judgment would warn passion. Too feverish to rest, I rose as
soon as day dawned.</p>
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<p>I both wished and feared to see Mr. Rochester on the day which followed
this sleepless night: I wanted to hear his voice again, yet feared to
meet his eye. During the early part of the morning, I momentarily
expected his coming; he was not in the frequent habit of entering the
schoolroom, but he did step in for a few minutes sometimes, and I had
the impression that he was sure to visit it that day.</p>

<p>But the morning passed just as usual: nothing happened to interrupt the
quiet course of Adèle’s studies; only soon after breakfast, I heard
some bustle in the neighbourhood of Mr. Rochester’s chamber, Mrs.
Fairfax’s voice, and Leah’s, and the cook’s—that is, John’s wife—and
even John’s own gruff tones. There were exclamations of “What a mercy
master was not burnt in his bed!” “It is always 
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dangerous to keep a
candle lit at night.” “How providential that he had presence of mind to
think of the water-jug!” “I wonder he waked nobody!” “It is to be hoped
he will not take cold with sleeping on the library sofa,” &amp;c.</p>

<p>To much confabulation succeeded a sound of scrubbing and setting to
rights; and when I passed the room, in going downstairs to dinner, I
saw through the open door that all was again restored to complete
order; only the bed was stripped of its hangings. Leah stood up in the
window-seat, rubbing the panes of glass dimmed with smoke. I was about
to address her, for I wished to know what account had been given of the
affair: but, on advancing, I saw a second person in the chamber—a woman
sitting on a chair by the bedside, and sewing rings to new curtains.
That woman was no other than Grace Poole.</p>

<p>There she sat, staid and taciturn-looking, as usual, in her brown stuff
gown, her check apron, white handkerchief, and cap. She was intent on
her work, in which her whole thoughts seemed absorbed: on her hard
forehead, and in her commonplace features, was nothing either of the
paleness or desperation one would have expected to see marking the
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countenance of a woman who had attempted murder, and whose intended
victim had followed her last night to her lair, and (as I believed),
charged her with the crime she wished to perpetrate. I was
amazed—confounded. She looked up, while I still gazed at her: no start,
no increase or failure of colour betrayed emotion, consciousness of
guilt, or fear of detection. She said “Good morning, Miss,” in her
usual phlegmatic and brief manner; and taking up another ring and more
tape, went on with her sewing.</p>

<p>“I will put her to some test,” thought I: “such absolute
impenetrability is past comprehension.”</p>

<p>“Good morning, Grace,” I said. “Has anything happened here? I thought I
heard the servants all talking together a while ago.”</p>

<p>“Only master had been reading in his bed last night; he fell asleep
with his candle lit, and the curtains got on fire; but, fortunately, he
awoke before the bed-clothes or the wood-work caught, and contrived to
quench the flames with the water in the ewer.”</p>

<p>“A strange affair!” I said, in a low voice: then, looking at her
fixedly—“Did Mr. Rochester wake nobody? Did no one hear him move?”</p>
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<p>She again raised her eyes to me, and this time there was something of
consciousness in their expression. She seemed to examine me warily;
then she answered—</p>

<p>“The servants sleep so far off, you know, Miss, they would not be
likely to hear. Mrs. Fairfax’s room and yours are the nearest to
master’s; but Mrs. Fairfax said she heard nothing: when people get
elderly, they often sleep heavy.” She paused, and then added, with a
sort of assumed indifference, but still in a marked and significant
tone—“But you are young, Miss; and I should say a light sleeper:
perhaps you may have heard a noise?”</p>

<p>“I did,” said I, dropping my voice, so that Leah, who was still
polishing the panes, could not hear me, “and at first I thought it was
Pilot: but Pilot cannot laugh; and I am certain I heard a laugh, and a
strange one.”</p>

<p>She took a new needleful of thread, waxed it carefully, threaded her
needle with a steady hand, and then observed, with perfect composure—</p>

<p>“It is hardly likely master would laugh, I should think, Miss, when he
was in such danger: You must have been dreaming.”</p>

<p>“I was not dreaming,” I said, with some warmth, for her brazen coolness
provoked me. 
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Again she looked at me; and with the same scrutinising and
conscious eye.</p>

<p>“Have you told master that you heard a laugh?” she inquired.</p>

<p>“I have not had the opportunity of speaking to him this morning.”</p>

<p>“You did not think of opening your door and looking out into the
gallery?” she further asked.</p>

<p>She appeared to be cross-questioning me, attempting to draw from me
information unawares. The idea struck me that if she discovered I knew
or suspected her guilt, she would be playing of some of her malignant
pranks on me; I thought it advisable to be on my guard.</p>

<p>“On the contrary,” said I, “I bolted my door.”</p>

<p>“Then you are not in the habit of bolting your door every night before
you get into bed?”</p>

<p>“Fiend! she wants to know my habits, that she may lay her plans
accordingly!” Indignation again prevailed over prudence: I replied
sharply, “Hitherto I have often omitted to fasten the bolt: I did not
think it necessary. I was not aware any danger or annoyance was to be
dreaded at Thornfield 
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Hall: but in future” (and I laid marked stress on
the words) “I shall take good care to make all secure before I venture
to lie down.”</p>

<p>“It will be wise so to do,” was her answer: “this neighbourhood is as
quiet as any I know, and I never heard of the hall being attempted by
robbers since it was a house; though there are hundreds of pounds’
worth of plate in the plate-closet, as is well known. And you see, for
such a large house, there are very few servants, because master has
never lived here much; and when he does come, being a bachelor, he
needs little waiting on: but I always think it best to err on the safe
side; a door is soon fastened, and it is as well to have a drawn bolt
between one and any mischief that may be about. A deal of people, Miss,
are for trusting all to Providence; but I say Providence will not
dispense with the means, though He often blesses them when they are
used discreetly.” And here she closed her harangue: a long one for her,
and uttered with the demureness of a Quakeress.</p>

<p>I still stood absolutely dumfoundered at what appeared to me her
miraculous self-possession and most inscrutable hypocrisy, when the
cook entered.</p>

<p>“Mrs. Poole,” said she, addressing Grace,
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    “the servants’ dinner will
soon be ready: will you come down?”</p>

<p>“No; just put my pint of porter and bit of pudding on a tray, and I’ll
carry it upstairs.”</p>

<p>“You’ll have some meat?”</p>

<p>“Just a morsel, and a taste of cheese, that’s all.”</p>

<p>“And the sago?”</p>

<p>“Never mind it at present: I shall be coming down before teatime: I’ll
make it myself.”</p>

<p>The cook here turned to me, saying that Mrs. Fairfax was waiting for
me: so I departed.</p>

<p>I hardly heard Mrs. Fairfax’s account of the curtain conflagration
during dinner, so much was I occupied in puzzling my brains over the
enigmatical character of Grace Poole, and still more in pondering the
problem of her position at Thornfield and questioning why she had not
been given into custody that morning, or, at the very least, dismissed
from her master’s service. He had almost as much as declared his
conviction of her criminality last night: what mysterious cause
withheld him from accusing her? Why had he enjoined me, too, to
secrecy? It was strange: a bold, vindictive, and haughty gentleman
seemed somehow in the power of 
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one of the meanest of his dependents; so
much in her power, that even when she lifted her hand against his life,
he dared not openly charge her with the attempt, much less punish her
for it.</p>

<p>Had Grace been young and handsome, I should have been tempted to think
that tenderer feelings than prudence or fear influenced Mr. Rochester
in her behalf; but, hard-favoured and matronly as she was, the idea
could not be admitted. “Yet,” I reflected, “she has been young once;
her youth would be contemporary with her master’s: Mrs. Fairfax told me
once, she had lived here many years. I don’t think she can ever have
been pretty; but, for aught I know, she may possess originality and
strength of character to compensate for the want of personal
advantages. Mr. Rochester is an amateur of the decided and eccentric:
Grace is eccentric at least. What if a former caprice (a freak very
possible to a nature so sudden and headstrong as his) has delivered him
into her power, and she now exercises over his actions a secret
influence, the result of his own indiscretion, which he cannot shake
off, and dare not disregard?” But, having reached this point of
conjecture, Mrs. Poole’s square, flat figure, and uncomely,
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dry, even
coarse face, recurred so distinctly to my mind’s eye, that I thought,
“No; impossible! my supposition cannot be correct. Yet,” suggested the
secret voice which talks to us in our own hearts, “<hi rend="italic">you</hi> are not
beautiful either, and perhaps Mr. Rochester approves you: at any rate,
you have often felt as if he did; and last night—remember his words;
remember his look; remember his voice!”</p>

<p>I well remembered all; language, glance, and tone seemed at the moment
vividly renewed. I was now in the schoolroom; Adèle was drawing; I bent
over her and directed her pencil. She looked up with a sort of start.</p>

<p>Qu’avez-vous, mademoiselle?” said she. “Vos doigts tremblent comme la
feuille, et vos joues sont rouges: mais, rouges comme des cerises!”</p>

<p>“I am hot, Adèle, with stooping!” She went on sketching; I went on
thinking.</p>

<p>I hastened to drive from my mind the hateful notion I had been
conceiving respecting Grace Poole; it disgusted me. I compared myself
with her, and found we were different. Bessie Leaven had said I was
quite a lady; and she spoke truth—I was a lady. And now I looked much
better than I did when Bessie saw me; I had more colour and more flesh,
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more life, more vivacity, because I had brighter hopes and keener
enjoyments.</p>

<p>“Evening approaches,” said I, as I looked towards the window. “I have
never heard Mr. Rochester’s voice or step in the house to-day; but
surely I shall see him before night: I feared the meeting in the
morning; now I desire it, because expectation has been so long baffled
that it is grown impatient.”</p>

<p>When dusk actually closed, and when Adèle left me to go and play in the
nursery with Sophie, I did most keenly desire it. I listened for the
bell to ring below; I listened for Leah coming up with a message; I
fancied sometimes I heard Mr. Rochester’s own tread, and I turned to
the door, expecting it to open and admit him. The door remained shut;
darkness only came in through the window. Still it was not late; he
often sent for me at seven and eight o’clock, and it was yet but six.
Surely I should not be wholly disappointed to-night, when I had so many
things to say to him! I wanted again to introduce the subject of Grace
Poole, and to hear what he would answer; I wanted to ask him plainly if
he really believed it was she who had made last night’s hideous
attempt; and if so, why he kept her wickedness a secret. It little
mattered 
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whether my curiosity irritated him; I knew the pleasure of
vexing and soothing him by turns; it was one I chiefly delighted in,
and a sure instinct always prevented me from going too far; beyond the
verge of provocation I never ventured; on the extreme brink I liked
well to try my skill. Retaining every minute form of respect, every
propriety of my station, I could still meet him in argument without
fear or uneasy restraint; this suited both him and me.</p>

<p>A tread creaked on the stairs at last. Leah made her appearance; but it
was only to intimate that tea was ready in Mrs. Fairfax’s room. Thither
I repaired, glad at least to go downstairs; for that brought me, I
imagined, nearer to Mr. Rochester’s presence.</p>

<p>“You must want your tea,” said the good lady, as I joined her; “you ate
so little at dinner. I am afraid,” she continued, “you are not well
to-day: you look flushed and feverish.”</p>

<p>“Oh, quite well! I never felt better.”</p>

<p>“Then you must prove it by evincing a good appetite; will you fill the
teapot while I knit off this needle?” Having completed her task, she
rose to draw down the blind, which she had hitherto kept up, by way, I
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suppose, of making the most of daylight, though dusk was now fast
deepening into total obscurity.</p>

<p>“It is fair to-night,” said she, as she looked through the panes,
“though not starlight; Mr. Rochester has, on the whole, had a
favourable day for his journey.”</p>

<p>“Journey!—Is Mr. Rochester gone anywhere? I did not know he was out.”</p>

<p>“Oh, he set off the moment he had breakfasted! He is gone to the Leas,
Mr. Eshton’s place, ten miles on the other side Millcote. I believe
there is quite a party assembled there; Lord Ingram, Sir George Lynn,
Colonel Dent, and others.”</p>

<p>“Do you expect him back to-night?”</p>

<p>“No—nor to-morrow either; I should think he is very likely to stay a
week or more: when these fine, fashionable people get together, they
are so surrounded by elegance and gaiety, so well provided with all
that can please and entertain, they are in no hurry to separate.
Gentlemen especially are often in request on such occasions; and Mr.
Rochester is so talented and so lively in society, that I believe he is
a general favourite: the ladies are very fond of him; though you would
not think his appearance calculated to recommend 
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him particularly in
their eyes: but I suppose his acquirements and abilities, perhaps his
wealth and good blood, make amends for any little fault of look.”</p>

<p>“Are there ladies at the Leas?”</p>

<p>“There are Mrs. Eshton and her three daughters—very elegant young
ladies indeed; and there are the Honourable Blanche and Mary Ingram,
most beautiful women, I suppose: indeed I have seen Blanche, six or
seven years since, when she was a girl of eighteen. She came here to a
Christmas ball and party Mr. Rochester gave. You should have seen the
dining-room that day—how richly it was decorated, how brilliantly lit
up! I should think there were fifty ladies and gentlemen present—all of
the first county families; and Miss Ingram was considered the belle of
the evening.”</p>

        <p>“You saw her, you say, Mrs. Fairfax: what was she like?”</p>

<p>“Yes, I saw her. The dining-room doors were thrown open; and, as it was
Christmas-time, the servants were allowed to assemble in the hall, to
hear some of the ladies sing and play. Mr. Rochester would have me to
come in, and I sat down in a quiet corner and watched them. I never saw
a more splendid 
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scene: the ladies were magnificently dressed; most of
them—at least most of the younger ones—looked handsome; but Miss Ingram
was certainly the queen.”</p>

<p>“And what was she like?”</p>

<p>“Tall, fine bust, sloping shoulders; long, graceful neck: olive
complexion, dark and clear; noble features; eyes rather like Mr.
Rochester’s: large and black, and as brilliant as her jewels. And then
she had such a fine head of hair; raven-black and so becomingly
arranged: a crown of thick plaits behind, and in front the longest, the
glossiest curls I ever saw. She was dressed in pure white; an
amber-coloured scarf was passed over her shoulder and across her
breast, tied at the side, and descending in long, fringed ends below
her knee. She wore an amber-coloured flower, too, in her hair: it
contrasted well with the jetty mass of her curls.”</p>

<p>“She was greatly admired, of course?”</p>

<p>“Yes, indeed: and not only for her beauty, but for her accomplishments.
She was one of the ladies who sang: a gentleman accompanied her on the
piano. She and Mr. Rochester sang a duet.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester? I was not aware he could sing.”</p>
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<p>“Oh! he has a fine bass voice, and an excellent taste for music.”</p>

<p>“And Miss Ingram: what sort of a voice had she?”</p>

<p>“A very rich and powerful one: she sang delightfully; it was a treat to
listen to her;—and she played afterwards. I am no judge of music, but
Mr. Rochester is; and I heard him say her execution was remarkably
good.”</p>

        <p>“And this beautiful and accomplished lady, she is not yet married?”</p>

<p>“It appears not: I fancy neither she nor her sister have very large
fortunes. Old Lord Ingram’s estates were chiefly entailed, and the
eldest son came in for everything almost.”</p>

<p>“But I wonder no wealthy nobleman or gentleman has taken a fancy to
her: Mr. Rochester, for instance. He is rich, is he not?”</p>

<p>“Oh! yes. But you see there is a considerable difference in age: Mr.
Rochester is nearly forty; she is but twenty-five.”</p>

<p>“What of that? More unequal matches are made every day.”</p>

<p>“True: yet I should scarcely fancy Mr. Rochester would entertain an
idea of the sort. But you eat nothing: you have scarcely tasted since
you began tea.”</p>
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<p>“No: I am too thirsty to eat. Will you let me have another cup?”</p>

<p>I was about again to revert to the probability of a union between Mr.
Rochester and the beautiful Blanche; but Adèle came in, and the
conversation was turned into another channel.</p>

<p>When once more alone, I reviewed the information I had got; looked into
my heart, examined its thoughts and feelings, and endeavoured to bring
back with a strict hand such as had been straying through imagination’s
boundless and trackless waste, into the safe fold of common sense.</p>

<p>Arraigned at my own bar, Memory having given her evidence of the hopes,
wishes, sentiments I had been cherishing since last night—of the
general state of mind in which I had indulged for nearly a fortnight
past; Reason having come forward and told, in her own quiet way, a
plain, unvarnished tale, showing how I had rejected the real, and
rabidly devoured the ideal;—I pronounced judgment to this effect:—</p>

<p>That a greater fool than Jane Eyre had never breathed the breath of
life; that a more fantastic idiot had never surfeited herself on sweet
lies, and swallowed poison as if it were nectar.</p>
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<p>“<hi rend="italic">You</hi>,” I said, “a favourite with Mr. Rochester? <hi rend="italic">You</hi> gifted with the
power of pleasing him? <hi rend="italic">You</hi> of importance to him in any way? Go! your
folly sickens me. And you have derived pleasure from occasional tokens
of preference—equivocal tokens shown by a gentleman of family and a man
of the world to a dependent and a novice. How dared you? Poor stupid
dupe!—Could not even self-interest make you wiser? You repeated to
yourself this morning the brief scene of last night?—Cover your face
and be ashamed! He said something in praise of your eyes, did he? Blind
puppy! Open their bleared lids and look on your own accursed
senselessness! It does good to no woman to be flattered by her
superior, who cannot possibly intend to marry her; and it is madness in
all women to let a secret love kindle within them, which, if unreturned
and unknown, must devour the life that feeds it; and, if discovered and
responded to, must lead, <hi rend="italic">ignis-fatuus</hi>-like, into miry wilds whence
there is no extrication.</p>

<p>“Listen, then, Jane Eyre, to your sentence: to-morrow, place the glass
before you, and draw in chalk your own picture, faithfully, without
softening one defect; omit no harsh 
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line, smooth away no displeasing
irregularity; write under it, ‘Portrait of a Governess, disconnected,
poor, and plain.’</p>

<p>“Afterwards, take a piece of smooth ivory—you have one prepared in your
drawing-box: take your palette, mix your freshest, finest, clearest
tints; choose your most delicate camel-hair pencils; delineate
carefully the loveliest face you can imagine; paint it in your softest
shades and sweetest lines, according to the description given by Mrs.
Fairfax of Blanche Ingram; remember the raven ringlets, the oriental
eye;—What! you revert to Mr. Rochester as a model! Order! No snivel!—no
sentiment!—no regret! I will endure only sense and resolution. Recall
the august yet harmonious lineaments, the Grecian neck and bust; let
the round and dazzling arm be visible, and the delicate hand; omit
neither diamond ring nor gold bracelet; portray faithfully the attire,
aërial lace and glistening satin, graceful scarf and golden rose; call
it ‘Blanche, an accomplished lady of rank.’</p>
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<p>“Whenever, in future, you should chance to fancy Mr. Rochester thinks
well of you, take out these two pictures and compare them: say, ‘Mr.
Rochester might probably

win that noble lady’s love, if he chose to
strive for it; is it likely he would waste a serious thought on this
indigent and insignificant plebeian?’”</p>

<p>“I’ll do it,” I resolved: and having framed this determination, I grew
calm, and fell asleep.</p>

<p>I kept my word. An hour or two sufficed to sketch my own portrait in
crayons; and in less than a fortnight I had completed an ivory
miniature of an imaginary Blanche Ingram. It looked a lovely face
enough, and when compared with the real head in chalk, the contrast was
as great as self-control could desire. I derived benefit from the task:
it had kept my head and hands employed, and had given force and
fixedness to the new impressions I wished to stamp indelibly on my
heart.</p>

<p>Ere long, I had reason to congratulate myself on the course of
wholesome discipline to which I had thus forced my feelings to submit.
Thanks to it, I was able to meet subsequent occurrences with a decent
calm, which, had they found me unprepared, I should probably have been
unequal to maintain, even externally.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XVII</head>
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<p>A week passed, and no news arrived of Mr. Rochester: ten days, and
still he did not come. Mrs. Fairfax said she should not be surprised if
he were to go straight from the Leas to London, and thence to the
Continent, and not show his face again at Thornfield for a year to
come; he had not unfrequently quitted it in a manner quite as abrupt
and unexpected. When I heard this, I was beginning to feel a strange
chill and failing at the heart. I was actually permitting myself to
experience a sickening sense of disappointment; but rallying my wits,
and recollecting my principles, I at once called my sensations to
order; and it was wonderful how I got over the temporary blunder—how I
cleared up the mistake of supposing Mr. Rochester’s movements a matter
in which I had any cause to take a vital interest. Not that I humbled
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myself by a slavish notion of inferiority: on the contrary, I just
said—</p>

<p>“You have nothing to do with the master of Thornfield, further than to
receive the salary he gives you for teaching his protégée, and to be
grateful for such respectful and kind treatment as, if you do your
duty, you have a right to expect at his hands. Be sure that is the only
tie he seriously acknowledges between you and him; so don’t make him
the object of your fine feelings, your raptures, agonies, and so forth.
He is not of your order: keep to your caste, and be too self-respecting
to lavish the love of the whole heart, soul, and strength, where such a
gift is not wanted and would be despised.”</p>

<p>I went on with my day’s business tranquilly; but ever and anon vague
suggestions kept wandering across my brain of reasons why I should quit
Thornfield; and I kept involuntarily framing advertisements and
pondering conjectures about new situations: these thoughts I did not
think to check; they might germinate and bear fruit if they could.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester had been absent upwards of a fortnight, when the post
brought Mrs. Fairfax a letter.</p>

<p>“It is from the master,” said she, as she 
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    looked at the direction. “Now
I suppose we shall know whether we are to expect his return or not.”</p>

<p>And while she broke the seal and perused the document, I went on taking
my coffee (we were at breakfast): it was hot, and I attributed to that
circumstance a fiery glow which suddenly rose to my face. Why my hand
shook, and why I involuntarily spilt half the contents of my cup into
my saucer, I did not choose to consider.</p>

<p>“Well, I sometimes think we are too quiet; but we run a chance of being
busy enough now: for a little while at least,” said Mrs. Fairfax, still
holding the note before her spectacles.</p>

<p>Ere I permitted myself to request an explanation, I tied the string of
Adèle’s pinafore, which happened to be loose: having helped her also to
another bun and refilled her mug with milk, I said, nonchalantly—</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester is not likely to return soon, I suppose?”</p>

<p>“Indeed he is—in three days, he says: that will be next Thursday; and
not alone either. I don’t know how many of the fine people at the Leas
are coming with him: he sends directions for all the best bedrooms to
be 
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prepared; and the library and drawing-rooms are to be cleaned out; I
am to get more kitchen hands from the George Inn, at Millcote, and from
wherever else I can; and the ladies will bring their maids and the
gentlemen their valets: so we shall have a full house of it.” And Mrs.
Fairfax swallowed her breakfast and hastened away to commence
operations.</p>

<p>The three days were, as she had foretold, busy enough. I had thought
all the rooms at Thornfield beautifully clean and well arranged; but it
appears I was mistaken. Three women were got to help; and such
scrubbing, such brushing, such washing of paint and beating of carpets,
such taking down and putting up of pictures, such polishing of mirrors
and lustres, such lighting of fires in bedrooms, such airing of sheets
and feather-beds on hearths, I never beheld, either before or since.
Adèle ran quite wild in the midst of it: the preparations for company
and the prospect of their arrival, seemed to throw her into ecstasies.
She would have Sophie to look over all her “toilettes,” as she called
frocks; to furbish up any that were “<hi rend="italic">passées</hi>,” and to air and arrange
the new. For herself, she did nothing but caper about in the front
chambers, 
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jump on and off the bedsteads, and lie on the mattresses and
piled-up bolsters and pillows before the enormous fires roaring in the
chimneys. From school duties she was exonerated: Mrs. Fairfax had
pressed me into her service, and I was all day in the storeroom,
helping (or hindering) her and the cook; learning to make custards and
cheese-cakes and French pastry, to truss game and garnish
dessert-dishes.</p>

<p>The party were expected to arrive on Thursday afternoon, in time for
dinner at six. During the intervening period I had no time to nurse
chimeras; and I believe I was as active and gay as anybody—Adèle
excepted. Still, now and then, I received a damping check to my
cheerfulness; and was, in spite of myself, thrown back on the region of
doubts and portents, and dark conjectures. This was when I chanced to
see the third-storey staircase door (which of late had always been kept
locked) open slowly, and give passage to the form of Grace Poole, in
prim cap, white apron, and handkerchief; when I watched her glide along
the gallery, her quiet tread muffled in a list slipper; when I saw her
look into the bustling, topsy-turvy bedrooms,—just say a word, perhaps,
to the charwoman about the
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proper way to polish a grate, or clean a
marble mantelpiece, or take stains from papered walls, and then pass
on. She would thus descend to the kitchen once a day, eat her dinner,
smoke a moderate pipe on the hearth, and go back, carrying her pot of
porter with her, for her private solace, in her own gloomy, upper
haunt. Only one hour in the twenty-four did she pass with her
fellow-servants below; all the rest of her time was spent in some
low-ceiled, oaken chamber of the second storey: there she sat and
sewed—and probably laughed drearily to herself,—as companionless as a
prisoner in his dungeon.</p>

<p>The strangest thing of all was, that not a soul in the house, except
me, noticed her habits, or seemed to marvel at them: no one discussed
her position or employment; no one pitied her solitude or isolation. I
once, indeed, overheard part of a dialogue between Leah and one of the
charwomen, of which Grace formed the subject. Leah had been saying
something I had not caught, and the charwoman remarked—</p>

<p>“She gets good wages, I guess?”</p>

<p>“Yes,” said Leah; “I wish I had as good; not that mine are to complain
of,—there’s no stinginess at Thornfield; but they’re not one 
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fifth of
the sum Mrs. Poole receives. And she is laying by: she goes every
quarter to the bank at Millcote. I should not wonder but she has saved
enough to keep her independent if she liked to leave; but I suppose
she’s got used to the place; and then she’s not forty yet, and strong
and able for anything. It is too soon for her to give up business.”</p>

<p>“She is a good hand, I daresay,” said the charwoman.</p>

<p>“Ah!—she understands what she has to do,—nobody better,” rejoined Leah
significantly; “and it is not every one could fill her shoes—not for
all the money she gets.”</p>

<p>“That it is not!” was the reply. “I wonder whether the master—”</p>

<p>The charwoman was going on; but here Leah turned and perceived me, and
she instantly gave her companion a nudge.</p>

<p>“Doesn’t she know?” I heard the woman whisper.</p>

<p>Leah shook her head, and the conversation was of course dropped. All I
had gathered from it amounted to this,—that there was a mystery at
Thornfield; and that from participation in that mystery I was purposely
excluded.</p>

<p>Thursday came: all work had been completed the previous evening;
carpets were laid 
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down, bed-hangings festooned, radiant white
counterpanes spread, toilet tables arranged, furniture rubbed, flowers
piled in vases: both chambers and saloons looked as fresh and bright as
hands could make them. The hall, too, was scoured; and the great carved
clock, as well as the steps and banisters of the staircase, were
polished to the brightness of glass; in the dining-room, the sideboard
flashed resplendent with plate; in the drawing-room and boudoir, vases
of exotics bloomed on all sides.</p>

<p>Afternoon arrived: Mrs. Fairfax assumed her best black satin gown, her
gloves, and her gold watch; for it was her part to receive the
company,—to conduct the ladies to their rooms, &amp;c. Adèle, too, would be
dressed: though I thought she had little chance of being introduced to
the party that day at least. However, to please her, I allowed Sophie
to apparel her in one of her short, full muslin frocks. For myself, I
had no need to make any change; I should not be called upon to quit my
sanctum of the schoolroom; for a sanctum it was now become to me,—“a
very pleasant refuge in time of trouble.”</p>

<p>It had been a mild, serene spring day—one of those days which, towards
the end of March or the beginning of April, rise shining over 
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the earth
as heralds of summer. It was drawing to an end now; but the evening was
even warm, and I sat at work in the schoolroom with the window open.</p>

<p>“It gets late,” said Mrs. Fairfax, entering in rustling state. “I am
glad I ordered dinner an hour after the time Mr. Rochester mentioned;
for it is past six now. I have sent John down to the gates to see if
there is anything on the road: one can see a long way from thence in
the direction of Millcote.” She went to the window. “Here he is!” said
she. “Well, John” (leaning out), “any news?”</p>

<p>“They’re coming, ma’am,” was the answer. “They’ll be here in ten
minutes.”</p>

<p>Adèle flew to the window. I followed, taking care to stand on one side,
so that, screened by the curtain, I could see without being seen.</p>

<p>The ten minutes John had given seemed very long, but at last wheels
were heard; four equestrians galloped up the drive, and after them came
two open carriages. Fluttering veils and waving plumes filled the
vehicles; two of the cavaliers were young, dashing-looking gentlemen;
the third was Mr. Rochester, on his black horse, Mesrour, Pilot
bounding before him; at his side rode a lady, and he and she were the
first of the party. Her purple 
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riding-habit almost swept the ground,
her veil streamed long on the breeze; mingling with its transparent
folds, and gleaming through them, shone rich raven ringlets.</p>

<p>“Miss Ingram!” exclaimed Mrs. Fairfax, and away she hurried to her post
below.</p>

<p>The cavalcade, following the sweep of the drive, quickly turned the
angle of the house, and I lost sight of it. Adèle now petitioned to go
down; but I took her on my knee, and gave her to understand that she
must not on any account think of venturing in sight of the ladies,
either now or at any other time, unless expressly sent for: that Mr.
Rochester would be very angry, &amp;c. “Some natural tears she shed” on
being told this; but as I began to look very grave, she consented at
last to wipe them.</p>

<p>A joyous stir was now audible in the hall: gentlemen’s deep tones and
ladies’ silvery accents blent harmoniously together, and
distinguishable above all, though not loud, was the sonorous voice of
the master of Thornfield Hall, welcoming his fair and gallant guests
under its roof. Then light steps ascended the stairs; and there was a
tripping through the gallery, and soft cheerful laughs, and opening and
closing doors, and, for a time, a hush.</p>
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<p>“Elles changent de toilettes,” said Adèle; who, listening attentively,
had followed every movement; and she sighed.</p>

<p>“Chez maman,” said she, “quand il y avait du monde, je le suivais
partout, au salon et à leurs chambres; souvent je regardais les femmes
de chambre coiffer et habiller les dames, et c’était si amusant: comme
cela on apprend.”</p>

<p>“Don’t you feel hungry, Adèle?”</p>

<p>“Mais oui, mademoiselle: voilà cinq ou six heures que nous n’avons pas
mangé.”</p>

<p>“Well now, while the ladies are in their rooms, I will venture down and
get you something to eat.”</p>

<p>And issuing from my asylum with precaution, I sought a back-stairs
which conducted directly to the kitchen. All in that region was fire
and commotion; the soup and fish were in the last stage of projection,
and the cook hung over her crucibles in a frame of mind and body
threatening spontaneous combustion. In the servants’ hall two coachmen
and three gentlemen’s gentlemen stood or sat round the fire; the
Abigails, I suppose, were upstairs with their mistresses; the new
servants, that had been hired from Millcote, were bustling about
everywhere. Threading this chaos, I at last reached the larder; there I
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took possession of a cold chicken, a roll of bread, some tarts, a plate
or two and a knife and fork: with this booty I made a hasty retreat. I
had regained the gallery, and was just shutting the back-door behind
me, when an accelerated hum warned me that the ladies were about to
issue from their chambers. I could not proceed to the schoolroom
without passing some of their doors, and running the risk of being
surprised with my cargo of victualage; so I stood still at this end,
which, being windowless, was dark: quite dark now, for the sun was set
and twilight gathering.</p>

<p>Presently the chambers gave up their fair tenants one after another:
each came out gaily and airily, with dress that gleamed lustrous
through the dusk. For a moment they stood grouped together at the other
extremity of the gallery, conversing in a key of sweet subdued
vivacity: they then descended the staircase almost as noiselessly as a
bright mist rolls down a hill. Their collective appearance had left on
me an impression of high-born elegance, such as I had never before
received.</p>

<p>I found Adèle peeping through the schoolroom door, which she held ajar.
“What beautiful ladies!” cried she in English. “Oh, I wish I might go
to them! Do you think Mr. 
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Rochester will send for us by-and-by, after
dinner?”</p>

<p>“No, indeed, I don’t; Mr. Rochester has something else to think about.
Never mind the ladies to-night; perhaps you will see them to-morrow:
here is your dinner.”</p>

<p>She was really hungry, so the chicken and tarts served to divert her
attention for a time. It was well I secured this forage, or both she,
I, and Sophie, to whom I conveyed a share of our repast, would have run
a chance of getting no dinner at all: every one downstairs was too much
engaged to think of us. The dessert was not carried out till after
nine; and at ten footmen were still running to and fro with trays and
coffee-cups. I allowed Adèle to sit up much later than usual; for she
declared she could not possibly go to sleep while the doors kept
opening and shutting below, and people bustling about. Besides, she
added, a message might possibly come from Mr. Rochester when she was
undressed; “et alors quel dommage!”</p>

<p>I told her stories as long as she would listen to them; and then for a
change I took her out into the gallery. The hall lamp was now lit, and
it amused her to look over the balustrade and watch the servants
passing backwards and 
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forwards. When the evening was far advanced, a
sound of music issued from the drawing-room, whither the piano had been
removed; Adèle and I sat down on the top step of the stairs to listen.
Presently a voice blent with the rich tones of the instrument; it was a
lady who sang, and very sweet her notes were. The solo over, a duet
followed, and then a glee: a joyous conversational murmur filled up the
intervals. I listened long: suddenly I discovered that my ear was
wholly intent on analysing the mingled sounds, and trying to
discriminate amidst the confusion of accents those of Mr. Rochester;
and when it caught them, which it soon did, it found a further task in
framing the tones, rendered by distance inarticulate, into words.</p>

<p>The clock struck eleven. I looked at Adèle, whose head leant against my
shoulder; her eyes were waxing heavy, so I took her up in my arms and
carried her off to bed. It was near one before the gentlemen and ladies
sought their chambers.</p>

<p>The next day was as fine as its predecessor: it was devoted by the
party to an excursion to some site in the neighbourhood. They set out
early in the forenoon, some on horseback, the rest in carriages; I
witnessed both the depar
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ture and the return. Miss Ingram, as before,
was the only lady equestrian; and, as before, Mr. Rochester galloped at
her side; the two rode a little apart from the rest. I pointed out this
circumstance to Mrs. Fairfax, who was standing at the window with me—</p>

<p>“You said it was not likely they should think of being married,” said
I, “but you see Mr. Rochester evidently prefers her to any of the other
ladies.”</p>

<p>“Yes, I daresay: no doubt he admires her.”</p>

<p>“And she him,” I added; “look how she leans her head towards him as if
she were conversing confidentially; I wish I could see her face; I have
never had a glimpse of it yet.”</p>

<p>“You will see her this evening,” answered Mrs. Fairfax. “I happened to
remark to Mr. Rochester how much Adèle wished to be introduced to the
ladies, and he said: ‘Oh! let her come into the drawing-room after
dinner; and request Miss Eyre to accompany her.’”</p>

<p>“Yes; he said that from mere politeness: I need not go, I am sure,” I
answered.</p>

<p>“Well, I observed to him that as you were unused to company, I did not
think you
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would like appearing before so gay a party—all strangers; and
he replied, in his quick way—‘Nonsense! If she objects, tell her it is
my particular wish; and if she resists, say I shall come and fetch her
in case of contumacy.’”</p>

<p>“I will not give him that trouble,” I answered. “I will go, if no
better may be; but I don’t like it. Shall you be there, Mrs. Fairfax?”</p>

<p>“No; I pleaded off, and he admitted my plea. I’ll tell you how to
manage so as to avoid the embarrassment of making a formal entrance,
which is the most disagreeable part of the business. You must go into
the drawing-room while it is empty, before the ladies leave the
dinner-table; choose your seat in any quiet nook you like; you need not
stay long after the gentlemen come in, unless you please: just let Mr.
Rochester see you are there and then slip away—nobody will notice you.”</p>

<p>“Will these people remain long, do you think?”</p>

<p>“Perhaps two or three weeks, certainly not more. After the Easter
recess, Sir George Lynn, who was lately elected member for Millcote,
will have to go up to town and take his seat; I daresay Mr. Rochester
will accompany him: it surprises me that he has 
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already made so
protracted a stay at Thornfield.”</p>

<p>It was with some trepidation that I perceived the hour approach when I
was to repair with my charge to the drawing-room. Adèle had been in a
state of ecstasy all day, after hearing she was to be presented to the
ladies in the evening; and it was not till Sophie commenced the
operation of dressing her that she sobered down. Then the importance of
the process quickly steadied her, and by the time she had her curls
arranged in well-smoothed, drooping clusters, her pink satin frock put
on, her long sash tied, and her lace mittens adjusted, she looked as
grave as any judge. No need to warn her not to disarrange her attire:
when she was dressed, she sat demurely down in her little chair, taking
care previously to lift up the satin skirt for fear she should crease
it, and assured me she would not stir thence till I was ready. This I
quickly was: my best dress (the silver-grey one, purchased for Miss
Temple’s wedding, and never worn since) was soon put on; my hair was
soon smoothed; my sole ornament, the pearl brooch, soon assumed. We
descended.</p>

<p>Fortunately there was another entrance to the drawing-room than that
through the saloon
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where they were all seated at dinner. We found the
apartment vacant; a large fire burning silently on the marble hearth,
and wax candles shining in bright solitude, amid the exquisite flowers
with which the tables were adorned. The crimson curtain hung before the
arch: slight as was the separation this drapery formed from the party
in the adjoining saloon, they spoke in so low a key that nothing of
their conversation could be distinguished beyond a soothing murmur.</p>

<p>Adèle, who appeared to be still under the influence of a most
solemnising impression, sat down, without a word, on the footstool I
pointed out to her. I retired to a window-seat, and taking a book from
a table near, endeavoured to read. Adèle brought her stool to my feet;
ere long she touched my knee.</p>

<p>“What is it, Adèle?”</p>

<p>“Est-ce que je ne puis pas prendre une seule de ces fleurs magnifiques,
mademoiselle? Seulement pour completer ma toilette.”</p>

<p>“You think too much of your ‘toilette,’ Adèle: but you may have a
flower.” And I took a rose from a vase and fastened it in her sash. She
sighed a sigh of ineffable satisfaction, as if her cup of happiness
were now full. I turned my face away to conceal a smile I 
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could not
suppress: there was something ludicrous as well as painful in the
little Parisienne’s earnest and innate devotion to matters of dress.</p>

<p>A soft sound of rising now became audible; the curtain was swept back
from the arch; through it appeared the dining-room, with its lit lustre
pouring down light on the silver and glass of a magnificent
dessert-service covering a long table; a band of ladies stood in the
opening; they entered, and the curtain fell behind them.</p>

<p>There were but eight; yet, somehow, as they flocked in, they gave the
impression of a much larger number. Some of them were very tall; many
were dressed in white; and all had a sweeping amplitude of array that
seemed to magnify their persons as a mist magnifies the moon. I rose
and curtseyed to them: one or two bent their heads in return, the
others only stared at me.</p>

<p>They dispersed about the room, reminding me, by the lightness and
buoyancy of their movements, of a flock of white plumy birds. Some of
them threw themselves in half-reclining positions on the sofas and
ottomans: some bent over the tables and examined the flowers and books:
the rest gathered in a group round the fire: all talked in a low but
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clear tone which seemed habitual to them. I knew their names
afterwards, and may as well mention them now.</p>

<p>First, there was Mrs. Eshton and two of her daughters. She had
evidently been a handsome woman, and was well preserved still. Of her
daughters, the eldest, Amy, was rather little: naïve, and child-like in
face and manner, and piquant in form; her white muslin dress and blue
sash became her well. The second, Louisa, was taller and more elegant
in figure; with a very pretty face, of that order the French term
<hi rend="italic">minois chiffoné</hi>: both sisters were fair as lilies.</p>

<p>Lady Lynn was a large and stout personage of about forty, very erect,
very haughty-looking, richly dressed in a satin robe of changeful
sheen: her dark hair shone glossily under the shade of an azure plume,
and within the circlet of a band of gems.</p>

<p>Mrs. Colonel Dent was less showy; but, I thought, more lady-like. She
had a slight figure, a pale, gentle face, and fair hair. Her black
satin dress, her scarf of rich foreign lace, and her pearl ornaments,
pleased me better than the rainbow radiance of the titled dame.</p>

<p>But the three most distinguished—partly, 
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    perhaps, because the tallest
figures of the band—were the Dowager Lady Ingram and her daughters,
Blanche and Mary. They were all three of the loftiest stature of women.
The Dowager might be between forty and fifty: her shape was still fine;
her hair (by candle-light at least) still black; her teeth, too, were
still apparently perfect. Most people would have termed her a splendid
woman of her age: and so she was, no doubt, physically speaking; but
then there was an expression of almost insupportable haughtiness in her
bearing and countenance. She had Roman features and a double chin,
disappearing into a throat like a pillar: these features appeared to me
not only inflated and darkened, but even furrowed with pride; and the
chin was sustained by the same principle, in a position of almost
preternatural erectness. She had, likewise, a fierce and a hard eye: it
reminded me of Mrs. Reed’s; she mouthed her words in speaking; her
voice was deep, its inflections very pompous, very dogmatical,—very
intolerable, in short. A crimson velvet robe, and a shawl turban of
some gold-wrought Indian fabric, invested her (I suppose she thought)
with a truly imperial dignity.</p>

<p>Blanche and Mary were of equal stature,—
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    straight and tall as poplars.
Mary was too slim for her height, but Blanche was moulded like a Dian.
I regarded her, of course, with special interest. First, I wished to
see whether her appearance accorded with Mrs. Fairfax’s description;
secondly, whether it at all resembled the fancy miniature I had painted
of her; and thirdly—it will out!—whether it were such as I should fancy
likely to suit Mr. Rochester’s taste.</p>

<p>As far as person went, she answered point for point, both to my picture
and Mrs. Fairfax’s description. The noble bust, the sloping shoulders,
the graceful neck, the dark eyes and black ringlets were all there;—but
her face? Her face was like her mother’s; a youthful unfurrowed
likeness: the same low brow, the same high features, the same pride. It
was not, however, so saturnine a pride! she laughed continually; her
laugh was satirical, and so was the habitual expression of her arched
and haughty lip.</p>

<p>Genius is said to be self-conscious. I cannot tell whether Miss Ingram
was a genius, but she was self-conscious—remarkably self-conscious
indeed. She entered into a discourse on botany with the gentle Mrs.
Dent. It seemed Mrs. Dent had not studied that science: 
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though, as she
said, she liked flowers, “especially wild ones;” Miss Ingram had, and
she ran over its vocabulary with an air. I presently perceived she was
(what is vernacularly termed) <hi rend="italic">trailing</hi> Mrs. Dent; that is, playing on
her ignorance; her <hi rend="italic">trail</hi> might be clever, but it was decidedly not
good-natured. She played: her execution was brilliant; she sang: her
voice was fine; she talked French apart to her mamma; and she talked it
well, with fluency and with a good accent.</p>

<p>Mary had a milder and more open countenance than Blanche; softer
features too, and a skin some shades fairer (Miss Ingram was dark as a
Spaniard)—but Mary was deficient in life: her face lacked expression,
her eye lustre; she had nothing to say, and having once taken her seat,
remained fixed like a statue in its niche. The sisters were both
attired in spotless white.</p>

<p>And did I now think Miss Ingram such a choice as Mr. Rochester would be
likely to make? I could not tell—I did not know his taste in female
beauty. If he liked the majestic, she was the very type of majesty:
then she was accomplished, sprightly. Most gentlemen would admire her,
I thought; and that he <hi rend="italic">did</hi> admire her, I already seemed to have
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obtained proof: to remove the last shade of doubt, it remained but to
see them together.</p>

<p>You are not to suppose, reader, that Adèle has all this time been
sitting motionless on the stool at my feet: no; when the ladies
entered, she rose, advanced to meet them, made a stately reverence, and
said with gravity—</p>

<p>“Bon jour, mesdames.”</p>

<p>And Miss Ingram had looked down at her with a mocking air, and
exclaimed, “Oh, what a little puppet!”</p>

<p>Lady Lynn had remarked, “It is Mr. Rochester’s ward, I suppose—the
little French girl he was speaking of.”</p>

<p>Mrs. Dent had kindly taken her hand, and given her a kiss. Amy and
Louisa Eshton had cried out simultaneously—</p>

<p>“What a love of a child!”</p>

<p>And then they had called her to a sofa, where she now sat, ensconced
between them, chattering alternately in French and broken English;
absorbing not only the young ladies’ attention, but that of Mrs. Eshton
and Lady Lynn, and getting spoilt to her heart’s content.</p>

<p>At last coffee is brought in, and the gentlemen are summoned. I sit in
the shade—if any shade there be in this brilliantly-lit apartment; 
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the
window-curtain half hides me. Again the arch yawns; they come. The
collective appearance of the gentlemen, like that of the ladies, is
very imposing: they are all costumed in black; most of them are tall,
some young. Henry and Frederick Lynn are very dashing sparks indeed;
and Colonel Dent is a fine soldierly man. Mr. Eshton, the magistrate of
the district, is gentleman-like: his hair is quite white, his eyebrows
and whiskers still dark, which gives him something of the appearance of
a “père noble de théâtre.” Lord Ingram, like his sisters, is very tall;
like them, also, he is handsome; but he shares Mary’s apathetic and
listless look: he seems to have more length of limb than vivacity of
blood or vigour of brain.</p>

<p>And where is Mr. Rochester?</p>

<p>He comes in last: I am not looking at the arch, yet I see him enter. I
try to concentrate my attention on those netting-needles, on the meshes
of the purse I am forming—I wish to think only of the work I have in my
hands, to see only the silver beads and silk threads that lie in my
lap; whereas, I distinctly behold his figure, and I inevitably recall
the moment when I last saw it; just after I had rendered him, what he
deemed, an essential service, and 
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he, holding my hand, and looking down
on my face, surveyed me with eyes that revealed a heart full and eager
to overflow; in whose emotions I had a part. How near had I approached
him at that moment! What had occurred since, calculated to change his
and my relative positions? Yet now, how distant, how far estranged we
were! So far estranged, that I did not expect him to come and speak to
me. I did not wonder, when, without looking at me, he took a seat at
the other side of the room, and began conversing with some of the
ladies.</p>

<p>No sooner did I see that his attention was riveted on them, and that I
might gaze without being observed, than my eyes were drawn
involuntarily to his face; I could not keep their lids under control:
they would rise, and the irids would fix on him. I looked, and had an
acute pleasure in looking,—a precious yet poignant pleasure; pure gold,
with a steely point of agony: a pleasure like what the thirst-perishing
man might feel who knows the well to which he has crept is poisoned,
yet stoops and drinks divine draughts nevertheless.</p>

<p>Most true is it that “beauty is in the eye of the gazer.” My master’s
colourless, olive face, square, massive brow, broad and jetty 
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eyebrows,
deep eyes, strong features, firm, grim mouth,—all energy, decision,
will,—were not beautiful, according to rule; but they were more than
beautiful to me; they were full of an interest, an influence that quite
mastered me,—that took my feelings from my own power and fettered them
in his. I had not intended to love him; the reader knows I had wrought
hard to extirpate from my soul the germs of love there detected; and
now, at the first renewed view of him, they spontaneously arrived,
green and strong! He made me love him without looking at me.</p>

<p>I compared him with his guests. What was the gallant grace of the
Lynns, the languid elegance of Lord Ingram,—even the military
distinction of Colonel Dent, contrasted with his look of native pith
and genuine power? I had no sympathy in their appearance, their
expression: yet I could imagine that most observers would call them
attractive, handsome, imposing; while they would pronounce Mr.
Rochester at once harsh-featured and melancholy-looking. I saw them
smile, laugh—it was nothing; the light of the candles had as much soul
in it as their smile; the tinkle of the bell as much significance as
their laugh. I saw Mr. Rochester smile:—his stern features 
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softened;
his eye grew both brilliant and gentle, its ray both searching and
sweet. He was talking, at the moment, to Louisa and Amy Eshton. I
wondered to see them receive with calm that look which seemed to me so
penetrating: I expected their eyes to fall, their colour to rise under
it; yet I was glad when I found they were in no sense moved. “He is not
to them what he is to me,” I thought: “he is not of their kind. I
believe he is of mine;—I am sure he is—I feel akin to him—I understand
the language of his countenance and movements: though rank and wealth
sever us widely, I have something in my brain and heart, in my blood
and nerves, that assimilates me mentally to him. Did I say, a few days
since, that I had nothing to do with him but to receive my salary at
his hands? Did I forbid myself to think of him in any other light than
as a paymaster? Blasphemy against nature! Every good, true, vigorous
feeling I have gathers impulsively round him. I know I must conceal my
sentiments: I must smother hope; I must remember that he cannot care
much for me. For when I say that I am of his kind, I do not mean that I
have his force to influence, and his spell to attract; I mean only that
I have certain tastes and 
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feelings in common with him. I must, then,
repeat continually that we are for ever sundered:—and yet, while I
breathe and think, I must love him.”</p>

<p>Coffee is handed. The ladies, since the gentlemen entered, have become
lively as larks; conversation waxes brisk and merry. Colonel Dent and
Mr. Eshton argue on politics; their wives listen. The two proud
dowagers, Lady Lynn and Lady Ingram, confabulate together. Sir
George—whom, by-the-bye, I have forgotten to describe,—a very big, and
very fresh-looking country gentleman, stands before their sofa,
coffee-cup in hand, and occasionally puts in a word. Mr. Frederick Lynn
has taken a seat beside Mary Ingram, and is showing her the engravings
of a splendid volume: she looks, smiles now and then, but apparently
says little. The tall and phlegmatic Lord Ingram leans with folded arms
on the chair-back of the little and lively Amy Eshton; she glances up
at him, and chatters like a wren: she likes him better than she does
Mr. Rochester. Henry Lynn has taken possession of an ottoman at the
feet of Louisa: Adèle shares it with him: he is trying to talk French
with her, and Louisa laughs at his blunders. With whom will Blanche
Ingram 
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pair? She is standing alone at the table, bending gracefully
over an album. She seems waiting to be sought; but she will not wait
too long: she herself selects a mate.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester, having quitted the Eshtons, stands on the hearth as
solitary as she stands by the table: she confronts him, taking her
station on the opposite side of the mantelpiece.</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, I thought you were not fond of children?”</p>

<p>“Nor am I.”</p>

<p>“Then, what induced you to take charge of such a little doll as that?”
(pointing to Adèle). “Where did you pick her up?”</p>

<p>“I did not pick her up; she was left on my hands.”</p>

<p>"You should have sent her to school.”</p>

<p>“I could not afford it: schools are so dear.”</p>

<p>“Why, I suppose you have a governess for her: I saw a person with her
just now—is she gone? Oh, no! there she is still, behind the
window-curtain. You pay her, of course; I should think it quite as
expensive,—more so; for you have them both to keep in addition.”</p>

<p>I feared—or should I say, hoped?—the allusion to me would make Mr.
Rochester glance 
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my way; and I involuntarily shrank farther into the
shade: but he never turned his eyes.</p>

<p>“I have not considered the subject,” said he indifferently, looking
straight before him.</p>

<p>“No, you men never do consider economy and common sense. You should
hear mama on the chapter of governesses: Mary and I have had, I should
think, a dozen at least in our day; half of them detestable and the
rest ridiculous, and all incubi—were they not, mama?”</p>

<p>“Did you speak, my own?”</p>

<p>The young lady thus claimed as the dowager’s special property,
reiterated her question with an explanation.</p>

<p>“My dearest, don’t mention governesses; the word makes me nervous. I
have suffered a martyrdom from their incompetency and caprice. I thank
Heaven I have now done with them!”</p>

<p>Mrs. Dent here bent over to the pious lady and whispered something in
her ear; I suppose, from the answer elicited, it was a reminder that
one of the anathematised race was present.</p>

<p>“Tant pis!” said her Ladyship, “I hope it may do her good!” Then, in a
lower tone, but still loud enough for me to hear, “I 
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noticed her; I am
a judge of physiognomy, and in hers I see all the faults of her class.”</p>

<p>“What are they, madam?” inquired Mr. Rochester aloud.</p>

<p>“I will tell you in your private ear,” replied she, wagging her turban
three times with portentous significancy.</p>

<p>“But my curiosity will be past its appetite; it craves food now.”</p>

<p>"Ask Blanche; she is nearer you than I.”</p>

<p>“Oh, don’t refer him to me, mama! I have just one word to say of the
whole tribe; they are a nuisance. Not that I ever suffered much from
them; I took care to turn the tables. What tricks Theodore and I used
to play on our Miss Wilsons, and Mrs. Greys, and Madame Jouberts! Mary
was always too sleepy to join in a plot with spirit. The best fun was
with Madame Joubert: Miss Wilson was a poor sickly thing, lachrymose
and low-spirited, not worth the trouble of vanquishing, in short; and
Mrs. Grey was coarse and insensible; no blow took effect on her. But
poor Madame Joubert! I see her yet in her raging passions, when we had
driven her to extremities—spilt our tea, crumbled our bread and butter,
tossed our books up to the ceiling, and played a charivari with the
ruler and desk, the fender and 
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fire-irons. Theodore, do you remember
those merry days?”</p>

<p>“Yaas, to be sure I do,” drawled Lord Ingram; “and the poor old stick
used to cry out, ‘Oh you villains childs!’—and then we sermonised her on
the presumption of attempting to teach such clever blades as we were,
when she was herself so ignorant.”</p>

<p>“We did; and, Tedo, you know, I helped you in prosecuting (or
persecuting) your tutor, whey-faced Mr. Vining—the parson in the pip,
as we used to call him. He and Miss Wilson took the liberty of falling
in love with each other—at least Tedo and I thought so; we surprised
sundry tender glances and sighs which we interpreted as tokens of ‘la
belle passion,’ and I promise you the public soon had the benefit of
our discovery; we employed it as a sort of lever to hoist our
dead-weights from the house. Dear mama, there, as soon as she got an
inkling of the business, found out that it was of an immoral tendency.
Did you not, my lady-mother?”</p>

<p>“Certainly, my best. And I was quite right: depend on that: there are a
thousand reasons why liaisons between governesses and tutors should
never be tolerated a moment in any well-regulated house; firstly—”</p>
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<p>“Oh, gracious, mama! Spare us the enumeration! <hi rend="italic">Au reste</hi>, we all know
them: danger of bad example to innocence of childhood; distractions and
consequent neglect of duty on the part of the attached—mutual alliance
and reliance; confidence thence resulting—insolence accompanying—mutiny
and general blow-up. Am I right, Baroness Ingram, of Ingram Park?”</p>

<p>“My lily-flower, you are right now, as always.”</p>

<p>“Then no more need be said: change the subject.”</p>

<p>Amy Eshton, not hearing or not heeding this dictum, joined in with her
soft, infantine tone: “Louisa and I used to quiz our governess too; but
she was such a good creature, she would bear anything: nothing put her
out. She was never cross with us; was she, Louisa?”</p>

<p>“No, never: we might do what we pleased; ransack her desk and her
workbox, and turn her drawers inside out; and she was so good-natured,
she would give us anything we asked for.”</p>

<p>“I suppose, now,” said Miss Ingram, curling her lip sarcastically, “we
shall have an abstract of the memoirs of all the governesses extant: in
order to avert such a visitation, I 
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again move the introduction of a
new topic. Mr. Rochester, do you second my motion?”</p>

<p>“Madam, I support you on this point, as on every other.”</p>

<p>“Then on me be the onus of bringing it forward. Signior Eduardo, are
you in voice to-night?”</p>

<p>“Donna Bianca, if you command it, I will be.”</p>

<p>“Then, signior, I lay on you my sovereign behest to furbish up your
lungs and other vocal organs, as they will be wanted on my royal
service.”</p>

<p>“Who would not be the Rizzio of so divine a Mary?”</p>

<p>“A fig for Rizzio!” cried she, tossing her head with all its curls, as
she moved to the piano. “It is my opinion the fiddler David must have
been an insipid sort of fellow; I like black Bothwell better: to my
mind a man is nothing without a spice of the devil in him; and history
may say what it will of James Hepburn, but I have a notion, he was just
the sort of wild, fierce, bandit hero whom I could have consented to
gift with my hand.”</p>

<p>“Gentlemen, you hear! Now which of you most resembles Bothwell?” cried
Mr. Rochester.</p>
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<p>“I should say the preference lies with you,” responded Colonel Dent.</p>

<p>“On my honour, I am much obliged to you,” was the reply.</p>

<p>Miss Ingram, who had now seated herself with proud grace at the piano,
spreading out her snowy robes in queenly amplitude, commenced a
brilliant prelude; talking meantime. She appeared to be on her high
horse to-night; both her words and her air seemed intended to excite
not only the admiration, but the amazement of her auditors: she was
evidently bent on striking them as something very dashing and daring
indeed.</p>

<p>“Oh, I am so sick of the young men of the present day!” exclaimed she,
rattling away at the instrument. “Poor, puny things, not fit to stir a
step beyond papa’s park gates: nor to go even so far without mama’s
permission and guardianship! Creatures so absorbed in care about their
pretty faces, and their white hands, and their small feet; as if a man
had anything to do with beauty! As if loveliness were not the special
prerogative of woman—her legitimate appanage and heritage! I grant an
ugly <hi rend="italic">woman</hi> is a blot on the fair face of creation; but as to the
<hi rend="italic">gentlemen</hi>, let them be solicitous to possess only strength and
valour: let 
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their motto be:—Hunt, shoot, and fight: the rest is not
worth a fillip. Such should be my device, were I a man.”</p>

<p>“Whenever I marry,” she continued after a pause which none interrupted,
“I am resolved my husband shall not be a rival, but a foil to me. I
will suffer no competitor near the throne; I shall exact an undivided
homage: his devotions shall not be shared between me and the shape he
sees in his mirror. Mr. Rochester, now sing, and I will play for you.”</p>

<p>“I am all obedience,” was the response.</p>

<p>“Here then is a Corsair-song. Know that I doat on Corsairs; and for
that reason, sing it <hi rend="italic">con spirito</hi>.”</p>

<p>“Commands from Miss Ingram’s lips would put spirit into a mug of milk
and water.”</p>

<p>"Take care, then: if you don’t please me, I will shame you by showing
how such things <hi rend="italic">should</hi> be done.”</p>

<p>“That is offering a premium on incapacity: I shall now endeavour to
fail.”</p>

<p>“Gardez-vous en bien! If you err wilfully, I shall devise a
proportionate punishment.”</p>

<p>“Miss Ingram ought to be clement, for she has it in her power to
inflict a chastisement beyond mortal endurance.”</p>

<p>“Ha! explain!” commanded the lady.</p>
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<p>“Pardon me, madam: no need of explanation; your own fine sense must
inform you that one of your frowns would be a sufficient substitute for
capital punishment.”</p>

<p>“Sing!” said she, and again touching the piano, she commenced an
accompaniment in spirited style.</p>

<p>“Now is my time to slip away,” thought I: but the tones that then
severed the air arrested me. Mrs. Fairfax had said Mr. Rochester
possessed a fine voice: he did—a mellow, powerful bass, into which he
threw his own feeling, his own force; finding a way through the ear to
the heart, and there waking sensation strangely. I waited till the last
deep and full vibration had expired—till the tide of talk, checked an
instant, had resumed its flow; I then quitted my sheltered corner and
made my exit by the side-door, which was fortunately near. Thence a
narrow passage led into the hall: in crossing it, I perceived my sandal
was loose; I stopped to tie it, kneeling down for that purpose on the
mat at the foot of the staircase. I heard the dining-room door unclose;
a gentleman came out; rising hastily, I stood face to face with him: it
was Mr. Rochester.</p>

<p>“How do you do?” he asked.</p>
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<p>"I am very well, sir.”</p>

<p>“Why did you not come and speak to me in the room?”</p>

<p>I thought I might have retorted the question on him who put it: but I
would not take that freedom. I answered—</p>

<p>“I did not wish to disturb you, as you seemed engaged, sir.”</p>

<p>“What have you been doing during my absence?”</p>

<p>“Nothing particular; teaching Adèle as usual.”</p>

<p>“And getting a good deal paler than you were—as I saw at first sight.
What is the matter?”</p>

<p>“Nothing at all, sir.”</p>

<p>“Did you take any cold that night you half drowned me?”</p>

<p>“Not the least.”</p>

<p>“Return to the drawing-room: you are deserting too early.”</p>

<p>“I am tired, sir.”</p>

<p>He looked at me for a minute.</p>

<p>“And a little depressed,” he said. “What about? Tell me.”</p>

<p>“Nothing—nothing, sir. I am not depressed.”</p>

<p>“But I affirm that you are: so much de
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    pressed that a few more words
would bring tears to your eyes—indeed, they are there now, shining and
swimming; and a bead has slipped from the lash and fallen on to the
flag. If I had time, and was not in mortal dread of some prating prig
of a servant passing, I would know what all this means. Well, to-night
I excuse you; but understand that so long as my visitors stay, I expect
you to appear in the drawing-room every evening; it is my wish; don’t
neglect it. Now go, and send Sophie for Adèle. Good-night, my—” He
stopped, bit his lip, and abruptly left me.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XVIII</head>
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<p>Merry days were these at Thornfield Hall; and busy days too: how
different from the first three months of stillness, monotony, and
solitude I had passed beneath its roof! All sad feelings seemed now
driven from the house, all gloomy associations forgotten: there was
life everywhere, movement all day long. You could not now traverse the
gallery, once so hushed, nor enter the front chambers, once so
tenantless, without encountering a smart lady’s-maid or a dandy valet.</p>

<p>The kitchen, the butler’s pantry, the servants’ hall, the entrance
hall, were equally alive; and the saloons were only left void and still
when the blue sky and halcyon sunshine of the genial spring weather
called their occupants out into the grounds. Even when that weather was
broken, and continuous rain set in for some days, no damp seemed cast
over 
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enjoyment: indoor amusements only became more lively and varied,
in consequence of the stop put to outdoor gaiety.</p>

<p>I wondered what they were going to do the first evening a change of
entertainment was proposed: they spoke of “playing charades,” but in my
ignorance I did not understand the term. The servants were called in,
the dining-room tables wheeled away, the lights otherwise disposed, the
chairs placed in a semicircle opposite the arch. While Mr. Rochester
and the other gentlemen directed these alterations, the ladies were
running up and down stairs ringing for their maids. Mrs. Fairfax was
summoned to give information respecting the resources of the house in
shawls, dresses, draperies of any kind; and certain wardrobes of the
third storey were ransacked, and their contents, in the shape of
brocaded and hooped petticoats, satin sacques, black modes, lace
lappets, &amp;c., were brought down in armfuls by the Abigails; then a
selection was made, and such things as were chosen were carried to the
boudoir within the drawing-room.</p>

<p>Meantime, Mr. Rochester had again summoned the ladies round him, and
was selecting certain of their number to be of his party. 
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“Miss Ingram
is mine, of course,” said he: afterwards he named the two Misses
Eshton, and Mrs. Dent. He looked at me: I happened to be near him, as I
had been fastening the clasp of Mrs. Dent’s bracelet, which had got
loose.</p>

<p>“Will you play?” he asked. I shook my head. He did not insist, which I
rather feared he would have done; he allowed me to return quietly to my
usual seat.</p>

<p>He and his aids now withdrew behind the curtain: the other party, which
was headed by Colonel Dent, sat down on the crescent of chairs. One of
the gentlemen, Mr. Eshton, observing me, seemed to propose that I
should be asked to join them; but Lady Ingram instantly negatived the
notion.</p>

<p>“No,” I heard her say: “she looks too stupid for any game of the sort.”</p>

<p>Ere long a bell tinkled, and the curtain drew up. Within the arch, the
bulky figure of Sir George Lynn, whom Mr. Rochester had likewise
chosen, was seen enveloped in a white sheet: before him, on a table,
lay open a large book; and at his side stood Amy Eshton, draped in Mr.
Rochester’s cloak, and holding a book in her hand. Somebody, unseen,
rang the bell merrily; then Adèle (who 
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had insisted on being one of her
guardian’s party), bounded forward, scattering round her the contents
of a basket of flowers she carried on her arm. Then appeared the
magnificent figure of Miss Ingram, clad in white, a long veil on her
head, and a wreath of roses round her brow; by her side walked Mr.
Rochester, and together they drew near the table. They knelt; while
Mrs. Dent and Louisa Eshton, dressed also in white, took up their
stations behind them. A ceremony followed, in dumb show, in which it
was easy to recognise the pantomime of a marriage. At its termination,
Colonel Dent and his party consulted in whispers for two minutes, then
the Colonel called out—</p>

<p>“Bride!” Mr. Rochester bowed, and the curtain fell.</p>

<p>A considerable interval elapsed before it again rose. Its second rising
displayed a more elaborately prepared scene than the last. The
drawing-room, as I have before observed, was raised two steps above the
dining-room, and on the top of the upper step, placed a yard or two
back within the room, appeared a large marble basin, which I recognised
as an ornament of the conservatory—where it usually stood, surrounded
by exotics, and tenanted by 
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gold fish—and whence it must have been
transported with some trouble, on account of its size and weight.</p>

<p>Seated on the carpet, by the side of this basin, was seen Mr.
Rochester, costumed in shawls, with a turban on his head. His dark eyes
and swarthy skin and Paynim features suited the costume exactly: he
looked the very model of an Eastern emir, an agent or a victim of the
bowstring. Presently advanced into view Miss Ingram. She, too, was
attired in oriental fashion: a crimson scarf tied sash-like round the
waist: an embroidered handkerchief knotted about her temples; her
beautifully-moulded arms bare, one of them upraised in the act of
supporting a pitcher, poised gracefully on her head. Both her cast of
form and feature, her complexion and her general air, suggested the
idea of some Israelitish princess of the patriarchal days; and such was
doubtless the character she intended to represent.</p>

<p>She approached the basin, and bent over it as if to fill her pitcher;
she again lifted it to her head. The personage on the well-brink now
seemed to accost her; to make some request:—“She hasted, let down her
pitcher on her hand, and gave him to drink.” 
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From the bosom of his robe
he then produced a casket, opened it and showed magnificent bracelets
and earrings; she acted astonishment and admiration; kneeling, he laid
the treasure at her feet; incredulity and delight were expressed by her
looks and gestures; the stranger fastened the bracelets on her arms and
the rings in her ears. It was Eliezer and Rebecca: the camels only were
wanting.</p>

<p>The divining party again laid their heads together: apparently they
could not agree about the word or syllable the scene illustrated.
Colonel Dent, their spokesman, demanded “the tableau of the whole;”
whereupon the curtain again descended.</p>

<p>On its third rising only a portion of the drawing-room was disclosed;
the rest being concealed by a screen, hung with some sort of dark and
coarse drapery. The marble basin was removed; in its place, stood a
deal table and a kitchen chair: these objects were visible by a very
dim light proceeding from a horn lantern, the wax candles being all
extinguished.</p>

<p>Amidst this sordid scene, sat a man with his clenched hands resting on
his knees, and his eyes bent on the ground. I knew Mr. Rochester;
though the begrimed face, the disordered dress (his coat hanging loose
from 
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one arm, as if it had been almost torn from his back in a
scuffle), the desperate and scowling countenance, the rough, bristling
hair might well have disguised him. As he moved, a chain clanked; to
his wrists were attached fetters.</p>

<p>“Bridewell!” exclaimed Colonel Dent, and the charade was solved.</p>

<p>A sufficient interval having elapsed for the performers to resume their
ordinary costume, they re-entered the dining-room. Mr. Rochester led in
Miss Ingram; she was complimenting him on his acting.</p>

<p>“Do you know,” said she, “that, of the three characters, I liked you in
the last best? Oh, had you but lived a few years earlier, what a
gallant gentleman-highwayman you would have made!”</p>

<p>“Is all the soot washed from my face?” he asked, turning it towards
her.</p>

<p>“Alas! yes: the more’s the pity! Nothing could be more becoming to your
complexion than that ruffian’s rouge.”</p>

<p>“You would like a hero of the road then?”</p>

<p>“An English hero of the road would be the next best thing to an Italian
bandit; and that could only be surpassed by a Levantine pirate.”</p>
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<p>“Well, whatever I am, remember you are my wife; we were married an hour
since, in the presence of all these witnesses.” She giggled, and her
colour rose.</p>

<p>“Now, Dent,” continued Mr. Rochester, “it is your turn.” And as the
other party withdrew, he and his band took the vacated seats. Miss
Ingram placed herself at her leader’s right hand; the other diviners
filled the chairs on each side of him and her. I did not now watch the
actors; I no longer waited with interest for the curtain to rise; my
attention was absorbed by the spectators; my eyes, erewhile fixed on
the arch, were now irresistibly attracted to the semicircle of chairs.
What charade Colonel Dent and his party played, what word they chose,
how they acquitted themselves, I no longer remember; but I still see
the consultation which followed each scene: I see Mr. Rochester turn to
Miss Ingram, and Miss Ingram to him; I see her incline her head towards
him, till the jetty curls almost touch his shoulder and wave against
his cheek; I hear their mutual whisperings; I recall their interchanged
glances; and something even of the feeling roused by the spectacle
returns in memory at this moment.</p>
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<p>I have told you, reader, that I had learnt to love Mr. Rochester: I
could not unlove him now, merely because I found that he had ceased to
notice me—because I might pass hours in his presence, and he would
never once turn his eyes in my direction—because I saw all his
attentions appropriated by a great lady, who scorned to touch me with
the hem of her robes as she passed; who, if ever her dark and imperious
eye fell on me by chance, would withdraw it instantly as from an object
too mean to merit observation. I could not unlove him, because I felt
sure he would soon marry this very lady—because I read daily in her a
proud security in his intentions respecting her—because I witnessed
hourly in him a style of courtship which, if careless and choosing
rather to be sought than to seek, was yet, in its very carelessness,
captivating, and in its very pride, irresistible.</p>

<p>There was nothing to cool or banish love in these circumstances, though
much to create despair. Much too, you will think, reader, to engender
jealousy: if a woman, in my position, could presume to be jealous of a
woman in Miss Ingram’s. But I was not jealous: or very rarely;—the
nature of the pain I suffered could not be explained by that word. Miss
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Ingram was a mark beneath jealousy: she was too inferior to excite the
feeling. Pardon the seeming paradox; I mean what I say. She was very
showy, but she was not genuine: she had a fine person, many brilliant
attainments; but her mind was poor, her heart barren by nature: nothing
bloomed spontaneously on that soil; no unforced natural fruit delighted
by its freshness. She was not good; she was not original: she used to
repeat sounding phrases from books: she never offered, nor had, an
opinion of her own. She advocated a high tone of sentiment; but she did
not know the sensations of sympathy and pity; tenderness and truth were
not in her. Too often she betrayed this, by the undue vent she gave to
a spiteful antipathy she had conceived against little Adèle: pushing
her away with some contumelious epithet if she happened to approach
her; sometimes ordering her from the room, and always treating her with
coldness and acrimony. Other eyes besides mine watched these
manifestations of character—watched them closely, keenly, shrewdly.
Yes; the future bridegroom, Mr. Rochester himself, exercised over his
intended a ceaseless surveillance; and it was from this sagacity—this
guardedness of his—this perfect, clear conscious
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ness of his fair one’s
defects—this obvious absence of passion in his sentiments towards her,
that my ever-torturing pain arose.</p>

<p>I saw he was going to marry her, for family, perhaps political reasons,
because her rank and connections suited him; I felt he had not given
her his love, and that her qualifications were ill adapted to win from
him that treasure. This was the point—this was where the nerve was
touched and teased—this was where the fever was sustained and fed: <hi rend="italic">she
could not charm him</hi>.</p>

<p>If she had managed the victory at once, and he had yielded and
sincerely laid his heart at her feet, I should have covered my face,
turned to the wall, and (figuratively) have died to them. If Miss
Ingram had been a good and noble woman, endowed with force, fervour,
kindness, sense, I should have had one vital struggle with two
tigers—jealousy and despair: then, my heart torn out and devoured, I
should have admired her—acknowledged her excellence, and been quiet for
the rest of my days: and the more absolute her superiority, the deeper
would have been my admiration—the more truly tranquil my quiescence.
But as matters really stood, to watch Miss Ingram’s efforts at
fascinating Mr. Rochester, to witness 
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their repeated failure—herself
unconscious that they did fail; vainly fancying that each shaft
launched hit the mark, and infatuatedly pluming herself on success,
when her pride and self-complacency repelled further and further what
she wished to allure—to witness <hi rend="italic">this</hi>, was to be at once under
ceaseless excitation and ruthless restraint.</p>

<p>Because, when she failed, I saw how she might have succeeded. Arrows
that continually glanced off from Mr. Rochester’s breast and fell
harmless at his feet, might, I knew, if shot by a surer hand, have
quivered keen in his proud heart—have called love into his stern eye,
and softness into his sardonic face; or, better still, without weapons
a silent conquest might have been won.</p>

<p>“Why can she not influence him more, when she is privileged to draw so
near to him?” I asked myself. “Surely she cannot truly like him, or not
like him with true affection! If she did, she need not coin her smiles
so lavishly, flash her glances so unremittingly, manufacture airs so
elaborate, graces so multitudinous. It seems to me that she might, by
merely sitting quietly at his side, saying little and looking less, get
nigher his heart. I have seen in his face a far different expression
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from that which hardens it now while she is so vivaciously accosting
him; but then it came of itself: it was not elicited by meretricious
arts and calculated manoeuvres; and one had but to accept it—to answer
what he asked without pretension, to address him when needful without
grimace—and it increased and grew kinder and more genial, and warmed
one like a fostering sunbeam. How will she manage to please him when
they are married? I do not think she will manage it; and yet it might
be managed; and his wife might, I verily believe, be the very happiest
woman the sun shines on.”</p>

<p>I have not yet said anything condemnatory of Mr. Rochester’s project of
marrying for interest and connections. It surprised me when I first
discovered that such was his intention: I had thought him a man
unlikely to be influenced by motives so commonplace in his choice of a
wife; but the longer I considered the position, education, &amp;c., of the
parties, the less I felt justified in judging and blaming either him or
Miss Ingram for acting in conformity to ideas and principles instilled
into them, doubtless, from their childhood. All their class held these
principles: I supposed, then, they had reasons for holding them such
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as
I could not fathom. It seemed to me that, were I a gentleman like him,
I would take to my bosom only such a wife as I could love; but the very
obviousness of the advantages to the husband’s own happiness offered by
this plan convinced me that there must be arguments against its general
adoption of which I was quite ignorant: otherwise I felt sure all the
world would act as I wished to act.</p>

<p>But in other points, as well as this, I was growing very lenient to my
master: I was forgetting all his faults, for which I had once kept a
sharp look-out. It had formerly been my endeavour to study all sides of
his character: to take the bad with the good; and from the just
weighing of both, to form an equitable judgment. Now I saw no bad. The
sarcasm that had repelled, the harshness that had startled me once,
were only like keen condiments in a choice dish: their presence was
pungent, but their absence would be felt as comparatively insipid. And
as for the vague something—was it a sinister or a sorrowful, a
designing or a desponding expression?—that opened upon a careful
observer, now and then, in his eye, and closed again before one could
fathom the strange depth partially disclosed; that something which used
to make me fear 
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and shrink, as if I had been wandering amongst
volcanic-looking hills, and had suddenly felt the ground quiver and
seen it gape: that something, I, at intervals, beheld still; and with
throbbing heart, but not with palsied nerves. Instead of wishing to
shun, I longed only to dare—to divine it; and I thought Miss Ingram
happy, because one day she might look into the abyss at her leisure,
explore its secrets and analyse their nature.</p>

<p>Meantime, while I thought only of my master and his future bride—saw
only them, heard only their discourse, and considered only their
movements of importance—the rest of the party were occupied with their
own separate interests and pleasures. The Ladies Lynn and Ingram
continued to consort in solemn conferences, where they nodded their two
turbans at each other, and held up their four hands in confronting
gestures of surprise, or mystery, or horror, according to the theme on
which their gossip ran, like a pair of magnified puppets. Mild Mrs.
Dent talked with good-natured Mrs. Eshton; and the two sometimes
bestowed a courteous word or smile on me. Sir George Lynn, Colonel
Dent, and Mr. Eshton discussed politics, or county affairs, or justice
business. Lord Ingram flirted with Amy 
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Eshton; Louisa played and sang
to and with one of the Messrs. Lynn; and Mary Ingram listened languidly
to the gallant speeches of the other. Sometimes all, as with one
consent, suspended their by-play to observe and listen to the principal
actors: for, after all, Mr. Rochester and—because closely connected
with him—Miss Ingram were the life and soul of the party. If he was
absent from the room an hour, a perceptible dulness seemed to steal
over the spirits of his guests; and his re-entrance was sure to give a
fresh impulse to the vivacity of conversation.</p>

<p>The want of his animating influence appeared to be peculiarly felt one
day that he had been summoned to Millcote on business, and was not
likely to return till late. The afternoon was wet: a walk the party had
proposed to take to see a gipsy camp, lately pitched on a common beyond
Hay, was consequently deferred. Some of the gentlemen were gone to the
stables: the younger ones, together with the younger ladies, were
playing billiards in the billiard-room. The dowagers Ingram and Lynn
sought solace in a quiet game at cards. Blanche Ingram, after having
repelled, by supercilious taciturnity, some efforts of Mrs. Dent and
Mrs. Eshton to draw her into con
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versation, had first murmured over some
sentimental tunes and airs on the piano, and then, having fetched a
novel from the library, had flung herself in haughty listlessness on a
sofa, and prepared to beguile, by the spell of fiction, the tedious
hours of absence. The room and the house were silent: only now and then
the merriment of the billiard-players was heard from above.</p>

<p>It was verging on dusk, and the clock had already given warning of the
hour to dress for dinner, when little Adèle, who knelt by me in the
drawing-room window-seat, suddenly exclaimed—</p>

<p>“Voilà Monsieur Rochester, qui revient!”</p>

<p>I turned, and Miss Ingram darted forwards from her sofa: the others,
too, looked up from their several occupations; for at the same time a
crunching of wheels and a splashing tramp of horse-hoofs became audible
on the wet gravel. A post-chaise was approaching.</p>

<p>“What can possess him to come home in that style?” said Miss Ingram.
“He rode Mesrour (the black horse), did he not, when he went out? and
Pilot was with him:—what has he done with the animals?”</p>

<p>As she said this, she approached her tall person and ample garments so
near the window, that I was obliged to bend back almost to the 
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breaking
of my spine: in her eagerness she did not observe me at first, but when
she did, she curled her lip and moved to another casement. The
post-chaise stopped; the driver rang the door-bell, and a gentleman
alighted attired in travelling garb; but it was not Mr. Rochester; it
was a tall, fashionable-looking man, a stranger.</p>

<p>“How provoking!” exclaimed Miss Ingram: “you tiresome monkey!”
(apostrophising Adèle), “who perched you up in the window to give false
intelligence?” and she cast on me an angry glance, as if I were in
fault.</p>

<p>Some parleying was audible in the hall, and soon the new-comer entered.
He bowed to Lady Ingram, as deeming her the eldest lady present.</p>

<p>“It appears I come at an inopportune time, madam,” said he, “when my
friend, Mr. Rochester, is from home; but I arrive from a very long
journey, and I think I may presume so far on old and intimate
acquaintance as to install myself here till he returns.”</p>

<p>His manner was polite; his accent, in speaking, struck me as being
somewhat unusual,—not precisely foreign, but still not altogether
English: his age might be about Mr. Rochester’s,—between thirty and
forty; his com
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plexion was singularly sallow: otherwise he was a
fine-looking man, at first sight especially. On closer examination, you
detected something in his face that displeased, or rather that failed
to please. His features were regular, but too relaxed: his eye was
large and well cut, but the life looking out of it was a tame, vacant
life—at least so I thought.</p>

<p>The sound of the dressing-bell dispersed the party. It was not till
after dinner that I saw him again: he then seemed quite at his ease.
But I liked his physiognomy even less than before: it struck me as
being at the same time unsettled and inanimate. His eye wandered, and
had no meaning in its wandering: this gave him an odd look, such as I
never remembered to have seen. For a handsome and not an
unamiable-looking man, he repelled me exceedingly: there was no power
in that smooth-skinned face of a full oval shape: no firmness in that
aquiline nose and small cherry mouth; there was no thought on the low,
even forehead; no command in that blank, brown eye.</p>

<p>As I sat in my usual nook, and looked at him with the light of the
girandoles on the mantelpiece beaming full over him—for he occupied an
arm-chair drawn close to the fire, 
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and kept shrinking still nearer, as
if he were cold, I compared him with Mr. Rochester. I think (with
deference be it spoken) the contrast could not be much greater between
a sleek gander and a fierce falcon: between a meek sheep and the
rough-coated keen-eyed dog, its guardian.</p>

<p>He had spoken of Mr. Rochester as an old friend. A curious friendship
theirs must have been: a pointed illustration, indeed, of the old adage
that “extremes meet.”</p>

<p>Two or three of the gentlemen sat near him, and I caught at times
scraps of their conversation across the room. At first I could not make
much sense of what I heard; for the discourse of Louisa Eshton and Mary
Ingram, who sat nearer to me, confused the fragmentary sentences that
reached me at intervals. These last were discussing the stranger; they
both called him “a beautiful man.” Louisa said he was “a love of a
creature,” and she “adored him;” and Mary instanced his “pretty little
mouth, and nice nose,” as her ideal of the charming.</p>

<p>“And what a sweet-tempered forehead he has!” cried Louisa,—“so
smooth—none of those frowning irregularities I dislike so much; and
such a placid eye and smile!”</p>
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<p>And then, to my great relief, Mr. Henry Lynn summoned them to the other
side of the room, to settle some point about the deferred excursion to
Hay Common.</p>

<p>I was now able to concentrate my attention on the group by the fire,
and I presently gathered that the new-comer was called Mr. Mason; then
I learned that he was but just arrived in England, and that he came
from some hot country: which was the reason, doubtless, his face was so
sallow, and that he sat so near the hearth, and wore a surtout in the
house. Presently the words Jamaica, Kingston, Spanish Town, indicated
the West Indies as his residence; and it was with no little surprise I
gathered, ere long, that he had there first seen and become acquainted
with Mr. Rochester. He spoke of his friend’s dislike of the burning
heats, the hurricanes, and rainy seasons of that region. I knew Mr.
Rochester had been a traveller: Mrs. Fairfax had said so; but I thought
the continent of Europe had bounded his wanderings; till now I had
never heard a hint given of visits to more distant shores.</p>

<p>I was pondering these things, when an incident, and a somewhat
unexpected one, broke the thread of my musings. Mr. Mason, shiver
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ing as
some one chanced to open the door, asked for more coal to be put on the
fire, which had burnt out its flame, though its mass of cinder still
shone hot and red. The footman who brought the coal, in going out,
stopped near Mr. Eshton’s chair, and said something to him in a low
voice, of which I heard only the words, “old woman,”—“quite
troublesome.”</p>

<p>“Tell her she shall be put in the stocks if she does not take herself
off,” replied the magistrate.</p>

<p>“No—stop!” interrupted Colonel Dent. “Don’t send her away, Eshton; we
might turn the thing to account; better consult the ladies.” And
speaking aloud, he continued—“Ladies, you talked of going to Hay Common
to visit the gipsy camp; Sam here says that one of the old Mother
Bunches is in the servants’ hall at this moment, and insists upon being
brought in before ‘the quality,’ to tell them their fortunes. Would you
like to see her?”</p>

<p>“Surely, colonel,” cried Lady Ingram, “you would not encourage such a
low impostor? Dismiss her, by all means, at once!”</p>

<p>“But I cannot persuade her to go away, my lady,” said the footman; “nor
can any of 
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the servants: Mrs. Fairfax is with her just now, entreating
her to be gone; but she has taken a chair in the chimney-corner, and
says nothing shall stir her from it till she gets leave to come in
here.”</p>

<p>“What does she want?” asked Mrs. Eshton.</p>

<p>“‘To tell the gentry their fortunes,’ she says, ma’am; and she swears
she must and will do it.”</p>

<p>“What is she like?” inquired the Misses Eshton, in a breath.</p>

<p>“A shockingly ugly old creature, miss; almost as black as a crock.”

“Why, she’s a real sorceress!” cried Frederick Lynn. “Let us have her
in, of course.”</p>

<p>“To be sure,” rejoined his brother; “it would be a thousand pities to
throw away such a chance of fun.”</p>

<p>“My dear boys, what are you thinking about?” exclaimed Mrs. Lynn.</p>

<p>“I cannot possibly countenance any such inconsistent proceeding,”
chimed in the Dowager Ingram.</p>

<p>“Indeed, mama, but you can—and will,” pronounced the haughty voice of
Blanche, as she turned round on the piano-stool; where till 
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now she had
sat silent, apparently examining sundry sheets of music. “I have a
curiosity to hear my fortune told: therefore, Sam, order the beldame
forward.”</p>

<p>“My darling Blanche! recollect—”</p>

<p>“I do—I recollect all you can suggest; and I must have my will—quick,
Sam!”</p>

<p>“Yes—yes—yes!” cried all the juveniles, both ladies and gentlemen. “Let
her come—it will be excellent sport!”</p>

<p>The footman still lingered. “She looks such a rough one,” said he.</p>

<p>“Go!” ejaculated Miss Ingram, and the man went.</p>

<p>Excitement instantly seized the whole party: a running fire of raillery
and jests was proceeding when Sam returned.</p>

<p>“She won’t come now,” said he. “She says it’s not her mission to appear
before the ‘vulgar herd’ (them’s her words). I must show her into a
room by herself, and then those who wish to consult her must go to her
one by one.”</p>

<p>“You see now, my queenly Blanche,” began Lady Ingram, “she encroaches.
Be advised, my angel girl—and—”</p>

<p>“Show her into the library, of course,” cut in the “angel girl.” “It is
not my mission 
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to listen to her before the vulgar herd either: I mean
to have her all to myself. Is there a fire in the library?”</p>

<p>“Yes, ma’am—but she looks such a tinkler.”</p>

<p>“Cease that chatter, blockhead! and do my bidding.”</p>

<p>Again Sam vanished; and mystery, animation, expectation rose to full
flow once more.</p>

<p>“She’s ready now,” said the footman, as he reappeared. “She wishes to
know who will be her first visitor.”</p>

<p>“I think I had better just look in upon her before any of the ladies
go,” said Colonel Dent.</p>

<p>“Tell her, Sam, a gentleman is coming.”</p>

<p>Sam went and returned.</p>

<p>“She says, sir, that she’ll have no gentlemen; they need not trouble
themselves to come near her; nor,” he added, with difficulty
suppressing a titter, “any ladies either, except the young, and
single.”</p>

<p>“By Jove, she has taste!” exclaimed Henry Lynn.</p>

<p>Miss Ingram rose solemnly: “I go first,” she said, in a tone which
might have befitted the leader of a forlorn hope, mounting a breach in
the van of his men.</p>

<p>“Oh, my best! oh, my dearest! pause—reflect!” was her mama’s cry; but
she swept 
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past her in stately silence, passed through the door which
Colonel Dent held open, and we heard her enter the library.</p>

<p>A comparative silence ensued. Lady Ingram thought it “le cas” to wring
her hands: which she did accordingly. Miss Mary declared she felt, for
her part, she never dared venture. Amy and Louisa Eshton tittered under
their breath, and looked a little frightened.</p>

<p>The minutes passed very slowly: fifteen were counted before the
library-door again opened. Miss Ingram returned to us through the arch.</p>

<p>Would she laugh? Would she take it as a joke? All eyes met her with a
glance of eager curiosity, and she met all eyes with one of rebuff and
coldness; she looked neither flurried nor merry: she walked stiffly to
her seat, and took it in silence.</p>

<p>“Well, Blanche?” said Lord Ingram.</p>

<p>“What did she say, sister?” asked Mary.</p>

<p>“What did you think? How do you feel? Is she a real fortune-teller?”
demanded the Misses Eshton.</p>

<p>“Now, now, good people,” returned Miss Ingram, “don’t press upon me.
Really your organs of wonder and credulity are easily excited: you
seem, by the importance of you all—my good mama included—ascribe to
this mat
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ter, absolutely to believe we have a genuine witch in the
house, who is in close alliance with the old gentleman. I have seen a
gipsy vagabond; she has practised in hackneyed fashion the science of
palmistry and told me what such people usually tell. My whim is
gratified; and now I think Mr. Eshton will do well to put the hag in
the stocks to-morrow morning, as he threatened.”</p>

<p>Miss Ingram took a book, leant back in her chair, and so declined
further conversation. I watched her for nearly half-an-hour: during all
that time she never turned a page, and her face grew momently darker,
more dissatisfied, and more sourly expressive of disappointment. She
had obviously not heard anything to her advantage: and it seemed to me,
from her prolonged fit of gloom and taciturnity, that she herself,
notwithstanding her professed indifference, attached undue importance
to whatever revelations had been made her.</p>

<p>Meantime, Mary Ingram, Amy and Louisa Eshton, declared they dared not
go alone; and yet they all wished to go. A negotiation was opened
through the medium of the ambassador, Sam; and after much pacing to and
fro, till, I think, the said Sam’s calves must have ached with the
exercise, permission was 
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at last, with great difficulty, extorted from
the rigorous Sibyl, for the three to wait upon her in a body.</p>

<p>Their visit was not so still as Miss Ingram’s had been: we heard
hysterical giggling and little shrieks proceeding from the library; and
at the end of about twenty minutes they burst the door open, and came
running across the hall, as if they were half-scared out of their wits.</p>

<p>“I am sure she is something not right!” they cried, one and all. “She
told us such things! She knows all about us!” and they sank breathless
into the various seats the gentlemen hastened to bring them.</p>

<p>Pressed for further explanation, they declared she had told them of
things they had said and done when they were mere children; described
books and ornaments they had in their boudoirs at home: keepsakes that
different relations had presented to them. They affirmed that she had
even divined their thoughts, and had whispered in the ear of each the
name of the person she liked best in the world, and informed them of
what they most wished for.</p>

<p>Here the gentlemen interposed with earnest 
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    petitions to be further
enlightened on these two last-named points; but they got only blushes,
ejaculations, tremors, and titters, in return for their importunity.
The matrons, meantime, offered vinaigrettes and wielded fans; and again
and again reiterated the expression of their concern that their warning
had not been taken in time; and the elder gentlemen laughed, and the
younger urged their services on the agitated fair ones.</p>

<p>In the midst of the tumult, and while my eyes and ears were fully
engaged in the scene before me, I heard a hem close at my elbow: I
turned, and saw Sam.</p>

<p>“If you please, miss, the gipsy declares that there is another young
single lady in the room who has not been to her yet, and she swears she
will not go till she has seen all. I thought it must be you: there is
no one else for it. What shall I tell her?”</p>

<p>“Oh, I will go by all means,” I answered: and I was glad of the
unexpected opportunity to gratify my much-excited curiosity. I slipped
out of the room, unobserved by any eye—for the company were gathered in
one mass about the trembling trio just returned—and I closed the door
quietly behind me.</p>
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<p>“If you like, miss,” said Sam, “I’ll wait in the hall for you; and if
she frightens you, just call and I’ll come in.”</p>

<p>“No, Sam, return to the kitchen: I am not in the least afraid.” Nor was
I; but I was a good deal interested and excited.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XIX</head>
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<p>The library looked tranquil enough as I entered it, and the Sibyl—if
Sibyl she were—was seated snugly enough in an easy-chair at the
chimney-corner. She had on a red cloak and a black bonnet: or rather, a
broad-brimmed gipsy hat, tied down with a striped handkerchief under
her chin. An extinguished candle stood on the table; she was bending
over the fire, and seemed reading in a little black book, like a
prayer-book, by the light of the blaze: she muttered the words to
herself, as most old women do, while she read; she did not desist
immediately on my entrance: it appeared she wished to finish a
paragraph.</p>

<p>I stood on the rug and warmed my hands, which were rather cold with
sitting at a distance from the drawing-room fire. I felt now as
composed as ever I did in my life: there was nothing indeed in the
gipsy’s appearance to 
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trouble one’s calm. She shut her book and slowly
looked up; her hat-brim partially shaded her face, yet I could see, as
she raised it, that it was a strange one. It looked all brown and
black: elf-locks bristled out from beneath a white band which passed
under her chin, and came half over her cheeks, or rather jaws: her eye
confronted me at once, with a bold and direct gaze.</p>

<p>“Well, and you want your fortune told?” she said, in a voice as decided
as her glance, as harsh as her features.</p>

<p>“I don’t care about it, mother; you may please yourself: but I ought to
warn you, I have no faith.”</p>

<p>“It’s like your impudence to say so: I expected it of you; I heard it
in your step as you crossed the threshold.”</p>

<p>“Did you? You’ve a quick ear.”</p>

<p>“I have; and a quick eye and a quick brain.”</p>

<p>“You need them all in your trade.”</p>

<p>“I do; especially when I’ve customers like you to deal with. Why don’t
you tremble?”</p>

<p>“I’m not cold.”</p>

<p>“Why don’t you turn pale?”</p>

<p>“I am not sick.”</p>

<p>“Why don’t you consult my art?”</p>
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<p>“I’m not silly.”</p>

<p>The old crone “nichered” a laugh under her bonnet and bandage; she then
drew out a short black pipe, and lighting it began to smoke. Having
indulged a while in this sedative, she raised her bent body, took the
pipe from her lips, and while gazing steadily at the fire, said very
deliberately—</p>

<p>“You are cold; you are sick; and you are silly.”</p>

<p>“Prove it,” I rejoined.</p>

<p>“I will, in few words. You are cold, because you are alone: no contact
strikes the fire from you that is in you. You are sick; because the
best of feelings, the highest and the sweetest given to man, keeps far
away from you. You are silly, because, suffer as you may, you will not
beckon it to approach, nor will you stir one step to meet it where it
waits you.”</p>

<p>She again put her short black pipe to her lips, and renewed her smoking
with vigour.</p>

<p>“You might say all that to almost any one who you knew lived as a
solitary dependent in a great house.”</p>

<p>“I might say it to almost any one: but would it be true of almost any
one?”</p>

<p>“In my circumstances.”
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“Yes; just so, in <hi rend="italic">your</hi> circumstances: but find me another precisely
placed as you are.”</p>

<p>“It would be easy to find you thousands.”</p>

<p>“You could scarcely find me one. If you knew it, you are peculiarly
situated: very near happiness; yes, within reach of it. The materials
are all prepared; there only wants a movement to combine them. Chance
laid them somewhat apart; let them be once approached and bliss
results.”</p>

<p>“I don’t understand enigmas. I never could guess a riddle in my life.”</p>

<p>“If you wish me to speak more plainly, show me your palm.”</p>

<p>“And I must cross it with silver, I suppose?”</p>

<p>“To be sure.”</p>

<p>I gave her a shilling: she put it into an old stocking-foot which she
took out of her pocket, and having tied it round and returned it, she
told me to hold out my hand. I did. She approached her face to the
palm, and pored over it without touching it.</p>

<p>“It is too fine,” said she. “I can make nothing of such a hand as that;
almost without lines: besides, what is in a palm? Destiny is not
written there.”</p>

<p>“I believe you,” said I.</p>

<p>“No,” she continued, “it is in the face: on 
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    the forehead, about the
eyes, in the lines of the mouth. Kneel, and lift up your head.”</p>

<p>“Ah! now you are coming to reality,” I said, as I obeyed her. “I shall
begin to put some faith in you presently.”</p>

<p>I knelt within half a yard of her. She stirred the fire, so that a
ripple of light broke from the disturbed coal: the glare, however, as
she sat, only threw her face into deeper shadow: mine, it illumined.</p>

<p>“I wonder with what feelings you came to me to-night,” she said, when
she had examined me a while. “I wonder what thoughts are busy in your
heart during all the hours you sit in yonder room with the fine people
flitting before you like shapes in a magic-lantern: just as little
sympathetic communion passing between you and them as if they were
really mere shadows of human forms, and not the actual substance.”</p>

<p>“I feel tired often, sleepy sometimes, but seldom sad.”</p>

<p>“Then you have some secret hope to buoy you up and please you with
whispers of the future?”</p>

<p>“Not I. The utmost I hope is, to save 
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money enough out of my earnings
to set up a school some day in a little house rented by myself.”</p>

<p>“A mean nutriment for the spirit to exist on: and sitting in that
window-seat (you see I know your habits)—”</p>

<p>“You have learned them from the servants.”</p>

<p>“Ah! you think yourself sharp. Well, perhaps I have: to speak truth, I
have an acquaintance with one of them, Mrs. Poole—”</p>

<p>I started to my feet when I heard the name.</p>

<p>“You have—have you?” thought I; “there is diablerie in the business
after all, then!”</p>

<p>“Don’t be alarmed,” continued the strange being; “she’s a safe hand is
Mrs. Poole: close and quiet; any one may repose confidence in her. But,
as I was saying: sitting in that window-seat, do you think of nothing
but your future school? Have you no present interest in any of the
company who occupy the sofas and chairs before you? Is there not one
face you study? one figure whose movements you follow with at least
curiosity?”</p>

<p>“I like to observe all the faces and all the figures.”</p>

<p>“But do you never single one from the rest—or it may be, two?”</p>

<p>“I do frequently; when the gestures or 
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    looks of a pair seem telling a
tale: it amuses me to watch them.”</p>

<p>“What tale do you like best to hear?”</p>

<p>“Oh, I have not much choice! They generally run on the same
theme—courtship; and promise to end in the same catastrophe—marriage.”</p>

<p>“And do you like that monotonous theme?”</p>

<p>“Positively, I don’t care about it: it is nothing to me.”</p>

<p>“Nothing to you? When a lady, young and full of life and health,
charming with beauty and endowed with the gifts of rank and fortune,
sits and smiles in the eyes of a gentleman you—”</p>

<p>“I what?”</p>

<p>“You know—and perhaps think well of.”</p>

<p>“I don’t know the gentlemen here. I have scarcely interchanged a
syllable with one of them; and as to thinking well of them, I consider
some respectable, and stately, and middle-aged, and others young,
dashing, handsome, and lively: but certainly they are all at liberty to
be the recipients of whose smiles they please, without my feeling
disposed to consider the transaction of any moment to me.”</p>

<p>“You don’t know the gentlemen here? You have not exchanged a syllable
with one 
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of them? Will you say that of the master of the house!”</p>

<p>“He is not at home.”</p>

<p>“A profound remark! A most ingenious quibble! He went to Millcote this
morning, and will be back here to-night or to-morrow: does that
circumstance exclude him from the list of your acquaintance—blot him,
as it were, out of existence?”</p>

<p>“No; but I can scarcely see what Mr. Rochester has to do with the theme
you had introduced.”</p>

<p>“I was talking of ladies smiling in the eyes of gentlemen; and of late
so many smiles have been shed into Mr. Rochester’s eyes that they
overflow like two cups filled above the brim: have you never remarked
that?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester has a right to enjoy the society of his guests.”</p>

<p>“No question about his right: but have you never observed that, of all
the tales told here about matrimony, Mr. Rochester has been favoured
with the most lively and the most continuous?”</p>

<p>“The eagerness of a listener quickens the tongue of a narrator.” I said
this rather to myself than to the gipsy, whose strange talk, 
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voice,
manner, had by this time wrapped me in a kind of dream. One unexpected
sentence came from her lips after another, till I got involved in a web
of mystification; and wondered what unseen spirit had been sitting for
weeks by my heart watching its workings and taking record of every
pulse.</p>

<p>“Eagerness of a listener!” repeated she: “yes; Mr. Rochester has sat by
the hour, his ear inclined to the fascinating lips that took such
delight in their task of communicating; and Mr. Rochester was so
willing to receive and looked so grateful for the pastime given him;
you have noticed this?”</p>

<p>“Grateful! I cannot remember detecting gratitude in his face.”</p>

<p>“Detecting! You have analysed, then. And what did you detect, if not
gratitude?”</p>

<p>I said nothing.</p>

<p>“You have seen love: have you not?—and, looking forward, you have seen
him married, and beheld his bride happy?”</p>

<p>“Humph! Not exactly. Your witch’s skill is rather at fault sometimes.”</p>

<p>“What the devil have you seen, then?”</p>

<p>“Never mind: I came here to inquire, not to confess. Is it known that
Mr. Rochester is to be married?”</p>
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<p>“Yes; and to the beautiful Miss Ingram.”</p>

<p>“Shortly?”</p>

<p>“Appearances would warrant that conclusion: and, no doubt (though, with
an audacity that wants chastising out of you, you seem to question it),
they will be a superlatively happy pair. He must love such a handsome,
noble, witty, accomplished lady; and probably she loves him, or, if not
his person, at least his purse. I know she considers the Rochester
estate eligible to the last degree; though (God pardon me!) I told her
something on that point about an hour ago which made her look wondrous
grave: the corners of her mouth fell half an inch. I would advise her
blackaviced suitor to look out: if another comes, with a longer or
clearer rent-roll,—he’s dished—”</p>

<p>“But, mother, I did not come to hear Mr. Rochester’s fortune: I came to
hear my own; and you have told me nothing of it.”</p>

<p>“Your fortune is yet doubtful: when I examined your face, one trait
contradicted another. Chance has meted you a measure of happiness: that
I know. I knew it before I came here this evening. She has laid it
carefully on one side for you. I saw her do it. It depends on yourself
to stretch out your hand, and take it up: but whether you will do so,
is 
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the problem I study. Kneel again on the rug.”</p>

<p>“Don’t keep me long; the fire scorches me.”</p>

<p>I knelt. She did not stoop towards me, but only gazed, leaning back in
her chair. She began muttering,—</p>

<p>“The flame flickers in the eye; the eye shines like dew; it looks soft
and full of feeling; it smiles at my jargon: it is susceptible;
impression follows impression through its clear sphere; where it ceases
to smile, it is sad; an unconscious lassitude weighs on the lid: that
signifies melancholy resulting from loneliness. It turns from me; it
will not suffer further scrutiny; it seems to deny, by a mocking
glance, the truth of the discoveries I have already made,—to disown the
charge both of sensibility and chagrin: its pride and reserve only
confirm me in my opinion. The eye is favourable.</p>

<p>“As to the mouth, it delights at times in laughter; it is disposed to
impart all that the brain conceives; though I daresay it would be
silent on much the heart experiences. Mobile and flexible, it was never
intended to be compressed in the eternal silence of solitude: it is a
mouth which should speak much and smile often, and have human affection
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for its interlocutor. That feature too is propitious.</p>

<p>“I see no enemy to a fortunate issue but in the brow; and that brow
professes to say,—‘I can live alone, if self-respect, and circumstances
require me so to do. I need not sell my soul to buy bliss. I have an
inward treasure born with me, which can keep me alive if all extraneous
delights should be withheld, or offered only at a price I cannot afford
to give.’ The forehead declares, ‘Reason sits firm and holds the reins,
and she will not let the feelings burst away and hurry her to wild
chasms. The passions may rage furiously, like true heathens, as they
are; and the desires may imagine all sorts of vain things: but judgment
shall still have the last word in every argument, and the casting vote
in every decision. Strong wind, earthquake-shock, and fire may pass by:
but I shall follow the guiding of that still small voice which
interprets the dictates of conscience.’</p>

<p>“Well said, forehead; your declaration shall be respected. I have
formed my plans—right plans I deem them—and in them I have attended to
the claims of conscience, the counsels of reason. I know how soon youth
would fade and bloom perish, if, in the cup of 
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bliss offered, but one
dreg of shame, or one flavour of remorse were detected; and I do not
want sacrifice, sorrow, dissolution—such is not my taste. I wish to
foster, not to blight—to earn gratitude, not to wring tears of
blood—no, nor of brine: my harvest must be in smiles, in endearments,
in sweet—That will do. I think I rave in a kind of exquisite delirium.
I should wish now to protract this moment <hi rend="italic">ad infinitum</hi>; but I dare
not. So far I have governed myself thoroughly. I have acted as I
inwardly swore I would act; but further might try me beyond my
strength. Rise, Miss Eyre: leave me; ‘the play is played out.’”</p>

<p>Where was I? Did I wake or sleep? Had I been dreaming? Did I dream
still? The old woman’s voice had changed: her accent, her gesture, and
all were familiar to me as my own face in a glass—as the speech of my
own tongue. I got up, but did not go. I looked; I stirred the fire, and
I looked again: but she drew her bonnet and her bandage closer about
her face, and again beckoned me to depart. The flame illuminated her
hand stretched out: roused now, and on the alert for discoveries, I at
once noticed that hand. It was no more the withered limb of eld than my
own; it was
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a rounded supple member, with smooth fingers, symmetrically
turned; a broad ring flashed on the little finger, and stooping
forward, I looked at it, and saw a gem I had seen a hundred times
before. Again I looked at the face; which was no longer turned from
me—on the contrary, the bonnet was doffed, the bandage displaced, the
head advanced.</p>

<p>“Well, Jane, do you know me?” asked the familiar voice.</p>

<p>“Only take off the red cloak, sir, and then—”</p>

<p>“But the string is in a knot—help me.”</p>

<p>“Break it, sir.”</p>

<p>“There, then—‘Off, ye lendings!’” And Mr. Rochester stepped out of his
disguise.</p>

<p>“Now, sir, what a strange idea!”</p>

<p>“But well carried out, eh? Don’t you think so?”</p>

<p>“With the ladies you must have managed well.”</p>

<p>“But not with you?”</p>

<p>“You did not act the character of a gipsy with me.”</p>

<p>“What character did I act? My own?”</p>

<p>“No; some unaccountable one. In short, I believe you have been trying
to draw me out—or in; you have been talking nonsense to make me talk
nonsense. It is scarcely fair, sir.”</p>
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<p>“Do you forgive me, Jane?”</p>

<p>“I cannot tell till I have thought it all over. If, on reflection, I
find I have fallen into no great absurdity, I shall try to forgive you;
but it was not right.”</p>

<p>“Oh, you have been very correct—very careful, very sensible.”</p>

<p>I reflected, and thought, on the whole, I had. It was a comfort; but,
indeed, I had been on my guard almost from the beginning of the
interview. Something of masquerade I suspected. I knew gipsies and
fortune-tellers did not express themselves as this seeming old woman
had expressed herself; besides I had noted her feigned voice, her
anxiety to conceal her features. But my mind had been running on Grace
Poole—that living enigma, that mystery of mysteries, as I considered
her. I had never thought of Mr. Rochester.</p>

<p>“Well,” said he, “what are you musing about? What does that grave smile
signify?”</p>

<p>“Wonder and self-congratulation, sir. I have your permission to retire
now, I suppose?”</p>

<p>“No; stay a moment; and tell me what the people in the drawing-room
yonder are doing.”</p>

<p>“Discussing the gipsy, I daresay.”</p>
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<p>“Sit down!—Let me hear what they said about me.”</p>

<p>“I had better not stay long, sir; it must be near eleven o’clock. Oh,
are you aware, Mr. Rochester, that a stranger has arrived here since
you left this morning?”</p>

<p>“A stranger!—no; who can it be? I expected no one; is he gone?”</p>

<p>“No; he said he had known you long, and that he could take the liberty
of installing himself here till you returned.”</p>

<p>“The devil he did! Did he give his name?”</p>

<p>“His name is Mason, sir; and he comes from the West Indies; from
Spanish Town, in Jamaica, I think.”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester was standing near me; he had taken my hand, as if to lead
me to a chair. As I spoke he gave my wrist a convulsive grip; the smile
on his lips froze: apparently a spasm caught his breath.</p>

<p>“Mason!—the West Indies!” he said, in the tone one might fancy a
speaking automaton to enounce its single words; “Mason!—the West
Indies!” he reiterated; and he went over the syllables three times,
growing, in the intervals of speaking, whiter than ashes: he hardly
seemed to know what he was doing.</p>
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<p>“Do you feel ill, sir?” I inquired.</p>

<p>“Jane, I’ve got a blow; I’ve got a blow, Jane!” He staggered.</p>

<p>“Oh, lean on me, sir.”</p>

<p>“Jane, you offered me your shoulder once before; let me have it now.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir, yes; and my arm.”</p>

<p>He sat down, and made me sit beside him. Holding my hand in both his
own, he chafed it; gazing on me, at the same time, with the most
troubled and dreary look.</p>

<p>“My little friend!” said he, “I wish I were in a quiet island with only
you; and trouble, and danger, and hideous recollections removed from
me.”</p>

<p>“Can I help you, sir?—I’d give my life to serve you.”</p>

<p>“Jane, if aid is wanted, I’ll seek it at your hands; I promise you
that.”</p>

<p>“Thank you, sir. Tell me what to do,—I’ll try, at least, to do it.”</p>

<p>“Fetch me now, Jane, a glass of wine from the dining-room: they will be
at supper there; and tell me if Mason is with them, and what he is
doing.”</p>

<p>I went. I found all the party in the dining-room at supper, as Mr.
Rochester had said; they were not seated at table,—the supper was
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arranged on the sideboard; each had taken what he chose, and they stood
about here and there in groups, their plates and glasses in their
hands. Every one seemed in high glee; laughter and conversation were
general and animated. Mr. Mason stood near the fire, talking to Colonel
and Mrs. Dent, and appeared as merry as any of them. I filled a
wine-glass (I saw Miss Ingram watch me frowningly as I did so: she
thought I was taking a liberty, I daresay), and I returned to the
library.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester’s extreme pallor had disappeared, and he looked once more
firm and stern. He took the glass from my hand.</p>

<p>“Here is to your health, ministrant spirit!” he said. He swallowed the
contents and returned it to me. “What are they doing, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Laughing and talking, sir.”</p>

<p>“They don’t look grave and mysterious, as if they had heard something
strange?”</p>

<p>“Not at all: they are full of jests and gaiety.”</p>

<p>“And Mason?”</p>

<p>“He was laughing too.”</p>

<p>“If all these people came in a body and spat at me, what would you do,
Jane?”</p>
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<p>“Turn them out of the room, sir, if I could.”</p>

<p>He half smiled. “But if I were to go to them, and they only looked at
me coldly, and whispered sneeringly amongst each other, and then
dropped off and left me one by one, what then? Would you go with them?”</p>

<p>“I rather think not, sir: I should have more pleasure in staying with
you.”</p>

<p>“To comfort me?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir, to comfort you, as well as I could.”</p>

<p>“And if they laid you under a ban for adhering to me?”</p>

<p>“I, probably, should know nothing about their ban; and if I did, I
should care nothing about it.”</p>

<p>“Then, you could dare censure for my sake?”</p>

<p>“I could dare it for the sake of any friend who deserved my adherence;
as you, I am sure, do.”</p>

<p>“Go back now into the room; step quietly up to Mason, and whisper in
his ear that Mr. Rochester is come and wishes to see him: show him in
here and then leave me.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>I did his behest. The company all stared at me as I passed straight
among them. I 
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sought Mr. Mason, delivered the message, and preceded him
from the room: I ushered him into the library, and then I went
upstairs.</p>

<p>At a late hour, after I had been in bed some time, I heard the visitors
repair to their chambers: I distinguished Mr. Rochester’s voice, and
heard him say, “This way, Mason; this is your room.”</p>

<p>He spoke cheerfully: the gay tones set my heart at ease. I was soon
asleep.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XX</head>
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<p>I had forgotten to draw my curtain, which I usually did, and also to
let down my window-blind. The consequence was, that when the moon,
which was full and bright (for the night was fine), came in her course
to that space in the sky opposite my casement, and looked in at me
through the unveiled panes, her glorious gaze roused me. Awaking in the
dead of night, I opened my eyes on her disk—silver-white and crystal
clear. It was beautiful, but too solemn: I half rose, and stretched my
arm to draw the curtain.</p>

<p>Good God! What a cry!</p>

<p>The night—its silence—its rest, was rent in twain by a savage, a sharp,
a shrilly sound that ran from end to end of Thornfield Hall.</p>

<p>My pulse stopped: my heart stood still; my stretched arm was paralysed.
The cry died, and was not renewed. Indeed, whatever 
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being uttered that
fearful shriek could not soon repeat it: not the widest-winged condor
on the Andes could, twice in succession, send out such a yell from the
cloud shrouding his eyrie. The thing delivering such utterance must
rest ere it could repeat the effort.</p>

<p>It came out of the third storey; for it passed overhead. And
overhead—yes, in the room just above my chamber-ceiling—I now heard a
struggle: a deadly one it seemed from the noise; and a half-smothered
voice shouted—</p>

<p>“Help! help! help!” three times rapidly.</p>

<p>“Will no one come?” it cried; and then, while the staggering and
stamping went on wildly, I distinguished through plank and plaster:—</p>

<p>“Rochester! Rochester! for God’s sake, come!”</p>

<p>A chamber-door opened: some one ran, or rushed, along the gallery.
Another step stamped on the flooring above and something fell; and
there was silence.</p>

<p>I had put on some clothes, though horror shook all my limbs; I issued
from my apartment. The sleepers were all aroused: ejaculations,
terrified murmurs sounded in every room; door after door unclosed; one
looked out and another looked out; the gallery filled. 
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Gentlemen and
ladies alike had quitted their beds; and “Oh! what is it?”—“Who is
hurt?”—“What has happened?”—“Fetch a light!”—“Is it fire?”—“Are there
robbers?”—“Where shall we run?” was demanded confusedly on all hands.
But for the moonlight they would have been in complete darkness. They
ran to and fro; they crowded together: some sobbed, some stumbled: the
confusion was inextricable.</p>

<p>“Where the devil is Rochester?” cried Colonel Dent. “I cannot find him
in his bed.”</p>

<p>“Here! here!” was shouted in return. “Be composed, all of you: I’m
coming.”</p>

<p>And the door at the end of the gallery opened, and Mr. Rochester
advanced with a candle: he had just descended from the upper storey.
One of the ladies ran to him directly; she seized his arm: it was Miss
Ingram.</p>

<p>“What awful event has taken place?” said she. “Speak! let us know the
worst at once!”</p>

<p>“But don’t pull me down or strangle me,” he replied: for the Misses
Eshton were clinging about him now; and the two dowagers, in vast white
wrappers, were bearing down on him like ships in full sail.</p>
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<p>“All’s right!—all’s right!” he cried. “It’s a mere rehearsal of Much
Ado about Nothing. Ladies, keep off, or I shall wax dangerous.”</p>

<p>And dangerous he looked: his black eyes darted sparks. Calming himself
by an effort, he added—</p>

<p>“A servant has had the nightmare; that is all. She’s an excitable,
nervous person: she construed her dream into an apparition, or
something of that sort, no doubt; and has taken a fit with fright. Now,
then, I must see you all back into your rooms; for, till the house is
settled, she cannot be looked after. Gentlemen, have the goodness to
set the ladies the example. Miss Ingram, I am sure you will not fail in
evincing superiority to idle terrors. Amy and Louisa, return to your
nests like a pair of doves, as you are. Mesdames” (to the dowagers),
“you will take cold to a dead certainty, if you stay in this chill
gallery any longer.”</p>

<p>And so, by dint of alternate coaxing and commanding, he contrived to
get them all once more enclosed in their separate dormitories. I did
not wait to be ordered back to mine, but retreated unnoticed, as
unnoticed I had left it.</p>

<p>Not, however, to go to bed: on the contrary, 
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I began and dressed myself
carefully. The sounds I had heard after the scream, and the words that
had been uttered, had probably been heard only by me; for they had
proceeded from the room above mine: but they assured me that it was not
a servant’s dream which had thus struck horror through the house; and
that the explanation Mr. Rochester had given was merely an invention
framed to pacify his guests. I dressed, then, to be ready for
emergencies. When dressed, I sat a long time by the window looking out
over the silent grounds and silvered fields and waiting for I knew not
what. It seemed to me that some event must follow the strange cry,
struggle, and call.</p>

<p>No: stillness returned: each murmur and movement ceased gradually, and
in about an hour Thornfield Hall was again as hushed as a desert. It
seemed that sleep and night had resumed their empire. Meantime the moon
declined: she was about to set. Not liking to sit in the cold and
darkness, I thought I would lie down on my bed, dressed as I was. I
left the window, and moved with little noise across the carpet; as I
stooped to take off my shoes, a cautious hand tapped low at the door.</p>
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<p>“Am I wanted?” I asked.</p>

<p>“Are you up?” asked the voice I expected to hear, viz., my master’s.</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And dressed?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Come out, then, quietly.”</p>

<p>I obeyed. Mr. Rochester stood in the gallery holding a light.</p>

<p>“I want you,” he said: “come this way: take your time, and make no
noise.”</p>

<p>My slippers were thin: I could walk the matted floor as softly as a
cat. He glided up the gallery and up the stairs, and stopped in the
dark, low corridor of the fateful third storey: I had followed and
stood at his side.</p>

<p>“Have you a sponge in your room?” he asked in a whisper.</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Have you any salts—volatile salts?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Go back and fetch both.”</p>

<p>I returned, sought the sponge on the washstand, the salts in my drawer,
and once more retraced my steps. He still waited; he held a key in his
hand: approaching one of the small, black doors, he put it in the lock;
he paused, and addressed me again.</p>
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<p>“You don’t turn sick at the sight of blood?”</p>

<p>“I think I shall not: I have never been tried yet.”</p>

<p>I felt a thrill while I answered him; but no coldness, and no
faintness.</p>

<p>“Just give me your hand,” he said: “it will not do to risk a fainting
fit.”</p>

<p>I put my fingers into his. “Warm and steady,” was his remark: he turned
the key and opened the door.</p>

<p>I saw a room I remembered to have seen before, the day Mrs. Fairfax
showed me over the house: it was hung with tapestry; but the tapestry
was now looped up in one part, and there was a door apparent, which had
then been concealed. This door was open; a light shone out of the room
within: I heard thence a snarling, snatching sound, almost like a dog
quarrelling. Mr. Rochester, putting down his candle, said to me, “Wait
a minute,” and he went forward to the inner apartment. A shout of
laughter greeted his entrance; noisy at first, and terminating in Grace
Poole’s own goblin ha! ha! <hi rend="italic">She</hi> then was there. He made some sort of
arrangement without speaking, though I heard a low voice address him:
he came out and closed the door behind him.</p>
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<p>“Here, Jane!” he said; and I walked round to the other side of a large
bed, which with its drawn curtains concealed a considerable portion of
the chamber. An easy-chair was near the bed-head: a man sat in it,
dressed with the exception of his coat; he was still; his head leant
back; his eyes were closed. Mr. Rochester held the candle over him; I
recognised in his pale and seemingly lifeless face—the stranger, Mason:
I saw too that his linen on one side, and one arm, was almost soaked in
blood.</p>

<p>“Hold the candle,” said Mr. Rochester, and I took it: he fetched a
basin of water from the washstand: “Hold that,” said he. I obeyed. He
took the sponge, dipped it in, and moistened the corpse-like face; he
asked for my smelling-bottle, and applied it to the nostrils. Mr. Mason
shortly unclosed his eyes; he groaned. Mr. Rochester opened the shirt
of the wounded man, whose arm and shoulder were bandaged: he sponged
away blood, trickling fast down.</p>

<p>“Is there immediate danger?” murmured Mr. Mason.</p>

<p>“Pooh! No—a mere scratch. Don’t be so overcome, man: bear up! I’ll
fetch a surgeon for you now, myself: you’ll be able to 
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be removed by
morning, I hope. Jane,” he continued.</p>

<p>“Sir?”</p>

<p>“I shall have to leave you in this room with this gentleman, for an
hour, or perhaps two hours: you will sponge the blood as I do when it
returns: if he feels faint, you will put the glass of water on that
stand to his lips, and your salts to his nose. You will not speak to
him on any pretext—and—Richard, it will be at the peril of your life if
you speak to her: open your lips—agitate yourself—and I’ll not answer
for the consequences.”</p>

<p>Again the poor man groaned; he looked as if he dared not move; fear,
either of death or of something else, appeared almost to paralyse him.
Mr. Rochester put the now bloody sponge into my hand, and I proceeded
to use it as he had done. He watched me a second, then saying,
“Remember!—No conversation,” he left the room. I experienced a strange
feeling as the key grated in the lock, and the sound of his retreating
step ceased to be heard.</p>

<p>Here then I was in the third storey, fastened into one of its mystic
cells; night around me; a pale and bloody spectacle under my eyes and
hands; a murderess hardly separated from me 
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by a single door: yes—that
was appalling—the rest I could bear; but I shuddered at the thought of
Grace Poole bursting out upon me.</p>

<p>I must keep to my post, however. I must watch this ghastly
countenance—these blue, still lips forbidden to unclose—these eyes now
shut, now opening, now wandering through the room, now fixing on me,
and ever glazed with the dulness of horror. I must dip my hand again
and again in the basin of blood and water, and wipe away the trickling
gore. I must see the light of the unsnuffed candle wane on my
employment; the shadows darken on the wrought, antique tapestry round
me, and grow black under the hangings of the vast old bed, and quiver
strangely over the doors of a great cabinet opposite—whose front,
divided into twelve panels, bore, in grim design, the heads of the
twelve apostles, each enclosed in its separate panel as in a frame;
while above them at the top rose an ebon crucifix and a dying Christ.</p>

<p>According as the shifting obscurity and flickering gleam hovered here
or glanced there, it was now the bearded physician, Luke, that bent his
brow; now St. John’s long hair that waved; and anon the devilish face
of Judas, that grew out of the panel, and seemed 
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gathering life and
threatening a revelation of the arch-traitor—of Satan himself—in his
subordinate’s form.</p>

<p>Amidst all this, I had to listen as well as watch: to listen for the
movements of the wild beast or the fiend in yonder side den. But since
Mr. Rochester’s visit it seemed spellbound: all the night I heard but
three sounds at three long intervals,—a step creak, a momentary renewal
of the snarling, canine noise, and a deep human groan.</p>

<p>Then my own thoughts worried me. What crime was this, that lived
incarnate in this sequestered mansion, and could neither be expelled
nor subdued by the owner?—what mystery, that broke out now in fire and
now in blood, at the deadest hours of night? What creature was it,
that, masked in an ordinary woman’s face and shape, uttered the voice,
now of a mocking demon, and anon of a carrion-seeking bird of prey?</p>

<p>And this man I bent over—this commonplace, quiet stranger—how had he
become involved in the web of horror? and why had the Fury flown at
him? What made him seek this quarter of the house at an untimely
season, when he should have been asleep in bed? I had heard Mr.
Rochester assign him an apart
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ment below—what brought him here! And why,
now, was he so tame under the violence or treachery done him? Why did
he so quietly submit to the concealment Mr. Rochester enforced? Why
<hi rend="italic">did</hi> Mr. Rochester enforce this concealment? His guest had been
outraged, his own life on a former occasion had been hideously plotted
against; and both attempts he smothered in secrecy and sank in
oblivion! Lastly, I saw Mr. Mason was submissive to Mr. Rochester; that
the impetuous will of the latter held complete sway over the inertness
of the former: the few words which had passed between them assured me
of this. It was evident that in their former intercourse, the passive
disposition of the one had been habitually influenced by the active
energy of the other: whence then had arisen Mr. Rochester’s dismay when
he heard of Mr. Mason’s arrival? Why had the mere name of this
unresisting individual—whom his word now sufficed to control like a
child—fallen on him, a few hours since, as a thunderbolt might fall on
an oak?</p>

<p>Oh! I could not forget his look and his paleness when he whispered:
“Jane, I have got a blow—I have got a blow, Jane.” I could not forget
how the arm had trembled 
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which he rested on my shoulder: and it was no
light matter which could thus bow the resolute spirit and thrill the
vigorous frame of Fairfax Rochester.</p>

<p>“When will he come? When will he come?” I cried inwardly, as the night
lingered and lingered—as my bleeding patient drooped, moaned, sickened:
and neither day nor aid arrived. I had, again and again, held the water
to Mason’s white lips; again and again offered him the stimulating
salts: my efforts seemed ineffectual: either bodily or mental
suffering, or loss of blood, or all three combined, were fast
prostrating his strength. He moaned so, and looked so weak, wild, and
lost, I feared he was dying; and I might not even speak to him.</p>

<p>The candle, wasted at last, went out; as it expired, I perceived
streaks of grey light edging the window curtains: dawn was then
approaching. Presently I heard Pilot bark far below, out of his distant
kennel in the courtyard: hope revived. Nor was it unwarranted: in five
minutes more the grating key, the yielding lock, warned me my watch was
relieved. It could not have lasted more than two hours: many a week has
seemed shorter.</p>
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<p>Mr. Rochester entered, and with him the surgeon he had been to fetch.</p>

<p>“Now, Carter, be on the alert,” he said to this last: “I give you but
half-an-hour for dressing the wound, fastening the bandages, getting
the patient downstairs and all.”</p>

<p>“But is he fit to move, sir?”</p>

<p>“No doubt of it; it is nothing serious; he is nervous, his spirits must
be kept up. Come, set to work.”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester drew back the thick curtain, drew up the holland blind,
let in all the daylight he could; and I was surprised and cheered to
see how far dawn was advanced: what rosy streaks were beginning to
brighten the east. Then he approached Mason, whom the surgeon was
already handling.</p>

<p>“Now, my good fellow, how are you?” he asked.</p>

<p>“She’s done for me, I fear,” was the faint reply.</p>

<p>“Not a whit!—courage! This day fortnight you’ll hardly be a pin the
worse of it: you’ve lost a little blood; that’s all. Carter, assure him
there’s no danger.”</p>

<p>“I can do that conscientiously,” said Carter, who had now undone the
bandages; “only I wish I could have got here sooner: he would
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not have
bled so much—but how is this? The flesh on the shoulder is torn as well
as cut. This wound was not done with a knife: there have been teeth
here!”</p>

<p>“She bit me,” he murmured. “She worried me like a tigress, when
Rochester got the knife from her.”</p>

<p>“You should not have yielded: you should have grappled with her at
once,” said Mr. Rochester.</p>

<p>“But under such circumstances, what could one do?” returned Mason. “Oh,
it was frightful!” he added, shuddering. “And I did not expect it: she
looked so quiet at first.”</p>

<p>“I warned you,” was his friend’s answer; “I said—be on your guard when
you go near her. Besides, you might have waited till to-morrow, and had
me with you: it was mere folly to attempt the interview to-night, and
alone.”</p>

<p>“I thought I could have done some good.”</p>

<p>“You thought! you thought! Yes, it makes me impatient to hear you: but,
however, you have suffered, and are likely to suffer enough for not
taking my advice; so I’ll say no more. Carter—hurry!—hurry! The sun
will soon rise, and I must have him off.”</p>

<p>“Directly, sir; the shoulder is just ban
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    daged. I must look to this
other wound in the arm: she has had her teeth here too, I think.”</p>

<p>“She sucked the blood: she said she’d drain my heart,” said Mason.</p>

<p>I saw Mr. Rochester shudder: a singularly marked expression of disgust,
horror, hatred, warped his countenance almost to distortion; but he
only said—</p>

<p>“Come, be silent, Richard, and never mind her gibberish: don’t repeat
it.”</p>

<p>“I wish I could forget it,” was the answer.</p>

<p>“You will when you are out of the country: when you get back to Spanish
Town, you may think of her as dead and buried—or rather, you need not
think of her at all.”</p>

<p>“Impossible to forget this night!”</p>

<p>“It is not impossible: have some energy, man. You thought you were as
dead as a herring two hours since, and you are all alive and talking
now. There!—Carter has done with you or nearly so; I’ll make you decent
in a trice. Jane” (he turned to me for the first time since his
re-entrance), “take this key: go down into my bedroom, and walk
straight forward into my dressing-room: open the top drawer of the
wardrobe and take out a clean shirt and neck-handkerchief: bring them
here; and be nimble.”</p>
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<p>I went; sought the repository he had mentioned, found the articles
named, and returned with them.</p>

<p>“Now,” said he, “go to the other side of the bed while I order his
toilet; but don’t leave the room: you may be wanted again.”</p>

<p>I retired as directed.</p>

<p>“Was anybody stirring below when you went down, Jane?” inquired Mr.
Rochester presently.</p>

<p>“No, sir; all was very still.”</p>

<p>“We shall get you off cannily, Dick: and it will be better, both for
your sake, and for that of the poor creature in yonder. I have striven
long to avoid exposure, and I should not like it to come at last. Here,
Carter, help him on with his waist-coat. Where did you leave your
furred cloak? You can’t travel a mile without that, I know, in this
damned cold climate. In your room?—Jane, run down to Mr. Mason’s
room,—the one next mine,—and fetch a cloak you will see there.”</p>

<p>Again I ran, and again returned, bearing an immense mantle lined and
edged with fur.</p>

<p>“Now, I’ve another errand for you,” said my untiring master; “you must
away to my room again. What a mercy you are shod 
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with velvet, Jane!—a
clod-hopping messenger would never do at this juncture. You must open
the middle drawer of my toilet-table and take out a little phial and a
little glass you will find there,—quick!”</p>

<p>I flew thither and back, bringing the desired vessels.</p>

<p>“That’s well! Now, doctor, I shall take the liberty of administering a
dose myself, on my own responsibility. I got this cordial at Rome, of
an Italian charlatan—a fellow you would have kicked, Carter. It is not
a thing to be used indiscriminately, but it is good upon occasion: as
now, for instance. Jane, a little water.”</p>

<p>He held out the tiny glass, and I half filled it from the water-bottle
on the washstand.</p>

<p>“That will do;—now wet the lip of the phial.”</p>

<p>I did so; he measured twelve drops of a crimson liquid, and presented
it to Mason.</p>

<p>“Drink, Richard: it will give you the heart you lack, for an hour or
so.”</p>

<p>“But will it hurt me?—is it inflammatory?”</p>

<p>“Drink! drink! drink!”</p>

<p>Mr. Mason obeyed, because it was evidently useless to resist. He was
dressed now: he still looked pale, but he was no longer gory 
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and
sullied. Mr. Rochester let him sit three minutes after he had swallowed
the liquid; he then took his arm—</p>

<p>“Now I am sure you can get on your feet,” he said—“try.”</p>

<p>The patient rose.</p>

<p>“Carter, take him under the other shoulder. Be of good cheer, Richard;
step out—that’s it!”</p>

<p>“I do feel better,” remarked Mr. Mason.</p>

<p>“I am sure you do. Now, Jane, trip on before us away to the backstairs;
unbolt the side-passage door, and tell the driver of the post-chaise
you will see in the yard—or just outside, for I told him not to drive
his rattling wheels over the pavement—to be ready; we are coming: and,
Jane, if any one is about, come to the foot of the stairs and hem.”</p>

<p>It was by this time half-past five, and the sun was on the point of
rising; but I found the kitchen still dark and silent. The side-passage
door was fastened; I opened it with as little noise as possible: all
the yard was quiet; but the gates stood wide open, and there was a
post-chaise, with horses ready harnessed, and driver seated on the box,
stationed outside. I approached him, and said the gentlemen were
coming; he nodded: then I looked carefully 
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round and listened. The
stillness of early morning slumbered everywhere; the curtains were yet
drawn over the servants’ chamber windows; little birds were just
twittering in the blossom-blanched orchard trees, whose boughs drooped
like white garlands over the wall enclosing one side of the yard; the
carriage horses stamped from time to time in their closed stables: all
else was still.</p>

<p>The gentlemen now appeared. Mason, supported by Mr. Rochester and the
surgeon, seemed to walk with tolerable ease: they assisted him into the
chaise; Carter followed.</p>

<p>“Take care of him,” said Mr. Rochester to the latter, “and keep him at
your house till he is quite well: I shall ride over in a day or two to
see how he gets on. Richard, how is it with you?”</p>

<p>“The fresh air revives me, Fairfax.”</p>

<p>“Leave the window open on his side, Carter; there is no wind—good-bye,
Dick.”</p>

<p>“Fairfax—”</p>

<p>“Well what is it?”</p>

<p>“Let her be taken care of; let her be treated as tenderly as may be:
let her—” he stopped and burst into tears.</p>

<p>“I do my best; and have done it, and will 
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do it,” was the answer: he
shut up the chaise door, and the vehicle drove away.</p>

<p>“Yet would to God there was an end of all this!” added Mr. Rochester,
as he closed and barred the heavy yard-gates.</p>

<p>This done, he moved with slow step and abstracted air towards a door in
the wall bordering the orchard. I, supposing he had done with me,
prepared to return to the house; again, however, I heard him call
“Jane!” He had opened the portal and stood at it, waiting for me.</p>

<p>“Come where there is some freshness, for a few moments,” he said; “that
house is a mere dungeon: don’t you feel it so?”</p>

<p>“It seems to me a splendid mansion, sir.”</p>

<p>“The glamour of inexperience is over your eyes,” he answered; “and you
see it through a charmed medium: you cannot discern that the gilding is
slime and the silk draperies cobwebs; that the marble is sordid slate,
and the polished woods mere refuse chips and scaly bark. Now <hi rend="italic">here</hi>”
(he pointed to the leafy enclosure we had entered) “all is real, sweet,
and pure.”</p>

<p>He strayed down a walk edged with box, with apple trees, pear trees,
and cherry trees on one side, and a border on the other full of 
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all
sorts of old-fashioned flowers, stocks, sweet-williams, primroses,
pansies, mingled with southernwood, sweet-briar, and various fragrant
herbs. They were fresh now as a succession of April showers and gleams,
followed by a lovely spring morning, could make them: the sun was just
entering the dappled east, and his light illumined the wreathed and
dewy orchard trees and shone down the quiet walks under them.</p>

<p>“Jane, will you have a flower?”</p>

<p>He gathered a half-blown rose, the first on the bush, and offered it to
me.</p>

<p>“Thank you, sir.”</p>

<p>“Do you like this sunrise, Jane? That sky with its high and light
clouds which are sure to melt away as the day waxes warm—this placid
and balmly atmosphere?”</p>

<p>“I do, very much.”</p>

<p>“You have passed a strange night, Jane.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And it has made you look pale—were you afraid when I left you alone
with Mason?”</p>

<p>“I was afraid of some one coming out of the inner room.”</p>

<p>“But I had fastened the door—I had the key in my pocket: I should have
been a careless shepherd if I had left a lamb—my pet 
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lamb—so near a
wolf’s den, unguarded: you were safe.”</p>

<p>“Will Grace Poole live here still, sir?”</p>

<p>“Oh yes! don’t trouble your head about her—put the thing out of your
thoughts.”</p>

<p>“Yet it seems to me your life is hardly secure while she stays.”</p>

<p>“Never fear—I will take care of myself.”</p>

<p>“Is the danger you apprehended last night gone by now, sir?”</p>

<p>“I cannot vouch for that till Mason is out of England: nor even then.
To live, for me, Jane, is to stand on a crater-crust which may crack
and spue fire any day.”</p>

<p>“But Mr. Mason seems a man easily led. Your influence, sir, is
evidently potent with him: he will never set you at defiance or
wilfully injure you.”</p>

<p>“Oh, no! Mason will not defy me; nor, knowing it, will he hurt me—but,
unintentionally, he might in a moment, by one careless word, deprive
me, if not of life, yet for ever of happiness.”</p>

<p>“Tell him to be cautious, sir: let him know what you fear, and show him
how to avert the danger.”</p>

<p>He laughed sardonically, hastily took my hand, and as hastily threw it
from him.</p>
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<p>“If I could do that, simpleton, where would the danger be? Annihilated
in a moment. Ever since I have known Mason, I have only had to say to
him ‘Do that,’ and the thing has been done. But I cannot give him
orders in this case: I cannot say ‘Beware of harming me, Richard;’ for
it is imperative that I should keep him ignorant that harm to me is
possible. Now you look puzzled; and I will puzzle you further. You are
my little friend, are you not?”</p>

<p>“I like to serve you, sir, and to obey you in all that is right.”</p>

<p>“Precisely: I see you do. I see genuine contentment in your gait and
mien, your eye and face, when you are helping me and pleasing
me—working for me, and with me, in, as you characteristically say,
‘<hi rend="italic">all that is right</hi>:’ for if I bid you do what you thought wrong,
there would be no light-footed running, no neat-handed alacrity, no
lively glance and animated complexion. My friend would then turn to me,
quiet and pale, and would say, ‘No, sir; that is impossible: I cannot
do it, because it is wrong;’ and would become immutable as a fixed
star. Well, you too have power over me, and may injure me: yet I dare
not show you where I am vulnerable, lest, faithful and 
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friendly as you
are, you should transfix me at once.”</p>

<p>“If you have no more to fear from Mr. Mason than you have from me, sir,
you are very safe.”</p>

<p>“God grant it may be so! Here, Jane, is an arbour; sit down.”</p>

<p>The arbour was an arch in the wall, lined with ivy; it contained a
rustic seat. Mr. Rochester took it, leaving room, however, for me: but
I stood before him.</p>

<p>“Sit,” he said; “the bench is long enough for two. You don’t hesitate
to take a place at my side, do you? Is that wrong, Jane?”</p>

<p>I answered him by assuming it: to refuse would, I felt, have been
unwise.</p>

<p>“Now, my little friend, while the sun drinks the dew—while all the
flowers in this old garden awake and expand, and the birds fetch their
young ones’ breakfast out of the Thornfield, and the early bees do
their first spell of work—I’ll put a case to you, which you must
endeavour to suppose your own: but first, look at me, and tell me you
are at ease, and not fearing that I err in detaining you, or that you
err in staying.”</p>

<p>“No, sir; I am content.”</p>

<p>“Well then, Jane, call to aid your fancy:
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    —suppose you were no longer a
girl well reared and disciplined, but a wild boy indulged from
childhood upwards; imagine yourself in a remote foreign land; conceive
that you there commit a capital error, no matter of what nature or from
what motives, but one whose consequences must follow you through life
and taint all your existence. Mind, I don’t say a <hi rend="italic">crime</hi>; I am not
speaking of shedding of blood or any other guilty act, which might make
the perpetrator amenable to the law: my word is <hi rend="italic">error</hi>. The results of
what you have done become in time to you utterly insupportable; you
take measures to obtain relief: unusual measures, but neither unlawful
nor culpable. Still you are miserable; for hope has quitted you on the
very confines of life: your sun at noon darkens in an eclipse, which
you feel will not leave it till the time of setting. Bitter and base
associations have become the sole food of your memory: you wander here
and there, seeking rest in exile: happiness in pleasure—I mean in
heartless, sensual pleasure—such as dulls intellect and blights
feeling. Heart-weary and soul-withered, you come home after years of
voluntary banishment: you make a new acquaintance—how or where no
matter: you find in this stranger much of the good
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and bright qualities
which you have sought for twenty years, and never before encountered;
and they are all fresh, healthy, without soil and without taint. Such
society revives, regenerates: you feel better days come back—higher
wishes, purer feelings; you desire to recommence your life, and to
spend what remains to you of days in a way more worthy of an immortal
being. To attain this end, are you justified in overleaping an obstacle
of custom—a mere conventional impediment which neither your conscience
sanctifies nor your judgment approves?”</p>

<p>He paused for an answer: and what was I to say? Oh, for some good
spirit to suggest a judicious and satisfactory response! Vain
aspiration! The west wind whispered in the ivy round me; but no gentle
Ariel borrowed its breath as a medium of speech: the birds sang in the
tree-tops; but their song, however sweet, was inarticulate.</p>

<p>Again Mr. Rochester propounded his query:</p>

<p>“Is the wandering and sinful, but now rest-seeking and repentant, man
justified in daring the world’s opinion, in order to attach to him for
ever this gentle, gracious, genial stranger, thereby securing his own
peace of mind and regeneration of life?”</p>
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<p>“Sir,” I answered, “a wanderer’s repose or a sinner’s reformation
should never depend on a fellow-creature. Men and women die;
philosophers falter in wisdom, and Christians in goodness: if any one
you know has suffered and erred, let him look higher than his equals
for strength to amend and solace to heal.”</p>

<p>“But the instrument—the instrument! God, who does the work, ordains the
instrument. I have myself—I tell it you without parable—been a worldly,
dissipated, restless man; and I believe I have found the instrument for
my cure in—”</p>

<p>He paused: the birds went on carolling, the leaves lightly rustling. I
almost wondered they did not check their songs and whispers to catch
the suspended revelation; but they would have had to wait many
minutes—so long was the silence protracted. At last I looked up at the
tardy speaker: he was looking eagerly at me.</p>

<p>“Little friend,” said he, in quite a changed tone—while his face
changed too, losing all its softness and gravity, and becoming harsh
and sarcastic—“you have noticed my tender penchant for Miss Ingram:
don’t you think 
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if I married her she would regenerate me with a
vengeance?”</p>

<p>He got up instantly, went quite to the other end of the walk, and when
he came back he was humming a tune.</p>

<p>“Jane, Jane,” said he, stopping before me, “you are quite pale with
your vigils: don’t you curse me for disturbing your rest?”</p>

<p>“Curse you? No, sir.”</p>

<p>“Shake hands in confirmation of the word. What cold fingers! They were
warmer last night when I touched them at the door of the mysterious
chamber. Jane, when will you watch with me again?”</p>

<p>“Whenever I can be useful, sir.”</p>

<p>“For instance, the night before I am married! I am sure I shall not be
able to sleep. Will you promise to sit up with me to bear me company?
To you I can talk of my lovely one: for now you have seen her and know
her.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“She’s a rare one, is she not, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“A strapper—a real strapper, Jane: big, brown, and buxom; with hair
just such as the ladies of Carthage must have had. Bless me! 
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there’s
Dent and Lynn in the stables! Go in by the shrubbery, through that
wicket.”</p>

<p>As I went one way, he went another, and I heard him in the yard, saying
cheerfully—</p>

<p>“Mason got the start of you all this morning; he was gone before
sunrise: I rose at four to see him off.”</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXI</head>
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<p>Presentiments are strange things! and so are sympathies; and so are
signs; and the three combined make one mystery to which humanity has
not yet found the key. I never laughed at presentiments in my life,
because I have had strange ones of my own. Sympathies, I believe, exist
(for instance, between far-distant, long-absent, wholly estranged
relatives asserting, notwithstanding their alienation, the unity of the
source to which each traces his origin) whose workings baffle mortal
comprehension. And signs, for aught we know, may be but the sympathies
of Nature with man.</p>

<p>When I was a little girl, only six years old, I one night heard Bessie
Leaven say to Martha Abbot that she had been dreaming about a little
child; and that to dream of children was a sure sign of trouble, either
to one’s self or one’s kin. The saying might have 
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worn out of my
memory, had not a circumstance immediately followed which served
indelibly to fix it there. The next day Bessie was sent for home to the
deathbed of her little sister.</p>

<p>Of late I had often recalled this saying and this incident; for during
the past week scarcely a night had gone over my couch that had not
brought with it a dream of an infant, which I sometimes hushed in my
arms, sometimes dandled on my knee, sometimes watched playing with
daisies on a lawn, or again, dabbling its hands in running water. It
was a wailing child this night, and a laughing one the next: now it
nestled close to me, and now it ran from me; but whatever mood the
apparition evinced, whatever aspect it wore, it failed not for seven
successive nights to meet me the moment I entered the land of slumber.</p>

<p>I did not like this iteration of one idea—this strange recurrence of
one image, and I grew nervous as bedtime approached and the hour of the
vision drew near. It was from companionship with this baby-phantom I
had been roused on that moonlight night when I heard the cry; and it
was on the afternoon of the day following I was summoned downstairs by
a message that some one wanted me in Mrs. 
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Fairfax’s room. On repairing
thither, I found a man waiting for me, having the appearance of a
gentleman’s servant: he was dressed in deep mourning, and the hat he
held in his hand was surrounded with a crape band.</p>

<p>“I daresay you hardly remember me, Miss,” he said, rising as I entered;
“but my name is Leaven: I lived coachman with Mrs. Reed when you were
at Gateshead, eight or nine years since, and I live there still.”</p>

<p>“Oh, Robert! how do you do? I remember you very well: you used to give
me a ride sometimes on Miss Georgiana’s bay pony. And how is Bessie?
You are married to Bessie?”</p>

<p>“Yes, Miss: my wife is very hearty, thank you; she brought me another
little one about two months since—we have three now—and both mother and
child are thriving.”</p>

<p>“And are the family well at the house, Robert?”</p>

<p>“I am sorry I can’t give you better news of them, Miss: they are very
badly at present—in great trouble.”</p>

<p>“I hope no one is dead,” I said, glancing at his black dress. He too
looked down at the crape round his hat and replied—</p>
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<p>“Mr. John died yesterday was a week, at his chambers in London.”</p>

<p>“Mr. John?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“And how does his mother bear it?”</p>

<p>“Why, you see, Miss Eyre, it is not a common mishap: his life has been
very wild: these last three years he gave himself up to strange ways,
and his death was shocking.”</p>

<p>“I heard from Bessie he was not doing well.”</p>

<p>“Doing well! He could not do worse: he ruined his health and his estate
amongst the worst men and the worst women. He got into debt and into
jail: his mother helped him out twice, but as soon as he was free he
returned to his old companions and habits. His head was not strong: the
knaves he lived amongst fooled him beyond anything I ever heard. He
came down to Gateshead about three weeks ago and wanted missis to give
up all to him. Missis refused: her means have long been much reduced by
his extravagance; so he went back again, and the next news was that he
was dead. How he died, God knows!—they say he killed himself.”</p>

<p>I was silent: the tidings were frightful. Robert Leaven resumed—</p>
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<p>“Missis had been out of health herself for some time: she had got very
stout, but was not strong with it; and the loss of money and fear of
poverty were quite breaking her down. The information about Mr. John’s
death and the manner of it came too suddenly: it brought on a stroke.
She was three days without speaking; but last Tuesday she seemed rather
better: she appeared as if she wanted to say something, and kept making
signs to my wife and mumbling. It was only yesterday morning, however,
that Bessie understood she was pronouncing your name; and at last she
made out the words, ‘Bring Jane—fetch Jane Eyre: I want to speak to
her.’ Bessie is not sure whether she is in her right mind, or means
anything by the words; but she told Miss Reed and Miss Georgiana, and
advised them to send for you. The young ladies put it off at first; but
their mother grew so restless, and said, ‘Jane, Jane,’ so many times,
that at last they consented. I left Gateshead yesterday: and if you can
get ready, Miss, I should like to take you back with me early to-morrow
morning.”</p>

<p>“Yes, Robert, I shall be ready: it seems to me that I ought to go.”</p>

<p>“I think so too, Miss. Bessie said she was sure you would not refuse:
but I suppose 
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you will have to ask leave before you can get off?”</p>

<p>“Yes; and I will do it now;” and having directed him to the servants’
hall, and recommended him to the care of John’s wife, and the
attentions of John himself, I went in search of Mr. Rochester.</p>

<p>He was not in any of the lower rooms; he was not in the yard, the
stables, or the grounds. I asked Mrs. Fairfax if she had seen him;—yes:
she believed he was playing billiards with Miss Ingram. To the
billiard-room I hastened: the click of balls and the hum of voices
resounded thence; Mr. Rochester, Miss Ingram, the two Misses Eshton,
and their admirers, were all busied in the game. It required some
courage to disturb so interesting a party; my errand, however, was one
I could not defer, so I approached the master where he stood at Miss
Ingram’s side. She turned as I drew near, and looked at me haughtily:
her eyes seemed to demand, “What can the creeping creature want now?”
and when I said, in a low voice, “Mr. Rochester,” she made a movement
as if tempted to order me away. I remember her appearance at the
moment—it was very graceful and very striking: she wore a morning robe
of sky-blue 
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crape; a gauzy azure scarf was twisted in her hair. She had
been all animation with the game, and irritated pride did not lower the
expression of her haughty lineaments.</p>

<p>“Does that person want you?” she inquired of Mr. Rochester; and Mr.
Rochester turned to see who the “person” was. He made a curious
grimace—one of his strange and equivocal demonstrations—threw down his
cue and followed me from the room.</p>

<p>“Well, Jane?” he said, as he rested his back against the schoolroom
door, which he had shut.</p>

<p>“If you please, sir, I want leave of absence for a week or two.”</p>

<p>“What to do?—where to go?”</p>

<p>“To see a sick lady who has sent for me.”</p>

<p>“What sick lady?—where does she live?”</p>

<p>“At Gateshead; in ——shire.”</p>

<p>“-shire? That is a hundred miles off! Who may she be that sends for
people to see her that distance?”</p>

<p>“Her name is Reed, sir—Mrs. Reed.”</p>

<p>“Reed of Gateshead? There was a Reed of Gateshead, a magistrate.”</p>

<p>“It is his widow, sir.”</p>

<p>“And what have you to do with her? How do you know her?”</p>
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<p>“Mr. Reed was my uncle—my mother’s brother.”</p>

<p>“The deuce he was! You never told me that before: you always said you
had no relations.”</p>

<p>“None that would own me, sir. Mr. Reed is dead, and his wife cast me
off.”</p>

<p>“Why?”</p>

<p>“Because I was poor, and burdensome, and she disliked me.”</p>

<p>“But Reed left children?—you must have cousins? Sir George Lynn was
talking of a Reed of Gateshead yesterday, who, he said, was one of the
veriest rascals on town; and Ingram was mentioning a Georgiana Reed of
the same place, who was much admired for her beauty a season or two ago
in London.”</p>

<p>“John Reed is dead, too, sir: he ruined himself and half-ruined his
family, and is supposed to have committed suicide. The news so shocked
his mother that it brought on an apoplectic attack.”</p>

<p>“And what good can you do her? Nonsense, Jane! I would never think of
running a hundred miles to see an old lady who will, perhaps, be dead
before you reach her: besides, you say she cast you off.”</p>
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<p>“Yes, sir, but that is long ago; and when her circumstances were very
different: I could not be easy to neglect her wishes now.”</p>

<p>“How long will you stay?”</p>

<p>“As short a time as possible, sir.”</p>

<p>“Promise me only to stay a week—”</p>

<p>"I had better not pass my word: I might be obliged to break it.”</p>

<p>“At all events you <hi rend="italic">will</hi> come back: you will not be induced under any
pretext to take up a permanent residence with her?”</p>

<p>“Oh, no! I shall certainly return if all be well.”</p>

<p>“And who goes with you? You don’t travel a hundred miles alone.”</p>

<p>“No, sir, she has sent her coachman.”</p>

<p>“A person to be trusted?”</p>

<p>Yes, sir, he has lived ten years in the family.”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester meditated. “When do you wish to go?”</p>

<p>Early to-morrow morning, sir.”</p>

<p>“Well, you must have some money; you can’t travel without money, and I
daresay you have not much: I have given you no salary yet. How much
have you in the world, Jane?” he asked, smiling.</p>

<p>I drew out my purse; a meagre thing it
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    was. “Five shillings, sir.” He
took the purse, poured the hoard into his palm, and chuckled over it as
if its scantiness amused him. Soon he produced his pocket-book: “Here,”
said he, offering me a note; it was fifty pounds, and he owed me but
fifteen. I told him I had no change.</p>

<p>“I don’t want change; you know that. Take your wages.”</p>

<p>I declined accepting more than was my due. He scowled at first; then,
as if recollecting something, he said—</p>

<p>“Right, right! Better not give you all now: you would, perhaps, stay
away three months if you had fifty pounds. There are ten; is it not
plenty?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir, but now you owe me five.”</p>

<p>“Come back for it, then; I am your banker for forty pounds.”</p>
<p>“Mr. Rochester, I may as well mention another matter of business to you
while I have the opportunity.”</p>

<p>“Matter of business? I am curious to hear it.”</p>

<p>“You have as good as informed me, sir, that you are going shortly to be
married?”</p>

<p>“Yes; what then?”</p>

<p>“In that case, sir, Adèle ought to go to
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    school: I am sure you will
perceive the necessity of it.”</p>

<p>“To get her out of my bride’s way, who might otherwise walk over her
rather too emphatically? There’s sense in the suggestion; not a doubt
of it. Adèle, as you say, must go to school; and you, of course, must
march straight to—the devil?”</p>

<p>“I hope not, sir; but I must seek another situation somewhere.”</p>

<p>“In course!” he exclaimed, with a twang of voice and a distortion of
features equally fantastic and ludicrous. He looked at me some minutes.</p>

<p>“And old Madam Reed, or the Misses, her daughters, will be solicited by
you to seek a place, I suppose?”</p>

<p>“No, sir; I am not on such terms with my relatives as would justify me
in asking favours of them—but I shall advertise.”</p>

<p>“You shall walk up the pyramids of Egypt!” he growled. “At your peril
you advertise! I wish I had only offered you a sovereign instead of ten
pounds. Give me back nine pounds, Jane; I’ve a use for it.”</p>

<p>“And so have I, sir,” I returned, putting my hands and my purse behind
me. “I could not spare the money on any account.”</p>
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<p>“Little niggard!” said he, “refusing me a pecuniary request! Give me
five pounds, Jane.”</p>

<p>“Not five shillings, sir; nor five pence.”</p>

<p>“Just let me look at the cash.”</p>

<p>“No, sir; you are not to be trusted.”</p>

<p>“Jane!”</p>

<p>“Sir?”</p>

<p>“Promise me one thing.”</p>

<p>“I’ll promise you anything, sir, that I think I am likely to perform.”</p>

<p>“Not to advertise: and to trust this quest of a situation to me. I’ll
find you one in time.”</p>

<p>“I shall be glad so to do, sir, if you, in your turn, will promise that
I and Adèle shall be both safe out of the house before your bride
enters it.”</p>

<p>“Very well! very well! I’ll pledge my word on it. You go to-morrow,
then?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir; early.”</p>

<p>“Shall you come down to the drawing-room after dinner?”</p>

<p>“No, sir, I must prepare for the journey.”</p>

<p>“Then you and I must bid good-bye for a little while?”</p>

<p>“I suppose so, sir.”</p>

<p>“And how do people perform that cere
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    mony of parting, Jane? Teach me;
I’m not quite up to it.”</p>

<p>“They say, Farewell, or any other form they prefer.”</p>

<p>“Then say it.”</p>

<p>“Farewell, Mr. Rochester, for the present.”</p>

<p>“What must I say?”</p>

<p>“The same, if you like, sir.”</p>

<p>“Farewell, Miss Eyre, for the present; is that all?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“It seems stingy, to my notions, and dry, and unfriendly. I should like
something else: a little addition to the rite. If one shook hands, for
instance; but no—that would not content me either. So you’ll do no more
than say Farewell, Jane?”</p>

<p>“It is enough, sir: as much good-will may be conveyed in one hearty
word as in many.”</p>

<p>“Very likely; but it is blank and cool—‘Farewell.’”</p>

<p>“How long is he going to stand with his back against that door?” I
asked myself; “I want to commence my packing.” The dinner-bell rang,
and suddenly away he bolted, without another syllable: I saw him no
more during the day, and was off before he had risen in the morning.</p>
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<p>I reached the lodge at Gateshead about five o’clock in the afternoon of
the first of May: I stepped in there before going up to the hall. It
was very clean and neat: the ornamental windows were hung with little
white curtains; the floor was spotless; the grate and fire-irons were
burnished bright, and the fire burnt clear. Bessie sat on the hearth,
nursing her last-born, and Robert and his sister played quietly in a
corner.</p>

<p>“Bless you!—I knew you would come!” exclaimed Mrs. Leaven, as I
entered.</p>

<p>“Yes, Bessie,” said I, after I had kissed her; “and I trust I am not
too late. How is Mrs. Reed?—Alive still, I hope.”</p>

<p>“Yes, she is alive; and more sensible and collected than she was. The
doctor says she may linger a week or two yet; but he hardly thinks she
will finally recover.”</p>

<p>“Has she mentioned me lately?”</p>

<p>“She was talking of you only this morning, and wishing you would come,
but she is sleeping now, or was ten minutes ago, when I was up at the
house. She generally lies in a kind of lethargy all the afternoon, and
wakes up about six or seven. Will you rest yourself here an hour, Miss,
and then I will go up with you?”</p>
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<p>Robert here entered, and Bessie laid her sleeping child in the cradle
and went to welcome him: afterwards she insisted on my taking off my
bonnet and having some tea; for she said I looked pale and tired. I was
glad to accept her hospitality; and I submitted to be relieved of my
travelling garb just as passively as I used to let her undress me when
a child.</p>

<p>Old times crowded fast back on me as I watched her bustling
about—setting out the tea-tray with her best china, cutting bread and
butter, toasting a tea-cake, and, between whiles, giving little Robert
or Jane an occasional tap or push, just as she used to give me in
former days. Bessie had retained her quick temper as well as her light
foot and good looks.</p>

<p>Tea ready, I was going to approach the table; but she desired me to sit
still, quite in her old peremptory tones. I must be served at the
fireside, she said; and she placed before me a little round stand with
my cup and a plate of toast, absolutely as she used to accommodate me
with some privately purloined dainty on a nursery chair: and I smiled
and obeyed her as in bygone days.</p>

<p>She wanted to know if I was happy at
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    Thornfield Hall, and what sort of
a person the mistress was; and when I told her there was only a master,
whether he was a nice gentleman, and if I liked him. I told her he was
rather an ugly man, but quite a gentleman; and that he treated me
kindly, and I was content. Then I went on to describe to her the gay
company that had lately been staying at the house; and to these details
Bessie listened with interest: they were precisely of the kind she
relished.</p>

<p>In such conversation an hour was soon gone: Bessie restored to me my
bonnet, &amp;c. and, accompanied by her, I quitted the lodge for the hall.
It was also accompanied by her that I had, nearly nine years ago,
walked down the path I was now ascending. On a dark, misty, raw morning
in January, I had left a hostile roof with a desperate and embittered
heart—a sense of outlawry and almost of reprobation—to seek the chilly
harbourage of Lowood: that bourne so far away and unexplored. The same
hostile roof now again rose before me: my prospects were doubtful yet;
and I had yet an aching heart. I still felt as a wanderer on the face
of the earth; but I experienced firmer trust in myself and my own
powers, and less withering dread of oppression. The
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gaping wound of my
wrongs, too, was now quite healed; and the flame of resentment
extinguished.</p>

<p>“You shall go into the breakfast-room first,” said Bessie, as she
preceded me through the hall; “the young ladies will be there.”</p>

<p>In another moment I was within that apartment. There was every article
of furniture looking just as it did on the morning I was first
introduced to Mr. Brocklehurst: the very rug he had stood upon still
covered the hearth. Glancing at the bookcases, I thought I could
distinguish the two volumes of Bewick’s British Birds occupying their
old place on the third shelf, and Gulliver’s Travels and the Arabian
Nights ranged just above. The inanimate objects were not changed; but
the living things had altered past recognition.</p>

<p>Two young ladies appeared before me; one very tall, almost as tall as
Miss Ingram—very thin too, with a sallow face and severe mien. There
was something ascetic in her look, which was augmented by the extreme
plainness of a straight-skirted, black, stuff dress, a starched linen
collar, hair combed away from the temples, and the nun-like ornament of
a string of ebony beads and a crucifix. This I felt sure was Eliza,
though I could
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trace little resemblance to her former self in that
elongated and colourless visage.</p>

<p>The other was as certainly Georgiana: but not the Georgiana I
remembered—the slim and fairy-like girl of eleven. This was a
full-blown, very plump damsel, fair as waxwork, with handsome and
regular features, languishing blue eyes, and ringleted yellow hair. The
hue of her dress was black too; but its fashion was so different from
her sister’s—so much more flowing and becoming—it looked as stylish as
the other’s looked puritanical.</p>

<p>In each of the sisters there was one trait of the mother—and only one;
the thin and pallid elder daughter had her parent’s Cairngorm eye: the
blooming and luxuriant younger girl had her contour of jaw and
chin—perhaps a little softened, but still imparting an indescribable
hardness to the countenance otherwise so voluptuous and buxom.</p>

<p>Both ladies, as I advanced, rose to welcome me, and both addressed me
by the name of “Miss Eyre.” Eliza’s greeting was delivered in a short,
abrupt voice, without a smile; and then she sat down again, fixed her
eyes on the fire, and seemed to forget me. Georgiana added to her “How
d’ye do?” several commonplaces about my journey, the weather, and
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so
on, uttered in rather a drawling tone: and accompanied by sundry
side-glances that measured me from head to foot—now traversing the
folds of my drab merino pelisse, and now lingering on the plain
trimming of my cottage bonnet. Young ladies have a remarkable way of
letting you know that they think you a “quiz” without actually saying
the words. A certain superciliousness of look, coolness of manner,
nonchalance of tone, express fully their sentiments on the point,
without committing them by any positive rudeness in word or deed.</p>

<p>A sneer, however, whether covert or open, had now no longer that power
over me it once possessed: as I sat between my cousins, I was surprised
to find how easy I felt under the total neglect of the one and the
semi-sarcastic attentions of the other—Eliza did not mortify, nor
Georgiana ruffle me. The fact was, I had other things to think about;
within the last few months feelings had been stirred in me so much more
potent than any they could raise—pains and pleasures so much more acute
and exquisite had been excited than any it was in their power to
inflict or bestow—that their airs gave me no concern either for good or
bad.</p>
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<p>“How is Mrs. Reed?” I asked soon, looking calmly at Georgiana, who
thought fit to bridle at the direct address, as if it were an
unexpected liberty.</p>

<p>“Mrs. Reed? Ah! mama, you mean; she is extremely poorly: I doubt if you
can see her to-night.”</p>

<p>“If,” said I, “you would just step upstairs and tell her I am come, I
should be much obliged to you.”</p>

<p>Georgiana almost started, and she opened her blue eyes wild and wide.
“I know she had a particular wish to see me,” I added, “and I would not
defer attending to her desire longer than is absolutely necessary.”</p>

<p>“Mama dislikes being disturbed in an evening,” remarked Eliza. I soon
rose, quietly took off my bonnet and gloves, uninvited, and said I
would just step out to Bessie—who was, I dared say, in the kitchen—and
ask her to ascertain whether Mrs. Reed was disposed to receive me or
not to-night. I went, and having found Bessie and despatched her on my
errand, I proceeded to take further measures. It had heretofore been my
habit always to shrink from arrogance: received as I had been to-day, I
should, a year ago, have resolved to quit Gateshead the very next
morn
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ing; now, it was disclosed to me all at once that that would be a
foolish plan. I had taken a journey of a hundred miles to see my aunt,
and I must stay with her till she was better—or dead: as to her
daughters’ pride or folly, I must put it on one side, make myself
independent of it. So I addressed the housekeeper; asked her to show me
a room, told her I should probably be a visitor here for a week or two,
had my trunk conveyed to my chamber, and followed it thither myself: I
met Bessie on the landing.</p>

<p>“Missis is awake,” said she; “I have told her you are here: come and
let us see if she will know you.”</p>

<p>I did not need to be guided to the well-known room, to which I had so
often been summoned for chastisement or reprimand in former days. I
hastened before Bessie; I softly opened the door: a shaded light stood
on the table, for it was now getting dark. There was the great
four-post bed with amber hangings as of old; there the toilet-table,
the armchair, and the footstool, at which I had a hundred times been
sentenced to kneel, to ask pardon for offences by me uncommitted. I
looked into a certain corner near, half-expecting to see the slim
outline of a once dreaded
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switch which used to lurk there, waiting to
leap out imp-like and lace my quivering palm or shrinking neck. I
approached the bed; I opened the curtains and leant over the high-piled
pillows.</p>

<p>Well did I remember Mrs. Reed’s face, and I eagerly sought the familiar
image. It is a happy thing that time quells the longings of vengeance
and hushes the promptings of rage and aversion. I had left this woman
in bitterness and hate, and I came back to her now with no other
emotion than a sort of ruth for her great sufferings, and a strong
yearning to forget and forgive all injuries—to be reconciled and clasp
hands in amity.</p>

<p>The well-known face was there: stern, relentless as ever—there was that
peculiar eye which nothing could melt, and the somewhat raised,
imperious, despotic eyebrow. How often had it lowered on me menace and
hate! and how the recollection of childhood’s terrors and sorrows
revived as I traced its harsh line now! And yet I stooped down and
kissed her: she looked at me.</p>

<p>“Is this Jane Eyre?” she said.</p>

<p>“Yes, Aunt Reed. How are you, dear aunt?”</p>

<p>I had once vowed that I would never call
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    her aunt again: I thought it
no sin to forget and break that vow now. My fingers had fastened on her
hand which lay outside the sheet: had she pressed mine kindly, I should
at that moment have experienced true pleasure. But unimpressionable
natures are not so soon softened, nor are natural antipathies so
readily eradicated. Mrs. Reed took her hand away, and, turning her face
rather from me, she remarked that the night was warm. Again she
regarded me so icily, I felt at once that her opinion of me—her feeling
towards me—was unchanged and unchangeable. I knew by her stony
eye—opaque to tenderness, indissoluble to tears—that she was resolved
to consider me bad to the last; because to believe me good would give
her no generous pleasure: only a sense of mortification.</p>

<p>I felt pain, and then I felt ire; and then I felt a determination to
subdue her—to be her mistress in spite both of her nature and her will.
My tears had risen, just as in childhood: I ordered them back to their
source. I brought a chair to the bed-head: I sat down and leaned over
the pillow.</p>

<p>“You sent for me,” I said, “and I am here; and it is my intention to
stay till I see how you get on.”</p>
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<p>“Oh, of course! You have seen my daughters?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Well, you may tell them I wish you to stay till I can talk some things
over with you I have on my mind: to-night it is too late, and I have a
difficulty in recalling them. But there was something I wished to
say—let me see—”</p>

<p>The wandering look and changed utterance told what wreck had taken
place in her once vigorous frame. Turning restlessly, she drew the
bedclothes round her; my elbow, resting on a corner of the quilt, fixed
it down: she was at once irritated.</p>

<p>“Sit up!” said she; “don’t annoy me with holding the clothes fast. Are
you Jane Eyre?”</p>

<p>“I am Jane Eyre.”</p>

<p>“I have had more trouble with that child than any one would believe.
Such a burden to be left on my hands—and so much annoyance as she
caused me, daily and hourly, with her incomprehensible disposition, and
her sudden starts of temper, and her continual, unnatural watchings of
one’s movements! I declare she talked to me once like something mad, or
like a fiend—no child ever spoke or looked as she did; I was glad to
get her away from the house. What did they do with her at Lo
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wood? The
fever broke out there, and many of the pupils died. She, however, did
not die: but I said she did—I wish she had died!”</p>

<p>“A strange wish, Mrs. Reed; why do you hate her so?”</p>

<p>“I had a dislike to her mother always; for she was my husband’s only
sister, and a great favourite with him: he opposed the family’s
disowning her when she made her low marriage; and when news came of her
death, he wept like a simpleton. He would send for the baby; though I
entreated him rather to put it out to nurse and pay for its
maintenance. I hated it the first time I set my eyes on it—a sickly,
whining, pining thing! It would wail in its cradle all night long—not
screaming heartily like any other child, but whimpering and moaning.
Reed pitied it; and he used to nurse it and notice it as if it had been
his own: more, indeed, than he ever noticed his own at that age. He
would try to make my children friendly to the little beggar: the
darlings could not bear it, and he was angry with them when they showed
their dislike. In his last illness, he had it brought continually to
his bedside; and but an hour before he died, he bound me by vow to keep
the creature. I would as soon have been
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charged with a pauper brat out
of a workhouse: but he was weak, naturally weak. John does not at all
resemble his father, and I am glad of it: John is like me and like my
brothers—he is quite a Gibson. Oh, I wish he would cease tormenting me
with letters for money! I have no more money to give him: we are
getting poor. I must send away half the servants and shut up part of
the house; or let it off. I can never submit to do that—yet how are we
to get on? Two-thirds of my income goes in paying the interest of
mortgages. John gambles dreadfully, and always loses—poor boy! He is
beset by sharpers: John is sunk and degraded—his look is frightful—I
feel ashamed for him when I see him.”</p>

<p>She was getting much excited. “I think I had better leave her now,”
said I to Bessie, who stood on the other side of the bed.</p>

<p>“Perhaps you had, Miss: but she often talks in this way towards
night—in the morning she is calmer.”</p>

<p>I rose. “Stop!” exclaimed Mrs. Reed, “there is another thing I wished
to say. He threatens me—he continually threatens me with his own death,
or mine: and I dream sometimes that I see him laid out with a great
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wound in his throat, or with a swollen and blackened face. I am come to
a strange pass: I have heavy troubles. What is to be done? How is the
money to be had?”</p>

<p>Bessie now endeavoured to persuade her to take a sedative draught: she
succeeded with difficulty. Soon after, Mrs. Reed grew more composed,
and sank into a dozing state. I then left her.</p>

<p>More than ten days elapsed before I had again any conversation with
her. She continued either delirious or lethargic; and the doctor
forbade everything which could painfully excite her. Meantime, I got on
as well as I could with Georgiana and Eliza. They were very cold,
indeed, at first. Eliza would sit half the day sewing, reading, or
writing, and scarcely utter a word either to me or her sister.
Georgiana would chatter nonsense to her canary bird by the hour, and
take no notice of me. But I was determined not to seem at a loss for
occupation or amusement: I had brought my drawing materials with me,
and they served me for both.</p>

<p>Provided with a case of pencils, and some sheets of paper, I used to
take a seat apart from them, near the window, and busy myself in
sketching fancy vignettes, representing any
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scene that happened
momentarily to shape itself in the ever-shifting kaleidoscope of
imagination: a glimpse of sea between two rocks; the rising moon, and a
ship crossing its disk; a group of reeds and water-flags, and a naiad’s
head, crowned with lotus-flowers, rising out of them; an elf sitting in
a hedge-sparrow’s nest, under a wreath of hawthorn-bloom.</p>

<p>One morning I fell to sketching a face: what sort of a face it was to
be, I did not care or know. I took a soft black pencil, gave it a broad
point, and worked away. Soon I had traced on the paper a broad and
prominent forehead and a square lower outline of visage: that contour
gave me pleasure; my fingers proceeded actively to fill it with
features. Strongly-marked horizontal eyebrows must be traced under that
brow; then followed, naturally, a well-defined nose, with a straight
ridge and full nostrils; then a flexible-looking mouth, by no means
narrow; then a firm chin, with a decided cleft down the middle of it:
of course, some black whiskers were wanted, and some jetty hair, tufted
on the temples, and waved above the forehead. Now for the eyes: I had
left them to the last, because they required the most careful working.
I drew
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them large; I shaped them well: the eyelashes I traced long and
sombre; the irids lustrous and large. “Good! but not quite the thing,”
I thought, as I surveyed the effect: “they want more force and spirit;”
and I wrought the shades blacker, that the lights might flash more
brilliantly—a happy touch or two secured success. There, I had a
friend’s face under my gaze; and what did it signify that those young
ladies turned their backs on me? I looked at it; I smiled at the
speaking likeness: I was absorbed and content.</p>

<p>“Is that a portrait of some one you know?” asked Eliza, who had
approached me unnoticed. I responded that it was merely a fancy head,
and hurried it beneath the other sheets. Of course, I lied: it was, in
fact, a very faithful representation of Mr. Rochester. But what was
that to her, or to any one but myself? Georgiana also advanced to look.
The other drawings pleased her much, but she called that “an ugly man.”
They both seemed surprised at my skill. I offered to sketch their
portraits; and each, in turn, sat for a pencil outline. Then Georgiana
produced her album. I promised to contribute a water-colour drawing:
this put her at once into good humour. She proposed a walk in
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the
grounds. Before we had been out two hours, we were deep in a
confidential conversation: she had favoured me with a description of
the brilliant winter she had spent in London two seasons ago—of the
admiration she had there excited—the attention she had received; and I
even got hints of the titled conquest she had made. In the course of
the afternoon and evening these hints were enlarged on: various soft
conversations were reported, and sentimental scenes represented; and,
in short, a volume of a novel of fashionable life was that day
improvised by her for my benefit. The communications were renewed from
day to day: they always ran on the same theme—herself, her loves, and
woes. It was strange she never once adverted either to her mother’s
illness, or her brother’s death, or the present gloomy state of the
family prospects. Her mind seemed wholly taken up with reminiscences of
past gaiety, and aspirations after dissipations to come. She passed
about five minutes each day in her mother’s sick-room, and no more.</p>

<p>Eliza still spoke little: she had evidently no time to talk. I never
saw a busier person than she seemed to be; yet it was difficult to say
what she did: or rather, to discover any
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result of her diligence. She
had an alarm to call her up early. I know not how she occupied herself
before breakfast, but after that meal she divided her time into regular
portions, and each hour had its allotted task. Three times a day she
studied a little book, which I found, on inspection, was a Common
Prayer Book. I asked her once what was the great attraction of that
volume, and she said, “the Rubric.” Three hours she gave to stitching,
with gold thread, the border of a square crimson cloth, almost large
enough for a carpet. In answer to my inquiries after the use of this
article, she informed me it was a covering for the altar of a new
church lately erected near Gateshead. Two hours she devoted to her
diary; two to working by herself in the kitchen-garden; and one to the
regulation of her accounts. She seemed to want no company; no
conversation. I believe she was happy in her way: this routine sufficed
for her; and nothing annoyed her so much as the occurrence of any
incident which forced her to vary its clockwork regularity.</p>

<p>She told me one evening, when more disposed to be communicative than
usual, that John’s conduct, and the threatened ruin of the family, had
been a source of profound affliction
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to her: but she had now, she said,
settled her mind, and formed her resolution. Her own fortune she had
taken care to secure; and when her mother died—and it was wholly
improbable, she tranquilly remarked, that she should either recover or
linger long—she would execute a long-cherished project: seek a
retirement where punctual habits would be permanently secured from
disturbance, and place safe barriers between herself and a frivolous
world. I asked if Georgiana would accompany her.</p>

<p>“Of course not. Georgiana and she had nothing in common: they never had
had. She would not be burdened with her society for any consideration.
Georgiana should take her own course; and she, Eliza, would take hers.”</p>

<p>Georgiana, when not unburdening her heart to me, spent most of her time
in lying on the sofa, fretting about the dulness of the house, and
wishing over and over again that her aunt Gibson would send her an
invitation up to town. “It would be so much better,” she said, “if she
could only get out of the way for a month or two, till all was over.” I
did not ask what she meant by “all being over,” but I suppose she
referred to the expected decease of her mother and the gloomy sequel of
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funeral rites. Eliza generally took no more notice of her sister’s
indolence and complaints than if no such murmuring, lounging object had
been before her. One day, however, as she put away her account-book and
unfolded her embroidery, she suddenly took her up thus—</p>

<p>“Georgiana, a more vain and absurd animal than you was certainly never
allowed to cumber the earth. You had no right to be born, for you make
no use of life. Instead of living for, in, and with yourself, as a
reasonable being ought, you seek only to fasten your feebleness on some
other person’s strength: if no one can be found willing to burden her
or himself with such a fat, weak, puffy, useless thing, you cry out
that you are ill-treated, neglected, miserable. Then, too, existence
for you must be a scene of continual change and excitement, or else the
world is a dungeon: you must be admired, you must be courted, you must
be flattered—you must have music, dancing, and society—or you languish,
you die away. Have you no sense to devise a system which will make you
independent of all efforts, and all wills, but your own? Take one day;
share it into sections; to each section apportion its task: leave no
stray unemployed quarters of an hour, ten
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minutes, five minutes—include
all; do each piece of business in its turn with method, with rigid
regularity. The day will close almost before you are aware it has
begun; and you are indebted to no one for helping you to get rid of one
vacant moment: you have had to seek no one’s company, conversation,
sympathy, forbearance; you have lived, in short, as an independent
being ought to do. Take this advice: the first and last I shall offer
you; then you will not want me or any one else, happen what may.
Neglect it—go on as heretofore, craving, whining, and idling—and suffer
the results of your idiocy, however bad and insufferable they may be. I
tell you this plainly; and listen: for though I shall no more repeat
what I am now about to say, I shall steadily act on it. After my
mother’s death, I wash my hands of you: from the day her coffin is
carried to the vault in Gateshead Church, you and I will be as separate
as if we had never known each other. You need not think that because we
chanced to be born of the same parents, I shall suffer you to fasten me
down by even the feeblest claim: I can tell you this—if the whole human
race, ourselves excepted, were swept away, and we two stood alone on
the earth, I would
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leave you in the old world, and betake myself to the
new.”</p>

<p>She closed her lips.</p>

<p>“You might have spared yourself the trouble of delivering that tirade,”
answered Georgiana. “Everybody knows you are the most selfish,
heartless creature in existence: and <hi rend="italic">I</hi> know your spiteful hatred
towards me: I have had a specimen of it before in the trick you played
me about Lord Edwin Vere: you could not bear me to be raised above you,
to have a title, to be received into circles where you dare not show
your face, and so you acted the spy and informer, and ruined my
prospects for ever.” Georgiana took out her handkerchief and blew her
nose for an hour afterwards; Eliza sat cold, impassable, and
assiduously industrious.</p>

<p>True, generous feeling is made small account of by some, but here were
two natures rendered, the one intolerably acrid, the other despicably
savourless for the want of it. Feeling without judgment is a washy
draught indeed; but judgment untempered by feeling is too bitter and
husky a morsel for human deglutition.</p>

<p>It was a wet and windy afternoon: Georgiana had fallen asleep on the
sofa over the
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perusal of a novel; Eliza was gone to attend a
saint’s-day service at the new church—for in matters of religion she
was a rigid formalist: no weather ever prevented the punctual discharge
of what she considered her devotional duties; fair or foul, she went to
church thrice every Sunday, and as often on week-days as there were
prayers.</p>

<p>I bethought myself to go upstairs and see how the dying woman sped, who
lay there almost unheeded: the very servants paid her but a remittent
attention: the hired nurse, being little looked after, would slip out
of the room whenever she could. Bessie was faithful; but she had her
own family to mind, and could only come occasionally to the hall. I
found the sick-room unwatched, as I had expected: no nurse was there;
the patient lay still, and seemingly lethargic; her livid face sunk in
the pillows: the fire was dying in the grate. I renewed the fuel,
re-arranged the bedclothes, gazed awhile on her who could not now gaze
on me, and then I moved away to the window.</p>

<p>The rain beat strongly against the panes, the wind blew tempestuously:
“One lies there,” I thought, “who will soon be beyond the war of
earthly elements. Whither will
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that spirit—now struggling to quit its
material tenement—flit when at length released?”</p>

<p>In pondering the great mystery, I thought of Helen Burns, recalled her
dying words—her faith—her doctrine of the equality of disembodied
souls. I was still listening in thought to her well-remembered
tones—still picturing her pale and spiritual aspect, her wasted face
and sublime gaze, as she lay on her placid deathbed, and whispered her
longing to be restored to her divine Father’s bosom—when a feeble voice
murmured from the couch behind: “Who is that?”</p>

<p>I knew Mrs. Reed had not spoken for days: was she reviving? I went up
to her.</p>

<p>“It is I, Aunt Reed.”</p>

<p>“Who—I?” was her answer. “Who are you?” looking at me with surprise and
a sort of alarm, but still not wildly. “You are quite a stranger to
me—where is Bessie?”</p>

<p>“She is at the lodge, aunt.”</p>

<p>“Aunt,” she repeated. “Who calls me aunt? You are not one of the
Gibsons; and yet I know you—that face, and the eyes and forehead, are
quiet familiar to me: you are like—why, you are like Jane Eyre!”</p>

<p>I said nothing: I was afraid of occasioning some shock by declaring my
identity.</p>
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<p>“Yet,” said she, “I am afraid it is a mistake: my thoughts deceive me.
I wished to see Jane Eyre, and I fancy a likeness where none exists:
besides, in eight years she must be so changed.” I now gently assured
her that I was the person she supposed and desired me to be: and seeing
that I was understood, and that her senses were quite collected, I
explained how Bessie had sent her husband to fetch me from Thornfield.</p>

<p>“I am very ill, I know,” she said ere long. “I was trying to turn
myself a few minutes since, and find I cannot move a limb. It is as
well I should ease my mind before I die: what we think little of in
health, burdens us at such an hour as the present is to me. Is the
nurse here? or is there no one in the room but you?”</p>

<p>I assured her we were alone.</p>

<p>“Well, I have twice done you a wrong which I regret now. One was in
breaking the promise which I gave my husband to bring you up as my own
child; the other—” she stopped. “After all, it is of no great
importance, perhaps,” she murmured to herself: “and then I may get
better; and to humble myself so to her is painful.”</p>

<p>She made an effort to alter her position, but failed: her face changed;
she seemed to expe
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rience some inward sensation—the precursor, perhaps,
of the last pang.</p>

<p>“Well, I must get it over. Eternity is before me: I had better tell
her.—Go to my dressing-case, open it, and take out a letter you will
see there.”</p>

<p>I obeyed her directions. “Read the letter,” she said.</p>

<p>It was short, and thus conceived:—</p>

<p>“MADAM,</p>
<p>“Will you have the goodness to send me the address of my niece, Jane
Eyre, and to tell me how she is? It is my intention to write shortly
and desire her to come to me at Madeira. Providence has blessed my
endeavours to secure a competency; and as I am unmarried and childless,
I wish to adopt her during my life, and bequeath her at my death
whatever I may have to leave.</p>


<p>I am, Madam, &amp;c. &amp;c.</p>
<p>“JOHN EYRE, Madeira.”</p>


<p>It was dated three years back.</p>

<p>“Why did I never hear of this?” I asked.</p>

<p>“Because I disliked you too fixedly and thoroughly ever to lend a hand
in lifting you to prosperity. I could not forget your con
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duct to me,
Jane—the fury with which you once turned on me; the tone in which you
declared you abhorred me the worst of anybody in the world; the
unchildlike look and voice with which you affirmed that the very
thought of me made you sick, and asserted that I had treated you with
miserable cruelty. I could not forget my own sensations when you thus
started up and poured out the venom of your mind: I felt fear as if an
animal that I had struck or pushed had looked up at me with human eyes
and cursed me in a man’s voice.—Bring me some water! Oh, make haste!”</p>

<p>“Dear Mrs. Reed,” said I, as I offered her the draught she required,
“think no more of all this, let it pass away from your mind. Forgive me
for my passionate language: I was a child then; eight, nine years have
passed since that day.”</p>

<p>She heeded nothing of what I said; but when she had tasted the water
and drawn breath, she went on thus—</p>

<p>“I tell you I could not forget it; and I took my revenge: for you to be
adopted by your uncle, and placed in a state of ease and comfort, was
what I could not endure. I wrote to him; I said I was sorry for his
disappointment, but
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Jane Eyre was dead: she had died of typhus fever at
Lowood. Now act as you please: write and contradict my assertion—expose
my falsehood as soon as you like. You were born, I think, to be my
torment: my last hour is racked by the recollection of a deed which,
but for you, I should never have been tempted to commit.”</p>

<p>“If you could but be persuaded to think no more of it, aunt, and to
regard me with kindness and forgiveness——”</p>

<p>“You have a very bad disposition,” said she, “and one to this day I
feel it impossible to understand: how for nine years you could be
patient and quiescent under any treatment, and in the tenth break out
all fire and violence, I can never comprehend.”</p>

<p>“My disposition is not so bad as you think: I am passionate, but not
vindictive. Many a time, as a little child, I should have been glad to
love you if you would have let me; and I long earnestly to be
reconciled to you now: kiss me, aunt.”</p>

<p>I approached my cheek to her lips: she would not touch it. She said I
oppressed her by leaning over the bed, and again demanded water. As I
laid her down—for I raised her and supported her on my arm while she
drank—
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I covered her ice-cold and clammy hand with mine: the feeble
fingers shrank from my touch—the glazing eyes shunned my gaze.</p>

<p>“Love me, then, or hate me, as you will,” I said at last, “you have my
full and free forgiveness: ask now for God’s, and be at peace.”</p>

<p>Poor, suffering woman! it was too late for her to make now the effort
to change her habitual frame of mind: living, she had ever hated
me—dying, she must hate me still.</p>

<p>The nurse now entered, and Bessie followed. I yet lingered half-an-hour
longer, hoping to see some sign of amity: but she gave none. She was
fast relapsing into stupor; nor did her mind again rally: at twelve
o’clock that night she died. I was not present to close her eyes, nor
were either of her daughters. They came to tell us the next morning
that all was over. She was by that time laid out. Eliza and I went to
look at her: Georgiana, who had burst out into loud weeping, said she
dared not go. There was stretched Sarah Reed’s once robust and active
frame, rigid and still: her eye of flint was covered with its cold lid;
her brow and strong traits wore yet the impress of her inexorable soul.
A strange and solemn object was that corpse to me. I
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gazed on it with
gloom and pain: nothing soft, nothing sweet, nothing pitying, or
hopeful, or subduing did it inspire; only a grating anguish for <hi rend="italic">her</hi>
woes—not <hi rend="italic">my</hi> loss—and a sombre tearless dismay at the fearfulness of
death in such a form.</p>

<p>Eliza surveyed her parent calmly. After a silence of some minutes she
observed—</p>

<p>“With her constitution she should have lived to a good old age: her
life was shortened by trouble.” And then a spasm constricted her mouth
for an instant: as it passed away she turned and left the room, and so
did I. Neither of us had dropt a tear.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXII</head>
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<p>Mr. Rochester had given me but one week’s leave of absence: yet a month
elapsed before I quitted Gateshead. I wished to leave immediately after
the funeral, but Georgiana entreated me to stay till she could get off
to London, whither she was now at last invited by her uncle, Mr.
Gibson, who had come down to direct his sister’s interment and settle
the family affairs. Georgiana said she dreaded being left alone with
Eliza; from her she got neither sympathy in her dejection, support in
her fears, nor aid in her preparations; so I bore with her
feeble-minded wailings and selfish lamentations as well as I could, and
did my best in sewing for her and packing her dresses. It is true, that
while I worked, she would idle; and I thought to myself, “If you and I
were destined to live always together, cousin, we would commence
matters on a different
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footing. I should not settle tamely down into
being the forbearing party; I should assign you your share of labour,
and compel you to accomplish it, or else it should be left undone: I
should insist, also, on your keeping some of those drawling,
half-insincere complaints hushed in your own breast. It is only because
our connection happens to be very transitory, and comes at a peculiarly
mournful season, that I consent thus to render it so patient and
compliant on my part.”</p>

<p>At last I saw Georgiana off; but now it was Eliza’s turn to request me
to stay another week. Her plans required all her time and attention,
she said; she was about to depart for some unknown bourne; and all day
long she stayed in her own room, her door bolted within, filling
trunks, emptying drawers, burning papers, and holding no communication
with any one. She wished me to look after the house, to see callers,
and answer notes of condolence.</p>

<p>One morning she told me I was at liberty. “And,” she added, “I am
obliged to you for your valuable services and discreet conduct! There
is some difference between living with such an one as you and with
Georgiana: you perform your own part in life and burden no
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one.
To-morrow,” she continued, “I set out for the Continent. I shall take
up my abode in a religious house near Lisle—a nunnery you would call
it; there I shall be quiet and unmolested. I shall devote myself for a
time to the examination of the Roman Catholic dogmas, and to a careful
study of the workings of their system: if I find it to be, as I half
suspect it is, the one best calculated to ensure the doing of all
things decently and in order, I shall embrace the tenets of Rome and
probably take the veil.”</p>

<p>I neither expressed surprise at this resolution nor attempted to
dissuade her from it. “The vocation will fit you to a hair,” I thought:
“much good may it do you!”</p>

<p>When we parted, she said: “Good-bye, cousin Jane Eyre; I wish you well:
you have some sense.”</p>

<p>I then returned: “You are not without sense, cousin Eliza; but what you
have, I suppose, in another year will be walled up alive in a French
convent. However, it is not my business, and so it suits you, I don’t
much care.”</p>

<p>“You are in the right,” said she; and with these words we each went our
separate way. As I shall not have occasion to refer either to her or
her sister again, I may as well mention
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here, that Georgiana made an
advantageous match with a wealthy worn-out man of fashion, and that
Eliza actually took the veil, and is at this day superior of the
convent where she passed the period of her novitiate, and which she
endowed with her fortune.</p>

<p>How people feel when they are returning home from an absence, long or
short, I did not know: I had never experienced the sensation. I had
known what it was to come back to Gateshead when a child after a long
walk, to be scolded for looking cold or gloomy; and later, what it was
to come back from church to Lowood, to long for a plenteous meal and a
good fire, and to be unable to get either. Neither of these returnings
was very pleasant or desirable: no magnet drew me to a given point,
increasing in its strength of attraction the nearer I came. The return
to Thornfield was yet to be tried.</p>

<p>My journey seemed tedious—very tedious: fifty miles one day, a night
spent at an inn; fifty miles the next day. During the first twelve
hours I thought of Mrs. Reed in her last moments; I saw her disfigured
and discoloured face, and heard her strangely altered voice. I mused on
the funeral day, the coffin, the hearse, the black train of tenants and
ser
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vants—few was the number of relatives—the gaping vault, the silent
church, the solemn service. Then I thought of Eliza and Georgiana; I
beheld one the cynosure of a ball-room, the other the inmate of a
convent cell; and I dwelt on and analysed their separate peculiarities
of person and character. The evening arrival at the great town of ——
scattered these thoughts; night gave them quite another turn: laid down
on my traveller’s bed, I left reminiscence for anticipation.</p>

<p>I was going back to Thornfield: but how long was I to stay there? Not
long; of that I was sure. I had heard from Mrs. Fairfax in the interim
of my absence: the party at the hall was dispersed; Mr. Rochester had
left for London three weeks ago, but he was then expected to return in
a fortnight. Mrs. Fairfax surmised that he was gone to make
arrangements for his wedding, as he had talked of purchasing a new
carriage: she said the idea of his marrying Miss Ingram still seemed
strange to her; but from what everybody said, and from what she had
herself seen, she could no longer doubt that the event would shortly
take place. “You would be strangely incredulous if you did doubt it,”
was my mental comment. “I don’t doubt it.”</p>
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<p>The question followed, “Where was I to go?” I dreamt of Miss Ingram all
the night: in a vivid morning dream I saw her closing the gates of
Thornfield against me and pointing me out another road; and Mr.
Rochester looked on with his arms folded—smiling sardonically, as it
seemed, at both her and me.</p>

<p>I had not notified to Mrs. Fairfax the exact day of my return; for I
did not wish either car or carriage to meet me at Millcote. I proposed
to walk the distance quietly by myself; and very quietly, after leaving
my box in the ostler’s care, did I slip away from the George Inn, about
six o’clock of a June evening, and take the old road to Thornfield: a
road which lay chiefly through fields, and was now little frequented.</p>

<p>It was not a bright or splendid summer evening, though fair and soft:
the haymakers were at work all along the road; and the sky, though far
from cloudless, was such as promised well for the future: its
blue—where blue was visible—was mild and settled, and its cloud strata
high and thin. The west, too, was warm: no watery gleam chilled it—it
seemed as if there was a fire lit, an altar burning behind its screen
of marbled vapour, and out of apertures shone a golden redness.</p>
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<p>I felt glad as the road shortened before me: so glad that I stopped
once to ask myself what that joy meant: and to remind reason that it
was not to my home I was going, or to a permanent resting-place, or to
a place where fond friends looked out for me and waited my arrival.
“Mrs. Fairfax will smile you a calm welcome, to be sure,” said I; “and
little Adèle will clap her hands and jump to see you: but you know very
well you are thinking of another than they, and that he is not thinking
of you.”</p>

<p>But what is so headstrong as youth? What so blind as inexperience?
These affirmed that it was pleasure enough to have the privilege of
again looking on Mr. Rochester, whether he looked on me or not; and
they added—“Hasten! hasten! be with him while you may: but a few more
days or weeks, at most, and you are parted from him for ever!” And then
I strangled a new-born agony—a deformed thing which I could not
persuade myself to own and rear—and ran on.</p>

<p>They are making hay, too, in Thornfield meadows: or rather, the
labourers are just quitting their work, and returning home with their
rakes on their shoulders, now, at the hour I arrive. I have but a field
or two to
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traverse, and then I shall cross the road and reach the
gates. How full the hedges are of roses! But I have no time to gather
any; I want to be at the house. I passed a tall briar, shooting leafy
and flowery branches across the path; I see the narrow stile with stone
steps; and I see—Mr. Rochester sitting there, a book and a pencil in
his hand; he is writing.</p>

<p>Well, he is not a ghost; yet every nerve I have is unstrung: for a
moment I am beyond my own mastery. What does it mean? I did not think I
should tremble in this way when I saw him, or lose my voice or the
power of motion in his presence. I will go back as soon as I can stir:
I need not make an absolute fool of myself. I know another way to the
house. It does not signify if I knew twenty ways; for he has seen me.</p>

<p>“Hillo!” he cries; and he puts up his book and his pencil. “There you
are! Come on, if you please.”</p>

<p>I suppose I do come on; though in what fashion I know not; being
scarcely cognisant of my movements, and solicitous only to appear calm;
and, above all, to control the working muscles of my face—which I feel
rebel insolently against my will, and struggle to express what I had
resolved to conceal. But I have a
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veil—it is down: I may make shift yet
to behave with decent composure.</p>

<p>“And this is Jane Eyre? Are you coming from Millcote, and on foot?
Yes—just one of your tricks: not to send for a carriage, and come
clattering over street and road like a common mortal, but to steal into
the vicinage of your home along with twilight, just as if you were a
dream or a shade. What the deuce have you done with yourself this last
month?”</p>

<p>“I have been with my aunt, sir, who is dead.”</p>

<p>“A true Janian reply! Good angels be my guard! She comes from the other
world—from the abode of people who are dead; and tells me so when she
meets me alone here in the gloaming! If I dared, I’d touch you, to see
if you are substance or shadow, you elf!—but I’d as soon offer to take
hold of a blue <hi rend="italic">ignis fatuus</hi> light in a marsh. Truant! truant!” he
added, when he had paused an instant. “Absent from me a whole month,
and forgetting me quite, I’ll be sworn!”</p>

<p>I knew there would be pleasure in meeting my master again, even though
broken by the fear that he was so soon to cease to be my master, and by
the knowledge that I was
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nothing to him: but there was ever in Mr.
Rochester (so at least I thought) such a wealth of the power of
communicating happiness, that to taste but of the crumbs he scattered
to stray and stranger birds like me, was to feast genially. His last
words were balm: they seemed to imply that it imported something to him
whether I forgot him or not. And he had spoken of Thornfield as my
home—would that it were my home!</p>

<p>He did not leave the stile, and I hardly liked to ask to go by. I
inquired soon if he had not been to London.</p>

<p>“Yes; I suppose you found that out by second-sight.”</p>

<p>“Mrs. Fairfax told me in a letter.”</p>

<p>“And did she inform you what I went to do?”</p>

<p>“Oh, yes, sir! Everybody knew your errand.”</p>

<p>“You must see the carriage, Jane, and tell me if you don’t think it
will suit Mrs. Rochester exactly; and whether she won’t look like Queen
Boadicea, leaning back against those purple cushions. I wish, Jane, I
were a trifle better adapted to match with her externally. Tell me now,
fairy as you are—can’t you give
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me a charm, or a philter, or something
of that sort, to make me a handsome man?”</p>

<p>“It would be past the power of magic, sir;” and, in thought, I added,
“A loving eye is all the charm needed: to such you are handsome enough;
or rather your sternness has a power beyond beauty.”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester had sometimes read my unspoken thoughts with an acumen to
me incomprehensible: in the present instance he took no notice of my
abrupt vocal response; but he smiled at me with a certain smile he had
of his own, and which he used but on rare occasions. He seemed to think
it too good for common purposes: it was the real sunshine of feeling—he
shed it over me now.</p>

<p>“Pass, Janet,” said he, making room for me to cross the stile: “go up
home, and stay your weary little wandering feet at a friend’s
threshold.”</p>

<p>All I had now to do was to obey him in silence: no need for me to
colloquise further. I got over the stile without a word, and meant to
leave him calmly. An impulse held me fast—a force turned me round. I
said—or something in me said for me, and in spite of me—</p>

<p>“Thank you, Mr. Rochester, for your great
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    kindness. I am strangely glad
to get back again to you: and wherever you are is my home—my only
home.”</p>

<p>I walked on so fast that even he could hardly have overtaken me had he
tried. Little Adèle was half wild with delight when she saw me. Mrs.
Fairfax received me with her usual plain friendliness. Leah smiled, and
even Sophie bid me “bon soir” with glee. This was very pleasant; there
is no happiness like that of being loved by your fellow-creatures, and
feeling that your presence is an addition to their comfort.</p>

<p>I that evening shut my eyes resolutely against the future: I stopped my
ears against the voice that kept warning me of near separation and
coming grief. When tea was over and Mrs. Fairfax had taken her
knitting, and I had assumed a low seat near her, and Adèle, kneeling on
the carpet, had nestled close up to me, and a sense of mutual affection
seemed to surround us with a ring of golden peace, I uttered a silent
prayer that we might not be parted far or soon; but when, as we thus
sat, Mr. Rochester entered, unannounced, and looking at us, seemed to
take pleasure in the spectacle of a group so amicable—when he said he
supposed the old lady was all right now
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that she had got her adopted
daughter back again, and added that he saw Adèle was “prête à croquer
sa petite maman Anglaise”—I half ventured to hope that he would, even
after his marriage, keep us together somewhere under the shelter of his
protection, and not quite exiled from the sunshine of his presence.</p>

<p>A fortnight of dubious calm succeeded my return to Thornfield Hall.
Nothing was said of the master’s marriage, and I saw no preparation
going on for such an event. Almost every day I asked Mrs. Fairfax if
she had yet heard anything decided: her answer was always in the
negative. Once she said she had actually put the question to Mr.
Rochester as to when he was going to bring his bride home; but he had
answered her only by a joke and one of his queer looks, and she could
not tell what to make of him.</p>

<p>One thing specially surprised me, and that was, there were no
journeyings backward and forward, no visits to Ingram Park: to be sure
it was twenty miles off, on the borders of another county; but what was
that distance to an ardent lover? To so practised and indefatigable a
horseman as Mr. Rochester, it would be but a morning’s ride. I began to
cherish hopes I had no right to conceive: that
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the match was broken
off; that rumour had been mistaken; that one or both parties had
changed their minds. I used to look at my master’s face to see if it
were sad or fierce; but I could not remember the time when it had been
so uniformly clear of clouds or evil feelings. If, in the moments I and
my pupil spent with him, I lacked spirits and sank into inevitable
dejection, he became even gay. Never had he called me more frequently
to his presence; never been kinder to me when there—and, alas! never
had I loved him so well.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXIII</head>
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<p>A splendid Midsummer shone over England: skies so pure, suns so radiant
as were then seen in long succession, seldom favour even singly, our
wave-girt land. It was as if a band of Italian days had come from the
South, like a flock of glorious passenger birds, and lighted to rest
them on the cliffs of Albion. The hay was all got in; the fields round
Thornfield were green and shorn; the roads white and baked; the trees
were in their dark prime; hedge and wood, full-leaved and deeply
tinted, contrasted well with the sunny hue of the cleared meadows
between.</p>

<p>On Midsummer-eve, Adèle, weary with gathering wild strawberries in Hay
Lane half the day, had gone to bed with the sun. I watched her drop
asleep, and when I left her, I sought the garden.</p>

<p>It was now the sweetest hour of the twenty
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    -four:—“Day its fervid fires
had wasted,” and dew fell cool on panting plain and scorched summit.
Where the sun had gone down in simple state—pure of the pomp of
clouds—spread a solemn purple, burning with the light of red jewel and
furnace flame at one point, on one hill-peak, and extending high and
wide, soft and still softer, over half heaven. The east had its own
charm or fine deep blue, and its own modest gem, a rising and solitary
star: soon it would boast the moon; but she was yet beneath the
horizon.</p>

<p>I walked a while on the pavement; but a subtle, well-known scent—that
of a cigar—stole from some window; I saw the library casement open a
handbreadth; I knew I might be watched thence; so I went apart into the
orchard. No nook in the grounds more sheltered and more Eden-like; it
was full of trees, it bloomed with flowers: a very high wall shut it
out from the court, on one side; on the other, a beech avenue screened
it from the lawn. At the bottom was a sunk fence; its sole separation
from lonely fields: a winding walk, bordered with laurels and
terminating in a giant horse-chestnut, circled at the base by a seat,
led down to the fence. Here one could wander unseen. While such
honey-dew fell,
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such silence reigned, such gloaming gathered, I felt as
if I could haunt such shade for ever; but in threading the flower and
fruit parterres at the upper part of the enclosure, enticed there by
the light the now rising moon cast on this more open quarter, my step
is stayed—not by sound, not by sight, but once more by a warning
fragrance.</p>

<p>Sweet-briar and southernwood, jasmine, pink, and rose have long been
yielding their evening sacrifice of incense: this new scent is neither
of shrub nor flower; it is—I know it well—it is Mr. Rochester’s cigar.
I look round and I listen. I see trees laden with ripening fruit. I
hear a nightingale warbling in a wood half a mile off; no moving form
is visible, no coming step audible; but that perfume increases: I must
flee. I make for the wicket leading to the shrubbery, and I see Mr.
Rochester entering. I step aside into the ivy recess; he will not stay
long: he will soon return whence he came, and if I sit still he will
never see me.</p>

<p>But no—eventide is as pleasant to him as to me, and this antique garden
as attractive; and he strolls on, now lifting the gooseberry-tree
branches to look at the fruit, large as plums, with which they are
laden; now taking
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a ripe cherry from the wall; now stooping towards a
knot of flowers, either to inhale their fragrance or to admire the
dew-beads on their petals. A great moth goes humming by me; it alights
on a plant at Mr. Rochester’s foot: he sees it, and bends to examine
it.</p>

<p>“Now, he has his back towards me,” thought I, “and he is occupied too;
perhaps, if I walk softly, I can slip away unnoticed.”</p>

<p>I trode on an edging of turf that the crackle of the pebbly gravel
might not betray me: he was standing among the beds at a yard or two
distant from where I had to pass; the moth apparently engaged him. “I
shall get by very well,” I meditated. As I crossed his shadow, thrown
long over the garden by the moon, not yet risen high, he said quietly,
without turning—</p>

<p>“Jane, come and look at this fellow.”</p>

<p>I had made no noise: he had not eyes behind—could his shadow feel? I
started at first, and then I approached him.</p>

<p>“Look at his wings,” said he, “he reminds me rather of a West Indian
insect; one does not often see so large and gay a night-rover in
England; there! he is flown.”</p>

<p>The moth roamed away. I was sheepishly retreating also; but Mr.
Rochester followed
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me, and when we reached the wicket, he said—</p>

<p>“Turn back: on so lovely a night it is a shame to sit in the house; and
surely no one can wish to go to bed while sunset is thus at meeting
with moonrise.”</p>

<p>It is one of my faults, that though my tongue is sometimes prompt
enough at an answer, there are times when it sadly fails me in framing
an excuse; and always the lapse occurs at some crisis, when a facile
word or plausible pretext is specially wanted to get me out of painful
embarrassment. I did not like to walk at this hour alone with Mr.
Rochester in the shadowy orchard; but I could not find a reason to
allege for leaving him. I followed with lagging step, and thoughts
busily bent on discovering a means of extrication; but he himself
looked so composed and so grave also, I became ashamed of feeling any
confusion: the evil—if evil existent or prospective there was—seemed to
lie with me only; his mind was unconscious and quiet.</p>

<p>“Jane,” he recommenced, as we entered the laurel walk, and slowly
strayed down in the direction of the sunk fence and the horse-chestnut,
“Thornfield is a pleasant place in summer, is it not?”</p>
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<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“You must have become in some degree attached to the house,—you, who
have an eye for natural beauties, and a good deal of the organ of
Adhesiveness?”</p>

<p>“I am attached to it, indeed.”</p>

<p>“And though I don’t comprehend how it is, I perceive you have acquired
a degree of regard for that foolish little child Adèle, too; and even
for simple dame Fairfax?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir; in different ways, I have an affection for both.”</p>

<p>“And would be sorry to part with them?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Pity!” he said, and sighed and paused. “It is always the way of events
in this life,” he continued presently: “no sooner have you got settled
in a pleasant resting-place, than a voice calls out to you to rise and
move on, for the hour of repose is expired.”</p>

<p>“Must I move on, sir?” I asked. “Must I leave Thornfield?”</p>

<p>“I believe you must, Jane. I am sorry, Janet, but I believe indeed you
must.”</p>

<p>This was a blow: but I did not let it prostrate me.</p>

<p>“Well, sir, I shall be ready when the order to march comes.”</p>
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<p>“It is come now—I must give it to-night.”</p>

<p>“Then you <hi rend="italic">are</hi> going to be married, sir?”</p>

<p>“Ex-act-ly—pre-cise-ly: with your usual acuteness, you have hit the
nail straight on the head.”</p>

<p>“Soon, sir?”</p>

<p>“Very soon, my—that is, Miss Eyre: and you’ll remember, Jane, the first
time I, or Rumour, plainly intimated to you that it was my intention to
put my old bachelor’s neck into the sacred noose, to enter into the
holy estate of matrimony—to take Miss Ingram to my bosom, in short
(she’s an extensive armful: but that’s not to the point—one can’t have
too much of such a very excellent thing as my beautiful Blanche): well,
as I was saying—listen to me, Jane! You’re not turning your head to
look after more moths, are you? That was only a lady-clock, child,
‘flying away home.’ I wish to remind you that it was you who first said
to me, with that discretion I respect in you—with that foresight,
prudence, and humility which befit your responsible and dependent
position—that in case I married Miss Ingram, both you and little Adèle
had better trot forthwith. I pass over the sort of slur conveyed in
this suggestion on the character of my beloved; indeed, when you are
far away,
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Janet, I’ll try to forget it: I shall notice only its wisdom;
which is such that I have made it my law of action. Adèle must go to
school; and you, Miss Eyre, must get a new situation.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir, I will advertise immediately: and meantime, I suppose—” I
was going to say, “I suppose I may stay here, till I find another
shelter to betake myself to:” but I stopped, feeling it would not do to
risk a long sentence, for my voice was not quite under command.</p>

<p>“In about a month I hope to be a bridegroom,” continued Mr. Rochester;
“and in the interim, I shall myself look out for employment and an
asylum for you.”</p>

<p>“Thank you, sir; I am sorry to give—”</p>

<p>“Oh, no need to apologise! I consider that when a dependent does her
duty as well as you have done yours, she has a sort of claim upon her
employer for any little assistance he can conveniently render her;
indeed I have already, through my future mother-in-law, heard of a
place that I think will suit: it is to undertake the education of the
five daughters of Mrs. Dionysius O’Gall of Bitternutt Lodge, Connaught,
Ireland. You’ll like Ireland, I think: they’re such warm-hearted people
there, they say.”</p>
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<p>“It is a long way off, sir.”</p>

<p>“No matter—a girl of your sense will not object to the voyage or the
distance.”</p>

<p>“Not the voyage, but the distance: and then the sea is a barrier—”</p>

<p>“From what, Jane?”</p>

<p>“From England and from Thornfield: and—”</p>

<p>“Well?”</p>

            <p>“From <hi rend="italic">you</hi>, sir.”</p>

<p>I said this almost involuntarily, and, with as little sanction of free
will, my tears gushed out. I did not cry so as to be heard, however; I
avoided sobbing. The thought of Mrs. O’Gall and Bitternutt Lodge struck
cold to my heart; and colder the thought of all the brine and foam,
destined, as it seemed, to rush between me and the master at whose side
I now walked, and coldest the remembrance of the wider ocean—wealth,
caste, custom intervened between me and what I naturally and inevitably
loved.</p>

<p>“It is a long way,” I again said.</p>

<p>“It is, to be sure; and when you get to Bitternutt Lodge, Connaught,
Ireland, I shall never see you again, Jane: that’s morally certain. I
never go over to Ireland, not having myself much of a fancy for the
country. 
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We have been good friends, Jane; have we not?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And when friends are on the eve of separation, they like to spend the
little time that remains to them close to each other. Come! we’ll talk
over the voyage and the parting quietly half-an-hour or so, while the
stars enter into their shining life up in heaven yonder: here is the
chestnut tree: here is the bench at its old roots. Come, we will sit
there in peace to-night, though we should never more be destined to sit
there together.” He seated me and himself.</p>

<p>“It is a long way to Ireland, Janet, and I am sorry to send my little
friend on such weary travels: but if I can’t do better, how is it to be
helped? Are you anything akin to me, do you think, Jane?”</p>

<p>I could risk no sort of answer by this time: my heart was still.</p>

<p>“Because,” he said, “I sometimes have a queer feeling with regard to
you—especially when you are near me, as now: it is as if I had a string
somewhere under my left ribs, tightly and inextricably knotted to a
similar string situated in the corresponding quarter of your little
frame. And if that boisterous
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Channel, and two hundred miles or so of
land come broad between us, I am afraid that cord of communion will be
snapt; and then I’ve a nervous notion I should take to bleeding
inwardly. As for you,—you’d forget me.”</p>

<p>“That I <hi rend="italic">never</hi> should, sir: you know—” Impossible to proceed.</p>

<p>“Jane, do you hear that nightingale singing in the wood? Listen!”</p>

<p>In listening, I sobbed convulsively; for I could repress what I endured
no longer; I was obliged to yield, and I was shaken from head to foot
with acute distress. When I did speak, it was only to express an
impetuous wish that I had never been born, or never come to Thornfield.</p>

<p>“Because you are sorry to leave it?”</p>

<p>The vehemence of emotion, stirred by grief and love within me, was
claiming mastery, and struggling for full sway, and asserting a right
to predominate, to overcome, to live, rise, and reign at last: yes,—and
to speak.</p>

<p>“I grieve to leave Thornfield: I love Thornfield:—I love it, because I
have lived in it a full and delightful life,—momentarily at least. I
have not been trampled on. I have not been petrified. I have not been
buried with inferior minds, and excluded from every glimpse of
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communion with what is bright and energetic and high. I have talked,
face to face, with what I reverence, with what I delight in,—with an
original, a vigorous, an expanded mind. I have known you, Mr.
Rochester; and it strikes me with terror and anguish to feel I
absolutely must be torn from you for ever. I see the necessity of
departure; and it is like looking on the necessity of death.”</p>

<p>“Where do you see the necessity?” he asked suddenly.</p>

<p>“Where? You, sir, have placed it before me.”</p>

<p>“In what shape?”</p>

<p>“In the shape of Miss Ingram; a noble and beautiful woman,—your bride.”</p>

<p>“My bride! What bride? I have no bride!”</p>

<p>“But you will have.”</p>

<p>“Yes;—I will!—I will!” He set his teeth.</p>

<p>“Then I must go:—you have said it yourself.”</p>

<p>“No: you must stay! I swear it—and the oath shall be kept.”</p>

<p>“I tell you I must go!” I retorted, roused to something like passion.
“Do you think I can stay to become nothing to you? Do you think I am an
automaton?—a machine without
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feelings? and can bear to have my morsel
of bread snatched from my lips, and my drop of living water dashed from
my cup? Do you think, because I am poor, obscure, plain, and little, I
am soulless and heartless? You think wrong!—I have as much soul as
you,—and full as much heart! And if God had gifted me with some beauty
and much wealth, I should have made it as hard for you to leave me, as
it is now for me to leave you. I am not talking to you now through the
medium of custom, conventionalities, nor even of mortal flesh;—it is my
spirit that addresses your spirit; just as if both had passed through
the grave, and we stood at God’s feet, equal,—as we are!”</p>

<p>“As we are!” repeated Mr. Rochester—“so,” he added, enclosing me in his
arms, gathering me to his breast, pressing his lips on my lips: “so,
Jane!”</p>

<p>“Yes, so, sir,” I rejoined: “and yet not so; for you are a married
man—or as good as a married man, and wed to one inferior to you—to one
with whom you have no sympathy—whom I do not believe you truly love;
for I have seen and heard you sneer at her. I would scorn such a union:
therefore I am better than you—let me go!”</p>
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<p>“Where, Jane? To Ireland?”</p>

<p>“Yes—to Ireland. I have spoken my mind, and can go anywhere now.”</p>

<p>“Jane, be still; don’t struggle so, like a wild frantic bird that is
rending its own plumage in its desperation.”</p>

<p>“I am no bird; and no net ensnares me; I am a free human being with an
independent will, which I now exert to leave you.”</p>

<p>Another effort set me at liberty, and I stood erect before him.</p>

<p>“And your will shall decide your destiny,” he said: “I offer you my
hand, my heart, and a share of all my possessions.”</p>

<p>“You play a farce, which I merely laugh at.”</p>

<p>“I ask you to pass through life at my side—to be my second self, and
best earthly companion.”</p>

<p>“For that fate you have already made your choice, and must abide by
it.”</p>

<p>“Jane, be still a few moments: you are over-excited: I will be still
too.”</p>

<p>A waft of wind came sweeping down the laurel-walk, and trembled through
the boughs of the chestnut: it wandered away—away—to an indefinite
distance—it died. The nightingale’s song was then the only voice of the
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hour: in listening to it, I again wept. Mr. Rochester sat quiet,
looking at me gently and seriously. Some time passed before he spoke;
he at last said—</p>

<p>“Come to my side, Jane, and let us explain and understand one another.”</p>

<p>“I will never again come to your side: I am torn away now, and cannot
return.”</p>

<p>“But, Jane, I summon you as my wife: it is you only I intend to marry.”</p>

<p>I was silent: I thought he mocked me.</p>

<p>“Come, Jane—come hither.”</p>

<p>“Your bride stands between us.”</p>

<p>He rose, and with a stride reached me.</p>

<p>“My bride is here,” he said, again drawing me to him, “because my equal
is here, and my likeness. Jane, will you marry me?”</p>

<p>Still I did not answer, and still I writhed myself from his grasp: for
I was still incredulous.</p>

<p>“Do you doubt me, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Entirely.”</p>

<p>“You have no faith in me?”</p>

<p>“Not a whit.”</p>

<p>“Am I a liar in your eyes?” he asked passionately. “Little sceptic, you
<hi rend="italic">shall</hi> be convinced. What love have I for Miss Ingram? None: and that
you know. What
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love has she for me? None: as I have taken pains to
prove: I caused a rumour to reach her that my fortune was not a third
of what was supposed, and after that I presented myself to see the
result; it was coldness both from her and her mother. I would not—I
could not—marry Miss Ingram. You—you strange, you almost unearthly
thing!—I love as my own flesh. You—poor and obscure, and small and
plain as you are—I entreat to accept me as a husband.”</p>

<p>“What, me!” I ejaculated, beginning in his earnestness—and especially
in his incivility—to credit his sincerity: “me who have not a friend in
the world but you—if you are my friend: not a shilling but what you
have given me?”</p>

<p>“You, Jane, I must have you for my own—entirely my own. Will you be
mine? Say yes, quickly.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, let me look at your face: turn to the moonlight.”</p>

<p>“Why?”</p>

<p>“Because I want to read your countenance—turn!”</p>

<p>“There! you will find it scarcely more legible than a crumpled,
scratched page. Read on: only make haste, for I suffer.”</p>
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<p>His face was very much agitated and very much flushed, and there were
strong workings in the features, and strange gleams in the eyes.</p>

<p>“Oh, Jane, you torture me!” he exclaimed. “With that searching and yet
faithful and generous look, you torture me!”</p>

<p>“How can I do that? If you are true, and your offer real, my only
feelings to you must be gratitude and devotion—they cannot torture.”</p>

<p>"Gratitude!” he ejaculated; and added wildly—“Jane accept me quickly.
Say, Edward—give me my name—Edward—I will marry you.”</p>

<p>“Are you in earnest? Do you truly love me? Do you sincerely wish me to
be your wife?”</p>

<p>“I do; and if an oath is necessary to satisfy you, I swear it.”</p>

<p>“Then, sir, I will marry you.”</p>

<p>“Edward—my little wife!”</p>

<p>“Dear Edward!”</p>

<p>“Come to me—come to me entirely now,” said he; and added, in his
deepest tone, speaking in my ear as his cheek was laid on mine, “Make
my happiness—I will make yours.”</p>

<p>“God pardon me!” he subjoined ere long;
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    “and man meddle not with me: I
have her, and will hold her.”</p>

<p>“There is no one to meddle, sir. I have no kindred to interfere.”</p>

<p>“No—that is the best of it,” he said. And if I had loved him less I
should have thought his accent and look of exultation savage; but,
sitting by him, roused from the nightmare of parting—called to the
paradise of union—I thought only of the bliss given me to drink in so
abundant a flow. Again and again he said, “Are you happy, Jane?” And
again and again I answered, “Yes.” After which he murmured, “It will
atone—it will atone. Have I not found her friendless, and cold, and
comfortless? Will I not guard, and cherish, and solace her? Is there
not love in my heart, and constancy in my resolves? It will expiate at
God’s tribunal. I know my Maker sanctions what I do. For the world’s
judgment—I wash my hands thereof. For man’s opinion—I defy it.”</p>

<p>But what had befallen the night? The moon was not yet set, and we were
all in shadow: I could scarcely see my master’s face, near as I was.
And what ailed the chestnut tree? it writhed and groaned; while wind
roared in the laurel walk, and came sweeping over us.</p>
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<p>“We must go in,” said Mr. Rochester: “the weather changes. I could have
sat with thee till morning, Jane.”</p>

<p>“And so,” thought I, “could I with you.” I should have said so,
perhaps, but a livid, vivid spark leapt out of a cloud at which I was
looking, and there was a crack, a crash, and a close rattling peal; and
I thought only of hiding my dazzled eyes against Mr. Rochester’s
shoulder.</p>

<p>The rain rushed down. He hurried me up the walk, through the grounds,
and into the house; but we were quite wet before we could pass the
threshold. He was taking off my shawl in the hall, and shaking the
water out of my loosened hair, when Mrs. Fairfax emerged from her room.
I did not observe her at first, nor did Mr. Rochester. The lamp was
lit. The clock was on the stroke of twelve.</p>

<p>“Hasten to take off your wet things,” said he; “and before you go,
good-night—good-night, my darling!”</p>

<p>He kissed me repeatedly. When I looked up, on leaving his arms, there
stood the widow, pale, grave, and amazed. I only smiled at her, and ran
upstairs. “Explanation will do for another time,” thought I. Still,
when I reached my chamber, I felt a pang at the idea
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she should even
temporarily misconstrue what she had seen. But joy soon effaced every
other feeling; and loud as the wind blew, near and deep as the thunder
crashed, fierce and frequent as the lightning gleamed, cataract-like as
the rain fell during a storm of two hours’ duration, I experienced no
fear and little awe. Mr. Rochester came thrice to my door in the course
of it, to ask if I was safe and tranquil: and that was comfort, that
was strength for anything.</p>

<p>Before I left my bed in the morning, little Adèle came running in to
tell me that the great horse-chestnut at the bottom of the orchard had
been struck by lightning in the night, and half of it split away.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXIV</head>
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<p>As I rose and dressed, I thought over what had happened, and wondered
if it were a dream. I could not be certain of the reality till I had
seen Mr. Rochester again, and heard him renew his words of love and
promise.</p>

<p>While arranging my hair, I looked at my face in the glass, and felt it
was no longer plain: there was hope in its aspect and life in its
colour; and my eyes seemed as if they had beheld the fount of fruition,
and borrowed beams from the lustrous ripple. I had often been unwilling
to look at my master, because I feared he could not be pleased at my
look; but I was sure I might lift my face to his now, and not cool his
affection by its expression. I took a plain but clean and light summer
dress from my drawer and put it on: it seemed no attire had ever so
well become me, because none had I ever worn in so blissful a mood.</p>
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<p>I was not surprised, when I ran down into the hall, to see that a
brilliant June morning had succeeded to the tempest of the night; and
to feel, through the open glass door, the breathing of a fresh and
fragrant breeze. Nature must be gladsome when I was so happy. A
beggar-woman and her little boy—pale, ragged objects both—were coming
up the walk, and I ran down and gave them all the money I happened to
have in my purse—some three or four shillings: good or bad, they must
partake of my jubilee. The rooks cawed, and blither birds sang; but
nothing was so merry or so musical as my own rejoicing heart.</p>

<p>Mrs. Fairfax surprised me by looking out of the window with a sad
countenance, and saying gravely—“Miss Eyre, will you come to
breakfast?” During the meal she was quiet and cool: but I could not
undeceive her then. I must wait for my master to give explanations; and
so must she. I ate what I could, and then I hastened upstairs. I met
Adèle leaving the schoolroom.</p>

<p>“Where are you going? It is time for lessons.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester has sent me away to the nursery.”</p>

<p>“Where is he?”</p>
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<p>“In there,” pointing to the apartment she had left; and I went in, and
there he stood.</p>

<p>“Come and bid me good-morning,” said he. I gladly advanced; and it was
not merely a cold word now, or even a shake of the hand that I
received, but an embrace and a kiss. It seemed natural: it seemed
genial to be so well loved, so caressed by him.</p>

<p>“Jane, you look blooming, and smiling, and pretty,” said he: “truly
pretty this morning. Is this my pale, little elf? Is this my
mustard-seed? This little sunny-faced girl with the dimpled cheek and
rosy lips; the satin-smooth hazel hair, and the radiant hazel eyes?” (I
had green eyes, reader; but you must excuse the mistake: for him they
were new-dyed, I suppose.)</p>

<p>“It is Jane Eyre, sir.”</p>

<p>“Soon to be Jane Rochester,” he added: “in four weeks, Janet; not a day
more. Do you hear that?”</p>

<p>I did, and I could not quite comprehend it: it made me giddy. The
feeling, the announcement sent through me, was something stronger than
was consistent with joy—something that smote and stunned: it was, I
think, almost fear.</p>
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<p>“You blushed, and now you are white, Jane: what is that for?”</p>

<p>“Because you gave me a new name—Jane Rochester; and it seems so
strange.”</p>

<p>“Yes, Mrs. Rochester,” said he; “young Mrs. Rochester—Fairfax
Rochester’s girl-bride.”</p>

<p>“It can never be, sir; it does not sound likely. Human beings never
enjoy complete happiness in this world. I was not born for a different
destiny to the rest of my species: to imagine such a lot befalling me
is a fairy tale—a day-dream.”</p>

<p>“Which I can and will realise. I shall begin to-day. This morning I
wrote to my banker in London to send me certain jewels he has in his
keeping,—heirlooms for the ladies of Thornfield. In a day or two I hope
to pour them into your lap: for every privilege, every attention shall
be yours that I would accord a peer’s daughter, if about to marry her.”</p>

<p>“Oh, sir!—never rain jewels! I don’t like to hear them spoken of.
Jewels for Jane Eyre sounds unnatural and strange: I would rather not
have them.”</p>

<p>“I will myself put the diamond chain round your neck, and the circlet
on your forehead,—
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which it will become: for nature, at least, has
stamped her patent of nobility on this brow, Jane; and I will clasp the
bracelets on these fine wrists, and load these fairy-like fingers with
rings.”</p>

<p>“No, no, sir! think of other subjects, and speak of other things, and
in another strain. Don’t address me as if I were a beauty; I am your
plain, Quakerish governess.”</p>

<p>“You are a beauty in my eyes, and a beauty just after the desire of my
heart,—delicate and aërial.”</p>

<p>“Puny and insignificant, you mean. You are dreaming, sir,—or you are
sneering. For God’s sake, don’t be ironical!”</p>

<p>“I will make the world acknowledge you a beauty, too,” he went on,
while I really became uneasy at the strain he had adopted, because I
felt he was either deluding himself or trying to delude me. “I will
attire my Jane in satin and lace, and she shall have roses in her hair;
and I will cover the head I love best with a priceless veil.”</p>

<p>“And then you won’t know me, sir; and I shall not be your Jane Eyre any
longer, but an ape in a harlequin’s jacket—a jay in borrowed plumes. I
would as soon see you, Mr. Rochester, tricked out in stage-trappings,
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as myself clad in a court-lady’s robe; and I don’t call you handsome,
sir, though I love you most dearly: far too dearly to flatter you.
Don’t flatter me.”</p>

<p>He pursued his theme, however, without noticing my deprecation. “This
very day I shall take you in the carriage to Millcote, and you must
choose some dresses for yourself. I told you we shall be married in
four weeks. The wedding is to take place quietly, in the church down
below yonder; and then I shall waft you away at once to town. After a
brief stay there, I shall bear my treasure to regions nearer the sun:
to French vineyards and Italian plains; and she shall see whatever is
famous in old story and in modern record: she shall taste, too, of the
life of cities; and she shall learn to value herself by just comparison
with others.”</p>

<p>“Shall I travel?—and with you, sir?”</p>

<p>“You shall sojourn at Paris, Rome, and Naples: at Florence, Venice, and
Vienna: all the ground I have wandered over shall be re-trodden by you:
wherever I stamped my hoof, your sylph’s foot shall step also. Ten
years since, I flew through Europe half mad; with disgust, hate, and
rage as my companions: now I shall revisit it healed
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and cleansed, with
a very angel as my comforter.”</p>

<p>I laughed at him as he said this. “I am not an angel,” I asserted; “and
I will not be one till I die: I will be myself. Mr. Rochester, you must
neither expect nor exact anything celestial of me—for you will not get
it, any more than I shall get it of you: which I do not at all
anticipate.”</p>

<p>“What do you anticipate of me?”</p>

<p>“For a little while you will perhaps be as you are now,—a very little
while; and then you will turn cool; and then you will be capricious;
and then you will be stern, and I shall have much ado to please you:
but when you get well used to me, you will perhaps like me
again,—<hi rend="italic">like</hi> me, I say, not <hi rend="italic">love</hi> me. I suppose your love will
effervesce in six months, or less. I have observed in books written by
men, that period assigned as the farthest to which a husband’s ardour
extends. Yet, after all, as a friend and companion, I hope never to
become quite distasteful to my dear master.”</p>

<p>“Distasteful! and like you again! I think I shall like you again, and
yet again: and I will make you confess I do not only <hi rend="italic">like</hi>, but <hi rend="italic">love</hi>
you—with truth, fervour, constancy.”</p>

<p>“Yet are you not capricious, sir?”</p>
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<p>“To women who please me only by their faces, I am the very devil when I
find out they have neither souls nor hearts—when they open to me a
perspective of flatness, triviality, and perhaps imbecility,
coarseness, and ill-temper: but to the clear eye and eloquent tongue,
to the soul made of fire, and the character that bends but does not
break—at once supple and stable, tractable and consistent—I am ever
tender and true.”</p>

<p>“Had you ever experience of such a character, sir? Did you ever love
such an one?”</p>

<p>“I love it now.”</p>

<p>“But before me: if I, indeed, in any respect come up to your difficult
standard?”</p>

<p>“I never met your likeness. Jane, you please me, and you master me—you
seem to submit, and I like the sense of pliancy you impart; and while I
am twining the soft, silken skein round my finger, it sends a thrill up
my arm to my heart. I am influenced—conquered; and the influence is
sweeter than I can express; and the conquest I undergo has a witchery
beyond any triumph I can win. Why do you smile, Jane? What does that
inexplicable, that uncanny turn of countenance mean?”</p>

<p>“I was thinking, sir (you will excuse the
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    idea; it was involuntary), I
was thinking of Hercules and Samson with their charmers—”</p>

<p>“You were, you little elfish—”</p>

<p>“Hush, sir! You don’t talk very wisely just now; any more than those
gentlemen acted very wisely. However, had they been married, they would
no doubt by their severity as husbands have made up for their softness
as suitors; and so will you, I fear. I wonder how you will answer me a
year hence, should I ask a favour it does not suit your convenience or
pleasure to grant.”</p>

<p>“Ask me something now, Janet,—the least thing: I desire to be
entreated—”</p>

<p>“Indeed I will, sir; I have my petition all ready.”</p>

<p>“Speak! But if you look up and smile with that countenance, I shall
swear concession before I know to what, and that will make a fool of
me.”</p>

<p>“Not at all, sir; I ask only this: don’t send for the jewels, and don’t
crown me with roses: you might as well put a border of gold lace round
that plain pocket handkerchief you have there.”</p>

<p>“I might as well ‘gild refined gold.’ I know it: your request is
granted then—for the time. I will remand the order I despatched
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to my
banker. But you have not yet asked for anything; you have prayed a gift
to be withdrawn: try again.”</p>

<p>“Well then, sir, have the goodness to gratify my curiosity, which is
much piqued on one point.”</p>

<p>He looked disturbed. “What? what?” he said hastily. “Curiosity is a
dangerous petition: it is well I have not taken a vow to accord every
request—”</p>

<p>“But there can be no danger in complying with this, sir.”</p>

<p>“Utter it, Jane: but I wish that instead of a mere inquiry into,
perhaps, a secret, it was a wish for half my estate.”</p>

<p>“Now, King Ahasuerus! What do I want with half your estate? Do you
think I am a Jew-usurer, seeking good investment in land? I would much
rather have all your confidence. You will not exclude me from your
confidence if you admit me to your heart?”</p>

<p>“You are welcome to all my confidence that is worth having, Jane; but
for God’s sake, don’t desire a useless burden! Don’t long for
poison—don’t turn out a downright Eve on my hands!”</p>

<p>“Why not, sir? You have just been telling
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    me how much you liked to be
conquered, and how pleasant over-persuasion is to you. Don’t you think
I had better take advantage of the confession, and begin and coax and
entreat—even cry and be sulky if necessary—for the sake of a mere essay
of my power?”</p>

<p>“I dare you to any such experiment. Encroach, presume, and the game is
up.”</p>

<p>“Is it, sir? You soon give in. How stern you look now! Your eyebrows
have become as thick as my finger, and your forehead resembles what, in
some very astonishing poetry, I once saw styled, ‘a blue-piled
thunderloft.’ That will be your married look, sir, I suppose?”</p>

<p>“If that will be <hi rend="italic">your</hi> married look, I, as a Christian, will soon give
up the notion of consorting with a mere sprite or salamander. But what
had you to ask, thing,—out with it?”</p>

<p>“There, you are less than civil now; and I like rudeness a great deal
better than flattery. I had rather be a <hi rend="italic">thing</hi> than an angel. This is
what I have to ask,—Why did you take such pains to make me believe you
wished to marry Miss Ingram?”</p>

<p>“Is that all? Thank God it is no worse!” And now he unknit his black
brows; looked
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down, smiling at me, and stroked my hair, as if well
pleased at seeing a danger averted. “I think I may confess,” he
continued, “even although I should make you a little indignant,
Jane—and I have seen what a fire-spirit you can be when you are
indignant. You glowed in the cool moonlight last night, when you
mutinied against fate, and claimed your rank as my equal. Janet,
by-the-bye, it was you who made me the offer.”</p>

<p>“Of course I did. But to the point if you please, sir—Miss Ingram?”</p>

<p>“Well, I feigned courtship of Miss Ingram, because I wished to render
you as madly in love with me as I was with you; and I knew jealousy
would be the best ally I could call in for the furtherance of that
end.”</p>

<p>“Excellent! Now you are small—not one whit bigger than the end of my
little finger. It was a burning shame and a scandalous disgrace to act
in that way. Did you think nothing of Miss Ingram’s feelings, sir?”</p>

<p>“Her feelings are concentrated in one—pride; and that needs humbling.
Were you jealous, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Never mind, Mr. Rochester: it is in no way interesting to you to know
that. Answer me truly once more. Do you think
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Miss Ingram will not
suffer from your dishonest coquetry? Won’t she feel forsaken and
deserted?”</p>

<p>“Impossible!—when I told you how she, on the contrary, deserted me: the
idea of my insolvency cooled, or rather extinguished, her flame in a
moment.”</p>

<p>“You have a curious, designing mind, Mr. Rochester. I am afraid your
principles on some points are eccentric.”</p>

<p>“My principles were never trained, Jane: they may have grown a little
awry for want of attention.”</p>

<p>“Once again, seriously; may I enjoy the great good that has been
vouchsafed to me, without fearing that any one else is suffering the
bitter pain I myself felt a while ago?”</p>

<p>“That you may, my good little girl: there is not another being in the
world has the same pure love for me as yourself—for I lay that pleasant
unction to my soul, Jane, a belief in your affection.”</p>

<p>I turned my lips to the hand that lay on my shoulder. I loved him very
much—more than I could trust myself to say—more than words had power to
express.</p>

<p>“Ask something more,” he said presently;
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    “it is my delight to be
entreated, and to yield.”</p>

<p>I was again ready with my request. “Communicate your intentions to Mrs.
Fairfax, sir: she saw me with you last night in the hall, and she was
shocked. Give her some explanation before I see her again. It pains me
to be misjudged by so good a woman.”</p>

<p>“Go to your room, and put on your bonnet,” he replied. “I mean you to
accompany me to Millcote this morning; and while you prepare for the
drive, I will enlighten the old lady’s understanding. Did she think,
Janet, you had given the world for love, and considered it well lost?”</p>

<p>“I believe she thought I had forgotten my station, and yours, sir.”</p>

<p>“Station! station!—your station is in my heart, and on the necks of
those who would insult you, now or hereafter.—Go.”</p>

<p>I was soon dressed; and when I heard Mr. Rochester quit Mrs. Fairfax’s
parlour, I hurried down to it. The old lady had been reading her
morning portion of Scripture—the Lesson for the day; her Bible lay open
before her, and her spectacles were upon it. Her occupation, suspended
by Mr. Rochester’s announcement, seemed now forgotten: her
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eyes, fixed
on the blank wall opposite, expressed the surprise of a quiet mind
stirred by unwonted tidings. Seeing me, she roused herself: she made a
sort of effort to smile, and framed a few words of congratulation; but
the smile expired, and the sentence was abandoned unfinished. She put
up her spectacles, shut the Bible, and pushed her chair back from the
table.</p>

<p>“I feel so astonished,” she began, “I hardly know what to say to you,
Miss Eyre. I have surely not been dreaming, have I? Sometimes I half
fall asleep when I am sitting alone and fancy things that have never
happened. It has seemed to me more than once when I have been in a
doze, that my dear husband, who died fifteen years since, has come in
and sat down beside me; and that I have even heard him call me by my
name, Alice, as he used to do. Now, can you tell me whether it is
actually true that Mr. Rochester has asked you to marry him? Don’t
laugh at me. But I really thought he came in here five minutes ago, and
said that in a month you would be his wife.”</p>

<p>“He has said the same thing to me,” I replied.</p>
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<p>“He has! Do you believe him? Have you accepted him?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>She looked at me bewildered.</p>

<p>“I could never have thought it. He is a proud man: all the Rochesters
were proud: and his father, at least, liked money. He, too, has always
been called careful. He means to marry you?”</p>

<p>“He tells me so.”</p>

<p>She surveyed my whole person: in her eyes I read that they had there
found no charm powerful enough to solve the enigma.</p>

<p>“It passes me!” she continued; “but no doubt it is true since you say
so. How it will answer, I cannot tell: I really don’t know. Equality of
position and fortune is often advisable in such cases; and there are
twenty years of difference in your ages. He might almost be your
father.”</p>

<p>“No, indeed, Mrs. Fairfax!” exclaimed I, nettled; “he is nothing like
my father! No one, who saw us together, would suppose it for an
instant. Mr. Rochester looks as young, and is as young, as some men at
five-and-twenty.”</p>

<p>“Is it really for love he is going to marry you?” she asked.</p>
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<p>I was so hurt by her coldness and scepticism, that the tears rose to my
eyes.</p>

<p>“I am sorry to grieve you,” pursued the widow; “but you are so young,
and so little acquainted with men, I wished to put you on your guard.
It is an old saying that ‘all is not gold that glitters;’ and in this
case I do fear there will be something found to be different to what
either you or I expect.”</p>

<p>“Why?—am I a monster?” I said: “is it impossible that Mr. Rochester
should have a sincere affection for me?”</p>

<p>“No: you are very well; and much improved of late; and Mr. Rochester, I
daresay, is fond of you. I have always noticed that you were a sort of
pet of his. There are times when, for your sake, I have been a little
uneasy at his marked preference, and have wished to put you on your
guard: but I did not like to suggest even the possibility of wrong. I
knew such an idea would shock, perhaps offend you; and you were so
discreet, and so thoroughly modest and sensible, I hoped you might be
trusted to protect yourself. Last night I cannot tell you what I
suffered when I sought all over the house, and could find you nowhere,
nor the master either; and then, at twelve o’clock, saw you come in
with him.”</p>
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<p>“Well, never mind that now,” I interrupted impatiently; “it is enough
that all was right.”</p>

<p>“I hope all will be right in the end,” she said: “but believe me, you
cannot be too careful. Try and keep Mr. Rochester at a distance:
distrust yourself as well as him. Gentlemen in his station are not
accustomed to marry their governesses.”</p>

<p>I was growing truly irritated: happily, Adèle ran in.</p>

<p>“Let me go,—let me go to Millcote too!” she cried. “Mr. Rochester
won’t: though there is so much room in the new carriage. Beg him to let
me go, mademoiselle.”</p>

<p>“That I will, Adèle;” and I hastened away with her, glad to quit my
gloomy monitress. The carriage was ready: they were bringing it round
to the front, and my master was pacing the pavement, Pilot following
him backwards and forwards.</p>

<p>“Adèle may accompany us, may she not, sir?”</p>

<p>“I told her no. I’ll have no brats!—I’ll have only you.”</p>

<p>“Do let her go, Mr. Rochester, if you please: it would be better.”</p>

<p>“Not it: she will be a restraint.”</p>
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<p>He was quite peremptory, both in look and voice. The chill of Mrs.
Fairfax’s warnings, and the damp of her doubts were upon me: something
of unsubstantiality and uncertainty had beset my hopes. I half lost the
sense of power over him. I was about mechanically to obey him, without
further remonstrance; but as he helped me into the carriage, he looked
at my face.</p>

<p>“What is the matter?” he asked; “all the sunshine is gone. Do you
really wish the bairn to go? Will it annoy you if she is left behind?”</p>

<p>“I would far rather she went, sir.”</p>

<p>“Then off for your bonnet, and back like a flash of lightning!” cried
he to Adèle.</p>

<p>She obeyed him with what speed she might.</p>

<p>“After all, a single morning’s interruption will not matter much,” said
he, “when I mean shortly to claim you—your thoughts, conversation, and
company—for life.”</p>

<p>Adèle, when lifted in, commenced kissing me, by way of expressing her
gratitude for my intercession: she was instantly stowed away into a
corner on the other side of him. She then peeped round to where I sat;
so stern a neighbour was too restrictive: to
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him, in his present
fractious mood, she dared whisper no observations, nor ask of him any
information.</p>

<p>“Let her come to me,” I entreated: “she will, perhaps, trouble you,
sir: there is plenty of room on this side.”</p>

<p>He handed her over as if she had been a lapdog. “I’ll send her to
school yet,” he said, but now he was smiling.</p>

<p>Adèle heard him, and asked if she was to go to school “sans
mademoiselle?”</p>

<p>“Yes,” he replied, “absolutely sans mademoiselle; for I am to take
mademoiselle to the moon, and there I shall seek a cave in one of the
white valleys among the volcano-tops, and mademoiselle shall live with
me there, and only me.”</p>

<p>“She will have nothing to eat: you will starve her,” observed Adèle.</p>

<p>“I shall gather manna for her morning and night: the plains and
hillsides in the moon are bleached with manna, Adèle.”</p>

<p>“She will want to warm herself: what will she do for a fire?”</p>

<p>“Fire rises out of the lunar mountains: when she is cold, I’ll carry
her up to a peak, and lay her down on the edge of a crater.”</p>

<p>“Oh, qu’elle y sera mal—peu comfortable!
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    And her clothes, they will
wear out: how can she get new ones?”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester professed to be puzzled. “Hem!” said he. “What would you
do, Adèle? Cudgel your brains for an expedient. How would a white or a
pink cloud answer for a gown, do you think? And one could cut a pretty
enough scarf out of a rainbow.”</p>

<p>“She is far better as she is,” concluded Adèle, after musing some time:
“besides, she would get tired of living with only you in the moon. If I
were mademoiselle, I would never consent to go with you.”</p>

<p>“She has consented: she has pledged her word.”</p>

<p>“But you can’t get her there; there is no road to the moon: it is all
air; and neither you nor she can fly.”</p>

<p>“Adèle, look at that field.” We were now outside Thornfield gates, and
bowling lightly along the smooth road to Millcote, where the dust was
well laid by the thunderstorm, and, where the low hedges and lofty
timber trees on each side glistened green and rain-refreshed.</p>

<p>“In that field, Adèle, I was walking late one evening about a fortnight
since—the evening of the day you helped me to make hay
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in the orchard
meadows; and, as I was tired with raking swaths, I sat down to rest me
on a stile; and there I took out a little book and a pencil, and began
to write about a misfortune that befell me long ago, and a wish I had
for happy days to come: I was writing away very fast, though daylight
was fading from the leaf, when something came up the path and stopped
two yards off me. I looked at it. It was a little thing with a veil of
gossamer on its head. I beckoned it to come near me; it stood soon at
my knee. I never spoke to it, and it never spoke to me, in words; but I
read its eyes, and it read mine; and our speechless colloquy was to
this effect—</p>

<p>“It was a fairy, and come from Elf-land, it said; and its errand was to
make me happy: I must go with it out of the common world to a lonely
place—such as the moon, for instance—and it nodded its head towards her
horn, rising over Hay-hill: it told me of the alabaster cave and silver
vale where we might live. I said I should like to go; but reminded it,
as you did me, that I had no wings to fly.</p>

<p>“‘Oh,’ returned the fairy, ‘that does not signify! Here is a talisman
will remove all difficulties;’ and she held out a pretty gold
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ring.
‘Put it,’ she said, ‘on the fourth finger of my left hand, and I am
yours, and you are mine; and we shall leave earth, and make our own
heaven yonder.’ She nodded again at the moon. The ring, Adèle, is in my
breeches-pocket, under the disguise of a sovereign: but I mean soon to
change it to a ring again.”</p>

<p>“But what has mademoiselle to do with it? I don’t care for the fairy:
you said it was mademoiselle you would take to the moon?”</p>

<p>“Mademoiselle is a fairy,” he said, whispering mysteriously. Whereupon
I told her not to mind his badinage; and she, on her part, evinced a
fund of genuine French scepticism: denominating Mr. Rochester “un vrai
menteur,” and assuring him that she made no account whatever of his
“contes de fée,” and that “du reste, il n’y avait pas de fées, et quand
même il y en avait:” she was sure they would never appear to him, nor
ever give him rings, or offer to live with him in the moon.</p>

<p>The hour spent at Millcote was a somewhat harassing one to me. Mr.
Rochester obliged me to go to a certain silk warehouse: there I was
ordered to choose half-a-dozen dresses. I hated the business, I begged
leave to defer it:
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no—it should be gone through with now. By dint of
entreaties expressed in energetic whispers, I reduced the half-dozen to
two: these however, he vowed he would select himself. With anxiety I
watched his eye rove over the gay stores: he fixed on a rich silk of
the most brilliant amethyst dye, and a superb pink satin. I told him in
a new series of whispers, that he might as well buy me a gold gown and
a silver bonnet at once: I should certainly never venture to wear his
choice. With infinite difficulty, for he was stubborn as a stone, I
persuaded him to make an exchange in favour of a sober black satin and
pearl-grey silk. “It might pass for the present,” he said; “but he
would yet see me glittering like a parterre.”</p>

<p>Glad was I to get him out of the silk warehouse, and then out of a
jeweller’s shop: the more he bought me, the more my cheek burned with a
sense of annoyance and degradation. As we re-entered the carriage, and
I sat back feverish and fagged, I remembered what, in the hurry of
events, dark and bright, I had wholly forgotten—the letter of my uncle,
John Eyre, to Mrs. Reed: his intention to adopt me and make me his
legatee. “It would, indeed, be a relief,” I thought, “if I had ever so
small an independency; I never
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can bear being dressed like a doll by
Mr. Rochester, or sitting like a second Danae with the golden shower
falling daily round me. I will write to Madeira the moment I get home,
and tell my uncle John I am going to be married, and to whom: if I had
but a prospect of one day bringing Mr. Rochester an accession of
fortune, I could better endure to be kept by him now.” And somewhat
relieved by this idea (which I failed not to execute that day), I
ventured once more to meet my master’s and lover’s eye, which most
pertinaciously sought mine, though I averted both face and gaze. He
smiled; and I thought his smile was such as a sultan might, in a
blissful and fond moment, bestow on a slave his gold and gems had
enriched: I crushed his hand, which was ever hunting mine, vigorously,
and thrust it back to him red with the passionate pressure.</p>

<p>“You need not look in that way,” I said; “if you do, I’ll wear nothing
but my old Lowood frocks to the end of the chapter. I’ll be married in
this lilac gingham: you may make a dressing-gown for yourself out of
the pearl-grey silk, and an infinite series of waistcoats out of the
black satin.”</p>

<p>He chuckled; he rubbed his hands. “Oh,
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    it is rich to see and hear her!”
he exclaimed. “Is she original? Is she piquant? I would not exchange
this one little English girl for the Grand Turk’s whole seraglio,
gazelle-eyes, houri forms, and all!”</p>

<p>The Eastern allusion bit me again. “I’ll not stand you an inch in the
stead of a seraglio,” I said; “so don’t consider me an equivalent for
one. If you have a fancy for anything in that line, away with you, sir,
to the bazaars of Stamboul without delay, and lay out in extensive
slave-purchases some of that spare cash you seem at a loss to spend
satisfactorily here.”</p>

<p>“And what will you do, Janet, while I am bargaining for so many tons of
flesh and such an assortment of black eyes?”</p>

<p>“I’ll be preparing myself to go out as a missionary to preach liberty
to them that are enslaved—your harem inmates amongst the rest. I’ll get
admitted there, and I’ll stir up mutiny; and you, three-tailed bashaw
as you are, sir, shall in a trice find yourself fettered amongst our
hands: nor will I, for one, consent to cut your bonds till you have
signed a charter, the most liberal that despot ever yet conferred.”</p>

<p>“I would consent to be at your mercy, Jane.”</p>
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<p>“I would have no mercy, Mr. Rochester, if you supplicated for it with
an eye like that. While you looked so, I should be certain that
whatever charter you might grant under coercion, your first act, when
released, would be to violate its conditions.”</p>

<p>“Why, Jane, what would you have? I fear you will compel me to go
through a private marriage ceremony, besides that performed at the
altar. You will stipulate, I see, for peculiar terms—what will they
be?”</p>

<p>“I only want an easy mind, sir; not crushed by crowded obligations. Do
you remember what you said of Céline Varens?—of the diamonds, the
cashmeres you gave her? I will not be your English Céline Varens. I
shall continue to act as Adèle’s governess; by that I shall earn my
board and lodging, and thirty pounds a year besides. I’ll furnish my
own wardrobe out of that money, and you shall give me nothing but—”</p>

<p>“Well, but what?”</p>

<p>“Your regard; and if I give you mine in return, that debt will be
quit.”</p>

<p>“Well, for cool native impudence and pure innate pride, you haven’t
your equal,” said he. We were now approaching Thornfield. “Will
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it
please you to dine with me to-day?” he asked, as we re-entered the
gates.</p>

<p>“No, thank you, sir.”</p>

<p>“And what for, ‘no, thank you?’ if one may inquire.”</p>

<p>“I never have dined with you, sir: and I see no reason why I should
now: till—”</p>

<p>“Till what? You delight in half-phrases.”</p>

<p>“Till I can’t help it.”</p>

<p>“Do you suppose I eat like an ogre or a ghoul, that you dread being the
companion of my repast?”</p>

<p>“I have formed no supposition on the subject, sir; but I want to go on
as usual for another month.”</p>

<p>“You will give up your governessing slavery at once.”</p>

<p>“Indeed, begging your pardon, sir, I shall not. I shall just go on with
it as usual. I shall keep out of your way all day, as I have been
accustomed to do: you may send for me in the evening, when you feel
disposed to see me, and I’ll come then; but at no other time.”</p>

<p>“I want a smoke, Jane, or a pinch of snuff, to comfort me under all
this, ‘pour me donner une contenance,’ as Adèle would say; and
unfortunately I have neither my cigar-case, nor
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my snuff-box. But
listen—whisper. It is your time now, little tyrant, but it will be mine
presently; and when once I have fairly seized you, to have and to hold,
I’ll just—figuratively speaking—attach you to a chain like this”
(touching his watch-guard). “Yes, bonny wee thing, I’ll wear you in my
bosom, lest my jewel I should tyne.”</p>

<p>He said this as he helped me to alight from the carriage, and while he
afterwards lifted out Adèle, I entered the house, and made good my
retreat upstairs.</p>

<p>He duly summoned me to his presence in the evening. I had prepared an
occupation for him; for I was determined not to spend the whole time in
a <hi rend="italic">tête-à-tête</hi> conversation. I remembered his fine voice; I knew he
liked to sing—good singers generally do. I was no vocalist myself, and,
in his fastidious judgment, no musician, either; but I delighted in
listening when the performance was good. No sooner had twilight, that
hour of romance, began to lower her blue and starry banner over the
lattice, than I rose, opened the piano, and entreated him, for the love
of heaven, to give me a song. He said I was a capricious witch, and
that he would rather
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sing another time; but I averred that no time was
like the present.</p>

<p>“Did I like his voice?” he asked.</p>

<p>“Very much.” I was not fond of pampering that susceptible vanity of
his; but for once, and from motives of expediency, I would e’en soothe
and stimulate it.</p>

<p>“Then, Jane, you must play the accompaniment.”</p>

<p>“Very well, sir, I will try.”</p>

<p>I did try, but was presently swept off the stool and denominated “a
little bungler.” Being pushed unceremoniously to one side—which was
precisely what I wished—he usurped my place, and proceeded to accompany
himself: for he could play as well as sing. I hied me to the
window-recess. And while I sat there and looked out on the still trees
and dim lawn, to a sweet air was sung in mellow tones the following
strain:—</p>

                <lg>
                                <l>“The truest love that ever heart</l>
                    <l>Felt at its kindled core,</l>
                    <l>Did through each vein, in quickened start,</l>
                    <l>The tide of being pour.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>Her coming was my hope each day,</l>
                    <l>Her parting was my pain;</l>
                    <l>The chance that did her steps delay</l>
                    <l>Was ice in every vein.</l>
                            </lg>
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                <lg>
                                <l>I dreamed it would be nameless bliss,</l>
                    <l>As I loved, loved to be;</l>
                    <l>And to this object did I press</l>
                    <l>As blind as eagerly.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>But wide as pathless was the space</l>
                    <l>That lay our lives between,</l>
                    <l>And dangerous as the foamy race</l>
                    <l>Of ocean-surges green.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>And haunted as a robber-path</l>
                    <l>Through wilderness or wood;</l>
                    <l>For Might and Right, and Woe and Wrath,</l>
                    <l>Between our spirits stood.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>I dangers dared; I hindrance scorned;</l>
                    <l>I omens did defy:</l>
                    <l>Whatever menaced, harassed, warned,</l>
                    <l>I passed impetuous by.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>On sped my rainbow, fast as light;</l>
                    <l>I flew as in a dream;</l>
                    <l>For glorious rose upon my sight</l>
                    <l>That child of Shower and Gleam.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>Still bright on clouds of suffering dim</l>
                    <l>Shines that soft, solemn joy;</l>
                    <l>Nor care I now, how dense and grim</l>
                    <l>Disasters gather nigh.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>I care not in this moment sweet,</l>
                    <l>Though all I have rushed o’er</l>
                    <l>Should come on pinion, strong and fleet,</l>
                    <l>Proclaiming vengeance sore:</l>
                            </lg>
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                <lg>
                                <l>Though haughty Hate should strike me down,</l>
                    <l>Right, bar approach to me,</l>
                    <l>And grinding Might, with furious frown,</l>
                        <l>Swear endless enmity.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>My love has placed her little hand</l>
                    <l>With noble faith in mine,</l>
                    <l>And vowed that wedlock’s sacred band</l>
                    <l>Our nature shall entwine.</l>
                            </lg>

                <lg>
                                <l>My love has sworn, with sealing kiss,</l>
                    <l>With me to live—to die;</l>
                    <l>I have at last my nameless bliss.</l>
                    <l>As I love—loved am I!”</l>
                            </lg>


<p>He rose and came towards me, and I saw his face all kindled, and his
full falcon-eye flashing, and tenderness and passion in every
lineament. I quailed momentarily—then I rallied. Soft scene, daring
demonstration, I would not have; and I stood in peril of both: a weapon
of defence must be prepared—I whetted my tongue: as he reached me, I
asked with asperity, “whom he was going to marry now?”</p>

<p>“That was a strange question to be put by his darling Jane.”</p>

<p>“Indeed! I considered it a very natural and necessary one: he had
talked of his future wife dying with him. What did he mean by
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such a
pagan idea? <hi rend="italic">I</hi> had no intention of dying with him—he might depend on
that.”</p>

<p>“Oh, all he longed, all he prayed for, was that I might live with him!
Death was not for such as I.”</p>

<p>“Indeed it was: I had as good a right to die when my time came as he
had: but I should bide that time, and not be hurried away in a suttee.”</p>

<p>“Would I forgive him for the selfish idea, and prove my pardon by a
reconciling kiss?”</p>

<p>“No: I would rather be excused.”</p>

<p>Here I heard myself apostrophised as a “hard little thing;” and it was
added, “any other woman would have been melted to marrow at hearing
such stanzas crooned in her praise.”</p>

<p>I assured him I was naturally hard—very flinty, and that he would often
find me so; and that, moreover, I was determined to show him divers
rugged points in my character before the ensuing four weeks elapsed: he
should know fully what sort of a bargain he had made, while there was
yet time to rescind it.</p>

<p>“Would I be quiet and talk rationally?”</p>

<p>“I would be quiet if he liked, and as to talking rationally, I
flattered myself I was doing that now.”</p>
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<p>He fretted, pished, and pshawed. “Very good,” I thought; “you may fume
and fidget as you please: but this is the best plan to pursue with you,
I am certain. I like you more than I can say; but I’ll not sink into a
bathos of sentiment: and with this needle of repartee I’ll keep you
from the edge of the gulf too; and, moreover, maintain by its pungent
aid that distance between you and myself most conducive to our real
mutual advantage.”</p>

<p>From less to more, I worked him up to considerable irritation; then,
after he had retired, in dudgeon, quite to the other end of the room, I
got up, and saying, “I wish you good-night, sir,” in my natural and
wonted respectful manner, I slipped out by the side-door and got away.</p>

<p>The system thus entered on, I pursued during the whole season of
probation; and with the best success. He was kept, to be sure, rather
cross and crusty; but on the whole I could see he was excellently
entertained, and that a lamb-like submission and turtle-dove
sensibility, while fostering his despotism more, would have pleased his
judgment, satisfied his common-sense, and even suited his taste less.</p>

<p>In other people’s presence I was, as formerly,
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    deferential and quiet;
any other line of conduct being uncalled for: it was only in the
evening conferences I thus thwarted and afflicted him. He continued to
send for me punctually the moment the clock struck seven; though when I
appeared before him now, he had no such honeyed terms as “love” and
“darling” on his lips: the best words at my service were “provoking
puppet,” “malicious elf,” “sprite,” “changeling,” &amp;c. For caresses,
too, I now got grimaces; for a pressure of the hand, a pinch on the
arm; for a kiss on the cheek, a severe tweak of the ear. It was all
right: at present I decidedly preferred these fierce favours to
anything more tender. Mrs. Fairfax, I saw, approved me: her anxiety on
my account vanished; therefore I was certain I did well. Meantime, Mr.
Rochester affirmed I was wearing him to skin and bone, and threatened
awful vengeance for my present conduct at some period fast coming. I
laughed in my sleeve at his menaces. “I can keep you in reasonable
check now,” I reflected; “and I don’t doubt to be able to do it
hereafter: if one expedient loses its virtue, another must be devised.”</p>

<p>Yet after all my task was not an easy one; often I would rather have
pleased than teased
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him. My future husband was becoming to me my whole
world; and more than the world: almost my hope of heaven. He stood
between me and every thought of religion, as an eclipse intervenes
between man and the broad sun. I could not, in those days, see God for
His creature: of whom I had made an idol.</p>
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                <div type="chapter"> <head>CHAPTER XXV</head>
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<p>The month of courtship had wasted: its very last hours were being
numbered. There was no putting off the day that advanced—the bridal
day; and all preparations for its arrival were complete. <hi rend="italic">I</hi>, at least,
had nothing more to do: there were my trunks, packed, locked, corded,
ranged in a row along the wall of my little chamber; to-morrow, at this
time, they would be far on their road to London: and so should I
(D.V.),—or rather, not I, but one Jane Rochester, a person whom as yet
I knew not. The cards of address alone remained to nail on: they lay,
four little squares, in the drawer. Mr. Rochester had himself written
the direction, “Mrs. Rochester, —— Hotel, London,” on each: I could not
persuade myself to affix them, or to have them affixed. Mrs. Rochester!
She
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did not exist: she would not be born till to-morrow, some time
after eight o’clock A.M.; and I would wait to be assured she had come
into the world alive before I assigned to her all that property. It was
enough that in yonder closet, opposite my dressing-table, garments said
to be hers had already displaced my black stuff Lowood frock and straw
bonnet: for not to me appertained that suit of wedding raiment; the
pearl-coloured robe, the vapoury veil pendent from the usurped
portmanteau. I shut the closet to conceal the strange, wraith-like
apparel it contained; which, at this evening hour—nine o’clock—gave out
certainly a most ghostly shimmer through the shadow of my apartment. “I
will leave you by yourself, white dream,” I said. “I am feverish: I
hear the wind blowing: I will go out of doors and feel it.”</p>

<p>It was not only the hurry of preparation that made me feverish; not
only the anticipation of the great change—the new life which was to
commence to-morrow: both these circumstances had their share,
doubtless, in producing that restless, excited mood which
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hurried me
forth at this late hour into the darkening grounds: but a third cause
influenced my mind more than they.</p>

<p>I had at heart a strange and anxious thought. Something had happened
which I could not comprehend; no one knew of or had seen the event but
myself: it had taken place the preceding night. Mr. Rochester that
night was absent from home; nor was he yet returned: business had
called him to a small estate of two or three farms he possessed thirty
miles off—business it was requisite he should settle in person,
previous to his meditated departure from England. I waited now his
return; eager to disburthen my mind, and to seek of him the solution of
the enigma that perplexed me. Stay till he comes, reader; and, when I
disclose my secret to him, you shall share the confidence.</p>

<p>I sought the orchard, driven to its shelter by the wind, which all day
had blown strong and full from the south, without, however, bringing a
speck of rain. Instead of subsiding as night drew on, it seemed to
augment its rush and deepen its roar: the trees blew
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steadfastly one
way, never writhing round, and scarcely tossing back their boughs once
in an hour; so continuous was the strain bending their branchy heads
northward—the clouds drifted from pole to pole, fast following, mass on
mass: no glimpse of blue sky had been visible that July day.</p>

<p>It was not without a certain wild pleasure I ran before the wind,
delivering my trouble of mind to the measureless air-torrent thundering
through space. Descending the laurel walk, I faced the wreck of the
chestnut-tree; it stood up black and riven: the trunk, split down the
centre, gasped ghastly. The cloven halves were not broken from each
other, for the firm base and strong roots kept them unsundered below;
though community of vitality was destroyed—the sap could flow no more:
their great boughs on each side were dead, and next winter’s tempests
would be sure to fell one or both to earth: as yet, however, they might
be said to form one tree—a ruin, but an entire ruin.</p>

<p>“You did right to hold fast to each other,” I said: as if the
monster-splinters were living
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things, and could hear me. “I think,
scathed as you look, and charred and scorched, there must be a little
sense of life in you yet, rising out of that adhesion at the faithful,
honest roots: you will never have green leaves more—never more see
birds making nests and singing idyls in your boughs; the time of
pleasure and love is over with you: but you are not desolate: each of
you has a comrade to sympathise with him in his decay.” As I looked up
at them, the moon appeared momentarily in that part of the sky which
filled their fissure; her disk was blood-red and half overcast; she
seemed to throw on me one bewildered, dreary glance, and buried herself
again instantly in the deep drift of cloud. The wind fell, for a
second, round Thornfield; but far away over wood and water, poured a
wild, melancholy wail: it was sad to listen to, and I ran off again.</p>

<p>Here and there I strayed through the orchard, gathered up the apples
with which the grass round the tree roots was thickly strewn; then I
employed myself in dividing the ripe from the unripe; I carried them
into the house
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and put them away in the store-room. Then I repaired to
the library to ascertain whether the fire was lit, for, though summer,
I knew on such a gloomy evening Mr. Rochester would like to see a
cheerful hearth when he came in: yes, the fire had been kindled some
time, and burnt well. I placed his arm-chair by the chimney-corner: I
wheeled the table near it: I let down the curtain, and had the candles
brought in ready for lighting. More restless than ever, when I had
completed these arrangements I could not sit still, nor even remain in
the house: a little time-piece in the room and the old clock in the
hall simultaneously struck ten.</p>

<p>“How late it grows!” I said. “I will run down to the gates: it is
moonlight at intervals; I can see a good way on the road. He may be
coming now, and to meet him will save some minutes of suspense.”</p>

<p>The wind roared high in the great trees which embowered the gates; but
the road as far as I could see, to the right hand and the left, was all
still and solitary: save for the shadows of clouds crossing it at
intervals as the moon
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looked out, it was but a long pale line, unvaried
by one moving speck.</p>

<p>A puerile tear dimmed my eye while I looked—a tear of disappointment
and impatience; ashamed of it, I wiped it away. I lingered; the moon
shut herself wholly within her chamber, and drew close her curtain of
dense cloud: the night grew dark; rain came driving fast on the gale.</p>

<p>“I wish he would come! I wish he would come!” I exclaimed, seized with
hypochondriac foreboding. I had expected his arrival before tea; now it
was dark: what could keep him? Had an accident happened? The event of
last night again recurred to me. I interpreted it as a warning of
disaster. I feared my hopes were too bright to be realised; and I had
enjoyed so much bliss lately that I imagined my fortune had passed its
meridian, and must now decline.</p>

<p>“Well, I cannot return to the house,” I thought; “I cannot sit by the
fireside, while he is abroad in inclement weather: better tire my limbs
than strain my heart; I will go forward and meet him.”</p>
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<p>I set out; I walked fast, but not far: ere I had measured a quarter of
a mile, I heard the tramp of hoofs; a horseman came on, full gallop; a
dog ran by his side. Away with evil presentiment! It was he: here he
was, mounted on Mesrour, followed by Pilot. He saw me; for the moon had
opened a blue field in the sky, and rode in it watery bright: he took
his hat off, and waved it round his head. I now ran to meet him.</p>

<p>“There!” he exclaimed, as he stretched out his hand and bent from the
saddle: “You can’t do without me, that is evident. Step on my boot-toe;
give me both hands: mount!”</p>

<p>I obeyed: joy made me agile: I sprang up before him. A hearty kissing I
got for a welcome, and some boastful triumph, which I swallowed as well
as I could. He checked himself in his exultation to demand, “But is
there anything the matter, Janet, that you come to meet me at such an
hour? Is there anything wrong?”</p>

<p>“No, but I thought you would never come.
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    I could not bear to wait in
the house for you, especially with this rain and wind.”</p>

<p>“Rain and wind, indeed! Yes, you are dripping like a mermaid; pull my
cloak round you: but I think you are feverish, Jane: both your cheek
and hand are burning hot. I ask again, is there anything the matter?”</p>

<p>“Nothing now; I am neither afraid nor unhappy.”</p>

<p>“Then you have been both?”</p>

<p>“Rather: but I’ll tell you all about it by-and-by, sir; and I daresay
you will only laugh at me for my pains.”</p>

<p>“I’ll laugh at you heartily when to-morrow is past; till then I dare
not: my prize is not certain. This is you, who have been as slippery as
an eel this last month, and as thorny as a briar-rose? I could not lay
a finger anywhere but I was pricked; and now I seem to have gathered up
a stray lamb in my arms. You wandered out of the fold to seek your
shepherd, did you, Jane?”</p>

<p>“I wanted you: but don’t boast. Here we are at Thornfield: now let me
get down.”</p>

<p>He landed me on the pavement. As John
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    took his horse, and he followed
me into the hall, he told me to make haste and put something dry on,
and then return to him in the library; and he stopped me, as I made for
the staircase, to extort a promise that I would not be long: nor was I
long; in five minutes I rejoined him. I found him at supper.</p>

<p>“Take a seat and bear me company, Jane: please God, it is the last meal
but one you will eat at Thornfield Hall for a long time.”</p>

<p>I sat down near him, but told him I could not eat.</p>

<p>“Is it because you have the prospect of a journey before you, Jane? Is
it the thoughts of going to London that takes away your appetite?”</p>

<p>“I cannot see my prospects clearly to-night, sir; and I hardly know
what thoughts I have in my head. Everything in life seems unreal.”</p>

<p>“Except me: I am substantial enough—touch me.”</p>

<p>“You, sir, are the most phantom-like of all: you are a mere dream.”</p>

<p>He held out his hand, laughing. “Is that a
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    dream?” said he, placing it
close to my eyes. He had a rounded, muscular, and vigorous hand, as
well as a long, strong arm.</p>

<p>“Yes; though I touch it, it is a dream,” said I, as I put it down from
before my face. “Sir, have you finished supper?”</p>

<p>“Yes, Jane.”</p>

<p>I rang the bell and ordered away the tray. When we were again alone, I
stirred the fire, and then took a low seat at my master’s knee.</p>

<p>“It is near midnight,” I said.</p>

<p>“Yes: but remember, Jane, you promised to wake with me the night before
my wedding.”</p>

<p>“I did; and I will keep my promise, for an hour or two at least: I have
no wish to go to bed.”</p>

<p>“Are all your arrangements complete?”</p>

<p>“All, sir.”</p>

<p>“And on my part likewise,” he returned, “I have settled everything; and
we shall leave Thornfield to-morrow, within half-an-hour after our
return from church.”</p>

<p>“Very well, sir.”</p>

<p>“With what an extraordinary smile you
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    uttered that word—‘very well,’
Jane! What a bright spot of colour you have on each cheek! and how
strangely your eyes glitter! Are you well?”</p>

<p>“I believe I am.”</p>

<p>“Believe! What is the matter? Tell me what you feel.”</p>

<p>“I could not, sir: no words could tell you what I feel. I wish this
present hour would never end: who knows with what fate the next may
come charged?”</p>

<p>“This is hypochondria, Jane. You have been over-excited, or
over-fatigued.”</p>

<p>“Do you, sir, feel calm and happy?”</p>

<p>“Calm?—no: but happy—to the heart’s core.”</p>

<p>I looked up at him to read the signs of bliss in his face: it was
ardent and flushed.</p>

<p>“Give me your confidence, Jane,” he said: “relieve your mind of any
weight that oppresses it, by imparting it to me. What do you fear?—that
I shall not prove a good husband?”</p>

<p>“It is the idea farthest from my thoughts.”</p>

<p>“Are you apprehensive of the new sphere you are about to enter?—of the
new life into which you are passing?”</p>
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<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“You puzzle me, Jane: your look and tone of sorrowful audacity perplex
and pain me. I want an explanation.”</p>

<p>“Then, sir, listen. You were from home last night?”</p>

<p>“I was: I know that; and you hinted a while ago at something which had
happened in my absence:—nothing, probably, of consequence; but, in
short, it has disturbed you. Let me hear it. Mrs. Fairfax has said
something, perhaps? or you have overheard the servants talk?—your
sensitive self-respect has been wounded?”</p>

<p>“No, sir.” It struck twelve—I waited till the time-piece had concluded
its silver chime, and the clock its hoarse, vibrating stroke, and then
I proceeded.</p>

<p>“All day yesterday I was very busy, and very happy in my ceaseless
bustle; for I am not, as you seem to think, troubled by any haunting
fears about the new sphere, et cetera: I think it a glorious thing to
have the hope of living with you, because I love you. No, sir, don’t
caress me now—let me talk undis
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turbed. Yesterday I trusted well in
Providence, and believed that events were working together for your
good and mine: it was a fine day, if you recollect—the calmness of the
air and sky forbade apprehensions respecting your safety or comfort on
your journey. I walked a little while on the pavement after tea,
thinking of you; and I beheld you in imagination so near me, I scarcely
missed your actual presence. I thought of the life that lay before
me—<hi rend="italic">your</hi> life, sir—an existence more expansive and stirring than my
own: as much more so as the depths of the sea to which the brook runs
are than the shallows of its own strait channel. I wondered why
moralists call this world a dreary wilderness: for me it blossomed like
a rose. Just at sunset, the air turned cold and the sky cloudy: I went
in, Sophie called me upstairs to look at my wedding-dress, which they
had just brought; and under it in the box I found your present—the veil
which, in your princely extravagance, you sent for from London:
resolved, I suppose, since I would not have jewels, to cheat me into
accepting something as costly. I smiled as I
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unfolded it, and devised
how I would tease you about your aristocratic tastes, and your efforts
to masque your plebeian bride in the attributes of a peeress. I thought
how I would carry down to you the square of unembroidered blond I had
myself prepared as a covering for my low-born head, and ask if that was
not good enough for a woman who could bring her husband neither
fortune, beauty, nor connections. I saw plainly how you would look; and
heard your impetuous republican answers, and your haughty disavowal of
any necessity on your part to augment your wealth, or elevate your
standing, by marrying either a purse or a coronet.”</p>

<p>“How well you read me, you witch!” interposed Mr. Rochester: “but what
did you find in the veil besides its embroidery? Did you find poison,
or a dagger, that you look so mournful now?”</p>

<p>“No, no, sir; besides the delicacy and richness of the fabric, I found
nothing save Fairfax Rochester’s pride; and that did not scare me,
because I am used to the sight of the demon. But, sir, as it grew dark,
the wind
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rose: it blew yesterday evening, not as it blows now—wild and
high—but ‘with a sullen, moaning sound’ far more eerie. I wished you
were at home. I came into this room, and the sight of the empty chair
and fireless hearth chilled me. For some time after I went to bed, I
could not sleep—a sense of anxious excitement distressed me. The gale
still rising seemed to my ear to muffle a mournful under-sound;
whether in the house or abroad I could not at first tell, but it
recurred, doubtful yet doleful at every lull; at last I made out it
must be some dog howling at a distance. I was glad when it ceased. On
sleeping, I continued in dreams the idea of a dark and gusty night. I
continued also the wish to be with you, and experienced a strange,
regretful consciousness of some barrier dividing us. During all my
first sleep, I was following the windings of an unknown road; total
obscurity environed me; rain pelted me; I was burdened with the charge
of a little child: a very small creature, too young and feeble to walk,
and which shivered in my cold arms, and wailed piteously in my ear. I
thought, sir, that you were on the road a long
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way before me; and I
strained every nerve to overtake you, and made effort on effort to
utter your name and entreat you to stop—but my movements were fettered,
and my voice still died away inarticulate; while you, I felt, withdrew
farther and farther every moment.”</p>

<p>“And these dreams weigh on your spirits now, Jane, when I am close to
you? Little nervous subject! Forget visionary woe, and think only of
real happiness! You say you love me, Janet: yes—I will not forget that;
and you cannot deny it. <hi rend="italic">Those</hi> words did not die inarticulate on your
lips. I heard them clear and soft: a thought too solemn perhaps, but
sweet as music—‘I think it is a glorious thing to have the hope of
living with you, Edward, because I love you.’ Do you love me,
Jane?—repeat it.”</p>

<p>“I do, sir—I do, with my whole heart.”</p>

<p>“Well,” he said, after some minutes’ silence, “it is strange; but that
sentence has penetrated my breast painfully. Why? I think because you
said it with such an earnest, religious energy, and because your upward
gaze
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at me now is the very sublime of faith, truth, and devotion: it is
too much as if some spirit were near me. Look wicked, Jane: as you know
well how to look: coin one of your wild, shy, provoking smiles; tell me
you hate me—tease me, vex me; do anything but move me: I would rather
be incensed than saddened.”</p>

<p>“I will tease you and vex you to your heart’s content, when I have
finished my tale: but hear me to the end.”</p>

<p>“I thought, Jane, you had told me all. I thought I had found the source
of your melancholy in a dream.”</p>

<p>I shook my head. “What! is there more? But I will not believe it to be
anything important. I warn you of incredulity beforehand. Go on.”</p>

<p>The disquietude of his air, the somewhat apprehensive impatience of his
manner, surprised me: but I proceeded.</p>

<p>“I dreamt another dream, sir: that Thornfield Hall was a dreary ruin,
the retreat of bats and owls. I thought that of all the stately front
nothing remained but a shell-like
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wall, very high and very
fragile-looking. I wandered, on a moonlight night, through the
grass-grown enclosure within: here I stumbled over a marble hearth, and
there over a fallen fragment of cornice. Wrapped up in a shawl, I still
carried the unknown little child: I might not lay it down anywhere,
however tired were my arms—however much its weight impeded my progress,
I must retain it. I heard the gallop of a horse at a distance on the
road; I was sure it was you; and you were departing for many years and
for a distant country. I climbed the thin wall with frantic perilous
haste, eager to catch one glimpse of you from the top: the stones
rolled from under my feet, the ivy branches I grasped gave way, the
child clung round my neck in terror, and almost strangled me; at last I
gained the summit. I saw you like a speck on a white track, lessening
every moment. The blast blew so strong I could not stand. I sat down on
the narrow ledge; I hushed the scared infant in my lap: you turned an
angle of the road: I bent forward to take a last
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look; the wall
crumbled; I was shaken; the child rolled from my knee, I lost my
balance, fell, and woke.”</p>

<p>“Now, Jane, that is all.”</p>

<p>“All the preface, sir; the tale is yet to come. On waking, a gleam
dazzled my eyes; I thought—Oh, it is daylight! But I was mistaken; it
was only candlelight. Sophie, I supposed, had come in. There was a
light in the dressing-table, and the door of the closet, where, before
going to bed, I had hung my wedding-dress and veil, stood open; I heard
a rustling there. I asked, ‘Sophie, what are you doing?’ No one
answered; but a form emerged from the closet; it took the light, held
it aloft, and surveyed the garments pendent from the portmanteau.
‘Sophie! Sophie!’ I again cried: and still it was silent. I had risen
up in bed, I bent forward: first surprise, then bewilderment, came over
me; and then my blood crept cold through my veins. Mr. Rochester, this
was not Sophie, it was not Leah, it was not Mrs. Fairfax: it was
not—no, I was sure of it, and am still—it
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was not even that strange
woman, Grace Poole.”</p>

<p>“It must have been one of them,” interrupted my master.</p>

<p>“No, sir, I solemnly assure you to the contrary. The shape standing
before me had never crossed my eyes within the precincts of Thornfield
Hall before; the height, the contour were new to me.”</p>

<p>“Describe it, Jane.”</p>

<p>“It seemed, sir, a woman, tall and large, with thick and dark hair
hanging long down her back. I know not what dress she had on: it was
white and straight; but whether gown, sheet, or shroud, I cannot tell.”</p>

<p>“Did you see her face?”</p>

<p>“Not at first. But presently she took my veil from its place; she held
it up, gazed at it long, and then she threw it over her own head, and
turned to the mirror. At that moment I saw the reflection of the visage
and features quite distinctly in the dark oblong glass.”</p>

<p>“And how were they?”</p>

<p>“Fearful and ghastly to me—oh, sir, I never
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    saw a face like it! It was
a discoloured face—it was a savage face. I wish I could forget the roll
of the red eyes and the fearful blackened inflation of the lineaments!”</p>

<p>“Ghosts are usually pale, Jane.”</p>

<p>“This, sir, was purple: the lips were swelled and dark; the brow
furrowed: the black eyebrows widely raised over the bloodshot eyes.
Shall I tell you of what it reminded me?”</p>

<p>“You may.”</p>

<p>“Of the foul German spectre—the Vampyre.”</p>

<p>“Ah!—what did it do?”</p>

<p>“Sir, it removed my veil from its gaunt head, rent it in two parts, and
flinging both on the floor, trampled on them.”</p>

<p>“Afterwards?”</p>

<p>“It drew aside the window-curtain and looked out; perhaps it saw dawn
approaching, for, taking the candle, it retreated to the door. Just at
my bedside, the figure stopped: the fiery eyes glared upon me—she
thrust up her candle close to my face, and extinguished it under my
eyes. I was aware her lurid visage
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flamed over mine, and I lost
consciousness: for the second time in my life—only the second time—I
became insensible from terror.”</p>

<p>“Who was with you when you revived?”</p>

<p>“No one, sir, but the broad day. I rose, bathed my head and face in
water, drank a long draught; felt that though enfeebled I was not ill,
and determined that to none but you would I impart this vision. Now,
sir, tell me who and what that woman was?”</p>

<p>“The creature of an over-stimulated brain; that is certain. I must be
careful of you, my treasure: nerves like yours were not made for rough
handling.”</p>

<p>“Sir, depend on it, my nerves were not in fault; the thing was real:
the transaction actually took place.”</p>

<p>“And your previous dreams, were they real too? Is Thornfield Hall a
ruin? Am I severed from you by insuperable obstacles? Am I leaving you
without a tear—without a kiss—without a word?”</p>

<p>“Not yet.”</p>

<p>“Am I about to do it? Why, the day is
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    already commenced which is to
bind us indissolubly; and when we are once united, there shall be no
recurrence of these mental terrors: I guarantee that.”</p>

<p>“Mental terrors, sir! I wish I could believe them to be only such: I
wish it more now than ever; since even you cannot explain to me the
mystery of that awful visitant.”</p>

<p>“And since I cannot do it, Jane, it must have been unreal.”</p>

<p>“But, sir, when I said so to myself on rising this morning, and when I
looked round the room to gather courage and comfort from the cheerful
aspect of each familiar object in full daylight, there—on the carpet—I
saw what gave the distinct lie to my hypothesis,—the veil, torn from
top to bottom in two halves!”</p>

<p>I felt Mr. Rochester start and shudder; he hastily flung his arms round
me. “Thank God!” he exclaimed, “that if anything malignant did come
near you last night, it was only the veil that was harmed. Oh, to think
what might have happened!”</p>

<p>He drew his breath short, and strained
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    me so close to him, I could
scarcely pant. After some minutes’ silence, he continued, cheerily—</p>

<p>“Now, Janet, I’ll explain to you all about it. It was half dream, half
reality. A woman did, I doubt not, enter your room: and that woman
was—must have been—Grace Poole. You call her a strange being yourself:
from all you know, you have reason so to call her—what did she do to
me? what to Mason? In a state between sleeping and waking, you noticed
her entrance and her actions; but feverish, almost delirious as you
were, you ascribed to her a goblin appearance different from her own:
the long dishevelled hair, the swelled black face, the exaggerated
stature, were figments of imagination; results of nightmare: the
spiteful tearing of the veil was real: and it is like her. I see you
would ask why I keep such a woman in my house: when we have been
married a year and a day, I will tell you; but not now. Are you
satisfied, Jane? Do you accept my solution of the mystery?”</p>

<p>I reflected, and in truth it appeared to me
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    the only possible one:
satisfied I was not, but to please him I endeavoured to appear
so—relieved, I certainly did feel; so I answered him with a contented
smile. And now, as it was long past one, I prepared to leave him.</p>

<p>“Does not Sophie sleep with Adèle in the nursery?” he asked, as I lit
my candle.</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And there is room enough in Adèle’s little bed for you. You must share
it with her to-night, Jane: it is no wonder that the incident you have
related should make you nervous, and I would rather you did not sleep
alone: promise me to go to the nursery.”</p>

<p>“I shall be very glad to do so, sir.”</p>

<p>“And fasten the door securely on the inside. Wake Sophie when you go
upstairs, under pretence of requesting her to rouse you in good time
to-morrow; for you must be dressed and have finished breakfast before
eight. And now, no more sombre thoughts: chase dull care away, Janet.
Don’t you hear to what soft whispers the wind has fallen? and there is
no more beating of rain against the
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window-panes: look here” (he lifted
up the curtain)—“it is a lovely night!”</p>

<p>It was. Half heaven was pure and stainless: the clouds, now trooping
before the wind, which had shifted to the west, were filing off
eastward in long, silvered columns. The moon shone peacefully.</p>

<p>“Well,” said Mr. Rochester, gazing inquiringly into my eyes, “how is my
Janet now?”</p>

<p>“The night is serene, sir; and so am I.”</p>

<p>“And you will not dream of separation and sorrow to-night; but of happy
love and blissful union.”</p>

<p>This prediction was but half fulfilled: I did not indeed dream of
sorrow, but as little did I dream of joy; for I never slept at all.
With little Adèle in my arms, I watched the slumber of childhood—so
tranquil, so passionless, so innocent—and waited for the coming day:
all my life was awake and astir in my frame: and as soon as the sun
rose I rose too. I remember Adèle clung to me as I left her: I remember
I kissed her as I loosened her little
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hands from my neck; and I cried
over her with strange emotion, and quitted her because I feared my sobs
would break her still sound repose. She seemed the emblem of my past
life; and he, I was now to array myself to meet, the dread, but adored,
type of my unknown future day.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXVI</head>
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<p>Sophie came at seven to dress me: she was very long indeed in
accomplishing her task; so long that Mr. Rochester, grown, I suppose,
impatient of my delay, sent up to ask why I did not come. She was just
fastening my veil (the plain square of blond after all) to my hair with
a brooch; I hurried from under her hands as soon as I could.</p>

<p>“Stop!” she cried in French. “Look at yourself in the mirror: you have
not taken one peep.”</p>

<p>So I turned at the door: I saw a robed and veiled figure, so unlike my
usual self that it seemed almost the image of a stranger. “Jane!”
called a voice, and I hastened down. I was received at the foot of the
stairs by Mr. Rochester.</p>
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<p>“Lingerer!” he said, “my brain is on fire with impatience, and you
tarry so long!”</p>

<p>He took me into the dining-room, surveyed me keenly all over,
pronounced me “fair as a lily, and not only the pride of his life, but
the desire of his eyes,” and then telling me he would give me but ten
minutes to eat some breakfast, he rang the bell. One of his lately
hired servants, a footman, answered it.</p>

<p>“Is John getting the carriage ready?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Is the luggage brought down?”</p>

<p>“They are bringing it down, sir.”</p>

<p>“Go you to the church: see if Mr. Wood (the clergyman) and the clerk
are there: return and tell me.”</p>

<p>The church, as the reader knows, was but just beyond the gates; the
footman soon returned.</p>

<p>“Mr. Wood is in the vestry, sir, putting on his surplice.”</p>

<p>“And the carriage?”</p>

<p>“The horses are harnessing.”</p>

<p>“We shall not want it to go to church; but it must be ready the moment
we return: all
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the boxes and luggage arranged and strapped on, and the
coachman in his seat.”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Jane, are you ready?”</p>

<p>I rose. There were no groomsmen, no bridesmaids, no relatives to wait
for or marshal: none but Mr. Rochester and I. Mrs. Fairfax stood in the
hall as we passed. I would fain have spoken to her, but my hand was
held by a grasp of iron: I was hurried along by a stride I could hardly
follow; and to look at Mr. Rochester’s face was to feel that not a
second of delay would be tolerated for any purpose. I wonder what other
bridegroom ever looked as he did—so bent up to a purpose, so grimly
resolute: or who, under such steadfast brows, ever revealed such
flaming and flashing eyes.</p>

<p>I know not whether the day was fair or foul; in descending the drive, I
gazed neither on sky nor earth: my heart was with my eyes; and both
seemed migrated into Mr. Rochester’s frame. I wanted to see the
invisible thing on which, as we went along, he appeared to fasten a
glance fierce and fell. I wanted to feel the
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thoughts whose force he
seemed breasting and resisting.</p>

<p>At the churchyard wicket he stopped: he discovered I was quite out of
breath. “Am I cruel in my love?” he said. “Delay an instant: lean on
me, Jane.”</p>

<p>And now I can recall the picture of the grey old house of God rising
calm before me, of a rook wheeling round the steeple, of a ruddy
morning sky beyond. I remember something, too, of the green
grave-mounds; and I have not forgotten, either, two figures of
strangers straying amongst the low hillocks and reading the mementoes
graven on the few mossy head-stones. I noticed them, because, as they
saw us, they passed round to the back of the church; and I doubted not
they were going to enter by the side-aisle door and witness the
ceremony. By Mr. Rochester they were not observed; he was earnestly
looking at my face, from which the blood had, I daresay, momentarily
fled: for I felt my forehead dewy, and my cheeks and lips cold. When I
rallied, which I soon did, he walked gently with me up the path to the
porch.</p>
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<p>We entered the quiet and humble temple; the priest waited in his white
surplice at the lowly altar, the clerk beside him. All was still: two
shadows only moved in a remote corner. My conjecture had been correct:
the strangers had slipped in before us, and they now stood by the vault
of the Rochesters, their backs towards us, viewing through the rails
the old time-stained marble tomb, where a kneeling angel guarded the
remains of Damer de Rochester, slain at Marston Moor in the time of the
civil wars, and of Elizabeth, his wife.</p>

<p>Our place was taken at the communion rails. Hearing a cautious step
behind me, I glanced over my shoulder: one of the strangers—a
gentleman, evidently—was advancing up the chancel. The service began.
The explanation of the intent of matrimony was gone through; and then
the clergyman came a step further forward, and, bending slightly
towards Mr. Rochester, went on.</p>

<p>“I require and charge you both (as ye will answer at the dreadful day
of judgment, when the secrets of all hearts shall be disclosed),
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that
if either of you know any impediment why ye may not lawfully be joined
together in matrimony, ye do now confess it; for be ye well assured
that so many as are coupled together otherwise than God’s Word doth
allow, are not joined together by God, neither is their matrimony
lawful.”</p>

<p>He paused, as the custom is. When is the pause after that sentence ever
broken by reply? Not, perhaps, once in a hundred years. And the
clergyman, who had not lifted his eyes from his book, and had held his
breath but for a moment, was proceeding: his hand was already stretched
towards Mr. Rochester, as his lips unclosed to ask, “Wilt thou have
this woman for thy wedded wife?”—when a distinct and near voice said—</p>

<p>“The marriage cannot go on: I declare the existence of an impediment.”</p>

<p>The clergyman looked up at the speaker and stood mute; the clerk did
the same; Mr. Rochester moved slightly, as if an earthquake had rolled
under his feet: taking a firmer footing, and not turning his head or
eyes, he said, “Proceed.”</p>
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<p>Profound silence fell when he had uttered that word, with deep but low
intonation. Presently Mr. Wood said—</p>

<p>“I cannot proceed without some investigation into what has been
asserted, and evidence of its truth or falsehood.”</p>

<p>“The ceremony is quite broken off,” subjoined the voice behind us. “I
am in a condition to prove my allegation: an insuperable impediment to
this marriage exists.”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester heard, but heeded not: he stood stubborn and rigid,
making no movement but to possess himself of my hand. What a hot and
strong grasp he had! and how like quarried marble was his pale, firm,
massive front at this moment! How his eye shone, still watchful, and
yet wild beneath!</p>

<p>Mr. Wood seemed at a loss. “What is the nature of the impediment?” he
asked. “Perhaps it may be got over—explained away?”</p>

<p>“Hardly,” was the answer. “I have called it insuperable, and I speak
advisedly.”</p>

<p>The speaker came forward and leaned on
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    the rails. He continued,
uttering each word distinctly, calmly, steadily, but not loudly—</p>

<p>“It simply consists in the existence of a previous marriage. Mr.
Rochester has a wife now living.”</p>

<p>My nerves vibrated to those low-spoken words as they had never vibrated
to thunder—my blood felt their subtle violence as it had never felt
frost or fire; but I was collected, and in no danger of swooning. I
looked at Mr. Rochester: I made him look at me. His whole face was
colourless rock: his eye was both spark and flint. He disavowed
nothing: he seemed as if he would defy all things. Without speaking,
without smiling, without seeming to recognise in me a human being, he
only twined my waist with his arm and riveted me to his side.</p>

<p>“Who are you?” he asked of the intruder.</p>

<p>“My name is Briggs, a solicitor of —— Street, London.”</p>

<p>“And you would thrust on me a wife?”</p>

<p>“I would remind you of your lady’s existence, sir, which the law
recognises, if you do not.”</p>
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<p>“Favour me with an account of her—with her name, her parentage, her
place of abode.”</p>

<p>“Certainly.” Mr. Briggs calmly took a paper from his pocket, and read
out in a sort of official, nasal voice:—</p>

<p>“‘I affirm and can prove that on the 20th of October A.D. —— (a date of
fifteen years back), Edward Fairfax Rochester, of Thornfield Hall, in
the county of ——, and of Ferndean Manor, in ——shire, England, was
married to my sister, Bertha Antoinetta Mason, daughter of Jonas Mason,
merchant, and of Antoinetta his wife, a Creole, at —— church, Spanish
Town, Jamaica. The record of the marriage will be found in the register
of that church—a copy of it is now in my possession. Signed, Richard
Mason.’”</p>

<p>“That—if a genuine document—may prove I have been married, but it does
not prove that the woman mentioned therein as my wife is still living.”</p>

<p>“She was living three months ago,” returned the lawyer.</p>

<p>“How do you know?”</p>
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<p>“I have a witness to the fact, whose testimony even you, sir, will
scarcely controvert.”</p>

<p>“Produce him—or go to hell.”</p>

<p>“I will produce him first—he is on the spot. Mr. Mason, have the
goodness to step forward.”</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester, on hearing the name, set his teeth; he experienced, too,
a sort of strong convulsive quiver; near to him as I was, I felt the
spasmodic movement of fury or despair run through his frame. The second
stranger, who had hitherto lingered in the background, now drew near; a
pale face looked over the solicitor’s shoulder—yes, it was Mason
himself. Mr. Rochester turned and glared at him. His eye, as I have
often said, was a black eye: it had now a tawny, nay, a bloody light in
its gloom; and his face flushed—olive cheek and hueless forehead
received a glow as from spreading, ascending heart-fire: and he
stirred, lifted his strong arm—he could have struck Mason, dashed him
on the church-floor, shocked by ruthless blow the breath from his
body—but Mason shrank away, and cried faintly, “Good God!” Contempt
fell cool on
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Mr. Rochester—his passion died as if a blight had
shrivelled it up: he only asked—“What have <hi rend="italic">you</hi> to say?”</p>

<p>An inaudible reply escaped Mason’s white lips.</p>

<p>“The devil is in it if you cannot answer distinctly. I again demand,
what have <hi rend="italic">you</hi> to say?”</p>

<p>“Sir—sir,” interrupted the clergyman, “do not forget you are in a
sacred place.” Then addressing Mason, he inquired gently, “Are you
aware, sir, whether or not this gentleman’s wife is still living?”</p>

<p>“Courage,” urged the lawyer,—“speak out.”</p>

<p>“She is now living at Thornfield Hall,” said Mason, in more articulate
tones: “I saw her there last April. I am her brother.”</p>

<p>“At Thornfield Hall!” ejaculated the clergyman. “Impossible! I am an
old resident in this neighbourhood, sir, and I never heard of a Mrs.
Rochester at Thornfield Hall.”</p>

<p>I saw a grim smile contort Mr. Rochester’s lips, and he muttered—</p>

<p>“No, by God! I took care that none should hear of it—or of her under
that name.” He
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mused—for ten minutes he held counsel with himself: he
formed his resolve, and announced it—</p>

<p>“Enough! all shall bolt out at once, like the bullet from the barrel.
Wood, close your book and take off your surplice; John Green (to the
clerk), leave the church: there will be no wedding to-day.” The man
obeyed.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester continued, hardily and recklessly: “Bigamy is an ugly
word!—I meant, however, to be a bigamist; but fate has out-manoeuvred
me, or Providence has checked me,—perhaps the last. I am little better
than a devil at this moment; and, as my pastor there would tell me,
deserve no doubt the sternest judgments of God, even to the quenchless
fire and deathless worm. Gentlemen, my plan is broken up:—what this
lawyer and his client say is true: I have been married, and the woman
to whom I was married lives! You say you never heard of a Mrs.
Rochester at the house up yonder, Wood; but I daresay you have many a
time inclined your ear to gossip about the mysterious lunatic kept
there under watch and ward. Some
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have whispered to you that she is my
bastard half-sister: some, my cast-off mistress. I now inform you that
she is my wife, whom I married fifteen years ago,—Bertha Mason by name;
sister of this resolute personage, who is now, with his quivering limbs
and white cheeks, showing you what a stout heart men may bear. Cheer
up, Dick!—never fear me!—I’d almost as soon strike a woman as you.
Bertha Mason is mad; and she came of a mad family; idiots and maniacs
through three generations! Her mother, the Creole, was both a madwoman
and a drunkard!—as I found out after I had wed the daughter: for they
were silent on family secrets before. Bertha, like a dutiful child,
copied her parent in both points. I had a charming partner—pure, wise,
modest: you can fancy I was a happy man. I went through rich scenes!
Oh! my experience has been heavenly, if you only knew it! But I owe you
no further explanation. Briggs, Wood, Mason, I invite you all to come
up to the house and visit Mrs. Poole’s patient, and <hi rend="italic">my wife</hi>! You
shall see what sort of a being I was cheated into espousing, and judge
whether
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or not I had a right to break the compact, and seek sympathy
with something at least human. This girl,” he continued, looking at me,
“knew no more than you, Wood, of the disgusting secret: she thought all
was fair and legal; and never dreamt she was going to be entrapped into
a feigned union with a defrauded wretch, already bound to a bad, mad,
and embruted partner! Come all of you—follow!”</p>

<p>Still holding me fast, he left the church: the three gentlemen came
after. At the front door of the hall we found the carriage.</p>

<p>“Take it back to the coach-house, John,” said Mr. Rochester coolly; “it
will not be wanted to-day.”</p>

<p>At our entrance, Mrs. Fairfax, Adèle, Sophie, Leah, advanced to meet
and greet us.</p>

<p>“To the right-about—every soul!” cried the master; “away with your
congratulations! Who wants them? Not I!—they are fifteen years too
late!”</p>

<p>He passed on and ascended the stairs, still holding my hand, and still
beckoning the gentlemen to follow him, which they did. We mounted the
first staircase, passed up the
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gallery, proceeded to the third storey:
the low, black door, opened by Mr. Rochester’s master-key, admitted us
to the tapestried room, with its great bed and its pictorial cabinet.</p>

<p>“You know this place, Mason,” said our guide; “she bit and stabbed you
here.”</p>

<p>He lifted the hangings from the wall, uncovering the second door: this,
too, he opened. In a room without a window, there burnt a fire guarded
by a high and strong fender, and a lamp suspended from the ceiling by a
chain. Grace Poole bent over the fire, apparently cooking something in
a saucepan. In the deep shade, at the farther end of the room, a figure
ran backwards and forwards. What it was, whether beast or human being,
one could not, at first sight, tell: it grovelled, seemingly, on all
fours; it snatched and growled like some strange wild animal: but it
was covered with clothing, and a quantity of dark, grizzled hair, wild
as a mane, hid its head and face.</p>

<p>“Good-morrow, Mrs. Poole!” said Mr. Rochester. “How are you? and how is
your charge to-day?”</p>

<p>“We’re tolerable, sir, I thank you,” replied
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    Grace, lifting the boiling
mess carefully on to the hob: “rather snappish, but not ’rageous.”</p>

<p>A fierce cry seemed to give the lie to her favourable report: the
clothed hyena rose up, and stood tall on its hind-feet.</p>

<p>“Ah! sir, she sees you!” exclaimed Grace: “you’d better not stay.”</p>

<p>“Only a few moments, Grace: you must allow me a few moments.”</p>

<p>“Take care then, sir!—for God’s sake, take care!”</p>

<p>The maniac bellowed: she parted her shaggy locks from her visage, and
gazed wildly at her visitors. I recognised well that purple face,—those
bloated features. Mrs. Poole advanced.</p>

<p>“Keep out of the way,” said Mr. Rochester, thrusting her aside: “she
has no knife now, I suppose, and I’m on my guard.”</p>

<p>“One never knows what she has, sir: she is so cunning: it is not in
mortal discretion to fathom her craft.”</p>

<p>“We had better leave her,” whispered Mason.</p>

<p>“Go to the devil!” was his brother-in-law’s recommendation.</p>
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<p>“’Ware!” cried Grace. The three gentlemen retreated simultaneously. Mr.
Rochester flung me behind him: the lunatic sprang and grappled his
throat viciously, and laid her teeth to his cheek: they struggled. She
was a big woman, in stature almost equalling her husband, and corpulent
besides: she showed virile force in the contest—more than once she
almost throttled him, athletic as he was. He could have settled her
with a well-planted blow; but he would not strike: he would only
wrestle. At last he mastered her arms; Grace Poole gave him a cord, and
he pinioned them behind her: with more rope, which was at hand, he
bound her to a chair. The operation was performed amidst the fiercest
yells and the most convulsive plunges. Mr. Rochester then turned to the
spectators: he looked at them with a smile both acrid and desolate.</p>

<p>“That is <hi rend="italic">my wife</hi>,” said he. “Such is the sole conjugal embrace I am
ever to know—such are the endearments which are to solace my leisure
hours! And <hi rend="italic">this</hi> is what I wished to have” (laying his hand on my
shoulder):
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“this young girl, who stands so grave and quiet at the mouth
of hell, looking collectedly at the gambols of a demon, I wanted her
just as a change after that fierce ragout. Wood and Briggs, look at the
difference! Compare these clear eyes with the red balls yonder—this
face with that mask—this form with that bulk; then judge me, priest of
the gospel and man of the law, and remember with what judgment ye judge
ye shall be judged! Off with you now. I must shut up my prize.”</p>

<p>We all withdrew. Mr. Rochester stayed a moment behind us, to give some
further order to Grace Poole. The solicitor addressed me as he
descended the stair.</p>

<p>“You, madam,” said he, “are cleared from all blame: your uncle will be
glad to hear it—if, indeed, he should be still living—when Mr. Mason
returns to Madeira.”</p>

<p>“My uncle! What of him? Do you know him?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Mason does. Mr. Eyre has been the Funchal correspondent of his
house for some years. When your uncle received your letter intimating
the contemplated union be
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tween yourself and Mr. Rochester, Mr. Mason,
who was staying at Madeira to recruit his health, on his way back to
Jamaica, happened to be with him. Mr. Eyre mentioned the intelligence;
for he knew that my client here was acquainted with a gentleman of the
name of Rochester. Mr. Mason, astonished and distressed as you may
suppose, revealed the real state of matters. Your uncle, I am sorry to
say, is now on a sick bed; from which, considering the nature of his
disease—decline—and the stage it has reached, it is unlikely he will
ever rise. He could not then hasten to England himself, to extricate
you from the snare into which you had fallen, but he implored Mr. Mason
to lose no time in taking steps to prevent the false marriage. He
referred him to me for assistance. I used all despatch, and am thankful
I was not too late: as you, doubtless, must be also. Were I not morally
certain that your uncle will be dead ere you reach Madeira, I would
advise you to accompany Mr. Mason back; but as it is, I think you had
better remain in England till you can hear further, either from or of
Mr.
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Eyre. Have we anything else to stay for?” he inquired of Mr. Mason.</p>

<p>“No, no—let us be gone,” was the anxious reply; and without waiting to
take leave of Mr. Rochester, they made their exit at the hall door. The
clergyman stayed to exchange a few sentences, either of admonition or
reproof, with his haughty parishioner; this duty done, he too departed.</p>

<p>I heard him go as I stood at the half-open door of my own room, to
which I had now withdrawn. The house cleared, I shut myself in,
fastened the bolt that none might intrude, and proceeded—not to weep,
not to mourn, I was yet too calm for that, but—mechanically to take off
the wedding dress, and replace it by the stuff gown I had worn
yesterday, as I thought, for the last time. I then sat down: I felt
weak and tired. I leaned my arms on a table, and my head dropped on
them. And now I thought: till now I had only heard, seen,
moved—followed up and down where I was led or dragged—watched event
rush on event, disclosure open beyond disclosure: but <hi rend="italic">now</hi>, <hi rend="italic">I thought</hi>.</p>
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<p>The morning had been a quiet morning enough—all except the brief scene
with the lunatic: the transaction in the church had not been noisy;
there was no explosion of passion, no loud altercation, no dispute, no
defiance or challenge, no tears, no sobs: a few words had been spoken,
a calmly pronounced objection to the marriage made; some stern, short
questions put by Mr. Rochester; answers, explanations given, evidence
adduced; an open admission of the truth had been uttered by my master;
then the living proof had been seen; the intruders were gone, and all
was over.</p>

<p>I was in my own room as usual—just myself, without obvious change:
nothing had smitten me, or scathed me, or maimed me. And yet where was
the Jane Eyre of yesterday?—where was her life?—where were her
prospects?</p>

<p>Jane Eyre, who had been an ardent, expectant woman—almost a bride, was
a cold, solitary girl again: her life was pale; her prospects were
desolate. A Christmas frost had come at midsummer; a white December
storm had whirled over June; ice glazed the ripe apples, drifts crushed
the blowing roses; on
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hayfield and cornfield lay a frozen shroud: lanes
which last night blushed full of flowers, to-day were pathless with
untrodden snow; and the woods, which twelve hours since waved leafy and
fragrant as groves between the tropics, now spread, waste, wild, and
white as pine-forests in wintry Norway. My hopes were all dead—struck
with a subtle doom, such as, in one night, fell on all the first-born
in the land of Egypt. I looked on my cherished wishes, yesterday so
blooming and glowing; they lay stark, chill, livid corpses that could
never revive. I looked at my love: that feeling which was my
master’s—which he had created; it shivered in my heart, like a
suffering child in a cold cradle; sickness and anguish had seized it;
it could not seek Mr. Rochester’s arms—it could not derive warmth from
his breast. Oh, never more could it turn to him; for faith was
blighted—confidence destroyed! Mr. Rochester was not to me what he had
been; for he was not what I had thought him. I would not ascribe vice
to him; I would not say he had betrayed me; but the attribute of
stainless truth was gone
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from his idea, and from his presence I must
go: <hi rend="italic">that</hi> I perceived well. When—how—whither, I could not yet discern;
but he himself, I doubted not, would hurry me from Thornfield. Real
affection, it seemed, he could not have for me; it had been only fitful
passion: that was balked; he would want me no more. I should fear even
to cross his path now: my view must be hateful to him. Oh, how blind
had been my eyes! How weak my conduct!</p>

<p>My eyes were covered and closed: eddying darkness seemed to swim round
me, and reflection came in as black and confused a flow.
Self-abandoned, relaxed, and effortless, I seemed to have laid me down
in the dried-up bed of a great river; I heard a flood loosened in
remote mountains, and felt the torrent come: to rise I had no will, to
flee I had no strength. I lay faint, longing to be dead. One idea only
still throbbed life-like within me—a remembrance of God: it begot an
unuttered prayer: these words went wandering up and down in my rayless
mind, as something that should be whispered, but no energy was found to
express them—</p>
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<p>“Be not far from me, for trouble is near: there is none to help.”</p>

<p>It was near: and as I had lifted no petition to Heaven to avert it—as I
had neither joined my hands, nor bent my knees, nor moved my lips—it
came: in full heavy swing the torrent poured over me. The whole
consciousness of my life lorn, my love lost, my hope quenched, my faith
death-struck, swayed full and mighty above me in one sullen mass. That
bitter hour cannot be described: in truth, “the waters came into my
soul; I sank in deep mire: I felt no standing; I came into deep waters;
the floods overflowed me.”</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXVII</head>
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                            <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/bronte-jane-eyre/janeeyre_27_bronte_64kb.mp3"/>Librivox recording of Chapter Twenty Seven, read by Elizabeth Klett.</note>
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<p>Some time in the afternoon I raised my head, and looking round and
seeing the western sun gilding the sign of its decline on the wall, I
asked, “What am I to do?”</p>

<p>But the answer my mind gave—“Leave Thornfield at once”—was so prompt,
so dread, that I stopped my ears. I said I could not bear such words
now. “That I am not Edward Rochester’s bride is the least part of my
woe,” I alleged: “that I have wakened out of most glorious dreams, and
found them all void and vain, is a horror I could bear and master; but
that I must leave him decidedly, instantly, entirely, is intolerable. I
cannot do it.”</p>

<p>But, then, a voice within me averred that I could do it and foretold
that I should do it. I wrestled with my own resolution: I wanted to be
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weak that I might avoid the awful passage of further suffering I saw
laid out for me; and Conscience, turned tyrant, held Passion by the
throat, told her tauntingly, she had yet but dipped her dainty foot in
the slough, and swore that with that arm of iron he would thrust her
down to unsounded depths of agony.</p>

<p>“Let me be torn away, then” I cried. “Let another help me!”</p>

<p>“No; you shall tear yourself away, none shall help you: you shall
yourself pluck out your right eye; yourself cut off your right hand:
your heart shall be the victim, and you the priest to transfix it.”</p>

<p>I rose up suddenly, terror-struck at the solitude which so ruthless a
judge haunted,—at the silence which so awful a voice filled. My head
swam as I stood erect. I perceived that I was sickening from excitement
and inanition; neither meat nor drink had passed my lips that day, for
I had taken no breakfast. And, with a strange pang, I now reflected
that, long as I had been shut up here, no message had been sent to ask
how I was, or to invite me to come down: not even little Adèle had
tapped at the door; not even Mrs. Fairfax had sought me. “Friends
always forget those whom fortune forsakes,” I murmured, as I undrew the
bolt and passed out. I stumbled over
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an obstacle: my head was still
dizzy, my sight was dim, and my limbs were feeble. I could not soon
recover myself. I fell, but not on to the ground: an outstretched arm
caught me. I looked up—I was supported by Mr. Rochester, who sat in a
chair across my chamber threshold.</p>

<p>“You come out at last,” he said. “Well, I have been waiting for you
long, and listening: yet not one movement have I heard, nor one sob:
five minutes more of that death-like hush, and I should have forced the
lock like a burglar. So you shun me?—you shut yourself up and grieve
alone! I would rather you had come and upbraided me with vehemence. You
are passionate: I expected a scene of some kind. I was prepared for the
hot rain of tears; only I wanted them to be shed on my breast: now a
senseless floor has received them, or your drenched handkerchief. But I
err: you have not wept at all! I see a white cheek and a faded eye, but
no trace of tears. I suppose, then, your heart has been weeping blood?</p>

<p>“Well, Jane! not a word of reproach? Nothing bitter—nothing poignant?
Nothing to cut a feeling or sting a passion? You sit quietly where I
have placed you, and regard me with a weary, passive look.</p>

<p>“Jane, I never meant to wound you thus. If
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    the man who had but one
little ewe lamb that was dear to him as a daughter, that ate of his
bread and drank of his cup, and lay in his bosom, had by some mistake
slaughtered it at the shambles, he would not have rued his bloody
blunder more than I now rue mine. Will you ever forgive me?”</p>

<p>Reader, I forgave him at the moment and on the spot. There was such
deep remorse in his eye, such true pity in his tone, such manly energy
in his manner; and besides, there was such unchanged love in his whole
look and mien—I forgave him all: yet not in words, not outwardly; only
at my heart’s core.</p>

<p>“You know I am a scoundrel, Jane?” ere long he inquired
wistfully—wondering, I suppose, at my continued silence and tameness,
the result rather of weakness than of will.</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Then tell me so roundly and sharply—don’t spare me.”</p>

<p>“I cannot: I am tired and sick. I want some water.” He heaved a sort of
shuddering sigh, and taking me in his arms, carried me downstairs. At
first I did not know to what room he had borne me; all was cloudy to my
glazed sight: presently I felt the reviving warmth of a fire; for,
summer as it was, I had become icy cold in my chamber.
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He put wine to
my lips; I tasted it and revived; then I ate something he offered me,
and was soon myself. I was in the library—sitting in his chair—he was
quite near. “If I could go out of life now, without too sharp a pang,
it would be well for me,” I thought; “then I should not have to make
the effort of cracking my heart-strings in rending them from among Mr.
Rochester’s. I must leave him, it appears. I do not want to leave him—I
cannot leave him.”</p>

<p>“How are you now, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Much better, sir; I shall be well soon.”</p>

<p>“Taste the wine again, Jane.”</p>

<p>I obeyed him; then he put the glass on the table, stood before me, and
looked at me attentively. Suddenly he turned away, with an inarticulate
exclamation, full of passionate emotion of some kind; he walked fast
through the room and came back; he stooped towards me as if to kiss me;
but I remembered caresses were now forbidden. I turned my face away and
put his aside.</p>

<p>“What!—How is this?” he exclaimed hastily. “Oh, I know! you won’t kiss
the husband of Bertha Mason? You consider my arms filled and my
embraces appropriated?”</p>

<p>“At any rate, there is neither room nor claim for me, sir.”</p>

<p>“Why, Jane? I will spare you the trouble of
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    much talking; I will answer
for you—Because I have a wife already, you would reply.—I guess
rightly?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“If you think so, you must have a strange opinion of me; you must
regard me as a plotting profligate—a base and low rake who has been
simulating disinterested love in order to draw you into a snare
deliberately laid, and strip you of honour and rob you of self-respect.
What do you say to that? I see you can say nothing: in the first place,
you are faint still, and have enough to do to draw your breath; in the
second place, you cannot yet accustom yourself to accuse and revile me,
and besides, the flood-gates of tears are opened, and they would rush
out if you spoke much; and you have no desire to expostulate, to
upbraid, to make a scene: you are thinking how <hi rend="italic">to act</hi>—<hi rend="italic">talking</hi> you
consider is of no use. I know you—I am on my guard.”</p>

<p>“Sir, I do not wish to act against you,” I said; and my unsteady voice
warned me to curtail my sentence.</p>

<p>“Not in <hi rend="italic">your</hi> sense of the word, but in <hi rend="italic">mine</hi> you are scheming to
destroy me. You have as good as said that I am a married man—as a
married man you will shun me, keep out of my way: just now you have
refused to kiss me. You intend
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to make yourself a complete stranger to
me: to live under this roof only as Adèle’s governess; if ever I say a
friendly word to you, if ever a friendly feeling inclines you again to
me, you will say,—‘That man had nearly made me his mistress: I must be
ice and rock to him;’ and ice and rock you will accordingly become.”</p>

<p>I cleared and steadied my voice to reply: “All is changed about me,
sir; I must change too—there is no doubt of that; and to avoid
fluctuations of feeling, and continual combats with recollections and
associations, there is only one way—Adèle must have a new governess,
sir.”</p>

<p>“Oh, Adèle will go to school—I have settled that already; nor do I mean
to torment you with the hideous associations and recollections of
Thornfield Hall—this accursed place—this tent of Achan—this insolent
vault, offering the ghastliness of living death to the light of the
open sky—this narrow stone hell, with its one real fiend, worse than a
legion of such as we imagine. Jane, you shall not stay here, nor will
I. I was wrong ever to bring you to Thornfield Hall, knowing as I did
how it was haunted. I charged them to conceal from you, before I ever
saw you, all knowledge of the curse of the place; merely because I
feared Adèle never would have a governess to stay if she knew with what
inmate she was housed, and
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my plans would not permit me to remove the
maniac elsewhere—though I possess an old house, Ferndean Manor, even
more retired and hidden than this, where I could have lodged her safely
enough, had not a scruple about the unhealthiness of the situation, in
the heart of a wood, made my conscience recoil from the arrangement.
Probably those damp walls would soon have eased me of her charge: but
to each villain his own vice; and mine is not a tendency to indirect
assassination, even of what I most hate.</p>

<p>“Concealing the mad-woman’s neighbourhood from you, however, was
something like covering a child with a cloak and laying it down near a
upas-tree: that demon’s vicinage is poisoned, and always was. But I’ll
shut up Thornfield Hall: I’ll nail up the front door and board the
lower windows: I’ll give Mrs. Poole two hundred a year to live here
with <hi rend="italic">my wife</hi>, as you term that fearful hag: Grace will do much for
money, and she shall have her son, the keeper at Grimsby Retreat, to
bear her company and be at hand to give her aid in the paroxysms, when
<hi rend="italic">my wife</hi> is prompted by her familiar to burn people in their beds at
night, to stab them, to bite their flesh from their bones, and so on—”</p>

<p>“Sir,” I interrupted him, “you are inexorable for that unfortunate
lady: you speak of her with
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hate—with vindictive antipathy. It is
cruel—she cannot help being mad.”</p>

<p>“Jane, my little darling (so I will call you, for so you are), you
don’t know what you are talking about; you misjudge me again: it is not
because she is mad I hate her. If you were mad, do you think I should
hate you?”</p>

<p>“I do indeed, sir.”</p>

<p>“Then you are mistaken, and you know nothing about me, and nothing
about the sort of love of which I am capable. Every atom of your flesh
is as dear to me as my own: in pain and sickness it would still be
dear. Your mind is my treasure, and if it were broken, it would be my
treasure still: if you raved, my arms should confine you, and not a
strait waistcoat—your grasp, even in fury, would have a charm for me:
if you flew at me as wildly as that woman did this morning, I should
receive you in an embrace, at least as fond as it would be restrictive.
I should not shrink from you with disgust as I did from her: in your
quiet moments you should have no watcher and no nurse but me; and I
could hang over you with untiring tenderness, though you gave me no
smile in return; and never weary of gazing into your eyes, though they
had no longer a ray of recognition for me.—But why do I follow that
train of ideas? I was talking of removing you from Thornfield. All,
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you
know, is prepared for prompt departure: to-morrow you shall go. I only
ask you to endure one more night under this roof, Jane; and then,
farewell to its miseries and terrors for ever! I have a place to repair
to, which will be a secure sanctuary from hateful reminiscences, from
unwelcome intrusion—even from falsehood and slander.”</p>

<p>“And take Adèle with you, sir,” I interrupted; “she will be a companion
for you.”</p>

<p>“What do you mean, Jane? I told you I would send Adèle to school; and
what do I want with a child for a companion, and not my own child,—a
French dancer’s bastard? Why do you importune me about her! I say, why
do you assign Adèle to me for a companion?”</p>

<p>“You spoke of a retirement, sir; and retirement and solitude are dull:
too dull for you.”</p>

<p>“Solitude! solitude!” he reiterated with irritation. “I see I must come
to an explanation. I don’t know what sphynx-like expression is forming
in your countenance. <hi rend="italic">You</hi> are to share my solitude. Do you
understand?”</p>

<p>I shook my head: it required a degree of courage, excited as he was
becoming, even to risk that mute sign of dissent. He had been walking
fast about the room, and he stopped, as if suddenly rooted to one spot.
He looked at me long and
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hard: I turned my eyes from him, fixed them on
the fire, and tried to assume and maintain a quiet, collected aspect.</p>

<p>“Now for the hitch in Jane’s character,” he said at last, speaking more
calmly than from his look I had expected him to speak. “The reel of
silk has run smoothly enough so far; but I always knew there would come
a knot and a puzzle: here it is. Now for vexation, and exasperation,
and endless trouble! By God! I long to exert a fraction of Samson’s
strength, and break the entanglement like tow!”</p>

<p>He recommenced his walk, but soon again stopped, and this time just
before me.</p>

<p>“Jane! will you hear reason?” (he stooped and approached his lips to my
ear); “because, if you won’t, I’ll try violence.” His voice was hoarse;
his look that of a man who is just about to burst an insufferable bond
and plunge headlong into wild license. I saw that in another moment,
and with one impetus of frenzy more, I should be able to do nothing
with him. The present—the passing second of time—was all I had in which
to control and restrain him: a movement of repulsion, flight, fear
would have sealed my doom,—and his. But I was not afraid: not in the
least. I felt an inward power; a sense of influence, which supported
me. The crisis was perilous; but not
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without its charm: such as the
Indian, perhaps, feels when he slips over the rapid in his canoe. I
took hold of his clenched hand, loosened the contorted fingers, and
said to him, soothingly—</p>

<p>“Sit down; I’ll talk to you as long as you like, and hear all you have
to say, whether reasonable or unreasonable.”</p>

<p>He sat down: but he did not get leave to speak directly. I had been
struggling with tears for some time: I had taken great pains to repress
them, because I knew he would not like to see me weep. Now, however, I
considered it well to let them flow as freely and as long as they
liked. If the flood annoyed him, so much the better. So I gave way and
cried heartily.</p>

<p>Soon I heard him earnestly entreating me to be composed. I said I could
not while he was in such a passion.</p>

<p>“But I am not angry, Jane: I only love you too well; and you had
steeled your little pale face with such a resolute, frozen look, I
could not endure it. Hush, now, and wipe your eyes.”</p>

<p>His softened voice announced that he was subdued; so I, in my turn,
became calm. Now he made an effort to rest his head on my shoulder, but
I would not permit it. Then he would draw me to him: no.</p>
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<p>“Jane! Jane!” he said, in such an accent of bitter sadness it thrilled
along every nerve I had; “you don’t love me, then? It was only my
station, and the rank of my wife, that you valued? Now that you think
me disqualified to become your husband, you recoil from my touch as if
I were some toad or ape.”</p>

<p>These words cut me: yet what could I do or I say? I ought probably to
have done or said nothing; but I was so tortured by a sense of remorse
at thus hurting his feelings, I could not control the wish to drop balm
where I had wounded.</p>

<p>“I <hi rend="italic">do</hi> love you,” I said, “more than ever: but I must not show or
indulge the feeling: and this is the last time I must express it.”</p>

<p>“The last time, Jane! What! do you think you can live with me, and see
me daily, and yet, if you still love me, be always cold and distant?”</p>

<p>“No, sir; that I am certain I could not; and therefore I see there is
but one way: but you will be furious if I mention it.”</p>

<p>“Oh, mention it! If I storm, you have the art of weeping.”

“Mr. Rochester, I must leave you.”</p>

<p>“For how long, Jane? For a few minutes, while you smooth your
hair—which is somewhat
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dishevelled; and bathe your face—which looks
feverish?”</p>

<p>“I must leave Adèle and Thornfield. I must part with you for my whole
life: I must begin a new existence among strange faces and strange
scenes.”</p>

<p>“Of course: I told you you should. I pass over the madness about
parting from me. You mean you must become a part of me. As to the new
existence, it is all right: you shall yet be my wife: I am not married.
You shall be Mrs. Rochester—both virtually and nominally. I shall keep
only to you so long as you and I live. You shall go to a place I have
in the south of France: a whitewashed villa on the shores of the
Mediterranean. There you shall live a happy, and guarded, and most
innocent life. Never fear that I wish to lure you into error—to make
you my mistress. Why did you shake your head? Jane, you must be
reasonable, or in truth I shall again become frantic.”</p>

<p>His voice and hand quivered: his large nostrils dilated; his eye
blazed: still I dared to speak.</p>

<p>“Sir, your wife is living: that is a fact acknowledged this morning by
yourself. If I lived with you as you desire, I should then be your
mistress: to say otherwise is sophistical—is false.”</p>
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<p>“Jane, I am not a gentle-tempered man—you forget that: I am not
long-enduring; I am not cool and dispassionate. Out of pity to me and
yourself, put your finger on my pulse, feel how it throbs, and—beware!”</p>

<p>He bared his wrist, and offered it to me: the blood was forsaking his
cheek and lips, they were growing livid; I was distressed on all hands.
To agitate him thus deeply, by a resistance he so abhorred, was cruel:
to yield was out of the question. I did what human beings do
instinctively when they are driven to utter extremity—looked for aid to
one higher than man: the words “God help me!” burst involuntarily from
my lips.</p>

<p>“I am a fool!” cried Mr. Rochester suddenly. “I keep telling her I am
not married, and do not explain to her why. I forget she knows nothing
of the character of that woman, or of the circumstances attending my
infernal union with her. Oh, I am certain Jane will agree with me in
opinion, when she knows all that I know! Just put your hand in mine,
Janet—that I may have the evidence of touch as well as sight, to prove
you are near me—and I will in a few words show you the real state of
the case. Can you listen to me?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir; for hours if you will.”</p>

<p>“I ask only minutes. Jane, did you ever hear
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    or know that I was not the
eldest son of my house: that I had once a brother older than I?”</p>

<p>“I remember Mrs. Fairfax told me so once.”</p>

<p>“And did you ever hear that my father was an avaricious, grasping man?”</p>

<p>“I have understood something to that effect.”</p>

<p>“Well, Jane, being so, it was his resolution to keep the property
together; he could not bear the idea of dividing his estate and leaving
me a fair portion: all, he resolved, should go to my brother, Rowland.
Yet as little could he endure that a son of his should be a poor man. I
must be provided for by a wealthy marriage. He sought me a partner
betimes. Mr. Mason, a West India planter and merchant, was his old
acquaintance. He was certain his possessions were real and vast: he
made inquiries. Mr. Mason, he found, had a son and daughter; and he
learned from him that he could and would give the latter a fortune of
thirty thousand pounds: that sufficed. When I left college, I was sent
out to Jamaica, to espouse a bride already courted for me. My father
said nothing about her money; but he told me Miss Mason was the boast
of Spanish Town for her beauty: and this was no lie. I found her a fine
woman, in the style of Blanche Ingram: tall, dark, and majestic. Her
family wished to secure me because I was of a good race; and so did
she. 
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They showed her to me in parties, splendidly dressed. I seldom saw
her alone, and had very little private conversation with her. She
flattered me, and lavishly displayed for my pleasure her charms and
accomplishments. All the men in her circle seemed to admire her and
envy me. I was dazzled, stimulated: my senses were excited; and being
ignorant, raw, and inexperienced, I thought I loved her. There is no
folly so besotted that the idiotic rivalries of society, the prurience,
the rashness, the blindness of youth, will not hurry a man to its
commission. Her relatives encouraged me; competitors piqued me; she
allured me: a marriage was achieved almost before I knew where I was.
Oh, I have no respect for myself when I think of that act!—an agony of
inward contempt masters me. I never loved, I never esteemed, I did not
even know her. I was not sure of the existence of one virtue in her
nature: I had marked neither modesty, nor benevolence, nor candour, nor
refinement in her mind or manners—and, I married her:—gross,
grovelling, mole-eyed blockhead that I was! With less sin I might
have—But let me remember to whom I am speaking.</p>

<p>“My bride’s mother I had never seen: I understood she was dead. The
honeymoon over, I learned my mistake; she was only mad, and shut up in
a lunatic asylum. There was a younger
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brother, too—a complete dumb
idiot. The elder one, whom you have seen (and whom I cannot hate,
whilst I abhor all his kindred, because he has some grains of affection
in his feeble mind, shown in the continued interest he takes in his
wretched sister, and also in a dog-like attachment he once bore me),
will probably be in the same state one day. My father and my brother
Rowland knew all this; but they thought only of the thirty thousand
pounds, and joined in the plot against me.</p>

<p>“These were vile discoveries; but except for the treachery of
concealment, I should have made them no subject of reproach to my wife,
even when I found her nature wholly alien to mine, her tastes obnoxious
to me, her cast of mind common, low, narrow, and singularly incapable
of being led to anything higher, expanded to anything larger—when I
found that I could not pass a single evening, nor even a single hour of
the day with her in comfort; that kindly conversation could not be
sustained between us, because whatever topic I started, immediately
received from her a turn at once coarse and trite, perverse and
imbecile—when I perceived that I should never have a quiet or settled
household, because no servant would bear the continued outbreaks of her
violent and unreasonable temper, or the vexations of her absurd,
contradictory, exacting orders—
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even then I restrained myself: I
eschewed upbraiding, I curtailed remonstrance; I tried to devour my
repentance and disgust in secret; I repressed the deep antipathy I
felt.</p>

<p>“Jane, I will not trouble you with abominable details: some strong
words shall express what I have to say. I lived with that woman
upstairs four years, and before that time she had tried me indeed: her
character ripened and developed with frightful rapidity; her vices
sprang up fast and rank: they were so strong, only cruelty could check
them, and I would not use cruelty. What a pigmy intellect she had, and
what giant propensities! How fearful were the curses those propensities
entailed on me! Bertha Mason, the true daughter of an infamous mother,
dragged me through all the hideous and degrading agonies which must
attend a man bound to a wife at once intemperate and unchaste.</p>

<p>“My brother in the interval was dead, and at the end of the four years
my father died too. I was rich enough now—yet poor to hideous
indigence: a nature the most gross, impure, depraved I ever saw, was
associated with mine, and called by the law and by society a part of
me. And I could not rid myself of it by any legal proceedings: for the
doctors now discovered that <hi rend="italic">my wife</hi> was mad—her excesses had
prematurely developed
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the germs of insanity. Jane, you don’t like my
narrative; you look almost sick—shall I defer the rest to another day?”</p>

<p>“No, sir, finish it now; I pity you—I do earnestly pity you.”</p>

<p>“Pity, Jane, from some people is a noxious and insulting sort of
tribute, which one is justified in hurling back in the teeth of those
who offer it; but that is the sort of pity native to callous, selfish
hearts; it is a hybrid, egotistical pain at hearing of woes, crossed
with ignorant contempt for those who have endured them. But that is not
your pity, Jane; it is not the feeling of which your whole face is full
at this moment—with which your eyes are now almost overflowing—with
which your heart is heaving—with which your hand is trembling in mine.
Your pity, my darling, is the suffering mother of love: its anguish is
the very natal pang of the divine passion. I accept it, Jane; let the
daughter have free advent—my arms wait to receive her.”</p>

<p>“Now, sir, proceed; what did you do when you found she was mad?”</p>

<p>“Jane, I approached the verge of despair; a remnant of self-respect was
all that intervened between me and the gulf. In the eyes of the world,
I was doubtless covered with grimy dishonour; but I resolved to be
clean in my own
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sight—and to the last I repudiated the contamination of
her crimes, and wrenched myself from connection with her mental
defects. Still, society associated my name and person with hers; I yet
saw her and heard her daily: something of her breath (faugh!) mixed
with the air I breathed; and besides, I remembered I had once been her
husband—that recollection was then, and is now, inexpressibly odious to
me; moreover, I knew that while she lived I could never be the husband
of another and better wife; and, though five years my senior (her
family and her father had lied to me even in the particular of her
age), she was likely to live as long as I, being as robust in frame as
she was infirm in mind. Thus, at the age of twenty-six, I was hopeless.</p>

<p>“One night I had been awakened by her yells—(since the medical men had
pronounced her mad, she had, of course, been shut up)—it was a fiery
West Indian night; one of the description that frequently precede the
hurricanes of those climates. Being unable to sleep in bed, I got up
and opened the window. The air was like sulphur-steams—I could find no
refreshment anywhere. Mosquitoes came buzzing in and hummed sullenly
round the room; the sea, which I could hear from thence, rumbled dull
like an earthquake—black clouds were casting up over it; the moon
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was
setting in the waves, broad and red, like a hot cannon-ball—she threw
her last bloody glance over a world quivering with the ferment of
tempest. I was physically influenced by the atmosphere and scene, and
my ears were filled with the curses the maniac still shrieked out;
wherein she momentarily mingled my name with such a tone of demon-hate,
with such language!—no professed harlot ever had a fouler vocabulary
than she: though two rooms off, I heard every word—the thin partitions
of the West India house opposing but slight obstruction to her wolfish
cries.</p>

<p>“‘This life,’ said I at last, ‘is hell: this is the air—those are the
sounds of the bottomless pit! I have a right to deliver myself from it
if I can. The sufferings of this mortal state will leave me with the
heavy flesh that now cumbers my soul. Of the fanatic’s burning eternity
I have no fear: there is not a future state worse than this present
one—let me break away, and go home to God!’</p>

<p>“I said this whilst I knelt down at and unlocked a trunk which
contained a brace of loaded pistols: I meant to shoot myself. I only
entertained the intention for a moment; for, not being insane, the
crisis of exquisite and unalloyed despair, which had originated the
wish and design of self-destruction, was past in a second.</p>

<p>“A wind fresh from Europe blew over the ocean
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    and rushed through the
open casement: the storm broke, streamed, thundered, blazed, and the
air grew pure. I then framed and fixed a resolution. While I walked
under the dripping orange-trees of my wet garden, and amongst its
drenched pomegranates and pine-apples, and while the refulgent dawn of
the tropics kindled round me—I reasoned thus, Jane—and now listen; for
it was true Wisdom that consoled me in that hour, and showed me the
right path to follow.</p>

<p>“The sweet wind from Europe was still whispering in the refreshed
leaves, and the Atlantic was thundering in glorious liberty; my heart,
dried up and scorched for a long time, swelled to the tone, and filled
with living blood—my being longed for renewal—my soul thirsted for a
pure draught. I saw hope revive—and felt regeneration possible. From a
flowery arch at the bottom of my garden I gazed over the sea—bluer than
the sky: the old world was beyond; clear prospects opened thus:—</p>

<p>“‘Go,’ said Hope, ‘and live again in Europe: there it is not known what
a sullied name you bear, nor what a filthy burden is bound to you. You
may take the maniac with you to England; confine her with due
attendance and precautions at Thornfield: then travel yourself to what
clime you will, and form what new tie you like. That
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woman, who has so
abused your long-suffering, so sullied your name, so outraged your
honour, so blighted your youth, is not your wife, nor are you her
husband. See that she is cared for as her condition demands, and you
have done all that God and humanity require of you. Let her identity,
her connection with yourself, be buried in oblivion: you are bound to
impart them to no living being. Place her in safety and comfort:
shelter her degradation with secrecy, and leave her.’</p>

<p>“I acted precisely on this suggestion. My father and brother had not
made my marriage known to their acquaintance; because, in the very
first letter I wrote to apprise them of the union—having already begun
to experience extreme disgust of its consequences, and, from the family
character and constitution, seeing a hideous future opening to me—I
added an urgent charge to keep it secret: and very soon the infamous
conduct of the wife my father had selected for me was such as to make
him blush to own her as his daughter-in-law. Far from desiring to
publish the connection, he became as anxious to conceal it as myself.</p>

<p>“To England, then, I conveyed her; a fearful voyage I had with such a
monster in the vessel. Glad was I when I at last got her to Thornfield,
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and saw her safely lodged in that third-storey room, of whose secret
inner cabinet she has now for ten years made a wild beast’s den—a
goblin’s cell. I had some trouble in finding an attendant for her, as
it was necessary to select one on whose fidelity dependence could be
placed; for her ravings would inevitably betray my secret: besides, she
had lucid intervals of days—sometimes weeks—which she filled up with
abuse of me. At last I hired Grace Poole from the Grimbsy Retreat. She
and the surgeon, Carter (who dressed Mason’s wounds that night he was
stabbed and worried), are the only two I have ever admitted to my
confidence. Mrs. Fairfax may indeed have suspected something, but she
could have gained no precise knowledge as to facts. Grace has, on the
whole, proved a good keeper; though, owing partly to a fault of her
own, of which it appears nothing can cure her, and which is incident to
her harassing profession, her vigilance has been more than once lulled
and baffled. The lunatic is both cunning and malignant; she has never
failed to take advantage of her guardian’s temporary lapses; once to
secrete the knife with which she stabbed her brother, and twice to
possess herself of the key of her cell, and issue therefrom in the
night-time. On the first of these occasions, she perpetrated the
attempt to
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burn me in my bed; on the second, she paid that ghastly
visit to you. I thank Providence, who watched over you, that she then
spent her fury on your wedding apparel, which perhaps brought back
vague reminiscences of her own bridal days: but on what might have
happened, I cannot endure to reflect. When I think of the thing which
flew at my throat this morning, hanging its black and scarlet visage
over the nest of my dove, my blood curdles—”</p>

<p>“And what, sir,” I asked, while he paused, “did you do when you had
settled her here? Where did you go?”</p>

<p>“What did I do, Jane? I transformed myself into a will-o’-the-wisp.
Where did I go? I pursued wanderings as wild as those of the
March-spirit. I sought the Continent, and went devious through all its
lands. My fixed desire was to seek and find a good and intelligent
woman, whom I could love: a contrast to the fury I left at Thornfield—”</p>

<p>“But you could not marry, sir.”</p>

<p>“I had determined and was convinced that I could and ought. It was not
my original intention to deceive, as I have deceived you. I meant to
tell my tale plainly, and make my proposals openly: and it appeared to
me so absolutely rational that I should be considered free to love
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and
be loved, I never doubted some woman might be found willing and able to
understand my case and accept me, in spite of the curse with which I
was burdened.”</p>

<p>“Well, sir?”</p>

<p>“When you are inquisitive, Jane, you always make me smile. You open
your eyes like an eager bird, and make every now and then a restless
movement, as if answers in speech did not flow fast enough for you, and
you wanted to read the tablet of one’s heart. But before I go on, tell
me what you mean by your ‘Well, sir?’ It is a small phrase very
frequent with you; and which many a time has drawn me on and on through
interminable talk: I don’t very well know why.”</p>

<p>“I mean,—What next? How did you proceed? What came of such an event?”</p>

<p>“Precisely! and what do you wish to know now?”</p>

<p>“Whether you found any one you liked: whether you asked her to marry
you; and what she said.”</p>

<p>“I can tell you whether I found any one I liked, and whether I asked
her to marry me: but what she said is yet to be recorded in the book of
Fate. For ten long years I roved about, living first in one capital,
then another: sometimes in St. Petersburg; oftener in Paris;
occasionally in
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Rome, Naples, and Florence. Provided with plenty of
money and the passport of an old name, I could choose my own society:
no circles were closed against me. I sought my ideal of a woman amongst
English ladies, French countesses, Italian signoras, and German
gräfinnen. I could not find her. Sometimes, for a fleeting moment, I
thought I caught a glance, heard a tone, beheld a form, which announced
the realisation of my dream: but I was presently undeceived. You are
not to suppose that I desired perfection, either of mind or person. I
longed only for what suited me—for the antipodes of the Creole: and I
longed vainly. Amongst them all I found not one whom, had I been ever
so free, I—warned as I was of the risks, the horrors, the loathings of
incongruous unions—would have asked to marry me. Disappointment made me
reckless. I tried dissipation—never debauchery: that I hated, and hate.
That was my Indian Messalina’s attribute: rooted disgust at it and her
restrained me much, even in pleasure. Any enjoyment that bordered on
riot seemed to approach me to her and her vices, and I eschewed it.</p>

<p>“Yet I could not live alone; so I tried the companionship of
mistresses. The first I chose was Céline Varens—another of those steps
which make a man spurn himself when he recalls them.
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You already know
what she was, and how my liaison with her terminated. She had two
successors: an Italian, Giacinta, and a German, Clara; both considered
singularly handsome. What was their beauty to me in a few weeks?
Giacinta was unprincipled and violent: I tired of her in three months.
Clara was honest and quiet; but heavy, mindless, and unimpressible: not
one whit to my taste. I was glad to give her a sufficient sum to set
her up in a good line of business, and so get decently rid of her. But,
Jane, I see by your face you are not forming a very favourable opinion
of me just now. You think me an unfeeling, loose-principled rake: don’t
you?”</p>

<p>“I don’t like you so well as I have done sometimes, indeed, sir. Did it
not seem to you in the least wrong to live in that way, first with one
mistress and then another? You talk of it as a mere matter of course.”</p>

<p>“It was with me; and I did not like it. It was a grovelling fashion of
existence: I should never like to return to it. Hiring a mistress is
the next worse thing to buying a slave: both are often by nature, and
always by position, inferior: and to live familiarly with inferiors is
degrading. I now hate the recollection of the time I passed with
Céline, Giacinta, and Clara.”</p>

<p>I felt the truth of these words; and I drew
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    from them the certain
inference, that if I were so far to forget myself and all the teaching
that had ever been instilled into me, as—under any pretext—with any
justification—through any temptation—to become the successor of these
poor girls, he would one day regard me with the same feeling which now
in his mind desecrated their memory. I did not give utterance to this
conviction: it was enough to feel it. I impressed it on my heart, that
it might remain there to serve me as aid in the time of trial.</p>

<p>“Now, Jane, why don’t you say ‘Well, sir?’ I have not done. You are
looking grave. You disapprove of me still, I see. But let me come to
the point. Last January, rid of all mistresses—in a harsh, bitter frame
of mind, the result of a useless, roving, lonely life—corroded with
disappointment, sourly disposed against all men, and especially against
all <hi rend="italic">woman</hi>kind (for I began to regard the notion of an intellectual,
faithful, loving woman as a mere dream), recalled by business, I came
back to England.</p>

<p>“On a frosty winter afternoon, I rode in sight of Thornfield Hall.
Abhorred spot! I expected no peace—no pleasure there. On a stile in Hay
Lane I saw a quiet little figure sitting by itself. I passed it as
negligently as I did the pollard willow opposite to it: I had no
presentiment of what it
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would be to me; no inward warning that the
arbitress of my life—my genius for good or evil—waited there in humble
guise. I did not know it, even when, on the occasion of Mesrour’s
accident, it came up and gravely offered me help. Childish and slender
creature! It seemed as if a linnet had hopped to my foot and proposed
to bear me on its tiny wing. I was surly; but the thing would not go:
it stood by me with strange perseverance, and looked and spoke with a
sort of authority. I must be aided, and by that hand: and aided I was.</p>

<p>“When once I had pressed the frail shoulder, something new—a fresh sap
and sense—stole into my frame. It was well I had learnt that this elf
must return to me—that it belonged to my house down below—or I could
not have felt it pass away from under my hand, and seen it vanish
behind the dim hedge, without singular regret. I heard you come home
that night, Jane, though probably you were not aware that I thought of
you or watched for you. The next day I observed you—myself unseen—for
half-an-hour, while you played with Adèle in the gallery. It was a
snowy day, I recollect, and you could not go out of doors. I was in my
room; the door was ajar: I could both listen and watch. Adèle claimed
your outward attention for a while; yet
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I fancied your thoughts were
elsewhere: but you were very patient with her, my little Jane; you
talked to her and amused her a long time. When at last she left you,
you lapsed at once into deep reverie: you betook yourself slowly to
pace the gallery. Now and then, in passing a casement, you glanced out
at the thick-falling snow; you listened to the sobbing wind, and again
you paced gently on and dreamed. I think those day visions were not
dark: there was a pleasurable illumination in your eye occasionally, a
soft excitement in your aspect, which told of no bitter, bilious,
hypochondriac brooding: your look revealed rather the sweet musings of
youth when its spirit follows on willing wings the flight of Hope up
and on to an ideal heaven. The voice of Mrs. Fairfax, speaking to a
servant in the hall, wakened you: and how curiously you smiled to and
at yourself, Janet! There was much sense in your smile: it was very
shrewd, and seemed to make light of your own abstraction. It seemed to
say—‘My fine visions are all very well, but I must not forget they are
absolutely unreal. I have a rosy sky and a green flowery Eden in my
brain; but without, I am perfectly aware, lies at my feet a rough tract
to travel, and around me gather black tempests to encounter.’ You ran
downstairs and demanded of Mrs. Fairfax some
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occupation: the weekly
house accounts to make up, or something of that sort, I think it was. I
was vexed with you for getting out of my sight.</p>

<p>“Impatiently I waited for evening, when I might summon you to my
presence. An unusual—to me—a perfectly new character I suspected was
yours: I desired to search it deeper and know it better. You entered
the room with a look and air at once shy and independent: you were
quaintly dressed—much as you are now. I made you talk: ere long I found
you full of strange contrasts. Your garb and manner were restricted by
rule; your air was often diffident, and altogether that of one refined
by nature, but absolutely unused to society, and a good deal afraid of
making herself disadvantageously conspicuous by some solecism or
blunder; yet when addressed, you lifted a keen, a daring, and a glowing
eye to your interlocutor’s face: there was penetration and power in
each glance you gave; when plied by close questions, you found ready
and round answers. Very soon you seemed to get used to me: I believe
you felt the existence of sympathy between you and your grim and cross
master, Jane; for it was astonishing to see how quickly a certain
pleasant ease tranquillised your manner: snarl as I would, you showed
no surprise, fear, annoyance, or displeasure at my moroseness; you
watched me, and now and then smiled at me with a simple yet
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sagacious
grace I cannot describe. I was at once content and stimulated with what
I saw: I liked what I had seen, and wished to see more. Yet, for a long
time, I treated you distantly, and sought your company rarely. I was an
intellectual epicure, and wished to prolong the gratification of making
this novel and piquant acquaintance: besides, I was for a while
troubled with a haunting fear that if I handled the flower freely its
bloom would fade—the sweet charm of freshness would leave it. I did not
then know that it was no transitory blossom, but rather the radiant
resemblance of one, cut in an indestructible gem. Moreover, I wished to
see whether you would seek me if I shunned you—but you did not; you
kept in the schoolroom as still as your own desk and easel; if by
chance I met you, you passed me as soon, and with as little token of
recognition, as was consistent with respect. Your habitual expression
in those days, Jane, was a thoughtful look; not despondent, for you
were not sickly; but not buoyant, for you had little hope, and no
actual pleasure. I wondered what you thought of me, or if you ever
thought of me, and resolved to find this out.</p>

<p>“I resumed my notice of you. There was something glad in your glance,
and genial in your manner, when you conversed: I saw you had a social
heart; it was the silent schoolroom—it was the tedium of your life—that
made you mournful. I permitted myself the delight of being kind to you;
kindness
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stirred emotion soon: your face became soft in expression,
your tones gentle; I liked my name pronounced by your lips in a
grateful happy accent. I used to enjoy a chance meeting with you, Jane,
at this time: there was a curious hesitation in your manner: you
glanced at me with a slight trouble—a hovering doubt: you did not know
what my caprice might be—whether I was going to play the master and be
stern, or the friend and be benignant. I was now too fond of you often
to simulate the first whim; and, when I stretched my hand out
cordially, such bloom and light and bliss rose to your young, wistful
features, I had much ado often to avoid straining you then and there to
my heart.”</p>

<p>“Don’t talk any more of those days, sir,” I interrupted, furtively
dashing away some tears from my eyes; his language was torture to me;
for I knew what I must do—and do soon—and all these reminiscences, and
these revelations of his feelings only made my work more difficult.</p>

<p>“No, Jane,” he returned: “what necessity is there to dwell on the Past,
when the Present is so much surer—the Future so much brighter?”</p>

<p>I shuddered to hear the infatuated assertion.</p>

<p>“You see now how the case stands—do you not?” he continued. “After a
youth and manhood passed half in unutterable misery and half in dreary
solitude, I have for the first time found what I can truly love—I have
found <hi rend="italic">you</hi>. You
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are my sympathy—my better self—my good angel. I am
bound to you with a strong attachment. I think you good, gifted,
lovely: a fervent, a solemn passion is conceived in my heart; it leans
to you, draws you to my centre and spring of life, wraps my existence
about you, and, kindling in pure, powerful flame, fuses you and me in
one.</p>

<p>“It was because I felt and knew this, that I resolved to marry you. To
tell me that I had already a wife is empty mockery: you know now that I
had but a hideous demon. I was wrong to attempt to deceive you; but I
feared a stubbornness that exists in your character. I feared early
instilled prejudice: I wanted to have you safe before hazarding
confidences. This was cowardly: I should have appealed to your
nobleness and magnanimity at first, as I do now—opened to you plainly
my life of agony—described to you my hunger and thirst after a higher
and worthier existence—shown to you, not my <hi rend="italic">resolution</hi> (that word is
weak), but my resistless <hi rend="italic">bent</hi> to love faithfully and well, where I am
faithfully and well loved in return. Then I should have asked you to
accept my pledge of fidelity and to give me yours. Jane—give it me
now.”</p>

<p>A pause.</p>

<p>“Why are you silent, Jane?”</p>

<p>I was experiencing an ordeal: a hand of fiery iron grasped my vitals.
Terrible moment: full
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of struggle, blackness, burning! Not a human
being that ever lived could wish to be loved better than I was loved;
and him who thus loved me I absolutely worshipped: and I must renounce
love and idol. One drear word comprised my intolerable duty—“Depart!”</p>

<p>“Jane, you understand what I want of you? Just this promise—‘I will be
yours, Mr. Rochester.’”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, I will <hi rend="italic">not</hi> be yours.”</p>

<p>Another long silence.</p>

<p>“Jane!” recommenced he, with a gentleness that broke me down with
grief, and turned me stone-cold with ominous terror—for this still
voice was the pant of a lion rising—“Jane, do you mean to go one way in
the world, and to let me go another?”</p>

<p>“I do.”</p>

<p>“Jane” (bending towards and embracing me), “do you mean it now?”</p>

<p>“I do.”</p>

<p>“And now?” softly kissing my forehead and cheek.</p>

<p>“I do,” extricating myself from restraint rapidly and completely.</p>

<p>“Oh, Jane, this is bitter! This—this is wicked. It would not be wicked
to love me.”</p>

<p>“It would to obey you.”</p>

<p>A wild look raised his brows—crossed his features: he rose; but he
forebore yet. I laid my
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hand on the back of a chair for support: I
shook, I feared—but I resolved.</p>

<p>“One instant, Jane. Give one glance to my horrible life when you are
gone. All happiness will be torn away with you. What then is left? For
a wife I have but the maniac upstairs: as well might you refer me to
some corpse in yonder churchyard. What shall I do, Jane? Where turn for
a companion and for some hope?”</p>

<p>“Do as I do: trust in God and yourself. Believe in heaven. Hope to meet
again there.”</p>

<p>“Then you will not yield?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“Then you condemn me to live wretched and to die accursed?” His voice
rose.</p>

<p>“I advise you to live sinless, and I wish you to die tranquil.”</p>

<p>“Then you snatch love and innocence from me? You fling me back on lust
for a passion—vice for an occupation?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, I no more assign this fate to you than I grasp at it
for myself. We were born to strive and endure—you as well as I: do so.
You will forget me before I forget you.”</p>

<p>“You make me a liar by such language: you sully my honour. I declared I
could not change: you tell me to my face I shall change soon. And what
a distortion in your judgment, what a perversity in your ideas, is
proved by your conduct! Is it better to drive a fellow-creature to
despair
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than to transgress a mere human law, no man being injured by
the breach? for you have neither relatives nor acquaintances whom you
need fear to offend by living with me?”</p>

<p>This was true: and while he spoke my very conscience and reason turned
traitors against me, and charged me with crime in resisting him. They
spoke almost as loud as Feeling: and that clamoured wildly. “Oh,
comply!” it said. “Think of his misery; think of his danger—look at his
state when left alone; remember his headlong nature; consider the
recklessness following on despair—soothe him; save him; love him; tell
him you love him and will be his. Who in the world cares for <hi rend="italic">you</hi>? or
who will be injured by what you do?”</p>

<p>Still indomitable was the reply—“<hi rend="italic">I</hi> care for myself. The more
solitary, the more friendless, the more unsustained I am, the more I
will respect myself. I will keep the law given by God; sanctioned by
man. I will hold to the principles received by me when I was sane, and
not mad—as I am now. Laws and principles are not for the times when
there is no temptation: they are for such moments as this, when body
and soul rise in mutiny against their rigour; stringent are they;
inviolate they shall be. If at my individual convenience I might break
them, what would be their worth? They have a worth—so I have always
believed; and if I cannot believe it now,
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it is because I am
insane—quite insane: with my veins running fire, and my heart beating
faster than I can count its throbs. Preconceived opinions, foregone
determinations, are all I have at this hour to stand by: there I plant
my foot.”</p>

<p>I did. Mr. Rochester, reading my countenance, saw I had done so. His
fury was wrought to the highest: he must yield to it for a moment,
whatever followed; he crossed the floor and seized my arm and grasped
my waist. He seemed to devour me with his flaming glance: physically, I
felt, at the moment, powerless as stubble exposed to the draught and
glow of a furnace: mentally, I still possessed my soul, and with it the
certainty of ultimate safety. The soul, fortunately, has an
interpreter—often an unconscious, but still a truthful interpreter—in
the eye. My eye rose to his; and while I looked in his fierce face I
gave an involuntary sigh; his gripe was painful, and my over-taxed
strength almost exhausted.</p>

<p>“Never,” said he, as he ground his teeth, “never was anything at once
so frail and so indomitable. A mere reed she feels in my hand!” (And he
shook me with the force of his hold.) “I could bend her with my finger
and thumb: and what good would it do if I bent, if I uptore, if I
crushed her? Consider that eye: consider the resolute, wild, free thing
looking out of it, defy
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ing me, with more than courage—with a stern
triumph. Whatever I do with its cage, I cannot get at it—the savage,
beautiful creature! If I tear, if I rend the slight prison, my outrage
will only let the captive loose. Conqueror I might be of the house; but
the inmate would escape to heaven before I could call myself possessor
of its clay dwelling-place. And it is you, spirit—with will and energy,
and virtue and purity—that I want: not alone your brittle frame. Of
yourself you could come with soft flight and nestle against my heart,
if you would: seized against your will, you will elude the grasp like
an essence—you will vanish ere I inhale your fragrance. Oh! come, Jane,
come!”</p>

<p>As he said this, he released me from his clutch, and only looked at me.
The look was far worse to resist than the frantic strain: only an
idiot, however, would have succumbed now. I had dared and baffled his
fury; I must elude his sorrow: I retired to the door.</p>

<p>“You are going, Jane?”</p>

<p>“I am going, sir.”</p>

<p>“You are leaving me?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“You will not come? You will not be my comforter, my rescuer? My deep
love, my wild woe, my frantic prayer, are all nothing to you?”</p>

<p>What unutterable pathos was in his voice!
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    How hard it was to reiterate
firmly, “I am going.”</p>

<p>“Jane!”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester!”</p>

<p>“Withdraw, then,—I consent; but remember, you leave me here in anguish.
Go up to your own room; think over all I have said, and, Jane, cast a
glance on my sufferings—think of me.”</p>

<p>He turned away; he threw himself on his face on the sofa. “Oh, Jane! my
hope—my love—my life!” broke in anguish from his lips. Then came a
deep, strong sob.</p>

<p>I had already gained the door; but, reader, I walked back—walked back
as determinedly as I had retreated. I knelt down by him; I turned his
face from the cushion to me; I kissed his cheek; I smoothed his hair
with my hand.</p>

<p>“God bless you, my dear master!” I said. “God keep you from harm and
wrong—direct you, solace you—reward you well for your past kindness to
me.”</p>

<p>“Little Jane’s love would have been my best reward,” he answered;
“without it, my heart is broken. But Jane will give me her love:
yes—nobly, generously.”</p>

<p>Up the blood rushed to his face; forth flashed the fire from his eyes;
erect he sprang; he held his arms out; but I evaded the embrace, and at
once quitted the room.</p>

<p>“Farewell!” was the cry of my heart as
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    I left him. Despair added,
“Farewell for ever!”</p>


<p>That night I never thought to sleep; but a slumber fell on me as soon
as I lay down in bed. I was transported in thought to the scenes of
childhood: I dreamt I lay in the red-room at Gateshead; that the night
was dark, and my mind impressed with strange fears. The light that long
ago had struck me into syncope, recalled in this vision, seemed
glidingly to mount the wall, and tremblingly to pause in the centre of
the obscured ceiling. I lifted up my head to look: the roof resolved to
clouds, high and dim; the gleam was such as the moon imparts to vapours
she is about to sever. I watched her come—watched with the strangest
anticipation; as though some word of doom were to be written on her
disk. She broke forth as never moon yet burst from cloud: a hand first
penetrated the sable folds and waved them away; then, not a moon, but a
white human form shone in the azure, inclining a glorious brow
earthward. It gazed and gazed on me. It spoke to my spirit:
immeasurably distant was the tone, yet so near, it whispered in my
heart—</p>

<p>“My daughter, flee temptation.”</p>

<p>“Mother, I will.”</p>

<p>So I answered after I had waked from the trance-like dream. It was yet
night, but July
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nights are short: soon after midnight, dawn comes. “It
cannot be too early to commence the task I have to fulfil,” thought I.
I rose: I was dressed; for I had taken off nothing but my shoes. I knew
where to find in my drawers some linen, a locket, a ring. In seeking
these articles, I encountered the beads of a pearl necklace Mr.
Rochester had forced me to accept a few days ago. I left that; it was
not mine: it was the visionary bride’s who had melted in air. The other
articles I made up in a parcel; my purse, containing twenty shillings
(it was all I had), I put in my pocket: I tied on my straw bonnet,
pinned my shawl, took the parcel and my slippers, which I would not put
on yet, and stole from my room.</p>

<p>“Farewell, kind Mrs. Fairfax!” I whispered, as I glided past her door.
“Farewell, my darling Adèle!” I said, as I glanced towards the nursery.
No thought could be admitted of entering to embrace her. I had to
deceive a fine ear: for aught I knew it might now be listening.</p>

<p>I would have got past Mr. Rochester’s chamber without a pause; but my
heart momentarily stopping its beat at that threshold, my foot was
forced to stop also. No sleep was there: the inmate was walking
restlessly from wall to wall; and again and again he sighed while I
listened. There was a heaven—a temporary heaven—in this room
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for me, if
I chose: I had but to go in and to say—</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, I will love you and live with you through life till
death,” and a fount of rapture would spring to my lips. I thought of
this.</p>

<p>That kind master, who could not sleep now, was waiting with impatience
for day. He would send for me in the morning; I should be gone. He
would have me sought for: vainly. He would feel himself forsaken; his
love rejected: he would suffer; perhaps grow desperate. I thought of
this too. My hand moved towards the lock: I caught it back, and glided
on.</p>

<p>Drearily I wound my way downstairs: I knew what I had to do, and I did
it mechanically. I sought the key of the side-door in the kitchen; I
sought, too, a phial of oil and a feather; I oiled the key and the
lock. I got some water, I got some bread: for perhaps I should have to
walk far; and my strength, sorely shaken of late, must not break down.
All this I did without one sound. I opened the door, passed out, shut
it softly. Dim dawn glimmered in the yard. The great gates were closed
and locked; but a wicket in one of them was only latched. Through that
I departed: it, too, I shut; and now I was out of Thornfield.</p>

<p>A mile off, beyond the fields, lay a road which stretched in the
contrary direction to Millcote;
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a road I had never travelled, but often
noticed, and wondered where it led: thither I bent my steps. No
reflection was to be allowed now: not one glance was to be cast back;
not even one forward. Not one thought was to be given either to the
past or the future. The first was a page so heavenly sweet—so deadly
sad—that to read one line of it would dissolve my courage and break
down my energy. The last was an awful blank: something like the world
when the deluge was gone by.</p>

<p>I skirted fields, and hedges, and lanes till after sunrise. I believe
it was a lovely summer morning: I know my shoes, which I had put on
when I left the house, were soon wet with dew. But I looked neither to
rising sun, nor smiling sky, nor wakening nature. He who is taken out
to pass through a fair scene to the scaffold, thinks not of the flowers
that smile on his road, but of the block and axe-edge; of the
disseverment of bone and vein; of the grave gaping at the end: and I
thought of drear flight and homeless wandering—and oh! with agony I
thought of what I left. I could not help it. I thought of him now—in
his room—watching the sunrise; hoping I should soon come to say I would
stay with him and be his. I longed to be his; I panted to return: it
was not too late; I could yet spare him the bitter pang of bereavement.
As yet my flight, I was sure, was undiscovered. I could go back
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and be
his comforter—his pride; his redeemer from misery, perhaps from ruin.
Oh, that fear of his self-abandonment—far worse than my abandonment—how
it goaded me! It was a barbed arrow-head in my breast; it tore me when
I tried to extract it; it sickened me when remembrance thrust it
farther in. Birds began singing in brake and copse: birds were faithful
to their mates; birds were emblems of love. What was I? In the midst of
my pain of heart and frantic effort of principle, I abhorred myself. I
had no solace from self-approbation: none even from self-respect. I had
injured—wounded—left my master. I was hateful in my own eyes. Still I
could not turn, nor retrace one step. God must have led me on. As to my
own will or conscience, impassioned grief had trampled one and stifled
the other. I was weeping wildly as I walked along my solitary way:
fast, fast I went like one delirious. A weakness, beginning inwardly,
extending to the limbs, seized me, and I fell: I lay on the ground some
minutes, pressing my face to the wet turf. I had some fear—or hope—that
here I should die: but I was soon up; crawling forwards on my hands and
knees, and then again raised to my feet—as eager and as determined as
ever to reach the road.</p>

<p>When I got there, I was forced to sit to rest me under the hedge; and
while I sat, I heard wheels, and saw a coach come on. I stood up
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and
lifted my hand; it stopped. I asked where it was going: the driver
named a place a long way off, and where I was sure Mr. Rochester had no
connections. I asked for what sum he would take me there; he said
thirty shillings; I answered I had but twenty; well, he would try to
make it do. He further gave me leave to get into the inside, as the
vehicle was empty: I entered, was shut in, and it rolled on its way.</p>

<p>Gentle reader, may you never feel what I then felt! May your eyes never
shed such stormy, scalding, heart-wrung tears as poured from mine. May
you never appeal to Heaven in prayers so hopeless and so agonised as in
that hour left my lips; for never may you, like me, dread to be the
instrument of evil to what you wholly love.</p>
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                <div type="chapter">
                            <head>CHAPTER XXVIII</head>
                    <head>
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                            <graphic url="https://lic-assets-staging.s3.amazonaws.com/bronte-jane-eyre/janeeyre_28_bronte_64kb.mp3"/>Librivox recording of Chapter Twenty Eight, read by Elizabeth Klett.</note>
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<p>Two days are passed. It is a summer evening; the coachman has set me
down at a place called Whitcross; he could take me no farther for the
sum I had given, and I was not possessed of another shilling in the
world. The coach is a mile off by this time; I am alone. At this moment
I discover that I forgot to take my parcel out of the pocket of the
coach, where I had placed it for safety; there it remains, there it
must remain; and now, I am absolutely destitute.</p>

<p>Whitcross is no town, nor even a hamlet; it is but a stone pillar set
up where four roads meet: whitewashed, I suppose, to be more obvious at
a distance and in darkness. Four arms spring from its summit: the
nearest town to which these point is, according to the inscription,
distant ten miles; the farthest, above twenty. From the well-known
names of these towns I learn in what county I have lighted; a
north-midland shire, dusk with moorland, ridged with mountain: this
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I
see. There are great moors behind and on each hand of me; there are
waves of mountains far beyond that deep valley at my feet. The
population here must be thin, and I see no passengers on these roads:
they stretch out east, west, north, and south—white, broad, lonely;
they are all cut in the moor, and the heather grows deep and wild to
their very verge. Yet a chance traveller might pass by; and I wish no
eye to see me now: strangers would wonder what I am doing, lingering
here at the sign-post, evidently objectless and lost. I might be
questioned: I could give no answer but what would sound incredible and
excite suspicion. Not a tie holds me to human society at this
moment—not a charm or hope calls me where my fellow-creatures are—none
that saw me would have a kind thought or a good wish for me. I have no
relative but the universal mother, Nature: I will seek her breast and
ask repose.</p>

<p>I struck straight into the heath; I held on to a hollow I saw deeply
furrowing the brown moorside; I waded knee-deep in its dark growth; I
turned with its turnings, and finding a moss-blackened granite crag in
a hidden angle, I sat down under it. High banks of moor were about me;
the crag protected my head: the sky was over that.</p>

<p>Some time passed before I felt tranquil even here: I had a vague dread
that wild cattle might
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be near, or that some sportsman or poacher might
discover me. If a gust of wind swept the waste, I looked up, fearing it
was the rush of a bull; if a plover whistled, I imagined it a man.
Finding my apprehensions unfounded, however, and calmed by the deep
silence that reigned as evening declined at nightfall, I took
confidence. As yet I had not thought; I had only listened, watched,
dreaded; now I regained the faculty of reflection.</p>

<p>What was I to do? Where to go? Oh, intolerable questions, when I could
do nothing and go nowhere!—when a long way must yet be measured by my
weary, trembling limbs before I could reach human habitation—when cold
charity must be entreated before I could get a lodging: reluctant
sympathy importuned, almost certain repulse incurred, before my tale
could be listened to, or one of my wants relieved!</p>

<p>I touched the heath: it was dry, and yet warm with the heat of the
summer day. I looked at the sky; it was pure: a kindly star twinkled
just above the chasm ridge. The dew fell, but with propitious softness;
no breeze whispered. Nature seemed to me benign and good; I thought she
loved me, outcast as I was; and I, who from man could anticipate only
mistrust, rejection, insult, clung to her with filial fondness.
To-night, at least, I would be her guest, as I was her child: my mother
would lodge me without
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money and without price. I had one morsel of
bread yet: the remnant of a roll I had bought in a town we passed
through at noon with a stray penny—my last coin. I saw ripe bilberries
gleaming here and there, like jet beads in the heath: I gathered a
handful and ate them with the bread. My hunger, sharp before, was, if
not satisfied, appeased by this hermit’s meal. I said my evening
prayers at its conclusion, and then chose my couch.</p>


<p>I said my evening prayers</p>

<p>Beside the crag the heath was very deep: when I lay down my feet were
buried in it; rising high on each side, it left only a narrow space for
the night-air to invade. I folded my shawl double, and spread it over
me for a coverlet; a low, mossy swell was my pillow. Thus lodged, I was
not, at least at the commencement of the night, cold.</p>

<p>My rest might have been blissful enough, only a sad heart broke it. It
plained of its gaping wounds, its inward bleeding, its riven chords. It
trembled for Mr. Rochester and his doom; it bemoaned him with bitter
pity; it demanded him with ceaseless longing; and, impotent as a bird
with both wings broken, it still quivered its shattered pinions in vain
attempts to seek him.</p>

<p>Worn out with this torture of thought, I rose to my knees. Night was
come, and her planets were risen: a safe, still night: too serene for
the companionship of fear. We know that God is
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everywhere; but
certainly we feel His presence most when His works are on the grandest
scale spread before us; and it is in the unclouded night-sky, where His
worlds wheel their silent course, that we read clearest His infinitude,
His omnipotence, His omnipresence. I had risen to my knees to pray for
Mr. Rochester. Looking up, I, with tear-dimmed eyes, saw the mighty
Milky-way. Remembering what it was—what countless systems there swept
space like a soft trace of light—I felt the might and strength of God.
Sure was I of His efficiency to save what He had made: convinced I grew
that neither earth should perish, nor one of the souls it treasured. I
turned my prayer to thanksgiving: the Source of Life was also the
Saviour of spirits. Mr. Rochester was safe: he was God’s, and by God
would he be guarded. I again nestled to the breast of the hill; and ere
long in sleep forgot sorrow.</p>

<p>But next day, Want came to me pale and bare. Long after the little
birds had left their nests; long after bees had come in the sweet prime
of day to gather the heath honey before the dew was dried—when the long
morning shadows were curtailed, and the sun filled earth and sky—I got
up, and I looked round me.</p>

<p>What a still, hot, perfect day! What a golden desert this spreading
moor! Everywhere sunshine. I wished I could live in it and on it. I
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saw
a lizard run over the crag; I saw a bee busy among the sweet
bilberries. I would fain at the moment have become bee or lizard, that
I might have found fitting nutriment, permanent shelter here. But I was
a human being, and had a human being’s wants: I must not linger where
there was nothing to supply them. I rose; I looked back at the bed I
had left. Hopeless of the future, I wished but this—that my Maker had
that night thought good to require my soul of me while I slept; and
that this weary frame, absolved by death from further conflict with
fate, had now but to decay quietly, and mingle in peace with the soil
of this wilderness. Life, however, was yet in my possession, with all
its requirements, and pains, and responsibilities. The burden must be
carried; the want provided for; the suffering endured; the
responsibility fulfilled. I set out.</p>

<p>Whitcross regained, I followed a road which led from the sun, now
fervent and high. By no other circumstance had I will to decide my
choice. I walked a long time, and when I thought I had nearly done
enough, and might conscientiously yield to the fatigue that almost
overpowered me—might relax this forced action, and, sitting down on a
stone I saw near, submit resistlessly to the apathy that clogged heart
and limb—I heard a bell chime—a church bell.</p>

<p>I turned in the direction of the sound, and there, amongst the romantic
hills, whose changes
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and aspect I had ceased to note an hour ago, I saw
a hamlet and a spire. All the valley at my right hand was full of
pasture-fields, and cornfields, and wood; and a glittering stream ran
zig-zag through the varied shades of green, the mellowing grain, the
sombre woodland, the clear and sunny lea. Recalled by the rumbling of
wheels to the road before me, I saw a heavily-laden waggon labouring up
the hill, and not far beyond were two cows and their drover. Human life
and human labour were near. I must struggle on: strive to live and bend
to toil like the rest.</p>

<p>About two o’clock P.M. I entered the village. At the bottom of its one
street there was a little shop with some cakes of bread in the window.
I coveted a cake of bread. With that refreshment I could perhaps regain
a degree of energy: without it, it would be difficult to proceed. The
wish to have some strength and some vigour returned to me as soon as I
was amongst my fellow-beings. I felt it would be degrading to faint
with hunger on the causeway of a hamlet. Had I nothing about me I could
offer in exchange for one of these rolls? I considered. I had a small
silk handkerchief tied round my throat; I had my gloves. I could hardly
tell how men and women in extremities of destitution proceeded. I did
not know whether either of these articles would be accepted: probably
they would not; but I must try.</p>
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<p>I entered the shop: a woman was there. Seeing a respectably-dressed
person, a lady as she supposed, she came forward with civility. How
could she serve me? I was seized with shame: my tongue would not utter
the request I had prepared. I dared not offer her the half-worn gloves,
the creased handkerchief: besides, I felt it would be absurd. I only
begged permission to sit down a moment, as I was tired. Disappointed in
the expectation of a customer, she coolly acceded to my request. She
pointed to a seat; I sank into it. I felt sorely urged to weep; but
conscious how unseasonable such a manifestation would be, I restrained
it. Soon I asked her “if there were any dressmaker or plain-workwoman
in the village?”</p>

<p>“Yes; two or three. Quite as many as there was employment for.”</p>

<p>I reflected. I was driven to the point now. I was brought face to face
with Necessity. I stood in the position of one without a resource,
without a friend, without a coin. I must do something. What? I must
apply somewhere. Where?</p>

<p>“Did she know of any place in the neighbourhood where a servant was
wanted?”</p>

<p>“Nay; she couldn’t say.”</p>

<p>“What was the chief trade in this place? What did most of the people
do?”</p>

<p>“Some were farm labourers; a good deal
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    worked at Mr. Oliver’s
needle-factory, and at the foundry.”</p>

<p>“Did Mr. Oliver employ women?”</p>

<p>“Nay; it was men’s work.”</p>

<p>“And what do the women do?”</p>

<p>“I knawn’t,” was the answer. “Some does one thing, and some another.
Poor folk mun get on as they can.”</p>

<p>She seemed to be tired of my questions: and, indeed, what claim had I
to importune her? A neighbour or two came in; my chair was evidently
wanted. I took leave.</p>

<p>I passed up the street, looking as I went at all the houses to the
right hand and to the left; but I could discover no pretext, nor see an
inducement to enter any. I rambled round the hamlet, going sometimes to
a little distance and returning again, for an hour or more. Much
exhausted, and suffering greatly now for want of food, I turned aside
into a lane and sat down under the hedge. Ere many minutes had elapsed,
I was again on my feet, however, and again searching something—a
resource, or at least an informant. A pretty little house stood at the
top of the lane, with a garden before it, exquisitely neat and
brilliantly blooming. I stopped at it. What business had I to approach
the white door or touch the glittering knocker? In what way could it
possibly be the interest of the inhabitants of that dwelling to serve
me? Yet I drew near
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and knocked. A mild-looking, cleanly-attired young
woman opened the door. In such a voice as might be expected from a
hopeless heart and fainting frame—a voice wretchedly low and
faltering—I asked if a servant was wanted here?</p>

<p>“No,” said she; “we do not keep a servant.”</p>

<p>“Can you tell me where I could get employment of any kind?” I
continued. “I am a stranger, without acquaintance in this place. I want
some work: no matter what.”</p>

<p>But it was not her business to think for me, or to seek a place for me:
besides, in her eyes, how doubtful must have appeared my character,
position, tale. She shook her head, she “was sorry she could give me no
information,” and the white door closed, quite gently and civilly: but
it shut me out. If she had held it open a little longer, I believe I
should have begged a piece of bread; for I was now brought low.</p>

<p>I could not bear to return to the sordid village, where, besides, no
prospect of aid was visible. I should have longed rather to deviate to
a wood I saw not far off, which appeared in its thick shade to offer
inviting shelter; but I was so sick, so weak, so gnawed with nature’s
cravings, instinct kept me roaming round abodes where there was a
chance of food. Solitude would be no solitude—rest no rest—while the
vulture, hunger, thus sank beak and talons in my side.</p>
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<p>I drew near houses; I left them, and came back again, and again I
wandered away: always repelled by the consciousness of having no claim
to ask—no right to expect interest in my isolated lot. Meantime, the
afternoon advanced, while I thus wandered about like a lost and
starving dog. In crossing a field, I saw the church spire before me: I
hastened towards it. Near the churchyard, and in the middle of a
garden, stood a well-built though small house, which I had no doubt was
the parsonage. I remembered that strangers who arrive at a place where
they have no friends, and who want employment, sometimes apply to the
clergyman for introduction and aid. It is the clergyman’s function to
help—at least with advice—those who wished to help themselves. I seemed
to have something like a right to seek counsel here. Renewing then my
courage, and gathering my feeble remains of strength, I pushed on. I
reached the house, and knocked at the kitchen-door. An old woman
opened: I asked was this the parsonage?</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Was the clergyman in?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“Would he be in soon?”</p>

<p>“No, he was gone from home.”</p>

<p>“To a distance?”</p>

<p>“Not so far—happen three mile. He had been called away by the sudden
death of his
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father: he was at Marsh End now, and would very likely
stay there a fortnight longer.”</p>

<p>“Was there any lady of the house?”</p>

<p>“Nay, there was naught but her, and she was housekeeper;” and of her,
reader, I could not bear to ask the relief for want of which I was
sinking; I could not yet beg; and again I crawled away.</p>

<p>Once more I took off my handkerchief—once more I thought of the cakes
of bread in the little shop. Oh, for but a crust! for but one mouthful
to allay the pang of famine! Instinctively I turned my face again to
the village; I found the shop again, and I went in; and though others
were there besides the woman I ventured the request—“Would she give me
a roll for this handkerchief?”</p>

<p>She looked at me with evident suspicion: “Nay, she never sold stuff i’
that way.”</p>

<p>Almost desperate, I asked for half a cake; she again refused. “How
could she tell where I had got the handkerchief?” she said.</p>

<p>“Would she take my gloves?”</p>

<p>“No! what could she do with them?”</p>

<p>Reader, it is not pleasant to dwell on these details. Some say there is
enjoyment in looking back to painful experience past; but at this day I
can scarcely bear to review the times to which I allude: the moral
degradation, blent with the physical suffering, form too distressing a
recollec
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tion ever to be willingly dwelt on. I blamed none of those who
repulsed me. I felt it was what was to be expected, and what could not
be helped: an ordinary beggar is frequently an object of suspicion; a
well-dressed beggar inevitably so. To be sure, what I begged was
employment; but whose business was it to provide me with employment?
Not, certainly, that of persons who saw me then for the first time, and
who knew nothing about my character. And as to the woman who would not
take my handkerchief in exchange for her bread, why, she was right, if
the offer appeared to her sinister or the exchange unprofitable. Let me
condense now. I am sick of the subject.</p>

<p>A little before dark I passed a farm-house, at the open door of which
the farmer was sitting, eating his supper of bread and cheese. I
stopped and said—</p>

<p>“Will you give me a piece of bread? for I am very hungry.” He cast on
me a glance of surprise; but without answering, he cut a thick slice
from his loaf, and gave it to me. I imagine he did not think I was a
beggar, but only an eccentric sort of lady, who had taken a fancy to
his brown loaf. As soon as I was out of sight of his house, I sat down
and ate it.</p>

<p>I could not hope to get a lodging under a roof, and sought it in the
wood I have before alluded to. But my night was wretched, my rest
broken:
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the ground was damp, the air cold: besides, intruders passed
near me more than once, and I had again and again to change my
quarters: no sense of safety or tranquillity befriended me. Towards
morning it rained; the whole of the following day was wet. Do not ask
me, reader, to give a minute account of that day; as before, I sought
work; as before, I was repulsed; as before, I starved; but once did
food pass my lips. At the door of a cottage I saw a little girl about
to throw a mess of cold porridge into a pig trough. “Will you give me
that?” I asked.</p>


<p>“Will you give me that?” I asked.</p>

<p>She stared at me. “Mother!” she exclaimed, “there is a woman wants me
to give her these porridge.”</p>

<p>“Well lass,” replied a voice within, “give it her if she’s a beggar. T’
pig doesn’t want it.”</p>

<p>The girl emptied the stiffened mould into my hand, and I devoured it
ravenously.</p>

<p>As the wet twilight deepened, I stopped in a solitary bridle-path,
which I had been pursuing an hour or more.</p>

<p>“My strength is quite failing me,” I said in a soliloquy. “I feel I
cannot go much farther. Shall I be an outcast again this night? While
the rain descends so, must I lay my head on the cold, drenched ground?
I fear I cannot do otherwise: for who will receive me? But it will be
very dreadful, with this feeling of hunger, faintness, chill, and this
sense of desolation—this
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total prostration of hope. In all likelihood,
though, I should die before morning. And why cannot I reconcile myself
to the prospect of death? Why do I struggle to retain a valueless life?
Because I know, or believe, Mr. Rochester is living: and then, to die
of want and cold is a fate to which nature cannot submit passively. Oh,
Providence! sustain me a little longer! Aid!—direct me!”</p>

<p>My glazed eye wandered over the dim and misty landscape. I saw I had
strayed far from the village: it was quite out of sight. The very
cultivation surrounding it had disappeared. I had, by cross-ways and
by-paths, once more drawn near the tract of moorland; and now, only a
few fields, almost as wild and unproductive as the heath from which
they were scarcely reclaimed, lay between me and the dusky hill.</p>

<p>“Well, I would rather die yonder than in a street or on a frequented
road,” I reflected. “And far better that crows and ravens—if any ravens
there be in these regions—should pick my flesh from my bones, than that
they should be prisoned in a workhouse coffin and moulder in a pauper’s
grave.”</p>

<p>To the hill, then, I turned. I reached it. It remained now only to find
a hollow where I could lie down, and feel at least hidden, if not
secure. But all the surface of the waste looked level. It showed no
variation but of tint: green,
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where rush and moss overgrew the marshes;
black, where the dry soil bore only heath. Dark as it was getting, I
could still see these changes, though but as mere alternations of light
and shade; for colour had faded with the daylight.</p>

<p>My eye still roved over the sullen swell and along the moor-edge,
vanishing amidst the wildest scenery, when at one dim point, far in
among the marshes and the ridges, a light sprang up. “That is an <hi rend="italic">ignis fatuus</hi>,” 
was my first thought; and I expected it would soon vanish. It
burnt on, however, quite steadily, neither receding nor advancing. “Is
it, then, a bonfire just kindled?” I questioned. I watched to see
whether it would spread: but no; as it did not diminish, so it did not
enlarge. “It may be a candle in a house,” I then conjectured; “but if
so, I can never reach it. It is much too far away: and were it within a
yard of me, what would it avail? I should but knock at the door to have
it shut in my face.”</p>

<p>And I sank down where I stood, and hid my face against the ground. I
lay still a while: the night-wind swept over the hill and over me, and
died moaning in the distance; the rain fell fast, wetting me afresh to
the skin. Could I but have stiffened to the still frost—the friendly
numbness of death—it might have pelted on; I should not have felt it;
but my yet living flesh shuddered at its chilling influence. I rose ere
long.</p>
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<p>The light was yet there, shining dim but constant through the rain. I
tried to walk again: I dragged my exhausted limbs slowly towards it. It
led me aslant over the hill, through a wide bog, which would have been
impassable in winter, and was splashy and shaking even now, in the
height of summer. Here I fell twice; but as often I rose and rallied my
faculties. This light was my forlorn hope: I must gain it.</p>

<p>Having crossed the marsh, I saw a trace of white over the moor. I
approached it; it was a road or a track: it led straight up to the
light, which now beamed from a sort of knoll, amidst a clump of
trees—firs, apparently, from what I could distinguish of the character
of their forms and foliage through the gloom. My star vanished as I
drew near: some obstacle had intervened between me and it. I put out my
hand to feel the dark mass before me: I discriminated the rough stones
of a low wall—above it, something like palisades, and within, a high
and prickly hedge. I groped on. Again a whitish object gleamed before
me: it was a gate—a wicket; it moved on its hinges as I touched it. On
each side stood a sable bush—holly or yew.</p>

<p>Entering the gate and passing the shrubs, the silhouette of a house
rose to view, black, low, and rather long; but the guiding light shone
nowhere. All was obscurity. Were the inmates retired to rest? I feared
it must be so. In seeking the door, I turned
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an angle: there shot out
the friendly gleam again, from the lozenged panes of a very small
latticed window, within a foot of the ground, made still smaller by the
growth of ivy or some other creeping plant, whose leaves clustered
thick over the portion of the house wall in which it was set. The
aperture was so screened and narrow, that curtain or shutter had been
deemed unnecessary; and when I stooped down and put aside the spray of
foliage shooting over it, I could see all within. I could see clearly a
room with a sanded floor, clean scoured; a dresser of walnut, with
pewter plates ranged in rows, reflecting the redness and radiance of a
glowing peat-fire. I could see a clock, a white deal table, some
chairs. The candle, whose ray had been my beacon, burnt on the table;
and by its light an elderly woman, somewhat rough-looking, but
scrupulously clean, like all about her, was knitting a stocking.</p>

<p>I noticed these objects cursorily only—in them there was nothing
extraordinary. A group of more interest appeared near the hearth,
sitting still amidst the rosy peace and warmth suffusing it. Two young,
graceful women—ladies in every point—sat, one in a low rocking-chair,
the other on a lower stool; both wore deep mourning of crape and
bombazeen, which sombre garb singularly set off very fair necks and
faces: a large old pointer dog rested its massive head on the knee of
one girl—in the lap of the other was cushioned a black cat.</p>
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<p>A strange place was this humble kitchen for such occupants! Who were
they? They could not be the daughters of the elderly person at the
table; for she looked like a rustic, and they were all delicacy and
cultivation. I had nowhere seen such faces as theirs: and yet, as I
gazed on them, I seemed intimate with every lineament. I cannot call
them handsome—they were too pale and grave for the word: as they each
bent over a book, they looked thoughtful almost to severity. A stand
between them supported a second candle and two great volumes, to which
they frequently referred, comparing them, seemingly, with the smaller
books they held in their hands, like people consulting a dictionary to
aid them in the task of translation. This scene was as silent as if all
the figures had been shadows and the firelit apartment a picture: so
hushed was it, I could hear the cinders fall from the grate, the clock
tick in its obscure corner; and I even fancied I could distinguish the
click-click of the woman’s knitting-needles. When, therefore, a voice
broke the strange stillness at last, it was audible enough to me.</p>

<p>“Listen, Diana,” said one of the absorbed students; “Franz and old
Daniel are together in the night-time, and Franz is telling a dream
from which he has awakened in terror—listen!” And in a low voice she
read something, of which not one word was intelligible to me; for it
was in an unknown tongue—neither French nor Latin.
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Whether it were
Greek or German I could not tell.</p>

<p>“That is strong,” she said, when she had finished: “I relish it.” The
other girl, who had lifted her head to listen to her sister, repeated,
while she gazed at the fire, a line of what had been read. At a later
day, I knew the language and the book; therefore, I will here quote the
line: though, when I first heard it, it was only like a stroke on
sounding brass to me—conveying no meaning:—</p>

<p>“‘Da trat hervor Einer, anzusehen wie die Sternen Nacht.’ Good! good!”
she exclaimed, while her dark and deep eye sparkled. “There you have a
dim and mighty archangel fitly set before you! The line is worth a
hundred pages of fustian. ‘Ich wäge die Gedanken in der Schale meines
Zornes und die Werke mit dem Gewichte meines Grimms.’ I like it!”</p>

<p>Both were again silent.</p>

<p>“Is there ony country where they talk i’ that way?” asked the old
woman, looking up from her knitting.</p>

<p>“Yes, Hannah—a far larger country than England, where they talk in no
other way.”</p>

<p>“Well, for sure case, I knawn’t how they can understand t’ one t’other:
and if either o’ ye went there, ye could tell what they said, I guess?”</p>

<p>“We could probably tell something of what they said, but not all—for we
are not as clever as you think us, Hannah. We don’t speak German,
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and
we cannot read it without a dictionary to help us.”</p>

<p>“And what good does it do you?”</p>

<p>“We mean to teach it some time—or at least the elements, as they say;
and then we shall get more money than we do now.”</p>

<p>“Varry like: but give ower studying; ye’ve done enough for to-night.”</p>

<p>“I think we have: at least I’m tired. Mary, are you?”</p>

<p>“Mortally: after all, it’s tough work fagging away at a language with
no master but a lexicon.”</p>

<p>“It is, especially such a language as this crabbed but glorious
Deutsch. I wonder when St. John will come home.”</p>

<p>“Surely he will not be long now: it is just ten (looking at a little
gold watch she drew from her girdle). It rains fast, Hannah: will you
have the goodness to look at the fire in the parlour?”</p>

<p>The woman rose: she opened a door, through which I dimly saw a passage:
soon I heard her stir a fire in an inner room; she presently came back.</p>

<p>“Ah, childer!” said she, “it fair troubles me to go into yond’ room
now: it looks so lonesome wi’ the chair empty and set back in a
corner.”</p>

<p>She wiped her eyes with her apron: the two girls, grave before, looked
sad now.</p>

<p>“But he is in a better place,” continued Hannah: “we shouldn’t wish him
here again.
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And then, nobody need to have a quieter death nor he had.”</p>

<p>“You say he never mentioned us?” inquired one of the ladies.</p>

<p>“He hadn’t time, bairn: he was gone in a minute, was your father. He
had been a bit ailing like the day before, but naught to signify; and
when Mr. St. John asked if he would like either o’ ye to be sent for,
he fair laughed at him. He began again with a bit of a heaviness in his
head the next day—that is, a fortnight sin’—and he went to sleep and
niver wakened: he wor a’most stark when your brother went into t’
chamber and fand him. Ah, childer! that’s t’ last o’ t’ old stock—for
ye and Mr. St. John is like of different soart to them ’at’s gone; for
all your mother wor mich i’ your way, and a’most as book-learned. She
wor the pictur’ o’ ye, Mary: Diana is more like your father.”</p>

<p>I thought them so similar I could not tell where the old servant (for
such I now concluded her to be) saw the difference. Both were fair
complexioned and slenderly made; both possessed faces full of
distinction and intelligence. One, to be sure, had hair a shade darker
than the other, and there was a difference in their style of wearing
it; Mary’s pale brown locks were parted and braided smooth: Diana’s
duskier tresses covered her neck with thick curls. The clock struck
ten.</p>
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<p>“Ye’ll want your supper, I am sure,” observed Hannah; “and so will Mr.
St. John when he comes in.”</p>

<p>And she proceeded to prepare the meal. The ladies rose; they seemed
about to withdraw to the parlour. Till this moment, I had been so
intent on watching them, their appearance and conversation had excited
in me so keen an interest, I had half-forgotten my own wretched
position: now it recurred to me. More desolate, more desperate than
ever, it seemed from contrast. And how impossible did it appear to
touch the inmates of this house with concern on my behalf; to make them
believe in the truth of my wants and woes—to induce them to vouchsafe a
rest for my wanderings! As I groped out the door, and knocked at it
hesitatingly, I felt that last idea to be a mere chimera. Hannah
opened.</p>

<p>“What do you want?” she inquired, in a voice of surprise, as she
surveyed me by the light of the candle she held.</p>

<p>“May I speak to your mistresses?” I said.</p>

<p>“You had better tell me what you have to say to them. Where do you come
from?”</p>

<p>“I am a stranger.”</p>

<p>“What is your business here at this hour?”</p>

<p>“I want a night’s shelter in an out-house or anywhere, and a morsel of
bread to eat.”</p>

<p>Distrust, the very feeling I dreaded, appeared in Hannah’s face. “I’ll
give you a piece of
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bread,” she said, after a pause; “but we can’t take
in a vagrant to lodge. It isn’t likely.”</p>

<p>“Do let me speak to your mistresses.”</p>

<p>“No, not I. What can they do for you? You should not be roving about
now; it looks very ill.”</p>

<p>“But where shall I go if you drive me away? What shall I do?”</p>

<p>“Oh, I’ll warrant you know where to go and what to do. Mind you don’t
do wrong, that’s all. Here is a penny; now go—”</p>

<p>“A penny cannot feed me, and I have no strength to go farther. Don’t
shut the door:—oh, don’t, for God’s sake!”</p>

<p>“I must; the rain is driving in—”</p>

<p>“Tell the young ladies. Let me see them—”</p>

<p>“Indeed, I will not. You are not what you ought to be, or you wouldn’t
make such a noise. Move off.”</p>

<p>“But I must die if I am turned away.”</p>

<p>“Not you. I’m fear’d you have some ill plans agate, that bring you
about folk’s houses at this time o’ night. If you’ve any
followers—housebreakers or such like—anywhere near, you may tell them
we are not by ourselves in the house; we have a gentleman, and dogs,
and guns.” Here the honest but inflexible servant clapped the door to
and bolted it within.</p>

<p>This was the climax. A pang of exquisite suffering—a throe of true
despair—rent and heaved
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my heart. Worn out, indeed, I was; not another
step could I stir. I sank on the wet doorstep: I groaned—I wrung my
hands—I wept in utter anguish. Oh, this spectre of death! Oh, this last
hour, approaching in such horror! Alas, this isolation—this banishment
from my kind! Not only the anchor of hope, but the footing of fortitude
was gone—at least for a moment; but the last I soon endeavoured to
regain.</p>

<p>“I can but die,” I said, “and I believe in God. Let me try to wait His
will in silence.”</p>

<p>These words I not only thought, but uttered; and thrusting back all my
misery into my heart, I made an effort to compel it to remain
there—dumb and still.</p>

<p>“All men must die,” said a voice quite close at hand; “but all are not
condemned to meet a lingering and premature doom, such as yours would
be if you perished here of want.”</p>

<p>“Who or what speaks?” I asked, terrified at the unexpected sound, and
incapable now of deriving from any occurrence a hope of aid. A form was
near—what form, the pitch-dark night and my enfeebled vision prevented
me from distinguishing. With a loud long knock, the new-comer appealed
to the door.</p>

<p>“Is it you, Mr. St. John?” cried Hannah.</p>

<p>“Yes—yes; open quickly.”</p>

<p>“Well, how wet and cold you must be, such a wild night as it is! Come
in—your sisters are
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quite uneasy about you, and I believe there are bad
folks about. There has been a beggar-woman—I declare she is not gone
yet!—laid down there. Get up! for shame! Move off, I say!”</p>

<p>“Hush, Hannah! I have a word to say to the woman. You have done your
duty in excluding, now let me do mine in admitting her. I was near, and
listened to both you and her. I think this is a peculiar case—I must at
least examine into it. Young woman, rise, and pass before me into the
house.”</p>

<p>With difficulty I obeyed him. Presently I stood within that clean,
bright kitchen—on the very hearth—trembling, sickening; conscious of an
aspect in the last degree ghastly, wild, and weather-beaten. The two
ladies, their brother, Mr. St. John, the old servant, were all gazing
at me.</p>

<p>“St. John, who is it?” I heard one ask.</p>

<p>“I cannot tell: I found her at the door,” was the reply.</p>

<p>“She does look white,” said Hannah.</p>

<p>“As white as clay or death,” was responded. “She will fall: let her
sit.”</p>

<p>And indeed my head swam: I dropped, but a chair received me. I still
possessed my senses, though just now I could not speak.</p>

<p>“Perhaps a little water would restore her. Hannah, fetch some. But she
is worn to nothing. How very thin, and how very bloodless!”</p>

<p>“A mere spectre!”</p>
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<p>“Is she ill, or only famished?”</p>

<p>“Famished, I think. Hannah, is that milk? Give it me, and a piece of
bread.”</p>

<p>Diana (I knew her by the long curls which I saw drooping between me and
the fire as she bent over me) broke some bread, dipped it in milk, and
put it to my lips. Her face was near mine: I saw there was pity in it,
and I felt sympathy in her hurried breathing. In her simple words, too,
the same balm-like emotion spoke: “Try to eat.”</p>

<p>“Yes—try,” repeated Mary gently; and Mary’s hand removed my sodden
bonnet and lifted my head. I tasted what they offered me: feebly at
first, eagerly soon.</p>

<p>“Not too much at first—restrain her,” said the brother; “she has had
enough.” And he withdrew the cup of milk and the plate of bread.</p>

<p>“A little more, St. John—look at the avidity in her eyes.”</p>

<p>“No more at present, sister. Try if she can speak now—ask her her
name.”</p>

<p>I felt I could speak, and I answered—“My name is Jane Elliott.” Anxious
as ever to avoid discovery, I had before resolved to assume an <hi rend="italic">alias</hi>.</p>

<p>“And where do you live? Where are your friends?”</p>

<p>I was silent.</p>

<p>“Can we send for any one you know?”</p>

<p>I shook my head.</p>

<p>“What account can you give of yourself?”</p>
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<p>Somehow, now that I had once crossed the threshold of this house, and
once was brought face to face with its owners, I felt no longer
outcast, vagrant, and disowned by the wide world. I dared to put off
the mendicant—to resume my natural manner and character. I began once
more to know myself; and when Mr. St. John demanded an account—which at
present I was far too weak to render—I said after a brief pause—</p>

<p>“Sir, I can give you no details to-night.”</p>

<p>“But what, then,” said he, “do you expect me to do for you?”</p>

<p>“Nothing,” I replied. My strength sufficed for but short answers. Diana
took the word—</p>

<p>“Do you mean,” she asked, “that we have now given you what aid you
require? and that we may dismiss you to the moor and the rainy night?”</p>

<p>I looked at her. She had, I thought, a remarkable countenance, instinct
both with power and goodness. I took sudden courage. Answering her
compassionate gaze with a smile, I said—“I will trust you. If I were a
masterless and stray dog, I know that you would not turn me from your
hearth to-night: as it is, I really have no fear. Do with me and for me
as you like; but excuse me from much discourse—my breath is short—I
feel a spasm when I speak.” All three surveyed me, and all three were
silent.</p>

<p>“Hannah,” said Mr. St. John, at last, “let her sit there at present,
and ask her no questions; in
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ten minutes more, give her the remainder
of that milk and bread. Mary and Diana, let us go into the parlour and
talk the matter over.”</p>

<p>They withdrew. Very soon one of the ladies returned—I could not tell
which. A kind of pleasant stupor was stealing over me as I sat by the
genial fire. In an undertone she gave some directions to Hannah. Ere
long, with the servant’s aid, I contrived to mount a staircase; my
dripping clothes were removed; soon a warm, dry bed received me. I
thanked God—experienced amidst unutterable exhaustion a glow of
grateful joy—and slept.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXIX</head>

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<p>The recollection of about three days and nights succeeding this is very
dim in my mind. I can recall some sensations felt in that interval; but
few thoughts framed, and no actions performed. I knew I was in a small
room and in a narrow bed. To that bed I seemed to have grown; I lay on
it motionless as a stone; and to have torn me from it would have been
almost to kill me. I took no note of the lapse of time—of the change
from morning to noon, from noon to evening. I observed when any one
entered or left the apartment: I could even tell who they were; I could
understand what was said when the speaker stood near to me; but I could
not answer; to open my lips or move my limbs was equally impossible.
Hannah, the servant, was my most frequent visitor. Her coming disturbed
me. I had a feeling that she wished me away: that she did not
understand me or my circumstances;
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that she was prejudiced against me.
Diana and Mary appeared in the chamber once or twice a day. They would
whisper sentences of this sort at my bedside—</p>

<p>“It is very well we took her in.”</p>

<p>“Yes; she would certainly have been found dead at the door in the
morning had she been left out all night. I wonder what she has gone
through?”</p>

<p>“Strange hardships, I imagine—poor, emaciated, pallid wanderer!”</p>

<p>“She is not an uneducated person, I should think, by her manner of
speaking; her accent was quite pure; and the clothes she took off,
though splashed and wet, were little worn and fine.”</p>

<p>“She has a peculiar face; fleshless and haggard as it is, I rather like
it; and when in good health and animated, I can fancy her physiognomy
would be agreeable.”</p>

<p>Never once in their dialogues did I hear a syllable of regret at the
hospitality they had extended to me, or of suspicion of, or aversion
to, myself. I was comforted.</p>

<p>Mr. St. John came but once: he looked at me, and said my state of
lethargy was the result of reaction from excessive and protracted
fatigue. He pronounced it needless to send for a doctor: nature, he was
sure, would manage best, left to
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herself. He said every nerve had been
overstrained in some way, and the whole system must sleep torpid a
while. There was no disease. He imagined my recovery would be rapid
enough when once commenced. These opinions he delivered in a few words,
in a quiet, low voice; and added, after a pause, in the tone of a man
little accustomed to expansive comment, “Rather an unusual physiognomy;
certainly, not indicative of vulgarity or degradation.”</p>

<p>“Far otherwise,” responded Diana. “To speak truth, St. John, my heart
rather warms to the poor little soul. I wish we may be able to benefit
her permanently.”</p>

<p>“That is hardly likely,” was the reply. “You will find she is some
young lady who has had a misunderstanding with her friends, and has
probably injudiciously left them. We may, perhaps, succeed in restoring
her to them, if she is not obstinate: but I trace lines of force in her
face which make me sceptical of her tractability.” He stood considering
me some minutes; then added, “She looks sensible, but not at all
handsome.”</p>

<p>“She is so ill, St. John.”</p>

<p>“Ill or well, she would always be plain. The grace and harmony of
beauty are quite wanting in those features.”</p>

<p>On the third day I was better; on the fourth,
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    I could speak, move, rise
in bed, and turn. Hannah had brought me some gruel and dry toast,
about, as I supposed, the dinner-hour. I had eaten with relish: the
food was good—void of the feverish flavour which had hitherto poisoned
what I had swallowed. When she left me, I felt comparatively strong and
revived: ere long satiety of repose and desire for action stirred me. I
wished to rise; but what could I put on? Only my damp and bemired
apparel; in which I had slept on the ground and fallen in the marsh. I
felt ashamed to appear before my benefactors so clad. I was spared the
humiliation.</p>

<p>On a chair by the bedside were all my own things, clean and dry. My
black silk frock hung against the wall. The traces of the bog were
removed from it; the creases left by the wet smoothed out: it was quite
decent. My very shoes and stockings were purified and rendered
presentable. There were the means of washing in the room, and a comb
and brush to smooth my hair. After a weary process, and resting every
five minutes, I succeeded in dressing myself. My clothes hung loose on
me; for I was much wasted, but I covered deficiencies with a shawl, and
once more, clean and respectable looking—no speck of the dirt, no trace
of the disorder I so hated, and which seemed so to degrade me, left—I
crept
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down a stone staircase with the aid of the banisters, to a narrow
low passage, and found my way presently to the kitchen.</p>

<p>It was full of the fragrance of new bread and the warmth of a generous
fire. Hannah was baking. Prejudices, it is well known, are most
difficult to eradicate from the heart whose soil has never been
loosened or fertilised by education: they grow there, firm as weeds
among stones. Hannah had been cold and stiff, indeed, at the first:
latterly she had begun to relent a little; and when she saw me come in
tidy and well-dressed, she even smiled.</p>

<p>“What, you have got up!” she said. “You are better, then. You may sit
you down in my chair on the hearthstone, if you will.”</p>

<p>She pointed to the rocking-chair: I took it. She bustled about,
examining me every now and then with the corner of her eye. Turning to
me, as she took some loaves from the oven, she asked bluntly—</p>

<p>“Did you ever go a-begging afore you came here?”</p>

<p>I was indignant for a moment; but remembering that anger was out of the
question, and that I had indeed appeared as a beggar to her, I answered
quietly, but still not without a certain marked firmness—</p>
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<p>“You are mistaken in supposing me a beggar. I am no beggar; any more
than yourself or your young ladies.”</p>

<p>After a pause she said, “I dunnut understand that: you’ve like no
house, nor no brass, I guess?”</p>

<p>“The want of house or brass (by which I suppose you mean money) does
not make a beggar in your sense of the word.”</p>

<p>“Are you book-learned?” she inquired presently.</p>

<p>“Yes, very.”</p>

<p>“But you’ve never been to a boarding-school?”</p>

<p>“I was at a boarding-school eight years.”</p>

<p>She opened her eyes wide. “Whatever cannot ye keep yourself for, then?”</p>

<p>“I have kept myself; and, I trust, shall keep myself again. What are
you going to do with these gooseberries?” I inquired, as she brought
out a basket of the fruit.</p>

<p>“Mak’ ’em into pies.”</p>

<p>“Give them to me and I’ll pick them.”</p>

<p>“Nay; I dunnut want ye to do nought.”</p>

<p>“But I must do something. Let me have them.”</p>

<p>She consented; and she even brought me a clean towel to spread over my
dress, “lest,” as she said, “I should mucky it.”</p>
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<p>“Ye’ve not been used to sarvant’s wark, I see by your hands,” she
remarked. “Happen ye’ve been a dressmaker?”</p>

<p>“No, you are wrong. And now, never mind what I have been: don’t trouble
your head further about me; but tell me the name of the house where we
are.”</p>

<p>“Some calls it Marsh End, and some calls it Moor House.”</p>

<p>“And the gentleman who lives here is called Mr. St. John?”</p>

<p>“Nay; he doesn’t live here: he is only staying a while. When he is at
home, he is in his own parish at Morton.”</p>

<p>“That village a few miles off?</p>

<p>“Aye.”</p>

<p>“And what is he?”</p>

<p>“He is a parson.”</p>

<p>I remembered the answer of the old housekeeper at the parsonage, when I
had asked to see the clergyman. “This, then, was his father’s
residence?”</p>

<p>“Aye; old Mr. Rivers lived here, and his father, and grandfather, and
gurt (great) grandfather afore him.”</p>

<p>“The name, then, of that gentleman, is Mr. St. John Rivers?”</p>

<p>“Aye; St. John is like his kirstened name.”</p>
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<p>“And his sisters are called Diana and Mary Rivers?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Their father is dead?”</p>

<p>“Dead three weeks sin’ of a stroke.”</p>

<p>“They have no mother?”</p>

<p>“The mistress has been dead this mony a year.”</p>

<p>“Have you lived with the family long?”</p>

<p>“I’ve lived here thirty year. I nursed them all three.”</p>

<p>“That proves you must have been an honest and faithful servant. I will
say so much for you, though you have had the incivility to call me a
beggar.”</p>

<p>She again regarded me with a surprised stare. “I believe,” she said, “I
was quite mista’en in my thoughts of you: but there is so mony cheats
goes about, you mun forgie me.”</p>

<p>“And though,” I continued, rather severely, “you wished to turn me from
the door, on a night when you should not have shut out a dog.”</p>

<p>“Well, it was hard: but what can a body do? I thought more o’ th’
childer nor of mysel: poor things! They’ve like nobody to tak’ care on
’em but me. I’m like to look sharpish.”</p>

<p>I maintained a grave silence for some minutes.</p>
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<p>“You munnut think too hardly of me,” she again remarked.</p>

<p>“But I do think hardly of you,” I said; “and I’ll tell you why—not so
much because you refused to give me shelter, or regarded me as an
impostor, as because you just now made it a species of reproach that I
had no ‘brass’ and no house. Some of the best people that ever lived
have been as destitute as I am; and if you are a Christian, you ought
not to consider poverty a crime.”</p>

<p>“No more I ought,” said she: “Mr. St. John tells me so too; and I see I
wor wrang—but I’ve clear a different notion on you now to what I had.
You look a raight down dacent little crater.”</p>

<p>“That will do—I forgive you now. Shake hands.”</p>

<p>She put her floury and horny hand into mine; another and heartier smile
illumined her rough face, and from that moment we were friends.</p>

<p>Hannah was evidently fond of talking. While I picked the fruit, and she
made the paste for the pies, she proceeded to give me sundry details
about her deceased master and mistress, and “the childer,” as she
called the young people.</p>

<p>Old Mr. Rivers, she said, was a plain man enough, but a gentleman, and
of as ancient a family as could be found. Marsh End had belonged to the
Rivers ever since it was a house: and it was,
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she affirmed, “aboon two
hundred year old—for all it looked but a small, humble place, naught to
compare wi’ Mr. Oliver’s grand hall down i’ Morton Vale. But she could
remember Bill Oliver’s father a journeyman needlemaker; and th’ Rivers
wor gentry i’ th’ owd days o’ th’ Henrys, as onybody might see by
looking into th’ registers i’ Morton Church vestry.” Still, she
allowed, “the owd maister was like other folk—naught mich out o’ t’
common way: stark mad o’ shooting, and farming, and sich like.” The
mistress was different. She was a great reader, and studied a deal; and
the “bairns” had taken after her. There was nothing like them in these
parts, nor ever had been; they had liked learning, all three, almost
from the time they could speak; and they had always been “of a mak’ of
their own.” Mr. St. John, when he grew up, would go to college and be a
parson; and the girls, as soon as they left school, would seek places
as governesses: for they had told her their father had some years ago
lost a great deal of money by a man he had trusted turning bankrupt;
and as he was now not rich enough to give them fortunes, they must
provide for themselves. They had lived very little at home for a long
while, and were only come now to stay a few weeks on account of their
father’s death; but they did so like Marsh End and Morton, and
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all
these moors and hills about. They had been in London, and many other
grand towns; but they always said there was no place like home; and
then they were so agreeable with each other—never fell out nor
“threaped.” She did not know where there was such a family for being
united.</p>

<p>Having finished my task of gooseberry picking, I asked where the two
ladies and their brother were now.</p>

<p>“Gone over to Morton for a walk; but they would be back in half-an-hour
to tea.”</p>

<p>They returned within the time Hannah had allotted them: they entered by
the kitchen door. Mr. St. John, when he saw me, merely bowed and passed
through; the two ladies stopped: Mary, in a few words, kindly and
calmly expressed the pleasure she felt in seeing me well enough to be
able to come down; Diana took my hand: she shook her head at me.</p>

<p>“You should have waited for my leave to descend,” she said. “You still
look very pale—and so thin! Poor child!—poor girl!”</p>

<p>Diana had a voice toned, to my ear, like the cooing of a dove. She
possessed eyes whose gaze I delighted to encounter. Her whole face
seemed to me full of charm. Mary’s countenance was equally
intelligent—her features equally pretty; but her expression was more
reserved, and her
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manners, though gentle, more distant. Diana looked
and spoke with a certain authority: she had a will, evidently. It was
my nature to feel pleasure in yielding to an authority supported like
hers, and to bend, where my conscience and self-respect permitted, to
an active will.</p>

<p>“And what business have you here?” she continued. “It is not your
place. Mary and I sit in the kitchen sometimes, because at home we like
to be free, even to license—but you are a visitor, and must go into the
parlour.”</p>

<p>“I am very well here.”</p>

<p>“Not at all, with Hannah bustling about and covering you with flour.”</p>

<p>“Besides, the fire is too hot for you,” interposed Mary.</p>

<p>“To be sure,” added her sister. “Come, you must be obedient.” And still
holding my hand she made me rise, and led me into the inner room.</p>

<p>“Sit there,” she said, placing me on the sofa, “while we take our
things off and get the tea ready; it is another privilege we exercise
in our little moorland home—to prepare our own meals when we are so
inclined, or when Hannah is baking, brewing, washing, or ironing.”</p>

<p>She closed the door, leaving me solus with Mr. St. John, who sat
opposite, a book or newspaper
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in his hand. I examined, first, the
parlour, and then its occupant.</p>

<p>The parlour was rather a small room, very plainly furnished, yet
comfortable, because clean and neat. The old-fashioned chairs were very
bright, and the walnut-wood table was like a looking-glass. A few
strange, antique portraits of the men and women of other days decorated
the stained walls; a cupboard with glass doors contained some books and
an ancient set of china. There was no superfluous ornament in the
room—not one modern piece of furniture, save a brace of workboxes and a
lady’s desk in rosewood, which stood on a side-table:
everything—including the carpet and curtains—looked at once well worn
and well saved.</p>

<p>Mr. St. John—sitting as still as one of the dusty pictures on the
walls, keeping his eyes fixed on the page he perused, and his lips
mutely sealed—was easy enough to examine. Had he been a statue instead
of a man, he could not have been easier. He was young—perhaps from
twenty-eight to thirty—tall, slender; his face riveted the eye; it was
like a Greek face, very pure in outline: quite a straight, classic
nose; quite an Athenian mouth and chin. It is seldom, indeed, an
English face comes so near the antique models as did his. He might well
be a little shocked at the
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irregularity of my lineaments, his own being
so harmonious. His eyes were large and blue, with brown lashes; his
high forehead, colourless as ivory, was partially streaked over by
careless locks of fair hair.</p>

<p>This is a gentle delineation, is it not, reader? Yet he whom it
describes scarcely impressed one with the idea of a gentle, a yielding,
an impressible, or even of a placid nature. Quiescent as he now sat,
there was something about his nostril, his mouth, his brow, which, to
my perceptions, indicated elements within either restless, or hard, or
eager. He did not speak to me one word, nor even direct to me one
glance, till his sisters returned. Diana, as she passed in and out, in
the course of preparing tea, brought me a little cake, baked on the top
of the oven.</p>

<p>“Eat that now,” she said: “you must be hungry. Hannah says you have had
nothing but some gruel since breakfast.”</p>

<p>I did not refuse it, for my appetite was awakened and keen. Mr. Rivers
now closed his book, approached the table, and, as he took a seat,
fixed his blue pictorial-looking eyes full on me. There was an
unceremonious directness, a searching, decided steadfastness in his
gaze now, which told that intention, and not diffidence, had hitherto
kept it averted from the stranger.</p>
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<p>“You are very hungry,” he said.</p>

<p>“I am, sir.” It is my way—it always was my way, by instinct—ever to
meet the brief with brevity, the direct with plainness.</p>

<p>“It is well for you that a low fever has forced you to abstain for the
last three days: there would have been danger in yielding to the
cravings of your appetite at first. Now you may eat, though still not
immoderately.”</p>

<p>“I trust I shall not eat long at your expense, sir,” was my very
clumsily-contrived, unpolished answer.</p>

<p>“No,” he said coolly: “when you have indicated to us the residence of
your friends, we can write to them, and you may be restored to home.”</p>

<p>“That, I must plainly tell you, is out of my power to do; being
absolutely without home and friends.”</p>

<p>The three looked at me, but not distrustfully; I felt there was no
suspicion in their glances: there was more of curiosity. I speak
particularly of the young ladies. St. John’s eyes, though clear enough
in a literal sense, in a figurative one were difficult to fathom. He
seemed to use them rather as instruments to search other people’s
thoughts, than as agents to reveal his own: the which combination of
keenness and reserve was
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considerably more calculated to embarrass than
to encourage.</p>

<p>“Do you mean to say,” he asked, “that you are completely isolated from
every connection?”</p>

<p>“I do. Not a tie links me to any living thing: not a claim do I possess
to admittance under any roof in England.”</p>

<p>“A most singular position at your age!”</p>

<p>Here I saw his glance directed to my hands, which were folded on the
table before me. I wondered what he sought there: his words soon
explained the quest.</p>

<p>“You have never been married? You are a spinster?”</p>

<p>Diana laughed. “Why, she can’t be above seventeen or eighteen years
old, St. John,” said she.</p>

<p>"I am near nineteen: but I am not married. No.”</p>

<p>I felt a burning glow mount to my face; for bitter and agitating
recollections were awakened by the allusion to marriage. They all saw
the embarrassment and the emotion. Diana and Mary relieved me by
turning their eyes elsewhere than to my crimsoned visage; but the
colder and sterner brother continued to gaze, till the trouble he had
excited forced out tears as well as colour.</p>
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<p>“Where did you last reside?” he now asked.</p>

<p>“You are too inquisitive, St. John,” murmured Mary in a low voice; but
he leaned over the table and required an answer by a second firm and
piercing look.</p>

<p>“The name of the place where, and of the person with whom I lived, is
my secret,” I replied concisely.</p>

<p>“Which, if you like, you have, in my opinion, a right to keep, both
from St. John and every other questioner,” remarked Diana.</p>

<p>“Yet if I know nothing about you or your history, I cannot help you,”
he said. “And you need help, do you not?”</p>

<p>“I need it, and I seek it so far, sir, that some true philanthropist
will put me in the way of getting work which I can do, and the
remuneration for which will keep me, if but in the barest necessaries
of life.”</p>

<p>“I know not whether I am a true philanthropist; yet I am willing to aid
you to the utmost of my power in a purpose so honest. First, then, tell
me what you have been accustomed to do, and what you <hi rend="italic">can</hi> do.”</p>

<p>I had now swallowed my tea. I was mightily refreshed by the beverage;
as much so as a giant with wine: it gave new tone to my unstrung
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nerves, and enabled me to address this penetrating young judge
steadily.</p>

<p>“Mr. Rivers,” I said, turning to him, and looking at him, as he looked
at me, openly and without diffidence, “you and your sisters have done
me a great service—the greatest man can do his fellow-being; you have
rescued me, by your noble hospitality, from death. This benefit
conferred gives you an unlimited claim on my gratitude, and a claim, to
a certain extent, on my confidence. I will tell you as much of the
history of the wanderer you have harboured, as I can tell without
compromising my own peace of mind—my own security, moral and physical,
and that of others.</p>

<p>“I am an orphan, the daughter of a clergyman. My parents died before I
could know them. I was brought up a dependent; educated in a charitable
institution. I will even tell you the name of the establishment, where
I passed six years as a pupil, and two as a teacher—Lowood Orphan
Asylum, ——shire: you will have heard of it, Mr. Rivers?—the Rev. Robert
Brocklehurst is the treasurer.”</p>

<p>“I have heard of Mr. Brocklehurst, and I have seen the school.”</p>

<p>“I left Lowood nearly a year since to become a private governess. I
obtained a good situation, and was happy. This place I was obliged to
leave
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four days before I came here. The reason of my departure I cannot
and ought not to explain: it would be useless, dangerous, and would
sound incredible. No blame attached to me: I am as free from
culpability as any one of you three. Miserable I am, and must be for a
time; for the catastrophe which drove me from a house I had found a
paradise was of a strange and direful nature. I observed but two points
in planning my departure—speed, secrecy: to secure these, I had to
leave behind me everything I possessed except a small parcel; which, in
my hurry and trouble of mind, I forgot to take out of the coach that
brought me to Whitcross. To this neighbourhood, then, I came, quite
destitute. I slept two nights in the open air, and wandered about two
days without crossing a threshold: but twice in that space of time did
I taste food; and it was when brought by hunger, exhaustion, and
despair almost to the last gasp, that you, Mr. Rivers, forbade me to
perish of want at your door, and took me under the shelter of your
roof. I know all your sisters have done for me since—for I have not
been insensible during my seeming torpor—and I owe to their
spontaneous, genuine, genial compassion as large a debt as to your
evangelical charity.”</p>

<p>“Don’t make her talk any more now, St. John,” said Diana, as I paused;
“she is evidently not yet
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fit for excitement. Come to the sofa and sit
down now, Miss Elliott.”</p>

<p>I gave an involuntary half start at hearing the <hi rend="italic">alias</hi>: I had
forgotten my new name. Mr. Rivers, whom nothing seemed to escape,
noticed it at once.</p>

<p>“You said your name was Jane Elliott?” he observed.</p>

<p>“I did say so; and it is the name by which I think it expedient to be
called at present, but it is not my real name, and when I hear it, it
sounds strange to me.”</p>

<p>“Your real name you will not give?”</p>

<p>“No: I fear discovery above all things; and whatever disclosure would
lead to it, I avoid.”</p>

<p>“You are quite right, I am sure,” said Diana. “Now do, brother, let her
be at peace a while.”</p>

<p>But when St. John had mused a few moments he recommenced as
imperturbably and with as much acumen as ever.</p>

<p>“You would not like to be long dependent on our hospitality—you would
wish, I see, to dispense as soon as may be with my sisters’ compassion,
and, above all, with my <hi rend="italic">charity</hi> (I am quite sensible of the
distinction drawn, nor do I resent it—it is just): you desire to be
independent of us?”</p>

<p>“I do: I have already said so. Show me how to work, or how to seek
work: that is all I now ask; then let me go, if it be but to the
meanest
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cottage; but till then, allow me to stay here: I dread another
essay of the horrors of homeless destitution.”</p>

<p>“Indeed you <hi rend="italic">shall</hi> stay here,” said Diana, putting her white hand on
my head. “You <hi rend="italic">shall</hi>,” repeated Mary, in the tone of undemonstrative
sincerity which seemed natural to her.</p>

<p>“My sisters, you see, have a pleasure in keeping you,” said Mr. St.
John, “as they would have a pleasure in keeping and cherishing a
half-frozen bird some wintry wind might have driven through their
casement. <hi rend="italic">I</hi> feel more inclination to put you in the way of keeping
yourself, and shall endeavour to do so; but observe, my sphere is
narrow. I am but the incumbent of a poor country parish: my aid must be
of the humblest sort. And if you are inclined to despise the day of
small things, seek some more efficient succour than such as I can
offer.”</p>

<p>“She has already said that she is willing to do anything honest she
<hi rend="italic">can</hi> do,” answered Diana for me; “and you know, St. John, she has no
choice of helpers: she is forced to put up with such crusty people as
you.”</p>

<p>“I will be a dressmaker; I will be a plain-workwoman; I will be a
servant, a nurse-girl, if I can be no better,” I answered.</p>

<p>“Right,” said Mr. St. John, quite coolly. “If
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    such is your spirit, I
promise to aid you, in my own time and way.”</p>
                   
<p>He now resumed the book with which he had been occupied before tea. I
soon withdrew, for I had talked as much, and sat up as long, as my
present strength would permit.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXX</head>
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<p>The more I knew of the inmates of Moor House, the better I liked them.
In a few days I had so far recovered my health that I could sit up all
day, and walk out sometimes. I could join with Diana and Mary in all
their occupations; converse with them as much as they wished, and aid
them when and where they would allow me. There was a reviving pleasure
in this intercourse, of a kind now tasted by me for the first time—the
pleasure arising from perfect congeniality of tastes, sentiments, and
principles.</p>

<p>I liked to read what they liked to read: what they enjoyed, delighted
me; what they approved, I reverenced. They loved their sequestered
home. I, too, in the grey, small, antique structure, with its low roof,
its latticed casements, its mouldering walls, its avenue of aged
firs—all grown aslant under the stress of mountain winds; its garden,
dark with yew and holly—and where no flowers
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but of the hardiest
species would bloom—found a charm both potent and permanent. They clung
to the purple moors behind and around their dwelling—to the hollow vale
into which the pebbly bridle-path leading from their gate descended,
and which wound between fern-banks first, and then amongst a few of the
wildest little pasture-fields that ever bordered a wilderness of heath,
or gave sustenance to a flock of grey moorland sheep, with their little
mossy-faced lambs:—they clung to this scene, I say, with a perfect
enthusiasm of attachment. I could comprehend the feeling, and share
both its strength and truth. I saw the fascination of the locality. I
felt the consecration of its loneliness: my eye feasted on the outline
of swell and sweep—on the wild colouring communicated to ridge and dell
by moss, by heath-bell, by flower-sprinkled turf, by brilliant bracken,
and mellow granite crag. These details were just to me what they were
to them—so many pure and sweet sources of pleasure. The strong blast
and the soft breeze; the rough and the halcyon day; the hours of
sunrise and sunset; the moonlight and the clouded night, developed for
me, in these regions, the same attraction as for them—wound round my
faculties the same spell that entranced theirs.</p>

<p>Indoors we agreed equally well. They were
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    both more accomplished and
better read than I was; but with eagerness I followed in the path of
knowledge they had trodden before me. I devoured the books they lent
me: then it was full satisfaction to discuss with them in the evening
what I had perused during the day. Thought fitted thought; opinion met
opinion: we coincided, in short, perfectly.</p>

<p>If in our trio there was a superior and a leader, it was Diana.
Physically, she far excelled me: she was handsome; she was vigorous. In
her animal spirits there was an affluence of life and certainty of
flow, such as excited my wonder, while it baffled my comprehension. I
could talk a while when the evening commenced, but the first gush of
vivacity and fluency gone, I was fain to sit on a stool at Diana’s
feet, to rest my head on her knee, and listen alternately to her and
Mary, while they sounded thoroughly the topic on which I had but
touched. Diana offered to teach me German. I liked to learn of her: I
saw the part of instructress pleased and suited her; that of scholar
pleased and suited me no less. Our natures dovetailed: mutual
affection—of the strongest kind—was the result. They discovered I could
draw: their pencils and colour-boxes were immediately at my service. My
skill, greater in this one point than theirs, surprised
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and charmed
them. Mary would sit and watch me by the hour together: then she would
take lessons; and a docile, intelligent, assiduous pupil she made. Thus
occupied, and mutually entertained, days passed like hours, and weeks
like days.</p>

<p>As to Mr. St John, the intimacy which had arisen so naturally and
rapidly between me and his sisters did not extend to him. One reason of
the distance yet observed between us was, that he was comparatively
seldom at home: a large proportion of his time appeared devoted to
visiting the sick and poor among the scattered population of his
parish.</p>

<p>No weather seemed to hinder him in these pastoral excursions: rain or
fair, he would, when his hours of morning study were over, take his
hat, and, followed by his father’s old pointer, Carlo, go out on his
mission of love or duty—I scarcely know in which light he regarded it.
Sometimes, when the day was very unfavourable, his sisters would
expostulate. He would then say, with a peculiar smile, more solemn than
cheerful—</p>

<p>“And if I let a gust of wind or a sprinkling of rain turn me aside from
these easy tasks, what preparation would such sloth be for the future I
propose to myself?”</p>

<p>Diana and Mary’s general answer to this ques
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    tion was a sigh, and some
minutes of apparently mournful meditation.</p>

<p>But besides his frequent absences, there was another barrier to
friendship with him: he seemed of a reserved, an abstracted, and even
of a brooding nature. Zealous in his ministerial labours, blameless in
his life and habits, he yet did not appear to enjoy that mental
serenity, that inward content, which should be the reward of every
sincere Christian and practical philanthropist. Often, of an evening,
when he sat at the window, his desk and papers before him, he would
cease reading or writing, rest his chin on his hand, and deliver
himself up to I know not what course of thought; but that it was
perturbed and exciting might be seen in the frequent flash and
changeful dilation of his eye.</p>

<p>I think, moreover, that Nature was not to him that treasury of delight
it was to his sisters. He expressed once, and but once in my hearing, a
strong sense of the rugged charm of the hills, and an inborn affection
for the dark roof and hoary walls he called his home; but there was
more of gloom than pleasure in the tone and words in which the
sentiment was manifested; and never did he seem to roam the moors for
the sake of their soothing silence—never seek out or dwell upon the
thousand peaceful delights they could yield.</p>
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<p>Incommunicative as he was, some time elapsed before I had an
opportunity of gauging his mind. I first got an idea of its calibre
when I heard him preach in his own church at Morton. I wish I could
describe that sermon: but it is past my power. I cannot even render
faithfully the effect it produced on me.</p>

<p>It began calm—and indeed, as far as delivery and pitch of voice went,
it was calm to the end: an earnestly felt, yet strictly restrained zeal
breathed soon in the distinct accents, and prompted the nervous
language. This grew to force—compressed, condensed, controlled. The
heart was thrilled, the mind astonished, by the power of the preacher:
neither were softened. Throughout there was a strange bitterness; an
absence of consolatory gentleness; stern allusions to Calvinistic
doctrines—election, predestination, reprobation—were frequent; and each
reference to these points sounded like a sentence pronounced for doom.
When he had done, instead of feeling better, calmer, more enlightened
by his discourse, I experienced an inexpressible sadness; for it seemed
to me—I know not whether equally so to others—that the eloquence to
which I had been listening had sprung from a depth where lay turbid
dregs of disappointment—where moved troubling impulses of insatiate
yearnings and disquieting aspirations.
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I was sure St. John
Rivers—pure-lived, conscientious, zealous as he was—had not yet found
that peace of God which passeth all understanding: he had no more found
it, I thought, than had I with my concealed and racking regrets for my
broken idol and lost elysium—regrets to which I have latterly avoided
referring, but which possessed me and tyrannised over me ruthlessly.</p>

<p>Meantime a month was gone. Diana and Mary were soon to leave Moor
House, and return to the far different life and scene which awaited
them, as governesses in a large, fashionable, south-of-England city,
where each held a situation in families by whose wealthy and haughty
members they were regarded only as humble dependents, and who neither
knew nor sought out their innate excellences, and appreciated only
their acquired accomplishments as they appreciated the skill of their
cook or the taste of their waiting-woman. Mr. St. John had said nothing
to me yet about the employment he had promised to obtain for me; yet it
became urgent that I should have a vocation of some kind. One morning,
being left alone with him a few minutes in the parlour, I ventured to
approach the window-recess—which his table, chair, and desk consecrated
as a kind of study—and I was going to speak, though not very well
knowing in what words to frame my inquiry—for it is at
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all times
difficult to break the ice of reserve glassing over such natures as
his—when he saved me the trouble by being the first to commence a
dialogue.</p>

<p>Looking up as I drew near—“You have a question to ask of me?” he said.</p>

<p>“Yes; I wish to know whether you have heard of any service I can offer
myself to undertake?”</p>

<p>“I found or devised something for you three weeks ago; but as you
seemed both useful and happy here—as my sisters had evidently become
attached to you, and your society gave them unusual pleasure—I deemed
it inexpedient to break in on your mutual comfort till their
approaching departure from Marsh End should render yours necessary.”</p>

<p>“And they will go in three days now?” I said.</p>

<p>“Yes; and when they go, I shall return to the parsonage at Morton:
Hannah will accompany me; and this old house will be shut up.”</p>

<p>I waited a few moments, expecting he would go on with the subject first
broached: but he seemed to have entered another train of reflection:
his look denoted abstraction from me and my business. I was obliged to
recall him to a theme which was of necessity one of close and anxious
interest to me.</p>

<p>“What is the employment you had in view,
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    Mr. Rivers? I hope this delay
will not have increased the difficulty of securing it.”</p>

<p>“Oh, no; since it is an employment which depends only on me to give,
and you to accept.”</p>

<p>He again paused: there seemed a reluctance to continue. I grew
impatient: a restless movement or two, and an eager and exacting glance
fastened on his face, conveyed the feeling to him as effectually as
words could have done, and with less trouble.</p>

<p>“You need be in no hurry to hear,” he said: “let me frankly tell you, I
have nothing eligible or profitable to suggest. Before I explain,
recall, if you please, my notice, clearly given, that if I helped you,
it must be as the blind man would help the lame. I am poor; for I find
that, when I have paid my father’s debts, all the patrimony remaining
to me will be this crumbling grange, the row of scathed firs behind,
and the patch of moorish soil, with the yew-trees and holly-bushes in
front. I am obscure: Rivers is an old name; but of the three sole
descendants of the race, two earn the dependent’s crust among
strangers, and the third considers himself an alien from his native
country—not only for life, but in death. Yes, and deems, and is bound
to deem, himself honoured by the lot, and aspires but after the day
when the cross of separation from fleshly ties shall be laid on his
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shoulders, and when the Head of that church-militant of whose humblest
members he is one, shall give the word, ‘Rise, follow Me!’”</p>

<p>St. John said these words as he pronounced his sermons, with a quiet,
deep voice; with an unflushed cheek, and a coruscating radiance of
glance. He resumed—</p>

<p>“And since I am myself poor and obscure, I can offer you but a service
of poverty and obscurity. <hi rend="italic">You</hi> may even think it degrading—for I see
now your habits have been what the world calls refined: your tastes
lean to the ideal, and your society has at least been amongst the
educated; but <hi rend="italic">I</hi> consider that no service degrades which can better
our race. I hold that the more arid and unreclaimed the soil where the
Christian labourer’s task of tillage is appointed him—the scantier the
meed his toil brings—the higher the honour. His, under such
circumstances, is the destiny of the pioneer; and the first pioneers of
the Gospel were the Apostles—their captain was Jesus, the Redeemer,
Himself.”</p>

<p>“Well?” I said, as he again paused—“proceed.”</p>

<p>He looked at me before he proceeded: indeed, he seemed leisurely to
read my face, as if its features and lines were characters on a page.
The conclusions drawn from this scrutiny he partially expressed in his
succeeding observations.</p>
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<p>“I believe you will accept the post I offer you,” said he, “and hold it
for a while: not permanently, though: any more than I could permanently
keep the narrow and narrowing—the tranquil, hidden office of English
country incumbent; for in your nature is an alloy as detrimental to
repose as that in mine, though of a different kind.”</p>

<p>“Do explain,” I urged, when he halted once more.</p>

<p>“I will; and you shall hear how poor the proposal is,—how trivial—how
cramping. I shall not stay long at Morton, now that my father is dead,
and that I am my own master. I shall leave the place probably in the
course of a twelve-month; but while I do stay, I will exert myself to
the utmost for its improvement. Morton, when I came to it two years
ago, had no school: the children of the poor were excluded from every
hope of progress. I established one for boys: I mean now to open a
second school for girls. I have hired a building for the purpose, with
a cottage of two rooms attached to it for the mistress’s house. Her
salary will be thirty pounds a year: her house is already furnished,
very simply, but sufficiently, by the kindness of a lady, Miss Oliver;
the only daughter of the sole rich man in my parish—Mr. Oliver, the
proprietor of a needle-factory and iron-foundry in the valley. The same
lady pays for the education
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and clothing of an orphan from the
workhouse, on condition that she shall aid the mistress in such menial
offices connected with her own house and the school as her occupation
of teaching will prevent her having time to discharge in person. Will
you be this mistress?”</p>

<p>He put the question rather hurriedly; he seemed half to expect an
indignant, or at least a disdainful rejection of the offer: not knowing
all my thoughts and feelings, though guessing some, he could not tell
in what light the lot would appear to me. In truth it was humble—but
then it was sheltered, and I wanted a safe asylum: it was plodding—but
then, compared with that of a governess in a rich house, it was
independent; and the fear of servitude with strangers entered my soul
like iron: it was not ignoble—not unworthy—not mentally degrading, I
made my decision.</p>

<p>“I thank you for the proposal, Mr. Rivers, and I accept it with all my
heart.”</p>

<p>“But you comprehend me?” he said. “It is a village school: your
scholars will be only poor girls—cottagers’ children—at the best,
farmers’ daughters. Knitting, sewing, reading, writing, ciphering, will
be all you will have to teach. What will you do with your
accomplishments? What, with the largest portion of your
mind—sentiments—tastes?”</p>
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<p>“Save them till they are wanted. They will keep.”</p>

<p>“You know what you undertake, then?”</p>

<p>“I do.”</p>

<p>He now smiled: and not a bitter or a sad smile, but one well pleased
and deeply gratified.</p>

<p>“And when will you commence the exercise of your function?”</p>

<p>“I will go to my house to-morrow, and open the school, if you like,
next week.”</p>

<p>“Very well: so be it.”</p>

<p>He rose and walked through the room. Standing still, he again looked at
me. He shook his head.</p>

<p>“What do you disapprove of, Mr. Rivers?” I asked.</p>

<p>“You will not stay at Morton long: no, no!”</p>

<p>“Why? What is your reason for saying so?”</p>

<p>“I read it in your eye; it is not of that description which promises
the maintenance of an even tenor in life.”</p>

<p>“I am not ambitious.”</p>

<p>He started at the word “ambitious.” He repeated, “No. What made you
think of ambition? Who is ambitious? I know I am: but how did you find
it out?”</p>

<p>“I was speaking of myself.”</p>
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<p>“Well, if you are not ambitious, you are—” He paused.</p>

<p>“What?”</p>

<p>“I was going to say, impassioned: but perhaps you would have
misunderstood the word, and been displeased. I mean, that human
affections and sympathies have a most powerful hold on you. I am sure
you cannot long be content to pass your leisure in solitude, and to
devote your working hours to a monotonous labour wholly void of
stimulus: any more than I can be content,” he added, with emphasis, “to
live here buried in morass, pent in with mountains—my nature, that God
gave me, contravened; my faculties, heaven-bestowed, paralysed—made
useless. You hear now how I contradict myself. I, who preached
contentment with a humble lot, and justified the vocation even of
hewers of wood and drawers of water in God’s service—I, His ordained
minister, almost rave in my restlessness. Well, propensities and
principles must be reconciled by some means.”</p>

<p>He left the room. In this brief hour I had learnt more of him than in
the whole previous month: yet still he puzzled me.</p>

<p>Diana and Mary Rivers became more sad and silent as the day approached
for leaving their brother and their home. They both tried
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to appear as
usual; but the sorrow they had to struggle against was one that could
not be entirely conquered or concealed. Diana intimated that this would
be a different parting from any they had ever yet known. It would
probably, as far as St. John was concerned, be a parting for years: it
might be a parting for life.</p>

<p>“He will sacrifice all to his long-framed resolves,” she said: “natural
affection and feelings more potent still. St. John looks quiet, Jane;
but he hides a fever in his vitals. You would think him gentle, yet in
some things he is inexorable as death; and the worst of it is, my
conscience will hardly permit me to dissuade him from his severe
decision: certainly, I cannot for a moment blame him for it. It is
right, noble, Christian: yet it breaks my heart!” And the tears gushed
to her fine eyes. Mary bent her head low over her work.</p>

<p>“We are now without father: we shall soon be without home and brother,”
she murmured.</p>

<p>At that moment a little accident supervened, which seemed decreed by
fate purposely to prove the truth of the adage, that “misfortunes never
come singly,” and to add to their distresses the vexing one of the slip
between the cup and the lip. St. John passed the window reading a
letter. He entered.</p>
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<p>“Our uncle John is dead,” said he.</p>

<p>Both the sisters seemed struck: not shocked or appalled; the tidings
appeared in their eyes rather momentous than afflicting.</p>

<p>“Dead?” repeated Diana.</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>She riveted a searching gaze on her brother’s face. “And what then?”
she demanded, in a low voice.</p>

<p>“What then, Die?” he replied, maintaining a marble immobility of
feature. “What then? Why—nothing. Read.”</p>

<p>He threw the letter into her lap. She glanced over it, and handed it to
Mary. Mary perused it in silence, and returned it to her brother. All
three looked at each other, and all three smiled—a dreary, pensive
smile enough.</p>

<p>“Amen! We can yet live,” said Diana at last.</p>

<p>“At any rate, it makes us no worse off than we were before,” remarked
Mary.</p>

<p>“Only it forces rather strongly on the mind the picture of what <hi rend="italic">might have been</hi>," 
said Mr. Rivers, “and contrasts it somewhat too vividly
with what <hi rend="italic">is</hi>.”</p>

<p>He folded the letter, locked it in his desk, and again went out.</p>

<p>For some minutes no one spoke. Diana then turned to me.</p>

<p>“Jane, you will wonder at us and our mys
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teries,” she said, “and think
us hard-hearted beings not to be more moved at the death of so near a
relation as an uncle; but we have never seen him or known him. He was
my mother’s brother. My father and he quarrelled long ago. It was by
his advice that my father risked most of his property in the
speculation that ruined him. Mutual recrimination passed between them:
they parted in anger, and were never reconciled. My uncle engaged
afterwards in more prosperous undertakings: it appears he realised a
fortune of twenty thousand pounds. He was never married, and had no
near kindred but ourselves and one other person, not more closely
related than we. My father always cherished the idea that he would
atone for his error by leaving his possessions to us; that letter
informs us that he has bequeathed every penny to the other relation,
with the exception of thirty guineas, to be divided between St. John,
Diana, and Mary Rivers, for the purchase of three mourning rings. He
had a right, of course, to do as he pleased: and yet a momentary damp
is cast on the spirits by the receipt of such news. Mary and I would
have esteemed ourselves rich with a thousand pounds each; and to St.
John such a sum would have been valuable, for the good it would have
enabled him to do.”</p>

<p>This explanation given, the subject was dropped,
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    and no further
reference made to it by either Mr. Rivers or his sisters. The next day
I left Marsh End for Morton. The day after, Diana and Mary quitted it
for distant B——. In a week, Mr. Rivers and Hannah repaired to the
parsonage: and so the old grange was abandoned.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXXI</head>
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<p>My home, then, when I at last find a home,—is a cottage; a little room
with whitewashed walls and a sanded floor, containing four painted
chairs and a table, a clock, a cupboard, with two or three plates and
dishes, and a set of tea-things in delf. Above, a chamber of the same
dimensions as the kitchen, with a deal bedstead and chest of drawers;
small, yet too large to be filled with my scanty wardrobe: though the
kindness of my gentle and generous friends has increased that, by a
modest stock of such things as are necessary.</p>

<p>It is evening. I have dismissed, with the fee of an orange, the little
orphan who serves me as a handmaid. I am sitting alone on the hearth.
This morning, the village school opened. I had twenty scholars. But
three of the number can read: none write or cipher. Several knit, and a
few sew a little. They speak with the broadest
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accent of the district.
At present, they and I have a difficulty in understanding each other’s
language. Some of them are unmannered, rough, intractable, as well as
ignorant; but others are docile, have a wish to learn, and evince a
disposition that pleases me. I must not forget that these coarsely-clad
little peasants are of flesh and blood as good as the scions of
gentlest genealogy; and that the germs of native excellence,
refinement, intelligence, kind feeling, are as likely to exist in their
hearts as in those of the best-born. My duty will be to develop these
germs: surely I shall find some happiness in discharging that office.
Much enjoyment I do not expect in the life opening before me: yet it
will, doubtless, if I regulate my mind, and exert my powers as I ought,
yield me enough to live on from day to day.</p>

<p>Was I very gleeful, settled, content, during the hours I passed in
yonder bare, humble schoolroom this morning and afternoon? Not to
deceive myself, I must reply—No: I felt desolate to a degree. I
felt—yes, idiot that I am—I felt degraded. I doubted I had taken a step
which sank instead of raising me in the scale of social existence. I
was weakly dismayed at the ignorance, the poverty, the coarseness of
all I heard and saw round me. But let me not hate and despise my
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self
too much for these feelings; I know them to be wrong—that is a great
step gained; I shall strive to overcome them. To-morrow, I trust, I
shall get the better of them partially; and in a few weeks, perhaps,
they will be quite subdued. In a few months, it is possible, the
happiness of seeing progress, and a change for the better in my
scholars may substitute gratification for disgust.</p>

<p>Meantime, let me ask myself one question—Which is better?—To have
surrendered to temptation; listened to passion; made no painful
effort—no struggle;—but to have sunk down in the silken snare; fallen
asleep on the flowers covering it; wakened in a southern clime, amongst
the luxuries of a pleasure villa: to have been now living in France,
Mr. Rochester’s mistress; delirious with his love half my time—for he
would—oh, yes, he would have loved me well for a while. He <hi rend="italic">did</hi> love
me—no one will ever love me so again. I shall never more know the sweet
homage given to beauty, youth, and grace—for never to any one else
shall I seem to possess these charms. He was fond and proud of me—it is
what no man besides will ever be.—But where am I wandering, and what am
I saying, and above all, feeling? Whether is it better, I ask, to be a
slave in a fool’s paradise at Marseilles—fevered with delusive bliss
one hour—suffocating with the bitterest tears of
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remorse and shame the
next—or to be a village-schoolmistress, free and honest, in a breezy
mountain nook in the healthy heart of England?</p>

<p>Yes; I feel now that I was right when I adhered to principle and law,
and scorned and crushed the insane promptings of a frenzied moment. God
directed me to a correct choice: I thank His providence for the
guidance!</p>

<p>Having brought my eventide musings to this point, I rose, went to my
door, and looked at the sunset of the harvest-day, and at the quiet
fields before my cottage, which, with the school, was distant half a
mile from the village. The birds were singing their last strains—</p>

<p>“The air was mild, the dew was balm.”</p>


<p>While I looked, I thought myself happy, and was surprised to find
myself ere long weeping—and why? For the doom which had reft me from
adhesion to my master: for him I was no more to see; for the desperate
grief and fatal fury—consequences of my departure—which might now,
perhaps, be dragging him from the path of right, too far to leave hope
of ultimate restoration thither. At this thought, I turned my face
aside from the lovely sky of eve and lonely vale of Morton—I say
<hi rend="italic">lonely</hi>, for in that bend of it visible to me there was no building
apparent save the church and the parsonage, half-hid in trees, and,
quite at the
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extremity, the roof of Vale Hall, where the rich Mr.
Oliver and his daughter lived. I hid my eyes, and leant my head against
the stone frame of my door; but soon a slight noise near the wicket
which shut in my tiny garden from the meadow beyond it made me look up.
A dog—old Carlo, Mr. Rivers’ pointer, as I saw in a moment—was pushing
the gate with his nose, and St. John himself leant upon it with folded
arms; his brow knit, his gaze, grave almost to displeasure, fixed on
me. I asked him to come in.</p>

<p>“No, I cannot stay; I have only brought you a little parcel my sisters
left for you. I think it contains a colour-box, pencils, and paper.”</p>

<p>I approached to take it: a welcome gift it was. He examined my face, I
thought, with austerity, as I came near: the traces of tears were
doubtless very visible upon it.</p>

<p>“Have you found your first day’s work harder than you expected?” he
asked.</p>

<p>“Oh, no! On the contrary, I think in time I shall get on with my
scholars very well.”</p>

<p>“But perhaps your accommodations—your cottage—your furniture—have
disappointed your expectations? They are, in truth, scanty enough;
but—” I interrupted—</p>

<p>“My cottage is clean and weather-proof; my furniture sufficient and
commodious. All I see
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has made me thankful, not despondent. I am not
absolutely such a fool and sensualist as to regret the absence of a
carpet, a sofa, and silver plate; besides, five weeks ago I had
nothing—I was an outcast, a beggar, a vagrant; now I have acquaintance,
a home, a business. I wonder at the goodness of God; the generosity of
my friends; the bounty of my lot. I do not repine.”</p>

<p>“But you feel solitude an oppression? The little house there behind you
is dark and empty.”</p>

<p>“I have hardly had time yet to enjoy a sense of tranquillity, much less
to grow impatient under one of loneliness.”</p>

<p>“Very well; I hope you feel the content you express: at any rate, your
good sense will tell you that it is too soon yet to yield to the
vacillating fears of Lot’s wife. What you had left before I saw you, of
course I do not know; but I counsel you to resist firmly every
temptation which would incline you to look back: pursue your present
career steadily, for some months at least.”</p>

<p>“It is what I mean to do,” I answered. St. John continued—</p>

<p>“It is hard work to control the workings of inclination and turn the
bent of nature; but that it may be done, I know from experience. God
has given us, in a measure, the power to make our own fate; and when
our energies seem to
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demand a sustenance they cannot get—when our will
strains after a path we may not follow—we need neither starve from
inanition, nor stand still in despair: we have but to seek another
nourishment for the mind, as strong as the forbidden food it longed to
taste—and perhaps purer; and to hew out for the adventurous foot a road
as direct and broad as the one Fortune has blocked up against us, if
rougher than it.</p>

<p>“A year ago I was myself intensely miserable, because I thought I had
made a mistake in entering the ministry: its uniform duties wearied me
to death. I burnt for the more active life of the world—for the more
exciting toils of a literary career—for the destiny of an artist,
author, orator; anything rather than that of a priest: yes, the heart
of a politician, of a soldier, of a votary of glory, a lover of renown,
a luster after power, beat under my curate’s surplice. I considered; my
life was so wretched, it must be changed, or I must die. After a season
of darkness and struggling, light broke and relief fell: my cramped
existence all at once spread out to a plain without bounds—my powers
heard a call from heaven to rise, gather their full strength, spread
their wings, and mount beyond ken. God had an errand for me; to bear
which afar, to deliver it well, skill and strength, courage and
eloquence, the best
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qualifications of soldier, statesman, and orator,
were all needed: for these all centre in the good missionary.</p>

<p>“A missionary I resolved to be. From that moment my state of mind
changed; the fetters dissolved and dropped from every faculty, leaving
nothing of bondage but its galling soreness—which time only can heal.
My father, indeed, imposed the determination, but since his death, I
have not a legitimate obstacle to contend with; some affairs settled, a
successor for Morton provided, an entanglement or two of the feelings
broken through or cut asunder—a last conflict with human weakness, in
which I know I shall overcome, because I have vowed that I <hi rend="italic">will</hi>
overcome—and I leave Europe for the East.”</p>

<p>He said this, in his peculiar, subdued, yet emphatic voice; looking,
when he had ceased speaking, not at me, but at the setting sun, at
which I looked too. Both he and I had our backs towards the path
leading up the field to the wicket. We had heard no step on that
grass-grown track; the water running in the vale was the one lulling
sound of the hour and scene; we might well then start when a gay voice,
sweet as a silver bell, exclaimed—</p>

<p>“Good evening, Mr. Rivers. And good evening, old Carlo. Your dog is
quicker to recognise
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his friends than you are, sir; he pricked his ears
and wagged his tail when I was at the bottom of the field, and you have
your back towards me now.”</p>

<p>It was true. Though Mr. Rivers had started at the first of those
musical accents, as if a thunderbolt had split a cloud over his head,
he stood yet, at the close of the sentence, in the same attitude in
which the speaker had surprised him—his arm resting on the gate, his
face directed towards the west. He turned at last, with measured
deliberation. A vision, as it seemed to me, had risen at his side.
There appeared, within three feet of him, a form clad in pure white—a
youthful, graceful form: full, yet fine in contour; and when, after
bending to caress Carlo, it lifted up its head, and threw back a long
veil, there bloomed under his glance a face of perfect beauty. Perfect
beauty is a strong expression; but I do not retrace or qualify it: as
sweet features as ever the temperate clime of Albion moulded; as pure
hues of rose and lily as ever her humid gales and vapoury skies
generated and screened, justified, in this instance, the term. No charm
was wanting, no defect was perceptible; the young girl had regular and
delicate lineaments; eyes shaped and coloured as we see them in lovely
pictures, large, and dark, and full; the
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long and shadowy eyelash which
encircles a fine eye with so soft a fascination; the pencilled brow
which gives such clearness; the white smooth forehead, which adds such
repose to the livelier beauties of tint and ray; the cheek oval, fresh,
and smooth; the lips, fresh too, ruddy, healthy, sweetly formed; the
even and gleaming teeth without flaw; the small dimpled chin; the
ornament of rich, plenteous tresses—all advantages, in short, which,
combined, realise the ideal of beauty, were fully hers. I wondered, as
I looked at this fair creature: I admired her with my whole heart.
Nature had surely formed her in a partial mood; and, forgetting her
usual stinted step-mother dole of gifts, had endowed this, her darling,
with a grand-dame’s bounty.</p>

<p>What did St. John Rivers think of this earthly angel? I naturally asked
myself that question as I saw him turn to her and look at her; and, as
naturally, I sought the answer to the inquiry in his countenance. He
had already withdrawn his eye from the Peri, and was looking at a
humble tuft of daisies which grew by the wicket.</p>

<p>“A lovely evening, but late for you to be out alone,” he said, as he
crushed the snowy heads of the closed flowers with his foot.</p>

<p>“Oh, I only came home from S——” (she mentioned the name of a large town
some twenty
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miles distant) “this afternoon. Papa told me you had opened
your school, and that the new mistress was come; and so I put on my
bonnet after tea, and ran up the valley to see her: this is she?”
pointing to me.</p>

<p>“It is,” said St. John.</p>

<p>“Do you think you shall like Morton?” she asked of me, with a direct
and naïve simplicity of tone and manner, pleasing, if child-like.</p>

<p>“I hope I shall. I have many inducements to do so.”</p>

<p>“Did you find your scholars as attentive as you expected?”</p>

<p>"Quite.”</p>

<p>“Do you like your house?”</p>

<p>“Very much.”</p>

<p>“Have I furnished it nicely?”</p>

<p>“Very nicely, indeed.”</p>

<p>“And made a good choice of an attendant for you in Alice Wood?”</p>

<p>“You have indeed. She is teachable and handy.” (This then, I thought,
is Miss Oliver, the heiress; favoured, it seems, in the gifts of
fortune, as well as in those of nature! What happy combination of the
planets presided over her birth, I wonder?)</p>

<p>“I shall come up and help you to teach sometimes,” she added. “It will
be a change for me
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to visit you now and then; and I like a change. Mr.
Rivers, I have been <hi rend="italic">so</hi> gay during my stay at S——. Last night, or
rather this morning, I was dancing till two o’clock. The ——th regiment
are stationed there since the riots; and the officers are the most
agreeable men in the world: they put all our young knife-grinders and
scissor merchants to shame.”</p>

<p>It seemed to me that Mr. St. John’s under lip protruded, and his upper
lip curled a moment. His mouth certainly looked a good deal compressed,
and the lower part of his face unusually stern and square, as the
laughing girl gave him this information. He lifted his gaze, too, from
the daisies, and turned it on her. An unsmiling, a searching, a meaning
gaze it was. She answered it with a second laugh, and laughter well
became her youth, her roses, her dimples, her bright eyes.</p>

<p>As he stood, mute and grave, she again fell to caressing Carlo. “Poor
Carlo loves me,” said she. “<hi rend="italic">He</hi> is not stern and distant to his
friends; and if he could speak, he would not be silent.”</p>

<p>As she patted the dog’s head, bending with native grace before his
young and austere master, I saw a glow rise to that master’s face.
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I
saw his solemn eye melt with sudden fire, and flicker with resistless
emotion. Flushed and kindled thus, he looked nearly as beautiful for a
man as she for a woman. His chest heaved once, as if his large heart,
weary of despotic constriction, had expanded, despite the will, and
made a vigorous bound for the attainment of liberty. But he curbed it,
I think, as a resolute rider would curb a rearing steed. He responded
neither by word nor movement to the gentle advances made him.</p>

<p>“Papa says you never come to see us now,” continued Miss Oliver,
looking up. “You are quite a stranger at Vale Hall. He is alone this
evening, and not very well: will you return with me and visit him?”</p>

<p>“It is not a seasonable hour to intrude on Mr. Oliver,” answered St.
John.</p>

<p>“Not a seasonable hour! But I declare it is. It is just the hour when
papa most wants company: when the works are closed and he has no
business to occupy him. Now, Mr. Rivers, <hi rend="italic">do</hi> come. Why are you so very
shy, and so very sombre?” She filled up the hiatus his silence left by
a reply of her own.</p>

<p>“I forgot!” she exclaimed, shaking her beautiful curled head, as if
shocked at herself.
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“I am so giddy and thoughtless! <hi rend="italic">Do</hi> excuse me. It
had slipped my memory that you have good reasons to be indisposed for
joining in my chatter. Diana and Mary have left you, and Moor House is
shut up, and you are so lonely. I am sure I pity you. Do come and see
papa.”</p>

<p>“Not to-night, Miss Rosamond, not to-night.”</p>

<p>Mr. St. John spoke almost like an automaton: himself only knew the
effort it cost him thus to refuse.</p>

<p>“Well, if you are so obstinate, I will leave you; for I dare not stay
any longer: the dew begins to fall. Good evening!”</p>

<p>She held out her hand. He just touched it. “Good evening!” he repeated,
in a voice low and hollow as an echo. She turned, but in a moment
returned.</p>

<p>“Are you well?” she asked. Well might she put the question: his face
was blanched as her gown.</p>

<p>“Quite well,” he enunciated; and, with a bow, he left the gate. She
went one way; he another. She turned twice to gaze after him as she
tripped fairy-like down the field; he, as he strode firmly across,
never turned at all.</p>
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<p>This spectacle of another’s suffering and sacrifice rapt my thoughts
from exclusive meditation on my own. Diana Rivers had designated her
brother “inexorable as death.” She had not exaggerated.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXXII</head>
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<p>I continued the labours of the village-school as actively and
faithfully as I could. It was truly hard work at first. Some time
elapsed before, with all my efforts, I could comprehend my scholars and
their nature. Wholly untaught, with faculties quite torpid, they seemed
to me hopelessly dull; and, at first sight, all dull alike: but I soon
found I was mistaken. There was a difference amongst them as amongst
the educated; and when I got to know them, and they me, this difference
rapidly developed itself. Their amazement at me, my language, my rules,
and ways, once subsided, I found some of these heavy-looking, gaping
rustics wake up into sharp-witted girls enough. Many showed themselves
obliging, and amiable too; and I discovered amongst them not a few
examples of natural politeness, and innate self-respect, as well as of
excellent capacity, that
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won both my goodwill and my admiration. These
soon took a pleasure in doing their work well, in keeping their persons
neat, in learning their tasks regularly, in acquiring quiet and orderly
manners. The rapidity of their progress, in some instances, was even
surprising; and an honest and happy pride I took in it: besides, I
began personally to like some of the best girls; and they liked me. I
had amongst my scholars several farmers’ daughters: young women grown,
almost. These could already read, write, and sew; and to them I taught
the elements of grammar, geography, history, and the finer kinds of
needlework. I found estimable characters amongst them—characters
desirous of information and disposed for improvement—with whom I passed
many a pleasant evening hour in their own homes. Their parents then
(the farmer and his wife) loaded me with attentions. There was an
enjoyment in accepting their simple kindness, and in repaying it by a
consideration—a scrupulous regard to their feelings—to which they were
not, perhaps, at all times accustomed, and which both charmed and
benefited them; because, while it elevated them in their own eyes, it
made them emulous to merit the deferential treatment they received.</p>
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<p>I felt I became a favourite in the neighbourhood. Whenever I went out,
I heard on all sides cordial salutations, and was welcomed with
friendly smiles. To live amidst general regard, though it be but the
regard of working people, is like “sitting in sunshine, calm and
sweet;” serene inward feelings bud and bloom under the ray. At this
period of my life, my heart far oftener swelled with thankfulness than
sank with dejection: and yet, reader, to tell you all, in the midst of
this calm, this useful existence—after a day passed in honourable
exertion amongst my scholars, an evening spent in drawing or reading
contentedly alone—I used to rush into strange dreams at night: dreams
many-coloured, agitated, full of the ideal, the stirring, the
stormy—dreams where, amidst unusual scenes, charged with adventure,
with agitating risk and romantic chance, I still again and again met
Mr. Rochester, always at some exciting crisis; and then the sense of
being in his arms, hearing his voice, meeting his eye, touching his
hand and cheek, loving him, being loved by him—the hope of passing a
lifetime at his side, would be renewed, with all its first force and
fire. Then I awoke. Then I recalled where I was, and how situated. Then
I rose up on my curtainless bed, trem
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bling and quivering; and then the
still, dark night witnessed the convulsion of despair, and heard the
burst of passion. By nine o’clock the next morning I was punctually
opening the school; tranquil, settled, prepared for the steady duties
of the day.</p>

<p>Rosamond Oliver kept her word in coming to visit me. Her call at the
school was generally made in the course of her morning ride. She would
canter up to the door on her pony, followed by a mounted livery
servant. Anything more exquisite than her appearance, in her purple
habit, with her Amazon’s cap of black velvet placed gracefully above
the long curls that kissed her cheek and floated to her shoulders, can
scarcely be imagined: and it was thus she would enter the rustic
building, and glide through the dazzled ranks of the village children.
She generally came at the hour when Mr. Rivers was engaged in giving
his daily catechising lesson. Keenly, I fear, did the eye of the
visitress pierce the young pastor’s heart. A sort of instinct seemed to
warn him of her entrance, even when he did not see it; and when he was
looking quite away from the door, if she appeared at it, his cheek
would glow, and his marble-seeming features, though they refused to
relax, changed indescribably,
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and in their very quiescence became
expressive of a repressed fervour, stronger than working muscle or
darting glance could indicate.</p>

<p>Of course, she knew her power: indeed, he did not, because he could
not, conceal it from her. In spite of his Christian stoicism, when she
went up and addressed him, and smiled gaily, encouragingly, even fondly
in his face, his hand would tremble and his eye burn. He seemed to say,
with his sad and resolute look, if he did not say it with his lips, “I
love you, and I know you prefer me. It is not despair of success that
keeps me dumb. If I offered my heart, I believe you would accept it.
But that heart is already laid on a sacred altar: the fire is arranged
round it. It will soon be no more than a sacrifice consumed.”</p>

<p>And then she would pout like a disappointed child; a pensive cloud
would soften her radiant vivacity; she would withdraw her hand hastily
from his, and turn in transient petulance from his aspect, at once so
heroic and so martyr-like. St. John, no doubt, would have given the
world to follow, recall, retain her, when she thus left him; but he
would not give one chance of heaven, nor relinquish, for the ely
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sium of
her love, one hope of the true, eternal Paradise. Besides, he could not
bind all that he had in his nature—the rover, the aspirant, the poet,
the priest—in the limits of a single passion. He could not—he would
not—renounce his wild field of mission warfare for the parlours and the
peace of Vale Hall. I learnt so much from himself in an inroad I once,
despite his reserve, had the daring to make on his confidence.</p>

<p>Miss Oliver already honoured me with frequent visits to my cottage. I
had learnt her whole character, which was without mystery or disguise:
she was coquettish but not heartless; exacting, but not worthlessly
selfish. She had been indulged from her birth, but was not absolutely
spoilt. She was hasty, but good-humoured; vain (she could not help it,
when every glance in the glass showed her such a flush of loveliness),
but not affected; liberal-handed; innocent of the pride of wealth;
ingenuous; sufficiently intelligent; gay, lively, and unthinking: she
was very charming, in short, even to a cool observer of her own sex
like me; but she was not profoundly interesting or thoroughly
impressive. A very different sort of mind was hers from that, for
instance, of the sisters of St. John. Still, I liked her almost
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as I
liked my pupil Adèle; except that, for a child whom we have watched
over and taught, a closer affection is engendered than we can give an
equally attractive adult acquaintance.</p>

<p>She had taken an amiable caprice to me. She said I was like Mr. Rivers,
only, certainly, she allowed, “not one-tenth so handsome, though I was
a nice neat little soul enough, but he was an angel.” I was, however,
good, clever, composed, and firm, like him. I was a <hi rend="italic">lusus naturæ</hi>, she
affirmed, as a village schoolmistress: she was sure my previous
history, if known, would make a delightful romance.</p>

<p>One evening, while, with her usual child-like activity, and thoughtless
yet not offensive inquisitiveness, she was rummaging the cupboard and
the table-drawer of my little kitchen, she discovered first two French
books, a volume of Schiller, a German grammar and dictionary, and then
my drawing-materials and some sketches, including a pencil-head of a
pretty little cherub-like girl, one of my scholars, and sundry views
from nature, taken in the Vale of Morton and on the surrounding moors.
She was first transfixed with surprise, and then electrified with
delight.</p>

<p>“Had I done these pictures? Did I know French and German? What a
love—what a
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miracle I was! I drew better than her master in the first
school in S——. Would I sketch a portrait of her, to show to papa?”</p>

<p>“With pleasure,” I replied; and I felt a thrill of artist-delight at
the idea of copying from so perfect and radiant a model. She had then
on a dark-blue silk dress; her arms and her neck were bare; her only
ornament was her chestnut tresses, which waved over her shoulders with
all the wild grace of natural curls. I took a sheet of fine card-board,
and drew a careful outline. I promised myself the pleasure of colouring
it; and, as it was getting late then, I told her she must come and sit
another day.</p>

<p>She made such a report of me to her father, that Mr. Oliver himself
accompanied her next evening—a tall, massive-featured, middle-aged, and
grey-headed man, at whose side his lovely daughter looked like a bright
flower near a hoary turret. He appeared a taciturn, and perhaps a proud
personage; but he was very kind to me. The sketch of Rosamond’s
portrait pleased him highly: he said I must make a finished picture of
it. He insisted, too, on my coming the next day to spend the evening at
Vale Hall.</p>

<p>I went. I found it a large, handsome residence, showing abundant
evidences of wealth in
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the proprietor. Rosamond was full of glee and
pleasure all the time I stayed. Her father was affable; and when he
entered into conversation with me after tea, he expressed in strong
terms his approbation of what I had done in Morton school, and said he
only feared, from what he saw and heard, I was too good for the place,
and would soon quit it for one more suitable.</p>

<p>“Indeed,” cried Rosamond, “she is clever enough to be a governess in a
high family, papa.”</p>

<p>I thought I would far rather be where I am than in any high family in
the land. Mr. Oliver spoke of Mr. Rivers—of the Rivers family—with
great respect. He said it was a very old name in that neighbourhood;
that the ancestors of the house were wealthy; that all Morton had once
belonged to them; that even now he considered the representative of
that house might, if he liked, make an alliance with the best. He
accounted it a pity that so fine and talented a young man should have
formed the design of going out as a missionary; it was quite throwing a
valuable life away. It appeared, then, that her father would throw no
obstacle in the way of Rosamond’s union with St. John. Mr. Oliver
evidently regarded the young clergyman’s good birth, old name, and
sacred
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profession as sufficient compensation for the want of fortune.</p>

<p>It was the 5th of November, and a holiday. My little servant, after
helping me to clean my house, was gone, well satisfied with the fee of
a penny for her aid. All about me was spotless and bright—scoured
floor, polished grate, and well-rubbed chairs. I had also made myself
neat, and had now the afternoon before me to spend as I would.</p>

<p>The translation of a few pages of German occupied an hour; then I got
my palette and pencils, and fell to the more soothing, because easier
occupation, of completing Rosamond Oliver’s miniature. The head was
finished already: there was but the background to tint and the drapery
to shade off; a touch of carmine, too, to add to the ripe lips—a soft
curl here and there to the tresses—a deeper tinge to the shadow of the
lash under the azured eyelid. I was absorbed in the execution of these
nice details, when, after one rapid tap, my door unclosed, admitting
St. John Rivers.</p>

<p>“I am come to see how you are spending your holiday,” he said. “Not, I
hope, in thought? No, that is well: while you draw you will not feel
lonely. You see, I mistrust you still, though you have borne up
wonder
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fully so far. I have brought you a book for evening solace,” and
he laid on the table a new publication—a poem: one of those genuine
productions so often vouchsafed to the fortunate public of those
days—the golden age of modern literature. Alas! the readers of our era
are less favoured. But courage! I will not pause either to accuse or
repine. I know poetry is not dead, nor genius lost; nor has Mammon
gained power over either, to bind or slay: they will both assert their
existence, their presence, their liberty and strength again one day.
Powerful angels, safe in heaven! they smile when sordid souls triumph,
and feeble ones weep over their destruction. Poetry destroyed? Genius
banished? No! Mediocrity, no: do not let envy prompt you to the
thought. No; they not only live, but reign and redeem: and without
their divine influence spread everywhere, you would be in hell—the hell
of your own meanness.</p>

<p>While I was eagerly glancing at the bright pages of “Marmion” (for
“Marmion” it was), St. John stooped to examine my drawing. His tall
figure sprang erect again with a start: he said nothing. I looked up at
him: he shunned my eye. I knew his thoughts well, and could read his
heart plainly; at the moment I felt
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calmer and cooler than he: I had
then temporarily the advantage of him, and I conceived an inclination
to do him some good, if I could.</p>

<p>“With all his firmness and self-control,” thought I, “he tasks himself
too far: locks every feeling and pang within—expresses, confesses,
imparts nothing. I am sure it would benefit him to talk a little about
this sweet Rosamond, whom he thinks he ought not to marry: I will make
him talk.”</p>

<p>I said first, “Take a chair, Mr. Rivers.” But he answered, as he always
did, that he could not stay. “Very well,” I responded, mentally, “stand
if you like; but you shall not go just yet, I am determined: solitude
is at least as bad for you as it is for me. I’ll try if I cannot
discover the secret spring of your confidence, and find an aperture in
that marble breast through which I can shed one drop of the balm of
sympathy.”</p>

<p>“Is this portrait like?” I asked bluntly.</p>

<p>“Like! Like whom? I did not observe it closely.”</p>

<p>“You did, Mr. Rivers.”</p>

<p>He almost started at my sudden and strange abruptness: he looked at me
astonished. “Oh, that is nothing yet,” I muttered within. “I don’t mean
to be baffled by a little stiffness
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on your part; I’m prepared to go to
considerable lengths.” I continued, “You observed it closely and
distinctly; but I have no objection to your looking at it again,” and I
rose and placed it in his hand.</p>

<p>“A well-executed picture,” he said; “very soft, clear colouring; very
graceful and correct drawing.”</p>

<p>“Yes, yes; I know all that. But what of the resemblance? Who is it
like?”</p>

<p>Mastering some hesitation, he answered, “Miss Oliver, I presume.”</p>

<p>“Of course. And now, sir, to reward you for the accurate guess, I will
promise to paint you a careful and faithful duplicate of this very
picture, provided you admit that the gift would be acceptable to you. I
don’t wish to throw away my time and trouble on an offering you would
deem worthless.”</p>

<p>He continued to gaze at the picture: the longer he looked, the firmer
he held it, the more he seemed to covet it. “It is like!” he murmured;
“the eye is well managed: the colour, light, expression, are perfect.
It smiles!”</p>

<p>“Would it comfort, or would it wound you to have a similar painting?
Tell me that. When you are at Madagascar, or at the Cape, or in India,
would it be a consolation to have
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that memento in your possession? or
would the sight of it bring recollections calculated to enervate and
distress?”</p>

<p>He now furtively raised his eyes: he glanced at me, irresolute,
disturbed: he again surveyed the picture.</p>

<p>“That I should like to have it is certain: whether it would be
judicious or wise is another question.”</p>

<p>Since I had ascertained that Rosamond really preferred him, and that
her father was not likely to oppose the match, I—less exalted in my
views than St. John—had been strongly disposed in my own heart to
advocate their union. It seemed to me that, should he become the
possessor of Mr. Oliver’s large fortune, he might do as much good with
it as if he went and laid his genius out to wither, and his strength to
waste, under a tropical sun. With this persuasion I now answered—</p>

<p>“As far as I can see, it would be wiser and more judicious if you were
to take to yourself the original at once.”</p>

<p>By this time he had sat down: he had laid the picture on the table
before him, and with his brow supported on both hands, hung fondly over
it. I discerned he was now neither angry nor shocked at my audacity. I
saw even that
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to be thus frankly addressed on a subject he had deemed
unapproachable—to hear it thus freely handled—was beginning to be felt
by him as a new pleasure—an unhoped-for relief. Reserved people often
really need the frank discussion of their sentiments and griefs more
than the expansive. The sternest-seeming stoic is human after all; and
to “burst” with boldness and good-will into “the silent sea” of their
souls is often to confer on them the first of obligations.</p>

<p>“She likes you, I am sure,” said I, as I stood behind his chair, “and
her father respects you. Moreover, she is a sweet girl—rather
thoughtless; but you would have sufficient thought for both yourself
and her. You ought to marry her.”</p>

<p>“<hi rend="italic">Does</hi> she like me?” he asked.</p>

<p>“Certainly; better than she likes any one else. She talks of you
continually: there is no subject she enjoys so much or touches upon so
often.”</p>

<p>“It is very pleasant to hear this,” he said—“very: go on for another
quarter of an hour.” And he actually took out his watch and laid it
upon the table to measure the time.</p>

<p>“But where is the use of going on,” I asked, “when you are probably
preparing some iron
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blow of contradiction, or forging a fresh chain to
fetter your heart?”</p>

<p>“Don’t imagine such hard things. Fancy me yielding and melting, as I am
doing: human love rising like a freshly opened fountain in my mind and
overflowing with sweet inundation all the field I have so carefully and
with such labour prepared—so assiduously sown with the seeds of good
intentions, of self-denying plans. And now it is deluged with a
nectarous flood—the young germs swamped—delicious poison cankering
them: now I see myself stretched on an ottoman in the drawing-room at
Vale Hall at my bride Rosamond Oliver’s feet: she is talking to me with
her sweet voice—gazing down on me with those eyes your skilful hand has
copied so well—smiling at me with these coral lips. She is mine—I am
hers—this present life and passing world suffice to me. Hush! say
nothing—my heart is full of delight—my senses are entranced—let the
time I marked pass in peace.”</p>

<p>I humoured him: the watch ticked on: he breathed fast and low: I stood
silent. Amidst this hush the quartet sped; he replaced the watch, laid
the picture down, rose, and stood on the hearth.</p>

<p>“Now,” said he, “that little space was given
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    to delirium and delusion.
I rested my temples on the breast of temptation, and put my neck
voluntarily under her yoke of flowers; I tasted her cup. The pillow was
burning: there is an asp in the garland: the wine has a bitter taste:
her promises are hollow—her offers false: I see and know all this.”</p>

<p>I gazed at him in wonder.</p>

<p>“It is strange,” pursued he, “that while I love Rosamond Oliver so
wildly—with all the intensity, indeed, of a first passion, the object
of which is exquisitely beautiful, graceful, fascinating—I experience
at the same time a calm, unwarped consciousness that she would not make
me a good wife; that she is not the partner suited to me; that I should
discover this within a year after marriage; and that to twelve months’
rapture would succeed a lifetime of regret. This I know.”</p>

<p>“Strange indeed!” I could not help ejaculating.</p>

<p>"While something in me,” he went on, “is acutely sensible to her
charms, something else is as deeply impressed with her defects: they
are such that she could sympathise in nothing I aspired to—co-operate
in nothing I undertook. Rosamond a sufferer, a labourer, a female
apostle? Rosamond a missionary’s wife? No!”</p>
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<p>“But you need not be a missionary. You might relinquish that scheme.”</p>

<p>“Relinquish! What! my vocation? My great work? My foundation laid on
earth for a mansion in heaven? My hopes of being numbered in the band
who have merged all ambitions in the glorious one of bettering their
race—of carrying knowledge into the realms of ignorance—of substituting
peace for war—freedom for bondage—religion for superstition—the hope of
heaven for the fear of hell? Must I relinquish that? It is dearer than
the blood in my veins. It is what I have to look forward to, and to
live for.”</p>

<p>After a considerable pause, I said—“And Miss Oliver? Are her
disappointment and sorrow of no interest to you?”</p>

<p>“Miss Oliver is ever surrounded by suitors and flatterers: in less than
a month, my image will be effaced from her heart. She will forget me;
and will marry, probably, some one who will make her far happier than I
should do.”</p>

<p>"You speak coolly enough; but you suffer in the conflict. You are
wasting away.”</p>

<p>“No. If I get a little thin, it is with anxiety about my prospects, yet
unsettled—my departure, continually procrastinated. Only this morning,
I received intelligence that the
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successor, whose arrival I have been
so long expecting, cannot be ready to replace me for three months to
come yet; and perhaps the three months may extend to six.”</p>

<p>“You tremble and become flushed whenever Miss Oliver enters the
schoolroom.”</p>

<p>Again the surprised expression crossed his face. He had not imagined
that a woman would dare to speak so to a man. For me, I felt at home in
this sort of discourse. I could never rest in communication with
strong, discreet, and refined minds, whether male or female, till I had
passed the outworks of conventional reserve, and crossed the threshold
of confidence, and won a place by their heart’s very hearthstone.</p>

<p>“You <hi rend="italic">are</hi> original,” said he, “and not timid. There is something brave
in your spirit, as well as penetrating in your eye; but allow me to
assure you that you partially misinterpret my emotions. You think them
more profound and potent than they are. You give me a larger allowance
of sympathy than I have a just claim to. When I colour, and when I
shake before Miss Oliver, I do not pity myself. I scorn the weakness. I
know it is ignoble: a mere fever of the flesh: not, I declare, the
convulsion of the soul. <hi rend="italic">That</hi> is just as fixed as a rock, firm set in
the depths
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of a restless sea. Know me to be what I am—a cold hard man.”</p>

<p>I smiled incredulously.</p>

<p>“You have taken my confidence by storm,” he continued, “and now it is
much at your service. I am simply, in my original state—stripped of
that blood-bleached robe with which Christianity covers human
deformity—a cold, hard, ambitious man. Natural affection only, of all
the sentiments, has permanent power over me. Reason, and not feeling,
is my guide; my ambition is unlimited: my desire to rise higher, to do
more than others, insatiable. I honour endurance, perseverance,
industry, talent; because these are the means by which men achieve
great ends and mount to lofty eminence. I watch your career with
interest, because I consider you a specimen of a diligent, orderly,
energetic woman: not because I deeply compassionate what you have gone
through, or what you still suffer.”</p>

<p>“You would describe yourself as a mere pagan philosopher,” I said.</p>

<p>“No. There is this difference between me and deistic philosophers: I
believe; and I believe the Gospel. You missed your epithet. I am not a
pagan, but a Christian philosopher—a follower of the sect of Jesus. As
His
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disciple I adopt His pure, His merciful, His benignant doctrines. I
advocate them: I am sworn to spread them. Won in youth to religion, she
has cultivated my original qualities thus:—From the minute germ,
natural affection, she has developed the overshadowing tree,
philanthropy. From the wild stringy root of human uprightness, she has
reared a due sense of the Divine justice. Of the ambition to win power
and renown for my wretched self, she has formed the ambition to spread
my Master’s kingdom; to achieve victories for the standard of the
cross. So much has religion done for me; turning the original materials
to the best account; pruning and training nature. But she could not
eradicate nature: nor will it be eradicated ‘till this mortal shall put
on immortality.’”</p>

<p>Having said this, he took his hat, which lay on the table beside my
palette. Once more he looked at the portrait.</p>

<p>“She <hi rend="italic">is</hi> lovely,” he murmured. “She is well named the Rose of the
World, indeed!”</p>

<p>“And may I not paint one like it for you?”</p>

<p>“<hi rend="italic">Cui bono</hi>? No.”</p>

<p>He drew over the picture the sheet of thin paper on which I was
accustomed to rest my hand in painting, to prevent the cardboard
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from
being sullied. What he suddenly saw on this blank paper, it was
impossible for me to tell; but something had caught his eye. He took it
up with a snatch; he looked at the edge; then shot a glance at me,
inexpressibly peculiar, and quite incomprehensible: a glance that
seemed to take and make note of every point in my shape, face, and
dress; for it traversed all, quick, keen as lightning. His lips parted,
as if to speak: but he checked the coming sentence, whatever it was.</p>

<p>“What is the matter?” I asked.</p>

<p>“Nothing in the world,” was the reply; and, replacing the paper, I saw
him dexterously tear a narrow slip from the margin. It disappeared in
his glove; and, with one hasty nod and “good-afternoon,” he vanished.</p>

<p>“Well!” I exclaimed, using an expression of the district, “that caps
the globe, however!”</p>

<p>I, in my turn, scrutinised the paper; but saw nothing on it save a few
dingy stains of paint where I had tried the tint in my pencil. I
pondered the mystery a minute or two; but finding it insolvable, and
being certain it could not be of much moment, I dismissed, and soon
forgot it.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XXXIII</head>
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<p>When Mr. St. John went, it was beginning to snow; the whirling storm
continued all night. The next day a keen wind brought fresh and
blinding falls; by twilight the valley was drifted up and almost
impassable. I had closed my shutter, laid a mat to the door to prevent
the snow from blowing in under it, trimmed my fire, and after sitting
nearly an hour on the hearth listening to the muffled fury of the
tempest, I lit a candle, took down “Marmion,” and beginning—</p>

                        <lg>
                                <l>“Day set on Norham’s castled steep,</l>
                            <l rend="indent">And Tweed’s fair river broad and deep,</l>
                            <l>And Cheviot’s mountains lone;</l>
                            <l rend="indent">The massive towers, the donjon keep,</l>
                            <l>The flanking walls that round them sweep,</l>
                            <l rend="indent">In yellow lustre shone”—</l>
                            </lg>


                        <p>I soon forgot storm in music.</p>
                        
<p>I heard a noise: the wind, I thought, shook the door. No; it was St.
John Rivers, who, 
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lifting the latch, came in out of the frozen
hurricane—the howling darkness—and stood before me: the cloak that
covered his tall figure all white as a glacier. I was almost in
consternation, so little had I expected any guest from the blocked-up
vale that night.</p>

<p>“Any ill news?” I demanded. “Has anything happened?”</p>

<p>“No. How very easily alarmed you are!” he answered, removing his cloak
and hanging it up against the door, towards which he again coolly
pushed the mat which his entrance had deranged. He stamped the snow
from his boots.</p>

<p>“I shall sully the purity of your floor,” said he, “but you must excuse
me for once.” Then he approached the fire. “I have had hard work to get
here, I assure you,” he observed, as he warmed his hands over the
flame. “One drift took me up to the waist; happily the snow is quite
soft yet.”</p>

<p>“But why are you come?” I could not forbear saying.</p>

<p>“Rather an inhospitable question to put to a visitor; but since you ask
it, I answer simply to have a little talk with you; I got tired of my
mute books and empty rooms. Besides, since yesterday I have experienced
the excitement 
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of a person to whom a tale has been half-told, and who
is impatient to hear the sequel.”</p>

<p>He sat down. I recalled his singular conduct of yesterday, and really I
began to fear his wits were touched. If he were insane, however, his
was a very cool and collected insanity: I had never seen that
handsome-featured face of his look more like chiselled marble than it
did just now, as he put aside his snow-wet hair from his forehead and
let the firelight shine free on his pale brow and cheek as pale, where
it grieved me to discover the hollow trace of care or sorrow now so
plainly graved. I waited, expecting he would say something I could at
least comprehend; but his hand was now at his chin, his finger on his
lip: he was thinking. It struck me that his hand looked wasted like his
face. A perhaps uncalled-for gush of pity came over my heart: I was
moved to say—</p>

<p>“I wish Diana or Mary would come and live with you: it is too bad that
you should be quite alone; and you are recklessly rash about your own
health.”</p>

<p>“Not at all,” said he: “I care for myself when necessary. I am well
now. What do you see amiss in me?”</p>
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<p>This was said with a careless, abstracted indifference, which showed
that my solicitude was, at least in his opinion, wholly superfluous. I
was silenced.</p>

<p>He still slowly moved his finger over his upper lip, and still his eye
dwelt dreamily on the glowing grate; thinking it urgent to say
something, I asked him presently if he felt any cold draught from the
door, which was behind him.</p>

<p>“No, no!” he responded shortly and somewhat testily.</p>

<p>“Well,” I reflected, “if you won’t talk, you may be still; I’ll let you
alone now, and return to my book.”</p>

<p>So I snuffed the candle and resumed the perusal of “Marmion.” He soon
stirred; my eye was instantly drawn to his movements; he only took out
a morocco pocket-book, thence produced a letter, which he read in
silence, folded it, put it back, relapsed into meditation. It was vain
to try to read with such an inscrutable fixture before me; nor could I,
in impatience, consent to be dumb; he might rebuff me if he liked, but
talk I would.</p>

<p>“Have you heard from Diana and Mary lately?”</p>
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<p>“Not since the letter I showed you a week ago.”</p>

<p>“There has not been any change made about your own arrangements? You
will not be summoned to leave England sooner than you expected?”</p>

<p>“I fear not, indeed: such chance is too good to befall me.” Baffled so
far, I changed my ground. I bethought myself to talk about the school
and my scholars.</p>

<p>“Mary Garrett’s mother is better, and Mary came back to the school this
morning, and I shall have four new girls next week from the Foundry
Close—they would have come to-day but for the snow.”</p>

<p>“Indeed!”</p>

<p>“Mr. Oliver pays for two.”</p>

<p>“Does he?”</p>

<p>“He means to give the whole school a treat at Christmas.”</p>

<p>“I know.”</p>

<p>“Was it your suggestion?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“Whose, then?”</p>

<p>“His daughter’s, I think.”</p>

<p>“It is like her: she is so good-natured.”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>Again came the blank of a pause: the clock 
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struck eight strokes. It
aroused him; he uncrossed his legs, sat erect, turned to me.</p>

<p>“Leave your book a moment, and come a little nearer the fire,” he said.</p>

<p>Wondering, and of my wonder finding no end, I complied.</p>

<p>“Half-an-hour ago,” he pursued, “I spoke of my impatience to hear the
sequel of a tale: on reflection, I find the matter will be better
managed by my assuming the narrator’s part, and converting you into a
listener. Before commencing, it is but fair to warn you that the story
will sound somewhat hackneyed in your ears; but stale details often
regain a degree of freshness when they pass through new lips. For the
rest, whether trite or novel, it is short.</p>

<p>“Twenty years ago, a poor curate—never mind his name at this
moment—fell in love with a rich man’s daughter; she fell in love with
him, and married him, against the advice of all her friends, who
consequently disowned her immediately after the wedding. Before two
years passed, the rash pair were both dead, and laid quietly side by
side under one slab. (I have seen their grave; it formed part of the
pavement of a huge churchyard surrounding the grim, soot-black old
cathedral of an overgrown 
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manufacturing town in ——shire.) They left a
daughter, which, at its very birth, Charity received in her lap—cold as
that of the snow-drift I almost stuck fast in to-night. Charity carried
the friendless thing to the house of its rich maternal relations; it
was reared by an aunt-in-law, called (I come to names now) Mrs. Reed of
Gateshead. You start—did you hear a noise? I daresay it is only a rat
scrambling along the rafters of the adjoining schoolroom: it was a barn
before I had it repaired and altered, and barns are generally haunted
by rats.—To proceed. Mrs. Reed kept the orphan ten years: whether it
was happy or not with her, I cannot say, never having been told; but at
the end of that time she transferred it to a place you know—being no
other than Lowood School, where you so long resided yourself. It seems
her career there was very honourable: from a pupil, she became a
teacher, like yourself—really it strikes me there are parallel points
in her history and yours—she left it to be a governess: there, again,
your fates were analogous; she undertook the education of the ward of a
certain Mr. Rochester.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rivers!” I interrupted.</p>

<p>“I can guess your feelings,” he said, “but 
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restrain them for a while: I
have nearly finished; hear me to the end. Of Mr. Rochester’s character
I know nothing, but the one fact that he professed to offer honourable
marriage to this young girl, and that at the very altar she discovered
he had a wife yet alive, though a lunatic. What his subsequent conduct
and proposals were is a matter of pure conjecture; but when an event
transpired which rendered inquiry after the governess necessary, it was
discovered she was gone—no one could tell when, where, or how. She had
left Thornfield Hall in the night; every research after her course had
been vain: the country had been scoured far and wide; no vestige of
information could be gathered respecting her. Yet that she should be
found is become a matter of serious urgency: advertisements have been
put in all the papers; I myself have received a letter from one Mr.
Briggs, a solicitor, communicating the details I have just imparted. Is
it not an odd tale?”</p>

<p>“Just tell me this,” said I, “and since you know so much, you surely
<hi rend="italic">can</hi> tell it me—what of Mr. Rochester? How and where is he? What is he
doing? Is he well?”</p>

<p>“I am ignorant of all concerning Mr. Rochester: the letter never
mentions him but to 
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narrate the fraudulent and illegal attempt I have
adverted to. You should rather ask the name of the governess—the nature
of the event which requires her appearance.”</p>

<p>“Did no one go to Thornfield Hall, then? Did no one see Mr. Rochester?”</p>

<p>“I suppose not.”</p>

<p>“But they wrote to him?”</p>

<p>“Of course.”</p>

<p>“And what did he say? Who has his letters?”</p>

<p>“Mr. Briggs intimates that the answer to his application was not from
Mr. Rochester, but from a lady: it is signed ‘Alice Fairfax.’”</p>

<p>I felt cold and dismayed: my worst fears then were probably true: he
had in all probability left England and rushed in reckless desperation
to some former haunt on the Continent. And what opiate for his severe
sufferings—what object for his strong passions—had he sought there? I
dared not answer the question. Oh, my poor master—once almost my
husband—whom I had often called “my dear Edward!”</p>

<p>“He must have been a bad man,” observed Mr. Rivers.</p>

<p>“You don’t know him—don’t pronounce an opinion upon him,” I said, with
warmth.</p>
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<p>“Very well,” he answered quietly: “and indeed my head is otherwise
occupied than with him: I have my tale to finish. Since you won’t ask
the governess’s name, I must tell it of my own accord. Stay! I have it
here—it is always more satisfactory to see important points written
down, fairly committed to black and white.”</p>

<p>And the pocket-book was again deliberately produced, opened, sought
through; from one of its compartments was extracted a shabby slip of
paper, hastily torn off: I recognised in its texture and its stains of
ultra-marine, and lake, and vermillion, the ravished margin of the
portrait-cover. He got up, held it close to my eyes: and I read, traced
in Indian ink, in my own handwriting, the words “JANE EYRE”—the work
doubtless of some moment of abstraction.</p>

<p>“Briggs wrote to me of a Jane Eyre:” he said, “the advertisements
demanded a Jane Eyre: I knew a Jane Elliott.—I confess I had my
suspicions, but it was only yesterday afternoon they were at once
resolved into certainty. You own the name and renounce the <hi rend="italic">alias</hi>?”</p>

<p>“Yes—yes; but where is Mr. Briggs? He perhaps knows more of Mr.
Rochester than you do.”</p>
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<p>“Briggs is in London. I should doubt his knowing anything at all about
Mr. Rochester; it is not in Mr. Rochester he is interested. Meantime,
you forget essential points in pursuing trifles: you do not inquire why
Mr. Briggs sought after you—what he wanted with you.”</p>

<p>“Well, what did he want?”</p>

<p>“Merely to tell you that your uncle, Mr. Eyre of Madeira, is dead; that
he has left you all his property, and that you are now rich—merely
that—nothing more.”</p>

<p>“I!—rich?”</p>

<p>“Yes, you, rich—quite an heiress.”</p>

<p>Silence succeeded.</p>

<p>“You must prove your identity of course,” resumed St. John presently:
“a step which will offer no difficulties; you can then enter on
immediate possession. Your fortune is vested in the English funds;
Briggs has the will and the necessary documents.”</p>

<p>Here was a new card turned up! It is a fine thing, reader, to be lifted
in a moment from indigence to wealth—a very fine thing; but not a
matter one can comprehend, or consequently enjoy, all at once. And then
there are other chances in life far more thrilling and rapture-giving:
<hi rend="italic">this</hi> is solid, an affair of 
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the actual world, nothing ideal about it:
all its associations are solid and sober, and its manifestations are
the same. One does not jump, and spring, and shout hurrah! at hearing
one has got a fortune; one begins to consider responsibilities, and to
ponder business; on a base of steady satisfaction rise certain grave
cares, and we contain ourselves, and brood over our bliss with a solemn
brow.</p>

<p>Besides, the words Legacy, Bequest, go side by side with the words,
Death, Funeral. My uncle I had heard was dead—my only relative; ever
since being made aware of his existence, I had cherished the hope of
one day seeing him: now, I never should. And then this money came only
to me: not to me and a rejoicing family, but to my isolated self. It
was a grand boon doubtless; and independence would be glorious—yes, I
felt that—<hi rend="italic">that</hi> thought swelled my heart.</p>

<p>“You unbend your forehead at last,” said Mr. Rivers. “I thought Medusa
had looked at you, and that you were turning to stone. Perhaps now you
will ask how much you are worth?”</p>

<p>“How much am I worth?”</p>

<p>“Oh, a trifle! Nothing of course to speak of—twenty thousand pounds, I
think they say—but what is that?”</p>
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<p>“Twenty thousand pounds?”</p>

<p>Here was a new stunner—I had been calculating on four or five thousand.
This news actually took my breath for a moment: Mr. St. John, whom I
had never heard laugh before, laughed now.</p>

<p>“Well,” said he, “if you had committed a murder, and I had told you
your crime was discovered, you could scarcely look more aghast.”</p>

<p>“It is a large sum—don’t you think there is a mistake?”</p>

<p>“No mistake at all.”</p>

<p>“Perhaps you have read the figures wrong—it may be two thousand!”</p>

<p>“It is written in letters, not figures,—twenty thousand.”</p>

<p>I again felt rather like an individual of but average gastronomical
powers sitting down to feast alone at a table spread with provisions
for a hundred. Mr. Rivers rose now and put his cloak on.</p>

<p>“If it were not such a very wild night,” he said, “I would send Hannah
down to keep you company: you look too desperately miserable to be left
alone. But Hannah, poor woman! could not stride the drifts so well as
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I: her legs are not quite so long: so I must e’en leave you to your
sorrows. Good-night.”</p>

<p>He was lifting the latch: a sudden thought occurred to me.</p>

<p>“Stop one minute!” I cried.</p>

<p>“Well?”</p>

<p>“It puzzles me to know why Mr. Briggs wrote to you about me; or how he
knew you, or could fancy that you, living in such an out-of-the-way
place, had the power to aid in my discovery.”</p>

<p>“Oh! I am a clergyman,” he said; “and the clergy are often appealed to
about odd matters.” Again the latch rattled.</p>

<p>“No; that does not satisfy me!” I exclaimed: and indeed there was
something in the hasty and unexplanatory reply which, instead of
allaying, piqued my curiosity more than ever.</p>

<p>“It is a very strange piece of business,” I added; “I must know more
about it.”</p>

<p>“Another time.”</p>

<p>“No; to-night!—to-night!” and as he turned from the door, I placed
myself between it and him. He looked rather embarrassed.</p>

<p>“You certainly shall not go till you have told me all,” I said.</p>

<p>“I would rather not just now.”</p>

<p>“You shall!—you must!”</p>
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<p>“I would rather Diana or Mary informed you.”</p>

<p>Of course these objections wrought my eagerness to a climax: gratified
it must be, and that without delay; and I told him so.</p>

<p>“But I apprised you that I was a hard man,” said he, “difficult to
persuade.”</p>

<p>“And I am a hard woman,—impossible to put off.”</p>

<p>“And then,” he pursued, “I am cold: no fervour infects me.”</p>

<p>“Whereas I am hot, and fire dissolves ice. The blaze there has thawed
all the snow from your cloak; by the same token, it has streamed on to
my floor, and made it like a trampled street. As you hope ever to be
forgiven, Mr. Rivers, the high crime and misdemeanour of spoiling a
sanded kitchen, tell me what I wish to know.”</p>

<p>“Well, then,” he said, “I yield; if not to your earnestness, to your
perseverance: as stone is worn by continual dropping. Besides, you must
know some day,—as well now as later. Your name is Jane Eyre?”</p>

<p>“Of course: that was all settled before.”</p>

<p>“You are not, perhaps, aware that I am your namesake?—that I was
christened St. John Eyre Rivers?”</p>
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<p>“No, indeed! I remember now seeing the letter E. comprised in your
initials written in books you have at different times lent me; but I
never asked for what name it stood. But what then? Surely—”</p>

<p>I stopped: I could not trust myself to entertain, much less to express,
the thought that rushed upon me—that embodied itself,—that, in a
second, stood out a strong, solid probability. Circumstances knit
themselves, fitted themselves, shot into order: the chain that had been
lying hitherto a formless lump of links was drawn out straight,—every
ring was perfect, the connection complete. I knew, by instinct, how the
matter stood, before St. John had said another word; but I cannot
expect the reader to have the same intuitive perception, so I must
repeat his explanation.</p>

<p>“My mother’s name was Eyre; she had two brothers; one a clergyman, who
married Miss Jane Reed, of Gateshead; the other, John Eyre, Esq.,
merchant, late of Funchal, Madeira. Mr. Briggs, being Mr. Eyre’s
solicitor, wrote to us last August to inform us of our uncle’s death,
and to say that he had left his property to his brother the clergyman’s
orphan daughter, overlooking us, in consequence of a quarrel, never
forgiven, between 
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him and my father. He wrote again a few weeks since,
to intimate that the heiress was lost, and asking if we knew anything
of her. A name casually written on a slip of paper has enabled me to
find her out. You know the rest.” Again he was going, but I set my back
against the door.</p>

<p>“Do let me speak,” I said; “let me have one moment to draw breath and
reflect.” I paused—he stood before me, hat in hand, looking composed
enough. I resumed—</p>

<p>“Your mother was my father’s sister?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“My aunt, consequently?”</p>

<p>He bowed.</p>

<p>“My uncle John was your uncle John? You, Diana, and Mary are his
sister’s children, as I am his brother’s child?”</p>

<p>“Undeniably.”</p>

<p>“You three, then, are my cousins; half our blood on each side flows
from the same source?”</p>

<p>“We are cousins; yes.”</p>

<p>I surveyed him. It seemed I had found a brother: one I could be proud
of,—one I could love; and two sisters, whose qualities were such, that,
when I knew them but as mere strangers, they had inspired me with
genuine 
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affection and admiration. The two girls, on whom, kneeling down
on the wet ground, and looking through the low, latticed window of Moor
House kitchen, I had gazed with so bitter a mixture of interest and
despair, were my near kinswomen; and the young and stately gentleman
who had found me almost dying at his threshold was my blood relation.
Glorious discovery to a lonely wretch! This was wealth indeed!—wealth
to the heart!—a mine of pure, genial affections. This was a blessing,
bright, vivid, and exhilarating;—not like the ponderous gift of gold:
rich and welcome enough in its way, but sobering from its weight. I now
clapped my hands in sudden joy—my pulse bounded, my veins thrilled.</p>

<p>“Oh, I am glad!—I am glad!” I exclaimed.</p>

<p>St. John smiled. “Did I not say you neglected essential points to
pursue trifles?” he asked. “You were serious when I told you you had
got a fortune; and now, for a matter of no moment, you are excited.”</p>

<p>“What <hi rend="italic">can</hi> you mean? It may be of no moment to you; you have sisters
and don’t care for a cousin; but I had nobody; and now three
relations,—or two, if you don’t choose to 
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be counted,—are born into my
world full-grown. I say again, I am glad!”</p>

<p>I walked fast through the room: I stopped, half suffocated with the
thoughts that rose faster than I could receive, comprehend, settle
them:—thoughts of what might, could, would, and should be, and that ere
long. I looked at the blank wall: it seemed a sky thick with ascending
stars,—every one lit me to a purpose or delight. Those who had saved my
life, whom, till this hour, I had loved barrenly, I could now benefit.
They were under a yoke,—I could free them: they were scattered,—I could
reunite them: the independence, the affluence which was mine, might be
theirs too. Were we not four? Twenty thousand pounds shared equally
would be five thousand each, justice—enough and to spare: justice would
be done,—mutual happiness secured. Now the wealth did not weigh on me:
now it was not a mere bequest of coin,—it was a legacy of life, hope,
enjoyment.</p>

<p>How I looked while these ideas were taking my spirit by storm, I cannot
tell; but I perceived soon that Mr. Rivers had placed a chair behind
me, and was gently attempting to make me sit down on it. He also
advised me to 
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be composed; I scorned the insinuation of helplessness
and distraction, shook off his hand, and began to walk about again.</p>

<p>“Write to Diana and Mary to-morrow,” I said, “and tell them to come
home directly. Diana said they would both consider themselves rich with
a thousand pounds, so with five thousand they will do very well.”</p>

<p>“Tell me where I can get you a glass of water,” said St. John; “you
must really make an effort to tranquillise your feelings.”</p>

<p>“Nonsense! and what sort of an effect will the bequest have on you?
Will it keep you in England, induce you to marry Miss Oliver, and
settle down like an ordinary mortal?”</p>

<p>“You wander: your head becomes confused. I have been too abrupt in
communicating the news; it has excited you beyond your strength.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rivers! you quite put me out of patience: I am rational enough; it
is you who misunderstand, or rather who affect to misunderstand.”</p>

<p>“Perhaps, if you explained yourself a little more fully, I should
comprehend better.”</p>

<p>“Explain! What is there to explain? You cannot fail to see that twenty
thousand pounds, the sum in question, divided equally between 
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the nephew and three nieces of our uncle, will give five thousand to each?
What I want is, that you should write to your sisters and tell them of
the fortune that has accrued to them.”</p>

<p>“To you, you mean.”</p>

<p>“I have intimated my view of the case: I am incapable of taking any
other. I am not brutally selfish, blindly unjust, or fiendishly
ungrateful. Besides, I am resolved I will have a home and connections.
I like Moor House, and I will live at Moor House; I like Diana and
Mary, and I will attach myself for life to Diana and Mary. It would
please and benefit me to have five thousand pounds; it would torment
and oppress me to have twenty thousand; which, moreover, could never be
mine in justice, though it might in law. I abandon to you, then, what
is absolutely superfluous to me. Let there be no opposition, and no
discussion about it; let us agree amongst each other, and decide the
point at once.”</p>

<p>“This is acting on first impulses; you must take days to consider such
a matter, ere your word can be regarded as valid.”</p>

<p>“Oh! if all you doubt is my sincerity, I am easy: you see the justice
of the case?”</p>

<p>“I <hi rend="italic">do</hi> see a certain justice; but it is contrary 
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to all custom.
Besides, the entire fortune is your right: my uncle gained it by his
own efforts; he was free to leave it to whom he would: he left it to
you. After all, justice permits you to keep it: you may, with a clear
conscience, consider it absolutely your own.”</p>

<p>“With me,” said I, “it is fully as much a matter of feeling as of
conscience: I must indulge my feelings; I so seldom have had an
opportunity of doing so. Were you to argue, object, and annoy me for a
year, I could not forego the delicious pleasure of which I have caught
a glimpse—that of repaying, in part, a mighty obligation, and winning
to myself lifelong friends.”</p>

<p>“You think so now,” rejoined St. John, “because you do not know what it
is to possess, nor consequently to enjoy wealth: you cannot form a
notion of the importance twenty thousand pounds would give you; of the
place it would enable you to take in society; of the prospects it would
open to you: you cannot—”</p>

<p>“And you,” I interrupted, “cannot at all imagine the craving I have for
fraternal and sisterly love. I never had a home, I never had brothers
or sisters; I must and will have them now: you are not reluctant to
admit me and own me, are you?”</p>
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<p>“Jane, I will be your brother—my sisters will be your sisters—without
stipulating for this sacrifice of your just rights.”</p>

<p>“Brother? Yes; at the distance of a thousand leagues! Sisters? Yes;
slaving amongst strangers! I, wealthy—gorged with gold I never earned
and do not merit! You, penniless! Famous equality and fraternisation!
Close union! Intimate attachment!”</p>

<p>“But, Jane, your aspirations after family ties and domestic happiness
may be realised otherwise than by the means you contemplate: you may
marry.”</p>

<p>“Nonsense, again! Marry! I don’t want to marry, and never shall marry.”</p>

<p>“That is saying too much: such hazardous affirmations are a proof of
the excitement under which you labour.”</p>

<p>“It is not saying too much: I know what I feel, and how averse are my
inclinations to the bare thought of marriage. No one would take me for
love; and I will not be regarded in the light of a mere money
speculation. And I do not want a stranger—unsympathising, alien,
different from me; I want my kindred: those with whom I have full
fellow-feeling. Say again you will be my brother: when you uttered the
words I was satisfied, happy; 
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repeat them, if you can, repeat them sincerely.”</p>

<p>“I think I can. I know I have always loved my own sisters; and I know
on what my affection for them is grounded,—respect for their worth and
admiration of their talents. You too have principle and mind: your
tastes and habits resemble Diana’s and Mary’s; your presence is always
agreeable to me; in your conversation I have already for some time
found a salutary solace. I feel I can easily and naturally make room in
my heart for you, as my third and youngest sister.”</p>

<p>“Thank you: that contents me for to-night. Now you had better go; for
if you stay longer, you will perhaps irritate me afresh by some
mistrustful scruple.”</p>

<p>“And the school, Miss Eyre? It must now be shut up, I suppose?”</p>

<p>“No. I will retain my post of mistress till you get a substitute.”</p>

<p>He smiled approbation: we shook hands, and he took leave.</p>

<p>I need not narrate in detail the further struggles I had, and arguments
I used, to get matters regarding the legacy settled as I wished. My
task was a very hard one; but, as I was absolutely resolved—as my
cousins 
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saw at length that my mind was really and immutably fixed on
making a just division of the property—as they must in their own hearts
have felt the equity of the intention; and must, besides, have been
innately conscious that in my place they would have done precisely what
I wished to do—they yielded at length so far as to consent to put the
affair to arbitration. The judges chosen were Mr. Oliver and an able
lawyer: both coincided in my opinion: I carried my point. The
instruments of transfer were drawn out: St. John, Diana, Mary, and I,
each became possessed of a competency.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER VIII</head>
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<p>It was near Christmas by the time all was settled: the season of
general holiday approached. I now closed Morton school, taking care
that the parting should not be barren on my side. Good fortune opens
the hand as well as the heart wonderfully; and to give somewhat when we
have largely received, is but to afford a vent to the unusual
ebullition of the sensations. I had long felt with pleasure that many
of my rustic scholars liked me, and when we parted, that consciousness
was confirmed: they manifested their affection plainly and strongly.
Deep was my gratification to find I had really a place in their
unsophisticated hearts: I promised them that never a week should pass
in future that I did not visit them, and give them an hour’s teaching
in their school.</p>

<p>Mr. Rivers came up as, having seen the 
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classes, now numbering sixty
girls, file out before me, and locked the door, I stood with the key in
my hand, exchanging a few words of special farewell with some
half-dozen of my best scholars: as decent, respectable, modest, and
well-informed young women as could be found in the ranks of the British
peasantry. And that is saying a great deal; for after all, the British
peasantry are the best taught, best mannered, most self-respecting of
any in Europe: since those days I have seen paysannes and Bäuerinnen;
and the best of them seemed to me ignorant, coarse, and besotted,
compared with my Morton girls.</p>

<p>“Do you consider you have got your reward for a season of exertion?”
asked Mr. Rivers, when they were gone. “Does not the consciousness of
having done some real good in your day and generation give pleasure?”</p>

<p>“Doubtless.”</p>

<p>“And you have only toiled a few months! Would not a life devoted to the
task of regenerating your race be well spent?”</p>

<p>“Yes,” I said; “but I could not go on for ever so: I want to enjoy my
own faculties as well as to cultivate those of other people. I must
enjoy them now; don’t recall either 
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my mind or body to the school; I am
out of it and disposed for full holiday.”</p>

<p>He looked grave. “What now? What sudden eagerness is this you evince?
What are you going to do?”</p>

<p>“To be active: as active as I can. And first I must beg you to set
Hannah at liberty, and get somebody else to wait on you.”</p>

<p>“Do you want her?”</p>

<p>“Yes, to go with me to Moor House. Diana and Mary will be at home in a
week, and I want to have everything in order against their arrival.”</p>

<p>“I understand. I thought you were for flying off on some excursion. It
is better so: Hannah shall go with you.”</p>

<p>“Tell her to be ready by to-morrow then; and here is the schoolroom
key: I will give you the key of my cottage in the morning.”</p>

<p>He took it. “You give it up very gleefully,” said he; “I don’t quite
understand your light-heartedness, because I cannot tell what
employment you propose to yourself as a substitute for the one you are
relinquishing. What aim, what purpose, what ambition in life have you
now?”</p>

<p>“My first aim will be to <hi rend="italic">clean down</hi> (do you comprehend the full force
of the expression?)—
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to <hi rend="italic">clean down</hi> Moor House from chamber to cellar;
my next to rub it up with bees-wax, oil, and an indefinite number of
cloths, till it glitters again; my third, to arrange every chair,
table, bed, carpet, with mathematical precision; afterwards I shall go
near to ruin you in coals and peat to keep up good fires in every room;
and lastly, the two days preceding that on which your sisters are
expected will be devoted by Hannah and me to such a beating of eggs,
sorting of currants, grating of spices, compounding of Christmas cakes,
chopping up of materials for mince-pies, and solemnising of other
culinary rites, as words can convey but an inadequate notion of to the
uninitiated like you. My purpose, in short, is to have all things in an
absolutely perfect state of readiness for Diana and Mary before next
Thursday; and my ambition is to give them a beau-ideal of a welcome
when they come.”</p>

<p>St. John smiled slightly: still he was dissatisfied.</p>

<p>“It is all very well for the present,” said he; “but seriously, I trust
that when the first flush of vivacity is over, you will look a little
higher than domestic endearments and household joys.”</p>
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<p>“The best things the world has!” I interrupted.</p>

<p>“No, Jane, no: this world is not the scene of fruition; do not attempt
to make it so: nor of rest; do not turn slothful.”</p>

<p>“I mean, on the contrary, to be busy.”</p>

<p>“Jane, I excuse you for the present: two months’ grace I allow you for
the full enjoyment of your new position, and for pleasing yourself with
this late-found charm of relationship; but <hi rend="italic">then</hi>, I hope you will
begin to look beyond Moor House and Morton, and sisterly society, and
the selfish calm and sensual comfort of civilised affluence. I hope
your energies will then once more trouble you with their strength.”</p>

<p>I looked at him with surprise. “St. John,” I said, “I think you are
almost wicked to talk so. I am disposed to be as content as a queen,
and you try to stir me up to restlessness! To what end?”</p>

<p>“To the end of turning to profit the talents which God has committed to
your keeping; and of which He will surely one day demand a strict
account. Jane, I shall watch you closely and anxiously—I warn you of
that. And try to restrain the disproportionate fervour with which you
throw yourself into commonplace 
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home pleasures. Don’t cling so
tenaciously to ties of the flesh; save your constancy and ardour for an
adequate cause; forbear to waste them on trite transient objects. Do
you hear, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Yes; just as if you were speaking Greek. I feel I have adequate cause
to be happy, and I <hi rend="italic">will</hi> be happy. Goodbye!”</p>

<p>Happy at Moor House I was, and hard I worked; and so did Hannah: she
was charmed to see how jovial I could be amidst the bustle of a house
turned topsy-turvy—how I could brush, and dust, and clean, and cook.
And really, after a day or two of confusion worse confounded, it was
delightful by degrees to invoke order from the chaos ourselves had
made. I had previously taken a journey to S—— to purchase some new
furniture: my cousins having given me <hi rend="italic">carte blanche</hi> to effect what
alterations I pleased, and a sum having been set aside for that
purpose. The ordinary sitting-room and bedrooms I left much as they
were: for I knew Diana and Mary would derive more pleasure from seeing
again the old homely tables, and chairs, and beds, than from the
spectacle of the smartest innovations. Still some novelty was
necessary, to give to their return the piquancy with which I wished 
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it to be invested. Dark handsome new carpets and curtains, an arrangement
of some carefully selected antique ornaments in porcelain and bronze,
new coverings, and mirrors, and dressing-cases, for the toilet tables,
answered the end: they looked fresh without being glaring. A spare
parlour and bedroom I refurnished entirely, with old mahogany and
crimson upholstery: I laid canvas on the passage, and carpets on the
stairs. When all was finished, I thought Moor House as complete a model
of bright modest snugness within, as it was, at this season, a specimen
of wintry waste and desert dreariness without.</p>

<p>The eventful Thursday at length came. They were expected about dark,
and ere dusk fires were lit upstairs and below; the kitchen was in
perfect trim; Hannah and I were dressed, and all was in readiness.</p>

<p>St. John arrived first. I had entreated him to keep quite clear of the
house till everything was arranged: and, indeed, the bare idea of the
commotion, at once sordid and trivial, going on within its walls
sufficed to scare him to estrangement. He found me in the kitchen,
watching the progress of certain cakes for tea, then baking.
Approaching the hearth, he asked, “If I was at last satisfied with
housemaid’s 
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work?” I answered by inviting him to accompany me on a
general inspection of the result of my labours. With some difficulty, I
got him to make the tour of the house. He just looked in at the doors I
opened; and when he had wandered upstairs and downstairs, he said I
must have gone through a great deal of fatigue and trouble to have
effected such considerable changes in so short a time: but not a
syllable did he utter indicating pleasure in the improved aspect of his
abode.</p>

<p>This silence damped me. I thought perhaps the alterations had disturbed
some old associations he valued. I inquired whether this was the case:
no doubt in a somewhat crest-fallen tone.</p>

<p>“Not at all; he had, on the contrary, remarked that I had scrupulously
respected every association: he feared, indeed, I must have bestowed
more thought on the matter than it was worth. How many minutes, for
instance, had I devoted to studying the arrangement of this very
room?—By-the-bye, could I tell him where such a book was?”</p>

<p>I showed him the volume on the shelf: he took it down, and withdrawing
to his accustomed window recess, he began to read it.</p>
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<p>Now, I did not like this, reader. St. John was a good man; but I began
to feel he had spoken truth of himself when he said he was hard and
cold. The humanities and amenities of life had no attraction for
him—its peaceful enjoyments no charm. Literally, he lived only to
aspire—after what was good and great, certainly; but still he would
never rest, nor approve of others resting round him. As I looked at his
lofty forehead, still and pale as a white stone—at his fine lineaments
fixed in study—I comprehended all at once that he would hardly make a
good husband: that it would be a trying thing to be his wife. I
understood, as by inspiration, the nature of his love for Miss Oliver;
I agreed with him that it was but a love of the senses. I comprehended
how he should despise himself for the feverish influence it exercised
over him; how he should wish to stifle and destroy it; how he should
mistrust its ever conducting permanently to his happiness or hers. I
saw he was of the material from which nature hews her heroes—Christian
and Pagan—her lawgivers, her statesmen, her conquerors: a steadfast
bulwark for great interests to rest upon; but, at the fireside, too
often a cold cumbrous column, gloomy and out of place.</p>
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<p>“This parlour is not his sphere,” I reflected: “the Himalayan ridge or
Caffre bush, even the plague-cursed Guinea Coast swamp would suit him
better. Well may he eschew the calm of domestic life; it is not his
element: there his faculties stagnate—they cannot develop or appear to
advantage. It is in scenes of strife and danger—where courage is
proved, and energy exercised, and fortitude tasked—that he will speak
and move, the leader and superior. A merry child would have the
advantage of him on this hearth. He is right to choose a missionary’s
career—I see it now.”</p>

<p>“They are coming! they are coming!” cried Hannah, throwing open the
parlour door. At the same moment old Carlo barked joyfully. Out I ran.
It was now dark; but a rumbling of wheels was audible. Hannah soon had
a lantern lit. The vehicle had stopped at the wicket; the driver opened
the door: first one well-known form, then another, stepped out. In a
minute I had my face under their bonnets, in contact first with Mary’s
soft cheek, then with Diana’s flowing curls. They laughed—kissed
me—then Hannah: patted Carlo, who was half wild with delight; asked
eagerly if all was well; and being assured in the affirmative, hastened
into the house.</p>
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<p>They were stiff with their long and jolting drive from Whitcross, and
chilled with the frosty night air; but their pleasant countenances
expanded to the cheerful firelight. While the driver and Hannah brought
in the boxes, they demanded St. John. At this moment he advanced from
the parlour. They both threw their arms round his neck at once. He gave
each one quiet kiss, said in a low tone a few words of welcome, stood a
while to be talked to, and then, intimating that he supposed they would
soon rejoin him in the parlour, withdrew there as to a place of refuge.</p>

<p>I had lit their candles to go upstairs, but Diana had first to give
hospitable orders respecting the driver; this done, both followed me.
They were delighted with the renovation and decorations of their rooms;
with the new drapery, and fresh carpets, and rich tinted china vases:
they expressed their gratification ungrudgingly. I had the pleasure of
feeling that my arrangements met their wishes exactly, and that what I
had done added a vivid charm to their joyous return home.</p>

<p>Sweet was that evening. My cousins, full of exhilaration, were so
eloquent in narrative and comment, that their fluency covered St.
John’s taciturnity: he was sincerely glad to 
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see his sisters; but in
their glow of fervour and flow of joy he could not sympathise. The
event of the day—that is, the return of Diana and Mary—pleased him; but
the accompaniments of that event, the glad tumult, the garrulous glee
of reception irked him: I saw he wished the calmer morrow was come. In
the very meridian of the night’s enjoyment, about an hour after tea, a
rap was heard at the door. Hannah entered with the intimation that “a
poor lad was come, at that unlikely time, to fetch Mr. Rivers to see
his mother, who was drawing away.”</p>

<p>“Where does she live, Hannah?”</p>

<p>“Clear up at Whitcross Brow, almost four miles off, and moor and moss
all the way.”</p>

<p>“Tell him I will go.”</p>

<p>“I’m sure, sir, you had better not. It’s the worst road to travel after
dark that can be: there’s no track at all over the bog. And then it is
such a bitter night—the keenest wind you ever felt. You had better send
word, sir, that you will be there in the morning.”</p>

<p>But he was already in the passage, putting on his cloak; and without
one objection, one murmur, he departed. It was then nine o’clock: he
did not return till midnight. 
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Starved and tired enough he was: but he
looked happier than when he set out. He had performed an act of duty;
made an exertion; felt his own strength to do and deny, and was on
better terms with himself.</p>

<p>I am afraid the whole of the ensuing week tried his patience. It was
Christmas week: we took to no settled employment, but spent it in a
sort of merry domestic dissipation. The air of the moors, the freedom
of home, the dawn of prosperity, acted on Diana and Mary’s spirits like
some life-giving elixir: they were gay from morning till noon, and from
noon till night. They could always talk; and their discourse, witty,
pithy, original, had such charms for me, that I preferred listening to,
and sharing in it, to doing anything else. St. John did not rebuke our
vivacity; but he escaped from it: he was seldom in the house; his
parish was large, the population scattered, and he found daily business
in visiting the sick and poor in its different districts.</p>

<p>One morning at breakfast, Diana, after looking a little pensive for
some minutes, asked him, “If his plans were yet unchanged.”</p>

<p>“Unchanged and unchangeable,” was the reply. And he proceeded to inform
us that 
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his departure from England was now definitively fixed for the
ensuing year.</p>

<p>“And Rosamond Oliver?” suggested Mary, the words seeming to escape her
lips involuntarily: for no sooner had she uttered them, than she made a
gesture as if wishing to recall them. St. John had a book in his
hand—it was his unsocial custom to read at meals—he closed it, and
looked up.</p>

<p>“Rosamond Oliver,” said he, “is about to be married to Mr. Granby, one
of the best connected and most estimable residents in S——, grandson and
heir to Sir Frederic Granby: I had the intelligence from her father
yesterday.”</p>

<p>His sisters looked at each other and at me; we all three looked at him:
he was serene as glass.</p>

<p>“The match must have been got up hastily,” said Diana: “they cannot
have known each other long.”</p>

<p>“But two months: they met in October at the county ball at S——. But
where there are no obstacles to a union, as in the present case, where
the connection is in every point desirable, delays are unnecessary:
they will be married as soon as S—— Place, which Sir Frederic gives up
to them, can be refitted for their reception.”</p>
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<p>The first time I found St. John alone after this communication, I felt
tempted to inquire if the event distressed him: but he seemed so little
to need sympathy, that, so far from venturing to offer him more, I
experienced some shame at the recollection of what I had already
hazarded. Besides, I was out of practice in talking to him: his reserve
was again frozen over, and my frankness was congealed beneath it. He
had not kept his promise of treating me like his sisters; he
continually made little chilling differences between us, which did not
at all tend to the development of cordiality: in short, now that I was
acknowledged his kinswoman, and lived under the same roof with him, I
felt the distance between us to be far greater than when he had known
me only as the village schoolmistress. When I remembered how far I had
once been admitted to his confidence, I could hardly comprehend his
present frigidity.</p>

<p>Such being the case, I felt not a little surprised when he raised his
head suddenly from the desk over which he was stooping, and said—</p>

<p>“You see, Jane, the battle is fought and the victory won.”</p>

<p>Startled at being thus addressed, I did not immediately reply: after a
moment’s hesitation I answered—</p>
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<p>“But are you sure you are not in the position of those conquerors whose
triumphs have cost them too dear? Would not such another ruin you?”</p>

<p>“I think not; and if I were, it does not much signify; I shall never be
called upon to contend for such another. The event of the conflict is
decisive: my way is now clear; I thank God for it!” So saying, he
returned to his papers and his silence.</p>

<p>As our mutual happiness (<hi rend="italic">i.e.</hi>, Diana’s, Mary’s, and mine) settled
into a quieter character, and we resumed our usual habits and regular
studies, St. John stayed more at home: he sat with us in the same room,
sometimes for hours together. While Mary drew, Diana pursued a course
of encyclopædic reading she had (to my awe and amazement) undertaken,
and I fagged away at German, he pondered a mystic lore of his own: that
of some Eastern tongue, the acquisition of which he thought necessary
to his plans.</p>

<p>Thus engaged, he appeared, sitting in his own recess, quiet and
absorbed enough; but that blue eye of his had a habit of leaving the
outlandish-looking grammar, and wandering over, and sometimes fixing
upon us, his fellow-students, with a curious intensity of observation:
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if caught, it would be instantly withdrawn; yet ever and anon, it
returned searchingly to our table. I wondered what it meant: I
wondered, too, at the punctual satisfaction he never failed to exhibit
on an occasion that seemed to me of small moment, namely, my weekly
visit to Morton school; and still more was I puzzled when, if the day
was unfavourable, if there was snow, or rain, or high wind, and his
sisters urged me not to go, he would invariably make light of their
solicitude, and encourage me to accomplish the task without regard to
the elements.</p>

<p>“Jane is not such a weakling as you would make her,” he would say: “she
can bear a mountain blast, or a shower, or a few flakes of snow, as
well as any of us. Her constitution is both sound and elastic;—better
calculated to endure variations of climate than many more robust.”</p>

<p>And when I returned, sometimes a good deal tired, and not a little
weather-beaten, I never dared complain, because I saw that to murmur
would be to vex him: on all occasions fortitude pleased him; the
reverse was a special annoyance.</p>

<p>One afternoon, however, I got leave to stay at home, because I really
had a cold. His 
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sisters were gone to Morton in my stead: I sat reading
Schiller; he, deciphering his crabbed Oriental scrolls. As I exchanged
a translation for an exercise, I happened to look his way: there I
found myself under the influence of the ever-watchful blue eye. How
long it had been searching me through and through, and over and over, I
cannot tell: so keen was it, and yet so cold, I felt for the moment
superstitious—as if I were sitting in the room with something uncanny.</p>

<p>“Jane, what are you doing?”</p>

<p>“Learning German.”</p>

<p>“I want you to give up German and learn Hindostanee.”</p>

<p>“You are not in earnest?”</p>

<p>"In such earnest that I must have it so: and I will tell you why."</p>

<p>He then went on to explain that Hindostanee was the language he was
himself at present studying; that, as he advanced, he was apt to forget
the commencement; that it would assist him greatly to have a pupil with
whom he might again and again go over the elements, and so fix them
thoroughly in his mind; that his choice had hovered for some time
between me and his sisters; but that he had fixed on me because he saw
I could sit at a task the 
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longest of the three. Would I do him this
favour? I should not, perhaps, have to make the sacrifice long, as it
wanted now barely three months to his departure.</p>

<p>St. John was not a man to be lightly refused: you felt that every
impression made on him, either for pain or pleasure, was deep-graved
and permanent. I consented. When Diana and Mary returned, the former
found her scholar transferred from her to her brother: she laughed, and
both she and Mary agreed that St. John should never have persuaded them
to such a step. He answered quietly—</p>

<p>“I know it.”</p>

<p>I found him a very patient, very forbearing, and yet an exacting
master: he expected me to do a great deal; and when I fulfilled his
expectations, he, in his own way, fully testified his approbation. By
degrees, he acquired a certain influence over me that took away my
liberty of mind: his praise and notice were more restraining than his
indifference. I could no longer talk or laugh freely when he was by,
because a tiresomely importunate instinct reminded me that vivacity (at
least in me) was distasteful to him. I was so fully aware that only
serious moods and occupations were acceptable, 
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that in his presence
every effort to sustain or follow any other became vain: I fell under a
freezing spell. When he said “go,” I went; “come,” I came; “do this,” I
did it. But I did not love my servitude: I wished, many a time, he had
continued to neglect me.</p>

<p>One evening when, at bedtime, his sisters and I stood round him,
bidding him good-night, he kissed each of them, as was his custom; and,
as was equally his custom, he gave me his hand. Diana, who chanced to
be in a frolicsome humour (<hi rend="italic">she</hi> was not painfully controlled by his
will; for hers, in another way, was as strong), exclaimed—</p>

<p>“St. John! you used to call Jane your third sister, but you don’t treat
her as such: you should kiss her too.”</p>

<p>She pushed me towards him. I thought Diana very provoking, and felt
uncomfortably confused; and while I was thus thinking and feeling, St.
John bent his head; his Greek face was brought to a level with mine,
his eyes questioned my eyes piercingly—he kissed me. There are no such
things as marble kisses or ice kisses, or I should say my
ecclesiastical cousin’s salute belonged to one of these classes; but
there may be experiment 
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kisses, and his was an experiment kiss. When
given, he viewed me to learn the result; it was not striking: I am sure
I did not blush; perhaps I might have turned a little pale, for I felt
as if this kiss were a seal affixed to my fetters. He never omitted the
ceremony afterwards, and the gravity and quiescence with which I
underwent it, seemed to invest it for him with a certain charm.</p>

<p>As for me, I daily wished more to please him; but to do so, I felt
daily more and more that I must disown half my nature, stifle half my
faculties, wrest my tastes from their original bent, force myself to
the adoption of pursuits for which I had no natural vocation. He wanted
to train me to an elevation I could never reach; it racked me hourly to
aspire to the standard he uplifted. The thing was as impossible as to
mould my irregular features to his correct and classic pattern, to give
to my changeable green eyes the sea-blue tint and solemn lustre of his
own.</p>

<p>Not his ascendancy alone, however, held me in thrall at present. Of
late it had been easy enough for me to look sad: a cankering evil sat
at my heart and drained my happiness at its source—the evil of
suspense.</p>

<p>Perhaps you think I had forgotten Mr. 
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Rochester, reader, amidst these
changes of place and fortune. Not for a moment. His idea was still with
me, because it was not a vapour sunshine could disperse, nor a
sand-traced effigy storms could wash away; it was a name graven on a
tablet, fated to last as long as the marble it inscribed. The craving
to know what had become of him followed me everywhere; when I was at
Morton, I re-entered my cottage every evening to think of that; and now
at Moor House, I sought my bedroom each night to brood over it.</p>

<p>In the course of my necessary correspondence with Mr. Briggs about the
will, I had inquired if he knew anything of Mr. Rochester’s present
residence and state of health; but, as St. John had conjectured, he was
quite ignorant of all concerning him. I then wrote to Mrs. Fairfax,
entreating information on the subject. I had calculated with certainty
on this step answering my end: I felt sure it would elicit an early
answer. I was astonished when a fortnight passed without reply; but
when two months wore away, and day after day the post arrived and
brought nothing for me, I fell a prey to the keenest anxiety.</p>

<p>I wrote again: there was a chance of my first letter having missed.
Renewed hope followed 
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renewed effort: it shone like the former for some
weeks, then, like it, it faded, flickered: not a line, not a word
reached me. When half a year wasted in vain expectancy, my hope died
out, and then I felt dark indeed.</p>

<p>A fine spring shone round me, which I could not enjoy. Summer
approached; Diana tried to cheer me: she said I looked ill, and wished
to accompany me to the sea-side. This St. John opposed; he said I did
not want dissipation, I wanted employment; my present life was too
purposeless, I required an aim; and, I suppose, by way of supplying
deficiencies, he prolonged still further my lessons in Hindostanee, and
grew more urgent in requiring their accomplishment: and I, like a fool,
never thought of resisting him—I could not resist him.</p>

<p>One day I had come to my studies in lower spirits than usual; the ebb
was occasioned by a poignantly felt disappointment. Hannah had told me
in the morning there was a letter for me, and when I went down to take
it, almost certain that the long-looked for tidings were vouchsafed me
at last, I found only an unimportant note from Mr. Briggs on business.
The bitter check had wrung from me some tears; and now, as I sat poring
over the crabbed 
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characters and flourishing tropes of an Indian scribe,
my eyes filled again.</p>

<p>St. John called me to his side to read; in attempting to do this my
voice failed me: words were lost in sobs. He and I were the only
occupants of the parlour: Diana was practising her music in the
drawing-room, Mary was gardening—it was a very fine May day, clear,
sunny, and breezy. My companion expressed no surprise at this emotion,
nor did he question me as to its cause; he only said—</p>

<p>“We will wait a few minutes, Jane, till you are more composed.” And
while I smothered the paroxysm with all haste, he sat calm and patient,
leaning on his desk, and looking like a physician watching with the eye
of science an expected and fully understood crisis in a patient’s
malady. Having stifled my sobs, wiped my eyes, and muttered something
about not being very well that morning, I resumed my task, and
succeeded in completing it. St. John put away my books and his, locked
his desk, and said—</p>

<p>“Now, Jane, you shall take a walk; and with me.”</p>

<p>“I will call Diana and Mary.”</p>

<p>“No; I want only one companion this 
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morning, and that must be you. Put
on your things; go out by the kitchen-door: take the road towards the
head of Marsh Glen: I will join you in a moment.”</p>

<p>I know no medium: I never in my life have known any medium in my
dealings with positive, hard characters, antagonistic to my own,
between absolute submission and determined revolt. I have always
faithfully observed the one, up to the very moment of bursting,
sometimes with volcanic vehemence, into the other; and as neither
present circumstances warranted, nor my present mood inclined me to
mutiny, I observed careful obedience to St. John’s directions; and in
ten minutes I was treading the wild track of the glen, side by side
with him.</p>

<p>The breeze was from the west: it came over the hills, sweet with scents
of heath and rush; the sky was of stainless blue; the stream descending
the ravine, swelled with past spring rains, poured along plentiful and
clear, catching golden gleams from the sun, and sapphire tints from the
firmament. As we advanced and left the track, we trod a soft turf,
mossy fine and emerald green, minutely enamelled with a tiny white
flower, and spangled with a star-like yellow blossom: the hills,
meantime, shut 
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us quite in; for the glen, towards its head, wound to
their very core.</p>

<p>“Let us rest here,” said St. John, as we reached the first stragglers
of a battalion of rocks, guarding a sort of pass, beyond which the beck
rushed down a waterfall; and where, still a little farther, the
mountain shook off turf and flower, had only heath for raiment and crag
for gem—where it exaggerated the wild to the savage, and exchanged the
fresh for the frowning—where it guarded the forlorn hope of solitude,
and a last refuge for silence.</p>

<p>I took a seat: St. John stood near me. He looked up the pass and down
the hollow; his glance wandered away with the stream, and returned to
traverse the unclouded heaven which coloured it: he removed his hat,
let the breeze stir his hair and kiss his brow. He seemed in communion
with the genius of the haunt: with his eye he bade farewell to
something.</p>

<p>“And I shall see it again,” he said aloud, “in dreams when I sleep by
the Ganges: and again in a more remote hour—when another slumber
overcomes me—on the shore of a darker stream!”</p>

<p>Strange words of a strange love! An austere patriot’s passion for his
fatherland! He sat down; for half-an-hour we never 
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spoke; neither he to me nor I to him: that interval past, he recommenced—</p>

<p>“Jane, I go in six weeks; I have taken my berth in an East Indiaman
which sails on the 20th of June.”</p>

<p>“God will protect you; for you have undertaken His work,” I answered.</p>

<p>“Yes,” said he, “there is my glory and joy. I am the servant of an
infallible Master. I am not going out under human guidance, subject to
the defective laws and erring control of my feeble fellow-worms: my
king, my lawgiver, my captain, is the All-perfect. It seems strange to
me that all round me do not burn to enlist under the same banner,—to
join in the same enterprise.”</p>

<p>“All have not your powers, and it would be folly for the feeble to wish
to march with the strong.”</p>

<p>“I do not speak to the feeble, or think of them: I address only such as
are worthy of the work, and competent to accomplish it.”</p>

<p>“Those are few in number, and difficult to discover.”</p>

<p>“You say truly; but when found, it is right to stir them up—to urge and
exhort them to the effort—to show them what their gifts are, and why
they were given—to speak Heaven’s 
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message in their ear,—to offer them,
direct from God, a place in the ranks of His chosen.”</p>

<p>“If they are really qualified for the task, will not their own hearts
be the first to inform them of it?”</p>

<p>I felt as if an awful charm was framing round and gathering over me: I
trembled to hear some fatal word spoken which would at once declare and
rivet the spell.</p>

<p>“And what does <hi rend="italic">your</hi> heart say?” demanded St. John.</p>

<p>“My heart is mute,—my heart is mute,” I answered, struck and thrilled.</p>

<p>“Then I must speak for it,” continued the deep, relentless voice.
“Jane, come with me to India: come as my helpmeet and fellow-labourer.”</p>

<p>The glen and sky spun round: the hills heaved! It was as if I had heard
a summons from Heaven—as if a visionary messenger, like him of
Macedonia, had enounced, “Come over and help us!” But I was no
apostle,—I could not behold the herald,—I could not receive his call.</p>

<p>“Oh, St. John!” I cried, “have some mercy!”</p>

<p>I appealed to one who, in the discharge of 
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what he believed his duty,knew neither mercy nor remorse. He continued—</p>

<p>“God and nature intended you for a missionary’s wife. It is not
personal, but mental endowments they have given you: you are formed for
labour, not for love. A missionary’s wife you must—shall be. You shall
be mine: I claim you—not for my pleasure, but for my Sovereign’s
service.”</p>

<p>“I am not fit for it: I have no vocation,” I said.</p>

<p>He had calculated on these first objections: he was not irritated by
them. Indeed, as he leaned back against the crag behind him, folded his
arms on his chest, and fixed his countenance, I saw he was prepared for
a long and trying opposition, and had taken in a stock of patience to
last him to its close—resolved, however, that that close should be
conquest for him.</p>

<p>“Humility, Jane,” said he, “is the groundwork of Christian virtues: you
say right that you are not fit for the work. Who is fit for it? Or who,
that ever was truly called, believed himself worthy of the summons? I,
for instance, am but dust and ashes. With St. Paul, I acknowledge
myself the chiefest of sinners; but I do not suffer this sense of my
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personal vileness to daunt me. I know my Leader: that He is just as
well as mighty; and while He has chosen a feeble instrument to perform
a great task, He will, from the boundless stores of His providence,
supply the inadequacy of the means to the end. Think like me,
Jane—trust like me. It is the Rock of Ages I ask you to lean on: do not
doubt but it will bear the weight of your human weakness.”</p>

<p>“I do not understand a missionary life: I have never studied missionary
labours.”</p>

<p>“There I, humble as I am, can give you the aid you want: I can set you
your task from hour to hour; stand by you always; help you from moment
to moment. This I could do in the beginning: soon (for I know your
powers) you would be as strong and apt as myself, and would not require
my help.”</p>

<p>“But my powers—where are they for this undertaking? I do not feel them.
Nothing speaks or stirs in me while you talk. I am sensible of no light
kindling—no life quickening—no voice counselling or cheering. Oh, I
wish I could make you see how much my mind is at this moment like a
rayless dungeon, with one shrinking fear fettered in its depths
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the fear of being persuaded by you to attempt what I cannot accomplish!”</p>

<p>“I have an answer for you—hear it. I have watched you ever since we
first met: I have made you my study for ten months. I have proved you
in that time by sundry tests: and what have I seen and elicited? In the
village school I found you could perform well, punctually, uprightly,
labour uncongenial to your habits and inclinations; I saw you could
perform it with capacity and tact: you could win while you controlled.
In the calm with which you learnt you had become suddenly rich, I read
a mind clear of the vice of Demas:—lucre had no undue power over you.
In the resolute readiness with which you cut your wealth into four
shares, keeping but one to yourself, and relinquishing the three others
to the claim of abstract justice, I recognised a soul that revelled in
the flame and excitement of sacrifice. In the tractability with which,
at my wish, you forsook a study in which you were interested, and
adopted another because it interested me; in the untiring assiduity
with which you have since persevered in it—in the unflagging energy and
unshaken temper with which you have met its difficulties—I acknowledge
the complement of the qualities 
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I seek. Jane, you are docile, diligent,
disinterested, faithful, constant, and courageous; very gentle, and
very heroic: cease to mistrust yourself—I can trust you unreservedly.
As a conductress of Indian schools, and a helper amongst Indian women,
your assistance will be to me invaluable.”</p>

<p>My iron shroud contracted round me; persuasion advanced with slow sure
step. Shut my eyes as I would, these last words of his succeeded in
making the way, which had seemed blocked up, comparatively clear. My
work, which had appeared so vague, so hopelessly diffuse, condensed
itself as he proceeded, and assumed a definite form under his shaping
hand. He waited for an answer. I demanded a quarter of an hour to
think, before I again hazarded a reply.</p>

<p>“Very willingly,” he rejoined; and rising, he strode a little distance
up the pass, threw himself down on a swell of heath, and there lay
still.</p>


<p>He threw himself down on a swell of heath, and there lay still</p>

<p>“I <hi rend="italic">can</hi> do what he wants me to do: I am forced to see and acknowledge
that,” I meditated,—“that is, if life be spared me. But I feel mine is
not the existence to be long protracted under an Indian sun. What then?
He does not care for that: when my time came to die, 
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he would resign
me, in all serenity and sanctity, to the God who gave me. The case is
very plain before me. In leaving England, I should leave a loved but
empty land—Mr. Rochester is not there; and if he were, what is, what
can that ever be to me? My business is to live without him now: nothing
so absurd, so weak as to drag on from day to day, as if I were waiting
some impossible change in circumstances, which might reunite me to him.
Of course (as St. John once said) I must seek another interest in life
to replace the one lost: is not the occupation he now offers me truly
the most glorious man can adopt or God assign? Is it not, by its noble
cares and sublime results, the one best calculated to fill the void
left by uptorn affections and demolished hopes? I believe I must say,
Yes—and yet I shudder. Alas! If I join St. John, I abandon half myself:
if I go to India, I go to premature death. And how will the interval
between leaving England for India, and India for the grave, be filled?
Oh, I know well! That, too, is very clear to my vision. By straining to
satisfy St. John till my sinews ache, I <hi rend="italic">shall</hi> satisfy him—to the
finest central point and farthest outward circle of his expectations.
If I <hi rend="italic">do</hi> go with him—if I <hi rend="italic">do</hi> make the sacrifice he urges, 
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I will make it absolutely: I will throw all on the altar—heart, vitals, the
entire victim. He will never love me; but he shall approve me; I will
show him energies he has not yet seen, resources he has never
suspected. Yes, I can work as hard as he can, and with as little
grudging.</p>

<p>“Consent, then, to his demand is possible: but for one item—one
dreadful item. It is—that he asks me to be his wife, and has no more of
a husband’s heart for me than that frowning giant of a rock, down which
the stream is foaming in yonder gorge. He prizes me as a soldier would
a good weapon; and that is all. Unmarried to him, this would never
grieve me; but can I let him complete his calculations—coolly put into
practice his plans—go through the wedding ceremony? Can I receive from
him the bridal ring, endure all the forms of love (which I doubt not he
would scrupulously observe) and know that the spirit was quite absent?
Can I bear the consciousness that every endearment he bestows is a
sacrifice made on principle? No: such a martyrdom would be monstrous. I
will never undergo it. As his sister, I might accompany him—not as his
wife: I will tell him so.”</p>

<p>I looked towards the knoll: there he lay, 
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still as a prostrate column;
his face turned to me: his eye beaming watchful and keen. He started to
his feet and approached me.</p>

<p>“I am ready to go to India, if I may go free.”</p>

<p>“Your answer requires a commentary,” he said; “it is not clear.”</p>

<p>“You have hitherto been my adopted brother—I, your adopted sister: let
us continue as such: you and I had better not marry.”</p>

<p>He shook his head. “Adopted fraternity will not do in this case. If you
were my real sister it would be different: I should take you, and seek
no wife. But as it is, either our union must be consecrated and sealed
by marriage, or it cannot exist: practical obstacles oppose themselves
to any other plan. Do you not see it, Jane? Consider a moment—your
strong sense will guide you.”</p>

<p>I did consider; and still my sense, such as it was, directed me only to
the fact that we did not love each other as man and wife should: and
therefore it inferred we ought not to marry. I said so. “St. John,” I
returned, “I regard you as a brother—you, me as a sister: so let us
continue.”</p>

<p>“We cannot—we cannot,” he answered, with,
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short, sharp determination:
“it would not do. You have said you will go with me to India:
remember—you have said that.”</p>

<p>“Conditionally.”</p>

<p>“Well—well. To the main point—the departure with me from England, the
co-operation with me in my future labours—you do not object. You have
already as good as put your hand to the plough: you are too consistent
to withdraw it. You have but one end to keep in view—how the work you
have undertaken can best be done. Simplify your complicated interests,
feelings, thoughts, wishes, aims; merge all considerations in one
purpose: that of fulfilling with effect—with power—the mission of your
great Master. To do so, you must have a coadjutor: not a brother—that
is a loose tie—but a husband. I, too, do not want a sister: a sister
might any day be taken from me. I want a wife: the sole helpmeet I can
influence efficiently in life, and retain absolutely till death.”</p>

<p>I shuddered as he spoke: I felt his influence in my marrow—his hold on
my limbs.</p>

<p>“Seek one elsewhere than in me, St. John: seek one fitted to you.”</p>

<p>“One fitted to my purpose, you mean—fitted to my vocation. Again I tell
you it is 
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not the insignificant private individual—the mere man, with
the man’s selfish senses—I wish to mate: it is the missionary.”</p>

<p>“And I will give the missionary my energies—it is all he wants—but not
myself: that would be only adding the husk and shell to the kernel. For
them he has no use: I retain them.”</p>

<p>“You cannot—you ought not. Do you think God will be satisfied with half
an oblation? Will He accept a mutilated sacrifice? It is the cause of
God I advocate: it is under His standard I enlist you. I cannot accept
on His behalf a divided allegiance: it must be entire.”</p>

<p>“Oh! I will give my heart to God,” I said. “<hi rend="italic">You</hi> do not want it.”</p>

<p>I will not swear, reader, that there was not something of repressed
sarcasm both in the tone in which I uttered this sentence, and in the
feeling that accompanied it. I had silently feared St. John till now,
because I had not understood him. He had held me in awe, because he had
held me in doubt. How much of him was saint, how much mortal, I could
not heretofore tell: but revelations were being made in this
conference: the analysis of his nature was proceeding before my eyes. I
saw 
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his fallibilities: I comprehended them. I understood that, sitting
there where I did, on the bank of heath, and with that handsome form
before me, I sat at the feet of a man, erring as I. The veil fell from
his hardness and despotism. Having felt in him the presence of these
qualities, I felt his imperfection and took courage. I was with an
equal—one with whom I might argue—one whom, if I saw good, I might
resist.</p>

<p>He was silent after I had uttered the last sentence, and I presently
risked an upward glance at his countenance. His eye, bent on me,
expressed at once stern surprise and keen inquiry. “Is she sarcastic,
and sarcastic to <hi rend="italic">me!</hi>” it seemed to say. “What does this signify?”</p>

<p>“Do not let us forget that this is a solemn matter,” he said ere long;
“one of which we may neither think nor talk lightly without sin. I
trust, Jane, you are in earnest when you say you will serve your heart
to God: it is all I want. Once wrench your heart from man, and fix it
on your Maker, the advancement of that Maker’s spiritual kingdom on
earth will be your chief delight and endeavour; you will be ready to do
at once whatever furthers that end. You will see what impetus would be
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given to your efforts and mine by our physical and mental union in
marriage: the only union that gives a character of permanent conformity
to the destinies and designs of human beings; and, passing over all
minor caprices—all trivial difficulties and delicacies of feeling—all
scruple about the degree, kind, strength or tenderness of mere personal
inclination—you will hasten to enter into that union at once.”</p>

<p>“Shall I?” I said briefly; and I looked at his features, beautiful in
their harmony, but strangely formidable in their still severity; at his
brow, commanding but not open; at his eyes, bright and deep and
searching, but never soft; at his tall imposing figure; and fancied
myself in idea <hi rend="italic">his wife</hi>. Oh! it would never do! As his curate, his
comrade, all would be right: I would cross oceans with him in that
capacity; toil under Eastern suns, in Asian deserts with him in that
office; admire and emulate his courage and devotion and vigour;
accommodate quietly to his masterhood; smile undisturbed at his
ineradicable ambition; discriminate the Christian from the man:
profoundly esteem the one, and freely forgive the other. I should
suffer often, no doubt, attached to him only in this capacity: my body
would be under rather a stringent yoke, but my 
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heart and mind would be
free. I should still have my unblighted self to turn to: my natural
unenslaved feelings with which to communicate in moments of loneliness.
There would be recesses in my mind which would be only mine, to which
he never came, and sentiments growing there fresh and sheltered which
his austerity could never blight, nor his measured warrior-march
trample down: but as his wife—at his side always, and always
restrained, and always checked—forced to keep the fire of my nature
continually low, to compel it to burn inwardly and never utter a cry,
though the imprisoned flame consumed vital after vital—<hi rend="italic">this</hi> would be
unendurable.</p>

<p>“St. John!” I exclaimed, when I had got so far in my meditation.</p>

<p>“Well?” he answered icily.</p>

<p>“I repeat I freely consent to go with you as your fellow-missionary,
but not as your wife; I cannot marry you and become part of you.”</p>

<p>“A part of me you must become,” he answered steadily; “otherwise the
whole bargain is void. How can I, a man not yet thirty, take out with
me to India a girl of nineteen, unless she be married to me? How can we
be for ever together—sometimes in solitudes, 
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sometimes amidst savage tribes—and unwed?”</p>

<p>“Very well,” I said shortly; “under the circumstances, quite as well as
if I were either your real sister, or a man and a clergyman like
yourself.”</p>

<p>“It is known that you are not my sister; I cannot introduce you as
such: to attempt it would be to fasten injurious suspicions on us both.
And for the rest, though you have a man’s vigorous brain, you have a
woman’s heart and—it would not do.”</p>

<p>“It would do,” I affirmed with some disdain, “perfectly well. I have a
woman’s heart, but not where you are concerned; for you I have only a
comrade’s constancy; a fellow-soldier’s frankness, fidelity,
fraternity, if you like; a neophyte’s respect and submission to his
hierophant: nothing more—don’t fear.”</p>

<p>“It is what I want,” he said, speaking to himself; “it is just what I
want. And there are obstacles in the way: they must be hewn down. Jane,
you would not repent marrying me—be certain of that; we <hi rend="italic">must</hi> be
married. I repeat it: there is no other way; and undoubtedly enough of
love would follow upon marriage to render the union right even in your
eyes.”</p>
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<p>“I scorn your idea of love,” I could not help saying, as I rose up and
stood before him, leaning my back against the rock. “I scorn the
counterfeit sentiment you offer: yes, St. John, and I scorn you when
you offer it.”</p>

<p>He looked at me fixedly, compressing his well-cut lips while he did so.
Whether he was incensed or surprised, or what, it was not easy to tell:
he could command his countenance thoroughly.</p>

<p>“I scarcely expected to hear that expression from you,” he said: “I
think I have done and uttered nothing to deserve scorn.”</p>

<p>I was touched by his gentle tone, and overawed by his high, calm mien.</p>

<p>“Forgive me the words, St. John; but it is your own fault that I have
been roused to speak so unguardedly. You have introduced a topic on
which our natures are at variance—a topic we should never discuss: the
very name of love is an apple of discord between us. If the reality
were required, what should we do? How should we feel? My dear cousin,
abandon your scheme of marriage—forget it.”</p>

<p>“No,” said he; “it is a long-cherished scheme, and the only one which
can secure my great end: but I shall urge you no further at present.
To-morrow, I leave home for 
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Cambridge: I have many friends there to
whom I should wish to say farewell. I shall be absent a fortnight—take
that space of time to consider my offer: and do not forget that if you
reject it, it is not me you deny, but God. Through my means, He opens
to you a noble career; as my wife only can you enter upon it. Refuse to
be my wife, and you limit yourself for ever to a track of selfish ease
and barren obscurity. Tremble lest in that case you should be numbered
with those who have denied the faith, and are worse than infidels!”</p>

<p>He had done. Turning from me, he once more—</p>

<p>“Looked to river, looked to hill:”</p>


<p>But this time his feelings were all pent in his heart: I was not worthy
to hear them uttered. As I walked by his side homeward, I read well in
his iron silence all he felt towards me: the disappointment of an
austere and despotic nature, which has met resistance where it expected
submission—the disapprobation of a cool, inflexible judgment, which has
detected in another feelings and views in which it has no power to
sympathise: in short, as a man, he would have wished to coerce me into
obedience: it was only as a sincere Christian he 
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bore so patiently with
my perversity, and allowed so long a space for reflection and
repentance.</p>

<p>That night, after he had kissed his sisters, he thought proper to
forget even to shake hands with me, but left the room in silence.
I—who, though I had no love, had much friendship for him—was hurt by
the marked omission: so much hurt that tears started to my eyes.</p>

<p>“I see you and St. John have been quarrelling, Jane,” said Diana,
“during your walk on the moor. But go after him; he is now lingering in
the passage expecting you—he will make it up.”</p>

<p>I have not much pride under such circumstances: I would always rather
be happy than dignified; and I ran after him—he stood at the foot of
the stairs.</p>

<p>“Good-night, St. John,” said I.</p>

<p>“Good-night, Jane,” he replied calmly.</p>

<p>“Then shake hands,” I added.</p>

<p>What a cold, loose touch, he impressed on my fingers! He was deeply
displeased by what had occurred that day; cordiality would not warm,
nor tears move him. No happy reconciliation was to be had with him—no
cheering smile or generous word: but still the 
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Christian was patient
and placid; and when I asked him if he forgave me, he answered that he
was not in the habit of cherishing the remembrance of vexation; that he
had nothing to forgive, not having been offended.</p>

<p>And with that answer he left me. I would much rather he had knocked me
down.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER IX</head>
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<p>He did not leave for Cambridge the next day, as he had said he would.
He deferred his departure a whole week, and during that time he made me
feel what severe punishment a good yet stern, a conscientious yet
implacable man can inflict on one who has offended him. Without one
overt act of hostility, one upbraiding word, he contrived to impress me
momently with the conviction that I was put beyond the pale of his
favour.</p>

<p>Not that St. John harboured a spirit of unchristian vindictiveness—not
that he would have injured a hair of my head, if it had been fully in
his power to do so. Both by nature and principle, he was superior to
the mean gratification of vengeance: he had forgiven me for saying I
scorned him and his love, but he had not forgotten the words; and as
long as he and I lived he never would forget them. 
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I saw by his look,
when he turned to me, that they were always written on the air between
me and him; whenever I spoke, they sounded in my voice to his ear, and
their echo toned every answer he gave me.</p>

<p>He did not abstain from conversing with me: he even called me as usual
each morning to join him at his desk; and I fear the corrupt man within
him had a pleasure unimparted to, and unshared by, the pure Christian,
in evincing with what skill he could, while acting and speaking
apparently just as usual, extract from every deed and every phrase the
spirit of interest and approval which had formerly communicated a
certain austere charm to his language and manner. To me, he was in
reality become no longer flesh, but marble; his eye was a cold, bright,
blue gem; his tongue a speaking instrument—nothing more.</p>

<p>All this was torture to me—refined, lingering torture. It kept up a
slow fire of indignation and a trembling trouble of grief, which
harassed and crushed me altogether. I felt how—if I were his wife, this
good man, pure as the deep sunless source, could soon kill me, without
drawing from my veins a single drop of blood, or receiving on his own
crystal conscience the faintest stain of crime. Especially 
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I felt this 
when I made any attempt to propitiate him. No ruth met my ruth. <hi rend="italic">He</hi>
experienced no suffering from estrangement—no yearning after
reconciliation; and though, more than once, my fast falling tears
blistered the page over which we both bent, they produced no more
effect on him than if his heart had been really a matter of stone or
metal. To his sisters, meantime, he was somewhat kinder than usual: as
if afraid that mere coldness would not sufficiently convince me how
completely I was banished and banned, he added the force of contrast;
and this I am sure he did not by malice, but on principle.</p>

<p>The night before he left home, happening to see him walking in the
garden about sunset, and remembering, as I looked at him, that this
man, alienated as he now was, had once saved my life, and that we were
near relations, I was moved to make a last attempt to regain his
friendship. I went out and approached him as he stood leaning over the
little gate; I spoke to the point at once.</p>

<p>“St. John, I am unhappy because you are still angry with me. Let us be
friends.”</p>

<p>“I hope we are friends,” was the unmoved reply; while he still watched
the rising of the 
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moon, which he had been contemplating as I approached.</p>

<p>“No, St. John, we are not friends as we were. You know that.”</p>

<p>“Are we not? That is wrong. For my part, I wish you no ill and all
good.”</p>

<p>“I believe you, St. John; for I am sure you are incapable of wishing
any one ill; but, as I am your kinswoman, I should desire somewhat more
of affection than that sort of general philanthropy you extend to mere
strangers.”</p>

<p>“Of course,” he said. “Your wish is reasonable, and I am far from
regarding you as a stranger.”</p>

<p>This, spoken in a cool, tranquil tone, was mortifying and baffling
enough. Had I attended to the suggestions of pride and ire, I should
immediately have left him; but something worked within me more strongly
than those feelings could. I deeply venerated my cousin’s talent and
principle. His friendship was of value to me: to lose it tried me
severely. I would not so soon relinquish the attempt to reconquer it.</p>

<p>“Must we part in this way, St. John? And when you go to India, will you
leave me so, without a kinder word than you have yet spoken?”</p>
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<p>He now turned quite from the moon and faced me.</p>

<p>“When I go to India, Jane, will I leave you! What! do you not go to
India?”</p>

<p>“You said I could not unless I married you.”</p>

<p>“And you will not marry me! You adhere to that resolution?”</p>

<p>Reader, do you know, as I do, what terror those cold people can put
into the ice of their questions? How much of the fall of the avalanche
is in their anger? of the breaking up of the frozen sea in their
displeasure?</p>

<p>“No. St. John, I will not marry you. I adhere to my resolution.”</p>

<p>The avalanche had shaken and slid a little forward, but it did not yet
crash down.</p>

<p>“Once more, why this refusal?” he asked.</p>

<p>“Formerly,” I answered, “because you did not love me; now, I reply,
because you almost hate me. If I were to marry you, you would kill me.
You are killing me now.”</p>

<p>His lips and cheeks turned white—quite white.</p>

<p>“<hi rend="italic">I should kill you</hi>—<hi rend="italic">I am killing you</hi>? Your words are such as ought
not to be used: violent, unfeminine, and untrue. They betray an
unfortunate state of mind: they merit 
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severe reproof: they would seem
inexcusable, but that it is the duty of man to forgive his fellow even
until seventy-and-seven times.”</p>

<p>I had finished the business now. While earnestly wishing to erase from
his mind the trace of my former offence, I had stamped on that
tenacious surface another and far deeper impression: I had burnt it in.</p>

<p>“Now you will indeed hate me,” I said. “It is useless to attempt to
conciliate you: I see I have made an eternal enemy of you.”</p>

<p>A fresh wrong did these words inflict: the worse, because they touched
on the truth. That bloodless lip quivered to a temporary spasm. I knew
the steely ire I had whetted. I was heart-wrung.</p>

<p>“You utterly misinterpret my words,” I said, at once seizing his hand:
“I have no intention to grieve or pain you—indeed, I have not.”</p>

<p>Most bitterly he smiled—most decidedly he withdrew his hand from mine.
“And now you recall your promise, and will not go to India at all, I
presume?” said he, after a considerable pause.</p>

<p>"I will, as your assistant,” I answered.</p>

<p>A very long silence succeeded. What struggle there was in him between
Nature 
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and Grace in this interval, I cannot tell: only singular gleams
scintillated in his eyes, and strange shadows passed over his face. He
spoke at last.</p>

<p>“I before proved to you the absurdity of a single woman of your age
proposing to accompany abroad a single man of mine. I proved it to you
in such terms as, I should have thought, would have prevented your ever
again alluding to the plan. That you have done so, I regret—for your
sake.”</p>

<p>I interrupted him. Anything like a tangible reproach gave me courage at
once. “Keep to common sense, St. John: you are verging on nonsense. You
pretend to be shocked by what I have said. You are not really shocked:
for, with your superior mind, you cannot be either so dull or so
conceited as to misunderstand my meaning. I say again, I will be your
curate, if you like, but never your wife.”</p>

<p>Again he turned lividly pale; but, as before, controlled his passion
perfectly. He answered emphatically but calmly—</p>

<p>“A female curate, who is not my wife, would never suit me. With me,
then, it seems, you cannot go: but if you are sincere in your offer, I
will, while in town, speak to a married missionary, whose wife needs a
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coadjutor. Your own fortune will make you independent of the Society’s
aid; and thus you may still be spared the dishonour of breaking your
promise and deserting the band you engaged to join.”</p>

<p>Now I never had, as the reader knows, either given any formal promise
or entered into any engagement; and this language was all much too hard
and much too despotic for the occasion. I replied—</p>

<p>“There is no dishonour, no breach of promise, no desertion in the case.
I am not under the slightest obligation to go to India, especially with
strangers. With you I would have ventured much, because I admire,
confide in, and, as a sister, I love you; but I am convinced that, go
when and with whom I would, I should not live long in that climate.”</p>

<p>“Ah! you are afraid of yourself,” he said, curling his lip.</p>

<p>“I am. God did not give me my life to throw away; and to do as you wish
me would, I begin to think, be almost equivalent to committing suicide.
Moreover, before I definitively resolve on quitting England, I will
know for certain whether I cannot be of greater use by remaining in it
than by leaving it.”</p>

<p>“What do you mean?”</p>
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<p>“It would be fruitless to attempt to explain; but there is a point on
which I have long endured painful doubt, and I can go nowhere till by
some means that doubt is removed.”</p>

<p>“I know where your heart turns and to what it clings. The interest you
cherish is lawless and unconsecrated. Long since you ought to have
crushed it: now you should blush to allude to it. You think of Mr.
Rochester?”</p>

<p>It was true. I confessed it by silence.</p>

<p>“Are you going to seek Mr. Rochester?”</p>

<p>“I must find out what is become of him.”</p>

<p>“It remains for me, then,” he said, “to remember you in my prayers, and
to entreat God for you, in all earnestness, that you may not indeed
become a castaway. I had thought I recognised in you one of the chosen.
But God sees not as man sees: <hi rend="italic">His</hi> will be done—”</p>

<p>He opened the gate, passed through it, and strayed away down the glen.
He was soon out of sight.</p>

<p>On re-entering the parlour, I found Diana standing at the window,
looking very thoughtful. Diana was a great deal taller than I: she put
her hand on my shoulder, and, stooping, examined my face.</p>
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<p>“Jane,” she said, “you are always agitated and pale now. I am sure
there is something the matter. Tell me what business St. John and you
have on hands. I have watched you this half hour from the window; you
must forgive my being such a spy, but for a long time I have fancied I
hardly know what. St. John is a strange being—”</p>

<p>She paused—I did not speak: soon she resumed—</p>

<p>“That brother of mine cherishes peculiar views of some sort respecting
you, I am sure: he has long distinguished you by a notice and interest
he never showed to any one else—to what end? I wish he loved you—does
he, Jane?”</p>

<p>I put her cool hand to my hot forehead; “No, Die, not one whit.”</p>

<p>“Then why does he follow you so with his eyes, and get you so
frequently alone with him, and keep you so continually at his side?
Mary and I had both concluded he wished you to marry him.”</p>

<p>“He does—he has asked me to be his wife.”</p>

<p>Diana clapped her hands. “That is just what we hoped and thought! And
you will marry him, Jane, won’t you? And then he will stay in England.”</p>
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<p>“Far from that, Diana; his sole idea in proposing to me is to procure a
fitting fellow-labourer in his Indian toils.”</p>

<p>“What! He wishes you to go to India?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“Madness!” she exclaimed. “You would not live three months there, I am
certain. You never shall go: you have not consented, have you, Jane?”</p>

<p>“I have refused to marry him—”</p>

<p>“And have consequently displeased him?” she suggested.</p>

<p>“Deeply: he will never forgive me, I fear: yet I offered to accompany
him as his sister.”</p>

<p>“It was frantic folly to do so, Jane. Think of the task you
undertook—one of incessant fatigue, where fatigue kills even the
strong, and you are weak. St. John—you know him—would urge you to
impossibilities: with him there would be no permission to rest during
the hot hours; and unfortunately, I have noticed, whatever he exacts,
you force yourself to perform. I am astonished you found courage to
refuse his hand. You do not love him then, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Not as a husband.”</p>

<p>“Yet he is a handsome fellow.”</p>
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<p>“And I am so plain, you see, Die. We should never suit.”</p>

<p>“Plain! You? Not at all. You are much too pretty, as well as too good,
to be grilled alive in Calcutta.” And again she earnestly conjured me
to give up all thoughts of going out with her brother.</p>

<p>“I must indeed,” I said; “for when just now I repeated the offer of
serving him for a deacon, he expressed himself shocked at my want of
decency. He seemed to think I had committed an impropriety in proposing
to accompany him unmarried: as if I had not from the first hoped to
find in him a brother, and habitually regarded him as such.”</p>

<p>“What makes you say he does not love you, Jane?”</p>

<p>“You should hear himself on the subject. He has again and again
explained that it is not himself, but his office he wishes to mate. He
has told me I am formed for labour—not for love: which is true, no
doubt. But, in my opinion, if I am not formed for love, it follows that
I am not formed for marriage. Would it not be strange, Die, to be
chained for life to a man who regarded one but as a useful tool?”</p>
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<p>“Insupportable—unnatural—out of the question!”</p>

<p>“And then,” I continued, “though I have only sisterly affection for him
now, yet, if forced to be his wife, I can imagine the possibility of
conceiving an inevitable, strange, torturing kind of love for him,
because he is so talented; and there is often a certain heroic grandeur
in his look, manner, and conversation. In that case, my lot would
become unspeakably wretched. He would not want me to love him; and if I
showed the feeling, he would make me sensible that it was a
superfluity, unrequired by him, unbecoming in me. I know he would.”</p>

<p>“And yet St. John is a good man,” said Diana.</p>

<p>“He is a good and a great man; but he forgets, pitilessly, the feelings
and claims of little people, in pursuing his own large views. It is
better, therefore, for the insignificant to keep out of his way, lest,
in his progress, he should trample them down. Here he comes! I will
leave you, Diana.” And I hastened upstairs as I saw him entering the
garden.</p>

<p>But I was forced to meet him again at supper. During that meal he
appeared just as composed as usual. I had thought he would 
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hardly speak
to me, and I was certain he had given up the pursuit of his matrimonial
scheme: the sequel showed I was mistaken on both points. He addressed
me precisely in his ordinary manner, or what had, of late, been his
ordinary manner—one scrupulously polite. No doubt he had invoked the
help of the Holy Spirit to subdue the anger I had roused in him, and
now believed he had forgiven me once more.</p>

<p>For the evening reading before prayers, he selected the twenty-first
chapter of Revelation. It was at all times pleasant to listen while
from his lips fell the words of the Bible: never did his fine voice
sound at once so sweet and full—never did his manner become so
impressive in its noble simplicity, as when he delivered the oracles of
God: and to-night that voice took a more solemn tone—that manner a more
thrilling meaning—as he sat in the midst of his household circle (the
May moon shining in through the uncurtained window, and rendering
almost unnecessary the light of the candle on the table): as he sat
there, bending over the great old Bible, and described from its page
the vision of the new heaven and the new earth—told how God would come
to dwell with men, how He would wipe away all tears from their 
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eyes, and promised that there should be no more death, neither sorrow nor
crying, nor any more pain, because the former things were passed away.</p>

<p>The succeeding words thrilled me strangely as he spoke them: especially
as I felt, by the slight, indescribable alteration in sound, that in
uttering them, his eye had turned on me.</p>

<p>“He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God,
and he shall be my son. But,” was slowly, distinctly read, “the
fearful, the unbelieving, &amp;c., shall have their part in the lake which
burneth with fire and brimstone, which is the second death.”</p>

<p>Henceforward, I knew what fate St. John feared for me.</p>

<p>A calm, subdued triumph, blent with a longing earnestness, marked his
enunciation of the last glorious verses of that chapter. The reader
believed his name was already written in the Lamb’s book of life, and
he yearned after the hour which should admit him to the city to which
the kings of the earth bring their glory and honour; which has no need
of sun or moon to shine in it, because the glory of God lightens it,
and the Lamb is the light thereof.</p>

<p>In the prayer following the chapter, all his 
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energy gathered—all his
stern zeal woke: he was in deep earnest, wrestling with God, and
resolved on a conquest. He supplicated strength for the weak-hearted;
guidance for wanderers from the fold: a return, even at the eleventh
hour, for those whom the temptations of the world and the flesh were
luring from the narrow path. He asked, he urged, he claimed the boon of
a brand snatched from the burning. Earnestness is ever deeply solemn:
first, as I listened to that prayer, I wondered at his; then, when it
continued and rose, I was touched by it, and at last awed. He felt the
greatness and goodness of his purpose so sincerely: others who heard
him plead for it, could not but feel it too.</p>

<p>The prayer over, we took leave of him: he was to go at a very early
hour in the morning. Diana and Mary having kissed him, left the room—in
compliance, I think, with a whispered hint from him: I tendered my
hand, and wished him a pleasant journey.</p>

<p>“Thank you, Jane. As I said, I shall return from Cambridge in a
fortnight: that space, then, is yet left you for reflection. If I
listened to human pride, I should say no more to you of marriage with
me; but I listen to my duty, and 
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keep steadily in view my first aim—to
do all things to the glory of God. My Master was long-suffering: so
will I be. I cannot give you up to perdition as a vessel of wrath:
repent—resolve, while there is yet time. Remember, we are bid to work
while it is day—warned that ‘the night cometh when no man shall work.’
Remember the fate of Dives, who had his good things in this life. God
give you strength to choose that better part which shall not be taken
from you!”</p>

<p>He laid his hand on my head as he uttered the last words. He had spoken
earnestly, mildly: his look was not, indeed, that of a lover beholding
his mistress, but it was that of a pastor recalling his wandering
sheep—or better, of a guardian angel watching the soul for which he is
responsible. All men of talent, whether they be men of feeling or not;
whether they be zealots, or aspirants, or despots—provided only they be
sincere—have their sublime moments, when they subdue and rule. I felt
veneration for St. John—veneration so strong that its impetus thrust me
at once to the point I had so long shunned. I was tempted to cease
struggling with him—to rush down the torrent of his will into the gulf
of his existence, and there lose my own. I was almost as hard beset by
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him now as I had been once before, in a different way, by another. I
was a fool both times. To have yielded then would have been an error of
principle; to have yielded now would have been an error of judgment. So
I think at this hour, when I look back to the crisis through the quiet
medium of time: I was unconscious of folly at the instant.</p>

<p>I stood motionless under my hierophant’s touch. My refusals were
forgotten—my fears overcome—my wrestlings paralysed. The
Impossible—<hi rend="italic">i.e.</hi>, my marriage with St. John—was fast becoming the
Possible. All was changing utterly with a sudden sweep. Religion
called—Angels beckoned—God commanded—life rolled together like a
scroll—death’s gates opening, showed eternity beyond: it seemed, that
for safety and bliss there, all here might be sacrificed in a second.
The dim room was full of visions.</p>

<p>“Could you decide now?” asked the missionary. The inquiry was put in
gentle tones: he drew me to him as gently. Oh, that gentleness! how far
more potent is it than force! I could resist St. John’s wrath: I grew
pliant as a reed under his kindness. Yet I knew all the time, if I
yielded now, I should not the less be made to repent, some day, of my
former rebellion. 
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His nature was not changed by one hour of solemn
prayer: it was only elevated.</p>

<p>“I could decide if I were but certain,” I answered: “were I but
convinced that it is God’s will I should marry you, I could vow to
marry you here and now—come afterwards what would!”</p>

<p>“My prayers are heard!” ejaculated St. John. He pressed his hand firmer
on my head, as if he claimed me: he surrounded me with his arm,
<hi rend="italic">almost</hi> as if he loved me (I say <hi rend="italic">almost</hi>—I knew the difference—for I
had felt what it was to be loved; but, like him, I had now put love out
of the question, and thought only of duty). I contended with my inward
dimness of vision, before which clouds yet rolled. I sincerely, deeply,
fervently longed to do what was right; and only that. “Show me, show me
the path!” I entreated of Heaven. I was excited more than I had ever
been; and whether what followed was the effect of excitement the reader
shall judge.</p>

<p>All the house was still; for I believe all, except St. John and myself,
were now retired to rest. The one candle was dying out: the room was
full of moonlight. My heart beat fast and thick: I heard its throb.
Suddenly it stood still to an inexpressible feeling that thrilled it
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through, and passed at once to my head and extremities. The feeling was
not like an electric shock, but it was quite as sharp, as strange, as
startling: it acted on my senses as if their utmost activity hitherto
had been but torpor, from which they were now summoned and forced to
wake. They rose expectant: eye and ear waited while the flesh quivered
on my bones.</p>

<p>“What have you heard? What do you see?” asked St. John. I saw nothing,
but I heard a voice somewhere cry—</p>

<p>“Jane! Jane! Jane!”—nothing more.</p>

<p>“O God! what is it?” I gasped.</p>

<p>I might have said, “Where is it?” for it did not seem in the room—nor
in the house—nor in the garden; it did not come out of the air—nor from
under the earth—nor from overhead. I had heard it—where, or whence, for
ever impossible to know! And it was the voice of a human being—a known,
loved, well-remembered voice—that of Edward Fairfax Rochester; and it
spoke in pain and woe, wildly, eerily, urgently.</p>

<p>“I am coming!” I cried. “Wait for me! Oh, I will come!” I flew to the
door and looked into the passage: it was dark. I ran out into the
garden: it was void.</p>
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<p>“Where are you?” I exclaimed.</p>

<p>The hills beyond Marsh Glen sent the answer faintly back—“Where are
you?” I listened. The wind sighed low in the firs: all was moorland
loneliness and midnight hush.</p>

<p>“Down superstition!” I commented, as that spectre rose up black by the
black yew at the gate. “This is not thy deception, nor thy witchcraft:
it is the work of nature. She was roused, and did—no miracle—but her
best.”</p>

<p>I broke from St. John, who had followed, and would have detained me. It
was <hi rend="italic">my</hi> time to assume ascendency. <hi rend="italic">My</hi> powers were in play and in
force. I told him to forbear question or remark; I desired him to leave
me: I must and would be alone. He obeyed at once. Where there is energy
to command well enough, obedience never fails. I mounted to my chamber;
locked myself in; fell on my knees; and prayed in my way—a different
way to St. John’s, but effective in its own fashion. I seemed to
penetrate very near a Mighty Spirit; and my soul rushed out in
gratitude at His feet. I rose from the thanksgiving—took a resolve—and
lay down, unscared, enlightened—eager but for the daylight.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER X</head>
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<p>The daylight came. I rose at dawn. I busied myself for an hour or two
with arranging my things in my chamber, drawers, and wardrobe, in the
order wherein I should wish to leave them during a brief absence.
Meantime, I heard St. John quit his room. He stopped at my door: I
feared he would knock—no, but a slip of paper was passed under the
door. I took it up. It bore these words—</p>

<p>“You left me too suddenly last night. Had you stayed but a little
longer, you would have laid your hand on the Christian’s cross and the
angel’s crown. I shall expect your clear decision when I return this
day fortnight. Meantime, watch and pray that you enter not into
temptation: the spirit, I trust, is willing, but the flesh, I see, is
weak. I shall pray for you hourly.—Yours, ST. JOHN.”</p>

<p>“My spirit,” I answered mentally, “is willing 
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to do what is right; and
my flesh, I hope, is strong enough to accomplish the will of Heaven,
when once that will is distinctly known to me. At any rate, it shall be
strong enough to search—inquire—to grope an outlet from this cloud of
doubt, and find the open day of certainty.”</p>

<p>It was the first of June; yet the morning was overcast and chilly: rain
beat fast on my casement. I heard the front-door open, and St. John
pass out. Looking through the window, I saw him traverse the garden. He
took the way over the misty moors in the direction of Whitcross—there
he would meet the coach.</p>

<p>“In a few more hours I shall succeed you in that track, cousin,”
thought I: “I too have a coach to meet at Whitcross. I too have some to
see and ask after in England, before I depart for ever.”</p>

<p>It wanted yet two hours of breakfast-time. I filled the interval in
walking softly about my room, and pondering the visitation which had
given my plans their present bent. I recalled that inward sensation I
had experienced: for I could recall it, with all its unspeakable
strangeness. I recalled the voice I had heard; again I questioned
whence it came, as vainly as before: it seemed in <hi rend="italic">me</hi>me—not in the
external world. I 
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asked was it a mere nervous impression—a delusion? I
could not conceive or believe: it was more like an inspiration. The
wondrous shock of feeling had come like the earthquake which shook the
foundations of Paul and Silas’s prison; it had opened the doors of the
soul’s cell and loosed its bands—it had wakened it out of its sleep,
whence it sprang trembling, listening, aghast; then vibrated thrice a
cry on my startled ear, and in my quaking heart and through my spirit,
which neither feared nor shook, but exulted as if in joy over the
success of one effort it had been privileged to make, independent of
the cumbrous body.</p>

<p>“Ere many days,” I said, as I terminated my musings, “I will know
something of him whose voice seemed last night to summon me. Letters
have proved of no avail—personal inquiry shall replace them.”</p>

<p>At breakfast I announced to Diana and Mary that I was going a journey,
and should be absent at least four days.</p>

<p>“Alone, Jane?” they asked.</p>

<p>“Yes; it was to see or hear news of a friend about whom I had for some
time been uneasy.”</p>

<p>They might have said, as I have no doubt they thought, that they had
believed me to be without any friends save them: for, indeed, I 
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had often said so; but, with their true natural delicacy, they abstained
from comment, except that Diana asked me if I was sure I was well
enough to travel. I looked very pale, she observed. I replied, that
nothing ailed me save anxiety of mind, which I hoped soon to alleviate.</p>

<p>It was easy to make my further arrangements; for I was troubled with no
inquiries—no surmises. Having once explained to them that I could not
now be explicit about my plans, they kindly and wisely acquiesced in
the silence with which I pursued them, according to me the privilege of
free action I should under similar circumstances have accorded them.</p>

<p>I left Moor House at three o’clock P.M., and soon after four I stood at
the foot of the sign-post of Whitcross, waiting the arrival of the
coach which was to take me to distant Thornfield. Amidst the silence of
those solitary roads and desert hills, I heard it approach from a great
distance. It was the same vehicle whence, a year ago, I had alighted
one summer evening on this very spot—how desolate, and hopeless, and
objectless! It stopped as I beckoned. I entered—not now obliged to part
with my whole fortune as the price of its accommodation. Once more on
the road to Thornfield, 
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I felt like the messenger-pigeon flying home.</p>

<p>It was a journey of six-and-thirty hours. I had set out from Whitcross
on a Tuesday afternoon, and early on the succeeding Thursday morning
the coach stopped to water the horses at a wayside inn, situated in the
midst of scenery whose green hedges and large fields and low pastoral
hills (how mild of feature and verdant of hue compared with the stern
North-Midland moors of Morton!) met my eye like the lineaments of a
once familiar face. Yes, I knew the character of this landscape: I was
sure we were near my bourne.</p>

<p>“How far is Thornfield Hall from here?” I asked of the ostler.</p>

<p>“Just two miles, ma’am, across the fields.”</p>

<p>“My journey is closed,” I thought to myself. I got out of the coach,
gave a box I had into the ostler’s charge, to be kept till I called for
it; paid my fare; satisfied the coachman, and was going: the
brightening day gleamed on the sign of the inn, and I read in gilt
letters, “The Rochester Arms.” My heart leapt up: I was already on my
master’s very lands. It fell again: the thought struck it:—</p>

<p>“Your master himself may be beyond the British Channel, for aught you
know: 
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and then, if he is at Thornfield Hall, towards which you hasten,
who besides him is there? His lunatic wife: and you have nothing to do
with him: you dare not speak to him or seek his presence. You have lost
your labour—you had better go no farther,” urged the monitor. “Ask
information of the people at the inn; they can give you all you seek:
they can solve your doubts at once. Go up to that man, and inquire if
Mr. Rochester be at home.”</p>

<p>The suggestion was sensible, and yet I could not force myself to act on
it. I so dreaded a reply that would crush me with despair. To prolong
doubt was to prolong hope. I might yet once more see the Hall under the
ray of her star. There was the stile before me—the very fields through
which I had hurried, blind, deaf, distracted with a revengeful fury
tracking and scourging me, on the morning I fled from Thornfield: ere I
well knew what course I had resolved to take, I was in the midst of
them. How fast I walked! How I ran sometimes! How I looked forward to
catch the first view of the well-known woods! With what feelings I
welcomed single trees I knew, and familiar glimpses of meadow and hill
between them!</p>

<p>At last the woods rose; the rookery clustered dark; a loud cawing broke
the morning stillness. 
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Strange delight inspired me: on I hastened.
Another field crossed—a lane threaded—and there were the courtyard
walls—the back offices: the house itself, the rookery still hid. “My
first view of it shall be in front,” I determined, “where its bold
battlements will strike the eye nobly at once, and where I can single
out my master’s very window: perhaps he will be standing at it—he rises
early: perhaps he is now walking in the orchard, or on the pavement in
front. Could I but see him!—but a moment! Surely, in that case, I
should not be so mad as to run to him? I cannot tell—I am not certain.
And if I did—what then? God bless him! What then? Who would be hurt by
my once more tasting the life his glance can give me? I rave: perhaps
at this moment he is watching the sun rise over the Pyrenees, or on the
tideless sea of the south.”</p>

<p>I had coasted along the lower wall of the orchard—turned its angle:
there was a gate just there, opening into the meadow, between two stone
pillars crowned by stone balls. From behind one pillar I could peep
round quietly at the full front of the mansion. I advanced my head with
precaution, desirous to ascertain if any bedroom window-blinds were yet
drawn up: battlements, windows, long front—all 
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from this sheltered station were at my command.</p>

<p>The crows sailing overhead perhaps watched me while I took this survey.
I wonder what they thought. They must have considered I was very
careful and timid at first, and that gradually I grew very bold and
reckless. A peep, and then a long stare; and then a departure from my
niche and a straying out into the meadow; and a sudden stop full in
front of the great mansion, and a protracted, hardy gaze towards it.
“What affectation of diffidence was this at first?” they might have
demanded; “what stupid regardlessness now?”</p>

<p>Hear an illustration, reader.</p>

<p>A lover finds his mistress asleep on a mossy bank; he wishes to catch a
glimpse of her fair face without waking her. He steals softly over the
grass, careful to make no sound; he pauses—fancying she has stirred: he
withdraws: not for worlds would he be seen. All is still: he again
advances: he bends above her; a light veil rests on her features: he
lifts it, bends lower; now his eyes anticipate the vision of
beauty—warm, and blooming, and lovely, in rest. How hurried was their
first glance! But how they fix! How 
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he starts! How he suddenly and
vehemently clasps in both arms the form he dared not, a moment since,
touch with his finger! How he calls aloud a name, and drops his burden,
and gazes on it wildly! He thus grasps and cries, and gazes, because he
no longer fears to waken by any sound he can utter—by any movement he
can make. He thought his love slept sweetly: he finds she is stone
dead.</p>

<p>I looked with timorous joy towards a stately house: I saw a blackened
ruin.</p>

<p>No need to cower behind a gate-post, indeed!—to peep up at chamber
lattices, fearing life was astir behind them! No need to listen for
doors opening—to fancy steps on the pavement or the gravel-walk! The
lawn, the grounds were trodden and waste: the portal yawned void. The
front was, as I had once seen it in a dream, but a shell-like wall,
very high and very fragile-looking, perforated with paneless windows:
no roof, no battlements, no chimneys—all had crashed in.</p>

<p>And there was the silence of death about it: the solitude of a lonesome
wild. No wonder that letters addressed to people here had never
received an answer: as well despatch epistles to a vault in a church
aisle. The grim blackness 
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of the stones told by what fate the Hall had
fallen—by conflagration: but how kindled? What story belonged to this
disaster? What loss, besides mortar and marble and wood-work had
followed upon it? Had life been wrecked as well as property? If so,
whose? Dreadful question: there was no one here to answer it—not even
dumb sign, mute token.</p>

<p>In wandering round the shattered walls and through the devastated
interior, I gathered evidence that the calamity was not of late
occurrence. Winter snows, I thought, had drifted through that void
arch, winter rains beaten in at those hollow casements; for, amidst the
drenched piles of rubbish, spring had cherished vegetation: grass and
weed grew here and there between the stones and fallen rafters. And oh!
where meantime was the hapless owner of this wreck? In what land? Under
what auspices? My eye involuntarily wandered to the grey church tower
near the gates, and I asked, “Is he with Damer de Rochester, sharing
the shelter of his narrow marble house?”</p>

<p>Some answer must be had to these questions. I could find it nowhere but
at the inn, and thither, ere long, I returned. The host himself brought
my breakfast into the 
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parlour. I requested him to shut the door and sit
down: I had some questions to ask him. But when he complied, I scarcely
knew how to begin; such horror had I of the possible answers. And yet
the spectacle of desolation I had just left prepared me in a measure
for a tale of misery. The host was a respectable-looking, middle-aged
man.</p>

<p>“You know Thornfield Hall, of course?” I managed to say at last.</p>

<p>“Yes, ma’am; I lived there once.”</p>

<p>“Did you?” Not in my time, I thought: you are a stranger to me.</p>

<p>“I was the late Mr. Rochester’s butler,” he added.</p>

<p>The late! I seem to have received, with full force, the blow I had been
trying to evade.</p>

<p>“The late!” I gasped. “Is he dead?”</p>

<p>“I mean the present gentleman, Mr. Edward’s father,” he explained. I
breathed again: my blood resumed its flow. Fully assured by these words
that Mr. Edward—<hi rend="italic">my</hi> Mr. Rochester (God bless him, wherever he
was!)—was at least alive: was, in short, “the present gentleman.”
Gladdening words! It seemed I could hear all that was to come—whatever
the disclosures might be—with comparative 
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tranquillity. Since he was
not in the grave, I could bear, I thought, to learn that he was at the
Antipodes.</p>

<p>“Is Mr. Rochester living at Thornfield Hall now?” I asked, knowing, of
course, what the answer would be, but yet desirous of deferring the
direct question as to where he really was.</p>

<p>“No, ma’am—oh, no! No one is living there. I suppose you are a stranger
in these parts, or you would have heard what happened last
autumn,—Thornfield Hall is quite a ruin: it was burnt down just about
harvest-time. A dreadful calamity! such an immense quantity of valuable
property destroyed: hardly any of the furniture could be saved. The
fire broke out at dead of night, and before the engines arrived from
Millcote, the building was one mass of flame. It was a terrible
spectacle: I witnessed it myself.”</p>

<p>“At dead of night!” I muttered. Yes, that was ever the hour of fatality
at Thornfield. “Was it known how it originated?” I demanded.</p>

<p>“They guessed, ma’am: they guessed. Indeed, I should say it was
ascertained beyond a doubt. You are not perhaps aware,” he continued,
edging his chair a little nearer the 
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table, and speaking low, “that
there was a lady—a—a lunatic, kept in the house?”</p>

<p>“I have heard something of it.”</p>

<p>“She was kept in very close confinement, ma’am; people even for some
years was not absolutely certain of her existence. No one saw her: they
only knew by rumour that such a person was at the Hall; and who or what
she was it was difficult to conjecture. They said Mr. Edward had
brought her from abroad, and some believed she had been his mistress.
But a queer thing happened a year since—a very queer thing.”</p>

<p>I feared now to hear my own story. I endeavoured to recall him to the
main fact.</p>

<p>“And this lady?”</p>

<p>“This lady, ma’am,” he answered, “turned out to be Mr. Rochester’s
wife! The discovery was brought about in the strangest way. There was a
young lady, a governess at the Hall, that Mr. Rochester fell in—”</p>

<p>“But the fire,” I suggested.</p>

<p>“I’m coming to that, ma’am—that Mr. Edward fell in love with. The
servants say they never saw anybody so much in love as he was: he was
after her continually. They used to watch him—servants will, you know,
ma’am—and he set store on her past everything: 
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for all, nobody but him
thought her so very handsome. She was a little small thing, they say,
almost like a child. I never saw her myself; but I’ve heard Leah, the
house-maid, tell of her. Leah liked her well enough. Mr. Rochester was
about forty, and this governess not twenty; and you see, when gentlemen
of his age fall in love with girls, they are often like as if they were
bewitched. Well, he would marry her.”</p>

<p>“You shall tell me this part of the story another time,” I said; “but
now I have a particular reason for wishing to hear all about the fire.
Was it suspected that this lunatic, Mrs. Rochester, had any hand in
it?”</p>

<p>“You’ve hit it, ma’am: it’s quite certain that it was her, and nobody
but her, that set it going. She had a woman to take care of her called
Mrs. Poole—an able woman in her line, and very trustworthy, but for one
fault—a fault common to a deal of them nurses and matrons—<hi rend="italic">she kept a private bottle of gin by her</hi>, 
and now and then took a drop over-much.
It is excusable, for she had a hard life of it: but still it was
dangerous; for when Mrs. Poole was fast asleep after the gin and water,
the mad lady, who was as cunning as a witch, would take the keys out of
her pocket, 
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let herself out of her chamber, and go roaming about the
house, doing any wild mischief that came into her head. They say she
had nearly burnt her husband in his bed once: but I don’t know about
that. However, on this night, she set fire first to the hangings of the
room next her own, and then she got down to a lower storey, and made
her way to the chamber that had been the governess’s—(she was like as
if she knew somehow how matters had gone on, and had a spite at
her)—and she kindled the bed there; but there was nobody sleeping in
it, fortunately. The governess had run away two months before; and for
all Mr. Rochester sought her as if she had been the most precious thing
he had in the world, he never could hear a word of her; and he grew
savage—quite savage on his disappointment: he never was a wild man, but
he got dangerous after he lost her. He would be alone, too. He sent
Mrs. Fairfax, the housekeeper, away to her friends at a distance; but
he did it handsomely, for he settled an annuity on her for life: and
she deserved it—she was a very good woman. Miss Adèle, a ward he had,
was put to school. He broke off acquaintance with all the gentry, and
shut himself up like a hermit at the Hall.”</p>
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<p>“What! did he not leave England?”</p>

<p>“Leave England? Bless you, no! He would not cross the door-stones of
the house, except at night, when he walked just like a ghost about the
grounds and in the orchard as if he had lost his senses—which it is my
opinion he had; for a more spirited, bolder, keener gentleman than he
was before that midge of a governess crossed him, you never saw, ma’am.
He was not a man given to wine, or cards, or racing, as some are, and
he was not so very handsome; but he had a courage and a will of his
own, if ever man had. I knew him from a boy, you see: and for my part,
I have often wished that Miss Eyre had been sunk in the sea before she
came to Thornfield Hall.”</p>

<p>“Then Mr. Rochester was at home when the fire broke out?”</p>

<p>“Yes, indeed was he; and he went up to the attics when all was burning
above and below, and got the servants out of their beds and helped them
down himself, and went back to get his mad wife out of her cell. And
then they called out to him that she was on the roof, where she was
standing, waving her arms, above the battlements, and shouting out till
they could hear her a mile off: I saw her and 
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heard her with my own
eyes. She was a big woman, and had long black hair: we could see it
streaming against the flames as she stood. I witnessed, and several
more witnessed, Mr. Rochester ascend through the sky-light on to the
roof; we heard him call ‘Bertha!’ We saw him approach her; and then,
ma’am, she yelled and gave a spring, and the next minute she lay
smashed on the pavement.”</p>


<p>The next minute she lay smashed on the pavement</p>

<p>“Dead?”</p>

<p>“Dead! Ay, dead as the stones on which her brains and blood were
scattered.”</p>

<p>“Good God!”</p>

<p>“You may well say so, ma’am: it was frightful!”</p>

<p>He shuddered.</p>

<p>“And afterwards?” I urged.</p>

<p>“Well, ma’am, afterwards the house was burnt to the ground: there are
only some bits of walls standing now.”</p>

<p>“Were any other lives lost?”</p>

<p>“No—perhaps it would have been better if there had.”</p>

<p>“What do you mean?”</p>

<p>“Poor Mr. Edward!” he ejaculated, “I little thought ever to have seen
it! Some say it was a just judgment on him for keeping his 
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first marriage secret, and wanting to take another wife while he had one
living: but I pity him, for my part.”</p>

<p>“You said he was alive?” I exclaimed.</p>

<p>“Yes, yes: he is alive; but many think he had better be dead.”</p>

<p>“Why? How?” My blood was again running cold. “Where is he?” I demanded.
“Is he in England?”</p>

<p>“Ay—ay—he’s in England; he can’t get out of England, I fancy—he’s a
fixture now.”</p>

<p>What agony was this! And the man seemed resolved to protract it.</p>

<p>“He is stone-blind,” he said at last. “Yes, he is stone-blind, is Mr.
Edward.”</p>

<p>I had dreaded worse. I had dreaded he was mad. I summoned strength to
ask what had caused this calamity.</p>

<p>“It was all his own courage, and a body may say, his kindness, in a
way, ma’am: he wouldn’t leave the house till every one else was out
before him. As he came down the great staircase at last, after Mrs.
Rochester had flung herself from the battlements, there was a great
crash—all fell. He was taken out from under the ruins, alive, but sadly
hurt: a beam had fallen in such a way as to protect 
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him partly; but one
eye was knocked out, and one hand so crushed that Mr. Carter, the
surgeon, had to amputate it directly. The other eye inflamed: he lost
the sight of that also. He is now helpless, indeed—blind and a
cripple.”</p>

<p>“Where is he? Where does he now live?”</p>

<p>“At Ferndean, a manor-house on a farm he has, about thirty miles off:
quite a desolate spot.”</p>

<p>“Who is with him?”</p>

<p>“Old John and his wife: he would have none else. He is quite broken
down, they say.”</p>

<p>“Have you any sort of conveyance?”</p>

<p>“We have a chaise, ma’am, a very handsome chaise.”</p>

<p>“Let it be got ready instantly; and if your post-boy can drive me to
Ferndean before dark this day, I’ll pay both you and him twice the hire
you usually demand.”</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XI</head>
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<p>The manor-house of Ferndean was a building of considerable antiquity,
moderate size, and no architectural pretensions, deep buried in a wood.
I had heard of it before. Mr. Rochester often spoke of it, and
sometimes went there. His father had purchased the estate for the sake
of the game covers. He would have let the house, but could find no
tenant, in consequence of its ineligible and insalubrious site.
Ferndean then remained uninhabited and unfurnished, with the exception
of some two or three rooms fitted up for the accommodation of the
squire when he went there in the season to shoot.</p>

<p>To this house I came just ere dark on an evening marked by the
characteristics of sad sky, cold gale, and continued small penetrating
rain. The last mile I performed on foot, having dismissed the chaise
and driver with 
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the double remuneration I had promised. Even when
within a very short distance of the manor-house, you could see nothing
of it, so thick and dark grew the timber of the gloomy wood about it.
Iron gates between granite pillars showed me where to enter, and
passing through them, I found myself at once in the twilight of
close-ranked trees. There was a grass-grown track descending the forest
aisle between hoar and knotty shafts and under branched arches. I
followed it, expecting soon to reach the dwelling; but it stretched on
and on, it wound far and farther: no sign of habitation or grounds was
visible.</p>

<p>I thought I had taken a wrong direction and lost my way. The darkness
of natural as well as of sylvan dusk gathered over me. I looked round
in search of another road. There was none: all was interwoven stem,
columnar trunk, dense summer foliage—no opening anywhere.</p>

<p>I proceeded: at last my way opened, the trees thinned a little;
presently I beheld a railing, then the house—scarce, by this dim light,
distinguishable from the trees; so dank and green were its decaying
walls. Entering a portal, fastened only by a latch, I stood amidst a
space of enclosed ground, from which the
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wood swept away in a
semicircle. There were no flowers, no garden-beds; only a broad
gravel-walk girdling a grass-plat, and this set in the heavy frame of
the forest. The house presented two pointed gables in its front; the
windows were latticed and narrow: the front door was narrow too, one
step led up to it. The whole looked, as the host of the Rochester Arms
had said, “quite a desolate spot.” It was as still as a church on a
week-day: the pattering rain on the forest leaves was the only sound
audible in its vicinage.</p>

<p>“Can there be life here?” I asked.</p>

<p>Yes, life of some kind there was; for I heard a movement—that narrow
front-door was unclosing, and some shape was about to issue from the
grange.</p>

<p>It opened slowly: a figure came out into the twilight and stood on the
step; a man without a hat: he stretched forth his hand as if to feel
whether it rained. Dusk as it was, I had recognised him—it was my
master, Edward Fairfax Rochester, and no other.</p>

<p>I stayed my step, almost my breath, and stood to watch him—to examine
him, myself unseen, and alas! to him invisible. It was a sudden
meeting, and one in which rapture was kept well in check by pain. I had no 
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difficulty in restraining my voice from exclamation, my step from
hasty advance.</p>

<p>His form was of the same strong and stalwart contour as ever: his port
was still erect, his hair was still raven black; nor were his features
altered or sunk: not in one year’s space, by any sorrow, could his
athletic strength be quelled or his vigorous prime blighted. But in his
countenance I saw a change: that looked desperate and brooding—that
reminded me of some wronged and fettered wild beast or bird, dangerous
to approach in his sullen woe. The caged eagle, whose gold-ringed eyes
cruelty has extinguished, might look as looked that sightless Samson.</p>

<p>And, reader, do you think I feared him in his blind ferocity?—if you
do, you little know me. A soft hope blent with my sorrow that soon I
should dare to drop a kiss on that brow of rock, and on those lips so
sternly sealed beneath it: but not yet. I would not accost him yet.</p>

<p>He descended the one step, and advanced slowly and gropingly towards
the grass-plat. Where was his daring stride now? Then he paused, as if
he knew not which way to turn. He lifted his hand and opened his
eyelids; gazed blank, and with a straining effort, on 
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the sky, and 
toward the amphitheatre of trees: one saw that all to him was void
darkness. He stretched his right hand (the left arm, the mutilated one,
he kept hidden in his bosom); he seemed to wish by touch to gain an
idea of what lay around him: he met but vacancy still; for the trees
were some yards off where he stood. He relinquished the endeavour,
folded his arms, and stood quiet and mute in the rain, now falling fast
on his uncovered head. At this moment John approached him from some
quarter.</p>

<p>“Will you take my arm, sir?” he said; “there is a heavy shower coming
on: had you not better go in?”</p>

<p>“Let me alone,” was the answer.</p>

<p>John withdrew without having observed me. Mr. Rochester now tried to
walk about: vainly,—all was too uncertain. He groped his way back to
the house, and, re-entering it, closed the door.</p>

<p>I now drew near and knocked: John’s wife opened for me. “Mary,” I said,
“how are you?”</p>

<p>She started as if she had seen a ghost: I calmed her. To her hurried
“Is it really you, miss, come at this late hour to this lonely place?”
I answered by taking her hand; and 
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then I followed her into the
kitchen, where John now sat by a good fire. I explained to them, in few
words, that I had heard all which had happened since I left Thornfield,
and that I was come to see Mr. Rochester. I asked John to go down to
the turn-pike-house, where I had dismissed the chaise, and bring my
trunk, which I had left there: and then, while I removed my bonnet and
shawl, I questioned Mary as to whether I could be accommodated at the
Manor House for the night; and finding that arrangements to that
effect, though difficult, would not be impossible, I informed her I
should stay. Just at this moment the parlour-bell rang.</p>

<p>“When you go in,” said I, “tell your master that a person wishes to
speak to him, but do not give my name.”</p>

<p>“I don’t think he will see you,” she answered; “he refuses everybody.”</p>

<p>When she returned, I inquired what he had said.</p>

<p>“You are to send in your name and your business,” she replied. She then
proceeded to fill a glass with water, and place it on a tray, together
with candles.</p>

<p>“Is that what he rang for?” I asked.</p>
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<p>“Yes: he always has candles brought in at dark, though he is blind.”</p>

<p>“Give the tray to me; I will carry it in.”</p>

<p>I took it from her hand: she pointed me out the parlour door. The tray
shook as I held it; the water spilt from the glass; my heart struck my
ribs loud and fast. Mary opened the door for me, and shut it behind me.</p>

<p>This parlour looked gloomy: a neglected handful of fire burnt low in
the grate; and, leaning over it, with his head supported against the
high, old-fashioned mantelpiece, appeared the blind tenant of the room.
His old dog, Pilot, lay on one side, removed out of the way, and coiled
up as if afraid of being inadvertently trodden upon. Pilot pricked up
his ears when I came in: then he jumped up with a yelp and a whine, and
bounded towards me: he almost knocked the tray from my hands. I set it
on the table; then patted him, and said softly, “Lie down!” Mr.
Rochester turned mechanically to <hi rend="italic">see</hi> what the commotion was: but as
he <hi rend="italic">saw</hi> nothing, he returned and sighed.</p>

<p>“Give me the water, Mary,” he said.</p>

<p>I approached him with the now only half-filled glass; Pilot followed
me, still excited.</p>

<p>“What is the matter?” he inquired.</p>

<p>“Down, Pilot!” I again said. He checked 
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the water on its way to his
lips, and seemed to listen: he drank, and put the glass down. “This is
you, Mary, is it not?”</p>

<p>“Mary is in the kitchen,” I answered.</p>

<p>He put out his hand with a quick gesture, but not seeing where I stood,
he did not touch me. “Who is this? Who is this?” he demanded, trying,
as it seemed, to <hi rend="italic">see</hi> with those sightless eyes—unavailing and
distressing attempt! “Answer me—speak again!” he ordered, imperiously
and aloud.</p>

<p>“Will you have a little more water, sir? I spilt half of what was in
the glass,” I said.</p>

<p>“<hi rend="italic">Who</hi> is it? <hi rend="italic">What</hi> is it? Who speaks?”</p>

<p>“Pilot knows me, and John and Mary know I am here. I came only this
evening,” I answered.</p>

<p>“Great God!—what delusion has come over me? What sweet madness has
seized me?”</p>

<p>“No delusion—no madness: your mind, sir, is too strong for delusion,
your health too sound for frenzy.”</p>

<p>“And where is the speaker? Is it only a voice? Oh! I <hi rend="italic">cannot</hi> see, but
I must feel, or my heart will stop and my brain burst. Whatever—whoever
you are—be perceptible to the touch or I cannot live!”</p>
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<p>He groped; I arrested his wandering hand, and prisoned it in both mine.</p>

<p>“Her very fingers!” he cried; “her small, slight fingers! If so there
must be more of her.”</p>

<p>The muscular hand broke from my custody; my arm was seized, my
shoulder—neck—waist—I was entwined and gathered to him.</p>

<p>“Is it Jane? <hi rend="italic">What</hi> is it? This is her shape—this is her size—”</p>

<p>“And this her voice,” I added. “She is all here: her heart, too. God
bless you, sir! I am glad to be so near you again.”</p>

<p>“Jane Eyre!—Jane Eyre,” was all he said.</p>

<p>“My dear master,” I answered, “I am Jane Eyre: I have found you out—I
am come back to you.”</p>

<p>“In truth?—in the flesh? My living Jane?”</p>

<p>“You touch me, sir,—you hold me, and fast enough: I am not cold like a
corpse, nor vacant like air, am I?”</p>

<p>“My living darling! These are certainly her limbs, and these her
features; but I cannot be so blest, after all my misery. It is a dream;
such dreams as I have had at night when I have clasped her once more to
my heart, as I 
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do now; and kissed her, as thus—and felt that she loved
me, and trusted that she would not leave me.”</p>

<p>“Which I never will, sir, from this day.”</p>

<p>“Never will, says the vision? But I always woke and found it an empty
mockery; and I was desolate and abandoned—my life dark, lonely,
hopeless—my soul athirst and forbidden to drink—my heart famished and
never to be fed. Gentle, soft dream, nestling in my arms now, you will
fly, too, as your sisters have all fled before you: but kiss me before
you go—embrace me, Jane.”</p>

<p>“There, sir—and there!”’</p>

<p>I pressed my lips to his once brilliant and now rayless eyes—I swept
his hair from his brow, and kissed that too. He suddenly seemed to
arouse himself: the conviction of the reality of all this seized him.</p>

<p>“It is you—is it, Jane? You are come back to me then?”</p>

<p>“I am.”</p>

<p>“And you do not lie dead in some ditch under some stream? And you are
not a pining outcast amongst strangers?”</p>

<p>“No, sir! I am an independent woman now.”</p>

<p>“Independent! What do you mean, Jane?”</p>
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<p>“My uncle in Madeira is dead, and he left me five thousand pounds.”</p>

<p>“Ah! this is practical—this is real!” he cried: “I should never dream
that. Besides, there is that peculiar voice of hers, so animating and
piquant, as well as soft: it cheers my withered heart; it puts life
into it.—What, Janet! Are you an independent woman? A rich woman?”</p>

<p>“Quite rich, sir. If you won’t let me live with you, I can build a
house of my own close up to your door, and you may come and sit in my
parlour when you want company of an evening.”</p>

<p>“But as you are rich, Jane, you have now, no doubt, friends who will
look after you, and not suffer you to devote yourself to a blind
lameter like me?”</p>

<p>“I told you I am independent, sir, as well as rich: I am my own
mistress.”</p>

<p>“And you will stay with me?”</p>

<p>“Certainly—unless you object. I will be your neighbour, your nurse,
your housekeeper. I find you lonely: I will be your companion—to read
to you, to walk with you, to sit with you, to wait on you, to be eyes
and hands to you. Cease to look so melancholy, my dear 
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master; you shall not be left desolate, so long as I live.”</p>

<p>He replied not: he seemed serious—abstracted; he sighed; he half-opened
his lips as if to speak: he closed them again. I felt a little
embarrassed. Perhaps I had too rashly over-leaped conventionalities;
and he, like St. John, saw impropriety in my inconsiderateness. I had
indeed made my proposal from the idea that he wished and would ask me
to be his wife: an expectation, not the less certain because
unexpressed, had buoyed me up, that he would claim me at once as his
own. But no hint to that effect escaping him and his countenance
becoming more overcast, I suddenly remembered that I might have been
all wrong, and was perhaps playing the fool unwittingly; and I began
gently to withdraw myself from his arms—but he eagerly snatched me
closer.</p>

<p>“No—no—Jane; you must not go. No—I have touched you, heard you, felt
the comfort of your presence—the sweetness of your consolation: I
cannot give up these joys. I have little left in myself—I must have
you. The world may laugh—may call me absurd, selfish—but it does not
signify. My very soul 
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demands you: it will be satisfied, or it will
take deadly vengeance on its frame.”</p>

<p>“Well, sir, I will stay with you: I have said so.”</p>

<p>“Yes—but you understand one thing by staying with me; and I understand
another. You, perhaps, could make up your mind to be about my hand and
chair—to wait on me as a kind little nurse (for you have an
affectionate heart and a generous spirit, which prompt you to make
sacrifices for those you pity), and that ought to suffice for me no
doubt. I suppose I should now entertain none but fatherly feelings for
you: do you think so? Come—tell me.”</p>

<p>“I will think what you like, sir: I am content to be only your nurse,
if you think it better.”</p>

<p>“But you cannot always be my nurse, Janet: you are young—you must marry
one day.”</p>

<p>“I don’t care about being married.”</p>

<p>“You should care, Janet: if I were what I once was, I would try to make
you care—but—a sightless block!”</p>

<p>He relapsed again into gloom. I, on the contrary, became more cheerful,
and took fresh courage: these last words gave me an insight 
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as to where
the difficulty lay; and as it was no difficulty with me, I felt quite
relieved from my previous embarrassment. I resumed a livelier vein of
conversation.</p>

<p>“It is time some one undertook to rehumanise you,” said I, parting his
thick and long uncut locks; “for I see you are being metamorphosed into
a lion, or something of that sort. You have a ‘faux air’ of
Nebuchadnezzar in the fields about you, that is certain: your hair
reminds me of eagles’ feathers; whether your nails are grown like
birds’ claws or not, I have not yet noticed.”</p>

<p>“On this arm, I have neither hand nor nails,” he said, drawing the
mutilated limb from his breast, and showing it to me. “It is a mere
stump—a ghastly sight! Don’t you think so, Jane?”</p>

<p>“It is a pity to see it; and a pity to see your eyes—and the scar of
fire on your forehead: and the worst of it is, one is in danger of
loving you too well for all this; and making too much of you.”</p>

<p>“I thought you would be revolted, Jane, when you saw my arm, and my
cicatrised visage.”</p>

<p>“Did you? Don’t tell me so—lest I should say something disparaging to
your judgment. Now, let me leave you an instant, to make a 
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better fire, 
and have the hearth swept up. Can you tell when there is a good fire?”</p>

<p>“Yes; with the right eye I see a glow—a ruddy haze.”</p>

<p>“And you see the candles?”</p>

<p>“Very dimly—each is a luminous cloud.”</p>

<p>“Can you see me?”</p>

<p>“No, my fairy: but I am only too thankful to hear and feel you.”</p>

<p>“When do you take supper?”</p>

<p>“I never take supper.”</p>

<p>“But you shall have some to-night. I am hungry: so are you, I daresay,
only you forget.”</p>

<p>Summoning Mary, I soon had the room in more cheerful order: I prepared
him, likewise, a comfortable repast. My spirits were excited, and with
pleasure and ease I talked to him during supper, and for a long time
after. There was no harassing restraint, no repressing of glee and
vivacity with him; for with him I was at perfect ease, because I knew I
suited him; all I said or did seemed either to console or revive him.
Delightful consciousness! It brought to life and light my whole nature:
in his presence I thoroughly lived; and he lived in mine. Blind as he
was, smiles 
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played over his face, joy dawned on his forehead: his
lineaments softened and warmed.</p>

<p>After supper, he began to ask me many questions, of where I had been,
what I had been doing, how I had found him out; but I gave him only
very partial replies: it was too late to enter into particulars that
night. Besides, I wished to touch no deep-thrilling chord—to open no
fresh well of emotion in his heart: my sole present aim was to cheer
him. Cheered, as I have said, he was: and yet but by fits. If a
moment’s silence broke the conversation, he would turn restless, touch
me, then say, “Jane.”</p>

<p>“You are altogether a human being, Jane? You are certain of that?”</p>

<p>“I conscientiously believe so, Mr. Rochester.”</p>

<p>“Yet how, on this dark and doleful evening, could you so suddenly rise
on my lone hearth? I stretched my hand to take a glass of water from a
hireling, and it was given me by you: I asked a question, expecting
John’s wife to answer me, and your voice spoke at my ear.”</p>

<p>“Because I had come in, in Mary’s stead, with the tray.”</p>

<p>“And there is enchantment in the very hour I am now spending with you.
Who can tell 
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what a dark, dreary, hopeless life I have dragged on for
months past? Doing nothing, expecting nothing; merging night in day;
feeling but the sensation of cold when I let the fire go out, of hunger
when I forgot to eat: and then a ceaseless sorrow, and, at times, a
very delirium of desire to behold my Jane again. Yes: for her
restoration I longed, far more than for that of my lost sight. How can
it be that Jane is with me, and says she loves me? Will she not depart
as suddenly as she came? To-morrow, I fear I shall find her no more.”</p>

<p>A commonplace, practical reply, out of the train of his own disturbed
ideas, was, I was sure, the best and most reassuring for him in this
frame of mind. I passed my finger over his eyebrows, and remarked that
they were scorched, and that I would apply something which would make
them grow as broad and black as ever.</p>

<p>“Where is the use of doing me good in any way, beneficent spirit, when,
at some fatal moment, you will again desert me—passing like a shadow,
whither and how to me unknown, and for me remaining afterwards
undiscoverable?”</p>
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<p>“Have you a pocket-comb about you, sir?”</p>

<p>“What for, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Just to comb out this shaggy black mane. I find you rather alarming,
when I examine you close at hand: you talk of my being a fairy, but I
am sure, you are more like a brownie.”</p>

<p>“Am I hideous, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Very, sir: you always were, you know.”</p>

<p>“Humph! The wickedness has not been taken out of you, wherever you have
sojourned.”</p>

<p>“Yet I have been with good people; far better than you: a hundred times
better people; possessed of ideas and views you never entertained in
your life: quite more refined and exalted.”</p>

<p>“Who the deuce have you been with?”</p>

<p>“If you twist in that way you will make me pull the hair out of your
head; and then I think you will cease to entertain doubts of my
substantiality.”</p>

<p>“Who have you been with, Jane?”</p>

<p>“You shall not get it out of me to-night, sir; you must wait till
to-morrow; to leave my tale half told, will, you know, be a sort of
security that I shall appear at your breakfast table to finish it. By
the bye, I must mind 
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not to rise on your hearth with only a glass of
water then: I must bring an egg at the least, to say nothing of fried
ham.”</p>

<p>“You mocking changeling—fairy-born and human-bred! You make me feel as
I have not felt these twelve months. If Saul could have had you for his
David, the evil spirit would have been exorcised without the aid of the
harp.”</p>

<p>“There, sir, you are redd up and made decent. Now I’ll leave you: I
have been travelling these last three days, and I believe I am tired.
Good night.”</p>

<p>“Just one word, Jane: were there only ladies in the house where you
have been?”</p>

<p>I laughed and made my escape, still laughing as I ran upstairs. “A good
idea!” I thought with glee. “I see I have the means of fretting him out
of his melancholy for some time to come.”</p>

<p>Very early the next morning I heard him up and astir, wandering from
one room to another. As soon as Mary came down I heard the question:
“Is Miss Eyre here?” Then: “Which room did you put her into? Was it
dry? Is she up? Go and ask if she wants anything; and when she will
come down.”</p>
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<p>I came down as soon as I thought there was a prospect of breakfast.
Entering the room very softly, I had a view of him before he discovered
my presence. It was mournful, indeed, to witness the subjugation of
that vigorous spirit to a corporeal infirmity. He sat in his
chair—still, but not at rest: expectant evidently; the lines of now
habitual sadness marking his strong features. His countenance reminded
one of a lamp quenched, waiting to be re-lit—and alas! it was not
himself that could now kindle the lustre of animated expression: he was
dependent on another for that office! I had meant to be gay and
careless, but the powerlessness of the strong man touched my heart to
the quick: still I accosted him with what vivacity I could.</p>

<p>“It is a bright, sunny morning, sir,” I said. “The rain is over and
gone, and there is a tender shining after it: you shall have a walk
soon.”</p>

<p>I had wakened the glow: his features beamed.</p>

<p>“Oh, you are indeed there, my skylark! Come to me. You are not gone:
not vanished? I heard one of your kind an hour ago, singing high over
the wood: but its song had no music for me, any more than the rising sun 
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had rays. All the melody on earth is concentrated in my Jane’s
tongue to my ear (I am glad it is not naturally a silent one): all the
sunshine I can feel is in her presence.”</p>

<p>The water stood in my eyes to hear this avowal of his dependence; just
as if a royal eagle, chained to a perch, should be forced to entreat a
sparrow to become its purveyor. But I would not be lachrymose: I dashed
off the salt drops, and busied myself with preparing breakfast.</p>

<p>Most of the morning was spent in the open air. I led him out of the wet
and wild wood into some cheerful fields: I described to him how
brilliantly green they were; how the flowers and hedges looked
refreshed; how sparklingly blue was the sky. I sought a seat for him in
a hidden and lovely spot, a dry stump of a tree; nor did I refuse to
let him, when seated, place me on his knee. Why should I, when both he
and I were happier near than apart? Pilot lay beside us: all was quiet.
He broke out suddenly while clasping me in his arms—</p>

<p>“Cruel, cruel deserter! Oh, Jane, what did I feel when I discovered you
had fled from Thornfield, and when I could nowhere 
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find you; and, after
examining your apartment, ascertained that you had taken no money, nor
anything which could serve as an equivalent! A pearl necklace I had
given you lay untouched in its little casket; your trunks were left
corded and locked as they had been prepared for the bridal tour. What
could my darling do, I asked, left destitute and penniless? And what
did she do? Let me hear now.”</p>

<p>Thus urged, I began the narrative of my experience for the last year. I
softened considerably what related to the three days of wandering and
starvation, because to have told him all would have been to inflict
unnecessary pain: the little I did say lacerated his faithful heart
deeper than I wished.</p>

<p>I should not have left him thus, he said, without any means of making
my way: I should have told him my intention. I should have confided in
him: he would never have forced me to be his mistress. Violent as he
had seemed in his despair, he, in truth, loved me far too well and too
tenderly to constitute himself my tyrant: he would have given me half
his fortune, without demanding so much as a kiss in return, rather than
I should have flung myself friendless on the wide world. I 
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had endured, he was certain, more than I had confessed to him.</p>

<p>“Well, whatever my sufferings had been, they were very short,” I
answered: and then I proceeded to tell him how I had been received at
Moor House; how I had obtained the office of schoolmistress, &amp;c. The
accession of fortune, the discovery of my relations, followed in due
order. Of course, St. John Rivers’ name came in frequently in the
progress of my tale. When I had done, that name was immediately taken
up.</p>

<p>“This St. John, then, is your cousin?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“You have spoken of him often: do you like him?”</p>

<p>“He was a very good man, sir; I could not help liking him.”</p>

<p>“A good man. Does that mean a respectable well-conducted man of fifty?
Or what does it mean?”</p>

<p>“St John was only twenty-nine, sir.”</p>

<p>“‘<hi rend="italic">Jeune encore</hi>,’ as the French say. Is he a person of low stature,
phlegmatic, and plain? A person whose goodness consists rather in his
guiltlessness of vice, than in his prowess in virtue.”</p>
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<p>“He is untiringly active. Great and exalted deeds are what he lives to
perform.”</p>

<p>“But his brain? That is probably rather soft? He means well: but you
shrug your shoulders to hear him talk?”</p>

<p>“He talks little, sir: what he does say is ever to the point. His brain
is first-rate, I should think not impressible, but vigorous.”</p>

<p>“Is he an able man, then?”</p>

<p>“Truly able.”</p>

<p>“A thoroughly educated man?”</p>

<p>“St. John is an accomplished and profound scholar.”</p>

<p>“His manners, I think, you said are not to your taste?—priggish and
parsonic?”</p>

<p>“I never mentioned his manners; but, unless I had a very bad taste,
they must suit it; they are polished, calm, and gentlemanlike.”</p>

<p>“His appearance,—I forget what description you gave of his
appearance;—a sort of raw curate, half strangled with his white
neckcloth, and stilted up on his thick-soled high-lows, eh?”</p>

<p>“St. John dresses well. He is a handsome man: tall, fair, with blue
eyes, and a Grecian profile.”</p>

<p>(<hi rend="italic">Aside</hi>.) “Damn him!”—(<hi rend="italic">To me</hi>.) “Did you like him, Jane?”
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“Yes, Mr. Rochester, I liked him: but you asked me that before.”</p>

<p>I perceived, of course, the drift of my interlocutor. Jealousy had got
hold of him: she stung him; but the sting was salutary: it gave him
respite from the gnawing fang of melancholy. I would not, therefore,
immediately charm the snake.</p>

<p>“Perhaps you would rather not sit any longer on my knee, Miss Eyre?”
was the next somewhat unexpected observation.</p>

<p>“Why not, Mr. Rochester?”</p>

<p>“The picture you have just drawn is suggestive of a rather too
overwhelming contrast. Your words have delineated very prettily a
graceful Apollo: he is present to your imagination,—tall, fair,
blue-eyed, and with a Grecian profile. Your eyes dwell on a Vulcan,—a
real blacksmith, brown, broad-shouldered: and blind and lame into the
bargain.”</p>

<p>“I never thought of it, before; but you certainly are rather like
Vulcan, sir.”</p>

<p>“Well, you can leave me, ma’am: but before you go” (and he retained me
by a firmer grasp than ever), “you will be pleased just to answer me a
question or two.” He paused.</p>

<p>“What questions, Mr. Rochester?”
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Then followed this cross-examination.</p>

<p>“St. John made you schoolmistress of Morton before he knew you were his
cousin?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>“You would often see him? He would visit the school sometimes?”</p>

<p>“Daily.”</p>

<p>“He would approve of your plans, Jane? I know they would be clever, for
you are a talented creature!”</p>

<p>“He approved of them—yes.”</p>

<p>“He would discover many things in you he could not have expected to
find? Some of your accomplishments are not ordinary.”</p>

<p>“I don’t know about that.”</p>

<p>“You had a little cottage near the school, you say: did he ever come
there to see you?”</p>

<p>“Now and then.”</p>

<p>“Of an evening?”</p>

<p>“Once or twice.”</p>

<p>A pause.</p>

<p>“How long did you reside with him and his sisters after the cousinship
was discovered?”</p>

<p>“Five months.”</p>

<p>“Did Rivers spend much time with the ladies of his family?”
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“Yes; the back parlour was both his study and ours: he sat near the
window, and we by the table.”</p>

<p>“Did he study much?”</p>

<p>“A good deal.”</p>

<p>“What?”</p>

<p>“Hindostanee.”</p>

<p>“And what did you do meantime?”</p>

<p>“I learnt German, at first.”</p>

<p>“Did he teach you?”</p>

<p>“He did not understand German.”</p>

<p>“Did he teach you nothing?”</p>

<p>“A little Hindostanee.”</p>

<p>“Rivers taught you Hindostanee?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“And his sisters also?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“Only you?”</p>

<p>“Only me.”</p>

<p>“Did you ask to learn?”</p>

<p>“No.”</p>

<p>“He wished to teach you?”</p>

<p>“Yes.”</p>

<p>A second pause.</p>

<p>“Why did he wish it? Of what use could Hindostanee be to you?”</p>

<p>“He intended me to go with him to India.”</p>
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<p>“Ah! here I reach the root of the matter. He wanted you to marry him?”</p>

<p>“He asked me to marry him.”</p>

<p>“That is a fiction—an impudent invention to vex me.”</p>

<p>“I beg your pardon, it is the literal truth: he asked me more than
once, and was as stiff about urging his point as ever you could be.”</p>

<p>“Miss Eyre, I repeat it, you can leave me. How often am I to say the
same thing? Why do you remain pertinaciously perched on my knee, when I
have given you notice to quit?”</p>

<p>“Because I am comfortable there.”</p>

<p>“No, Jane, you are not comfortable there, because your heart is not
with me: it is with this cousin—this St. John. Oh, till this moment, I
thought my little Jane was all mine! I had a belief she loved me even
when she left me: that was an atom of sweet in much bitter. Long as we
have been parted, hot tears as I have wept over our separation, I never
thought that while I was mourning her, she was loving another! But it
is useless grieving. Jane, leave me: go and marry Rivers.”</p>

<p>“Shake me off, then, sir,—push me away, for I’ll not leave you of my
own accord.”</p>

<p>“Jane, I ever like your tone of voice: it still renews hope, it sounds
so truthful. When 
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I hear it, it carries me back a year. I forget that
you have formed a new tie. But I am not a fool—go—”</p>

<p>“Where must I go, sir?”</p>

<p>“Your own way—with the husband you have chosen.”</p>

<p>“Who is that?”</p>

<p>“You know—this St. John Rivers.”</p>

<p>“He is not my husband, nor ever will be. He does not love me: I do not
love him. He loves (as he <hi rend="italic">can</hi> love, and that is not as you love) a
beautiful young lady called Rosamond. He wanted to marry me only
because he thought I should make a suitable missionary’s wife, which
she would not have done. He is good and great, but severe; and, for me,
cold as an iceberg. He is not like you, sir: I am not happy at his
side, nor near him, nor with him. He has no indulgence for me—no
fondness. He sees nothing attractive in me; not even youth—only a few
useful mental points.—Then I must leave you, sir, to go to him?”</p>

<p>I shuddered involuntarily, and clung instinctively closer to my blind
but beloved master. He smiled.</p>

<p>“What, Jane! Is this true? Is such really the state of matters between
you and Rivers?”</p>
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<p>“Absolutely, sir! Oh, you need not be jealous! I wanted to tease you a
little to make you less sad: I thought anger would be better than
grief. But if you wish me to love you, could you but see how much I
<hi rend="italic">do</hi> love you, you would be proud and content. All my heart is yours,
sir: it belongs to you; and with you it would remain, were fate to
exile the rest of me from your presence for ever.”</p>

<p>Again, as he kissed me, painful thoughts darkened his aspect.</p>

<p>“My seared vision! My crippled strength!” he murmured regretfully.</p>

<p>I caressed, in order to soothe him. I knew of what he was thinking, and
wanted to speak for him, but dared not. As he turned aside his face a
minute, I saw a tear slide from under the sealed eyelid, and trickle
down the manly cheek. My heart swelled.</p>

<p>“I am no better than the old lightning-struck chestnut-tree in
Thornfield orchard,” he remarked ere long. “And what right would that
ruin have to bid a budding woodbine cover its decay with freshness?”</p>

<p>“You are no ruin, sir—no lightning-struck tree: you are green and
vigorous. Plants will grow about your roots, whether you ask them or
not, because they take delight in your
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bountiful shadow; and as they
grow they will lean towards you, and wind round you, because your
strength offers them so safe a prop.”</p>

<p>Again he smiled: I gave him comfort.</p>

<p>“You speak of friends, Jane?” he asked.</p>

<p>“Yes, of friends,” I answered rather hesitatingly: for I knew I meant
more than friends, but could not tell what other word to employ. He
helped me.</p>

<p>“Ah! Jane. But I want a wife.”</p>

<p>“Do you, sir?”</p>

<p>“Yes: is it news to you?”</p>

<p>“Of course: you said nothing about it before.”</p>

<p>“Is it unwelcome news?”</p>

<p>“That depends on circumstances, sir—on your choice.”</p>

<p>“Which you shall make for me, Jane. I will abide by your decision.”</p>

<p>“Choose then, sir—<hi rend="italic">her who loves you best</hi>.”</p>

<p>“I will at least choose—<hi rend="italic">her I love best</hi>. Jane, will you marry me?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“A poor blind man, whom you will have to lead about by the hand?”</p>

<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“A crippled man, twenty years older than you, whom you will have to
wait on?”</p>
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<p>“Yes, sir.”</p>

<p>“Truly, Jane?”</p>

<p>“Most truly, sir.”</p>

<p>“Oh! my darling! God bless you and reward you!”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, if ever I did a good deed in my life—if ever I thought
a good thought—if ever I prayed a sincere and blameless prayer—if ever
I wished a righteous wish,—I am rewarded now. To be your wife is, for
me, to be as happy as I can be on earth.”</p>

<p>“Because you delight in sacrifice.”</p>

<p>“Sacrifice! What do I sacrifice? Famine for food, expectation for
content. To be privileged to put my arms round what I value—to press my
lips to what I love—to repose on what I trust: is that to make a
sacrifice? If so, then certainly I delight in sacrifice.”</p>

<p>“And to bear with my infirmities, Jane: to overlook my deficiencies.”</p>

<p>“Which are none, sir, to me. I love you better now, when I can really
be useful to you, than I did in your state of proud independence, when
you disdained every part but that of the giver and protector.”</p>

<p>“Hitherto I have hated to be helped—to be led: henceforth, I feel I
shall hate it no more. I did not like to put my hand into a hireling’s,
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but it is pleasant to feel it circled by Jane’s little fingers. I
preferred utter loneliness to the constant attendance of servants; but
Jane’s soft ministry will be a perpetual joy. Jane suits me: do I suit
her?”</p>

<p>“To the finest fibre of my nature, sir.”</p>

<p>“The case being so, we have nothing in the world to wait for: we must
be married instantly.”</p>

<p>He looked and spoke with eagerness: his old impetuosity was rising.</p>

<p>“We must become one flesh without any delay, Jane: there is but the
licence to get—then we marry.”</p>

<p>“Mr. Rochester, I have just discovered the sun is far declined from its
meridian, and Pilot is actually gone home to his dinner. Let me look at
your watch.”</p>

<p>“Fasten it into your girdle, Janet, and keep it henceforward: I have no
use for it.”</p>

<p>“It is nearly four o’clock in the afternoon, sir. Don’t you feel
hungry?”</p>

<p>“The third day from this must be our wedding-day, Jane. Never mind fine
clothes and jewels, now: all that is not worth a fillip.”</p>

<p>“The sun has dried up all the rain-drops, sir. The breeze is still: it
is quite hot.”</p>
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<p>“Do you know, Jane, I have your little pearl necklace at this moment
fastened round my bronze scrag under my cravat? I have worn it since
the day I lost my only treasure, as a memento of her.”</p>

<p>“We will go home through the wood: that will be the shadiest way.”</p>

<p>He pursued his own thoughts without heeding me.</p>

<p>“Jane! you think me, I daresay, an irreligious dog: but my heart swells
with gratitude to the beneficent God of this earth just now. He sees
not as man sees, but far clearer: judges not as man judges, but far
more wisely. I did wrong: I would have sullied my innocent
flower—breathed guilt on its purity: the Omnipotent snatched it from
me. I, in my stiff-necked rebellion, almost cursed the dispensation:
instead of bending to the decree, I defied it. Divine justice pursued
its course; disasters came thick on me: I was forced to pass through
the valley of the shadow of death. <hi rend="italic">His</hi> chastisements are mighty; and
one smote me which has humbled me for ever. You know I was proud of my
strength: but what is it now, when I must give it over to foreign
guidance, as a child does its weakness? Of late, Jane—only—only of
late—I began to see 
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and acknowledge the hand of God in my doom. I began
to experience remorse, repentance; the wish for reconcilement to my
Maker. I began sometimes to pray: very brief prayers they were, but
very sincere.</p>

<p>“Some days since: nay, I can number them—four; it was last Monday
night, a singular mood came over me: one in which grief replaced
frenzy—sorrow, sullenness. I had long had the impression that since I
could nowhere find you, you must be dead. Late that night—perhaps it
might be between eleven and twelve o’clock—ere I retired to my dreary
rest, I supplicated God, that, if it seemed good to Him, I might soon
be taken from this life, and admitted to that world to come, where
there was still hope of rejoining Jane.</p>

<p>“I was in my own room, and sitting by the window, which was open: it
soothed me to feel the balmy night-air; though I could see no stars and
only by a vague, luminous haze, knew the presence of a moon. I longed
for thee, Janet! Oh, I longed for thee both with soul and flesh! I
asked of God, at once in anguish and humility, if I had not been long
enough desolate, afflicted, tormented; and might not soon taste bliss
and peace once 
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more. That I merited all I endured, I acknowledged—that
I could scarcely endure more, I pleaded; and the alpha and omega of my
heart’s wishes broke involuntarily from my lips in the words—‘Jane!
Jane! Jane!’”</p>

<p>“Did you speak these words aloud?”</p>

<p>“I did, Jane. If any listener had heard me, he would have thought me
mad: I pronounced them with such frantic energy.”</p>

<p>“And it was last Monday night, somewhere near midnight?”</p>

<p>“Yes; but the time is of no consequence: what followed is the strange
point. You will think me superstitious,—some superstition I have in my
blood, and always had: nevertheless, this is true—true at least it is
that I heard what I now relate.</p>

<p>“As I exclaimed ‘Jane! Jane! Jane!’ a voice—I cannot tell whence the
voice came, but I know whose voice it was—replied, ‘I am coming: wait
for me;’ and a moment after, went whispering on the wind the
words—‘Where are you?’</p>

<p>“I’ll tell you, if I can, the idea, the picture these words opened to
my mind: yet it is difficult to express what I want to express.
Ferndean is buried, as you see, in a heavy wood, where sound falls
dull, and dies 
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unreverberating. ‘Where are you?’ seemed spoken amongst
mountains; for I heard a hill-sent echo repeat the words. Cooler and
fresher at the moment the gale seemed to visit my brow: I could have
deemed that in some wild, lone scene, I and Jane were meeting. In
spirit, I believe we must have met. You no doubt were, at that hour, in
unconscious sleep, Jane: perhaps your soul wandered from its cell to
comfort mine; for those were your accents—as certain as I live—they
were yours!”</p>

<p>Reader, it was on Monday night—near midnight—that I too had received
the mysterious summons: those were the very words by which I replied to
it. I listened to Mr. Rochester’s narrative, but made no disclosure in
return. The coincidence struck me as too awful and inexplicable to be
communicated or discussed. If I told anything, my tale would be such as
must necessarily make a profound impression on the mind of my hearer:
and that mind, yet from its sufferings too prone to gloom, needed not
the deeper shade of the supernatural. I kept these things then, and
pondered them in my heart.</p>

<p>“You cannot now wonder,” continued my master, “that when you rose upon
me so 
<pb n="III.302" facs="pageImages/III.302.png"/>    
unexpectedly last night, I had difficulty in believing you any
other than a mere voice and vision, something that would melt to
silence and annihilation, as the midnight whisper and mountain echo had
melted before. Now, I thank God! I know it to be otherwise. Yes, I
thank God!”</p>

<p>He put me off his knee, rose, and reverently lifting his hat from his
brow, and bending his sightless eyes to the earth, he stood in mute
devotion. Only the last words of the worship were audible.</p>

<p>“I thank my Maker, that, in the midst of judgment, he has remembered
mercy. I humbly entreat my Redeemer to give me strength to lead
henceforth a purer life than I have done hitherto!”</p>

<p>Then he stretched his hand out to be led. I took that dear hand, held
it a moment to my lips, then let it pass round my shoulder: being so
much lower of stature than he, I served both for his prop and guide. We
entered the wood, and wended homeward.</p>
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                            <head>CHAPTER XII-CONCLUSION.</head>
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<p>Reader, I married him. A quiet wedding we had: he and I, the parson and
clerk, were alone present. When we got back from church, I went into
the kitchen of the manor-house, where Mary was cooking the dinner and
John cleaning the knives, and I said—</p>

<p>“Mary, I have been married to Mr. Rochester this morning.” The
housekeeper and her husband were both of that decent phlegmatic order
of people, to whom one may at any time safely communicate a remarkable
piece of news without incurring the danger of having one’s ears pierced
by some shrill ejaculation, and subsequently stunned by a torrent of
wordy wonderment. Mary did look up, and she did stare at me: the ladle
with which she was basting a pair of chickens roasting at 
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the fire, did
for some three minutes hang suspended in air; and for the same space of
time John’s knives also had rest from the polishing process: but Mary,
bending again over the roast, said only—</p>

<p>“Have you, Miss? Well, for sure!”</p>

<p>A short time after she pursued—“I seed you go out with the master, but
I didn’t know you were gone to church to be wed;” and she basted away.
John, when I turned to him, was grinning from ear to ear.</p>

<p>“I telled Mary how it would be,” he said: “I knew what Mr. Edward”
(John was an old servant, and had known his master when he was the
cadet of the house, therefore, he often gave him his Christian name)—“I
knew what Mr. Edward would do; and I was certain he would not wait long
neither: and he’s done right, for aught I know. I wish you joy, Miss!”
and he politely pulled his forelock.</p>

<p>“Thank you, John. Mr. Rochester told me to give you and Mary this.” I
put into his hand a five-pound note. Without waiting to hear more, I
left the kitchen. In passing the door of that sanctum some time after,
I caught the words—</p>

<p>“She’ll happen do better for him nor ony o’ t’ grand ladies.” And
again, “If she ben’t 
<pb n="III.305" facs="pageImages/III.305.png"/>    
one o’ th’ handsomest, she’s noan faâl and varry
good-natured; and i’ his een she’s fair beautiful, onybody may see
that.”</p>

<p>I wrote to Moor House and to Cambridge immediately, to say what I had
done: fully explaining also why I had thus acted. Diana and Mary
approved the step unreservedly. Diana announced that she would just
give me time to get over the honeymoon, and then she would come and see
me.</p>

<p>“She had better not wait till then, Jane,” said Mr. Rochester, when I
read her letter to him; “if she does, she will be too late, for our
honeymoon will shine our life long: its beams will only fade over your
grave or mine.”</p>

<p>How St. John received the news, I don’t know: he never answered the
letter in which I communicated it: yet six months after he wrote to me,
without, however, mentioning Mr. Rochester’s name or alluding to my
marriage. His letter was then calm, and, though very serious, kind. He
has maintained a regular, though not frequent, correspondence ever
since: he hopes I am happy, and trusts I am not of those who live
without God in the world, and only mind earthly things.</p>

<p>You have not quite forgotten little Adèle, have you, reader? I had not;
I soon asked 
<pb n="III.306" facs="pageImages/III.306.png"/>    
and obtained leave of Mr. Rochester, to go and see her at
the school where he had placed her. Her frantic joy at beholding me
again moved me much. She looked pale and thin: she said she was not
happy. I found the rules of the establishment were too strict, its
course of study too severe for a child of her age: I took her home with
me. I meant to become her governess once more, but I soon found this
impracticable; my time and cares were now required by another—my
husband needed them all. So I sought out a school conducted on a more
indulgent system, and near enough to permit of my visiting her often,
and bringing her home sometimes. I took care she should never want for
anything that could contribute to her comfort: she soon settled in her
new abode, became very happy there, and made fair progress in her
studies. As she grew up, a sound English education corrected in a great
measure her French defects; and when she left school, I found in her a
pleasing and obliging companion: docile, good-tempered, and
well-principled. By her grateful attention to me and mine, she has long
since well repaid any little kindness I ever had it in my power to
offer her.</p>

<p>My tale draws to its close: one word respecting 
<pb n="III.307" facs="pageImages/III.307.png"/>    
my experience of 
married life, and one brief glance at the fortunes of those whose names
have most frequently recurred in this narrative, and I have done.</p>

<p>I have now been married ten years. I know what it is to live entirely
for and with what I love best on earth. I hold myself supremely
blest—blest beyond what language can express; because I am my husband’s
life as fully as he is mine. No woman was ever nearer to her mate than
I am: ever more absolutely bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh. I
know no weariness of my Edward’s society: he knows none of mine, any
more than we each do of the pulsation of the heart that beats in our
separate bosoms; consequently, we are ever together. To be together is
for us to be at once as free as in solitude, as gay as in company. We
talk, I believe, all day long: to talk to each other is but a more
animated and an audible thinking. All my confidence is bestowed on him,
all his confidence is devoted to me; we are precisely suited in
character—perfect concord is the result.</p>

<p>Mr. Rochester continued blind the first two years of our union; perhaps
it was that circumstance that drew us so very near—that knit us so very
close: for I was then his vision, as I am 
<pb n="III.308" facs="pageImages/III.308.png"/>    
still his right hand.
Literally, I was (what he often called me) the apple of his eye. He saw
nature—he saw books through me; and never did I weary of gazing for his
behalf, and of putting into words the effect of field, tree, town,
river, cloud, sunbeam—of the landscape before us; of the weather round
us—and impressing by sound on his ear what light could no longer stamp
on his eye. Never did I weary of reading to him; never did I weary of
conducting him where he wished to go: of doing for him what he wished
to be done. And there was a pleasure in my services, most full, most
exquisite, even though sad—because he claimed these services without
painful shame or damping humiliation. He loved me so truly, that he
knew no reluctance in profiting by my attendance: he felt I loved him
so fondly, that to yield that attendance was to indulge my sweetest
wishes.</p>

<p>One morning at the end of the two years, as I was writing a letter to
his dictation, he came and bent over me, and said—“Jane, have you a
glittering ornament round your neck?”</p>

<p>I had a gold watch-chain: I answered “Yes.”</p>

<p>“And have you a pale blue dress on?”</p>

<p>I had. He informed me then, that for some 
<pb n="III.309" facs="pageImages/III.309.png"/>    
time he had fancied the
obscurity clouding one eye was becoming less dense; and that now he was
sure of it.</p>

<p>He and I went up to London. He had the advice of an eminent oculist;
and he eventually recovered the sight of that one eye. He cannot now
see very distinctly: he cannot read or write much; but he can find his
way without being led by the hand: the sky is no longer a blank to
him—the earth no longer a void. When his first-born was put into his
arms, he could see that the boy had inherited his own eyes, as they
once were—large, brilliant, and black. On that occasion, he again, with
a full heart, acknowledged that God had tempered judgment with mercy.</p>

<p>My Edward and I, then, are happy: and the more so, because those we
most love are happy likewise. Diana and Mary Rivers are both married:
alternately, once every year, they come to see us, and we go to see
them. Diana’s husband is a captain in the navy, a gallant officer and a
good man. Mary’s is a clergyman, a college friend of her brother’s,
and, from his attainments and principles, worthy of the connection.
Both Captain Fitzjames and Mr. Wharton love their wives, and are loved
by them.</p>
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<p>As to St. John Rivers, he left England: he went to India. He entered on
the path he had marked for himself; he pursues it still. A more
resolute, indefatigable pioneer never wrought amidst rocks and dangers.
Firm, faithful, and devoted, full of energy, and zeal, and truth, he
labours for his race; he clears their painful way to improvement; he
hews down like a giant the prejudices of creed and caste that encumber
it. He may be stern; he may be exacting; he may be ambitious yet; but
his is the sternness of the warrior Greatheart, who guards his pilgrim
convoy from the onslaught of Apollyon. His is the exaction of the
apostle, who speaks but for Christ, when he says—“Whosoever will come
after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross and follow me.”
His is the ambition of the high master-spirit, which aims to fill a
place in the first rank of those who are redeemed from the earth—who
stand without fault before the throne of God, who share the last mighty
victories of the Lamb, who are called, and chosen, and faithful.</p>

<p>St. John is unmarried: he never will marry now. Himself has hitherto
sufficed to the toil, and the toil draws near its close: his glorious
sun hastens to its setting. The last 
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letter I received from him drew
from my eyes human tears, and yet filled my heart with divine joy: he
anticipated his sure reward, his incorruptible crown. I know that a
stranger’s hand will write to me next, to say that the good and
faithful servant has been called at length into the joy of his Lord.
And why weep for this? No fear of death will darken St. John’s last
hour: his mind will be unclouded, his heart will be undaunted, his hope
will be sure, his faith steadfast. His own words are a pledge of this—</p>

<p>“My Master,” he says, “has forewarned me. Daily He announces more
distinctly,—‘Surely I come quickly!’ and hourly I more eagerly
respond,—‘Amen; even so come, Lord Jesus!’”</p>



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    <head>I</head>

    <p>A green and yellow parrot, which hung in a cage outside the door, kept repeating over and
     over: </p>
    <p>
                                <hi rend="italic">"Allez vous-en! Allez vous-en! Sapristi!</hi> That's all right!" </p>
    <p>He could speak a little Spanish, and also a language which nobody understood, unless it was
     the mocking-bird that hung on the other side of the door, whistling his fluty notes out upon
     the breeze with maddening persistence. </p>
    <p>Mr. Pontellier, unable to read his newspaper with any degree of comfort, arose with an
     expression and an exclamation of disgust. He walked down the gallery and across the narrow
     "bridges" which connected the Lebrun cottages one with the other. He had been seated before the
     door of the main house. The parrot and the <pb n="2"/> mockingbird were the property of Madame
     Lebrun, and they had the right to make all the noise they wished. Mr. Pontellier had the
     privilege of quitting their society when they ceased to be entertaining. </p>
    <p>He stopped before the door of his own cottage, which was the fourth one from the main
     building and next to the last. Seating himself in a wicker rocker which was there, he once more
     applied himself to the task of reading the newspaper. The day was Sunday; the paper was a day
     old. The Sunday papers had not yet reached <placeName type="tgn" key="2358323">Grand Isle</placeName>. He was already acquainted with the
     market reports, and he glanced restlessly over the editorials and bits of news which he had not
     had time to read before quitting <placeName type="tgn" key="7014214">New Orleans</placeName> the day before. </p>
    <p>Mr. Pontellier wore eye-glasses. He was a man of forty, of medium height and rather slender
     build; he stooped a little. His hair was brown and straight, parted on one side. His beard was
     neatly and closely trimmed. </p>
    <p>Once in a while he withdrew his glance from the newspaper and looked about him. <pb n="3"/>
     There was more noise than ever over at the house. The main building was called "the house," to
     distinguish it from the cottages. The chattering and whistling birds were still at it. Two
     young girls, the Farival twins, were playing a duet from "Zampa" upon the piano. Madame Lebrun
     was bustling in and out, giving orders in a high key to a yard-boy whenever she got inside the
     house, and directions in an equally high voice to a dining-room servant whenever she got
     outside. She was a fresh, pretty woman, clad always in white with elbow sleeves. Her starched
     skirts crinkled as she came and went. Farther down, before one of the cottages, a lady in black
     was walking demurely up and down, telling her beads. A good many persons of the <hi rend="italic">pension</hi>had gone over to the <hi rend="italic">Cheniere Caminada</hi> in
     Beaudelet's lugger to hear mass. Some young people were out under the water-oaks playing
     croquet. Mr. Pontellier's two children were there sturdy little fellows of four and five. A
     quadroon nurse followed them about with a faraway, meditative air. <pb n="4"/>
    </p>
    <p>Mr. Pontellier finally lit a cigar and began to smoke, letting the paper drag idly from his
     hand. He fixed his gaze upon a white sunshade that was advancing at snail's pace from the
     beach. He could see it plainly between the gaunt trunks of the water-oaks and across the
     stretch of yellow camomile. The gulf looked far away, melting hazily into the blue of the
     horizon. The sunshade continued to approach slowly. Beneath its pink-lined shelter were his
     wife, Mrs. Pontellier, and young Robert Lebrun. When they reached the cottage, the two seated
     themselves with some appearance of fatigue upon the upper step of the porch, facing each other,
     each leaning against a supporting post. </p>
    <p>"What folly! to bathe at such an hour in such heat!" exclaimed Mr. Pontellier. He himself had
     taken a plunge at daylight. That was why the morning seemed long to him. </p>
    <p>"You are burnt beyond recognition," he added, looking at his wife as one looks at a valuable
     piece of personal property which has suffered some damage. She held up <pb n="5"/> her hands,
     strong, shapely hands, and surveyed them critically, drawing up her fawn sleeves above the
     wrists. Looking at them reminded her of her rings, which she had given to her husband before
     leaving for the beach. She silently reached out to him, and he, understanding, took the rings
     from his vest pocket and dropped them into her open palm. She slipped them upon her fingers;
     then clasping her knees, she looked across at Robert and began to laugh. The rings sparkled
     upon her fingers. He sent back an answering smile. </p>
    <p>"What is it?" asked Pontellier, looking lazily and amused from one to the other. It was some
     utter nonsense; some adventure out there in the water, and they both tried to relate it at
     once. It did not seem half so amusing when told. They realized this, and so did Mr. Pontellier.
     He yawned and stretched himself. Then he got up, saying he had half a mind to go over to
     Klein's hotel and play a game of billiards. </p>
    <p>"Come go along, Lebrun," he proposed to Robert. But Robert admitted quite frankly <pb n="6"/>
     that he preferred to stay where he was and talk to Mrs. Pontellier. </p>
    <p>"Well, send him about his business when he bores you, Edna," instructed her husband as he
     prepared to leave. </p>
    <p>"Here, take the umbrella," she exclaimed, holding it out to him. He accepted the sunshade,
     and lifting it over his head descended the steps and walked away. </p>
    <p>"Coming back to dinner?" his wife called after him. He halted a moment and shrugged his
     shoulders. He felt in his vest pocket; there was a ten-dollar bill there. He did not know;
     perhaps he would return for the early dinner and perhaps he would not. It all depended upon the
     company which he found over at Klein's and the size of "the game." He did not say this, but she
     understood it, and laughed, nodding good-by to him. </p>
    <p>Both children wanted to follow their father when they saw him starting out. He kissed them
     and promised to bring them back bonbons and peanuts.</p>


    <pb n="7"/>

   </div>
   <div type="chapter" n="2">
    <head>II</head>

    <p>Mrs. Pontellier's eyes were quick and bright; they were a yellowish brown, about the color of
     her hair. She had a way of turning them swiftly upon an object and holding them there as if
     lost in some inward maze of contemplation or thought. </p>
    <p>Her eyebrows were a shade darker than her hair. They were thick and almost horizontal,
     emphasizing the depth of her eyes. She was rather handsome than beautiful. Her face was
     captivating by reason of a certain frankness of expression and a contradictory subtle play of
     features. Her manner was engaging. </p>
    <p>Robert rolled a cigarette. He smoked cigarettes because he could not afford cigars, he said.
     He had a cigar in his pocket which Mr. Pontellier had presented him with, and he was saving it
     for his after-dinner smoke. </p>
    <p>This seemed quite proper and natural on <pb n="8"/> his part. In coloring he was not unlike
     his companion. A clean-shaved face made the resemblance more pronounced than it would otherwise
     have been. There rested no shadow of care upon his open countenance. His eyes gathered in and
     reflected the light and languor of the summer day. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier reached over for a palm-leaf fan that lay on the porch and began to fan
     herself, while Robert sent between his lips light puffs from his cigarette. They chatted
     incessantly: about the things around them; their amusing adventure out in the water--it had
     again assumed its entertaining aspect; about the wind, the trees, the people who had gone to
     the <hi rend="italic">Cheniere</hi>; about the children playing croquet under the oaks, and the
     Farival twins, who were now performing the overture to "The Poet and the Peasant." </p>
    <p>Robert talked a good deal about himself. He was very young, and did not know any better. Mrs.
     Pontellier talked a little about herself for the same reason. Each was interested in what the
     other said. Robert spoke of his intention to go to Mexico <pb n="9"/> in the autumn, where
     fortune awaited him. He was always intending to go to Mexico, but some way never got there.
     Meanwhile he held on to his modest position in a mercantile house in <placeName type="tgn" key="7014214">New Orleans</placeName>, where an
     equal familiarity with English, French and Spanish gave him no small value as a clerk and
     correspondent. </p>
    <p>He was spending his summer vacation, as he always did, with his mother at <placeName type="tgn" key="2358323">Grand Isle</placeName>. In
     former times, before Robert could remember, "the house" had been a summer luxury of the
     Lebruns. Now, flanked by its dozen or more cottages, which were always filled with exclusive
     visitors from the <hi rend="italic">"Quartier Francais,"</hi> it enabled Madame Lebrun to
     maintain the easy and comfortable existence which appeared to be her birthright. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier talked about her father's <placeName type="tgn" key="7007522">Mississippi</placeName> plantation and her girlhood home in the
     old Kentucky bluegrass country. She was an American woman, with a small infusion of French
     which seemed to have been lost in dilution. She read a letter from her sister, who was away in
     the <pb n="10"/> East, and who had engaged herself to be married. Robert was interested, and
     wanted to know what manner of girls the sisters were, what the father was like, and how long
     the mother had been dead. </p>
    <p>When Mrs. Pontellier folded the letter it was time for her to dress for the early dinner. </p>
    <p>"I see Léonce isn't coming back," she said, with a glance in the direction whence her husband
     had disappeared. Robert supposed he was not, as there were a good many <placeName type="tgn" key="7014214">New Orleans</placeName> club men
     over at Klein's. </p>
    <p>When Mrs. Pontellier left him to enter her room, the young man descended the steps and
     strolled over toward the croquet players, where, during the half-hour before dinner, he amused
     himself with the little Pontellier children, who were very fond of him.</p>

    <pb n="11"/>


   </div>
   <div type="chapter" n="3">
    <head>III</head>

    <p>It was eleven o'clock that night when Mr. Pontellier returned from Klein's hotel. He was in
     an excellent humor, in high spirits, and very talkative. His entrance awoke his wife, who was
     in bed and fast asleep when he came in. He talked to her while he undressed, telling her
     anecdotes and bits of news and gossip that he had gathered during the day. From his trousers
     pockets he took a fistful of crumpled bank notes and a good deal of silver coin, which he piled
     on the bureau indiscriminately with keys, knife, handkerchief, and whatever else happened to be
     in his pockets. She was overcome with sleep, and answered him with little half utterances. </p>
    <p>He thought it very discouraging that his wife, who was the sole object of his existence,
     evinced so little interest in things which concerned him, and valued so little his
     conversation. <pb n="12"/>
    </p>
    <p>Mr. Pontellier had forgotten the bonbons and peanuts for the boys. Notwithstanding he loved
     them very much, and went into the adjoining room where they slept to take a look at them and
     make sure that they were resting comfortably. The result of his investigation was far from
     satisfactory. He turned and shifted the youngsters about in bed. One of them began to kick and
     talk about a basket full of crabs. </p>
    <p>Mr. Pontellier returned to his wife with the information that Raoul had a high fever and
     needed looking after. Then he lit a cigar and went and sat near the open door to smoke it. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier was quite sure Raoul had no fever. He had gone to bed perfectly well, she
     said, and nothing had ailed him all day. Mr. Pontellier was too well acquainted with fever
     symptoms to be mistaken. He assured her the child was consuming at that moment in the next
     room. </p>
    <p>He reproached his wife with her inattention, her habitual neglect of the children. If it was
     not a mother's place to look after children, whose on earth was it? He him <pb n="13"/> self
     had his hands full with his brokerage business. He could not be in two places at once; making a
     living for his family on the street, and staying at home to see that no harm befell them. He
     talked in a monotonous, insistent way. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier sprang out of bed and went into the next room. She soon came back and sat on
     the edge of the bed, leaning her head down on the pillow. She said nothing, and refused to
     answer her husband when he questioned her. When his cigar was smoked out he went to bed, and in
     half a minute he was fast asleep. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier was by that time thoroughly awake. She began to cry a little, and wiped her
     eyes on the sleeve of her <hi rend="italic">peignoir.</hi> Blowing out the candle, which her
     husband had left burning, she slipped her bare feet into a pair of satin <hi rend="italic">mules</hi> at the foot of the bed and went out on the porch, where she sat down in the wicker
     chair and began to rock gently to and fro. </p>
    <p>It was then past midnight. The cottages were all dark. A single faint light gleamed <pb n="14"/> out from the hallway of the house. There was no sound abroad except the hooting of an
     old owl in the top of a water-oak, and the everlasting voice of the sea, that was not uplifted
     at that soft hour. It broke like a mournful lullaby upon the night. </p>
    <p>The tears came so fast to Mrs. Pontellier's eyes that the damp sleeve of her <hi rend="italic">peignoir</hi>no longer served to dry them. She was holding the back of her chair
     with one hand; her loose sleeve had slipped almost to the shoulder of her uplifted arm.
     Turning, she thrust her face, steaming and wet, into the bend of her arm, and she went on
     crying there, not caring any longer to dry her face, her eyes, her arms. She could not have
     told why she was crying. Such experiences as the foregoing were not uncommon in her married
     life. They seemed never before to have weighed much against the abundance of her husband's
     kindness and a uniform devotion which had come to be tacit and self-understood. </p>
    <p>An indescribable oppression, which seemed to generate in some unfamiliar part of her
     consciousness, filled her whole being with a <pb n="15"/> vague anguish. It was like a shadow,
     like a mist passing across her soul's summer day. It was strange and unfamiliar; it was a mood.
     She did not sit there inwardly upbraiding her husband, lamenting at Fate, which had directed
     her footsteps to the path which they had taken. She was just having a good cry all to herself.
     The mosquitoes made merry over her, biting her firm, round arms and nipping at her bare
     insteps. </p>
    <p>The little stinging, buzzing imps succeeded in dispelling a mood which might have held her
     there in the darkness half a night longer. </p>
    <p>The following morning Mr. Pontellier was up in good time to take the rockaway which was to
     convey him to the steamer at the wharf. He was returning to the city to his business, and they
     would not see him again at the Island till the coming Saturday. He had regained his composure,
     which seemed to have been somewhat impaired the night before. He was eager to be gone, as he
     looked forward to a lively week in Carondelet Street. <pb n="16"/>
    </p>
    <p>Mr. Pontellier gave his wife half of the money which he had brought away from Klein's hotel
     the evening before. She liked money as well as most women, and, accepted it with no little
     satisfaction. </p>
    <p>"It will buy a handsome wedding present for Sister Janet!" she exclaimed, smoothing out the
     bills as she counted them one by one. </p>
    <p>"Oh! we'll treat Sister Janet better than that, my dear," he laughed, as he prepared to kiss
     her good-by. </p>
    <p>The boys were tumbling about, clinging to his legs, imploring that numerous things be brought
     back to them. Mr. Pontellier was a great favorite, and ladies, men, children, even nurses, were
     always on hand to say goodby to him. His wife stood smiling and waving, the boys shouting, as
     he disappeared in the old rockaway down the sandy road. </p>
    <p>A few days later a box arrived for Mrs. Pontellier from <placeName type="tgn" key="7014214">New Orleans</placeName>. It was from her husband.
     It was filled with <hi rend="italic">friandises,</hi>with luscious and toothsome bits--the
     finest <pb n="17"/> of fruits, <hi rend="italic">pates</hi>, a rare bottle or two, delicious
     syrups, and bonbons in abundance. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier was always very generous with the contents of such a box; she was quite used
     to receiving them when away from home. The <hi rend="italic">pates</hi>and fruit were brought
     to the dining-room; the bonbons were passed around. And the ladies, selecting with dainty and
     discriminating fingers and a little greedily, all declared that Mr. Pontellier was the best
     husband in the world. Mrs. Pontellier was forced to admit that she knew of none better.</p>

    <pb n="18"/>


   </div>
   <div type="chapter" n="4">
    <head>IV</head>

    <p>It would have been a difficult matter for Mr. Pontellier to define to his own satisfaction or
     any one else's wherein his wife failed in her duty toward their children. It was something
     which he felt rather than perceived, and he never voiced the feeling without subsequent regret
     and ample atonement. </p>
    <p>If one of the little Pontellier boys took a tumble whilst at play, he was not apt to rush
     crying to his mother's arms for comfort; he would more likely pick himself up, wipe the water
     out of his eves and the sand out of his mouth, and go on playing. Tots as they were, they
     pulled together and stood their ground in childish battles with doubled fists and uplifted
     voices, which usually prevailed against the other mother-tots. The quadroon nurse was looked
     upon as a huge encumbrance, only good to button up waists and panties and to brush and <pb n="19"/> part hair; since it seemed to be a law of society that hair must be parted and
     brushed. </p>
    <p>In short, Mrs. Pontellier was not a mother-woman. The mother-women seemed to prevail that
     summer at <placeName type="tgn" key="2358323">Grand Isle</placeName>. It was easy to know them, fluttering about with extended, protecting
     wings when any harm, real or imaginary, threatened their precious brood. They were women who
     idolized their children, worshiped their husbands, and esteemed it a holy privilege to efface
     themselves as individuals and grow wings as ministering angels. </p>
    <p>Many of them were delicious in the role; one of them was the embodiment of every womanly
     grace and charm. If her husband did not adore her, he was a brute, deserving of death by slow
     torture. Her name was Adèle Ratignolle. There are no words to describe her save the old ones
     that have served so often to picture the bygone heroine of romance and the fair lady of our
     dreams. There was nothing subtle or hidden about her charms; her beauty was all there, flaming
     and apparent: the <pb n="20"/> spun-gold hair that comb nor confining pin could restrain; the
     blue eyes that were like nothing but sapphires; two lips that pouted, that were so red one
     could only think of cherries or some other delicious crimson fruit in looking at them. She was
     growing a little stout, but it did not seem to detract an iota from the grace of every step,
     pose, gesture. One would not have wanted her white neck a mite less full or her beautiful arms
     more slender. Never were hands more exquisite than hers, and it was a joy to look at them when
     she threaded her needle or adjusted her gold thimble to her taper middle finger as she sewed
     away on the little night-drawers or fashioned a bodice or a bib. </p>
    <p>Madame Ratignolle was very fond of Mrs. Pontellier, and often she took her sewing and went
     over to sit with her in the afternoons. She was sitting there the afternoon of the day the box
     arrived from <placeName type="tgn" key="7014214">New Orleans</placeName>. She had possession of the rocker, and she was busily engaged in
     sewing upon a diminutive pair of night-drawers. </p>
    <p>She had brought the pattern of the draw <pb n="21"/> ers for Mrs. Pontellier to cut out--a
     marvel of construction, fashioned to enclose a baby's body so effectually that only two small
     eyes might look out from the garment, like an Eskimo's. They were designed for winter wear,
     when treacherous drafts came down chimneys and insidious currents of deadly cold found their
     way through key-holes. </p>
    <p>Mrs. Pontellier's mind was quite at rest concerning the present material needs of her
     children, and she could not see the use of anticipating and making winter night garments the
     subject of her summer meditations. But she did not want to appear unamiable and uninterested,
     so she had brought forth newspapers, which she spread upon the floor of the gallery, and under
     Madame Ratignolle's directions she had cut a pattern of the impervious garment. </p>
    <p>Robert was there, seated as he had been the Sunday before, and Mrs. Pontellier also occupied
     her former position on the upper step, leaning listlessly against the post. Beside her was a
     box of bonbons, which she held out at intervals to Madame Ratignolle. <pb n="22"/>
    </p>
    <p>That lady seemed at a loss to make a selection, but finally settled upon a stick of nougat,
     wondering if it were not too rich; whether it could possibly hurt her. Madame Ratignolle had
     been married seven years. About every two years she had a baby. At that time she had three
     babies, and was beginning to think of a fourth one. She was always talking about her
     "condition." Her "condition" was in no way apparent, and no one would have known a thing about
     it but for her persistence in making it the subject of conversation. </p>
    <p>Robert started to reassure her, asserting that he had known a lady who had subsisted upon
     nougat during the entire--but seeing the color mount into Mrs. Pontellier's face he checked
     himself and changed the subjec